Chapter 1: Courageous, Righteous, Hopeful
Summary:
Coming back from the Blip was supposed to mean hope. Healing.
Instead, Isabelle Stark stands in a hall full of ghosts, cameras flashing, listening to the world rewrite her father’s legacy—and Steve’s—with every passing second.
Between the empty smiles, the staged speeches, and a brutal encounter with Christine Everhart, Isabelle finds herself standing at the thin line between survival and collapse.
She's not ready to be anyone's hero.
She just has to make it through the night.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
“Courageous, righteous, hopeful.”
Sam’s words hit Isabelle like a blow to the ribs, knocking the breath from her lungs. Her eyes narrowed. Her fingers curled into fists, nails digging into her palms as she shifted her weight. As her eyes finally lifted from the spot she stared at on the floor, she saw him, still standing behind the podium. He looked confident and self-assured, but she saw beneath that carefully crafted exterior. She could pick apart that familiar discomfort. The same reluctance that churned in her stomach was mirrored in the tight set of his jaw and the barely perceptible tension in his shoulders.
Flashes of light assaulted her vision as cameras clicked incessantly. The low hum of murmured conversations blended with the shuffling of feet, grating on her nerves. Her gaze drifted to the banner looming behind Sam. Steve Rogers’ face stared down at them all. She swallowed hard, fighting the urge to flee. This wasn’t just another memorial service. It was a reminder of everything they’d lost, everything that had changed.
Neither of them wanted to be there, dragging open still-fresh wounds and playing roles that didn’t fit anymore. But as the cameras kept flashing, Isabelle knew they had no choice but to smile and see this through.
Sam’s gaze swept across the crowd, a hint of amusement dancing in his eyes as he motioned to the banner. “And let’s not forget,” he added, his voice carrying a touch of playfulness, “that he mastered the art of posing stoically.”
A ripple of laughter spread through the audience. Even Rhodey, standing to Isabelle’s right, chuckled softly. But for Isabelle, the joke fell flat, leaving a sour taste in her mouth. The corners of her lips twitched, the muscles tightening as she fought to keep her expression neutral. But the laughter felt wrong, almost disrespectful.
Rhodey’s eyes flicked towards her, catching the stony set of her features. Isabelle met his gaze, unable to hide the irritation simmering beneath the surface. She rolled her eyes, her teeth sinking into her lower lip to avoid saying something she’d regret. Rhodey’s smile faltered for a heartbeat, guilt flashing across his face, before he forced it back into place.
“The world has been forever changed,” Sam continued, his voice growing more serious. “A few months ago, billions of people reappeared after five years away, sending the world into turmoil. We need new heroes.”
New heroes?
She fought the urge to scoff, instead channeling her frustration into picking at her nails, keeping her hands down at her sides. She straightened her posture, trying to appear composed, but the reality of being gone for five years still felt like a surreal nightmare she couldn’t shake. To her, it had been moments– one blink, a short breath–and suddenly, the world had moved on without her. Relationships had shifted, people had changed, and she felt like a novelty from a time that no longer existed.
A familiar, unwelcome tingle began to spread through her body. It started in her fingertips, a prickling sensation that raced up her arms and across her chest. Isabelle winced, trying to keep it at bay.
She could feel Rhodey’s eyes on her, concern radiating off him in waves. He leaned in close, his voice barely above a whisper. “You good? You look like you’re about to bolt.”
Isabelle nodded subtly, not trusting her voice. She wanted to reassure him, to lie and say that she was fine, but the words stuck in her throat. This was her first public event since returning, and every fiber of her being screamed at her to run, to hide, to escape the suffocating pressure of the scrutiny.
“I’m fine,” she finally managed to whisper back, her voice tight. “Just…forgot how much I hate these things.”
Rhodey nodded, gently squeezing Isabelle’s arm before returning his attention to the stage. Isabelle appreciated the gesture, but part of her resented him for insisting she come in the first place. He’d been trying to get her to ‘reengage’ with the world. To stop isolating. But standing here, surrounded by reminders of all she had lost and all that had changed, she felt more isolated than ever.
“And the thing,” Sam said, picking up the shield that leaned against the podium and holding it. “It’s more than just vibranium and paint. It’s a symbol of hope, of perseverance.”
Isabelle’s fingers twitched at her sides, phantom sensations of the shield’s smooth surface ghosting across her skin. She could almost hear Steve’s voice, low and patient, the faint give of the gym mat under her sneakers.
“Keep your guard up, Izzy,” Steve had said nearly ten years ago. She could picture his stance, feet planted firmly, shield at the ready. “The world’s always changing, but some things stay the same.” And then he had paused, tilting his head at her. “Like the importance of watching your opponent’s feet.”
Isabelle’s muscles tensed involuntarily, muscle memory kicking in even as she stood motionless in the crowd. She felt the sensation of Steve’s leg sweeping hers, the momentary weightlessness as her feet left the ground, and the impact of her back hitting the mat, knocking the wind out of her lungs.
But then she had imagined the feeling of warmth, of Steve’s strong, calloused hand grasping hers. She could almost feel the gentle tug as he pulled her to her feet, his blue eyes twinkling with amusement.
“You’ll get there,” he’d say, that trademark half-smile playing on his lips.
The memory faded, leaving her with a hollow ache in her chest. She blinked rapidly, willing away the tears that threatened to form. Is this how Steve felt when he first came out of the ice? She couldn’t help but wonder. That surreal sensation of being adrift in time, surrounded by the familiar yet achingly different?
She tried to shake off the thought, turning to watch Sam address the crowd.
“I don’t know if there’s ever been a great symbol. But it’s not just about the shield. It’s about the man who carried it–the man who stood for something greater than himself. Steve Rogers wasn’t just a soldier,” Sam said, his voice growing softer. “He was a friend, a leader, a beacon of hope in dark times. But now he’s gone.” Sam lowered the shield.
Isabelle looked down, shaking her head slightly. Steve was gone–and he’d abandoned her without a second thought. The words felt uglier every time she thought them.
A sharp pain began to build behind Isabelle’s eyes, a headache threatening to bloom into something more intense. She glanced up at the larger-than-life poster behind Sam, anger and hurt bubbling to the surface.
Rhodey’s eyes were on her again, concerned, but he didn’t say anything. The tingle intensified, like a thousand tiny needles pricking her skin.
“But his legacy,” Sam’s voice cut through the fog, sharp and clear. “That’s what we’re here to honor. That’s what we need to carry forward.”
Isabelle’s eyes snapped back to the stage, focusing on Sam. She could see the slight tremor in his hands as he gripped the shield as if he was second-guessing letting it go.
“So, thank you, Captain America,” Sam concluded, his voice thick as he handed the shield over.
Isabelle watched, frozen, as he actually did it. The metallic clang as it changed hands echoed in her ears, drowning out the burst of applause that followed. Her hands moved slowly, automatically. The motion felt disconnected from her body, and her palms met in a hollow imitation of applause. The camera flashes were worse this time around as they rushed to capture the moment. Each burst seared into her retinas, leaving afterimages that danced and blurred.
The cheers, the shield, Steve’s face plastered over them–it all felt like a mockery.
Rhodey turned to her, keeping his voice low as he spoke. “We can step out if you need to, Izzy.” His breath tickled her ear as he leaned in close.
The familiar nickname scraped against her raw nerves like sandpaper. She hated herself for flinching.
“No,” she said, frowning. “I wanna be here.”
The lie tasted acrid on her tongue, but she forced it out anyway. Her eyes flickered to Sam, still standing on the stage. His shoulders were set, his chin high, but she could still see past it. The weight of expectation hung heavy in the air, pressing down on them both.
“For Sam,” she added.
And maybe if she kept saying it, it would feel true.
The room buzzed with conversation and the clink of glasses, the noise sitting heavy on Isabelle’s skin. Isabelle’s eyes occasionally darted to where Sam stood, surrounded by reporters, military personnel, and government officials.
She felt a hint of guilt–she hadn’t intentionally been avoiding him; she did want to be here for him. She just hadn’t made an effort to approach. The thought of navigating those conversations, filled with platitudes and expectation, well, Sam was better at faking it than she was.
She and Rhodey had managed to skirt the worst of it, only approached by a few of Rhodey’s colleagues and, to her discomfort, some of her father’s old acquaintances. Rhodey had deftly handled most of the talking, steering her away when the questions became too probing or personal, which Isabelle was grateful for.
But now, as the evening wore on, the air thickened around her. The constant hum of voices and the occasional burst of laughter pressed in, threatening to suffocate her. She needed hair that didn’t taste like old grief and politics.
As another of Rhodey’s colleagues excused themselves, Isabelle seized her chance. Her chest tightened with the need to escape, if only briefly.
“I need a drink,” she murmured to Rhodey, jerking her head towards the ba. The words came out more desperate than she’d intended.
Rhodey turned to her, his brow furrowed. “Okay. Maybe,” he started, his tone gentle but carrying that familiar note of guidance she’d known since childhood, “afterward, we can catch up with Sam. You haven’t seen him since you got back stateside, right?”
Isabelle’s gaze drifted across the room to where Sam stood. She missed him–missed the easy conversations, the understanding that required no explanation. But not here, not with all these people watching, waiting for her to crack or reveal something they could dissect later.
“I want a drink,” she replied firmly and forced a smile that felt brittle on her face. Her fingers found the hem of her dark blue dress, worrying the fabric between her thumb and forefinger. “You go talk to Sam. I know you’ve been wanting to since we got here. I’ll catch up.”
Rhodey studied her face, his own pulled tight with concern and resignation. He shifted his weight, the subtle mechanical whir of his leg braces barely audible beneath the noise of the reception.
“Alright, but if you need anything…” he trailed off, still hesitating.
“You’ll be right across the room. Please, I’ll be fine.” Isabelle cut him off sharply, the words slicing through the air before she could stop them.
Rhodey’s expression fell slightly, and guilt immediately flooded through her. He was only trying to help–had always been trying to help, even when she made it nearly impossible.
She sighed, shoulders dropping as the tension momentarily leaked out of her. Reaching out, she touched his arm gently. “I’m sorry. That came out wrong.” Her tone softened, genuine affection warming her voice. “Thanks, Uncle Rhodey. Really.”
His expression relaxed, and he gave her arm a gentle squeeze. “Twenty minutes, then I’m coming to find you,” he said, only half-joking.
“Don’t worry, don’t wanna miss any more of those great War Machine stories,” she rolled her eyes, the corner of her mouth quirking upward. “You know, the ones where everyone mysteriously needs to refill their drinks halfway through.”
Rhodey’s eyes narrowed, but amusement flickered across his face. “Those stories happened to be classified intelligence.”
“Is that why no one can stay awake through them?” she countered, feeling a moment of lightness break through the evening’s heaviness.
“You’re as bad as your father,” he muttered, but there was a fondness in his voice. “He used to set timers on his phone that would go off five minutes into my stories.”
Isabelle felt that familiar pang again, this time at the mention of her father. But it was softer here, cushioned by the shared memory. “Dad always said you should save the War Machine stories for hostage negotiations.”
“Hilarious,” Rhodey said dryly, but his eyes crinkled at the corners. He adjusted his stance, shaking his head. “Twenty minutes,” he repeated, pointing a finger at her before turning toward Sam.
Isabelle watched him go, the brief moment of normalcy evaporating as the reception noise rushed back in. Her chest tightened again–she needed that drink.
She turned toward the bar, her fingers still fidgeting with the hem of her dress as she navigated the crowded room. Each step was calculated, a maneuver through a minefield of bodies and forced smiles. A woman in a white dress shifted left just as Isabelle moved right; she pivoted sharply, her shoulder nearly clipping a waiter’s tray.
“Miss Stark!” Someone called from her right.
Isabelle ducked her head and quickened her pace, pretending she hadn’t heard. But she heard, and she felt the dozens of eyes pressed against her back– watching, analyzing, dissecting. She could hear the whispers trailing in her wake.
There she is…heard she was overseas…hasn’t been seen at any memorials…
The bar appeared before her like an oasis, and she slipped into an empty space, exhaling a deep breath.
“What can I get you?” The bartender’s voice cut through her thoughts.
Isabelle opened her mouth to order something strong…something that would file down the jagged edges of the afternoon. But instead, she found herself sayin, “Just water, please.”
The bartender nodded and turned away. Isabelle leaned against the polished wood countertop, letting her shoulders drop as she turned her back to the crowd. The persistent throb behind her temples intensified, a dull hammer striking in rhythm with her heartbeat. She closed her eyes, focusing on her breathing–in four, hold for seven, out for eight.
“Here you go.”
She blinked her eyes open as the bartender slid a glass tumbler toward her. The ice clinked against the glass. She wrapped her fingers around it, the coolness seeping into her skin–something real, something tangible to anchor herself to.
“Thanks,” she murmured, lifting the glass to her lips and taking a long, slow sip. The cold water slid down her throat, washing away the tightness there.
Despite herself, Isabelle’s gaze drifted back to the crowd, automatically seeking familiar faces in the sea of strangers. She found Sam immediately as if her eyes were drawn to him by some invisible force. He stood tall among the suits and uniforms, his broad shoulders squared as he spoke with Rhodey and a cluster of officials. Even from this distance, she could see the way he commanded attention–not with arrogance, but with a natural gravity that reminded her painfully of Steve.
As if sensing her eyes, Sam glanced up suddenly. Their eyes locked across the room, and for a heartbeat, everything else blurred away. A jolt shot through her chest–not quite pain, not quite relief, but something raw that made her breath catch. His expression softened, a question in his eyes that she couldn’t answer from across the room.
I should go to him, she thought. I should stop running.
But before she could move, a senator leaned in to claim Sam’s attention, and the moment fractured, slipping between her fingers like water.
Isabelle turned back to the bar, her knuckles whitening around the glass. She drained half of it in one desperate gulp, suddenly wishing she’d ordered something stronger. Her father would have had a scotch–neat, two fingers. She could almost see him standing at this very bar, glass in hand, that sardonic half-smile playing at his lips as they people-watched together. The image hit her with such force that she had to set her glass down, her hand trembling.
“Can I get you anything else?” the bartender asked, eyeing her empty glass.
Isabelle hesitated, her fingers drumming against the counter. The responsible part of her brain–the part that sounded suspiciously like Rhodey–warned her against drinking at such a public event. But her ‘enhancements’ made alcohol little more than flavored water to her system. A normal person would get pleasantly buzzed after two drinks; Isabelle could down an entire bottle of whiskey and feel only the faintest warmth in her cheeks.
Screw appearances.
“Actually,” she said, leaning over the counter. “I’ll take a double whisky. Neat.”
The memory of the one time she’d actually felt drunk flickered through her mind–Thor’s thousand-year-old Asgardian mead at the tower, the room spinning in a way she’d never experienced befoe. The bartender returned with her drink, the amber liquid catching the light. She wrapped her fingers around the class.
One wouldn’t do anything. Neither would five. She’d need to empty half the bar to recreate something close to that blissful oblivion Thor’s mead had given her.
“Thanks,” she murmured, lifting the glass to her lips.
The whiskey burned pleasantly down her throat, but the sensation burned almost immediately, her body already working to neutralize the buzz. She drained the glass in one long swallow, then set it down with a click.
“Another,” she paid, pushing the empty glass forward. The bartender raised an eyebrow but didn’t comment.
Isabelle glanced over her shoulder, scanning for Rhodey. Twenty minutes, he’d said. How many drinks could she get down in that time? How many would it take before the whispers and stares became background noise instead of needles under her skin?
Probably more than she could reasonably order without raising more eyebrows. Definitely more than she should have at an event where cameras were watching. Her father had made that mistake enough times for both of them.
Still, as the bartender set down her second round, Isabelle couldn’t help but throw it back in one fluid motion. For a half second, she felt something.
“Another–” Isabelle began, but a familiar voice cut through the air like nails on a chalkboard, sending a shiver of irritation down her spine.
“Two glasses of whatever reds you’ve got open,” Christine Everhart said, sliding into the space beside her easily.
Isabelle’s jaw clenched so tightly she could hear her teeth grinding. Of all the people in this overcrowded reception, it had to be Christine Everhart–the woman who’d made a career out of Stark family exposs.
Just the sight of her perfectly coiffed blonde hair and calculated smile made Isabelle’s skin crawl. Memories flashed through her mind: headlines accusing her father of war profiteering, articles questioning the Avengers’ accountability, sound bites calling for the regulation of ‘enhanced individuals’ like herself.
“I’m good, thanks,” Isabelle said, her words sharp enough to cut a diamond. She shifted her body away from Christine, hoping the reporter would take the hint.
But Christine, true to form, pressed on with the persistence that made her infamous in journalistic circles. “Please, Miss Stark,” she said, her voice honey-coated poison. “It’s on me. Consider it a thank you for helping bring everyone back from the Blip.” She tilted her head, hair falling perfectly across one shoulder. “I’m not sure if you remember me–”
“Christine Everhart, Vanity Fair,” Isabelle interrupted, each syllable dripping with disdain. She turned just enough to meet Christine’s gaze, her green eyes cold. “How could I forget? You wrote that lovely piece about one of my father’s birthday parties. What was the headline again? ‘Tony Stark: Iron Man or Iron Liver?’” The memory alone made her fingers tighten around her empty whiskey glass.
Christine’s smile twitched at the corners, the only crack in her polished veneer. She straightened her shoulders.
“WHiH World News, now actually,” Christine corrected, her smile never faltering despite the apparent hostility. She smoothed an invisible wrinkle from her tailored blazer. “I’ve moved up in the world.”
She leaned in slightly, close enough that Isabelle could smell her expensive perfume–something floral and cloying that made her want to take a step back. But Isabelle held her ground, refusing to give an inch.
“And that headline?” Christine continued, genuine offense flashing across her face. “That was a Bugle story. I would never use something so…pedestrian.” She wrinkled her nose as if the very thought left a bad taste in her mouth. “My work has always had more nuance.”
Isabelle gave a short, humorless laugh. “Nuance? Is that what you call it when you suggested my father was ‘emotionally unstable’ after New York?” The words burned through her–the vultures circling while her father struggled to sleep, while he built suit after suit, while the world picked apart his trauma for entertainment.
“I call it journalism, Miss Stark.” Christine’s eyes narrowed. “After all, your father did give your address to a terrorist on national television. That wasn’t exactly stable behavior, was it?”
The bartender slid two glasses of wine in front of them. Isabelle grabbed the glass before she realized what she was doing, her fingers wrapping tightly around the fragile stem. The first sip washed over her tongue–dry, slightly acidic–but she barely registered the taste, her focus locked on the predator beside her.
“Good for you,” Isabelle muttered, rolling her eyes. “You got your Pulitzer for picking through our garbage yet?”
Christine’s smile remained fixed, but something cold flashed behind her eyes. Her manicured hand disappeared into her designer purse, emerging with a sleek voice recorder that made Isabelle’s stomach drop. The device caught the light, a small red dot blinking as Christine placed it on the bar between them.
“I was hoping we could chat,” she said, her tone professional but her eyes hungry. “Just a few questions–”
“No.” The word came out flat and final, like a door slamming shut.
But Christine, ever the shark sensing blood in the water, pressed forward. “It’s only a few questions, Miss Stark. The public deserves to know. You haven’t made a single statement since coming back–”
“Didn’t know I had to file a press release about my existence,” Isabelle snapped, her fingers tightening around the wine glass. She could feel that annoying tingle turning dangerous, spreading up her arms, a warning sign she couldn’t afford to ignore.
Christine leaned cloer, the scent of her perfume suddenly suffocating. “The world deserves answers,” she said, her voice lowered to a confidential murmur. “Your father, Natasha Romanoff, Steve Rogers–all gone. How does that feel? You vanished for five years during the Blip, and when you returned, they were gone. That must be…quite the adjustment.”
Gone. All gone.
Isabelle’s chest constricted, lungs struggling to pull in enough oxygen. The room seemed to shrink around her, the chatter and clinking of glasses roaring in her ears.
Christine tapped a finger on the voice recorder, the red light pulsing. “And what about Wanda Maximoff? The Westview situation–” she leaned even closer, her tone heavy with implication, “-was disturbing, to say the least. You two were close, weren’t you? Don’t you think those people deserve to know why they were enslaved? Any comment from the remaining Avengers–what few there are?”
The tingling sensation intensified, spreading through Isabelle’s body like wildfire. Her vision blurred slightly at the edges; the reception hall suddenly seemed too bright, too loud, too overwhelming. She could feel her control slipping, molecules vibrating beneath her skin, ready to reach out and–
“I said no,” she managed through clenched teeth, setting the wine glass down with such force that the stem nearly snapped between her fingers. The liquid sloshed dangerously close to the rim.
Christine didn’t flinch. Her smile remained fixed and professional, but her eyes were calculating, measuring Isabelle’s reaction with clinical precision.
“The public has questions about who’s protecting them now,” she pressed, her voice hardening beneath its veneer of journalistic concern. “Especially with so many…vacancies in your ranks. Who’s leading the Avengers? Is there even an Avengers team anymore? The world feels vulnerable.”
Isabelle felt her jaw tighten until she thought her teeth might crack.
“You know what I find interesting?” Christine continued, shifting tactics like a seasoned interrogator. She leaned in even closer, close enough that Isabelle could count her eyelashes and smell the mint on her breath. “Some people think Steve Rogers is on the moon.” Her eyebrow arched. “Any truth to that?”
Something inside Isabelle—stretched taut since she’d walked into this place, since she’d returned from the Blip to find her world shattered–finally snapped.
The wine glass in her hand shattered with a sharp crack, sending glass shards and dark red liquid spraying across the polished bar. The stem crumpled in her grip, fragments digging into her palm.
Several nearby guests jumped back, conversations halting mid-sentence. A hush rippled outward from the bar like a stone dropped in still water, and suddenly, all eyes were on them.
Isabelle stared at her now-empty hand, watching as tiny rivulets of wine mixed with pinpricks of blood where the glass had cut skin. The sting felt distant, disconnected, barely registering through the haze of grief and rage that clouded her mind. Her enhanced healing was already at work, pushing the glass fragments out of her flesh.
Her gaze snapped back to Christine, who looked more intrigued than alarmed. The reporter’s finger hovered over the record button, her expression hungry, eager to capture whatever came next.
“Is this a joke to you?” Isabelle hissed.
The power within her surged up her arms like electrical currents, causing her fingertips to twitch. She could feel her molecules vibrating, threatening to destabilize in a way that would make the broken wine glass seem trivial.
“My father is dead.” Each word landed like a bullet. “Natasha is dead.” Her voice cracked slightly on the name. “And Steve–” His name caught in her throat, an obstruction she couldn’t push past. She swallowed hard against the burning sensation. “He’s gone too,” she finally spat.
The wine and blood on her hand began to dry, sticky and warm. A drop slid between her fingers, tracing a crimson path down her wrist and disappearing beneath the sleeve of her dress.
“I lost five years of my life in the blink of an eye,” Isabelle continued. “I came back to a world where half my family was just…gone.” She leaned forward, close enough that Christine had to take a step back. “And you want to know if Captain America is on the fucking moon?”
Christine cracked. For the first time, genuine fear flickered across her face as she registered something dangerous in Isabelle’s eyes–something mutant and barely contained. The reporter took another instinctive step backward, her back hiding the bar’s edge.
“I didn’t mean to offend you,” Christine said, her voice higher than before, that practiced confidence wavering as she clutched her recorder to her chst. Her eyes darted to Isabelle’s hand, where the cuts were visibly closing before her eyes.
“Yes, you did,” Isabelle glared, her tone flat and certain. “That’s exactly what you meant to do. Get a reaction. Get a headline.” She could feel eyes on her from all around the room, sense the spike of anxiety and curiosity from the gathered crowd.
Christine’s composure returned in loose fragments, her reporter’s instincts kicking back in despite the fear still evident in her eyes. She took a step sideways, gesturing vaguely across the room. “Miss Stark, if I could just–”
“You don’t get to do that,” Isabelle sidestepped, blocking Christine’s retreat with a fluid motion. Something dark and vengeful unfurled in her chest, something that wanted to make this woman hurt like she was hurting. “Not after you tried to turn their death into clickbait.”
The tingling sensations reached a fever pitch, building to a point she hadn’t felt since those early days of her powers manifesting. If she lost control in this room full of politicians and reporters, the fallout would be catastrophic.
“They weren’t just headlines to me,” but Isabelle couldn’t stop. “They were my family.”
From the corner of her eyes, she caught movement–Rhodey and Sam cutting through the crowd, having emerged from the Captain America exhibit. Sam’s eyes locked with hers across the room, and even from this distance, she could read the question in his gaze: Are you okay?
She wasn’t. Not even close.
Part of her screamed to walk away, to salvage what she could from this situation. But the voice was drowned out by the ager. She turned back to Christine, who had shrunk back against the bar, the hunger in her eyes finally tempered by fear.
“You want a statement, Miss Everhart?” Isabelle leaned in, cornering her for once. She leaned in close so the reporter could see the unnatural flecks of gold brightening in Isabelle’s green eyes–a telltale sign of her powers stirring beneath the surface. “How’s this: The next time you try to profit off my family’s pain, I won’t be responsible for what happened to you or that fancy recorder of yours.”
Something in her tone made Christine flinch—not just flinch, but physically recoil. Perhaps it was the echo of Tony Stark’s razor-sharp wit that made the reporter’s composure crack, or perhaps it was the very real threat that hummed beneath Isabelle’s words.
“Did you just–” Christine’s eyes widened, her voice emerging as a strangled gasp. “Are you threatening me?”
“Threatening you?” Isabelle’s lips curved into a smile that didn’t reach her eyes. She tilted her head, studying Christine before letting out a laugh. “No, Miss Everhart. I’m a Stark. We don’t make threats. Consider it a professional courtesy. A warning between colleagues.” The word ‘colleagues’ dripped with disdain.
Without another word, Isabelle pushed past Christine, her shoulder deliberately clipping the reporter’s as she moved.
The whispers started immediately, a chorus of speculation rising in her wake like smoke. Isabelle kept her chin high, her back rigid, though her powers still surged. Her palm was already healed, but the pain still lingered where the glass had cut—or maybe it was just the memory of pain, the kind that ran deeper than flesh.
The crowd parted before her, not out of respect but wariness. Bodies shifted away as she approached, conversations faltering mid-sentence. The exit doors loomed ahead, promising escape. Her hand found the cool metal of the door handle, fingers wrapping around it with more force than necessary. The cool air hit her like a slap as she stumbled outside, her heart hammering against the cage of her ribs.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Help I'm Alive" by Metric
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Chapter 2: On Your Left
Summary:
She doesn’t mean to run—but grief, anger, and legacy catch up fast.
Outside the museum walls, the spring air feels too sharp, too bright. Isabelle Stark hits the pavement with Sam Wilson at her side, a ghost of a past life she’s not sure she wants back.
As cherry blossoms fall and old wounds crack open, she’s forced to confront everything she’s been avoiding—what it means to stay, what it means to fight, and what it costs to remember the people who left.
She’s not ready to let go.
But she’s not alone anymore.
Notes:
Thank you so, so much to everyone who's read, bookmarked, and hit the kudos button, or left a comment 💖
Also... THUNDERBOLTS COMES OUT TODAY.
SCREAMING. CRYING.Consider this chapter my early love letter to my future favorite Marvel movie lol.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The spring air hit her like a slap, too bright, too sharp, as she burst through the Smithsonian doors. Each nerve ending seemed to fire at once. She needed distance–from the museum, from the memories, from herself.
Sweat beaded instantly at her temples as she set off down the crowded sidewalk, weaving between tourists clutching maps and locals with coffee cups. The Washington Monument stood in the distance, indifferent to her turmoil. Her lungs burned, not from exertion, but from holding her breath as if exhaling might release whatever dangerous energy coiled within her.
“On your left,” a voice called out, deep and warm–familiar.
Isabelle’s rhythm faltered, her heels scuffing against the pavement.
Sam.
Of course, he’d followed her. She fixed her eyes on the sidewalk ahead, his footsteps behind her, steady, measured, patient.
“You know,” he said, easily keeping pace beside her, “I was pretty sure I had you back there with my ‘stoically posing’ joke. Most people at least give me a pity laugh. But you?” He let out a low whistle. “Ice cold, Stark. That’s some impressive commitment to the brooding aesthetic.”
Isabelle couldn’t stop her lips from quirking upward. Not quite a smile. She wasn’t ready to surrender that much. It was more of an involuntary response to his determined lightheartedness. The tingling beneath her skin receded slightly.
“I’ve had practice,” she managed, her voice rough. “Growing up with Tony Stark means developing immunity to bad jokes. It’s an evolutionary adaptation.”
Sam clutched his chest dramatically, his eyes widening in mock offense. “Bad jokes? You wound me, Iz.”
A group of schoolchildren rushed past them, their backpacks bouncing, as their excited chatter momentarily drowned out their back-and-forth. Isabelle used the distraction to steal a glance at Sam. His expression was casual, but his eyes were watchful, assessing.
“You don’t have to do this,” she said, picking up her pace again. “The whole following-me-to-make-sure-I’m okay thing. I’m fine.”
“Uh-huh,” Sam nodded, completely unconvinced. “And I just jog in Italian leather dress shoes for the cardiovascular benefits.” He gestured down at his footwear. He looked back up at her, expression softening slightly. “Look, I’m not here to push. But whatever happened back there,” he nodded back toward the museum, “has got you looking like you’re about to either bolt into traffic or punch a monument. Both of which would probably make tomorrow’s new cycle and give Rhodes an aneurysm.”
Isabelle’s lips twitched, and a reluctant laugh escaped her, surprising them both. It felt foreign in her throat, like a language she’d forgotten how to speak.
“There she is,” Sam said softly, a genuine smile warming his features.
They walked in silence for a moment, the sounds of the city filling the space between them–car horns, snippets of conversations, a street musician playing saxophone near a metro entrance.
“How’ve you been, Iz?” Sam’s voice was gentler now, probing carefully. He shifted his weight, hands sliding into his pockets. “I haven’t seen you since…since…”
“The funeral?” Isabelle finished for him, finally slowing to a stop.
She finally met his eyes but quickly pivoted, taking in their surroundings. The realization of where they stood hit her with unexpected force. The memory flickered in her mind–Sam and Steve, both breathing hard from their morning run, Natasha’s sly smile as she revved the engine.
“Can you believe we met here ten years ago?”
“Please don’t,” Sam groaned, pressing a hand to his chest. “My knees remind me how old I am every morning without your help.” His eyes clouded briefly, looking past her into that distant memory before snapping back to her face. “And don’t think I didn’t notice that deflection. Pro move, but I invented that game.” He leaned against the nearby railing, positioning himself where she couldn’t easily slip away without being obvious. “How are you really holding up? And don’t give me the run-around answer you’ve been feeding everyone else.”
Isabelle exhaled slowly, feeling her shoulders slump as the adrenaline from her confrontation with Christine ebbed away
“I’m…” she started, then shook her head, running her fingers through her hair. Several strands caught between her knuckles, and she tugged her fingers free with a wince. “How exactly am I supposed to be, Sam? Half the world thinks I should be grateful for the ‘sacrifice,’” she made air quotes with her fingers, “and the other half thinks I’m not grieving hard enough. What’s the appropriate reaction when your father saves the universe but leaves you behind? Again.”
Sam’s eyes softened, not with pity– he knew she’d sooner walk into traffic than accept pity–but with something worse: understanding. He nodded towards a bench nestled beneath a flowering cherry tree, pink petals occasionally drifting down in the spring breeze.
“Let’s take five,” he suggested, his tone making it not quite a request but not an order either.
Isabelle’s muscles tensed, her body urging her to keep moving, to run until her lungs burned and her thoughts quieted. But something in Sam’s gaze made her hesitate. She’d seen that look before—in safe houses across Europe, in the quiet moments after nightmares when her powers had threatened to spiral out of control, when he’d sit with her until her breathing steadied.
“Fine,” she muttered, dropping onto the bench, the wood creaking in protest.
Sam settled beside her, close enough to feel his warmth but not so close that she felt trapped.
“You know what I think about sometimes?” he asked, tilting his face toward the sun. “That morning, Steve and I met. How different everything might’ve been if I’d decided to hit snooze. No Captain America breathing down my neck with his ‘on your left’ nonsense, no aliens, no...” He paused, glancing at her profile. “No getting to know the most stubborn Stark in existence.”
Isabelle watched a cherry blossom drift down, landing on the toe of her boot. “The multiverse of what-ifs,” she murmured. “Dangerous territory, Wilson.”
“Yeah, well.” Sam shrugged, shoulders moving beneath his tailored jacket. “Dangerous is kinda our brand at this point.”
The silence stretched between them, not uncomfortable but heavy with everything unsaid. A child’s laughter rang out somewhere nearby, the sound so carefree it made Isabelle’s chest ache.
“It’s okay not to have your shit together, you know,” Sam said finally, leaning forward to catch her eye.
Isabelle’s fingers twisted in her lap, picking at a loose thread on her sleeve until it unraveled further.
“I should,” she muttered, more to herself than Sam. “I should know how to handle this by now. After mom died, after the snap, after...” Her throat constricted around the words. “After Dad.” She clenched her jaw, feeling the muscle jump beneath her skin. “It’s like grief is the only thing I’m good at anymore.”
“Bullshit,” Sam said, the word sharp but his tone gentle. He shifted on the bench to face her more fully, his eyes locked on hers. “That’s complete and utter bullshit, Stark.”
Isabelle blinked, caught off guard by his bluntness.
“You’re good at plenty,” he continued, counting off on his fingers. “You’re good at making rookie agents wet themselves with just a look—a skill I’ve personally witnessed and deeply respect. You’re good at ordering and drinking those sugar abominations you call coffee that would give a normal human being cardiac arrest.” His lips quirked up. “Seriously, how you drink those without your heart exploding is beyond medical science.”
A reluctant half-smile tugged at Isabelle’s mouth, but Sam wasn’t finished.
“You’re good at seeing a fight before it happens,” he said, his voice dropping lower, more serious. “Mexico City. Before the Accords mess.” His eyes took on that focused intensity she’d seen on countless missions. “Those mercenaries—”
“Serpent Society,” Isabelle corrected, nose scrunching. “Such a stupid name.”
“Agreed, but not the point,” Sam agreed, a flash of his old humor returning. “They got the drop on us, hit us from three sides, completely outnumbered. Steve pinned down, Nat outgunned, and I tried to get aerial coverage when they brought out the heavy artillery. You saw what nobody else did,” Sam continued, leaning forward slightly. “That merc had Wanda in his sights. A clean shot to her shoulder, maybe worse. And you made him double over with some kind of stomach cramp.”
“Appendicitis,” Isabelle said quietly, flexing her fingers. “Localized. Temporary. Enough to drop him but not kill him.”
Sam’s eyes tracked the movement of her hands. “Precise. Controlled.” His gaze lifted to meet hes. “And let’s not forget,” he added, his voice lower still, “you nearly shattered every bone in Thanos’s body.”
Isabelle curled her fingers into a fist at the memory—the feeling of her powers surging through her veins, of Thanos’s alien physiology yielding under her influence. She remembered the resistance of his bones as they began to splinter under her concentration, the way his face had contorted in shock before understanding dawned in his eyes.
“Would’ve worked too,” Sam said, an edge of bitterness hardening his voice. “If that purple bastard hadn’t cheated and reversed it with the time stone,”
Isabelle traced the lines of her palm with her thumb, biting her lip. “Didn’t matter in the end, did it?” The words tasted ashen in her mouth.
“It mattered,” Sam countered, firm but gentle. “You’ve always fought for what’s right,” Sam continued, his eyes holding hers with unwavering certainty. “Even when it costs you everything.” He shifted on the bench, turning more fully toward her. “You stood with Steve when the Accords tore the team apart. Protected Wanda when half the world wanted her locked up or worse.” His voice softened. “You chose to help Barnes, knowing everything he’d done to your family.”
Another cherry blossom drifted down, landing on the shoulder of Sam’s jacket. Isabelle reached out automatically to brush it away, her fingers hovering just above the fabric before she pulled back.
“There’s no manual for this,” Sam said, watching her withdraw. “No right way to grieve.” He paused, a shadow crossing his features. “And there’s sure as hell no ‘should’ about any of it.”
“I just—” Her throat constricted around the words, frustration burning behind her eyes. The words burned behind her eyes, hot and caustic, rebelling against the admission. She inhaled sharply through her nose, chest heavig. “It’s like I’m supposed to be this... this perfectly functioning person again. Everyone wants me to step back in line. Stark heir. Avengr, whatever the hell I’m supposed to be now.”
Her jaw tightened, teeth grinding together. She jabbed a finger toward the Smithsonian.
“And all of that—” Her voice dropped, hardening to something brittle and dangerous. “I’m supposed to care about Steve’s shield? About his legacy? About any of it?”
The venom in her voice surprised even her. She felt Sam stiffen beside her, saw his shoulders square almost imperceptibly. His breath hitched—just for a millisecond—before he exhaled slowly through his nose, a controlled release of tension she recognized from countless missions.
Isabelle looked away, suddenly unable to meet his eyes. Her chest constricted as though someone had wrapped metal bands around her ribs and was slowly tightening them. The cherry blossoms blurred into pink smudges as tears threatened, and she blinked rapidly, her jaw clenched so hard it ached. She would not cry—not here, not now.
“Steve cared about you, Iz,” Sam said finally, his voice measured, careful. Too careful. The diplomat’s voice. The counselor’s voice.
A laugh tore from Isabelle’s throat—harsh, jagged, nothing like her normal laugh.
“Cared about me?” She turned to face Sam fully, each word sharp as broken glass. “That’s what you’re going with? He cared?”
She shot to her feet, unable to look at him. The bench suddenly felt like a trap, a confinement she couldn’t bear.
“My father flies a nuclear weapon into space, nearly dies. Then, years later, he snaps his fingers to save the universe and succeeds in killing himself. Very heroic.” Her hands trembled, not with grief but with something hotter, more volatile. “Meanwhile, Steve—Captain America, our fearless leader—takes a little time-travel joyride and just... decides not to come back?”
The anger that had been simmering beneath her skin for months finally boiled over. She couldn’t stay still, pacing the length of the bench, unable to contain the energy coursing through her.
“He abandoned us, Sam.” She stopped abruptly, the full force of her gaze locking onto him. “One kiss from Peggy Carter seventy years ago, and suddenly that’s worth more than everything we built together? The family we became?”
Sam remained still, his face carefully neutral, which only fueled her rage. She wanted a reaction—needed one—anything to validate the storm inside her.
“And now?” She flung her arm toward the Smithsonian, where Christine Everhart was probably still standing in front of the Captain America exhibit, notebook in hand. “Now we’re supposed to celebrate Captain America’s noble sacrifice? Put his shield in a glass case and pretend he was this perfect symbol instead of a man who made choices—selfish choices—that hurt real people?” Her voice dropped, vulnerability bleeding through the cracks in her armor. “What about us, Sam? What about the people who stayed? The ones left picking up the pieces while they get immortalized as heroes?”
Sam leaned forward, elbows on his knees. The lines around his eyes deepened—not with judgment but with something that mirrored her own exhaustion.
“Iz,” he began, his gaze never leaving her face. “I hear you. And I get that anger. But Steve was tired. Bone-deep tired of the fight—”
“So was I!” The words exploded from her, echoing across the park.
A nearby couple startled, then quickly averted their eyes. Isabelle forced herself to lower her voice, but couldn’t disguise its tremor.
“You think I wasn’t exhausted?” Her voice cracked on the last word, sharp and humiliating. “I lost everything fighting. Fighting alongside him, fighting for him.” She swept her arm across the park and the city beyond, encompassing the world they’d saved at such cost. “I watched my father die, Sam. I didn’t just see it. I felt it.” Her hand pressed against her sternum, where phantom pain still bloomed in her nightmares. “Every cell in his body shutting down. Every nerve ending burning out.” Her breath hitched. “I felt his heart stop.”
A tear escaped, tracking down her cheek. She didn’t bother wiping it away.
“And then I come back, trying to figure out how to live in a world without him, and Steve—” Her voice fractured. “Steve, who promised he’d be there, who swore that he understood what it meant to lose everything...” She shook her head, unable to finish.
Sam stood slowly, his movements deliberate as though approaching a wounded animal. His eyes widened slightly, comprehension dawning across his features. “I didn’t know,” he breathed, running a hand over his face. “I didn’t know you felt this way about Steve leaving. Not like this.” He took a careful step toward her. “Iz, he—”
“Don’t.” She held up a hand, taking a step back, the distance between them suddenly crucial to her composure. “Don’t defend him to me. Not today.” Her shoulders slumped, the fight draining as quickly as it had flared, leaving behind an emptiness more terrifying than the rage. “Maybe not ever.”
Sam’s hand hovered in the space between them, not quite reaching for her but unwilling to retreat.
“Iz, I can’t even begin to imagine what that felt like,” he said softly, “but I know it hurts,” he continued, finally bridging the gap to touch her shoulder. “But Steve…he didn’t make that decision lightly.” Sam’s eyes searched hers, earnest and troubled. “And it might not seem like it right now, but he cared about you. All of us.” His grip tightened slightly, grounding her. “Sometimes... sometimes people have to make hard choices, even if it means hurting the ones they love.”
“Hard choices?” she echoed, the words bitter on her tongue. She jerked away from his touch, feeling her power surge in response to her emotions, a familiar tingling behind her eyes. “He was selfish, Sam. Plain and simple.”
She expected Sam to argue, to defend Steve as he always had. To trot out the same tired lines about sacrifice and duty and the greater good. But when she met his gaze, something in his expression made her falter. It wasn’t an agreement exactly, but uncertainty shadowed his eyes, and beneath it, a flicker of doubt that she’d never seen before when it came to Steve Rogers.
Sam ran his thumb across his lower lip, a habit she’d witnessed countless times during mission debriefs when he was working through a tactical problem.
“You know,” he finally said, his voice lighter but not dismissive, “I worked really hard on that speech back there that you completely ignored.” He jerked his head toward the Smithsonian. He tapped his jacket pocket. “Index cards and everything.”
Isabelle felt the tension in her shoulders loosen, just a fraction—a nearly imperceptible shift that Sam would notice because Sam noticed everything. The tightness in her jaw eased, the burning behind her eyes cooling. She recognized what he was doing—the tactical retreat. It was a dance they’d perfected over years of friendship, knowing when to push and when to offer breathing room.
“Index cards?” Isabelle arched an eyebrow, grateful for the lifeline he’d thrown her. “Seriously?”
“Mock me all you want, Stark, but organization is key.” Sam’s eyes crinkled at the corners, the tension around his mouth softening. “Blue cards for the inspirational bits—you know, the ‘legacy of heroes’ stuff that makes people misty-eyed. Yellow for jokes.” He leaned in conspiratorially. “Which, by the way, was absolute gold. Your loss.”
A laugh escaped her—small and rusty, like a door hinge unused for too long. The sound surprised her, foreign to her own ears. When was the last time she’d genuinely laughed? Before the funeral, certainly. Maybe even before the final battle. The realization settled in her chest, heavy and cold.
Sam nudged her shoulder with his, the contact brief but grounding. His expression shifted, the playfulness receding to reveal something more substantial beneath.
“Look,” he said, voice dropping to that particular register he used when cutting through bullshit. “I know this isn’t easy. Some days, I wake up, and it’s like the world is spinning too fast. Can’t catch my breath, can’t find my footing.”
The honesty in his admission caught her off guard. Sam was always the steady one, the rock when everything else crumbled. Hearing the edge of vulnerability in his voice made her chest tighten.
“But maybe,” he continued, his eyes never leaving hers, “embracing the future means finding a way to move forward, even when it feels impossible.”
“How do you do it?” The question slipped out before she could stop it, smaller and more desperate than she’d intended. She cleared her throat, tried again. “How do we just... move forward? When everything’s changed, when people we thought would always be there just... aren’t?”
“Well, for starters,” Sam said, his gaze direct and unflinching, “when I call you, you don’t put me straight to voicemail like you’ve been doing for the past six months.”
The words weren’t meant to hurt, but to wake her up. They still stung, though. Heat crawled up her neck, settling in her cheeks.
“I don’t know who’s worse,” Sam continued, shaking his head with a wry smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. “You or Barnes. Neither of you answer your goddamn phones.” A short laugh escaped him, more exasperation than humor. “He may have an excuse; I’m not convinced the old man knows how they work. Might still think they have rotary dials.” His gaze locked on hers, the humor evaporating. “But you? Radio silence for months, Iz. Not even a text to let me know you were breathing.”
The accusation in his voice wasn’t loud—Sam Wilson never needed volume to make his point—but it resonated through her all the same.
“I’m sorry,” she said, the words inadequate but sincere. “I was in Europe—”
“‘I was in Europe,’“ Sam mimicked, voice rising in a poor imitation of hers before dropping back to its normal register. “Yeah, Rhodes mentioned that. Said you bounced pretty much after the funeral.”
Isabelle’s eyes dropped to the ground. The grass beneath her feet suddenly became fascinating—each blade distinct, some trampled flat by passing tourists, others stubbornly reaching upward. She could still feel the weight of the wreath in her hands as she’d placed it on the lake six months ago, watching it float away on gentle ripples. The memory of Morgan’s small hand in hers, squeezing so tight it hurt.
After the funeral, she’d run. Paris first, then Rome, Berlin, Prague. Cities where no one knew her face, where Stark wasn’t a household name, where she could walk down streets without seeing her father’s face on memorial murals. Places that didn’t feel like home because home didn’t exist anymore.
“Look, I—” she started, but Sam cut her off with a sharp gesture.
“Nuh-uh, I’m not done,” he said, a little too harshly. “You don’t ignore me. That’s not how this works.” He tapped his chest, then pointed at her. “We’re friends. We stick together. That’s the deal.” The muscle in his jaw worked as he swallowed, his eyes softening just enough that Isabelle felt something crack inside her chest. “Even when it hurts,” he added, quieter now. “Especially when it hurts.”
Isabelle’s throat constricted, the pressure building behind her eyes threatening to spill over. She opened her mouth, but the words dissolved before they could form. Sam had never spoken to her this way – had never needed to. The gentle reprimand stripped away her carefully constructed defenses, leaving her exposed in a way that made her skin prickle with vulnerability.
“I needed space,” she finally managed, the words coming out more defensive than she’d intended. She hated how defensive she sounded, how the statement hung in the air like a flimsy excuse. Her thumb worked over her knuckles, pressing hard enough to feel the bone beneath. “Everything here was just... too much.”
“Space I get,” Sam conceded, shifting his weight. The leather of his shoes creaked against the pavement. He tilted his head, catching her downcast gaze. “Disappearing off the face of the earth?” He made a cutting motion with his hand. “That’s something else entirely.”
“There were things I needed to handle,” she said finally, deliberately vague. The half-truth tasted metallic on her tongue. “Things I couldn’t deal with here.”
Sam’s eyes narrowed just slightly. His head tilted a fraction, his tell that he was reading between her lines, searching for what she wasn’t saying. “Things,” he repeated, the word neutral but weighted with unasked questions. “Must have been some pretty important things to keep you away this long.”
The challenge in his voice was subtle but unmistakable. Six months of silence stretched between them like a chasm, filled with all the texts she’d ignored, the calls she’d declined, the messages she’d left unheard.
Isabelle met his gaze, unflinching despite the guilt gnawing at her insides. “They were.”
For a moment, neither spoke. It was Isabelle who broke first, her shoulders dropping as she exhaled. “Sam, I—” she began, but he waved her off, the gesture weary rather than dismissive.
“Save it,” he said, not unkindly. The hard edge had left his voice, replaced by something that sounded dangerously close to resignation. “I’m not fishing for apologies. I’m just saying...” He paused, rubbing a hand over the back of his neck. “You’re not the only one trying to figure out how to live in this new world. The rest of us are stumbling through it, too.”
Isabelle bit her lip. Her own grief and anger had consumed her so deeply that she had barely considered what the others might be feeling, how Sam might be struggling with his own losses and uncertainties.
“I know,” she said quietly, shame coloring her cheeks. She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, using the motion to gather her thoughts. “I’ve been so caught up in my own bullshit I haven’t even thought about how you’re doing with all of this.” Her eyes flicked to his face, really seeing him for the first time since their encounter. The new lines around his eyes. The slight shadows beneath them. “Giving the shield away...it can’t feel good.”
Something flickered across Sam’s expression – surprise, perhaps, that she’d noticed or that she’d brought it up so directly. His shoulders tensed slightly, and he let out a long breath that seemed to come from somewhere deep inside him.
“It’s... a lot,” he admitted, his voice dropping as he crossed his arms. Not defensively, but as if he needed to hold himself together physically. He looked up, trying to find the right words. “I just knew those shoes were too big for me to fill, you know?”
Hearing that edge of uncertainty made her chest ache in a way that had nothing to do with her own pain.
Isabelle nodded slowly, her lips pressing together as she considered his words. Part of her wanted to argue, to tell him he was wrong, that he was more than capable. That Steve had chosen him for a reason. But then she thought about the weight of that legacy – the scrutiny he would face, the constant comparisons, the whispers that would follow him— always reminding him that he wasn’t Steve Rogers.
“I miss him,” she admitted, the words escaping before she could trap them behind her teeth. “Even though I’m still furious. I miss all of them.” The confession felt like pulling out stitches before the wound had fully healed—necessary but excruciating.
“Yeah. Me too.” Sam exhaled heavily, his breath visible in the cooling afternoon air. His gaze drifted toward the Smithsonian, lingering for a second before returning to her face. “Listen, I’m heading back to Louisiana tomorrow.” He paused, studying her face. “Why don’t you come with me?”
Isabelle blinked, her train of thought derailing. “Louisiana?”
“My sister’s place,” Sam clarified, his posture relaxing as he warmed to the idea. “It’s nothing fancy, but it’s quiet. We’ve got plenty of room,” His eyes lit up, that spark of enthusiasm she’d missed these past months. “And her cooking?” He kissed his fingertips dramatically. “Makes that fancy five-star restaurant you dragged me to in Monaco look like a fast-food joint.”
“That was a Michelin-starred chef,” Isabelle protested, but she couldn’t help the smile tugging at her lips.
“Well, Sarah’s gumbo has won the parish cook-off three years running.” Sam’s eyes crinkled at the corners. “Plus,” Sam added, leaning in conspiratorially, “no reporters, no press conferences, no Christine Everhart.” He gestured expansively. “Just good food, good company, and maybe—if you stop being such a city girl about it—we can even get you out on the water.”
For a moment, Isabelle let herself imagine it: the warm Louisiana sun on her skin, the taste of home-cooked food on her tongue, the gentle lapping of water against a boat. Something warm unfurled in Isabelle’s chest, tender and painful all at once. The offer was tempting—more than tempting. To disappear into the Louisiana bayou, to be somewhere no one knew her name or her history or expected anything from her. Somewhere, she could breathe.
The fantasy dissolved as quickly as it had formed. Reality crashed back in, cold and unyielding.
“I can’t, Sam.” The words tasted like defeat on her tongue. She shook her head, shoulders stiffening as she mentally calculated the fallout approaching. “I basically threatened a nationally syndicated journalist back there. By tomorrow morning, my face will be plastered across every news outlet from here to Tokyo.”
She could already see the headlines scrolling across screens worldwide. The thought sent a cold ripple down her spine, her fingers instinctively curling as if to contain the power that had nearly slipped its leash.
“I should stay and handle this,” she continued, her thumb working circles against her index finger. “Or at least warn Pepper before she gets blindsided during a board meeting.” The thought of her stepmother having to field questions about Isabelle’s behavior while trying to run a multinational corporation made her stomach clench. “She’s got enough on her plate with Morgan and the company without me adding to the chaos.”
Sam’s forehead creased, concern etching lines around his eyes. “That’s not who you are, Iz. Whatever spin Everhart puts on—”
“What, you mean ‘Dangerous Enhanced Individual Intimidates Defenseless Reporter’?” Isabelle cut in, a bark of bitter laughter escaping her. “Someone’s got to be the scary bogeyman now that Bruce is…whatever that is now, and that Wanda’s gone. Bound to be my turn eventually.”
“That’s not fair,” Sam said firmly, voice dropping an octave. “That’s not fair to you, to Bruce, and it’s not fair to Wanda. You’re more than that.” He stepped closer, his presence solid and unwavering. “You’re heroes. All of you.”
“I thought you said the world needed new heroes,” she murmured, offering him a ghost of a smile. Her eyes met his, searching for something she couldn’t quite name. “I was listening, you know. Even when it looked like I wasn’t.”
Something shifted in Sam’s expression—surprise melting into recognition. He opened his mouth to respond, then closed it, recalibrating whatever he planned.
“That’s not what I—” he started, then stopped, frustration flickering across his features. He exhaled slowly through his nose, as he always did when choosing his words carefully. “Fine. But my offer stands. Anytime you need to disappear for a while, my door’s always open.” He held her gaze, ensuring she understood the weight of his promise. “No questions asked.”
Isabelle hesitated, her instinct to retreat warring with the part of her that desperately craved connection. The warmth in Sam’s eyes—genuine, uncomplicated—made her throat tighten. She nodded, a small smile tugging at her lips despite herself. “I know, Sam. Thanks.”
“And for what it’s worth,” he added, his voice softening, “Christine Everhart has been trying to take down Avengers since before we even called ourselves that. She went after your dad for years.” A rueful smile crossed his face. “Woman’s like an attack dog with press credentials.”
That pulled a reluctant laugh from Isabelle, the sound surprising her with its authenticity. “Yeah, well, she picked the wrong day to come at me about legacy.” She rubbed at a spot between her eyebrows where tension had gathered. “God, I can already hear Pepper’s PR team drafting apology statements.”
Sam waved a dismissive hand. “Let them earn their paychecks. Meanwhile...” He jerked a thumb towards the road, a mischievous glint warming his eyes. “My flight isn’t until tonight. Want to grab some lunch?”
Isabelle raised an eyebrow, curiosity piqued despite herself. “Lunch?”
“Yeah, you know, that meal between breakfast and dinner?” Sam’s grin widened, crinkling the corners of his eyes. “I know a place nearby that makes a burger so good it’ll make you forget your own name.” He leaned in conspiratorially. “And who knows, maybe I can convince you to change your mind about Louisiana over some sweet potato fries.”
“You really never give up, do you?” Isabelle asked, the weight in her chest lightening just a fraction.
“Nope,” Sam replied, popping the ‘p’ sound with exaggerated emphasis. “Stubbornness is a Wilson family trait. Ask my sister sometime about the great treehouse standoff of ‘92.” He struck a ridiculous pose, puffing out his chest. “Plus, it’s part of my charm.”
Isabelle rolled her eyes but couldn’t entirely suppress the smile tugging at her lips. “Your charm is debatable, Wilson.”
“Ouch,” Sam clutched his chest in mock offense. “And here I was, about to offer to pay.”
“In that case,” Isabelle said, straightening her shoulders, “lead the way to these supposedly life-altering burgers.”
As they turned to leave the park, Isabelle fell into step beside Sam. For a moment—just a moment-the weight on her shoulders felt a little lighter, the constant pressure in her chest easing enough to take a full breath.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: “ILY2” by Charli XCX. (Isabelle yelling at a national monument while Sam calmly offers fries and therapy.)
Thank you for reading!
Chapter 3: Ghost in the World
Summary:
Four days of peace—that’s all Isabelle got before Christine Everhart’s hit piece ignites the media storm again. Now the walls are closing in, memories clawing their way to the surface, and even beer can’t numb what’s broken inside her. But when Sam Wilson calls—not about headlines, but about a threat rising in the ashes of the Blip—Isabelle has a choice to make. Disappear again… or try to be something better.
Bucky fans, don’t worry—he’s coming in the next chapter, and once he arrives, he’s not going anywhere. 🖤
Notes:
Okay, so first, I saw Thunderbolts and I am emotionally compromised. Found family? Learning how to exist after the worst parts of yourself? Realizing you’re not alone anymore? That hit HARD. I've already seen the film 3 times. And don't even get me started on Bucky’s look in the end credits scene because OH my god. I am feral. Truly unwell. I will not recover.
I’m also already getting ideas (dangerous, chaotic, exciting ideas) for how I might play with Thunderbolts in the future.
Quick note for those wondering about Bucky! Someone mentioned he hasn’t shown up yet, don’t worry: he’s coming. Not in this chapter, but the next one. I wanted to take a little time to ground Isabelle—show where she’s at emotionally, what she’s struggling with—so when he does appear, it really means something. And once he’s here? He’s not going anywhere.
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(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Isabelle shifted the canvas bag, grimacing as the edge dug deeper into her palm. Three packages of ramen, a box of Captain Crunch—All the Berries—and a six-pack of some craft IPA with a ridiculous name, slid against each other, held tight under her white-knuckled grip.
It had been like this all day. Eyes following her. Whispers. The cashier at the bodega had stared too long, recognition dawning in her eyes. Even her doorman had given her that look when she walked in—part pity, part morbid curiosity. The same look people gave to car crashes and public meltdowns.
“Good afternoon, Ms. Stark,” he’d said, voice pitched higher than normal. His eyes had darted away from hers as he’d handed over her mail. “Nice day, isn’t it?”
It wasn’t. It was raining. They both knew it.
Christine’s article had dropped online that morning, and by noon, it had been picked up by three major news outlets.
The elevator dinged, and she stepped out. Each step toward her apartment door felt heavier than the last. Apartment 1507 loomed ahead. Her door—a slab of dark wood with brass numbers that caught the harsh fluorescent light. Home. The word lodged in her throat like a pill swallowed wrong.
That wasn’t home. Just an expensive storage unit for her things. A place to collapse between nightmares.
She’d assembled the minimalist furniture herself during 3 a.m. insomnia spirals, Allen wrench gripped tight while some early 2000s movie droned in the background. The walls remained bare, not even a single photo or painting to suggest someone actually lived there. Her mattress felt like sleeping on a hotel bed, never quite right, and her sheets smelled of detergent but were never comfortable, no matter how many times she washed them.
The bag dug deeper into her palm. She welcomed the pain—something tangible to focus on besides the crawling sensation of being watched, discussed, dissected.
Nat would’ve dragged her to a farmer’s market by now, lecturing about antioxidants and proper nutrition while filling Isabelle’s arms with organic kale and locally sourced honey. She’d have made Isabelle drink some green concoction that tasted like lawn clippings but somehow made her feel better.
“Your body is a temple, Isabelle,” she could almost hear Natasha saying, that half-smile playing on her lips. “And you’re treating it like a dumpster.”
Her phone vibrated against her thigh. Again. Third time in the last hour. She didn’t need to check the screen. Rhodey had escalated from casual check-ins to thinly veiled welfare calls.
You okay? Just checking in. Call me when you get a chance. Izzy, I know you’re reading these. Five seconds to text back “alive” is all I’m asking.
Isabelle’s fingers fished for keys in her jacket pocket, pulling them out with a trembling hand. Rhodey had probably read Christine’s article by now. The muscles in her jaw clenched so tight she heard a faint pop near her ear. She exhaled slowly through her nose, feeling the faint tickle of power beneath her skin—the warning sign before things got bad.
This half-assed vanishing act wasn’t fooling anyone. Not the bodega cashier. Not Gerald. Not Rhodey. Not even herself.
Her mind flashed to the lakeside property. The place where Tony had finally found peace, built a life, had a family—all while Isabelle was nothing but dust scattered across a battlefield. She’d spent those first awful days after returning there. After the funeral. After the will reading. After sitting through endless meetings with lawyers about Stark Industries trusts and inheritance structures, she couldn’t bring herself to care about.
She should be there. She knew she should.
But every creaking floorboard in that house, every ripple on that damn lake, screamed at her to run. The life she’d missed out on during those five years—the birthdays, the holidays, the quiet moments—taunted her from every corner of that perfect lakeside retreat. Every time Morgan looked at her with Tony’s eyes, Isabelle felt herself fracturing all over again.
She fumbled with the lock, her fingers suddenly clumsy and uncooperative. The canvas grocery bag slid down to her wrist, the edge cutting a red line into her skin. There was a click, then Isabelle shouldered the door open, momentum carrying her forward into the dark apartment.
The door swung shut behind her with a soft thud. She leaned against it, letting her head fall back against the cool wood. Her lungs burned, chest rising and falling in shallow, rapid breaths as if she’d sprinted the fifteen floors instead of riding the elevator. The grocery bag slipped from her numb fingers, landing with a clatter of beer bottles against hardwood. The six-pack burst free from its cardboard prison, glass bottles skittering across the floor.
“Shit,” she muttered, watching one bottle roll under the couch.
Her eyes adjusted to the darkness, scanning the apartment like she was assessing a combat zone. Floor-to-ceiling windows dominated the far wall, Manhattan’s skyline spread before her like a glittering wound. From fifteen stories up, the city was all sharp edges and cold beauty—a circuit board of interconnected lights pulsing with artificial life.
Beautiful, distant, cold. The same view that had cost her an obscene amount of money now made her stomach lurch with vertigo, like she was perpetually falling.
“Welcome home, Miss Stark,” FRIDAY’s voice cut through the silence, making Isabelle flinch. Her shoulders hunched reflexively, heart rate spiking before her brain caught up.
“Hey, FRIDAY,” she murmured, the tension in her shoulders easing slightly.
Tony had left FRIDAY to her in his will—“Because someone needs to keep an eye on you, kid.” His words from the will reading echoed in her head, that video message he’d left playing on loop in her nightmares.
She pushed away from the door on unsteady legs. She kicked off her boots, leaving them in a haphazard pile by the entrance. Bending down with a sigh, she gathered the scattered groceries. The packages of ramen went into her left hand, the cereal box tucked under her arm. She corralled the beer bottles one by one, glass cool and slick against her fingers.
Isabelle headed to the kitchen, weaving between towers of cardboard.
Boxes. Everywhere. A month in this place and they’d multiplied like rabbits instead of diminishing. “KITCHEN” boxes with packing tape still pristine and unbroken. “CLOTHES” cartons with just their top flaps disturbed, where she’d frantically dug for clean underwear at 5 AM. “BOOKS” containers she couldn’t bear to open because they smelled like the compound. Like before.
She dumped her armful of provisions on the kitchen counter. The ramen packages skidded across the marble, one sliding off the edge before she caught it.
Her stomach growled, a hollow ache that she’d been ignoring since noon. She yanked open a drawer, searching for a bottle opener. Empty. The next drawer was empty except for a single plastic spoon. The third drawer contained nothing but a pent paperclip.
Isabelle gritted her teeth and grabbed a beer, pressing the cap against the counter’s edge. She slammed her palm down—a sharp crack echoed through the empty apartment as the cap popped off, taking a small chip of the expensive marble with it. Foam erupted, spilling over her fingers in a cold, sticky rush.
She tipped the bottle back, the bitter liquid hitting her empty stomach like a shock of ice water. She leaned against the counter, the edge digging into her lower back. The boxes surrounding her seemed to multiply under her gaze. Four weeks in this place, and she’d barely touched them.
She drained the bottle in three more swallows. Without hesitation, she grabbed another, repeating the same violent ritual—slam, crack, fizz. This time, she caught the foam with her mouth, tongue darting out to lick the bitter liquid from her knuckles.
The living room beckoned.
She collapsed onto the couch, stiff and unyielding against her body. Four thousand dollars of designer furniture that felt like sitting on concrete—a low-slung charcoal sectional with decorative pillows still arranged in the exact formation they’d been delivered in. The glass coffee table supported nothing but a remote control and yesterday’s coffee mug, a brown ring crusted at the bottom.
She curled her legs underneath her, the fabric of the couch scratching against her skin.
“Miss Stark,” FRIDAY’s voice sliced through the silence, making Isabelle’s hand jerk. “You have a voicemail from Mrs. Stark regarding an invitation to Easter dinner at the lake house.”
The bottle froze halfway back to her mouth. Her throat closed. Morgan in an Easter dress. Egg hunts by the lake—the empty chair at the table where her father should be.
“Colonel Rhodes has left several messages as well,” FRIDAY continued, her Irish lilt somehow making it worse. “Would you like me to play them?”
“No!” The word exploded from her, sharp and panicked. She swallowed hard, trying to force her voice back to something resembling normal. Her heart hammered against her ribs like it was trying to break free. “Don’t play them. Just... don’t.”
A brief pause followed—that millisecond until FRIDAY finally responded. “Very well, Miss Stark. Shall I maintain your current away message? That you’re visiting Sam Wilson in Louisiana?”
The lie sat heavy in Isabelle’s stomach, curdling with the beer and self-loathing.
“Yes,” she whispered, hating herself a little more with each syllable. “Keep saying that.”
Her fingers found her phone without conscious thought, pulling it from her pocket. The screen illuminated, harsh blue light crossed her face. Christine’s byline stared back at her, black text against white.
“HERO OR HAZARD? Isabelle Stark’s Smithsonian Outburst Reignites Accords Debate.”
She’d avoided it all day, but now her thumb hovered over the screen. Don’t do it. Don’t read it. Her heartbeat quickened, a rapid flutter beneath her ribs.
She took another swig of beer instead, the bitter liquid sliding down her throat in a cold rush that did nothing to douse the heat rising in her chest. The bottle was nearly empty now. She set it on the coffee table with a clink.
“Screw it,” she muttered, tapping the screen.
The article expanded before her eyes, words swimming into focus:
‘When questioned about the Avengers’ current leadership, Stark became visibly agitated. “The interaction quickly escalated,” says Senator Robert Kelly, with Stark exhibiting concerning behaviors including property damage and making what appeared to be threats.’
Her jaw clenched. Property damage. A shattered wine glass.
‘Many are drawing parallels between Stark’s outburst and the Westview Incident, where fellow Avenger Wanda Maximoff held an entire town hostage. With the Sokovia Accords in limbo following the Blip, who monitors these potential threats? As Senator Kelly noted, “Someone who can cause illness with a touch should be subject to the highest levels of regulation. What happens next when she loses control of her abilities? The potential for a public health catastrophe is staggering—”‘
The phone slipped from her suddenly numb fingers, clattering onto the coffee table. Her stomach twisted, acid burning up her throat.
Four days. She’d had four measly days of anonymity in this apartment before Christine Everhart’s hit piece shattered it. A muscle jumped in her jaw. She could feel it—the warning sign—the thing she couldn’t control.
Isabelle pressed her palms against her eyes until stars burst behind her eyelids, pressure building in her skull. “Stupid. So goddamn stupid.” She’d handed Christine exactly what she wanted—a reaction. A moment of weakness. Ammunition.
The apartment walls seemed to contract around her, closing in with each shallow breath. Her gaze landed on the beer bottle, condensation forming a dark ring on the glass coffee table. She reached for it, hand trembling so badly she nearly knocked it over.
A siren wailed fifteen stories below. Not urgent—just ambient city noise. But the pitch of it, the way it Dopplered in and out, mimicked something else entirely.
Not sirens. Screams.
Hundreds of them. Alien, human, mechanical.
Isabelle’s muscles locked. Her fingers tightened around the bottle. She was already halfway back there before she realized she’d flinched.
Iron-rich soil filled her nostrils. The battlefield materialized. The thunderous roar of alien creatures reverberated through her bones. The metallic taste of fear coated her tongue.
Then that terrible silence.
The battlefield had gone deathly still when Thanos stepped through the portal. The air compressed around his massive form, as if gravity bent toward him.
She’d followed Steve, lunging forward without thought, without a plan, just desperation. Just one touch—that’s all she needed. Her mind raced through possibilities: Hemorrhagic fever? Neurotoxin cascade? Targeted stroke?
Her fingertips had grazed his skin, powers reaching out like tendrils, searching for cellular pathways to corrupt, for systems to shut down—
Then, crushing pressure—his hand around her throat.
Her trachea collapsed under his grip. Black spots danced at the edges of her vision as her feet kicked uselessly above the ground.
His eyes.
Not rage. Not hatred.
Something worse: pity.
The world blurred as he hurled her aside, her body cartwheeling through the air—weightless for one suspended heartbeat—
Impact.
Something hard—tree? Rock? Ribs cracked like dry twigs. Her shoulder wrenched with a wet pop that made her stomach lurch, the joint tearing free from its socket.
“Isabelle!” Nat’s voice cut through the haze. Hands gripped her shoulders, fingers digging into her suit. “Stay with me! Look at me!”
Isabelle tried to focus on Nat’s face hovering above her, but her vision kept sliding sideways, refusing to lock onto anything. The battlefield sounds warped around her—too loud, then too soft, like someone was playing with a volume dial.
Nat’s voice cracked, raw with desperation. “Izzy, don’t you dare—”
Then…nothing.
Not darkness or light. Not pain or relief. Just...absence. A complete void of sensation or thought. Non-existence.
Until five years later, when she’d gasped back to life. The same spot. The same dirt under her fingernails. The same pain knifing through cracked ribs and a ruined shoulder—injuries five years old and somehow fresh.
“Miss Stark!”
Isabelle jolted violently, the bottle slipped. Her reflexes kicked in just in time to catch it before it hit the floor. Her heart hammered against her ribcage, the muscle memory of broken bones making her chest ache with phantom pain.
Reality crashed back in segments. Her lungs seized, caught between battlefield dust and apartment air.
“Your vital signs indicate elevated stress levels,” FRIDAY continued, “Your heart rate is currently 142 beats per minute. Perhaps I should call—”
“Don’t call anyone!” Isabelle shouted. The sound ricocheted off bare walls and empty spaces, throwing her own panic back at her. She forced herself to inhale slowly through her nose, counting silently to four before releasing the breath. “Sorry, I just...” She swallowed, throat clicking dryly. “Don’t call anyone.”
The AI’s pause felt weighted, almost human in its hesitation, like FRIDAY was deciding whether to override her command, calculating the probability of her self-destruction.
“Very well, Miss Stark,” FRIDAY finally replied, voice modulated to something gentler, almost maternal.
Isabelle pushed herself off the couch. Her legs felt disconnected from her body as she shuffled toward the kitchen. She yanked the door open, the cold rush of air hitting her, momentarily shocking her system. She blinked rapidly, vision clearing just enough to locate the frozen bag of peas she’d stashed there three nights ago after a similar episode. The plastic crinkled as she pressed the makeshift ice pack against her flushed cheeks. The cold burned at first, then numbed, the pain in her skull receding. Still there, just less deafening.
Then there was a vibration against her thigh.
Isabelle squeezed her eyes shut, pressing the frozen bag harder against her temple until the cold burned a different kind of pain into her skin. “For fuck’s sake,” she muttered, leaning forward until her forehead rested against the refrigerator’s cool metal surface.
“Sam Wilson is calling,” FRIDAY’s tone held something that sounded suspiciously like programmed sarcasm. “Would you like me to inform him you’re away visiting Sam Wilson in Louisiana?”
A strangled laugh escaped her throat, muffled against the freezer door.
“Very funny, FRIDAY.” She pushed herself away from the refrigerator, squaring her shoulders like she was preparing for battle. “I’ll take it.”
Her hand trembled as she pulled the still-vibrating phone from her pocket. Her thumb hovered over the screen. One more second of peace. Just one more...She put the frozen peas back in the freezer with her free hand, the package making a soft thud against the ice tray.
“Hey Sam,” she said, swiping to answer. Her voice came out too high, too brittle. She cleared her throat. “What’s up?” Better. Almost normal.
“Have you seen the news?” Sam’s question cut through pleasantries like a knife.
Her stomach dropped, acid burning up her throat. The cold patch on her cheek from the frozen peas tingled as blood rushed back.”If you mean Everhart’s hit piece, then yeah, had the pleasure. Not really in the mood to talk about it.”
“I—” Sam paused, his voice softening when he continued, though the steel core remained. “Wasn’t calling about that, but you know I’m here if you need to talk, right?”
“Oh.” The syllable fell flat between them. She blinked, thrown off-balance by the pivot. “I know. Thanks.” Her fingernail tapped an anxious rhythm against the phone. “What were you calling about then?”
The knot in her chest tightened. Please, no more aliens.
“Hold on,” Sam said, his voice muffled like he’d turned away from the phone.
She heard rustling, then the rapid-fire tapping of fingers against a screen. Her phone vibrated against her ear—an incoming message. Isabelle pulled it away, squinting at the notification banner sliding down from the top.
A link from Sam. Some news article.
“Government Announces New Captain America: John Walker.”
Her grip tightened on the phone until the case creaked under the pressure.
She read the headline again. And again. The letters blurred, refusing to make sense no matter how many times she blinked. The phone slipped from her fingers and clattered against the counter. She fumbled for it, jabbing at the speaker button with unsteady fingers.
“Is this some kind of sick joke?” Her voice cracked, the sound raw even to her own ears.
“If it were, it ain’t a good one.” She could picture him perfectly—jaw clenched, that little muscle near his temple pulsing the way it did when he was containing himself. “They just announced it out of nowhere. No warning, no discussion. I thought that shield would spend its days behind glass, not—”
He broke off. The silence that followed held more weight than his words.
Isabelle’s throat closed. She slammed her palm against the counter. “How could they—” The sentence fractured, shards of it catching in her throat. “But you—”
She stopped herself, but the unfinished thought hung between them like smoke.
But you were supposed to be Captain America. Steve gave it to you. It was yours.
“Who the hell even is this Walker guy?” she asked instead, pacing now, each step striking the hardwood with increasing force.
“Military man,” Sam replied, his words measured and clipped. “Three Medals of Honor. Special Forces.” A beat. “On paper, he’s the perfect American hero.”
The bitterness in his voice was unmistakable.
“This is bullshit,” she hissed, free hand clenching into a fist.
“Rhodes said the same thing.” Sam paused. When he spoke again, his voice had hardened. “Which, by the way, next time you’re using me as your cover story, a heads-up would be nice. The man called me, worried sick when you weren’t answering his texts.”
Isabelle froze mid-step.
“Shit.” Heat crawled up her neck, prickling under her skin. “I’m sorry, Sam.” The apology felt paper-thin, dissolving on her tongue. “I just... I didn’t think—”
“No, you didn’t think,” Sam cut her off. No cushioning. No gentle Sam Wilson approach. Just truth, sharp enough to draw blood. “We just talked about this, Iz. You promised you’d stop disappearing.”
The fight drained from her like water circling a drain. She snatched her phone from the counter and shuffled back to the couch, limbs suddenly weighted with concrete fatigue.
“I’m in New York,” she admitted, voice small. “I’m at my place, I swear.” Her fingers traced the seam of a decorative pillow, following the stitching like it was a map to somewhere better than here. “After the Smithsonian, I just needed some time to cool down.”
She pressed her palm against her forehead, feeling the throb of an oncoming headache pulsing behind her eyes. She pulled her knees to her chest, making herself smaller. Outside her windows, the city lights blurred, smearing across her vision like watercolors.
Sam was quiet for a moment, and she could almost see him processing, choosing his words carefully, deciding how hard to push.
“You shouldn’t have lied,” he finally said, voice firm but lacking the sharp edge she’d braced for. “Not to Rhodes, not to me.” A heavy exhale crackled through the speaker. “Man, I was genuinely worried when you weren’t answering. I had to stand there looking like an idiot with no idea where you actually were.”
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck, prickling beneath her skin. She pulled her knees tighter to her chest, spine curving.
“And what exactly was your plan here?” Sam pressed, that counselor’s voice slipping through—the one that always managed to get under her defenses. “Did you think I wouldn’t notice you weren’t actually hanging out on my couch eating all my cereal?”
“Your cereal selection is garbage anyway.” The retort tumbled out automatically, muscle memory from countless similar exchanges. “All that healthy granola crap.”
“Don’t deflect,” Sam countered. She caught the hint of amusement warming his tone. It vanished with his next words. “We talked about this, Iz. You promised—no more disappearing acts. Not after last time.”
There was nothing but silence on the line.
Last time.
Last time when she’d disappeared for months after the funeral. No calls, no texts. Just gone.
Her teeth worried at her bottom lip until she tasted copper. The metallic tang of blood snapped her back to the present.
“I fucked up,” she admitted, the words scraping her throat raw. “I know I did. I just...” Her fingers twisted in the hem of her shirt, the fabric bunching between white knuckles. The shame burned hotter than the power simmering beneath her skin.
“Look,” Sam’s sigh made her tense. “Walker wasn’t the only reason I called. And I didn’t call to pull a guilt trip on you either,” he continued, clearly trying to shift the conversation. “Isabelle, I know you’re laying low right now, but I could really use your help on something. I need someone I can trust.”
She knew that tone. It was his ‘I’m-about-to-ask-you-something-you-won’t-want-to-do’ voice.
“Sam...” Her voice came out as a warning, sharp and brittle like ice cracking underfoot.
“Just hear me out,” he said. “This isn’t some world-ending catastrophe.”
“That’s not as reassuring as you think it is.” Isabelle leaned forward, resting her elbows on her knees.
“Fair enough,” Sam huffed out a laugh. “But I wouldn’t ask if it wasn’t important.”
Her leg bounced, heel tapping a nervous rhythm against the hardwood. The vibration traveled up her calf, into her knee. She caught herself chewing her thumbnail and yanked her hand away, tasting the bitter residue of beer.
“What is it?” The question slipped out before she could stop it.
“Have you heard about the Flag Smashers?”
“The who now?” Despite herself, she straightened, eyes narrowing at nothing.
“Taking that as a no.” She could hear the smile in his voice—that small, crooked one he got when he knew he was reeling her in. “They’re a group that popped up after the Blip. Think the world was better during those five years when half the population was gone.”
“Better during the Blip?” Her voice shot up an octave. “Who the hell thinks that?”
“People who had nothing before and suddenly found themselves with opportunities,” Sam replied, his tone measured. “Jobs opened up, housing became available, and resources weren’t stretched so thin. For some folks, the world improved when it emptied out.”
The concept settled uncomfortably in Isabelle’s stomach. She’d never considered that perspective—that her personal apocalypse had been someone else’s salvation. While she’d been nothing but dust scattered across Wakandan soil, others had been building better lives in the emptier world.
Her throat tightened. She swallowed hard.
“They’ve been hitting GRC supply centers,” Sam continued. “The folks trying to help resettle everyone who came back.” His voice hardened. “A kid I work with, Torres, he got pretty banged up tracking them last week. Good kid, too eager for his own good.” A pause. “But we might have a hit on their next location. I don’t want to go in alone.” Another pause, longer this time. When he spoke again, his voice softened. “Come on, Iz. I miss having my partner in crime around.”
“Partner in crime-fighting, you mean?” The banter felt rusty but familiar, like stretching a muscle that hadn’t been used in too long.
“That too.” Sam’s easy laugh warmed something cold inside her.
She thought back to the headline again. ‘Hero or Hazard.’
Maybe this was her chance to answer that question. Not just for the public. But for herself. To prove Christine Everhart wrong. To prove she wasn’t broken, wasn’t dangerous, wasn’t just another enhanced individual who couldn’t control herself.
But what if they were right?
“You know what Nat would say right now, right?” The name caught in her throat, sharp-edged and painful.
The line went silent for a beat. When Sam spoke again, his voice had softened. “Probably something terrifying in Russian before kicking both our asses into gear.”
A laugh bubbled up from somewhere deep in Isabelle’s chest—unexpected, almost painful in its suddenness. “God, she would, wouldn’t she?” The memory of Natasha’s no-nonsense approach to their hesitations sent a pang through her heart. “She’d tell me to stop wallowing and make myself useful.”
“In considerably fewer words,” Sam agreed, his voice warm with shared grief. “But yeah, that’s about the size of it.”
Isabelle watched a cloud drift across the sky, casting a momentary shadow over the buildings below. Her reflection stared back at her from the window—hollow-eyed, hair a mess, the ghost of the woman she used to be.
“If I say yes...” She hesitated, her free hand curling into a fist against her thigh. “If things get too intense, if I start to—” She couldn’t finish the sentence. If I start to lose control. If I become the hazard they think I am.
“You’re out,” Sam finished without hesitation. “No questions, no guilt trips, no ‘one more mission’ speeches. I’m not trying to rally the troops for one last stand. I just need someone I trust watching my back.”
The simplicity of it loosened something in her chest. Not a savior of the universe, not a weapon to be wielded—just a friend with a specific set of skills. Just Isabelle.
“Okay.” She exhaled slowly, feeling something shift inside her—not resolution exactly, but movement where before there had been only stagnation. Her lungs expanded fully for what felt like the first time in days. “I’m in.”
She uncurled her fingers one by one, watching as blood rushed back into the whitened knuckles. Her reflection in the window seemed to sharpen, the edges of her becoming more defined against the darkness beyond. She straightened her spine.
“So when do we start?”
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: Ghosting by Mother Mother
Thank you for reading!
Chapter 4: Right Behind You
Summary:
Tension is already high when Isabelle arrives at the Air Force base—but nothing prepares her for him.
Bucky Barnes is back, and the air crackles with unfinished business the second he walks through the hangar. Words fly. Tempers flare. The past isn’t buried, and the shield is far from forgotten.
And yet—
“You coming, Barnes? Or are you planning to test if super soldiers can outrun jets?”
“Right behind you.”Maybe they haven’t lost everything just yet.
Notes:
BUCKY IS HERE. HE’S FINALLY HERE. 😭🖤 I’ve been waiting so long to bring him into this fic. I hope you love my interpretation of him. Also, I did not expect to enjoy writing Joaquin as much as I did?? He showed up, got roasted, and won my heart.
Thank you as always for reading, commenting, and sticking with Isabelle. I love you 3000. 💫
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The duffle bag strap carved a groove into Isabelle’s shoulder as she followed Sam through the main hangar. This place reminded her of Avengers Compound. Buzzing machinery, personal shouting orders, the metallic clang of tools, that unmistakable jet fuel smell burning her nostrils. Just like the compound. Too much like it.
Her boots squeaked against the polished floor as they rounded a corner. Then, red, white, and blue slashed across her vision. Isabelle stopped dead, her muscles locking into place.
On the wall, John Walker’s face stared back at her, in full Captain America regalia—the suit, the shield, all of it. His chin jutted forward with a self-satisfied smirk, making her blood pressure spike.
YOUR NEW CAPTAIN AMERICA, the poster declared.
Sam backtracked when he realized she wasn’t following. His eyes tracked to the poster, then back to her face, watching her expression harden.
“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me,” she whispered. “These flag-humping Pentagon suits are already stamping him out like some cheap action figure?” She stepped closer, jabbing a finger at the poster. The glossy paper dimpled under her touch. “Just look at this asshole.
“Iz.” Sam’s voice dropped low, a warning wrapped in her nickname. He slid between her and the poster, shoulders blocking her view. “Not here.”
She leaned around him, heat building behind her eyes. “They’re parading him around like he’s the real thing. Like any of these assholes knew Steve.” His name cracked in her mouth like broken glass. “Like they have any right to—”
“Hey.” Sam’s hand found her arm, warm through the fabric of her sleeve. His grip was firm but gentle. “I need you to dial it back about ten notches. Remember where we are.”
His eyes flicked toward the personnel moving around them—airmen with clipboards, officers barking orders, mechanics with grease-stained hands.
“These are good people doing their jobs,” he continued, voice pitched for her ears only. “The grunts on the ground aren’t the ones sitting in war rooms making policy decisions.”
Heat rushed to Isabelle’s cheeks, not embarrassment but anger burning hotter.
“Good people following bad orders are still complicit,” she hissed, meeting his gaze head-on. “You of all people should understand that, Sam. After everything we’ve seen.”
His jaw tightened. “Don’t even go there,” he said, eyes flashing with a warning that made her stomach clench. “You think I don’t feel it too? Seeing that damn poster, it’s like someone’s twisting a knife in my gut. Like they’re erasing him.” He leaned closer, close enough that she could smell the faint mint on his breath. “But we can’t afford to make enemies right now. Not here. Not when we need these resources.”
Isabelle dragged her eyes away from his, focusing instead on the scuffed toes of her boots. A loose thread hung from her laces. She took a breath that shuddered on the way in, filling her lungs with that jet fuel smell that reminded her too much of her father’s workshop.
“Fine,” she muttered, the words clipped and sharp. She adjusted her duffle bag again.
Sam’s expression softened just slightly, the corner of his mouth twitching. He nodded toward the corridor ahead.
She fell into step beside him, forcing herself not to look back at the poster. But she could still feel it watching her, Walker’s smug face burning into her back as they walked away.
Further down the walkway, a man approached from the opposite end. Isabelle clocked his injuries immediately, his face looking like he’d gone ten rounds with a heavyweight. Purple-yellow bruises bloomed across his cheekbones, his left eye swollen so the skin stretched shiny and taut. Burst capillaries spiderwebbed across the white of his right eye.
He smiled at Sam. This was the man Sam told her about. The kid he worked with, who tracked the Flag Smashers.
“He seems like a good guy,” the man said, nodding back toward the hallway they’d just left. “Have you met him yet?”
Isabelle’s jaw clenched so hard her molars ached. Either this guy’s enthusiasm was genuine, or he’d suffered brain damage along with his facial injuries.
Sam shot her a look that could’ve frozen lava—a clear “don’t you dare” warning. She caught the nearly imperceptible tightening around his eyes, the slight flare of his nostrils.
“No, haven’t had the pleasure,” Sam replied, shifting his weight subtly to include Isabelle in the conversation. “Iz, this is First Lieutenant Joaquin Torres. Torres, this is—”
“Isabelle Stark,” Joaquin finished. Something like awe flickered across his features, making him look suddenly younger. He thrust out his hand with such eagerness that he winced at his own movement. “Holy sh—” He caught himself, glancing at Sam before continuing. “Sorry. It’s just—this is so cool. Sick Girl—awesome. You’re like, easily my second favorite Avenger.”
The naked admiration blindsided her. Isabelle was accustomed to people flinching away, to the subtle shift of bodies creating distance in crowded rooms. Most civilians either feared her or treated her like she might infect them with something. But Joaquin looked at her like she was something special—something good.
“Second favorite, huh?” Isabelle felt a reluctant smile tug at her lips as she shook his hand, careful not to grip too hard. The simple human contact—without fear—dissolved some of the rage still simmering in her chest. “Who beat me out for first place?”
Joaquin’s face fell like she’d asked him to choose between oxygen and water. His gaze ping-ponged between her and Sam, Adam’s apple bobbing nervously. “Well, I mean—that’s—”
“Yeah, Torres.” Sam crossed his arms over his chest, eyebrow arching dangerously high as he leaned forward. “Who exactly beat her out for first?” He smirked, enjoying this.
“You’re definitely top three, boss,” Joaquin rushed to say, reaching out to pat Sam’s shoulder before pulling his hand back with an awkward laugh.
Sam’s eyes narrowed to suspicious slits. “But not number one.”
Isabelle snorted, the sound escaping before she could trap it. The knot of tension that had been coiled in her chest since seeing Walker’s poster loosened another fraction.
“So who’s your number one?” she pressed, unable to resist the opportunity to needle Sam further. She caught his exasperated look and bit the inside of her cheek to keep from grinning.
Joaquinn shifted his weight, looking both apologetic and starstruck as he admitted, “Ant-Man.”
“I’m sorry—” Isabelle blinked, certain she’d misheard. The name ricocheted through her brain like a bullet. “Ant-Man? Scott Lang?”
Sam made a sound like he’d been personally wounded. “The dude whose main superpower is shrinking?” His hand sliced through the air in disbelief. “That’s your number one?”
A laugh bubbled up in Isabelle’s throat. “You’re telling me,” she said, leaning forward, “that a guy who talks to bugs outranks super soldier training and literal disease manipulation?” The absurdity of it hit her again, and she pressed her lips together to keep from laughing harder.
“The ants have names,” Joaquin said, his face lighting up with earnest enthusiasm. His bruised eye crinkled despite the swelling. “He named them. That’s commitment. And tactically speaking, the shrinking thing is genius for reconnaissance.”
Sam pinched the bridge of his nose. “I fly, Torres,” he said, voice flat with disbelief. “With actual wings. Mechanical ones that don’t require bug telepathy.”
“Which is awesome,” Joaquin assured him quickly, hands coming up in a placating gesture. “Definitely awesome. Top three material.”
“Top three,” Sam muttered, shaking his head. The corner of his mouth twitched downward.
“Wait—” Isabelle’s lips curled into a mischievous smile as a memory surfaced, crystal clear despite the years. She turned to Sam with deliberate slowness, savoring the moment. “Didn’t he kick your ass once? On the Compound’s roof...”
She snapped her fingers like she was struggling to remember, though the security footage had been one of her favorite videos. Her father had shown it to her three times, cackling each time Sam went spinning across the concrete.
Sam’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin. “It was a recruitment assessment.” Each word came out clipped and precise, like he was reading from an official report. His eyes narrowed at her, a silent warning that only made her smile widen. “A controlled evaluation of his capabilities.”
Isabelle locked eyes with Joaquin, who watched their exchange with the rapt attention of someone witnessing their favorite TV show play out in real life. She leaned in conspiratorially, though her voice carried easily to Sam.
“I’ve got the security footage backed up in three different places,” she stage-whispered, the words warm with amusement. Her lips quirked up at the corner. “He got taken down by an ex-con who was literally the size of an ant. Redwing went haywire, Sam was spinning in circles...” She twirled her finger for emphasis, tracing tight loops in the air between them.
“It wasn’t—” Sam started, then cut himself off with a huff.
“There was this part where he shrunk down,” Isabelle continued, “and Sam’s all ‘where’d he go?’ and then—” She slapped her hands together with a sharp crack that echoed through the corridor. A passing airman glanced over, then quickly looked away. “Lang pops back to normal size and sends him flying. Full superhero landing and everything while Sam’s eating concrete. Got his ass handed to him,” Isabelle finished, unable to keep the grin off her face. “By a guy who named his ants.”
Joaquin’s laugh burst out before he could stop it.
“If we could focus,” Sam interrupted, glaring at Isabelle. “Now that you two have bonded over my professional humiliation, maybe we could get back to the reason we’re actually here?”
Isabelle met Sam’s eyes, not bothering to hide the smirk that tugged at the corner of her mouth.
“Right, right,” Joaquin straightened, all business now despite the lingering smile. “I’m almost done with the checklist for your equipment. Everything should be ready by the time you land in Munich.”
Isabelle fell into step behind them as they descended a metal staircase. Her gaze kept drifting to Joaquin’s face. Curiosity mingled with her natural concern, her mind automatically cataloging which injuries were fresh and which had already been healing for several days.
“So, Torres,” she said, quickening her stride until she flanked him opposite Sam. “Who made your face look like you went ten rounds with a meat tenderizer?” She knew the answer, of course, but couldn’t help it. It was a family trait. Words coming out before her brain could filter them.
Joaquin winced reflexively, hand lifting toward his face before stopping mid-air, like he’d forgotten how bad it looked until she mentioned it.
“Flag Smashers,” he admitted, a flush creeping up his neck past his collar. “I was tracking them through some online forums, managed to get invited to one of their meetups. Then—” He gestured to his face with a self-deprecating shrug. “Well, they don’t pull their punches.”
“Flag Smashers,” Isabelle repeated, the name feeling ridiculous in her mouth, like chewing on something that shouldn’t be edible. “Sounds like a rejected boy band from 2010.”
Sam snorted but his eyes remained serious. “They’re anything but amateur hour,”He glanced at a passing officer before continuing, voice dropping to just above a whisper.
“Yeah, they’re...” Joaquin paused, eyes unfocusing slightly like he was replaying footage in his head. His tongue darted out to wet his lips, catching on the small split at the corner of his mouth. “Different. Not normal. The dude who did this to me—” he gestured at his face, “—moved like nothing I’ve ever seen. Stronger than he should’ve been. Faste,r too.”
They descended the final flight of stairs, the hangar sprawled out before them. Isabelle opened her mouth to ask Joaquin another question when something stopped her mid-stride.
No. Not something. Someone.
Her body registered his presence before her brain did—a sudden electric current zipping down her spine, every nerve ending suddenly, painfully alert. Her step faltered, boot scuffing against concrete as her breath caught in her throat.
Across the hangar floor, cutting through the crowd like a knife through water, was Bucky Barnes.
The sea of uniforms parted around him instinctively, bodies shifting out of his path without conscious thought. Even at this distance, Isabelle could read the rigid set of his shoulders, the controlled precision of each step. Heat seemed to roll off him in waves, like asphalt on a summer day.
Six months. Six months since she’d last seen him, standing silent and stone-faced at her father’s funeral.
He’d cut his hair. The long, shaggy strands she remembered were gone, replaced by a shorter style that still managed to look disheveled, like he’d run frustrated fingers through it a dozen times today. Civilian clothes hung on his frame—dark pants and a fitted jacket that couldn’t quite disguise the lethal strength beneath. Gloves concealed his hands, both flesh and metal.
His face had changed, too—or maybe it was just her memory playing tricks. His jawline seemed sharper, more defined beneath the stubble that shadowed it. His eyes, fixed on Sam with laser-like focus, were winter-cold blue, the color of deep ice with storms trapped beneath.
“—don’t you think, Iz?” Sam’s voice broke through her trance.
“What?” Isabelle blinked, reality rushing back in. Her mouth felt suddenly dry.
Sam tracked her gaze across the hangar, his expression shifting from confusion to recognition to something harder. His jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin.
“Sam?” Isabelle edged closer until her shoulder pressed against his arm. “Did you invite him—”
“No,” Sam cut her off, voice dropping to a harsh whisper. “I absolutely did not.”
“Holy shit,” Torres whispered beside them, tugging nervously at his uniform collar. “That’s Bucky Barnes.”
Bucky closed the distance between them. His eyes locked on Sam, never once flickering to Isabelle or acknowledging Joaquin. “Wilson.” His voice was rough gravel, like he hadn’t used it in days.
“Barnes.” Sam’s reply came cold, none of the warmth Isabelle was accustomed to hearing in his voice. “Fancy seeing you here. Thought you were still ghosting everyone’s calls.”
Bucky’s metal fingers flexed beneath his glove—a microscopic tell that sent Isabelle’s pulse racing. “We need to talk,” he said.
“Do we now?” Sam crossed his arms, shoulders squaring. “Six months of radio silence and suddenly we need to talk?”
The tension between them was a physical thing, crackling like a live wire. Isabelle’s skin prickled with it.
“You gave away the shield.” Not a question—an accusation. Bucky’s voice vibrated with barely contained fury. His jaw clenched so tight Isabelle could almost hear his molars grinding. “Steve’s shield.”
Sam’s eyebrows shot up, his chest expanding with a slow, deliberate breath. “I don’t have time for this.” Sam stepped forward, deliberately driving his shoulder into Bucky’s as he passed.
The collision would have staggered most men. Bucky didn’t move an inch. His eyes tracked Sam’s retreat, narrowing as his head pivoted slowly. The muscles in his neck corded with tension. He turned on his heel, stalking after Sam.
Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. The shield. Of course. It clicked into place like the final tumbler in a lock. That wasn’t just anger on Bucky’s face—it was betrayal.
“Surprised they let him in here,” Torres murmured beside her, his voice dropping to a near-whisper as they both watched Bucky’s retreating back. “I mean, with his history and all the—” He made a vague gesture with his hand, somehow encompassing decades of assassinations, international incidents, and a rap sheet that spanned continents.
The Winter Soldier’s resume, condensed into a nervous hand flutter.
“He’s an Avenger,” Isabelle replied automatically, the words leaving her mouth before her brain could catch them.
Was he, though?
He’d fought alongside them against Thanos, had stood shoulder-to-shoulder. But had anyone actually offered him the title? Who was even left that could?
Not her father. Not Steve. Not Natasha.
Her eyes tracked Bucky as he caught up to Sam. His shoulders bunched beneath the jacket, the fabric straining. Fragments of their argument reached Isabelle, cutting pieces that didn’t form a complete picture but drew blood nonetheless.
“Steve trusted you with it, and you threw it away.”
He’d planted himself directly in Sam’s path. His right hand hovered near Sam’s chest, index finger extended but not quite making contact—a soldier who knew exactly where the line was, who wanted desperately to cross it but wouldn’t allow himself to.
The careful mask he always wore had fractured. Isabelle caught glimpses of something jagged and bleeding underneath—pain so naked it made her chest tighten. His eyes, usually guarded behind walls of ice, now burned with vulnerability.
Sam tried to sidestep Bucky, but the former assassin mirrored his movement. Like a dance they’d rehearsed a thousand times. The tendons in Sam’s neck stood out as he struggled to keep his voice low, his hand reaching out in a gesture that was half pleading, half exasperated.
“What do you want me to do? Call America and tell ‘em I changed my mind? Huh?” His hand sliced through the air. “Walk into the Pentagon and demand the shield back?”
“Maybe you should.” Even from this distance, Isabelle heard the leather of Bucky’s glove creak as his fist clenched. The sound sent a shiver crawling up her spine. “Because you had no right to give up on what Steve believed in you—”
Something in Sam snapped. The expression on his face made Isabelle’s breath catch—she’d seen Sam face down aliens and terrorists with less intensity than this.
“Hey.” He stepped forward, eliminating the distance until he and Bucky stood nearly chest to chest. “This is what you’re not gonna do. You’re not gonna come at me in your overextended life and lecture me about my rights.”
A muscle jumped in Bucky’s jaw. His face went carefully blank, that assassin’s mask sliding back into place, but not before Isabelle caught a flash of something that looked suspiciously like guilt.
Joaquin fidgeted beside her, his bruised face contorting with discomfort. “Should we, uh—” he gestured vaguely toward the confrontation, “—do something?”
Isabelle scanned the hangar floor, suddenly aware of the shifting attention around them. A technician with grease-stained coveralls abandoned his clipboard, mouth hanging slightly open. Two officers paused mid-conversation, heads swiveling toward the confrontation. A mechanic elbowed his colleague, nodding toward the spectacle.
She turned back to Sam and Bucky. Their voices had dropped to dangerous lows, but their body language screamed a warning—Sam’s finger jabbing the air inches from Bucky’s chest, Bucky’s metal hand opening and closing.
“I’ll handle this,” she told Joaquinn, already moving. She caught his anxious gaze, how his eyes kept darting between the confrontation and the nearest exit. “Can you finish prepping the plane? We’ll meet you there once I’ve prevented a homicide.”
Relief washed over him. “Yeah, absolutely,” he stammered, backing away. “I’ll just—” he gestured vaguely toward the far side of the hangar, “—go do that.”
Isabelle approached the standoff, but neither man noticed her.
“—you think Steve would’ve wanted this?”
“Don’t you dare—”
“Gentlemen,” Isabelle cut in, sliding between them.
Both men startled, heads snapping toward her as if suddenly remembering the world existed outside themselves. Sam’s chest heaved with a sharp inhale. Bucky went utterly still.
“As fascinating as this very public therapy session is,” she continued, “maybe we could take it somewhere with fewer audience members?” She tilted her head toward the growing circle of airmen who had abandoned any pretense of work, some actually leaning against equipment with crossed arms and unabashed interest. “Unless you’re planning to sell tickets?”
Bucky’s eyes finally—finally—met hers, and the contact hit like an electrical surge through her chest. For a heartbeat, something raw and unguarded flickered across his face—surprise, recognition, and something else that made her stomach flip—before the shutters came down again, his expression hardening into that careful neutrality she knew too well.
“Isabelle,” he said, her name rough in his mouth, like a word practiced in private but rarely spoken aloud. His gaze swept her face, lingering for a fraction too long. “I—I didn’t know you’d be here.”
“Clearly,” she replied, arching an eyebrow, “or you might have started with ‘hello’ instead of initiating World War III in the middle of an Air Force base.” She shifted her weight, deliberately creating space between them while maintaining her position as a human barrier.
Sam exhaled, a controlled release of air through clenched teeth. “She’s right.” His eyes swept the gathering audience, muscles tightening along his jaw. “Not here.”
“Then where?” Bucky challenged, voice radiating something deeper than anger. “Because decisions about Steve’s shield apparently happen without the people who actually knew him.”
“You think I made that decision lightly?” Sam stepped forward, closing the distance Isabelle had created.
She moved without thinking, palms pressing against their chests, pushing them apart. “What the hell did I just say?” Her gaze darted between them before locking on Sam. “Wasn’t it you telling me to dial it back ten minutes ago? Something about not making enemies?” Her fingers pressed harder against his sternum. “Take your own advice before you join me on Everhart’s next hit piece.”
Sam’s eyes met hers—anger warring with reason behind them. He stepped back with a tight nod.
Bucky remained rigid under her touch, his eyes darting between her and Sam, and for a moment, Isabelle thought he might refuse to back down. But then, almost imperceptibly, something shifted. Not surrender—Bucky Barnes didn’t surrender—but a tactical retreat. He shrugged her hand off with a quick, controlled movement and nodded.
Sam straightened his jacket with a sharp tug, squaring his shoulders as he fixed Bucky with a hard look. “Now, if you’ll excuse us, we’re working,” he said, voice dropping into that command tone that left no room for argument. “We have bigger things to deal with right now.”
“What could be bigger than this?” The question wasn’t a challenge but a genuine plea. Bucky kept his eyes on them, almost in disbelief.
Isabelle recognized that ache. She’d felt it searing through her own chest when she’d seen Walker’s poster, that same sense of something sacred being violated. The shield wasn’t just vibranium and paint—it was Steve. It was everything he’d stood for.
“Bucky,” she said, his name softer in her mouth than she’d intended. She swallowed, recalibrating. “I know how you feel.” Her eyes flicked toward Sam. “But Sam’s right. Something is happening. Something that unfortunately has to take precedence.”
Bucky’s eyes locked with hers. His gaze was unreadable, and that unsettled her more than any glare could have.
“Fine,” he said, his lips pressing into a tight line as he took a half-step back. When his gaze shifted to Sam, the temperature seemed to drop ten degrees. “What’s so important that it takes precedence over Captain America’s shield being handed off to some government stooge who’s never bled for anything in his life?”
Sam pinched the bridge of his nose, pressing hard enough to leave faint red marks against his skin. A muscle twitched in his jaw as he shot Isabelle a look that clearly said: Great, there’s two of you now.
His shoulders rose and fell with a deep breath that seemed to physically pain him.
With a resigned sigh that seemed to come from somewhere beneath his ribcage, Sam pulled out his phone, then held it out to Bucky with barely contained frustration.
“This guy.” He jabbed a finger at the screen, showing a screenshot of the Flag Smasher who had attacked Joaquin. “He’s connected to a rebel organization that’s been hitting targets all over Eastern and Central Europe.”
Bucky, however, seemed unimpressed. He pulled back, crossing his arms over his chest. “Okay, and?” His voice was gruff, bordering on dismissive. His eyes flickered to Isabelle for a split second before darting away.
Sam’s nostrils flared as he shoved the phone back into his pocket. “They’re calling themselves the Flag Smashers. They’ve been gaining traction online, pulling off coordinated attacks across borders. Not random—targeted. Strategic.” He tapped his temple. “Redwing traced them to Munich.” He gestured between himself and Isabelle, the movement sharp. “We’re heading there to check it out.”
“Flag Smashers,” Bucky repeated flatly, “that’s what we’re calling the bad guys now?” He shifted his weight, fixing Sam with a skeptical look, his eyes narrowing. “Well, I don’t trust Redwing.”
“You don’t need to,” Sam scoffed, already turning away. The dismissal was pointed and deliberate. He nodded toward Isabelle, a clear signal to follow. “You’re not a part of this.”
Isabelle hesitated, her gaze flickering between them. She watched Bucky’s face, saw the flicker of something vulnerable beneath the hardened exterior, the way his eyes tracked Sam’s movements with a mixture of frustration and something that looked suspiciously like abandonment.
Before her brain could catch up with her mouth, Isabelle called out.
“Maybe he should be.” The words came softer than she intended, barely carrying over the ambient hangar noise. She cleared her throat and tried again, louder this time. “A part of this, I mean.”
Sam froze mid-step. His head whipped around so fast that Isabelle was surprised he didn’t pull something. “What?” The single syllable dropped between them like a grenade with the pin pulled.
Bucky’s head snapped toward her, surprise flickering across his features—genuine, unguarded surprise that made him look suddenly younger, more human. His eyes narrowed slightly, studying her face as if searching for the punchline.
“I think he could help us,” Isabelle continued, gesturing toward Bucky with an open palm. Her heart hammered against her ribs, but she kept her voice steady, reasonable. “These Flag Smashers—they’re enhanced, have to be, with how Torres described them.”
Her mind raced through the tactical advantages—Bucky’s superhuman strength, decades of combat experience, and his ability to blend in. But those weren’t the only reasons, and she knew it. There was something about the lost look in his eyes, the way he’d said Steve’s name like it physically hurt him.
“Having another super soldier might be the difference between reconnaissance and a body bag.” She took a half-step forward, closing the distance between them.
Sam’s expression shifted through disbelief, irritation, and something that might have been seeing the sense in her argument. “Let me get this straight,” he said, his face settling into a carefully controlled exasperation. “You want to bring him—” he jabbed a finger toward Bucky without looking at him. “—on a covert mission? The Winter Soldier? The guy whose face is in history books under ‘world’s most wanted assassin’?”
“Former assassin,” Bucky corrected, his voice a low rumble that Isabelle felt more than heard.
Sam pinched the bridge of his nose, inhaling deeply through flared nostrils. The sound whistled slightly. “Iz, we’re trying to fly under the radar here. Barnes isn’t exactly known for his subtlety. He can’t even get through a metal detector.”
“I’m standing right here,” Bucky interjected, crossing his arms over his chest. “And I can be subtle when I need to be.” His eyes flicked briefly to Isabelle before returning to Sam, something unreadable passing across his features. “I spent two years in Bucharest without anyone finding me. I think I can manage this.”
“Yeah, until you didn’t,” Sam countered, his eyebrows shooting up toward his hairline. “Or did you forget the part where half the German special forces tried to take you out in a tunnel? The part where cars were flipping and helicopters were crashing and—”
“That wasn’t my fault,” Bucky replied, his voice cooling several degrees. “And if we’re tallying property damage, let’s talk about you and that helicopter in Berlin—”
“Oh, for—” Isabelle stepped between them again, hands raised like she was trying to separate two feral cats. “Can we focus for five seconds? This isn’t a pissing contest.”
Her voice echoed slightly in the hangar, drawing a few more stares from nearby personnel. A mechanic paused mid-wrench turn, watching them with undisguised interest.
Sam’s gaze darted between them, shrewd and assessing. His eyes narrowed at Bucky, who had regained his composure but still stood with his body angled subtly toward Isabelle—a detail she tried very hard not to overthink.
Sam rubbed a hand over his face, fingers pressing into his temples like he was trying to physically push the headache out of his skull. “I must be losing my damn mind,” he muttered, dropping his hand with a soft slap against his thigh. His eyes returned to Bucky, hard and serious. “Fine. You can come.”
Bucky’s eyebrows rose a fraction of an inch—his equivalent of open-mouthed shock.
“But,” Sam’s inhale whistled through flared nostrils, “there are conditions. Non-negotiable.”
“Name them.” Bucky straightened, shoulders squared, chin lifted slightly, feet shoulder-width apart. Isabelle recognized the stance immediately: a soldier awaiting orders.
“One.” Sam thrust his index finger up. “You follow my lead. Every call, every decision. No disappearing acts, no ‘I work better alone’ bullshit. We’re not in a spy thriller.”
Bucky’s brow twitched, but he remained silent, eyes never leaving Sam’s face. He nodded.
“Two.” Another finger shot up. “No killing unless absolutely necessary. We contain, we question, we learn.” Sam’s voice dropped lower. “I don’t need bodies dropping everywhere we go.”
Something dangerous flashed behind Bucky’s eyes. “I don’t kill people for fun, Wilson.”
“Didn’t say you did,” Sam countered without missing a beat. “But your definition of ‘necessary’ and mine might differ considerably.” His eyes narrowed. “So we’re clarifying now.”
Isabelle shifted her weight. Her heart hammered against her ribs as she watched the exchange, wondering if she’d just made a catastrophic mistake.
“Three.” Sam’s third finger joined the others. “We are not discussing the shield. Not during this mission, not on the plane, not at all. That conversation is tabled indefinitely.”
Bucky’s face remained carefully blank, but Isabelle caught the subtle tells—the tightening around his eyes, the almost imperceptible flare of his nostrils, the way his gloved hand flexed once before going still.
“Fine,” he said finally.
The word hung between them, neither surrender nor acceptance. A tactical retreat. Isabelle recognized the strategy. She’d deployed it herself countless times with her father.
“Great,” Sam said, not sounding remotely pleased. He checked his watch with a deliberate flick of his wrist, lips pressing into a thin line. “Wheels up in fifteen. If you’re not on the plane, we leave without you.” His eyes locked with Bucky’s. “I’m not kidding.” Sam turned to Isabelle, his expression softening fractionally. The hard lines around his mouth eased. “I need to finish the pre-flight check with Torres.”
Without waiting for a response, Sam strode away. Silence expanded between Isabelle and Bucky. She became acutely aware of her breathing, of the weight of her duffle bag cutting into her shoulder. She shifted awkwardly.
“You didn’t have to do that,” Bucky said, sensing her discomfort. His eyes remained fixed on Sam’s retreating form.
She shot him a questioning look, unsure what he meant.
“Vouch for me.” He turned to face her fully. He looked over her face before his eyes darted away. “Why did you?”
The question caught her off guard. Why had she? The tactical advantages were obvious, but there was something else—something about the lost look in his eyes when he’d talked about Steve, about the shield.
She recognized that look. She saw it in the mirror every morning.
“Because we need you,” she said, the words coming out more honest than she’d intended. Something flickered across his face—surprise, maybe, or disbelief. She cleared her throat. “Tactically, I mean. These Flag Smashers—if they’re enhanced, we’re going to need all the super-soldier help we can get.”
Isabelle tightened her grip on her duffle strap and turned to go. Her boots had barely scraped against the concrete when his voice stopped her.
“Isabelle.”
She froze. Her name in his mouth still sounded strange—careful, like he was testing the weight of it. Like someone handling a weapon they weren’t sure how to use. She looked back over her shoulder, finding his eyes fixed on her with that same unsettling intensity.
“Thank you,” he said simply.
The words seemed to cost him something, each syllable deliberate and rough around the edges. For bringing him along? For speaking up? For seeing something in him worth salvaging? She wasn’t sure which, and suspected he might not be either.
“Of course.” The words felt inadequate, but she couldn’t think of anything better. She forced a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes, gesturing toward the plane with a jerky sweep of her arm. “We should probably...” She cleared her throat, suddenly desperate to escape the intensity of his gaze. “Sam wasn’t kidding about leaving us.”
She turned, taking two steps before glancing back over her shoulder. Bucky hadn’t moved, still watching her with that unreadable expression that made her skin prickle with awareness.
“You coming, Barnes? Or are you planning to test if super soldiers can outrun jets?”
He seemed to snap out of whatever thought had held him, nodding once. “Right behind you.”
The weight of his gaze followed her all the way to the door, raising goosebumps along her spine that had nothing to do with the cold draft seeping into the hangar.
What the hell had she just done?
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: Unbelievable by EMF
Thank you for reading!
Chapter 5: A Man Out Of Time
Summary:
The suit used to mean something. Control. Purpose. Identity.
Now, it just feels heavy.As the team flies toward Munich, tension brews in the cargo hold. Isabelle suits up for the first time in months, grappling with ghosts stitched into every seam. Sam is quiet—but sharp. Bucky? He’s…complicated.
A chance mention of Narnia opens a door neither of them expected.
“Reepicheep,” Bucky says. The name lands like a secret.
Maybe he understands more than she thought.But with turbulence inside and out, and Sam retreating behind zipped lips, one thing becomes painfully clear:
It’s going to be a long flight.
Notes:
Wow. Chapter Five already? Firstly, I just want to say a massive thank you to everyone who’s been reading, commenting, bookmarking, and supporting. Seriously 💜😭
I started writing this back in September, finished the first draft in January, and then...I sat on it. For months. Too nervous to share and post anything again. Life made writing feel hard and unfun for a while. But this story, and just the fact that you're here, made it fun again, made it exciting, so thank you!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The black and green fabric felt alien under Isabelle’s fingertips. Not unfamiliar—worse. Too familiar. She traced the seam where emerald panels met the deep black base, feeling the ridge between materials. A whisper of a memory ghosted across her mind.
The Triskelion. Three months after aliens had torn through New York. Four months after she’d finally admitted to herself that her condition wasn’t going away.
She remembered running her fingers along this same material. Back then, the suit wasn’t flashy. SHIELD standard issue with green accents that matched Natasha’s red ones. The weight of it had meant something different then.
The changing room had been claustrophobic, all hard angles and fluorescent light that made her skin look sickly pale. She’d watched herself disappear beneath the tactical material, each piece covering another inch of Tony Stark’s awkward daughter until someone else stared back from the mirror.
The suit had hugged her frame too tightly, pressing against her ribs with each inhale, a constant reminder: this isn’t a game anymore.
When she’d emerged, Natasha had been waiting, arms crossed, face a careful blank.
“Well?” Isabelle had asked, arms spread wide, voice steadier than the tremor in her hands.
Natasha’s eyes had narrowed, calculating. Not judging—assessing. “The suit doesn’t make the agent, Stark.” She’d stepped forward, fingers cool and precise as she adjusted the collar where it pinched Isabelle’s neck. “But it’s a start.”
The suit evolved as she did. With each mission, each failure, each success, she’d tailored it. Added reinforcements at weak points. Streamlined it for speed. Enhanced it for stealth. The more she embraced what the public dubbed her— ‘Sick Girl’—the more the suit reflected her power.
God, she hated that name. Stupid. Insulting. Just the thing she could do. The thing she’d never asked for.
Every time she heard it, she was twelve years old again. Sitting alone at the corner table in the school cafeteria, plastic tray pushed to the center, untouched. Watching classmates whisper behind cupped hands, their eyes darting toward her, then quickly away. The way they’d edge their chairs back when she approached, like proximity was contagious.
Because it was.
Jenna Faraway had called her “freak” once, right to her face. Twenty minutes later, Jenna doubled over, vomiting on her new white sneakers. Isabelle hadn’t meant to. Hadn’t understood what was happening. But everyone knew. Everyone saw.
But no one could explain it.
After that, the empty circle around her grew wider. Parents made phone calls. Teachers kept their distance. Even the lunch lady would slide her tray across the counter rather than risk their fingers touching.
She remembered when putting on the suit felt like freedom. Like purpose. She’d been eager then, fingers fumbling with zippers and clasps, heart racing with anticipation rather than dread. Natasha had watched with that half-smile that meant approval.
For a while, she’d been something more than the girl who made people sick. She’d been an agent. An Avenger. Someone who could control the thing that had controlled her for so long.
But now, as her fingers drifted across the fabric, something hollow settled in her chest. The material no longer felt like a second skin—it felt like a shroud.
Isabelle sucked in a breath that pushed painfully against her ribs and yanked the zipper up, the sound sliced through the quiet.
The suit hummed to life against her skin. Green lines flickered along the seams, pulsing like electronic veins against the black fabric. The eerie glow reflected off the metal walls, casting her shadow in sickly shades of emerald.
“Systems online,” FRIDAY’s voice slid through her comms. “Running diagnostics.”
Isabelle flexed her fingers, watching the green light ripple across her knuckles.
“Heart rate elevated at ninety-four beats per minute,” FRIDAY continued. “Blood pressure one-twenty over eighty. Oxygen saturation at ninety-eight percent.”
Isabelle slid her feet into combat boots.
“Biometric readings within acceptable parameters. Suit integrity at one hundred percent. Power cells charged.”
She tugged on her fingerless gloves, feeling the slight resistance as the material aligned with the suit’s sensors. The exposed skin of her fingertips buzzed—her power already responding to the adrenaline coursing through her system.
“If I may, Miss Stark—your cortisol levels suggest—”
“I’m fine.” She flexed her hands, watching the green light pulse brighter with each heartbeat. Not unstable. Just... ready. “Give me the all-clear, FRI.”
A pause. “All systems operational. You are cleared for deployment.”
Isabelle sighed, adjusting her gloves one final time, tugging the material until it sat just right.
With a sharp exhale, she yanked back the curtain.
The cargo hold stretched before her—all hard angles and utility, steel floors that reflected the dim overhead lights in dull patches. Bucky stood at the weapons rack, his broad shoulders tensed beneath a navy leather jacket. His fingers froze mid-adjustment on his collar, eyes flicking to her for a fraction of a second before snapping away.
The subtle tightening around his mouth didn’t escape her notice. Neither did the way his metal hand flexed unconsciously at his side, plates whirring almost indiscernibly.
The suit’s sensors prickled against her skin like static electricity, registering the slight spike in her pulse.
“Well, look who finally decided to join the party,” Sam called from where he stood, checking his wing pack. The red and silver gleamed under the cargo hold lights as his fingers worked methodically over the mechanisms. “I was starting to think you were sewing that thing from scratch in there.”
“Well, you know us Starks,” she replied, crossing the hold. Her hips swayed slightly—that unconscious performance of confidence she’d perfected years ago. The one that said ‘I belong here’ when everything inside screamed she didn’t. “We like to make an entrance.”
The plane suddenly lurched sideways, hitting a pocket of turbulence that had the metal walls groaning in protest. Isabelle’s stomach dropped as her balance faltered. Her hand shot out reflexively, fingers wrapping around an overhead strap so tightly her knuckles blanched white beneath the green glow of her suit.
“Shit,” she hissed through clenched teeth as another violent shake rattled through the fuselage. Her free hand pressed flat against the wall to steady herself, the cold metal biting into her exposed fingertips.
She squeezed her eyes shut, counting breaths—the familiar pressure built behind her sternum—that tightness that always came with flying. Not fear exactly. More like the visceral certainty that humans weren’t meant to be suspended 30,000 feet above the earth in metal tubes.
“Have I mentioned how much I hate flying?” The words came out strained, her jaw tight.
“Every time,” Sam muttered, bracing himself against the wall, wing pack secured against his chest. “Literally every single time.”
Across the hold, Bucky stood with his feet planted shoulder-width apart, barely affected by the turbulence. His body swayed slightly with the motion, compensating and shifting his weight. His eyes met hers—steel blue and searching.
“You okay?” he asked, the question so quiet she almost missed it beneath the rumble of the engines.
Something in his tone made her chest tighten. Not pity. Something worse. Understanding.
“Always,” she answered automatically, the lie practiced and smooth.
Bucky’s eyes dropped to the floor, then back to her face. His jaw tightened. He didn’t buy it. But he didn’t press. Just a slight nod, the barest dip of his chin.
The turbulence eased, leaving only the steady hum of engines vibrating through the metal floor. Isabelle uncurled her white-knuckled fingers from the overhead strap one by one, flexing them to restore circulation.
“So, these Flag Smashers...” Bucky’s voice cut through the silence, trailing off as if he’d surprised himself by speaking. His eyes darted briefly to Isabelle before fixing on some point in the middle distance. “What else do we know about them?”
The question hung in the air. Isabelle watched as Sam, mid-adjustment of his wing pack straps, froze. His shoulders tensed beneath his tactical gear, and he shot Bucky a look that could have curdled milk.
“Sam thinks they’re part of the big three,” Isabelle cut in, fighting back the twitch at the corner of her mouth as confusion clouded Bucky’s features.
“The big three?” Bucky’s brow furrowed, head tilting slightly to the side. The movement was almost dog-like—a comparison she’d never voice aloud unless she wanted that metal hand around her throat.
“The big three,” Sam repeated with exaggerated patience, giving both of them a look that screamed ‘Are you serious right now?’
Isabelle bit the inside of her cheek to keep from laughing.
“What big three?” Bucky insisted, his confusion morphing into irritation. His eyes darted between Sam and Isabelle, searching for context, finding none.
“Told you it wasn’t a thing,” Isabelle stage-whispered to Sam, nudging him with her elbow.
Sam glared at her, betrayal written across his features.
“It’s totally a thing!” he hissed, before turning back to Bucky with the air of someone explaining quantum physics to a toddler. “The big three. Androids, aliens, and wizards. You know, the trifecta of weird we keep running into.”
Bucky stared at him for a long moment, face completely blank. Isabelle could almost see the gears turning behind those steel-blue eyes, processing this information.
“That’s not a thing,” he finally said, squinting slightly.
“It absolutely is a thing,” Sam insisted, gesturing emphatically with one hand. “Every time we turn around, it’s one of the three. You can set your watch by it.”
“Your watch must run weird,” Bucky muttered, crossing his arms, making the dark fabric of his jacket strain slightly against his biceps.
Isabelle snorted. Sam’s head swiveled toward her, his expression shifting from indignation to betrayal in the space of a heartbeat.
“Sorry,” she managed, pressing her lips together, voice tight with suppressed laughter.
“No, you’re not,” Sam said flatly, crossing his arms.
“You’re right.” She released the laugh fully now, letting it spill out. “I’m not.” She leaned sideways, bumping her shoulder against his. “Come on,” she coaxed, tilting her head to catch his eye. “It was funny.”
“I’ll fight you,” he growled, but the threat landed hollow, wrapped in reluctant affection. He jabbed a finger toward her face. “I swear to God, Stark.”
Isabelle raised her eyebrows, challenge sparking in her eyes. “Oh, please, you love me, Wilson.”
Sam shook his head, turning back to Bucky with renewed determination.
“I’m just saying,” he continued, gesturing with both hands now, “these Flag Smashers could be any of the three. Enhanced strength could mean android.” He ticked off on his fingers. “Could be alien tech. Hell, could be magic for all we know.”
“You’re leaving out so many options,” Isabelle interjected, extending her own fingers in a mocking count. “Gods.” One finger. “CEOs.” Another. “Crazy men in robot suits.” A third. “Hydra—”
She paused as she caught Bucky’s subtle flinch at the last word. Something twisted in her chest.
Her voice dropped, the playfulness evaporating. “Hell,” she continued, softer now, “even other Avengers.”
“You’re missing the point, Iz!” Sam insisted, his voice rising slightly. “The Big Three are the worst of it.”
“Oh really?” she challenged, her eyebrow arching as she stepped closer, planting herself directly in his line of sight. “I’ve never fought a wizard, Sam. Have you?”
“Yeah, Sam,” Bucky chimed in, his voice deadpan. The corner of his mouth twitched upward in what, for Barnes, practically counted as rolling on the floor laughing. “So, who are you fighting now? Gandalf?”
Sam’s mouth opened, closed, then opened again. “How do you know about Gandalf?”
“I was born in 1917, not on Mars,” Bucky replied, each word desert-dry. His metal fingers tapped once against his thigh—a gesture Isabelle was beginning to recognize as barely-contained impatience. “I read The Hobbit when it first came out. In 1937.”
Isabelle couldn’t stop the surprised laugh that bubbled up from her chest. It felt strange—genuine amusement breaking through the tension she’d carried since stepping into the suit.
“Wow,” she said, crossing her arms and cocking her hip. “Never pictured Bucky Barnes as a fantasy nerd.” She studied his face, trying to reconcile this new information with the man from Steve’s stories. “From what Steve told me about you guys, I expected…I don’t know, less Tolkien, more boxing matches and chasing skirts.”
Something shifted in Bucky’s expression—a flash of something raw before the shutters came down. The amusement vanished like a match dropped in water.
“What stories did Steve tell you?” The question came out sharper than she expected, his voice dropping half an octave. His eyes—steel blue and suddenly intense—locked onto hers with unnerving focus.
Isabelle felt her pulse quicken. Wrong step. She’d wandered into a minefield without realizing it.
“Nothing bad,” she backpedaled, raising her palms slightly. “Just—you know, the double dates. How you’d always drag him along, even when he didn’t want to go.” She tried for a smile, but it felt tight around the edges. “The dancing.”
Bucky’s shoulders had gone rigid, the casual stance from moments earlier replaced with something coiled and defensive.
“Yeah, well,” he said, voice rough at the edges. His flesh hand flexed at his side, a quick clench-and-release. “I’m not a nerd.”
“The Hobbit is pretty nerdy,” Isabelle countered, deliberately injecting lightness back into her voice. She tilted her head, a strand of hair falling across her cheek.
Bucky’s glare intensified, his eyebrows drawing together like storm clouds.
Isabelle couldn’t help herself—she laughed again, the sound bouncing off the metal walls of the cargo hold. The vibration of it traveled through her chest, momentarily easing the tightness there.
“I never said being a nerd was a bad thing,” she said, holding her hands in mock surrender. “I’ve read The Hobbit. And Lord of the Rings...” She watched his face carefully, looking for any sign the storm was passing. “Though growing up, I was more of a Narnia kid.” She leaned slightly forward, testing the waters. “Liked the talking rat. Though the lion was preachy.”
Bucky’s hard edges receded slightly, like ice beginning to thaw around the margins. “Reepicheep,” he said, the name coming out almost reluctantly, like he was giving away a secret.
“What?” Sam interjected, looking between them like they’d both started speaking in tongues.
“The rat’s name,” Bucky clarified, his eyes still fixed on Isabelle. “It’s Reepicheep.”
Sam and Isabelle exchanged glances—hers surprised, his utterly baffled.
Bucky cleared his throat, the sound sharp in the metallic space. “I found them. Box set,” he said, voice dropping to something just above a murmur. His shoulders hunched slightly, defensive. “In Steve’s apartment. After...” He didn’t finish the thought. Didn’t need to.
“The Narnia books?” Isabelle asked, suddenly acutely aware of Sam’s gaze ping-ponging between them. She felt heat rise to her cheeks. “I, uh—I got those for him. Christmas present.” The memory crystallized, sharp and sudden: wrapping paper scattered across Steve’s floor, his genuine smile as he turned the books over in his hands. His promise to read them all. “Thought he might like them. The whole ‘man out of time’ thing.”
She’d gotten them for him for his first Christmas out of ice. Before SHIELD fell. Before the Winter Soldier. Before everything changed.
Bucky’s gaze dropped to the floor, something flickering in his eyes—recognition, maybe. Understanding.
“He finished them,” Bucky said after a moment. “All of them. Had notes in the margins.”
Isabelle swallowed against the sudden tightness in her throat. She could picture it clearly—Steve’s neat, precise handwriting. The careful way he’d handle books, like they were something precious. The way he’d mark passages that spoke to him.
“Did you like them?” she asked, the question softer than she intended, almost vulnerable.
The hard lines around his eyes eased slightly. For a moment, he looked younger. Less like the Winter Soldier and more like the man from the black-and-white photographs in the Smithsonian.
“Yeah,” he admitted, and there was a weight to that single syllable that caught her off guard. “I did. Dawn Treader was my favorite.”
“That’s my favorite too!” Isabelle straightened, genuine excitement sparking through her chest. The words tumbled out before she could filter them. “The whole voyage concept—exploring the unknown, sailing literally off the edge of the map...”
“The islands,” Bucky added, nodding slightly. His voice dropped, taking on a quality she hadn’t heard before—almost wistful. “Liked…the islands.”
“The movie was awful, though,” she added, wrinkling her nose. “Completely butchered the story.”
Bucky’s eyebrows rose slightly. “There’s a movie?”
“Oh god,” Sam groaned, dropping his head back dramatically. “Please don’t get her started on book-to-film adaptations. We’ll be stuck here till we hit cruising altitude.”
He froze mid-motion, head snapping forward so fast Isabelle heard his neck crack. His eyes narrowed, landing on Bucky.
“Hold up,” Sam said, straightening to his full height. He pointed an accusatory finger directly at Bucky’s chest. “You’re telling me that you—” he gestured at Bucky’s entire frame, from combat boots to tactical gear to the metal arm gleaming under the cargo hold lights, “have opinions about talking animals and magic wardrobes?”
The almost-smile that had been forming on Bucky’s face vanished instantly. His jaw tightened, shoulders squaring as if bracing for impact.
“What’s that supposed to mean?” Bucky asked, voice dropping to that dangerous register that made the hairs on Isabelle’s arms stand up.
“It’s just a little hard to picture you curled up with a children’s book.” Sam shrugged, his easy smile faltering slightly. “You know…because you’re—”
“Because I’m what, exactly?” Bucky challenged, cutting him off with something dangerous threading through his tone. His eyes had gone flat, the brief warmth extinguished.
The temperature in the cargo hold seemed to drop several degrees.
“You know what I mean,” Sam rolled his eyes, but his chin lifted slightly. Defensive.
“No. I don’t know what you mean.” Bucky took a step forward, the movement fluid and controlled in a way that made the hairs on the back of Isabelle’s neck stand up. His vibranium hand curled into a fist at his side, plates shifting with a soft mechanical whir. “Say it.”
“Guys,” Isabelle could feel the potential energy building in the small space, like the air before a lightning strike. “Can we not do this right now?”
Bucky ignored her, his eyes locked on Sam. “You can’t say it, because you have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“I think I know enough, Buck,” Sam replied, the nickname landing like a slap.
Bucky flinched—a microscopic tell, just a tightening around his eyes, but Isabelle caught it. Saw him inch forward.
“Hey,” she said, stepping between them, planting her boots firmly on the metal floor. The green lines of her suit pulsed brighter, responding to her elevated heartbeat. “How about we don’t pick fights amongst ourselves before a mission? Crazy thought, I know.”
Her powers stirred beneath her skin. She forced a slow breath, pushing the sensation back down. Not now.
Sam’s jaw worked beneath his skin, the tendons in his neck standing out like cords. His eyes, sharp and assessing, darted from her face to Bucky’s, then back again. The air between them felt charged, dangerous.
Then he exhaled heavily, shoulders dropping an inch as he turned on his heel.
“You’re right,” Sam said, voice clipped. He crossed his arms over his chest, chin tilting upward in that stubborn way that meant he was digging in. “Ma’ always said, ‘if you have nothing nice to say, don’t say anything at all.’ So I guess we’re riding the rest of the way in silence.”
“Sam—” Isabelle stepped toward him, frustration clear in her tone.
“Nope.” He raised a hand, palm facing her. The gesture was so abrupt it nearly made her flinch.
“You can’t be serious right now,” she scoffed, that Stark temper flaring, quick and hot, behind her ribs.
“Shh.” Sam made an exaggerated motion of zipping his lips, twisting an imaginary key, and flicking it over his shoulder. His eyes narrowed to slits, daring her to challenge him.
“Oh my god,” Isabelle muttered, “you’re actually twelve years old.”
The childishness of it all left her momentarily speechless. She’d seen him irritated, frustrated, even genuinely angry—but this petty silence was something different. She stared at him, mouth half-open, watching as he crossed his arms tighter across his chest like a petulant child refusing to eat his vegetables.
She’d seen him irritated, frustrated, even genuinely angry—but this petty silence was something different. Whatever was eating at him had teeth.
She slid several feet away on the metal bench, the cold surface biting through the thin material of her suit. The suit hummed against her skin, and sensors picked up her elevated heart rate and shallow breathing. She could feel FRIDAY preparing to comment on her vitals and mentally willed the AI to stay silent. The last thing she needed was the suit announcing her stress levels to the entire cargo hold.
“Sam,” she tried again, voice lower, stripped of its earlier edge. “Whatever’s going on—”
“Shh!” The sound sliced through the air between them, sharp as a blade. Sam’s eyes flashed a warning that could have melted vibranium, nostrils flaring with each controlled breath.
A snort broke the tension, so unexpected that Isabelle’s head whipped around to stare at Bucky. He moved to sit directly across from Sam. He settled onto the bench with deliberate slowness, elbows resting on his knees, eyes never leaving Sam’s face. The challenge in his posture was unmistakable—a predator settling in for a long watch.
The overhead lights flickered briefly as the plane hit another pocket of turbulence. The metal floor vibrated beneath Isabelle’s boots, sending tiny shockwaves up her legs. Rain began to pelt against the fuselage, a rapid-fire staccato that matched the racing of her heart. She slumped back against the wall, letting her head thunk softly against the metal.
This was going to be a long flight.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "The Call" by Regina Spektor.
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Chapter 6: The Drop
Summary:
The silence ends with a scream—and a sky dive.
Tensions run high as the team prepares for their mission drop, but no amount of awkward staring contests can brace Isabelle for what comes next: no parachute, no warning, just Sam Wilson wrapping his arms around her and jumping into the sky.
Bucky’s landing? Not nearly as smooth.
Between snark, bruised egos, and an unexpected moment in the dirt, Isabelle finds herself caught between friction and something she can’t quite name.
“I’ve had worse falls.”
“Yeah... I get it.”The mission’s barely begun—and the ground's already shifting.
Notes:
Hey friends 💚 I couldn't wait much longer to post, so I'm here again!
Also! Shoutout to Maxien87—I realized I haven’t done a great job weaving in a physical description of Isabelle (I’ll try to be better about that going forward), so here’s a quick rundown for those curious:
Isabelle’s around 5’4”, with blonde hair and green eyes flecked with gold (they used to be brown before her powers manifested). She’s lean but athletic, carries herself with a kind of quiet tension, like she’s always bracing for something to go wrong. Her civilian clothes are typically jeans, worn band tees, leather jackets, and combat boots, ver y laid back, tired millennial vibes.As always, I’d love to hear from you in the comments! Thank you to everyone who’s been reading, commenting, bookmarking, and supporting.
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Chapter Text
Hours had crawled by in a suffocating silence thanks to Sam’s ‘no-talking’ rule.
Isabelle had sprawled across a couple of seats, her fingers mindlessly scrolling through her phone. She shifted uncomfortably, glancing up from her phone, catching Sam and Bucky locked in their ridiculous staring contest for what felt like the hundredth time. Their jaws were set, eyes narrowed, neither willing to break first.
Suppressing a sigh, Isabelle returned her attention to her phone. The soft blue glow illuminated her face as she scrolled through the files FRIDAY had compiled on John Walker. Images flashed across the screen: Walker in his military uniform, accepting medals, shaking hands with high-ranking officials. His service record was impeccable.
Isabelle’s brow furrowed. Everything looked perfect. Too perfect.
She grunted, letting her phone drop to her chest, and turned her attention to Bucky and Sam once more.
The monotonous hum of the engines seemed to grow louder with each passing minute, grating on Isabelle’s nerves. She could feel her powers stirring restlessly beneath her skin, itching to lash out and give Sam and Bucky splitting headaches. Just to end their childish standoff.
Isabelle was about to snap, but a sharp warning alarm cut through the silence. She jerked upright, quickly tucking her phone away in one of her pouches and smoothing out the wrinkles in her suit—the sound of approaching footsteps from the cockpit was preceded by Torres’s appearance in the cargo bay.
“One minute to drop off, guys,” Torres announced, his eyes flicking to his watch as he moved to help set up the drop.
Isabelle stood, stretching her arms above her head. As she turned, she expected Sam and Bucky to be preparing as well, only to find them still locked in their intense staring match. They both jerked forward suddenly as if about to leap from their seats, racing each other to stand first.
Rolling her eyes, Isabelle muttered under her breath, “For the love of...” then strode towards Torres, leaving the two men to their ridiculous competition. She jerked a thumb back to them. “We might need to requisition some sandbox toys for our next mission. Seems like some of us never outgrew the terrible twos.”
Torres chuckled, his eyes darting between Isabelle and the two men still locked in their silent battle of wills. “Maybe we should start packing juice boxes and nap mats, too,” he quipped back, grinning.
Their laughter died abruptly as Sam’s sharp glare cut through the air. Torres quickly busied himself, his hands fumbling with the equipment. Isabelle, however, met Sam’s gaze head-on, one eyebrow arched in silent challenge.
Isabelle’s powers coiled tighter within her, a restless energy that buzzed beneath her skin. She could feel the familiar tingle in her fingertips, the urge to lash out and give Sam a taste of his own medicine—just a flick. But she held back.
Without a word, Sam finally stood, the movement smooth despite the hours of stillness. Bucky was quick to follow, pushing himself up.
Sam reached for his goggles first, sliding them into place with a soft click. His fingers traced the familiar contours, adjusting them until they sat perfectly in place. Next came the earpiece, which he fitted snugly into his ear. Bucky mirrored his actions with his own earpiece, his movements just as quick and precise.
Isabelle watched them, mouth slightly agape. Before she could stop, a frustrated groan escaped her lips, echoing in the confined space.
“So what’s our plan?” Bucky stepped away from the others, his fingers adjusting his earpiece.
Sam, still committed to his vow of silence, looked pointedly at Bucky but kept his lips sealed tight.
“Great. So, no plan,” Bucky grunted, dropping back into his seat with a heavy thud. Annoyance etched across his features, and his lips pressed into a thin line.
Isabelle shot Sam a stern look, her eyes narrowing. Sam merely rolled his eyes in response, the gesture so exaggerated it was almost comical. He nodded his head towards the side door of the plane.
As they started walking towards the exit, Isabelle tilted her head toward Bucky, her eyes questioning Sam’s intentions. The roar of the wind outside grew louder as Torres opened the door, and the rush of cold air hit them hard. It whipped at Isabelle’s hair, sending blonde strands flying across her face.
She brushed them away impatiently, her eyes never leaving Sam’s face. The chill seeped through her suit, raising goosebumps on her skin and sending a shiver down her spine.
“You have a plan, right?” she muttered, her voice nearly lost in the roar of the wind.
Sam’s silence finally broke, his voice cutting through the roar of the wind. But he didn’t answer her. Instead, he turned to Bucky.
“Looks like you’re getting the scenic route, Buck,” he called over his shoulder.
Bucky’s face twisted into a scowl, his eyes flashing with irritation. “Stop calling me that,” he snapped.
“Why not? It’s what Steve called you,” Sam retorted, pivoting to face Bucky fully.
“You’re not Steve,” he growled. His eyes flashed dangerously as he shook his head. “Steve knew me. Steve had a plan. And told his team the plan. ”
“Ten seconds to drop!” Torres’s voice cut through the tension, nearly lost in the howling wind that tore through the open door.
Isabelle scanned the cargo hold, her eyes searching for the familiar outline of parachute packs. They should be mounted on the wall, or stacked in a compartment—but she couldn’t spot them anywhere. A flutter of anxiety rose in her chest.
“Where are the chutes?” she called out, having to raise her voice over the roaring wind. Her eyes met Torres’s briefly before he turned back to his controls. “Torres? The parachutes?”
Sam’s attention returned to the mission, his eyes narrowing with determination. “I’ve got a plan,” he declared, his voice firm and unwavering as he turned his back on Bucky.
“Oh yeah?” Bucky’s voice dripped with sarcasm as he pushed himself up, moving to follow. “Mind sharing with the class?”
Sam ignored him, instead focusing on Isabelle. Their eyes met, and she gave him an exhausted look. A smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. “Are you still afraid of heights?”
“Yes—wait, why? What do you mean?” Isabelle’s brow furrowed. “Sam, where are the—”
Before Isabelle could finish her sentence, Sam’s strong arms wrapped around her waist. The world tilted as he pulled her close against his chest, the fabric of his suit rough against her cheek. Her heart leaped into her throat as realization dawned—he was going to carry her out. No parachute. Just Sam and his wings.
“Sam, wait—” Isabelle started, her fingers instinctively clutching at his arms. The sudden closeness sent an unexpected jolt through her body—a mixture of alarm and something else she didn’t have time to analyze. “No, no, no—”
Her words were cut short as Sam approached the open door. The roar of the wind became deafening, drowning out all other sounds. Cold air slapped against her face, making her eyes water. Her stomach lurched at the sight of empty space beyond the doorway—just clouds and the distant ground a couple of hundred feet below.
Time seemed to slow as they teetered on the edge. Isabelle’s fingers instinctively gripped Sam’s suit, her knuckles white with effort, the fabric bunching between her fingers. A fleeting thought of Bucky flashed through her mind—what about him? But before she could voice her concern, the world disappeared beneath them.
Sam stepped into nothingness, taking Isabelle with him. Her stomach dropped as gravity claimed them, the initial freefall sending a surge of adrenaline through her veins. The wind whipped her hair across her face, stinging her cheeks. She squeezed her eyes shut, burying her face against Sam’s chest as they plummeted.
“I got you,” Sam’s voice vibrated through his chest against her ear, barely audible over the rushing air. “Trust me.”
Isabelle felt Sam’s muscles tense beneath her grip, a split second of coiled anticipation before the mechanical whir of his wings deployed. The sound vibrated through his chest against her ear, more sensation than sound as the rushing air tried to steal it away.
Their freefall transformed instantly, the stomach-dropping plummet shifting into a controlled glide that pressed her harder against Sam’s chest.
She forced her eyes open, fighting against the wind that made them water. The ground rushed toward them—too fast, impossibly fast—patches of green and brown blurring together. Her fingers dug deeper into the fabric of Sam’s suit, her heart hammering so violently she was certain he could feel it even through their suits.
“Don’t squirm,” Sam’s voice came again, steady despite the roaring wind. His arms tightened around her, secure and unyielding.
Isabelle only managed a strangled growl that sounded more like a gasp.
A flash of movement caught her attention. She tilted her head back, catching a glimpse of the plane above them, now just a dark speck against the blue. A figure appeared in the doorway—Bucky. Even from this distance, she could sense his hesitation, the rigid set of his shoulders as he stood at the threshold between safety and empty air.
Was he going to…
The ground approached with alarming speed now. Isabelle could make out individual trees, the texture of the grass, small rocks, and uneven terrain. Sam’s body tensed again, preparing for impact. His wings angled precisely, slowing their descent in the final moments.
His feet touched down first, knees bending to absorb the impact. The force of the landing still jolted through Isabelle’s body as Sam carefully set her down beside him. The sudden transition from flight to solid ground sent the world spinning around her. Her legs wobbled, refusing to support her weight after the drop.
She staggered sideways, reaching blindly for something—anything—to steady herself. Her palm found rough bark, fingers digging into the crevices of a nearby tree.
“You good?” Sam asked, already scanning the area, his posture shifting into mission mode.
“Nope,” she managed, her voice coming out more breathless than she’d intended.
She ran a shaky hand through her wind-tangled hair, working out the worst knots with her fingers. Her heart still hammered against her ribs, the rush of blood loud in her ears.
“Still don’t—” she swallowed hard, “—like that. Pretty sure I left my stomach somewhere up there.”
Sam’s wings settled back into his pact with a soft click. He grinned at her. That familiar grin that had been noticeably absent during the majority of their flight.
“Aw, come on, really? Not even a little bit of fun?” He raised an eyebrow. “I thought it was a real bonding experience.”
“Yeah, well, next time, let’s bond over coffee like normal people.” Isabelle straightened, her eyes scanning the clear blue sky for any sign of Bucky. Her powers prickled beneath her skin, still unsettled from the adrenaline rush.
Sam’s laughter rumbled deep in his chest, warm and genuine. “I thought you said Starks were all about the dramatic entrances!”
“Yeah, well, I prefer my entrances not involving plummeting through the air without a parachute.” Isabelle retorted, her hand still pressed against the tree trunk.
She opened her mouth to say more when a distant thud caught her attention. Her head snapped in the direction of the sound, just in time to see Bucky having landed not far from them. He hit the ground hard, momentum carrying him into an ungraceful roll before he sprawled flat on his back. His metal arm caught the sunlight, flashing silver as he lay there, a pained groan escaping him.
Redwing hovered above him like an annoying mosquito, camera whirring as it recorded Bucky’s less-than-dignified landing.
“Oh god, Bucky!” Isabelle exclaimed, her heart lurching into her throat.
She pushed away from the tree, legs still unsteady beneath her. Pine needles and fallen leaves crunched under her boots as she hurried toward him, her earlier dizziness forgotten in the rush of concern.
Bucky lay spread-eagled on his back, chest heaving. His face was contorted in a grimace, eyes squeezed shut against the pain. As she drew closer, Isabelle could see the rise and fall of his chest, too fast, but steady.
“I got all of that on camera, you know that, right?” Sam’s voice carried that unmistakable note of smug satisfaction as Redwing buzzed above Bucky, its small camera focusing.
Every muscle in Bucky’s body screamed in protest as pain radiated from his shoulders to his lower spine. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block out both the discomfort and Sam’s irritating commentary. When he opened them again, the sight of Redwing hovering just feet above his face sent a fresh surge of irritation through him.
“Get that thing out of my face, Sam,” Bucky growled, struggling to prop himself up on his elbows. A sharp jolt of pain shot through his right shoulder, making him wince. “Or I’ll break it.”
“Shoo, you little menace!” Isabelle glared, jogging over to Bucky, swatting at Rewing. The drone dodged her hand with an almost smug mechanical whir. She turned her attention to Sam, her eyes narrowing. “And by menace, I mean you, Sam!”
Bucky watched her approach, feeling strangely vulnerable, lying out on the ground like this. He’d faced gunfire, torture, and decades of brainwashing, yet somehow, Isabelle Stark seeing him sprawled in the dirt after a botched landing made something in his chest constrict.
Isabelle knelt beside him, her movements quick but careful. Her hand came to rest on his left shoulder, and Bucky tensed instinctively at the contact. The sensation was different through the vibranium, muted yet somehow more intense at the same time. Most people avoided touching his metal arm, treating it as if it were something dangerous or taboo. Isabelle touched it as if it were just another part of him.
Her eyes scanned over him methodically, searching for injuries. The wrinkle between her brows deepened as she frowned.
“Did you just...” Her gaze flickered from him to Sam and back again, disbelief shining in her eyes. “Did you just seriously jump out of a plane without a parachute?”
Bucky met her gaze, finding himself momentarily caught in the intensity of her concern. It wasn’t pity—he’d seen enough of that to recognize the difference—but something warmer, more unsettling. He swallowed hard, his throat suddenly dry.
“Didn’t have much of a choice,” he muttered, attempting to sit up further.
A sharp pain lanced through his lower back, and he couldn’t suppress a wince. The embarrassment burned worse than the pain—falling flat on his ass in front of both of them, especially after Sam’s picture-perfect landing with Isabelle in his arms.
A soft chuckle escaped Isabelle’s lips, warm and unexpectedly melodic. Bucky shot her a half-hearted glare, but found himself fighting the urge to smile in response. There was something infectious about the sound, something that made the embarrassment easier to bear.
“Relax, Iz,” Sam called from behind them, still clearly amused by the whole situation. “The trees broke most of his fall. Besides, he’s a super soldier. A little tumble like that is nothing, right, Barnes?”
Bucky shot Sam a dark look over Isabelle’s shoulder. “Why don’t you come over here, and I’ll show you what ‘nothing’ feels like?” The words came out as a low growl, the threat only half-joking.
“Ignore him,” Isabelle said softly, her voice dropping to a volume meant only for Bucky. “Come on, let’s get you up, tough guy,” she said, offering her hand.
The gesture was simple but loaded with a kind of casual trust that caught him off guard. Bucky hesitated, staring at her outstretched hand.
Part of him—the part still wired for isolation, for self-reliance—wanted to refuse, to push himself up without assistance. But something in Isabelle’s eyes made him reconsider. With a deep breath, he reached up with his right hand, his fingers closing around hers.
Her grip was firmer than he expected, steady and sure as she helped pull him to his feet. As he stood, another spasm of pain shot through his lower back, more intense than before. He stumbled forward slightly, off-balance and disoriented.
Isabelle reacted instantly, stepping closer to steady him. Her hands gripped his arms, one on flesh and one on metal, holding him upright. The sudden proximity brought her face inches from his, close enough that he could see flecks of gold in her green eyes, could feel the warmth of her breath against his chin.
“Whoa, easy there,” she murmured, her voice low and soothing. Her fingers pressed gently into his forearms, anchoring him in place. “Are you sure you’re okay?”
“I’m...” he started, then stopped.
The genuine concern in her voice caught him off guard. Bucky was used to pain, used to brushing off injuries and pushing through. But the worry in Isabelle’s eyes made him pause, made him consider his answer more carefully than he might have otherwise.
“I’ll be fine,” he finally managed, his voice gruffer than intended. “Just need a minute.”
She was still holding his arms, still standing close enough that he could smell the faint trace of something citrusy in her hair—lemon, maybe, or grapefruit. It was distracting in a way he wasn’t prepared for.
“Take your time,” Isabelle said, her hands still steadying him. She glanced over her shoulder at Sam, who was watching them with barely concealed amusement. “Hey, flyboy! Maybe next time you could give everyone a lift instead of just me?”
Sam raised an eyebrow, a smirk playing on his lips as he crossed his arms over his chest. “What, and miss out on quality entertainment? Not a chance.” He gestured toward Bucky with a deliberate nod, eyes dancing with mischief. “Besides, I don’t think it’s me Barnes wants to cuddle up with.”
Bucky felt his jaw tighten, a sharp retort forming on his tongue. Irritation settled in his chest, heavy and hot. He’d spent decades as the Winter Soldier—feared, respected, a ghost story told in whispers—and now he was reduced to being the butt of Wilson’s jokes.
But before he could speak, he felt Isabelle’s fingers tighten slightly on his arms—whether in warning or support, he couldn’t tell.
“Sam, I swear to god,” Isabelle started, her voice dropping to that low, dangerous tone that reminded Bucky she was a Stark through and through. “One more word and you’ll be dealing with a migraine that’ll make you wish you’d stayed on the plane.”
Sam held up his hands in mock surrender, though the amusement never left his eyes. “Just making observations. That’s what reconnaissance is all about, right?”
Bucky watched the exchange, feeling strangely caught between them. He shifted his weight, testing his back. The pain had already begun to fade, his body’s enhanced healing taking care of the worst of it. Still, the embarrassment lingered, a bitter taste at the back of his throat.
“Thanks,” he said quietly to Isabelle, the word feeling foreign on his tongue.
It wasn’t that he was ungrateful—just unused to having anyone to thank. For decades, no one had offered him help without expecting something in return. The simple kindness of her steadying hands still felt like a language he was struggling to relearn.
Isabelle turned back to him, her expression softening around the edges. “Yeah, of course,” she replied, her voice equally soft.
She craned her neck to see Sam standing a little ways away, focused on the small screen on his gauntlet. Redwing still hovered nearby, its camera lens reflecting sunlight in quick flashes. She narrowed her eyes in concentration, a small furrow appearing between her brows. Her lips pressed together, and for a split second, the air around her seemed to shimmer with invisible energy.
“Ow!” Sam yelped suddenly, his hand flying to his temple. He shot Isabelle an accusatory glare, rubbing at the spot like he’d been stung. “Come on, real mature, Stark.”
A smirk tugged at Isabelle’s lips, satisfaction dancing in her eyes. “Just evening out the playing field,” she retorted, the mischief in her voice making her sound younger, lighter. She turned back to Bucky, her expression softening once more. “You sure you’re good to move?”
Bucky nodded as they started making their way to where Sam stood. “I’ve had worse falls,” he said, then added with a hint of a smile, “Much worse, actually. This is practically a walk in the park.”
As soon as the words left his mouth, Bucky saw Isabelle tense. Her stride faltered—not enough for Sam to notice, but enough for him. Her shoulders stiffened beneath the sleek fabric of her suit, and something flickered across her face—recognition, understanding. The gears turning in her head, connections forming.
She was thinking about that fall—the one from the train. The day that had changed everything. The day that had led to his capture by Hydra and his transformation into the Winter Soldier. The beginning of his seventy-year nightmare.
The forest around him blurred at the edges, sounds dulling as memories threatened to surface—the biting cold, the wind screaming in his ears, the sickening lurch of gravity claiming him, Steve’s face growing smaller as he fell...
His lungs constricted, each breath suddenly requiring conscious effort. His fingers curled reflexively. He opened his mouth, desperate to say something, anything to break the tension, but the words wouldn’t come. They lodged in his throat, sharp and painful, as he watched Isabelle’s face shift from shock to something softer, more dangerous—compassion.
Her hand twitched at her side, as if she might reach for him again. The possibility of her touch terrified him more than any weapon ever could. He’d rather face a firing squad than pity.
But she only gave him a soft smile, her eyes holding his for a beat longer than necessary. “Yeah... I get it,” she said quietly, her voice pitched low enough that Sam wouldn’t hear. “I’ve had worse, too.”
Something in her tone made Bucky look closer. He studied her face, noticing the shadows behind her eyes – shadows he recognized all too well. The kind that came from having your body turned against you, from being unmade and remade against your will.
Her fingers absently traced the edge of one of her suit’s green panels, following a seam that looked almost like a needle track. The movement was unconscious, the way his own hand sometimes drifted to where metal met flesh on his left shoulder.
Something scratched at the back of Bucky’s mind – fragments of information he’d glimpsed once in a file. Back when he was still piecing together who he was after breaking free from Hydra’s control. Something about Isabelle’s mother, about hidden laboratories and secret experiments: the word “Belladonna” floated to the surface of his memory, sending an involuntary chill down his spine.
He opened his mouth, not sure what he was going to say, but needing to acknowledge the connection he felt. Before he could speak, Sam’s voice cut through the moment.
“Well, well, well,” Sam drawled as they reached him, his eyes darting between them with undisguised amusement. “Look who finally decided to stop flirting and join us.”
Bucky felt heat rise to his face, his jaw tensing. He was ready to defend himself, to explain that it wasn’t what it looked like – that they were just talking. The words formed on his tongue, but Isabelle beat him to it.
Again.
“You know, Sam,” she said, her voice dripping with sarcasm, “for someone who was so committed to silence earlier, you sure are chatty now.”
Sam’s grin faltered for a moment before he recovered, his eyes still dancing with mischief. “What can I say? I’m a man of many talents. Silence and witty commentary are just two of them.”
Isabelle crossed her arms, shifting her weight to one hip in a stance that screamed annoyance. “How about we focus on the mission instead of your talents?”
“Fine, fine,” Sam conceded, holding up his hands in mock surrender. The teasing light in his eyes dimmed as he tapped at the screen on his gauntlet. “According to the intel, we need to head north. The facility is about two miles out.”
Bucky stepped closer, grateful for the change in subject. His eyes scanned the treeline, taking in the dense foliage and uneven terrain. The wind rustled through the leaves, carrying the scent of resin and damp earth.
The familiarity of it all sent him back decades, to stealthy approaches through European forests, to lying in wait for hours, his breath controlled, his finger hovering over the trigger. He pushed those memories aside, focusing on the present, on the mission at hand.
“We should stick to cover as much as possible,” Bucky said, his voice low and gravelly. He gestured toward a particularly dense section of trees. “Use the forest to our advantage. Minimize our exposure until we can get in.”
To Bucky’s surprise, Sam nodded in agreement, no sarcastic comment following.
“Agreed,” he said, his gaze meeting Bucky’s for a brief moment of professional respect before he pointed to a dense patch of trees to their right. “We’ll head that way, keeping low and quiet.”
Sam turned to Isabelle, his expression softening slightly. The transition from teasing to tactical was seamless.
“Isabelle, you’re on point,” Sam said. “We don’t want to start a fight. We just want to gather intel. Your powers might give us an edge if we run into any patrols. Knock ‘em out without raising any alarms.”
Isabelle nodded, her earlier irritation fading as she shifted into mission mode. Bucky watched as she rolled her shoulders and stretched her neck. The air around her hands shimmered with a subtle green glow – not enough to be visible from a distance, but clear to anyone standing close.
Her powers always fascinated him—the way she could manipulate the human body with just a thought, causing anything from mild discomfort to complete unconsciousness. It was terrifying and impressive in equal measure. A weapon that couldn’t be taken away, couldn’t be detected by metal scanners or security systems.
“Let’s move,” Sam ordered, stepping aside to let Isabelle go first.
As she passed between them, her shoulder brushed against Bucky’s arm gently. A fleeting contact that lasted less than a second but sent a jolt of awareness through him.
Their eyes met briefly, but then she slipped forward, moving between the trees with practiced stealth, and Bucky found himself following, his senses already sharpening as they ventured deeper into the forest, toward whatever lay ahead.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Break on Through" by The Doors.
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Super soldiers. High-speed convoys. Blood in her mouth. And John Walker with the worst timing imaginable.
Isabelle is pushed past her limits as the Flag Smashers strike fast and hard—and just when things couldn’t get worse…Every cell in her body screamed at her to punch him in the throat.
The shield’s back. But it’s not Steve holding it.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 7: Collateral Pulse
Chapter 7: Collateral Pulse
Summary:
It was supposed to be recon.
Now they’re on top of a speeding convoy, outnumbered, outgunned, and very quickly realizing the Flag Smashers aren’t just strong—they’re enhanced. Isabelle’s powers barely land. Bucky’s getting thrown like a ragdoll. Sam’s winging it (literally).And just when things are spiraling beyond control…
“Oh, for fuck’s sake,” she muttered.
Enter: John Walker.
And Isabelle’s worst migraine yet.
Notes:
Hey friends, 💚. I'm so excited to share my first action scene. Isabelle’s powers are fully unleashed in this chapter, and I really hope you all enjoy them!
Mild trigger warning? This chapter isn't gory, but Isabelle's powers center around inflicting illness and injury with a look or a touch, so her fighting style leans more on the brutal side. I did my best to keep things from tipping into overall graphic/body horror territory, but just in case— here's your warning that things get a bit rough.
Massive thank you to everyone who’s been reading, commenting, and hyping this fic. Your feedback has been such a huge motivator and I appreciate you all more than words can say. 🖤💥
Let me know what you thought of Walker’s arrival… I know Isabelle has some feelings. 😬
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The warehouse stank of rust and gasoline, an unsavory tang that clung to the back of Isabelle’s throat. Shadows slithered across the cracked concrete floor, elongating and shrinking with each flicker of the dying overhead lights.
Isabelle pressed her spine against the metal shelving, its icy edge digging into her shoulder blades. Her muscles burned from holding the crouch position too long, but she didn’t dare shift. Not with the Flag Smashers moving just twenty feet away.
One of them—a woman with dark braided hair—lifted a steel crate that had to weigh three hundred pounds. Her arms didn’t even tremble. She tossed it into the truck with a casual flick of her wrist.
“Holy shit,” she whispered, the words escaping before she could catch them.
Another Flag Smasher—this one built like a linebacker—grabbed two crates at once. The veins of his neck barely strained as he hurled them into the truck.
She counted six. One of them whistled—two short notes, one long—and they immediately began splitting into groups, the engines growling to life.
“They’re moving,” Isabelle whispered, her fingers curling against the cold concrete. “Three to each truck.”
“Wait—” Sam’s voice cut through, tension threading his tone. “I think they have a hostage.”
Isabelle shifted her weight, wincing as pins and needles shot up her left leg. “Where?” She flexed her foot to restore circulation.
“Redwing’s scan says the first truck,” Sam’s voice dropped. “Someone’s inside. Not moving like the others. We need to move—”
The trucks’ engines revved louder, drowning out the rest of Sam’s words. Isabelle felt the rumble through the soles of her boots as the vehicles began to pull away, tires crunching over asphalt.
Bucky was already crossing the concrete floor, abandoning his hiding spot with inhuman speed.
Isabelle jerked out of her own spot, turning to Sam, finding him already watching her from a few feet away. His expression shifted. One eyebrow was slightly raised underneath his goggles, his mouth dangerously quirked at the corner.
He tilted his head toward Bucky’s disappearing form, wings already extending. “More bonding time?”
Isabelle grunted, head rolling back. She stretched her arms overhead, feeling her spine crack as adrenaline flooded her system. “Do we have to?” She didn’t bother hiding the exasperation in her voice, even as her body tensed, preparing.
“Adventure’s good for you, Stark,” Sam smirked, the whites of his eyes bright against his face.
His wings were fully deployed with a satisfying snap-click, hovering a few feet off the ground. The drowndraft stirred up dust as he approached, tickling her nose. Without further warning, he swooped down and grabbed her under the arms, the firm grip of his gloves digging into her.
Then they were airborne, her stomach dropping as they shot upward. The ground fell away too fast, her feet dangling uselessly. Each dip and swerve sent her pulse racing.
The trucks were pulling away faster now, engines growling as they sped down a winding, forested two-lane road. Bucky sprinted alongside the lead truck, his metal arm catching sunlight as he leapt. His fingers dug into the frame with a screech. In one fluid motion, he ripped the rear door open with his left hand, the metal crumpling like tissue paper in his grip.
He disappeared inside the truck’s dark interior. Isabelle strained to see, catching only fragments—shadows shifting, the flash of his metal arm.
“Bucky, status?” Sam’s voice was sharp in her earpiece, his grip tightening on her.
The silence stretched, punctuated only by the howl of wind and the rumble of engines. One second. Two. Three.
“They’re stealing medicine,” Bucky’s voice finally crackled through. “Vaccines.”
Isabelle’s brow furrowed. But before she could process or ask about the hostage, a crash rang out below. Bucky’s body hurtled through the air. He slammed into the following truck’s roof with enough force to dent it.
Two figures emerged from the second truck, climbing onto the roof. Their black masks bore a single red handprint—the Flag Smashers symbol. They grabbed Bucky before he could fully recover. One pinned his right arm while the other wrenched his left behind his back.
Something cold and heavy settled in Isabelle’s stomach. No ordinary human could manhandle the Winter Soldier like that.
Isabelle extended a hand, focusing on the pulse beneath her skin. The green glow flowed from her fingertips, brighter than usual, fueled by her desperation. She pushed harder, imagining pneumonia-like symptoms—the burning chest pain, the way each breath would feel like inhaling glass shards, the suffocating pressure.
Nothing happened. They didn’t even flinch.
“What the hell,” she breathed, taking a moment for disbelief to flood her system. “FRIDAY?” Then she blinked rapidly in the specific pattern that activated her contacts—another invention of her father’s. The HUD display flickered to life across her vision.
“Their cellular structure appears altered. ” FRIDAY’s voice was a welcome sound, even with the AI’s tone carrying a note of concern, “I’m detecting abnormal density readings throughout their musculature and nervous systems.”
Below, Bucky broke free long enough to land a vicious uppercut that should have shattered the first attacker’s jaw. The Flag Smasher merely stumbled back, recovering almost instantly.
