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"You what ?!"

Hyunjin exclaimed, offended and absolutely outraged by what his own parents were suggesting. "I think it would be good for you honey" the queen tried to reason, knowing how stubborn their son could be. Hyunjin just laughed out of pure disbelief. "You must be joking!" He stared at his parents and when neither of them showed any signs of giving up the act, he went on "You want me to live in the village?!" 

"Only for a little while" the queen added hastily. Hyunjin's temper was getting worse by the second and now hanging on by its last thread. "And why the hell would I do that?!" The king scowled, looking a bit frustrated too. "Peasants use that kind of language Hyunjin, not princes" his voice was still eerily calm. Hyunjin was so close to throwing all caution to the wind and shouting every cuss word he could think of at his parents when the king spoke again and not even Hyunjin was stupid enough to speak over him. "You aren't ready to be a king, you haven't matured and I worry that you won't if you spend all your life in the castle. Therefore you will go live in the village in hopes that it would help you grow up, humble you and make you more compassionate"

There were so many things rushing through Hyunjin's head. He wouldn't! They can send him, the prince for fucks sake, to wander around the streets with peasants! He opened his mouth to argue with his father but was silenced by the finality in the king's words "That is final! You will be accompanied by one of my men to ensure your safety, you both will depart tomorrow and make your return in 2 months time" Hyunjin's jaw dropped at this. 2 months?! They were going to make him live in the filthy, disease-riddled town surrounded by peasants for 2 months?!

He wanted to argue but he knew that would only result in his father lengthening the time. He balled up his fists, taking a deep breath before asking "Am I dismissed?" His voice dripping with venom. He could tell that his mother was close to tears and on any other day this would have softened him up in an instant but not today. He felt so utterly betrayed and outcasted. The king simply nodded and Hyunjin left the room, stomping to his own.

They can't be serious. Surely they are just threatening him to "teach him a lesson". Furthermore, he didn't understand why he must go there anyway. How dare they say he wasn't matured?! He had always completed his duties with excellence and behaved in a prince-like manner around guests. More humble. Why should he be humble? He was the prince, he was to rule the land one day and it was hardly appropriate for a king to make friends with the peasants.

Hyunjin was still fuming by the time he laid in bed, after a luxurious bath. His silk clothes and fluffy blanket feeling soft against his skin, a soft lavender scent drifting from a candle nearby. He was so perfectly warm and comfortable sleep came almost instantly. He pushed his worries aside, choosing to believe that his parents surely wouldn't send him away. Surely they valued their son too much.

So they weren't joking, huh?

Hyunjin sulked and pouted the whole horse ride to the part of the village where he was to stay. He wasn't told much, only that he'd be staying with his aunt who apparently wasn't dirt poor. This was the only thing keeping Hyunjin sane, maybe it wouldn't be so awful there.

"It's so hot!" Hyunjin whined probably for the 18th time that day. Though it was getting late, the setting sun still beamed hot on them. Chan, one of the two men sent to go with Hyunjin to keep him safe, rolled his eyes, now clearly forcing patience into his voice "We're almost there prince " the last word being said with such forced politeness, it came off as mocking. Chan was probably the only person, other than his parents, who Hyunjin allowed to speak to him in this manner. Chan's father had been the king's favorite soldier so their entire family had lived in the castle and since Hyunjin never had any siblings Chan became kind of an older brother to him. Always taking care of him and trying his best to keep the younger out of trouble. After Chan's father passed away he had taken on his father's job as one of the king's men.

The other guard sent with him however, he couldn't stand. He had disliked Han Jisung since the first day they met. The feeling seemed to be mutual to the point where the two couldn't even hold a conversation without starting a fight. Chan knew of this and would often have to break up their fights. Hyunjin had no idea why was Jisung sent to go with him but he surely would never need his help or protection.

Hyunjin was already miserable. He watched as people tried to sell fruit and vegetables in small stands, other's who were working in the fields, all of them looking dirty and poor. He didn't like the feeling watching the people gave him, though he couldn't pinpoint exactly what that feeling was. He just knew he didn't want to spend 2 months in here.

Luckily they ventured a little further from the village to a more rural area. There were a lot of fields full of workers. How could they work in this excruciating heat?! Hyunjin swore to himself that no matter what his parents said, he would never agree to work like that.

Once they arrived at the house Hyunjin was disappointed, to say the least. The house wasn't like what he saw in the village, it was much larger and nicer but it was no castle. Chan noticed the displeased look on the prince's face, though he had known Hyunjin wouldn't like it he had still hoped that the prince would've had enough shame to at least hide it. "Could you at least try to hide the disgust showing on your face?" He sighed, hoping Hyunjin would for once listen to him. Luck clearly wasn't on his side today as Hyunjin scoffed, walking towards the house with the same sour face as before.

The paint on the porch had worn off slightly, it looked old. His aunt clearly wasn't that bothered to keep her house looking good. Hyunjin had never met his aunt as they didn't have much contact with his mother's side of the family. Everything about the house screamed old and worn. He just hoped it would at least be clean on the inside.

After a few firm knocks on the door he was let in by someone, probably a servant. At least his aunt was well off enough to afford servants. The house looked better on the inside, though still not up to his royal taste. He nearly groaned out loud at the thought of having to spend such a long time here. What exactly would he gain from this? Suddenly he heard shouting from his left, a very angry female voice.

"You stupid boy! You've really done it this time!"  

Hyunjin walked closer to the open door where the yelling was coming from.

"Honestly, you are so useless! You are lucky I even bother to keep you around anymore!"

Hyunjin thought they were quite harsh words but surely someone had to have messed up quite badly to earn it.

"For what you cost me I will take 4 days’ payments from you!"

The next voice was much smaller, almost like the speaker was afraid but their voice was still very low.

"B-But miss, I-I don't have-"

"Then you'll work for free for 4 days!"

Hyunjin had now walked in and both people had noticed him. The dining room wasn't much either, especially compared to the castle's. A woman that looked eerily similar to his mother and a small boy stood at the other side of the room. The boy was nearly in tears and the woman looked furious. Once noticing his presence, however, she smiled and rushed to him.

"Oh, you must be Hyunjin!" He didn't like how informally she addressed him. 

The small boy was left standing on the other side of the room alone and Hyunjin became curious as to what exactly had he done. How much damage could a small, pathetic boy like him cause?

He decided it isn't worth his time and instead addressed the woman in front of him with a small nod. The woman's clothes weren't made on vibrant silk but she didn't look as dirty and ragged as the other people in the village which Hyunjin again took as a good sign.

"I'm Gayoung, your aunt" she stopped for a moment to just stare at him which Hyunjin didn't like at all. "You look so much like your mother" she sighed and Hyunjin just rolled his eyes, having heard that about a million times before. Gayoung just stood there, like she was waiting for something. Hyunjin was never taught how to address people beneath him. He only knew the art of flattering people above you or keeping the peace with your equals. 

He was saved when he felt a hand on his shoulder and heard a familiar voice "He is Hwang Hyunjin the crown prince, and we are his guards Bang Chan, and Han Jisung" Hyunjin could tell Chan expected him to do this instead, but he wasn't interested in the formalities especially when his aunt wasn't worth his time. Gayoung looked shocked at Chan's words, gasping "Guards?" to which Chan nodded, adding with a smile "The king wanted us here with the prince to ensure his safety" at this Gayoung's eyebrows disappeared under her bangs. "For his safety? Who's threatening him here?" Hyunjin was becoming more and more irritable. Why was she suggesting he should've come alone? Of course, he had to have protection against the people here.

Chan could tell that Hyunjin's temper was about to betray him so he just smiled and chuckled light-heartedly "It's just a precaution, better to be safe than sorry" Gayoung seemed rather taken with Chan, giggling like a school girl which made Hyunjin wish he was looking anywhere but at his aunt in her forties trying to flirt with his friend who wasn't even 25 yet.

She took them on a tour of the house and the more they saw, the more miserable Hyunjin became. This was no place for a prince. He thought she would at least make sure his room would be more luxurious than the rest of the house but he was wrong again. It was nothing like his room in the palace and he had no idea how was he to sleep here. The floor was wooden and worn, the curtains cheap and old not to even mention the small, pathetic bed in the corner of the room. Surely if his parents saw where he was made to sleep they would want him back home immediately.

Once they had toured around the entire lot they made their way back to Hyunjin's pathetic excuse of a room where Gayoung said she had to go and simply left them there. The three men entered the room again and Hyunjin groaned out loud. "She can't actually expect me to stay here!" Jisung rolled his eyes, which didn't go unnoticed by the prince while Chan just looked at Hyunjin pensively. "At least you have a bed, that's a luxury most people around here don't get" Hyunjin raised an eyebrow, scoffing. "I'm a prince for god's sake!" 

Jisung looked annoyed enough to slap the prince and Chan was aware of that. He wasn't interested in spending their first night here breaking up a fight between the two. He sighed, sometimes exhausted by Hyunjin's behavior "Just try to bear it, it's only for 2 months" however this did nothing but only further aggravate Hyunjin "Only 2 months?!" He was absolutely outraged.

Jisung couldn't help himself, rolling his eyes for the nth time that day "Will you quit whining and acting like this is a death sentence, prince ?" Hyunjin wasn't in the mood to have his patience tested as it was but he wouldn't let Jisung talk to him like that, that's for sure. Chan just looked like someone just set off a bomb.

Hyunjin was a very proud person, behind his back some of the servants even called him arrogant. But nobody was stupid enough to challenge his position or hurt his pride except apparently Han Jisung. "Do not speak to me in that matter!" Hyunjin's voice was dripping venom once again. Jisung was utterly fed up with the prince's attitude and whining. He had never met such a spoiled, arrogant brat in his life. "Or what? What will you do, prince ?" Jisung showed no signs of backing down to the point where Chan was afraid for his friend's life. The king would never harm Chan, and he knew that, but if the prince was angry enough, the king might just have Jisung hanged for getting into too much trouble.

Hyunjin couldn't believe what he was hearing. Did Jisung really believe he had any right to talk to him like that? Both men had taken a step closer to each other. The air felt electric, tension thick in the room. It felt like any second they could be set off and then there would be no turning back. Chan stepped in front of Jisung, trying to calm the situation "Hyunjin, calm down" which once again was a mistake as Hyunjin's eyes widened "Why should I- Why would I- " he couldn't even finish his sentence. He felt so betrayed like Chan had taken Jisung's side.

"This isn't worth fighting over, so just both quit it!" Chan rarely used such an authoritative voice, rarely commanded the prince because he acknowledged that it wasn't his place as a guard but when he did, Hyunjin knew he was speaking as his older brother, not as a guard. He hated how much of a little kid he turned into the second Chan scolded him. He wanted to slap that smug smile on Jisung's face off. He knew better than to start fighting, Jisung wasn't worth his time but always somehow managed to get under his skin. So he did the next best thing and stormed out of the room.

He was far too angry to worry about getting lost or hurt when he stormed straight into the woods on the lot. He just didn't want to be anywhere near Jisung. The first day had already been a disaster and he already felt like he wasn't treated the way a prince should. Somewhere deep down he knew that he was mainly upset because Chan had told him off. Ever since he was a kid, the only person who he was afraid of crossing was Chan. Not because he would be mean or hurt the prince but because he would look so disappointed and Hyunjin couldn't stand that look.

He sat on a big rock in the woods, trying to calm down. Always control your temper . It's something his father always said, though he knew it was useless. Hyunjin had so far never been successful at it, never seeing any reason to do so. If people didn't want him angry, they shouldn't upset him. It wasn't his responsibility to just take everything thrown his way and keep calm. He was in the right for being upset about being treated like a peasant, no prince should put up with it. He sat and thought until he felt like there was a hole in his head, just wallowing in his own misery for hours, not even noticing when it got dark.

When he got up, it was very late. Everywhere was dark and he was worried for a second that he wouldn't find his way back but luckily he hadn't gone too far from the house. There was one small lantern hanging from the porch ceiling but other than that the house was completely dark. The only proper light came from the horse stable close to the house. Damn , how long did he spend in the forest? Why hadn't Chan come looking for him? He could've been injured! He would just upset himself again if he kept wondering so he just walked to the door, trying to calm himself. It was locked and no matter how many times he knocked, no one came to open it.

Now they've locked him outside?! Surely this was just a bad dream! He had never in his 20 years of life been disrespected like this, continuously. He gave up eventually, sitting on the porch stairs. Was there another door? There was no way they could lock the prince out. What was he supposed to do? Sleep on the porch?! He was once again fuming when he saw someone walking nearby. When the person came closer to the light Hyunjin recognized him as the boy who had been yelled at earlier in the dining room. He was barefoot, his clothes dirty and worn. It was immediately apparent to Hyunjin that this person was very poor.

"Ummm...Sir, they lock the door at midnight. There's no getting in after" 

His voice was once again small and careful but strangely deep. Hyunjin stared at the boy in disbelief when registering his words. No getting in after?! While staring the prince took note of the boy's unique appearance. His hair black, a little overgrown and messy, like it hadn't been brushed in a long time. He was tanned, probably from all the hours he spent working in the sun, his honey skin still somehow glowing in the moonlight. He had big, dark eyes that sparkled, there was something alluring about them, how did he hold this kind of magic in his eyes?!

He started to walk away, taking Hyunjin's silence as telling him to get lost. "What do you mean there's no getting in?" Hyunjin asked, irritated. The boy turned around and looked at the prince nervously "The Miss is a heavy sleeper and nobody else is allowed to open the door at night, sir" Hyunjin groaned in annoyance. Where the hell was he supposed to sleep?! And why didn't Gayoung mention this?! He was feeling so wronged and disrespected. Then it hit him. This boy was outside so he must sleep somewhere outside of the house.

"Then take me where you sleep!" The boy seemed taken aback by the odd request but had no opportunity to protest as Hyunjin got up and walked to him. The boy seemed so incredibly small now that Hyunjin stood next to him. He was shorter and overall built more petite. The boy then started walking back to the stable where he had come from. Hyunjin was irritated again. He wouldn't follow the boy around, waiting for him to finish his work all night. The stable smelled awful and Hyunjin really didn't want to spend a second longer there. He had always liked horses, finding them cute and smart but taking care of horses wasn't for him.

It was almost as if the horses recognized the boy and greeted him as they walked further in. He stopped to pet the white horse with dark spots all over it and the horse seemed to almost melt into his touch. This boy clearly really liked the horses. He forgot to hate the smell and be irritated about today's events as he watched the boy interact with the animals. He was brought back to this awful reality when the boy stood on a stool and pulled a latter from the ceiling, looking at him expectantly. He raised one eyebrow, showing his distaste. The boy looked at him in confusion for a moment. Why does he look so cute like that? "Sir, you wanted me to take you to where I sleep"

Hyunjin was hoping the boy didn't mean that he slept up there because he surely would not sleep in a stable. "You aren't seriously expecting me to sleep in a stable?" Hyunjin's voice was disbelieving. The boy looked even more confused. "B-But sir, this is where I sleep" Hyunjin was hitting all the new lows today, finding himself climbing the latter to the small area between the roof and ceiling. He couldn't stand there, so he had to move around crouching. There was no bed, just hay, and some metal equipment. And where exactly was he supposed to sleep, he looked down at the boy "You aren't joining?"

The boy looked a little flustered before answering "I must take care of the horses before I can rest" Hyunjin was irritated and never been so uncomfortable in his life. He just wanted to put this day behind him so badly and just pray the next 59 days would be better.

Once the boy finally climbed up, Hyunjin looked at him expectantly. He was still very much waiting to see what magic trick the boy would use to pull a bed out of thin air for him. The boy didn't seem to notice however as he laid on a conveniently placed pile of hay, looking completely worn out. Hyunjin cleared his throat, a little insulted by the boy just ignoring him. When nothing happened once again, the prince got impatient "Where is the bed?" The boy opened his eyes and chuckled "Oh sir, there are no beds here" he then got up and Hyunjin was pleased as he thought the boy was joking and was now getting him at least a tolerable place to stay at.

His expectations were low but he couldn't help but be disappointed when the boy simply gathered more hay next to the pile he was just laying on. Once the boy seemed to deem the pile big enough, he laid back down on the hay, and now it was his turn to look at Hyunjin expectantly. Hyunjin whined quietly before closing his eyes "My bed is a bunch of hay, isn't it?" The boy couldn't help but chuckle at the prince's behavior. 

Hyunjin had never laid on something so uncomfortable. The hay was harsh, poking him from every direction, it did very little to soften the cold floor underneath. There was no way he would get any sleep. He had never missed his own bed at home so badly. Honestly just about any bed. The boy noticed the other tossing and turning around. "I'm sure you are used to soft beds sir but it feels better if you stay still. It'll scratch less" the boy’s voice was slightly concerned and it left Hyunjin absolutely baffled as to why was the boy concerned about his well-being.

"Well there is no way I'll be able to sleep like this, so it hardly matters" his voice was very harsh but tired. He huffed while turning around to accidentally face the boy whose eyes were luckily closed. He now noticed the dots covering his face. The freckles too must be from the long periods in the sun. Hyunjin had simply never seen anyone who looked so exceptional. With nice clothes and tamed hair, this boy could easily pass for royalty. He had no idea why had he taken such interest in some random boy who didn't matter. But if he was to spend 2 months in this dump, might as well waste his time.

"What's your name?" The boy blinked his eyes open and Hyunjin felt momentarily breathless. This boy had such a strange effect on him and he wasn't sure if he liked it or not yet. "Lee Yongbok, sir" Hyunjin found the boy's heart-shaped lips rather distracting as he spoke. A rather ordinary name for someone who looked so unique. He was still guarded because he couldn't understand why Yongbok was so alluring to him. "A very common name," he said indifferently. Yongbok looked slightly hurt at his comment but the prince was determined to not care.

"I don't much care for it either, sir but it's the name I was told to use" This boy kept piquing Hyunjin's interest continuously. His innocent but mysterious demeanor intriguing the prince. "You were told to use?" He tried to keep his voice indifferent, not wanting to seem too interested in the conversation. It would be best to not make friends with poor servants. "Yes, sir. The miss told me I shouldn't use my own name as it is difficult and it bothered her" there was a wonderful innocence to Yongbok's voice and eyes. A rather refreshing innocent genuineness compared to the forced politeness of the rich and royal. "Then what is your real name?" Hyunjin asked impatiently, getting irritated by the boy not just straight up telling his real name.

"Lee Felix, sir" he seemed rather sensitive. The irritation in Hyunjin's voice alone making him feel nervous and afraid. Felix was a much more fitting name for the boy. Hyunjin's chest started feeling a little warm, an odd giddiness filling his body. It was a very unfamiliar feeling to him and it worried him. He gave Felix no answer, just turning to lay on his back, the straws of hay poking him everywhere, making him hiss a bit.

Felix thought the rich boy's behavior was strange but a little amusing. He was so bothered by a little discomfort that he was unable to sleep. He wondered why was the rich boy there and what had he been doing outside past midnight. He had always been very curious but learned a long time ago that it was best to not ask too many questions from the rich. They would always eventually get frustrated and he would end up hurt in some way. The sound of the rich boy tossing and turning was bothersome. Especially since Felix already advised him not to move around too much.

"May I read for you, sir?"

This was a strange request and Hyunjin's first immediate thought was that Felix had questioned his ability to read. "I can read myself If I wish to do so!" His voice was once again annoyed. Felix noted that he should've hated how complicated and proud the rich boy was but for some reason, he felt like he was trying to calm down an irritated child. Unlike other rich assholes Felix had met, this one didn't seem aggressive or malicious just a little arrogant.

"I know sir, most wealthy people can," Hyunjin noticed the careful note in Felix's voice but he no longer sounded afraid. Wealthy people? He wasn't just any wealthy person, he was the prince. Of course, he had to know how to read. Felix continued with the same careful, calm voice "I just thought it could help you sleep, sir" this statement further confused Hyunjin. Why would someone reading to him help him sleep? Wouldn't it just distract him? And why was Felix so bothered by his sleep or lack thereof?

"That's nonsense!" Hyunjin didn't realize how much he looked like a pouty kid when saying that. Felix was amused by the cold demeanor accidentally slipping away when the rich boy was tired. Felix let out a small chuckle that Hyunjin found oddly comforting. "My mom used to do that when I couldn't sleep but if it would just bother you, I won't, sir," Hyunjin thought Felix sounded very fond when mentioning his mom, his eyes were sparkly again. He supposed it wouldn't hurt to try as he was exhausted but couldn't get comfortable. He closed his eyes, demanding "Go ahead then" which just made Felix chuckle again and after a bit of shuffling, he started reading. Felix's voice was so low and deep, Hyunjin found it very comforting.

"Boy," she said courteously 

"Why are you crying?"

Peter could be exceeding polite also, having learned the grand manner at fairy ceremonies and he rose and bowed to her beautifully. She was much pleased, and bowed beautifully to him from the bed.

"What's your name?" he asked.

"Wendy Moira Angela Darling" she replied with some satisfaction.

"What's your name?"

"Peter Pan."

She was already sure that he must be Peter, but it did seem a comparatively short name.

"Is that all?"

"Yes," he said rather sharply. He felt for the first time that it was a shortish name.

"I'm so sorry," said Wendi Moira Angela.

"It doesn't matter," Peter gulped.

She asked where he lived.

"Second to the right," said Peter, "and then straight on till morning."

"What a funny address!"

Peter had a sinking. For the first time, he felt that perhaps it was a funny address.

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Hyunjin didn't remember drifting off to sleep. Maybe Felix's reading helped him after all. Though he would never admit that out loud. When he sat up, he noticed that Felix was no longer there. He probably went to work, a servant as he is. Hyunjin wished he didn't have to have the walk of shame back to the house and explain to Chan where he spent his night. There was nothing more embarrassing than having to admit that you slept on hay, in a barn, next to a servant boy. He hoped his expensive clothes weren't completely covered in hay and just wanted to take a bath with lavender scented candles lit so bad.

He simply walked in, not bothering to knock, and went straight to his room. He laid on the bed that now felt actually quite tolerable compared to his place of stay last night. His back ached from sleeping on such a hard surface and he didn't feel like he rested at all. A very small part of his brain worried for Felix as the stable was his bed every night and the boy seemingly got up much earlier than he did even though he must've stayed up late. But it was his own choice. Hyunjin didn't ask him to read, Felix insisted on it and servants shouldn't get the same privileges as the wealthy anyway.

His inner monologue was interrupted when Chan burst into the room, a worried look on his face. "Where were you?! I was worried all last night! You can't just disappear!" Hyunjin would've felt bad but a part of him was glad that Chan worried. Everyone else's negligence led to the prince having to sleep in a stable. He crossed his arms, looking anywhere except at Chan. "Hyunjin-" Chan sighed but was interrupted by the prince's displeased tone "If you must know, I spent last night sleeping on a pile of hay in a stable" he expected Chan to be ashamed for not looking after him properly or outraged that the prince wasn't let back into the house. Instead, he chuckled.

"It's funny to you?!" Hyunjin's entire world kept getting flipped around by the events and people around him. Chan laughed even harder, now crouching. "You," he pointed at Hyunjin, "slept in a stable?" He pointed outside and when Hyunjin nodded he got lost in another fit of laughter. Hyunjin didn't find any of this amusing at all. He had been badly mistreated and if his pride didn't prevent him from telling anyone else but Chan, he surely would've written to his parents of this awful wrongness.

"Are you done?" Hyunjin asked coldly as Chan seemed to finally calm down. The older gave the prince a rather fatherly look as he sat down next to the irritated boy. "Come on, loosen up a little Hyunnie" Hyunjin also hated the fact that he had a weak spot for that specific nickname that Chan had been using since they were kids. He caved in, resting his head on Chan's shoulder and whining "I don't want to be here hyung! I wanna go home!" It hurt Chan how tired Hyunjin sounded. He truly retracted into a pouty child sometimes and he found it rather endearing. But he also knew that this would be good for Hyunjin. He might get the happy, kind, and caring Hyunjin, he once knew, back.

"I know you do. Just try to make it through the 2 months, if you try to get along here they'll go by much faster" Hyunjin hated that Chan was probably right so once again, he would never admit it. He just whined again, closing his eyes. Chan sat there soothingly stroking Hyunjin's back until there was a knock on the door. "You should take a bath. You smell like you slept in a barn" Hyunjin whined at the teasing tone in Chan's voice but got up to get to the bathroom.

He didn't really even get his own bath ready, they had servants for that but he couldn't be caught dead looking like this so he'd just have to figure it out by himself, how difficult could it be? The bathroom wasn't beautiful and shiny like in the castle. Hyunjin once again felt like throwing a fit over how much everything wasn't up to his standards or suitable in any way for the prince. He struggled for a while with the bath, refusing to believe he would be incapable of getting his own bath ready. Even though it wasn't his job to do.

Once he finally succeeded and had a bath ready, he took off his clothes and stepped in. He didn't have any scented candles or expensive oils which made this bath seem more like a chore rather than a relaxing comfort. When he was fully seated, he realized too late that he had over-filled the tub, and water spilled everywhere, getting the entire bathroom soaking wet. He was once again taken by a sudden urge to scream out cuss words and before he could stop himself he cursed rather loudly.

Hyunjin felt like someone had cursed him. This had to be some curse of bad luck. Nothing had gone right from the moment he left the castle, he had had enough and it was only the second day. Just as Hyunjin had started considering just drowning himself in the bathtub there was a small knock on the door.

"Is everything alright in there?"

The voice was familiar. The soothing, deep voice that had lulled him to sleep last night. It had to be Felix. There was once again the same afraid, hesitant tone to his voice and Hyunjin found himself not liking the tone. He much preferred the one Felix had used last night while reading. It took him just a bit too long to realize he hadn't answered.

"Sir, are you hurt?"

He couldn't tell why, but he liked the fact that Felix sounded almost panicked. He sighed, not wanting Felix to go fetch someone "I'm fine!" It came out rather harsh once again. Hyunjin was just frustrated and didn't need the confusing thoughts and feelings Felix seemed to bring with him. "Oh, sorry sir, I didn't mean to bother you. I just heard cursing and it startled me" Felix seemed to calm down a bit when it was confirmed to him that it was Hyunjin on the other side of the door. Hyunjin heard footsteps getting further away from the door.

"Felix, wait!" The footsteps stopped. He felt ridiculous. He rarely called servants by their names, but then again, he rarely spoke to servants outside of requests or commands. He, however, was clearly hitting all the new lows today as this curse of bad fortune had struck him. "You are forbidden to tell anyone you heard me curse!" He didn't know why exactly he was bothering to do this. Under what context would Felix bring this up with anyone? Even if he did Hyunjin could easily just say the boy was lying and everyone would believe him. He heard a small, low chuckle that somehow seemed to ease him a bit.

"I won't tell, sir" Hyunjin was confused as to why did the boy seem to get happier and more comfortable when Hyunjin started ordering and acting cold. Felix let out a sharp hesitant breath before continuing "But sir, you shouldn't call me by that name. If the miss hears, I will be in great trouble" 

Who was he to tell Hyunjin what to call him? Who was Gayoung to tell Hyunjin what to call Felix?! He would call the boy whatever he pleased. Furthermore, it shouldn't be Felix who gets in trouble if someone else decides to use his real name. Hyunjin didn't know why this had made him so irritated so he resorted to what he knew best "I will call you whatever I please! How dare you tell me what I should or shouldn't do?" It just now struck him how strange it was to be having a conversation with one of the servants while he was in a bath that had flooded the room.

Felix seemed again a bit panicked by this as he hastily responded "I-I wouldn't, sir! Never! I-I just know the miss won't like it" The last sentence came out so small and weak it gave Hyunjin a strange urge to comfort the boy. "I shall call you Felix and if Gayoung gives you trouble for it, you must come tell me at once!" 

Once Felix registered what he had just heard, he blushed. He had never been defended against Gayoung and the thought of this rich boy being willing to argue with her just to use Felix's real name made him giddy. "However you wish, sir. I will quit bothering you now" he best leave before someone hears him talking with the rich boy and catches him not working. He would be in great trouble if either happened.

"No Felix, wait!" Hyunjin said again, a little desperation in his voice. He really didn't want to admit he had struggled to make the bath and had now managed to make the bathroom flood. His pride didn't let him ask for help often but something in him nudged him to ask Felix. He surely wouldn't be brave enough to make fun of the prince. "Yes, sir?" Hyunjin took a second to once again curse at the situation he was in. "I umm…You mustn't tell anyone about this!" Felix was confused by the statement as he already agreed on not telling anyone about the rich boy cursing. He was furthermore confused by hearing the boy sound unsure for the first time. He always spoke with such confidence and authority.

"I seemed to have made the room flood"

Felix fought the urge to burst out laughing. The rich boy sounded like a lost kid and Felix couldn't help but find it hilarious that this confident, arrogant boy could be so helpless in such a simple situation. "Do you wish for me to clean the mess up, sir?" Hyunjin thought he could sense amusement in the other's voice but maybe he was just paranoid, knowing himself how ridiculous the current situation was. He responded with a curt 'yes', starting to get embarrassed. Now he swore he heard a small chuckle accompanied by the voice "Please let me know when you are finished with your bath and I will come clean it up, sir" 

Hyunjin looked at the floor. Now with water all over it, he could tell it wasn't as clean as it looked when walking in. He made a mental note to write about this to his parents. The house was unclean and unfit for the prince. "The floor is filthy, I wish for it to be cleaned now!" He was offended by the fact that he was expected to bathe here when the room clearly hadn't even been properly cleaned. "B-But sir, you are-" Felix tried to reason but was cut off by Hyunjin "Are you refusing to do as I command?" He took offense to Felix's reluctance to do as he said. In the castle, the servants did as told in an instant and didn't ask questions. "No sir! I just-" Felix tried again but Hyunjin's patience was wearing thin and though he knew he would rather rot away in this filthy bathroom than speak with Gayoung again, he cut the boy off again "Do you wish for me to go and tell Gayoung of your reluctance and disobedience?"

"Alright then, sir!" Hyunjin thought the boy sounded irritated. He wasn't used to being spoken to like this by servants so it took him a couple of seconds to recover from the other's snappiness. During this period Felix had opened the door with a bucket and a rag in hand, getting on his knees and starting to mop up the water from the floor. Then it hit Hyunjin. He was sitting in the bathtub in his birthday suit. So that might be why Felix had insisted on doing it afterward. The room got very quiet as the strange situation sunk in for the two men. Felix seemed rather flustered as he mopped up the floor but Hyunjin found it rather entertaining.

He found himself once again just blatantly staring at the boy. He didn't know why, the boy just instantly caught his attention every time he was around. "You are forbidden to speak of this to anyone either!" Hyunjin at least had the decency to sound ashamed. Though he would never admit it. "Yes, sir" all the snappiness had vanished from the boy's voice. Cleaning up the floor was a lot more work and took so much longer than Hyunjin had ever realized. He had never stayed and watched any of his servants clean up so this was new to him. He started wondering if Felix's knees or shins hurt from kneeling on the tiles like that. If they did, he hid it very well.

"How long have you worked here?" Hyunjin shocked himself again. That question was nothing but pure curiosity, something Hyunjin never thought he would experience with a servant. Felix responded casually, not looking up from the floor "For 8 years, sir". Already? Felix didn't look very old, on the contrary, Hyunjin had thought the boy was maybe 17 years old, 18 max. But no 10-year-old would be put to work, nobody would hire a child. This greatly confused and intrigued Hyunjin to the point where his curiosity beat his will to stay indifferent about the servant. "How old are you?" He once again forgot to hide the curious streak in his voice, mentally cursing himself out for it. Felix was absolutely baffled as to why he was playing 20 questions with the rich boy now but did as he was taught and answered politely "20 years old, sir".

20?! This boy was his age?! Furthermore, he started working when he was 12?! This boy had to be lying to him, he scoffed "No one would hire a 12-year-old, I think you may have lied to me" now Felix looked up at him with those big, innocent eyes. He looked confused and had stopped mopping the floor for a second. "But sir, I haven't lied to you" he insisted and as much as Hyunjin wanted to press further, something in Felix's eyes screamed that he was being genuine. After this short moment of eye contact, Felix looked down again, cheeks a pretty shade of pink. Hyunjin thought the pink cheeks looked very nice on him, they brought out his freckles even more. "I-I don't mean to disagree with you sir, but most children are working by the time they turn 12"

Hyunjin was getting shock after shock today. Learning about things he had never stopped to consider before. When did Felix play as a kid if he was working like this? When did he study? Hyunjin started feeling something uncomfortable and ugly creep into his chest but once again as he didn't know what those feelings were, they scared him. He looked at the mostly clean floor now and huffed "You're dismissed" Felix looked up at him, confused "B-But sir, the floor isn't-" Hyunjin rolled his eyes, taking an annoyed breath before repeating himself with more finality "You are dismissed!" This got through to the boy who took the bucket and rag, closing the door behind him, not saying a word in return.

Hyunjin didn't feel as clean and nice as he usually did after a bath. He mused it was the lack of oils and scents as well as the poor excuse of a bathroom. He dressed himself, looking in the mirror. At least he still had his beautiful, soft clothes. He had dark circles under his eyes from the poor sleep last night and rolled his eyes. Would he even survive 2 months here if one night was enough to break him? He felt like there was a dark cloud that followed him that day as he walked the grounds with Chan and unfortunately Jisung. His mind was clouded with thoughts about his small conversation with Felix. How could this be? He considered himself smart, having to study and learn lots growing up but talking with Felix, he felt like he knew nothing. It frustrated him to no end, he wanted to know more but his pride was preventing him from letting a servant teach him about things.

"Prince, is everything okay?" Chan asked, accompanied by his, what Hyunjin liked to call, "worried dad" look. "You've been so quiet" Hyunjin swore he heard Jisung scoff but was surprised to find out that he was too deep in thought to care. "Did you know most children start working at 12 years old, hyung?" Chan looked even more worried at Hyunjin's question. Hyunjin looked off into the fields where people were tirelessly working. They worked from sunrise till sunset, maybe even later. Was their life nothing but work? When would they spend time with their families?

"Where is this coming from?" Chan found Hyunjin's behavior odd. Usually, the prince didn't give his workers a second thought but now he seemed so bothered by his thoughts that he couldn't even hold up a conversation. Of course, Chan knew that Hyunjin had no idea about what life was like, being sheltered by all the luxuries of the castle but he wanted to know why did he now all of a sudden know. 

"Don't act like you suddenly care!" Jisung spat, looking somehow more furious than last night. Even Hyunjin was taken aback by the anger in his voice. He turned to Jisung, looking astounded. "You've never cared a day in your life about the people you considered to be beneath you, who cares if they're kids, right?" It sounded like he needed to get it out of his system. Chan knew this would result in a fight but somewhere deep inside, he agreed with Jisung to an extent.

"Why do you always insist on talking?!" Hyunjin already had enough to think about, he didn't want to waste his energy fighting Jisung again. They could spend the next 2 months in harmony if Jisung learned to keep his mouth shut and respect Hyunjin like a prince was to be respected. Hyunjin did feel the sting Jisung intended, however. He would never admit it but he knew Jisung was right. He had never spared any servant a second thought, never questioned who does the work, how long does it take or how old are they. He just simply expected servants to do as told, ask no questions, and not to disappoint.

"Can you two please not?" Chan asked, voice tired. Tired enough apparently for Jisung to back down. He rarely did, not wanting to feed Hyunjin's ego by having him think Jisung "submitted". Hyunjin didn't linger on the fight for too long, just kept walking, lost in his thoughts once again. He missed the worried look Chan gave him again.

