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Sebastian walks into his local newsagent trying to look confident. He entirely fails.

He smiles at the shopkeeper, but it's not the smile of one at ease with himself, it's one of someone who is anxious and is trying to hide it. The shopkeeper isn't fooled, but he knows Sebastian and is used to his behaviour.

Once a month Sebastian would come to this particular newsagents and buy a copy of Playboy. The shopkeeper really doesn't care what Sebastian is buying, so long as he pays for the magazine, who cares? But Sebastian always comes back to the checkout with his face red and tries to pay quickly so that he could leave the shop with whatever dignity he has left. Which is usually none.

When Sebastian gets home, he rushes upstairs with his magazine and closes the bedroom door.

Finally alone.

Sebastian lies back on his bed, holding the magazine in his hands. On the front cover is Kimi Raikkonen, the current playmate.

God, this man was sexy. Sebastian had been following him since his first shoots at Playboy and now he was finally Playmate of the month. "The Iceman Cometh."

Kimi was known for his icy stare, his almost disinterested expression and of course his body. God, he was stunning. Sebastian had fallen in love from his very first shoot, and now Kimi had made the cover. He was known in the magazine as the "Iceman" because his eyes were a beautiful stormy grey and he tended to look cool and unattached, but that just added to his mystery.

The cover in question had the man gazing into the camera, his face covered in "ice" and his gaze piercing. It's beautiful. Sebastian feels his heart stop just looking at the cover, and he hasn't even opened the spread yet.

Biting his lip he flicks through the pages until he gets to the centrefold, holding it up with a soft gasp.

Kimi looks out from the photograph naked, a small smirk on his lips as he lies against the plush velvet cushions, one hand under his head and the other resting on his stomach. His cock is standing erect.

Sebastian's brain stops working, he licks his lips, his eyes trailing over Kimi's body. Fuck, this man looked way too good.

He looks at Kimi's eyes, at his smirk. God, he could imagine Kimi looking at him like that, his large hands pressing him down onto the bed, a playful smile on his lips as he kisses him slow and deep.

Sebastian whimpers, his hand moving under his sweatpants and into his boxers, he palms his own cock as he lets the fantasy the image gives him play out in his head.

Kimi trails his kisses down to his jaw and neck, distracting him as his fingers start to open Sebastian up, getting him ready to take his cock. Sebastian moans and whimpers, pushing down on his fingers and wanting more friction. But Kimi doesn't allow him, telling him he's being a brat and to just relax.

The scenario makes him palm his cock harder, imagining Kimi slowly sinking into his body and praising him for how tight he is.

It's embarrassing how fast he cums just by imagining Kimi fucking into him so hard and fast that he has to hold onto the Finn's broad shoulders to stay where he is.

He cums moaning Kimi's name, and he feels a sense of shame come over him at seeing the sticky mess on his hand.

There was an embarrassing lack of control when it came to Kimi Raikkonen.

Sebastian makes his way into uni the next day with a large coffee cup and feeling drained. He had a big presentation due by the end of the week and he was shattered. His dreams being full of Kimi didn't help him either.

As he walks into campus, he is shoved aside by a few students who almost make him spill his coffee. When he goes to yell at them, he frowns as he sees most of the students moving to the front of the campus entrance.

"What's going on?" Sebastian asks Jenson as his friend runs up to him.

"I don't know how this happened but we have a fucking Playboy bunny on campus!" Jenson answers, already moving off into the mob of students all gathering near the main campus statue.

"A what?" Sebastian takes off after Jenson, looking confused as he pushes his way through the students. A Playboy bunny? On campus?

As he finally makes it to the front, he stops dead.

No. Way.

Because there was Kimi Raikkonen standing by the stature next to an older man who resembled him, looking very sheepish at all the attention the Playboy bunny was getting.

Thankfully Kimi was dressed and not in the standard Playboy bunny attire, but he was looking fucking edible in a tight fitting grey shirt, dark blue jeans and a leather jacket. Next to him was a beautiful looking motorcycle.

Sebastian short circuits, again.

Jenson manages to push his way to the front of the crowd. "Damn, Rami said his brother would show up, I didn't think it would happen though."

"Kimi's brother goes to this uni?" Sebastian asks, eyebrow raised as campus security comes over and tries to disperse the crowd.

"Yeah, you'd know that if you actually socialised rather than wanked off to those Playboy magazines in your room." Jenson replies, earning him a hard elbow in the ribs from Sebastian.

"Shut up!"Sebastian looks as Kimi gives his brother an apologetic look and moves to get back on the bike, but Rami grabs his sleeve to stop him, murmuring something that Sebastian cannot hear.

"Okay everyone, break it up! Go to your classes!"The campus security guard claps his hands and with a grumble the crowd starts to break up.

Sebastian is about to follow after Jenson, when he looks over and sees Kimi looking his way. He freezes, his heart pounding in his chest as those stormy eyes meet his, before Kimi gives a small smile in his direction.

Sebastian feels like a deer in the headlights at Kimi's smile. He's pretty sure his answering smile is just an awkward grimace and he knows his braces are on show. But if anything Kimi looks even more curious and heads over to him.

Oh. Fuck.

Kimi stops in front of Sebastian, smiling softly. "Are you okay or are you about to have a stroke?"

The words are said in a teasing tone but Sebastian can feel the flush on his cheeks. "Ah, uh, well-"

Genius Seb. Very genius.

Kimi chuckles, holding out his hand. "I don't think I need to introduce myself, what's your name?"

"Seb." Sebastian supplies, trying not to faint at the feeling of his small hand in Kimi's larger one. This was not happening.

"Seb, you're the mechanics major right? The one who got a scholarship?" Kimi asks, head tilted.

"Uh yes, but um how did you know?" Sebastian looks startled, how on earth did Kimi know this?

"Rami." Kimi gestures to his older brother who gives a little wave. "I was having trouble with my bike and he told me to come to campus and talk to you."

