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Jang Byeongtae had always been a punching bag for people, he never did anything wrong and somehow people still kept making his life miserable.

But when he transferred to Buyeo Agricultural high he was not beaten nor bullied like he expected but instead he was respected and feared.

He was initially confused but quickly understood that they had mistaken him for someone else.

He was thankful for the guy who had made a name for himself and 'let' Byeongtae use it temporarily.

He always felt uncomfortable when people called his "white tiger of ansan" but what could he do? He had to survive.
He was sure that once the real guy came back he would be back to being whooped.

But...

......

"Hi, my name is Jeong Gyeongtae nice to meet you all"

"Huh this school aint half bad ,maybe I could get along well here"

Jeong Gyeongtae thinks while scanning the classroom.

But then his eyes lands onto someone.

The boy has a bad bowlcut but it suits him quite nicely, his eyes , oh he can't even begin to describe it and the boy was cuter than any girl he has seen.

He finds his heart beating faster and faster when he looks at the boy.

"Wait... No ,am I falling in love???"

The teacher finally tells him to go sit next to someone.

He was sat 2 rows away from the boy and all he could think was "I really wanted to sit next to him"

......

"No no no no no no no no no no no..... "

Byeongtae has already accepted his fate that when the real white tiger shows up he would be beaten but when it came to it he was scared shitless.

"Should I confess everything and hope he forgives me??"

"Or hope that he forgot about it"

"Oh no, why is he looking at me, is he thinking about how to make my life miserable?? Does he know that I was the one who put him in the hospital?? Please forgive me for taking your place as the white tiger I'm really sorry"

......

Gyeongtae glanced at the boys name tag.

"Jang Byeong-tae"

"We have similar names, we are matching like a couple"

He thought to himself , smiling like an idiot on the inside.

Finally the bell rung and the class was dismissed.

He wasted no time going up to the boy to introduce himself.

"Hi!Do you want to be friends?? "

That seemed too eager, does he think im a creep now??

"Uhh sure.??"

He could feel his heart nearly bursting out of his chest.

"Whats your name??"

He felt silly because he asked for his name while knowing what it was

"Jang Byeong-tae is my name"

"Oh we have similar names!! "

"I guess you're right"

......

Jang Byeong-tae could explode because of how nervous he was.

Is this the end???Will he expose me in front of everyone as fake?? Will I be able to run away??

"Uh sorry I have to use the bathroom, Ill be right back"

"Wait, I have to go too, lets go together! "

Oh no will he beat my ass in the bathroom???

"So.. Could you tell me about this school??"

"I also transfered here recently so I don't know much about it"

"Oh I see"

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"So when did you arrive here?"

"Oh , not long ago , I arrived here about few weeks ago"

"Hmm, where did you come from?? "

"I came here from onyang... "

......

"Do you like anyone?? "

"Well... "

"You do?? Who is it??"

"Her name is Seong-wha, she is as pretty as a flower and as kind as anyone could be"

"Hmm, you must really like her then.. "

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Cheol-hong and his gang goes to the bathroom and is surprised to find 'white tiger' and the new kid talking to each other

"Who are YOU to talk to THE WHITE TIGER OF ANSAN!!!!"

"guys calm down let's not-"

"This guy has the nerve to talk to THE white tiger of Ansan???"

"Guys! Lets just go please??"

"Hey, you bastard come here!!"

"Why should i??"

"Do you smoke?Of course you don't you're too weak to-"

Just as he was about to finish Gyeong-Tae kicked him so hard he got knocked out

"Let's go"

'Oh shit he is THE white tiger of Ansan'

"Oh uhh ok... "

'Should I just confess now?? So that I'd get less beaten later, but what if he doesn't remember and i'd get beaten for nothing?? '

"Lets go back to class , ok?"

"How did you learn to kick like that??"

"I'm not sure, I lost my memory but I'm sure I'll remember it soon"

'Oh he lost his memory??, as long as he doesn't get it back I'm good'

"You must've been a real good fighter then!!"

"You think so??"

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School has finally ended and students are going home

"Byeong-tae, lets go to my moms bakery!"

'If I don't comply with him he might beat me more later'

"Ok, let's go then.."

