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Parker always has been aware of the fact that he is different in some ways from most people around him. His family has always been religious, he never exactly related to that. His friends at school started to fancy girls, while Parker could never find himself to like them in the same way. Now, at 23, he feels like everyone around him is a lot more sexually active and interested than he is. It is not that he never craves sexual touches, it is just that it is a lot less and that he has never really met anyone he felt was interested in him too. He should not care, he knows it and yet somehow Parker does care.

It is friday afternoon, Parker is at a friend’s house for a get together, nursing a beer and for some reason their discussion has turned to sex work and porn and everything realted to it. Parker does not care if people are sex workers or not as long as it is their choice and they only do what they feel comfortable with. It is just that whenever Parker does feel like watching or consuming something pornographic he does not really find anything appealing to him. General porn videos are too over the top for his taste, they are too fake, too oily, too many loud moans, nothing about it seems real or enjoybale. Camstreams would be an option, but oftentimes it is the same issue as with porn videos. Parker just finds himself cringing when he watches someone who is using a wannabe sexy voice, putting on a fake show while trying not to sweat too much from the rindlight they have directed at them and faking how turned on they are. It just is too pretended as well, which is an immediate mood killer for Parker. Maybe something is wrong with him and he should find this sort of content attractive, but personally he prefers things that look like he would enjoy it being done to himself.
“You should try indicam” One of his best friends, Hannah, says and grins all of the sudden. Parker realizes she is probably replying to his comment about how he does not find streams much sexier than normal porn videos.
“Mmh?” Parker just makes and feels himself blush just a little. He is the most confident person on stream when he is debating people, but in private he is just more shy, especially when it comes to sex, where he just feels like he is outsmarted by everyone.
“It is a website for people doing independent streaming, it is not as … professionalised as onlyfans or other porn sides, it is more raw.” Hannah explains. “I think you would like it” She adds. “It is real”
Parker just brushes it off, but he does take a mental note of the name of the side, just to have a look later. It probably won’t be his thing, but he can at least try it out once.
“Lemme know what you think” Hannah says with a wink, before the conversation goes back to sex and Parker focues on his beer, so no one get the idea of asking him anything about that topic.

When Parker is back at his apartment, he does feel a little tipsy. He had one too many beers and it is just enough to make him feel daring. So, while his dog, Ela, is eating away at a chewingbone, he finds himself in his bedroom, typing in “indicam” on google. The webiste shows up immeditaly, yet Parker hesitates a second, before he convinces himself to click on it.
It is not as overloaded or in bright colors as other porn- and streamingsites are. The colors are soft, the name of the website on the top in pretty beige lettering, which makes it look a little more professional. There are a few categories for videos, which all don’t really appeal to Parker, but there also is a filter and search option on the top right side. Parker clicks on the filter options and chooses “Male”, “age 20-35”, then excludes some fetishes and kinks that he really is not into. The website loads and within another minute Parker has a few options that match his results. There are 10 creators on the website that are currently matching his requests, which does surprise Parker a little, he had expected more. Then again, streaming is probably more of a thing women do and the website does not seem to be as well known as stuff like onlyfans or pornhub. Of the 10 creators that match Parker’s requests, four are currently streaming, 2 started less than ten minutes ago. Parker shifts his bodyweight slightly, unsure wheter or not he should actually click on a stream. Then again, now that he is already here, he can just give it a try. He knows if he does not do it now, he won’t ever. Tomorrow he will be ashamed of himself and trying to bury anything that could remind him of how far behind heis.
The first streamer Parker clicks on is called “BrattyBrad” which is an absolute dumb name. A notification pops up, informing Parker that he needs to create an account and choose a subscription to continue. Parker sighs and stares at his screen for a while. This is stupid, the internet is full of free porn, he does not have to do this. He can google and search around until he finds a somewhat semigood homevideo of someone and then just go with that, it is not like he … like really craves sex right now aways, but yet he does click on the “creat a profile” option. First of all, Parker feels bad pirating someone’s porn online for free, if he is watching someone he wants to at least make sure the person gets paid for it and second of all, he does not want to feel left out again. His friends would never actively exclude him, certainly not over sex, but Parker just feels like his lack of knowledge and experience excludes him on its own, like everyone else is part of that club and he is not. So, in a stubborn, tipsy mindset, he creates an account with his fake E-Mail and then clicks on “subscirption”, having a look at the different options. Parker decides that he definitely is not going to buy the six month subscription, because he has no idea if he will ever have the guts to go back onto this website. After a while Parker decides the one month subscription is enough for now and quickly pays via Paypal. Once his transaction has gone through the website takes him back to BrattyBrad’s stream. There are currently 876 people watching and the chat and tips are going wild over the guy on stream deepthroating a dildo. Parker watches for about thirty seconds before he leaves the stream and decides Hannah has lied to him, that is exactly like Pornhub or Onlyfans. Parker groans and shakes his head, maybe it is just him who is the problem and he has a weird libido. The website takes him back to his filter results. Parker starts to chew his bottom lips, while considering his options. Well, he just spend 10 dollars, the best thing he can do is check out the guy’s stream who also had started just a few minutes ago. The fact that the other’s username is DeanW., and not another bad wordplay, gives Parker just a tiny bit of hope.