God, Sebastian was going to faint. He just KNEW it.

"Uh, okay, but you could go to a garage, why me?" Okay good, a sensible response has finally come out of his mouth.

Kimi shrugs. "I could go to a garage but the publicity would be insane."

"So you decided to walk onto campus? How is that any better?" Sebastian raises an eyebrow.

"I trusted my brother's judgement, he is never wrong when he recommends someone." Kimi answers, looking at Sebastian. "So, do you think you could take a look at her?"

Sebastian's mind has gone blank. "At what?"

Kimi rolls his eyes. "My bike, can you look at my bike for me?"

"Oh, uh yes? What's wrong with it?" Sebastian tilts his head, looking at the bike.

"Something is up with the engine, she keeps cutting out." Kimi replies, moving over to the bike.

Sebastian follows, almost like he is in a dream. "Well, we could take her down to our garage or I could see her in my own later? My place might be better, if you could travel low key."

What. Was. He. Suggesting?!

Kimi tilts his head with a hum. "You might be right, if you can give me your address maybe I could come over to yours after classes tonight?"

Sebastian blinks, his jaw falling open as Kimi looks at him expectantly. "To-tonight? My place?"

Kimi nods, looking concerned. "Unless tonight is a bad time?"

"Uh, no. No! It's uh. It's fine, let me write down my address." Sebastian takes his notebook from his bag and scribbles down his address, his hands only lightly shaking as he tears the page out and hands it to Kimi.

The other man takes the page and reads the address, "is 7pm okay for you?"

"Sure!" Sebastian nods quickly, wondering if he was in a dream and he hasn't yet woken up. Then again his dreams about Kimi were never this tame.

Kimi gives him a crooked smile and Sebastian nearly faints. "See you tonight?"

"Yes…" Sebastian licks his lips, his breath stopping when Kimi claps a hand on his shoulder and turns back to talk to his brother.

What. The. Fuck.

Sebastian cannot focus in his lecture, his mind is on Kimi.

How the fuck was Kimi coming over to his house tonight?

Why had he agreed?

Yes he could help Kimi, but also the man was a freaking Playboy bunny and Sebastian's biggest crush.

He remembers the first time he had ever seen one of Kimi's Playboy shoots. The man had been leaning against the wall, bunny ears on his head as he gazed into the camera, his long hair falling over his face in waves. He had bared all and Sebastian had never forgotten it.

It was Kimi's stern expression that had gotten to him. Most Playboy bunnies tended to act shy and coy, but not Kimi. He had broken the mould of Playboy bunnies from his very first shoot. Kimi challenged the reader to look at him, he made the reader take notice and claimed his sexuality for his own. Sebastian loved that about him.

He had privately cried when Kimi had cut his long locks though.

After that, Sebastian had been obsessed.

And now the man of his dreams was coming to his place. Fuck.

Sebastian somehow makes it through the day, he has no idea how though.

When he gets home, he spring cleans his apartment frantically, hiding all his issues of Playboy just in case Kimi found any.

He had no idea why he was cleaning his bedroom when the man was only coming round to his garage, but he felt like he needed to be careful.

Kimi arrives at precisely 7pm, on the motorcycle of course. Sebastian tries not to stare too hard at how good Kimi looks as the man pushes the bike into the garage. "Hey Seb, thank you again for this!"

"It's okay! Uh, thanks for bringing the bike!" Sebastian looks over the bike curiously, trying so hard not to stare at Kimi.

"Thanks for agreeing to take a look." Kimi replies, flashing a beautiful crooked smile. "Hopefully she isn't too much trouble to fix!"

Sebastian forgets German, never mind English at his smile. It takes him a second to regain his composure. "Right, lets take a look at her!"

The few hours are spent fixing the bike. Surprisingly Kimi sits next to him as Sebastian works, handing him tools and looking keenly interested in what he was doing. It turns out that Kimi wasn't only a pretty face.

It almost felt domestic, strangely enough. Kimi was not who Sebastian thought he would be. He was quiet and gentle with a keen interest in Sebastian whenever he talked. Sebastian had imagined a stern cold exterior, a man always in charge. But Kimi was warm, like the first bite into perfect tiayaki. It was beautiful to discover and didn't damper Sebastian's crush on the older man at all, which was a problem.

Sebastian finally has the bike fixed at around 11pm. He sits back tiredly and wipes at his face, leaving a smug of oil on his cheek. "If you start her up, she should sound better now."

Kimi nods, but he seems distracted. "You've got something on your-" He reaches out almost without thinking and brushes his thumb over his cheek.

Sebastian prides himself on not fainting.

Kimi pulls back, rubbing the oil between his fingers as he waits for Sebastian to reboot.

"Um, thanks." Sebastian grabs a cloth and rubs at his burning cheek, swallowing hard. "Why don't you check her out?"

Kimi nods, standing up and moving to start the bike, listening to her engine. "She sounds good, but the real test will be driving her."

"It's pretty late and I'm sure my neighbours will not like you driving the bike round the neighbourhood. Maybe you could crash here and we can test her tomorrow?" Sebastian has no idea where these words are coming from, but damn, the hours spent with Kimi fixing the bike had shown him that he was a regular man beneath the Playboy persona.

Kimi hums softly, rubbing the back of his neck. "I could crash here maybe? No one knows I'm here and if I check into a hotel…"

"Uh yeah, yes you can. I have a spare room." Sebastian answers, not sure how he was handling this as well as he was.

"Good! If that's okay with you?" Kimi checks. "I've already taken a lot of your time."

"It's fine, anyway it's safer to stay with me! I don't want you hounded by reporters!" Sebastian shakes his head, standing up and wiping his hands on his jeans. "Let me show you to the guest room."

Kimi moves to follow him, as Sebastian heads upstairs and shows him the bathroom and the guest room.