"Byeong-taeyah!!"

"Ho-seok?"

"Lets go home together"

"Gyeong-Tae, I should go home my mom will worry about me"

"Oh is that so?? "

"Y-yeah...!!"

'In so scared, should I just go with him??but I really dont wanna go with him'

"Ok, we will just have to go tomorrow then..."

"Ill make sure to go tomorrow!"

"Okay, bye then... "

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Both Byeong-tae and Gyeong-Tae are panicking internally after seeing each other but for completely different reasons

Byeong-tae is panicking because 'what if today is the day that he exposes me?? Will he beat me extra hard because I turned him down yesterday??'

On the other hand Gyeong-Tae is panicking because 'Did he get cuter , I really want to tell him how I feel,will he make fun of me for my feelings??"

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"Hey, did you sleep well?? You look very tired!"

"Its okay , I just don't feel well"

'Maybe I should fake being sick to go home early'

"Oh well let's go to the nurse then!"

"Ok..."

......

"Is he going to be okay??"

"Yeah it seems that way but it's best if he lays down for a bit"

"Okay I'll wait here with him"

"You should go to class, I'll be fine"

"Okay..."

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"Are you feeling okay??"

"Yeah I'm fine,don't worry"

"Since you promised me, shall we go to my mom's bakery?? "

"Okay let's go"

......

"Woah this is you mom's bakery?? This place is awesome!! "

"Well i'm glad you enjoy it here!"

"What's the cheapest thing here? "

"Why are you asking?"

"I'm really hungry"

"You don't have to pay, my mom will give it to you for free"

"Really??"

"Mm, really"

"Thank you so much, Ms. Jeong!"

"What a polite boy you are!! And thank you for being friends with my son, he is not very good at making friends so please look out for him"

"I will Ms.Jeong!!"

"Lets go to my room okay?"

"Okay!"

......

"Mmm, this is delicious!!"

"Ill go get more if you'd like!"

"No no it's okay ,thanks for asking though"

"So..., what are you doing tonight?"

"Its a bit embarrassing but I'm going on a date with Seonghwa! "

"... "

"It's awkward why arent you saying anything.. "

"I think you should go"

"Huh why?? "

"... "

"Why are you acting this way?!?"

"I..."

"You what??? "

"I..i think I like you..."

"... "

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"Byeong-tae, are you okay? You don't seem well"

"Oh ,I'm fine , lets order first"

"Okay... "

......

"You motherfucker!!"

"You only got us that day by surprise!! '

"You fucking Baker's son!!"

"... "

'Two tiger's can't live under the same sky'

"Fuck you motherfucker!!!"

"Theres more where that came from!! "

"..."

'Get out of my way!!'

"..."

"I remember now... "

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He always knew he was different from others , he never saw girls as interesting , all he found interesting was fighting.

Gyeong-Tae had never liked anyone in his entire life but when he saw Jang Byeong-tae something in him... shifted

But when he heard that byeong-tae liked someone else he felt as though he had been drenched in ice cold water, things such as " boys can't love boys", " it's a sin" ringing in his ear

He can't let go ,not when he found someone who actually cares about him, someone who didn't use him, someone who wasn't afraid of him and someone he actually liked.

And now that he rejected him he was going to make him change his mind one way or another...

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"I...like you,Byeong-tae"

Byeong-tae's head was spinning with million different questions.

'When did he start liking me??'

'If he likes me ,will he not expose me??'

'Why DOES he like me?? '

'Do I need to date him?? '

'I kinda like him too but I like Seonghwa more than him'

But he wasn't even sure about liking Seonghwa any more.

When Byeong-Tae first heard that Gyeong-Tae liked him he was shocked to say the least.

He would've never in a million years guess that Gyeong-Tae liked him.

He didn't even get to reply before Gyeong-Tae dragged him outside, he looked really sad.

"Bye, see you later..."

"Wai-"

The door shut in his face.

'I should apologize later then'

......

"You piece of shit!!!"

The boy they had just beaten up was now beating them up

"You fucker!!"

Dae-Jin and Sang-U were amazed, the boy that had transfered here today was fighting with perfect precision, it was amazing really.