He then spotted Felix in the fields. His clothes and hands were very dirty, his hair disheveled, tan skin sweaty. He still somehow looked so beautiful. Hyunjin hadn't wanted to admit it but it was the first thing that came to mind when describing the boy. He was beautiful. The servants were all chatting and Felix seemed to get lost in a fit of laughter. His smile was so contagious, it made Hyunjin almost smile too. He stopped himself, realizing how it would've looked to others. He spotted a young boy next to Felix. The boy looked no older than 13 and especially after what he had been thinking about all day, it made Hyunjin upset. Felix was clearly helping the boy and joking around with him.

Hyunjin turned his back on them, why should he care?  

Hyunjin, however, noticed as he laid in bed that night that he did seem to care. Why else would he not be able to get all these thoughts out of his head? Why else would he be so intrigued by and infatuated with Felix? He didn't like it. He didn't like feeling like this. He wanted to go home and forget all about this place. He had always been happy and comfortable in the castle, now he was not only physically but mentally too, plagued with new feelings that were rather uncomfortable. He felt like he couldn't sleep, though the bed felt a whole lot more comfortable now that he had spent last night on a pile of hay. If only he was home and none of this would've bothered him.

His mind seemed to be full of Felix to the point that it was becoming bothersome. He had to figure out what spell the boy had cast on him to have Hyunjin like this. He sighed, getting up from his bed walking to the window. The night was truly beautiful. The forest was quiet except for the rustling of the trees, the moon illuminated everything and he could see so many stars in the sky. His attention was however quickly drawn to the only source of light in the yard. The stable still had warm, orange light coming from it. He saw a figure walk there, no doubt Felix who was taking care of the horses. Hyunjin's horse, May, was there as well. He chuckled to himself as he started wondering if she was behaving well; if she also greeted Felix when he showed up. He stood there, staring at the stable and the boy walking back and forth until finally he no longer came out and the light was put out. Just for a moment, Hyunjin forgot that he is a prince and simply let himself exist and feel the way he did. He however quickly composed himself, scoffing and going to bed. This was all Felix's fault.

Chapter Text

It was the end of Hyunjin's first week and he was not pleased. He couldn't understand for the life of him what he was supposed to do here. So far he hadn't gotten the great big epiphany his parents were expecting of him. Chan had suggested that he do some of the work but he had laughed at the thought. He was a prince, it wasn't his job to work in the fields or peel other people's potatoes.

Furthermore, he had not been able to get Felix out of his head. The two had seen each other a few times and every time Hyunjin was equally as entranced by the boy. Though he had kept the same sour attitude he had when coming here.

"Would you at least try? It wouldn't kill you to help someone out and it'll make time pass faster" Chan said as he was dragging Hyunjin towards the kitchen. "Why should I do it?!" Hyunjin whined but didn't try to sneak out of Chan's grasp. He knew that Chan had endured his whininess last week with no complaints in hopes that he would stop. He had, however, underestimated how much Hyunjin didn't want to be here. He was still just as outraged as he was the day he got here. They got to the kitchen, which was luckily empty where Chan finally let go of him.

"Just help around here for an afternoon and then I promise we can go stare at the pretty servant you like" Chan smiled a bit too knowingly. Hyunjin was about to complain about not wanting to do servant work until he realized the last part of Chan's promise. "What are you-" but before he could finish the door opened and in stepped none other than the same "pretty servant" Chan had just mentioned. They both stood still, Hyunjin feeling a little flustered. Had he been staring at Felix that much? But he didn't like Felix. He just simply thought the boy was very pretty, nothing more. It was outrageous for Chan to even suggest that. Sure, maybe he got a little nervous when Felix would look in his direction, and maybe he was nicer to the boy than the rest of the servants but it meant nothing. He was just showing his gratitude towards Felix for giving him a place to sleep. Even if that place was rather disgusting and uncomfortable.

Felix looked shocked to see them there "Is there something you need, sir?" offering a polite smile. Hyunjin couldn't find the words to say what he wanted to say and Chan took advantage of that "Hyunjin here wanted to know if you need any help in the kitchen" while placing a hand on Hyunjin's shoulder. The prince swore he would have Chan executed the second they got back to the palace. Felix looked even more shocked, looking at Hyunjin like the taller was a ghost. "Oh but surely you shouldn't be working in the kitchen, sir" this made Hyunjin sigh of relief. Finally someone with some common sense. Before he could even open his mouth to tell Chan they'd be leaving, the older flashed a charming smile at Felix saying "Of course he wouldn't normally but he was rather curious about it and I thought you could probably use a pair of extra hands" 

Felix beamed at this. Chan's smile seemed to work a little too well and for some reason, Hyunjin didn't like it. Chan hadn't spoken with Felix multiple times nor had they slept next to each other in the barn. Chan shouldn't be so friendly with the servants. When Felix smiled towards him, however, he suddenly felt weak. "I'm just here to bake, sir but you can still join if you wish" his eyes held so much excitement, they sparkled so beautifully. Chan and Felix were now both looking at him, waiting for an answer and though Hyunjin would've probably rather tossed himself in the meat grinder than helped in the kitchen, he didn't have the heart to turn the excited boy down.

"Nothing would make me happier" his voice was completely void of any emotion which made Chan chuckle loudly. Felix looked a little hesitant, his big eyes concerned. "Don't mind him, he's just a little grumpy," Chan said to Felix, patting Hyunjin on the shoulder once more before leaving the room. They stood in awkward silence while Hyunjin wondered if it was too late to back out of this. Felix looked pensive when he pulled out a scrunched-up ball of fabric. He looked at Hyunjin then at the ball and back at Hyunjin. "You probably need this more than I do sir" Felix then offered him the bundle which he hesitantly took. Rolling it out, it looked like an apron. He looked at it for a while, noticing Felix's stare. "An apron, sir. So your clothes don't get messy" Hyunjin rolled his eyes, pulling the apron over his head while scoffing "I know what an apron is!" He struggled with the piece of fabric for a while before adding "And what exactly makes you think I'll need it more than you will?"

Felix chuckled a little which surprised Hyunjin. Once again his snappy, irritated responses seemed to amuse and relax the boy. It made no sense . "Your clothes are expensive sir and mine are already dirty so it won't matter," Felix said while walking around the kitchen to get all the bowls and supplies. Hyunjin was slightly touched by the boy's thoughtfulness. He was right though, Hyunjin's clothes were worth way more than the servant's.

Now Hyunjin was faced with the task of baking. He had never baked a day in his life, rarely even going to the kitchen. Felix however seemed to waste no time, finding all the ingredients quickly. Hyunjin really didn't want to admit to the boy that he didn't have the slightest clue of what to do in the kitchen. Felix checked once more to make sure he had all the ingredients before turning to Hyunjin "Would you prefer to make the brownies or cookies, sir?" Felix seemed almost giddy. Hyunjin had gotten a very bright feeling from the boy before too but now he felt like he was staring straight into the sun. The boy was practically bouncing around, beaming constantly.

"Umm…I haven't made either" Hyunjin tried to weasel his way out of this. Maybe Felix would find him so incompetent that he'd just kick the prince out. Though he didn't like the sound of that, he really found baking a waste of his time and way beneath him. Felix seemed to think about it for just a moment before beaming at him again "I think the cookies would be easier, sir" he said it like the matter was decided. He then turned his back to Hyunjin, probably getting started on the brownies. Hyunjin was getting irritated again, not knowing what did the boy expect him to do.

He cleared his throat after waiting for a while but got no response from the quietly humming boy. He did this a couple times until he started getting seriously frustrated "What exactly am I supposed to do?" His patience was wearing thin and he was very close to just screwing all politeness and telling the boy he would rather be literally anywhere else right now. Felix turned around, surprised that Hyunjin hadn't even started on the cookies. They stared at each other for a moment, Hyunjin frustrated, Felix confused. "It's not like I've baked before, that's what servants do!" Hyunjin then snapped, not liking Felix's silence that he perceived as judgment.

Then it dawned on Felix. Of course, the rich boy would've grown up with private chefs and servants that would take care of his every need. He wouldn't need to bake for himself. He smiled at that, always happy to help "It's okay sir, I'll teach you" he said with such enthusiasm that Hyunjin was lost for a moment. How did this boy stay so innocently kind even though Hyunjin was rude to him? How hard can it be to just get the boy to kick him out?

As Felix started instructing him, Hyunjin found that it didn't make him as annoyed to be instructed by a servant as he thought. That may be because it was Felix instructing him or it may be because he didn't consider baking something worth knowing. He was, however, quite impressed with Felix's multitasking. Managing to help Hyunjin make the cookies while somehow getting the brownies done at the same time.

"Then you roll them into little balls like this with your hands," Felix demonstrated the action. What caught Hyunjin's attention, however, were the servant's hands. They were tiny, like those of a child. Though they did have plenty of blisters in them, Hyunjin was caught off guard by a sudden urge to encase the smaller hand in his much bigger one. When Felix was done rolling the ball he looked at Hyunjin as if to see if the prince was following. Hyunjin simply nodded, egging him to go on. "Then you squish it between your hands and then they're ready for the oven, sir" he placed the now squished ball of dough on the baking tray and moved back to his brownies.

Hyunjin tried to make the rest, though they came out all different sizes, some even a little misshapen. He was sure he would get a snarky comment for this as Felix seemed to be some kind of baking expert. He prepared a whole argument in his head for what he'd say when Felix would complain about the cookies. He was the prince, he didn't need to bake! He didn't want to be here, nor did he ask to help! Though he did find himself genuinely enjoying it. Something about the sweet smell, the warm air provided by the oven, and Felix's quiet humming worked together to create such a comforting environment. He found himself relaxing, the same way he would at home in his large bathtub.

When Felix turned around Hyunjin noticed he had flour on his face which rather than annoying him for not noticing, Hyunjin found it somewhat endearing, cute. Felix smiled when he saw the cookies on the baking tray "They look great sir! I'll put them in the oven in a second" Hyunjin was caught off guard once again by Felix's genuine compliment. After preparing an argument in his head the praise almost paralyzed him for a second. The oven mittens looked huge on the boy's small hands and Hyunjin couldn't help but smile. This environment and something that only Felix could provide made him so unbearably comfortable that he didn't even care about his pride screaming at him that he's supposed to hate this. He felt so warm and fuzzy.

"Hold on, you have…" Hyunjin didn't even finish his sentence before he brought his hand to the bridge of Felix's cute nose to dust off the flour there. He didn't even realize how close they had been standing and how strange this action must've seemed to Felix until he noticed the boy blushing furiously. He kind of liked it, not wanting to move away. They stayed like this, Hyunjin's hand caressing the other's face like he was in a trance until Felix could no longer bear it and said "S-Sir the cookies…" which snapped Hyunjin out of his daze. "Of course" was all he could muster as he watched the flustered boy take the tray and push it in the oven. Now they just had to wait for the pastries to be finished. The moment going unmentioned. Hyunjin found himself hoping that Felix moved away because he had to and not because he found being so near Hyunjin revolting.

"What are we baking these for?" Hyunjin asked, curiously. Felix was amazed by how quickly the other recovered from the moment they just shared. Furthermore surprised by the rich boy's complete change in behavior. "The miss requested them as she will be visited tomorrow by some nobles, sir" Hyunjin nodded but felt a little upset like he had been wronged "So after all that hard work we won't even get to eat the pastries?" He resembled a pouty child again and Felix couldn't help but smile at him, trying to reassure him "I'm sure you are invited to their tea as well, sir". Hyunjin frowned, he knew how uncharacteristic all this was to him but whether he liked it or not, he had begun to trust Felix. He might go as far as to say he was a little fond of the boy.

"But you won't get to have any?" Felix was shocked by what he thought was concern in the other's voice and was seriously thinking about fetching the man he had come in with to check whether the rich boy was okay. "Of course not, sir. I would never steal food from the house" Hyunjin didn't like the tone Felix used. He didn't seem bothered by it but it felt as if he had come to accept that as an irrefutable fact. Felix had made the pastries with such love and care that Hyunjin felt the ungrateful nobles or the absolute brute that his aunt was, didn't deserve. "But you made them!" Hyunjin tried to argue, feeling like the situation was unjust. Felix chuckled, leaning against one of the counters "It is my job, sir" he simply stated. Hyunjin was quite jealous of Felix's attitude. He seemed so indifferent to all the injustice happening to him, simply getting happy and excited about small things like baking. Then a bitter thought invaded the prince's brain: Of course, he does, he has nothing but his own survival to look after. He doesn't have responsibilities.

Hyunjin tried to get his mind off such topics as he had begun to enjoy how light and comfortable he felt. He spotted a radio on a counter on the other side of the room and walked to it asking "Does it work?" Felix came up behind him to see what he was talking about. "Oh yes, but the miss told us to never touch it without her permission, sir," Felix said knowingly. Gayoung certainly had a lot of rules for her servants. This made Hyunjin wonder if the servants at the castle had to abide by such strict rules as well. He turned the radio on, satisfied when music started playing from it, saying "I don't answer to her".

He had always enjoyed music. The large events at the castle were hardly worth it but he always went to please his parents as well as to enjoy the music and food. The sun was setting, casting a beautiful array of oranges, pinks, and purples, the air in the room was warm and smelled of sweets. Hyunjin felt so at peace. He looked at Felix who seemed to be quietly enjoying the music as well. He had a sudden thought, an urge. Though it would probably sound strange to the servant, Hyunjin thought he had sort of already embarrassed himself in front of the boy so why bother. "Will you dance with me?" Hyunjin asked, holding out his hand for Felix to take.

This sent Felix into panic mode. The rich boy's behavior was getting seriously odd compared to how he usually acted and Felix had never been asked to dance by a noble before or anyone for that matter. He stared at the taller boy's hand, then at his face. "Oh sir, I-I've never…ummm" he seemed to get very flustered and red. Hyunjin smiled at this, thinking the boy looked adorable. "You've never danced before?" Felix shook his head, still flustered. Hyunjin knew it was courteous to bow before asking someone to dance but hell would freeze over before he would bow at a servant, no matter how beautiful they were.

"It's okay, I'll teach you"

Hyunjin moved his hand closer as if to offer again and this time, though hesitantly, Felix took it. Hyunjin was correct to assume the boy's small hands would disappear inside of his. He led the boy further away from the counter, closer to the middle of the room where there was the most space. Hyunjin was forced to learn all types of ballroom dances while growing up, knowing most of them by heart. He had always liked dancing, just hated how formal it had to be. "Put your hand on my shoulder," he said patiently. This brought him back to all those times in the big ball hall he had spent with a teacher who taught him to dance. She had been such a kind woman, who was always patient with him.

Felix placed his hand on the other's shoulder, feeling his other hand, still held by the taller's, being lifted up slightly. As the final move, Hyunjin put his arm on Felix's waist, pulling him just a bit closer so it would be easier to dance. Felix let out a small gasp, his mouth forming an 'o' shape. They were so incredibly close. Felix was nervous as he had never done this before but he sort of felt like all those rich nobles in the great ballrooms in their beautiful clothes. For a moment he could pretend he was one of them and had no worries. Hyunjin then took a step back, sort of dragging Felix with him. Hyunjin was worried about how small and frail the other felt in his arms. He was worried that he might break the small boy. "Just follow me okay, I'll lead" Hyunjin's voice was so soft and Felix could tell he really liked dancing. The ice prince had completely melted away and in his wake was such a gentle, kind boy who just wanted to dance with the servant.

Felix followed the other's lead. It got much easier the longer they kept going. The song changed a few times but they barely noticed, so lost in their own little world, giggling every now and then when Felix fell out of step. It had been a while since Hyunjin had had fun like this. Just dancing around comfortably, no one else around. Just him and his pretty servant. The air felt so light and flowy, he felt as if he could do this all night. It didn't help that Felix seemed to be enjoying himself as well. His face alternated between concentration as he tried to keep up and a bright smile with giggles as he failed to do so and Hyunjin couldn't tell which one was cuter. They moved around the room, both sweating a bit from the heat coming from the oven. Hyunjin hadn't felt so carefree and happy in a long time.

The small egg-shaped timer rang and he was forced to let go as Felix rushed to get the pastries out. Hyunjin was left feeling slightly empty. He had gotten used to how Felix felt in his arms and felt somewhat cold and alone without. This didn't last very long when Felix pulled out the cookies and gave Hyunjin his brightest smile yet. "They turned out so well! Not so bad for your first time, sir" Hyunjin's chest warmed at the praise. He was very curious as to how they tasted. He walked to Felix with a mischievous smile "Do you reckon we could taste them?" Felix jumped a little, looking absolutely scandalized by Hyunjin's suggestion. "B-But sir, that would be stealing! I could get in great trouble!" Hyunjin waved his worries away with his hand, picking up one of the cookies and holding it in front of Felix's mouth "No one's around. Besides no one can tell me what I can or can't do"

Felix sighed, knowing he was going against his better judgment but the rich boy looked so happy, happier than at any point while staying here. He couldn't strip the boy of his happiness by refusing. He would just take the punishment if someone were to find out about this, it wouldn't be his first time. He opened his mouth, letting the other feed him. The cookie tasted so sweet, the chocolate inside still a little hot. He had been starving all day so this single cookie felt like his salvation right now.

Hyunjin watched as the other smiled, clearly enjoying the sweet. "You don't get something like this every day, huh?" Hyunjin tasted the cookie himself and he had to admit that it was a good rival for the private baker's recipe at the castle. Felix nodded, savoring the sweet taste for as long as he could. "No, sir. The chocolate is even better than I remembered" Hyunjin smiled, deciding to give the rest of the cookie to Felix. He could have all the pastries in the world whenever he wanted. "Do you like chocolate?" Hyunjin asked though it was quite silly considering the boy had just stated it was even better than he remembered. "Well, I've never had it by itself, sir" Felix seemed to think about it for a moment before answering "But I do love these cookies" 

Never had chocolate by itself? Hyunjin was once again hit with a news wave. He hadn't even considered that. "You've never had chocolate before?" His voice was so utterly disbelieving. Felix looked at him puzzled for a moment. "I've had it once before, sir. Just never by itself. It is very expensive" Hyunjin was shocked at how these little things were completely unattainable to others. He had tried chocolate for the first time as a kid but this was still Felix's second time ever having it. Hyunjin swayed slightly to the melody that was currently playing. He then offered his hand once again and this time he didn't even need to ask, Felix took his hand without hesitation and then started dancing once again in the slowly dimming kitchen.

"This is hardly appropriate, sir," Felix giggled, though he showed no signs of genuine discomfort. "Dancing with a servant like this" On any other occasion Hyunjin would have agreed and been disappointed with himself for even considering it but today he had gotten a taste of a warm, happy feeling in his chest and he was just chasing for more, throwing all caution to the wind. He had stripped himself of so many joyful things, trying to be the perfect prince and son but now he was allowed to be selfish and just enjoy the warmness spreading inside him, making him giddy. "But I like dancing with you" Hyunjin reasoned. He sighed a rather happy sigh before adding "Besides now we are tied. You taught me to bake and I taught you to dance" Felix giggled at this and like on cue, stepped on Hyunjin's toes. "I'm so sorry, sir" he gasped but was instantly relieved by Hyunjin just laughing it off. "I think I still have much to learn, sir" Felix jokes.

Hyunjin hadn't noticed, neither had Felix but the taller had been pulling the servant closer to him like they were magnets trying to reach each other. "Then I suppose I'll have to keep teaching you" Hyunjin teased. Their faces were now mere inches apart. Oddly enough it felt right; like they were simply meant to exist like this. Hyunjin considered he had to be either drunk or dreaming as he would never in a million years feel this way towards a servant but something about Felix was making him fall fast and hard. He could now clearly see all the little dots covering the entirety of Felix's face, maybe even count them if he really tried.

Felix then suddenly froze, staring at the door. Hyunjin quickly turned to look but saw no one. He looked at Felix again who let go of the taller immediately, whispering "Footsteps, sir! It's getting late" Hyunjin had to let go as well, though he was hesitant to do so. He once again missed the warmth and cheery air that seemed to surround Felix. Soon there was a knock on the door and without waiting for a response, Jisung stepped in. Hyunjin had never felt such distaste even towards Jisung. How dare he interrupt the lovely evening he and Felix were having?! Since when had Hyunjin been having lovely evenings with servants?!

"Chan hyung said you should get to your room, prince" his voice was cold and monotone. Hyunjin looked at him coldly before responding "Yes, yes, I'll be right there. Now get out of my sight!" Irritated as usual. Felix was getting severe whiplash from Hyunjin's change in demeanor. He had just been so incredibly warm and sweet just to now go back to acting like a cold, arrogant brat. Jisung merely rolled his eyes before leaving the kitchen, gladly taking any excuse to get away from the prince. Hyunjin sighed and closed his eyes in an attempt to calm down.

"P-Prince?"

Felix's voice was so horrified and full of regret that it made Hyunjin open his eyes in an instant. Felix was again staring at him like he had seen a ghost. "Yes?" Hyunjin asked, trying to force calm into his voice to diffuse the situation. Felix then hastily fell into a 90-degree bow, staring at his feet while stuttering "I-I had no idea, si- I mean y-your highness, I-I am so sorry!" This reaction confused Hyunjin. Felix didn't know? He had thought Hyunjin was just some random noble from a rich family? He was waiting for his pride to kick in and made him annoyed that Felix hadn't been treating or addressing him like royalty but it never came. He didn't want Felix to treat him any different if it meant he won't get to dance or bake with the boy anymore.

He walked to Felix, who was still in a deep bow, and pushed him up by his shoulders so he was standing upright again. His eyes were still big and a little scared. He reminded Hyunjin of a scared cat. "There is no need for that Felix" this did nothing to soothe the panicked boy, on the contrary, he seemed to be just more confused and afraid "B-But royalties are to be addressed-" Hyunjin cut him off, one hand still on the boy's shoulder "I don't wish for you to address me like that" he was very much going against everything he had ever thought or said before but it felt right in that moment to say those exact words. Perhaps it was his guardian angel finally showing up to show him what to do.

He took a step back. The kitchen suddenly felt much colder and darker now that Felix was no longer his bright, happy self. "I must go now," he started walking to the door, upset that their wonderful day had ended gloomily for a reason Hyunjin didn't really understand. The air in the room, his mood, the temperature, everything seemed to revolve around Felix. So now that the sunshine boy was no longer beaming, everything fell cold and gloomy. Hyunjin cast one more glance behind him before leaving the room "Sleep well, Felix"

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Hyunjin looked at the plate of cookies like it had murdered his entire family. He hadn't listened to a word the nobles or Gayoung had said. He was plagued by memories of yesterday. The warm feeling, sweet scent, and Felix. He had never spared the food he was offered a second thought but now he felt distinctly bitter, seeing the nobles eat the cookies that Hyunjin helped make. They weren't going to thank Felix for making them or probably even pay him enough to feed himself. It frustrated Hyunjin and he didn't know what to do with that frustration. 

Their unbelievably boring conversation was interrupted by a loud crash from the kitchen. Gayoung immediately got up and excused herself going into the kitchen. The prince felt bad for the poor servant who had probably accidentally knocked something over and now had to fear for their life. This also bothered Hyunjin greatly as he was now left to keep the company of the nobles, something he had always hated. They were so pretentious and all they wanted to do was to show off their wealth and status. With Hyunjin being a prince this didn't work and usually ended up being very embarrassing for the other participants.

Loud yelling started erupting from the kitchen as Gayoung found the cause of the noise. She was berating a servant, calling them worthless, and threatening to cut their payment if they didn't get their act together. Hyunjin had no idea why he was so uncomfortable now. He had heard servants being yelled at, even yelled at a few himself but now he wanted to march into the kitchen and tell Gayoung to leave the poor servant alone. He tried to shake these thoughts out of his head as if they didn't belong to him. Maybe it was because he had seen how terrified Felix had looked when yelled at. Maybe he was uncomfortable because it could be Felix getting yelled at and threatened. 

"Please sir, tell us more about the soldier training" one of the noblewomen speaks up, looking at Hyunjin with a glint he was far too familiar with within her eyes. She was twirling her hair, trying to push her breasts to look bigger while batting her eyelashes at him. Hyunjin was all too used to this but really had no interest in the girl. She wasn't all that pretty and had the personality of a cardboard cutout. Furthermore, she was only interested in Hyunjin for his wealth and looks. Hyunjin didn't bother with politeness as he was getting more and more frustrated with the yelling coming from the kitchen.

"Perhaps later" the girl was clearly disappointed when Hyunjin didn't pay her flirting any attention. He excused himself, walking straight outside. His mind was so filled with thoughts of Felix and confusion from how he had started to respond to mistreatment. He walked around in the lot, hoping some fresh air would help him clear his head. He found the woods around the house quite beautiful. He wished to go there again, less angry so that he could properly enjoy the experience. He hadn't been to any woods before, being very well sheltered in the castle. Though it was only for his own protection. A prince could hardly just wander around the village. Not he would want to since it seemed so filthy and crowded.

He somehow had found his way to the stable. Though still very bothered by the smell, it didn't deter Hyunjin. He supposed he got used to it when spending the night there, something that he was still in utter disbelief about. He peered around the corner inside and saw a small boy sitting on a horse. This was the same boy Hyunjin saw with Felix a while ago. Soon after Felix appeared, his hair more ruffled than usual but the same pretty, bright smile on his face. He did seem rather tired, his movement was not as fast and bouncy as usual. The dark circles under his eyes added to Hyunjin's suspicion that the boy wasn't getting enough rest. Felix was making sure the saddle was fastened properly, smiling proudly at the boy. How did Hyunjin keep bumping into Felix everywhere he went? He hadn't noticed the fond smile plastered on his own face as he was watching Felix interact with the kid.

"Bokkie, I'm scared"  

"Don't be, she is a nice one. You said you've always wanted to ride a horse, be brave"

Felix's smile was so loving and comforting it stirred up the warm feeling in Hyunjin's chest again. He was starting to get used to it, no longer concerned about it, rather intrigued. How was this boy even real? Working every god-given hour and even in his very little free time, doing all that he can to make others happy. 

"Hold on, I'll just go get the lead"

Felix climbed up the ladder to the space where they had slept together. Hyunjin got flashbacks from that night that differed from the way he remembered it. The warm, candlelight, stars shining through the small window next to them, and Felix's deep, calming voice. felt incredibly warm again. He felt so light and at ease when Felix was around, he wondered if the servant made everyone feel this way. He was woken up from his daze when the horse suddenly made a loud noise, standing on its hind legs before sprinting off with the kid still on its back. Hyunjin froze, what should he do?! The kid could get seriously hurt. He thought for just a second before running as fast as his feet carried him after the horse.

He could still see the horse as it neared the woods. He really hoped it would stop before the woods because he really wasn't in the mood to chase a horse there. His legs were starting to get tired, his lungs burning a bit but he didn't allow himself to stop. He was forced to run into the woods when the horse didn't stop. He could feel the sticks and bushes sticking to his clothes but just ripped himself away from them. There was a lot of mud for some reason and it made his feet somehow sticky and slippery at the same time.

The kid was yelling loudly and Hyunjin hoped it would attract someone's attention and they would come help as he was starting to get tired. Luckily the horse seemed to start slowing down as the bushes got thicker and it got harder to pass through. Hyunjin used up the rest of his remaining strength and caught up with the horse that had now almost stopped. He pet the side of its head, sushing which made it instantly calmer. He just now realized that this was his horse, May. He pet her for a while before turning his attention to the crying boy. "Jump down," he said, holding his arms open for the boy "I'll catch you" the boy seemed hesitant but seemed to want to get away from the horse as quickly as he could.

He caught the boy, just as he said he would, and gently let his feet hit the ground. He didn't know how to comfort the boy. This wasn't something he did very often nor did he have many pleasant memories of being comforted. He was always just told to wipe his face before someone sees. A prince cannot be caught acting so weak.

He was just glad to have finally caught up with the boy and the horse. He knelt down a bit to be eye level with the boy and wiped one of his tears asking "Boy, are you hurt?" The boy looked at Hyunjin, seemingly for the first time, and shook his head. Hyunjin was still panting, now sweating and he thought his lungs were surely on fire. He stood there, absentmindedly holding the boy's hand, rubbing soothing circles on the back of his hand.

He then turned to his horse "May, that wasn't very polite of you" he smiled, petting the side of her neck. She neighed back like she was defending herself and Hyunjin chuckled. He had had this horse for a very long time, picking her as his favorite the moment he laid eyes on her. She was dark as night with white accents on her forehead. The boy sniffled loudly before asking "Is the horse yours, sir?" Seemingly the boy had picked up on the fact that Hyunjin wasn't one of the servants. Perhaps it was his beautifully styled, long hair or his expensive clothes. Hyunjin always prided himself on looking like royalty so that it wouldn't need to be announced. He nodded, still smiling. "Her name is May and she is usually a very good girl. I don't know what made her behave this way but I am…" he trailed off. He was about to apologize for the inconvenience caused by his horse but why had the boy been about to ride May in the first place. He had no right sitting on his royal horse.

"What were you doing with my horse?" He hadn't meant to but he came off rather agitated again, making the boy slightly frightened. He cast his memory back to before he started chasing the horse "You were with someone". He knew perfectly well who the boy had been with but simply wanted to know if he was stupid enough to lie to the prince. "Please sir, he was only trying to be nice" the boy's voice was quivering like he was on the verge of tears. "Blame me, sir, I don't want Yongbok in trouble" Hyunjin found this odd. He certainly had never as a child taken responsibility like that. He would have weaseled his way out of anything possible, blame it on anyone but himself. Here was this kid, asking him to place the blame not on Felix but the kid.

He sighed, deciding on an impulse "Nobody is in trouble boy. We should get back to the stable" the boy looked up at him, surprised but Hyunjin gave him a look that clearly stated, "Ask no further" . He wasn't sure if his newly found kindness could stretch enough for the boy to ask questions. He gently guided May to turn around and they started walking back. Hyunjin's legs felt slightly weak from the intense sprint. The boy seemed amazed by the horse, asking curiously "She will follow us?" Hyunjin nodded. "She is very smart" the kid was in awe at this, looking at May with wide eyes and a bright smile.

This would go on the list of things that Hyunjin would never admit but being around the curious kid was refreshing. He asked a lot of questions and Hyunjin somehow knew the answer to every single one. The kid seemed so impressed with everything that Hyunjin told him and seemed to warm up to the prince rather quickly. The kid was so innocently excited about everything Hyunjin told him and for once the prince felt like someone was enjoying his company.

When they reached the edge of the forest, Hyunjin immediately spotted a panicked figure running around, clearly looking for them. They didn't need to walk much closer when not one but two figures started approaching them. The kid instantly ran to Felix, who embraced him, closing his eyes. The other figure stormed to Hyunjin, nearly shouting "Where have you been?! Look at the state of you!" Hyunjin couldn't tell if Chan was fuming or worried. He was shocked however to notice the clearly worried look on Jisung's face before the other managed to hide it.

He just now noticed how awful he must look. His clothes were partially dirty and ripped, his shoes covered in mud, scratches on his face, hair tousled and sweaty. He hadn't even stopped to consider the state of himself, just trying to get the boy back safely. He looked over at the two hugging next to him. Felix was crouching a bit, eyes closed and breathing labored. He still looked so pretty. Hyunjin thought the kid was lucky to have Felix to protect him. Hyunjin was so lost in the somewhat domestic feeling he got when watching Felix fuss over the boy. Felix was surely a great older brother.

"Hello?! Earth to Hyunjin!" Chan waved in front of him. Hyunjin pointed to the horse, then at the kid and the forest. He didn't care to explain what had happened, now slightly ashamed by how he had without thought rushed into the forest, letting his clothes be ruined with no care. Chan just shook his head, he would need an answer eventually but he wasn't who Hyunjin wished to speak with the most right now. He turned to look at Felix who was looking at him with the warmest smile, still holding onto the boy. "I'll explain everything later but now I must get May back to the stable" he pat May's side twice and started walking, giving Felix a look, beckoning him to follow. His behavior had Chan both worried and insanely confused but let it be for now.

Once at the stable, Felix told the kid to go home and after a little reluctance, thinking that Felix would be scolded or punished, he left just the two of them alone. Once they made sure May was where she was supposed to be and wouldn't run off again, Felix turned to Hyunjin and just stared at him for a while. He then latched onto Hyunjin, embracing him in a quite similar manner as he had the kid. It felt actually quite nice but it didn't last long enough as Felix quickly realized who Hyunjin was, detaching from him and bowing again. "I-I'm so sorry sir. That was out of line but I was just so grateful that I-" Hyunjin pulled him up by his shoulders again, cutting him off "I never said it was out of line" Felix looked utterly baffled but smiled quickly after.

"I-I'm sure you are displeased that we took your horse without permission and I am fully willing to take the punishment for it but please do not punish the boy, it wasn't his fault" Felix spoke almost too fast, rushing. Hyunjin chuckled as the boy had basically told him the same thing. "No one shall be punished today, I am pleased that no one got hurt" it felt good to be the one giving the constant pleasant surprises. Felix didn't know what to do so he resorted to what he knew best and hugged the prince once again. Hyunjin was unfamiliar with such physical affection but hesitantly wrapped his arms around the other and melted into the hug. On any ordinary day, he would be furious that a servant would dare to ruin his clothes like this but since they were already ruined, he might as well let this slide, right?

"I don't know how to thank you enough, sir. You've been so kind" Hyunjin suddenly got upset. He hadn't heard that said to him in so long. He sighed, letting go of the embrace "I haven't been kind to anyone in a long time" he said more to himself than anyone, in particular, letting out a bitter chuckle after it. Considering the way he had acted so cold and rude towards everyone. Yet he felt so good after saving the boy, especially now that Felix was so grateful and happy all because of him. Felix knew that he was very much testing the limits when he brought his hand to caress Hyunjin's cheek but did it regardless "It doesn't mean that you can't be kind, sir. You have been very kind to me, so clearly you are capable of it" the warm feeling spread in Hyunjin's chest at these words.

Felix so honestly and innocently believed that Hyunjin could be kind and good even though the prince had come here showing the complete opposite. He supposed that Felix showing him kindness had stuck onto him now. He leaned into the hand on his cheek, throwing all caution to the wind. Forgetting for a moment that he was a prince and the hand belonged to a servant who had no place acting like this with him. They were just Hyunjin and Felix. It felt good. He thought the feeling he had gotten working in the kitchen was from the warmness of the oven and the beautiful music playing but clearly, it had been just Felix. This showed Hyunjin that he could get this feeling whenever he was around Felix. 

Hyunjin placed his hand over the other's small one on his cheek, just enjoying the feeling of it. He let his mind wander freely, not asserting stupid rules his thoughts should abide by. He wanted to let Felix fuss over him and take care of him, though he didn't know why. He enjoyed being close to Felix so he wondered how wonderful it would be to pull him even closer and feel the boy's lips against his. How would Felix taste? He held himself back, not wanting to scare the boy off. All this physical affection and intimacy was so foreign and new to Hyunjin but he was eager to experience more, to have more. Maybe he was greedy but Felix seemed to bring out completely new sides of him so it wouldn't be too crazy of a thought.

