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Shuriken was panicking.

His sister’s condition was getting worse by the day. Flowers and wood were growing on her body and it was clear she was in extreme amounts of pain, and they had seen multiple doctors about 

He and Slingshot were running out of options to help her, and he didn’t know what to do.

Shuriken was chilling in one of the Thieve's Den alleyways, thinking about all of this, when he heard footsteps.

He turned to the sound of the footsteps, summoning his gear.

There, he saw an inphernal, they were dressed in a black and teal suit and had black horns.

“Who are you and what do you want?” Shuriken asked, holding his gear up.

“My name is Broker, and I am here to help you.” The inpheral, Broker, said with a smile.

“What do you mean ‘help me’.”

“Well, I am aware of the situation between you and your sister, and would like to present you with a deal to help her.”

“How do you…”

“Me and some others know a doctor who can help with your sister's…condition, and will do it free of charge too. Now he can’t get rid of the curse completely, but he can make it manageable for your sister.”

“How do I know this isn’t a scam?” Shuriken said, suspicious.

Broker pulled out a picture of a crystal with a smile. “This here crystal can help reduce the effect of your sister’s curse, and I can get the person who has it to help your sister.”

“...What do you get from this?” Shuriken asked, lowering his gear just a bit, but not by much.

Broker pinned Shuriken against the ground, smiling.

“Your body.”

Shuriken paused, everything in his body told him to say no, to reject this weirdo, but, what other option did he have? Let his sister die and live knowing he could have saved her?

“Do you promise to help my sister if I say yes?” Shuriken said, full of anxiety.

“Of course.”

SFOTH forgive him for what he is about to do

“Then fine.”

Broker started to undo the bow around Shuriken’s waist, which took a couple of tries but eventually Broker got it off, next was his armband and hoodie, then his shirt. Shuriken closed his eyes and tried to imagine he was somewhere else, whether it’s working at Slingshot’s cafe or chilling at home with his friends.

His friends…what would they think if they saw him like this?

They’d probably hate him, and honestly he wouldn’t bla-

Shuriken was cut out of his thoughts by Broker grabbing his horns and yanking his head back and biting his shoulder a couple times before letting go and moving towards his chest, causing Shuriken to let out various moans.

“Here I thought the great Silver Shadow was supposed to be strong, heh? Who knew you were so easy to toy with.” Broker said before taking off his and Shuriken’s pants and underwear and spreading Shuriken’s legs open.

Shuriken’s eyes widened, Broker’s length was way bigger than his. “Broker, Broker please, that won’t-”

Before Shuriken could continue Broker shoved his entire length in, Shuriken’s head fell back as both he and Broker moaned, albeit Shuriken more loudly.

“You’re so tight~ I bet your body was just waiting for someone like me, huh?”

Shuriken couldn’t respond, instead just let out small, breathy, moans, which got muffled by Broker kissing him, Shuriken eventually returning it.

After a while Broker pulled out his length all the way to the tip then slammed it back in and started thrusting fast. “Broker…too…ah…too fast…” Shuriken said, shaking. 

“You can…heh…you can take it.” Broker said, panting and speeding up, hitting a certain spot within Shuriken. “Ah…Broker…right there.” Broker smirked and started hitting that spot over and over faster than Shuriken could handle.

Shuriken felt a warm feeling in his gut, growing the more Broker hit that certain spot, “ah…Broker…” Shuriken said as the feeling bubbled, eventually leading to him coming into Broker, moaning as he did so, the cult leader also coming shortly after.

Broker stopped for a second, panting. “Is…is it over?” Shuriken asked, looking at Broker weakly.

Broker smiled “oh Riki, that was just the first round, there’s still so much we have to do~”

“I can’t…I can’t take more…” Shuriken said, body aching, blood and semen dripping down his legs.

“Too bad~”

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Hours

Hours of pain and suffering

Of Shuriken having his body used against him.

He knew he had to do this in order to help his sister, but it still hurt as hell.

After what felt like forever, Broker got up and dressed themselves, kissing Shuriken on the forehead before leaving him in a mess of blood and semen.

Part of him wondered if it was worth it, if his sister’s life was worth the hours of pain he put himself through.

At least he will see his sister happy….

Even if the cost would scar him forever.

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Broker did keep up their end of the deal, they had brought someone called ‘Medkit’ in order to help with Vinestaff’s curse after Vinestaff had collapsed in their cafe due to her curse, using multiple crystals in order to help her. It took a while but eventually the crystals made it so the curse only affected Vinestaff’s arm instead of their whole body. And it was done for free, just like Broker promised.

“Thank you so much, this means a lot.” Slingshot said with a smile.

“No problem.” Medkit said with a deadpan expression, leaving after everything was done.

