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It was in the school locker room. The school locker room where they tried to hang themself at an attempt to end their own life. Spade was their only reason to live. Now? Nothing was a reason. Everything felt like it was fake, un-real and impossible to live in. Like everything was melting their skin as they walked through the school. When Chance waited for everyone to leave the school locker room, they though to themself.

'Will anyone care?'.

As they got up on the toilet, tied the rope on the bar above the stall, putting their head in the space left for it. It was supposed to be the end for them, as it was unbearable to live anymore. But guess what? Chance was scared. Scared of ending it all, scared of leaving their friends, scared of everyone's reactions, scared of how stupid everyone will think of them. They hanged onto the bar, second guessing this ALL. Tears fell down their cheek as their feet reached for the toilet, successfully landing on it as they un-tied the rope and took it off from their neck. Red. It was marked red but will fade after a little bit. Chance ran out of the locker room, going to P.E.

Chance was running their laps; mind stuck on the attempt and all the cuts they done since they were nine years old. Nobody should go through the things they have. Parents fighting, depression, suicidal thoughts, addiction to self-harm, and so much more. Beer was a trauma they could never run from for they saw it every time at stores no matter what. Betting on cards and games would give them the rush they needed but never fixed it. Self-harm was just a band-aid on everything going on. Suicidal thoughts every time it was mentioned, or a bad day had come to haunt them. Depression since the age of nine due to their parents fights that stopped but haunted their LIFE.

Every. Single. Day. Every single day was a nightmare. Spade had helped them stay here longer but he soon passed away, leaving Chance in despair and hurt. Life melted their existence every chance it got. Lady Luck was not on their side when it came to living a perfect life. Chance ran faster, their stomach burning, legs begging to rest. Chance kept running and running for a whole hour and thirty minutes.

When Chance got inside, they sat down as they held back tears from falling down their face and showing everyone the pain they were having right in this moment. Chance looked up and saw Itrapped looking at them as he walked up to them.

"Chance? Are you okay?" Worry in his voice.

"Y-yeah! J-just tired, h-holy shit!" Chance heavy breathed as they spoke.

"Chance... Are you sure? You look worse than you used to look."

Chance paused before speaking again. "I need help."

"Mentally?"

"Yeah..."

"... Chance..."

"Yeah?"

"Do you want to go to the school therapist?"

"..."

"Chance."

"... I- okay..."

"Come on..."

Itrapped let out a hand to pull Chance up from their seat to go to the front office. Chance followed, holding back tears. Everything hurt so bad. Itrapped left them just because they tried to warn him about his boyfriend, Chance just wanted to protect him. Itrapped denied it. Chance was now sitting in front of the school therapist as Itrapped was called in to sit there with them due to the staff sending him back to his class just to call him back up to sit with Chance.

"I want to kill myself." Chance chocked out as tears ran down their cheek and Itrapped rubbed and held their hand.

The school therapist called Chance's therapist as she explained they were going to a mental hospital due to this. Chance explained to her that they had opened cuts they had done the day before and today. The nurse was called in to help the cuts not get an infection. Itrapped was sent back to class after that just because it wasn't his problem anymore. It was out of control. When Chance's mother sat down next to Chance, being told everything. She agreed to send them to the hospital for help.

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It took six hours for everything to finish. Six whole hours just to be driven to the hospital. Chance sat in the car, scared but relief flushed in them. No more parents arguing, no more hurting. It took two hours for them to be enrolled in the hospital and to be checked up on. Chance was weirded out by the fact they had to get naked, squat, and couch three times. Chance laid there on the bed, scratching themself as they need to hurt themself so fucking bad. A nurse would check up on them every fifteen minutes, by 'checking up on them' meant just walking pass their room in the hallway and walking away. Chance then heard walking to their room, they looked at the door and saw a nurse with a short black haired, skinny, cuts all over their arms as their eyes looked tired, person.

When the nurse finally left the two in the room, Chance looked at them.

"What's your name?" Chance spoke to them.

"Two Time... You?"

"Chance"

"Well Chance, let's hope we both survive in this..."

"Yeah..."

Then just like that Chance rolled over on the bed, slowly drifting to sleep as they yawned into their deep slumber.