He was filthy and starting to feel tired. He didn't understand why but he didn't want Felix to see him like this. He dropped both hands from his cheek, still holding onto the servant's tiny one. Felix was slowly getting used to the prince behaving in an illogical and unpredictable manner, simply going along. "I must go now. I have a lot to explain" Hyunjin chuckled, looking down at his clothes. Felix seemed to just now realize the state of him as well. "Oh, sir I am so sorry! I can have them fixed, though I can't afford to pay for new ones" Felix sounded genuinely upset that the prince's clothes were ruined more than afraid of punishment. Hyunjin smiled, waving their intertwined hands around a bit playfully "Don't worry, I have plenty more" 

They started inching closer again. Hyunjin was once again convinced that the servant had him under some sort of spell but he had started to enjoy these moments too much to care. They were so close. Felix thought Hyunjin looked even prettier up close. He wanted to kiss the freckle right under his eye, though he didn't know why and it would be highly inappropriate. But why was the prince so close? Why was he coming even closer? Should Felix move? Was he in the prince's way? Their noses were touching now, their lips itching to connect. Hyunjin hoped the boy wouldn't move away again, he didn't know if he could handle it. He felt so fragile. Like all of him was out for Felix to take or destroy. He relished in the warm feeling, the tingling all around his body as well as Felix's soft breaths. Though once again, their moment was ruined by someone else.

"Yongbok!"

Hyunjin wanted to curse as he heard Gayoung screech.

"Yongbok?! Where is that useless boy?! "

Hyunjin thought he better disappear before Gayoung sees them and blames Felix for it. He smiled at Felix once more before slipping out of the stable, the image of a smiley Felix waving him goodbye engraved in his brain where he wanted to keep it all to himself.

He spotted a familiar figure leaning against the stable wall. "Come to eavesdrop?" He really didn't want to fight with Jisung, not right now, not when he still had the image of Felix in his head."Not much else to do around here if I'm being honest" Jisung stated indifferently, walking along with Hyunjin."Not that there was much to eavesdrop on. Making out with servants doesn't require much talking" he teased. Hyunjin went pale. Jisung couldn't know, it was impossible. He stopped in his tracks, turning around "I wasn't making out with the servant!" Jisung didn't look very convinced which prompted Hyunjin to ramble on further "And I'm not saying that's the case, because it isn't! But if it were, you wouldn't be allowed to mention it to a living soul!"

Jisung chuckled at Hyunjin's poor attempt at saving the situation. He raised his arms up "Hey, who you make out with is none of my business" Hyunjin thought this was oddly light-hearted coming from Jisung. He just smiled at the prince "I shall take it to the grave with me" Hyunjin looked at the guard like he had lost his mind, which granted, Hyunjin thought he had. "You're messing with me now," he said apprehensively. This complete change in behavior was weirding the prince out. Usually, Jisung would've grabbed onto any opportunity to make fun of or embarrass the prince. "Messing with you?" Jisung looked genuine.

Both men were now clearly thoroughly confused. "You aren't going to make fun of me? Call me a hypocrite? Scoff and roll your eyes?" Hyunjin tried, sort of hoping that this would bring them back to their normal interactions. Jisung just chuckled, now seeming light-hearted again "Not today prince. Though you are a hypocrite for messing around with a servant like that" Hyunjin didn't get it. What's going on here? He stared at Jisung in confusion, refusing to speak further until he got an explanation.

"Look," Jisung started, walking a bit closer. "We haven't exactly been the best of friends," Hyunjin chuckled. That would be an understatement "But I do think that saving that kid was admirable and I commend you for it" Jisung finished with a nervous smile. Hyunjin, for once, felt like the guard was just a human, like him, not his enemy. Though every part of his brain was screaming at him to not fall for this, he sighed, chuckling a little too "We never seemed to get along, that is true. I just never knew why" now that he thought of it, he genuinely didn't. It was as if he and Jisung had always hated each other since the first time they laid eyes on the other.

Jisung looked somewhat bothered before he spoke "I guess that's my fault". Though Hyunjin had always thought this, now he couldn't quite agree. Jisung, however, didn't let him protest "I never liked you. I guess it was because you're the prince, maybe it's because you're an insufferable asshole, who really knows. I just decided that I hated you and acted accordingly" Hyunjin would've normally raised absolute hell had Jisung straight up called him an asshole but he was willing to take the hit. Since Jisung was admitting his flaws and wrongdoings, Hyunjin felt like he wasn't being looked down upon for his. "It's not like I did much to disprove the opinion you formed of me" Jisung looked surprised at the prince's words. "If we're all coming clean here, I'm afraid I haven't treated anyone very well at all" Hyunjin was now looking at the other nervously. He was opening up for the first time probably ever and to Han Jisung of all people.

"It's not all on you, I suppose I was jealous of you too. You being an asshole just made me feel justified in disliking you" Jisung spoke fast like he was nervous and needed to let everything out. "Jealous? Of me?" Hyunjin asked in utter disbelief. Sure he was the prince but who would be jealous of having to be perfect at all times and someday having to be in charge of the entire kingdom? Jisung rolled his eyes but chuckled at the prince. "Yes, obviously. You were everything I wanted to be when I first started working at the castle!" Hyunjin tried to process what Jisung was saying and once he did it sent him into such shock and confusion that he didn't know how to respond. "I am from a very poor family so, like Felix, I used to work day and night. Ever since I was 12, and when I finally got into the guard training I was beside myself. Then I saw you in the castle. I always wanted to be tall and handsome, wear pretty clothes, and walk around with such pride and elegance. On top of living a very luxurious life. So yeah…I was jealous" 

Hyunjin still didn't know how to respond. That was how Jisung saw him? Jisung's rambling did explain a lot though. That time he freaked out when Hyunjin was simply asking whether it was true that children were hired to work, he understood now. Jisung was simply frustrated because he had probably been mistreated by someone he worked for, someone who thought like Hyunjin and had just had enough when the prince finally started figuring out that life wasn't perfect for everyone. Hyunjin still didn't know what to say. What could he say? What would repay Jisung multiple years of mistreatment? He didn't know, so he did something that he recently discovered that made him feel better. He gently hugged the guard.

It was weird and kind of awkward but Hyunjin had now learned from Felix that the other person might feel better, even though he was taking a risk here. After he stepped away from Jisung, the boy looked like the prince had turned into a frog. Though there was a red tint to his cheeks that wasn't there before. "I apologize for my behavior and attitude towards you" Hyunjin hadn't even realized that he was apologizing. Once again he felt like that was just the right thing to say here. Jisung stuttered for a moment but soon enough responded "I apologize as well, prince" after this awfully awkward moment, they both started laughing and walked inside.

They walked into Hyunjin's room chatting and laughing together. Chan was sitting on Hyunjin's bed looking extremely worried. He looked at the two of them. Since when have they been friends? When the two just ignored him to continued their conversation, Chan cleared his throat "What the fuck is happening today?" At which both Jisung and Hyunjin just laughed, launching into the story of what happened.

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Hyunjin tied half of his long, dark brown hair with a black silk ribbon to get the out of his way. Though there were still two stubborn pieces that fell down no matter what he did. Today he wasn't that mad about them since he thought they framed his face very nicely. He was wearing a big, fluffy robe that went down to his ankles, still trying to recover from the ice-cold bath he had the pleasure of being subjected to this morning. He would surely give Gayoung a piece of his mind. They couldn't even make sure that the boiler was in working condition?!

He shivered as he got dressed, wanting to just get back in his bed, under the covers. This wouldn't do however since Chan told him they'd be going somewhere today. He wouldn't tell where exactly they'd be going but the prince mused that anywhere would be better than here. Gayoung had gotten infinitely more infuriating since she found out about the horse incident a few days ago. Luckily everyone refused to tell her what exactly happened and who were the ones responsible. Hyunjin had never felt such a sense of community as the servants here had. They all looked out for each other and stuck together. It made the prince feel like an outsider, though all servants had started to offer him polite smiles since he helped the kid.

Once he got to the front door where Chan and Jisung were standing, the two were eager to get going though Hyunjin thought it was much too early to be going anywhere. 

"Oh, come on! We gotta leave early so that it won't be so crowded when we get there" Jisung tried to cheer Hyunjin up, fruitlessly. Chan just smiled at the two, still utterly baffled as to how they were getting along now all of a sudden. He had decided not to bug them about it just in case this was a dream and that would wake him up. Their horses were waiting for them at the stable. Hyunjin smiled when he noticed the small figure with messy, dark hair. Felix was getting the horses ready, smiling while seemingly talking to them. The prince found this quite endearing, especially when he noticed how the boy's eyes sparkled. When they got to the stable Felix looked at Chan nervously, bowing a little while saying "They're all ready, sir"

Chan just smiled, which seemed to ease Felix at once. "Thank you, we'll be going now" Hyunjin didn't like the way Felix smiled back. It was one of those extra pretty smiles he would have on his face when talking about something he really liked. Hyunjin of course thought the servant looked very pretty but he didn't like that it was directed at Chan and not him. Furthermore, he was ashamed to admit how much it bothered him that Felix hadn't even looked in his direction. Focusing all his attention solely on Chan. "Sir, when will you be back?" Felix asked, still beaming. Chan just shrugged, looking at Jisung for help. "I'm just asking so that I'll be here to put the horses back when you return, sir" Felix started absentmindedly petting May while talking.

The look of realization on Chan's face was almost comical, to Hyunjin at least "Oh, I don't know when we'll be back but I can take care of our horses if you're not here". Felix looked hesitant, disbelieving almost. Did he seriously think this was some sort of a trap to get him in trouble? Hyunjin found the behavior amusing until he realized that like with a lot of his previous behavior, that had probably happened and that's why Felix was so distrusting. Finally, the boy nodded, thanking Chan.

Hyunjin was about to turn around and leave when Felix rushed to him. "Wait, sir!" He turned back around in a flash. "Your strap is a little loose" he rushed to the prince's horse, making sure the seat was on properly. Hyunjin just stood beside the boy and admired him. Felix then winced when pulling a bit too hard on something, whispering "Son of a bitch!" He shook his right arm for a moment before realizing that he wasn't alone. "I'm so sorry sir, I shouldn't use that kind of language around you!" He was still holding his right hand, rather protectively. Hyunjin just chuckled "Ah, don't worry, I did it first" while winking, referring to the unfortunately embarrassing bath incident. Felix flushed a bright shade of red, giggling.

Hyunjin reached for Felix's right hand, frowning a little when the boy shoved it behind his back. "Let me have a look," Hyunjin pleaded. He didn't know why or where this protective instinct came from. All he knew was that Felix was potentially hurt and it was his personal responsibility to take care of the boy. Felix just smiled, shaking his head politely "No, sir, it's nothing, really. I don't wish to hold you back" Hyunjin gently tugged Felix's right arm from behind his back. Half of his palm, the back of his hand, and a few fingers were burnt and had blisters on them. It looked painful and Hyunjin had no idea why wasn't the hand in bandages.

"What happened?" Hyunjin asked sharply, no longer in the mood for politeness. It better have been an accident or someone was getting executed. Felix was a little lost again. He never knew if the prince's cold, sharp attitude was directed at him or was he okay to be a little informal with the prince like he has been thus far. "I was helping in the kitchen, sir" Hyunjin's eyes were now actively analyzing the other's face to see if he was lying. The prince nodded, not satisfied at all with the explanation given. "There's a reason I'm not really let into the kitchen, sir" Felix finally chuckled. This eased Hyunjin a bit, though he was still rather annoyed at the boy not taking care of the burns. He carefully looked at the hand again, frowning. "It really doesn't hurt, sir! Not unless I scrape it on something" Hyunjin's heart fluttered at the innocence in the other's voice. Felix was just so unbreakably happy and kind.

"Take care of it!" Hyunjin said again. Though his tone was rather harsh, Felix couldn't help but chuckle at the cute pout on the prince's face. Felix nodded, enthusiastically, making sure once more that Hyunjin's horse was ready. Hyunjin always forgot, when it was just the two of them, if he had somewhere to be or if there were people around them. He lost all track of time and surroundings, to him Felix was the only thing in existence. He wanted to pull the boy close again, continue where they left off at the stable a couple nights ago, knowing that it might take forever until he gets Felix all to himself like that. However, once again, Felix slipped right out of his grasp, making his way towards the fields, yelling after himself "Have fun in the town, sir!"

Hyunjin quickly got on his horse and caught up with the two guards. "We are heading to the town?" He asked, curiously. Jisung whined "Felix just had to tell you" with a pout. Hyunjin smiled proudly "He wouldn't lie to me" which he hoped to be true. Chan seemed to be rather focused on what direction they were to take so he didn't speak much but by the time they reached the town, he had had more than enough of Hyunjin's and Jisung's bickering followed by fits of laughter. They were all a bit on edge when joking around with each other. Though Hyunjin and Jisung had started to understand each other and get along, neither wanted to cross a line that would lead to them despising each other again.

People stared at them as they passed. This was to be expected of course as no townspeople could afford such fancy clothes. Hyunjin had always hated being stared at. His father always said he would get used to it once he grew up but he was still very uncomfortable and just wanted to get out of the town's center as fast as possible. It wasn't as crowded as it was the day they passed by here when getting to Gayoung's house but there were still quite a few people. The town wasn't as dirty as Hyunjin remembered it, nor did the people look as poor but the prince mused that this was because he was getting used to people looking like that. He tried to keep his eyes strictly on the road ahead, hoping that would help him ignore the stares.

"Why are we here hyung?" Hyunjin whined when a group of workers stopped in their tracks to stare at them. Chan rolled his eyes, still smiling "It's not good for you to be cooped up in that house all the time"  he then leaned a bit in Hyunjin's direction and continued quietly "No matter how pretty the servants are" The prince blushed up to the tips of his ears and smacked Chan. They had no right teasing him about Felix no matter how strange his behavior turned whenever the pretty servant was around. This got Hyunjin thinking about Felix again. He wondered if the boy had lived here. Would his family still be living here? 

He felt slightly guilty looking at the children sitting on the streets, looking tired and hungry. Had things always been this way? Was it possible that he just hadn't known? The prince's pride kicked in saying this must be a recent issue because he would surely know. But that raised another question; why hadn't the king fixed the issue? Was he unaware like Hyunjin had been or did he simply not care to? Hyunjin would surely tell his parents about the poverty in the town, urging them to help the people. He could never feel right sitting in a fancy ballroom with expensive clothes made of silk if he knew there were people who couldn't even feed their children. He was once again lost deep in thought, so much so that he almost flew off his horse when Jisung exclaimed "We're here!" 

Hyunjin collected himself watching Jisung jump off his horse and sprint inside a shop. The prince turned to Chan, who was off his horse now as well and pointed at Jisung, wordlessly asking if the boy had lost his mind. Chan just chuckled, waiting for Hyunjin to get down as well "He hasn't been able to come here in ages, he's a little excited" Hyunjin laughed sarcastically "A little?"

They followed Jisung into the store. It wasn't very big and there was dust everywhere but Hyunjin liked the warm, orange light surrounding them. The place felt old, looked old too but in a very cozy way. There were books everywhere. Jisung was darting around, picking up books and conversing with the clerk who he apparently knew. Hyunjin didn't really care for books. He had been forced to read so many for his studies and he saw no fun in them. They were for studying which Hyunjin had had enough of. Well, except the book Felix had read to him. What were the people called? Peter and Wendy? The book was about them, Hyunjin was quite certain. Though he had never seen a storybook before, it intrigued him.

He walked around, looking at the books. There were all kinds. Some detailing studies on human anatomy, some about a thousand herbs and plants to heal, some bright and colorful with short stories in them. He looked through all the, what seemed to be, storybooks and was upset when he saw none of them mention anyone named Peter or Wendy. Was he remembering incorrectly? 

"Are you looking for something?" The old man had sneaked up next to Hyunjin and was now addressing him with a warm smile, though no honorifics. Hyunjin hesitated for a moment. Would he look ridiculous looking for a children's tale? Though something about the man's warm smile and welcoming demeanor made Hyunjin relax. "Do you happen to have a story about a boy named Peter who meets a girl named Wendy?" He felt ridiculous just asking that and wanted the earth to swallow him. The man didn't laugh at him, however. He only smiled knowingly, starting to go through the books. "It must be Peter Pan you're looking for, I oughta have it somewhere here" The man spoke with such kindness that Hyunjin no longer felt embarrassed about wishing to find the book. Then the man smiled, pulling out a dark green book with gold accents.

"There ya go, seen better days but unfortunately I have no better to offer you" the man sounded so apologetic. Hyunjin took the book smiling and dusting it off a bit. "Thank you," Hyunjin said quickly before opening the book, eager to know more. He didn't know why he had taken such interest in this book. Perhaps it was because Felix liked it so he wanted to know more about it, perhaps he thought he could have an excuse to go talk to the servant again or maybe it was just childish curiosity. No one had read him stories or fairy tales growing up and having Felix read his first one to him felt very special.

He gave an exasperated look to Jisung who had so many books, he could barely carry them. He never would've taken Jisung for a bookworm but apparently, his two months here were a learning experience from all directions. He decided to buy the book for no particular reason at all. He just simply felt like it. There was no way he was this affected by Felix; none.

They kept walking around the town after that. Hyunjin noticed that everything seemed to be old or broken around here, even the items being sold. Were things really that bad here? 

He felt more at peace when they reached a more wealthy part of the town. This still wasn't even close to what Hyunjin became accustomed to at the castle but he didn't at least have to feel guilty while walking there. The prince had never been one to shop much. Sure he liked his pretty clothes but he wasn't even the one buying them. He was happy with very little but his parents wanted him to have only the best so that's what he became used to. They walked past bakeries that smelt amazing, though Hyunjin knew there was no bakery that could beat Felix's baking. This reminded him of something he had wanted to do for a while now.

"Let's go here!" The prince ordered, pointing at a rather fancy sweets shop. Chan and Jisung followed, not even questioning the prince. They all had a weak spot for all things sweet. Though Hyunjin thought Chan seemed to have a weak spot for food of any kind. 

The shop was overwhelming with all the advertisements for different types of sweets. Lots of colors and fun shapes compared to the other boring shops across the street. It would be easy to get carried away and buy everything, it all looked so good. But Hyunjin was here for something specific. He looked around for a while, noticing the clerk's enthusiasm as three, clearly wealthy people, had just walked into his store. The prince knew their tricks. The clerk would try to price things up, thinking the wealthy wouldn't care or notice. Hyunjin found what he was looking for and just as he suspected, the price was astronomical for something so small. He would've normally thrown a fit about how rude the clerk was and how much trouble the man was in for doing this. Today, however, his head was filled with lovely thoughts, too excited about showing this to Felix to give the man the time of day. He smiled as he stuffed the item into the bag hanging off his horse, he hoped it would bring that pretty smile onto Felix's face.

Felix wiped the sweat off his forehead. It was hotter than usual today and of course today he was to work in the fields. He swore this was Gayoung punishing him for something he just didn't know what. Not that he often did. His limbs felt heavy and he was so thirsty. He just had to keep going, quitting wasn't an option. It had been so long since the prince and his guards left, Felix became worried if they would return at all. The sun would be setting soon. Felix knew he shouldn't get his hopes up, no matter how much time the prince seemed to want to spend with him. He was a servant, nothing more and Hyunjin was a prince. That wouldn't do.

He still hated how the seed of hope had planted itself into him, hoping the prince actually cared for him. He cared for the prince, that was for sure. Though the prince could be unpredictable and a bit bipolar sometimes, Felix had seen what he was really like. When the walls melted down, the ice prince melted with it. Felix still regularly thought about the feeling dancing with Hyunjin in the kitchen had given him. He wanted to feel like that with someone. It was just too cruel that his someone happened to be the prince. Someone who could never fall for someone like Felix. He knew the prince wouldn't stay here forever. He had overheard the guards talking about it. 5 more weeks and then the prince would be gone and take Felix's heart with him.

Logically he shouldn't even like the prince. He had been so arrogant and cold to everyone when he first arrived and to some extent, he still was, just not to Felix. But Felix couldn't help it. His heart fluttered when he looked at the sleeping prince on his first night here. He had looked so beautiful and soft. He cursed his weak heart for setting him up to get hurt.

He winced as his burnt hand scraped one of the bushes. It hurt like a bitch and Hyunjin would surely be displeased when he came back and noticed that he was still yet to bandage it. Even if hypothetically he somehow had the time to sit down and properly bandage his hand, he didn't have anything to do it with. He swore he'd never help out in the kitchen again, they were on their own. He felt dizzy, the heat, constant sun and lack of food or water were all working together to weaken him. He stood still for a while, supporting himself on the hoe he was holding. He closed his eyes and knew that this was a horrible idea taking into consideration how little he had slept over the past few days. He couldn't have cared less though, he was exhausted.

"Yongbok!"

He sighed, opening his eyes. God, how he hated hearing that. Gayoung was storming towards him, looking rather displeased. Felix just stood there waiting for her, it would be no use to run off. She reached him, though keeping a small distance as she always did. It amused Felix. She forced them to work extremely long hours in the fields or the stable and then complained when they were filthy. "Thought you deserved a little nap?" Her voice was sharp but not really angry. Felix had learned to assess the tones and their meanings over the years, knowing that she just wanted to let off some steam by yelling at him and he was in no real trouble. "No, miss," Felix said in a lifeless monotone voice, hoping it would make this less fun for her and she'd leave him alone. She looked even more displeased at that "If you think that I am going to let you-"

"Felix!"

Felix looked over Gayoung's shoulder at the owner of that voice, even though he knew perfectly well who it was. Only one person here called him Felix and only one voice made his stomach fill with butterflies when being called. The prince had returned and was gesturing Felix to join him at the stable. Not that Felix would ever say no to that but right now he'd take about any excuse to get away from this horrid woman. He gestured towards the prince and his guards to which Gayoung had no power to disagree on. Rolling her eyes and marching off was basically like being encouraged by her. Felix smiled, rushing to the stable.

By the time he got there, Chan was already busy putting away the horses which confused Felix. Their intentions cleared however when Hyunjin rushed to him "What did she want with you?" His voice was a bit offended though he tried to sound as normal as possible. He wouldn't need to start fighting anyone unless they were giving Felix a hard time. "Oh, I think she was just a bit irritated, sir" Hyunjin frowned. That shouldn't be the servant's problem. Felix tried to go help with the horses but Chan and Jisung just brushed him off, telling him they got it. He looked to Hyunjin for answers "Why did you call me here, sir, if not for the horses?" The prince noted that Felix's eyes were big and sparkly again. He looked somewhat hopeful, Hyunjin hoped he knew why but was also afraid he'd be wrong.

"I didn't like her yelling at you," The prince said it rather coldly but Felix was used to his contradictory statements and smiled. He felt warm inside knowing that, at least to some extent, Hyunjin had become protective of him. "Did you enjoy the town, sir?" Felix's voice was so genuinely excited. Hyunjin was used to people asking out of politeness but this boy was beaming with curiosity. He smiled, taking a step closer to the boy. This went undisclosed. Once again Hyunjin hoped the boy wouldn't push him away. "It was…Interesting," he said after thinking about it. It made Felix laugh and though Hyunjin had no idea why the boy was laughing, he was just happy to see the boy's smile. "I'm sure it wasn't as nice as the palace, sir," Hyunjin thought he sensed teasing in the other's words. 

Ignoring the teasing Hyunjin went on "I'll show you what I got" The prince seemed so excited. It made Felix smile even wider, stand even closer. He liked this prince. When he was being himself like this, letting himself be excited and enjoy small things. Hyunjin started going through the bag, now hanging across his body. Felix blushed when he realized that he had been staring at the prince's lips. Could he really be blamed? it wasn't Felix's fault that the prince had such pretty, soft-looking lips. He looked at their feet instead, excited to see what the prince had found worth buying. They were both interrupted by someone clearing their throat. They both turned their head simultaneously and from their expressions, you'd think had been caught doing something illegal.

"As wonderful as that would be Hyunjin, Yongbok here has a lot of work to do so please do not distract him" she grabbed Felix, rather harshly in Hyunjin's opinion, by the shoulders and dragged the boy with her. All that Hyunjin got from Felix was an apologetic pout. Then he got angry. How dare Gayoung call him just Hyunjin? She had no authority over him. Just because they were blood-related didn't mean he'd let her address him however informally she pleased. He was ready to go after them but was stopped by Jisung, who had a knowing, yet worried look on his face. "Let it be. You'll only cause more trouble for him" Jisung hadn't meant it to be hurtful but it upset Hyunjin. He never wanted to get Felix in trouble and hoped that he hadn't caused any issues with all his rule-breaking that Felix took the blame for.

Later that night Hyunjin found himself unable to sleep. He had tried reading the book to help him sleep but it did very little when his mind was occupied by a certain someone. He wondered if it was the book at all that helped him sleep. Perhaps it was just Felix's comforting, deep voice. In which case, there was only one solution to his problem. This is where he faced a problem, however. He didn't want the boy to think Hyunjin needed him to fall asleep (even though that was clearly the case), his pride preventing him from just giving in. Would Felix think it's stupid of him to crave the boy's presence? Though Hyunjin felt in his heart that Felix wouldn't do so. It wasn't in his nature to be judgemental. But who would willingly spend the night in a stable?

Apparently, the crown prince Hwang Hyunjin since he was sneaking out of the house to do so. He had the bag, he stashed everything he bought today in, and he was admitting defeat, setting his pride aside for hopefully even a bit of that warm, carefree feeling he got only around Felix.

The lantern was still lit in the stable, as usual, and Hyunjin could hear the familiar quiet humming. He peered around the corner and couldn't see Felix anywhere. This was certainly odd as he could still hear the boy's humming. He walked in, looking around a bit until he saw one of the booth's doors open. He walked a little closer and saw Felix sitting on the floor next to a horse that was laying down. He was smiling softly, petting the horse and humming quietly. Hyunjin found this adorable as it looked like Felix was trying to help the horse to sleep. There was such love in Felix's eyes and Hyunjin hoped that it wouldn't change when the boy would notice him.

He walked a bit further, gaining Felix's attention. The boy looked worried at first but his eyes softened when he recognized the intruder to be Hyunjin. He made sure the horse was asleep before standing up and greeting Hyunjin. "He is an older one, I'm not quite sure how much life he has left to live, sir" he looked upset when glancing at the horse. This managed to get Hyunjin's heart doing backflips at the boy's caring nature and unconditional love for anything living.

"But what are you doing here so late, sir? Did you get locked out of the house again?" Now the genuine worry in Felix's voice made the prince chuckle. Then Hyunjin was faced with the question. What exactly was he doing here? He was taking quite the risk but he had thought this over in his head and the pros outweigh the cons. "I couldn't sleep, I wished to see you" both men blushed at the prince's words. "B-But, sir, you won't get back into the house. Surely you should come see me during the day" Felix was stuttering a bit and looked almost too flustered to talk. Hyunjin just smiled at the adorable boy. "I can't seem to get a hold of you during the day. You are rather busy" his heart thumped loudly against his chest at the soft giggle that came from Felix. He took one of Felix's small hands into his own, both staring at them now.

"So you wish to sleep with me, sir?" Felix asked without much thought and regretted it immediately when he realized how it sounded. Hyunjin only chuckled, not bothering to disagree with the question as it wasn't untrue. Felix looked up at Hyunjin in panic, eyes going wide, blushing madly "I-I meant here! You wish to sleep here?!" He was just digging himself a deeper hole but Hyunjin found it far too cute to care. He also noticed that Felix forgot to call him "sir" for the first time and surprisingly he liked it. The prince couldn't stop laughing as Felix got more and more embarrassed.

"I wish to stay with you tonight, knowing it means I'll have to sleep here" Hyunjin finally confessed. He didn't feel so nervous about coming here now that Felix had also thoroughly embarrassed himself too. A smile broke onto Felix's face. "Really, sir?" Hyunjin swore he was in love the second he looked into those eyes. They were so big, sparkly, and loving, just like he hoped. He nodded, smiling "Please, just call me Hyunjin''. Felix looked like he had never heard of such a thing. This seemed to rearrange everything in the smaller's brain. "But that's hardly appropriate si-'' Hyunjin cut him off with the same, warm smile "I insist". Felix blushed even more if somehow possible, now even the tips of his ears were bright red.

"Are you done for the day?" Hyunjin asked while swinging their intertwined hands around a bit. Felix's brain seemed to be more or less short-circuiting. He couldn't believe what was happening right now. The prince came down here, willing to spend the night in a stable, though he had hated it just because he wanted to be around Felix? It didn't feel real. He then realized Hyunjin had asked him a question and nodded without even thinking twice if he really had done all the work for today or not. He was just so lost when he was around Hyunjin, he couldn't focus on anything else and needed the prince to guide him.

He pointed at the small hatch in the ceiling that they both knew led to the small space between the ceiling and roof. Hyunjin didn't answer simply walking over to it, jumping a bit to reach the silver ring hanging from it, and pulled. He chuckled at how amazed Felix seemed. The perks of being tall he supposed. He gestured to the ladder. He didn't know why he was so eager to get up there, it wasn't very comfortable. It did, however, feel like their own world. Where it was just the two of them,  where no one else could see and they could do whatever they pleased. Hyunjin didn't have to act like a prince, Felix didn't have to be just a servant and that's how Hyunjin liked it. They could leave all pretentious formalities behind them and just enjoy each other.

After climbing up Hyunjin noticed that the pile of hay he had slept on was still stacked next to Felix's. His chest felt warm at this for some reason. His place was still here, though he hadn't come to sleep on it for weeks. He sat down, finding the crouching position he had to stand in far too uncomfortable. The lantern provided them with the same warm, orange light as last time. When he looked up he noticed that Felix was rather nervous. Why was he nervous? He noticed the red, blistered hand, now slightly dirty too. He gave Felix a warning look before softening up "Do I need to start taking care of you?" which made Felix blush, feeling a little shy under the prince's gaze. Hyunjin decided to drop the matter for now but he would surely take care of Felix in the morning.

They laid down, facing each other this time. Hyunjin remembered the first night when he had admired the other's face while his eyes were closed. He liked it better this way, he adored Felix's eyes far too much to want them closed. He would have to stop looking eventually when sleep would take over him and he knew it. He didn't care about that now, however, too focused on memorizing every small detail on Felix's face. "You're staring at me" Felix noted, though he was staring at Hyunjin with equal intensity. Hyunjin moved a little closer, shrugging "You're pretty" this made Felix blush again, not expecting such honesty. They kept moving closer to each other until they were as close as they had only once been. The air felt electric, there was a strange pull between them. There was a lot of hesitation too. Felix was hesitant, knowing it was absolutely out of line for him to kiss a prince, no matter how badly he wanted to. Hyunjin, however, was battling his pride and everything he had ever learned. He shouldn't be kissing a servant of any kind but why did it feel like the right thing to do then? Why was he so pulled towards Felix if they weren't meant to be?

Hyunjin was the one to override his mind and close the distance. They were clearly testing the waters, trying to see if the other would pull away. Hyunjin was sure now that he was meant to find Felix. The kiss was soft and lasted for very little but when they pulled away from each other, Hyunjin could see stars in the other's eyes. He was looking at Hyunjin with such love and adoration that the prince knew there was no turning back anymore. He had chosen Felix, despite everything he had been taught and against his better judgment, he was now irreversibly in love with the boy. He brought his hand to rest on the side of Felix's neck, his thumb caressing his jaw. "May I kiss you?" Hyunjin asked, wanting to know Felix too felt this. Felix smiled that pretty, special smile "Please" and before he could speak further, Hyunjin pulled them together again.

As cliché as it sounds, Hyunjin felt like fireworks were going off in his brain, the butterflies in his stomach going haywire but it all felt so exciting. His chest was filled with the warm feeling and it lingered, clinging onto Felix's hands that were now on his chest. Their lips danced together like this wasn't their first time. They were both running out of breath but the kiss felt so intoxicating that such small matters as the need for air weren't enough to stop them. The hay was poking at Hyunjin's cheek, scratching even but he thought it was worth putting up with. Anything would be worth putting up with for this feeling. When they finally separated again, Felix stayed so close. Their foreheads against each other, breathing heavily, Felix started chuckling a bit. Hyunjin opened his eyes, looking at the other like he was a mad man. "I would be in so much trouble if someone knew" though it was a light-hearted comment, it brought Hyunjin back to reality at least a bit.

He didn't want to lose this feeling. He didn't want to give up Felix but he was right. This wasn't allowed, it wouldn't be accepted. Hyunjin was to leave in 5 weeks and never return. He would have to leave Felix here. Felix would find someone else, raise a family with them. Hyunjin didn't like the thought of seeing Felix with someone else. He wouldn't allow it. For the first time in his life, he felt somewhat powerless. He decided to ignore these worries in exchange for tonight, he clung to the only thing he knew would get him out of his head.

He pecked Felix's soft lips again as if to reassure himself that he was still there. Felix's hands were now grabbing the shirt on Hyunjin's chest as if he was doing the same. "You're so beautiful" Hyunjin sighed while stroking Felix's hair. The boy giggled, red in the face "Stop it!" He demanded in a whiny voice that did nothing but amused Hyunjin. He then remembered the bag he had taken with him and sat up suddenly. Felix looked concerned for a while until Hyunjin made a small noise of victory and pulled something out of the bag. The prince then shyly offered whatever it was to Felix. It was wrapped in a thin, white paper. Felix took it with a questioning look, unwrapping it.

He thought his jaw hit the floor when he saw what was wrapped in the paper. Hyunjin sat closer to the other again, excitedly waiting for his reaction. Felix looked at him with wide eyes again "You bought this for me?!" and when Hyunjin nodded, a small smile started making its way onto Felix's face. "But it's so expensive!" Felix argued which only made Hyunjin laugh. 

Felix didn't know what to say. It was chocolate. A lot of it. Hyunjin must've gone mad to waste this much money on him. He was touched that Hyunjin had thought of him while going around the town. "Let's taste it!" Hyunjin said excitedly. Felix broke off two pieces and handed one to Hyunjin, feeling bad as his hands weren't very clean. Hyunjin didn't really seem to think twice before chucking it in his mouth. Felix was too entranced by Hyunjin to do much so when he didn't move, Hyunjin reached over. He took the chocolate from the boy's hand, moving it in front of his mouth. Felix let Hyunjin feed him the chocolate, blushing at the gesture.

He liked it. Maybe it was just because it was a gift from Hyunjin, or maybe he just really liked all things sweet. He knew he would get sick if he ate much more but just a little wouldn't be bad. Hyunjin seemed satisfied with himself as he waited for Felix to give his thoughts. "It's so good! Thank you!" Felix squealed while basically jumping on Hyunjin to hug him. Hyunjin just wrapped his arms around the smaller to keep him in place while laughing. They stayed like this for a while. Chins on each other's shoulders, Hyunjin's hands comfortably resting around Felix's waist while the other played with the prince's long hair. Hyunjin thought he could've fallen asleep like this. It was so comfortable and warm. 

Felix then pulled a bit further apart to look at Hyunjin. "Is this real?" His voice was quiet and low. He held such hope in his eyes, Hyunjin thought he was going to melt. He leaned in, capturing the other's lips again, hoping he was feeling the same way Hyunjin was. Hoping the other's beat fast like his, mind clouded and foggy like they were drunk off each other. When he pulled away, he thought Felix looked like a masterpiece. His lips were red and swollen, face flushed, hair messy, and had the prettiest sparkle in his eyes. "Of course it's real, otherwise I wouldn't be able to hold you" he moved his hands up and down Felix's sides to demonstrate. Felix chuckled, pecking the tip of Hyunjin's nose before moving to lay on the "bed". "We should rest, I need to work twice as hard if I wish to attend the bonfire this week" he smiled at Hyunjin, invitingly.