“I’m so glad you're doing better Viney, I was so afraid I was going to lose you.” Shuriken told Vinestaff back at their house, faking a smile. “I am so glad I am okay too, heh.”

Shuriken put up a smile but deep down, he wanted to cry, to scream, to cry and scream.

There were a million words to say how he felt, none of them good, his sister was safe, his friends were happy, yet he wasn’t.

He felt damaged, broken, dirty.

But why? He had agreed to it, hadn’t he? So why does he feel this way? Why does he feel so violated if he had said yes?

“Shuriken? You okay?”

Shuriken was snapped out of his thoughts by Vinestaff looking at him, it was only now he realized he was crying. He wiped his tears and quickly made up an excuse. “Y-yeah I just am so happy your health is improving.”

“Thank you Shuriken, you’re too kind.” Vinestaff said with a smile. 

“We’re all glad you’re doing better, thank SFOTH for that Medkit guy.” Slingshot said, placing dinner on the table.

“Heh yeah.” Shuriken said.

He couldn’t tell them what he had done. They would hate him if he did. He wouldn’t blame them either, what kind of friends would want somebody who gave his body up to some random stranger? Who let himself get used? They'd hate him, look at him in disgust. Heck, Sling would most likely fire him and permanently ban him from his cafe, most likely kick him out too.

Slingshot and Vinestaff talked for a while, meanwhile Shuriken ate his food silently, finishing his dinner and going to his bedroom, trying to pretend he was fine.

After he made sure his door was locked, Shuriken took off one of his few long-sleeved shirts, looking at his shoulders and chest in his bedroom mirror, both of which were covered in hickeys/bruises.

His mind was swarmed with memories of what he had done, maybe it was because of how recent it was, maybe because he had never done it before, or something else. He hoped it was the first one, that these feelings of disgust towards himself and his body would eventually fade, that he could go back to his happy, carefree self.

But the bruises and bites on his chest…they weren’t just marks.

They were reminders.

Reminders of him being pinned down.

Reminders of him being touched in every single place on his body.

Reminders of every single second of that night.

But…why? Why did he feel this way? He said it was fine, didn’t he? Why…why did he feel so violated? He had a choice in the matter, sure he was pinned down, but he could’ve said no! And him doing what he did helped his friends! So it was all worth it in the end!...Right?

Shuriken, trying his best to ignore the mess that was his headspace, put his shirt back on and sat on his bed.

He looked at his tattoo, it was a commemoration he gave himself in honor of Vine Staff’s curse.

Vine Staff…what would she think if she knew about this? She’s probably hate him, or worse, blame herself. Sure her health was the reason he had done what he did, but it's not her fault. If anything, the entire thing is his fault.

Sure, Broker was the one who came up to him, but still, he could’ve stopped them, yet he agreed.

…He is disgusting, isn’t he?

Giving up his virginity to a random person in the street, even if it was to help his sister…

Shuriken doesn’t know what to do, he feels so…so lost…so confused…

But above all else, Shuriken feels alone.

He can’t tell his friends about these feelings, they’d probably hate him if he did.

It is getting late, late enough that Shuriken will be able to do his vigilante work soon.

Maybe if he distracts himself enough, he can get rid of these…these vile…feelings.

….

Hopefully.

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Shuriken was sitting on top of one of the crossroad rooftops, looking out at the city.

To be honest, he was a bit scared about being outside alone at night after what happened. But it was either this or being alone in his room with his thoughts, which, at least right now, was probably worse.

Shuriken looked around for any sort of trouble that there could be, maybe fighting crime could get his mind off his current…situation.

He jumped from various buildings when he noticed someone robbing an apartment.

Grabbing his grappling hook, he went to where that apartment was, it’s time to beat up some bad guys.

Shuriken grapples into the apartment, and saw an inpheral trying to take various objects.

“Well, what do we have here?” Shuriken turned, grappling through the window they broke through, avoiding the glass the best he could.

The robber turned to him,summoning their gear, to which Shuriken did the same. “Oh please, who are you to try and stop me?” The inpheral said smugly.

“I am the great Silver Shadow!” Shuriken said as he and the other inpheral started to fight.

Shuriken and the other robber duke it out, with Shuriken eventually coming out on top, grappling away.

“Heh, the great Silver Shadow wins again!” Shuriken said proudly as he grappled away.

It was nice to have some fun since…since…

“Nevermind that…” Shuriken said, trying to think about something else.

He just needs to focus on his work.

Even if it gives him some…memories…he doesn’t understand.

Even if he is in pain…even if part of him feels so…so weak

He just needs to push through it all.

He is the great Silver Shadow after all! 

And…and that greatness can never die.

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Vinestaff laid on her bed, deep in thought. Something was off, she knew that much. Shuriken had been quiet for the last few days, and it took a lot for Shuriken to be quiet. Not only that, but Shuriken refused to look her in the eyes.