After the boy was done, he turned to the two boys.

"Hey, don't tell anyone about what happened today or else..."

They quickly shook their head in agreement, which pleased the boy.Just as quickly as he arrived , he was gone.

......

"Ahh, open your mouth"

"Is this for me?"

"Mmm!"

Byeong-tae and Seong-Hwa were on a date in an expensive restaurant that Byeong-tae will most likely had to pay for.

But suddenly the restaurant door opened and a handsome boy walked in, he moved determination in his eyes.

"What are you doing here??"

"Byeong-tae , who is this??"

"This is Gyeong-Tae my friend..."

"..."

"Ah! Are you okay??What happened???"

"Byeong-tae, I have something to tell you..."

"Mm, what is it?"

"Let's talk outside..."

"Umm ok?I'll be right back Seong-Hwa! "

He was so focused on Seong-Hwa that he failed to notice Gyeong-Tae's wicked grin.

......

"What is it??"

"Byeong-tae."

"Just tell me alrea-"

Suddenly two pair of hands cupped his faced and lips clashed.The kiss was desperate and hungry.

Byeong-tae was so shocked that he did not move for a good while, when his senses finally came, he quickly pulled away.

And ran, ran like his life depended on it.

But Gyeong-Tae, he wanted more than just a kiss...

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When he finally came to a stop his lungs were on fire, his legs barely functioning, his heart nearly beating out of his chest. He didn't know where he was, all he could think was that Gyeong-Tae may be chasing after him.

He would never admit it but he liked it when his lips were on Gyeong-Tae's instead of Seong-Hwa's or that a small part of him wanted to go back or that his heart beat faster when he looked at Gyeong-Tae, not out of fear but of desire.

'Boys can't kiss boys.... Right??'

He wanted to scream, cry and laugh all at the same time but he didn't, instead he dragged himself home with what little energy he had.

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Gyeong-Tae felt really guilty but he also felt really satisfied.Since he knew that Byeong-Tae's family was poor he paid the bill for the meal.

But while he was going home, Seong-Hwa suddenly approached him.

"Excuse me....Gyeong-Tae,right?"

She was a beautiful girl but he didn't feel anything towards her, not even if he wanted to.

"Yeah,What is it?"

"I.. Want to get to know you better... Because you're Byeong-Tae's friend, Is that ok? "

Suddenly a light bulb turned on in his head

"Of course!!"

"Really?"

"...Yeah!"

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The next day , Byeong-Tae feels dread knowing he had to go to school. Because he REALLY didn't want to.

"Mom... Can I not go to school today??I feel sick"

" Byeong-Tae... Did something happen?? "

"No...nothing happened"

He felt guilty for lying but what was he supposed to say? That his friend suddenly kissed him and he never wanted to see him again? No of course not.

"On second thought,I'm fine"

"Thats good to hear"

"..."

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He felt instant regret the second he stepped outside. His whole body was aching and it was all Gyeong-Tae's fault.

When he finally got to class he immediately felt a wave of panic as he came face to face with Gyeong-Tae. His mind screaming at him to run.

But even if he ran where would he go? So ,for now he decided to ignore Gyeong-Tae.

Just as he sat down the teacher came in.

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When Gyeong-Tae woke up in the morning, pure bliss. He still felt Byeong-Tae's lips on his , he still remembered how soft Byeong-Tae's lips had been. He was going to kiss Byeong-Tae again no matter what.

Gyeong-Tae was barely holding himself back from kissing Byeong-Tae and possibly something more.

So since he regained his memory he decides to mess with Byeong-Tae a little bit.

As class ended he approached him...

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"Hey Byeong-Tae!"

Byeong-Tae's whole body froze, his fight or flight response kicking in.

"You didn't say goodbye to me yesterday, I was really hurt"

"...sorry"

"We should talk outside, 'white tiger'..."

At that moment Byeong-Tae's heart stopped beating.

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"So, I remembered something yesterday..."

"... W-what is it?"

"That I was the white tiger of Ansan... "

"..."

"Do you want to remain the white tiger of Ansan? "

He slowly nodded his head in agreement.

"If you want to remain the white tiger of Ansan..."