Hyunjin was curious about what this bonfire was but didn't question further. He had one small request in his mind that he came here for "Will you read for me again?" He wondered if it would be selfish to ask Felix to do so but the boy nodded, eagerly getting his book and laying back down. He patted his chest, asking Hyunjin to lay there. Though he was a little apprehensive at first, worrying that he would be too heavy for the frail boy, Hyunjin took a chance laying his head on Felix's chest, half of his body draped over the boy. Felix played with Hyunjin's hair with his other hand while the other held the book. Hyunjin found this much more comfortable than laying on the hay, perhaps he would have to sleep next to Felix every night. He would love that.

Felix's deep voice filled his head again and almost like magic, his eyelids started feeling heavy.

"I think it's perfectly sweet of you," she declared, "and I'll get up again" ; and she sat with him on the side of the bed.

She also said she would give him a kiss if he liked, but Peter did not know what she meant, and he held out his hand expectantly.

"Surely you know what a kiss is?" She asked aghast.

"I shall know when you give it to me," he replied stiffly; and not to hurt his feeling she gave him a thimble.

"Now," said he, "shall I give you a kiss?" and she replied with a slight primness,

"If you please."

She made herself rather cheap by inclining her face toward him, but he merely dropped an acorn button into her hand; so she slowly returned her face to where it had been before, and said nicely that she would wear his kiss on the chain around her neck. It was lucky that she did put it on that chain, for it was afterwards to save her life.

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Hyunjin read and reread the letter over and over again but still couldn't believe his eyes. His parents had finally written to him and he was disappointed, to say the least. He stared at the paper, hoping the words would change. He decided to read it once more just in case he misread something. Surely that must be the case

"Son,

I hope your stay has been insightful and you aren't perhaps too upset with us anymore. Things here in the castle are as always, your mother has stayed healthy and so have I. You haven't written much which concerns me slightly but I understand you weren't too happy with us after making the decision to send you there.

I have further good news. We met with the royal family from the north and we both shared a wish to unite the kingdoms. This shall be easy if you were to marry their daughter, Soomin and I am delighted to announce that she and her family have agreed to this arrangement so you will have a wedding to look forward to when you come back. Do not worry, I have met with her and she is an intelligent, beautiful girl and will surely be a suitable partner for you.

I hope you will stay healthy, we both love you dearly"

He kept reading the same line over and over again. "You will have a wedding to look forward to when you come back" but he didn't wish to marry this Soomin. He didn't wish to get married right now as it was but certainly not to some stuck-up princess. He wanted to be with Felix. His feelings towards the servant only kept strengthening after their night together a week ago. He had seen the boy around a few times and each time been blessed with his beautiful, bright smile. He had to tell Felix about this, he had the right to know since he was the target of Hyunjin's love and affection. He didn't know how he could tell without hurting the boy but he must tell.

Surely his parents wouldn't force him to marry her. They had wanted to unite with the north for quite some time now but him marrying their princess wasn't mandatory for that to happen. He hoped they wouldn't start planning the wedding before he got home as it would be embarrassing to have to cancel it. He wouldn't get married, however, that was for sure.

He must write back to his parents at once, telling them that he would do no such thing. He walked around his room, trying to find paper and something to write with. How god damn useless was this house?! How come everything even slightly useful was impossible to find?! In the castle, there was always some study that had the necessary items. He finally found paper from an old, dusty bookshelf in his room. Everything in this house sucked and it started to really piss Hyunjin off. Already annoyed, he was further provoked by Gayoung's yelling. She was probably once again yelling at a servant for a minor mistake they had made. He tried to ignore it for a while but when he couldn't even properly think with all the noise going on, he stood up abruptly, his chair falling backward and hitting the ground with a loud thump. He didn't bother picking it up, he just wanted some peace and quiet for once.

He marched to the source of the noise, which came once again from the kitchen, where he stopped behind the door to eavesdrop. He could've just burst into the room, told Gayoung to shut it, and go back to writing the letter but his curiosity got the best of him.

"You keep slacking off and breaking every single rule I have!"

Hyunjin scoffed quietly, knowing full well that there wasn't a single servant who would do such things. He guessed she was just in the mood to yell again.

"I will take a week's pay from you!"

Even Hyunjin thought that was overkill. Whoever she was yelling at must've been scared out of their wits as they didn't even try to protest.

"Do I need to start beating you for you to get it to your stupid little head?!"

"Huh?!"

There was a small thump and well as steps and Hyunjin could no longer just eavesdrop. He stepped into the room, seeing Gayoung hit someone's head rather harshly before she realized he was in the room and had the decency to stop. Once she moved a bit Hyunjin could see who she was threatening. Of course, it was Felix. Hyunjin gave him an apologetic look, knowing he was probably the main cause of his "slacking off" and "rule-breaking". He then got his attitude back when he remembered that he had walked in on Gayoung hitting the boy.

"Leave him alone, will you?!" Hyunjin didn't bother faking politeness of any kind. She didn't deserve it anyway. She looked absolutely scandalized by the prince defending the servant. "You work him to exhaustion only to take away his payment!" There was such fury in his voice that even Felix seemed slightly scared. Gayoung stuttered for a moment before she seemed to regain control of her voice. "With all due respect, he is working for me so I decide if he has worked enough and if he is deserving of payment" her voice was cold, though she didn't raise it. This didn't scare Hyunjin in the slightest, knowing he could be twice as bad if he tried. "What is he, a slave?!" He almost shouted, so outraged by what she was saying.

"Please I-" Felix started but was quickly cut off by Gayoung "Shut up you stupid boy! You have no place talking!" Which only fired up Hyunjin even further. "Don't talk to him like that." This time he wasn't shouting. His voice was cold and monotone, a warning. He could see on Gayoung's face that she was losing her snappy attitude. He couldn't have cared less if she hated him from here on out but he wouldn't watch her berate and hit Felix, that was for sure. "Never lay your hands on him again." He finished before grabbing Felix by the arm and dragging him out of the kitchen, leaving a dumbfounded Gayoung to stand there alone. Hyunjin was angry and his mind was filled with things he wished to say to her. If they were in the castle Hyunjin could have her properly punished for treating his love like that.

He didn't stop until they were back in Hyunjin's room, the door closed behind them. Felix looked shocked, eyes wide and mouth slightly open. He was still trying to process what just happened. Hyunjin then embraced the boy, petting his head "Did she hurt you?" His voice was still rather stern, feeling the aftermaths of his little conflict with Gayoung. Felix shook his head. A few hits to the head wasn't the worst beating he had endured. He melted into the prince's hold, ducking his head in the crook of his neck. Hyunjin liked how natural all of this felt. He could forget all his worries and just drown himself in this feeling again. 

"I should get back to work" Felix's voice was soft and quiet. They both knew he didn't want to go, he'd much rather stay here and let Hyunjin kiss his worries away. Hyunjin looked at the boy, pouting. "Oh, don't fuss. I have to get all my work done before the bonfire today" Felix chuckled a little at the prince's whiny attitude. This sparked the curiosity Hyunjin had when Felix first mentioned this "bonfire". "What is this bonfire?" Hyunjin was still yet to let go, wrapping his arms tightly around the other's waist, preventing him from running off. "You are trying to stall for time, prince" Felix smiled, hands sneaking up to play with the prince's hair. Hyunjin swore he'd never cut it ever since he noticed that it seemed to be one of Felix's favorite activities. Hyunjin tried to look innocent. He was actually curious but it was true he didn't want Felix to go yet. "I would never," he gasped before stealing a small kiss. Felix giggled, smacking the prince's chest gently.

"I am curious, you've mentioned it before" Hyunjin knew he should just let Felix get back to work. He was, once again, messing with his work and could get him into even more trouble but he wasn't very good at letting Felix go. Call him selfish but he just wanted the boy all to himself. Felix smiled a bit as an idea struck him "Would you like to come along?" His eyes were sparkly with hope again and Hyunjin knew he would agree to pretty much anything if Felix looked at him like that. "Of course, love" he smiled when Felix blushed at the affectionate title. The prince knew he wouldn't be allowed to leave the land without his guards. Chan was watching him like a hawk since he kept running off to god knows where and scaring the older guard. "Though, I don't know If my guards will let me leave. They are rather unhappy with my disappearing acts" Hyunjin chuckled after, feeling very fond of his friends.

"They are of course welcome as well!" Felix chirped with such enthusiasm, an excited smile breaking out onto his face. They would surely love to go. They, like Hyunjin, had grown tired of sitting around and doing nothing. Furthermore, Hyunjin's chest felt warm again, seeing how welcoming and kind Felix was to his friends. "I'm sure they would love to," he then kissed the boy once more, earning himself another smack on the chest. They had agreed on not kissing in the house for it was too risky. Hyunjin couldn't bring himself to care now though, not when he felt so overjoyed. "What time shall we meet?" He kept close, their foreheads touching. He was glad Felix seemed to share the same excitement and enthusiasm as him, a smile constantly stuck to his face. "I will try to be finished before 10, I will wait for you and your guards by the stable'' He then pecked Hyunjin's lips once more which caught the prince off guard and let the boy slip out of his hold and out of the room. Hyunjin was left there smiling like an idiot in love. His morning might've started off terrible but this was simply the effect Felix had on him. No matter what was bothering him, what had gone wrong, Felix could always cheer him up with a bright smile.

Hyunjin had immediately rushed to Chan and Jisung, asking them to join him to which they gladly agreed. He waited impatiently, feeling like time had stopped at some point. He was like a kid on Christmas eve. Why was the day going by so slow now?! He was excited, pacing around his room, looking at his clothes, and redoing his outfit at least 8 times which drove Jisung absolutely insane. "I keep telling you he will love it no matter what you wear" Hyunjin was standing in front of the mirror, pensively looking at his current outfit. Jisung sighed, giving up trying to talk sense into Hyunjin "I liked the last outfit". Hyunjin shook his head, going back to his closet to find something else to wear, still not satisfied. "It has to be perfect, Ji" he wasn't sure why he was all of a sudden so worried, Felix wasn't a snob when it came to clothes and he doubted the boy would be taking them to an extravagant ball. 

Jisung sighed dramatically again "Sometimes I wish you still hated me so I wouldn't be subjected to such cruelty" to which Hyunjin scoffed while changing his clothes. "Never too late to start hating you again, you've proved that at least" he walked in front of the mirror again, evaluating this outfit while Jisung laughed on his bed. "Oh! I like this one!" He exclaimed, getting up and walking next to Hyunjin. It was a rather simple outfit but that was exactly what Hyunjin had been looking for. He didn't know why he had this sudden urge to dress in more simple clothes. He had always loved looking expensive and extravagant. Perhaps he didn't wish for Felix to see him as a prince but instead just Hyunjin. He didn't get to ponder this any longer when Chan came in saying "It's almost then Hyunnie, we should go". This outfit would have to do.

He was slightly nervous when walking to the stable. He had noticed a pattern of confusing thoughts and feelings he seemed to get when being around Felix. It didn't bother him per se but it did make him feel more vulnerable.

He stopped dead in his tracks when he saw Felix. He was a lot cleaner than usual. No dirt marks on his face, his hair pretty and combed, wearing a white, flowy cotton shirt. Hyunjin had never seen him so dressed up and it left him almost breathless. The boy looked so beautiful, his bright smile topping everything off. Before Hyunjin could say anything or even get to Felix, the boy rushed to him, burying himself in his chest. Hyunjin felt a little shy being so affectionate in front of Chan and Jisung as they had never seen him with Felix. He embraced the boy nonetheless, whispering to him "You look beautiful" Felix giggled, no doubt blushing bright red, mumbling back "You're always beautiful". Hyunjin chuckled a little and when the two separated, the prince noticed his friends' fond smiles. He blushed, choosing to look at his feet instead.

Felix started walking towards the stable and the three followed him. "So, where exactly are we going?" Chan asked curiously. Felix started getting their horses out, already prepared for the journey. "Not far, just to the river nearby", he said while checking that everything was fastened correctly. Hyunjin smiled, noticing that so far there were only three horses. 

"Have you ridden a horse before?" He smirked, teasing on purpose. "Oh, no. I will be walking, I just knew you are accustomed to traveling by horse" Felix smiled brightly. Hyunjin shook his head, taking Felix's hand in his "I'm not letting you walk. You will ride with me" he tried to ignore the chuckling coming from his friends. He knew they would tease him to no end of this and the way he behaved around Felix but he was willing to take that hit. Felix blushed all the way to the tips of his ears, not protesting which Hyunjin appreciated.

Hyunjin was rather pleased with the arrangement. Felix was sitting in front of him, leaning against his chest, giving them directions. The ride was spent having comfortable conversations, Felix getting to know Chan and Jisung a little better.

"So you two used to not get along at all?" Felix gasped like it was something absolutely incomprehensible to him. Granted, it probably was. "Oh my god, they were such a pain in the ass. They couldn't even speak to each other without starting a fight!" Chan whined, sounding exasperated. Felix laughed at this, looking back at Hyunjin who looked away "innocently". "I would've never believed" he wondered.

"Oh, he was an insufferable asshole before he started messing around with you" Jisung joined in. Hyunjin rolled his eyes, smiling. Felix laughed, blushing a little at the mention that the guards had known for longer than they let on about Hyunjin's and Felix's secret.

"Oh, over there, where the noise and light are coming from" Felix jumped up a bit, pointing towards an orange hue looming over the trees. The music became louder the closer they went, so did the chatter. There were clearly a lot of people there. Once they arrived Hyunjin took a moment to take in his surroundings. 

As the name indicated there was a large bonfire and benches arranged around it. There was a table full of food and drinks, a group playing joyful music, and a bunch of people dancing happily together. The mood was certainly wilder than any "party" Hyunjin had attended but it felt much warmer. Everyone seemed to be friends with each other even if just for tonight. The river cut off the land, making it feel like this was its own separated part of the world where only those invited could come. It all felt so welcoming, Hyunjin wondered why wasn't every celebration like this. The second they got off their horse, two people rushed to Felix shouting "Felix! You're finally here!" He hugged them both, sharing their excited smiles.

Both men had black hair and were around Felix's height, though built bigger. The other man had somewhat cat-like features, he was very pretty with a chaotic laugh. The other looked a little younger, his eyes turned into lines when he smiled, kind of resembling a fox to Hyunjin. Felix spoke with them, sharing the excitement for a while before turning back to the three who were standing awkwardly, waiting to be addressed. "I brought guests" Felix jumped to Hyunjin excitedly. Both men looked amazed at the clearly upper-class guests. Felix didn't seem to notice or just simply didn't care as he went on "This is Hyunjin, Chan, and Jisung," he pointed at everyone when saying their names, then turning to ones mentioned "And these are my friends Minho and Jeongin" Felix kept looking back and forth expectantly, though neither party knew what he was expecting of them.

Minho then spoke up "We don't often see fancy folk here" Hyunjin was worried for a second that they weren't welcome until Minho broke the act, smiling "but welcome!" While Jeongin accentuated the point, yelling "Everyone, we have guests!" it was odd hearing cheering and a bunch of "welcome's" but it sure made all three feel at ease. Felix noticed the way Minho's eyes kept wandering back to Jisung and smiled, whispering to him "He's a little shy but really nice and enjoys cheesecake". He was glad he found out at least a little about the guard on their journey here so that he could help his friend out. Minho simply winked and walked over to talk to Jisung.

Felix laughed, looking at the two until he felt arms wrap around his waist and a chin on his shoulder. It felt so natural and comfortable, Felix didn't want to move. He was, however, starving. "You have to taste the food! It's delicious!" Felix exclaimed as he took Hyunjin's hand and rushed to the table. He started recommending things to taste as he had been here often. Hyunjin loved seeing Felix this excited. He was constantly smiling, dashing around, eyes big and sparkly.

When sitting down in front of the fire to eat, Felix seemed a little quiet for a while. Hyunjin wondered if he had acted rudely or upset the boy somehow until he spoke "I'm sure this is nothing compared to the fancy celebrations at the castle". Hyunjin didn't like how disappointed the boy sounded. Did he seem bored? Was he not showing his excitement enough? "This is much more fun," he admitted, making Felix look up, confused. Hyunjin looked around at all the happy people eating, drinking, dancing, or just talking with their friends. The music, the fire, and the night sky created such a warm atmosphere. "Everyone is so pretentious at the castle. It isn't joyful and friendly like this" he looked back at Felix who was staring right back at him like he had hung all the stars in the sky.

"So, you like it here?" Hyunjin was sure he would melt at the hopefulness in Felix's voice which is why he allowed himself to say probably the cheesiest thing he would probably ever say "I wish to be wherever you are, darling" it worked, making Felix blush and look down. Hyunjin kept eating, satisfied with himself. He had to admit that he hadn't eaten food so good ever before. It wasn't as extravagant or fancy as in the castle and, though simple, Hyunjin would gladly choose this over the fancy meals. Multiple people greeted him and Felix so kindly, sitting down to talk with them for a bit, though some people were very drunk.

Hyunjin noted that this seemed like these people's only night to be carefree. They seemed to take all they could out of tonight, knowing they would have to go back to their regular lives tomorrow and work until they could no longer. Hyunjin had always thought surviving must be much easier than having a million responsibilities but now he realized what surviving truly meant. These people had to work themselves into exhaustion to feed themselves and their families just to simply stay alive. It didn't feel right to Hyunjin. Everyone should be able to live and work for luxuries. Had he truly been so sheltered at the castle that this didn't occur to him until now? His heart ached as he watched Felix happily singing along to the song next to him, how could he be so carefree?

Two young girls walked up to them, looking at Hyunjin in amazement "Your hair is awfully pretty and long!" One of them chirped. Hyunjin just chuckled. His parents didn't like his hair long, always bugging him about it so he was glad someone was finally on his side. "Thank you, your hair is awfully pretty as well" Hyunjin gave a warm smile to the girl, her friend now asking excitedly "May we braid it?" This took Hyunjin back a bit. He hadn't let anyone do his hair before. Though his answer was given to him when he looked at the excited faces of the young girls. He couldn't say no, not when they were jumping with excitement. He nodded, feeling slightly nervous when the girls giggled and rushed behind him. It felt actually really nice to have someone braiding your hair. The girls were very gentle and careful. Hyunjin ended up with two dutch braids, both decorated with beautiful flowers the girls had found. Felix thought he looked like a fairy, so pretty. He thanked the girls who left right after. "You look awfully pretty" Felix smiled while looking at Hyunjin, he couldn't take his eyes off him. Hyunjin blushed a bit, nervous as he couldn't see himself but slightly reassured by Felix's comment.

Felix, as if sensing Hyunjin's distress, took his hand and stood up, running to the small field before the river "Dance with me!" Hyunjin laughed, following the boy. He had never danced so informally, he was a little hesitant at first. He got the hang of it quickly enough though and once he did, he thought he never wanted to stop. He was taken aback a bit when Felix was snatched away and a woman appeared in front of him but only for a moment, quickly jumping back in with his new dance partner. She was clearly drunk but seemed to enjoy herself quite a bit. They didn't speak, just danced, laughing occasionally when they bumped into someone. Hyunjin couldn't remember when was the last time he had so much fun. Probably as a child.

Then the partners switched back and he happily took hold of Felix, in the heat of the moment kissing him quickly. Felix just laughed, seemingly not worried if anyone saw or not. "You seemed to be having a good time with her, should I be jealous?" Felix's voice was flirty, slightly out of breath from dancing. This was new to Hyunjin. Felix was always so shy and reserved, careful. But now he was shamelessly flirting and kissing while holding onto Hyunjin like there was no tomorrow. "Are you drunk?" Hyunjin asked, amused. Felix giggled, his red cheeks may be giving away more than he wanted to. "No" he responded, giggling right after. He was definitely drunk. He had been drinking a bit before they started dancing but Hyunjin hadn't thought he drank that much. But Felix was quite lightweight; perhaps his alcohol tolerance wasn't the best.

"Come on baby" Hyunjin cooed while dragging Felix closer to the river. They were both sweating, the heat from the fire combined with dancing really did a number on them. Felix was still laughing when they reached the river. Felix was already affectionate but being drunk really amplified it. Luckily Hyunjin was all too happy to have the boy clinging onto him at all times. "How on earth are you going to work tomorrow?" Hyunjin joked, brushing Felix's hair away from his sweaty forehead. The boy still looked absolutely stunning to Hyunjin. "Don't wanna work," Felix drunkenly mumbled, pouting and adding "Too tired". This upset Hyunjin a little, though the joyful spirit of the night was enough to pull him out of it. "I know you are," kissing all over his face, making Felix giggle. "I wish to take you away from here so you would never have to work again" he confessed, knowing this to be true though normally too shy to propose such a thing. 

"I would like that" Felix's big, sparkly eyes were once again looking at Hyunjin with nothing but love and adoration. "You would let me?" Hyunjin asked, a little more serious now. He knew that Felix was drunk and his words couldn't be taken at face value but they say drunk words are sober thoughts. He really hoped that was the case as Felix nodded, pushing their foreheads together "Of course, I wanna be with you! No one else!" Hyunjin felt warmness spread into his chest and all over his body again. If Felix only knew that was all Hyunjin wanted.

Felix closed the distance between them, slightly sloppily as he was drunk but Hyunjin wasn't one to complain. He tried to stabilize Felix, hands caressing his cheeks. Hyunjin knew this wasn't like their usual kisses when Felix didn't pull away, instead gently biting Hyunjin's lower lip. He was once again very aware of the fact that Felix was drunk and that was probably where all this was coming from but his lips felt so right on his and so far it was harmless. Hyunjin liked the way Felix tugged on his lower lip a bit every now and then. When he finally pulled away, Felix was truly a sight to behold. His pupils were dilated, making his eyes look even bigger and darker, lips red and puffy, a wonderful glowy blush on his cheeks from the alcohol. Hyunjin smiled, truly feeling lucky to have met Felix.

"You're staring again" Felix whined while ducking his head in Hyunjin's neck. Hyunjin just laughed, kissing the side of Felix's head before questioning "How am I supposed to not when you look so pretty, hmm?" Which only further flustered Felix. Felix nuzzled his head which gave Hyunjin such a wonderful domestic feeling. This is what he could have every day for the rest of his life and it was exactly what he wanted. He felt so distant from who he used to be before coming here and meeting Felix. He was forever grateful that Felix showed him how great life could be, how happy he could be.

He was pulled out of his thoughts when Felix's lips slightly touched his neck. It sent shivers down his spine, tickling a little. Felix noticed how sensitive the other's neck was and in his drunk brain, it felt like a great idea to start kissing Hyunjin's neck. He had no idea why his drunk brain was egging him on, he supposed he just liked kissing Hyunjin anywhere he could. For a moment they were both all giggles when Felix pulled away, looking at Hyunjin. "Please Hyunjin, don't forget about me when you go back home" Felix was pleading, sounding genuinely upset now. Hyunjin had no idea what had prompted the boy to be so emotional all of a sudden, he supposed it must be the alcohol. "I promise" was all he said and clearly all Felix wanted to hear, he smiled, pulling Hyunjin into a kiss once again. "But silly," Hyunjin mumbled against the other's lips, smiling "Did you already forget? I said I'd take you with me"

Felix beamed at him, scrunching his nose "I don't think they would like me much at the castle" Hyunjin thought he was upset again until he chuckled, adding "I have no manners". Hyunjin scoffed, manners were useless anyway. "I like you, a lot. As long as you don't break my heart, that's all that matters" he felt once again very vulnerable. He supposed this is what love was. Being vulnerable in front of the other, letting them in, and giving your heart to them even with the risk of them breaking it. Felix shook his head, pulling their foreheads together again "I won't, I promise" before sharing one more soft kiss, as if to lock in their promises.

When they wandered back, closer to the fire, Hyunjin spotted Jisung and Minho getting a little more than friendly by the trees. Unless Jisung had a habit of making out with all of his friends. If so, Hyunjin would have to decline. He chuckled, pointing it out to Felix who also laughed, yelling drunkenly "Get that dick, Minho hyung!" Which surprised Hyunjin. He had never heard Felix speak like that, though he did find it quite amusing. Almost as amusing as Jisung's red face when he realized they had been caught. Hyunjin gathered Felix into his arms, shouting at the two "Sorry, he drank too much!" Before dragging the giggling boy away. He wondered if he would next walk in on Chan making out with someone too but luckily he seemed to be having a great conversation with a group of people. The only person Hyunjin recognized out of them was Felix's friend, Jeongin.

The party seemed to never stop, people kept on drinking, eating, and dancing. Hyunjin was getting quite tired but didn't complain or ask to leave simply because he enjoyed seeing Felix so happy. He wondered how late it was and if they would stay until sunrise. He was quite worried about Felix's sleep as he would no doubt have to work tomorrow. Gayoung didn't exactly give her servants days off because they were hungover. He didn't have to worry for long when Felix, whose head had been resting on his shoulder, spoke up "I'm tired" he balled his hands into small fists and rugged his eyes while yawning. Hyunjin found this so endearing he nearly cooed out loud. "I'll go find Chan and Jisung, then we can go" Felix simply nodded, still moving his head around to the music. Hyunjin laid a quick peck on the boy's forehead before standing up in search of his friends.

It didn't take long, Chan found him first, and then the two of them went to look for Jisung. They of course found him, still making out with Minho by the trees. Chan cleared his throat, scaring the two. Minho smiled, rather proudly while Jisung looked like he wanted the earth to swallow him. "We should get going," Chan said, sounding rather amused. Jisung nodded, looking a bit disoriented. Minho took his hand, winked, and said confidently "Felix will know where to find me" to Jisung before walking off. Hyunjin and Chan both looked at Jisung with knowing smiles. Jisung chuckled awkwardly "That escalated a bit" but the blush on his cheeks told Hyunjin he knew full well what he had been going for.

When they arrived back they were all tired, having partied the entire night. Hyunjin was worried that they couldn't get inside and would have to all sleep in the stable, something which the tiny "attic" wouldn't accommodate but Felix smirked, pulling a key from his pocket "You didn't think we were the only ones out all night, did you?" He unlocked the door, leaving the key outside. Hyunjin had no idea how he had managed to get the key to the house but was too tired to question it, simply glad that Felix had thought that far.

That night Hyunjin fell asleep with Felix in his arms, feeling more content and happy than ever.

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Hyunjin woke up to a stray of sunshine coming in through the window. The sun was gentle and warm. Not that Hyunjin had been cold, unlike every other time, Felix was still laying in his arms when he opened his eyes. He wondered how late it was and whether Felix was in trouble for not getting to work early enough but the entire house seemed so quiet that it was slightly alarming. He didn't have the heart to wake the boy up. He for once looked at peace. The longer Hyunjin looked at him, the more he thought the boy must be an angel, there was just no other way to describe him other than angelic.

He smiled, chest warming as he thought about last night. He had never been to such a fun, warm and welcoming party. Though he still had no idea what they were celebrating, it hardly mattered when everyone had clearly been so happy. He thought about all the moments he spent with Felix. There was no one else that could offer him what Felix did, he was certain of it. No one else could make him feel like that and he was determined to hold onto what they had. He would take Felix with him to the castle and fight for his right to be with him if that's what it took. He was willing and prepared to do so. His parents would simply have to accept Felix and that would be the end of that discussion.

Felix stirred, eyes slowly blinking open. He lifted his head off of Hyunjin's chest and looked at him. He smiled sleepily when he fully realized where he was. Hyunjin hoped he made Felix as happy as the boy was making him feel right now. "You hungover?" Hyunjin teased, petting Felix's head gently. Felix made a strangled noise that Hyunjin wasn't able to identify as anything close to an answer. "Excuse me?" Felix looked up again, pouting "Shut up" before dropping his head back onto the prince's chest. Hyunjin chuckled at the grumpy cutie. Felix nuzzled his face against Hyunjin's chest, humming quietly while doing so. Hyunjin kissed the top of Felix's head, wanting to just stay wrapped around each other like this forever. Felix then sat up, eyes wide, panic written all over his face "What time is it?!" Hyunjin frowned as he wished it would've taken Felix a little longer to remember that he was supposed to be working, as selfish as that wish was.

"Looks to be almost midday," Hyunjin said, still pouting, very close to trapping the boy in bed with him. Felix got up in a flash, now almost in tears. Hyunjin sat up as well, now concerned. "But everything's okay. No one came asking for you" Felix paced back and forth, his eyes glossy, nervously fidgeting with his fingers. "No, you don't get it! I'm in serious trouble! The miss will be able to tell I was gone all morning and…" he trailed off with a whine while a few stray tears escaped his eyes. "She was already angry with me, to begin with! How could I have been so careless?!" He seemed almost frantic and Hyunjin could tell he was spiraling down a dark route. Hyunjin got up, caressing the boy's, now wet, cheeks. "Hey, listen to me" he forced Felix to look at him. "You deserved a good rest and if Gayoung dares to give you any trouble for this, I'll-" but what exactly Hyunjin would do, Felix didn't find out as the door opened in the middle of the prince's sentence.

Hyunjin, almost instinctively, pushed Felix behind himself, turning to face the door. They both held their breath in suspense until they recognized Jisung, as the intruder. Hyunjin groaned loudly, rolling his eyes "Knock for fuck's sake!". Jisung looked quite shocked at Hyunjin's reaction, not having been spoken to like that since he patched things up with the prince. "Sorry, it's just, Chan hyung sent me to check up on you since you hadn't left your room" now Jisung was also a little panicky. Hyunjin took a deep breath, which was interrupted by a chuckle. "You scared the shit out of me!" He laughed, which eased the tension in the room. Felix was still standing behind the prince, temporarily distracted by the two. "Oh, hi Felix!" Jisung then chirped, noticing the smaller boy behind Hyunjin. This seemed to wake Felix up again and he rushed out of the room without a word.

"Did I do something?" Jisung asked, once again concerned. Hyunjin sighed, shaking his head. "He's stressed since he missed the morning's work and is afraid he'll be punished for it" Hyunjin fell back on his bed with a loud thump, the great mood he had waking up now long gone. "If Gayoung dares to lay her hands on him, she'll be the one who should be scared" Jisung knew perfectly well that Hyunjin wasn't exaggerating, not in the slightest. "Oh, we are in luck then!" He chirped, happy once again. Hyunjin raised an eyebrow, he didn't feel like luck was on his side in the slightest today. "Gayoung had to leave urgently this morning" 

Hyunjin sat up quickly "She left? Where to?" Jisung shrugged indifferently "She didn't say why just disappeared and said it's urgent" Hyunjin let out a sigh of relief. That meant Gayoung would have no way of knowing whether Felix was working this morning or not. He'd have to go find the boy and tell him but first…

"So how about you and that Minho guy, huh?" Hyunjin smiled teasingly while Jisung blushed. "He was drunk!" Jisung protested, trying to downplay the whole situation. Hyunjin laughed at the poor attempt "He had his eyes on you the second we got there! Even a blind man could tell he is into you!" Jisung hid behind his hands whining loudly. As much as Hyunjin enjoyed teasing him, they had made quite a cute pair and he hoped Jisung would listen to him. "I gotta go," Jisung announced before leaving the room and a laughing Hyunjin with it. Hyunjin followed him shortly after, all too pleased to find out that Chan was also teasing Jisung about Minho. They talked for hours, something Hyunjin felt like he hadn't done in forever and he clearly had missed.

The prince definitely had a bath on his agenda today, he could only hope it wouldn't be freezing cold this time. He just hoped to find Felix first as he was slightly concerned about the state he left the room in. He had given Felix plenty of time to work a little, the sun would set soon but Hyunjin felt that now it was the prince's turn to get attention from the boy. He was walking around the house and in the lot for a while with no success. It seemed that quite a few people were hungover as there was a third of the usual amount of servants working. Hyunjin thought it was deserved. He had learned while staying here that all the servants were such hard workers, they wouldn't have days off just for fun. Hyunjin decided to look from the place where he knew he'd always find Felix. The stable didn't disappoint him today either as Felix was hard at work, seemingly trying to do about eight things at once. Hyunjin watched him for a while. As awful as it was that Felix had to work, he did look kind of hot while doing it. His skin was always glowing, he had a concentrated look on his face and the effortless way in which he did all his work was just kind of sexy.

"Hey, sexy" Hyunjin said offhandedly, exaggerating for dramatic effect while walking towards Felix. The boy just giggled though Hyunjin swore he blushed too. He was still running around, too busy to even really respond to the prince. Hyunjin didn't like it. It might sound childish but he really craved Felix's attention right now and the fact that he wasn't getting it was making him upset and frustrated. He blocked Felix's path while he was trying to walk past, trapping the boy in his arms. "Caught you!" He smiled, playfully. Felix let himself melt into the embrace for a bit, it felt so nice. They were rocking from side to side a bit as Hyunjin refused to let go. "I gotta get back to work Jinnie" Felix whined though there was little to no bite in his voice. Hyunjin just shook his head, holding him tighter.

"Come on, you're gonna get me in trouble" Felix whined again but this time with a chuckle. He found the prince's need for affection and the small pout on his lips just too adorable. "Gayoung isn't here, she left somewhere this morning" Hyunjin's comment made Felix stop dead in his tracks. "She's not here?" He didn't know if he wanted to believe Hyunjin just yet. The prince could no doubt just lie to him to have him ignore his responsibilities and just spend the rest of the day with Hyunjin. Not that Felix didn't want to but he couldn't get away with doing such things as the prince could. Even though Hyunjin had made it very clear that he wouldn't let Gayoung hurt Felix, he still wanted to avoid as much trouble as possible, he didn't want to get fired.

"Jisung told me, she wouldn't say where she was going but apparently it was urgent" Hyunjin smiled as the realization hit Felix. He was almost bouncing around with happiness once again. How did his eyes always look like they had stars in them?

"I still need to take care of the horses but I'll come to your room after!" Felix gave in, just happy to see the way Hyunjin lit up at his words. "I'll be waiting!" Hyunjin winked before finally letting go of the boy and making his way back to his room. Felix had a million ideas of what they could do. They had the whole evening to spend together. Should they bake again? Or go walk around in the forest? Or go to the river? Or would they just lay in bed together, enjoying each other's company? Felix found himself giddy at the prospect of spending an entire evening alone with Hyunjin. These moments were very rare as Felix had to work all day every day but they had managed to sneak around a bit over the past little over a week. Stealing quick kisses or gentle touches before they would be separated again. Felix didn't mind it though. Work didn't seem so awful anymore and he'd gladly work twice as hard if that meant he had a few hours with Hyunjin to spend after.

He got everything done in record-breaking time and hummed while making his way to the house. Once he opened the door to Hyunjin's room, he was nowhere to be seen. He said he'd be waiting, right? Maybe he had something to tend to with his guards and he'd be right back. Felix decided to just wait. He looked at himself in the big mirror in the corner of the room. 

He was always so filthy, it must be revolting to Hyunjin. He always felt bad that when the prince would pull their bodies together, his dirty clothes always messed up the prince's beautiful ones, his filthy hands that he just couldn't keep to himself were always tangled in the prince's pretty hair. He wished he could offer more to Hyunjin but here again he was reminded of the fact that he was a servant. He could never offer Hyunjin anymore. Certainly not anything the prince deserved. This is why Felix found it odd that the prince chose him to care for and love. He had for a very long time told himself that the prince was just messing around with a servant, anyone would do, because he was bored. However, he could no longer make excuses for why the prince wanted to be around him all the time, why he felt so protective of Felix, why it was only him who the prince chose to kiss and touch. The prince had to feel something special towards him and it made Felix's heart do backflips.

