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Please. Don’t come here. Don’t say anything. Don’t face me.

The violet haired knight gripped her sword. She knew those steps anywhere. Light, carefree, filled with confidence.

I do not want to know. Ricardo forgetting me, the Triplets ignoring me… even my Lady being wary of me. All I can handle. I can survive.

Her body tensed, her emotions frayed, her mind collapsing under the weight of her reality. She wanted to be far away from this location. She did not want to accept her lack of existence.

But you? Anybody but you. I do not want to see the lack of recognition, the polite smile, the confusion. I do not want to see you look past me. To no longer see me.

Please. I beg of you. Let me be…let my last memory be of your warm smile. And not cold indifference.

“Are you okay?”

The knight flinched, her mouth felt dry, her heartbeat quickened. She wanted to vomit. She did not want to turn around. But she had to. She knew how he was. She did not want him to worry. Even if he didn’t know.

She slowly turned around, fear permeating her every movement. What will he say? What will she see? Has he forgotten as well?

“Who are you?”                                                                                                                “It’s good to see you.”

Which will she hear? What will he do? What will she do in response? Will she break down? Run away? To where?

And why?

Why did she have to feel this way? Why did she have to meet him? Why did he have to enter her heart so deeply?

Why did Julyea Juukuulius have to fall in love with Natsuki Subaru?

Julyea was currently anxious. Today was a big day. It was the day when the Royal Selection would finally begin.

She had a vague idea of what was to come. Her Lady was quite well-informed of the on-goings of the capital over the last month. The Astrea’s sudden increase in protection, Reinhard’s casual evasiveness over some questions, and Captain Marcos’s increase in training and vigilance.

It all reeked of intrigue.

Anastasia Hoshin surmised that something big must be coming, and her most prominent theory is that they are finally beginning the selection process in earnest.

And as a result, her most loyal knight, Julyea Juukuulius, supposed heiress to House Juukuulius, and Royal Knight, was ready to proclaim her Lady’s claim to royalty to all who could hear.

It was her job, her duty, her honor: to do so.

But that didn’t mean that her insides didn’t feel twisted from the pressure. As much as Julyea would like to say she was fearless, she was a bundle of nerves through and through. She did not want to make a mistake and dishonor those who put so much trust into her. Not after coming this far. And not after all the trials and tribulations and mockery.

She wouldn’t have it.

So, when she met the illustrious Royal Candidate, Emilia, again, she opted to use all of her knightly training to make a good second impression.

“It is quite rare for us to meet under such circumstances, though that does not make it any less fortuitous. It has been some time since we last spoke, Lady Emilia. You are just as beautiful as last time.”

The knight bowed with grace and poise, practiced since she was young. She had recognized Emilia as she was passing by the entrance to the noble district, with what looked like a butler in tow, carrying a bag of appas. The butler wasn’t recognizable, but he was no less discernable. His hair was uniquely black, slicked back, and was just as catching as his eyes, frighteningly sharp. Despite his rather ominous visage, he had the gait and posture of a confident boy, albeit oddly tense.

“-see you are also in good health, Julyea.”

Ah. Her bad habit struck again, she often gets a little too fixated on interesting sights. She ended up not listening to the first part of that sentence.

Thankfully, her Lady taught her the two foremost skills in a merchant’s repertoire: adapt and bullshit.

She simply smiled and, “I am honored that you kept me in your memory. And may I correct an earlier mistake? I was wrong, your beauty has certainly increased since before.”

And with one fluid motion, Julyea bent down on one knee, and laid a chaste kiss on the back of Emilia’s right hand.

Compliments, a smile, and a kiss on the hand. It has worked numerous times before, especially with women, though men were often hit or miss.

“Hey!” The ominous boy got in between the knight and candidate quickly, “Stop licking her hand all over you greasy bastard!”

And it seemed this time was a miss.

Wait? Licking? Did my tongue come out?! No. I made sure not to do so. Not after last time. Ricardo wouldn’t stop laughing after I got his fur stuck on my tongue. My Lady called me a cat for weeks. Ah, I really hope I did not make a mistake…

“Subaru! What is wrong with you?!” Emilia then chastised her companion, evidently named Subaru, she then quickly bowed towards the knight in shame, “I apologize, he did not mean any harm.”

The half-elf quickly motioned toward Subaru to do the same, something he was reluctant to do, though a quick glare prompted him to do so anyway.

He bowed, with mechanical motion, and through gritted teeth, “I’m…sorry Mr. Handsome Knight. Guy.”

“Well I- wait, Mr? Guy?”

Ah. Julyea started to understand. It happened again.

Emilia pouted and pinched his ear, “Subaru! How rude. Julyea is a woman.”

His eyes widened, “W-wait, really?! She’s a woman knight. I mean, knight woman! That’s…”

While her voice wasn’t exactly masculine, it wasn’t entirely feminine. All done on purpose, she often lowered her voice’s tone habitually, as it allowed her less annoyances while working. People often respected her more. It was something she and her lady shared.

A memory flashed through her head.

It’s hard workin’ in our lines of work. Often, ya need to match the common denominator than against it. It’s why I often talk like dis. Rather than, talking like this. Merchants are often more respected when they originate from AND exude Kararagi. And I’m guessing it’s the same as you?

Adding onto that, she often wore a corset along with chest bindings. Though slightly uncomfortable, it prevented her…assets from flying while maneuvering through the field. So, her womanly features were a bit condensed. And her clothes were knightly, not tailored for feminine physique.

Don’t get her wrong, she enjoyed wearing feminine clothing, but she’d rather be practical than fashionable. Though her Lady heavily disagreed, given how many times she tried to persuade her and brought her along shopping trips.

Anyways, where was she?

Right, the boy. He looked absolutely flabbergasted. And she expected the usual fanfare.

Disgust. Disbelief. Condescension.

Oh, you are a knight? Well… good for you.

Shouldn’t you be thinking of starting a family? You won’t get many offers prancing about with the boys like this.

What if you get hurt? Your skin is so soft and clear. It would be a shame to scar it so horribly.

Her insides twisted even more.

Just the same old sh-

“So cool!”

I-what?

What?

“What?” Julyea’s eyes widened.

“You really got that knightly aura packed down tight! Now that I look closer, you definitely have the facial structure of a girl. Oh, sorry, didn’t mean to be creepy. You’re really pretty is all, nice eyes and all that. But, ah, so cool! It’s my first time seeing this trope in action and man does it not disappoint. Like a handsome ikeman!”

“Ikuhman?”

Julyeah was flummoxed. She was completely blindsided, and it didn’t help that the boy was shaking her hand up and down and vibrating with energy.

The Finest of Knights did not really know how to react. She never experienced seeing someone act this blatantly positive of her. Or complimenting her in every conceivable way.

Her eyes narrowed, a part of her was suspicious, there was no way-

Nope.

He had a stupidly large grin, and those scary eyes showed no sign of deception. The boy was completely sincere. He genuinely thought she was cool for being a knight.

That. Was new.

So new, in fact.

That Julyea could only react one way.

With embarrassment and incredible amounts of blush.

Her face lit up like a tometo and she was this close to catching fire.

And, well, the boy noticed.

“Huh, gap moe…” he whispered in awe.

Gap what now?

Filled with confusion and even more embarrassment from seeing the boy still in awe despite her ghastly reaction, she could only stutter.

“I-uh-ye-um-no-I-“

“Subaru…”

The boy froze as his ear got pinched and he was dragged away to be scolded.

Julyea, meanwhile, took the second of reprieve to calm herself down, combing her hair with her hands.

Finally, the duo returned, both of them bowing deeply.

“I am reaaaaally sorry about Subaru’s behavior.”

This time, the boy sounded genuine, “Sorry about before, I got a little too heated and jumped the gun. I saw the knight uniform and kind of assumed, that was my bad. Can we start again from zero?”

While she didn’t understand half of what he said, the pure regret in his voice for the previous offense was clearly communicated, she gave a soft smile and held out a hand, “Perhaps I should have introduced myself first, Julyea Juukuulius, Royal Knight of Lugunica.”

Subaru’s head lifted up and he grinned like a dumbass, he then stood straight and extended his own arm, grasping her hand firmly, “Natsuki Subaru! Broke beyond compare and butler to the one and only Emilia-tan!!”

His other hand extended into the sky, the motion caused Emilia to sigh in the background, “Oh Subaru…”

Julyea, however, was highly amused, “Pfft…”

She used her other hand to quickly cover mouth before she burst into laughter.

Adorable…his hands are quite soft for a man. No calluses, so he’s not a combatant? No hard labor either…maybe a former noble?

But that didn’t make sense.

His mannerisms seemed acutely improper and rude, bold and without restraint. It was akin to someone who barely knew etiquette. So not a noble but perhaps one of commoner origin? But then the lack of calluses…perhaps he worked in more delicate occupations? Weaver? Merchant?

The more Julyea focused on the boy, the more curious she got. He was a bit younger than her, more than likely 3-4 years younger, but holds no courtesy or restraint around knights. Most who grow up into adulthood understand the severity of offending a knight.

And most knights hold no restraint nor uphold their chivalrous values as much as her, the abhorrent bunch…they wouldn’t take as kindly to his offenses. So, has he never met one? Or is he new here?

His appearance screams Vollachian or Gustekan, but his mannerisms are vaguely Kararagian? She only knew Hoshin Company and the Iron Fang, but she had a vague instinct that he was similar, but she can’t seem to pinpoint why…

She was shaken out of her musings by Emilia’s voice, “Ah, apologies Julyea, but I reaaaally need to talk to the castle about something urgent.”

The knight let go of the interesting boy’s hand and opened the door to the garrison, “In that case, I would be honored to guide you both to the magic mirror.”

She watched as Subaru brought a foot forward but was stopped by the hand of his candidate, “Subaru, you wait here.”

The boy looked like his heart got crushed, and it made Julyea’s heart squeeze in sympathy, “Huh?!”

The candidate also looked distraught, her eyes wouldn’t leave the floor, “I’m sorry Subaru, but I don’t think the other knights will receive you here as well as Julyea.”

…Emilia was right. Despite her title, she was for more lenient with people than the others. If Subaru had acted that way with anyone else, he would have been challenged to a duel. And given his lack of combat ability, given his physique, he would either be grievously injured or ‘accidentally’ killed.

Still, there was one way, “Emilia-sama, if you don’t mind, I could vouch for Subaru-san here and make sure he doesn’t get into too much trouble.”

“I’m not a dog!” The boy exclaimed with indignation; however he quickly turned to Julyea, smiling warmly, “But thank you for the offer, I really appreciate it.”

COUGH!

The sudden mood swing made the knight so amused she nearly burst into laughter again, though she stifled it with a cough into her hand.

But it seems that wasn’t enough, “Subaru, we can’t bother Miss Julyea that much. It wouldn’t be right. And this isn’t about treating you like a dog, I just don’t want you to go through an uncomfortable experience.”

“…”

“…This won’t take that long, so please wait and be good.”

She then left him, going through the door. Julyea was about to follow but decided to give the boy one last look.

He looked like a dejected puppy, staring down at the floor.

Her eyes darted to the candidate, she hadn’t gone far, and then back to the boy.

“Psst!”

She got the boy’s attention as he lifted his head. She lifted her right hand and made the horned dragon sign, her index and pinkie lifted while her two inner fingers pinching the thumb.

It was a sign of victory and was also used to give people encouragement.

He raised an eyebrow and cocked his head.

…Does he not know the hand sign?

A part of her now felt embarrassed.

His eyes then suddenly widened, and he snapped his fingers, his mouth a wide O, as if he figured something out.

Subaru then smiled widely and gave a thumbs up, winking at her.

Now she was confused, but the gesture was so absurd, it made her smile. The message was clear: he was thanking her.

She felt her insides warm a little.

The knight then gave a formal bow and closed the door, catching up to the candidate and walking a little bit behind her.

“…”

“…”

They walked in silence, edging closer to the magic mirror.

Until finally, Julyea decided to ask something that was bothering her.

“…Lady Emilia, may I ask a slightly intrusive question?”

The half-elf didn’t pause in her walk but did look slightly back, “Not the best way to start a question.”

“Do not worry, though I won’t take offence if you choose to refuse a response. I was just wondering… is there a greater reason for not taking the boy with you?”

“…”

“…”

The silence was pervasive.

“…Subaru gets into a lot of trouble these days. I don’t want him to get hurt again because of me.”

Her lack of faith in her servant confused the knight but there was definite care in those words, “I see. He does seem to have a knack for…honesty.”

“Subaru is a bit rude, you don’t have to sugarcoat it that much,” the silver-haired candidate smiled as she now turned her head fully at Julyea.

Julyea returned the smile, “It wouldn’t be right of me to insult someone under your domain.”

The elf’s smile cracked, “Ah yes, my domain…”

There was something there, hiding under the girl’s mannerisms. But it wasn’t the knight’s right to intrude, “…If you would like, I could look out for the boy whenever I see him.”

“I wouldn’t want to bother you-“

“It is no bother. He is quite…interesting. It would be no hassle at all. I promise, he will be safe to the best of my abilities.”

Emilia’s smile strengthened once again, “…I am deeply grateful. Thank you, Miss Julyea.”

“It is my pleasure.”

And after dropping off the candidate at the magic mirror, she herself went home, her feet light and her body relaxed.

She no longer felt as anxious as before. Though she didn’t quite understand why.

“So, anything happen while you were out checking on the garrison?”

Anastasia Hoshin was currently getting ready for today’s event, trying on various clothes while her Knight, Julyea, was sitting nearby. They had gotten fairly close within the short time they had gotten to know each other. Both talking without their added inflections, accents, and changed voices.

To Julyea, Anastasia was an astounding woman, and someone she deeply admired.

To Anastasia, Julyea was a kindred soul, and someone she wanted in her company from the moment they first met.

“I met Emilia-sama on my way out of the garrison. She needed to use the magic mirror for an important matter with the castle,” the knight said as she watched Anastasia hold a dress in front of the mirror, frown, and throw it away.

The merchant’s interest was piqued, though not enough to distract her from picking out more clothes, “Really? I wonder why…maybe a problem that only the council could solve?”

“No idea, though she did have…no it’s not important.”

Anastasia picked up a green dress and eyed it carefully, “What’s not important? Come on Julyea, everything can and could be important. It’s a merchant’s motto.”

“I thought it was that ‘money is the end and beginning of all mercantilism.’”

“Merchants have many mottos,” she waved her hand in the air, “Now spill, what’s got you bothered.”

“…There was this boy-“

Anastasia was now right up in Julyea’s face, “Spill.”

Julyea, slightly frightened by her Lady’s sudden interest, “A-a butler. He was her butler.”

“…And?”

“…He had black hair? And scary eyes?”

Anastasia’s shoulders drooped and her eyes became bored, “Ah. And here I thought you fell in love or something,” she then turned away to continue finding an outfit.

Julyea sputtered, her ears getting red a little, “W-well, I mean, I haven’t fallen in love, per se. But he was interesting-“

Anastasia was now back in her face, eyes extremely curious, “Really? How old is he? How tall? Is he handsome? How much money does he have? When’s the wedding?”

The bombardment of questions left the knight flustered, “I-I,” she then noticed something, her eyes narrowed in on Anastasia’s smile slightly twitching.

“…You’re teasing me, aren’t you?”

“Pfft,” Anastasia chuckled as she went back to her clothes finally, “Hahaha, can’t a gal tease her best friend once in a while.”

The Finest of Knights did the finest of pouts, “…”

The merchant just laughed, “Aww, I’m sorry. But seriously, what’s got you so interested in the guy?”

“…He didn’t react negatively to my knighthood.”

“Oh~! Now, that is interesting. He must not be from around here.”

Julyea rubbed her chin, “That’s the thing. Despite my best efforts, I could not discern his origins. He seemed to have the appearance of Gustekan, or maybe even Vollachian, but his demeanor and hands showed otherwise. He wasn’t a noble, but he had no sign of labor. He was definitely not a combatant.”

“Huh, now I’m getting interested. Maybe I’ll look into it myself, see if he’s someone of value…”

Julyea put a hand up, “Please do not poach from our competitors already.”

The merchant snorted while picking up a white flowing dress, “As Hoshin once said, ‘early wolgarm gets the baby.’”

“I feel these are not actual Kararagian phrases, and you are simply making them up.”

“You’ll never know.”

The knight pinched her nose while Anastasia giggled, “What’s got you so hung up on the guy? It’s not like you vowed to serve and protect him or anything.”

“…”

“…Julyea. What did you do?”

The female knight twiddled her thumbs, trying to not look at her candidate, who was now staring at her, “I may. Have promised his candidate. That I would look after him. While he is in the capital.”

She braced herself for a scolding.

But found nothing, only a sigh, “Really? Alright.”

The knight unbraced herself, now raising an eyebrow, “You are not disappointed.”

“It’s you we are talking about. You have habit for sticking your nose in trouble, all for the sake of honor. If I didn’t expect this, I’d be a horrible merchant for bringing you into my care. I’m not disappointed. Annoyed that you decided to be the knight in shining armor for a rival candidate. But not disappointed. I’d be disappointed if you ended up going against your values instead of following them.”

“I see, thank you my Lady- “

“And,” the merchant was now checking herself out in the mirror, eyes looking hungry, “If something does happen, and you happen to help out the poor guy. That’s a favor towards us that we can exploit later down the line.”

Of course.

The knight rolled her eyes but smiled, “I would be disappointed if you didn’t take advantage of the situation, my Lady.”

Nodding in approval for her choice in fashion, she grabbed her hat and scarf and put them on, “Of course, wouldn’t be allowed to call myself greedy if I didn’t practice what I preach.”

“Though I think most wouldn’t preach what you practice.”

Anastasia ignored the prodding, “Anyways! Let’s go to the castle. It’s time to see what they gathered us all here for.”

Julyea quickly put on her Royal Knight coat and followed her Lady’s dainty footsteps.

Despite her nerves, there should be no problems with the ceremony.

No problems at all.

Why is he here?!

Julyea Juukuulius was completely bewildered by the presence of a butler who should definitely not be here in the ceremony preceding the Royal Selection.

She stared intensely as Subaru was brought in by what appeared to be Priscilla Barielle and her one-armed bodyguard. Julyea has heard of her domain through the noble channels. It has thrived despite her husband’s death, the latter being something many blame her for, given her history of widowhood. Something Julyea found distasteful.

Rumors are often just that. Rumors. Made to downplay the achievements of others. She had ample experience with those.

Though, the fact the woman is currently manhandling the boy to get a rouse out of Emilia does make Julyea question the validity of those rumors.

Still, she was more focused on the odd tension between the two, it didn’t seem like Lady Emilia was happy to see her servant here, and the boy’s face contained a strange mix of guilt and excitement.

“So, he has finally come,” said the handsome man standing right beside her.

The man was Reinhard van Astrea, who was a long-time friend of hers. Though their first meeting was…awkward. They became practice partners throughout basic boot camp.

“Oho~! It’s Subaru-kyun!” Said the effeminate demi-human standing to her left.

Felix was also a good friend of hers. Often getting along due to their personal differences from the rest of the knights. She and Reinhard always found the time to join the demi-human for lunches, break times, and dinners whenever possible.

The female knight’s eyes darted between her friends, “Wait, you both know the boy?”

Reinhard gave her a glance and smiled, “He was an instrumental part of saving some citizens from a terrible murder in the slums. I dare say that without his help, today’s events wouldn’t happen, due to unfortunate tragedy. In addition, his personality is a bit lax but humorous sort.”

Felix chuckled, “What Rein is trying to say here, is that the guy is fun but kind.”

The Sword Saint raised an eyebrow, “Ah, I guess I was a bit more verbose than I should have been.”

“Well at least you’re not like Julyea-nyan here,” Felix dramatically leaned onto her shoulder, making the Finest Knight roll her eyes, “I remember when she would speak so poetically all the time.”

“I did no such thing!” She hissed as silently as she could.

Felix did not let up, “Forsooth! This lowly squire wishes for a duel from one so magnanimous such as the Sword Saint!”

The woman blushed slightly with embarrassment and irritation, trying her best to calm herself.

She was then betrayed by her other friend, “Very well! I shall meet your challenge with gusto, and we shall have a duel worthy for future generations to speak of in hushed tones,” Reinhard said with confidence.

Betrayal. At all sides.

Her eyebrow twitched as she staved off her increasing desire to smack the both of them. Her patience was always tested but never broken by her friends.

She was about to retort but was cut off by the arrival of two new figures, Natsuki Subaru and the one-armed bandit man walking beside him.

“Yo, Rein!” He said waving.

Ah. So, he’s like that with everyone.

His eyes widened as he saw the other two next to the Sword Saint, “Oh it’s you two!” He yelled while pointing at them.

“That’s a pretty rude way to say hi, Subaru-kyun,” Felix teased him.

“Ah. Sorry,” he rubbed his neck, “I’ve been doing that a lot lately, haven’t I?”

Julyea took the chance to reprimand her friend for his behavior earlier, “Be that as it may, it is also rude of a Royal Knight to not introduce themselves properly.”

Felix fake pouted, “Technically, I already met him already…”

Reinhard didn’t miss a beat, “It is good to see you once again Subaru. When I heard Lady Emilia was attending, I expected you to be with her. Let me introduce myself again, I am Reinhard van Astrea,” he bowed slightly with polite reverence.

“Geez, you’re making me a bigger deal than I deserve,” Subaru said with an embarrassed smile.

Felix posed to maximize his appeal, “The adorable, cute-urgh!” Julyea stepped on his foot and gave him a sideways glare.

Wincing in pain, Felix gave a bow as well, “Felix Argyle, at your service,” the cat boy said in a monotone voice.

Finally, “We meet once again,” Julyea gave a picture perfect bow and smile, “Julyea Juukuulius.”

“Man, I cannot get used to your guys’ formality.”

“It is the knightly way,” the female knight focused on the man next to Subaru, “And you are? I do not believe I have met a knight such as yourself.”

“Name’s Al, and nah. I ain’t one of those high and mighty types. No offense, pretty lady.”

“Pretty? Well I- “

“Hey, you can’t just insult her and call her pretty like that, show some respect,” Subaru scolded.

“Pot, kettle, bro. Besides, am I wrong?”

“It’s not-“

“I mean yeah she’s like ridiculously pretty and handsome, never knew a girl could be both at the same time,” Subaru said with a straight face as Julyea choked.

The blush started creeping in again, “Listen- “

“Ah, you’re one of those guys who likes the princely types, I get it,” Al pointed at Subaru and nodded.

Subaru got a little flustered, “I mean a little, but come on! Look at her! She’s like the picturesque image of one of those ikemen girls. Clothes, face, behavior. Super cute but looks like they can sweep you off your feet.”

She choked again, her face darkening by the second, “A-alright be that- “

“Ehhh, I’m more into the wild girls. Or the princess types. Just feels like you’re into a dude, bro.”

Subaru looked offended, completely ignoring the trio of knights in front of him, focusing solely on Al, “That’s that, this is this. And even then, she’d still be cool as a guy. If I didn’t have Emilia-tan, I’d fall in love with her at first sight. Heck, you should see her embarrassed. Super cute. Like something out of a shoujo manga. It’s like a cuteness overload. Cute as hell. Gap- “

“Enough!” The fully ripe tometo slapped her hands on top of the embarrassing boy’s mouth, glaring daggers at him.

“…”

Al snapped his fingers and pointed at Julyea, “I finally got it. Gap moe. I was wrong, you got a point there, bro.”

Subaru glanced over at his new comrade and nodded vigorously, as Julyea felt steam come out of her head.

What does that even mean?!

Felix was barely holding in laughter behind her, “Wow. Pfft! Subaru-kyun has a talent for this. I don’t think I could ever get that reaction from Julyea, that quickly.”

Reinhard nodded with praise, “I concur. His skill in agitation is most useful in high-intensity situations.”

…These are the friends you have chosen, Julyea. Accept it.

Before any more words could be spoken, “The gentlemen of the Council of Elders and the candidates have been assembled. If I may be so bold, I, captain of the Knights of the Royal Guard, Marcus, shall oversee these proceedings.”

It was time to begin the ceremony.

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“It’s nice to meet ya, members of the Sage Council! First, sorry for the sudden introduction. My name is Natsuki Subaru! Servant of the Mather’s Domain and knight of the royal candidate, the wonderful and amazing, Emilia-tan!”

…What did he just say?!

Julyea thought this as she tried her absolute best to ignore her Lady side-eyeing her non-verbally asking, “This is the guy you want to protect? Really? This. Guy?”

She really wasn’t expecting this.

Everything was going smoothly.

The introduction of each candidate had its fair share of bumps and discussion.

“Don’t you think kidnapping a girl and making her stay against her will is shitty fucking representation for a knight?!”

Kinda.

Alright, Julyea was kind of extremely annoyed by her other friend’s antics. It seems he somehow kidnapped a child, albeit a royal candidate, and decided to dress her up and put her in this position without explaining anything.

…The Finest of Knights will have words with Reinhard after this is all done.

The girl was named Felt, and she seemed to originate from the slums, her behavior and crude language exemplify such origins.

SMACK!

“AGH! Whyyyy?!” Subaru groaned as he got kicked in the stomach by the plucky blonde girl.

…The incredible penchant for violence was also a factor. Her eyes and hair reminded her of the late prince Fourier…oh.

Oh.

Ooooohhhhh.

She’s still smacking Reinhard upside the head later.

Anyways, after confirming each candidate as legitimate, and some small disagreements here and there, each princess declared their intentions to the throne.

Crusch’s declaration to remove the Dragon Covenant was one of the most controversial. And it ignited a fire in Julyea’s heart. She always admired the Duchess, her tenaciousness and fearlessness when challenging the status quo always shined brightly from the knight’s point of view.

“You’re a man?!” The boy beside her yelled in dismay as Felix posed like he hadn’t just baited the man into thinking he was a girl for more than two days.

The Finest of Knights pinched her nose and sighed, muttering, “…At least I do it accidentally, Felix does it just to get a reaction.”

Julyea felt her eyebrow twitch as she saw Felix continue to break formal protocol. She had half a mind to walk over and smack him. Again.

…He is not escaping morning training this time.

Once the uproar regarding Crusch’s proclamations subsided, it was Priscilla Barielle’s turn.

While the woman was a tad odd, certainly she-

“Everything in this world turns to benefit me. Simply put, tis I who is worthy of royalty, none else hold a candle. Prostrate yourself or kneel, that is all that is necessary for you to do.”

…Priscilla Barielle is absolutely insane.

“Princess has weird luck. Everything she guesses is right. Rain today? She’s right. Sunny tomorrow? She’s right. Flying pigs? You don’t even know what those are, but you’ll see one flying in the distance and instantly know. Basically, if you’re on Princess’s side, you’re the winning horse,” said the absolutely insane looking man beside her.

Julyea really did not know what to think of the two. However, she decided to simply listen to what her Lady always said, “Don’t negotiate with crazy people. It’s lose-lose for everyone except them. They could blow up or lose half a testicle and still see it as a win.”

Crude as it was, her Lady had a point.

Of course, once it was her Lady’s turn, Anastasia performed magnificently.

“I’m greedy, want anything and everything. I’m not just satisfied with what I have. Fulfillment ain’t reached me yet. So, I thought, why not get a country of my own? I’m greedy. What’s mine, will always be mine. But even then, I hunger for more. And I’ll do whatever it takes to satisfy my hunger. Everyone under me is part of that drive. I’ll never throw them away for anything. So, keep watchin’ and become mine.”

Glorious. Magnificent. Inspiring.

Some may scoff at her excessive desires or her origins. Julyea would dare anyone to do so. Her Lady was someone who clawed her way up, despite all the odds and challenges. A woman after her own heart, Anastasia was someone to be admired.

Julyea did her part as well, “My Lady Anastasia is one who has mastered both emotions and logic, never letting one overcome the other during their most necessary times. Not only that, she is a sharp businesswoman, which this kingdom is in desperate need of. We’ve had countless financial crises over the last few years, stemming from numerous skirmishes, clashes, and famines. We shouldn’t ignore our nation’s weaknesses. We must acknowledge them. And set forth to improve, lest we stagnate into obscurity.”

Proud and with hand over heart, Julyea felt ecstatic to stand next to her candidate.

Which made her chest burn seeing the boy she swore to protect, left gawking in frustration as his liege walked forth with her sponsor, Roswaal Mathers.

Mathers. Quite a peculiar man, he always rubbed her the wrong way. Though he still thinks his Lady is being a little crude. Because honestly, the man may be odd, but that doesn’t mean his tastes are…extremely young.

Though considering her parents’ relationship with the previous Mathers, perhaps it’s expected that she would feel slightly antagonistic.

“Lady Emilia may have an odd appearance; no human will ignore her resemblance to the Witch of Envy. However, such details are inconsequential, a pawn does not need to be well-liked to be useful.”

Case in point, the man made Julyea go from zero to pissed in less than a second.

She had half a mind to challenge the clown for insulting his own candidate, but she stayed her hand. Her Lady’s presence and stare stopped her from acting.

She remembered what Anastasia told her days before, “Most likely, this will be where each of us candidates will stake our claim. Show off. We need to be careful, otherwise someone will take advantage of our mistakes.”

She took a deep breath and stayed calm, it wasn’t Julyea’s place. There was no need to-

“What a load of shit!”

Julyea blinked as she saw the boy angrily yell his complaint, rushing forward to be by his candidate’s side.

Julyea couldn’t help but smile at the boy’s spirit, crude as he may be, loyalty to one’s own leader should always be respected.

Which is why Julyea almost had a heart attack when Roswaal tried to flambe his servant with a fire spell, only being stopped by Emilia’s intervention with her spirit.

The Beast of the End.

Julyea didn’t know why, but her instincts screamed at her when she saw the little fluffball. The spirit was adorable, but being a Great Spirit garnered both fear and respect in equal merits. But it didn’t really explain why she felt so agitated…

“Tsk. Knew this was a ploy…”

She was spurred out of her musings by her candidate muttering softly beside her. This was all trick to show off Emilia’s true value. It gave her the strongest background of all: absolute power.

“I do not know if I am worthy of being Queen. But I desire to do my best despite how little qualifications I hold. My actions are genuine. I have much to learn but I will not hold back. All I ask is to look at me, and only me. Look at me as Emilia, and not the Witch of Frost nor the silver-haired half-elf. Just Emilia.”

Julyea found that even Emilia was able to stand tall on her own despite how everyone saw her. Though, a part of the knight had the vague idea that the half-elf wasn’t totally invested in the candidacy itself. Her words rang true but were sung with little conviction.

At the very least, it made even Bordeaux respond with genuine respect.

Everything was going perfectly.

Until, well,

“It’s nice to meet ya, members of the Sage Council! First, sorry for the sudden introduction. My name is Natsuki Subaru! Servant of the Mather’s Domain and knight of the royal candidate, the wonderful and amazing, Emilia-tan!”

Yeah. That.

Please my Lady. No matter how much you keep staring at me, I cannot take back such a promise easily.

“Who does he think he is?” “The nerve!” “What kind of bullshit…”

Julyea heard the quiet opposition building within her fellow knights, she felt her nerves start to fray, this could lead to a cataclysmic confrontation.

“-a knight must have special qualities to allow their master to become king. If they do not have the qualifications, well…”

“-Then they do not deserve the title, Margrave Mathers.”

Julyea decided to act, she made a promise after all, stepping away from her Lady’s side, “Apologies, but I wish to inquire something important with Mister Natsuki.”

She saw Subaru flinch when seeing her, he looked positively guilty, “Do not worry, it is simply one line of questioning. You may continue once I am finished.”

He didn’t relax at all, “G-geez, let a guy breathe a bit, maybe we can push this towards tomorrow?”

He exaggerated a shrug. Like an idiot.

Julyea blinked, she slowly covered her mouth, trying her best not to laugh. She couldn’t help it. The boy was adorable.

Calming herself, she decided to get serious, “Please be serious Natsuki-san. If you truly wish to proclaim yourself as Emilia-sama’s knight, you must do so.

That got his attention, “…What do you mean?”

Julyea sighed inwardly, “Let me be frank. You just announced to the entire Royal Guard of Lugunica that you are a knight.”

She turned slightly and raised her arm towards her brethren, without looking, they in turn stood at attention, swords raised, all without mistake or flaw.

“Dang. You guys practice that all the time?”

Cough.

She had to cough. It was needed. A knight cannot snort in front of the masses. It is unbecoming. Stay strong Julyea.

Ignoring Subaru looking at her like she might be coming under the weather, she decided to keep going, “We, in fact, do. We are the pillars of Lugunica’s ideals. We must be diligent, training each and every day without failure in order to behave correctly not only during our usual routines, but especially during ceremonies such as this one. All for the sake of those we swore fealty to. Do you believe you can do the same?”

