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You never thought you would be single going into your junior year of college. You and your ex broke up over the summer, both of you were unhappy and you personally felt unsatisfied in the relationship. Thankfully your ex transferred to another college before the school year so you didn't have to worry about running into them.

You hadn’t been single since before college and you were excited to get in on the “college experience” to the fullest extent. Kissing random guys at parties, one night stands, taking shots from others bodies… yes you were sad about the relationship ending, after all it was three years of your life, but you couldn’t help but smile at the new experiences ahead.

Right now, the only thing on your mind was moving into your apartment. Your family helped move you in and as much as you appreciated their help, you wanted them out. It stressed you out having so many boxes and three other people over you watching you unpack your life. So, finally after a few hours of nagging, crying, and goodbyes you were by yourself.

You went into your new bedroom and started to unpack and put your things away. After a bit of organizing you were happy with how things were you decided to check your phone, to no surprise you see the group chat blowing up.

Sasha talking about some new food place she wanted to try, Connie throwing unnecessary but funny memes in the chat and Jean throwing laughing emojis like there's no tomorrow, Armin asking when everyone was moving in, and much more chaos.

You found yourself smiling down at your phone and admiring how your friends could make you laugh even through the screen. At the same time Sasha texted in the girls group chat

Sasha: HEYYYY GIRLSSS ASAP WE HAVE TO MEET UP TONIGHT!!!!

Hitch: YES. WHERE WE MEETING UP?!?!?!?

You: hellurrrr, we can meet at my place. We have A LOT to debrief!

Since you lived kind of far away from all your friends you didn’t get the chance to hang out with them much over the summer. Plus the breakup you needed space so you didn’t text them as much as you wanted to. But, meeting up with everyone had you going in circles with how excited you were.

You decided to get some drinks for your friends before they arrived, before heading out you grabbed your keys, wallet, and a tote bag. You headed to the corner store (where you know they didnt card) and got all the drinks the girls loved. As you were checking out you saw a familiar face in your peripheral. Before you could register who it was he came behind you and quickly grabbed your wrist. Eren Yeager, of course.

“Hey pretty lady what brings you here”

“Hello Eren, to what do I owe this pleasure?”

“You know you can't buy alcohol under 21 right?” he said as he grabbed your chin.

Immediately you turn red and pray the cashier didn’t hear him as you handed him your credit card. Damn him. He was always so annoying. Luckily the cashier didn’t seem to hear or care about what was being said. You swiftly grabbed your alcohol and push Eren out the way with your hand on his chest.

“So what's the occasion?” he asked as you walked away.
“Oh, the girls are coming over to my place and we’re having a girls night,” you say heading out the door.

“And I’m not invited?” he asks as if he’s personally offended.

You always thought Eren was attractive, the way he knew what to say at all times, and how he flirted as if he invented it.

“Haha, so funny. No you’re not invited, don’t you have some other girl to bother tonight?”

Eren was actually a nice guy. Even though he was attractive and flirted like his life depended on it, he didn’t sleep around with as many girls. He had one relationship with a girl freshman year, Pieck and from what you heard it really fucked him up. After that he claimed he “didn’t do relationships” instead he lead girls on by overly love bombing them until he got bored.

“Nah, but I would love to bother you.” He says smuggish blocking you from walking any further.

This time you place your hand on his bicep and subconsciously grab at it and feel his muscle. The movement makes you forget what you were doing and you stumble over your words. Eren couldn’t help but notice and flexed his muscle more, shoving it straight into your face.

Now annoyed (not really you were actually loving it), you nicely tell Eren to move out of the way. He submits and let’s you leave.

You could feel his eyes watching you as you left. On the way back home you couldn’t help but replay the moment with Eren. It made you smile. The way his muscles felt through his shirt sent a bolt down your spine and made your stomach feel, hot.

Once you got back to your apartment you put the drinks away and cleaned up the mess from unpacking. You heard a loud pounding on your door. “OPEN UPPP, WE’RE DYING TO SEE YOU!!” screamed maybe Sasha through the door. You quickly ran and threw the door open.

Immediately Sasha jumps onto you to give you a hug nearly pushing you to the floor. “Oh god, how I missed you so much” she says as you struggle to get her off of you.

“Awe guys I missed you so much” you say to the girls as they come in giving you hugs. Your girl group consisted of Sasha, Hitch, Annie, Mikasa, and yourself. You had met them at orientation your freshman year and clicked with them instantly. Luckily this was more your friend group then your ex’s so they supported you more in the breakup than them.

As you all settled on the floor around the coffee table, you felt at peace knowing that these were your best friends and knew you could count on them for anything. The banter went from summer plans, odd hookups, to new blooming relationships. You hesitated telling them about your encounter with Eren but decided not to for the sake of questioning.

Finally, they all looked at you as you told them the long story about your breakup. “You know we weren’t happy with each other, and honestly the whole relationship was very toxic.” you said as you take a sip of your mixed drink. It was true the whole relationship was built on false hope. You had gotten into the relationship before coming into college, you both had confessed feelings before your senior year of highschool and decided to date for the summer. Then, it turned into more, falling for each other and becoming obsessed. It was your first relationship and everyone was always commenting on how “cute you were together” and how you were such “couple's goals”. Because of this you were afraid to ever lose them. There were multiple times where you broke up or almost broke up, but you could never quite leave each other. For some reason the familiarity of your relationship kept reeling you back in preventing you from really seeing the true nature of your relationship.

Coming into college, you met your now best friends and some of them had their suspicions about your relationship.

“Honestly” Mikasa says, “ I never thought you guys would last.” Yes, it was true, you knew this but, hearing it hurt even more. Your friends could see how much the relationship drained you and how much it affected your mental health. But, since you were so wrapped up in your own world, you never thought they were the reason for your unhappiness.

“Yeah I know, I spent the summer reflecting on it and realized how badly I needed to get out of the relationship. I just wish I had seen the signs of the relationship breaking sooner.” Sasha placed her hand on your shoulder and gave you a side hug.

“Don’t worry, we’re here now! We just need to get you out there and forget all about them, right guys?!” Sasha looked around at everyone as they all smiled and nodded. This is what you needed all summer. Your friends around to lift your spirits up.

“Okay enough of this sappy shit, let’s get drunk.” you said as your friends all held their drinks up.

The rest of the night consisted of music, dancing, singing, and far too much Tito’s. As the night came to a close, the girls started to leave. “Get back safe guys, text me when you get back,” you say as you close the door.

Sasha wanted to stay the night with you, so you got out some blankets and clothes she could wear for the night. As you got ready for bed, you thought about how your ex would get mad when you had sleepovers with your friends. It wasn’t like you were going to cheat on them…

As you take your clothes off and put your pj’s on, a tank top with shorts, Sasha throws you a compliment, “Omg your boobs look so nice in that.”

“Aww thank you, they’re so swollen right now since I'm about to start my period, they hurt so bad.”

Your ex to put it lightly was super jealous, if someone so much as looked at you funny or if your friends hyped you up they would get mad. It wasn’t your fault at the end of the day? Why is it so bad for your friends to say nice things about you? But, you try to ignore your thoughts to enjoy the night with Sasha.

You both lay side by side talking about your drunk thoughts until Sasha dozes off blabbering about Niccolo.

Right, Niccolo, him and Sasha started talking over the summer and they were supposed to go on a date in the next couple of days. It made your heart happy that Sasha had found someone that makes her happy as much as food does.

Once you notice that Sasha is asleep you turn to your side and fall asleep after a few moments.

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You wake up the next morning with a slight headache and roll over into Sasha who is still asleep. You carefully climb over her to get your phone and get up to leave her by herself. As you look at your phone you notice a few messages: 

Mom: Good morning sweetheart ❤️, I hope you enjoy your day. 

You: Good morning mom, have a good day too!

Hitch: hey, do you wanna get dinner tonight, i wanna catch up 1 on 1? 

You: yes, ofc lmk what time and where. i lowkey have a lot to tell you. 

As you send your text to Hitch you see Sasha, or rather hear her, drag her feet towards the kitchen. “Good morning sleepy, did I wake you,” you say as Sasha opens your fridge. 

“No, but you are starving me. What do you have to eat.” you chuckle as you get up to make Sasha some food. 

“I can make some avocado toast with eggs and coffee?” you ask as she sits down at the breakfast stools. 

“Ouu yes please,” Sasha says as she cheerfully clasps her hands in front of her. As you gather the ingredients to make breakfast, Sasha talks about her plans for the day and her course schedule for the semester. 

You met Sasha in an introduction to nutrition course, you both studied together. Or more so, you taught her and quizzed her for the exams. Sasha only took the course to satisfy a requirement for science whereas you took it as an elective. 

You finished breakfast and plated it for Sasha, as you gave her her plate she hugged you and told you how much she loved you for making her food. Once you were done with breakfast, you sipped on your iced coffee as Sasha grabbed her stuff and got ready to leave. “You know, you can talk to me about anything right? Like regarding the break up, I'm here for you babe.” 

“I know Sash, thank you. But, I promise I’m good right now, I'll see you later okay?” 

“Okay, bye bye I love you,” said Sasha as she slowly closed the door behind her. 

“Yeah, I love you too babe.” When Sasha left you cleaned up the mess from the night before and organized the rest of the bins and boxes from moving in. At around 3 o’clock you were done and saw that Hitch texted you regarding dinner. You quickly responded and went into your room to chill for a bit. 

As the hours passed by you got up again and changed to get dinner with Hitch. You guys were gonna eat at a sushi place, a spot where you always went. It was a bit far away but the walk was always a good debrief time. You put on some jeans and a tank top, along with your everyday jewelry and some sambas and headed out. Hitch was already at your meeting spot when you arrived. You gave each other a hug and started walking into town. 

“So, what’s up, how are you doing?” asked Hitch as you walked side by side. 

“Honestly, I’m doing fine. I’m kind of over the whole thing now, we were actually so toxic it's insane Hitch.” 

“Oh girl I know, I saw the way you tensed up around them all the time. They were really sucking the life out of you babe.” 

Out of all the girls, you were closest to Hitch and Sasha but you had different friendships with each. With Hitch, you could talk to her about your struggles with mental health and show her the broken parts of you. With Sasha you tended to keep those things hidden away from her since she was such a sweet soul and really wouldn’t understand. Nevertheless you were close with both of them and loved/trusted them like no other. 

Once you got to the sushi place, you take a seat across from each other and start talking about the night before with your friends. As you’re laughing about something Annie had said, you turn to see the door opening and a group of guys come in. Connie, Jean, Eren, Reiner, Porco, and Floch. Immediately you and Hitch give each other a look and innocently smile at them. 

“Hey guys I didn’t expect to see you two here.” says Jean as he and Connie walk up to you guys. You slightly get out of your chair to give each of them a hug. The rest of the guys nod and head to a table on the other side of the restaurant. 

“Hey, how you holding up,” says Connie as he holds your hand. 

“Yeah, I’m good, don’t worry about me.” you say with a half smile on your face. Jean and Connie were always easy to talk to and could see right through you when you lied. You could see Connie looking into your eyes to see some truth in what you were saying. But instead he smiled at you and met up with the other guys. 

As you and Hitch sat there ordering your food you couldn’t help but look over at their table. Goddamn they were all so attractive, fuck even Floch had a glow up over the summer. 

“Why do you keep looking over there, do you wanna fuck them or something” says Hitch as you snap out of your day dreaming to look to her. 

“Oh god no, I just dozed off. Sorry what were you saying” 

“I said, there’s a party Friday night at the guys’ frat and they invited us to their pre, you in? 

“Yeah sure I’ll be there, at what time?” 

“Pre starts at 10:30 pm but we can get there later.” 

“Okay, yeah that works. Do you wanna get together to pre the pre?” 

“Duh are you kidding, no way we’re going sober to the pregame.” You both couldn't help but laugh at how stupid your sentences must sound. 

 You knew if you and Hitch were together for a function, it was going to be good. You guys always get so drunk and high, you wake up with the worst hangovers but amazing debriefs. The rest of dinner went smoothly but you couldn’t help but notice sets of eyes looking over at you from the guys table. 

When you and Hitch paid and got up from your seats you headed to the further end of the restaurant. You went to say goodbye to your friends, Connie was the first to see you and immediately got up to give you guys a hug. He insisted on walking you guys back since it was late and it looked like he wanted out of whatever was going on at the table. You said bye to the rest of them and you noticed Eren eyeing you from the rear end of the table and blushing when you spent a little longer making eye contact with him while walking out. 

Connie walked beside you on the road side of the sidewalk while you and Hitch interlocked arms. 

“So why did you want to leave your friends?” asked Hitch as she tilted her head towards Connie

“Oh haha they were talking some bull and I’m honestly really tired. I also haven’t talked to you guys since summer. What you guys didn’t miss me?” Connie said as he had a smug look on his face. 

“Yeah yeah we missed you stupid, how have you been.” You ask him. The rest of the walk goes by fast and you drop off Hitch at her apartment first. Then Connie and you head to your place. “Do you wanna come up? I’m not that tired if you want to hang out for a bit?” You loved hanging out with Connie because you didn’t have to put up a front with him. You both struggled with the same things and you knew he wouldn’t judge you for the things you did or didn’t do.  

“Yeah I’ll stay for a bit, lead the way.” You both laughed and once you opened your front door. He looked around and admired the apartment. As he settled down into the couch, you head to your room to grab your cart and change into comfier clothes. You toss the cart towards him and he thanks you as you sit down on the couch. He took a hit and passed it to you so you do the same. 

“So tell me what’s really up? I know you weren’t telling me the truth back at the sushi place.” 

“Fuck, I knew I couldn’t half ass my answer to you. Well what do you want to know?” Connie drapes his arm against the top of the couch and manspreads while turning his head to you. You couldn't help but notice how good he looked from this angle. 

“I don’t know, shit tell me the things they did that made you realize the whole relationship was toxic.” It was a simple question but it still hit hard. You chuckle a bit under your breath and take another hit of your pen. 

“Damn well how long do you want to be here cause I have a lot to say about that.” 

“Hey I got all night to talk to you about it, I’m always here for you,” he said as he playfully punched your arm. You knew Connie was telling the truth. There had been so many nights where you spent talking about family, past relationships, goals,  your struggles and it always ended with tears or laughter from both of you. You gave him a half hearted smile and took a deep breath before unleashing everything you had kept in for 3 years. 

You started off with the little things. How your ex was crazy jealous. They were always jealous of you hanging out with anyone other than them. It was consistent arguing about how much time you would spend with friends but, when it came to them, they could spend hours on end without responding to you when they hung out with friends. It always frustrated you but when the topic would get brought up they would pin you as the villain and explain why it was okay if they did so but not you. For some god awful reason you would go along with it and just accept the consequences. 

Going to parties was always a slippery slope, your ex did not like parties but you did. So, a compromise was established. You could only go out four times a month. But beware you would get a very serious conversation about how they thought you were cheating on them, getting too drunk, not spending time with them, blah blah blah. It was very exhausting to find time to hang out with friends, balance your relationship, and focus on school. 

You noticed Connie was intently listening to what you had to say, he wouldn’t comment on anything, just nod his head. His eyebrows were slightly burrowed in when you mentioned something he didn’t like. You continued with telling Connie about your relationship, how they ignored your pleas for help and how they manipulated you into staying with them for multiple months. 

Finally, the secret you had been keeping since it happened. “Okay when I tell you this you have to promise to not freak out. I swear I’m okay, okay?” 

“Okay.” Connie said skeptically. You knew he was going to freak out but you had to give him a warning as to what you were going to tell him. So, you moved to be a little closer to him and held his hand as if that was going to keep him from crashing out. 

“My ex sort of sexually abused me for a little bit,” you immediately feel Connie’s hand squeeze yours and his breath start to shudder. 

“No what the fuck how would I not freak out about that. I’m going to beat them up, I can’t just sit here and listen to you talk about this as if it’s normal. I’m gonna…”

“Connie it’s okay I swear” you say as you start to stand up too overwhelmed with the feeling of the couch on your back and the texture rubbing against your legs. You started to scratch at your hands, a tick you picked up in high school. Connie noticed almost immediately and softly grabbed your hands to try and calm you down. He pulled you into a hug and rested his chin on your head. You closed your eyes appreciating the much needed hug and sunk into him. 

After a few moments you pulled away and saw him staring at you, there was something in his eyes, a look of concern mixed with heartache. Connie stepped away to give you some space and sat back on the couch with his right hand rubbing his face. 

“How long did it happen for?” asked Connie, his voice was lower now, almost a whisper. 

“It was the first few months of our relationship.” When it first happened you didn’t know it was sexual abuse. “They would always coerce me into having sex even when I continued to say no, until eventually I gave in. I didn’t think anything of it since I technically did say yes but now I know it was abuse of some sort. After those few months I always just said yes to sex whether I wanted to or not.” Your eyes start to water and you look up to prevent tears from rolling down your cheeks. Connie caught a tear and swiped it away with his thumb.

“I’m so sorry that happened to you,” then he softly said your name, almost as if saying your name was the only thing preventing him from punching a wall. Connie sat there angry, confused trying to comfort you. 

You now sat next to him, your head resting on his shoulder. You don’t know how long you sat there close to him, maybe 30 minutes longer? Shorter? You didn’t know. 

Eventually you looked over at your phone and saw that it was almost 2 a.m. then you realized that back on your walk Connie had told you he was tired but he still stayed here with you. 

“I’m sorry for keeping you here for so long, I know you’re tired you can leave or stay on the couch if you want.”  You trial off saying, yawning into your hand. 

“Don’t apologize, I can stay however long you need me to.” As he said those words you found yourself dozing off and eventually entering a deep sleep while Connie sat next to you. 

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When you awake you notice you’re in your bed, confused because you could have sworn you fell asleep on the couch. You quickly get up and look for your phone and see a text sent at 2:37 a.m

Connie: I thought u might be more comfy in ur bed, I’m heading back to my place now. Text me when u wake 

You: idiot you could have just stayed on the couch 🙄.

thanks though i owe you

Connie: Nah don’t worry, you okay though? 

You: yeah thanks for listening to me, sorry if it was too much

Connie: Don’t be sorry, if i ever see ur ex i’m socking them though

You: that would be greatly appreciated 😘

You lay on your bed for a few minutes trying to remember how much you told Connie about your ex. You didn’t mean to tell him that last part. If anything you never planned on telling anyone. It made you feel icky and it was too vulnerable to share with anyone. So, why did you tell Connie? What about him made it so easy to tell you the broken parts of you that were too hard to swallow? 

Instead of overthinking things you finally get out of bed and take a shower, it’s Sunday and tomorrow would be your first day of school. So, you decided to spend the day getting ready for the week ahead. You meal prepped and cleaned any messes left behind from last night and this morning. Your mind couldn’t help but go back to the night before, you had to admit it did feel nice finally telling someone. 

Over the summer you looked back on your relationship and realized what had occurred. You felt uneasy and so uncomfortable in your body you could barely look at yourself. There were times where you dressed in the baggiest clothes possible in order to hide yourself hoping to cover up where your ex had taken advantage of you. You instead focused on bettering yourself mentally and physically. 

You finally got to a point where you could dissociate your ex from your life and block out any negative thoughts about yourself that related to them. But, the abuse seemed to stick with you no matter how much you wanted to ignore it. 

The rest of the day passed in a blur until it was time to get ready for bed. You took a quick shower and did your night routine before falling asleep. 

Your alarm went off at 7:45 a.m and you got ready to go on a run, over the summer you started to run to clear your mind and you found it therapeutic. After heading out and running 3 miles you headed back to your apartment to get ready for the day. You took a shower, did your skin care, and did your makeup. You whipped up a simple breakfast then headed to your room to pick out your outfit. After trying on ten different outfits you finally landed on a black tank top with a maxi skirt, your everyday jewelry and sambas. You grabbed your things and headed out for your 10:30 a.m class. 

The first class of the day was public health, you sat near the back of the class and took your laptop out to take your notes. As you were sitting there you saw someone sit down next to you, you look up from your phone to see Eren. 

“How funny, we always end up in the same place huh?” Eren says as he pulls his headphones by the wire out of his ears. You can’t help but roll your eyes at his comment. 

“Sounds like you’re stalking me Yeager.” You say as you playfully punch his arm, accidentally feeling the muscles in his arm yet again. Today he was wearing a tight black t-shirt with a pair of gray cargo pants and a chain sticking out from his shirt. 

Eren laughs and shakes his head while looking down at the table. He makes eye contact with you once he lifts his head up again. “You coming to the party tonight?” 

“What? Tonight? Hitch told me it was Friday.” 

“Yeah there’s one Friday but we’re also throwing one tonight too. You should come, it’ll help get your mind off your ex.” 

You never told Eren you broke up with your ex but it was inevitable he find out since you ran in the same friend groups. But, you wanted to tease him. 

“How’d you know I’m single now?” You playfully ask. 

“A little birdie told me,” that stupid look on his face makes you blush on the spot. Thank god the professor starts class and you turn your direction towards her. 

Class goes by fast, the professor let the class out early since there wasn’t much material to go over. As you pack your things up you notice Eren patiently waiting for you to finish. 

“Do you wanna go to the cafe?” He asks nonchalantly. 

“Uh yeah I don’t have class until 1.” You say walking out beside him. 

You grab an energy drink from the cafe since you forgot yours in your fridge and check out. You and Eren sit across from each other in the cafe and start talking about your classes for the semester. 

“So, what other courses are you taking this semester?” You ask him while opening your drink. 

“This class, micro-biology, some philosophy course, and calc. How about you?” As Eren talks to you he fiddles with his hands a lot, was this a new tick? You never noticed it before. 

“Public health, a psych course, and two poli-sci courses for my major.” 

After 30 minutes you notice Connie comes into the cafe. He looks over to your table and nods his head toward you. You wave and smile towards him as he approaches you and Eren. 

“Hi Connie, what’re you doing here?” You ask. 

“I just got done with class and I saw you through the window.” he says as he sits down next to you. You slightly move over to make space for him but his knee still manages to nudge yours slightly. 

Geez why do guys always have to manspread so wide. 

“I told her about the party tonight,” says Eren looking at Connie “I-”

“Oh right I forgot to tell you about that the other night.” Connie says cutting him off. Eren looks between you guys and you can't seem to decipher the expression on his face. “Are you coming?” 

“Yeah, I just need to text my friends to make sure they’re going too.” you say looking at Connie. 

“Good, can’t wait to see you there,” Connie says, bopping your nose with his finger while winking at you. You slightly turn your head forwards to hide your smile. You look down at your phone and see that it’s 12:50. 

“Oh shit, I gotta go, I have class at 1.” you say trying to gather your things quickly. Eren begins to stand too, trying to walk you out. 

“I can walk you to class.” he says, rubbing his hand on the back of his neck.

“It’s okay, don't worry! I’ll see you guys later. Bye bye.” You say trying to get Connie to move out the way, then basically running away. Eren stays standing as you hurry away before he slowly sits back down, now just him and Connie alone. 

After your classes finish for the day at 2:30, you meet with your girl friends on the quad. 

“Did you know the guy’s frat is throwing a party today?” You say as you sit next to Sasha. 

“Oh I think I heard Armin mention it,” said Annie from the far end of the table. 

Annie and Armin had been a couple for a year now. It was so painfully obvious they were in love with each other since freshman year but, neither of them admitted it until last year. Their relationship was one you looked up to. Seeing how well they complimented each other made your heart skip a beat. 

That is what you wanted your relationship to be. Instead you had a manipulative, abusive, toxic, good for nothing ex partner. Ugh it made you so mad at how much they were able to get away with and how much they put you through. Instead of worrying about your past you try to focus on what Mikasa is saying. 

“Can I get ready with one of you guys?” 

“Aw yeah you can come over to my place, Hitch and Sasha are coming over right?!” you ask them 

“Yeah, I'll be there.” says Hitch looking up from her phone. 

“Yes me too!” says Sasha with some sort of granola bar in her mouth. 

“Okay, thanks. Text me when to get there, I gotta go for now. I have class in a few minutes.” says Mikasa as she slowly gets up from the bench. 

“Yeah okay, see you later.” you say waving her goodbye. 

The rest of the afternoon passes by quickly. You get back to your apartment at 5 o’clock and grab a snack, something simple for your night ahead of drinking. You start to play some music while writing down your assignments into your planner for the semester. 

Song: Perreo Pesau’ by Rauw Alejandro  

As the hours roll by, you get a text from Sasha telling you to grab some drinks for them. 

You: hey guys, im gonna to to the corner store to get some drinks. 

lmk what you guys want 😜

You throw your shoes on and grab a tote bag as the girls tell you what kind of drinks they want. Hitch requested far too many buzz balls for your liking. You already know where this night is going to lead to and you’ve just started mentally preparing yourself. 

Once getting to the corner store you grab the goods and go to check out. And to your surprise the cashier asks: 

“ID?” as he reaches his hand out. 

FUCK. You have never gotten carded here and your 21st birthday isn’t until next month. You feel your cheeks burning red. Your breath starts to grow faster and you don’t know what to do.  Because what are you supposed to do? Do you walk out and face humiliation? Give him your ID and let him tell you you’re underage? Do you try to flirt your way out of it? 

You start looking around to see if you know anyone who can help you and you see the cashier starting to get annoyed. When you’re about to just say “sorry” and leave, you hear someone say: 

“I got it, here’s my ID. My friend here forgot hers, silly her.” he says resting his hand on your shoulder while his other is passing his ID to the cashier. 

You look up to see Connie. Too anxious from what just happened the only thing you can manage is to smile up at him and shakily give your credit card to the cashier. Connie rubs his fingers on your shoulder trying to console you. He grabs the bag from the counter and walks out with you with his hand still firmly gripping you as if you’re going to run away from him if he moves his hand. 