He sighed, deciding to clean himself up a bit, walking to the bathroom. Without a second thought, he opened the door and then froze. He locked eyes with Hyunjin who was, once again, in the bathtub. So that's where he had been. Had he seriously not heard Felix walk in? Hyunjin broke the tension in the room with a laugh. "You should've seen your face!" He laughed even harder at this, only getting an eye-roll back from Felix. Once Hyunjin's laugh died down, they were left in the same awkward situation as before. Felix's mind was playing tricks with him, the rational part telling him to leave and let Hyunjin be but the irrational part told him to stay for some inexplicable reason. "If I may ask, why are you bursting into other people's bathrooms?" Hyunjin asked, tone teasing. Felix just blinked, suddenly having no answer to give though he was sure he had had a reason coming in here.

"Do you wish to join me?" Hyunjin smirked, his confidence somehow amplified by the other's flustered state. Felix blushed bright red from his neck all the way to the tips of his ears, letting out another one of his unidentifiable noises before stuttering "I-I just…I-I was umm…You see I…" Hyunjin chuckled, slightly proud that he had managed to make the boy's brain short circuit with a simple sentence. He cut Felix's attempts to redeem himself off with a suggestion that Felix wasn't sure he would recover from "Go ahead then". Felix once again blinked at Hyunjin who was smirking proudly, chin pressed against his folded arms on the edge of the bathtub. Felix's brain wasn't dismissing the idea and that's what worried him. The obvious answer would've been to refuse but Felix didn't seem to want to do that.

"No need to be shy, it's just me" Hyunjin smiled, this time so loving that it melted every bit of Felix's remaining reluctance. He walked further into the bathroom, now closing the door behind him. He wasn't sure he'd be able to say anything at all, his brain too garbled by the prince's suggestion. He started unbuttoning his shirt, feeling Hyunjin's eyes follow his every move. "Don't look" Felix whined, making sure that the now chuckling prince had turned his head away from the undressing boy before continuing. It felt strange being naked with another person in the room even though Hyunjin was naked as well. He didn't know exactly where he should sit as the bathtub wasn't exactly the biggest. Probably something he should've pointed out before chucking away his clothes. Hyunjin chuckled again, head still turned to face away from Felix, offering his hand to help the boy get in.

The water was warm and Felix felt a bit more relaxed the second he was engulfed in it. Hyunjin pulled him to sit in front of him, in between his legs. He felt two arms wrap around his torso and, almost instinctively, leaned back to lay against Hyunjin's chest, his head resting on the other's shoulder. He could feel the prince's member against his back but tried his best to ignore it. He once again melted into the other's embrace. "You are blushing" Hyunjin teased, only causing Felix to blush further, mumbling a tiny "Shut up".

Hyunjin liked seeing Felix like this for the first time. His interest in bathing with the boy wasn't sexual, he just enjoyed the intimacy as now they had both seen all of each other. Felix was just as thin as he looked, he had bruises and scars all over his body but there was nothing that could make Hyunjin see the boy as anything less than the most beautiful human to ever exist. He would love and cherish every mark on the boy's body as they were a part of him. He laid a soft peck on Felix's neck, liking the warm smile that spread on the boy's face.

Felix turned his head to reach Hyunjin's lips. It was a bit uncomfortable as he had to strain his neck to reach but he thought it was definitely worth it. Hyunjin's hands were caressing his chest gently and Felix felt so close to him, closer than ever before. Though he had been scared to truly show himself to Hyunjin, though he was still plenty insecure about not feeling good enough, Felix thought at the moment that the risk was high but so was the reward when it came to Hyunjin. He tugged on Hyunjin's lower lip gently, inhaling sharply when the other's tongue invaded his mouth. Their tongues danced together as they became more hungry for each other. Felix got a taste of how amazing he felt being so close with Hyunjin and he became immediately greedy, wanting to be even closer so that they could never be separated. His hand was reaching to mess with Hyunjin's hair once again, to pull him even closer. With one last soft peck to his lips, Hyunjin moved down to his neck, kissing and biting every bit he could reach.

Felix kept his eyes closed, breathing heavily "You know, prince , this might be the most inappropriate thing we've done" there was a definite flirty tone to the way Felix spoke, like the night he had been drunk. Hyunjin was glad it wasn't all alcohol talking that night. He pulled away from the boy's neck, satisfied with the few red marks he had left that would indicate to anyone fortunate enough to see that Felix was his. His hands traveled a bit lower, grazing the other's lower abdomen. "The most inappropriate thing we've done, yet " he corrected with a cocky smirk. His wandering hands then landed on the smaller's cock and gave it a few experimental strokes. Felix's hand flew in front of his mouth, biting the skin on the back of his hand while he tossed his head to rest on Hyunjin's shoulder.

Hyunjin, encouraged by the reaction, kept going, slowly picking up speed. Though he tried to muffle them with his hand, Hyunjin could hear Felix's soft moans. Hyunjin started laying soft pecks on the boy's neck again, fully focused on making him feel as good as possible. Felix could feel Hyunjin hardening against his back, only making him more turned on. The water started suddenly feeling too hot, he was panting, hand reaching to grab at Hyunjin's hair again now giving up on trying to be quiet. Hyunjin preferred this change, Felix's hand tugging his hair sent sparks down his body and he could hear the other properly. "Such a pretty baby" Hyunjin praised, moving his hand as fast as he could under the water. Felix was moaning and panting, trying to push Hyunjin's head closer to his, eyes closed and needy. Hyunjin smiled, gently kissing the side of his head and reassuring the boy "I'm right here".

Felix felt the pleasure heightening and all he could think about was Hyunjin. The prince's big hands on his body, his lips laying soft kisses wherever he could reach, his harsh breathing, his hard length against Felix's back. He had no concept of time or space, there was only Hyunjin. He bit his lips harshly as he felt his lower abdomen tense. Hyunjin could tell Felix was close by the way his moans got more frantic, he tugged on the prince's hair harder and his body started tensing up. He wasn't exactly sure why decided to stop all movement, surely making the other frustrated but he supposed he didn't want the moment to end yet. Felix let out a broken moan as his orgasm, which was so close, was stripped away. They didn't speak for a moment, only listening to the heavy breathing still lingering. Felix turned around in Hyunjin's arms, now facing Hyunjin, his legs folded under himself. Felix inhaled sharply as their erections touched but regained thought soon.

He looked at Hyunjin with dark, lust-filled eyes though still somehow he looked so innocent. "Are you going to make love to me?" The question would've surely elicited a stronger reaction any other given day but at this moment it just made Hyunjin's heart fill with warmness. He kissed Felix gently, groaning in the other's mouth as their members rubbed together before answering "Not if you don't want me to" there was something so warm and intimate about the moment that Hyunjin thought even if they never progressed further than this, he'd be okay with this.

"I've never…Ummm…" Felix trailed off blushing, too shy to even finish his own sentence which was certainly amusing to Hyunjin since he had just been moaning sinfully while getting a handjob a minute ago. "Neither have I" Hyunjin admitted, chuckling a little at the comical disbelief on Felix's face. "What kind of a prince do you think I am?" Hyunjin questioned, faking offense. It made Felix giggle and lightened up the tension in the room. They basked in the physical affection just a bit longer before Felix spoke up again "Well…If you'll have me then…" again trailing off and Hyunjin could almost sense the insecurity rising in the boy. He didn't want it here. Felix had nothing to be insecure about and Hyunjin would quite literally fuck the thought into him if he had to.

Hyunjin kissed him, trying to convey his feelings through it, though he knew one kiss would never be enough to explain the love he held for this boy. The water was getting cold, no longer the warm, relaxing haven it once was. As if reading his thoughts, Felix chuckled "It's getting cold". He wasn't necessarily cold, their heating bodies enough to keep him warm, it was more about a desire to move this somewhere else . Felix got out of the tub first since he was the one trapping Hyunjin in there. Felix started feeling a lot more naked now that they were both standing and out of the water, though it was quickly fixed by Hyunjin's arms wrapping around his waist and hugging him. It felt a lot more erotic than usual since he could again feel the prince's length, this time against the soft plush of his behind. He was big, that much Felix could tell.

They got out of the bathroom, still entangled together, both dripping water in a trail behind them. It had gotten dark outside while they had been in the bath. Felix shoved Hyunjin a bit and the taller fell on his back on the bed. Felix crawled on top of him in a manner that reminded Hyunjin of a cat and started laying soft kisses all over the prince's torso. He was determined to show Hyunjin that he was loved. Hyunjin felt proud that Felix seemed to have the same need to leave behind marks, truly linking them together. Hyunjin let out a surprised moan when Felix suddenly kissed the tip of his cock, smiling mischievously after. He moved up to kiss the prince on the lips again. "You're a menace," Hyunjin said, voice lovestruck, before flipping them over so that he was now on top of Felix.

Felix panicked slightly when Hyunjin got up and walked to a drawer. He wasn't much reassured when the prince walked back to him with a small bottle. Hyunjin noticed this change in behavior and smiled, climbing back on top of the boy "The oils help, so that it won't hurt" Felix hadn't considered this at all. He wasn't very well informed about sex and was learning now for the first time that it might hurt. He, however, trusted Hyunjin, giving him a small nod before pulling the prince down to kiss him once more. While kissing, Hyunjin coated three of his fingers in oils and pressed against Felix's entrance. He drew up slightly, as much as he could with Felix's arms wrapped around his neck, to look the boy in the eyes. "Are you sure you want this?" He would never want Felix to feel like he had to do something to please him. He was, however, reassured when Felix smiled warmly "yes, I trust you"

He thrust his finger in gently, moving very slowly. He monitored Felix's face carefully for any signs of discomfort but the boy was only breathing heavily and moaning softly, showing no signs of pain. He liked watching the boy's facial expressions, he looked just so pretty. After a while Hyunjin eased in a second finger, this time keeping them still for a while. He was impatient by nature so it was rather difficult to have the prettiest being alive moaning underneath you while trying to be as slow and gentle as possible. He'd just have to deal with it though because he would never want to risk hurting the boy. Slowly, he started thrusting his fingers, scissoring Felix open.

Felix was moaning now louder. The feeling was foreign but he couldn't complain when it felt so good. He felt his love for Hyunjin grow, he was so gentle and patient. The prince's wet hair was slightly tickling his face but it only lasted for a moment before he pulled them into a kiss. All the moans and small noises Felix made disappeared into Hyunjin's mouth while he attempted to pull the prince even closer. He felt a small stretch this time when Hyunjin added a third finger. It wasn't painful, just a little uncomfortable at first. Hyunjin did a great job of keeping him distracted, kissing him all over his face, Felix breaking the tension with a giggle. It soon turned into loud, lewd moaning when Hyunjin started drawing his fingers out and thrusting back in.

It was no longer uncomfortable and when Hyunjin hit a certain spot with his fingers, it sent waves of pleasure traveling all over Felix's body, making his breath hitch. He arched his back, eyes shut, hands grabbing at the sheets. He knew the prince was much bigger than this and he did wonder if it would hurt but he supposed if this is how good it felt after the pain subsided, it would definitely be worth it. His worry overridden by his hormone fogged brain, he moaned "Please, I need you". Hyunjin stopped for a moment, looking at Felix with worry. As much as he had looked forward to this moment the second Felix agreed to this, he was still rather concerned. Felix blinked his eyes open, they were so big and dark. "Please, I can take it" he pleaded and who was Hyunjin to say no.

He removed his fingers, leaving Felix feeling rather empty for a moment. The prince hissed as he stroked the oils onto his cock, finally getting some form of release. He looked at Felix laying in front of him and it was truly a sight to behold. "You're so pretty. I don't want anyone else to see you like this" they were both too fogged with pleasure and high off of each other to be embarrassed about such possessiveness. Felix only smiled, almost daringly "Then come claim me, prince " this time the title was said rather mockingly as if Felix was trying to provoke him. As much as Hyunjin wanted to play along with Felix's teasing there was a very high chance he could hurt the boy so he chose against it.

He pressed the tip against Felix's entrance and gave one more confirming look to the boy who just smiled back encouragingly. He pushed the tip past the rim, an obscene string of curses leaving his mouth as he slowly pushed further. Felix was tight, so much so that Hyunjin worried whether he was stretched enough. Felix on the other hand had lost all cognitive abilities. His eyes were screwed shut, eyebrows furrowed, hands bunching up the sheets, mouth stuck open though no sounds coming out. It hurt a bit but somehow also felt too good. When Hyunjin bottomed out, he felt so incredibly full and warm though he was afraid that if Hyunjin moved, he'd tear in half. "Felix?" Hyunjin asked, voice rough but concerned. 

Felix didn't answer, blinding grabbing at Hyunjin to pull him into a kiss. He liked feeling connected to Hyunjin like this, he wanted to please the prince, to give him the most pleasurable moment of his life. He wanted to be the only one to be able to do that. "You're doing so well," Hyunjin praised, caressing the side of Felix's face. The constant blush on the boy's face made his pretty freckles stand out even more making him look like he was made of tiny stars. The boy was so warm and tight, Hyunjin thought surely no one would ever compare to this. 

Felix then moved his hips experimentally, pleased when Hyunjin groaned in his mouth. It no longer hurt. He still felt like he would be torn in half but in the best way possible. "You can move" Felix uttered, his voice slightly broken but soft. "Please" he added when Hyunjin made no immediate effort to move. Drawing out almost completely Hyunjin thrust back in slowly, still making sure Felix was okay. They both moaned in unison at the feeling

As if reading his mind again, Felix breathed between moans "Let go, you won't hurt me". Hyunjin felt warm at the amount of trust in Felix's words. He was a bit hesitant to fully let go but he was never one to disappoint, establishing a pace. The pace quickened rather quickly which made Felix whine and moan louder than before. Felix wrapped his legs around Hyunjin, grabbing at his arms on either side of his head. Felix's body was jolting with every thrust, the bed was squeaking and Hyunjin knew for sure that anything staying in the house could hear them. Hyunjin hit Felix's prostate dead on and the boy practically screamed at this. "You're so pretty like this" Hyunjin praised, thrusting more aggressively and hitting the other's spot every time "Taking me so well" he added as he noticed Felix seemed to thrive off of the compliments, his cock, laying on his stomach leaking more precum.

"F-Feel so good" Felix's voice breaking off into a moan in the middle of the sentence. He was pretty sure Hyunjin's rough pace would have him sitting funny for a few days but he wouldn't have it any other way. He knew he was loud but couldn't care less if the whole house heard, he was Hyunjin's and Hyunjin was his. His body felt weightless, tingling all over, tension building up in his lower stomach. Hyunjin then started gently stroking Felix's neglected cock which took away all the boy's coherent thought. He was a drooling, moaning mess but to Hyunjin he was still the prettiest boy in existence. He was close as well but determined to make Felix cum first. Perhaps it was out of a selfish desire to see what the boy would look like during his orgasm, Hyunjin didn't know or care.

Felix was so close, voice getting higher and only louder. His hands had found their way onto Hyunjin's back, scratching and scraping every bit he could reach. He was feeling so much of Hyunjin, he didn't know what to do. "M' so close'' Felix's voice was shaky and a bit hoarse. This only encouraged Hyunjin to thrust at an inhumane pace, still stroking Felix steadily, hissing as he felt the other draw blood from his back. He was so close too and though a little out of breath "You've done so well" he praised which was the final straw for Felix apparently. His eyes shut, eyebrows furrowed, fingernails drawing long marks on Hyunjin's back, mewling, Felix came onto his stomach. His flushed rose-tinted body was shaking a bit. It was truly something Hyunjin wanted to be engraved in his head forever. He looked absolutely divine. 

He clenched around Hyunjin, making the already tight fit even tighter. The prince was so incredibly close and didn't even have time to consider stopping before Felix already begged, voice still high pitched "Don't stop please, please pl-" Hyunjin shut him up by kissing him. He buried himself deep in Felix before he came with a broken moan. He let himself down, laying on top of Felix while coming down from his orgasm, still buried in the other while Felix combed his finger's through the prince's long hair. Felix with Hyunjin's cock and cum in him felt so full and warm. Hyunjin's weight on top of him felt so nice too, he thought he could've easily fallen asleep but was suddenly pulled out of his, to be, slumber by a bunch of soft kisses all over his face.

He giggled, blinking his eyes open. Hyunjin looked so incredible. Felix had always found the prince beautiful but he was truly amazed that even without the fancy clothing and carefully done hair, just in his natural state, Hyunjin could look like this. He was glowing, his hair falling randomly on Felix's chest as the prince laid his head back down. Suddenly all that he had said and done during the past evening started hitting him at once and Felix blushed. He had forgotten about every single rule he had ever established for himself. He had forgotten that Hyunjin was a prince, he wasn't someone Felix should fall madly in love with and definitely not someone he would be worth sleeping with. To him, it had been just his Hyunjin. He liked how it felt.

"What are you thinking about?" Hyunjin asked, sleepily. Felix kept running his hands gently through the prince's hair while looking up at the ceiling "I think I'm in love with you". His voice was small, so small . He almost whispered it, in utter disbelief himself but to Hyunjin it was as if he shouted it from the rooftops. His heart started doing backflips, a smile breaking onto his tired face. There was nothing in the world he would've wanted to hear more than that. He turned to look at Felix, wanting to look in his eyes as he'd say it back "I-" but he was cut off by the front door opening and closing as well as a familiar female sigh. They both realized at the same time, it was Gayoung. Hyunjin got up quickly, both hissing as they only now realized he had still been inside of Felix. He, however, stopped when Felix tried to get up too "No, stay" he whined. Felix knew it was against his better judgment but he had never been good at saying no to Hyunjin. He laid back down, watching as Hyunjin walked to the bathroom. His head was so filled with such warm, lovely thoughts, all to do with a certain long-haired prince.

He noticed that the wind coming from the open window made a piece of paper drift down from the desk. He got up, wincing a bit at the soreness in his ass and lower back, his legs feeling a bit weak. He picked up the paper, intending to put it back and close the window. He was just thinking about how horrifying the thought that everyone even outside of the house had heard their lovemaking when a sentence on the paper caught his attention. He didn't mean to nor did he want to read someone else's private letters but his curiosity got the best of him. He skimmed through the rather short letter addressed to Hyunjin. "I have further good news - so you will have a wedding to look forward to when you come back." A wedding to look forward to? The letter was dated a week ago, which probably meant it had arrived here a couple days ago.

Hyunjin would've surely told him if such a thing had been proposed to him unless…Heat started rising in his entire body, he felt so humiliated and fought tears as he grabbed his clothes and started getting dressed. He felt so many emotions at once, he felt like he would explode. Hyunjin came back and was absolutely shocked, to say the least. Felix had noticed his presence but said nothing, dressing up in a hurry, looking furious. "Baby, what's wrong?" Hyunjin tried, walking a few steps closer, painfully aware of the fact that he was still very much naked. Felix's head snapped in his direction and he almost wished he had said nothing, he looked so angry. "Never fucking call me that again!" He spat while looking for his shirt. Hyunjin was growing very concerned about the change of behavior and atmosphere. A moment ago they had been in bed making love and now Felix was angry, something which Hyunjin had never witnessed before.

Hyunjin spotted the shirt and grabbed it before Felix could. "What's wrong?" He asked again, taking note that Felix was looking at him like he wanted the prince dead. "You were just having a bit of fun with me, eh?" It wasn't a question, it was an accusation, and Felix's hurt, betrayed voice gave away his angry act. This only further confused Hyunjin. "Thought you might as well make this place worth your while?!" Another accusation, though Felix's voice was breaking. He was breaking. Hyunjin then spotted the letter in Felix's hand, panic striking him immediately. He had forgotten to tell Felix. In all the excitement and fun of preparing for the bonfire and then attending it, Hyunjin had forgotten to tell Felix about the letter. 

"You were just going to leave and go marry that princess! After the promise you made to me last night?!" He laughed sarcastically, though anyone could sense the heartbreak in his voice. Hyunjin wished he wasn't so absolutely paralyzed by the panic building up inside of him so that he could answer. So that he could tell Felix that he loves him, only him. He meant every syllable of his promise, he would never - he could never forget Felix. "Am I nothing but a joke to you?" The boy finally asked, too heartbroken to yell. Felix now had tears streaming down his face, he felt utterly humiliated. He had given his everything to Hyunjin, his time, his heart, his virginity, his love, and all of it had gone to someone who never cared. He wanted to get out of that room, he didn't want Hyunjin to see him break down, at least he wouldn't give the asshole that satisfaction. He shoved the letter against Hyunjin's chest, ripping his shirt away from the prince's grip. He started pulling it over his head while walking off.

"Felix, please- " 

"You got what you wanted! Now leave me alone!" Felix shouted. His hand now on the door handle, he was stopped by Hyunjin grabbing his wrist. "Please, you promised not to break my heart" Hyunjin tried, now his own eyes full of tears. Felix didn't look back at him to see them, to see how hurt the other was. "Well then I guess that makes us both liars" his voice was low, quiet, now completely broken. "Have a great life, your highness " Felix said, void of any emotion this time before wrenching the door open and walking off. Fuck. Fuck .

Hyunjin couldn't go after him, not naked. He ran around his room, trying to get clothes on but broke down on his bed while doing so. It was his mistake of not telling Felix that led to this. He just couldn't believe that such a small thing as forgetting to tell someone about a single letter could ruin everything. One of the most wonderful days of his life had taken a quick 180-degree turn. Now he was laying in his bed, alone and heartbroken. In the same bed where just ten minutes ago he had shared his mind, body, and soul with the person he loved the most. He didn't know how to fix the situation. What could he say that wouldn't sound like a complete and utter lie? His chest ached with all the memories of his kind, pretty Felix, and how he might lose any chance of ever getting the feeling that he brought along with him. His chest ached, so badly . He would surely die from this.

He supposed his happiness had lasted for far too long anyway. He was destined to be a cold, arrogant, miserable prince. He couldn't pretend he could be something else for too long.

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Chan entered the room carefully, he didn't quite know what to make of the situation. He didn't know if Hyunjin would even be awake. He had heard a lot of things last night he wished he hadn't. He could've lived the rest of his life without knowing what his friend sounds like during sex, just fine. But he also heard them fighting after, though unable to properly make out what they were saying. He just couldn't figure out what they would fight about. They had been glued to each other for a while now and seemed really happy together. He knew Hyunjin shouldn't be alone, he wasn't good to himself when he was upset.

Hyunjin was awake though seemingly in a more or less comatose state. He was staring at the ceiling, eyes bloodshot and puffy, completely expressionless. He looked so small while hugging his pillow. Chan saw in him the same sad, hurt kid that he had once been after a harsh scolding from his parents. He didn't like seeing Hyunjin so upset, he didn't want the prince to lose his smile.

"Hyunjin?" Chan asked, gently while walking to the bed. Hyunjin didn't react, staring unblinkingly at the ceiling. Chan worried for a moment if the boy had stopped breathing as well but the soft rise and fall of his chest reassured him. He sat down and brushed Hyunjin's hair off his face affectionately "Hyunnie?" He asked again and this broke Hyunjin. Tears started rolling down his face again. Tears that he didn't think he could cry anymore. He sat up, clinging to Chan like he was his only lifeline. Chan ran his hand up and down the other's back, letting him cry into the crook of the older's neck. He hadn't cried like this since he was a child, at least not to Chan. He was burning with curiosity to know what had him so hurt but he wanted to let the boy cry first. Ever since a kid, Hyunjin had always been very strong, he could take a lot before he broke down. The issue, however, was that when he broke down, he broke down .

"What happened Hyunnie?" Chan asked, trying to keep his voice as calm as possible. Hyunjin shook his head, trying to further disappear into the crook of Chan's neck. The older kept patiently patting Hyunjin's back, other hand combing through his hair soothingly. "He -He thinks I was just," a sniffle cut through Hyunjin's sentence "messing around with him" he wasn't really crying anymore, just sniffling and hiccuping. He must've looked a mess but he knew Chan didn't care, he wouldn't judge. Chan held Hyunjin a little tighter, even more, confused but upset too. He knew that Hyunjin hadn't been just messing around with the servant. Aside from knowing Hyunjin and how highly he valued love and romance, the prince was so obviously in love with Felix. It was so painfully obvious. Why would Felix think that? What the hell happened?

"You two fought," Chan stated, hoping Hyunjin would explain if he felt up to it. Hyunjin nodded, handing Chan the letter. The older read through it quickly, then sighing. "You didn't tell him, did you?" His tone wasn't disappointed, nor was he judging the prince. It was a simple question that didn't even really need an answer though Hyunjin nodded anyway. "Oh, Hyunnie" Chan sighed again, rocking them both back and forth. Hyunjin was still sniffling but his breathing had calmed down. "I forgot," he said, voice pleading. Pleading for Chan to believe and understand that he would never purposely hide things this important. 

"I know"

"I don't want to marry her"

"I know"

Those two words were enough for Hyunjin. Chan knew. He believed. Maybe Felix would too.

Felix woke up to something poking him in the face. He felt huffs of air blown onto his face and thought it was a person until he opened his eyes and saw that it was May who was gently nudging him. He pet the side of her face, resting his eyes a bit longer. He had no idea what time it was, nor did he remember falling asleep in May's booth. He sat up, looking around him. It seemed to be bright outside, fuck. He had missed another morning of work because of Hyunjin. Everything came flooding back to him in one strong wave of emotions. His vision was blurred by the tears he tried so hard to keep in. 

May was still nudging him, probably asking him to feed her. "In a second May," he said quietly, voice breaking from the violent outburst of tears. The intensity of it made his head and chest ache. He tried to be quiet, wishing to be alone now. Not that he had anyone to go to anyway. It was fruitless as the sobs tore themselves out of his body. He buried his head in his folded arms. May had stopped nudging him, now simply pressing her head against his. It felt oddly comforting. Even though the horse reminded Felix of Hyunjin, he had grown to like her, she felt so intelligent. He picked his head up, trying to calm himself by petting May. It did help a little. He still felt all the aftermath of last night but he was no longer violently sobbing.

You meant nothing to him.

He knew this would inevitably happen but just hoped his mind would've given him a bit more time. You meant nothing to him , his mind repeated it over and over again. As if he hadn't already realized that by now. As if his chest wasn't aching for that very reason. He had been so sure. He had been so incredibly convinced that it was real. It had felt so real, so natural like they were meant to find each other. Now that he thought of it, it did sound more like a fairytale than a realistic depiction of his life. A beautiful prince coming out of nowhere, taking an immediate interest in you, devoting all of his time to you, falling in love with you, and then just whisking you away from your miserable, pathetic life to live in the castle with him. Happily ever after. It was a story for a princess, not a servant and it clearly Felix had to learn that the hard way.

He felt so ashamed. Had the guards known all along? Had they had bets on how long would it take for Felix to fall for the prince? How fast can the prince get the stupid servant into bed with him? They must have. It's not like they had any other form of entertainment available. He hated how out of place everything felt. He was never one to assume the worst, to see the worst in people. His thoughts didn't feel like they were his. He felt so confused and hurt and who did he need when he felt like that? Hyunjin.

He felt so alone. No one to go to for comfort, no one to go to for advice, or help of any kind. It was just him and the remaining pieces of his broken heart. He stood up, hating how the dull pain in his lower back, the soreness reminded him of his stupidity. Perhaps this is the way he had to learn, to bear the dull pain and carry his marks on his body until they faded when time saw fit. He, however, had to get to work. No matter how tired, how hurt, how heartbroken he was, it didn't matter. He was a servant and must work.

He felt so alone.

"This is getting ridiculous," Chan huffed. It had been days since Hyunjin and Felix fought and though Chan had tried multiple times, the prince wouldn't get up, wouldn't eat, and refused to speak to anyone but him. He just laid on the bed, hugging his pillow. Every now and then he would start crying again. He was a complete wreck and something needed to be done about it. He just didn't know what. Hyunjin wouldn't go talk to Felix, he shut that idea down instantly. Chan couldn't just march up to the boy and start defending Hyunjin. He didn't think Felix wanted anyone associated with Hyunjin anywhere near him. Or so it seemed. He had stopped greeting Chan and Jisung when passing, not even a smile. He would just walk past like they weren't even there. Chan didn't take this as a personal offense, rather a bad sign.

He set the tray of food he brought to Hyunjin on the desk, sitting on the side of the bed. This was now a daily occurrence. "You're gonna have to get up eventually" He tried to reason with the boy who just pulled the blanket over his head, disappearing from sight. "Not if I die here" Hyunjin responded, not really meaning it, just wanting to disagree with Chan. "Don't say things like that. It's not funny" apparently Chan's humor was wearing thin as well as his patience. He offered a piece of bread to Hyunjin in hopes that he would at least eat something . Apparently, luck was on his side today as the prince begrudgingly took it. "Happy?" He asked after taking a bite. He was hungry, absolutely starving in fact but he just felt like disagreeing with everyone. "Very" Chan replied with a smile.

He knew Chan was just trying to take care of him. That was his job as both Hyunjin's guard and older brother. He just didn't seem to get the hint that the prince wanted to brood alone. 

The initial sadness had subsided by now, leaving him feeling mainly empty though traces of it still remained. It was a bitter realization each morning that this wasn't just a long nightmare. That Hyunjin wouldn't be woken up by Felix who was worried because he looked upset while sleeping. His heart ached at the thought of that because it just felt so much like Felix . The boy had started to feel like home to him in such a short amount of time. Now he just felt like something was missing. Like there was this big, empty hole inside him that was there for Felix. Time seemed to have lost its meaning but at the same time, it held all the meaning in the world. He knew he was to go back to the castle, back home, in just a week. He couldn't just leave and pretend like Felix didn't exist. He had promised not to forget the boy and though Felix wouldn't believe him, he knew he would hold onto that promise.

His train of thoughts was interrupted by Jisung walking into the room. Hyunjin hadn't seen him since his fight with Felix, he hadn't come by once. He looked both hesitant and determined and he spoke with certainty "You have to speak with him" he let the words hang over them as the meaning settled in. "Please, not you too" Hyunjin whined. He wasn't in the mood to be lectured today. Jisung crossed his arms, standing his ground "You know it yourself! You're both wrecks and all of this was the result of an unfortunate misunderstanding" Hyunjin was getting agitated, maybe a part of him recognized that Jisung might've had a point or maybe his peace with the guard had simply been temporary. He just rolled his eyes, no longer interested in hearing what Jisung had to say. "Well, it's not my fault you didn't tell him about the wedding!" Jisung huffed.

"Yes, I think we are all very clear on the fact that this is entirely my fault, though thank you for stating the obvious" Hyunjin remarked, voice dangerously sarcastic. Sarcastic in a way Chan, still sitting on the bed, knew would result in a fight. "Well if you know then you should probably do something about it instead of sitting here and crying!" Jisung's little outburst struck a nerve. Hyunjin didn't like the fact that the boy was probably right nor did he like the guilty feeling it gave him. He felt so childish and immature for handling the situation like he had but would rather die than admit it. "Shut up if you know what's good for you!" Hyunjin said, standing up. He was quite intimidating. Especially taking into account Jisung's height and smaller build. He didn't back down though, standing straight with his arms folded on his chest "Go talk to Felix if you know what's good for you !"

Hyunjin balled his fists, rolling his eyes again. "If you just came here to lecture me about how I should've done things differently you can fuck off now!" Jisung made a noise that could only be described as pure frustration "You don't get it, do you?! This isn't just about you!" He took a moment to breathe before continuing, slightly more calm "You could at least try to fix this, try to explain but you won't because you have your head so far up your ass that you refuse to admit you fucked up! Felix is hurt too" Hyunjin was now fuming, face slightly red, emotions going haywire. He knew, deep down, Jisung was so right about almost everything.

He hadn't gone to talk to Felix, not because he didn't want to admit he fucked up but because he was a coward. He was afraid Felix wouldn't listen. He was afraid Felix would tell him that this time apart showed him he was better off without Hyunjin.

"Do you seriously think I don't know?!" Hyunjin was so angry. Jisung had no right telling him how his Felix was feeling and what to do to fix it. Jisung didn't know Felix as Hyunjin did. Jisung scoffed, voice now ice-cold "Then you must just not care. Perhaps you did just want to mess around with him a bit" it was a risky move. Jisung knew this could result in him getting a black eye but if it worked, the risk would be worth the reward. It made Hyunjin storm out of the room, exactly like Jisung had hoped.

Hyunjin stormed around the house, scaring at least 4 servants though he didn't care. He had never been offended to such a high degree. How dare Jisung suggest he doesn't care? He had cared, every second he spent with Felix. He still did. He wanted out. Just out of here, he needed to think, to calm down. He was about to storm into the kitchen and use the back door there to go outside but he was stopped by voices there. Not just anyone's voices. Gayoung was angry again, though this time not yelling. 

"I cannot believe!"

She seemed to need a second to collect her thoughts again. She was fuming.

"Such behavior! You shamelessly offered your filthy, disgusting body to the prince! You revolt me! You have no place even talking to him, you are nothing! What exactly made you think you were worth laying with the prince?!"

Hyunjin's blood was boiling now, though for a different reason. He knew exactly who Gayoung was talking to. He no longer cared about what Jisung had said, it meant nothing to him. Hearing Gayoung call Felix "filthy" and "disgusting" hurt him. He would never allow anyone to talk to Felix like that. He didn't care that the servant wanted nothing to do with him. He didn't care if the boy never spoke to him again, he would still never let Felix think he was anything but the most wonderful and beautiful creature God ever made. He was about to burst into the room but was stopped by Felix's words. Though he thought his heart could break no further, his chest could ache no worse, his blood run less cold, Felix's words broke him.

"I am sorry, miss. He only used me to warm his bed, as a servant is meant to be used. It won't happen again, I promise"

His voice was so emotionless, cold. Felix didn't sound like that. His voice was so bubbly and kind. His deep voice was almost scary with none of his usual brightness behind it.

"He only used me, as a servant is meant to be used" Hyunjin heard that sentence over and over in his head. He no longer heard where the conversation went from there. His surroundings became unreal to him for a second. Like he wasn't here. Tears started cascading down his face, blurring his vision. He didn't know where to go. How to relieve the awful pain in his chest that wouldn't go away. How to rest his tired head. No one ever told him what to do when you hurt the one you love most. He didn't want to go back to Chan and Jisung. He didn't want to face them or tell them what he had heard. He felt like repeating it out loud would make it real, final. It would mean that Felix truly thought Hyunjin had just used him for sex. Toyed around with him for a bit because he was bored. That Felix wouldn't know that Hyunjin loved him, with all his heart. That the prince was willing to fight to be with him or leave everything behind if he had to in order to get to wake up next to the beautiful boy every day.

"Sir, are you alright?"

A woman had appeared by his side. He supposed she was trying to get to the kitchen but he was standing in front of the door, effectively blocking it. Though there was genuine concern in her eyes. He must've looked crazy. He was a mess from head to toe and now crying uncontrollably, frozen in front of the kitchen door. He smiled at her weakly, nodding and stepping out of her way. She stayed still for a while, just looking at him with concern, almost pity. Hyunjin didn't want her pity. He had done this to himself and now needed to hurt. It was only fair that he too felt the pain he caused Felix. He couldn't bear her concerned look any longer so he walked off. Not sure at all where he would go. He had nowhere to go. No matter where he'd go, he just wished the awful feeling, that followed him everywhere, would disappear.