He then took a step forward ,the other taking a step back and eventually pushing the shorter boy against the wall.

"You just have to do what I say..."

Leaning closer , his nose almost brushing against the others.

"I... I will think about it"

As soon as he finished his words,he bolted. Gyeong-Tae was getting tired of this.

"Not again..."

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When he finally got to class Gyeong-Tae was already waiting for him.

"So did you make a decision, should I just say it right here??"

Byeong-Tae knew that he had no choice but to agree.

"... Alright, i... will do it"

"Wonderful!!"

"... So what do you want to do? "

"Hmm, ah! I know, we should skip class! "

Byeong-Tae's mom would literally cry if he skipped skipped class but what could he do? He has no choice.

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"Where do you live, Byeong-Tae?? "

"Why do you want to know? "

"So I can pick you up and go to school together."

He was shocked to say the least. But even more so when Gyeong-Tae started slowly walking closer.

"Wha-what are you doing??"

"Why?? Can't I do what I want? "

"... "

Leaning in closer and almost brushing lips. He started...

"I hope you enjoy this as much as I will... "

The kiss was slow and deliberate but it made Byeong-Tae's heart beat dangerously fast. When his mouth opened slightly, Gyeong-Tae took the chance to slip his tongue in. If it was one sided before , it isnt one now. Byeong-Tae was desperately trying to keep up with Gyeong-Tae but he just couldn't keep up.

They pulled away for air but couldn't last long , not after having a taste of eachother. The kiss had become messy, spit dripping down their chins but they didn't care, becoming more and more desperate for each other. The two had practically melted in eachother's arms before finally separating to catch their breaths.

Byeong-Tae was so focused on Gyeong-Tae , that he forgot that they were in the bathroom and that anyone could walk in and see them doing this or worse... Someone had already seen them. So to prevent anyone from seeing them, they got in a stall and kissed again...and again, shoving each other's tongue's down the other's throat.

When they were done it was practically night time, the sun had already set and it was getting dark fast.

"We should go and take our things and head home now... "

The walk there was silent except for a few awkward attempt's at conversation from Gyeong-Tae which were all shut down.

They may have missed most of the school day but it doesn'tt matter, they will do this again, gurenteed.

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He hated it, hated how when his lips met Gyeong-Tae's his heart beat faster and faster.

Hated that he had to keep doing it and that he wanted more than just a kiss.

Hated how his heart fluttered when Gyeong-Tae's tongue danced with his.

Hated that the highlight of his day was the kiss.

Hated how his guilt ate him alive because boys can't kiss boys.

He hated Gyeong-Tae and himself.

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Gyeong-Tae could not be happier, Byeong-Tae was finally his.

Despite having everything he yearned for he could not help but be sad, it was still not something that he was doing out of love, it was more like favor.

This agreement would end, it was only a matter of time and so he began to write, wrote about his feelings for Byeong-Tae, about how much he desperately wanted for Byeong-Tae to like him back.

Sure it might have looked like a over exaggeration but they don't know that all he wanted was to stop getting bullied and to have friends, but got isolated from everyone else instead. Or that the only person who saw him as a normal human being was Byeong-Tae. Or that Byeong-Tae was the most beautiful thing in the world and that he shined brighter than sun.

With each day his social life got better and better, even got to have a few friends, friends that did it because they genuinely liked him and not out of fear.

People no longer felt afraid around him, they felt comfortable around him like he was one of them and he had all this because he met Byeong-Tae.

Words could only scratch the surface of how far his longing for Byeong-Tae goes.