Once outside you finally take a deep breath after holding yours in for so long in the store. 

“Thanks,” you mutter out after a few seconds “I was about to run out of there if you hadn’t come in that moment.” 

Connie innocently laughs at you and finally removes his hand from your shoulder. 

You didn’t know that the weight of his hand leaving you was going to make you feel empty in a way. 

“Yeah I could tell, you looked like you were about to cry.” 

“Hey, I was about to cry, that was so embarrassing. I’m going to need to drink twice as much to get rid of the ridicule.” Connie laughs again and pushes you slightly to get you to keep walking. You walk together to your apartment talking about the party and Connie’s upcoming soccer game. 

“You should come, it’s on Saturday morning.” 

“Uh i’ll think about it, i’ll be hungover as hell though.” 

“That's Fine, maybe seeing me will get you working properly.” He says it so casually you couldn’t help but chuckle at his comment. 

“Right cause seeing guys running around sweaty after a day of drinking is going to heal me…” actually you thought, maybe it would. How bad could it be? After all you were single now and seeing sweaty boys with their shirts tight against their muscles might be what you needed. But, you couldn’t let Connie know so you just shrug it off and keep walking together. 

When you reach your apartment you hear footsteps and voices coming from the hallway and see Hitch, Sasha, and Mikasa coming towards you. Immediately you look down and realize it’s 8pm and you hadn’t even gotten ready yet. 

They all stop in their tracks once they see you two together and approach slowly. 

“Connie, what are you doing bothering her?” Says Sasha as she goes in to hug him. 

“Just keeping her out of trouble,” he says with a grin on his face. You quickly open the door and let the girls inside leaving Connie standing outside as he passes you your bag. You notice your friends eyeing one another wondering what’s going on. 

“We’ll see ya later, bye. Thanks again.” You say before closing the door on him. 

“What was that about?” Asks Hitch. 

“Oh it was nothing,” you say putting the drinks in the fridge, “I just saw him at the corner store and he walked me up.” 

“Right, right okay then. I see you’re getting over your ex pretty quickly.” 

“Oh my god shut up, it’s nothing he was just being nice.” You try to change the subject quickly before more interrogating occurs. “Mikasa, do you wanna come to my room and pick your outfit out?” 

Mikasa just nods and you take her to your room. You can hear your friends connecting their phones to your speaker, seeming to forget what they were just teasing you about. 

“Okay,” you say pointing to your closet “you can just choose whatever you want, I already picked my outfit out so you’re free to grab whatever.” 

“Yay, thanks.” As Mikasa chooses her outfit you sit on the floor and start your makeup. Mikasa was always more quiet but you enjoyed her company. It was never awkward silence, just comfortable, you didn’t have to fill the silence with nonsense. 

Mikasa chooses a deep red corset top with a denim skirt. 

“Ouu, you’re going to look so good in that.” You say looking at her through the mirror. She slightly blushes and sits down next to you to start her own makeup. You grab your phone out to play some music. 

Song: Maneater by Nelly Furtado 

As you’re struggling with your eyeliner, Mikasa notices and turns to you. 

“Here let me help.” She grabs the eyeliner from your hands and instructs you to bring your head foward. You do as she says and close your eyes. 

You loved having friends who were girls girls. It felt nice getting ready together, sharing clothes, and having a good time without back-handed compliments. 

When she finishes you look back in the mirror and can’t help but admire yourself. “Woah Mikasa, you did so well. Thank you!” You give her a side hug and she softly places her hand on the further side of your head to pull you in. 

When you finish up, Sasha and Hitch come in with drinks. They hand you a buzz bull and tell you to chug. You obey (of course) and chug the blue buzzball back. They all laugh as you struggle to swallow it all down in one go. Once done you start on changing into your outfit. 

All the girls are still in the room, unphased by you changing in front of them. Hitch and Sasha are already laying on your bed. Annoyed by their outside clothes on the bed you decide to let it go since they’re already on it. 

For your outfit you chose a dark purple halter top, which made your boobs pop, along with a black mini skirt. 

“Woah, you’re gonna have everyone falling for you at the party.” Says Hitch now looking at you. 

“Yeahh, maybe Connie will get lucky tonight.” Says Sasha, eyeing you down and winking at you. 

“Oh gosh, I swear it was nothingg.” You say turning around to now face them. 

They all exchange looks as if they don’t believe a word you’re saying.

Once you’re all dressed up you head to the kitchen to drink some more. You’re all around the kitchen leaning on the counters talking until the time turns 11 o’clock. 

“Ready to go guys?” You say trying to finish your drink. 

“Nooo wait, picture time.” Says Sasha taking out her digital camera. After 30 minutes of taking pictures you successfully get everyone out the door in time. 

On the walk, you look at the pictures taken and decide to post a few on your story. You knew your ex still followed you and you wanted to flaunt how good you looked without them. After posting it, you put your phone into your purse and interlink arms with Mikasa. 

As you approach the house, you can hear the music and see the loads of people surrounding it. You get a bit overwhelmed by the crowds but Mikasa nudges you forward until you enter the house. 

The smell of alcohol and sweat mixed into the air makes it difficult to breathe but you continue in to find the kitchen. Connie had texted Sasha to inform her that they were chilling in there since it was “empty” compared to the rest of the house. 

To no shock, you see frat boys trying to get with innocent freshmen girls, people with their arms in the air, and red solo cups abandoned on the floor. You wonder who will clean up the mess tomorrow morning. 

Once you reach the kitchen you see the guys standing around, some with girls by their sides already. Reiner notices you guys walk in first and comes in to give you a hug. He wraps his arm around you and Hitch and slightly lifts you up giving you a twirl. When he puts you down you notice Eren hasn’t taken his eyes off of you. 

You walk up to him and due to your lack of food throughout the day and four drinks in already, you are too drunk for your liking this early in the night. In an annoyingly squeaky voice you practically yell, “HI Eren.” 

He can’t help but laugh. Instead of drawing more attention to you guys he quietly whispers your name into your ear and says “looks like you’re too drunk, do you need a drink?”

“Yes, I want a shot of tequila please.” you look up at him with wide eyes while slightly slurring your words. His eyes never leave your face as you tumble into him and wrap your hands around his shoulders to give him a hug. He gives in, placing his beer can on the counter, and puts his arms around your waist then lightly pulls away. 

“You’re cute. No, I meant water. Here come with me.” he grabs your hand and takes you through the house. You have no idea where he’s taking you but you trust him enough to follow him. To your surprise you end up outside and walk further in order to get to the garage. He gently leads you to the couch and tells you to sit. You lay there with your head laid back and close your eyes. You feel so dizzy, your head is going a hundred miles per hour but you feel good. And that was your intention going into tonight. 

A few moments pass and Eren returns with a water bottle and hands it to you. As you grab it, your fingers briefly brush. He sits next to you on the couch. You try opening the water bottle but you can’t seem to function correctly so Eren takes the water bottle back and opens it up for you. 

“Here,” he says while handing you back the water “do you need help drinking it too.” he asks playfully. 

“If I spill it on me, you’ll know the answer.” as you wrap your lips around the mouth of the water bottle you can feel Eren’s eyes on you. Intensely watching as you gulp the water down your throat. After drinking half the water, you put it down to your thighs and try to find the cap. 

Eren takes the bottle from you and twists the cap back into place. Then holds the water bottle for you between his hands. 

“Do you feel any better?” 

“Yeah I do, thanks.” you lean your head back again, trying to sober up. “I’ll be okay here, you can leave Eren.” you say while waving your hand, you’re not trying to be mean or run him off but, you know he probably has better things to do than sit here with you on an ancient couch in a musty garage. 

Instead you just hear him shake his head on the back of the couch and slightly turn his head to you. “Why are you always so eager to get away from me?” 

“Whatt I am not, I just don’t know why you would rather be with me than any other person.” you were starting to sober up and you sit up turning your body towards Eren now. 

As he was about to answer you, you hear voices coming into the garage. Jean, Connie, and Sasha come crashing in with a bottle of tequila and a speaker. 

“Ayee, there you guys are, we were looking all over for you.” Says Jean pulling up some chairs for him and Sasha as Connie comes to sit next to you on the couch. He wraps his arm around the back of the couch and places his hand on your shoulder prompting Eren to slightly move further from you. 

“You good?” Asks Connie looking between you and Eren. You just nod your head and scoot closer to him. Leaving Eren behind as if he was never there. 

Jean and Sasha pass around the bottle and when it’s your turn to take a shot, Connie tilts your head back and you slowly open your mouth. His hand is on the back of your neck as his other pours the tequila into your mouth. Your eyes interlock with his, making sure not one drop falls from your lips. As he lifts the bottle from your mouth, you swallow the liquid and he devilishly smiles at you. The bottle gets thrown to someone behind you.

Why was that so erotic you ask yourself? Or have you just not been fucked in so long you find anything arousing? 

Oh right, Eren was sitting behind you. Was he still there or is there someone else occupying his spot? Your mind is wandering around but your eyes never leave Connie as he talks to Jean and Sasha. 

Maybe it was just the alcohol but he looked so handsome, his jawline sharp, his eyes gleaming, his laugh contagious. The scent of him intoxicating causing you to rest your head on his shoulder. 

Before you could register what you just did, Connie’s body tenses up and Jean and Sasha look at each other as if the world was about to shatter. You quickly remove yourself from his chest and try to play it off by saying it’s the alcohol and you’re tired. He just laughs and puts your head back onto his chest to not make you more uncomfortable. 

The music from the speaker drowns out the sounds of the room and it isn’t until now you realize that Eren is gone, your half drunk water bottle standing up leaning against you.

Chapter Text

The next morning, Hitch and Sasha are sprawled onto your bed. You can’t even remember getting back to your apartment last night, but grateful nonetheless for being in your bed. Someone’s alarm starts ringing and you throw your pillow at Hitch’s head. 

“Hey, who did that,” she says slowly lifting her head up “gosh can someone turn their alarm off.” 

“Yeah yeah I’m on it,” says Sasha reaching for her phone. 

“What time is it?”

“8:30, I have class at 9:30, I gotta go back to my room.” She says starting to get up. 

Grateful that you chose all afternoon classes, you stay laying in bed as Sasha gathers her things to leave. 

“Can I borrow a hoodie,” Sasha asks, already opening your closet “this one’s cute I’ll take it, thanks.” 

“You didn’t even let me answer your own question, Sash.” the drinking from last night hadn’t worn off yet you figure.  

Hitch crawls up to your side and lays her head on your shoulder. You both had the same class later today so you both had some more time to sleep again.  

You grab your phone from the nightstand and set an alarm for 10:30 am so you have enough time to get ready for the day. 

When your alarm rings you groan and hurry to turn it off. You nudge Hitch with your elbow and she turns to face the wall. 

“Hitch get up, you have to get ready for our class.”

“Yeah yeah I’ll get up soon.” 

“Okay I’m gonna go and take a shower, be right back.” As you head to the bathroom and turn the shower on, memories from last night come in a flash. 

You remember sitting on the couch with Connie, Sasha, and Jean playing some drinking games. You remember laughing about Connie’s inability to form a sentence because he was too drunk from taking too many shots. 

And then there was Eren. Yes, Eren was also there but you didn’t see him for the rest of the night after he left your side. You did feel kind of bad because after your friends came you left him to the side but, he also probably wanted to leave the whole time and so he did. 

You couldn’t help but notice how close Connie was to you the whole time. His arm stayed draped around you for most of the night, only leaving when he briefly got up. Was there something going on between the two of you? Certainly not. Maybe he was just being nice after what you told him a few nights ago? 

After your shower you head back to your room and Hitch, to no surprise, was still asleep. She laid in your bed as if it was her own but, you didn’t mind because it showed you that she felt comfortable with you.  

“Hitch, wake up, you're gonna be late for class.” You say shaking her awake. 

“Okay okay I’m up. God I am so tired.” finally sitting up, you laugh a little at her hair sticking up in all directions and her smudged makeup. You make a mental note to wash your sheets later today after class. 

“Do you know what time we came back?” 

“I think around 3:30 am. I honestly have no idea.” She says scratching her head. 

“Oh, cause I don’t remember even coming back.” you say as you’re looking through your closet to look for an outfit for the day. 

“Wait really? That's funny. All I remember is Connie dragging your ass out of the party. He practically carried you back.” 

“No way.” 

“Yes, wait, you really don’t remember.?” 

You shake your head and try to piece more of the night together, did Connie really carry you home? 

The night before: Connie’s POV 

Connie looks over to see you resting your head on his shoulder, you look so happy laughing at something Sasha said. To him, you looked so delicate, he was scared to make any sudden movements, worried you would move your head. Your laughter lit up a dark room and ignited something warm inside him.  

Connie had wanted to make a move on you before he knew you were in a relationship. Sasha had shown him your instagram and he couldn’t help but notice how hot you were. 

“Do not hit on her, she’s in a relationship.” she said and punched his arm as they walked to a bench where you were sitting with your then partner. 

When he spotted you, he couldn’t help but admire your beauty. Sure, he had seen your instagram but seeing you in person was so much better. 

The way your black hair complimented your tan skin and how your loose curls framed your face. The sun was starting to set and it captured the honey tone to your rather dark eyes. 

He also noticed your boobs. He wasn’t proud of himself for noticing them when he looked down at your body. But, the shirt you were wearing accentuated them so nicely, it was hard to look away. It was like you wore it just to make him feel something. They fit so perfectly onto your chest, two heavy breasts for your seemingly small figure. His mind started to wonder what they would feel like in his hands and his mouth… but he quickly dismissed this thought. 

When he looked over at your partner at the time, he couldn't help but notice how low you had stooped. 

Pfft I could treat way better than them, he thought to himself. Instead he just introduced himself lingering on your hug longer than he probably should’ve. 

He can’t even begin to imagine why your ex would do such a horrible thing to you. It made him angry at how vulnerable and helpless you must’ve felt in those moments. He starts to get worked up and slightly crushes his already empty beer can. 

“Okay Connie your turn,” says Jean, taking Connie out of his thoughts “truth or dare.” 

“Truth.” 

“Lame, but okay.” Jean takes a look between both of you and immediately thinks of an interesting question, sure to turn the night around. “What was your first impression of her?” He says now pointing to you with his tongue pressed against his cheek. 

“Oh em gee, that’s a good question Jean.” says Sasha practically bouncing in her chair. 

“Well,” before he can answer he hears you gagging beside him. 

You quickly get up, sort of stumbling, and run to the grass, throwing up everything from the past day. Sasha goes running after you and is running her hand across your back and holding your hair back. 

“Aww babes are you okay? Here we gotta get you back.” 

Connie is too drunk to process what is happening but he is determined to make sure you’re okay. He gets up and grabs the water bottle that was next to you and walks towards you. 

He pours some of the water onto his hand and wipes the leftover gunk from your mouth and neck. He takes the bottom of his shirt and brings it to your face to dry off the water and anything he missed. He didnt seem to mind if his shirt got dirty from your throw up. He gives you the rest of the water and lets you drink it. 

He can feel you shaking and breathing heavily, your legs are weak as you struggle to hold yourself up. He puts your hand on his wrist so you have some stability. 

“Are you okay, can you walk?” You don’t even register what he’s saying, you just look at him with your big brown eyes, lips slightly parted which causes Connie to soften his gaze and tuck a strand of hair behind your ear while grabbing the side of your face. 

Even with your makeup slightly smudged and soon to be tears forming in your eyes from the gagging. Connie thought you looked beautiful. 

“I’m gonna lift you up, is that okay?” You absentmindedly nod your head and lean into him. Connie hooks his arm on your lower back and places his hand on your waist while the other hooks onto the back of your knees and picks you up in one swift motion, princess style.Your head finds his chest once again. 

Sasha runs inside to find Hitch to get you guys going. 

Under your breath you start to mutter something. “Hmm … Co- Connie is that you.” 

“Yes, it’s me. I’m here.” You don’t say anything else after, he can just see you smile and your chest rising and falling with every breath. 

“Shit I’m gonna have to thank him for bringing us back.” 

“Funny how you guys are starting to become real close now, hmm? 

“Let it go oh my gosh. I swear there’s nothing going on.” 

“Okay.” Hitch says, lifting her hands up as if she’s surrendering. “Can I borrow some clothes, I really don’t wanna go back to my place.” 

“Yeah, help yourself, you can take a shower too.” 

While Hitch is getting ready, you decide to lay on the couch and open up instagram. You remember you had posted a story and wanted to see if your ex had seen it. When scrolling through, you notice likes from all your friends. You can’t help but feel giddy from all the love and praise you were getting with how good you looked. 

As you’re scrolling you see that Eren and Connie also liked your story. Connie even went a step forward and swiped up on it: 

Phew 😏 

Give me a chance 

You: you wish loser 

You felt butterflies flutter in your stomach and you couldn’t help but have the biggest smile on your face. 

Hitch walks into the living room, more put together than whatever was going on this morning and catches you smiling down at your phone. 

“Ouu what’s got you so smiley this morning?” 

“It’s nothing.” You say too quickly. Luckily she drops it and you guys head out for class. 

On your walk, you realized you didn’t even check if your ex saw your story but, you didn’t even care anymore, your mind was elsewhere. 

Once in class you sit by each other near the middle of the classroom. The class you had was a political science course given by Professor Ackerman. You had him last year for another political science class and as much as everyone disliked him. You actually didn’t mind him, he explained the material well and gave back useful feedback on assignments. He was also quite attractive so you found yourself going to every single class and actively listening.

After class, you and Hitch head to the dining hall to meet your friends. When you enter you spot Mikasa, Eren, and Armin and at another table you see Jean, Connie, and Sasha. 

Shit who do you sit with? To make matters worse Hitch finds her other friends and decides to sit with them. You decide to grab your food first, a sandwich with some fruit. You find your legs walking towards Sasha and settle with sitting with them.

As you approach the table, Jean is the first to notice you, he slightly nudges Connie with his knee, who is on his phone, Connie looks up and bops his head towards you. You plunge in the seat next to Sasha, “Hey guys, how are you?” 

“We should be asking you that lightweight.” says Connie with a smile on his face. 

“Whatever, you guys were handing me that bottle like water last night, not my fault.”

 “No but really, how are you feeling?” he says, looking at you. 

“Yeah I’m good. Thanks by the way for getting me home last night.” 

“Don’t mention it, that's what friends are for right?” he says as he shoos one of his hands while the other is shoving a singular fry into his mouth. 

You can't help but smile at his response and you linger too hard on his face and the way he bites into the fry both of you maintaining eye contact with one another

 “Ok, this isn’t a flirt session guys. How was class?” Sasha says taking you out of the moment. 

“It was good, I have Professor Ackerman again so I think it should be chill.” 

“I think you’re the only one who likes that grumpy man.” says Jean 

“Hey, he’s really nice and he’s cute to look at.” You say trying to defend yourself. 

You notice Connie shaking his head with a smirk on his face while looking down at his plate. Interesting . You think to yourself. 

The rest of lunch passes by in a blur, you had finished your sandwich and pulled out your computer, not doing any work but also not letting it dim with your assignment open. 

You decide to stay in the dining hall until your next class at 3, your friends slowly leaving until you’re left alone. Almost half an hour later, a person appears standing in front of you, seemingly waiting until you lift your head up. Eren. 

“Hey,” he says barely above a whisper. 

“Hey there, are you just gonna stand there like a creep?” you say to try and lighten the mood. It works, he chuckles under his breath and pulls the chair in front of you out. As he sits, his kneecaps brush yours lightly and they stay there, neither of you moving. 

“Where’d you go last night?” you ask, remembering how he disappeared without saying bye. 

“I’m surprised you noticed. What with how close you were getting to Connie” he says jokingly but there was something in his voice that told you he wasn’t. 

“Of course I noticed.” 

Lie. 

“So?” you ask. 

He shakes his head and laughs. “I just went back inside, looked like you didn’t need me anymore.” His tone was harsher than it usually was, he was laughing but you could tell it wasn't genuine. 

“Well, it would’ve been nice for you to say bye.” you say teasingly. Instead of continuing the conversation he changes the topic. 

Without making eye contact with you Eren says, “you looked good last night.” The compliment shocks you and you choke on your water. You can tell he feels embarrassed by your reaction to his comment so you quickly respond back. 

“Thank you, I tried.” You say shrugging your shoulders as you close your water bottle. 

“Damn right you did. Well to be fair you always look good” he finally looks you in the eye for a second before looking at something behind you. 

You smile again and mutter thanks under your breath trying to savor the moment. 

Both you and Eren sit in comfortable silence as you work on your assignment that Professor Ackerman assigned for next class. 

Finally you look up and look at Eren, “are you done with classes for today?” You ask, he lifts his head from his phone. 

“Huh? Oh yeah I had morning classes today.” 

“Then what’re you doing here?” You ask confused 

“Damn again. Okay I’m starting to think you don’t like me.” He says your name and shakes his head making a tch noise with his mouth. 

“Noo I do like you Eren. Sorry.” Responding in a rather whiny voice. “So you just like hanging around me?” 

“Yeah, what's so wrong with that pretty?” He lifts his elbows onto the table and lays his forearms in front of him while leaning foward. 

“No, nothing. Just interesting is all.” You say matching his teasing voice. You double tap your phone and see that it was 2:45, it was almost time for your class. 

“Well I have class at 3, do you wanna walk me since you couldn’t last time.” You ask him. 

“Yes ma’am.” He says grabbing his backpack and waiting for you to gather your things. 

You walk side by side and you can’t help but notice how tall Eren is compared to you. You were only only 5’4” as opposed to his 6+ foot height. 

He lets you lead the way to your second class of the day and walks you until you reach the class room. 

“Well this is me, thanks for walking me. Couldn’t have done it with out you.” You say playfully. 

“Of course, I’ll be your personal chauffeur for now on, how’s that sound?” 

“Sounds great,” you stand there for a couple of moments trying to stay with him for a little longer until you finally say “bye bye.”

 As you walk into class Eren waits until you find a seat near the end of the classroom and walks away with a grin on his face.

Chapter Text

Once you finish classes for the day you head straight back to your apartment. You felt exhausted all day because of your late night last night and you still had to wash your sheets. 

When you arrive, you strip your sheets on your bed and start a load of laundry. 

You start on some readings for the next class while sitting at your desk trying to focus. After a few hours your eyes start to feel heavy and you decide you’re done reading for the day. 

Your sheets were already done and you go to place them on your bed, when you notice a ring on the floor near your nightstand and pick it up. 

It wasn’t one of your rings. Might it have been Sasha’s or Hitch’s?

It was a silver ring with something engraved into it. Upon further inspection it looked like Connie’s ring, the one he wore on his pinky finger. 

How did it get here? It must have been from last night when he dropped you off. 

Curious, you try it on and it fits nicely on your middle finger. 

You finish putting your sheets onto your bed and carefully take the ring off placing it on your nightstand. 

After an hour, you had already taken a shower and gotten ready for bed, you lay into your cozy bed and wrap yourself with your blankets, before you realize you’re fast asleep. 

The next morning was similar to Monday, you woke up early to go on a run. You got ready for the day and headed out with Connie’s ring in your bag. 

When you get to class you’re surprised to see  Eren with his head low in the same seat as Monday. As you approach him he lifts his head up. 

“Hey.” 

“Hi.” You sit down into your seat just as your professor walks in to begin class. 

The professor talked about epidemics and pandemics and the causes and effects of them. She touched on important aspects of health and how to prevent them from spreading through populations. 

While you are writing down notes on your iPad you look over to see Eren playing a game on his computer. 

You nudge your elbow into his arm and he smirks over at you which causes him to lose the game. He places his hands behind his head, as if to stretch, but you see his muscles instead. The way his bicep hugged his sleeve, it looked like the shirt was a little too tight, like it was about to rip open if he flexed too hard. 

Before he’s able to notice you turn your attention to the professor, but you’re not paying attention to what she's saying anymore. 

After class, you both make your way to the cafe and sit in the same booth as last time. You enter playful banter with Eren about class among other things. 

Eren gets up after a while and said he needed to go to the frat house to take care of something. You can tell he’s not excited to go but he does anyway. You get up to give him a quick hug before he leaves you. 

After he leaves, you sit there by yourself working on an assignment your professor assigned the class before. 

As you head to your second class of the day and run into Connie, he looked in a hurry. 

“Oh hey, where are you going?” You ask him.

“I gotta head to the frat house, they’ve been blowing up my phone for the last hour.” He said slowing down, now walking the same pace as you. 

“Eren mentioned something about that, what is it?” You ask innocently, Connie tenses up at the mention of Eren’s name. 

He completely ignores your question. 

“You’ve been hanging out with him a lot lately.” His tone dry. 

“Well we have class together.” 

“Oh. Okay,” he starts to walk faster, leaving you behind “I’ll see you later, bye.” 

Before you get a chance to respond he’s already halfway across the hallway. You didn’t even get a chance to give him his ring back. 

After class, Sasha told you she was out on the quad, you met her there on the grass under a tree. 

“Hey Sash.” You say as you go to sit down, your back leaning on the tree. 

“Hi love.” She was eating a burrito that looked so good you couldn’t help but take it from her, she almost takes your head off as you go to grab it. You quickly take a bite and give it back to her before she started having a tantrum. 

You guys sit there for a couple of hours, doing homework and gossiping about whatever came to mind.

Sasha had her date with Niccolo tomorrow and her mind was spiraling. 

“What do you think I should wear, ugh I’m so stressed.” She says banging her head on an open book in her lap. 

“Hmm, do you wanna come over tomorrow, I can help you.” 

“Can I please, I’m in desperate need. I am so nervous you don’t even know.” 