It had been raining all day. It has been raining often lately. It was as if the sky shared his pain, wept with him. He didn't know where he was walking but he trusted that his feet would take him somewhere nice as he went further and further away from the house. The rain didn't bother him, it wasn't very cold. It made everything seem so much greener and fresher. The forest looked so inviting though he didn't feel like that's where he was headed. He kept walking down the gravelly path, not seeing a single soul on his journey. He was shocked to soon find himself at the river. The small area with charred remains of the bonfire in a circle of rocks. The place felt so different now. It had been so warm and cheery the last time Hyunjin was here. Now it felt empty.

He walked to the edge of the river, staring at his disfigured reflection in it. He then sat down, barely even noticing the ground further soaking his clothes. This felt right. This is where he wanted to go. The pain in his chest lessened but never faded away completely. He understood that he would have to carry the weight of that pain on his chest for the love he lost and he was accepting it. Felix's words were still echoing in his head. He would have to make this right. He would accept whatever punishment Felix would decide to bestow upon him. Even if the boy never loved him the same again, Hyunjin wouldn't let him think this wasn't real. He wanted the boy to know that he loved him and still does even if Felix would reject him after. Felix just had to know that though he broke his promise, Hyunjin wouldn't break his.

“Why’d you say that, now he ran off again and I’ll have to spend the rest of the day worrying about him” Chan sighed, utterly exhausted by all turn of events. Jisung had the decency to at least look a little guilty as it was him who angered Hyunjin to the point of running off again. ”I’m sorry but if this will get him to speak with Felix, then it’ll be worth it” They stayed in silence. Chan hated to admit it but Jisung was right. Whatever it took to get Hyunjin back to normal. His brooding, constant bad mood, and borderline catatonic state were starting to stick to Chan. He just wanted Hyunjin back. He had been so close to being like the happy, kind kid he once was. Clearly, he wasn’t the same without Felix and the older hoped the servant would at least hear the prince out. 

“Has anyone bothered to cancel the wedding?”

Jisung’s question made Chan snap out of his thoughts. Shit. He quickly got up, frantically looking for something to write on. If Hyunjin wouldn’t tell the king the wedding was off, he would have to. He didn’t care what he’d have to do. He would throw his pride in a ditch and beg the king if he had to. He knew Hyunjin wouldn’t dare to go against his father’s wishes, 

especially in his heartbroken state but he needed the king to understand that this was a matter of his son’s happiness. He started feverishly writing, hoping the letter would get to the castle before they were to leave here.

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Hyunjin had spent the last two days trying to figure out how best to approach Felix. He could hardly just march up to the boy and ask him to follow the prince. From what Chan and Jisung had told him, the boy won't even look the two of them in the eyes anymore. So it was safe to assume Felix wouldn't be too friendly towards Hyunjin.

"Well, what other options do you have? You just have to convince him to hear you out" Chan stated for what felt like the hundredth time. Hyunjin sighed in defeat. "It'll never work hyung. You didn't hear him in the kitchen, he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore" he started feeling more and more defeated by the second. He only really had one shot at this and he would need to do it quickly as he had a measly 5 days before he was to return to the castle. He had to do this before he left.

"You could just take him with you somewhere and force him to hear you out or you wouldn't take him back"

Both heads turned to Jisung. Hyunjin had patched things up with him (again) after he came back from the river. He understood that Jisung had only said what he did to provoke the prince so he'd hopefully fix this situation. Though Hyunjin hoped next time he would use a different strategy. Chan laughed sarcastically at the suggestion, exclaiming "Oh, kidnapping him will surely get him in the mood to forgive!" Though Hyunjin didn't hate the idea. He thought about it for a while before saying "I don't need him to forgive, I need him to listen"

"You aren't seriously considering this?!" Chan was again in utter disbelief, staring from Hyunjin to Jisung and back.

"Hwang Hyunjin!" He then exclaimed though Hyunjin was too deep in thought to really care. He had already started brewing a plan in his head. "Why do I even try?" Chan sighed, accepting defeat, burying his face in his hands. Jisung stared at the prince, shocked as well. He hadn't been entirely serious about his suggestion as he was aware of how much it probably would scare Felix but if the boy wouldn't listen, he didn't see any other way to fix this. Hyunjin was quiet for such a long time, lost in his thoughts. Pondering the pros and cons of the idea. Hope started filling his chest for the first time in days, making him speak up.

"That could work"

Felix wiped the sweat off his forehead with the back of his hand. As punishment for sleeping with the prince, Gayoung had informed Felix that he was to take care of the entire field by himself or she would take a week's payment from him. It was obvious that she just wanted to not pay him since on a normal day 16 people worked on the fields from sunrise till sundown. It was physically impossible for one person to do all the work in a day. He had been working tirelessly, his body aching and tired. He accepted the punishment as he felt like he should be punished for his stupidity. The feeling of being humiliated and the bitterness towards himself for falling for it hadn't subsided. He felt like the physical exhaustion and pain that resulted from this hard work, would distract him from the emotional one.

At least it was a cloudy day. He thought he would've probably died from heat exhaustion by now had it been a sunny day. He was feeling slightly dizzy and very exhausted regardless but at least the sun wasn't burning him today. He started doing what he did best, what felt natural to him. He thought of the positives of the situation. He wouldn't be further punished after this, Gayoung hadn't informed all the other servants so at least he was spared from public humiliation, and the other servants who were to work the fields got a day off. None of these were positives to him per se but he tried to regain the positive mindset he had before the prince came in and ruined him. He hated how much he thought of the prince still. He hadn't seen him around the house once, he seemed to be keeping to himself. Perhaps he at least had the decency to be ashamed of himself, or maybe he was busy planning the wedding.

He cursed as the ache in his chest returned. Not a physical one but rather an emotional one as he thought of the wedding. Imagining Hyunjin looking stunning in beautiful, expensive clothes, waiting for a faceless girl in a silky white dress walking towards him with a smile. It hurt. He hated that and though he should see the fact that the prince was to leave in 5 days as a good thing, he couldn't. No matter how hard he tried, the thought of never seeing Hyunjin again, of not knowing how he is, not being able to listen to his ramblings and soft laugh that followed, pained him. He wished he didn't trust and fall for people so easily. He cursed his heart for being so weak, so desperate that the second someone was kind to him, he gave them everything.

He was so occupied by his thoughts, he didn't hear two people approaching behind him. He only realized when he was lifted off the ground and was suddenly hanging, head upside down. His face was touching something soft. Fabric? He looked up and noticed that he was being taken away from the fields by someone who had rather harshly just tossed him over their shoulder. He didn't know who it was. Should he try to free himself? Would he dare? He didn't think he had the energy to do it. There was something familiar about the person carrying him and though Felix couldn't see them nor were they talking, he just felt it. "S-Sir, put me down, please" God, he sounded pathetic.

He got no answer and started to panic. Was this more of Gayoung's punishment? What would happen to him? He noticed they were nearing the stable which calmed him a little though confused him further. He didn't dare to speak, going limp in the man's hold. The journey was spent in silence that horrified Felix. Why weren't they talking either?!

He was let down and everything happened in a split second. He realized the man carrying him had been Chan, now standing in front of him before Felix was lifted up again and basically tossed on a horse where two arms wrapped around him quickly before the horse started moving. They were going quite fast, too fast for Felix to jump off though he still considered it when a familiar scent hit him. His scent. That's why he hadn't been bothered by the arms wrapped around him or the body so close behind him. That's why he wasn't alarmed, why this felt so natural. It was Hyunjin.

"Let me down!"

Felix said strictly. It only further annoyed him when he got no answer. The prince had a lot of nerve pulling a stunt like this after what he did.

"Let me down or I'll jump!"

He threatened, turning his head slightly though not really looking at Hyunjin. He didn't think he could. He was certain he would just burst into tears and melt in the other's arms the second he did. This time though, Hyunjin responded, "You shall do no such thing!" Before wrapping his arms tighter around the boy, preventing him from moving even if he wanted to. Felix just folded his arms over his chest, looking displeased though the prince didn't see this. Felix knew this route, he knew where it led because he was the one that originally led Hyunjin here. They were going to the river. Felix hated how the seed of hope had once again planted itself in him. He shouldn't wish for anything to do with the prince. He should slap Hyunjin for everything the prince had done. But his weak heart did backflips at the way Hyunjin held him so tightly yet gently.

He was proven right when they arrived at the side of the river. Felix had been here so many times as a kid, it was such a comforting place to him. But now it was tarnished by his memories of the bonfire, of him and Hyunjin tangled together, of how Hyunjin's lips felt on his. He didn't want these memories as he knew Hyunjin didn't want him anymore. Hyunjin hadn't felt the way he did, probably later on laughing at his behavior and how smitten he was with the prince. He was, however, utterly baffled as to why the prince had brought him here. He also didn't know what to do when the horse came to a full stop. He waited for Hyunjin to do something.

As if he was burning hot, Hyunjin let go of Felix, seemingly only now realizing how close he had been holding the boy. He didn't want to make the boy uncomfortable. Which in their twisted miscommunication made Felix think his suspicions about Hyunjin not wanting him, were now confirmed. Trying to console his aching heart, he closed his eyes, willing the forming tears to vanish.

Hyunjin jumped off the horse offering his hand to Felix who didn't take it. He looked away, anywhere but at Hyunjin as he slid down the horse, meeting the ground with a soft thud, his tired legs almost giving away. The prince tried to not be hurt by the other's cold behavior as he knew the boy was angry but he couldn't stop the small stab of pain in his chest.

"So umm…" Hyunjin started the long speech that he thought of, disappearing the second Felix turned to look at him. The boy had a healing bruise on his cheekbone as well as a cut lip. Had he been in a fight? But there had been no talk of a fight, nor had his friends seen anything. "What's wrong with your face?" Hyunjin asked, concerned but it came out more blunt than he intended. The prince internally sighed at his own stupidity while Felix looked shocked for a second, wondering if he even should respond. "Is that why you brought me here? To ask me what's wrong with my face?" He didn't even sound mad anymore, just utterly confused. Hyunjin shook his head, gesturing with his hands to further get his point across. "The bruises. What happened?" Hyunjin was very close to just giving up on trying to speak altogether. Felix was making his brain turn into mush.

"It doesn't matter," Felix said dismissively. For a second Hyunjin thought he forgot to be mad at the prince as his expression softened a bit. He got his snappy attitude back rather quickly though "Why am I here Hyunjin?" He sighed, folding his arms over his chest. Hyunjin knew this was his moment. Felix was clearly waiting for him to explain, which meant he was willing to at least listen. Though now that the moment had come, his head felt empty, the excitement of Felix talking to him after a week of silence and fear overriding any other cognitive functions.

"I'm sorry"

He started out. Probably a bad place to start if he didn't want Felix to think he did all this on purpose but Hyunjin just needed the boy to know.

"I owe you an explanation and it's up to you if you believe me or not but I just need you to know this"

Felix seemed a little more intrigued now which gave Hyunjin hope. He took a deep breath before launching into his explanation.

"I never lied to you and never faked any moment we shared together. They were the happiest moments of my life and I shall cherish them forever. I would never have used you just for your body and I am so sorry I made you feel like that. You mean everything to me and I don't think I could break my promise to you even If I tried. I can't forget you, I'm…"

He was rambling, speaking fast and somewhat feverishly. He took a deep breath again before looking Felix in the eyes and saying what he had wished he said a long time ago

"I'm so in love with you Felix"

Felix thought he held himself together quite well through Hyunjin's rambling but those words hit him right where he was weak. He hadn't realized how badly he had craved for Hyunjin to say that until he said it. He felt like he was a ticking time bomb waiting to break loose. He was afraid that if he had to speak, he would just collapse into a pathetic, crying heap on the ground. Hyunjin on the other hand felt good. It felt good to say those words. It felt even better to see Felix's expression change like he didn't want to believe the prince but had no other choice.

"Everything stated in the letter was true. My father has arranged for me to be wed to this princess from the north. However, I wasn't made aware of this until the morning of the bonfire and fully intended to tell you but I am far too simple, in my excitement to spend the lovely evening with you, I forgot. It wasn't right towards you and you have every right to be angry with me. Though I am willing to fight, even leave everything behind to be with you, it is no longer my decision to make but yours. I will respect your decision either way but I just needed you to know that you were never just a servant to me and you will never be someone I will forget"

Hyunjin had closed his eyes at some point, afraid of seeing Felix's facial expressions. He was afraid they'd change into more angry ones or perhaps even disgusted ones. He was putting his heart out on display for the boy and once again Felix had the chance to either cherish it or shatter it.

When Felix once again said nothing, his face rather blank, Hyunjin took it as rejection. He felt like all air was punched out of him as he realized it was over. He had done what he could and as he said, he'd have to respect Felix's decision and just leave without him. Though he wished the boy would've at least said something. The deafening silence hurt worse than if the boy had slapped him.

"The odds of existing are slim, so the odds of you and I existing, at the same time, must be next to impossible so thank you for sharing that existence with me, even if just for a little bit. I shall keep my promise, I won't forget you"

He turned away from Felix, not being able to bear the sight any longer. For a fleeting second, he had hope but apparently, hope was only something he was given to worsen the bitter disappointment that followed. He hadn't even managed to take one step back before he felt something thud against his back, arms wrapping around his waist, hugging him tightly. "Don't go" Felix's voice was small and desperate and it only worsened as he uttered a weak "please" before violent sobs ripped their way through his body. Hyunjin was at a loss. The boy had not reacted to anything he said but was now crying and clinging onto him like he was his lifeline.

"Don't leave! Please!"

Hyunjin turned around when the boy got more frantic. He embraced the boy, burying his face in his hair repeating "I'm not leaving" until the boy stopped pleading for him to not leave. "I'm right here," he said gently, letting Felix cry into the crook of his neck. They stayed like this until Felix seemed to snap out of his panicked state and realize what he was doing. He let go of Hyunjin, who begrudgingly did the same. He started at the prince, eyes still watery and red but there was now a fire behind them.

"But you are still getting married" he stated, disappointment dripping from his voice. Felix felt so wronged by the situation. If Hyunjin loved him and he loved Hyunjin, it was rather cruel to not give their relationship a happy ending. The prince, however, shook his head "I won't. I do not wish to marry her, I do not wish to be with her. I wish to be with you" these words once again his Felix in a soft spot. He wishes to be with me?  With hope, came uncertainty too and he looked at Hyunjin with a calculating look "How do I know you aren't lying to me?" Hyunjin smiled softly, taking both his hands "Let me prove it! As I said I am willing to fight to be with you if that's what it takes" his eyes held stars in them as well as so much hope that Felix couldn't crush. He knew that he was once again possibly falling into the trap but it was hard to say no when his heart was screaming yes.

"So, you love me?" Felix asked, voice small and uncertain, eyes big and sparkly. He looked exactly like he had the day the prince arrived here, innocent and someone with a warm heart he wished to protect. Hyunjin smiled confidently, he would tell Felix this over and over again until he would never have to ask again "I love you" he kissed the back of Felix's hand as if to prove his point but this just flustered the boy to no end. There was something so absurd about a prince doing something you usually do to royalty, to a servant. Though to Hyunjin, Felix wasn't just a servant. He smiled happily while Felix blushed and giggled "Please come with me to the castle, I do not wish to go alone" he pleaded with the boy. This was the moment of truth. This would determine whether Hyunjin had gotten his sunshine back. Felix, once again, seemed a little uncertain "Like I said, I don't think they'd like me much at the castle" he sounded a little upset as well.

Hyunjin wanted to bury him in kisses that would drown out all uncertainty and fear the boy held. "I will be there with you and I won't let you be disrespected" this Felix knew to be true. He should've thought about it for longer than he did but realistically, what did he have to lose? He had nothing, no possessions, no family, he could still see his friends if he wished. He nodded, though his expression was a little more serious as he spoke "I will follow you. Though please," Felix sighed, closing his eyes before continuing "Please do not break my heart again, I don't think I can go through this a second time" his voice was so pleading. He seemed so helpless like he was once again giving his all to Hyunjin in hopes of being loved. Hyunjin pulled him close, their faces inches away. He could feel the prince's breath on his face. He didn't open his eyes, waiting for the other to finally close the distance. They had been separated for long enough already.

"You need to be taken care of. You have such a warm heart and I promise to cherish it, to love you forever" Hyunjin said, smiling before closing the distance. Felix felt good again, for the first time in over a week. He felt normal like this is how things were supposed to be. He was meant to be kissing Hyunjin and if he wasn't, it wouldn't have felt so effortless, it was like breathing. He reached his hands to the prince's long hair again, missing how soft it felt as he tangled his fingers in it. By the time they pulled away from each other, both their lips were cherry red. Hyunjin felt like he was home again. Something about the warmth and familiarity made Felix feel like his home. He smiled, content before laying soft kisses all over the other's face, mumbling quick 'I love you's' in between each kiss. Felix's soft giggles and small hands shoving the prince's face away playfully made Hyunjin feel so incredibly content. He made a mental note to thank Jisung on bended knee for this idea once they got back.

They couldn't let go of each other, not wanting to. Hyunjin was scared he'd wake up and this will just have been a wonderful dream. If it was a dream, he hoped to get to hold Felix just a bit longer so that he'd remember the feeling once he woke up. He was once again determined to remember every single freckle on the boy's face. He looked at the healing bruises, frowning. "Who hurt you, baby?" He wasn't joking around when he said he wouldn't let anyone disrespect Felix, it applied here as well. Felix had been hoping Hyunjin wouldn't ask again. He hoped the prince would've just dropped the topic since he gave him no proper answer. But it seemed Hyunjin was hellbent on knowing exactly what happened during the week they had spent apart.

"I got into a little scuffle, don't worry about it" he tried to say dismissively but he knew he had made a mistake the second the words left his mouth. Hyunjin furrowed his eyebrows, turning serious "A scuffle? With who? And why?" He was snappy in a way that left no room for arguing. Felix sighed, leaning into Hyunjin's hand that was caressing his cheek "A few of the other servants weren't too pleased with the "special treatment" I had been receiving from you and after telling Gayoung about us…" he blushed, a small smile appearing on his face as he referred to their lovemaking, before continuing "After they saw that I hadn't received a harsh enough punishment, they took it upon themselves to execute one" he finished, looking up at Hyunjin, hoping he wouldn't react too badly. 

"Who were these servants?" He asked, predictably to which Felix shook his head, determinedly saying "No! I won't tell!" The prince rolled his eyes, eyebrows still furrowed "Why?!" His voice was so whiny. Felix just tucked a strand of hair behind the prince's ear, smiling "Because it hardly matters now" which worked wonders in distracting Hyunjin. Felix chuckled as he realized how little it took for Hyunjin to forget about everything the second Felix paid some kind of special attention to him. He genuinely held so much power over the other. He pulled the taller into another kiss, wanting to show him what exactly did matter right now. He found this to be the best way to shut the prince up.

They stayed by the river for quite a while, just enjoying each other and basking in the wonderful warm feeling they provided each other with. Felix thought, once again, that with Hyunjin the risk was so worth the reward.

Once they finally returned to the house, it had turned dark outside. They were greeted by Chan and Jisung who had been anxiously waiting near the stable. Felix's first order of business was to smack Jisung's arm as hard as he could. The boy hissed, immediately rubbing his arm where he had been slapped and stared at Felix in offense. "You bastard! What kind of an idea was it to kidnap me?!" Felix pouted, not wanting to make the other think he was actually mad. He didn't appreciate being scared like that and dragged around without his consent but he had to admit it had all been worth it. Hyunjin just chuckled before Chan spoke up "Yeah, I'm sorry. I told them it was a horrible idea" to which Felix simply smiled, too happy to be carrying grudges of any kind. "You still went along with it though" Jisung pouted, having to defend himself since no one else was doing it. They all chuckled at Jisung's pouting that continued through the night as all three men helped Felix take care of the horses that night. The servant was just overjoyed to be with Hyunjin again, loving all the gentle touches and soft kisses they shared throughout the night, only falling asleep in each other's arms in the early hours of the morning.

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Hyunjin woke up to loud banging and excited voices. The body in his arms jerked awake as well as he tried to assess his surroundings. The banging seemed to have been the door slamming open and the excited voices were those of his friends who kept talking though he wasn't listening. 

"You guys are loud"

He simply stated, staring daggers at his friends for waking him up in such a rude manner. His expression softened however as the cute boy, still in his arms, blinked their eyes open. Felix's hair was sticking out in different directions, his face a little puffy, small hands coming up to rub the sleep out of his eyes. Hyunjin just smiled, staring at the boy for a while before Jisung spoke up again "You can stare at him later! We have great news!" He was practically beaming. The prince was confused as both the guards seemed to be far too happy for such an early hour. He raised a questioning eyebrow which prompted Jisung to wave a piece of paper in the air triumphantly. 

"We got a letter back from the king" Chan started explaining, though this cleared up nothing for Hyunjin. He hadn't written to his parents once and certainly after the last letter there was no good news that could surface with another letter. "Just let him read it!" Jisung, who seemed ecstatic, was already jumping his way to Hyunjin to hand him the letter. Hyunjin took it, holding it so that Felix could see as well.

"Chan,

I thought this marriage would be in Hyunjin's best interest, make him happy. After receiving your letter, however, I see that is not the case. I have canceled the wedding and arranged other ways to unite our kingdoms. I wish to meet this boy you said my son fell in love with. Please bring him to the castle with you as a guest of honor.

Thank you for taking care of Hyunjin, I wish you safe travel back here"

"A guest of honor?!" Felix exclaimed in utter disbelief. Felix was reading the letter over and over again. He was absolutely baffled as to why would the king just accept this? Chan must not have told him that the boy his son fell in love with was nothing but a measly servant. Hyunjin wasn't able to speak or think over the happiness that consumed him. He wouldn't have to fight to be with Felix, his parents had invited the boy to the castle and wished to meet him. He didn't know what he would say even if he could. He looked up at Chan and Jisung, "You wrote to my parents?!" This wasn't necessarily the first or most important of his questions but it was the first thing he got out of his mouth so it would just have to do. Chan chuckled, "You were so unbearably depressed when Felix wouldn't talk to you for a few days, I don't even want to imagine how much of a pain you'd if you spent a lifetime apart" all four of them chuckled, Felix, placing a soft kiss on Hyunjin's cheek.

Felix read the letter again, still not believing its contents. But it had the official seal of the king so it must truly be from him. "They want me to come?" He asked, turning to look at Hyunjin. The prince simply beamed, over the moon about the fact that Felix wouldn't have to feel unwelcome at the castle. He nodded, loving the shocked look on the boy's face. Hyunjin pulled Felix to lay down again, the boy now fully laying on top of him. He heard the exasperated sighs of his friends but pretended that they weren't here. He was simply too happy at the prospect of his parents approving of Felix. He pressed a quick kiss on the other's nose, making him giggle. He heard Chan say something along the lines of 'My cue to leave' before they were left alone once again.

The prince couldn't stop smiling though he was a bit worried as to why wasn't Felix sharing the same enthusiasm. "What if they don't like me?" He asked with a worried look. "I told you already Jinnie, I won't exactly fit in at the castle" Felix was excited, he really was. There would be no wedding, Hyunjin and him were allowed to be together there. It was basically a paradise. He was still, however, concerned. He had never even been to a place as fancy as the castle, he wasn't used to fine dining and the royal etiquette. He had worked his entire life, lived from day to day, hoping he'd get enough money to feed himself. He would surely stick out like a sore thumb. Hyunjin frowned, pouting a bit "Of course they'll like you!" Noticing that this didn't entirely fade the worries from Felix's mind, he continued "I'm not expecting you to become a royal overnight, Lix. I don't even want you to"

Felix looked at him curiously. Hyunjin chuckled, pressing a quick kiss to his lips. He gently pressed Felix's head down to lay on his chest, he himself was staring at the ceiling as he had done for so many days "I fell in love with you Felix, though you are no royal. Why would I want you to completely change?" Felix was at least a little soothed by the prince's words, though still worried. "Yes, you love me but what about other people in the castle? They surely will expect me to behave differently" Hyunjin placed his hand to play with the other's hair. "Other people do not matter. I will defend you till the end of the earth if I must, it is a small price to pay for us to get to be together" Felix couldn't help but agree with the prince. It was a rather small inconvenience compared to what they had to endure here. Sneaking around, hiding, and being punished. He would take whatever insults, labels, or mockery the royals chose to throw upon him because at least he'd be with Hyunjin. 

Hyunjin would be there to love him, to protect him. He'd be there to give Felix a reason to endure it every day. The prince had in such a short amount of time become everything to Felix. He now finally had something to lose and as scary as it was, it was worth the risk.

They were to leave soon, Chan asking Hyunjin a million times if he had remembered to take everything. Felix had gone to get whatever little he owned as well as "say goodbye to the horses'' which Hyunjin found both amusing and adorable. The prince couldn't believe his situation right now. He reflected on everything that had happened during his stay here. As much as he hated to admit it, it had been for the best. He had seen so much of the real world outside of the castle's comforts, experienced a bit of it even. He felt so distant from the person he had been when arriving. He was ashamed of his behavior, he knew he would forever be. Though Felix would always tell him to focus on his growth here when Hyunjin felt like this. He would always make sure that the prince wasn't too hard on himself.

Hyunjin wouldn't miss this place. Not one bit. The only decent thing in here was Felix and he would be leaving with the prince. Excitement coursed through him again as he thought of all the things he would show to and do with Felix at the castle. He knew Felix would love the garden, it was huge and covered in flowers of all colors. He would surely like the kitchen too, well equipped for baking and he was sure the cooks would love to have the little ball of sunshine in the kitchen. Hyunjin of course didn't want Felix to work at the castle. He had surely worked enough for one lifetime but they had disagreed on this when talking about it. Felix had insisted that he wouldn't "just sit around and let others do the work for him". The prince knew he couldn't get Felix to not work so he at least hoped the boy would do what he likes and try to get used to not working around the clock.

He was nervous for his parents to meet the boy. Though he was irreversibly in love with Felix, he was concerned that his parents wouldn't see past his status as a lower-class servant. He was afraid of this because he had not seen past it in the beginning. It took a series of coincidences that forced the two together to show him Felix's wonderful personality that had made him finally let go of his unnecessary pride. He knew Felix was very nervous too and tried to alleviate it by promising him that whatever the king and queen said, whatever they thought of him wouldn't deter Hyunjin from loving the boy. His train of thought was interrupted by a happy Felix entering the room holding one, small bag.

"Are you ready? Chan hyung said we should get going" he was practically beaming and his use of 'hyung' when talking about Chan didn't go unnoticed by the prince. He was just glad they seemed to be getting close. He wanted Felix to have friends at the castle too as he might not always be able to be there for him. He walked to the boy, wrapping his arms around him. "I wanted to leave this place the second I arrived" he chuckled, diving in for a sweet kiss that had Felix giggling. Though when he pulled away he noticed the other jutting his bottom lip, eyes big "But then you would've never met me" Felix whined in an exaggerated manner. He was quick to drop this act when Hyunjin started laying quick kisses all over his face to shut him up.

"Ungrateful is what you are!" The prince accused, at which Felix simply laughed. "We have to go," Felix whined, though made no effort to move away from Hyunjin, happily clinging onto him. "Jisung is so tired of you ignoring all responsibilities when I show up that if you make him wait any longer he might make you walk back to the castle" Felix added with a fond smile. Hyunjin gasped dramatically, putting a hand over his chest in fake offense. "I do not ignore all responsibilities when you show up!" He defended his case, finally moving away to get his bags while Felix laughed "You do!" 

He placed a quick kiss on the prince's cheek saying cheerily after "I'm not the one complaining" before leaving the room in hopes that the prince would be ready before sundown.

Once outside, Gayoung had come to speak with the three of them. She had taken on a habit of pretending that Felix didn't exist since she couldn't stop Hyunjin from taking the boy with him. She was doing the boy a favor in all honesty. Hyunjin couldn't help but roll his eyes as she spoke, wanting her out of his sight forever. Felix was forcibly reminded of the first few weeks the prince had been here. He had been horribly arrogant and acted like he was above everyone here. He smiled fondly remembering how he had somehow still liked the prince. He supposed that was just the effect Hyunjin had on people. Gayoung bid them farewell and Felix latched himself onto the prince the second she finally left. Hyunjin wrapped his arms around the boy almost instinctively. They leaned closer, both with smiles that could only be described as "idiots in love" until they heard a rather exasperated voice

"Can we schedule that for later?" Turning their heads, they saw Jisung already walking away with his horse. They just chuckled, Felix, giving Hyunjin a quick kiss before they ran after the two guards. Perhaps the prince did ignore everything around him when Felix was around but he didn't see how it was an issue.

The prince was satisfied with Felix in his arms while they rode back to the castle. He was excited to be going back home. He had missed all the comforts of the castle, not to mention the happy boy in his arms who would be there alongside him. Felix was humming quietly, a habit of his that Hyunjin loved. They didn't speak much for a while, he supposed they were just all looking forward to going home.

The silence lasted until they got to the town. Hyunjin knew this would happen as it did every time. He just wished he could've shielded Felix from this. People were pointing and staring just as they had the last time. Only now there was a mystery boy sitting on the prince's horse which surely would make the town gossip. Hyunjin was once again trying his very best to ignore it but poor Felix who wasn't used to such attention was having a rather difficult time. Felix tried to keep his eyes on the saddle he was holding, ignoring all the gasps and whispers he heard. He had no idea how Hyunjin dealt with this every time he left the castle. He wanted to simply ignore the crowd gathering around them but couldn't help but overhear the whispers.

"Who is he?"

"He looks like a peasant"

"Perhaps a slave?"

"A slave wouldn't sit with the prince!"

"He is rather skinny"

"He looks ragged"

"Much too filthy to be near royalty!"

"Very scrawny for a man, he looks rather weak"

"His face looks dirty as well!"

Why were they so negative? Felix couldn't understand. They didn't know him but they were commenting on his appearance, speculating his status, and wondering what he had done to earn the privilege of traveling with the prince. Did he really look that ragged enough to be mistaken for a slave? Would he embarrass the prince by being seated with him? He wondered how Hyunjin wasn't affected by any of this. 

Noticing the boy's distress, Hyunjin pulled the boy closer to him, whispering in his ear "Ignore them, baby. We'll pass them in a minute" which was easier said than done. They felt like awful voices inside Felix's head that just came up with new and worse insults and questions. Things he didn't ever think he needed to be insecure about. It really struck him how different life was and would be over here. He had been used to surviving and now he was amongst people who had the time and money to worry about their appearance and status. Was this how Hyunjin thought as well? He doesn't. A voice of reason finally kicked into his head. He loves you and has told you a million times he thinks you're pretty. He wouldn't if he agreed with all these people.

Hyunjin was right, they passed the town soon enough, leaving all the gossiping townspeople behind. Felix's mood was lifted when he saw the castle. It was by the ocean, waves crashing against a cliff on the east side. It was huge and beautiful. Now he was nervous, he had never seen a castle let alone been inside of one. He didn't want to bring down the mood with his worries since he noticed how excited Hyunjin was. He was clearly happy to be home. 

The castle felt even bigger as they stopped in front of the long stairs leading up to the huge, wooden front doors. Felix looked up at the high towers and tall windows that were framed with dark blue curtains. It was certainly a big change from living in the horse stable. Hyunjin jumped down and helped Felix do the same after. Felix stood there just admiring the size and statue of everything. A bunch of guards greeted them with a short, muscular one approaching with a big smile. Felix thought he was quite handsome. "Hyunjinnie~" he rushed to hug the prince who seemed to share the same fondness. The dark-haired, short man signaled to the other guards who immediately took the horses away. It felt strange to have someone else do your work for you.

"You're finally back home!" The guard exclaimed, his voice rather high-pitched for someone so intimidating looking. Hyunjin scoffed, once again turning into a whiny child " Finally! I would've probably died if I had to spend one more day there" the guard just chuckled, along with Chan and Jisung, then sighing "oh, what a drama queen" after this he turned his attention to Felix who had just been standing behind Hyunjin, hoping no one would address him. He beamed at the boy, then turning back to the prince "Is it him?" Hyunjin nodded, wrapping his arm around Felix's waist. "This is Felix. Lix, this is my friend Changbin" Changbin offered his hand for Felix to shake which he did with a small delay. No nobleman let alone a royal guard had ever even spared him a look so Changbin offering his hand caught him very off guard. Luckily the guard didn't seem bothered by Felix's odd behavior, simply smiling and saying excitedly "I'm very happy to meet you! The king and queen are very excited as well!"

Felix found this hard to believe. He supposed they could be excited but it would certainly change to disappointment once they saw who their son was with. Changbin led them to the huge, wooden doors that led inside and Felix realized at some point that Chan and Jisung weren't there anymore. It made him even more nervous as now all the attention would be on him and Hyunjin. He gasped in amazement as the doors were opened. The floors were all a light marble, the huge stairs that led further into the castle had dark blue carpets on them. The ceiling was so high and there were arches on every hallway he could see. The walls had intricate carvings and small statues embedded into them. He had never seen such a place, every square of the castle seemed to be like an art piece on its own. Hyunjin noticed Felix's big, wondering eyes. They looked like they had stars in them.

"Do you like it?" He asked though he was fairly certain he knew the answer. Felix looked at a loss for words for a moment, just looking around, opening and closing his mouth until he finally looked at Hyunjin "What do you mean, do I like it?! It's beautiful!" He looked so amazed. The castle was more beautiful than the prince remembered. Perhaps it was Felix's innocent amazement that made him appreciate the beauty of this place more or perhaps he had just forgotten what his home looked like while away. Felix was sure he looked exactly like the poor servant he was while gushing over the most mundane things but he couldn't help himself.

"They're waiting in the garden," Changbin said, looking at Hyunjin and Felix excitedly. Hyunjin beamed while Felix gave him a half-hearted smile back, his nerves getting the best of him. Hyunjin took his hand, the large hand completely engulfing his smaller one. They started walking, Felix still amazed by the beautiful halls and Hyunjin smiling fondly at him. Changbin didn't come with them which somehow made Felix even more nervous. He would really be alone with the king, queen, and prince. Though he reminded himself that the prince was his Hyunjin, not just any prince. They were approaching white double doors with lots of window panes that turned the sun coming in into rainbows on the floor and walls. Felix smiled, letting out a small "wow" at seeing this. The doors led outside to what Felix assumed would be the garden. 

Before opening the doors, Hyunjin stopped, turning to look at Felix. "You are very nervous" he stated, pulling Felix closer by his hips until their bodies were only inches apart. "Who wouldn't be'' Felix replied with another statement, pressing his head to rest Hyunjin's shoulder. He enjoyed the warmth, calm breathing, and something very Hyunjin. It was calming him down a bit. "I am no royal Jinnie" his tone was so deflated that it hurt the prince. He sounded completely defeated. "I know that. I always did. It never bothered me" he gently kissed the side of Felix's head, upset that the boy seemed so worried. "But that's a lie," Felix looked up at Hyunjin. His statement made Hyunjin draw blank. "You were at first bothered by the fact that I was a servant and it's fine but what if your parents-" Hyunjin shook his head, cutting the boy off "My parents aren't like me" it was a short yet very powerful statement.