Subaru’s eyes widened.

Good. He’s starting to understand what I’m trying to convey.

“…I can. I’d do anything. I want to make Emilia queen-no, I WILL make Emilia the queen.”

“Do you have the willpower, the strength, to accomplish such a feat?”

Subaru was defiant, “Determination isn’t enough. Believe me, I understand. I’m not strong. This feeling in my chest may not be cut from the same cloth as other people, not the same kind of loyalty I’ve seen before…but I won’t give in. I’ll push forth either way. I’ll make her wish come true!”

Good man! Do not back down.

She kept her emotions in check, her expression neutral, “…Is this not the height of arrogance?”

Julyea saw Subaru’s expression falter, as if she was crushing his dreams beneath her heel. She needed to do this, it was necessary.

“The world isn’t fair. Everyone is divided at birth. Hard work can only get you so far. Talent, which each of us only have a limited amount of, is split unequally. Even then, to be a knight, requires more than just that.”

The Finest of Knights spun her sheathed sword in her hand and slammed its tip into the floor with both hands, echoing within the auditorium. She heard her fellow knights follow, their sound resonating with hers.

For once, they seemed to be all on her side. The hypocrites.

The boy seemed nervous, but she continued in spite of it, “Chivalry. Honor. Knighthood. These all require loyalty and strength to enforce said loyalty. To protect one’s king from all sources of malice. You cannot call yourself a knight without having either. Even as I say such things, can you still declare you have it within you to reach for such an impossible dream?”

Her voice was cold and direct, and the boy responded in kind, “Don’t act all pretentious, I know I don’t have those qualities, nor the power to follow through on what I speak.”

“…So, you accept your weakness? It would be unbecoming of you to not do so. Though even if you had not, it would not matter.”

He flinched again, she continued, “Your next words are expected: that your emotions will spur you on into greater heights. Quite a normal but idealistic notion. However, are all challenges conquerable simply because we feel emotional? Are all hurtles surmountable simply because we are angry, sad, or frustrated? No. Such an idea would be an insult to those of the Royal Knights.”

…I learned that personally. And you must face the same.

She kept spitting venom, “Those of a particular pedigree are allowed entree into the Royal Knights, as it is the apex of knighthood. It is out of respect for their forefathers for risking and sacrificing their livelihoods for the glory of this very kingdom. You do not hold such qualifications.”

Subaru’s face twisted in outrage, “Bloodline?! No one can change that! How unfair is that?!”

You’re correct. It is unfair. And even then, bloodline isn’t enough. Gender, race, power. All matter. The world is cruel.

“As I said before, we are all made unequal. Being born is simply the starting point, and everyone’s beginning is different. From the start, we are unequal. Not everyone from noble households can become a knight. Some lack will. Just like those with talents will wither without the proper work to sustain themselves. Knights must constantly strive to be better each day, even when their fingers blister, their bones shatter, their blood seeps. They must uphold the honor they promised to protect. That is our purpose, no, our fate.”

Come on boy. This is not where your story ends. Will you falter here? Or will you stand tall even against this insurmountable wall?

“…”

Come on.

“…”

I believe in you. Where was that fire I saw in the beginning?

“…Even so, despite everything you say, I’ll make Emilia the queen.”

There we go. A spark still burns.

“You face countless rejections, why do you still not yield? What worth is there to you, what reason, for standing here? What is your purpose? What drives you?”

Subaru fidgeted. It seemed like he wanted to turn around, but his legs could not do so.

Julyea’s eyes darted behind him, she saw Emilia wearing an expression of betrayal, guilt, concern, and regret.

Ah. How unfor-

“Because she’s special to me.”

She refocused onto the man standing in front of her, hearing those words. His eyes, still scared, were resolute. Firm. He was facing her and mass scrutiny. All for his candidate.

Because he was in love with her.

Julyea felt her heart skip a beat. Her body trembled with pure excitement.

Ah. This. Is true romance.

Julyea gave a genuine, warm smile, “Magnificent answer.”

She saw the boy blush slightly, confusing her. Maybe there was actually a cold going around.

Either way, it didn’t matter, “Wait, what- “

Julyea cut him off, drawing her sword and lifting it tall.

SHING!

“Dame Julyea!” She recognized her captain’s voice behind her, especially when he used that familiar tone, “What in Volcanica’s name are you doing?!”

She didn’t look, “I am giving a naive fool what he deserves. Natsuki-san. Do you still believe, even when faced with bountiful evidence against you, that you are worthy of being a knight?!”

Subaru looked fearful his eyes darting to the sword, yet still, “I-I do! I don’t care what you do to intimidate me, I may not be worthy of the title, but I’ll still try. It’s the only thing I can do.”

She smiled. Even when faced with danger, he fights.

She readied her blade, “It will require blood, sweat, and tears. You will be lambasted every second, from every direction. To those around you, you will never be a true knight. Even then, will you still continue?”

Subaru seemed to have gained some confidence from her words and demeanor, “I don’t care about titles. I don’t care if everyone thinks of me like shit on the side of the road. And I don’t even care if the whole world hates me. I’ll still stand by Emilia’s side.”

Yes. That is the way. Even when faced with oppression, do not bend!

“I ask you finally: what will you do when you fail? What if you are unable to accomplish your goal? What will you do then?”

“It doesn’t matt- “

“It does matter,” she cut him off. He needed a better answer than that.

“…Then I’ll still stand by her side. Even if I don’t have the title, I won’t give up. I’ll make her queen.”

…Subaru. The weight of a knight is not in the title.

She swung true, Subaru braced himself.

BANG!

…he opened his eyes, and found no execution, only a sword lodged within rock before him.

Nor is it in the blood of your ancestors, or the sweat of your efforts.

She had slammed her sword down into the ground, breaking the flooring, “On this day, at this hour, in this very moment. I, Julyea Juukuulius, Finest of Knights, hereby pledge to watch over and guide Natsuki Subaru as he blazes the road to knighthood. Despite lacking all qualifications, I believe in the fire he stokes within his very Od. From henceforth, if he accepts, Natsuki Subaru will become my squire, to be trained and groomed into being a proper knight.”

She could hear gasps and muttering behind her, the other knights now understanding what she was actually doing.

Julyea found this intensely funny.

A knight shines brightest when they uphold honor even as the world spits in their face.

Because a cruel reality can never defeat a knight who dreams of romance.

“What say you, Natsuki Subaru, will you follow the will of the creed?”

Julyea kneeled on one leg, firmly grasping the handle with her left hand, while leaving the base open for one more, her eyes beckoned Subaru.

The boy darted from sword to swordswoman, before nodding quickly, he understood, “I accept!”

snort.

It was almost imperceptible, but Julyea snorted the tiniest bit from seeing him accept in such a short and blunt way in response to her long soliloquy. It was too funny for her.

She couldn’t bare to look around, but she knows it was too quiet to hear.

Wait. No. Subaru. He noticed. His mouth was twitching.

She felt her ears warm up.

Subaru decided to not embarrass her, kneeling as well, a bit awkwardly, but still grasping the sword’s base with his right hand and kneeling, mirroring her position.

She grasped his shoulder with her free hand resolutely, before grabbing his neck, and tilting it towards her, so that their heads collided softly, “Then from this point forward, your life and well-being shall be my responsibility. Congratulations, on beginning the path to honor.”

She let him go and stood, he the same, she smiled with satisfaction towards the boy.

“And if anyone wishes to harm him or be his undoing,” she grabbed the sword, tearing it from the foundations of the palace, and bared it downward, turning around the room, “Then my blade shall respond in kind.”

The Finest of Knights made sure to stare a little longer at some of the knights, some of them seemed to have been on the cusp of objecting in outrage but were silenced by her gaze. Even the nobles around the room seemed to be cowed.

Cowards. I’ll need to keep my eye on them.

“…While I find your actions sudden yet exhilarating, please make sure not to damage the castle anymore, Dame Julyea,” Miklotov said with a soft smile.

She bowed her head, not ashamed but certainly prideful, “Apologies, I sometimes get a bit too passionate. I will make sure House Juukuulius sends funds to repair the damages.”

She then motioned Subaru back towards her Reinhard, who was now standing a small distance away from the other knights. On the way back, she glanced towards Emilia and couldn’t help but frown.

…Why does she look like that?

She didn’t look exactly relieved…she looked. Sad.

Why?

Unfortunately, she couldn’t dwell on that thought, as in the same purview, was her Lady giving a polite smile while her eyes screamed death, “We are talking about this later.”

A hint of pride. But mostly death.

She felt her spine shiver, she had the vague notion that she was going to get two earfuls soon, the second one from Captain Marcos who did not hold back at frowning at Julyea. Honestly, she was quite used to his frowns by now.

Felix, however, looked like he was on the verge of dying from laughter while he stood beside his stoic duchess.

…Well, at least his demeanor had some benefits.

He’s still not getting out of morning training.

“…Hey, thanks.”

Julyea looked down and saw Subaru’s face look…guilty?

“…No need. It was the right thing to do.”

Her words didn’t seem to change anything, in fact, it only made him look worse.

…Did he see his candidate’s reaction?

She walked over to Reinhard, standing tall and smiling his always perfect smile, “Once again, I find that you both never cease to amaze me.”

“…That sounds vaguely akin to an insult.” “Why do I think your insulting us?”

Both Subaru and Julyea looked at each other and smirked, chuckling.

Reinhard looked confused, “Ah, apologies, that was not meant to be offensive. I merely find both of your actions entertaining.”

“So, it was an insult!”

SLAM!

Everyone turned their heads, the two knights and newly dubbed squire turning their heads to the front doors, as they saw an old man in manacles enter with guards at his side.

“When I’m queen, I’m tearing this whole place down. Everyone one of you fucks are going to see everything you built, crumble under your feet. So, stay tuned assholes, you’re all in for a rude awakening!”

…The last fifteen minutes were the most dramatic and theatrical part of this whole event. An old man came in, pleading for dear life so his child can save him. Felt, the child in question, opted to still leave the royal selection… only to tell the old man he is full of shit and doubled down on joining the competition, saving his life in turn.

And then Reinhard decided to be Reinhard and break the chains of the old man with a flick of his fingers…instead of just unlocking them with his Divine Protection of Unlocking.

She pinched her nose, “…Those were the big manacles too, they cost so much money to make…”

Subaru whispered, “…Pot. Kettle.”

She turned her head, “What?”

He quickly said, “Nothing.”

She narrowed her eyes, Why are pots and kettles necessary here?

Maybe it’s a Kararagi thing. She’ll ask her Lady later.

“It is my solemn duty to give my fullest support to Lady Felt, even if her dreams are destructive, surely there shall be even greater reconstruction afterwards. No matter the destination, however, I shall be by her side for every moment,” Reinhard said with piety.

…Reinhard. Please. Do not let your candidate light the kingdom on fire. We live here, you idiot.

Miklotov looked at all the candidates, before closing his eyes, “My brothers, it is time for us to begin the royal selection in earnest, do I have all of your approval?”

“I assent!” “I as well.” “So do I.”

As the sages all expressed approval, the candidates and their representing knights stepped forth. Before they separated, Julyea patted Subaru on the back.

He glanced over as she gave him a thumbs up, mimicking the hand sign he gave her once before.

Though his expression was still pensive and morose, he couldn’t help but smile at her actions, giving her the horned dragon sign in response.

Be proud of your actions today, Natsuki-san.

As Julyea walked over towards her candidate, as Miklotov started to list the rules of the royal selection, she began to reminisce.

Of her time as a young recruit, training to be a knight.

Of the amount of effort she put in, the sleepless nights and constant training, her contracts with her little buds.

Of the ridicule, the snide remarks, and the pressure she faced while climbing the ladder of knighthood.

…If someone had stood up for me back then, I wonder who I would be now.

She glanced over at Subaru one last time, his back towards her but standing a noticeable distance from his candidate, yet still nearby.

 No use pondering. The future is what matters. And I shall make sure no other aspiring fool will be trampled on before they can achieve their dream.

She arrived by her lady’s side, “Did ya have fun?”

Julyea flinched slightly, “…Apologies my Lady.”

She could hear her Lady sigh, “Again. I’m ain’t disappointed. But stop bein’ so dramatic, please. Your tendency to cause property damage is makin’ tis gal’s wallet cry.”

Julyea felt sheepish, “At your will my Lady.”

“Let the Royal Selection, begin!”

Chapter Text

“…”

Anastasia was pinching her nose in front of Julyea for the last five minutes.

“…”

It has been approximately ten minutes since the end of the ceremony. Anastasia immediately dragged the poor knight to a nearby corridor within the castle to scold her.

“…Please. Tell me. Why did you think this was a good idea?”

“It was necessary,” she flinched off Anastasia’s glare, “My Lady, I understand your doubts.”

The merchant sighed in exasperation, “I doubt that, given that if you did, you would have not taken such a terrible offer in the first place. Or committed to such a risky gamble without properly thinking of the consequences. Or decided to at least do it without the theatrics.”

“…It wasn’t that theatrical…” she muttered to herself.

“What was that?” Anastasia doubled her glare. Somehow.

Julyea blanched, “Not a thing, my Lady!”

Julyea chose to not look Anastasia in the eye, making the merchant roll her eyes, “Listen. I get you feel bad for the guy. But this is going to backfire incredibly on you.”

“…I won’t bring dishonor to your name, my Lady, I promise.”

“That isn’t what I’m worried about, idiot. I’m not worried about my reputation. In fact, I’ll probably get a boost from the lower-class given that you’re basically training a butler to be a wannabe knight. I could easily spin that story to my favor. What I’m more worried about, is that you’re basically putting a target on your back. Especially after finally getting some recognition, do you really want to throw that all away for some guy you just met?”

“…” Julyea looked down towards the ground, eyes pensive.

Anastasia’s eyes softened, walking over and placing a hand on her knight’s shoulder, “I think I know why you’re doing this. You think he’s like you, don’t you? Someone who wants to prove himself but isn’t being given a single chance. But be reasonable. His actions, his demeanor, how he got in here? It all stinks. Stinks of desperation.”

Julyea finally looked at her candidate, “But isn’t that what defines us? Desperation. We were desperate.”

“I was desperate to survive. You were desperate to prove your dream. He, on the other hand, is desperate to prove his worth to some half-elf woman who doesn’t even want it. You saw how she looked. She wasn’t proud, or flattered, or even interested. She looked…disturbed. As if she was watching an execution waiting to happen. That isn’t the kind of relationship that can last. The guy needs a reality check, not someone to placate his worries with nonsense. The faster the better, in my opinion.”

Julyea hands gripped into fists, “…Be that as it may, Anastasia-sama, I cannot sit idly by as a man has his efforts laughed at. Even if his dreams originate from misaligned intentions, that does not mean they are any less worthy of respect. Even we, people who strove towards greater designs, did not do so solely for honorable desires. You told me yourself; you did not just become a merchant simply for the money. The people around you, their lackluster expressions, their will to live dead from the beginning. It sickened you. You found the very idea of accepting one’s terrible situation as abhorrent. You chose to push forward in spite of such a mindset.”

Julyea put one hand on her chest, “Same as I, someone who pushed forward in spite of the opposition I faced. He may not be chasing a fruitful or worthwhile goal, but it could lead him down the path towards a greater future. A fork, where he can choose to be better than the sum of his parts.”

“…Or he could fall into the trap of obsession. Or simply give up and make everyone’s time worthless. Or, double down on his reasoning, rotting him from within,” Anastasia countered.

 “His motivation may prove rotten…” She pursed her lips, “…But what is rotten can bloom into wine. We can only witness such beauty if we persevere. Give him the chance to prove himself. Otherwise, no such beauty will ever come to life. The best choice is to simply wait. Wait, and hope.”

A few seconds passed as both candidate and knight stared at each other, neither backing down, before Anastasia sighed, a very long and tired breath of exasperation, “…You’re too much of a romantic softie, ya know dat? Alright. Three rules.”

Julyea smiled brightly nodding, “Yes, my Lady!”

Anastasia put up three fingers, “One: he is not allowed to snoop or even be aware of any of our operations. I don’t want to even risk the possibility that he is actually a spy for that damn clown, even if the risks are small. Two: this is not an official partnership with the Emilia Camp. We’ll play the image of being helpful charity workers to a plucky young upstart, not as supporters for what is possibly the reincarnation of the devil. Three: you are not allowed to put yourself into any compromising situations with him, regardless of the reason. This is simply knighthood training. Nothing more.”

Julyea bowed, “Thank you, once again, my Lady. Your wisdom precedes you.”

Anastasia waved her hand in the air, “You’re lucky I like you Julyea, otherwise I would have dumped you the second I saw you slam that sword into the ground.”

The merchant rubbed her temples, “Now I gotta think of a way for us to profit off this idiot.”

Julyea raised an eyebrow, “I thought you said you did not want him involved in our operations.”

“Yeah, if he is a spy. But if he turns out to be harmless…it wouldn’t do any harm to see if he has any worth other than being an investment project for you. Who knows? Maybe the reason that half-elf took him is because of something we can’t see. As Hoshin once said, ‘never ignore a stone that could shine with polish.”

“Wouldn’t that suggest you believe him to be more than just a simple wannabe knight?”

“Don’t push it Finest Knight.”

The violet haired pair chuckled and joked as they walked out of the corridor, moving down the halls to leave the castle.

“…fair…you…no…why?”

Julyea’s ears perked up and Anastasia’s intuition resonated, both turned their heads to the doorway coming up. The one where Roswaal Mathers stood in front of.

The margrave noticed them, bowing slightly, “Ms. Hoshin. Dame Julyea. What a pleasure to meeeeet you once more.”

Anastasia and Julyea put on their masks, bowing and smiling with practiced poise.
“The pleasure is ours, Margrave Mathers.” “My my, you flatter dis gal with such politeness.”

The head mage eyed Julyea, “I must thank you as well, since I wasn’t given the chance earlier. Thank you for giving my servant the chance to become a proper knight, especially after such a shaaaaameful performance on his part.”

The Finest Knight and Greatest Businesswoman both internally rolled their eyes. Both simultaneously thinking,

You only wanted him in that room to bolster your candidates’ threat level. The boy didn’t even know the plan, given his reactions. You are just as responsible for that as he is.

Instead of saying that out loud, Julyea curtseyed, “You have nothing to thank me for. It was my obligation as a knight to pave Subaru-san’s path towards a bright future.”

Julyea and Anastasia couldn’t help but try eavesdropping on the conversation within that very room Roswaal was protecting, but they could only hear one or two words every several seconds.

Roswaal’s expression was unreadable, “A bright future, ay? Yes…he indeed chose an incredible path, one even I never expected.”

Julyea raised an eyebrow, but before she could send a further inquiry, the clown cut her off, “Please send my regards to your family as well. It would be discourteous of me to not acknowledge their long-lasting friendship with House Mathers, especially when their heir is supervising one of my employees. Did you know that my grandmother was especially close to your family?”

Julyea hid a shudder, she did know. The stories that her aunt and uncle told her painted a…colorful history between her grandparents and Roswaal Julia Mathers.

The knight chose to lie, “I did not, I shall let my family know, regardless…I would like to- “

SLAM!

Out popped the man of the hour, Natsuki Subaru, fuming and looking like he was at the point of tears, before running down the hall, not even looking at his master or anyone else for that matter.

The magician looked at the pair before eyeing inside, walking in slightly to block the view, “Yes, well, it seems our greetings must be kept short, I muuuuuust attend to my ward. Please do keep a watch over Subaru…he can be quite the handful.”

He then shut the door slowly, Julyea caught the image of the silver-haired half-elf behind him. Her back was towards them, but her posture reeked of morose sadness, not even moving as her contracted Great Spirit flew around her.

The candidate and knight looked at each other, Anastasia choosing to speak first, “…Alright. Go ahead and see what’s up with the poor guy.”

Julyea was surprised before smiling, “…Thank you for your leniency, my Lady. I’ll at least escort you towards the carriage and have Mimi protect you on the way home.”

Anastasia giggled, “As expected of my wonderful knight, courteous till the end.”

Now, where did he run off to?

Julyea wasn’t sure what the boy’s goal was. Asking merchants, shop owners, and passing civilians all pointed his movements toward a deeper area of the commoner district.

She walked up to a nearby appa stand, “Excuse me sir. Have you seen a boy this tall? Sharp eyes? Servant attire? He ran towards this area not too long ago.”

The man stroked his chin, “Not quite sure…why? Is he in some kind of trouble or something?”

She shook her head, “Not at all. He’s my newly recruited squire and I wish to find him so that we can begin his training. He ran off before I could introduce him to his future lesson plan.”

“I see…ah!” The scarred man snapped his fingers, “I now remember. Scary looking kid in a butler outfit. Almost forgot. He ran down that alley. You’ll probably be able to find him somewhere in the slums.”

She was getting closer, smiling slightly she thanked the man, buying two appas as thanks. The man’s mood seemed to brighten thanks to her patronage.

Before she could leave, he asked one last question, “Sorry, but. I gotta ask. You going to punish the guy for running off on ya?”

The finest knight was confused, though she decided to keep up the façade, “While duty dictates such a punishment, I am not one to automatically follow such rules when given certain circumstances.”

The shopkeeper hesitated before finally relenting, “Just…take it easy on the kid. He didn’t look like he was having a good time. I obviously don’t know him that well. But…he seems like a good kid. That’s all.”

Julyea blinked before smiling, “You are very good man yourself.”

The scarred appa salesman looked away, his ears red, “Yeah, yeah. No need to butter me up when you already bought something…”

She nodded as she went towards the alleyway the man pointed to earlier.

Julyea tried to keep her facial expression stable as she walked passed multiple homeless vagrants digging for scraps in the garbage while eyeing her warily.

She didn’t blame them. A knight coming around this area was often looking for trouble. Not many patrolled this area looking for anything else. Only Julyea and Reinhard took the time to do so normally. Though, she did spot some knights sometimes coming by on a whim, albeit rarely.

Keeping her wits about her, the knight pressed forward while watching for any sudden movements. Thievery could come from any corner.

“Hey, get your hands off of me!”

…And sometimes degeneracy can originate from anyone.

Julyea grasped her sword with one hand as she moved towards the source of the commotion.

Turning the corner, she was both surprised and not surprised.

It was Subaru. Being manhandled by two knights, one of them holding him up by the collar, the other just watching. The latter noticed her approach and blanched.

“W-wait- “

“What is going on here?!”

Julyea stormed towards them. The knight holding Subaru turning his head towards her, then back to Subaru.

And then immediately whipping back to the Finest Knight, fear permeating his face.

“D-dame Julyea we can expl- “

“Explain why you are choking my squire by the collar, in the slums, like a bunch of hoodlums looking for their next prey? Yes, please do.”

Both men eyed each other before dropping Subaru, who was glaring at them both fiercely, a black eye starting to form on his right.

The first knight pointed towards Subaru, “This cur insulted us despite our desire to help him!”

Julyea, still angry, glanced at Subaru, “Is this true?”

The sharp-eyed boy was still glaring, “Not at all! Dumb and Dumber here followed me, looking for trouble. When I told them to buzz off, they insulted Emilia-tan.”

The other knight chimed in, “He insulted our knighthood! Made a mockery of our order and lambasted us when we tried to give him advice.”

“What advice?! All you said was, ‘keep your wits about you, lest you be struck unaware.’ You’re basically saying one of you assholes is going to jump me out of nowhere. Hell, you did just that!”

“Let that be a lesson to respect your superiors, squire,” the knight spat the last word with vitriol.

“Enough!” Julyea pinched her nose, “Tell me. Is this how proper knights are supposed to act?”

“Dame Julyea, you have to understand- “

“Answer. The question.”

The knight shut up, his friend spoke next, but had a tinge of fear within his voice, “N-no. No this is not how we should act…”

“Yet you still did as such. Mind you, I understand that anger flares when a person slanders you outright, even if your intentions were pure or noble. But that does not give you the right to abuse your authority nor your physical prowess to harm a civilian just because you have been slighted.”

“But he is a squire!”

“And you are a knight, with several years of training. He is but a squire for less than a day. A title is only that. A title. Do not use it to justify cruelty. You sully the very essence of chivalry by doing so. Now, what was that about insulting Lady Emilia?”

“…”

“…Does your tongue only complain? Speak!”

“…”

Subaru chose to be the bearer of bad news, “They called her a half-devil. And they also said she and I deserved each other, given how unruly and disgusting I act.”

Julyea’s anger flared even more, “Is this true?”

“…”

“…Yes. Dame Julyea.”

She closed her eyes before quickly opening them, a bit calmer, “…I understand that you are afraid of the Witch. Her stories have plagued us since we first started walking as newborns.”

“Hey- “

Julyea gave a sharp look at Subaru, this was not the time or the place.

Luckily, the boy shut up, albeit begrudgingly.

She then sighed and refocused on the two in front of her, “That being said. Lady Emilia is not her. Even if her appearance is akin to that demon. They are not the same. To even imply such a claim would be an insult to our very creed. We were founded to follow the ideals of Sword Saint Reid. The very man who sealed the Witch hundreds of years ago with the Holy Dragon Volcanica and Great Sage Shaula. The same dragon who chose Lady Emilia as a possible representative of his will, to lead us to a brighter tomorrow. The very act of insulting her, and her qualities, would be insulting Volcanica’s wisdom. Are you implying to me that Volcanica is flawed? That you know better than him?”

The two knights froze, almost whimpering, both saying, “N-no miss!”

“That’s what I thought. You acted rashly. Took the injuries to your ego as rightful cause for abhorrent action. You should be ashamed of yourselves. You are knights. Not vagabonds looking to sate their bruised pride. Pride means nothing when all you do is waste it. What are your names?”

The one on the left flinched, “M-Mikhail, miss.”

The one on the right spoke fast, “Samuel.”

She glanced from one to the other, “You will be reporting to Captain Marcos what transpired here, leaving nothing out. Nothing. I expect you to describe how you antagonized the boy, lost control of your anger, and nearly brutalized him simply because you were offended by his words. You will also include your disrespect towards Lady Emilia. Do not try to soften your actions under any means, I will be discussing this personally with Captain Marcos myself.”

“Dame- “

“If,” her voice became dark and vicious, oozing bloodlust, “I find that you disobeyed my orders. Portrayed yourselves as victims in any shape or format. Or simply misconstrued the events to even be a margin within your favor. I will personally shatter your swords. Drag you to your noble houses. And flog you publicly until you are begging for mercy! Do I make myself clear?!”

Both Mikhail and Samuel were shaking, barely able to make eye contact, “…”

“I said, do I make myself clear?!”

“Yes!” They squeaked.

“Good, now go. Captain Marcos will be in his office for only the next thirty minutes. And I have a scheduled appointment with him tomorrow morning. Do not be late.”

The pair of knights, pure white as ghosts, shuddered and ran towards the castle, slowly disappearing out of sight.

“Wow, remind me to never piss you off.”

Julyea sighed as she turned towards Subaru, “And remind me to fix that crass mouth of yours whilst I train you to be a proper knight.”

She walked towards him eyeing his wounds. He had some scuffs, scratches, bruises, and a black eye. Nothing too serious though.

“Hey,” hearing his voice, she looked at his face, the boy appeared guilty, “Thanks. For saving me. You didn’t have to do that.”

The Finest Knight huffed, “That is where you are wrong. A knight must always defend the weak.”

“…Then why didn’t you defend Emilia,” Subaru muttered.

Julyea raised an eyebrow, “What was that?”

“Nothing.”

Her eyes narrowed, “Do not mistake my question as ignorance. I just need to confirm if you are insulting me or not, before responding.”

“I’m not insulting you!” Subaru lashed out, before backing down a bit, “Sorry. I didn’t mean it to come off like that. I just…want to know why you said all those things here, but not back in the castle.”

“…” Julyea looked into his eyes, he earnestly was asking this. It confused her slightly. The answer should be obvious, but the boy was ignorant. Way too ignorant.

As if he had no idea how this world worked…

In any case, he deserved a proper answer, “It was not my place.”

“But you’re a knight!”

She nodded, “Indeed. My role is to act as a stalwart pillar for those who need me. However, Lady Emilia has no need for this. She is powerful, as shown by her spirit.”

“That doesn’t mean she’s invincible!”

“You underestimate her, she has the capability. While she may not be perfect, that does not mean she lacks the willingness to fight back, as we both saw personally.”

“That’s not true.”

“Is it?” Julyea stared into his soul, “From my point of view, Lady Emilia was handling herself quite well, in spite of the jeers from the crowd.”

“…She needed people on her side.”

“Margrave Mathers was on her side,” kind of, despite his disgusting behavior, “and so were you.”

“Then why doesn’t she want me there?!” Subaru shouted, tears threatening to spring out. He looked away angrily.

Ah. This explains everything.

“…Is that why you ran away?”

Is that what drove you to claim you were a knight? To find a place beside your beloved?

“…”

“…”

He still wouldn’t look her in the eye.

She sighed, “…Sit down.”

“What?“

“Just sit. It will be easier this way.”
Subaru’s frustration morphed into confusion, he obliged, wincing on the way down.

Julyea eyed the floor and opted to sit on the cleanest area possible, right next to Subaru, before holding out her hand, “Kua. Please come out and help me heal this poor boy.”

Suddenly, a soft blue flight flickered within her palm before resonating and shining brightly, swirling around her hand happily.

Subaru’s eyes widened, “That’s a spirit.”

She decided to not comment on his obvious statement, simply chuckling, “Indeed. A water spirit. I am a spirit knight if you could not tell.”

Subaru nodded, “Emilia-tan told me. Said you were one of the most talented Spirit Art Users in all of Lugunica.”

She laughed even more, “Quite flattering words given how powerful she is as well.”

She saw Kua flow around Subaru, channeling water magic, and healing his wounds fully.

“Wow, I can never get used to how convenient magic is.”

Those words made her frown, “Did you not grow up around magic users?”

He looked embarrassed, “W-where I’m from, it isn’t exactly common. And well. My gate isn’t exactly developed well. It’s why I’m here actually. To get it looked at by Felix since I kept stressing it.”

“I see…”

…Julyea had so many questions, since none of that made any sense. It did not go along with any of her previous theories at all.

She noticed Kua still flying around Subaru, not quite leaving him despite her job being done.

Huh, maybe his affinity is quite high…

Not many could attract a spirit to them. And not many could do so while Julyea was around, given her Divine Protection.

Just as soon as she thought so, Kua noticed her staring and quickly darted to her, disappearing to where the others lay dormant.

Subaru must have thought she was staring at him, “What? Do I got something on my face?”

She smiled, putting a pin in that little theory, “Just wondering what caused you to stress your gate. You seem well aware of how weak it is, were you forced to do so?”

The boy looked at her, before folding his arms around his knees and staring off into the distance, “Kind of, I…wanted to help. These kids were in danger. Wolgarms put curses on them and kidnapped a little girl I knew. I couldn’t just sit back, so I went after them. And well…lots of bad things happened but we all got out safe and sound. Well, I did get a bit hurt. And I had to use some Yin magic. But yeah, everything worked out.”

She stared at him, “You. With no combat experience. Decided to fight packs of mabeasts in order to save children despite having limited options to fight them.”

Her eyes seemed to make him uncomfortable, as he leaned back slightly.

“…Yeaaah?”

She continued to stare at him before clasping him on the shoulder, “I was right. You do have the makings of a proper knight.”

Subaru’s eyes sparkled, “I do?!”

“Indeed, any person can strut with a sharp weapon and exclaim virtues as if they were common icebreakers. However, rarely, do we find heroes who will risk their lives for others for little gain, especially when they have every reason not to do so.”

“Hero…” he said it like he was deeply inspired.

Julyea saw that his inner fire was igniting once more. It reminded her of something. Something from the past.

“…I was like you once.”

“Really?”

“Weak. Stubborn. Fragile.”

“Okay, you don’t have to- “

“Oddly defensive.”

“…Point taken. How about handsome?” He posed obnoxiously.

She almost snorted, choosing to chuckle instead, “Yes, I was considered a handsome woman from time to time.”

She laid back and began to reminisce, “I always loved reading stories of knights rescuing princesses from monsters as a child. Many kids my age did. But I was enraptured. Furthermore, I was more interested in the knights, rather than the princesses like most girls. I wanted to be like them. Clashing against evil, fighting monsters, saving the innocent. It was all I ever wanted. I wanted to be a knight. To attain my dream and make myself proud.”

“…And then reality came crashing down on me.”

Subaru was sympathetic, “…What happened?”