As Bucky pivoted toward the second attacker, movement from the truck’s cab caught Isabelle’s eye—a third Flag Smasher emerging from the sunroof, already lunging toward Bucky’s exposed back. The third attacker slammed into Bucky from behind. In that split-second of distraction, one of the others recovered, moving with blinding speed to grab Bucky’s left arm again.
“Sam, we have to—”
The words died in her throat as Sam suddenly released her. She gasped in that brief moment of freefall that ended with a bone-jarring impact as she hit the truck’s roof. She tucked and rolled, her boots screeching against the surface.
“Thanks for the warning, Wilson!” she snapped, pushing herself upright, legs braced wide against the truck’s movement.
Sam’s voice crackled through her comm, “You’re welcome,” followed by the distinctive sound of his wings adjusting as he banked overhead.
There was no time for further complaints. Bucky grappled with two, matched strength for strength. The third—a woman by the looks, with wild red hair—was already charging toward Isabelle.
Isabelle raised her hands again, reaching deeper this time. This time, she envisioned the woman’s inner ear canals swelling, her equilibrium failing, vertigo and nausea crashing through her system like tidal waves.
The Flag Smasher’s stride faltered—just barely—before she shook her head and pressed forward, barely slowed.
“Seriously?” Isabelle hissed, cold fear and irritation slithering through her veins. Whatever these people were dosed with burned through her powers like paper in a flame.
A flash of crimson cut through her peripheral vision—Redwing.
“Redwing’s got eyes on them!” Sam’s voice crackled through her comms, steady as a heartbeat despite the chaos unfolding beneath him. “Tracking all targets.”
Isabelle’s lungs burned as she sucked in a breath. “Yeah? Tell him to shoot faster,” she muttered, casting a cautious look back at the approaching woman.
Redwing targeting systems emitted a soft whine. The drone’s weapons deployed with a series of clicks, locking onto the approaching Flag Smasher. A burst of rounds erupted from its undercarriage—each shot designed to incapacitate without killing.
The woman’s head snapped toward the drone. Her hand shot out, fingers closing around Redwing’s chassis in mid-flight, the drone’s wings still whirring uselessly against her grip. For one suspended moment, the woman held Isabelle’s gaze through her mask. Then she squeezed.
Metal shrieked and crumpled. Sparks erupted between her fingers like tiny fireworks. Circuitry snapped with sharp, distinct pops, Redwing’s lights flickering once, twice, then dead.
The woman tossed what remained of the drone over her shoulder without looking back. The mangled heap of metal and wiring hit asphalt, bouncing before disappearing under the wheels of the second truck.
“Sam?” Isabelle called, her voice pitching higher than intended. Her eyes left the woman to glance at Bucky, still struggling. “Any brilliant ideas would be welcome right about now.”
Isabelle backed up a step, then another, and the truck’s roof suddenly felt much smaller. The Flag Smasher resumed her approach, unhurried. Her red hair whipped around her face like flames.
“Hang on, Stark!” The comms crackled with static. “Looping back around—”
The Flag Smasher launched herself forward. Isabelle reacted fast and jabbed at the woman’s throat—a quick, roughshod strike. Her knuckles connected with flesh, but the redhead barely registered it. Instead, she snatched Isabelle’s extended wrist, fingers clamping down like a steel vise. The woman yanked.
Hard.
Isabelle’s shoulder socket screamed in protest as she was jerked forward. Instinct took over—she used the momentum, driving her knee upward into the woman’s solar plexus, earning a grunt. The first sign that the Flag Smasher could actually feel pain. But the grip on her wrist didn’t loosen.
A few feet away, metal flashed in the sunlight as Bucky broke free, slamming his vibranium fist into one attacker’s chest. The impact sent the man skidding backward, boots scraping against metal.
Bucky spun, blocking a kick with his forearm before countering with an uppercut connected to the jawbone. The Flag Smasher’s head snapped back, but he recovered in the blink of an eye, neck cracking as he straightened.
Pain shot through Isabelle’s arm as the redhead’s grip tightened, bones grinding together. The truck hit a pothole, nearly sending them both sprawling. Desperate, Isabelle slammed her forehead forward, smashing it against the bridge of the woman’s nose.
The mask absorbed some of the impact, but Isabelle felt the cartilage give way beneath it. The redhead’s grip loosened—just enough. Isabelle wrenched her arm free, following through with a roundhouse kick to the woman’s ribs. The Flag Smasher staggered back a single step.
“What the hell are these guys on?” she shouted to Bucky.
“Nothing good,” he grunted, blocking a punch aimed at his throat.
The Flag Smasher coiled to strike, muscles tense, eyes locked. Isabelle’s breath caught, bracing for the hit. But it never came—Sam dropped from above, wings snapping shut as his boots slammed into the Flag Smasher’s chest. The woman flew backward, skidding toward the edge. Her fingers caught the roof’s lip, denting the steel like tinfoil.
“Sam, watch—”
The woman snapped upright like a whip. One second hanging, the next charging. That speed, that strength—too fast, too sharp—was familiar. Like Bucky. Like her.
Sam ducked her punch, just barely. His counter jab hit square in the ribs. It should have doubled her over. Instead, the blow landed with a solid thunk, as if he’d punched a tree trunk.
“What the—” Sam started, but the Flag Smasher grabbed his wrist. Twisted. “—Ah!”
Then she hurled him across the gap between trucks. He hit the roof of the second truck, rolling once, twice, absorbing the impact. His wings, half-extended, scraped against metal as he tried to regain his footing. The sound made Isabelle wince.
Sam barely had time to breathe. Two more Flag Smashers emerged from the cab. One grabbed his left arm. The other, his right. Sam’s face contorted with effort, muscles straining as he was pinned down.
Isabelle took a step toward him —a mistake. The redhead. Again.
“FRIDAY, weak points?” Isabelle spat, raising her fists. Behind her, Bucky’s grunts mixed with the metallic impact of his arm against flesh. She couldn’t afford to check on him. “Need to end this. Now.”
“Analyzing.” Data streamed across her vision, the HUD highlighting potential vulnerabilities in pulsing red. “Subject favors the right side. Recommend targeting the left knee and the solar plexus. Caution: enhanced recovery rate detected.”
The Flag Smasher charged, and this time, Isabelle spun on her back foot, avoiding the woman’s outstretched arm. Her leg swept out, boot connecting with the back of the woman’s left knee with a satisfying crack. The woman buckled, one knee hitting the truck roof.
Isabelle didn’t hesitate. She sprang forward, fingers splayed, reaching for the exposed neck beneath that red-marked mask. The power gathered in her fingertips, ready to flood the woman’s nervous system with white-hot pain—
A fist tangled in her hair, pulling backward with such force that her scalp screamed. Her world tilted as her face slammed into cold metal. Her teeth cut into her cheek, blood filling her mouth—copper and salt and rage.
“Projectile incoming,” FRIDAY’s voice cut through the ringing in her ears. “Three o’clock. Brace for impact.”
Something blurred overhead—a flash of red, white, and blue spinning through the air. With a sound like a gunshot, the shield slammed into the Flag Smasher’s side. The impact lifted the woman clean off her feet.
The iron grip on Isabelle’s hair vanished, and she rolled to her side. Her tongue probed the inside of her cheek, finding a jagged tear. She spat a mouthful of blood onto the roof, watching it splatter across metal. When she looked up, her gaze locked with the most punchable grin she’d ever seen. John Walker stood at the edge of the truck, shield returning to his arm with a magnetic snap.
“Oh, for fuck’s sake,” she muttered, pushing herself to her knees.
The Flag Smasher hit the roof with a sickening thud. In the half-second, Isabelle expected her to stay down, but the woman was already moving. Her eyes burned through the mask, raw hatred radiating off her in waves. Isabelle shifted her weight forward, standing, bracing for the next attack.
The helicopter swooped down overhead, and a figure plummeted from above. Combat boots connected with the redhead’s chest. The Flag Smasher’s eyes widened in shock as the momentum carried her backward again. Her fingers left desperate silver gouges in the metal roof before she disappeared over the edge.
Lemar Hoskins landed in a perfect crouch where the woman had stood. Isabelle recognized him instantly from the briefing files FRIDAY pulled for her on the plane.
Walker and Hoskins exchanged a wordless nod and fist bump, then Walker snapped into motion. The shield spun toward the Flag Smasher pinning Sam. The man sprawled face-first against the roof when it hit, letting Sam twist free.
The shield was already sailing again, this time toward Bucky’s fight. Isabelle’s breath hitched as Bucky ducked—the shield missing his head by inches—before it slammed into his opponent’s chest. The vibranium sang as it returned to Walker’s outstretched hand, locking back onto his arm with a magnetic snap.
Walker turned toward Isabelle, his smile too white, too eager, too goddamn like the recruitment posters. His eyes held something worse than arrogance—certainty.
“Isabelle Stark,” he said, hand extended toward her. The wind ruffled his perfectly styled hair, not a strand daring to fall out of place. “It’s an honor.”
Her jaw clenched so tight she felt a molar creak. Every cell in her body screamed at her to punch him in the throat. To tell him exactly where he could shove that shield.
Instead, she swallowed the acid rising in her throat and took his hand. She let him help her up. The second her balance returned, she yanked her hand away, wiping her palm against her thigh like she could scrub off the contact. The friction of fabric against skin wasn’t nearly enough to erase the feeling.
Walker didn’t notice—or pretended not to. His attention had already pivoted to Sam, chest puffed out like a peacock in star-spangled Kevlar.
“Sam!” he called, voice carrying over the wind. “John Walker. Captain America.” He gestured broadly at the unconscious Flag Smashers, then at Hoskins, who gave a curt nod. “Looks like you guys could use a hand!”
Sam’s answering stare could’ve peeled paint off a wall. His eyes flicked to Isabelle’s, a silent conversation passing between them: This fucking guy.
Bucky’s presence shifted behind her, and she didn’t need to turn to know he was glaring daggers at Walker’s back. But there was no time for shared disdain.
The red-haired woman clawed her way back onto the truck, and Isabelle struck before the woman could fully right herself. She focused, channeling a power spike straight at the woman’s inner ear. The sensation was like pushing thick honey through a narrow straw—resistant at first, then suddenly flowing.
The Flag Smasher staggered mid-rise. Her knees buckled. One hand flew to her temple, fingers digging into skin with enough force to leave white pressure marks. Her pupils dilated with confusion, eyes darting wildly as her equilibrium betrayed her.
Isabelle pushed harder, doubling the nausea. The spinning world. The disorientation. Sweat beaded on her forehead as she concentrated, channeling everything she had into the woman’s vestibular system. The Flag Smasher’s breaths came in short, sharp gasps, her body fighting the invisible assault.
Just a little more—
The truck hit another pothole.
The connection between them severed with an almost audible snap in her mind. The sudden absence of resistance made her stumble backward, boot heel catching on a ridge in the metal roof. The asphalt below blurred into a gray-black smear, trees flashing by at seventy miles per hour. Her heart lurched into her throat, a silent scream building as gravity claimed her—
Strong fingers dug into her upper arm. Her descent halted with a jerk, the grip bruising-tight. The world snapped back into focus as she collided with a solid chest, the scent of leather and metal and sweat filling her nostrils.
Bucky.
He yanked her back with a grunt, left arm circling around her waist. The vibranium was cold even through her suit, pressing against her lower back with unyielding pressure. His heart hammered against her shoulder blade, a rapid staccato that matched hers. Relief flooded her system, sharp and sudden like diving into icy water.
His grip tightened fractionally. A silent question in the pressure of his fingers: You okay?
“Boss, incoming hostile!” FRIDAY’s warning sliced through the moment.
Isabelle’s power surged beneath her skin, but before she could unleash it, Walker slammed into the redhead with his shield. The impact sent the woman skidding across metal with a screech that set Isabelle’s teeth on edge.
Walker barked a laugh, spinning and hurling the shield at another Flag Smasher trying to climb back onto the truck. The vibranium disc cut through the air—Bucky’s hand shot out beside her, snatching it mid-flight.
Isabelle felt Bucky’s chest expand against her back as he drew in a deep breath. The vibranium plates of his arm recalibrated against her waist with a soft whir. She didn’t need to see his face to know his entire body had gone rigid, tension radiating through every point where they touched.
“Nice catch,” Walker said, hand extended, smile unwavering.
Bucky’s jaw clenched, his fingers tightening around the shield’s edge. For a split second, Isabelle thought he might not return it. That he might hurl the shield off the truck entirely, sending it spinning into the blur of trees just to keep it out of Walker’s reach. Then she felt it, the sag of his shoulders. A surrender so subtle she would’ve missed it if she hadn’t been pressed against him. The arm around her waist loosened. He extended the shield toward Walker without a word.
“Thanks, pal,” Walker said, snatching it back with a casual flick of his wrist.
A scream of twisting metal ripped through the air. Across the gap between trucks, Sam thrashed against two Flag Smashers, their strength bending his wings at crushing angles. Metal struts groaned in protest. Sam’s face contorted, sweat streaming down his temples as he fought back, losing ground inch by excruciating inch.
“Sam—” The name barely left her lips when Bucky’s warmth vanished from her back.
No hesitation. No pause. One second he was beside her, the next he was airborne, launching across the gap between vehicles.
Movement to her right stopped her. The redheaded Flag Smasher rose again—blood streaking from her nose, eyes burning wild.
Isabelle grunted, fingers twitching. She fired off a raw, unfiltered blast. Migraines detonating behind the eyes, muscles seizing in violent spasms, inner ear canals swelling until the world tilted and spun. Every nasty symptom she could conjure was thrown at once.
The Flag Smasher’s stride faltered mid-step. Her pupils dilated, nostrils flaring as pain crashed through her system. A violent tremor rippled through her body, starting at her shoulders and cascading downward. Her knees buckled. But she didn’t go down.
Gritting her teeth, the Flag Smasher pushed forward like wading through cement.
“That’s all you’ve got, Avenger?” she spat, her voice a rasp. “The same old cheap tricks?” Then she lunged.
Isabelle tried to dodge, but the truck hit another pothole at precisely the wrong moment. Her ankle twisted, balance faltering for just a fraction of a second—
The Flag Smasher’s fist connected with her jaw.
Pain exploded across Isabelle’s skull. Her teeth slammed together, catching the edge of her tongue between them. Copper flooded her mouth, hot and metallic, as her head snapped sideways from the impact.
“Fuck,” she hissed, staggering backward, vision swimming in and out of focus. The world tilted, doubled, then snapped back together. Before she could recover, callused fingers closed around her throat. Her feet left the ground, toes dangling uselessly as the woman lifted her with one hand, arm extended like she weighed nothing.
“This,” the Flag Smasher hissed, breath hot against Isabelle’s face, “is what real power feels like.”
The grip tightened, crushing her windpipe. Isabelle’s lungs burned, desperate for air that wouldn’t come. Black spots bloomed at the edges of her vision, expanding with each frantic pulse.
Her fingers scrabbled at the woman’s wrist, nails digging deep enough to draw blood. Isabelle’s power flickered beneath her skin like a dying lightbulb, weakening as her brain starved for oxygen. Somewhere far away, she heard Sam shouting her name. The sound rippled through water, distorted and fading.
Fine, then we do this the ugly way.
Isabelle stopped fighting the grip. Instead, she focused on what lay beneath her fingertips. Bones. Tendons. Ligaments. Nerves. The delicate architecture that makes a wrist function. She visualized each component in perfect anatomical detail, then—
Snap.
The sound was wet and final, like stepping on a rotten branch. Bone fragments shifted beneath Isabelle’s fingers, grinding against each other as the wrist collapsed inward.
The Flag Smasher’s scream hit a pitch that made Isabelle’s ears ring. The grip on her throat vanished instantly. She dropped to the truck’s roof, knees buckling as she hit metal. She doubled over, hacking coughs wracking her body as she braced her palms against the vibrating surface.
Through watering eyes, Isabelle saw the woman cradling her mangled wrist, face contorted with fury and something else—shock. As if she’d forgotten what pain felt like. As if she’d believed herself untouchable.
“You—” the woman started, voice shaking with rage.
Isabelle didn’t let her finish. She pushed herself upright and dove her boot upward with every ounce of strength left in her body, connecting with the woman’s solar plexus. The Flag Smasher lifted off her feet, farther than physics should allow, farther than Isabelle had meant to send her. The woman’s body arced through the air, a graceless tangle of limbs.
The Flag Smasher crashed back onto the truck’s roof, ten feet away. The woman rolled twice before catching herself with her good hand, her mangled wrist tucked protectively against her chest. When the woman’s head snapped up, Isabelle expected a grimace of pain. Instead, those eyes burned through the mask with something far more dangerous. Her scream wasn’t pain—it was pure, undiluted rage.
“Boss,” FRIDAY spoke suddenly, unnervingly calm in Isabelle’s ear. Data flickered across her HUD, green and white numbers scrolling too fast to read. “I’m detecting trace compounds similar to—”
Isabelle couldn’t focus on the rest. Her throat burned where fingers had crushed it seconds ago. Her pulse hammered in her temples. The fight was spiraling out of control faster than she could track it.
She twisted, searching for Sam and Bucky on the second truck, just in time to see Bucky’s body hurtling through the air. Her heart stopped. Sam’s wings snapped open a second later, diving after him in a blur of red and silver.
Her stomach dropped as both men vanished from sight. The urge to jump after them was so visceral she had to dig her heels into the roof to stop herself.
They’re fine. They have to be fine.
A hollow thud vibrated through the metal beneath her feet. Then another. The two Flag Smashers who’d been fighting Sam and Bucky had leapt the gap between trucks.
Seven against three.
No—against two and a half.
Her gaze darted to Hoskins, dangling from the linebacker Flag Smasher’s grip, his face purpling as thick fingers dug into his throat. His boots kicked uselessly, finding no purchase.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
Walker shifted to face them, shield raised. His cocky grin was replaced by a snarl, eyes locked on Hoskins dangling from the Flag Smasher’s grip.
“Let him go.” The command scraped from Walker’s throat, stripped of all the rehearsed Captain America polish. “Now.”
The redheaded Flag Smasher staggered upright. Her mask had been twisted just enough to reveal the satisfied smile that curled her lips.
Isabelle’s stomach clenched, acid burning up her throat. Not for Hoskins—she barely knew the man—but for what was coming. The inevitable escalation that had been building since the first punch landed.
The redhead took a step forward. Then another. The remaining Flag Smashers moved in perfect sync, closing the circle with mechanical precision. Walker backed up until his shoulder nearly brushed Isabelle’s, shield angled to cover them both.
“On my mark—” Walker started, voice tight.
The Flag Smashers moved first.
They attacked as one unit, converging from all sides. The redhead lunged at Isabelle while two others flanked Walker. Isabelle’s boots slid across metal as she ducked under a wild swing.
“Your left!” she shouted at Walker, who spun just in time to block a punch that would have shattered his jaw.
His shield sang as it deflected the blow, the vibration carrying through the air. Walker countered with a vicious uppercut connected with the Flag Smasher’s chin. The man’s head snapped back—and then snapped forward again, as if the blow had been nothing more than a tap.
“They’re not staying down,” Isabelle hissed, dancing backward to avoid a retaliatory strike. “We need to retreat—”
A Flag Smasher appeared at her blind spot. Pain exploded through her left side as a boot connected with her ribs. The crack was audible—a wet, splintering sound that echoed inside her skull.
“Boss, your left side is compromised,” FRIDAY’s voice cut through the haze of pain. “Possible hairline fracture detected. Recommend immediate disengagement.”
“Thanks for the update,” Isabelle wheezed, forcing herself upright despite the white-hot agony lancing through her torso. “But I think I noticed. Any word on Sam and Bucky?”
“I’ve located Mr. Wilson and Sergeant Barnes. They’re en route, ETA approximately 4 minutes.”
“Four minutes.” Isabelle’s eyes darted between the advancing Flag Smashers—the woman in front with her chin tilted in challenge, three men flanking with hands flexing into fists, two crouched near the body of their fallen comrade, the one Walker had killed. Blood still pooled beneath him. “Might as well be four years.”
“I’m patching Mr. Wilson through now—”
The female Flag Smasher moved like lightning. One second she was ten feet away, the next her fist slammed into Isabelle’s ribcage with a crack. She stumbled backward, mouth open in a silent scream, unable to pull in even a whisper of air.
“Shit,” she finally wheezed, the single word sending fresh spikes of white-hot agony shooting through her chest. Her hand pressed instinctively against her side; even that feather-light touch made her vision swim. The bones shifted beneath her palm. Definitely broken. Possibly puncturing something important.
The woman’s face swam into focus through Isabelle’s pain-blurred vision—smug satisfaction twisting her features, eyes gleaming with the thrill of an easy target.
“Not so tough without your team, are you?” The Flag Smasher circled her. “Where are your little tricks now, Avenger?”
Static burst in Isabelle’s ear, sharp and painful against her eardrum. Sam’s voice came through in broken fragments. “Iz... hold on... coming...”
Relief flooded her system like morphine, momentarily dulling the knife-edge pain in her ribs. She tried to focus on his voice, straining to hear through the crackling static. “Where—” A ragged cough tore from her throat. Something wet and warm spattered her lips. She swiped at it with her tongue, tasting copper. Blood. Not good. “—are you?”
The connection cleared suddenly, Sam’s voice cutting through with urgent clarity. “They’re super soldiers! All of them!”
The pieces snapped together in her mind like magnets finding their match. The impossible strength. The unnatural speed. The way her powers barely slowed them down.
Steve and Bucky had always been partially resistant to her abilities—their enhanced physiology fighting off what she tried to inflict. That’s why her powers felt like pushing through concrete. That’s why these people shrugged off attacks that would have dropped normal humans in seconds.
“Boss,” FRIDAY interjected, her voice pixelating slightly as the HUD display flickered, “that’s what I was trying to tell you. I’m detecting serum compounds similar to—”
“Super soldiers,” Isabelle whispered, the words scraping against her bruised throat. Her gaze locked with the female Flag Smasher, whose eyes narrowed beneath her mask. “But that’s not possible—t
The redhead moved with blinding speed, her boot connecting with Isabelle’s sternum before Isabelle could even raise her hands. The strike sent a fresh explosion of pain through her already broken ribs. A distinct crack echoed in her ears—another rib giving way. The impact lifted Isabelle clean off her feet.
For one suspended moment, she was weightless. Wind rushed past her face, cool against her feverish skin. The truck receded above her.
Then gravity seized her.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Worship The Whip" by Be Your Own Pet
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The fight may be over, but the aftermath cuts deeper. Isabelle is broken, bleeding, and barely holding on—while Bucky and Sam are left to pick up the pieces on a sun-scorched highway. Old trauma resurfaces. Tempers flare. And just when the dust begins to settle…The star-spangled jackass shows up.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 8: Seams
Chapter 8: Seams
Summary:
He’s too late.
The blood. The broken body. The stillness.
It hits Bucky like a ghost—memories of Siberia crashing over him as Isabelle lies sprawled across the asphalt, barely breathing. It was his fault. All of it. Always his fault.“Hey,” Bucky’s voice cuts through the fog. His breath brushes her ear. “Eyes open.”
“You look... scared.”
“I’m not scared.”
“Liar. Your eyes... give you away.”And just like that—cracked open by fear, fury, and something too tender to name—they keep moving.
Notes:
Okay, okay—you win 😭
Maxien87, you absolute legend, your comment made me smile so hard I had to post again today. And I hope it delivers! And to everyone who read, commented, or lurked on Chapter 7: thank you. That was my first full-on action sequence, and your support meant the world💚.This chapter shifts into Bucky’s POV for the first time—and wow, writing his headspace? Intimidating, but I love it, and I hope I did him justice, and you guys are enjoying my interpretation of him. And for those who’ve been wondering how Bucky and Isabelle really know each other… this chapter drops our first glimpse into their shared past.
I adore writing Sam and Bucky’s dynamic so much I could write them bickering and breaking my heart for days. Their dialogue practically writes itself.
Also! Some exciting updates:
-I spent all morning finishing the final drafting and editing of Act 1 (all 17 chapters) 😭
-I'm diving into Act 2 edits right now 💚💚💚
-AND I've finished my outline for the sequel, and started drafting chapters...because yes, I'm apparently possessed by these characters and the brain rot is real.Thank you for reading. Teaser for next chapter at the end!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Bucky’s lungs burned as he sprinted across the asphalt. Not fast enough. Never fast enough. Each footfall thundered through his body, his heart slamming against his ribcage. Blood roared in his ears, drowning everything but the desperate count in his head. Twenty yards. Fifteen. Ten.
Then he saw her. Isabelle.
The world compressed to a single point.
His vision narrowed until all he could see was her body sprawled across the highway. Dark blood pooled beneath her, spreading in an ever-widening circle that gleamed obscenely under the harsh sun. The summer heat vanished, replaced by the biting cold of a memory.
Zemo’s calculating eyes. The slight curl of satisfaction at the corner of his mouth. A shot cracking the air like a whip. A body crumpling to the ground, shock etched across her face as crimson bloomed across her chest.
The memory slammed into him like the impact from the freight train all those decades ago. His metal arm whirred, recalibrating with his sudden tension. His breath caught in his throat, chest constricting as if a metal fist—his own fist—was crushing his sternum.
It was his fault. All of it. Always his fault.
“No, no, no—” He blinked hard, forcing reality back into focus. This wasn’t Siberia. This wasn’t 2016. But the fear, the helplessness, the sickening sense of déjà vu—that was all too real.
His metal fingers clenched so tightly he heard the servos whine in protest. Seven yards. Five. Three.
“Isabelle!” Sam dropped to his knees beside her, wings retracting with a mechanical whir that cut through Bucky’s panic. “Can you hear me?” Sam’s hands hovered over her body, afraid to touch, afraid to make it worse. “Jesus Christ—”
Bucky hit the pavement hard. Concrete bit into his flesh knee, but the pain didn’t register. Nothing registered beyond the sight before him. Blood matted her hair. Her face—too pale, too still—was streaked with dirt and blood. One arm twisted at an unnatural angle. Her chest barely moved.
He leaned closer, enhanced hearing straining past Sam’s ragged breathing, past his own thundering heart. There—the faint, erratic flutter of her pulse. Alive. Barely.
Something cracked in his chest. Not a sound—a feeling. Like a hairline fracture spreading across glass under pressure. Bucky recognized it immediately: the beginning of a break he couldn’t afford. Not now. Not here.
“Barnes.” Sam’s voice sliced through the roaring in his ears. Sharp. Commanding. “Barnes, you with me?”
Bucky jerked his head once. A soldier’s response. Mechanical. “I’m here.” The words felt disconnected from his body, like someone else was speaking through him.
“I need you here, man.” Sam’s eyes locked with his, unflinching. “All the way here.”
Bucky forced himself to inhale. One breath. Two. The oxygen burned his lungs, but it pushed back the darkness creeping at the edges of his vision. The memories of Siberia retreated—not gone, just waiting. He’d deal with them later.
“Her powers are they—” The question scraped his throat raw. He couldn’t finish it.
Sam’s jaw clenched as his eyes darted over Isabelle. He tapped his earpiece. “FRIDAY, what happened? What’s her status?”
“Ms. Stark was forcibly ejected from the moving transport at approximately 63 miles per hour,” FRIDAY replied. “Impact occurred 1 minute and 47 seconds ago. Initial scans indicate critical injury. Internal bleeding has slowed significantly in the past 30 seconds. Left lung is partially collapsed but beginning to reinflate. Multiple fractures to the ribs, left humerus, and pelvis are already beginning to set correctly due to her accelerated healing factor.”
Bucky watched a trickle of blood slide from the corner of Isabelle’s mouth. He caught the subtle flutter of her eyelids—not consciousness, just involuntary movement.
“I advise against moving Ms. Stark,” FRIDAY continued, “until the most critical injuries have stabilized. Particularly the spinal fracture at L2.”
Spinal fracture. Bucky’s fingers dug into his thighs. “How long?” Each word felt like broken glass in his mouth.
“At the current rate of cellular regeneration, Ms. Stark should be stable enough to move in approximately 6 minutes and thirty-seven seconds.”
Six minutes. Three hundred and ninety-seven seconds of watching her blood seep into the asphalt. He tore his gaze away, scanning the perimeter with the cold precision that had kept him alive for a century. Empty highway stretching north and south. Too exposed. No cover. The tree line stood two hundred yards east—too far to carry her if those bastards circled back.
“She needs medical attention.” His voice came out harder than intended, the words clipped and sharp. “Now.”
“Her body’s healing itself,” Sam countered, but uncertainty threaded through his voice. He crouched beside Isabelle, hands hovering uselessly over her broken form. “FRIDAY’s right. Moving her now could—”
“Could what?” Bucky snapped, metal arm whirring louder with his rising tension. “Make it worse than a spinal fracture?”
Sam’s eyes narrowed. “Yes, actually. It could.”
“So we just sit here?” The taste of copper flooded Bucky’s mouth—he’d bitten through the inside of his cheek. The pain was nothing. Less than nothing. His flesh hand trembled, a slight tremor that infuriated him. Weakness he couldn’t afford. “Like targets on a goddamn shooting range?”
“For now, yeah.” Sam rose to his feet, squaring his shoulders. “Keep watch. If those Flag Smashers circle back—”
“When,” Bucky corrected, voice dropping to a dangerous growl. “When they circle back.”
“—then we move her. Not before.” Sam pulled out his phone, the soft tapping of his thumbs against glass unnaturally loud in the silence. “Updating Torres,” he muttered.
Bucky forced himself to stand, to put distance between himself and them both. The sun beat down on his back, his tactical gear absorbing the heat like a punishment he deserved.
“To tell him we failed.” The words tasted like ash.
Sam’s head snapped up, eyes flashing. “We didn’t fail, Buck.”
“I said, don’t call me that.” He spun on his heel and jabbed a finger at Sam, the gesture sharp and aggressive. “And didn’t fail?” He barked a harsh laugh, gesturing sharply toward Isabelle with his flesh hand. “Super soldiers are running around, and she’s bleeding out on the highway while they’re halfway to God knows where.”
Bucky could feel the heat radiating between them. Could hear Sam’s heartbeat, slightly elevated but steady. Controlled. Always so goddamn controlled.
“We did what we could.” Sam rose to meet him, shoulders squared, chin lifted. Not backing down an inch. “We couldn’t have known—”
“We should have!” Bucky’s shout cracked across the empty highway, echoing off distant trees. A flock of birds erupted from the pines, wings beating frantically against the cloudless sky. “We’re supposed to be better than this. Faster, stronger—”
“We’re not gods, Bucky!” Sam shouted back, chest heaving. A vein pulsed at his temple, jumping beneath dark skin slick with sweat. “We’re doing our best with what we’ve got.”
“That was our best?” His eyes snapped back to Isabelle, cataloging the damage with brutal precision. A thin line of new skin was already forming at the edge of her temple wound. Blood had stopped flowing from her nose. Her chest rose with less effort than thirty seconds ago. “Our best got her thrown from a moving truck at sixty-three miles per hour.”
“You think I don’t know that?” Sam stepped closer. His eyes burned with something fierce and protective that made Bucky want to look away. “I was the one who brought her here. You think I don’t see her lying there?” Sam jabbed a finger toward her, his voice cracking on the last word, the first fracture in his composure.
“Then why aren’t you angry?” Bucky demanded, his voice dropping to something barely above a whisper. His jaw was tight, a muscle flexing in his cheek as if he were holding back something far more explosive than words. “Why aren’t you—”
“Because someone has to keep it together!” Sam’s voice cracked like a whip. “Someone has to think clearly right now, and you’re too busy—”
“Too busy what?” Bucky moved into Sam’s space, close enough to count the sweat beads trickling down Sam’s temple, to see the tension locked in his jaw. “Too busy caring that she almost died? Too busy too—”
“You two...”
The voice sliced through his rage. Weak, barely audible, but unmistakable. Bucky’s heart stuttered, then hammered against his ribs.
“…talk... so... fuckin’ loud.”
Both men froze mid-breath, their heated exchange forgotten in an instant. Bucky whipped around so fast he nearly lost his balance, boots scraping against the pavement.
Isabelle had propped herself up on one elbow, her other arm wrapped tightly around her torso like she was physically holding herself together. The road rash that painted her left cheek was already knitting itself back together, the angry red fading to pink before their eyes. The gash on her temple had shrunk by half, new tissue spreading across the wound in uneven patches. But it was her eyes that punched the air from Bucky’s lungs. Open. Alert. Glazed with pain, pupils dilated, but aware.
He took a half-step forward, then froze, suddenly unsure what to do with his hands, his body, the relief flooding his system like a drug.
“Thought you two might...” She winced, sucking in a sharp breath through clenched teeth. A thin sheen of sweat coated her forehead, catching the harsh sunlight. “Might actually throw punches. Was about to... place bets.”
Bucky watched a rib visibly realign beneath her form-fitted suit, the bone shifting with a muted crack that made his stomach turn. Her healing factor was working overtime, prioritizing internal damage over surface wounds. He’d seen it once before, and it still made her feel simultaneously relieved and nauseated.
“Welcome back to the land of the living,” Sam said, recovering first. He dropped to a crouch beside her. “You had us thinking you were checking out on us. How bad’s the pain?”
Isabelle blinked slowly, her gaze drifting between them before finally focusing. A tremor ran through her propped arm, making her elbow slide an inch across the pavement. Her tongue felt thick, coated with copper and something worse.
“Like I got hit by a truck.” She swallowed blood, wincing. “Or thrown from one. Same difference.”
Her left arm snapped straight with a wet crack, bone fragments finding each other beneath her skin. The sensation made her stomach lurch, like insects crawling beneath her flesh, rearranging her from the inside out.
“Jesus,” Sam muttered, looking away. “Never gonna get used to that.”
“Makes two of us.” Isabelle pressed her palm against the scorching asphalt, needing to move, to do something other than lie here feeling her body rebuild itself. The pavement burned against her palm, but the pain was clean, external. Better than the crawling itch of accelerated healing.
“I strongly advise against movement for another two minutes and seventeen seconds, Boss,” FRIDAY’s voice chimed through her comms. “Your L2 vertebra is still completing fusion.”
“Spinal fusion. Great.” Isabelle gritted her teeth as another rib snapped into place with a sound like wet kindling breaking. Sweat beaded across her forehead. “Love that for me.”
She pushed herself up anyway. The world tilted, then spun, asphalt swimming beneath her palms like dark water. Blood drained from her head so fast she could track its journey—brain to neck to chest—leaving nothing but static and pinpricks of light behind her eyes.
“Whoa—” Sam’s fingers found her elbow, warm and steady against her clammy skin.
Simultaneously, cool vibranium pressed against her shoulder blade. Bucky’s touch. Firm but gentle, as if he knew exactly where the fracture had been.
“You’re the most stubborn person I’ve ever met,” Sam said, his voice tight with something between admiration and exasperation. “And I was friends with Steve Rogers.”
“Well,” She swallowed hard, fighting the wave of nausea that threatened to overtake her. “He did teach me—” She sucked in a sharp breath as another vertebra aligned with a sickening click. “—not to... stay down.”
Bucky hadn’t spoken yet, but his metal hand remained steady against her back. His fingers shifted slightly, finding the exact spot between her shoulder blades where her spine curved most painfully.
“You’re still bleeding,” he said finally, voice rough. Bucky’s jaw tightened. His flesh hand hovered near her side, where dark blood still seeped through her suit. “You need to lie back down.”
“Pass.” Isabelle straightened further, ignoring how the horizon tilted five degrees left. The movement sent lightning through her half-fused vertebrae. She bit the inside of her cheek to keep from screaming. “Just need to—”
Her fifth rib wrenched itself into position with a sound like snapping celery, cartilage grinding against bone. The sensation of it moving beneath the muscle made bile rise in her throat, acidic and burning.
A strangled noise escaped her—half laugh, half gag.
“Easy, Iz.” Sam’s grip tightened, his callused thumb pressing into the crook of her elbow. “FRIDAY’s right. You need another minute.”
“What I need,” she said through gritted teeth, “is not to feel my skeleton rearranging itself.” She sucked in a breath as her spine completed another fusion, the vertebra slotting into place with a sensation like a key turning in a lock. She tried again to push herself upright, desperate to regain some control, some semblance of dignity.
“Boss, your spinal fusion is complete, but I strongly advise—”
“Mute,” Isabelle muttered. Her arms trembled, muscles firing in uneven spasms, then gave out completely.
Bucky moved faster than her eyes could track. One moment, he was beside her. Next, his right hand caught her shoulder, fingers splayed in hesitation, and his body angled to protect her from another fall. The movement brought his face inches from hers—close enough that she could count each dark eyelash, see the tiny flecks of gray in his blue irises, smell the gunpowder and leather that clung to his skin.
“Don’t move,” he ordered. Something flickered across his face—realization, perhaps, that he sounded too much like the Winter Soldier. His jaw worked, muscles tensing beneath stubble. He exhaled slowly. “Just... stay still.” The words came softer now, almost gentle.
Isabelle blinked up at him, caught off guard by the naked concern etched into the lines around his eyes. His hand remained steady on her shoulder, keeping her upright, thumb brushing against her collarbone. The touch was light, almost accidental.
She tried once more to sit up, defiance overriding common sense. This time, something in her lower back finally clicked into place—the last vertebra slotting home like the final piece of a puzzle. The sensation sent a wave of relief through her body, so intense that it bordered on pleasure, a rush of endorphins flooding her system.
“There,” she gasped, managing to prop herself on one elbow. Sweat beaded at her hairline, trickling down her temple where new skin formed. “All better. See?”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed, tracking every microexpression that crossed her face—the slight twitch at the corner of her mouth, the tension around her eyes, the shallow rhythm of her breathing. His metal fingers adjusted their pressure points on her back, finding the exact spots that needed support.
“You’re still in pain,” he said flatly. Not a question.
Isabelle met his gaze, refusing to blink first. “Yeah, well, I’m always in pain, so…” She let out a huff of a laugh. “Comes with the territory.”
His jaw tightened, the muscle along his cheek flexing beneath stubbled skin. A pulse beat visibly at his temple. “This isn’t funny.”
“Humor’s subjective, Barnes.” She bit down on her lip and snapped her eyes closed as her pelvis realigned with a muted crack that both of them felt through the contact points of his hands.
Copper flooded her mouth where her teeth broke skin. When she opened her eyes again, Bucky still watched her, his expression hardened into something dangerous.
“The Flag Smashers,” she said, desperate to shift his attention away from how her body trembled against his hands. “Did they—”
“Got away,” Bucky cut in, the admission burning his throat like acid. “For now.”
“They’re tomorrow’s problem,” Sam said, straightening to his full height. His shadow fell across her face, a momentary relief from the merciless sun. The lines around his eyes had deepened since she’d last looked. “Right now, we need you somewhere that isn’t the middle of a highway with your insides still playing musical chairs.” He scanned the empty stretch of road. “I’ll take point. Buck—” He caught himself, mouth tightening. “Barnes, you got her?”
Bucky answered with a single, sharp nod, his lips in a thin line.
“I can get myself, Wilson.” Isabelle glared up at him.
The look Sam shot her could have withered concrete. “Your spine was broken in three places about four minutes ago. Walking’s off the menu.”
“Had worse.” The words slurred together despite her best efforts, her tongue still thick with the copper taste of blood.
A violent tremor rippled through her body, betraying her as thoroughly as her uncooperative limbs. The road rash on her cheek pulled tight—skin knitting itself back together with the sensation of a thousand microscopic needles stitching her face. Another rib snapped into place beneath her suit, the crack audible even to non-enhanced ears.
Bucky’s expression darkened, shadows gathering in the hollows beneath his cheekbones. His flesh hand moved from her shoulder to her wrist, fingers circling the delicate bones there. His grip was firm but careful, the calluses on his palm rough against her pulse point. “Stop,” he said, voice dropping to that dangerous register that made the hair on her arms stand up. “Just... stop.”
Something in his tone—not the Winter Soldier’s clinical detachment or Barnes’ usual gruffness—made her freeze. Vulnerability threaded through the command, raw and unexpected. For a heartbeat, she glimpsed something beneath his carefully constructed walls. Something that mirrored her own broken pieces.
“Fine,” she conceded, the word barely audible. Her fractured ribs protested as she exhaled, the sharp edges grinding against each other before fusing another millimeter closer together. “But if you princess-carry me, I swear I’ll make you throw up your own stomach lining.”
The corner of Bucky’s mouth twitched upward—not quite a smile, but close enough to count. A victory in the wasteland of this day. “Noted.”
He positioned himself at her side, calculating angles and pressure points with the eyes of a man who’d spent decades learning the exact force needed to break a body—and now, preserve one.
His left arm slid beneath her knees while his right hand hovered over her back, hesitating. “Put your arm around my shoulder,” he instructed.
Isabelle gritted her teeth, lifting her arm with painstaking slowness. The movement sent fresh ripples of agony through her ribcage. Her fingers trembled as they found purchase on the thick fabric of his jacket.
“On three,” he murmured, his breath warm against his temple. “One…two…” She braced herself, muscles tensing in anticipation. “Three.”
Bucky lifted her, surprising her with his gentleness, but still, her body betrayed her. A strangled cry tore from her throat before she could swallow it back. Pain exploded across her torso. Her vision blurred, and the world tilted dangerously.
“Shit—sorry—” she hissed through clenched teeth, mortified by her own weakness.
“Don’t apologize,” Bucky said, his voice rough but quiet, meant only for her.
Rather than cradling her against his chest as she’d expected, Bucky pivoted, carefully maneuvering her upright. Her feet touched the ground, but he took the weight, his left arm secure around her waist. His right arm crossed her collarbone, palm flat against her sternum, keeping her from pitching forward.
“Better?” he asked, his voice a low rumble she could feel vibrating through her back where it pressed against his chest.
Isabelle nodded, not trusting her voice. The movement sent another spike of pain lancing through her skull. She bit the inside of her cheek, refusing to make another sound. She forced her eyes to focus on the horizon, the empty stretch of highway shimmering with heat.
Sam’s eyes traced the empty stretch of highway, squinting against the sun’s merciless glare. “Next town’s about twenty miles northeast. Torres is working on transport, but...”
“Twenty miles?” Bucky’s grip on Isabelle tightened fractionally, metal fingers adjusting their pressure against her side. “She can’t walk twenty miles.”
“I’m right here,” Isabelle grumbled, eyes shifted to glare at them both. “And ‘she’ can hear you perfectly fine. Stop talking about me like I’m not here—I can walk. I’m fine.”
Sam stepped in front of her, arms crossed over his chest. He raised an eyebrow, lips quirking into that expression that said he wasn’t buying what she was selling.
“I get it. Wounded pride and all that,” he said, his voice gentler than his stance suggested. “But there’s a difference between tough and stupid, and right now—” His eyes flicked to the blood still seeping through her suit, to the tremor in her hands she couldn’t quite control. “You’re dancing on that line.”
Isabelle opened her mouth to argue, then closed it. Each bone realignment drained her further. Her healing factor devoured calories like a furnace, consuming her from the inside out.
“Fine,” she conceded through gritted teeth. The word cost her more than it should have.
Bucky shifted his weight, adjusting his grip without a word. His left arm remained secure around her waist. “Lean on me,” he said, his voice low enough that only she could hear. Not quite an order, but something close. His breath stirred the hair at her temple. “I’ve got you.”
The words hit her harder than they should have. Simple. Factual. I’ve got you. Three syllables that shouldn’t have made her throat tighten, shouldn’t have sent something warm and dangerous unfurling in her chest beneath the broken bones and torn muscle.
Sam’s eyes narrowed, worry etching new lines around his mouth. He nodded once, relief flickering across his features. Isabelle watched him pace ahead, his shoulders set in a tense line. The distance between them stretched to five yards, then ten.
“He blames himself,” Bucky said quietly, his eyes tracking Sam’s movements. “For bringing you here.”
Isabelle tried to shift her weight to take some pressure off him, but her legs trembled with the effort. “It’s not his fault,” she said, her brows pinched together. Her gaze followed Sam’s retreating figure as Bucky led her forward. “It was my choice to come.”
Bucky’s arm tightened fractionally around her waist, shrugging his shoulders slightly. “Doesn’t matter. He brought you into the field. In his mind, that makes you his responsibility.”
Something in his tone made her glance up. His jaw was set in that familiar stubborn line, blue eyes fixed on the horizon, refusing to meet hers. A muscle jumped in his cheek.
Sam had pulled further ahead, now twenty yards in front of them. Every few minutes—like clockwork—he’d glance over his shoulder, checking on them with a quick, assessing sweep.
A mile and a half in, Isabelle’s head felt suddenly too heavy for her neck. It lolled to the side against her will, pressing her temple against the rough stubble of Bucky’s jaw. Her eyes fluttered closed—just for a second, just to reset.
“Hey.” Bucky’s voice cut through the fog. He jostled her—a tiny movement, just enough to send a ripple of awareness through her body. His breath was warm against her ear. “Eyes open.”
She forced her lashes up, each one seemingly weighted with concrete. The world swam into focus, then immediately began to blur again, colors bleeding into each other like watercolors left in the rain. Her pupils were blown wide, black swallowing the green until only a thin ring remained. “M’fine,” she mumbled, the words thick and slurred.
“Stay awake,” Bucky ordered, his hand patting her hip, a gentle but insistent rhythm. “Isabelle.”
Her gaze wandered over his features with strange intensity, like she was committing them to memory. The deep crease between his brows. The tight line of his mouth. The way his eyes—blue so vivid it seemed almost unnatural—kept darting between her face and the road ahead. Her breath came in shallow puffs against his neck, each exhale warm and copper-scented. “You look... scared.”
His jaw clenched, the muscle jumping beneath stubbled skin. “I’m not scared.”
“Liar.” No heat in the accusation, just certainty. “Your eyes…give you away.”
Something twisted in Bucky’s chest—she could feel it in the sudden tension of his arm around her waist, the slight hitch in his breathing. His throat worked as he swallowed, Adam’s apple bobbing against the high collar of his jacket.
The darkness behind her eyelids beckoned, soft and welcoming. Just for a moment, she thought. Just to reset. Her lashes fluttered, heavy with exhaustion.
“Hey.” Bucky’s voice sharpened with urgency. His flesh hand moved to her face, rough palm cupping her cheek, forcing her to look at him. “What did I say about those eyes? Keep them open.”
The contact sent a jolt through her system—his skin was so warm against hers, almost burning. His callused thumb brushed across her cheekbone, careful to avoid the road rash still healing there.
Isabelle forced her eyelids up. The world swam into focus—the empty highway, the harsh sun, the dark smudge of Sam’s figure twenty yards ahead.
“Talk...” Her tongue felt thick, uncooperative. Her fingers twisted weakly into the fabric of his tactical jacket, desperate for an anchor. “Talk to me. Distract me.”
Bucky’s brow furrowed. The lines between his eyebrows deepened, carving shadows across his face. “Not much of a talker.”
“Try.” The word emerged more as a plea than a command, scraping her throat raw.
He was silent for several steps, the only sound his boots against asphalt and her shallow breathing. The rhythm of his gait was hypnotic, threatening to lull her back into darkness. She focused on the steady thud of his heartbeat against her shoulder, counting each beat to stay conscious. When he finally spoke, his voice was so low she almost missed it.
“I was nine when I met Steve.” The words emerged rough, like he was dragging them up from somewhere deep and rusty. “Skinniest kid I’d ever seen. All bones and attitude.”
Isabelle’s lips twitched. The movement pulled at her healing skin.
“Found him behind the corner store,” Bucky continued, shifting his grip as they navigated a crack in the asphalt. “Three boys had him cornered. Bigger, older. He was bleeding from his nose, lip split open.” His jaw tightened against her temple, muscles tensing beneath stubble. The memory sharpened his features, carving new lines around his mouth. “But he wouldn’t stay down.” Something softened in his voice—not quite fondness, but close. “Kept getting back up, fists raised like he thought he had a chance.”
“Sounds like Steve,” Isabelle murmured. The words slurred together, but she was fighting, clawing her way toward coherence.
Bucky’s chest expanded with a slow inhale. “I jumped in.” A pause. “Not because I thought he needed saving. But because I’d never seen anyone that brave before.” Another pause, longer this time. His throat worked as he swallowed. “Or that stupid.”
“Definitely Steve.” Isabelle huffed a weak laugh, immediately regretting it as pain lanced through her ribs.
“After, he was mad at me.” Bucky’s lips quirked up at one corner, the ghost of a smile. “Said he had them on the ropes. I told him—”
A low rumble cut through the air.
Bucky froze mid-step, every muscle going rigid. The sound grew louder with each passing second—the distinctive growl of an engine pushing hard. Isabelle felt the change ripple through him, soldier’s instincts overriding everything else. His arm clamped around her waist, pulling her flush against his side as his eyes scanned the horizon.
Sam’s head whipped around, his body tensing further. “Vehicle,” he said, voice dropping. “Coming up behind us.”
A dust cloud appeared on the horizon, billowing up from the asphalt like smoke signals. The vehicle materialized through the haze—a military-grade jeep. It screeched to a halt beside them, brakes protesting with a high-pitched whine that set Isabelle’s teeth on edge. Dust swirled around them, coating her tongue with grit and stinging the raw patches of skin on her face. She blinked through the haze, squinting as the particles settled.
She blinked furiously, eyes watering as she squinted through the settling dust. Her stomach dropped.
Walker.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Pain" by Boy Harsher
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Walker’s mouth kept moving. He’d already said too much, and now he was making it worse, trying to make it sound better. Isabelle’s hands itched with the hum of her powers, blood still drying on her ribs. Her jaw clenched. Sam’s stare went lethal.And Bucky?
Bucky went still. Cold. His vibranium arm clicked against her shoulder, each subtle shift whispering danger.
“One more word,” he said, voice low and lethal, carved straight from Siberian ice. “I dare you.”
Somewhere between memory and rage, between the weight of a shield and the ghosts behind it, something breaks. And not everyone walks away untouched.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 9: A Flag in the Dirt
Chapter 9: A Flag in the Dirt
Summary:
Walker talks too much.
He pokes. He prods. He pushes every possible button until Isabelle’s blood hums and Bucky’s jaw is clenched tight enough to crack. But this time—this time—he goes too far.
SHIELD files. Avenger digs. Science experiment.
One too many words.Bucky’s metal arm hums against Isabelle’s shoulder, cold fury radiating off him like heat from a forge. And then—
“One more word,” he growls. “I dare you.”
(Also... someone might get called “doll.” Just saying.)
Notes:
Okay, seriously, thank you. The support, the comments, the excitement over this story...it means more than I can say. The last couple of weeks have been rough—work's been kicking my ass, and my knee pain has been flaring up again—but every single one of your comments has been such a source of motivation. You all make me want to keep writing, even when I feel like crawling under a weighted blanket and disappearing into the void. 💀😂
I really hope you enjoy this chapter—it’s tense, talky, and confrontational in the best (and worst) ways. And listen... I hope I didn’t make John Walker too much of an asshole? 😬 I mean, yes, he is one—but I tried to balance it! This isn’t a John hate fic. He’s not a villain here (yet), just a deeply flawed, misled dude who absolutely should not be carrying that shield. That’s how I saw him in the show: shaped by the system, not innately evil—but still dangerous in all the wrong ways.
ALSO... 👀 The next two chapters? The ones after this? I’ve been DYING to post them. They’re a two-parter I’ve been obsessing over forever, and I’m genuinely so proud of how they turned out. Barring catastrophe, I’ll be posting the first one tomorrow night because I just can’t wait.
💥 Teaser is in the end notes.💥
— With so much love (and caffeine),
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Isabelle sat wedged between Bucky and Sam, their shoulders digging into hers with each jolt of the jeep. Across from them, Walker sat ramrod straight, hands on knees, shield secured at his feet. And his partner, Lemar, she reminded herself, watched them warily. His gaze lingered on Bucky’s arm, then darted away when he caught Isabelle noticing.
“Let me know if you need another one,” Lemar said, nodding at the half-eaten protein bar in her hand. “I know it doesn’t taste like much, but it’ll keep you going.”
Isabelle looked down at the bar clutched between her fingers. It tasted like cardboard soaked in artificial sweetener. She’d only accepted it after Lemar had extended it three times, and Sam had nudged her, his lips pressed into that tight line that meant eat the damned thing. She took another reluctant bite, the texture like compressed sawdust against her tongue.
“Yeah…I’ll let you know,” she said finally, washing down the chalky residue with lukewarm water from the bottle she had wedged between her thighs. The plastic crinkled as she squeezed it too hard.
Bucky’s thigh pressed against hers. She could feel the subtle shift of his muscles as he tensed, staring down Walker with everything he had. On her other side, Sam maintained the facade of neutrality, but Isabelle knew better. The slight clench of his jaw, the way his eyes never settled on one spot for too long. He didn’t want to be in this jeep any more than she or Bucky did.
But this was better than walking.
Unfortunately.
Walker’s gaze bounced between them like a nervous pinball, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallowed repeatedly. He kept adjusting his posture, shoulders squaring then slumping, a man desperately trying to find his footing on shifting sand. Isabelle could practically hear the gears grinding in Walker’s head as he struggled to find words.
Finally, Walker cleared his throat. “I’m sorry,” he said, each word measured like he was defusing a bomb. “I’m still figuring this stuff out.”
Bucky’s leg pressed harder against hers. Isabelle felt the exact moment his muscles locked, tension radiating from him like heat. She glanced sideways, catching the hard set of his jaw as he studied Walker. Sam shot them both a warning look from her other side, his eyes meeting hers for a fraction of a second—communicating volumes in that brief connection.
Walker cleared his throat again, desperation leaking into his expression. His eyes darted between them—Sam to Bucky to Isabelle—like a man searching for a friendly face in a firing squad. “I’ve never faced off against any of the big three before,” he admitted, voice straining for casual but landing somewhere between desperate and reverent.
Sam shot Isabelle and Bucky a pointed look that screamed, ‘told you it was a thing.’ His eyebrows lifted in that smug way that made Isabelle want to flick him between the eyes. She rolled her eyes instead, too bone-tired and irritated to bother with words. The protein bar crumbled between her teeth as she took another reluctant bite.
Beside her, Bucky’s entire body went rigid. His metal fingers flexed against his thigh, plates recalibrating with a nearly inaudible whir. He licked his lips, jaw working before he finally muttered, “No such thing as wizards.”
Walker and Lemar exchanged confused glances—the universal look of men on the outside of an inside joke. Walker’s brow furrowed, his expression caught between wanting to be included and trying to maintain authority.
“Okay...” Walker said slowly, “Maybe they’re not wizards...”
“Super soldiers,” Sam interjected, his tone deceptively casual, like he was commenting on the weather instead of dropping a tactical nuke into the conversation.
Bucky’s head snapped toward Sam so fast that Isabelle heard his neck crack. Blue eyes widened, jaw slacking for a split second before clamping shut again. Heat bloomed in Isabelle’s chest—not the warm kind, but the sharp, acidic burn of disbelief. Why was Sam volunteering information to Walker and Hoskins? She shot Sam a look that could’ve melted steel, but he pointedly avoided her gaze.
“Super soldiers?” Walker leaned forward, his posture suddenly alert, like a hunting dog catching a scent. “Like—” His eyes flickered to Isabelle, lingering, then darted to Bucky, then quickly away. The comparison hung in the air, unspoken. “Okay, yeah.” Walker nodded, a smile spreading across his face. “That settles it. We need to work together on this.”
“No.” Bucky’s response was immediate. A single syllable, hard as granite and cold as ice. His voice carried no hesitation, no room for negotiation—just flat, absolute rejection.
Walker blinked, confusion creasing his forehead. “What?”
Bucky moved his arm, resting it on the back of the seat behind her shoulders. The gesture wasn’t casual or accidental. It was deliberate. Territorial.
“We don’t need to work together on anything,” Bucky growled, leaning forward slightly. His voice dropped an octave, taking on that dangerous edge. “Just ‘cause you carry that shield doesn’t mean you’re Captain America.”
Hoskins shifted uncomfortably across from them, his fingers tapping a nervous rhythm against his knee. His eyes darted between Bucky and Walker, calculating odds, measuring threats. The protein bar wrapper crinkled in Isabelle’s grip as she unconsciously tightened her fingers.
Walker’s expression hardened, the eager-to-please mask slipping to reveal something rawer underneath—angry, wounded, and desperate.
“Look,” Walker started, his voice taking on that particular tone men use when trying to sound reasonable while being anything but. His jaw worked like chewing on the words before spitting them out. “I know we got off on the wrong foot, but—”
“Wrong foot?” Bucky’s laugh was sharp enough to cut glass, a sound with no humor. “You think this is about getting off on the wrong foot?”
The cool metal of his arm brushed against Isabelle’s shoulder as he leaned forward, the plates recalibrating with a series of nearly silent clicks.
Walker’s face flushed, embarrassment and frustration flashing across his features in quick succession. His eyes darted between Isabelle and Sam, searching for an ally and finding none. When he spoke again, his voice had an edge to it, a hint of defiance creeping in beneath the veneer of professionalism.
“Now listen here, Barnes,” Walker said, leaning forward until his knees nearly touched Bucky’s. The shield shifted at his feet with a metallic scrape. “I may not have fought in World War II or been an Avenger, but I’ve served my country. I’ve bled for it.” He tapped his chest with two fingers. “This shield, this uniform—they were given to me. I didn’t steal them.” His eyes locked onto Bucky’s. “You need to accept that.”
The muscles in Bucky’s jaw jumped as his teeth ground together. Isabelle felt him go perfectly still beside her, the kind of stillness that preceded violence. When he finally spoke, his voice was deceptively soft, like the whisper of a knife being drawn from its sheath. “That shield means something,” Bucky said, his eyes never leaving Walker’s face. “It’s not just a piece of metal for you to wave around like a toy soldier.”
Walker’s eyes narrowed, the nervous deference from earlier burning away, replaced by something harder. His posture shifted—spine straightening, shoulders squaring, chin lifting. The transformation was subtle but unmistakable: the good soldier giving way to the man beneath.
“I’m not trying to be Steve Rogers,” he shot back, words clipped and sharp. His fingers curled into fists on his knees. “I’m trying to be the Captain America this country needs now. And whether you like it or not, Barnes, that’s me.”
“You just said how underprepared you were,” Isabelle cut in, unable to contain herself any longer. The words spilled out sharp and hot. “You were literally just asking for our help.”
Walker’s attention snapped to her, his eyes widening slightly as if he’d forgotten she was there. The muscle beneath his left eye twitched.
“I’m acknowledging we’re facing something beyond standard military threats,” he countered, voice tight as a bowstring. “That’s not weakness—that’s tactical awareness.”
“Tactical awareness?” Isabelle scoffed, the half-eaten protein bar crumbling in her grip. Dusty particles fell onto her lap. “Is that what they’re calling incompetence these days?”
Walker’s eyes narrowed, jaw tightening as his gaze dropped pointedly to the bruises blooming across her cheekbone. “And what about you, Stark?” His eyes then lingered on the tear at her left side, where the fabric of her suit had torn. “From where I was standing, you weren’t exactly handling yourself. All I saw was someone who got thrown around like a rag doll. That’s how the Avengers taught you to fight?” Walker pressed, his voice gaining momentum.
Isabelle felt her lungs constrict, a familiar tingle building in her fingertips—the warning buzz of her powers stirring beneath her skin. “Excuse me?” she hissed.
Hoskins shifted uncomfortably beside him. “John—”
“No, I want to know,” Walker bulldozed over his partner’s warning, eyes locked on Isabelle’s. “Because I’ve studied the footage. I know how they operated.” He jabbed a finger toward her. “What I saw on that truck wasn’t Avengers protocol. It was amateur hour.”
The jeep hit another pothole, jolting them all, but Isabelle barely registered it. Her blood roared in her ears, drowning out everything but Walker’s voice and the electric hum of her powers crackling beneath her skin, begging for release.
“You don’t know a damn thing about the Avengers,” she snarled, each word razor-edged. “Or protocols. Or me.”
“I know enough.” Walker’s lips curled into something not quite a smile, more like a sneer disguised as professionalism. “I read the leaked SHIELD files. I know Tony Stark kept his ex-wife’s science experiment on a short leash. Kept you off the front lines when it mattered.” He cocked his head, studying her like a bug under glass. “What was it? Worried you’d crack under pressure? Or just didn’t trust what you might do?”
Bucky’s entire body went rigid beside her. The plates in his arm recalibrated with a series of soft, menacing clicks that vibrated against Isabelle’s shoulder. “One more word,” he growled, voice dropping to that Winter Soldier register that made even hardened soldiers flinch, “I dare you.”
Walker’s eyes flicked to Bucky, then back to Isabelle. Something ugly flashed across his face—satisfaction at having struck a nerve. His mouth opened, the next barb already forming on his tongue.
“John,” Hoskins said again, firmer this time, grabbing his partner’s wrist. “That’s enough.”
Walker blinked, the spell breaking. His expression shifted—confusion, then dawning realization, then a flash of panic as he registered what he’d just said. His eyes darted between the three of them, landing on Sam’s stone-cold glare, Bucky’s murderous stare, and finally Isabelle’s barely contained fury.
“I—” Walker swallowed hard, his Adam’s apple bobbing. “That came out wrong.”
Isabelle’s fingers twitched, power humming through her veins like an electrical current seeking ground. One touch. That’s all it would take. One touch and she could drop him where he sat, make him feel every broken bone, every torn muscle she’d ever suffered.
“You think?” Sam’s voice cut through the tension, sharp and authoritative.
Walker’s face flushed, blotchy red, spreading up his neck to his ears. He leaned forward, hands raised in a placating gesture that looked more like surrender. “Look, I misspoke. I’m sorry.” The words tumbled out, rehearsed but desperate. “I’ve been studying you all for years—your tactics, your missions. I just—” He raked a hand through his short hair. “I’m trying to do this right.”
“By throwing files in her face?” Bucky’s voice remained dangerously low. “That’s your idea of teamwork?”
Walker’s eyes flicked between them, desperation leaking through the cracks. He looked younger suddenly, the bravado stripped away to reveal the man drowning beneath the shield’s weight. “Look, we’re facing the same threat,” he sighed, shoulders slumping slightly. “Super soldiers. You know what that means better than anyone.” His gaze shifted to Bucky, then back to Isabelle. “I’m not asking you to like me. I’m asking you to work with me so nobody else gets hurt.”
Sam’s gaze swept over them all, his expression hard-edged but composed. “We appreciate the ride,” Sam said, his voice leaving no room for argument, “but that’s where this ends. We’re not a team and not looking to be one.”
Walker’s face fell, the rejection hitting visibly. His shoulders stiffened as he straightened, trying to maintain dignity while his eyes darted between them, searching desperately for any crack in their united front.
“The GRC is doing important work,” Walker insisted, leaning forward. “Post-Blip infrastructure, resource allocation, housing—these Flag Smashers are undermining all of it.” His knuckles whitened as his fingers dug into his knees. “They’ve hit three supply depots in the last week alone. Vaccines, medicine, food—all gone. And it’s more than theft. They’re building something—a movement. A dangerous one.” He gestured between them with an open palm. “With your experience, we could—”
“We said no.” Bucky still glared at Walker, eyes locked hard and cold.
Walker’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin. His gaze shifted to Isabelle, desperation bleeding into calculation. “You were an Avenger,” he said, his tone softening to something almost pleading. “You know what it means to be part of something bigger. To put aside differences for—”
“I know what it’s like to work with people I trust,” Isabelle cut him off, her voice razor-sharp. “People who don’t throw my past in my face the second they want something from me.”
Walker flinched, the barb landing exactly where she’d aimed it.
Hoskins shifted uncomfortably, clearing his throat. “I get why you’re hesitant.” His voice was steadier than Walker’s, less desperate. “But John’s right about the threat. These aren’t regular terrorists. They’re enhanced, organized, and gaining support.” He looked directly at Isabelle, then Bucky, his expression softening. “And for what it’s worth, I think what you did with the Avengers—standing up after everything you went through—takes real courage. The kind we could use right now.”
Bucky’s head swiveled toward Hoskins, eyes narrowing dangerously. “And who the hell are you again?” The question hung in the air, flat and unimpressed.
“Lemar Hoskins.” Pride crept into his voice as he straightened slightly. “I’m Battlestar.”
“Battlestar?” Bucky repeated, his tone so flat it could have been used as a spirit level.
Bucky’s gaze lingered on Hoskins, taking in the way the man positioned himself next to Walker—the subtle mirroring, the protective angle of his body, the quiet confidence in his partner’s abilities despite the evidence to the contrary. It was all too familiar. A knock-off version of what he and Steve had once been. What they’d had during the war.
Without conscious thought, Bucky lunged forward, metal fingers clamping around the door handle. He yanked it with enough force that the entire jeep shuddered on its suspension, the frame groaning in protest. “Stop the car!” The command tore from his throat, raw and sharp.
The driver’s head snapped around, eyes wide with alarm. His foot slammed the brake pedal to the floor. Tires skidded across loose gravel, the high-pitched screech cutting through the tension-filled cabin as the jeep lurched to a violent halt.
Dust billowed around them, and the engine idled with a low, persistent growl that matched the one building in Bucky’s chest.
His lungs burned. Each breath came quickly and shallow. The jeep’s interior had shrunk around him—walls closing in, air thinning, the shield at Walker’s feet seeming to pulse with accusation. That goddamn shield. Steve’s shield. Not this stranger’s.
“Bucky—” Sam’s voice cut through the fog in his mind, low with warning, heavy with understanding.
He ignored it. The door was already open, his body halfway out before his brain had fully caught up. He swung himself out of the vehicle, boots hitting the ground with a satisfying thud. “I’d rather walk,” he growled.
The cool late-afternoon air rushed into his lungs, clean and sharp, washing away the suffocating closeness of the jeep. He rolled his shoulders back, metal arm glinting in the slanted sunlight as he flexed his fingers, fighting the urge to put them through something—preferably Walker’s smug face.
Behind him, Walker’s voice cut through the air, slicing into Bucky’s momentary relief. “Look, I... I get it, okay?” A note of desperation crept into Walker’s tone, making it higher, thinner. “I get the attitude, I do. You didn’t think the shield was gonna end up here.” A pause, then the final presumption: “I get it, Bucky.”
Bucky’s jaw locked so tight he felt a molar creak. How could this man—this stranger—possibly understand? How could he comprehend what that shield represented? Not just America or heroism or any of that propaganda bullshit, but Steve. His best friend. The kid from Brooklyn who was too stupid to run from a fight. The man who’d never stopped believing in Bucky, even when Bucky was a weapon pointed at his heart.
The soft thud of boots hitting gravel pulled him from the edge of his rage. He turned to see Isabelle standing beside the jeep, her expression thunderous, eyes flashing with a fury that matched his own. The wind caught her hair, blonde strands whipping across her face as she stepped away from the vehicle.
“Don’t assume you get it, Walker,” she said. She didn’t raise her voice, didn’t need to. The quiet intensity of her words cut deeper than any scream could have. “You don’t.”
Her stance was steadier now, the pain from earlier seemingly pushed aside by pure, distilled anger.
She shot Sam an apologetic glance over her shoulder—a quick flicker of regret—then turned away from the jeep without another word. Bucky found himself moving in sync with her, his body reacting before his mind could catch up. Their boots crunched in unison across the gravel as they walked away side by side, shoulders nearly touching but not quite. The space between them hummed with shared indignation.
Every step put distance between them and Walker, but the man’s words clung to Bucky like burrs. Super soldiers. The shield. The presumption that Walker understood anything about what that shield meant—to Bucky, Steve, and the world they’d fought for.
“I should’ve hit him,” Isabelle muttered beside him. Her fingers flexed at her sides, curling and uncurling. “Just once. Right in his self-righteous face.”
The corner of Bucky’s mouth twitched. “Still could,” he offered, the words rough but somehow lighter than before. “I’d hold him still for you.”
He glanced at Isabelle, noting the hard set of her jaw, the tight line of her mouth. The way her eyes kept darting back toward the jeep—calculating, measuring. She was just as affected by this as he was, maybe more so. Walker’s words about Tony had hit a nerve. Bucky could see it in the rigid line of her shoulders, the too-careful way she was breathing.
“You okay?” he asked, the concern in his voice surprising even him. It was a softness he wasn’t used to hearing in his own words, a gentleness he’d thought had been beaten out of him decades ago. His eyes scanned her face, searching for signs of discomfort beyond the obvious bruising.
Isabelle’s pace faltered for half a step, her eyes meeting his. In the fading light, he could see the weariness etched into her features, the barely concealed frustration simmering beneath the surface. Something else too—a vulnerability she rarely showed.
“Yeah,” she replied, but Bucky could hear the strain in her voice. She swallowed, throat working. “Just tired of people who think reading a file means they know me.” She hesitated, then added, “You?”
The question caught him off guard. It had been so long since someone had asked him that—asked and actually seemed to care about the answer. He flexed his metal hand unconsciously, the plates whirring softly as they recalibrated.
“I’ll be fine,” he said finally, the words feeling inadequate even as they left his mouth. “Just needed to get out of there before I did something...” He trailed off, eyes drifting back to the jeep where Walker sat watching them, the shield at his feet. “Something Steve would’ve talked me out of.”
Isabelle’s eyes softened just slightly, understanding passing between them without words needed. “For what it’s worth,” she said, her voice dropping lower, almost gentle, “Steve would’ve hated that guy.”
A surprised huff of laughter escaped Bucky’s chest, rusty and unfamiliar. “Yeah. Yeah, he would’ve.”
The road stretched ahead of them, dusty and empty. Isabelle squinted against the glare of the setting sun, her eyes scanning the outskirts of the town ahead on the horizon.
“I can have FRIDAY get us a ride,” she said, tapping at her comms still in her ear. “Book us a flight back home. Commercial, though. I don’t have the Stark jet on reserve.” She grimaced.
The corner of Bucky’s mouth quirked up in a half-smile, a hint of mischief dancing in his steel-blue eyes. “At least we won’t have to be quiet the whole flight.”
Isabelle’s laugh burst out of her—a genuine sound that cracked through her exhaustion. “Oh, you mean I don’t have to watch another eight-hour staring contest between you two?” She rolled her shoulders, wincing as something popped. “God, that was painful. I thought one of you might actually combust.”
“He started it,” Bucky muttered, then caught himself. He sounded like Steve after a back-alley scuffle in 1938.
“Sure he did, tough guy.”
They fell into rhythm beside each other, boots crunching in tandem over loose gravel. Their silence felt different now, not the wary distance of strangers or the tense quiet of reluctant allies. It was almost... comfortable.
Bucky stole another glance at her. A bruise was darkening along her cheekbone, purple-black against her skin. Her hair fell in wisps around her face. Something twisted in his chest—an unfamiliar feeling he couldn’t quite name.
“You know,” he said, surprising himself by breaking the silence, “when I pictured my first mission after... everything, I didn’t think I’d end up hitchhiking down some backroad with a Stark.”
Isabelle’s eyes flashed to his, surprise giving way to amusement. “Oh yeah?” The corner of her mouth quirked up. “And what exactly did the great James Buchanan Barnes envision for his triumphant return to action?”
Bucky snorted, a rare chuckle escaping him. The sound felt foreign in his throat, rusty from disuse. “Definitely not this, doll.”
The endearment slipped out before he could catch it, a ghost from another lifetime. He tensed, waiting for her to bristle or pull away.
Isabelle’s eyebrow arched, but instead of offense, he saw something playful spark in her eyes. “Doll, huh?” She bumped her shoulder against his metal arm, the impact sending a dull vibration through his sensors. “Careful there, Barnes. A girl might get ideas.”
Heat crept up Bucky’s neck. He cleared his throat, eyes darting to the horizon. Her giggle drew his gaze back like a magnet. The sound was so at odds with everything he knew about her—Stark’s daughter, an Avenger, a woman who could drop a man with a touch. Yet here she was, laughing at his fumbling attempts at conversation.
“Well, for what it’s worth,” she said, her voice dropping to something softer, almost tender, “I’m glad you’re here, Bucky. Even if it’s not exactly how either of us pictured it.”
Something shifted in his chest—a piece of ice cracking, letting in a sliver of warmth he hadn’t felt in decades. The sensation was so foreign he almost didn’t recognize it. “Yeah,” he managed, his voice rougher than intended, catching on the single syllable. “Me too.”
The sound of footsteps behind them shattered the moment. Bucky tensed instantly, hand sliding to the knife hidden at his waist, feet shifting into a defensive stance. He pivoted sharply, only to see Sam jogging toward them, slightly winded.
Bucky’s shoulders eased, but a twinge of disappointment flickered through him. The quiet moment with Isabelle had been... nice. Different. A reprieve from the constant vigilance that had become his second nature.
“Hey,” Sam called out, closing the distance between them with quick strides. “You two trying to leave me behind?”
Bucky’s eyes darted to Isabelle, catching the slight quirk of her eyebrow and the amused twist of her lips. Her voice carried a hint of playful sarcasm as she asked, “Couldn’t take the bullshit either?”
“Nope,” Sam replied, falling into step beside them. He exhaled sharply through his nose. “Man, I thought I’d seen it all, but those two... they’re something else.”
“Something else is right,” Bucky muttered, scanning the horizon. The sun was sinking lower now, shadows stretching longer across the road. Soon, they’d lose daylight entirely. He suppressed a shiver, memories of cold Siberian nights creeping unbidden into his mind—the bone-deep chill, the silence broken only by the howl of wind against concrete walls.
Sam’s voice cut through his darkening thoughts. “Who comes up with these names?” he chuckled, shaking his head. “Battlestar? Did they pull it out of a cereal box or something?”
Despite himself, Bucky felt the corner of his mouth twitch upward. “Probably the same people who thought giving the shield to that guy was a good idea,” he grumbled, unable to keep the bitterness from his tone.
Isabelle laughed—not a polite chuckle or forced smile, but a genuine laugh that broke from her throat and spilled into the cooling air around them. A warmth bloomed in his chest, unfamiliar but not unwelcome. It reminded him of something he’d felt lifetimes ago, sitting around a campfire with the Howling Commandos, Steve at his side. Before the train. Before the fall. Before the cold.
Siberia.
The word echoed in his mind, sharp and sudden as a gunshot. His metal fingers flexed unconsciously, plates whirring softly as they recalibrated. The last time he’d been in Siberia—
No. He wouldn’t think about that now. Couldn’t afford to. Not with Isabelle looking at him like that, her laughter fading into something softer, more curious. But the memories were there, lurking just beneath the surface. Waiting for the dark. Waiting for the quiet. Waiting for him to close his eyes.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "The Weight" by The Band
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2016Before the shield. Before Munich. Before the cracks ran too deep.
A Quinjet slicing through snowy skies, carrying ghosts and regrets in every seat.Bucky doesn’t know why Isabelle Stark is here—not really. He remembers her eyes. Her fear. The memory of her face, flickering through gunfire and smoke. She shouldn’t be here. None of them should.
But she chose to be.
To stand by him.
And now Tony Stark is standing in the hallway of a Hydra base, looking at his daughter like she’s a stranger. Looking at Bucky like he’s still holding the knife.“Do you have any idea what you’ve done?”
A family fractures. A war stirs. And somewhere deep underground—
Zemo waits.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 10: Where It All Fractured
Chapter 10: Where It All Fractured
Summary:
He’d seen her before.
Not like this—sleeping beside him on a stolen Quinjet, her hair loose and face bruised from choosing the wrong side of history. No.He’d seen her then.
In the smoke. In the glass. In the fire.“She looked at me. She was afraid.”
And it guts him.Because now she’s here. With him. Still. And Bucky doesn’t understand it. Doesn’t think he deserves it. Doesn’t know how to look at the girl who once feared the Winter Soldier... and still chose to fight for the man underneath.
“She saw you, Buck,” Steve says. “Not the Soldier.”
But Bucky’s not so sure there’s a difference.
Not yet.This is where the past catches up.
This is where the guilt lives.
This is where it all fractured.
Notes:
I’ve been waiting forever to share this chapter. This one—and the next—were actually the very first scenes I wrote for this fic, back when I was originally planning to set the whole story during Civil War. While the scope shifted, I couldn’t bring myself to cut them. So here they are—slotted in as flashbacks, because these moments still matter. A lot.
A lot of you have been wondering about Isabelle and Bucky's history, and it is. The fracture point where guilt, memory, and choice all collided. The second part continues immediately after, and yes... I’ll be posting that tonight too. (Because I’m feral and can’t help myself.)
And holy hell—we hit 2k. I’m floored. Thank you for reading, commenting, lurking, screaming with me. You’re the reason I keep writing this! I hope you feel all the love that’s gone into this.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
2016
Bucky’s eyes darted around the cramped Quinjet, his muscles tense as he tried to make sense of the situation. He caught Steve’s gaze, those blue eyes a mixture of determination and concern that Bucky had seen countless times before. It was the look of a man who would move heaven and earth for his friend, and it sent a pang of guilt through Bucky’s chest.
“I’m not worth all this, Steve,” Bucky muttered, his voice barely audible over the aircraft’s noise. “Why risk everything for me?”
“Buck, you know why.” Steve furrowed his brow, focusing on the sky as he flew the aircraft.
Bucky opened his mouth to argue, but movement to his right caught his attention. His eyes fell on the young woman sitting in the front passenger seat.
Isabelle Stark.
She sat slumped in her seat. Even in sleep, her brow was furrowed, face pale and drawn. Bucky watched her through squinted eyes. She had stood by his side during the fight at the airport, her face contorted with concentration as she wielded her strange power.
Pathokinesis, Steve had called it. The ability to induce physical ailments in others. He’d watched her take down Natasha and King T’Challa with nothing more than a touch and a look whenever they got too close to him.
“She shouldn’t be here,” Bucky whispered, more to himself than to Steve. “None of them should have been. This wasn’t their fight.”
Steve turned his head back to give him a firm look. “It became their fight the moment they chose to stand with us, Buck. That’s what friends do.”
Bucky frowned as he studied her sleeping form, the gentle rise and fall of her chest, the way her blonde hair had escaped its messy ponytail to frame her face. Something about her tugged at the edges of his consciousness, a nagging familiarity he couldn’t quite place. A memory stirred, hazy and indistinct. He’d seen her before all of this, hadn’t he?
“I’ve met her before,” Bucky said, his voice low and rough. “As... him. The Soldier. I can’t remember clearly...it’s all mixed up,” He trailed off, frustration evident in the set of his jaw. “But she was there, wasn’t she? When we... when I...”
“Project Insight,” Steve supplied softly, his eyes flicking between Bucky and the sky ahead. “Yeah, Buck. She was there.”
The name triggered another flash - chaos, gunfire, the acrid smell of smoke. He could almost feel the heat of flames licking at his skin as a massive helicarrier plummeted from the sky in a twisted heap of metal and shattered glass. Bucky’s metal arm whirred softly, plates shifting and recalibrating as his fist clenched involuntarily. The phantom sensation of gripping a weapon, of dealing out death with cold efficiency, made his stomach churn.
“I remember...” Bucky trailed off, his brow furrowed in concentration. He swallowed hard, struggling to articulate the fragmented memory. “She looked at me. She was afraid of me.”
He shook his head, frustration etching deep lines around his eyes. The hazy images refused to coalesce into a coherent whole, slipping away like smoke through his fingers.
“Why would she help?” The question came out harsher than he intended, tinged with self-loathing. “After everything I’d done?”
Steve’s gaze softened as he glanced back at Bucky. “Because she saw you, Buck,” he said quietly. “Not the Soldier.”
Bucky grunted, tearing his eyes away from Isabelle’s sleeping form. The weight of Steve’s belief in him was almost too much to bear. “She’s just a kid, Steve,” he muttered, his throat tight. “Shouldn’t be mixed up in all this.”
A small, fond smile tugged at Steve’s lips. “I wouldn’t let her hear you call her a kid,” he warned, a hint of amusement in his tone. “She’s not one. She’s not much younger than we were when we shipped out.”
The reminder sent another jolt through Bucky’s system. Images of a different time flashed before his eyes - crisp uniforms, the nervous excitement of fresh-faced recruits, the weight of responsibility settling on shoulders far too young. He could almost smell the musty canvas of their tent, hear the distant rumble of artillery fire.
Steve’s expression grew serious, pulling Bucky back to the present. “She’s here because she believes in what we’re doing,” he said, his voice low but filled with conviction.
Bucky’s gaze drifted back to Isabelle, studying how her brow furrowed even in sleep, the slight tremble in her hands. He recognized the signs of exhaustion, of pushing oneself beyond normal limits. It was a feeling he knew all too well.
“And what exactly are we doing, Steve?” Bucky asked, unable to keep the edge of bitterness from his voice. “Running? Fighting? Dragging innocent people into my mess?”
Steve’s jaw tightened, but before he could respond, the quinjet lurched. Isabelle’s eyes snapped open, and she bolted upright with a startled gasp. Bucky watched as panic flashed across her face, her gaze darting wildly around the cramped interior. Her chest heaved with rapid breaths.
“Hey, hey, it’s okay,” Steve’s voice softened immediately, a gentleness in his tone that Bucky hadn’t heard in decades. “We’re just approaching the landing zone.” The easy familiarity in Steve’s words caught Bucky off guard. This wasn’t the awkward, tongue-tied punk he remembered fumbling around dames in Brooklyn.
Bucky watched Isabelle visibly relax, her breathing slowing as she ran a hand over her face. The tension in her shoulders eased, and a small, grateful smile tugged at her lips. “Hate flying,” she mumbled, voice thick with sleep. Her fingers combed through tangled blonde hair, wincing as they caught on a knot. “How long was I out?”
“A few hours,” Steve replied, his eyes flicking between her and the sky ahead. A fond smile played at the corners of his mouth. “You looked like you needed it.”
Isabelle managed a wry smile, still working on her hair. “Hope I didn’t talk in my sleep. Did I miss anything exciting?”
Steve chuckled, shaking his head. “Just the usual – turbulence and more turbulence.” His expression sobered, and he fixed her with a look. “How are you feeling? Really?”
Bucky didn’t miss the layers in that question. Steve wasn’t just asking about her physical state – he was probing deeper, checking on the emotional toll they’d just been through, of having to fight and turn against her father.
Isabelle’s smile faltered, her gaze dropping to her hands. Bucky noticed they were trembling slightly. “I’m okay,” she said, but the quaver in her voice betrayed her.
Steve reached out, placing a hand on her shoulder. The gesture was so natural that Bucky felt like an intruder watching it. He remembered a time when Steve could barely string two words together around a pretty girl, and now here he was, offering comfort as easily as breathing.
“You did good out there,” Steve said softly, his thumb rubbing small circles on her shoulder. “I’m proud of you. I know it wasn’t easy.”
Isabelle leaned into the touch, closing her eyes briefly. “Thanks, Steve. I just... I hope it was worth it. That Dad will...” She frowned, opening her eyes, unable to finish the thought.
The weight of unspoken words hung heavy in the air. Bucky felt the guilt gnawing at him again, sharper now as he watched the interplay between Steve and Isabelle. He’d caused this, hadn’t he? Torn apart a family, forced a daughter to fight against her father.
“Tony’s stubborn, but he’ll—” Steve started, then paused, choosing his words carefully. “He loves you, Belle. He might not always show it in the best way, but he does. This doesn’t change that. He’ll come to his senses.”
As the Quinjet descended through the swirling snow, Bucky watched Isabelle rise from her seat, her movements careful as she navigated the aircraft. Her hand shot out to grasp the overhead rail, steadying herself as the quinjet rocked. Isabelle peered out the windshield, her eyes widening at the whiteout conditions beyond.
Bucky followed her gaze, his stomach churning at the dizzying view. The mountainous landscape was barely visible through the veil of snow, bringing back flashes of another time, another mission in the cold. He pushed the memories aside, focusing on the present.
“Wish I brought a coat,” Isabelle muttered, rubbing her arms. She caught Bucky staring and offered a soft smile, though he could see the uncertainty lingering in her eyes. “What? Never seen a girl regret her wardrobe choices before?”
Bucky’s lips twitched, almost forming a smile. The quip was unexpected, cutting through some of the tension building since they’d taken off. “I’ve seen worse,” he replied, his voice rough from disuse. “Steve used to go out in the winter with nothing but newspapers in his shoes.”
Steve chuckled from the pilot’s seat. “Hey, we couldn’t all afford fancy boots like you, Buck.”
“Newspaper? Seriously?” Isabelle’s eyebrows shot up, a hint of amusement coloring her tone. “And here I thought my dad’s stories about walking uphill both ways were exaggerations.”
The Quinjet touched down with a gentle thud. Bucky rose from his seat, his movements fluid and practiced. Every muscle in his body tensed, ready for action. He watched as Steve powered down the aircraft, the low hum of the engines fading to silence while Isabelle moved towards the rear, reaching for the ramp controls. The metal groaned as it lowered, and a blast of frigid air rushed into the cabin.
“Jesus,” Isabelle muttered, wrapping her arms tightly around herself.
As they descended the ramp, Bucky’s boots crunched against the snow-covered ground. He scanned their surroundings, taking in the stark, unforgiving landscape. In the distance, partially obscured by swirling snow, loomed the entrance to the abandoned Hydra base. The massive steel doors stood open, a gaping maw in the side of the mountain. He could almost hear the echoes of his past reverberating from within those dark halls.
“Buck?” Steve’s voice cut through his thoughts. “You okay?”
Bucky turned to find both Steve and Isabelle watching him with concern. He swallowed hard, forcing his features into what he hoped was a neutral expression. “Yeah,” he said, his voice rougher than he intended. “Just... remembering.”
Steve nodded, taking point and trudging towards the entrance. The wind howled around them, driving snow and ice against their faces. Isabelle stumbled slightly, the snow slippery, and without thinking, Bucky reached out to steady her with his metal arm.
She looked up at him, surprise flashing across her features before being replaced by a small, grateful smile. “Thanks,” she murmured, her voice nearly lost in the wind.
Bucky nodded, unable to find the words to respond.
As they approached the yawning entrance, Bucky watched as Steve moved towards the already unlocked door, pushing it open with a soft creak that set Bucky’s teeth on edge.
Something wasn’t right.
The ease of their entry gnawed at Bucky’s instincts. His eyes narrowed, scanning the darkness beyond the threshold. The meager light from outside barely penetrated the inky blackness, and Bucky’s grip on his rifle tightened instinctively. He nodded for Isabelle to go in after Steve, positioning himself to bring up the rear.
As they descended into the bowels of the facility, the darkness gave way to dim, flickering lights. The change only heightened Bucky’s unease. Each flicker cast dancing shadows along the walls, playing tricks on his senses. This had trap written all over it, and Zemo had proven himself a master manipulator at every turn.
The elevator groaned as it carried them deeper into the complex, the sound grating against Bucky’s nerves. His muscles coiled tighter with every floor they passed, memories of similar facilities flickering at the edges of his consciousness.
The air grew colder as they ventured deeper, carrying with it the musty scent of disuse and decay. Bucky’s breath came out in small puffs of vapor.
When the doors finally slid open with a hiss, Bucky was the first to move. His movements were fluid, practiced, as he swept the long, damp hallway stretching into the gloom. The cold metal of his rifle was a familiar comfort against his palms as he cleared each corner, searching for any sign of movement or threat. He could sense Steve right behind him, the soft scrape of his boots and Isabelle’s lighter footsteps followed, and Bucky found himself straining to hear them, constantly aware of her position.
“Stay close,” Bucky murmured, as they began to ascend a set of stairs, hugging the wall for cover. The silence was oppressive, broken only by their measured breathing and the soft scuff of their boots on concrete. Bucky’s enhanced hearing picked up the faintest tremor in Isabelle’s breath, the slight quickening of her heartbeat.
Suddenly, a loud clank echoed through the hallway, followed by the grinding of metal on metal. A door opened somewhere behind them. Bucky’s body reacted before his mind could process, whirling around with his rifle raised. He caught a glimpse of Steve grabbing Isabelle’s arm, pulling her behind him as the familiar ‘shink’ of his shield being raised filled the air.
Bucky’s eyes narrowed as he peered down the hallway, his finger hovering over the trigger, adrenaline surging through his veins. The metallic creaks grew louder, higher in pitch as whatever lay beyond approached. He exchanged a quick glance with Steve, sharing the same tense anticipation that took over him.
The door slid open with a grinding screech that set Bucky’s teeth on edge. A familiar red and gold figure stepped through, the soft blue glow of the arc reactor casting eerie shadows in the dim hallway.
Tony Stark.
Bucky’s grip on his rifle tightened instinctively, memories of their last encounter flashing through his mind. He risked a quick glance at Isabelle, searching for any sign of betrayal, but her wide-eyed shock seemed genuine. She stepped out from behind Steve’s shield, ignoring the captain’s protective gesture.
“Dad?” Isabelle’s voice was barely more than a whisper, a mixture of disbelief and apprehension. “What are you—you shouldn’t be here—”
Tony’s faceplate retracted with a soft hiss, revealing an expression of barely contained fury. Each step Tony took towards Isabelle was deliberate, the sound of metal boots on concrete echoing in the narrow space like a countdown to detonation.
Bucky’s finger twitched on the trigger, ready to react at the slightest provocation. He could feel Steve tensing beside him before shooting him a look—wait, Steve’s eyes pleaded.
“Are you okay—you hurt?” Tony asked, his voice tight with controlled anger. His eyes scanned Isabelle, lingering on the fading bruises from the airport battle that hadn’t healed yet.
“ I-yeah... yeah, I’m fine,” Isabelle stammered, her usual confidence wavering. She gestured to the cut on Tony’s cheek, her hand trembling slightly. “Um, you?”
Tony’s nostrils flared as he took a deep breath, clearly struggling to maintain his composure. “Oh, I’m just peachy,” he snapped, sarcasm dripping from every word. “Nothing like having your daughter decide to play international fugitive.”
Tony’s gaze shifted, locking onto Steve and Bucky. The change in his posture was subtle, but to Bucky’s trained eye, it might as well have been a neon sign. The hairs on the back of his neck stood up, his body instinctively preparing for a fight.
“You two seem a little defensive,” Tony said, his voice suddenly more sarcastic, almost playful. The shift in tone only heightened Bucky’s unease. He’d seen men use humor to mask their true intentions before, usually right before they struck.
“It’s been a long day,” Steve replied, his voice tight with forced calm.
Bucky watched as Tony deliberately placed himself between Isabelle and the two super-soldiers. He tensed further as Steve took a tentative step forward. Bucky’s mind raced, assessing the situation. The confined space of the corridor limited their options. If this turned into a fight, it would be brutal and close-quarters. This was a powder keg, and Tony Stark was holding a lit match.
Tony’s attention shifted to Bucky, his eyes narrowing with a hint of challenge. “At ease, Soldier,” he drawled, his voice dripping with sarcasm. “I’m not currently after you.”
The words did little to ease Bucky’s suspicion. If anything, they set his nerves further on edge. His eyes flicked to Isabelle, noting the tension in her posture, the way her fingers twitched at her sides as she kept a close eye on her father.
“Then why are you here?” Steve’s voice cut through the silence, echoing Bucky’s unspoken question.
A bitter laugh escaped Tony’s lips, the sound harsh as something dark flashed across his face—a look of a man pushed to his breaking point, dangerous and unpredictable. “Because you dragged my kid out here,” Tony spat, gesturing toward Isabelle with a jerky movement of his armored hand. “And—” Tony paused, his jaw clenching as if the words physically pained him. “And I hate saying this, but maybe your story’s not so crazy.”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed, studying Tony’s expression. There was something else there, buried beneath the anger and bravado. Whatever it was, Bucky wasn’t convinced. He’d seen too many traps, too many carefully orchestrated deceptions, to take anything at face value.
“What changed your mind?” Steve asked, his voice cautious but tinged with hope. His shield remained raised, though it had dipped slightly—a silent gesture that spoke of trust not fully given, but not entirely absent either.
Tony didn’t answer right away. His eyes flicked to Isabelle, her face set in quiet concern. For just a moment—so quick it might have been imagined—something flickered across Tony’s face. Pain? Regret? It cracked through his usual mask of indifference before he caught himself. He blinked hard, as though shutting a door on whatever emotion had slipped through.
And then there it was again—his armor—not made of metal this time but irritation. He straightened his posture and let out a sharp breath through his nose.
“FRIDAY,” he said simply, the word clipped and final. “Let’s just say she found some merit to... to all this,” Tony continued. His eyes darted around the dimly lit corridor as if expecting hidden cameras or listening devices. “Look, Ross has no idea I’m here. I’d like to keep it that way. Otherwise...” He paused, a humorless smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Otherwise, I’d have to arrest myself.”
Steve’s posture relaxed slightly, the ghost of a smile playing at his lips. “Well,” he said, his tone light but cautious, “that sounds like a lot of paperwork.”
Isabelle couldn’t help but snort at that, the absurdity of the situation hitting her all at once. Three pairs of eyes snapped to her, and she felt heat creep up her neck. “Sorry,” she muttered, “it’s just…this is insane, right? All of this?”
Tony’s gaze softened as he looked at his daughter, the corner of Tony’s mouth quirked upward in response—a ghost of his usual smirk making a brief appearance before fading again. But whatever levity might have been building between them didn’t extend to Bucky.
Bucky stood rigid as a statue a few feet away, his rifle held steady in hands that didn’t so much as tremble. His shoulders were tense beneath the worn leather of his jacket. His expression was unreadable—but his eyes told another story: sharp and watchful, darting between Tony and Steve like he was waiting for Tony to make the wrong move.
Tony noticed. Of course he did.
His stance shifted slightly as he turned toward Bucky—not aggressive or threatening exactly, but deliberate. His gaze locked onto the rifle before flicking up to meet Bucky’s cold stare head-on.
“Hey,” Tony said after a beat, breaking the heavy silence with a tone that was equal parts exasperated and dryly amused. “Manchurian Candidate—you’re killing me here.”
Bucky didn’t flinch either. He merely stared back at Tony with an unyielding intensity that could have turned steel to dust.
Tony pressed on regardless, undeterred by Bucky’s lack of reaction. “There’s a truce. You can drop…” he added pointedly, gesturing vaguely toward Steve as though that explanation alone should suffice.
Bucky’s finger twitched on the trigger. His instincts screamed at him not to lower his guard—not now, not ever—but then Steve stepped forward. It wasn’t much—a single step closer—but it was enough. Steve raised one hand in a calming gesture while keeping his shield in the other—a silent signal meant only for Bucky.
Slowly—so slowly it seemed to take an eternity—Bucky lowered the rifle. He didn’t sling it over his shoulder or set it aside; he merely let the barrel dip toward the ground while keeping both hands firmly on it. Bucky’s eyes tracked Steve as he moved back towards the stairs, his enhanced hearing picking up on the hushed words Tony directed at Isabelle.
“Do you have any idea what you’ve done?” Tony’s voice was low, but the anger simmering beneath the surface was unmistakable. “The situation you’ve put yourself in? And for what? Some misguided sense of loyalty to Rogers?”
Isabelle’s chin lifted, her eyes flashing with defiance. “You said you came here because you know he’s right. About Bucky being framed, and we’re still going to have this conversation?” she retorted.
Tony’s nostrils flared as he took a deep breath, struggling to maintain his composure. His gaze shifted, locking onto the back of Steve’s head before snapping back to his daughter.
“You should have come to me,” he hissed. “Talked to me. This isn’t some training exercise. There are real consequences here. International laws broken, bridges burned.”
“I didn’t go to you because I knew this is how you’d react,” Isabelle shot back, her voice rising slightly. “Irrational. And besides, I wasn’t going to stand by while Bucky got blamed for things he had no part in.”
The mention of his name sent a jolt through Bucky’s system. He watched as Tony glanced at him, eyes blazing—Bucky met his stare unflinchingly, even as guilt gnawed at his insides.
“You taught me to stand up for what’s right. What I believe in,” Isabelle continued, her voice softening slightly. “To use what I have to help people and to—”
“I taught you to think!” Tony shouted, his composure finally cracking as his head whipped back to her in a blink. The sound of his voice reverberated through the narrow space, making Bucky’s ears ring and Steve turn back around, eyes wide with concern. “To use that brilliant mind of yours, not to throw yourself into danger without a second thought! To not—” He paused, swallowing hard.
The silence that followed was deafening. Bucky’s eyes darted between Tony and Isabelle, cataloging every micro-expression, every shift in stance. He recognized the fear beneath Tony’s anger, the desperation of a father trying to protect his child. And in Isabelle, he saw a stubbornness that mirrored Steve’s, a determination to stand her ground no matter the cost.
Tony’s shoulders sagged slightly. When he spoke again, his voice was quieter, laced with weariness that seemed to age him years in seconds. “Why couldn’t you have just signed the damned Accords? It would have made cleaning up your involvement in all this so much easier.”
Isabelle’s eyes widened in disbelief, and hurt flashed across her face. “Is that what this is about?” She shook her head, her voice tight. “I won’t sign away my autonomy or my conscience.”
“Your conscience?” Tony’s voice rose sharply, the momentary fatigue replaced by a flash of anger. “What about your safety? What about your future? You think running around with—” he jerked his head toward Bucky and Steve, not even bothering to look at them, “—with them is going to end well?”
“This isn’t about them,” Isabelle shot back, color rising in her cheeks. “This is about doing what’s right when the system fails.”
“No, this is about you making the same reckless decisions I’ve spent my entire life making!” Tony’s voice echoed off the concrete walls. “And look where that got me—look where it got us!”
“Tony,” Steve stepped forward, his shield lowered but still at the ready. “She made her choice. She did what she thought was right.”
Tony whirled on him, eyes blazing. “You stay out of this, Rogers. You’ve done enough damage.” His armored finger jabbed the air between them. “Dragging my daughter into your crusade—”
“He didn’t drag me anywhere,” Isabelle cut in, moving between them. “I chose this. Me. Not Steve, not anyone else.”
“Oh, really?” Tony’s laugh was harsh, brittle. “Because from where I’m standing, it looks like Captain America whispered some noble speech about doing the right thing, and you jumped right in without thinking about the consequences.”
“Dad, stop it,” Isabelle hissed, her own hands trembling now—whether from anger or the strain of her powers threatening to surface, Bucky couldn’t tell.
Tony’s jaw clenched, his eyes flickering with a storm of emotions—frustration, fear, and something that looked almost like pride. He opened his mouth to respond, but his gaze suddenly shifted, locking onto Bucky. The Winter Soldier stood motionless, his face an impassive mask as he listened to their heated exchange.
“We don’t have time for this,” Steve cut in, his voice sharp as steel. He stepped forward, physically inserting himself into the narrowing space between father and daughter. “Whatever’s waiting for us isn’t going to wait forever. Zemo’s still out there, and he’s got a head start.”
Tony’s eyes locked with Steve’s, a silent battle of wills crackling between them. For a moment, Bucky thought Tony might actually throw a punch—the tension in his armored frame was unmistakable.
Instead, Tony stepped back, his faceplate snapping down with a metallic hiss. “Lead the way, Captain,” he said, voice now mechanized and cold through the suit’s speakers. “But this conversation isn’t over. Not by a long shot.”
Isabelle’s shoulders slumped, the fight draining from her as quickly as it had flared. She caught Bucky’s eye for just a moment—something vulnerable and raw in her gaze before she masked it, squaring her shoulders and following Steve deeper into the facility.
Bucky’s muscles coiled instinctively, ready for action. He fell into step behind Steve, hyper-aware of Tony’s presence at their backs. He could feel Tony’s gaze burning between his shoulder blades, and Bucky had to fight the urge to turn around. Instead, he focused on the dim corridor ahead, mapping potential escape routes.
As they rounded a corner, Bucky leaned closer to Steve and whispered. “Can we trust them?” The words were more of a statement than a question.
Steve looked at him, steady and sure.
“Yes,” he said firmly, but Bucky detected a flicker of something else beneath the certainty.
Bucky’s metal arm whirred softly as he flexed his fingers, fighting the urge to raise his weapon again. “You sure about that?” he pressed, unable to keep the skepticism from his voice.
Steve’s brow furrowed, his gaze drifting back to where Tony walked with Isabelle. “I know Tony,” he said. “He’s angry, scared even. But he wouldn’t have come if he didn’t believe us on some level.”
Bucky grunted, unconvinced. His eyes darted around the dimly lit space, old instincts refusing to let him relax. “And her?” he asked, his voice rough. “You trust her, too?”
Steve’s expression softened slightly. “Isabelle’s been through a lot, Buck. But she’s got a good heart. Like someone else I used to know.”
Bucky swallowed hard, glancing back at Isabelle as they turned another corner.
A pang of guilt twisted in Bucky’s gut. He was the reason for this rift between father and daughter. His past, his actions – even if they weren’t truly his own – had torn apart yet another family. And yet... a selfish part of him couldn’t help but feel grateful. Isabelle had chosen to stand with him, to believe in his innocence when so many others wouldn’t. She’d risked everything to help clear his name.
As they continued down the corridor, Bucky couldn’t shake the feeling that this fragile truce was balanced on a knife’s edge, ready to shatter at the slightest provocation.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Love Will Tear Us Apart" by Joy Division
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They came to Siberia looking for answers.
What they found was a graveyard. A trap. A reckoning.Bucky remembers the way her breath hitched. The look on her face when she saw his—strapped to a chair in some forgotten file, mouth open in agony. He remembers the sound of Steve’s shield hitting concrete, the way Tony’s voice cracked when he said her name. He remembers the moment the past detonated.
One secret. One video. One shattering choice.
And then: blue light. Screams. Smoke.
And the sound of Isabelle Stark hitting the floor.
💥 NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 11: Faults
Chapter 11: Faults
Summary:
Some truths are buried in ice. Others are burned into memory.
The Hydra base was supposed to hold answers—but they only found ghosts. Suspended bodies. Bullet holes. Old sins, pickled in glass and time.
And then Zemo speaks.The footage rolls.
1991.
A car. A crash. A murder.
Two of them.Isabelle watches her father break. Tony watches his daughter fall.
And Bucky? Bucky remembers everything.There are no clean exits. Only fault lines, cracking wide open.
And at the center of it all—blood, betrayal, and a girl who should’ve never been in the crossfire.
Notes:
And here it is... the big one.
This chapter has lived rent-free in my head since the very beginning of this fic, and I’ve been both terrified and thrilled to finally share it with you. So much happens here—emotionally, narratively, and for Bucky in particular—and I really hope it hits the way it’s meant to. No spoilers, but...Also!! I’m currently curating a Sick Girl playlist and would love your help: What song do you personally associate with Bucky?
Anything that makes you think of his arc, his grief, his healing—drop it in the comments! I love music sharing!And one more thing: I’ve noticed there's been some of you expressing curiosity about Isabelle’s earlier years with the Avengers. Would anyone be interested if I wrote a side-fic made up of short one-shots from that time? Scenes from different Marvel phases—like training days with Nat, bonding moments with Steve, messy Stark family drama, etc.?
Let me know! And if you have specific requests, I’d love to hear those too 💚💚💚As always, thank you for reading and supporting this story.
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Chapter Text
Bucky never once let his guard drop as they entered a dimly lit room. Massive cylindrical tanks lined the walls, an eerie yellow glow emanating from within, condensation beading on their glass surfaces. The acrid stench of stale air and chemicals assaulted his nostrils, triggering unwelcome flashes of memories.
The room seemed to close in on him, shadows dancing at the edges of his vision. Bucky gripped his rifle tightly, fighting against the wave of nausea that threatened to overwhelm him. Bucky moved in step with Steve, his gaze was inexorably drawn to the faces suspended in the murky liquid. Through the yellowed fluid, he could see clean, precise holes puncturing each forehead. Bullet holes.
“What the hell happened here?” Tony’s voice cut through his confusion. Tony’s voice was tight and barely contained revulsion. He stood a few feet away, his face still hidden behind his helmet.
Bucky swallowed hard, his throat constricting. “They’re dead,” he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. “All of them. Shot through the head.”
He remembered these people, not as the frozen corpses before him, but as living, breathing weapons. Flashes of grueling training sessions and brutal experiments that had forged them all into something more than human... something less than human... flickered through his mind like a grotesque slideshow.
Across the room, Isabelle moved cautiously. Her eyes widened in horror, a fraction of morbid fascination creeping in despite her disgust.
She approached a cluster of desks pushed against one wall, her fingers trembling as she rifled through scattered papers and folders. The metal drawers creaked open, revealing stacks of files. Her fingers brushed against a thick file, and she hesitated before opening it.
Inside, a series of photographs made her breath catch in her throat. A younger Bucky stared back at her, strapped to a chair, his face contorted in agony. Isabelle’s heart raced, her vision blurring slightly as she tried to process what she was seeing.
“Oh God,” she whispered, her voice cracking. She’d known, in an abstract way, what Bucky had endured. But seeing it, the raw pain etched on his face, made it horrifyingly real. Her stomach lurched, and she had to grip the edge of the desk to steady herself.
The sound of approaching footsteps made her look up. Tony, his face still hidden behind his helmet, peered over her shoulder. Even through the mask, Isabelle could sense the tension radiating from him.
“What is it?”
Isabelle swallowed hard, her face pale. “It’s... records. And experiments.” She glanced across the room, where Bucky and Steve stood examining the tanks. Bucky wouldn’t want them to see him like this—hell, she didn’t want to see him like this.
With trembling hands, Isabelle closed the folder, looking up at her father. She fought the urge to be sick. The images of a younger Bucky, his face contorted in agony, burned into her mind. She stepped away from the desk, her gaze drawn slowly back to the tanks lining the walls.
“If he didn’t come here for them, then what’s his game?” Steve asked aloud as he peered into one of the tubes.
Tony followed Isabelle as she moved to join Steve and Bucky. “Whatever it is, it can’t be good. These people were weapons, weren’t they? Like you were?” He directed the question at Bucky.
Bucky nodded, his jaw clenched as Tony spoke. “Highly trained, enhanced. Deadly.” He paused, eyes briefly flickering to the floor. “But expendable, apparently.”
Isabelle watched Bucky, her heart aching at the pain etched across his features. She wanted to reach out, to offer some comfort, but the horror of their surroundings kept her rooted in place.
A sudden crackle of static pierced the air, causing everyone to flinch. The hairs on the back of Isabelle’s neck stood on end as a smooth, accented voice filled the room, dripping with mock sympathy.
“If it’s any consolation,” Zemo’s voice echoed through hidden speakers, “they died in their sleep.”
A pause, the words left heavy and thick to settle into them. Isabelle’s chest tightened, her breath catching in her throat. She glanced at Bucky, watching as his jaw clenched, his eyes hardening with something she could only read as anger. Bucky’s gaze met Steve’s, a silent exchange passing between them—they walked into a trap.
The pause didn’t stretch out for long before Zemo continued, “Did you really think I wanted more of you? I am grateful to them, though,” Zemo’s voice took an almost gleeful edge. “They brought you here—to me.”
Zemo had revealed himself, standing behind a thick pane of glass in a small, fortified room. His lips curved into a cold smile, eyes glittering with malice. In a second, Steve’s shield flew through the air, a blur of red, white, and blue—but it bounced off the glass without so much as a scratch.
“Please, Captain,” Zemo’s voice sliced through the room, dripping with smug satisfaction. His lips curved into a cold smile as he stood behind the thick glass, untouchable. “The Soviets built this chamber to withstand the launch blast of UR-100 rockets.”
Tony’s faceplate snapped up, his eyes hard. “I’m betting I could beat that.” The repulsors in his suit hummed to life, a barely contained threat.
Steve’s hand came up, a silent command. “Wait,” he murmured, his voice tight with tension. “I want answers.”
Zemo’s laugh echoed through the room, cold and mirthless. “Oh, I’m sure you could, Mr. Stark,” he said, his tone dripping with condescension. “But as the good Captain said – answers. Why did I invite you all to this little gathering?”
Bucky felt Isabelle shift beside him. “Tell me when,” she glared, side-eying Steve. Her body thrummed with barely contained energy. “And he’s out.”
Zemo’s gaze snapped to Isabelle. His eyes narrowed, tracking her with a focus that made her skin crawl.
“Ah, Ms. Stark,” he said, voice suddenly silk-smooth. The abrupt shift in tone made Bucky’s trigger finger twitch. “I’ve been looking forward to meeting you.”
Zemo leaned closer to the glass, palms flat against the surface.
“I’ve read much about you. Dr. Proctor’s notes were quite... illuminating.” His tongue lingered on the word. “The way she documented every injection, every fever, every seizure. Such clinical detachment for a mother, wouldn’t you agree?”
Bucky saw Isabelle’s face drain of color. Her breathing quickened—shallow, uneven. The slight tremor in her hands intensified until she clenched them into fists.
“Tell me,” Zemo’s voice dropped to an intimate whisper, as if sharing a secret, “does it frighten you, standing so close to the Winter Soldier? The perfect weapon.” His eyes flicked to Bucky, then back to her. “Is that what you see when you look at him? A glimpse of what you might have become if you hadn’t... lost control?”
The air around Isabelle seemed to vibrate. Bucky felt it—a subtle shift in pressure, like the moment before a storm breaks. Her pupils dilated to a black swallowing green.
“Your mother was tasked with creating HYDRA’s next soldier,” Zemo continued, merciless. “Instead, she created something she couldn’t contain. Something that killed her.”
Isabelle swayed slightly. Bucky’s metal arm twitched, ready to steady her, but he held back.
“Enough!” Tony stepped forward, the repulsors in his suit glowing brighter, their high-pitched whine filling the room. “You don’t talk to her,” he snarled, positioning himself partially between Zemo and Isabelle. “You don’t even look at her.”
The movement was instinctive, protective, and exactly what Zemo wanted. The man’s smile widened, eyes gleaming with satisfaction.
“How touching,” Zemo purred. “The prodigal father, so quick to violence.” He tilted his head, studying Tony with clinical interest. “Tell me, Stark, does it run in the family? This eagerness to hurt, to destroy?” His gaze slid between Tony and Isabelle like oil. “Like father, like daughter?”
Steve tensed, his shield gripped tightly as it all clicked. “So that’s your game?” Steve’s jaw clenched, his voice tight. “You’re Sokovian. Is that what this is about?”
Zemo’s eyes glittered with malice. “Oh, Captain. Always so eager to simplify, to categorize. But tell me, how does it feel to stand there, surrounded by the very weapons you claim to fight against?” His gaze swept over the group, lingering on Bucky, first, then Tony, then Isabelle. “The Winter Soldier, Hydra’s right hand. The Iron Man, the ‘reformed’ war profiteer. And Sick Girl, the girl with death in her veins? But... no. Sokovia was a failed state long before you Avengers blew it to hell,” Zemo spat, his composure cracking for just a moment. “No. I’m here because I made a promise.”
“You lost someone,” Steve said, a hint of empathy creeping into his voice.
Zemo’s response chilled them all to the core. “I lost everyone.” His eyes burned with a hatred so intense it was almost tangible. “And now, so will all of you.”
With a flick of his wrist, Zemo activated a small screen in the center of the room. The harsh fluorescent lights dimmed, casting long shadows across the faces of those present. Bucky’s breath caught in his throat as grainy footage flickered to life, the black and white images searing into his retinas. He recognized the scene immediately, and dread settled in the pit of his stomach like a lead weight.
A lonely stretch of road. A car. Two figures inside.
Isabelle’s eyes widened, her heart hammering against her ribcage. She shot a panicked look at Steve, their gazes locking for a brief, terrifying moment. They knew this night. The secret they had sworn to keep, the truth they had hidden from Tony– it was all unraveling before them.
Tony stepped closer to the screen, confusion etched across his features. “What is this?” Tony demanded, his voice tight with barely contained anger.
Zemo’s voice slithered through the room as a motorcycle roared into view on the screen. “December 16th, 1991.”
Bucky flinched, his eyes screwing shut for a moment before forcing them open again. He couldn’t look away, couldn’t hide from the truth of what he had done. The Winter Soldier, his face obscured by goggles and a mask, pulled alongside the car. A glint of metal, a sickening crunch, and the car veered off the road, slamming into a tree. The Winter Soldier dismounted, stalking towards the wreckage.
Isabelle wanted to look away, to shield her father from what was coming, but she found herself paralyzed, her eyes glued to the screen, until she couldn’t watch any longer. Her eyes flickered to her father. Tony’s face had drained of color, his eyes wide with dawning realization.
He flinched as the Winter Soldier’s fist connected with Howard’s face, once, twice, three times. Tony’s breaths came faster now, his chest heaving as he watched the Winter Soldier wrap his metal hand around Maria Stark’s throat. Isabelle felt bile rise in her own throat, her heart hammering against her ribcage.
As the video ended, plunging the room into suffocating silence, Isabelle’s mind raced. She knew her father, knew how he reacted to pain and anger. Images flashed through her mind – Tony becoming Iron Man after learning about Obadiah’s betrayal, his reckless behavior when he was dying, giving their address to a terrorist after Happy was attacked. And Ultron... oh God, Ultron.
Panic clawed at her chest as she realized what Tony might do now, blinded by grief and rage. She sent Steve another desperate look, silently pleading for help, for some way to defuse the situation before it exploded.
This wasn’t like facing off against alien armies or power-hungry despots. Zemo’d torn the Avengers apart from within, using nothing but words and carefully orchestrated revelations. He’d manipulated them, led them here like lambs to slaughter. For the first time, she felt truly afraid, a deep, primal fear that told her they were woefully unprepared for what was to come.
“Tony...” Steve’s voice was soft and pleading.
Isabelle watched Steve reach out, his hand hovering inches from Tony’s shoulder. The gesture seemed to snap Tony out of his trance, his body going rigid. He flinched away from Steve’s touch, his eyes never leaving the now-dark screen.
“Did you know?” he finally spoke, his voice a strangled whisper.
Bucky’s heart raced, hearing the rapid, uneven breaths of everyone in the room. He could almost taste the isotonic edge grasping them all, thick and suffocating.
Steve’s hesitation was palpable, his voice strained when he finally answered. “I didn’t know it was him.”
The lie tasted bitter in the air.
Bucky and Isabelle saw Tony’s jaw clench, his eyes narrowing dangerously. “Don’t bullshit me, Rogers,” he snarled, his voice rising to a shout that echoed off the metal walls. “Did you know?”
The silence stretched for an eternity. And then, when Steve’s voice came, it was heavy with regret. “Yes.”
Tony stumbled back, his eyes wild with disbelief and betrayal. Bucky watched, helpless, as Isabelle stepped forward, her hand outstretched towards her father.
“Dad,” she whispered. Her fingers trembled as she reached out, wanting to comfort him, to explain, to do something—anything—to stop what she feared was coming.
Tony’s gaze snapped to her, his eyes wild with pain. “You knew,” he said, his voice low and dangerous. It wasn’t a question. “You knew, and you didn’t tell me.”
Isabelle opened her mouth to respond, but no words came out. Bucky could see the struggle in her eyes, the desperation to find the right words, to make this right somehow.
Her shoulders slumped, her voice small and filled with regret. “I—yes... when SHIELD fell...”
“Two years,” Tony breathed, staring at his daughter as if seeing her for the first time. His voice cracked, “You’ve known for two years... ”
Isabelle moved to stand between Tony and Bucky, her hands raised in a placating gesture. “Dad, let me explain—”
“Explain?” Tony’s voice dripped with venom, his eyes flashing dangerously. “There’s no explaining, Isabelle. You lied to me.”
Isabelle’s face crumpled, the tears welling in her eyes finally spilling over onto her cheeks. “Dad, please,” she pleaded, her voice cracking. “I wanted to protect you—”
“Protect me?” Tony’s laugh was harsh and bitter.
Bucky’s muscles tensed, ready for the fight he knew was coming. He could see it in Tony’s eyes – the grief giving way to rage, the betrayal fueling a fire that threatened to consume them all.
“Ah, Mr. Stark,” Zemo’s voice wriggling through the air, dripping with false sympathy. “Betrayal by one’s daughter, though satisfying to witness, isn’t a proper punishment for a man responsible for so much death and destruction. No, someone who had a hand in creating such chaos should know what it’s like to lose their greatest creation.”
Bucky tensed, his instincts screaming that something was wrong. The words ‘greatest creation’ echoed in Bucky’s mind, and suddenly, he knew. His eyes widened in horrified realization, darting to Isabelle. He opened his mouth to shout a warning, but the sound died in his throat as a high-pitched whine filled the air, so sharp it made his teeth ache.
Bucky’s body moved on instinct, before his mind could fully catch up. But even as he lunged forward, he knew with sickening certainty that he wouldn’t be fast enough.
A beam of searing blue-white energy erupted from a hidden device in the wall, cutting through the air with terrifying precision. Bucky watched, helpless, as it struck Isabelle squarely in the chest. The force of the impact made her stagger back, her eyes widening in shock, and then for a heartbeat, everything was silent. Isabelle’s eyes widened in shock, her lips parting in a silent gasp.
Then the smell hit him – the acrid, sickening stench of burning flesh.
Isabelle remained standing for a moment, her gaze locked on her father. Tony’s face was a mask of horror, his eyes wide with disbelief. Then Isabelle buckled, legs giving out.
Bucky watched in horror as Isabelle collapsed, her body hitting the concrete floor with a sickening thud. Her hands clutched frantically at the wound in her chest, fingers slipping in the blood that poured between them. Each desperate, wet gasp echoed in the chamber, the sound drilling into Bucky’s skull like an ice pick.
The shield dropped from Steve’s grip, spinning across the floor with a metallic wail before clattering to a stop. He lunged forward, sliding on his knees across the concrete until he reached her.
“Oh God,” he choked out, panic straining his voice to breaking. He pressed his palms against the wound, trying to stem the flow.
Isabelle’s back arched off the floor, a sound tearing from her throat that wasn’t human—raw and animal. Her eyes flew wide, pupils blown with shock and agony.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” Steve muttered, his face twisting. Blood welled between his fingers, hot and relentless. “I have to stop the bleeding. Just hang on, okay? Stay with me, Belle. Stay with me.”
Isabelle’s eyes, glassy and unfocused, struggled to find Steve’s face. Her lips moved, blood bubbling up and spilling down her chin in thin rivulets. Her fingers scrabbled weakly at Steve’s uniform, leaving crimson streaks across the blue fabric. Each breath came shorter than the last, a wet, rattling wheeze.
“S-Steve,” she managed, the word barely audible. Her face contorted, tears flowing down her cheeks. “It…hurts…”
“I know, I know,” Steve said, voice cracking. He leaned closer, his words urgent and pleading. “Hang on, we’ll get you help. You hear me? You’re going to be okay—”
Steve’s hands remained pressed against the wound, but his eyes met Bucky’s across the room, and Bucky saw in them what he already knew: it was too late. The wound was too severe, too precise. Zemo had calculated exactly where to strike, had known exactly what would hurt the most.
Isabelle convulsed as a wet, gurgling sound escaped her throat. The sound snapped Tony out of his paralysis.
“Get away from her!” Tony lunged forward, repulsors whining. His armored hands slammed into Steve’s chest, sending him skidding back. “Don’t you dare touch her!”
Steve scrambled up, palms raised, crimson-stained. “Tony, please—” His voice steady despite the panic in his eyes. “We need to get her help now or she won’t—”
“Shut up!” Tony’s eyes were wide. Spittle flew from his mouth as he shouted, “This is on you. All on you, Rogers.”
He dropped to his knees beside Isabelle, metal scraping against concrete with a sound that set Bucky’s teeth on edge. Tony’s gauntleted hands hovered over her body, trembling violently, uncertain where to touch.
“Izzy, baby, please—” The words crumbled into something primal as Tony’s composure shattered completely. Tears carved tracks down his dirt-streaked face. “No, no, no, no—” Each word punched out between ragged breaths. “FRIDAY, scan vitals, now!”
“Tony, her vitals are critical. Massive internal damage detected. Survival probability... 12% and dropping rapidly.”
Bucky picked up the subtle change in Isabelle’s heartbeat. The rhythm faltered, stumbled, then picked up again in an erratic pattern. Her skin had gone gray, lips tinged blue.
“Quite effective, isn’t it, Mr. Stark?” Zemo’s voice drifted from behind his protective barrier. “Your own technology, turned against you.” He paused, and Bucky could hear the smile in his voice. He could picture the slight curl of his lips and the gleam in his eyes as he savored their pain like a connoisseur sampling fine wine. “I acquired it from a very eager seller in New York.” Another deliberate pause, heavy with implication. “It seems your innovations have a way of... falling into the wrong hands.”
Isabelle’s eyelids fluttered, closing for a moment before opening again, wandering, unfocused, before finding her father’s face. Her lips moved, forming words too faint for even Bucky to hear.
Tony shook his head, one gauntleted hand hovering just above her wound while the other cradled her head. “I’m here, sweetheart,” he choked out, “I’m right here. Stay with me, okay? Just stay with me. I’m going to get you out of here.”
Tony tried to slide his arms beneath Isabelle, metal fingers leaving bloody smears on the floor as he attempted to gather her against his chest. The movement jostled her wound, and the sound that tore from her throat sliced through the air like a blade, high and thin and animal with pain.
Bucky flinched, the sound drilling into his skull, triggering flashes of memory—other screams, other bodies, other blood on his hands. His jaw clenched so tight he felt his teeth might crack.
Steve lurched forward, hand outstretched. “Tony, wait—we can’t move her—”
The words died in his throat, unable to finish the sentence they all understood: Isabelle would bleed out before they could get her to help.
Bucky watched the exact moment comprehension dawned in Isabelle’s eyes. Her unfocused gaze suddenly sharpened, pupils contracting as the fog of shock briefly lifted. The panic that had twisted her features smoothed into something worse—acceptance. A terrible, unnatural calm settled over her face.
Her hand trembled violently as she reached for Tony, fingers leaving crimson streaks across his armor. The simple movement drained what little color remained in her face.
“Dad,” she gasped. “I’m sorry... I should’ve...”
“Shh, don’t talk.” Tony urged, his own hand engulfing hers. “You’re gonna be okay. You hear me? I’ll fix this.” His words came faster, more desperate, tumbling over each other. “I always fix things, right?” Tony’s face contorted, the mask of control slipping.
A wet, choking sound escaped Isabelle—something between a laugh and a sob that morphed into a whimper. Tony shook his head frantically.
“No, no, don’t you do that.” His voice rose, taking on a frantic edge as Isabelle’s eyelids began to flutter. “Isabelle Maria Stark, you stay with me. Please!”
Bucky watched, paralyzed, as Isabelle’s fingers went slack against Tony’s cheek. Her hand dropped, landing with a soft thud against her chest.
Tony’s face transformed, cycling through emotions so quickly Bucky could barely track them—disbelief, horror, grief, and then something darker. Something that made Bucky’s combat instincts flare to life.
Rage.
Steve stumbled back, his boots scraping against concrete. His face drained of color until the bruises from earlier stood out like ink stains. For a moment, his eyes darted frantically around the room—searching for solutions, options, anything—but found only the cold gleam of metal walls and the heavy silence of failure.
His gaze finally locked onto Zemo behind the barrier. The man’s face remained placid, almost serene, as he observed the chaos he’d orchestrated. Steve’s features contorted, grief twisting into something feral.
“You bastard,” he snarled, voice stripped raw. “This wasn’t—”
A sound cut him off—something not quite human, not quite animal. The sound of something fundamental breaking.
Tony.
Bucky watched as Tony’s head snapped up from Isabelle’s still form. Blood smeared his armor where he’d cradled her, dark and accusatory against the red and gold. His eyes—Bucky had seen that look before. In the faces of men who’d lost everything. In mirrors. The complete absence of hope. The presence of something darker.
Tony’s movements were jarringly gentle as he laid Isabelle down, one gauntleted hand supporting her head until the last possible moment. His fingers lingered on her cheek, smearing crimson across pale skin. Then he rose in one fluid motion, the servos in his suit whining softly.
“Tony,” Steve stepped between Tony’s path to Bucky. “This isn’t the way. We need to—”
“Get out of my way, Rogers.” Tony’s voice barely sounded human. His eyes never left Bucky’s face. “You don’t get to decide anything anymore,” Tony continued, each word precise despite the tremor underneath. “Not after this.”
“It wasn’t him, Tony,” Steve pleaded, kicking his shield up with practiced ease and catching it on his forearm. He raised it defensively, not quite covering Bucky but positioned to intercept. Sweat beaded along his hairline, trickling down his temple. “Bucky wasn’t in control. Hydra—”
“I don’t give a damn about Hydra!” Tony roared. His next words came slower, each one dragged from somewhere deep and broken. “He killed my parents.” His voice cracked, splintering like ice. “And now...” His eyes flicked toward Isabelle’s motionless form, then back to Bucky with renewed fury. “She’s gone. Because of him. Because of you.”
Bucky’s gaze was drawn inexorably to Isabelle’s still form. Her eyes, once so full of life and compassion, stared blankly at the ceiling. This was his fault. All of it. Maybe it would be better if...
But before he or Steve could act, Tony launched himself forward, repulsors blazing. Bucky closed his eyes, bracing for the impact. The last thing he heard was Steve’s desperate shout, drowned out by the deafening roar of Tony’s suit and the thunderous pounding of his own heart.
Present
Bucky leaned against the cold metal of the cargo bay, his eyes fixed on Isabelle’s sleeping form. The gentle hum of the plane’s engines vibrated through his bones and set his nerves on edge. His jaw clenched, arms crossed tightly over his chest as if to hold himself together. It had been a sudden jolt of turbulence that sent him spiraling, and then, he wasn’t on the plane anymore.
He was in Siberia.
Bucky shook his head violently, trying to banish the memories, but they clung to him like frost.
His gaze drifted to Sam, sprawled out on the opposite row of seats. Though not asleep, Sam’s breathing was steady and relaxed. Bucky furrowed his brow. He envied Sam’s ability to find peace even after the day they’d had.
Another strike of turbulence hit the plane, the metal frame groaning under the strain. Steve’s shield, slamming into Tony’s arc reactor. Again and again.
He blinked hard. The fight in Siberia had been brutal, raw emotion and years of pent-up anger fueling every punch, every kick. He looked at his left arm, new and whole, but in his mind’s eye, he saw it as it had been that night—shot off, bits of metal sizzling and whirring as they flew away. The phantom pain was almost overwhelming, and he shifted against the wall, his hand clenching and unclenching.
And then, Isabelle had appeared—alive, impossibly alive. Her sudden resurrection had shocked them all, pulling them back from the brink of destruction.
But the damage had already been done.
Bucky’s eyes found Isabelle’s sleeping form once more, studying the gentle rise and fall of her chest. The rhythmic motion was hypnotic, almost soothing, but it did little to quell the storm raging inside him. His right hand slipped into his pocket, fingers closing around the worn notebook he always carried.
Flipping it open, calloused fingers traced down the list of names – people he’d wronged. The Winter Soldier’s legacy, written in ink and blood.
Isabelle’s name was near the top.
“I’m sorry,” Bucky whispered, the words feeling hollow, inadequate. “for everything.”
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Exit Music (For A Film)" by Radiohead
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The silence breaks with steel in his voice.
One second, it’s guilt and side-eyes. The next—it’s James Rhodes, ten feet away, thunder in his stance and disappointment carved into every line of his face. Isabelle doesn’t flinch… until she realizes why he’s here.“You called him?”
Sam blinks. “What—no! I wouldn’t—”
“I did,” Bucky says.Technically, a text. Technically, still a betrayal.
The mission’s over, but the fallout has teeth.
Confrontations hit harder than any Flag Smasher ever could.
And when the people you trust most walk away?Sometimes the only thing left to hold onto…
is the spiral.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 12: Spiral
Chapter 12: Spiral
Summary:
The bruises are healing. The silence is not.
After Munich, Isabelle wakes to cold shoulders and colder truths. Sam won’t look at her. Bucky called for backup. And when James Rhodes steps out of the shadows like the ghost of a scolding past, Isabelle realizes she’s no longer just bleeding—she’s unraveling.
Old grief. New fractures. And a truth she’s not ready to hear: she’s spiraling.
She’s healed from worse. But this time, it’s not her body breaking—it’s everything else.
Notes:
Chapter 12 — we made it!!! LET’S GOOO!!! 💚
Quick updates + some fun stuff:
✨ So a few readers (👀 looking at you, Aggiiee) have been asking about Isabelle’s backstory—and you’ve officially convinced me. I’ve decided to start a companion fic: a collection of oneshots that take place during earlier points in the MCU timeline. The first one’s already written (it’s set during Iron Man 1 and I’m obsessed with it) and I’m thinking of posting it this weekend!If there’s a specific moment, interaction, or era you want to see—drop your requests or questions in the comments! If it’s not something I plan to cover in this fic or the sequel I’m plotting, I’ll try to work it into a oneshot. 🖤
🎶 ALSO! We got on the topic of music in the comments, and it reminded me to share the official playlist for Sick Girl! It’s still growing, but it’s what I listen to whenever I'm working on this fic, so I figured I'd share!
Here's the link for that: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5At7IEoGvxohhk8543WIlb?si=e9ae496838824dce
Thank you, as always, for reading. I love hearing your thoughts—so don’t be shy in those comments 💚
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Chapter Text
The hangar lights slammed into Isabelle’s vision. She squinted, each movement sending ripples of pain through her freshly healed body. Her ribs screamed when she inhaled.
But the silence hurt worse.
Sam walked five paces ahead, back rigid, shoulders squared. The easy rhythm of his usual step had vanished. Bucky moved beside him like a shadow, jaw muscles bunching beneath stubbled skin, eyes fixed on nothing.
Something had shifted while she’d slept on the plane. She searched her memory, rewinding through fragments of half-heard conversations, trying to piece together what could have turned the air between them so frigid.
Isabelle quickened her pace, wincing. “Either of you planning to actually speak?” Her voice cut rough against the silence. “Or are we playing Sam’s silence game again?”
Sam’s stride faltered—just a microsecond—before resuming. Bucky’s metal fingers flexed once, twice, but nothing more.
“Seriously?” Isabelle stopped walking. Her palms grew clammy, anxiety crawling up her spine, settling like ice between her shoulder blades as realization kicked in. “You’re benching me. That’s what this is about.”
Sam and Bucky exchanged a look—guilt flashing across both faces—and she knew.
“It’s not what you think, Iz,” Sam said, voice gentle in that way that meant bad news was coming. His eyes skated across her face before settling somewhere over her left shoulder.
“Then what exactly is it?” The question scraped out smaller than she intended, anger fracturing around the edges, revealing something raw underneath.
A shift in the air. Sam’s focus darted behind her, his expression morphing from guilt to surprise. Beside him, Bucky’s face emptied of emotion, his posture subtly straightening.
Isabelle turned.
James Rhodes stood ten feet away, military-straight, arms crossed over his chest. His expression was thunderous, jaw locked tight, eyes boring into her with an intensity she hadn’t seen since she’d hotwired his Audi when she was sixteen.
“Shit,” she whispered, the word escaping on an exhale that hurt her ribs.
“Rhodes,” Sam broke the silence, voice lifting slightly as he glanced between Isabelle and Rhodey. “Uh, hey man?”
“Sam.” Rhodey acknowledged with a curt nod, gaze never wavering from Isabelle except for a millisecond flick toward Bucky. When his eyes locked back on her, they had somehow hardened further. “Barnes.”
Bucky shifted beside her. He didn’t seem so surprised. Isabelle shot him a warning glance before squaring her shoulders to face her godfather.
“What are you doing here?” The question came out sharp and defensive. Then understanding hit her like a physical blow. Heat flooded her face, crawling up her neck to her cheeks as she whipped toward Sam, ignoring the stab of pain in her ribs. “You called him?” Each syllable landed like a slap.
Sam’s eyes widened, hands coming up in immediate surrender. “What—no! I wouldn’t—”
“I did,” Bucky cut in, voice low but unapologetic. His jaw was set, blue eyes steady when her gaze snapped to him.
The admission punched through Isabelle’s stomach, hollowing her out. Her lungs seized, the betrayal stealing her breath more effectively than any internal bleeding had. Even Sam looked blindsided, his head jerking toward Bucky.
“What the hell, man?” Sam hissed.
“You did what?” Isabelle took a step toward Bucky, hand forming a fist. “You called my uncle? Why?” Each question came faster, sharper than the last, her voice rising with each word.
Bucky met her eyes directly, a flicker of defiance mingling with obvious guilt. His metal fingers flexed once at his side. “Technically, I texted him.”
“Oh, well, that makes it so much better,” she snapped, throwing her hands up. “Texting is totally different from calling. My mistake.” Her voice cracked slightly on the last word, betraying her.
“And I’m glad he did,” Rhodey interjected, his voice carrying that same commanding tone that had made generals stand at attention.
The sound of his leg braces whirred softly as he stepped closer, the mechanical click-hiss barely audible on the hangar floor.
“You weren’t answering your phone, Isabelle. FRIDAY said you were visiting Sam in Louisiana, which was a lie, then I hear you were in Munich fighting super soldiers?”
His gaze lingered on each injury—the way she favored her left side, the barely concealed wince when she breathed too deeply, the fading bruise at her temple. Something in his expression shifted from anger to poorly concealed fear.
Isabelle shot Bucky another betrayed look, ignoring Rhodey completely. “Since when are you and my uncle texting buddies?”
“Since about twelve hours ago.” Bucky didn’t flinch. His eyes softened slightly, though his posture remained combat-ready. “I figured someone in your family should know you were bleeding internally.”
“I wasn’t—” The lie formed automatically, then died on her tongue. She swallowed it back, tasting bitterness. She pivoted to Rhodey, summoning the practiced Stark smile that never reached her eyes. “It wasn’t that bad.”
Rhodey’s expression hardened. He’d known her long enough to recognize the lie.
Isabelle scoffed, turning back to Bucky, jabbing a finger at his chest. “You had no right to text him.”
“He had every right,” Rhodey interrupted, closing the distance between them.
Isabelle fought the urge to step back. She wouldn’t give ground, not now. His face went completely still, the kind of stillness that had always preceded storms when she was growing up.
“Isabelle.” His voice dropped lower, steadier. “This needs to stop. The running away without a word. No backup. No plan—”
“She had backup,” Sam interjected, stepping forward to stand beside Isabelle.
The movement surprised her—she’d expected him to take Bucky and Rhodey’s side. Instead, Sam positioned himself at her left shoulder.
His eyes tracked the flush creeping up her neck, the way her shoulders hunched forward. He recognized that coiled tension—the same look he’d seen in soldiers about to either throw a punch or bolt. Her eyes had gone glassy, unfocused, pupils dilated. Fight or flight. He’d seen it enough times to know what came next.
“She had us,” Sam continued, voice firm but measured. No anger, just facts. “The situation went sideways. That happens in the field.” His gaze locked with Rhodey’s. “You know how these things play out sometimes.”
Rhodey’s jaw clenched so tightly that Sam could see the muscle jump beneath his skin. “Yeah, I know better than most, Wilson.” The words landed like bullets, precise and targeted.
“This is ridiculous.” Isabelle’s voice cracked. She shoved a hand through her hair. “You’re being ridiculous—”
“What’s ridiculous,” Rhodey cut in, voice rising sharply before he visibly pulled himself back, exhaling hard through his nose, “is that my goddaughter ended up nearly dead in Munich when she was supposed to be on vacation in Louisiana.”
He stepped closer—close enough that Isabelle could see the bloodshot veins threading through the whites of his eyes, the stubble on his usually clean-shaven face.
“Do you know what it was like getting that text from Barnes?” His voice dropped lower, rougher. “‘Isabelle injured in Munich. Super soldiers. Thought you should know.’” The mimicry of Bucky’s terse tone was perfect. “No other details. Just that.”
Isabelle’s eyes darted to Bucky, who met her gaze unflinchingly. His face remained impassive, but something in his eyes said he’d do it again.
The silence stretched between them, thick and suffocating. Isabelle felt Sam shift beside her, his shoulder almost touching hers. She could sense Bucky’s stillness, the weight of his presence at her back. Three sets of eyes on her, waiting.
Her throat closed around the words she couldn’t say. How could she explain that this mission had been the first time in months she’d felt anything but the hollow echo of her father’s absence? That fighting alongside Sam and Bucky had given her purpose when she’d been drowning? That every bruise, every broken rib, every moment of pain had been worth it because for once she wasn’t just existing—she was alive?
Rhodey’s expression softened, just barely. The anger remained, but something else flickered across his face—a flash of understanding, maybe, or resignation. “Let’s not do this here,” he said, gesturing toward a corridor off the hangar. His tone was gentler but left no room for argument.
“We’re kind of in the middle of something,” she said, gesturing between herself and the two men. Her voice came out small, uncertain, nothing like the sharp-edged defiance she’d intended.
Sam cleared his throat, suddenly finding intense interest in a spot on the hangar floor. “Uh—you should probably talk to your uncle.” All his warmth vanished, replaced by a formality that felt like a knife between her ribs.
“What?” She stared at him, disbelief washing through her. She turned to Bucky, searching his face for support, for anything.
The Winter Soldier remained stone-faced. “We have something we need to do anyway,” he said, voice rough. He turned sharply, the movement military-precise. “Come on, Sam.”
Sam hesitated. His eyes finally met hers, and the connection sent a jolt through her chest. In that split-second, she saw conflict, regret, and something deeper she couldn’t name—something that made his usually warm brown eyes seem distant, almost foreign.
“We’ll catch up later,” he said, turning away, shoulders rigid beneath his jacket. Three steps and he was already too far. “I promise.”
“Sam—” His name escaped before she could swallow it back.
He paused, just for a heartbeat, the muscles in his back visibly tensing. Then he kept walking, falling into step beside Bucky without looking back.
Isabelle watched them retreat, her throat closing around words that wouldn’t form. Beneath her skin, a familiar buzz started—tiny electric pinpricks crawling up her forearms, across her shoulders, down her spine.
“Isabelle.” Rhodey’s voice cut through the static, gentler now than it had been moments before.
She blinked, forcing her focus back. When she turned, she found him watching her with an expression that cracked something loose inside her chest. It was the same carefully constructed mask he’d worn at Tony’s funeral—lips pressed into a line, eyes too bright, jaw working beneath skin as though physically holding back whatever threatened to spill out.
“Please,” Rhodey said. Just that single word—not a command but a request. He didn’t beg. Didn’t plead. He was War Machine, Colonel James Rhodes, the man who’d stood toe-to-toe with the military, with Congress, with Tony Stark himself. But here he was, asking.
Isabelle gave one last glance at the now-empty corridor where Sam and Bucky had disappeared, then she turned back to Rhodey.
“Fine,” she said, the fight draining from her voice like air from a punctured tire. “But I want it on record that this is completely unnecessary.”
The corner of Rhodey’s mouth twitched, not a smile but close. He outstretched his arm, guiding her toward a corridor leading off the hangar.
He led her to a conference room, holding the door open before closing it behind them with a soft click. The space was sterile, impersonal—gray walls, long table, standard-issue chairs. No windows. He leaned against the table while Isabelle remained by the door, crossing her arms over her chest.
“Look, I’m sorry.” She sighed, “I shouldn’t have lied. But I don’t need permission to leave the country.”
“No one said you did.” Rhodey’s voice remained steady, controlled. “But there’s a pattern here, Isabelle.” He gripped the edge of the table until his knuckles whitened. “You run. After Tony—” His voice caught just for a moment, “After we lost him. I understood. You needed time.”
Isabelle fixed her gaze on the floor, counting tiles. One, two, three, four. The perfect squares gave her something to focus on besides the pressure building in her chest, the electric current humming beneath her skin.
“But that wasn’t the first time.” Rhodey pushed off from the table. “The Accords—you vanished for two years—left with Steve and Nat, and did a stint as some type of secret Avengers. Do you have any idea what that did to Tony?”
Her head snapped up. “That was completely—”
“And before that,” he continued, cutting through her objection like it was tissue paper, “after New York, you joined SHIELD. Became a spy without so much as a goodbye dinner.” His jaw tightened. “Tony found out from Fury. Fury, Isabelle. Not his daughter.”
She remembered Tony’s face when he tracked her down at the Triskelion—hurt masked by sarcasm, eyes too bright. She’d told herself it was for the best. “After New York, I couldn’t—”
“Couldn’t what? Talk to him? Tell him to his face?” Rhodey stepped closer. “You always need space, Izzy. Every single time. When your mom —” His voice softened fractionally. “The minute you turned eighteen, you were gone.”
Isabelle’s jaw clenched so tightly her teeth ached.
“And now,” Rhodey continued, “with what happened at the museum with Everhart, you ran again.”
“Stop.” Isabelle sliced her hand through the air. The fluorescent lights buzzed overhead, drilling into her skull. “I killed my mother with powers nobody believed I had.” Her voice dropped to a raw whisper. “And you think I should’ve stayed? With a father who was either drunk, bringing random women home, or buried in his workshop?” The words tumbled out faster, sharper. “He didn’t even show up to my high school graduation, Rhodey. Sent Happy with a fucking Audi and a card. A card.”
The memory still stung, seventeen-year-old Isabelle scanning the crowd for a face that never appeared.
Rhodey’s expression softened. He took a step forward, bracers whirring softly. “Izzy, you could have come to me—”
“I did! All the time.” The words exploded from her chest. “You were the only one who came back for me. Who kept checking in. Every goddamned time.” Her throat tightened, voice cracking. “And I appreciate that. More than you’ll ever know. But that doesn’t give you the right to throw it all back in my face now.”
Rhodey’s shoulders sagged. For the first time since she’d turned around in the hangar, she really looked at him—the new silver threading his temples, the shadows beneath his eyes, the lines etched deeper around his mouth. He looked older. Tired in a way that sleep couldn’t fix.
“I promised him,” Rhodey said quietly. “I promised Tony I’d look out for you if anything happened to him.” He swallowed hard, Adam’s apple bobbing. “How am I supposed to keep that promise when you won’t tell me where you are?”
The pressure behind Isabelle’s eyes built, hot and insistent. She blinked rapidly, refusing to let the tears fall. The silence stretched between them, thick with everything unsaid.
“Come on,” she finally managed, forcing a laugh that sounded brittle even to her own ears. She tilted her head, the gesture deliberately casual. “You’re being a little dramatic, don’tcha think?”
The words fell flat, a pathetic shield against the truth hanging between them.
“Am I?”
The silence stretched taut between them. One heartbeat. Two. The fluorescent lights hummed overhead, a constant electric drone that matched the buzzing beneath her skin.
“Because from where I’m standing,” he continued, each word landing like a hammer strike, “it looks like you’re spiraling. Just like Tony did after New York.”
The comparison sliced through her defenses. Her father’s face flashed in her mind—hollow-eyed, sleepless, building suit after suit in that basement workshop. The manic energy radiating off him. The obsession. The recklessness that had nearly gotten him killed. The way he’d look right through her when she’d try to talk to him.
“I’m not him,” she snapped. Her hands curled into fists at her sides. “And you’re not him either.”
She glared at Rhodey, daring him to push back, to give her a reason to explode. The familiar heat crawled up her neck, pooling behind her eyes, beneath her skin.
Another beat of silence. She took a step backward, heel connecting with the door behind her.
“Look, I appreciate your concern, really,” she said, forcing her lips into something approximating a smile, injecting false lightness into her voice, “but I can assure you, I’m not going to give my address to a terrorist or create a killer robot anytime soon.”
Rhodey’s face hardened, muscles tightening beneath his skin. The lines around his mouth deepened as his jaw clenched. “This isn’t a joke, Isabelle.” His voice dropped lower, rougher. “Your father—”
“My father is dead!”
Something snapped loose inside her chest—a dam breaking, emotions flooding through the cracks in her control. Green light pulsed from her body with the outburst—nothing directed, just the overflow of emotion she couldn’t contain. It rippled outward in a concussive wave, the air distorting like heat waves off summer asphalt.
Rhodey gasped, stumbling backward as the wave hit him. His hand flew to his chest, fingers splaying across his sternum as if trying to hold something in place. The color drained from his face, eyes widening as his lungs seized momentarily.
Horror crashed through her, ice-cold and immediate. The green light vanished, sucked back inside her as if her body had inhaled it.
“Rhodey—” Her voice cracked. She reached for him instinctively, hands extending. Then she saw his expression—that split-second flash of fear—and yanked her hands back so violently she hit the door again. “I’m sorry,” she whispered, wrapping her arms around herself, fingernails digging into her biceps through her jacket. “I didn’t mean to—”
“I know.” Rhodey straightened, his breathing returning to normal, but his eyes remained wary.
Isabelle looked away, shaking her head. “I should go. Catch up with Sam and Bucky.” Her hand found the doorknob—cold metal against her overheated skin. “Before they leave without me.”
“Isabelle—” Rhodey’s voice held that note, part warning, part disbelief.
“I promise I’m not running.” Isabelle forced her fingers to loosen around the doorknob before the metal warped beneath her grip. “We’ll do dinner or something. Pepper, Morgan, and Happy can come. We’ll make it a thing.”
Even as she said it, she knew the promise was empty. From the way Rhodey’s expression hardened, the slight narrowing of his eyes, the tightening at the corners of his mouth—so did he.
She didn’t wait for his response. She yanked the door open, putting her whole body into the motion. The door slammed against the wall with a crack that echoed down the empty hallway like a gunshot, making her flinch.
Isabelle stepped into the hallway, the air conditioning hitting her flushed skin. She kept moving. One foot in front of the other. Don’t look back. Don’t think.
The green pulse of energy still tingled in her fingertips, an aftershock of the explosion. She’d lost control. Again. In front of Rhodey. The shame of it burned hotter than the power itself.
She turned a corner sharply, putting a solid wall between herself and the room. The buzz crawled beneath her skin, responding to her rising panic like an eager pet. Tiny electrical pulses skittered along her nerve endings, dancing up her forearms, pooling in her palms. Ready. Waiting.
She smacked her hands against her cheeks, once, twice. “Get it together,” she hissed, never once faltering in her steps. “You’re fine. Everything’s fine.”
A lie, but a necessary one. She’d learned that from Natasha—sometimes you lie to yourself first, and eventually, you start to believe it. Nat’s voice echoed in her head: Compartmentalize. Focus on the mission.
What mission? Sam and Bucky had walked away. Left her standing there like—
Her vision narrowed, focusing only on the path ahead, on the exit sign glowing at the end of the corridor. She shoved the double doors open with both hands, stumbling into the parking lot. The midday sun hit her full force. She squinted, raising a hand to shield her eyes.
Fresh air filled her lungs. She gulped it down in desperate breaths, letting it clear the fog of anger and humiliation from her mind. The parking lot stretched before her, row after row of government-issue sedans and SUVs gleaming under the sun. Isabelle searched for any sign of Sam’s rental car, scanning the sea of black and silver vehicles.
“They wouldn’t,” she muttered, her boots scraping against the asphalt as she broke into an awkward jog. “They wouldn’t just—”
But when she reached the spot where they’d parked earlier—third row, second space from the end—she found nothing but bare asphalt, still warm from the sun. No car. No Sam. No Bucky.
“They left,” she said aloud, staring at the empty spot. She spun in a slow circle, scanning the lot again as if they might materialize if she just looked hard enough, as if this were some elaborate prank. “They actually left without me.”
She dug into her pocket, fingers scraping against denim as she yanked out her phone. The screen lit up her face, notifications blinking—none from them. She scrolled to Sam’s name, thumb hovering over it for half a second before jabbing down hard enough to hurt.
One ring. Her heart stuttered. Two rings. Her jaw tightened. Three rings. Something cold slithered down her spine.
“This is Sam. Leave a message.”
“Sam, it’s me.” She forced steel into her voice, but it wobbled at the edges like a badly balanced knife. “Where are you guys? Did you seriously just—” The words caught, tangled. She inhaled sharply, ribs screaming in protest. “Call me back, you asshole.”
She stabbed the end button.
“Unbelievable,” she whispered, shoving the phone back into her pocket with enough force that the seam strained against her knuckles. The concrete bit into her thighs as she sank down, legs suddenly too heavy to support her weight. She pressed her phone against her forehead. “Un-fucking-believable.”
A shadow fell across her, blocking the sun’s glare. Isabelle’s body reacted before her brain caught up—muscles coiling. One hand curled into a tight fist while the other splayed open, fingers tensed and ready to grab whatever—whoever—had approached.
She squinted up, the sunlight haloing the figure standing over her, transforming them into a dark silhouette against blinding white.
“Need a ride?”
Rhodey’s voice registered before his face came into focus as her eyes adjusted. He stood above her, and his weight shifted slightly. The anger and worry hadn’t vanished entirely—she could still see it in the tightness around his mouth—but concern had pushed it to the background.
“I can call an Uber,” she snapped out automatically, defensive reflex kicking in before thought. Isabelle dropped her stance, hands falling limp on her knees.
“Stop being so stubborn.” Rhodey’s gaze shifted pointedly to the empty parking space beside her, lingering there a beat too long. “They really left without you, huh?”
The confirmation from someone else made it real in a way that staring at the empty asphalt hadn’t. “Apparently,” she grunted, pressing her lips together.
“Come on, kid.” Rhodey extended his hand toward her, palm up. “Let’s get out of here.”
She stared at his outstretched fingers. The same hands that had steadied her on her first bicycle when Tony had been buried in his workshop, too consumed by whatever project had captured his attention to teach his daughter to ride. The same hands that had helped her up after she’d fallen during self-defense training when she was 16—Rhodey’s insistence, not Tony’s. The same hands that had guided her away from her father’s body when her legs had threatened to give out beneath her.
A lump formed in her throat, hard and immovable.
“I don’t need your pity,” she said, the words lacking any real conviction.
“Good, because I’m not offering any.” He wiggled his fingers impatiently, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. “I’m offering a ride and maybe some food, because you look like hell and I’m pretty sure you haven’t eaten since yesterday.”
Her stomach chose that moment to growl, an embarrassingly loud rumble that cut through the parking lot’s silence. Rhodey’s almost-smile grew more pronounced.
“Traitor,” she muttered to her stomach.
She reached for his hand, hesitating just long enough to make a point before closing her fingers around his. His grip was warm, solid, anchoring her when everything else felt like slipping away. He pulled her up with practiced ease, compensating for the extra weight of his braces.
“I want a cheeseburger,” she said bluntly, brushing dust from the back of her jeans, not meeting his eyes. “A real one. Not one of those fancy restaurant ones with arugula and aioli.”
Rhodey’s eyes softened, understanding passing between them without words. He nodded once, a quick dip of his chin. “I think I can swing that.” His voice was gentle, and the rough edges were worn smoothly. He jerked his head to the right, “Come on, I’m parked down this way.”
The knot in her chest loosened, just a fraction. She glanced down at her phone again, at the empty notification bar—no missed calls. No texts. Nothing.
Sam and Bucky were gone.
But at least she wasn’t standing alone in an empty parking lot anymore.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "No One's Gonna Love You" by Band of Horses
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚———————————
When the world breaks, Isabelle picks up a putty knife.
Fresh off Munich, bruised and betrayed, Isabelle returns to her apartment armed with a six-pack, a bucket of spackle, and the desperate urge to fix something. Anything. Walls. Boxes. Herself.But solitude doesn’t stay quiet for long—and just as she finds her rhythm again, the phone rings. Sam’s calling.
And he’s not alone.
Turns out, bureaucracy bites harder than super soldiers.Now it’s midnight, her pizza’s cold, and Bucky Barnes is behind bars. Isabelle might not be speaking to them—but that doesn’t mean she’s going to let them fall.
“Give me twenty minutes,” she said, voice hardening to steel.
Time to remind New York’s finest exactly what happens when you piss off a Stark.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 13: Patch Job
Chapter 13: Patch Job
Summary:
The apartment’s a mess. So is she.
Left behind and wired with adrenaline, Isabelle turns drywall, vinyl, and buffalo sauce into coping mechanisms. The music’s loud, the beer’s warm, and the silence is screaming.
But just when she starts patching the walls back together, the cracks inside her start widening again.Sam calls.
Bucky’s been arrested.And Isabelle Stark?
She’s done being left behind.
Notes:
Hey hi hello!!! So quick heads up—“Patch Job” is a bit of a shorter chapter than usual. BUT to make up for that, I’ll be posting two chapters today 😌💅 This one’s more of a breather—just a quiet, peek into Isabelle’s life that didn’t need a ton of length to say what it needed to say.
ALSO—I made a Tumblr! (I know. What year is it?)
This blog is where I’ll be posting companion content for All the Time in the World, including:✏️ Sketches of Isabelle
🎧 Playlists
💀 Moodboards & memes
💬 Bonus snippets and maybe headcanons if (when) I spiral deep enoughPlease be patient with me—I did in fact forget how to use this site. And honestly? Even when I did know, I barely knew. 💀
And finally—OMG WE’RE ALMOST AT 3K??? I’m screaming. Thank you SO MUCH for reading, commenting, everything. Your support means the absolute world to me and genuinely keeps me writing. 💚💚💚
See you again in like… 5 minutes for Chapter 14 😏
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Chapter Text
Isabelle slammed the door to her apartment with enough force to rattle the hinges. Her body moved on autopilot—drop the duffle, kick off the boots, keys on the counter. Her feet padded across the cold hardwood. The refrigerator hummed in the silence, its white glow spilling across her face as she yanked it open. She grabbed a beer, the glass cool against her palm.
No bottle opener.
Right.
She grunted, gripping the cap and twisting. The metal bit into her skin before giving way with a sharp crack. Tiny shards of glass clung to the jagged rim. She brushed them away with her thumb, not flinching when one sliced her skin.
Isabelle leaned against the counter, taking the first, long sip. Her fingers twitched toward her phone for what felt like the hundredth time since landing. She pulled it out, the screen lighting up her face in the dim kitchen.
No missed calls. No texts. Nothing from Sam. And of course, nothing from Barnes.
She pushed off the counter, pacing the length of the apartment. Five steps, turn. Five steps, turn. The space felt both too large and suffocatingly small. Munich's adrenaline still hummed in her veins, with nowhere to go, trapped beneath her skin like electricity searching for ground.
A hairline fracture in the wall caught her eye. It started just below the ceiling—a thin, jagged line splitting the pristine white paint. She'd never noticed it before. The longer she stared, the more it seemed to grow, branching out like veins beneath skin.
Her heartbeat quickened. She stepped closer, beer forgotten in her hand. She reached out, running her index finger along the fissure. Bits of plaster crumbled beneath her touch, dusting her fingertip white. The sensation was oddly satisfying—finding something else that was breaking apart.
She scowled, wiping the plaster dust on her jeans. "This is pathetic."
Her gaze dropped to the bottle in her hand, to the jagged edge where she'd torn the cap off. A tiny smear of blood—her blood—stained the glass. The cut on her thumb had already healed, leaving only a faint pink line.
"I'm pathetic."
The words hung in the air, heavy and accusing. She took another swig of beer, the liquid bitter against her tongue. The crack stared back at her, a silent challenge.
Isabelle straightened her shoulders, a flicker of her father's stubbornness igniting in her chest.
"FRIDAY," she called out, her voice sharper than intended. "Where's the nearest home improvement store?"
"There's one approximately 1.2 miles from your apartment, Miss Stark," the AI responded promptly, voice smooth and unfazed by her tone. "Shall I provide directions?"
"Yeah." Isabelle's gaze swept across the apartment once more, cataloging imperfections she'd never noticed. Scuff marks by the door. Faded paint near the windows. The crack that seemed to mock her. "And FRIDAY, make a list of everything I'd need to fix a wall crack."
"Certainly, Miss Stark."
Isabelle set the beer down on the counter with a decisive clink. She grabbed her keys again, the metal warm from where they'd been sitting.
Two hours later, Isabelle stood surrounded by her purchases, hands on hips, surveying the battlefield. Spackling paste, putty knives, sandpaper, primer, and a can of paint created an obstacle course around her feet. The chemical smell of fresh paint and plaster hung in the air, making her open the floor-to-ceiling window for the first time since moving in.
She’d changed into a pair of green plaid pajama bottoms and a faded Smashing Pumpkins t-shirt from when her father had taken her to see them for her 13th birthday. The shirt hung loose now, collar stretched and fraying, a small hole forming near the hem. Her hair was twisted into two messy braids that bounced against her shoulders as she moved.
The opening line of Blondie's "Heart of Glass" thundered through the apartment's sound system, vibrating up through the floorboards and into her bones.
"Alright, apartment," she muttered, pointing at the wall of cardboard boxes. "Your bland dictatorship ends today."
She grabbed the box labeled 'VINYL' first, hauling it toward the record player— the one thing she'd bothered to unpack properly the day she moved in. The sleek turntable sat on a shelf opposite the TV, its matte black surface still pristine, untouched.
Isabelle dropped to her knees beside the box, tearing through the packing tape with her thumbnail. The cardboard flaps gave way with a satisfying rip. Her fingers trailed over album covers as she flipped through them.
Blondie, David Bowie, Pink Floyd, Motley Crue, Fleetwood Mac, Elton John.
"Hello, old friends," she whispered, pulling out more of her collection.
Rancid's "...And Out Come the Wolves" with its dog-eared corners. She'd stolen this one from her dad's collection when she was fifteen, and he'd never asked for it back. The Pixies' "Doolittle" came next, the back cover bearing a coffee stain that had dried in the shape of a lopsided heart. She'd tried everything to get it out—soap, alcohol—but nothing. Green Day's "Dookie" emerged from the pile, and a flush crept up her neck. She flipped it over, examining the scratches on the back cover where she'd dropped it in her haste to—
"Right." She cleared her throat, memories flooding back.
Seventeen years old, Jake Winters from her AP Physics class sprawled on her bed, his hands fumbling with the clasp of her bra while "When I Come Around" skipped on the third verse because of a scratch she'd never bothered to fix.
"Wonder what happened to him," she mused, setting the album aside with more care than it probably deserved.
She laid them out on the floor in front of her, creating neat rows that only made sense to her. First by year—the classics from the 60s and 70s that her dad had passed down, then the 80s and 90s albums they'd collected together, and finally her own additions from the 2000s. Within each decade, they went alphabetical by artist, except for special cases where albums needed to stay together regardless of release date.
"The Cure goes here, not there," she muttered, rearranging two records with quick, decisive movements. "And Bowie's Berlin trilogy stays together, obviously."
She worked faster now, albums hitting shelves and boxes emptying. The physical labor felt good, necessary. Her muscles burned, her mind narrowed to the simple mechanics of the task. Sort. Stack. Arrange. Breathe.
Just breathe.
The song changed. Then changed again. She lost track of time unpacking box after box. The clock crawled past midnight when she found herself sprawled across the hardwood floor of her living room. The 'VINYL' boxes sat empty, their cardboard shells crushed and folded against the wall. The 'BOOKS' boxes had been conquered too, her collection now organized on the built-in shelves.
She'd started on the 'KITCHEN' boxes, but stopped when she found what she'd been looking for all along. She’d clutched the bottle opener like a trophy.
She pushed herself up from the floor, her spine popping in three places. She let out a soft groan, rolling her shoulders back, surveying her handiwork.
The apartment breathed differently now. Her records lined the shelves, books filled the empty spaces, and the wall crack was patched, waiting for paint to dry. The boxes that remained were pushed against the far wall, a problem for tomorrow's Isabelle.
She took another sip of her beer. The liquid had gone warm, but she didn't care. Her hand reached for the half-eaten pizza on the coffee table, grabbing a slice that had cooled to room temperature. She took a messy bite anyway, strings of mozzarella stretching between her mouth and the slice.
Isabelle glanced at the time glowing in the corner of her screen. 12:47 AM. The numbers blurred, her vision swimming as exhaustion finally caught up with her. She rubbed her eyes with the heel of her palm, feeling grit beneath her eyelids.
"Shit," she mumbled, letting her head fall back against the couch. Her limbs felt heavy, weighted with fatigue. She should drag herself to bed. She should—
Her phone buzzed against the hardwood floor. The vibration rattled through the wood, creeping up her spine, demanding attention.
She glanced down. Pizza sauce still clung to the corner of her mouth, cooling against her skin. Sam's name flashed on the screen, bright and accusing.
Her stomach clenched. Irritation surged first—hot and immediate—followed by unwelcome curiosity. And beneath it all, that goddamn stubborn flicker of concern she couldn't extinguish no matter how hard she tried.
"You've got to be kidding me," she muttered, jaw tightening as she stared at the still-buzzing phone. Her pulse quickened, betraying her feigned indifference.
Buzz-buzz-buzz. The sound filled the apartment, relentless.
She wiped her greasy hands on her sweatpants, leaving behind streaks of orange buffalo sauce on the worn green plaid. The phone continued its angry dance against the floor, each vibration seeming louder than the last.
"Seriously? Now you call?" The words came out sharp, aimed at the phone as if Sam could hear her through the unanswered line. "After ditching and ghosting me all damn day?"
Karma.
The word flashed through Isabelle's mind like neon, harsh and unavoidable. This was cosmic payback for those months she'd let his calls go straight to voicemail, for the texts she'd read and never answered.
Her thumb hovered over the red button. One press and she could send him straight to voicemail. Simple. Clean. Justified. Right?
Wrong.
"Dammit, Sam," she sighed, the words half-growl, half-surrender.
She snatched up the phone, swiping to answer before she could change her mind. Sam's breathing filled her ear immediately, slightly elevated, like he'd been moving.
"This better be good, Wilson," she said, leaning back against the couch. "I'm in the middle of something important."
"Izzy, I—"
"Had a wonderful day ditching me?" The words shot out before she could stop them, sharp and barbed. She pulled her knees to her chest, the worn plaid pajama bottoms soft against her palms. "Lemme guess, you and Bucky had such an amazing date that you just couldn't wait to share? Did you make matching friendship bracelets with little shields on them?"
She twisted one of her braids around her finger, the fidgeting keeping her from launching into a full-blown rage.
"Or wait—I know," she continued, voice dripping with sarcasm. "You guys finally confessed your undying love over candlelight? Held hands while taking a romantic walk through the park? Maybe got matching tattoos—'Sam and Bucky Forever' with a little heart?"