"I'm just down the hall, I could give you some spare clothes if you wish?" Sebastian tilts his head, trying not to think of Kimi in his clothing.

"It's fine, really." Kimi shakes his head, giving another soft smile. "I'll see you in the morning."

Sebastian brushes his teeth and gets ready for bed in a daze, barely noticing he goes to sleep in his oil stained clothing.

His dreams are haunted by rabbits.

The next morning, Sebastian showers and gets changed before leaving the bathroom for Kimi. He hadn't slept well that was for sure.

He's making breakfast when Kimi appears, clean and showered but wearing yesterday's clothes of course. He smiles at Sebastian, but the smile appears playful and teasing. He's holding a suspicious amount of magazines in his hands.

Oh no.

Kimi smirks and holds up the stack of Playboy. "Not an original hiding place underneath the guest bed. Would have been safer in your own room."

Sebastian wants the ground to swallow him up. Immediately. Or to be struck by lightning.

Kimi laughs. He actually fucking laughs and puts the magazines down on the kitchen table. "I didn't open them for obvious reasons."

Yeah, a car would be welcome to drive through his window right now.

When Sebastian doesn't say anything, Kimi's teasing dies off and the next thing he knows is Kimi's comforting touch on his shoulder. "Sorry, I was out of line, but you've got to admit it's pretty funny no?"

"I- how are you so calm about it?"Sebastian turns to look at Kimi, the insecurity and shyness in his face.

"I'm calm because you had me in your house all night and you treated me like a human being. I wasn't worried you were going to try to force yourself on me." He shrugs. "Most people who meet me think I'd immediately want to fuck them, but you treated me like I was a regular person and that was so refreshing to me. I'm not worried after finding this." He nods to the magazines as he places them on the kitchen table.

"This is so fucking embarrassing." Sebastian hides his red cheeks with his hands.

"It is pretty funny actually." Kimi grins, moving to gently remove Sebastian's hands from his face.

Sebastian just looks like a kicked puppy, looking at Kimi sadly. "I'm a freak for having all of that…"

Kimi snorts, squeezing his hands in his gently. "I'm also a freak for getting my cock out for thousands of people to look at. Maybe my freak matches yours?" He gives a heart stopping small smile. "It's okay, I promise."

Sebastian looks at Kimi's earnest face. "You're not just saying this and will run for your bike in a minute?"

"No, I'm telling the truth, I never talk bullshit." Kimi shrugs, pulling his hands from his. "Now come on, I'm hungry and want to see my bike."

Sebastian cannot keep up with Kimi, he just watches as the man sits at the breakfast table as casually as hell.

In a daze Sebastian continues to make breakfast.

His life didn't make sense anymore.

The soft roar of the engine fills the garage as Kimi drives his bike back into the garage. He opens his visor and turns to look at Sebastian. "She sounds good!"

"Amazing! No engine cutting?" Sebastian asks, smiling as Kimi gets off the bike. Damn, this man looked way too handsome for his own good.

"No! She was smooth the entire way." Kimi removes his helmet, placing it on the handlebars of his bike. "You've done an amazing job."

"It's nice to get some hands on experience." Sebastian says as he cleans away his tools.

"How much do I owe you?" Kimi asks as he takes out his wallet.

"Ah, no. I don't need paying!" Sebastian shakes his head, smiling.

"You can't not have anything!" Kimi insists, pulling out a wad of money.

"Seriously, no, it's fine! I'm just glad you trusted me with the bike."

Kimi huffs quietly. "You cannot have no payment, if I cannot pay you then how about I take you on a date?"

Sebastian freezes, looking over at Kimi. "Excuse me?"

"How about I take you on a date to say thank you?" Kimi tilts his head.

Sebastian blinks once, twice and then swallows hard. "A date, with you?"

"I know a place, the owners know me and it's not known to the press. We could have a meal, what do you say?"

It's a tempting offer, but Sebastian isn't sure if he should accept. Besides, Playboy bunnies weren't allowed to date. They were meant to be seen as free and single to meet with the fantasies of the customers.

"Seb?" Kimi's voice is hesitant when Sebastian doesn't answer immediately.

"We can't." Sebastian is proud of how firm his voice is. "It's against the rules."

"Since when have I cared about rules?" Kimi asks, moving closer to him. He had a point, his shoots were always different to the rest of the bunnies.

"Since dating me could ruin your career." Sebastian shakes his head, meeting Kimi's eyes firmly. He's so fucking proud of himself for not shaking.

Kimi moves closer, his large hands on Sebastian's hips. "You need to live a little, we can do this, I promise you. Please, just let me have some normalcy in my life?"

"You think I could give you that? Normalcy? How?" Sebastian challenges, his voice strong.

"By making me remember what it was to be loved for being me." Kimi answers, the words hushed in the garage. "You could have tried to flirt with me and get me into your bed. You didn't, that means something to me. It means you respect that I'm a human being, not some unattainable fantasy for others."

The words leave Sebastian speechless. "You think all that of me, after only knowing me for a few hours?"

"I have a good read on people." Kimi answers, his eyes soft and honest in the morning light streaming into the windows of the garage. "I can trust you."

Sebastian swallows hard. "I- I don't know.."

"Live a little." Kimi answers, his grip firm on his hips. "Let yourself have something for once."

He wants Kimi, more than he's ever wanted anything in his life.

Then Kimi's lips crash onto his and he stops thinking entirely.

Kimi's lips are warm on his, soft and inviting. It's nothing like how he had imagined kissing Kimi to feel like. He returns the kiss, clumsy and unsure and cursing his braces and hoping he doesn't catch Kimi's lips with them. But Kimi is so gentle it makes Sebastian's toes curl in pleasure. The man knew how to kiss.

Kimi pulls away first, his smile gentle. "Was that your first kiss?"

Sebastian nods numbly, still feeling Kimi's lips on his. He resists touching his own lips to feel them.