The stream that pops up on screen seems more promising: first of all, the guy is gorgeous, he has longish blond hair, parted in the middle, which falls slightly into his eyes and reaches down his neck and from what Parker can tell, he has deep blue eyes. Parker is not 100 percent sure, because the room is not perfectly illuminated; it is a cozy light, mostly provided by a lamp on the guy’s besidetable. He is wearing an oversized sweater and black underwear, based on his legs Parker would guess the other one works out at least quite regularly. Second of all, this does not seem as over the top and faked as most other content.
The guy, which Parker guesses, at least pretends to be called Dean, smiles at the camera. “We are quite a few tonight” Dean says with a smile and then laughs. It seems honest and not like he is faking something. Parker glances down at the viewernumber, which is already at 1359. Okay, obviously he does not seem to be the only one who thinks Dean is pretty gorgeous.
Parker decides to keep watching for a moment and see where it goes. The guy bits his lips, his legs spreading slightly further apart. He pushes one hand under his shirt and moans softly. Parker immeditaly likes this, it is a real sound, not an over the top, fake moan. The guy’s eyes flatter shut for a second, before he looks back at the camera. “I am more eager tonight?” He phrases one of the messages from the chat. “Maybe, I am” Dean laughs and pushes his shirt slightly up. “It’s one of you's fault though.” He whispers seductively. Dean slowly lifts the hoodie up to reveal nipple clamps connected with a chain. “Someone did pay me prettly handsomely to wear those before I even started the stream” Dean explains and smiles slightly.
Parker shifts his weight unsure. This is not exactly his type of thing, but the other man still looks pretty handsome and all that he is doing seems so realistic, which makes Parker stay and see where this is going.
“Yes, it hurts a little” Dean answers one of the questions from the chat. He slightly tugs at the chain, which draws another moan. “Can I take them off?” He groans desperaly. There are some mixed replies in the chat, but Dean seems to focus mainly on the “yes” replies, because it does not take him long to take the claps off and place them next to himself on the bed. He takes a deep breath in and grins at the camera. “Mmh, feels more sensitive now” Dean breathes, as his fingers slowly circle around his nipples. The view does make some exictment rush down Parker’s body as well, which does not happen that often, at least not just like that. He has always wondered if something is wrong with his sexdrive, because at 23 he should be horny all the time, right? He is not though. Compared what Parker thinks would be normal his sexdrive seems to be pretty low.
Parker shifts around on his bed, placing his laptop next to him, and decides to go with the flow. Something about the way Dean talks, how he does not make permanent eyeconact with the stream, makes it all feel so real and natural, as if he is streaming just for Parker, makes Parker continue watching. There is nothing fake about it, it is just real pleasure, which quickly spreads over to Parker too. He closes his eyes and slowly wraps his hand around his own dick. Dean is moaning softly on stream, hissing little “Yes’” or “pleases” every now and then and seems to draw it out to keep everyone on the edge. Parker does not have this sort of patience though, he keeps touching himself and comes right as Dean is very slowly running his own hand up and down his dick, begging the chat to let him come.
Parker opens his eyes right afterwards again and looks straight at his laptop. All of the sudden embarrassment kicks in, as if he was not supposed to watch Dean in such a personal, vulnerable moment, even though Dean puts himself out there to watch for everyone who has at least a few dollas to spare. Still, Parker feels the embarrasstment fill his stomach. He has never done that before and it makes him feel uneasy for some reason. The stream Dean put on was great, it still is, now that he has come and is smiling at the camera. Parker just feels absolutely strange for watching someone masturbate. His mind finally catches up with what has happened, that somewhere in the country, that Dean guy is actually sitting in front of his laptop right now and talking to a bunch of people online who tell him how hot he looks covered in his own cum. Parker does not only blush, but looks away from the screen again. He feels like he spied on someone in a very private moment. Quickly, he tips Dean 10 Dollars via the Paypal pinned to the top of the chat to feel less awkward and silly about what he did and leaves the stream.
Maybe it is his own fault that he is inexperienced and undesired, because he makes any interaction that indicates sex weird. Maybe one day someone could get over Parker’s messed up libido or the fact that he has no idea what to do in bed, but certainly no one could ever get over how weird he is about sex. Parker sighs loudly and shakes his head. There used to be a time when he was younger and everyone else was just figuring out sex and sexuality as well, however this has been years ago and now everyone else has moved on. Parker does not let anyone know about his leak of experience, he already feels ashamed enough about this on his own. By now having contact with any sort of sexual contant makes his stomache turn and twist in weird ways, because it just reminds him of the fact that he has never done any of that and now it is too late and if he ever meets someone and tells them the truth they will think he is a weirdo and mock him.