The silence on the other end stretched. One second. Two. Three.
"Are you done?" Sam's voice was steady, maddeningly patient. The kind of patience that made her want to throw something.
In the background, voices crashed together—dozens of them—overlapping with ringing phones and the rapid-fire clicking of keyboards. Not the quiet of Sam's apartment. Not the stillness of his Louisiana home. Not anywhere he should be at nearly one in the morning.
Isabelle straightened, pizza forgotten, her fingers tightening around the phone. "Where are you?" The question came out sharper than she intended, worry creeping in beneath the irritation.
"Bucky's been arrested."
Her next quip died in her throat. The world tilted sideways, gravity shifting beneath her. Her fingers went numb, and the phone nearly slipped from her grasp. The music— still blasting through her speakers—suddenly felt too loud, too cheerful, too wrong.
"What?" The single word scraped her throat raw. "Arrested? What the hell for? By who?"
Her mind raced through the possibilities, each worse than the last: Bucky's vacant eyes when the Winter Soldier took control. The bridge in D.C. His metal arm gleaming as it smashed through concrete. People screaming. Running. Glass shattering. Blood on pavement.
"Did he—" The words stuck in her throat like tar. She couldn't finish the question. Couldn't give voice to the fear. She pushed herself to her feet, suddenly unable to sit still. The floor felt unsteady beneath her.
"No," Sam said immediately, understanding her unspoken terror. "Nothing like that. He's himself. He's..." A pause, the sound of fabric rustling against the phone. "Look, he's fine, physically. But this is bureaucratic bullshit with teeth, Izzy."
Her shoulders dropped an inch. Relief washed through her, followed immediately by a fresh wave of anger.
"What the hell did you two idiots do?" she snapped, eyes narrowing.
"We didn't do anything," Sam fired back, matching her tone beat for beat. "And if you'd let me, I could explain." Through the phone, voices swelled like he was moving through a crowded space. A door slammed shut, muffling the noise.
"Fine," she said through gritted teeth. "I'm listening."
"Bucky missed his court-mandated therapy session while we were in Munich."
Isabelle blinked, mouth agape as she tried to process the absurdity. A man who'd helped save the universe, arrested for missing therapy.
"A therapy session?" she repeated, voice rising an octave. "They arrested him over a missed appointment?" She pressed her palm against her forehead, pushing back the loose strands of hair that had escaped her braids.
"I wish I were joking," Sam said, frustration bleeding through. “But the terms of his pardon were explicit. Regular therapy, check-ins, the whole nine. Miss one without prior clearance, and technically, they can revoke his pardon."
"But we were on a mission!" Isabelle protested, her free hand gesturing wildly even though Sam couldn't see her. "Doesn't that count for anything? What kind of backwards system—"
"You think I haven't tried that angle?" Sam cut in, his composure fracturing. Exhaustion bled through, bone-deep and ragged. "I've been here for hours explaining to brick walls with badges. The arresting officer keeps spouting 'procedure' and 'protocol' like they're carved in stone. Since Bucky technically isn't active-duty military or a recognized government operative..."
The unspoken truth hung between them. Despite everything Bucky had done to help save the world, despite his sacrifice and service, to some, he would always be the Winter Soldier first.
"I’m in the city. 78th Precinct. They're processing him for transfer to a higher security facility. I've been here since—" A pause, the subtle shift in his breathing as he checked the time. "Jesus, almost six hours trying to cut through red tape. They won't let me see him. I was hoping—"
"I could come down and work my Stark magic?" Isabelle finished, a humorless laugh escaping her lips. Her mind raced through options, cataloging them with brutal efficiency. Lawyers to call. Officials to pressure. Favors to cash in. The Stark name still opened doors, even if using it made her skin crawl.
She clicked the speaker button, then flung the phone down onto the couch. She moved toward the largest cardboard box with ‘CLOTHES’ scrawled across the side. Her fingers dug through layers of hastily packed fabric.
"Yeah," Sam admitted, relief softening his voice. "I've tried everything short of breaking him out. They're treating him like he's still..." He trailed off, not needing to finish.
Still the Winter Soldier. Still a threat.
Isabelle's fingers froze mid-search through the cardboard box. "Give me twenty minutes," she said, voice hardening to steel.
She abandoned finesse, upending the box onto her floor. The contents spilled across the hardwood in a fabric avalanche—tank tops, sweaters, leggings she'd forgotten existed. She sifted through the pile with quick, decisive movements, her fingers skimming over cotton and silk until they found denim.
Black jeans. No rips. Professional enough.
She yanked off her plaid pajama bottoms, kicking them aside. The cool air raised goosebumps along her bare thighs as she stepped into the jeans, tugging them up in one fluid motion. The denim scraped against her skin as she fastened the button with one hand while the other dug deeper into the scattered clothes.
"Izzy..." Sam's voice crackled through the phone's speaker, a note of wariness threading through his exhaustion. "Thanks. I know you're angry with us right now, but I—"
"It's fine," she cut him off, yanking a black tank top from the pile. She inspected it with a quick flick of her wrist. No stains. Good enough. “We’ll just call ourselves even, Wilson. Just don’t ditch me next time after asking for my help.”
She ripped off her Smashing Pumpkins t-shirt, the worn fabric catching briefly on her ear. She tossed it into the growing pile of clothes, then tugged the tank top over her head. Too casual. She dove back into the clothing explosion, fingers closing around the sleeve of her charcoal blazer.
"I didn't—" Sam started, then stopped himself. She heard him exhale slowly, the sound of a man choosing his battles. "Yeah. I hear you, Izzy."
She shrugged into the blazer. "I'll text when I'm close," she said, ending the call before Sam could respond, before his gratitude could make her feel things she wasn't ready to process.
The phone's screen went dark—time to remind New York's finest exactly what happened when you pissed off a Stark.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Heart of Glass" by Blondie
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The cell door isn’t the only thing that needs unlocking.
With Bucky behind bars, Isabelle storms the police station—armed with sarcasm, righteous fury, and just enough Stark legacy to make a scene. But red tape has teeth, and not even her name can snap the handcuffs off.When the last person she wants to call becomes the only option left, Isabelle finds herself facing a hard truth: sometimes saving the people you care about means swallowing your pride—and sitting through court-mandated therapy with both of them.
The reunion is tense. The session is messier.
And what comes next?
Yeah… no one’s ready for that either.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 14: Waiting There for Me
Chapter 14: Waiting There for Me
Summary:
The precinct lights are harsh, but not as unforgiving as Officer Diaz. Isabelle storms the front desk with every ounce of her Stark bite—dripping sarcasm, controlled rage, and a voice that doesn’t have to shout to make grown men flinch. But even power has its limits. Not even her name can cut through the red tape that’s holding Bucky in a cell on a technicality.
And when the law won’t listen, and her powers nearly slip, Isabelle has to face something worse than weakness: helplessness.
With Sam at her side and shame coiled tight beneath her skin, Isabelle’s left with one option—the last person she ever wanted to call.Desperate times. Desperate numbers.
God help her…
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Chapter Text
Isabelle burst through the police station’s doors. The fluorescent lights buzzed overhead like angry wasps, casting everyone in that sickly, washed-out pallor that made even the living look half-dead. Her eyes darted across the room, past uniformed officers hunched over paperwork like they were trying to disappear into it, past plastic chairs bolted to the floor as if someone might actually want to steal them, until—
Sam.
Even from across the room, she could read the frustration radiating off him—that slight forward lean, the controlled set of his jaw, the way his right hand kept flexing and unfurling. The moment their eyes met, something in her chest loosened. Not entirely—more like a fist unclenching one finger at a time, still ready to punch if necessary.
Sam straightened, exhaustion momentarily replaced by relief as she made her way over to him. “Took you long enough,” he said, but there was no bite.
“Traffic at this hour was a nightmare.” The quip fell from her lips automatically, a shield against the anxiety still coursing through her. She nodded toward the front desk, where a uniformed officer was suddenly fascinated by his computer screen, deliberately avoiding eye contact like they were contagious. “Any luck with our favorite prisoner?” she asked, shifting her weight.
Sam’s jaw locked. He dragged a hand over his close-cropped hair, exhaled hard through his nose. “They’re stonewalling us,” he grumbled. “Apparently, ‘preventing international terrorism’ doesn’t qualify as an excused absence from court-mandated therapy.”
“Unbelievable,” Isabelle watched the officer cradling his phone against his ear, pretending to be on a call. Her patience—what microscopic amount remained—evaporated. “Let me talk to them.” Her voice dropped an octave, that particular tone that made even Sam take half a step back.
She rolled her shoulders back. Straightened her spine. Felt her lips curling into a smile. The one that said, ‘I’m being polite right now, but we both know I don’t have to be.’
Isabelle approached the front desk, eyeballing the stern-faced officer behind the counter. He continued to hunch over his keyboard, the rapid clacking growing louder as she approached. She planted both palms flat on the high counter, leaning forward until she invaded his space. The laminate surface felt cool and slightly tacky against her skin.
“Excuse me,” she said, her voice carrying that unmistakable Stark edge. Not yelling. Worse than yelling. “I need to speak with someone about James Buchanan Barnes. Now.”
The officer—Diaz, according to his nametag—barely flicked his gaze upward, his expression a practiced blend of boredom and dismissal. His uniform was pressed, but the collar showed sweat stains. “Look, as I told your friend, Miss,” he said, the word ‘miss’ carrying just enough dismissal to make her jaw clench, “visiting hours are over, and the prisoner is still being processed.”
“Prisoner?” Isabelle repeated. Her powers stirred beneath her skin—that familiar pressure building behind her sternum, hot and electric, like swallowing fire. She tamped it down, forcing the sensation back into that mental box where she kept all the dangerous things. “That ‘prisoner,’“ she continued, making exaggerated air quotes with her fingers, “has saved more lives than you’ve written parking tickets.”
Officer Diaz’s expression darkened, his jaw clenching as two spots of color appeared high on his cheeks. He straightened in his chair, abandoning all pretense of working. The chair squeaked in protest.
“Miss, I’d advise you to watch your tone when addressing an officer of the—” His words trailed off as his eyes narrowed, really taking in her appearance now, from her face to her stance, lingering just long enough for Isabelle to see the mental gears turning. The slight widening of his pupils. The infinitesimal shift in his posture. “You’re—” Diaz started, voice losing its authoritative edge.
“Yeah, yeah,” she cut him off dismissively. “Isabelle Stark. I’m aware.” She leaned further over the counter, close enough that the edge dug into her ribs. His drugstore cologne hit her—something trying desperately to smell expensive and failing—mingling with coffee breath and the faint tang of nervous sweat. “I’m really not in the mood for whatever this song and dance is, so let’s skip ahead to the part where you make the call.”
She hated this. Hated the way his eyes had changed when recognition hit—that subtle shift from dismissal to calculation. The mental arithmetic of what she might be worth to him. What favors or stories could he trade later? Remember when Stark’s daughter came in? But right now? She’d use every damn advantage in her arsenal.
“As my friend has explained multiple times,” she continued, each syllable precise and clipped, “Sergeant Barnes was on a sanctioned operation. There’s been a misunderstanding.”
“Barnes violated his pardon conditions—” Diaz started, his earlier bravado cracking like thin ice under pressure.
“Look,” Sam interjected, moving to stand beside her. His shoulder brushed against hers, and the tightness around his eyes betrayed his own fraying patience. “Barnes was with us tracking a group of interest. Surely there’s some workaround here.”
“Mr. Wilson,” Diaz said, his voice hardening as he visibly regained his composure, straightening his spine like he’d remembered the uniform he wore. “He’s not getting out of here. Not tonight, not tomorrow.”
Isabelle tapped her fingers against the counter, a deliberate rhythm that drew Diaz’s attention back to her. “I have a team of lawyers who will be very interested in this situation,” she said, her voice dropping to a conversational tone. “But I’m hoping we can resolve this... quicker. Less paperwork for everyone.” She smiled—the particular smile she’d inherited from her father, all teeth and no warmth. “Fewer headlines. Fewer internal investigations.”
Diaz’s nostrils flared. He leaned forward until they were almost nose to nose, his breath hot against her face. “Ms. Stark,” he whispered, his voice dropping to a hush that only she and Sam could hear, “I understand your position, but I don’t care if you’re the Queen of England or an Avenger.” Something ugly flashed in his eyes. “Barnes violated his pardon conditions. He’s exactly where he belongs.”
Something inside her chest—that last thread of restraint she’d been clinging to—snapped clean in two. Her palm slammed against the counter with a crack. The impact stung, radiating up her arm, but she barely registered it through the surge of adrenaline. Conversations died mid-sentence. A coffee mug froze halfway to someone’s lips. Every eye in the precinct locked onto her like heat-seeking missiles.
“This is absolute bullshit!” Her voice bounced off the walls, amplifying her fury. Heat crawled up her neck in a burning wave, spreading across her cheeks like wildfire, her eyes flashing. Sam’s hand found her elbow, a gentle pressure. A warning. She shook him off.
“Ms. Stark,” Diaz’s eyes narrowed, taking in her flushed face, her rigid posture, the way her hands trembled. His lip curled. “Control yourself.”
Those two words—spoken with such condescension—sent a fresh wave of rage crashing through her. The pressure behind her sternum intensified, a hot current buzzing through her veins like live wires. “Control myself? While you’re holding him on a technicality? You have no right to—”
“To what? Uphold the law?” Diaz cut her off. “I know you people think you’re above the law, but actions have consequences—even for people like you.”
The dismissal in his tone hit harder than she expected. Her breath caught, trapped in her lungs as the pressure built. One push. That’s all it would take. One small release of the power coiled inside her, and Officer Diaz would understand exactly who he was dismissing. The energy pulsed beneath her skin, eager and hungry, seeking the path of least resistance.
Diaz’s voice cut through the roaring in her ears, tinny and distant. “I suggest you calm down before I have you removed from the premises—” his hand drifted toward the radio clipped to his shoulder, “—or arrested for causing a disturbance.”
Sam’s hand found her shoulder, his touch firm but gentle. His fingers pressed into the tense muscle, grounding her. “Izzy, easy,” he murmured, his breath warm against her ear. Not fearful—never fearful with her—but steady. “This isn’t helping Bucky.”
Bucky. Right.
The name cut through the haze of anger. The contact pulled her back from the dangerous edge she’d been teetering on. She inhaled sharply through her nose, held it for three seconds. Her powers receded, slowly, reluctantly, like a tide pulling back from shore, leaving her drained and slightly nauseated.
Isabelle’s chest tightened, a knot forming in her throat that she couldn’t swallow past. For the first time in her life, her name, its weight, and the power it carried weren’t enough. Again, she wasn’t enough. “This isn’t over,” she managed, her voice rough around the edges.
“It is for tonight,” Diaz replied, satisfaction creeping into his tone.
She became acutely aware of the other officers watching her, their expressions ranging from curiosity to outright wariness. Some had their hands hovering near their weapons—a detail that sent ice water down her spine, cooling the last embers of her rage. She’d been closer to the edge than she’d realized.
“Fine,” she spat, the word tasting bitter on her tongue. She turned on her heel, sneakers squeaking against the linoleum.
She felt Sam fall into step beside her. He didn’t touch her or try to guide her toward the exit—he knew better. But she could feel his eyes on her profile, assessing, calculating.
“I’m fine,” she muttered, not looking at him.
“Didn’t ask,” Sam replied evenly.
“You were thinking it.”
“Actually, I was thinking we need a new approach.” His voice dropped lower as they neared the exit. “And maybe some air.”
She nodded once, a sharp jerk of her chin, and shoved through the heavy double doors. The night air was cool against her face, damp with the promise of rain. She inhaled deeply, pressing her back against the brick wall of the building.
This was exactly why Sam and Bucky had left her behind. The reason they’d gone off on their own. The reason Bucky had called Rhodey to babysit her like she was some unstable nuclear reactor. Because she was. A liability. A hothead who couldn’t keep it together when it mattered most.
“I’m sorry,” she scraped her fingernails against the brick. “I didn’t help. I made it worse.”
“Look at me.” Something in his tone—not anger or disappointment, but something more Sam—made her turn. He stood with his hands tucked into his pockets. “You didn’t screw up,” he said finally, taking a step closer. “That guy in there? He was never going to help us. Not really.”
“But I lost it,” she said, her voice smaller than intended. “This is why you and Bucky left me behind? The base. This morning.” The words tumbled out sharper than she meant them to, edged with the hurt she’d been swallowing. “You two went without me. Had my uncle pick me up like I’m some stupid kid who can’t be trusted.”
“Iz, that’s not—” He stopped, pressed his lips together, then exhaled slowly. His shoulders dropped an inch. “You were hurt. Bad.” She opened her mouth to protest, but he raised a hand, palm out. “If you’re gonna say you’ve had worse, I know.” He glared, silencing her with a look. “When you were sleeping on the plane, we talked. Bucky and I.” Sam’s voice dropped lower, more intimate. “He was worried about you. Really worried. Kept watching to make sure you were breathing. He didn’t want to risk you getting hurt again. I didn’t know he was going to text Rhodes like that. That wasn’t the plan.”
Something in her chest constricted. Not at the words themselves, but at the image they conjured—Bucky watching over her, counting her breaths. The knot in her throat tightened. “Then what was the plan?” she challenged, folding her arms across her chest. Her jacket creaked with the movement, leather pulling tight across her shoulders.
“I wanted to give you time to rest. Bucky wanted me to meet someone,” Sam leaned against the wall beside her. “Another super soldier.”
“What?” The word came out as a shocked exhale, barely audible. Her arms fell to her sides. “There’s another—”
“Isaiah Bradley,” Sam said, his voice taking on a reverent quality she rarely heard from him. “Korean War vet. Bucky ran into him in ‘51 during a mission in Korea.”
Isabelle turned to face him fully. “How have I never heard of him?”
His eyes hardened, not at her, but at something distant and infuriating. “Because the government buried him. Erased him.” A car passed, headlights briefly illuminating the tightness around his eyes, the way his jaw worked before he continued. “They gave him the serum in the fifties. No fanfare.” He paused, swallowed. “Locked him up for thirty years when they were done with him. Experimented on him like he wasn’t even human.”
“Fuck,” Isabelle’s breath caught. She thought of Steve—Captain America, the golden boy, the hero with museums and memorials and school textbooks dedicated to his legend. And this man—this Isaiah Bradley—erased. Buried. Forgotten.
Her fingers curled against the brick, catching on the rough edges. It was like what they’d done to Bucky. What they’d tried to do to her.
“Bucky’s been carrying this one for a while,” Sam said. His eyes searched hers, making sure she understood what he wasn’t explicitly saying. “Wanted me to understand.” The weight of his gaze pressed against her. “Some things hit closer to home than others.”
The implication hung between them, heavy as lead. Isabelle felt a chill crawl up her spine that had nothing to do with the night air.
“And Bucky,” Sam added, softer now, “he wasn’t ditching you, Iz. He was protecting you the only way he knew how.” A hint of something—frustration, maybe—crept into his tone. “Not saying it was right. Just saying where his head was at.”
Isabelle released a long breath. Her anger from earlier was still there, but it had transformed into something more complex—an ache tinged with understanding. The memory of Bucky’s face when she’d woken up on the side of the road flashed behind her eyes—the tightness around his mouth, the careful way he’d looked at her, like she might shatter if he blinked wrong.
“So what now?” She shook her head, trying to clear it. “We can’t just leave him in there.” The thought of Bucky sleeping in a cell made her stomach twist.
“I don’t know,” Sam admitted, his posture shifting. “They won’t listen to us. Not to me, not to you.”
Isabelle stared at the police station’s entrance, the American flag hanging limp in the still night air. Her mind raced through scenarios, each one hitting a dead end. Calling lawyers would take hours. Going back in would likely end with both of them in cells beside Bucky. Then it hit her—a solution so obvious and so deeply unappealing that her body physically rejected it, a sour taste flooding her mouth.
“Dammit,” she muttered, fumbling for her phone. She clicked the phone on, “FRIDAY,” she said. “I need a number.”
“Of course, Miss Stark,” the familiar voice responded, crisp and efficient. “Whose number would you like?”
Sam moved closer, eyebrows drawing together until a deep line formed between them. “Iz, what exactly are you thinking?” The wariness in his tone told her he already knew—and didn’t like it.
“Someone who has pull with the right people.” Her free hand fell to a fist at her side. “Someone I really, really don’t want to call.”
“Walker.” Sam didn’t phrase it as a question. The name hung between them like something toxic.
“The asshole himself.” Isabelle’s jaw tightened until her teeth ached.
“That’s a hard no.” Sam’s voice dropped an octave, his shoulders squaring.
“He’s military,” she continued, softer now but no less intense. She jabbed her phone toward the station’s entrance. “He has connections we don’t anymore, apparently. The kind that can override whatever bullshit technicality they’re holding Bucky on.”
Sam’s eyes never left hers, searching for something—weakness, maybe, or a better solution. Finding neither, his jaw worked back and forth, the muscle there jumping beneath his skin.
“Bucky’s sitting in a cell right now because he was trying to help people,” she said, quieter now. “Because he was with us.”
Sam’s jaw worked as he processed her words, the internal struggle playing across his features like shadows. “Fine. Do it.”
Isabelle took a breath that filled her lungs but did nothing to settle the electric anxiety buzzing beneath her skin. She turned her attention to her phone, thumb hovering over the screen. “FRI, get me John Walker’s phone number.”
The plastic chair dug into Sam’s lower back, the cheap molding designed for discomfort. Isabelle’s leg bounced beside him—a rapid, uneven rhythm that matched the ticking of the wall clock overhead.
When they’d reentered the station, the atmosphere had shifted. Officers gave them a wide berth, conversations dropping to whispers as they passed. Diaz tracked their movement from behind his desk, eyes narrowed in warning. The message was clear: cause trouble again, and you’ll regret it.
Sam leaned back, crossing his arms tightly over his chest, scanning the room for any sign of their unwanted ally. “Can’t believe we actually called him,” he muttered, keeping his voice low enough that only Isabelle could hear.
“What were our other options?” Her tone was flat, but beneath it ran a current of bitterness that Sam recognized all too well.
Sam opened his mouth to respond—something between a plan and a prayer forming on his tongue—when the sharp click of heels against linoleum drew both their gazes up. Sam’s spine straightened instinctively, while Isabelle went still, her bouncing leg freezing mid-motion.
The footsteps rounded the corner, and Sam’s eyes narrowed, muscles tensing as he prepared to face—
Not Walker.
A woman.
She strode toward them, the leather portfolio tucked under her arm, looking expensive and official. Her eyes landed on them almost instantly. “Sam? Isabelle?”
Sam’s hand found Isabelle’s elbow, nudging her to follow as her rose to his feet. Isabelle followed more slowly, her muscles protesting after an hour in the plastic chair.
The woman closed the distance between them, hand already extended. Up close, Isabelle noticed the faint shadows beneath her eyes, expertly concealed but visible this close—someone else’s night interrupted.
“I’ve heard quite a bit about both of you,” she said. The smile she offered was small but genuine, reaching her eyes in a way that surprised Isabelle. “I’m Dr. Raynor, James’s therapist.”
Sam’s posture shifted subtly—the coiled tension in his shoulders easing by degrees as recognition clicked. “Dr. Raynor,” he said, taking her hand in a firm grip. “Sam Wilson. Good to finally put a face to the name.” His voice carried that particular Sam warmth—the one he reserved for allies, for people who might actually help.
Isabelle stepped forward, her handshake more tentative. “Yeah, thanks for coming,” she said, shooting Sam a sideways glance that screamed confusion. “We were just expecting...” She trailed off, not wanting to say the name out loud as if it might summon him.
“Someone else,” Dr. Raynor finished for her, understanding flickering in her eyes. She leaned in slightly, lowering her voice. “John asked me to come down. Given James’s history and the current situation, he thought my presence might help facilitate matters.”
The mention of Walker sent a fresh spike of irritation through Isabelle’s chest, but it faded quickly as the implications sank in. Walker had actually done something smart. Something helpful. The cognitive dissonance made her head hurt. “Oh,” Her shoulders relaxed even as her jaw tightened. “That actually makes sense.”
“Well, thank you for coming,” Sam said. He glanced at the clock on the wall—2:47 AM—then back to Dr. Raynor. “Maybe this won’t be a complete disaster after all.”
The words had barely left his mouth when a booming voice shattered the station’s quiet like a sledgehammer through glass.
“Christina!”
Sam exhaled slowly through his nose, eyes briefly closing like a man preparing for impact.
Isabelle’s stomach knotted as John Walker entered the room, the star-spangled uniform practically screaming for attention in the drab police station. He paused to shake hands with two officers, his smile wide and practiced, a politician’s grin. A woman in a rumpled business suit approached him with her phone raised, and Walker immediately shifted his stance—shoulders back, chin up, chest puffed out like a peacock in mating season.
Walker finished his impromptu photo session with a handshake and a wink before zeroing in on their small group. His smile never faltered as he approached. “Dr. Raynor, so glad you could make it.” He extended his hand to the therapist, gripping it firmly as his gaze darted between her and Sam. “It’s good to see you again!”
Sam’s head snapped toward Dr. Raynor, the look of disbelief that bloomed across his features transformed his entire face—eyebrows shooting up, mouth parting slightly, eyes widening. “You two know each other?”
Dr. Raynor’s expression remained professionally neutral, but Isabelle caught something flicker across her features—a flash of what might have been regret or discomfort—before she smoothed it away. Her fingers tightened minutely around her portfolio.
“Yes,” she replied, her tone measured and even. “We did some field ops back in the day.”
Walker stepped forward, breaking into their small circle with all the subtlety of a battering ram. His gaze swept over each of them in turn, lingering a beat too long on Isabelle. She bit her tongue.
“I’m glad you called,” he said, keeping his eyes on Isabelle, his voice dropping into what she assumed was meant to be sincerity.
It sounded rehearsed to her ears, like a line he’d practiced in front of a mirror until he got the intonation just right.
“Well,” she said, injecting her voice with a sweetness that could rot teeth, “desperate times call for desperate measures.” She gestured vaguely at his star-spangled outfit, the movement sharp and dismissive. “And who better to call than America himself?”
Sam coughed into his fist beside her, the sound suspiciously like a smothered laugh. His shoulder bumped against hers—a silent show of solidarity that steadied her more than she wanted to admit.
Walker’s smile didn’t falter, but something hardened in his eyes, a flash of irritation quickly masked. He pivoted toward Dr. Raynor, widening his stance. The movement was deliberate, commanding space that made Isabelle’s skin crawl. “Christina,” Walker leaned toward Dr. Raynor. “Bucky’s not gonna be following a strict schedule any longer.”
Dr. Raynor’s professional mask slipped. A vertical line appeared between her brows as she shook her head, causing a strand of brown hair to fall across her forehead. “We haven’t finished our work,” she said, voice firm but quiet. Her gaze darted between Walker and Sam, deliberately skipping over Isabelle as if sensing the fury radiating off her. “James is making progress, but it’s delicate. Who authorized this?”
Walker gestured to himself with a theatrical flourish, chest puffing out beneath the star-spangled suit. “I did.” Pride dripped from each syllable, thick as syrup and twice as sickening.
“And since when,” Sam cut in, “does Captain America have the authority to override court-mandated therapy?” His voice remained deceptively calm, but Isabelle caught the warning signs—the muscle jumping in his jaw, the controlled tension in his shoulders, the slight forward tilt of his stance.
“Since the government decided that Sergeant Barnes’ skills are more valuable in the field than on a therapist’s couch,” Walker replied, each word coated in condescension. He turned to Dr. Raynor, dismissing Sam with a movement. “He’s too valuable an asset to have tied up, so just do whatever you’ve got to with him to clear him, and then send him back to me.”
Asset.
Isabelle’s nostrils flared.
Before any of them could respond, a harsh electronic buzz cut through the station, followed by the metallic clank of a heavy security door unlocking. Isabelle’s head snapped toward the sound, her heart lurching against her ribs.
Two officers flanked Bucky as he emerged from the holding area. His shoulders curled forward slightly, not in defeat but in a protective hunch, the one that made his massive frame seem smaller, less threatening. His vibranium arm was hidden beneath a dark jean jacket, but the officers kept a careful distance from that side, all the same.
She frowned, seeing how his hair was slightly mussed on one side as if he’d been leaning against a wall or held his head in his hands. Isabelle took an instinctive half-step forward before catching herself. Her fingers curled into her palms, nails biting into skin.
Bucky’s gaze drifted from her to Sam, a silent question passing between them. Then his eyes landed on Walker, and Isabelle watched the subtle transformation—the tightening around his mouth, the slight narrowing of his eyes, the way his jaw locked into place. Nothing obvious enough for the officers to notice, but to her, it was like watching armor slide into place.
“Well,” Walker clapped his hands together once, the sharp sound cracking through the station like a gunshot. Isabelle flinched, adrenaline spiking through her system before she could suppress it. He gestured toward Bucky with a dismissive flick of his wrist. “Looks like our man of the hour has arrived. Finish up in here, I’ll be outside waiting.”
The sound of Walker’s boots faded as he strutted toward the exit, shoulders squared like he was expecting applause to follow him.
Bucky approached like a caged animal being led to another enclosure—cautious, alert, dangerous in his restraint. His eyes never stopped moving, cataloging every exit, every potential threat, every distance between bodies. Old habits. Hydra habits.
His dark hair was disheveled, strands falling across his forehead like he’d been running his hands through it for hours. The anger she’d nursed since that morning—the hurt of being left behind—evaporated like dew under a harsh sun.
“Hey,” she said as he reached them. “You okay?”
“Been better,” he replied, his voice sandpaper-rough, like he hadn’t spoken in hours. His gaze flicked between her and Sam, and the furrow between his brows deepened. “What’s going on? How did you...?” His metal hand made a small gesture at the police station around them, plates shifting with a soft mechanical whisper.
Isabelle swallowed hard, her fingers twisting together until her knuckles whitened. “Had to ask for a favor,” she admitted, unable to keep her left eye from twitching slightly. The thought of owing John Walker anything made her stomach twist into knots. “From Walker.”
Bucky went completely still. Only his eyes moved, darkening as his pupils dilated. “Walker,” he repeated, the name falling from his lips like something poisonous. For a split second, something dangerous flashed across his features before he blinked it away, burying it deep.
Isabelle opened her mouth to explain further, to tell him they’d had no choice, that they’d tried everything else first—but Dr. Raynor stepped forward, cutting through the tension with clinical efficiency.
“James,” she said, her voice gentle but firm, “condition of your release is a session now.” Her gaze swept over to include Sam and Isabelle, her expression brooking no argument. “You too, Sam. Isabelle.”
Sam stiffened beside Isabelle, his shoulders squaring as if preparing for an ambush rather than therapy. “Nah, I’m good,” he said, forcing casualness into his tone that didn’t match the wariness in his eyes. “I’ll wait out here with—”
“That wasn’t a request,” Dr. Raynor interrupted, already turning on her heel, clearly expecting them to follow like ducklings after their mother.
Isabelle caught Sam’s gaze, recognizing the reluctance mirrored there—the same instinctive resistance crawling up her own spine like icy fingers. They both looked to Bucky, who seemed to have retreated further behind his walls, his expression carefully blank except for the slight tightening around his eyes.
With a collective sigh that felt like surrender, they followed Dr. Raynor back through the door Bucky had emerged from, each step feeling heavier than the last. Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs as the door closed behind them with a soft, definitive click.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Here Comes Your Man" by Pixies
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They say the eyes are the windows to the soul. Isabelle was hoping for blackout curtains.
But locked across from Bucky Barnes, knees nearly touching, breath catching, and nowhere to run—she doesn’t just see the Winter Soldier. She sees the weight he still carries. The man beneath the programming. The scars that mirror her own.
And he? He sees the one person who stayed. The girl who cracked herself open just to save him—and might fall apart in front of him now.What starts as a mandatory soul-gazing exercise becomes a quiet explosion of everything unsaid. And when the tension breaks, it leaves both of them shaken. Stripped bare. Seen.
And neither of them are ready for what it means to be seen in return.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 15: My Dreams Aren't As Empty
Chapter 15: My Dreams Aren’t as Empty
Summary:
The last pair.
That’s what Dr. Raynor said. Just two little words. And suddenly Isabelle’s stomach was in her throat, her pulse in her ears, and the last person she wanted to lock eyes with was sitting across from her—silent, unreadable, waiting.His eyes are already on her—quiet, steady, unreadable. She could say no. He’d let her. But something in her, something she can’t name, wants to look. Wants to see.
Their knees almost touch. The timer starts.And then it hits—everything. Berlin. Siberia. Her father’s blood. His haunted eyes. The war between who they were and who they are now.
She doesn’t look away. Neither does he.
But by the end… she wishes she had.
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Dr. Raynor led their small procession, her posture tense, her steps quick. Isabelle walked beside Sam, while Bucky trudged between them and Raynor. Bucky hadn’t looked back once. Not a glance, not a flicker of acknowledgement. Just the tense line of his back.
Dr. Raynor stopped at a door at the end of the hall, eyes scanning all of them. She swung the door open for them, hinges giving a soft protest. Bucky moved instantly. Two long strides later, he folded his frame into the chair on the right, his hands clasping and resting in his lap.
Sam lingered beside her, his shoulder bumping hers. “Ladies first?” he offered with a sly smile, sweeping his hand toward the empty chair beside Bucky.
Isabelle felt her jaw tighten. She recognized a power play when she saw one. Sam was trying to force her next to Bucky, making her the buffer in whatever tension stretched between the men.
“Oh no,” she said, stepping past him without breaking eye contact. Her voice dripped with saccharine sweetness as she leaned against the wall, arms crossed. “I’ll stand. I know you have bad knees and all.”
The smile vanished from Sam’s face like someone had flipped a switch. They locked gazes—a silent standoff, neither willing to yield first. The deadlock might have lasted forever if not for the soft, weary sigh that escaped Bucky’s lips.
The sound was barely audible but sparked something wicked in Isabelle’s belly. An impulse she couldn’t resist. She reached inward. Just a small tug, just enough to—
Sam blinked rapidly, his confident posture faltering mid-standoff. His body swayed, a subtle shift at first that he tried to hide. Up was down, and still was spinning.
“Are you okay?” Isabelle tilted her head, voice honeyed with fake concern. The picture of innocence as she watched him struggle. “You should sit, Sam. You’re looking a little…dizzy.”
He shook his head like a dog trying to clear water from its ears, which only intensified the effect she’d created. “You little cheat,” he muttered through gritted teeth, low enough that only she could hear. He shot her a look that promised retribution as he surrendered, taking the seat next to Bucky and putting a space between them.
Dr. Raynor closed the door with a soft click. Trapped. She settled into her chair like a judge taking the bench. Those clinical eyes swept over each of them—Sam still looking faintly green, Bucky folded into himself —before landing on Isabelle. No surprise in that gaze. Identification. Challenge accepted.
“Most people find chairs more comfortable than walls,” Dr. Raynor observed, pen poised between her fingers.
“Yeah, well,” Isabelle shrugged, crossing her arms tightly against her chest. “I was born to disappoint.”
The therapist’s eyes flicked pointedly to the empty chair against the adjacent wall, then back to Isabelle.
Sit. Down.
For three heartbeats, Isabelle considered refusing—a small, petty rebellion. But something in Raynor’s unwavering stare, like she could wait all day, all year, made Isabelle’s resolve crumble.
With an eye roll that would make a teenager proud, she pushed off the wall, grabbed the spare chair against the left wall, and dragged it across the floor. The metal legs screeched against tile—an unholy sound that made Sam wince and Bucky’s shoulders tighten.
She positioned it squarely between the men and dropped into it with theatrical heaviness. “There,” she said, crossing her legs, shooting Sam a pointed look. “Everyone happy?”
From her peripheral vision, she caught Bucky watching her, his expression blank save for the slightest twitch at the corner of his mouth. Almost a smile. Almost.
Dr. Raynor uncapped her pen with a decisive click. “Happiness isn’t required. Participation is. So,” Dr. Raynor started, clicking her pen and sitting straight. She looked between them. “Who would like to start?”
The silence stretched, elastic and uncomfortable. The wall clock’s ticking grew thunderous. Sam cleared his throat. Bucky stared at his hands. Isabelle glanced between them, a silent plea: Someone. Anyone. Say something.
The clock ticked louder.
“All right, look,” Sam finally said, breaking the suffocating silence. “I get why you want to talk to Freaky Magoo here—” he jerked his thumb toward Bucky, not even looking at him, “—but there’s no need for all this…whatever this is.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened, but he didn’t look up.
Dr. Raynor leaned forward, elbows on the table. “It is my job to make sure that you’re okay—”
“Technically,” Isabelle cut in, unable to help herself, “it’s your job to make sure he’s okay.” She pointed at Bucky, whose shoulder tensed against hers at the sudden attention. Something twisted in her chest—regret for drawing the spotlight to him when he so clearly wanted to disappear.
Dr. Raynor’s gaze shifted between them. “This might be slightly unprofessional,” she admitted, her voice softening in a way that caught Isabelle off guard. “But it’s the only way I can go through this release with a good conscience.”
Isabelle’s gaze shifted to Bucky, who had turned away, focusing intently on a water stain blooming across the ceiling tile. The slight furrow between his brows deepened under her eyes.
Sam exhaled loudly—somewhere between a sigh and a groan—his head falling back to stare at the ceiling. His knee bounced rapidly, betraying his irritation loudly. “We’ve got actual problems out there. Real threats. And we’re sitting here playing therapy circle.”
“Yeah, I agree,” Bucky finally spoke, his voice rough like he’d forgotten how to use it.
“See?” Dr. Raynor said with forced brightness that didn’t reach her eyes. Her smile was professional but tight at the edges. “Making progress already.”
A laugh bubbled up in Isabelle’s throat. Not from humor—from the sheer absurdity of it all. Three adults crammed into chairs made for high schoolers, all avoiding eye contact like they’d been caught passing notes in class.
“Now,” Dr. Raynor tried again, tapping her pen against her notepad. “We’ll try an exercise I use with couples struggling to envision their future together.” She straightened, squaring her shoulders with the practiced ease of someone accustomed to difficult patients.
Bucky’s head snapped up so fast that Isabelle heard his neck crack. “No,” he growled, arms crossing tight over his chest.
“Yeah, that’s gonna be a hard pass,” Isabelle said, narrowing her eyes. Her temples throbbed—the beginning of a headache or the temptation to use her powers again, she wasn’t sure. “And there’s three of us, in case you hadn’t noticed.” She gestured between them with a circular motion of her finger.
“Relationships come in all shapes and sizes.” Dr. Raynor dismissed her objection with a casual flick of her wrist. “Are you familiar with the miracle question?”
“No,” Sam said flatly.
“Absolutely not,” Bucky muttered.
“Is this really necessary?” Isabelle groaned, letting her head fall back. The fluorescent lights above burned into her retinas, making starbursts behind her eyelids.
“I wouldn’t suggest it if it weren’t,” Dr. Raynor replied, her voice infuriatingly reasonable.
“Fine.” Isabelle straightened, squaring her shoulders. “What’s the miracle question?”
Dr. Raynor’s lips curved into something almost resembling a smile. “I want each of you to imagine that tonight, while you sleep, a miracle occurs.” She leaned forward, elbows on her knees. “When you wake up tomorrow, your problem is solved. What’s different? What do you notice first?”
A miracle. What a fucking joke. If miracles had happened, her father would still be alive. If miracles happened, she wouldn’t have spent five years as dust while the world moved on without her. If miracles happened—
“I’d wake up and not be here,” Bucky said suddenly, his voice flat.
Dr. Raynor’s pen hovered over her notepad. “And where would you be?”
Bucky’s throat worked as he swallowed. His eyes were fixed on some distant point only he could see. “Somewhere quiet. Somewhere...” He trailed off, jaw clenching.
“Somewhere no one knows your name,” Isabelle finished for him, the words tumbling out before she could stop them.
His eyes snapped to hers, startled, then narrowed.
“Yeah,” he said quietly. “Exactly that.”
Sam shifted in his seat, the chair creaking beneath him. “Well, that’s depressing as hell.”
Bucky angled his body slightly, leaning toward Isabelle. His shoulder brushed against hers, the vibranium arm whirring almost imperceptibly as he adjusted his position. “In my miracle, he’d also talk less,” he said, nodding toward Sam.
“Exactly what I was thinking,” Sam fired back without missing a beat.
“Oh my god,” she scoffed at them and their childish bickering. She shot Dr. Raynor a look, “I don’t pay you, I don’t need this.” She pushed back her chair abruptly, “I’m waiting outside—”
“No, you don’t. Sit down.” Dr. Raynor’s index finger wagged in Isabelle’s direction.
Isabelle’s body responded before her mind could object, muscle memory so deeply ingrained she couldn’t fight it. That wagging finger. The firm, unyielding tone that expected immediate compliance.
In an instant, she was eight years old again, perched on the edge of an oversized chair in her mother’s office, legs swinging nervously above the floor as Laura Proctor delivered another lecture about responsibility or decorum or whatever shortcoming had disappointed her that day. That same expression—lips pressed into a thin line, eyebrows slightly raised, as if perpetually surprised by Isabelle’s inability to meet expectations.
“Sit down, Isabelle. We’re not finished.”
No one made her feel small like her mother could—and now this stranger had managed it with five words and a gesture.
She sank back into her seat, shoulders hunching inward like a scolded child. Heat crawled up her neck, flooding her cheeks with unwanted color. She felt Bucky’s eyes on her—curious, watchful—and that only made it worse.
Dr. Raynor’s expression shifted as she studied Isabelle, the clinical mask slipping just enough to reveal something human underneath. Her shoulders lowered a fraction of an inch, hands no longer poised to command but settling on her notepad with deliberate gentleness. “All right,” she conceded, “let’s try something simpler: the soul-gazing exercise.”
“The what now?” Isabelle choked out, whipping her head toward Sam and Bucky, finding mirror images of horror etched across their faces.
“Oh hell no,” Sam muttered, shaking his head with such force his earpiece rattled. “Soul-gazing wasn’t in the deal. Nobody said anything about soul-gazing.” His knee started bouncing again, faster this time, a nervous drumbeat against the underside of the table.
Bucky remained silent, but Isabelle felt his body go rigid beside her. His breathing changed—shallower, more controlled—like a man preparing for pain.
“It’s a simple exercise,” Dr. Raynor continued, unfazed by their collective dismay. Her voice maintained that infuriatingly reasonable tone. “Turn your chairs to face each other in a small half-circle.”
Sam leaned toward Isabelle, his breath warm against the shell of her ear, carrying the faint scent of mint gum. “On three, we make a break for it,” he whispered, eyes darting to the door. “I’ll take the therapist, you handle the lock.”
“I’ll take point,” Bucky breathed from her other side. His muscles coiled beneath his jacket, the fabric pulling taut across his shoulders.
Dr. Raynor clapped once—a sharp crack that split the air like a gunshot. All three of them flinched in unison, battle reflexes firing. Isabelle’s hand instinctively reached for a weapon that wasn’t there. Sam’s body half-rose from his chair. Bucky’s metal fingers curled into a fist.
“Chairs. Facing inward. Now.” Dr. Raynor’s voice dropped an octave, each word landing like a brick. She motioned with her hands like a traffic cop directing vehicles.
Isabelle’s gaze locked with Bucky’s for a fraction of a second. In the pale blue of his eyes, she saw the same realization dawning: they weren’t getting out of this.
“This is worse than Hydra,” Bucky muttered, so softly that only Isabelle could hear.
A hysterical giggle bubbled up in her throat. She swallowed it down, tasting something bitter. “At least Hydra would just shoot us,” she whispered back, earning a smirk from him.
With exaggerated reluctance, Isabelle dragged her chair around, metal legs screeching against the linoleum in protest. Sam followed suit, his movements deliberately slow, like a man approaching the gallows. Bucky’s chair moved without a sound—the super-soldier apparently too disciplined to engage in passive-aggressive furniture manipulation.
They formed a lopsided triangle, knees almost touching in the center.
“Now what?” Isabelle asked, crossing her arms tightly over her chest. “We hold hands and sing Kumbaya?”
“Now—” Dr. Raynor’s smile was thin but patient, “—now, we’re going to practice something that helps people who work in high-stress environments build trust and recognize each other’s humanity.”
“I recognize their humanity just fine,” Sam protested, jerking his thumb between Bucky and Isabelle. “That one’s grumpy, that one’s stabby. Humanity recognized.”
Isabelle kicked his shin under the chair. Not hard—just enough to make him wince.
“See?” Sam said, gesturing toward her with vindication. “Stabby.”
Dr. Raynor ignored them both, pulling a small timer from her pocket and setting it on the table. “For two minutes, I want each of you to look into another person’s eyes. No talking. No laughing. Just eye contact.”
The silence that followed was so profound that Isabelle could hear the blood rushing in her ears. Bucky’s throat worked as he swallowed. Sam’s mouth opened and closed twice, like a fish suddenly finding itself on land.
“You can’t be serious,” Isabelle finally managed, her voice coming out higher than intended.
“Entirely serious,” Dr. Raynor confirmed, finger hovering over the timer. “Who would like to go first?”
Another beat of silence.
“I’m not doing this,” Bucky muttered, shifting in his seat.
Dr. Raynor’s expression didn’t change, but something in her eyes hardened. “James,” she said, “you’ve spent seventy years avoiding looking people in the eye. Two minutes won’t kill you.”
The words hung in the air like smoke after a gunshot. Isabelle felt Bucky go completely still beside her, the kind of stillness that wasn’t calm but the opposite—a storm contained in human form. She risked a glance at his profile. His jaw was clenched so tight she could see the muscle jumping beneath his stubble.
“Low blow, doc,” Sam murmured, all traces of humor suddenly gone from his voice.
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs. The air in the room felt too thick, too charged.
“Fine,” Bucky said, the word like gravel. He raised his eyes to Dr. Raynor’s, a direct challenge. “Let’s get this over with.”
Dr. Raynor nodded, satisfied, and turned to Isabelle. “Ms. Stark?”
Isabelle’s stomach knotted. She’d rather face down another alien invasion than do this. Eye contact meant vulnerability. Vulnerability meant weakness. Weakness meant—
“I’ll go,” Sam interrupted, spinning his chair to face Bucky directly. Their knees bumped, and neither man moved to create distance. “Come on, Barnes. You and me. Let’s soul-gaze the hell out of this.”
Bucky’s eyebrows shot up, surprise momentarily replacing the tension in his face. Sam only leaned forward, elbows on his knees. The challenge hung between them like a gauntlet thrown. For a heartbeat, Isabelle thought Bucky might actually get up and walk out—protocol and consequences be damned.
Instead, he mirrored Sam’s posture, leaning in until barely two feet separated their faces. “Start the timer,” he growled, not looking away from Sam.
Dr. Raynor pressed the button with a soft beep. “Two minutes. Starting now.”
The seconds stretched like taffy. Isabelle watched, fascinated despite herself, as the two men stared each other down. Neither blinked. Neither moved. It was like watching two predators sizing each other up—wary, tense, refusing to show weakness.
Thirty seconds in, Sam’s left eye twitched. Bucky’s mouth curved into the barest hint of a smirk.
“No talking,” Dr. Raynor reminded them, though neither had spoken.
Isabelle shifted in her seat after the first minute passed. Then another thirty seconds. Just when Isabelle thought they might actually make it through the full two minutes, Sam’s poker face cracked. Eyes watering, he blinked against his will.
“Dammit,” he muttered, breaking eye contact to glance at the timer.
“I win,” Bucky said, his voice low but unmistakably smug.
“I didn’t realize it was a competition,” Dr. Raynor commented, raising an eyebrow.
“Everything’s a competition with these two,” Isabelle said, rolling her eyes. “They’d turn breathing into a contest if they could.”
Sam straightened, rolling his shoulders like a boxer between rounds. “Your turn, Stark,” he said, spinning his chair to face her. “Unless you’re chicken.”
The childish taunt shouldn’t have worked. It absolutely shouldn’t have worked. Isabelle was a grown woman, for god’s sake, not some playground kid being dared to eat a worm.
And yet.
“Fine,” she huffed, angling her chair to face Sam directly. Their knees brushed. “But just so we’re clear, this is stupid and I hate it.”
“Noted,” Dr. Raynor said, resetting the timer. “Ready?”
No, Isabelle thought. Not even close.
“Ready,” she said instead, meeting Sam’s gaze.
The timer beeped. Two minutes. Starting now.
Sam’s eyes were dark brown, almost black in this light, with flecks of amber near the pupil that Isabelle had never noticed before. His gaze was steady, challenging but not unkind. The man who had followed Captain America into battle, who’d been there every time she needed him—there was steel beneath the humor, resolve behind the easy smile.
Forty-five seconds in, Isabelle felt her throat tighten. This was too intimate, too raw. She didn’t want to see the person behind the quips and the swagger. She didn’t want him to see her either—the cracks in her armor, the fear she kept locked.
Her eyes began to water from the effort of not blinking. Sam did too, but neither of them looked away.
“One minute left,” Dr. Raynor announced softly.
Isabelle’s heartbeat quickened. She could feel Bucky watching them, his gaze a physical weight against her skin. What did he see? What was he thinking?
Sam’s expression softened. Something passed between them—not forgiveness, exactly, but understanding. A silent acknowledgment: We’re both doing our best in an impossible situation.
The timer beeped again, startling them both.
“Time,” Dr. Raynor said, sounding pleased. “Well done.”
Isabelle exhaled shakily, dropping her gaze to her hands. Her fingernails had left crescent-shaped indentations in her palms.
“That wasn’t so bad,” Sam said, his voice oddly gentle.
Before she could respond, Dr. Raynor reset the timer once more. “Last pair,” she said, nodding toward Bucky and Isabelle.
Isabelle’s stomach dropped.
No.
Not him. Anyone but him.
She turned slowly, like a prisoner facing a firing squad. Bucky was already watching her, his expression unreadable, those pale blue eyes giving nothing away.
“You don’t have to,” he said quietly, surprising her. “I can tell her to go to hell.”
The offer hung between them—an escape route, freely given. Part of her wanted to take it, to run as far and as fast as she could. But another part, which she didn’t want to examine too closely, was curious. What would she see if she really looked at him? What would he see in her?
“It’s fine,” she said, the lie obvious even to her ears. She straightened her spine and squared her shoulders. “Let’s just get it over with.”
Bucky studied her for a moment longer, then nodded once. He shifted his chair to face her directly, their knees almost touching.
“Ready?” Dr. Raynor asked, finger hovering over the timer.
Isabelle met Bucky’s gaze and felt something electric zip down her spine. His eyes were winter-pale, the color of a frozen lake, but not cold-never cold. There was too much life in them, too much history, too much pain.
“Ready,” she whispered, though she wasn’t. Not even close.
The timer beeped.
The first ten seconds were excruciating. Isabelle fought the instinct to look away, to find some safe middle-distance point over his shoulder. Instead, she forced herself to really look at him.
Fifteen seconds in, his left eyelid twitched slightly. A muscle jumped in his jaw. Twenty seconds. Her heart hammered so loudly she was certain he could hear it.
And then—a flash. The overpass. The mask. The dead, mechanical stare as he’d advanced on her, Steve, Sam, and Natasha. Metal arm gleaming in the sunlight as bullets tore through the air around them.
The Winter Soldier. The most terrifying thing she’d ever faced at that time—and she’d fought during the Battle of New York.
Her breath caught. Bucky’s pupils dilated slightly, as if he could see the memory playing across her face.
Thirty seconds. His gaze didn’t waver, but something shifted in it—a softening around the edge. The fight on the helicarrier, when she and Steve had tried desperately to reach the man buried beneath the programming? The way he’d dragged them both from the Potomac afterward?
She remembered regaining consciousness on that muddy bank, water streaming from her lungs, turning her head to see Bucky standing there, soaked, confused, terrified. She’d rasped out, “Why?”—why did he save them? He hadn’t answered with words. He’d answered with his eyes, lost, haunted, but undeniably human.
Before disappearing into the trees.
Forty-five seconds. Bucky swallowed, the sound audible in the silence of the room. A drop of water clung to his lashes—not quite a tear, but close. From the strain of not blinking, or something else?
One minute. Halfway there. Her pulse quickened, blood rushing in her ears. Isabelle couldn’t look away even as memories crashed through her like waves against a breakwater.
Vienna. The bombing. The hunt.
She remembered finding him in that tiny Bucharest apartment, newspapers covering the windows, a sad little notebook filled with fragments of memory. The raw fear in his eyes when they’d cornered him—not for himself, but fear of what he might do.
Zemo. Siberia. Her throat tightened.
After the fight, after the revelation, after her father... After everything had shattered beyond repair. She’d helped Steve get Bucky to the Quinjet. She remembered sobbing, the taste of salt and copper on her lips, her body shaking so hard Steve had to hold her upright.
“You’re at one twenty,” Dr. Raynor’s voice came from somewhere distant.
T’Challa standing there with Zemo in custody. The look of pity on the Black Panther’s face. The offer of sanctuary when they had nowhere else to go. And Bucky—God, Bucky—watching her the entire time. Silent. His eyes never left her, even as Steve whispered reassurances against her hair.
Because he knew.
He knew that she was supposed to have been in that car that night. A week away with her grandparents before Christmas. But she’d gotten sick—too sick to travel.
And yet she still had chosen him in Berlin. In Siberia. Had thrown everything away in that moment—her relationship with her father, her home, her name. All for a man who, in another timeline, would have snapped her grandparents’ neck before doing the same to the nearly 3-year-old version of herself without hesitation.
One minute forty-five seconds.
Zemo’s voice slithered through Isabelle’s memory, cold and precise as a scalpel: “Tell me, does it frighten you, standing so close to the Winter Soldier? The perfect weapon.”
Her pulse hammered against her throat. Bucky’s eyes tracked the movement.
“Is that what you see when you look at him?” Zemo had pressed. “A glimpse of what you might have become if you hadn’t... lost control?”
Isabelle’s fingers twitched in her lap. That was why she’d chosen him in Berlin, wasn’t it? Not despite what Bucky was, but because of it. He understood what it meant to be unmade. To have your body turned against your will. To be the monster in someone else’s nightmares.
A single tear escaped, tracking hot down her cheek. Then another. The salt stung her lips.
“I can’t,” she whispered, the words scraping her throat raw. Her voice cracked on the second syllable. “I can’t do this.”
Bucky instantly broke their gaze, looking down at his hands. The guilt radiating from him was almost tangible, a living thing filling the space between them.
Isabelle wiped furiously at her face, smearing tears across her cheekbone with the heel of her palm. Her chest felt hollowed out, scraped clean of everything but the raw, pulsing ache beneath her ribs.
“Hey, you okay?” Sam shifted in his chair, leaning toward her with a furrowed brow.
Isabelle jerked away from his outstretched hand, nearly toppling off her chair. The thought of being touched right now, by anyone, made her skin crawl.
Sam’s eyes flickered to Dr. Raynor, hardening from concern to anger. “Doc, we’re done here,” he said, voice dropping to that dangerous calm he used before missions went sideways. “This isn’t helping anyone.”
Dr. Raynor studied them over steepled fingers, her clinical mask slipping just enough to reveal something that might have been satisfaction. She set her pen down with a soft click against the notepad.
“Actually,” she said, “I think it is.”
“Fuck off,” Isabelle spat, shoving to her feet so violently her chair crashed back against the floor. “Just—fuck off with your soul-gazing bullshit.” Her hands trembled at her sides, fingers curling and uncurling.
She felt more than saw Bucky go rigid beside her. His breathing changed—controlled, measured, the way soldiers breathed when preparing for impact.
“Ms. Stark,” Dr. Raynor began, her voice maddeningly calm. “Sometimes emotional responses—”
“Don’t.” Isabelle sliced her hand through the air. The room suddenly felt twenty degrees hotter, sweat beading at her hairline. “Don’t you dare psychoanalyze me right now.”
Her chest constricted, lungs refusing to expand fully. The walls seemed to pulse inward with each heartbeat, closing in like a vise. Tiny electric shocks were racing just beneath her skin, gathering momentum. Her powers stirred, responding to her emotional state like a predator scenting blood in the water.
The room’s edges began to blur. Dr. Raynor’s voice distorted. One more push, one more prod, and she wouldn’t be able to contain it. The sickness would leak out, invisible tendrils seeking vulnerabilities in everyone around her.
“Isabelle.”
Bucky’s voice cut through the static in her head—not commanding, not placating. Just steady. Her name in his mouth sounded different than when others said it. Softer. More careful.
She looked up, met his gaze. His eyes were clear, focused entirely on her, seeing exactly what was happening. What was about to happen.
“Take a breath,” he said quietly.
She inhaled sharply through her nose, the air cold in her lungs. One breath. Two. The pressure behind her eyes receded, just slightly.
“I need some air,” she managed, already backing toward the door. Her legs felt unsteady beneath her, knees threatening to buckle. The metal doorknob was shockingly cold against her palm, slick with her sweat as she fumbled for purchase.
“Isabelle—” Dr. Raynor started, rising halfway from her chair, pen still poised between her fingers.
“Let her go,” Bucky cut in, his voice low but leaving no room for argument.
The door handle felt cold under Isabelle’s trembling fingers. She yanked it open with more force than necessary. She didn’t look back—couldn’t look back—as she stumbled into the hallway.
She moved on autopilot, following exit signs, pushing through doors, her vision tunneling until all she could see was the next escape route. She just needed out. Now.
She hit the exit with both hands, the door swinging wide as she stumbled onto the precinct steps. Four a.m. darkness wrapped around her like a blanket, the streets eerily quiet save for distant sirens and the hum of streetlights.
She gulped oxygen, hands braced on her knees, the concrete steps cold beneath her boots. Her hair fell forward, shielding her face from nothing, from no one. The trembling in her hands wouldn’t stop.
“Dammit,” she whispered, the word a puff of vapor in the frigid air.
A car engine idled nearby, the low rumble cutting through the quiet. Headlights gleamed on wet pavement. Isabelle straightened, roughly wiping her face with the back of her hand. She needed to pull it together.
“Stark!”
The voice sliced through her thoughts like a knife. Familiar. Unwelcome.
Isabelle froze, her spine stiffening as she slowly turned toward the sound.
Leaning against a police cruiser parked directly in front of the station steps was John, arms crossed over his chest. Beside him stood Lemar. John’s eyes raked over her, taking in her tear-streaked face, her disheveled appearance, the tremor she couldn’t quite hide—and his mouth curled into something not quite a smile.
“Rough night?”
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Behind Blue Eyes" by The Who
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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The therapy session may be over, but the night isn’t. Outside the station, Isabelle finds herself face-to-face with John Walker—alone. Words are exchanged, threats are made, and tensions spark like live wires. But when Bucky and Sam arrive, the fuse hits the powder.Lines are drawn.
Alliances shift.And for the first time in a long time, Isabelle isn’t just standing her ground—she has someone standing beside her.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 16: A Hill to Die On
Chapter 16: A Hill to Die On
Summary:
The night doesn’t end when the therapy session does. As Isabelle steps outside for air, she’s greeted not by peace—but by John Walker. What begins as a thinly veiled apology quickly curdles into something darker: a power play wrapped in stars and stripes. Walker demands access to her intel, masking threats as authority, his tone a warning and a promise.
But Isabelle doesn’t flinch. She stands her ground, defiant, her voice sharp enough to slice through his façade. And just when the threat teeters too close to danger—Bucky steps between them. Fast. Silent. Unmistakably protective.
Lines are drawn in the rain-soaked concrete. The tension hits a boil.
And for the first time, Walker learns just how heavy that shield really is.
Notes:
I hope I’m capturing John and Lemar right. Out of everyone so far, they’ve been the trickiest for me to write. Izzy really does not like Walker—she sees someone trying way too hard to be Steve without actually understanding what made Steve Steve. And Bucky? Yeah, I think his distaste speaks for itself 😂 Meanwhile, Sam and Lemar are just over here trying to keep the peace and manage two emotional disasters with shields.
Thanks for reading! Hope this chapter made your blood pressure spike in all the right ways!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“Rough night?” John smirked, pushing himself off the car with a casual grace that somehow managed to be both fluid and irritating at once.
Isabelle’s muscles tensed involuntarily. She bit her lip hard, glancing over her shoulder toward the building entrance. No sign of Sam or Bucky—still inside with Raynor. The realization that she was alone with John sent a cold ripple down her spine, settling like a stone in her stomach.
She inhaled deliberately through her nose, feeling the cool night air fill her lungs. The dampness clung to her throat, carrying the scent of coming rain.
He helped us, she reminded herself. He didn’t have to. After Munich—after she’d dismissed him with barely concealed contempt, after Sam’s pointed comments, after Bucky had nearly put him through a wall—John could have left Bucky to rot in that cell. That counted for something.
Had to.
But the longer she looked at him, standing there in his too-perfect posture with that too-perfect smile, the more her skin crawled with unease.
“Thanks for coming,” she finally said, fingers twitching at her sides, itching to form fists. “I…appreciated it.”
“Thanks for calling,” he replied, his smile widening. He took a step closer, and Isabelle fought the urge to step back, refusing to give him the satisfaction. “Look, about Munich...” He paused, running a hand through his hair in a gesture that seemed rehearsed, like he’d practiced it in a mirror. “What I said in the jeep. I’m sorry, okay? It was uncalled for.”
Isabelle’s eyebrow arched skeptically. The apology rang hollow, practiced—like he was reading lines for a press conference. Behind him, Lemar’s watchful gaze told her everything she needed to know. This wasn’t remorse; this was damage control.
“I just...” John continued, shifting his weight forward slightly, “heat of the battle, the adrenaline still pumping.” He studied her face, searching for something. “You know the feeling, right?”
There it was—the barb hidden inside the apology. The subtle reminder that he knew exactly who she was, what she was. That he thought they were the same.
“I know what adrenaline feels like,” she said carefully, measuring each word like ammunition. “I also know it’s not an excuse for being an asshole.”
The air between them crackled with tension. John’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin.
Lemar cleared his throat. “We all say things we don’t mean sometimes.” His voice was calm, reasonable—the diplomat to John’s blunt instrument. “Especially in our line of work.”
John’s jaw tightened, but his smile never faltered. “Just clearing the air, Stark. Making sure we’re all on the same page.”
“Different books entirely,” Isabelle muttered, crossing her arms over her chest. The leather of her jacket creaked with the movement.
“Look, I’m trying to apologize here.” John’s voice hardened, frustration bleeding through the manufactured charm. “What do I have to do to prove to you—”
“Nothing. I don’t want you to prove anything to me.” Isabelle’s voice cut like glass. She felt her powers stirring under her skin, responding to the spike of adrenaline. She forced them down, breathing through the surge.
He gestured toward the police station with a casual flick of his wrist. “Look, we’re clearly better together. You need my help—tonight proved that.” His eyes narrowed, something calculating behind the practiced sincerity. “If we keep dividing ourselves, the Flag Smashers win.”
The mention of the Flag Smashers made Isabelle’s chest tighten. He wasn’t entirely wrong, and that realization burned worse than any insult. She opened her mouth to respond when the station door swung open behind her.
“Walker.” Bucky’s voice cut through the tension, low and dangerous. “What are you still doing here?”
Isabelle turned to see Bucky and Sam emerging from the station, both wearing identical expressions of barely contained discomfort. Sam’s jaw was set tight, the muscle twitching beneath his skin. Bucky’s eyes were cold, moving to her left side, as if positioning himself between her and a potential threat.
“That’s one hell of a way to thank the guy responsible for getting you out of prison, Barnes.” John’s smile didn’t falter, but something hardened in his eyes—a predator recognizing another predator. His posture shifted, squaring toward Bucky.
Sam moved between them with practiced ease, his shoulders rolling back as he positioned himself as the buffer. He exhaled slowly, the sound carrying his exhaustion. “Thanks for the assist back there,” Sam said, the words clipped but genuine. He extended his hand, and John took it with that too-perfect grip. “Seriously.”
Isabelle caught the slight nod Sam gave John—acknowledgment without warmth.
“But let’s skip the recruitment speech,” Sam continued, releasing John’s hand and stepping back. “Been a long night, man, and none of us are in the mood for another sales pitch about your team-up fantasy.”
John’s eyes narrowed, just for a fraction of a second—a flash of something ugly before the practiced charm slid back into place.
Isabelle felt Bucky shift closer to her left side. Her pulse quickened, not from fear but from something else entirely—the visceral awareness that Bucky Barnes had just positioned himself between her and a potential threat.
John and Lemar exchanged a glance—swift, practiced, professional. The kind of look that required no words. Isabelle caught it immediately—the slight narrowing of Lemar’s eyes, the nod. And just like that, John transformed. His shoulders squared, chin lifting a fraction of an inch. Not defeat, but cooperation.
“The leader’s name is Karli Morgenthau,” he said, voice dropping to a tactical register. His eyes locked onto Isabelle’s. “The one with the mean left hook.”
Isabelle’s ribs throbbed on cue, a phantom echo of impact. Her fingers moved unconsciously to her side, pressing against the tender spot beneath her jacket. The memory flashed vivid and unwelcome—her body sailing through air, the sickening crack as she hit concrete, the humiliation of being tossed aside like a child’s doll.
“What else do you know about Karli?” Sam asked, his voice cutting through her flash of remembered pain.
John shifted his weight, one hand resting on his hip. “They’re operating through an encrypted messaging app. Moving constantly. Never in one place more than a day or two. We’ve been tracking their movements, though.”
“And how exactly are you tracking them?” Bucky’s voice carried a razor’s edge of suspicion.
John’s mouth twitched but didn’t smile. “We’ve been targeting civilians who’ve been helping her. Following breadcrumbs.”
“Targeting civilians,” Isabelle repeated, the words tasting bitter. “What does that mean, exactly?”
“It means,” Lemar cut in smoothly, “we question people who provide shelter, transportation, supplies.”
“Question,” Bucky echoed. The single word landed like a brick. No inflection. No question mark. Just a flat accusation.
John’s eyes flashed bright, snapping his attention to Bucky. “You got a better method, Barnes? Or are you just here to criticize the people actually getting results?”
Isabelle slipped her phone from her jacket pocket, the movement fluid and subtle. Her thumb swiped across the glass, blue light washing over her face as FRIDAY’s interface activated. She typed rapidly, keeping the screen angled away from John:
Need everything on Karli Morgenthau. Background, associates, movements. Priority on encrypted app.
The response came instantly—data streaming across her screen. Passport photos, social media fragments, surveillance stills assembling like digital puzzle pieces. She caught John watching her movements, his eyes tracking her hands. Her skin prickled.
“These people believe in what Karli’s doing,” John continued, leaning forward, something fevered in his intensity. His voice dropped, taking on an almost evangelical quality. “They’re not just random helpers—they’re part of her network. Her army.”
“They’re civilians,” Sam corrected. His voice was tight, controlled, but Isabelle heard the steel underneath.
John’s jaw flexed, a muscle jumping beneath skin. “They stopped being civilians when they decided to aid and abet terrorists.”
“That’s not how this works.” Bucky stepped forward, the movement so sudden that Isabelle felt the air shift beside her. “You start going after civilians, you become exactly what you’re fighting against.”
Sam moved between them. Sweat beaded at his temples, catching the harsh yellow of the streetlight.
“Let’s focus on Karli,” he said, each word measured, strained with the effort of peacekeeping. The muscle in his jaw worked overtime. “What else do you actually know about her? Origins? Motivations? Anything that might help us understand what she’s after?”
John’s cocky smile faltered, cracking like thin ice. For just a heartbeat, frustration, genuine frustration, flashed across his face. Maybe even embarrassment. The mask slipped, revealing something raw underneath.
“Unfortunately,” he admitted, each word dragged through clenched teeth, “not much.”
Isabelle felt a flicker of satisfaction watching America’s newest hero struggle to maintain his composure. His jaw worked overtime, the muscle beneath his skin jumping with tension.
Lemar stepped forward, shoulder angling protectively toward John. “They geotag locations,” he offered, his voice steady where John’s had faltered. “Mostly displaced communities. Refugee centers. Public housing. The messages self-destruct after a few hours.” He gestured with his phone. “By the time our techs crack it—”
“They’re gone,” Sam finished.
Bucky scoffed, the sound sharp in the night air. “So you’re throwing your weight around, terrorizing civilians, and you’ve got nothing but a map of places they’ve already been.” He shook his head, disgust radiating from every line of his body.
Isabelle’s phone vibrated against her palm. She glanced down, the blue light illuminating her face as information cascaded across the screen—coordinates, communication patterns, and best of all, a decryption key. She couldn’t stop the small, satisfied smirk that tugged at her lips as FRIDAY’s message flashed:
ENCRYPTION PATTERN IDENTIFIED. FULL ACCESS ACHIEVED.
John’s eyes narrowed, tracking her expression. “Care to share with the class, Stark?” His voice carried an edge sharp enough to cut. It was how he said her name—like it was both an accusation and a commodity he wanted to own.
Sam shifted beside her, a subtle half-step that placed his shoulder partially between her and John. The movement wasn’t lost on her or John, whose eyes flickered briefly to Sam before returning to her face with renewed intensity.
“Actually,” Isabelle said, turning her phone to reveal a complex network of glowing nodes spread across Europe, “I’ve already cracked their app.”
The satisfaction that surged through her as John’s composure shattered was almost worth the headache of calling him for help. His jaw went slack, eyes widening before he caught himself, shoulders stiffening as he tried to recover.
“That’s impossible,” Lemar blurted with genuine surprise. “Our best people have been working on this for weeks.”
“Your best people aren’t my tech,” Isabelle replied, unable to keep the edge of smugness from her voice. The cold weight that had settled in her stomach earlier lightened slightly. Whatever else happened tonight, she’d just outplayed Captain America 2.0 at his own game.
John’s friendly facade dropped completely, his expression hardening into something ugly. “That system contains classified intelligence. You don’t have clearance to—”
“To what? Do your job for you?” Bucky cut in, his voice carrying a dangerous edge that made even John and Lemar straighten. “Seems like someone should.”
Isabelle felt rather than saw Bucky’s eyes on her, a brief glance of approval that sent an unexpected flutter through her chest. She focused on John, watching as his carefully constructed image of control crumbled further.
John’s hand twitched toward his shield—just a fraction of movement, barely perceptible—but enough for Isabelle to notice.
Sam leaned in, his exhaustion momentarily forgotten as he studied the network. “They’re not just randomly moving,” he said, finger tracing a pattern across the display. “Look—these aren’t hideouts. They’re distribution points.”
Isabelle zoomed in on a pulsing red node. “See these clusters? FRIDAY identified specific communication patterns consistent with Flag Smasher operations.” She tapped the screen, highlighting a specific point that glowed brighter than the others. “This one’s bouncing through multiple VPNs.”
“Can we track where they’re heading next?” Sam asked, voice low and hopeful, meeting her eye.
She nodded, swiping across the screen. The map transformed, digital veins spreading outward from the nodes, creating a web of potential movements. Each pathway glowed with varying intensity—probabilities made visible.
“FRIDAY’s already on it. She’s running predictive models based on their movement patterns, communication frequency, supply needs—everything. Give her a few hours to process, and we won’t just be one step ahead— we’ll be five.”
John edged closer, boot scraping against wet pavement, moving to invade her space. “And you’ll be sharing what you find with us, right?” His voice dropped an octave, transforming the question into something more demanding—a command.
An order.
Isabelle didn’t step back. Didn’t flinch this time. “Are you going to ask me nicely?”
“I just did you a favor,” John stepped close enough that the toes of his boots nearly touched hers. “This?” He tapped the star emblem on his chest with his index finger. “This means I can make your life very difficult. Next time, I might decide you’re all threats to national security. Especially you, Stark.” His eyes flicked to her phone, then back to her face. “Hacking government systems? That’s terrorism these days. And we both know what happens to people labeled terrorists.”
The threat slithered between them like something alive. Isabelle felt her heartbeat accelerate; she took a half-step forward, the wet pavement slick beneath her boot.
“That sounds suspiciously like a threat, Captain,” she said, the title dripping with contempt. “And here I thought the shield was supposed to protect people, not intimidate them.”
John’s nostrils flared. “It’s not a threat. It’s reality. The world’s changed. Maybe it’s time you—”
Before he could finish, Bucky moved fast, inserting himself between them. His shoulder connected with Isabelle’s, pushing her back with enough force that she stumbled, her boot heel catching on the uneven pavement. Bucky’s back was to her now, the broad expanse of his shoulders forming a barrier between her and John.
“Things are really intense for you, aren’t they, Walker?” Bucky’s voice carried an unnatural calm that raised the hair on the back of Isabelle’s neck.
His head tilted slightly to one side, the gesture almost curious. His lips curved into something too sharp to be called a smile.
John’s attention shifted to Bucky, his expression bordering on murderous. His hand drifted toward his holster, fingers twitching, a movement so subtle most would miss it—but Bucky didn’t. Neither did Isabelle. Isabelle watched Bucky’s posture shift in response—the subtle weight transfer to the balls of his feet.
“Whoa, whoa.” Sam slid between them, not touching either man, but inserting himself into their line of sight. “We’re not doing this. Not here.”
Bucky’s breathing had changed—the subtle shift only Isabelle could detect from her position behind him. Three quick inhales, one controlled exhale.
“Bucky.” Sam’s voice dropped lower, a private frequency meant only for his friend. “You with me?”
Bucky didn’t answer. Didn’t move. The muscles in his back remained coiled tight beneath his jacket, a predator ready to strike.
Lemar moved next, stepping to John’s side rather than in front of him. His hand found John’s shoulder, fingers digging into the fabric of his uniform.
“John,” Lemar murmured, the word barely audible but charged with warning. “This isn’t the hill to die on, man.” His grip tightened.
John’s eyes never left Bucky’s. The vein at his temple throbbed visibly, a blue line pulsing beneath skin flushed red with anger. His jaw worked furiously, grinding teeth audible in the tense silence. The shield on his back caught the crimson flash of a distant traffic light, painting half his face in blood-red for a heartbeat before fading back to shadow.
One second stretched into five. Ten.
John broke first.
He stepped back—a single, deliberate movement—rolling his shoulders as if shrugging off an invisible weight. The tension didn’t leave his body; it merely redistributed, settling into the rigid line of his spine, the controlled flexing of his fingers, the artificial looseness of his stance.
Bucky didn’t relax. Not even a fraction. His body remained coiled tight, a weapon primed to fire at the slightest provocation. Isabelle tracked the minute shifts in his posture—the slight forward tilt of his shoulders, the weight transfer to the balls of his feet, the way his metal arm hung just a little too loose at his side. Ready.
She’d seen that stance before. Right before blood hit the floor.
Her hand moved without conscious thought, fingertips finding the small of his back where his jacket had ridden up. Her fingertips grazed the ridge of his spine, the lightest touch a silent: I’m here. We’re okay.
The touch lasted less than a heartbeat, but she felt him register it—a microscopic release in the bunched muscles beneath her fingers, the fractional softening in his stance that no one else would notice. His exhale was controlled, deliberate.
Not standing down. Just recalibrating.
“Thing is,” Sam continued, hands spreading wide in a gesture that looked casual but was anything but, “you guys have to play by the rules. Clearances, authorizations, paperwork.” He gestured between John and Lemar with one hand, then swept his thumb toward himself, Bucky, and Isabelle. “We don’t. We’re free agents.”
The corner of Bucky’s mouth twitched upward, so slight that Isabelle almost missed it. A dangerous gleam flickered in his eyes as he caught Sam’s strategy. Isabelle pressed her lips together, swallowing the acid satisfaction rising in her throat. John’s face was darkening by the second, the muscles in his jaw working overtime.
“So maybe,” Sam finished, voice dropping into that reasonable tone that somehow managed to sound both conciliatory and like a challenge, “it makes more sense if we handle this our way, and you handle it yours.”
Sam’s hand found Isabelle’s shoulder, his touch light but firm as he guided her away. Different from Bucky’s coiled tension, but no less protective. She felt Bucky fall into step beside her, close enough that their arms nearly brushed. His footsteps were unnervingly silent despite his size, a predator’s tread on wet pavement.
They had barely made it three steps when John’s voice called to them through the darkness: “You really think that’s smart? Dividing our resources when people’s lives are at stake?”
Isabelle’s shoulders tensed, her fingers curling reflexively. The three of them half-turned, catching his silhouette in the harsh glare of the streetlight—all perfect posture and righteous indignation.
“What I think,” Sam for them, his voice firm but weary, “is that we’ve all had a long night, and nobody’s making good decisions at 4 am in a parking lot.” He gestured upward toward the lightning sky, where stars were beginning to fade into the approaching dawn. “We’ll be in touch when we have something concrete.”
John’s jaw worked as he processed the dismissal. Isabelle watched the calculation play across his features—the subtle narrowing of his eyes, the twitch at the corner of his mouth. His need for control battled visibly against the practical reality that he needed them more than they needed him.
“Fine.” John spat, taking a half-step forward. He jabbed a finger toward them, the gesture stopping just short of threatening. “But a word of advice then.” His eyes locked onto Isabelle’s, something dark and unreadable flickering behind them. “Stay the hell out of my way because next time. I won’t always be in such a charitable mood.”
The threat hung in the air between them, naked and raw. Not a suggestion. Not posturing. A promise. And then, John turned away, pivoting on his heel, done with the conversation. Done with them.
“Hey, Walker.” Bucky’s voice cut through the night, deceptively casual, almost conversational.
John stopped, his shoulder tensing before looking back.
Bucky’s head tilted slightly, eyes narrowing with the focused intensity of a sniper zeroing in on a target.
“That shield,” he said, nodding toward the vibranium on John’s back. His voice dropped lower, intimate almost, like he was sharing a secret meant only for the two of them. “It’s heavier than it looks, isn’t it?”
The mask of Captain America cracked for a heartbeat. Something vulnerable flickered in his eyes. His throat worked as he swallowed, the movement visible even from where they stood. His Adam’s apple bobbed once, twice.
For that single, suspended moment, John Walker looked terrifyingly human.
Then the mask slammed back into place. His jaw tightened, lips pressing into a hard line. He managed a curt nod before turning away again, his movements stiffer than before, as if the shield had actually gained weight in the last thirty seconds.
Lemar lingered, his dark eyes meeting Isabelle’s across the space between them. Something passed across his features—a silent apology. Then he too turned, following John’s retreating form.
“Subtle,” Sam muttered to Bucky.
“Wasn’t trying to be,” Bucky replied, his voice a low rumble. His eyes remained fixed on the corner where John and Lemar had disappeared, his body still poised as if expecting them to return.
Isabelle pressed her fingertips against her temples, applying firm circular pressure that momentarily dulled the throbbing pain behind her eyes.
She looked at Bucky, her expression tightening with a frown that deepened the shadows under her eyes. Her gaze searched his face, lingering on the faint crease between his brows, the way his jaw seemed perpetually clenched as if he were bracing for a fight that hadn’t yet arrived.
“Thanks,” she said softly, the word scraping against her dry throat. “For stepping in back there.”
Bucky’s head snapped toward her, surprise flickering across his features. His eyebrows pulled together, creating a deep furrow between them. For a moment, he looked almost confused by her gratitude, as if he couldn’t quite process why she would thank him for something so instinctual.
He gave a short, jerky nod—the movement mechanical, unpracticed. Like someone who’d forgotten the appropriate response to thanks and was making his best guess from memory.
“He had no right to threaten you like that,” he finally said, voice pitched low enough that only she could hear.
She opened her mouth, then closed it again, words dying on her tongue. The memory of what had happened inside the station with Raynor pressed against her consciousness, sharp-edged and insistent. The way she’d broken down. The tears she couldn’t control.
And Bucky had seen it all. Had watched her crumble. Had been the reason she did.
Heat crawled up her neck, settling in her cheeks. She looked away, focusing on a distant streetlight until it blurred into a hazy smear of yellow.
“Inside,” she started, “with Raynor—”
“Don’t.” Bucky cut her off, the single syllable gentle but firm. When she risked looking back at him, his eyes had softened, the steel-blue warming to something less severe. “You don’t owe me an explanation.”
A knot she hadn’t realized was there loosened.
“We should move,” Sam interrupted, his voice dragging them both back to the present. He stood a few feet away, shoulders hunched with exhaustion, eyes bloodshot in the harsh light. “Find somewhere to regroup, figure out our next move.” He started walking, footsteps heavy on the wet pavement. “How long before FRIDAY has something concrete?”
Isabelle nodded and pulled out her phone again. Lines of code scrolled past, FRIDAY’s algorithms working at speeds that would make government systems look like dial-up internet.
“A few hours, maybe less, maybe more,” she said, tucking the device away. Her fingers trembled slightly—from adrenaline or exhaustion, she couldn’t tell anymore. “She’s running multiple decryption protocols simultaneously, but even FRIDAY needs time to sift through this much data. And if the Flag Smashers don’t set a ping…well, there’s nothing traceable.”
“So we might actually have time to catch our breath,” Sam said, rolling his shoulders with a wince that made Isabelle notice the stiffness in her own body.
Her ribs ached where Karli had hit her, a dull throb that pulsed with each heartbeat.
Sam’s hand moved to massage the back of his neck, fingers pressing into knotted muscle. “Maybe even grab something that isn’t prison coffee and whatever the hell those donuts were made of. Pretty sure I chipped a tooth.”
“Sleep would be nice,” Isabelle added, the word itself making her eyelids feel heavier. “My place isn’t far. Four blocks that way.” She gestured vaguely northward, her arm heavy as lead. “FRIDAY can keep working while we crash.”
Bucky made a sound—half grunt, half snort—that vibrated in the back of his throat. His eyes had gone distant, that thousand-yard stare that made him look both present and somewhere else entirely.
“What?” Isabelle asked, too exhausted for anything but bluntness. The word came out sharper than she intended, brittle with fatigue. “Don’t like sleepovers?”
“Not exactly at the top of my social calendar these days,” he said, voice rough.
“I don’t care where I sleep,” Sam interrupted, scrubbing a hand over his face. “As long as you got food.” He shot her a sideways glance, eyebrows raised. “Real food,” he emphasized, pointing a finger at her.
“Depends on your definition of real food,” she replied, lips quirking up into a smirk.
They fell into step together, footsteps marking a tired rhythm against the damp pavement.
“I’ve got a shit ton of Lunchables,” she continued, counting off on her fingers, “some questionable Chinese takeout from...” She paused, mentally rewinding through the blur of days. When had she last eaten a proper meal? “Tuesday? Maybe Monday.” She shrugged. “And probably half a jar of peanut butter. Oh, and I just stocked up on ramen.”
Sam stopped dead in his tracks. His head swiveled toward her, expression shifting from exhaustion to utter disbelief.
“Lunchables?” His voice cracked on the word. He stared at her like she’d just announced she collected human teeth. “Stark Industries is worth what, billions? And you’re eating processed cheese circles designed for elementary schoolers?”
“Hey,” Isabelle protested, jabbing a finger in his direction as he fell back into step beside her. “Those little pizza ones are elite drinking food. Don’t judge my culinary choices, Wilson.”
“Oh, I’m judging,” Sam said. He shook his head, the movement exaggerated enough to make his point. “I’m judging hard. All that money and you’re eating—”
“At least it’s not K-rations,” Bucky muttered, walking precisely three steps behind them.
Isabelle glanced back over her shoulder.
“See?” Isabelle gestured back at him with a triumphant flick of her wrist. “He gets it. The man might be a century old, but he understands the simple joy of a processed cheese product.”
“I understand desperation,” Bucky corrected, but there was something almost warm in his tone. “And low standards.”
Sam snorted. “Man’s got you there, Iz.”
“Whatever,” Isabelle said, rolling her eyes. She shoved her hands deeper into her jacket pockets, fingers curling against the lining worn smooth from habit. “My apartment, my rules, my questionable food choices.”
The trio fell into step together, their shadows stretching and merging on the wet pavement. For just a moment, Isabelle could almost pretend they were just three friends heading home after a night out, not three broken people chasing ghosts and trying to save the world.
Almost.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Bent but Not Broken" by Face to Face
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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There’s ramen on the stove, a bra under the couch, and a former assassin quietly taking out the recycling like it’s a mission objective. Tension simmers in cramped kitchens and unfinished confessions, while the cracks in Isabelle’s armor start to show—and Bucky notices every one. Sam cooks, Bucky cleans, and Izzy… might be catching feelings or losing her mind. (Or both.)Also, did someone say Zemo?
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 17: Everything in Its Place
Chapter 17: Everything in Its Place
Summary:
The apartment wasn’t supposed to be a battlefield.
But when Isabelle opens the door to Sam and Bucky, it’s not just clutter and ramen cups they’re stepping over—it’s grief, shame, and all the things she’s been pretending don’t hurt.Sam cooks. Bucky cleans. Isabelle unravels—quietly, beneath sarcasm and half-smiles.
Then Bucky says it. Zemo.And suddenly, she’s back on the floor. Bleeding.
Remembering exactly what it feels like to die.
Notes:
Hey everyone!!!
I am absolutely running on fumes from work right now, but it’s Wednesday, and I’m clinging to this update schedule with everything I got.
AND WE DID IT—ACT I IS DONE!!!!
AHHHHH I’m so excited to finally head into the Madripoor arc!!! Things are about to ramp up in every way—more tension, more chaos, the slow burn starts heating up (👀), Zemo makes his grand entrance, and we’ll finally start peeling back more layers of Isabelle’s past. I’ve got so much planned and I seriously can’t wait to share it all with you.Thank you for reading, screaming, and talking with me!! 💚💚💚
Drop your favorite moments from Act I in the comments—or tell me what you’re hoping to see (or not see 👀) in the next arc. I wanna talk shop.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The doors slid open with a cheerful ding that felt wildly inappropriate for the hour. Relief flooded Isabelle’s system for exactly half a second before a fresh wave of dread crashed in. She stepped into the hallway, the corridor stretching before her like a runway to disaster. The gray carpet muffled their footsteps as she led Sam and Bucky toward 1507.
Were there dirty dishes in the sink? Definitely. That black sports bra hanging off the kitchen chair from—god, was it three days ago now? And the stack of ramen cups she’d been too lazy to throw away had evolved into some tragic art installation beside her couch. Why had she suggested her place?
She reached her door, key fumbling out of her back pocket with clumsy fingers. Behind her, she felt Sam and Bucky waiting.
“Just so we’re clear,” she said, voice tight as she twisted the key, “I wasn’t exactly expecting company.” She swallowed hard. “Like, ever.”
“You think we care about housekeeping?” Sam asked, his amusement barely contained.
Isabelle’s cheeks burned hotter. She stared at the doorknob, unable to meet his eyes. Oh, he had no idea—
The lock finally surrendered, and the door swung open with a betraying creak that seemed to announce all her shame at once. She froze in the doorway, hand still gripping the knob. The apartment sprawled before them, bathed in the orange-white glow of city lights filtering through half-drawn blinds.
An open pizza box gaped on the coffee table. Beer bottles stood in formation across her TV stand. A single sock dangled from her reading lamp—a sad surrender flag.
Sam stepped inside, his boots making soft thuds against the hardwood. He released a low whistle that sliced through her mortification like a knife. “…Well, damn.”
“I was robbed,” Isabelle said flatly. She stepped inside, forcing herself not to look at Bucky as he followed. “By…by a raccoon…you know that one, from space—very opinionated raccoon with a beer problem.”
She flicked on the lights. It was worse in full illumination—the stack of unopened mail on the kitchen counter, the collection of mugs with varying levels of abandoned coffee, the throw blanket bunched on the floor where she’d kicked it off during a nightmare. She dropped her keys onto the kitchen counter.
“Did the raccoon also throw a kegger and forget to clean up?” Sam asked, nudging an empty ramen cup with his foot. The cup tipped over, revealing a sticky residue beneath it.
“He’s a very social raccoon.” Isabelle lunged for the dangling sock, yanking it from the lampshade. “Had a whole gang. Terrible manners.” She stuffed the sock into her pocket, where it created an awkward bulge against her hip.
The pizza box lay open like evidence at a crime scene. Three steps and she was there, folding it closed with a cardboard crunch that seemed to amplify in the quiet apartment. Grease stained her fingertips. She wiped them against her jeans.
Isabelle’s heart nearly stopped as she then spotted a black lace bra peeking out from beneath the couch. Oh god. She casually shifted her weight, angling her body to block their view, then kicked backward. The soft scrape of lace against wood made her wince.
Bucky’s eyes tracked the movement. Of course they did. His gaze flicked from the couch to her face, one eyebrow rising a fraction of an inch. But he said nothing. Instead, he moved past her silently, eyes sweeping the apartment. His gaze lingered on each window, then his attention settled briefly on the cardboard boxes stacked on the floor. Some were still sealed, others half-emptied and broken down. His eyes returned to the windows again.
“I’ve seen worse,” he said quietly.
For some reason, that simple acknowledgment tightened her chest in a way Sam’s teasing hadn’t.
She stood frozen between them, suddenly hyperaware of everything they were seeing. “Bathroom’s down the hall,” she said abruptly, desperate to regain some control over the situation. Her voice came out sharper than intended. “Kitchen’s obviously there. Help yourselves to whatever—”
The words died in her throat as Bucky reached for an empty beer bottle on the TV stand. Then another. And another. The glass clinked softly as he gathered them in his metal hand, the vibranium fingers curling carefully around the necks of the bottles.
“You really don’t have to—” Isabelle started, but he continued, methodically collecting bottles, his movements economical, practiced.
Bucky ignored her, continuing his silent collection. His face remained unreadable, eyes focused on the task as if it required his complete attention. “Where’s the recycling?” he asked, carrying the bottle to her kitchen.
“Under the sink,” she mumbled, watching as he crouched down to open the cabinet. His broad shoulders filled the narrow kitchen space, the dark jean jacket stretching across his back as he bent forward. The movement exposed a sliver of skin at his lower back, pale against the dark fabric.
Isabelle forced her eyes away, suddenly aware she’d been staring.
Sam opened the nearest cabinet, and his suspicions were confirmed when he found nothing but a stack of identical ramen packages lined up like depressing little soldiers. He pulled three from the front, the packages crackling under his fingers. The cabinet’s interior was coated with a thin film of dust, undisturbed except for the cleared path to the ramen.
“You weren’t kidding about the ramen,” he called over his shoulder.
“I never kid about processed carbs,” Isabelle replied, her voice tight.
Sam moved to the refrigerator next, tugging the door open. The light flickered, illuminating a wasteland. Two beers. A half-empty bottle of ketchup. Something in a takeout container that had probably been there since she moved in. The vegetable drawer held exactly one withered apple. He glanced at the stack of Lunchables—the kind with the little ham circles and processed cheese squares—and something in his chest tightened further.
He recognized the signs immediately—had seen them too many times in group sessions at the VA. This wasn’t just everyday messiness. This was depression in physical form, manifested in empty cabinets and forgotten food. The Isabelle he’d known at the compound had been meticulous, almost obsessively so—everything in its place, labeled and organized.
This was something else entirely.
Sam closed the fridge, his chest tightening. He glanced back at Isabelle, who was now frantically shoving a stack of mail into a drawer, her shoulders hunched defensively. Behind her, Bucky continued gathering bottles with that quiet efficiency of his, face unreadable.
“You got a pot somewhere in this place?” Sam asked, keeping his voice deliberately light.
Isabelle pointed to a cabinet beside the sink. “Bottom shelf. Probably.”
He crouched down, finding a single small pot buried beneath what looked like three years’ worth of plastic grocery bags. The pot was clean, probably because it had never been used.
“I’m gonna cook,” he said, straightening up. “You two chill out for a bit.”
“You don’t have to—” Isabelle started.
“I know I don’t have to,” Sam cut her off, filling the pot with water from a tap that ran for nearly thirty seconds before running clear. “But we’re all hungry, and this is what we’ve got.” He set the pot on the stove, turning the burner to high. The click-click-click of the ignition filled the kitchen before blue flames erupted beneath the pot.
As Sam waited for the noodles to cook, Bucky gathered the broken-down cardboard boxes. Isabelle watched his hands, how he gripped the cardboard with his left hand without crushing it, and how his right hand smoothed down the edges. Each box was stacked exactly parallel to the wall, carefully.
“Seriously, stop cleaning,” Isabelle said, her voice tight. “It’s weird.”
Bucky paused, a flattened box held between his hands. His eyes met hers without flinching. “Would you rather I just stood here?” The question wasn’t challenging, just matter-of-fact, his voice low enough that Sam couldn’t hear over the bubbling water.
Isabelle opened her mouth, then closed it again. The truth was, she didn’t know what she wanted. Having them here—having anyone here—felt like an invasion, like someone had peeled back her skin and was examining all the broken parts underneath.
She moved toward the last box, needing to do something with her hands. Bucky reached for it at the same moment, and their fingers collided over the cardboard edge. She instantly yanked her hand back.
“Sorry,” she muttered, rubbing her fingers against her palm where the ghost of his touch lingered. Bucky picked up the box, adding it to his neat stack. “Thanks for not judging,” she said after a moment. She gestured vaguely at the apartment. “All of this.”
Bucky straightened, turning to face her, with a slight release of tension in his jaw. “I get it.”
Three simple words, but they landed with unexpected weight in Isabelle’s chest. She swallowed, suddenly finding it hard to maintain eye contact.
“After I got back...” Bucky continued, his voice dropping even lower, a confession meant only for her. “After everything with HYDRA, the Blip, my place...” He paused, his flesh hand flexing at his side. “It didn’t look much better.”
The admission hung between them, fragile and unexpected. Isabelle could picture it—empty rooms, unmade beds, dishes piling up while nightmares kept him awake. The Winter Soldier, surrounded by domestic debris, he couldn’t bring himself to care about.
“Worse, actually,” he added, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. Not quite a smile, but close. “At least you have furniture.”
“Do you sleep on the floor?” The question slipped out before she could stop it.
Bucky’s eyes met hers, something unreadable flickering across his face. “Sometimes,” he admitted. “The bed is too soft.”
“I slept in the bathtub last week,” she whispered, the words escaping like air from a punctured tire. “With the shower curtain closed. Felt...safer, somehow.”
Bucky nodded once, a single downward tilt of his chin.
“Water’s boiling!” Sam called from the kitchen, the cheerful announcement shattering the moment between them. “Hope everyone likes their ramen extra salty, because that’s the only flavor we’ve got.”
Bucky’s eyes lingered on hers for one beat longer before he turned toward the kitchen. Isabelle remained frozen in place, suddenly aware of the rapid flutter of her pulse at the base of her throat. She pressed her fingertips against it, feeling the rhythm beneath her skin.
What the hell was that?
Sam tore open the seasoning packets with a flick of his thumb, the foil crinkling between his fingers. He dumped the powder into the bubbling water, where it dissolved into cloudy swirls of artificial gold. “Tomorrow we’re getting real food in here,” he announced, stirring the pot.
“Tomorrow we’re tracking down the Flag Smashers,” she corrected, sliding onto one of the barstools. Her elbows hit the cold countertop with a dull thud. “Remember? The actual reason you two broke into my apartment?”
Bucky’s head snapped up, his eyes locking onto hers. “We didn’t break in. You brought us here.”
“Semantics,” Isabelle muttered, tracing an invisible pattern on the counter with her index finger.
“And we can do both,” Sam added, twisting the burner knob to the off position. The blue flame died with a soft pop. “Track bad guys, buy groceries. I’m great at multitasking.”
He reached overhead, cabinet door creaking as he pulled out three mismatched bowls. One had a chip along the rim that caught the light, another bore a hairline crack that spider-webbed down the ceramic side. The third—her favorite, though she’d never admit it—was a faded Stark Industries mug from some forgotten company retreat.
The ladle scraped against the pot’s bottom as Sam divided the steaming noodles. Thin wisps of vapor rose between them, carrying the artificial scent of chicken that had never seen a farm.
“Here,” he said, setting the bowls on the counter with a gentle clack. “Dinner. Or breakfast. Whatever meal this is supposed to be at—” he glanced at the microwave clock “—five-twenty-seven in the morning.”
Isabelle approached cautiously, as if the ramen might rear up and bite her. Her fingers closed around the bowl with the chipped rim.
“Thanks,” she said quietly. The ceramic burned against her palms, but she didn’t flinch. The heat felt alive against her perpetually cold hands.
“You got any clean forks?” Sam asked, his voice deliberately casual.
“Drawer by the fridge,” she replied, nodding toward it.
Before Sam could move, Bucky was already there, sliding the drawer open with his right hand. Metal clinked against metal as he extracted three forks. He handed one to Sam with a wordless nod, then turned toward Isabelle.
Two steps, and he was standing before her, fork extended handle-first. She gave him a soft smile as she reached for it. Their fingers didn’t touch this time, but something was still there during the exchange that felt suddenly charged.
Sam’s eyebrow arched as he watched the exchange, his mouth quirking at one corner.
“What?” Isabelle demanded, jabbing her fork into the noodles. The tines scraped against the ceramic with a sound that made her teeth ache.
“Nothing,” Sam said, but his eyes flicked between them, assessing. “Just wondering when you two got so comfortable with each other.”
“We’re not—” Isabelle started.
“Just being polite,” Bucky said simultaneously, his voice clipped.
Sam’s smirk deepened as he twisted a tangle of noodles around his fork. “Sure. Polite.” He blew on the steaming food before taking a bite.
Bucky shot him a dark look but said nothing, leaning his hip against the counter as he ate.
Sam scrubbed the pot with more vigor than instant ramen residue required, his forearms flexing beneath rolled-up sleeves. He shooed Isabelle away with a pointed look when she tried to help.
“If I have to hear you say ‘you don’t have to do that’ one more time—” he’d warned, wielding the sponge like a weapon.
She’d retreated to the living room, muttering something about setting up the couch. “You two can flip a coin for it,” she called over her shoulder. “I’m not playing favorites.”
Bucky didn’t join either of them. He leaned against the refrigerator instead, arms crossed over his chest. His eyes fixed on a crooked magnet that read JARVIS IS MY CO-PILOT. The magnet’s tilt seemed to personally offend him.
Karli. The Flag Smashers.
The names circled in his mind like vultures. His jaw tightened as unwanted connections formed, puzzle pieces slotting together no matter how hard he tried to scatter them. Super soldiers. The serum. HYDRA. Power structures that never truly died, just went underground to emerge in new forms. Each thought connected to the next, forming a path he didn’t want to follow but couldn’t ignore.
More super soldiers.
His fingers flexed against his bicep. Sam glanced over his shoulder, eyebrow raised, but said nothing.
Bucky’s gaze drifted to the living room, where Isabelle was aggressively fluffing a pillow. Her movements were sharp, controlled, but he recognized the undercurrent of anxiety beneath them.
The serum had taken everything from him. Seventy years. His identity. His freedom. His humanity. And when he’d finally clawed it all back, piece by bloody piece, Thanos had snapped half the universe away and five more years gone in what felt like seconds.
And Isabelle—the serum had stolen her childhood. Turned her into a weapon. Left her with powers that could kill with a touch, living in an apartment that screamed of isolation. All because someone decided playing god was worth the collateral damage.
His gaze hardened as he watched her struggle with a fitted sheet, muttering curses under her breath. The sheet snapped back, hitting her in the face. She didn’t laugh. Just reset her jaw and tried again.
They could stop the Flag Smashers. Track them down, bring them in. But without finding the source—whoever was manufacturing the serum—there’d just be more super soldiers down the line. Another Winter Soldier program. Another Project Belladonna. An endless cycle of people trying to replicate what Erskine had created, never understanding that the miracle wasn’t in the formula.
It was in the person.
“You’re thinking too loud,” Sam said, drying his hands on a dish towel. “I can hear the gears grinding from here.”
Bucky didn’t respond. His jaw clenched, muscles tightening beneath three-day stubble. The refrigerator hummed against his back, vibrating through his spine. He kept his eyes fixed on that crooked magnet.
Sam snapped the dish towel, the crack pulling Bucky’s attention back to the kitchen. “Earth to Barnes.”
“I’m here,” Bucky muttered, the words scraping his throat.
“You sure about that? Because your face says you’re back in 1943.”
“We need to talk to Zemo,” Bucky said, the name-dropping between them like a live grenade.
Sam froze, water dripping from his fingertips onto the floor. “Tell me that’s not what you’ve been brewing over there.”
“He understands the serum better than anyone.”
“He’s a killer.”
“So am I.” The words came out flatter than Bucky intended. Not a confession, just a fact.
Sam’s shoulders tensed. “That’s different and you know it.”
“Is it?” Bucky pushed off the refrigerator, closing the distance between them in two steps. He kept his voice low, aware of Isabelle just one room away. “We keep chasing the Flag Smashers, but they’re just symptoms. Zemo might know where to find the disease.”
“The disease,” Sam repeated, his voice equally quiet but sharp as a blade. “You mean whoever’s making the serum?”
Bucky nodded once, a sharp downward jerk of his chin. “Someone’s manufacturing it again. Someone who shouldn’t have access to that kind of power. Zemo knows all of Hydra’s secrets.”
“And you think Zemo—the man who bombed the UN, killed King T’Chaka, and tore the Avengers apart—is going to help us out of the goodness of his heart?”
“No.” Bucky’s metal fingers flexed at his side, plates recalibrating with a soft whir. “I think he’ll help because he hates super soldiers more than anything. It’s the one thing we can count on.”
Sam’s eyes narrowed, the kitchen light casting shadows across his face as he leaned forward. “You realize you’re a super soldier.” He nodded toward the living room. “And so is she.”
“I’m aware.” Bucky’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the stubble.
“And have you thought about how you’re going to explain this to her?” Sam jerked his head again, back to Isabelle, who had finally conquered the fitted sheet. “The man shot her, Bucky. Left her dead on concrete.”
“I know what he did. I was there.” Bucky said, each word precise and controlled. “But we need him.”
“There are other options.” Sam countered.
“Like what? Waiting for more super soldiers to pop up? For someone else to get hurt?” Bucky leaned in, lowering his voice further. “You saw what the serum did to me. To her. You want that happening to more people?”
The words hung between them, heavy with implication. Sam’s expression shifted, the calculation in his eyes giving way to something harder to read.
“Hey,” Isabelle called from the doorway, making both men snap to attention. “If you two are done with your kitchen conspiracy, the couch is ready.” She leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed over her chest, dark circles under her eyes more pronounced in the harsh kitchen light. “Though I can’t promise it’s comfortable.”
Bucky turned, meeting her gaze directly. Something twisted in his chest—guilt, protectiveness, he couldn’t name it. How much had she heard?
“What?” Isabelle pushed off from the doorframe, her sock-clad feet silent against the kitchen tile. “You two look like you’re plotting a prison break.” Sam and Bucky exchanged a glance—quick, loaded, the kind of look that confirmed her suspicions instantly. “Oh my god, you are.” Her voice dropped to a dangerous whisper.
The kitchen suddenly felt too small, the three of them crowded between countertops and cabinets, the refrigerator’s hum filling the silence. Bucky’s throat closed up. The words congealed in his mouth like cement.
Sam exhaled slowly, shoulders dropping an inch. “Not a prison break,” he said, carefully setting the dish towel on the counter. “But Bucky thinks we should talk to Zemo.”
Isabelle went completely still—a bone-deep paralysis of prey caught in a predator’s gaze. Bucky watched the transformation ripple across her face: confusion flickering to disbelief, then horror blooming in real-time.
“Zemo,” she clarified, as if there could be any other. Her voice cracked at the surname. “Helmut Zemo—” she stopped, her right hand unconsciously rising to her sternum, fingertips pressing against the spot where she’d been shot.
Bucky felt it before he saw it—the subtle shift in air pressure, the microscopic prickling sensation behind his eyeballs that raised the hairs on his arms.
“Breathe,” he said quietly, taking a careful step toward her, palm out, non-threatening. The same way he’d approach a cornered animal or a pressure-triggered explosive.
“Don’t tell me to breathe,” Isabelle snapped, recoiling. She backed away until her shoulder blades hit the wall with a dull thud. The impact seemed to knock something loose inside her, words spilling out with increasing velocity. “He shot me to prove a point. To break my father.” Each syllable emerged sharper than the last, her voice climbing half an octave.
“Someone’s manufacturing the serum again. Creating more super soldiers.” Bucky’s eyes locked on hers, unwavering. “And Zemo knows things about HYDRA’s operations that nobody else does.”
“You don’t get it,” she hissed, the words clawing their way out of her throat. “For nearly ten minutes, I was dead. Clinically. Dead. Gone.” The phantom pain flared beneath her palm—hot, sharp, impossible. “I still feel it. Every day. I can feel it burning through me again.”
The memory crashed over her—concrete against her back, the wet gurgle of blood in her lungs, her father’s face contorting as he screamed her name.
“You don’t have to be there,” Sam interjected, shooting Bucky a warning look that could’ve peeled paint. “We can handle Zemo.”
“No.” The word shot from Isabelle’s mouth like a bullet. “Absolutely not.”
She pushed off the wall, taking a deliberate step toward Bucky. His shoulders squared, spine straightening—not from fear, she knew. The Winter Soldier wasn’t afraid of her. But something in her face must have registered as a threat because his eyes tracked her movements.
“If you do this—” she started, then stopped, recalibrating. “When you do this, because I know you will, I’m coming with you.”
“That’s not—” Bucky began.
“It’s not negotiable.” She cut him off, voice dropping to a dangerous whisper. “You want Zemo’s help? Fine. But I’ll be there to make sure he doesn’t turn you two against each other. To make sure he doesn’t finish what he started.”
“Isabelle—” Sam started, but she cut him off with a sharp slice of her hand through the air.
“Don’t.” She snatched up a quarter from the counter, slapping it back down on the counter in front of them. Both men flinched. “Figure out who gets the couch between yourselves.” Her voice was steady now, deliberately controlled. Too controlled. “I’m going to bed.”
She turned, not waiting for a response.
Her sock-clad feet made no sound as she disappeared down the hallway. The soft click of her bedroom door closing felt louder than if she’d slammed it.
“That went well,” Sam muttered, leaning back against the sink.
Bucky glared down at the coin, then reached for it, picking it up between thumb and forefinger. “Heads or tails?” His voice was rough.
“You serious right now?” Sam’s eyebrows shot up. “That’s what you’re taking from this conversation? A woman just had a panic attack over the man who murdered her, and you’re flipping coins?”
Bucky didn’t answer. Just launched the quarter into the air with a metallic ping. It spun—a silver blur catching the light in flashes—before he snatched it mid-rotation and slapped it onto the back of his flesh hand.
“Heads,” Sam said, the resignation in his voice making it clear he was humoring Bucky rather than engaging.
Bucky lifted his hand. Washington stared up at them, unimpressed. “Guess you get the couch,” Bucky said, pocketing the coin.
“Lucky me.” Sam’s voice dripped sarcasm thick enough to drown in.
Bucky didn’t meet Sam’s eyes. Without waiting for a response, he moved to the living room and lowered himself against the wall adjacent to the couch. Knees up, back straight, eyes fixed on both the front door and the hallway leading to Isabelle’s room.
Sam watched from the kitchen doorway, arms crossed. “Are you planning to sit like that all night? Like some kind of creepy gargoyle?”
Bucky didn’t respond. The wall was cool against his spine, grounding him. From this position, he could reach the door in 2.3 seconds. Isabelle’s room in 3.1. The windows in 4 seconds flat. His brain calculated escape routes automatically, a background process he couldn’t shut down.
Sam sighed—the deep, full-body exhale of a man who’d seen this behavior before. He pushed off from the doorframe and crossed to the couch, springs protesting beneath his weight as he sat. “Get some rest,” he said, settling back against the cushions. “Then we figure this out. All three of us.”
Bucky nodded once, a sharp downward jerk of his chin.
Then something soft smacked him in the face. He caught it before it hit the ground. His nostrils flared, combat reflexes kicking in before his brain registered it was just a pillow. Sam had tossed it at him, followed by a blanket that unfurled mid-air like a parachute.
“Really, Sam,” Bucky growled, yanking the blanket off his head.
Sam’s mouth quirked at one corner. “What? Just because you’re determined to punish yourself doesn’t mean you gotta be uncomfortable doing it.”
Bucky glared at him, but arranged the pillow behind his back, and the blanket left bunched in his lap, unwilling to admit he appreciated it.
Sam stretched out on the couch, one arm folded behind his head. Within minutes, his breathing slowed and deepened. The ease with which he surrendered to sleep was almost enviable.
Bucky tilted his head back, eyes fixed on the ceiling. A hairline crack ran across the white expanse, barely visible even to his enhanced vision. A flaw in the foundation, perhaps. Or damage from some past impact. The kind of thing most people would never notice.
But Bucky noticed everything. The crack. The faint smell of mildew from the bathroom. The way the refrigerator’s hum changed pitch every 7.3 minutes. The soft, almost imperceptible sound of Isabelle finally turning over in her bed down the hall.
He stared at the ceiling, counting the seconds until dawn.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Lonesome Is A State of Mind" by Djo
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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The past has a face. And it’s wearing a smirk behind bulletproof glass.
Sam didn’t come to make peace. Isabelle didn’t come for closure. But when Zemo re-enters the picture, the emotional landmines go off before the door even opens. Trauma hits like a pressure wave—panic, memory, the taste of blood.
And Bucky?
Bucky walks in alone.
Because monsters speak the same language.Act II begins.
The mission sharpens. The stakes rise. And nobody walks out of this clean.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 18: Behind the Glass
Chapter 18: Behind the Glass
Summary:
Some prisons don’t need bars.
When the team agrees to visit Zemo in Berlin, Sam braces for tension. He does not brace for Isabelle crumbling outside the cell door.
Haunted by past missions she never should’ve accepted, a future she’s terrified she’s already poisoned, and a voice inside her chest that won't shut up, Isabelle finally confesses the truth: about Paris, about the injections, about the version of herself she’s been running from since the Blip.Sam doesn’t run. He sits beside her. Listens. Anchors.
“No more secrets,” he says. But some truths leave scars.
Notes:
OKAY WE’RE HEREEEEE!! Act II is officially a go and I’m kind of vibrating out of my skin about it?? This chapter is a big one—plot drops, emotional bombs, and the first real peek behind the curtain at what’s really going on with Izzy. We’re getting into the messy, tense, hurt-y part of the story now (aka my favorite flavor 😌), and I hope you all love it as much as I do.
Also—thank you for the continued support. I swear I was just screaming about hitting 3k hits and now we’re already creeping up on 4k??? You’re all absolutely incredible and I’m so grateful.
Can’t wait to see you next chapter... Zemo is here. And things are about to get complicated.
💚💚💚
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
This was the last place Sam wanted to be. The last person he wanted to see.
Zemo.
The name alone made his jaw clench.
Two years on the run had left scars that weren’t visible but cut deep all the same. Sam remembered the frantic midnight relocations, the burner phones, the constant vigilance that had to become second nature after the Accords tore everything apart. All because Zemo’s elaborate revenge plot shattered the Avengers from within.
The guard ahead paused at another security checkpoint, scanning his badge, Bucky hot on his heels. Sam took the chance to look over his shoulder. Isabelle trailed several paces behind, face drawn and pale, eyes fixed on some middle distance.
He dropped back, matching her shorter strides when the guard picked up his pace again. “Nobody would blame you for sitting this one out, y’know.” Sam lowered his voice as another guard passed, their boots clicking against the concrete floor.
“I told you,” Isabelle narrowed her eyes at him, jaw tight. “I don’t trust him alone with you two.” The words came out clipped, defensive.
Sam studied her face, the pallor beneath her olive complexion, the tension around her mouth. He recognized fear when he saw it—he had worn it himself too many times.
“I’m serious, Iz,” he said, keeping his voice calm and quiet. “He made me miss my nephews growing up,” Sam said, voice dropping to a near-whisper. “Made you miss your dad’s wedding. You don’t need to put yourself through this. You don’t have to do the brave face thing with me.” He bumped her shoulder gently.
Pain flashed across Isabelle’s face. Raw and unfiltered. Sam remembered finding her outside their safe house in Kraków that night, shoulders shaking as she clutched her phone, staring at the photo of the wedding that had been released to the press. She hadn’t made a sound, but her tears had left dark spots on the concrete.
“I know what he cost us,” she said quietly, fingers curling into fists at her sides.
She glanced ahead at Bucky’s back—the rigid set of his shoulders, the slight tilt of his head. Listening, always listening.
She turned back to Sam. “But if Zemo knows about anyone else who might have recreated the serum...” Images flashed behind her eyes—labs, needles, restraints. She swallowed hard, forcing down the metallic taste of fear. “Bucky’s right. We need to talk to him.”
Sam’s eyes tracked across her features like he was looking for landmines. Before he could find one, the guard turned a corner, stopping them at a reinforced metal door. Keys jangled at his belt as he turned to face them.
“Standard protocol. No physical contact with the prisoner,” the guard stated. He stood at rigid attention, eyes forward, jaw set. “Stay behind the yellow line at all times. Keine kusnahmen.”
Sam rolled his shoulders back, feeling the tension knot between his shoulder blades. He’d faced HYDRA operatives, alien armies, and Thanos himself. One man in a cell should be nothing.
The guard inserted his key into the lock with a metallic scrape. Isabelle flinched beside Sam as if the sound had physically struck her.
“I—” The word strangled in her throat.
Sam turned and saw her face drain of color, leaving only two bright spots of panic high on her cheekbones. She stumbled back a step, then another, her shoulder blades hitting the concrete wall with an audible thud.
“Sam, I can’t.” Her voice cracked. Her eyes darted between the door and his face, pupils blown wide with terror. Her chest rose and fell in rapid, shallow bursts. “I thought I could, but—”
Sam moved instantly, positioning himself between her and the guard’s increasingly curious stare. His shoulders created a small pocket of privacy in the narrow hallway. He could see the fine tremor in her hands, the way she pressed them flat against the wall behind her to hide it.
“Look at me,” he said firmly, not touching her but keeping his hands visible. “Nobody’s making you walk through that door.”
Behind him, the guard cleared his throat, impatient. Sam felt his shoulders tense at the intrusion. He didn’t turn around.
Bucky’s footsteps scraped against concrete as he pivoted. “Give us a minute,” he said, voice dropping to that dangerous register that made people remember exactly who he was.
The silence that followed told Sam the guard had backed off. He kept his eyes on Isabelle, watching as her breathing steadied, though her fingers still pressed against the wall hard. Bucky stopped beside them, giving Isabelle space.
“This was my idea.” His voice was low, matter-of-fact. His face held no judgment, just understanding. “I’ll talk to Zemo.”
“Alone?” Sam tilted his head, studying Bucky’s face.
“He’ll talk to me.” The muscle in Bucky’s jaw jumped, his eyes hardening to winter-blue steel. “He likes to think he knows me.”
“Okay, but,” Sam stepped closer, lowering his voice. “Just remember we need information, not revenge.” Sam cautioned, eyes narrowing as he watched Bucky’s expression harden into something dangerous. “No matter how satisfying it might feel to rearrange his face.”
“I’m a professional,” Bucky replied, but there was a glint in his eye that made Sam uneasy.
“Just be careful in there.” Sam nodded once, throat dry. He glanced at the reinforced door, feeling an ice water sensation spread deeper through his gut. “And remember – Zemo’s got nothing to lose.”
“That makes two of us,” Bucky murmured, the words barely audible. He turned to the guard, shoulders squared. “Open the door.”
Bucky’s jaw clenched audibly. He stepped forward, and the door slammed shut behind Bucky with a metallic clang reverberating through Isabelle’s bones. Her legs gave out. She slid down the cold concrete wall, the rough surface catching at her jacket as she collapsed to the floor.
The guard’s eyes flicked over her—detached, dismissive. He checked his watch with exaggerated movements. “I must make my rounds.” His accent thickened with annoyance. “Stay put, don’t wander, verstanden?”
Sam watched the guard go, waiting until his footsteps faded before sliding down the wall to join Isabelle on the floor. His knee popped loudly.
“Damn,” he muttered, rubbing the offending joint with a grimace. He rotated his kneecap gingerly, feeling the subtle grinding beneath his fingers. “When did I get so old?”
Isabelle’s mouth quirked up at one corner, despite the pallor still clinging to her face. “You’re not old, Wilson. Just well-seasoned.”
“Oh, that’s how it is?” Sam raised an eyebrow, grateful to see even that small flash of humor return to her eyes. “I’ll remember that the next time you need something from the top shelf, short stack.”
Another guard passed, boots squeaking against the polished floor. His eyes lingered on them—the Falcon and Sick Girl sitting on the floor like teenagers ditching class—before continuing his patrol.
Isabelle pulled her knees to her chest, wrapping her arms around them. Her fingers trembled slightly before she interlaced them, knuckles whitening.
“I hate this,” she finally said, her voice low and tight. “He’s behind bulletproof glass. He can’t hurt me. ” Her jaw worked, tendons standing along her neck as she searched for the right words. “I shouldn’t be afraid.”
Sam didn’t push. Didn’t pry into why her hands still trembled or why her eyes kept darting to the door. She had every right to her fear.
“You ever think about Prague?” Isabelle said suddenly. “That safe house with the ceiling that leaked every time it rained.”
Sam snorted, knowing exactly the one. “And that hideous floral wallpaper,”
“God, that wallpaper.” A small smile cracked through her tension. “Remember the neighbor’s rooster?”
“Five AM, like clockwork.” Sam shook his head. “I caught you and Nat plotting its demise at least twice.”
“Three times.” Her smile widened briefly before fading. “Some mornings, I wake up and for a split second, I miss hearing that stupid rooster.”
“You miss being on the run?” This was good. Isabelle was voluntarily opening up to him, instead of deflecting with sarcasm or changing the subject.
Isabelle shook her head, tracing patterns on the floor. “Not the running. Or the cold showers. Or eating stale cereal for dinner.” Her gaze lifted to the reinforced door, imagining Bucky on the other side with Zemo. A chill crawled up her spine. “I miss knowing exactly who we were. The good guys, even when the world said we weren’t. Now everything’s just…”
“Complicated?” Sam offered, shifting his weight to ease the pressure on his knee.
“Gray.” She pressed her palms flat against the cold floor, feeling each ridge and imperfection beneath her skin. “We’re not criminals anymore, but we’re not heroes either. Half the world’s relieved the Avengers are back. But who’s really left? ” Her throat tightened around the words. “And the other half still looks at us like we might snap and level a city block.”
“You’re not a weapon, Iz,” Sam said, turning to face her directly. “You can’t take what Everhart wrote to heart.”
“Can’t I?” She met his gaze head-on, challenging. Heat rose in her chest, not anger but something adjacent to it—frustration, dread, resignation. “That’s what my own mother designed me to be.”
Sam’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath his skin. “That’s not—”
“At the Smithsonian,” she cut him off. “I could’ve done worse.” She held her hands out before her, watching them tremble slightly. “I wanted it to. For a second, I really wanted to hurt her.”
The words hung between them, naked and ugly. Isabelle’s mouth went dry, shame coiling in her stomach like a living thing. She couldn’t look at Sam now, couldn’t bear to see disappointment or—worse—fear in his eyes.
“You didn’t, though.” Sam’s voice was quiet but firm. Not backing away, not flinching.
“This time.” She curled her fingers into fists, nails biting into her palms. “What about next time? What happens when someone pushes the right button and I just—” She made a small, explosive gesture with her hands.
The prison’s ventilation system hummed overhead, the sound filling the silence between them. Down the corridor, a door slammed, the echo bouncing off concrete walls.
“You know what I think?” Sam leaned forward, his forearms resting on his knees. “I think if you were really what they wanted, we wouldn’t be having this conversation. Weapons don’t worry about collateral damage,” he continued, his voice low but intense. “They don’t lose sleep over what they might do. They don’t fight to stay in control.”
Sam’s gaze drifted to the middle distance. His fingers tapped a restless rhythm against his knee.
“After Riley died,” he finally said, “I had these dreams.” His eyes fixed on the cell door, but Isabelle could tell he was seeing something else entirely. “Vivid ones. I’d be back there, watching him fall, but this time I’d catch him.” He swallowed hard, Adam’s apple bobbing. “Or sometimes...” His voice dropped lower, almost a confession. “Sometimes I’d find the guy who shot him down, and I’d do things I’ve never told anyone about. Not even Steve.”
Isabelle turned to look at him, surprised by the admission. Sam Wilson—the voice of reason, the one who talked everyone else down from ledges—harboring violent fantasies?
“The dreams felt good,” Sam continued, meeting her gaze with eyes that held no apology. “Righteous, even. Like the universe was finally balanced, but they weren’t me.” He tapped his temple with two fingers. “Just my brain processing trauma the only way it knew how.”
Sam shifted, wincing as his knee popped again.
“First deployment after Riley, I was a mess.” His voice was steady now, clinical almost. “Functioning, but barely. There was this insurgent we captured—intelligence value, high priority target. I got five minutes alone with him during transfer.” He flexed his hands, studying his knuckles. “Five minutes where I could’ve done anything. Made him hurt the way I was hurting. Nobody would’ve questioned it. Hell, some would’ve helped.”
“What happened?” Isabelle asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
“Nothing.” Sam’s mouth quirked up, not quite a smile. “I gave him water. Checked his restraints weren’t cutting off circulation.” He shrugged, the movement tight against his shoulders. “Because that’s who I am. Not the guy from the dreams.” He reached over, tapping her knee lightly with his index finger. “That’s my point, Iz. The fact that you’re terrified of losing control? That’s exactly why you won’t.”
“I—” Her voice shattered mid-word. Isabelle stared at Sam’s hand on her knee like it was the only anchor in a storm. She swallowed hard, the click in her throat audible in the prison’s hollow silence. “Fuck.”
She dug her palms against her eyes until starbursts exploded in the darkness. Pressure was building until it pushed back against the scream building in her throat. When she dropped her hands, Sam was still watching. Patient. Still.
“Can I tell you something? Something I haven’t told anyone.” The words tumbled out before she could trap them behind her teeth. Her heart slammed against her breastbone, an animal trying to escape its cage. “Something I did.”
Sam’s face remained carefully neutral, but she caught his shoulders squaring, jaw tightening a fraction. The slight narrowing of his eyes. The tells of a man bracing for impact. His fingers tensed against her knee, not enough to hurt, just enough to say: I’m still here.
Isabelle’s mouth went dry, making her lick her lips. “I didn’t just disappear to grieve, Sam.” She hugged her knees tighter against her chest, the concrete wall bit into her back, cold and unforgiving—exactly what she deserved.
She swallowed hard, staring at the scuffed toes of her boots.
“I wanted an out. I didn’t want to be... this anymore.” She gestured vaguely at herself, the motion sharp and dismissive.
Paris materialized behind her eyelids when she blinked—neon lights bleeding into darkness, bass thumping through her bones. Strangers’ hands on her waist, her hips, her back. The smell of sweat and expensive cologne and desperation.
“I was in Paris.” She turned her head slightly, not quite meeting Sam’s eyes. “Nobody knew who I was.” Her lips curved in a bitter smile. “Nobody cared.”
She remembered the third night most clearly. Some underground place in Pigalle with music so loud it vibrated her teeth. The guy she’d left with had an apartment six blocks away. He’d traced the lines of her collarbone, whispered French endearments against her neck. She couldn’t remember his name now.
“I couldn’t get drunk,” she added, her voice dropping, hollow and distant. “But the noise, the people, the—” she gestured vaguely, with one hand, fingers curling in the air as if grasping the right words “—physical stuff. It was almost enough to make me forget. For a minute anyway.”
She exhaled slowly, the sound harsh in the prison corridor’s silence.
“I’d wake up in strangers’ beds, stare at unfamiliar ceilings, and wait to feel something. Anything.” Her shoulders hunched forward, making her seem smaller against the concrete wall. “That’s when she found me.”
“She?” Sam’s eyebrows drew together, his body angling toward hers instinctively. The tension in his voice was subtle but unmistakable – the way his tone shifted from supportive to alert in those three letters.
“Valentina de Fontaine.” The name fell from her lips like a curse, bitter and sharp. “Caught me leaving this guy’s apartment at 5 AM. Just... standing there on the street corner in a white pantsuit that probably cost more than the building. Knock off Nick Fury.”
“The director of the CIA?” Sam’s entire body went still.
The kind of stillness that came before action, before danger —the stillness of a soldier processing a threat assessment. The muscle along his jaw flexed once, twice, as his eyes narrowed a fraction.
“The woman who bought Avengers Tower? What the hell was she doing in Paris?” His voice dropped lower, controlled in a way that betrayed how much control it took.
“Sam, I—” Her voice fractured. She’d rehearsed this confession a hundred times in her head. In the shower. On sleepless nights. Now that the moment was here, words abandoned her.
Sam’s eyes had changed. Not dramatically—Sam was too controlled for that—but she caught it anyway. The subtle recalibration. The reassessment. The same look he got when a mission parameter suddenly shifted, when an ally revealed themselves as something else. “What did she want.”
“She offered me something.” Isabelle’s gaze dropped. “Said her people could neutralize the serum in my system.”
She could still smell Val’s perfume—something expensive and subtle that had cut through the Parisian morning air. Could still see the perfect arch of the woman’s eyebrow as she’d made her pitch, the way her lips had curved into a smile that never reached her eyes. The business card that was pressed into Isabelle’s palm, heavy cardstock with an embossed phone number and nothing else.
“Not a cure, exactly.” The words quickened, tumbling out like she needed them gone from inside her. “She said they could make me more normal.”
Sam’s hand moved from her knee to her wrist, his grip firm but gentle. The warmth of his palm against her skin pulled her back from Paris, from Val’s voice, from the desperate hope that had bloomed in her chest at the offer.
“More normal?” Sam repeated the word sharp with disbelief. His eyes narrowed, searching her face. “What does that even mean?”
“A series of injections.” Isabelle’s voice sounded distant to her own ears. “Something to dampen the serum’s effects, suppress the cellular regeneration. Make me...” She swallowed hard, the lump in her throat painful. “Not this.”
Sam’s fingers tightened fractionally around her wrist. Concern deepened into something sharper, more focused. His thumb pressed against her pulse point, as if checking she was still there, still real.
“And you said yes.” It wasn’t a question.
Isabelle’s eyes snapped to his. “Wouldn’t you have? If someone offered you a way out of—” She gestured at herself with her free hand, a quick, dismissive motion. “This? This... thing I never asked to be?”
Sam didn’t flinch, didn’t look away. The steadiness in his gaze made her want to scream. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I didn’t tell you because I was ashamed I even considered it,” she whispered, nose crinkling, “I didn’t want to look at me like you’re looking at me right now.”
Sam’s expression softened a fraction, but the wariness remained, a shadow behind his eyes. “Like what?”
“Like I’m a variable you can’t calculate.” Isabelle swallowed hard, tasting bitterness. “Like I might be the weak link in the chain.” Her knuckles whitened as she gripped her knees. “But I was. I was so fucking desperate, Sam. I’d have given her my entire inheritance. Everything I had.”
“Let me guess,” Sam’s eyes narrowed, the slight crease between his brows deepening. “She didn’t want money.”
“No.” Isabelle’s voice hardened to match the concrete beneath them. “She wanted me.” The fluorescent lights overhead buzzed, a constant electric hum that made her teeth ache. Or maybe that was just the tension locking her jaw.
A door slammed somewhere down the corridor, the sound ricocheting off the walls like a gunshot. Isabelle flinched, her shoulders hunching instinctively. Sam’s hand remained steady on her wrist, his thumb brushing once across her pulse point. The small gesture anchored her and pulled her back from the edge of the spiral.
“Six assignments,” she continued, returning her eyes to her shoes. Sam’s gaze was too heavy. “That was the deal. I stole data. Broke into private labs. Traffickers, weapons dealers, black-site researchers. Bad people. People who deserved worse than they got.”
“Alone?”
“Yes.”
Sam’s jaw flexed, the muscle jumping beneath his skin. No shouting. Just silent. Almost worse.
“I had rules,” she tried to defend herself quickly, leaning forward. Her hands came up, palms out, placating. “No kills. That was my line. The one thing I wouldn’t cross.” Her eyes locked with his, refusing to flinch despite the shame burning beneath her skin. “And I kept it.”
Sam shook his head once. Not dismissal—something that cut deeper. Disbelief.
“You should’ve called me,” he said quietly. His voice softened, but the words landed sharply, uncomfortably. “Any time. From anywhere.”
“And say what?” Heat rushed to her face, her words gaining momentum. “That I was working for the CIA director off the books to get the serum out of my system? That I was so desperate to be normal, I’d let her use me? That I was that weak?”
“That you needed help,” Sam countered, voice steady but intense. He shifted, angling his body toward hers, knee brushing against her leg. “That you were drowning.”
Isabelle’s throat closed. The concrete wall behind her suddenly felt too hard, too real. She pressed her shoulder blades against it.
“Did you get what you wanted?” The question was gentle but direct. “The treatment?”
Isabelle stared at the wall opposite them. She nodded once, a sharp, mechanical movement. “Five injections. One after every completed mission. That was my payment.”
“You said six missions.” Sam’s fingers tensed against her wrist—not enough to hurt, just enough to telegraph his alarm.
“The first dose burned. ”Her voice was detached despite the memory. “Like liquid nitrogen in my veins. I couldn’t even scream.” Her throat worked as she swallowed. “Woke up thirty-six hours later in a puddle of sweat, fever so high I hallucinated my father sitting at the foot of the bed.”
“Jesus Christ, Isabelle.” Sam’s voice dropped to that dangerous register—the one that meant someone was about to catch hell. And he had used her full name. “And you went back for more?”
“Four more times.” She traced the invisible track marks along her inner arm, feeling phantom needles beneath her skin. “Each one worse than the last. But I thought—” She let out a humorless laugh. “I convinced myself the side effects meant it was working. That normal people feel pain when they get sick.”
Sam’s eyes narrowed, tracking across her face with tactical precision, cataloging details she probably thought she’d hidden.
“I knew something was wrong by the third injection.” Her fingers trembled against her thigh. She pressed them flat against her pants, willing them still. “It wasn’t suppressing anything. It was... amplifying it. Like poking a bear.” She met Sam’s eyes directly. “Like whatever my mother put inside me was getting louder. More awake.” She hesitated, humiliation crawling up her neck. “More hungry.”
Sam’s eyebrows drew together, his expression shifting from anger to something closer to dread. “Hungry how?” His gaze dropped to her hands, watching the tremor she couldn’t quite control. “What exactly did they put in you, Isabelle?”
“I don’t know.” Her mouth went dry. The words stuck in her throat like glass shards. “But there’s…there’s a voice.”
She hadn’t meant to say it—hadn’t wanted him to know this part. Her pulse hammered against her wrists where Sam still held her, the steady thump-thump betraying her panic. She forced herself to meet his eyes, bracing for judgment or worse—fear.
“Not—not like hearing voices, crazy,” she added quickly. “But something inside me that... pushes.” She tapped her sternum with two fingers, right where the pressure always built. “Right here. Like there’s something under my skin that wants out.”
She expected Sam to pull away. To create distance. To look at her as if she were a specimen, not a person. But he didn’t move. Instead, he leaned closer, his knee pressing against hers.
Isabelle’s pulse quickened. The words felt dangerous, like naming something might give it more power. Like speaking it aloud would make it real in ways she couldn’t control. But she was too far in to stop now.
“I was in Japan, after the third injection.” The memory flashed. The exact moment everything shifted. “Middle of the night. Couldn’t sleep. I got up to splash water on my face and just…saw my reflection and—” She made a sharp, punching gesture with her right hand, the movement so sudden that Sam’s eyes widened. “Punched the mirror. But before, my reflection...for a second, I swear to god, Sam—” She swallowed hard, the memory making her fingers curl into fists. “My eyes weren’t mine.”
“What do you mean?” Sam’s voice remained steady, but she caught the subtle shift in his posture—the slight straightening of his spine, the way his shoulders squared.
“They were... darker. Empty. Like someone else was looking back.”
Her fingertips hovered near her face, tracing the outline of her eye socket without touching skin. She leaned forward, voice dropping lower.
“I can’t sleep. Not really. When I do, I feel it moving under my skin. Pacing. Waiting.” Her palm pressed flat against her sternum, fingers splayed wide. “Right here. Like something scratching to get out.”
Her eyes darted to the reinforced door where Bucky had disappeared, then to the shadows pooling in the corridor’s corners. Sam’s jaw tightened almost invisibly as he followed her gaze, his mind working.
“I quit after the fifth job. Couldn’t finish it. The voice—” She cut herself off, to take a breath. “It kept pushing me. Harder. Further.” Her fingers flexed, mimicking a grip around phantom flesh. “I had my hand on this guy’s throat, and something inside me just...”
She demonstrated with her hand, fingers slowly curling inward. The gesture was small but loaded with terrible intent. She could still feel the flutter of his pulse against her palm, the moment when something inside her had whispered: squeeze harder.
Isabelle let her hands fall back to her lap, sudden exhaustion crashing through her. “Left the job unfinished. Walked away.” A bitter laugh escaped her, pointed as broken glass. “Val wasn’t happy.”
“She come after you?” Sam’s voice sharpened to a dangerous edge.
“No. I ran home.” Isabelle shook her head. “Figured she wouldn’t touch me if I were visible. Public. If I played Isabelle Stark again. ” She looked up at the ceiling lights, letting herself see dots. “Press conferences. Charity galas. All the bullshit.” Each word dropped like an indictment. “All those cameras. All those eyes. Perfect protection.”
“And the side effects?” Sam asked, voice carefully neutral. “The... voice?”
“Still there.” She pressed her palm flat against where the pressure always built. “Quieter some days. Screaming on others. The treatments didn’t fix anything, Sam. They just made it worse—I…I made it worse.”
Sam was quiet.
Isabelle’s muscles coiled tight, bracing for the inevitable—the careful step backward, the subtle shift in his eyes when he finally saw her for what she was, what she was becoming.
Instead, Sam’s arm settled around her shoulders. Not tentative, not hesitant—purposeful, strong, genuine. He pulled her against his side, the gesture so unexpected that Isabelle went stiff, muscles tensing on instinct. Her breath caught in her throat, suspended between inhale and exhale. For a moment, she couldn’t process it—this simple human contact without fear, without calculation.
“Easy,” Sam murmured, his voice a low rumble she felt more than heard.
Slowly, her lungs remembered their purpose. She exhaled, a shaky, ragged sound in the sterile corridor. Her body softened by degrees, the tension bleeding out as she leaned into his warmth. After a moment’s hesitation, she wrapped an arm around his waist, fingers curling into his jacket.
Sam’s hand remained steady on her shoulder, his thumb pressing gently against her collarbone. “Why now, Iz?” His voice cut through the white noise. “Why tell me this now?”
Isabelle’s eyes darted back to the cell door, the reinforced metal suddenly looking paper-thin. Her pulse quickened. Steel, concrete, and bulletproof glass—and yet somehow not enough to contain what awaited inside. What if Zemo could see right through her, too?
“Because—” The word caught. She swallowed, tried again. “Because Zemo knows things. About what they did to people like me and Bucky.” Her fingers twisted deeper into the fabric of Sam’s jacket, knuckles whitening until they ached. “And I’m afraid of what I’m becoming. I’m afraid I proved him right.” Her voice cracked on the final syllable. “That we’re all just time bombs. That people like us can’t be trusted.”
Sam shifted beside her, angling his body to face her more directly. His eyes tracked across her features, searching for something. The weight of his gaze made her want to look away, but she forced herself to meet it.
“Whatever’s happening,” he said, voice dropping to that fierce register that brooked no argument, “we’ll figure it out. Together. ”
His hand found hers, calloused fingertips rasping against her knuckles. Isabelle nodded, throat working around words that wouldn’t come. The lump there felt like broken glass, jagged and dangerous. If she spoke, she might bleed.
“No more secrets.” Sam’s eyes locked on hers, the words not a request. “Not with me. No more running off alone when things get bad.” His grip tightened. “Whatever’s going on with you, whatever this voice is telling you to do—I need to know. ”
The weight of his demand pressed against her chest. She’d spent so long carrying everything alone, burying secrets under layers of sarcasm and deflection. The prospect of transparency felt like standing naked in a snowstorm.
“Sam, I—” The words died as a metallic scrape cut through the corridor, sharp as a gunshot.
They both snapped toward the sound. The reinforced door to Zemo’s cell swung open with a pneumatic hiss that raised the hair on Isabelle’s arms. Her muscles tensed, fight-or-flight instincts flaring as Bucky emerged.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Sick of the Silence" by Mother Mother
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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The door to the past has been opened. Now the ghosts are walking through it.
Bucky made the call. Zemo is free.
And Isabelle?
She's not sure which of them she’s more afraid of.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 19: Hypothetically Speaking
Chapter 19: Hypothetically Speaking
Summary:
Zemo’s still behind bars.
But Bucky’s already set the plan in motion.The tension doesn't break once they leave the cell—it sharpens. Isabelle's barely holding it together, Sam's asking the right questions, and Bucky? He’s not answering them. Not until he leads them into the shadows of an abandoned HYDRA safehouse and drops a bombshell:
They need Zemo.
And Bucky’s already broken him out.Explosions don’t always start with fire.
Sometimes, it’s a whisper.
A plan.
A choice made twenty minutes too late.
Notes:
FIRST OFF—OMG WE DID IT!!! 🎉 4K hits on this fic and I’m actually screaming. To celebrate, I made a little playlist of songs just from Act 1 (yes, I even made cute cover art because I’m a menace with picsart). I posted it over on Tumblr if anyone wants to check it out! I’m still learning how to tag things over there, but we’re trying our best 😅
Anyway—THANK YOU x a million for all the support so far!! I’m so glad the Valentina twist hit!! I’ve been dying to explore that thread more, and I’m so hype that you all are excited for it too 🖤
Quick update: my work schedule is officially back to normal, which means more time to write! Starting June 6th, I won’t be able to post on every other Friday because my D&D group is picking up again for the summer. But I’ll try to make up for those missed Fridays by posting Thursdays or Saturdays when I can!
✨Tentative posting schedule✨
Set days: Wednesday & Sunday
Bonus posts (if chapters are ready): Monday & ThursdayAND—I’ll be dropping another chapter later today because this one ends on a cliffhanger and I’m dying to see what you all think of Zemo… plus, I’m impatient. 😂
THANK YOU again!!! You guys make this so much fun to write 💚💚💚
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Bucky’s face went cold and hard as iron—jaw muscle twitching beneath taut skin, eyes fixed forward with a focus so intense it made the fine hairs at Isabelle’s nape rise. He maintained that mask-like expression as the guard who’d escorted them earlier reappeared around the corner to lock Zemo’s cell. Every movement Bucky made was controlled, deliberate—the careful precision of someone fighting to keep something caged inside.
They walked back through the prison’s sterile hallways, Bucky’s boots striking the concrete in a one-two, one-two rhythm. His face never changed, but his eyes—they flicked up once, so quickly, Isabelle almost missed it. A split-second assessment of the security camera nestled in the corner where the wall met the ceiling. The red light blinked steadily. Watching. Recording.
Somewhere between the cell block and the main security checkpoint, Sam slowed his pace just enough to fall in step beside Isabelle. Their eyes met—his warm brown holding her green gaze with a question that didn’t need words.
Don’t tell him, she pleaded silently, hoping her expression conveyed what she couldn’t say aloud. Not about Valentina. Not about the treatment. Not now, not ever.
Sam studied her face, conflict evident in the subtle crease between his brows. His lips pressed together, then relaxed. He bit his lip, and then came the slight nod. The knot between Isabelle’s shoulders loosened a fraction at Sam’s nod, but relief evaporated like water on hot metal. She tucked her chin slightly, a silent thank you.
Her focus shifted back to Bucky three paces ahead. She’d seen him like this before—but no, not quite like this. She’d watched him dismantle SHIELD agents with mechanical precision, seen him compose himself under heavy gunfire. The careful nothingness of his expression wasn’t calm; it was a dam holding back a flood.
Whatever Zemo had whispered through that glass had cracked something in Bucky. Had he threatened them? Revealed some new scheme? Or worse—had he slipped past Bucky’s defenses, planted something in his mind?
The guard ahead swiped his keycard at the final security door. The soft electronic beep echoed in the sterile hallway, unnaturally loud against the backdrop of silence. They stepped through into the prison’s administrative section, lights buzzing overhead. The guard gestured toward the front desk with a perfunctory flick of his wrist.
“Sign-out procedure,” he muttered before retreating back through the door they’d just exited.
The guard at the desk didn’t bother looking up. Mid-twenties, with patchy facial hair that suggested more ambition than execution, and dark circles that had taken up permanent residence beneath bloodshot eyes. His finger traced a line of clues on the crossword puzzle spread before him.
“Bitte, sign out,” he said, pushing the clipboard toward them with one disinterested finger. “All three, ja?”
Sam stepped forward first, shoulders relaxed in that deliberately casual way. Not quite the charm he’d use in a bar, but something adjacent—disarming, intentional.
“Long shift?” Sam asked, voice pitched low and conversational as he accepted the pen.
The guard’s eyes flicked up, surprise registering at being addressed as a person rather than a checkpoint. His pen hovered over the half-filled puzzle. “Kreuzworträtsel,” he mumbled, then caught himself. “Ah, crossword. Is helping me with English, but...” He tapped the paper with his pen, frustration evident in the sharp rap against the desk. “Is difficult sometimes.”
Isabelle shifted her weight, glancing down at the puzzle. German clues paired with English answers—a linguistic tightrope walk. The distraction was welcome, pulling her attention momentarily from the tightly wound tension radiating from Bucky beside her. His stillness had its own gravity, a black hole of controlled rage that threatened to collapse in on itself.
“Doppelschicht,” the guard continued, stifling a yawn that exposed a silver filling in his back molar. “How do you say—double shift?” He rubbed at his left eye with his knuckle. “Der andere Mann—other man—he is sick. Again.” The final word carried the universal inflection of workplace grievance, accompanied by an eye roll that needed no translation.
“That’s rough,” Sam commiserated, signing his name with a practiced flourish before passing the pen to Bucky. “Your English is really good, though. Been studying long?”
The guard straightened slightly in his chair, fatigue momentarily displaced by a flicker of pride. “A year now. Still learning, but...” He offered a modest shrug that didn’t quite disguise his satisfaction.
“Seriously, man, you’re doing great,” Sam continued, maintaining the easy rhythm of conversation. “I tried learning Spanish once. Got as far as ordering tacos, then gave up.”
Isabelle bit the inside of her cheek to hold back a smile. Classic Sam Wilson misdirection—the man spoke Spanish fluently enough to have negotiated hostage releases in Bogotá. But here he was, deliberately downplaying his abilities to boost a tired prison guard’s confidence. Small kindnesses were Sam’s specialty, offered without fanfare or expectation.
Bucky made a sound—not quite a grunt, not quite a snort—as he took the clipboard. The pen looked absurdly small between his metal fingers. She watched as the pressure of his grip left subtle indentations in the cheap plastic, the ballpoint threatening to crack under the controlled force. His jaw remained locked as he scrawled his name with quick, efficient strokes.
When he passed the pen to her, his flesh fingers brushed against hers, a brief point of warmth that sent an electric current racing up her arm. The pen was still warm from his grip, and she could feel the slight impressions his fingers had left in the plastic.
Her eyes dropped to the guard’s crossword puzzle as she signed her name. Seven down caught her attention: “Der Inbegriff: perfektes Beispiel seiner Art.” The empty boxes waited for an answer.
“Die Antwort ist ‘Quintessenz,’“ she said, handing the clipboard back while tapping the empty boxes with her index finger. “It means the perfect example of something—the quintessence.”
The guard’s eyebrows shot up in genuine surprise. “Sie sprechen Deutsch?” His eyes darted to the puzzle, lips moving silently as he counted spaces and verified her answer. “Ja, stimmt! That fits perfectly.” A genuine smile cracked through his professional veneer. “Danke schön—thank you.”
“Gern geschehen,” Isabelle replied with a small nod. She felt Bucky’s eyes on her, a subtle shift in his attention that made her skin tingle. “My mother insisted I learn languages young. German, French, and just enough Italian to order gelato without embarrassing myself.”
“Sehr gut! Very impressive.” The guard’s expression brightened further. He tapped his pen against the puzzle. “Perhaps you could help with nine across also? I am stuck with this one for days now—”
“Another time, maybe,” Bucky interrupted, his voice deceptively casual. His right hand came to rest at the small of Isabelle’s back, fingers splayed with deliberate pressure. Not pushing, not yet, but the intent was clear. “We need to go.”
The guard’s face fell for a microsecond before professionalism reasserted itself. “Ja, of course. Auf Wiedersehen.”
“Auf Wiedersehen,” Isabelle replied, offering an apologetic smile even as Bucky’s hand shifted upward between her shoulder blades. The gentle pressure sent chills down her spine, her body responding to his touch in ways her brain hadn’t authorized.
“Have a good one,” Sam called over his shoulder as they moved toward the exit.
Bucky’s hand remained steady between her shoulder blades as he pushed the door open with his right, sunlight spilling across the threshold. The moment they cleared the doorway, cold April air slapped against Isabelle’s face, sharp and clarifying.
The prison’s exterior was all concrete and razor wire, stark against the backdrop of dense Bavarian forest. Isabelle’s lungs expanded with the fresh air, but the knot in her chest only tightened. Bucky’s hand dropped away from her back the instant they were outside, leaving a phantom warmth where his fingers had been.
“Alright,” Sam said quietly once they were halfway out of the courtyard, voice pitched just loud enough for the three of them. “You want to tell me what the hell happened in there? And why you rushed us out without telling us why?”
Bucky’s pace didn’t falter, but something dangerous flickered across his face. “No, not here,” he muttered. His eyes scanned the perimeter—rooftops, windows, passing cars. “This way.”
He jerked his head left without breaking stride, offering no explanation, no reassurance. Just the expectation that they would follow.
Isabelle caught Sam’s eye. What the hell is happening? Sam only shrugged, his right hand casually adjusting his jacket before following after Bucky. Isabelle fell into step behind them, not too far but not too close.
He cut through Berlin’s winding streets like someone who’d memorized the city’s layout. Each turn seemed random but executed with absolute certainty—left at the bakery with the peeling blue paint, right at the intersection with the broken streetlight, straight past a woman with hennaed hair hanging laundry from a third-floor balcony.
The cobblestones beneath her feet gave way to cracked sidewalks, then back to cobblestones as they wove deeper into a neighborhood of close-packed buildings. Isabelle’s lungs burned slightly from the pace and the cold air. A bead of sweat trickled down her spine despite the chill.
Ten minutes of silent, rapid movement. No explanations. No backward glances.
Sam finally broke the silence, his voice carrying just enough edge beneath the casual tone. “You know, some of us didn’t get the super-soldier stamina upgrade.” He matched Bucky’s pace despite his complaint. “A little heads-up on where we’re sprinting to would be nice.”
Bucky finally slowed his pace—barely, just enough that Isabelle and Sam could draw even with his shoulders. “Safe house,” he muttered.
Within minutes, the neighborhood transformed around them with each block. Quaint cafés with wrought-iron tables gave way to half-abandoned industrial buildings. Paint peeled from concrete walls in long, curling strips. Windows stared back at them, some boarded, others covered in newspaper, or simply empty like dead eyes. A group of construction workers in neon vests paused mid-conversation as they passed, cigarettes hovering halfway to lips, words suspended in curious silence.
“Seriously, man,” Sam said, keeping his voice controlled but tight. “We’re following you blind here. At least tell us if we need to be worried about—”
“Can you just trust me for five more minutes?” Bucky cut him off, his voice dropping to a harsh whisper that carried an edge Isabelle hadn’t heard since Bucharest. His flesh hand clenched and unclenched at his side. “We’re almost there.”
“Trust you? Sure.” Sam’s eyes narrowed, his shoulders squared. “Trust whatever’s got you looking like you’ve seen a ghost? That’s a harder sell.”
Bucky’s jaw flexed, but he offered nothing more, just another sharp turn down a narrow street where laundry lines stretched between buildings like forgotten cobwebs.
Two more blocks of wordless walking, and Bucky stopped so abruptly that Isabelle nearly collided with his back. He stood before a weathered brick building that slumped between two newer developments like an old man refusing to be pushed out of his neighborhood. Three stories of faded red brick, blackened windows that revealed nothing of what lay behind them. A sign hung above the door, the words “Motorrad Werkstatt” barely visible in peeling red paint against rust-colored metal.
“A motorcycle shop?” Isabelle whispered, her voice catching slightly.
Bucky approached the side entrance without answering—a heavy metal door with a substantial padlock that looked like it hadn’t been opened in years. He examined the lock for precisely three seconds, his eyes narrowing as he assessed it. Without hesitation, he gripped it with his vibranium hand. The lock groaned before surrendering with a muffled snap as he squeezed.
The door yielded to his push, hinges screaming in rusty protest. The sound scraped against Isabelle’s nerves, too loud in the empty street. She glanced over her shoulder, half-expecting someone to investigate the noise, but the narrow street remained deserted.
Beyond the threshold lay darkness so complete it seemed solid. Cold air rushed out to meet them, carrying the musty scent of disuse, motor oil, and something metallic that reminded her of blood. Isabelle’s skin prickled, not just from the chill.
“In here,” Bucky said, his voice low and tight. He positioned himself at the threshold, one foot inside, one out, his body angled to scan both the street behind them and the darkness ahead. The Winter Soldier stance—protecting their six while assessing potential threats from all angles.
“Into the creepy abandoned building with no lights?” Sam’s eyebrows shot up, but his hand had already moved to hover near his concealed weapon. “Yeah, that’s not suspicious at all.‘Hey friends, follow me into this abandoned building in a foreign country without explanation.’ This is literally how horror movies start.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened. “We don’t have time for this.”
“And you’re being cryptic as hell.” Sam took a step forward anyway, peering into the darkness. “If there’s a clown in there, I’m out.”
“Don’t like clowns, Wilson?” Isabelle laughed, a smile flickering across her lips despite the tension in her chest. “Did one traumatize you at a birthday party or something?”
Sam shot her a sideways glance, his expression deadpan. “You laugh, but a man in my neighborhood dressed as a clown for Halloween when I was eight. Chased me three blocks with a rubber chicken.” He tapped his temple. “Some scars don’t heal.”
Bucky made a sound that might have been a suppressed snort or a growl of impatience—impossible to tell with his face half-shadowed. “There are no clowns,” he said, his voice tight as a wire. “Just get inside.”
“No clowns, he says,” Sam muttered, stepping fully into the darkness. “That’s exactly what someone hiding clowns would say.”
Isabelle lingered at the threshold for a heartbeat, her eyes meeting Bucky’s. The intensity in his gaze made her breath catch—not fear exactly, but something adjacent to it.
“Trust me,” he said again, softer this time, his flesh hand hovering near her elbow without quite touching it.
Isabelle gave him a soft nod and stepped into the darkness, the air immediately cooling against her face. Bucky followed, pulling the heavy door shut behind him.
“Well, this is cozy,” Sam’s disembodied voice floated from somewhere to her left. “Nothing says ‘trust me’ like being led into pitch-black abandoned buildings.”
Isabelle fumbled for her phone, fingers sliding across the smooth surface before finding the right button.
The flashlight beam cut through the darkness like a knife, illuminating a galaxy of dust motes that swirled and danced in the sudden intrusion. The concrete floor beneath her boots was stained with decades-old motor oil, creating dark archipelagos across the gray surface. Workbenches lined the walls, their wooden surfaces warped with age and neglect. Half-dismantled motorcycle engines sat frozen in time, their metal components dulled by a thick layer of dust and cobwebs that stretched between them like ghostly hands.
Sam’s phone light joined hers, the beams crossing and creating shifting shadows that crawled across the walls.
“Okay, Barnes,” he said, sweeping his light across what appeared to be a vintage Harley engine block. “Door’s closed. We’re in your mystery box. Time to talk.”
Bucky moved through the darkness with unsettling ease, navigating around obstacles her light hadn’t yet revealed. “We needed somewhere secure,” he said, his voice bouncing off the concrete walls, creating echoes that seemed to come from everywhere at once. “No cameras. No bugs. No ears.”
“And an abandoned motorcycle shop was your first choice because...?” She swept her light across a pile of rusted tools, illuminating what looked like a calendar from 1987 still hanging on the far wall, its edges curled with moisture damage.
“Because I used it before.” Bucky paused near what looked like an ancient circuit breaker box, his metal fingers tracing over its rusted surface. “During the Cold War. KGB asset drop site. Later, HYDRA.”
The casual way he referenced his past made Isabelle’s stomach tighten. Sometimes she forgot just how long Bucky had been operating in the shadows—decades of violence and espionage compressed into a man who looked barely thirty-five. His vibranium fingers found a hidden latch beneath the breaker box, and with a practiced flick, the front panel swung open to reveal circuit breakers.
“Great. So we’re standing in a HYDRA clubhouse,” Sam said, his voice flat with sarcasm. “That’s comforting.”
“It’s been abandoned since the Berlin Wall fell,” Bucky’s metal fingers moved methodically across the circuit panel, searching.“Look, we’re secure now. That’s what matters.”
“Secure enough to tell us what the hell happened in that cell?” Sam asked, crossing his arms. Isabelle could make out the outline of Sam’s silhouette. “Because you’ve been acting like someone put a bomb in your pocket since you walked out of that cell.”
Bucky switched the breakers, and light stuttered to life—a sickly yellow glow that cast long shadows across the dusty motorcycle shop. Isabelle winced against the sudden brightness, blinking rapidly as her eyes adjusted. She switched off her phone’s flashlight, hearing Sam do the same with a soft click.
When she could finally see clearly, Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. Bucky stood facing them fully now, his shoulders rigid and jaw tight. Something in his expression made her stomach drop. His eyes darted between them, the look of someone cornered and desperate.
“We need to break Zemo out of prison,” he said, the words falling into the room like stones.
Isabelle’s brain stuttered, refusing to process what she’d just heard. The dust particles dancing in the light between them seemed to freeze mid-air. A distant drip from somewhere in the ceiling marked three seconds of complete silence. Her lungs forgot how to function, and her heart slammed against her ribcage with such force she felt it might crack a rib.
Sam’s laugh—sharp and brittle—finally shattered the silence.
“Hold up.” He took a half-step forward, head tilted like he was waiting for the punchline. “Did you just—” He blinked rapidly, finger pointing accusingly at Bucky. “Did you just say we should break out the guy who framed you for terrorism? That Zemo?”
“Yes.” Bucky didn’t flinch, didn’t elaborate. Just that single syllable, delivered with the finality of a bullet.
“Okay, so we’re going with the ‘completely lost your mind’ plan. Good to know.” Sam’s voice rose with each word, bouncing off the concrete walls. His hands animated his growing disbelief. “Let me ask you this: Did you happen to hit your head while you were in that cell with him? Because that’s the only explanation I can think of for why you’d even consider—”
“He knows things, Sam.” Bucky’s voice remained low, controlled, but Isabelle caught the slight twitch in his flesh hand—a tell she’d noticed before when he was fighting to maintain composure.
“He knows how to manipulate people,” Sam countered, jabbing a finger at Bucky’s chest. “Starting with you, apparently.”
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck, spreading across her face as the initial shock transformed into something sharper. The absurdity of what Bucky was suggesting sank in. Her throat constricted, and the room seemed to tilt slightly. She could feel her powers stirring beneath her skin—that dangerous heat that rose with her anger, begging for release.
“Are you—” The words caught in her throat, strangled by disbelief. She tried again, her voice emerging sharper than intended. “Are you seriously suggesting we break out a mass murderer?”
Her green eyes flashed, and she took a step toward him, close enough that he could see exactly what this was doing to her.
“A mass murderer who can lead us to the people creating more potential mass murderers,” Bucky countered, frustration edging into his voice. His eyes never left hers, unflinching in the face of her growing rage. “Eight super soldiers are already out there. How many more will there be next week? Next month?”
“I let you talk us into meeting with Zemo. That was already crossing a line I wasn’t comfortable with,” Isabelle jabbed a finger toward Bucky, “but breaking him out? That’s—” She hissed, raking both hands through her hair, tugging at the roots until pain sparked across her scalp. The sensation grounded her, barely. “Absolutely not.”
“She’s right.” Sam moved to stand beside her, eyes narrowing at Bucky. “We’re supposed to just trust he’ll do the right thing and help us?”
“Trust?”
Bucky’s laugh was a broken sound—all jagged edges and rust. His eyes, usually guarded behind careful neutrality, flashed with something feral that made Isabelle’s breath catch.
“I don’t trust him to tie his own shoelaces.” He paced three sharp steps, boots scuffing against the concrete. “We don’t trust him. We use him.”
Isabelle’s stomach twisted at the detachment in his voice—how easily he slipped into this tactical mindset, as if they were discussing chess pieces instead of a mass murderer.
“And how exactly do we use a master manipulator?” she challenged, making air quotes with her fingers. “The second we let him out, he’s going to start playing mind games.” She held his gaze, refusing to back down despite the storm brewing behind his eyes. Something dangerous and desperate lurked there. “Especially with you.” She softened her voice, just slightly. “No offense.”
“Offense taken,” Bucky replied, his mouth quirking into something too sharp to be a smile.
The expression vanished as quickly as it appeared, like lightning across a battlefield. He took a half-step toward her, close enough that she could see the flecks of gray in his blue irises.
“Look, I don’t like this either.” His voice dropped lower, rougher at the edges. “But Zemo has connections we don’t. Intelligence networks. Underground contacts. He spent years hunting HYDRA’s secrets—the same people who created the serum in the first place.” Bucky’s metal fingers flexed, catching the dim light. “He can’t help us behind bars. Super Soldiers go against everything he believes in—”
“And Avengers too,” Isabelle cut in, motioning to herself with a sweep of her hand. “Or did you forget that part?”
Bucky’s shoulders dropped a fraction of an inch. “He won’t touch you,” Bucky said, his voice dropping to a low, fierce promise. His flesh hand twitched at his side, as if he’d almost reached for her but thought better of it. “You have my word.”
For a heartbeat, the rest of the room—the dust motes dancing in shafts of sickly yellow light, the cobwebs stretching across forgotten engines, even Sam’s steady breathing—faded to background noise, leaving only Bucky’s blue eyes locked on hers. A silent plea for understanding passed between them.
Then he blinked, and the moment shattered.
Bucky turned back to Sam, breaking the connection with a sharp pivot that left Isabelle momentarily disoriented. The cold rush of air that replaced his proximity made her suppress a shiver.
“He’s crazy,” Bucky said, his voice rough-edged but controlled, “but he still has a code. He wants what we want—to stop super soldiers before they cause more damage.”
“I’m not freeing Zemo,” Isabelle declared, crossing her arms tightly over her chest, drawing Bucky’s attention back on her.
Bucky’s metal hand flexed at his side, and pressed his lips together, his jaw working as if physically chewing on words that tasted wrong.
“Can I just...” He exhaled slowly through his nose. “Walk you through a hypothetical?” His voice lowered, almost gentle now. “Just a hypothetical situation?”
Sam, who had been examining the dusty workbench with his back turned, pivoted with deliberate slowness. The floorboards creaked beneath his boots as he turned, his expression shifting from contemplative to suspicious in the space of a heartbeat. His eyes narrowed to calculating slits, head tilting slightly as he studied Bucky’s face with the practiced scrutiny of someone who’d seen this movie before and didn’t like the ending.
“What did you do?” Sam’s voice was dangerously quiet, but filled the room like thunder.
“Nothing,” Bucky replied, the word snapping out too fast. His hands rose in a placating gesture that only heightened the tension crackling between them. “But consider this: the weakest point in any security system isn’t the software or the hardware.” He tapped his temple with his left index finger. “It’s the meatware. The human element.”
He looked between them, his eyes raw with urgency. They were listening. Good. That’s all he needed.
“In that prison,” he continued, words clipped and precise as bullet points, “it’s nine to one, prisoners to guards. And if two prisoners start fighting—” his fingers mimicked a collision in midair, “—protocol says four guards respond. Minimum.”
“Wait.” Sam’s expression started with suspicion, then darkened to comprehension, then horror. “You seem to know suspiciously a lot about this prison’s inner workings.”
“Yeah,” Isabelle added, acid rising in her throat as the pieces clicked into terrible alignment. “Why would two prisoners randomly start fighting, Bucky?”
Bucky didn’t flinch. Didn’t even blink. Just stood there, shoulders squared, chin lifted slightly. He looked almost insane, eyes wide, a weird smile on his face, batty as he kept going.
“Who knows?” He shrugged, the movement too casual against the tension vibrating through his frame. “Prison’s a pressure cooker. Could be any reason—territory, respect, boredom...” His voice dropped lower, almost conversational. “But the point is, these things escalate. Lockdown procedures would have to be initiated.”
“Tell me you didn’t—” Sam mumbled under his breath, shoulders tense as he brought a hand up to pinch the bridge of his nose.
“—All those bodies flying around,” Bucky pressed on, words accelerating like a train with cut brakes, “wouldn’t be hard to slip down a hallway or two. And then if the fire alarm got tripped while the prisoners were being separated—”
“You son of a bitch,” Sam cut him off. “You already set it up, didn’t you? This isn’t hypothetical at all.”
Isabelle felt her blood boil. “And when exactly is this prison break supposed to happen?” she demanded, fighting to keep her voice steady as heat prickled beneath her skin, her powers stirring with her rising anger.
A muscle twitched in his jaw, and for a split second, something like regret flickered across his face.
“Twenty minutes ago.”
The words landed like a grenade between them.