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Chance is awakened by a noise, a voice outside of their room. They look at the open door; a man enters the room. He walks up Chance and is surprised to see them awake. It was about four through six in the morning so there was no way Chance could even be awake. Some nurses walk in, maybe like four or three walked in behind the doctor. The doctor had brown short curly hair, a bit chubby but not too chubby, was wearing a white shirt that said 'BLAME JOHN' with a coat on, and some baggy jeans.

"Good morning, Chance. My name is Shedletsky and I am one of the doctors in here. Why are you in here?"

Chance stared at him before responding. "I tried to kill myself."

"Oh? How did you attempt to this? Like how you did it?"

"... I tried to hang myself in the school locker room..."

"Why did you do this?"

"... I don't know..." Chance lied and stared in Shedletsky's eyes to which he stared back at him.

"Well, that's okay Chance! We will try our best to keep you safe. The good thing about this is that the other patients want to help each other and get better. Although bipolar is something hard to identified, we will try our best to give you the right pills and help you. We just want to help you, Chance. Now, any questions?"

"... I'm bipolar...?"

"..."

"..."

"MAYBE..."

Shedletsky said as he and the nurses walked out to Two Time to wake them up for questioning. Chance stared at them and just thought 'I'm not bipolar.' Two Time woke up and Shedletsky began to ask them questions. Chance tried their best to hear everything but due to how light spoken Two Time was, it was difficult to hear anything the two were saying! When the doctor left, Chance and Two Time turned over on their beds and looked at each other, giggling a bit before Two Time fallen asleep. Chance stared at everything in the room. The shelfs that nobody will use, the restroom that the door was literally being held by a MAGNET, the fact they couldn't close the door and HAD to stand the hallway light. Everything was so peaceful in a weird way, other than the hallway light holy shit.

Chance tried to fall asleep but when they were about too... BOOM THE FUCKING LIGHTS TURNED ON AND ONE OF THE NURSES SAID "WAKEY, WAKEY KIDDOS" AND JUST LEFT??? Chance sat up in their bed and looked over at Two Time whose eyes were clearly burning from how bright the light was above their beds. Chance got up and fixed the bed. Chance was about to leave until Two Time spoke.

"Look! That's my friend that I totally didn't make last night!" Two Time said, pointing to a blond-haired boy, wearing a red shirt, a jacket, and pants.

"HI TWO TIME!!!!" The blond boy said and then waved at Chance. "HII"

Chance waved back. "Hello!"

"You guys should totally introduce each other!" Two Time suggested and smiled.

Chance looked at the blond boy. "My name is Chance, what's yours?"

"My name is Elliot! Sorry if I am too hyper..."

"It's okay!" Two Time and Chance said at the same time.

The three walked down the hallway, passed rooms. A room caught Chance's eye, seeing a boy with long black hair, bunny ears, tired bright ruby eyes. Chance caught themself staring at him, only realizing this when the boy looked at them in confusion. They picked up their pace in walking, making their way to the lockers. Two Time stared at Chance in confusion and looked at Elliot to which Elliot shared the same expression. Chance grabbed their toothbrush and toothpaste, running back to their room and clean up a bit.

When Chance was done, they walked out of the restroom and was met with those same ruby eyes. Chance was pushed back into the restroom, the "door" closing behind the two as the boy looked at Chance.

"Why were you staring at me." The boy said.

"I- I actually am not sure about that- Why did you follow me to my room just to push me into the restroom?"

"So, I could ask you why you were staring at me."

"You could've asked in the Day-light room..."

"..."

"..."

"Tsk. Whatever."

As the boy was about to leave Chance alone, Chance reached out and grabbed his long sleeve. "Wait-"

"Hm?"

"What's your name?"

"..."

"..."

"Mafioso... What about you?"

"Chance..."

"Okay Chance, see you around"

And just like that, he left the restroom and the room. Chance stared at the door, hand over heart before letting out a sigh of relief. They walked to the Day-light room to see everyone already there. Two Time and Elliot were sitting down at a one of the two tables that were there, cards in hand. Chance smirked and walked over to them, ready to play whatever game they were playing. Mafioso was staring at Chance from afar, Chance of course caught the staring and smirked smugly.