Parker forces himself out of bed to take a quick shower and wash off the reminds of what he has just done. He just has to accept that he missed his chance and will probably stay on his own for the rest of his life.

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Parker has not realized that by signing up to indicam and paying via Paypal the website also got his E-Mail-address. At least he does not realize until he gets a notification from it the next day: “DeanW. announced a new stream”. Parker is sitting at his desk, preparing for a debatestream this afternoon, when he sees the mail. He feels the blush creeping up his face as he is reminded of what he did last night, the website the ultimate proof. Parker tells himself to just ignore the mail and pretend he never saw it, but curiosity always wins, so Parker clicks onto the mail. He just wants to see the notification, read what Dean has wirtten, nothing more. “Saturday is for keeping you all on the edge … or me ;)?” Is the title Dean has chosen for that mail and underneath he wrote: “Join my livestream, 8pm GMT-6, you won’t regret it!”

Parker shifts uncomfortably in his seat. He has no idea if he likes edging or rather seeing someone beind edged. It does not sound too bad, at least not if you do it with someone you like and it is passionated, it - no. Parker shakes his head. He has a lot to do and he should not be thinking about some guy's webstream. Parker tries to focus back on his work, working over his files and documents, but yet his mind keeps circling back to last night. Dean is handsome and it would not be the first time Parker has been attracted to someone’s looks, it has just never gone further than that. He could watch … maybe … just … he could watch for a minute or two … but he should not. It feels weird to watch someone live in just an intimate moment and Parker has already been so weird about this all. He should not or should he?
Dean is doing this volunteeringly and he has no idea who Parker is. He could watch…

In the end Parker is not sure if he will watch it or not, 8pm GMT-6 is 7pm for Parker in L.A., which would work for Parker. He could make it, he could debate just for a little, walk his dog, prepare dinner and be ready in time for the stream. The question is, does Parker want this?
He is not the type of person who has a sex drive on the daily or who craves a daily orgasm, but Dean … Parker sighs. He was pretty handsome the previous night and Parker has always been the type of person who easily gets attached to people. He can picture himself with every person he comes across and finds himself attracted to, imagines what it would be like if they were his one and how they would react to finding out how behind he is.

Mentally, Parker keeps going back to the stream throughout his work day, he knows no one would care if he watches or does not watch. It is a normal thing to do either and yet it is busying his thoughts. He somehow wants to go back and watch the stream, because for some reason he really likes Dean, which is stupid, Dean is a streamer on the internet, who does everything he does for money, he does not care if Parker gets attached to him or not. Yet, Parker wonders if he should watch the stream, if it is alright. Parker rubs a hand over his face, then decides he might check it out. He will just watch for a few minutes so he can have a look at Dean’s pretty face and then fall asleep to made up scenarios of him being with Dean. Oh fuck, Parker really gets attatched and lost in fantsises too easy. Okay, maybe he is not going to watch, before he ends up asking Dean to marry him in the chat.

Then however, Parker finds himself debating with so many dumbasses and idiots, that he finds the need to blow some steam. He usually is not the type of person who blows steam with sex, but tonight there is the urge to watch the stream and treat himself with Dean. So, when Parker gets the notification that Dean is live, he clicks onto the stream. 