The knight shrugged, “Life did. A noble girl, especially one who was chosen to lead the household, desiring to be a knight rather than a proper maiden? It was a scandal. My dream was constantly criticized and looked down upon. The only reason I wasn’t fully reprimanded was that Duchess Karsten was of similar mindset. Despite being younger than me, she ended up being my role model, trailblazing and becoming a model example of leadership. I used her as an excuse to be strong. To practice swordsmanship rather than any artistic endeavors. To use footwork for battle rather than dance. To adventure across the forests near my home, so that I can find beasts to slay. I was a little girl, constantly dreaming of chivalrous romance.”

Her eyes darkened, heavy, “And because of my dreams, I ignored reality and nearly paid the price.”
Before Subaru could comment, she continued, “Joshua. My brother. He was often sick. His body was weak. Yet, because of my constant dreaming, I believed I could keep him safe. That I could care for him, despite his weaknesses. So, I took him on an excursion to see a local pond I found. Where little bugs flickered and shined brightly. And at first, things were fine. No monsters, no falls, no pain.”

“…And then he started coughing. He wouldn’t stop. No matter how much I tried to help, his body couldn’t take the physical activity mixed with the sudden foreign environment. He nearly died. Not because of some large beast or because of some deadly trap. No, it was because his big sister let her dreams guide her and blind her. I…could have killed my brother due to my pride and negligence.”

“…”

Now she mirrored Subaru, bringing her knees close to her chest, hugging them close, “My Aunt and Uncle scolded me. I deserved every scathing word. I made a promise to myself, to never make that kind of mistake again. And I followed it religiously. I stopped practicing. I stopped going outside. I treaded the path of the maiden rather than the knight. It was my duty. My penance for failing.”

Julyea felt Subaru’s hand touch her shoulder, “…I’m sorry.”

She smiled softly at his empathy, “Do not be. My story did not end there. I followed such rules for two years. After that amount of time, it felt like my dreams were simply childhood fantasies. The whims of a child who knew nothing of the broader world. Following my Aunt’s teachings diligently, I went to shop for groceries for evening supper, alone. I explored the merchant district and efficiently found each and every ingredient. I even had time to spare, so I decided to walk along the roads, taking the scenic route back… and then it happened.”

She looked fully at Subaru, laying her cheek on her legs, “A boy was crossing the street. A carriage was going out of control. The driver could not stop in time. The boy was too scared to move. And no guards were around. In that very moment, I had a choice. And you know what was funny? That choice didn’t matter. Because I never even stopped to think about it. All I did. Was move. Moved faster than I ever had in two years. I dived, caught the boy in my arms, and just barely dodged the carriage with both our lives intact.”

“That’s amazing,” Subaru’s eyes sparkled.

“The aftermath was more amazing. I realized something in that very moment. I realized…if I hadn’t trained all those years, I wouldn’t have been able to save that boy. If I didn’t have that urge, that immense drive, the boy would have been dead. Just as my dreams nearly caused the death of my brother, the fruits of my labor from chasing such a dream, allowed me to save another. Simply put, I realized that in my pursuit of finding penance, I had ignored the positives that came about from such childlike wonder. That I could do good. That my dream wasn’t dead, it just needed refining. And on that day, I did not cook supper. Because I was kicked out of my house.”

Subaru’s jaw dropped, Julyea found it hilarious.

She giggled, for the first time in a long time, “Your face is quite humorous.”

Subaru shut his mouth with his hand, making Julyea nearly burst out laughing, “I can’t help it…it’s hard not to get invested in your story. What made them kick you out?”

She stopped holding her legs together and simply stretched them forward, “I decided to pursue my dream again. I announced it to my whole family. And so, they gave me an ultimatum: either give up on such a silly concept or pursue the sword fully, leaving everything behind. I chose the latter and ended up without my family name. Joined the knight’s order, crawled my way through so many trials and tribulations, that I was considered Marcos’s second in command, unofficially. As a result, my family heard of my exploits and finally welcomed me back. Granting me the right to be heir and allowing me to be called Julyea Juukuulius once more.”

“Wow…that’s just. Wow. Incredible,” the boy was awestruck.

She decided to gamble, as her Lady called it, and see if the boy would finally open up, “…The reason I’m telling you this is because I want you to know that not all stories are smooth. Every road is bumpy and the path you will take will be just as treacherous as mine. Where you will face countless moments of doubt and self-reflection. Where you will feel the weight of your actions, and guilt beyond repair. Where at the end of it all, you will have to make a choice. Give up. Or improve.”

“…”

“…Well, at least that’s what I- “

“I messed up,” she silenced herself as Subaru finally started to word vomit his emotions, “I think…I didn’t realize how badly my actions would hurt Emilia. I thought I was doing it for her…when I was probably just doing it for myself. I wanted to pay her back. Because she’s done so much for me. She was the person I could rely on the most since arriving here. I wanted to be someone she could rely on as well. Someone she could trust. Someone she could always know to have her back…and I ended up doing the opposite.”

He continued, his eyes becoming more clear, “I think I did what you did. I followed this…dream. Without looking at her, and what she wanted. She wanted me to stay behind. Relax. Not cause trouble. I made a promise to follow what she ordered. And I broke it so easily. And for what? All I did was make her cry…make her feel like I didn’t care about her feelings at all. It wasn’t worth it. It wasn’t worth doing it for her sake. It was just so I can feel…useful.”

Julyea saw Subaru shoulders were less tense, as if his body was finally letting the pressure off, she decided it would be good to chime in now, “I do not believe it was wrong of you to express your loyalty so strongly. Sure, you should have listened to your candidate, but the strength of your emotions resonated with me. And I’m sure it resonated with others too. You simply had the wrong method. You chose to let your insecurities cloud your head, rather than let your heart guide you.”

“…You’re right. I did do that. God, I’m such an idiot,” the boy put his hands on his face.

She patted him on the shoulder for solidarity, before standing up, right in front of him. “You might be, you might not be. The answer to that question depends on whether you will choose to stay as such or whether you choose to go and make amends. What is your decision?”

She extended her hand down to him.

Subaru thought for a moment, before unfolding himself, and locking hands with the knight, pulling himself up, “I want to go talk to Emilia. I want to tell her how I feel. And…I want to apologize to her for being such a dunderhead.”

Julyea cocked her head, “That is quite an ancient word, not many use it often. Were you raised by your grandparents?”

Subaru just chuckled, “Ha! Nah, it’s just an inside joke.”

“I see…”

Subaru wiggled his eyebrows and grinned at the knight, “You jealous? Don’t worry, we’ll think of one together.”

She sighed, turning around and walking towards the commoner’s district, “I am starting to regret recruiting you…it’s just like Felix all over again.”

Subaru chased after her, “Hey, hey, hey! I’m nothing like that guy.”

She raised an eyebrow, “Are you sure? Will I not be surprised by you suddenly wearing effeminate clothing?”

“…”

“…Subaru?”

For some reason, the boy just started walking faster than her.

“…”

“Subaru. Answer the question.”

He started running faster.

…Well, at least this won’t be boring.

She sprinted after him, “Subaru. You still haven’t answered my question.”

“How are you so fast?!”

“That isn’t a proper answer.”

“Goddamnit, let me be evasive!”

“No.”

For the whole time they sprinted back to the noble district, she had the widest smile.

It was the most fun she had in a while.

Chapter Text

“Subaru-kyun, could you please sit still?”

“Is healing magic supposed to tickle this much?”

“Yes.”

Julyea hit Felix on the head, “No. It should not. Felix, stop teasing Subaru and heal him properly.”

Felix pouted and stuck his tongue out, “Come on Julyea, let a guy have his fun. And call me Ferris.”

“I am not doing that.”

“You said you would when we are off duty!”

“We are not off duty now,” as Julyea said that, Felix gestured around them.

They were in casual clothing.

There were snacks and drinks placed leisurely on the table.

“…So, when are you off duty?”

“At approximately the second hour of water time until the first hour of wind time.”

“…So, when you’re asleep,” Felix stared at Julyea incredulously.

Julyea stood proudly, “A knight is always on duty.”

Subaru moaned weakly, “Is this a bit…are you guys doing a bit right now?”

The boy was currently nursing muscle pain on the living room couch of the Karsten Mansion. Subaru was in a black t-shirt and grey trousers. Julyea in similar wear, her usual bindings and knightly clothing absent, except for her sword which was always next to her. Felix had just returned from his duties and was still in his royal guard uniform.

Julyea smiled as she stood over Subaru, “While I do not understand what you mean by ‘bit,’ this is a usual argument between me and Felix.”

“Ferris.”

“Nope.”

Felix threw his hands in the air, “Is this because I missed morning practice again?!”

Julyea smiled maliciously, “Oh do not worry about that. I have no business meddling with your schedule. You are busy with your work at the Healing Institute, after all.”

Felix looked at her suspiciously, “Soooo, you aren’t going to chase me around all day with a wooden sword, screaming bloody murder, to make up for lost cardio?”

“She did what now?” Subaru looked rapidly from Felix to Julyea and back to Felix.

Julyea kept smiling, though her eye started to twitch, “Of course not. Knight’s honor.”

Felix rubbed his brow with exaggerated relief, “Phew! I’m glad that chapter of our lives is finally-“

“However.”

“-of course,” Felix deadpanned at Julyea.

Julyea smiled even brighter, “You will be also happy to know that you have been given the illustrious position of Royal Knight Ambassador for the visiting Kararagian mayors. Captain Marcos will brief you on the details later-“

“I would like to apologize,” Felix got on his hands and knees in front of Julyea, “Please don’t make me do that, that’s basically torture!”

Julyea got on one knee and put a hand on Felix’s shoulder.

Felix raised his head, eyes tearful and filled with hope.

“…Permission denied.”

“Oh, come on!” Felix shot up as Julyea gave him an unimpressed look, “Do you knyow how boring those old men are?! All they talk about is coins, property values, and their receding hairlines. This is unfair Julyea! Shouldn’t there be a vote for this?”

The Finest of Knights stood up and rolled her shoulders, “We did. During morning practice, we discussed who would be the most fitting to welcome the mayors. Given that you were absent, we assumed that you would have the energy and courage necessary to fulfill such a duty.”

Felix looked at Julyea, betrayal seeping into his bones, as the woman smacked Felix on the back, “I fully believe in your capabilities my friend.”

“Please stop believing in me. Your belief gives me pain.”

Subaru chuckled, wincing in pain, “You guys seem really close. How long have you both known each other?”

Julyea looked at Felix, cocking her head, “I’d say around 6 years now. Felix only joined the Royal Guard recently, but he and I were acquainted earlier due to his volunteer efforts at the Institute.”

Felix giggled, “You should have seen her Subaru-kyun, I’ve never seen a girl that bloody and beat up before. Julyea always got into fights back then.”

Memories flashed through the young woman’s mind, not all of them pleasant.

She fought back the urge to flinch, simply focusing on the good parts, “Yes. Felix is well-acquainted with my more…nasty attributes.”

The cat boy huffed, “Oh come on. It ain’t nyasty to fight back against some assholes- “

“Language.”

“-some dickheads,” Julyea rolled her eyes as Felix grinned, “Who want to be all macho and try to fight you just to prove a point.”

Subaru appeared concerned, eyeing the female knight, “Does that happen to you a lot nowadays?”

She smiled and walked over patting Subaru softly on the head, “You have nothing to worry about, most of the knights have learned their lesson. No one will try to hurt you because they have a grudge against me.”

Though given yesterday’s annoyances, I might need to remind the whole order about proper etiquette…

Her words didn’t soothe his worries however, he blushed a little, “N-no, I’m not worried about me per se. Like I obviously don’t want to get beat up. But…I guess it just sucks that you had to go through that sort of thing. It doesn’t sound fun, is all I’m saying…”

Her smile became brighter, she patted him again on the head, “It seems I am quite lucky to have a squire interested in my wellbeing.”

Felix chimed in, “Oho~? Am I intruding on some illicit love affair between a knight and squire? How scandalous~.”

Subaru grimaced, angrily spitting, “I am not cheating on Emilia-tan!”

This startled Felix, making Subaru immediately, backtrack, “S-sorry! Sorry…that was uncalled for. I’ll. Imma go take a walk if you don’t mind. I think you healed me enough.”

Before either of the knights could protest, Subaru stiffly got up and walked out of the room, closing the door softly.

“…”

“…Sorry Julyea, I went too far.”

“No, no. It’s alright,” Julyea sat where Subaru laid, his warmth still permeating the cushions, “It was my mistake…I shouldn’t have teased him like that. He must be still nursing those wounds from yesterday.”

“She left?!”

“…Apologies Subaru-kun. Emilia-sama decided that her business here was over…but she left me a message for you.”

They arrived back at the noble district and Julyea escorted Subaru back to the Mather’s residence. However, just as they arrived, someone welcomed them in with a complicated expression.

The blue-haired maid, Rem, handed Subaru an envelope with Margrave Mather’s seal. Subaru hesitated before taking it.

“I can’t believe she would just leave without talking to me…” his brow furrowed, his expression filled with anxiety and guilt, he quickly ripped the envelope open and started scanning the paper thoroughly.

As he did, Rem walked over to Julyea, bowing slightly, “Dame Julyea, thank you for assisting Subaru-kun. If it wasn’t for you, who knows what could happened to him…”

The knight smiled softly, it was obvious the maid cherished the young man, given her tone and words, “Raise your head Lady Rem, I did as any knight should, championing those who wished to rise above their station.”

“Their station-“ The maid muttered those words softly before shaking her head, “Be that as it may, you deserve our gratitude for taking care of Subaru-kun while he remains at the capital.”

“While I do not mind supervising him, I am quite curious to the reasoning behind Margrave Mather’s decision to leave behind his servant. For a nobleman to leave his servants behind…apologies. Please do not take it as disrespect, my mind simply cannot comprehend the designs of a high court wizard.”

Irresponsible as he may be, I can guess why he did so. Still, it does not fair well for me to assume that is the case, at least outwardly.

Rem raised her head and smiled softly, “Not many can. Even my lovely sister and I have difficulty following his- “

“BULLSHIT!” The knight and maid whipped their heads over to Subaru, who was covering his mouth, slightly embarrassed, “S-sorry. I just…this feels out of nowhere. I just can’t believe Emilia-tan would leave me here…”

Julyea walked over, placing a hand on his shoulder, “Your uncouth reaction aside…there must be a greater reason for her to make such a decision. What did the letter say?”

Subaru quickly whipped the letter behind his back, his eyes looked anywhere other than Julyea’s eyes, “…Some personal stuff. Mostly about how I should spend some time apart from her…among other things.”

The knight narrowed her eyes at that, but she chose to let Subaru have his privacy. The relationship between a vassal and their liege was intimate, it would be rude to pry any further.

Julyea sighed, “Very well. I won’t press you. I shall arrive tomorrow morning and teach you some initial lessons before bringing you to the garrison the following day.”

Subaru sheepishly smiled, “So right into the fire, ay? Alright. Thanks Julyea. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Apologies,” before the knight could leave, Rem stopped her, “There is one more piece of news I must address. Subaru-kun will now be receiving healing directly from Sir Argyle, as per a prior arrangement between Emilia and Duchess Karsten. As a result, he will be living in her domicile until further notice. Furthermore…”

Rem appeared extremely uncomfortable, Subaru gazed at her with concern and anxiety, “Rem, what’s wrong?”

“…I will need to return to my maidly duties once I finish helping you move to the Karsten domain. I will not be able to assist you anymore. Master Roswaal has told me…that you are no longer a servant of the Mather’s family, so that you won’t be hindered during your training as a squire. Once you are officially accepted as a knight of the Royal Guard, you will be welcomed back with open arms.”

Subaru was shocked, but Julyea was less so.

I should have expected this…though it doesn’t make sense why Emilia would approve of this. It would hurt her chances in the selection if the public were to hear of this. Her potential ‘knight’ and vassal, abandoned because she didn’t believe in him initially. It could easily rip her reputation apart, especially among the commoners, and push others to doubt her potential as a leader. Who would pledge loyalty to a queen that can’t have faith in her own people?

Either way, the implication was clear.

Subaru’s choice in becoming a knight has led to them cutting ties temporarily.

It was unsavory, but Julyea understood.

She experienced something similar…though it still gave her mixed feelings.

“What-I don’t,” the boy didn’t seem to understand however, “What kind of logic is that?!”

The young squire was indignant; he clearly didn’t realize the ramifications of his actions.

Julyea put a hand on his shoulder, “Subaru. I understand you are inexperienced with the customs of Lugunica, but you must calm down. There is a reason for this.”

Subaru gazed at Julyea with fury, which quickly got doused as he saw sympathy dance within her yes, “…Okay. So, what’s the deal? Why do they have to do all of this just because I want to be a knight.”

The young woman sighed, “Remember during the ceremony, when I regaled you with the various traditions of the knights? How knighthood is often bloodline based rather than merit?”

“Yeah?” He then realized something, “Oh. Oh. That’s why your family did that to you.”

Julyea nodded and kept her voice low and empathetic, “Though my situation differs, the reasoning is similar. A commoner wishing to become a Royal Knight is unheard of. Very rarely are they allowed to, much less without having any achievements under their belt. As a result, you will have to pass a series of trials to become one, each trial testing your physical, mental, and emotional qualifications…if you are unable to accomplish such a feat, your family and those that sponsor you will become a laughingstock. As a result, many aspiring minor nobles will often leave their households or become disowned to prevent any possible consequences to the entire rest of the family.”

Subaru’s eyes wavered, his voice soft and almost broken, “So they abandoned me because they didn’t believe that I could do it…”

…I’m sorry Subaru.

She squeezed his shoulder, “…”

Suddenly, his eyes widened, “Wait…you said ‘sponsors’ also become targeted. Does that mean…?”

He looked at her as Julyea simply gave him a melancholic smile, “If you are unable to become a fully-fledged knight under my tutelage, it will be a failure on my part as well. My reputation will most likely plummet.”

…Among other things.

Even though Julyea tried to soften the blow, the boy looked absolutely guilt-ridden, “Julyea… I-I didn’t mean to…I’m sorry.”

It is a gamble I’m willing to risk.

She clapped him on the back, “If you would like to apologize to me, apologize with your actions, not your words. You haven’t failed yet. And you have more than just me to prove yourself to.”

Subaru raised an eyebrow as Julyea continued, “Margrave Mathers. Lady Emilia. Though their hearts are in the right place, you are being given the chance to prove them wrong. To show them that you aren’t just a child with ill-gotten dreams. But a man who aspires to surpass his own limits.”

He still looked hesitant, but Rem came in without a second thought, “Dame Julyea is right! Though Rem doesn’t agree with Master Roswaal’s decision, that doesn’t mean they are completely abandoning you. Roswaal-sama and Emilia-sama haven’t seen you put your life on the line. They’ve only seen the aftermath. They only see you getting hurt and not the courage it took to dive into danger. They haven’t seen what you can do! How you were a hero to the kids and to Rem! I believe you can do this Subaru-kun. No matter what, Rem will be on your side.”

Assaulted from both sides by two women who supported his endeavors, the boy was on the verge of tears.

He took a deep breath.

SLAP! SLAP!

Before slapping his cheeks, “Okay! I won’t let you both down!”

With Rem’s help, they dropped off Subaru at the Karsten Mansion along with all of his belongings.

…The oni maid was an interesting woman to say the least.

They had a conversation before she left, a carriage and Earth Dragon was waiting for her to return home with once she finished cleaning up the guest house and bought some last minute supplies.

Though their conversation was innocuous. There was something that Julyea noticed in an instant.

“Subaru-kun has a habit of being a deep sleeper, so you’ll have to be a little loud when waking him. Oh! And Subaru-kun really likes this one sauce called mayonnaise. You can’t get it here, so Rem will write down the recipe in case he needs it. Sorry! I mean, obviously you won’t make it for him but it would be good if you were aware. Subaru-kun also- “

…The woman was completely infatuated with the boy.

It amused Julyea immensely. A maid falling in love with a commoner servant, who in turn was in love with his liege. It reminded her of the story of The Knight’s Vow.

Where a young knight goes to save a princess, vowing to his childhood friend that he will return safe and sound, with glory in his wake. The knight succeeds in his goal, offered marriage by the king to his beloved daughter, for saving her. Only to then be surprised by the sudden arrival of his childhood friend, who seeks to marry him herself, revealing a long-hidden secret: the childhood friend was the long-lost princess of another kingdom. And their childhood promise to be together forever was considered an arranged marriage! The knight had to choose between two princesses, to finally obtain his happily ever after.

But then! It turns out that the knight was actually in love with a third-party this whole time! The Black Knight, his rival. Someone who he hated at first before learning to respect his enemy as a combatant. And after various fights and conversations, the knight was smitten.

It was a shocking twist that gripped the hearts of many who read it. Dozens of fans would argue over which of the princesses the main character should get with. The naïve angelic princess or the supportive childhood friend. They often hated the sudden third character.

…Julyea was one of the few who really liked the twist.

What? Sue her. She liked stories such as those. Where love can blossom amidst the battlefield. Even someone such as herself, would like to meet a man who could fight along side her and sweep her off her feet.

Anyways, where was she?

“-And please make sure to remind Subaru-kun that he shouldn’t do his radio calisthenics while he trains, he might pull a muscle.”

Oh yeah.

This.

Deciding that it would be quite rude to ask the maid about her crush, Julyea simply smiled and said, “I will keep all of that in mind, Lady Rem. Please do stay safe on your way back to the Mather’s Domain. Recently we’ve been getting reports of Witch Cult activity and with your master’s sponsorship of Lady Emilia…it might be wise to bolster your defenses, just in case.”

Rem slightly flinched but vigorously nodded, “I agree. I shall keep your warnings in mind and deliver them to Master Roswaal promptly…”

It seemed she was on the cusp of saying something else but hesitated at the last second.

The knight decided to help coax it out of her, “I truly am grateful for your advice. I will no doubt need it when handling the boy considering his brash personality. Is there anything else you would like to tell me?”

“…” she still seemed to hesitate.

“…”

Until the blue oni finally relented, “…Please. Tell Subaru-kun that Emilia-sama just needs some time alone. That he really hasn’t been abandoned. And that above all…I’ll always welcome him back.”

Julyea blinked.

The knight gave a wide smile, and patted Rem’s head, “I understand. I’ll make sure he is well aware of that, as well as your feelings.”

“Thank you, I-eh?!”

Rem got flustered as Julyea simply kept smiling, “I’m rooting for you.”

She then gave the horned dragon signed as Rem became flustered, blubbering for the next few minutes.

Ah. How romantic.

Back to the present. Today was a special day. Some of the knights were allowed to have a day-off after the selection ceremony, including Julyea. Thus, she decided the best way to spend the morning and afternoon was assessing Subaru’s physical condition.

And the results were…less than satisfactory.

The boy was fit but he wasn’t very physically strong. His lackluster control over mana meant that he couldn’t use the Flow Method and would need extensive training to achieve it.  His skill at the sword was also average. In his current condition, Subaru was far from the ideal knight.

However, Julyea was not one to give up so quickly.

She spent the whole day pushing him. Testing his stamina, his reaction speed, and his compatibility with different weapons.

Average. That’s the best she could describe him. His physical stats, dexterity and strength, were largely average.

His skills in weaponry were also largely average. Axes, staves, spears, bows, crossbows, knives, morning stars, and more. None really fit him.

She did test some unorthodox weaponry. The only one that he seemed to have some potential talent with was the whip. It provided him range and leverage.

Though his lack of practice meant that the weapon was still inefficient for any real combat scenario.

To anyone else, the boy was hopeless.

To Julyea? Nothing was impossible.

She just had to figure out what he was talented at. That way they could use that as a focal point for his growth.

But that didn’t mean she was unable to make mistakes.

“I know you wanted to cheer Subaru-kyun up a bit. Have us bicker and banter like usual so that the guy can loosen up,” Felix grabbed one of the cookies and ate it morosely, “But maybe what the guy needs is some time to reflect. The way things are going, he might just ignore his problems by trying to train. Don’t you think it would be better for him to solve his internal issues before focusing on being a squire?”

Julyea sighed, massaging her temples, “I understand your concerns Ferris, but the boy needs confidence. Subaru needs something to stabilize him. Something he can focus on that will allow him to feel secure.”

The Finest of Knights wasn’t stupid. She could tell that Subaru was feeling self-conscious. That his haywire emotions and temper was caused by a lack of security. The fact that the person he loved, the person he was most loyal too, left him at the capital didn’t help. Especially after he resolved himself to go make amends with her.

“It was just so I can feel…useful.”

Those words resonated within the female knight, she grabbed a cookie herself, “Imagine you were in his position Ferris. You feel indebted towards the person who saved your life. You want to pay back that favor tenfold. But you feel you lack the capability. That you do not have the skills nor the resources to do so. You become frustrated. Wanting to do whatever it takes to prove your own worth. Imagine if you were like him, without any knowledge of your talent for water magic.”

Felix grimaced, “…I get it. I’d probably be just like him. I’d be desperate to do anything to show Crusch that I’m not someone who is taking her kindness for granted…and I couldn’t even imagine how I’d feel if Crusch abandoned me.”

Julyea nodded, taking a sip of lemomade, “The boy needs something to rely on. And it can’t be someone else. The fact that his self-worth is tied to serving Lady Emilia is a path that will lead to disaster. His mental state is already on the decline due to her actions. Subaru needs to believe in himself, rather than have someone else act as a pillar to stabilize his wellbeing.”

The healer tapped his glass of juice with his fingers, rubbing the rim slowly, “I can see what you’re saying now. It reminds me of…well me.”

“Oh Ferris-“

“Don’t try to make it seem less bad than it actually is. I was a wreck… when Fourier passed away. If I didn’t have you, Rein, and Crusch around, I don’t even want to imagine how I would have felt. And from what I remember you saying, Subaru-kyun is a foreigner with no allies besides Emilia and those at the Mather’s domain. And now they are all gone. Left alone to figure out what he should do next. More than anything else, I think he’s suffering from loneliness rather than just some sense of insecurity…”

Julyea watched as her friend started to go through his memories, she reached out and clasped him on the shoulder, “While Subaru is currently my priority, I just want to let you know. I’m proud of you Ferris, you’ve accomplished many feats, ever since I met you all those years ago. I believe he would be proud to see you supporting Crusch during the selection. Standing strong, despite the odds.”

Felix nodded, rubbing his eyes a bit, “Yeah…I think he would be.”

They had a tender moment of silence before Felix got up, “Alright, I fully support you now.”

She raised an eyebrow, “You weren’t before?”

The cat demi-human shrugged, “Well, kind of. Don’t get me wrong Julyea, you’re a steadfast pal. But you don’t really think things through all the time. You kind of let your emotions do the talking rather than your brain.”

The knight glared at her friend as Felix laughed, “I am an excellent thinker…”

“Yeah, yeah, of course you are. Just,” Felix extended a hand, “Try to prioritize yourself too. I know why you’re trying so hard…but just remember that you can’t always help people. Sometimes, ya just can’t. People aren’t strong enough. Or they lack the willpower to go on. It’s disgusting…but you have to accept it and focus on the people who want the help just as much as they need it.”

Julyea slowly absorbed Felix’s words before taking his hand, allowing him to pull her up, “I’ll try to remember your words Ferris.”

Felix rolled his eyes, evidently hearing that response several times before. Suddenly, a mischievous thought crossed his mind, as evident by the glint in his eyes.

“Though, I won’t blame you if you tell me that this is all so you can seduce the poor guy yourself,” Julyea choked, “I know how you like your literature. It would be quite the story of a knight and their squire falling in love-“

“Felix. Shut up.”

“Oh come on~. Not like you have any reason not to.”

Julyea felt her ears heat up, “Unfortunately, Subaru is quite enamored with his liege. I would hate to get in the middle of that.”

“Hmm. Hmm~! But his liege isn’t here and is causing him quite a lot of emotional damage. I wouldn’t blame him if his feelings started to go away-“

“Even if that did happen, he has a possible suitor ready to sweep him off his feet.”

“Then that means you just have to do it faster. Come now~. I’ve seen how you two talk, it’s rare to find someone who lets you relax that fast. I think you guys would pair well.”

“Would you please quit with the teasing?! I will not sully my honor by trying to begin a romantic relationship with a rival candidate’s knight!”

“You and I both know your Lady would take the opportunity and run with it if you were serious,” Felix jabbed at Julyea’s cheek as the knight pouted, “I can just imagine the headlines. ‘Half-elf candidate can’t even keep the attention of her lover!’ ‘Finest of Knights finds love within the competition!’ ‘Julyea Juukuulius found making out with scary looking- hey where are you going?”

Julyea was at the door and nearly tore it from its hinges, trying to open it, “I am going to find my squire. And I am going to have a normal conversation with him because we have a normal relationship that isn’t romantic. At. All.”

“Whatever you say~!”

Julyea grit her teeth, but before she left, a mischievous smile raced across her face as well, “By the way Felix, I wasn’t lying about your assignment to the Kararagian mayors. Please report to Marcos whenever you are free.”

Felix immediately froze, “That was a joke right? Julyea? Julyea?!”

His words fell on deaf ears as the knight left the living room, happy to get the last laugh.

Unfortunately, her efforts to find her squire were fruitless. The boy had left the mansion and was apparently taking a scenic walk around the city.

Once again, she was now scouring the streets looking for her lost knight.

“Don’t cry! Here, let me show you a magic trick.”

…Or maybe not.

It seems he was close by after all, as she barely left the Karsten area before finding Subaru tending towards a crying child. The child’s mother standing close by.

She saw him pull out a coin before seemingly making it disappear in front of the child’s eyes.

“Ta-dah! The coin is gone. Or…is it?”

Just as he said those last words, he put his fingers behind the child’s ear and flicked the coin out from where he was hiding it. Bringing it out, as if it was magically within the child’s ear all along.

The little boy laughed and smiled, the mother thanking the boy for his efforts, as Subaru just bowed and scratched his neck.

She smiled warmly at the sight.

He is quite a gentle soul with kids. He would be a great fa-

Her eyes then widened, blushing slightly as she shook away the next thought that was peeking into her brain.

Damn Ferris and his stupid nonsense.

She walked over as he waved goodbye to the kid, “It seems my squire has a few tricks up his sleeve.”

Subaru nearly tripped on nothing as he quickly turned round, “Oh Julyea! Sorry about that…I must have been gone for a while. I didn’t mean to worry you.”

She shook her head, “You have done nothing wrong. I am happy that you decided to take a stroll to organize your thoughts. I’m even happier that you still chose to take the time to comfort a little boy. What is that coin trick by the way? I have never seen something like that before.”

Subaru blushed under the praise, he quickly took out the coin again and started showing it off to Julyea, “Oh this? Back home we call these magic tricks.”

“Magic tricks? You use mana for this?”

Subaru winced, “Oh right. Forgot. Sooo, it’s not exactly ‘magic’ magic, more like optical illusions and techniques that draw your attention, to make it seem like it’s actually magic. Here watch.”

He rolled the coin between his knuckles before pinning it between his index and thumb. He then placed it behind his hand, only the coin and part of his index and thumb hidden, before revealing the two fingers once more. The coin gone.

Subaru held out his hands, showing that the coin had indeed, disappeared.

Julyea stared, “Incredible, what kind of parlor trick is this?”

“Magic!” He then whipped his hand out, revealing the coin, as if it came from nothing. “There are tons of tutorials that teach you how to do this stuff. It’s not that hard. It’s really just hand-eye coordination, a little deception, and knowing how to draw people’s attention.”

Julyea was impressed. So impressed that she started to have an idea, “Are there any more of these ‘magic tricks’ you are proficient at?”

Subaru blinked, “A bunch. I learned a lot when I was…had a lot of free time. I can do some more coin ones but if you give me some time, or find a deck of cards, I can show you even more. But uh, why? It’s really just party tricks more than anything. Not really useful unless you want me to entertain some people.”

Julyea rubbed her chin, “True. But just because it may seem useless, doesn’t mean one can’t find alternative ways to implement them effectively. Many tacticians in our history have found that farming equipment can be repurposed for warfare.”

Subaru snapped his fingers, almost dropping the coin, “Oh like shinobi! A lot of their ninja tools were actually farmer tools. Like bo staves were just plows without the metal end.”

Julyea was surprised, “You are familiar with Kararagian shinobi?”

Subaru was for some reason also surprised, “You guys also have ninjas here?!”

Julyea was now extremely confused, “Subaru. Shinobi have been a staple of the Kararagian culture for centuries. They have even spread to other countries such as Vollachia. The most famous shinobi currently is the Admirer Halibel. Where are you from that this is a surprise to you?”

“Oh well, an island from the far east, Japan. Though, from what Emilia said, the only thing east is- “

“The Great Waterfall. Yes. But that would mean- “

Julyea stopped herself. Some details started to click in her mind. His strange mannerisms. His odd behavior. His clothes, ‘the tracksuit.’ His lack of knowledge when it comes to traditions, history, or just basic information that anyone should know.