You thought it was cute how nervous she got about her date. Niccolo had been eyeing Sasha for as long as you can remember. He always went the extra mile to see her. There were so many times where he cooked meals for her that he knew she would love. You could tell his love language was acts of service and it complimented Sasha so well. 

Sasha always gushed about how good the food was but she never seemed to get the hint that he was flirting with her. 

But, your mind kept drifting to Connie and how he reacted when you said something about Eren. Come to think of it you also noticed Eren reacted the same way when you talked about Connie. 

 Your head started to hurt with all the overthinking so you decided to just drop it. 

From the further end of the quad you see Connie. It looked like he was coming back from soccer practice. 

His shirt clung tight to his chest, you could see the ridges of his muscles though his shirt. Sweat trickled down his face, glistening with help from the sunset shining down on him. 

He looked so attractive like this, your breath started to hitch, and you caught yourself tightly closing your legs hoping Sasha didn’t catch on. 

  Sasha points him out before you can and she shouts out to him. 

“CONNIE,” she says waving her hand back and forth in the air “OVER HERE.” Luckily there weren't many people out to save you from the embarrassment.

 He looks over to your direction and says bye to his friend who he was walking with and jogs towards you. 

He plops down next to you and sits with one of his legs propped up while the other idly falls to the floor. His hands are behind his back near where your hands rest. 

Him and Sasha talk about some anime they both started watching, you can’t help but steal glances at Connie while he talks about his interests. You always thought it was hot for a guy to be a bit nerdy and get lost in whatever they’re saying and Connie was no exception to that. 

You apparently were staring a little too long at him and Connie makes an innocent comment about it. “Do I have something on my face love?” 

The pet name ignites something in you, it was so different than when Sasha called you that just a few hours ago. Your cheeks turn bright red and the heat between your legs grows with every second that passes. 

“Connie don’t tease her,” Sasha says noticing how flustered you got. “Actually we have to go right?” She says your name pulling you away from the embarrassment. 

He just laughs it off and places his hand on your leg then quickly removes it as if it was accident. 

“Right yeah.” You nod, playing along with wherever Sasha is planning on taking you. 

The three of you start to get up. Before you push yourself up Connie reaches his hand out to you. You kindly take it and thank him. 

You exchange goodbyes with Connie and Sasha drags you away heading towards your apartment. 

Suddenly Sasha stops in her tracks and turns her body to face you. “Tell me the truth, do you like Connie? You’ve been acting so weird around him recently.”

You try to keep a poker face as you respond to her question. 

To be blunt you had no idea if you did. Sure, you thought he was attractive but having feelings for him? You knew how he treated girls, he didn’t have the best rep when it came to relationships. He would string girls along leaving them after a few nights and leave them begging him for more. 

One thing you did know is that you didn’t want to get involved with him like that. Connie was a good friend, you didn’t want to risk losing that. He comforted you and was a good shoulder to lie on (literally). 

“No, this is just me flirting with guys.” A short but somewhat truthful response. 

“Okay, I’m believing you. You know how Connie is with the ladies.” 

“Yeah yeah I know.” 

You drop off Sasha at her dorm and then walk a couple blocks to get to your apartment. 

After a long day of being outside you lay on the couch and mindlessly scroll on your phone. You grab your bag and take your iPad out to watch a movie but instead you find Connie’s ring still in the front pocket. 

You take it out and place it on your finger again admiring how well it fits on your finger. You hesitate for a bit pondering on whether or not to text Connie and tell him to come over. Or if you should just wait it out until you see him again. But then again, the thought of seeing him again makes your heart flutter. 

Before you chicken out, you take your phone and text him: 

You: i have your ring, i think you accidentally dropped it here. 

You place your phone down and after a few seconds you see your phone light up. 

Connie: Lol I was looking for it 

Can I come over in a few? 

You: yep come over 

You find yourself cleaning up your living room and going into your room and head to the mirror. You were wearing the same outfit as earlier, a fitted short sleeve collar shirt that bunched up in the middle, the first few buttons unbuttoned with a pair of denim shorts. You tug at the bottom of your bra to make your boobs push up a little more and fluff your hair before going to the living room to calm down before he comes over. 

After 20 minutes, someone knocks on your door. You hurriedly go to your door and take a deep breath before opening up to see Connie with a bag of Taco Bell. 

You notice his eyes scan down your body and hover at your breasts for a second too long before he looks back up at your face. 

You slightly tilt your head and tell him to come in. He comes in taking his shoes off at the entrance and heads to the kitchen island and grabs both seats out. 

“I know you didn’t eat dinner, and I know you threw up last night because you didn’t eat throughout the day.” He says bluntly. No excuses. 

Last year, you had told Connie about your eating disorder since then he always made sure you were eating properly. There were multiple times like this, where he would come with food and you guys would watch a movie. 

You appreciated his efforts in making you eat, although sometimes it made you regret telling him because he would practically force feed you. But, it made you feel loved and cared for and you know Connie did it out of love. 

You follow Connie to the pulled out seat and it isn’t until now that you realize you never took his ring off.

Fuck. 

You try to hide your hands behind your back and take it off to discreetly place it on the table but it was too late. 

“You look cute with my ring on. You should keep it.” 

You try to deny that you’re wearing it but it’s no use. 

“But you came all this way to get it.” You say instead. 

“It’s okay, keep it. I’m not taking it back.” Not letting you refute him on it. 

Connie starts to take out your food and he passes you a baja blast and you immediately take the straw and stick it through drinking it like water. 

“Here, eat.” He passes you your food and you obey. You open up the wrapper and you pick up your burrito while he eats his. You sit in comfortable silence as you eat your food. Your stomach hadn’t given you any hunger cues but you find yourself inhaling your food. 

“Thanks for the food.” You say turning your head towards Connie. 

“Yeah of course. I knew you were hungry brat.” 

You roll your eyes and take a sip of your baja blast. As you look to the side you see his ring sitting on the table, you grab it and quickly get a hold of Connie’s hand. 

His hand is veiny, his fingers long and slim. He has a ring on his thumb and pointer finger, they’re cool to the touch, the metal contrasting his warm hands. 

You twist the ring onto his pinky finger, where you’ve always seen it sitting. You hold his hand longer than necessary after placing the ring on. He doesn’t move his hand, not yet. 

You feel his gaze on you. When you lift your eyes to meet his, he’s licking his lips, slow like there’s intention behind it.  

Your gaze flickers from his eyes to his lips and he does the same. His lips form into a devilish smile as he sees you struggle containing your composure. 

He dips his face closer to yours, your lips only a few inches apart now. You can hear his heartbeat, or is it  yours? Yours feels like it’s about to fly out of your chest. 

He gently grabs your face with his right hand and brings your face even closer. Your lips part and he eyes your lips as they open up for him. 

Right when your lips were going to connect his phone starts ringing. 

His hand on your cheek falls to the counter and you retreat back to your original position. 

“Bruh.” Is all he says as he picks his phone up to answer the call from Jean. You quickly direct your attention to the trash in front of you and start to clean up your empty wrappers. 

“What…. Yeah okay I’ll be there.” 

Your back is turned towards Connie, grabbing a damp paper towel to wipe down the counter. After he hangs the phone, there’s a silence but not like before. 

This is loud, uncomfortable. 

You can hear him push the chair back, scraping the floor. 

“Uh, sorry I gotta go back to the house. Jean said Porco is mad about something.” 

You turn back around to face Connie but you don’t look at him, your hands are still on the counter, shaking slightly from the adrenaline. 

“Oh that’s okay, thanks for coming over.” 

“Yeah anytime.” He grabs his things and hesitates before leaving, as if he wanted to say something more or do something more. Instead he directs himself towards the door. 

When the door closes, you let out your breath not even aware you were keeping it in. You go towards the door to lock it, your hand lingers on the handle. Part of you hoping he’s right outside the door waiting to come in and finish what he started. But, when you look through the peephole, the hallway is empty. You stand for a while trying to piece together the events that just transpired and take another deep breath. 

You pan your eyes to the counter and see light reflecting off of an object. Once your eyes adjust you see his ring. 

Damn him.

Chapter Text

You went to sleep that night thinking of Connie and what almost happened. How close you guys were then how fast the moment ended. 

The next morning you wake up to a hundred messages from Sasha freaking out about Niccolo. 

Sasha: I NEED HELP!!! 

You caught yourself laughing because the date wasn’t until the evening and Sasha was getting worked up out at the ass crack of dawn. 

You: sash it’s okay just come over at 5 i got you 

The rest of the day continued on as normal, at 4:51pm Sasha was already banging at your door. Once you open the door she comes charging in with a million bags around her arms. 

“Oh my gosh, I am so nervous.” She says as she plops down onto the couch. You come up behind her on the couch and massage her hair. 

“Here come to my room, I’ll start on your hair.” Sasha follows you into your room and she sits down in front of your mirror. You take your curling iron out and grab some hairspray. 

“Okay, I’m gonna make you look so pretty, babe. He’s not gonna be able to keep it in his pants tonight.” 

Sasha screams your name and turns her head to you. 

“I’m kidding I’m kidding,” you say “but really you’re gonna look so beautiful.” 

You continue doing her hair as you talk about classes and what not. Once you finish with her hair you move onto doing her makeup and helping her pick out an outfit. 

You decide to not tell her about the moment you had with Connie. At least not now right before going on her date with Nic. 

You had an idea on what she was going to say, either she was going to encourage it or heavily reject the idea. It didn’t matter either way since you didn’t have any intention on changing your relationship with Connie. 

As she finishes getting dressed you can’t help but admire how pretty she looks. 

“I’m gonna faint, you look so good Sasha. Can I take you on a date instead.” 

“I wish, at least with you I wouldn’t be so nervous.” You give her a hug as she looks at herself in the mirror. 

Niccolo was taking her to a high end Italian restaurant, Sasha was gushing over how expensive everything was and how delicious the food had to be. 

At 8:00 Niccolo appears at the door with a bouquet of flowers. You let the two go as you clean up the mess made from helping Sasha. 

Throughout the night Sasha texts you to let you know how the date is going. It made you happy that Sasha was enjoying herself with Niccolo. She had never had a crush like this and you just knew in no time they were going to end up together. 

Later that night, when Sasha gets home from her date, you FaceTime her and according to her it went perfectly. 

The week continued on as normal: classes, hanging with friends, and completing assignments. You hadn’t really seen Connie much after the night he came by and left abruptly. 

You had hoped to see him but, you kept on missing him by a few minutes every time. His ring was on your jewelry stand now, you would occasionally put it on then feel stupid and immediately take it off. 

Your mind kept reeling back to that night, how close you guys were and the almost kiss until it was interrupted. 

What would’ve happened if you actually did kiss? You wonder how he tasted and how soft his lips were. You imagined the feeling of his tongue ring inside your mouth and across your neck. His hands roaming your waist and up your back. 

You quickly clear your mind from these thoughts because you feel bad for seeing him in that way. 

It was now Friday and lucky for you you didn’t have any classes today. You slept in until 10:30 am and started your day by going for a walk. 

When you came back, you check your phone and see your friends blowing up your phone: 

Hitch: we’re meeting at my place @8. be ready girls!! 

Sasha: i will bring drinks rahhh 

Mikasa: Annie and I will be there at 9. 

You: yayy so excited 🥳

To be honest you had been looking forward to going out tonight, you were determined to actually remember it and have fun with your friends. 

But, you still had things to get done but there was no way you were getting it done in your apartment so you opted for the library. 

Once arriving you spot Eren in the corner with some books sprawled across the table, across from Armin. You decide to head over and sit with them, maybe have Eren help you with your public health assignment. Armin spots you first, and waves you over. 

“Hey guys.” 

“Oh hi,” Eren says your name as a smile appears across his face.  He moves over his books to make space for you. You sit down next to him and begin to take your laptop out.

“Are you coming tonight?” Eren asks you after a few moments of silence.  

“Hell yeah.” You say. With a big ass grin on your face. 

“Yeah?” He finally looks over at you with his elbows on the table. “You gonna leave me like you did last time?” 

“You’re so dramatic,” you say, snapping back while rolling your eyes. “I did not leave you. If I remember correctly you’re the one who left.” 

Eren looks intensely at you, looking at one eye then the other. Then, as if it was an accident, he takes a quick glance at your lips. So quick. But you notice it. 

“Well I’ll keep an eye on you this time. Don’t want anything happening to a pretty girl like you right?” He says with a grin plastered on his face. 

You look away from him and blush, you bite your inner cheek to prevent yourself from smiling so hard.  

Minutes turn into hours and you manage to finish your assignment with Eren.

You had to research a chronic disease and explain how it could affect a person’s daily living. The assignment required you to include peer-reviewed articles and write an essay on the disease. 

“Yay we’re done.” You say cheerfully. 

“Yayy.” Eren says, mocking you. 

You almost snap your neck with how fast you turn your head towards him with your eyebrows burrowed and a pout on your face. 

His face immediately softens and he lets out a chuckle. 

“You’re cute. He says under his breath. 

Armin, from the other end of the table, clears his throat as if to remind you that he’s also at the table. 

“How’s Annie?” You ask Armin trying to take the attention of you guys. 

Upon hearing her name his whole body relaxes and he smiles so hard you think he’s about to pop. “She’s good, we’re actually doing really well together.” 

“Aw that’s nice to hear, don’t ever make her sad or else I’ll beat you up Armin.” You say jokingly but you’re actually serious. 

Although you weren’t the closest to Annie, you guys had a good friendship and she was always there for you whenever you needed help with anything. 

“No I would never.” He says with his hands in the air waving them like a crazy person. 

You chuckled at how flustered he got and just knew he would never to anything to hurt her. 

You had left your phone on the table, face up and get a text notification from Connie.

Connie: U doing anything? 

Eren could see your phone from the angle he was sitting and you felt him tense up. He slightly moves from you and returns to his laptop, he taps the touch bar to light up the screen again. 

Your heart starts to race, what could Connie possibly want now? To be honest you were kind of upset at the fact that he didn’t say anything to you all week and all of sudden he wants to talk to you now.

You: yes, why

Connie: Where are u?

You: library 

You hesitated on telling him where you were but your fingers moved faster than your brain and before you knew it, you sent the message. 

You waited for a response but none came. You eventually returned back to your homework trying to focus. 

Thirty minutes later Armin gets up and says he had to leave for a club meeting.

“Alright bye, I’ll see you later.” Says Eren. You wave at him before he scurries along. 

“Who else is going to the pre tonight?” You ask Eren. He lifts his head from his phone and puts it down next to him. 

“Uhm, I don’t really know,” he says while scratching his head. “You’re going?”

“Yeah, Hitch told me about it earlier this week.” 

“Oh, I didn’t even know.” 

“Rude. You weren’t gonna invite me.” You say with a hand over your heart as if you’re hurt.

“Wait no no that’s-”

You hear your name echo through the library before you turn around to double check who it is, you already know by the voice. 

Connie. 

He pulls out the seat next to you and sits. 

“Hi Connie.” Eren says flatly. 

“Sup.” Says Connie. 

The two of them stared at each other for a good minute without saying a word. You felt so uncomfortable being between them as they eye fucked each other. 

The tension at the table was unbearable.“What’d you want Connie?” You finally say. 

“Oh. Right, uh,” he stammers on his words “I need to talk to you.” 

“Okay.” You don’t move from your seat. 

He half expected you to walk out and talk without Eren there but instead he used that to his advantage. 

“About the other night...”

Your cheeks immediately start to flush pink, why would he bring that up now oh my god. You get up and scrape the chair back and dart your eyes at Connie. You grab your shit messily, nearly dropping your laptop. 

“How about we talk outside.” You say already walking away from the table.

You half turn and smile while waving goodbye at Eren, he returns the gesture and watches as you leave with Connie right behind you. 

Outside Connie, tries to help you put your things into your bag. 

“Okay, what do you want?” You say annoyed. 

“Gee no hi?” He says with a smirk plastered on his face. 

You dead stare at him and he notices that you’re serious. 

“Uh right. I’m sorry about the other day, I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable.” 

You stare at him confusedly because from what you remember you were giving all the signs that you wanted to kiss him.

“It’s okay.” Is all you say. You wanted to tell him that it didn’t make you uncomfortable that you wanted him to kiss you but you settled for saying it’s okay. 

“Are you still going to my soccer game tomorrow?” he asks you redirecting the conversation.  

Right, he invited you earlier that week but you were so wrapped up in other things you had forgotten. 

“Yes sir I will be there.” 

As you look towards the library doors you see Eren walking out, he turns his head to you and winks as he sees you. 

“Have you eaten?” Connie asks. 

“Not yet, but I was actually gonna eat with Eren.” You lie to him. You hope Connie doesn’t look behind and see Eren walking the opposite direction. 

Surprisingly he lets you go easily once you give him a hug. 

You catch up to Eren who looked like he was walking towards the parking lot. 

“Hey, caught you.” You say falling into step beside him. 

“Hi pretty.”

The compliment made you jittery. 

“Are you headed home?” 

“Yeah, you?” 

“No, I wanted something to eat. I’m starving. You hungry?” 

“Yeah actually. I know a place, I’ll drive.” 

Eren walks to his car with you right beside him. He drove an all black Audi which you could hear from miles away. As you approach his car he pulls the keys out of his pocket and unlocks the car. You slide into the passenger seat and close the door as he opens his door. 

You had been in his car before during freshman and sophomore year when he would pick up you and your friends to take you to parties or games. But this was the first time you had been in the front seat and alone with him. Once he turns the car on his apple car play starts playing.

Song: Kings Dead by Jay Rock

“So where are you taking me?” You finally ask him. 

“You’ll see.” Is all he says as he drives away. You sit in comfortable silence as he drives you downtown. 

Before you realize you’re parked in front of the sushi shop that you and Hitch usually go to. 

“Come on.” He says opening his door. You follow right behind him. 

You enter together and sit down at a table near the window. You both order your rolls and when the waiter leaves he props his arm up and rests his head on his hand. 

“So what was all that with Connie? You looked freaked out talking to him.” 

You laugh before answering. “It was nothing, you know just Connie being stupid.” 

He nods his head and laughs with you. “You got that right.” 

The rest of dinner goes by quickly. When the waitress comes with the receipt Eren pulls out his card from his wallet before you can grab your wallet and gives it to the waitress. 

“Oh Eren, it’s okay I can pay for my food.” you say with your card in your hand. 

“Nah don’t worry, I got you.” 

As you go to grab the glass to drink water, the waitress comes again and returns his card. He thanks her and puts his card back into his wallet. 

Out of nowhere the waitress says “Have a good night lovebirds.” 

You almost choke on your water as she stands there with the biggest smile on her face. 

“Thank you, you too.” Says Eren almost too casually. “Come on honey.” 

You dart your eyes at him and he just smiles. To keep up the act he reaches for your hand and you gracefully take it. You walk out hand in hand until you reach his car.

You looked up at him and he looked completely unbothered.

 “What was that all about?” You ask him. His hand still holding yours. You’re now standing in front of his car facing each other. 

“Didn’t wanna embarrass her for thinking we’re a couple.” He leans in and you freeze. His free hand rests on your waist to pull you closer. Your face is tilted to the side to allow him easy access to your lips, your lips are parted slightly while your eyes beam at him. Instead of kissing you, at the last second he releases his hand from your waist to grab your jaw and moves it to the side. He whispers in your ear. “Right pretty?” 

Your heart almost stops at his breath on your skin. This was the closest Eren had ever been to you, you could smell his masculine scent radiating off his skin as well as a mix of his sweet cologne. 

As he pushes back from you, you stare at his eyes and the way they scan your face. His eyes linger on your lips as he releases your hand from his grip. 

He chuckles, “come on let’s get you back to your place.” 

“Thanks for dinner Eren.” You say once you’ve both settled in your seats. 

“You’re welcome babe .” 

“Oh shut up, you’re so annoying.” You lightly pinch his bicep. 

“You really like touching my muscles huh?” He smirks at you and before you can respond he asks you another question, “Oh by the way, where is your apartment?” 

You roll your eyes and direct Eren to your place and he pulls up in front of your apartment. 

“Alright babe I’ll see you later.” He says with his hands resting on top of his steering wheel. 

You get out of his car and say bye while closing the door. He doesn’t leave until he sees you get into the building. 

Once you’ve settled into your place you take your shoes off  and head to the bathroom. You take a quick shower before grabbing your things to head to Hitch’s place.

 It was now 8:05 as you hurry out the door. When you reach her apartment you can hear the loud music vibrating from outside. 

Song: Hotel Room Service by Pitbull 

You open the door and see Hitch in the kitchen making a drink. 

“Hi Hitch.” You say as you close the door behind you. She comes running up to you and pulls you into a hug. 

You set your things down and follow her into the kitchen and grab the drink from her hand. You smell it and immediately begin to gag. 

“Ew Hitch, that’s so nasty.” 

“WHATT!” she says as takes a big gulp from the cup. You wince as she takes it down. 

Not trusting Hitch to make your drink you opt for waiting until Sasha arrives to drink a seltzer. 

“Do you mind if I start getting ready in your room?” You ask her. 

“Nope go ahead, Sasha should be here any minute.” 

You go to Hitch’s bedroom and set your things down to begin your makeup and as expected Sasha comes barging in a couple minutes later. You can hear them in the kitchen talking about ordering food, Sasha comes running in soon after. 

“Hey babe, what do you want to order? I'm starving.” 

“Oh I actually already ate before I got here.” You see Hitch stroll in and lean on the door frame. “But you guys can order whatever.” 

“Wait a minute. We always eat together before going out.” She squints her eyes at you. “Why did you eat before?” 

You had forgotten about the tradition you and your friends made when going out on Friday nights. It all started freshman year. You and your friends were getting ready in Sasha’s room and she started complaining about how hungry she was. Realizing that everyone was starving you ordered food and that was that. 

Now every Friday night before going out you all would meet up at one of your rooms to get ready and order dinner together. 

Fuck. How could you forget? You try to make an excuse but Hitch and Sasha are already up in your face, to make matters worse Mikasa and Annie had just arrived too. 

“Uhm,” you clear your throat before spilling. “I had dinner with Eren.” You say trying to hide your face. 

“WAIT WHAT.” They all say in unison. 

“Oh my gosh it wasn’t that big of a deal. After the library we went to get sushi. That’s it.” 

“Sushi? Oh babe don’t tell me it’s our sushi place.” Says Hitch with a witty tone. 

All you do is smile at her and they all burst out laughing and freaking out. They bombard you with questions and try to get out as much information but you just sit there continuing on with your makeup. 

As you said, it wasn’t a big deal at all. You got sushi with a friend and pretended to be a couple at the end of the night. You wanted to be mysterious and not tell them how Eren treated you but you lasted about five seconds before spilling. 

Right when you finish your story, all their jaws drop to the floor as if you just told them you killed someone. 

Annie is the first to speak, “Armin told me about you guys. Didn’t know it was that serious.” 

Now your jaw is the one to drop, “wait wait we’re not ‘anything’ we just happened to flirt when we’re together.” 

“Oh my god, you like him.” Says Hitch clinging on to you. You try to get free from her grip but she was holding on to you for dear life. 

“I do not like him, I just- I don’t know. Whatever, let it go guys.” You return to the mirror and start on your makeup again. 

 Eventually your friends let it go and they end up ordering tacos. 

At 10:45 pm everyone is ready and headed out the door. You decided to wear a black tube top with a pair of micro shorts and sneakers. You walk with Sasha in the front while Hitch hangs back with Mikasa and Annie. 

“So, Eren huh?” Sasha says facing you. 

“Sashaa,” you say, almost whining. 

“I just think it’s interesting that’s all. So Connie is out the picture?” 

“He was never in the picture.” 

“Right, it’s not like I didn’t see his ring in your room the other night.” 

You were left speechless to say the least. 

“Exactly.” She says. The rest of the walk is somewhat silent. 

Once you arrive at the frat house it looks more empty than usual since it was only 11 pm. When you enter you see the frat bros around the couch with beers in their hands. 

Annie goes running to Armin who’s sitting on the couch, Mikasa goes after her to sit by them. Sasha, Hitch, and you head over to the kitchen to grab a drink. 

In the kitchen you spot Connie and Jean making drinks and talking but you notice they quiet down once you guys walk in. 

“Hey girls.” Jean says looking at the three of you. You go over and give him a hug then head over to Connie who is now leaning against the counter. His eyes trail down your body but you don’t notice since you got distracted by a comment Sasha made behind you. 

“Hey, you look good.” He says as he wraps one hand around your waist, his other hand holding his beer. You place your chin on his shoulder and wrap one of your hands around his neck. 

“Thank you.” You say softly, smiling at him. Sasha comes crashing into him and gives him a bear hug. You can’t help but laugh at how silly their relationship is. 

You head over to Jean to make your drink, it looks like he is pouring way too much Bacardi and not enough coke. You wince as he hands you the drink, everyone stares at you as you take a sip of it. 

“Oh god Jean, you’re gonna kill me tonight.” You say as you place your hand on his arm. 

Almost if on cue, Eren comes walking in, “Don’t worry babe I got you tonight.” You almost spit your drink out as he approaches you and puts a hand on your waist. 

Sasha and Hitch’s eyes almost pop out of their head with how hard they are staring at you. Jean next to you laughs and has to take a step back. Connie quickly stands up from the counter and downs his drink. 

Before anyone can say anything Reiner comes in telling everyone to head to the living room for some drinking games. 

You grab your drink and Eren stays close by behind you as you all head to the living room. You sit at the end of the couch and Eren sits right next to you. Floch, being Eren’s dick rider, sits next to him. Connie sits on the opposite side of the couch next to Jean. Hitch sits lodged between Reiner and Porco, Sasha sits next to Mikasa and Annie who is perched on Armins lap. 