"Byeong-Tae my darling, my love, my sweetness, my world, my baby, my solace, my rainbow, my daily spirit, my night moon, my stars in the sky, my fire of enthusiasm, the flowers in my garden, my cooling water, my soul's life, the owner of my longing, the cure for my wounds, the soother of my heart, the light of my path, my soul mate, the guardian of my heart, the reason for my smile, the owner of my beating heart, the tune in my song, my beautiful dream, my night guard, the soother of my soul, the lamp in my darkness, the crashing of my waves, my morning sun, my gentle breeze, the refreshing rain, the calming dusk, the dew on the leaves, the sun of life, the poetry in my heart, the eternal story, the harmony of my soul, the endless longing, my completement, my final destination, my life's inspiration, the melody of my tune, my warmest hug, the smile I long for, my little heaven, the guardian of my dreams, the light of my stars, my breath, the sigh of my longing, the beat of my heart, my most beautiful night, the hope in my life, the dawn of my salvation, my bright afternoon, my calm waves, my shield of my heart, my love ark, my night blanket, my morning embrace, my universe harmony, my heart's idol, the flower sower on my path, my love lantern, the morning star in my darkness, the oxygen in my breath, my ocean of love, my living soul, the aurora of my love, the inspiration of my longing, the solace of my fatigue, my limitless happiness, and the eternal time in my life"

"I want to be his and I want him to be mine... Even so I will always respect his decision..."

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Every time they do kiss, Byeong-Tae feels like it is the best and worst thing he could ever experience, like using drugs and having withdrawals.

He felt twitchy without Gyeong-Tae's lips, and that made him feel like an utter disgrace to this world.

The guilt swallowed him whole ,not leaving a trace of pride behind.

Bit by bit ,his mental health deteriorated, but did he tell someone or better yet accept his feelings? No, of course not.

Thus' began the unraveling of Bum-tae.

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Gyeong-Tae was a simple man with simple wants. All he wanted to do in his life was to have Byeong-Tae, after meeting Byeong-Tae, he could not remember how he was living before he met the love of his life.

He did not care that it was wrong, he sinned so many times that it barely felt like a sin to like another boy.

Even if Byeong-Tae put him in a coma, even if Byeong-Tae was the Bum-tae of Onyang,even if Byeong-Tae essentialy stole his identity, even if he doesn't like him back , he would wait, wait for him to realize that Gyeong-Tae would be there ,even if he doesn't have to be with him.

It's okay because just seeing Byeong-Tae happy will bring him immense joy.

To make him happy he would do anything even if it requires letting him go.

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Even if guilt swallows him whole, he can't stop, he can't stop falling in love with Gyeong-Tae. How could he? They were both boys, boys can't love boys... Right?

Byeong-Tae hates everything about Gyeong-Tae, his jaw droppingly handsome face, his stylish har, his tall figure, lean body, kind personality, his deep voice, the way he smokes after beating someone up and even the weird way he eats ice cream.

If only Gyeong-Tae was a girl, they could be together. If he was a girl, it wouldn't be a sin. Maybe in the next life he could be reborn as a girl and they could be together.

...

Byeong-Tae can't sleep, can't eat, can't do anything and it's all because of Gyeong-Tae.

He has random meltdowns from time to time when alone. He cries sometimes, other times he smiles, laughs, shouts and even talks to himself.

How dare he make him fall in love with him!!

He is supposed to be the white tiger of Ansan not somebody who holds him close in their embrace. Not someone who makes him want to sin and definitely not someone who should make his heart race.

But he does it anyway, does it like it doesn't matter that they are sinning.

God, he hates Gyeong-Tae.

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Byeong-Tae hasn't been cheerful lately, so Gyeong-Tae using his 3 brain cells decided to take Byeong-Tae dancing hoping to cheer him up. Which Byeong-Tae had told him when they were walking home one day.

...

"Byeong-Tae, are you free tonight? "

"...yeah, why are you asking? "

"I want to take you somewhere"

"... Where? "

"Just follow me, ok? "

After a moment of hesitation and finally agreed.

"Okay..?? "

"Great!! "

...

Final bell rings and Byeong-Tae could not be any more nervous, of course why wouldn't he be nervous? God knows what Gyeong-Tae will do.

Just then, somebody tapped on his shoulder.

"Should we go now?"

"Ah! " getting so started, almost getting a heart attack from the sudden intrusion.

"Ah.. Sorry"

"You scared me half to death, never do that again! "

"Okay, okay! "

...

The clubs lights were blinding, even more for Gyeong-Tae, who had never been to these kind of places.

But seeing Byeong-Tae's face light up is worth everything to him.

...

Byeong-Tae can still remember the day he went out with his 'friends' and danced to his hearts content.

To him dancing was the only thing that makes his heart race.