Julyea finally got it, “You really are not from here, aren’t you?”

Subaru smiled sheepishly, “Yeah…I guess I’m not.”

“…”

…Perhaps Lady Anastasia may take an interest in him after all.

Julyea shook her head, “While I do have an enormous amount of questions, we can settle those later. For now, we should head back inside, the maids said that dinner should be served soon. And we’ll need to go to bed soon after.”

Subaru perked up, “Oh right, you said that tomorrow will be the day we get to go to the garrison.”

“Indeed, tomorrow I will be properly introducing you to everyone, including Captain Marcos. We will need to be awake, bright and early. So, make sure you get some rest.”

“Aye-aye, Dame Julyea!” Subaru said, saluting, his previous bad mood all but a memory.

She giggled at his antics.

Today turned out to end better than I expected. I have an idea of what Subaru could focus on during his training. And I even have something to report to Lady Anastasia. Hopefully, tomorrow will yield no further surprises.

“Dame Julyea. At this rate, you’ll lose your position within the Royal Guard.”

…Why is it that fate always chooses to spite her?

Chapter Text

“Dame Julyea. At this rate, you’ll lose your position within the Royal Guard.”

“…Good morning to you too, Captain Marcos.”

The green-haired man glared at Julyea before sighing, “…What am I going to do with you?”

“As your unofficial second-in-command, I believe it would be in our best interest-“

“That was a rhetorical question, Julyea.  Honestly, have you no shame?”

“…Is that a rhetorical question as well, captain?” Marcos face palmed, while the Finest of Knights tapped her chin finely, looking at the ceiling in faux thought, “Because if not, you would be the most likely to know that my shame is often conditional, requiring at the bare minimum a complete disregard of my morals. Since I have not done so, I indeed have no shame.”

Julyea refocused on the captain who was still lovingly meeting his hand, face first, “…You cannot continue this behavior.”

“I shall not then.”

“That is what you said previously,” he looked between his fingers, and scowled at the Finest Knight, “And look where we are now.”

“Captain Marcos. Please do me the courtesy of suggesting an alternative. What else could I have done in that scenario?”

“Nothing.”

She raised an eyebrow, “Nothing? So, you wanted me, a knight who promised his candidate that I would do my very best to protect the young lad, to do nothing? Breaking my promise, as a Spirit Knight, in order to uphold some flimsy pride of ours?”

SLAM!

He slammed his fist onto the desk, “That pride is what ties our brotherhood together. You have a duty to the knights first, not anyone else.”

She held back her scoff, “Our duty, if I may be frank, is to the people first. While I do believe in our camaraderie, there is a limit to that. I will not throw away our basic decency on the thin notion that our feelings may have gotten ‘hurt.’”

“You imply that our order is full of children.”

“I did not say such a thing, you simply assumed.”

“…” the captain sighed once again, “Julyea.”

“Yes, Captain?”

“I want you to eventually take over my position. You remember what I told you after your first mission?”

She did, it was what pushed her forward for years, “Could you remind me?”
“Wonderful work Juukuulius. You have the makings of a fine knight, I look forward to the path you will pave for us.”

His eye twitched, “You have the makings of an incredible knight, I look forward to the future you will build with us.”

“…It does not sound familiar.”

“Well, it is what I said,” Marcos leaned back in his chair slightly, “I believe in your potential Julyea. You have the spirit, the diligence, the conviction. As much as you may think otherwise, many of the others look up to you. They respect you. Idolize you even.”

“…”

He looked her in the eyes, “Shouldn’t you repay such respect in kind. I understand your feelings. You still hold a grudge for what happened during your first week. I would too. But times have changed. Our organization has improved rapidly in the last couple of years. All thanks to you, Sir Reinhard, and Sir Felix’s efforts. I am proud to see what you’ve accomplished, and I stand by the fact that you will continue to do Lugunica proud.”

She tried not to let her emotions show, only keeping a straight face, “…I can perceive that there is a stipulation there, am I wrong?”

“…But you must finally put a stop to these rash decisions. The incident with Balleroy, Cecilus, and that nasty duel a year ago. I understand you are a woman who stands by her ideals, but you must be more pragmatic. We are being pressured at all sides at the moment, your allegiance to a foreigner has brought scrutiny to our reputation. And now you have brought more by standing by a complete stranger instead of your brothers. You have to see reason. See that your actions have more consequences than what you initially surmise.”

“I do sir,” Julyea nodded respectfully, “I understand that the order has faced the brunt of the criticisms levied towards me. I am no stranger to the influx of letters and slander that came about from my previous actions. I can only imagine what my recent ones have attracted. For that, I am grateful to you and the others, truly. I have seen how you defended my actions, even if you disagree with them. I appreciate such words, as they must have not come about easily.”

Marcos looked at her, expression unchanging, “…”

“…However. I will not stand down. This is my path. My creed. I will live and die by my word, by my vows, and by my morals. That boy needs my help. He may not be strong, nor smart, nor gifted. But his spirit makes up for it. He yearns to protect those he cares about. He simply needs a guiding hand, rather than a wrathful tongue or malicious beating. You will see it too, someday.”

Marcos continued to stare at her, until sighing for the third time in a row, “I’ve known you too long to have expected anything less. I simply wished to tell you what the stakes are, that way you are not blindsided…as unfortunate as it is for me to say.”

Julyea understood, she stood strong, “Do not blame yourself Captain, I expected such a conclusion myself. You are in the complete right to do so.”

“…That is what makes it so much harder. A senior must always take responsibility for their junior. As such…if you are unable to prove his worth within the next two months, you will be stripped of your title and your rank. And you will be forced to start again, from the beginning.”

This was actually a mercy. Her repeated offences to the Royal Guard would have been met with banishment, usually. The fact that Marcos wished to simply demote her, meant that he was willing to pull favors to keep her knighthood as much as possible.

“I understand what must be done,” Julyea continued to look him straight in the eyes, “I will not let you down.”

He also stared back, resolute, “You never do. Pray that this won’t be the last. I do not wish it to be…dismissed soldier.”

Marcos eyed the picture on his desk as Julyea turned to leave.

Right as she was about to close the door, his voice rang out, “And one more thing…think carefully about what the boy can focus on. Sometimes, the answer is closer than you expected.”

The Finest Knight blinked, and then smiled, “Thank you, Captain Marcos, I shall keep that in mind.”

She promptly closed the door, Marcos choosing not to say anything more.

She walked down the halls of the knight’s garrison, aiming to reach the plaza, keeping her eyes forward.

Her eyes glanced at every knight passing by, all of them looking away as she did, internally annoyed.

Some things never change.

She ignored the feeling in her gut, it never helped to linger, you can never satisfy everyone. And Julyea fervently believed the only expectations you should satisfy are your own. No one else’s matters as much.

“…not…yes…like…”

Her ears perked, it seemed someone was either having an avid discussion or was helping someone else train, she turned the corner and found herself finally at the plaza, where training usually occurred.

Morning practice should begin soon, but it was still too early for anyone to have gathered.

She left Subaru to idle there earlier when a knight informed her that Captain Marcos wanted a word with her, privately.

Her eyes caught her newly acquired squire…along with two familiar faces.

Her eyes narrowed as she started to quicken her pace, “Is there something you wish to inquire in regard to Sir Subaru?”

The two familiar faces, Mikhail and Samuel, flinched at their names being called, she eyed Subaru’s face. He didn’t seem offended or aggravated, rather he looked slightly confused.

At the very least, it seems like they weren’t intending to target him like before.

Still, she didn’t like their presence, “Well? Speak up, there must be a reason you are already here so early.”
Both of them looked at each and gulped before Mikhail spoke up, “A-apologies Dame Julyea, we came earlier to speak to you and Sir Subaru.”

She raised her eyebrow, “I see. Well then, we are both present now, unless you require to speak to us separately.”

Samuel shook his head vigorously, “No, this is quite fine! We just wanted to…”

He then looked at his friend, their eyes having a silent conversation before they both quickly bowed and yelled,

“We would like to apologize for the grievances we have committed to both of you!”

Julyea blinked. She…wasn’t expecting that.

They both kept their heads down, Mikhail spoke up, “I-it was our mistake, you were right to reprimand us, we let our emotions take hold and sought to rectify it in the most dishonorable method possible. Our actions were not only disrespectful in hindsight, but also completely amoral.”

Samuel spoke next, “We are not doing this because we are afraid of punishment! Captain Marcos scolded us and gave us extra duties to complete, however, we understand that words and apologies can only go so far. So…we wanted to not only give a formal apology but also offer up any and all support you may need. We realize that it doesn’t fully make up for our actions. But at the very least, we would like to sincerely give you two the courtesy you deserve.”

“…”

Silence pervaded, the new squire looked towards his knight in slight disbelief, Julyea chose not to react, “I see…you’ve taken my words to heart it seems. I can respect your willingness to swallow your pride and admit your wrongdoings…so long as you keep this in mind and truly change for the better, you are forgiven. Dismissed.”

“D-dame Julyea, thank you but if you need-“

“That will be all. Dismissed.”

The two flinched, still looking guilty, but decided to bow one last time before leaving.

She refocused on more important matters, “…Alright, let’s begin discussing your morning regiment. Usually, you would be joining the others, however, due to your inexperience, I shall be teaching you a much less strenuous but still taxing workout regime. It won’t be easy, but I believe this should help you immensely. Subaru?”

“…” Subaru was still looking at the two knights leaving, his expression unreadable.

“Subaru,” she walked closer and touched his shoulder, making him jump slightly, “Are you alright?”

The boy whipped his head towards her, sheepish, before scratching his neck in embarrassment, “Sorry, what were you saying?”

“…Speak your mind, my squire. Did they do anything unpleasant to you?”

His eyes widened and he shook his head rapidly, “What? No! They were fine.”

“You do not have to cover for their actions, people must take responsibility, no matter what.”

He flinched, “Seriously, they didn’t do anything. They aren’t a problem anymore.”

“Then what is the problem?”

“…”

“…I won’t judge, you are my squire. No matter what, that won’t change.”

“…”

“…”

“…Why didn’t you let them help us?”

She raised an eyebrow, “That is what you are worrying about?”

Subaru scratched his head, slightly frustrated, “That’s not…entirely it. It’s just. They apologized. They were genuinely sorry. And even before you came, they apologized again, before explaining to me their actions. Like, I was still annoyed. But…they don’t seem like bad guys. Couldn’t we have let them stay? It wouldn’t have hurt.”

She narrowed her eyes before sighing, “I understand. You have a good heart Subaru. But in this case, you must learn to be more practical. While ideally, their regret signifies their willingness to be better, it has only been one day. What matters more is if they decided to stay on the right course for days, months, and years after this debacle. As of right now, the sting of possible punishment pushed them to apologize. If I were to forgive them immediately, they would not doubt return to their usual biases.”

Subaru stared at her, “But that’s unfair! If you don’t give them a chance, then they have no reason to want to change. They made one mistake. That doesn’t mean they have to be vilified. Especially since nothing bad happened this time.”

She stared back, “Again, you are a good person Subaru, however, that doesn’t mean everyone is. You can’t forgive people just because they apologized, nor should you forgive them because they haven’t committed more grievous sins yet. If they had the full intention of harming you and were only stopped due to outside intervention, that doesn’t excuse them from facing repercussions. Letting such behavior pass or forgiving such behavior will simply propagate the idea that your safety is worth nothing.”

He flinched, his eye twitching slightly, “Okay I get what you’re saying but…what would be the point of that?”

She stared at him like he was insane, “What…would be. The point. Of you being safe?”

He appeared frustrated, “No, that’s not what I meant, it’s just. If everything is already over and they’ve already been punished or are changing for the better, wouldn’t it be better for everyone to just let everything go? Let bygones be bygones?”

She kept staring at him, before sighing, “Subaru. People don’t change that easily. In most cases, a person will simply redirect their malice. And when the barrier that prevents them from treating you poorly disappears, they will easily resume their behavior against you.”

The boy narrowed his eyes at her, stubbornly not backing down, “I disagree. People can change. They just need a good reason to. At the very least some people have good traits that are more hidden than others. If you just ignore the good just to focus on the bad, you’ll never be able be able to see that hidden side. All you’ll feel and experience is mistrust for others.”

A part of her started getting slightly irritated, “Even if people could change, or if their good traits were worth exploring, that does not mean it is your duty to do so. You have no obligation to explore the inner facets of each person, to see if they have an inner virtue worth protecting. Every person must take responsibility for their own flaws and inabilities; you shouldn’t suffer to fix someone else’s problems.”

That struck a nerve, because the boy immediately got angry, “But not everyone is perfect! Some people aren’t able to do that…and sure it isn’t my responsibility, but I can’t just turn a blind eye. Some people might be clueless to the dangers around them. Or some people have past trauma keeping them from seeing the bigger picture. You’re a knight, you should be interested in improving people, not just protecting them, right?”

That made her angry as well, “I am a knight and that is what I am doing. I am interested in improving those who have the capability to become worthy of the aspirations they wish to acquire. I won’t waste time on people who lack those qualifications.”

Subaru’s eyes widened at her last words before suddenly affixing her with a glare.

“So what, so people like me?! Why are you wasting time on someone like me then?!”

She got startled, evidently confused about why he came to such a conclusion, “Wait I- “

He kept going, face bursting with frustration.

“I don’t get it! It’s plain to see. I’m not that smart! I’m not strong! I can’t jump and flip like you can! I can barely even cook and clean, I’m not good at anything, I’m not talented! I’m basically a burden on everyone: you, Emilia, my par-“ he choked and looked around, it seemed some of the knights heard his yelling and were beginning to walk towards him, his eyes frantic, “I-just…I just. I-”

He cut himself off.

Subaru closed his eyes, slowly taking a deep breath.

And then exhaling

Subaru’s eyes reopened, eyes much more cautious, before refocusing on Julyea, taking on that guilty expression she was starting to get familiar with, “…I’m sorry.”

His voice was morose.

She reached out to him, her face worried, “Subaru-“

He bowed slightly, “Just…it’s my bad. I know. I couldn’t control myself. Again. I keep doing that. I keep…messing up. Back when I met you. Back at the castle. And even now. I’ll try to be better. I will be better. I won’t…embarrass myself or you, like that. Again. I just…yeah. I’m sorry.”

She stared at him, feeling concern permeating her conscience.

…I made a mistake.

Before she could rectify the matter, everyone started swarming the courtyard, evidently curious of the argument but too polite to inquire further. The green haired Captain came out in his usual gear.

He bellowed, “Attention and line up!”

And thus, morning practice began.

“We really gotta stop meeting like this Subaru-kyun.”

“…Ugh,” Subaru just groaned as he lay on the couch in one of the common rooms of the Knight’s garrison. It was lunchtime and Julyea took Subaru to one of her usual areas, where she reconvened with her two friends.

Unfortunately, Subaru could barely keep up with the standard training exercises, his muscles were practically torn apart by the end. Thus, Felix was using healing magic to treat the pain.

It was a nice spot in a corner of the garrison, with a window looking out towards the city. It had a small table, some comfortable chairs and couches, and some private rooms for paperwork and convenience.

Most knights nowadays call it, the Haunt of Titans.

Where only the most privileged and powerful of knights could sit and converse.

Julyea hated that name. Reinhard was proud. And Felix found it incredibly hilarious.

Reinhard tilted his head to Julyea and whispered, “Are you doing well, my friend?”

“…Yes, it’s been fine.”

Reinhard’s eyes pierced Julyea, as he kept staring at her, “…”

She grimaced and pinched her nose, “…I hate your Divine Protections, have I mentioned that?”

He simply smiled a 100,000 gigawatt smile, “It has been approximately one week, three hours, 24 minutes, and 3 seconds since the last time you have said so.”

She stopped pinching her nose, blinked three times, before looking at Reinhard, “…Don’t tell me you have an extremely specific DP for such purposes, as well?”

“Of course not,” she sighed in relief, “However, I do have a Divine Protection of Precise Mathematics.”

She stared at him, “…What is 8512 multiplied by 798?”

Without missing a beat, “Six million, seven hundred ninety-two thousand, five hundred and seventy-six.”

She started doing some mental math in her head before shaking the migraine away, whispering loudly, “It is impossible for you to have calculated that instantly!”

Reinhard just kept smiling, “Unfortunately, you have no way of proving it as false without doing the mathematics yourself.”

The Finest Knight restrained her hand from caressing her face violently.

…If only my Lady were here, she is a genius in regards to such calculations and memorizations.

The Sword Saint’s smile, though still plastered on, became serious as his brow furrowed, “Jokes aside, I believe you should be forthcoming about what is bothering you.”

“…”

“Is that not what you told me, once upon a time?”

Julyea stifled a groan, “…Yes, yes. You are correct. Just…not here, if you may.”

Julyea led him to one of the private rooms, signaling to Felix that they were to discuss a more private topic.

The cat boy waved his hand in the air as he poked Subaru’s back, causing the boy to groan even more.

SHUT!

“Now then,” Reinhard grabbed a chair at the table and sat down, hands together, “Please tell me what has been bothering you.”

Julyea sat down opposite of him, “…”

“…Is it Subaru-san?”

She flinched, “No…no it is not him. It is me.”

Reinhard raised an eyebrow but stayed quiet, letting Julyea talk, “I believe I have not been the greatest mentor.”

“It has only been one day Julyea, you cannot be so harsh on yourself.”

“And yet I have already failed,” she rubbed her forehead, running her hand through her hair, “I should have focused on Subaru’s inner demons, his foremost worries. I underestimated how much the past few days have affected him…as a result, he seems to be letting them fester.”

Reinhard tapped the table with rhythm, “Is this related to Lady Emilia, at all?”

“…I believe so. Unfortunately, he was unable to reconcile with her before she left. Adding to that, she only gave him a letter before subsequently banishing him from the Mather’s domain until he completes his knighthood training.”

The Sword Saint’s eyes narrowed, “That…sounds oddly against Lady Emilia’s character.”

Julyea tapped her temple, leaning on the table with one hand, “I agree. I have suspicions that her actions were influenced by someone else. However, such suspicions have no proof, it could have very well been solely a decision on Emilia-sama’s part. Subaru is also hesitant to explain his last moments with her before they separated. I assume that it was not pleasant.”

Reinhard hummed in agreement, thinking quietly before responding, “What do you believe is the best course of action then?”

Julyea gazed at Reinhard for a second, before leaning back into her chair, “My original intention was to give him another rousing speech, perhaps give him some tasks to keep his mind of things, allow his training to show improvement which should bolster his confidence…”

Reinhard caught where this was going, “However?’

“…However, I do not know what to do now.”

“What caused such a change?”

Julyea kept running her hand through her hair, “…I’ve been putting some thought into my actions, finally. And I’ve realized that I should try not to commit to such plans without proper consideration of those involved.”

Reinhard’s eyes widened, Julyea caught that and rolled her eyes, cutting off his response, “Oh do not act so surprised, even I can act with my head instead of my heart for once!”

Reinhard smiled again, a warm soft one this time, “I did not mean that to be an offence, I simply find it interesting. While Felix and I value your personality greatly, we have rarely seen you restrain yourself unless put into extreme situations. It seems you have taken a great liking to Subaru-san.”

Julyea blushed slightly before looking away, “I will not deny my fondness for the boy. While he can be childish and crude at times, he acts with honesty and an inner kindness that many lack. One cannot help but find such traits admirable.”

The Knight of Knights nodded along, “I agree. My experience with Subaru has been not only positive but uplifting. Despite my strength, I can’t help but admire how courageous he acts in the face of danger.”

“Ah, is this related to how you met Lady Felt? You mentioned it briefly.”

“Indeed. Subaru-san did not have a weapon, nor battle experience, nor any reason to intervene. And yet, he put his life on the line to protect a couple of strangers, actively throwing himself in harms way to keep their lines intact. Against the Bowel hunter, of all menaces. Many call me heroic. However, I believe I never understood the definition until I saw such a scene.”

It seems every day my instincts are more and more justified. The Bowel Hunter…and he took her on despite most likely fearing for his own life. A man who is willing to fight for the innocent, even if he lacks the skills to do so.

How could I not want to see him grow?

Reinhard had his hand over his heart, eyes shining, while Julyea looked at him amused, “Should I warn Lady Emilia or Lady Rem that there is a third competitor for his heart~?”

Reinhard stopped sparkling and coughed in his hand, evidently embarrassed, “Please do not joke of such a thing, I merely admire Subaru for being strong despite his lack of ‘strength.’ If that makes sense. In addition, Lady Rem? I did not know Subaru-san was involved with another woman.”

Julyea flinched and her eyes peered elsewhere, “I do not know what you are talking about.”

“…”

“…”

“…It seems Subaru-san will have a rough road ahead of him.”

She chuckled, “I agree,” her eyes then became sullen once again.

Reinhard gazed at the door, before looking at Julyea, “If I may be frank, I believe you are simply worrying about this situation, a tad much.”

She raised her eyebrow, “How so?”

“You are acting as if you need all the answers before tackling the problem. But may I ask…when have we ever needed such preparation in the first place?”

Julyea was still confused so Reinhard started lifting up fingers, “The incident with Cecilus, Balleroy’s insurrection, the Argyle Mansion hostage situation, the Hexcel drug distribution. Every situation, we barely had any preparation, and yet, we were able to figure out plausible solutions that minimized as many casualties as possible.”

Julyea wasn’t convinced, “Be that as it may, a lot of those victories could be tied to simple luck. If we were able put some thought in, at least before skirmishing, we would have been able to have a lot more ease. Especially during that whole Vollachian debacle.”

Reinhard shook his head, “We wouldn’t have been able to accomplish much more, I’m sure of it. There are those who think, those who act, and those who respond. We act, using instincts. While I understand you wish to rectify past mistakes, I believe working against what you are good at, will simply increase them. If there was any advice I could give you, it’s to simply approach Subaru-san with an open mind and try to speak what he needs to hear as well as what he wants to hear. I believe you will be able to do so, simply by following your heart, as you always do.”

Julyea tapped her temple a few times before smiling and finally straightening her back, sitting tall, “…Who knew that you would be the one telling me to act however I want?”

Reinhard chuckled, “I learned from the best.”

If only you could finally speak your mind like this with your family…

Still, it was much better than when Julyea first met him. At the very least, Felix was making some headway by becoming friends with Wilhelm Trias. Heinkel, however,…was a work in progress.

Her feelings were mixed on the Deputy Commander.

Knock!

Before she could ruminate more, they heard a knock on the door.

Felix poked his head in, “Guyssss. I’m getting hungwy~ again.”

Julyea’s eye twitched, “Please never say that word in such a way, again.”

“Huh? You mean hungwy?” Felix poked his cheek and acted cute.

Reinhard shook his head, “She’s right Ferris. That is not the proper way to say it.”

Julyea nodded as Felix pouted.

“It is pronounced hungway.”

Julyea stopped nodding as her eyes widened, slowly turning her head towards Reinhard as Felix began to grow a shit-eating grin.

“…Go get food with him before I strangle you both.”

Felix looked like he was about double over laughing.

Reinhard simply looked confused, “I do not believe you will be able to do that given my strength. I could try to help you-“

Julyea cut him off with a fierce glare. He immediately stood up and pushed Felix out of the room as the healer was running out of breath, laughing like a maniac.

The Finest Knight pinched the bridge of her nose.

…I regret teaching him how to tease people.

She then smiled remembering how much her friends changed over the last few years…

Julyea rose from her seat and entered the living room.

She then heard a soft snore, emanating from the couch.

It seems Subaru fell asleep from the exhaustion.

Or Felix knocked him out because he got tired of him complaining.

Both were very plausible given the healer’s personality.

She sighed and tried to think of something.

Anything.

She made a promise to help the poor guy. And even more, she wanted to see what he could accomplish. Someone who still believed fully in the good of others and accepted their sincerity.

…She wanted that type of person to blossom fully, instead of dying in the mire of nihility.

But how?

Perhaps she needed to look at this from a different perspective. Just like Reinhard said, what could he want and need at the same time?

Well the answer was obvious.

Emilia.

But she isn’t here. Nor is anyone else who could substitute her…

“Subaru-kun always loved Emilia-sama’s lap pillows…”

Julyea’s eyes widened and she started to blush madly before shaking the thought away.

N-nonsense! Julyea, have you gone insane! You are his master and guide. Not only that, his heart is set for another…it would be wrong to put him in such an intimate position.

She then looked towards her legs and frowned.

Not only that, they are not that plump compared to others…would he even enjoy such an experience with me? Would it not feel like you are laying on top of solid brick?

She remembered complimenting her Lady about her rather thick upper legs. Only to be met with a terrifying smile and a subsequent scolding. This had happened previously as well, when Julyea complained about her top-heavy assets causing problems during training, valuing Anastasia’s physique instead. Her Lady wouldn’t talk to her for a week.

She really didn’t understand, didn’t men like curvy women?

Her body was more muscular than most noble women and much more toned. Though the clothes often made her look thinner and more broad shouldered than she actually is.

Snort!

She flinched as Subaru snored slightly, before going back into a soft and quiet slumber.

…Please, Julyea, you cannot be seriously thinking such inappropriate ideas. You’ll have to simply think of something more-

“…milia…sorry…I…leave…no…” Subaru softly muttered, most likely having a nightmare.

She looked at him.

Despite his deep slumber, his eyes looked like they were on the verge of tears, wavering and scrunched up.

…

“We act, using instincts.”

…Hopefully you are correct, Reinhard.

And hopefully this wouldn’t end in her embarrassment.

Chapter Text

It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

None of this was.

He just wanted to be…useful.

To matter for once in his life.

To be someone that people could rely on.

And not…him.

“Why did you do that?”

“…What do you mean-“

“Subaru. I told you. I asked you. To please. Stay home and rest. But you ignored me. You promised me. And you ignored that too.”

“I came because I was worried about you! What if something happened?”

“I wasn’t alone! I had Puck. Roswaal was with me. The whole Knight’s garrison was going to be at the Castle. And I’m not weak. Why would you even think something bad would happen?”

“…Think rationally. There was someone targeting you for your insignia. On the day I met you. Someone was out there aiming to take your right to candidacy and kill you. They sent the Bowel Hunter after you for God’s sake! Of course I would think something bad was going to happen! From what you say, no one was even supposed to know that you were a candidate until today. Hell, even the Sages, those wise men. Didn’t know! The only people who could possibly know you had it is everyone back home, or someone high up in the pecking order that would have access to that kind of information. Of course I would be worried! You are literally walking into the lion’s den!!”

“Then why didn’t you talk to me about that?! Why didn’t you talk to me like a normal person?! We could have talked. You could have talked to Roswaal. Put more guards around us. Roswaal is the head mage, he has the right to increase security. Your worries could have been dealt with, reasonably! And even then, that doesn’t explain your actions during the Selection.”

“…”

“You didn’t have to say you were my knight.”

“I wanted to be.”

“No, you didn’t.”

“Yes, I did.”

“No you didn’t!”

“Yes I did!”

“You did not! You never once spoke of having such an aspiration. You wanted to be a butler. You talked about so many things. But not once did I hear about you wanting to train for such a profession. Is this…did you…? I…no. It doesn’t matter. Just tell me the real reason you did that.”

“…”

“…Subaru.”

“It doesn’t matter.”

“It does matter!”

“Well, it’s already done, so who cares?! I’m going to be a knight and you get to have one. Everyone wins.”

“…No. We’re going home.”

“What?! Why? We can’t just leave-“

“Yes, we can. Our business is done here…I’ll talk to Crusch one last time. And then we’re going home.”

“That’s not fair, I made a promise-“

“YOU DON’T GET TO TALK ABOUT PROMISES!”

“…”

“…You don’t get to do that. You broke our promise. Like it was…nothing. You didn’t listen to what I wanted. You act like I can’t do anything myself. You almost got yourself in big trouble for no reason!”

“I did have a reason!”

“Then what was it?!”
“…”

“What was it, Subaru?”

“I…”

“…”

“…”

“If you won’t tell me…then fine. But we’re going home. End of story- “

“No! I…won’t.”

“Subaru…where are you- “

“Just no… I need to clear my head…I need to.”

“Subaru!”

I wanted to be someone special. Someone you can rely on. Someone who could pay you back… for everything. For saving me.

I wanted you to like me.

Dear Subaru,

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry too.

 I did some thinking. I know what I said. I still mean everything I said. I hate that you broke your promise to me. It wasn’t fair of you to do so.

It wasn’t fair. I’m sorry.

But I realized that I haven’t been fair to you either. Even though we talked. Had fun everyday for the past month. I don’t think I got to know you all that well yet.

I keep forgetting that you forgot.

I wanted to do something nice for you. So, I asked Duchess Karsten if she could help restore your gate with Felix’s help.

You already did so much for me. You didn’t have to do this.

 But maybe I should have asked you about what you wanted, instead of assuming.

I should have done that too.

Maybe you didn’t always want to be a butler. Maybe you wanted to be someone more.

Not really. I don’t know what I want.

A higher calling. I don’t know. I can’t know unless you tell me correctly.

I want to. I so desperately wish I could. I want to tell you everything. But I can’t.

I know I’m not someone who is the smartest. But I can still see things for how they are. Even if I don’t understand.  I can see you’re happy when you are with me.

I am.

But you always seem on edge. As if something is always behind you.

…

And maybe, that was also because of me. You always get hurt around me. Get into trouble around me. And I don’t understand your words sometimes. Maybe the problem is me. Maybe I’m just bad luck for you. That’s why I’m sorry, Subaru.

No. No. Please stop. You’re not the problem. I am. I keep screwing things up. I keep butting my head in when I shouldn’t. I keep making things difficult for everyone. Just like with Rem and Ram. It was my fault.

I talked to Roswaal. He said that you will experience many difficulties while being a squire. And I don’t want to impede that. So, I’m going to do what I should have done. What I need to do, as someone who wants to become a queen. For the best of both of us. From here on, you are no longer tied to me or the Mather’s domain.

…Why?

It will free you from the stigma of being a half-elf’s knight-in-training.

I don’t care about that! I only want to be a knight so I can stay by your side!

The knights may sympathize with you.

Who gives a shit what the knights think?!

You can be free, free to train and make new friends allies.

That’s not what I want!

Without me becoming a burden onto you.

Is that why you’re leaving?! Because I’m a burden. Because as a queen, you don’t need burdens by your side. That only a knight, someone who is competent, could do so. Is that it?!

Choose who you want to be Subaru.

I want to be the person who can protect you.

I want to be someone you can trust.

I want to be someone you can depend on.

I hope you can find what you are looking for.

I want to be…

Whatever it is. I believe you can do it.

…

Sincerely, your friend,

Emilia.

The person you can love…just as much as I love you.

Ah. My head is killing me…

Subaru opened his eyes, only to be surprised by the literal sun. A slightly red-faced, violet haired, incredibly handsome and beautiful, sun.

The sun pushed some hair behind her ear, “Ah. You’re awake. Do you feel better?”

“…” Subaru just blinked.

“…I will take that as a yes. If that is the case, are you comfortable?”

He felt extremely comfortable, “…”

“Would you like me to shift my legs or something?”

Like staring into an actual sun, so beautiful that he feels like he is about be blinded, “…”

“…Apologies. They are unfortunately more muscular than most. You may find pillows more desirable. I could go find some if it would be more pleasing.”

They were like clouds. Thinking of them as any less would be an insult to the heavens above.

“…”

“Could you please stop staring at me and say something?!”

“Something,” she almost seemed to pout but quickly morphed into a glare, pinching his nose softly, “Ow.”

Despite his antics, she gave him a soft smile, “It seems you are back to your normal self. Are you feeling better?”

Ah. Yeah.

Subaru tried to give her his best smile, “I am.”

It seemed to be ineffective as her frown returned, “Will this be a habit of yours to lie to me about your condition? I will have to rectify it given how dangerous it could be out in the field.”

He shifted in his position uncomfortably, “Sorry. “

“You’ve been saying apologies an incredible amount lately.”

“Ah,” he looked embarrassed, “Maybe I should say thank you instead.”

She raised her eyebrow, “That does not make any sense.”

His face scrunched in on itself, “Oh yeah. Right.”

“I mean. You could say it. But then you would be expressing gratitude for me reprimanding you. Which I highly doubt you would do sincerely.”

“Well, some people like that kind of stuff. You don’t know if those people exist.”

She narrowed her eyes at him from above, “Are you implying that you are one of those people?”

“I reserve the right to be silent.”

“I do not believe that is a right given by Lugunican law, unfortunately.”

They stared at each other for a few seconds before both breaking into laughter and then a comfortable silence.

“…Subaru. Could you please tell me what is wrong?”

Subaru looked away, “What’s there to tell?”