Dean is sitting on his bed again, as the last, which Parker just guesses is his go to streaming space. He is wearing a lightblue too big shirt, slipping off his shoulder and falling over his thighs. He smiles at the camera. The shirt works very well with his hair and eyes, Parker thinks. Dean is probably trying to work the innocent and soft with the too big shirt and the gentle light. It works, at least when you ask Parker.
“How are you all doing? Did you miss me?” Dean asks teasingly. 

In a way, Parker maybe did, even though that is dumb. He just easily feels a connection to people he has seen or interacted with and likes, the type of person to plan birthday gifts for someone after meeting them once. Dean seems sweet and kind on stream, he has a way of binge erotic without being over the top and fake. On stream, Dean is slowly getting in the mood. He touches himself slowly and gently. To Parker’s ears his noises are honest, his pleasure does not seem to be staged. It is just some guy enjoying himself.

Parker closes his eyes. He is not one to have a lot of sexual fantsies or to spend a lot of time imagining. He is usually focused on so many other tasks and to do’s that sex and masturbation does not take up much of a role in his life. Right now it feels different though; on stream Dean is quietly moaning, his head thrown to one side, as he starts to tease himself. Parker imagines what Dean’s skin would feel under the tips of his fingers. Dean’s blonde hair curls beautifully at his nape and Parker wants to press his lips against that soft skin of his neck and suck a mark there.
In reality Parker knows he would never be a good lover, certainly not to someone as experienced as Dean, but he can imagine for a second. Parker has no idea what Dean would do to him in return, he has no real idea what he enjoys, but yet the picture is there. Parker kisses Dean’s neck, while in real life, he is slowly stroking himself.
Parker is sure Dean would like it soft, his streams are not exactly hardcore or ungentle, he is drawing things out and teasing himself. Parker imagines them doing this slowly and gently, kissing and stroking and Dean would be making those gentle, desperate noises he is currently doing on stream. Parker opens his eyes again to look straight back at the screen. Dean is naked now and his eyes are half closed. He is obviously going slow on himself, drawing it out, so Parker follows that lead. He has not exactly made a lot of experience with himself, so maybe following someone else’s lead is not the worst idea in general. Parker groans quietly and throws his head back. He tries to keep watching Dean, because the other most certainly is great looking and he is putting on a fantastic show, but it is very hard to keep your eyes on the stream when you want to roll your eyes back in pleasure. Parker bites his lip as he wonders what another man’s dick, Dean’s in this case, would feel in his hand. Dean’s eyes are focused on the stream now, his body is covered in a thin layer of sweat as he is moving helplessly into his own hand. “Please?” He gasps.
“Oh fuck, yes” Parker groans quitely. He can feel heat pooling in his stomach, but he is not willing to come before Dean, because in his fantasy he is still kissing Dean and sucking at his neck.
“Thanks” Dean finally hisses, which probably means someone in the chat has told him he can come. Parker forces his eyes open again, so he can watch Dean come. The blonde is throwing his head back, exposing more of his kissable neck, while he groans loudly and comes all over his own body.

Parker whimpers at the sight and it makes a shudder run through his body as he comes over his own hand too.

Blissed out Parker falls back into the sheets and grins happily. He watches how on stream, Dean lets himself fall back onto his covers too, with a happy grin on his face. Dean runs one finger through he cum on his own stomache. “Did you all like that?” He asks to the chat teasingly and bites his lip. “Yeah?” 

Dean sighs and lets his finger wander further up his body, before he presses his fingers against his lips and sucks it into his mouth.

Parker gasps in surprise at the sight and then starts to giggle. God, Dean knows how to be sexy and Parker cannot say he hates it. There is nothing wrong with enjoying yourself, right?
“Why don’t you show me how much you liked it?” Dean asks with a wink, which pulls Parker back to reality. The “leave tip” option is blinking at him in the corner of the website and he selects “5 Dollar” and sends it. Which is not much or is it? Parker has no idea how much is appropriated to tip.
The tip leads to an immediate autogenerated reply in the private chat with Dean. Parker is well aware of the fact that Dean created this message to be sent out to anyone who tips him immediately, however he still considers leaving a message. He is not expecting a reply, so what is there to lose?
If Dean thinks Parker is weird, then so be it, he won’t tell the other that anyways.

Parker swallows and just types a message: Hey, I liked your stream :). Hope you feel alright after it! The mood you set with the lights and everything else is very lovely.

