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    A Dean pov of his exploration of grief, somewhat. Also it's only kind of a fix it. So don't get too excited.

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    Castiel has been taken by the Empty, and Dean Winchester doesn't know how to cope. The grief, guilt, anger, and anguish are too much for Dean to handle after losing his best friend, and he spends several months in a pit of despair...until Castiel comes back.

    Post-Canon Fix-It! This is a canon-divergence AU, where Dean actually properly mourns for Castiel, has legitimate grief over losing his best friend, and finally looks deep enough inside himself to realize he had loved Castiel all along. Basically everything after S15E18 didn't happen. There's a REASON they titled that episode 'Despair', and Dean really gets to understand what that truly means in this story.

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    In 13.05, while he's in Billie's library, Dean finally takes a moment to process all of Castiel's deaths up to his most recent demise, and his own reactions to those deaths. He comes to the conclusion that he's been missing the point for quite some time now.

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    Castiel never quite knew what was wrong with him - he only knew he didn’t fit.
    After a breakdown, he expected silence, routines, and cold diagnoses. But then Dean appeared. Unpredictable, intense, with that crooked smile that seemed to see through the walls Castiel had built around himself.
    A turbulent, poetic, and brutal love story, where falling in love might be the most insane act of all.

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    Inspired by the song A Dangerous Thing by Aurora, I do not claim any rights to the song.

    An expected love letter from Castiel to Dean Winchester that proves to be a tether to reality. If it is enough to bring him home has yet to be determined, but the love Dean has in his heart in return may just be the lifeline they need to find each other.

    Italicized portions between paragraphs are mostly direct quotes/script commentary from the show! Enjoy the road so far and where it goes from here!

    *Edit: I have decided to turn this into a series for reasons of rating and breaking it up into more canon-accurate "fix-it" and where it will go from there (smut). Looking forward to breaking y'all's hearts and putting them back together again with fluff and... oh, you know. <3

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    Cas fucks like Dean himself taught him how. He's both sharp and soft, as loving as he is filthy as all fuck, and just so damn eager for all of it—god, for fucking everything—that it makes Dean wanna bust a nut.

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    Cas fucks like a pro. Dean is a fan.

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    So yeah. Fuck you and fuck Sam, because he isn’t pouting. He’s just aware. He woke up, and there was nothing to do. When was there a moment in Dean's life where there was nothing to do? Never. There is always something. And now his mind is vacant of old anxieties, so he has to make some for himself because it feels just too damn suspicious. Being happy feels like you're being watched on days like these.

    or Dean is having a bad day because retirement can be hard. Cas is there to comfort him, and maybe that makes Dean wanna choke himself out... in a good way?

    I promise this is pretty cute, the ansty summary is just eye candy.

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    Dean has cabin fever—which is fine, and a luxury, considering he spent most of his life on the road. Except, when he suggests that he and Castiel take a roadtrip on two of the motorcycles in the motor pool to anywhere they want, Sam drops the mother of all bombshells on him—that he's moving out to attend college in Lawrence, and Rowena is tutoring him in the art of witchcraft.

    The world is cruel—at least, he thinks, but the road and his burgeoning new relationship with Castiel give him perspective, and the opportunity to finally relinquish the control his father gave him all those years ago: to let Sam go to live his own life, and to let someone look out for him for a change, that someone being the love of his life, and the one man Dean never thought he could have, until Castiel says otherwise.

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    "He takes the momentum from the push & lets himself stalk down the hallways of the bunker until he gets to the door. It's been closed for weeks, a physical barrier between Dean & the horrors inside. He takes a look around, attempting to make sure Sam isn't there. He's been asking about the dungeon, about moving forward & cleaning things up. He hasn't pushed about the details, but he's starting to get frustrated, Dean can sense it. But, he can't get himself to even say his name let alone think about what happened in that room. He takes a deep breath & steels himself before turning the handle."

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    For sugaraddictarchangels's prompt: “Please could I get 🤝🏽 (Hand holding) w characters/pairings of your choosing <3”

    A podfic of "growing" by TheQuietWings.

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    Of all the things Dean’s heard in his long, noisy life, he loves the sound of Cas the most.

    He loves the sound of Cas even when he hates him.

     

    Season 15? Fix-it, based on the song Big Black Car by Gregory Alan Isakov.

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    If Sam isn't really his brother anymore, should he care?

    Set in an Alternate-Sort of Season 4, after Dean finds out about the Demon Blood.

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    Fifteen years ago Dean spent Christmas alone. His eyes burned from staring, his muscles above his eyelids twitching as he glared at the back of his fathers car as he left him on the side of the road. Sam’s little face in the back window.

    or;

    How Dean feels about Christmas, in the past and in the present.

    It's bad, and then it's worse.

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    When it is quiet, the low hum of the engine and a distant song on the radio, Dean wonders what Sam thinks about.

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    Dean runs into someone he hasn't seen in over 10 years after finishing up a hunt in Indiana.

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    Is it the anticipation or simply the waiting that's got Dean reflecting on how long it's been since they played like this, what will the scene be, and every little way he's already or will screw things up? He doesn't know. It doesn't matter either, because he trusts Castiel to take him down to that place where all the weight comes off Dean's shoulders and he can simply be. It's been far too long since they've been anything more than husbands. Surely Castiel will ease them gently back into their roles as dominant and submissive, won't he?

    Castiel has other ideas. He wants to reconnect sexually and sensually with his husband by pushing him to his limit in a way he's never done before.

    Can Dean remain Castiel's "Good Boy" throughout this intimate yet demanding scene?

     

    The sweat trickles down Dean’s face. One line after another dripped onto the floor in front of him. It itches. His knees kind of ache. Don’t even mention how his thighs feel. But he stays still. Castiel told him to assume Position Number Four and not move until Castiel commanded him otherwise.

     

    Dean is Castiel’s “Good Boy.” So, he does what he's told.

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    "Dee?" Sam asks when the credits run over the screen. "Why are you still crying?"
    Dammit!

    "I dunno," he lies, but his little brother can be a persistent little rascal.

    "You never cry at the movies, Dee."

    "There's a first time for everything," Dean mumbles his reply.

    Dean won a few bucks hustling pool. Sam begged him to go to the movies. Watching a marionette turn into a real boy hits a little too close for Dean, who's known he's a man for a while now.

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    Dean always liked when it rains. So, maybe it was only logical that Cas re-appeared on a rainy day…

    Sweet one-shot to fix this desastrous ending - Canon divergent after S15E18 (so spoiler for S15E18)

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    For sugaraddictarchangels's prompt: “Please could I get 🤝🏽 (Hand holding) w characters/pairings of your choosing <3”

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    In the early morning, before the sun has broken over the horizon, Dean has a moment to consider a few things. His life, his feelings, his... Cas.

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