“There seems to be a lot given the signs. I won’t force you to tell me. But just know I am here to listen, as always.”

She sat still as Subaru stayed silent, deciding to respect any decision he makes, though it seemed she was still antsy, the boy could feel her foot slightly tapping on the floor, making a rhythm with her leg.

He was silent for what felt like forever until finally, “I honestly don’t know.”

“…You don’t know?”

“Not really. Which is a terrible answer, I know. It’s just…I don’t know how to describe how I feel right now.”

She continued to stay quiet, letting him speak, “I-I think, I feel guilty. And sad. And everything feels hazy. I feel like I’m doing everything wrong and I have no way to know if I’m doing what I can to fix it. I just feel…lost.”

He continued to word vomit, “I know we talked about this before. And you’ve been giving me so much advice and support. And I feel…I’m wasting it. By being like this. I know it’s only been just two days. And I know things can’t get better that quickly. I know. I know! I know…” he put his hands on his face, trying to hide his disgusting uselessness.

Through the muffled hands, “…I just can’t help but feel like I’m wasting your time. That I’m wasting everyone’s time. That at the end of the day, the only thing I’m good for, is taking up space.”

She waited a few moments for Subaru to continue talking. And when he didn’t, she spoke once more, “Subaru. Do you want me to punish you?”

“I-what?”

“Do you want me to punish you?” She put a finger on his lips, signaling for him to let her finish, for some reason it made him blush, “Because that is what it seems like you are trying to tell me. Given your words.”

She lifted her finger and tapped her chin, “You talk as if being weak is a sin. As if you being untalented is a bad thing. As if you having emotions and regrets, is a terrible affront to humanity.”

“…Is it not?”

She chuckled, “It is not. It just means that you are at a crossroads. You are at a point in your life where you feel that your best is not enough. And now you can make a choice yet again. To either find a new path forward. Or…”

She then pointed towards his heart, “Give up.”

Subaru looked confused, “I thought we already had this discussion.”

She shook her head, “That was about your resolve. To not let your insecurities prevent you from taking new opportunities. This, however, is about when such challenges seem impossible. When you feel like your skills are not enough to overcome the obstacle in your path. Again, you must decide to either give up on what you think or find a new path.”

“I don’t understand. So I need to find a new way around whatever is bothering me?”

She smiled, “You forget the other option.”

Now he looked at her like she is insane, “Give up? I can’t just…give up.”

“You would be wise to consider it. And I do not mean giving up in the literal sense of going backwards. I mean, giving up on what you currently know, and adopting a new mindset.”

His continued expression amused her given how she continued to smile at him, it was quite a nice smile.

She opted to give a more proper example, she held out her hand, and six little lights of different colors sprang forth, “Natsuki Subaru. I would like to properly introduce you to my contracted spirits.”

He looked amazed, waving awkwardly at them, “Ah, hello. It’s nice to meet you all.”

Suddenly, the six spirits began to fly around him with gusto, nudging his body and checking out every part of him.

Julyea seemed to be extremely pleased with their reaction, “It seems my initial observation was correct. More than correct. You have quite a very high spirit affinity.”

His eyes widened, “Is that rare?”

“Extremely. Most people would envy such a talent. You may have what it takes to be an incredible Spirit Arts User.”

“Wow…I have a talent. Something. Unique about me,” Subaru felt a warmth take hold in his heart. He felt like there was finally something he could be good at.

“Indeed,” she then whistled at them, most came back to her, however, one that was a vibrant black and purple stayed nearby a bit longer than the others, before finally returning to its master, “However, that is not why I wanted you to meet them.”

She then spoke with a solemn and nostalgic tone, “When I was younger, I too faced an impossible challenge. I was reckless, brash, and full of pride. And as a result, I nearly got beat to death for it.”

Subaru looked at her with concern, “…That’s awful. How did you overcome it?”

“By giving up,” she laughed at his reaction, “It is true. I gave up. I gave up on my original way of thinking. I thought that I could simply… fight my way through life. That with enough training and skill, everything could be beaten. But I was wrong. You can’t beat everything into submission. So, I had to choose. One option was to simply go and apologize. Keep my head down and beg for mercy. Go around the obstacle instead of defeating it.”

Subaru started to understand, “But you chose differently. You gave up on brute forcing the problem.”

She seemed to be pleased by his progress, her smile growing ever wider, “I did. And by giving up, I was able to see things differently. Why would I need to beat my opponent with just my body alone? When I could ask for help from some little friends of mine.”

Subaru narrowed his eyes before nearly popping them open, “Your buds!”

A part of him found it funny how her solution to not defeating an opponent on her own was to get some friends to collectively jump them. Technically. But he kept such thoughts to himself.

She giggled, “Correct. That was the first day I made a spirit contract. And with their help, it was an easy victory. But that’s not the important part. I realized two things that day about myself. One: I have a Divine Protection of Gathering Spirits, which is what allowed me to contract my little buds to begin with. And two: I am not someone who is purely motivated by virtuous reasons.”

At Subaru’s returning confusion, she gave a mischievous smile and leaned in close, whispering, “I am a very spiteful person.”

Subaru’s cheeks darkened but it was replaced by pure shock, “Wait, really?!”

She leaned back, her eyes dancing with entertainment, “Indeed. Back then, I not only gave up on my methodology but also what drove it to begin with. I originally desired to prove my worth. To make all the knights see me as someone on their level. So that they can respect me. I wanted to be someone they could rely on. A cherished comrade.”

He stared at her, “Buuuut?”

“But I realized that it wasn’t what I really wanted. Sure, that was something that could get me what I wanted. But it would be a lie for me to say that it was pure respect I wanted. No. I simply realized that I didn’t want respect. I wanted to win. I wanted them to feel small in comparison to me. I wanted them to eat their words and their own pride and lord it over them with victory. In conclusion, I did not want to be their comrade in the first place. Rather, I preferred being someone they all looked up to, on the ground or otherwise.”

He kept staring at her, as if seeing her in a new light, “I thought you wanted to uphold chivalry and honor above all.”

“I do. That is still true. But I had to accept that dirty and, quite frankly, disgusting part of myself in order truly push forward. It motivated me to not only get stronger but also find out my own talents. Ironic it may be, but accepting what you hate about yourself can sometimes allow you to be the best version of yourself.”

“Wow…just wow. I never thought I would hear someone say, without joking, that their purest source of motivation was spite. I kind of wish the internet existed here. You might enjoy it.”

“The inturnet?”

“Never mind. Thing from my hometown, not important.”

“…Alright. To conclude my story, I would like to reiterate the most important lesson. And it is a very simple but important one.”

She pointed again at Subaru’s heart, “Know thyself.”

He pointed his thumb at himself as well, “So. I should try to understand who I am more?”

She booped him on the nose, again making him flustered, “Correct. To truly overcome the obstacles, the mental obstacles especially, blocking your path. You have to understand what truly motivates you. And be honest about it. Do not sugarcoat your warts. Accept them. And use them to their fullest potential.”

She looked at him, straight into his eyes and soul, “I ask you again. What is that you want, Natsuki Subaru?”

Subaru looked into her eyes, golden and radiant, the answer on the tip of his tongue, but he instead chose to answer, “I…think I want to be happy.”

Before she could respond he then brought up his hands, “I know. I feel like a parrot, but yes, I know. That isn’t what I truly want. It’s just…that’s the best way I can describe it for now. I think one day I’ll be able to say it. Truly say it…but not now.”

“…I look forward to that day.”

They settled into another comfortable silence.

For once, in what felt like a long time, Subaru could finally relax. The only other time was in a situation similar to this one, exactly one month ago.

Today was a good day.

SLAM!

“WE’RE BAAAAAAACK!!” Felix and Reinhard barged into the room and immediately froze when they saw what was happening on the couches.

The knight and squire duo looked at their friends and then at each other. Both blushed considerably before looking back at their friends.

“It’s not what you think,” Subaru spoke first.

Felix smiled like a predator, “Julyea-chan is currently giving you a lap pillow which has rejuvenated your health and spirit unlike any healing magic ever could, nya?”

Subaru aimed to retort immediately, but then stopped, “…It is exactly how you think, actually.”

Julyea facepalmed, still blushing mad, “Just give it a moment.”

Felix continued, “And this is the prelude to your forbidden romance, sparking controversy all over Lugunica and many other- “

“There it is,” the Finest of Knights ran her hand down her face, already done with this conversation.

Subaru was not amused either, “Seriously Felix, what is with you and assuming that I’m seducing people all the time? You literally said the same thing last night when I was with Crusch!”

Julyea stopped caressing her face with her hand, slowly peering back down at Subaru, “…You seduced Duchess Karsten?”

For some reason, her staring made Subaru anxious, “W-wait no, I didn’t! He just assumed I was doing it, we were just having a nice chat!”

Felix kept smiling, though it had an edge to it now, “Ferri here found you sharing a drink with Lady Crusch, at night, while she was wearing her nice evening bedwear.”

Julyea’s stare became laser sharp, “For shame. That is unbecoming behavior from an un-and-coming knight such as yourself, Subaru.”

Subaru felt like he was getting attacked from all sides, but his hero had arrived, “Excuse me. I am glad to see that you seem to be feeling better Subaru-san.”

The sharp-eyed boy was glad that his favorite red-haired friend was at least on his side, “I am, thank you Rein.”

Unfortunately, his hero came with friendly fire, “However, I should warn you to not do anything similar to Lady Felt. Her temper is unmatched and I am afraid you will not be able to handle her constant violence if she believed you were flirting with her.”

“…Thank you again, Rein.”

Julyea decided to put in her two copper coins as well, “Perhaps it would be unwise for me to properly introduce you to Lady Anastasia. I had no idea that my squire was of the promiscuous sort.”

Subaru raised his arms into the air, indignantly, “Why is everyone assuming I’m some kind of playboy?! I like one woman! I like monogamy!”

Felix added to the fire, “Oh, playboy, huh? Maybe that should be your future title. The Knightly Playboy.”

“Absolutely not-“

Reinhard cut in, “Subaru-san is right, that will never work.”

“Thank you Rein-“

“Perhaps something much more poetic would work. Like The Loyal Playboy.”

“Goddamnit Rein.”

Felix bounced back, “The Apex Adulterer.”

“I have never cheated on anyone!”

Reinhard tapped his chin, “The Honorable Womanizer?”

“Is anyone even listening to me?!”

“The Pauper Playboy!”

Reinhard snapped his fingers, “That one could resonate with the people. Despite its lecherous connotations, one could interpret it as a man of down-to-earth origins with a heart that loves all.”

Felix waved his hand in the air, “Rolls off the tongue. Symbolic. Catches the ear. I think we have a winner.”

The boy slammed his hands onto his face. Subaru would pound his skull into the couch, if he wasn’t worried about hitting Julyea’s thighs, “That is the absolute worst of them all.”

Speaking of Julyea, she muttered softly, “I quite like it.”

Subaru peaked through his fingers, seeing the beautiful woman above him, awkwardly twirl her hair in one finger, he whispered, “…Okay. Maybe it’s not that bad.”

Reinhard spoke up, “What did you say Subaru-san?”

“I said its awful and I hate it.”

Felix did not let up, “That sucks because it’s going to stick forever. Welcome to the club, Subaru-kyun! Or should I say, Pauper Playboy~!”

“Felix. I hate you so much right now.”

“Cry about it.”

They kept bantering for another hour, eating the snacks that both Reinhard and Felix brought back.

Just as lunchtime was over Reinhard stopped Subaru from leaving.

“Subaru-san-“

“Rein. You can call me just Subaru. We’re friends now aren’t we?”

The Sword Saint smiled brightly, “I guess we are. If you don’t mind, I shall call you Subaru then.”

The boy chuckled and patted him on the shoulder, “Okay, but just so you know. You can use a nickname for me too. Can’t be the only one calling you Rein.”

He smiled even brighter, “I will keep that in mind, Subaru. Now, as for why I stopped you, I was wondering if you would like to come over to my estate for dinner. Lady Felt and I are about to leave to the main house quite soon, and I believe a farewell dinner would be most apt given your closeness with her.”

Subaru hummed, “Sure. It’ll be nice to catch up with her before you both are gone for a while.”

“You have no talent in combat.”

“…Rein. You really gotta work on your tact.”

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“Lady Felt. Please mind your table manners.”

“Fuck off Rein, come on. Big Bro is here! Let me have some fun before we have to leave.”

“…I mean. He kind of has a point Felt.”

“Oh, don’t get on my ass too, Bro. I thought you were cool.”

“Felt,” Subaru just stared at the little gremlin, “Your feet are on top of your salad.”

Felt shrugged as she shoved a large cluster of meat and bread into her mouth, “So? That’s where it belongs.”

“That’s disgusting.”

“That’s your opinion.”

“I think that’s the general population’s opinion.”

“Not in the slums.”

Subaru did a double take, “I-what? Who the hell in the slums likes feet in their salad?!” The boy had a disgusted expression, “Actually, no. I don’t want you to answer that.”

He said that last part, as Felt opened her mouth, she instead kept chewing with her mouth open.

Subaru slowly turned his head to Reinhard, “Is she always like this?”

Reinhard simply smiled, “She has improved dramatically since she first arrived.”

“…This is an improvement?!” Subaru pointed at Felt who flipped him off.

Reinhard kept smiling, “Indeed. Why, Lady Felt no longer eats with just her hands. She sometimes uses utensils. In addition, she also now sits in the chair instead of on the table.”

Reinhard brimmed with pride as Subaru then looked at Felt, “There is no way you are this bad at table manners. I remember you distinctly being more normal when I met you at the loot house.”

Felt just rolled her eyes, “Guess you don’t know me that well.”

“I think you’re screwing with Rein.”

“Hell no. He’s not my type.”

“That is not what I was implying!”

Reinhard shook his head, “While I understand your own intentions Subaru, I would like you to refrain from assuming that I hold similar desires. I am unable to have romantic attraction to Lady Felt due to our relationship as Master and Knight. However, that does not mean I am disapproving of your intentions with Lady Emilia. In fact, I am rather supportive. Though I will say-”

Subaru felt like his brain was about to explode, “Rein. Please. I’m trying to help you here. Can you please stop hitting me with friendly fire?!

Felt cocked her head, “Bro. Ya trying to flirt with me too? I thought you were going for Big Sis?”

“Why is that the only thing you got out of it?!”

Felt shrugged, taking another bite of her meat and carb abomination, “It was the funniest thing to focus on. Can you blame me?”

“I-just. Wha-I,” Subaru felt like he was hitting a blue screen of death within his mind.

“Uh oh. I think we broke him Rein.”

“Hm,” Reinhard got up and walked over to Subaru, “I apologize Subaru. If you would like, I could give you a massage, it may help with your brain fatigue.”

Subaru quickly got out of his self-induced brain spasm and shook his head, vehemently, “Nope! I’m good. Thanks Rein but I do not need a massage!”

“Hey, you should take it Bro. Rein is annoying as fuck. But his massages are great. Highly recommend.”

Subaru wanted to pound his head into the table, “Did you guys plan this all out?! Is this a bit?!”

The knight and slum princess looked at each other and then back at Subaru, simultaneously saying, “Nah.” “We did not.”

Subaru stared at them both, “You’re somehow making me miss eating with Crusch and Felix. And half of dinner is spent with Felix needling me.”

Reinhard chuckled, “Oh yes, Ferris does have that kind of dinner etiquette. It is quite humorous.”

Subaru sighed, before his eyes widened a bit, “Wait a moment. Ferris? Is that his real name?”

Reinhard cocked his head, “Oh no, his real name is truly Felix Argyle. However, he desires us to call him Ferris. A nickname that a dear friend of his gifted him when they were both young.”

Subaru felt his heart warm a bit, “Oh. That’s actually kind of adorable. I honestly thought this was another bit of his. Just like when he dresses up as a girl.”

“Oh no, Ferris likes to use his nickname to…annoy Captain Marcos.”

Subaru facepalmed, “Of course. Why did I expect anything else?”

The boy looked at his half-eaten dinner, a large portion of roast pork and mashed tatoes. Though it was tasty, he honestly was beginning to miss Rem’s cooking.

Rem.

Honestly, he didn’t know how to feel about her. She was nice, incredibly supportive, and has become a great friend over the last month.

But he still remembers those chains.

The pain.

Everything.

It still felt-

“Subaru?”

“Huh?” The boy was shaken out of the past and refocused on his extremely handsome friend, “Sorry Rein, wasn’t listening. You say something?”

“Yes, I was wondering if you would like to join me in some light after-dinner sparring. I could help you with training if you wish. I have a Divine Protection of Training that could help you with your goals.”
Subaru brightened up.

Man, I keep forgetting Reinhard is basically a cheat skill, in it of himself.

“Sure! Is Felt- “

Subaru looked over and saw Felt halfway out the window, they locked eyes.

“Uh.”

Felt blinked, “I’m not escaping.”

“I wasn’t going to ask that but now I feel like I should.”

She rolled her eyes, “Rein’s been on my ass, trying to keep me here all the time. So, I got used to telling everyone I’m not escaping just so they’d let me do stuff on my own.”

Subaru looked at Reinhard who nodded, “She has tried leaving the estate approximately 298 times in the last month.”

Subaru kept staring at Reinhard, “Rein. What the hell? Why didn’t you just let her leave?”

“This was before the selection had officially started, it would have been unwise for Lady Felt to get into an uncomfortable situation before her candidacy was legitimized. In addition, I was afraid that the Bowel Hunter incident was not an isolated incident. So, I wished to prevent any further possibilities before a repeat would occur.”

Subaru then turned his head to Felt, who was barely hanging onto the edge, she just deadpanned, “The fucker wouldn’t let me run away with all of his shit. I gave up after 3 weeks of him constantly surveilling me. And well…the Selection happened.”

“Ah,” Subaru just sighed, “So, where’s Rom then?”
“He’s getting some of our shit from the Slums with some morons I picked up yesterday. Now are you going to let me leave or are we going to play 20 questions?”

“You guys have that here too?”

Felt glared at him, he then gulped, “Sorry, sorry! I’ll see you later then Felt.”

She jumped out as Subaru turned to Reinhard, “Aren’t you worried that she’ll get into more trouble now? It’s now public knowledge that she’s officially a candidate. Wouldn’t that put a bigger target on her?”

Reinhard smiled, “I would be worried if she was leaving the mansion, fortunately, she is only grabbing something small from her room. And will meet us outside later.”

Subaru was confused on what was so important for her to leave but he just shrugged and got up from his chair, “Alright Rein, lead the way.”

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“You have no talent in combat.”

“…Rein. You really gotta work on your tact.”

The Sword Saint at least had the decency to look sheepish, albeit, still very pretty on the eyes, “Apologies, I have been working on it extensively with Julyea and Ferris, but it has been a work in progress, as you would call it. It is still quite difficult for me to act informal without it coming off as needlessly blunt.”

Subaru waved his hand in the air, “Hey, hey, I don’t mind it overall, especially considering you’re doing this to help me. Perhaps I need someone more blunt in my life…you know what? Ignore what I said. Be blunt with me. I think I need it.”

Reinhard’s eyes were sincere, “Are you sure?”

Subaru nodded firmly, “Yeah…I think my problem is that I’ve been too easy on myself. I should have been working on myself instead of just letting things pass me by.”

Maybe if I had my head on straight…I wouldn’t have messed everything up with Emilia.

“…Alright. In that case, I will be as efficient and analytical as possible.”
Reinhard walked over to Subaru and started grabbing his body all over.

“Woah, hey, uh…ah! That tickles!”

“Apologies, this will just take a second. I need to understand your general physiology more extensively in order to provide a more accurate assessment. In addition, how many plates were on the table during dinner?”

“I-what?”

“How many plates were on the table, including the ones we ate from and the ones that held each dish. Please tell me approximately how many there were.”

“Uh…” Subaru thought back as hard as possible, “I’d say around 14?”

“Mhm,” he then knelt down and grabbed Subaru’s leg, grasping the thighs, “In addition, please answer these next questions to the best of your ability. If a bird were to go at a speed of…”

The next ten minutes were chock full of Reinhard fully manhandling every part of Subaru’s body along with him being asked questions that ranged from simple mathematics to historical facts.

Reinhard brushed his hands and stepped back eyeing Subaru with an intense expression.

It was kind of uncomfortable.

“…Sooooo? What do you think?”

“…You have no talent in combat.”

“Okay, I already know that, what else?” Subaru wanted to pinch his nose bridge but he really couldn’t stay mad at the guy.

Reinhard kept a serious expression on, “Your overall muscle composition does not lean to any one side. You are neither too slow nor too fast. You do not have extremely high strength but you are also not extremely weak. Your stamina is above average. In addition, your body has no preference for any weapon. This is a positive and a negative. You will have no limitations when using any weapon, however, you lack any talent to have an advantage in one over the other. Thus, if you were to choose a weapon to specialize in, I would recommend choosing one that is long distance and may yield greater advantages for keeping yourself from danger. A whip or possibly a bow would not be bad options. Practicing them for the rest of your life would lead to decent results.”

So, I’m an all-rounder. And because I got no starting stats in any weapon skills, they’re all basically equivalent in usefulness, though long-range DPS would be better to me since I’m so weak.

Reinhard kept focusing, “You have no talent in magic either. While you do have the rare Yin affinity, your gate is too weak and small, your mana pool barely above a toddlers. With extensive practice, I believe you could learn other magical affinities over your lifetime. But this would require dedication on par with a magical scholar, consuming most of your waking hours.”

Basically, what Puck and Ros-chi told me. Though…

“Rein, before you continue, is it possible for me to specialize in just Yin magic and become the best at that?”

“Hmm,” Reinhard thought thoroughly going through all the possibilities, “If you were to dedicate a large portion of your time to practicing the magic, in addition to learning under a talented magician of the same aspect, then I could see you becoming someone on par with one of the best in around three decades or so.”

While Subaru wasn’t happy to hear that he had to dedicate 30 years of his life to studying, he wasn’t deterred quite yet, “So is that good or bad? And is there any way for me to speed up that process?”

Reinhard narrowed his eyes, though not with suspicion, it seemed he was really concentrating, “I believe it is quite good given that some people would be unable to fully utilize their magic at full capacity even with an entire lifetime of studying. As for how to speed such a process up, I am unfortunately unable to give you a good answer. I am not skilled at magic, my own constitution preventing me from doing so. If you were to talk to a master magician, I believe you could possibly get a more thorough answer.”

Well, guess I gotta go talk to Ros-chi eventually. Unless there is someone else here who is good with magic.

The Sword Saint continued his evaluation, “As for your mental capabilities, I believe you are above average at best when it comes to intelligence, you lack many of the instinctual knowledge, perception, and processing power that most geniuses have.”

“Well, that…sucks.”

Subaru knew he wasn’t a grade A student but hearing that his brain just doesn’t cut it when it comes to pure mental strength, still kind of stung when he isn’t that good at physical sports either. Guess he isn’t a nerd or a jock either.

“However, you do have innate talents in other areas: memory, deductive reasoning, and creativity. You were able to remember the exact number of plates within the dining hall despite being distracted by Lady Felt during the entire dinner. This lends me to believe that you have incredible depth perception and passive information gathering that can be used actively despite having little awareness at the time. In addition, your answers to the academic questions I gave you were below average. However, you were able to answer questions that are normally more difficult for most students, yet you couldn’t answer basic historical questions. This lends me to believe that you do not have the required education, but you have an incredible talent for using whatever information you do know and making highly specific conclusions to questions that require nuance.”

“Uh, wow that’s-“

Reinhard kept talking rapidly, “I could infer this from your answer to the question, ‘how would you describe Lugunica’s greatest weakness?’ Where you somehow were able to describe that our military power was rather weak if you took away the Dragon from our arsenal. And that the stipulation of Volcanica-sama only reacting to ‘external threats’ means that internal threats are our greatest enemy. How again were you able to surmise such a conclusion?”

Put on the spot, Subaru just spouted whatever first came to mind, “Uh, well. Lugunica reminds me of some of the games I used to play. Games where developers would often pair overpowered abilities with glaring weaknesses. One of them had a character with high damage and defense but was unable to get rid of debuffs. So, you just had to poison them from the inside. It kind of reminded me of that. Volcanica is a strong defense and strength but he can’t stop something that attacks from within. If that makes sense.”

Reinhard nodded, looking incredibly proud, “Yes, it does. It also reinforced what I believe to be your greatest strengths, at least mentally. You are someone who can deduce absolute conclusions to scenarios that you are unfamiliar with despite limited time and information. You are also creative enough to use prior knowledge in new ways, though you lack the resources and technique to fully implement them. You would be an incredible magician if only your gate and mana reserves were up to par. Otherwise, I could see that you would excel in professions such as law, investigation, and leadership.”

Subaru looked at Reinhard with awe.

Seriously, Reinhard would be the best career advisor. I feel like everyone in high school would love this guy.

Reinhard still wasn’t finished, “However, I do not believe your gate and mana will necessarily inhibit you. You seem to have an innate spiritual affinity.”

Subaru now felt proud, “That’s what Julyea said too. Is it that good?”

“Yes. It is. Incredibly rare as well, even more than your magical affinity. While spirits are attracted to me, I am unable to work or communicate with them. Julyea does not have this problem. She is on par with my spiritual attraction. Yours is a bit below ours, however, do not let such a comparison diminish your confidence in such an ability. Yours is innate, mine comes as a natural byproduct of my strength, and Julyea’s originates from her Divine Protection. Such differences mean that your affinity may hold potential that neither I nor Julyea can predict.”

Subaru was preening on the inside, “Alright so that’s it? What’s the verdict?”

Subaru already had an idea on what he wanted to focus on, but he still wanted Reinhard’s full examination.

The Sword Saint naturally obliged, “To summarize, I believe it would not be efficient for you to focus on your physical attributes. Working to make sure that they do not hinder you would be beneficial, but you shouldn’t specialize in a fighting style that you cannot commit to given your current physiology. Try not to stress your gate either, develop it slowly so that it can become useful as you grow older. Instead, focus on harnessing your mental and spiritual attributes to their fullest potential. Julyea can help you contract a spirit, if she hasn’t already offered to, and you should experiment with using spirits in tandem with possible combat styles that work best for you. I would recommend using deception and long-range distances, both would minimize your flaws while taking advantage of your Yin affinity and deductive reasoning.”

…I have no words. Well, except this:

Subaru waited until Reinhard finished before walking up slowly to his new best friend, holding both of his shoulders, “Rein. You are, the most, incredible person I have ever met. Thank you so much for this. You don’t know how much I needed this.”

Reinhard appeared sincerely happy to hear such words, “You praise me too much my friend. I should be the one thanking you.”

Subaru waved his hand in the air and patted him on the shoulder, “Oh please, what have I done that could possibly compare?’

“Well, you saved Lady Felt and allowed her to be discovered as the final Dragon Candidate, you helped return a sacred artifact to Lady Emilia, and you have been an incredible influence on Julyea.”

Subaru felt like he was on cloud nine, but he froze at the last part, “Okay, I can kind of see how I was helpful with the first two, but the last? Oh, come on. She’s been more helpful to me than I could ever to her.”

Reinhard cocked his head, “Hm, are you sure? What are your thoughts about her?”

…What kind of question is that?

Subaru paused, “I mean. She’s awesome. Like really cool. She’s like one of those ikemen girls, super handsome and confident. Acts all chivalrous and manly but kind of has a soft side that you can’t help but find adorable.”

Reinhard gave him an odd look, not saying anything, so Subaru just said, “What? Did I say something wrong?”

The Sword Saint shook his head, “No. In fact, I find that your view of Julyea is quite good. In fact, very pleasant to hear from you.”

Subaru raised his eyebrow, “What do you mean? Is she not like that all the time?”
“That’s not it. It’s more…your perspective of Julyea is more positive than most. What you would call cool, chivalrous, and adorable. Many would find pretentious, annoying, and unattractive.”

The boy pursed his lips, “…Well that’s dumb. Those people are dumb. They have bad taste.”

Reinhard stared at him for a few seconds before laughing, a very hearty laugh.

Subaru got flustered, “What? I’m right though!”

That just made Reinhard laugh even more, before calming down, wiping a tear from his eye, and clasping his shoulder, “Subaru. You are a good man. Genuinely. Your personality is rather refreshing, something I believe Julyea would agree. You will be a good influence on her.”
The boy grumbled though he did feel good from the compliment, “Come on, I’m not that great. I didn’t even do anything. Just…mess up and make mistakes.”

“You may view yourself as such. But I would disagree. You’ve already done the impossible. And I expect you will further astound me. Believe in yourself. And know that, just like our Finest of Knights, I too believe in the good that you can bring to the people around you.”

“I-“ Subaru felt like he was about to choke up, “…Thanks Rein. Again. For everything.”

It was weird. The last few days. Everything. Felt like a roller coaster.

Ever since he left the mansion, his mind has turbulent. He felt so…useless. So powerless. Barely managing to survive despite everything.

He wanted to be helpful. To be special. To do something for the girl he loved.

…And he messed it all up. He didn’t even consider her feelings. He didn’t tell her what he wanted. He didn’t even know what he wanted at the time!

He misses her. He misses everyone. So much.

But now?

His heart felt warm.

Is this what it’s like to have friends?

Reinhard clapped him on the back, “Of course. It is only a shame that I can do so little before leaving.”

“Oh, don’t say that- “

“Are you guys finally done or do I gotta watch you two flirt more? Because I seriously do not want to see you fuck my knight Big Bro.”

“I’m not into guys like that!” Subaru yelled automatically.

He then paused and looked around, “Uh what- “

“Up here, dipshit.”

Felt then dropped down from the tree she was hiding in, stretching her body.

Subaru was flabbergasted, “How long were you up there?”

She stretched from side to side before shrugging, “The whole time.”

“Why didn’t you just come down?”

“I’m not going to sit through Rein spouting shit about you for the last hour, awake. So, I took a nap. Come on, it’s boring as piss to hear someone just talk about how wimpy someone else is.”

“I-why-I just,” Subaru pinched his nose bridge, “Rein. Please. For the love of God. Do something about her while you’re in Flanders. I’m like 80% she’s going to piss off someone important.”

Felt rolled her eyes, “Like you aren’t the same Bro-“

“Hey!”

“-besides, not like you can’t see it yourself.”

He expression turned confused, “Wait, what do you mean?”

The little thief smirked and held out her hand.

“Join my camp, Big Bro.”

…Well, that was unexpected.

Chapter Text

“Join my camp, Big Bro.”

Subaru looked at her with wide eyes, “Wait, what?! Where did this come from?”

Felt snorted, “What? It’s not like your part of anyone’s camp at the moment.”

Subaru felt his blood pressure spike, but he tried to calm himself, gritting his teeth slightly, “I know. But I’m still loyal to Emilia.”

Felt rolled her eyes, “And?”

“I-wait, what? What do you mean, ‘and?’”

“I mean, you don’t have to stop being loyal to Big Sis.”

Subaru turned his head to Reinhard, “Is she being serious?”

Reinhard smiled, “My Lady is never not serious.”

“So, when she had her feet in the salad, that was a completely sincere action?”

“Indeed, one cannot aim for the heights if they do not put their all into every decision they make, regardless of severity,” Reinhard beamed with pride as Subaru felt exhaustion course through his brain.

Rein, don’t speak so deeply about a girl who puts her feet in salads. You sound like one of those people with really weird fixations on the internet.

Sighing and rubbing his temples, he turned back to the little audacious thief, “I’m going to be honest, my mind has been all over the place lately. Can we just skip all the bullshit and get to what you want out of this?”

Felt grinned, “See, this is why I want ya in my camp Bro. We’re two peos of the same pod.”

Subaru felt his migraine get worse, muttering, “It’s peas. Not peos. Apples not appas…”

Felt ignored his rapid descent into vocabulary-based insanity, “The point is: you aren’t in anyone’s territory anymore. That means you’re free to do whatever. So, join me. We’ll be going to Flanders, and it will be boring as shit there with just Rein and the three Morons. Then, after you’re done training and being a knight, you can choose to go back to Emilia. Or not. Whatever you want. I don’t really care as long as I’m not bored.”

Subaru considered her words carefully, “…The only problem is that I can’t really complete my knight’s training with you.”
Felt looked at him like he was dumb, “Bro. We have Reinhard. The guy literally has a Divine Protection for everything. If he trains you, he’ll probably be able to get you stronger than anyone else, in a shorter amount of time.”

That was tempting. Reinhard already pinpointed Subaru’s exact strengths and weaknesses in only a few minutes. Think of what could happen in just a month or even a year!

However…

Subaru thought for a few seconds before making a decision, “While I’m grateful for the offer, I still have lots to do here before I can leave. So, for now, I’ll have to decline.”

