Waahhh the long comment is the opposite of a bother its made my day <<33 im so so flattered by your words thank you so much <3 I feel like Lucifer dove headfirst into working with Charlie on the hotel and being amongst other people and he hasn’t given himself any time to adjust. The series (has a pacing problem) moves quite fast and this is kind of my attempt at playing catch up. Going from depressive isolation to being surrounded by other people and expectations isn’t going to go as smoothly as lucifer would hope. If he’s been doing ‘alright’ the last few weeks he’s at his breaking point now, just because he’s got no clue how to deal with himself anymore. Oh, him healing Alastor definitely has something to do with keeping himself in motion, that’s interesting you’ve pointed that out! I feel like he’s naturally very curious and unable to let things go, that, along with wanting to stay moving and feeling some sort of camaraderie with Alastor (however slight) makes him dead set on fixing it. Besides that, i also think he just naturally wants to help people, even if that instinct got sanded down over time, we see it in his past actions and we see it inherited in Charlie as well. Him being disgusted with even the thought of food is a cocktail of various things. Depression can make you completely uninterested in food and Lucifer has never actually needed it like most people do. When he was an angel i think he wouldn’t need it at all; in hell he does, thought i don’t think he’s /as/ dependent as sinners, he can go a long way without it. If he doesn’t technically need it as much why would he indulge? I think at his worst it can feel like eating is another punishment for him, and that kind of takes away anything that would be appetising about food. In my experience an aversion to food only worsens when pushed, and his body is definitely pushing him to eat something at this point. There’s also the whole thing with him ignoring what he wants/ needs as best as possible. He needs to sleep, he needs to eat, he needs to talk to someone (Lilith) and take it a little easier. These are all things he’s sure he can’t do, that doing any of these things would either be impossible or blow the lid off. So there’s definitely /some/ feeling of not ‘deserving’ food there as well. Wahaha, sorry for rambling back at you, i just love it when readers point out little things it makes the little cogs in my brain turn <3 I’m so glad you enjoyed my story so far and thank you sm for your kind words <3
Noooo I love when people get passionate and ramble about their fics!!! Glad you enjoyed my comment, I always love to write lengthy comments for fics that I’m passionate about :)
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