When dancing, he felt at ease, every cell in his body moving with perfect harmony.

The only thing he was good at.

...

The familiar music started playing.

In which Byeong-Tae was utterly entranced in the rhythm, beginning to dance, his moves syncing perfectly with the beat and making anyone else dancing to look ridiculous.

If Gyeong-Tae wasn't already utterly captivated by Byeong-Tae, he definitely is now.

Compared to anyone he met, Byeong-Tae was the most beautiful person he had seen in his entire life and it was not because he had a beautiful face. Byeong-Tae was beautiful from inside out, every single part of him was attractive to Gyeong-Tae.

His doe eyes, horrible bowlcut that somehow looks cute on him, his soft lips, his skinny frame, his smile that showed all his upper teeth, his helpful nature and his kind and endearing personality. He loves his each and every attribute.

Byeong-Tae was dancing, but it looked like something straight from heaven. It may or may not be due to the fact that Gyeong-Tae is head over heels for him.

And now Gyeong-Tae was falling deeper into the pit that Byeong-Tae dug in his heart.

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Byeong-Tae danced for hours not caring about anything else, his worries melted away and he felt comfortable for the first time in months.

After he finished, he looked around the dancefloor for Gyeong-Tae but he was nowhere to be found.

Searching all over the place, and having no success in finding him, he decides to leave the bar.

When he stepped out the door he saw Gyeong-Tae smoking, which looked strangely cool.

"Should we head home now? " Byeong-Tae hesitatntly asked.

To which Gyeong-Tae simply nodded, weird.

...

"I had so much fun today! "

"... " Gyeong-Tae still didn't reply.

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Byeong-Tae was now sobbing, so confused about his feelings for the boy in front of him.

And then it just clicked.

He was in love with Gyeong-Tae.

Not a crush, love.

He couldn't hold it in anymore, he was going to tell him.

...

"Gyeong-Tae, I'm in love with you. I'm sorry, I know it's a sin and that we can never be together. Maybe in another lifetime, I could have a chance to meet you again as a girl. I resented you so much for my feelings but it was selfish of me to not consider your feelings too. Find someone you can be with, live your life without me, forget about the agreement, forget about everything that happened and most importantly forget me. I'm moving away tonight and before I go, I thought I should at least let you know about my feelings."

Byeong-Tae felt lighter, like a weight he didn't even know that he was carrying, dropped.

Gyeong-Tae was silent, but his head was not.

"Why aren't you replyin-"

before he could even finish his sentence. Gyeong-Tae suddenly grabbed his face and kissed him.

This time was the messiest one yet, drool was dripping down their chins and on top of it it was rough, way too rough to be called a kiss, it was more like devouring. Gyeong-Tae's tongue scraped the inside of his mouth, almost as if to wipe out Byeong-Tae's thoughts.

Byeong-Tae didn't pull away this time, only deepening the kiss because he knew this was possibly the last they will see each other again.

The last kiss before they lived their lives like this never happened.

Both of them were crying, snot and drool dripping down their chins but they didn't pull away

...

Who knows how long they stayed like that until they seperated?

But just like that Byeong-Tae was gone and Gyeong-Tae had to pretend like nothing ever happened between them.

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...

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He didn't even had the chance to give him the letters he wrote.

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Byeong-Tae was heartbroken, it hurt to walk, move, blink and even to breathe.

When he finally reached home, his parents were already in the car, waiting.

He always wanted to leave but this wasn't how he wanted to leave.

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And life goes on.

The town's people eventually forgot about the 'white tiger', the nickname reduced to nothing but hushed whispers.

...

Gyeong-Tae has friends now, his mom looks at him with love instead of hate and the person who made his life hundred times better is now gone.

Even though he can look for him, he won't.

He has to forget, just like everyone else.

The person who made him the happiest is now making him the saddest.

He can't help but sob uncontrollably when he thinks about the boy.

...

The only way to describe the agonizing pain he is feeling is with poetry.

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Byeong-Tae isn't having it any easier.

He still gets bullied, but now there's no white tiger to protect him.

Still he doesn't mind, after all it's all he deserves since he stole his identity.

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And just like that 25 years has passed.