The three were playing a card game called trash or garbage which you have a 2x5 grid (two rows with five cards in a row) of cards, the objective was to get A through 10. K represents any number so you can put it anywhere, J allows you to steal the cards that are flipped over already (shows the card number) ONLY one card though, Q allows you to block a card that HASN'T been flipped over YET. You CANNOT win with a J; you MUST get rid of it. When you get a card, you already have or don't know what to do with it, you put it in a pile and say "Trash" so the other player(s) cannot grab that card at all.

Mafioso came up to the three to watch them play, very interested in the game. Chance was obviously winning due to how fucking LUCKY bro was. Two Time and Elliot were being absolutely DOMINATED by Chance. Chance chuckled and won the game after five minutes had passed by. Mafioso sat down in the empty chair after standing for a little bit, wanting to challenge Chance himself. Chance smirked and started to set up the game. Mafioso watched closely at the cards to make sure they weren't cheating at all. When he noted they didn't fuck with the cards in anyway, he nodded and played.

Chance... Actually, lost ONCE to Mafioso. The rest of the games they played were just Chance winning and getting cocky. Mafioso slammed the cards down, threw the table over and grabbed Chance by their shirt. He looked into Chance's eyes with such anger and slammed them down onto the floor. Chance gasped and looked up at Mafioso in shock. Two Time and Elliot stared at the situation, too scared to interfere due to how fucking strong Mafioso was.

"How the FUCK do you keep winning." Mafioso growled out.

Chance chuckled and touched Mafioso's hand that was on his shirt. "No need to get aggressive Mafi.."

"Shut the FUCK up!" Mafioso slammed Chance onto the floor once again, hand going to their neck and squeezed."

Chance gasped, actually enjoying the feeling a bit... Chance grabbed Mafioso's hand, struggling to breath a bit. "M-Maf-"

"TELL ME HOW THE FUCK YOU ARE WINNING!!!" Mafioso yelled out.

It took most of the nurses to get Mafioso off of Chance. Chance just chuckled when they managed to get him off of them, Mafioso did break free from the nurses and ran at Chance before the cops (ten of them) jumped Mafioso and cuffed him. They took Mafioso to a room to help him calm down a bit; Chance just stared at that room the whole time before it was time for group. Chance sat next to Two Time and Elliot because well they kind of only knew them the most out of everyone here.

The whole hour of group time, Chance was spacing out just thinking about how Mafioso pinned them down to the floor and basically chocked them a bit. Goddamn... Chance was ACTUALLY falling for a guy that almost killed them AND just met this man. But they couldn't help it! They wouldn't handle the fact he was manhandled like he weighs NOTHING. When Chance did eventually stop daydreaming about Mafioso, Two Time and Elliot looked at them worried as FUCK.

"Are you okay Chance?" The two said at the same time on accident.

"Huh, oh! Uh yeah!"

"Are you sure?" Elliot responded.

"Yep!" Chance stood up from the ground and smirked.

"Okay..." Elliot looked away.

Two Time looked at Chance and shrugged. Chance was planning on sleeping, thinking there was a break after group time but then the nurse called out for them all to line up for gym time. 'Boys on the left and girls on the right' The nurse said. But the thing is Chance and Two Time are non-binary so the two literally hand ZERO idea on where to go and explained to the nurse about what the two identify as to which the nurse allowed them to go on any side. They both chose the boy's side because well Elliot was there so why not?

They all walked to the gym area, told to walk or run two laps around and just do whatever they wanted to do. So, the trio walked the two laps and just sat down and talked.

"So, why are you here Elliot?" Chance asked.

"Well, I said... something... That got me here."

"Oh okay, what about you Two Time?"

"I was cutting myself and my parents found out so they sent me here."

"Ohh, I tried to kill myself because I lost my only reason to live."

"Oh" Elliot and Two Time said.

"I also have a cutting problem too so that's something..." Chance mumbled.

"Me too!" Elliot said.

"Wow we are all slicers huh?" Two Time said jokingly.

"Yep" The other two said.

"I have the Spawn logo on me" Two Time said.

"What's that?" Elliot said.

"Yeah, what is that?" Chance said, interested in what it was.

Two Time cleared their throat before speaking. "The Spawn is my lord and savior; I worship it and respect it. Have you guys heard of Spawnism?"

"I have but I never really searched into it" Chance put their hand up to their mouth in a thinking motion.

"Ohhh" Elliot said.

"But yeah, that's what it is basically." Two Time looked around to make sure nobody was listening to the conversation.