Felt wasn’t dissuaded, “That isn’t exactly a no, though. So that means, once you’re done with finishing your shit, you’ll consider joining us in Flanders?”

“…I’ll think about it. I don’t want to get your hopes up-“

Felt waved her hand in the air, “It’s fine, it’s fine. Was just wanting to make sure you know that we got a place for you is all. Don’t get it twisted that I need you or some shit…also, here.”

She tossed a package over, which Subaru barely caught, it was a small pouch made of various colors and stitches.

Subaru gazed at it and then at Felt, who got annoyed by his expression, “You going to open it or not?! Stop staring at it like its some kind of fucking bomb…”

Felt grumbled as Subaru did as he was told, loosening the string around the opening and revealing…

A small bracelet made from metal and cloth. Its design was simple, black with orange diamonds in the center, connected by an orange line that covered the circumference of the bracelet. The cloth itself had some small mistakes; odd stitching here and there coupled with some misshapen diamonds. It had a metal clip on each end, so it was easy to tie together.

Subaru looked up at Felt who was blushing slightly, looking anywhere else but him, scratching her neck. Her hands noticeably had bandages around her fingers. Subaru smiled warmly.

Felt still wouldn’t look at him, “Don’t get any ideas, it’s just a thank you present for saving me and Rom. It’s nothing but you better-AH!”

Felt got cut off by Subaru hugging her and spinning her around, the bracelet already around his wrist, “You are the best Lil Sis I’ve ever had!”

“LET ME GO, YOU ASSHOLE!”

“NOPE~!”

Reinhard smiled fondly as Subaru kept twirling Felt around like a tornado. His smile got brighter as Felt bit Subaru, making him scream like a girl.

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Felt grumbled as Subaru waved with jovial glee at them, walking back to the Karsten Manor with a skip in his step. Reinhard waved back with equal amounts of glee but hidden behind his usual perfect demeanor.

He glanced at Felt and smiled, “Lady Felt, I am sorry that you were unable to get Subaru on our side.”

Felt continued to grumble, “Whatever…it’s not like we needed him.”

Reinhard smiled at that, “Apologies if I am too frank, but weren’t you the one who was ‘angry’ about Lady Emilia and how she ‘left him to dry here?’”

Felt tried to smack him but got blocked with one hand, her face was pink and annoyed, “Shut up Rein…it’s just bullshit that she left him like that.”

Reinhard’s brow furrowed, “I believe there is much more to this than we think. My guess is that Lady Emilia has many reasons for such a decision.”

“Even then, you don’t just leave people you care about, for your sake or theirs…”

Felt finally calmed down and stopped trying to pummel her knight, scratching her head, “Besides that…it’s a waste to have Bro just be a knight.”

Reinhard raised an eyebrow, “What do you mean?”

“Oh, come on. Don’t be an ass. You know exactly what I mean. You did that whole analysis thing. Big Bro’s got potential. I can feel it. The guy might not be strong, smart, or anything special. But something about him feels like he can get anything done, no matter what.”

Felt didn’t understand but something in her gut was telling her that having Subaru in her camp was a golden ticket. It was telling her that he’d make waves in the world, despite his lackluster attributes. And that letting him get away was a terrible mistake.

…Still, she can’t force him to do what he doesn’t want. It would be hypocritical of her to do so.

Reinhard hummed to himself, “…Perhaps Subaru has captured your heart?”

Felt blushed before trying to do a twelve-hit combo on Reinhard, “Shut up! That is not what I was saying!”

The Sword Saint chuckled while continuously parrying Felt’s blows.

He thought to himself. It would have been nice if Subaru had joined our camp. Perhaps in another life…I am quite envious of you, Julyea.

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“Woah, what the hell?”

Subaru arrived at the Karsten manor and saw some carriages parked outside the area, Felix was sitting on the steps to the front door, waving his legs back and forth.

He saw Subaru and sprung up waving, “Oi, Subaru-kyun!”

“Oh God, damn it.”

Subaru didn’t hate Felix but the cat boy did have a habit of getting on his nerves constantly.

Felix skipped over towards him, wearing his usual blue frilly dress, and grabbed his arm, motioning towards the gardens, “Hey, hey! Come check out the flowers with me.”

Subaru looked at him confused, “Don’t I get a say in this?”

“Nyope! You’ve been out all day and Ferri has been soooo lonely! So come take responsibility.”

“I don’t like how you said that.”

“Too bad!”

Subaru begrudgingly let Felix drag him away towards a more secluded part of the mansion. They stopped right next to some brightly colored flowers: yellow, pink, and orange. Felix let go of Subaru’s arm and sat down to look at them.

“So,” Subaru knelt to the ground right next to Felix, “Is this it? You wanted me to come with you to look at flowers?”

Felix waved his head, back and forth, side to side, “Hm, hm! Nope! But can’t a guy spend some quality time with a cutie like me~?”

“You’re cute?”

“That’s a terrible joke, Subaru-kyun. I’m absolutely, Oddamn adorable.”

“…Are you sure?”

“Are you blind?”

“Are you ugly?”

“Where did that come from?!”

“I thought we were asking insulting questions?!”

Subaru and Felix glared at each other before smirking and chuckling.

Felix motioned towards a flower and plucked it, “Well, you seem to be in higher spirits. Was dinner with Rein that good?”

Subaru pushed a flower to the ground, making it bounce back, “…Yeah. It was. He gave me some pointers on how to improve and what to focus on. I think…I know what I need to do.”

“Really? Rein is a pretty good mentor. Though usually he doesn’t really give out advice like that willy-nilly. A part of me thinks he was trying to recruit you into his Lady’s camp.”

“Oh well, Rein didn’t. But Felt did.”

“Oh, that’s cool…wait, what?”

Subaru kept poking the flowers while Felix turned his head slowly and stared, “Yeah, Felt asked me if I wanted to join her, but I refused.”

“…Wait, why? Wouldn’t that be the best deal for you? She has the backing of the Sword Saint’s family. Not only that, Reinhard is one of the best people to learn from. He could practically make you into a master swordsman in a year. And I’m not even joking about that!”

Subaru looked at the flower and saw it was slightly wilting, he then pushed some of the other flowers around it so that the flower could stand strong, “I know. Even I’m still kind of regretful about declining so quickly. But…I have other things to prioritize.”

“Like what?”

“I made a promise. Well, sort of. But that doesn’t mean I want to break this one. Not like the others.”

“To Emilia?”

Subaru thought for a moment, trying to weigh whether it would be alright for him to tell. He glanced at Felix and saw how sincere his curiosity was.

Subaru relented, “…No. To Julyea. I made a promise with her that I would become a knight. And while I could reach that dream by going with Reinhard, it doesn’t feel right of me to just leave her. She stood by me when I was clueless and being an idiot. I don’t want to repay her by being flaky. If I’m going to become a knight, I’m going to do it with her guidance.”

Felix kept staring at him before sighing, “…You’re such an idiot.”

“Hey! I know I am but…I’m trying to be better.”

Felix shook his head and then smiled, “I didn’t mean that as an insult. Well, kind of. You just…remind me of an old friend.”

“Really, what was he like?”

Felix smile became somber as he twirled a flower within his hand, “He was an amazing man. Smart, handsome, strong. Completely unlike you-“

“Wow, thanks.”

“But he was also stubborn, loyal, and had a habit of wanting to do things in his own idealistic way. Even if it seemed unrealistic, or stupid, he wanted to live by his own terms. And die by his own terms. He was just that type of guy. Someone you can’t help but watch and admire, even if they fail.”

“…He sounds like a wonderful man.”

“He was.”

Subaru didn’t need incredible intuition to understand what Felix was implying.

“Thanks for telling me that Felix.”

Felix threw away the flower, “It was nothing. Besides, Ferri still doesn’t see what Julyea sees in you. You still seem like the type of guy who is more likely to give up rather than face his problems head on.”

“Urghk!” The insult stung Subaru’s heart.

Just as he was about to retort, Felix stood up and gave him a warm smile, “But…Ferri can be wrong. Julyea has proven Ferri wrong, countless times. And Ferri can admit, you aren’t that half bad, Subaru-kyun.”

The smile was genuine and infectious, making Subaru feel warm once again, “...Thanks again, Ferris. I’ll try to make sure that happens.”

Subaru also got up and brushed his pants while Felix looked towards the manor.

“Alright, let’s head back! I think Old Man Wil made some extra muffins for us, wouldn’t want them to get cold.”
“Oh, did Crusch finish her business meeting?”

“Oho~? It seems Subaru-kyun is less ignorant than I expected,” Felix nudged his arm as Subaru rolled his eyes.

“Oh, come on, it’s easy to guess. You aren’t the type to just do things without thinking, despite how you act, and Crusch seems like someone who has secrets she wants to keep. Putting two and two together was easy.”

“Ah! Subaru-kyun is such an invasive and perverted man! I feel like I am getting chills from your eyes looking me all over-“

“Ew, ew, ew! STOP!”

Despite his tone, Subaru heart and mind felt light.

It seems he made another friend without even realizing it.

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“So, what’s on the agenda today?”

Subaru glanced over at Julyea as they walked side-by-side within the commercial district.

She kept her eyes forward but smiled softly, “Our agenda, is to simply patrol our given areas and keep watch of any unsavory adversaries. Afterwards, I will be helping you decide on what weapon to use as well as making a contract with a spirit. We will begin all of this after lunch. There is a wonderful restaurant nearby that I believe you will enjoy.”

Subaru perked up, “Oh? I didn’t know my Master knew me so well already.”

Julyea stifled a giggle, coughing into her hand, “It is a knight’s duty to know their squire extensively, even from the beginning. I have been watching you closely and I believe I can correctly guess your taste in food.”

Subaru looked at her, “You’ve been watching me?”

Julyea coughed, an actual cough because she choked, “I-I have been observing you, respectfully mind you, in order to create a more efficient and effective training plan. In addition, it would be unwise for me to recommend nutrition that you would be less than inclined to follow as-“

She finally glanced at Subaru and saw him smiling like a Cheshire Cat, “My Master is sooooo cooo-ah!”

She squeezed his nose softly, frowning and pouting at him, “I feel as if Felix has had a bad influence on you as of late. I’m afraid of having two people with such bad habits constantly by my side.”

Subaru just laughed, “Oh come on, I’m not that bad compared to Ferris.”

She giggled this time, “Give it time, I’m sure you can give him a run for his money.”

She then stopped walking as she realized what Subaru said, staring at his back, before smiling.

…It’s only been a few days, but it feels like he has fit in quite well to our little group.

She then shook her head before walking forward once more, catching up to his side without a moment lost.

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“Apologies for the wait Subaru, was there something wrong with the reservation?”

Julyea was quite confused. She had left Subaru to grab their table—she needed to pick up something from the blacksmith—and was hoping that he could have relaxed inside while waiting for her. Only to return with him still standing outside.

Subaru looked completely embarrassed, “I may have forgotten to tell you. I…don’t know how to read that well, yet.”

Julyea laughed before realizing, “Oh, you are serious. You do not know how to read scripts?”

Subaru scratched his cheek, looking like he wanted to be anywhere else other than here, “Yeah, I’ve only recently started studying. And when I was trying to ask the front waiter, they didn’t seem to have a reservation. No, ‘Julyea Juukuulius’ to be found, and I couldn’t check their writing to know if there was a mistake. Sorry, I should have told you about this earlier.”

She frowned and then shook her head before smiling once again, “While I will reprimand you for being careless, I am glad that such a mistake happened now rather than later. Let me try to see if our reservation isn’t hidden somewhere.”

Subaru obliged and let her walk past him as she walked up to the counter at the front entrance, a waitress with a ponytail noticed her arrival, as well as her clothing, and promptly fixed her posture. Subaru followed right behind his knight.

“O-oh, welcome to Oswald’s Finest, do you have a reservation?”

Julyea gave her politest smile, making the waitress blush, “I, in fact, do. Under the name, Julyea Juukuulius.”

The waitress stumbled as she looked over the paper in front of her, getting more anxious as her eyes pored over every possible name.

Julyea raised an eyebrow, “Is there something wrong?”

The waitress flinched and gave a sheepish smile, “A-apologies but it seems that I can’t find your name on our list.”

The knight’s brow furrowed, “Would you mind if I took a look at the list myself?”

The waitress robotically handed the paper over to her. Julyea skimmed the page until she found the exact spot she was looking for.

“Ah! That is it. It seems whoever was in charge of recording my reservation, misspelled both my first and last name.”

The waitress paled as she walked around the counter to look at the paper as well.

Julyea pointed at the spot, “You spelled my name J-U-L-I-A E-U-C-L-I-U-S instead of J-U-L-Y-E-A J-U-U-K-U-U-L-I-U-S. A quite simple mistake but an unfortunate one.”

The waitress became almost ghostlike as she bowed repeatedly, “I am so sorry for our transgression, we did not mean to insult the Juukuulius household with such a blunder. We will make sure to punish the server who had misspelled your name, thoroughly!”

Julyea put her hand up, “It is alright. I understand that my name is unorthodox compared to most. I will take your apology sincerely. No need for any punishment.”

Still, the waitress continued to apologize as she took both Julyea and Subaru to their seats.

As they sat down, Subaru kept giving her a weird look.

Julyea blinked, “Is there a blemish on my complexion?”

Subaru shook his head but kept giving her the same look, “…Your name is Julwhyeeuh?”

“…Are you alright?”

She was half-concerned that he was having some kind of stroke, Subaru looked at her like she was insane, “Julyea. I thought your name was spelled…like normally? J-U-L-I-A. Like, I can’t even comprehend there being a Y or E in there.”

The knight began to understand, chuckling, “Ah, yes. Apologies. It has been some time since someone has brought it up, most have gotten used to the unusual spelling. There is a reason for it, though whether you find it humorous or not will depend on certain factors…”

“Like what?”

Julyea tapped her fingers together, “…I know you were under the employment of Roswaal Mathers, but how open are you to stories that may paint his family as…unsavory?”

Without skipping a beat, “Julyea. Please tell me all of Ros-chi’s dirty secrets. The things I could blackmail him for. I want to know everything.”

Julyea stared at his audacity before bursting out laughing, “Hahaha! Alright, alright. But do not get your expectations high. The story is not that exciting.”

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Apparently Julyea was wrong, because Subaru has spent the last twenty minutes laughing and giggling like a lunatic.

Trying to catch his breath, Subaru took a sip of water, “Okay, okay. I’m good. But seriously, I can’t believe Ros-chi’s grandmother tried to seduce your grandfather so much, that it led to her name being seen as a curse to your family! That’s so funny!”

Roswaal Julia Mathers was seen as a promiscuous woman for a time back then. Often flirting with many men of high standing or stature, such as the previous Blue, Garitch Fabless, if rumors were to be believed.

Julyea laughed with him, finding it contagious, “Indeed. My father and mother were actually expecting a boy and intended to name me Julius. They were surprised to find that I was a girl, and with no other options, they tried to name me Julia. Only for my father to immediately change the spelling as he was apparently, ‘vomiting every time he looked at that particular name.’ As a result, my name has ever been the unorthodox Julyea.”

Subaru chuckled, taking a loaf of bread from the basket, “Honestly, I’m starting to like it. I was surprised at first, but it sounds better than the other spelling or Julius. Much better as a name than those ones.”

Julyea raised an eyebrow, “Does that mean you would not like me as much if I was named after either?”

Subaru flinched before waving his hand in the air, “Of course not! Even if you were named Julia with an ‘I’ or you were a guy named Julius, we’d still get along!

Julyea giggled, finding his reaction adorable, “Then I am glad you are fond of my name, many often find it odd or hard to understand phonetically.”

Subaru blushed slightly before waving it away. A thought occurred in his mind as he was shown to be tapping his chin in contemplation, “You know speaking of names, Ferris and Rein have their own nicknames. Why don’t you have one?”

Julyea shrugged, not thinking on it much, “Unfortunately, there aren’t many easy nicknames that roll off the tongue when it comes to my name.”

Subaru smiled, “That’s where you’re wrong. From here on, you shall be dubbed…July!”

“…”

“…Do you not like it?”

Julyea blinked and smiled, “No, no. It sounds lovely, but I do not understand where it came from?”

Subaru blushed before scratching his neck, “Ah, my bad. Let me explain. So back where I come from, we name the months differently compared to here. So, like Marshba is called March. As for Jularm, we call it July! Interestingly, it’s named after a guy called Julius.”

How odd. How isolated was his home? He said it was beyond the Great Waterfal… From what I know, all of the nations use the same months, as variations could lead to difficulties when trading. Adding onto that, his lack of knowledge regarding our common language. How curious…

Despite her lingering thoughts, Julyea felt warm, “July, huh…I quite like it.”

Julyea then realized something as well, “So, what shall your nickname be then? I am quite fond of the Pauper Playboy so maybe-“

“Nope, nope, nope! Never. Never, ever, ever!” Subaru cut her off while waving his hands in the air with incredible exaggeration, making her giggle even more at his antics.

“We shall work on it then,” she noticed the waiter was returning with their food, “Ah, lets put a cork in this for later, perhaps Rein or Ferris have their own opinions. For now, let’s eat.”

She was quite excited for their afternoon plans. While patrol may seem boring to most, it is how the knights can truly interact with the public, daily. It’s where many can truly connect with the people they are protecting. And given Subaru’s lack of knowledge of the Royal Capital, it will be fun showing him all the stores and places Julyea was familiar with.

Though hopefully nothing too exciting happens.

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“Kid, do you have a different woman for every day of the week?!”

Or maybe not.

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“Kid, do you have a different woman for every day of the week?!”

“Do you have to say it like that?!”

Julyea stared at Subaru with an intense expression, “What does he mean by that, my squire?”

Subaru tried to look everywhere else as the literal radiant beauty bared down upon him, “Uhhhh, well-“

The appa seller, Kadomon, waved his hand in the air nonchalantly before holding up three fingers slowly, “There was the one four days ago, the maid with blue hair. Saw you from a distance but I knew that was you with her at the front of the carriage.”

“That was Rem! She and I are coworkers, we are not dating!”

I do not know what dating is but I doubt you shall stay ‘coworkers’ for long, given how in love that girl is.

Kadomon shook his head, “I don’t know what ‘dating’ is but that doesn’t explain the lady who was with you the next day. She wore a cloak, but I can’t remember her appearance that well.”

Julyea quickly connected the dots and intervened, “Ah yes, she was a friend of both of ours. Lady…Emmy.”

Subaru stifled a laugh and just smiled at the help, “Yes. Emmy. She and I are…friends.”

Though his language was slightly stilted at the end, his smile still endured. It was progress, though Julyea still felt sympathetic for his complicated love life.

Desiring one’s own candidate while being pursued by a maid. Ah, how romantic~!

Kadomon continued, “Then there was that girl from two days ago, the demi-human in the blue dress.”

Both knight and squire looked at each other, saying in unison, “Felix.”

“No, it was Ferris or something.”

Julyea face-palmed as Subaru just deadpanned at Kadomon, “He’s a guy, not a girl.”

“She was wearing a dress.”

“Yes. He was.”

“…Oh. Od.”

“Ferris is cool,” Subaru really wanted to get this conversation over with, “Anyways, that means only two girls. And I’m not in a relationship with any of them.”

Kadomon wasn’t convinced, “Oh yeah, totally, Mr. Pauper Playb-“

Subaru cut him off and got up into his face, “Who in the world told you that nickname?”

Somewhere in the Healing Institute, a cat boy sneezed. It wasn’t that cute but the boy would disagree heartily if told.

Subaru pinched his nose bridge, “I’m going to kill Ferris later.”

Kadomon pushed the squire’s face away, “Jeez, your breath stinks kid. And you can’t blame me for assuming this shit, given how the rumors are.”

Subaru winced, “There are rumors about me?”

Kadomon sighed, “Of course, the whole talk of the town is about the Royal Candidates. But the gossip is all about how some ‘black-haired squire’ is putting the moves on the Finest of Knights. Ah. I mean…no offense, Lady Juukuulius.”

Subaru seemed to be horrified but Julyea kept her reactions under control. She was no stranger to libel and slander, so these rumors were expected given her general notoriety as a knight, “It is quite fine. Just know that such rumors are drivel and nonsense. Subaru has been a gentleman and has shown no unsavory desires towards me.”

Subaru immediately got shaken out of his horror by Julyea’s words and added, “Yeah! I wouldn’t ever do anything bad towards July! Besides, she’s like completely out of my league. Like way above me. Could never succeed even if I tried, so all those rumors are complete bullshit.”

Julyea cocked her head at Subaru, “What do you mean by ‘out of my league?’”

Subaru flinched, “Well I mean, you’re like…really beautiful. And well. Cool. Not like me. So, like. Yeah. It’s not like I could ever have a chance if I did want to.”

Julyea narrowed her eyes, “Subaru, I do not understand. From what I can see, you are of the same league as me.”

“Well, that’s very nice of you to say but-“

Nope, Julyea was not letting this slide, “It is not niceties. You are very much a handsome man. Unconventional they may be, but you have striking features that women would no doubt love. You are slim and muscular though not to an extreme degree. You hold good natural hygiene. You take care of your body. You are hard working and quite a joy to talk to. You make people laugh and your actions can be quite adorable from a certain point of view. Above all, you have a certain casual kindness that comes from the heart. A kindness that no doubt comes from an equally warm soul. Do not doubt how hard that is to find that these days, nor how attractive that can be to women who desire a partner that is attentive and loving. While you may think I am of a ‘different league’ than you, I must frankly disagree, given your own admirable attributes.”

She finally finished her monologue and focused back to the two next to her.

Specifically, the red tomato faced man, blushing mad in front of her, his hands on his face.

Julyea blinked, “Ah. Did I say something wrong?”

She looked to Kadomon who was holding a bag of appas towards her, his face looking like it was about to have a stroke, “Please. Just, take the appas and leave. Otherwise, the poor kid might have a heart attack.”

Julyea awkwardly took the bag and pushed Subaru towards their next destination as Kadomon shook his head.

He muttered to himself, “Rumors are false, my ass. More like the complete opposite…”

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“Now then, try to concentrate on the flow of your mana within your gate. And slowly push it from within, through the rest of your body.”

After their patrol had finished, Julyea invited Subaru back to her mansion, where she would teach Subaru some of the basics of the Flow Method, combat, and Spirit Arts. Felix’s diagnosis that morning showed that Subaru’s gate was making great progress. The lack of stress, in addition to Felix’s constant healing, meant that his gate was sturdier than before. Though not by much. He recommended slow methodical training of Subaru’s magic.

So Julyea believed practicing the Flow Method was a good idea, “Mana flow takes months to induce increased physical attributes. Years if you wish to master it. However, simply visualizing and pushing your gate in small ways can be much more of a benefit than casting a spell daily. This way, you can practice your magic like a muscle without endangering yourself.”

Subaru kept closing his eyes, following Julyea’s instructions, “I think I’m understanding. Kind of like how you can build stamina by walking a lot first before trying to run long distance. But honestly it feels like I’m more constipated than anything.”

Julyea snorted and giggled, nudging Subaru’s head softly, “No more crude jokes, my squire. While I may be lenient with you, do not think I won’t punish you dearly for doing so in front of the Captain or other knights.”

Subaru did an exaggerated pose of shame, “Apologies Dame Julyea! I will not portray such an unsightly visage in front of you!”

Julyea kept trying her best, and failing, to stifle her laughter, “Good I-pfft. You would do well…to do that.”

Julyea has been laughing quite a lot these last few days. While she always enjoyed her time with her other friends, comedy was never their strong suit. No matter how much Felix disagreed.

Despite his jester-like behavior, Subaru was trying his best, “But seriously, I don’t feel anything yet. Am I doing something wrong?”

She shook her head, “While I may not be as proficient at water magic as Ferris, my buds are capable of making up for my inefficiencies. And from what Kua is telling me, you are slowly pushing the mana outward. Not enough to retain any effects but there is a slight tug. More than enough to push your gate without destroying it. Let’s finish here, just remember to practice this daily.”

Subaru smiled, opening his eyes, “Awesome! So, what’s next?”

Julyea motioned in front of her, already laying out the tools that she picked up earlier from the blacksmith, “Now, we will experiment with weapons, seeing which ones you will want to focus on while also having the others as possible alternatives.”

Subaru eyed them carefully: there was a dagger, a short sword, a whip, a bow, and what looked to be a sling.

Subaru picked up the dagger, feeling it’s weight, “Rein never mentioned a knife, do you think it would be good for me to learn?”
Julyea stretched her muscles, “While Reinhard was correct that you should use weapons with long-distance capabilities, there is practicality in being proficient with a knife. While you will be unable to do any fancy techniques or complicated moves, close quarters combat is always a possibility, and being able to use a knife in those circumstances will be better than having nothing. I will be teaching you how to use with the bare minimum training, specifically where to strike and how to disable a person’s movement.”

Subaru carefully placed the knife down before looking towards the sling, “So you guys use these too, huh?”

“The sling? Yes, while many may consider it rudimentary given the widespread usage of earth magic, it is a great substitute when mana is a precious resource. Many campaigns in the past often brought slings and used them in conjunction with stones, night banishers, and pyroxene crystals in order to bombard the enemy with light munitions.”

Subaru whistled while twirling the weapon in his hand, “We have a story back home where a man, David, was able to defeat a giant with this. The giant, Goliath, was considered one of the strongest fighters in the world, only to be taken out in a second with just a sling and stone. The story’s lesson was to teach people that strength doesn’t come just from size or physical stature, but also from technology and the correct use of weapons.”

Julyea cracked her neck and rotated her shoulder, “Quite an intriguing tale. It reminds me of the story of the Great Sage and the Hungry Horse King.”

Subaru pulled the string of the bow, testing its flexibility, “Is it similar?”

“Hmm, a tad. The story goes that the Great Sage was traversing the Augria Sand Dunes in search of a place to call home. During her journey, she encountered multiple monsters and mabeasts of different sizes and ferocity. One such monster was the Hungry Horse King. A fearsome predator that could recover from every wound she gave it.”

Julyea finished stretching and walked over holding her hand out towards the bow, “Could you give me the bow, Subaru?”

Subaru obliged as she firmly grasped the grip before running her finger down the string, Julyea continued speaking while doing so, “The Hungry Horse King was impossible to defeat conventionally, so the Great Sage had to use unconventional means to defeat it. She realized that the monster may be able to regenerate their external limbs quickly, but not their internal organs. Using precise spells and a cunning mind, she was able to pin point the locations of all organs and destroy them in one fell swoop, eliminating the Hungry Horse King without issue.”

Julyea then whispered, “El Huma.” Her little water spirit created a thin spike of ice onto her bow, she pulled it back with the string, aimed carefully, and let it loose.

The icicle met its mark and nearly tore apart a nearby shrub.

The Finest of Knights whistled as she looked back at Subaru, who was gawking in pure awe.

She smiled, trying to stave off the embarrassment, “As you can see, a bow can be used in tandem with magic to increase both of their destructive potential. While most may prefer to use magic only, the added propulsion created by the Flow Method can allow marksman greater options and range. Though unfortunately, you may find it less appealing to you. Yin magic lacks spells that could be improved with the addition of archery.”

Subaru nodded, “Yeah I was told Yin Magic is mostly debuffs and smokescreens.”

“Debuffs?”

“Oh, uh sorry, I meant, spells that make you weaker and stuff.”

“Oh, quite an interesting word. But yes, they often play a more supportive role than offensive. In addition, while I understand what Reinhard meant when recommending ‘distance.’ I would personally disagree on training archery.”

Subaru grimaced, “You think it wouldn’t fit me?”

Julyea hummed, “Hm, not quite. Archery is difficult to master, especially if you are lacking in the Flow Method. Skilled bowmen require decades of practice and physical strength conditioning in order to obtain the apex of precision needed to be useful in combat. While I wouldn’t exactly say it is impossible for you to do the same, you may not believe it to be the most optimal weapon for you.”

Subaru picked up the knife and the sling into both hands, “I think I understand. It’s like focusing on the sword or magic. I could focus on either, but it would require tons of work and time. So whichever I should choose, I should make sure to either give it my all or to at least understand how much work needs to be put in.”

Julyea was about to give him the horned dragon sign but then decided something better. She gave him the same sign he gave her before, a ‘thumbs-up’ as he calls it.

Subaru smiled wide at that, it made her heart warm.

He then placed the sling in his pocket before holding the knife more firmly in one hand, “So what should we start with?”

Julyea walked over and eyed his body, grabbing his hand and fingers, “Let’s work on stance first before some sparring. Make sure to have your thumb wrapped around your finger instead of the other way around. There.”

She then eyed his posture and started correcting it, “Feet shoulder-width apart, make sure your knees are bent but loose. Place your right foot forward as that is where your dominant hand is.”

“Uh, Julyea-“

She ignored him, continuing to touch his body and moving towards his hips, “Distribute the weight to the balls of your feet and keep your body at an angle.”

“Julyea-“ Subaru’s voice went high-pitched.

Julyea focused on his face and arms, grabbing where she needed to, “Make sure you are always facing forward where your weapon is, keeping the enemies in the peripheral at all times. Your grip needs to be firm while your body is loose, any tension will only cause excess exertion, you need to be flexible when fighting, otherwise you will end up becoming countered easily.”

“…”

She then patted him on the shoulder and stepped back smiling, “There. Your stance is much better.”

She cocked her head, “Subaru? Are you alright?”

“Y-yep, totally fine,” his face was red, “Just need a minute.”

“Ah, I see. Would you like to take a break or…?”

“Nope! Let’s get started. Give me your best shot!”

She smirked and held her hand out, the other behind her back, “You as well.”

Subaru raised an eyebrow, “You’re not going to use a weapon?”

“This shall be enough. Do not worry. I will not get hurt.”

“…Okay, don’t regret it!”

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Subaru was currently on the ground, his tracksuit dirty and covered in grass stains.

“Ugh…”

Julyea stood over him, “Had enough?”

Despite the pain, Subaru smiled at her, “Not yet. Just one more try. Please.”

She smiled back, “Have a plan, don’t you?”

He winked at her, “Something like that.”

Subaru quickly got to his feet, stumbling slightly before getting back into his practiced stance, “Ready when you are.”

Julyea maintained her normal fighting position, “As am I. Come at me.”

Subaru slowly edged his way towards Julyea, knife in front, his posture had improved dramatically since they began, becoming much more natural than stilted. She saw his other hand reach into his pocket.

Is he trying to take out the sling? It wouldn’t be useful given his inexperience and lack of range. No…he is most likely grabbing something else. Probably to distract me.

She was proven correct as just as soon as he got close enough he threw a clump of dirt and grass at her face. She enjoyed his audacity.

Crude but a good attempt. In a battle, anything and everything should be used to gain an advantage. Blinding me or even just distracting me is a worthwhile effort.

Julyea quickly swiped the distraction away in one quick motion before refocusing on Subaru, who had used the moment to get close. He quickly took a stab at her, aiming for her face.

She mentally frowned at that.

I’ve told you to aim for the body, you are leaving yourself open to a low kick.

All she would need to do is grab his wrist, disarm him, and kick his feet, letting gravity do the rest. Julyea felt slightly disappointed that he hadn’t learned from his last attempt.

Oh well, one cannot improve everything in just one day.

She reached for his wrist, only to suddenly find it gone. The knife still heading towards her face.

Julyea quickly maneuvered her head to the side, dodging the airborne weapon, before she realized Subaru was right under her. She smiled. He slammed into her torso and wrapped his arms around her before tackling her to the ground.

He quickly grabbed her wrists and pinned her to the ground, panting, looking over her with a victorious expression, “How…do you like that?”

Julyea’s smile radiated, “Wonderful work, my squire. What gave you the idea to use the knife as a distraction as well?”

Subaru tried to catch his breath, “Well…you have a habit of watching where my knife is right as I try to use it. Probably because…you’re so used to disarming me. So, I thought…why not use that against you. Just a second of you focusing on the knife meant I had the chance to rush you.”

She was like the sun, radiating pure joy at his progress, “Indeed. One of the greatest ways of fighting is to use an enemy’s own habits against them. Many habits are ingrained in combatants, techniques and skills that are necessary to master warfare. If you are able to think of a weakness in said skills, you are already halfway towards victory. Well done, my squire. That is one win for you.”

Subaru’s adrenaline must have worn off, as he no longer was struggling to breathe, “Yeah one wing against your thirty. Still though, couldn’t have done it without you, July.”

Just as he was about to let go of her wrists, his eyes widened as he felt his body get pushed off the ground.

“However, just know that this can easily be countered,” Julyea quickly reversed their positions, now pinning Subaru onto the floor, “Through brute force. Be wary. Trickery can be useful against stronger opponents but overwhelming force always prevails. Tread carefully.”

“…Gotcha.”

Despite such warnings, Julyea was immensely proud. He was already learning to use his mind in creative ways.