She went up and grabbed her phone.

Viney:

Sling

Sling u on?

She waited a couple of seconds as she saw Sling typing.

Slingshot:

yeah

yeah what is it

Viney:

I need to ask u

Is it just me or has Shuri been acting weird

he’s been quiet

Too quiet

Slingshot:

now that u mention it yeah

offered him his favorite snack after a long cafe shift and he said he wasn’t hungry

like huh???????????

Viney:

okay yeah sometimes def off

how do we find out tho

its not like we can just go up and ask

Slingshot:

well uh

maybe

maybe we could do some investigating

idk just search around somehow and try to find as much info as we can

Viney:

sounds cool

we r gonna be detectives and find out whats wrong

Slingshot:

yes

Viney:

u wanna meet up to talk more about this

Slingshot:

sure, the cafe work? we could act like its something boring he wouldn’t care about

Viney:

sure, 3 work?

Slingshot:

yeah that should be good

Vinestaff put down her phone, they had a plan, which was a start.

But even so, that didn’t calm her worry.

Something was wrong with her brother, and she doesn’t know what.

She wishes she did, so she could help.

But she couldn’t, at least not right now.

But she will find out, she will help her brother, no matter what she has to do.

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“Okay so, what is the plan?” Vinestaff asked Slingshot, they had closed the cafe for the day making an excuse of ‘business planning’.

“Well, we could try looking through his things?” Slingshot suggested.

“Isn’t that a bit…invasive?” Vinestaff pointed out.

“Yeah…actually, maybe asking him directly would work?”

“When has that ever worked in trying to get information out of him?” Vinestaff said, sighing “Last time he kept something from us, it took him accidentally slipping up to give us information”

The two thought back to the time that Shuriken had given Vinestaff’s plants to an inpheral, who ended up bolting. It took weeks of Shuriken hiding and denying it before he slipped up during conversion when Vinestaff’s missing plant was brought up.

But even then, Shuriken was never like this.

Shuriken was never quiet, even when hiding things.

Something was very, very, wrong.

“Well then what do we do?” Slingshot said “it’s not like we can read his mind or whatever, so unless you have a better solution…”

“...Fine, stalking it is, but if we get in trouble I am blaming you.”

“Fair”

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To say Shuriken’s mental state was deteriorating would be an understatement, first he had to deal with…that night…now he has started getting this weird feeling…a feeling he is being watched.

Whenever he goes out alone, he feels eyes

eyes on him

watching, staring.

He’s tried to ignore it, but the feeling…it just wouldn’t. go. away.

“Hey Sling…” Shuriken said, one night as the cafe was closing, trying (and failing) to hide the nervousness in his voice. Vine Staff had left already, so Slingshot was his only option. 

“Yes Shuriken?” Slingshot said, looking up from the counter he was cleaning.

“Could you uhm…could you walk to the car with me? I’ve been having this…feeling…of being watched…” 

“Of course I will Shuriken! I am so sorry you are going through that. You can always talk to me and Vine if needed.” Slingshot said, a caring expression in his eyes.

you’d hate me if I did…

And so, the two walked towards Slingshot's car…yet Shuriken still got the feeling.

The feeling of eyes on him

….

what if it’s him

he’s come for Shuriken again, hasn’t he…

his body, it’s going to be used again, isn’t it?

he’s going to be pinned down, forced to have his body used against him…

No…no he is acting like what happened that night was assault? He agreed to it, didn’t he? It couldn’t have been assault…could it?

No, he is the great Silver Shadow, he’d be smart enough to know if something was consensual…right?

why

Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy-

“SHURIKEN!”

Shuriken snapped out of his thoughts and looked up from the ball he had curled himself into on the ground.

Slingshot was looking down at him in concern.

“Yeah…yeah I’m fine…I just…nevermind.”

Slingshot didn’t say anything, just looked away as he walked towards the car. Shuriken could tell Slingshot at least doubted him. But he just walked with Slingshot towards the car.

The ride home was silent besides the songs Slingshot chose on the radio. Which Shuriken tuned out.

Shuriken was confused, in any other case Slingshot would’ve pressed him more, he and his roommates were always there to help each other during mental breakdowns, so for Slingshot to go quiet like that is…weird. But the less he has to talk about that night, the better.

They only started talking when they started walking towards their apartment. Even then the two avoided the subject. Shuriken slowly noticed the more they walked towards their apartment that Slingshot had a look of…gulit…on his face.

Well, it wasn’t like Shuriken could talk, he’d be lying if he said that he didn’t feel somewhat bad about not telling his roommates…BUT HE HAS GOOD REASON!

They’d scorn him if he did, point out how gross he was, how he was being overdramatic and everything else he already knows.

He just needs to keep up his act and everything should be fine…hopefully…