It was silent for a moment before Two Time spoke up again. "Also... Chance... Remember when the doctor entered our room last night or well this night?"

"Yeah, what about it?"

"I found it funny that when he asked you if you had any questions, you said 'I'm bipolar?' I had to hold back my laughter from how funny I found it!" Two Time chuckled a bit.

Elliot started to laugh a bit so did Chance because it was actually funny! Like imagine just asking a doctor that and they respond with "maybe" like shit I'll be laughing so bad that I'll die from it!!

"T-that's actually funny!!" Elliot said in-between laughs.

The other two nodded as they laugh with Elliot. Two people walked up to the group, looking at Elliot and looked behind them just to look back at the group.

"Hey you! The blond one!" One of them said, making Elliot turn around.

"Yeah?" Elliot's laugh died down.

"My name is 1x and this is John Doe! We just wanted you to know the kid over there wants to be your friend" The two pointed at a kid with brown hair that was trying to hide. "That's 7n7! He said he really wanted to be you friend because he likes your shirt!"

Elliot looked at 7n7 who was trying hid behind another kid who was a half human, half entity, wearing a baggy black jacket. Elliot looked at Two Time and Chance before responding. "Yeah, I'll be his friend!"

1x and John smiled. "Okay! We'll tell him!" John said as he and 1x walked over to 7n7 to tell him the news.

Chance looked over at 7n7 and the kid he was trying to hide behind, looked at Elliot and Two Time before speaking. "Who is that kid he's trying to hide behind?"

"I actually don't know" Two Time responded.

"Huh... Maybe it's a close friend of his?" Elliot said.

"Eh probs" Chance shrugged it off and the trio kept talking until gym time ended.

All of the kids walked to the activity room, unsure what the room held. 7n7 looked at Elliot and just looked away when Elliot made eye contact. The trio sat down at a table as far away from the rest they could due to being comfortable around each other only. Elliot keeps on catching 7n7 staring at him and starts to gen get a little bit annoyed from it. Chance sees this, walks up to 7n7 and tells him he's making Elliot un-comfortable and to try to not creep him out to which 7n7 nods his head and apologizes for it.

The door opens; Chance looks at the door and sees... Mafioso. They let him out of the separation room THIS early? He's probably still fucking mad! Chance quick walks to Two Time and Elliot's table, sitting down and looks away from the door. Mafioso walks up to Chance and just stares at him for a little bit before clearing his throat.

"Chance."

"Y-yeah?" Chance stutters.

"I'm... ugh... sorry...?" Mafioso mumbled out, clearly annoyed.

Chance looks up at Mafioso. "It's cool man, don't worry about it."

Mafioso looks at Chance, confused a bit before he sits down next to them and stays there. Elliot and Two Time share confused expressions to which Chance actually agrees with. Mafioso is only talking to Chance because well they seem like the only person who isn't scared of him. Chance engages with the conversation with Mafioso. Chance sees a scar on his lip and cheek, grabs Mafioso's face gently and stares at it. Mafioso is confused to this action and just stares at Chance as they observed his face. Elliot and Two Time pass each other notes about what is going on in front of them, Elliot giggling when he reads what Two Time wrote. It was clear the two were shipping Mafioso and Chance together. Chance lets go of Mafioso's face when they realized how wrong the position looked, Mafioso's ears stood up in confusion.

It's quiet as the four do random things like coloring in a lesbian Labubu, drag queen wreck-it-ralph, etc. Chance was making bracelets, even giving one to the others. Mafioso was just making a bracelet out of rubber bands. Two Time and Elliot on the other hand, were making gay stuff like gay flags, gay characters, etc. Anything for entertainment, right? When activity time was over which was about an hour and thirty minutes, they all went to eat lunch.

Chance sat down, then Mafioso sat down next to Chance, Two Time sat in front of Chance, and Elliot sat down next to Two Time. They all chatted about how their life was and stuff it wasn't really interesting until Mafioso spoke up.

"You know... I am in a Mafia gang because my dad forced me into it and stolen my childhood away from me."

Everyone was quiet that was sitting at that table. So, Mafioso continued.

"When I was born, I was always told I will take my father's place as being the Mafia boss for when he is 'taken care of'. I never had a childhood. My childhood was just learning how to shoot guns, throw knifes, learn how to fight, etc. My dad would always take me to missions to 'teach me a lesson' if I ever thought of double-crossing the Mafia. I can't even leave it because it's what I was born to do."