"What do you say?" Kimi asks, his voice a quiet whisper.

Sebastian has two choices, say no and never experience what could be, or say yes and risk everything.

There's only one answer he can give.

"Yes."

Kimi's smile is so bright Sebastian isn't sure how he is still standing. "I'll pick you up after uni? I can take you to my friend's restaurant and we can decide where to go from there?"

Sebastian's head swims. "Yes, yes I think I'd like that."

"Perfect." Kimi leans in for another soft heart-stopping kiss, then he picks up his helmet from besides the bike and puts it on his head. "I'll see you later tonight."

Kimi leaves the garage in a roar of smoke and the scent of oil, leaving Sebastian star struck in his wake.

A date with a Playboy bunny, how had his life become this?

He finds himself smiling as he packs his bag and heads to uni, no matter what happened on his date that night, Sebastian knows he is not going to let Kimi go.

The real Kimi beat all of his fantasies, he was going to keep him for as long as he could.

The sun shines and breaks through the clouds, it feels like happiness, pure and simple.

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So what did you wear on a date with a Playboy bunny?

Sebastian looks through his closet, biting his lip as he looks through his clothing. What would even impress a man like Kimi? In the end he chooses a soft dark blue jumper and a pair of blue jeans. He looks in the mirror, frowning a little at how much his pecs stand out in the soft jumper. Okay, he's a little self conscious, mostly because Kimi looked like a freaking Adonis and he himself was very soft looking, almost cute.

Maybe Kimi liked that about him?

He decides the outfit will do and goes to the bathroom to start styling his curls. Jenson always said his curls were his best feature, but right now Sebastian was cursing over how un-tameable they were. In the end he just fusses with them, getting them to fall over his forehead in fluffy little curls. It would have to be enough.

By 8pm, Sebastian is ready. He sits in the living room, waiting for Kimi to arrive. When he hears the distinctive sound of Kimi's motorbike outside, his heart kicks up a gear and he gets up and smooths down his outfit. This was it.

He moves to the door just as Kimi knocks on it. Sebastian opens it up, letting out a soft sound when he sees Kimi.

The man is wearing a nice dark grey shirt and his signature leather jacket and dark worn jeans. He looks Sebastian up and down, his eyes flashing with interest. "Hey, Seb."

"Hey." Sebastian breathes out, licking his lips as he grabs his jacket and his house keys, before meeting Kimi outside of his apartment.

Kimi holds out a spare helmet, grinning at Sebastian. "You look amazing."

"So do you." Sebastian answers as he takes the offered helmet and follows Kimi to the motorbike.

Kimi climbs on, moving forward to give Sebastian room to get onto the back. Sebastian swallows hard and puts the helmet on and carefully climbs onto the back of the bike.

Kimi turns to look over his shoulder, "hold on tight!"

Oh god.

Sebastian can feel how heated his cheeks are as he wraps his arms around Kimi's waist. Fuck's sake, he can feel how toned he is and with Kimi being broad shouldered he finds he has to press himself up tight against Kimi's back to hang on properly.

He really hopes he doesn't get a boner right now.

As soon as Sebastian is secured, Kimi takes off. The bike roaring away into the night.

Sebastian feels like he's flying.

Kimi takes him to a little pizzeria just outside of town. It's a nice place and it feels cozy.

Sebastian is amused by how much Kimi is apparently loved by the owner, Antonio. At one point, Antonio even comes up to Kimi and looks at him critically. "You're too skinny, you need to eat better like your date here."

Sebastian blushes hard at this.

When the food arrives, Antonio gives their table extra helpings of dough balls and garlic butter, looking at Kimi sternly as he does so. Kimi just rolls his eyes but dutifully dips some of the warm dough in the butter and eats it, which gets him an approving look from Antonio.

Sebastian takes one of the dough balls, dipping it into the butter and taking a bite. A soft moan escapes him and he doesn't miss the interested look Kimi sends his way. He blushes, but it doesn't stop him from reaching for another one. The food is to die for.

They leave the restaurant with some more dough balls to take home, which Sebastian is very happy with. The date was nice, perfect even. Sebastian had been worried that he would be too shy or awkward talking to Kimi, but in actual fact conversation had flown between them like they had known each other their entire lives.

On the way home, Sebastian grips Kimi's waist more firmly, feeling more confident around him after their perfect date.

Kimi drives up to Sebastian's place and stops the engine, turning to look back at Sebastian as the younger man climbs off of the bike.

Sebastian removes his helmet, running his fingers through his unruly curls. He smiles gently at Kimi, "thank you for tonight, I had an amazing time."

Kimi nods, moving to turn on the engine, but Sebastian feels bold and he reaches out for Kimi's arm.

"Do you want to come in?"

Sebastian leads Kimi into his home, his heart beating loudly in his ears as he leads Kimi upstairs and to his room. Kimi follows, his presence quiet and grounding next to Sebastian's crazed anxious energy. Was he really going to do this with Kimi?

He opens his bedroom door, throwing his jacket down on his chair as Kimi does the same. He's not sure if he's doing this right. Shouldn't he have taken Kimi to the living room first? Offered him a drink? Get them both loosened up? When he looks over at Kimi though, the Finn's stormy gaze is just entirely on him.

God, it makes Sebastian feel like he's going to die of anxiety. He's never done this before.

Kimi seems to be a good reader of body language and he softens his own as he looks at the younger man. "Are you okay?"

"Uh, good, yeah good! I just uh- you know- I uh- do you want a drink?!" He blurts out, his face flushed with embarrassment.

Kimi blinks at him. "A drink?"

"Yeah! Like a beer! Or some orange squash! Or maybe some tea?" Sebastian shakes his head, running a hand through his hair. "Fuck, I should have asked you this first!"

Kimi reaches out and takes Sebastian's hand, the touch grounding. "I'm fine, I don't need a drink. Is everything okay?"