“Uh, Julyea? You mind…”

She raised an eyebrow before realizing how they must look from an outside perspective, “Oh I-“

“Oho~? Do my eyes deceive me? Am I interruptin’ somethin’ right now?” Julyea froze as her head whipped to the side, towards that familiar voice.

Anastasia Hoshin was standing right next to the door, smirking at the two. She waved her hand in the air, “Oh don’t mind me.”

“It’s not what you think,” Julyea shook her head violently.

Anastasia raised an eyebrow, “You are not hunched over your squire, sweatin’ and red-faced?”

...Julyea wanted to die right now.

Chapter Text

“So, Natsuki-san, when should I be expectin’ weddin’ bells?”

“Anastasia-sama, I am not interested in your knight like that,” Subaru was trying his best not to act rude. He would rather die than disappoint Julyea’s expectations.

Unfortunately, Anastasia was not convinced, “Is that why you were bein’ pinned down by-“

Julyea immediately interrupted, “Apologies Subaru, but I have some urgent business to take care of with my Lady. We will be back shortly. Please enjoy dinner without us.”

Before Subaru could respond, Julyea grabbed Anastasia’s hand and quickly dragged her out of the room.

“Uh…okay?” Subaru eyed the dishes on the table and was surprised by the spread.

…Is that sashimi?

He took his fork and snagged a piece of raw fish on his plate, he popped it in his mouth and was astounded by the flavor. Rich, fatty, and filled with umami.

Oh my God. It’s just like tuna from home. Even the cut and everything, only the color is off. Did some sushi chef from Japan get transferred here as well?

While ruminating on the possibility of more of his culture emigrating to this new world, he snagged some more pieces and happily ate while waiting for the two to return.

He then heard the opening of a door from the other side of the dining room, he glanced over to the commotion, his eyes widening as he saw a smaller and thinner version of Julyea wearing a monocle.

The thin man with bags under his eyes noticed Subaru’s presence and flinched before bowing his head, “Apologies, I did not know we had a guest invited here. My name is Joshua Juukuulius, to what do I owe the pleasure.”

So, this is the brother she talked about. At least, I think it’s her brother. Unless she has a sister who also cross-dresses. Highly possible. Oh shit, I need to respond!

Subaru was about to greet Joshua like he always habitually did but then paused and chose a different approach. He stood from his seat and bowed as politely as he could back, “I take no offense. I was invited just recently, my name is Natsuki Subaru, squire of Dame Julyea. It is nice to finally meet you.”

Joshua’s eyes narrowed onto Subaru as he heard him introduce himself, “Oh. You are that Subaru, it seems.”

Subaru’s eyes narrowed back, “What’s that supposed to mean?”

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"What do you mean I can’t tease the boy?”

Anastasia pouted at Julyea who was blushing mad red, “My Lady. Please. Stop making it seem like he is trying to seduce me.”

“I mean, technically I was implying that you were seducing him,” Anastasia winked at Julyea who was face palming with incredible embarrassment.

Julyea threw her hands in the air, “That is not the point! I would like it if those rumors were to stay as just rumors. Subaru already has enough on his plate, I wish to not have him be bothered by such tiresome drivel.”

Anastasia sighed, “Fine, fine. But you know, it isn’t such a bad idea if you guys did get together.”

Julyea raised an eyebrow, already knowing that look her Lady was giving her. The scheming look, “What do you mean?”

“I’m just saying. If you and him got together, that would mean Emilia’s reputation would probably take a huge hit. Especially since people seem to think that he was some lovestruck fool for the poor girl, only to be thrown aside at the Capital. I could easily spin a narrative that your passion and chivalry won his heart.”

“My Lady, please. Do not. While I understand that we are in a competition, you will be starting a fight with a candidate backed by the Mathers Domain, do you really think that would be such a good idea at the start of the Selection?”
Anastasia shrugged, “I’ve thought about it. Honestly? I have good odds, all things considered. While yeah, Emilia has a powerful mage and spirit on her side, we have you, the Iron Fang, and my whole company. She has only brute strength while I have numbers and social strength. Even if she tried to force her way, that will only discredit her as some kind of second coming of Satella, something she herself aims to dissuade people in believing. In fact, I think striking while the iron is hot will be incredibly beneficial for us. Think of who is supporting who at the moment.”

Julyea squinted her eyes, thinking carefully before responding, “Lady Crusch has the bulk of the nobles under her support, despite her controversial comments. Lady Priscilla has her whole domain, and many neighboring nobles support. You have the support of the merchant class while Lady Felt seems to be gaining favor with the commoners. Lady Emilia only has Margrave Mathers and nobles who support him.”

Anastasia nodded before pointing out, “But even Mather’s support is wavering. That’s how bad the discrimination is. However, think of what will happen when Natsuki finally becomes a knight and rejoins her camp. A commoner that rises from obscurity all for the sake of his beloved candidate? It’s practically a romance story in the making. He’ll become famous and the commoners will no doubt support Emilia purely due to the idealization of such a concept.”

Julyea began to understand, “So you want to use him to compete with Lady Felt?”

Anastasia waved her hand in the air, “Kind of. The added benefit would be having Emilia lose a solid supporter, but the bonus is that I can take him before Felt could.”

“You believe she would do that?”

“I believe she already tried,” Anastasia pointed to her wrist, “You saw that bracelet too, didn’t you?”
“…I did. I chose not to ask him because it seemed personal.”

Anastasia patted her knight’s arm, “That’s my Julyea, too polite to a fault. But I digress, I noticed that the Astreas were getting some sudden orders of cloth and metal and put two and two together. Either the little thief has a crush on Natsuki or is eyeing him as a possible recruit. Maybe even both.”

Those words made Julyea’s heart throb, but she couldn’t understand why.

Julyea’s brow furrowed, “Still, you believe she would so easily betray the woman who had helped save her life in the slums?”

“Again, I believe she would follow her gut instincts. You saw how she acted when the chips fell. There was something…odd about her. As if ordering Reinhard and getting her way was second nature. My instincts are telling me that girl has some good foresight, like an unpolished gem, she only needs some good motivation, and she’ll end up as probably one of the fiercer competitors of ours.”

“…That is quite a stretch my Lady, but your insight has never failed us before. I will trust your judgement.”

“Do you trust me enough to-“

Julyea raised her hand, “No. That does not mean I will seduce Subaru.”

Anastasia pushed the hand to the side, “Come on. Be honest, you like him, don’t you?”

“I do not! I mean, not in that way,” Julyea pushed down that weird feeling in her heart, she grimaced, “I understand that you enjoy teasing him or that you have a reason for wanting to steal him from another camp, but do not insinuate that there are feelings where there are none.”

Anastasia stared at her for a few seconds, “…Are you sure?”

“…Yes.”

The silence pervaded until interrupted with a sigh, Anastasia rubbed her temples, “Alright. But just know, it’s okay to be selfish about this type of stuff.”

I am not. I only wish to support Subaru in his development. Nothing more, nothing less.

“…I understand. However, while I may not support your recommended method, I am not against recruiting him with alternative methods.”

Anastasia put a finger to her lips, “Hmm, I probably won’t.”

Julyea was surprised, “Why not? You seemed adamant previously.”

Anastasia tapped her chin, “I don’t really see a way for me to have him join me without cutting off his infatuation with Emilia. Seduction was the fastest way. Even then, the amount of effort it would take to even temporarily recruit him isn’t worth it. His possible commoner benefits aside, the guy is pretty useless all things considered.”

Before Julyea could retort Anastasia continued, “I know, I know. He has tons of potential and all that. I can’t see it, but I guess you can. I understand that. However, his value to me is pretty low. All he has is high Spirit affinity and I already have you. He doesn’t really have anything unique for me to expend more effort than needed to coax him towards our side. If the situation permits it, I’ll do it. Otherwise, I won’t be crying in my sleep if he never joins us.”

Julyea couldn’t argue that logic, but she still sighed, “…Alright. But please, stop embarrassing me.”

“Oh, but Julyea~,” the Finest of Knights loved her Lady, but man could she be just as irritating as Felix, “I wasn’t the one who pushed you onto him in the middle of the grass. Panting and sweating and-“

Julyea shoved her hands onto Anastasia’s mouth just as a voice chimed in from behind them, “Oi, Julyea-chan got a new suitor or somethin’?”

Ricardo marched towards the two as the Triplets hopped along beside him.

“Oh, Mimi heard of this! It’s the Pauper Playboy guy, right?”

Julyea blushed as Mimi jumped onto Julyea’s back, Tivey and Hetaro poked their heads around her.

The two brothers spoke in unison, “Sorry Julyea, but is it true?” “Is he actually like a playboy? I heard he seduced so many women already.”

Julyea blushed and quickly coughed into her hand, Mimi still hanging off her shoulder, “He is nothing like the rumors, fortunately. In addition, welcome back, it is nice to have everyone return safely.”

Ricardo laughed, “You expect anythin’ less?”

Julyea shook her head as Anastasia smiled, the merchant spoke happily, “You guys came back at the right time, we actually have the little playboy as a dinner guest tonight.”

Ricardo perked up, “You’re shittin’ me? Seems we got someone famous to entertain us while we chow down.”

Julyea grimaced, “I beseech you all. Do not make this weird for Subaru.”

Ricardo had a guttural bout of laughter, “Don’t worry, we’re just going to make sure he isn’t a bad fit for ya!”

Julyea blushed and quickly brushed past them all, as the rest of the camp snickered, “This is not a marriage interview! You are simply meeting my squire and having a nice conversation with him, with no implication of feelings, love, or a possible relationship.”

Tivey cocked his head, “We didn’t say anything about that though.”

Julyea glared as Mimi hit Tivey on the head with her staff, the knight reached for the door and said, “It was a preemptive warning. I know this is-“

She was rudely interrupted by the door almost slamming into her, as Joshua stormed out of the room.

Her eyes widened in surprise as they made contact with Joshua’s, who mirrored her expression, “Brother?”

His eyes narrowed before turning away, “Hello Sister.”

Julyea grimaced, “Will you be joining-“ he had already started walking away, ignoring her words, “…us?”

Julyea stared as her brother’s back got further and further away, she felt a hand on her shoulder and turned her towards the source. Anastasia looked up at her with a pitiful look, “Don’t mind him.”
She felt a larger hand pat her head while three smaller ones coveted her palms.

Ricardo grumbled, “He’s just in the middle of puberty is all…give it some time.”

Julyea smiled somberly.

But for nearly seven years?

She shook her head, “It is alright. Joshua has his reasons, I’m sure.”

She then walked through the door with the others and saw Subaru’s head down, his brows furrowed and his hands trembling while gripping the table.

“Subaru?”

Subaru blinked before whipping his head towards them, his expression quickly changing from wrathful to almost pleasant, “Hey Julyea! Back from your talk with…who are you guys?”

She was about to introduce them when Ricardo and the Triplets barreled past her, nearly making her fall to the ground as Anastasia snickered behind her.

Ricardo almost throttled Subaru, picking him up with one arm and putting him into a headlock, “So this is the famous Pauper Playboy?! Can’t say I’m too impressed, was expectin’ someone with a handsomely devilish face.”

Subaru finally popped up from the lock between Ricardo’s chest and bicep, “How many of you guys know that name?! Also, your one to talk, you got one mean mug.”

Ricardo narrowed his eyes, “You don’t say?”

“I do say.”

Subaru and Ricardo glared at each other before Ricardo’s glare turned jovial, rubbing the boy’s hair, “Gahaha! Julyea-chan was right! You do got dat gumption in ya.”

Mimi poked Subaru with her staff, “Wow, you’re a lot flabbier than Mimi expected.”

Hetaro pushed her staff away with his wand, “Mimi, don’t be rude.”

Tivey examined Subaru from up close, “She is right though, the guy has no muscle.”

Subaru retorted, “Stop poking me in the ass you brats!”

Meanwhile, Julyea was still standing near the door, watching in horror as her squire was being assaulted from all sides by her fellow camp members. Anastasia was barely holding in her laughter, “You should have expected this, Julyea.”

“…I did. I had talked to them previously about restraining themselves for a good first impression. It seems my lecture did not stick.”
“Pfft!” Anastasia couldn’t hold her laughter back, “Hahahaha! As Hoshin once said, ‘can bring an Earth Dragon to the watering hole but ya can’t force it to be thirsty.’”

Julyea sighed as she walked over to join the mass huddle around her squire.

Subaru was currently squirming around while Mimi and Tivey kept trying to poke Subaru.

“Stop it!” The oldest triplet’s voice finally made the other two calm down. Hetaro sighed before patting Subaru on the back, “Sorry about them, they’ve been looking forward to meeting you for the last few days.”

Subaru glanced over at the responsible older brother, “Ah…well, besides the whole ‘poking my butt’ thing. It’s fine. Though-HRGNHK!”

Subaru choked as Ricardo squeezed Subaru’s body further, the big wolf man not paying attention while talking to Julyea, “Hey what are you tryin’ to say? I ain’t hurtin’ him, he’s fine. See?”

Ricardo turned his head and saw Subaru passed out in his arms, the constriction knocking him out, he then turned back to a very angry Julyea, “…I would just like to say, I found him like dis.”

“Mimi’s got it!” The little demi-human slammed her staff onto Subaru’s head, the force instantly waking Subaru up, as Julyea’s face morphed into shock.

“Who-what-where?” Subaru looked around vigorously as if he just came back from the dead.

Ricardo chuckled, “See, right as rain-“

Julyea shoved him away and got in-between Subaru and the Triplets, “Will you all please give him some room to breathe?! Subaru, are you alright?”

The squire felt his eyes and ears spin but focused on the shining light of pure handsomeness in front of him, he gave a thumbs up, “A-all good! Your campmates are…interesting.”

Ricardo patted Subaru on the head before sitting down in a seat at the table, “See? He likes us.”

Hetaro sighed as his two siblings bounced towards their own seats, the older brother bowing towards Subaru, “Again. Really sorry about that.”

Julyea pinched her nose bridge before guiding Subaru to his seat and then quickly helping her Lady’s to hers. Julyea then sat to the left of Anastasia but across from Subaru.

Subaru was in between Ricardo and Mimi, while Tivey sat to the right of Anastasia. Hetaro sat across from him, sitting right next to Mimi.

Everyone began to dig into the food as Anastasia spoke towards Subaru, “Sorry bout that Natsuki-san. Julyea and I had some business to take care of. Hope it wasn’t too lonely here without us.”

Subaru was midway through grabbing one of the sashimi again before his eyes caught Anastasia’s, “A-ah, no worries. It wasn’t too bad.”

“Oh really? You met Joshua right?”
Subaru flinched, “Yeah. He’s…” his eyes flickered to Julyea for half a second before returning to Anastasia.

Oh no.

He finished his answer, "...a good kid."

Julyea swallowed the uncomfortable tension in her throat, she felt Anastasia’s hand touch her thigh, warning her to calm down but it was too late, the knight’s words already left her mouth, “Did he say anything…untoward to you?”

Subaru’s eyes widened before wavering when he looked at her, “N-no! No. He wasn’t. We just had a small chat is all.”

She felt her body shrink; it was obvious that Joshua had started an argument with Subaru in their absence. Who knows what he could have said while they were gone?

Anastasia intervened, “Well, it’s good that we weren’t absent for that long then. The sashimi could have gone bad if you waited any longer.”

Subaru took the lifeline, deciding such an awkward topic was unnecessary, “Oh yeah, I was going to say, I was surprised you guys have this here.”

Anastasia raised an eyebrow, “Really? Are you familiar with dis dish?”

Subaru nodded and smiled as he grabbed some for his plate, “Used to eat this a lot back home. I honestly didn’t know you guys had fish here.”

“Fish? You mean poiison?”

“…Yeah. Poiison,” Subaru’s teeth gritted as he muttered to himself, “Stupid fantasy name bullshit…”

Anastasia was confused by his sudden anger but shrugged, “So which city are you from? Otou? Kyo? Fusumi?”

Subaru eyed her awkwardly, “Uh, I’m not really from here.”

“No, I mean, you’re from Kararagi right?”

“…No?”

Anastasia began staring at the poor lad, “But…you had sashimi before. Unless, was there sashimi in Gusteko? Or Vollachia?”

Ah…I almost forgot.

Julyea’s previous emotions regarding her brother were now replaced with slight guilt over her mistake. She had forgotten to inform Anastasia about what she had recently learned about Subaru.

Namely.

Subaru spoke with embarrassment, rubbing the back of his neck. “Ah, well. I’m not from there either. I’m from an island nation East from here. At least, it might be East from here.”

Anastasia’s eyes darted around as the dots started to connect, “But that’s…this is…that means…”

She then refocused on Subaru as her hand gripped Julyea’s leg, making the knight wince, the silent message her Lady was sending,

“WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME HE WAS FROM BEYOND THE WATERFALL?!”

Anastasia’s expression was still calm and polite, but the hand death gripping Julyea was anything but.

“Natsuki-san,” Subaru was mid-bite into a piece of sashimi as he looked up at Anastasia’s words, “What’s your home like?”

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“Hahahaha!”

Subaru laughed as he and Julyea sat near the balcony, the poor knight rubbing her temples while her cheeks darkened. It was after dinner and the two had decided to rest outside, under the full moon, while the rest of the inhabitants retired to their quarters. The rest of the dinner was spent with Anastasia questioning Subaru about his home and the culture he grew up around. Suffice to say, Anastasia had some choice words for Julyea after the meal.

“I want him. Did you hear what he said?! Carriages without dragons and lights made from lightning. Yes, I know, it sounds made up. But my instincts are telling me the guy is profitable. Yes, I know what I said before. Plans change. Hm? No don’t worry about that. I won’t force you to seduce him. I’ll seduce him…Julyea? Julyea?!”

The scolding turned into a full-blown argument.

“Please stop laughing.”

Subaru rubbed a tear out of his eye, “Hahaha, sorry, sorry. It’s just…you really thought Felt was courting me?”

“No, it’s just…I wanted to remind you that marriage with any candidate is strictly forbidden during the Selection, so it would be good to keep that in mind if you were possibly looking for one,” Julyea felt like she was stumbling over her words, barely understanding why she was even spouting them in the first place.

Subaru didn’t seem to notice, still chuckling, “Yeah. That’s good to know…”

His voice petered out as Julyea realized the implications.

He must have realized that such rules included Lady Emilia as well.

Julyea quickly nudged Subaru’s shoulder, “A-ah but do not worry. If it is the case that you are indeed wishing to court such an individual, you may marry her after the Selection is over. Though there might be some issues with the possibility of a commoner and a Queen marrying, I am sure that by the time such a possibility was to occur, you will be a full-fledged knight with many achievements under your belt, so such issues may become nonexistent!”

Subaru stared at her awkwardly, “…Are you telling me to court Felt or something?”

Julyea panicked, “N-no! That is not what I meant to imply. Surely if you do have feelings for Lady Felt, that would be the case. But you don’t and I-uh?”

She realized Subaru was smiling mischievously at her and pouted, making Subaru laugh once more, he responded, “Sorry, again, sorry. It’s just too easy teasing you.”

She playfully punched his shoulder, “You would do well to be wary of such acts against your Master.”

Subaru punched her shoulder back, “Of course, of course! For I am just a humble squire, at the mercy of the beautiful Dame Julyea-UH!”

Julyea punched him again, a little more forcibly this time, “It seems I must be a tad stricter with my dear, humble squire.”

Subaru rubbed his shoulder, smiling through the pain, “Totally worth it.”

“Hmph!” Julyea pouted away from him, making him chuckle even more.

Subaru smiled and looked at the moon, “…I know you were talking about Emilia.”

“…I’m sorry.”

“It’s fine,” before Julyea could respond, he patted her on the back, “I’m serious. It’s fine. My feelings for her were pretty obvious, and I wasn’t exactly subtle the last few days.”

Julyea felt pity wretch through her gut, “Do you miss her?”

“I do. God, I do. But, it’s been weird. The last few days, I don’t know why. But it felt so packed, so filled with stuff to do. That…the loneliness I usually felt. It’s gotten less and less, empty.”

Her eyes softened as Subaru began spilling some of his feelings once again, he continued, “I know it sounds weird. L-like. I get it. It’s a small thing. But…I just. Never had friends. Until now. And because of that, these last few days were fun. So. Fun. You, Ferris, Reinhard, Felt, hell, even your campmates. I…I feel like I belong somewhere. If that makes sense. I mean, I know it’s such a stupid thing and-“

Julyea wrapped her arms around Subaru, hugging him from the side, “I understand.”

His eyes bulged from the sudden physical contact, his body shifted as if it didn’t know what to do, “You do?”

“Yes I…” she choked slightly, the nostalgia making her throat feel constricted, “I have gone through similar. My disposition and personality did not gain me many fans as I grew older. I believed friendship was an incredibly difficult goal to achieve with anyone. I was proven wrong when I met Ferris and Rein, but the loneliness I had felt since before…it stays. It lingers.”

“…I see,” Subaru’s arms began to wrap around her as well, almost feeling perfectly at home. It was warm. So warm.

Subaru shifted, nuzzling her neck accidentally, “…Thank you for telling me that.”

Her body felt warm, her neck especially, “I should say the same. It is good that you no longer are alone.”

Like I was.

The night breeze drifted through both of their hairs, despite the cold creeping into them, the warmth they felt was ever present. Julyea didn’t know why she did this to begin with. It just felt right. She didn’t know when to stop either.

They stayed like that for a few more seconds before Julyea spoke once again, “Did…did my brother say anything weird to you?”

She could feel Subaru’s body tense before responding, “…Nothing about me. But he was saying some rude stuff about you.”

“Oh…I’m sorry, please forgive him. He has his reasons.”

Subaru stopped hugging her and pulled back, looking her straight in the eyes, concern radiating out of his own, “What kind of reasons does it make it okay for your own sibling to insult you like that?!”

Julyea grimaced, “…There’s more to it than that.”

“I don’t think anything can justify-“

“I wasn’t good to him,” Julyea felt her throat once again constrict itself, as Subaru wisely chose to shut up, “Remember how I said I am now the current heir of the household?”

Subaru nodded as Julyea continued, “I took that from him. He was set to lead the household after my family denounced me. On my return, his status as heir was taken and given to me, without notification. I am the reason Joshua lacks any power as a noble.”

“…Still. He has no right to act like that.”

Julyea gave a somber smile, “And I have no right to call myself his sister.”

“…I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be. You have nothing to apologize for.”

“I know…it’s just,” Subaru rubbed his head, as he leaned onto the railing, separating himself from Julyea fully, “It isn’t right for you to be treated like that. I just wish I could do something about it.”

Julyea patted his head softly, “Thank you my dear squire. But I am in no need of saving. These kinds of problems are my own responsibility to solve.”

I am a knight after all.

She then noticed lights flickering near them and grabbed Subaru’s attention, changing the subject as he pointed outward, “Look. It seems my buds have finally returned.”

Their little nighttime excursion was not only done for a private conversation, but it was also so that they could wait for Julyea’s spirits to return with a little friend of theirs.

The six little spirits danced in the air, surrounding their new friend, a small black and purple spirit, that looked similar to Nes. The only difference was that the minor Yin spirit was much more purple compared to Julyea’s.

As they guided the new spirit towards the balcony, the little spirit saw the two humans and unexpectedly dashed towards them dancing around both Julyea and Subaru with incredible glee.

Subaru smiled as he saw it nuzzle Julyea’s cheek, “Seems you caught another one July.”

Julyea couldn’t help but mirror Subaru but tried to coax the little spirit towards her squire, “Unfortunately, little one, I have too many contracts, and no more room for you. But how would you like to make one with this boy here?”

She guided the little Yin spirit using the palm of her hand to push it closer to Subaru. At first, the Yin spirit kept trying to go towards Julyea but as it got closer and closer to Subaru, the minor Yin spirit fought less and less.

Until finally, just as it got right next to him, it started dancing excitedly all over Subaru, almost as if examining each and every spot around him.

Subaru giggled, “Hey, wait, that tickles! Stop-pfft! Hahaha!”

Julyea’s own spirits started to nuzzle around her, she patted them softly, “Do not worry, I would never replace you guys. Thank you for bring her here.”

Subaru kept giggling but was able to scramble out a single word, “Her?”

Julyea nodded, “Her or him. Either works. Spirits often lack a specific gender when they are only a minor spirit. If they were to grow into a quasi-spirit, they often have a chance to grow a more definite sense of self. However, I am of the belief that giving a spirit a name and an identity allows them to grow more rapidly, as they are able to attune themselves with said name more, which will allow them to express themselves with greater ease.”

Subaru finally got the little yin spirit under control having it lie right above his hands, “A name huh? I wonder…”

Julyea gazed at him warmly, “Do not worry about making one, right this moment, the contract is more important. Simply channel your intent towards the little one and ask her directly, ‘will you make a contract with me?’”

Subaru nodded before concentrating, “…Will you please make a contract with me little guy?”

At first, the little spirit only danced a bit in the air, before suddenly a small spark of mana coursed between the minor spirit and Subaru, as if connecting from him to her with the smallest thread of magic.

Subaru’s eyes widened, “Woah…I definitely felt that.”

Julyea smiled proudly, “Congratulations Subaru. You have officially made a contract with a spirit.”

The boy’s eyes seemed to water as the little spirit buzzed around him, nuzzling his cheek and producing mana all around him.

“…Thanks July. Really, thank you. For everything.”

She patted him on the shoulder, “If you are thankful, simply keep being as you always are. And strive for the heights that you wish to achieve.”

He rubbed his eyes and held his hand over the one on his shoulder, his eyes focused solely on the minor spirit, “I will…now let’s see what I should name this little guy.”

Julyea chuckled, “Do not worry. There is enough time to think of one, the night is young. And the moon is beautiful, isn’t it?”

Subaru’s head whipped up, his gaze now directed straight at the knight, “What did you just say?”

Julyea raised an eyebrow, “The night is young?”

“No, after that.”

“The moon is beautiful tonight?”

“…Oh. Yeah. That.”

Julyea cocked her head in confusion stepping closer towards Subaru, “Was there something wrong with what I said?”

Subaru stepped back, covering his face with one hand while looking away from Julyea, his cheeks becoming pink, “N-nothing at all! It’s just-“

Subaru’s eyes wandered everywhere before settling back onto his spirit, “Tsuki! I think…I’ll call him Tsuki.”

“The moon? Quite a wonderful name I must say.”

Subaru nodded vigorously, “Yeah it is! It is…I…”

Subaru seemed to stumble over his words before looking up towards the sky, “I-it really is a beautiful moon tonight.”

Julyea snickered, she followed Subaru’s lead and also looked up at the stars, “It truly is.”

The stars flickered and glowed, as the two Spirit Art users stood in silence, savoring each other’s company.

It was a night that one would remember for a long time.

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“Subaru-dono. Do you know what love is?”

…It was way too early in the morning for this kind of question.

Chapter Text

“Again! Get up Subaru-dono. A fight is not over until one is completely incapacitated or dead.”

Despite his aching muscles, Subaru pushed his body off the ground and stabilized himself, gasping heavily.

He raised his wooden knife, pointing the tip at Wilhelm Trias.

Subaru was currently sparring with Wilhelm in order to practice the techniques Julyea taught him. The Finest of Knights was absent; she had duties that Subaru was unable to accompany her. Something about Kararagi diplomats. As a result, she dropped Subaru off at the Karsten Mansion and then dragged a kicking and screaming Felix towards the Royal Castle.

Subaru would have felt bad for his dear friend, if said dear friend wasn’t directly responsible for that stupid nickname becoming so well known.

His hand was shaking. Subaru grasped his knife-wielding wrist with his other hand to make sure the shaking wouldn’t hamper him.

He needed to calm down. Breathe and-

Subaru fell to the ground as Wilhelm’s kick swiftly swept his legs.

“Do not let your mind wander! This is a fi-“

Subaru’s voice rang out, “Tsuki, Shamak!”

A blast of darkness covered Wilhelm’s body, allowing Subaru a moment to return to his feet. He immediately took advantage of the brief window and ran behind Wilhelm’s cone of vision, aiming to strike his head.

Subaru pounced, knife in a reverse grip and ready to stab…only to be met with the sharp end of a wooden sword slamming directly into his chest, knocking the wind out of his sails.

He fell backward onto his back, landing in the grass, gasping for breath. He didn’t get another chance to get up as Wilhelm towered over him, pointing his sword directly at Subaru’s neck.

Wilhelm frowned, though his eyes were dancing, “I will have to remind you once again: a warrior does not need all their senses. Your low-tier Shamak will only rob me of my sight; my other senses were still intact. I could hear your footsteps and feel the wind of your movement. Do not make that mistake again or it will cost you your life.”

He then flipped the sword, gripping it by the blade while offering his other hand down to Subaru, speaking warmly, “However, that was wonderful thinking. Take every opportunity you can, a fight should never be played fairly. Honor means nothing on the battlefield.”

Subaru finally caught his breath and smiled, grasping his hand and allowing the Sword Demon to pull him up, “You really…don’t go easy on me…do you, Wilhelm-san?”

The old man chuckled, “You asked for my help, how could I repay such sincerity with lackluster effort?”

Subaru wiped sweat off his brow as a maid nearby offered him a towel and some water, taking both eagerly, he said, “You’re much more punishing than Julyea. Don’t take that the wrong way. You guys are both amazing, just different teaching styles. Julyea lets me use my head more while you get my adrenaline pumping. I think I need both.”

Wilhelm nodded, “She is teaching you to think before you act. A necessary proponent for fighters before they rush into battle. However, I am teaching you how to act when thinking is impossible. In combat, one cannot let hesitation dull your senses. A single mistake can lead to death. Do not think you are invincible. Water magic cannot revive the dead.”

Sorry Wil, I don’t have that problem.

Subaru took a deep drink; the cold water was refreshing.

Still. He’s right. Dying hurts. And I’m not about to risk all of my progress just for a risky play. It’s not worth it.

Subaru spoke, warmth etched into every word, “I’m really grateful for you both. I’ll make sure to keep your advice in mind, Wilhelm.”

Wilhelm stared at Subaru, focusing on him for a few seconds before finally smiling proudly, “You’ve changed, Subaru-dono.”

Subaru raised an eyebrow, “Me? Really?”

“…When you first arrived at our home, you seemed lost. Directionless. No hope. If I may be frank, I was heavily considering denying you any sort of help when you first asked me for guidance. Your eyes that day showed no wish for improvement, only distraction.”

Subaru flinched as he remembered how he must have seemed just a few days ago, “Yeah…I could definitely see how you thought that.”

Wilhelm chuckled, walking up to Subaru and patting him on the shoulder, “However, you are different now. Your eyes are much more focused. Filled with purpose rather than any sort of regret. You look like a young warrior, wishing to prove himself by learning. Rather than a heartbroken fool searching for redemption. I quite like the way they look now.”

Subaru’s cheeks darkened, he scratched his neck in embarrassment, “A-ah. Well, I guess heartbroken fools aren’t the best people to be around. Sorry if I was acting like a jerk back then.”

Wilhelm’s eyes softened, “…That’s quite alright. Subaru-dono, would you mind doing this old man a favor and taking a walk with me?”

Subaru cocked his head but didn’t refuse, simply nodding. His body was tired, but a walk should help his muscles recover.

Wilhelm turned and walked with poise and wide strides towards the gardens, with Subaru walking right behind him. They walked off the grassy courtyard and onto the stone pathways that lead into the patchwork of flowers and brushes teeming in the manor’s backyard.

Subaru sped up his steps, keeping pace with the butler and glanced around, “So…Fer-“ Subaru coughed, “Felix told me that you planted all of these yourself, is that right?”

Wilhelm hummed, “Indeed. I have spent the last year cultivating this garden. My…wife was fond of them.”

Subaru swallowed, he knew the guy seemed like the type to be head over heels over his wife, but his time at the manor had taught him only a little bit of Wilhelm’s past, “…I see. I think she would have loved seeing what you did to the place. I’m sure.”

Wilhelm kept staring forward, still walking, and sighed, “She would have loved strolling through these gardens. Perhaps the only thing she would be proud of...”

What does he mean by that?

Wilhelm didn’t elaborate, continuing to speak, “Subaru-dono. Could you tell me about your life a bit? Tell me about the people around you.”

Subaru’s eyes widened, “O-oh, um, okay. Well, there’s Emilia. She’s…my friend. Super amazing. Super kind. Super nice. Really…beautiful. She saved my life when I was lost in the capital. Not only that, but she also brought me into her home when I was just a stranger, healed me, and got me a job.”

As Subaru spoke he glanced at the flowers and saw a bright white lily, it stood alone within its own little patch. Standing tall, despite the wind making it dance. His voice got a little low, “I’m really grateful for her. I…miss her.”