Chance looked at Mafioso, actually really sad for him. Chance grabbed his hand and held it.

"I promise when we are out of here, you're going to live with me and my parents. I know your childhood was something that cannot be given back to you, but I swear on my life I will try to give you the best fucking life you ever had. Fuck the Mafia. You deserve to have a better life, Mafioso..."

Everyone paused, looking at Chance.

"Chance... You barely know him!" Elliot said. "You cannot just take someone's child and have your parents raise them! Pretty sure that's kidnapping no matter what!"

"Elliot's right, Chance... You can't decide that." Two Time looked at Chance, eyes filled of empathy. "I understand you want to help him get out of the situation, but you will literally kill EVERYONE by doing so..."

Chance stared at Elliot and Two Time before shaking their head. "I don't care. I will rather sacrifice myself and give Mafioso as much freedom he can get before I die than allow him to go back to his family just to be put through much worse."

Mafioso looked at Chance, eyes threatening to cry. He stood up and asked the nurse to go to the bathroom to which they allowed him too. Chance watched Mafioso leave the cafeteria. The trio stayed silent until Mafioso came back as if they didn't want him missing anything at all. Chance spoke up.

"Mafioso."

"Yeah?"

"Do you want to live with me. I'm so dead ass, if my parents don't allow it, I'll just take a shit load of money from them and run away with you."

Mafioso paused, shocked. "Chance! Y-you can't do that!"

"I will do it. Anything to keep you away from the Mafia gang."

"..."

"..."

"Okay... I'll live with you."

"Okay, I'll make a phone call for when the nurses allow us too when it's time. It'll be to my parents, and I'll ask them."

"Okay."

Elliot's jaw dropped at the fact this plan was ACTUALLY going through. Two Time just chuckled a bit nervous.

"So, you two are ACTUALLY going to do this?" Two Time said for Elliot.

"Yes." The two said at the same time.

"Okay, just be careful guys. Okay?"

"Okay." Chance responded and nodded their head.

When lunch ended, they all went to the Day-light room. They all played cards for the whole time, just gambling fake money that was there. Chance was winning like CRAZY. Mafioso finally accepted the fact that they were just naturally lucky. Dinner rolled around and they all went to eat.

-Time skip because idk what to have them talk about in dinner btw they had Luby's!!-

The nurses had changed Two Time's roommate to Elliot due to them wanting to get Mafioso and Chance to get along. Chance was actually so shocked when they did this because what is that logic???? Anyways- It was time for their phone calls though!! Chance got in line and quickly called his parents.

"Hey mom!"

"Chance! Hello!"

"I miss you mom!"

"I miss you too sweetie!"

"I have a question though..."

"Oh? What is it, Chance?"

"When I get out, can one of my friends in here come live with us?"

"Um... Will it make you happy?"

"VERY."

His mom sighs. "Okay hun..."

"Oh my god! Thank you so much mom!!!"

"Your welcome!"

"How was your day-"

"Listen, I got to go... Call you later honey!"

"Oh... Uh okay... Bye mom, I lov-"

Then Chance heard the beep, a sign she hanged up before they could tell her "I love you". Chance sighed and walked over to the group.

"Well Mafioso, my mom said yes"

"Oh, for real?"

"Yep"

"Chance... Thank you... Like seriously thank you, holy shit!"

"No problem, man"

The continued to play cards until it was snack time. Chance was first in line and Mafioso tried to run in front of them but slipped and fell. Chance laughed, like a ACTUAL laugh for once in their life!

"Nice laugh, Chance" Mafioso commented which got Chance to cover their mouth to attempt to stop laughing.

They all got their snacks, ate around a circle. Now it was time to sleep, they all headed to their bedrooms. Chance and Mafioso went to their shared room and just laid there on the bed. Chance was the first to speak up.

"Good night Mafi..."

"Huh? oh! Good night, Chance..."

Chance turned off the stupid night light and fell asleep. Mafioso stared at them sleep peaceful before sighing and falling asleep afterwards. The next day better get interesting.

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due to hell (school) i will post after school on Wednesday so that I have more time to make the chapter and the story develop i am so sorry for the delay!!