Gyeong-Tae can't believe it it has been 25 years since meeting $@$#*@*#$.

Thinking about him doesn't work, since every single thought of his is filled with @#$*$&@#$.

He can't remember his voice, how he used to dance and even his face.

But still, he can't let go, can't let go of the broken pieces of what their future could have been.

In the back of his mind, the broken pieces of memories are still there, never piecing back together and never quite disappearing.

...

Since their separation, he has been writing non-stop, which lead him to become a poet.

A famous one at that.

...

His pain is now people's entertainment, ironic.

...

His most famous quote's includes.

“A man who yearns is a man who burns “

"You knew my heart was shattered, the least i could do was make sure you didn't cut yourself on the pieces."

"I have never wanted to consume someone so completely—mind, heart, soul—until I met you. Loving you is the most exquisite violence I’ve ever known."

"You live in the quiet corners of my mind, where even silence remembers our memories."

“This lifetime and the next, I’ll find you…always”

"I find solace in silence—a kind of peace that asks for nothing and offers everything. But your presence was like oxygen to a flame: without it, the fire never starts; with it, there’s no containing it. You don’t just disrupt the quiet—you become the reason it can’t exist. You turned stillness into heat, and suddenly, I’m no longer at rest. I’m alive. Engulfed. And somehow, unwilling to put the fire out."

His works has become a world wide sensation therefore people can't help but wonder, who is the woman the author loves so deeply?

...

If only people knew...

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Byeong-Tae is now working a boring 9 to 5.

The year was now 2013, with it came new era, technology and most of all came acceptance.

People no longer called someone a 'fag', which came as a surprise.

But what now? He has no clue where Gyeong-Tae is or what he is doing.

...

He is still in touch with Ji-Young, his old friend, who is the only person who knows about the agreement to this day.

Ji-Young had confessed 25 years ago, to which Byeong-Tae rejected.

But now she has a wife and an adopted daughter and living a good life, the opposite of what Byeong-Tae's life is now.

Byeong-Tae never dated anyone since Gyeong-Tae, never really moved on.

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Gyeong-Tae finally let go.

Because he realized that as long as he was alive, they would never meet again.

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The cold air hitting his skin hard, but his mind was somewhere else.

Didn't pay much attention to to onlookers, just silently counted down.

3

2

1

The memories came rushing back, the agreement, the warmth of his skin, his eyes, his dance and even his face.

That's it, this was what he was meant to do.

With that he took his final breath.

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The word reached Byeong-Tae, about the author that committed suicide.

At first he paid no mind, even felt a little sad for the guy.

That was until he heard the name, Jeong Gyeong-Tae.

His body went rigid.

And then...

Tears, one by one, drop by drop, until he was sobbing.

...

He had finally found him, but what now?

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Byeong-Tae was drinking away his sorrows in his apartment when the doorbell rung.

Opening the door, he was introduced to a professional looking man.

"Mr.Jeong wanted me to give this to you"

A pulled out a box from behind himself.

...

The box contained countless letters, all addressed to Byeong-Tae.

Dating from 1988 all the way until 2013,the day before his death.

Which he decided to read first, which was quite short"

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"To:Jang Byeong-Tae
From:Jeong Gyeong-Tae

Dear Byeong-Tae, if you're reading this, I have unfortunately taken my last breath at the time of you reading this. I'm sorry for not being able to live a normal life, just like you wanted. I hope you are doing well and that you can forgive me. I still love you and I still miss you. I never once forgot about us, you know I would never forget. I never stopped thinking about you, not even for a second. I left everything to you in my will as my last gift to you. And from the bottom of my heart, thank you and I'm sorry.

White tiger of ansan"

And he kept reading each and every letter, the letters all professed his love and apologizing to Byeong-Tae.

With each letter, he began to crack.

After finishing the last letter, he broke, right there in his living room.

The sight was not pretty.

But suddenly an idea struck him, a bad idea.

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The same cold air was now hitting Byeong-Tae's skin.

As he peered below the ledge, not an ounce of fear was to be found.

He felt numb and empty.

"In the next life" he muttered under his breath before falling to his death.

Thus' their love story met a tragic end.

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