A minute later, when Parker’s brain is getting off the post orgasm high, he realizes how absolutley silly this message is. He is texting a camboy after his stream, acting as if they are friends, and completely ignoring that Dean does not know him nor does he care and only wants Parker as a customer. He can probably guess Parker is inexperienced and the type of person who believes they have an actual connection to a sexworker, because they watch the streams and tip money or something. Damn it. Parker needs to work on his behaviour and confidence when he is not on stream debating. 

Parker is about to close his laptop, when he gets a notification that he has a message from DeanW.: Hey! What a nice message :). Glad you like my work. I do feel alright, thanks for asking. Nice to hear my effort to create a nice atmosphere does not go unnoticed, ahha. I feel like most people just care about me being naked.

Parker blushes slightly and stares at the message for a while. Dean is responding, because he has to. Customer interaction is important, that has nothing to do with him being interested in Parker. Dean probably replies to every message he gets to give his viewer the feeling that he cares, that he is in their reach and they could have him. He wants to create an illusion, he does not care about Parker as a person, who is hiding behind an anonymous account with no profile picture or information about himself. Still, Parker replies again: “You are doing a pretty good job with that, it feels cozy and intimate. Glad to hear you feel alright :)!”

Dean replies with a red heart to that and Parker decides that he needs to stop getting attached to people so easily or compliment the decoration skills of sex workers online.

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Dean seems to have a streaming pattern, at least Parker feels like he does. Dean streams every Friday and Saturday and then usually either on Thursday or Wednesday, Parker is not sure based on what Dean decides if he streams on Thursday or Wednesday.
Parker finds himself joining more of these streams than he would like to admit. It is not even just for sexual relief, which Parker knows is weird. The whole idea of Dean’s stream is sex and pleasure, it is the only reason people should consume that. Yet, Parker finds himself watching for Dean himself. He is handsome, yes and sometimes Parker jerks off to the stream, a lot of other times he finds himself just watching though. He likes the little glimpses he gets to see of Dean, like when he is waiting for the stream to fill up and is chatting and answering some questions from the chat. Parker starts to figure out that Dean usually comes online 5 to 10 minutes before his actual stream starts and when you join this early, you get the opportunity to chat with him for a moment. Most viewers usually join right before the stream starts or a few minutes later. So, when Parker joins these 10 minutes earlier, the stream is very empty and the people who are online usually don’t start commenting until the steamy stuff starts, and he can talk to Dean most of the times. It is every day stuff like “how are you doing?”, “Nice shirt”, “What did you do today?”, it is also mainly Dean talking. At least at first. It takes a few streams until Dean starts recognizing Parker’s username and knows who he is. Eventually, over time, Dean starts replying with questions for Parker like “I mainly worked on an essay today. What did you do?” And Parker, who had promised himself to keep this anonymous, finds himself answering. He does not give anything away that could be too personal, he just says “I had a lot of annoying people at work” or “preapring for work”. 

Parker also keeps messaging Dean after the streams, every now and then even before, or answering questions Dean asks more elaborate in the private chat. It becomes easy to talk to Dean, maybe too easy, and when Dean remembers things Parker told him, like “Oh, annoying people at work again?” or “You had to work last weekend, right?”, it feels like there actually is a connection between them, something that is more than what is between Dean and the other viewers. Especially, because Dean also replies to the texts Dean sends him. It is not short or halfhearted, it is not Dean trying to make Parker buy his premium subscriptions or private sessions, it feels like honest replies, with details and own experiences and Parker almost forgets they are chatting via a sexstream website and he is paying 10 dollars a month plus the occasional tip he leaves after a stream for this communication. In the end, maybe Dean is just a very committed person, who sees this sort of interaction as part of his customer service to keep his subscriptions up. 

Parker really needs to keep reminding himself of the fact that this is not a dating app or a funny coincidence where he meets someone online and they just connect. It is just hard to do that, no pun intended.

One afternoon, Parker is about to go live, when he gets another notification from indicam in his E-Mails: “DeanW. announced new strean: Let's switch things up this Wednesday (8pm GMT-6): Q&A, ask me anything ;)”

Parker’s heart misses a beat and then starts beating twice as fast. This sounds amazing, even though Parker has promised himself not to get too attached. The idea of a Q&A sounds like the possibility of learning a little more about Dean. Parker makes a cryptic note in his calendar to block the timeslot, before he goes back to his work.

On Wednesday Parker spends his day like usual, walking his dog, doing housework and class assignments, before he goes online to debate. He gets off the stream in time to eat something before joining Dean’s stream.