Isabelle’s lungs seized, her chest tightening as if squeezed by an invisible vise. Her heartbeat thundered everywhere at once—fingertips, temples, throat—each pulse a small explosion beneath her skin. “You did what? Without telling us? Without even—”
“I had to make sure we were clear of the facility first,” Bucky cut her off, his tone maddeningly matter-of-fact. His shoulders remained squared, stance wide and solid as if bracing for impact. “If you knew beforehand, your reactions wouldn’t have been genuine. The cameras would have caught it.”
“So you made that decision for all of us?” Sam’s voice dropped dangerously low, the calm before a storm. “You just—”
A metallic groan sliced through the air, the sound echoing off concrete walls, bouncing back distorted and hollow.
Isabelle spun toward the noise, her body coiling tight as a spring. Every muscle tensed for fight or flight, her powers surging beneath her skin in immediate response. Heat flooded her fingertips, that familiar burning sensation that preceded her abilities manifesting. She curled her fingers inward, pressing nails into her palms to contain it.
Footsteps approached from the shadows. Deliberate. Unhurried. The confident stride of someone who felt no need to rush.
Zemo.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Sabotage" by Beastie Boys
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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Prison breaks don’t happen without consequences.
Some ghosts don’t wait to be summoned—they kick the door down first.Zemo’s free, the team’s barely holding it together, and Isabelle?
She’s running on adrenaline, half-truths, and a growing shadow she refuses to name.Lines are about to blur.
Alliances will be tested.
And not everyone’s walking away clean.(Also, Sam is five seconds away from losing his mind. Someone get this man a nap and a therapist.)
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 20: For Now
Chapter 20: For Now
Summary:
Helmut Zemo steps back into Isabelle Stark’s life—alive, smug, and every bit the monster who killed her. Trapped in the garage with the man who stole her heartbeat, Isabelle’s rage boils over in a storm of power and fury, leaving Zemo reeling and the team fracturing. Bucky begs for her trust, Sam tries to hold the line, and Isabelle? She nearly walks.
But when Bucky reaches her—not with orders, but with truth—she gives him five minutes and a warning: one wrong move, and she’ll finish what she started.
The uneasy alliance begins, but Zemo is already playing his game.
Notes:
Alright!!! He’s here!!! Our favorite smug menace— Zemo!!! 💚💚💚
I’ve been having so much fun writing him, and I really hope you all enjoy this take. Let me know what you think of his entrance and dynamic with the team (and especially with Isabelle 👀) in the comments!
Also! I finally finished the Act 1 playlist—it’s packed with the songs that shaped this arc, and I even made cute lil cover art to go with it 🖤
Here’s the Tumblr post/ Spotify Playlist if you wanna check it out!
✨https://www. /jarvissaveher/785153208078188544/all-the-time-in-the-world?source=share
💚https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1nY0WLIFAXp98IpHoy45xS?si=68afbe51f1de4c38&pt=af1188cc3072f7c973f133c55b259064Thank you all so much for reading, commenting, yelling in the comments, and just generally being amazing. Love you guys—see you next chapter!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Helmut Zemo stepped into the light with the graceful precision of a predator, one hand adjusting the collar of a prison guard’s uniform that sagged slightly on his frame. The dark fabric made his skin appear paler, his eyes cutting through the room like glass shards.
His gaze swept over the safe house methodically—exits, structural flaws, threats. When his eyes landed on Isabelle, everything stopped.
For the briefest of moments, his expression faltered. A flicker of recognition. Of disbelief. Of guilt? No—something colder. It was gone before it could be named, smoothed over by that immaculate mask of smug civility.
Something inside Isabelle snapped tight. Her breath caught like barbed wire in her throat. That face. Those eyes. The last thing she’d seen before everything had gone black. Before—
Before he’d killed her.
Zemo recovered with a quiet, terrible elegance. “Ms. Stark,” he said smoothly, as if greeting an old colleague. “You look... well. Death becomes you.”
Her powers flared without permission. Heat spiked down her spine like molten metal, pooling in her fingertips before she could think to stop it. There was a terrible, wonderful surge of energy that made the air around her hands shimmer with a sickly green.
Zemo was still looking at her. Still breathing. Still existing.
The wave of dizziness shot from her hands before she could consciously think to attack. Pure instinct. Pure fear—a crack. She watched it hit him—an invisible ripple that made the air between them distory—and felt a cold satisfaction when his smug expression faltered.
Only Sam’s sudden presence beside her—his shoulder brushing against hers, solid and warm—kept her from finishing what she’d started. An anchor to reality when she only wanted to make Zemo feel every ounce of terror she’d felt in those final moments before darkness.
“Isabelle—” Bucky’s voice cracked, raw with desperation. He lunged forward, one hand extended toward her. “Wait. Please.”
But Zemo took a step closer, the nausea making him unsteady. His polished veneer cracked as Isabelle’s chest constricted.
She lashed out again, harder this time. Not from fear, but from rage. White-hot and uncontrollable. The second wave hit him with enough force to make him physically stagger. His knees buckled slightly, color draining from his face as vertigo took hold.
“Wait—” Bucky’s expression was torn between understanding and urgency. His hand hovered near her arm but didn’t touch, respecting the boundary even now. “Give me a second to explain,” he pleaded, eyes darting between Sam and Isabelle. “We need him.”
“No.” Sam’s face contorted with anger, jabbing a finger in Zemo’s direction. “He’s going back to prison. Now.”
Zemo straightened, fighting through the disorientation Isabelle had inflicted. “If I may—” His words came out strangled, cut short as Isabelle hit him with a third wave. This time, she pushed deeper, finding the nerves controlling his equilibrium and twisting.
“No!” The simultaneous shout from Sam, Bucky, and Isabelle echoed through the garage.
Zemo hunched forward and clutched his stomach. His knees hit the concrete with a dull thud that resonated through her bones.
For a moment, she felt powerful—in control. Then she caught her reflection in the surface of a nearby tool cabinet—green eyes glowing unnaturally, face twisted with a hatred she barely recognized.
“Please, Isabelle.” Bucky’s voice cut through her focus, softer now, almost gentle. The hint of desperation crept back into his tone. “I know what he did. I know. But we need what he knows.” His eyes held hers, not judging, just asking. “Just give me a minute to explain.”
Her fingers trembled. The power coursed through her veins, begging for release, for completion. For vengeance. But—
Slowly, reluctantly, she uncurled her fingers. The green glow faded, and Zemo gasped as the pressure lifted. He remained on his knees, breathing heavily, but his eyes never left her face.
“Don’t,” she warned, her voice low and dangerous, barely more than a whisper. The single word carried the weight of a promise. “Don’t even think about trying anything.”
Zemo’s lips curved into the ghost of a smile, as if they were sharing some private joke. “My dear Ms. Stark,” he managed, voice ragged but still infuriatingly composed. “I wouldn’t dream of it.”
Bucky took a deep breath, dragging his left hand through his hair. “When Steve refused to sign the Accords, you backed him,” he said, voice low and steady. His eyes moved deliberately between Sam and Isabelle. “You broke the law. You stuck your neck out for me—both of you. I’m asking you to do it again.”
Isabelle felt her jaw clench. The memory of Leipzig airport flashed through her mind—concrete cracking beneath superpowered bodies, the taste of blood in her mouth, her father’s voice crackling through the comms. The cost had been catastrophic.
Zemo straightened, dusting off his knees as the nausea from Isabelle’s attack receded. His eyes were clear again. “I really think I’m invaluable—”
“Shut up,” Sam cut him off, each syllable sharp as a blade. The muscles in his jaw worked beneath his skin, anger radiating off him in waves.
The garage fell into an uneasy silence, broken only by the distant hum of traffic and the soft ping of cooling metal somewhere in the shadows. Sam’s eyes dropped to the oil-stained concrete, his shoulders rising and falling with controlled breaths. Isabelle could practically see the gears turning behind his eyes—weighing options, calculating risks, measuring the cost of trust against necessity.
Bucky stood perfectly still, the way only he could—a soldier awaiting orders, a friend asking for faith.
After what felt like hours compressed into seconds, Sam raised his head. His eyes, when they met Bucky’s, carried resignation and resolve in equal measure.
“Okay,” he said, the word hanging in the air between them.
“Okay?” Isabelle echoed, disbelief sharpening her voice. The green glow threatened to return to her fingertips. She curled them into her palm, feeling her nails bite into skin. “He killed me, Sam. He killed me and you’re just—”
Sam held up a hand, the gesture firm but not dismissive. His eyes softened when they met hers. “Look, I know—I know.” The repetition carried understanding, not condescension. “I don’t like this either.”
He turned, shooting warning looks at both Bucky and Zemo, the shift in his posture making it clear who was in charge despite Bucky’s request. The Sam Wilson who’d followed Captain America was still there, but something else was emerging—something that made even Zemo straighten slightly.
“If we do this,” Sam said, each word deliberate as he fixed his gaze on Zemo, “you don’t make a move without our permission. You don’t pull your bullshit. You don’t even breathe too loud without checking with one of us first.”
A ghost of a smile played at the corners of Zemo’s mouth, the expression never quite reaching his eyes. “Fair,” he agreed, voice smooth as polished stone.
“No! Not fair,” Isabelle said, the words scraping her throat raw. Her fingers still tingled with residual power. The green had faded, but the potential hummed beneath her skin. “Nothing about this is fair.”
Sam’s eyes found hers across the garage, in understanding. She didn’t want his understanding. She wanted his regret.
“Iz—” he started.
“Don’t you dare ‘Iz’ me right now.” She stepped back, heel catching on an uneven patch of concrete. Her gaze slid to Zemo, who watched her with that infuriating half-smile, like they were actors in a play only he had read to the end. She swallowed hard, tasting copper. “No,” she said, her voice steadier than her hands. “I’m out.”
“Isabelle—” Sam stepped forward, arm extended toward her.
She slapped his hand away with enough force to make him wince. “No. You said I could pull out, no questions asked. I’m pulling out.” Her voice cracked on the last word, betraying her. “I refuse to work with him. I thought we were just talking to him,” she continued, gesturing wildly toward the Sokovian. “Not teaming up with him. Not—” She cut herself off, chest heaving. “Not bringing my murderer onto the team.”
She shot Bucky a glare that could have melted vibranium, disappointment radiating from her in waves. The betrayal stung worse than she’d expected.
“Good luck with that,” she spat, jerking her head toward Zemo. The words tasted bitter on her tongue, acidic and raw.
She turned, muscles coiled tight as she moved toward the exit. Each step on the concrete floor echoed too loudly in her ears. The garage seemed to shrink around her, walls closing in, air thickening. The shadows between shelving units deepened, stretching like fingers toward her ankles.
Three sets of eyes burned into her back. Sam’s concern radiated like heat. Bucky’s desperation hung heavy as smoke. And Zemo—calculative, gauging, assessing her retreat with that detached care that made her skin crawl.
Her fingers closed around the door handle. Cold metal bit into her palm. One push and she’d be gone. Away from this insanity. Away from the man who had killed her.
“Isabelle.”
Bucky’s voice was soft, barely above a whisper. Not demanding. Not commanding. Just her name, spoken like a question.
She froze, breath catching. Her knuckles whitened against the handle.
“Wait. Please.”
Something in his tone made her hesitate—the ragged edge of genuine fear. Not fear of her. Fear for her. She didn’t turn immediately. Couldn’t. The rage still pulsed beneath her skin, green and sickly and hungry. But she didn’t push the door open either.
Three heartbeats. Four. Five.
Slowly, she pivoted. Her gaze cut across the room, past Sam’s tense shoulders, past Zemo’s infuriating half-smile, landing finally on Bucky. His eyes were wide, unguarded—steel blue and painfully earnest.
“Five minutes,” she said, voice tight. “That’s all you get. Outside. Just us.”
Relief flickered across his face, quickly masked by determination. He took a careful step toward her, then another.
Sam shifted his weight, looking like he wanted to intervene, but something in Bucky’s expression stopped him. A silent exchange passed between them—trust me, Bucky’s eyes seemed to say. Sam’s jaw tightened, but he stepped back.
Isabelle pushed the door open with more force than necessary, cool air rushing against her heated skin. The alley behind the garage was narrow, littered with discarded tools and empty oil drums. The afternoon light cut between buildings in sharp, angular shafts.
She moved several paces away before facing him, arms crossed tight over her chest. A barrier. Protection.
Bucky followed, closing the door behind him with a quiet click. In the half-shadow of the alley, the planes of his face looked harder, the circles under his eyes deeper.
“Talk,” she demanded, the single syllable sharp as broken glass.
He didn’t speak immediately. His throat worked, Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallowed. The silence stretched between them, taut as piano wire.
“I should have told you,” he finally said. “About Zemo. About the plan.”
“Yeah,” she agreed, voice flat. “You should have.”
“I didn’t—” He stopped, closing his eyes for a second. “I didn’t know how to tell you.”
“They’re called words, Barnes.” The bitterness leaked through despite her attempt to sound detached. “Try ‘Hey Isabelle, just a heads up, I’m thinking about working with the guy who murdered you.’“
He flinched as if she’d struck him. Good. Let him hurt. Let him feel a fraction of what was churning inside her.
“You’re right,” he said, and the simple admission caught her off guard. “I—I should have told you and Sam.”
The anger that had been sustaining her wavered, just slightly. She tightened her grip on her arms, nails digging into skin through her jacket. Isabelle turned away, staring at the brick wall of the alley. A faded advertisement for motor oil peeled at the corners, decades old. She focused on the chipped paint, trying to steady her breathing.
“I died, Bucky.” Her voice was barely audible. “Do you understand what that’s like? One minute I was there, and then—nothing. Darkness. Cold. And my father’s face was the last thing I saw.”
She heard him shift behind her, boots scraping against concrete.
“ I know what it’s like to have someone take everything from you,” he said quietly. “To have them standing right in front of you, breathing the same air. Living while you’re—” He stopped, swallowed. “While you’re barely holding yourself together.”
She turned back to face him, surprised by the raw honesty in his voice. His eyes held hers, unflinching.
“I’m not asking you to forgive him,” Bucky continued. “I’m not even asking you to be in the same room with him if you don’t want to be.”
“Then what are you asking?”
Bucky’s metal hand reached out, hesitating for a moment before gently grasping her shoulder. The touch was light, careful, ready to withdraw at the slightest resistance. But she didn’t pull away.
“I’m asking you to trust me,” he said, voice low and intense. His steel-blue eyes locked onto hers, filled with a fierce determination that made her breath catch. “I swear to you, on my life, Zemo will not hurt you again. Not while I’m breathing. ”
The conviction in his voice sent an unexpected warmth through her chest. She wanted to believe him. God, she wanted to. A reluctant smile threatened to break through. She fought it back, not ready to surrender her anger completely.
“I can’t promise I won’t kill him,” she said, the words hanging between them like a challenge.
Bucky’s eyes met hers, something fierce and protective flashing in their depths. “If he tries anything—anything at all—I’ll help you hide the body.”
The unexpected response startled a genuine laugh from her, sharp and surprised. “Pretty sure Sam wouldn’t approve of that plan.”
“Sam doesn’t need to know everything.” Bucky’s grip on her shoulder tightened, just slightly.
She studied his face, searching for any hint of manipulation or impatience. There was none—just that steady, unwavering presence that had become so familiar over the past weeks.
Isabelle uncrossed her arms, letting them fall to her sides. The anger wasn’t gone—it still burned hot and bright inside her—but it no longer threatened to consume her whole.
“Five minutes are up,” she said, tapping an imaginary watch on her wrist. There was no heat in her voice now, just a slight slump of her shoulders.
Bucky’s hand slid from her shoulder, and he took a half a step back, giving her space without retreating completely. “What do you want to do?” he asked. No manipulation, no pressure—just a simple question.
Isabelle looked past him toward the closed garage door. Beyond that thin barrier stood Zemo—breathing, thinking, existing when he had no right to. The mere thought of sharing oxygen with him made her stomach clench and her powers ripple beneath her skin.
A muscle in her jaw twitched. “If I go back in there,” she said carefully, each word measured, “I can’t promise what will happen.”
“I know.” Bucky’s eyes never left her face, steady and unblinking.
She ran her tongue over her teeth. “He deserves worse than prison.”
“Yes.”
The simple agreement startled her. She’d expected platitudes about justice, about being better than their enemies. Instead, Bucky’s face held grim understanding—the look of someone who’d weighed souls and found them wanting.
Isabelle glanced down the alley toward the street beyond. She could walk away right now. Disappear into the crowd, call Happy for extraction, be on a Stark Industries jet within the hour. Leave Sam and Bucky to deal with Zemo, with the Flag Smashers, with whatever fresh hell was brewing.
It would be so easy.
She sighed, running a hand through her hair.
Isabelle closed her eyes briefly, feeling the weight of responsibility settle across her shoulders.
“I’m not saying I’m okay with this,” she said, opening her eyes to fix Bucky with a hard stare. “I’m really, really not. But, I’ll stay,” she continued, her voice hardening. “For now.”
The relief on Bucky’s face was immediate and palpable, like a physical weight lifted. The tightness around his eyes softened, though the wariness didn’t wholly disappear.
“If he tries anything—”
“I’ll hold him down while you do it,” Bucky finished, his voice deadly serious.
The corner of her mouth twitched upward, not quite a smile but close. She turned on her heel. She pushed the door open, squaring her shoulders as she prepared to face the man who had once ended her life.
Behind her, Bucky’s voice came soft and sincere: “Thank you.”
The industrial district of Berlin melted into a blur of grays and browns in the rearview mirror as Sam drove the black sedan Bucky had waiting for them at the safehouse. Isabelle pressed herself into the corner of the backseat, as far from Zemo as the confined space allowed.
She focused on her breathing. In through the nose, out through the mouth. The technique Bruce had taught her, over ten years ago now, for controlling her powers when emotions threatened to overwhelm. Bucky sat rigid beside her, his body angled slightly forward, eyes locked on the back of Zemo’s head with such intensity that Isabelle half-expected the man’s hair to catch fire.
“Turn left here,” Zemo directed, pointing toward what appeared to be a dead-end street. “The entrance is concealed.”
Sam’s jaw clenched visibly as he followed the instruction, distrust radiating from him in waves. “If this is a trap—”
“Then you would kill me,” Zemo finished smoothly. “Which would be counterproductive to my continued existence. I assure you, my self-preservation instinct remains fully intact.”
The narrow street opened suddenly into a hidden industrial courtyard, surrounded by weathered brick buildings with blacked-out windows. Sam pulled to a stop, the engine’s purr fading to silence that felt heavier than before.
“Ah, we’re here.” Zemo stepped from the car once Sam parked it. He gestured toward the largest structure with a sweep of his hand, as if presenting a prized estate rather than a dilapidated warehouse.
Isabelle’s fingers tightened around the door handle as she pushed it open. “Let’s just get this over with,” she said, sliding out of the car and putting immediate distance between herself and Zemo. Her boots hit the ground with deliberate heaviness, a counterpoint to his silent movements. “The sooner we get what we need, the sooner we can put him back where he belongs.”
Bucky emerged behind her, his presence a solid wall at her back. She didn’t need to look to know his eyes hadn’t left Zemo since they’d arrived—tracking, calculating, ready.
“Behind bars?” Zemo asked, tilting his head slightly.
Isabelle turned fully toward him, allowing herself to really look at him for the first time since the garage. “Six feet under would be my preference.”
Something flickered in Zemo’s eyes—not fear, but amusement. A spark of genuine humor, as if her hatred delighted him. His smile widened a fraction, revealing perfect teeth.
“The entrance is this way,” he said, gesturing toward a rusted side door nearly invisible against the weathered brick. “After you, Ms. Stark.”
“No,” Sam cut in, stepping between them. “After me. Then Barnes. You go where I can see you, and Isabelle keeps her distance.”
Zemo inclined his head in acquiescence, but as Sam moved toward the entrance, he leaned slightly toward Isabelle, voice dropping to a near-whisper.
“For what it’s worth,” he murmured, “your death was never personal. Just... necessary.”
Before she could respond, Bucky’s hand closed around Zemo’s upper arm, metal fingers visibly tightening. “Move,” he ordered, shoving the Sokovian forward with barely restrained force.
Zemo complied, but not before casting one last glance at Isabelle over his shoulder. The look held neither malice nor fear—just curiosity, as if she were a puzzle he was still trying to solve.
The warehouse door groaned as Sam pulled it open, the hinges protesting loudly, like a wounded animal. Zemo stepped through first, slipping past Sam.
Isabelle watched his silhouette against the dark interior, a shadow among shadows, and felt her stomach clench.
“Allow me,” Zemo said, his voice echoing in the cavernous space.
A series of clicks followed, and then, light exploded outward, industrial fixtures humming to life one by one with theatrical timing. Isabelle blinked against the sudden brightness, her eyes adjusting to reveal—
Cars. Dozens of them. Row upon pristine row of gleaming automobiles arranged with museum-like precision. Vintage classics nestled alongside modern supercars, their polished surfaces throwing back fractured reflections of the overhead lights.
“Jesus,” Sam muttered beside her, “our first move is grand theft auto?”
Zemo turned, “There are all mine, actually.” He ran his fingers along the hood of a midnight-blue Aston Martin, the gesture almost loving. “My father was a collector. These have been in our family for generations.”
The casual tone—as if they were colleagues on a business trip rather than captor and prisoner—made bile rise in Isabelle’s throat. She caught Sam’s reflection in the glossy surface of a nearby Jaguar, his expression mirroring her disbelief. This is insane, flashed between them without a word being spoken.
“How comforting,” Isabelle grumbled, her brow twitching. “A war criminal with a car collection. What’s next, a wine cellar? A summer home in Monaco?”
Behind her, Bucky shifted his weight as Zemo pivoted slightly, just enough to show her his profile.
“Both, actually,” Zemo replied, his accent wrapping around the words like silk over steel. “Though I prefer the château in Lugano when the weather turns. The light on the lake is quite spectacular in autumn.”
“I wasn’t asking for your travel blog,” she snapped, fingers curling into fists. The green glow threatened to spill between her knuckles, her control fraying with each passing second in his presence.
“No?” Zemo’s eyes flicked to her hands, noting the suppressed power there. “Perhaps you should. Travel broadens the mind, Ms. Stark. Something we could all benefit from.”
Sam stepped between them, shoulders squared. “Enough with the tourism pitch. What are we doing here? We can’t exactly take any of these on our little road trip.”
“No,” he agreed, “we cannot.” Zemo’s smile turned enigmatic, the corners of his mouth lifting. And that damned head tilt again.
He moved through the collection with the casual confidence of ownership, his fingers trailing across hoods and fenders as if greeting old friends.
Bucky remained a silent sentinel, tracking Zemo’s every movement with predatory focus. The plates in his metal arm recalibrated with a nearly imperceptible whir when Zemo paused at a black Mercedes, its chrome accents catching the light.
He popped the trunk with practiced ease, revealing a leather duffel bag and several garment bags. He unzipped one, pulling out a change of clothes—expensive fabrics in dark colors, the kind that didn’t draw attention but screamed money to those who knew what to look for.
“Dressing for the occasion?” Isabelle couldn’t help but quip, her eyes lingering on a trench coat with an exaggerated collar. The kind of coat that belonged in spy movies, not real operations.
Zemo’s gaze flickered to her, giving her a nod. “One must always look the part. Appearances matter more than most realize.”
He began to change with the unselfconscious efficiency of a soldier, unbuttoning his stolen guard uniform without hesitation. Isabelle turned away, her cheeks flushing slightly with a mixture of disgust and unwanted awareness. Even with her back turned, she felt his presence like a splinter under her skin—foreign, painful, impossible to ignore.
“I spent years hunting people Hydra recruited to recreate the serum,” Zemo continued, his voice muffled briefly as fabric passed over his head. The rustle of cloth filled the silence between his words. “Because once it’s out there, once that particular genie escapes its bottle—”
She heard him zip something, the sound sharp and final.
“—People inevitably create armies of super soldiers.”
Isabelle felt his eyes on her back, and she turned slowly, muscles tensed for a fight she wasn’t supposed to start.
Zemo stood fully dressed in a tailored ensemble—dark purple turtleneck hugging his throat, pristine trench coat settling perfectly across his shoulders, slacks pressed with military precision. The guard’s uniform lay discarded on the concrete floor like a shed skin.
“Like the Avengers,” he added, his gaze locked with hers, challenging.
“We weren’t an army,” she hissed through clenched teeth.
“No?” Zemo raised an eyebrow, the gesture somehow both polite and condescending. “Then what would you call a collection of enhanced individuals operating outside governmental oversight, answering to no authority but their own moral compass?”
Before she could answer, he turned away, moving to a canary-yellow Porsche parked at the end of the row. The color was jarring against the muted tones of the other vehicles—too bright, too cheerful for the man selecting it.
He reached inside, his body blocking her view of whatever he was retrieving. The movement was casual but deliberate, his shoulders angled just enough to obscure his actions. Isabelle took an instinctive step forward, muscles tensing.
Bucky moved in the same instant, closing the distance to Zemo in three silent strides. His metal hand shot out, fingers clamping around Zemo’s wrist just as the Sokovian withdrew something from the glove compartment.
Zemo didn’t flinch. Didn’t even blink. His eyes—cool and calculating—flicked from Bucky’s face to the metal hand encircling his wrist, then back again.
“Easy, Sergeant Barnes,” he said, the words almost gentle, as if soothing a spooked animal. “I assure you, if I wanted to harm any of you, I would be considerably more... creative.”
He slowly rotated his captured hand, palm up, revealing what he’d withdrawn from the glove compartment—a small, folded piece of purple fabric. The movement was deliberate, theatrical even, like a magician revealing the harmlessness of his trick.
Isabelle stepped closer despite herself, drawn by the strange intensity between the two men. The warehouse lights caught the sheen of the fabric—silk, or something equally fine—as Zemo unfurled it with his free hand to reveal a simple ski mask.
“A precaution,” Zemo explained, his accent wrapping around the words like velvet over steel. “Not everyone appreciates my face these days.”
Bucky’s jaw clenched, the muscle there jumping visibly. For five heartbeats, he maintained his grip, metal fingers pressing into flesh hard enough that Isabelle could see the skin whitening beneath them. Not enough to bruise, but enough to remind.
The air between them crackled with unspoken threats.
Then, with obvious reluctance, Bucky released him. His fingers uncurled one by one, the plates in his arm recalibrating with a series of soft clicks as he stepped back.
“Try that again,” Bucky said, the words barely audible, “and I’ll break it next time.”
Zemo’s mouth curved into something not quite a smile as he massaged his wrist, the motion almost absent-minded. “Noted.”
He folded the mask into his leather bag without comment, but Isabelle caught the ghost of satisfaction that flickered across his face—like he’d proven something, tested a boundary and found it exactly where he expected.
“I ended the Winter Soldier program once before,” Zemo said, his voice taking on a steely edge as he secured the bag. His eyes moved deliberately between the three of them, lingering longest on Bucky. “I have no intention of leaving my work unfinished.” He straightened his already-perfect collar, the gesture almost ritualistic. “To do this properly, we’ll have to scale a ladder of lowlifes. Each rung bringing us closer to our quarry.”
Sam crossed his arms, his expression skeptical. “Well, join the party,” he said, voice flat. “We’ve already started.”
“We’re waiting on a ping from the Flag Smashers’ next location,” Isabelle said. Her phone felt heavy in her pocket—the last check with FRIDAY this morning had yielded nothing. Just static and silence where intelligence should be. “As soon as they surface, we’ll find them.”
Zemo made a sound, something between a scoff and a tut. “That will only give you this particular patch of soldiers,” he said, adjusting the cuff of his sleeve with meticulous care. His eyes flicked to Bucky. “As James has already surmised, we need to find the source.” The way Zemo wielded familiarity like a weapon was almost as dangerous as his tactical brilliance. “First stop is a woman named Selby. She’s a mid-level fence, but I still have a line on her. From there, we climb.”
Isabelle caught Sam’s eye across the warehouse floor. His jaw was tight, his eyes hard with caution. She shifted her gaze to Bucky, and beneath his vigilance, she caught his determination. Desperation, even.
Isabelle’s stomach knotted. She’d seen that look before—on her father’s face, in the moments before he’d make a decision that would either save everyone or destroy everything.
“Alright,” Sam finally said, each syllable heavy with reluctance. He stepped closer to Zemo, using his height to full advantage as he looked down at the Sokovian. “But remember what I said. You don’t make a move without our say-so.”
Zemo inclined his head in acknowledgment, the gesture almost courtly in its precision. “Of course.” His eyes, however, remained cold and calculating. “Shall we begin?”
And then he moved toward the exit, a man who knew exactly where all the pieces on the board were positioned.
Isabelle felt the green energy pulse beneath her skin, responding to the adrenaline coursing through her veins. One push, one moment of lost control, and she could end this—end him—before they took another step into whatever web he was weaving.
Her fingers tingled with potential.
Sam’s hand settled on her shoulder, grounding her. “Eyes forward,” he said quietly. “We do this together.”
She exhaled slowly, and she nodded. Reluctantly.
As they stepped through the doorway after Zemo, Isabelle couldn’t shake the sensation that they were walking onto a tightrope stretched across an abyss. One misstep, one moment of misplaced trust, and they would plummet into darkness.
She only hoped they wouldn’t fall.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "The Killing Moon" by Echo & the Bunnymen
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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Zemo tilted his head, all silk and smirk, and held up a weathered little notebook like it was nothing.Isabelle’s blood turned to ice.
Steve’s notebook.
And then—
“Nakajima?” Zemo read aloud, voice soaked in mock innocence. “Curious name.”Bucky moved faster than thought.
One second, Zemo was taunting.
The next, he was pinned against the seat, vibranium fingers crushing his windpipe.“If you touch that again,” Bucky said, low and lethal, “I’ll kill you.”
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 21: Pedestals & Ghosts
Chapter 21: Pedestals & Ghosts
Summary:
A private jet. A ruined legacy. A man who knows how to weaponize silence.
Isabelle never wanted to see Zemo again—never wanted to feel her heart stop at the mention of her name inked in Steve’s old notebook. But some ghosts don’t stay buried. And some monsters know exactly how to peel a person apart mid-flight, glass of champagne in hand.As secrets surface and old wounds split wide open, Bucky’s rage slips its leash—and Isabelle watches the Winter Soldier bleed through the cracks.
Madripoor waits on the horizon.
And Zemo already has their roles picked out.
Notes:
Hey guys! Sorry for the late-night update. Work’s been kicking my ass lately, and I ended up grabbing dinner with some friends to decompress. But I’m back, and so is the fic! 💚
And.....it’s here....the plane (you know the one 👀👀👀
I had so much fin writing this one, and I’m obsessed with the dialogue, and super proud of how it turned out.Hope you enjoy it—can’t wait to hear what you think. Love you all endlessly.
See you next time 💚💚💚
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The sun hung low over Berlin’s horizon, casting long gold shadows across the private airstrip. Before them sat a sleek private jet, its polished exterior gleaming against the darkening sky. An elderly man in an immaculate black suit stood at the base of the stairs, arms behind his back, gaze impassive.
“Okay,” Isabelle muttered, crossing her arms, a nervous energy buzzed, “we’re not seriously about to hijack a jet, are we? Because if transportation was the issue, my family has jets. Plural.”
Zemo was already halfway up the stairs, moving like a man who belonged exactly where he was. He paused, turning to look at her over his shoulder. The fading sunlight caught his face at an angle, highlighting the faint curve of his lips.
“Ms. Stark,” he said, voice silky with mock offense, “you wound me deeply. Do I strike you as a man who would stoop to something as crude as hijacking?” He gestured toward the plane with an elegant flick of his wrist. “I curate.”
Sam looked between the plane and Zemo, then back to Isabelle. The confusion on his face shifted to disbelief. “Wait—” Sam’s voice dropped an octave. “You own a plane?”
Zemo didn’t break stride as he continued up the stairs.
“I’m a Baron, Sam,” he replied. The words were flat, matter-of-fact, but carried an edge sharp enough to cut. “My family held wealth and land long before Sokovia was turned to ash.” A beat of heavy silence. “Courtesy of your colleagues.”
Zemo turned, heading up the steps.
“Ah, Oeznik, so good to see you, my friend,” He greeted the older man at the stairs. They exchanged cheek kisses like old diplomats. With a fluid gesture, Zemo motioned toward the aircraft. “Please. Let’s continue this charming debate in the air. Time, after all, is not something I take for granted.”
Sam hung back for a second, his gaze dragging across the jet like it might explode on contact. “Man,” he muttered, rubbing his face, climbing the steps, disappearing into the cabin. “I can’t believe I’m about to get on a plane with Zemo.”
Bucky turned to Isabelle, the wind tugging lightly at his hair. He nodded toward the jet’s entrance. Isabelle huffed out a breath that wasn’t quite a sigh and wasn’t quite a laugh. Something in between—the sound of someone who’d long since given up being surprised by the absurdity of her life.
“Fuck off,” she grumbled, gripping the cool metal railing, feeling the subtle vibration of the idling engines through her fingertips as she climbed. “As if I didn’t hate flying enough already.”
Charcoal leather seats gleamed in the cabin’s ambient lighting, each one looking soft enough to swallow her whole. Polished wood paneling lined the walls, and recessed lights cast everything in a warm amber glow that felt like a lie. Pretty packaging for a dangerous situation.
Typical.
She slid into a window seat, the leather yielding beneath her. Bucky entered last, his frame filling the doorway momentarily before he ducked inside. He lowered himself into the seat beside her, on the other side of the aisle.
Across, Zemo folded himself into the seat directly opposite Isabelle, not in front of Bucky as she’d expected. The choice was deliberate. Strategic. Psychological warfare at 40,000 feet. He crossed one leg over the other, the movement elegant and controlled, like everything else about him.
Sam dropped heavily into the seat across from Bucky. He stretched his legs out with exaggerated casualness, but Isabelle caught the tension in his shoulders, the way his eyes kept darting to the cockpit.
“So,” Sam said, clapping his hands together once, the sound sharp in the hushed cabin, “anyone wanna bet how many secret lairs this guy’s got stashed across the globe?” He jerked his thumb toward Zemo. “I’m gonna say twelve. One for each time he’s tried to manipulate someone in the last twenty-four hours.”
“You’re lowballing,” Isabelle smirked, meeting Sam’s eyes. “I’d put it at fifteen, minimum.”
Bucky rolled his eyes, but his mouth twitched at the corners—that almost-smile she’d started to recognize.
“I assure you,” Zemo said, pressing a hand to his chest in mock offense. His eyebrows lifted in practiced amusement. “My holdings are far more diverse than mere ‘lairs.’“ He pronounced the word with delicate distaste. “Though I must admit, the concept of a Monday-specific hideout is... charming.”
The engines roared to life beneath them, a deep mechanical purr that Isabelle felt first in her boots, then crawling up her calves and settling in her chest. Oeznik returned from the back of the plane, carrying a silver tray balanced in one hand, a crystal flute of pale gold champagne perched on it like a jewel.
“Ah, impeccable as always,” Zemo murmured, accepting the glass with a slight incline of his head. His fingers wrapped around the delicate stem, lifting the glass slightly. His gaze swept across the cabin like a searchlight, lingering a half-second too long on each of them before moving on.
“Would anyone care to join me? The vintage is...” His tongue clicked softly against the roof of his mouth, “...exceptional. Château Margaux, 1995. A particularly good year for France, if not for the rest of the world.”
“I’m good,” Sam said flatly. He folded his arms across his chest, shoulders squared, jaw set. “I don’t drink with people who monologue mid-murder.”
Bucky didn’t even bother to respond. He only stared out the window. Only the slight flex of his metal fingers betrayed any reaction at all—a ripple of silver, then stillness.
“No.” Isabelle dropped her gaze to the carpet beneath her feet. Geometric patterns in muted grays and blues, probably worth more than most people’s monthly rent.
Zemo swirled the champagne once, twice. The liquid caught the cabin’s amber lighting, spinning gold against crystal.
“But Ms. Stark,” he said, voice low and smooth as silk, “I imagine your palate is quite refined. Surely there’s something aboard that meets your standards.” His eyes glinted. “Your father favored Macallan, did he not? Aged thirty years, if I recall correctly.”
“How do you know—”
She stopped herself as his words slid between her ribs like a blade, precise and cold. The casual mention of her father, what he liked, what he drank, in Zemo’s mouth felt like a violation. Her fingers curled into her palms, nails biting into flesh. She looked up, meeting his gaze directly. Her eyes locked with his. Dark against light, fire against ice.
“Don’t,” she said softly.
Not a request.
A warning.
Zemo’s smile curved, eyes narrowing just slightly, as if her refusal was exactly what he’d been fishing for. As if her reaction delighted him.
“Hey,” Sam leaned forward in his seat, his voice light in that dangerous ‘calm before the storm’ way, “How ‘bout we skip the cocktail mind games and focus on why we’re actually here?”
Bucky’s head turned slowly from the window, his attention now fully on Zemo, watching with the focused intensity of a predator tracking movement in tall grass.
Zemo’s smile faded a fraction, not disappearing completely but thinning at the edges. He set the glass down on the small table beside him with a soft clink that echoed in the sudden silence. His fingers tightened around the stem for a heartbeat before letting go, a momentary tell that Sam’s interruption had landed.
“Of course,” Zemo said, leaning back in his seat. “Always so... focused, Sam. It’s admirable, truly.” His gaze slid to Isabelle again. “My apologies, Ms. Stark,” he said, each syllable polished smooth. “You must understand, being in such close quarters with you...” He tilted his head slightly, studying her face like it was a puzzle he was assembling. “…is difficult, you could say.”
His fingers traced the stem of the untouched champagne flute, a casual gesture that somehow felt like a threat.
“Ultron took everything from me.” The words came out soft but landed hard. “My wife. My son. My father.” His accent thickened slightly, the only crack in his perfect composure. “All buried under a mountain.”
The cabin suddenly felt airless. Isabelle’s lungs seized, her throat closing around words that wouldn’t come. She could feel Bucky’s eyes on her, feel the heat radiating from him across the aisle—tension made physical.
“I—” Her voice faltered. She swallowed hard, tasting something bitter at the back of her throat. “I’m sorry.” The words felt pathetically inadequate, dust thrown against a hurricane. “My dad…he thought he was doing the right thing.”
Zemo’s smile was a thin, bloodless thing. His eyes never warmed, never softened—twin points of ice in a perfectly composed face. “And look where he ended up.”
The words sliced through the cabin, clean and cruel, bouncing off the walls of her skull.
Dead.
That’s where her father ended up. Dead and gone and dust, while she sat in a luxury jet with the man who’d helped tear the Avengers apart.
She caught Bucky watching her, his expression unreadable except for the slight furrow between his brows. She heard the subtle whir of vibranium plates recalibrating as his metal fist clenched.
The jet began to take off, accelerating and pressing her deeper into her seat. Zemo leaned back, lifting the crystal flute to his lips. He took a slow sip, eyes half-lidded with satisfaction as the jet’s nose tilted upward. He looked like a man who’d just won a game no one else knew they were playing.
Sam’s jaw clenched, the muscle working beneath his skin. His eyes narrowed to slits, following Zemo’s every movement like a hawk tracking prey.
“Why don’t you tell us about where we’re going,” Sam said, patience clearly hanging by a thread, “and cut this bullshit?”
Zemo’s lips twitched. He set his champagne flute down with a soft clink against the polished wood table. His hand disappeared inside his coat, the fabric rustling softly against whatever was hidden there. Isabelle tensed instantly, her hand curling into a fist. Across the aisle, Bucky went perfectly still, his eyes never leaving Zemo’s hand.
The Baron extracted a small leather-bound book, worn at the edges, its spine cracked with use. The tension in the cabin remained thick as he thumbed through it with exaggerated interest, the soft flutter of pages the only sound besides the hum of the engines.
Sam cleared his throat pointedly. “You hard of hearing now too?”
Zemo looked up, eyes wide with practiced innocence.
“Oh, I’m sorry,” he said, voice dripping with false sincerity. He extracted something from between the pages—a smaller notebook, its cover faded and battered, edges softened by time and handling. He held it up between two fingers like a playing card. “I was just fascinated by this.”
Recognition hit Isabelle. The small, weathered notebook dangling from Zemo’s fingers—it was Steve’s.
Zemo’s gaze slid from the notebook to Bucky.
“I don’t know what to call it,” he said, tapping a finger against an open page, his nail making a soft clicking sound against the paper. “But this part seems to be important.” His eyebrows arched with theatrical curiosity. “Who is Nakajima?” His eyes pivoted to Isabelle next. “Also, this is rather curious. Your name is on this list, too, Ms. Stark.”
In one moment, Bucky had been sat, planted firm in his seat, and then the next, he was a blur of motion.
His vibranium hand closed around Zemo’s throat, the impact slamming the Baron back. His head bounced against the leather headrest with a dull thud that Isabelle felt in her own skull. The champagne flute toppled, spilling gold across polished wood, dripping onto the carpet in slow, silent drops.
She couldn’t move. Couldn’t speak. Her pulse hammered against her ribcage as Bucky leaned in, his face inches from Zemo’s. The cabin lights caught the sharp edge of his jaw, the dangerous glint in his eyes. This wasn’t the quiet, brooding man she was coming to know. This was something else. Something breaking through carefully constructed restraints.
“If you touch that again,” Bucky growled, each word sharper than the last, “I’ll kill you.”
A shiver raced down Isabelle’s spine—not entirely from fear. The raw power in his voice, the absolute certainty behind the threat…it stirred something in her she wasn’t prepared to name. Her mouth went dry. She watched, transfixed, as Bucky’s mental fingers flexed against Zemo’s throat, the plates recalibrating with soft mechanical whispers that somehow cut through the roar of blood in her ears.
Zemo’s face had gone chalk-white, eyes bulging as he pawed uselessly at Bucky’s wrist. The notebook slipped from his fingers, hitting the carpet.
Isabelle’s body instinctively prepared to move, though whether to pull Bucky back or help him finish the job, she wasn’t entirely sure. Her powers hummed beneath her skin, responding to the surge of adrenaline, to the electric tension filling the small space.
With a sharp, disgusted motion, Bucky released his grip, shoving Zemo back. The Baron gasped, a wet, desperate sound that filled the cabin. Isabelle couldn’t tear her eyes away from the angry red imprints left by metal fingers on his throat—perfect outlines of exactly where Bucky could have crushed his windpipe.
“Bucky—” Sam started, voice tight with warning.
“It’s not yours,” Bucky cut Sam off, ignoring him.
His chest rose and fell with controlled breaths, the only visible sign of his rage. He bent down, snatching the fallen notebook from the floor and tucking it inside his jacket with a protective gesture that seemed almost tender compared to the violence of seconds before.
His eyes never left Zemo’s face, tracking every minute movement like a sniper calculating when to take the shot. “It’s not yours to read.”
Isabelle realized she’d been holding her breath only when her lungs began to burn. She exhaled slowly, silently, acutely aware of how the temperature in the cabin seemed to rise ten degrees.
Zemo massaged his throat, fingertips pressing into the tender flesh. He coughed once, but despite everything, his composure reassembled itself with unsettling speed, like a magic trick in reverse, or broken pieces snapping back into place before her eyes.
Isabelle knew she should say something. Break the tension, defuse the situation. But the words wouldn’t come. All she could think about was the lethal grace in Bucky’s movements, the absolute certainty in his threat.
And how, God help her, some small, dark part of her had wanted to see him follow through.
“I see I’ve touched a nerve,” Zemo rasped, straightening his collar.
But Isabelle couldn’t focus on him. Her eyes were now fixed on the spot where Bucky had tucked Steve’s notebook. Where her name apparently resided alongside others. The cabin seemed to shrink around her, air thinning.
“I apologize,” Zemo said, the words lacking his usual polish. “That was…tactless of me.” He inhaled carefully, testing the limits of his bruised throat. “I understand what that list represents. People you’ve wronged as the Winter Soldier.”
Her heart stuttered.
People he had wronged. Her grandparents. Howard and Maria Stark. The car crash. And all the chain of events in her life that followed.
Isabelle’s gaze snapped to Bucky. His eyes met hers across the narrow aisle. Blue-gray eyes full of guilt so raw it made her chest ache something fierce. His jaw worked silently, lips parting then closing without sound. His flesh hand trembled before clenching into a white-knuckled fist.
Isabelle turned away, unable to bear the naked anguish on Bucky’s face. The window offered escape, the endless expanse of clouds, painted in violent oranges and reds by the setting sun. Like blood spreading through water.
Sam leaned forward, inserting himself between them like a human buffer. His elbows came to rest on his knees, shoulders squared but posture deliberately open. The peacemaker. The mediator. The only one thinking clearly. “That notebook,” he said, “that was Steve’s, right?”
Bucky’s hand moved to his jacket, fingers pressing against the outline beneath the fabric. The gesture was possessive, almost tender. Isabelle watched his grip tighten, then relax.
“Yeah,” Bucky said with a rough nod.
“I gave it to him,” Isabelle said. The words emerged before she could catch them. “After New York.”
She could still feel the weight of it in her hands. The smooth leather cover, the crisp blank pages with their faint blue lines. The bookstore had been small, tucked between a coffee shop and a vintage record store.
“Everything was so new to him,” she continued, throat tightening. “Everyone kept throwing information at him. History, technology, pop culture. It was overwhelming him.”
Bucky’s eyes found hers across the aisle again, something vulnerable flickering in their depths.
“So I bought him that,” she said. “Wrote down a few things to start with. Movies, music, food he should try.” She huffed a small laugh that felt more like a wound opening.
The memory crystallized – Steve’s face lighting up as she’d handed him the small notebook. The way his fingers had traced the edges reverently, like she’d given him something precious instead of just a $12 journal from a bookstore.
“He carried it everywhere after that,” she said, the ache in her chest expanding.
Bucky’s eyes darkened. “He gave it to me. After...” He trailed off, jaw working silently.
The word hung in the air.
After Steve left.
After he chose Peggy.
After he abandoned them all for a life seventy years in the past.
Sam frowned, but kept his eyes warm, looking between Isabelle and Bucky. “First day I met him, I told him about Trouble Man.” His eyes stood on Bucky, something tentative but genuine crossing his face. “Marvin Gaye. He wrote it in that book.” His eyebrow lifted. “Did you listen to it? What’d you think?”
Bucky shifted uncomfortably, his shoulders hunched slightly. “I like ‘40s music, so,” he muttered, gaze dropping to the floor.
Sam’s mouth fell open, eyes widening with exaggerated horror. “You didn’t like it?”
“I liked it,” Bucky snapped, defensive as a cornered cat.
“It is a masterpiece, James,” Zemo said, voice silky despite the damage. His fingers traced absent patterns on the armrest. “Complete. Comprehensive.” Each word rolled off his tongue with practiced precision. “It captures the African-American experience.”
Sam turned to Zemo, bewilderment flickering across his features before settling into reluctant agreement. “What...” He shook his head, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. “He’s out of line, but he’s right.” The tension visibly drained from his shoulders. “It’s great. Everyone loves Marvin Gaye.”
“I like Marvin Gaye,” Bucky mumbled, gaze fixed on the darkening sky outside. The clouds had turned deep purple as they climbed higher, the last rays of sunlight catching on the wing.
“Steve adored Marvin Gaye,” Sam added, voice softening.
A sudden giggle escaped Isabelle’s lips, surprising even herself. The sound felt foreign in her throat after so much tension.
“When we all moved into the tower,” she said, warmth spreading through her chest at the memory, “Steve was always playing Marvin Gaye in the gym. Like, always.” She could still see him, sweaty and focused, punching to the rhythm of ‘What’s Going On.’ “I tried to get him into other stuff, but he always liked Sam’s music taste better than mine.”
Sam grinned, settling back with a smug expression. “Well, that’s because you like all that metal and rock shit,” he teased, hands gesturing broadly. “You gotta work Steve slow, ease him into it.”
“It’s not like I started him with Motley Crue, or like, Dio,” Isabelle shot back, a defensive heat creeping up her neck. Her fingers splayed, hands moving as fast as her thoughts. “I had a system. A curriculum.”
She leaned forward, elbows on knees, suddenly invested in making them understand. “You start with the Beatles, obviously. Then Creedence, Blondie, Bowie—build the foundation before you hit the heavy stuff.”
Bucky’s head snapped up, his eyes sharpening with unexpected focus. “Creedence?” The name rolled off his tongue like he was testing the feel of it. “They sang that rain song, right?”
Something electric shot through Isabelle’s chest. She straightened, her body gravitating toward him without conscious thought.
“Yes!” The word burst from her like she’d been holding her breath. “‘Have You Ever Seen the Rain?’ God, that’s literally my favorite song ever. The Ramones cover is also amazing too.”
Her fingers tapped out the rhythm on her thigh without her even realizing it, the familiar beat as natural as her own heartbeat. She could almost hear John Fogerty’s voice in her head, clear as a bell.
Bucky’s face transformed. Not the polite half-smile he sometimes offered, but something genuine, a slight curve of his lips that reached his eyes, softening the hard edges.
“Steve wrote that one down,” he said quietly. “Said it reminded him of Brooklyn. The good parts.”
Isabelle couldn’t fight the grin that spread across her face, couldn’t tamp down the ridiculous surge of pride. That was her recommendation. Her song. Something that had mattered to Steve enough that he’d written it down, treasured it, and passed it on.
Zemo shifted in his seat, eyes fixed on Isabelle again. She felt his gaze like a physical touch, cataloging her smile, her posture, the way her fingers had stopped their nervous tapping.
“You must have been close to Captain Rogers,” Zemo said, each word a carefully placed chess piece.
The warmth drained from Isabelle’s face like water down a drain. Her smile collapsed, muscles going slack before tightening into something defensive.
“I was,” she said, the two words hanging in the air like orphaned things.
Her fingers resumed their restless movement, tracing invisible circuits on the armrest. The leather felt cool beneath her fingertips, then warm, then cool again as her body temperature fluctuated with her rising unease. She could feel Bucky’s eyes on her, a weight as tangible as a hand on her shoulder.
She offered nothing more, her teeth clicking together with finality.
Zemo nodded slowly, his expression softening into something that might have looked like genuine understanding on anyone else’s face. On his, it was a mask slipped over calculation. His fingers drummed a soft, steady rhythm against the leather armrest—one-two-three-four, one-two-three-four—hypnotic, deliberate.
“I realized something when I met him,” he said, his voice taking on a contemplative tone that sent warning signals flaring through Isabelle’s brain like emergency flares. “The danger with people like him, like you, the Earth’s Mightiest Heroes—” the words curled with subtle mockery, his tongue caressing each syllable like a venomous snake “—is that we put them all on pedestals.”
Sam’s body tensed, and Isabelle caught the subtle shift in his posture. Weight forward, hands uncurling, preparing. “Watch your step, Zemo,” he hissed.
But Zemo continued as if Sam hadn’t spoken, his voice gaining momentum. “They become symbols, icons. And then we start to forget about their flaws.” His eyes gleamed with a fervor that made Isabelle’s skin prickle with goosebumps. “From there, cities fly, innocent people die. Movements are formed, wars are fought.”
His gaze shifted to Bucky, who had gone completely still. Not even his chest moved with breath.
“You remember that, don’t you?” Zemo asked, his voice deceptively soft, like a knife wrapped in silk. “As a young soldier sent to Germany to stop a mad icon?”
The temperature in the cabin plummeted like someone had opened a hatch to the stratosphere. Isabelle felt her heartbeat quicken, her blood heating beneath her skin in direct contrast to the chill in the air. Her powers stirred, responding to the surge of emotion—anger, protectiveness, fear, all swirling together like oil and water, refusing to mix.
“Are you seriously comparing Steve Rogers to the Red Skull?” She leaned forward, fingers digging into the leather armrests until her knuckles blanched white. “Because that’s a really fucking stupid thing to do in present company.”
Zemo’s lips curved into a humorless smile.
“Your words, not mine,” he replied. He raised his hands in a gesture of mock surrender. “Though the question remains valid. Do we want to keep living in a world full of people like the Red Skull?”
His voice dropped lower, taking on that hypnotic quality that made Isabelle’s skin crawl. His gaze locked onto Sam’s, intense and unwavering, like a snake with its prey.
“That is why we’re going to Madripoor.”
Sam’s face hardened into something dangerous. The look he got right before dropping someone from three thousand feet.
“You know,” Sam said, voice dripping with sarcasm sharp enough to draw blood, “for someone who claims to hate symbols so much, you sure love your dramatic speeches.” He leaned back, arms crossed. “What’s next, a PowerPoint presentation on the evils of heroism? And what’s Madripoor? You talk about it like it’s Skull Island or something.”
“Island nation in the Indonesian archipelago.” Bucky’s voice pulled her and Sam’s attention. Something shifted in him—shoulders squaring, spine straightening, eyes going flat. The transformation was subtle but unmistakable. “Pirate sanctuary back in the 1800s.”
“It’s kept its lawless ways,” Zemo added, excitement bleeding through his controlled facade. “We cannot exactly walk in as ourselves.” His gaze locked onto Bucky, deliberate and pointed. “James, you will have to become someone you claim is gone.”
Bucky tensed, and Isabelle saw it, along with what Zemo was implying. Heat surged beneath her skin, power humming through her veins.
“No,” she snapped, the word like a whip crack in the confined space. “Absolutely not.”
Zemo’s expression softened to something almost paternal, which only stoked her fury higher. “Ms. Stark, I’m afraid you don’t understand what Madripoor is. It’s not a place for Avengers or heroes. It’s where only the most dangerous are respected.”
“I know exactly what you’re suggesting.” Her voice dropped low, dangerous. “You want him to be the Winter Soldier again.”
The weight of Bucky’s hand, his flesh one, landed on her forearm. The touch was light, almost hesitant, but it anchored her instantly. His skin was warmer than she expected, calloused fingertips rough against her sleeve. When she met his eyes, something complicated swam in their depths—resignation, determination, and something else she couldn’t name.
“It’s okay,” he said, voice pitched for her alone. His thumb brushed once, twice against her sleeve—a gesture so small she might have imagined it. “I knew this was coming.”
The quiet certainty in his voice made her chest constrict.
“It’s not okay,” she insisted, leaning closer, their shoulders nearly touching. “This is exactly what he wants. To prove you’re still what they made you.”
A muscle in Bucky’s jaw twitched.
“I know what he’s doing,” he said, his fingers remaining on her arm, not gripping, just resting there. “But if this gets us to who is supplying the Flag Smashers—”
“If I may,” Zemo cut in, leaning forward, his accent thickening slightly. “The Winter Soldier is not just a weapon, Ms. Stark.”
Isabelle’s skin crawled at the way he said it, like he was discussing a particularly interesting museum exhibit.
“He is a ghost story,” Zemo continued, eyes gleaming with something that made her want to punch him. “In Madripoor, such a reputation opens doors that would otherwise remain firmly closed.” His gaze slid between them, calculating every micro-expression, every tensed muscle. “And doors, I’m afraid, are precisely what we need.”
“Okay fine, you’re obsessed with doors, but let’s be clear about something,” Sam narrowed his eyes at Zemo. “Nobody’s becoming anything. We’re playing parts to get information, that’s it.” He leaned back, his casual posture doing nothing to hide the steel in his voice. “And you’re on the shortest leash imaginable.”
“Of course,” Zemo agreed, spreading his hands in a gesture of innocence. “I am merely your humble guide through the underworld.”
Isabelle snorted, the sound harsh and loud in the cabin’s hush. “Yeah, and Dante was just a tour guide, too.”
A flicker of amusement crossed Bucky’s face. His hand slipped from her arm, leaving a phantom warmth behind that lingered like an afterimage. She caught herself missing the contact and immediately shut that thought down.
“So what’s the actual plan?” she asked, forcing her attention back to the problem at hand. The engines hummed beneath them. “We land in Madripoor, and then what? Start asking around about super-soldiers? Because that seems like a great way to get ourselves killed.”
She could picture it already—the four of them walking into some seedy bar, Sam asking too-direct questions while Bucky loomed silently, and her trying not to accidentally poison everyone when things inevitably went sideways.
“We’ll need disguises,” Sam said, his tactical mind already mapping out contingencies. “New identities.”
“I have that covered,” Zemo replied, each word smooth as polished stone. “For all of you.”
Something in his tone made the hair on the back of Isabelle’s neck stand up. How he looked at her made it seem like he was already ten moves ahead in a game she didn’t even know they were playing.
Which, of course, he was.
His eyes lingered on her face a beat too long, head tilting slightly as if seeing something new. The smile that followed was small and knowing, like he’d just solved a particularly satisfying puzzle.
“I believe, Ms. Stark,” he said softly, “that you’ll find your role particularly... illuminating.”
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Have You Seen the Rain" by Creedence Clearwater Revival
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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Madripoor isn’t a city—it’s a performance. A neon-drenched fever dream where danger wears diamonds and death comes dressed in silk.Isabelle Stark steps into the underworld with a red wig, a too-tight dress, and the ghost of a memory burning behind her eyes. Beside her, Sam grits his teeth through the worst disguise of his life. Bucky slips into the skin of someone he swore he’d buried. And Zemo? Zemo just smiles like he owns the place.
The Princess Bar awaits.
And Isabelle’s not sure who’s more dangerous—what’s behind the doors...
or the man holding her arm.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 22: Play Your Part
Chapter 22: Play Your Part
Summary:
Madripoor is a stage, and tonight, everyone’s wearing masks.
Isabelle steps into the neon-soaked underworld wrapped in a red wig, high heels, and a name that isn’t hers. Zemo offers his arm like it’s a leash. Bucky follows, silent and seething. Sam swallows snake guts to keep their cover intact.
Inside the Princess Bar, nothing is safe—not the air, not the smiles, not the fingers pressed against her waist. Eyes track her. Drinks come laced with threat. Isabelle’s powers stir like something waking up hungry.
And when Zemo pulls her closer, Bucky doesn’t just watch.
He warns.But the most dangerous thing in the room might not be Zemo.
It might be her.
Notes:
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Sorry for the slower updates this week (last week?)—work has been absolutely wrecking me and I’ve been struggling to stay awake, let alone focus enough to write. BUT! I finally pulled it together and managed to finish this chapter—and it’s a longer one to (hopefully) make up for the delay 💚💚💚
As always, thank you so much for the support, the comments, the kudos, and the wild theories. Y’all seriously keep me going. I hope you enjoy diving into Madripoor...and all the tension that comes with it 😈
See you soon! <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The neon-soaked streets of Madripoor pulsed with life as Isabelle, Sam, Bucky, and Zemo stepped out into the humid night air. Garish signs flickered in a dizzying array of colors—electric blue, toxic green, bleeding crimson—casting an otherworldly glow that transformed ordinary faces into something alien and dangerous. The air hung thick with the scent of spices, sweat, and something metallic that reminded Isabelle too much of blood.
Isabelle blinked rapidly, the brown contacts making her eyes feel dry and foreign in their sockets. A small discomfort compared to everything else.
She reached up to adjust the deep red wig that clung to her scalp next, the synthetic strands slipping between her fingers. Nothing about this disguise felt right—not the wig, not the low-cut dress that restricted her movement, not the heels that would make running a nightmare if things went south.
“Stop fidgeting,” Zemo murmured, his voice barely audible over the cacophony of distant music, raucous laughter, and angry shouts that echoed between buildings. “You’ll draw attention.”
Isabelle clenched her fists at her sides to stop herself from reaching up to scratch the maddening itch where the adhesive met her skin. Her face felt heavy, masked beneath layers of foundation, dark eyeshadow, and blood-red lipstick that made her mouth feel sticky when she spoke.
The memory of their exchange on the plane still burned in her mind.
“You are, of course, a recognizable face,” Zemo had said as they prepared to land. He’d been removing a sleek silver case from an overhead compartment, setting it down with deliberate care. “Fortunately, I came prepared.”
When he’d clicked open the case, revealing the crimson wig, the dress, the makeup kit, something cold had slithered down Isabelle’s spine.
Now, as they wove their way through the crowded streets, Isabelle couldn’t shake the nagging feeling that she should’ve waited on the plane. Every step deeper into this neon hellscape felt like walking willingly into a trap that Zemo had laid specifically for her.
A man stumbled against her shoulder, his breath hot and reeking of alcohol. Before she could react, Bucky’s metal hand shot out, creating space between them with a firm push that sent the drunk staggering backward.
Isabelle shot him a thankful look, even though she could’ve handled it alone. She smoothed down her tight black dress, the hem riding uncomfortably high on her thighs. The soft fur of her coat brushed against her bare shoulders as she adjusted it.
Bucky’s eyes met hers, and she forced her lips into what she hoped was a reassuring smile, ignoring the flutter of anxiety in her chest. His eyes softened slightly, but the worry remained, his gaze sweeping the crowd around them with practiced vigilance.
The Winter Soldier was on full display tonight—tactical gear, haunted eyes, metal arm gleaming menacingly under the neon lights. Zemo’s personal guard dog, at least for appearances. Isabelle noticed how the crowd parted for them, or more accurately, for Bucky, the Winter Soldier. People stepped back, conversations halting mid-sentence, eyes following them with a mixture of fear and calculation.
“What even is this?” Sam muttered beside her, tugging at the collar of his ridiculous dark red suit for the tenth time in as many minutes. The yellow lines crisscrossing the fabric caught the light, making him look like a walking traffic sign. “Why am I the only one who looks like a damn pimp?”
Isabelle snorted, grateful for the momentary distraction from her own discomfort. “Try being the hooker next time,” she said, the lipstick making her lips stick together slightly as she spoke.
“You look exactly like Conrad Mack, the Smiling Tiger,” Zemo replied, keeping his attention forward as he guided them through the streets.
“Perfect my ass,” Sam shot back, but he dropped his hands from the flashy suit, squaring his shoulders with the resigned dignity of a man who’d endured worse indignities.
Zemo’s attention shifted to Isabelle, his gaze traveling over her disguise with an appraising coolness that made her want to cross her arms over her chest. He leaned closer, cologne mixing with the leather of his coat.
“And you,” he said, his voice carrying a note of satisfaction. “I wouldn’t cast you as something so... pedestrian. You’re not a hooker.”
Isabelle arched an eyebrow. The smirk on his face confirmed what she’d heard in his tone—he was enjoying this far too much. “So what am I then? Your secretary?”
“My companion,” Zemo corrected. His expression remained carefully neutral despite the amusement dancing in his eyes.
“So... a hooker,” Isabelle deadpanned, edged with the irritation that had been building since he’d presented her with the disguise.
Zemo sighed, the sound barely audible over the thumping bass from a nearby club. “No. My protégé.” His eyes hardened slightly, the playfulness vanishing like a switch had been flipped. He leaned closer, his breath warm against her ear. “Your name is Camilia. Remember it. And stand straighter,” Zemo instructed, his hand suddenly at the small of her back.
The touch was light but commanding, his fingers pressing against the thin fabric of her dress. Her spine stiffened reflexively, a visceral response to both the unexpected contact and the authority in his voice.
“Shoulders back. You’re not some frightened tourist. You belong here.”
She resisted the urge to shrug away from his touch, to create distance between them. Instead, she forced her chin up, mimicking the confident stance she’d seen Natasha adopt countless times on missions.
Fake it till you make it, she thought, swallowing down the grief that threatened to rise like bile in her throat.
“Better,” Zemo murmured, his approval somehow making her skin crawl more than his criticism. His hand remained at her back for a beat too long before falling away.
Bucky’s eyes caught hers from where he stood slightly behind Zemo, a silent question in them. The blue of his irises looked almost black in the harsh neon light, but the concern was unmistakable. She gave him a barely perceptible nod. I’m fine.
“So where exactly are we headed?” Sam asked, his voice tight with irritation as a drunk woman whistled at him from across the street.
“The Princess Bar,” Zemo replied, nodding toward a building at the end of the block where a neon crown flickered in shades of pink and gold. “Where all the real business in Madripoor happens.”
They continued down the street, Isabelle’s heels clicking against the damp pavement. Vendors lined the narrow thoroughfare, their makeshift stalls spilling out onto the walkway, forcing their group to navigate single-file through certain sections.
As they approached the Princess Bar, two bouncers flanking the entrance came into view. Both men were built like brick walls, their faces impassive beneath the pulsing neon. The taller one’s hand rested casually on what looked like a modified pulse weapon strapped to his thigh—illegal in most countries, but apparently standard issue in Madripoor.
Zemo extended his arm toward Isabelle, palm up, fingers relaxed in practiced elegance. Isabelle stared at the offered arm like he’d offered her a venomous snake in a silk glove.
Every instinct screamed to recoil, but instead, she swallowed the revulsion rising in her throat. The muscles in her face fought against her as she dragged her gaze up from his hand to meet his eyes. She molded her features into what she hoped resembled desire, or at least something adjacent to it, her lips curving upward while her stomach twisted.
“Only because this dress doesn’t have pockets,” she purred, voice dripping with honeyed venom.
She slipped her arm through his, the fine wool of his coat sleeve rough against her bare skin. His body heat radiated through the fabric, uncomfortably intimate.
To her left, Bucky went completely still. Not the casual stillness of someone waiting, but the predatory immobility of a hunter tracking movement. She caught it from the corner of her eye—the sudden tension in his shoulders, the way his jaw locked so tight she could almost hear his teeth grinding.
But his vibranium fingers betrayed him. They twitched once, a barely perceptible movement that spoke volumes. Isabelle recognized the aborted gesture for what it was—the instinct to reach out, to intervene, forcibly suppressed.
The taller bouncer straightened, his gaze sliding from Zemo to Bucky and back again. His eyes narrowed at the Winter Soldier—threat assessment—before widening slightly when they settled on Zemo. The recognition was immediate, followed by a flicker of fear that quickly morphed into something like reverence.
The taller one nodded almost imperceptibly and stepped aside, his movement fluid despite his bulk. He pulled the heavy door open, bass-heavy music exploding into the night.
Isabelle felt Bucky’s eyes burning into her back as she crossed the threshold, his gaze both a warning and a promise. The weight of his attention should have been uncomfortable, but instead, it anchored her as she walked into a den of predators with nothing but a wig, a dress, and a fabricated smile as weapons.
But somehow, Bucky’s attention felt safer than being alone with Zemo’s arm around her waist, his fingers splayed possessively against her hip as he guided her deeper into the pulsing heart of the Princess Bar.
“You’re as stiff as a board,” Zemo chastised, his hand still settled at the small of her back. His touch was feather-light but unmistakably proprietary. Five fingers splayed, heat bleeding through the material and into her skin.
Isabelle’s muscles coiled tight beneath the contact, her body registering the intrusion before her mind could process it fully.
“Relax,” he murmured, lips barely moving beside her ear. “No one will believe you’re my protégé if you look like you’re being marched to execution.”
Isabelle forced her shoulders to drop a fraction, but her jaw remained clenched behind her painted smile. She tilted her head toward him, batting mascara-heavy lashes and summoning every ounce of acting ability she possessed.
“Better?” she whispered, the words dripping with false sweetness and barely concealed venom.
His eyes crinkled at the corners. “Much.”
Inside the Princess Bar hung thick with the scent of cheap whiskey and expensive cologne, cigarette smoke layering over sweat and something else Isabelle couldn’t place. Bodies pressed against each other in the dim space, conversations shouted over music that vibrated through the floorboards and up into her bones.
“This place is a health code violation with a liquor license,” Sam muttered from her right, his eyes scanning the room and landing on a wall of monkey skulls. Dozens of empty eye sockets stared back at him, their jaws frozen in silent screams, teeth bared in eternal grimaces.
“Welcome to Madripoor,” Zemo replied, sounding entirely too pleased.
They moved further into the bar, Zemo’s persistent hand guiding her. At the counter, a bartender with a groomed beard and sleeve tattoos worked. Too hipster for a den of criminals, Isabelle thought as she watched his hands glide over bottles.
When he spotted them approaching, his hands faltered—just for a millisecond, but Isabelle caught it. Recognition flickered across his features before being carefully masked behind professional indifference. The muscles around his mouth tightened almost imperceptibly.
“What’s your poison?” he asked, his accent distinctly American—Midwestern, maybe Chicago. The question sounded casual, but his gaze lingered on Zemo a beat too long.
Zemo leaned against the bar with calculated nonchalance, one elbow resting on the polished surface as if he’d claimed it. “Whiskey,” he replied, his voice dropping to a silky purr that carried just far enough to be overheard by those nearby.
The bartender’s jaw tightened, but he nodded once, sharp and quick.
Zemo turned to Isabelle, his hand sliding from the small of her back to rest possessively at her waist. “And for the lady?” The question dripped with performative affection.
Isabelle fought the urge to shrug away from his touch. Instead, she met the bartender’s eyes directly, refusing to play the simpering ‘companion’. “Strongest Vodka you got,” she said, her voice steady and clear. “Neat.”
The bartender nodded, a slight furrow appearing between his brows as he studied her face.
“Vodka?” Zemo’s eyebrow arched, honest surprise breaking through his calculated facade. His fingers flexed against her waist. “I would have pegged you for something sweeter.” The observation carried a hint of genuine interest that unsettled her more than his performance.
“I’m full of surprises,” Isabelle replied with a sneer.
Sam then slid into place beside her, leaning in to create the illusion of casual conversation. “We’ve got eyes on us,” he muttered. His smile never faltered, teeth flashing white against his skin as he spoke through it. “Three o’clock. Big guy with the gold teeth.”
Isabelle forced a laugh. High, musical, completely unlike her own. She threw her head back slightly, using the movement to scan the room.
The man Sam indicated dominated a corner booth like a king holding court. His massive frame strained against a pristine white suit, the fabric pulled taut across shoulders broad enough to fill a doorway. Gold chains layered across his chest caught the neon lights with every breath, matching the gold caps that flashed when he smiled. Three men flanked him, their postures too stiff, jackets bulging in ways that screamed concealed weapons.
When her eyes met his, he didn’t look away or pretend he hadn’t been watching. Instead, he lifted his glass in a mocking toast, his gaze sliding down her body with antagonizing slowness. His eyes lingered on her exposed thighs, her neckline, before returning to her face with an expression that said he’d cataloged every inch for future reference.
Her powers pulsed in response, a dangerous surge that she tamped down with practiced control. The familiar sensation of sickness coiled in her palms, begging for release. She curled her fingers into fists, pressing crimson nails into her palms until the feeling subsided.
For one terrible second, her stomach twisted. Had they already been made? Was this a warning look, or something worse? Her heart beat faster.
She shifted closer to Zemo on instinct, feigning intimacy, as if proximity could shield her. “Who is he?” Her voice remained steady, but she couldn’t stop her hand from pulling the fur coat tighter around her shoulders. The soft hairs tickled her collarbone, a small comfort.
“Trouble,” Zemo replied, his smile tightening at the corners. His eyes never left hers, but she could tell his attention had split, calculating angles and risks. “But not our primary concern tonight.”
He adjusted her coat collar, fingers grazing the sensitive skin of her neck. The touch was light, almost tender. His fingertips lingered a second too long, tracing the line of her jaw before withdrawing.
In the mirror behind the bar, she caught Bucky’s reflection. He stood three paces back, positioned for optimal coverage of both exits and their position. The vibranium arm gleamed dully under the bar lights, the plates shifting almost imperceptibly as he flexed his fingers.
The bartender returned, setting their drinks on the polished wood counter. The crystal made a soft clink against the surface when Isabelle was already reaching for her vodka. Her fingers curled around the cool glass when the bartender placed a third drink beside her hand—an amber-filled tumbler.
“Compliments of the gentleman in the corner,” the bartender said, his voice neutral but his eyes telling a different story. There was resignation there, perhaps even a hint of warning as he tilted his head toward Gold Teeth. This wasn’t his first time playing messenger between predator and prey.
Zemo’s fingers dug into her waist, the pressure increasing just enough to communicate his displeasure while his face remained perfectly composed.
“How generous,” he said, each word dripping with disdain barely masked as gratitude.
Isabelle lifted the glass, studying the way the light fractured through the amber liquid. The crystal was heavy, expensive—the kind of glass that was meant to impress. She brought it to her lips without drinking, using the motion to scan the room again.
Gold Teeth hadn’t moved from his corner throne, but his attention remained fixed on her, his gaze a physical weight against her skin. His lips curled into something between a smile and a leer, revealing those gaudy gold caps that gave him his nickname.
“Don’t drink it,” Bucky warned, materializing at her shoulder like a shadow given form. His voice was so low only she could hear it, his breath warm against the shell of her ear. The contrast between his cold exterior and that whisper of warmth sent an involuntary shiver down her spine.
She kept the glass at her lips, the rim cool against her painted mouth. “Poison doesn’t work on me,” she whispered back, barely moving her lips. The words were a simple fact, stated without pride or explanation. The serum in her blood would neutralize toxins before they could take effect—one of the few benefits of her condition.
She took a deliberate sip, maintaining eye contact with Gold Teeth across the room. The liquor burned a path down her throat, stronger than she expected—top-shelf whiskey, not the watered-down swill served to regular patrons. It bloomed warm in her chest, a pleasant heat that wouldn’t last. Her metabolism would burn through it before she could feel even a hint of intoxication.
“Waste not, want not,” she murmured, lowering the glass and running her thumb along the rim. The corner of her mouth quirked up in a defiant half-smile directed at their admirer.
“Great,” Sam complained beside her, his voice pitched low beneath a forced smile that showed too many teeth. “Now we’ve got the local crime lord thinking you’re on the menu.” He shifted his weight, angling his body to partially block her from Gold Teeth’s line of sight. “That’s exactly what we needed tonight.”
“Relax,” Isabelle said, leaning closer to him as if sharing a secret. “I’m the protégé, not the hooker, right? Not on a menu.” The joke fell flat even to her own ears, the words tasting bitter beneath the whiskey’s lingering burn.
Sam’s eyes narrowed, not finding any humor in her deflection. “That distinction means nothing to a guy like that,” he muttered, scanning the room with practiced casualness. “Trust me.”
Zemo’s hand slid from her waist to the small of her back again, his touch reclaiming territory. “Our friend is merely establishing dominance,” he said, his accent thickening slightly. “Like an animal marking its territory.” His eyes flicked to Gold Teeth, then back to Isabelle. “But there are more dangerous predators in this room.”
The double meaning wasn’t lost on her.
The bartender’s attention suddenly snapped to Sam, eyes narrowing with sudden recognition. His polishing cloth stilled mid-motion, fingers freezing around the glass he’d been cleaning.
“Smiling Tiger?” The name came out like an accusation. “Didn’t expect to see you back so soon...” His gaze slid to Zemo, then back to Sam, disbelief etching deeper lines around his mouth. “...and with him.”
The last word carried particular weight, dropping between them like a gauntlet.
Sam’s jaw tightened. Isabelle watched his shoulders square beneath the ridiculous red suit, the fabric stretching across his back as he prepared for whatever came next.
Before Sam could think of a response, Zemo leaned forward, his fingers tightening around his whiskey glass. “We’re here on business,” he said, tapping two fingers against the polished bar top—deliberate, measured, the gesture casual yet somehow threatening. “We need to speak with Selby.”
The bartender’s gaze lingered on Sam’s face, suspicion hardening his features as he searched for something—recognition, confirmation, weakness. His jaw worked beneath his beard, a muscle twitching along the edge.
“The usual?” he finally asked, nodding to the liquor bottles.
Isabelle felt Sam tense beside her, the fabric of his suit brushing against her arm as his breathing shifted. He nodded once, mouth wired shut.
The bartender reached beneath the counter. Isabelle’s fingers instinctively clenched into a fist. Behind her, Bucky shifted his weight, a subtle redistribution that positioned him to intervene in a fraction of a second.
But instead of a weapon, the bartender slapped a dead snake onto the bar. The serpent’s scales gleamed with oily iridescence under the neon lights, its body unnaturally limp, head lolling at a sickening angle.
Isabelle’s nose wrinkled before she could stop herself, the smell hitting her—raw meat and something chemical, cloying and wrong.
The curved knife appeared in the bartender’s hand, flashing silver as it sliced through scaly flesh with a wet, tearing sound. Isabelle’s stomach lurched as he extracted something small and gelatinous, a pale organ, and dropped it into a shot glass with a soft plop.
He poured clear liquid over it, the organ bobbing like a grotesque eye watching them from its glass prison. “Your usual, Smiling Tiger,” the bartender announced, sliding the glass toward Sam. His fingers lingered on the rim, a challenge embedded in the gesture.
Sam’s face remained impassive, but Isabelle caught the almost imperceptible widening of his eyes, the subtle convulsion of his throat as he swallowed. His hand reached for the glass with a confidence that couldn’t quite mask the tension coiled in his knuckles.
Zemo leaned forward, one elbow braced against the bar. The movement pressed him closer against Isabelle’s side. Sam’s gaze flickered to Zemo—a split-second glance loaded with silent communication. Zemo responded with the barest nod, his expression unchanged, but his message clear: Do it.
The shot glass looked absurdly small in Sam’s hand as he lifted it. The contents sloshed, the organ bobbing like a grotesque ice cube. The smell hit Isabelle from two feet away—medicinal, rancid, with undertones of something metallic that made her think of hospital rooms and blood draws.
“Bottoms up,” Sam muttered, his voice carrying the forced cheer of a man walking to his execution.
He tipped his head back, and Isabelle watched his throat work, once, twice, the muscles straining against his collar. A drop of the liquid escaped the corner of his mouth, trailing down his chin before he caught it with his thumb.
Bucky shifted behind her, his vibranium fingers flexing once at his side. His eyes never stopped scanning the room, but she felt his attention split between their surroundings and Sam.
The glass hit the counter with a sharp crack. Sam’s eyes watered instantly, the whites turning bloodshot. His knuckles went white against the edge of the bar, but his face settled into a satisfied smile that didn’t reach his eyes.
“Smooth as ever,” he said, voice roughened but steady. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, the movement almost hiding the tremor in his fingers. “Now, about Selby.”
The bartender nodded, something like respect flickering across his features as he turned back to Sam. “She’s in the back. But she doesn’t like surprises.” His gaze hardened. “Or crowds.”
“Then it’s fortunate we’re not a crowd,” Zemo interjected smoothly, his accent more pronounced than usual. “Merely old friends with a business proposition.”
The bartender’s lips thinned to a bloodless line. “Your funeral.” He jerked his head toward a door half-hidden in the shadows at the far end of the bar, the entrance nearly invisible against the dark paneling. “I’ll let her know you’re here.”
He disappeared behind the bar, the swinging door offering a brief glimpse of a narrow hallway illuminated by sickly fluorescent light before closing with a soft thud.
Sam immediately doubled over, one hand braced against the sticky bar top, the other pressed against his mouth. A strangled sound escaped between his fingers as his body convulsed with what looked like a suppressed heave.
“Jesus Christ,” he gasped, voice raw. His eyes watered, bloodshot and glassy. “That was—” He coughed, the sound wet and visceral. “That was like drinking battery acid mixed with rotten eggs and a dead man’s cologne.”
Isabelle winced in sympathy, her nose wrinkling at the lingering stench that now surrounded Sam like a toxic cloud. She raised her own glass to her lips, letting the vodka burn away the phantom taste of whatever horror Sam had just endured.
“You okay?” she asked, knowing full well he wasn’t.
“No.” Sam straightened with visible effort, shoulders rigid against the tremors running through his frame. A muscle jumped in his jaw as he swallowed repeatedly, fighting whatever internal rebellion the snake concoction had triggered. He leaned close to her, his breath hot and putrid against her ear. “Next time,” he whispered, voice ragged, “I’m the arm candy, and you’re drinking the snake juice.”
“Be my guest.” Isabelle patted his arm, letting her fingers linger in genuine concern despite her light tone. “The dress might be a bit tight across the shoulders, but you’ve got the legs for these heels.”
“You think this is funny? My insides are currently rearranging themselves.” Sam pressed a hand against his abdomen, fingers splayed as if trying to hold something in place. “Pretty sure that thing was still alive when it went down.”
“If it helps,” Isabelle offered, tilting her head closer, “I once saw Thor drink something from Asgard that actually glowed in the dark. Came out the same way it went in. Stained the toilet so bad, dad had to replace it.”
Sam’s face contorted into a grimace that was half disgust, half reluctant amusement. “That doesn’t help. At all.”
“What about the time Nat challenged Clint to drink that—”
“Please,” Sam held up a hand, “I’m begging you. One more story about magical alien digestive disasters and whatever’s left of my stomach lining is going to make a guest appearance on this bar.”
A tiny, genuine laugh escaped Isabelle before she could stop it. For just a moment, the weight of their situation lifted. Her shoulders relaxed a fraction, the tension in her neck easing.
He caught her eye, the corner of his mouth twitching upward despite his obvious discomfort. “Glad someone’s enjoying this.”
“Children,” Zemo cut in, voice silk-smooth but threaded with steel. “Perhaps save the bickering for when we’re not surrounded by people who kill for sport.” His smile remained flawless, not a crack in the polished appearance he presented to the room.
The momentary lightness evaporated.
Zemo’s eyes flicked past her shoulder, tracking movement in the crowd. A warning prickled at the base of Isabelle’s spine. She followed his gaze.
Gold Teeth. Still watching. Still hungry.
The man’s attention had shifted entirely to her, dismissing Sam and Bucky as if they were merely furniture. His gaze crawled over her body with such deliberate slowness she could almost feel it, like fingertips dragging across her skin. His tongue darted out, wet and pink against those gaudy gold caps as he raised his glass in another silent toast.
The message couldn’t have been clearer if he’d shouted it across the room.
Zemo’s hand moved with snake-like precision. One moment it rested at the small of her back, the next it slid to her waist, fingers curling into the fabric of her dress. He pulled her against him with a single, fluid motion—hip to hip, her shoulder pressed to his chest.
“What the hell—” The words died in her throat as his grip tightened.
Every muscle in Isabelle’s body locked. The contact burned through the thin fabric, each fingertip a point of unwanted heat against her ribs. Her stomach twisted, acid rising at the back of her throat.
Don’t break character. Don’t break character. Don’t—
Behind them, the air shifted. A low, guttural sound vibrated through the space—not quite a growl, not quite a threat, but something primal that made the hair on the back of her neck stand up.
Bucky.
She didn’t need to turn to know his expression. She could feel his rage radiating like heat from a furnace, a physical presence at her back.
“Your guard dog seems restless,” Zemo noted, his accent thickening with amusement. His gaze slid past her shoulder to where Bucky stood. “Perhaps he needs a tighter leash.”
His thumb traced a small circle against her waist, a casual, possessive gesture that made her skin crawl.
Isabelle’s jaw clenched so hard she tasted blood where her teeth cut into the inside of her cheek. The metallic tang mixed with the waxy lipstick, bitter and sharp. She swallowed it down, along with the violent retort building in her throat.
“I suggest,” Bucky’s voice came from directly behind her, so close she could feel his breath disturb the synthetic strands of her wig, “that you keep your hands to yourself for the remainder of this mission.”
The Winter Soldier had entered the conversation—his voice flat, emotionless, deadly. A voice that had preceded death for decades.
“Or I’ll remove them for you.”
Not a threat. A promise.
Isabelle felt goosebumps cascade down her arms despite the bar’s stifling heat. Her breath caught, suspended in her lungs as the tension stretched between the men.
The weight of Bucky’s presence at her back was different from Zemo’s at her side—solid, grounding, a shield rather than a cage.
Zemo’s eyebrows rose, his expression one of mock offense. “I don’t remember giving you permission to speak, Soldat.”
Isabelle felt Bucky go completely still behind her, the kind of stillness that preceded violence. The vibranium plates in his arm recalibrated with a soft whir that only she could hear over the thumping bass.
For a heartbeat, she thought he might actually do it—might reach around her and tear Zemo’s hand from his wrist.
Instead, Zemo conceded, his fingers lifting from her waist. The absence of pressure sent blood rushing back to skin that felt bruised, relief washing through her in a dizzying wave. But as his hand withdrew, his knuckles brushed deliberately against her cheek—a final, calculated touch. A reminder that while he might yield this battle, the war of control continued.
“Such hostility, James.” Zemo adjusted his cuffs with polished nonchalance. “One might think you have a personal interest in our companion beyond professional concern.”
The insinuation hung in the air between them, sharp as a blade.
Heat bloomed across Isabelle’s cheekbones, a flush that crept up her neck and spread beneath the heavy foundation. Thank god for small mercies—at least her humiliation remained hidden under layers of makeup.
She caught Bucky’s reflection in the mirror behind the bar, his eyes meeting hers for just a heartbeat. Something raw and unguarded flashed across his features—anger, protectiveness, something deeper she couldn’t name—before the Winter Soldier mask slammed back into place.
“One might think,” Bucky replied, each word measured and deadly quiet, “that you’re trying to provoke me. It’s working, by the way.”
The threat wasn’t empty. But the threat wasn’t what made her pulse skitter and jump beneath her skin.
It was the voice.
One slip, it whispered, silk-wrapped and seductive at the base of her skull. That’s all it takes. Just one.
Her powers surged in response, a hot tide rising through her veins. Heat bloomed behind her sternum, spreading outward through her chest, down her arms, to her fingertips. The familiar pressure built beneath her skin—not pain, not exactly, but a terrible urgency. Her lungs constricted, each breath shorter than the last.
The image formed with perfect clarity: Zemo on his knees. Face contorting. Lungs filling with fluid. His elegant hands scrabbling at his throat as his body betrayed him from the inside out.
The thought wasn’t entirely unwelcome.
Isabelle’s jaw clenched so tightly she heard a faint pop near her ear. She forced herself to breathe—one ragged inhale, one controlled exhale. Her powers pulsed with each heartbeat, pressing against her control, seeking the smallest crack to escape through.
She flicked her gaze sideways to Sam without turning her head. Just a quick glance, nothing that would draw attention.
Help me.
The words never left her lips, but she poured everything into that look—the panic clawing up her throat, the heat building in her veins, the voice whispering terrible possibilities.
Sam caught it immediately. His eyes widened a fraction, just enough to register what Isabelle wasn’t saying. The tension was vibrating through her. The edge she was riding. The thin line between control and catastrophe.
He straightened, shoulders squaring as he slid into character. His chin tilted upward, his stance widened, and a swagger entered his posture that seemed to expand his presence despite the ridiculous suit. The Smiling Tiger emerged from Sam Wilson’s skin like a second self.
“You two gonna measure dicks all night,” Sam drawled, his voice pitched just loud enough to cut through their standoff, “or can we get back to it? Room full of people who kill for sport, remember?”
He adjusted his garish cuffs with exaggerated flair, drawing attention to himself and away from Isabelle’s trembling hands. His hand landed on Isabelle’s lower back, the touch firm but nothing like Zemo’s—an anchor rather than a brand.
“Go,” he said, voice dropping, “freshen up.” He flicked his fingers toward the hallway, the gesture dismissive, entitled.
Isabelle caught the lifeline Sam had thrown, her mind clicking into gear. She pivoted toward him, and the movement put her back to Zemo, breaking his line of sight on her face. “Thanks,” she said quietly.
Behind her, Bucky shifted his weight. She didn’t need to see his face to know his expression: brow furrowed, blue eyes narrowed, jaw locked as he tried to decode the sudden shift in dynamics. The Winter Soldier was analyzing a situation he couldn’t quite read.
Zemo’s smile remained fixed, porcelain-perfect, but his body betrayed him. His spine stiffened, shoulders pulling back as control of the situation slipped through his fingers. A muscle jumped along his jaw before he could suppress it.
“Don’t be long, meine Liebe,” he said, voice smooth despite the tension radiating from him like heat from pavement. His fingers twitched once at his sides before going deliberately still. “Our host will be expecting all of us.”
“I’ll just be a minute,” Isabelle replied, stepping back. Each inch between them loosened the vice grip around her lungs. Her powers receded by degrees, the heat in her veins cooling from boil to simmer.
Sam nodded, a subtle dip of his chin that carried a message entirely different from his words: Get it together. We need you.
Isabelle turned without another word, already moving. Sweat prickled at her hairline beneath the wig, making the adhesive burn against her skin. Her dress clung to the small of her back, the fabric suddenly too tight, too restrictive. She resisted the urge to tear it all off.
Her heels clicked against the sticky floor, each step carrying her further from Zemo’s calculating gaze, from Bucky’s confused stare, from Sam’s concern. The crowd swallowed her—bodies pressing against her sides, the stench of alcohol and sweat and too many competing colognes filling her nostrils.
Every step she took, she felt Bucky’s gaze burning into her back. Watching.
Not tracking. Not judging.
Protecting.
And for one brief second, it made her feel like she hadn’t completely lost her grip on reality.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Beast Within" by In This Moment
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚
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In Madripoor, danger comes dressed in silk and teeth. Isabelle Stark, now knows that. Still, she plays the part, smiles like a razor’s edge, eyes calm while her pulse pounds like war drums beneath her skin.
But when a predator gets too close—fingers on her throat, power curled tight behind her ribs—there’s only so long she can play pretend.Then the Winter Soldier moves.
Bucky doesn’t hesitate. Doesn’t blink. One second she’s trapped—the next, she’s in his orbit, protected by muscle, metal, and the kind of fury that doesn't ask permission. The club erupts in violence. Bones break. Blood spills. And through it all, his eyes find hers.
He didn’t lose control.
She almost did.Now the question isn’t if she’ll break.
It’s who she’ll take down with her when she does.
And whether Bucky Barnes can hold her together long enough to stop the explosion they both feel coming.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 23: Slip the Leash
Chapter 23: Slip the Leash
Summary:
She only meant to freshen up. One breath. One bathroom break.
Instead, Isabelle Stark ends up in a predator’s lap, his fingers on her skin, his hand at her throat—and the thing inside her snarling to be let loose. But she’s not the only one barely holding it together.Across the club, Bucky Barnes sees red.
In a room full of men who don’t know when to stop, the Winter Soldier doesn’t need trigger words. He just needs a reason.
And someone just gave him one.
Notes:
We’re here!!! Chapter 23 has honestly been one of my favorite chapters to write so far—between the tension, the action, and Isabelle spiraling in that bathroom mirror (relatable queen), I seriously hope it hits for you all the way it did for me. Writing Bucky snapping into full Winter Soldier mode? Literally had so much fun.
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Chapter Text
The path to the restroom took her past Gold Teeth’s table. His men shifted as she approached, subtle movements that most wouldn’t catch. But Isabelle did. Shoulders squaring, hands drifting toward concealed weapons, eyes tracking her trajectory. A dozen tiny tells that screamed danger in a language she’d been fluent in.
Gold Teeth himself leaned forward as she neared. Six-four, at least. Two-seventy of what looked like pure muscle beneath that tailored suit.
“Enjoy the drink, sweetheart?” His voice was disarmingly soft, like velvet draped over broken glass. The accent—Russian maybe, with something rougher underneath—curled around each syllable.
Isabelle maintained her stride.
“Delicious,” she replied, voice steady despite the adrenaline flooding her system. Her pulse hammered against her throat, but her face remained a careful blank. “Thank you.”
His laugh followed her, low, rumbling, knowing. The sound crawled up her spine like cold fingers. “Come find me when you’re tired of the Baron.” His eyes, dark and devious, took her measure.
She didn’t look back. Couldn’t.
The pulse started in her gut—a hot, dense coil snapping taut.
Then it flared.
A wave of pressure rippled outward from beneath her skin, invisible to the crowd but impossible to ignore to those tuned in to it. Like a heartbeat radiating outward, only this one wasn’t hers—it was theirs.
Behind her, Gold Teeth stiffened. His cocky smirk faltered. One of his men winced sharply, a hand flying to his temple. Another cursed under his breath, clutching his stomach like he’d been kicked in the gut.
Isabelle’s stomach plummeted.
No. No, no no—
Sloppy, the voice hissed. Cold. Coiled. Familiar. One little nudge and they’d fall to their knees. Like dominoes. Doesn’t that sound nice? Doesn’t it feel good to remind them who’s really in control?
Her breath hitched. She didn’t break stride, but the sway of her hips became more exaggerated, deliberately slow. A mask layered over panic.
She couldn’t let them see it.
Isabelle hit the restroom door with her palm, expecting it to give.
It didn’t budge.
“Come on,” she hissed, ramming her shoulder against the peeling wood. The door groaned before finally surrendering with a screech of rusted hinges. The smell hit her first: industrial bleach failing to mask something organic and rotten beneath. Her nostrils flared, rejecting it.
The overhead bulb stuttered a sickly yellow rhythm. On-off-on-off. Each flicker illuminated another detail she wished it hadn’t. Cracked tiles. Rusted-stained sink. Something dark and viscous pooled beneath the broken paper towel dispenser.
Blood? No—don’t think about it. But, thank god, it was empty.
Three quick strides and she was to the sink. Her fingers wrapped around the chipped porcelain, and a hairline fracture spiderwebbed beneath her grip. The crack made a sound like tiny bones breaking.
“Shit,” she hissed, easing her hold. Always forgetting her own strength at the worst moments.
Isabelle kept her head down, focusing on the corroded faucet. Her hands trembled as she twisted the handle. Water sputtered, then flowed, ice cold against her skin. She counted the drips, matching her breathing to them.
In through the nose. Out through the mouth—but the pulse was still there, coiled in her gut like a living thing. Waiting. Hungry.
“Get it together,” she whispered, voice raw. “Get it fucking together, Stark.”
Her heartbeat hammered in her ears, drowning out the ambient noise from the club beyond. Gold Teeth’s men would be recovering by now.
Wondering what the hell had hit them. Wondering if they’d imagined it.
She risked a glance upward, then immediately regretted it.
In the mirror, her eyes weren’t her own. Pupils blown wide, only a thin ring of amber visible around the edges. The face of the thing inside her—the thing that had once been part of her but now felt separate, foreign.
She gripped the sink harder—another fracture beneath her thumb.
The voice didn’t wait for her to steady herself.
You let him touch you. The words slithered inside her skull, cold mercury poured directly into her brain stem. Not a voice—a sensation with syllables. You let him live.
Colder than before. Louder. And fucking furious.
“You don’t lose it here,” she whispered, glaring at her reflection, at those too-wide pupils, and at the time, looking back at her wearing her face. Her knuckles went white against the sink’s edge.
You’re already losing it. The voice convoluted again, wrapping around her thoughts like smoke around bone. You’re a cracked flask trying to hold poison. And soon someone’s going to drink from you and choke on it.
She flinched, a full-body tremor that started at her spine and radiated outward. The mirror image of her trembled too, but its eyes stayed fixed. Unblinking.
The pulse in her gut twisted sharply, a hot knife that folded her in half. Her forehead nearly cracked against the mirror as she doubled over.
“Shut up,” she hissed through clenched teeth. “Shut the fuck up.”
Her hands slammed over her ears, fingernails digging in. A useless gesture. The voice wasn’t coming from outside.
Images flashed behind her eyelids: Zemo’s fingers trailing her back, proprietary, calculating. Gold Teeth’s tongue darting across those metal incisors while he undressed her with his eyes. Bucky’s jaw clenching as he pretended not to watch her every move from across the room. And Sam—god, Sam—trying so damn hard to hold everything together while she unraveled right in front of him.
The sickness coiled tighter, pressing against her organs, seeking exit points. It writhed beneath her skin like heat lightning trapped in a bottle. She could feel it mapping her veins, testing boundaries, whispering promises.
One flare. One breath. The walls would peel. The floor would buckle. Everyone beyond that door would drop like marionettes with cut strings.
Her hand spasmed.
Kill them all, it urged, voice like crushed velvet against her brainstem. One pulse. One breath. Let go. They deserve it. You know they do.
“We’re not doing this,” she whispered, voice scraping against her throat. “Not here.”
The thing wearing her face smiled.
You already did it, the voice replied, lips not moving in the mirror. They know something’s wrong with you now.
Then the pain receded abruptly, but the presence remained. Like something curling back into itself, satisfied it had made its point.
Isabelle raised her head slowly, meeting those alien eyes in the mirror. The pupils contracted as she watched, shrinking from black pools to pinpricks, revealing the false brown of her contacts underneath. The transformation felt like watching someone else put on her skin.
She inhaled sharply, forcing her lungs to expand. Her ribs ached with the effort, like something inside was pressing outward, wanting space. She held her breath until spots danced at the edges of her vision. One-two-three-four-five-six-seven. The pressure in her chest built, a counterpoint to the thing coiled in her gut.
Then release. One-two-three-four-five-six-seven-eight.
Her spine cracked as she straightened—one vertebra, then another, then a third. The sound echoed in the cramped bathroom, oddly satisfying.
She forced her lips into what felt like a smile. It stretched her face wrong.
Her hands moved to the dress, smoothing the fabric where it had bunched around her hips. The material clung to curves she usually kept hidden beneath tactical gear and baggy hoodies. Armor, in its own way. This dress was armor, too—just a different kind. The kind that made men stare at her body instead of her eyes, that made them underestimate the threat behind the packaging.
Zemo had chosen it. Of course, he had.
He’s using you, the voice murmured, softer now but no less insistent. They all are. The Baron. The Soldier. The Falcon. Little broken Stark, so eager to please.
“I said shut up,” Isabelle hissed. There was no heat behind the words. Just bone-deep exhaustion. She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, the motion mechanical. “I know what I’m doing.
A lie. But lies were armor, too.
She straightened her shoulders, lifted her chin, and the persona slid back into place.
Her fingers closed around the bathroom door handle. Cold metal, slick with condensation from the bathroom’s poor ventilation. The bass from the club vibrated through her palm, and she hesitated, listening to the thrum of voices beyond. Laughter. Shouting. The clinking of glasses.
She pushed through.
She fixed her gaze on the bar across the room. On Bucky’s broad shoulders, the sharp angle where they met his neck. On Sam’s ridiculous red suit, catching the pulsing lights. On Zemo lounging against the countertop like a cat who thought he owned the room.
Twenty steps. That’s all she needed.
She made it to three.
A hand shot out from her left, meaty fingers clamping around her waist with bruising force. The grip yanked her sideways, her heels skidding against the floor. Her brain registered danger a half-second too late.
“Going somewhere, sweetheart?” Gold Teeth’s breath hit her ear, hot and sour with vodka and something worse. His gold canines caught the light when he spoke, flashing like warning signals.
Her world tilted. The room spun in a blur of neon and shadow. Then she was in his lap, her hip bone grinding painfully against his thigh. His arm locked around her waist like a vise, pinning her against the solid wall of his chest. Her spine pressed against him, nerves registering the unwanted contact.
His other hand landed on her thigh, fingers splaying wide, claiming territory. The heat of his palm burned through the thin fabric of her dress. The pulse beneath her skin answered, coiling tighter.
Kill him, the voice whispered, alert, ravenous. Watch his lungs fill with fluid. Watch his eyes bulge as he drowns sitting upright.
The command slithered through her brainstem like ice water. So simple. So tempting. One pulse from her core, and his lungs would fill with fluid. His men would follow.
Isabelle’s muscles coiled tight, the tension building beneath her skin like a gathering storm.
She forced each muscle to unclench, one by one. Shoulders. Back. Thighs. A deliberate unwinding that went against every survival instinct screaming inside her. She melted against Gold Teeth’s bulk, transforming rigid panic into something pliant and inviting. Her body curved into his like she belonged there, like his touch didn’t make her skin crawl with revulsion.
Her heartbeat hammered against her ribs, but she manufactured a smile—one that promised everything and meant nothing. The kind she’d watched a hundred women wear in a hundred clubs just like this. The kind that said I’m yours while thinking you’re nothing.
“Just freshening up,” she purred, the lie sliding from her tongue with practiced ease. She shifted slightly in his lap, testing the iron band of his arm around her waist. No give. No weakness. His fingers dug into her flesh hard enough to bruise. “The Baron doesn’t like to be kept waiting.”
Gold Teeth’s laugh rumbled through his chest and into her back, vibrating against her spine.
“The Baron can wait his turn.” His fingers tightened on her thigh, inching higher, leaving heat trails of disgust on her skin. “We’re just getting acquainted.”
The man across the table leaned forward, vodka sloshing in his glass. His eyes were glassy, pupils blown wide with something chemical, something that made his gaze too hungry, too focused. “Boss always gets the pretty ones first,” he said, teeth flashing yellow in the low light.
The others laughed—a chorus of wolves catching a scent.
Isabelle’s gaze darted to the bar, scanning desperately for her team. Sam’s back was turned, his attention caught by something Isabelle couldn’t see. Bucky was looking in the wrong direction, shoulders tense beneath his jacket, head angled toward a conversation happening three tables away.
And Zemo—Zemo was watching. His eyes locked with hers across the room, his expression carved from marble. Unreadable. Unmoved. He sipped his drink, making no move to intervene.
Perfect. Just perfect.
Gold Teeth’s hand slid higher on her thigh, as if he’d already decided she belonged to him. His thumb traced slow circles on her inner thigh, each rotation inching closer to the hem of her dress.
“Tell me,” he murmured against her ear, his breath hot and wet against her skin, “what’s a woman like you doing with a man like Helmut Zemo?” His lips brushed her earlobe, sending a revulsive shiver down her spine that she forced herself to disguise as pleasure. “He can’t possibly satisfy you.”
Her breath hitched as his hand slid higher, fingers digging into the silk of her dress, bunching the fabric. The material rode up, exposing another inch of thigh. The cool air against her skin made her hyperaware of how vulnerable she was. How exposed.
Her mind raced, calculations firing like misfiring synapses. What would Natasha do? The thought flashed hot and urgent. Nat would turn this. Use it. Make him think he had control while stealing it right back.
Isabelle let her body soften further, her muscles going liquid against him. She tilted her head just so, exposing the vulnerable curve where neck met shoulder. A practiced move she’d watched Natasha execute a hundred times during ops. The perfect blend of submission and invitation.
“I like rich men,” she murmured, pitching her voice to a breathy purr that made her want to scrub her tongue with soap. Her fingers trailed up his forearm. “They know how to…appreciate valuable things.”
His eyes darkened, pupils expanding with interest. “Then you’re in the right lap, красотка.” The Russian endearment slid from his tongue like oil on water. “I could buy and sell your Baron three times over.”
His hand moved suddenly from her thigh to her hair, thick fingers tangling in the red strands. He twisted, not enough to hurt—yet—but enough to control. A jolt of panic shot through her core. The wig. One hard tug and her cover would unravel as quickly as the synthetic hair would separate from her scalp.
“I think,” he murmured, leaning in close enough that she could count the gold teeth glinting in his mouth, “we should continue this conversation somewhere more private.”
Not a suggestion. A statement.
His grip on her tightened, fingers digging into the space between her ribs. The pressure was deliberate, a reminder of his strength, of how easily he could break her if he wanted to. His other hand remained tangled in her hair, the synthetic strands stretching against the adhesive at her scalp.
Let me out.
Gold Teeth’s hand slid from her hair to her throat. His fingers wrapped around—not squeezing, just resting there. A promise. His thumb found her pulse point, pressing just hard enough to feel it jump.
“What do you say, красотка?” His lips brushed the shell of her ear, breath hot and wet. “Just you and me?”
Isabelle tracked the movement of his men with her peripheral vision. One stood to block her view of the bar. Another shifted to cut off the path to the exit. The third angled his chair to face the main entrance. Not random positions. Practiced. Choreographed.
These men had hunted before.
“Tomorrow night,” she said, voice honey-sweet, turning just enough to meet his gaze without giving him leverage on the wig. She let her eyes go half-lidded, mimicking desire. “You can have me all to yourself then.”
His laugh vibrated through her back, through her ribs, like bass turned too high.
“Why wait?” The hand not at her throat moved to the edge of her coat, then slipped beneath. His fingers were glacier-cold against her collarbone, calloused in ways that spoke of violence.
The fingertips traced her skin, following the neckline of her dress downward. Isabelle’s muscles locked, a full-body rejection her mind couldn’t afford to indulge. The pulse inside her flared hot, pushing against her control.
His thumb hooked under the fabric of her dress, the nail scraping a white line across her skin. “Tonight,” he whispered, his lips so close to her ear she could feel the wet heat of his mouth. He brought his hand back up to her throat. “I always get what I want.”
The power beneath Isabelle’s skin roiled, a sick pressure building behind her sternum like magma seeking cracks. Her teeth ground together, molars aching with the force.
“I—” Her mind spun frantically for something to say that wouldn’t end with bodies on the floor and their cover blown to hell.
“Hey!”
Sam’s voice cut through the club’s noise like a bullet through glass. Sharp. Clean. Final.
Isabelle’s head snapped up, relief flooding her system with such force it made her dizzy. Sam was already halfway across the floor, cutting through the crowd. The look on his face wasn’t the easy charm he wore like a second skin. His eyes tracked every detail—Gold Teeth’s hand at her throat, the positions of his men.
Three precise steps behind him, Bucky materialized from the crowd, his movement so fluid it was almost supernatural. Where Sam blazed with righteous fury, Bucky froze—winter made flesh, eyes locked on Gold Teeth’s fingers against her windpipe. His expression was carved from ice, but his eyes burned with something terrible.
Gold Teeth’s fingers tightened reflexively against her windpipe, a quick spasm of surprise that cut her air for half a second. Isabelle’s body tensed, coiling like a spring. The sickness building in her veins pressed outward, seeking exit points—fingertips, eye sockets, the hollow of her throat.
His men shifted around the table, hands disappearing with practiced synchronicity. One reached for something at his ankle. Another’s fingers brushed the inside of his coat. The third simply stood, chair scraping back with a metal screech that cut through the music.
Across the room, Zemo intercepted Sam like a chess master anticipating his opponent’s move. His body inserted itself into Sam’s path, one hand pressing against Sam’s chest, not forceful, but firm. Definitive.
“Stop,” Zemo murmured, his eyes flickering toward the exits, where the bouncers had already noticed the brewing confrontation. Two by the main door straightened, and another near the service entrance reached beneath his jacket. “You break cover, we all go down.”
Sam’s jaw clenched tight enough that Isabelle could see the muscle twitching beneath his skin from across the room. His eyes locked with hers—a silent question, a promise. The vein at his temple pulsed, his left hand curled into a fist at his side, knuckles whitening then relaxing in a rhythm that matched his breathing—controlled, deliberate, a man fighting his own instincts.
Sam’s nostrils flared. His eyes never left Isabelle’s face, tracking the minute shifts in her expression, reading the tension in her shoulders.
Zemo pivoted with disturbing grace. His fingers found Bucky’s shoulder, settling there with deceptive lightness. Every line of Bucky’s body had gone rigid—shoulders squared, spine a steel rod, feet planted in a fighting stance so subtle most wouldn’t notice. His metal hand flexed at his side, plates recalibrating with a whisper-soft whir that sent electricity racing down Isabelle’s spine.
Isabelle met his glare. It wasn’t anger. Not directed at her. It was the look of someone who knew exactly what it was to be touched against your will, to be treated like property. To have choices stripped away by hands that saw you as a thing to be used.
His flesh hand twitched toward the knife she knew was strapped to his thigh.
“Soldat,” Zemo said, just loud enough to be heard by everyone nearby. His accent thickened deliberately around the word. He leaned closer to Bucky’s ear, his lips barely moving. “Zhelaniye.”
The trigger word—the first of ten that had once transformed Bucky Barnes into the Winter Soldier—hit the room like a gunshot. Conversations around them stuttered. A glass clinked as someone set it down too hard. Gold Teeth’s fingers tightened reflexively against Isabelle’s windpipe.
Her heart stuttered. The pulse beneath her skin coiled tighter, pressing against her control.
“Rzhavyy,” Zemo continued, voice steady, emotionless. “Semnadtsat’...”
Bucky’s eyes went flat. Dead. His posture shifted—subtle but unmistakable—spine straightening another fraction of an inch, shoulders squaring with mechanical precision. His head tilted slightly, chin lowering as his gaze fixed on Gold Teeth with predatory focus.
The transformation happened in real-time. Not the Winter Soldier emerging—something else entirely. A performance so convincing it sent ice water racing through Isabelle’s veins. She recognized what he was doing immediately: using Zemo’s words as cover, letting everyone think the worst while he maintained complete control.
Playing the monster so he could move like one.
He didn’t wait for the fourth word.
Bucky exploded into motion, a blur that crossed the room before Gold Teeth’s men could react. His metal arm caught the light as he moved, a silver flash that drew every eye in the room.
His fingers closed around Isabelle’s upper arm, then yanked her from Gold Teeth’s lap with a single fluid motion. Her ankle twisted as her heel caught on the chair leg, sending a sharp spike of pain up her calf. The sudden movement snapped Gold Teeth’s fingers from her throat. Cold air rushed into her lungs, sweet and sharp after the sour heat of his breath.
Bucky positioned himself between them, the line of his back a wall of muscle and tension. He shoved her behind him, rough enough to sell the act, but controlled enough that when she collided with the nearby table, it was her hands that hit first, not her spine.
Gold Teeth surged to his feet, “Who the fuck do you think—”
The words died in a wet gurgle as Bucky’s right fist connected with his jaw. The impact wasn’t the strike of a trained soldier—it was something rawer, something personal. Gold Teeth’s head snapped back, those gleaming dental fixtures catching the strobing lights as a fine spray of blood and saliva arced through the air.
Two bodyguards lunged from opposite sides—the first with brass knuckles already slipped over thick fingers, the second reaching inside his jacket with trained proficiency. Bucky didn’t spare them a glance. His awareness extended beyond sight, a battlefield sense honed through decades of violence.
He caught the first man’s wrist mid-swing, his grip precise as a vise. One twist and something snapped with a wet crunch. The man’s scream cut through the pulsing bass, high and animal. Bucky used the guard’s own momentum to slam him face-first into the table. Glass shattered in a crystalline explosion. Vodka sprayed across the concrete floor in a glittering mist. Blood followed, darker and thicker.
The second man’s fist connected with Bucky’s ribs—a blow that would have folded most men in half. Bucky didn’t flinch. Didn’t register pain. His metal arm whipped around in a backhand strike so fast that Isabelle missed it when she blinked. The impact lifted the guard off his feet, hurling him into the nearest wall, where he crumpled like discarded paper.
The third and last guard reached for his weapon. The pistol cleared his jacket as Bucky moved, fluid, unstoppable, inevitable, his hand shooting out like a striking viper. The plates recalibrated with that distinctive mechanical purr as his fingers closed around the guard’s throat before the gun could level.
The weapon clattered to the concrete, the sound sharp beneath the rising screams from nearby tables. The guard’s eyes bulged, bloodshot capillaries spreading like spider webs across the whites. His mouth worked silently, forming words that died in his crushed windpipe.
Bucky’s face remained utterly expressionless. No satisfaction. No rage. Nothing human at all behind those eyes. This wasn’t the performance anymore—this was muscle memory, bone-deep programming rising to the surface.
The guard’s feet dangled two inches off the ground, kicking uselessly at air. His fingers clawed at the metal hand, nails breaking against unyielding vibranium. The guard’s face darkened to a mottled purple, veins standing out against his temples.
Isabelle felt the pulse inside her respond, coiling tighter, hungry for the violence unfolding. The voice whispered: See how easy it is? One squeeze. That’s all it takes.
Bucky lifted the guard higher, the servos in his arm whining with the effort, then slammed him down onto the concrete floor with enough force to crack the aged surface. The impact knocked the remaining air from the man’s lungs in a wet wheeze. He curled into himself, one hand at his throat, the other reaching blindly for a weapon that wasn’t there.
He didn’t get up.
Gold Teeth stumbled backward, colliding with an overturned chair. His expensive leather shoes slipped in spilled vodka, nearly sending him sprawling. Blood streamed from his split lip in a crimson ribbon, painting those ridiculous gold caps with a wet sheen. His eyes darted to the exit, then back to Bucky, animal instinct warring with wounded pride.
Pride won.
“You fucking—” Gold Teeth launched himself forward with a roar, swinging a meaty fist at Bucky’s head.
Bucky caught it mid-air without even looking, metal fingers closing around Gold Teeth’s knuckles with mechanical precision. The sound that followed wasn’t the clean snap of breaking bone—it was the wet, grinding crunch of a hand being systematically crushed.
Gold Teeth’s howl pierced the club’s stunned silence, a sound more animal than human. His knees buckled as Bucky twisted the mangled hand behind his back, forcing him face down onto the sticky concrete. Gold Teeth’s cheek pressed against the floor, right in the puddle of his own blood.
“Touch her again,” Bucky’s voice emerged flat, emotionless—Winter Soldier cadence bleeding through the performance. His lips barely moved as he spoke directly into Gold Teeth’s ear, each word precise as a knife thrust. “And I’ll take more than your hand.”
He increased pressure on the trapped wrist—just enough to crack another metacarpal.
Isabelle stood frozen, the sickness inside her still coiled tight, hungry and unsatisfied. Her gaze fixed on Bucky’s back—the rigid line of his shoulders, the controlled rise and fall of his breathing. Not a hair out of place. Not a drop of sweat. As if dismantling four men had required no more effort than brushing his teeth.
A whisper slithered through her mind. That’s what a real weapon looks like. Efficient. Controlled. Not broken like you.
She swallowed it down, tasting copper.
His head turned slightly, eyes found hers, and for a fraction of a second, the Winter Soldier mask slipped. Something raw flashed across his face—concern tangled with something darker, something protective that made her stomach flip. His pupils contracted, focusing on her with an intensity that made her feel simultaneously exposed and sheltered.
He didn’t ask if she was okay. Didn’t need to. The slight tilt of his head said enough. The moment stretched between them, electric and dangerous. The connection snapped when Gold Teeth groaned from the floor, spitting a mouthful of blood onto the concrete.
“Fuck,” he gurgled, the word distorted by his swelling jaw. One gold tooth hung loose, dangling from torn gum tissue. “You’re dead. All of you.”
Isabelle’s pulse thundered in her ears, drowning out the scattered gasps from the crowd. Around them, the club had frozen in tableau. The bartender peered over the counter edge, knuckles white against the polished wood. The DJ stood motionless, one hand still on his equipment, the other hovering near what was probably a panic button. Patrons pressed against walls, drinks forgotten in slack grips, eyes wide with the voyeuristic thrill of witnessing violence that hadn’t targeted them.
Sam materialized at her side, his finger brushing against her elbow. Casual to anyone watching, deliberate to her. A check-in disguised as possessiveness.
“You good?” he murmured, voice pitched low enough that only she could hear.
She managed a tight nod, not trusting her voice.
Gold Teeth struggled to his knees, cradling his mangled hand against his chest. Blood dripped between his fingers, pattering onto the floor in a rhythm that matched the pulse inside her. His eyes—bloodshot and hateful—locked onto Bucky.
“Ты труп,” he snarled, teeth bared like a wounded animal. You’re dead.
Bucky didn’t bother looking at him. “Встань в очередь.” Get in line.
The click of expensive shoes against concrete announced Zemo’s approach. He navigated the wreckage with the unhurried confidence of a man who’d orchestrated rather than witnessed chaos. Glass crunched beneath his Italian leather as he stepped over a puddle of blood, careful not to stain the cuffs of his trousers.
“Well,” Zemo said, voice carrying just far enough to reach nearby tables, “I believe we’re done here.” He adjusted his cuffs, the gesture so casual it bordered on insulting. His eyes, though—his eyes missed nothing. They cataloged Gold Teeth’s injuries, the positions of his fallen men. His gaze swept over Isabelle, clinical and assessing, before shifting back to Gold Teeth. “I hope that my associate made it clear. I don’t share well. A character flaw, I’m afraid.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin. His metal hand flexed at his side, plates recalibrating with that distinctive whisper-hiss. The sound sent another shiver down Isabelle’s spine—half fear, half something darker she didn’t want to examine.
Gold Teeth lurched to his feet, swaying like a drunk. “This isn’t over,” he slurred, blood bubbling between his lips. “You think you can just—”
“I think,” Zemo interrupted, voice dropping to that silky-dangerous register that made the hairs on Isabelle’s arms stand up, “that you should consider your position very carefully.” He gestured vaguely toward Gold Teeth’s fallen men. “Three incapacitated men. A broken hand. And my friend here—” he tilted his head toward Bucky, “—hasn’t even gotten creative yet.”
Bucky’s expression didn’t change, but something shifted in his posture—a subtle realignment that made him look even more dangerous. The Winter Soldier wasn’t a mask he wore; it was a skin he shed, and right now, that skin was peeling back.
The bartender slid back into view, his face a mask of professional neutrality that didn’t quite hide the tension around his eyes. “Selby will see you now,” he said, his gaze flickering to the blood splatter on the floor, then to Bucky, then away.
Zemo smiled widely. “Perfect timing,” He offered a shallow bow, then gestured toward the darkened hallway behind the bar. “Shall we?”
Isabelle didn’t move at first. Bucky watched her eyes flicker to the bodies on the floor, to the blood, to Zemo’s smile. He saw the tightness in her jaw. The way her fingers twitched like she was still deciding whether to burn the whole place down.
Then she stepped forward, spine straight, gaze cold. Unflinching.
Bucky fell in behind her without a word—his metal hand still flexing, still itching.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Psycho Killer" by Miley Cyrus
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The deal isn’t done. The smoke hasn’t cleared. And the name Belladonna has cracked something open that Isabelle can’t shove back down.
Inside Selby’s lair, the masks are slipping—Zemo’s patience, Sam’s calm, Isabelle’s control. And Bucky? He’s not just watching anymore. He’s calculating. Every exit. Every weapon. Every threat to her.
Because if things go sideways, he won’t hesitate.
And when the Winter Soldier moves, blood follows.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 24: When the Past Knocks
Chapter 24: When the Past Knocks
Summary:
A smoky room. A single wrong word. And too many hands on the wrong people.
Selby tests just how much leverage a name can carry—and what someone like Zemo is really willing to sell. When the Winter Soldier is paraded like a weapon for trade, Isabelle’s composure fractures. And when Selby says Belladonna, everything she’s buried claws its way back to the surface.
Secrets are surfacing. Nagel’s name is dropped. And Isabelle’s past isn’t just catching up to her—it’s been waiting.
Control is slipping. And if Bucky loses his grip next, there will be blood.
Notes:
okay… I know I just updated… like just, just updated… but I cannot wait to post this chapter and the arc it sets off because AHHH I’m so excited. You’ve been asking how Isabelle got her powers—how it really all went down—and welp… after this? I’m diving straight into a four-part flashback arc that finally reveals all of it. And y’all… as I was writing it, I just knew. This is it. Her origin. Her horror story. And I’ve been literally vibrating trying not to post it early. But first… we have to survive Selby.
Soft Content Warning: This chapter contains the canon implication from show—that Bucky may have been SA'd during his time as the Winter Soldier. I’ve addressed it gently and with care, but wanted to give a heads-up in case that content is difficult for anyone. 💚💚💚
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Chapter Text
Isabelle’s heels clicked too loudly on the concrete. Her pulse still skipped like a broken metronome. Every step toward that door felt like walking into a furnace dressed in silk.
Minutes ago, she’d watched Bucky tear through men like paper. Minutes ago, her own power had surged through her veins like poison, begging for release. The room had reeked of copper and fear, and some part of her had liked it. That was the part she needed to bury now.
Zemo walked two steps ahead, his posture impeccable, as if they were strolling into a gala rather than the back room of a club where people disappeared.
They approached the unmarked door at the back, and her fingers twitched at her sides. One wrong word in there, one slip, and everything would unravel—worse than it already had. She wasn’t ready. Not with her power still humming loudly beneath her skin, restless.
Zemo reached for the handle, the door swinging open with a whisper of well-oiled hinges. A wall of stale smoke hit her face, clinging to her eyelashes and crawling down her throat.
The room beyond was a coffin with furniture. Narrow. Suffocating. A single bulb dangled from a frayed cord, painting everything in sickly yellow that made the peeling wallpaper look like diseased skin. Three men sat around a circular table, their faces half-hidden in shadow, cigarettes burning between yellowed fingers.
The air felt solid, thick with smoke that curled like living things, and the unmistakable punch of bottom-shelf whiskey. The kind that stripped paint and dignity in equal measure. It coated the back of her throat, making her want to gag.
Her gaze caught on the gun resting casually beside an ashtray. The man closest to it had hands that didn’t shake when he lifted his glass. Professional. Killer’s hands.
Isabelle straightened her spine, letting the Stark mask slide into place even as her heart hammered against her ribs. She’d walked into worse rooms with worse men. She could do this.
Selby lounged on a cracked leather couch that looked like it had survived several bar fights and at least one war. Her white hair gleamed under the weak light, cropped short against her skull. Deep lines carved a map of hard choices and survival across her face. But her eyes, they were sharp, unblinking, tracking their entrance with the patience of someone who’d built a small empire on other people’s desperation.
Isabelle’s training activated like muscle memory. Two exits: the doors at her back and another behind a threadbare curtain to the left that smelled questionably. One window with black paint flaking at the corners, sealed shut, probably alarmed. Three weapons within arm’s reach: brass lamp (heavy base, good for blunt force), overflowing ashtray (glass, jagged if broken), and a silver letter opener on the side table (six inches, pointed tip, serrated edge).
“Baron,” Selby drawled, smoke escaping her yellowed teeth like something dying. “Didn’t expect you’d crawl back to Madripoor so soon.” She flicked ash onto the floor, deliberately missing the overflowing tray. A power move. A declaration that this was her territory, her rules. “Sit.”
Zemo inclined his head, taking in Selby with the clinical interest of someone examining an insect under glass. He smiled widely. “Always a pleasure, Selby.”
His fingers brushed Isabelle’s wrist as he lowered himself into the chair, light but deliberate. A signal. A reminder of their choreographed roles in this dangerous theater.
Isabelle shifted her weight to her back foot, the movement subtle as smoke. She took a position slightly behind Zemo’s right shoulder, not too close or far. The perfect distance. Close enough to catch a bullet, far enough to draw and fire.
Her power pulsed beneath her skin like a second heartbeat, each throb sending pins and needles through her fingertips. She clenched her jaw, forcing it down, burying it beneath the same face she’d worn through thousands of charity galas, board meetings, and press conferences.
Through her peripheral vision, she tracked Sam taking up a spot near the curtained exit, as if he’d simply wandered there. His fingers tapped once against his thigh—their signal that he’d also identified all potential threats in the room.
Bucky drifted to her left, a shadow detaching from shadows. His metal arm caught the light as he settled against the wall, the sound of his back meeting concrete barely audible. The vibranium plates shifted once, twice, then stilled. His eyes, cold and assessing, never left Selby’s face.
The room contracted around them, air molecules compressing with the collective tension of too many killers in too small a space. Isabelle felt her lungs protest, her breath shallow against the smoke and the press of adrenaline.
Selby leaned forward, her cigarette dangling between fingers that should have trembled with age but remained unnervingly steady. She took a long drag, the ember flaring bright orange in the dim room. When she exhaled, the smoke curled around her.
“You should know,” Selby said, each syllable hanging in the stale air, “people don’t just walk into my establishment and make demands.”
“Not a demand, my dear Selby,” Zemo countered. He spread his hands, palms up—the universal gesture of innocence that looked obscene coming from him. “An offer. Between old friends.”
Isabelle caught Sebly’s face, and what flashed across it. A tightening around the eyes, a fractional straightening of her spine. Recalculation. Reassessment. The woman’s gaze slid from Zemo to Bucky, lingering on the metal arm where the vibranium caught the light. Recognition flickered in those pale eyes, sharp and dangerous as broken glass.
“I thought you were rotting away in a German prison cell.” Selby crushed her cigarette with deliberate force, grinding it into the mountain of butts until the ember died. Her fingernails—chipped and painted a red that matched the bloodshot veins in her eyes—scraped against the glass ashtray. “Last I heard, they’d thrown away the key after the mess you caused with him in Vienna.”
The man with the gun shifted his weight, his chair creaking. Isabelle felt rather than saw Bucky tense beside her, the temperature around him dropping a fraction of a degree. She kept her eyes on Selby but tracked the gunman’s movements, calculating the milliseconds it would take to reach him if he drew.
Zemo smiled—that same pleasant smile he’d worn in Siberia while describing how easy it’d been to break the Avengers apart. “Circumstances change,” he said, adjusting his cuffs. “Prisons aren’t built to hold men like me. Not forever.”
Selby’s laugh was a harsh, broken sound. “No,” she agreed, reaching for another cigarette. “They never are.”
Isabelle felt her powers stir beneath her skin—a familiar itch crawling up from her palms to her fingertips. Heat and cold simultaneously, like fever chills. Ready to unravel at the slightest provocation. She curled her fingers inward, nails digging into her palms. The pain helped. Grounded her.
Sam shifted his weight behind them, a floorboard betraying him with a long, plaintive creak. His breath hitched—barely audible, but in this room, small sounds carried weight. Like him, she kept her expression neutral, but her pulse drummed against her throat, a metronome counting down to disaster.
Selby’s eyes narrowed to calculating slits. She pulled out her lighter, clicking once, twice before the flame caught. The brief orange glow carved deeper shadows into the hollows of her face, making her look skeletal for one unnerving moment.
“And what are you offering, Baron?” she asked through a fresh cloud of smoke, her interest piqued despite her obvious wariness. “Must be something special to risk showing your face in Madripoor. With friends.”
Her gaze slid to Isabelle, lingering with the practiced assessment of someone who’d spent a lifetime weighing the value of flesh. Isabelle had been sized up before. As a girl. As a weapon. As leverage. Selby’s gaze was just one more version of it—but no less violating. Every second she held her tongue felt like swallowing broken glass.
“Ah, yes.” Zemo’s lips curved upward, the gesture never reaching his eyes. “This is Carmilla. A protégé of sorts.” He tilted his head toward Isabelle without breaking eye contact with Selby. His voice dropped to a silken murmur. “Quite talented, I assure you.”
Isabelle kept her face carefully blank, though her skin crawled beneath Selby’s appraisal. The woman’s eyes dragged over her body. She exhaled another plume of smoke, her lips curling. The smoke drifted between them, a shifting barrier that did nothing to blunt the sharpness of her next words.
“Uh-huh—talented.” She winked at Zemo, her voice dropping to a raspy purr that made Isabelle’s stomach turn. “Didn’t think you’d ever move on from your wife, Baron.”
The change in Zemo was imperceptible to anyone who wasn’t watching for it—a fractional tightening at the corners of his jaw, his fingers digging briefly into the armrest before relaxing. Something raw and wounded flashed behind his eyes, there and gone so quickly that Isabelle might have imagined it. But she hadn’t.
Her stomach knotted. The wife whose death had driven him to tear the Avengers apart from the inside. Selby had just casually ripped open that wound with surgical precision, the verbal equivalent of sliding a blade between ribs.
“Now, now, Selby.” His voice dropped to a dangerous purr. Each syllable carried weight, like stones placed carefully on a scale. “A gentleman never kisses and tells.”
He turned to Isabelle, giving her an exaggerated wink that transformed his face into something almost boyish. The performance was flawless—and utterly chilling. A shark wearing a child’s smile.
Isabelle returned a coy smile she didn’t feel, her lips stiff with the effort. Copper bloomed across her tongue where she’d bitten the inside of her cheek. The taste anchored her, kept her from reaching for the letter opener six inches from her fingertips.
Natasha’s voice whispered through her memory: Sometimes you have to become whatever they need you to be. A lover, a daughter, a victim. You make them see what they want to see. The Black Widow had described her Red Room training with clinical detachment, but Isabelle had caught the hollow look in her eyes. The same emptiness that now threatened to swallow her whole.
Selby’s gaze raked over her again, lingering.
“She’s pretty,” Selby conceded, tapping more ash onto the floor. “But beauty’s cheap in Madripoor, Baron. Pretty girls wash up on these shores every day,” she continued, her gaze never leaving Isabelle’s face. “Some living, some not.”
Isabelle felt Bucky shift behind her—a minute tensing of muscle, the soft whisper of vibranium plates recalibrating. She kept her face blank, her posture relaxed. Selby was testing her, probing for weakness like pressing on a bruise to gauge the reaction.
Selby let out a chuckle, not genuine amusement, but the dry, rattling kind. She leaned back against the leather, arms sprawling across the back of the couch with an unsettling casualness. Like she recognized a weakness.
Without warning, Selby’s attentions snapped to Sam. The movement, cobra-quick, her head pivoting with unnatural precision that caught them all off guard. Her eyes narrowed, taking in Sam’s posture, the way his hands rested too laxly at his sides.
“You’re taller than I expected, Smiling Tiger.”
Ice flooded Isabelle’s veins, and a single bead of sweat traced Sam’s temple. But Sam didn’t flinch. Not a muscle twitched in his face. His shoulders remained square, chin level, offering only a curt nod in response.
Bucky shifted, a minute adjustment that nobody else noticed besides her and Sam. His weight transferred to the balls of his feet, his body angling fractionally toward Sam, positioning himself to intercept bullets if necessary. The vibranium arm whirred once, nearly silent, plates recalibrating in preparation.
“Not much of a talker, are you?” Selby asked, keeping her gaze on Sam. “Funny. Word is, you never shut up.”
The man with the gun leaned forward, his chair creaking beneath his weight. His finger wasn’t on the trigger but rested alongside the guard, ready.
“Mmm.” Selby’s attention snapped back to Zemo, the movement just as abrupt as before. Her voice dropped an octave, all pretense of cordiality evaporating into the smoke-choked air. “What’s the offer, Baron? And make it good. Very good.”
Zemo rose from his chair. Not abruptly, but with the fluid grace of a man certain of his territory. Each movement calculated, unhurried, as though time bent to his will rather than the other way around. He circled behind them, footsteps whispering against the grimy floor. Isabelle tracked him without turning her head, pulse hammering against her throat as he positioned himself directly behind Bucky.
With a theatrical ceremony, Zemo placed both hands on Bucky’s shoulders. The gesture was deliberate, possessive—a conqueror claiming spoils.
“Information about who’s recreating the super-soldier serum,” Zemo announced. His fingers pressed into the fabric of Bucky’s jacket, dimpling the material. “In exchange for this.”
This. Not him. This.
Isabelle’s stomach twisted. One word—three letters that stripped away humanity, reduced a man to property.
Zemo’s fingers dug deeper into the meat of Bucky’s shoulders, kneading like a cat preparing to pounce. The gesture wasn’t gentle—it was ownership on display. A master presenting prized livestock at auction.
Isabelle caught the microscopic flinch at the corner of Bucky’s eye, the barely perceptible tightening of his jaw. His metal arm hung at his side, plates shifting with a subtle whir as his fingers curled inward, then relaxed with forced control.
“Along with the code words to control him, of course.” Zemo’s right hand abandoned Bucky’s shoulder to trace a path up his neck, fingers ghosting along the stubbled line of his jaw with mock tenderness. “The Winter Soldier, fully operational. Fully... compliant.”
The last word dripped from Zemo’s lips like venom. Compliant. The implication hung in the air, toxic and inescapable. Not just a weapon—a puppet. A thing to be used however they pleased.
Bucky’s eyes fixed on some distant point, but Isabelle saw the slight dilation of his pupils, the way his throat worked as he swallowed. The invisible flinch that no one else would notice.
It wasn’t just possession. It was desecration. Zemo turned Bucky into a thing, and no one in the room blinked.
Her power surged without warning, a sudden rush of heat beneath her skin. Electricity crackled between her fingers—invisible to everyone except her. And Bucky. His eyes flicked to her hands, then back up to her face. A fractional shake of his head. So slight it might have been nothing.
But it wasn’t nothing. It was everything.
Control it. Lock it down. Push it back, the tide of rage threatening to spill over.
Selby straightened, cigarette forgotten between fingers. Her posture transformed, boredom replaced by naked interest. Her gaze traveled over Bucky’s body with the clinical assessment of a butcher selecting prime cuts.
“Anything?” The word slithered from her mouth, dripping. She leaned forward, elbows on knees, the leather couch creaking beneath her. “He’ll do... anything?”
The question hung between them, heavy with meaning. Not just killing. Something darker. Something worse.
Heat surged through Isabelle’s body, her vision blurring at the edges. Red. Everything tinged red. She forced air through her nostrils, counting silently. One, two, three. Her powers stirred once more.
“That’s the idea.” Zemo’s smile remained fixed, clinical, never touching his eyes. His fingers trailed down Bucky’s neck to rest at his collarbone, a parody of affection. “Complete compliance. Complete control.” He paused, letting the words sink in. “Whatever task you require... whatever service you might desire. You know his reputation, I’m sure.”
Bucky didn’t move. But Isabelle saw the tension in his shoulders, the rigid line of his spine. The way his metal arm recalibrated with a sound so soft only she could hear it. The plates shifting, readjusting, like skin crawling.
Selby’s laugh—a harsh, grating sound like metal on concrete—bounced off the grimy walls. She crushed her cigarette into the overflowing ashtray, grinding it with vicious force that sent flakes of ash scattering across the table.
“The Winter Soldier,” she said, testing the name on her tongue like tasting expensive wine. Her eyes gleamed with something that made Isabelle’s stomach turn. “HYDRA’s perfect weapon. I’ve heard stories.”
Her gaze dissected Bucky piece by piece, lingering on his metal arm, then his face, then lower.
“They say he can kill a man seventeen different ways with just his flesh hand. That he never sleeps. Never tires.” Her tongue darted out, wetting cracked lips. “Never fail to... perform.”
Something snapped inside Isabelle, a crack in her control. Her power surged through her veins, burning as it flowed to her fingertips. She didn’t move, didn’t gesture, just focused the building pressure toward Selby with surgical precision.
A thin trickle of blood appeared beneath Selby’s nostril. Not much, just a crimson thread bright against sallow skin. The woman flinched, her hand flying to her face with a startled jerk. When her fingers came away wet, confusion flickered across her features, quickly followed by a wince as something invisible constricted around her sinuses.
Isabelle felt the power flowing through her veins—hot and cold simultaneously, a fever-chill that buzzed beneath her skin. She could feel the pressure points in Selby’s skull like they were mapped in her own mind, could sense exactly how much more force it would take to rupture capillaries, to fracture delicate bone. Just a little more pressure...
Zemo’s eyes whipped toward her, cold fury crystallizing his features. Not at what she’d done—at the timing. The risk to his carefully orchestrated performance. His fingers tightened faintly on Bucky’s shoulder, a warning Isabelle felt as clearly as if he’d shouted.
Bucky’s gaze locked with hers, surprise clear in those winter-gray eyes. Not just surprise—something else. Gratitude?
Sam tensed beside her, weight shifting to the balls of his feet. Ready to move if this went sideways. A question hung in the tilt of his head: What are you doing?
The man with the gun shifted, his chair creaking as he leaned forward. His fingers twitched toward the weapon.
Isabelle exhaled slowly, deliberately. She uncurled her mental grip from around Selby’s sinuses, forcing herself to release the hold one finger at a time, like prying open a fist that wanted to remain clenched. Her fingertips tingled, then went numb. The comedown always felt like pins and needles, like blood rushing back to sleeping limbs. Her hands trembled at her sides. She curled them into fists to hide the shaking.
Selby yanked a handkerchief from her jacket pocket with surprising speed. She pressed it hard against her nostril, eyes narrowing to suspicious slits as she scanned the room. Blood bloomed across the cloth, bright crimson against dingy white.
“Fucking sinuses,” she spat, voice thick and wet. She tilted her head back, nostrils flaring. “Madripoor’s air is poison this time of year. Pollution. Spores. Shit from the harbor.” Each word came sharper than the last, her free hand drumming agitated patterns against the leather armrest.
Selby dabbed again at her nose, checking the cloth with a grimace before folding it with practiced efficiency—blood hidden inside like a secret—and tucking it away.
“Now that—” Selby jabbed a finger toward Zemo, “—that’s the Zemo I remember.” A crooked smile split her face. “Glad I decided not to kill you immediately. You were right to come to me. Arrogant, but right.”
She shifted, leather creaking beneath her. The sound reminded Isabelle of breaking bones. Of snapping tendons. Of things that shouldn’t bend but did.
Zemo returned to his seat, unhurried, his eyes finding Isabelle’s as he crossed the room. He reached for her wrist, fingers circling with deceptive gentleness. A tug—light but insistent—drew her closer to his side. His thumb found her pulse point, pressing just hard enough to feel the hammering beneath her skin.
To anyone watching, it looked affectionate. A lover’s touch. A reassurance.
Isabelle felt the truth of it—a vise disguised as tenderness. His fingers tightened fractionally, the pressure precise. Just enough to send a message without leaving marks: Control yourself or I’ll control you.
The threat hummed between them, unspoken but clear as broken glass.
“My dear Selby,” Zemo continued, his thumb still circling Isabelle’s wrist in that mockery of affection. His voice dropped to velvet, each word carefully measured. “I believe we have the foundation for a mutually beneficial arrangement.”
Isabelle fought the instinct to wrench away, to snap his wrist like kindling.
The pressure against her pulse wasn’t painful—not yet—just deliberate. A reminder of who controlled the room. Who controlled her, as far as everyone here was concerned.
“The question remains—” Zemo tilted his head, studying Selby, “—what information can you provide about our serum-seeking friends? The Flag Smashers?”
Selby’s eyes flicked to Bucky, lingering on the metal arm before returning to Zemo. “The super-soldier serum,” she finally said, each word deliberate as a knife thrust, “is here, in Madripoor.”
“Here?” Zemo’s voice remained controlled, carefully calm. But Isabelle heard the slight lift at the end, the hope wrapped in disbelief, like a disillusioned gift. His fingers dug deeper into her wrist, abandoning the pretense of affection for naked control.
“Dr. Wilfred Nagel.” Selby savored each syllable, rolling the name between her teeth like expensive liquor. “He’s recreated it. Perfected it, some say.”
Her lips peeled back in a yellow-toothed grin.
“He worked on that old project... the one that got exposed when the Black Widow leaked those SHIELD files.” Selby’s eyes narrowed, pupils contracting to pinpoints of malice. She leaned forward, the leather couch protesting beneath her. “That Belladonna project—with that Stark girl...the Avenger.”
Isabelle suddenly couldn’t breathe. Her lungs seized mid-breath, oxygen evaporating from the room as if someone had thrown a switch. The cigarette stench morphed, chemical memories overlaying reality—antiseptic sting, the metallic bite of surgical tools, the powder-dry latex of gloves against her skin.
Her mother’s lab. Her prison.
Selby’s voice continued, but the words warped and stretched like taffy as she jerked her head towards Bucky. “...said the girl was meant to be the next him.” She jerked her head toward Bucky. “Dangerous little thing. Walking bioweapon.”
Isabelle’s hand shot back instinctively, fingers scraping against peeling wallpaper as she stumbled back a half-step. Her balance wavered—not just her body, but something deeper. The careful walls she’d built between past and present crumbled like sand.
“Easy there, darling,” Selby’s voice cut through the fog, knife-sharp. Her eyes narrowed, tracking Isabelle’s reaction. “Seems like someone recognizes that name.”
The room tilted again. Isabelle’s vision tunneled to pinpricks of light. Zemo’s fingers around her wrist became her only anchor, pain keeping her present when memory threatened to drag her under. His grip tightened, pressing against tendons and bone.
She could feel Sam’s gaze burning into her. Felt Bucky’s attention snap toward her like a rubber band too tight.
“Excuse my associate.” Zemo’s chuckle slid through the air, smooth but stiff. His thumb dug deeper into her wrist, pressing against bone. “She seems to have drunk too much tonight.”
The lie hung between them, transparent and flimsy. His grip tightened—a vise disguised as concern.
He knew. Of course, he knew. Every classified file on the Winter Soldier program. Every HYDRA offshoot experiment. Every failed attempt to recreate Erskine’s miracle.
Every child they’d broken trying.
“Is that so?” Selby leaned forward, eyes lit with the curiosity of someone who’d just discovered leverage. “Funny reaction,” She reached for another cigarette, tapping it against the table three times before placing it between her lips. “For someone who’s just…drunk.”
The cigarette bobbed between Selby’s fingers before sliding between cracked lips. The woman’s tongue darted out, wetting the paper with deliberate slowness, her gaze never leaving Isabelle’s face.
The room had gone deadly quiet.
Isabelle could feel her power stirring beneath her skin, responding to not just any panic, but a specific, jagged-edged terror that belonged to her mother’s voice, clinical and detached, dictating notes into a recorder while Isabelle’s small body convulsed on the examination table. The nightmare that had transformed her into a weapon. And the man who had smiled, patted her head, and said, “Good girl. This won’t hurt much.”
He had lied.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Reptilla" by The Strokes
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2004.
She wakes on cold steel, silk nightgown soaked in sweat, lungs seizing around a scream that won’t come.
Her mother—gloved, smiling, surgical—says it’s all going according to plan.The serum in her veins pulses like a second heartbeat. The restraints bite. The scalpel sings.
And the girl who once played Bach at recitals becomes something else.
Something new.
Something built.Before the powers.
Before the headlines.
Before the name Sick Girl—
There was just Isabelle. Fifteen. Alone. Awake when she shouldn’t be.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 25: Awake
Chapter 25: Awake
Summary:
2004
A needle in her vein. And a mother who stops being a mother the second she picks up the scalpel.
Fifteen-year-old Isabelle wakes strapped to a table, her blood on her mother’s gloves and something unnatural coursing through her veins. She begs. They record. She burns from the inside out.The next morning, there are no scars. No proof. Just an omelet, orange juice, and Laura Proctor smiling like she didn’t just break her daughter open to see what would glow.
It wasn’t a nightmare.
It was the beginning.And Isabelle is starting to remember.
But her skin still stings.
The juice tastes like chemicals.
And her mother is still lying.This is how it begins.
Not with a choice—
but with a needle.
Notes:
Ahhhh it’s Wednesday, which means update timeeeee! 💚💚💚
I am so excited (and a little nervous!) to start diving into Isabelle’s backstory finally. This arc is something I’ve been building toward for a long time, and I’ve poured a lot into it. I wanted to give her the kind of tragic, intense, cinematic origin that feels right at home in the MCU…and I really, really hope it hits.
A soft content warning: This chapter contains mentions of child abuse, medical/body horror, and emotional trauma. It’s not graphic for shock value—I’ve tried to handle it with care—but please take care of yourselves and read with caution if those themes are hard for you.
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Chapter Text
2004
The pain hit her before consciousness fully claimed her. Not gradual. Not building. A white-hot spike driving through her abdomen, radiating outward like molten glass beneath her skin.
Fifteen-year-old Isabelle tried to scream.
But nothing came.
Her lungs seized, throat closing, muscles locking rigid. This wasn’t a bruise or a cut or a broken bone. This was something alien, invasive—something worming through her veins, rewriting her from the inside out.
Her eyelids felt weighted with lead. She fought against them, desperate to see, to understand. When they finally cracked open, fluorescent lights stabbed her retinas. White ceiling tiles blurred above her, multiplying and merging in a nauseating dance.
“Temperature rising,” a voice said. Analytic. Detached. “104.2 and climbing.”
“Good,” came the reply. Her mother’s voice. “That’s expected.”
The smell hit her next—antiseptic with an aggressive edge. Not the mild, clean scent of hospital corridors, but something sharper. Industrial. It scorched her nostrils and coated her tongue with a metallic taste that made her stomach convulse.
Beneath it lurked something unmistakable. Copper. Salt. Blood. Her blood.
Something cold pressed against her ribs. Not cutting, no, not yet. The instrument traced her ribcage, tracing bone and tissue like she was coordinates on a map.
“Pulse 142,” her mother said, voice stripped of anything maternal. Just data points and observations. “Respiratory rate elevated.”
Isabelle’s eyes darted wildly, desperate for anything familiar. Nothing. White walls that seemed to pulse with the fluorescent lights. Stainless steel trays lined with instruments she couldn’t name but instinctively feared. IV bags hanging nearby, filled with something that wasn’t clear but faintly luminescent—a sickly green-blue that pulsed like it had its own heartbeat.
She tried to swallow, but her throat constricted. This wasn’t her bedroom with its posters or awards. This wasn’t a nightmare she could wake from either. This was somewhere else.
Somewhere worse.
“M—mom?” The word was slurred, her tongue feeling as if it was swollen, useless.
She tried to lift her hands, but resistance bit into her flesh. Straps. Thick medical-grade restraints pinning her wrists, ankles, and waist, splaying her across a table like a frog in a high school dissection.
“Mom?” Louder this time. Desperate.
The figure above her went stiff. The drip from the IV punctuated the silence—each drop a tiny explosion in Isabelle’s heightened awareness. Drip. Drip. Drip. Green-blue liquid pulsing into her veins.
Her mother’s face swam into focus. Same honey blonde hair. Same high cheekbones. Same brown eyes Isabelle saw in the mirror. But something was wrong. Those familiar features were arranged in an expression Isabelle had never witnessed—clinical detachment, scientific curiosity. The surgical mask hung beneath her chin, revealing lips pressed into a bloodless line. Under the harsh fluorescents, shadows carved valleys into her face, transforming her into a stranger wearing her mother’s skin.
“She’s conscious.” Mom’s voice wasn’t for her. It traveled past her, directed somewhere beyond Isabelle’s limited field of vision. No warmth. No comfort. Just data. “That’s impossible. She should be completely sedated.”
“Pulse still climbing,” a man answered. Clipped consonants. Professional urgency. “146... 150... 152. We’re losing the window, Laura.”
Isabelle tried to turn toward the voice. White-hot pain splintered through her neck, her skull, detonating behind her eyeballs. The ceiling spun, tiles multiplying, merging, separating.
“What are you—” She choked on the words. Something thick coated her throat. “—doing to me?”
Her gaze snagged on a glint of metal in her mother’s hand. A scalpel. The edge wasn’t clean. Wasn’t sterile. Fresh blood—her blood—decorated the blade. Vibrant crimson catching the light. Not old. Not dry. Wet. Recent.
Isabelle’s focus traveled upward. Her mother’s latex-covered fingers wore the same crimson stain, smeared across the tips like she’d been finger-painting. More blood splattered the white lab coat. Not drops. Splashes. Arterial spray.
Isabelle’s stomach contracted. That was her blood. That was her blood, outside her body, decorating her mother like abstract art.
“You shouldn’t be awake.” Her mother’s voice softened, almost apologetic. Something flickered in her eyes—a momentary flash of the woman who’d once bandaged Isabelle’s skinned knees and checked for monsters under the bed. It vanished so quickly that Isabelle wondered if she’d hallucinated it.
“The serum is adapting faster than projected.” Dr. Nagel stepped into view, his tall, thin frame looming over her. The hollows beneath his cheekbones deepened as he leaned closer, transforming his face into something skeletal.
Isabelle knew him. He was her mother’s research partner. But this couldn’t be him—not the man who’d praised her Bach at the living room piano. Not the colleague who’d laughed at her mother’s terrible jokes over Sunday dinners.
“Her system is metabolizing the sedative at 3.8 times the expected rate.” His fingers twitched at his sides, eager. Excited. “The markers are unprecedented.”
The words bounced through Isabelle’s skull like ricocheting bullets. Markers. Rate. System. She didn’t understand what any of it meant. But she understood that they were discussing her like machinery. Like code.
“We need to increase the dose.” Her mother’s voice came from somewhere above and behind, all traces of maternal warmth surgically excised. The bloody scalpel hit the metal tray with a clink that vibrated through Isabelle’s molars.
Cool latex pressed against her forehead. The touch—so achingly familiar—sent bile rising in Isabelle’s throat. Her mother’s fingers traced her hairline, leaving wet trails of copper-scented warmth. Blood. Her blood.
“If we increase it now, we risk cardiac arrest.” Nagel’s hands moved in Isabelle’s peripheral vision, tapping rapidly across a monitor. Each tap-tap-tap hammered into her skull. “Temperature 104.9 and climbing. The protein chains are destabilizing faster than anticipated—”
“I know my daughter’s limits.” Mom’s voice hardened, but her touch remained gentle—the contradiction making Isabelle’s stomach heave. “She’s stronger than she looks.”
Isabelle tried to jerk away from the touch. Her muscles spasmed uselessly against the restraints. The leather bit deeper, hot friction against raw skin. A sound escaped her throat—not the scream building in her chest but something feral, wounded.
“Her heart rate’s spiking,” Nagel warned. “166... 170...”
“Just finish the notes.” Mom’s thumb brushed Isabelle’s temple, smearing something wet across her skin. “We’re behind schedule.”
Schedule? They had a schedule for whatever they were doing to her?
“Stop—” Isabelle’s vision collapsed inward, darkness gnawing at the edges like acid eating paper. Her pulse hammered in her throat, each beat a small explosion.
Tears welled, hot and stinging. The sterile ceiling fractured above her—white tiles dissolving into watercolor smears. She blinked rapidly, desperate to clear her vision, to see what they were doing to her body.
Her mother’s hand withdrew from her forehead. The absence felt worse than the touch—a cold void where something familiar should be.
Footsteps circled the table. Three steps. Pause. Two more. The distinctive squeak of rubber-soled shoes against industrial linoleum. Someone breathing—measured, controlled. Professional. Metal scraped against glass with a sound that vibrated through her molars.
Nagel’s face appeared above her, blocking the fluorescent glare. His thin lips compressed into a line. Sweat beaded along his hairline. The overhead light caught his glasses, transforming them into twin moons that obscured his eyes.
The syringe in his hand captured the fluorescent light, transforming the green-blue liquid inside into something alive—trapped sunlight pulsing with each subtle tremor of his fingers. The needle looked impossibly long and thick, more weapon than medical instrument.
“No,” Isabelle whispered. Her vocal cords spasmed, reducing the word to a breath. “Don’t—”
The needle hovered above her inner elbow, its shadow falling across a constellation of purple-yellow bruises from previous injections. Her skin crawled beneath it, goosebumps rising as her body instinctively tried to retreat from the coming invasion.
“Isabelle.”
Her mother’s voice cracked like a whip against her consciousness.
Laura’s face slid into view, eclipsing Nagel and the harsh light. Her features had transformed—hardened into the expression Isabelle had seen a thousand times before. The look that accompanied failed math tests and missed piano notes. The look that expected immediate compliance and accepted no excuses.
“Look at me.” Not a request—a command. Clinical. Authoritative. “Deep breath. In. Out.”
Isabelle’s lungs responded automatically, expanding on command—fourteen years of conditioning impossible to override even as her mind screamed rebellion.
“You’re going to change the world,” her mother whispered, leaning closer until her face filled Isabelle’s field of vision. The familiar scent of her perfume—vanilla and jasmine—permeated the sterile air, now corrupted by the metallic tang of blood and chemicals. The combination churned in Isabelle’s stomach, acid rising in her throat. “Just like we always planned.”
We?
The needle pierced her skin.
Not a pinch—a violation. Cold fire erupted at the injection site, liquid ice racing through her veins toward her heart. Each centimeter it traveled left numbness in its wake, a creeping paralysis that felt like death advancing through her circulatory system.
Nagel’s thumb pressed the plunger with methodical slowness. The liquid disappeared into her bloodstream milliliter by milliliter. Isabelle tried to scream, but her throat constricted, vocal cords freezing mid-vibration.
The world bled to white, colors leaching away like water down a drain. Sounds distorted—her mother’s voice stretching into unintelligible frequencies, the beeping monitors collapsing into a single sustained tone.
The last thing she saw before consciousness fled was her mother’s face, not looking at her, but at the monitor beside the table. Her eyes weren’t filled with concern or regret or even love. They gleamed with something colder, brighter.
Triumph.
Not a mother watching her daughter suffer.
A scientist watching her experiment succeed.
Her body convulsed upright, sheets tangled around her legs like restraints. Sweat plastered her t-shirt to her skin, the fabric clinging to her torso in damp patches. Her stomach throbbed—not the dull ache of hunger but something deeper, more invasive, as though someone had reached inside and rearranged her organs.
She pressed trembling fingers against her abdomen, half-expecting to find an incision, stitches, evidence. Nothing but smooth, unbroken skin beneath the soaked cotton. Yet the ghost-sensation of cold steel against her ribs lingered, the phantom pressure of straps around her wrists.
Sunlight streamed through half-drawn blinds, painting golden stripes across her bedroom floor. Isabelle blinked, orienting herself. Her bedroom. Her bed. Her life. The digital clock on her nightstand read 6:42 AM. Normal. Ordinary. Safe.
She forced herself to look around. The room was exactly as she’d left it last night—math textbook open on her desk, pencil marking her place mid-equation. Her cello case was propped in the corner. Framed photos lined the wall opposite her bed: Isabelle and her mother at recitals, music showcases, and award ceremonies. Laura’s smile was identical in each one—proud, poised, perfect.
Everything looked normal. Achingly, impossibly normal.
But nothing felt right.
No evidence of last night. No sign that anything had happened.
Had it happened?
“It wasn’t real,” she whispered, voice cracking in the silent room. “Just a nightmare.”
But the image flickered like damaged film: her mother’s latex-gloved hands. The scalpel catching fluorescent light. Nagel’s thin face hovering above her. The needle—impossibly long—sliding into her vein. The burn of something foreign entering her bloodstream.
From downstairs, the domestic sounds of morning drifted up—the sizzle of eggs on a pan, the soft clink of silverware against plates, the hum of the radio playing classical music. Normal sounds. Safe sounds.
Isabelle swung her legs over the edge of the bed, wincing as another wave of pain radiated outward from her core. Her toes curled against the carpet, and she gasped. Every fiber pressed against her skin with impossible clarity, each loop and whorl suddenly distinct and overwhelming. The air itself felt wrong—too dense, too present, molecules scraping against her face like sandpaper.
She stumbled toward the mirror, legs trembling beneath her. Same tangled hair. Same pale skin. Same purple shadows beneath her eyes. But her eyes...
Isabelle leaned closer, fingers gripping the edge of her dresser. Her irises had changed—the familiar dark brown now infused with flecks of gold, like honey caught in sunlight. Not dramatic enough for anyone else to notice, but she knew her own face. Something fundamental had shifted.
“Isabelle! Breakfast!”
Her mother’s voice sliced through the air. Isabelle’s body jerked backward, her heart hammered against her ribs, a caged animal sensing danger. That voice—the same voice that had clinically observed her temperature rising. The same voice that had discussed increasing her dosage while she screamed.
Right?
Her fingers traced her inner elbow, searching for puncture marks, bruises—any evidence that last night had been real. The skin was unmarked. Pristine. As though nothing had happened.
“Isabelle Maria Stark! Don’t make me call you again!” The cheerful lilt in her mother’s voice sent ice water cascading down Isabelle’s spine.
“Coming!” she called back, her voice cracking on the single word. Her hand flew to her stomach, pressing against phantom pain. Dreams didn’t leave physical sensations this intense, did they? Dreams faded upon waking, details blurring into nonsense.
She shook her head, forcing herself to move toward the door. Each step sent ripples of discomfort through her abdomen, persistent enough that she couldn’t ignore it. Her hand found the doorknob, fingers hovering over the cool metal.
“Get it together, Stark,” she whispered.
She turned the doorknob with a soft click, the hallway stretching before her, longer than she remembered, each step requiring conscious effort. Modern art pieces hung at precise intervals along pristine white walls—abstracts in blues and grays that her mother had selected from some gallery in SoHo. Isabelle had never liked them. Now they seemed to shift and pulse as she passed, colors bleeding beyond their frames.
She trailed her fingertips along the wall to steady herself, the texture of the paint registering with microscopic detail against her skin. Each tiny imperfection, invisible to normal eyes, scraped against her fingertips like sandpaper. Too much information. Too much sensation.
Her stomach cramped again, a vicious twist that doubled her over mid-stride. Isabelle pressed her palm against it, probing gently. The skin felt tender, hypersensitive—like a sunburn beneath the surface. But there was no visible mark. No incision. No evidence.
The smell hit her first as she approached the kitchen—eggs, butter, coffee, toast. Normal breakfast smells that suddenly carried undertones she’d never detected before: the sulfurous note in the eggs, the rancid edge of dairy beginning to warm, the bitter alkaloids in the coffee. Her stomach lurched in protest.
The kitchen occupied the far end of the open-concept living area—all sleek countertops and stainless steel appliances that probably cost more than most people’s cars. The kind of kitchen designed for magazine spreads rather than actual cooking. Sunlight poured through floor-to-ceiling windows, turning the chrome fixtures into blinding points of light that stabbed at Isabelle’s sensitive eyes.
Her mother stood at the six-burner stove, back turned, spatula moving with over a pan of scrambling eggs. No blood. No scalpel. Just Laura Proctor in silk pajamas making breakfast, her hair pulled into a perfect French twist without a single strand out of place. The sight was so achingly normal that for a moment, Isabelle wondered if she was still dreaming.
“There you are.” Laura turned, spatula poised mid-air. Sunlight caught the droplets of egg clinging to its edge. Her eyebrow arched with that familiar expression before piano recitals and science fairs. A reminder not to disappoint.
Nothing. Not a flicker of recognition. No guilt shadowed her features—no hesitation in her movements.
“You slept in later than normal.” The spatula resumed its path, scraping against non-stick with a sound that grated against Isabelle’s suddenly sensitive eardrums. Metal against metal. Like instruments on a tray. “You look flushed.”
“I—” Isabelle’s fingers dug into the doorframe, anchoring herself as the kitchen tilted sideways. Colors bled at the edges—the stainless steel appliances too bright, the granite countertops rippling with veins that hadn’t been visible yesterday. Her stomach clenched, the phantom pressure of hands inside her abdomen. “I had a weird dream last night.”
Laura’s movements stuttered. There and gone in less than a heartbeat. The spatula froze over the pan, trembling almost imperceptibly before resuming its rhythm with deliberate steadiness.
“Hmm? What kind of dream?” Too casual. Too measured. Each syllable placed with the precision of stitches closing a wound.
Isabelle took a half-step forward. The cold tile stuck slightly to her bare feet—another sensation amplified beyond normal perception. She cataloged her mother’s tells: the slight tension at the corners of her mouth, the controlled, even breathing, the way her fingers gripped the spatula with fractionally more pressure than necessary.
“You and Dr. Nagel...” Isabelle watched for reaction, for confirmation. “You were... cutting me open.”
Laura’s shoulders tensed, then deliberately relaxed—the same controlled response Isabelle had seen her use during arguments with her father before the divorce. She turned, her expression a perfect blend of amused concern. The laugh that escaped her lips didn’t reach her eyes—a hollow sound that cracked against Isabelle’s eardrums like ice breaking underfoot.
“Sweetheart, that’s the last time you watch anything in your father’s horror movie collection before bed.” She slid a perfectly folded omelet onto a waiting plate, the yellow edges precise and uniform. Not a single air bubble marred its surface. “You know those movies give you nightmares.”
The casual dismissal struck Isabelle like a slap. She’d just returned from her father’s a few days ago—the mandatory Thanksgiving holiday visit dictated by custody arrangements that divided her life into segments since the divorce. She’d brought back some of his DVDs, yes, but—
“But it felt real.” Isabelle stepped closer despite the warning bells clanging in her head. “I feel sore. My stomach—” She lifted her t-shirt slightly, revealing unmarked skin that somehow felt violated, exposed. Phantom pain radiated outward from her core, hot tendrils wrapping around her ribs. “It hurts right here, like something’s—”
Laura’s smile vanished. Not fading. Not diminishing. Simply gone, like a switch had been flipped, circuitry rerouted. The transformation was so abrupt that Isabelle took an involuntary step backward, her spine connecting with the doorframe.
“You were feverish yesterday, don’t you remember?” Her mother’s voice shifted into the tone she used for when Isabelle was being difficult—firm, authoritative, brooking no argument. The spatula tapped against the edge of the pan. “103.2. I was about to take you to urgent care when it finally broke.”
Isabelle opened her mouth to argue, but the memory slipped away like water through her fingers. Had she been sick? The more she reached for yesterday, the more it dissolved into fog. Disconnected fragments surfaced: her mother’s cool hand on her forehead, a thermometer beeping, ice chips melting on her tongue. But those images felt wrong somehow—too perfect, too staged, like stock photos rather than lived experience.
“I don’t—” Isabelle pressed her fingers against her temples, where pressure was building behind her eyes. The kitchen lights suddenly seemed too bright, each beam splintering into rainbow fragments. “That doesn’t sound right.”
Laura frowned.
She set the spatula down gently and crossed the kitchen. Her hand, warm and dry, pressed against Isabelle’s forehead. “Still warm.” Her fingers trailed down to Isabelle’s cheek, the touch suddenly feeling like a perfect replica of maternal concern. “Fevers cause vivid dreams. Hallucinations, even. Your brain overheats and makes connections that aren’t there.”
The scientific explanation slid into place easily. The words had the polished quality of something rehearsed, something she’d said before.
“We should revisit your medication.” Laura’s voice dropped to a whisper despite the empty house, her gaze darting to the window as though checking for observers. “I think we need to adjust your dosage.”
Medication.
The word clicked into place like the final tumbler in a lock. The pills she’d taken every morning since she was ten. The “immune support” her mother insisted she needed. The bitter capsules that Laura watched her swallow each day and each night, waiting until they disappeared down Isabelle’s throat before turning away.
Isabelle’s stomach twisted—not phantom pain this time but something visceral, instinctual. The animal part of her brain recognizes danger.
“This wasn’t a fever dream.” Isabelle pulled her arm from her mother’s grip, the sudden movement sending another wave of nausea through her abdomen.
Something flickered in Laura’s eyes—not concern or confusion, but calculation. A rapid assessment of variables, of options, of damage control. The same look she wore when reviewing lab results that didn’t match her hypothesis.
“Sit.” Laura’s hand moved toward Isabelle’s shoulder.
Isabelle flinched back. Laura’s hand froze mid-air, fingers curling slightly before she lowered it with deliberate slowness.
“You’re being ridiculous.” Laura’s voice softened, but her eyes remained sharp, assessing. “You can barely stand. Look at you—white as a sheet.”
Isabelle’s legs trembled beneath her, betraying her. The kitchen tilted sideways, then righted itself with nauseating suddenness. She pressed her palm against the wall, seeking stability as her vision swam.
“Fine.” She took a single step forward, keeping the island counter between them. “But I can sit by myself.”