“What’re we playing?” asks Eren, his arm draping around your shoulder as you cross your legs. 

“Never have I ever.” Says  Reiner. “Remember, if you’ve done it you have to take a shot. First to five shots loses” 

Everyone groans when he pulls out a cheap bottle of vodka and places it smack in the middle. 

Porco goes first with the question. “Never have I ever sent my boobs to someone.” All the girls in the circle whine since the question was obviously only directed to them. Nearly all the girls, except for Sasha, get up and grab a shot. 

When you go to get up Eren’s eyes beam at you. 

“What?” You say winking at him. As if you hadn’t been in a relationship for nearly three years. 

“3 2 1, go!” Yells Porco as all the guys look around them to see you all take the shot. You wish you would’ve had a chaser but the only other drink you had was the awful drink Jean had given you before. 

Gosh you were gonna be so drunk before the party even started. Hitch goes next “never have I ever eaten ass.” She says it with a straight face as if it doesn’t even faze her. 

The rest of the group burst out laughing and shaking their heads trying to figure out if they heard her right. 

Eren gets up next to you almost too quickly. You stare at him as he had done during the last round. 

“What?” He says while winking at you. A few other people get up but you don’t even register who. 

They all take their shot and Eren grabs the drink from your hand and takes a sip. 

Your mind starts to wander, someone’s ass up in Eren’s face as he pleases them. You wonder what it felt like? Was it Eren’s idea or did he just do it because someone wanted him to. He sees you staring intensely, it's like he knew you were imagining the scene right in front of his eyes. 

The statements start to get crazier as each round advances. You were 3 shots deep + the drink Jean made you and were already feeling the alcohol. 

“You okay?” Eren asks, whispering near your ear. 

You start to get flashbacks from earlier at the restaurant, your legs start to feel like jelly as his voice travels down your body. 

You look up at him with glassy eyes and a drunk smile on your face. You actually weren’t okay but you still lie. 

“Yeah I’m okay.” You say slurring your words. 

“Come on, let's go outside.” He grabs your hand and pushes the legs of Floch and Jean who were blocking his way. 

“Ayo Jaeger, we’re not done.” Yells someone from the couch. 

“Shut up Porco.” Is all he says as he leads you through the house. You notice it’s the same way he led you last time. More and more people start packing into the house and Eren pushes them out the way. 

Once you get outside instead of taking you to the garage as last time, he leads you to the corner of the backyard. You didn’t notice but he grabbed you a water bottle from the kitchen when you passed through it. 

He opens it up for you and brings it to your lips. You wrap your hand around the bottle as he lifts it slightly so the water goes down your throat. 

“You feeling any better?” He asks you. 

“Not yet, but if I sit here for a bit I’ll be good.” Your words are still slurring but the water and fresh air definitely helped you a lot. 

You go to sit down on the grass and lift your knees up to your chest. Eren follows and sits by you. 

“You really need to know how to control your alcohol.” He says now looking at you. 

“It’s not my fault everybody includes me in drinking games.” 

“Yeah but it is your fault for doing all those nasty never have I ever’s.” 

“Says the one who’s ate ass before.” You say finally lifting your head from your knees. He shakes his head as if he isn’t the one who did the deed. 

“It’s not as bad as you think.” He says smirking at you. 

“Oh my god Eren.” You say pushing him, not hard but he still lets himself be pushed back. 

Out of the corner of your eye you see Connie looking around as if in panic. Eren notices too. 

“Can you get up?” He asks you 

“Yeah I think so, why?” 

“Come on, let's go inside.” He gets up first and puts his hand out for you to grab. You take it and he steadily lifts you up. His hand rests on your lower back as he leads you back inside trying to avoid Connie. When you enter the house all the sweat and alcohol hit you right in the face. 

You and Eren see Sasha buddying up with Niccolo and you both look at each other and giggle. 

“Here let’s go upstairs.” He doesn’t let you answer, instead he just leads you upstairs. On the way up you see people laid across the stairs, some making out or rather humping each other it looked like. 

He opens up a door and lets you enter first. He closes the door behind him then points to the bed instructing you to sit. You instead lay with your back on the bed trying to sober up. 

“Don’t fall asleep on me.” He says sitting down by your face. 

“Yeah yeah I won’t, I just need to lay down for a bit.” You close your eyes for a second and the whole room feels like it’s spinning. The only stable thing you can find is Eren’s thigh by your face. 

 Without a second thought you lift your head up and place it on his thigh. You shift your body to your side until your face is towards him. He halts for a second then relaxes and brings his hand to your hair. 

Eren’s hand runs through your hair and you find yourself dozing off. A few minutes pass and he nudges his thigh up and wakes you up. 

“You told me you weren’t gonna sleep.” 

“Sorry your leg is just so comfy.” You slowly rise up to face him. His eyes never leave your face as you adjust to sit up. 

Your faces are in the same position outside of the sushi restaurant. If one of you inches forward your lips would crash into each other. 

You wanted to kiss him so bad. His lips looked so good and juicy as he slowly licked them. As you were about to make the first move to lean forward the door flies open and you see Connie standing like a deer in headlights. 

“Connie what the fuck.” Eren was pissed. 

Connie looks between you and Eren. You can tell he was trying to solve some sort of mystery and piece together what happened. 

It didn’t help that your eyes were glassy and your hair was tangled up from laying down. One of your hands was on Eren’s thigh while the other was wrapped around his bicep.

Eren’s hand was on your waist and the other leaned behind his back holding himself up. 

“Sasha was looking for you.” He says it directly to you. He goes to step into the room and Eren gets up causing Connie to stay put.

“Okay, did she tell you what it was?” You ask him as you’re getting up from the bed. 

“No.” He says flatly. 

Eren walks behind you as you approach the hallway and closes the door behind him. Connie stays in front of you leading you down the stairs. You scan the room looking for Sasha and see no sight of her. 

Connie grabs your hand and rushes you outside. 

“Are you okay?” He asks, scanning your face for any sign of discomfort. 

“Yeah I’m fine.” It isn’t until now that you realize Sasha was probably fine and he just said it as a cover up to come out with him. 

“I texted you like twenty times I was worried about you.” 

You pull your phone from your purse and sure enough see the multiple calls and texts from him. 

“Oh I’m sorry I was just chilling with Eren.” 

“Yeah no kidding.” He says sarcastically. 

You didn’t like his tone, honestly you were still annoyed at him for ignoring you the whole week. 

“Whatever I’m going inside.” Before he can grab your arm to stay, you quickly walk back inside to find your friends. 

In the kitchen you spot Jean cozying up to a girl you’ve never seen before. You slide past him to make yourself a drink trying not to interrupt him. 

You go back outside but through the front door this time to take a smoke break. You head towards the side of the house to avoid seeing anyone and pull out a joint and a lighter from your purse. Once you light the joint and take a drag you automatically feel so much better.

You had always preferred to smoke weed instead of drinking but all your friends preferred drinking more so you just dealt with it. There had been many times before when you and Connie would sneak away and smoke a joint. But, tonight you just wanted to be alone. 

You’re out there for a good fifteen minutes until you decide to head back inside. Once you enter the house you're shocked to see Eren waiting by the stairs, had he been standing there the whole time? You hadn't noticed him when you went outside the first time. 

He approaches you and leads you to the dance floor. 

Song: Give Me Everything by Pitbull 

Eren’s hands wrap around your waist as you pull him in by the neck. You dance with him, allowing his hands to roam up and down your body. Your ass grazing his crotch when he spins you around in his arms. 

You’re both so tangled up in the moment you don’t care who’s around to see you with him. 

His hands find your waist again, pulling you closer than ever. Your hands are playing with his hair as your eyes dart from his lips up to his eyes. Eren doing the same. Your heartbeat is steadily increasing as he leans forward. 

Your lips fall open, giving him a sign to kiss you. His hands feel hot as he slightly tugs your top up to have his hands on your skin. 

His pupils blown out, the green iris slowly disappearing as he stares at you.  

Finally, you feel his lips on yours as he devours your bottom lip. The kiss is wet and messy. You tug at his hair as he deepens the kiss. His fingers squeeze the flesh at your waist, one hand inches towards your ass and squeezes it ever so slightly. You whimper into his mouth, he smiles against your mouth.  

You both seem to forget that people are around you until someone bumps hard into you causing you and Eren to step away from the kiss. 

“Man what the fuck. Watch where you’re going bitch.” Eren says to a guy who is way too drunk to know what is going on. 

You can't help but laugh as he falls to the floor face down ass up. Eren steps over him and lifts you by the waist, as if you weigh close to nothing, to get over him as well. 

Right when Eren was going to say something, Hitch comes running towards you. 

“Come outside. Quick.” she drags you out the back door and that's when you see Sasha laying on the floor barely keeping her eyes open. 

“Oh my god Sasha, what’s wrong.” you say sitting down by her. 

“I think she was roofied.” says Hitch trying to lift her up and give her some water. 

“Who the fuck would do that. Wait where’s Niccolo?” you realize that he is nowhere to be seen after being with Sasha all night. 

Eren goes running inside to find him as you and Hitch help get her up. Sasha begins to slur her words while she gets up. You hold her head still, not allowing it to move side to side. 

Hitch had already called an uber and you were all headed to the front of the house, instead of going through the house you went around the side to avoid people. 

Once you get to the front, you sit Sasha on the steps and sit next to her to allow her head to rest on your shoulder. You pull her phone out to try and get a hold of Niccolo but he does not answer. 

Could he really have drugged her? It didn’t seem plausible but with guys you never know what their intentions were. Eren comes back outside by himself. He hands you another water bottle to let Sasha drain the drug out of her system. 

“I couldn't find him, I don't know where that piece of shit went.”  

“Yeah I tried calling him from Sasha’s phone but he didn't pick up.” you say to him. 

The uber pulls up and Hitch helps you with Sasha, you turn to Eren and give him a sad smile. He waves at you, “take her back safe, let me know when you get her home.”

“I will, thanks.” you say. You wish the night would’ve ended better. But now, your top priority was getting Sasha safe. 

Chapter Text

In the car you keep making sure Sasha is okay, her head is laying on your lap as you massage her head. Hitch is in the front trying to distract the driver and make lively conversation. 

You text Connie and Jean from your phone to let them know why you guys left so abruptly. You knew they would be upset if you didn’t tell them what happened to their best friend. 

Connie and Jean quickly responded to your text and they promised to find out who roofied Sasha. They insisted on coming over but you reassured them that you and Hitch were capable of taking care of her.  

When you arrive at Sasha's room you strip her from her clothes and make sure she drinks more water to flush out the toxins. 

At about 2:00 am she’s fast asleep in her bed. Hitch and you decide to stay the night with her, you both cuddle up on the floor with blankets providing you support for your backs. 

You: made it home, staying with sasha for the night. 

she seems to be okay 

Eren: that’s good lmk if you need anything. 

You eventually doze off into a hazy sleep and wake up early the next morning. 

At 7:30 you are wide awake and get up to check on Sasha. She seemed to be fine, she was sleeping peacefully. And before your mind starts to spiral as to why she was so peaceful you check her pulse and sure enough she was still alive.

You go into the kitchen and drink some water. Luckily you weren’t hungover but you could feel your body begging for water. 

From the room you hear movement and check on who’s awake. Sasha slowly gets up from her bed holding her head. You quickly pull her into a hug, she rests her head on you and she starts to yawn into your hair. 

“What’s wrong?” She asks with a frown on her face. 

“Oh Sasha.” You say trying not to cry. 

Hitch finally wakes up and when she sees Sasha up she shoots up and hugs her. 

Both you and Hitch explain to her what had occurred last night and she tried to fill you in from her point of view. But, her story was choppy and incomplete but you can’t really blame her. 

She was certain it was not Niccolo though, according to Sasha he had left halfway into the party because of an “emergency”. You weren't fully convinced he didn't have part to play but you keep it to yourself to not psych Sasha out. 

To be extra careful and responsible you all agree it's a good idea to take Sasha to the doctor for a check up. 

“I can take her.” Hitch says, facing you.

“It’s okay Hitch I can help too.” 

She looks at you so intensely you think she’s about to bite your head off. You knew better than to one up Hitch so you let her take Sasha herself. 

At some point last night, you mentioned Connie's soccer game as you were falling asleep. 

“I don't think I'm gonna make it to his game.” you say yawning. 

“Why not?” she says. 

“Cause of Sasha, I can't leave her.” Those were your final words as you closed your eyes and slept through the night. 

At 8:30, you and Hitch manage to get Sasha out the door and you leave right behind them to head to your apartment. 

Connie’s soccer game was scheduled for 10:30 am. You didn’t really have any intention of going after what happened last night, but Hitch insisted on taking Sasha to the doctor herself. 

So, you decided to just go. You thought it would be a good distraction plus you had told Connie you would go and you would feel bad for standing him up. 

You did some light makeup and put on a purple tank top with some adidas shorts and your white sambas. You knew Jean was going so you texted him and asked if he could pick you up. 

Jean is outside your complex at 10:15, you hurry outside to avoid keeping him waiting. As you approach his car he unlocks it and opens the door for you by leaning over the console. 

“Hi Jean, how are you?” You say as you close the door and settle into the seat while putting your seatbelt on. 

“I’m okay, how are you?”

“I’m hanging in there, it was sort of rough last night with Sasha.”

“Yeah I could imagine. Is Hitch still at the doctor with her?” 

“Yeah they should be back soon.” 

The ride to the stadium is pretty short but it was foggy and drizzling and you didn’t want to get wet on your way there. 

Jean pulls up to the parking lot and you both exit the car, you walk side by side to the bleachers. There were more people than you had expected but, made sense since it was the first game of the season. You managed to get seats near the front so you had a good view of the game. 

The game finally starts a little past 10:30 and you see Connie with his teammates getting into position. 

His jersey was black with the number 7 and he had purple shorts on. Connie was an attacking midfielder meaning he was an offensive player. He played closer to the front end of the field and contributed in scoring goals and assists. 

You had been to Connie’s games before, maybe a couple last year and freshman year but, you never really paid attention to the game. 

Your ex and you would usually end up leaving early to go the car or back to your place to fuck. Or if you were with your friends you would be debriefing about the nights before. 

This time though you were determined to actually pay attention to the game and cheer him on especially since this year was important in terms of scouting. 

Once the game started, it was pretty slow. The ball was being passed around between the players. Whenever Connie got the ball you couldn't help but have a smile on your face. 

From what Jean told you the other team was decently good but Paradis’ soccer team was way better. 

Connie’s POV 

He sees you sitting on the bleachers with Jean and you sit close to the field. You were wearing a purple tank top and black shorts, oppositely matching each other.

His mind was still reeling back to Sasha but he talked to her earlier and she said she was okay. He made sure to pay her a visit in the afternoon. 

From the stands he sees you and Jean cheering him on even though the game just started. 

Connie always plays his best but to make sure to impress you he makes sure to not make a fool out of himself. You had been to his games before but he always noticed you weren’t into the game. You only ever came for support. This time around was different since you didn't have someone next to you keeping you from paying attention to the game. 

Every time he approached the side you were on he made sure to nod his head towards you and without fail you would give him a smile back. 

Ever since that night at your apartment, Connie couldn’t get you out of his head. He had avoided you the whole week because every time he thought of you he would get worked up. The thought of seeing you made his mind go in spirals even though nothing actually happened. 

He confided in Jean that night after going to the frat house. Porco was mad that the house wasn’t clean from the night before and made everyone scrub on their hands and knees until he deemed it good. He was so annoyed that night and Jean caught on. 

“Yo, Connie. Why are you so pissed?” Jean asked when they were alone in the kitchen of the house. 

“What? Nah it's nothing.” he said, trying to avoid eye contact with Jean. 

“You’re lying. Where’d you even come from anyway, you were acting weird when you came through the door.”  

“I said it was nothing.” He distracts himself by scrubbing the counter, as you were doing when he got off the phone. Just thinking about the moment got his heart beating stupidly fast. 

Jean grabs him by the collar and looks into his eyes, before he can question him more, Eren walks into the kitchen. 

“Woah am I interrupting something.” he says, stepping back. 

“Oh fuck off Yeager.” Jean says letting Connie go. 

“Why are you both so tense?” Eren asks them while sipping on a beer. 

“Connie is hiding a secret.” 

“Aw shit Springer what is it, please enlighten us.” says Eren sliding onto the counter that Connie was cleaning. 

Connie was already annoyed, he was about to push Eren off the counter but he knew he never stood a chance in a fight with Eren. Even if it was a play fight. 

He also knew his friends were going to bug him about it until he told them the truth. 

“When you called I was over at,” he says your name but it's more so a mumble so hopefully they don't hear it “and we were about to kiss but then this horse face called and ruined it.” he says, pointing at Jean. He tried to not show how much it bothered him but Connie was not the best at hiding his emotions. 

Eren bursts out laughing and Jean just stands there with his hands in his pockets. 

“Holy shit, that's why you're so ticked off Springer.” says Eren nearly falling over the counter. 

“I told you guys it was nothing but you’re all so annoying and wouldn't let it go.” says Connie trying to defend himself. 

Jean tries to apologize by hugging Connie but he gets away from him and walks out the kitchen. 

Jean always knew Connie had feelings for you. When you were first introduced to the whole group he could see Connie’s whole demeanor change. But he knew Connie wouldn’t attempt anything especially not get involved in a person's relationship so he always stepped away. Eventually Jean figured his feelings would go away but they never did. 

But, Jean also knew Eren. He knew Eren had feelings for you too but Jean didn’t dare tell Connie or vice versa. 

Eren’s feelings came after meeting you too, he wasn’t there when you were introduced to the group, he first saw you at a party. Freshman year, Eren saw you across the hallway and his eyes blew open. Jean caught him standing in the middle of the hallway as if the world had stopped spinning.  

He traced his gaze and it landed on you. Right when he was going to walk up to you Jean pushed him back. 

“She’s off limits Yaeger, she’s taken.” 

“Oh fuck off, you don’t even know her.” Eren starts to walk again before Jean grabs his arm. 

“Yes I do,” he says, harsher now “she’s Sasha’s friend. We met her the other day.” Eren finally looks over to Jean to see if he’s telling the truth. 

Eren rolls his eyes and when he returns his gaze to you, you were gone. Later that night Eren finds you snuggling up to your ex and he couldn’t help but laugh. Seeing it with his own eyes made him back off of you. 

That’s the night he met Pieck. 

Now, Jean had his two good friends going after the same girl.

At half time, the score was 2-1 Paradis. Connie runs over to you and Jean and you both get up to get closer to the railing. 

“Good job Connie, you’ve been running around like a chicken with your head cut off.” says Jean rubbing his head. 

“Shut up, horse face.” says Connie trying to get away from Jean’s grip. 

You can't help but laugh at Connie squirming around. 

“Dont worry Connie, I think you’ve played good so far.” you say trying to make him feel better. Even though he didn't score any goals yet. 

He smiles at you, appreciating the compliment.

 From behind him, the coach is yelling at Connie to regroup. 

“Oops sorry guys gotta go, coach is mad.” he runs off to meet with his teammates. Jean and you look at each other and shrug and go back to your seats. 

As you're sitting there, you get a text from Hitch. 

Hitch: sasha is all good now, the doc said no one hurt her or anything

i just took her back to her place 

You: ok good i’m glad she’s okay

“Hitch just texted me, she said Sasha is okay.” 

“That’s good to hear,” says Jean, relieved. 

“Did you guys ever find out who drugged her?” 

“Nah, but we told Porco and he said he would handle it. He knows Sasha and he doesn't want us to have a bad rep.” he says while you slowly nod. 

Porco was a good guy. Although he was your typical frat douche, you were somewhat friendly with him so he always made sure you and your friends were protected. You knew he would eventually find out who did it, you just hope it wasn’t Niccolo or anyone you knew. 

The second half of the game started and you put your focus back onto the game. 

As the game progressed, Paradis kept putting their all into the game. The coach must’ve really given them a pep talk, even though they were up by a goal. 

You see Connie get passed the ball, he turns with the ball and keeps dribbling it past several players. He runs past the defensive players and pulls his leg back to take a shot. 

The crowd slowly rises up cheering while lifting their hands up. Right when they were about to holler, Connie shoots the ball into the goal, sliding right past the goalie’s hands. 

“GOALLL,” everyone yells out.

The crowd goes wild as they see the ball go in. You hug Jean out of excitement and yell out, “Yeah Connie, WOO!” you didn't think you were that loud but, Connie still manages to catch your voice and wink at you. 

The game continues and the crowd slowly starts to calm down back into their seats. At the 90th minute the referee blows the whistle and the game finishes. 

You and Jean run onto the field to find Connie, once you see him he pulls you both into an embrace. Even though he was sweaty you didn’t really mind. He runs his hand through his hair and shakes his head like a wet dog. 

“Ew Connie,” you say, pushing him away. He laughs and grabs you by the waist as you try to step away from him. He hugs you tight making sure all his sweat seeps into you, you stand there squirming against him trying to break free from his arms. Finally, he lets you go, he and Jean stand there laughing around you. 

Connie’s bright hazel eyes stare into you as you stand there pouting with his sweat all over you. He can’t help but notice how pretty you look, the light rain from earlier damping your hair. The wetness makes your hair appear darker which brings out your eyes. Your clothes are slightly wet from the rain and sweat, they cling to your body accentuating your figure. 

“How about we go eat to celebrate? We can take it to Sasha’s and eat with her.” Jean says seemingly out of nowhere. 

“Ouu that's a good idea.” you say turning to Jean. 

“Yeah let me just go and change.” Connie says making his way to the locker room. 

You go back to the car with Jean and get into the backseat, knowing Connie would probably want to sit in the passenger seat. As you lay down in the backseat and get your phone out you see Eren had texted you. 

Last night you had spent a majority of the night replaying your kiss with Eren, you swore you had a dream about him last night too. 

His lips were so soft. The way his tongue wrapped around yours made your mouth water. His hands were everywhere but it wasn’t enough, you wanted your bodies to be up against each other. The flashbacks make your cheeks blush and your stomach flutter. The power he had over you had you wanting to bang your head on the seat. 

Eren: how is sasha? 

You: she’s good. 

me, jean, and connie are about to go get food and see her

you wanna come?

Eren: hell yeah, send me the addy

“Do you think it's fine if Eren comes too? He says he wants to go visit Sasha with us.” you ask Jean. He looks up from his phone and looks at you through the rear view mirror confusedly and turns to look at you. 

“I guess it’s fine.” He says, shrugging his shoulders. “Does he know where she lives?” 

“No, I was about to tell him where she lives.” 

“I think we can just pick him up, it’ll be easier that way.” he says right when Connie comes to the door, opening the back seat. 

“Oh, sorry. Wait, why are you back here?” he says, turning his head to the side. 

“I thought you would’ve wanted to sit in the front.” you say to him. He smiles at you and closes the door making his way to the other side of the car. 

“Okay, yeah I’ll tell him.” you say responding to Jean’s earlier comment. 

You: jean said we can pick you up, we’ll be there in 30 min 

Eren likes your message and the three of you drive away. 

Jean thought pizza would be a good food for Sasha since it was one of her many comfort foods. You grab three large pizzas and some breadsticks, you also swing by a gas station to grab a fountain Dr.Pepper along with other drinks for the rest of you. 

Once you all get done with buying the food, Jean passes by the frat house to pick up Eren. 

“Why are we back here?” asks Connie. 

“We’re picking up Eren,” says Jean. 

You: here!! 

Eren: ok im coming

“He’s coming.” you say looking up from your phone and towards Jean. Connie’s eyes are darting at you, “what?” you say looking at him puzzled. 

“Why is he coming?” he asks you.

“Oh, he said he wanted to come with us.” you say looking out the window. 

You see Eren walking out and closing the front door, he came out wearing a loose-fitted zip up with a wife beater under, and a pair of baggy nylon pants. 

As he was walking down the stairs, loose strands from his hair fell down in his face and he pushed them back by running his hand through his hair. 

The way he looks has you mesmerized and gripping your seat. 

He walks up to the car and Jean unlocks it right before he pulls on the door. 

“Sup guys.” he says nodding his head towards Connie and Jean. 

He looks over his shoulder to look at you directly. Your heart flutters and your breath hitches. He hasn’t even said anything, all he did was look at you but the flashbacks from last night come crashing down. You can’t help but remember him all over you. 

“Hi pretty.” he says smiling at you. 

You stutter on your words as you try to keep your composure. Out of the corner of your eye you can see Jean chuckling to himself and you can’t help but wonder why he thought it was funny. Your eyes barely reach Connie but you can see him with the tip of his tongue at the top of his front teeth while he tries to not look back. 

“Hi.” you mutter in an awkward gasp of breath. 

Eren is startled by the noise you made and jumps up slightly. Your cheeks start to burn as the embarrassment settles in, you tense up and move your body to the right to get closer to the door on your side. 

The rest of the drive is awkward for only you. The guys talked about Connie’s game and the mystery that was last night. You sat there looking at the window just listening to the conversations. 

When you get to Sasha’s dorm, you text her to let her know you guys were coming up. You hold the pizzas while Connie holds the drinks. When Eren gets to the front door, he carefully grabs the pizzas from your hands and kicks the door open. 

You stand there, open eyed, muttering a thank you under your breath. He smiles at you and lets everyone walk into the building. 

Connie tries to ignore the weird tension between the two of you and walks up to the elevator while Jean is pressing the up button. 

Once you get up to Sasha’s room, you knock on the door. You can hear her shuffling to the door and when she opens it you quickly pull her into a hug. 

“I’m so glad you’re okay.” You say not letting her go. 