“I see,” Wilhelm grasped Subaru’s shoulder, “Please. Tell me more. Who else?”

Subaru lifted his hand and started holding his fingers up, “Well, there’s Rem and Ram. You met Rem before and Ram is her twin sister; she also is a maid under Ros-chi. We didn’t get along that well at the start but now we are thick as thieves. Rem helps me out all the time while me and Ram like to insult each other. Speaking of Ros-chi, he’s kind of weird. He’s nice and I can see why he’s the head mage, powerful and all that. But he’s soooo weird. Then there’s Puck, Emilia’s contracted spirit. He’s pretty nice though a bit of doting parent. There’s Beako, a spirit who lives in our library. She’s a bit mean but I think she’s just shy. Kind of like a tsundere.”

Wilhelm raised an eyebrow at the word, prompting Subaru to clarify, “A-ah. Tsundere means a person who acts all nasty on the outside but is actually soft and nice on the inside.”

That made the old butler chuckle, “How quaint. I have never heard of such a word. Reminds me of a certain comrade of mine. He has become quite bitter and caustic, but I can still see the kindness he held years ago. Ah, but enough about that, please continue.”

Subaru was still confused why Wilhelm asked him to do this but obliged, “Okay, there’s also Julyea I guess. She’s…incredible.”

Subaru’s eyes sparkled, something Wilhelm noticed immediately, given how he smiled with great joviality.

The butler laughed even more, Wilhelm patted his shoulder, “I see, in what ways?”

“Like, so many ways. She’s absolutely stunning. She’s so cool, heroic, and strong. She works so hard. When you first meet her, she looks like some kind of handsome ikemen. But then you get to know her, and she turns out to be such a kind and soft woman. She smiles all the time and you can’t help but think that’s adorable. She stands by her morals so well and I can’t help but admire that, especially since she’s literally the reason I’m able to become a knight in the first place. I can’t help but appreciate everything she’s done for me. I don’t…”

Subaru realized he was rambling and quickly sputtered, “A-anyway, that’s Julyea. There’s also Ferris and Rein. They’re great. Ferris is kind of annoying, but I like bantering with him and he really does care about people. Rein too. He cares a lot and he’s funny. He acts awkward sometimes, but I think he just isn’t used to joking around that much. I haven’t known them for that long, but they’ve been good to me the last few days.”

Wilhelm nodded along, “I’m glad. Felix-dono is a kind-hearted soul. Reinhard…deserves some good companions. I think you will be a good influence on him.”

Wilhelm’s voice and expression were drenched in emotions that Subaru couldn’t really understand. He chose to ignore such complexities. Sometimes, it wasn’t good to pry.

Subaru rubbed his head, “Really? I think he’d be more of a good influence on me than the other way around. Though hopefully he doesn’t go crazy from Felt. Actually, speaking of her, she’s fun too. She’s like the little sister I’ve always wanted.”

Subaru stared at his wrist, looking fondly at the bracelet he has worn nearly every second, “…I kind of wish I could talk to them more. I enjoyed hanging out with both of them. Hopefully they come back sometime.”

Wilhelm hummed in agreement, “If you hear word of their return, please do let me know.”

Subaru side-eyed Wilhelm, “You want to meet them?”

“…Once I finish my current duties, I believe I should rectify some of my past mistakes. It would be good for me to meet Reinhard again.”

“I didn’t know you knew Rein that well. Are you guys close?”

The butler shook his head, “Not anymore. Or perhaps, we never were. But…I wish to see if that can change.”

“…I see. I’ll definitely let you know then. And you should let me know if I can help in anyway.”

“That is not necessary-“

“I want to help. Really,” now it was Subaru’s turn to grasp Wilhelm’s shoulder, “I told you I was grateful for your help earlier. I want to repay that just a little bit if possible.”

Wilhelm stared at Subaru before breaking out into a warm smile, “How very kind of you Subaru-dono. I can see why you are surrounded by so many people.”

Subaru’s cheeks darkened, he lifted his hand and waved both in the air, “Oh come on Wil, I’m not that popular. Besides, it’s more like I intruded into everyone’s lives rather than anything else. I don’t think I did anything to deserve this kind of praise.”

Wilhelm stopped, causing Subaru to almost trip, he was about to ask what caused the sudden brake in movement but was interrupted by Wilhelm’s next words, nearly causing the boy to choke.

“Subaru-dono. Do you know what love is?”

Subaru almost did a double take, “I-what? Where did this come from?”

It seemed Wilhelm was amused by Subaru’s reaction, “Humor me. Could you tell me what love is, Subaru-dono?”

“Love is…” Subaru’s voice petered out as his mind wandered deeply into the abstract, “…Love is about devotion. Putting all you have into someone and giving them everything you got. You gotta show them you mean what you say. Put it into practice. Be there for them every step of the way. And be the pillar of support they need when things are tough.”

“Hmm, a noble answer. I can see such belief in your actions. From what I hear, your declaration of such loyalty spoke volumes during the Selection’s ceremony.”

“Ah…that. I…”

Subaru didn’t know what to say. While it was one of his defining moments, leading to all the good things he experienced so far. It was also what led to one of the worst arguments he ever had.

Wilhelm walked up to him and grasped his shoulder once more, “Do you disagree?”

Subaru looked into Wilhelm’s eyes and shuddered, the old man was sincere, genuinely wanting to understand Subaru and his actions.

Subaru spoke calmly, “I…I don’t know. At the time I said those words, I wasn’t in a good headspace. I was doing it because I was…afraid. My intentions were to show support. To give Emilia the support that she deserved. I thought I could be there for her like she was for me. To pay back a small amount of what she gave me. But…I was selfish. I didn’t think before speaking. I didn’t ask her if she wanted this. I thought she wanted this. I thought this was the only thing I could do. But I was wrong. The more I thought about it these last few days, the more I realized how much I could have done differently. How much things could have gone differently if Julyea didn’t intervene.”

From how the Finest of Knights explained it and as Subaru began to understand Knights as a whole, his actions that day were a complete insult to their very order. It was like a man coming into a hospital and announcing that he had a medical degree and can save people, despite never practicing or studying the topic. A part of him still believed his feelings were in the right place, but the rest fully understood the ramifications of his actions.

What if Julyea wasn’t there? A knight could have challenged him to a duel. He would be forced to fight and possibly be killed. Or get beaten to an inch of his life, embarrassing himself. Embarrassing Emilia.

The former he could contend with, the latter he could never forgive himself for.

Wilhelm tightened his grasp on the boy’s shoulder, redirecting Subaru from his thoughts to the man in front of him.

A man who looked as if his very eyes reflected Subaru’s, “Subaru-dono. A man’s worth is not only tied to the strength of their beliefs. But also the strength of their character. Many people, including me, could spout endlessly. Talking about their love or devotion to who they care for as if nothing else mattered. But such love and devotion is worthless when compared to integrity. When a man admits that they are wrong. When they admit that they were short-sighted. When they change, and truly do change, because their actions brought shame. I have spent my life chasing love with a fervor that considers all else as negligible…”

Wilhelm’s eyes wavered, his grasp left Subaru’s shoulder and went to Wilhelm’s chest, right above his own heart, he looked down solemnly, “…and as a result, I have lost—no—thrown away everything that matters. Everything good that I built up. It was all lost because I chose to love. Instead of choosing to reflect. Reflect on why such actions occurred. Reflect on how everything was a consequence of my actions. Reflect on what truly matters more. Revenge? Bah! I have spent years of my life chasing such a wish. Because it was the only way I could truly dedicate myself to the love I lost so dearly.”

“…Is this related to Reinhard?”

Wilhelm didn’t look away, but guilt permeated his expression, “…I am grateful to Julyea and Felix. They have been wonderful companions to the boy I abandoned. No, not only abandoned. The boy that I blamed for his grandmother’s death.”

Subaru started to connect the dots. Wilhelm Trias. His eyes were similar to Reinhard’s.

Subaru eyed the gardens before looking at Wilhelm, “This is why you want to talk to him again. But why not now? It would just take a quick trip to Flanders and then Hakuchuri.”

Wilhelm shook his head, “I have started this journey, and I wish to see it through. Otherwise, all of those years would have been wasted.”

Subaru thought differently, “But what if you die? What if you die before making amends with him? Are you really going to let this ‘journey’ take precedence over your own grandson?”

Wilhelm eyed Subaru carefully trying to find…something. And evidently not finding it.

Wilhelm spoke with surprise, “My word…you really don’t know, do you?”

“Know what?” Subaru raised an eyebrow.

Wilhelm stared at him for a few seconds before chuckling, “It seems Crusch-sama was correct. You really are just a traveler of the most foreign kind. You don’t even know my story it seems.”
Subaru was getting annoyed, “What story?! Seriously, is there something I don’t know?”

While the squire had gotten better at holding his tongue, this was Reinhard they were talking about. The same guy who not only saved Subaru’s life just a few months ago but also was one of the people who he could genuinely call a friend. If this could help Reinhard in some way, he’d expedite it immediately.

“…My wife was slain during an expedition to hunt the White Whale,” Wilhelm’s hands tightened at his side.

Subaru looked at him curiously, “White Whale but that’s-“

He felt guilty for forcing such an intimate detail out into the open, but Subaru’s eyes widened as certain past events started to all come together.

The influx of merchants at Crusch’s doorstep.

The odd amount of weapons stored in the mansion.

Wilhelm, the grandfather of Reinhard and most likely a noble himself, working as a butler in Crusch’s estate.

Subaru was stunned, “…You guys are going to hunt the White Whale?”

Wilhelm nodded grimly, “We are preparing, as you no doubt surmised from recent events. We have heard that the damn monster has been roaming near us, and we will be searching for it in the coming weeks. However long it takes to find it and finally kill it. Once I finish my task…I shall go make amends.”

Subaru began to understand. He also began to think of his own situation. How he regrets so much. How he would do anything to fix things.

“Wilhelm. I think you should still go visit Reinhard,” Subaru raised his hand before Wilhelm could retort, “I know. You want to kill the whale for your wife. Hell, if I was in the same position, I would do whatever it took to kill the bastard who took my wife away from me. But please, think rationally. This could be the last time you ever see Reinhard. At the very least, send him a letter before going off to fight. Tell him what you always wanted to say before you have any regrets. And then, when and if you survive, go tell him yourself. In person.”

“…But what do I say?”

Subaru walked up and knocked a fist over Wilhelm’s chest, right where he grasped his heart, “Speak from the heart. Be honest. Tell him what you regret. And what you want to change. And if you’re having trouble putting that down, you can always ask for help.”

Subaru then pointed to himself with a thumb and gave a cocky grin, “It’s the least I could do for letting me stay here and giving me some training.”

Wilhelm’s expression was flabbergasted before morphing into pure gratitude, he bowed slightly, “I would very much appreciate your help, Subaru-dono.”

Subaru chuckled before his mind wandered to the other reason he wished to help Wilhelm in this endeavor.

…I’ve been a coward this whole time Emilia-tan. Even though I can’t see you. I could have still written you a letter. Explained myself at least just a bit. And apologize for my mistakes. Even if you may never forgive me, I want to do this for you, so at least you won’t have any regrets. Hopefully, you’ll at least take a look.

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“I am quite impressed, Subaru-dono,” Crusch’s voice made Subaru flinch, he could never get used to how confident her tone was in almost every situation.

She drank her tea happily. Both the young squire and Duchess were having a nice afternoon chatting and having snacks, sitting outside under the sun. Crusch often liked eating out in the patio next to the garden.

“I don’t suppose you could tell me what exactly you’re impressed about?” Subaru grabbed a scone and nibbled on it.

Crusch smiled, “You were able to get Wilhelm to reconcile with his family within such a short time period. Such actions should be commended.”

Subaru blushed slightly, “Oh come on. I didn’t do much to be complimented like that. He was already planning on talking with Reinhard anyway. I just got him to do it faster.”

Crusch shook her head and dug a fork into her slice of cake, “You do not realize how many times I have heard such words beforehand. This isn’t the first instance where Wilhelm was willing or planning for reconciliation, only to change his mind at the last minute. You were able to not only have him write a whole two pages but also fully committed to mailing it. Quite admirable.”

“Really? It was that bad?”

Crusch was about to take a bite but sighed and put down her fork, “Yes. Unfortunately, Ferris’s efforts were never fruitful despite everything. Ferris has a soft spot for Reinhard-dono and has been constantly trying to get them to talk ever since Wilhelm joined my domain. Every time, Wilhelm’s guilt prevailed. I’m sure he’ll be delighted to hear that you were successful. If you don’t mind, could you tell me about how you were able to convince him?”

Subaru bit his lip, “Honestly, I have no idea. Even now, I’m still confused why he opened up to me so much. I just…spoke my mind. Just like before.”

But with a little more thought and care behind each word.

Subaru then realized something, he then bowed his head suddenly, “A-ah, apologies! I won’t tell anyone about your guys’ expedition. Please don’t blame Wilhelm!”

Crusch blinked at his sudden actions but then started to giggle, “I can see why he is so fond of you. You are a very honest soul, Subaru-dono. Do not worry, I am not mad.”

Subaru raised his head slightly, “You’re not?”

She drank from her cup and smiled, “You are correct in assuming that I knew of his admission of such information, but do not think of me as so cruel to blame my subordinate for something I allowed in the first place. Wilhelm, Ferris, and I have discussed that you will most likely know of the expedition soon enough, so why not tell you in advance? Ferris himself advocated on your behalf.”

Subaru’s eyes widened, “…Really?”

Crusch for some reason smiled even brighter, “Ferris enjoys your presence. Please don’t think otherwise.”

“I…”

Subaru looked away for a second, wiping his eyes, “Sorry…something got in there. Could you just give me a second.”

Crusch closed her eyes, “It is quite a windy day. Lots of pollen in the air.”

The wind howled in the background, flowers dancing with it. There was no rain today, though some water was present. It was just a nice day for tea and good company.

Subaru finally composed himself. He then drank from his cup and spoke once more, “Crusch-sama…do you mind if I ask you something?”

Crusch opened her eyes and waved her hand in the air, “Feel free to speak your mind. We are friends here, are we not.”

“Well, I mean-“

“A friend of Ferris’s is a friend of mine. Please be at ease.”

Subaru thought for a moment, “Only if you speak more casually with me. I mean, I’m grateful for the praise and you calling me ‘dono’ and all. But like, I’m not really a knight yet, so.”

She raised an eyebrow, “Would you prefer I call you the Pauper Playboy?”
Subaru froze, “…Did Ferris tell you that?”

“He may have mentioned.”

“…I’m going to kill him.”

Crusch laughed, a real sincere and guttural laugh.

Subaru stopped frowning and smiled, “…Do you mind if, after all of this is done, that I sometimes visit you all from time to time? I know we might become enemies due to the Selection, but I kind of…want to still be friends with you guys. Is that okay?”

Crusch blinked once.

Blinked twice.

Blinked thrice.

And then she stood and held out her hand firmly, “Subaru-dono. No matter what happens here or in the future, let I, Ferris, and Wilhelm, be comrades in goodwill. Maybe not always allies but always bonded by the spirit of fellowship.”

Subaru gawked at her hand but took it firmly, “Thank you Crusch. To the future and our friendship.”

They shook hands proudly.

Subaru felt warm. The future looked bright.

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“Subaru. Something has happened in the Mather’s Domain.”

…But some things never last.

Chapter Text

Subaru woke up to a sudden knock on his door.

He was groggy and the constant physical exertion was not helping with his morning attitude, as the boy could barely get up from the constant muscle aches. He flinched as his legs ached, dragging himself to the door.

Opening it, he was greeted by the face of one of the maids, raising an eyebrow, “Uh, good morning, is something the matter?”

The maid simply bowed, “Apologies for the disturbance Subaru-sama, but Lady Crusch requires your presence in her studies. Immediately if possible.”

Subaru furrowed his brow, “Okay, um. I’ll get ready quick, but could you tell me what’s the emergency?”

The maid shook her head, “Unfortunately, Lady Crusch only specified the urgency of your arrival, not the reason nor the contents. I will inform them that you will be coming, please make haste.”

She then bowed once more before leaving.

Her words created a pit in Subaru’s stomach. He ended up rushing to put on his clothes, his usual tracksuit outfit, before running towards the door.

Just as he was about to leave, he hesitated, returning to his dresser and taking out Felt’s wristband, a gemstone added to it, it glowed as he touched it.

Sorry Tsuki, didn’t mean to forget you.

Subaru actually didn’t know if Tsuki needed sleep or not. He was only knowledgeable of Puck and his general schedule, so he assumed Tsuki was similar. However, Julyea’s teachings basically cemented that Tsuki didn’t exactly have a conscious personality, so it’s possible sleep wasn’t actually necessary for minor spirits. Actually, how does that even work? How do spirits grow? Is Tsuki like a baby that is slowly growing and becoming a conscious being as he is fed on Subaru’s mana?

…Does that make Subaru some kind of spirit mother? Is his mana like milk? Is…okay Subaru terminated that line of intrusive thinking. His mind was trying to distract himself as he briskly walked through the halls to Crusch’s office. There were too many possibilities, and he’d rather not become an anxious mess right before talking with the Duchess of a noble house.

Friend she might be, he wasn’t going to assume that she would prioritize him over politics. Not everyone was as kind as Emilia.

…Emilia. Hopefully it wasn’t about her.

He arrived at Crusch’s office door and heard voices loudly talking through the thick wood.

“…sure…no…how…”

Subaru could barely hear. He swallowed and calmed himself down as best he could before opening the door.

Right as he did, he noticed that it wasn’t just Crusch in the room. Felix and Wilhelm, as always, were located at her side. The new addition was Julyea who was looking incredibly worried as she paced the room, only stopping when she heard Subaru enter.

Subaru stared as the four occupants now turned their attention to him, he waved awkwardly, “Hey guys…you needed me for something?”

Julyea quickly turned her head towards Crusch, whatever her expression was, it seemed to illicit a frown from Crusch and Felix subsequently sighing.

Crusch then waved her hand towards a chair, “Subaru-dono. Apologies for the sudden attendance but we would like your help with something. Please sit down.”

Subaru obliged as he looked over at Julyea, her eyes seemed frustrated as she then sat down herself, right next to him.

Felix pinched his nose, “Come on Julyea, be reasonable. It will make things easier with Subaru-kyun here.”

Julyea’s mouth tightened before speaking, “I understand Ferris. But you do realize that this could…”

Subaru raised an eyebrow at her sudden muteness, “Could what? Okay, what’s going on and why does it require me? Is something wrong? Did I make a mistake or something?”

Julyea raised her hands in the air and waved them, “No that’s not it-“

Crusch bluntly cut in, “Subaru. Something has happened in the Mather’s domain. We are under the intense suspicion that they are under attack.”
Subaru’s face paled, “Is it the Witch Cult?!”

Crusch’s expression didn’t change, “Unfortunately, we are unaware who is attacking them, though our suspicions are leaning towards those disgusting vermin.”

Subaru quickly got up, “What are we waiting for we need to-“

“Subaru-dono,” Wilhelm’s voice stopped Subaru in his tracks, “Calm down. There is much we need to discuss and any information you can provide is vital. Remember what I told you.”

Don’t rush into battle.

Subaru quickly caught his breath and sat back down, “Sorry about that. Please continue. But…how do you guys know they’re getting attacked?”

Crusch then looked towards Julyea. The Finest Knight glared for a bit before sighing, “Before Margrave Mathers left the Capital, he discussed possible countermeasures with Captain Marcos in regard to attacks on his domain. He was worried that with the announcement of the Royal Selection, Witch Cult activity would rise. Not only that, but they would also focus on targeting his ward.”

Subaru’s eyes widened, “Because she’s…a silver haired half-elf.”

The implication was clear. They were targeting her because of her relation to the Witch of Envy. It made Subaru’s guts wretch and twist.

His fingers bit into the chair as he gripped the arms.

Good on Ros-chi for being proactive.

Julyea nodded, “Indeed. He has been unable to acquire a sizable militia before the Selection started and was thus worried that they would be left with limited options if an attack were to occur. As a result, Margrave Mathers made a deal with us where, in the worst case scenario, we would be able to usher help to them at a moment’s notice.”

Julyea then reached into her pocket and pulled out a small device, it looked like a small snow globe, but the glass was foggy and glowing yellow.

She then placed it onto Crusch’s desk and continued talking, “This metia was designed by Margrave Mathers to indicate to us certain danger levels and would allow us to send reinforcements based on said levels. Green meant that there was no threat. Yellow meant that there was an imminent threat, but they had no idea how much or how many or even when. Red meant that they required immediate help as there was an assault on their doorstep.”

…So like a stop light. But for deadly situations. Also, I didn’t realize Ros-chi can make magical devices.

Felix leaned on Crusch’s chair, “Julyea and I were in Captain’s office when it went off. After talking for a while, we decided it would be best to send a squad of knights toward the Mather’s Domain.”

Crusch cut in, “However, the situation is odd to say the least. As you’ll no doubt see in a few moments.”

Subaru raised an eyebrow, but Crusch’s words were proven right as he saw the globe change from yellow to green.

“What?”

Crusch eyed the metia curiously, “That was our reaction. The metia is changing colors every few minutes. Yellow, green, red. It constantly cycles.”

Julyea leaned back into her chair and rubbed her temples, “Captain Marcos believes the device might be malfunctioning. But he is also under the intense suspicion that something is indeed going wrong in the Head Mage’s domain. The timing is too weird given certain events. Thus, he has assigned Felix and I in gathering a group to investigate the area in case an attack has occurred.”

Felix cracked his neck, “We were planning on just going ourselves, Julyea and I, as it wouldn’t be smart to just send the whole cavalry at an unknown enemy. Plus, what if they try to attack the capital? Nyo way that would be smart. But then I had the idea-“

Julyea frowned, “A very bad idea.”

Felix kept talking, ignoring his friend boring a hole into his head with her glares, “A very good idea. To invite Subaru with us.”

Subaru looked between Julyea and Felix quickly before pointing at himself, “Me?! I…listen I’m the guy who wants to go the most, and I was honestly expecting to argue going with you, but…why me?”

Crusch spoke carefully, “You are the only one with knowledge of the Mather’s Domain. Having someone who could guide them to key chokepoints, nearby villages, or possible areas of danger would prevent a lot of wasted time. Not only that, no one has any idea how much firepower Emilia’s camp has, so your knowledge on how long they can defend would be most appreciated.”

 Subaru nodded, “Because then it would be easier for us to figure out a proper response.”

“Precisely.”

It was pragmatic. His recent conversations with Crusch have enlightened him on some historical military campaigns. One of which involved a battle in the Demi-Human War where soldiers were scattered from improper management of units. Too many squads were sent to protect an encampment that didn’t require that much assistance, which lead to other areas, such as the barracks and supply depots, being absolutely bombarded by enemy firepower. Subaru may not be smart, but he did understand that there was something to learn from history.

His brain was no longer panicking, he spoke with a bit more poise than he expected, “Wait so, what if something is actually happening? Are we just going to run back and get reinforcements?”

Julyea shook her head, and pulled out another metia, this one looked like a pocket watch, only for it to open and reveal a mirror, “This is a conversation mirror. We will use it to connect to Captain Marcos and inform him of the situation. That way we can request additional forces if needed.”

Crusch then leaned in, “Going back to our previous discussion, Subaru-dono, what kind of defensives does Margrave Mather’s have exactly?”

Just as Subaru was about to answer, Julyea cut in, “I don’t believe you have any reason for knowing such information.”

Felix angrily retorted, “Julyea!”

Subaru stared in confusion as Crusch moved to defend herself, “Dame Julyea. I know how that must have sounded but do know that I wasn’t requesting such information to gain an advantage. Do know also that I wish to retain friendly relations with Margrave Mathers and my knight will be going into dangerous territory. I’d like to be aware if my assistance would be needed.”

Julyea narrowed her eyes, evidently holding her tongue, “…I understand that. However, do know that I can see you are still gaining from the situation no matter your intentions.”

Crusch shrugged her shoulders, “That I will not disagree with.”

Subaru pursed his lips.

He was slightly annoyed, but he also couldn’t exactly fault Crusch. Her knight was being sent into a mission right when the White Whale hunt was supposed to occur soon. Not only will it delay their plans, which could jeopardize the whole operation, but Felix was about to be sent on a dangerous mission. What if he got hurt or killed? Crusch would be devastated.

Argh! And it’s not like I’m good at this stuff in the first place. Ros-chi may hate me for giving out secrets, but does it really matter as long as everyone is safe? I don’t know…

 Subaru thought for a moment before speaking, “Alright. But just know that I’ve only been there about a few months now, so my info might not be perfect. We…I mean, they mostly only have Emilia, Roswaal, and Rem as combatants. Ram can use magic, but she isn’t that strong.”

Crusch narrowed her eyes, “Quite a small roster. I understand it was difficult for the Margrave to gather forces due to his…circumstances. However, that is quite a small amount given how large his domain is. Do the nobles under him not have their own forces?”

Subaru shook his head, “I have no idea. Again, I just started working there.”

Felix put his hands nonchalantly in the air, “I mean, does it really matter if his forces are small? I nyever really got why the guy decided to ask the knights for help in the first place. Isn’t he the Head Mage? And doesn’t Emilia-sama have the Beast of The End as a partner? They could probably blow up all the Witch Cult themselves.”

Subaru’s eyes widened, “Ah, well…”

Crusch caught that, “Is there something wrong with that information?”

Subaru hesitated before admitting, “…Puck only has a certain amount of time he can come out during the day. And even then, he goes to sleep around the evening and can’t come out afterwards.”

This new information put everyone in silence.

Said silence was then broken by Felix’s indignation, “That’s so stupid! So, that means she can’t even defend herself fully all the time! What if the Cult tries to kill them at night?! She’s basically screwed!”

Julyea chided him, “Enough Ferris. Spirit contracts have various stipulations. Perhaps Emilia-sama cannot handle his power that well and must have him rest frequently in order to prevent her from getting injured. There are numerous reasons for such obligations.”

Crusch spoke next, “The point is that there is only really one combatant of yours that is reliable then.”

Subaru shook his head, “Actually no. Rem is pretty strong too. She’s an Oni and is wicked good with a mace. Also…she can smell Witch Cultists.”

That made everyone alarmed.

Wilhelm stood up straighter, “Subaru-dono. You do realize how incredible that is, yes?”

Subaru blinked, “Um, not really, no.”

Wilhelm also blinked, “I see. It seems the Cult has not spread to your home. That is fortunate to hear. The reason why this is incredible is that it is difficult to find any differences between an insidious cultist and a normal citizen. Often times, a cultist could be hiding in plain sight while hiding their malice under a polite façade. A neighbor of yours could reveal themselves as a cruel and sadistic monster in the blink of an eye. Rem-san may be a more valuable asset for Emilia-sama than you realize.”

Subaru gulped.

Ah. No wonder Rem was so suspicious of me. I wasn’t really helping with that either, given how weird I acted back then.

Subaru held back on the nausea. He could still remember the pain from back then.

“Subaru. Are you alright?” Julyea’s words struck him out of that memory haze.

Subaru tried to quickly smile, “A-ah, I’m alright. Why do you ask?”

Julyea kept focusing on him, “You suddenly went very pale.”

“…Just some bad memories. Let’s keep talking. Is there anything else you guys need?”

Julyea stared for a moment before she shook her head as Crusch spoke, “Thank you for the information, Subaru-dono. I promise you, this information will not be leaked nor will it be used for any dishonorable reason. I truly am just worried for my knight. As a show of good faith, in fact, I shall offer you more assistance before you disembark towards the Mather’s Domain. Please take any provisions or weapons you need. You may even take one of our earth dragons.”

Subaru perked up from Crusch’s help. However, such good spirits were quickly dashed.

Julyea stood up, “Unfortunately, Subaru will not be coming with us.”

Subaru quickly got to his feet as well, “Wait, wait, wait! That’s not fair! You can’t just stop me from trying to save Emilia!”

Julyea didn’t waver, “I understand your feelings. Regardless, you are not fit for such missions yet. You have only just begun training, and you lack any sort of actual experience. While the exact level of danger for this mission is unknown, I will not be risking your life on a possibility.”

Subaru grit his teeth, he understood her logic, but he needed to do this, “I get it. I really do. I’m not strong enough. But you can’t just expect me to sit around while the person I swore my loyalty to is in danger. Wouldn’t you do the same if Anastasia-sama was in danger?”

Felix chimed in, “He’s got a point Julyea. If Crusch was in trouble, I’d be going headfirst in order to save her.”

Crusch didn’t look at her knight, but it was evident that such loyalty was reciprocated. It made Subaru’s heart burn.

Maybe one day Emilia and I will be like that.

Julyea clearly didn’t agree given her quick side-glare before returning her attention to Subaru, “Normally I would commend you for such devotion. But think about this rationally. You have no combat skills and Tsuki lacks the mana capacity for more than a few spells. While your knowledge would be useful in maneuvering through the domain, it is not worth putting your life at risk. I swore responsibility for your life, as your master. I intend to make sure such responsibility is not taken lightly.”

Subaru tried to speak once more, “But-“

“No buts. This decision is final. Ferris, I will be making preparations. Meet me near the stables once you are finished with your meeting. I shall be informing my Lady of my whereabouts before we leave.”

And with that, Julyea grabbed the snow globe metia before moving towards the door and exiting. Not even looking behind her.

Subaru stood there stunned.

He then felt someone’s hand on his shoulder, a cutesy voice from behind him echoed, “Hey Crusch, ya mind if I talk to Subaru-kyun alone real quick?”

Crusch waved her hand, “Please do. Once you finish, we will continue our discussion promptly. We may have to change our plans.”

In the background, Wilhelm nodded. Wilhelm’s face was stone, but the slight tightening of his brow indicated his real feelings quite clearly.

Felix then grabbed Subaru’s hand and skipped across the room, dragging him out into the hall.

Just Felix slammed the door closed behind him, Subaru felt a hand hit his head, “Ow! What was that for?!”

Felix then stared at him unimpressed, “You were blanking out like an idiot.”

“Didn’t mean you had to hit me…”

Felix stared at Subaru, “Subaru, don’t do something stupid.”

Subaru stared at Felix, “I’m not.”

“You were probably thinking about finding a way to sneak your way onto the mission, weren’t you?”
Subaru’s eyes shifted slightly away, “…No.”

He actually wasn’t thinking of doing that, still focusing on the fact that Julyea clearly had no faith in him. However, he knew himself well enough that he would be thinking of a way to circumvent her at this point.

Felix sighed, “Well, unlucky for you, but we’ll only be taking earth dragons with us, no carriages. So there really isn’t a way for you to follow us without Julyea knowing. Secondly, even if you could, her spirits would probably find you immediately. Third, even if you tried, Julyea would knock you out the immediate second she finds out.”

“Ah. The Rein method.”

Felix nodded, “Yeah. The Rein method.”

Subaru scratched his head, frustration seeping into him, “I just…ugh!”

“I know. Trust me, that wasn’t just me trying to play nice or annoy Julyea. I really do understand how you’re feeling but she does have a point too.”

Subaru sighed, “…I don’t disagree with her either. I know I’m weak. I don’t want to be a burden on her or you or anyone. And I can see her perspective, she wouldn’t be able to focus on the danger if she has to worry about me all the time. But still…I can’t help but want to do something. I wanted to be a knight to be of use to Emilia. And this? This is a chance for me to at least do something. Anything.”

Felix stared at Subaru for a few seconds before patting his shoulder, “Here. Let me go talk to her. I don’t knyow if I’ll be able to fully convince that stubborn woman, but I can at least see if she’d be willing to give you a chance. Why don’t nya wait for me at the stables?”

Subaru couldn’t believe it, “You’d do that for me? Don’t you have to talk to Crusch about the…White Whale stuff?”

Subaru whispered those last few words making Felix snort, “It might piss Old Man Wil off a bit but we can delay that talk until later. Besides…can’t a guy give a little help to his friend?”

Felix didn’t look at Subaru, looking away slightly while blushing.

Subaru smiled, patting Felix’s shoulder back, “Thank you Ferris. You’re a good friend.”

Felix pushed Subaru towards the direction of the stables, “Don’t thank me nyet. I still have to talk to that stubborn idiot. Go down the hall and take the second left. Then take anyother right. You should be able to reach the stables once you walk outside.”

“You’re a really, really good friend Ferris!” Subaru ran down the hall as Felix waved.

Subaru felt warm despite his lingering doubts.

He understood why Julyea wouldn’t want him to come along.

But why be so adamant? Is responsibility the only reason or did she really look down on him that much?

…No. Julyea isn’t like that.

Then what is it?

Why try to even hide this situation from him?

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“I think she’s in love with you.”

What?