She made her way to the kitchen stool, each step requiring conscious effort. The distance seemed to stretch impossibly, the polished floor beneath her feet suddenly treacherous. She gripped the edge of the counter, knuckles whitening as she lowered herself onto the stool.
Laura circled the island and pulled a glass from the cabinet, filling it with orange juice and sliding it across the counter. “Drink,” she instructed, turning back to the stove with an air of dismissal. “You need the vitamins.”
Isabelle stared at the juice, suddenly aware of her parched throat. The glass felt abnormally heavy as she lifted it, watching pulp swirl in lazy eddies. Each fiber of orange suspended in liquid seemed unnaturally distinct, like she could count them individually if she tried.
Her mother busied herself wiping down the already spotless counters. The silence stretched between them, taut as a tripwire.
Isabelle raised the glass to her lips, then stopped. The juice smelled wrong—not spoiled, but different. Sharper. Chemical undertones beneath the citrus that she’d never noticed before.
Or never been able to notice.
Isabelle set the glass down untouched. “Mom,” she said, her voice barely audible even to her own ears. “The medicine you gave me yesterday... did it have a needle?”
The wiping motion ceased entirely. The cloth twisted between her fingers, knuckles blanching white against the dark fabric. The kitchen clock ticked, each sound amplified in Isabelle’s ears like a hammer striking metal.
“A needle?” Her mother pivoted, eyes wide in shock. She leaned against the counter, arms crossing over her silk pajama top. Casual. Practiced. False. “No, sweetheart. It was pills. The same ones you always take when you’re sick. You swallowed them with water while I watched. Don’t you remember?”
Isabelle didn’t. She reached for the memory, but it slithered away. The more she grasped, the faster it dissolved, like trying to hold smoke between her fingers.
Laura crossed the kitchen again. The silence of her approach sent prickles of alarm racing up Isabelle’s spine. “Isabelle.” Her mother’s voice dropped half an octave, taking on that edge that always preceded discussions about her father. The tone signaled danger more effectively than any alarm. “Darling, this dream is concerning me.”
Laura’s fingers brushed Isabelle’s shoulder, the touch feather-light. Isabelle’s muscles tensed beneath the contact, every cell in her body suddenly screaming to move away.
“If this keeps happening every time you come back from Tony’s...” The sentence dangled, unfinished but unmistakable in its threat.
The threat hung between them like a guillotine blade. Her mother would petition the court. Cite psychological distress. Present evidence of Isabelle’s “deteriorating mental state” after visits with her father. Tony wouldn’t fight it—he never did. He’d send expensive gifts instead, call more frequently for a few weeks, then gradually fade into sporadic texts and missed birthdays.
“It was just a dream,” Isabelle said, the lie burning her throat. “You’re right. I’m still feeling off.”
She lifted the orange juice to her lips, buying time. She forced herself to swallow, fighting the urge to spit it back into the glass. Her throat constricted against the liquid, her body’s instinct to reject what her mind suddenly classified as wrong.
“See? You need fluids.” Laura smiled, reaching to pinch Isabelle’s cheek. Her fingers lingered a half-second too long before dropping the hand.
Isabelle’s skin crawled beneath the touch. Each fingerprint left a ghost sensation against her cheek. She set the glass down with a soft clink, orange juice sloshing against the sides. The liquid caught the morning light, suddenly looking too vibrant, too artificial.
“Mom.” She started cautiously. The question burned in her throat, dangerous and necessary. “You would never hurt me, right?”
Laura froze. Then horror bloomed across her features.
“Isabelle Maria Stark.” Her mother’s hands shot out, capturing Isabelle’s face between her palms. The sudden movement sent another wave of nausea rolling through Isabelle’s stomach. Laura’s thumbs pressed against her cheekbone. “How could you even ask that?”
Not an answer.
“I just—” Isabelle tried to pull back, but her mother’s grip tightened.
“I am your mother.” Laura’s pupils contracted to pinpoints, her gaze tearing into Isabelle with laser focus. “Everything I do—everything—is to protect you. Do you understand that?”
Still not an answer. A deflection wrapped in the language of love. The pressure against Isabelle’s cheekbones increased fractionally, a subtle reminder of the expected response.
“Yes.” The word tasted like surrender on her tongue. Bitter. Copper-tinged. Like the aftertaste of those daily pills.
Laura’s expression softened instantly. Her hands relaxed their grip on Isabelle’s face, one sliding down to squeeze her shoulder instead.
“Good girl.” She pressed her lips to Isabelle’s forehead, the contact cool and dry. “Now eat up, and so you’re not late for school.”
As Laura turned to start making her own plate, Isabelle stared down at the omelet her mother had placed before her. Her stomach contracted violently at the sight, acid climbing her throat.
The fork felt impossibly heavy as she lifted it, metal teeth catching the morning light like surgical instruments. She pressed the tines against the omelet’s surface, watching as it gave way too easily, revealing the contents hidden inside. Spinach. Mushrooms. Cheese. All arranged in perfect proportion, cooked to textbook precision.
Just like everything else in this house. Perfect on the surface. Clinical underneath.
With one finger, she pushed the plate away, her appetite vanishing completely as a terrible suspicion took root in her mind.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Sleepwalk" by Forrest Dat
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A nosebleed. A snapped pencil. A locker door ripped from its hinges.
Isabelle Stark is unraveling—fracturing in ways that can’t be explained, not by doctors, not by teachers, not even by herself. Her body is changing. Her mind is cracking. And the world is beginning to notice.They think she’s sick. Dangerous. Cursed.
They don’t know the truth.But her mother does.
And Dr. Nagel is coming to dinner.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 26: No Such Thing as Karma
Chapter 26: No Such Thing as Karma
Summary:
Headaches. Hallucinations. A boy bleeding out in History class.
Isabelle isn’t just slipping through the cracks—she’s cracking open. The whispers in the hallways follow her now, sharp as glass, cruel as truth. Something inside her is waking up, and it doesn’t care who’s watching.She’s not contagious.
She’s not cursed.
But she is dangerous.And when her locker door bends like foil under her grip, no one can pretend otherwise.
Something’s wrong.
And worse—her mother seems pleased.
Notes:
Okay okay okay—so here’s the deal! We’re diving headfirst into Isabelle’s origin story (finallyyy), and I am so excited to share it with you. There are four parts total, and while I could honestly write about Izzy forever… I know you’re all here waiting for a certain metal-armed menace to make his return 👀
So! I’ll be posting the first two parts tonight, and the final two tomorrow night, so we can swiftly and dramatically return to Selby’s office by Sunday like nothing ever happened 😌
Thank you so much for reading, commenting, bookmarking—seriously, your support means the world. I hope you love this glimpse into Izzy’s past as much as I loved writing it.
See you soon for Part Three & Four💚
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Later That Day – 9:06 AM
The classroom was too bright.
Isabelle squinted against the sunlight pouring through the tall windows. The geometry lesson fractured before her eyes—lines and angles dissolving into meaningless shapes that swam across the whiteboard. Her pencil trembled between her fingers, the slight vibration traveling up her arm. She clenched her jaw against the steady, rhythmic throb building behind her right eye.
She sat in the third row, middle seat. The perfect territory for facing into the background. Not a front-row overachiever. Not a back-row slacker. Just... there.
But today, she could feel eyes on her. Every movement felt wrong. Too loud. Too visible.
Isabelle hunched lower, shoulders curving forward as she scribbled what might have been notes. The scratch of graphite against paper sounded unnaturally loud in her ears. Her hand jerked, leaving a dark slash across her notebook.
“Hey.” A whisper from her right, cutting through the white noise. Ollie Patel leaned across the aisle, her dark eyes narrowed with concern. The sleeve of her uniform blazer was pushed up, revealing a stack of thin bracelets that clinked softly when she moved. “You okay? You look like you’re gonna hurl.”
Isabelle tried to smile, but her face felt stiff, the muscles uncooperative. Ollie had stuck by her since third grade, when Isabelle had punched Tommy Reichert for stealing Ollie’s lunch. Sharp-witted and sharper-tongued, Ollie never missed a detail. Today, her uniform bore all the hallmarks of her quiet rebellion: collar deliberately askew, at least fifteen bracelets stacked up her left arm, black nail polish chipped in a way that somehow looked intentional.
“I’m fine,” Isabelle murmured, even as a fresh wave of nausea coiled through her stomach, a low burn threading between her ribs like wire pulled too tight. “Just didn’t sleep.”
Ollie’s eyebrows shot up, disappearing beneath her choppy bangs. That look—the one that screamed bullshit without a single word. Her eyes flicked to Isabelle’s white-knuckled grip on the pencil, to the sheen of sweat at her temples. But she didn’t push. She never did, not when Isabelle’s mouth went thin and tight like that.
Instead, Ollie flicked her pen cap, a tiny blue projectile that landed squarely on Isabelle’s half-finished notes. “If you pass out, I’m not carrying you to the nurse again,” she whispered, her voice low enough to dodge beneath Mr. Peterson’s droning explanation of complementary angles. “I threw out my back last time.”
Isabelle huffed a quiet laugh that sent a sharp pain through her chest. She pressed her palm against her sternum, feeling the too-rapid thud of her heart beneath her fingertips. The classroom tilted slightly, desks sliding in her peripheral vision.
Something was wrong.
10:22 AM – History Class
The room felt smaller than usual. Every scrape of chair legs against linoleum sent needles through Isabelle’s skull. Every cough ricocheted off the walls. Every rustle of paper sounded like sandpaper against her raw nerves.
“The Treaty of Versailles created conditions that—” Mr. Abernathy’s voice faded in and out like a badly tuned radio.
Isabelle’s uniform collar choked her. Sweat beaded at her hairline. Her palms left damp prints on her notebook, smudging her half-hearted notes into gray ghosts.
Tap-tap-tap-tap.
Behind her, Kyle Prescott kicked her chair again. The fourth time in ten minutes. Each impact jolted up her spine, feeding the pressure building behind her eyes.
Her mother’s voice sliced through the classroom noise: “Everything I do—everything—is to protect you.”
The words should’ve comforted her. They didn’t.
Tap-tap- TAP.
Another kick. Harder this time.
The memory of the lab—if it was a memory—pressed against the back of her mind. Not vague impressions anymore, but crystallizing details.
Tap- TAP-TAP.
“For Christ’s sake,” she hissed under her breath.
Her pencil snapped between her fingers with a crack that sliced through the classroom. The sound hit her ears like a gunshot—too loud, too sharp. Splinters bit into her palm.
Twenty-three heads swiveled in perfect synchronization. Mr. Abernathy’s mouth froze mid-sentence, the word “reparations” hanging incomplete in the air.
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck, spreading across her cheeks in blotches she knew were turning an ugly red. She hunched lower, as if she could physically shrink from their stares.
“Sorry,” she mumbled.
Mr. Abernathy’s eyes lingered on her for three excruciating seconds before he cleared his throat and continued. The class’s attention drifted back to the lesson like reluctant satellites returning to orbit.
TAP.
Kyle’s foot connected with her chair again. A snicker followed.
Something snapped inside her chest. Not anger—anger was too simple, too clean. This was liquefied and electric, a live wire thrashing beneath her skin. It crawled up her throat like bile, pulsed behind her eyes with each heartbeat. Her fingertips tingled, then burned.
The classroom dimmed at the edges. Sounds warped—Mr. Abernathy’s voice stretched and compressed like a broken cassette. The fluorescent lights overhead buzzed with increasing intensity, the sound drilling into her skull.
Isabelle’s vision tunneled, narrowing to holes of light.
“What the hell’s your problem?” She whipped around, catching Kyle’s smug grin.
The smirk vanished. Just... disappeared. His face went slack, then crumpled inward like paper burning from the center. Kyle’s eyes widened, confusion blooming into panic as blood erupted from both nostrils—not a trickle but a flood, bright arterial red splashing onto his pristine white collar.
“I—” His voice strangled itself. One hand flew to his nose while the other clutched at his temple. “My head—” The words fractured. “Something’s—”
His fingers trembled against his face, blood seeping between them, painting his knuckles crimson. A sound escaped him—not quite a whimper, not quite a scream—high and thin like tearing metal.
“Mr. Prescott?” Mr. Abernathy’s chalk clattered to the floor. He moved forward, monotone replaced by sharp alarm.
Kyle lurched to his feet, knocking his history textbook to the floor with a thunderous slap. Blood pattered onto the pages—one drop, two drops, a constellation of red. His eyes rolled upward, showing whites.
“It hurts,” he gasped. His voice cracked on the second word. “Like something’s—inside—” He swayed, one hand still pressed to his temple, fingers digging into his skin as if trying to claw something out.
The classroom erupted. Chairs scraped backward. Someone whispered “holy shit” too loudly. A girl in the front row gagged audibly.
“Someone get the nurse!” Mr. Abernathy shouted, lunging toward Kyle, whose knees were buckling.
From three seats over, Ollie let out a snort that cut through the chaos. “Karma’s a bitch,” she muttered, just loud enough for Isabelle to hear.
But Isabelle couldn’t move. Couldn’t breathe. Her spine had fused to the chair, muscles locked in place as she watched blood drip-drip-drip from Kyle’s chin onto his shoes. The surge of whatever-it-was inside her chest receded like a tide, leaving behind arctic emptiness.
I didn’t touch him.
Kyle’s eyes found hers through the chaos. Fear. Pure, animal fear.
I didn’t do anything.
Blood vessels in his left eye burst, flooding the white with crimson. His mouth opened in a silent scream.
I just looked at him.
But she knew. Deep in her marrow, she knew. This wasn’t karma.
This was her.
11:57 AM – Cafeteria
The lunch tray trembled in her hands. Not visibly. Not enough to draw attention. Just enough for her to feel like she might shatter.
The pizza on her tray looked wrong. Smelled wrong. The cheese glistened with an oily sheen that turned her stomach. The sauce reeked of artificial sweetness and metallic preservatives. She could smell every individual ingredient, breaking down the whole into its chemical components.
Isabelle pushed the tray away, just an inch. Then another.
“Seriously? You’re not eating?” Ollie dropped into the seat across from her, balancing her own tray loaded with two slices and a mountain of tater tots. “On Pizza Day? Now I know the world’s ending.”
Isabelle stared at her hands. They looked normal. Ordinary. Human. But they didn’t feel like hers. Like she was wearing someone else’s skin—too tight across her knuckles, too loose around her wrists. Her bones ached with a deep, hollow throb.
“I heard they brought Kyle to the hospital.” Ollie leaned forward, voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper that carried despite the cafeteria’s din. Her dark eyes gleamed with something that made Isabelle’s stomach clench. “Actual ambulance, lights, and everything. Overheard Mrs. Hensley saying he seized in the nurse’s office. Like, full-on foaming.”
Isabelle’s throat closed.
“Guess karma finally caught his address,” Ollie continued, stabbing a tater tot with vindictive precision. “Remember seventh grade? When he put that gum in my hair, and I had to cut three inches off? Or last week when he tripped that freshman carrying the science project?” She popped the tot in her mouth, grinning as she chewed. “Cosmic justice, that’s what this is.”
“Stop.” The word scraped Isabelle’s throat raw.
“What?” Ollie’s bracelets clinked against the table as she reached for another tot, oblivious to the ice spreading through Isabelle’s chest. “Come on, the guy’s been torturing everyone since—”
“I said stop, Olivia!” Isabelle’s palm slammed against the table.
The sound cracked through the cafeteria, drawing glances from nearby tables for a few seconds. The sensation hit again—that crawling, electric feeling beneath her skin. The cafeteria lights seemed to pulse in time with her heartbeat.
Ollie froze, tater tot suspended halfway to her mouth, eyes wide with shock. Her eyebrows drew together, the familiar crease forming between them—the one that appeared whenever Isabelle said something incomprehensible. Like when she said she preferred Vans over Converse.
“Whoa. Since when do you care about Kyle Prescott?” Her voice dropped lower, a hint of hurt creeping in. “And since when do you use my full name?”
Isabelle curled her fingers into her palm, pressing until her nails bit into skin. The pain anchored her, pushed back the static crackling at the edges of her vision.
“I don’t,” she said, softer now, painfully aware of the attention they’d drawn. The whispers were already starting. “I just—” Her throat closed around the words she couldn’t say.
I did that to him. I looked at him and something inside me reached out and—
Or I’m going insane.
“It’s not funny,” Isabelle managed instead. “He could be really hurt.”
Ollie’s expression shifted, confusion bleeding into concern. She set down her fork with a soft clink, her bracelets sliding together as she leaned forward.
“Iz.” Her voice dropped to a genuine whisper, the kind reserved for secrets and emergencies. “What’s going on with you? And don’t say ‘nothing’ because I’ve known you since we were nine, and this—” she gestured at Isabelle’s entire being with a quick circular motion, “—is not nothing.”
Isabelle kept her eyes fixed on the table’s surface.
“You look like shit. You’re ignoring pizza—your favorite food in the universe,” Ollie continued, ticking points off her fingers. “And now you’re defending Kyle Prescott? The same Kyle who called you ‘Stark Raving Mad’ for an entire semester until you finally decked him in the face?”
The cafeteria noise swelled around them—laughter, plastic trays clattering, the squeak of sneakers on linoleum. Each sound hit Isabelle’s ears with painful clarity, like someone had cranked up the volume on just the irritating parts of the world.
Isabelle stared at her hands, still pressed flat against the table.
But she could feel it now—the wrongness pulsing beneath her skin like a second heartbeat. The thing that had reached out when she’d turned to Kyle. The thing that had somehow reached inside him and twisted.
She curled her fingers into fists, feeling her nails bite into her palms.
“Just queasy.” She swallowed hard against the lie, feeling it lodge in her throat like something physical. “I think I have a fever.”
“Bullshit.”
Ollie’s voice was soft but certain. She reached across the table, her fingers stopping just short of Isabelle’s wrist, hovering, not touching, like she knew better than to make contact. Like Isabelle might shatter.
“This isn’t a fever. This is something else.” Ollie’s dark eyes narrowed, scanning Isabelle’s face with the focused intensity she usually reserved for calculus problems. “You’ve been off since you walked in this morning. Worse than off.”
Isabelle’s gaze dropped to the untouched pizza. The cheese congealed with each passing second, oil pooling in tiny amber lakes. Her stomach twisted.
“Did something happen at home?” Ollie’s voice dropped lower, barely audible above the cafeteria chaos. She hesitated, the silence stretching taut between them. “Was it your mom again?”
The question hit like a slap. Isabelle’s breath caught, memories flashing rapid-fire: her mother’s hand connecting with her cheek after she’d brought home a B- in Chemistry. The bruise that had bloomed along her ribs when she’d talked back during dinner with investors. The five-finger imprint on her arm from when Isabelle had missed the cutoff for the prestigious Juilliard summer program by two points.
“You promised you’d call me or your uncle if she—” Ollie’s voice cracked slightly.
“It’s not that.” Isabelle cut her off, the words sharp enough to draw blood. Her fingernails carved deeper into her palms, half-moons of pain that anchored her as the cafeteria tilted on its axis. “She’s been... fine.”
Fine. Nothing about her mother had been fine since the divorce.
“Then what?” Ollie persisted, the concern in her voice sharpening to frustration. “Because you look like you’re about to either pass out or murder someone, and honestly, I can’t tell which would be worse.”
“Can we just fucking drop it?” Isabelle’s voice came out harder than she intended, brittle as thin ice.
A flash of hurt crossed Ollie’s face—there and gone in an instant, but Isabelle caught it. She watched her best friend retreat, shoulders squared as she sat back, arms crossing over her chest.
“Fine. Whatever.” Ollie picked up her pizza, taking a deliberate, aggressive bite. Cheese stretched between the slice and her mouth, snapping back with a wet sound that made Isabelle’s stomach lurch. “Sorry I give a shit, Isabelle.”
The words hung between them, sharper than any slap. Isabelle opened her mouth, then closed it. What could she possibly say?
Sorry, my mom’s a psychopath? Sorry, I think I just gave Kyle Prescott a brain hemorrhage by looking at him?
Instead, she wrapped her fingers around her water bottle, focusing on the cool condensation against her skin. The tremor in her hands had gotten worse. Beneath the table, her leg bounced in an erratic rhythm, heel tapping against the floor.
Isabelle didn’t wake up during any more experiments. Not fully. But her body remembered.
Day three after that night, she jolted awake at 5:17 AM, sheets twisted around her ankles, the ceiling pulsing above her, expanding, contracting. Her joints ached as if someone had replaced them with ground glass. When she tried to stand, her legs buckled. She crawled to the bathroom and vomited nothing but bile.
Her mother found her there an hour later, curled against the bathtub, a glass of water and two pills in her hands. Isabelle noticed they were slightly larger. She swallowed without question.
School quickly became impossible.
The ringing of the first bell each day felt like a siren pressed against her skull. She flinched every time, earning sideways glances from students who used to barely notice her existence. By second period, the fluorescent lights overhead pulsed like strobe lights, only she could see. Flicker-throb-flicker.
At lunch, the cafeteria had become agonizing. The cacophony of voices, trays clattering, chairs scraping—it all crashed against her. She could smell every component of every meal: the preservatives in the bread, the ammonia undertones in the chicken, the rancid oil in the fryers. Her stomach heaved.
“You haven’t touched your food.” Ollie sat across from her, dropping her tray with a clatter that made Isabelle wince. “Third day in a row.”
Isabelle stared at her untouched sandwich. The bread looked wrong—too white, too smooth, like plastic. “Not hungry,” she managed.
“You’re avoiding me.”
“I’m not.”
“You are. Ever since Kyle had his episode, you’ve been—”
“Don’t call it that.” The words snapped out before Isabelle could stop them.
“Call it what? An episode? That’s what everyone’s saying. Stress-induced—”
“It wasn’t stress.” Isabelle’s fingers curled around her water bottle, knuckles whitening. The plastic creaked under her grip.
Ollie’s eyes narrowed. “Then what was it?”
The cafeteria noise swelled, a wave of sound crashing over Isabelle’s consciousness. Someone dropped a tray three tables over—the clatter exploded in her ears like a gunshot. Her water bottle crumpled inward, plastic buckling.
“I have to go.” Isabelle stood abruptly, chair legs screeching against linoleum.
Then Ollie started distancing herself, and the whispers followed soon after. Isabelle caught them in fragments as she moved through the halls.
“I sat next to her in History and got this killer migraine. Like, instant. Had to go to the nurse.”
“Dude, you didn’t hear? Melanie passed out in the bathroom after Stark bumped into her. Just... collapsed.”
Each whisper prickled against her skin, needles of awareness that made her want to scream. They were watching her. All of them. Eyes tracking her movements, cataloging her failures, her strangeness.
By the next week, the whispers changed.
“There she is,” someone murmured from ten lockers down. Not quietly enough.
“Jesus, she looks worse than yesterday.”
“You think it’s drugs?”
“Maybe it’s contagious. Whatever she has.”
A freshman boy with a shock of red hair stepped deliberately into the other side of the hallway as she passed, pressing himself against the wall. His eyes—wide, watchful—tracked her movement like she might lunge at him.
Isabelle kept her gaze fixed on the floor tiles. White, gray, white, gray. The pattern blurred as she walked faster, her breathing shallow and quick.
The worst part wasn’t the whispers. It was that they weren’t entirely wrong.
Jenna Liu had been her lab partner on Tuesday. By Wednesday morning, Jenna was home with a 103-degree fever that had appeared out of nowhere. Mrs. McCormack had touched Isabelle’s shoulder during English to ask if she needed to see the nurse. Ten minutes later, Mrs. McCormack was rubbing her temples, voice trailing off mid-sentence as she fumbled for the Advil in her desk drawer.
And Kyle... Kyle still hadn’t returned to school.
She rounded the corner too quickly and collided with someone. Books clattered to the floor. Isabelle stumbled back, an apology forming already on her lips.
“Watch it, freak.”
Isabelle recognized him immediately—Marcus Hyland, lacrosse captain, permanent resident of Kyle’s orbit. His usual smirk twisted into something uglier as he looked at her.
“Sorry,” she mumbled, bending to help gather his scattered textbooks.
“Don’t touch my stuff.” He jerked back, nearly tripping over his own feet in his haste to create distance. “Everyone knows you’re the reason Kyle’s in the hospital.”
The hallway noise dimmed. Faces turned toward them, conversation dropping to a hush. Isabelle felt her cheeks burn, the heat spreading down her neck in blotchy patches.
“I didn’t do anything to Kyle,” she said, the words sticking in her throat.
“Bullshit.” Marcus’s voice rose, drawing more attention. “You did something to him. And now half the people who get near you end up sick.” He jabbed a finger in her direction, careful to keep several feet between them. “First, Kyle, then Jenna, then Melanie in the bathroom. You’re like a walking plague.”
The accusation hung in the air, heavy and terrible. Because he wasn’t entirely wrong. Something was happening to people around her—something she couldn’t control.
“That’s not—” she started, but her protest died as a freshman girl edged away from her, pressing herself against the lockers.
“They should quarantine you,” Marcus continued, gaining confidence as heads nodded around him. “Or maybe you should just stay home. Nobody wants whatever freaky disease you’re carrying.”
Isabelle’s chest tightened, each breath shallower than the last.
Two weeks had passed since the Kyle incident. Isabelle was the first to stand from her desk when the dismissal bell finally rang, her books already packed, poised to escape. She didn’t wait for Mr. Peterson’s final “See you tomorrow.” The moment the harsh electronic tone pierced the air, she was moving, shouldering past classmates who visibly flinched from her proximity.
In the hallway, the crowd parted around her—not the usual teenage shuffle but a deliberate, wary separation. Like animals sensing a predator. The isolation followed her in a perfect six-foot radius all the way to her locker.
Her fingers trembled as she spun the combination dial. Her fingertips felt simultaneously numb and hypersensitive, the metal ridges of the dial digging into her skin. On the third try, the lock finally clicked open with a sound that seemed unnaturally loud to her ears.
“Heard you and Ollie aren’t talking.”
Mia Donovan’s voice sliced through the hallway noise—sugary sweet with a familiar undercurrent of venom. Isabelle kept her eyes fixed on the contents of her locker, mechanically exchanging textbooks.
“Not that I’m surprised,” Mia continued, leaning against the neighboring locker. The scent of her expensive perfume—Chanel, something with jasmine notes—invaded Isabelle’s space, cloying and overwhelming to her heightened senses. “You’ve been acting like a total freak. Even more than usual.”
Isabelle’s hands stilled on her calculus textbook. The electric feeling crawled up her spine again, pooling at the base of her skull like mercury—heavy, toxic, mobile. She could feel Mia watching her, those perfectly lined hazel eyes scanning for weakness, for any reaction she could weaponize later.
It had been this way since seventh grade, when Isabelle had corrected Mia’s answer in front of everyone during debate club. A small humiliation that Mia had transformed into a years-long vendetta, escalating from whispers to “accidental” spilled lunches to orchestrated social exclusions.
“Leave me alone, Mia.” Each word emerged as if through gravel, her throat tight and dry.
“Everyone’s talking about you, you know.” Mia’s voice dropped to a theatrical whisper, loud enough for the gathering spectators to hear. Her brown hair fell in perfect waves, not a strand out of place, catching the fluorescent light. “How weird you’ve been. The way people get sick around you.” She tilted her head, feigning concern while her eyes remained cold. “Some people think you should be in therapy. I think you should be somewhere more... secure.”
The locker door creaked under Isabelle’s grip. The metal felt too thin beneath her fingers, like aluminum foil rather than steel. She could feel it giving way, could feel the strength in her hands that shouldn’t be there. The sensation both terrified and exhilarated her.
“I said, leave me alone.” Each word emerged through clenched teeth, the effort of restraint making her jaw ache.
“Or what?” Mia stepped closer, invading the bubble of isolation that had protected everyone else. Her eyes gleamed with the familiar thrill of pushing boundaries, of public performance. The scent of her perfume intensified—too sweet, too chemical—flooding Isabelle’s heightened senses. “You’ll give me a nosebleed like Kyle? Everyone’s saying you did something to him. That you’re on drugs, or—”
Something snapped—not just inside Isabelle, but physically, audibly. The locker door wrenched free with a screech of tearing metal, hinges separating from the frame like they were made of paper. Isabelle stared at the door now dangling from her hand, its weight seemingly nothing, the edges bent where her fingers had gripped too hard.
The hallway fell silent.
Dozens of eyes fixed on her, on the destroyed locker, on the impossibility of what she’d just done.
Mia’s perfectly glossed mouth hung open, the carefully crafted insult dying on her lips. Her complexion drained of color, leaving her face a pale oval of shock beneath her immaculate makeup. For the first time in their long history of mutual animosity, Mia Donovan looked genuinely afraid.
“Did she just—” someone whispered from the growing crowd.
“—ripped it clean off—” another voice murmured.
“Holy shit,” a boy said, loud enough to break through the stunned silence.
Isabelle let the mangled door clatter to the floor. The metal bounced once, twice, before settling with a final hollow ring against the linoleum.
She didn’t even think. She just turned and walked away, leaving her books scattered on the floor. The crowd split before her like the Red Sea, students pressing against lockers to avoid contact. Not casual avoidance. Not the usual teenage dance of personal space. They flattened themselves against the walls, some even ducking into classrooms.
They were afraid of her. They should be.
Later that night, she stared at herself in the bathroom mirror.
The contacts she used to wear? Useless. She didn’t need them anymore. Her vision had sharpened to a terrifying clarity. She could see every crack in the tile behind her. Every strand of hair curled out of place—every freckle.
And her eyes...
They weren’t brown anymore. Not fully.
Flecks of green had appeared—first barely there, like moss growing at the bottom of a well. Now they gleamed under the bathroom light, flecked with gold. Not Hazel. Not natural.
Alien.
Isabelle leaned closer, her nose nearly touching the glass. The green seemed to pulse with her heartbeat, tiny veins of emerald threading through her irises. Her fingers gripped the edge of the sink. The porcelain creaked under her touch.
A sharp knock jolted her upright. No pause, no waiting—the door swung open immediately.
Laura stood in the doorway, one hand still on the knob. Her face was a mask of practiced calm, but something flickered behind her eyes. Not concern. Not anger. Something that made Isabelle’s skin crawl.
Anticipation.
“I just got off the phone with your school.” Laura’s voice was meticulously controlled, each syllable measured and precise. She stood perfectly still, not a wrinkle in her tailored blouse. “They said there was an incident.”
Isabelle didn’t turn away from the mirror. In the reflection, she watched her mother’s eyes track over her, clinical, assessing. Like Isabelle was a lab specimen showing unexpected results.
“I broke my locker,” Isabelle said flatly.
“Broke it how?” Laura stepped further into the bathroom.
“I ripped the door off.” The words felt strange in her mouth, too big for her tongue. “With my bare hands. In front of everyone.”
Laura’s breathing changed. Isabelle’s heart quickened then slowed. The corner of her mouth twitched upward before she controlled it.
“I see.”
Three heartbeats of silence stretched between them. Isabelle could hear the blood rushing in her veins, the soft hiss of the ventilation system, and the distant hum of traffic seventeen floors below.
Laura’s gaze flicked to the doorway, then back to Isabelle. Her expression remained unreadable, but her pupils had dilated. Excitement, poorly concealed.
“Dr. Nagel is coming for dinner tonight,” Laura said, her voice suddenly brisk.
Isabelle’s fingers tightened around the edge of the sink. “Again?”
“Yes, again.” Laura’s tone remained neutral, but something hummed beneath the surface, close to annoyance.
“That’s three times this week.” Isabelle turned from the mirror to face her mother directly, the bathroom suddenly feeling two sizes too small.
Laura’s gaze flicked to Isabelle’s hands, still gripping the sink, then back to her face. “Is that a problem?”
The question hung in the air, deceptively light. A trap. Everything with Laura was a trap.
“No, ma’am,” Isabelle said, the lie bitter on her tongue.
Laura’s mouth twitched. “Good. Be downstairs at seven.” She smoothed an invisible wrinkle from her sleeve. “Wear something presentable. The black dress, perhaps. Not those... things.” Her gaze swept dismissively over Isabelle’s worn jeans.
Isabelle said nothing, only nodded.
“And do something with your hair.” Laura’s eyes narrowed, clinical assessment replacing the momentary excitement. “You look like a slob. I raised you to take better care of yourself.” Laura checked her watch—a sleek, expensive thing that gleamed under the bathroom lights. She turned toward the door, then paused. “And Isabelle?”
“Yes,”
“Try not to break anything else before dinner.” Laura’s voice dropped lower, almost intimate.
The door closed behind her with a soft click.
Isabelle stared at the empty space where her mother had stood, the twisted feeling in her gut spreading outward like poison.
Not fear. Not confusion.
Rage.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "THE DINER" by Billie Eilish
Thank you for reading, comments, kudos 💚✨✨✨
A glass of wine. A perfect dinner. And a daughter who remembers too much.
Isabelle dials the one number she thought would help. But Tony Stark is busy—he always is—and Laura has dinner plans. With Nagel. Again.In a room full of candlelight and sharpened smiles, Isabelle pushes back. Just enough to taste her mother’s fury. Just enough to see Nagel flinch. Just enough to confirm what she’s always feared: they’ve been testing her for years.
And tonight, she isn’t hungry.
She’s dangerous.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 27: Splinters
Chapter 27: Splinters
Summary:
No cake. No candles. Just vitamins that taste like metal and the woman who made her a monster sitting at the table.
Isabelle is cracking—splinter by splinter, under fluorescent lights and Laura’s smiles that are too sharp to be human. Something is waking up inside her, something old and hungry and wearing her skin.
But just when she’s sure no one will come—
that no one ever will—
there’s a knock at the door.He came.
Notes:
Hey everyone!! 💚💚💚
Welcome to Part 3 of 4 in Isabelle’s origin arc!! I can’t even begin to say how much I love the response this storyline has been getting. It means so much that you all are connecting with her and want to learn more. Seeing your excitement and theories has honestly made this project feel like such a shared experience, and I’m so grateful.
✨👉Before we dive into the chapter, I want to quickly address something that I’ve been trying to handle quietly, but it’s reached a point where it needs to be said:
I absolutely LOVE hearing your ideas, headcanons, and theories. Please don’t take this as a reason to stop commenting, messaging, or being excited—I genuinely adore talking with you all here and on Tumblr. This note is not aimed at the vast majority of you who’ve been kind, respectful, and just plain awesome.
However—if I politely decline a commissioned art offer, that boundary needs to be respected. Repeated messages pressuring me to reconsider, trying to haggle pricing, or flooding my inbox and comment sections to “check Tumblr now” crosses the line from enthusiasm into harassment. And that’s not okay.
I love artists and love supporting them when I’m able. But right now, I am not in a financial position to commission art—especially not at high price points—and pushing past that after I’ve said no is not acceptable. It’s also important to note that there are scams going around targeting fanfiction writers with fake commission pitches. I’m not saying that’s necessarily the case here, but it’s something I have to be mindful of for my own safety and peace of mind.
So, going forward: unsolicited commission offers or pressure will result in a block. I don’t want to make a habit of calling this out, because this community has been such a wonderful space so far—and I want it to stay that way.
To those of you who’ve been sharing playlists, Pinterest boards, headcanons, or just screaming in the comments with me—thank you. Seriously. That energy is everything. Let’s keep making this a fun, creative, and respectful space.
Okay, now let’s go get our hearts ripped out, shall we? 😌💚
Love you all,
— Tabby🖤
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
6:29 PM
Isabelle curled up on her bed, arms wrapped around her middle like she could physically hold herself together. Her phone weighed heavily in her palm—Tony’s contact already pulled up, his face staring back at her. One press away.
She hit call before she could talk herself out of it.
One ring. Two. Three.
“Yeah?” Tony’s voice crackled through the cheap flip phone speaker. Distracted. Distant.
“Hey! Um, er—” Isabelle whispered, her voice shrinking in her throat. “Dad...”
A beat of silence stretched between them. Then a woman’s laugh filtered through the background—light, intimate.
“Izzy, hey—” Tony’s voice moved away from the receiver. “Give me a sec, honey.” Not to her. To whoever was with him. “Sorry, kiddo. Bad timing. I’m in the middle of—uh—a meeting.”
Meeting. Right. Her stomach twisted into a cold, hard knot.
“I just...” Her voice cracked. She dug her fingernails into her palm. “Something happened at school today. I don’t feel right. It was like—”
“Did you tell your mom?”
Isabelle’s breath caught.
“Yeah,” she sighed, rolling onto her side and staring at the darkening sky. The city lights blurred as tears welled.
“Well, there you go,” Tony replied, already moving on. Glass clinked in the background. A murmur of female laughter. “Hey—I should really—can I call you tomorrow? Promise. Just wrapping up this... thing.”
Isabelle pressed her forehead against her pillow. “Sure,” she whispered. “Tomorrow.”
“Love you, kiddo.”
The line went dead before she could say it back. Before she could tell him about the locker that had crumpled beneath her fingers. About the nosebleeds. The headaches. All of it.
Isabelle stared at the dark screen, throat burning. Dad was busy. Dad was always busy with whoever that woman was. With everything but her.
She hurled the phone across the room. It hit the wall with a crack but didn’t break. The tears came then, hot and silent, as the city lights blurred into a kaleidoscope beyond her window.
6:59 PM
Isabelle slid into her seat, a clockwork performance of normalcy. One minute to spare. Her fingers trembled as she smoothed her napkin across her lap, the fabric catching on her raw knuckles.
Every sound amplified—the clink of silverware against porcelain, water being poured, the scrape of chair legs. Her skin felt too tight, like it belonged to someone else.
“Water, Isabelle?” Laura asked, pitcher poised.
Isabelle nodded, not trusting her voice. The glass filled, and she watched tiny ripples form from her shaking hand when she reached for it.
Across the table sat him. Dr. Wilfred Nagel.
“So good to see you, Isabelle,” he said, lips forming that thin, dry smile that never reached his eyes. “Your mother tells me school’s going well.”
She stabbed her steamed broccoli, fork scraping against the plate with a sound that made her teeth ache. “I tore a locker door off its hinges today,” she said flatly, meeting his gaze. “Yeah, it’s going great.”
The candle flames lit in the center of the table reflected in his glasses as his eyes widened slightly. She felt a sick satisfaction watching his Adam’s apple bob as he swallowed. Isabelle took a sip of her water.
“Isabelle,” Laura hissed, her warning clear as a slap.
Isabelle’s water glass trembled in her grip. She set it down with care before she could crush it, the memory of the locker door folding under her fingers still fresh—metal groaning, hinges popping like they were made of plastic.
“Isabelle, why don’t you tell Dr. Nagel about your upcoming audition for—”
“I’m not hungry.” The words scraped out of her throat, raw and final.
Laura’s eyes flicked up—subtle, sharp as a scalpel. “Isabelle—”
“I said I’m not hungry.” Isabelle pushed back from the table, chair legs scraping against hardwood with a sound that felt like satisfaction.
“Isabelle. Sit. Down.” Each word dropped like a bomb. Laura’s fingers curled around her knife, knuckles whitening until the tendons stood out. “Do not embarrass me in front of my colleague.”
The threat hung between them, unspoken but familiar as a bruise. Isabelle’s gaze dropped to Laura’s hand—the same hand that would leave marks once Nagel was gone. If he was ever really gone. How many nights had she fallen asleep after these dinners only to wake with her body feeling hollowed out? Like something had been scooped from inside her while she slept?
Nagel’s eyes tracked the exchange, clinical interest behind those glasses. Not surprise. Not concern. Just... observation. His thumb moved rhythmically against the stem of his wine glass.
Tap. Tap. Tap.
“I’m feeling a bit faint,” Isabelle said, a smirk forming—rebellion rising like bile. She met Nagel’s gaze, holding it three beats longer than comfortable. “Must be the same thing that happened at school today. When I crushed a metal locker.” She enunciated each word, watching his pupils dilate slightly. “With my bare hands.”
Laura’s fork clattered against her plate. The sound rang in the silence, high and brittle.
“Go to your room.” Laura’s voice dropped to that dangerous register. Her face tightened, that familiar twitch at the corner of her mouth that promised consequences. A vein pulsed at her temple. “If this is how you want to behave, we’ll discuss this later.”
Later.
When Nagel would pretend to leave. When Laura would come to her room, anger barely contained beneath that perfect composure. When Isabelle would feel the sting of disappointment before darkness claimed her, and she’d wake knowing her mother did something worse.
“Looking forward to it,” Isabelle muttered, already calculating how to barricade her door tonight. How to stay awake. She took three steps toward the hallway, then pivoted, the motion smooth and deliberate. “Enjoy dinner with your ‘colleague’...” She gestured between them, fingers drawing invisible connecting lines. “What is it you two do again?”
“Isabelle!” Laura’s warning crackled with electricity.
“I’m just curious.” Isabelle leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, feeling her heartbeat against her ribs, each beat a small act of defiance. “All these extra hours you’re working... and yet, I don’t actually know what you do.”
Laura rose from her chair with predatory slowness, wineglass abandoned. Her eyes never left Isabelle’s face. “You know perfectly well what I do. Stop trying to be smart and go to your room.”
“Right, right.” Isabelle’s mouth curved into a humorless smile. “Vaccines. You make vaccines for hospitals.” She tilted her head, narrowing her eyes until they were just slits. “What do you test them on? Mice, or...” Her gaze slid deliberately to Nagel, who had gone statue-still. “Something else?”
Nagel’s wine glass froze halfway to his lips. A single droplet of cabernet trembled on the rim, blood-red in the candlelight.
“That’s enough.” Laura’s voice dropped to that deadly register, the one that preceded storms.
“Is it?” Isabelle pushed off from the doorframe, taking a half-step into the dining room. The air felt charged, dangerous. “Because I keep having these dreams where I’m strapped down, and there are needles, and you’re both there, watching—”
“I said that’s enough!” Laura’s palm slammed against the mahogany table. The crystal glasses jumped. Wine sloshed. The candle flames danced wildly, casting monstrous shadows that clawed up the walls.
Isabelle flinched but held her ground, jaw clenched so tight her teeth ached.
Laura’s face smoothed into something worse than anger—cold, clinical disappointment. She crossed her arms, mirroring Isabelle’s stance with mocking precision. “You think you’re making some grand statement. All you’ve done is embarrass yourself.”
“Embarrassed you,” Isabelle corrected, the words sharp on her tongue.
“Both.” Laura’s voice dropped lower, each syllable precise and cutting. “You wonder why your father doesn’t call? Why he doesn’t want to spend time with you?”
The air vanished from Isabelle’s lungs.
“This, right here,” Laura stepped closer, just enough to twist the knife. “Look at how you’re acting, Isabelle. The tantrums. The accusations. The delusions.” Her lips curved into something that wasn’t quite a smile. “Of course, he wants nothing to do with you.”
Isabelle’s throat closed. The room tilted sideways. Tony’s voice echoed in her head—Bad timing, kiddo—the woman’s laughter in the background.
“You didn’t prove your point,” Laura continued, her voice softening to something almost maternal, which somehow cut deeper. “You just proved mine. And his. Again.”
Something hot and sharp splintered in Isabelle’s chest. Her eyes burned. Her hands, which had torn metal today, now trembled like leaves.
“He’s never going to choose you, Isabelle.” Laura’s words were almost gentle now. “He never has. So stop trying to fight me.”
The truth of it—the horrible, undeniable truth—froze Isabelle in place. Her body went rigid, tears welling but not falling.
Laura turned back to Nagel with a practiced smile. “I apologize for the interruption. More wine?”
Isabelle broke. The careful walls she’d built crumbled all at once. She spun and fled down the hallway, vision blurring, lungs burning. The sound of her mother’s laugh—light, professional, unaffected—followed her like a ghost.
She slammed her bedroom door, pressing her back against it as the first sob tore free. Tears scalded her cheeks as she slid to the floor, knees pulled tight to her chest. She pressed a fist against her mouth to muffle the sound.
Dad was busy. Dad was always busy.
And maybe her mother was right.
Maybe he always would be.
February 1, 2005
There was no cake.
Isabelle stood in the kitchen doorway, frozen. She blinked once, twice, as if the empty counter might suddenly sprout frosting and sixteen candles if she just tried hard enough. The bare marble gleamed under the recessed lighting, spotless and accusatory.
No presents either. Not the usual department store gift card. Not even one of those scratchy sweaters Laura bought without checking the size—always too small or too large, never right. Just... nothing.
Well, Nagel wasn’t joining them for dinner. That counted as something.
Her fingertips traced the edge of the dining table. Two plates. Two glasses. Two sets of silverware and the candles Laura had lit weren’t birthday candles—just her usual tapers, burning with their steady, joyless flames. Not for celebration.
“Sixteen,” Laura had said over dinner, raising her water glass in a toast that felt like a formality at a business meeting. Her mother’s smile didn’t crease the corners of her eyes, didn’t disturb the perfect application of her lipstick. “You’re growing up so fast.”
The words had evaporated between them, meaningless as smoke.
Isabelle had nodded, pushing salmon around her plate, counting the minutes until she could escape. Four months since that dream. Four months of waking up feeling different. Since she woke up.
They’d finished dinner in silence, broken only by the scrape of silverware against china.
“May I be excused?” Isabelle had finally asked, the politeness a shield.
Laura had checked her watch—a deliberate gesture—and nodded. “Of course. Homework?”
“Always.”
Now, back in her room, Isabelle pressed her forehead against the cool glass of her window. Sixteen. Sweet sixteen. What a joke. She pulled her phone from her pocket, checking it for the twentieth time. Still nothing from Tony.
But then, the screen lit up suddenly, vibrating in her palm. A jolt shot through her chest. Not Tony. But—
“Uncle Rhodey?” Her voice cracked on his name, hope and disbelief colliding.
“The one and only.” His warm chuckle filtered through the speaker, solid and steady as ever. “Happy birthday, Izzy-girl. Sweet sixteen.”
Something inside her chest cracked open. She sank onto her bed, knees pulled to her chest, back pressed against the cold headboard. “You remembered.”
“‘Course I remembered.” The familiar rumble of his voice wrapped around her like a blanket. “Sixteen’s a big deal. You doing anything special?”
Isabelle’s gaze drifted to her empty desk. No cards. No wrapped packages. No cake crumbs. “Just the usual. Quiet night in.”
“Your dad call yet?”
Isabelle’s throat tightened, eyes fixed on the city lights blurring outside her window. “Not yet,” she whispered, the lie bitter and familiar on her tongue.
Rhodey’s sigh carried through the phone—soft, knowing. “I’m sorry, kid.” The silence stretched, comfortable in a way that silence with Laura never was. “How’s school?” Rhodey asked, shifting gears with the practiced ease of someone who’d navigated Tony Stark’s moods for decades.
“Fine.” The word came automatically. Then, after a pause, “Actually, no. It’s not fine.”
Her voice trembled. And then, like a dam breaking, everything spilled out. The dream four months ago. The pills Laura kept giving her. The missing time. The physical changes. Kyle and then the locker door crumpling in her hands. The headaches that felt like her skull was splitting. Nagel’s visits. The way she kept waking up feeling hollowed out.
They talked for ten minutes. Then twenty. Then longer.
Rhodey didn’t interrupt. He didn’t dismiss. He just listened—really listened—making only the occasional sound to let her know he was still there, still hearing every word.
When she finally ran out of breath, out of words, out of strength to keep her voice steady, silence fell between them. Not empty, but heavy with everything she’d said.
“I think I’m going crazy,” she whispered, pressing her palm against her window, watching how the city lights filtered through her splayed fingers. “Or maybe I already am.”
Three heartbeats of silence.
“You’re not crazy, Izzy.” Rhodey’s voice had shifted—harder now, focused. The voice he used when things got serious. “And you’re not alone.”
Through the phone, she heard movement. Keys jingling. A door slamming shut. An engine starting.
“Give me a few hours, but I’m coming,” he said.
The doorbell’s chime cut through the pre-dawn silence like a knife.
Isabelle jolted upright, textbook sliding from her lap where she’d fallen asleep reading. Her clock read 5:42 AM. The sky outside her window hadn’t even begun to lighten.
He came.
She scrambled off her bed, bare feet silent against the hardwood as she crept to her door. She pressed her ear against it, hearing Laura’s bedroom door open down the hall, followed by the soft pad of her mother’s footsteps on the stairs.
Isabelle slipped out and moved to the landing, crouching low to peer through the banister rails. Her heart hammered so loudly she was certain it would give her away.
The front door swung open. There stood Lieutenant Colonel James Rhodes, not in casual clothes but in full Air Force dress uniform—medals gleaming, shoulders squared, spine ramrod straight. The brass buttons caught the entryway light, and his face was set in hard lines that belonged in war rooms, not family visits.
“James!” Laura’s voice rose with practiced charm, but Isabelle caught the millisecond flash of alarm before her mother’s mask slipped back into place. “What an unexpected surprise.”
“Laura.” Rhodey didn’t smile. Didn’t soften. His eyes scanned past her into the foyer. “I was in New York. Thought I’d stop by to wish my goddaughter a happy birthday.”
“How thoughtful,” Laura said, voice cooling by degrees. “Though I’m sure Tony could have sent something if you’d reminded him.”
Rhodey’s jaw tightened. “May I come in?”
Laura hesitated, one elegant hand still gripping the door. “It’s rather early.”
“It is,” Rhodey agreed, not backing down. “Funny thing about military flights—they run on their own schedule.”
Isabelle held her breath, watching the silent battle of wills unfold below. Her mother’s fingers drummed once against the doorframe—the only tell of her irritation.
“Fifteen minutes,” Laura finally said, stepping aside with reluctance. “She has a physics test today.”
Rhodey stepped inside, and Isabelle caught the subtle way his eyes swept the entryway. Not a social visit. A mission.
“Uncle Rhodey?” Isabelle called, descending the stairs with deliberate casualness, as if she’d just noticed his arrival.
When he turned toward her, something in his expression shifted—concern flooding his features before he masked it. What did he see? The dark circles under her eyes? The weight she’d lost? The way her hands trembled slightly at her sides?
“There’s my girl,” he said, voice warming. He opened his arms, and Isabelle flew down the remaining steps into his embrace.
His arms tightened around her, and she felt rather than heard his sharp intake of breath when his hands found the prominent ridges of her spine through her thin t-shirt.
“Happy birthday,” he whispered against her hair, too low for Laura to hear. Then, even quieter: “I’ve got you.”
Laura cleared her throat. “Isabelle needs to finish getting ready.” Her voice was higher than normal, overly welcoming. “Perhaps you could join us for breakfast, James? I was just about to start the coffee.”
“That’d be great,” Rhodey said, finally releasing Isabelle but keeping one hand on her shoulder. The weight of it felt like armor—solid, protective, grounding. “I’d love to catch up with Izzy before her day starts.”
Isabelle met his eyes, reading the message there. The slight narrowing at the corners. The almost imperceptible nod. He wasn’t just visiting. He was here to get answers.
“Oh yes, after she gets dressed,” Laura interjected, stepping between them. “Go on up, Isabelle. The quicker you get ready, the quicker you can talk to your uncle.”
The dismissal hung in the air. Non-negotiable.
“Yeah...okay,” Isabelle squeezed Rhodey’s arm once—a silent thank you—before heading upstairs, each step measured to hide her urgency.
She paused at the landing, glancing back to see Laura ushering Rhodey toward the kitchen, her mother’s hand not quite touching his back like shepherding a wolf.
Rhodey stood with military stillness beside the kitchen island, watching Laura move with practiced efficiency. The scent of dark roast coffee filled the air as she measured grounds with scientific precision.
“So, how’ve you been?” Laura asked, her voice light as meringue. “It’s been years!”
Rhodey’s eyes tracked her movements, noting how she positioned herself between him and the staircase. “I’ve been good... busy.”
“Still overseas?” Laura pressed the coffee machine’s button, the mechanical whir filling the awkward silence.
“No, not these days.” Rhodey’s fingers drummed once against the countertop, then stilled. “I’m an officer, and also serving as a liaison between the military and Stark Industries.”
Laura’s shoulders tensed for a fraction of a second before she reached for mugs from the cabinet. “Wow, moving up in the world.”
“It has its moments.” Rhodey accepted the coffee mug she offered, but didn’t drink. “Interesting work. Keeps me in the loop on a lot of... developments.”
Laura’s smile tightened at the corners. “I’m sure it does.”
“Speaking of developments,” Rhodey said, setting his untouched coffee down with a deliberate click against the marble countertop, “I was surprised to hear about Isabelle’s recent... health issues.”
Laura’s hand froze midway to the refrigerator. “Health issues?”
“The headaches. ” Rhodey’s voice remained casual, but his eyes hardened. “The unusual strength incidents.”
The refrigerator door opened with more force than necessary. Laura’s face disappeared behind it for three beats too long before she emerged with a carton of eggs. “Teenagers exaggerate, James. You know how girls can be at this age—looking for attention.”
“Yeah... looking for attention.” Rhodey’s voice hardened, and he leaned against the counter. “Funny thing about teenagers, though—they usually don’t make up stories about crushing their lockers with their bare hands. Unless…something is wrong. Really wrong.”
Laura’s smile remained fixed, but something flickered behind her eyes—calculation, recalibration. The silence stretched between them, taut as a tripwire.
The quiet padding of feet on the stairs broke the standoff. Isabelle appeared in the doorway, school uniform crisp and pristine—plaid skirt, navy sweater vest, white button-up underneath. Her hair was brushed but limp, and dark circles were still visible beneath her eyes despite her efforts. Her backpack hung from one shoulder, knuckles white around the strap.
Her gaze darted between them, reading the room’s tension like a battlefield report.
Laura’s posture relaxed instantly, the perfect mother materializing from the ice queen. “There you are, sweetheart. Sit down, breakfast is almost ready.” She gestured to Isabelle’s usual place at the table.
Isabelle slid into her chair, the wood cool beneath her thighs. Next to her plate sat a glass of orange juice and three pills—white, blue, and a capsule filled with something that looked like sand.
Rhodey’s eyes locked onto them immediately.
“What are those for?” he asked, the casualness in his tone so deliberate it might as well have been a siren.
Laura didn’t turn from the stove where she was flipping an egg with surgical precision. “Oh, just vitamins. Growing girl needs her nutrients.”
Rhodey moved closer, studying the pills. “Pretty intense vitamins.”
“Only the best for my baby.” Laura’s smile didn’t reach her eyes as she slid a perfectly cooked egg onto Isabelle’s plate. “Stark women need to be strong.”
The word ‘Stark’ hung in the air like a challenge.
Rhodey nodded slowly, his military posture never wavering. “And how are you doing, Isabelle? School going okay?”
Before she could answer, Laura’s hand appeared at her shoulder, squeezing once—a warning disguised as affection.
“Take your pills, honey,” Laura said, sliding the glass closer. “Don’t want to be late.”
Isabelle’s fingers trembled as she reached for them. Her eyes met Rhodey’s, a silent plea passing between them. His jaw tightened a she placed the pills on her tongue, tipped her head back, and swallowed the orange juice in three gulps. The capsule scraped her throat on the way down, leaving a metallic taste that coated her tongue.
Laura’s smile widened. “Good girl.”
Rhodey watched the entire ritual, his expression unreadable except for the muscle jumping in his jaw.
Isabelle set the empty glass down with a soft clink. Her tongue felt thick, coated with that familiar metallic aftertaste that always followed Laura’s “vitamins.” A wave of nausea rolled through her stomach—not from the pills, but from the realization of what she’d done. Telling Rhodey everything. The weight of Laura’s gaze pressed against her skin like a physical force.
She’d made a mistake. A terrible, possibly fatal mistake.
Her vision blurred at the edges, the kitchen’s pristine surfaces suddenly too bright, too sharp. The egg on her plate congealed into a yellow eye staring back at her.
“Isabelle?” Rhodey leaned forward, elbows on the counter, voice pitched low with concern. “You okay, kid?”
“She’s fine,” Laura answered, the words slicing through the air before Isabelle could even open her mouth.
Rhodey’s gaze hardened, jaw tightening as he turned to Laura. “I asked Isabelle.” The edge in his voice wasn’t subtle.
Isabelle felt caught in the crossfire, her chest tightening with each breath.
“I’m okay,” she finally managed, the lie bitter on her tongue. Her mouth felt wired shut, each word requiring effort to push past her teeth.
“You sure?” Rhodey pressed, eyes never leaving her face. He saw through it—she could tell by the slight narrowing of his eyes, the way his fingers curled against the countertop.
Isabelle’s bottom lip quivered. She bit down on it, hard enough to hurt, to ground herself. Her fork clattered against the plate as her fingers trembled.
“Look at the time,” Laura announced, glancing pointedly at her sleek silver watch. She moved with sudden efficiency, whisking away Isabelle’s barely touched breakfast. “We should reschedule, James. Isabelle has school, and she can’t be late. Physics test, remember?”
Her smile was perfect, practiced—the smile of pharmaceutical commercials and PTA meetings.
“I really wish you’d called beforehand,” Laura continued, hand settling on Isabelle’s shoulder with deceptive gentleness. Her fingers dug in just enough to communicate the warning. “We could have planned a proper dinner. Caught up properly.”
Rhodey didn’t move, his eyes locked on Isabelle’s face. He saw it all—her pallor, the slight tremor in her hands, the way she flinched under Laura’s touch. His expression gave nothing away, but Isabelle recognized the calculation happening behind his eyes. The strategic assessment.
“Well, good news,” he said, voice deliberately casual. “I’m in New York for a few days before heading back to Malibu. Maybe I could take Izzy out this weekend? Grab lunch, catch a movie?” He directed the question at Isabelle, not Laura.
Laura’s fingers tightened fractionally on Isabelle’s shoulder. “That’s thoughtful, but her schedule is quite full. School activities, study groups, college prep—you know how it is these days.” Her laugh tinkled like breaking glass. “I’ll have to check her calendar.”
“I’d really like that,” Isabelle said, the words rushing out before she could stop them. “To go. With him, for a few hours this weekend,” She met Rhodey’s eyes, willing him to understand the desperation behind hers.
“Like I said, I’ll have to check the calendar, Isabelle.” She gave Isabelle a stern look before turning to smile at Rhodey. “Let me walk you out, James,” Laura said, moving toward the door, subtly maneuvering her body between them. “Isabelle, grab your things. We leave in five minutes.”
Rhodey didn’t budge.
“I can see myself out.” His voice carried the quiet authority that had commanded troops in combat zones. “Let me say goodbye to my goddaughter properly.”
Laura’s smile flickered—a momentary system failure in her perfect programming. Her fingers twitched once at her side before she nodded. “Of course.”
Isabelle felt the pills working already, that familiar cotton-wool feeling creeping around the edges of her consciousness. She forced herself to stand straighter as Rhodey stepped forward. His arms enveloped her in another hug.
“Walk me to the door?” he asked, loud enough for Laura to hear.
Laura’s eyes tracked them like targeting systems as Isabelle led Rhodey the short distance to the entryway.
At the threshold, Rhodey knelt, pretending to adjust his already-perfect shoe. His face came level with hers on the way down, all traces of the friendly uncle vanishing. This was Lieutenant Colonel Rhodes now—the man who’d survived war zones.
“You call me,” he murmured, voice pitched so low she had to strain to hear. Each word precise as a bullet. “No matter what. You hear me, kid? I’m going to fix this.”
He stood up straight, hugging her one last time.
Isabelle’s throat constricted. She managed the barest nod, not trusting her voice.
Rhodey straightened, turning to face Laura. His eyes hardened as they locked with Laura’s. “It was great seeing you, Laura.” The words were cordial. His tone was anything but. “Let me know about this weekend.”
“Of course,” Laura leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, smile never wavering. But her eyes had gone flat and cold as laboratory glass. “Safe travels, James.” Her voice dripped with honeyed poison. “Always a pleasure.”
The door closed behind him with a soft click that somehow echoed through the silent house like a gunshot.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Temple" by Tonight Alive
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The dinner was quiet. The silence, violent.
One slap splits the illusion. One moment fractures a daughter from her mother. And when Isabelle locks herself in her room, the house can’t contain her anymore.Glass shatters. Walls crack. Blood spills. And then—it stops.
Because the wound closes. Because her body doesn’t break the way it’s supposed to.
And Isabelle realizes: something inside her is changing. Has already changed.She’s not normal. She’s not safe.
Not even from herself.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 28: My Perfect Weapon
Chapter 28: My Perfect Weapon
Summary:
Isabelle wakes in a house full of shattered glass and silence. Her body is healing—too fast. Her mother acts like nothing happened.
But when the truth finally fractures through, it ends in blood, broken tiles, and a word Isabelle can’t unhear:Weapon.
My Perfect Weapon.
Notes:
Okay!!! A much lighter author’s note than last chapter’s, lol.
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Chapter Text
Dinner was silent that night.
It was a void, heavy and uncomfortable. The scrape of silverware against plates. The clink of glasses. Nothing else.
After the dishes were cleared, Laura grabbed a cloth and wiped down the already spotless counter. Isabelle watched her mother’s hands. They didn’t shake. Not even a tremor.
“You embarrassed me,” Laura said finally, voice like ice breaking.
Isabelle’s throat tightened. She said nothing.
“Do you have any idea what you’ve done?” Laura’s voice dropped lower, more dangerous. The cloth made another pass across the immaculate granite.
Still, Isabelle remained silent.
Laura turned, the movement unnervingly slow. The candlelight caught in her eyes, transforming them into something feral. Something barely contained.
“You ungrateful little brat—”
The slap came out of nowhere.
No warning. No wind-up. Just the sudden crack of palm against cheek.
Isabelle’s head snapped sideways. The sting bloomed hot and sharp across her face, nerve endings screaming in protest. The taste of copper flooded her mouth where her teeth had cut into her inner cheek.
She stumbled back, one hand flying to her face. Not from the pain—she’d felt worse, so much worse.
Her mother stood frozen, hand still extended, chest rising and falling in rapid, shallow breaths. For a split second, something like horror flickered across Laura’s face—but it hardened just as quickly into cold justification.
Isabelle didn’t cry. Wouldn’t give her that satisfaction like she used to.
Instead, she stared back, letting the hollow emptiness inside her rise to the surface. Let Laura see what she’d created. What she’d just solidified.
The silence between them stretched, taut as a tripwire.
“I guess we’re done pretending,” Isabelle said finally, her voice flat. Dead.
Something in Laura’s expression faltered.
Isabelle turned away, each step measured as she headed for the stairs. The railing was cool under her palm. The house suddenly felt like a stranger’s.
She didn’t look back. Didn’t need to.
Her bedroom door swung open silently when she got there, and she slipped inside, shutting it. No lock. Laura had removed it months ago after finding Isabelle’s journal. “No secrets in this house,” she’d said, as if the entire house wasn’t built on them.
Isabelle pressed her back against the door, scanning her room with new eyes. The pristine white walls. The meticulously organized desk where she’d spent countless hours studying. The shelf of awards and recital ribbons—trophies of a life that felt like someone else’s now. The cello in the corner stood like a silent witness, its curves catching the dim light from her bedside lamp.
Her reflection in the vanity mirror made her freeze. Flushed skin. Tear tracks she hadn’t realized were there. Eyes wild and glassy with something dangerous building behind them.
Her cheek throbbed, the handprint already blooming red against her pale skin. She touched it gingerly, wincing at the tenderness. But the physical pain was nothing compared to the pressure building inside her skull—a pounding, relentless drumbeat matching her heart.
She reached for her phone, which was usually placed on her nightstand. It wasn’t there, though. Laura—she must’ve taken it.
The realization hit her with crushing weight: she had no one. Rhodey had left. Her phone was gone. No way to call for help. No way to run. No way to—
Her lungs constricted, each breath shorter than the last. The walls seemed to inch closer. The perfect, spotless room became a vacuum, sucking the oxygen away.
She pressed her palms against her temples, trying to contain the scream building in her throat.
And something inside her—something that had been bending for years, stretching thinner and thinner with each carefully hidden bruise, each calculated humiliation, each stolen freedom—finally snapped.
She grabbed the lamp from her nightstand, fingers curling around the ceramic base. Then she hurled it across the room. The crash was magnificent. Glass exploded against the wall, raining shards across her pristine carpet. Plaster cracked, leaving a crater in the perfect white surface. The sound reverberated through her bones, satisfying and terrible all at once.
Not enough.
Isabelle yanked open her drawers with such force that the first one came completely off its tracks. She flung it sideways, textbooks and pens arcing through the air like shrapnel. Her physics book—the one Laura had insisted on getting her into advanced placement for, even though she didn’t inherit the Stark or the Proctor interest for maths and science—hit the wall with a dull thud. Her calculus notebook followed, pages fluttering open like broken wings.
Her reflection caught her eye again—that perfect Stark daughter with her perfect posture and perfect grades and perfect fucking life. The mirror didn’t stand a chance. Isabelle’s fist shot forward before she could think. The mirror shattered on impact. Pain exploded across her knuckles as glass bit into skin. Her reflection fractured into a hundred distorted versions of herself—broken, splintered, honest.
She slammed her fist into the wall next. Once, twice, a third time. Each impact sent shockwaves up her arm, vibrations rattling through bone. The drywall cracked, and white powder dusted her bleeding knuckles.
Blood smeared the perfect white paint. Her blood. The crimson streaks looked almost artistic against the sterile backdrop.
“I hate you,” she whispered, the words scraping her throat raw. They tasted like copper and truth. “I hate you, I hate you, I hate you—”
Her desk was next. One violent sweep of her arm sent everything flying—pencil cup shattering, papers cascading like confetti, her laptop crashing to the floor. The motion felt like dancing, like fighting, like finally being honest.
Something sharp caught her forearm—a shard from the mirror, perhaps, or a piece of the lamp. It sliced deep, from wrist to elbow, a clean, decisive line.
Isabelle gasped, stumbling backward. The pain was immediate, a lightning strike of sensation. Blood welled instantly—too much, too fast—spilling over her pale skin in rivulets of crimson. It dripped onto the carpet, stark against the cream fibers.
Her head spun. The room tilted.
Then—impossibly—the blood flow slowed. The edges of the wound quivered, then began to crawl toward each other like magnetic opposites seeking connection. Muscle fibers wove together beneath her eyes. Blood vessels sealed themselves shut.
Isabelle froze, transfixed with horror and fascination. Her breath caught in her throat as she watched her body betray physics, betray nature.
The wound wasn’t closing completely, but enough to stop the bleeding. Enough to keep her alive.
Her fingers trembled as they traced the half-healed gash. The skin felt hot, unnaturally warm. Wrong.
“What the fuck,” she whispered, voice barely audible. “What the actual fuck.”
This wasn’t normal. This wasn’t human.
Dawn crawled through Isabelle’s window, finding her wide awake, perched on the edge of her bed. She hadn’t slept—not for a minute. The night had stretched endlessly, her mind racing between horror at what her body had done and fury at what her mother had done to her.
The destruction around her remained untouched. Shattered glass glittered on the carpet. Books lay splayed open, pages bent. Blood—her blood—had dried in rusty streaks across the wall.
And Laura hadn’t come. Hadn’t investigated the crashes. Hadn’t checked on her.
Isabelle stared at her arm where the deep gash had been. She traced it with her fingertip, feeling the slight ridge of new tissue.
Wrong. It felt wrong.
Her knuckles had healed, too, leaving only faint marks where glass had sliced them open. The throbbing in her cheek from Laura’s slap had vanished completely.
The house below creaked with familiar morning sounds. Cabinet doors opening and closing. The coffee maker gurgling. Laura, continuing as if nothing had happened.
Isabelle stood, legs stiff from sitting motionless for hours. She pulled on clean clothes, covering the evidence of her healing, and headed downstairs.
The kitchen smelled of coffee and toast. Sunlight streamed through the windows, making everything look falsely bright. Normal. Perfect. Laura stood at the counter, back turned, arranging breakfast on a plate. Same as always. Same as yesterday. Same as every day.
“Good morning,” Laura said without turning around. Her voice held that manufactured cheerfulness that made Isabelle’s skin crawl.
Isabelle said nothing, sliding onto her usual chair at the island. Her place was set—the same glass of orange juice, the same three pills lined up beside it.
“Eat up.” Laura placed a plate of scrambled eggs and toast in front of her. “Don’t want to be late for school.”
Isabelle stared at the food, then at the pills. Her throat constricted at the sight.
“I have an important meeting today. Last minute thing, ” Laura continued, checking her sleek silver watch with a practiced flick of her wrist. “So I need to drop you off early. Hurry up and eat.”
The pills seemed to grow larger the longer Isabelle stared at them. Her fingers twitched. The memory of her arm knitting itself back together flashed behind her eyes.
Laura’s heels clicked against the tile as she moved around the kitchen island. She paused, finally noticing Isabelle’s stillness. The artificial smile slipped from her face.
“I said hurry up and eat,” she commanded, voice dropping an octave. “And take your pills.”
The word ‘pills’ hung in the air between them, suddenly loaded with new meaning. Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs.
She didn’t look up from the plate. “No.”
The kitchen went silent. Even the refrigerator seemed to hold its breath. The tick of the wall clock became deafening.
“Excuse me?” Laura’s voice dropped several degrees, frosting over.
Isabelle raised her eyes now, meeting her mother’s gaze. Something electric crackled between them. “No.”
Laura set down her coffee mug. The soft clink against the counter felt like a warning shot. “Isabelle—”
“Fuck you.”
The words hung between them, sharp and irretrievable. They tasted like freedom on Isabelle’s tongue. They made Laura’s face transform.
Laura’s nostrils flared as she marched over to her daughter, a vein pulsing at her temple. Her hand shot out, palm open, aiming for Isabelle’s face.
This time, Isabelle was ready.
Her hand snapped up, catching Laura’s wrist mid-swing. The impact jarred up her arm, but her grip held firm. Stronger than it should be. Stronger than she’d ever been.
Laura’s eyes widened—not in pain, but in genuine surprise. For the first time in Isabelle’s memory, her mother looked caught off-guard.
“Don’t,” Isabelle said, her voice dropping to a whisper that filled the kitchen more completely than any shout could. “Ever. Again.”
Laura yanked her arm back, but Isabelle’s grip held firm—too firm. The bones of her mother’s wrist shifted beneath her fingers. A small, dark part of her brain catalogued exactly how much pressure it would take to snap them.
For a suspended moment, they were locked together, neither willing to yield.
“Let. Go. Of. Me.” Each word emerged like individual ice cubes dropping into a glass.
Isabelle’s fingers tightened fractionally. “Like you let go of me last night?” The words came out steady despite the earthquake beneath her ribs. “Like you’ve let go every time you decided I needed to be put in my place?”
Laura’s perfect mask cracked. Fear flickered in her eyes—real fear—before hardening into something clinical. Something assessing. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
“I don’t know!” It exploded from Isabelle, raw and ragged. Her voice cracked, splintering like the mirror upstairs. “That’s the whole fucking point! I don’t know what’s wrong with me!”
She released Laura’s wrist with a violent shove that sent her mother stumbling backward against the counter. The orange juice glass toppled, pills scattering across the marble like tiny meteorites. One rolled to a stop against Isabelle’s plate. White. Innocuous. Poison.
Laura massaged her wrist, angry red fingerprints blooming where Isabelle had gripped her. Her breathing came faster now, but her voice remained controlled—the scientist observing a failed experiment. She straightened her blouse with precise movements. “I swear I have tried so hard with you. Been there. Been a good mother—”
A laugh tore from Isabelle’s throat.
“A good mother?” She stood so violently that the chair crashed backward. “You made me sick. You drug me daily.” She jabbed a finger towards Laura. “You hit me.” Her voice rose, trembling with the force of years of buried rage. “Cut me open and put things inside me. You turned me into this!”
She thrust her arm forward, yanking up her sleeve to reveal the pink line where last night’s gash had been. Blood still crusted at the edges, but the wound itself was days old, not hours.
“Look at it! Look what I can do now!” Her voice cracked, splintering at the edges. “What did you do to me?”
Laura’s face drained of color, porcelain skin going ashen. Her eyes locked on the healed wound, then darted to Isabelle’s face. Something shifted behind her eyes—fear morphing into calculation with terrifying speed.
“You don’t understand,” Laura said, her voice steadying as she reached for her phone on the counter. Her fingers trembled slightly—the only tell. “You need your medication. You’re having an episode.”
“Don’t.” Isabelle moved faster than thought, her hand snatching the phone before Laura’s fingers could close around it. The distance between them vanished in a heartbeat—too fast, impossibly fast. “Don’t you dare call anyone. Don’t you dare pretend this is me being crazy.”
The phone creaked in her grip. Laura’s eyes widened.
“I want answers.” Isabelle’s voice dropped lower, steadier. “Now.”
Laura tracked Isabelle’s movements with the wariness of someone suddenly realizing they were locked in a cage with something dangerous.
“Give me my phone, Isabelle.”
“No.” Isabelle backed up a step, keeping the kitchen island between them. The cold marble pressed against her lower back. “Not until you tell me the truth. What am I? What did you do to me?”
A muscle twitched in Laura’s jaw—that telltale sign of restraint Isabelle had learned to watch for since childhood.
“You’re my daughter.” Laura’s voice hardened, clinical. “You’re sick. You need help.”
“Bullshit.” The word felt good on Isabelle’s tongue—forbidden, liberating. Her fingers tightened around the phone until the case cracked. “Normal sick people don’t heal overnight. Normal sick people don’t—” The thought hit her like a physical blow, stealing her breath. “I’m not sick at all, am I? I never was.”
Laura’s face smoothed into that practiced expression—the one she used at parent-teacher conferences, at doctor’s appointments. The concerned mother mask.
“You’re spiraling,” Laura said coldly. Her hands gripped the edge of the counter, knuckles whitening. “You’re hormonal and emotionally unstable—your father’s influence, no doubt—”
“I haven’t seen my father in months!” Isabelle’s voice cracked, raw, and ragged. The phone in her hand whined as plastic compressed under impossible pressure. “How the hell is this his fault?”
Laura’s nostrils flared. “So you’re just ungrateful? Enough with these delusions.” She pushed off from the counter, taking a step forward. “I know you’re angry at him for not being there. And I am truly sorry, but this—” she gestured at the space between them, at the broken phone, at Isabelle’s trembling form, “—you taking your feelings about him out on me—needs to stop! I am not hurting you!”
A laugh tore from her throat, wild and unhinged, scraping her vocal cords raw. Not like glass, but like a dam breaking.
“Oh yeah?” She slammed the mangled phone onto the counter. The device skidded across the marble, leaving a trail of shattered glass and twisted metal. “Not hurting me?”
“You need to calm—”
Isabelle’s palm crashed down onto the pristine countertop. What mattered was the sound—the sharp, impossible crack of expensive marble splitting beneath her hand.
They both froze, staring at the spiderweb of fractures radiating from her palm print.
Laura’s face drained of color. Her throat worked, swallowing hard. “Isabelle, you need to calm down. This isn’t—”
“This isn’t what?” Isabelle’s voice dropped dangerously low. “Normal? Human? Yeah, no fucking shit.” She pushed off from the counter, her movements unnaturally fluid. “I need the truth. Now.”
Laura’s eyes darted to the doorway. Calculating escape routes. Isabelle recognized that look—she’d worn it herself, trapped in this house for years.
“I’ve given you everything,” Laura said, voice steadying as she edged sideways. “Everything a mother could—”
“Except honesty.” Isabelle moved with sudden purpose, crossing to the cutting board where Laura had been preparing breakfast. Her fingers closed around the handle of the kitchen knife—eight inches of steel, perfectly balanced.
The blade caught the light, reflecting Laura’s widening eyes.
“Isabelle.” Her mother’s voice sharpened with genuine alarm. “Put that down.”
“Why?” Isabelle’s hand was perfectly steady. “Afraid I’ll hurt myself? Or afraid I won’t?”
“You’re not thinking clearly—”
“I’ve never thought more clearly in my life.” Isabelle held Laura’s gaze as she pressed the blade against her own forearm. The metal felt cool against her skin.
Laura lunged forward. “Don’t—”
Too late.
Isabelle dragged the knife down her arm in one fluid motion. The blade parted skin, muscle, and veins with surgical precision. Blood welled instantly—bright arterial red, pulsing with her heartbeat. It spilled over her pale skin, dripping onto the white tile floor with hypnotic rhythm.
She didn’t flinch. Didn’t cry out. Just watched.
And Laura watched too, horror and something else—something hungry and clinical—flashing across her face.
The blood flow stuttered. Slowed. Stopped.
At the edges of the wound, skin trembled and crawled like something alive. Muscle fibers reached for each other across the gap, weaving together with unnatural purpose. Veins sealed themselves, the torn edges knitting with microscopic precision.
In minutes, the gash was gone. Only a thin pink line remained, already fading.
The knife clattered to the floor, smearing blood across pristine tile.
“What am I?” Isabelle’s voice was barely a whisper, the words scraping her throat. Her hands shook now, the delayed shock setting in. “What did you do to me?”
Laura’s scientific mask slipped. For a heartbeat, raw fear showed through—not fear of Isabelle, but something self-preserving. Her eyes darted to the doorway.
“You weren’t supposed to find out like this.” Laura’s voice had changed, all maternal warmth evaporating into clinical detachment. She edged backward, one hand reaching behind her to feel for the doorframe. “You don’t understand what you are—what I’ve done to protect you—”
“Protect me?” The word tasted like acid on Isabelle’s tongue. “You experimented on me!”
“I perfected you!” Laura’s back hit the wall.
Rage built inside Isabelle’s chest, surging and pooling in her fingertips. “You made me think I was crazy!”
“Isabelle, listen—” Laura’s voice sharpened with desperation as she inched toward the hallway. “There are things about your biology, about your genetics—”
“No more lies!” Isabelle screamed, the sound tearing from her throat like something feral.
The pressure inside her chest exploded outward. She didn’t reach out—not physically—but something did. Something invisible and unstoppable, racing across the space between them.
Laura’s next word died mid-syllable. Her eyes widened, pupils dilating. One hand flew to her chest, fingers clawing at her blouse. The other reached blindly for support, finding none.
“What—” Laura gasped, her face draining of color. “What are you—”
Her knees buckled. She slid down the wall in slow motion, mouth opening and closing.
Each breath came shorter than the last, wet and desperate.
Isabelle felt it happening—felt Laura’s lungs constricting, her blood vessels narrowing, her heart spasming inside her chest. Felt it as if it were happening in her own body, a perfect mirror of pain.
“Stop,” Laura wheezed, her lips taking on a bluish tinge. Sweat beaded on her forehead. “Isa—please—”
Horror crashed through Isabelle’s rage. She stumbled backward, hands flying up as if to physically push away what she was doing. “I’m not—I don’t know how to—”
Laura’s eyes rolled back, her body convulsing once, twice. A thin line of saliva trailed from the corner of her mouth. The sound that escaped her wasn’t even human—a wet, strangled rattle that echoed in the pristine kitchen.
“Mom?” The word escaped Isabelle before she could stop it, small and terrified. Her childhood voice. “Mom!” She dropped to her knees beside Laura, hands hovering uselessly. Laura’s chest heaved with uneven, shallow breaths.
Isabelle’s hands hovered over her mother’s body, trembling. What could she touch? What should she touch? The power still hummed beneath her skin, electric and hungry. She might make it worse.
“I didn’t mean—” The words died in her throat. Useless. Meaningless.
She had meant it. Deep down. Or maybe not so deep.
Laura’s eyes fixed on something beyond Isabelle’s shoulder, something only she could see. Her lips moved, forming words too quiet to hear. Isabelle leaned closer, pulse hammering in her ears. Laura’s breath brushed against her cheek, warm and fading.
“—weapon,” Laura whispered, each syllable a labor. Her eyes suddenly sharpened, finding Isabelle’s with terrifying clarity. “My perfect weapon.”
The words landed like physical blows. Each one precise. Calculated. True.
Not daughter. Weapon.
Laura’s fingers, which had been clutching weakly at Isabelle’s wrist, went slack. The perfectly manicured nails scraped across skin as her hand fell to the floor with a soft, final thud.
The kitchen fell silent. No breathing. No heartbeat.
Isabelle stared at the body. Her mother’s body. The woman who had raised her. Controlled her. Lied to her. Created her.
She had killed her.
Isabelle stared at her hands—clean, unmarked, no evidence of what they had just done. No evidence except the cooling body on the kitchen floor.
Laura’s eyes stared at nothing, glazed and empty. That perfect posture finally broken, limbs splayed at unnatural angles against the pristine tile. The woman who had controlled every aspect of Isabelle’s life for sixteen years now controlled nothing. Not even her own body.
Isabelle hadn’t moved from her knees. Couldn’t. The tiles beneath her had warmed to her body temperature, the blood long since dried to a rusty brown that would never fully come out of the grout. Evidence. Permanent.
She should feel something. Grief. Remorse. Relief. Anything.
Instead, there was just... nothing. A vast, echoing emptiness where emotion should be. Like someone had scooped out her insides and left a hollow shell behind.
Tick. Tick. Tick.
The kitchen clock counted seconds that meant nothing anymore. How long had she been kneeling here? Minutes? Hours? Time had become abstract, meaningless. The morning sun had climbed higher, casting new shadows across Laura’s face, highlighting the blue tinge of her lips, the unnatural stillness of her chest.
“My perfect weapon,” Laura had said. Her final words.
Not “I love you.” Not “I’m sorry.” Not even “I hate you.”
Weapon.
Isabelle’s muscles screamed as she dragged herself across the floor, inch by excruciating inch. The landline phone sat on the drawer table—miles away, it seemed, though only across the room.
She fixed her eyes on it. One goal. One lifeline.
Her elbow bumped Laura’s shoe, still attached to her mother’s foot. Still warm. Isabelle flinched away, bile rising in her throat.
The drawer table’s edge finally came within reach. She pulled herself up, fingers clawing at the polished wood. The phone receiver felt impossibly heavy as she lifted it, the plastic cool against her blood-sticky palm.
The dial tone hummed, steady and indifferent. Isabelle stared at the keypad, her vision blurring. Only one number mattered now. Her fingers moved on autopilot, muscle memory taking over where conscious thought failed.
One ring.
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs. What would she say? How could she possibly explain?
Two rings.
Her mother’s body lay sprawled behind her. Her doing.
Three rings.
Maybe he wouldn’t answer. Maybe she could just disappear. Run. Hide. Become someone else.
Click.
“Rhodes here.” His voice came through clearly. Alert but weary around the edges. The sound of it—so familiar, so safe—made something crack inside her chest.
Her throat closed. Words died before they reached her lips.
“Hello?” Shuffling sounds came through the line. Sheets rustling. Him sitting up.
Isabelle opened her mouth again. A strangled sound escaped, half-breath, half-sob.
“Who is this?” Sharper now. More alert.
“Uncle Rhodey.” Her voice emerged as a whisper, cracked and hollow.
Silence. Then: “Izzy?” All military precision vanished, replaced by raw concern. “What’s wrong? Where are you?”
The dam broke. Hot tears spilled down her cheeks, cutting clean tracks through the dried blood. “I need help.” The words tumbled out, fractured and desperate. “I didn’t—I didn’t mean to—I think she’s—” Her eyes darted to Laura’s still form. “I think she’s dead. Mom’s dead.”
“Isabelle.” His voice sharpened, anchoring her. “Slow down. Are you hurt? Are you safe right now?”
A hysterical laugh bubbled up her throat. Safe? What did that even mean anymore?
“I don’t know what happened.” Her words slurred together, panic rising. “She hit me, and then—my arm healed—and we fought, and I just wanted her to stop lying—and something came out of me—I couldn’t control it—”
“Listen to me.” Rhodey’s voice cut through her spiral, steel wrapped in velvet. “I need you to breathe. Right now. In through your nose, out through your mouth.”
She obeyed automatically, drawing a shuddering breath that smelled of copper and death.
“Good. Now tell me where you are.”
“Home.” The word tasted wrong on her tongue. This place had never been home. “In the kitchen.”
“I’m coming to you.” Movement on his end—drawers opening, clothes rustling. “Don’t touch anything else. Don’t call anyone. Stay exactly where you are.”
“Uncle Rhodey.” Her voice cracked, childlike and small. The phone trembled against her ear. “I didn’t mean to.”
Isabelle slumped against the drawer table, sliding down until she sat on the floor. Laura’s unseeing eyes stared at her from across the kitchen.
Accusatory.
Empty.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Belladonna" by UFO
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A phone rings. A mask cracks. And everything burns.
One wrong word from Sarah Wilson is all it takes. The cover’s blown, the room explodes—and Selby doesn’t live long enough to regret her mistake.Now the job is survival.
Guns blaze. Blood spills. Bucky moves like a ghost—silent, brutal, lethal. Sam fights to cover their escape. Isabelle’s powers flare beneath her skin, caught between restraint and detonation.
Madripoor has officially gone to hell. And the real chaos hasn’t even started.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 29: Big Time
Chapter 29: Big Time
Summary:
Madripoor was always a powder keg—but now it’s lit.
A single phone call shatters the illusion, and Isabelle watches the room turn lethal in seconds. Selby’s blood hits the floor before she can blink, and what follows is chaos—gunfire, broken bodies, and her powers slipping the leash.She warned Sam what it felt like.
Now he sees it for himself.Four enemies down. No memory of how.
The voice is getting louder. The cost is getting higher.And Isabelle Stark is running out of time.
Notes:
Hey guys!! 💚 Thank you so much for all the support during Izzy’s origin arc—it seriously means the world. I’ve been blown away by your comments, kudos, theories, everything. You’ve made this weird little brainchild of mine feel so real.
Also… we’re almost at 7k hits?! What?? I’m screaming. 😭
I’m really excited for these next few chapters—they’re fast-paced, chaotic, and full of action, but I had an insanely fun time writing them. Can’t wait to hear what you think as we dive deeper into the Madripoor mess, Izzy’s powers, and the emotional fallout still coming 👀
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✨👉Also, P.S.…it’s Father’s Day 😅 So, of course, I had to drop some Stark family angst—I just posted the first one-shot of my pre–All the Time in the World series!
It’s called What Came Before... wink wink 👀
Go check it out if you’re craving messy Stark dynamics, early Avengers chaos, and all the emotional groundwork before everything went to hell.
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Chapter Text
Present
A phone rang.
Isabelle blinked, the kitchen dissolving around her. The marble countertop, her mother’s body, the lies—all vanishing. Not real. Over.
Her pulse hammered against her temples as reality reasserted itself: Madripoor. The dim, yellow-tinged light. Selby’s watchful eyes across the table. The weight of Zemo’s presence beside her, the tension radiating from Sam and Bucky.
The phone rang again, sharper this time. The sound cut through the room’s thick silence, emanating from Sam’s pocket.
Selby’s face transformed instantly. Her lips tightened, nostrils flared, catching a scent. “Answer it.”
Her voice carried the casual cruelty of someone accustomed to being obeyed. She snapped her fingers, a quick, demanding gesture, and the nearest guard moved.
The guard stepped behind Sam, the metallic click of his weapon adjustment echoing in the small room. Isabelle’s skin prickled with cold sweat, the hair on her arms rising.
“On speaker,” Selby commanded, rising from her seat. She leaned forward, palms flat against the table’s surface, rings glinting in the low light.
Sam’s eyes flicked to Bucky across the table. Isabelle caught the silent communication between them—Bucky’s blue eyes sharp with warning, the smallest head shake so subtle it barely disturbed the air. Don’t break. Don’t react. Play along.
Sam extracted the phone with deliberate slowness, his movements careful under the guard’s watchful eye. His thumb hovered over the screen, a flash of recognition in his eyes before he masked it, his features smoothing into practiced neutrality.
The gun barrel pressed closer to Sam’s neck. Isabelle’s fingers curled against her thighs, nails digging into her palms. One wrong move, one wrong word, and everything would collapse around them.
“Hello?”
“Hey, you busy?” Sarah Wilson’s voice burst through the speaker, clear and commanding, oblivious to the danger surrounding her brother. “We need to talk about this situation.”
Isabelle’s stomach twisted. Sarah Wilson—Sam’s sister. Isabelle had met her once, years and years ago. Christmas at the compound. Champagne flutes catching light. Sarah’s laugh, warm and genuine, as she’d teased Sam about his dancing. Before Thanos. Before the Blip. Before everything fell apart.
The guard pressed his weapon harder against Sam’s shoulder blade, metal digging through fabric. Isabelle caught the microscopic flinch Sam couldn’t suppress. Across the table, Bucky’s breathing shifted to a controlled pattern. Beside her, Zemo’s fingers twitched almost imperceptibly against his thigh, and his jaw slackened.
Isabelle felt her powers stirring beneath her skin, a familiar heat spreading through her veins.
“It’s been drivin’ me nuts,” Sarah continued, her Louisiana accent flowing through the room like warm honey, terrifyingly out of place in this den of predators. “I mean, seriously, Sam.”
Isabelle watched panic flash behind his eyes—a drowning man realizing the shore was farther than he thought.
“What situation exactly are you talkin’ about?” Sam’s voice dropped, suddenly rough-edged and performative. He slid into an exaggerated gangster inflection that made Isabelle’s teeth clench. Amateur hour in the deadliest club in Madripoor.
“Are you high?” Sarah’s exasperation crackled through the speaker, the sound bouncing off the walls. “You know what situation. It’s the only situation me and you have.”
Selby moved, head tilted, pupils contracting to pinpoints, circling Bucky like a shark scenting blood. Her fingertips dragged across his shoulder as she passed, testing, probing. Bucky didn’t flinch, but the muscle in his jaw jumped once—his tell.
“What situation, Sarah?” Sam’s voice tightened. “Say it.”
“The damn boat,” Sarah snapped, each word a nail in their collective coffin. “And watch your tone, okay? I let you slide at the bank—”
“The bank, yeah.” Sam pounced on the word, his laugh hollow and brittle as glass. Sweat beaded visibly across his forehead as his eyes darted between Selby’s men. “Laundered so much...”
The words hung in the air, too eager, too forced. A silence followed, thick enough to choke on.
Selby’s expression hardened to granite, her eyes flashing with cold recognition. The guard’s finger tightened on the trigger. Isabelle felt her powers surge, ready to burst through her skin.
Sarah’s laugh—genuine, unsuspecting—crackled through the speaker, the sound jarringly bright. “If that was the case, then why’d they dog you out, Big Time?”
Isabelle watched Sam’s face tighten, his eyes darting between the armed guards. She could feel his panic radiating outward like heat from a furnace.
“Yeah, you damn right I’m Big Time.” Sam’s voice strained against the false bravado. “You’ll see when I have that banker killed.”
The words landed with the grace of a dying bird. Isabelle’s stomach clenched as Selby’s lips curved upward, eyes beaming with satisfaction. The guard behind Sam flicked off his safety with an audible click that seemed to echo through Isabelle’s bones. Her powers surged beneath her skin, heat building in her fingertips. One touch and she could drop the guard—but the others would fire before his body hit the floor.
“Cass! What’d I tell you about the Cheerios?” Sarah’s voice shifted, growing distant. Fabric rustled through the speaker. Sam’s eyes met Isabelle’s—a flash of desperate hope swimming in dark waters. “God—I don’t have time for this! Sam, I’m sorry. I’ll call you back.”
The line went dead.
Silence descended, thick and suffocating. Isabelle measured her breaths—one, two—as Selby’s face transformed. The businesswoman’s facade cracked like porcelain, revealing something triumphant and cruel underneath. Her crimson lips peeled back in a slow, deliberate smile that never reached her eyes.
“Sam?” Selby savored the name, rolling it between her teeth like a sommelier testing wine before declaring it poison. She straightened, shoulders pulling back as her gaze swept over them. “You’re not Smiling Tiger.”
Not a question. A death sentence wrapped in three words.
The silence stretched for half a heartbeat—just long enough for Isabelle to register the shift in the room, the subtle tensing of muscles, the predatory gleam in Selby’s eyes.
“Kill them!”
The command cracked through the air. Isabelle’s body coiled, ready to unleash her powers—but before she could move, a gunshot thundered through the room. The sound reverberated in her chest, vibrating against her ribs.
She braced for pain, for the hot tear of a bullet. It never came.
Instead, Selby’s expression transformed. Shock replaced triumph as her eyes widened, pupils dilating. A perfect circle of red bloomed between her shoulder blades, spreading across pristine white fabric. Isabelle watched, transfixed, as the stain expanded—arterial blood soaking expensive silk.
Selby’s lips parted in silent surprise. She pitched forward, hands grasping at nothing, fingertips brushing the table’s edge before her body collapsed. The impact sent glasses toppling, liquid splashing across the surface. Her forehead hit with a dull, wet thud that turned Isabelle’s stomach.
Then the guard behind Sam lunged with a guttural roar. Isabelle caught the flash of his teeth, the whites of his eyes, the tendons standing out in his neck. Sam dropped, pivoting on his heel, ducking beneath the guard’s outstretched arm. He then drove his elbow up into the man’s solar plexus.
Sam twisted, grabbing the man’s wrist and wrenching until bone ground against bone. The rifle clattered to the concrete, the sound metallic and sharp. Sam scooped up the weapon in one continuous motion, his hands moving fast as he checked the chamber.
Across the room, Bucky exploded into action. A guard appeared from his left, weapon raised. Isabelle saw the man’s finger tightening on the trigger, the slight adjustment of his aim toward Bucky’s chest.
Too late.
Bucky’s vibranium hand shot out, fingers closing around the barrel just as the guard squeezed the trigger. The gun made a strangled mechanical sound—metal warping, the bullet jamming inside the compressed chamber. The barrel crumpled beneath Bucky’s grip like aluminum foil, twisting into uselessness.
“Behind you!” Isabelle called out, spotting another guard approaching.
Without looking, Bucky wrenched the ruined weapon away and used the first guard’s momentum against him. He pivoted, slamming the man face-first into the grimy wall with enough force to crack the plaster. The guard slid to the floor, leaving a crimson trail in his wake, body limp as a discarded doll.
In one seamless motion, Zemo dove behind the table, his purple-lined coat billowing around him like dark wings. His fingers found the table’s edge, muscles tensing as he flipped it onto its side with surprising strength. The heavy wood crashed against the concrete floor with a thunderous impact that reverberated through Isabelle’s bones.
Selby’s body slid from the overturned table, landing with a wet thud beside him. Her eyes stared upward, unseeing, blood pooling beneath her platinum hair like a macabre halo. Zemo didn’t spare her a glance, already calculating their next move, finding their exit.
The room had transformed from a negotiation space to a kill box in seconds. The back entrance burst open with a screech, the door slamming against the wall with enough force to shower concrete dust from the ceiling. Four guards stormed in—not the casual muscle they’d faced before, but something deadlier. Tactical formation. Synchronized movements. Their rifles were raised with the mechanical precision that only came from professional killers.
A kill squad.
“Down!” Sam shouted, his voice cutting through the chaos.
But Isabelle didn’t drop. Didn’t duck. Didn’t even flinch.
Time slowed to a crawl as her perception sharpened. The lead guard’s finger tightened on the trigger. The minute adjustment of his aim toward Sam’s chest. The cold calculation in his eyes as he prepared to execute.
Let me in, it whispered. They’ll die if you don’t.
Not a request. A simple truth.
A flash hit her: Sam’s body jerking with impact, crimson blooming across his chest. Bucky, face twisted in fury, cut down mid-lunge—you can’t save them unless you let go.
Isabelle’s resistance crumbled. No time for morality. No time for control. No time for the careful boundaries she’d constructed. She surrendered to the darkness coiled inside her, felt it rise like mercury in a thermometer—hot and poisonous and unstoppable.
Her body surged forward like a blade unsheathed—pure instinct, pure power.
The first guard never saw her coming.
Isabelle vaulted over the couch in one fluid motion as the guard’s finger tightened on the trigger. The bullet cracked past her cheek, close enough that she felt its heat sear her skin. The miss was narrow—a matter of centimeters and milliseconds. The concrete wall behind her exploded in a shower of dust and fragments.
She landed low, then—no hesitation, no thought—just movement and purpose as she launched forward.
You only need a touch. Take the leg.
Her fingers found his ankle—warm skin, coarse hair, the ridge of bone beneath.
Bend it, the voice instructed. Show him what we can do.
Green energy surged through her veins, crackling beneath her skin like lightning seeking ground. It spilled from her fingertips into his flesh, illuminating the network of veins and capillaries beneath his skin in sickly emerald light.
Isabelle didn’t close her eyes. She wanted to see it happen.
The leg folded sideways with a wet crack that reverberated through the room. Bone punched through flesh and fabric, gleaming white and slick with blood. The guard’s scream was high and thin, almost childlike in its shock and pain. His weapon clattered to the floor as he collapsed, clutching at the ruined limb.
One, it counted, satisfaction rolling through their shared consciousness.
Isabelle rose in one smooth motion, already tracking the next target. Taller than the first, broader across the shoulders, face contorted with rage as he swung his weapon toward her. The barrel looked impossibly wide from this angle—a black hole promising oblivion.
Too slow, we’re faster.
Isabelle slid beneath the rifle’s arc, concrete scraping her palms raw. She drove her shoulder into his solar plexus with enough force to lift him off his feet. The impact jarred through her body, ribs cracking beneath her shoulder—not hers, his. His breath left in a pained whoosh, eyes bulging with shock.
He stumbled backward, struggling to bring his weapon to bear, but his movements were sluggish, uncoordinated. Blood vessels had ruptured in his eyes, turning the whites crimson.
Take the arm, it urged, no longer whispering but commanding. We’ll make sure he never holds a gun again.
Isabelle’s hand closed around his elbow, fingers digging into the joint. Green energy pulsed from her palm, seeping between muscle and tendon, finding the weaknesses in his anatomy.
Now.
The joint ruptured.
Two, they counted together as the ulna broke and the rifle dropped from nerveless fingers.
As the second guard crumpled to the ground with a cry, a third attacker emerged from the shadows, knife catching the dim light as it arced through the air. His face was a mask of cold determination, eyes narrowed to calculating slits.
Isabelle felt her lips curve into a smile that wasn’t entirely her own. Green energy danced between her fingers, eager and hungry, crackling like static electricity against her skin. The sensation was intoxicating—raw power waiting to be unleashed.
The guard lunged, knife slashing toward her throat in a practiced, efficient strike. Isabelle juked left, feeling the blade tear through empty air mere centimeters from her face. The rush of displaced air kissed her cheek where the knife had nearly connected.
He’s off-balance. Take him now.
She pivoted on her heel and sprinted at him full-force, launching herself at him, arms locking around his neck as her momentum carried them both backward. They crashed to the floor in a tangle of limbs, his body cushioning her fall. The guard bucked beneath her, trying to throw her off. His knife hand twisted, blade seeking her ribs. Isabelle caught his wrist, applying pressure to the tendons until his fingers spasmed. The knife clattered to the concrete.
He tried to rise, face contorted with determination and rage.
Touch his spine. Right at the base of his neck.
Her fingers slid beneath his collar, finding the warm skin where vertebrae protruded. She felt the rapid pulse of his carotid artery beneath her thumb.
Now. Think of every nerve ending. Every electric command racing through his body.
Isabelle closed her eyes for a fraction of a second, visualizing the complex network of nerves branching from his spine—delicate threads carrying signals from brain to limbs. She imagined them all firing at once, short-circuiting like overloaded wires.
The guard’s body went rigid beneath her, back arching at an impossible angle. His eyes rolled back, showing whites as his limbs locked in a violent spasm. A wet gurgle escaped his throat, foam gathering at the corners of his mouth.
Three.
Isabelle stood slowly, her breath coming in sharp, shallow bursts. Her hands trembled, not from fear or revulsion.
You feel that? It cooed, her voice intimate as a lover’s whisper. That’s clarity. That’s what you are when no one holds you back.
Isabelle didn’t reply. Couldn’t. Her mouth was full of copper and guilt and heat.
The last guard backed away, rifle raised defensively before him. His finger trembled against the trigger, but his grip faltered. His eyes were wide with naked fear, darting between Isabelle and the bodies scattered around her.
He’ll run, the voice warned, voice hardening. Or he’ll stab you in the throat the moment you turn away. They always do. Finish him.
The guard’s gaze shifted to the exit. His weight shifted to his back foot.
Isabelle moved.
She closed the distance in three fluid steps, her body cutting through space with predatory grace. Before he could squeeze the trigger, she slammed him against the wall, his head bouncing off the surface with a dull crack. His eyes glazed momentarily, weapon dipping.
Her hands clamped down on his shoulders, fingers digging into the meat where neck met collarbone. Green energy pulsed beneath her skin, hungry and eager.
Snap them. Left. Then right.
Isabelle obeyed, channeling her power into his clavicles. She felt the bones beneath her fingers—solid, then suddenly not. The crack of both collarbones breaking in tandem echoed like a thunderclap in the small room. The guard dropped like a marionette with cut strings, curling inward, gasping in pain, arms hanging at unnatural angles.
And four.
Bodies twitched on the floor around her. Isabelle stood motionless at the center of the carnage, her chest rising and falling in sharp, uneven bursts.
Blood spattered the concrete in abstract patterns. The metallic scent filled her nostrils, mingling with the acrid smell of gunpowder and fear-sweat. The last traces of green energy receded beneath her skin. The power didn’t vanish—it never did—just retreated to that dark place inside her where it waited to be needed again.
The silence pressed against her eardrums. No gunfire. No screams. Just the wet, rattling breath of the guard whose spine she’d short-circuited and the soft whimpers of the man whose collarbones she’d shattered. Four bodies. Four choices she couldn’t remember making.
Sam stood frozen across the room, one hand still gripping the confiscated rifle. His eyes had gone wide, pupils dilated. He stared at her like he was seeing her for the first time, recognition warring with something darker. Not fear exactly. Wariness. The look of a man who’d just watched a controlled fire become a wildfire.
“Isabelle?” Sam’s voice broke the silence, her name a question rather than a statement. Testing the waters. Checking who was answering.
The sound pierced through the fog clouding her mind. Isabelle blinked hard, reality stuttering like a skipping record. Her hands trembled before her, smeared with crimson that wasn’t her own. When had that happened?
“What happened?” The words felt strange in her mouth, disconnected from her tongue. Her voice sounded flat, hollow, as if someone else were speaking through her.
A sharp pain lanced through her temple. Isabelle flinched, pressing her palm against her head. Static crawled beneath her skin, tiny insects marching along her nerve endings. The buzzing in her skull intensified, a swarm of hornets trapped behind her eyes.
Bucky took a single step toward her, vibranium fingers remaining relaxed at his side, but ready. His flesh hand extended slightly, palm open—the universal sign for I mean no harm. His eyes—sharp blue and too knowing—tracked over her face with careful assessment.
“You don’t remember?” he asked, voice pitched low and steady. Not accusatory. Just confirming.
Isabelle swallowed, her throat clicking with dryness. She tasted copper and something else—something electric and wrong. “I remember the guards coming in. The first shot.” She gestured vaguely at the bodies surrounding her, unable to look directly at the man whose spine she’d short-circuited. His wet, rattling breaths filled the silence between her words. “Then... this.”
The gap in her memory yawned like an open wound. Seconds? Minutes? How much time had she lost?
From behind the overturned table, Zemo emerged. He moved like water finding its path—unhurried yet inevitable. His polished shoes stepped over Selby’s outstretched fingers without hesitation, leaving perfect prints in the thin film of blood spreading beneath her body. He straightened his coat with a practiced flick of his wrists, thumbs smoothing the lapels of his purple-lined jacket.
“Fascinating,” Zemo said, the word carrying genuine curiosity.
The corner of his mouth lifted slightly. It wasn’t quite a smile but an acknowledgement of something confirmed. A hypothesis proven correct. He took another step toward her, his eyes never wavering from hers, dark and knowing and terribly perceptive.
“Tell me,” he continued, voice dropping lower, “do you always black out when you use your powers, or is that reserved for special occasions? I’ve studied you extensively, and nowhere did your mother’s notes or Nicky Fury’s say that…”
Isabelle’s lungs seized, air catching in her throat. The casual precision of it—the way he’d identified exactly what she feared most—made her jaw tighten until she tasted the metallic tang of blood where her teeth had caught the inside of her cheek. A cold sweat broke across her skin, prickling at the nape of her neck.
Sam snapped first, though, breaking out of his stunned silence as he registered Zemo’s approach. The rifle in his hands shifted, not quite aiming at Zemo but no longer pointed at the floor either.
“Back off, Zemo,” he warned, the easy charm vanishing, replaced by something harder, protective.
His body slanted forward, moving toward Isabelle without crowding her, offering protection without containment. He positioned himself to keep both her and Zemo in his field of vision, shoulders squared, weight balanced on the balls of his feet.
But beneath the protective stance, Isabelle caught something else in his expression—a flicker of uncertainty. The way his eyes darted to the bodies on the floor, then back to her hands, assessing, connecting dots. This was what she’d warned him about. The thing she’d tried to explain but couldn’t quite articulate. Now he’d seen it firsthand, and she couldn’t read whether the knowledge terrified or reassured him.
Bucky circled around to her other side, completing the triangle. His eyes swept over the fallen guards, cataloging injuries with clinical precision before locking onto the exit.
“We need to move,” he said, voice low and steady. “Someone’s going to come looking for Selby and her men.” His gaze tracked to the door, calculating angles and distances, mapping potential threats. “And when they do—”
“They’ll find us standing over their corpses. Not ideal.” Zemo finished for him, eyes raking over Isabelle again.
Isabelle looked down at her hands. She tried to wipe them clean against her thighs, but the stains remained, ground into her skin like guilt made visible. Her fingers trembled with fine tremors she couldn’t control.
“I didn’t—” she started, then stopped, the words dying in her throat. What could she say that wouldn’t sound like a child’s excuse? I didn’t mean to? I didn’t know? The evidence lay sprawled across the floor—bones twisted at impossible angles, one man still twitching with nerve damage that might never heal.
She had done this. Her hands. Her power.
But something stirred in her consciousness, a realization cutting through the fog of horror. She focused on the fallen guards, watching the shallow rise and fall of their chests, the occasional twitch of fingers. Not still. Not silent.
“I didn’t kill them,” Isabelle whispered, the words scraping her throat raw. As if that distinction mattered. As if breaking bones was somehow more merciful than taking lives.
The room swayed around her, colors blurring at the edges of her vision. The night crashed through her in waves—each memory hitting harder than the last. Zemo’s fingers trailing possessively along her back as they’d entered the bar. The weight of Gold Teeth’s gaze as he’d appraised her like merchandise. Bucky’s unexpected defense. Sam’s eyes widened as he witnessed what lived beneath her skin.
And Nagel.
Nagel was here. Creating more of what her mother had started. More of what had been forced into her veins.
Her stomach lurched violently. The concrete floor beneath her seemed to tilt and pitch like the deck of a storm-tossed ship. Black spots danced at the corners of her vision, expanding and contracting with each shallow breath.
Her knees buckled without warning. Isabelle’s legs folded beneath her like wet paper, and she sank to the floor. Her palms slapped against the gritty concrete, catching her weight.
“Iz!” Sam’s voice reached her as if from a great distance, concern cutting through his earlier wariness.
Bucky moved faster, crossing the space between them in two swift strides. He crouched beside her, his movement controlled and deliberate. He kept a careful distance, not touching her, just lowering himself to her eye level. His metal hand rested on the floor between them, palm up—not reaching, just present. The vibranium plates shifted silently, recalibrating, catching the dim light.
“Breathe,” he murmured, the word barely disturbing the air. “In through your nose, out through your mouth.” His eyes held hers without judgment. Just understanding. The look of someone who’d stood exactly where she was standing now.
Isabelle tried to follow his instruction, drawing a shuddering breath that caught halfway in her lungs, but then Zemo opened his damned mouth again. Her heartbeat pounded in her ears, each pulse a hammer against her skull.
One breath. Just one.
She managed to pull oxygen through her nose, feeling it catch against the raw edges of her throat. But before she could exhale, Zemo’s voice sliced through her concentration. “Now you understand. Super soldiers are not born,” he continued, “they’re built. “
The word “built” made Isabelle flinch. Her shoulders hunched inward, spine curving as if to make herself smaller, less visible. A target folding in on itself. Her breath caught in her throat, sharp and painful.
Built. Not born. Not human. A thing assembled from parts, pieces slotted together according to someone else’s blueprint. A weapon disguised as a woman. A perfect weapon.
Sam moved between her and Zemo, his body a physical barrier. The rifle in his hands wasn’t pointed at Zemo, but his finger rested just outside the trigger guard, ready to shift in an instant.
“I said back off,” Sam growled, the words vibrating with barely contained fury. Gone was the diplomatic negotiator, replaced by something harder, sharper. His shoulders formed a perfect line, stance wide and immovable.
Zemo raised his hands in mock surrender, lips curving into something adjacent to a smile but emptied of warmth. “I’m merely stating facts, Sam.” His gaze slid past Sam to fix on Isabelle again, assessing every tremor, every shallow breath. “Your friend knows I’m right. Don’t you, Ms. Stark?”
Isabelle’s fingers curled against the concrete, nails scraping against the rough surface. The sound, high and grating, sent shivers down her spine. Green energy pulsed beneath her skin in response to her distress, pushing against her control like water testing a dam for weaknesses.
Breathe. Just breathe.
From her peripheral vision, she caught Bucky’s subtle shift. The careful distance he’d maintained collapsed as he angled his body between her and Zemo, his shoulders forming a barrier. The movement was fluid, almost predatory—a wolf positioning itself between a threat and its wounded packmate.
“One more word,” Bucky said, each syllable sharp as broken glass, “and we’ll find out if that fancy coat of yours is bulletproof.”
The threat hung in the air, vibrating with quiet intensity. Isabelle felt rather than saw the tension coiling in Bucky’s frame—the minute adjustments of muscle and tendon, the controlled rhythm of his breathing before he turned his attention back to her.
“Isabelle.” Her name in his mouth was different—rougher, weighted with understanding. The Winter Soldier’s edge had vanished, replaced by something quieter, more human. “Ignore him. Look at me.”
Bucky’s right hand—warm flesh, not cold metal—hovered near her shoulder. Close enough that she could feel the heat radiating from his skin, but not quite touching. Respecting boundaries even now, when boundaries seemed like a luxury they couldn’t afford.
She couldn’t lift her gaze. Her eyes remained fixed on her bloodstained hands. They wouldn’t stop trembling—fine, persistent tremors that rippled up her arms and settled somewhere beneath her ribcage, where they transformed into a hollow ache.
“I’ve been there,” Bucky continued, each word emerging as if pulled from somewhere deep and painful. His voice dropped lower, meant only for her ears. “I know what it’s like to wake up and not recognize your own hands.”
Isabelle raised her eyes slowly, forcing herself to meet his gaze. The effort felt monumental, as if her head were weighted with lead.
What she found wasn’t pity or disgust or fear. It was recognition. The look of someone who’d stared into the same abyss and clawed his way back, fingernail by bloody fingernail. His blue eyes held a steady certainty that anchored her, a fixed point in churning waters.
“It wasn’t you,” he said quietly, the words barely disturbing the air between them.
Isabelle’s throat tightened, her next breath catching on something sharp and painful. The back of her eyes burned with unshed tears.
“Then who was it?” she whispered, voice cracking on the final word. Her tongue felt too thick, her mouth too dry. “Because I felt it, Bucky.” Her fingers curled into fists, nails biting into her palms. “I felt—”
She broke off, the words evaporating on her tongue. The truth lodged in her throat like a shard of glass—too sharp to swallow, too dangerous to expel.
Isabelle’s jaw clenched tight as she fought against the confession building in her chest. She’d already admitted it once to Sam. And she wouldn’t say it again. Not here with Zemo’s eyes dissecting her every movement. She could feel his gaze on her now, assessing, measuring the distance between what she said and what she meant.
Bucky remained bent before her. Not demanding, not pushing—just waiting with the patience of a man who’d spent decades learning when to move and when to be still. His metal fingers remained slightly curled, ready to offer support but not insisting on it.
Sam lowered himself to one knee on her other side, his movement slow. It was the careful approach of someone who’d talked people down from ledges before. Nothing sudden. Nothing threatening.
“We need to move,” he said, voice pitched low enough that it wouldn’t carry beyond their small circle. The urgency in his tone was unmistakable, but controlled. “But first, I need to know you’re with us. That you’re...”
He hesitated, the words catching in his throat as his eyes searched her face. Isabelle saw the conflict there, the concern for her battling with the practical need to assess whether to expose her truth or keep it between the two of them.
“Present?” she supplied, a humorless smile twisting her lips.
Sam nodded once, relief flickering across his features at her coherence. His eyes never left hers, searching for something beyond her words. Something to reassure him that whoever—whatever—had broken those guards wasn’t still in control.
“I’m here,” she said, forcing strength into her voice despite the tremor that still ran through her hands. She flexed her fingers, watching the dried blood crack along her knuckles. “I’m—”
Distant shouts echoed from somewhere beyond the room’s walls, cutting her off mid-sentence. Voices raised in alarm, footsteps pounding on metal stairs. The sounds sliced through the moment, adrenaline spiking through Isabelle’s system like ice water in her veins.
“Time’s up,” Zemo announced, already moving toward the door with the unhurried confidence of a man accustomed to navigating disaster. His polished shoes stepped deliberately over Selby’s outstretched fingers, without a second glance, his movements fluid and unhurried despite the urgency. “Unless you’d like to explain to Madripoor’s underworld why their broker is dead with a bullet in her back, I suggest we leave. Now.”
The footsteps grew louder. Multiple sets now. Heavy boots.
Bucky rose in one smooth motion, offering Isabelle his hand—the metal one, gleaming dully in the low light. A choice. Trust or not.
Isabelle stared at the outstretched hand. The weapon that had killed hundreds. Maybe thousands. The hand that had been controlled by someone else, just as her own had been moments ago. The hand attached to a man who understood what it meant to wake up with blood on your fingers and gaps in your memory.
The hand that belonged to someone who understood.
She reached up and took it.
Notes:
Chapter song vibes: "Atomic" by Blondie
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They’ve escaped the kill box—but not the consequences.
Trapped in Madripoor’s neon-soaked underbelly, the bounty on their heads goes live, the Power Broker’s mercenaries close in, and Isabelle’s powers spiral into something darker. Every step forward bleeds control. Every choice chips at what’s left of her humanity.
She’s trying to hold the line.
But the voice isn’t whispering anymore.It’s screaming.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 30: Dead End
Chapter 30: Dead End
Summary:
The tunnels were supposed to be an escape. Instead, they led straight into the lion’s mouth.
Now, with bounty hunters closing in and her body on the brink of collapse, Isabelle’s power is turning against her—and the voice inside her head is getting harder to ignore. As Lowtown erupts into chaos, escape isn’t just about running faster.
It’s about surviving what she’s becoming.
Notes:
✨IT’S WEDNESDAYYYYYYYYY! You know what that means: update day, baby!!! And lucky for us all, I’ve got tomorrow off—so yes, you’re getting another update soon.
Things are about to get real spicy. The slow burn? About to ignite.ALSO, I’ve posted the second chapter of the companion fic, What Came Before! It kicks off in Iron Man 2, where Isabelle’s powers go public and Tony gets a wake-up call. Natasha also makes her grand entrance, and it was SUCH a fun chapter to write. I’ll link it in the end notes, and I hope to see you over there!!!
As always, thank you for reading, commenting, and being the absolute best. You guys seriously keep me going. 💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Living Dead Girl" by Rob Zombie
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The passage reeked of mildew and decay—layers of scents that Isabelle mentally catalogued with each inhale. Rotting food. Stagnant water. And something metallic that clung to the back of her throat, reminiscent of the med bay after missions gone sideways—that distinctive copper-penny tang of blood mixed with disinfectant.
Zemo moved ahead, his back unnaturally straight, shoulders tight beneath his coat. Not a single step wasted. Not a moment of hesitation. It was almost hypnotic watching him navigate the labyrinth of halls.
He’s too calm. Too rehearsed. Like he planned for this exact scenario.
She felt Sam’s presence behind her without looking—the controlled tension radiating off him in waves, his breathing measured but alert. Further back, Bucky’s footfalls made almost no sound at all, yet she sensed his vigilance like a physical weight against her back.
Zemo took another turn—left, then right, then right again—never breaking stride or checking his bearings. The corridor narrowed with each new passage, the ceiling dropping lower until overhead pipes forced them to duck. Water dripped somewhere ahead, an irregular plink-plink-plink that marked time in this underground maze.
“You’ve been here before,” Isabelle said. Not a question.
Zemo didn’t turn, didn’t miss a step. “I make it my business to know the escape routes before I enter a room.”
“That’s reassuring,” Sam muttered behind her, his voice pitched low. She caught his eyes when she half-turned, saw the slight furrow between his brows, the way he kept glancing back over his shoulder at the narrowing path behind them.
A rusty pipe above them groaned, releasing a shower of condensation that spattered across Isabelle’s cheek. She wiped it away, suppressing a shudder at the gritty residue left on her fingertips. The walls seemed to press closer with each step, the air thickening with mold and the distant, muffled percussion of city noise filtering down from somewhere above.
Something stirred in the back of her mind—that familiar pressure building behind her eyes. The voice. She clamped down hard, jaw tight enough to ache, refusing to let it resurface.
A faint glow appeared ahead—electric blue-purple neon bleeding through the cracks of what appeared to be another hidden door. The light cast Zemo’s silhouette in sharp relief, transforming him momentarily into something otherworldly and dangerous.
He halted abruptly, raising one finger for silence. Isabelle nearly collided with his back, catching herself at the last second. Behind her, she felt Sam tense, his hand moving subtly to her arm.
Zemo pressed his ear against the metal door, eyes half-closed in concentration. The moment stretched, elastic with tension. Three measured breaths. Four. Five.
The muscles in Isabelle’s shoulders coiled tight as wire. A drop of water landed on the back of her neck, sliding cold beneath her collar. The voice stirred again, a whisper so faint she couldn’t make out the words—just the familiar cadence that made her skin crawl.
Zemo nodded once, satisfied with whatever he’d heard—or hadn’t heard—and pushed against the exit with controlled pressure. The door gave way with a soft hydraulic hiss, revealing a slash of neon-drenched darkness beyond.
The sensory assault was immediate. Isabelle staggered as the relative quiet of the corridors exploded into Lowtown. Her enhanced perception, usually an asset, became momentarily overwhelming. Bass vibrations pulsed through the soles of her boots. The air tasted of fried food, sweat, and something chemical that burned the back of her throat.
The narrow alley they’d emerged into pulsed with neon—red, blue, yellow—from signs advertising pleasures in languages she couldn’t translate but whose meaning was universal. Bodies pressed close in the crowded space, each one radiating heat and intent. A woman with glowing facial implants brushed past, leaving the scent of jasmine in her wake.
Zemo stepped into the flow of foot traffic with practiced ease, adjusting his collar as if he’d just finished a pleasant business dinner rather than fled a bloodbath. His shoulders relaxed in a way that made Isabelle’s own tension more apparent. The contrast infuriated her.
“Stay close,” he whispered as he glanced back at them for the first time since entering the tunnel. His eyes lingered on Isabelle’s face a beat too long, assessing something she couldn’t name. “Now, we simply blend with Madripoor’s colorful denizens. Walk as if you own the street, and no one will question you.”
“That’s your brilliant plan?” Isabelle hissed, stepping closer to avoid a stumbling drunk whose breath reeked of alcohol. The man’s shoulder bumped hers, and for a split second, she felt the familiar tingle in her fingertips—the power stirring, ready to inflict sickness with a touch. She clenched her fist, suppressing the urge. “Just walk away?”
“The best escape is often the simplest,” Zemo replied, eyes constantly scanning the crowd, cataloging threats with the efficiency of a predator. “Panic makes you visible. Calm makes you—”
A chorus of electronic chimes cut through the street noise like a knife.
Isabelle froze. All around them, conversations halted mid-sentence. Drinks paused halfway to lips. A sea of hands reached for pockets and purses in eerie synchronization.
They’re looking at you. They know what you are.
“Shit,” Bucky breathed beside her, his body language shifting subtly into combat readiness.
A woman in leather—who’d been screaming at a vendor about counterfeit merchandise seconds before—turned slowly, her eyes widening as they locked on Sam. The vendor himself squinted through the neon haze, recognition dawning across his face like a spreading stain. Three sailors by a bar entrance stopped their laughter, heads swiveling in unison toward their group.
Isabelle felt it before she saw it—the collective shift in energy, the predatory focus narrowing on them from all sides. Her heartbeat quickened, and with it, the tingling sensation spread from her fingertips up her arms. The power humming beneath her skin, ready and eager.
You’ll have to use me again.
She pushed the voice away, focusing instead on the exits, the bottlenecks, the potential weapons within reach. Her body was already cataloging threats and escape routes before her conscious mind caught up—muscle memory from years of training.
“What’s happening?” Sam whispered, shoulders tensing as he shifted closer to Isabelle. His hand hovered near where his weapon would be if they hadn’t been forced to abandon most of their gear.
“Technology,” Zemo replied, his smug demeanor evaporating. “The bounty just went live.”
“Bounty?” Isabelle’s mouth went dry. She noticed a man to her right—hand sliding beneath his jacket, eyes never leaving Sam’s face. Without thinking, she shifted her weight, ready to intercept. “What bounty?”
“The one on our heads.” Zemo’s eyes darted between exits, calculating. “Selby’s associates work quickly. ”
The crowd was tightening around them—not pressing closer yet, but repositioning. Isabelle felt her power surge in response to the threat, a tingling heat that made her skin feel too tight.
They pivoted as one, abandoning any pretense of casual strolling. The crowd parted before them—not from courtesy but from recognition, faces transforming from indifference to interest in the span of a heartbeat. Phones were raised to capture images, to confirm identities against the bounty notifications.
Isabelle felt the first tendril of panic wrap around her chest, squeezing. The voice grew louder, more insistent, as if feeding off her fear.
They’re closing in. You need me. Let me out.
“Run,” Bucky growled, “now.”
But they couldn’t run.
The crowd had parted to reveal not an escape route but a killing floor, methodically arranged around them. Her muscles tensed, power humming beneath her skin like a live wire seeking ground.
The first bounty hunter stood directly in their path, pistol already leveled. Isabelle’s gaze traveled up from the barrel—matte black, professional grade, not some street thug’s weapon—to the hands holding it. Steady. No tremor. Their fingers were positioned with practiced precision on both grip and trigger—military training, or something equivalent. The man’s face revealed nothing—no excitement, no fear, just the flat calculation of someone completing a transaction.
“Three o’clock!” Sam’s voice cut through her focus, urgent but controlled.
Isabelle pivoted without hesitation, catching movement in her peripheral vision. Another mercenary materialized from between two neon-drenched storefronts, weapon already raised.
“Six o’clock,” Bucky added. His body shifted almost imperceptibly, weight transferring to the balls of his feet.
She didn’t need to look to sense them at their backs. Four more, their presence registering as pressure points on her awareness. The tingling in her fingertips intensified, spreading up her arms like fire beneath her skin. The voice in her head grew louder, more insistent.
Use me. Let me out.
“Options?” Sam muttered. His shoulders tensed beneath his jacket, hands slightly raised in a deceptively casual posture she recognized as his pre-fight stance. Ready to explode into action the moment an opening presented itself.
Zemo’s voice was barely audible, his accent thickening with tension. “None that don’t end with bullets.”
The lead mercenary stepped forward, rifle trained on Bucky’s chest. His movements were fluid, economical. A professional killer who’d done this dozens, maybe hundreds of times before. His eyes performed a quick assessment of each of them, lingering fractionally longer on Bucky’s metal arm.
“Power Broker wants you alive,” he announced, voice flat as a desert. His eyes flicked briefly to Isabelle, calculating something that made her skin crawl. “But damaged works too.”
Isabelle felt her heart rate accelerate, the familiar chemical surge of adrenaline flooding her system. With it came the power—eager, hungry, pushing against her control like water against a cracking dam. She curled her fingers into her palms, nails biting into flesh, using the small pain to anchor herself.
“Power Broker?” Sam muttered under his breath. “Who the hell is that?”
The question hung in the neon-tinted air for a heartbeat before Zemo answered, his voice so low that only they could hear it. “The one person in Madripoor you never want to cross.” His eyes scanned the gathering mercenaries. “Not the legal owner of this cesspool, but the true one. Rules through fear and absolute control of information. And apparently—” he tilted his head slightly toward the armed figures surrounding them “—we’ve managed to thoroughly piss them off.”
“Great,” Sam breathed. “Another psychopath with resources. Just what we needed.”
The lead mercenary took another step forward, the barrel of his gun unwavering. Isabelle tracked the minute adjustments of his trigger finger—relaxed but ready, the practiced ease of someone who’d killed many times before. “Hands where I can see them. On your knees. Now.”
Isabelle caught Bucky’s eye for a fraction of a second, enough to see the minute shake of his head—don’t.
But the voice in her head was louder than him.
Don’t hold back, the voice whispered, seductive and eager.
Isabelle inhaled slowly, focusing on the lead mercenary’s face—the pores of his skin, the slight flare of his nostrils, the steady rhythm of his breathing. Her power stirred beneath her skin, electric and alive, humming through her veins like a current seeking ground.
“I won’t ask again,” the man said, voice dropping an octave. “On. Your. Knees.”
She narrowed her eyes, establishing the connection. It was like threading a needle with her mind—delicate, precise, but once connected, unbreakable. She visualized infection spreading through his airways, inflammation blooming like dark flowers along the soft tissues. Just enough pressure to incapacitate. Not enough to kill.
Deeper, the voice urged, its presence coiling around her thoughts like smoke. He deserves worse.
“No,” she thought back fiercely. Her choice. Her power. Her control.
The first sign was subtle—a flicker of confusion crossing the mercenary’s face, his brow furrowing slightly as something changed inside him. Then his breathing hitched. Once. Twice. His next inhale caught halfway, transforming into a wet, hacking cough that bent him forward at the waist.
“What the—” The mercenary’s words dissolved into violent coughing, each hack more desperate than the last. His rifle wavered, the barrel dipping toward the ground as his body convulsed. He dropped to one knee, still clutching his weapon, but the threat had evaporated like water on hot metal.
Sam’s voice cut through her concentration: “Izzy—”
She pivoted without waiting for him to finish, locking eyes with the closest mercenary—a woman with a geometric tattoo snaking up her neck like circuit board traces. The woman’s finger was already tightening on her trigger.
Isabelle pushed harder this time, the power flowing more readily, like a dam breaking. She visualized something more aggressive—viral, efficient, targeting the respiratory system with surgical precision.
Sharper, the voice coached, almost purring with pleasure. Faster.
Her eyes flickered darker green—she could feel the change, a deepening of color that always accompanied stronger manifestations. The mercenary’s eyes widened a fraction of a second before her knees buckled. Her weapon clattered to the ground, forgotten as survival instinct overrode training. She collapsed against a neon-bathed wall, still conscious but incapacitated, choking.
Isabelle spun, already focusing on the four approaching figures. They slowed, uncertainty replacing confidence as they witnessed their comrades dropping. One raised his rifle, finger tightening on the trigger. Another reached for something at his belt—grenade or smoke bomb, she couldn’t tell.
Let me take them all, the voice purred, louder now, more insistent. Give me control. Let me show you what we can really do.
“No,” she snapped aloud, her voice raw.
Her nostrils flared as she inhaled sharply, drawing on every ounce of control she had left. The tingling in her fingertips intensified to burning, power crawling up her arms like fire ants beneath her skin. She narrowed her eyes, focusing on all four simultaneously.
She pushed her power outward in a wave, controlled but forceful, like a scalpel rather than a sledgehammer. The air between them rippled with faint green energy, visible only for a millisecond before it struck.
All four mercenaries staggered simultaneously, as if hit by an invisible wall. Their expressions transformed in unison—confusion, then panic, then pain as their bodies betrayed them. The first dropped to his knees, vomiting violently. The second clutched his chest, face contorting as his lungs seized. The third and fourth managed a few stumbling steps backward before collapsing, unconscious, before they hit the ground.
Isabelle swayed, the edges of her vision darkening like ink spreading through water. The alley tilted sideways, neon signs blurring into streaks of color. She locked her knees, refusing to fall. The power that had surged through her moments before now ebbed away, leaving her hollow and scraped raw.
Something warm trickled down her upper lip—punishment. The voice inside her lashed out with physical consequence, a sharp pain stabbing behind her eyes that made her vision swim.
You could have killed them all in seconds, the voice whispered, disappointed.
She swiped at her nose with the back of her hand, the metallic scent hitting her nostrils before she registered the crimson streak across her skin. The blood was darker than usual, almost black in the neon light. It spread across her knuckles, following the lines of her hand like a roadmap.
Pathetic. The voice twisted inside her skull, pressing against the tender tissue of her brain. Another hot rush of blood followed, dripping onto her upper lip and sliding into the corner of her mouth.
She swallowed the copper taste flooding her mouth and turned to find Sam staring at her. His eyes were wide, muscles tensed as if preparing to catch her, or defend against her. The look cut deeper than she expected. Not fear exactly, but caution. Reassessment. As if he was seeing her capabilities for the first time and recalculating the threat she posed.
“We need to get out of the streets,” Zemo cut in, his voice unnervingly calm despite the bodies surrounding them. His gaze swept over her handiwork with clinical detachment, almost appreciation. “They’ll know exactly who you are now, what you can do. And Avengers aren’t welcome here.”
Isabelle took a step forward. Her leg nearly buckled, muscles trembling with sudden fatigue. She caught herself against the nearest wall, fingertips pressing into the grimy surface. The rough texture anchored her, something solid in a world that wouldn’t stop spinning.
Weak, the voice mocked, its tone like glass shards scraping inside her skull.
“Shut up,” she hissed under her breath.
“What?” Sam asked, moving closer, his hand hovering near her elbow without touching—always careful with contact now.
“Nothing.” She straightened, pushing away from the wall through sheer force of will.
Lie better. He’s not stupid.
Bucky stepped closer, his metal fingers flexing once before stilling at his side. His eyes tracked the dark rivulet of blood that had escaped the corner of her mouth, following its path down her chin. Not disgust in his gaze—something worse. Recognition.
“Can you walk?” he asked, voice pitched low enough that only she could hear. The question wasn’t accusatory, just practical. Tactical.
“I’m fine,” she lied, swallowing another mouthful of blood that tasted like pennies and rust. Her throat constricted around it, muscles working against the urge to gag. “Just the usual kickback.”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed fractionally, the minute shift in his expression speaking volumes. A muscle in his jaw twitched as he held her gaze. He didn’t believe her—of course, he didn’t. The man had spent decades learning to read the slightest tells in a target’s face, to spot weakness before it became vulnerability. And right now, Isabelle was nothing but vulnerability wrapped in false bravado.
But he nodded once, and respecting her choice to push through, to maintain the facade of strength when they both knew better.
Without wasting more time, they plunged deeper into Lowtown’s maze. Isabelle pushed forward on legs that felt like they belonged to someone else—disconnected, unreliable, trembling with each step. The voice pulsed behind her eyes, a persistent drumbeat of mockery.
You’re slowing them down. You’re going to get them killed.
Zemo led them away from the main thoroughfare, veering sharply into a narrow side street where the buildings pressed so close they blocked out what little sky was visible. The walls seemed to breathe here, expanding and contracting with each labored breath she took.
“We need to get off the grid,” Zemo murmured, his eyes darting between shadowed doorways. “The Power Broker’s network extends to every—”
“Get down!” Bucky’s voice cut through the fog in her mind, sharp as a blade.
Before her brain could process the command, his hand clamped around her bicep, warm flesh fingers digging into her skin with enough force to bruise. The world tilted violently as he yanked her sideways.
Isabelle’s stomach lurched as Bucky tackled her into a narrow alley, his larger frame curving protectively over hers. Her shoulder hit the ground first, the impact sending a jolt of pain up her neck and into her skull. Concrete scraped her palms raw as she instinctively tried to catch herself, the sting immediate and familiar.
The bullets came a half-second later.
Three shots in rapid succession slammed into the brick wall where they’d been standing moments before. The impacts were deafening in the confined space, each one sending fragments of masonry exploding outward in deadly clouds. Brick dust rained down, coating her hair and eyelashes with gritty red particles that tasted like chalk and metal when she gasped.
Bucky’s weight pressed against her back, solid and secure. His chest expanded against her shoulder blades with each controlled breath, his heart hammering a rhythm she could feel through her spine. His metal arm braced beside her head, the vibranium plates recalibrating with soft mechanical whispers. His other hand had somehow moved from her bicep to her waist, fingers splayed across her ribs in a grip that was both protective and unexpectedly intimate.
“Move!” Sam’s voice cut through the ringing in her ears. He materialized at the mouth of the alley, back pressed against the wall, eyes scanning for the shooter.
Isabelle’s gaze locked with Bucky’s as he shifted above her. His eyes were winter-blue and intense, pupils contracted to pinpoints from adrenaline. Something electric passed between them in that suspended moment—recognition, concern, and something else that made her breath catch in her throat. His face was inches from hers, close enough that she could see the faint stubble along his jaw, count the individual eyelashes framing those too-perceptive eyes.
Then his expression hardened, mission focus reasserting itself with practiced efficiency.
“Come on,” he commanded, voice rough with urgency. He rolled smoothly to his feet in a single fluid motion, metal hand reaching down to clasp her forearm.
The vibranium fingers wrapped around her with careful strength, lifting her upright with enough force that her shoulder socket protested with a sharp twinge. Isabelle kicked off her heels without hesitation, the expensive stilettos skittering across filthy pavement with twin clicks that seemed obscenely loud in the momentary quiet.
Her bare feet connected with the ground—cold, gritty, slick with substances she didn’t want to identify—as they bolted down the alley. Isabelle pushed forward, but her body betrayed her with each labored stride. Her muscles turned to wet cement, unresponsive and heavy. The edges of her vision constricted.
“Shit,” she muttered as her foot caught on an uneven seam in the pavement. Her ankle twisted, sending her pitching forward into the darkness.
Strong hands caught her before she hit the ground—one warm flesh, one cool metal. Bucky’s grip tightened around her bicep, steadying her with effortless strength. His jaw clenched, a muscle twitching beneath the stubble. His metal fingers flexed once, plates recalibrating with a soft whir that she felt more than heard. “This isn’t just exhaustion.”
“Just—” She swallowed, tasting metal and salt. Her tongue felt swollen, clumsy. “Just need a minute.”
“Yeah, we don’t really have a minute.” Bucky’s eyes flicked ahead to where Sam had taken point, already fifteen feet ahead and gesturing frantically for them to hurry. The distant shouts grew louder—more hunters closing in, the promise of violence echoing off concrete walls.
Isabelle shot Bucky a hard look and tried to push forward, stubbornly shrugging off his grip. Her next steps betrayed her as the adrenaline crash hit like a concrete wall. The alley spun violently, neon signs smearing into toxic streaks of color. Buildings tilted at impossible angles. Her stomach lurched, bile rising to mix with the blood coating her throat.
“Damn it,” Bucky muttered, the words more breath than voice. Before she could protest, his flesh hand closed around hers, warm and calloused and startlingly gentle. “Hold my hand!”
“I don’t need—”
“Shut up!” His tone left no room for argument, but something softened in his eyes—concern wrapped in barbed wire, vulnerability disguised as irritation. His fingers tightened around hers, an anchor in the spinning world. “You push too hard and you’ll collapse. Then I’ll have to carry you, and neither of us wants that.”
The feeling of his grip sent an unexpected current up her arm. His palm pressed against hers, rough in all the places hers was smooth, steady where hers trembled. His thumb unconsciously traced a small arc across her knuckles, the gesture so subtle she might have imagined it.
Isabelle wanted to argue, to pull away and prove she could handle this herself. But the blood now dripping freely from her nose told a different story. Her powers had exacted their toll, and her body was calling in the debt with interest.
This is what happens when you fight me, the voice taunted, each syllable like a nail driven into her temples. Next time, it’ll be worse.
They moved deeper into the maze of Lowtown’s back alleys, Sam fifteen paces ahead, scouting each turn before waving them forward. Bucky’s hand remained firm around hers, guiding her through the darkness with surprising gentleness for a man who’d once been the world’s deadliest assassin.
“Fuck this—” Isabelle spat, each word punctuated by the slap of her bare feet against wet concrete. “—fuck this entire night—”
Another spray of bullets tore chunks from the brick wall inches above their heads. The impacts sent brick dust raining down, coating her eyelashes and filling her mouth with the taste of pulverized stone. Her heart hammered against her ribs like it was trying to escape.
“—fuck Madripoor,” she continued, voice rising with each syllable, anger building like pressure in a sealed chamber. The rage felt good, clean, and clarifying compared to the murky terror of the voice still whispering at the edges of her consciousness.
She risked a glance over her shoulder, scanning the space behind them. Empty air where Zemo should have been. The baron had vanished like smoke, leaving no trace he’d ever been with them.
“And where the fuck is Zemo!”
Sam’s head whipped around, eyes widening as he registered the baron’s absence. His expression shifted from determination to something darker, more dangerous. “That son of a—”
The crack of a rifle cut his curse short, the sound bouncing between the narrow walls like a physical thing. Isabelle flinched as the bullet punched into the dumpster beside them, metal screaming against metal. The impact sent a vibration through the ground that she felt through her bare feet.
“Left!” Bucky commanded, metal arm gleaming as he took point at the intersection. His body was coiled in tension, ready to explode into violence at any moment.
Isabelle followed, her hand still locked in his as they veered left. Bucky’s fingers tightened around hers as he pulled her forward, the pressure both reassuring and urgent. The contrast between his warm flesh and her clammy skin made her acutely aware of how rapidly her body was failing her.
Behind them, footsteps thundered against pavement—too many to count, a percussion of pursuit that grew louder with each second. The voice in her head seemed to pulse in rhythm with those footsteps, growing stronger as her own strength ebbed.
“They’re herding us,” Sam panted from just ahead, dodging a stack of rotting crates that nearly blocked the narrow passage. His shoulders barely cleared the walls on either side. The alley was constricting, narrowing with each turn like a throat closing. “We need to split up.”
“Bad idea,” Bucky countered, never breaking stride. He jumped over a fallen trash bin with fluid grace, then turned back, his hand still gripping Isabelle’s, helping her navigate the obstacle. His eyes met hers for a fraction of a second, concern flickering behind the tactical assessment. “Stay together.”
A bullet screamed past Isabelle’s ear. Her fingers tightened around Bucky’s instinctively, nails digging into his palm. His hand was warm, solid—the only thing that felt real as the world began to blur around her edges. His calloused palm pressed against hers, rough but oddly comforting, like a promise made in a language without words.
Use me. The voice surged again, stronger this time. Let me take control.
Another wave of dizziness hit her, and she stumbled, her free hand reaching out to steady herself against the grimy wall. The brick scraped her palm raw, but the pain helped focus her thoughts, pushing the voice back momentarily.
Isabelle swiped at her face with her forearm, leaving a dark smear across her skin. The blood was too dark, almost black in the dim light. Wrong. Her body was breaking down from the inside out, punishment for wielding power without surrendering control.
“Guys—” she started, but the word died in her throat as they burst from the narrow passage into an open space.
The alley widened abruptly into what might have once been a loading dock, now abandoned and cluttered with years of urban detritus. Broken pallets. Rusted machinery parts. Shattered glass that glittered like malevolent stars in the dim light. And beyond that—nothing. A solid wall of corrugated metal rose fifteen feet high, topped with razor wire that gleamed dully in the distant neon glow.
Dead end.
Notes:
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Cornered. Bleeding. No way out.
Trapped between concrete walls and the ocean, Isabelle, Bucky, and Sam face the full weight of the Power Broker’s wrath. With her powers fading and Zemo gone, Isabelle makes a choice that could cost her everything. Blood hits the pavement. And the voice in her head isn’t done with her yet.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 31: Trigger Discipline
Chapter 31: Trigger Discipline
Summary:
Cornered and outgunned in a dead-end alley, Isabelle, Bucky, and Sam must make a desperate stand against the Power Broker’s men. But with Isabelle drained and bleeding, their odds are razor-thin—and when a hidden sniper takes aim, only one decision can change the outcome. A knife is thrown. A shot is fired. And someone doesn’t walk away.
Notes:
Hey guys! I meant to post this earlier, but my anxiety kinda took over today and I totally blanked—whoops. But I’m so excited to finally share this chapter with you! It’s a big one and I can’t wait to hear what you think. 💀💔
Heads up: I won’t be able to update again until Sunday, but I hope this one holds you over ‘til then!
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Love is to Die" by Warpaint
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Chapter Text
They stood in a small lot bordered on three sides by windowless buildings that stretched upward like prison walls. No fire escapes. No doorways. No windows. Just blank concrete faces staring down at them with indifferent hostility. The fourth side was blocked by a chain-link fence topped with cruel coils of razor wire that gleamed like silver teeth in the dim light. Beyond it: the ocean.
Sam spun in a tight circle, eyes scanning desperately for an exit. “Shit!” he breathed, sweat streaming down his temples despite the chill. “They knew exactly where we’d end up.”
A metallic clang echoed from the alley entrance. Footsteps. Multiple sets.
“They’re coming,” Isabelle whispered, her throat tightening. She could feel her power stirring beneath her skin, but it was weak, flickering like a dying flame. She’d pushed too hard earlier. Used too much.
Bucky’s hand tightened around Isabelle’s, his thumb brushing once across her knuckles—the gesture so brief and gentle it felt like an apology. His eyes met hers, blue and resolute.
“I can get us over that,” he said, nodding toward the fence. His gaze dropped to her bare, bloodied feet. “Don’t know how you feel about swimming.”
Isabelle glanced at the razor wire, then at the dark water beyond. “Better than dying in a box.” She squeezed his hand back, ignoring the pain shooting up her legs.
“And then what?” Sam challenged, backing toward them as shadows materialized at the alley entrance. “We’re still outnumbered, and Isabelle’s—”
Drained. Compromised. A liability.
Isabelle bristled, anger flaring hot beneath her exhaustion. The words Sam hadn’t said hung in the air between them, sharp as broken glass.
“I’m what, Sam?” she snapped, pulling her hand from Bucky’s grip. The absence of his warmth left her fingers cold in the night air as she stepped toward Sam. “Go ahead. Say it.”
Sam’s jaw tightened, the muscles working beneath his skin. His eyes—usually warm with understanding—hardened as they flicked to her bloody footprints on the concrete.
“You can barely stand, Isabelle.” He spat harshly. “Your feet are torn to hell. I can see you shaking. And after what happened back at the club...” He exhaled sharply. “Look, I’m not saying you’re—”
“A liability?” She laughed, a harsh sound that scraped her throat raw. “You think I don’t know that? You think I can’t feel exactly how useless I am right now?” The words tasted bitter on her tongue. Her power flickered beneath her skin like a pilot light threatening to go out, making her nauseous with the effort of keeping it contained.
“Nobody said useless.” Bucky moved between them, his broad shoulders blocking Sam from her view. His eyes found hers, steady and certain. “But we need options, not arguments.”
“Options?” Sam’s laugh was hollow as he gestured at the concrete walls boxing them in. “What options? They herded us here like cattle. They’ve got us exactly where they want us.” He jabbed a finger toward the alley they’d come through. “And Zemo ditched us the second things went sideways. Told you we couldn’t trust him.”
The shadows at the alley entrance solidified into figures—six, no, seven silhouettes moving with military precision. The scrape of boots against concrete echoed in the enclosed space.
“They don’t want us dead,” Bucky observed, his voice dropping to a tactical whisper as he shifted closer to Isabelle. “Not yet. Otherwise, they’d have just bombed this place with us in it.”
“So comforting,” Isabelle muttered, swallowing against the dryness in her throat.
Sam moved closer, forming a tight triangle between the three of them. “If we go over that fence, we’re exposed. They’ll pick us off before we hit the water.”
“If we stay here, we’re fish in a barrel,” Bucky countered, his metal arm whirring softly as he clenched his fist.
“We could surrender,” Sam suggested, though his expression made clear how little he liked the idea. The lines around his eyes deepened. “Buy time. Figure out what this Power Broker dude wants.”
“The asshole wants to kill us,” Isabelle shook her head. “They bring us to whoever this Power Broker is, we’re dead.”
Before Sam could respond, the first mercenary stepped fully into view at the mouth of the alley, rifle raised to his shoulder. The red targeting laser cut through the darkness, dancing across Sam’s chest. Two more flanked him, spreading out in practiced formation, weapons at the ready.
Isabelle’s breath caught as the leader stepped forward. His face was half-hidden beneath tactical gear, but his eyes were visible—cold, calculating, with none of the wild aggression of the men who’d chased them earlier.
“Hands where I can see them,” the leader called, his voice flat and emotionless.
Bucky shifted imperceptibly closer to Isabelle, his shoulder brushing against hers. She felt the subtle press of something cold and metal being slipped into her palm—a small knife, hidden from the mercenaries’ view by their bodies.
“What’s the play?” Sam whispered, barely moving his lips as he slowly raised his hands.
The leader took another step forward, the red dot of his laser sight now centered on Isabelle’s forehead. She could feel its heat like a brand against her skin, promising death with the slightest twitch of his finger.
“I said hands where I can see them!” the leader barked, all pretense of calm evaporating as spittle flew from his mouth. The red targeting laser trembled slightly against Isabelle’s forehead—not from fear, she realized, but from anticipation.
Isabelle’s fingers closed around the knife in her palm. The metal warmed against her skin, Bucky’s body heat still clinging to the handle. Her pulse thundered in her ears, drowning out everything but the rush of blood and the shallow scrape of her breathing.
“Last warning,” the leader called, his voice dropping to something almost conversational. Behind him, his men spread wider, rifles raised to cheekbones, eyes cold behind tactical gear. “We know who you are.”
Sam’s shoulders tensed beside her. She could feel the calculations running through his mind—the same ones racing through hers. Seven armed men. Three of them. One fence. Open water beyond.
No good options.
“We’ve got about three seconds before they open fire,” Bucky murmured, his breath warm against her ear. “When I move, you move.”
Isabelle gave the slightest nod, not daring to speak. The knife felt impossibly small against the arsenal pointed at them. Her power flickered beneath her skin—a guttering candle, nearly spent. She might have enough for one burst, one desperate push, but after that...
The leader’s finger tightened on his trigger. Isabelle saw the minute shift in the tendons of his hand, the slight narrowing of his eyes. Time stretched like taffy, each heartbeat an eternity.
“Now!” Bucky’s voice sliced through the tension.
His arm whipped forward in a blur of motion, too fast for human eyes to track. The knife spun through the air—a silver streak cutting through darkness—and buried itself with a wet thunk in the leader’s collarbone, just above his body armor.
The man screamed, a high, animal sound of shock and pain. His rifle clattered to the ground as his hands flew to the knife protruding from his flesh, blood already darkening his tactical vest.
Isabelle lunged forward on instinct. The concrete scraped her soles raw, but adrenaline dulled the worst of it. Her fingers closed around the fallen rifle before it hit the ground, the metal still warm from the leader’s grip. It was heavier than she expected—solid, deadly, and unfamiliar in her hands.
Without hesitation, she spun the weapon, gripping it by the barrel. One clean movement—she brought it down hard across her knee. The crack of splitting metal echoed through the lot as the rifle broke, rendering it useless. Plastic components clattered to the ground at her feet.
The leader stared at her, eyes wide with shock and pain, blood pulsing around Bucky’s knife still embedded in his collarbone. His mouth worked soundlessly, disbelief written across his features.
Isabelle reached forward, wrapping her fingers around the knife handle. The leader’s eyes locked with hers, pleading, suddenly human. She hesitated for half a heartbeat.
“Sorry,” she whispered, then yanked the blade free.
Blood sprayed in a warm arc across her face. The leader screamed, a high, animal sound that cut through the night air as he clutched at the wound.
“Watch out!” Bucky’s voice sliced through her consciousness like a blade.
His body slammed into hers from the side, the impact knocking the air from her lungs. They hit the ground together as bullets tore through the space where she’d been standing. Concrete chips exploded upward, peppering her skin with tiny, burning fragments.
Something hot grazed her cheek—a bullet passing close enough to kiss. Pain bloomed across her face, sharp and immediate. Warm wetness trickled down to her jaw.
She rolled with Bucky’s momentum, feeling the solid strength of him against her for one brief second before they separated. Her shoulder hit the ground hard. She scrambled into a crouch behind a stack of wooden pallets, splintered and weathered from exposure.
Through the gaps in the wood, she saw Sam launch himself at the nearest mercenary—a blur of controlled fury. His shoulder connected with the man’s sternum with a dull thud. The rifle discharged wildly, bullets spraying toward the night sky as both men crashed to the ground, Sam’s weight driving the mercenary into the concrete.
Bucky was already moving. One moment beside her, the next melting into the deeper darkness at the edge of the lot. She caught only glimpses of him—a flash of metal arm reflecting moonlight, the whisper of combat boots against concrete, a strangled cry quickly silenced.
Two men dropped in quick succession, their bodies hitting the ground with heavy thuds before they even realized what was happening.
A mercenary stumbled backward toward her position, trying to get clear of Sam’s assault. She saw her chance.
Isabelle burst from cover, driving her shoulder into the back of the man’s knees. The impact sent a jarring shock up her spine, but the man buckled, dropping to one knee with a startled grunt. He twisted, faster than she’d anticipated, swinging his rifle in a wide arc. Isabelle ducked, the weapon whistling over her head close enough to stir her hair. She lunged forward, driving her palm into his wrist with a sharp crack. The rifle clattered sideways, skidding across the concrete.
“You little—” he snarled, reaching for the combat knife at his belt.
Isabelle moved on instinct, her body following the patterns Natasha had drilled into her over countless brutal training sessions. Lower center of gravity. Use their momentum. Anticipate, don’t react. She stepped inside his guard, her fingers closing around his wrist before he could fully draw the knife.
“Not today,” she hissed, twisting his arm at an unnatural angle.
The mercenary howled as tendons strained against bone. The knife fell from his grip, and Isabelle snatched it from the air with her free hand, the weight familiar and deadly in her palm. She drove her forehead into the bridge of his nose with a sickening crunch.
Pain exploded across her skull, white-hot and disorienting. She gasped, stumbling backward as stars burst behind her eyes. Her vision swam, doubling momentarily as blood from her split eyebrow trickled into her eye. That’s not how Nat made it look.
The mercenary staggered but didn’t fall, blood streaming from his shattered nose. His eyes narrowed to slits of pure hatred as he reached for the sidearm holstered at his thigh.
Isabelle feinted right, then pivoted left, her body moving in a fluid, deadly arc. The knife in her hand flashed as she slashed upward, catching the underside of the mercenary’s wrist just as his fingers closed around the pistol.
He hissed in pain but didn’t drop his weapon. Blood dripped from the shallow cut, spattering the concrete between them. His lips curled into a grin, teeth white in the darkness as he raised his gun again. She met him halfway, ducking under his wild swing. The knife found its mark between his ribs—a quick, vicious thrust. She felt the blade scrape bone, catch on fabric, then sink deeper. The mercenary grunted, more surprised than pained.
His fist connected with her face before she could pull back. Stars exploded behind her eyes as pain radiated from her cheekbone. She staggered, nearly losing her grip on the knife, the taste of copper flooding her mouth.
The mercenary pulled free of her blade, blood darkening his tactical vest. He advanced again, face twisted with rage, weapon raised.
“Little bitch,” he spat, finger tightening on the trigger.
The last barrier holding back what remained of her power fell. It rushed through her veins like ice water, making her gasp. The familiar green glow crawled up her arms, dim and flickering but present. She threw out her hand, palm forward, and pushed.
The mercenary froze mid-step. His eyes widened as blood vessels burst, turning the whites crimson. The pistol clattered from his fingers as he dropped to his knees, clutching at his throat, gasping for air that wouldn’t come.
Across the lot, Sam and Bucky had found each other, standing back-to-back as they faced the remaining attackers. Three mercenaries circled them, weapons raised.
Sam moved first, ducking low and sweeping the legs out from under the closest attacker. As the man fell, Sam stripped the weapon from his hands in one fluid movement, tossing it aside.
Bucky pivoted, catching another mercenary by the throat. His metal arm whirred softly as he lifted the man off his feet, then slammed him into the concrete wall with enough force to crack the surface. The mercenary slid to the ground, unmoving.
The third attacker opened fire, bullets cutting through the air toward them. Bucky’s metal arm came up, deflecting the worst of it. Sparks flew as bullets ricocheted off the vibranium surface. He angled his body, shielding Sam for a crucial moment.
Isabelle’s power guttered out, leaving her hollow and trembling. She staggered backward, catching herself against a stack of pallets as her vision swam. The mercenary she’d taken down lay motionless at her feet.
A coldness slithered down her spine. Her eyes darted to the shadows at the far edge of the lot, where the chain-link fence met the concrete wall.
Movement.
A figure crouched in the darkness, separate from the main fight. The mercenary had positioned himself behind a stack of rusted oil drums, his rifle braced against his shoulder. The weapon’s barrel gleamed dully as he adjusted his aim with practiced precision.
Following the line of sight, Isabelle’s heart stuttered.
Sam.
The rifle was aimed directly at Sam’s back as he grappled with one of the remaining attackers. He was completely exposed, unaware of the deadly threat lurking in the shadows. Bucky was engaged with two mercenaries, his attention divided, his back to the hidden shooter.
The world around Isabelle compressed to a single, terrible moment of clarity. She saw the mercenary’s finger tighten on the trigger. Saw the minute adjustment as he tracked Sam’s movement. Saw the shallow breath he took to steady his aim.
Kill shot.
Her body moved before her mind could process the decision. One second she was leaning against the pallets, the next she was running—sprinting across the concrete.
“Sam!” The name tore from her throat, raw and desperate.
Twenty feet away. Fifteen. Ten.
Time stretched. She could see the individual droplets of sweat on Sam’s neck as he turned toward her voice, confusion etching across his features. Could see Bucky’s head whipping around, eyes widening as he registered the threat too late. Could see the mercenary’s finger completing its squeeze on the trigger.
The crack of the rifle split the night.
Isabelle slammed into Sam’s body, shoving him sideways with every ounce of strength she possessed. His surprised grunt was lost beneath the sound of her own gasp as the bullet found her instead—a white-hot poker punching through her side, just below her ribs.
The impact spun her half-around, her body suddenly heavy and uncooperative. She stumbled, one hand instinctively pressing against the wound. Warm wetness seeped between her fingers, shocking in its abundance.
“Isabelle!” Sam’s voice sounded distant.
The second shot came before she could respond. This one caught her higher, tearing through her chest with devastating force. The pain was so immediate, so absolute, it transcended itself, becoming a strange, buzzing numbness that spread outward from the center of her being.
Her knees buckled. The concrete rushed up to meet her, but strong arms caught her before she hit the ground. Sam’s face swam into focus above her, his features contorted with horror and disbelief.
“No, no, no,” he was saying, the words tumbling over each other as he lowered her to the ground. “Stay with me, Isabelle. Eyes open.”
She tried to speak, but something wet bubbled in her throat instead. The taste of copper flooded her mouth, metallic and warm. She could feel it spilling from the corner of her lips, tracking a hot path down her chin.
“Bucky!” Sam’s voice cracked as he shouted over his shoulder. “She’s hit! Bad!”
Isabelle’s vision tunneled, the edges going dark and fuzzy. She could hear the continued sounds of fighting—grunts, the impact of fists against flesh, a strangled scream that cut off abruptly. Bucky must have found the shooter.
Sam’s hands pressed against her wounds, the pressure sending fresh waves of agony through her body. She arched upward, a choked sound escaping her throat.
“I know, I know,” Sam murmured, his voice gentler now but threaded with panic. “I’ve got to stop the bleeding. Stay with me.”
Her head lolled to the side, cheek pressed against the rough concrete. From this angle, she could see Bucky sprinting toward them, his face a mask of cold fury that melted into naked fear as he dropped to his knees beside her.
“How bad?” he asked, though the answer was written in the spreading pool beneath her.
Sam didn’t respond. His hands were slick with her blood, pressing desperately against wounds that wouldn’t stop flowing. “We need to move her. Now.”
Isabelle tried to focus on Bucky’s face as he leaned over her. His blue eyes were wide, pupils dilated with adrenaline and fear. She wanted to tell him it was okay. That she’d make this choice again in a heartbeat, that saving Sam was worth whatever came next.
But when she tried to speak, only a wet, rattling sound emerged. Something was wrong inside her chest—a terrible, liquid sensation with each shallow breath.
“Don’t try to talk,” Bucky said, his metal hand surprisingly gentle as he brushed hair from her face. “Just breathe. We’re getting you out of here.”
Sam’s face appeared beside Bucky’s, his features tight with determination that couldn’t quite mask his terror. “I’m going to lift you now. It’s going to hurt, but we have to move.”
As Sam slid his arms beneath her, Isabelle’s vision swam, darkness encroaching from all sides. The pain was receding now, replaced by a spreading coldness that crept from her extremities toward her core. She knew what that meant. Had felt it once before, in another life.
Her gaze locked with Bucky’s as Sam lifted her. His eyes held hers, refusing to let go—as if through sheer will alone, he could keep her tethered to this world.
“Stay with me,” Bucky whispered, the words meant only for her. “Please, Isabelle. Stay.”
But the darkness was pulling harder now, an insistent tide she couldn’t fight. Her eyelids grew impossibly heavy. The last thing she saw was Bucky’s face, contorted with a grief so raw it seemed to transcend the moment, as if he’d lived this loss before and couldn’t bear to experience it again.
Then the darkness swallowed her whole.
Februrary 10th, 2005 – 2:02 PM
Green-Wood Cemetery, Brooklyn
The sky was too blue, too bright, like it didn’t give a damn about what was happening below. The wind cut through Isabelle’s thin blazer, sharp and clean, carrying the scent of freshly turned earth and the faint antiseptic smell of funeral flowers.
Laura Proctor’s funeral was small. Thirty-seven people, Isabelle had counted. No eulogy. No slideshow of smiling moments. No swelling music to tell the mourners when to cry. Just a mahogany box and a hole in the frozen Brooklyn ground.
Isabelle stood rigid, arms crossed so tightly against her chest she could feel her own heartbeat hammering against her forearms. The black blazer she wore had been hastily purchased the night before by Pepper—the sleeves hung past her knuckles, and the shoulder pads sat wrong, making her look even smaller than she was. The collar itched at the back of her neck, a constant reminder that this wasn’t planned, wasn’t supposed to happen.
She didn’t cry. Not here, surrounded by colleagues who knew Dr. Laura Proctor but didn’t know Laura.
Tony stood slightly behind her right shoulder, close enough that she could feel his presence but not so close that anyone would think he was comforting her. His expensive cologne cut through the cemetery smells—sandalwood and something citrusy that didn’t belong among the headstones. One hand stayed buried in the pocket of his tailored black coat; the other rested lightly on her shoulder, his thumb occasionally brushing against her collarbone when she swayed.
He hadn’t said much all day. Just appeared at her door that morning, handed her a coffee she didn’t drink, and then had Happy drive them to Green-Wood in silence. He’d offered tissues she didn’t use and kept reporters away with a glare that could have melted steel.
Rhodey stood a few feet away, ramrod straight in his military dress uniform, arms crossed over his chest. Dark sunglasses hid his eyes, but the tight line of his mouth said everything. Pepper was beside him, elegant in understated black, her strawberry blonde hair pulled back in a severe knot. She kept glancing at Isabelle, concern etched in the fine lines around her eyes.
A woman Isabelle vaguely recognized from a charity gala she’d gone to with Laura approached, eyes red-rimmed and puffy. “She was brilliant,” the woman said, reaching for Isabelle’s hand. “A true pioneer. The work she did—”
“Thank you,” Tony cut in smoothly, stepping slightly forward. His hand never left Isabelle’s shoulder, but something in his posture shifted—subtle, but unmistakable. A shield. “We appreciate you coming.”
The woman retreated, and Tony’s fingers tightened briefly on Isabelle’s shoulder.
Isabelle watched the mourners disperse, breaking into hushed clusters. Their voices carried on the wind in fragments—”brilliant mind,” “such a shame,” “so young”—words that bounced off her like rain on glass.
“I want to go,” she said, the words scraping her throat raw. First words she’d spoken since they’d arrived.
Tony nodded once, no questions, no platitudes. “Happy’s waiting with the car. And burgers. Figured you wouldn’t want to do the whole reception thing.”
Burgers. The word landed like a stone in her empty stomach. She wouldn’t eat it. Couldn’t.
She hadn’t eaten a full meal since... since dinner. That night. The night she killed her mother.
No one knew.
She tried to tell Rhodey when he’d walked into the house and found the aftermath. The overturned chairs. The blood—not much, just smears from the knife, but no wounds. Isabelle’s hands still trembling, still hot from where the power had erupted from her palms.
But Rhodey had seen what he expected to see: a traumatized teenager. A mother who’d collapsed during an argument. He’d gathered Isabelle into his arms, her face pressed against the stiff fabric of his uniform, and whispered, “It’s not your fault, kid. It’s not your fault.”
But it was.
The police came. Asked their questions. Took their notes. An autopsy followed. Cause of death: cardiac arrest. Massive heart failure. No signs of external trauma. No toxins. No evidence of foul play.
Isabelle got off clean.
So she said nothing. Let them file it under trauma. PTSD. Let them build the narrative of a bad fight, a shouting match gone wrong. A mother who hit too hard. A daughter who shouted back. A tragic accident.
She just nodded. Muted. Careful. Let them believe what was easier to believe.
“Hey.” Tony’s voice cut through the fog in her head. His hand moved from her shoulder to her upper arm, turning her slightly to face him. His eyes—dark and knowing—searched her face. “Where’d you go just now?”
Isabelle blinked, the cold air suddenly sharp in her lungs. “Nowhere.”