“Guys I was fine, you’re all so dramatic.” She says as she pulls you away from her. A grin is plastered across her face. Any regular person would not have known she was drugged last night, she looked like the same ole Sasha. 

Her eyes beam as she sees the boxes of pizza, breadsticks, and soda in the hands of Eren and Connie 

“Aw you guys are the best!” She says while hugging Jean. 

They place the food and drinks on the table and they both go towards Sasha to give her a hug. 

You and Jean grab out plates from the cabinets while Sasha talks to them behind you. 

“You really gave us a scare Sasha.” Says Connie. You can tell he’s distressed. 

Eren comes up behind you and lightly places his hand on your shoulder. You jump up from the sudden contact then ease when you realize it’s him. 

“I feel like you’re ignoring me.” He says right by your ear. He places his right hand on the counter, caging you between him and the counter. 

“I’m not.” You say turning around to face him. His breath shudders as your noses faintly brush. You look up to his eyes which are already looking down at you. 

He grins while his head falls down in front of your face. His hair manages to land in your face and it smelled like coconut oil, no wonder his hair was always so soft. 

“Right babe ,” he steps back and grabs the plate from your hands to grab a slice of pizza and then hands it back to you. 

“Thank you.” You say squinting your eyes at him and he just smiles at you. 

You head over to the couch where Connie, Jean, and Sasha are. Connie has a slice on his plate while he holds the other in his hand. He’s laughing at something Jean said from beside him. Sasha is sitting on a sofa by herself and you decide to sit on the floor next to her chair. Eren follows you and sits beside you. 

You look at him and his eyes look blown out. 

The rest of the afternoon consists of laughing and playful banter between the five of you. Throughout the afternoon you notice Eren and yourself inching towards each other until you couldn’t be any closer without being on top of each other. 

You were sitting criss crossed and your knee was on top of Eren’s thigh. His hands were leaning behind him while yours were in your lap. 

Connie eyes you the whole night. Tensing whenever he notices the two of you getting closer, eventually he stops paying attention to you. Instead he only directly talks to Jean and Sasha. 

Jean and Sasha though are having a field day with whatever was going on between the three of you. You catch Jean silently laughing with Sasha as Connie’s jaw clenches so hard you think he’s going to crush it himself. 

Once the night comes to end, you all help clean up and say bye to Sasha. 

When you approach the car, Connie finally speaks to you. “You can sit in the front.” 

“Oh it’s okay, I’m fine with the back.” You say to him trying to be as nice as possible. 

He finally looks at you and he looks mad so you opt for sitting in the passenger side. 

As you’re about to go past the frat house to go to your apartment, Eren yells from the back seat. 

“Oh shit, Porco says he just found out who roofied Sasha.” 

You all stare back at Eren with wide eyes. Jean quickly makes a turn onto the road that leads to the house. When he parks the car, no one says anything, you all quickly unlock the door to get inside. 

It was quite unusual to enter the house on a random Saturday during the day without going to fuck a brother but, you couldn’t just stay in the car as Porco drops the load. 

When you enter the house and turn the corner, Porco, Floch, and Reiner are all standing in the living room. Jean, Connie, Eren and you stumble into the living room and they all stare at you in confusion. 

“What’s she doing here?” Says Floch in his annoying voice pointing at you. 

“Mind your business.” Says Eren holding a hand out to you.

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“It was Ymir,” Porco says, “you’re ex girlfriend.” He’s looking directly at you. 

Your jaw drops to the floor and you feel like you can’t breathe. 

Your head starts to feel lightheaded. There’s no way you heard that right. 

Ymir. Your ex. Was at the party? 

Your breath is starting to fall short, every breath seems like the last you’ll ever take. You slowly take a step back trying to escape the words that came out of Porco’s mouth. 

Connie comes up behind you and places a hand on your shoulder. Eren and Jean are now looking at you. 

Reiner, Floch, and Porco are staring. 

“Apparently she came to get revenge on you but, when she couldn't find you she went for Sasha instead.” 

Your heart drops to the floor. All this was your fault. 

Nothing necessarily bad happened to Sasha, she ended up being okay.

 But, you start to wonder what could have happened to her if Hitch didn’t find her at that moment. 

All because you were dancing with Eren. Sasha got the blow. 

You try to open your mouth to talk but your mouth feels too dry. 

“That can’t be. She wouldn’t come to do that.” you finally say. Even after all this time, you still find yourself defending her. 

“Well she did.” says Floch. 

“Floch shut up.” says Eren walking towards him. 

Connie is still by your side trying to hold you together. 

“Well,” you say, catching your breath, "I'm sorry.”  

They all look at you in confusion. Why would you be apologizing for her actions? 

“It's not your fault.” says Connie. 

“No, but it is.” you say stepping away from him. 

“If I wasn’t dancing with Eren,” you see everyone’s gaze pan from you to Eren then back at you, “then none of this would have happened. I would rather have her drug me than anyone I care about.” your eyes start to water as your mind wanders to Sasha on the floor last night.

You know she was lighthearted about everything in her life but, deep down you know she was scared. 

You want to run to go find Ymir and have her explain why she did it. You didn’t want to talk to her or even see her for that matter but you needed answers. 

As you’re about to turn around to head to the front door Connie grabs your arm, “do not blame yourself, please.” 

You look around to see everyone’s eyes, they’re all still staring at you but their eyes have an apologetic look to them now. 

Porco approaches you and lays a hand on your shoulder. He squeezes your shoulder and gives you the faintest smile. “We’re not blaming you. We know you had nothing to do with it.” 

Your blurry eyes finally look up to his as you try to find the right words to say. 

From behind him you see Eren walking up and pushing past Porco. He doesn't hesitate when pulling you into a hug. Your arms find his neck as his arms wrap around your waist tightly. His head is nestled between your neck and shoulder. 

When you finally back away from the hug, his eyes scan your face trying to find an answer to how you’re feeling. 

“I’m sorry but I have to go.” You say stepping away from everyone. 

They let you go without a fight.

Once you reach the front steps of the frat house you feel like you can finally breathe.

It was dark now, 8:45pm. 

You pull your phone out to find Ymir’s number. 

You: where are you? we need to talk. 

You walk down the stairs and hear someone abruptly open the door. 

Connie. 

“Wait, you can’t walk back by yourself. It’s dark.” 

“Yeah thanks Connie, I didn’t notice.” 

Now, you’re just irritated. You didn’t want to talk to anyone. You just wanted to blow the steam off by walking back to your place. Hopefully Ymir would answer and you could talk to her. 

You keep on walking until you reach the final steps. You don’t look back at him, you just take yourself back to your apartment. But, he runs until he’s walking by your side. 

He doesn’t say anything the whole walk back. You don’t say anything either. You know Connie was just being nice by taking you home but you wish he had just let you go. 

Before you walk into the building you look beside you to look at Connie. 

“Thanks for walking me back, you really didn’t have to.” 

“I didn’t want anything to happen.” He says softly. 

You give him a half hearted smile as you turn away to say bye. You walk into the building without saying another word. 

Once you reach your room you get a text from Ymir. 

Ymir: What do you want?

She can’t be serious. 

You: don’t act dumb, i know what you did. 

Ymir:  Come see me. 

She sends you the address to the hotel she’s staying at. The only problem is, it’s a 40 minute walk. 

Usually you had no issue walking but with it being dark, and seeing your ex you wanted an easy escape if needed. 

“Of course, I’ll be your personal chauffeur for now on, how’s that sound?” 

Eren. 

You: can i ask a favor? 

Almost immediately he answers. 

Eren: yes wsp? 

You: can you drive me to ymir’s? 

Eren: be right there 

You hurry around your apartment to change out of your sweaty and wet clothes from earlier. You put on a hoodie with sweatpants and wait for Eren. 

In 10 minutes he texts you that he’s outside. 

When you go outside he’s parked right in front of the building. You open the door to the passenger seat and his eyes beam at you. 

“Hi, thanks.” You say settling into the seat. 

“Of course. You okay?” He asks. 

“Yep.” You try to hide your face to avoid any further conversation on your feelings. 

You pull up the directions to the hotel and Eren starts to drive. When Eren pulls up to the hotel parking lot you can’t seem to move. 

Your legs stay stuck to the chair. Your chest starts to feel tight again. You put your head back on the head rest and sink into the seat.

 Eren’s hand finds your leg and he lightly rubs your knee. You look over at him and his eyes soften as he sees you. 

You want to cry, you don’t want to face Ymir. You spent the whole summer getting over her and trying to better yourself. 

Now, you're in a spot when you know you need to speak to her. You can’t just let her actions go unnoticed. 

“Do you want me to go up with you?” Asks Eren, breaking the silence. 

“Uh no I think I need to do this myself.” 

“Okay, I’ll stay here for as long as you need.” 

You smile at him and slowly open the door. 

You: i’m in the lobby 

Ymir: Okay 

You: if i don’t come out in an hour. pls come get me. 

You stand in the lobby looking around to find anything to distract yourself. Your hands come together and you start to pick at your hands. 

A scar is starting to form on your left hand. It starts to burn but you continue scratching it until you see Ymir standing by the elevators. 

She looks so- 

So charming. 

This is not the girl anyone would expect to try and hurt Sasha. 

She comes towards you and your legs start to move to meet her halfway. She awkwardly gives you a hug and you return it. 

“You look well.” She says. 

“Thanks, you too.” You say as you both get into the elevator. 

The ride up is silent, it’s like you almost forgot what the whole point of coming was. Once you enter her hotel room she closes the door behind you and you feel trapped inside. 

Maybe you should have told Eren to come up with you. 

No. You needed to do this yourself. 

“Why?” You ask looking past her. 

You cut straight to the point. Avoiding any small talk to be able to leave quicker. 

“Huh?” 

“Why would you do that to Sasha? You know how important she is to me.” 

“I didn’t do anything to her.” 

“What are you talking about? I know you roofied her.” 

“No I didn't." 

“Bullshit.” 

You see the wires in her head working, was she being for real or was this her manipulating you? 

“Ok then why did Porco tell me it was you?” You say looking directly at her now. 

“Well I don’t know, maybe he was just trying to pin me as the bad guy so he can get in your pants.” 

“YMIR WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.” 

“I’m just saying.” She shrugs her shoulders and approaches you. “Who wouldn’t try to get into your pants, beautiful?” 

“No.” You say raising your voice and lifting your hand up. “Why did you do it?” 

“Oh come on, you can’t be serious about this. Is that really why you came all this way?” 

“Yes Ymir I came all this way to make you admit to what you did.” Your voice is almost whiny now. 

“Fine,” she scoffs, “I didn’t actually mean to roofie her.” 

You roll your eyes not believing anything she’s saying. 

“I was looking for you and after I couldn’t find you I guess I put it in someone’s drink, I didn’t know it was Sasha’s.” 

“That’s such bullshit. You know Sasha, you had to have known it was her drink.” 

“No I didn’t.” She says, raising her voice. “ I just put it into a cup. I swear I didn’t know.” 

“Then why the fuck would you put it into someone drinks in the first place?” 

“I don’t know. Look I’m sorry, can you please forgive me. I know I shouldn’t have done it baby.” She’s up in your face now. 

After a few moments she reaches out for you and you don’t move. 

She has you against the wall. Her knee is in between your legs pressing on the pressure point between your thighs.

Her hand snakes up your body to grab a hold of your neck. Her other hand holds your hip in place. 

Your breathing starts to fall short. 

Her lips are moving closer to yours. 

You try to move, push her out the way. 

But, you can’t. 

You're back in the cycle. 

Her lips land on yours. You kiss back. It’s like something is reeling you back into her. Like the last three years of suffering wasn’t enough to stop you from kissing her. 

You feel her hand grow tighter around your neck, her hand on your waist is digging into your skin. 

Tears are starting to form in your eyes by how tightly you have them closed. 

Ymir pushes you onto her bed. 

You’ve seen this look in her eyes before. She’s ready to devour you and you have no say in it. 

She cages you between her arms and the bed with nowhere to run. 

Your hands are gripping the bed. You’re ready to bawl your eyes out.

And the funny thing is, she gets off on that. 

Your mind is spiraling.

Why is this happening? Why me? 

Her hands are under your sweatshirt, she’s pushing the fabric up to get it over your head. 

How can I stop her? Why can’t I stop her? 

Her mouth meets your chest, biting down to create a hickey. You squirm under her but that only makes her bite harder and push you deeper into the bed. 

I’m laying here, under her, letting her use me. Why can’t I stop her? 

“Ymir I-” you say trying to get her to listen to you. 

Her mouth immediately finds yours, not letting you speak anymore. 

She moves her hands down to your pants, she hooks one finger into the waist band and slowly starts to peel your sweatpants off. 

“I bet you missed this huh? You missed squirming under me?” She says looking up at you. 

Your sweats fall at your ankles, leaving you in your bra and underwear. 

The cool air reaches your body, making you shiver under her touch. 

“I-” 

Right before you can finish your sentence the door swings open causing you both to jump up. 

Eren is standing at the door with the receptionist right behind him. 

Ymir gets up from the bed and before she can speak. Eren steps into the room. 

“What the fuck are you doing to her.” He says not holding back from showing the anger in his voice. 

His eyebrows are furrowed in, his hands are by his sides clenching into a fist. 

He looks so fucking mad he could probably punch a hole into the wall. 

Eren looks over to you and that’s when you gain consciousness. Right, you’re half naked on the bed. You feel embarrassed with him seeing you like this but he quickly looks away to avoid making you feel uncomfortable. 

You quickly get up to pull your pants up and grab your sweatshirt off the bed. 

You step behind him, hoping he can protect you from her. 

“Ymir give me a fucking answer.” He says again walking closer to her making her back bump into the wall. 

She stutters before speaking, making her lie unbelievable “She wanted it. She was practically asking for it.” She says pointing to you. 

Liar. 

Eren looks back at you. You shake your head. Unable to form any words.  

“Doesn’t look like she wanted it. Don’t ever fucking touch her again.” His fingers are up in her face, “If you do, you won’t ever know peace another day in your goddamn life.” 

He smashes his fist into the desk before turning around and grabbing your hand. 

He slams the door behind him and takes you to the elevator. 

You're walking beside him but it doesn’t feel real. You feel like you’re still laying in that bed feeling her all over you. 

His hand is still holding yours providing you some sort of reality.

Once you get outside, Eren finally looks over at you and he holds you tight. You don’t know how long you stood there in his arms, all you know is that you needed someone to hold you. 

Your eyes start to water and you cry into his neck. He rubs your back and keeps holding you. When you pull back from him you see his eyes watering too. He looks at you with such distress it makes your heart shatter a bit. 

He doesn't say anything, doesn’t need to. His eyes are full of sorrow. You know how sorry he feels for you. 

Eventually you back off him completely and you walk together to the car. He opens the door for you then closes it when you get into your seat comfortably. He goes around the car and opens the driver seat. 

When he opens the door you are curled up in the seat, laying your head on the console. Eren places a hand on your head and lightly massages it. 

He starts to drive, you don’t recognize the roads anymore. Your head is too jumbled for your mind to comprehend anything. 

Eren puts the car in park. You finally look up and see that you’re in front of your complex. 

He delicately wipes the tears from your eyes. 

“I really don’t want to be alone,” you say sniffling “can you come up with me or take me to your house?” 

You didn’t know what you would do if you were left by yourself. You didn’t even want to think about it. 

“You can come to my place, how about we just grab your things from your apartment then we can head over?” 

“Okay,” you say, trying to catch your breath from all the crying. 

Eren gets out of the car first and goes around to open your door. He helps you up as he closes the passenger door. 

Once you get into your apartment, you quickly grab your things and throw them into a bag. 

When you walk back into the living room Eren is innocently looking around your apartment, not trying to impose. 

“I got my things, I'm ready.” you say walking up to him. 

“Ok let’s go.” 

He drives in silence, the music is faintly playing in the background but you don’t pay attention to any of it. 

The house is tame, no loud music blaring through the speakers. No crowds of people around the stairs or doors. 

Eren takes your bag from the back and carries it out. You open your door and walk up the stairs with him. When he opens the front door you hear voices from the living room. 

The same living room you were just in a couple of hours ago. All the memories of her come flooding back to haunt you. 

You tightly shut your eyes to stop your thoughts from overcrowding your mind. Eren leads you up the stairs, avoiding someone who called out his name. 

He takes you to the same room you were in last night with him. Last night you didn’t notice anything in his room, but now you take your time to look around and see the character in it. 

He has pictures of younger him with Armin and Mikasa. He has a flag of his favorite hockey team you presume. His bedding is simple, a dark green comforter with several pillows. 

“Are you alright?” Eren says from behind you. 

You turn to face him, “Uh yeah. I’ll be okay.” 

“Are you sure, you can talk to me about it.” 

You hesitate a bit, you don’t know if you want to tell another person about Ymir and how she treated you. But, you know you have to get it out of your system. 

You knew Connie was probably in his room gaming, you could walk over and talk to him. But, you didn’t want to let him know what happened tonight. 

“Umm,” you say, scratching your head and sitting down at the edge of his bed. “I mean you saw how she had me on the bed.” 

“Yeah it looked like she was forcing you to have sex with her.” 

You chuckle under your breath, “Yep that’s Ymir. I don’t know, I know I should’ve just said no but, for some reason I just couldn’t.” 

Eren nods slowly trying to make sense of what you’re saying with the little information you’re giving him. 

“I just feel so, so stupid for letting her take advantage of me. She didn’t even try to talk about Sasha. She barely admitted to what she did.” You look down when talking to Eren, you don’t want to see the reaction on his face when he realizes this was a normal thing in your past relationship. 

“You’re not stupid. She’s an idiot for using you like that.” He kneels down in front of you cupping your face. “I’m sorry.” 

“Don’t be sorry, it’s not your fault.” You say smiling trying to hide the tears forming in your eyes yet again. 

In order to avoid further questioning you switch the conversation. 

“Can I take a shower?” You ask. 

“Yeah go ahead, let me just get you a towel.” 

When you enter the shower, you turn it up to the hottest temperature. Something you’ve always done after having sex with your ex. Each time, you try to scrub off the guilt from your skin but it never quite seems to work. But, maybe this time you can. 

You stand in the shower with no more tears to shed, you don’t want to give her the satisfaction of knowing you still feel her all over you. You want to bury any memories you have of her. 

After taking a shower and changing into your pjs you walk out into Eren’s room again. 

His sweater is off, he’s only wearing the wife beater with his pants. You’re wearing a tank top with boxer shorts. He looks up from his phone and smiles once he lays his eyes on you. 

“I’m just gonna take a quick shower too. You can get in my bed.” 

“Okay thanks.” You say walking towards his bed. 

Once he gets out of the shower, you’re curled up on your side with your eyes closed. When he gets into bed, it shifts a bit with the added weight. You can feel Eren getting closer to you as he adjusts himself in bed. 

He gently wraps his arm over your waist while the other goes under the pillow. You slightly back up into him to feel the warmth of another person against you. Once his chest is pressed against your back you feel safe. 

You hold onto his arm on your waist and doze off into a deep sleep. 

Eren watches as you fall asleep next to him. You must’ve been exhausted. He stays up the majority of the night thinking about you. 

He thinks about your face when Porco revealed it was Ymir, the look on your face scared him. You looked so fragile, it looked like someone had just torn your heart out. 

He thinks about you texting him to take you to Ymir’s hotel room. How you trusted him to help you if you needed it, which you did. He wishes he would’ve just gone up with you even though you said not to. 

He thinks about your face when he walked in, half-naked on her bed, you were scared shitless. The way she had you pinned to the bed made his chest tighten. 

He never ever thought about hitting a woman, never dared to. 

But

The way she had you, the advantage she took of you almost made him slap Ymir across her face. It took everything in him to not lay a hand on her. Instead, he punched the desk to let go of some of that anger. 

He had to beg the receptionist to tell him the room number. When one hour had passed, he knew he had to go and look for you. There was no way a conversation like that would last more than thirty minutes. After almost twenty minutes she finally gave in after realizing he was not going to back down from finding you. He would’ve knocked down all the doors in that hotel to get to you. 

But, why?

Why was he so adamant about saving you? Sure, you had known each other for a couple of years and he wanted to fuck you freshman year but that couldnt be the only reason for wanting to keep you safe. 

Hell, he would not do that to any other girls he wanted to sleep with. 

Was it because you guys were friends? 

Would he have done that for any other of his friends? Would he fight for them as he would do for you? 

Did his feelings resurface after he found out you were single or did the feelings never go away?

He went through a relationship, talked to so many girls, had sex with a few of those girls yet his mind always landed on you. 

Eren doesn’t know when he slept last night or if he even slept at all. He just remembers your body cuddling up against him until the morning. 

When you wake up the next morning your eyes feel so sore. Your eyes take a second to adjust where you were. 

Right, Eren’s. 

Your mind goes back to last night and the events that transpired. The way Ymir had you on her bed and the look in her eyes. 

You quickly shake your head hoping to get rid of the thoughts. 

In order to distract yourself you turn your body to face Eren and he’s sleeping peacefully.  

He has one arm under you which wraps around your waist holding your hips. His hair has fallen over his face and you push the loose strands away. 

You quietly get out of bed to grab your things and leave. As you’re putting your pants on Eren starts to move in his sleep when he doesn't feel you right next to him. He quickly sits up and sees you standing gathering your things. 

He tilts his head in confusion and rubs his eyes with his hands. 

“Where are you going?” his morning voice echoes through the room causing you to jump up and turn around. 

“Oh I was about to head out. Thanks for letting me stay.” you say as you put your shoes on. 

“Are you sure you don’t want to stay?” he asks, getting up from the bed. 

“I’m sure you have other things to do, plus I have a lot of work to catch up on.” 

“Oh okay. Do you need me to drive you back?” 

“No it’s okay, I can walk back.” you say stepping forward to give him a hug. 

“Thanks for everything, I owe you.” you close the door behind you and hope no one sees you walking out the house. 

Eren stands in his room, trying to process what just happened. He stands there for a second before walking towards his window, he sees you walking down the steps and heading towards your apartment. 

Everything in him wants to run out there and drive you home or at the very least walk with you but he knows how it feels to want to be alone with your thoughts. 

So, he watches you until you're no longer in his point of view. 

The walk back is peaceful, you put your airpods in and play music. 

Song: My Boy Only Breaks his Favorite Toys by Taylor Swift 

When you reach your apartment you fall face first onto the couch and curl yourself up. 

Your nails are digging into your skin as you rock yourself back and forth. 

You thought this time would be different. You thought you were able to stand up to her without falling for her manipulation tactics. You thought you were strong enough to push her away. 

But, you were wrong. You’re still the weak girl falling at the hands of someone stronger than you. 

After a few minutes you finally get up to go to the bathroom, you do your morning routine and go sit at your desk. 

You actually did have a lot of work to do. Part of you wanted to stay with Eren but you knew he didn’t want a girl in his room breaking down about her ex. 

As you’re sitting there you can’t help but think about Eren and how he treated you last night. 

He didn’t have to take you to Ymir’s if anything you expected him to say no. You didn’t expect him to nearly knock the door down when he opened it and saw you laying helplessly on the bed. You didn’t expect him to hold you throughout the night and let you stay in his bed because you didn’t want to be alone. 

But, he did. 

Why? 

Pulling you out of your thoughts, you see Porco texted you. 

Porco: we’re gonna make sure she never comes to a party again

so no need to worry 

You: ok, thanks. sorry again for all that

Porco: nah, you’re good

she was always a bitch 

The rest of the afternoon consisted of studying and completing the assignments for the upcoming week. You finally head to the kitchen and make a quick dinner before sitting down on the couch to watch a movie to end the night.

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The rest of the night is spent in front of your tv. As the hours pass by you can’t seem to let yourself go to sleep. 

Maybe it’s because being alone with your thoughts is too hard to face. 

You tried so hard to forget her. You tried so hard to push the memories down, to forget the feeling of her. But, every time your mind isn’t distracted you feel her. 

You feel her hands burning your body. You feel the bruise she gave you. You feel the indents on your hips from where she held you down. You feel her hand around your throat, choking you. You feel every fucking time she had her hands on you and you laid there doing nothing. 

You feel. 

You feel so disgusting. 

Why does this time feel so much worse than the other times? 

This time she didn’t go all the way but it still hits you like a slap on the face. 

You pull your legs up to your chest and bang your head on your knees. It starts to hurt after a while but at least for those seconds you don't feel her . 

Your body feels hot but you don’t want to take your sweater off. You don’t want to see where she touched you. 

Because when you can see it you can feel it. And you don’t want to feel it. 

Because when you feel it your throat feels tight. Your chest feels like it’s about to cave in. 

When you feel it, it feels like you're back at that hotel room. At the hotel room where she pushed you against the wall, where she had you against the bed. 

You remember the look in her eyes, the look you’ve seen so many goddamn times. Her piercing gray eyes staring into your soul like she’s about to eat you whole. 

You felt every ridge of her fingers piercing into your skin. Every callous touching your bare body. 

Those hands, those eyes, those lips. They all keep replaying in your mind as in an endless loop. 

Luckily Eren had come up when he did. If he hadn’t, she would’ve taken your underwear off, your bra. 

You would’ve lied naked on that bed. 

Would've felt her naked body on you. 

She would’ve pushed your head down, made you lick her pussy until she came. She would’ve gotten on top of you and held your hands up so you wouldn’t move. She would’ve pulled her strap out. Would have fucked you until it was too much and even then she would’ve kept going. 

Would have. But she didn’t and yet you still feel so nauseous. 

The funny thing is, you used to love to pleasure a woman. You loved going down on a woman to feel her dancing on your tongue. 

Making her cum and tasting it made you warm inside.