Felix looked up at the prince in confusion. Hyunjin sighed, calmed down by Felix's hands playing with his hair again. "I was sent there in the first place by my parents because of my behavior and arrogance" he felt somewhat ashamed to admit it to Felix but he had to be honest. That much he had learned over the course of his stay. This seemed to cheer Felix up quite a bit. He smiled softly, letting Hyunjin pull him close for a gentle kiss. He felt the tips of his ears redden at the thought of someone seeing them though the prince seemed to have no care in the world. When pulling away, Hyunjin was happy to see a pretty smile on the other's face. They stayed in the embrace for just a bit longer before turning to open the doors. While stepping outside Felix asked hastily "How do I greet them?" Suddenly again panicked about royal manners.

Hyunjin smiled, spotting his parents by the gazebo. "A small bow and shake their hand," he said calmly, holding Felix's hand again. He felt the boy tense up when his parents spotted them as well. "Just be yourself" Hyunjin squeezed his hand gently and led him to the gazebo. It was old and made of concrete, with multiple pillars supporting the round ceiling. There were flowers all around it and they had even wrapped themselves around the pillars. It was really quite beautiful and Felix would've been amazed by it if he wasn't scared out of his wits by meeting the king and queen.

"Hyunnie!" The queen exclaimed, rushing to hug her son. The king hugged him as well and Felix felt a certain warmth come from the interaction. They seemed to really care for each other. It made Felix think about his own family but quickly tried to squash down the unpleasant thoughts. It was just difficult when watching a family, he always wished he had. He was pulled out of his upset thoughts when Hyunjin reached for his hand saying "Mother, father, I would like for you to meet Felix" 

His mind drew blank as all three were now looking at him. He bowed like he would've while working, afraid to say anything. The nobles usually addressed the servants before they were to speak. He felt himself being pulled up from the bow and then felt two dainty arms wrap themselves around him. He was so shocked, he almost forgot to hug the queen back. Nothing he had previously learned applied here and it was making him anxious. When she pulled away she looked at Felix for a moment before turning to Hyunjin with a smile "Well you sure managed to find a very pretty boy" Felix felt his face and ears heat up from the compliment, momentarily too flustered to speak as the queen turned her smile to him "I am very pleased to meet you, Felix" 

His expression must've been comical as Hyunjin burst into laughter, trying to hide his face in Felix's hair. "I-I am pleased to meet you as well" he tried to smile but was sure it came out more like a grimace. The weak tone in his voice didn't help either. The king took a step closer to him and he was sure he would be done for. They would have him beheaded for disrespecting the queen or in the least exile him from the kingdom. The king then extended his hand out with a smile. This time Felix was quick to react, shaking his hand making sure to hold his own forearm with the other hand. The king only chuckled "We have both been looking forward to meeting you since we found out, no need to be nervous" as warm as their smiles and words were, they did very little to calm Felix down. Hyunjin took note of this, pulling Felix a little closer by his waist.

"We are rather tired from the journey, I think we will retreat to rest," Hyunjin said, looking at Felix fondly. The king and queen protested, looking upset "But Hyunnie, we didn't even get to talk to Felix" his mother whined, putting on a pout that looked very familiar to Felix. Felix was ready to stay and talk if that's what they wanted as he didn't want to make a bad first impression but Hyunjin rolled his eyes chuckling "You can talk to him tomorrow but now he must rest" the queen rolled her eyes back. Felix smiled at how much the prince was like his mother. She turned her attention to Felix, still smiling "He is determined to keep you all to himself but I will steal you away at some point" this made them all chuckle though it also gave Felix a sinking feeling. The thought of speaking one on one with the queen horrified him no matter how kind she seemed.

Once they were finally alone in their room, Felix felt like he could breathe again. He was feeling so overwhelmed with everything. The guards all around the huge castle, everyone suddenly bowing at him, meeting the king and queen, the grandness of everything. It was all too new. The only thing that felt normal, the only thing keeping him anchored was Hyunjin. He sat on their huge bed, covered in soft coverings and more decorative pillows than he thought a whole village would need. Hyunjin stood in front of him, holding his hands. "What did you think of my parents?" Hyunjin sounded so nervous. Maybe he mistook Felix's nervousness for dislike. "They were very kind," Felix said, finding the whole "happy family" thing still a little sore of a subject. He felt sensitive about how loving Hyunjin's parents had been towards not only their son but him as well. Even thinking about it made him feel like he might start crying.

Hyunjin noticed Felix's somewhat reserved behavior. He couldn't get a read on what was going through the boy's head. "What is it? Do you not like it here?" This was exactly what Hyunjin had been afraid of, Felix not being happy in the castle. He didn't want to force the boy to live there but didn't want to live without him either. Felix looked up, upset about the concern in the prince's voice. "No, I want to be here, with you" there was no uncertainty in his voice now. He sighed, looking back down "I'm just a little…Overwhelmed" he really wanted to be happy and share Hyunjin's excitement over being home but he was feeling too many things at once. Hyunjin leaned down pressing their lips together. Felix clung to him as if his life depended on it, tangling his hands in Hyunjin's hair. He felt like the only constant while everything else was scary chaos to Felix. Kissing Hyunjin just felt so safe and warm, it was normal, it made him feel comfortable. 

Felix laid down on the bed, pulling Hyunjin with him. Hyunjin climbed fully on the bed instead of standing by the side of it, one hand supporting himself over Felix, the other caressing the freckled cheek. They pulled away breathing heavily, Felix pulling their foreheads together, just wanting to be as close as humanly possible to Hyunjin. "If you aren't happy here, you have to tell me," Hyunjin said, though he prayed Felix wouldn't want to leave. Felix shook his head, eyebrows furrowed "I am happy with you, I promise" desperately kissing Hyunjin again, needing him to feel that what he said is true. Looking up at Hyunjin reassured him. There was so much love in his eyes, they were sparkling. "Just please, give me time" Felix was starting to feel better now that it was just him and Hyunjin again. He convinced himself that he would get used to this, this could feel like home to him. Hyunjin already felt like home.

After taking a bath together that this time included no funny business and getting into bed Felix's mind was filled with thoughts of family. He kept tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. Would he ever fit into the royal family? He had only thought about his feelings for Hyunjin, completely ignoring the fact that he is a prince. If he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him, he'd have to be a part of the royal family. It was such a drastic change to his own.

"Baby? Is everything okay?"

Hyunjin asked quietly, voice small. He knew Felix had a lot on his mind but he had somewhat gotten the boy to relax before going to bed only for him to now become restless again. It concerned him. Felix turned to face Hyunjin, sighing. He looked so small . His eyes are big and innocent, pretty freckles splattered across his face, heart-shaped lips bent into a frown. "Your family…" Felix started, not knowing how to express his feelings. Not really even understanding how he was feeling or why was he so affected by seeing them interact. "You all cared for each other so much, you seemed so close" The small break in his voice at the end of the sentence didn't go unnoticed by Hyunjin. "They try their best to make up for lost time," Hyunjin sighed. This threw a wrench into Felix's thoughts. "Lost time?" 

Hyunjin didn't want to spend their first night here going through his family issues but he couldn't turn down the pair of big, curious eyes staring at him expectantly. "I was basically raised by Chan hyung's dad and the servants working here. My parents didn't really care to have the responsibilities of a parent on top of everything else so I didn't really exist to them" He sighed, the feeling of being invisible to someone whose attention you craved so badly, coming back to him in a flash. "But when I was around 15, they started realizing the effect their "parenting" had on me so they started trying one step at a time" Hyunjin hadn't completely forgiven his parents yet. He had tried to, for so long but the resentment still stuck. That was why them sending him away struck him so hard. Felix nodded, bringing his hand to brush away a few strands of hair that had fallen on the prince's face. "They are trying very hard and I try not to resent them as they can't change the past" 

It all made sense to Felix now. The way Hyunjin had behaved and how fast it changed when Felix showed kindness to him. Hyunjin wasn't a bad person, he just wanted to be loved. Felix swore that he would make up for Hyunjin's childhood by making sure the prince knew every day that he was loved. He smiled fondly, he wasn't sure he could speak without bursting into tears so he didn't. Hyunjin's parents may not have been the best when he was a child but they tried to be there for him now, love him, and take care of him. Felix craved that. Hyunjin noticed how deep in thought Felix seemed, chuckling a little at his look of concentration. "What was your family like then?" He asked while on the subject though it seemed to be a sensitive one for Felix.

"I don't have one"

Felix stated, tone uncharacteristically cold. Hyunjin wondered if it was wise to prod but this only made him more curious. "Everyone came from somewhere" he pointed out, deciding that if Felix shut him down again, he would let the matter be. "I used to have a family" Felix started, hating how already his voice was cracking a bit, it felt difficult to speak. "I had a mom and two sisters" It seemed like this was a long time ago, almost like his family was nothing but a distant memory anymore. "My older sister started working when she was 11 after my father left us and she didn't let me start working until I was 12" Felix chuckled sadly, remembering fondly the petty fights he'd had with his sister when she was only trying to protect him. Hyunjin had started brushing his hand through the boy's hair in an attempt to calm him.

"I started working and spent most of my time at the house, only seeing my family on Christmas or at the bonfire" this upset Hyunjin. Felix had a loving family but wasn't able to meet them. It was strange how their problems as a child had been polar opposites but it hurt them in a similar manner. Felix now had a few stray tears rolling down onto his pillow "One Christmas I went home but no one was there. They had all left" Okay, so maybe Felix's family wasn't so loving after all, Hyunjin mused. He didn't want to interrupt so he just pet Felix's head, nodding to show that he was listening. "The townspeople…" his sentence broke off, now sobbing a bit. The few stray tears had turned into small rivers, wetting the pillow and blurring his vision. "They said, my mom, found a rich man to marry and took off with her kids to go marry him" Hyunjin felt so upset for the unjust situation. How come she just left her own child? 

Hyunjin pulled Felix closer and let him cry onto his chest, petting his head. He felt hurt at the fact that Felix had been alone for so long. He only had his two friends that he had been able to see once a year. He truly didn't have a family anymore. No wonder he had been so uncomfortable the whole day. He held Felix, kissing the top of his head every now and then until the sobbing calmed down, now reduced to only soft sniffling. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to ruin today but I kind of did" Felix squeaked, slightly muffled by the fact that he was pressed against Hyunjin. The prince scoffed, kissing Felix's forehead before saying "You didn't ruin anything. You were just nervous, it's okay, you'll get used to this all" He felt helpless as he didn't know how to help Felix to adjust. The boy helped him when he first arrived at Gayoung's house and seemed to do it so effortlessly but now that it was Hyunjin's turn to help Felix adjust, he didn't know how to. "I'll be your family and I won't leave you," he said, hoping Felix wouldn't burst into tears again. He was delighted when a small smile appeared on the boy's face. "What if you do?" Felix asked, thinking about their fight and how they had spent a week without talking to each other. Hyunjin was caught a bit off guard by this but smiled nonetheless "You'll always find me, I know it"

He thought of his first night with Felix when he slept in the stable. He smiled at the fond memory, though he never wished to sleep on hay again. "May I read for you?" He asked, reminiscent of how Felix had asked him that same question what felt like forever ago.

Felix chuckled, nodding shortly after. Hyunjin rummaged through his bag for the book he had bought, squeaking happily when finding it. He got back into bed, pulling Felix's head to rest on his chest, falling into a comfortable cuddle. Hyunjin's hand fell into Felix's hair, brushing his fingers through the locks gently while the other hand held the book. 

"You must be nice to him" Wendy impressed on her brothers.

"What would we do if he were to leave us?"

"We could go back", Michael said.

"How could we ever find our way back without him?"

"Well then, we could go on," said John.

"That is the awful thing, John. We would have to go on, for we don't know how to stop."

This was true; Peter had forgotten to show them how to stop.

John said that if the worst came to the worst, all they had to do was go straight on, for the world was round, and so in time they must come back to their own window.

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Felix yawned as he made his way towards the kitchens. It had been 2 weeks since he came to live at the castle and he was still slightly uncomfortable walking around by himself but since Hyunjin was very busy, he just had to make do. He had a lot of duties and pressure on him since his father had informed him that he wished for Hyunjin to take the crown much sooner than previously discussed. The king apparently was quite ill, not fatally but he was often unable to fully fulfill his duties as the king due to his sickness and wished for a more stable ruler for the kingdom. This meant Hyunjin had to be ready to be the king much sooner than he thought and Felix had noticed the stress wearing him out a bit. There was however nothing he could do about it so he just tried to help Hyunjin relax and forget his worries when they laid in bed at night. He hadn't been able to spend much time with Hyunjin, quickly becoming bored in the castle.

He loved helping out in the kitchen. He wasn't really allowed to do much cooking while employed by Gayoung as he was a little clumsy and often ended up with burns or cuts on his hands. The cooks here were much nicer and more patient though. They thought him lots and seemed to enjoy his company. He would always go to the kitchen, first thing in the morning to help prepare the breakfast though Hyunjin complained about this, not wanting Felix to work. 

"Morning Felix!" 

Sana, the chef's daughter, greeted him. He had taken an instant liking to her and she seemed rather worried about him all the time. She would keep running around after him in the kitchen, making sure he wouldn't accidentally hurt himself. "Morning noona!" Felix greeted with a smile. They spent the morning working together and joking around. Felix managed to cut his hand a bit to which Sana only sighed in exasperation, patching him up. Their fun was interrupted when Chan walked into the kitchen. He smiled fondly at the two's antics when Sana threatened to slap Felix in the face with a raw piece of meat. When the two noticed him, Felix stopped immediately, throwing Sana under the bus.

"As much as I would love to know why you want to slap him with that, I've been sent to fetch Felix," Chan said chuckling a little. Sana pouted "You can tell prince Hyunjin he can have Felix back after breakfast!" Felix was still shocked at how bold Sana was. Though it might have something to do with the fact that she was close friends with Chan and older than him, being able to boss him around. "Jinnie can wait a bit, I need to finish helping here" Felix argued. Hyunjin would often make one of the guards fetch Felix from the kitchens so they could lay around in bed all morning. 

"Hyunjin is busy with the king at the moment, it was the queen who asked me to fetch Felix" the second Felix registered Chan's words, his stomach dropped. The queen had never asked Felix to speak with him though she promised on his first day here, she would do so eventually. Felix had just sort of thought it was a joke since 2 weeks passed and nothing happened. He wasn't prepared at all, he must've looked a mess. Chan noticed the panic on Felix's face and chuckled "Don't worry, she just wants to speak with you" to which Felix rolled his eyes, a habit he surely had adapted from the prince. "That is exactly what I was worried about!" He whined, trying to dust the dirt off of his clothes as well as straighten them, frantically flattening his hair.

He left with Chan, Sana wishing him good luck. He definitely would need luck. He had been horrified to be alone with anyone but Hyunjin or the guards. He didn't really have much manners, growing up in a stable you didn't need such things. The queen seemed kind, he just didn't want her to think he was rude. He was so nervous he didn't even realize when they had stopped by one of the smaller dining halls. Chan pat him on the shoulder, giving him an encouraging smile which did very little to calm his nerves before he walked in alone.

The queen was sitting by the table, reading a book. There was a set up of tea for two people and Felix, not knowing if it would be polite of him to just sit down said "You wished to see me, your highness?" She looked up from her book and Felix immediately bowed to her politely. She smiled, pointing at the seat next to her "Oh, Felix! Please, have a seat" Felix sat down, uncertain of why he had been called here or why the queen was so keen to speak with him. The queen was looking at him intently and he didn't know if he had done something wrong. She gave him just enough time to start freaking out before her eyes turned kind and she started talking "I'm sorry to pull you away from the kitchens, you seem to like it there" She did sound somewhat apologetic but Felix was too busy trying to figure out if it was an indirect way of telling him off for working at the kitchens.

"Yeah, I like to help as much as I can" he tried to remain a constant, polite smile and a good posture. Those were the two things he had noticed nobles doing. The queen nodded, still seeming cheery "So please, tell me, where are you from? Where did you grow up? Where did you work? How did you meet Hyunjin? I wish to know more about you" once again, she seemed genuinely interested. Felix didn't know where to start, what to tell her or how much of it should he embellish. He ended up telling her mostly everything, leaving out some unfortunate parts and leaving it at his established relationship with Hyunjin. She seemed genuinely shocked to learn he had been a servant which Felix didn't blame her for. It was just strange that she was genuinely shocked and now judgmental.

"I would've never thought Hyunjin would've even been interested in a servant, his behavior has changed completely" Felix was worried the queen didn't approve of this change until she continued "Well, whatever you're doing to him works. He seems a lot happier now" she spoke of her son with such a warm, fond smile Felix would've never guessed that she hadn't been there for him as a child. He was proud that he seemed to be making Hyunjin happier, though he had only seen the prince stressed over the last few weeks. The queen noticed Felix's quietness and worried facial expression "Is there something that weighs on your mind?" She asked kindly.

Felix looked at her, unsure if he should really be bringing up his concerns with her, not sure if it was appropriate in the slightest. He however gave in when he looked into her eyes that looked remarkably like Hyunjin's. "It's just…Hyunjin has been very stressed lately, I don't know how to help," he sighed. The queen looked at him sympathetically, sipping her tea before answering "He is a little stressed now but he'll be okay. Don't worry, just having you here is helping him a lot" Felix couldn't really trick himself into believing that. He still wished he could do more to help Hyunjin with his increasing responsibilities. The queen then held his hand which gave Felix quite the shock. She was smiling kindly "I'm glad he met you" which made Felix's brain draw blank. He couldn't believe his ears, did the queen just basically say she approved of their relationship? Had it really been that easy?

From that moment the mood lightened, the tension disappeared. Hearing that she was glad he was here, with Hyunjin, made Felix more comfortable around her. He didn't feel as worried about the way he acted or spoke. Their topics changed around a lot, the queen telling him about her childhood, they spoke of the gossiping townspeople and Felix even told her about the bonfire he had taken Hyunjin to.

"Then these two little girls came up to us and asked to braid Hyunjin's hair" Felix reminisced about one of the best nights of his life. He chuckled, remembering Hyunjin's dumbfounded face "He couldn't stop gushing about how cute the girls were'' he got the image of Hyunjin with braided hair, flowers embedded into it with the warm light of the fire painting his beautiful features an orangey color. He missed that night. He missed the carelessness of it. The queen smiled fondly "Hyunjin really likes kids, always known he wants kids of his own'', though this was just Hyunjin's mother talking about her son fondly, Felix couldn't help but worry. He hadn't even thought about kids but now he realized. He would never be able to bear children for Hyunjin. He couldn't give him an heir to the throne. It instantly set a wildfire of worries in his mind. The queen seemed to notice this, putting her hand comfortingly on Felix's and said "Don't worry your pretty little head about it, I'm sure you and Hyunjin can think of a way"

He smiled at the queen, not wanting to be impolite. He just didn't see it the way she did. How would Hyunjin react if Felix brought this up? Surely the prince knew but like Felix, he probably just hadn't thought about it. Would Hyunjin leave him? Would he resent Felix for the fact that he couldn't give him a child? His mind had stopped being rational all together and he couldn't stop the thoughts now that they had started to crash down.

His thoughts were interrupted when Hyunjin walked in, beaming. "Mother I- Oh, Felix!" He immediately rushed to the boy, sliding his hands to lay palms flat on the other's shoulders. He seemed to be in a very good mood which made Felix even more worried. He couldn't bring himself to ruin Hyunjin's happiness though he was a whirlwind of emotions himself. "What are you two up to?" He asked while pulling Felix back a bit so his head was resting against the prince's stomach. "Have you interrogated Felix enough for this morning?" He joked, looking at his mom. The queen rolled her eyes, smiling softly. "I suppose I am allowed to talk to my future son-in-law?" Both royals laughed softly but Felix couldn't, his thoughts were now even more of a chaos.

Future son-in-law? They hadn't ever spoken of marriage, they had only been dating around 2 months. He again felt like this was just how royals spoke and he as an uneducated, poor servant wouldn't understand. All these confusing thoughts of marriage, children, and families and his head full once again. He wasn't even sure if he wanted to have children. He had never thought of it, only focusing on surviving each day. He, however, did wish to marry Hyunjin one day. He felt like he was getting a headache from the intensity of his thoughts and wished he could go back to their room, alone. No such luck however as Hyunjin spoke "I'll steal him from you now, there is something I wish to talk to Felix about" which only worried Felix even further. What did Hyunjin wish to speak about? Had he done something wrong? He knew he wasn't adapting to life in the castle in the best way but he had tried.

The queen nodded, looking back at Felix "It was nice to get to speak with you, we'll have to have these morning tea talks more often, yeah?" Felix froze. He hadn't really been in this moment for a while, so lost in his thoughts. He smiled, nodding, holding one of Hyunjin's hands on his shoulders while saying "It was nice to speak with you as well your highness" the queen scoffed at the title "Please, just call me auntie" 

Felix nodded, not really comprehending what she had said but smiling politely nonetheless while getting up from the chair. Hyunjin held his hand as they walked out of the room, beaming and humming quietly to himself. Felix was curious about what had Hyunjin in such a good mood. It was bothering him that he couldn't match Hyunjin's mood because of all these confusing thoughts invading his mind. He was also nervous about what Hyunjin had wanted to talk about. He had to stop himself from whining out loud as the tension in his head increased with each step, coming to a boiling point when they reached their shared room.

Hyunjin turned to face him, still beaming. "Was my mom nice?" His eyes held so much hope, Felix felt like he had to ignore his screaming mind for two seconds to ensure that he didn't ruin the prince's good mood "She was very nice and really curious" Hyunjin tilted his head, much like a puppy would if they were confused. It brought a genuine smile onto Felix's face as he continued "She said she is glad you met me". He felt his own mood lift when Hyunjin basically glowed at the words. Hyunjin slipped his arms around Felix's waist and pulled them close. It was comforting to have the love of his life so happy and so close to him. Hyunjin said quietly "I'm glad as well" before kissing Felix gently. Felix felt his worries subside for a bit, focusing all his attention on Hyunjin. It was strange to him how the prince had this effect on him.

When they pulled away, Felix felt something still tugging at the back of his head "You said you wanted to talk about something?" Though scared of the answer, he wanted to know. Hyunjin seemed confused for just a second before he chuckled "Ah! I said that just to steal you away for my mom" this made Felix chuckle as well. He was so worried and now he felt so ridiculous, so all he could do was laugh with Hyunjin. "But I do have something I need to tell you," the prince was still smiling excitedly. "The coronation is to happen in a month and tonight there will be a big celebration" he then looked a little apprehensive before continuing "I was hoping you would attend as well" Felix fell down a whirlwind of emotions again.

First happiness struck him when hearing about the coronation, Hyunjin would be the king. The happiness turned into nervousness as the prince mentioned a celebration, worried that he would have to go. Then that nervousness turned into anxiety when he was asked to attend. Hyunjin looked so hopeful and excited, he didn't want to say no but he didn't want to go either, he would just embarrass the prince. Hyunjin kept looking at him expectantly and he tried to put on a convincing smile "If you really want me to…" Hyunjin beamed and hugged Felix excitedly. Felix knew he was completely screwing himself over by agreeing to go but what other choices did he have when Hyunjin was so happy? He was certainly in a better mood than he had been this morning, though all the thoughts that had crept into his mind while speaking with the queen hadn't disappeared. He knew he would need to talk about it with Hyunjin eventually but chose his lover's immediate happiness over worrying about such things.

Felix felt nervous as he was getting ready for the celebration. From what Hyunjin told him, he gathered it to be a ball of some kind. A few people were bustling around in their room, picking clothes, doing their hair, and even putting makeup on them. Felix had never worn makeup, though he quite liked it. He just had never been able to afford it. He was turned around in a chair to face the mirror after the lady was done with him. He let out a small gasp in surprise, he looked so different. He didn't dislike it but he just didn't look like himself. He no longer had freckles, they were hidden under the makeup. Perhaps the royals didn't like his freckles and it would be best to hide them? His eyes were accentuated and had pretty sparkles in the inner corners. He smiled, thanking the lady, and was just about to get up to go show Hyunjin when he beat Felix to it.

The prince stared at him for a while, expression unreadable and Felix was worried that maybe Hyunjin didn't like it. "Why are his freckles covered up?" He didn't speak to Felix but to the lady who did his makeup. His tone was calm but his eyes were sharp and cold. The lady looked at Felix through the mirror and then at Hyunjin "He won't stand out as much sir. No royal would have such things on their face" Felix felt a jab of annoyance as the lady described his freckles as "such things". Hyunjin didn't seem any happier with her, eyes still staring into her coldly. "I didn't ask you to cover them, therefore I do not wish for them to be covered. Understood?" The lady nodded, slightly frightened. Felix thought it might've been for the best to leave them covered if it would help him not stick out like a sore thumb but Hyunjin seemed rather tense so he didn't wish to argue.

Once everyone else had left the room, Felix and Hyunjin changed into fancy clothes. Felix was still amazed by the beautiful clothes, he thought he would never get used to wearing them. He was staring at himself in the mirror. It felt strange like he was looking at himself in an alternative universe. He looked almost like himself but not quite. Hyunjin snuck up behind him, wrapping his arms around the smaller's waist and resting his chin on his shoulder. Felix laid his head against Hyunjin's, leaning into the embrace. "You look beautiful" Hyunjin's compliment made Felix blush and close his eyes. "This might be horrible a mistake" Felix sighed, trying to stall having to go downstairs to the ball. Hyunjin hummed, tightening his embrace around the other and laying a soft kiss on his neck before finally speaking "I know you're worried…Thank you for attending, even if it's just for me" 

Felix turned around in the other's arms, finally opening his eyes. Hyunjin looked stunning, he always did but tonight he just looked that extra bit beautiful. He smiled at the prince, tucking a strand of hair behind his ear before placing a soft peck on his lips. Hyunjin wasn't satisfied with that, however, pulling Felix close again which made the other giggle into the kiss. Felix wished they could've just stayed like this forever but he knew Hyunjin must go now or else he'd be late.

Down in the ballroom, Felix stood next to Hyunjin nervously shifting from one leg to the other. He was relieved to see all the guards he had become close to, around the room. At least he could escape to go talk with them if Hyunjin had to leave him by himself. Seungmin, a guard Felix had met a few days after coming here, waved at him from across the large room. Felix waved back, anxiety clear on his face and Seungmin gave him two thumbs up in an attempt to calm his nerves. This did very little to help.

People were greeting them as they entered, bowing to them which made Felix very uncomfortable. He wasn't used to people showing this type of respect towards him. Hyunjin was holding his hand and squeezed it gently every now and then as if to remind Felix that he was still there, next to him. 

Felix had never seen such a celebration. Everyone was dressed in their best, the whole room seemed to shine and glow, there were endless amounts of food on the tables that somehow no one seemed to touch. People were dancing, though not like he had ever seen. They were so organized, it was very tamed compared to what he was used to. He did enjoy the music, however. Hyunjin would go talk to people and he would run around after him, not saying a word to anyone. Mostly the people seemed to be ignoring him like he wasn't even there though this was completely fine with Felix. He disliked rich nobles just as much as he had before. They were so pretentious and cunning, always trying to compete with each other about wealth and status. It all felt so superficial. Felix didn't feel like he fit in here at all.

He hadn't even realized someone had come up to him and Hyunjin until he noticed the prince looking at him expectantly. He snapped out of his thoughts looking at a woman standing in front of him who was also looking at him though her expression seemed disapproving rather than curious. If he had been asked something, he hadn't paid attention and now helplessly looked to Hyunjin for help. The prince smiled saying "He is my partner Felix" while Felix blushed at the combination of embarrassing not only himself but Hyunjin as well and at the fact that Hyunjin had so openly called him his "partner". He didn't know how he expected Hyunjin to introduce him to people but for some reason, this made him flustered. His moment of giddiness didn't last long however as the woman spoke again, this time not even looking at Felix "And is he able to speak? Or maybe he is perhaps deaf?"

This made Felix even more embarrassed and he looked down just hoping that the ground would swallow him. Hyunjin gripped his hand tighter and with a forced polite voice responded "He is quite tired but graciously agreed to attend the celebration nevertheless. Now if you'll excuse me…" before giving her a curt bow and dragging Felix with him somewhere else. Felix still didn't look up, focusing on the feet he saw to hopefully not bump into anyone. He was worried that Hyunjin was dragging him away to scold him for being so rude and inconsiderate of how his behavior reflected on the prince. If this was the prince's intention, he was interrupted by a group of men around his age who greeted him with bows and insisted that he stayed and spoke with them.

Felix paid close attention to what they were all saying this time, not wishing to repeat his mistake and further embarrass Hyunjin. He wasn't addressed until one of the men looked straight at him and said "You haven't attended many royal celebrations, have you?" It was less of a question and more of a statement that made Felix's stomach turn. He tried to smile politely, answering quietly "No, sir" the man looked at him with dislike and confirmed, "I thought so. You behave and speak like a servant" which made Hyunjin squeeze Felix's hand again. Felix was starting to have enough of people pointing out how much he stuck out and trying to humiliate him by making him tell them out loud that he wasn't a royal. He just wanted to leave to spare himself and Hyunjin the embarrassment he brought along with him.

This wasn't an option however as Hyunjin dragged him off again, walking to one of the many pillars in the room. When Felix was finally brave enough to look up, he noticed that Hyunjin looked rather worried. "Look I know people are giving you a hard time. I'll just go talk to a few people by myself and then come back here, okay?" Felix loved the sound of that, though he was worried about being left alone. The apprehension must've shown on his face as Hyunjin continued "Flag one of the guards down and ask them to keep you company, I'm sure they'll be more than happy to" Felix nodded, and with this Hyunjin placed a quick kiss on his forehead before disappearing into the mass of people.

Felix looked around, trying to find one of the guards but it was difficult to find anyone with how many people were in the room. He had just managed to spot Chan nearby when he noticed an older lady next to him sigh dramatically. He looked at her for a moment. She wasn't looking at him but she looked quite old so perhaps she needed help with something? He decided he'd flag down Chan when he made sure she was okay.

"Hello, can I help you with something?" Felix asked gently with a polite smile on his face. The lady now looked at him with dislike just like everyone else had so far. They all looked at him like he was something unpleasant, like a bug on the wall. It made him feel increasingly bad and unwanted. He didn't belong here, that he knew but he didn't think it was grounds to treat him like he was a disease of some sort. She became incensed at his question "What do you mean, do I need help?!" Her voice was snappy and cold. Felix was taken aback by her anger as he was genuinely just trying to help her. "Did I ask for help?!" She went on, looking at Felix with big, bulging eyes. The boy panicked, worried that if she got louder the people around them would hear "No ma'am, I just-" but he was rudely cut off by her, now pointing her finger accusingly at him "I was just wondering why do you think you are too good to speak with anyone else!"

Felix was so confused and scared by this lady. He didn't think he was too good to speak with anyone, far from it. She hadn't tried to greet him or speak with him. He had no idea where all this was coming from. "I don't, you didn't say anything to me ma'am" he tried to sound as apologetic as possible without sounding pathetic. Though he was sure that ship had sailed already. He had been so panicked and anxious all night and now it was just coming to a boiling point. "Do you have no manners?! You are supposed to greet your elders!" She seemed offended and Felix didn't know what to do to fix it. He felt tears prickling, threatening to start pouring though he tried to fight it, not wanting to cry in front of everyone. He opened his mouth to speak but she beat him to it "How dare you show your face with the prince? Were you raised in a barn or something?!"

That did it.

Felix felt his eyes burn a bit as warm tears started rolling down his cheeks. All the discomfort, the worries, and the anxiety came crashing down on him at once and he wanted to be gone. He didn't want to be here, anywhere would be better. He ran off, away from her, up the stairs and out of the ballroom. He stopped for a second once he was out of the room, trying to helplessly wipe his tears away but they were just quickly replaced with new ones. He rushed to his room, closing the door with a slam behind him. 

He knew it was a bad idea to attend, knew it was going to be hard to try to fit in where he didn't belong. He tried to trick himself that if he mimicked the actions of the other upper class, he could blend in but it was obvious everyone saw him for exactly what he was; a poor servant. He walked around the room for a while before ending up in front of the mirror. He removed his makeup, rather aggressively, angry at himself. He didn't even necessarily know why he was angry at himself, he just was. His self-loathing reached its peak now as he stared at himself through the mirror. He saw the same person he had been all his life. A filthy, poor servant who didn't deserve kind treatment. You can't go to one celebration without embarrassing Hyunjin? Are you really that pathetic? You bring nothing to the table. You can't even give him a child. You should leave before he tells you to, it's only a matter of time. If you truly loved him, you wouldn't let him down like this.

It hurt him to feel like this. He loved Hyunjin with all his heart and tried his hardest to be and do what was expected of him here but he just couldn't. No matter what he was telling himself now, he loved Hyunjin and that the angry voices in his mind couldn't disprove him of.

All the stress and worry from this day and the weeks before broke him down as he wept on the bed after hastily putting on something he felt comfortable in. The beautiful, expensive clothes weren't made for him to wear, it was obvious to him. He wasn't supposed to be here. He cried and cried until his tears were no more and he ended up just sobbing on the bed until he was too exhausted to even do that and fell asleep.

Hyunjin circled back to the pillar where he had left Felix. He was so worn out by talking to everyone, forcing politeness, and pretending to care about their businesses or "beautiful daughters". He needed a moment alone with Felix, that would get him through the rest of the night. The celebration would be over soon and he could go back to their room with Felix and maybe even mess around in bed. It sounded like a plan but Hyunjin was surprised when Felix wasn't where he'd left him. It was very unlike Felix to go wandering around as he had been very uncomfortable even when he was with Hyunjin. Perhaps he was with one of the guards?

He tried to look around for any of the guards there but couldn't find any of them either. Was something wrong? Did something happen? Was Felix in danger? His mind started racing a million miles per hour, thinking of all the worst possible scenarios. He was relieved when he saw Chan, thinking Felix must be with him but he was wrong again. Chan was alone, though he kept looking at the entrance to the ballroom every now and then. Hyunjin rushed to him, now seriously worried.

"Hyung, have you seen Felix?"

Chan looked at him, a bit upset. "I saw him run out of here crying but I have no idea what set him off" Crying? Felix was somewhere in the castle alone, crying? Hyunjin didn't like the sound of that, wanting to be there for him. Furthermore, he wished to know what had upset the boy so badly. He felt awful for asking Felix to attend, everyone had been so rude to him all evening and he was bound to crack at some point. Hyunjin sighed, knowing he couldn't leave the celebration until it was over, his parents would kill him. It would also look quite bad that if the future king ran off during the celebration for his upcoming coronation. He looked at Chan pleadingly 

"Could you please go find him and make sure he's okay? I can't leave" he sounded so upset and desperate that Chan didn't even bother arguing with him about the fact that he was working and could get in trouble for ditching the celebration. He was, however, stopped in his tracks by the king "Bang, could you come here for a second?" He gave Hyunjin an apologetic look before slipping away to join the king. The prince was left alone and upset. He just wanted to know that Felix was okay, he could talk whatever happened through with him once the celebration was over. All he could do was wait and hope Felix was in their room, safe and sound.

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When Felix woke up, Hyunjin wasn't there. It worried him to some extent until he saw the clock on his nightstand, It was 10 am. He knew he had no right being upset about Hyunjin leaving the bed since he did have duties to take care of and people he had to entertain during breakfast but he still felt a tinge of disappointment. He hadn't talked to Hyunjin about last night since he must've already been asleep by the time the prince got to their room and now he probably wouldn't get to talk to him until tonight. He convinced himself that Hyunjin hadn't seen him run off crying and that's why he didn't think anything was wrong. That was the only reasonable explanation as to why Hyunjin was now somewhere in the castle and not here with Felix.