The lie sat between them, palpable as the grave they stood beside. Tony’s jaw tightened, the muscle working beneath his skin. For a terrible moment, she thought he might push—might pry open the vault where she kept that night locked away.
Instead, he reached into his pocket and pulled out a pair of sunglasses, sliding them onto her face with surprising gentleness. The world dimmed, colors muting behind the tinted lenses. Her tears, if they came, would be hidden now.
“Let’s get out of here,” he said, his voice rough at the edges. His arm settled around her shoulders, not pulling her close, but offering support if she wanted it.
The cemetery workers began filling the grave, each shovelful of dirt hitting the mahogany casket with a hollow thud that reverberated through Isabelle’s chest. The service blurred into a smear of black coats and murmured platitudes.
Tony stayed beside her, a silent sentinel in an expensive suit. His hand never left her shoulder as mourners approached them—a human barrier between Isabelle and their grief. Each time someone stepped toward them with that particular expression—head tilted, eyes soft with sympathy—Tony would shift his weight forward almost imperceptibly.
The pattern repeated. Someone would approach. Tony would intercept. His responses grew increasingly clipped, his smile more fixed. “Appreciate it.” “She’d be touched.” “Thank you for your support.” A verbal shield, deflecting condolences that landed like blows.
Isabelle’s throat burned with unshed tears, but her eyes remained dry behind Tony’s sunglasses. The lenses were too big for her face, sliding down her nose every few minutes.
Then she felt it—a change in the air, a shift in pressure that made the fine hairs on her arms stand up beneath her ill-fitting blazer.
He arrived late. Wilfred Nagel.
He stood at the edge of the gathering. Black coat buttoned to the throat. Thin wire-frame glasses perched on a nose too sharp for his face. Gloved hands folded neatly in front of him, the leather tight across his knuckles.
He looked like what he was—a scientist observing a specimen. Not a colleague mourning a peer.
Their eyes met across the thinning crowd.
Something cold slid down Isabelle’s spine. In that single, electric moment of eye contact, certainty crystallized in her chest: He knew. He knew exactly what had happened that night. What she’d done.
Her hands began to tremble. Not the slight tremor of grief, but the violent shake of terror. She shoved them deep into her pockets to hide them.
Tony’s attention shifted immediately. His gaze tracked from Isabelle’s face to the source of her distress, locking onto Nagel with the precision of a targeting system. His posture changed—subtle but unmistakable. Shoulders squaring. Spine straightening. Weight shifting to the balls of his feet.
“Who’s that?” Tony asked, voice pitched low enough that only she could hear.
Isabelle couldn’t answer. Her throat had closed, air refusing to move past the knot of panic lodged there.
Nagel stood motionless, observing the proceedings with clinical detachment. When the last of the other mourners moved away from the gravesite, he took three precise steps forward. Not approaching Isabelle directly, but positioning himself where she couldn’t avoid seeing him.
He gave a slight nod—first to the fresh grave, then directly to Isabelle. The gesture wasn’t respectful. It was acknowledging. Confirming.
She didn’t nod back. Her body felt leaden, rooted to the frozen ground.
Tony moved instead, a half-step forward that placed his body partially between Isabelle and Nagel. Not obvious enough to draw attention, but unmistakable in its intent.
“That guy bothering you?” Tony’s voice was casual, but his eyes had hardened to flint.
“No,” Isabelle said too quickly, the word escaping before she could stop it. Automatic denial. The reflex of someone used to handling threats alone.
Tony’s jaw tightened. He didn’t look at her, keeping his eyes fixed on Nagel. “Try again.”
She swallowed hard, tasting copper where she’d bitten the inside of her cheek. “He worked with Mom.”
“In what capacity?” Tony asked the question as precisely as a scalpel.
“Research partner.” The lie tasted sour on her tongue. Nagel had been more than that—the shadow behind her mother’s work, the whisper in her ear, the hand that guided the needle.
Tony studied Nagel with narrowed eyes, head tilted slightly as if trying to place the man in some mental database. His fingers drummed once against his thigh—a tell Isabelle had noticed before, when he was running calculations, assessing threats.
After what felt like hours but couldn’t have been more than minutes, Nagel inclined his head once more. Then he turned and walked away, his footsteps too soft for someone so dangerous.
Isabelle watched him go, muscles locked tight with tension. Only when he disappeared beyond the cemetery gates did she exhale, a shuddering breath that clouded in the cold air.
Tony watched her, not Nagel’s retreat. His eyes missed nothing—not the rigid set of her shoulders, not the white-knuckled fists still buried in her pockets, not the way she’d stopped blinking behind his sunglasses. But he didn’t press further, accepting the boundary even as his expression said he’d be revisiting it later.
As they turned to leave, Isabelle felt the cold certainty settle in her bones—Nagel’s appearance wasn’t a coincidence. It was a message. A reminder that some secrets couldn’t stay buried, even when you put them six feet under.
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She died. Again.
And now she’s awake—gasping, shaking, and haunted by what she can’t explain. Her body remembers what it means to breathe, but her mind hasn’t caught up. Sam’s still reeling from what she did. Sharon’s got secrets and something to prove.And Isabelle? She’s alive, but not whole.
Not this time.Because the voice is getting stronger. The fractures are spreading.
And Madripoor hasn’t even gotten dangerous yet.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 32: What Died in Madripoor
Chapter 32: What Died in Madripoor
Summary:
She died. Again.
But this time, she didn't come back alone.Isabelle wakes in a borrowed body that still remembers the bullets. Muscles trembling, nerves screaming, powers flickering.
Sam is at her side, shaken to his core. Sharon Carter is watching with sharp eyes and secrets of her own. And Bucky...Bucky apparently hadn't left her side until threatening to throw Zemo into a wall....There's blood in the sheets, ghosts in the mirror, and a voice whispering in her head that won't let go.
Notes:
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Also! I just dropped 3 chapters in What Came Before and officailly wrapped the Iron Man 2 arc (👀and a certain web-slinging menace makes a cameo👀)
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Chapter Text
Isabelle woke up choking on air.
Not the gentle return to consciousness most people experienced after fainting. This was violent. Actual oxygen flooding her lungs like she’d been underwater for hours. Each breath felt like swallowing fire, her throat raw and rebelling against the sudden intrusion of life.
Her fingers clawed at her chest, nails scraping against skin as if she could somehow make more room for the air that both saved and tortured her. The ceiling above her blurred and refocused in nauseating waves.
Death. She’d been dead. Again.
She remembered the weight of the gun aimed at Sam. The split-second calculation. The decision that wasn’t really a decision at all. The bullets—two of them—punching through her body as she’d thrown herself in front of him. The wet heat. The cold that followed, creeping through her limbs. Then nothing. The absolute nothing that always waited for her.
Now everything was too much. Too bright, too loud, too real.
Her heart hammered against her ribs like it was trying to escape, the thundering pulse echoing in her ears. Sweat broke out across her skin in an instant wave, cold and clammy. Her fingers clutched at the sheets beneath her, desperate for something solid to anchor her to this reality.
Everything hurt.
Not the clean, precise pain of a fresh injury—the kind you could point to and name. This was deeper. A marrow-dragging ache that pulsed through every cell. Like her nerves were stuck in an echo chamber, replaying the same signals long after the danger had passed.
She groaned and tried to sit up. Her body betrayed her, muscles seizing with almost mechanical failure. Joints popped—neck, shoulders, spine—a domino effect of misalignment. The room tilted dangerously.
“Fuck,” she hissed through clenched teeth, palms pressing flat against the sheets. Her stomach muscles spasmed, and phantom bullets still burned through absent wounds, her body insisting on pain that should have faded with the injuries.
Movement in the corner caught her peripheral vision. A chair creaked—metal against hardwood flooring, the sound slicing through the room’s stillness like a blade.
“Don’t.” The voice was stripped bare, each word extracted through gravel. “Don’t you fucking move, Isabelle.”
She let her head roll sideways, the room spinning before settling into focus. Her gaze landed on the figure beside the bed, and something in her chest tightened.
Sam Wilson looked destroyed. His usually unerring appearance was in shambles—shirt wrinkled and stained with what she recognized as blood. Her blood. It had dried in uneven patterns across his chest, some spots almost black where it had pooled thickest. His sleeves were pushed up haphazardly, one higher than the other, exposing forearms corded with tension.
His eyes, always so clear, so certain, were bloodshot. The skin beneath them had taken on a purplish-gray color, exhaustion evident and loud. His jaw looked carved from stone, muscles bunched at the hinges from clenching too long.
What hit her hardest were his hands. Those steady hands that could pilot anything and patch wounds in the field without hesitation now trembled where they gripped the armrests. Minute vibrations that most wouldn’t notice, but to Isabelle, they screamed.
“You’re—” she started, but a cough tore through her, sending fresh waves of pain radiating outward. She swallowed, tasting copper. “You’re okay.”
“I’m okay?” Sam’s voice cracked in the middle, the sound so unlike him it made her flinch. “You took two bullets meant for me and bled out on the fucking street. You were dead, Isabelle.” His voice dropped to a whisper, the words falling between them like stones. “Dead for over two hours.”
Her hand moved instinctively to her stomach, fingers probing for the wounds that should have been there. The fabric against her skin felt wrong—softer, looser. She glanced down, realizing someone had changed her clothes and taken that ridiculous wig off her. Gone was the fitted black dress Zemo had picked out for her. Instead, she wore a faded grey shirt that hung off one shoulder and sweatpants that pooled around her ankles, drawstring pulled tight and knotted twice at her waist.
The skin under her exploring fingertips was smooth. Unbroken. Nothing but the ghost of pain remained.
“They’re gone. Healed.” Sam’s voice dropped lower, a tremor running through it. “Whatever your body does when it... repairs itself. It pushed them out about an hour ago.”
He reached down beside the chair, movements stiff like his joints had locked from sitting too long. When his hand came back up, he held a small metal surgical dish. Two misshapen bullets sat inside, coated in dried blood. The metal was warped, flattened on one side where they’d impacted bone before tearing through her organs.
“They just... worked their way out of you,” he said, staring at the dish like it contained some terrible truth he couldn’t look away from.
Isabelle stared at the bullets. Evidence of her death. Of her return. The physical manifestation of what made her different, what made her wrong. What made her useful.
“I had to carry your body out of there,” Sam continued, each word precise and cutting. His voice had found its strength again, but something was underneath it, something raw and wounded. “Your head against my chest. Arms hanging. Do you have any idea what that was like? Your blood soaking through my clothes, knowing you jumped in front of those bullets for me?”
“I can come back,” she whispered, her voice thin and brittle. “You can’t.”
Something shifted in Sam’s expression—a fracture in his composure. The controlled anger gave way to something more devastating.
“Don’t you dare say that like it’s okay.” His eyes were red-rimmed, the tracks of dried tears visible on his cheeks. The realization that he’d been crying—Sam Wilson, who maintained composure during alien invasions and world-ending threats—hit her harder than the bullets had. “You think it’s better that you died? Like your life costs less?” His hands curled into fists at his sides. “That’s not heroism, Isabelle. That’s—” He broke off, swallowing whatever the word was, his Adam’s apple bobbing with the effort. “That’s not how this team works. That’s not how we work.”
Isabelle looked away, unable to meet his eyes. She’d caused this—not just by taking the hit, but by making him watch her die. By making him carry her lifeless body. By treating her life as expendable.
For a moment, neither spoke. The only sound was their breathing—hers still uneven and struggling, his controlled but too deep, like he was forcing each inhale.
“It worked, didn’t it?” She tried to sound defiant, but her voice cracked in the middle, betraying her.
Her body trembled with aftershocks as nerves reactivated, as cells remembered their purpose. A particularly violent shudder ran through her right leg, making her foot twitch against the sheet. It was like this after Siberia—like her body needed to run a system reboot, everything firing at once, some signals crossed, others amplified.
Sam’s hand moved from the armrest to her wrist, his fingers encircling it completely. His touch was warm against her still-cold skin, his pulse a counterpoint to her erratic one. For all the anger in his words, his grip was gentle, as if he feared she might shatter.
“This time.” His thumb pressed against her pulse point, feeling the proof of her return. “What about next time? Or the time after that?” His eyes locked with hers, refusing to let her look away again. “How many lives do you think you have, Isabelle?”
She didn’t know. Nobody did. One day, she might not come back at all. The thought should have terrified her. Instead, a small, dark part of her wondered if that might be a relief.
Sam’s fingers tightened around her wrist, not enough to hurt, but enough to demand her attention. “I’m not worth your life,” he said, voice dropping to a near-whisper. “No one is.”
Isabelle met his gaze, finding a strange clarity cutting through her pain. “That’s not your call to make,” she replied, a thread of steel winding through her voice despite its weakness. “And you’re wrong. I don’t—”
The sentence died as something shifted inside her. A wave of nausea crashed over her without warning, her body remembering it had been dead only hours before. She twisted to the side, barely making it to the edge of the bed as her body convulsed. Nothing came up, but the taste was still bitter and acrid like battery acid. It burned her already raw throat.
Sam was there instantly, one hand steady on her back, the other gathering her sweat-dampened hair away from her face, just in case. His palm was warm against her clammy skin, grounding her as another shudder racked her body.
“Easy,” he murmured, his voice dropping into that calm cadence she hadn’t realized she’d craved to hear right now. “Just breathe through it. It’ll pass.”
Isabelle clutched at the edge of the mattress, knuckles white, as the room tilted and spun. When the worst of it subsided, leaving her trembling and spent, Sam eased her back against the pillows. His movements were gentle but clinical, like he was handling something fragile but dangerous.
“Here.” He reached for a crystal tumbler on the nightstand, the ice long since melted. “Small sips,” he instructed, holding it to her lips, his other hand cupping the back of her neck to support her. “Too much at once will just make you sick again.”
The water was cool against her parched throat. She took one careful sip, then another, feeling it track down her esophagus. Her body seemed unsure whether to accept it or reject it.
As her vision cleared and the room stopped swaying, Isabelle forced herself to take in her surroundings beyond the blinding light that had first assaulted her. High ceilings with ornate crown molding. Heavy damask curtains drawn against what might be day or night. Antique furniture that looked both expensive and authentic.
“Where are we?” she asked, her voice steadier now, mind finally clearing enough to focus on what mattered. She pushed herself up straighter.
Sam’s expression tightened, something complicated passing behind his eyes. “Easy, please,” he urged, one hand moving to her shoulder as if to keep her from bolting. His fingers brushed her hair back from her face with unexpected tenderness. “We’re at Sharon’s.”
Isabelle blinked, certain she’d misheard. “Who’s?”
“Sharon’s,” Sam repeated, watching her face carefully.
“Carter?” The name came out sharp, disbelieving. “That Sharon?”
“Yes, that Sharon,” he confirmed, a hint of wariness creeping into his tone. He rubbed a hand across his jaw, the rasp of stubble audible in the quiet room. “She... it’s a long story, okay? But she’s in Madripoor now. Has a place here. Found us when we were trying to get you somewhere safe after—” He broke off, unable or unwilling to say it again.
Isabelle’s mind raced, trying to process this new information through the fog of resurrection. Sharon Carter. Ex-SHIELD. Ex-CIA. Steve’s almost-something. Now, apparently, harboring them in what looked like a luxury safehouse in the criminal paradise of Madripoor.
“And Zemo?” she asked, suddenly remembering the mission that had gotten her killed. “Is he—”
“Here,” Sam cut in, his jaw tightening. “Zemo found us after...” His eyes flickered to her abdomen, “After you got shot. Before Sharon found us.”
He moved closer then, the mattress dipping under his weight as he sat on the edge of the bed, shifting her body slightly toward him like a planet caught in a gravitational pull. His hand found hers, moving down from her wrist.
“When we got here,” he continued, “Sharon had medical supplies waiting. Not that they...” His eyes flicked to her stomach again. “Not that they helped much. You were already gone.”
Isabelle watched his face, cataloging every microexpression—the tightening around his eyes, the way his nostrils flared slightly with each controlled breath. “I’m sorry,” she whispered, the words insufficient even as they left her lips.
“Don’t apologize for saving my life,” he said, voice rough. Then, softer: “But don’t expect me to thank you for dying, either.”
The contradiction hung between them, impossible to resolve. How could she regret an action that had kept him alive? How could he accept a sacrifice that had cost her everything, even temporarily?
Sam’s thumb traced the ridge of her knuckles, the calluses on his skin catching slightly against hers. “I can’t lose you,” he said, voice dropping to something raw and honest that made her chest ache in a way the bullets never could. The admission seemed torn from him, each word carrying weight. “Not again. Not like that.”
For the first time since waking, Isabelle felt her racing heart begin to slow, matching its rhythm to his. The chaos in her body quieted momentarily, cells no longer screaming as they remembered how to exist. She leaned into his touch, allowing herself this small comfort.
It didn’t last long.
“What happened back there?” he asked, voice quieter now but no less intense. His eyes narrowed slightly, studying her face, eyes never leaving hers. “At Selby’s. On the street. That wasn’t you fighting. Not entirely.”
Isabelle froze. The momentary peace was shattered, replaced by a cold dread that spread through her limbs faster than the bullets had. “What do you mean?”
Her fingers curled tighter in the sheets, bunching the fabric until her knuckles whitened. The room suddenly felt colder, the air thinner. She didn’t know how to explain the way it had pleaded with her in those moments before the fight. How it had scratched at the inside of her skull, demanding to be let in. And when she finally gave in...
It had loved the violence. Reveled in it. Each broken bone and ruptured vessel had felt like a victory.
“I’ve fought alongside you enough to know your moves,” Sam continued, leaning closer. “This was different.” He paused, swallowing hard enough that she could see the movement in his throat. “Was it the voice? The one you told me about in the prison?”
That was impossible to dodge, and Isabelle’s mouth went dry, her tongue sticking to the roof of her mouth.
“It’s getting stronger,” she admitted, surprising herself. The confession felt dangerous, like speaking it aloud might summon it back. “When I’m in danger, when people I—” she cut herself off, reconsidered. The word had almost slipped out too easily. “When people I care about are threatened, it’s harder to keep it contained.”
Sam’s expression shifted, something unreadable passing over his features. His brow furrowed slightly, lips parting as if he was about to press further—
The door across the room opened with a precise click, hinges whispering against the frame. Isabelle’s body reacted before her mind caught up—muscles tensing, heart rate spiking. She pushed herself up on trembling elbows, the room tilting dangerously as she tried to focus on the figure in the doorway
“Oh. You’re up.”
Sharon Carter stood perfectly still for three heartbeats, framed in the threshold like a photograph. Her eyes swept the room in a practiced scan before landing on Isabelle with laser focus. Something flickered behind her gaze—not surprise, but confirmation.
She stepped into the room, barefoot against polished hardwood. Her linen pants and fitted tee looked expensive in that understated way that screamed weekend brunch at the country club, not harboring resurrected Avengers. She carried a stack of pristine white towels and folded clothes with the same ease someone might carry a coffee cup.
“Welcome back to the land of the living, Stark,” Sharon continued, crossing to an armchair upholstered in hand-stitched leather. She set down her bundle and then moved to lean against the wall, arms crossing over her chest. “Tough to kill, aren’t you?”
The words landed like ice down Isabelle’s spine. Something in Sharon’s tone—the lightness that didn’t match the weight of the question—made her stomach clench. But before she could respond, Sam stood up, his broad shoulders blocking Sharon from view.
“She needs rest,” he said, his voice firm but tired. “And probably food, once she can keep it down.”
Sharon’s gaze shifted to Sam, her expression softening. “You look like you haven’t slept in twenty-four hours, Wilson,” she said, her voice gentle but brooking no argument. “Go take a nap before your eyeballs explode on my furniture,” she said, her voice gentler now but still brooking no argument. Her hand landed on his shoulder, applying subtle pressure that guided him toward the door. Her fingers squeezed once, a gesture somewhere between comfort and command. “Eat something.”
Sam hesitated, his exhausted eyes finding Isabelle’s over his shoulder. The silent question hung between them—Will you be okay?
“I’ll be fine,” Isabelle said. She manufactured what she hoped was a reassuring smile, though her facial muscles felt stiff and uncooperative.
Sam’s jaw worked as he weighed his options. Then, he nodded. “I’ll be back,” he said, the promise heavy in his voice. He moved to the door with obvious reluctance, each step measured as if fighting against his own instincts to stay.
“Don’t worry,” Sharon called after him, her voice light but her eyes sharp. “I’ll take good care of our miracle girl.”
The door closed behind Sam with a soft click that somehow echoed in the stillness of the room. Isabelle felt his absence immediately, like a physical chill where his warmth had been.
Sharon approached the bed. Her eyes never left Isabelle’s face, studying her with an intensity that felt clinical and curious at once.
“So,” she said, stopping at the edge of the bed. “Let’s get you cleaned up. You’ve got dried blood...” She gestured vaguely at Isabelle’s neck, her collarbone, her hands. “Everywhere, actually.”
Isabelle glanced down at her fingers, noticing for the first time the rust-colored crescents under her nails, the flaking crimson in the creases of her knuckles. She grimaced and, with a nod, shifted her weight, attempting to swing her legs over the side of the bed. Her muscles protested immediately, trembling with the effort. Her knees buckled the instant she tried to put weight on them.
Sharon moved, catching Isabelle before she could collapse. Her grip was firm but not rough, one arm sliding around Isabelle’s waist while the other steadied her elbow.
“Easy,” Sharon murmured, her breath warm against Isabelle’s temple. “Your body’s still waking up.” The unexpected gentleness in Sharon’s touch made Isabelle pause. “I’ve got you,” Sharon added, guiding Isabelle back to sit on the edge of the bed. The mattress dipped beneath their combined weight, Sharon settling beside her with practiced ease. “There’s no rush.”
Isabelle let her shoulders sag, surrendering to the support. She found herself leaning into Sharon’s hold, grateful for the anchor as another wave of dizziness washed over her.
“Thanks,” Isabelle managed. She attempted a smile, feeling her lips crack with the effort. “Not my most graceful moment.”
“I’ve seen worse.” Sharon’s lips quirked upward, her gaze flickering briefly to Isabelle’s torso. “Much worse.”
There was something in her tone—not judgment or disgust, but a quiet understanding that made Isabelle’s skin prickle. How much had Sharon seen during those two hours? What had happened while she was gone, her body working its terrible magic?
Isabelle swallowed hard and glanced around the room, desperate for a distraction from the implications in Sharon’s words.
“Nice place,” Isabelle said, her fingers absently tracing the intricate stitching on the duvet beneath her. “Very... old money meets new crime.”
To her surprise, Sharon laughed and her posture changed, a subtle relaxation that made her look younger, less guarded.
“Thanks. Worked hard for it.” She stood and moved to the window, adjusting one of the heavy curtains to allow a thin slice of city light into the room. The glow caught the highlights in her hair, turning them to spun gold against the darker blonde. “Madripoor rewards those who understand how the game is played.”
The sliver of outside world revealed a scatter of neon signs, their glow diffused by fog or maybe smoke, painting the night in electric blues and reds.
“And what game are you playing, exactly?” Isabelle asked, unable to keep the edge of suspicion from her voice. The Sharon Carter she remembered had been straight-laced SHIELD, then CIA—Peggy Carter’s great-niece, carrying on the family legacy of serving the country above all else. That woman wouldn’t have luxury apartments in criminal havens.
Sharon turned from the window, half her face illuminated by the city’s glow, the other half in shadow. She studied Isabelle for a long moment, her expression unreadable. Then she crossed back to the bed and sat beside Isabelle again.
“The only game that matters in a place like this.” Sharon’s voice was quiet but clear, no apology in it. No shame either. “Survival.”
She leaned back slightly, the mattress shifting beneath them. Her posture remained relaxed, but something in her eyes hardened—a flash of steel beneath the velvet.
“When the world decides you’re expendable, you make choices.” She smoothed an invisible wrinkle from her linen pants. “Some people run.” Her gaze locked with Isabelle’s, unwavering and unapologetic. “Some of us build something new.”
No bitterness tinged her words—just cold pragmatism that resonated in Isabelle’s chest like a tuning fork struck against bone. She recognized that tone. Had heard it in her own voice when trying to explain choices that others couldn’t possibly comprehend.
“You missed quite the show while you were playing Sleeping Beauty,” Sharon said suddenly, standing once more, seemingly unable to stay still. She moved to an antique dresser across the room. She pulled open a drawer, expensive runners. “Your Winter Soldier nearly tore this place apart when we brought you in.”
Isabelle tracked her movement, still not trusting her body to stand again. Her eyes narrowed at ‘your Winter Soldier’, leaving a bad taste in her mouth. “I’m sorry, my what?”
“Your Winter Soldier.” Sharon’s voice lilted with amusement as she extracted a silver hairbrush from the drawer. “Barnes. He nearly put Zemo through my atrium wall after he said something about your odds of surviving a second death.” She crossed back to the bed, the brush dangling from her fingers like a weapon.
Without asking permission, she began gathering Isabelle’s tangled hair, her fingers surprisingly gentle as they worked through the knots. Isabelle visibly tensed, but didn’t protest—stuck on Sharon’s words.
“Then before that,” Sharon continued, voice light but eyes watchful, “he hardly let anyone touch you—not even Sam. Sam had to practically pry his metal fingers off you so we could get you cleaned up.”
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck that had nothing to do with her body’s resurrection process. The sensation of Sharon’s fingers in her hair felt invasive, intimate in a way she wasn’t prepared for, but her limbs were too heavy to pull away.
“He was just being careful,” Isabelle managed, wincing as Sharon worked through a particularly stubborn knot.
“Mmm.” Sharon’s hum vibrated with disbelief. The brush’s teeth scraped Isabelle’s scalp with each stroke. “And I suppose him standing guard by your bedside since we got you here was just standard protocol?”
“What?” The word escaped before Isabelle could trap it behind her teeth, embarrassingly breathless.
Sharon’s rhythm with the brush never faltered, each stroke methodical and precise. “Oh yes.” She leaned in slightly, her breath warm against Isabelle’s ear. “He only left when Zemo started running his mouth again.” The brush paused mid-stroke, suspended in air. “Dragged him out of the room by the collar of his fancy coat.” A small, appreciative smile curved Sharon’s lips. “I thought he might actually kill him in my living room. Would have been a pain to clean up, but almost worth it for the entertainment value.”
Isabelle stared at her own hands, noticing how they trembled in her lap. She curled them into fists, pressing her nails into her palms until the pain grounded her. “Bucky’s protective of the team,” she managed, the words hollow even to her own ears.
“The team.” Sharon resumed brushing, each stroke more deliberate than the last. The silver handle caught the dim light, flashing like a warning. “Is that what you guys are?” She set the brush down on the nightstand.
“What else would we call it?” Isabelle snapped. The sudden movement sent a wave of dizziness crashing through her, but she forced herself to remain upright, refusing to show weakness.
Sharon’s eyebrows lifted, her expression shifting into something knowing and dangerous. “I saw the way he looked at you tonight, Stark,” he said, voice dropping to just above a whisper. “That’s not how someone looks at a teammate.”
Her gaze drifted momentarily, focusing on something Isabelle couldn’t see—some memory playing behind her eyes.
“That was...” A shadow crossed her face, hardening her features. “That was how I looked at Steve, once upon a time.” The admission seemed to cost her something; her jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin.
Isabelle’s heart stuttered against her ribs, each beat a painful reminder that she was alive again and having this conversation. “You’re imagining things,” she said, waving a dismissive hand that trembled mid-air, betraying her.
“Am I?” Sharon stood with another laugh. “When Sam told him you were breathing again, Barnes went completely still.” Her voice softened, almost reverent. “Like someone had hit pause on him. Frozen. Not even blinking.” She tilted her head, studying Isabelle with unnerving intensity. “I thought the man might actually cry. His eyes got that glassy look, you know?” She paused, letting the words settle between them like dust motes in the dim light. “Never thought I’d see the day—the Winter Soldier, brought to his knees by a Stark.”
Isabelle’s throat constricted, her defense dying before it could form. The implication in Sharon’s observation felt too raw, too exposed—like someone had peeled back her skin to examine what lay beneath.
“That’s not—” she started, but her voice cracked, the sound small and uncertain in the vast bedroom. Her fingers twisted in the bedsheets, clutching at the expensive fabric until she could feel individual threads straining against her grip. “He was just worried about the mission,” she finally managed, the lie bitter on her tongue, coating her mouth like the metallic aftertaste of resurrection. “We all look out for each other. It’s what we do.”
Sharon’s responding chuckle was soft but sharp-edged, a blade wrapped in silk. “Keep telling yourself that,” she said. “Denial looks good on no one, Stark.” Her eyes met Isabelle’s, something knowing and almost pitying in her gaze. “Especially not someone who’s cheated death twice.”
Isabelle looked away, unable to hold Sharon’s gaze, afraid of what the other woman might see written across her face.
Sharon stood and nodded toward a door on the far side of the room. “There’s a shower in there. Hot water’s temperamental in this part of the city, but it works. Better than most places in Madripoor. The pressure’s decent, at least.”
She crossed to a chair where a neatly folded stack of clothes waited, dark fabrics in various shades of practicality.
“I’ve left you some things that should fit. They’ll be better than...” Her eyes flicked to Isabelle’s borrowed clothes. Sharon moved to the door that led into the hall and paused at the threshold, looking back over her shoulder. Her fingers tapped once against the doorframe, a gesture that seemed almost nervous.
The door clicked shut behind her with quiet finality, leaving Isabelle alone with the echoes of Sharon’s words and the sudden, suffocating silence.
She exhaled slowly, tension bleeding from her shoulders as she slumped forward, elbows on her knees. Her hair fell around her face like a curtain, lighter in places from Sharon’s attempts to clean the blood from it. Her body still felt wrong—like wearing clothes that had shrunk in the wash, everything too tight and restrictive.
“Fuck,” she whispered to the empty room.
She planted her palms against the mattress, fingers splayed wide. The simple act of pushing herself upright sent tremors through her arms, muscles quivering with the effort. Her first attempt failed, her body collapsing back like a marionette with cut strings. Isabelle gritted her teeth, tasting copper again.
“Come on,” she muttered, rallying her scattered strength. “Get it together, Stark.”
The second attempt worked.
She pushed herself upright, legs trembling beneath her weight. Isabelle fixed her gaze on the bathroom door, using it as an anchor point. Left foot. Right foot. Don’t think about the bullets. Don’t think about Sam’s face. Don’t think about Barnes crying. Just move.
Her reflection ambushed her before she reached the door—a full-length mirror mounted on the wall caught her image and stopped her cold.
The woman staring back was a stranger. Skin paper-white except where blood had dried in rusty patterns across her neck and jawline. Her eyes were sunken, ringed with shadows so dark they looked like bruises. Her lips were bloodless, cracked at the corners.
She looked like a corpse that had forgotten to stay dead.
The voice stirred in the back of her mind, a whisper so faint she almost missed it.
We look terrible.
Notes:
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Her body still hurts, her head won't stop spinning. And then Bucky walks in.
Not mid-fight. Not mid-mission.
Mid-towel.What follows is heat. Tension. A look that lingers too long.
Words they don't mean to say.
And something neither of them can name, curling beneath their skin like a fuse waiting to be lit.Because whatever this is...it's not just chemistry.
It's timing. It's trust.
It's the slow burn finally starting to catch.And in Madripoor? Nothing burns quietly.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 33: Ignorance is Bliss
Chapter 33: Ignorance is Bliss
Summary:
She’s healing, but it hurts like hell.
He’s hurting, but hides it behind Henleys and half-smiles.In the quiet hallway of Sharon’s safehouse, Isabelle and Bucky talk about pain—what lingers, what’s lost, and what still makes them human.
And for the first time, she doesn’t feel like she has to carry it alone.The masks slip. The pacing syncs.
The slow burn gets a little warmer... and a lot more real.
Notes:
Okay remember when I said the slow burn was going to start heating up...? WELL. IT’S HAPPENING. This chapter is the match strike, and I cannot wait for the next few that follow—it really starts here and only gets warmer. I'm seriously so proud of the dialogue in this one, so let me know what you think in the comments!! AAHHH!!
Also! I just posted Chapter 7 in What Came Before if you’re curious about Izzy’s SHIELD training arc—link is in the end notes!
Thank you all so much for the love, kudos, and comments—you’re the best!! 💚🔥
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Head Over Heels" by Tears for Fears
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
When she finally turned off the water, Isabelle stood for a moment in the silence, skin pink, nerves tingling, the high of resurrection wearing off like anesthesia. The kind of silence that buzzed behind your eardrums. That made the world feel like it was holding its breath.
She wrapped herself in one of Sharon’s towels—thick, plush, and far too luxurious for what it was. The fabric clung to her skin as she padded barefoot into the bedroom, steam curling off her shoulders like smoke.
And then—
She froze.
So did he.
Bucky sat in the chair across the room, elbows propped on his knees, metal fingers interlaced with flesh ones. His head hung low, shoulders curved inward like he was carrying something heavy. At her entrance, his head snapped up, and their eyes locked.
For three thundering heartbeats, neither of them moved. The tension detonated between them like a grenade.
A droplet of water slid down her spine. Her grip on the towel tightened. His eyes, impossibly blue, followed the path the droplet took down her collarbone before he looked away like he’d touched a live wire.
A flush crept up his neck, disappearing beneath the collar of his shirt. His mouth opened. Closed. Then opened again, words stumbling out like they’d forgotten how to walk. “I—I didn’t—” He cleared his throat, metal hand flexing at his side with a barely audible whir. “Sam said you were awake, but still—”
“Jesus Christ!” Isabelle clutched the towel closer, heart slamming against her ribs as she lurched back into the bathroom doorway. One bare foot remained in the bedroom, toes curling against the hardwood. “What happened to knocking, Barnes?”
“I did knock!” He was on his feet now, all six-foot-something of lethal super soldier suddenly looking like a teenager caught somewhere he shouldn’t be. His hands lifted, palms out, a universal gesture of surrender. “I knocked three times.” The chair he’d vacated rocked slightly behind him. “No answer. Sharon said it was fine to come in!”
“So you just—what? You thought you’d just sit there? And wait? What kind of Victorian ghost behavior is that?” she shot back, too mortified to stop herself, the words sharp and defensive.
Bucky’s eyebrows lifted slightly, his lips parting in genuine confusion. “Victorian ghost—?” He shook his head, a crease forming between his brows. “I was waiting for you to finish. Not exactly a crime scene stakeout. I thought you’d…ya’ know…come out dressed…” His jaw tightened, the muscle there jumping once, but something in his eyes softened. “Would you prefer I’d barged in while you were in the shower?”
The mental image that conjured sent an unwelcome heat crawling up her neck. Isabelle clutched the towel tighter, acutely aware of how the damp fabric clung to every curve.
“I’d prefer a warning system. A text. A note. A shout, so I’d know to come out dressed.” She swallowed, her free hand gesturing wildly. “Smoke signals, Barnes. Anything but finding you brooding in the dark like some—some sentinel.”
“Sentinel?” A hint of a smile tugged at the corner of his mouth, his eyes flickering over her face. “That’s a five-dollar word, doll.”
The endearment hit her like a physical touch.
Doll.
The casual intimacy of it, wrapped in that low Brooklyn drawl, settling somewhere beneath her ribs. Something from another time, another world—a world where men in uniform called women “doll” before shipping off to war.
“Did you just call me...doll me again... but this time while I’m standing here in nothing but a towel?” Isabelle’s voice came out higher than she’d intended.
Bucky’s face transformed in real time. The hint of that smile vanished at those five letters that had slipped past seventy years of careful restraint. He felt heat crawl up his neck, spreading across his cheekbones in a flush he couldn’t control.
“I didn’t—” His throat constricted, suddenly dry. The room felt ten degrees warmer. He watched her knuckles whiten around the edge of the towel, and his eyes betrayed him, dropping to the curve where fabric met skin before he wrenched his gaze away. “I wasn’t—”
His eyes widened as panic surged through him, genuine, unfiltered alarm, before he fixed his stare on a water spot on the wall just past her left shoulder. Safer territory.
“Force of habit,” he finally managed, the lie scraping rough against his throat. But it wasn’t a force of habit. It wasn’t even close to the truth. She was the first woman he’d called doll since 1945.
James Buchanan Barnes. The charmer. The smooth-talker. The man who’d once danced with pretty girls, who’d flirted easily and meant every word. Before the fall. Before the arm. Before he became this—a weapon, trying to remember how to be human.
And now here he was, calling Tony Stark’s daughter “doll” while she stood dripping wet in nothing but a towel, looking at him like he’d grown a second head.
“I’m sorry,” he said, the words coming out softer than intended. He ran his flesh hand through his hair, pushing it back from his face. “That was... inappropriate.”
His eyes met hers again, unable to stay away despite his best efforts. There was something magnetic about her indignation, something that pulled at him. Made him want to step closer instead of back.
Dangerous territory, Barnes.
“I should go,” he said, but his feet remained rooted to the floor, his body betraying him just as thoroughly as his words had moments before.
The mortification on his face made something shift inside Isabelle. She’d made the Winter Soldier blush. The anger that had flared hot and defensive moments earlier began to cool, replaced by something she couldn’t name.
Isabelle didn’t know what possessed her next. Maybe it was the hollow tiredness in his eyes. Maybe it was how his voice cracked when he’d said “I should go.” Maybe it was just that her heart hadn’t stopped racing since coming to Madripoor. But it made her take a full step back into the room.
“Hey,” she said, her voice coming out softer. Still breathless. Still raw. The word hung in the air, an offering. “Thank you.”
Bucky’s head snapped up, brows drawing together in confusion. His shoulders, which had been hunched forward in embarrassment, straightened slightly. “For...?”
She hesitated, shifting her weight from one bare foot to the other. “Back at the club. That guy with the—” Her fingers made a vague gesture in the air, motioning to her closed mouth. “You stepped in before it got worse.”
Something in Bucky’s expression softened, the corner of his mouth twitching upward—not quite a smile, but close. “Didn’t exactly step in. More like threw him into a wall.”
“Like you almost did to Zemo?” A small, unexpected smile appeared on her face. She tucked a damp strand of hair behind her ear. “Sharon told me what happened...While I was out. With Zemo.”
Bucky looked down at his hand, flesh one, not metal—like it had betrayed him somehow. His fingers curled inward, knuckles whitening briefly before relaxing. “I might’ve... reacted.”
“She said you nearly put him through her atrium.”
He rubbed the back of his neck, the sleeve of his Henley pulling tight across his shoulder with the movement. “Yeah. Well. He said something that pissed me off.”
“About me?”
His jaw clenched, a muscle jumping beneath the skin. Isabelle watched the subtle shift in his posture—spine straightening, shoulders squaring. The soldier in him, responding to a threat. “He said something about not wasting time reviving what was always meant to die.” A pause, heavy with unspoken words. “Said it like you were some... tool. A broken one.”
The anger in his voice didn’t rise, but she felt it—steady and cold and dangerous. Defensive in a way that had nothing to do with strategy or mission parameters.
His eyes met hers again, holding her gaze with an intensity that made her breath catch. “He was wrong.”
Her pulse stumbled, tripping over itself. She hugged the towel tighter, but not out of modesty now, but because her chest ached with a feeling too big, too raw to examine.
“You don’t even really know me,” she whispered, more breath than sound.
Bucky took a step forward, then stopped himself, as if remembering the boundaries between them. The distance was shortened by inches, but it felt like miles. “I know enough,” he said, his voice low. His eyes tracked over her face, searching for something. “I know you’re a fighter. I know you’re stubborn as hell.” A ghost of a smile touched his lips. “I know you’ve got a mouth on you that would’ve gotten you in trouble in my day.”
The unexpected warmth in his tone made her stomach flip. She found herself fighting a smile, losing the battle.
“Your day?” she echoed, one eyebrow lifting. “What, you mean the Great Depression?”
His smile widened just a fraction, genuine this time, reaching his eyes. “Careful, doll. I’m sensitive about my age.”
There it was again. Doll. The word slipped out so naturally, like it belonged to her somehow. Like it had been waiting a century to find her.
The air between them changed, charged with something electric. Something that made Isabelle acutely aware of her bare shoulders, her damp skin, the way the towel clung to her curves. Of his height, his breath, the way his presence seemed to fill the room entirely. Of how little separated them—just a towel and seven feet of hardwood floor that suddenly felt like both too much and not nearly enough.
“I should let you get dressed,” Bucky said. This time, he did move, stepping toward the door, but there was hesitation in it, as if his body was fighting against the direction.
Isabelle found words caught in her throat. Too many possibilities, none of them safe.
“Okay, yeah-right,” she managed finally, backing toward the bathroom. Her bare foot hit the cool tile, a shock against her heated skin. “I’m gonna... y’know. Clothes.”
“Right.” Bucky cleared his throat, another step backward, his hand finding the doorknob behind him without looking. Metal fingers flexed at his side, plates shifting with a soft mechanical whisper.
She paused in the doorway, one shoulder pressed against the frame. She should close the door. She should let him leave. She should do anything but what she did next.
“Bucky?”
He looked back, already half-turned toward the exit. The light from the hallway caught the edge of his profile, throwing shadows across the planes of his face.
She smiled, small and teasing, her heart thundering so loudly that she was sure he could hear it. “Next time you wanna see me in a towel, buy me dinner first.”
Something transformed in his expression—tension unspooling into surprise, then into something warmer. He huffed a quiet laugh, eyes crinkling at the edges, and for a moment, she caught a glimpse of the man from the 1940s, the one from the history books who stood beside Captain America with an easy smile.
“Deal,” he said, the word carrying a weight that made her stomach flip.
Then he was gone, the door closing softly behind him, the click of the latch impossibly loud in the empty room.
Isabelle leaned against the doorframe, the cool surface a shock against her bare shoulder. She pressed her palm flat against her sternum, feeling the rapid-fire rhythm of her pulse beneath her fingers. Her skin hummed with awareness, every nerve ending alive and electric.
She closed her eyes, drawing in a shaky breath that did nothing to steady her. This feeling—this wasn’t fear. It wasn’t adrenaline from a fight or the lingering effects of resurrection.
This was something far more dangerous.
This was want.
And for the first time since waking up in Sharon’s place, since Madripoor, since the club, Gold Teeth, and everything else, Isabelle wasn’t thinking about death, danger, or escape plans.
She was thinking about how Bucky Barnes had looked at her like she was something precious and dangerous all at once. The way his voice had roughened around that single word: doll.
The way she wanted to hear him say it again.
Sharon’s clothes fit better than expected—black leggings that hugged without constricting, a soft gray tank that didn’t press too hard against tender skin, and a slouchy olive-green sweater that felt like salvation against the dull, persistent ache that radiated through every joint, every muscle, every cell of Isabelle’s body.
Her damp hair fell in loose waves around her face, framing features that felt raw and exposed without makeup. Nothing to hide behind. Just clean skin and eyes that had seen death from the inside.
She took a careful step forward, negotiating with her body. Don’t limp. Don’t wince. Don’t show weakness.
Bucky stood in the hallway, waiting with shoulders pressed against the wall, arms crossed over his chest, and one ankle hooked casually over the other. His gaze was fixed on some invisible point on the floor, brows drawn together in concentration. The soft click of his door made his head snap up, blue eyes locking onto green ones. Then, just as quickly, his gaze jerked away.
The hallway suddenly felt degrees warmer and half as wide. Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat scratchy and dry as she allowed herself to really look at him. Black jeans hugged his thighs in a way that shouldn’t be legal. A dark Henley stretched across his chest and shoulders, the fabric straining slightly where muscle met vibranium at his left side. Dark circles shadowed his eyes, but somehow they only emphasized the sharp line of his jaw, the fullness of his mouth.
His hair fell loose around his forehead, as if he’d run his fingers through it while she was changing. Trying to clear his head, maybe. Trying to forget what she’d looked like in nothing but a towel—
“What?” Bucky asked, catching her stare, one eyebrow lifting slightly, questioning.
“Nothing,” she rushed out, but the word came out all wrong. Too breathy, too transparent. She cleared her throat, taking another step into the hall, feeling the strain in her thighs, the protest in her knees. She motioned toward him with a jerk of her head. “Sharon dress you too?”
A flash of self-consciousness flickered in his expression. For a split second, he looked like he was trying to decide if she was checking him out or mocking him.
“Not directly,” he said, his voice carefully neutral. A pause, then the corner of his mouth curved upward in a smirk that transformed his entire face. “She threw a few hangers at me.”
“Well, looks like she’s got a good eye,” Isabelle said, her eyes traveling down the length of him before she could stop herself. Before her brain could catch up with her mouth. “I mean—” she backpedaled hard, hands lifting in a gesture that communicated absolutely nothing. “You know, you look good for blending in. Less…assassin-y. More…normal person who doesn’t kill people.”
Oh god, that was worse.
She blinked fast and dropped her eyes to her feet, as if they’d committed some cardinal sin. The carpet in the hallway was beige. Boring. Safe to look at.
What the hell was that? She’d been harassed, killed, and resurrected in the past twenty-four hours, and here she was, checking out the Winter Soldier’s ass like they were at a bar on ladies’ night.
Bucky cleared his throat, and she risked a glance up. The tips of his ears had gone pink, a detail so endearing it made her chest ache in a way that had nothing to do with her recent injuries.
“I, uh—” He ran his right hand through his hair, pushing it back from his forehead. “Thanks? I think?”
“Don’t mention it,” she muttered after a second, crossing her arms over her chest, trying to hide. “Seriously, let’s never mention it again.”
A soft huff of laughter escaped him. It was barely there, just a breath of amusement that made the corners of his eyes crinkle. “Noted.”
He pushed himself off the wall, unfolding his body and standing upright. He gestured down the hall with a tilt of his head. Three steps down the hall, he slowed, the rhythm of his footfalls changing as he registered her lagging pace as she followed. He didn’t turn immediately.
Isabelle watched his shoulder tense, then release, his shirt shifting across the broad plane of his back as he made the conscious decision to look at her.
“You okay?” he asked softly. His eyes tracked over her face, missing nothing. Not the pallor beneath her freckles, or the tight line of her mouth, or even the way her fingers curled into the sleeve of the borrowed sweater with every step.
For a moment, Isabelle considered lying, straightening her shoulders, flashing a smile, and pretending she wasn’t one wrong move from crumpling. It was what she’d always done. What Tony had taught her, without meaning to: never show weakness, never admit pain. But something in Bucky’s eyes stopped her. He’d know the lie before it could fully fall from her lips.
“Healing hurts like hell,” she admitted, shifting her weight. “You saw me after Munich. And I didn’t…you know, die then…” There was no point lying to a man who’d been unmade and rebuilt more times than she had. “Phantom pains doubled. Muscles ache more…body’s like rewiring. Trying to remember how to function again, but all at once without my say so.”
Bucky’s face softened, the hard lines around his eyes relaxing. He uncrossed his arms, letting them hang at his sides, making himself less of a wall, more of a window.
“I know that one.” He nodded, his left fingers flexing unconsciously. “The kind that makes you question if your body’s even yours anymore.”
Isabelle studied his left arm, the way the light from the hallway caught on the vibranium surface, turning it from gunmetal to silver and back again with each subtle movement.
“Does it hurt?” The question slipped out before she could stop it. She gestured toward his left side with a small tilt of her chin. “The arm. Where it... connects.”
Bucky went still, his expression shifting into something unreadable. For a moment, she thought he might deflect or shut down entirely. His jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin.
“Sometimes,” he finally said, the words rough-edged but honest. His flesh hand moved unconsciously to his left shoulder, hovering over the seam where metal met skin without actually touching it. “Not the arm itself. But where they attached it.” His eyes were fixed on some point down the hallway, seeing something beyond the walls of Sharon’s place. “The nerve endings. They’re always... awake. Like they’re waiting for the rest of what should be there.”
He looked down at his metal hand, flexing the fingers deliberately this time. The plates shifted with precision, a soft mechanical symphony that seemed impossibly graceful for something so lethal.
“Phantom pain,” Isabelle said, understanding blooming like a bruise beneath her skin. “But in reverse.”
His eyes snapped to hers, surprise flickering across his face—not at her words, but at being understood so completely. The corner of his mouth twitched upward, not quite a smile.
“Yeah,” he said softly. “In reverse.” He hesitated, then added, “The Wakandans made it better. The new one. It’s lighter. Doesn’t pull as much.” His fingers flexed again, this time with a barely perceptible wince. “But some days, when it rains or when I’ve been fighting—”
“It reminds you,” she finished for him.
Something shifted in his expression then—a softening around the eyes, a vulnerability that made him look suddenly, achingly human. “Every damn day.”
Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat tight with unexpected emotion. She’d never considered what it must be like to carry that constant reminder—to have the weapon they’d made you permanently attached to your body. To wake up every morning and see it first thing, gleaming and inescapable.
“I’m sorry,” she said, the words inadequate but sincere.
Bucky shook his head, a strand of dark hair falling across his forehead. “Don’t be. It’s...” He trailed off, searching for words. “It’s part of me now. Not just the arm. The pain, too.”
Their eyes met and held, a current of understanding passing between them that went deeper than words—the shared knowledge of what it meant to be unmade and put back together wrong. To carry the evidence of it in your body, in your bones, in the very cells that made you who you were.
His pace changed then, matching hers perfectly as they continued down the hall, slowing when she slowed, pausing when she paused. Not once did he reach for her elbow or offer support, somehow understanding that she needed to do this on her own. But his body remained angled toward hers, ready to catch her if she fell.
“The first time I died,” Isabelle said suddenly, her voice so quiet it seemed to dissolve into the air between them, “it wasn’t in Siberia.”
She kept her eyes fixed on the carpet ahead, watching the subtle pattern shift with each step. Her fingertips had gone numb where they clutched the sweater.
“I was thirteen.”
The confession hung in the air, fragile and dangerous. She could feel Bucky’s gaze on her profile, steady and unflinching, but she couldn’t bring herself to meet it.
“Never told anyone about it.” Her tongue felt thick, clumsy. Each word scraped her throat raw. “But it’s out there. In those files. When SHIELD fell, Hydra got exposed. Whoever read the leaks…” She swallowed hard, a clicking sound in the quiet hallway. “I think that’s why Zemo did what he did. Because he knew I’d come back.”
Her next step faltered, knee threatening ot buckle. Bucky’s hand twitched at his side—not reaching for her, but ready.
“Cardiac arrest,” she continued, the clinical term easier somehow than saying ‘my heart stopped.’ “Two minutes, seventeen seconds. I don’t remember it. It was the early days of my mom using the serum on me. I was unconscious the whole time, anesthesia still worked on me.”
Bucky didn’t respond immediately. The silence stretched between them, not uncomfortable but heavy with understanding. When he finally spoke, his voice was low, careful, like he was handling something that might shatter.
“How many times?”
Isabelle’s steps faltered at the question. Not because it was cruel, but because it was perfect. Direct. Unflinching. Without a trace of disbelief or pity. How many times have you died? As if it were the most natural question in the world.
Her eyes flicked to his face, searching for the disgust or horror she’d expected to find. Instead, she saw only quiet attention, his blue eyes clear and steady.
“Honestly?” She let out a breath that wasn’t quite a laugh. “I don’t know. I don’t remember much until the serum really kicked in—even then it was…hazy...” Her fingers twisted deeper into the sleeve, fabric bunching between her knuckles. “I stopped reading my mother’s notes after a few entries.”
The memory of those clinical pages flashed through her mind—her mother’s neat handwriting documenting vital signs, recovery times, cellular regeneration rates. Subject exhibited heightened adrenal response during resurrection event #3. Recommend increasing sedation for subsequent trials.
“I just couldn’t...” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “Ignorance is bliss, you know?”
She risked another glance at Bucky, finding his expression unchanged—not sympathetic, not horrified, just present. Somehow, that was worse. Sympathy, she could deflect. Horror she could mock. But simple acceptance left her nowhere to hide.
“This time was…quick. Clean. Siberia was—” She cut herself off, the memory pressing against her skull like bruised fingertips. Her tongue felt heavier now with words she couldn’t release. Not now. Not in this hallway with her body still remembering what it was like to be dead. “Messier.”
Bucky made a soft sound of agreement.
“My first memories after HYDRA are like that,” he said, his voice pitched low enough that only she could hear it, as if sharing a secret that belonged just to them. “Everything too bright. Too loud. Too much. Messier…Like my body was a stranger I had to learn how to live with all over again.” He paused, swallowing visibly, his Adam’s apple bobbing beneath the shadow of stubble along his throat. “They took everything from me. My name. My memories. My choice. But they couldn’t take all of me. Not the parts that mattered.”
The raw honesty in his voice struck something deep inside her—a chord that had never been played before. Isabelle’s vision blurred unexpectedly, tears threatening to spill over. She blinked them back furiously, refusing to let them fall, hating the weakness they represented.
“How do you know which parts matter?” she asked, her voice cracking on the question—a vulnerability that she’d never intended to show.
Isabelle felt something in her ribcage crack open—a hairline fracture in the careful wall she’d built around herself. She’d never met anyone who understood this particular hell. This sensation of being a visitor in your own skin, of having to relearn what it meant to be alive after death had claimed you.
Bucky slowed his pace further as they approached the end of the hallway, the murmur of voices from the main room growing louder. Sam’s distinctive cadence rose and fell, punctuated by Sharon’s clipped responses.
He turned toward her, angling his body to create a pocket of privacy in the narrow space. His eyes met hers, blue, clear, and haunted by ghosts she recognized. The hallway light caught in his irises, turning them the color of a winter sky just before snow.
“The parts that still hurt,” he said quietly, each word measured and heavy with truth. “The parts that still care about hurting others.” His eyes held hers, steady and sure, not allowing her to look away. “The parts that are afraid of becoming a monster—those are the parts.”
The honesty in his voice, in his eyes—no platitudes. No false comfort. Just the truth—hard-won and offered without expectation. For a moment, she couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think past the sudden pressure behind her sternum.
Before she could respond, the hallway opened into the living room, where Sam’s voice rose in animated discussion with Sharon. “—can’t just walk in there without a plan, that’s all I’m saying—”
“—It’s a party, Sam. You don’t need a plan. You need a drink—”
The moment between them broke, reality rushing back in with all its complications and dangers. Isabelle felt the loss of it like a physical thing—this brief connection severed by the intrusion of the world.
Bucky gave her a quick smile before nodding toward the room. He stood by her side as they started walking again. Not touching, but close enough that she could feel the warmth radiating from him. Close enough to catch her if she fell. His metal arm glinted in the brighter light of the living room, no longer hidden in shadow but exposed—the weapon they’d given him, worn openly now. Not with pride, but with acceptance.
And for the first time since waking up in Sharon’s, the pain in Isabelle’s body felt like something she could bear. Not because it had lessened, but because she wasn’t carrying it alone.
She glanced at Bucky’s profile as they entered the room, catching the slight tightening around his eyes as he shifted from the man who had spoken to her in the hallway to the soldier the others expected to see. The transformation was subtle but unmistakable—a mask sliding into place, not unlike the one she felt forming on her own features.
In that brief moment before they rejoined the others, a thought surfaced in her mind, dangerous and unexpected: What would it be like to see him without any masks at all?
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The penthouse is velvet on the surface, razor blades underneath. Sharon's pulling dresses and secrets in equal measure. Zemo's lounging like he hasn't broken the world. Sam's trying to keep the peace. And Bucky?
He sees everything.But when Nagel's name drops, so does the temperature in the room. And Isabelle? She starts to unravel.
Pain, paranoia, party prep. Who said resurrection came with a recovery plan?
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 34: Monets and Monsters
Chapter 34: Monets and Monsters
Summary:
Silk dresses. Velvet threats. Crystal tumblers and loaded questions.
Welcome to Sharon Carter’s penthouse—where the walls are polished, the secrets are lethal, and Isabelle Stark is one bad memory away from combusting.The team’s regrouping. The Power Broker’s circling. Nagel’s name is back on her lips, and Isabelle has a choice to make: play nice... or play deadlier.
And for the first time in a long time, she’s sitting this one out. Not because she’s weak. Because she’s preparing.
Notes:
YESSSS we’re officially heading into Nagel territory!! …Soon. But first—the party. And um. Yeah. Let’s just say there’s some burn incoming. 😬🔥
I’m dropping two chapters back-to-back because I physically cannot wait until Sunday for you guys to read Chapter 35. The hold this arc has on me is unhealthy.
I’ll see you in a few minutes for what’s next...🎵Chapter song vibes: "Ramble On" by Led Zeppelin
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The suite sprawled before her. White walls and sleek furniture in muted grays and blacks dotted the space with purpose: a glass-topped table here, a leather armchair there, each piece probably worth more than most people made in a month. Several clothing racks lined one wall, their metal frames gleaming dully in the ambient glow from the few activated lamps.
Tall windows stretched from floor to ceiling along the far wall, framing Madripoor’s glittering skyline like a living painting. The city’s lights pulsed against the darkness—red, gold, electric blue—a neon heartbeat beneath a velvet sky. Inside, Vivaldi whispered through hidden speakers, the violins crisp and precise, each note cutting through the air in perfection.
Sam stood by a full-length mirror, adjusting the collar of a dark turtleneck. His eyes were distant, unfocused—his mind clearly wrestling with something far removed from clothing. Across the room, Sharon was half-buried in a clothing rack, pushing hangers back and forth.
And Zemo—of course—lounged on a velvet chaise like he owned the air they breathed. One leg crossed elegantly over the other, a crystal tumbler dangling from his manicured fingers.
As Isabelle entered, Zemo unfolded himself from his reclined position, sitting up straighter with fluid grace. He swirled his drink once, the ice clinking against crystal with a sound like tiny bells. His eyes found her across the room, a lazy, deliberate tracking that made her skin crawl.
“Ah, Ms. Stark.” He took a slow sip, letting the liquor linger on his tongue before swallowing. When he spoke again, his voice was velvet-smooth and threaded with thorns. “Recovered from your little...” His pause hung in the air between them, a deliberate suspension, “...episode?”
The word dripped with condescension. A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth, subtle but unmistakable. It was the smile of a man who had watched her die and found it mildly entertaining.
Isabelle’s jaw tightened, teeth pressing together behind closed lips until she felt the pressure in her temples. She didn’t blink, didn’t flinch, didn’t give him the satisfaction of seeing the tremor that ran through her fingers. Instead, she curled them into her palms, nails biting into flesh.
“I’m touched by your concern,” she said, voice dry as desert sand. She took another step into the room, ignoring the protest in her knee—a sharp, hot stab that threatened to buckle the joint. “Truly. All warm and fuzzy. Like a teddy bear stuffed with razor blades.”
Zemo’s laugh was soft and genuine, a warm sound that somehow made it worse—the authenticity of his amusement more cutting than mockery would have been. He raised his glass in a mock toast, the amber liquid catching the light. “I do have my softer sides.”
Before she could respond, Bucky moved—not dramatically, not obviously—but he moved. One shoulder angled slightly in front of Isabelle, his weight shifting forward on the balls of his feet. His spine straightened, metal arm hanging loose at his side, plates whirring almost imperceptibly as they recalibrated. The sound was barely audible beneath Vivaldi’s strings, but Isabelle felt it more than heard. A vibration in the air between them, the quiet promise of violence wrapped in stillness.
The room’s temperature seemed to drop a few degrees. Zemo’s eyes flickered to Bucky, then back to Isabelle, his smile deepening with something that looked disturbingly like satisfaction.
Sam’s head snapped up at her entrance, the muscles in his forearms tensing visibly beneath rolled sleeves. He didn’t smile. Not right away. Instead, his gaze moved over her methodically, cataloging every wince, every careful shift of weight, every shadow beneath her eyes.
“You look better,” he said finally, his voice deep and curt. The words hung between them, honest but insufficient. “Better’s good.”
Isabelle nodded once, her lips curving into something approximating a smile. “Better’s... something.” The word tasted hollow in her mouth, like chewing on cardboard.
Sam exhaled, a controlled release of breath, his mouth twitching at the corner, the ghost of his usual humor struggling to surface. His eyes, though, those remained serious, watchful. “You sure you’re okay to be on your feet?”
“I’m fine.” The lie slipped out automatically, practiced and polished from years of use. Isabelle shifted her weight to her left leg, trying to disguise how the movement sent a hot spike of pain from her right ankle to her hip. The joint felt unstable, like balancing on a crumbling ledge. Each heartbeat pulsed through the swollen tissue, a dull, insistent throb.
Sam’s eyes narrowed, giving her a knowing tilt of his head. It was the same look he’d given Steve when he’d claimed a stab wound was “just a scratch.” It was a look that said: I’ve heard that particular bullshit before and I’m tired.
“She’s still hurting.” Bucky’s voice cut through the room, quiet but unmistakable. He hadn’t turned his head, hadn’t shifted from his protective stance, but the words landed with the precision of a thrown knife. Not a question. Not even an accusation. Just a quiet statement of fact, delivered to the room like weather data.
“I said I’m fine,” Isabelle replied, her tone sharp around the edges. Not defensive—just bone-deep exhausted. The violins in the background hit a crescendo that seemed to pierce directly through her temples, each note a needle behind her eyes. Her fingers twitched at her sides, wanting to press against her skull, to block out the sound, to hold herself together.
Bucky looked at her then, turning just enough that she caught his profile in the half-light. The blue of his eyes seemed darker in this light, shadowed beneath heavy brows, holding her gaze with uncomfortable steadiness. “I didn’t say you weren’t.”
The moment hovered between them, taut as a tripwire. Four simple words that somehow contained multitudes: I know you’re in pain. I know you’re pushing through it. I know you’re lying.
The air in the room seemed to thicken, charged with something electric and unnamed, while Zemo watched them all. The ice in his glass clinked as he took another sip, the sound unnaturally sharp in the weighted silence.
Bucky broke the stalemate first. He drifted toward the sofa with deceptive casualness, dropping onto its edge. His movements were too deliberate to be relaxed. Isabelle noticed how he positioned himself: back to the wall, clear sightline to both exits, body angled to intercept anyone approaching from Zemo’s direction. His metal arm rested along the back of the sofa, fingers splayed in a way that looked casual but would allow him to launch forward in an instant.
Sam remained by the mirror, arms now folded across his chest, the turtleneck forgotten. His eyes followed Isabelle’s movements, tracking the subtle limp she was trying to hide, the way her fingers occasionally twitched at her side when pain spiked through her knee. His expression remained neutral, but there was a softness around his eyes that betrayed his concern.
“You know,” he said finally, “there’s this revolutionary concept called ‘resting.’ Might want to look into it sometime.”
Before Isabelle could respond with something appropriately cutting, Sharon emerged from the racks of clothes with a dress flung over one shoulder like a trophy of war.
“Found it,” she announced, breaking the tension as if she hadn’t noticed it, though the quick glance she shot between Isabelle and Bucky suggested otherwise.
She held up a garment that caught the light—something dark and elegant that would blend into shadows while still looking expensive. The fabric shifted like liquid smoke, absorbing and reflecting the room’s dim lighting in equal measure.
Sharon’s lips curved into a smile. She ran her fingers along the dress’s sleeve, demonstrating how the fabric moved. “Breathable, flexible, and the cut will disguise that limp you’re pretending not to have.”
Isabelle looked around the suite again, taking in the racks of clothing, the carefully curated luxury, the way Sharon moved through the space with practiced ease. She was missing something— “Um…why are we getting all dressed up?”
“I’m hosting clients in an hour, and important ones.” Sharon lifted an eyebrow, her smile cool and professional. “So now that I’ve given these boys some hope, we gotta pick you out something that doesn’t look like you crawled through a war zone.” She gestured at Isabelle’s borrowed sweater and pants with a dismissive flick of her wrist.
Sam scoffed, though there was no real heat behind it. “She sells actual Monets now.” He caught Isabelle’s eye with a look that said, can you believe this shit?
“Like...” Isabelle blinked, momentarily thrown. The pain in her knee receded momentarily, displaced by genuine surprise. “Real shit? Not—” she glanced at Zemo, who was watching their exchange with undisguised amusement, “—not fake identities or weapons or whatever else people trade in this place?”
Sharon’s smirk was answer enough as she moved to a nearby rack, flipping through more hangers.
“Damn,” Isabelle muttered under her breath, adjusting the hem of her borrowed sweater. Her fingers caught on a loose thread, tugging it absently. The material felt suddenly coarse against her skin. “So that’s what you meant about survival.”
“It’s amazing what people will pay for authenticity in a world full of fakes,” Sharon replied, her tone light but with an undercurrent that Isabelle couldn’t quite place—something that might have been bitterness or pride or both.
She pulled another dress from the rack, held it up to the light, then discarded it with a shake of her head.
“Anyway,” she continued, the soft swish of expensive fabric punctuating her words, “until you guys figure out your next move, you’re welcome to mingle. And not get blood on the artwork. These clients pay for pristine.”
“Don’t we have bounties on our heads?” Isabelle asked, squinting at Sharon. The reality of their situation crashed back through the veneer of normalcy—the soft lighting and expensive wine couldn’t erase the fact that they were fugitives in one of the most dangerous cities in the world. “Last I checked, we weren’t exactly welcome in Madripoor. Pretty sure there’s a ‘shoot on sight’ order with our faces attached.”
Sharon turned, and something in her demeanor shifted. Her spine straightened, chin lifting a fraction of an inch. The friendly art dealer vanished, replaced by something harder, more dangerous.
“You’re safe here,” she said. Her eyes, when they met Isabelle’s, were flat and cold as stones. “The Power Broker can’t touch this place.” Her smile remained perfectly in place, but it didn’t reach her eyes. “Trust me, though I’ve already advised Sam that you guys should really catch the next flight out of here for your own safety...”
“The Power Broker doesn’t want us meddling in his affairs,” Zemo added, materializing at Isabelle’s side without a sound. She hadn’t heard him move—one moment he was lounging across the room, the next he stood by her side. His eyes gleamed in the low light, pupils slightly dilated. “Such a territorial creature, this Power Broker.” The words rolled off his tongue like he was savoring them. “One wonders what he’s protecting.”
Sharon’s expression didn’t change, but something flickered behind her eyes—a shadow passing over deep water, there and gone so quickly Isabelle might have imagined it.
“Wait...” Isabelle’s brain caught up with the conversation, pieces clicking into place. “So he’s involved with the Flag Smashers?” She looked between Sharon and Zemo, searching their faces for confirmation.
“We went to Selby to ask about Karli and the serum,” Zemo said, swirling the amber liquid in his glass. “And she ended up dead. Now we have bounties on our heads.” He spread his hands in a gesture of mock innocence. “I think it’s clear he is... invested in the situation.”
Sam pushed away from the mirror, abandoning all pretense of interest in the clothing. “We know it’s a risk,” he said, his voice carrying the weight of authority that always seemed to come naturally to him. “But we won’t leave. Karli and at least seven others have taken the serum. We need to stop it at the source.”
His eyes found Isabelle’s across the room, and he reached into his pocket, pulling out her phone. The screen was cracked in one corner, a spiderweb of fractures that hadn’t been there before. “Can you check with FRIDAY?” he asked, holding it out to her. “See if she’s gotten any pings?”
Sharon’s brow furrowed. “Pings?”
“Cracked their app with FRI,” Isabelle explained, taking the phone from Sam. “She’s been running searches on them for at least two days.” The familiar weight of the device in her hand was oddly comforting. “I checked before the club, but Karli still hasn’t set a ping yet. As soon as they do, we’ll know.”
She swiped open the screen, the soft blue glow illuminating her face. No notifications. No alerts. Nothing but the blank stare of an empty screen. Disappointment settled in her stomach, heavy as a stone.
“But until then,” Sam continued, his eyes never leaving Isabelle’s face, watching her reaction, “we need to find the person who cracked the code. Selby said he’s in Madripoor.”
“Wilfred Nagel,” Bucky said from the sofa, the name seeming to cause him physical pain. His jaw tightened, the muscles working beneath the skin as he looked at Isabelle, something like an apology or warning in his eyes.
Nagel. Her spine stiffened, muscles locking into place as if bracing for impact. She’s almost forgotten.
The room around her all receded behind a wall of static that buzzed through her nervous system. Cold electricity skittered across her skin, making the fine hairs on her arms stand on end.
“Nagel...” Sharon said slowly, placing the dresses on the back of a nearby couch. Her eyes narrowed as they found Isabelle’s face, recognition dawning. “Isn’t he—”
The question hung incomplete, but the implication was clear. Sharon Carter knew. Of course, she knew. Former SHIELD agent, CIA operative—she would have had access to files, to histories, to the truth of what Wilfred Nagel had done. Who he’d worked with. How he’d collaborated with Laura Proctor. What he’d done to Isabelle.
What he’d taken from her.
Isabelle’s jaw clenched so tight she could feel the pressure radiating into her temples. Her pulse hammered against her ribs, each beat a reminder that she was alive despite everything they’d done to ensure she wouldn’t be.
“It’s fine,” she said, the lie scalding her tongue like acid. The words tasted metallic, like blood or pennies. She swallowed hard, forcing down the bile that rose in her throat.
Sharon’s gaze flicked between Isabelle and Bucky, then settled on Sam. Something passed across her face—a flash of what might have been fear, quickly masked by practiced neutrality. She moved across the room with deliberate steps, the soft whisper of expensive fabric against the floor marking her progress toward the bar.
“Zemo’s right,” Sharon said, reaching for a crystal decanter. “The Power Broker is involved with the Flag Smashers.” The amber liquid caught the light as she poured, casting golden reflections across her hands. “Or, well, in a way—Nagel works for the Power Broker.”
The glass made a soft clink as she set the decanter down. Isabelle watched Sharon’s fingers curl around the tumbler, steady and sure. No tremor, no hesitation. The mark of someone who’d learned to hide their tells.
“Sharon, we could use your help,” Sam said, stepping forward. His voice carried that particular tone—the one that made people want to follow him, to trust him. “You clearly got connections. Help us, and I can get your name cleared.”
Sharon’s laugh was sharp and brittle, like breaking glass. She rolled her eyes as she took a long sip of her drink. “You haggling with my life?” The ice in her glass clicked against crystal as she lowered it. “You pretending you can clear my name?” Her gaze hardened, something bitter and wounded flashing in her eyes. “You’re not Captain America. You can’t get me cleared like Steve got him his pardon.” She jerked her head toward Bucky, who remained unnaturally still on the sofa.
Isabelle felt her patience fracture.
“Look, can you help us get information on Nagel or not?” The words came out sharper than she intended, edged with frustration and something darker. “I respect this whole ‘girl-boss’ thing, but it’s not useful to us unless you make it useful.”
Sharon’s eyebrows rose slightly, but before she could respond, Sam stepped between them.
“I get it,” he said, his voice softening. “What happened to you isn’t fair. But I’m willing to try if you are.” He glanced toward Bucky, a hint of his usual humor breaking through the tension. “They cleared the bionic staring machine, and he killed almost everybody he’s met.”
“I heard that,” Bucky grumbled from the sofa, the first words he’d spoken since Nagel’s name had been mentioned.
“Sam...” Isabelle shot him a warning glare, though there was no real heat behind it. Her heart wasn’t in the banter—not with Nagel’s name hanging in the air between them like poison gas.
Sharon swirled her drink, the ice making soft circles in the amber liquid. “I don’t trust charity.”
“It’s not,” Isabelle countered, shifting her weight to her good leg. “It’s a transaction. Help us track down Nagel, and we’ll get your name cleared.”
Sharon’s eyes narrowed, focusing on Isabelle with unsettling intensity. “Oh yeah? And what are you going to do when you see him again?” The question landed like a challenge, sharp and pointed. Sharon knew exactly what she was asking—what seeing Nagel would mean to someone like Isabelle.
Isabelle felt the others watching her, waiting for her answer. What would she do? The truth was a dark, pulsing thing in her chest—a knot of rage and pain and fear that had been growing for years. She could feel it now, unfurling like something alive.
She paused, then bit her lip. “Haven’t figured that out yet.”
The lie tasted bitter, but it was better than the truth: that she’d imagined killing Wilfred Nagel a thousand different ways over the years. That she’d fallen asleep to the fantasy of watching the light leave his eyes. That even now, standing in this luxurious suite with her knee screaming in pain, she could feel her power stirring beneath her skin—eager, hungry, ready.
“You kill him,” Sharon said flatly, “and the Power Broker kills you.”
A laugh bubbled up from Isabelle’s chest, surprising even her with its sharpness. “Welp, if tonight proves anything, he can’t really do that now, can he?” The words came out with more bravado than she felt, but there was truth in them, too. She’d survived worse than the Power Broker. She’d survived Nagel.
Sam stepped between them, hands raised in a placating gesture. “A deal, then?” He extended his hand toward Sharon. “You help us out, I’ll get your name cleared.”
Sharon looked at his outstretched hand for a long moment, something unreadable passing across her face. Then, reluctantly, she reached out and shook it. “Deal.” Her grip was firm, businesslike. “I sell to some pretty connected people. Lay low, blend in, enjoy the party.”
She released Sam’s hand and turned back to Isabelle, deliberately changing the subject.
“About these clothes for tonight...” She gestured toward the dresses she’d set aside earlier, her expression shifting to something more professional. “The green would complement your coloring, but the black has a better cut for concealing weapons.”
Isabelle stared at the dresses, then back at Sharon. The casual pivot from discussing Nagel to discussing fashion gave her conversational whiplash. But beneath Sharon’s nonchalant exterior, Isabelle caught something else—a calculated wariness, a careful assessment. Sharon Carter was playing a dangerous game in Madripoor, and she wasn’t about to show her full hand.
“Weapons?” Isabelle echoed, raising an eyebrow. “I thought this was just a fancy art deal.”
“In Madripoor, there’s no such thing as ‘just’ anything.” Sharon lifted the black dress, holding it against Isabelle’s frame. “Trust me—you’ll want options.”
Sharon caught Isabelle’s eye, nodding toward the green gown, then to the dressing screen standing discreetly in the corner. An unspoken instruction that felt more like an order.
Isabelle accepted the dress with reluctant hands. The fabric pooled between her fingers. Hidden silver threads caught the low light, creating miniature constellations across the dark surface. Even holding it sent a dull throb through her.
A memory surfaced, unbidden. Another dress. Another party. The night at Avengers Tower after they’d found Loki’s scepter. The night Ultron had first spoken. The night everything had started to unravel.
“You clean up nice, kid.” Her father’s voice in her ear, the weight of his hand on her shoulder. Pride and distance in equal measure.
Something twisted in her chest—not quite pain, not quite grief. Something sharper, with teeth that bit into soft tissue. She swallowed against it, tasting copper at the back of her throat.
She inhaled slowly, feeling the protest of her ribs. She’d pushed too far, too fast. She knew it. Her body knew it. Every cell screamed for rest, for darkness, for silence. The thought of standing in a room full of strangers, smiling and pretending she hadn’t died hours ago, made her stomach clench.
And Nagel. Somewhere in this city, Nagel was breathing, living, existing. The man who had helped tear her apart molecule by molecule. The man who had watched with clinical detachment as they’d pushed her beyond human limits. The man whose voice still echoed in her nightmares: “Subject shows remarkable resilience. Increase the dosage.”
She needed to be at her best when they found him. Not half-dead and propped up by stubborn pride.
Isabelle looked up, meeting Sharon’s expectant gaze, then glancing at Sam’s raised eyebrow, and finally—reluctantly—at Bucky. His expression was unreadable, but something in the set of his jaw told her he was waiting. Watching. Reading her in that unnervingly accurate way of his.
“Thanks,” she said, the word coming out softer than intended. She cleared her throat, straightening her spine despite the protest from her ribs. “But... no thanks.”
Bucky furrowed his brow so sharply it looked painful. Sam straightened from his casual stance, blinking twice as if he’d misheard. Zemo, still next to her, tilted his head ever so slightly.
“I’m sitting this one out,” Isabelle continued, tugging her sweater sleeves down over her knuckles, a gesture that felt suddenly, uncomfortably vulnerable. She forced steel into her voice to compensate. “My body’s calling in some debts, and I think... for once... I’m actually gonna listen.”
“You’re what now?” Sam gasped, taking a step closer to her.
“Sitting this out,” Isabelle repeated, handing the dress back to Sharon. The fabric slipped between her fingers—a cool, silken goodbye that left phantom sensations on her skin. “Not exactly rocket science, Wilson.”
“No, I heard you.” Sam crossed his arms, the brown turtleneck stretching across his shoulders as he leaned forward, squinting at her face. “I’m just trying to process Isabelle Stark voluntarily benching herself. Are you feeling feverish again?” He reached toward her forehead, palm outstretched.
“Stop it, Sam,” she swatted his hand away. Her fingers brushed against his wrist, and for a split second, she felt his pulse—steady, strong, alive. Everything she wasn’t quite yet. “Didn’t you just tell me about resting? Some revolutionary concept I should look into?”
“Huh.” Sam tilted his head, studying her with new eyes. He opened his mouth to respond, but Sharon cut in before he could speak.
“You’re gonna miss a hell of a time,” Sharon said, already folding the dress over her arm.
“I’ve seen enough hell to hold me over,” Isabelle muttered.
Sharon rolled her eyes, placing the dress back onto the rack with a soft metallic hanger sliding against the rod. “Come on,” she said, jerking her chin toward the open door. “I’ll show you where you can hang out. Living room’s comfortable.”
“Thanks,” Isabelle said, the syllable still unfamiliar on her tongue, like a foreign word she was learning to pronounce. Gratitude had never come easily to her—not when it meant acknowledging she needed something from someone else.
“Try not to get blood on the couch if you nosebleed again,” Sharon added, already moving toward the door with brisk steps. “The upholstery’s imported.”
“I’ll do my best to contain my bodily fluids,” Isabelle replied dryly, following Sharon with a slight limp she couldn’t quite hide.
At the door, she paused, glancing back over her shoulder. Sam was tugging on a tailored jacket, Zemo had returned to his studied boredom, examining his fingernails as if they held the secrets of the universe. But Bucky—
Bucky was still watching her, his expression unreadable beneath the curtain of dark hair that fell across his forehead. His eyes, though—those were impossible to misinterpret. Concern, wariness, and something else she couldn’t quite name. Something that made her stomach flip.
“Behave tonight, alright?” she said to all of them, but her eyes stayed on him. “Try not to blow anything up. Or get arrested. Or start an international incident.”
Sam offered a mock salute, his smile crooked and familiar. “No promises.”
“We’ll try to stay boring,” Bucky said, his voice low.
Isabelle’s lips curved into a small, genuine smile. The expression felt strange on her face, muscles moving in unfamiliar patterns. “You? Never.”
Something flickered across his face—surprise, maybe. Or something warmer. His eyes held hers for a beat longer than necessary, a silent exchange she couldn’t quite translate but could feel in the sudden tightness of her chest, the subtle shift in the air between them.
She turned before the moment could stretch into something dangerous, something she wasn’t equipped to handle—not now, not with her body in rebellion and Nagel’s name still echoing in her mind like a curse. She followed Sharon into the hallway.
“Living room’s through here,” Sharon said, leading her toward a set of double doors at the end of the hall. “There’s a panic button under the coffee table if anything happens. Not that it will.” She glanced back at Isabelle, her expression unreadable. “But in Madripoor, it pays to be prepared.”
Isabelle nodded, filing the information away. Panic button. Coffee table. The mental checklist was formed without conscious effort.
Sharon pushed the doors open, revealing the space. Floor-to-ceiling windows dominated the far wall, a massive sectional sofa faced the windows, piled with throw pillows in various shades of gray and silver. A glass coffee table—presumably hiding the panic button—anchored the seating area, its surface empty save for a single art book and a crystal decanter.
“Kitchen’s through there,” Sharon gestured to an archway on the right, where Isabelle caught glimpses of stainless steel and marble. “Help yourself.” She moved to a sleek entertainment console beneath a mounted television that looked thin enough to disappear when viewed from the side. “Remote’s here. Streaming services, cable, whatever. Password for the wifi is on the back.”
Isabelle limped further into the room, taking in the details—no personal touches. Nothing revealed anything about Sharon Carter beyond her expensive taste and attention to security. It was a beautiful space designed to reveal absolutely nothing about its occupant—a safehouse disguised as a luxury apartment.
“Thanks,” Isabelle said, lowering herself carefully onto the edge of the sofa. The cushions were firmer than they looked, offering just enough support to ease the pressure on her aching body. She sank into them with a barely suppressed sigh of relief.
Sharon handed her the remote, then paused, her expression shifting into something harder, more serious. She glanced toward the open doorway, then back to Isabelle.
“I’m serious about Nagel,” she said, her voice dropping to just above a whisper. The change in tone made Isabelle’s spine straighten despite the protest from her ribs. “You kill him, and the Power Broker will hunt you down.” Sharon’s eyes were cold, calculating, assessing Isabelle’s reaction with the precision of someone who’d interrogated people for a living. “And trust me, what happened tonight? That was nothing compared to what the Power Broker can do.”
Isabelle met her gaze, refusing to flinch despite the chill that crawled up her spine. “You seem to know an awful lot about this Power Broker,” she observed, keeping her voice deliberately casual. “Professional courtesy between criminals?”
Sharon’s laugh was sharp and humorless. “In Madripoor, everyone knows about the Power Broker. That’s the point.” She crossed her arms, leaning against the entertainment console. “He’s everywhere and nowhere. You don’t see him coming until it’s too late.”
“Sounds like a ghost story to scare the locals,” Isabelle said, though the tremor in her fingers betrayed her attempt at nonchalance. She curled them against her palm, nails digging into flesh.
“It’s not a story.” Sharon’s voice had an edge now, sharp enough to cut. “The Power Broker doesn’t just kill you. He takes everything—your reputation, your connections, your future. He makes examples of people.” She pushed off from the console, taking a step closer. “And he’s particularly interested in the serum. In Nagel.”
Something in Sharon’s intensity made Isabelle uneasy. The hairs on the back of her neck stood up, an animal instinct warning of danger. She’d seen that look before—in people who knew more than they were saying, who were calculating exactly how much truth to reveal.
“Why are you telling me this?” Isabelle asked, her voice quieter now.
Sharon’s expression softened, just barely—a crack in the professional façade. “Because I’ve seen that look before. On Steve. On myself.” She paused, her eyes searching Isabelle’s face. “The look of someone who’s planning something stupid and calling it justice.”
Isabelle’s jaw tightened. The comparison to Steve should have felt like a compliment, but instead, it landed like an accusation. “I’m not—”
“Save it,” Sharon cut her off with a dismissive wave. “I don’t need to know your plans. I just need you to understand the consequences.” She straightened, professional distance sliding back into place like armor. “Get some rest.”
The door closed behind her with a soft click, leaving Isabelle alone. She leaned back against the cushions, letting her head fall against the soft fabric. Isabelle closed her eyes, feeling the weight of exhaustion press against her.
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Popcorn. Pressure points. Pain.
Isabelle benches herself from the party... but Bucky doesn’t let her stay alone.What starts as a quiet night in—classic movies, cold tea, a little banter—turns into something much heavier. And softer. And closer than either of them expected.
Pain shared. History exposed. Trust, quite literally, laid bare. And when his hand settles over her heartbeat... it’s not just muscles unraveling.The slow burn? It’s burning now.
And neither of them is ready for what that means.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 35: Touch, and Other Dangerous Things
Chapter 35: Touch, and Other Dangerous Things
Summary:
She stays behind while the others party—body aching, nerves frayed, ghosts close.
Bucky finds her on the couch, all sharp edges and Cary Grant reruns.What starts as banter turns into pressure points, confessions, and the kind of quiet that says I see you.
Pain is shared. History is named. Trust is offered in touch.And somewhere between aching muscles and almost-kisses... the slow burn catches heat.
Notes:
I HAVE BEEN WAITING WEEKS FOR THIS ONE. Like, I wrote this chapter a month ago and have been vibrating ever since. Every time one of you was like “we’re ready for the slow burn to burn!!” I had to just sit there like 😶🔥 because I KNEW. I KNEW WHAT WAS COMING.
Well guess what, besties.
WE ARE OFFICIALLY IN THE FIRE ZONE.
Can’t wait to scream with you in the comments. LET’S GO. AHHHHH.
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Fade Into You" by Mazzy Star
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Chapter Text
Isabelle curled deeper into the couch, tucking her knees to her chest. Every nerve ending still fired at once, hypersensitive and raw. She tugged at the knit throw, trying to cover her bare ankles, but it fell short. Another small defeat. She was collecting them today like bruises.
On the TV screen, Cary Grant moved through the black and white world with impossible charm. All sharp angles and perfect timing, not a hair out of place. His voice carried that particular mid-century cadence. Clipped consonants, rounded vowels, everything precise and polished. The kind of voice that belonged to a world where problems got solved in ninety minutes flat, where the bad guys were obvious, and the heroes never woke up screaming.
“Must be nice,” she whispered to the screen, her voice scraping against her throat.
Her tea had gone cold. Chamomile with lavender. Sharon’s idea of comfort. Isabelle lifted the mug anyway, inhaling the floral scent that did nothing to calm the tremor in her hands. She took a sip and grimaced as the tepid bitterness coated her tongue, clinging to the back of her throat.
“God, that’s awful,” she muttered, setting the mug back on the coffee table.
She eyed her phone, lying dark and silent beside the tea. The text to Rhodey had taken her twenty minutes to compose, fingers hovering over the screen, deleting and rewriting until she’d finally hit send on something that wouldn’t make him worry more than necessary.
Out of country with Sam and Bucky—can’t say much else. Safe. Love you, will update.
Not enough. Never enough. But a start.
She could almost see Rhodey’s face as he read it, the furrow between his brows deepening, the way his jaw would tighten. He’d know she was lying—not about being with Sam and Bucky, but about being safe. He knew her too well.
She uncurled slowly, stretching her legs along the couch. Pain shot through her calves, her thighs, her hips—a domino effect of protest that pulled a hiss through her clenched teeth. Her muscles felt like they’d been wrung out, twisted, and stretched beyond their limits. She tugged the throw higher anyway, up to her chin.
A floorboard creaked in the hallway.
Isabelle’s muscles tensed before her brain could process why. Another creak—closer now. Footsteps. Not heavy, not rushed. Left foot slightly heavier than right. A half-second pause between steps. The sound of someone trying to be quiet but deliberately making noise.
For her benefit. So she wouldn’t startle.
A shadow fell across the threshold. Isabelle flinched despite herself, a tiny involuntary jerk that sent pain skittering across her raw nerve endings.
“It’s just me.”
The low rumble of his voice loosened something in her chest—Bucky.
She turned her head, a lightning strike of pain shooting from her shoulder up through her neck. He stood in the doorway, a dark silhouette against the hallway’s light, one broad shoulder pressed against the wooden frame. His metal arm hung at his side, the vibranium plates catching slivers of the television’s flickering light—now silver, now shadow, now silver again.
“Thought you’d be at the party,” Isabelle said. She didn’t bother straightening up. The couch had practically swallowed her whole, and she preferred it that way—sinking into something soft when everything else felt so dangerously sharp. “What happened? Sam try to make you dance?”
Bucky’s eyes moved over her, taking in her disheveled hair, the half-empty snack wrappers littering the coffee table, the sweater slipping off one shoulder.
“Didn’t feel like playing dress-up,” he said with a shrug. He stepped into the room fully.
“And Zemo?” She raised an eyebrow. She shifted on the couch, making room without directly inviting him to sit. Her body protested every inch she moved.
“Dancing,” Bucky replied, face completely straight, not a flicker of humor except for something almost mischievous lurking in his eyes. “With…enthusiasm.”
Isabelle blinked once. Twice. The image refused to compute. “You’re lying.”
“Nope.” One corner of his mouth twitched upward.
“Zemo? Dancing?” She stared at him, searching for the joke, the punchline, the gotcha. “Baron Helmut Zemo? The man who tore the Avengers apart? That Zemo? Dancing?”
“Like he was born for it.” Bucky’s voice remained deadpan, but the twitch at his mouth had become more pronounced.
“That’s…” Isabelle shook her head, immediately wincing at the starburst of pain behind her eyes. She tried to picture Zemo—with his perfectly tailored clothes and aristocratic bearing—cutting loose on a dance floor. “Disturbing. And somehow not the weirdest thing that’s happened this week.”
Bucky chuckled, then looked to the television, where Grant gestured wildly. Something flickered across Bucky’s face. Recognition, nostalgia, then something deeper that made the lines around his eyes crease—a memory surfacing from the depths.
“What?” Isabelle asked, catching the shift in his expression.
Bucky hesitated. For a moment, she thought he might retreat behind that wall he so carefully maintained. Instead, he surprised her.
“Saw that one with Steve. Opening weekend, 1940.” His voice changed when he spoke about the past, specifically the pre-war past—the roughness giving way to something almost tender, the Brooklyn accent thickening just enough to notice. “Theater on Flatbush Avenue. Sticky floors. Broken air conditioning.”
Isabelle watched his face more than the screen, fascinated by this glimpse of the man he’d been before.
“Steve kept laughing so hard, people were giving us looks. Had to practically drag the kid out before he triggered an asthma attack.” A ghost of a smile touched his lips, genuine this time, warming his eyes. “Skinny punk couldn’t breathe right, but he wouldn’t miss the ending for anything.”
The fondness in his voice made something twist in Isabelle’s chest. The smile on his face was so unguarded, so different from his usual carefully controlled expressions, that she found herself staring.
“What?” he asked, catching her gaze.
“Nothing,” she said too quickly, then amended: “Just... I forget sometimes that you were actually there. That all this—” she gestured vaguely at the black and white film “—wasn’t just history for you. It was Tuesday.”
“Most Tuesdays weren’t that memorable.” Bucky’s smile faded, but not completely.
He moved further into the room. His eyes never left her face, watching for something—permission. Or signs that she wanted him gone.
Isabelle studied him in return—the way he positioned himself just beyond the invisible boundary of her space, one shoulder against the wall, weight balanced on the balls of his feet. Neither fully present nor preparing to leave. A perfect tactical position. Ready for anything.
Ready to stay. Ready to go.
“You gonna hover all night, or...?” Isabelle patted the empty cushion beside her. “I’m not contagious,” she added dryly, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, her fingers slightly trembling from exhaustion. “At least, not accidentally.”
The barest hint of amusement cracked through. “Funny,” he murmured, one corner of his mouth twitching further upward again.
Isabelle smirked back at him, the small victory warming her chest. She shifted on the couch, patting the cushion again. “Come on, Barnes, the couch won’t bite.” She paused, tilting her head slightly.
Bucky’s weight shifted from his left foot to his right, then he moved, crossing the remaining distance in two deliberate steps. The cushion dipped beneath him, closing the careful distance she’d left between them by a few inches.
He watched the screen, his attention seemingly fixed on Grant’s rapid-fire delivery. The furrow between his brows gradually softened, like ice thawing under gentle heat. Isabelle noticed how his shoulders lowered a fraction, how his spine eased against the cushions. His metal hand rested on his thigh while his right hand lay palm-up in the space between them, fingers slightly curled.
“They really did talk like that back then,” he said suddenly. “Not everyone, but reporters especially. And guys trying to sell you something.” He smiled fully without realizing it. “Like they were getting paid by word and trying to squeeze in every last cent.”
“Fast talkers, huh?” Isabelle reached for her mug, grimacing at the taste and temperature, but swallowed it anyway. She was too drained to make the journey to the kitchen for something better. “Steve said you were quite the talker yourself.”
His head turned toward her, surprise flashing across his features. Eyebrows lifted, eyes widened slightly. “Oh yeah?” Guardedness gave way to curiosity. “What else did Steve say about me?”
Isabelle set the mug down, tracing its rim with her fingertip. The small circular motion helped steady the slight tremor of her hand. “He’d tell me stories about how you’d get all the ladies.” She paused, a small smile playing at her lips. “Sorry—wait, not ladies. Dolls? Or, was it dames….that’s what you used to call girls, right?”
His eyes met hers, warm and amused kindling in their blue depths. “Dames, yeah.” The word sounded different in his mouth, rounded at the edges with that hint of Brooklyn. “Though that word’ll get you in trouble these days.” He kept his smile. “What else did Steve tell you?”
“That you were the charmer of Brooklyn.” She let the throw fall lower, sitting up straighter. “Said you could talk your way into or out of anything.” She tucked her legs closer to her body, leaning forward more. “Said you’d spend your last dollar on pomade on more than one occasion for your hair before a date.”
Bucky huffed a sound that might have been a laugh—rusty and underused, but genuine. His flesh hand moved to his hair, fingers running through the dark strands in an unconscious gesture.
“Not entirely wrong.” The admission came with a self-deprecating tilt of his head. “Used to slick it back. Thought I was hot stuff.”
“And were you?” The question slipped out before she could catch it, her voice lighter than it had been all day. “Hot stuff?”
A memory surfaced, then half-submerged again. “I did alright.” His gaze dropped to his hands, metal and flesh resting side by side on his thighs. “Steve exaggerated. Always made me sound better than I was.”
“Really?” She arched an eyebrow. She shifted, wincing as her muscles protested, but turned to face him more fully. “What were you like, then? Before... everything.”
Bucky was quiet for so long that she thought he might not answer.
“Loud,” he said finally, the word emerging like something excavated from deep within. “Cocky. Always running my mouth.” His eyes remained fixed on his hands, but his focus was clearly elsewhere, decades ago. “Flirting with any girl who’d look my way twice.”
The image was so at odds with the quiet, watchful man beside her that Isabelle found herself trying to reconcile the two versions. The brash young sergeant from Brooklyn and the haunted ex-assassin who moved through the world like he was perpetually asking permission to exist in it.
She reached for the bowl of popcorn, offering it to him with deliberate casualness. The kernels shifted against her fingers, still warm enough to leave a buttery residue on her skin.
“So what happened to that guy?” she asked, trying to keep her tone light. The words left her mouth and hung in the air between them, and she immediately wanted to snatch them back. “I’m sorry, that was—” She broke off, mentally kicking herself. “I know what happened. I don’t know why I asked that.”
She became aware of a weight, his gaze on her face, steady and unblinking. Not watching the movie at all. Watching her. The intensity of it made her skin prickle, not unpleasantly.
“He fell off a train,” Bucky said quietly. No bitterness in the words, just a simple statement of fact. His voice was soft, almost gentle, as if he were the one comforting her for the misstep. “Died somewhere in the Alps. What came back was... something else.”
The popcorn bowl hovered between them, forgotten. Isabelle’s fingers tightened on its edge, the cardboard bending slightly under her grip.
“I don’t know,” she said, her voice barely above a whisper. She met his eyes directly, something compelling her toward honesty despite the vulnerability it created. “I think you’ve shown me some pieces of him.”
Bucky’s eyes widened slightly, surprise flickering across his features before he could mask it. His gaze dropped to her lips for a fraction of a second—so brief she might have imagined it—before returning to the TV, then back to her.
Isabelle became acutely aware of her own breathing—too shallow, too deliberate—and the way the couch cushion dipped slightly toward him, gravity itself conspiring to close the gap. She gulped and leaned back into the cushions, trying for casual and missing by a mile. The velvet upholstery caught against her borrowed sweater, creating a soft friction that somehow amplified the deep ache in her shoulders. She couldn’t suppress the slight wince as her muscles protested.
His eyes tracked the movement, missing nothing. They didn’t waver, focused with an intensity that made her skin prickle with goosebumps. Not the clinical assessment of a tactician, but something more... personal. Something that made her want to lean closer and bolt from the room simultaneously.
“You’re in pain still.”
Not a question. A statement of fact, delivered in that low, gravel-rough voice that seemed to bypass her ears and settle somewhere at the base of her spine.
“Stunning observation, Barnes,” she replied, but the words lacked their usual bite. She was too tired for real venom, too worn down by the constant throb that had become her shadow. “What gave it away? The limping or the general aura of misery?”
“Both.” His gaze tracked over her face, cataloging details she wished he couldn’t see. The tightness around her eyes. The way she held her left shoulder slightly higher than her right. The controlled, measured breaths she took when a movement sent pain lancing through her. “Plus, your breathing pattern changes when you move wrong. Shallower. Controlled. Three-second pauses between inhales when something hurts.”
Isabelle blinked, momentarily thrown by the observation. The popcorn bowl suddenly felt heavy in her hands, the butter congealing on her fingertips. “That’s... unsettling.”
“That’s training,” he corrected, shifting his weight slightly on the couch. The cushion dipped further, closing the gap between them by another inch. “You learn to read pain in targets. Helps predict movement.”
“Great. So I’m a target now?” She set the bowl down, kernels jumping and scattering across the coffee table like tiny escapees. One rolled to the edge and fell to the floor with a soft plunk.
“No.” Something in his face shifted, softened fractionally. The hard line of his jaw relaxed, and those storm-cloud eyes warmed by a degree. “Just someone in pain trying to downplay it.”
Isabelle looked away first, her gaze dropping to her hands. She could feel the blood vibrating in her veins, a strange humming sensation that always followed when her powers rebounded on her. A tremor passed through her body—not quite a shiver, not quite a shake.
“It’s not...” she started, then stopped, searching for words that wouldn’t sound pathetic. “It’s manageable. Whatever I inflict on others or what I heal from... it sticks to me sometimes. Like an echo.”
She reached up without thinking, fingers digging into the knot in her shoulder muscle. Her nails pressed into her skin through the sweater, applying pressure that only seemed to worsen the pain. Instead of relief, the sensation radiated outward, spreading like ink in water, seeping into tissue and bone.
“The pain has... memory,” she said, voice dropping lower. “It knows where to go, where it’s been before. Takes a while to fade. Sometimes it doesn’t. Or it does, then comes back with a vengeance when I least expect it.”
She rolled her neck slightly. A small sound escaped her—not quite a gasp, more like air punched from her lungs. His eyes narrowed at the sound, tracking her movements with that unsettling focus.
“Does it help if you—” He hesitated, then made a vague gesture with his flesh hand, pressing thumb and fingers together in a kneading motion. “If you put pressure on it? The pain points?”
Isabelle remembered their conversation in the hallway. How his eyes had softened when she’d mentioned phantom pain, how he understood the way pain could echo through a body long after the wound had closed.
She nodded, surprised by the question and the careful way he asked it. “Sometimes. Depends where.” She tried again to reach the spot between her shoulder blades, her fingers straining, finding no relief.
His eyes tracked where her hand was still working at her shoulder, fingers digging beneath the soft green sweater. “I could...” he started, then stopped abruptly. He shook his head once, a sharp dismissal of whatever he’d been about to offer. “Never mind.”
“What?” she pressed, curiosity overriding caution. The pain made her bolder, more willing to reach for relief, even if it came from unexpected quarters.
His eyes met hers again, and the uncertainty layered over determination, like he was standing at the edge of a cliff, calculating the drop.
“I know some pressure points,” he said finally, each word measured, careful. “For pain. From... before. And after.” The words hung between them, heavy with what they didn’t say. Before Hydra. After Wakanda. “Might help.”
The offer settled in the space between them, weighted with implications neither acknowledged. His hands—one flesh, one vibranium—capable of crushing throats and snapping bones, now offered as instruments of relief. Hands that had killed, hands that had been weapons, now potentially something else entirely.
Isabelle hesitated, weighing relief against vulnerability. The pain made a compelling argument. She’d endured worse, but this was different. A constant, grinding ache that dulled her thoughts and frayed her nerves. It’d been like this for weeks after Siberia.
“Okay,” she said finally.
Bucky’s eyes widened fractionally. He’d offered without expecting her to accept. His weight shifted on the couch as he turned toward her, movements deliberately slow and telegraphed, giving her every opportunity to change her mind.
“Where’s it worst?” he asked, his voice taking on a clinical edge that somehow made this feel safer for both of them.
Isabelle mentally mapped the topography of her pain, cataloging the hot spots. “Left shoulder,” she admitted after a moment. “And down the spine. Like someone’s dragging hot coals along each vertebra.” The admission cost her something—acknowledging weakness always did.
Bucky nodded once, all business now. “Turn,” he instructed, making a small circular motion with his flesh hand.
She complied, shifting carefully to present her back to him. The position left her feeling exposed, her spine to a former assassin, her neck unprotected. Every instinct honed through years of training and survival screamed against it. She forced her breathing to remain steady, counting each inhale.
The first touch of his hand, his left, settled on her shoulder through the sweater. The contact set a jolt through her system. His palm was broader than she’d expected, fingers longer, the weight of his solid and grounding.
“I can feel the knots even through this,” he murmured, thumb pressing experimentally against a particularly tight bundle of muscle. The pressure sent a sharp spike of pain relief that made her breath catch. “But it would work better if—” He stopped abruptly, clearing his throat.
“If what?” Isabelle asked, glancing back over her shoulder. Their faces were closer than she’d anticipated, close enough that she could see the different shades of blue in his eyes, the shadow of stubble along his jaw.
His eyes met hers for a heartbeat before darting away. A flush crept up his neck, barely visible in the television’s flickering light. “The sweater,” he said, voice rougher than before. “It’s... in the way. Would you be comfortable—” He gestured vaguely with his metal hand.
Heat bloomed across Isabelle’s cheeks, spreading down her neck. “Oh.”
“Only if you’re okay with it,” he added quickly, the metal hand pulling back as if her skin had suddenly become molten. The warmth of it disappeared, leaving a ghost-print of sensation behind. “I can work around it. It just won’t be as—” He cleared his throat. “—effective.”
Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat suddenly desert-dry. She stared at his hands for a moment. Both now hovering in the space between them, offering something else entirely.
“No, it’s fine,” she said, voice steadier than the trembling in her fingertips would suggest. She wrapped those treacherous fingers around the hem of the sweater, anchoring them. “I mean, you’ve already seen me in just a towel, so...”
The joke hung awkwardly between them, a failed attempt at lightness. Bucky’s eyes widened slightly, and the flush that had started at his neck spread across his cheekbones in uneven patches. His gaze dropped to where her fingers clutched the sweater’s hem, then snapped back up to her face with almost comical speed.
“I didn’t—that wasn’t—” He stumbled over the words, looking for all the world like a man who’d accidentally stepped into quicksand and was rapidly sinking.
“Relax, Barnes,” she said, surprising herself with a small, genuine laugh that seemed to loosen something in her chest. “I’m just giving you a hard time.” She hesitated, fingers still twisted in the soft fabric. “Um, let’s just keep the tank on, yeah?”
“Of course,” he replied, so quickly it almost made her smile despite everything. His eyes were very deliberately fixed on her face, not wandering even a fraction of an inch.
As she lifted her arms, her muscles seized—a white-hot flash of pain that made her freeze mid-motion, a hiss escaping through clenched teeth. Before she could push through it, Bucky’s hands were there, hovering, not touching, waiting for permission.
“Let me,” he said quietly. “Before you hurt yourself worse.”
She nodded, dropping her arms in surrender. His fingers caught the edge of the soft fabric with surprising gentleness. She raised her arms halfway, teeth clenched against the burning sensation that raced across her shoulder blades. The sweater slid upward as he eased the fabric over her head.
The air hit her exposed arms and shoulders, raising another wave of goosebumps. The gray tank top suddenly felt like too little and too much all at once. She resisted the urge to cross her arms over her chest, instead focusing on the weight of the sweater no longer pressing against her tender skin.
“Okay?” he asked, folding the sweater with military precision before setting it aside on the coffee table.
“Yeah,” she admitted, surprised by how much lighter she felt. “Thanks.”
He nodded, hands hovering just above her skin. “I’m going to start with the shoulder. Tell me if anything hurts. More than it should, I mean.”
His thumb made contact first, pressing into a spot just below her shoulder blade. Isabelle’s world narrowed to that single point, a knot of tension she hadn’t even realized was there. Her jaw visibly clenched, and her hands coiled into fists.
“Breathe,” he murmured, his voice so close to her ear that she could feel the warmth of his breath against her neck.
She inhaled so sharply. The tank top was thin enough that she could feel the calluses on his right hand, the slight roughness that caught against the cotton as he moved his thumb in small, precise circles.
“Shit,” she whispered as he found a particularly tender spot, her voice catching on the word.
“Found it,” he said, a hint of satisfaction in his tone. His thumb dug deeper, and the pain flared bright and hot before dissolving into something else entirely—a release that made her shoulders drop an inch.
His left hand settled at her waist, steadying her as he worked. The vibranium was cooler than his flesh hand, but not cold. The plates shifted slightly against her, recalibrating with whisper-quiet precision as he adjusted his grip.
“Okay?” he asked, pausing when she tensed slightly again.
“Yeah,” she managed.
His right hand moved up, tracing the curve where her neck met her shoulder, finding another knot with unerring accuracy. His thumb pressed in, and this time the pain was sharper, more focused. It hurt worse than before, sending sparks shooting down her arm. Then something released, a band of tension she’d been carrying for days, maybe weeks, suddenly unspooling.
“God,” she breathed, the word escaping without permission as the relief flooded through her system. Her head fell forward instinctively, exposing the vulnerable curve of her neck. The small, involuntary surrender made her pulse quicken.
“Too much?” Bucky asked, his voice concerned.
“No,” she said quickly, perhaps too quickly. She swallowed, tried again. “No, it’s—” She rotated her shoulder experimentally, feeling space where there had been only constriction moments before. “—good.”
His fingers resumed their work, moving with more confidence now. His thumb traced the ridge of her shoulder blade, following the contours of bone and muscle. The metal hand at her waist remained steady, an anchor point that kept her from swaying as his other hand worked deeper.
“How’d you learn this?” she asked, partly to distract herself, partly because she genuinely wanted to know.
“Wakanda,” he said after a moment. “Part of my recovery. They taught me...” He trailed off, searching for words. His thumb worked a particularly stubborn knot at the base of her neck. “How to use these hands for something besides destruction.”
She wanted to turn around, to see his face, but she remained still, afraid of breaking whatever fragile thing was building in this quiet room.
“They did a good job,” she said instead, wincing as he found another tender spot.
His hands moved lower, working down her spine, each vertebra receiving attention. “Breathe through it,” he instructed when she tensed at a particularly painful spot. “The muscle’s fighting back.”
She inhaled slowly, forcing air deep into her lungs, then released it in a controlled exhale. He worked the spot with patient insistence, thumb pressing in small, tight circles. Bucky’s hands moved to her mid-back, thumbs pressing on either side of her spine.
Her eyes drifted closed despite herself as he increased the pressure gradually. He read her body’s responses, adjusting without being asked, found pain she’d been carrying so long she’d forgotten it wasn’t normal.
Something deep in the muscle finally released, the sensation so intense, so unexpected, that the sound escaped before she could catch it—a low, throaty moan that filled the quiet room.
Bucky’s hands froze instantly. Every point of contact between them suddenly charged with electricity. The air in the room felt thinner, harder to draw into her lungs.
Heat rushed to Isabelle’s face, spreading down her neck in a flush she couldn’t control. She could feel his breath against her hair, slightly faster than it had been moments before. His metal hand at her waist had gone completely still, no longer even the subtle whir of calibration.
“Sorry,” she said, the word coming out huskier than intended. She cleared her throat, hyperaware of the warmth of his palm through the thin cotton of her tank top. “That was—”
“Don’t apologize.” His voice had dropped to that dangerous register, all gravel and restraint. His hands hadn’t moved, still pressed against her skin, now burning with a different kind of heat. “It means it’s working.”
She swallowed, suddenly aware of how close they were sitting, of the weight of his gaze on the back of her neck. Time seemed to stretch and compress simultaneously, seconds expanding into small eternities.
“You’re carrying everything here,” he said, pressing into the space between her shoulder blades where the tension was thickest. “Like you’re bracing for a hit that never comes.”
“Old habit,” she murmured, eyes still closed. “Old injury.”
His fingers paused, just for a moment. The sudden absence of pressure made her aware of how much she’d been leaning into his touch.
“From what?”
Isabelle opened her eyes. Memories surfaced, barbed and vivid. The metallic interior of the Quinjet. The low hum of engines. Bruce’s eyes—warm brown one moment, then something else entirely. The moment of realization that came too late.
“Ultron,” she said finally, the name falling from her lips like poison. She swallowed, mouth suddenly dry. “Or well, Bruce, really.”
Bucky’s hands stilled completely, but remained on her skin. Waiting.
“Ultron was trying to get vibranium. Wanda was with him then,” Isabelle continued, “she got in Bruce’s head. Made him see something that triggered the Hulk.”
Bucky’s thumb moved again, tracing small circles at the base of her spine. Not pushing, just present. Listening with his hands as much as his ears.
“I was with him. Thought I could help.” She gave a bitter laugh that scraped against her throat. “Stupid.”
“What happened?” Bucky asked, his voice so low she felt it more than heard it, a rumble that seemed to travel from his chest through his hands and into her skin.
“He didn’t recognize me.” Her voice flattened. “Threw a bus at me. Then threw me into a wall. Several walls, actually.”
She inhaled sharply as Bucky’s thumb found the exact point where the damage had festered over the years. It was a spot just below her left shoulder blade where the bone had fractured and healed wrong, where scar tissue had formed a permanent knot beneath the skin.
“You can still find the footage online if you want a laugh,” she added, the attempt at humor falling flat even to her own ears.
Something in her tone made him pause, and she felt his gaze on the back of her neck, heavy and searching. She turned, just enough to see his face over her shoulder.
His eyes were distant, focused on some point beyond her, beyond the room. The furrow between his brows had deepened, and his jaw was set in a tight line. His gaze snapped back to hers, startled by the movement. For a moment, they just looked at each other.
“Did you forgive him?” Bucky asked suddenly, his voice rough at the edges. “Banner?”
The question caught her off guard. She blinked, considering. No one had ever asked her that before. Most people just assumed—Bruce was the Hulk, the Hulk wasn’t in control, therefore, Bruce wasn’t responsible. Simple math. But the reality had been messier, the pain more complicated.
She remembered Bruce’s face afterward. The horror in his eyes when they got to Clint’s home, how he saw the damage he’d done.
“There was nothing to forgive,” she said finally, the words coming slowly, each one weighed and measured. “It wasn’t him. Not really.”
She studied Bucky’s face, the tightness around his eyes, the way his metal fingers curled slightly against her waist. Understanding dawned slowly, like the first gray light before sunrise. This wasn’t about Bruce at all.
Her mind flashed to the plane. Zemo’s voice, calm, taunting, as he revealed what was written in that notebook. Her name written amongst those wronged by the Winter Soldier. Her father’s parents—Howard and Maria Stark—dead at the hands of the man now touching her with such careful gentleness.
The memory should have made her pull away. Instead, she found herself turning more fully toward him, ignoring the protest in her muscles.
“Just like it wasn’t you,” she said softly, holding his gaze. “With all those people. With my father’s parents.”
His hands froze on her back. Every muscle in his body tensed, coiled tight like a spring under immense pressure. The muscle in his jaw jumped once, twice, a visible pulse of tension.
“Not the same,” he said, the words clipped, each one bitten off as if it hurt to speak them.
“Isn’t it?” Isabelle shifted to face him more fully, her knee brushing against his thigh as she turned. “Bruce was under Wanda’s influence. You were under HYDRA’s. Neither of you had a choice.”
Bucky’s eyes darkened, storm clouds gathering. His right hand slipped from her back, coming to rest on his own thigh, fingers curling into a loose fist. But his left hand remained at her waist, the metal warm now from the contact with her skin.
“I remember all of them,” he said, his voice as low as it could. “Every face. Every…” He swallowed, Adam’s apple bobbing visibly against the taut skin of his throat. “Every name. Every scream.”
The raw confession lay between them, fragile and frightening. Isabelle watched his eyes—how they seemed to look through her rather than at her, focused on ghosts only he could see.
Isabelle reached for his hand—his left hand, the metal one—before she could overthink it. The vibranium was warm now from contact with her skin, no longer the cold weapon but something alive, something part of him. Her fingers wrapped around his, metal plates shifting minutely beneath her touch.
Bucky stared at their joined hands as if witnessing something impossible. His fingers remained rigid, unmoving, as if he feared what might happen if he returned the pressure.
“For years I thought I was a monster,” she continued, her voice steadying as she spoke. She lifted his hand, drawing it closer until she pressed it against her sternum, just above her heart, to show she trusted him. The weight of it felt right somehow, anchoring her to the moment. “Some days I still do.”
His eyes widened, pupils dilating as he felt her heartbeat against his palm. Steady, strong, slightly too fast.
“But we didn’t choose this,” she said, holding his gaze. “HYDRA did this to you. To us. They broke us open and poured in their poison and expected us to thank them for it.”
His throat worked, swallowing something unsaid. The plates in his arm recalibrated with a soft whir, but he didn’t pull away.
“You know what I see when I look at you, Barnes?” she asked, her voice dropping lower, something fierce threading through it.
He shook his head once, a barely perceptible movement. His eyes never left her face, searching for something, a lie, perhaps, or the disgust he expected to find.
“I see someone who’s been through hell,” she said finally, her voice steadier than she felt. “And came back anyway.”
His fingers curled against her chest, just a fraction, no longer rigid but gently conforming to the curve of her body. His gaze dropped to where his metal hand rested against her, the contrast stark—gleaming vibranium against soft cotton and softer skin. His thumb moved, just once, a small circular motion that sent a current racing through her body.
“When I was in Wakanda,” he said slowly, each word chosen with careful precision, “Ayo told me something I didn’t believe at the time.” He paused, the furrow between his brows deepening. “She said the things that are done to us don’t define us. Our choices do.”
His eyes met hers again, and Isabelle became acutely aware of how close they were sitting, of the heat radiating from him, of the weight of his hand still pressed against her chest. The air between them seemed to thicken, charged with something neither was ready to name.
His gaze dropped to her lips, lingering there for a heartbeat longer than could be dismissed as accidental. She felt her pulse jump beneath his palm, a betrayal her body couldn’t hide. His pupils dilated further, darkening his eyes to midnight.
For one suspended moment, Isabelle thought he might lean forward, closing the narrow gap between them. She found herself holding her breath, waiting for something she hadn’t known she wanted until this exact second.
Instead, Bucky’s eyes flickered with something like regret. He cleared his throat and slowly withdrew his hand from beneath hers, the loss of contact leaving her skin tingling.
“We’re missing the best part,” he said, gesturing toward the television where the movie was nearing its climax. His voice was rougher than before, carrying an edge she couldn’t quite identify.
Isabelle turned back to face the screen, her heart still racing too fast, her skin still humming where he’d touched her. The pain in her muscles had receded to a dull, manageable ache—but in its place was something potentially more dangerous. A different kind of ache. A different kind of hunger.
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She says she’s fine.
(She’s not.)With Nagel just ahead and the past scraping raw under her skin, Isabelle’s composure is hanging on by a thread—and everyone knows it.
Sam sees the cracks.
Bucky hears the silence.
Zemo smells blood in the water.But she’s walking into that lab anyway.
Because this time? She gets to choose.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 36: Monsters Made Flesh
Chapter 36: Monsters Made Flesh
Summary:
Before the blood, before the powers, before the lies—there was music, laughter, burnt toast, and light.
In the sunlit kitchen of a Manhattan penthouse, Isabelle Stark was just a barefoot seven-year-old with a stuffed bear and two parents who still smiled at each other.
Mel Tormé on the radio. Pancake batter in a bowl. A perfect morning.But memory is a cruel thing.
It never lets her forget what came after.
Notes:
WE ARE SO CLOSE TO NAGEL. Just one more chapter to go—he’ll be here tomorrow, I promise, and I CANNOT WAIT.
These next few chapters were such fun to write...but ooff where they rough. I really hope it lives up to the hype I’ve been slowly, dramatically building 😂
Also! I spent all morning writing and can now officially say: ACT 2 IS DONE!!! AHHH!!!
I’m so proud of it and seriously can’t wait to share what’s next. Act 3 picks up in Riga and… I have SO much planned. Somehow we’re already halfway through the TFATWS arc?? Wild.You guys are the best. Thank you endlessly for reading, screaming, theorizing, and sticking with me through this. Your support means the world. 💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "White Rabbit" by Jefferson Airplane
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Chapter Text
Isabelle drifted into consciousness slowly, awareness returning in gentle waves. Something soft cushioned her head—a pillow that hadn’t been there before. The blanket tucked around her shoudlers wasn’t her doing either. She blinked away the remnants of sleep, registering that she was stretched out on the couch where she and Bucky had…
Where’d they’d talked. Just talked.
The living room came into focus, morning light filtering through half-drawn curtains. No sign of Bucky. She tamped down the little twist in her chest—dissappointment? No, that would be ridiculous. Why would she be disppointed? They weren’t... anything. Just two people who’d watched a couple movies together. Just two damaged souls who’d shared a moment of unexpected connection on a couch in Madripoor.
Isabelle pushed herself up on one elbow, the blanket sliding down to her waist. Her hair fell in her face, and she brushed it back, trying to ignore how her eyes immediately scanned the room for him.
“Good morning, Ms. Stark,” came a cultured voice from her left. “I trust you slept well?”
Zemo sat in the armchair opposite, ankle crossed over knee, coffee cup balanced delicately between his fingers.
“Like the dead,” she replied flatly, swinging her legs to the floor. “Though I usually prefer not waking up to war criminals watching me sleep.”
“A mere observer of human nature,” Zemo said with a slight shrug. “Fascinating, what we reveal in our unguarded moments.”
Isabelle’s eyes narrowed, but before she could respond, movement from the kitchen caught her attention. Sam and Sharon stood at the counter, heads bent over what looked like a tablet. Sharon’s blonde hair was pulled back in a no-nonsense ponytail, her expression all business.
And there—by the window—stood Bucky. Arms crossed, shoulders tense, his eyes never leaving Zemo. The morning light caught the metal of his left arm, sending a brief glint across the room. Watchdog mode: activated.
Isabelle refused to acknowledge the flutter in her stomach when his gaze briefly shifted to her. She stood, stretching casually as if she hadn’t just been searching for him the moment she woke.
“I got something last night,” Sharon announced, looking up from the tablet. Her eyes met Isabelle’s, holding a glint of triumph. “I found Nagel.”
Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. This was it—the link they needed. The link she needed.
“Where?” she managed after a moment, crossing to the counter in three quick strides. Her bare feet made no sound against the cool floor, a ghost moving through the morning light.
“Shipyard on the outskirts.” Sharon’s finger traced a location on the screen, her nail tapping against a maze of shipping containers. “He’s been operating out of a lab in one of these containers.”
Sam nodded, his shoulders squaring as he shifted into tactical mode, jaw set with determination. “We move now, before he gets wind we’re looking.”
Across the room, Bucky’s posture tightened, catching Isabelle’s eye. Their eyes met for a fraction of a second, and something unspoken passed between them—a shared understanding of what finding Nagel might mean.
“Let me handle some last-minute deals from last night, and we can head out,” Sharon said, already moving toward the hallway. She paused, eyeing Isabelle’s rumpled sleep clothes with a critical gaze. “And get you out of those pajamas.”
Isabelle ran a hand through her tangled hair, feeling suddenly exposed under the collective gaze of the room. She was acutely aware of Bucky’s eyes still lingering on her, of Zemo’s calculating assessment, of her own vulnerability in this moment of dishevelment.
“Right,” she said, voice steadier than she felt. “Because nothing says ‘intimidating super-spy’ like bedhead and yesterday’s T-shirt.”
Sharon’s lips quirked in what might have been appreciation for the gallows humor. “Follow me. I suppose I can let you borrow more of my clothes. Try not to bleed on these ones.”
Isabelle followed Sharon down the hallway, hyperaware of the silence she’d left behind. The apartment took on a different character in daylight—less shadowy refuge, more tactical staging ground. Weapons were subtly positioned at strategic points; Isabelle counted three handguns and what looked like a tactical knife disguised as a decorative letter opener.
“You always live like you’re expecting a SWAT team?” Isabelle asked, nodding toward a closet door with reinforced hinges.
Sharon’s stride didn’t falter. “In Madripoor? I’m expecting worse than SWAT.” She glanced back, eyes sharp. “You should understand that better than most, Stark.”
They reached Sharon’s bedroom, and unlike the sparse, utilitarian space Isabelle had expected, the room held surprising touches of personality—a vintage record player in one corner, a collection of weathered paperbacks stacked on the nightstand.
Sharon moved to a sleek black dresser, pulling open the top drawer.
“These should fit,” she said, tossing Isabelle a bundle of clothes. “Bathroom’s where you found it last night, in the guest room. Second door on the right.”
Isabelle caught the offering: tight black jeans, a white henley and a supple leather jacket. Sharon then moved to a rack of shoes, and handed her a pair of combat boots with scuffs on them. The clothes of someone who knew how to disappear in plain sight.
Isabelle murmured her thanks and retreated to the guest room, clicking the door shut behind her and making her way into the bathroom. She leaned against the door for a moment, feeling the cool wood press against her. Three deep breaths. In through the nose, out through the mouth.
This was no time to shut down.
She turned to face the mirror as her hands moved mechanically through the motions of undressing, peeling off yesterday’s t-shirt and pants. She folded them neatly in a pile and placed them on the counter’s edge.
The jeans slid over her legs, hugging curves but not too tight to restrict movement, not loose enough to catch on anything. The henley’s fabric was soft against her skin but sturdy enough to withstand whatever the day might throw at her. She zipped the leather jacket halfway, testing her range of motion with a quick roll of her shoulders.
Sitting on the edge of the tub, she pulled on the boots, appreciating the worn-in comfort as she laced them with deft fingers. They’d been broken in by someone else’s feet, but they fit like they’d been waiting for her.
Her phone came out next, the screen a spiderweb of cracks that caught the light in fractured patterns. Isabelle ran her thumb over the largest fissure—a jagged line that bisected the display from corner to corner. The glass was cool beneath her fingertip as she tapped the secure line.
“FRIDAY, any update on the Flag Smashers?” she asked, keeping her voice low. Even in the relative privacy of the bathroom, she couldn’t shake the feeling of being watched.
“Good morning, Ms. Stark,” FRIDAY’s crisp voice replied through the damaged speaker, somehow making the cracked screen seem irrelevant. There was something about hearing FRIDAY’s voice in that moment that sent an unexpected pang of homesickness through her chest. “I’ve been monitoring communications as requested. The Flag Smashers’ activity has been traced to Riga, Latvia. Multiple pings within the last six hours, suggesting a significant gathering.”
Isabelle’s stomach tightened. She leaned against the sink, the porcelain edge digging into her lower back as she processed this information. Two threads to follow now—Nagel here, Flag Smashers in Latvia. The mission was splintering, complications multiplying.
“Thanks, FRIDAY,” she murmured, then hesitated, finger hovering over the screen. “Also... can you send another text to Uncle Rhodey? Just another update that I’m okay.” She swallowed, adding with forced lightness, “Tell him I haven’t blown anything up yet.”
The joke fell flat even to her own ears. She could almost see Rhodey’s worried frown, the way his forehead would crease as he read her message. The guilt of keeping him in the dark sat heavy in her chest.
“Of course, Ms. Stark. Shall I include your current location?”
“God, no.” She ran a hand through her hair, grimacing as her fingers caught in the tangles. The last thing she needed was Rhodey showing up in War Machine armor, blasting through Sharon’s safehouse wall. “Just... the basics. That I’m safe. Working with Sam.”
“Message sent,” FRIDAY confirmed.
Isabelle tucked the phone into the jacket pocket, feeling its weight settle against her hip. She reached for Sharon’s hairbrush, dragging it through the worst of the tangles. She stared at her reflection, forcing herself to really look. Nagel. After all these years.
The name pulsed in her mind like a wound reopened. Not just a name—a face. A presence. The man who had stood beside her mother in that sterile lab, clipboard in hand, noting observations in neat, precise handwriting as Laura injected her own daughter with serum after serum. His glasses would catch the fluorescent light as he leaned forward, studying her reactions like someone recording the behavior of a lab rat.
Her stomach twisted, nausea rising that had nothing to do with her powers. She gripped the edge of the sink, knuckles whitening as the room seemed to tilt. The cool porcelain anchored her, giving her something solid to hold onto as memories threatened to drag her under.
Breathe. Just breathe.
Isabelle splashed cold water on her face, the shock of it clearing her head. Droplets clung to her eyelashes, ran down her neck. She watched one trace a path along her collarbone before disappearing into the fabric of the henley.
“He’s just a man,” she whispered to her reflection, voice low and steady. “A pathetic, evil little man who’s about to have a very bad day.”
The woman in the mirror looked back at her with Tony’s eyes—same shape, same intensity, same capacity for cold fury when pushed too far. Her father’s eyes in her mother’s face. The perfect weapon, genetically speaking. Nature and nurture conspiring to create something lethal.
She straightened, squared her shoulders. The leather jacket creaked softly as she zipped it all the way up, armor against whatever came next. Her reflection stared back at her, transformed. No longer the rumpled woman who’d fallen asleep on a couch beside a reformed assassin.
Right now, there was only the mission. Find Nagel. Get answers. Make him pay.
The cold metal of the door handle pressed against her palm as she took one final breath, centering herself. Her heartbeat steadied, slowing to a controlled rhythm. The box of emotions locked away, the key discarded.
Time to avenge.
The early morning sun cast long shadows across the docks, painting the stacks of shipping containers in a palette of oranges and purples. Isabelle, Bucky, and Sam walked in behind Sharon, with Zemo close by, their footsteps echoing off the metal walls surrounding them. The air was crisp and salty, carrying the faint scent of rusted metal and sea breeze.
Sharon moved with purpose, checking coordinates on her phone against the numbers stenciled on the containers. The shipyard was a maze, row after row of identical metal boxes stacked three high, creating steel canyons that amplified every sound—the distant clang of machinery, the call of seabirds overhead, the soft scrape of their boots against concrete.
Isabelle kept her eyes fixed on Sharon’s back, walking with deliberate steps to match the other woman’s pace. The morning sun sliced between the containers in harsh beams that made her squint, each shaft of light sending fresh needles of pain through her temples. A dull throbbing had started behind her right eye the moment they’d stepped out of her penthouse, intensifying with every step closer to Nagel.
“The city looks almost beautiful from this angle,” Sam said, grabbing her attention. He gestured toward Hightown, looming across the river, the mountains rising behind it. “Madripoor could give New York a run for its money.”
“They know how to party,” Zemo replied, his accent making the words sound more sophisticated than they had any right to be.
Isabelle rolled her eyes, the movement sending another lance of pain through her skull. “Yeah, nothing says ‘party’ like criminal enterprises and human trafficking,” she muttered under her breath.
She could feel Sam’s eyes on her, his glances becoming more frequent with each step they took through the labyrinth of shipping containers. The weight of his concern was almost tangible, pressing against her back like a physical touch. She didn’t need to look at him to know what he was thinking.
What they were all thinking.
No one had said it out loud, but the question hung in the air between them all, thick as the salt-laden humidity: How would she react when she finally came face-to-face with Nagel again?
We kill him. That’s what comes next. We make him suffer like he made us suffer.
The voice slithered through her mind, cold and venomous, wrapping around her thoughts like tendrils of frost.
Isabelle flinched, her hand flying to her temple as pain lanced behind her eyes, sharp and sudden as a knife thrust. The movement rippled through her body, a visible shudder that betrayed her inner struggle.
Sharon glanced back, her gaze sharp and assessing. The ex-agent’s eyes narrowed, calculating something Isabelle couldn’t quite read. She slowed her pace slightly, falling into step beside Isabelle, close enough that their shoulders nearly brushed with each step.
“Remember what I told you,” she said, her voice pitched low enough that only Isabelle could hear. The warning was clear in her tone—if Nagel died, the Power Broker would kill her.
Isabelle shot her a sideways glare, feeling heat rise to her cheeks. “Didn’t realize you liked me enough to care.”
“Look, I’ve spent years building this cover,” Sharon replied coolly, her eyes scanning the row of containers ahead. A muscle in her jaw twitched. “I’m not letting Stark’s kid with daddy issues blow it all to hell because she can’t control her temper.”
Isabelle stopped dead in her tracks, her boots scraping against the concrete. The accusation burned through her chest, igniting something primal and dangerous.
“Daddy issues?” she hissed, voice dropping to a dangerous whisper. “Is that what you think this is?”
Something dark and cold unfurled inside her chest, a familiar pressure building behind her sternum. The air between them seemed to shimmer, distorting like heat waves rising from asphalt. Sharon’s eyes widened slightly, her pupils dilating as the first tendrils of Isabelle’s power reached for her—invisible fingers of sickness probing outward.
Yes. Make her feel it. Make her understand what real pain is.
The voice purred its approval as Sharon’s face paled, a thin sheen of sweat suddenly appearing on her forehead. The woman’s breath caught, her hand instinctively moving toward her holstered weapon.
Behind them, Bucky’s footsteps quickened. The sound snapped Isabelle back to herself. She inhaled sharply, pulling the tendrils of power back, coiling them tight inside her chest where they belonged. The shimmering air between them settled, and Sharon’s color gradually returned.
“This isn’t about my father,” Isabelle said, voice steady despite the trembling in her hands. She forced herself to meet Sharon’s eyes, to hold that gaze without flinching. “This is about a man who treated me like a lab rat. Who helped inject me with serums that made me feel like my blood was boiling in my veins? Who stood there taking notes while my mother ripped me open?” She swallowed hard, tasting copper. “So no, Agent Carter, these aren’t daddy issues. These are torture victim issues.”
Sharon’s expression shifted, something almost like respect flickering across her features before her professional mask slid back into place. She gave a curt nod, the movement so slight it was barely perceptible. “Just keep it together,” she said, her voice marginally softer. “We need him alive.”
Isabelle exhaled slowly, unclenching fists she hadn’t realized she’d made. “I’ll try to contain myself,” she muttered, shoving her hands into her pockets.
The weight of Bucky’s gaze pressed between her shoulder blades, intense and unwavering. She didn’t turn to look at him, but she could feel the question in his stare. She wondered if he could read the tension in her posture, if he could tell how close to the edge she was walking.
If he could see how badly she wanted to fall over that edge.
Sam stepped between them, his jaw set. The muscles in his back tensed beneath his jacket—Isabelle could see it even from behind him.
“Hey,” he said, low but firm as he positioned himself slightly in front of Isabelle. His eyes met Sharon’s with unmistakable disapproval. “That was uncalled for. Whatever history you two have, we need to table it.” He turned to face Isabelle, his expression softening as he searched her face. “You good?”
Isabelle met his gaze, appreciating that he didn’t try to touch her shoulder or offer empty platitudes. Sam had always been good at reading people, at knowing exactly what someone needed in moments like this. Right now, she needed space and respect, not coddling.
“I’m about to be,” she replied, the words coming out harder than she intended, edges sharp enough to cut. She flexed her fingers, working out the tremor that still lingered there.
Sam held her gaze a moment longer, trying to gauge her meaning. Then he cleared his throat and pivoted smoothly back to the mission. “Sharon,” he said, gesturing ahead with a deliberate nod toward a container at the end of the row. “Are we close? Let’s focus on why we’re here.”
Sharon’s lips pressed into a thin line, but she gave a curt nod. The tension between them hung in the air like static electricity, making the hairs on Isabelle’s arms stand on end. She could feel Bucky’s presence behind her, silent but watchful. His breathing was steady, measured—the calm in the eye of the storm.
“This way,” Sharon said, resuming her purposeful stride.
They moved in tense silence for several minutes, the only sounds their footsteps against concrete and the distant clang of machinery. The shipping containers created a claustrophobic corridor that amplified every noise. A seagull screeched overhead, the sound echoing metallically off the walls of steel surrounding them.
Sharon stopped abruptly, raising her hand in a silent signal that froze the group in their tracks. The sudden halt nearly caused Isabelle to collide with Sam’s back. She steadied herself, fingers brushing the rough fabric of his jacket.
Sharon jerked her head toward a blue shipping container, the paint peeling in long strips that revealed patches of rust beneath. “He’s in there,” she said, voice barely above a whisper. “Four-two-six-one.”
Isabelle’s eyes fixed on the stenciled numbers, white against the faded blue. Her heart hammered against her ribs, each beat sending a fresh pulse of adrenaline through her veins. The container loomed before her like a tomb—or perhaps more accurately, like Pandora’s box. Inside waited all the horrors of her past, contained in the form of one man.
Sharon pulled four earpieces from her jacket pocket and distributed them. The devices were sleek and black, military-grade from the look of them. “I’ll keep watch while you talk to Nagel,” she said, her eyes constantly scanning their surroundings like a predator alert to the slightest movement. “But hurry. We’re on borrowed time in a place like this.”
The earpiece was cool against Isabelle’s skin as she fitted it into place, the silicone molding to the curve of her ear. A faint static hiss sounded as the device activated, creating a bubble of connected silence between them.
Sam nodded, adjusting his own earpiece with a practiced motion. “Got it. In and out, quick and quiet.” His voice came through crystal clear in her ear, even as he spoke barely above a whisper.
“Let’s hope Nagel is feeling chatty,” Bucky said, his voice a low rumble that sent an involuntary shiver down Isabelle’s spine. His eyes methodically scanned the container’s exterior, assessing entry points and potential threats with the precision of a man who’d spent decades doing exactly this.
“Doubt it,” Isabelle grumbled. Her mouth had gone dry, tongue sticking to the roof of her mouth as she stared at the container.
“How refreshing to find ourselves in agreement, Ms. Stark,” Zemo’s voice slid between her thoughts, standing just behind her left shoulder.
Isabelle’s head snapped toward him, eyes narrowing to slits. But then she turned away, unwilling to give him the satisfaction of seeing how deeply his presence unsettled her.
Sharon gave them a final, sharp nod before melting away into the shadows between containers. Her footsteps faded quickly, leaving behind only the distant cry of seagulls and the soft lapping of water against the docks.
Sam approached the container door first, his movements deliberate and measured. His right hand hovered near his hip where his concealed weapon rested, thumb brushing lightly against the holster’s release. The morning sun caught his profile, highlighting the tightness around his eyes, the subtle clench of his jaw—the tells of a man preparing himself for whatever waited on the other side of that rusted door.
Isabelle and Bucky fell into position on either side of him without exchanging a word. The formation felt natural, instinctive—like muscle memory from missions they’d never actually shared. Isabelle caught Bucky’s eye across Sam’s chest, a flicker of understanding passing between them. His metal fingers flexed once, twice, the plates recalibrating with a barely audible whir.
“Ready?” Sam asked, voice pitched low. His eyes lingered on Isabelle a moment longer than necessary, searching her face for something—hesitation, perhaps. Or the dangerous spark that might signal her losing control.
Isabelle met his gaze without flinching. The tremor that had plagued her hands earlier had vanished, replaced by a cold, deadly focus that narrowed her world down to the rusted door in front of them. She nodded once, the movement sharp and definitive. The storm of emotions that had threatened to overwhelm her earlier now coalesced into something harder, more focused—a blade forged in fire.
“Let’s do this,” she murmured, the words barely disturbing the air between them.
With a grunt of effort, Sam heaved against the heavy metal door. The hinges protested with a high, keening wail that set Isabelle’s teeth on edge, the sound reverberating off the surrounding containers like a warning siren. Rust flaked off in reddish-brown chips that drifted to the concrete at their feet. Stale air rushed out to meet them, carrying the faint scent of antiseptic and electronics—incongruous in this place of salt and rust.
They peered into the darkness, confusion quickly replacing anticipation. The container appeared completely empty—no scientist, no equipment, nothing but bare metal walls and a thin layer of dust disturbed by the sudden inrush of air.
“What the hell?” Sam muttered, stepping cautiously inside, his shoulders tense with suspicion.
Isabelle followed, the soles of her borrowed boots making hollow sounds against the metal floor. “This can’t be right.”
“Hey Sharon,” Sam called into his earpiece, his brow furrowed deeply. “You sure this is the right one? There’s nothing here. Place is completely empty.”
Sharon’s voice crackled through the comm, disbelief evident even through the static. “Positive. Four-two-six-one. It has to be. My intel’s never wrong.” A hint of defensiveness colored her tone.
Isabelle stepped further inside, her eyes adjusting to the dimness. She ran her hand along the cool metal wall, fingers tracing the corrugated ridges, searching for any hidden panels or secret compartments. The metal felt cold and slightly damp beneath her touch, beaded with condensation from the morning air. “There’s got to be something we’re missing,” she muttered, frustration building in her chest like pressure in a sealed container.
Bucky joined her, his keen eyes methodically scanning every inch of the container. The space felt smaller with him in it, his presence filling the empty corners. “Maybe a false bottom?” he suggested, tapping his foot experimentally against the floor. The hollow sound reverberated through the container, metallic and empty.
“Or false walls,” Isabelle added, knocking her knuckles against the side panels, listening for any variation in the sound.
Sam remained at the entrance, one foot inside the container and one out, keeping watch while simultaneously trying to make sense of the situation. “Sharon, any chance Nagel could have been moved recently? Or that someone tipped him off?”
Zemo pushed past them, his shoulder brushing against Isabelle’s with deliberate casualness. The contact sent a jolt of revulsion through her, and she had to fight the urge to step away. He pulled out a small flashlight, the beam cutting through the gloom like a surgical instrument, precise and searching.
“If you’re quite finished fumbling in the dark,” he said, his tone dripping with the particular brand of condescension that made Isabelle’s fingers itch to close around his throat, “perhaps we could approach this with some... finesse.”
Isabelle bristled, her spine stiffening. “By all means,” she bit out, gesturing sarcastically toward the empty space. “Show us how it’s done, Baron.”
Bucky’s eyes flickered to her face, something like amusement ghosting across his features before disappearing back behind his mask of vigilance.
Zemo moved to the back wall, his flashlight beam dancing across the metal surface, searching methodically. His movements were fluid, purposeful—the practiced motions of a man accustomed to uncovering secrets. Suddenly, he paused, a small smile playing at the corners of his mouth. The expression made Isabelle’s skin crawl.
“Ah,” he murmured, pressing his hand against a seemingly unremarkable section of the wall. “As I suspected.”
With a soft click that seemed unnaturally loud in the confined space, a hidden door swung inward, flooding the container with light and the smooth, sultry rhythm of jazz. Isabelle blinked rapidly, her eyes watering as they adjusted to the sudden brightness. The music washed over her—a familiar tune with brushed drums and a walking bass line, the kind her mother used to play on Sunday mornings while making pancakes.
Comin’ Home Baby by Mel Tormé—brushed drums, sultry horns, that walking bass line smooth as velvet. It wrapped around her like smoke. And then the memory surged up to meet it, sharp and sudden and so real she almost staggered.
1996
She was seven years old, barefoot on the polished kitchen tile of their penthouse apartment in New York City. The cold of the marble shot through her small feet, but she didn’t care. Mel Tormé’s voice through her mother’s radio, filling the sun-drenched space with smooth jazz that seemed to make the morning light dance.
“I’m comin’ home, baby now—”
Isabelle clutched her stuffed bear, Mr. Atoms, with his bowtie and missing eye, against her chest, watching her mother from the doorway. Laura Stark twirled by the kitchen island, a spatula in one hand and a steaming coffee mug in the other, her pale silk robe coming untied at her waist. Her hair was piled in a messy topknot, eyeliner slightly smudged beneath eyes that crinkled with genuine joy.
The kitchen smelled of burnt toast, coffee, and something sweet—pancake batter waiting in a blue ceramic bowl. Laura sang along like she was auditioning for Broadway, hitting every note with theatrical precision that made Isabelle giggle.
“What’s so funny, peanut?” Tony asked, looking up from where he sat at the kitchen table. His fingers were stained with blue marker, evidence of the elaborate rocket ship he’d been helping her design on construction paper. The schematic was far too complex for a seven-year-old, but that had never stopped Tony Stark from treating his daughter like a fellow engineer.
“Mommy’s being silly,” Isabelle whispered, as though sharing a state secret.
Tony winked at her, his smile reaching all the way to his eyes—the same eyes she saw in the mirror. “Your mom’s always silly before coffee. It’s her superpower.”
“I heard that,” Laura called, executing a perfect pirouette that sent her robe fluttering. “And I’ll have you know, Anthony Edward Stark, that I am a delight at all hours.”
Tony snorted, setting down his marker. “A delight who burned the toast. Again.”
“Toast is meant to be crispy,” Laura defended, pointing the spatula at him accusingly.
“Cremated isn’t crispy, honey.”
Laura stuck out her tongue, and Isabelle’s giggle erupted into full-blown laughter, Mr. Atoms slipping from her grasp as she doubled over. The bear hit the floor with a soft thud, forgotten as the bass line walked and the horns swelled.
“Izzy-bug!” Laura gasped, spotting her in the doorway. “How long have you been spying on us?” She set down her coffee mug with exaggerated care, then lunged toward Isabelle with her arms outstretched. “You know what happens to little spies in this house?”
Isabelle shrieked with delight, backing up a step. “No, no, no!”
“Yes, yes, yes!” Laura scooped her up in one fluid motion, her mother’s hands warm and sure beneath her arms.
The world spun as Laura twirled them both in a loose circle, Isabelle’s bare feet dangling above the tile. The kitchen blurred into streaks of sunlight and color—the gleaming chrome of the refrigerator, the blue of her abandoned bear, the flash of Tony’s grin as he leaned back in his chair to watch them.
“Higher!” Isabelle demanded, and Laura obliged, lifting her toward the ceiling until Isabelle could almost touch the crystal pendant light that hung above the island.
“Careful,” Tony warned, but he was smiling, the corners of his eyes crinkling in that way that made him look younger. Happier. “If she breaks another light fixture, the accountants are going to have my head.”
“The accountants love me,” Laura shot back, setting Isabelle on the counter with a flourish. “And they know I’m worth at least three light fixtures.”
“Four,” Isabelle corrected seriously, swinging her legs against the cabinet doors. The solid thunk-thunk-thunk provided a counterbeat to the song.
“See?” Laura beamed, pressing a kiss to Isabelle’s forehead. Her lips were soft, and she smelled like vanilla and sleep-warm skin. “The genius child has spoken. I’m worth four light fixtures.”
Tony stood, stretching his arms above his head until something in his back popped. “The genius child also thinks dinosaurs could beat dragons in a fight, so her judgment is questionable.”
“They could!” Isabelle protested. “T-Rex have big teeth.”
“Dragons have fire,” Tony countered, crossing to the counter. He ran a hand over Isabelle’s tangled hair, his touch gentle. “Fire beats teeth every time, kiddo.”
“Not if the dinosaur bites the dragon’s head off first,” Isabelle argued, leaning into her father’s touch. The warmth of his palm against her scalp felt like safety.
Laura laughed, the sound bright and unreserved. “She’s got you there, Tony.”
“Betrayed by my own family,” Tony sighed dramatically, pressing a hand to his chest. “The pain is unbearable.”
“Poor baby,” Laura teased, sliding her arms around his waist from behind. She rested her chin on his shoulder, and for a moment, they were a perfect tableau—her parents, together and happy, bathed in morning light while jazz played and pancake batter waited to become breakfast.
A perfect moment. One of the last.
Before everything fell apart.
Before the divorce. Before the injections. Before “it’s just a vitamin” became needles and pain, and her mother’s face behind a surgical mask.
Before betrayal.
“Isabelle?”
Sam’s voice yanked her back to reality, a lifeline thrown into the undertow of memory. The jazz melody fractured, notes scattering like broken glass.
She blinked, finding her palm flat against the container’s wall.
The metal felt ice-cold beneath her touch, as though the past had leached all warmth from her skin. Her heart hammered against her ribs—too fast, too loud—a war drum in her ears.
“What?” The word scraped against her dry throat. She swallowed, forcing her voice to steady. “Yeah. I’m good.”
Sam’s brow furrowed, skepticism etched in the lines around his eyes. He didn’t believe her. Why would he? She barely believed herself.
Beside him, Bucky didn’t speak, but his silence carried weight. His eyes tracked her every twitch, every staggered breath. Cataloging. Assessing. Preparing.
Sam stepped closer, his voice dropping to a murmur meant only for her. “Are you sure?” His tone wasn’t sharp, but it was pointed—the voice of a man who’d seen too many people claim they were fine seconds before they weren’t. “If your head’s not in it—”
“My head’s fine,” Isabelle snapped, the words sharper than she intended, brittle as thin ice.
The voice in her skull stirred again, slithering up from the dark.
Is it?
Sam held up his hands but didn’t back down. The gesture was placating, but his eyes remained steady, unflinching. “I’m just saying... You don’t have to face him. Not again.”
She felt the weight of Bucky’s silence behind her—heavy, watchful. Something in his stillness reminded her of a predator waiting for the right moment to move. Not threatening her, but ready to respond to whatever happened next.
Zemo, already halfway up the stairs to the concealed doorway, paused just long enough to glance over his shoulder. His lips curved in that barely-there smile that never reached his eyes. Amused. Watching.
Of course, he was enjoying this. Her pain was just another data point to him, another weakness to catalog for future exploitation.
Isabelle’s jaw clenched until she felt the pressure in her teeth. Her fingers curled into fists at her sides, nails biting crescents into her palms. The pain was grounding, drowning out the haze of memory threatening to pull her under again.
“No,” she said, forcing the word out through gritted teeth. “I do.”
She pushed forward—past Sam, past Bucky, past the ghost of that morning in 1996—her boots striking the metal steps with deliberate force. Each impact sent vibrations up her legs, rattling her bones, anchoring her to the present.
Zemo followed behind her, his footsteps measured and calm. The rhythm sounded like a metronome counting down to something inevitable. Something awful.
Sam and Bucky exchanged a glance, tension crackling between them like static electricity. Then, in perfect unison, they drew their weapons. The soft metallic slide of the gun from the holster, the subtle click of the safety disengaged—sounds so quiet they barely registered, yet somehow louder than her thundering heartbeat.
Isabelle didn’t look back.
She couldn’t. Not now.
Not when he was just up the stairs.
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The lab smells like bleach and ghosts.
A record spins jazz through the dark—sharp, familiar, wrong.
Isabelle follows the music like a wire to a bomb, each note tightening the fuse.And there he is.
Nagel.He calls her B-13.
Talks like she’s a blueprint he’s proud of.
Like she isn’t bleeding through her fist with the broken needle from his record player clenched tight within.
Like she doesn’t remember everything.Glass shatters. Cabinets rattle.
Her fist finds his throat.
And Isabelle Stark reminds the man who made her what happens when the weapon learns who she is.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 37: Comin' Home Baby
Chapter 37: Comin’ Home Baby
Summary:
Nagel’s alive.
Isabelle’s past is on the table.
And the truth bleeds faster than the scientist they came to interrogate.There’s no room for mercy in a room full of ghosts. Not with serum secrets, stolen blood, and childhood nightmares wearing lab coats. The countdown’s ticking, the team is fracturing, and when Zemo pulls the trigger—
It’s not just Nagel who explodes.Control. Cost. Creation.
Turns out, not all fires burn out.
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These next couple chapters in the shipyard? They hit hard (I hope??? otherwise that’d be awkward lol). Things spiral fast—Izzy snaps, something new comes to light, and pure chaos follows. This chapter and the one right after it are two of my favorites in this arc, and I’ve been dying to share them!!
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🎵Chapter song vibes: "Unraveling" by Muse
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Chapter Text
The metal stairs creaked under their weight as they climbed. Isabelle took point right in front of Zemo, her steps light despite the combat boots, every muscle coiled and ready, eyes already glowing a brighter green. She could feel Bucky’s presence near, his breathing controlled and barely audible. And Sam, gun pointed eyes scanning the room.
As they took the final step, the lab materialized before them—a nightmarish collision of scientific ambition and desperate improvisation. The shipping container’s corrugated walls sweated condensation, creating an atmosphere that was simultaneously sterile and fetid. Isabelle’s nostrils flared at the chemical cocktail hanging in the air.
Her gaze swept across the space, cataloging threats. Centrifuges hummed on metal countertops. Refrigeration units buzzed. Glass beakers balanced precariously on stacks of journals. A row of computers ran calculations, their screens casting sickly blue light across the cramped quarters.
And beneath it all, the music grew louder with each step. The warm, brassy notes of a trumpet solo floated through the lab, incongruously elegant in this den of questionable science.
“Split up,” Sam mouthed. He gestured for Bucky to take the left flank while keeping Zemo firmly at his side with a glare that left no room for wandering.
Sam and Zemo moved down the center aisle, their steps in perfect sync despite the obvious tension between them. Bucky disappeared behind a row of refrigeration units to her left, his metal arm gleaming briefly in the blue glow of computer screens before he vanished from sight.
Isabelle wasn’t listening to their whispered strategy session anymore as she moved to the right. The music pulled her forward like a physical tether, drowning out everything else. Each note wrapped around her senses, tugging her toward its source with an urgency she couldn’t explain.
As she rounded a corner, a hunched figure came into view, silhouetted against the glow of equipment. A man in a lab coat, his back to them, utterly absorbed in whatever lay before him on the metal table. His shoulders moved slightly to the rhythm of the music, fingers tapping against the edge of his workstation.
Nagel.
Her body went cold, starting at her fingertips and spreading inward like frost on glass. The trumpet notes twisted, becoming something ugly, something that scraped against her eardrums.
Isabelle’s vision tunneled. The lab, Sam, Bucky, Zemo—all of it receded until there was only the record player on the table behind Nagel, spinning innocently.
Three quick steps and she was at the turntable, her fingers closed around the needle arm. The metal was cool against her skin for only a moment before she snapped it clean off, the abrupt silence that followed as jarring as a gunshot. The broken piece bit into her palm, drawing blood that dripped between her fingers. She barely noticed.
The hunched figure whirled around, revealing a scrawny man with a pointed nose and wild, unkempt hair. Recognition dawned on his face—first shock, then something that made her stomach turn. His thin lip curved upward, revealing yellowed teeth in what might have been a smile but felt more like a weapon.
“Well,” Nagel said, voice quavering and sharp as a scalpel. “Isn’t this a treat? B-13, standing in my lab, after all these years.” He tilted his head, studying her with the same clinical detachment she remembered from childhood, like she was a specimen pinned to a board. “You’ve grown up beautifully. Your mother would be—”
“Don’t.” The word scraped Isabelle’s throat raw. Her fingers tightened around the broken needle, blood dripping between her knuckles and pattering on the metal floor.
Nagel’s smile widened, revealing more of those yellowed teeth. “The resemblance is striking, you know. Laura had the same fire in her eyes.” He leaned forward slightly, lowering his voice to a conspiratorial whisper. “Though between us, by the end, she saw you exactly as I did—the perfect weapon. Her greatest creation.”
Something inside Isabelle cracked—a dam holding back years of rage.
We end him. Here. Now.
“How are you feeling these days, B-13?” Nagel asked, taking a step toward her, seemingly oblivious to the danger. “I’ve watched your progress from afar, you know. Quite the Avenger you’ve become.” His eyes gleamed with perverse pride. “Every time I saw footage of you in battle, I thought—that’s my work. My success walking among gods.”
Isabelle moved before conscious thought could form. Two rapid steps and her fist was tangled in his lab coat, slamming him back against a cabinet with enough force to rattle the entire wall. Glass vials crashed to the floor, shattering in starburst patterns. Beakers toppled. Amber liquid splashed across her boots, the chemical stench burning her nostrils.
“My name,” she hissed, lifting him until his feet dangled above the floor, “is Isabelle.”
Her fingers closed around his throat, thumb pressing against his windpipe. Not enough to crush it—not yet. Just enough to make him understand what she could do. What she wanted to do.
“Ah,” he wheezed, still smiling despite the blood beginning to trickle from his nostrils. “There she is. My little success story.”
The green glow in her eyes intensified, casting sickly shadows across his face. She could feel it happening—her power seeping through her fingertips, into his skin. A migraine blooming behind his eyes. Blood vessels constricting. Pain signals fired through his nervous system like lightning.
“Interesting…” he gasped, eyes watering as he struggled to speak. “Your eyes...green...before the treatments, they were brown, weren’t they?” His clinical observation cut through her rage like a blade. “Fascinating how the serum expressed itself through pigmentation changes in the—”
Something primal tore through Isabelle’s chest. A sound that wasn’t quite human escaped her throat as she tightened her grip, lifting him higher. His feet kicked uselessly at the air.
“Shut the fuck up,” she snarled, voice dropping to a register that didn’t sound like her own. The green in her eyes pulsed brighter, casting her face in an eerie glow. “You’re a piece of—”
“Isabelle.” Sam’s voice cut through the haze, firm but gentle. A hand touched her shoulder—not restraining, just present. Grounding. “We need him alive.”
Nagel’s face was turning purple, his eyes bulging. But still, impossibly, he smiled through bloody teeth. Isabelle’s fingers twitched, wanting—needing—to squeeze tighter. To feel his windpipe collapse. To watch the light fade from those clinical eyes. The voice in her head screamed for it.
Do it. End him. He deserves it.
But Sam’s hand was steady on her shoulder. Behind her, she sensed Bucky’s presence, watchful and understanding in a way only he could be.
With a guttural sound of frustration, she released her grip and hurled Nagel to the floor. He collapsed in a heap, gasping and choking, blood spattering from his nose onto the white lab coat.
Before he could recover, she was on him again, hauling him up by his collar and shoving him across the room. His back slammed into a computer terminal, sending cascades of papers fluttering to the floor.
“You made more serum,” she spat, stalking toward him like a predator. Her voice was low, dangerous. “Talk.” She leaned in close enough to see the broken capillaries in his eyes. “Now. Or else I’ll kill you, and I promise—” she pressed her palm against his chest, letting her power flare just enough that he could feel it crawling beneath his skin like spiders “—it won’t be quick.”
Nagel’s eyes darted between her glowing gaze and Sam’s stern face behind her. His smile faded for the first time, replaced by something more calculating. More dangerous.
“You know,” he said, his voice raspy from her grip, “there’s a certain poetry to this moment.”
He laughed—a dry, mechanical sound that held no humor, just clinical observation.
“Creator and creation,” he continued, dabbing at the blood trickling from his nose with a stained sleeve. “Though in your case, that line blurs, doesn’t it? You and your mother... Laura created you twice. First biologically, then...” He gestured vaguely at Isabelle’s glowing eyes. “Well. I merely helped with the second part.”
The words burrowed into Isabelle’s skull like parasites. Her fingers twitched at her sides, power humming beneath her skin, begging for release.
“Hey!” Sam’s voice cut through the lab. His hand shot out, grabbing Nagel’s bony arm and spinning him around. The scientist stumbled, his hip catching the edge of a metal table, sending vials rattling. “You’re running your mouth to the wrong person.”
Sam jerked Nagel toward Bucky, who stood perfectly still, winter in his eyes. “You know who he is, right?”
Of course, Nagel knew. His Adam’s apple bobbed as he swallowed.
Sam tilted his head toward Zemo, who lingered in the shadows, watching the exchange with undisguised fascination. “And that’s Baron Zemo.”
The color drained from Nagel’s face so rapidly that it was almost comical. His lips parted, but no sound emerged.
“Yeah,” Sam said, satisfaction evident in his voice. “That name rings a bell, doesn’t it?”
Isabelle could see the calculations running behind Nagel’s eyes—the Winter Soldier, HYDRA’s infamous assassin, and Baron Zemo, the man who had torn the Avengers apart from the inside. And her.
Sam shoved Nagel against the wall with enough force to rattle the scientist’s teeth. “So here’s how I see it,” Sam said, his voice dropping to a dangerous register she rarely heard from him. “You’re in a lab with a pissed-off super soldier—” he nodded toward Bucky, “—a Sokovian terrorist with a grudge—” a tilt of his head toward Zemo, “—and a woman who can literally make your organs liquefy with a touch.” His eyes flicked briefly to Isabelle, whose hands were still dripping blood from the broken record needle. “And then there’s me. And buddy, I’m the reasonable one here.”
Nagel’s eyes darted between them once more, the scientist visibly reassessing his position. The arrogance in his face gave way to something more primal—survival instinct.
He licked his lips nervously, a bead of sweat trickling down his temple. “Perhaps we could... discuss this like professionals,” he said, voice steadier than his trembling hands suggested. “Make me a better offer, and I’ll talk.”
Zemo chuckled, the sound soft but unmistakable in the tense silence. He stepped forward, his polished shoes clicking against the metal floor with deliberate precision. Each step echoed in the cramped lab like a countdown.
“Oh, I do so enjoy a good negotiation,” he said, a predatory gleam in his eye as he closed the distance. His smile was pleasant, almost friendly, which somehow made it all the more terrifying. “Shall we discuss terms, Doctor?”
Isabelle could almost hear his heartbeat accelerating, blood rushing through his veins. Her power stirred, sensing weakness, offering to show her exactly which vessels to rupture, which nerves to fray.
Sam caught her eye and gave an almost imperceptible shake of his head. Not yet.
Zemo stopped directly in front of Nagel, close enough that the scientist had to tilt his head back to maintain eye contact. “Your negotiating position,” Zemo said softly, “is rather weak, wouldn’t you agree?”
Suddenly, Sharon’s voice crackled through their comms— “Guys, we have company.” Sharon’s usually composed tone had an edge that made Isabelle’s spine straighten. “Multiple hostiles approaching your position. ETA three minutes. You need to wrap this up fast.”
The green in Isabelle’s eyes flared like a solar flare. Three minutes. They didn’t have time for negotiations or games. Her patience—already threadbare—snapped.
Without warning, she lunged forward, palm outstretched. Her fingers splayed against Nagel’s chest, power surging through her arm like liquid fire. The scientist’s body went rigid, his mouth opening in a silent scream as invisible tendrils of her power wrapped around his nervous system.
“What are you feeling right now?” Isabelle asked, her voice dangerously soft. “That’s your capillaries constricting. Next comes the nerve endings. They’ll fire all at once.” She leaned closer. “After that, your organs start to cook from the inside.”
Nagel’s body convulsed, a strangled whimper escaping his lips. Sweat beaded on his forehead, veins bulging at his temples.
“Isabelle!” Sam’s voice cut through the room, shock evident in every syllable. He took a half-step forward, hand outstretched. “What the hell are you doing?”
She didn’t turn, didn’t break eye contact with Nagel. “We don’t have time for counter-offers.” Her voice was strained, each word pushed through clenched teeth. She increased the pressure, watching as Nagel’s eyes bulged, his skin turning an alarming shade of gray. “Now talk.”
The scientist’s knees buckled. He would have collapsed if not for her hand still pressed against his sternum, pinning him upright against the wall.
From the corner of her eye, she caught movement—Bucky, stepping closer. But instead of pulling her back, he positioned himself at her side, metal arm gleaming under the harsh laboratory lights. His presence was solid, unwavering. A silent endorsement.
Sam stood frozen, conflict written across his features. Behind him, Zemo watched with undisguised fascination, a small smile playing at the corners of his mouth.
“My, my,” Zemo murmured, just loud enough for Isabelle to hear. “How efficiently the apple falls from the tree.”
She ignored him, focusing on Nagel as he clawed weakly at her wrist. His face had gone from gray to purple, eyes rolling back.
“Ooooo—oookay,” he gasped, his body trembling violently beneath her touch. Spittle flew from his lips as he choked out the words. “Just... just make it stop...”
Isabelle held on for three more heartbeats, letting the pain burrow deeper, making sure he understood exactly what she was capable of. Then she released her hold, the green glow receding slightly from her eyes.
Nagel collapsed like a marionette with cut strings, his body folding in on itself as he hit the floor. Before he could recover, Bucky was there, his metal hand closing around Nagel’s collar, hauling him up as effortlessly as lifting a rag doll.
“Up you go,” Bucky growled, dragging the scientist across the room.
The heels of Nagel’s shoes scraped against the metal floor, leaving faint marks. Bucky slammed him into a chair and then, with his right hand, drew his gun, pressing the barrel to Nagel’s temple. The cold metal bit into the scientist’s skin, leaving a small indentation.
“You heard her,” he said, voice low and dangerous, the Winter Soldier bleeding through his carefully constructed calm. “Talk.”
Nagel’s eyes darted between them, terror evident in every trembling breath. His gaze lingered on Isabelle, recognition and fear battling for dominance.
“I—I can’t just—” he stammered, hands gripping the edge of the chair so tightly his knuckles turned white.
Bucky didn’t blink. He simply adjusted his aim, moving the gun a fraction away from Nagel’s head. Without warning, he fired—the gunshot deafening in the confined space. The bullet tore through the metal floor inches from Nagel’s foot, sending sparks flying. The scientist yelped, his body jerking violently.
“Next one goes through your kneecap,” Bucky said conversationally, as if discussing the weather. “And trust me—” his eyes flicked briefly to Isabelle “—what she can do to you? Makes a bullet wound feel like a paper cut.”
Sam took a step forward, his expression torn between professional necessity and personal discomfort. “This isn’t—”
“Three minutes, Sam,” Isabelle cut him off, her voice hollow. “Clock’s ticking.”
Nagel’s eyes widened, darting between the gun at his temple and Isabelle’s glowing gaze. His shoulders slumped, and the arrogant scientist was reduced to a trembling mess. The fight drained from him visibly.
“O-okay... okay,” he stammered, words tumbling out in a frantic rush. Sweat beaded along his hairline, catching the harsh laboratory light. “I was brought into Hydra’s Winter Soldier program after their failures in Siberia.”
Isabelle’s stomach clenched. The room seemed to shrink around her, the corrugated walls pressing closer.
“When the original subjects proved... unstable,” Nagel continued, “they shifted resources to Project Belladonna, where Dr. Proctor’s work showed more promise.” His gaze flicked to Isabelle, lingering on her glowing eyes before dropping to the floor. “The first successful trial.”
The words hung in the air like poison gas. Isabelle’s fingers twitched, power humming beneath her skin.
“When Hydra fell,” Nagel continued, voice steadying as he slipped into the comfort of scientific discourse, “the CIA recruited me. They had blood samples from an American test subject—traces of Erskine’s original formula.”
Sam shifted his weight, the slight movement drawing Isabelle’s attention. His jaw was tight, and his eyes were narrowed. That man Bucky had taken him to meet—Isaiah Bradley. Had to be.