Dean, as always, is online 10 minutes before the stream is supposed to start. His hair is cut a little shorter than usual, but still curls at his nape. He is looking soft and gentle in an oversized sweater, which is slipping off his left shoulder, revealing his collarbone, and black underwear. He smiles gently at the camera, as the first few people start to join the stream. “Hey Pslife. Earlier as always” Dean says and smiles at the camera. Parker blushes and feels like the stream is only for him, even though it obviously is not. “Everything alright?” 

Parker guesses the question is not directed at him and just an attempt to get the viewers to interact, but Parker still types: “Everything as always :)”

Dean waits another few minutes, before he starts the Q & A. It is more casual than usual, Dean is sitting propped up against the pillows on his bed, the laptop sitting in front of him. Dean smiles and rotates his neck for a second, before he says: “Alright, shall we start? How about you guys just ask some questions in the chat and I'll pick some. You can ask everything” Dean says with a wink and leans back a little, which just shows off his great thighs. Parker is just here to watch, he has no idea what he would ask anyways, though. The first few questions Dean picks are about sex, like what he enjoys in bed or if he is into certain kinks. Dean is pretty good at giving teasing answers, the sort that keeps people hooked and like Dean is into whatever they ask. There are a few private, non sex related questions too, which Parker finds a lot more interesting, like what Dean does in his free time (music and climbing) or what sort of dates he likes (something calm and intimate). Parker sometimes is filled with the urge to reply to some of the answers Dean gives but he does not want to spam the private chat he has with Dean and knows his answers would get lost in the main chat. So, Parker just watches and listens to the answers. Almost an hour goes by very quickly, Parker is hardly aware of how the time goes by:  

Why are you doing this?

Dean laughs and shrugs his shoulders. “Money?” He asks. “I want to move out” He then adds with a mysterious smile. Interesting, for some reason Parker had guessed Dean is streaming from his own apartment. 

Do you actually enjoy what you are doing on stream?

Dean giggles, but nods. A blush creeps over his face and he runs a hand through his hair. “Of course, I don’t do anything I am not enjoying at least a little bit” Dean explains, which Parker somehow is happy to hear. He would feel horrible if he was getting off to something the creator is not enjoying himself. At least now he knows he is giving Dean money for something he does not hate doing.

Are you dating anyone??? Would love to see come couple content

“Nope” Dean says and shakes his head. “But I also would not want to share the sexlife with my boyfriend on camera like that” He then says and winks. The confirmation that Dean is indeed into guys and not just fucking himself because it pays well, makes Parker’s heart skip a beat. It should not, it is stupid; Dean is some camboy who probably thinks Parker is a 50-something year old pervert, getting off to a young guy online and who Parker has absolutely no chance with. Hell, Parker does not even have a single idea where Dean is located, he could be far, far away. Even if he would live close by does not mean that Parker would have a chance. Dean probably has a type that is not “lanky, awkward and inexperienced who debates for a living”.

Do you have a fav viewer? 

“Maybe” Dean just says and winks, which makes Parker’s heart miss a beat again. Oh, how he wishes it would be him. It is not and he knows it. Dean just says that so that every single person in the chat feels like Dean is talking to them.

What is your favorite thing to do on stream? 

“Mmh, good question” Dean says and leans back, which makes the hoodie he is wearing ride up his thighs even more and gives a great view on these. “What is your favorite thing I am doing on stream?” He then asks, which immediately leads to a bunch of comments.

Edging 

The nipple clamps last month 

The purple dildo 

When you smile

Fuck, Parker had not realized he had hit send on that message, that was an accident. He had typed his reply out of reflex and apparently hid “send” because of the same reason. Parker tries to find a way to delete his comment, while hoping there are too many answers incoming for Dean to read his, but deleting the comments does not seem possible and when Dean giggles and raises an eyebrow, Parker guesses he has already read that comment.

“When I smile?” He asks. “Sureeeee” Dean says and winks.

Parker feels himself blush, even though Dean is obviously unable to see him. It is so fucking silly, like Parker is despertaly trying to be different.

Dean leans forward and seems to check something on his computer, before he grins. “Okay, guys, we have been at this for an hour, three more questions, then I need to leave” Dean says and winks, which leads to a bunch of comments dropping in at once. Dean seems to scan them for some good ones.