Sebastian looks into Kimi's worried eyes, his cheeks burning. "I uh, I've never brought a guy home before. In fact, I've- I've never done this before…"

"You're a virgin?" Kimi asks, his gaze now a little heated but still surprisingly gentle when he looks at Sebastian.

Sebastian nods, feeling his warm cheek with the back of his hand. "Yes…"

Kimi moves closer, gently cupping Sebastian's cheeks. "Do you want this with me?"

"I do." Sebastian whispers, gazing into his eyes.

Kimi's gaze is gentle, tender in a way that makes Sebastian feel like everything would be okay. "I will take care of you."

Sebastian finds himself believing his words.

Sebastian has never felt so good. He's never felt beautiful or anything special, not until he's lying naked under Kimi and the definition of sex is gazing at him like he's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen.

Sebastian forgets to be self conscious under that heated gaze.

Kimi naked is a thing of splendour, his toned body and the beautiful ink on his arms stand out the most. He's stunning. The centrefold pictures had failed to do him justice in Sebastian's eyes.

The younger man's gaze lands on Kimi's large cock and for a second he feels a flicker of anxiety, would that even fit? He's never had anything this big, hell he has never used a toy before either. So the idea that it would fit? There was no way-

Kimi's lips on his, a soft gentle pressing of lips, drives the fear away. Sebastian moves his lips against Kimi's, gaining more confidence the more they kiss. He had assumed his braces would have gotten in the way, but in actual fact they don't. He just focuses and follows Kimi's lead. Man the guy could really kiss.

They continue kissing, Kimi's hand slowly moving down his body and to his soft pecs. When Kimi's fingers move over Sebastian's nipple and he tweaks it? Sebastian finds himself gasping into Kimi's mouth and arching up at the unexpected pleasure.

Holy. Shit.

Kimi smiles against his lips, his hand moving down his body and to his cock. His fingers move over the tip and swirl the pre cum around, his large hand wrapping easily around his cock. It makes Sebastian moan softly and gasp out Kimi's name.

Kimi pulls away from Sebastian, his gaze so heated it makes Sebastian's heart stop in his chest. "Do you have lube?"

Sebastian swallows thickly, nodding his head. "Yes, uh, top drawer."

The older man nods, moving to open the drawer and finding lube and condoms inside. "Someone was prepared, huh? Candy flavoured lube?"

"18th birthday present from Jenson." Sebastian can feel his cheeks burning.

"Your friends have a habit of buying you lube?" Kimi asks, taking out the lube and one of the condoms.

"He uh, was trying to encourage me to get laid." He hides his face in his pillow. God, this was embarrassing.

"Of course he was." Kimi snorts, squirting some of the lube on his fingers. "Okay, this will feel weird, I will go slow, okay?"

Sebastian nods, his heart beginning to race again at the idea of Kimi opening him up. Kimi's lips on his relax him a little as Kimi circles one of his fingers against his hole. He starts to tense up a little but Kimi whispers against his lips, "relax, breathe."

Sebastian focuses on his breathing as Kimi inserts one of his fingers, it feels weird and almost intrusive but Kimi's gentle kisses relaxes him and soon he gets used to the feeling as Kimi adds a second finger.

Okay, this feels good. He gives a low moan as Kimi slowly opens him up and moves his fingers up and down carefully, brushing against his prostate and making Sebastian jolt at the unexpected pleasure. Oh fuck.

Kimi continues, slowly adding a third finger and by that point Sebastian feels himself pressing down on his fingers, wanting more friction. "Behave!" Kimi's voice is stern, but gentle. It makes Sebastian want to act out more, but as soon as he tries again to sink down on Kimi's fingers, the older man stops his movements.

"Stop." Kimi looks at him sternly, making Sebastian bite his lip and look innocently up at him. God, this man made him want to do things he usually wouldn't do.

Kimi looks at him for a moment, then he continues opening him up. Sebastian decides to behave, for now.

Once Kimi is satisfied Sebastian is ready for him he removes his fingers, kissing Sebastian to soothe him against the sensation of being empty. "Okay, now breathe in and out slowly, tell me if it's too much."

Kimi pulls away to put on a condom and to lube up his cock. Sebastian watches him, his heart banging so hard in his chest he swears it's audible to the older man. Fuck his cock was big, it didn't look like it would fit.

Kimi gives Sebastian a soft reassuring smile, palming his cock slowly and letting Sebastian see him pleasuring himself. He moans loudly, his head tipping back as he runs his hand up and down his cock.

Fuck. Okay this was unfair, it was torture to watch.

"Kimi? Please fuck me. Please." Sebastian says, his voice almost a demand as he watches Kimi play with himself.

Kimi opens one eye lazily. "Say please." His tone is playful, still slowly stroking his hard cock.

"Fuck off, give me your cock!" Sebastian opens his legs wider, glaring at the older man. Kimi merely laughs.

"Manners, Sebi." Kimi says, letting go of his cock and moving over to Sebastian and smirking at him. "Now, what do you want?"

"Your cock, please." Sebastian gets out, looking up at him pleadingly.

"Good boy." Kimi praises and the words send heat jolting through his body.

He wanted to be Kimi's good boy, forever.

Kimi leans down and kisses him, slow and sweet as he lines up his cock up against Sebastian's hole. "Breathe for me, Kulta."

The pet-name makes Sebastian feel warm and fuzzy and he's lost to Kimi's gentle kisses as his cock starts to enter him.

Fuck, this felt more intense than being fingered. As Kimi's cock enters him, he finds himself struggling to breathe right. God the stretch burnt like hell.

"Breathe, just breathe, in and out." Kimi whispers against his lips and Sebastian focuses on his breathing as Kimi sinks further inside of him. God, would it fit?

Kimi goes slow and careful, until he bottoms out inside Sebastian and the younger man finds himself panting against Kimi's lips. Fuck, he was so fucking full, too full. How was Kimi going to be able to move inside of him?