“And I...” Nagel’s eyes darted to Isabelle again, a sickening gleam of pride breaking through his fear. “I still had samples from the Belladonna trials.”
Her blood. Her cells. Her DNA. Violated, exploited, weaponized—again.
“You’re saying you had my blood?” Isabelle’s voice came out low, dangerous. The green glow from her eyes cast eerie shadows across Nagel’s face.
“Not just blood.” A thin smile stretched across his face, revealing yellowed teeth. “Tissue samples. Bone marrow. CSF. Your mother was... thorough in her collection methods.”
Sam and Bucky exchanged a loaded glance, a silent understanding passing between them. Isabelle caught the subtle tightening of Sam’s jaw as he clenched his fist, the slight shift in Bucky’s stance, coiled tighter, ready to move.
“Using Dr. Proctor’s notes,” Nagel continued, his words gaining momentum as scientific pride overtook survival instinct, “I was able to isolate the necessary compounds in the blood samples. The way your genes interacted with the serum was revolutionary.” His eyes gleamed with a fervor that made Isabelle’s skin crawl. “I was a god—”
Isabelle lashed out with her powers before she could think about it, sending a jolt of concentrated pain through Nagel’s nervous system. The scientist’s words cut off in a choked gasp, his body convulsing violently in the chair. The metal legs screeched against the floor, the sound ricocheting off the container walls.
“Less ego,” Isabelle snarled, letting her powers fade just enough for him to catch his breath. Her heart hammered against her ribs, each beat pushing more rage through her veins. “More facts.”
She could feel Sam’s disapproving gaze boring into her, could sense the tension radiating from him in waves. She ignored it. They didn’t have time for niceties, for moral high ground. Not with hostiles closing in. Not with her blood—her mother’s research—being used to create more weapons.
Bucky, on the other hand, gave her a subtle nod of approval. His eyes were hard, focused entirely on Nagel. The Winter Soldier understood what Sam couldn’t—sometimes, information extraction required methods that left stains on the soul. Especially when dealing with monsters like Nagel.
Nagel gulped, his eyes wide with fear. A thin trickle of blood leaked from his nostril, staining his upper lip crimson. “I... I did what no other scientist since Erskine was able to accomplish!” he blurted out, his voice tinged with a mixture of pride and terror. “Mine was different—superior. No clunky machines or jacked-up bodies. Subtle, optimized. Perfect.”
He looked directly at Isabelle, a flash of contempt breaking through his fear.
“Not like your batch. Your mother’s formula was crude, effective, but messy. All those side effects, the emotional instability.” He gave a dismissive sniff. “Amateur work, really. You were just the prototype. My serum is the finished product.”
Prototype. Messy. Amateur work. Each term reduced her to nothing more than a failed experiment. Each term scraped against her insides, hollowing her out and filling the space with something molten and dangerous. Her pulse throbbed in her temples, each heartbeat pushing the green glow from her eyes brighter.
“Isabelle, stop—” Sam’s voice came from somewhere distant, tight with concern as her power surged through her fingertips.
“Let her,” Bucky countered, his voice a low rumble beside her. His metal fingers flexed at his side, the plates recalibrating with a soft, deadly whir. “He deserves whatever she does to him.”
Nagel’s eyes darted between them, suddenly realizing he’d miscalculated. The arrogance drained from his face, replaced by naked fear as Isabelle took a step closer, her boots silent against the metal floor. She could feel her power coiling inside her like a viper, eager to strike, to make him feel every ounce of the pain that had shaped her life.
While Nagel cowered, Zemo prowled the perimeter of the lab like a predator assessing its territory. His polished shoes clicked against the metal floor with metronome precision as he moved from station to station. Each step was casual, almost bored, but Isabelle caught the sharp calculation in his eyes as they cataloged every vial, every piece of equipment.
“Twenty vials,” Nagel blurted out, desperate to redirect Isabelle’s attention. Sweat beaded on his upper lip, catching the harsh fluorescent light. “I made twenty vials of the serum.”
Sam stepped forward, his shoulders tight beneath his jacket. Isabelle could feel the tension radiating from him—controlled, focused, but unmistakably there. “And where are they now?”
“Gone.” Nagel’s voice cracked on the single syllable, splitting it in two. His Adam’s apple bobbed as he swallowed hard. “All of them. Karli Morgenthau—she took them.”
“All twenty vials?” Sam’s brow furrowed, the lines deepening between his eyes. “Karli took all of them?”
Nagel nodded frantically. His words came faster now, each one tripping over the next in his haste. “She worked for the Power Broker. Trusted courier. But then...” His eyes darted toward Zemo, who had paused at a refrigeration unit across the lab.
Isabelle followed Nagel’s gaze. Zemo stood with his back partially turned, his posture casual yet deliberate. His fingers hovered over a row of samples, but it wasn’t the vials that caught her attention. It was the subtle shift of his hand toward a nearby shelf, the practiced way his fingers closed around something small—a book, leather-bound and worn. The motion was fluid, almost imperceptible, as he slipped it into his coat pocket.
“Then she betrayed them,” Nagel continued, oblivious to Zemo’s theft. “Stole the serum. Disappeared.”
Isabelle’s pulse quickened. Her eyes locked with Zemo’s for a fraction of a second—just long enough for him to register that she’d seen. His expression didn’t change, but something shifted in his gaze—a silent acknowledgment, perhaps even a challenge. The corner of his mouth twitched before he turned his attention back to the refrigeration unit, examining its contents with exaggerated interest.
She should say something. Tell Sam. Tell Bucky. But the words stuck in her throat, trapped behind the rage that still simmered there. What was in that book? Why did Zemo want it? But before she could decide what to do, Nagel was speaking again.
“She called me for help,” he said, his voice steadying slightly as he found safer ground. “A woman named Donya Madani was dying. Poor woman has tuberculosis. Typical of overpopulation in displacement camps like that.”
Sam frowned, his expression shifting as pieces clicked into place. “That must be why they stole the medicine,” he mused, more to himself than the others. His gaze sharpened as he refocused on Nagel. “Did you help?”
The scientist laughed. “Not my pig, not my farm,” he sneered, a flash of his earlier arrogance returning.
The casual cruelty of his response sent a fresh wave of heat through Isabelle’s veins. She clenched her fists at her sides, feeling her nails bite into her palms. The pain helped—a small, sharp focus point to anchor herself against the tide of rage threatening to pull her under.
“Why haven’t we heard about any of this?” Sam demanded, looking between her and Bucky. “A new super soldier serum should have set off every alarm in the intelligence community.”
Nagel’s laugh was darker this time, tinged with a hint of madness. “Because before I could complete my work, I turned to dust.” His fingers trembled as he gestured vaguely at the air, mimicking disintegration. The movement was eerily familiar—Isabelle had seen it countless times since the Blip, survivors trying to explain the inexplicable. “Then I returned five years later to an abandoned program.”
His eyes gleamed with a manic light that reminded Isabelle too much of her mother in her final days—that same feverish pride, that same disconnect from humanity.
“But the Power Broker...” Nagel’s voice dropped to an almost reverent whisper. “Oh, they were more than happy to fund my research.”
The air in the lab seemed to thicken, pressing against Isabelle’s skin like a physical weight. She glanced between Sam and Bucky, but they remained focused on Nagel. Across the room, Zemo moved with deliberate casualness, his hand brushing his pocket where the book now rested.
“And what, pray tell,” Zemo interjected smoothly, stepping back toward the group with an air of nonchalance, “did the Power Broker want in return for their... generosity?”
Nagel’s eyes darted to Zemo, then away, like a mouse sensing a predator. “What do you think?” he muttered, licking his dry lips. “Control. Power. The usual currency of men like that.”
Isabelle took a step closer, drawn by something in his tone. “Men like what?” she pressed. “Who exactly is the Power Broker, Nagel?”
The scientist flinched at her approach, shrinking back in his chair until his spine pressed against the metal back. “Someone you don’t want to meet,” he whispered, real fear flashing across his face for the first time.
This wasn’t the performative fear he’d shown earlier—the calculated trembling designed to elicit mercy. This was something raw and primal that turned his eyes glassy and made sweat bead along his hairline. Not fear of her, or Bucky, or even Zemo—but something deeper that made his pupils dilate until they nearly swallowed the iris.
“Someone who doesn’t forgive failure,” Nagel added, a slight tremor in his left eyelid betraying just how terrified he truly was.
Before Isabelle could press further, Sharon’s voice sliced through their comms, tight with urgency that made the hair on Isabelle’s arms stand up.
“Hostiles closing in fast. Multiple vehicles, heavily armed.” The sound of running footsteps and labored breathing punctuated Sharon’s warning. “You’ve got ninety seconds, max.”
Isabelle’s focus snapped back to Nagel, who was shrinking further into his chair with each passing second, his eyes darting between them like a cornered animal searching for escape.
Bucky stepped forward, metal arm whirring softly as he adjusted his grip on the gun. The barrel pressed harder against Nagel’s temple, leaving a perfect circular indentation in the pale skin.
“Is there any serum in this lab?” he demanded, his voice dropping to that dangerous register that blurred the line between Bucky Barnes and the Winter Soldier.
Nagel’s eyes widened. A bead of sweat rolled down his temple, catching on the gun barrel before continuing its journey down his jaw. “N-no,” he stammered. “Nothing viable. Just research. Notes. Samples that—”
A deafening crack split the air, the sound bouncing off the metal walls of the shipping container like a physical force. The acrid scent of gunpowder flooded Isabelle’s nostrils, sharp and biting, mixing with the metallic tang of fresh blood that followed an instant later.
Isabelle’s head whipped around, muscles tensing, power surging to her fingertips instinctively. Her heart lurched against her ribs as she registered Zemo’s outstretched arm, a sleek pistol gripped in his gloved hand.
Time fractured, each millisecond stretching into painful clarity. Nagel’s body jerked backward with the impact, his head snapping back and then forward like a broken doll. His eyes remained open, shock freezing his features in a grotesque mask of surprise. A crimson stain bloomed across his chest, spreading outward from the perfect circular hole in his lab coat, the white fabric turning dark and wet with alarming speed.
“No!” Sam’s voice cracked through the lab, equal parts rage and disbelief.
Before Isabelle could react, Sam’s body launched across the space between them, colliding with Zemo with bone-jarring force. The impact sent them both careening into a nearby workstation, bodies tangled in a blur of limbs and furious momentum.
Bucky moved next, wrenching the gun from Zemo’s grasp, fingers closing around the barrel with enough force to dent the metal.
The weapon clattered to the ground, skittering across the floor like a wounded animal before disappearing beneath a workstation.
“What the hell, Zemo?” Bucky snarled, his voice barely human. His blue eyes blazed with cold fury as he hauled the baron up by his collar, fabric stretching and seams popping under the pressure. The muscles in his jaw worked beneath his skin, teeth grinding audibly.
Isabelle felt herself moving before conscious thought formed, her body drawn to Nagel’s crumpled form by some magnetic pull she couldn’t explain. She dropped to one knee beside him, the metal floor cold and hard against her skin. Not out of care or concern—she wanted him dead, had fantasized about killing him herself—but because she felt it. Life was draining from him in irregular pulses. The cells dying in cascading waves. The organs shutting down one by one.
And she was furious that he hadn’t caused it.
We should have done it, the voice in her head snarled, a feral thing clawing at the inside of her skull. That was ours. Our kill. Our revenge.
Nagel’s eyes found hers, recognition flickering in their depths as blood bubbled at the corner of his mouth. His lips moved, forming words without sound, each breath a wet, rattling gasp. Isabelle leaned closer, drawn by morbid curiosity and something darker she didn’t want to name.
“Like mother...” he wheezed, blood spattering from his lips onto her cheek, warm and sticky, “...like daughter.”
The words burrowed beneath her skin. Rage exploded behind her eyes, turning her vision green at the edges. Her hand shot out, fingers closing around his throat, power surging through her arm like liquid fire. But it was too late—she felt the final flutter of his pulse against her palm, the last electrical signals firing through his brain in chaotic bursts before fading to nothing.
Nagel was dead.
Isabelle’s fingers remained wrapped around Nagel’s throat, unwilling to let go. Behind her, she could hear Sam and Bucky wrestling Zemo into submission, their voices raised in anger and accusation. But it was Zemo’s calm, measured response that sliced through her fog of rage.
“A necessary sacrifice,” he said, not a hint of remorse in his cultured tone. “The serum cannot be allowed to exist. No matter the cost.”
Isabelle’s head snapped up, her gaze locking with Zemo’s across the lab. In his eyes, she saw not the remorse of a killer, but the satisfaction of a man who had just crossed an item off his to-do list. Clinical. Efficient. Purposeful.
Just like her mother.
Just like Nagel.
Just like her, when the darkness took over.
Her fingers released Nagel’s throat, leaving purple bruises on the cooling skin. She pushed herself to her feet, legs unsteady beneath her. The power still hummed through her veins like an electrical current with nowhere to ground, making her skin feel too tight, her muscles too tense. Her hands trembled at her sides, fingers curling and uncurling as she fought to contain the storm building inside her chest. She needed to hurt something. Needed to make someone else feel a fraction of the chaos tearing through her insides.
“Isabelle.” Sam’s voice cut through her spiral, firm but gentle, still working to restrain Zemo with Bucky. “You good?”
The question was ridiculous enough to almost make her laugh. Good? She hadn’t been good in years. Maybe never. Her mouth opened to form some sort of response—a lie, probably—when the world exploded.
A thunderous boom rocked the container, the sound so massive it became physical, slamming into her eardrums with concussive force. The far wall erupted outward in a blaze of orange and red, metal panels twisting and peeling back like tissue paper.
Time slowed to a crawl. She watched debris cartwheeling through the air—shards of glass, fragments of equipment, papers curling at the edges as they ignited. The heat rolled over her in a suffocating wave, scorching her lungs with each gasped breath. Somewhere to her left, she registered Bucky diving toward her, his metal arm raised to shield his face. Sam was shouting something she couldn’t hear over the ringing in her ears. And Zemo….
Zemo was smiling like he’d just won.
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The shipyard burns. The lab is gone. Nagel is dead.
But Isabelle Stark is still standing—barely.As the team scatters under fire, Isabelle finds herself hunted, wounded, and alone in a maze of smoke and steel. Cornered by mercenaries and a bounty hunter with a gold smile and a knife to her throat, she reaches for the only thing she has left.
And then…It answers.
Fear itself.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 38: Our Better Nature
Chapter 38: Our Better Nature
Summary:
The fire was supposed to be the end of it. The lab gone. Nagel dead.
But Isabelle doesn’t get to walk away clean. Not this time. Not when the smoke clears and the real threat steps out of the ruins wearing gold teeth and a bounty hunter’s grin.Separated, injured, and spiraling, Isabelle is forced to go toe to toe with the man hunting her—and to make an impossible choice. Bleed out on cold concrete, or let the voice inside take the reins.
She gives in. Just for a moment.
And unleashes something worse than sickness.
Fear Itself.It should’ve felt like victory.
It felt like losing control."Hysteria grips me, and I can’t let go."
Notes:
Okay, okay, I'm back...I just like... couldn't wait to post this???? 😭🔥
I really loved writing Chapters 37 & 38—like, so much—for Izzy and her powers. The voice, the unraveling (👀), the control (or lack thereof)...it all starts to shift here. Something gets revealed. Something that’s been there all along.Also, if you want THE full vibe...go listen to "Unraveling" and “Hysteria” by Muse while you read. TRUST.
Izzy’s headspace? That mix of spiraling, power, hunger, and “what am I becoming?” It’s all there.Drop your thoughts in the comments, pls I am not normal about this arc 💀💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Hysteria" by Muse
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The explosion felt like teeth breaking. The far wall detonated inward in a bloom of fire and shrapnel, metal folding like tinfoil, heat punching through the lab in a breathless, concussive wave.
Isabelle hit the floor half a second before Bucky tackled her, his body folding over hers like a shield. She didn’t even scream—there wasn’t time. The impact drove air from her lungs; her ears rang with the shriek of metal. Somewhere to her left, Sam shouted—but it was buried under the howl of alarms and the low, hungry roar of fire.
Bucky’s vibranium arm wrapped tightly around her waist, pinning her to the floor as debris rained down around them. His breath was ragged against her temple. Isabelle’s own heart slammed against her ribs, too fast, too hard, like it was trying to escape.
A cough tore through her chest, scraping at her throat. Through watering eyes, she scanned the wreckage—and froze. The chemical cabinet had split open, its contents spilled across the floor. Shattered vials leaked colorful liquids that pooled and mixed, creeping towards electrical wires that sparked dangerously nearby.
Then came the smell. Acrid. Sweet. Wrong. It crawled into her lungs and settled there, a living thing with claws.
“The chemicals,” she rasped, pushing at Bucky’s chest and then pointing. Her powers surged beneath her skin, responding to the toxins, identifying them faster than her conscious mind could process. “We need to move—now.”
Bucky didn’t hesitate. He pulled her upright in one smooth motion, his grip tight on her forearm. Her powers thrummed like a live wire beneath her skin, reactive, unstable, feeding off the panic in the room.
Flames climbed the lab walls, as if they had hands, with greedy fingers of orange and blue stretching toward the ceiling. Overhead, exposed pipes hissed and spat, the metal groaning under pressure. A shelf collapsed in a spray of burning glass, showering the floor just inches from where they stood.
Sam was already moving, limping slightly, one hand pressed to a gash above his eye that spilled crimson down the side of his face. His jaw was set, eyes scanning the burning lab. “Where the hell is Zemo?”
“Gone,” Bucky snapped, his metal arm gleaming orange in the firelight as he scanned the burning wreckage. His voice dropped to a dangerous growl. “Of course he is.”
Another blast rocked the container, this one smaller but closer, metal shrieking as it tore from its moorings. The floor beneath them lurched. Isabelle flinched as a fireball licked up a support beam and spat embers in their direction, feeling each spark like a needle against her hypersensitive skin.
“We have to go!” Sam barked, already halfway to the exit, leaving bloody footprints in his wake. “This whole place is coming down!”
They ran.
The metal floor groaned beneath them, heat warping the panels with each step. Isabelle’s lungs burned with every breath, chemical-laden air scorching her from the inside out. Her vision tunneled, the exit door wavering like a mirage.
They were ten feet from the exit when Isabelle felt it—the sudden shift in air pressure, the molecular change that preceded catastrophe. Her powers screamed a warning through her nerves.
“Down!” she yelled, but it was too late.
A final explosion bloomed behind them, not chasing them but propelling them forward like a giant’s hand. The blast wave lifted Isabelle off her feet. Her body went weightless, the world around her slowing to a terrible crawl.
Through the haze of smoke and debris, she saw Sam’s arms windmilling as he tried to catch himself mid-air. Bucky’s metal fingers stretched toward her, reaching, desperate—their eyes locked for a fraction of a second before physics reclaimed them. They were airborne, hurled through the container doors like rag dolls thrown by an angry child.
Isabelle hit the concrete first shoulder, taking the brunt, then hip, then head. She rolled, momentum carrying her across the rough dock surface, skin scraping raw as she tumbled.
They lay sprawled across the docks, the cool air slapping Isabelle’s face, sharp and blessed after the inferno—but her lungs rejected it. She managed to push herself onto her knees, palms flat against the rough concrete, fingers scraping against the surface as she tried to anchor herself to something solid.
Warm blood trickled from her nose, behind her, the lab container belching one final fireball into the sky, the heat pressing against her back, scorching through her jacket.
“Jesus Christ,” Sam wheezed, falling to one knee beside her. “That’s one way to finish an interrogation.”
Bucky stood first, his movements stiff but determined. His eyes never stopped scanning their surroundings—methodical sweeps for threats, for Zemo, for answers. His jaw was set in a hard line, a muscle twitching at the corner.
“Someone knew we were coming,” he said, voice flat with barely contained fury. His metal arm recalibrated with a soft whir, plates shifting and resettling. “That wasn’t random. That was a trap.”
Isabelle tried to speak, but her body betrayed her. A violent cough tore through her chest instead, doubling her over. She rolled onto her back, staring up at the clouds, watching them blur and sharpen as her vision struggled to focus. Her muscles trembled uncontrollably, powers surging beneath her skin like a feedback loop with nowhere to go.
Then: static in her ear.
“Where are you? Did you get out?” Sharon’s voice crackled through the comms, half-static, sharp with panic. “Is Nagel—?”
“Dead,” Isabelle rasped, still staring at the sky. “Zemo shot him. And vanished.”
“What?!” Sharon snapped, but before Isabelle could reply—
Movement. Shadows stretched across the concrete, long and wrong, cast by men with rifles and body armor cresting the edge of the shipping container maze.
Isabelle’s muscles tensed, a cold rush of adrenaline flooding her system. “We’ve got company.”
Sam swore under his breath, his hand already reaching for the pistol holstered at his hip. Bucky was faster, metal fingers closing around Isabelle’s upper arm with surprising gentleness as he pulled her behind the nearest container. They pressed their backs against the corrugated steel, the metal still cool against her scorched skin. Her heart slammed against her ribs in perfect counterpoint to Bucky’s steady breathing beside her.
Isabelle’s powers thrummed beneath her skin, unsteady and hypersensitive. She could almost feel heat signatures moving through the walls, bodies radiating warmth on the other side of their metal shield.
“Wait for my signal—” Bucky began, eyes locking with Sam’s, then hers, flesh hand hovering protectively near her shoulder.
But Sam was already moving.
He broke cover in a blur, pistol drawn. The mercs reacted instantly—weapons snapping up, barrels tracking with mechanical precision.
“Sam, don’t—!” Isabelle’s warning died in her throat.
Gunfire shattered the morning calm, a staccato rhythm that echoed off metal and concrete. A bullet pinged off the container inches from her head, the sound vibrating through her skull like a tuning fork.
“Goddammit, Sam!” Bucky shouted, frustration and concern warring in his voice. He moved with lethal efficiency, vibranium arm raised to deflect incoming fire.
He lunged left, drawing fire away from her position. Three shots ricocheted off his metal arm, the impacts barely slowing his advance. He returned fire with cold precision, each shot finding its mark.
Isabelle tried to follow, but her legs felt disconnected from her body, movements sluggish and uncoordinated. The world tilted on its axis, colors bleeding at the edges of her vision. She stumbled forward, one hand trailing against the container wall to keep herself upright.
Sam ducked behind another stack of containers twenty yards away, bullets chewing into metal where his head had been a half-second earlier. He fired twice, dropped a merc, then disappeared deeper into the maze.
Bucky vaulted over a fallen crate, his movements fluid and lethal. He took down two more attackers in quick succession before diving behind another container. Both men vanished from view within seconds, swallowed by the labyrinth of shipping containers and the thickening smoke.
Isabelle hissed as she trailed behind, breaking cover and staggering forward. She had to keep eyes on them, had to follow. Her boots slipped on the wet concrete as she lurched between containers, trying to keep track of their movements. Left, then right. Then, more gunfire sent her ducking behind a rust-streaked container, heart hammering against her ribs.
Don’t panic. Don’t—
Too bright. Too loud. Her vision fractured—heat waves curled off bodies, bones glowed beneath skin like ghostly x-rays. She could see the mercs’ heartbeats pulsing in their chests, little supernovas of life force. Could feel the blood rushing through their veins.
She’d tried to lash out. She’d meant to drop one of the shooters with a burst of her power. But her control fractured, and the feedback turned inward, a whiplash of agony through her own nervous system.
“What the fuck,” she hissed to herself, forcing her body to move.
She pushed off from the container, stumbling forward. The maze seemed to shift around her, containers stretching and contracting with each blink. Ten feet became twenty. Straight lines curved. The sounds of combat echoed from everywhere and nowhere.
Left or right?
You’re lost, a whisper, smooth and feminine, layered with reverb, called.
“Shut up,” Isabelle muttered, pressing the heel of her hand against her temple. The pressure did nothing to silence the voice.
It laughed, soft and seductive. You need me.
Her powers pulsed beneath her skin like a second heartbeat, eager and hungry. Not a tool but a living thing with wants and needs—a parasite that had been with her so long she sometimes couldn’t tell where it ended and she began.
“I don’t need you,” she growled, but her voice sounded small and unconvincing even to her own ears.
She lurched to the left, rounding a corner, and found only empty space. The containers seemed to shift around her, a maze that refused to be solved, walls of corrugated metal stretching higher with each blink.
You’re going the wrong way, the voice whispered, almost sing-song now.
She staggered, bracing herself against a container.
Her comms crackled with static, Sam’s voice breaking through in fragments. “—north side—” Static. “—need backup—” More static.
“Sam?” she tried, but her voice came out as a rasp, barely audible over the ringing in her ears. “Sam, where are you?”
Nothing but static in response. Loud and sharp, a needle driving into her eardrum, making her wince. She tore the comm unit from her ear, fingers fumbling, and dropped it onto the concrete. It bounced once, twice, the plastic casing cracking on impact.
The hair on the back of her neck stood up. Isabelle froze mid-step, her body reacting before her brain could process why. The air had changed—become heavier, charged with intent. She’d felt this before, in labs and battlefields and dark alleys. The weight of being watched. Of being hunted.
Behind you, the voice whispered, no longer seductive but urgent.
Isabelle pivoted, the movement sending a fresh wave of dizziness crashing through her skull. Her powers surged to her fingertips without conscious thought, green-gold light spilling between her knuckles like liquid fire—and found herself staring down the barrel of a gun.
Not one gun. Four. Four mercenaries had materialized from the labyrinth of containers, each with a rifle trained on her center mass. Their tactical gear was unmarked, their faces obscured by balaclavas. Professional. Patient. They’d been tracking her.
And at the center, stepping forward like a conqueror surveying his spoils, was him.
Gold Teeth.
Tall and broad-shouldered, wrapped in a dark overcoat that hung open just enough to reveal the tactical harness beneath—a mobile armory of knives and extra magazines. Rings adorned every finger, gaudy chunks of metal that would leave distinctive marks on whatever—or whoever—he struck. His face was all hard angles and old scars, but it was his smile that made Isabelle’s stomach clench. Wide and predatory, with that distinctive flash of gold.
“Well,” he drawled, spreading his arms in mock welcome, voice like gravel wrapped in velvet. “Look what the fire dragged out.”
Isabelle’s muscles locked in place. Not fear—recognition. The mercenary from the bar. The one who’d cornered her before Bucky intervened. The one who’d looked at her like she was merchandise.
Her powers flared without conscious thought, a survival mechanism as instinctive as breathing. The world shifted into that familiar green-gold overlay, every living thing reduced to its component parts—beating hearts, rushing blood, electrical impulses dancing along nerve endings.
“Aw, don’t do that,” Gold Teeth cooed, taking another measured step forward. His accent thickened, sharpening his words. “The pretty light show.” He reached inside his coat with deliberate slowness, pulling out a matte-black pistol that he aimed casually at her chest. The barrel looked impossibly wide from this angle. “Don’t move,” he instructed, as if speaking to a disobedient pet. “Not even a twitch.”
Isabelle’s hands trembled, power still crackling between her fingers like static electricity. Her mind raced through calculations—angles, distances, reaction times. She knew she could drop one of them, maybe two, before the others opened fire. But not all five. Not in her current state. She was still shaky from last night.
“Easy now,” Gold Teeth said, taking another step closer. His eyes flicked to her glowing hands, then back to her face. “She’s just like they said—glowing eyes and all.”
The other mercenaries shifted their weight, fingers tightening on triggers. One of them muttered something in Russian, the words lost beneath the ringing in Isabelle’s ears, but the tone was unmistakable—disgust mingled with fear.
Gold Teeth’s smile widened, revealing more metal than enamel.
“Sick Girl,” he said, rolling the name around in his mouth like fine wine. “Isabelle Stark.” Each syllable of her name landed like a physical blow. “Didn’t think I’d be the one to cash in this prize.”
Her stomach dropped. The world contracted to a pinpoint, then expanded again too quickly, leaving her dizzy. They knew her. They knew her name. They were hunting her specifically.
Gold Teeth took another step forward, close enough now that she could smell him—expensive cologne layered over gun oil and cigarettes, with something metallic underneath that might have been dried blood. His eyes traveled down her body with casual ownership, lingering in places that made her skin crawl.
“You know,” he said, tilting his head, “I think I like you better as a blonde. Brings out that pretty skin tone.” He reached out with his free hand as if to touch her hair.
Isabelle flinched back, a sharp hiss escaping through clenched teeth. “Don’t.” The power in her hands pulsed brighter, her control slipping with each hammering beat of her heart. “Back off,” she growled in warning.
Gold Teeth’s smile never wavered, but something in his eyes hardened.
“Feisty. I like that.” He lowered his hand but didn’t step back. “Adds flavor.” He gestured with his pistol, a casual flick of the wrist. “Let me introduce myself properly. Viktor Malenko. Though most just call me ‘sir’ if they want to keep breathing.” Another flash of gold as he smiled. “I’m what you might call an independent broker. I deal in flesh, death, and bounty—whatever pays best on any given day.” His eyes glittered with cold amusement. “And you, Miss Stark, are worth quite a lot to the right buyer.”
Isabelle’s mind raced through the implications. Broker. Bounty. Buyer. Sharon’s warnings about the Power Broker suddenly crystallized into something far more immediate.
“The Power Broker,” she said, the name barely audible.
Viktor’s eyebrows rose slightly, impressed.
“Very good. Yes, your friend in Madripoor. Reached out personally.” He tapped his pistol against his thigh, a casual, rhythmic gesture at odds with the deadly intent in his eyes. “Said you were worth special handling. Wanted me to bring back your head as proof.” He shrugged. “No body necessary.”
The mercenaries shifted again, adjusting their aim. One of them spat on the concrete, a wet sound that echoed in the sudden silence.
“I could have just shot you from a distance,” Viktor continued, conversational, as if discussing dinner plans. “Clean. Professional. But...” He shrugged, a fluid roll of shoulders beneath expensive fabric. “I wanted you to know who killed you. Makes it personal.” His smile thinned. “After the disrespect you and the Winter Soldier showed me in the bar last night.”
Isabelle’s ribs constricted around her lungs, each breath shallower than the last. Her powers surged again, responding to her fear, to the adrenaline flooding her system.
“I just died this week,” she said, voice steadier than she felt, chin lifting in defiance. “I’m not really looking to do it again this soon. Sorry to disappoint you, sir.”
Viktor’s laugh was genuine but without warmth, like ice cracking.
“Humor in the face of death. Admirable.” He took another step closer, close enough now that she could see the pores on his skin, the tiny scar bisecting his left eyebrow. “But unnecessary. Death comes for everyone eventually. Even the Starks.” He raised the pistol higher, aiming for the center of her forehead. “Any last words for the Power Broker? I might deliver them, depending on how cooperative you are in the next thirty seconds.”
The power building in Isabelle’s hands had reached critical mass, a pressure behind her sternum that threatened to crack her open from the inside. She could feel it pushing against her skin, searching for release.
Now, the voice in her head whispered. Now or never.
“Yeah,” Isabelle said, her voice dropping to a dangerous whisper as she locked eyes with Viktor. “Tell them they should’ve sent more men.”
She moved before the words fully left her mouth. One fluid snap of her wrist, connecting with the barrel of Viktor’s gun. The weapon discharged inches from her face—a blinding flash, a concussive crack that shattered her hearing into white noise. No pain, just pressure and sudden silence, the world reduced to vibrations and movement.
Viktor’s mouth opened in what must have been a shout, but Isabelle couldn’t hear it. Her body was already responding, operating on instinct and muscle memory. She grabbed his wrist, twisted hard, using his momentum to spin him around. His bulk became her shield as the other mercenaries raised their weapons.
They won’t shoot their boss, she calculated, pressing herself against Viktor’s back, one arm locked around his throat. The mercenaries hesitated, rifles wavering.
Her power surged through her fingertips into Viktor’s skin—not a targeted illness but a wave of dizziness, a sudden drop in blood pressure that made his knees buckle. She felt it happen, felt his consciousness flicker like a dying lightbulb.
But Viktor wasn’t finished. His elbow drove backward with unexpected force, catching her ribs. Pain bloomed sharp and immediate. Then came the cold slide of metal between her ribs—a knife she hadn’t seen, hadn’t sensed until it was already piercing flesh.
Isabelle gasped, releasing him. Warm blood slicked her side, trickling down to soak her waistband. Viktor staggered forward, one hand pressed to his temple, the other still clutching the knife—its blade wet and gleaming.
“Shoot her!” he bellowed, the words reaching Isabelle as if through water, muffled and distant as her hearing slowly returned. “Fucking shoot her!”
She dove behind a stack of pallets as gunfire erupted, bullets splintering wood inches from her head. Splinters stung her cheek. The wound in her side burned with each breath, but her body was already working to close it—cells regenerating, tissue knitting together with unnatural speed.
Let me out, the voice urged, no longer a whisper but a demand. You need me.
“I don’t,” Isabelle hissed through clenched teeth, pressing her back against the splintering pallets. Blood seeped between her fingers where she clutched her side, warm and slick. The wound burned—not just with pain but with the strange, electric sensation of her body trying to knit itself back together. Too slowly. Her healing factor was struggling to keep up.
You’re dying again, the voice said, almost gentle now. I can feel it. Can you?
She could. The knife had gone deeper than she’d first thought. Had nicked something vital. Each heartbeat pushed more blood between her fingers, soaking her shirt, turning the fabric heavy and warm against her skin.
I can save us, the voice coaxed. Just like before. Just like always.
“You’re not real,” Isabelle whispered, but the denial felt hollow, a lie she’d told herself for years. “You’re just—”
Just what? A symptom? A side effect? A ghost in your nervous system? The voice laughed, the sound like glass breaking inside her skull. I’m as real as you are. I’m what they made you into. What you’ve always been.
Footsteps crunched on concrete, coming closer. Viktor’s voice, muffled by her still-ringing ears but unmistakable: “Flush her out. No more games.”
Isabelle’s heart slammed against her ribs. She glanced down at her hands—blood-slicked and trembling, the green-gold light of her powers flickering beneath her skin like a faulty circuit. She couldn’t fight like this. Couldn’t run. Couldn’t even stand without her knees threatening to buckle.
You need me, the voice insisted, and this time, there was no mockery in it. You’ve always needed me.
“Fine,” she whispered, her resolve crumbling like sand between her fingers. “Just this once.”
The surrender was like opening a floodgate. Power rushed through her nervous system, overwhelming her senses. The world shifted into an eerie green-gold overlay, but it was different now—sharper, deeper. She could see the mercenaries’ heartbeats through the pallets, pulsing like miniature suns in their chests. Could track the electrical impulses racing along their nerves, the contractions of their muscles as they moved to flank her position.
Too much information. Too many sensations.
She pushed to her feet, ignoring the pain in her side, and focused on the nearest heartbeat. There. A quick sidestep around the pallets, hands extended—
The first mercenary didn’t even have time to aim. Isabelle’s fingers didn’t even have to brush against him, and she pushed her power into him. His stomach convulsed, acid burning through tissue. He doubled over, vomiting violently, weapon clattering to the ground.
The second merc fired, bullets whizzing past her ear. She ducked, rolled, and came up inside his guard. Her palm connected with his bare forearm. Another push of power—this one sharper, targeted. Blood vessels ruptured beneath his skin, internal hemorrhaging that dropped him to his knees with a strangled cry.
Quick. Efficient. Brutal.
But something was wrong.
Her vision kept shifting, fracturing. One moment, she saw the world normally; the next, she was seeing through layers—skin becoming transparent, revealing the grotesque beauty of muscle and bone beneath. Her own hands glowed green from within, the bones of her fingers visible like an X-ray.
The third mercenary appeared from behind a container, rifle raised. Isabelle tried to dodge, but her body responded a half-second too slow, caught between her will and the voice’s influence. The butt of his rifle caught her across the face, sending her sprawling onto the concrete.
Her lip split, copper flooding her mouth. She rolled, narrowly avoiding a boot to her ribs, and lashed out with her power. It surged wildly, unfocused—instead of targeting the merc, it radiated outward in a concussive wave that made the air shimmer with a green hue. The mercenary staggered back, disoriented but still standing.
“What the fuck are you?” he gasped, face contorting with disgust.
Isabelle couldn’t answer. Her vision was swimming, reality bleeding at the edges. She could see his fear—not metaphorically, but literally-a sickly yellow aura pulsing around him, growing brighter as his heart rate increased.
She’d never experienced anything like this before. It was as if her powers were evolving, mutating in real-time, showing her things she’d never been able to see.
And it was terrifying.
The mercenary raised his rifle again, but froze mid-motion. His eyes widened, fixed on something behind her. Isabelle sensed the presence before she heard the footsteps—a void in the sensory landscape, an absence where there should be light.
Viktor.
She turned too late. He slammed into her, his bulk driving her to the ground. The impact knocked the air from her lungs in a painful whoosh, stars bursting behind her eyes. His weight pinned her immediately—thighs straddling her hips, one meaty hand pressing down on her throat, fingers digging into the soft flesh beneath her jaw.
“Clever little bitch,” he snarled, his face inches from hers, breath hot against her skin. Spittle landed on her cheek. Up close, she could see the network of burst capillaries in his eyes, the uneven pupils—side effects of her earlier attack. A small victory, but meaningless now. “But not clever enough.”
His free hand drew back, gold rings catching the light. Isabelle clawed at the arm pinning her throat, nails digging into flesh, drawing blood. Her powers flared wildly beneath her skin, green-gold light pulsing between her fingers, but she couldn’t focus, couldn’t direct them.
Let me show you what he fears, the voice whispered, seductive and hungry. Let me show you everything.
The world shifted again, fracturing into that strange new overlay. Viktor’s body became translucent, his skeleton glowing white-hot within the ghostly outline of his flesh. But now there was more—a sickly orange aura surrounding him, pulsing with his heartbeat. Emotions made visible. Rage. Hunger. Satisfaction.
“No,” Isabelle gasped, fighting against the vision. This wasn’t right. This wasn’t her power. It was too much, too alien. “Stop it—”
The momentary struggle for control cost her. Viktor’s fist connected with her jaw, snapping her head to the side. Pain exploded across her face, bright and immediate. The aura vision flickered, then stabilized as the voice seized control again.
Look at him. See what he is.
His aura darkened, tendrils of black threading through the orange like poison. She could see his intentions—not mind-reading, something more primal. The desire to hurt, to break, to own. It made her stomach heave. She hissed, squeezing her eyes shut, but the vision persisted behind her eyelids.
“The bounty specifically asks for heads,” Viktor said, bringing the blade to her cheek, tracing it lightly along her jawline. The cold metal raised goosebumps on her skin, a macabre caress. His eyes never left hers, drinking in her fear. “Makes me wonder—with your healing abilities, could you grow one back?”
The knife tip pressed into the soft flesh beneath her ear, a precise, surgical pressure. A warm trickle of blood ran down her neck, pooling in the hollow of her collarbone. Viktor’s smile widened, gold teeth catching the sunlight.
“Let’s find out, shall we?”
He raised the knife higher, positioning it for a killing stroke. Isabelle thrashed beneath him, one hand clawing at his face, nails raking deep furrows across his cheek. Her other hand scrabbled blindly across concrete, searching for anything—a rock, a piece of metal, anything to fight back with.
Her fingers closed around nothing but grit and dust.
“You’re an Avenger? You’re pathetic,” Viktor laughed, grabbing a handful of her hair and slamming her head back against the concrete.
The impact sent a shockwave of pain through her skull. Concrete scraped against her scalp as stars burst across her vision—bright, then dim, then bright again. The world tilted and spun, her brain rattling inside its cage of bone.
“No wonder the Winter Soldier had to save you at the bar.” Viktor’s breath hit her face in hot, rancid waves. His gold teeth caught the light as he leaned closer, a predator savoring his prey’s final moments. “What would Daddy Stark think of his little girl now? Bleeding out on dirty concrete underneath me.”
The mention of her father—of Bucky—sent twin surges of rage through her system. Hot. Clarifying. The pain in her skull sharpened to a single point of focus. Her powers responded, gathering at her fingertips—not the strange new abilities the voice had offered, but her own familiar, deadly gift.
“You know what’s funny about that?” Isabelle rasped, tasting copper as blood trickled from the corner of her mouth. She locked eyes with Viktor, refusing to look away even as his knife pressed against her throat. “He didn’t save me from you.”
Her fingers found Viktor’s forearm, skin to skin. Contact. Connection. Conduit.
“He saved you from me.”
She reached for her power—the sickness that lived in her cells, that she could pass to others with a thought and a touch. She meant to hit him with pain, with nausea, with something simple and debilitating that would buy her time to escape.
But something else answered instead.
Let me show you what we can really do, the voice purred, no longer a whisper but a command that reverberated through her skull. Let me show you our true potential.
Power surged through her fingertips into Viktor’s flesh, but it wasn’t the familiar wave of sickness she’d intended. This was different—sharper, deeper, more invasive. She didn’t attack his body. She went deeper, slipping past physical barriers into the electrical impulses of his brain itself. She found his amygdala, the fear center, and she didn’t just touch it—she seized it, twisted it, redirected it.
“What—” Viktor’s pupils dilated instantly, black swallowing brown. His grip on her throat slackened, fingers trembling against her skin. The knife wavered, then lowered an inch.
Isabelle felt the connection between them like a live wire, humming with terrible possibility. This wasn’t her power—or it was, but not as she’d ever used it before. Not as she’d ever wanted to use it. This was what the voice had kept hidden from her.
“Stop,” she whispered, but whether to Viktor or the voice, she wasn’t sure.
Why stop? The voice crooned. He deserves this. They all do. Everyone who’s ever hurt us.
She pushed harder—no, the voice pushed harder, using her hands, her power, her body as conduits. She watched in horror as Viktor’s face contorted, mouth opening in a silent scream. His free hand clawed at his own chest as if trying to tear something away. The knife fell from his fingers, clattering against the concrete beside Isabelle’s ear.
Through their connection, fragmented images flashed across her consciousness—a dark room, water rising, small hands pounding against a locked door. A child’s terror. A man’s nightmare. She was inside his mind, not just reading his fear but becoming it, amplifying it, forcing him to relive his worst moments in an endless loop.
“Please,” Viktor whispered, tears gathering at the corners of his eyes. His body trembled above her, muscles locked in terror’s grip. “Please, I can’t—I can’t breathe—”
His fear tasted like metal in her mouth, sharp and bitter. She could feel his heart racing, could sense the adrenaline flooding his system, the cortisol spiking. His terror was a tangible thing, feeding back into her through their connection, and part of her—the part that wasn’t horrified—relished it.
See how easy it is? The voice whispered, almost gentle now. See what we’re capable of when you stop fighting me?
Isabelle’s stomach lurched at the raw fear in Viktor’s voice, at the realization of what she was doing. This wasn’t just making someone sick. This was breaking their mind. Becoming the monster they’d tried to make her.
“Make it stop,” he pleaded, voice cracking. “I’ll do anything—”
The connection between them vibrated with his desperation, his terror feeding back into her, amplifying her own power in a vicious cycle.
“I can’t—” she started to say, fighting against the voice’s control, trying to pull her power back.
A gunshot cracked through the air like thunder—sharp, definitive, final.
Viktor’s head snapped backward, a spray of crimson misting the air. Warm droplets spattered across Isabelle’s face, each one a tiny shock against her skin. His body went rigid, then slumped forward, crushing her chest and forcing what little air remained from her lungs. His eyes, still open, stared at nothing, the gold in his teeth suddenly dull in the harsh sunlight.
A shadow fell across her face. Then a calm, accented voice:
“You’re welcome.”
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The voice retreats—but something’s been left behind.
Isabelle comes back to herself bloodied, breathless, and more terrifying than ever. What she did to Viktor wasn’t just survival—it was evolution. Her power has changed. She felt it. Zemo saw it. And neither of them are quite sure what she’s becoming.
Together, they move through the docks in eerie sync: she breaks, he finishes.
A reluctant alliance forged in gunfire, soaked in blood. And just when she thinks she’s done unraveling—
Zemo gives her something she didn’t expect.Something heavy.
Something old.
Something that might explain everything.But right now, there’s no time to read.
Only to run.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 39: The Devil Between us
Chapter 39: The Devil Between Us
Summary:
Isabelle wakes up beneath a dead man.
Bleeding, unraveling, and clawing her way back to her feet, she finds an unlikely hand offering help: Zemo’s.
They move in eerie sync, leaving bodies and burned nerves in their wake.
Isabelle disables, Zemo finishes.Something inside her is shifting—her power, her rage, the line between weapon and woman.
And Zemo sees all of it.They escape, barely. And just before the sun fully rises, he gives her something she wasn’t ready for.
A page from the past.
A key to the beginning.
A weight that might break her.
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Surprise Tuesday update! I won’t be able to post tomorrow, so we’re getting this one a little early rather than late this week. We’re officially TWO chapters away from the end of Act 2 and I genuinely cannot believe it—feels like we just started and now here we are. 💚💚💚Act 3 is coming in hot—I’ve got the first 10 chapters edited and ready to go, and oh boy... it gets heavier, a little darker, and yeah... spicier too 👀
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Chapter Text
The connection was severed with the finality of a snapped wire, leaving Isabelle’s mind echoing with sudden silence. The voice—that dark, hungry thing—retreated, slipping back into the shadowed corners of her mind like a satisfied beast returning to its den. She gasped, her lungs burning as if filled with water, each breath a battle against the weight of Viktor’s corpse.
Blood.
So much blood.
It coated her hands as she pushed at his shoulders, trying to dislodge him. Her fingers slipped against his skin, unable to find purchase. Was it her blood or his? She couldn’t tell. The world tilted beneath her, reality swaying like a ship in a storm, darkness creeping in from the periphery of her vision like spilled ink.
Through the encroaching blackness, a figure appeared—lean and elegant in silhouette, arm extended, gun still raised.
Zemo.
He lowered the gun slowly, his head tilting slightly as he surveyed the scene. His gaze traveled from Viktor’s corpse to her face, revealing nothing.
“Tactically unsound to monologue mid-fight,” Zemo said finally. He stepped closer, shoe clicking against concrete with measured steps. “A common failing among men who believe themselves invincible.”
Isabelle tried to form words, but blood bubbled between her lips instead, hot and metallic. Her hand pressed weakly against the wound in her side, feeling the steady, rhythmic pulse of her life draining away. The pain had transformed, no longer sharp and immediate but distant, replaced by a spreading numbness that crawled up her limbs like frost on a windowpane.
Zemo crouched beside her, maintaining a careful distance as he studied her face. The corner of his mouth twitched upward—not a smile exactly, more a recognition of something unexpected found in an otherwise predictable equation.
“The fourth one fled,” he said, nodding toward the right. “After you began... whatever it was you were doing to that man.” His eyes flickered to Viktor’s contorted face, lingering on the frozen horror etched there, then back to hers. A flicker of genuine curiosity crossed his features, brief but unmistakable. “Fascinating technique. Not in your file.”
Isabelle coughed, spitting a mouthful of blood onto the concrete. Each word scraped her throat raw as she forced them out. “You... shot him.”
“Yes.” Zemo’s response was matter-of-fact, delivered with the casual indifference of commenting on the weather. “He was going to kill you. That would be... inconvenient.”
He moved closer, bracing his shoulder against Viktor’s corpse. With one fluid motion, he shoved the dead weight off her body. The sudden release of pressure sent fresh waves of pain radiating through her torso. Isabelle gasped, stars exploding behind her eyes.
Zemo reached into his jacket and withdrew a small field medical kit with the calm of someone who had patched battlefield wounds before. He tore open a packet of clotting agent with his teeth, the sound of ripping plastic unnaturally loud in the concrete chamber.
“You... helped me?” The question slurred from her lips, disbelief mingling with the copper taste flooding her mouth.
His expression remained unreadable as he pressed the bandage against her wound. The pressure sent fresh lightning bolts of pain through her body, but she bit back the scream that threatened to escape.
“I helped myself, Ms. Stark,” he replied, voice soft but precise. His fingers worked, applying the bandage with just the right amount of pressure. “Our objectives temporarily align. Nothing more.” His eyes met hers, dark and calculating, windows to a mind always several moves ahead. “The enemy of my enemy is my useful asset until circumstances change.”
He slipped an arm beneath her shoulders, lifting her with surprising gentleness. His body was warm against hers, a stark contrast to the cold concrete beneath them.
“Besides,” he added, his breath warm against her ear as he helped her to her feet, “our mutual allies would most likely blame me should you die again...”
Isabelle’s legs threatened to buckle, her knees turning to water. Zemo’s grip remained firm, anchoring her to consciousness when everything in her wanted to slip away into the darkness.
“We need to move,” Zemo said, guiding her between containers. “Your friends will be looking for you no doubt, and I suspect neither of us wishes to explain this particular tableau to them.”
He adjusted his hold on her, his arm sliding more firmly around her waist as they emerged from between the shipping containers into the pale dawn light. His fingers pressed into the curve where her ribs met her hip, the contact sending conflicting signals through Isabelle’s nervous system—sharp pain where pressure met wound, but also an unexpected warmth that spread upward through her chest.
“I can feel it,” she murmured, sensing the familiar tingle beneath her skin as her cells began their frantic dance of regeneration.
The wound wasn’t closing—not yet—but the bleeding had slowed to a steady seep rather than the alarming pulse from minutes before. A warm, buzzing sensation spread outward from the injury, like electricity humming through damp wires.
Zemo glanced down at her, his eyes calculating beneath the shadow of his brow. A thin sheen of sweat glistened on his temple, the only indication of exertion. “Your healing factor?”
“Yeah.” Isabelle tested her weight on her right leg, wincing as fire shot through her side. Each heartbeat sent a fresh throb of pain radiating outward, but the edge of panic had receded.
They moved together in a halting rhythm across the dockyard—her steps growing incrementally stronger with each passing moment, his pace adjusting to match hers without comment.
“You’ve done this before,” she observed. Her gaze drifted sideways, studying the precise way he distributed his weight to compensate for hers, the practiced angle of his arm supporting her without restricting movement.
The corner of his mouth twitched—not quite a smile, but something adjacent to amusement. “Dragged bleeding comrades through hostile territory? More times than I care to remember.”
By the time they reached the end of the aisle, Isabelle could support most of her own weight. The numbness had receded, replaced by a burning ache that felt almost cleansing. She straightened, pulling away from Zemo’s support, testing the boundaries of her recovering strength.
“I’m good,” she said, rolling her shoulders experimentally. A bead of sweat rolled down her spine, cool against her feverish skin. “Well, not good. But functional.”
Zemo released her with a slight nod, his hand hovering near the small of her back for a moment before dropping away. His eyes scanned her face, cataloging details with clinical precision.
“Your color is returning,” he observed, his gaze dropping briefly to the bloodstained bandage at her side. “Though you’ve lost a considerable amount of blood.”
Isabelle pressed her palm against the wound, feeling the steady pulse beneath. “Not my first rodeo.” She squinted toward the eastern horizon, where the rising sun cast long shadows across the dockyard. “Where exactly are we going? We need to find Sam and Bucky.”
Zemo’s expression remained carefully neutral as he checked his watch. “I have a vehicle three rows east.” He gestured toward a gap before them. “We’ll use it to find the others.”
The distant clatter of metal against concrete cut through the air. Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat as Zemo’s hand moved to his weapon in one fluid motion, his body shifting seamlessly into a combat stance. His transformation from reluctant ally to predator happened in the space between heartbeats.
Isabelle’s senses sharpened instantly, pain receding as adrenaline flooded her system. The world around her crystallized into hyper-focus, her body responding to the threat before her conscious mind fully processed it.
“Company,” she whispered, the word barely audible.
Zemo nodded once, his expression hardening into something cold. He ejected his magazine, checked it with a glance, and slammed it back into place. Before he could respond, the air split with the distinctive crack of suppressed gunfire. Zemo moved with startling speed, pulling Isabelle behind a concrete pillar as bullets chipped the floor where they’d been standing.
“Stay low,” he murmured, his breath warm against her ear. “Use your abilities. I’ll handle the rest.”
Something electric passed between them—an understanding that transcended words. Isabelle nodded, feeling the dark thing inside her stir with anticipation.
The first attacker rounded the corner in a tactical crouch, weapon sweeping the space. Isabelle locked eyes with him, reaching out with her mind to find the soft, vulnerable places within. She didn’t push disease into him—there wasn’t time for that—but she sent a pulse of raw neural disruption that made his limbs spasm and his weapon clatter to the ground.
Zemo emerged from the shadows like a ghost, putting a single bullet through the man’s temple before he could recover. The man crumpled, and Isabelle felt the flicker of his life extinguish—a candle snuffed by a casual breath.
The second and third attackers came together, moving in a coordinated pattern similar to that of soldiers who had trained side by side. Isabelle stepped into their path, letting her power flow outward in a wave. She felt their nervous systems light up beneath her influence as she twisted her fingers in a sharp gesture.
Both men dropped to their knees in perfect unison, howling as their bodies convulsed. One clawed at his throat, eyes bulging as invisible hands seemed to squeeze his windpipe. The other vomited violently, bile splashing across the concrete as his internal organs rebelled against him. Zemo moved behind them, firing two quick shots that silenced their screams.
“Behind you,” Isabelle warned, the words torn from her throat as she sensed movement in her peripheral vision—a shadow detaching from darkness, the metallic click of a safety disengaging.
Zemo pivoted smoothly, dropping into a crouch as bullets tore over his head. Isabelle reached out, focusing on the shooter’s lungs, compressing them just enough to make him gasp and stagger. The momentary distraction was all Zemo needed—he fired twice, the first shot taking the man in the knee, the second through his throat.
They moved through the shipping yard like dancers following steps only they could hear. When Isabelle disabled, Zemo eliminated. When she broke, he finished. There was a terrible symmetry to it, a harmony that should have disturbed her more than it did.
A burly man with a tactical vest charged at them from behind a shipping container, combat knife gleaming in the dim light. Isabelle reached for him with her power, but her earlier exertions had drained her—the connection sputtered and failed. The man’s knife slashed toward her face.
Zemo’s body crashed into hers, spinning her away from the attack. The momentum carried them both sideways, Zemo’s back slamming against a rusted piece of exposed rebar protruding from a broken concrete pillar. In one fluid motion, he grabbed the attacker by the throat and pivoted, impaling the man on the same metal that had nearly caught him. The rebar punched through the man’s chest with a wet, sickening sound.
Blood sprayed across Zemo’s face as he stepped away, his expression unchanged save for a slight tightening around his eyes.
Isabelle stared at him, breathing hard. “Wasn’t expecting that.”
Zemo wiped a smear of blood from his cheek with the back of his hand. “Nor was I.” His gaze flickered to her face, something unreadable passing through his eyes. “Are you injured?”
“No.” She glanced at the body, then back at Zemo. “You?”
“No.”
The last attacker emerged from behind a stack of pallets, weapon raised. Isabelle didn’t think—she reached out with her power, feeling for the delicate architecture of his inner ear. With a twist of her will, she shattered his equilibrium. The man staggered, his world suddenly spinning, and dropped to his knees vomiting.
Zemo studied the bounty hunter for a moment longer, then aimed, another body joining the collection at their feet. He turned to Isabelle, holstering his weapon with fluid grace. Blood spattered his expensive coat, yet somehow he maintained an air of aristocratic composure. “We should move. These men will be missed.”
Isabelle nodded, suddenly aware of how naturally they had fallen into rhythm together—how effortlessly they had become instruments of death in perfect harmony. It should have horrified her. The absurdity of the situation—fighting alongside the man who had once been her enemy, who had manipulated the Avengers into tearing themselves apart. The man who had, technically, killed her once before.
But Sam and Bucky were out there somewhere, possibly injured, definitely outnumbered. And if getting to them meant temporarily aligning herself with Helmut Zemo... well—
“You fight differently now,” Zemo pointed out as they were on the move again.
Isabelle shot him a sideways glance, catching the clinical assessment in his eyes. “What’s that supposed to mean?” The words came out sharper than she intended, defensive edges cutting through the morning air.
Zemo’s lips curved into that almost-smile that never quite reached his eyes. “The Isabelle Stark I researched was careful. Controlled. You used your abilities with surgical restraint.” His gaze slid to the corpses they’d left behind. “Now you tear through men like tissue paper. You make them suffer first.”
Heat flushed through her chest, anger mingling with something darker. “You don’t know the first thing about me.”
“Don’t I?” He stepped over a pool of blood without breaking stride. “I’ve studied every Avenger extensively. Their patterns. Their weaknesses.” His eyes locked with hers. “Their breaking points.”
Isabelle’s jaw tightened. “Necessity’s a hell of a teacher,” she said, the words scraping against her throat. “When the world’s determined to kill you, you learn to hit back harder.”
“Indeed.” Zemo nodded, his expression thoughtful. “Though I suspect your father would be... concerned about our current arrangement. And perhaps more so about your newfound enthusiasm for inflicting pain.”
Isabelle halted, turning to face him fully, her hands curling into fists at her sides.
“My father’s not here,” she replied, her voice dropping to something dangerous. “And I’ll work with the devil himself if it means finding Sam and Bucky and getting the fuck out of Madripoor.”
Zemo’s eyebrow arched slightly, his head tilting as he studied her face. “The devil?” A soft, humorless laugh escaped him. “I’ve been called worse.”
He held her gaze for a moment longer, something unreadable flickering behind his eyes. Then he turned, gesturing toward a gap between shipping containers.
“This way. The vehicle is just beyond those pylons.”
Isabelle followed, hyper-aware of the calculated distance he maintained between them—close enough to react if needed, far enough to evade if she turned on him. Her side throbbed with each step, the bandage pulling against half-healed flesh.
They emerged into a narrow clearing between shipping containers, the space just wide enough to accommodate the vehicle waiting there. Morning light spilled across the polished chrome and glossy paint—a midnight blue convertible, its top already retracted. The car looked obscenely out of place among the rust and grime of the shipping yard, like a gem dropped in mud.
Zemo moved toward the convertible with the casual confidence of someone approaching their rightful property, though Isabelle highly doubted the car was his. His fingers trailed along the midnight blue paint, leaving clean streaks through the thin layer of dockyard dust.
“Thought you didn’t steal cars?” Isabelle raised an eyebrow, still scanning the perimeter.
“I don’t steal,” Zemo corrected, producing a slender metal tool from an inner pocket that caught the morning light. “I borrow.” He crouched beside the driver’s door, inserting the tool into the lock.
“Right. Borrowing without permission. Totally different concept.”
“It is, actually.” The lock mechanism yielded with a soft click that seemed to please him. “Borrowing implies intent to return. Stealing suggests permanent deprivation of property.” His accent wrapped around each word with meticulous care, as though language itself was a tool to be wielded with precision.
“I’m sure the owner would appreciate the semantic distinction while filing their insurance claim.” Isabelle winced as a fresh wave of pain radiated from her side as her wound knitted itself together, the last inch.
Zemo slid into the driver’s seat, the fine leather creaking beneath his weight. His hands moved beneath the steering column, pulling free a tangle of wires.
“Necessity’s a hell of a teacher,” he smirked, his voice dropping to a softer register as he focused on the task.
Isabelle glared at him, plain and simple.
He twisted two wires together, and then the engine roared to life with a deep, throaty growl that vibrated through the metal frame. The sound seemed to please him; the corner of his mouth twitched upward as he adjusted something beneath the dash, bringing the engine to a smooth, predatory purr.
“Your carriage,” he said, gesturing toward the passenger seat with a slight inclination of his head.
Isabelle rolled her eyes but slid into the passenger seat, the leather cool against her blood-warmed skin. “Just so we’re clear,” she said, shifting to find a position that didn’t pull at her healed flesh, “this,” she motioned between them, “doesn’t mean I trust you. I don’t.” She met his gaze directly, refusing to flinch. “The second we find Sam and Bucky, we’re back to being—”
“Enemies?” Zemo supplied. He shifted the car into gear, the engine’s rumble deepening beneath them. One hand rested on the steering wheel, fingers splayed against the leather, while the other moved to the gearshift with practiced ease. His eyes met hers, dark and unreadable, yet somehow seeing everything. “Is that what we are, Ms. Stark?”
“What would you call someone who tried to kill you?” she countered, leaning forward slightly, a hard edge sharpening her words. Her teeth almost bared in a challenge, the animal part of her brain responding to his presence.
Zemo didn’t flinch at her aggression. If anything, a flicker of something like appreciation crossed his features. “I never tried to kill you specifically.” His eyes remained on her, brow furrowing—but only slightly. “Your death was…collateral. An unfortunate necessity.” His voice dropped lower, intimate in the confined space.
“You hurt people I cared about,” Isabelle spat, her fingernails digging into her palms. “You tore my family apart.”
“The Avengers tore themselves apart,” Zemo corrected, his voice soft but unyielding as steel. “I merely provided the opportunity.” His fingers tapped once, twice against the steering wheel, a controlled gesture that betrayed nothing. “The cracks were already there—I simply applied pressure to the weakest points.” He glanced at her, something unspoken passing behind his eyes.
Isabelle’s fingers curled tighter, her nails biting deeper into her palms. The familiar surge of anger rose within her, hot and clarifying, but beneath it lay something more unsettling—the uncomfortable recognition that he wasn’t entirely wrong. The Avengers had fractured along fault lines that existed long before he’d entered their lives.
She turned away, watching the shipping containers slide past as Zemo began to navigate through the dockyard maze.
“The cracks may have been there,” she said, her voice low and controlled, “but you chose to exploit them. You chose to hurt people.”
Zemo’s eyes remained fixed on the narrow path between containers, his expression giving nothing away.
“Yes. I did.” No justification. No defense. Just acknowledgment of a fact, delivered with the same tone someone might use to comment on the weather.
The car lurched over a pothole, jostling Isabelle against the door. She bit back a wince, refusing to show weakness. They emerged onto a wider access road, the harbor stretching out before them, early morning light painting the water in shades of molten gold.
Zemo’s hand moved to shift gears, but paused. His expression shifted, something unreadable passing behind his eyes. He reached into his coat, the movement slow enough not to trigger her combat reflexes. From an inner pocket, he produced a small leather-bound notebook, its edges worn with handling, the spine cracked from repeated opening. The leather was dark, almost black, with a faded patina that spoke of age and use.
“You should have this,” he said, extending it toward her. The gesture was casual, yet something in his tone suggested significance beyond the simple action.
Isabelle stared at the object, suspicion flaring hot in her chest. Recognition sparked—she’d seen him pocket it in Nagel’s lab, slipping it away when he thought no one was watching. She’d said nothing then, focused on the more immediate threat.
“What is it?” The question came out sharp, defensive edges cutting through the morning air.
“Something that belongs to you,” Zemo replied, his voice carefully neutral.
She took it hesitantly, half-expecting some trap. The leather was soft beneath her fingers. No markings adorned the outside, no indication of its contents or purpose. The notebook had weight to it—not just physical, but the weight of history, of secrets kept in darkness.
Isabelle opened it to the first page, her eyes falling on a date written in elegant, flowing script.
October 2nd, 1985
Her breath caught; the air suddenly thickened and became impossible to draw into her lungs. She knew that handwriting. Her mother’s handwriting.
Laura Proctor’s distinctive penmanship stared back at her from the yellowed page, the loops and whorls as familiar as her own reflection. This wasn’t just research notes or scientific data. The intimate tone, the personal observations scattered among technical jargon—this was a journal, her mother’s private thoughts, preserved in ink and paper.
Isabelle’s grip tightened on the cover, her knuckles whitening until they looked like bleached bone against the dark leather. Her chest constricted as if the air had been sucked from the car. Nausea rose in her throat, bitter and burning.
“Why give this to me?” She finally looked up, studying his profile for deception, for the hidden agenda she knew must be there. “What’s your angle, Zemo?”
His expression remained carefully neutral, but something flickered in his eyes—not quite vulnerability, but a momentary lowering of his guard. “Consider it... restitution. For past transgressions.”
The journal seemed to pulse between her fingers, a living thing with secrets to whisper. Part of her wanted to fling it out the window, to watch it disappear into the grimy waters of Madripoor’s harbor. But a stronger part—the part that had never stopped searching for answers—clutched it tighter.
She slipped the journal into her inner jacket pocket, the weight of it settling against her chest like a stone. The leather corner pressed into the soft spot beneath her collarbone.
“This doesn’t make us even,” she said, her voice steadier than she felt as they navigated between towering walls of shipping containers.
“I would never presume so,” Zemo replied with a soft chuckle that contained no actual humor. His hands adjusted on the steering wheel as he guided the convertible around a sharp corner, the tires crunching over broken glass and gravel. The shipping containers loomed on either side, creating a claustrophobic maze of rusted metal. “But perhaps it offers you something I have been denied.”
The car slowed as they approached an intersection of container pathways. Zemo scanned each direction methodically, checking for threats or signs of Sam and Bucky. Finding neither, he accelerated again, the engine’s growl echoing off the metal walls surrounding them.
“And what’s that?” Isabelle asked, her eyes constantly moving, searching the shadows between containers for any movement. Her fingers tapped restlessly against her thigh, muscles coiled and ready to react.
His eyes met hers briefly, dark and fathomless, carrying the weight of his own ghosts. “Closure.”
“There’s no such thing,” she said quickly, without a thought. “Not for people like us.”
Zemo made a sound—not quite agreement, not quite dismissal. His fingers tapped once against the steering wheel, a controlled gesture that betrayed nothing. The car slowed as they approached another intersection, this one wider, with multiple pathways branching outward like spokes from a wheel.
“Perhaps not,” he conceded, checking each direction before choosing the path that led toward the eastern edge of the yard. “But knowledge has its own value.”
Isabelle pressed her hand against her jacket, feeling the outline of the journal through the fabric. The corner dug into her palm, sharp and insistent. She imagined her mother’s elegant handwriting filling those pages, documenting her own creation like a science experiment—clinical observations of a child being systematically transformed into a weapon. Laura Proctor’s voice, preserved in ink, would be precise and analytical, even when describing her daughter’s screams.
“Knowledge can be a poison,” she said.
Zemo’s lips curved, the expression was knowing, as if he’d anticipated her exact words before she’d spoken them.
“Yes,” he agreed, slowing the car to peer down a particularly narrow corridor of containers. “And who better than you to understand the value of poison, Ms. Stark?”
The question wasn’t meant to be answered. Isabelle turned her attention back to the shipping yard unfolding before them, scanning for any sign of Sam’s distinctive silhouette or the glint of Bucky’s metal arm.
Her fingers drifted to the pocket again, feeling the outline of the notebook through the fabric. The weight of it seemed to increase with each passing moment, as if the secrets inside were gaining mass. Whatever was written in those pages wouldn’t change the past. Wouldn’t undo the damage. Would heal the wounds that still bled beneath her skin.
But it might, finally, explain why.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 6/29/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/172998355
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After the blood, after the fear, after Madripoor
—comes the quiet.On a jet bound for Riga, Isabelle finally stops running long enough to start breaking. Bucky doesn’t run from it. He doesn’t flinch.
They sit close. They talk soft.
"You always this good at saying the right thing," she asks, voice cracking, "or am I just special?"
He looks at her like she’s the only thing in the world that still makes sense.
"Pretty sure you’re just special."She wants to believe him.
She wants to believe she’s still someone worth saving.
And when he reaches out—quiet, careful, no pressure—she lets him hold her hand.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 40: The Quiet Before
Chapter 40: The Quiet Before
Summary:
A quiet jet ride. A half-lit cabin. The hum of engines and words unsaid.
Isabelle stares out the window, aching.
Bucky cleans blood from his left hand like it's something sacred.Across the aisle, something shifts.
A seat becomes an invitation.
A conversation becomes a confession.
And a touch, offered without expectation, becomes the softest kind of lifeline.Some things don’t need to be spoken to be understood.
Some hands were made to hold what's fragile.
And some cracks let the light in.
Notes:
OMG we made it. The end of Act 2 is HERE!!!!
Holy crap, I had so much fun writing this arc. Seriously, it's been so FUN, and I really hope all loved it as much as I did.Also??? ANOTHER HOLY CRAP beause we hit 10k hits on this fic??? AHHHH!!!!! 💚💚💚
You guys are the absolute best. Thank you so much for reading, screaming, commenting, and still being here. I love you all 3000.What were your favorite moments from Act 2? What are you hoping or excited to see in Act 3??? LEMME KNOW IN THE COMMENTS!!!
The first chapter in Act 3 comes tomorrow! We're heading to Riga. Isabelle's about to dig into her mother's journal (pain incoming). And her and Bucky? Yeah. That slow burn. Not so slow anymore.
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Chapter Text
Isabelle was slouched in the passenger seat, elbow braced against the door, one arm pressed protectively over her side. The wound had closed, but the skin still pulsed beneath her shirt with each heartbeat. Blood streaked across her jaw in flaking ribbons, matted her hair at the temple, and stained the collar of her shirt.
“There they are,” Zemo said, his voice infuriatingly calm.
Isabelle’s gaze snapped up, following his line of sight. Around the corner stood Sam, Bucky, and Sharon—alive, intact. Relief hit her like a drug, loosening something tight and panicked in her chest. She hadn’t realized how desperately she’d needed to see them until this moment.
Zemo drove with one hand on the wheel, the other resting casually on the gearshift as if they were out for a Sunday drive. There was blood on his sleeve, too, and a smear of something dark near his collar that Isabelle knew wasn’t his. His expression remained the same unreadable mask he always wore—like they’d just wrapped up brunch instead of a body count.
The car skidded the final few yards, tires screeching against asphalt. Isabelle caught Sam’s eye through the windshield, watched his expression transform from tension to relief to alarm in the space of a heartbeat. She felt the weight of his assessment—cataloging her injuries, measuring the damage—before his gaze hardened, shifting to Zemo behind the wheel.
Through the windshield, she caught Sam’s eye and watched his expression transform, tension melting into relief for a fraction of a second before horror took its place.
“Jesus Christ,” Sam breathed, already moving toward the car.
He crossed the distance in three long strides, boots scraping against asphalt before the engine had fully died. The passenger door groaned under his grip as he yanked it open. His training kicked in before conscious thought, eyes scanning, cataloging, assessing.
Blood in her hair. Dried flakes on her temple. Dark stains across her shirt in irregular patterns, some still wet enough to gleam under the harsh sunlight. His stomach tightened, but his hands remained steady as they hovered near her, afraid to touch, afraid to make anything worse.
“Izzy?” His voice cracked on her name.
She blinked up at him, eyes clear despite the exhaustion etched into her face. Not the glassy, unfocused stare from last night when she’d bled out in his arms, but something closer to irritation—at herself, at the situation, at him for worrying. Quintessential Isabelle.
“I’m fine,” she said, the words clipped and precise. Then, catching his expression, she amended: “Most of it’s not mine.”
Sam didn’t miss the qualifier. Most. His jaw clenched.
“Seriously, Sam, I promise. I’m okay,” she muttered, shifting in her seat. A flash of discomfort crossed her features—there and gone in an instant, but Sam caught it.
He reached for her shoulders, steadying her with gentle pressure. His fingers brushed against the exposed skin at her collar—skin that radiated heat like she’d been standing too close to a fire.
“You’re running hot,” he said, keeping his voice even despite the concern coiling in his chest.
“You should see the other guys.” She managed a half-smile despite the throbbing in her side.
“I’d rather not.” Sam’s eyes narrowed as he took in the details he’d missed at first glance—the slight tension around her eyes, the careful way she held herself. “Where are you hurt? And don’t bullshit me.”
Isabelle exhaled slowly, the breath catching when it pulled at her side. “Took a knife here,” she admitted, gesturing vaguely at her ribs. “Nothing vital. Already closed up.”
She leaned forward slightly, allowing his hand to take more of her weight—a concession she wouldn’t have made with anyone else watching. But she was tired.
“Let me see,” Sam said, the words firm but gentle. Not a request.
She rolled her eyes but complied, lifting the edge of her blood-stiffened shirt just enough to reveal an angry pink line along her ribs. New skin had formed over the wound, but the flesh around it remained tender and inflamed, pulsing with each heartbeat.
Sam’s jaw tightened as he examined it. “This is fresh. Too fresh.” His fingertips hovered just above the wound, not quite touching. “Your body’s burning through resources to heal this fast.”
The truth was more complicated. Her body was cannibalizing itself to repair the damage, a biological triage that would leave her depleted for days.
Bucky appeared at Sam’s shoulder, his metal arm catching the sunlight as he leaned in. His face had gone rigid, jaw clenched so tight she could see the muscle twitching beneath his stubbled cheek.
“What happened?” he demanded, voice sharp with barely contained fury. His eyes flicked from her wound to her face, then to the blood matted in her hair. “Where were you?”
There was something else beneath the anger or guilt, maybe. Concern that made her chest ache in a way that had nothing to do with her injuries. She opened her mouth to answer, but Zemo beat her to it.
Zemo emerged from the driver’s side with infuriating grace, adjusting his collar as if they’d just returned from a pleasant outing. The blood dried along his hairline somehow looked deliberate, like an accessory he’d chosen to complement his outfit. He dabbed at a small cut on his temple with what had once been a pristine white handkerchief.
“An eventful morning,” he said smoothly, straightening his cuffs with practiced precision. “We made friends. They made poor choices.”
Isabelle rolled her eyes at him, then looked to Bucky and tugged her shirt down. “I got separated,” she said, voice rough from where she’d been choked earlier. She shot him a pointed look. “You guys ran off without me.”
Bucky flinched. It wasn’t dramatic, just a tightening around his eyes, a subtle twitch of his metal fingers against his thigh, but she’d spent enough time watching him to recognize a direct hit. Guilt flashed across his face, raw and immediate, making her stomach twist.
“It wasn’t your fault,” she amended, her voice softening despite herself. She swallowed against the soreness in her throat. “I just... couldn’t keep up.” Her gaze flicked to Zemo, standing there with his infuriating composure, then back to Sam and Bucky. “Ran into a bounty squad. Zemo found me.” The next words stuck in her throat like shards of glass. “Saved my ass.”
The admission burned worse than the knife wound in her side. Worse than the headache pounding behind her eyes. She’d rather take another knife than admit she owed Zemo anything.
Sam’s mouth opened, then closed again. His hand tightened on her shoulder until she could feel each individual finger pressing into her skin. His eyes darted between her and Zemo, disbelief etched into every line of his face, from the furrow between his brows to the tight set of his jaw.
“You’re telling me he saved you?”
“Don’t make me say it twice,” she muttered, running a shaky hand through her hair. “Trust me, I hate it more than you do.”
Bucky’s eyes hadn’t left Zemo, his metal hand flexing at his side with a faint mechanical whir. “Why?” he demanded, the single word loaded with enough suspicion to fill a magazine.
Zemo spread his hands in a gesture of mock innocence. “Must I have an ulterior motive for everything?” His voice was smooth as aged whiskey, just as intoxicating and twice as dangerous. “Perhaps I simply recognized that Ms. Stark’s particular talents might prove useful in our shared endeavor.”
“Bullshit,” Sam said, but Isabelle didn’t miss the uncertainty that had crept into his voice, weighing what he knew of Zemo against what he was seeing now.
The adrenaline that had kept Isabelle upright was beginning to ebb, leaving her limbs heavy and her thoughts sluggish. Her side throbbed in time with her heartbeat, and the taste of copper lingered at the back of her throat. She suddenly felt every minute of the last twenty-four hours pressing down on her like a physical weight.
“Can we debate Zemo’s potential redemption arc later?” she asked, her voice thinner than she would have liked. She swallowed, tasting copper again. “Preferably after I’ve had a shower and about twelve hours of sleep?”
Sam nodded, his thumb brushing once across her shoulder in silent acknowledgment, but his attention had already shifted back to Zemo. His jaw tightened, eyes narrowing to laser focus as he stepped away from her.
“You ran off again,” Sam snapped, stepping forward until he was nearly chest-to-chest with Zemo. The muscle in his jaw jumped. “That’s twice now—first after Selby, and now this—”
“I didn’t run,” Zemo interrupted, his calm infuriating in the face of Sam’s anger. He dabbed at the cut on his temple again, the handkerchief now more red than white. “I retrieved your stray. You’re welcome, by the way.”
Sam’s nostrils flared. “You’re going back to prison.”
Zemo’s smile was slow and deliberate, like a knife being unsheathed. “Eventually.”
The tension between them crackled like electricity, and Isabelle found herself shifting her weight, preparing to move if things escalated
“Sam,” she said quickly, pulling his attention away from Zemo for a fraction of a second. “We still need him,” she continued, her gaze shifting to Zemo, remembering how easily he’d killed the men who’d cornered them. “After that—fine. Prison, firing squad, whatever you want. But until then?” She met Sam’s eyes again, letting him see the truth in hers. “He’s useful.”
Sam’s face tightened, the muscle in his jaw jumping as he visibly restrained himself. His eyes never left Zemo, even as he processed her words. She could read the conflict in the set of his shoulders, the subtle shift of weight from one foot to the other.
Sam looked like he wanted to argue, his mouth already forming the first syllable of a protest. But before he could speak, Sharon stepped forward from where she’d been observing the entire exchange. One eyebrow arched with practiced nonchalance, her posture deceptively casual as she positioned herself between Sam and Zemo.
“If this is what passes for a reunion these days,” she said, her voice dry as desert sand, “I’m starting to feel nostalgic for covert ops.” Her eyes scanned over Isabelle. “At least the debriefs were shorter.”
Sam turned toward her, his stance softening almost imperceptibly. “You sure you won’t come back to the States?”
Sharon’s smile never reached her eyes. “Get me that pardon,” she said, something hard and brittle beneath the casual tone, “and we’ll talk.”
She turned and walked away, her footsteps nearly silent against the pavement as she melted into the shadows. One moment there, the next gone—as if she’d never existed at all. The abruptness of her departure left a vacuum in the air, the tension reconfiguring itself around her absence.
Zemo cleared his throat, drawing their attention back to him. He stood by the driver’s side door, his fingers tapping an idle rhythm against the metal frame.
“Shall we continue our little adventure?” he asked, lifting an eyebrow with practiced nonchalance. “Or would you prefer to conduct this reunion in full view of whoever might be watching?”
Sam’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath his skin. “Unbelievable,” he muttered, shaking his head as he moved around to the passenger side. He opened the back door with more force than necessary, the hinges protesting with a metallic groan.
“Get in,” he said to Isabelle, his voice gentler than his movements.
Isabelle straightened her spine despite the pain lancing through her side. “I can sit up front,” she said, the words coming out more defensive than she’d intended. The thought of being tucked away in the back like something fragile made her skin crawl.
“No,” Sam said, the single syllable firm but not unkind. His eyes softened at the edges, worry creasing the corners. “You’re in the back where I can keep an eye on you.” He lowered his voice, just for her. “Izzy, you look like you’re about to pass out. Just... humor me, okay?”
Something in his tone—the quiet concern, maybe, or the exhaustion that mirrored her own—drained the fight from her.
“Fine,” she grumbled, sliding into the back seat with as much dignity as she could muster. “But I’m not made of glass, Wilson. Stop looking at me like I’m going to shatter.”
“Could’ve fooled me,” Sam replied, his voice dropping to that teasing register that always managed to slip past her defenses. “Pretty sure I’ve seen more color in actual ghosts.”
“Says the man who thought ‘bird costume’ was a good career move,” she shot back, but there was no real heat behind it. The familiar rhythm of their banter felt like slipping into a worn sweater—comfortable, safe, known.
Sam slid in beside her, close enough that she could feel the solid warmth of him against her side. His shoulder brushed hers as he settled. The car dipped as Bucky got into the front passenger seat without a word, his metal arm catching the light as he pulled the door shut with more force than necessary.
As the engine growled to life, Sam shifted in the back seat, his knee bumping against Bucky’s seat in front of him. “You’re not gonna move your seat up, are you?” he asked, the question loaded with history.
Bucky didn’t even blink.
“No.”
The gentle hum of the jet’s engines vibrated through Isabelle’s bones as she pressed her forehead against the cool window. Outside, darkness swallowed everything except the occasional glint of stars, untethered and distant.
Like her.
The cabin lights had been dimmed to a soft, amber glow, casting everyone in shadows. Up front, Zemo murmured something to Oeznik, probably plotting world domination over champagne. She’d positioned herself as far from them as possible, claiming the back corner seat where she could see everyone but remain partially hidden.
Her fingers twitched toward her duffle bag, where she had stashed her mother’s journal, heavy with unread pages. They were going to Riga, where FRIDAY had tracked the Flag Smashers’ latest ping, buying them a few hours of downtime. A few hours she could use to finally read her mother’s words.
But not here. Not with an audience.
She glanced across the aisle where Sam sat with his phone pressed to his ear, voice pitched low as he spoke to Sarah. His face had softened in a way it only did when talking to his sister or his nephews—the hard lines of vigilance temporarily replaced by something gentler.
“Yeah, I know,” he was saying, rubbing a hand over his face. “Tell AJ I’ll help him with that science project when I get back. Promise.” A pause, then a quiet laugh. “Come on, Sarah, when have I ever broken a promise to those boys?”
She looked away from Sam, unable to bear the casual intimacy of his conversation. Her gaze landed on Bucky instead.
He sat across from her, hunched forward with elbows resting on his knees. The vibranium arm gleamed dully in the low light as he methodically worked a white cloth between the metal plates. His movements were precise, almost meditative—each panel wiped clean before moving to the next. Dried flecks of blood disappeared under his careful attention.
Isabelle found herself transfixed by the contrast—the deadly weapon being tended to with such gentleness, the careful way his flesh hand guided the cloth into every crevice. His brow furrowed slightly in concentration, his jaw tight.
His hands were beautiful, she realized with a jolt. Both of them. The flesh one with its calluses and barely visible scars, the metal one with its intricate plates and subtle whirring. Hands that had killed, hands that were now cleaning away the evidence with such care.
She shifted in her seat, suddenly aware of how dry her throat had become. The movement caught Bucky’s attention, his eyes flicking up to meet hers.
Blue. So intensely blue, even in the dim cabin light. He didn’t look away. Neither did she.
The moment stretched, taut as a wire. Isabelle felt her pulse quicken, heat crawling up her neck that had nothing to do with her healing abilities. There was something disarming about being seen, really seen, by someone who understood what it meant to be unmade.
A sudden burst of laughter from Sam’s conversation shattered the moment. Bucky cleared his throat and looked down, resuming his methodical cleaning with renewed focus. Isabelle shifted her gaze back to the window, but the reflection showed only her own face, pale and drawn.
She reached for her water bottle, taking a long sip to ease the dryness in her throat. The silence between them felt charged now, loaded with something neither of them had acknowledged.
“Gonna polish a hole through that thing eventually,” she finally said, not bothering to look away from the window. Her voice came out steadier than she felt. “Trying to distract yourself, or just make the rest of us look like slackers?”
From the corner of her eye, she saw Bucky’s movements pause. When she finally turned to face him, a smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. His eyes, usually guarded, held a warmth that made something flutter in her chest.
“Can’t have it getting rusty,” he replied, his voice low.
“Didn’t know vibranium could rust,” she said, raising an eyebrow.
Bucky chuckled, a low, rich sound that vibrated through the air between them. Something about that laugh—so rare, so unexpected—made Isabelle’s chest tighten. She watched his hands continue their work, the white cloth sliding between metal plates with practiced precision.
“It can’t,” he admitted, setting aside his polishing cloth. “Old habits die hard, I guess. Back in the day, weapon maintenance was drilled into us pretty hard.”
“Us?” Isabelle asked before she could stop herself.
A shadow of memory flickered over his face. His eyes focused on some middle distance, seeing something she couldn’t.
“The 107th,” he clarified, but his voice had softened around the edges. “Steve was always terrible at it. Used to drive me crazy, the way he’d just toss his shield into the back of a truck without cleaning it.”
Isabelle bit her lower lip, suddenly aware of the distance between them, not just the physical space across the aisle, but something else. Something she could bridge. Her gaze drifted to the empty space beside him on the long lounge seat, and she felt a pull toward it that made no logical sense.
Before she could overthink it, Isabelle stood, ignoring the dull throb in her side. The movement caught Bucky’s attention, his eyes tracking her as she crossed the narrow aisle. She settled beside him on the lounge seat, not too close, but close enough that she could feel the subtle shift in the air between them. Close enough that if she wanted to, she could reach out and touch the vibranium arm he’d been so carefully tending.
Heat crept up her neck, and she was suddenly grateful for the dim cabin lighting. She focused on keeping her breathing even, on not letting him see how such a simple act of proximity had her pulse skittering beneath her skin.
“Sounds like him,” she laughed, the sound quieter this time. Smaller. More intimate in the space they now shared. She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, hyperaware of how his gaze followed the movement. “Did he ever listen when you told him to clean it?”
Bucky’s lips quirked upward. The vibranium plates in his arm recalibrated with a soft whir, and Isabelle found herself fascinated by the subtle mechanics of it—how something so lethal could also be so intricate, so beautiful.
“Steve Rogers? Listen?” Bucky shook his head, and this time the smile reached his eyes, crinkling the corners. “Not a chance. Stubborn as they come. Always had to do things his way.”
His shoulder was inches from hers, the warmth of him radiating across the small space between them. Isabelle found herself wanting to lean into that warmth, to close the gap. Instead, she rested her hands in her lap, fingers loosely intertwined to keep them from fidgeting.
“Sounds familiar,” she said. “Dad was the same way. Drove me crazy.”
For a few beats, the only sound between them was Sam’s voice drifting up from the front—his conversation shifting into something about loan approvals and bad reception. Isabelle’s gaze drifted to her hands, fingers curled loosely in her lap.
“Are you okay?” The question slipped out before she could catch it, quiet enough that only Bucky could hear.
His head turned toward her, brow furrowing in genuine confusion. “Me?”
“Yeah.” She nodded, still not quite meeting his eyes. “Back in the lab. With Nagel. The shipyard.” Her voice dropped even lower. “You’ve barely said anything since.”
Bucky went still beside her—not the casual stillness of relaxation, but the absolute absence of movement, like he was deciding whether to strike or retreat. The vibranium plates in his arm recalibrated with a soft whir, the only indication that anything was happening beneath his carefully neutral expression.
When he didn’t immediately answer, Isabelle felt heat creep up her neck. “Forget it. It’s stupid—”
“I wanted to kill him. Nagel.” Bucky said, his voice so low she had to lean slightly closer to catch it. “Right there. Didn’t even think about it. Just... felt it.” His flesh hand clenched and unclenched in his lap.
The confession hung in the air between them, raw and unvarnished. Isabelle’s chest tightened at the quiet admission, at the shame that threaded through his words.
“Shouldn’t I be asking if you’re okay?” he countered, finally looking at her. The intensity in his eyes made her breath catch.
Isabelle exhaled, a sound caught somewhere between a laugh and a sigh. “Nagel’s dead,” she said with a slight shrug. “So, yeah, I guess I’m okay.”
She meant it to sound flippant, but the words came out hollow. Bucky’s gaze sharpened, seeing through the deflection with unsettling ease.
“That’s not what I asked.”
Something about the quiet intensity of his voice made her walls crack. Just a hairline fracture, but enough.
“I keep thinking about what he said,” she admitted. Her fingers found a loose thread on her sleeve, tugging at it rhythmically. “About the serum. About me. Like I was just another experiment. Another variable.” She paused, her breath catching. The words felt like pebbles in her mouth—small, hard things she had to push past her teeth. “And the worst part is, he wasn’t wrong.”
Bucky shifted beside her, the leather seat creaking softly beneath his weight. His shoulder brushed against hers—a brief, warm point of contact that sent electricity skittering across her skin. Not accidental, she realized.
Deliberate.
“I wanted to kill him,” he repeated, each word deliberate and heavy. In the dim cabin light, the angles of his face seemed sharper, the shadows deeper. “Not just for what he did to those people. For what he did to you.”
Isabelle looked up, caught off guard by the raw honesty. She could feel the heat of him beside her, solid and real.
“You didn’t,” she said simply.
“Yeah,” Bucky said, his jaw flexing. “But Zemo did.” He exhaled slowly, eyes flickering to the front of the plane where Zemo moved about. “And I don’t know what’s worse.”
She let that hang between them. Then, more gently, “He said something to me. Nagel. Before he died.”
Bucky turned toward her, giving her his full attention. The intensity of his gaze made her pulse quicken, but she didn’t look away. Couldn’t.
“What did he say?” The question was gentle, patient.
Her fingers twisted the edge of her sleeve tighter, the fabric biting into her skin. “He said... ‘like mother, like daughter.’”
The words hung between them, poisonous and heavy. Bucky’s expression darkened instantly, his entire body going still in that predatory way that reminded her of who, what, and he had been. The arm closest to her flexed once, metal plates shifting with a soft mechanical whisper.
“He was wrong,” Bucky said, his voice quiet but firm. No hesitation, no doubt.
“You didn’t see me,” she whispered, the confession scraping her throat raw. “I was going to do it. I wanted to.” Her voice cracked on the last word. “I could feel it building—that pressure behind my eyes, in my fingertips. Like a circuit about to overload.”
“I did see you,” he countered, his eyes holding hers. No judgment, just certainty.
The words hit her harder than she expected.
“I don’t know if that was me stopping,” she admitted, studying her hands, turning them palm-up. “Or just…someone else getting there first.” She flexed her fingers, watching the tendons shift beneath her skin, imagining the microscopic changes happening beneath—cells dividing, healing, rebuilding. Destroying. “What if Zemo hadn’t been there? What if he hadn’t pulled that trigger?”
“I’ve done worse for less,” Bucky leaned forward, elbows braced against his knees. The position brought him closer, his voice dropping to something soft and private, meant only for her.“You were trying to stop a monster. That doesn’t make you one.”
Isabelle’s throat tightened. She watched the way his shoulders curved inward when he wasn’t standing at attention, the subtle vulnerability in his posture. She blinked once, then twice, then looked away.
“You always this good at saying the right thing,” she murmured, “or am I just special?”
Bucky kept his eyes on her, the hardness usually defining his features softening more. His lips curved into a small, genuine smile that transformed his entire face.
“Pretty sure you’re just special,” he said, voice low and rough-edged, but warm.
Her stomach flipped. She found herself studying his face with an intensity that surprised her—the stubble along his jawline, the small crease between his brows that never fully disappeared, the way his hair stuck up from his hand running through it too many times. His eyes, startlingly blue even in the dim light, held hers without flinching.
“Thanks, Bucky,” she said softly, the words inadequate for what she was trying to convey.
His expression shifted, something unspoken flickering behind his eyes. “Anytime, doll,” he murmured.
Then—as if it were the simplest thing in the world—he reached out, his hand moving slowly enough that she could have pulled away if she wanted to. His fingers brushed against hers, callused and warm. When she didn’t withdraw, he took her hand gently, his grip firm but careful, as if he was afraid she might shatter under too much pressure.
Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. The simple contact sent electricity racing up her arm, her pulse quickening beneath her skin. His thumb pressed briefly against her knuckles, the metal of his other arm catching the light as he shifted slightly closer.
It didn’t hurt to be held like this—careful, patient, real. Just connection, offered without expectation.
She couldn’t look at him. Her heart hammered against her ribs, and if she met his eyes now, she wasn’t sure what might come spilling out—all the broken, jagged pieces she’d been holding together for months. The grief. The rage. The terrible, crushing loneliness.
His hand squeezed hers once, a gentle pressure that somehow conveyed more understanding than words could have. Then he let go, fingers sliding away from hers as he straightened in his seat.
The cabin air felt suddenly cooler against her skin. She curled her fingers inward, preserving the ghost of his touch. The warmth lingered, curling in her palm like a secret she wasn’t ready to name, a possibility she wasn’t brave enough to acknowledge.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 7/4/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/173401057
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2014After the fall of SHIELD, the only thing heavier than the silence is the truth.
In the dim glow, Isabelle Stark finds herself unraveling.
Code names, project files, and the legacy of a mother who was never who she claimed to be.Steve finds her first.
Not to fix her.
Just to sit with her in the dark.Quiet confessions, painful clarity, and the kind of intimacy that only survivors can share.
Sometimes, you don't need to be saved.
Just seen.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 41: The Past, the Price, the Pull
Chapter 41: The Past, the Price, the Pull
Summary:
Isabelle wakes up sore, disoriented, and swimming in the kind of exhaustion that sleep can’t fix.
The dream still cling to her skin.
And beside her, Bucky is watching her with something that feels a little too careful to be casual.There’s teasing. There’s lingering looks.
There’s Sam, of course, with a raised eyebrow and a perfectly timed “Uh-huh.”But then the mission snaps back into focus: Donya Madani is dead. Karli is grieving.
And grief makes people dangerous.The team touches down in Riga, and Isabelle is left standing somewhere between trust and memory, with Bucky offering to carry more than just her bag.
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ACT 3 IS HERE!!!! 💚
I’m so freaking excited for this part of the story. Things are about to get heavier, messier, and way more personal. There’s angst coming (sorry, not sorry), more of Isabelle and Bucky (a lot more), and… we’re finally digging into that journal. 👀
I’ve been dying to get to this act, and I cannot wait to share what’s coming. Thank you, as always, for reading, screaming, and holding space for these disaster characters. See you next time!! 💚🖤
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2014
It starts with the cold.
Not the kind that comes from wind or rain—but the kind that seeps into your bones when the truth is colder than any winter you’ve survived.
She was barefoot on tile, wrapped in an oversized hoodie. A mug of lukewarm tea sat between her palms, long gone cold. She couldn’t remember the last time she took a sip.
The kitchen was dark, save for the sliver of moonlight slanting in through the blinds, casting prison-bar shadows across her legs. Somewhere in the next room, Sam’s soft snoring drifted over the persistent hum of the refrigerator. He’d insisted that Natasha take his bed tonight, after everything. After SHIELD. After Zola. After learning that the organization she’d pledged her second life to had been rotting from the inside all along.
The soft pad of bare feet against hardwood made her muscles tense, but she didn’t look up. Not yet. She knew it was Steve before he could even enter the kitchen. She knew the cadence of his breathing, how it was still slightly elevated, still processing.
He moved to the refrigerator, not noticing her just yet. The blue-white light illuminated the exhaustion on his face when he opened the door and reached in for a bottle of water. That’s when he saw her. He froze, catching her huddled form on the floor, highlighted by the light. His hand dropped the plastic bottle, thirst forgotten.
“Belle?” he said quietly. The refrigerator door swung shut, plunging them back into shadow.
She didn’t acknowledge him. Just kept staring down into her tea like it might hold the answer to questions she hadn’t figured out how to ask yet.
Steve crossed over to her, his movements so carefully slow, sliding down next to her. His back pressed against the cabinet, bending one knee up to rest his arm on it. The cabinet creaked under his weight, hissing out a groan.
Up close, she could see the faint tremor in his hands. Could hear the way his breath still hadn’t quite settled back into its normal rhythm. Could feel the heat radiating off him—super soldiers run hot, not just her, she’d learned.
HYDRA inside SHIELD. A ghost in a computer. The Soldier.
Her mother’s name, buried in code. A file stamped B-13.
Everything rotting under the surface.
She swallowed, feeling the click in her throat.
“What are you still doing up?” Steve asked, his voice soft. Like if he spoke too loudly, the house might disappear. Like they were in a bubble that could burst at any moment.
The question hung between them, simple and impossible all at once. She traced the rim of her mug with her index finger, feeling the smooth ceramic under her touch. One, two, three circles before she speaks.
“I’m trying to decide,” she said, voice rough from disuse, “whether I’m a victim or a mistake.”
That silenced him. She could hear him breathing, could feel the slight shift as he weighed her words. The refrigerator kicked on again, humming louder now.
“You’re neither,” he said finally, with that quiet certainty that made people follow him into gunfire. His shoulders brushed against her, not by accident.
She turned to look at him, to really look at him since they first took shelter at Sam’s. The moonlight caught the planes of his face, the shadows under his eyes, the tight line of his jaw. He looked older tonight, worn thin by betrayal.
“Then what am I?” she asked, hating how small her voice sounded like a child. Like the girl she was before SHIELD, before the Avengers. Before, she thought she knew who she was.
Her hands trembled as she set the mug down on the tile with a soft clink. Tea sloshed over the rim, forming a dark puddle that spread outward. She drew her knees to her chest, the hoodie bunching around her thighs.
“Fury told me a little,” she murmured, watching the tea puddle slowly expand. “What he knew about my mother. But it wasn’t…” Her throat constricted, the words sticking together. “It wasn’t this.”
The bunker flashed behind her eyelids—Zola’s digital face, pixelated and smug as he laid bare decades of lies. The green text scrolled across monitors. Her mother’s name. Project Belladonna. B-13. Amongst so much more.
“I was a program.” The words tasted like ash. “And that guy. The one who shot Fury—he killed my grandparents too.”
Steve exhaled slowly beside her, a controlled release of breath that didn’t hide the tension in his frame.
“I knew—” The words scraped her throat raw. “I knew my mother was... bad. I knew what she did to me was wrong.” Her fingers dug into her shins, nails biting through the fabric of her borrowed sweatpants. “And I’ve come to terms with that. Or I thought I had. But this? HYDRA?” Something hot and tight built in her chest, pressing against her ribs. “She was going to make me a weapon for them to use.”
The tears formed despite her resistance, burning at the corners of her eyes. One escaped, tracking a hot path down her cheek.
“Belle,” Steve shifted beside her, his hand hovering near her shoulder before settling there, warm and steady. “You’re not what she made you for. You never have been. And never will be.”
“Don’t.” She jerked away from his touch, her tone coming out harsher than she meant. “Don’t try to make this better. You can’t.”
The silence between them stretched for a few heartbeats, broken only by the refrigerator’s persistent hum and the distant sound of Sam’s breathing from the other room.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered after a deep breath, shoulders slumping. “That wasn’t fair. None of this is your fault.”
“It’s okay.” His voice was low, a rumble she could feel through the cabinet at her back. “You don’t have to apologize for being angry. Not to me.”
She turned to look at him, really look at him—at the shadows under his eyes, the tension in his jaw, the way his hands rest on his knees, palms up like he’s offering something he can’t name.
“How do you do it?” she asked, watching his face in the half-light. “How do you keep going when everything you thought was real turns out to be—” She gestured vaguely at the air between them, at the darkness surrounding them. “This.”
Steve’s exhale was heavy, weighed down by the events of the day. His fingers flexed once, twice against his knee.
“I remind myself that the idea was always bigger than the organization.” His eyes met hers. “SHIELD might be compromised, but what it stood for—what it was supposed to stand for—that’s still worth fighting for. The shield doesn’t belong to SHIELD or HYDRA. It never did.”
Isabelle couldn’t help but snort, the sound sharp in the quiet kitchen. “That’s such a Captain America answer.”
“Well,” he said, the corner of his mouth lifting in that familiar half-smile that’s made its way onto war bonds posters and trading cards, “I am Captain America.” A beat. “And you did ask.”
The unexpected quip startled a laugh out of her—small and fragile, but real. It bubbled up from somewhere deep, somewhere she thought had gone numb hours ago. For just a moment, the crushing weight on her chest lightened.
But then the silence settled again, heavier than before. The refrigerator hummed. The tea puddle on the floor stopped spreading, dark and forgotten between them.
She could feel the question building in Steve—could see it in the way his jaw works, in the slight furrow between his brows, in how his breathing changed. It slipped out like a confession.
“Are you gonna tell Tony?”
“About my grandparents?” Isabelle’s fingers curled into the hoodie, twisting until her knuckles ached. “No.” The word fell simple and final. “I can’t. If he knew...”
She swallowed hard, picturing her father’s face—the way his eyes would darken, how the muscle in his jaw would jump. How he’d try to hide it, but she’d see it anyway: that old, familiar fracture line cracking open again.
“It would destroy him,” she continued. “It would undo every inch of healing he’s done. Every step forward he’s taken since he first built the suit, since New York.” Her voice caught. “Since he got sober.”
She could feel Steve studying her in the darkness, his gaze a tangible weight. “He has a right to know.” His voice wasn’t unkind, but there’s a firmness to it that makes her chest tighten—that stubborn righteousness that’s both his greatest strength and his most infuriating quality.
“And I have a right to protect him. Even if he hates me for it later, I can take that.” Her voice drops, raw with conviction. “What I can’t take is watching it break him. Watching him spiral again. Watching him—” She cut herself off, the words too painful to voice. “I just got him back, Steve.”
Steve’s expression softened, the lines around his mouth easing. His shoulders dropped slightly, the tension bleeding out of them. He doesn’t argue, doesn’t push. Instead, he pressed against hers again with his shoulder.
The relief that flooded through her was so intense that it made her dizzy. She exhaled shakily, some of the rigid tension leaving her spine. Her shoulder pressed back against his, accepting the silent offering of support.
“You know,” he said after a moment, “when I came out of the ice, I thought the hardest part would be catching up on history, technology—all the things I missed. But it wasn’t.” He paused, and Isabelle watched the way his throat worked as he swallowed. “The hardest part was realizing that the world I was fighting for wasn’t the one I woke up in. That maybe it never existed at all.”
Isabelle studied his profile. Captain America—not the one from the propaganda reels or the museum exhibits, but stripped down to his bones. Raw. Uncertain. She wondered how many people had seen him like this, without the shield, without the certainty.
“So what did you do?” she asked, her voice small, hushed, as if speaking any louder might shatter whatever fragile thing is building between them in the darkness.
His eyes met hers, steady and clear despite everything. Despite the betrayal, despite the lies, despite the world crumbling around them. “I stopped trying to look for the world I lost and started trying to build the one I wanted to live in.”
His hand moved from his knee, hovering in the space between them for a heartbeat, two, before settling on her forearm.
“You get to decide who you are, Isabelle.” His thumb brushes over the fabric, a small, unconscious gesture of comfort.
Something inside her chest cracked at that—not breaking, but shifting, like ice beginning to thaw after a long winter. The pressure behind her eyes built.
“And if I don’t know how to decide?” Her pulse quickens, a flutter of panic at having exposed too much.
Steve’s thumb traced a path over her forearm, back and forth, back and forth. The repetitive motion anchored her, keeping her from drifting too far into the darkness swirling inside her head.
“Then you take it one day at a time. One choice at a time.” His fingers tightened slightly on her arm, not constraining but connecting. “And you don’t do it alone.”
The tears she’d been fighting back well up again, hot and insistent. This time, she didn’t try to blink them away. One slipped down her cheek, then another, leaving cool trails in their wake.
“I don’t know if I can be that brave.”
Steve angled his body toward her more fully, his eyes never leaving hers. In them, she saw not pity, but a reflection of her own pain—and something else. Something steady and unwavering that made her breath catch.
“You already are,” he says simply.
She wanted to argue, wanted to list all the ways she’s been a coward—running from her past, hiding from her father, burying herself in missions and training and anything that would keep her from looking too closely at the truth. But the words died in her throat when his hand slid from her forearm to her hand, his calloused fingers wrapping around hers.
Isabelle looked down at their joined hands—his so much larger than hers, warm and steady despite everything they’ve learned today. Everything they’ve lost. She turned her hand in his, letting their palms press together, feeling the calluses on his fingers, the strength in his grip. That’s when she finally leaned her head on his shoulder. She felt his chest expand as he breathed in, catching the faint scent of her shampoo.
The silence stretched between them, but it’s different now. Not the hollow emptiness of before, but something fuller. Something alive with unspoken words.
“I’m glad I met you, Steve.” Her voice came out softer than she intended, almost too quiet to hear. “You’re—”
The rest of the sentence hovered in the space between them, unfinished, afraid it would vanish. Or worse. Make things weird. She wasn’t sure if she was ready to admit how much he’s come to mean to her, how quickly he’s become her anchor in a world that keeps shifting beneath her feet.
But Steve just waited, patient, kind, his thumb tracing small circles on the back of her hand, each one a silent reassurance.
“You know I’m not going anywhere, right?” He bumped his shoulder lightly into hers. The words weren’t a question so much as a promise. “No matter what we find, no matter what happens—” His fingers tightened around hers, the pressure grounding her to this moment, this kitchen, this truth. “I’m in this. With you. Always.”
Isabelle’s throat tightened, a pressure building behind her eyes that had nothing to do with tears and everything to do with the way he was looking at her, like she was worth fighting for. Worth staying for.
She doesn’t say I love you—that’s not their language. Not yet. Maybe not ever. But she nudged her head gently against his shoulder, a silent thank you, a wordless confession. Her fingers intertwined with his more firmly, thumb brushing over his knuckles in a mirror of his earlier gesture.
He rested his cheek on top of her head, his stubble catching slightly in her hair. They sat like that for a long time—two ghosts in borrowed clothes, holding too many secrets, waiting for the world to burn again.
Present
Reality slammed back with a violent jolt.
The plane touched down in Riga with a jarring thud that rattled through Isabelle’s bones, snapping her consciousness back into her body like a rubber band. Her eyes flew open, heart hammering against her ribs, before her brain could properly process where she was.
Outside the small oval window, dawn was breaking over an unfamiliar skyline, painting the architecture in washed-out blues and grays.
“Jesus,” she muttered, wincing as her neck spasmed when she straightened. Every vertebra in her spine protested the movement, a chorus of tiny complaints working their way up from her tailbone to the base of her skull. Eight hours in a cramped luxury seat was still eight hours in a cramped seat.
The cabin lights flickered on one by one, the gentle amber of night mode giving way to harsh lights that made her eyes water. Isabelle blinked hard, trying to scrub away the gritty feeling behind her eyelids. Her mouth tasted like something had crawled inside and died—all stale coffee and the ghost of the whiskey Zemo had offered her at some point before she fell asleep.
She ran her tongue over her teeth and grimaced at the fuzzy film coating them. Her hair felt greasy against her scalp, and the collar of her shirt was damp with the sweat of uneasy sleep. She’d dreamed—fragments of memory and fear that she couldn’t quite piece together now, but that left her with a lingering sense of dread pooling in her gut.
“You were out cold,” Bucky said beside her, his voice a low rumble that seemed to vibrate through the narrow space between them.
When she turned to look at him, his blue eyes were clear and alert—a man who’d probably cataloged every ping and rattle of the aircraft through the night.
“For a while there, I thought I might have to carry you off,” he added.
There was something in his expression, though—a softness around the edges that didn’t match the casual teasing of his words. Like he’d been watching over her, not just watching her. The thought sent an unexpected flutter through her chest that she immediately tamped down, burying it beneath layers of practiced indifference.
Isabelle stretched her arms above her head, her shoulder joints popping with a series of satisfying cracks that momentarily drowned out the plane’s engines winding down. The movement made her shirt ride up slightly, exposing a sliver of skin above her jeans. She caught Bucky’s gaze dropping for a fraction of a second before snapping back to her face, his expression carefully neutral once more.
“In your dreams, Barnes,” she muttered, reaching for the half-empty water bottle in her seat’s cupholder. The plastic crinkled loudly in her grip. “I could take down guys twice your size while sleepwalking.”
She unscrewed the cap and took a long pull, the tepid water doing little to wash away the sour taste in her mouth. A drop escaped the corner of her lips, tracking a cool path down her chin before she caught it with the back of her hand.
“I don’t doubt it,” Bucky replied, and there it was again—that ghost of a smile touching his lips as he watched her gulp down water. Not mocking, but something else. Something that made her pulse quicken.
His metal arm gleamed under the cabin lights, the vibranium plates shifting almost imperceptibly as he adjusted his position. She wondered if he could feel the change in air pressure through it, if the arm was sensitive enough to register the subtle shifts that accompanied landing. She wondered if it hurt where metal met flesh, especially after a night spent in one position.
“God, I need a toothbrush,” she said, screwing the cap back on with more force than necessary. Her fingers left damp prints on the plastic. “And coffee. Definitely coffee. The kind that could strip paint.” She ran a hand through her tangled hair, feeling the knots catch against her fingers.
“Already on it,” Sam called from across the aisle, holding up a thermos that Oeznik must have prepared. The metal container caught the light, sending a brief flash across the cabin. Sam looked irritatingly fresh for someone who’d spent the night on a plane—his clothes barely wrinkled, his eyes clear. He’d probably done some ridiculous in-seat workout routine while she’d been drooling on her own shoulder.
“Though I can’t vouch for what passes as coffee in Zemo’s world,” Sam continued, eyeing the thermos with theatrical suspicion. “Probably costs more than my apartment.”
Isabelle’s gaze drifted past Sam to where Zemo sat at the front of the cabin, his back to them as he spoke quietly with Oeznik.
“At this point,” she said, turning back to Sam, “I’d drink motor oil if it had caffeine in it.”
The plane gave a final shudder as it taxied to a stop, the engines whining down to a low, persistent hum that vibrated through the soles of Isabelle’s boots. Metal groaned as the aircraft settled on its landing gear. Somewhere near the cockpit, a door opened with a pneumatic hiss, then closed with a definitive click. The pilot’s voice drifted back to them—rapid-fire Latvian that sounded like stones tumbling down a hillside, answered by what must have been ground crew outside.
Isabelle stretched again, wincing as her spine popped in three distinct places. She leaned down to retrieve her duffle bag from under the seat. She heaved it over her shoulder and made a face—her body still hurt…well, from everything…
“Here,” Bucky said, reaching over. His flesh hand brushed against hers as he took the bag, his skin warm against her sleep-chilled fingers. “Let me get that.”
“I’m perfectly capable of carrying my own bag, Barnes,” she said, but there was no heat behind the words.
“Never said you weren’t.” He stood, slinging both their bags over his shoulder with effortless grace. The movement brought him closer, his chest nearly touching her shoulder. “Just being a gentleman.”
Isabelle snorted. “Is that what they called it in the forties?”
“Among other things.” His voice dropped lower, the Brooklyn in his accent thickening just enough to notice.
She became acutely aware of how close they were standing in the narrow aisle. Close enough that if she shifted her weight forward just slightly, her chest would brush against his arm.
“If you two are done with... whatever this is,” Sam’s voice cut through the moment, dry as dust, “some of us would like to actually get off this plane before we retire.”
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck. She stepped back, nearly tripping over the armrest of her seat. Bucky’s hand shot out, steadying her with a grip on her elbow that lingered a fraction longer than necessary.
“Careful,” he murmured, close enough that she felt his breath against her ear.
Isabelle cleared her throat, extracting herself from his grip with as much dignity as she could muster. “I’m fine.”
Sam pushed past them both, eyebrows raised so high they nearly disappeared into his hairline. “Uh-huh,” he said, the single syllable loaded with implication. His eyes darted between them, a smirk playing at the corners of his mouth. “That’s what it looks like.”
“Shut up, Wilson,” Isabelle muttered, smoothing her rumpled shirt with hands that weren’t quite steady.
Sam held up his hands in mock surrender, but the knowing look didn’t leave his face. “Hey, not judging. Just observing.” He lowered his voice, leaning in slightly. “Though I gotta say, this is... new.”
“There’s nothing to observe,” Bucky said flatly, but Isabelle noticed he’d put a careful six inches between them now. “And there’s nothing new.”
Sam’s smirk widened into a full grin. “Sure, man. Whatever you say.”
Sam leaned forward, voice pitched low enough that only they could hear. His eyes darted to where Zemo stood conversing with Oeznik, then back to them. The playfulness had vanished from his expression, replaced by something grave that made Isabelle’s skin prickle.
“I talked to Joaquin while you were sleeping. He found something.”
Something in his tone—a heaviness, a reluctance—made Isabelle’s stomach clench. She straightened, every muscle suddenly alert, sleep evaporating. The lingering warmth from her interaction with Bucky cooled instantly.
“What is it?”
“Donya Madani.” Sam’s eyes held hers, steady but apologetic. A muscle in his jaw tightened, flexed. “She passed away last night.”
It wasn’t a surprise. They’d known Donya was ill—Nagel had said so, but still, that fact didn’t stop the cold wave from washing through her chest. She felt it not just for the loss of their lead, but for what it meant. For who it would devastate.
“Karli,” she whispered.
Despite who she was. Despite what Karli was doing, Isabelle understood the desperate need for a family when your own had been ripped away. Understood what it meant to lose the one person who made you feel like you belonged somewhere, to someone. The one person who saw past what you could do to who you were.
“Yeah.” Sam nodded, his eyes reflecting a shared understanding. His voice dropped even lower, thick with empathy. “The girl’s gotta be wrecked.”
Isabelle’s mind flashed unbidden to her father’s funeral. The hollow space in her chest where something vital used to be. She remembered how she’d channeled that pain, not into grief, but into mission after mission. Serum after serum. Pushing her body past breaking, because physical pain was easier than the alternative.
“She’ll be more dangerous now,” Bucky said, his voice a low rumble beside her. When she glanced at him, his eyes were distant, haunted. He knew, too, what grief could drive a person to do.
Isabelle nodded, swallowing hard against the knot in her throat. “Grief makes you reckless. Makes you want to burn the world down just to feel something. And with that serum in her system...” She let the thought hang unfinished.
“We need to find her before she does something she can’t come back from,” Sam said, his eyes moving between them.
“If you’re quite finished with the sentimentality,” Zemo’s smooth voice sliced through the moment like a blade, “we should be on our way.”
He stood at the front of the cabin, impeccably dressed despite the overnight flight, looking down at them with barely concealed impatience. His hands were clasped behind his back, posture military-straight.
“My safehouse isn’t far, and I’d prefer not to linger in public longer than necessary.”
Isabelle’s jaw clenched so hard her teeth ached.
“Right,” she muttered, “because staying at the evil baron’s secret lair is totally normal.” She ignored the way Zemo’s lips curved into that infuriating hint of a smile. “Lead the way, Hannibal Lecter.”
Bucky snorted beside her, the sound so unexpected it made her glance up. His eyes crinkled slightly at the corners, amusement softening the hard planes of his face. Like he understood the reference.
“Wait, hold up,” she said, pausing mid-step. “You understood that reference? You know Silence of the Lambs?”
The question tumbled out before she could stop it, genuine curiosity breaking through her exhaustion. She tried to picture the Winter Soldier sitting on a couch, watching Hannibal Lecter and Clarice Starling verbally spar through prison glass. The image was so incongruous that it almost made her smile.
“It was on Steve’s list,” Bucky replied, that almost-smile playing at his lips again. “Checked it out a few months ago. Right after The Godfather and before Star Wars.”
Isabelle felt a genuine smile spread across her face, the first one in what felt like days. “What did you think?” she asked, suddenly hungry for this small, normal moment amid the chaos. “About the movie, I mean.”
Bucky’s expression shifted, thoughtful now. “Hopkins was good. Disturbing.” A pause, then: “Reminded me of Zemo, actually.” He said it just loud enough for Zemo to hear, but the baron merely inclined his head, as if accepting a compliment rather than an insult.
Sam cleared his throat loudly from behind them, the sound exaggerated enough to make Isabelle jump. She turned to find him watching them with raised eyebrows and a knowing look that made heat return up her neck.
“If you two are done with your little book club meeting,” he said, gesturing toward the exit where Zemo stood waiting, one eyebrow raised in aristocratic disdain, “we’ve got a super soldier to find.”
Isabelle felt her cheeks warm. She hadn’t realized how close she and Bucky had drifted while talking, her body angled toward his, their voices pitched low like they were sharing secrets. She took a half-step back, creating space between them.
“Right,” she muttered, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.
Her gaze dropped to her duffel bag, still clutched in Bucky’s left hand. The Winter Soldier playing bellhop. It was almost as bizarre as picturing him on a couch with a bowl of popcorn, watching Silence of the Lambs.
She shifted her weight, suddenly conscious of how close they were standing in the narrow aisle. “Are you sure you want to—” she gestured vaguely at her bag, the motion awkward and stilted.
“I got it,” Bucky said, his voice low and certain. No room for argument, but not unkind either. Just matter-of-fact in that way he had—like carrying her bag was as natural as breathing.
Isabelle hesitated, caught between the bone-deep instinct to handle things herself and the exhaustion that made even standing upright feel like a marathon. Her shoulders ached from tension, her lower back throbbed, and her head felt stuffed with cotton. The idea of lugging her bag through an unfamiliar airport suddenly seemed monumental.
“Thanks,” she conceded finally. A small surrender that shouldn’t have felt significant but did.
Sam was already moving toward the exit, shaking his head slightly as he passed them. She caught the ghost of a smile on his face, though, and felt another flush of warmth creep up her neck.
“After you,” Bucky said, gesturing toward the aisle with his flesh hand.
Isabelle moved forward, hyper-aware of his presence behind her—the quiet rhythm of his breathing, the soft creak of leather from his jacket, the barely-there metallic whisper of his arm adjusting to the weight of their bags. She felt the heat of him at her back, not touching but close enough that she could sense him there, a solid presence in a world that kept shifting beneath her feet.
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The safehouse is just a few blocks away. Zemo makes sure it feels like miles.
Isabelle knew this trip to Riga would hurt. She just didn’t expect the first wound to come from words.
But leave it to Zemo to twist a conversation into a scalpel and aim for every scar she’s tried to bury.
Sokovia. Wanda. Her own reflection in the mirror.One minute, she’s holding it together.
The next, she’s halfway down a side street, breath shallow, hands glowing, trying not to come apart in the middle of a foreign city.And the worst part? He’s not entirely wrong.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 42: Guilt Is a Quiet Thing
Chapter 42: Guilt Is a Quiet Thing
Summary:
A quiet café. A cup of coffee. A notebook full of ghosts.
Isabelle steps out for air and ends up crashing headfirst into grief.
Natasha’s memory lingers in a laugh that isn’t hers.
Wanda haunts the space between silence and paprikash.And nestled at the bottom of her duffle is the thing she’s been trying not to touch—the journal Zemo stole.
The one that belonged to her mother.She told herself she wouldn’t read it.
She told herself it didn’t matter.
She lied.
Notes:
Posting this in a rush before I possibly lose power because the thunderstorm outside is unhinged right now 😅
I AM SO EXCITED FOR THIS NEXT ARC!!! After this chapter, like Act 2, we’ll be diving into flashbacks soon... finally exploring why Laura did what she did, what actually happened, and how it all unraveled.
Fair warning: the next few chapters get darker. I may have cried writing parts of them (okay, I definitely did).
But hey... things get worse before they get better, right?Thank you for reading, screaming, and surviving the angst with me. 💚🖤
🎵Chapter song vibes: "I Can't Handle Change" by Roar
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Chapter Text
As they exited the plane, the damp tarmac stretched before them like a slate-gray canvas. The air smelled of fuel and rain-soaked concrete. Isabelle and Sam walked side by side, his duffle bag clutched in one hand, knuckles tight around the handles. Ahead of them, Bucky moved with measured steps, keeping close to Zemo—never letting the man stray too far from his watchful gaze.
Isabelle studied Sam’s profile. The tightness around his eyes. The way his jaw worked silently, grinding down thoughts he wouldn’t voice.
“Hey,” she said quietly, “you okay?”
Sam glanced at her, eyebrows lifting in practiced nonchalance. “Yeah... why wouldn’t I be?”
But the question sounded hollow, even to her own ears. Fragments of last night drifted back to her—Sam’s hushed voice while he talked on the phone, the tight control in his tone as he spoke to Sarah. Words like “loan” and “extension” and “bank’s final offer” had filtered through. Then there was the call in Selby’s office, the tension radiating off him in waves she didn’t need her abilities to feel.
“I just...” Isabelle hesitated, then committed. “I heard you on the phone with Sarah last night.”
Sam’s expression clouded. He looked away, out across the airfield where puddles reflected a colorless sky. A muscle jumped in his jaw. When he finally exhaled, it wasn’t anger that shaped the sound, but something heavier. Something that settled into the lines of his shoulders.
“It’s nothing,” he said, but the words came with a frown and a weary huff that contradicted everything about the dismissal.
Isabelle watched him a beat longer. He wouldn’t meet her eyes now—kept his gaze fixed on some middle distance, like whatever waited there might offer a solution she couldn’t.
“Didn’t sound like nothing,” she said softly, tucking her hands into her jacket pockets, shoulders hunching slightly forward.
She let the silence stretch between them—one beat, two, three—until the weight of it became a presence all its own. Until breaking it mattered.
“Come on, Sam.” Her eyes found his profile, searching for a crack in his carefully constructed façade. “I told you... My thing.” She gestured vaguely at herself, a small flick of her wrist encompassing everything—the confession about Val, the jobs, the ‘cure’ she’d been chasing. All the ugly, broken pieces she’d laid bare.
Sam exhaled, the sound heavier than the damp air pressing down around them. His shoulders dropped a fraction—not surrender, but something close. When he finally turned to face her, something in his expression had cracked open, just enough for her to glimpse what lay beneath.
“Things are tough right now,” he admitted, voice pitched low enough that only she could hear. His eyes flicked toward where Bucky and Zemo walked ahead, then returned to her. “Financially.” The word seemed to cost him something physical—a small flinch around his eyes, a tightening at the corners of his mouth.
Isabelle said nothing, giving him space to continue.
“The Blip...” He shook his head, a humorless laugh escaping. “It kinda ruined us. The family business, I mean.” His fingers flexed around the duffle strap, knuckles whitening beneath dark skin. “We were already struggling before, but then—” He cut himself off, swallowing hard.
Isabelle stepped closer, their arms nearly brushing as they walked. Ahead, Bucky glanced back, eyes narrowing slightly before returning to Zemo.
“Sarah wants to sell the boat,” Sam continued, his voice catching on his sister’s name. “The house, too.”
A small tremor ran through his voice, barely perceptible to anyone who wasn’t listening for it. But Isabelle was. She always was.
“But I can’t just give that up.” Sam’s jaw tightened, the muscle there jumping beneath his skin. “I can’t let that happen. That’s our home, you know? Our parents’ legacy. Our heritage.” He shook his head, and raindrops fell from his collar, darkening the already damp fabric of his jacket. “Five generations of Wilsons worked that boat.” His voice dropped even lower. “Five.”
The tarmac stretched ahead of them, endless and gray. Isabelle shifted closer still, their shoulders now touching as they walked. The contact was light but deliberate—an anchor point in the storm of his confession.
“Is there anything I can do to help?” she asked, her voice softening to match his. The words felt inadequate even as they left her mouth. “I could easily—”
“Thanks, but I’ve got this,” Sam interrupted, holding up a hand. There was pride in his voice—not arrogance, but the quiet dignity of a man who had carried his own weight for so long he didn’t know how to put it down. “Just need to have another chat with the bank, that’s all.” A humorless laugh escaped him, bitter around the edges. “I mean, come on.” He gestured vaguely upward, as if addressing some cosmic accountant. “I fought Thanos. Saved the Earth.” He tried for lightness, but it fell flat, hollow in the damp air. “I should be able to get a loan.”
Isabelle studied him, noticing how he still wouldn’t quite meet her eyes—how his gaze kept sliding away whenever it got close to hers, like two magnets with the same polarity. Not anger, she realized with sudden clarity, that made her chest ache.
Shame.
“Sam,” she said, her voice cracking slightly on his name. “I’ve got more money than I know what to do with.” She gestured again toward herself. “Stark Industries, remember? I could—”
“I appreciate it,” he said, cutting her off again—gently this time. His hand touched her elbow briefly, warm through the fabric of her jacket, before falling away. “Really, I do. But this is something I need to handle myself.”
The tightness around his eyes hadn’t eased. If anything, it had deepened, carving lines into his face that weren’t there before. Isabelle opened her mouth to argue, then closed it again. She knew that look—had worn it herself too many times to count. The stubborn pride that was both shield and prison.
“Okay,” she said finally, nodding once. “But the offer stands.” She hesitated, then added quietly, “Always.”
Sam’s eyes finally met hers fully, something vulnerable and grateful passing between them. For a moment, she thought he might say more—might let her in just a little further. But he only nodded.
The unspoken hung between them, as tangible as the mist that clung to their skin. Isabelle wanted to push, to insist, to make him understand that this wasn’t charity—it was family. But she recognized the set of his jaw, the subtle squaring of his shoulders.
So she dropped it and fell into step beside him, matching her stride to his as they moved forward.
As Zemo led them through the streets of Riga, Isabelle felt a persistent unease crawling beneath her skin. Something was wrong. Not just Zemo’s ease, though that was certainly part of it. The man moved through these streets as if he weren’t a prisoner being escorted by his guards.
Isabelle’s gaze swept across the quiet street, searching for whatever was making her neck prickle. Nothing. Just ordinary people hurrying through their day, heads down, collars up. Yet the sensation persisted.
She glanced at Bucky walking a few paces ahead. His posture appeared relaxed, but she recognized the subtle tension in his shoulders, the way his eyes never stopped moving. He felt it too. Sam walked close to her right side, his stride casual, but his fingers never straying far from where his wings were packed.
Isabelle’s fingers twitched at her sides, a faint green shimmer dancing between them before she clenched her fists, forcing the energy down. Just in case, she kept her power simmering just beneath the surface, ready to throw a barrier around Zemo if he so much as looked at a side street wrong.
“So what is this place?” Sam finally asked, breaking the tense silence as they turned onto a narrower road.
“Safehouse,” Zemo replied, his gloved fingers gesturing toward the weathered buildings that lined the street. “After what became of Sokovia, this is where I found... sanctuary.”
They walked in silence for another block, the only sounds their footsteps and the distant murmur of city life. When Zemo spoke again, his voice had shifted—softer now, almost contemplative, like someone reminiscing about a lost love.
“You know, I sometimes wonder what Sokovia might have become, had it survived.” His eyes drifted upward to the low-hanging clouds, gray and heavy with unspent rain. “It was never a wealthy nation, but it was... resilient.” He paused, letting the word hang in the damp air. “Until it wasn’t.”
Something in the deliberate cadence of his words made the hair on the back of Isabelle’s neck stand up. This wasn’t idle conversation. Zemo never spoke without purpose—never revealed anything, not even nostalgia, without calculation. She watched him from the corner of her eye, muscles tensing as his gaze slid toward her with surgical precision.
“Tell me, Ms. Stark,” he said, stopping abruptly and turning to face her, “have you ever visited the memorial in Sokovia?”
The question landed like a slap. Isabelle saw Sam and Bucky stiffen on either side of her, their bodies angling subtly toward Zemo, ready to intervene.
Her eyes widened momentarily before narrowing to sharp points. A bitter taste flooded her mouth—copper and adrenaline. She held Zemo’s gaze, refusing to look away.
“I have, actually,” she said, her voice tight as a wire. “Twice.”
Sam shot her a quick, sympathetic glance, but she shrugged it off with a slight jerk of her shoulder. Beside her, Bucky’s metal arm whirred almost imperceptibly as the plates recalibrated.
“You did?” Zemo’s eyebrows rose slightly, his head tilting as he studied her. “That’s... surprising.”
Their brief alliance had expired the moment they’d stepped onto Latvian soil, apparently.
“I wonder, Ms. Stark,” he continued, his voice dropping to a silken murmur that somehow cut through the ambient noise of the street, “did you find it enlightening to walk among the graves of your victims?”
The words slithered into her ears and coiled there, cold and venomous. Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat, lungs suddenly too tight.
Her power surged in response, a reflexive defense against the deliberate cruelty. Green energy flickered at the edges of her vision, casting eerie shadows across the cobblestones. The air around her grew heavy, charged like the moment before lightning struck.
She knew what he was doing. Intellectually, she recognized the manipulation for what it was—a calculated attempt to destabilize her, to find the cracks in her composure and wedge them open. But knowing didn’t stop the hot rush of anger, didn’t quiet the voice in her head that whispered: he’s right, you know.
“That’s enough,” Bucky growled, stepping closer to her side. His shoulder brushed against hers—a small point of contact, grounding her as the green light pulsed between her fingers.
“What did we say about the mind games?” Sam added, his voice hardening as he moved forward. “Or did you forget who’s in charge here?”
Zemo’s eyes never left Isabelle’s face. He’d found what he was looking for: the raw nerve, still exposed after all these years.
“My apologies,” Zemo said, raising his hands in a gesture of mock surrender. It was too graceful, a choreographed performance of contrition that didn’t reach his eyes. “I merely thought someone with your... unique perspective might have insights to share.”
Isabelle felt something crack inside her—a hairline fracture in her control. The green energy at her fingertips pulsed brighter, casting eerie shadows across the cobblestones. The air around them grew dense, charged.
“No, no, it’s okay—don’t apologize.” She stepped forward, waving Sam and Bucky off when they moved to intervene. The gesture was sharp, decisive. “You want to talk about Sokovia?” she asked, her voice dangerously soft. “About victims? About graves?”
Another step brought her close enough to see the flecks of amber in Zemo’s dark eyes.
“Let’s also talk about how you bombed the UN,” she continued, each word precise as a scalpel. “How you murdered King T’Chaka in cold blood. How many families did you tear apart in your crusade against the Avengers?”
Zemo didn’t back away. If anything, he seemed to lean in slightly, drawn to her rage like a moth to flame. His head tilted, eyes narrowing with clinical interest as he studied the fluctuations in her power.
“We all have blood on our hands, Ms. Stark,” he murmured, voice pitched low enough that only she could hear. “The difference is, I acknowledge mine.”
The green light flickered, dimming slightly. Isabelle drew in a shaking breath, forcing the power back down. Her fingers uncurled deliberately, one by one, until her hands hung loose at her sides.
“You’re right,” she said, still locked in his gaze. “We all have blood on our hands.” She stepped back. “But unlike you, I don’t use mine as an excuse to spill more.” Her jaw tightened. “Do you really think I wanted what happened in Sokovia? That I don’t feel remorse or guilt?” The words caught in her throat. “That I don’t see those faces every time I close my eyes?”
Another step. The distance between them narrowed to arm’s length.
“I was there, Zemo.” Isabelle’s voice dropped lower, the intensity building. “I saw the destruction, the death. My best friend lost her brother trying to save that city.” Pietro’s body flashed behind her eyes. “I helped carry the dead.”
Zemo remained still, his gaze never wavering. Unnerving.
“Ah, yes, Wanda Maximoff,” he said, lips curling into a vicious smirk. “The woman who just enslaved an entire town to live out a deluded fantasy.”
Isabelle’s breath caught. Westview flashed behind her eyelids. Civilians trapped. Red light warping the world.
“She was in mourning—” Isabelle started.
Zemo cut her off with a dismissive flick of his hand.
“So you excuse her actions?” His voice remained calm. Too calm. He stopped in front of a weathered apartment building. “We’re here.”
The change in subject was calculated.
Isabelle felt her powers crackling beneath her skin, pressure behind her sternum, the air distorting slightly around her fingers.
Zemo’s gaze flicked to her hands. Then back to her face. Satisfaction. Brief—but it was there.
“No, I didn’t say that—” The words scraped her throat.
“But you didn’t stop her,” Zemo pressed. “You Avengers... always so quick to act, yet so slow to take responsibility.”
The truth stung. Isabelle hadn’t checked on Wanda. Hadn’t been there. Hadn’t noticed. Just like everyone else.
“That’s enough,” Sam snapped, stepping between them. Solid. Grounded. A human barrier. His eyes met hers. Concern layered over wariness.
Isabelle forced herself to breathe. A long, shuddering exhale. The green light dimmed, flickering low.
She stepped back. One step. Two.
Bucky moved closer. Hands in his pockets. Casual in posture, but not in his eyes. But it wasn’t enough.
“You know what?” Isabelle said. Another step back. “I don’t need this. I’ll meet you inside later.”
She reached for her duffle bag, which Bucky had been carrying since they’d left the airfield. His fingers tightened around the strap for a fraction of a second—not refusing, just hesitating. Their eyes met, and something passed between them, a silent conversation beneath the spoken one.
“Isabelle—” Bucky started, his voice low, a warning and a plea wrapped into one syllable. His eyes darted to her hands, where green energy still pulsed beneath her skin, faint but unmistakable.
“I’m fine,” she snapped, tugging the bag from his grip with more force than necessary. The weight of it settled against her shoulder, oddly comforting in its solidity. “I just need some air.”
“Where are you going?” Sam stepped forward, alarm etched across his features. His hand reached for her but stopped short, hovering in the space between them. Something in his eyes—concern layered with wariness—made her stomach twist. He was looking at her the way bomb disposal techs looked at unstable explosives.
They’re afraid of you, the voice said. Not of what you’ll do to him, but what you’ll become if you lose control. The thought sent a fresh wave of shame burning through her, hot and caustic.
Isabelle was already walking backward, her boots scuffing against the cobblestones. Each step put distance between her and the smug satisfaction radiating from Zemo’s posture. She could feel her power crackling just beneath the surface, tiny green sparks dancing between her fingers when she clenched her fists.
Not safe. Not in control. Not here.
“To get a coffee,” she called over her shoulder, the lie brittle on her tongue. She swallowed hard, trying to push down the burning sensation creeping up her throat. Then, more honestly: “Anything. Just need to get away from him.”
She didn’t wait for their response.
Couldn’t.
The pressure building behind her sternum was becoming unbearable, like her ribs might crack from the inside out. She turned away from Sam’s concerned face, from Bucky’s knowing gaze, from Zemo’s calculating eyes, and forced herself to walk, not run.
Isabelle turned down a narrow side street, away from the main thoroughfare, with its curious eyes. Her back hit rough brick as she leaned against a building, trying to steady her breathing. The wall was cold and damp against her shoulder blades, grounding her momentarily in physical sensation.
“He’s manipulating you,” she whispered to herself, closing her eyes. “That’s what he does.”
But knowing Zemo was manipulating her didn’t make his words any less true. She hadn’t been there for Wanda. None of them had.
A soft, bitter laugh escaped her lips. Here she was, hiding in an alley, proving Zemo right with every passing second. Proving that she was exactly what he thought she was—unstable, dangerous, a weapon waiting to go off.
Isabelle pushed herself away from the wall, wiping her palms against her jeans as if she could brush away the power still humming beneath her skin. She needed to move, to walk, to put physical distance between herself and the gnawing guilt that threatened to consume her.
With a deep breath, Isabelle continued down the street, the cobblestones uneven beneath her feet. She needed space, needed to clear her head. But Zemo’s words echoed in her mind, a reminder that no matter how far she walked, the past was always just a step behind.
Isabelle sat in the far back corner of a quaint café, a block away from Zemo’s apartment.
The wooden chair creaked beneath her as she shifted, pressing her spine against the worn backrest. She lifted the ceramic mug to her lips, inhaling the bitter aroma before taking a cautious sip of the scalding black coffee. It burned slightly going down, but the pain was clarifying—something tangible to focus on besides the chaos in her head.
The café’s walls were made of exposed brick, weathered and imperfect, adorned with vintage posters whose corners had begun to curl with age. Local artwork hung in mismatched frames—abstract splashes of color that reminded her of the way her powers sometimes looked when they slipped beyond her control. Mismatched wooden tables and chairs populated the space, each piece telling its own story of wear and repair.
Isabelle exhaled slowly, watching her breath create ripples across the coffee’s dark surface. The tension in her shoulders eased incrementally as she took in the quiet hum of the place—the gentle clink of cups against saucers, the rhythmic tapping of a spoon against ceramic, the low murmur of conversations in Latvian she couldn’t understand but found soothing nonetheless.
“This is better,” she whispered to herself. Her fingertips tingled, but the green energy that had threatened to explode from them earlier had receded to a dull glow beneath her skin, invisible to anyone who didn’t know to look for it.
An elderly couple sat by the window, bathed in the pale gray light filtering through rain-speckled glass. Their heads were bent close together over a shared newspaper, weathered fingers occasionally pointing to an article, lips moving in quiet commentary. The woman’s hand rested on the man’s wrist, thumb absently stroking over blue veins and age spots. Something about the casual intimacy of the gesture made Isabelle’s chest tighten.
In the opposite corner, a man with thick-rimmed glasses hunched over a laptop, his fingers flying across the keyboard with frantic purpose. Every few minutes, he’d pause, push his glasses up his nose with one finger, and stare intensely at the screen before diving back in.
Isabelle’s attention drifted to a group of friends near the back. Four of them—two men and two women—were engaged in animated conversation, their laughter bubbling up and spilling across the room. One woman threw her head back as she laughed, exposing the vulnerable line of her throat in a way that made Isabelle both envious and uncomfortable. To be that unguarded, that free with your joy...
Isabelle’s fingers tightened around the mug, her knuckles turning white. Outside, rain began to fall, drumming against the windows and sending pedestrians scurrying for cover. The sound created white noise that further insulated the café from the world outside.
She closed her eyes, focusing on the sensation of ceramic against skin, of heat radiating through her palms. She forced herself to inhale deeply through her nose, counting silently. One, two, three, four. Hold. One, two, three, four. Release. One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight. She opened her eyes, focusing on the steam rising from her coffee.
The warmth of the café, the gentle murmur of conversation, the soft jazz playing from hidden speakers—it all helped ground her in the present moment, pulling her back from the edge she’d been teetering on since Zemo’s barbed words had found their mark.
A burst of laughter cut through the ambient noise. Isabelle’s gaze drifted to the table with the group of friends, where a young woman with fiery red hair was mid-story, her hands painting pictures in the air. The woman’s eyes sparkled as she reached the climax of whatever tale she was telling, her companions leaning forward in anticipation.
But then the woman tossed her head back, and the overhead light caught her hair, transforming it into a flame-red cascade. Something inside Isabelle cracked open.
The coffee turned bitter on her tongue. She set the mug down with trembling fingers, suddenly unable to swallow past the tightness in her throat. The redhead wasn’t Natasha—of course she wasn’t—but the resemblance was enough to send a fresh wave of grief crashing through her.
Natasha. Who had become more than a teammate—a sister, a confidante, the person who understood what it meant to be shaped into a weapon and still choose to be human. Nat, who had sacrificed everything to give them a chance against Thanos. Who had fallen so others could stand.
“Fuck,” Isabelle hissed, closing her eyes, feeling the sting of unshed tears. The café suddenly felt too warm, too close, the conversations too loud.
She pressed her palms flat against the wooden tabletop, feeling the grain beneath her skin. Rough in places, smooth in others.
Real. Present. Here.
When she opened her eyes again, the redheaded woman was laughing at something her friend had said, completely oblivious to Isabelle’s scrutiny. To the way her very existence had just reopened a wound that had never properly healed.
“You should be here, Nat,” Isabelle murmured, her index finger absently tracing the rim of her coffee mug. “You’d probably tell me to stop wallowing and get my ass in gear.” A ghost of a smile tugged at her lips, even as a tear finally escaped, trailing down her cheek. The salt stung at the corner of her mouth when she whispered, “Come on, маленький паук.”
She brushed the tear away quickly, her gaze darting around the café to ensure no one had noticed this moment of vulnerability. The elderly couple remained engrossed in their newspaper, heads still bent close together, and the man with the laptop hadn’t looked up once.
She was safe in her anonymity here, just another patron seeking shelter from the rain.
Isabelle took another sip of coffee, grimacing at how it had cooled to room temperature. She considered getting up for a fresh cup but couldn’t summon the energy to move. Instead, she stayed where she was, watching raindrops race down the windowpane, merging and separating in their journey.
Her mind drifted to Wanda, and a wave of guilt washed over her, so intense she had to close her eyes against it. Behind her eyelids, memories unfurled like film reels—not of the reports of Westview, or the battle against Thanos, but quieter moments. Moments that hurt more because they had been happy.
She could almost smell the rich aroma of paprikash simmering on the stove at the compound, hear the soft sizzle of onions caramelizing in the pan. The scent of paprika and garlic filled her nostrils, so vivid she nearly looked around for its source before realizing it was just memory playing tricks.
In her mind’s eye, she saw Wanda’s slender fingers expertly wielding a wooden spoon, a small smile playing on her lips as she hummed an old Sokovian lullaby. The kitchen had always been Wanda’s domain—the one place where she seemed truly at peace.
“You’re stirring too fast, Iz,” Wanda’s voice echoied in her memory, gentle but firm—slightly exasperated. Isabelle could almost feel the warmth of Wanda’s hand covering hers, guiding the motion. “Gentle, like this. You’re supposed to let the flavors meld together.”
Isabelle remembered how they’d curl up on the couch afterward, bowls of steaming paprikash in hand, watching ‘I Love Lucy’ reruns. Wanda would laugh at Lucy’s antics, her eyes crinkling at the corners. How sometimes, when a joke hit just right, she’d snort mid-laugh and then look mortified, which only made Isabelle laugh harder.
Those evenings had been a respite—moments of normalcy stolen between missions and training and the weight of being Avengers. And now they were gone, like so much else.
A fresh surge of guilt rose in her chest, hot and suffocating. She pressed her palm against her sternum, as if she could physically push the feeling back down.
Her gaze dropped to the duffle bag nestled against her boots beneath the table. It sat there, innocuous and ordinary, giving no indication of what it contained. But Isabelle knew. The notebook was tucked inside, wedged between her spare clothes and tactical gear. She’d hidden it there on the plane, fingers trembling slightly as she’d changed in the jet’s cramped bathroom, the leather-bound volume burning a hole in her thoughts even then.
Her mother’s notebook.
“Don’t,” She tore her eyes away, shaking her head firmly. “Don’t do it.”
But the leather-bound notebook might as well have been radioactive for how it pulsed in her awareness. She could almost feel it through the canvas of the duffle, calling to her like a siren song.
Isabelle pressed her thumb against the rim of her mug, applying pressure until the edge bit into her skin. The small pain centered her, momentarily distracting her from the larger one threatening to engulf her.
He’s just trying to get in your head, she reminded herself, picturing Zemo’s calculating eyes, the subtle curl of satisfaction at the corner of his mouth when he’d handed her the notebook in Madripoor. That’s why he gave this to you.
Isabelle shook her head again, sighing and leaning down. There was only a second of hesitation before she unzipped the duffle bag just enough to slip her hand inside. Her fingertips brushed against the notebook’s smooth cover, extracting it.
Isabelle placed the notebook on the table, her hand resting atop it like she was swearing an oath. What secrets had Laura written down? What justifications for the things she’d done to her own daughter?
Answers. The notebook might hold answers.
Or it might just hold more pain.
“This is ridiculous,” she said under her breath, straightening her spine. “Just open the damn thing.”
With a deep breath that did nothing to ease the tightness in her chest, Isabelle opened the notebook to the first page.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 7/8/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/173832295
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MIT, 1985.
A storm overhead. A whiteboard between them.Laura Proctor is brilliant, furious, and very busy trying to cure cancer when an arrogant boy-genius named Tony Stark decides to stroll into her late-night research session like he owns the building.
She hates him. She tells herself she hates him.
But under flickering lights and thunder-rattled windows, two minds collide.
Equations. Grief. Curiosity. Spark.And maybe—just maybe—something begins.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 43: Protein Cascade
Chapter 43: Protein Cascade
Summary:
It was supposed to be one storm, one study session, one night.
But Tony Stark keeps showing up.
And Laura Proctor keeps letting him.Protein sequences. Whiteboard battles. Caffeine-fueled insults at 2AM.
She’s focused on saving lives. He’s focused on disrupting her peace.
Somewhere between enzyme cascades and academic espionage, a rivalry sparks.
Something sharper begins to take shape.This is how it starts—before the war, before the lies, before Isabelle.
Just a girl who wants to change the world.
And the boy who won’t stop showing up.
Notes:
Okay, here we go—LAURA’S JOURNAL time!!!
This chapter’s a little different—we’re taking a sidestep away from Izzy and the guys so I can drop some lore bombs on you. Honestly though... I really love these chapters. Writing young Tony? Writing Laura in her pre-Project Belladonna era?? I was thriving.
I hope you enjoy reading them as much as I enjoyed writing them!!
These “journal flashback” entries will be released two chapters at a time (there are five total—because... lore. But trust me, it’s worth it). So I’ll see you in a few with the next one!
Tiny canon tweak note: I aged Tony up by a year! The MCU was a little inconsistent about his birth year (Iron Man 1 vs later canon), so for the sake of my brain and this fic, he was born in 1969. We’re rolling with it. 😅 Also, thank you Google, and my super smart friend, for helping me with the science talk in this.
Thank you SO much for the love and support!! 💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "My Kind of Woman" by Mac Demarco
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
MIT, Fall 1985.
Laura Proctor hated Tony Stark with the precise calculation of someone who’d spent far too much time thinking about it.
His swagger—the way he moved through lecture halls like he owned them, hands in pockets, shoulders loose. His infuriating smirk that appeared whenever professors asked questions meant to stump the class. The way he treated quantum mechanics like a party trick and quantum chemistry like a dare someone had whispered at a keg stand.
She hated the fact that he never took notes—just sat there, spinning a pencil between his fingers, absorbing everything. She hated how he skipped citations in formal presentations, waved away methodological questions, and yet still received standing ovations from professors who should know better. She hated that seniors in the graduate program whispered about his prototypes like he was some kind of prophetic boy-genius when he was sixteen, for god’s sake, and hadn’t even declared a major.
She hated—
“You’re staring at that equation like it’s gonna confess something,” came a voice behind her.
Laura’s shoulders tensed. She didn’t have to turn around to know who it was. The only person on campus obnoxious enough to interrupt her during a thunderstorm at three in the morning was the same person who never seemed to sleep.
She kept her eyes fixed on the whiteboard, refusing to give him the satisfaction of her attention.
“It’s a protein cascade,” she said coolly, marker still poised mid-calculation. “You’re in the wrong building, Stark.”
“Am I?” Tony Stark strolled into her peripheral vision, hands shoved deep in the pockets of his jeans. “Pretty sure this is the biochem lounge. Unless they moved it since yesterday.”
Laura didn’t look at him directly. “Shouldn’t you be building jet engines out of vending machines or something equally obnoxious?”
“Did that last week,” he said, dropping into a chair beside her workspace. He spun it backward and straddled it, resting his arms across the back. “Got a Snickers to Mach 2. Campus police weren’t thrilled.”
She exhaled sharply through her nose. Not a laugh. Just... air.
Outside, rain lashed against the windows, thunder cracking low and heavy above the dorms. The student lounge was empty, only Laura stood at the whiteboard, dry-erase marker in hand, diagrams and reaction chains sprawling across the surface like a mad scientist’s web.
Tony padded over, eyeing the formula. “You’re working on protein folding with adaptive immunoresponse markers?”
Laura’s hand paused mid-air.
Tony tilted his head, studying her whiteboard with narrowed eyes. “Your hydroxyl group’s in the wrong place.”
Laura’s hand froze mid-tap. “Excuse me?”
“There.” He pointed to the upper corner of her sprawling equation. “If that’s a serine protease cascade, your binding site’s off. It wouldn’t fold right.”
Heat crawled up Laura’s neck. She turned to face him fully for the first time, marker clutched tight enough to leave indentations in her fingers.
“I’ve been working on this for six hours,” she said, voice dangerously quiet. “I think I know where my hydroxyl groups belong.”
Tony shrugged, a half-smile playing at the corner of his mouth. “Just saying. Chemistry doesn’t care how long you’ve been staring at it. It’s still wrong.”
Laura turned back to the whiteboard, scanning the section he’d indicated. The equations blurred slightly as she traced the molecular pathways, following the reaction through each step. Her stomach sank.
He was right. The binding site was off by one carbon. The entire cascade would fail.
“Shit,” she muttered, erasing furiously.
“Don’t beat yourself up,” Tony said, spinning lazily in the chair. “It’s three AM during the storm of the century. Even geniuses make mistakes.”
Laura’s eraser squeaked against the board. “I’m not a genius,” she said tightly. “I just work harder than everyone else.”
Tony stood, moving closer to the board. “What are you working on, anyway? This isn’t for any class I know of.”
Laura hesitated, marker hovering over the board. No one had asked about her research before—not even her advisor, who’d given her lab access but seemed content to let her work independently.
“It’s a theoretical model for targeted protein delivery,” she said finally. “Using modified cascades to activate only in the presence of specific cancer markers.”
Tony whistled low. “You’re trying to create a molecular smart bomb.”
“I’m trying to save lives,” Laura corrected, redrawing the hydroxyl group in its proper position. “Cancer killed my mother. I was fourteen.”
The words hung in the air between them. Laura immediately regretted them. She never talked about her mother—not to her roommate, not to her professors, and certainly not to Tony Stark at three in the morning.
Lightning flashed again, followed by thunder almost immediately. The lights flickered.
Laura turned back to the board, adding another equation to the cascade.
“Why are you even here? Shouldn’t you be at some frat party telling everyone how you built your first circuit board at four?”
“Five, actually,” Tony corrected, leaning against the wall beside the whiteboard. “And parties are boring. Everyone there just wants to talk about my dad.”
Laura’s hand stilled. She glanced at him, catching the brief flash of something genuine beneath his usual cocky exterior. For a moment, she saw something familiar in his eyes. Something that looked a lot like her own reflection.
“So instead you came here to harass me?” she asked, but the edge had dulled in her voice.
“I came to get coffee,” Tony gestured toward the ancient machine in the corner. “Saw the light on. Figured anyone crazy enough to be working during this storm might be interesting.”
“And am I?” Laura challenged, meeting his eyes directly for the first time. His irises were dark in the low light, almost black, but alert with an intelligence that made her stomach tighten. “Interesting?”
Tony’s smile shifted into something more genuine—smaller, less practiced. The cocky facade slipped just enough that Laura caught a glimpse of someone different underneath.
“You’re trying to cure cancer at seventeen while most people are worried about prom dates. Yeah, Proctor. I’d say you qualify as interesting.”
Before Laura could respond, the lights flickered once, twice, and then went out completely. The room plunged into darkness, illuminated only by the occasional flash of lightning through the windows. In those brief, electric moments, she could see Tony’s silhouette, oddly still.
“Perfect,” Laura muttered, feeling her way to her backpack. Her hands fumbled over textbooks and notebooks, trying to organize by touch what she normally did by sight. “Just perfect.”
Thunder cracked directly overhead, so loud the windows rattled in their frames. Laura flinched, her hand jerking reflexively as the sound vibrated through her chest. Her molecular biology textbook slipped from her fingers and hit the floor with a dull thud that was swallowed by the storm’s roar.
“Here,” Tony said, suddenly close. His shoulder brushed against hers as he bent down, the static electricity between their bodies making the hair on her arms stand up.
The lightning flash illuminated his face from below as he retrieved her book, casting sharp shadows across his features. For a split second, he looked older, more serious than the arrogant boy who strutted through lecture halls.
Their fingers brushed as he handed it back, the brief contact sending an unexpected jolt through her hand. Laura took the textbook with a grimace, as though the touch physically pained her.
“Thanks,” she muttered, the word scraping against her throat like sandpaper. She shoved the book into her backpack with more force than necessary, zipping it closed with a sharp, angry sound.
She hoisted the bag onto her shoulder and moved toward the door, feeling her way along the edge of a table. The emergency lights in the hallway cast just enough of a glow for her to make out the exit. Behind her, she could hear Tony’s footsteps following, his sneakers squeaking against the linoleum.
“You know,” he said, voice thoughtful in the darkness, “if you’re looking at targeted delivery systems, you might want to consider nanotechnology. Microscopic robots programmed to recognize specific cancer markers could be more precise than protein cascades.”
Laura paused, one hand on the doorframe. She turned halfway, his silhouette barely visible against the deeper darkness of the room. Something in his tone had changed—the performative cockiness replaced by genuine intellectual curiosity.
“Nanotechnology is theoretical at best,” she said, adjusting her backpack strap. “Nobody’s even close to functional prototypes.”
“Not officially,” Tony replied, and she could hear the smile in his voice. “But theory’s just practice waiting to happen. The problem isn’t building small enough anymore—it’s programming. If you could create a neural network that mimics biological recognition systems—”
Laura scoffed, but found herself oddly engaged despite her irritation. “We’re still using punch cards in the computer lab, Stark. The processing power to run a neural network that sophisticated would fill this entire building.”
“Now, maybe,” Tony said, stepping closer. Another flash of lightning illuminated him, hands gesturing animatedly as he spoke. “But ten years from now? Five? Moore’s Law says computing power doubles approximately every two years. By the time we’re thirty, we could have processing capability that makes today’s supercomputers look like abacuses.”
Laura stared at him, momentarily forgetting her dislike. There was something magnetic about the way his mind worked—leaping forward, connecting dots others couldn’t even see. For a moment, she glimpsed what others saw in him: not just arrogance, but vision.
She caught herself and rolled her eyes, though the gesture was likely lost in the darkness. “I should go,” she said, turning back toward the door. “Before the storm gets worse.”
She walked away down the dimly lit hallway, the storm still raging outside, leaving Tony Stark standing alone in the darkness.
Laura didn’t expect Tony Stark to keep showing up.
At first, she assumed it was a one-time annoyance. A storm-born accident of caffeine and proximity. But two nights after the blackout, she found him again in the biochem lounge, sprawled across a couch with a physics journal open on his chest and a half-finished model of a repulsor coil sketched onto the back of a dining hall napkin.
He glanced up when she entered, dark eyes catching the fluorescent light. “Oh good,” he said, folding the journal closed. “I was hoping to get insulted tonight.”
She rolled her eyes but found herself crossing to the whiteboard anyway. The equations from two nights ago had been erased, leaving a blank canvas that seemed to taunt her with its emptiness. She unpacked her notes, spreading them across the table with methodical precision.
“You’re here late again,” she observed, uncapping a marker with her teeth.
“Science never sleeps,” Tony replied, sitting up. The journal slid to the floor with a soft thud. “Neither do I, apparently.”
Laura began transcribing a protein sequence, her handwriting neat and controlled. “There are other study lounges, you know.”
“None with such charming company.”
She snorted, not looking back at him. “If you’re looking for charm, you’re definitely in the wrong building.”
“See? That’s what I like about you, Proctor.” The couch creaked as he stood. “You don’t pretend.”
She ignored him. Mostly.
However, by mid-December, it had become a pattern.
She’d be running projections or mapping enzyme reactions, and Tony would wander in, claiming he was there for coffee or “academic espionage” or just “bored of normal people.” He’d hover at the edge of her work, making offhand comments that were, infuriatingly, sometimes helpful.
“That cascade’s gonna bottleneck unless you widen your activation threshold,” he muttered one night without looking up from his notebook.
Laura glared at him. “You’re a mechanical engineer.”
“And you’re surprisingly touchy for someone who just learned her reaction’s gonna fail.”
She didn’t throw her marker at him. She thought about it.
But later that night, she adjusted the threshold. And it worked. She hated him a little more for that.
Winter break arrived with snowbanks taller than undergrads and a sudden silence across campus. Most students fled home for the holidays, leaving MIT’s corridors echoing and empty.
Laura stayed.
She had her reasons. Unfinished sequences, lab access, and a grant proposal due in January. And the fact that home was a place filled with empty corners and sympathetic eyes. Her mother’s absence still echoed in every phone call with her father, in the careful way he asked about her studies without mentioning biochemistry, her mother’s field.
The biochem lounge became her sanctuary. With the campus nearly deserted, she could spread her notes across three tables, commandeer the entire whiteboard, and work until her eyes burned without interruption.
Until the night the door swung open, letting in a blast of frigid air and Tony Stark, his dark hair dusted with snowflakes, cheeks flushed from the cold.
Laura looked up from her calculations, marker poised mid-equation.
“What, no holiday in the Bahamas? I figured the Starks would have a private island somewhere.”
Tony stomped snow from his boots, unwinding a scarf from his neck.
“What, and miss all this New England charm?” He gestured toward the window where snow pelted against the glass like tiny bullets. “Besides, nothing says Christmas like institutional heating and vending machine dinners.”
He approached her workspace, two steaming paper cups clutched in his gloved hands. The smell of coffee—real coffee, not the sludge from the lounge machine—cut through the sterile air.
“Seriously, though,” Laura pressed, setting down her marker. “Why are you still here? I thought billionaire heirs had obligations. Galas. Yacht parties. Ceremonial cutting of corporate ribbons.”
Something flickered across Tony’s face—a tightness around his eyes, a slight hardening of his jaw. It was gone so quickly that Laura almost thought she’d imagined it.
“Dad and I aren’t exactly...” He trailed off, his usual verbal dexterity failing him. “Let’s just say Howard prefers his inventions to his actual son. Especially around the holidays when there’s press watching.” He forced a smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “Nothing says ‘Merry Christmas’ like being told your circuit designs are ‘derivative’ over eggnog.”
The raw honesty caught Laura off guard. She’d expected a quip, another layer of that infuriating Stark armor. Not this glimpse of something genuine.
“Must be tough,” she said, aiming for sarcasm but landing somewhere closer to sincerity. “Poor little rich boy, all alone in his ivory tower.”
Tony’s smile faltered, and Laura felt an unexpected twist of regret in her stomach. She’d hit something real—something that actually hurt.
She sighed, running a hand through her hair. “My dad and I don’t exactly get along either,” she admitted reluctantly. “Not since Mom died. He can barely look at me without seeing her.” She traced a finger along the edge of her notebook, not meeting Tony’s eyes. “Says I have her expressions. Her way of thinking.”
The confession hung in the air between them, unexpected and fragile.
Tony extended one of the coffee cups toward her. “No arsenic,” he said, his voice softer than usual. “I checked.”
Laura stared at it, suspicious. The cup was from the expensive café downtown, not the dining hall. He’d gone off campus. In a blizzard. For coffee.
“If I die, I’m haunting your hard drive,” she said, taking the cup.
“You’d be the most organized ghost,” Tony replied, his smile turning genuine. He pulled up a chair, sitting backwards on it as usual.
Laura wrapped her cold fingers around the cup, feeling the warmth seep into her skin. The first sip was perfect—strong and bitter with just enough sweetness. Exactly how she liked it.
“How did you know?” she asked, narrowing her eyes at him over the rim of her cup.
“Know what?” Tony asked, all innocence.
“How I take my coffee.”
He shrugged, but couldn’t quite hide the satisfaction in his eyes. “I notice things. It’s what I do.”
Laura took another sip, trying to ignore the strange flutter in her chest. The fact that Tony Stark had been paying attention to her coffee preferences shouldn’t matter. It absolutely shouldn’t make her feel... whatever this was.
“So,” Tony said, nodding toward her whiteboard, “what’s the brilliant Laura Proctor working on tonight? Still trying to revolutionize cancer treatment while the rest of us mere mortals take a break to eat candy canes?”
Laura hesitated, then turned toward her work. “Actually, I’ve been thinking about what you said. About nanotechnology.”
Tony’s eyebrows shot up, genuine surprise crossing his face. “You’re kidding.”
“Don’t look so smug,” she warned, but there was no real heat in it. “I’m not saying you’re right. I’m just... exploring the possibility.”
He leaned forward, eyes scanning her equations with newfound interest. “Show me.”
By late January, Laura found herself glancing at the door whenever it opened, a reflex she refused to acknowledge. She no longer startled when Tony appeared, materializing like some dark-haired apparition in her peripheral vision, armed with coffee or half-formed theories or that infuriating smile that made something in her chest tighten.
“Your amino acid sequence is wrong,” he announced one evening, dropping his backpack on the floor with a heavy thud. He hadn’t even looked at her whiteboard yet.
Laura didn’t look up from her notebook. “It’s not wrong.”
“It’s not optimal.” Tony circled around to her side of the table, close enough that she could smell the faint traces of machine oil and expensive cologne that seemed permanently embedded in his clothes. “Your binding affinity would increase by thirty percent if you swapped that lysine for arginine.”
She tapped her pen against the page, irritated that he might be right. Again. “Some of us prefer to work through problems methodically rather than relying on gut instinct and arrogance.”
“Is it arrogance if I’m right?” He perched on the edge of her table, deliberately invading her space. His dark eyes gleamed with challenge.
Laura sighed and pushed her notebook aside. “Fine. Show me.”
Some nights, Tony would simply claim a corner of the lounge, sketching blueprints or muttering calculations to himself. He’d sit cross-legged on the floor, surrounded by crumpled paper and half-dismantled electronics, working in a silence that felt oddly companionable.
Other nights, he’d pace behind her, arguing about neural pathways or molecular bonding with the intensity of someone who’d been thinking about nothing else for days.
“The problem isn’t the delivery system,” he insisted during a particularly heated debate about her cancer treatment model. “It’s the targeting. Your proteins are too specific—they’ll miss mutations.”
Laura spun around, marker clutched in her hand like a weapon. “They’re supposed to be specific! That’s the entire point of targeted therapy!”
“But cancer evolves,” Tony countered, stepping closer. “It adapts. Your system works for the initial presentation, but what about when it mutates? You need something that can learn and adapt with it.”
“That’s not how biochemistry works, Stark.”
“Not yet.” His eyes lit up with that dangerous gleam she was starting to recognize—the look that preceded his most brilliant and impossible ideas. “But what if we combined your protein delivery with adaptive AI? A system that could recognize patterns and predict mutations before they happen?”
Laura opened her mouth to argue, then closed it. The idea was absurd, impossible with current technology... and potentially revolutionary.
“You’re thinking about it,” Tony said, a slow smile spreading across his face. “I can see it. Your eyes do this thing when you’re considering something that might actually work.”
“My eyes don’t do a thing,” she muttered, but she was already turning back to the whiteboard, erasing and redrawing, incorporating elements of his idea into her model.
She hated that.
Laura knew the exact moment something shifted. Not in some dramatic revelation, but in the quiet space between arguments, when Tony had fallen asleep on the biochem lounge couch at 3:47 AM. His face had softened in sleep, the sharp edges of his perpetual smirk smoothed away, dark lashes casting shadows on his cheeks. A blueprint for some impossible machine lay across his chest, rising and falling with each breath.
She’d caught herself watching him for too long, coffee cooling between her palms.
It terrified her.
“You’re good,” he said one night, leaning against a lab bench as she recalibrated a sequencing algorithm that had stumped her professor. His voice was different—missing the usual edge of competition, replaced with something quieter, more genuine.
Laura’s fingers froze mid-keystroke. “What?”
Tony shrugged, hands shoved deep in his pockets. The fluorescent lights cast strange shadows across his face, highlighting the dark circles under his eyes. He’d been working for thirty-six hours straight on some engineering project he refused to explain.
