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    Renee adopts a disapproving glare, the closest to Neil’s own he’s seen on her face. Matt, despite how much he’s had to drink, is immediately contrite.

    “Sorry, Neil. That was invasive.” says Matt, hands held up in surrender.

    But Neil doesn’t get it.

    “Why would he choke me?”

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    Someone makes a joke about choking in bed. Neil can’t stop thinking about it.

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    08 Aug 2025

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    Andrew and Neil had a wonderful life. A favorite jobs, their own home that they had lived in for years, and two cats that Neil brought home from jogging. What else could they dream of? Maybe only a child or three.
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    Andrew and Neil decided to adopt a child.

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    07 Aug 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 88

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    Neil’s eyes are glued to it, to him, to the smoke billowing around them. Neil watches as he takes another drag, the cherry brightening to a light orange before dimming as Andrew exhales.

    Just like every other time he’s caught Andrew smoking in the past few weeks. Neil wonders what it would feel like if Andrew were to put it out on his skin.

    Well, no. He doesn’t wonder. He knows it’ll hurt. Hurt like the burns he carries on his face, his arms, his hands. He knows that it’ll be blinding, a pain that drags him out of his head and straight into his aching body. The skin will redden, crack and blister, it’ll leak and scab.

    Eventually, it will be nothing but another mark left behind on an already ruined canvas. Neil knows this. Neil knows everything about how painful the process is. He’s lived it after all, and yet, he’s still here wanting it.

    Neil wants Andrew to take that (innocent) cherry and put it to his skin. He wants him to make it hurt. He wants Andrew to make him feel good, wants a reminder that he’s Andrew’s, wants to be soothed afterwards with firm hands and burning kisses. He wants and wants and wants.

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    05 May 2025

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    Andrew is watching him from the desk. He doesn't see it so much as he feels it, the loaded weight of Andrew's steady gaze as he watches Neil try to make sense of the lazy haze overtaking his limbs. The floor is hard beneath him, carpeted and rough against the bare skin of his legs where his shorts have ridden up. He wonders how it would feel on his knees, if he were to crawl over to where Andrew has his legs spread, leaning comfortably on Kevin's desk chair. He wonders if it would burn.

     

    Alternatively: Neil gets high for the first time. Andrew becomes his personal chew toy.

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    05 May 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 47

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    Literally just a fic about Aaron's trial, as told by Nicky, Neil, Andrew and Aaron's testimony, and the effects it has on them all.

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    21 Jan 2025