"Okay?" Kimi checks in with Sebastian, his hand cupping his cheek, "Sebi? Look at me please."

Sebastian wasn't even aware his eyes were closed. He opens them, gazing into Kimi's beautiful grey eyes.

"Okay?" Kimi asks again, his tone soft and gentle.

"So full." Sebastian whispers, a little overwhelmed by the sensation.

"I know, I know." Kimi soothes gently, smiling lovingly at the younger man. "Can I move or do you need more time?"

"Move, please." Sebastian bumps his nose against Kimi's gently.

"Okay, hold onto me if you need to." Kimi says gently as he slowly begins to move.

Oh god, it feels so fucking good. Every thrust of Kimi's hips makes him feel like he's seeing stars. He moves very gently, letting Sebastian get used to the sensation.

Sebastian whimpers quietly, his hands wrapping around Kimi's neck as the man starts moving a little faster. Each brush against his prostate makes Sebastian moan Kimi's name.

"More, more please. Please." Sebastian says softly and Kimi gives a hard thrust of his hips. It makes Sebastian cry out with the pleasure of the sensation. He clings on tighter to Kimi's broad shoulders and he finds himself biting onto Kimi's shoulder without realising. It makes Kimi let out a sharp gasp and slam his hips into Sebastian's, making the younger man yelp and let go.

Kimi moves even faster after that, setting a punishing pace that makes Sebastian hold onto him tighter. It's almost too much, too good, too full. He's not going to last much longer.

He feels this wave of warmth rushing through his body and he knows he's going to cum. It's a thousand times stronger than it feels when he's having a wank and he whimpers to Kimi. "Kimi, I-"

In answer, Kimi wraps his large hard around his cock and strokes it firmly. "Cum for me, Kulta."

Sebastian cries out as he cums all over Kimi's hand and his stomach. It's the most intense orgasm he's ever experienced, he swears he blacks out momentarily as the next thing he's aware of his Kimi fucking into him harder and then stilling as he cums into Sebastian.

God, Kimi orgasming is a thing of fucking beauty.

Kimi manages not to collapse onto Sebastian, instead just cadging him with his arms on either side of him to avoid falling onto him. He's breathing hard, looking down at Sebastian gently. He carefully leans on one hand so he can brush Sebastian's sweaty curls off of his forehead. "Okay?"

Sebastian smiles brightly, feeling this warmth and contentment flow over him. "More than, okay."

Kimi smiles warmly, pulling out of Sebastian carefully. It makes the younger man whimper as he feels empty after being so full. Kimi gently kisses his forehead in apology and then he moves off of him, dumps the condom in the bin and heads to the bathroom.

Sebastian can barely keep his eyes open and he finds himself drifting gently to sleep as Kimi comes back over and carefully cleans him of the cum covering his stomach. He opens his eyes at Kimi's gentle touch and lets out a surprised sound when he sees his teeth marks in Kimi's shoulder.

"It's okay, it doesn't hurt." Kimi says gently as he cleans up the cum and presses a kiss to his forehead. "Just sleep."

"Stay with me?" Sebastian asks sleepily and Kimi smiles at him fondly.

"There is nowhere else I'd rather be."

Sebastian smiles sleepily and closes his eyes, giving into sleep as soon as he feels Kimi settle in against his back and pull him against his broad chest.

It's the best sleep he's ever had in his entire life.

He wants to keep Kimi forever.

The next morning he feels sore and used, but in a good way. The burn feels almost good to him and he rather likes the reminder of what he had done with Kimi.

The sex had been even better than his fantasies.

Kimi stays for breakfast, before he has to go back to the mansion. It amazes Sebastian that the man actually lived in the Playboy mansion.

"I'd rather stay here." Kimi admits as he stands at Sebastian's door, his smile soft and sweet. "Can I come back?"

"Anytime." Sebastian whispers, his answering smile warm.

Kimi leans in to kiss him, a gentle brushing of lips, then pulls back and brushes a stray curl off of his forehead. "Be good, I'll see you soon?"

"I can't promise to be good, but sure." Sebastian answers, smirking playfully.

"Behave," Kimi answers, brushing his thumb over Sebastian's plump lower lip.

Sebastian bravely takes Kimi's thumb into his mouth, flicking his tongue over it. It causes Kimi to gasp and it makes him feel powerful.

Kimi pulls his thumb out of his mouth, gazing at Sebastian in wonder. "You are full of surprises."

"I aim to please." Sebastian answers, grinning at Kimi.

Kimi leans in for another kiss, this one a little more possessive and makes Sebastian sigh against his lips. He pulls back, tipping Sebastian's chin up with his fingers. "Good boy."

Sebastian whimpers quietly, and he knows that if Kimi didn't leave right now he would drag him back inside again. Even if he felt sore enough as it was, he wanted more.

Thankfully (or not depending on how you looked at it) Kimi pulls away, giving Sebastian a playful smile as he heads back to his bike. "See you soon."

Sebastian watches Kimi drive away, feeling his heart doing back-flips in his chest.

God he was so fucking gone for Kimi Raikkonen.

Bonus scene

Sebastian sighs softly as he rocks Grace gently, smiling down at his baby daughter lovingly. "Are you going to sleep now?"

Grace looks up at him with Kimi's stormy grey eyes and yawns widely, making Sebastian coo at her gently.

"Oh you're so tired! Such a tired baby girl!" He nuzzles her little nose, slowly lowering her into her cot and making sure she was safe as he pulls the blanket up over her. "Sleep well.."

He turns on the baby monitor and then closes her bedroom door, the night light softly glowing in the dark.

Grace had been a big surprise to them, but not an unwanted one. Thankfully Sebastian had become pregnant after graduating so it wasn't that big a problem and Kimi had decided to retire from modelling for Playboy as soon as Sebastian had revealed his pregnancy.