“Do I take content requests?” He reads out and grins. “Yes, you can send me some through my profile, but if I am doing requested content you have to pay extra.”
Parker bites his lip, yes, he has seen that too and for a moment he had considered using this option, but then it had just felt too weird. Dean is a human being who is doing what he wants to do on stream, which Parker enjoys watching. He would hate to send Dean a request, asking him to do something sexual in exhcange for money. Parker would hate to buy the other man like that. It is nice to watch what Dean is willing to give, but nothing more.
“How old am I? 20, don’t worry, you are not watching anything illegal” Dean says with a grin. “Okay, final question … could I do another Q&A? For sure. I will try to do it soon again!” Dean promises. “Okay, that is it for today! I will kick you all out now” Dean says and winks. “Catch me Friday night, I am sure we will have fun!” He adds, before he ends the stream. 

Parker stares at the black screen for a while, debating what or what not he should do now, when a notification pops up on screen: “Message from DeanW.” Parker frowns, but he guesses it it just a general message Dean automatically send to all the viewers, like he often does after stream. Still, Parker quickly clicks on the message. The chat with Dean is not empty, given Parker often sends him messages and that Dean replies to most of Parker’ messages.

DeanW.: My smile? Why did you write that?

Parker blushes, but he decides to just be honest.
Pslife: Because I mean it

Pslife: You have a pretty smile

DeanW: You mean when I am fucked out well? ;)

Pslife: No, I mean in general!

Pslife: Like right before you start … work, when you are waiting for the stream to fill up

Dean has a beautiful smile, the sort that makes Parker weak in the knees. He would defiently be blushing and giggling if he would have met Dean in reallife.

The three dots that indicate that Dean is typing, fill the small corner for a while, before an answer comes in: Are you serious?

Pslife: Yes 

DeanW: Are you trying to be different?
DeanW: Sorry, I probably should not question it, since … well, you are paying a costumer

DeanW: It is just … I have not heard anyone say what you said before. Not on here at least

Pslife: I am sorry

DeanW: Don’t be. You are nice, nothing to apologise for. 

Pslife: I am not trying to be weird or anything. I am just a bit awkward in private interactions, I guess, haha. But I am honest 

DeanW: That is alright ;) 

Parker is still considering what he can answer, when Dean sends another text.

DeanW: Do you have anything you want? I mean … see on stream or … private session?

Parker blushes and his heartbeat immediately picks up. The idea of having a moment just with Dean, of no one else watching maybe … that sounds heavenly. He does not have to be sexual, right? He could get to know the other man without being weird about it. Maybe. Dean has never asked him to buy any of his content before, so a small part of Parker’s mind get ths hope that this offer means something. Maybe, for some mysterious reason, Dean has fallen in love with Parker’s anonymous account and he won’t mind that Parker is so inexperienced and behind. 

Pslife: Uhm … I don’t know if I have the budget to afford a private or request right now

Pslife: Still a college student 

Parker wants Dean to know he is around his age too and furthermore, he does not want this to be a business interaction, which Deans seems to see it as. Stupid Parker for getting his hopes up for just a second. 

DeanW: Good to know you are my age

Dean: But no, I did not mean in exchange for pay. Just like that

Parker frowns, this starts to look like a trap.

Pslife: Why would you do that?

DeanW: Good question. I probably should not, right?
DeanW: Idk. You are very nice and respectful. I … I like how you always message with true interest, but not in attempt to get me to sext or anything

DeanW: You also never send me unasked dick pics

DeanW: And I am a nice person, I always want to thank people. So … do you want anything?

Parker licks his lips and stares at the chat for a while. It does feel like he knows Dean a tiny bit, but then again he probably does not. The offer sounds too good to be true. It probably is a scam, Dean will request some sort of payment and it is not like Parker could not afford the 50 bucks for private content, he does make enough off of his Social Media Channels to not have to turn each dollar around twice. He is just trying to save up as much as he can to pay for his student loans, so he has put himself on a pretty tight budget. Still, he finds himself typing: Can we videochat?

DeanW: Sure

DeanW: Now? Or some other time?

Pslife: Now is good

If Parker does not do that right now it will never happen, because he will be too scared and back out. Right now he feels brave, because he desperately wants to get to Dean, even if it is just for a minute.

DeanW: Okay. But just so you know, I was not prepared to do a private session, ahah. So … don’t expect me to be ready or anything 

DeanW: Do you want me to wear anything special?

Pslife: No, just whatever you feel comfy in, lol

DeanW: Alright ;)