He rolled around in bed for a bit, not wanting to get up. He couldn't go down to the dining room. He now knew how all royals viewed him and he didn't he could spend the morning there, pretending to be fine while getting glares from around the table. He felt much calmer than last night but was left with a hollow feeling. He still couldn't believe he thought he could fit in. He had no idea how to tell Hyunjin about all of this or if he even should. Maybe he should just run off. Where would you go? He rolled around again so he was face down on the bed. You have nothing, no home, no job, no family. All you have is Hyunjin .

His wallowing in self-pity was interrupted by a knock on the door. He wanted to tell whoever it was to go fuck themselves but instead sat up giving a tired "Yes?" Hoping whoever it was wouldn't hear him and would think he wasn't there. The door opened, revealing Chan and Jisung behind it. He felt somewhat relieved. If he had to speak with someone these two would probably be at the top of that list. 

"How are you doing?" Chan asked as he sat on the bed. Felix didn't like the looks they were giving him. He almost felt like they took pity on him and he didn't like that one bit. "Fine" he answered dryly, trying to fruitlessly flatten his hair to hopefully make himself look less hilarious. Chan sighed at his response, Jisung speaking up this time "Nobody has seen you since last night, you ran out of the ball and now you didn't show up for breakfast. People are getting worried" Jisung did look worried almost too much so. Felix didn't want to tell them how ridiculous all of this was, how easily he had gotten himself hurt and how grand of an impact it had had on his self-esteem. "Hyunjin knows where I am," he said, a hint of bitterness in his voice now. Why worry anyone when Hyunjin knew he was here? Where would he have gone?

"Yes, he knows you're here but he hasn't gotten a chance to talk to you since last night. He's worried sick" Chan explained, clearly tired. Felix was ashamed of himself as he felt happy that Hyunjin was worried about him. He shouldn't. He shouldn't worry Hyunjin like this and he definitely shouldn't feel proud of it. "He couldn't leave last night before the celebration was over and he had to leave early this morning because royals from the north are staying here and it is courteous for him, as the crown prince, to attend breakfast with them" Felix felt like Chan was almost defending Hyunjin. He didn't want the guards to explain to him why had he basically slept alone or why was he left here alone. He felt that it was Hyunjin's job to explain this, not his friends'. "It's fine, I'll just wait until he comes back" he lied, though quite impressively. The bitterness and upset having left his voice, he now sounded like his usual cheery self. He even offered them his best fake smile, hoping they would let the matter rest.

Jisung didn't look too impressed and he got up, dragging Felix out of bed "How about you go to him?" Felix was stood in front of the mirror while Jisung went through their closet to find something for him to wear. "No, it's fine, I'll just wait" Felix insisted, now panicking a bit as he really didn't want to go down there after what happened last night. Jisung stopped his desecration of their closets for a moment and placed his hands on Felix's shoulders "You are not going to hide here alone and upset while Hyunjin is down there worried, you two have to sort out whatever happened last night" Felix didn't know why did he feel so sensitive all of a sudden. He was having a hard time keeping his tears at bay. This didn't go unnoticed, however, as Chan walked to them and pulled him into a hug. It definitely didn't help the tears that were now rolling down Felix's cheeks but it did make him feel better. 

"I can't go down there" Felix sobbed, feeling Jisung's hand patting his back soothingly. "They don't want me around" He realized only now that he had told no one about how he felt. Not even Hyunjin. He had been so preoccupied with keeping the prince happy, he had forgotten to tell him about all of this. After a while of just sobbing into Chan's neck, he was once again pulled to face Jisung, both hands on his shoulders. "You listen to me, Lee Felix!" Though he could barely see through his tear-blurred vision, Felix looked at Jisung. "Hyunjin wants you there and if the others aren't nice to you, you can leave but you need to try just once more, okay?" Jisung felt a bit bad himself as he didn't even think Felix owed these people any respect. He was just so torn between Hyunjin being worried and Felix being upset.

Felix tried to blink away his tears, nodding. Jisung was right. Hyunjin wanted him there, the prince would be on his side. He hated how big of a deal all of this had turned into in his head. He knew he just needed a moment alone with Hyunjin and though he wouldn't be getting it now, the hope of that would just have to carry him through.

He was walking through the halls, somehow even more nervous than last night. Jisung and Chan had done their best to make him look as presentable as possible. Though he knew that his eyes were a bit red and puffy from all the crying. He turned a corner that led into the dining room, hoping no one would pay him any mind. This was too optimistic it seemed as all heads turned to him the second he stepped in. He chanced a quick glance at Hyunjin, regretting it immediately. He looked so worried, Felix's appearance probably not doing much to help. He had stood up and walked to Felix, holding his hand and leading him to the table. "Felix, we weren't sure if you would be able to join us at all" she commented with a genuine smile. Felix tried to smile politely back, bowing to them all "Ah, I'm sorry. I wasn't feeling all too well last night so I slept in a bit" Hyunjin squeezed his hand under the table and whispered "It's okay" so that only Felix heard.

They all went back to whatever they had been talking about before Felix entered and now he had time to assess the room. There was a couple, no doubt royals, and what seemed to be their children. A young boy, probably around 9, and a very pretty girl who seemed to be around his age and was seated next to Hyunjin. The girl was giving Felix a death glare which made the boy quickly avert his attention back to his plate. He didn't eat much, he wasn't really hungry but he picked at what he was given a bit to hopefully calm Hyunjin. He could feel the prince's eyes on him, only looking away when he had to. He was certain that the breakfast would be over soon and almost congratulated himself on not completely embarrassing himself for once until the king from the other kingdom spoke "So Felix, where are you from?" He froze, unable to think. What the hell was he going to say?!

"I am from Australia, sir" Felix responded with a sweet smile, hoping he wouldn't inquire further. "Australia? That is quite a while away isn't it?" The king mused, his wife now nodding in agreement. "Yeah it is, sir. My family came here on a boat when I was a child" Felix felt a little encouraged by Hyunjin continuously holding his hand and nodding along to what he was saying. The king chuckled a little like he found this amusing "Quite surprised you didn't swim" this made everyone except Hyunjin and Felix laugh. Felix didn't understand what was the king insinuating with that nor did he see what was funny about it but just resulted in staring at his plate once again.

He had noticed throughout the entire breakfast the pretty girl being a little too flirtatious with Hyunjin for his liking. She would be constantly touching him, giggle in a girlish manner whenever he said something even mildly amusing, twirl her hair and only direct her attention to him. Every time she would place her hand on the prince's shoulder after laughing she would look at Felix as if to gloat. The situation was hard to read as Felix didn't know whether it had been announced that he was dating the prince and this wasn't a competition for his attention or not. He was, however, bothered that Hyunjin hadn't said a word to him since he entered but seemed to be chatting up a storm with her. Normally this wouldn't have bothered Felix as he preferred to have stayed quiet around this company as it was but now he was faced with all the extra stress from last night. He hadn't felt threatened by anyone flirting with Hyunjin until now because now he realized that she held something over him. He was once again reminded of the fact that she could give Hyunjin something Felix never could; a child.

He clung onto Hyunjin a little tighter, sitting a little closer, hoping he would notice and direct his attention back to him instead of the girl who was obviously flirting with him. This was however unsuccessful as now Hyunjin wasn't even as much as looking at him. He felt like bursting into tears again, he wanted out. He wanted to go upstairs and cry by himself. He did what Jisung asked him to do. He came here for Hyunjin and tried and tried but his efforts meant nothing. Luckily his torment seemed to finally be over as everybody started standing up. They all got out of the room, talking about showing the visiting royals the garden. "Felix, will you be joining us?" The queen asked, the genuine hopefulness in her voice confused Felix and made him almost agree. He knew he was so close to losing his composure, he would just end up embarrassing himself once again .

"Oh, I'm sorry, I'm still not feeling quite well so I'm going to have to decline" he bowed to them all, with a plastered on smile before continuing "I hope you have a lovely time in the garden" before turning around and trying to leave. He was stopped by a hand holding his wrist that made him turn back around again. Everyone else was already walking ahead but Hyunjin was stuck there, looking at him with concern. "Just go with them, I'll be fine" Felix whispered, not wanting the rest of the group to hear. He knew full well that he just wanted Hyunjin to lock him in between his arms and kiss away all his worries but you couldn't always have what you wanted; such is life.

The prince didn't listen to him, however. Instead, he kept his hold on the other's wrist and started dragging him after himself. They weren't walking with the rest of the group though. They were headed upstairs towards their room. It made Felix twice as nervous that Hyunjin wasn't saying anything. He didn't know what to do. Seemingly any situation he was in didn't feel good to him. He felt so out of place everywhere and he just wasn't himself anymore. He wasn't able to.

Once the door closed, Hyunjin turned to face him, never letting go of his hand "What's wrong, baby?" His voice told Felix that he wouldn't take 'nothing' for an answer. He sounded worried and tired, and it just hurt Felix knowing that he was the cause of it. He didn't know what to say. He had wanted to speak with Hyunjin, be near him and have him help but now that all of that could be possible, he just froze. He didn't want to cry again, he had done enough of that. He just sighed looking down "What am I doing here?" Before Hyunjin could even think of an answer Felix went on "I don't belong here, I just keep embarrassing myself and you as well" he knew how much this sounded like just him wallowing in self-pity but he didn't care. This conversation was bound to happen at some point anyway.

"What I'm trying to say is…" Felix paused for a while, not sure he wanted to hear the answer to his next question "Don't you think you would be better off with someone else?" Hyunjin was almost too shocked to speak. He knew people weren't treating Felix the way they should and it was quite obvious to anyone in the castle that he was no royal. It just had never bothered Hyunjin as he was so enamored with Felix that he hadn't taken a second to consider any other possibilities. "What do you mean?" Hyunjin was bothered by the fact that Felix wasn't even looking at him while proposing that he find someone else to be with. "Someone like her for example. Someone who can be who you need them to be. I can't pass as a royal, I can't give you a child and I never will" Felix's rambling now threw Hyunjin out of the loop completely and though there were multiple things to address in that, the one that stuck out to him the most was the one he said out loud "A child?" His voice and face were so utterly baffled that any other day this would've made Felix laugh.

"Felix, what are you going on about?" He knew something had been up for a while now but had been too busy to delve deeper into it. Now he was noticing the toll it was taking on the person he loved the most and regretted ever thinking he was too busy for Felix. A few stray tears escaped Felix's eyes as he now finally looked up at Hyunjin. He couldn't speak, he was afraid he would burst into waterfalls if he did. "Look…" Hyunjin started, now holding both of Felix's hands, looking straight into his eyes "If you aren't happy and you wish to leave me, you may do so. I will help you find a proper job and a place to stay. Just please do not do this thinking you are doing what's best for me because it isn't, it will break me" Felix could feel the sincerity in Hyunjin's voice, his eyes now glossy as well. It hit Felix now how much he didn't want to leave. He hadn't thought of what he would do if he left but whatever he tried to think of, no matter how luxurious his life would be, he didn't want it. Not having Hyunjin felt like such a giant hole missing from his life. He shook his head, frantically, pulling Hyunjin close to him and burying his face into the prince's neck.

"That's not what I wish!"

"It isn't!"

"I don't want to leave you!"

Felix mumbled between sobs, borderline incoherent at this point but he was frantic enough for Hyunjin to get the message. He buried his face in the other's soft hair, petting his back. It struck him how ironic it was that it was harder for Felix to adapt to a luxurious life than it had been for the prince to sleep in a stable. The two stayed, locked in their room for the rest of the night as they talked through everything that was on their minds. Hyunjin promised himself he would never put anything above Felix again because as dramatic as it sounds, he knew nothing was as important to him as this sunshine boy in his arms. He had acknowledged the fact that he and Felix wouldn't be able to have biological children of their own but this was something that he had come to terms with a long time ago. There was no question about it. If they wanted children in the future, they would find a way and it certainly wasn't Felix's job to "give him a child" or else they'd both be equally as guilty. He knew this wouldn't be over, Felix would start feeling insecure again after being looked down upon enough but Hyunjin swore he would be here to reassure his love time and time again.

They were now on their way to the bathhouse. It was a separate building, closer to the shore and not on the cliff. Hyunjin enjoyed walking there with Felix. Now that all of their problems were resolved, for now, he was quickly back to his usual, cheery self. He wouldn't stop talking, constantly pointing out small pretty details of the land Hyunjin had not stopped to even look at while the full moon shone a pretty hue onto his face.

"I've never been to a bathhouse before though it looks so pretty" Felix wondered as they stepped inside. Hyunjin couldn't help but smile fondly at the other's fast-paced commentary. They were stood by the bath which was from hot springs and scented with all Hyunjin's favorite oils. The bath was big, round, and embedded into the floor. It seemed to dawn on Felix what would happen next and despite Hyunjin having seen him naked on multiple occasions, it still felt rather inappropriate to undress in front of him. Hyunjin didn't seem to have a care in the world as he started getting rid of his clothes. He stopped once he noticed Felix blushing madly. "What?" Hyunjin asked, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively before chuckling. "Don't look!" Felix whined, very reminiscent of the last, and only time they had shared a bath.

Hyunjin just chuckled, stepping into the bath, putting his hands over his eyes to exaggerate. "When am I allowed to see you undress then?" He asked jokingly, just to tease the other a bit more. He took his hands away when he heard a small splash next to him and suddenly his lap was full of a giggling Felix "Once we're married of course!" He said it with such conviction, it made Hyunjin's chest warm again. He did wish to marry Felix someday. He however chuckled at the other's logic "Oh, so having sex is fine but heaven forbid I see you take off your shirt" he joked, making Felix laugh again "One of us has to have some innocence left saved for marriage even if you stole most of mine" this made them both laugh, Hyunjin dramatically faking offense. They both had needed this. Now everything felt normal again. Just the two of them, enjoying each other, being able to fully show their love. Even if this was just for one evening, that one evening was very much needed.

"Mr.Lee, are you implying that I do not have any innocence left?" Hyunjin gasped dramatically when Felix nodded. "You, Mr.Hwang, are what people might call a bit of a ladies man," Felix said, playing along. His hands were on the prince's shoulders and he tilted his head, almost daring the other to disagree. "I have done nothing to earn such a title" Hyunjin whined, pulling Felix just a bit closer, keeping his hands on the other's waist after. Felix scoffed, fingers twirling themselves into the prince's hair, his actions being in direct contradiction to his words "You have a bit of a bad habit of flirting with anyone willing to participate" Hyunjin realized quickly that Felix was referring to this morning when that girl from the other kingdom had been flirting up a storm with him. He knew that they were dancing a fine line here, one wrong thing could not only ruin the mood but also start an argument, the thrill tingling in both their bodies.

"You aren't perhaps, jealous, by any means?" Their voices were getting more seductive, inching closer to each other both clearly on the same page about where they were headed. Felix tilted his head again, now lips almost touching Hyunjin's "And If I am?" His eyes flickered up to meet the other's, feeling a bit unsure of this confession but trying to seem confident nonetheless. "Then I guess I'm just going to have to prove to you that you have nothing to be worried about" Hyunjin smirked before connecting their lips. They hadn't gotten a moment like this for themselves in a while and now that they got it, they intended to make the most of it.

Felix felt goosebumps tickle all over his body when Hyunjin's fingertips grazed his sides. They were taking it in turns to bite and lick each other's lips until they were red and puffy. Hyunjin made a sharp movement and his lips were now attacking and marking every inch of the other's skin he could reach. Felix was panting "Now you're here to rob me of the little innocence I still have, have you got no shame?" his voice now deeper than usual, sending shivers down Hyunjin's back. He couldn't see Felix's face but could feel the smile stretching across his face. He pulled the other's hair a bit to put a bit of distance between them. Just enough so that he could see the other, he already looked a mess. "Oh no sweetheart, you are equally as guilty in this crime," The prince thought the way Felix looked should be a crime. Eyes half-lidded, long eyelashes fluttering, his heart-shaped lips red, puffy, and covered in saliva.

Felix smiled at Hyunjin's comment mischievously. He dropped the act, hungrily kissing the other again, his hands gripping at the prince's hair rather harshly though he didn't seem to mind. Their lips moved in unison like they were made to meet, and if so it would be an atrocity to keep them apart. Felix let every negative feeling he'd felt over the past two weeks unravel as he melted into Hyunjin's arms. When they had to eventually pull away from each other to breathe, Hyunjin had a determined look on his face. He took his boyfriend's left hand, kissing the ring finger and though they were panting, he managed to breathe out "You are mine baby and one day I will make it official. Though that day won't be today, I promise you myself and all that I can give" Felix's mind took a harsh left turn from pure unadulterated horniness to feeling nothing but unconditional love for the person in front of him.

It was no proposal by any means. As Hyunjin had said 'that day won't be today' but it really made Felix feel warm inside, knowing that the prince was so serious about their relationship, serious enough to marry. Felix felt like he might start crying so he instead buried his face in the other's neck, loving the way the prince's arms wrapped around him almost automatically. "And when that day comes, I'll be the happiest man on earth," Felix said quietly and though it was a bit muffled by his hiding place, Hyunjin heard him loud and clear. It made his poor heart fill with joy and he kissed the top of Felix's head, not knowing how to express all the love he felt.

They made love in the bathhouse that night and if someone heard them, they didn't say a thing.

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Hyunjin kept pacing back and forth in his room. He was a nervous wreck. He had barely slept last night knowing what was to come today.

His coronation.

He was horrified, nervous, excited, and relieved all at the same time. He needed to talk to someone, just to let out the thoughts piling up in his head. He didn't want to talk to just anyone though. He needed Felix . He sighed in frustration, sitting on the bed. It offered no help as his legs started bouncing restlessly of their own accord. He would need to wait until his boyfriend was done getting ready before he could speak with him privately. The room was filled with people at the moment and Felix was getting his clothes tailored to him in a different room. Hyunjin felt like a helpless kid waiting for their parents to come back so they could feel safe again.

It horrified him to no end that as of today he would be the king, in charge of and responsible for everyone in his kingdom. Although he wasn't completely on his own, he had Felix as well as his parents to still help him but this still scared him. It was so much responsibility he wasn't quite certain he was even ready for. Staying away from the castle for a bit had really opened his eyes to everything that was happening outside. It had also given him what he considered the greatest gift any man could receive; Felix. He was fully aware of how sappy and cheesy he had become but he couldn't help it. Being around Felix just made him spout grossly sappy things without much thought like the idiot in love he was. His eyes snapped to the door as it opened and to his delight in stepped Felix.

He looked beautiful. The glittery, silver streaks in his dark hair reflected a beautiful shine when he moved, his makeup light and pretty, showcasing his freckles. He was dressed in clothes made of silk, his sleeves sheer, giving him an almost fairy-like appearance. Hyunjin got an intense image suddenly when Felix started walking to him.

Felix was walking to him, wearing all white with the prettiest smile on his face. Hundreds of people had gathered to watch them promise each other eternity. When Felix was stood in front of him, they held hands and Hyunjin no longer saw the other people. All he could see was Felix and his beautiful smile. They promised to love each other for better or for worse, in sickness and in health before locking in their promises with identical silver bands now decorating their hands. Hyunjin looked up from his husband's tiny hands and saw the same, sparkly, innocent eyes he had first seen so long ago now glossy with tears. He had never felt such overwhelming happiness and it worried him since it was all in his head.

"Baby? Should I go fetch someone? You look so pale" Felix was asking, now crouching in front of Hyunjin. He was fussing, placing the back of his hand against the prince's forehead with a frown. Hyunjin chuckled, Felix brought him to ease so naturally. "No, I was just really really lovesick," he said dramatically, laughing as Felix's face fell into disappointment, snatching his hand back to himself. "You can't worry me like that!" He whined but couldn't help the smile that was stretching across his face as he listened to Hyunjin's laugh. Just like that, all the prince's worry melted, comforted by his sunshine's presence. "What were you daydreaming about then, eh?" Felix teased while sitting next to Hyunjin on the bed, immediately snatching the other's much bigger hands. "Marrying you of course" The prince replied with a smug smile. It wasn't the first time he had imagined their wedding and he was sure it would plague him until the day he finally fulfilled his promise to Felix.

Felix rolled his eyes, a habit that had now fully stuck to him thanks to the sassy royal family, and laughed sarcastically. "You always say that" but Hyunjin noticed the boy's bright red ears, deciding to tease him a bit more. "And I've never lied about it, not once" He rested his head on Felix's shoulder, enjoying the feeling of the other playing with his hands. He closed his eyes, trying to will away the nervousness, to calm down his heartbeat as he knew they'd soon have to leave their safe haven. "You have other things to focus on at the moment Hyunnie" Felix's tone was a bit wistful as he didn't want to change the subject. He also wanted to plan and dream about their wedding but the truth still remained; Hyunjin was going to become the king and hadn't even proposed to him yet.

Hyunjin scoffed, lifting his head just enough to lay a quick kiss on the other's neck "You're always my priority" he then lifted his head fully up, cursing in his head as he looked at his stunning boyfriend. You will be the death of me Lee Felix, you really will. He ran his hand through the other's hair, careful not to ruin the styling while saying "I want to give you a bit more time. I want you to be sure that you wish to remain here before you're bound to me for life" This was true as Hyunjin had every intention to marry Felix. He just wanted to settle the matter of becoming the king first as well as make sure that Felix was happy in the castle, knowing how hard it has been for him. "You're stupid" Felix stated with the most lovestruck smile Hyunjin had ever seen. "I'm already bound to you. No amount of misery can scare me away" this didn't entirely convince Hyunjin as he didn't want Felix to just 'put up with misery' for his sake but it also told him that Felix was determined to stay, no matter what.

"Then my first task as a king will be to make you my prince" Hyunjin smiled teasingly, leaning closer. Felix giggled, his eyes turning into small crescents, a slight blush decorating his freckled cheeks. Felix hadn't even thought about it, never thinking about his place in the world outside of Hyunjin. He would become a prince if he married Hyunjin. This thought didn't particularly excite him but he was willing to do his best for Hyunjin and his kingdom. "Then I'll be the happiest prince there is" Felix responded, both of them way beyond past the point of self-awareness of their disgustingly sappy dialogue. Hyunjin leaned even closer, their noses almost touching now "Hmm, I think I have you beat right now"

Felix giggled quietly which sounded like light bells ringing to Hyunjin. "You won't be a prince for long, my king "  Felix teased before closing the distance between them, finally connecting them like they had craved the entire morning.

"Okay, break it up love birds"

Jisung's exasperated voice rang through the room, though the couple paid minimal attention to him, finishing their kiss before turning to look at him. Turns out he wasn't alone as all the guards Hyunjin was particularly close with had come to fetch him. The prince didn't have it in him to feel ashamed but he could almost sense the giggling boy blushing next to him. "I can't possibly explain to your father that you were late from the ceremony because you were too busy kissing Felix" Chan sighed, the same disappointed father look he wore whenever Hyunjin had done something stupid, adorned on his face. Though the proudness was still very evident, rendering the "dad-look" almost useless. "I have no idea what you're talking about. I'd say that's a perfectly valid reason to be late" Hyunjin argued, only half-heartedly. Felix slapped him on the chest while laughing, leaning against his shoulder after.

Hyunjin felt the nervousness build up to its peak while they were walking down to leave the castle. Luckily Felix, who was walking beside him noticed this and held his hand, trying to comfort him "Focus on your breathing Hyunnie, It'll go well" those were the last words exchanged before the large doors were opened and they stepped outside. There were so many guards everywhere and there was a carriage that seemed to be made of gold waiting for them. Felix now felt like he too might pass out. Hyunjin had gone over with him about a million times what was to happen today but he still felt rather overwhelmed, not really even used to regular life with the royals.

They walked to the carriage, surrounded by guards and Hyunjin felt like he could breathe again when they were seated inside it. Felix chuckled at his boyfriend, he looked like he had been frozen. He squeezed Hyunjin's hand affectionately, in hopes of it calming him down. Though Felix was the one who needed comforting when they made their way through the town to the abbey. People had gathered, more people than Felix had ever seen in one place in his entire life. They were all cheering, seemingly happy though neither of the couple could joyce much due to their nerves. Felix was reminded of all the things people had said when he had ridden through the city on Hyunjin's horse. Were they once again debating his place in Hyunjin's world? Were they commenting on his appearance? Picking apart his shortcomings?

He wanted to hide in the soft cushions of the carriage so no one could see him. He leaned back and slid down as far as he could, trying to disappear. Hyunjin wasn't a fan of that idea, however, "Don't hide, baby. I want the people to see you" Felix sighed as he sat back up, nervously holding Hyunjin's hand not daring to look outside "They don't like me Hyun'' he whispered. He hated how he had now become the nervous wreck that Hyunjin had to calm down and reassure, Felix was the one who was supposed to help the prince on this very important day. Hyunjin gently turned Felix by his chin so that they were facing each other. "Their opinions mean nothing to me. I love you and I want them to see you, if they do not like you that is their issue" Felix wished he could lean in and press their lips together but knew it would be highly inappropriate given the situation they were in.

He ended up giving a weak smile and resting his head on the other's shoulder for just a moment. Hyunjin had told him that usually when they would appear in public as a royal couple, they weren't supposed to show much affection towards each other which didn't sit well with the very affectionate Felix.

Their journey wasn't long and before he knew it, Hyunjin was walking inside the abbey. He felt so nervous, what if he messed something up? He could so easily ruin the whole ceremony. His clothes weren't helping either, they were uncomfortable and hot, making him feel like he would surely pass out. He took a seat in the crowded abbey, filled with guards, officials, and royals. 

First, the people needed to recognize their new sovereign. This made Hyunjin's hurt thump loudly in his chest. He knew he must've rustled some feathers by displaying Felix publicly as his partner so he was afraid the people wouldn't accept him as their king. He sighed a sigh of relief when hearing that they had accepted him .

The rest of the coronation, taking the coronation oath, taking a seat in the king's chair, receiving the sword of state, and finally having the crown placed on his head, went in one big blur. He could see Felix standing with his parents, smiling proudly and it gave him strength. This day was so important to not only him but Felix too that the boy's pride in Hyunjin overrode his anxiety near royals. Hyunjin had so many worries and he would be even busier as the king than he had been before but as he made the promise to lead and protect his kingdom, he also deep inside of himself made the promise to make sure to put Felix above everything else. As long as he had the boy by his side, everything would be okay.

They went back to the castle in the same carriage, a trip that Felix found highly useless as he thought the coronation could've just taken place at the castle in the first place but he was too happy to complain. Hyunjin was beaming the whole ride back, the worst part now over. "I can't believe I'm riding the king's carriage" Felix joked, lacing their fingers together. Hyunjin chuckled as well, feeling the happiness of the day tenfold now. "Better get used to it, you might be riding something else of the king's later on" Hyunjin was having a hard time keeping a straight face long enough to finish his sentence but lost it at Felix's flustered and shocked expression. "Pervert!" Felix slapped Hyunjin's chest, receiving more laughter in response.

The celebration was truly nothing like Felix had ever seen before. It was like the celebration they'd had a month ago except now there were twice as many people and everyone was dressed in silver, gold, and finest silk. He was overjoyed, however, when Hyunjin led him to the garden and he saw his best friends who had been invited as well. Though they looked strange as well. They were wearing clothes Felix knew they would never be able to afford in their lifetime. "What are you guys doing here?!" Felix exclaimed, laughing when Minho made a disgusted face at his attempt to hug him. "The king invited us! Gave us nice clothes too!" Jeongin beamed, so excitedly that it made Felix want to spoil him with nice things all the time. "And Minho hyung has his own horse in the race" Jeongin added and when Felix looked at him confused, he looked pointedly to his left where Felix saw Jisung. 

Minho rolled his eyes, scoffing "Innie, how dare you think I am here for any reason other than to see my friend?!" Though this just made the two younger ones laugh. They all knew why he was here, they had all had to witness the two of them making out. "But if you'll excuse me…" he then added while walking to a direction that seemed to suspiciously point him towards Jisung.

"Hey, cutie" Minho said confidently while walking up to the boy.

Jisung blushed bright red, hands flying to cover his red ears. "Heyy" he tried to say casually but it failed miserably and just made Minho chuckle.

"You ain't much of a talker, are you?" Minho teased, now standing very close, closer than you normally would during conversation. Jisung simply pouted, looking at the other like he had just thrown a grand insult at him. "It's not a bad thing…" Minho leaned a bit closer before basically whispering against the other's lips "Since you kiss so well" he continued before the two reunited their lips again. It was like no time had passed between them.

Felix thought they had seen enough and with Jeongin made their way back inside. Though this was mainly because Felix had been separated from Hyunjin for longer than 10 minutes and was already missing him. They didn't have to wait for long in the ballroom before Hyunjin showed up. Felix couldn't get over how beautiful his boyfriend looked tonight and really hoped the king would hold true to the suggestion he made in the carriage. He was joined by Chan, Seungmin, and Changbin who all took such a liking to Jeongin, cooing and babying the poor boy to no end.

Felix was whisked away again by Hyunjin and they hid behind a pillar in a corner where they were alone. Hyunjin wasted no time in pulling Felix close and kissing him with urgency. Felix pulled on the other's clothes in an attempt to get him closer. Hyunjin might be the king but he wasn't going to spend the whole day just politely smiling at his boyfriend who happened to look so ethereal. When pulling away to breathe, they still stayed as close as possible, foreheads pressed together. "You look so pretty," Hyunjin said, wishing he could explain the complex emotions inside of him and just how incredibly beautiful he found the other but as usual, his mouth failed him. Felix giggled, tugging on Hyunjin's shirt a bit to pull their bodies together "You look prettier" Hyunjin rolled his eyes, sighing dramatically.

"You're the prettiest"

"I already said you're prettier"

"And I said you're the prettiest boy in the world"

"And I said you're even prettier"

"Can't be, you're the prettiest"

"But you're prettier than the prettiest like I said. I win"

Felix looked so triumphant like he had just outsmarted Hyunjin who couldn't keep arguing with him. Not when the boy looked like he fell straight from heaven. "That's not how it works" he sighed but before Felix could protest, Hyunjin pulled him into another kiss. They both knew they didn't have much time as Hyunjin couldn't be absent from the celebration for too long but they had both lost all concept of time. Perhaps it was a horrible sign that Felix held so much power over Hyunjin that on his coronation day he already was ignoring his duties just to kiss him. Hyunjin mused it was okay because the boy didn't know it. He probably never would understand how much power he held over the king but this too Hyunjin ignored as his tongue explored the other's mouth.

"Hyunnie, you're gonna have to go back," Felix said, breathing heavily as he pushed on the other's chest a bit. He took the opportunity to feel around the chest for just a bit, completely forgetting they were in public. Hyunjin chuckled, collecting the much smaller hand in his "And you call me the pervert" which made Felix blush and duck his head in the crook of Hyunjin's neck to hide. "I'll go but only if you come with," Hyunjin said, swaying them both a bit to the music, waiting for Felix's response. He knew the boy had avoided being in close proximity with nobles and royals though he had no issue with that but he did have something he really wanted to do tonight and it wouldn't work if Felix kept running off every chance he got. Felix thought Hyunjin's heartbeat was fast, too fast. Was he still so nervous?

Felix whined quietly, not really wanting a repeat of the last time he hung out around the upper class during a celebration. "Please, for me?" Hyunjin pleaded and Felix cussed him out in his head because he knew he wouldn't be able to say no to him. "Just for a bit," Felix said determinedly before marching off, dragging the confused yet pleased Hyunjin after him.

Though Felix noticed that fewer people were making sarcastic remarks or suggestive comments about him, no one in fact. Had they all finally accepted the fact that as long as Hyunjin was around he would be too? Or were they that afraid of upsetting the new king? Whichever it was, Felix couldn't complain, he actually found himself enjoying the celebration now that he wasn't constantly under someone's magnifying glass. Hyunjin seemed rather nervous for some reason and Felix chucked it up to the fact that this day had been rather stressful for him. He could make the other feel better in no time once they'd get to their room tonight.

"Oh, come dance with me!"

Hyunjin then exclaimed, holding Felix's hand and pulling him to where everyone else was dancing without even waiting for a response. "Hyunjin! I can't- Well I don't- I just…" Felix tried to argue but Hyunjin had already placed his hand on Felix's lower back and their intertwined hands were raised elegantly. Felix knew all he had to do was to put his hand on Hyunjin's shoulder but he was hesitant. The other noticed this and smiled warmly "Don't worry, I taught you this, remember?" Hyunjin then placed the other's tiny hand on his shoulder, pulling him along. Felix had no choice but to do his best to try moving like Hyunjin had taught him what felt like forever ago. He got the hang of it a lot quicker this time, smiling brightly when his feet moved almost of their own accord. Hyunjin was just smiling at him proudly this entire time.

"You're so good at this now" Hyunjin chuckled, jokingly pulling the other even closer so that their bodies were now firmly pressed against each other. Felix just beamed at the praise, resisting the urge to kiss the other. "You're a good teacher," Felix teased. Felix had no idea but the entire time Hyunjin was plagued with images of them dancing like this at their wedding. He wasn't quite sure why he was so concerned with them getting married today but he couldn't help it. 

"Do you like it here Lix?" Hyunjin tried to ask casually but there was a certain desperation to his voice. He really hoped the answer was positive. Felix, however, was caught off guard by the sudden question "Yes, of course, I do. You and your family are lovely" Hyunjin nodded, though a bit disbelieving. There was the risk of Felix lying to him just to keep him happy. "I wish to know. God's honest truth, could you consider this place your home?" Felix tilted his head, concern furrowing his eyebrows a bit "I already do…" he trailed off with a confused look before continuing "Where is this coming from, Hyunnie?" Hyunjin was now having a hard time focusing on moving so that they didn't bump into other people, his mind was going a hundred miles an hour. It's now or never.  

"If I asked you to marry me, would you say yes?" Hyunjin felt nervous, almost as nervous as he had this morning. Felix however looked dumbfounded until he realized he was the one who needed to answer. A big smile broke onto his face, turning his eyes into small crescents "Are you kidding?! Of course, I would say yes!" He both looked and sounded so happy, perhaps the happiest Hyunjin had seen him. This finally made him release the sigh he had been holding in the whole night. He'd say yes. "Did you just propose to me?" Felix asked, in utter disbelief but still beaming. Hyunjin quickly shook his head, chuckling as Felix stepped on his toes by accident. This seemed to further confuse Felix and Hyunjin couldn't blame him. "I will propose to you but I will make it much better. You deserve a perfect proposal as you deserve a perfect wedding" Hyunjin couldn't help the wide smile now spreading onto his face as well as he watched the other blush furiously. After this, they focused on dancing, both with big smiles and full hearts.

Felix smiled fondly as he thought about them dancing in the kitchen. The radio was playing this exact song in poor quality but it didn't matter to them back then. They had always been content with just each other. The room had been bathed in different hues of pink, purple, and orange. They were awkwardly inching closer while dancing, not so familiar with each other yet but still so full of feelings. 

Felix then realized that he felt the exact same way he had that day. His feelings towards Hyunjin hadn't faded away in the slightest or aged and even though they hadn't been together for all that long, Felix had an inkling that they wouldn't. He was so glad he didn't give up. That he kept melting Hyunjin's walls until the spring came. Because when spring came, everything blossomed.