She had been a wonderful edition to their lives after becoming married to each other.

It was actually their wedding anniversary, they had been married for two years now and Sebastian had decided that it called for something special.

After checking the monitor one more time, Sebastian heads to the bedroom and pulls open the wardrobe and pulls out a box hidden at the back.

He cannot believe he is doing this, but he also wants to see Kimi's reaction.

He had grown bolder under Kimi's love and attention, it was a testament to how well Kimi had taken care of him.

He takes the rabbit ears out of the box and turns them around in his hands. They used to belong to Kimi, and now Sebastian had stolen them from him.

He still remembers the first time he had seen Kimi wearing them on a shoot. It still gives him butterflies even now.

He strips out of his clothing until he's only in a pair of lingerie, the feeling of the fabric a little weird but it's okay. He puts the rabbit ears on top of his head and then sits on the bed, waiting for Kimi.

Kimi comes home ten minutes later, calling out for his husband in a hushed tone, not wanting to wake their daughter up.

"In the bedroom." Sebastian calls back, wincing when he thinks Grace will wake up, but she doesn't.

He hears Kimi's footfall on the stairs and sits up straighter, proudly showing off his curves with his head held high.

Kimi opens the bedroom door and freezes in the doorway. "Holy, shit."

"Hi Liebe." Sebastian says in a low tone, watching Kimi begin to approach him.

"Hi." Kimi whispers, his hand coming out to gently tilt Sebastian's head up, admiring his outfit. "You look beautiful, radiant."

Sebastian smiles sweetly. "Have I done good?"

"Better than good." Kimi breathes out, his eyes dark. "Stand up for me?"

He does as Kimi asks, twirling for him with a little grin. "Well?"

He feels Kimi's hands on his waist as the man corrects his posture, remembering how he used to stand in his bunny attire during his shoots. "Like this."

Sebastian grins, letting Kimi correct him how he wished. "Do you like it?"

"I love it." Kimi whispers, meeting his gaze heatedly before he leans in to kiss him deeply.

He returns the kiss eagerly, threading his fingers through Kimi's longer hair (grown at Sebastian's request) and letting himself be gently pushed down onto the bed. He goes willingly, deepening the kisses Kimi is giving him.

He feels so so loved. So powerful.

Kimi breaks their heated kisses to look deeply in his eyes. "I love you."

"I love you too, happy anniversary." Sebastian whispers as Kimi leans in for more kisses.

Under Kimi's warm touch, Sebastian opens up. There's nowhere else he belongs. He's Kimi's forever.

Chapter Text

When Kimi had offered Sebastian the chance to come to a Playboy shoot, he had said yes almost immediately.

Why wouldn't he want to see his boyfriend doing a sexy naked shoot?

"Besides, you followed my career for ages, you deserve a behind the scenes look." Kimi had teased, smirking at him.

Sebastian had gently hit him for that, but he had a point. He WAS curious how they filmed the shoots.

His and Kimi's relationship was going well, but Sebastian was nervous. Kimi was a public figure, what would happen when their relationship was revealed? The rules said Kimi wasn't allowed to date, that he could lose his job if the press found out. Was bringing Sebastian to a shoot an okay thing to do? Would anyone figure it out?

Kimi seemed to think about that, however. He had only let his manager know of his and Sebastian's relationship and from there they had made up a good enough reason for Sebastian to attend the shoot. Sebastian wasn't sure he liked the sneaking around, but he rationally knew it was the best option for them, even if it hurt.

It was weird being on the shoot. The place chosen was a nice upscale building used for a few movies now and again and the room they were in was decorated in the theme of the shoot. The room was draped in dark purple velvet with a plush couch in the middle, draped in more soft purple covers.

Kimi entered the room wearing a robe, looking around the room in interest. His eyes land on Sebastian, hidden behind the cameras, and he gives him a gentle smile before he lets the robe get taken away.

God, Sebastian loved naked Kimi. It was his favourite Kimi, all broad shoulders and soft abs. Under Kimi during sex he felt so save and loved. Kimi treated him like something precious and it meant everything to him.

It was a little weird in this scenario, watching his boyfriend lie against the plush seats of the sofa, lazily palming his cock to get it erect enough for what was required. Sebastian wonders what Kimi is thinking of to get hard. Somehow it makes him jealous. Kimi should only be getting hard in reaction to HIM. He shakes off the thought, licking his lips as he watches Kimi work at his cock, imagining his own hand moving over the length and getting Kimi to gasp out his name, his hips arching up as he-

"Okay quiet on set, lets go!" The photographer calls out, jolting Sebastian out of his daydream. A dark flush appears on his cheeks and he tries to act cool as Kimi settles on the couch, stretching out his body and waiting further instructions.

Watching Kimi on the shoot was rather insane. Kimi looked so good bathed under the lights of the studio, every single expression he aimed at the camera made Sebastian feel like his heart was banging in his ribs. When he smirked? God, Sebastian wanted to climb onto the couch and ride him until Kimi yelled out his name.

He was aware he was getting hard, which was rather embarrassing and near the end of the shoot, he excused himself and headed to the bathroom. Wherein, he hid in the cubical and wanked off to the image of Kimi on the couch in his head. It was so embarrassing. It was like he had no control where Kimi was concerned.

When he had come back into the studio, Kimi had met his eyes and the wanker had the audacity to smirk at him, Like he knew exactly what Sebastian had done.

He vows never to go with Kimi to another shoot again.

"Are you okay?" Kimi asks, once they are back at Sebastian's apartment. He throws his coat on the coat rack and Sebastian has a moment to melt over how domestic it is. Which is rather ridiculous.

"Mhm, fine! Yeah." Sebastian shakes his head, mildly distracted.

"Sure? Because I know you snuck off to wank in the toilet." Kimi grins, his eyes devious. "You're oddly cute, you know that?"

