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“Can I help?” she asks suddenly, one leg already over the fence.
“Do you know how?” Eskel raises an eyebrow, knowing full well that she won't.
“No,” she says, with no hesitance. He loves that about her, that she throws herself headlong into anything, even if she has no clue. And he hates it too, it’s dangerous. It’s so much like Deidre he wants to scream.
Ciri reminds Eskel so much of his own Child of Surprise that it physically hurts. Ciri is not his responsibility, except in all the ways she is. He uses his rusty braiding and parenting skills to help Ciri and Geralt. If it closes some of his old wounds too, well, no one has to know.
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it's quicker and easier by hesitantlitmus
Fandoms: Wiedźmin | The Witcher - All Media Types, Wiedźmin | The Witcher (Video Game)
14 Jun 2023
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Vesemir once told them that the mutagens to dull emotions were in the first round of mutations so that they could still focus as their classmates dropped off, one by one. It’s what Barmin had told him. It’s the truth, he knows, but not entirely.The last wolves of Kaer Morhen reflect on becoming witchers after the death of their mentor in the Battle of Kaer Morhen.
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One day, Geralt will not be quick enough. One day, he will lay on the ground bloody, breath rattling in his lungs. One day, Jaskier will watch it happen with shock and anger and tears in his eyes because he knows, he knows. One day, he will be shrouded in shadow and Geralt will see his end. One day, he will sing the sad song, the Last Song, like the bard that he is, and they will say their goodbyes.
It was the Deal he made.
But today is not that day.
Jaskier's mother made a Deal at a crossroads when he was three. He knows she did it because she loved him, but it's a price everyone in his family has had to pay, in some way. Now, twenty-five years later, Geralt learns the price too. And more importantly, he learns that some prices are worth paying.
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“You don’t understand,” he says, voice muffled by his hands over his face, “He’s getting old.”
Sokka rocks back on his heels and pulls Zuko’s hands away from his face, “That’s it?” he asks incredulously, “He’s getting old? Snow and sea Zuko, we’re all getting old!”
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Sokka reads the room. Zuko learns that time is precious.
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They continue on in silence for a few more steps, “You would have done a better job. And Lu Ten; he would have been next in line. I resented him most. I was doing his job and I just didn’t know what to do.”
Uncle sighs but does not speak.
“I sat with him for three days.”
Uncle hums, “What did you talk about?”
Zuko shrugs, “Not a lot,” he says, “Mostly I just cried.”Or, Zuko and Iroh visit Lu Ten's grave and have a hard conversation about grief and age.
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Napoleon Solo's Inexhaustible and Exceptionally Broad Supply of Liquor by hesitantlitmus
Fandom: The Man From U.N.C.L.E. (2015)
07 May 2019
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Napoleon is perplexed by the fact Illya doesn't like to drink and is determined to find a type of alcohol the Russian would be content to indulge in post-mission, with his new team. Of course, this does present a small challenge; Illya's tastes are specific, he's prone to resisting indulgence and calling it a capitalist affair, and it might just mean they're on more missions hungover than not. But it does lead to some enlightening, deep, and funny conversations as the three learn about each other as people, as well as agents.
Also, Napoleon is trying not to fall in love. And Illya might already be there.
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Wherein Castiel defied God for Dean before Dean even knew his name.
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05 Oct 2025
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With a jolt- a terrible, gasping noise- Cas wakes as if forced into this world all over again. Dean only has a second to take in the pale of his skin and watch the way Cas’s bottom lip trembles before Cas has both hands braced against Dean’s chest and pushes with a force that knocks the wind out of him.
The Oof! that blooms out of Dean’s throat seems to snap Cas out of whatever state of terror he was still in because he blinks as if to clear a fog from his eyes before a different sort of awful expression crosses his face.
“Dean, I- I’m so sorry-”
“Hey, man,” Dean says. He’s trying his best to keep his voice soothing, but there’s a strange tremor in his fingers still. “Hey, it’s okay, it’s alright. Been there, done that. Just glad you didn’t have a gun under your pillow.”
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04 Oct 2025
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“So- so you’d basically be using some sort of sigil to mask our human souls from the Empty?” Sam’s voice interrupts Dean’s desperate train of thought and startles him back to the present.
“Yes.” Jack is nodding, smiling, all gap-toothed and kindergarten positivity.
“And the only parts of us the Empty would see are whatever dead leaves the angels and demons left in our gutters?” Dean raises his eyebrows.
“Exactly.”
He lets out a low whistle. There’s a living warmth finally coming back into his complexion. Not done yet, Winchester, still one more rescue mission. “It’s gotta be me. I’m going.”
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27 Sep 2025
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I stayed up until all hours to read this. Christ Almighty it's good
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The first time Dean and Cas kiss, it's not really even a kiss at all. It is not, however, the last kiss that they share.
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Dean doesn't think about it. Not about what it means, not about what it makes them, not about how it affects him. This life—that's not how things work. It's just this, these "in the moment" moments that always slip right out of his fingers because he lets them. He doesn't try to hold onto them, and neither does Cas, and maybe they shouldn't.
Cas kisses him like no one else does, like no one else ever has. Dean absolutely does not think about it unless it's happening to him, and then he doesn't have the ability to think at all. What does it say about him that he occasionally kisses his best friend, who's a man? Dean doesn't know, and he doesn't really want to find out, either.
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23 Sep 2025
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Cas asks Dean to marry him, and Dean can't think of a reason to say no.
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"Dean," Cas says calmly, gingerly sitting his fork down, and oh, this is gonna be a thing, Dean can tell. Sure enough, it is because Cas goes on to say, "What would you think if I suggested we get married?"
Dean blinks and swallows the food in his mouth, staring at Cas curiously. "I would think...you were either on drugs or going insane, why?"
"I'm not inebriated, nor mentally unstable."
"I—I…" Dean takes in a deep breath, then blows it out heavily. "Cas, you're not fucking with me, are you?"
"I'm not," Cas tells him.
"Okay," he says, "fuck it, let's get hitched."
"Thank you," Cas murmurs sincerely, then picks his fork back up and goes right back to eating.
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22 Sep 2025