You loved plunging your fingers into her dripping cunt and curving your fingers just right to make their mind go blank. You loved when she begged for more, never growing tired throughout the long night. 

Because love between two women was beautiful to you.

It was what you thought you had with Ymir. What you wanted with her. But, it never got to that point. Your delusion made you believe that’s what it was but it never was.

You remember falling in love with her. Vividly you remember the moment.

Ymir had taken you to a park at sunset. You sat on a blanket, your legs touching. 

Her soft eyes looked into yours and you felt like the world had stopped spinning. You felt as if you two were the only people in the world. 

She kissed you. You kissed her back with more passion. 

When you both retreated, you both giggled. You felt so happy. You felt on top of the world. 

That’s when you started dating. 

You remember your friends back home being so happy for you. They thought your relationship was so pure. And it was. Until it wasn’t. 

The first couple months of the relationship were amazing. 

The summer before going into college. You had no worries, no doubts about college, about starting in a new place because you had the love of your life by your side. 

That first night, the first night she took advantage of you. 

You didn’t know. And fuck. You wish you would’ve caught it sooner. 

You were drunk, she was sober. You were so tired, you just wanted to sleep. Sleep the drunkenness off and be okay in the morning. 

But, no. She wanted sex. Needed it. 

She begged you for twenty minutes. Kept grazing your private areas. You were so sick of saying no you finally said yes to just make her stop. 

You don’t remember what all you did that night. All you remember is the feeling. 

The same one you’re feeling now. 

You felt so used. So disgusting. 

When you woke up that morning, everything had changed. 

Fuck you wish you had just talked to her. You wish you had told her how used you felt but you didn’t. 

You thought she would never hurt you. You thought it would never happen again. 

Everytime it happened again you convinced yourself it was the last time, and it never was. 

For the longest time you thought you were only imagining it. You thought your feelings weren’t valid so you kept it all hidden. Ymir never asked, so you never told. 

Sex became un-enjoyable. You only ever had it to satisfy her. Sure, you also came from it, Ymir was very good in bed. But, that didn’t matter though, it wasn’t you two making love.

Your breathing was always heavy, it felt like something was pushing down on your chest. Tears would roll down your face and Ymir would think it was because of the sensations. She thought she was over-stimulating you in a good way. So she would get more worked up. And fuck you harder until you couldn’t breathe because of all the tears and saliva getting stuck in your throat. 

That wasn’t even the worst part, the worst part was the after. The feeling you felt after was awful. And that fucked you up more than the sex ever did. The guilt creeping in, lingering until the next time. And the next. And the next. 

The same thing. Every. Single. Time. 

And maybe this was all your fault in the first place. Maybe if you had just talked to her none of it would have happened. 

Maybe if you had just pulled her aside and told her about that night. Maybe she would be here with you, lying on this couch cuddled up watching a movie. 

But, that was all in the past now. Nothing you could do about it now. 

You wish you had someone to call, to make you feel less alone but, opening up to this feeling kills you. 

Sure, you had told Connie and a bit to Eren but you never told them the severity of how you felt. Telling them would make you open up to them. And letting people in was always scary for you. 

Letting people in meant facing all your fears. Letting people in meant showing them the ugly parts. 

Connie and Hitch were the two people you let in, if you can even call it that. Yes, you told them about certain things in your life but it was never the full scope of your feelings. You always told them just enough to make them feel like they knew you. Make them feel like they’re in. But, they never were. 

You’ve told Hitch about your mental health struggles, how you would sometimes hurt yourself. But, it was always in the past. 

“I used to do it.” you would say. Never telling her you still did, you still struggled with it. Till this day, this moment you can feel the burning sensation of the cuts you gave yourself today. 

You told Connie, “I used to have an eating disorder.” “I used to have really bad depression.”

You still had it. It was still something you dealt with. 

They believed it. And that was all that matters. 

Three years. Three years is how long you spent keeping in the sexual abuse you had experienced. Three years you had dealt with it by yourself and you could do it for a whole lifetime. Three years of sorrow. What was the difference now? You’ve done it before and you can do it again. 

There was no need to call someone up, that was just a passing thought, a stupid one at that. 

It’s 4:00 am now. And you’re nowhere close to sleeping. Your eyes burn from staring at the tv for too long. You walk around your apartment trying to distract yourself. 

But nothing is working. 

Your legs have new scars forming from your nails digging into your skin. You look down at your hands, the new scar you gave yourself from when you saw Ymir yesterday. You look at the other ones you’ve given yourself. 

Every part of your body reminds you of her. How can you escape her if you feel her roaming every inch of your body? 

You grab a bandaid from your cabinet to cover your hand and the biggest scar on your leg. 

You lay back onto the couch, watching whatever is playing on your tv. You’re not even paying attention but, you need to let your mind be occupied. 

At 6:00 am your eyes finally give out. 

Your alarm rings at 7:45 am and you immediately turn it off. 

It’s only the second week of school and you’re already exhausted. You try so hard to get up but the weight on your shoulders is too heavy. 

Eventually you enter a deep sleep, finally allowing yourself to rest.  

When you wake up, you’re sweating and disoriented. 

You have 3 missed calls and 10 text messages from your friends. 

Eren: missed call (2)

Sasha: missed call 

Sasha: ARE U GOOD?!?!?

HELLOOO 

Where are you ☹️. 

I’m worried 

Hitch: bitch where are you? 

Connie: Yo

U wanna smoke later? 

Eren: are you okay 

You don’t bother answering anyone. You don’t want to see anyone, especially not with how you look right now. 

In the kitchen, you make yourself a coffee and eat breakfast, or rather lunch, to hold yourself over in the meantime. 

You sit at the counter top scrolling through TikTok. You see a video of Sasha and Hitch from Friday night, it was when you guys were getting ready. 

ok didn’t know my best friends were MODELS you comment. 

It was now 3:00pm, you already missed both classes for the day so you decided to look on canvas to check what your professors posted for the day and see what you missed. 

Nothing particularly important was given in class today, so you don't even bother writing down any notes. 

You pull your phone out to finally answer your friends back. 

Sasha 👯‍♀️

sorry i slept in

i’m good though 

okay 💔

lmk if you need anything 

Hitch 🙈

at my apartment 

do you wanna come over later?

fuck yeah 

be there @7 

Connie

sorry con, hitch is coming over

unless you wanna hang with us 

Yeah I’ll tag along 

Eren

yeah 

i slept in :/ 

yeah sure

can i come over

connie and hitch are coming over 

you’re welcome to join 

Before your friends come over, you clean up the apartment and take a shower. Right when you get out you hear a loud banging at your door. 

God, you hope it’s Hitch. You quickly run to the door, with your towel wrapped around your body and when you open it’s Hitch. She has a wine bottle in her hand and a devilish grin on her face. 

“Wow, this is a great sight to see.” she says while walking in. 

“Oh shut up, I had to hurry to open the door before you knocked it down.” you say walking towards your room. 

You throw on a comfy fit, an oversized shirt with lounge pants. 

As you’re heading back to the kitchen you see Hitch opening the wine bottle and looking through your fridge. 

“Jeez you really don’t have anything to eat here, do you wanna order something.” 

“Yeah we can. But, Connie and maybe Eren are coming. Do you just wanna wait for them?” 

“Ohh, your two boyfriends are coming over. How interesting.” she says, smirking at you. 

“They are not my boyfriends Hitch my gosh.” 

“Righttt.” she rolls her eyes and redirects the conversation. “Anyways Sasha told me you were MIA all day what's up with that?”  

You hadn’t told Sasha or Hitch what you found out over the weekend nor your encounter with Ymir. You assumed Jean or Connie must’ve told them about who drugged Sasha but it didn’t seem like she knew anything.

“I kind of went to see Ymir Saturday night.” you say avoiding eye contact with Hitch. 

Hitch nearly falls over the counter as she hears the words coming out of your mouth. 

“No. Fucking. Way. Are you insane?! Why? What? How?” 

You cut Hitch off before she starts saying nonsense for the next twenty minutes. 

“Over the weekend, I found out that Ymir was the one who did that to Sasha.” you say waving your hand in the air, “I had to go confront her about it,” you say calmly “and I guess after seeing her, I don't know.” you trail off. 

“I don't know, I guess it was hard seeing her again so I just thought it was best to stay home.” you say. 

Hitch comes around and gives you a hug, you sink into her trying to not cry in her arms. Suddenly someone comes knocking on the door. 

“Ok, we need to talk about that later,” she says. Before you get up to open the door, Hitch is already walking towards it, “I’ll get it.” 

“It’s probably Connie,” you say “we can ask him what he wants to eat..” 

“Oh, hi Eren.” Hitch says moving out the way to allow him in. 

Your gaze instantly finds his. He smiles upon seeing you and walks over with a takeout bag in his hands. He places the bag on the table and gives you a side hug.

“Missed ya in class today.” he says pulling out the seat next to you. 

“Sure you did.” you say in a cocky voice. 

“I’m starving. What do you have in the bag Eren.” says Hitch reaching across the table for the bag. 

Eren chuckles and says, “I bought chinese food for everyone. Thought you guys might be hungry.” 

You get up to grab plates for everyone and grab some cups for the wine. You also pull some diet coke out of the fridge. 

The three of you sit around eating and drinking, you almost forgot why you were having such a bad day today. 

“And then, he fell right on his face and his ass was hanging in the air.” you say trying to not burst into laughter. 

Hitch is dying in front of you and when she catches her breath she says, “Wait, you guys were on the dance floor together?” She's pointing between the two of you now, lifting her eyebrows up.  

Eren and you look at each other and before either of you can answer, there's a knock at the door. 

Saved by the bell, or knock in this case. 

You swiftly get up to open the door. 

“Hi Connie, nice of you to join us.” you say letting him in. 

He smiles and gives you a hug by the door before peeking through and seeing Eren and Hitch laughing. 

You see his smile falter a bit but he tries not to show it. 

“Hi Connie.” says Hitch was lo mein in her mouth. 

“Hey, you.” he gives her a hug before dapping Eren up. 

“I brought food, if you want some Connie.” Eren says, pushing the leftovers towards Connie. 

“Oh, thanks.” Connie says grabbing some chopsticks. 

The four of you sit around the table talking about classes, parties, and girls. 

As the night comes to the end, you and Hitch are wine drunk. 

“Oh Connieeee,” you say clinging to him “I’m sorry we didn’t get to smoke.”  

He laughs and places a hand around your waist. “It’s okay, how about later this week.” he says as he bops your nose. 

You can’t hold back your smile so you dig your face into his chest. 

Out of the corner of your eye you see Eren shaking his head as Hitch sits next to him with her head on his shoulder. 

Eren immediately gets up as soon as he feels her head touch his shoulder. Hitch is way too drunk to even realize what just happened. 

“How about we get these two to bed,” says Eren. 

“Yeah good idea,” says Connie. 

You walk over to the couch and try to wrap Hitch’s arm around your shoulder but you miserably fail and fall onto her. 

Eren and Connie laugh before helping you out. They both reach for you then hesitate once both their hands are on you. Eren pulls back first, letting Connie take care of you. 

Connie pulls you up by the waist and walks you over to your bed. Eren right behind him, takes Hitch. 

Eren puts Hitch on the wall side of the bed then Connie puts you on the edge of the bed. They both leave, turning the light off. 

When you wake up in the morning, you feel so well-rested, a contrast to yesterday morning. Hitch is beside you practically pushing you off the bed. You check the time and it’s only 9:30 am. You hop off your bed and go to the bathroom, you take a quick shower and wake up Hitch once you get back to your room. 

“Wake up Hitch.” you say while shaking her. 

“Yeah yeah I’m up,” she says, yawning into her hand. “What time is it?” 

“10:00 am. You still have time to go back to your place.” 

“Yeah, I might as well.” She slowly gets up from your bed and stretches. 

“Last night was fun.” you say sitting down in front of your mirror to start your makeup. 

“Oh my goshh, it was. We should totally do that again.” She says while grabbing a hoodie from your closet. 

“Bye babe I’ll see you in a bit. Do not even dare skipping class.” She leaves swiftly, you hear the faint lock click of the front door when she closes the door. 

The rest of your morning is chill, you finish getting ready and grab a protein bar and a banana to eat. 

Once you get to class, Hitch isn’t there yet but you save a seat for her. After a few minutes she comes rolling in with two coffees in hand. 

“Here you go.” She says placing the cup on your desk. 

“Why thank you.” You say taking a sip. 

Professor Ackerman starts at class right at 12:30 and takes up all the time. He doesn’t let you go until 2 pm. 

During class he talked about various policies with the government. He focused on public policy within healthcare systems and the process by which they go through. 

After class, Hitch says she has to meet some group for her class. After saying bye to her you head to the library to hopefully complete the assignment Professor Ackerman just assigned. 

Upon arriving you find a table near the back and set your stuff down. You’re locked in for about an hour before reaching for your phone. You scroll on instagram for far too long before getting a text from Sasha. 

Sasha: meet me at the same spot as last week?!

You: yes ma’am 

After your second class is done, you head down to the quad to meet Sasha. Upon seeing her, Jean is sitting next to her. The second Sasha sees you, she comes charging towards you, nearly knocking you to the floor. 

“Well hello to you too.” you say trying to find some grounding. 

“Hi. Sorry I just feel like I haven’t seen you in forever.” 

Sasha grabs your hand and leads you to where she was sitting. 

“Hey Jean,” you say as you set your bag down. 

“Hey,” he says looking up from his phone. 

Jean is staring at you and you assume he hasn’t told Sasha. 

After an hour Sasha receives a text from Niccolo and she starts freaking out, “Niccolo said he would make me baked potatoes this week.” Sasha says with the biggest grin in her face. 

“Aw that’s nice Sash.” You say playing with her hair. 

Sasha sees Niccolo across the quad and quickly grabs her things and says bye before running towards him. 

You and Jean laugh as you see Niccolo's scared look on his face. 

Jean turns to you and gives you an apologetic smile. “So how’d it go with Ymir? Did you end up talking to her?” 

You feel your chest tighten at the mention of her name, the grip on your phone gets tighter before you soften your hand. 

“Yeah I saw her.” You say flatly. “It was her. She was the one who did it.” 

“Shit, didn’t think she’d be the type to.” Jean says resting his weight on his hands behind him. 

You nod your head and turn your head to look off into the distance, hoping Jean would drop the topic. 

“I saw you Saturday night.” He says after a while. 

You turn to look at him. 

“I was behind you and Eren going up the stairs.” 

“Oh.” Is all you can manage to say. 

You didn’t mind that Jean saw you that night. You didn’t see Eren that night to do anything sexual, in fact that was the last thing on your mind. But, in order to clear anything up you speak up. 

“We didn’t do anything. I just didn't wanna be alone.”  You say exhaling a deep breath. 

“I know,” he chuckles. “Usually when Eren brings girls up I can hear it.” 

Now it’s your turn to laugh. “Well that’s nice to know.” you say. 

Eventually you and Jean get up to leave. 

“Do you need a ride back?” 

“No, I can walk.” You say heading back to your apartment. 

“Ok get back safe.” 

You see Jean walking to the parking lot with his keys in hand. 

As you’re walking back you feel someone speed up to get closer to you. You look back and see Porco falling into step beside you. 

“Hey caught ya.” He says 

“Hi Porco.” you say confused. 

Why is he here? 

“Did you end up talking to Ymir?” 

Great her again. 

“Yeah, I hope I never have to do that again.” You say. 

He chuckles and continues walking with you. 

“How’s Pieck?” you ask, trying to redirect his attention. 

“She’s good. She’s been super busy with applying to med school and working her ass off so she’s staying in pretty much every weekend.” 

“Ah, makes sense.” 

“I told her about last week and she felt sorry for you. You two should become friends. I think you’d really hit it off.” he says so casually. 

Why would you want to be friends with the girl who cheated on Eren? That doesn’t seem like the slightest bit of fun. 

“Oh, yeah of course,” you say, just trying to be nice. “Well tell her I said hi.” 

“I will, alright I gotta go. Bye.” he leaves as quickly as he shows up. 

At your apartment, you’re left alone again. You thought about calling someone and just having them hang out here but, you were so drained out you didn’t think you could hold another conversation today. Instead you had dinner and took a shower. 

You lay in your bed for too long, your mind doesn’t stop, not even for a moment. Your eyes are so tired, your body fatigued, but your mind is still spiraling. 

You finally pull your phone out to check the time 1:47 am. In order to pass the time, you go on instagram. Connie had posted a story a couple minutes ago, he was out smoking with someone on a rooftop. 

Eren also posted a story with Floch in the frame behind him (no surprise there). Upon seeing the picture your eyes open up wide. 

“Holy shit, he got a tattoo.” you say out loud. 

Eren’s story was a picture of him in a tattoo parlor. His shirt was lifted up in order to show the tattoo resting on his lower abdomen. It was of a spider. 

You catch yourself staring at the picture way too long before giving his story a like and moving on. 

A few moments later, you see a notification of Eren pop up on your screen. 

Eren: ur up? 

You: yes unfortunately

Eren: come over 

You: dont be dumb 

its late 

Eren: be there in 10 

You groan into your pillow and get up from your bed. Oh well, might as well since you’re not getting any sleep anytime soon. 

You change into a hoodie with shorts and wait for Eren. 

Eren: i’m outside 

You: kk coming 

“You’re insane,” you say getting into the seat. 

“Yet you’re here with me,” he says. 

Eren drives off with one hand on the steering wheel and the other on the gear shift. You pull your sleeves over your hands and look out the window. After passing past the frat house you look over at Eren confused. 

“I thought we were going to your room.” you say. 

“Changed my mind, this will be more fun.” 

He doesn’t say anything for the majority of the ride. There is just the loud hum of his car, speeding through the highway and the music playing from the speakers. 

Eren pulls up to a park on the outskirts of the city. 

He turns the volume down before turning to look at you. 

“Why didn’t you go to class yesterday?” he says as he pushes his seat back. 

“Nuh uh,” you say, shaking your head. “You just got a tattoo and you’re talking about class? Come on, let me see it.” 

He laughs and lifts his shirt up to show his tattoo, for the first few moments you don’t even look at his tattoo. Your eyes are glued to the muscles on his chest and abs. 

He looked so heavenly. You feel your mouth water and you lick your lips without even realizing. Eren’s laugh echoes through your ears bringing you back into the moment. 

“Did you like it?” he says grinning at you and pulling his shirt back down. 

“Uh yeah,” you say, fuck you didn’t even get a chance to look at it. “It’s really nice.”  

“Yeah?” he says, bringing his face closer to the center console. 

“Yeah,” you say breathlessly. 

Eren’s eyes are on your lips, he doesn’t even bother hiding the eagerness in his eyes. 

He shifts back into his seat and places his hands behind his head. 

“So, class yesterday. Why’d you miss it?” 

“Oh right,” you say, your mind a blur after seeing his muscles. “I couldn’t sleep the night before so I was exhausted by the morning.”

A very simple answer to the very complex night you went through. 

“It didn’t have anything to do with Ymir?” 

You feel a lump forming in your throat. You try hard to swallow it down before answering. 

“No.” 

A simple clear cut answer. 

Eren can tell you don’t want to talk about that night so he drops it. You awkwardly adjust in your seat and start to pinch at your leg. Trying to be discreet to avoid Eren noticing. 

“You were a good kisser the other night.” Eren says looking at you. 

Oh my gosh. You feel your heart drop down to your ass. 

You never thought he would bring that up. You get flustered and your cheeks start to turn red. You try to stay cool before answering. 

“You weren’t too bad yourself.” You manage to say, grinning at him. 

“Not too bad?” he scoffs, “I remember you moaning into my mouth.” 

“Oh whatever.” you say while rolling your eyes.

 “You’re the first person I've kissed since my ex.” you say playing with your sleeves. 

“Glad you could have it with me.” 

He leans forwards again. You lean into him. You look down at his lips and lick your lips as you bring your gaze up to his eyes. 

Eren looks so flustered, you can hear his breath hitch as you come closer to him. 

You wonder how long you can tease him until you let him kiss you. 

You push him back into his seat and climb over the console to sit on his lap. Your thighs comfortably entrap his body. You could hear a groan coming from his throat as he adjusts himself under you. Eren’s hands find your waist then they slowly trail up and down your body.

You close the gap between you two and stop right before your lips meet his. 

Your eyes meet his again and fuck does he look so hot. He gently grabs the nape of your neck and pulls you towards him but you pull back and shake your head. You hear the faintest whimper leave his lips. 

He looks so aroused, his eyes are begging to have you kiss him. 

You place your hands under the hem of his shirt. 

“Is this okay?” you ask, almost whispering. 

“Yes,” he says breathlessly. 

You try to hide your grin by biting the inside of your mouth. 

Your hands roam up and down his chest and you can feel every dip of his muscles. The years of hockey and hours in the gym showing off. 

But, his biggest muscle is poking you from below.

“Take your shirt off.” 

“Okay,” he says immediately. His hands leave your waist for a brief second as he grabs the back of his shirt to lift it up over his body. Your eyes dart down to his exposed upper body and your mouth falls open. 

He chuckles as he now sees you so flustered. Your hands find his biceps and you lightly squeeze them as he flexes them for you. 

“You like them?” he says looking up at you. His free hand gripping your waist in place.

“Yeah,” you say, nodding your head. “But I think I’m stronger than you.” You say cockily. 

“Oh sweetie,” he says laughing “you’re so lucky we’re in a car right now.” 

He grabs the nape of your neck again but this time with more force and smashes his lips into yours. Your hands grip his shoulders as you lightly grind into his lap feeling his hard on against your clothed clit. 

Eren’s tongue swipes your bottom lip to grant him access into your mouth. You open your mouth just wide enough for him to dominate your mouth. 

You whimper once you feel his tongue working wonders within your mouth, your mind starts to wonder where else his tongue is good… 

Eren pulls you closer to him and drags his hand up to your lower back. 

“Take my hoodie off,” you say, pulling your face away just enough to speak. 

He nods and pulls your hoodie over you and throws it on the passenger seat. 

You were just wearing a tanktop under, no bra and you see his eyes widen as he sees your boobs displayed in front of him. 

“What?” you ask as you pull on his hair softly, knowing exactly what it is. 

“You’re so fucking hot,” he mutters from under his breath before his lips find yours again. 

His thumbs swipe across your nipples and your breath hitches each time he applies the perfect amount of pressure. You can feel him smiling against your lips every time you squirm in his lap. 

One hand travels down to your hips again keeping you in place. 

As you grab the back of his head to bring him closer to you, you hear a loud thump on the window next to you. 

You and Eren both jump up and try to look outside through his tinted windows. 

“What the fuck.” Eren says sitting up with you still in his lap. 

Another loud thump comes from the outside and Eren rolls down the window. 

You’re both met with a bright light in your face 

“Hey, it’s after hours. You can’t be in this park after sunset kids.” says the cop, still shining the light in your face. He looks between the both of you and his eyes look down to your breasts. 

Eren notices this and places his arm across the window sill to block his view. 

“Right, sorry officer. Won’t happen again” says Eren in his charming voice. 

“Okay. I’ll leave once you two get out of here.” 

Eren rolls the window back up and you both can’t help but laugh. 

“Oh my god,” you say, placing your head into his shoulder blade “that was so embarrassing.” 

Eren rubs your back as he laughs with you trying to comfort you. 

“Come on, let’s get going before he comes back.” He says. But, he makes no effort in trying to move you off his lap. 

You climb over to the passenger seat again and throw his shirt to him. You grab your hoodie and put it back on before putting your seatbelt on. 

Eren drives off, when he passes by the officer he rolls down his window to wave at him. 

“You’re such a loser.” You say punching his arm.

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On the ride back, Eren glances over and sees you having trouble keeping your eyes open. Your legs are crossed under you and your sleeves are over your hands providing you warmth. He has to force himself to keep his eyes on the road to avoid crashing. 

He didn’t have any intention of making out with you tonight, he just wanted to make sure you were okay. But, the way you were looking at him was making him go feral, he couldn’t bear to keep his hands off you. The way your eyes trailed down his body made him forget why he even invited you out in the first place. 

Usually he liked to be dominant, he preferred it actually. But, something about you bossing him around made him even more attracted to you. He didn’t expect himself to obey so quickly. The way you pulled back when he wanted to kiss you made him want to melt under you. He felt powerless under you and fuck did it make him grow even harder. 

His dick was still begging to be released from his pants, he adjusted himself in the seat to relieve some of the pain. He wonders how far you would’ve gone if the cop hadn’t shown up and interrupted. 

From what you told him the other night, he understood that Ymir would force you to have sex with her. And from what he saw in the hotel room, he could confirm that. So it made sense why you wanted to be more dominant. In any case, he was not complaining at all. 

Eren had noticed the bandages on your leg and hand. He meant to ask you but his mind was occupied elsewhere. He wondered if Ymir had also physically hurt you but, then again he started to notice you picking at your skin every now and again. 

Eren takes the longest route back to your apartment, he didn’t even realize it until he was driving on the back roads. Although you were half asleep in the passenger seat, your presence was addicting and he wanted to soak up every moment until he had to say bye. 

Eventually he makes it back to your apartment. He parks the car in front of the building and turns to face you. He pushes your hair behind your ear and the sudden touch makes you open your eyes. 

You rub your eyes and look over at the dashboard- 3:56. 

“Oh shit, it’s late.” you say turning to face him. 

“Yeah we kind of got carried away.” 

“No kidding.” you laugh. “Thanks for everything tonight, it definitely made me feel better” you say as you wink at him. Your hand reaches for the doorhandle,“I’ll see you in a couple of hours I guess.” 

“Yep, I’ll see ya.” 

You close the door and he waits until you safely enter the building. Eren drives back to the frat house and heads inside. 