"Well you did say I was a freak." Sebastian shrugs, a little smile on his lips.

"Your freak matches my freak." Kimi answers, wrapping his arms around his waist and looking into his eyes. "Want to know a secret?"

"Sure?" Sebastian looks at him, his head tilted curiously.

Kimi smirks, leaning in to whisper in his ear. "It usually takes me a while to get an erection, usually I'd use a pump to help, but this time I got hard just by thinking about you on your knees for me sucking my cock."

Sebastian lets out a breathy gasp at the words and a tiny moan slips out of his lips.

Kimi grins, his eyes sparkling. "Want to make my fantasy come true?"

God yes.

That's how Sebastian finds himself naked and on his knees for Kimi. He looks up at the naked man standing in front of him and flutters his eyelashes a little, his gaze on Kimi's large cock which he is slowly palming in his hand.

"Are you going to be a good boy?" Kimi asks, his voice soft with a little rough edge to it.

Sebastian nods, licking his lips and looking up at Kimi angelically. Yes, he would be a good boy.

Kimi moves forward, moving his cock in front of Sebastian's plush lips. "Open up for me."

Sebastian opens his mouth, relaxing his jaw like Kimi had taught him (because the first time they had done this, it had not gone well) and breathing through his nose as Kimi slides his cock into his mouth. He gives a low moan as he wraps his lips around his cock, looking up to gauge Kimi's reaction and feeling pleased when he sees Kimi's head tilted back in pleasure.

He carefully places his hands against Kimi's thighs and starts to bob his head, hollowing out his cheeks as he sucks on his cock. He was getting so much better at this. He tries to take him in further but he gags a little, his eyes watering as Kimi's cock hits the back of his throat, but be valiantly continues as his eyes stream with tears.

Kimi, however, sees him struggling a little and he reaches out to Sebastian's curls and tugs them gently, urging him to not take him too deep. "Easy Sebi."

Sebastian sends him a defiant look through his wet lashes and he sucks him in deep again, this time hitting the back of his throat and not gagging. He is rewarded by Kimi's breathless moan and the twitch of his hips sending his cock into the back of his throat again. He loves it, it makes him feel used and dirty.

Sebastian continues to suck him off, bobbing his head up and down enthusiastically as Kimi tugs at his hair, moaning his praise to the younger man.

He keeps going, swirling his tongue around his base and dragging his teeth over his length, which makes Kimi's hips jerk uncontrollably.

It isn't long until Kimi's thrusts start getting erratic and he pulls on Sebastian's hair to warn him that he was about to cum, but Sebastian clamps his hands on Kimi's thighs and looks up at him.

Kimi takes the silent signal and cums hard into Sebastian's mouth, the German swallowing as much of his cum as he can, but it dribbles out his mouth a little. He lets go of Kimi's cock, wiping at the drool and cum on his cheeks, looking up at Kimi as he does so.

The older man is breathing hard, sweat on his forehead as he gazes at Sebastian in amazement. "Holy shit, Sebi. You were incredible."

Sebastian sweetly smiles, like butter wouldn't melt in his mouth. He absentmindedly plays with his own cock and Kimi's gaze darkens.

"Get on the bed, now."

Sebastian goes willingly, laying on his stomach and lifting his arse in the air. He gives it a little wiggle and Kimi gently slaps his ass cheek, earning him a little yelp.

"Brat." Kimi mutters, climbing onto the bed besides him and grabbing the lube and condoms on the side. "I will show you how to behave."

Sebastian teasingly wiggles again. But then gasps as Kimi grabs at his hip and pulls him closer, roughly pushing a lubed up finger inside of him.

He gasps at the intrusion, moving to get away, but Kimi's hand on his hip is like iron and he finds he cannot fight against him as the Finn ads a second finger, curling it against his prostate. He lets out a breathless moan, starting to get used to it as Kimi begins opening him up for his cock.

By the time he's making a soft whimpering noise and pushing down on Kimi's fingers, the Finn removes them and a few seconds later he feels Kimi's cock entering him. He moans loudly, breathing through the familiar stretch and burn as Kimi bottoms out inside of him.

"Good boy." Kimi breathes out, caressing Sebastian's hip gently, the words going straight to Sebastian's cock. Kimi waits for him to get used to him before he starts to move.

Sebastian moans as Kimi fucks into him, slow and deep. He holds onto a pillow so he doesn't slide down the bed as Kimi uses him as he sees fit, enjoying how rough he was being. Kimi wasn't usually like this with him. The idea that he had rilled him up like this was incredibly exciting.

Kimi pulls him back against him by his hips, the sound of their flesh slapping together the only sound next to their breathless moans. It's all so sinful that Sebastian can feel himself start to cum. He moans out Kimi's name, feeling the heat build up until he cums untouched over his stomach and the sheets.

The very fact Sebastian cums like this makes Kimi grab his hips and cum inside him too, moaning Sebastian's name.

Sebastian face plants into the pillow, unable to stay up and whimpers as Kimi slides out of him. He lies on the bed, breathing hard as Kimi flops down next to him and pulls him against his chest.

He snuggles in against Kimi's warmth, listening to his heart beating frantically in his chest.

"I'll run you a bath in a second." Kimi promises, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of his head. "But you were so good for me! So so good!"

Sebastian feels the praise in his chest and he smiles up at Kimi. "I love you."

"I love you too." Kimi gently rests his hand on his back. "Was that okay for you? I wasn't too rough?"

Heart feeling full of love, Sebastian shakes his head. "No, it was perfect. I felt good, loved."

Kimi presses a gentle kiss to his forehead. "Good, because you are."

Sebastian wants to marry him.

Later in the bath and curled up against Kimi's chest as they soak, Sebastian feels like a king. Pampered, loved and so well cared for.

He turns his head to kiss Kimi and the Finn returns it sweetly.

He was going to spend forever with this man. He was sure of it.