Once he enters his room he plops down onto his back on his bed. He can still feel his boner in his pants and he knows he has to deal with it to go away. He closes his eyes tightly as he pulls down his pants along with his boxers. 

His dick flies up to his stomach with a loup plop sound. 

Eren brings his hand down to his tip and spreads the precum along his shaft. He starts moving his hand up and down slowly to warm himself up. 

His mind wanders to you. He felt bad for thinking about you while masturbating but he couldn’t help himself. Eren closes his eyes and imagines your hand instead of his. 

He thinks about your boobs and how hard your nipples were under your shirt. He imagines his face buried in between them as you grind on his lap. He imagines the noises you would make under him as you lead his hand where you want. 

Eren starts to get more worked up, his hand starts to move faster up and down. He tries to hold back the grunts to avoid anyone hearing. 

He squeezes his hand around his dick and imagines it’s your pussy tightening around him. He knows he would fit so nicely into you and he knows you would feel so good inside. 

As he’s nearing his release he opens his eyes and imagines your face. He sees your big soft eyes staring at him. He sees your smile and how you cover your mouth when you laugh. 

He cums into his hand and doesn’t stop until it all releases from inside him. Eren grunts once he finishes and lets his dick fall soft. He lays there for a couple of seconds before getting up and grabbing another pair of boxers to get in the shower.

It’s 4:35 when he lays into bed. He falls asleep shortly after but is woken by his alarm again before he knows it. 

At 7:30, his alarm rings loudly into his ear. Eren groans as he hurries to turn it off. He sits up in his bed and rubs his eyes, he lightly touches his lower abdomen and winces at the contact. 

Last night, your knee was right next to his fresh tattoo and although he didn’t mind at the moment. The after effects are definitely hitting him. He gets up slowly and goes to the bathroom to get ready for the gym. 

Although the artist recommended not to over-exercise he couldn’t miss out on a workout, especially not after the way you were mesmerized by his physique. Either way he was just gonna do a light workout to get a pump before seeing you in class. 

He meets up with Jean and Reiner before heading out the door to go to the gym. 

“Yo, what time did you come back yesterday?” asks Reiner as he gets in the backseat. 

“Uh I’m not sure, maybe like four.” he responds. 

“Holy shit, the tattoo took that long?” Jean asks. 

“Nah, that finished around one. I went somewhere else after.” 

“Aw damn Eren’s got a new girl on the roster,” Reiner grabs Eren’s shoulders from the back and shakes them lightly. “Is it Rose?”

“Or Sina?” asks Jean. 

“Or Maria?” asks Reiner. 

“Oh my god shut up. It’s none of your business either way.” Eren snaps at them. 

They both laugh then talk about the party this Friday. 

It was a pull day, meaning they focused on back and biceps (perfect to get the exact pump he wanted). Eren didn’t go as hard today as he would’ve on a regular day but, he still tried to get a good workout in. 

After the gym, they all packed into Eren’s car once again and headed back. Eren took a shower before going down to the kitchen to grab a quick breakfast. 

He sees Connie sitting at the table with Jean, they were talking about some girl they hoped would show up at the party for Friday.  

“What’s up,” says Eren as he gets closer. 

“Oh, hey Eren,” says Connie looking up at him. “Let me see the tattoo man.”

Eren lifts up his shirt enough to show Connie the tattoo then slides it back down after a few seconds. 

“Sick dude, I’ve been thinking about getting another one on my arm.” says Connie pointing to his tricep. 

“That’d look cool,” says Eren, turning away to open the fridge. He pulls out a fairlife protein shake and grabs a banana off the counter. He hesitates, deciding whether to stay down here with Jean and Connie or go into his room until he has to leave for class. He opts to stay at the table to hear what they have to say. 

They both look at him puzzled but continue on with what they were talking about beforehand. 

“I hope she comes,” says Jean, shrugging his shoulders. 

“Who’re you talking about?” asks Eren. 

Eren sees Jean tense up and start scratching his head. “Well it’s a..” 

“Mikasa.” Connie blurts out then quickly covers his mouth as if his mouth spoke before his mind could process it. He bursts out laughing and ends up having to stand up from the cramps forming in his stomach. 

Eren’s eyes grew wide when he heard Mikasa’s name. “Huh?” he says, staring at Jean. 

Jean is a nervous wreck in front of Eren. He refuses to look him in the eyes instead he plays with the scrambled eggs on his plate. 

“Man, why didn’t you tell me? I could have set you guys up ages ago.” said Eren, chuckling. Jean finally looks up to Eren, he doesn't sense any anger or sarcasm coming from him. 

“Are you serious?” asks Jean. 

Eren laughs before answering, “Yeah. Why are you so surprised? It isn’t like we dated or anything.” 

“Oh,” he said, scratching his head again “I guess so. I just always thought you were so protective of her so I didn’t know.”

“I mean yeah I’ve known her forever she’s like my family.” 

“See Jeanboy you had nothing to worry about.” says Connie, slapping his back. 

The three of them sit around the table for a little longer until Eren heads upstairs. 

Right before leaving for class, Eren takes a look into the mirror and makes sure he looks good for you. He wore a white shirt with a pair of baggy jeans and his chain under his shirt slightly peeking through. 

When he gets to class, he sees you sitting in the same spot you usually do. You have a cup of coffee next to you, your laptop is already out and you’re writing something in your planner. As he approaches you his heart starts to beat a little faster. 

“Hey,” he says as he sets his backpack down and sits in the seat. 

“Hi Eren,” you say, smiling at him. You look well-rested for someone who only got a few hours of sleep. Or maybe you just always looked good no matter what. 

Class begins at 10:30 and Eren doesn’t pay attention to a single thing the professor is saying. He keeps stealing glances at you as you type your notes into your computer. Your eyebrows were burrowed in every time the professor said something too fast and you missed it.  

Eren’s mind starts to wander to a couple hours ago. How your thighs tightened around his body and the little whimpers that would fall from your mouth. How you ordered him around like a dog but he loved every second being dominated by you. 

He wonders how you looked so put together next to him as his heart kept beating faster every time he looked over at you. His legs start to bounce up and down, he places his forearms on the table and twiddles his thumbs. 

You look over at him, wide-eyed turning your head to the side. You notice the sudden shift in Eren and look at him confusedly. He instead just smiles at you and turns his head back to the front of the classroom. 

After class, you and Eren head to the cafe. You both don’t get anything and find a booth near the further end, since someone took your usual spot. 

“Welp, that class was boring.” Eren says. 

You laugh at him before responding back, “then why’d you take the class?” you ask. 

Because I wanted to be with you. 

“I don’t know,” he responds “I knew it was gonna be an easy A.” 

“You know you can still drop it, the deadline isn’t until later this week.” 

But then I wouldn’t see you. 

“Yeah yeah I know. But I don't have any other classes I would want to take. So I'll just deal with it.” 

Eren sees you roll your eyes and his stupid dirty mind transports you into his bed with your eyes rolled back as he pleasures you from orgasm to orgasm. 

He quickly dismisses the thought from his mind and looks behind you, at the aisle of food. 

At 12:45, Eren taps the table and you look up from your computer. 

“Don’t you have to go to class?” he asks. 

“Oh right, thanks Eren.” 

He watches you as you pack your things up. Once you finish he gets up with you and you both head to your next class. 

After dropping you off, Eren goes to the library. He sees Armin at a table with Annie and decides to join them. 

“Hey guys.” Says Eren 

“Hi Eren,” they both say. 

He sits down across from them and pulls his computer and notebook out. Eren starts on an assignment for his calculus class. The two of them enter a rhythmic study session as Eren plays games on his computer again, discarding the assignment he has in front of him. 

Armin leaves and he’s left with Annie. He never really bothered to get to know her well since she was always closed off. But, being here with her alone made him want to talk to her. 

“So what’re you working on?” asked Eren. 

“Shut up.” 

“You know Annie,” he says leaning forward to rest his hands on the table “you should be nice to me. I might be Armin’s best man one day and you’re gonna have to deal with me forever .” 

Annie finally looks up and gives Eren a deadly stare. At this he giggles to himself, “I’m just saying.” He raises his hands up and shrugs. 

“Has Armin talked to you about marriage?” she asks. Eren can tell she’s freaked out that Eren is talking about them marrying one day but he just wants to get under her skin. 

“Yeah,” he says flatly. 

Armin had actually never told Eren. But he knew it had to have crossed Armin’s mind at least once. 

“I’m leaving.” she says, quickly packing up her things and walking fast outside. 

Eren chuckles to himself and now he finally has the table to himself. 

Sitting at the library, Eren tries to work on his calculus assignment but as he’s looking over it he sees how simple the equations were. He quickly finished it within thirty-five minutes and reached for his phone again. He saw Connie’s story posted last night. It was him smoking on the roof with some girl? next to him. Eren wondered whether it was you but then he quickly remembered you didn’t smell of weed last night. 

 Eren knows Connie likes you, he’s actually known for the longest time. 

At a party, freshman year Connie was crossed, something normal for him. But, that night Connie drank way too much. 

He had a bottle of bacardi in his hand and was looking up at the ceiling. His eyes were bloodshot, from all the weed. 

“Fuck man, can I tell you something.” asked Connie, sitting on the couch in the garage. 

“Seeing her with her girlfriend really fucked me up.” he said slurring. 

Eren looked at him with hesitation, what is he babbling out about now? He didn’t mean to stumble into the same room as Connie, he was trying to find Pieck but he couldn’t seem to find her anywhere. But, seeing how wasted he was, he wanted to hear what he had to say. 

“What’re you talking about?” said Eren leaning against the door frame. 

“She’s just so perfect,” he runs a hand across his face and takes another swig at the bottle. “Her hair, her face, her eyes- fuck man those eyes get me everytime. And that body, god that body of hers,” he says. Eren can see the flicker in his eyes as he talks about you. 

“Too bad she’s got that girlfriend of hers.” Eren says, trying to bring him back into reality. 

“Fuck dude, I would kill to have her in my arms right now.” Connie stumbles up from the couch and slowly walks to Eren. “Do you think I have a chance with her, Eren?” 

“Con, she’s in a relationship.” 

“Dude I know.” Connie sighs loudly. “But, I mean they’re not locked in locked in, right?”

“Yeah sure.” Eren laughs and leaves before Connie’s breath invades his nose again. 

He sees Connie back on the couch taking another sip of the bottle. He shakes his head and goes back inside. As he’s looking around for Pieck, his eyes land on you. 

You were with Ymir, her arm was around your waist and your arm draped across her shoulders. You were wearing a little black dress which complimented every curve of your body with thigh high boots. 

He understood why Connie was crashing out over you this specific night. His eyes lingered on you too long. Eren saw how Ymir’s hand reached down to your butt and how you reacted. You jumped at the contact and gave her a lopsided smile, she laughed it off and grabbed your butt tighter. 

Right when he was going to walk over to you, Eren heard a noise in the closet next to him. It sounded familiar, the moan was one he’s heard before. He’s fucked that moan out of someone. 

Eren opens the door swiftly, his grip on the doorknob nearly popping the knob off once he saw the sight in front of him. He couldn’t believe his eyes, Porco’s fingers were in Pieck. He had her perched up on the counter as his lips devoured hers. 

He felt his eyes twitch as he saw his girlfriend getting finger-fucked by one of his friends.

“What. The. Fuck.” scoffs Eren, he can’t help but chuckle under his breath while shaking his head. “You’re done, Galliard.” 

Eren charges into Porco and grabs him by the collar. Pieck screeches as she sees Eren drag Porco out of the closet. 

“Man, get off me.” yells Porco. 

Eren throws him into the wall. He doesn’t care who’s around, all Eren could see was red. As Porco lays on the floor, Eren hands start to turn into fists. His hand twitches as he sees Porco slowly getting up. 

Pieck comes up behind Eren and tries to stop him from hurting Porco. 

“No Eren, stop it, please don’t hurt him.” 

“Oh fuck off,” says Eren shaking her off his back.  

Once Porco gets off the floor, Eren’s fist meets his face. He stumbles into the wall again. 

Porco’s lip is busted now, and his nose is starting to bleed. He touches his lips and laughs. Before he can make a move on Eren, Jean comes and grabs Porco pushing him into the wall. 

“Hey, stop it.” yells Jean to both of them. 

“Jean get the fuck away. I’m not done with him.” Eren says walking closer to them. 

“Don’t get mad at me Yeager, your girl was the one chasing after me.” Porco says, trying to get out of Jean’s arms. 

Eren feels a hand on his chest and when he looks down, he’s met with a blond. 

Armin. 

“Eren. Don’t. Just let it go.” 

“Armin, get the fuck away from me.” he says moving Armin out the way with his hand. 

Eren sees the faintest hint of cherry red lips from the corner of his eye as he pushes Armin. He turns his head and sees you standing there, you look terrified. Your mouth falls open as your eyes are blown open with fear. 

He looks around him, Pieck is on the floor crying, Porco is still being restrained by Jean, Armin is next to him trying to hold his arm back, and you’re standing there wide-eyed looking at him like he’s the scariest person in the house. 

Eren turns around to find the front door. His chest feels tight, he closes his eyes shut as he’s met with the cool air outside. He runs down the stairs and walks fast towards a piece of grass away from the house. 

His hands are shaking from the adrenaline coursing through his veins. He sees blurs of people as he passes them, some saying his name but his ears are ringing. 

He’s on his knees now, hyperventilating. His hand finds the grass and grabs a fistful of it. Eren tries to calm himself down but he can’t seem to find a rhythm in his breath. He clenches his eyes and exhales slowly. 

Eren lays down on his back and looks up to the blank sky. It was a rather cloudy day, no stars in sight. The moon shone scarcely through the thick clouds. Eren closes his eyes again, trying to calm himself down. 

He feels a figure looming above him, “You okay Eren?” he recognizes your voice before opening his eyes and seeing you. You lay down next to him, your shoulders brush slightly as you adjust yourself. 

"Shouldn't you be inside?” he asks. 

“Nah, it started to get stinky in there.” you say. “So, you okay?” 

He laughs a little before responding, “Yeah might as well be.” he exhales. “Aren’t you scared of me?” he asks, looking at you. 

“No, I know you’re a big baby.” you say facing him. 

He laughs under his breath. “I am not.” 

“Yeah okay.” you say sarcastically. “Also, it was really fucked up what they did. I’m sorry.” 

“Yeah but I don’t care. Now he can deal with her whiny ass” Eren says sitting up with you. 

You turn to face him and roll your eyes, “you’re such a loser.” 

Both of you sit there in silence before he hears Ymir’s voice calling out to you. 

“Babe we’re leaving.” she says, leaving no room for refusal. 

“Okay.” you say getting up. You turn to him to give him an apologetic smile, “Bye Eren. Hope you feel better.” 

“Thanks, take care.” 

He sees both of you leaving, you reach for Ymir’s hand in her pocket and rest your head on her shoulder. 

Eren doesn’t know how long he stayed there. He just remembers Armin coming out and dragging him inside since he said it was “too cold” outside. 

When Eren entered the house, the party had already finished. He saw the abandoned bottles and cups scattered on the floor. The air smelled like cheap cologne and alcohol. He saw Porco at the far end of the living room with an ice pack on his face.  He saw Connie passed out on the couch with Jean next to him. 

It took everything in him to not walk over to Porco and continue the fight from earlier but he didn’t have the energy to deal with him. Once Eren got to his room he saw messages from Pieck. 

pls talk to me

eren where are u 

i’m so sorry, i didnt want u to find out like this 

baby talk to me 

“Tch that bitch.” He threw his phone on his bed and sat at the edge of his bed with his head in his hands. 

His mind replayed the sight he saw, Porco and Pieck. Pieck and Porco. He wasn’t necessarily mad that the relationship was ending with Pieck more so, the fact that she cheated on him. He cared for Pieck and liked spending time with her but he didn’t actually love her exactly. 

And seeing her tonight with Porco made more sense to him than himself with her. But, the singular act of cheating got his heart rate up and made him hate both of them. Now, everyone at the party - even those not at the party, would know he got cheated on with Porco of all people. 

He laid back onto his bed and heard a buzz from his phone yet again. Expecting to see another text from Pieck, it was a text from you instead. He opens the text and sees a picture of Pieck on the floor crying. You must’ve taken it before coming out to see him. 

You: maybe this will help ;)

Eren: definitely did 😂 

A moment later, he hears a knock on his door. 

“What.” he yells towards the door not wanting to get up. 

“Eren, open the door,” said Armin. 

He groaned before getting up to let him in. 

“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked, standing over Eren who was back laying on the bed. 

“No.” 

“Fine. Can you tell me when you’re ready to talk about it though?” 

“Yeah whatever.” Eren says sitting up as he sees Armin walking out. 

Part of him wanted Armin to turn back around and stay with him but the other part of him wanted to be alone. Now that he was alone again he reached for his phone to answer Pieck. 

just fuck off 

eren baby no i want you 

go fuck porco’s dick 

He leaves it at that, not answering anymore of Pieck’s pleas to take her back.

Chapter Text

Friday rolls around and you’re swamped with assignments. Your friends had begged you to go out the last couple of days but you had so much work to catch up on you couldn’t risk it. You let yourself sleep in since the last couple of nights you had stayed up way too late and woken up way too early to go to your classes. 

At 10:15 am you roll out of bed and get started on your day. You decided to study in your room today since you were getting bored of the library after being cooped up there the whole week. 

To be able to go out today you were determined to finish off at least three assignments. You get started on the assignments at noon and work until late in the afternoon. 

Hitch: pls tell me ur going out tonight

Sasha: YES PLEASE COME OUT 

yes dw guys i will be outside tonight 

Sasha: yayy, your place tonight? 

yess i’ll host 

At 5pm you finally manage to complete your work and even get a little more done so you’re ready for next week. You lay down on your bed after being slouched over your desk all day. You pull out your phone and scroll on TikTok. 

You had trauma from last time going to the corner store to get drinks for everyone so today, you told everyone to get their own drinks and you were just going to smoke weed before heading to the party and drink there. 

Around 8pm you finally get out of bed and start to pick your outfit out before your friends come over, you expected at least one of them to want to borrow something. 

As you’re looking around in your closet you find a mini black dress. You pull it off the hanger and hold it up to your body. You hadn’t worn this dress in a long time and you had gained weight since you first wore it, you didn’t know if it would still look good on. So, you decided to try it on to see. Once the dress is on you see how much better you look in it now than before. You twirl around in the dress and you feel pretty. The first time you’ve felt pretty in a long time. 

You take the dress off and place it on your desk before taking a shower and waiting for your friends. 

Right at 9:00 pm you hear banging on your door. 

“I’m coming. I’m coming.” you yell through the door. 

You see Hitch, Sasha, Mikasa, and Annie bunched up by the door. They yell your name before coming in and pulling you into an embrace. 

“You’ve been so MIA I thought you died.” said Annie walking past you. 

“I’ve just been so busy with studying.” you say heading to the kitchen. Before your friends came you had ordered pizza and it arrived right before they came. You pull out a couple of plates and place them on the table. Everyone gathers around and starts to dig in, they also start to pop open their drinks. 

“Busy with studying or busy with Eren?” Annie asks from across the table. 

You nearly spit your pizza at her as you hear those words come out of her mouth. 

Holy fuck did Eren say something to Armin? Of course he couldn’t keep his mouth shut. 

You clear your throat before responding back, Hitch, Sasha, and Mikasa are deadly staring at you waiting for a response. 

“Uh how’d you know about that?” you ask as Hitch comes beside you grabbing your face. 

“GIRL WHAT!” she practically yells in your face. 

“Hitchh,” you groan out. 

“Yeah, Armin told me something about you two getting caught by the cops.” she says, shrugging her shoulders. 

“Oh. my. Gosh.” Sasha yells your name, now she comes up to you and grabs at your shoulders. “Is that why you’ve been ignoring us the whole week?” 

You glare at Annie and she just giggles to herself and Mikasa watches everything go down with a smirk on her face. 

“Okay okay I’ll tell you. Just get off me guyss.” you whine. 

Everyone sits around the table, and listens so intensely to your story you don’t think they’ve ever paid this much attention to anything. 

Hitch is the first to speak. “Holy shit babe, that’s insane. You really have him wrapped around your finger.” 

“Oh whatever.” you say, not believing her. “But yeah that was it.” 

“That is totally not whatever.” says Sasha “Hitch is right.” 

You glance over at Mikasa, given she's the one closest to Eren, and you see her giggle into her hand. 

“I think Eren does like you.” she says. 

“Well I don’t think so. Eren barely knows me.” you say. “Maybe he’s just trying to love bomb me like he does to all the other girls.” 

Everyone gives each other looks as you bite into your pizza oblivious to the whole situation. 

Once you’re done eating you and Mikasa head to your room and start to get ready, you play some background music as you both slip into a calming groove. Annie joins after a few minutes and sits beside you to start her own makeup. 

You can hear Hitch and Sasha being reckless in your bathroom as they fight over makeup and hair. 

You finish up your makeup and look in the mirror feeling good for the night. The weed has already kicked in and you can see your eyes turning red as the moments pass by. 

To change things up, you lined your bottom waterline with eyeliner to make your eyes pop. 

“Woah your makeup looks so good,” Hitch says coming into the room. 

“Thanks,” you playfully stick your tongue out at her. “Your eyeshadow looks good. So cunty.”

“See I told you Sasha.” she yells hoping she can hear through the music. 

You laugh as you pull your dress from the desk, you slip into the bathroom as Sasha walks out rocking a denim vest with a black mini skirt and cowboy boots. 

“Let me ride you later.” you say winking at her. 

“Yes ma’am.” she says mimicking a horse.  

You both laugh before locking the door behind you. Before walking in you grabbed some concealer from your bag to cover the hickey Ymir had given you last week. It had started to fade but you still needed the extra coverage. 

Once you cover it up you slip on your matching set, a leopard print bra with the panties. You drag the black dress over your head and rustle it a bit to get it hiked up right where you want the fabric to sit. The material of the dress was silky but it was tighter around your hips which allowed you to play with how you wanted it to rest on your body. 

As you walk out the bathroom and go into your room you see everyone’s head turn towards you. Mikasa sees you through the mirror and her jaw visibly drops. 

“Holy fuck,” says Sasha yelling your name, “you look so hot I’m gonna faint.” 

“Yeah that dress is doing wonders to you.” says Annie. 

You can’t help but smile ear to ear as you hear your friends fill the room with compliments. 

Before leaving you all take pictures and you apply your cherry lipgloss before heading out the door.  

When you arrive at the party, it's already packed. There are people crowding the stairs and spewing on the sides. Maybe everyone else also had a stressful week and they wanted to wind down too?

At the door you see Reiner and his friend Bertolt- who you’ve only met a couple of times. They look stressed the fuck out trying to prevent too many people from entering. Hitch slithers through the crowd with the three of you right behind. You’re holding Sasha and Annie’s hand as you try to stick together as everyone pushes. 

Reiner sees Mikasa first, as she’s the tallest in the group. He quickly pulls you all in before opening the door and letting you all inside. 

“Thank you Reiner,” you say as you pass by, giving him a quick hug. 

He shoos you off to deal with the rest of the crowd trying to sneak in. Once you’re in, you're hit with the warm stale air mixed with the lingering smell of cologne, perfume, weed, and alcohol. 

As you’re walking to the kitchen you spot Eren talking with Floch at the further end of the hallway. You pull Sasha with you and walk up to him. Eren sees you and immediately stands up straight, taking his hand away from his pocket. 

He was wearing a plain black tee with his chain tucked into his shirt, you could only see a sliver of it though. As he adjusted himself, you could see the subtle flex in his muscles and it was making you feral. 

“Who are you looking so pretty for?” he growls into your ear as your hands find his neck to pull him into a hug. 

“No one.” you say loosening your grip on him. Floch eyes you and licks his lips as his eyes wander your body. Eren steps in front of him to prevent him from staring even longer. You can faintly hear Floch tsk as his view is of Eren’s back now, but you’re sure he’s enjoying that view too. 

“Are you high?”

“Yep, me and Sash are gonna go get a drink from the kitchen.” 

“You think it’s a good idea to get crossed?” he asks with concern in his voice and his hands still on your waist. 

“Yeah silly I do it all the time.” you say moving him out the way by placing your hand on his chest. 

You grab Sasha’s hand yet again and drag her into the kitchen. You can feel Eren’s gaze on you as you walk away. 

In the kitchen, there are no familiar faces so you scoot past everyone trying to find the good alcohol. You start opening up cabinets and a girl next to you gives you the dirtiest look ever. 

“You know,” she says, flipping her hair back while looking you up and down, “you’re not supposed to open those.” 

You turn your head to face her and smile, trying to be nice. “Oh it’s okay. We know the guys.” you say pointing between you and Sasha. Sasha nods her head up and down as she’s smiling. 

The girl next to you rolls her eyes and mutters, “pick me sluts” as she's turning away to her friends. 

Ok now you’re just mad. 

“What did you just call me?” you say in a low voice. 

“Oh, you heard me.” she says, turning back around slowly. She looks you up and down again and laughs. 

First of all, you knew for a fact you looked much better than she did. You hated calling girls ugly because you saw the beauty in everyone but, the second a girl is mean to you for no apparent reason they automatically become ugly to you in every way. 

“Don’t be a bitch.” you say scoffing. 

“Hey it's okay, don’t get mad.” Sasha pleads, saying your name, hoping you let it go.

You completely ignore Sasha who’s tugging at your arm. 

“I’m not the one dressed like a slut.” she says, covering her mouth with her hand. “I guess you’re just trying real hard to get fucked by ‘one of the guys’.” 

“It’s a fucking party idiot.” you say, up in her face now. “And I’m not the one desperately trying to get in their pants with her innocent girl act while arching off the counter.” 

At this point you don’t even notice Sasha is gone from your side. You’re too bothered by the bitch in front of you to have your mind on anything else. 

“Oh honey,” she says “I’ve already fucked plenty of them.” 

“Nice to know you’re the one being passed around like a whore.” you say. “Do you want a fucking cookie?”

Before she can say a bullshit response you hear Connie from behind you. 

“Yeah that’s my girl,” he says, clapping his hands as he wraps his hand around your waist. 

The girl in front of you is utterly shocked, her mouth falls open as she stares at you two. 

“Better close your mouth honey , before another guy comes and makes you get on your knees.” you say before Connie pulls you away and walks you outside. 

“What a fucking bitch,” you say still wrapped around Connie, you turn to look up at him “she called me a slut then was looking me up and down like I was fucking stupid.” 

“Maybe she was just jealous of how fucking hot you look.” he says lightly grabbing your chin. Your heart skips a beat as he’s staring down at you with his eyes darting from your lips up to your eyes. “I could slut you out.” 

You can tell Connie is stupid drunk on whatever he consumed before you guys got there. You can see it in the way his words are slightly slurred and the droop in the eye lids. Or maybe he was just drunk on your presence?

“Connieee, stop, that really isn’t helping.” you whine but feel your insides turning as he looks at you with his ravenous hazel eyes. His hand is still wrapped around your waist holding you as you squirm against him. 

You completely forget the encounter with the girl from a couple of seconds ago, your mind has been taken over by Connie.  

“I’m joking.” he says laughing. “So, how come you were so distant this week. I missed you.” 

“Sure you did.” you scoff. 

“Mamas I did. I promise.” he says with a hand over his heart. 

You can feel your heart beating faster as a familiar feeling is stirring up down in your panties. 

“What did you miss about me?” your fingers find the loophole of his cargo pants and pull him slightly closer to you. He chuckles under his breath and grips your hips tighter. 

“Hmm let’s see.” he taps a finger on his chin. “I missed your snarky comments” 

“Uh huh.” 

“And I missed those bright eyes of yours.” 

“Ahh. So you’re obsessed with me is what I'm hearing.” you tease him. 

“Yeah, what's so wrong with that ma?” 

He lets go of your chin and releases his hand from your waist. The loss of his touch makes you twitch as you follow him into the garage. 

As you sit down on the couch, you can feel yourself calming down. 

“Aw shit I never got my drink.” you say, about to get up again. 

“Let me go get it for you, don’t want you causing a fight” Connie says getting up “what do you want?”

“Whatever is strongest.” you say. He laughs before going back inside. Sasha sits in front of you with Jean. You see him looking around the backyard trying to find something.

“What’re you looking for?” 

Jean clears his throat and plays with his hair before responding, “oh nothing, just making sure everything is fine.” 

“Rightt.” you say eyeing him. Connie comes back with your drink and hands it to you. He sits beside you and rests his arm on the top of the couch. As you take a sip of your drink, you wince at how strong he actually made it for you. Connie sees your face and you can feel his laugh as your back is facing his chest. 

“You told me to make it strong,” he says. 

“I know, I meant it.” you say taking another sip of the drink but making a face yet again. 

“Here let me remake it for you.” he says, grabbing the cup from your hand. You let him leave as you continue your conversation with Jean and Sasha. When Connie comes back he hands you your cup back and it tastes way better than before. 

“Thanks Con.” you say as he sits right back where he was before. His hand rests on your shoulders now. 

“Alright guys, we’re gonna play hearts.” says Sasha 

You all groan since Sasha is the only one who ever wants to play that game.

“Come on Sasha, why don’t we play Uno or something.” says Jean. 

“Nuh uh, Connie is way too competitive for that. He nearly knocked my tooth out last time.” you say, shaking your head. 

“I’m sorry.” he whines “I don't even know how I managed to do that.” he says rubbing your shoulder. 

“See, so we play hearts.” 

She grabs the deck of cards and starts shuffling them. You take a big gulp of your drink before setting it down on the table. Your fingers start to feel tingly with all the weed and alcohol flowing through your veins. You can feel Connie’s eyes piercing down at you. From the angle you’re sitting you are sure he can see down your dress just enough to see your boobs peeping from above your dress. 

You press your arms together to clasp your hands, making sure to pump your chest out. Connie’s breath hitches as he sees the leopard print of your bra. 

Out of the corner of your eye you see Eren walking past the garage, his eyes grow wide as he sees your chest flaunted out. He stops in his tracks as your cheeks grow red from seeing him. 

Eren steps into the garage and you feel your breath shudder as he gets closer. He steps around the table and takes the open seat next to you. You feel Connie adjust himself as his hand dips down to your hips. 

“What’re we playing?” he directs the question straight at you. 

“Hearts, Sasha wanted to play.” you respond. 

“Psh I hate that game.” he says, opening up his legs. 

“The game isn’t for you Yeager.” says Jean from behind. 

Your gaze briefly finds his crotch as you quickly lift your eyes up to his, giving him a smile. 

Sasha starts dealing out the cards and is simultaneously reminding everyone of the rules. As you’re all passing your discarded cards around you can still feel Connie’s gaze on you. 

When you all finally start the game, Jean takes the lead placing down the first card. As the game continues the heat between your legs grows stronger with every passing second. From Connie’s hand still on your waist and flashbacks of Eren in the car you can barely focus on the game. 

The hormones in your body are fighting for pleasure as you’re at peak ovulation. Your mind starts to wander on the different ways each one of the boys next to you can make you feel so fucking good. 

Almost as if reading your mind, Connie taps your hip. 

“You wanna go inside?” 

“Yes sir.” You say getting up too quickly. His eyes wander your body as you stand up next to him. “Hey where you going?” yelps Sasha. 

“Inside, bye Sash.” says Connie. 

You leave Eren at the couch seemingly forgetting he was there due to Connie’s intense gaze. He lets you walk in front and places a hand on your lower back as you both enter the house. 

The music is blaring through the house causing you to lean up to Connie’s ear in order to talk to him. 

“Can I use your bathroom?”  

He nods and leads you up the stairs until you stand in front of his door. He lets you in and you run to the bathroom. After peeing, you look at yourself in the mirror and see how aroused you look. 

No wonder Connie and Eren were giving you sexy looks all night. You knew weed made you aroused but you never realized how bad it was until now. 

You grab a paper towel and gently dab your face with cold water trying to cool off. 

When you exit the bathroom you see Connie sitting on his bed on his phone.

His face was lit up by the moon light and made your heart flutter, he looked so handsome. You loved seeing the little pout on his face when he looked focused on something, it always made him look so soft and vulnerable. 

 He looks up once he hears you walking towards him and throws his phone to the side. 

“Wow,” he says your name, “you look so fucking good.” 

You stop right in front, nudging his knees open so you can stand in between his thighs. 

“Yeah? You think so?” 

“Fuck yes.” 

You can tell Connie flustered, his hands are somewhat clammy as he tries to find a place to put them. So, you help him with that. 

You grab Connie’s hand and guide them to your waist. At first he’s scared, he’s almost too afraid to touch you but, the look you’re giving him gives him all the strength to hold your waist tighter. 

Connie stands up and towers over you. He pulls you in by the waist and looks at you with his pupils blown out. His gaze on you makes your heart shudder as his hands roam around your hips and ass. Connie hooks his arms under your thighs and lifts you up eliciting a whimper from your lips. His hands squeeze your thighs as your legs wrap around his body. Your arms find his neck desperately waiting for him to kiss you. 

“Can I kiss you?” he asks as if you aren’t so turned on by him right now it physically hurts. 

“Kiss me,” you whisper, pulling his head towards you. 

You had desperately wanted him to kiss you ever since that night back at your apartment. Everytime after that, you found yourself staring at his lips a little too long, longing for them to find yours once again.

And maybe tonight will finally be that night. 

Connie’s lips crash into yours. You feel his tongue devour your mouth, the feeling of his tongue ring making you moan into his mouth. His hands are kneading your ass and pulling you impossibly closer to him. 

Your pussy clashes into his jeans and you can feel his dick lightly grazing you. 

Your mind is going a hundred miles per hour as you feel Connie’s mouth travel down your throat. 

“God I’ve been wanting to kiss you forever.” He says breathless. 

Not letting you answer he kisses your lips again but he's gentler this time. Taking his time to feel and taste every inch of your mouth. 

Your hand finds the back of his head while the other rests on his chest trying to hold him tight against you. Connie’s hand tangles up in your hair pulling it slightly which rips a nasty moan from your mouth. 

“Oh you like that ma?” He says smirking at you. 

“Shut up, loser.” You say slapping the back of his head lightly. 

A growl escapes his mouth as he trails kisses down your neck, softly biting on that weak spot. He pushes off the wall and brings you to the bed. 

He lays you down and places both hands near your head. Your legs are still hooked around him as he looks down admiring the sight in front of him.  

“You’re so beautiful like this.” He says dragging one hand down to touch your hips again. Your dress has fallen down a bit, exposing your upper thigh. The cold air hits your wet spot making it much more apparent how wet Connie has made you. He peppers kisses across your chest and neck making sure not to miss a single spot. 

You roll your hips against him wanting more contact. 

“Mm you want me to touch you baby?” His eyes trail down your body as he licks his lips. 

Your mind is too jumbled to form any words. You’re only able to nod your head as you reach for his head again wanting to pull him in. 

He chuckles as he comes closer to your lips. “You’re gonna have to tell me beautiful. I can’t read minds.” 

You turn into a whiny mess under him as he stays firm above you. 

“Touch me Connie.” You say, embarrassingly out of breath. 

He groans into your mouth as he drags his tongue into yours again. You can feel the ball of his tongue ring hitting every part of your mouth as he devours you. Connie brings his knee up to your legs wanting to spread you open. You open your legs just enough to allow his knee to intrude into your clothed cunt. 

The wet spot between your legs grows as Connie’s knee gets closer and closer. The second he grazes your pussy, you feel every nerve in your body explode from within. You moan out, throwing your head back. He meticulously applies the perfect amount of pressure to make you a whiny mess under him

“God baby you’re so hot like this.” he says before kissing your lips again. 

You’re sure you can cum just from him touching you like this. But he holds back, teasing you just enough to make you want him that much more. 

His mouth leaves yours as his lips go down your throat again. His tongue rolls around your skin making you squirm under him. With his free hand he starts to graze your boobs and he feels how hard your nipples are through your lace bra. 

“Is that okay?” He asks, making sure you’re still with him. 

“Mhm, fuck Con that feels so good.” 

The validation makes him smile as he continues to knead your boob. 

“And I’ll make you feel so much better.” He says rubbing your nipples harder. 

You moan out as his tongue reaches your boob. Since the fabric of your dress is so light, it’s practically lingerie, you feel the ball of his piercing roll over your nipple. 

Connie giggles to himself as he watches how you unravel underneath him. His hand on your waist reaches further down until he feels your exposed thigh. He runs his hand up your inner thigh and hears how your breath hitches. 

You give him a nod of approval as his hand moves closer to your panties. He takes the string of your thong and lifts it then quickly releases it making a slap sound. 

He slithers his hand under your ass and gives it a quick squeeze before returning to inch up your stomach. Once his hand finally finds your boob you feel your back arch off the bed as his hand reaches behind your back and unhooks your bra. He slowly peels it off, throwing it behind him. 

You whimper as you feel the cool touch of his rings encase around your boobs. Connie rubs your nubs back and forth making you moan out embarrassingly loud. 

“Fuck baby.” Connie says looking up from your boob. “You’re making me crazy.” 

You can’t form a sentence from the various ways he’s touching you. Instead you pull him in closer making him touch your needy self. As his fingers flicks your boob you feel like your body is overheating with the amount of pleasure Connie is providing you. 

“I want to taste you baby, can I?” He asks, coming back up to your face to kiss you. His eyes look ravenous as he stares at you with his hazel eyes darting from your eyes to your lips. 

His lips were swollen from your lips biting his and fuck did he look so handome. Connie looked so flushed, how could you say no to him? 

You nod your head, hoping he doesn’t ask for words but he proves you wrong. 

“Use your words baby.” 

“Yes Connie.” 

“Good girl.” He says pulling off of you and falling to his knees right in front of you like a starved dog. His tongue slightly sticks out, licking his lips eager to finally taste you. You lift your hips up allowing him to take your panties off. 

As his hands trail up your legs, your breath becomes faster as he inches towards your cunt. You can feel how ridiculously wet you are through your underwear, you’re sure he can see the wet spot from where he's kneeling. 

Connie hooks his finger over the wet spot of your thong, your hips jerk up and his knuckle grazes the folds of your wet pussy. 

“You’re so wet baby.” he says kissing right about your knee “am I making you feel good?” he asks, running his knuckle up and down your folds.

You can only manage to nod at him as he looks up at you. It’s so embarrassing how foggy your mind is with just the teasing of his fucking knuckle. 

 Connie pulls your underwear down so aggressively slow it drives you crazy. He on the other hand is enjoying every little noise your pretty mouth drags out. 

He wraps your thong around his fist as he pulls your legs closer to the edge of the bed. He pulls your dress slightly up to prevent it from getting wet or messy. 

Connie smiles devilishly as he grabs sight of your pussy in front of him. He looks up into your eyes as he inches down to kiss your inner thigh. 

“I wish you could see how pretty you look from down here.” He looks back down, “god I could stay here all night.” 

“Conniee,” you whine out wanting his tongue to devour you. 

“Hold up baby. Let me admire my meal.” 

Connie’s head dips down again and kisses your other thigh. You roll your hips up hoping he stops teasing you. Instead he places his hands on your thighs, keeping them in place. The strong hold of his hands make you nervous at first but the second you see his face disappear from under you your head falls back allowing him to take over.  

At last, you feel his tongue licking a long stripe between your folds. You hear him moan below as he tastes your juices. The feeling of his piercing makes you shake, the metal of it providing you some much needed coolness to your rather hot body. 

“You taste so fucking good.” He says before licking another stripe. 

Connie’s tongue moves faster as he can feel you growing impatient under him. Your hands fly to his hair trying to bury his face into your pussy. 

The vibrations of his laugh course through your body making your back arch off the bed yet again. Connie brings his tongue up to your clit and rolls lazy circles around it. 

“Connie, fuckk.” You moan out hoping no one is near.  

Almost sensing your worry he tells you, “make all the noise you want baby. I want to hear you scream.” 

You push his head back down and this time he wastes no time in teasing you anymore. 

His tongue bullies your clit as his tongue ring adds another layer of pleasure. You feel Connie shift and before you know if you feel his finger dragging across your folds. He brings his middle finger up to your opening and easily slides it up. 

The feeling of his tongue and finger feel like you’re ascending into heaven. The way his tongue works wonders around your clit makes your body levitate with every stroke of his finger going deeper into you. Your eyes roll back and tears start forming in your eyes as you buck your hips up needing him buried into you. 

Your brain is so fucked out the only thought on your mind is Connie. 

“Mm” you mumble, having trouble keeping your eyes open. 

You can feel Connie’s chuckles as he works his mouth and fingers in that perfect rhythm. For a second you look down at Connie and you see him looking wide eyed as his face is coated in your wetness. The sight in front of you makes you moan out with how fucking hot he looks eating you out. 

“Ahh Connie.” You scream out pushing his head further down not caring about whether he can breathe or not. His nose pushes down into your clit as his tongue laps at your lips. 

Right when you’re about to cum Connie removes his face from in between your thighs. His finger remains in you as he places his hand on the bed to lift himself up. 

You groan out as you feel the loss of his face pleasuring you. Before you have a chance to speak he grabs the back of your neck and grabs your lips. His teeth sink into your bottom lip as your mouth falls open for him. 

You moan into his mouth as you taste yourself on his lips. He pulls at your hair, tangling it between his fingers. 

Your hips roll into his hand needing to release the pit growing in your stomach. 

“I want you to ride my face when you cum.” He says backing away just slightly to speak. 

“Okay.” You say as he grabs your waist and lifts you off the bed. 

You giggle as he flips you on top of him. You're on his crotch for a second and feel his boner through his pants. You place your hand on it before he drags you up to his face. 

His breath hitches as you release your grip from his dick. 

“You’re a nasty girl.” he says growling your name. “Come here and make a mess on me.” he says right as your pussy is hovering over his face. He lowers you onto him blowing into your cunt right before you feel his tongue again. Your thighs clamp around his head as his tongue finds your clit and starts making you whimper his name breathlessly. 

You throw your head back and reach your hands back onto his chest as his finger slides up your folds again. You rock your hips back and forth on his face desperately trying to chase your release.  

“Connie Connie.” You moan as you feel the warmth coiling in your stomach. 

Connie knows you’re so close, he can feel the way your thighs clamp around his face and the noises you're making from above him. He slides another finger into your pussy and he feels how you shake and bring yourself forward riding his face even harder. 

“Give it to me princess.” He says softly, almost whining out, needing you to cum as desperately as you want to. 

Connie can feel himself leaking with precum as he eats you up. The strain in his pants is unbearable but he wants to make this moment all about you. So, he ignores the loud pain coming from below and allows himself to sink into you completely, giving you everything to make you cum on his face. 

The praise Connie gives you is the last push you needed. You feel yourself completely crumble as his tongue circles around your clit in that perfect rhythm. Connie moans out once he tastes your cum spewing from your pussy. He continues to rock your hips back and forth letting you ride out your orgasm on his face as his pace on your clit slows down. 

Connie presses one last kiss on the bundle of sensitive nerves as you fall forward onto the bed. He comes up behind you and rolls you onto your back. 

Connie presses soft kisses across your chest and neck and presses one firm final kiss on your lips. You use every last bit of energy to sink into his lips as he wraps one hand underneath on your lower back pressing you into him. 

“You’re such a good girl.” he whispers before falling limp next to you. 

“Do you want me to jerk you?” you ask, facing him. He can tell you’re tired as you’re struggling to keep your eyes open. 

“Nope. I just wanted to pleasure you.” he says, planting a kiss on your forehead. You close your eyes and find his chest to lay your head on. He smiles as he gently moves your sweaty hair out of your face. 

“Wait let me clean you up.” he says before letting you fall asleep. You feel him release your body, you shiver from the loss of his touch all over your body. 

Connie disappears into the bathroom and you sit up, wiping the sweat from your face and hair. He comes back with a damp towel and gently opens your legs up to clean you up. 

“Lay down baby, I got you.” 

You obey letting your back hit the bed as you feel the towel cleaning up the mess you made. You’re sure your dress is stained with your cum. Before you’re able to ask for a hoodie you see Connie opening up his drawer and pulling out a purple hoodie. He comes up next to you and brings it up to your head. 

“I kind of want to take my dress off.” you say feeling the sweat trailing down your back. Without waiting for his response you grab the hem of your dress and lift the dress up. You can see Connie get flustered and look away as if he wasn’t just up in your pussy a couple minutes ago. 

You grab his chin to make him look at you as you pull the dress up over your head. Connie’s eyes fall down to your boobs as they fall down. 

You can hear his breath shudder letting him see the true nature of your body. 

Connie looks at you as if you’re the most beautiful thing on this planet. His eyes are full of admiration as you sit in front of him naked. 

For the first time in your life, you don’t feel disgusted by someone seeing your full body. Because how could you? Connie’s eyes speak thousands as you see the sparkle in his eyes gleam when he looks at you. 

“You’re the most beautiful girl ever.” he says looking up at your eyes. You grab his face and kiss him. There is nothing rushed about the kiss, you both allow yourselves to fall into each other.

You back out of the kiss first and shiver as the cool air from the window reaches your naked body. Connie laughs as he finally pulls the hoodie over your head. You lay down on his bed and get under his covers,  you realize the party is still going on downstairs but not one bone in your body wants to go down. 

“I’m guessing you're out for the night?” asks Connie, still sitting. 

“Yea. I’m really fucking tired.” you say. 

“Sorry baby I didn’t mean to knock the wind out of you.” 

“Shut up, I think it was the weed.” you say as Connie takes his shirt off and changes into shorts. 

“Right cause the weed always does that to you huh?”

“Mhm.” you mutter.

 Connie finally lifts the blanket up and slides in next to you wrapping his arms around you. You love how your banter with Connie stays the same as you lay half-naked in his bed with only his hoodie covering yourself. 

As you lay your head on his chest your mind reels back to how good Connie felt when he was going down on you. The thought makes your spine jolt up. 

“Hey Con,” you say looking up at his face. You can still see the admiration dancing in his eyes. 

“Yeah?” he asks, smirking at you. 

“We’re good right?” 

He laughs before kissing your forehead “always.” 

- 

You wake up the next morning wrapped up in Connie’s arms. Your head was laying on his shoulder as his hand was holding your hips. Your legs were entangled with his, a lot of your body weight rested on his leg closest to yours. You adjust yourself slightly to move your weight off him but his hand grips your waist holding you in place before you get the chance to remove yourself. 

“Mm where you going?” his morning voice turning up your insides. 

“Sorry I just didn’t want to crush your leg.” 

“Funny, I don’t think you could crush me sweetheart.” he says, finally opening up his eyes and smirking down at you. 

Connie pulls you closer to his chest and rests his head on yours. 

“Did you sleep good?” he asks 

“Yeah I did. But it was so cold in here.” you say bunching up the blanket to pull it up. 

“I know I did it so you would be next to me all night.” 

“Oh whatever.” you say rolling your eyes, though he can’t see. 

You both lay there for another thirty minutes trying to doze off into a hazy sleep. Though you can’t seem to fall asleep again. 

Eventually you get up and reach for your phone, except its not on the bed or his nightstand. 

“Where’s my phone?” you ask looking around his room, you see your discarded bra and dress off to the side reminding you of last night. 

You find your purse on the further end of his room, near his closet. As you’re getting up, you quickly remember the only thing you have on is his sweatshirt. You carefully place your hands under your butt to prevent flashing him. You bend down and grab your purse and get a hold of your phone. 

To no surprise you see about a hundred messages from Hitch, Sasha, and Annie. As you’re scrolling through you also peep a missed call from Eren. 

“Well safe to say our friends were bugging out yesterday.” you show your home screen to Connie as he scrolls through the various messages from your friends. 

He stops scrolling once he sees Eren’s name, “Eren texted you.” 

“Hmm?” you flip your phone screen to face you and see he actually did text you. 

Eren: u okay? 

i heard noises from connie’s room 😈

oh my god eren. 

yes i’m okay 

don’t be a weirdo 

“Ew he said he heard noises from the room.” you say squinting your eyes. 

“Don’t make that face at me. That was all you.” 

You playfully punch Connie’s arm as he pulls you closer to him. 

“Do you wanna talk about last night?” he asks. 

“What's there to talk about? You said we were good.” 

“Well I don’t know like, was everything okay? Were you uncomfortable?” 

“Oh,” you say, clearing your throat. “Yeah everything was good, I promise.” you smile at him.

“Ok. you sure?” 

You nod your head, hoping he doesn’t ask you any more questions. 

All of a sudden, you feel entrapped in Connie’s arms. You try to calm down your breathing through your nose then exhaling through your mouth. 

“I think I need to leave soon.” you say scratching your head. 

“Oh ok.” 

You get up from the bed again and collect your clothes before going into the bathroom. Your thong is dried up now but it feels so nasty as you put it on, so you put some toilet paper over the crunchy part. You put on your bra then dress on and slip on Connie’s hoodie again. 

“Hey can I borrow your hoodie? I’ll bring it back.” you say exiting the bathroom. 

“Yeah of course.” Connie gets up and puts on a shirt and grabs a pair of sweatpants. He walks you out the house quietly as everyone is still asleep in their rooms. 

You were planning on walking back by yourself or maybe with Connie but unfortunately he had other plans. 

Connie leads you outside to a black carpet being held up by something underneath. He peels it back revealing his motorcycle. 

“Connie, I am not riding on that thing.” you say stepping back. 

“Oh come on, it’s so fun I promise.” he says whining. 

“No. I don’t want to.” you say. There had been so many times where Connie had begged you to ride his motorcycle with him but you refused every single time. It wasn’t that you were scared- ok maybe a little, but it was more so of the intimacy of riding with someone. 

Ymir hated when your hands were on another person so, you never dared to step onto Connie’s bike. 

“Come onn, it looks like it's about to rain. I know you don't want to get soaked.” he lifts his eyebrows up. 

“Ugh fine. Just please don’t kill me.” 

“Never, just hold on tight baby.” 

The pet name gets thrown over your head because of how nervous you are even though the ride to your house is approximately 10 minutes. 

Connie hands you his helmet as he sits down onto his bike. It was a yamaha bike with the majority of it being black with green embellishments. He pats the seat behind him and you groan as you get closer. You lift one leg over the seat and place your hands on his shoulders as you get as comfy as you can get. 

He grabs hold of your hands and brings them down to his abs and clasps your hands together. 

“You ready?” 

You nod your head as he kicks the bike stand up and starts the engine. You squeal as you feel the bike moving and finally hitting the roads. Your hands grow tighter around his waist as you feel him going faster down the roads. 

He finally reaches your apartment building and laughs as he puts the bike stand down again. Your grip on his waist loosens as you peel back from his back. He gets off the bike first and carefully pulls the helmet from your head. Your hair flies down and you try to flatten it with your hands as the wind starts to pick up. 

“See not that bad right?” he asks. 

“Yeah yeah it was fine.” you say finally getting up. The bike is in between you and Connie as you stand there looking at each other. 

“Well I gotta go.” you say initiating some sort of goodbye. 

“I’ll see ya later, text me if you need anything.” he says as he pulls you into a hug. You pull away first before giving him a soft kiss on his cheek.