“I’ve seen how fast you solve,” he continued, gaze fixed on her screen rather than her face. “How clean. You’re better than half the postdocs I’ve met.” He gestured vaguely toward her work. “You don’t waste steps. You see the whole problem at once.”
The compliment hit her like a physical thing—warm and unexpected. Laura stared at him for three full seconds, searching for the hidden barb, the trap, the inevitable Stark punchline.
There wasn’t one.
“...You’re not entirely useless either,” she finally muttered, turning back to her screen to hide the flush creeping up her neck.
Tony’s reflection in the monitor showed his slow-spreading grin.
“Wow,” he said, pressing a hand to his chest in mock astonishment. “I feel cherished. Truly. Should I call the Times? ‘Local Genius Acknowledges Peer’s Existence, Details at Eleven.’“
“You’re lucky I didn’t throw a pipette at your head,” Laura said, but the corner of her mouth twitched upward.
Tony pushed off from the bench and moved closer, leaning over her shoulder to examine her code. His presence warmed the air beside her, the faint scent of his cologne—something expensive and subtle—mingling with machine oil and coffee.
“Don’t threaten me with a good time, Proctor,” he murmured, close enough that she could feel his breath against her ear. “Besides, your aim is terrible. You’d miss.”
Laura’s heart stuttered against her ribs. “My aim is perfect,” she managed, voice steadier than she felt. “I just choose my targets carefully.”
“And I don’t make the cut?” His voice held a note of genuine curiosity beneath the teasing.
She turned her head slightly, finding him closer than expected. Their faces were inches apart, his dark eyes searching hers with an intensity that made her stomach flip.
“You’re not worth the paperwork,” she said softly. “Assaulting the heir to Stark Industries would probably get me expelled.”
Something flickered in his expression—a shadow passing across his features. “Is that how you see me? Howard Stark’s son?”
The vulnerability in the question caught her off guard. Laura turned fully in her chair to face him, their knees almost touching.
“No,” she admitted, the word feeling like a confession. “Not anymore.”
The moment stretched between them, taut with something neither was ready to name. Tony opened his mouth to speak, then closed it again, uncharacteristically hesitant.
The lab door banged open, shattering the silence. A group of graduate students spilled in, laughing about some departmental politics. Tony straightened immediately, taking a step back, his expression shifting back into its familiar mask of casual arrogance.
“Don’t stay up all night,” he said, voice deliberately light as he backed toward the door. “Even brilliant biochemists need sleep occasionally.”
Laura watched him go, the ghost of his presence lingering beside her like a question she wasn’t ready to answer.
MIT, Spring 1986
It was raining.
Water hammered the pavement in relentless sheets, each droplet striking with the force of tiny meteorites. Thunder rolled across the MIT campus—not in discrete crashes but in one continuous, primordial growl, as though the sky had forgotten how to do anything but threaten.
Laura Proctor didn’t care.
She should have cared. Any rational person would have waited out the storm, or at least grabbed an umbrella. But when the letter arrived in her mailbox—official letterhead, heavy cream paper with its formal weight of importance—her body had moved before her brain could catch up. She’d snatched her coat off its hook and bolted from her dorm, boots half-laced, laces slapping against her ankles as she ran.
By the time she reached the engineering building, her jeans were soaked to mid-thigh. Water streamed from her hair in rivulets, coursing down her neck and beneath her collar. Her fingers were numb, still clutching the letter that had gone translucent with moisture, ink bleeding at the edges, but the words—those beautiful, impossible words—still legible.
She didn’t pause to catch her breath. Didn’t even check if he was there, because some part of her knew with absolute certainty that he would be. The door to the engineering lounge banged open under her palm, the sound lost in another roll of thunder.
Tony looked up from his position on the floor, cross-legged amid a chaos of components that resembled the aftermath of an electronics store explosion. He had a soldering iron in one hand, safety goggles pushed up into his disheveled hair, and wires spilling from a contraption that looked decidedly out of place against campus regulations. His expression cycled rapidly from alarm to confusion to concern as he registered her appearance—soaked, breathless, wild-eyed.
“What the hell, Proctor?” he said, setting down the soldering iron. “Did you swim here? Because there are these revolutionary things called umbrellas that—”
“I got it,” she interrupted, the words bursting from her like they’d been physically contained. Her chest heaved with exertion, rain dripping from her eyelashes, her hair, and the tip of her nose. “The grant. I got it.”
For a second, Tony just stared, his usual rapid-fire responses temporarily short-circuited.
“You what?” he finally managed, blinking as though he hadn’t heard her correctly.
“I got it.” Laura laughed—a sound so unfamiliar it startled even her, wild and breathless and almost delirious with joy. She held up the sodden letter, rainwater running down her wrist and disappearing into her sleeve. “The research grant. They’re funding the next stage—all of it. I can build the protein models, test them in vitro, everything we talked about.” Her voice cracked with disbelief. “They said my proposal was... was visionary.”
Tony didn’t move. Didn’t speak. His dark eyes were fixed on her face with an intensity that made her stomach flip, the air between them suddenly charged with something that had nothing to do with the storm outside.
Then he was on his feet in one fluid motion, crossing the distance between them in three long strides. Before Laura could process what was happening, Tony’s arms were around her, lifting her clear off the ground in a hug that knocked the remaining breath from her lungs.
“Holy shit, Laura,” he said against her hair, his voice rough with something she’d never heard from him before—pure, unfiltered pride. “Holy shit.”
Laura froze for a fraction of a second, her brain struggling to reconcile the sensation of being held by Tony Stark. He was warm—impossibly warm against her rain-chilled skin. His heart hammered against her chest, his arms solid around her waist, and she could smell engine oil and coffee and that expensive cologne that seemed permanently embedded in his clothes.
Then, as quickly as it had happened, Tony set her back on her feet and stepped away. His hands lingered briefly on her shoulders, and Laura became acutely aware that she was dripping all over the industrial carpet, creating a steadily expanding puddle around her boot
“You did it,” Tony said into her hair, voice low and sure and slightly stunned. “I knew you would.”
Laura’s heart hammered against her ribs. She’d run across campus in a thunderstorm to find him—not her roommate, not her advisor, but Tony Stark.
The realization hit her with the same force as the rain outside. For months, she’d been telling herself she merely tolerated him, that their intellectual sparring was nothing more than a convenient way to test her theories. But standing here, soaked to the bone, letter clutched in her trembling fingers, she couldn’t maintain the lie.
Their eyes met, and suddenly the room was too quiet. Too still. The hum of the fluorescent lights seemed to fade away, leaving nothing but the sound of their breathing and the distant rumble of thunder. A drop of water fell from her hair to her collarbone, tracing a path down her chest.
Tony’s gaze followed it, then snapped back up to her face. Something shifted in his expression—the cocky mask slipping away to reveal something raw and honest beneath.
“Tony,” she said, but she didn’t know what the end of the sentence was supposed to be.
“Yeah,” he whispered, eyes flicking to her mouth.
And then he kissed her.
It wasn’t a perfect kiss. Their noses bumped awkwardly, and Laura’s rain-splattered glasses pressed uncomfortably against the bridge of her nose. She stepped forward just as he did, their boots colliding, nearly throwing them off balance. His hands came up to steady her, warm against her rain-chilled shoulders.
But the imperfection made it real.
Made it them.
When they finally broke apart, Tony rested his forehead against hers, his breath warm against her lips. His eyes remained closed for a moment, dark lashes casting shadows on his cheeks. When he opened them, the usual sharp intelligence was there, but softened by something that made Laura’s stomach flip.
“I’ve been wanting to do that since the protein cascade,” he murmured, his voice rougher than usual.
Laura huffed a shaky breath, her lips still tingling. “You mean since you insulted my hydroxyl group?”
“Exactly.” His smile was slow and genuine, nothing like his usual practiced smirk. It transformed his face, creating crinkles at the corners of his eyes that she’d never noticed before. “It was very interesting chemistry.”
Laura closed her eyes, suddenly overwhelmed. She was soaked to the bone, her clothes clinging uncomfortably to every inch of her. Her heart was still racing, her breath coming in uneven hitches.
“God, I hate you,” she whispered, but the words held none of their usual venom. Instead, they came out soft, almost tender, laden with everything she wasn’t ready to say aloud.
“Yeah,” Tony said, brushing her rain-slick hair back from her face with a gentleness that made her chest ache. His thumb traced the curve of her cheekbone, leaving a trail of warmth in its wake. His eyes were serious now, studying her face like one of his complex equations. “I hate you, too.”
And then he kissed her again.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 7/8/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/173832295
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Before the projects. Before the pain. There was Paris.
Laura Proctor and Tony Stark run away from the weight of their futures and find something dangerously close to joy — coffee-fueled mornings, wine-drunk nights, and notebooks filled with dreams.
Europe softens them. Until reality, sharp and cruel, drags them back across the ocean.
Howard is waiting. So is the Stark legacy.But for a little while, there’s just the two of them.
A balcony. A birthday. A shared apartment with no furniture and nothing but possibility.It won’t last. But god, it mattered.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 44: The Smartest Girl in the Room
Chapter 44: The Smartest Girl in the Room
Summary:
Doctor Proctor, summa cum laude.
Laura crosses the graduation stage, already calculating her future—Columbia, patents, progress.
But in the crowd, Tony Stark is on his feet, clapping like he’s trying to wake the dead and declaring to half of MIT that she’s the smartest girl in the room.She rolls her eyes. It still cracks something open.
What follows is a summer of sharp minds and soft moments—of penthouse windows, Rome rooftops, and the kind of love that feels like potential energy waiting to ignite.
They really thought they had time.
For a while, they did.
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The camera flashes hit Tony’s face like artillery fire. He blinked rapidly against the assault, his eigtheen-year-old frame rigid in the tailored suit that cost more than most people’s cars.
“Anthony Edward Stark,” the Dean announced, voice amplified and echoing through the auditorium.
The polite applause felt hollow. Tony’s fingers closing around the leather diploma case, his rehearsed smile so practiced it might as well be painted on. His hand disappeared into the Dean’s firm grip—another photo opportunity, another headline: STARK HEIR GRADUATES MIT AT 17.
From the back of the auditorium, Laura Proctor watched. Unlike the strangers with their flashbulbs and the administrators with their donor calculations, she saw past the performance. She saw the boy who fell asleep in her lab three nights ago, waking with circuit board imprints on his cheek and equations still tumbling from his lips. The genius who, despite his bravado, still looked to her with questions in his eyes when he thought no one else was watching.
“I’m so proud of him,” Maria Stark whispered beside her, dabbing at the corner of her eye with an embroidered handkerchief.
Laura offers Maria a genuine smile. There was something disarming about the woman’s warmth, a quality that seemed almost out of place in the Stark orbit. “He worked incredibly hard,” she said, keeping her voice low enough not to carry. “Even when he pretended he wasn’t.”
In the handful of times they’ve met, Maria had never treated Laura like the scholarship girl dating above her station. Never questioned her presence in Tony’s life. Just offered tea and asked about her research with actual interest glimmering in eyes that shared her son’s intelligence, if not his restlessness.
Howard shifted in his seat, the expensive fabric of his suit rustling. He checked his watch—a reflexive gesture Laura’s seen him perform at least six times since the ceremony began.
“How many more names could they possibly have?” he muttered, just loud enough for Maria and Laura to hear. “At this rate, we’ll be lucky to make our reservation before midnight.”
Maria placed a gentle hand on his arm. “Howard, please.”
“What? I’m just stating facts. The boy’s already got his diploma. These other graduates aren’t our concern.” He checked his watch again, the seventh time. “I had to call in favors for that table.”
Laura curled her fingers into her palm, nails biting crescents into flesh. A year of dating Tony had taught her to recognize the landmines in the Stark family dynamic—when Howard’s pronouncements deserved challenge and when they’re better left to evaporate into silence.
This moment called for silence. She swallowed hard, tasting unspoken truths. Tony’s graduation should be about Tony—his accomplishments, his future—not about Howard’s impatience or restaurant reservations. But pointing this out would only create a scene, another shadow on what should be Tony’s day.
On stage, Tony pivoted toward the audience, scanning the crowd until his eyes locked with Laura’s. In that instant, his manufactured smile cracked, replaced by something genuine and electric—a private transmission meant only for her. The corner of his mouth quirked up in that half-smile that first made her heart stutter.
A secret language passes between them in that fleeting moment. The tilt of his head. The slight arch of her eyebrow. The almost imperceptible nod.
Find me.
The cameras continue their assault, but Tony’s eyes didn’t leave hers, even as Howard’s polite applause stopped a beat too soon. Even as Maria dabbed at another tear. Even as the next name is called, Tony is ushered toward the stairs.
The graduation dragged on for sixty-three more excruciating minutes. Laura counted each one, leaning back into her chair, occasionally glancing at her watch—not out of impatience, but to time how long until she could see Tony.
When it was over, Laura rose from her seat, smoothing down her navy dress with hands that itch for freedom.
“I need to use the restroom,” she murmured to Maria, who nodded with a distracted smile as she tried to flag down Howard, already moving toward the exit with determined strides.
Laura slipped away, not toward the crowded main bathrooms where graduates’ families congregate, but down a side corridor. The hallway stretched before her, the sounds of celebration fading with each step. The click of her modest heels echoed against the linoleum as she navigated past storage closets and maintenance rooms.
She checked her watch—seven minutes since the ceremony ended. Tony would need at least fifteen to extract himself from the obligatory photographs and congratulations. She calculated her route to their meeting spot, mentally mapping the quickest path to—
Strong arms encircle her waist from behind. Laura gasped, her body tensing before recognition flooded her system—the familiar pressure of his chest against her back, the scent of his cologne mingling with the clean smell of starched cotton.
“God!” she yelps, then dissolved into giggles as Tony pulled her tighter against him. “How did you—”
“Escape artist,” he murmured against her neck, his breath warm against her skin. “I’ve been dodging handlers since I was four.”
Laura turned in his arms, taking in the sight of him—graduation gown discarded, suit jacket unbuttoned, hair already beginning to rebel against whatever product had tamed it for the ceremony. His eyes were bright with mischief and something deeper, more urgent.
“I thought that’d never end,” Tony said, backing her against the wall of the maintenance hallway. The cinderblock was cool through the thin fabric of her dress. Industrial cleaner and dust mingle in the air, the scent of institutional neglect a stark contrast to Tony’s expensive cologne. With theatrical disgust, he yanked his tie loose, then tore it completely off, letting it flutter to the floor.
“Poor baby,” Laura teases, reaching up to smooth his rumpled collar. Her fingers lingered against the warmth of his neck. “All those people celebrating your genius. I know you hate being the center of attention.” The sarcasm in her voice is thick enough to cut.
“I hate being their center of attention,” Tony corrected, stepping closer until the space between them disappears. His body pressed against hers, solid and warm. “I only care about being your center of attention.”
Laura’s laugh was low and warm, vibrating between them. “Is that why you graduated three years early? To impress me?”
“Obviously.” His hands found her waist, fingers pressing into the fabric of her dress with just enough pressure to make her breath catch. “Why else would I suffer through that medieval torture device they call a graduation cap?”
“And here I thought it was because you’re pathologically incapable of doing anything at a normal human pace.” She traced the line of his jaw with her thumb, feeling the slight stubble he’d been so careful to shave away this morning.
“So…did I? You know, impress you?” ” Tony’s eyes darkened as they dropped to her lips.
“You realize I’m still smarter, right?” Laura countered, her fingers threading through his hair. The soft strands curl around her fingers as if welcoming her touch.
He didn’t answer, not with words. He kissed her instead, desperate and hungry, like he’s been drowning and she’s his first breath of air. His lips are warm and insistent against hers, one hand sliding up to cradle the back of her neck.
Laura responded with equal fervor, her analytical mind—always calculating, always three steps ahead—temporarily quieted by the heat of his mouth on hers.
When they broke apart, both breathing hard, Tony rested his forehead against hers. The hallway narrows to just this—the shared space between their bodies, the mingling of their breath, the heat radiating between them.
“I’ve been waiting to do that since they called my name,” he whispered, his voice rough with something raw and unfiltered.
“Just since then?” Her lips curved into a teasing smile. “I’ve been waiting since you first put on this suit.” She tugged at his lapel for emphasis.
Tony’s eyes darken at her words, his pupils dilating.
“You know what I realized sitting up there?” He asked. “I have this fancy degree now, but it doesn’t matter compared to this.”
“This being...?” Laura prompted, arching an eyebrow.
“This.” He gestures between them with a quick movement of his chin. “Us. The only equation that’s ever challenged me.”
Laura laughed softly, the sound echoing in the empty hallway. “That might be the nerdiest attempt at romance I’ve ever heard.”
“Is it working?” His smile was lopsided, genuine in a way it never is for the cameras.
“You know it is. But don’t let it go to your head. Your ego’s already taking up most of the oxygen in this hallway.”
Tony’s laugh vibrated against her chest. He pressed his lips to the corner of her mouth, then her cheek, then the sensitive spot just below her ear that makes her shiver. “I’ve got plans,” he whispered, the words warm against her skin. “Big ones. And I need someone who can keep up.”
“Bold of you to assume I’m not already three steps ahead of you, Stark.” She tilted her head, giving him better access to her neck, her eyes half-closing at the sensation.
His laugh was soft, reverent. The arrogant showman from the stage had vanished, replaced by this—the real Tony, brilliant and vulnerable and entirely hers. His next words were spoken against her skin, each syllable a separate kiss. “I wouldn’t expect anything less.”
Laura felt the curve of his smile against her neck. She slid her hands down to his chest, feeling his heart hammering beneath her palm, the rhythm matching her own accelerated pulse. The world beyond this maintenance hallway was distant and irrelevant—Howard’s impatience, the waiting photographers, the calculated futures laid out before them.
“Three months in Europe,” Tony said suddenly, pulling back just enough to look into her eyes. His thumb traced the outline of her lower lip, sending sparks of electricity down her spine. “Just you and me. No, Howard, no press. We’ll call it a graduation present.”
Laura’s analytical mind kicked in, calculating variables and probabilities. “Your father would never approve.”
“That’s the best part.” Tony’s grin turned wicked, mischief dancing in his eyes. His hands framed her face, thumbs brushing her cheekbones with unexpected tenderness. “I’m not asking for permission.”
In that moment, Laura sees it all—what they could build together, the impossible things they could create. A partnership forged in brilliance and them, away from the Stark legacy.
“Well,” she said, pulling him closer by his expensive lapels until their lips were a breath apart, “I suppose someone needs to make sure you don’t blow up half of Europe.”
It began with the ocean—not the choppy gray waters of the Atlantic they’d left behind, but the impossibly blue Mediterranean, stretching endlessly from their balcony.
Paris transformed Tony. Laura watched it happen gradually—the tension in his shoulders loosening with each day they spent wandering the narrow streets, the furrow between his brows smoothing out as they argued philosophy at sidewalk cafés. By the time his nineteenth birthday arrived in late May, he moved through the city with an ease she’d never seen in him before.
“No cake,” he declared that morning, sprawled across their hotel bed, wearing nothing but boxers and the satisfied smile of someone who had thoroughly enjoyed his birthday eve. “No candles, no singing, and definitely no presents wrapped in Stark Industries branded paper.”
Laura tossed a small package at his chest. “Too late.”
He caught it reflexively, turning it over in his hands. Plain brown paper, tied with twine. “This doesn’t look like it came from the company store.”
“Just open it, Stark.”
Inside was a leather-bound notebook, its cover worn and supple. Tony flipped it open, finding the pages filled with Laura’s precise handwriting—equations, sketches, notes.
“It’s every idea we’ve had since MIT,” she explained, sitting beside him on the bed. “The good ones, anyway. I filtered out your drunken robot butler concept.”
“Hey, JARVIS was a stroke of genius,” Tony protested, but his eyes never left the pages, fingers tracing the lines of a particle accelerator design they’d sketched on a napkin during finals week.
“I left room for what comes next,” Laura said softly, pointing to the blank pages in the back. “For when we build something that matters.”
That night, beneath the Eiffel Tower’s glittering lights, Tony kissed her with an intensity that tasted like red wine and rebellion, like futures unwritten and paths unchosen. His hands cradled her face as if she were something precious, something he couldn’t bear to break.
Her twentieth birthday was spent in Italy, with Roman sunlight streaming through the thin curtains, turning the modest hotel room golden. Laura woke to find Tony still asleep beside her, his face half-buried in the pillow, hair tousled beyond repair. She propped herself on one elbow, studying the curve of his spine, the way his fingers twitched slightly against the sheets as if still working through problems.
In sleep, the armor fell away—the sharp wit, the carefully constructed indifference, the Stark bravado. This was Tony at his most vulnerable, his most true.
“You’re staring,” he mumbled without opening his eyes. “It’s creepy.”
“It’s my birthday. I’m allowed to be creepy.”
One eye cracked open, dark and sleepy. “Happy birthday, Proctor.” His voice was rough with sleep, unguarded. “What do you want to do today? Roman holiday? Audrey Hepburn style?”
Laura stretched, feeling the pleasant ache in her muscles from yesterday’s walk through the ancient city. “I want to stay right here.”
“In this bed?” Tony rolled onto his back, arms folded behind his head, a slow smile spreading across his face. “I can work with that.”
“In this moment,” she clarified, though she didn’t move away when his hand found hers. “No Stark Industries. No scholarship committee breathing down my neck. No future hanging over us like a guillotine.”
Something flickered across Tony’s face—understanding, perhaps, or recognition of the thing they’d both been avoiding since Europe began. The knowledge that this was temporary, that reality waited for them across an ocean.
“We could just not go back,” he suggested, only half-joking. “Change our names. Become eccentric European inventors. I look good in berets.”
Laura snorted. “You’d last a week before you’d need to show off for an audience bigger than me.”
“Two weeks, minimum,” he countered, pulling her closer until she was half-draped across his chest. “Three if you’re wearing that black thing I like.”
She laughed against his shoulder, breathing in the scent of him—expensive soap and sleep-warm skin. “You’re ridiculous.”
“And yet, here you are.” His fingers traced lazy patterns on her bare back. “Best birthday present I could have given you, really. Me.”
Laura bit his shoulder gently in retaliation, smiling at his exaggerated yelp. “There’s still time to return you for store credit.”
But they both knew she wouldn’t. Somewhere between MIT labs and Mediterranean nights, between theoretical arguments and practical applications, they’d become something neither had anticipated—necessary to each other, like oxygen or gravity or the elegant simplicity of a perfect equation.
When they returned to the States in late August, Howard was livid.
The driver who met them at JFK said nothing about it, but his careful neutrality spoke volumes. He loaded their backpacks—all they’d traveled with for three months—into the trunk of the sleek black car and drove them directly to Stark Industries headquarters rather than the mansion.
“Not even a welcome home first?” Tony muttered, slouching in the backseat, his hand finding Laura’s between them. “Typical.”
Laura squeezed his fingers, saying nothing. The New York skyline rose around them, concrete and glass replacing the ancient stones and blue waters of Europe. Reality, reasserting itself with every passing mile.
Howard didn’t yell—Howard Stark knew better than to yell at his son—the silence that met Tony when they entered his office was punishment enough. He barely looked up from his desk, acknowledging his son’s presence with nothing more than a slight tightening around his eyes.
“Three months,” he finally said, his voice controlled, precise. “Three months of unreturned calls, missed meetings, and embarrassing excuses I had to make to the board on your behalf.”
Tony shrugged, the gesture deliberately casual. “I was taking some personal time. You know, finding myself. Very on-trend for the youth these days.”
“You’re not ‘the youth,’ Anthony. You’re a Stark.” Howard’s gaze flicked briefly to Laura, then away, as if she were a calculation not worth completing. “And Starks have responsibilities.”
“To what? The company? The shareholders? Your legacy?” Tony’s voice took on an edge Laura recognized—the prelude to a storm. “I fulfilled my end of the bargain. I got the degree you wanted, and graduated when you wanted. I’m entitled to a break.”
“A break is a weekend in the Hamptons, not a quarter of a year gallivanting across Europe with—” Howard stopped himself, jaw tightening.
“With what, Dad?” Tony stepped forward, challenging. “Say it.”
The tension in the room crystallized, sharp enough to cut. Laura stood perfectly still, unwilling to give Howard the satisfaction of seeing her discomfort. She’d faced down enough dismissive professors and doubtful advisors to recognize the look in his eyes—the one that said she was a distraction, an inconvenience, a variable that complicated his neat equations.
“With distractions,” Howard finished coolly. “You have orientation with R&D tomorrow morning at eight. Don’t be late.”
He returned to his paperwork, the dismissal clear. Tony stood for a moment longer, something complicated and painful flashing across his face before he masked it with indifference.
“Come on,” he said to Laura, turning away from his father. “We’re done here.”
In the weeks that followed, Howard barely looked at his son outside of scheduled board meetings and mandatory appearances, funneling all his attention into grooming Tony for the empire he hadn’t asked to inherit. Every interaction was clinical, professional, devoid of anything resembling paternal interest. It was as if the three-month absence had confirmed something Howard had long suspected—that Tony was a flight risk, unreliable, too much his own person to be trusted with the Stark name without constant supervision.
Tony shrugged it off like he always did, his smile a little too bright, his jokes a little too sharp. “He’s just mad I’m smarter than he is,” he told Laura one evening, tossing her the keys to the Manhattan penthouse he’d unlocked with a single phone call to his trust manager. The keys glinted in the lamplight as she caught them, cool metal against her palm.
Laura didn’t respond. But she didn’t give the keys back either.
Instead, she crossed the empty living room of what was now, apparently, their home, her footsteps echoing on the hardwood floors. Floor-to-ceiling windows revealed Manhattan spread out below them, a constellation of lights more complex than any they’d traced in the Mediterranean sky. She pressed her palm against the glass, feeling the subtle vibration of the city through it.
“We should get furniture,” she said finally, turning back to Tony. He stood in the center of the vast space, hands in his pockets, watching her with an expression she couldn’t quite read. “Unless you plan to eat, sleep, and work on the floor.”
“I was thinking bean bag chairs,” he replied, crossing to her. “Very undergraduate chic.”
“Absolutely not.”
“Waterbeds?”
“I will leave you.”
Tony laughed, the sound bouncing off the bare walls. He wrapped his arms around her from behind, both of them facing the window, the city, the future spreading out before them. “What do you want, then?” he asked, his chin resting on her shoulder. “For this place. For us.”
Laura leaned back against him, feeling the solid warmth of his chest, the steady rhythm of his heart. “Something that’s ours,” she said softly. “Not Howard’s. Not Stark Industries’. Just ours.”
His arms tightened around her waist, a silent promise. Against the glass, their reflections overlapped, blurred at the edges where they met, as if they were melting into each other, becoming something new, something neither of them had been before.
“I can work with that,” Tony murmured, his breath warm against her neck. “I can definitely work with that.”
Fall semester. Boston, 1987.
Laura returned to MIT in September, the campus familiar yet different. The weight of her doctoral work settled back onto her shoulders like a well-worn backpack—heavy but balanced. Two weeks into the semester, Tony appeared in her lab doorway, leaning against the frame with deliberate casualness.
“Fancy meeting you here, Almost-Dr. Proctor,” he said, arms crossed over his chest, a smile playing at the corners of his mouth.
Laura didn’t look up from her microscope. “What an extraordinary coincidence. Tony Stark in a lab at MIT. Alert the media.”
“Actually...” He pushed off the doorframe, sauntering into her space with the confidence of someone who belonged there. “I’m not just visiting. Stark Industries has officially established a new R&D division. In Cambridge. Three blocks from here.”
That made her look up. “You moved your entire R&D operation to Boston?”
“Not the entire operation.” Tony’s fingers drummed against the lab bench, a restless rhythm that matched the energy constantly humming beneath his skin. “Just the interesting parts. The parts worth my time.”
“Your father agreed to this?” Laura raised an eyebrow, skepticism written across her features.
Tony’s smile turned sharp. “I didn’t exactly ask permission. The board approved it. Unanimously. Turns out having your name on the building gives you certain... privileges.”
Laura studied him for a long moment, seeing past the practiced nonchalance to the calculation beneath. “This is a remarkably transparent ploy to stay close to me, Stark.”
“Is it working?” He moved closer, invading her personal space with practiced ease.
“I’ll let you know.” But she was already smiling.
Within a week, they established a routine that defied conventional relationship boundaries. During the day, Laura attended classes and worked on her doctoral research while Tony terrorized his new R&D team with impossible demands and brilliant innovations. But nights—nights belonged to them alone.
Sometimes they worked in her university lab, Laura hunched over protein maps while Tony built something potentially explosive in the corner. Other nights, they commandeered his new Stark facility, the security guards now accustomed to their midnight arrivals and dawn departures.
“Pass me that centrifuge tube,” Laura said one night, not looking up from her terminal where complex molecular structures rotated in three dimensions. It was nearly midnight, the lab empty except for them.
Tony slid it across the workbench without comment, his own attention fixed on the circuit board in front of him. They worked in comfortable silence for twenty minutes, the only sounds the click of her keyboard and the occasional hiss of his soldering iron.
“You know,” Tony said eventually, pushing his safety goggles up onto his forehead, “most couples go to movies. Or dinner. Or engage in other conventional dating activities.”
Laura snorted, adjusting a parameter in her simulation. “When have we ever been conventional?”
“Fair point.” He abandoned his project, rolling his chair over to her workstation. “What are you working on that’s more interesting than me?”
“Everything is more interesting than you,” she replied automatically, but she tilted her screen so he could see. “I’m modeling protein interactions for my dissertation. This particular enzyme could revolutionize targeted drug delivery if I can stabilize it.”
Tony studied the rotating model, his eyes narrowing as he processed the complex biochemical structure. “Your binding site is wrong.”
“Excuse me?” Laura’s head snapped up, indignation flaring.
“Right there.” He pointed to a specific section of the model. “Your hydrophobic pocket is too shallow. The substrate won’t bind effectively.”
Laura opened her mouth to argue, then paused, looking more closely at the area he’d indicated. “Damn it,” she muttered after a moment. “You’re right.”
Tony’s grin was insufferable. “I usually am.”
She shoved his chair, sending him rolling across the smooth lab floor. “Go back to your toys, Stark. Some of us are doing actual science here.”
“Ouch. My ego.” He clutched dramatically at his chest, but wheeled back to his workbench, the smile never leaving his face.
Spring 1988.
The May sunshine bathed MIT’s Killian Court in golden light as Laura took her place among her fellow doctoral candidates.
In the crowd, she spotted him immediately—Tony Stark in a tailored charcoal suit, designer sunglasses perched on his nose despite the formal occasion. He’d flown in on Howard’s private jet, a deliberate middle finger to his father, who hadn’t spoken to him in weeks. Their silent war continued, but Tony refused to miss this day.
As the ceremony progressed, Laura’s mind drifted between the droning speeches and the calculations that never truly stopped—the variables of her future spinning out in complex equations. The research position at Columbia. The pending patent applications. The penthouse in Manhattan with windows that framed the skyline like a promise.
“Laura Elizabeth Proctor, Doctor of Philosophy in Biochemistry and Molecular Biology, summa cum laude.”
The dean’s voice pulled her back to the present. Laura rose from her seat, the familiar calm of purpose settling over her as she crossed the stage with measured steps. Her heels clicked against the polished wood, each step a punctuation mark at the end of one chapter and the beginning of another.
As she accepted her diploma, a movement in the audience caught her eye. Tony was on his feet before anyone else, clapping loudly and standing while others remained seated. Even from this distance, she could see the fierce pride in his posture, the way he commanded attention without effort.
“She’s the smartest girl in the room,” he announced, voice carrying just loud enough for half the crowd to hear. Not shouting, but not bothering to whisper either—the perfect volume to ensure his declaration reached its intended audience without seeming deliberate.
Laura rolled her eyes reflexively, a practiced response to his public displays of affection. She laughed, the sound light and dismissive, as if his words meant nothing—as if they were just another example of Tony Stark’s characteristic hyperbole.
But something shifted inside her chest, a hairline fracture in the careful compartmentalization she’d maintained her entire life. The sensation was physical, almost painful—like a rib cracking under pressure, exposing something vital and vulnerable beneath.
She’d been “the smart one” her entire life. Valedictorian. Scholarship recipient. Youngest doctoral candidate in her department. Her intelligence had always been acknowledged, evaluated, and measured against others. But the way Tony looked at her in that moment—with unapologetic admiration and something deeper, something that transcended her academic achievements—struck a chord she hadn’t known existed within her.
No one had ever looked at her like that before—like she wasn’t just brilliant, but brilliant and beloved. Like her mind was a miracle he witnessed anew each day. Like her intelligence was not just useful or impressive, but beautiful.
The realization followed her across the stage, down the steps, and back to her seat. It lingered through the remainder of the ceremony, through the photographs and congratulations, and even through the champagne reception, where Tony charmed her advisors and made the department chair laugh despite himself.
“You didn’t have to make a scene,” she told him later, when they were alone in his hotel room, her doctoral gown draped over a chair, her hood carefully laid across the desk.
Tony loosened his tie, his jacket already discarded. “I didn’t make a scene. A scene would have involved fireworks and possibly a marching band.” He tossed the tie aside, moving toward her with that familiar intentness. “I simply stated a fact for the record.”
“The smartest girl in the room?” Laura arched an eyebrow, trying to maintain her composure despite the warmth spreading through her chest at the memory. “That’s objectively unprovable.”
“Is it, though?” His hands found her waist, drawing her closer. “I’ve done the math. Run the simulations. Considered all variables.” His eyes held hers, humor giving way to something more serious. “The data is conclusive.”
Laura placed her palms against his chest, feeling his heartbeat beneath expensive cotton. “Your sample size is questionable. And your methodology is suspect.”
“My methodology is flawless,” Tony countered, his voice dropping lower. “And my conclusion stands.”
She wanted to deflect with another joke, to maintain the comfortable rhythm of their banter. But the crack in her chest had widened, allowing something raw and honest to seep through.
“No one’s ever seen me the way you do,” she admitted, the words barely audible. “Like I’m more than just test scores and publications.”
Tony’s expression softened, the mask of casual arrogance slipping to reveal the man beneath-the one only she got to see. “That’s because most people are idiots.” His thumb traced the line of her jaw. “I see all of you, Laura. The brilliant mind and everything else. Especially everything else.”
The kiss that followed felt like a hypothesis confirmed, like empirical evidence of something she’d suspected but couldn’t prove until this moment. His lips against hers, his hands cradling her face—these were data points in an experiment yielding unexpected results.
That summer, they moved back to New York together. The penthouse windows looked out over the city, as if the future were theirs for the taking. Laura stood before the floor-to-ceiling glass, watching the sunset paint Manhattan in shades of amber and gold. Behind her, Tony was unpacking the last of her books, filling the custom shelves he’d designed specifically for her collection.
“You know what this view reminds me of?” he asked, coming to stand beside her, his shoulder brushing against hers.
Laura leaned into him slightly, their reflections overlapping in the window glass. “What?”
“That night in Rome. On the rooftop.” His fingers found hers, intertwining with practiced ease. “When you said you wanted to change the world.”
She remembered—the Italian moonlight, the ancient city spread below them, the wine warming her blood as she confessed ambitions she’d never voiced aloud before. “And you said we would.”
“We will.” Tony’s certainty was absolute, unwavering. “Look at it, Laura. It’s all out there waiting for us.”
And maybe it was. The city glittered with possibility, with futures they could build together. Laura felt that same crack in her chest widen further, making space for something she’d never allowed herself before—hope untempered by caution, dreams unconstrained by practicality.
For a while, it seemed possible. For a while, they were unstoppable.
For a while.
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The lab is quiet. The coffee’s cold. The calendar doesn’t lie.
It’s late June, and Laura Proctor is one week behind schedule — not in her experiments, not in her research, but in something far more personal.
Far more permanent.At 4:53 a.m., while molecular code flickers across her screen and Tony Stark snores softly on the couch behind her, Laura places a hand against her stomach and feels the weight of a new variable settling in.
It’s not panic.
Not yet.
Just data.But everything’s about to change.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 45: Control Variables
Chapter 45: Control Variables
Summary:
All Laura wanted was to survive one dinner at the Stark mansion.
Instead, she ends up navigating Maria’s elegance, Tony’s tension, and Howard’s scrutiny — only to be pulled aside after dessert for a conversation she never saw coming.
Howard Stark doesn’t just know who Laura is.
He’s been watching. Tracking her research.
And now, he’s offering her everything she’s ever wanted: funding, freedom, a future in science without limits.All she has to do... is say yes.
But the lines between opportunity and manipulation have never been harder to see.
And something is already growing inside her — something that’s going to change everything, whether she’s ready or not.
Notes:
Hope you guys are enjoying these little flashbacks. We’re officially halfway through them!!
The last pieces of the journal arc are coming tomorrow, and as with the others, I’ll be posting the second part right after this one.Thank you so much for the support & the comments, the tags 💚🖤 LET’S GOOOOO!!!
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LATE JUNE
The clock blinked 4:47 a.m.. Laura squinted at her monitor, molecular sequences dancing in soft green light across the screen. Each pattern felt like a puzzle piece that refused to fit, no matter how she turned it.
Laura reached for her coffee without looking, fingers finding the ceramic handle by muscle memory. The coffee was cold and bitter, but she swallowed it anyway.
A dull pinch low in her abdomen made her pause, fingers hovering over the keyboard. Not pain exactly—more like a reminder. Her body was signaling something she’d been too busy to notice.
She craned her head to the right, eyeing the calendar pinned on the wall there, counting backward with growing unease.
One week late.
Laura stared at the calendar, a small furrow forming between her brows. Not panic—not yet—just a clinical assessment of possibilities. Her periods had always been as predictable as lab results.
Until now.
“Stress,” she told herself, “it’s just stress.”
And there’s been plenty of that. Graduation ceremonies in uncomfortable heels. Job applications with their impossible questions about five-year plans. Setting up equipment in the new lab in the penthouse.
Tony.
The thought of him redirected her attention to the couch behind her. He was sprawled across it, one arm flung dramatically over his eyes as if shielding himself from dreams. His mouth hung slightly open, soft snores punctuating the pre-dawn quiet. Even in sleep, there was something magnetic about him—that Stark charisma that draws everyone into his orbit.
Laura watched the steady rise and fall of his chest.
The pinch in her abdomen returned, sharper this time.
She saved her code with three quick keystrokes and shut the laptop, plunging the room into darkness except for that persistent clock—4:53 a.m. now—and the faint glow of the city that never quite goes dark.
In the new silence, Tony’s breathing seems louder. More present. More complicated.
Laura pressed her palm flat against her stomach, feeling nothing but the hollow flutter of anxiety beneath her skin.
EARLY JULY
They were at brunch. Tony had commandeered half of the table with plates, gesturing with a fork as he talked. He’d ordered three different kinds of eggs because he couldn’t decide—or rather, because Tony Stark didn’t have to choose.
“The hollandaise is too lemony on this one,” he said, pushing the eggs Benedict toward her. “Try it. Tell me I’m not crazy.”
Laura forced herself to take a bite, the rich sauce coating her tongue. It tasted like nothing. Everything had tasted like nothing for days.
“It’s fine,” she said, setting her fork down carefully.
Tony narrowed his eyes. “You okay? You’ve been quiet.”
“Just thinking about the data from yesterday.” The lie came easily. She’d been practicing.
She checked her watch—a delicate thing Tony gave her last month and excused herself.
“Bathroom,” she explained, already sliding out of the booth.
In the bathroom, Laura braced her hands on the cool marble sink, staring into the mirror. She looked... fine. A little pale. A little tired. But nothing screamed what she feared.
She washed her hands methodically, the way she was taught in the lab. Twenty seconds. Thorough coverage. Her reflection stared back, skeptical.
“Two weeks late,” she whispered to herself. “It’s still just stress.”
But even as she said it, her body betrayed her with a wave of fatigue that made her grip the sink tighter. She straightened her shoulders, practiced a smile that didn’t reach her eyes, and walked back to Tony and his parade of eggs.
JULY 14
The smell hit her without warning—burnt toast from the kitchen. One second, Laura was casually flipping through grant proposals at the kitchen counter, the next, her stomach lurched violently upward.
She bolted from her chair, knocking a stack of papers to the floor. The hallway stretched impossibly long as she sprinted toward the bathroom, one hand clamped over her mouth, the other pressed against her abdomen.
“You okay, Proctor?” Tony called after her from where he was fanning off the toaster.
Laura didn’t answer, just slammed the bathroom door shut behind her and fell to her knees in front of the toilet. Her body convulsed as everything came up—the protein bar she’d managed for breakfast, the ginger tea she’d hoped would settle her stomach.
When it was over, she rested her forehead against the cool porcelain, eyes closed, breathing through her mouth.
A soft knock at the door.
“Laura?” Tony’s voice, closer now. “You okay?”
She flushed the toilet and pulled herself to her feet, legs shaky beneath her. “Stomach bug,” she called back, turning on the faucet to mask any further sounds. “Must’ve been the Thai from last night.”
Tony frowned.
They didn’t have Thai last night. They had sandwiches from the deli two blocks over, and Laura had picked at hers, claiming she wasn’t hungry.
“Should I call a doctor?” Tony offered through the door.
She rinsed her mouth and splashed cold water on her face. In the mirror, her eyes looked too bright, her skin clammy. She stared at her reflection, at the woman who’s always had a rational explanation for everything. The woman who’s built her career on empirical evidence and statistical significance.
Three weeks late.
Morning sickness.
Fatigue.
The evidence was mounting, each data point more damning than the last. Soon, she’d need to run the definitive test. But not yet. Not with Tony hovering outside the door, his concern genuine but fleeting—the way everything about Tony Stark seemed genuine but fleeting.
“I’m fine,” she called back, voice steadier than she feels. “Just need a minute.”
She pressed her palm flat against her still-flat stomach. Beneath her skin, cells were dividing, systems forming, a future taking shape—all according to genetic instructions she’s spent her career trying to understand.
But this—this she doesn’t understand at all.
JULY 21
Laura knew.
Not in the abstract way she’d known for days now—the clinical assessment of symptoms that her scientific mind couldn’t ignore. This was different. This was certainty settling into her bones like lead.
She sat perched on the edge of the bathtub, the cool porcelain seeping through her thin cotton shorts.
From somewhere below, the muffled bass thump of AC/DC pulses through the floor. Tony was downstairs, lost in one of his engineering fugues, building something brilliant and dangerous. She told him she needed “quiet time” to work on her postdoc proposals. He’d kissed her temple absently, already half-distracted by whatever new idea was sparking in his mind.
The pregnancy test felt impossibly light in her hands. Such a small thing to carry so much weight. Laura stared at the instructions again, though she had already read them three times. The scientist in her needs protocol, even now. Especially now.
Her hands shook as she tore open the package. The plastic stick was cool against her palm. Three minutes, the box promised—three minutes to know for certain.
Two hundred and forty-two seconds later—she counted each of them, one Mississippi, two Mississippi—Laura stared at two lines.
Bold. Unapologetic. Undeniable.
“Fuck,” she whispered, the word falling from her lips like a prayer. “Fuck.”
Her reflection in the mirror looked strange—flushed cheeks against too-pale skin, eyes too wide, too bright. She pressed her hand to her abdomen. Nothing felt different. But everything was different.
And one Tony Stark downstairs, brilliantly oblivious, who had never once mentioned wanting children. Tony, who lived in the perpetual present tense. They’d been together for almost two years now…but this…they weren’t ready for this….
The test trembled in her hand. She should dispose of it. Wrap it in toilet paper and bury it deep in the bathroom trash, where he’d never see it. But she couldn’t seem to let go, her fingers locked around the plastic like it was evidence in a crime.
“Laura?” Tony’s voice carried up the stairs, sudden and jarring. “You still working? Mom called—”
She startled, nearly dropping the test.
“Laura?” Closer now. Footsteps on the stairs.
She needed to answer. Needed to sound normal. Needed time to think.
“Just—” her voice cracked, and she cleared her throat. “Just a minute!”
Laura stared at the two pink lines one last time, searching for some mistake, some flaw in the chemistry. But there’s only certainty staring back at her, a biological reality that won’t be argued with or charmed away or bought off.
Inside her, cells were dividing with mindless purpose. A heart forming. A future taking shape—one she never planned for, never wanted. It was a chemical reaction already in motion. A protein cascade. One thing triggering the next, and the next, and the next.
There was no controlling it now.
Only managing the fallout.
The bathroom suddenly felt too small, the walls pressing in. She wrapped the test in toilet paper with shaking hands and buried it deep in the trash can, covering it with tissues until it was out of sight.
But as she washed her hands, scrubbing them red and raw under scalding water, Laura knew the evidence wasn’t really gone. It’s growing inside her, a secret written in her cells, in her blood.
Tony’s footsteps paused outside the door. “You okay in there?”
Laura stared at her reflection, at the woman who’s always had a five-year plan, who’d always known exactly where she was going and how to get there. That woman was a stranger now.
She opened the bathroom door with practiced calm, though her pulse hammered so hard she’s certain Tony must have heard it.
“Hey,” she managed, her voice almost normal. Almost.
Tony stood in the hallway, one shoulder propped against the wall, dark eyes scanning her face with that penetrating Stark intensity that missed nothing. His Black Sabbath t-shirt was stained with machine oil, and his hair was disheveled in that deliberate way that probably took twenty minutes to perfect.
“You okay? You look...” he gestured vaguely at her face, “flushed.”
“Just splashed some cold water. Was falling asleep over those grant proposals.” The lie slid out smoothly, practiced from weeks of half-truths. She stepped forward, deliberately steering him away from the bathroom, her hand light against his back. “You said your mom called?”
Tony allowed himself to be guided toward the kitchen, though his eyes lingered on her face a beat too long.
“Yeah. The illustrious Maria Stark requests our presence for dinner this weekend. At the estate.”
Laura reached for the bottle of scotch on the counter—her usual evening ritual with Tony—then froze, fingers hovering inches from the glass. Alcohol. The connection formed instantly in her scientist’s brain, a red warning light flashing behind her eyes.
She pivoted to the refrigerator instead, pulling out a bottle of water with a casualness she doesn’t feel.
“Water tonight,” she said, the plastic bottle crackling slightly as her fingers tightened around it. “Trying to stay hydrated.”
Tony’s eyebrows lifted slightly, his eyes tracking her movements as she uncaps the bottle, a momentary calculation happening behind them before he dismisses whatever thought crossed his mind.
“Suit yourself,” he shrugged, reaching for the crystal decanter.
The amber liquid caught the kitchen light as it cascaded into his glass, a perfect two-finger pour without needing to measure. Laura swallowed hard against the sudden wave of nausea it triggered.
“So, dinner at my folks,” Tony continued, leaning against the counter. “Saturday night. Mom insists. Something about wanting to see us before the benefit gala next month.” He took a slow sip, ice clinking against crystal. “Dad will be there too, of course. In all his judgmental glory.”
“That’s... nice of her to invite us,” Laura managed, pressing the cool water bottle against her forehead for a moment before taking a careful sip. The water tasted metallic, or maybe that’s just the anxiety coating her tongue.
“It’s a trap, is what it is.” Tony swirled the scotch, studying the miniature whirlpool he created. “I doubt Howard’s finally ready to stop looking at me like I’m his greatest disappointment since the Manhattan Project went mainstream.”
Laura laughed reflexively, the sound hollow even to her own ears.
Dinner. With Howard Stark, the man who regarded her as an acceptable intellectual specimen but certainly not as a potential daughter-in-law. Definitely not as the mother of his grandchild.
“Look, I know you don’t like my dad,” Tony said, setting his glass down with a sharp click against the counter. His voice softened, vulnerability bleeding through the practiced nonchalance. “Hell, I don’t like him either, I get it.” He ran a hand through his already disheveled hair, a rare gesture of genuine uncertainty. “But it’d mean a lot to me if you came. I—” He hesitated, eyes dropping to the floor before finding hers again. “I don’t want to go alone.”
The raw honesty in his voice made something twist painfully in her chest.
Laura set her water bottle down and crossed the kitchen to him. She wrapped her arms around his waist, burying her face against his neck. His heart beats steadily against her cheek.
Tell him. Tell him now.
But the words stuck in her throat like tar. What would she even say? That she was carrying a child neither of them planned for? That in the midst of their carefully constructed lives—his company, her research, their shared future of innovation and discovery—she’s introduced a variable that would change everything?
Tony’s arms tightened around her, one hand sliding up to cradle the back of her head. His fingers threaded gently through her hair, and she felt him press a kiss to her temple.
“Of course I’ll go,” she murmured against his skin, the vibration of her words making him hold her closer. She forced a smile he can’t see, swallowing back everything else. “We’ll face the Howard Stark experience together.”
His chest rumbled with a quiet laugh, but there’s relief in it, too. “My knight in shining lab coat,” he said, pulling back just enough to look at her face. His eyes narrowed slightly, that genius mind cataloging details again. “You sure you’re okay? You seem...”
“Just tired,” she interrupted, pressing a quick kiss to his lips to distract him. “Those grant proposals are brutal.”
Tony studied her for another beat, something unreadable flickering across his face. Then he nodded, accepting her explanation even as doubt lingered in his eyes.
“Early night then?” he suggested, thumb brushing across her cheekbone. “I could wrap up downstairs. Maybe actually sleep in a bed for once.”
The tenderness in his touch made her throat tighten. This man—brilliant, flawed, beautiful—has no idea how completely their world is about to change.
And she had no idea how to tell him.
Laura stepped out of Tony’s sports car, her fingers smoothing down the front of her navy dress. She’d chosen it carefully—conservative cut, tasteful hemline that fell just below the knee, nothing that would draw Howard Stark’s disapproval. The Stark mansion loomed before them, all imposing stone and grandeur against the twilight sky. Gravel crunched beneath her heels as she took a steadying breath that did nothing to calm the riot in her stomach.
“You look like you’re walking to your execution,” Tony murmured, his hand settling warm against the small of her back. His thumb traced a small circle there, the gesture so unconsciously intimate it made her throat tighten.
“Could say the same about you,” Laura replied, glancing sideways at him. His tailored suit couldn’t quite disguise the tension in his shoulders, the slight clench of his jaw.
“True. But I’ve been practicing my Howard Stark survival techniques since birth.” Tony’s lips quirked into that half-smile that never failed to make her heart stutter. “Step one: arrive slightly buzzed. Step two: maintain said buzz throughout dinner. Step three: feign a work emergency if he starts reminiscing about Captain America for the third time.”
Despite herself, Laura smiled. This was what Tony did best—defused tension with irreverence, made impossible situations feel manageable through sheer force of sardonic charm.
The massive front door swung open with practiced timing, and Maria Stark appeared, elegant in a simple black dress that probably cost more than Laura’s graduate stipend for a year. The moment shattered, the words dissolving unspoken on her tongue.
“Anthony,” Maria said warmly, stepping forward to embrace her son. “You’re almost on time. I’m impressed.”
“Being punctual feels wrong, like I’m violating some law of physics,” Tony replied, accepting his mother’s kiss on each cheek with practiced ease.
Maria’s laugh was musical, refined. Her gaze shifted to Laura, eyes warming with what seemed like genuine affection. “And Laura, darling. How lovely to see you again.”
Laura accepted Maria’s kiss on each cheek, the ritual feeling foreign and formal despite this being their fourth meeting. The older woman’s skin was cool and smooth against hers, her grip on Laura’s shoulders light but firm.
“Thank you for having us, Mrs. Stark,” Laura said, hating how young she sounded, how academic.
“Maria, please,” she corrected gently, though they’d had this exchange three times before. “Come in, both of you. Howard’s in his study, on a call with someone in Tokyo. He’ll join us shortly.”
The foyer gleamed with polished marble and old money, every surface reflecting the soft glow of recessed lighting. Laura’s heels clicked too loudly as they followed Maria through to a sitting room.
“Drink?” Tony headed straight for the bar cart, his movements too casual, too practiced. “Mom, your usual gin and tonic? Laura, scotch?”
The thought of alcohol made Laura’s stomach roll. “Just water for me, thanks.”
Tony paused, decanter in hand, his eyebrows lifting slightly. “Water? At a dinner with Howard? That’s a bold strategy, Proctor.”
Maria settled gracefully onto a cream-colored sofa, crossing her ankles in one fluid motion. “Perhaps Laura’s being sensible. Unlike some people I could name who showed up to their MIT graduation three sheets to the wind.”
“It was two sheets at most,” Tony corrected, pouring amber liquid into a crystal tumbler. “And in my defense, I had just realized I’d have to give a valedictorian speech I hadn’t prepared for.”
Laura perched on the edge of an armchair across from Maria, the stiff brocade pressing uncomfortably against the backs of her thighs. She folded her hands in her lap to keep them from fidgeting.
“How’s your research coming along, Laura?” Maria asked, accepting her drink from Tony with a nod of thanks. “Anthony tells me you’re doing remarkable work with genetic sequencing.”
Laura cleared her throat, grateful for the familiar territory. Science was safe. Science was the one place where she knew exactly who she was.
“It’s promising,” she said, accepting the water from Tony. “We’ve identified several pathways that could revolutionize targeted gene therapy. The applications for degenerative diseases alone are—”
“Spare her the scientific inquisition, Mother,” Tony interrupted, though his tone remained light. He rested his hand on Laura’s shoulder for a brief moment before dropping a kiss on the top of her head. The casual intimacy of the gesture made something twist in her chest. “At least until Dad arrives. Then you can tag-team her properly.”
Maria’s laugh was genuine. “I’m genuinely interested, Anthony. Not everyone in this family considers science a competitive sport.”
The undercurrent in Maria’s words wasn’t lost on Laura. She’d witnessed enough Stark family dynamics to recognize the gentle jab at Howard’s relentless drive, his inability to separate achievement from worth.
Before Tony could respond, footsteps sounded in the hallway—measured, deliberate, the cadence of authority. Laura’s spine straightened instinctively, her body reacting before her mind could catch up.
Howard Stark entered the room like he was arriving on stage, his presence immediately commanding attention. His silver hair was impeccably styled, his suit tailored to hide the slight softening of age around his middle. He surveyed the room with the practiced gaze of a man accustomed to assessing value at a glance.
“Anthony,” he said with a nod that somehow managed to be both acknowledgment and assessment. His gaze shifted to Laura, cool and evaluating. “Dr. Proctor.”
The use of her title—a small respect he’d never offered before—caught her off guard. Laura felt Tony tense beside her, his fingers tightening imperceptibly around his glass.
“Mr. Stark,” she replied, rising to her feet out of some ingrained respect for authority she couldn’t quite shake. “It’s good to see you again.”
“Likewise,” Howard said, and to Laura’s surprise, his lips curved into what appeared to be a genuine smile. “I read your paper on recombinant DNA therapy in the Journal of Molecular Biology. Impressive work.”
The compliment landed like an unexpected gift, both welcome and suspicious. Laura felt Tony shift beside her, his body language betraying surprise.
“Thank you,” she said, fighting to keep her voice steady. “That’s... kind of you to say.”
Howard waved away her thanks, laughing it off. “It’s not kindness to acknowledge quality. Your methodology was elegant. Efficient.” He moved to the bar cart, pouring himself two fingers of scotch with practiced precision. “The applications for your research could be... significant.”
Maria smiled, looking between Howard and Laura. Her posture shifted subtly as she rose from the sofa. “Dinner should be ready,” she announced warmly. She smoothed an invisible wrinkle from her dress. “Shall we?”
Howard gestured toward the dining room with his glass, the amber liquid catching the light. “After you.”
Laura followed Maria through the arched doorway, hyper-aware of Tony’s presence behind her, his hand hovering near the small of her back without quite touching it.
The dining room opened before them, and Laura quickly found herself seated and settled into a high-backed chair, the wood unyielding against her spine. Tony took his seat directly across from her, his eyes finding hers with a silent question she couldn’t quite answer. Howard claimed the head of the table with the casual entitlement of a man who had never questioned his right to be there, while Maria settled at the opposite end, a queen surveying her domain.
A server materialized from a side door—a middle-aged man in crisp black and white who moved with practiced invisibility. He poured wine into three crystal glasses, the burgundy liquid cascading in a controlled fall. When he reached Laura’s glass, Maria gave a discreet shake of her head, and he moved past without pouring.
The subtle exchange didn’t escape Howard’s notice. One silver eyebrow lifted fractionally, his gaze sharpening as it landed on Laura’s empty glass. His gaze lingered a moment too long before he finally turned to Tony. The shift in his attention was almost physical, like a spotlight swinging away.
“The board meeting yesterday,” Howard said, his voice taking on a harder edge. “Phillips tells me you proposed redirecting funds from defense contracts to your clean energy project.”
Laura watched as the transformation took place across the table. Tony’s posture shifted subtly—shoulders squaring, jaw tightening, the casual mask slipping to reveal the steel beneath. His fingers tapped a restless rhythm against the tablecloth, once, twice, before he stilled them deliberately.
“The arc reactor technology has applications far beyond weapons systems,” Tony replied, leaning forward slightly. His voice carried the practiced confidence of a man who had been defending his ideas his entire life. “If we could scale it properly—”
“We’ve had this conversation,” Howard interrupted, his tone clipped and final. He set his wine glass down with precision, the crystal making a soft clink against the table. “Stark Industries’ foundation is defense. Innovation within that framework is welcome. Abandoning it is not.”
Laura saw the muscle in Tony’s jaw flex, the slight narrowing of his eyes. She recognized the signs of impending collision as clearly as she recognized chemical reactions in her lab.
“It’s not abandonment, it’s evolution,” Tony countered, the words carrying an edge that hadn’t been there moments before. He leaned further forward, elbows on the table—a deliberate breach of the etiquette Howard valued. “The future isn’t in better ways to blow things up.”
“The future is in security,” Howard said firmly, the words carrying the weight of decades of conviction. “Something your generation seems determined to misunderstand.”
Laura watched Tony’s fingers tighten around his wine glass, the knuckles whitening under pressure. She recognized the signs—the slight flush creeping up his neck, the muscle twitching in his jaw. He was gearing up for battle, the same way he did before every confrontation that mattered to him.
The server reappeared with the first course, setting delicate plates of something artfully arranged before each of them. Laura stared down at hers—seared scallops nestled in a vibrant green puree—and felt her stomach clench in protest. The seafood aroma wafted up, normally enticing but now triggering a subtle wave of nausea she fought to suppress.
After dessert—a crème brûlée that Laura had barely touched—Maria quickly steered Tony away from the table with a light touch on his arm.
“Anthony, dear,” she said, her voice warm but commanding, “would you help me in the cellar? I’m afraid I can’t reach the ‘82 Bordeaux I wanted to show you.”
Tony’s eyes narrowed fractionally—the same look he got in the lab when an equation didn’t balance. He glanced at Laura, one eyebrow lifting in silent question. Will you be okay?
Laura gave him a small nod, hoping the tight smile she offered appeared more confident than it felt. Her fingers curled against her thigh beneath the table, nails pressing half-moons into her palm.
“Sure, Mom,” Tony said, pushing back from the table. The legs of his chair scraped against the hardwood floor, too loud in the hushed dining room. He hesitated, looking between Laura and his father with obvious reluctance. “We won’t be long.”
Laura watched him follow his mother from the room.
Howard waited until the footsteps disappeared completely before turning his full attention to Laura. The intensity of his gaze was unsettling—not hostile, but neither warm. Just... evaluating.
“Walk with me,” he said.
Laura rose to her feet, her legs feeling suddenly unsteady, as she smoothed her dress with hands that wanted to tremble. Howard didn’t wait to see if she would follow, turned, and strode from the dining room. The only sound was the soft click of her heels against hardwood and the measured cadence of Howard’s expensive Italian loafers as she followed after him down a long hall.
“Your protein cascade model,” Howard said abruptly, breaking the suffocating silence. “You’ve made progress.”
Laura nearly stumbled. That research was preliminary—unpublished, barely discussed outside her lab. “How did you—” she began, unable to mask her surprise.
Howard gave her a gentle smile that transformed his face, softening his harsh lines. It caught Laura off-guard—this wasn’t the Howard Stark that Tony had described in late-night confessions, the man whose approval had always remained just out of reach.
“I make it a point to keep track of talent,” he said, his voice warmer than she’d ever heard it. “Especially when that talent is dating my son.”
There was something unnervingly genuine in his tone that made Laura’s skin prickle with both suspicion and a strange, unwanted pleasure. Recognition from Howard Stark was rare currency—she’d heard enough stories to know that.
They turned a corner, their footsteps echoing in synchronized rhythm against the polished hardwood. Howard stopped at a heavy oak door, his hand turning the brass handle.
The door swung open on silent hinges, revealing a study that looked exactly as Laura would have imagined Howard Stark’s inner sanctum: rich mahogany shelves lined with leather-bound books whose spines showed the subtle wear of actual use rather than mere display. A massive desk dominated the far wall, positioned to command the room. Two leather chairs were arranged before it like seats for an audience with royalty, their burgundy leather catching the warm glow from the desk lamp.
“Please,” Howard gestured toward one of the chairs, his movement fluid and practiced.
Laura sat, the leather cool and unyielding beneath her. She resisted the urge to shift her position, to appear more comfortable than she felt.
Howard didn’t sit behind the desk as she expected. Instead, he lowered himself into the chair opposite her.
“I’m heading a private research initiative,” he said, reaching for the crystal decanter on the side table.
The amber liquid caught the light as it flowed into a single glass, fracturing it into golden patterns across the surface of the desk. He didn’t offer her a drink, just took a measured sip, his eyes never leaving her face.
“Outside of Stark Industries. Completely separate entity,” he continued, setting the glass down with a soft click against the polished wood.
Laura’s brow furrowed. “What kind of initiative?”
“Degenerative disease prevention. Immunotherapy. Gene therapy applications beyond what’s currently considered possible.” Howard leaned back slightly, studying her reaction with the careful attention of a man who had spent a lifetime reading people. “The kind of work that could change everything.”
The abrupt shift in conversation left Laura momentarily disoriented. She’d been bracing for questions about her relationship with Tony, about her intentions, her future—not this unexpected pivot into her professional domain.
“Why are you telling me this?” she asked, her voice steadier than she felt.
Howard’s eyes narrowed slightly, assessing. “Because I’m offering you a position. Your own program. No university bureaucracy, no grant applications, no publishing delays.” He leaned forward again, closing the distance between them. “The research you’re already doing, but fast-tracked. With resources you can’t imagine. This division is dedicated to advancing human potential. To solve problems others consider unsolvable.”
Laura’s mind raced, her scientist’s brain calculating variables and outcomes with the same precision she applied to genetic sequencing. The leather chair suddenly felt too small, too confining. The way he spoke—measured, deliberate, but with an underlying fervor—reminded her suddenly, painfully of Tony when he was deep in the grip of a new idea, a new possibility.
“You’d have complete autonomy,” Howard continued, watching her closely. “A team of your choosing. Equipment that would make MIT’s labs look like a high school science fair.”
“Why?” The question escaped before she could stop it, suspicion threading through her initial wonder. “Why me? Why now?”
Howard’s expression softened into something that might have passed for paternal on another man’s face. He leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees, closing the distance between them.
“Because what you’re doing with recombinant DNA therapy could change everything,” he said, each word precise and weighted. “Because I’ve been watching your work for longer than you realize, and I recognize potential when I see it.” His eyes locked with hers, dark and penetrating.
Howard Stark wasn’t just offering her a job. He was offering her legitimacy. Resources. The chance to see her work realized in her lifetime, not decades after she was gone.
Laura’s throat tightened. She thought of the pregnancy test buried in the bathroom trash. Of cells dividing inside her, even now. Of futures branching like protein cascades—one path leading to groundbreaking research, another to motherhood.
“I want to better the world, Laura,” Howard said, her first name strange and intimate in his mouth. “And I believe you can help me do that.”
And he was right—she could.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 7/8/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/173832295
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Laura wakes up in a hospital bed with more than a headache—she’s carrying a secret she didn’t mean for Tony to find out like this.
But now he knows. And everything changes.A quiet room, a trembling heart monitor, and the moment the truth finally slips out.
Tony Stark is about to become something he never expected: a father.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 46: Time to Love Her
Chapter 46: Time to Love Her
Summary:
After sixteen hours of labor, Laura Proctor meets the tiny human who just rewrote her entire universe.
Tony Stark—genius, disaster, accidental softie—gets knocked flat by seven pounds of newborn wonder, suddenly and irreversibly a father.Her name is Isabelle.
She has Laura’s nose, Tony’s eyes, and the smallest hand that’s ever held the whole world in its grasp.They weren’t ready.
They aren’t perfect.
But in this moment, they are a family.
Notes:
She’s here. Baby Isabelle. 🥹
And with her… the slow descent into everything that led Laura to do what she did.This is where the cracks begin.
Thank you so, so much for reading and screaming and crying and theorizing with me. 💚💚💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Sweet Child O' Mine " by Guns N' Roses
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Chapter Text
The city glowed beyond the floor-to-ceiling windows, a sprawl of golden light that looked too calm for the storm inside Laura’s chest.
Tony held the champagne bottle by the neck, spinning it loosely between his fingers. “You’re serious? Immunotherapy? That’s—” He grinned, sharp and brilliant. “That’s huge.”
Laura nodded, her smile careful. “It’s focused on neurodegenerative disease. Cellular restoration, early-stage repair. Cutting edge stuff.”
Tony popped the cork with an inelegant thwump that made her flinch. Foam spilled down his wrist, and he licked it off with a boyish laugh. “God, I love being right,” he declared, already pouring into two flutes. “Told you they’d come begging the minute you finished that postdoc.”
“They didn’t beg,” she said, accepting the glass he handed her. “But it was… a good offer.”
“Incredible offer,” he corrected, tapping his glass against hers. “To Dr. Laura Proctor.”
She faked a sip, the champagne cold against her lip but never touching her tongue. Tony didn’t notice. He was too busy watching her with pride that nearly broke her.
“I’m proud of you, Proctor,” he said, quieter now. The kind of quiet that meant he meant it. “I mean it. This is exactly where you belong.”
Laura smiled, and it felt like lying.
The feeling grew heavier with every passing day.
The nausea came in waves now—unpredictable, cruel. It stole into her mornings before the sun could rise, curling her spine over cold porcelain, stealing breath and dignity in equal measure. Her lab badge clattered against the tile as she braced herself against the stall wall, willing it to pass.
It always did.
Eventually.
When it did, she flushed, wiped her mouth, and stood like nothing had happened.
At work, she added a second lab coat. First for warmth, then for concealment. Her blouses clung tighter each week, seams pulling where they hadn’t before. Her chest ached. Her bra left red lines she scrubbed away in the mirror, like that could undo the changes. Her reflection stared back—sharp, tired, resolute.
Her hand hovered over her abdomen without touching it. Just feeling. Just imagining. The bump wasn’t visible—not really—but she felt it. A tension under the skin. A shift in balance. Each morning, her slacks fit worse. Each night, her chest felt heavier. She hadn’t said a word.
She ran simulations at work, coded in silence, worked twelve-hour days like she could outrun her own biology. She took meetings with Howard’s team and nodded through them with her stomach coiled in knots. Sometimes the smell of the breakroom coffee made her dizzy. Once, she nearly passed out in the hallway and blamed it on low blood sugar. No one questioned her. She was too competent, too driven, too good at disappearing inside her work.
She told Tony she was just tired. That the job was intense, but she was handling it. He believed her—why wouldn’t he? She was Laura Proctor. She handled things.
Nights were the hardest. When the penthouse finally went quiet, when there was no lab coat between her and the truth, she would curl into herself beneath the covers. Some nights she cried, silently, soaking the pillow inches from where he slept. He’d reach for her in his sleep, one arm slung across her hip without ever waking.
Protective. Unknowing.
She didn’t move. Didn’t speak. Didn’t risk breaking whatever fragile version of the future they still had.
Because every time she looked at him—careless, brilliant, wide-open with love and promise—she thought: How can I tell him? How can I be the thing that changes everything?
And still… the secret grew.
Inside her.
Around her.
Between them.
The apartment smelled of garlic and tomatoes. Tony had returned from California that morning, sun-kissed and eager to cook her favorite pasta. Laura watched him from the kitchen doorway, his sleeves rolled up as he stirred the sauce, humming off-key to the radio.
“You’re going to burn it if you don’t lower the heat,” she said, trying to keep her voice steady despite the black spots dancing at the edges of her vision. She blinked hard, willing the dizziness away.
Tony turned, wooden spoon in hand. “The great Tony Stark does not burn pasta sauce. It’s scientifically impossible.”
“That’s not how science works.” She stepped forward, the room tilting slightly. The dizziness had been worse today—worse than any day before. She’d skipped lunch, too nauseated to eat, and now regretted it.
“You okay?” Tony’s smile faded. “You look pale.”
“I’m fine. Just tired.” Laura reached for the counter to steady herself. “The project has been... demanding.”
“Maybe you should sit down.”
“I said I’m fine, Tony. I just need to—” The words died in her throat as the room spun violently. Her knees buckled. The world went sideways, then dark.
She was vaguely aware of strong arms catching her, of Tony’s voice sharpening with fear. “Laura! Jesus—Laura, can you hear me?”
Then nothing.
Beeping. Rhythmic, insistent. Laura surfaced slowly through layers of consciousness, each one thinner than the last. Her mouth felt dry. Something pinched the back of her hand—an IV. Hospital. The word formed sluggishly in her mind.
She opened her eyes to harsh fluorescent lighting and white ceiling tiles. When she turned her head, she found Tony.
He sat beside her bed, elbows on his knees, hands clasped so tightly his knuckles had gone white. His usual animation had vanished, replaced by a stillness she’d never seen in him before. He stared at their joined hands, his thumb tracing small circles against her skin.
“Tony?” Her voice came out as a rasp.
His head snapped up. His eyes were red-rimmed, haunted. “Hey,” he whispered, leaning forward. “You’re awake.”
“What happened?” She tried to sit up, but a wave of dizziness forced her back against the pillows.
“You passed out. Scared the hell out of me.” His voice cracked. “You wouldn’t wake up, so I called an ambulance.”
Memory returned in fragments. The kitchen. The dizziness. The floor rushing up to meet her.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “I haven’t been eating regularly. The project—”
“Stop.” Tony’s voice was gentle but firm. “The doctor said you’re dehydrated and exhausted. But that’s not—” He broke off, swallowing hard. When he spoke again, his voice had dropped to a whisper. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
Something in his tone made her stomach clench. “Tell you what?”
Tony’s eyes searched hers, vulnerable in a way she’d never seen before. “About the baby, Laura.”
The world seemed to stop. The steady beeping of the heart monitor accelerated, betraying the panic that flooded her system.
“The doctor ran tests. Standard procedure, apparently.” Tony’s voice was carefully neutral, but his eyes never left her face. “You’re pregnant. Almost three months, they said.”
“I didn’t—” she began, then stopped. She’d been caught.
“Were you going to tell me?” Tony asked. The question hung between them, fragile and dangerous.
Laura looked at him—really looked. His hair was disheveled, his expensive shirt wrinkled and untucked. His face was pale beneath his tan. He looked scared. Vulnerable. And something else—something that made her chest ache.
“I was trying to figure it out,” she said finally, the closest thing to truth she could manage. “The timing is... complicated.”
“Complicated,” he repeated, the word flat.
“Tony, this job—my research—it’s everything I’ve worked for.”
“And I’m not?” The hurt in his voice was raw.
“That’s not what I meant.” Laura reached for his hand, relieved when he didn’t pull away. “I was afraid.”
“Of what? Of me?” The idea seemed to wound him.
“Of everything changing,” she whispered. “Of making the wrong choice. Of disappointing you.”
Tony was quiet for a long moment. When he finally spoke, his voice was thick. “I would never ask you to choose, Laura. Between your work and—” He gestured vaguely at her abdomen. “This wasn’t in our plan. I get that. But you don’t have to figure it out alone.”
Laura felt tears burning behind her eyes. If only he knew what she was really hiding. Not just the pregnancy, but SHIELD. The classified research. The secrets she was legally bound to keep, even from him.
“I’m sorry,” she said again, meaning it for so many reasons he couldn’t understand.
Tony leaned forward, pressing his forehead against their joined hands. A drop of moisture fell onto her skin—a tear, she realized with a jolt. Tony Stark was crying. For her. For them. For a future suddenly thrown into chaos.
When he looked up, his eyes were wet, but his gaze was steady. “Whatever you want to do, whatever you decide—I’m here. We’ll figure it out together.”
The monitor betrayed her again as her heart raced. In that moment, she saw the man beneath the swagger and brilliance—the man who would someday be a father. Her throat tightened with emotion.
“I don’t know what to do,” she admitted, the truth finally breaking free.
Tony’s thumb brushed across her knuckles, gentle and sure. “That’s okay,” he said softly. “We’ve got time.”
He hadn’t stopped moving since they’d arrived.
“You’re going to wear a hole in the floor,” Laura said, trying to keep her voice light.
Tony stopped, turned, and flashed her a smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. “Just making sure they got their money’s worth on the flooring.” He glanced at the blank ultrasound monitor, then away. “You know, statistically speaking, medical offices have the most durable flooring in any industry. Has to withstand all those nervous fathers-to-be.”
Laura watched him resume pacing. His shoulders were tight, jaw working silently as he chewed the inside of his cheek—a habit he only indulged when truly anxious. They hadn’t told anyone yet. Not Howard. Not Maria. Not even Rhodey—Tony’s best friend. Just the two of them carrying this secret that grew heavier and more real with each passing day.
“Tony,” she said softly. “Come here.”
He stopped mid-stride and looked at her, vulnerability flashing across his face before the mask of confidence slipped back into place. He moved to her side, taking her hand in his. His palm was damp.
“You know,” he said, voice pitched low and conspiratorial, “I’ve been thinking about what we’re dealing with here. Technically speaking, you’re harboring a parasite. A very small, presumably adorable parasite with excellent taste in parents.” His thumb traced circles on her knuckles. “Particularly in fathers. Exceptional taste there.”
Laura squeezed his hand. “Is that your professional assessment, Mr. Stark?”
“Absolutely. Though I should warn you—” His words cut off as the door opened and the technician returned, smiling professionally as she wheeled her stool closer to the ultrasound machine.
“Ready to see your baby?” she asked, squirting clear gel onto Laura’s exposed abdomen.
Laura flinched at the cold sensation, her fingers tightening around Tony’s. The technician pressed the wand against her skin, moving it in small circular motions. The screen flickered with grayscale shadows.
“Let’s see what we have here...” The technician adjusted something on the machine, her brow furrowing in concentration.
Laura felt Tony’s grip tighten. His breathing had gone shallow. She turned to look at him, finding his eyes fixed on the monitor with an intensity she’d only seen when he was solving impossible equations.
And then it filled the room—a rapid, rhythmic whooshing that seemed impossibly fast and strong for something so small. A heartbeat.
“There we go,” the technician said, smiling. “Nice strong heartbeat.”
Tony went completely still. The nervous energy that usually animated him vanished, replaced by a stillness so profound it was as if he’d forgotten to breathe. His eyes widened, fixed on the blurry image on the screen where a tiny form could just be made out.
“Tony?” Laura whispered.
He swallowed hard, Adam’s apple bobbing in his throat. When he turned to her, his eyes were bright with unshed tears. Something had shifted in his face—the cynicism and practiced charm stripped away, leaving something raw and unguarded.
“That’s...” His voice caught. He cleared his throat and tried again, quieter now. “That’s ours?”
The technician moved the wand slightly, bringing the image into sharper focus. “Would you like to know the sex?”
Laura looked at Tony, who nodded without taking his eyes off the screen.
“It’s a girl,” the technician said.
Tony’s hand trembled in hers. A single tear escaped, tracking down his cheek before he quickly wiped it away with his free hand.
“A girl,” he repeated, the words barely audible.
Laura felt her own eyes burning. She’d been so afraid of his reaction, of the future, of everything changing. But the look on his face now was nothing like she’d feared. It was wonder. Pure, unfiltered wonder.
“She’s perfect,” the technician said, pointing to the screen. “See her little hands there? And that’s her spine.”
Tony leaned forward, studying the screen as if he were memorizing every pixel. “She’s so small,” he murmured. Then, with a shaky laugh. “And already breaking the curve. Look at that brain development. That’s a Stark, alright.”
Laura felt something unravel in her chest—a tension she hadn’t realized she’d been carrying. Tony’s thumb brushed over her knuckles again, but different now. Reverent.
“We’re having a daughter,” he said, meeting her eyes. The words seemed to surprise him as he spoke them, as if the reality was only now taking solid form.
“We are,” Laura confirmed, her voice thick with emotion.
Tony bent down and pressed his forehead to hers, his breath warm against her face. “Thank you,” he whispered, so quietly that only she could hear.
Maria Stark arrived at the penthouse with two assistants in tow, each carrying bags from exclusive boutiques and home stores, her face alight with barely contained excitement.
“I’ve brought options,” she announced, directing the assistants to set their burdens down on the coffee table. “Just preliminary ideas, of course. We’ll need to consult with the designer, but I wanted to get a sense of your preferences.”
Laura stood frozen in the doorway, watching as Maria began unpacking paint swatches, fabric samples, and what appeared to be miniature furniture catalogs. They’d only told Tony’s parents two days ago, and already Maria had mobilized as if planning a military campaign.
Tony emerged from the kitchen, coffee mug in hand, and shot Laura an apologetic glance. “Mother,” he said, “we haven’t even cleared out the spare room yet.”
“Which is precisely why we need to start now,” Maria replied, undeterred. She held up two paint samples. “I’m thinking either this soft blush or the pale mint. Gender-neutral is all the rage, but I’ve always found pastels so soothing for babies.”
Laura moved cautiously into the room, feeling like she’d stepped into someone else’s life. “It’s very kind of you to help, Maria, but we haven’t really discussed—”
“Oh! Before I forget.” Maria dug into her purse and extracted a small velvet pouch. “This was Tony’s when he was born. I had it cleaned and restored.”
She handed the pouch to Laura, who opened it carefully. Inside was a delicate silver rattle, engraved with the Stark family crest and tiny stars.
“It’s beautiful,” Laura said, genuinely touched.
Maria beamed. “I’ve already ordered the most darling collection of books. First editions, of course. And the baby boutique on Fifth had these organic cotton onesies that are just divine.”
Tony set his coffee down and placed a hand on his mother’s shoulder. “Mom, slow down. We’ve got months to figure this out.”
“Months fly by, Anthony,” Maria said, her expression softening. “Trust me on this. One day you’re picking out nursery colors, and the next you’re sending them off to MIT.”
Something in her voice made Laura’s chest tighten. Behind Maria’s exuberance was a genuine joy that Laura hadn’t anticipated. She’d been so focused on Howard’s reaction—and her own fears—that she hadn’t considered what this baby might mean to Maria.
“The mint is nice,” Laura found herself saying, moving closer to examine the paint swatches. “Maybe with silver accents?”
Maria’s face lit up. “Oh, that would be lovely. Classic but modern.” She turned to one of the assistants. “Make a note of that, and let’s get samples of the silver finishes we discussed.”
Tony caught Laura’s eye over his mother’s head, his expression a mix of amusement and gratitude. He mouthed a silent “thank you” before joining them at the table.
For a moment, Laura felt a weight lift. This was family, she realized—chaotic and overwhelming, but also warm and certain in ways her own childhood had never been.
The moment was broken by the sound of the elevator doors opening. Howard Stark stepped into the penthouse, his expression unreadable as he surveyed the scene before him.
“I see the nursery planning is already underway,” he said, setting his briefcase down. “Maria, I thought we agreed to give them some space.”
Maria waved a dismissive hand. “I’m just providing options, Howard. They’ll make their own decisions.”
Howard’s gaze settled on Laura, assessing in that way that always made her feel like she was being X-rayed. “How are you feeling?”
“Fine,” Laura answered automatically. “The morning sickness is better.”
Howard nodded, then turned to Tony. “We need to discuss the press strategy. The board will need to be informed before this goes public.”
Tony’s posture stiffened. “We’re not making any announcements yet.”
“You’ll need to, eventually,” Howard countered. “Better to control the narrative than have some tabloid break the story.”
“Dad—” Tony began, his voice taking on a warning edge.
Howard held up a hand. “I’m not saying now. But soon.”
“We’re figuring it out, Dad,” Tony said, moving to stand beside Laura. “One step at a time.”
Howard’s expression softened marginally. “You’re young. Both of you. Younger than your mother and I were.” He paused, seeming to choose his words carefully. “But you have resources we didn’t. Support. Use them.”
It was as close to acceptance as Howard Stark was likely to offer. Not warm, not enthusiastic, but not rejection either.
“Now,” Howard continued, his tone shifting to something more businesslike, “I need to borrow Tony for an hour. R&D has hit a snag.”
Tony hesitated, glancing at Laura.
“Go,” she said quietly. “I’ll be fine here with your mom.”
Tony squeezed her hand before following his father to the elevator. As the doors closed behind them, Laura turned back to Maria, who was watching her with a knowing expression.
“He means well,” Maria said, arranging fabric swatches in a neat fan. “In his own way.”
Laura nodded, not trusting herself to speak. The reality of their situation was sinking in anew—she wasn’t just having a baby. She was having a Stark. With all the expectations, pressures, and legacy that the name carried.
“Come,” Maria said gently, patting the sofa beside her. “Let me show you the books I found. There’s a first edition of ‘Goodnight Moon’ that’s absolutely charming.”
Laura sat down, letting Maria’s enthusiasm wash over her. As she listened to Tony’s mother describe the perfect nursery for their daughter, she placed a protective hand over her stomach.
Their daughter.
February 1, 1989
The contractions came like waves—unpredictable, relentless, each one stronger than the last. Laura gripped the hospital bed rail, her knuckles white as the pain crested again.
“You’re doing great,” Tony said, his voice steady even as his eyes betrayed his panic. He’d been pacing for hours, alternating between bad jokes and frantic questions to the medical staff.
Laura wanted to laugh at the absurdity of it all. Labor had no place in her five-year plan. Not the pain that tore through her body, not the sweat that plastered her hair to her forehead, not the undignified position as doctors and nurses moved around her with clinical efficiency.
“I need you to push now, Laura,” the obstetrician said from somewhere beyond her bent knees.
Laura bore down, a primal sound escaping her throat. Tony’s hand was in hers, and she squeezed until she felt his bones shift.
“Jesus,” he whispered, but didn’t pull away.
Sixteen hours. Sixteen hours of this, and now the room buzzed with a new energy. More pushing. More pain. The doctor’s calm instructions blended with the steady beep of monitors and Tony’s increasingly frantic encouragement.
“I can see the head,” the doctor announced. “One more big push.”
Laura gathered what little strength remained and pushed. The pressure built to an impossible peak, then released. A strange emptiness followed, and then the most perfect sound she’d ever heard: a high, indignant wail.
And then—
They placed the baby on Laura’s chest, still slick and squirming. The world narrowed to this small, warm weight against her skin. Ten fingers. Ten toes. A dusting of blonde hair. Perfect.
“She’s here,” Laura whispered, her voice raw. “She’s really here.”
Tony stood frozen beside the bed, his face a study in wonder and terror. When the nurse asked if he wanted to hold his daughter, he nodded mutely.
Laura watched as they placed the now-swaddled bundle in Tony’s arms. His hands trembled visibly, his entire body rigid with the effort of holding her correctly.
“She’s... small,” he said, his voice barely audible. “Like, actually small. I thought babies were bigger.” He stared down at the tiny face, his expression shifting from shock to awe. “Look at her fingers. They’re like... miniature.”
Laura felt her heart expand watching them—Tony Stark, genius billionaire, completely undone by seven pounds of newborn humanity.
“Is she supposed to be this small?” he asked, not taking his eyes off the baby. “I mean, is this normal small or concerning small? Should we be worried?”
“She’s perfect,” the nurse assured him. “Seven pounds, three ounces. Completely healthy.”
Tony nodded, but didn’t seem entirely convinced. He swayed slightly, an unconscious rocking motion, as he studied every feature of his daughter’s face. “She has your nose,” he said to Laura. “Thank god. And my chin, I think. Poor kid.”
Laura watched the transformation happen in real time—Tony falling irrevocably, completely in love. His eyes softened, the sharp edges of his perpetual motion stilling for perhaps the first time since she’d known him.
“Isabelle,” Laura said softly. They’d discussed names, circling around options for months without settling. But now, looking at her daughter’s face, she knew. “Isabelle Maria Stark.”
Tony looked up, surprise flickering across his features. “After your mother. And mine.”
“Is that okay?”
A smile broke across his face—not his usual sharp grin or practiced charm, but something genuine and vulnerable. “It’s perfect. She’s perfect.” He looked back down at the baby. “Hello, Isabelle. I’m your dad. Which is terrifying for both of us, I’m sure.”
The baby’s eyes fluttered open—dark brown, unfocused—and Tony gasped softly. She had his eyes.
“Oh,” he whispered. “She’s looking at me. Laura, she’s looking at me.”
Laura felt tears gathering, hot and unexpected. She’d spent months afraid—of the changes in her body, of the upheaval to her career, of the responsibility. She’d feared Tony’s reaction, Howard’s disapproval, the press attention that would inevitably follow. She’d feared her own inadequacy, her own history, her own capacity to mother.
But watching Tony hold their daughter, those fears receded like shadows at dawn. For the first time in her life, Laura felt still. Rooted. As if after years of constant motion, of striving and proving and running, she had finally arrived exactly where she was meant to be.
“Can I—” Tony’s voice caught. He cleared his throat and tried again. “Can I bring her back to you?”
Laura nodded, arms already reaching. Tony placed Isabelle carefully in her embrace, then sat on the edge of the bed, one arm around Laura’s shoulders, the other hand gently touching their daughter’s cheek.
“We made her,” he said, wonder suffusing his voice. “You and me. We made this perfect, tiny human.”
Isabelle’s small hand escaped the swaddle, five perfect fingers splayed against the air. Tony offered his index finger, and she grasped it with surprising strength.
“Strong grip,” he noted, pride evident in his voice. “Already showing engineering potential.”
Laura laughed softly, leaning her head against his shoulder. “Let her be a baby first.”
“Of course,” he agreed quickly. “Baby first. Engineering genius later. We’ve got time.”
Time. The word settled over Laura like a benediction. Time to watch Isabelle grow. Time to become the family they were now. Time to learn this new love that had cracked her chest wide open.
One Week Later
Isabelle slept against Laura’s chest, her tiny body rising and falling with each breath. Seven days old, and already she’d reordered their universe. The penthouse was quiet save for the soft whirring of the climate control and the occasional distant honk from the streets below. Laura sat in the nursery rocker, the pale mint walls catching the last glow of sunset through the windows.
She traced a finger along Isabelle’s cheek, marveling at skin so new it seemed translucent. The exhaustion of the past week had settled into her bones, but beneath it lay something else—a fierce, protective love that surprised her with its intensity.
Movement in the doorway caught her attention. Tony leaned against the frame, his hair disheveled, dark circles under his eyes matching her own. He’d abandoned his usual polished appearance for worn jeans and an MIT sweatshirt with a coffee stain on the sleeve. The sight of him—brilliant, chaotic Tony Stark reduced to this sleep-deprived, awestruck version of himself—made something tighten in Laura’s chest.
“Hey,” he said softly, his eyes fixed on Isabelle. “She finally out?”
Laura nodded. “Twenty minutes. Might be a record.”
Tony crossed the room silently, perching on the ottoman in front of the rocker. His fingers brushed against Isabelle’s tiny sock-covered foot with a gentleness that still surprised Laura. For a man whose hands were always in motion—building, creating, gesturing wildly as he spoke—he touched their daughter with reverent care.
“I’ve been thinking,” he said, his voice low.
Laura raised an eyebrow. “Dangerous.”
The corner of his mouth quirked up. “So I’ve been told.” He took a breath, his gaze shifting from Isabelle to Laura. Something in his expression made her pulse quicken. “I want to do this right. I want to marry you.”
The words hung between them, simple and enormous. Laura’s first instinct was to laugh, to tell him that was insane. They were sleep-deprived, overwhelmed, barely keeping their heads above water. Marriage was the last thing they needed to add to the chaos.
But the look in his eyes stopped her. There was no performance in it, none of the Stark showmanship or practiced charm. Just Tony, raw and certain in a way she’d rarely seen him.
“Tony...” she began, not sure what would follow.
“I know what you’re thinking,” he said, leaning forward. “It’s fast. It’s crazy. We’re barely functioning adults right now. But—” He ran a hand through his hair, leaving it standing in odd directions. “I don’t want to wait for some perfect moment that might never come. I don’t want to overthink this into oblivion like I do everything else.”
Laura looked down at Isabelle, at the delicate curve of her eyelashes against her cheeks, at the tiny fist curled against Laura’s collarbone. Then, back at Tony, whose eyes held a vulnerability that made her throat tighten.
“We’re already a family,” he continued, his voice dropping lower. “I just want to make it official. No big spectacle. No press. Just us.”
A week ago, Laura would have had a dozen logical arguments against this. A month ago, she would have dismissed it entirely. But something had shifted inside her the moment they’d placed Isabelle in her arms.
“Yes,” she said, the word escaping before she could analyze it to death.
Tony blinked, as if he’d prepared for more resistance. “Yes?”
“Yes,” Laura repeated, more firmly this time. A smile spread across her face, surprising her with its ease. “Let’s get married.”
Tony’s expression transformed, relief and joy breaking across his features like sunrise. He leaned forward, cupping her face in his hands, and kissed her—gentle, mindful of the baby between them, but with an intensity that made her heart race.
When he pulled back, his eyes were bright. “Tomorrow,” he said. “Before I have time to plan something ridiculous that will end up in the tabloids.”
Laura laughed softly. “Tomorrow,” she agreed. “Just us. And her.” She nodded toward Isabelle, who slept on, oblivious to the life-altering decisions being made around her.
Tony’s hand found hers, their fingers intertwining over Isabelle’s small form. In the fading light of the nursery, with their daughter’s warmth between them, Laura felt a certainty she’d never expected. Not the cold logic of scientific conclusion, but something deeper, more elemental.
This was right. They were right. All three of them, together.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 7/8/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/173832295
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Isabelle Stark grew fast.
One minute, she was a red-faced newborn swaddled in Maria’s favorite cotton blankets.
The next, she was scaling Tony like a jungle gym, conducting pretend science experiments on her stuffed animals, and turning the dishwasher into a drum kit.Music became her first language. Questions became her second.
And somehow, even as a toddler, she always knew when her parents needed comfort—even when they couldn’t say why.For a little while, it felt like it might last.
Then came December 1991.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 47: Fix Tommorrow
Chapter 47: Fix Tomorrow
Summary:
The call came at 3:17 a.m.—Howard and Maria Stark were dead.
Grief isolates. Silence grows sharp.
And a family begins to fracture under the weight of ghosts and guilt.But love, stubborn and bruised, tries to hold on.
Suitcases packed, promises made, stars projected onto nursery ceilings.Isabelle learns to walk, to talk, to play.
She asks hard questions.
She becomes the center of a fragile, beautiful rhythm.For a little while, they make it work.
For a little while, it’s enough.
Notes:
Here we are!!! The last two chapters of the flashbacks and what’s inside Laura’s journal! I’m so glad you guys are vibing with it. Seriously, thank you so much for all the love and support!!! 💚
Just a small heads-up: this chapter takes a darker turn emotionally. If you’re in a sensitive headspace, please take care before diving in. Nothing graphic, but the tone shifts a bit toward the end.
Okay… deep breath… let’s go.
(Also I'm going to go eat dinner real quick then I'll be back to post the second chapter lol)
🎵Chapter song vibes: "I Know It's Over " by The Smiths
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Chapter Text
Isabelle grew fast.
One minute, she was a week old, swaddled in the soft cotton blankets Maria had meticulously selected, her face still red and scrunched like a tiny, angry fist. Her cries echoed through the Stark penthouse at ungodly hours, a sound that shot Laura awake with primal urgency while Tony fumbled with bottles and diapers, muttering equations under his breath as if the solution to fatherhood could be calculated.
The next minute—or so it seemed—Isabelle was a tornado of motion, barreling through their home on unsteady legs that grew more confident by the day. Her blonde curls bounced wildly as she ran, untamable as her spirit. She shouted half-formed words with the conviction of someone casting spells, her small hands gesturing emphatically to punctuate sounds that meant everything to her and remained mysterious to everyone else.
“Da!” she declared one morning, pointing directly at Tony with unwavering certainty.
Laura froze at the kitchen counter, coffee mug halfway to her lips. “Did she just—”
“She absolutely did.” Tony scooped Isabelle up, spinning her until she squealed with delight. The smugness radiating from him was almost tangible. “That’s right, kiddo. Da. As in your dad. As in me. The first and most important word in your vocabulary.”
“Don’t get too comfortable,” Laura warned, but couldn’t help smiling at their matching expressions of triumph. “She’ll be saying ‘no’ next, and then you’re really in trouble.”
“Ma” came three days later, to Laura’s relief and Tony’s theatrical disappointment.
By two, Isabelle had transformed into a climbing machine. No surface was safe—not the leather armchairs Tony had imported from Italy, not the kitchen counters Laura sanitized twice daily, certainly not Tony himself. He’d be working on schematics only to find forty pounds of determined toddler scaling his back like he was Everest, tiny fingers gripping his shirt for purchase.
“Tony,” Laura would laugh, “it looks like you have a small security breach approaching from the rear.”
When Tony demonstrated the properties of electromagnets to dinner guests one evening, Isabelle watched with laser focus. Later, Laura found her mimicking Tony’s exact hand gestures to her stuffed animals, right down to the way he tapped his fingers together when making a crucial point.
Music became Isabelle’s first true love. Even before she could form sentences, melodies seemed to flow through her. She hummed while stacking blocks in the living room, creating tuneless but rhythmic soundtracks to her play. The washing machine’s cycle became a beat she’d clap along to, tilting her head to catch every mechanical shift and whir.
Laura noticed it during a particularly difficult week, when SHIELD had called her in for three consecutive “consultations” that left her drained and lying to Tony about medical conferences. She’d returned home to find Isabelle sitting beside the dishwasher, swaying gently to its rumble.
Something cracked open inside Laura then—a door she’d kept locked since her own childhood. That night, after Isabelle was asleep and Tony was buried in his workshop, she slipped down to the storage unit beneath the building. There, wrapped in an old blanket, sat her mother’s keyboard.
She cleaned each key with careful precision, wiping away dust and memories simultaneously. The first chord she played was tentative, rusty with disuse. The second came easier. By the fifth, her fingers remembered what her mind had tried to forget.
“What’s that?” Tony asked the next evening, finding her playing softly while Isabelle napped.
“Something from before,” Laura said simply. She didn’t elaborate on what came before. Tony didn’t ask.
Isabelle discovered the keyboard two days later, her eyes widening as if she’d found buried treasure. She crawled into Laura’s lap without invitation, small hands immediately reaching for the keys, pressing them in chaotic combinations that should have been jarring but somehow contained their own wild harmony.
“Sound!” she exclaimed, looking up at Laura with such pure joy that for a moment, Laura forgot about SHIELD, about secrets, about the weight of everything she was hiding.
“Yes, baby,” she whispered, kissing the top of Isabelle’s head. “Beautiful sound.”
Curiosity defined Isabelle as she grew. “Why” became her battle cry, issued at breakfast over spilled cereal, in the car watching raindrops race down windows, at bedtime when the shadows stretched across her walls.
“Why stars, Daddy?” she’d ask, pointing to the ceiling, where Tony had a projector display constellations.
“Why moon follow us?” she’d demand from her car seat.
“Why you sad, Mommy?” she’d whisper on evenings when Laura returned from SHIELD with shoulders too heavy to lift.
Those questions were the hardest to answer.
Her empathy emerged early, startling in its intensity. At the playground, she’d toddle over to crying children, offering them her favorite stuffed rabbit without hesitation. When Laura fell asleep on the couch after a particularly grueling day of lies and half-truths, she woke to find Isabelle had crawled up to lie with her in while she slept, thumb in mouth, hugging Laura.
On nights when Tony worked until dawn, Isabelle would somehow sense his frustration through walls and floors. She’d appear in his workshop doorway in footed pajamas, clutching her rabbit, “Don’t be sad, Daddy,” she’d say, climbing into his lap and resting her head against his chest. “Fix tomorrow.”
Tony would look at Laura over their daughter’s head, a question in his eyes that Laura couldn’t answer: How does she know?
For a while—a brief, shining while—life settled into something resembling normalcy. It was chaotic; nights were short and days were long. The apartment was never truly clean. Laura juggled motherhood and SHIELD with increasing difficulty. Tony balanced fatherhood and his mentorship under his father. They fought, they made up, they forgot important things, and remembered the essential ones.
It wasn’t perfect. But in stolen moments—Isabelle asleep between them on lazy Sunday mornings, family dinners where Tony made pasta sauce that splattered everywhere, bath times that left the bathroom flooded but filled with laughter—Laura allowed herself to think the dangerous thought:
This is perfect. This is everything. This could last.
Then came December 1991.
The call arrived at 3:17 a.m. The phone rang on the nightstand. Tony’s arm was draped heavily across her waist, his breath warm against her neck. Isabelle had finally fallen asleep after hours of feverish crying, her tiny body radiating heat like a furnace.
“Don’t,” Laura murmured as Tony stirred. “I’ll get it.” She reached over, picked up the phone, put it to her ear, “Hello?” Her voice was sleep-rough, barely audible.
“Laura?” Obadiah Stane. Laura’s stomach tightened.
“Obadiah? What’s wrong?” She knew something was wrong…he’d never call this late….
“There’s been an accident.” Obadiah’s words were slow and careful. “Howard and Maria. Their car went off the road near Long Island.”
Laura sat up, suddenly wide awake. “Are they—”
“They didn’t make it, Laura.”
The silence that followed felt like something heavy pressing against her chest. Tony shifted beside her, eyes still closed.
“We were supposed to be with them,” she whispered.
“I know.” Obadiah’s voice cracked slightly. “The police said the roads were icy. Howard might have been drinking. They’re still investigating.”
Laura’s gaze drifted to the baby monitor, where Isabelle’s congested breathing created a rhythmic static. The fever that had kept them home—that had saved their lives.
“I’ll tell him,” she said finally.
“I’m on my way over. The press will be all over this by morning.”
Laura hung up and sat motionless in the dark, listening to Tony’s steady breathing. How do you tell someone their parents are gone? That the vacation they’d all planned together had ended before it began?
Tony didn’t cry when she told him. Not then. Not at the funeral three days later, where he stood stone-faced between Laura and Obadiah, Isabelle bundled against his chest. Not when the lawyers read the will, or when he inherited Stark Industries, or when reporters shouted questions about his readiness to lead.
The grief came sideways, in moments Laura least expected.
She found him one night in Isabelle’s room, standing over the crib, tears streaming silently down his face as he watched their daughter sleep.
“She’ll never know them,” he whispered when Laura wrapped her arms around him from behind. “My mother would have spoiled her rotten. My father would have—” His voice broke. “He would have been different with her. Better.”
“She’ll know them through you,” Laura said, pressing her forehead between his shoulder blades.
But Tony was already pulling away, both physically and emotionally.
The workshop became his sanctuary and his prison. Hours stretched into days. Laura would bring him food he wouldn’t eat, ask questions he wouldn’t answer. The smell of scotch clung to him like cologne.
“Daddy?” Isabelle would call, banging her small palms against the workshop door. “Daddy play?”
Laura would scoop her up, swallowing her own resentment. “Daddy’s working, baby. Let’s go make cookies instead.”
At night, when Tony finally came to bed—if he came at all—Laura would feel him trembling beside her, fighting demons he refused to name.
“Talk to me,” she’d plead, reaching for him in the darkness.
“There’s nothing to say.” His voice would be flat, distant. “They’re gone. End of story.”
But it wasn’t the end. It was the beginning of something darker.
Six months after the funeral, Laura found Tony passed out in his workshop, an empty bottle of whiskey beside him, Howard’s old designs scattered across the floor.
“You can’t keep doing this,” she said when he finally stirred, her voice tight with anger and fear. “You have a daughter who needs you.”
Tony looked at her through bloodshot eyes. “She has you.”
“That’s not enough, and you know it.”
Something ugly flashed across his face. “My father was barely there, and I turned out fine.”
“Is this what you call fine?” Laura gestured to the chaos around them. “Drinking yourself unconscious while your daughter cries for you upstairs?”
“Don’t.” His voice was dangerous, a warning.
“Don’t what? Tell you the truth? Someone has to, Tony.”
He stood, unsteady on his feet. “You don’t understand.”
“Then help me understand!” Laura’s control slipped, her voice rising. “Because all I see is you choosing to drown rather than swim.”
“We should have been in that car!” Tony shouted, his fist coming down on the workbench with enough force to send tools clattering to the floor. “If Isabelle hadn’t been sick—”
“So you’re punishing her? Punishing me?” Laura stepped closer, refusing to back down. “For being alive?”
The silence that followed was deafening, and he was already turning away, reaching for another bottle.
The arguments became a rhythm, punctuating their days like heartbeats. Sometimes explosive, sometimes quiet, and cutting. Always ending the same way—with Tony retreating further and Laura holding everything together by increasingly fragile threads.
SHIELD became her escape, though she hated herself for thinking of it that way. Each time she left, she told Tony another carefully constructed lie about medical conferences or research grants. Isabelle grew to be more familiar with nannies than either of them.
Each time she returned, the distance between them had grown wider.
By 1992, Laura could feel herself approaching a breaking point. The double life was unsustainable—SHIELD scientist by day, mother and emotional caretaker by night. Tony was functioning again, running the company with a manic energy that worried her, but he remained emotionally absent, a ghost in their home.
The decision crystallized on a rainy Tuesday.
Laura packed their bags that night, hands shaking with exhaustion and resolve. Two suitcases—one for her, one for Isabelle. She left Tony’s ring on the nightstand with a note that said simply: “We can’t keep living like this.”
Morning came with the sound of rain against the windows and Isabelle’s soft babbling from her travel crib. Laura dressed her in her favorite yellow overalls, the ones with the duck buttons Tony had gotten for her.
“We’re going on an adventure,” she told Isabelle, forcing brightness into her voice as she zipped up the toddler’s small suitcase.
“Daddy come?” Isabelle asked, clutching her stuffed dinosaur—a gift from Howard that she refused to sleep without.
Laura’s throat tightened. “Not this time, baby.”
They were at the door, Laura’s hand on the handle, when Tony appeared in the hallway. He looked terrible—unshaven, hair wild, eyes red-rimmed and desperate.
“Don’t.” The word was ragged, torn from somewhere deep. “Please.”
Isabelle broke free from Laura’s grip, running to Tony with a cry of delight. “Daddy! We ‘venture!”
Tony scooped her up, burying his face in her curls, his shoulders shaking. When he looked up at Laura, there were tears streaming down his face.
“I can’t lose you, too,” he whispered. “I can’t.”
“I can’t keep doing this, Tony.” Laura’s voice wavered. “Watching you destroy yourself. Lying to Isabelle about why Daddy won’t come out of his workshop. Pretending everything’s okay when nothing has been okay for months.”
Tony crossed the room slowly, Isabelle still in his arms, her small hands patting his wet cheeks with concern.
“Daddy sad,” she announced solemnly.
“Yeah, kiddo.” Tony’s voice broke. “Daddy’s been very sad. And very stupid.” He looked at Laura, really looked at her for what felt like the first time in months. “I’ll get help. Real help. Whatever it takes.”
“You’ve said that before.”
“I know.” He swallowed hard. “But I’ve never watched you pack before.”
Laura felt her resolve wavering. “Tony—”
“One month,” he said quickly. “Give me one month to prove I can change. If I can’t...” He trailed off, unable to finish the thought.
Isabelle squirmed in his arms, reaching for Laura. “Mommy sad too?”
Laura took her daughter, inhaling the sweet scent of baby shampoo in her hair. Over Isabelle’s head, she met Tony’s gaze—the naked fear there, the desperate hope.
“One month,” she agreed finally. “But I’m not unpacking these bags.”
The change wasn’t immediate. There were still bad days—days when Tony disappeared into his grief, when the weight of Howard’s legacy pressed too heavily on his shoulders. But there were good days too, growing more frequent as weeks passed.
He started coming home for dinner every night, no matter what crisis erupted at Stark Industries. He taught Isabelle to count using the tools in his workshop, her small voice echoing “One screwdriver, two wrenches, three bolts!” with infectious enthusiasm.
“What’s this one called?” Tony would ask, holding up a socket wrench.
“Socket!” Isabelle would declare triumphantly, though it came out sounding more like “sock-it.”
Laura would watch from the doorway, her heart caught between hope and caution.
At night, after Isabelle was asleep, Tony would talk—really talk—about his parents. About the complicated relationship with his father. About how much he missed his mother’s piano playing. About the guilt that still ambushed him at unexpected moments.
The suitcases remained packed for the full month, a silent reminder in the corner of their bedroom. On the final night, Tony sat on the edge of the bed, watching Laura with cautious eyes.
“So,” he said quietly. “Verdict?”
Laura looked at the man before her—still broken in places, still healing, but trying with everything he had. She thought of Isabelle’s laughter that afternoon as Tony chased her through the apartment, both of them wearing cardboard robot helmets he’d made.
She crossed to the suitcases and slowly began to unpack.
After that, Isabelle grew into herself like a wildflower finding patches of sun between shadows.
At three, Isabelle made friends with startling ease—at the park, in waiting rooms, even with Tony’s business associates who found themselves being solemnly handed half a cookie and told about the family of ants living in the garden. Her imagination transformed cardboard boxes into spaceships and blanket forts into underwater kingdoms where her stuffed animals held court.
But darkness terrified her.
The first time the power went out during a summer storm, Isabelle’s scream cut through the apartment like a siren. Tony found her pressed against her bedroom wall, eyes wide with terror, small body trembling so violently her teeth chattered.
“Hey, hey, Izzy-bell,” he murmured, gathering her into his arms. “It’s just a little darkness. Nothing to be afraid of.”
“M-monsters,” she whispered against his neck, her tears hot on his skin.
“No monsters,” Tony promised, but felt her unconvinced shiver.
That night, after the power returned and Isabelle finally slept between them in their bed, Laura turned to Tony in the dim glow of their bedside lamp.
“She’s not just afraid of the dark,” she said quietly. “Did you see how she reacted? It was panic. Real panic.”
Tony’s fingers traced absent patterns on the sheets. “I’ll build her something.”
Two days later, he presented Isabelle with a nightlight unlike any other—a delicate sphere that projected a gentle galaxy of stars across her ceiling while emitting soft strains of Debussy’s “Clair de Lune.”
“The stars will always be there,” he told her, tucking her in beneath the artificial constellations. “Even when it’s dark, they’re watching over you.”
Isabelle’s small hand reached up to touch his face. “Promise?”
“Engineer’s honor,” he said, crossing his heart.
By five, something extraordinary happened. Laura was working in the kitchen when she heard it—hesitant at first, then more confident—single notes on the piano, played with deliberate care. She moved silently to the doorway of the living room.
Isabelle sat at Maria Stark’s old grand piano, her feet dangling well above the pedals, picking out the melody of “Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star” with her right hand. Not banging randomly as she had as a toddler. Playing. Finding the notes by ear, her head tilted slightly as if listening to some internal guidance.
“Tony,” Laura called softly, not taking her eyes off their daughter.
He appeared beside her, coffee mug halfway to his lips. “Is she—”
“Nobody taught her that,” Laura whispered. “She’s figuring it out herself.”
They exchanged a look heavy with meaning. They’d suspected Isabelle was bright—all parents did—but this was different. This was something else entirely.
“She might be gifted,” Tony said later that night, voice low as they stood in the hallway outside Isabelle’s bedroom. “Like, actually gifted. Not just a proud-parent gifted.”
Laura nodded, thinking of the patterns she’d been cataloging for years. “We should have her assessed. There are programs—”
“Let’s not rush,” Tony interrupted, running a hand through his hair. “She’s still so young. Let her be a kid first.”
After Howard and Maria’s deaths, Laura had stepped back from her work, focusing on holding their family together while Tony struggled through his grief. But by 1994, with Isabelle thriving and Tony healing, she felt the pull of her research again. After Howard’s passing, she was assigned to a classified task force working on the remnants of the super soldier serum.
The work consumed her in ways she hadn’t anticipated. The complexity of the serum, its cellular adaptability, the ethical implications—all of it ignited something in her that had been dormant. By the end of that year, she was running her own lab, juggling motherhood and scientific breakthroughs with increasing difficulty.
The time at home shrank incrementally—first late nights, then weekends, then business trips that stretched from days into weeks. Each time she returned, Isabelle seemed to have grown another inch, learned another skill, developed another interest Laura knew nothing about.
Isabelle adapted. Children always did.
She learned to read early, devouring books meant for children twice her age. In public, she watched more than she spoke, those intelligent eyes taking in everything, missing nothing. She developed an uncanny ability to sense tension between Tony and Laura, between adults at parties, even between characters in the movies she watched.
But Isabelle would play. First piano, then guitar, when Tony brought one home after seeing her fascination with a street musician in Central Park.
For a while, they had balance. Laura scaled back her lab hours, delegating more to her research assistants. Tony, now firmly established as the head of Stark Industries, made a point of being home for dinner three nights a week, no matter what crisis erupted at the company. Isabelle flourished in the steady rhythm they created—school, piano lessons, family dinners, weekend adventures.
The balance wasn’t perfect. There were still missed recitals and arguments behind closed doors. There were still nights when Laura slipped away to take calls from SHIELD that she couldn’t explain to Tony. There were still mornings when Isabelle found her father asleep in his workshop, surrounded by half-finished projects and empty coffee cups.
But it was theirs. And for a time, it was enough.
1998
The first sign came on a Saturday morning, so unremarkable that Laura almost missed it. Isabelle sat at the breakfast table, pushing soggy cereal around her bowl, her spoon leaving lazy trails through the milk.
“You’re not hungry?” Laura asked, glancing up from her research notes.
Isabelle shrugged, a small motion that sent her blonde curls bouncing. “My throat hurts.”
Laura pressed the back of her hand to Isabelle’s forehead—a touch too warm, but nothing alarming. Just a cold, she thought. Just a normal childhood cold.
But the cough lingered. One week. Two. By the third, it had developed a hollow, rattling quality that woke Isabelle at night, her small body convulsing with the effort to clear lungs that wouldn’t clear.
“I don’t like that cough,” Tony said one night, standing in the doorway of Isabelle’s bedroom, watching their daughter sleep. His fingers tapped an anxious rhythm against his thigh. “Kids get sick, but not like this. Not for this long.”
Laura nodded, swallowing the flutter of unease in her throat. “I’ll take her to Dr. Kaplan tomorrow.”
Dr. Kaplan prescribed antibiotics. They didn’t help.
Then came the bruises—violent purple blooms across Isabelle’s shins, her forearms, the delicate skin beneath her eyes. “I didn’t fall, Mommy,” she insisted when Laura asked, confusion clouding her features. “They just... happened.”
The fatigue descended next, gradual but relentless. Isabelle, who once raced through the apartment like a hurricane, now moved as if underwater, her limbs heavy, her eyes dulled. The piano gathered dust. Her books remained untouched. Even her questions—those endless, wonderful questions—dwindled to silence.
“Something’s wrong,” Laura told the pediatrician, her voice tight with controlled panic. “Really wrong.”
The pediatrician referred them to a specialist. The specialist ordered tests. The tests led to more tests, each more invasive than the last. Through it all, Isabelle endured with a quiet stoicism that broke Laura’s heart—tiny arms extended for blood draws, small body still beneath cold scanning equipment, wide eyes watching the adults around her with growing comprehension.
The diagnosis came on a Friday afternoon in September—delivered in a sterile consultation room by a hematologist with kind eyes and careful words.
“Acute lymphoblastic leukemia,” he said, the clinical term hanging in the air between them. “It’s aggressive, but with immediate treatment—”
Laura heard nothing after that. The word exploded in her mind, shattering everything around it. Leukemia. The same disease that had hollowed her mother from the inside out, that had stolen her away one cell at a time.
Tony’s hand found hers beneath the table, gripping with bruising force. His face remained composed, asking the right questions, nodding at the right moments. But Laura felt the tremor in his fingers, the barely contained panic.
“What are her chances?” he asked finally, his voice remarkably steady.
The doctor hesitated. “With standard treatment, about sixty percent. There are experimental protocols that might improve those odds.”
Sixty percent. A coin flip with their daughter’s life.
“We’ll need to begin chemotherapy immediately,” the doctor continued. “I’ve already contacted the pediatric oncology team at—”
Laura nodded mechanically, her mind racing ahead—calculating treatment protocols, researching alternative therapies, calling in every favor she’d accumulated in her years of medical research.
“Can we tell her?” Tony asked, his voice cracking slightly.
The doctor’s expression softened. “Children often understand more than we give them credit for. Honesty, delivered with hope, is usually best.”
They told Isabelle that night, sitting on either side of her hospital bed. Laura had rehearsed the words, carefully selecting each one for maximum clarity and minimum fear.
“You have something called leukemia,” she explained, her voice gentle but matter-of-fact. “It means some of your blood cells aren’t working properly, and we need to give you special medicine to fix them.”
Isabelle’s eyes moved between her parents, absorbing, processing. “Is that why I’m so tired all the time?”
Tony nodded, his thumb tracing circles on Isabelle’s palm. “Yeah, kiddo. That’s why.”
“Will I die?” The question was direct, unflinching.
Laura felt Tony go rigid beside her.
“No,” she said firmly, perhaps too firmly. “We’re going to fight this. All of us, together.”
Isabelle studied her mother’s face with an intensity that belied her six years. “Grandma had leukemia. You told me she died.”
The observation knocked the air from Laura’s lungs. She’d mentioned her mother’s illness only once, months ago, in passing. Of course, Isabelle had remembered. Of course, she’d made the connection.
“Medicine is better now,” Tony interjected, his voice rough with emotion. “And you’re stronger than anyone I’ve ever met. Plus, you’ve got me and your mom in your corner, and we’re pretty much unbeatable.”
A ghost of a smile touched Isabelle’s lips. “Like Captain America?”
Tony winced. She’d gotten into his father’s old movie collection and read the comics.
“Exactly like Captain America,” Tony agreed, pressing a kiss to her forehead. “Only smarter and better looking.”
That night, after Isabelle had finally fallen asleep, Laura found Tony in the hospital corridor, his forehead pressed against the cold window glass, shoulders shaking with silent sobs.
“She can’t—” he choked out when Laura touched his arm. “Not her. Take me instead. Take anything else.”
Laura pulled him against her, feeling his tears soak through her shirt. “We’re going to fix this,” she whispered, the same promise she’d made to Isabelle. “Whatever it takes.”
The next weeks blurred into a nightmare of hospital rooms and treatment protocols.
Through it all, Laura watched. Watched the doctors with their forced cheer. Watched the nurses with their gentle efficiency. Watched her daughter with an awareness that seemed to pierce straight through their carefully constructed facades.
The treatments failed, one after another, as Isabelle grew weaker rather than stronger, and the cracks in Tony’s composure widened. Laura would return from consulting with specialists to find him gone, his chair empty, only to discover him hours later in the hospital parking garage, reeking of whiskey, eyes red-rimmed and haunted.
“You can’t keep doing this,” she hissed one night, cornering him in the corridor outside Isabelle’s room. “She needs you present. She needs you sober.”
“Don’t you think I know that?” Tony’s voice was raw, scraped hollow. “But what good am I doing her? All my money, all my so-called genius, and I can’t fix this. I can’t fix her.”
“Neither of us can fix this alone,” Laura said, softening slightly. “But together, maybe—”
“Together?” Tony laughed, a bitter, broken sound. “When was the last time we were actually together, Laura? You’re at the lab more than you’re here. What are you even working on that’s more important than our daughter?”
The accusation landed like a physical blow. Laura took a step back, her spine straightening. “I’m trying to save her life,” she said, each word precise and cutting. “Every minute I spend in that lab is for her.”
It wasn’t entirely true. Yes, she’d redirected her research toward experimental treatments that might help Isabelle. But there was more—the classified SHIELD work she couldn’t explain, the pressure from above to continue the super soldier research despite her personal crisis. The compartmentalization that had once been her strength now felt like a prison, trapping her between worlds that couldn’t coexist.
Tony’s eyes narrowed, sensing the half-truth. “There’s something you’re not telling me.”
“There’s a lot neither of us is saying right now,” Laura countered, deflecting. “But this isn’t about us. It’s about Isabelle.”
The mention of their daughter’s name seemed to deflate Tony’s anger. He sagged against the wall, suddenly looking older than his years. “The doctors are talking about experimental protocols. Last resorts.”
Laura nodded, her throat tight. “I know.”
“What if we lose her, Laura?” The question emerged as barely a whisper. “What if, after everything, we still lose her?”
Laura had no answer.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 7/8/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/173832295
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Hope was a ritual. Desperation became science.
And on the cusp of a new millennium, Laura made an impossible choice — one that would save Isabelle’s life and quietly begin to unravel everything else.It all started with Batch 13A.
Then came New Year’s Eve, 1999.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 48: Where Monsters Begin
Chapter 48: Where Monsters Begin
Summary:
Spring 2000.
The papers are signed. The house is quiet. But Laura Proctor is not alone.
A silent intruder. A familiar suit. A threat from within.And upstairs, Isabelle sleeps—unaware that her mother is about to make a deal with the devil to keep her safe.
Notes:
And here it is, the final flashback! This arc was a lot (emotionally, morally, scientifically… 😅), but I honestly loved writing every second of it.
Thank you so, so much for sticking with me through all the journal entries, heartbreak, and lore drops.
Your support means everything. I’ll see you next time 💚🎵Chapter song vibes: "Wicked Game " by Chris Isaak
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Chapter Text
Hope had thinned into ritual by then. Laura knew the choreography by heart: treatments that didn’t work, the careful way doctors’ eyes slid away when delivering results, the precise angle at which Isabelle’s head tilted when pretending not to be afraid. Her daughter grew thinner each day, too tired to eat, eyes sunken into bruised hollows, her body betraying her one cell at a time.
Then came the serum.
It wasn’t inspiration so much as desperation that drove her that night. Isabelle had fallen asleep watching one of Howard’s old Captain America films from the 40s. Laura had seen it a dozen times before, but that night, with Isabelle’s ragged breathing filling the silence between dialogue, something clicked into place.
Three days later, she stood in her private lab, staring at the formula on her screen. A hybridization—her work on cellular regeneration spliced with her best approximation of Erskine’s serum, reconstructed from Howard’s incomplete notes. Theoretically impossible. Practically insane.
“This is a terrible idea,” she told the empty room, even as she initiated the synthesis sequence.
Most simulation trials failed spectacularly. Subjects became violent, their minds fracturing as their bodies warped. Three had died screaming, their cells multiplying too rapidly, consuming them from within. Four had to be terminated when their cognitive functions deteriorated beyond recovery. Each failure carved another piece from Laura’s already fractured conscience.
But then, a breakthrough: batch 13A. The molecular structure finally held stable in the simulation. Still experimental, still volatile, but when she tested it on mice, they didn’t just survive—they thrived. Then on rats, with the same results.
One night, Wilfred Nagel, a colleague, tossed out a comment over cold coffee and half-eaten vending machine sandwiches, his voice casual as he scrolled through data on his tablet.
“Shame we can’t test pediatric compatibility. Kids are where the genetic regeneration is most promising. Their cells practically sing with the stuff.”
Laura didn’t respond. Not out loud. She stirred her coffee, watching the liquid swirl into a miniature vortex, feeling something cold and desperate taking shape in her chest.
But the next time she was alone in the lab—past midnight, security cameras on their programmed sweep cycle—she ran the simulation. Just to see. Just to disprove the impossible. Just to silence the voice that had started whispering in the back of her mind.
Her fingers trembled as she input Isabelle’s genetic profile. She knew it by heart now, had stared at those strands more than her own reflection in the mirror. Had memorized every mutation, every marker, every flaw. She ran it against the stabilized serum parameters.
And froze.
The screen bathed her face in blue light as the results populated. Perfect match. Down to the mitochondrial signature. The kind of compatibility they’d been chasing.
Laura sat motionless in the dark for over an hour, simulation results glowing faintly on the screen. She didn’t cry. She couldn’t. Her throat had closed too tight, her mind a war zone of colliding thoughts. The gentle hum of laboratory equipment formed a backdrop to her racing heart.
“There’s no ethical path forward,” she whispered to the empty room, her voice barely audible. The words tasted like ash.
But the machine didn’t care about ethics. It didn’t care about maternal love or professional oaths or the line between healing and harm. It simply displayed one result, blinking calmly in the corner of the screen: VIABLE.
She didn’t sleep that night. Instead, she sat at Isabelle’s bedside, counting her daughter’s shallow breaths, watching the moonlight trace patterns across her too-pale skin.
She waited for the right moment. New Year’s Eve, 1999. Tony would be gone—off to a tech conference in Bern that he’d mentioned over breakfast three weeks earlier. She didn’t ask why he hadn’t invited her. He didn’t ask why she didn’t care. The silence between them had become its own language.
“I’ll bring back chocolate,” he’d said, kissing the top of Isabelle’s head as she dozed in her hospital bed. His eyes had skipped over Laura entirely.
Seven days. He wouldn’t return for seven days. That gave her enough time for what needed to be done. Enough time to see if it worked. Enough time to hide the evidence if it didn’t.
The hospital room was quiet at 2 AM, save for the mechanical hum of monitors and the shallow, rasping sound of Isabelle’s breathing. Laura sat in the vinyl chair beside the bed, her fingers wrapped around the small vial in her pocket. The serum felt warm against her skin, as if it were alive. Perhaps it was, in its way, a living solution of microscopic soldiers waiting for deployment.
Isabelle lay motionless beneath the thin hospital blanket, her skin nearly translucent in the dim light. Ten years old and disappearing by inches. Her collarbones jutted sharply, her wrists so delicate that Laura could encircle them with her thumb and forefinger. The cancer had hollowed her from the inside out, leaving behind this fragile shell that barely contained her daughter’s fading spirit.
Laura extracted the vial from her pocket, holding it up to catch the light. The liquid inside shimmered with an otherworldly blue-green glow—beautiful and terrifying. Batch 13A. The one that had worked. The one that had made the lab rats stronger, faster, healthier than they’d ever been.
She rolled the vial between her fingers, remembering every step that had led her here. The first job with SHIELD, fresh out of MIT with dreams of changing the world. Howard Stark’s recruitment, his enthusiasm for her research. The decade spent perfecting a formula she’d sworn would serve the greater good.
This was the greater good. This child. Her child.
“I’m sorry,” Laura whispered, her voice barely audible. “I’m sorry for what I’m about to do. I’m sorry for what it might make you.”
She reached for the IV port with steady hands. The serum caught the light one final time as she connected it to the port, the liquid seeming to pulse with anticipation.
Laura hesitated, her thumb hovering over the plunger. For one breathless second, she nearly pulled back.
Then Isabelle’s monitor beeped, her heartbeat faltering before resuming its weak rhythm. The sound sliced through Laura’s hesitation.
“Please forgive me,” she whispered, and pushed the plunger home.
Laura watched, breath suspended, as the blue-green liquid traveled through the clear tubing and into her daughter’s body. There was no immediate reaction—no dramatic convulsions, no sudden awakening. Just the continued shallow rise and fall of Isabelle’s chest.
Laura disposed of the evidence meticulously, wiping down surfaces, removing the empty vial, and resetting the IV. Then she settled back into the chair to wait, her eyes never leaving her daughter’s face.
Outside the window, fireworks began to explode across the sky—distant pops of color announcing the arrival of a new millennium. Laura didn’t watch them.
By dawn, the fever had broken. By noon, color had returned to Isabelle’s cheeks. By evening, she was sitting up, asking for food for the first time in weeks.
The doctors arrived in waves, their faces shifting from professional concern to bewilderment to cautious joy. They ordered tests, consulted specialists, and reviewed results. They used words like “unprecedented” and “spontaneous remission” and, finally, “miracle.”
Laura didn’t correct them. She smiled and nodded and clutched Isabelle’s suddenly warm hand, watching as life flowed back into her daughter’s body hour by hour.
When Tony finally returned, he froze in the doorway, blinking rapidly at the sight of Isabelle sitting up in bed, a half-eaten pudding cup in her hands.
“Happy New Year, Daddy,” Isabelle said, her voice stronger than it had been in months.
Tony’s face crumpled. He crossed the room in three unsteady strides and gathered Isabelle in his arms, burying his face in her hair. “Happy New Year, baby,” he whispered, his voice thick.
He didn’t look at Laura. Didn’t ask what had happened. Didn’t question the miracle.
They were barely holding together by then. Isabelle’s illness had exposed every fault line in their relationship. They weren’t a family anymore—they were survivors orbiting the same dying star.
Except the star wasn’t dying anymore.
There was a knock on her lab door.
Laura didn’t immediately look up. On her monitor, Isabelle’s latest bloodwork glowed in vibrant reds and blues, a constellation of impossible numbers. Hemoglobin levels that shouldn’t exist. White cell counts that defied medical literature. Mitochondrial activity that made Laura’s hands tremble with both pride and terror.
Better than stable. Exceptional.
The knock came again, slightly more insistent.
Laura glanced up, expecting the bored face of a courier or the anxious smile of an intern. Instead, she found Dr. Mei Chen hovering in the doorway. Immunogeneticist. Colleague. One of the few people Laura genuinely respected. One of the few she might even call a friend.
But something was wrong. Mei didn’t step into the lab as she normally would. She stood frozen on the threshold, one hand clutching a paper coffee cup, the other fidgeting with the lanyard around her neck. Her face wore an expression Laura recognized from delivering bad news to patients—that careful mask of professional concern barely concealing genuine distress.
“You got a second?” Mei asked, her voice pitched slightly higher than normal.
Laura nodded, straightening in her chair. She minimized Isabelle’s file with a quick keystroke. “Of course.”
Mei entered, closing the door behind her with deliberate care. She approached Laura’s desk but didn’t sit, instead shifting her weight from one foot to the other.
“I debated even saying anything,” Mei began, her fingers tightening around her coffee cup until the plastic lid creaked. “Told myself it wasn’t my business. That I might be misinterpreting. That it wasn’t my place.”
Laura’s stomach dropped before her brain could process why. “What is it?”
Mei took a deep breath. “It’s about the conference. New Year’s. In Bern.”
The weight in Laura’s spine spread upward, freezing each vertebra one by one. She kept her face carefully neutral. “What about it?” Her voice came out steady. Professional.
“I was there,” Mei said, looking down at her coffee. “Just for the first three days—I had to get back for my nephew’s birthday.” She paused, then lifted her eyes to meet Laura’s. “I saw Tony.”
Laura said nothing. Her throat closed around any possible response.
“He wasn’t alone,” Mei continued, each word careful, measured. “There was a woman with him. A brunette. They looked…” She hesitated, searching for the right word. “Close.”
The lights suddenly seemed too bright, the hum too loud. Laura could feel her pulse in her fingertips, in her temples, in the hollow of her throat.
“I didn’t want to assume anything,” Mei rushed on. “I approached them at the reception. Just to say hello, you know? Professional courtesy.” She swallowed. “When I asked about you—just in passing—he said you’d stayed back for family reasons.”
Laura’s eyes drifted back to her monitor, to the minimized file containing the evidence of what she’d done while Tony was away. The reason she’d “stayed back for family.”
“Then he laughed,” Mei continued, the words coming faster now, “and said something like, ‘You know how it is when you need a vacation from your vacation.’” She set her coffee down on the edge of Laura’s desk, both hands now free to gesture helplessly. “The woman was hanging on his arm the whole time, Laura. And he was—” She stopped herself.
“Drunk?” Laura supplied the word flat.
Mei’s silence was answer enough.
Laura stared at the monitor, at the tiny icon that held Isabelle’s miracle. Her salvation. The proof of what Laura had become capable of while her husband was in another country, in another woman’s bed.
“It didn’t sit right with me,” Mei said finally. “Not saying something. Not when we’ve been friends for so long.” She hesitated. “I’m sorry.”
The silence stretched between them, taut as a wire.
“Thank you,” Laura said at last, her voice hollow. “For telling me.”
Mei nodded, clearly uncertain whether to say more. After a moment, she reached out and squeezed Laura’s shoulder—a brief, awkward gesture of solidarity—before turning to leave. The door clicked shut behind her with the same terrible finality.
The lab went quiet again, save for the buzzing lights and the soft whir of computer fans.
Laura sat motionless, her eyes fixed on the screen but seeing nothing. A strange calm settled over her, the kind that comes not from peace but from the eye of a storm. She’d suspected, of course. The late nights. The perfume that wasn’t hers. The way Tony looked through her rather than at her these days.
But suspecting was different from knowing.
She found the receipts that night, tucked between pages of a quarterly report Tony had left splayed on his desk. Not hidden—that would have required effort, would have required him to think of her as someone worth hiding from. Just carelessly left, like she was an afterthought even in his deception.
Laura’s fingers trembled as she spread them across the polished mahogany. Hotel charges in Switzerland. Room service for two. One dinner described in meticulous detail: grilled lamb, saffron risotto, and champagne for the new year. Two desserts. Two coffees. Two of everything, except the man who should have been by his daughter’s hospital bed.
The paper crinkled as her grip tightened. She traced the looping signature at the bottom—Tony’s careless scrawl, the same one she’d seen on anniversary cards and medical consent forms for Isabelle’s treatments. The same hand that had apparently been wrapped around a champagne flute while Isabelle fought for her life.
Laura didn’t tear them up. Didn’t burn them. She folded each receipt with scientific precision, creasing them into perfect squares, and placed them in her pocket. Then she returned to Isabelle’s room and watched her sleep, counting each miraculous breath, each beat of her newly strong heart.
She waited two more days. Let the knowledge fester inside her like rust under chrome, corroding everything it touched. All while carrying those receipts like stones in her pocket.
Then, when Isabelle was asleep, tucked safely in her own bed for the first time in months, Laura confronted him.
She found Tony in his workshop, whiskey in hand, AC/DC blaring as he tinkered with some new prototype. The familiar scene struck her as obscene now—his normalcy in the face of what she knew.
She moved to the stereo and ripped the plug out of the wall.
Tony looked up, irritation flashing across his face before settling into the distant politeness they’d adopted with each other. “I’m in the middle of something, Laura.”
She tossed the receipts onto his workbench. They scattered across blueprints and tools, white squares against metal and grease.
“So was she,” Laura said, her voice deadly quiet. “Our daughter. While you were in Switzerland.”
Tony’s eyes flickered to the receipts, then back to her face. Something shifted in his expression—not guilt, not exactly. Resignation, perhaps. The look of a man who’d been waiting for this moment.
“Let’s not do this,” he said, reaching for his whiskey.
Laura knocked the glass from his hand. It shattered against the concrete floor, amber liquid splashing across her shoes, the scent of expensive bourbon rising between them.
“She was dying, Tony,” she said through clenched teeth, each word precise as a scalpel. “Our baby. She was dying, and you were fucking someone else over fondue?”
Tony’s jaw tightened. He stood, pushing away from the workbench, his movements sharp with anger. “You think I didn’t carry that with me every second? You think I don’t know what I am?”
“I don’t think you know anything,” Laura hissed. “I don’t think you’ve been present for a single moment of her illness. Not really.”
“That’s rich, coming from you.” His laugh was brittle. “Where were you, Laura? Physically there, sure—but where was your mind? In the lab. Always in the fucking lab. Running tests like our daughter was a math problem you could solve if you just found the right equation.”
“Don’t you dare.” Laura’s voice dropped to a whisper. “Don’t you dare make this about my work when I was trying to save her life.”
“And I was trying to save mine!” Tony shouted, the words exploding from him. “I was drowning, Laura—drowning. Every day watching her waste away, watching you disappear into your research, into that cold, clinical world where everything has a solution if you’re just smart enough to find it.”
“So you ran.” Laura’s lip curled. “Like you always do. Like you did when your parents died. Like you’ve done every time something gets too hard or too real. While I was here, trying to hold us together.” She reached into her pocket, pulled out one last receipt—the dinner, with its champagne and desserts for two. She crumpled it in her fist.
“You want to talk about exits?” Tony laughed, the sound sharp enough to cut through the air. “How many nights did I sit alone with her while you worked? How many bedtime stories did I read while you chased your miracle cure? Don’t pretend you were there, Laura. You checked out the moment the first diagnosis came in. You just did it with a lab coat and a microscope instead of a plane ticket.”
“You were supposed to be her father,” she said, voice splintering, shaking with too many emotions to name. “Not some cliché with a bar tab and a midlife crisis.”
Tony flinched as if she’d struck him. “And you were supposed to be her mother,” he said quietly. “Not her doctor.”
The silence that followed was deafening. They stared at each other across the workshop, two people who had once shared everything—a bed, a life, a child—now separated by an ocean of unspoken grievances.
Then, from upstairs, the soft pad of bare feet on the landing. Laura’s stomach dropped. She turned toward the stairwell, already knowing what she would see.
Isabelle stood at the top of the stairs, barefoot, blinking sleep from her eyes. Her thin frame was swallowed by her oversized pajamas—pajamas that had fit her before the illness had stolen so much weight. She clutched her stuffed giraffe by the neck, its long legs dangling against her knees.
“Mom? Dad?” Her voice was small, uncertain.
Tony stepped forward instinctively, one hand reaching toward their daughter. “Hey, Izzy-bell. Everything’s okay. Mommy and Daddy were just having a grown-up talk.”
Isabelle’s eyes filled with tears, her lower lip trembling. “Are you fighting because I was sick?”
Laura’s eyes widened. She moved between them, blocking Tony’s path to the stairs. She glanced back at Tony, saw the same gut-punched expression on his face.
“No, baby,” Laura said, softening her voice. “This isn’t about you. It’s about grown-up things.”
“I heard you.” Isabelle’s voice wavered. “You were talking about me.”
Tony took another step forward. “Izzy—”
“You need to leave,” Laura cut him off. Her voice didn’t rise. It didn’t need to. The cold finality in it was enough.
“Laura, come on.” Tony’s eyes darted between her and Isabelle. “Let’s not do this in front of her.”
“Get out.” Laura didn’t look at him. She kept her eyes on Isabelle, on the tears now spilling down her daughter’s cheeks. “Now.”
For a moment, she thought he might argue. Might fight for his place in this house, in their lives. Part of her wanted him to—wanted some sign that he cared enough to stay and face the mess they’d made.
But he didn’t. He grabbed his keys from the workbench, snatched his jacket from the back of a chair. “I’ll call tomorrow,” he said, his voice rough. “When you’re calmer.” He paused at the bottom of the stairs, looking up at Isabelle. “I love you, squirt. More than anything. You know that, right?”
Isabelle didn’t answer. She just clutched her giraffe tighter, tears streaming silently down her face.
Tony’s shoulders slumped. He cast one last look at Laura—something complicated and wounded in his eyes—before turning and walking out.
The silence after was different.
Not peaceful. Not empty.
Just broken.
Spring 2000
The house was too quiet.
Laura stood at the kitchen sink, hands braced against the cool porcelain, staring at her reflection in the darkened window. The divorce papers had arrived last Monday, tucked between a medical journal and a utility bill.
Final. Irrevocable.
She’d signed them without hesitation, controlled slash across the dotted line. Now Tony was officially gone—fled to Malibu with its endless sunshine and beautiful, uncomplicated women. A place where daughters didn’t nearly die and wives didn’t commit unforgivable acts of science.
Her untouched glass of cabernet sat on the counter, the wine so dark it looked black in the dim kitchen light. Laura lifted it, watching the liquid cling to the sides of the glass before settling.
The refrigerator hummed. The heating system clicked on with a soft whoosh. Somewhere upstairs, Isabelle shifted in her sleep, the old floorboards creaking beneath her bed.
Laura closed her eyes, focusing on that sound. Her daughter—alive, healing, changed. The serum had worked beyond her wildest expectations. Too well, perhaps. The last round of bloodwork revealed cellular regeneration rates that defied conventional medical understanding.
What have I done to her?
The light above the sink flickered.
Once.
Twice.
Laura’s muscles tensed. Something cold slithered down her spine—an instinct older than reason. She wasn’t alone.
She turned, wineglass still clutched in her fingers, and saw the shadows by the refrigerator move. Not the natural shift of darkness, but something deliberate. Purposeful. A deeper black peeling away from the wall.
A figure stepped into the dim light. No sound. No rushed breathing. Just a sudden presence where emptiness had been seconds before. Something far worse.
The overhead light caught a metallic gleam where his left arm should have been. Plates shifted silently as he flexed his fingers, the motion smooth. His face remained half-hidden behind dark goggles and a mask, but Laura could feel his gaze—cold, assessing, inhuman.
“Who—” The word died in her throat.
Laura lunged for the kitchen phone, fingers clawing at the receiver. Her other hand scrabbled across the counter for a knife, a pan, anything. Adrenaline flooded her system, heart hammering against her ribs, mouth gone desert-dry.
He moved.
One moment he stood six feet away, the next he was upon her. No transition, no warning—just a sudden, overwhelming presence. His metal hand closed around her wrist with mechanical precision, applying exactly enough pressure to make her gasp in pain. The wineglass slipped from her fingers, shattering against the tile in a spray of burgundy and crystal.
She tried to scream for help, for Isabelle to run—but his other hand clamped over her mouth, the leather of his glove carrying the scent of gunpowder. He forced her backward, shoving her into a kitchen chair with terrifying control. Not a violent thrust. Not a careless toss. A calculated placement, as if she were a chess piece being positioned.
His grip never wavered. Never tightened beyond what was necessary. Never betrayed emotion or urgency.
That was the most frightening thing—the absolute efficiency. She wasn’t being attacked. She was being processed.
Laura’s gaze darted to the ceiling, toward Isabelle’s room. The intruder followed her look, then returned his attention to her face. A silent message passed between them: Make a sound, and it won’t be just you.
He released her mouth but kept his metal hand wrapped around her wrist, the plates whirring almost inaudibly as they adjusted to her pulse. Laura could feel bruises blooming beneath his fingers, blood vessels rupturing under the precise pressure.
The cabernet pooled around the broken glass at their feet, spreading like blood across the white tile. Laura watched it seep into the grout lines, staining them crimson. She couldn’t look at his face—at the emptiness she sensed behind those goggles.
“My daughter is upstairs,” Laura whispered, a mother’s desperate prayer in the dark. “Please.”
He tilted his head slightly, the gesture more mechanical than human. His metal fingers tightened incrementally around her wrist, and Laura bit her lip to keep from crying out.
His breath came steadily behind the mask. Unhurried. Untroubled. The breathing of someone who had all the time in the world and no concern about what might happen next.
Footsteps in the hallway broke the terrible silence—measured, confident steps that didn’t bother with stealth. The intruder didn’t react, didn’t turn. He simply maintained his grip, as if whoever approached was expected.
A second figure appeared in the kitchen doorway, and Laura felt her world tilt sideways. Alexander Pierce stood there in an immaculate charcoal suit, not a hair out of place, looking for all the world like he’d arrived for a scheduled appointment rather than a home invasion. His presence—her boss, the Secretary of the World Security Council—made this nightmare suddenly, horrifically real.
“Secretary Pierce?” The words stumbled from her mouth, breathless with disbelief. Her eyes darted between Pierce’s calm demeanor and the masked figure still gripping her wrist. “Wh—what are you—what’s going on?” Her voice fractured on the final syllable.
Pierce smiled, the same reassuring smile he used at board meetings, at fundraisers, when convincing the Council to increase research funding. He stepped fully into the kitchen, careful to avoid the spreading wine stain.
“Good evening, Dr. Proctor,” he said, his tone conversational, as though they’d bumped into each other at a conference. His gaze swept over the broken glass, the masked intruder, and her trembling form, showing not a flicker of concern. “Don’t worry. This won’t take long.”
Laura’s stomach clenched, bile rising in her throat. The room seemed to contract around her, air thinning until each breath burned.
“Isabelle’s upstairs,” she gasped, hating how her voice shook, hating the weakness it revealed. “Please, whatever—”
Pierce raised a hand, the gesture almost paternal in its gentleness. “No one’s going to hurt your daughter,” he said mildly, as if soothing an irrational fear. His eyes, however, remained cold. “Provided you cooperate.”
The metal-armed man shifted his weight slightly. Not a fidget—he seemed incapable of such human restlessness—but a deliberate repositioning. A silent communication passed between him and Pierce.
Laura couldn’t stop shaking.
“What the hell is this?” she demanded, a spark of anger finally cutting through her fear. “Why are you in my home?” Her gaze fixed on the masked figure. “Who is he?”
Pierce glanced at the intruder with something like pride in his eyes. He reached out and placed a hand on the metal shoulder, the gesture almost affectionate. The masked man didn’t react, didn’t lean into the touch or pull away. He simply continued his mechanical surveillance, his focus never wavering from Laura.
“My insurance policy,” Pierce said softly. “My asset. My guarantee that what we discuss tonight will remain between us.” He smiled again, all teeth and no warmth. “For Isabelle’s sake.”
The masked man’s metal fingers adjusted their grip once more. Laura felt the subtle increase in pressure—not a threat, but a promise.
Laura’s eyes darted to the ceiling, then back to Pierce. In that moment, she knew with bone-deep certainty that she would do anything—betray any oath, commit any crime—to keep that monster’s metal hand from ever touching her daughter.
“What do you want?” she whispered, defeat and determination mingling in her voice.
Pierce’s smile widened, satisfaction gleaming in his eyes. “That’s better,” he said, pulling out the chair across from her.
He settled into the seat with the casual grace of someone arriving for dinner rather than an interrogation. “You’re a smart woman, Laura,” Pierce said, his voice carrying the practiced warmth of a politician. “That’s why Howard recruited you. That’s why he backed your lab.” His eyes hardened, the false warmth evaporating. “But somewhere along the way, you started making decisions that weren’t yours to make.”
“What are you talking about?” Laura asked, though the ice spreading through her chest already knew the answer.
“The serum.” Pierce’s voice dropped lower, intimate now, as if sharing a secret between colleagues. “The one you synthesized off-record. The one you tested without authorization.” His gaze flicked upward, toward the ceiling—toward Isabelle’s room. “On your daughter.”
Laura’s lungs seized. The room tilted slightly, the edges of her vision darkening. “How did you—”
“You stole government property,” Pierce interrupted, leaning forward. The movement brought his face closer to hers. “You conducted an unauthorized human trial using volatile biotechnology. On a child.”
“She was dying.” The words burst from Laura, raw and desperate. Her hands clenched into fists beneath the table, nails biting into her palms. “Nothing was working. The cancer was—” Her voice cracked. “I saved her.”
“You compromised her,” Pierce corrected, the words precise as a scalpel. “You turned her into something else entirely.” He paused, letting the accusation settle between them. “She needs to come with me.”
“No.” The single syllable tore from Laura’s throat, primal and fierce. Her body tensed, maternal instinct overwhelming even her terror of the metal-armed man beside her. “She’s mine.”
“That’s where you’re mistaken.” Pierce delivered the words with the calm certainty of someone confirming the weather forecast. No malice, no cruelty—just fact.
Laura froze, her breath caught in her chest.
“She’s SHIELD property now.” Pierce tilted his head slightly. “Or rather—Hydra’s.”
The word hung in the air between them, impossible and horrifying.
“What...?” Laura whispered, the sound barely formed. Her mind raced to process what he’d said, to fit this new reality into her understanding of the world. Hydra was gone—destroyed decades ago, a ghost story from Howard’s war days. Not this. Not now. Not in her kitchen, with her daughter sleeping upstairs.
Pierce’s smile finally turned cruel, the mask of civility slipping to reveal something cold beneath. “Oh, Laura,” he said, his voice almost pitying. “You didn’t really think we were working on vaccines for the greater good, did you?”
She stared at him, her eyes wide with confusion—no, denial. The edges of her world were crumbling, foundations she’d built her life upon dissolving beneath her feet.
“Please,” she whispered, looking directly into Pierce’s eyes, searching for any hint of humanity. “Please don’t take her. I’ll do anything.”
Pierce paused. Considered.
“I believe you,” he said finally, the words hanging between promise and threat. He turned to the masked figure, gesturing lazily toward the stairs. “He was ordered to retrieve her. Extraction.”
The masked man didn’t speak. He didn’t need to, as he waited for a command. Pierce nodded almost, and the figure took a step toward the stairs, boot making a soft thud against the tile as he dropped his old on Laura.
“No!” Laura lunged forward, nearly knocking over her chair. Her pulse thundered in her ears, drowning out everything but the need to protect. “Please. She’s just a child. She didn’t choose this. I did.”
Pierce studied her, head tilted slightly, as if examining a particularly interesting lab specimen. “You did,” he agreed, his voice soft. “And I thank you for it.”
A smile spread across his face, genuine in its satisfaction. Pierce continued, his voice taking on an almost dreamy quality. “Do you have any idea what we could accomplish with her? The perfect soldier—young enough to be molded, strong enough to withstand what’s coming.” He glanced at the masked figure. “Imagine a whole division of operatives with her capabilities, but with his loyalty.”
The masked man remained motionless until Pierce nodded again. The masked figure took another step toward the stairs. The movement was fluid, predatory—a wolf advancing on unprotected prey.
“Wait!” Laura’s voice cracked with desperation. She stepped between the figure and the staircase, hands raised. “She isn’t stable. The serum—it’s not perfected yet.”
Pierce’s eyebrows rose slightly. “She cured herself from terminal cancer overnight,” he said, amusement coloring his tone. “I’d say that’s fairly stable.”
“No, you don’t understand.” Laura’s mind raced, searching for anything that might delay them, might give her time. “The cellular regeneration is unpredictable. There are complications—side effects I haven’t documented yet. Her immune system is in flux.” The lies tumbled from her lips, each more desperate than the last. “She could deteriorate at any moment. I’ve been monitoring her closely, administering stabilizers—”
“Laura.” Pierce’s voice carried a warning. “Don’t insult my intelligence.”
“I’m telling you the truth.” She forced conviction into her voice, drawing on every ounce of scientific authority she possessed. “The serum integration is incomplete. Her body is still adapting. If you take her now, before I’ve finished the stabilization protocol, you risk losing everything.”
A flicker of uncertainty crossed Pierce’s face—so brief she almost missed it.
“I can fix it,” Laura pressed, sensing the hairline crack in his resolve. “I wasn’t done—the sequence wasn’t fully stabilized. I can make it better, make her better.” She swallowed hard. “Just... give me time.”
A beat of silence stretched between them. Pierce studied her face, searching for any signs of deception. Laura’s mouth parted, but no sound came. She was shaking now, fine tremors running through her body, adrenaline and terror making her limbs feel hollow.
“I’ll give you time,” Pierce said finally. “Time to make her perfect for us.” His eyes hardened. “In the meantime, you’ll be monitored. Every hour. Every output. Dr. Nagel will oversee your research going forward.”
Wilfred Nagel. Her colleague. The one who’d suggested pediatric testing. Another Hydra plant, watching her all along.
“And if you tell anyone,” Pierce continued, his voice dropping to a near whisper, “stop your work, try to run...” He nodded toward the masked figure, the gesture almost casual. “He’ll find you. And next time, he won’t be coming for a conversation.”
Then, just like that, they were gone. No dramatic exit. No threats. They simply left.
The room was silent again.
Laura collapsed to her knees, her body folding in on itself. She shook so violently her teeth chattered, her bones aching with the force of it. And something cold, something heavy, rooted itself in Laura’s chest. A terrible knowledge. A poison seed.
This was the cost. Not the research. Not the science.
Her.
If she had never met Tony, never fallen in love, never gotten pregnant, her work wouldn’t be in the hands of monsters. She wouldn’t be shackled to her own creation. She wouldn’t be kneeling on her kitchen floor, begging for her daughter’s life.
She pressed her hand to her mouth to stop the sound of her breaking.
The scientist in her—the part that had always sought order, answers, solutions—began to work even as the mother in her wept. She would find a way out of this. She would protect her daughter.
Even if it meant becoming the monster herself.
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She walks through the door, soaked and silent, clutching a journal like it might burn her.
The rain’s still falling, but whatever storm is coming—it's already inside.The truth is out. What Laura did. What Bucky saw.
And Isabelle can’t outrun any of it now.
Not the past. Not what it made her. Not what it cost.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 49: Name on the List
Chapter 49: Name on the List
Summary:
She thought her name was on Bucky’s list because of what he did.
Turns out, it’s because of what he saw. What he was ordered to watch.When Isabelle walks back into the safehouse, rain-soaked and silent, everything shifts.
Zemo recognizes the journal in her hand. Sam can’t get a read. And Bucky—Bucky already knows something’s wrong.The truth inside her mother’s journal rewrites everything Isabelle thought she understood about her past.
About why she survived. About who she became.
And about the man who’s been on the fringes of her story from the beginning.Some ghosts you can’t fight.
Some you share.
Notes:
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Rain pummeled Isabelle as she trudged through Riga’s cobblestone streets, each drop striking her skin like tiny needles. She barely noticed. The leather-bound journal pressed against her chest, protected beneath her jacket, its weight heavier than any weapon she’d ever carried.
January 1st, 2000
Isabelle responded well to the first serum iteration last night. Fever has subsided after 6 hours. Blood count normalizing. First time I’ve seen her smile in months.
For a decade, I’ve been chasing Erskine’s ghost. But now I’ve finally decided on my own name. Belladonna. Deadly nightshade. Beautiful and poisonous. Like the flower. Like her.
Isabelle doesn’t know it, but it’s running through her veins now. The serum. The rebirth. And if I’ve done this right, it’ll make her untouchable. Unkillable.
Isabelle’s boots splashed through a puddle, sending water cascading over her already soaked ankles. She didn’t flinch.
May 3rd, 2001
The Soldier appeared again today.
Pierce says he’s what he wants Isabelle to one day become. I smiled and nodded while my stomach turned. Not my daughter. Never my daughter.
I saw the emptiness behind his eyes. That mechanical stare. The way he moved was like something wearing human skin. When Pierce had him demonstrate combat techniques on a prisoner, I watched how he never hesitated, never questioned. Just executed.
Is that what they want from her?
My bright, stubborn girl who still sleeps with a nightlight and that ratty stuff giraffe.
Her fingers tightened around the journal, knuckles white beneath pale skin. Water streamed down her face. Rain or tears? She couldn’t distinguish anymore. The cold had seeped into her bones, but Isabelle welcomed the numbness. Better than the alternative. The brushing weight of understanding that threatened to collapse her chest from the inside out.
September 21th 2001,
Isabelle asked about her father today. Said the other kids at school have dads coming to the piano recital. I told her Tony’s busy. But the truth is I haven’t returned his calls in months and when I do, I tell him Isabelle doesn’t want to see him. What would I say? “Sorry, I’ve been injecting our daughter with experimental compounds derived from classified Soviet research?”
He’d take her away.
He should take her away.
But I can’t lose her. I won’t.
Isabelle remembered that recital. The black and white keys cold beneath her fingertips as she’d played. The audience was blurred except for two empty seats in the front row. Laura had claimed to work late.
“Your father’s at a conference in Tokyo,” she’d said that morning, not meeting Isabelle’s eyes as she braided her hair. “He sends his love.”
Isabelle had nodded, swallowing the lump in her throat. She’d known better than to cry by then.
But then Rhodey had appeared in the back of the auditorium, tall and striking in his Air Force uniform, fresh off a flight. After her performance, he’d knelt before her, his smile genuine as he’d presented her with a bouquet.
“You know I wouldn’t miss this for anything,” he’d said. He’d taken a dozen photos of her clutching the blue ribbon she’d won and bought her double-scoop ice cream afterward.
Had that been why Tony never came? Not work conferences, emergencies, or the thousand other excuses Laura had offered. But Laura herself—deliberately keeping them apart. Feeding Tony lies about a daughter who didn’t want him, feeding Isabelle stories about a father too busy to care.
The realization burned like acid through her chest.
December 12, 2002
I hit her today. My own daughter. I keep replaying it, seeing it, watching her stumble back. The shock in her eyes. Those eyes, Tony’s eyes, staring back at me like I was a stranger.
She just wouldn’t listen. Kept pushing and pushing about that stupid sleepover at Ollie’s house. She wouldn’t listen. After everything I’ve sacrificed to protect her. To make her better. To keep her safe. Healthy.
I’ve just increased her dosage. The cellular response needs constant monitoring. Her temperature spiked to 102.3 last night before stabilizing. What if she had a seizure at Ollie’s? What if someone called an ambulance? What if they took her away?
When I said no, she slammed her bedroom door. I followed her, tried to explain, but something in me just…snapped. I gathered her in my arms afterward, both of us crying. My brilliant, beautiful girl with the bruise forming on her cheek. I kissed her hair and promised it would never happen again. Told her I was just scared for her health. That mommy was sorry, so sorry.
She’s almost ready. Her body accepts dose after dose, like she was made for it. But I need more time before they can have her. Need to perfect the formula, strengthen the psychological barriers. If they’re going to take her from me, she’ll be unstoppable. Untouchable. They’ll never be able to break her the way they broke him.
Tonight, after she fell asleep, I sat by her bed watching her breathe. Counted the freckles across her nose—seventeen, just like always. Straightened that ratty giraffe she still clutches when she dreams.
What kind of mother am I becoming?
But I can’t stop now. I’ve gone too far. And if I don’t finish this, they’ll just find someone else who will. Someone who doesn’t love her. At least this way, she has a chance.
A car horn blared as Isabelle stepped off a curb without looking. She jerked back from the curb, her body moving on pure survival instinct while her mind remained submerged in her mother’s words. The tires of a taxi skidded against wet cobblestone, sending a wave of dirty water over her already soaked boots.
“Muļķīga meitene!” the driver shouted, his face contorted with anger behind rain-streaked windows. “Skatieties, kur ejat!”
The words barely registered as Isabelle stumbled back onto the sidewalk, rain streaming down her face and neck, seeping beneath her collar.
July 7th, 2003
Tony called again today. Third time this week. His voice on the answering machine grates against my nerves, demanding to see her, as if he has any right to do so. As if he’s earned it. I deleted the message before Isabelle could hear it. She doesn’t need his interference. Not now. Not when we’re so close.
She found out he called. I don’t know how. But now, the accusations pour out of her. How I’m keeping them apart. How I’m lying. Such disrespect after everything I’ve done for her. Everything I give her. She doesn’t understand how lucky she is to be alive at all.
When she threatened to call him back, the slap wasn’t emotional this time. It was necessary. And for once, she fell silent.
She doesn’t appreciate what I’ve done for her, what I continue to do. The ingratitude is... disappointing. But it doesn’t matter. Perfection doesn’t require gratitude. Only compliance.
Tomorrow I’ll increase her dosage again. The serum is stabilizing her cellular structure, hardening her against what’s coming. She’ll thank me someday. Or she won’t. Either way, she’ll survive.
That’s more than Tony would have managed.
Isabelle stood for a second longer on the sidewalk, remembering the sharp crack of her mother’s palm connecting with her cheek. The sting that bloomed across her skin like wildfire. But it wasn’t the pain that haunted her the most. It was what came after. The way Laura’s eyes had gone flat and cold. Nothing remained of the woman who’d once sung her to sleep, who’d braided her hair with gentle fingers, who’d whispered “my brilliant girl” against her forehead. How Laura had simply handed her the pill and a glass of water, watching with clinical detachment as Isabelle swallowed it down.
No tears. No apologies.
She remembered how Laura had watched her throat work, eyes tracking the movement with calculated interest, then nodded once—satisfied—before turning away.
“She did it to save me,” Isabelle whispered, the words dissolving into the rain before they fully formed. Her voice sounded foreign to her own ears—hollow and distant, like it belonged to someone else. All of that... was her mother’s twisted way of saving her?
A violent shudder wracked her body as she moved to cross the street, this time looking both ways.
She had sat in that corner cafe for over an hour, hunched over the journal, pages turning beneath trembling fingers as years of her mother’s life, of her own life, unfolded before her. How Laura met Tony. Their whirlwind romance. The pregnancy Laura hadn’t planned for but ultimately embraced. The early years. The good years, even with the bad. And then, when Isabelle had been diagnosed.
She barely remembered that time. She’d been so young... so sick. Just fragments remained: the metallic taste of medication coating her tongue. The cold hospital sheets against her feverish skin. Her father’s forced smile as he brought her a new stuffed animal and chocolate each visit, his eyes red-rimmed from crying in the hallway where he thought she couldn’t hear. The arguments between her parents escalated from whispers to shouts to silence.
She remembered the pain. How it—how she—broke their family.
Isabelle swallowed hard, tasting copper. She’d bitten the inside of her cheek without realizing it. The pain was almost welcome—something tangible to focus on instead of the storm inside her head.
It was something none of them talked about anymore. Not really. Not her, not Tony, not Rhodey. Like the years themselves had gone radioactive, too painful to approach. Of all the Avengers, only two had ever heard the truth. Steve and Natasha. And they’d never pushed her for more.
But now she knew. Her mother hadn’t been a monster. At least, not at first. She’d been desperate. Terrified. A scientist watching her daughter die by inches, powerless to stop it with conventional medicine.
So she’d turned to unconventional means.
Isabelle’s knees nearly buckled. She stumbled to a nearby building, pressing her back against the cold stone, needing something solid to anchor her as the world tilted on its axis.
A sob clawed its way up Isabelle’s throat, but she forced it back down. Her mother had saved her life. Had given her a future when the doctors knew there was none. Had experimented on her own child, yes, but with the desperate love of a mother refusing to bury her daughter.
And yet.
The slaps. The cold detachment. The isolation. The lies about Tony. The way Laura had systematically dismantled any relationship Isabelle might have had with her father. How was she supposed to feel? Grateful? Betrayed? Both crashed through her like warring tides, neither gaining ground.
“I’m alive because of you,” she whispered to the ghost of her mother. “I’m a monster because of you.”
Which was the greater sin? Creating a monster or letting a child die? Isabelle didn’t know. Couldn’t know. She’d spent decades hating her mother for keeping her from Tony. For the coldness, the distance. For turning her into a lab rat instead of raising her as a daughter.
But Laura had been trying to protect her. In her twisted, broken way, she’d been fighting for Isabelle. Against cancer. Against HYDRA. Against a world that would use her daughter as a weapon.
She’d failed. Of course, she’d failed. In saving Isabelle’s life, she’d destroyed everything else—her marriage, her humanity, her relationship with her daughter. She’d become the very thing she feared: someone who saw Isabelle as a project rather than a person.
“What am I supposed to do with this? How am I supposed to feel?” The rain offered no answers. Neither did the journal clutched against her chest, its pages holding the truth but no absolution.
Isabelle pushed herself off the wall, legs unsteady beneath her. She needed to keep moving. Standing still meant thinking, and thinking meant facing the impossible contradiction her life had become: she was alive because her mother had been willing to become a monster.
And now, Isabelle was both the monster and the child. The experiment and the beloved daughter, the weapon and the girl who still sometimes woke, reaching for a ratty stuffed giraffe she’d long since outgrown.
She stepped back into the downpour, letting it wash over her face, mingling with tears she could no longer hold back.
The door to the safehouse creaked open, letting in a gust of cold air and the persistent patter of rain. Sam didn’t look up from his laptop, fingers tapping furiously as he scrolled through surveillance footage.
“About time,” he muttered, eyes fixed on the screen. “I think I might have something on Karli’s location. There’s this abandoned factory district—”
Bucky pushed away from the wall where he’d been leaning, his posture shifting from casual vigilance to something more alert. Across the room from him, Zemo paused mid-pour, the steaming tea suspended between pot and cup.
Sam finally glanced up, following Bucky’s gaze to the doorway. “What—”
The question died on his lips.
Isabelle stood frozen at the threshold like something half-drowned and hollowed out. Rain cascaded from her hair in rivulets, light strands against her pale face. Her clothes clung to her frame, water pooling beneath her boots on the wooden floor. The duffel bag hung from one shoulder at an awkward angle, but it was the small journal clutched in her white-knuckled grip that drew the eye. She’d clearly protected it beneath her jacket, though water had darkened its edges.
“Iz?” Sam’s voice shifted, the mission-focused tone giving way to something softer. He closed his laptop with a snap. “You okay?”
She didn’t answer. Didn’t move. Her face was drained of color, almost translucent under the overhead lights. Though rain streamed down her cheeks, the unmistakable redness around her eyes told a different story. Isabelle Stark—who’d faced down aliens and super soldiers without flinching, who’d once told Steve Rogers to his face that she didn’t “do emotional breakdowns”—had been crying.
Bucky crossed the room in three long strides, stopping just short of touching her. His eyes tracked over her methodically, searching for injuries, threats, anything that might explain the hollow look in her eyes. He’d seen that expression before—in the mirror, after remembering something particularly brutal from his time as the Soldier.
“What happened?” Bucky asked, voice low and careful. The gentleness in his tone was reserved for rare moments—for the fragments of himself he’d pieced back together in Wakanda.
Isabelle’s gaze finally focused on him, really seeing him for the first time since she’d entered. Her lips parted, but no sound emerged. She swallowed hard, her throat working visibly beneath pale skin.
“I don’t—” Her voice cracked. She cleared her throat and tried again. “I don’t know what to do with this.” She lifted the journal slightly, as if its weight had become unbearable, water droplets sliding from its leather binding to join the puddle forming at her feet.
Zemo set his teapot down with a soft clink against the counter. His eyes narrowed with recognition as they fixed on the journal in Isabelle’s trembling hands.
“Ah,” he said softly, a note of understanding coloring his voice. “You read it.” He moved with deliberate casualness, pouring steaming amber liquid into a delicate cup. “Doctor Proctor’s journal. I found it in Nagel’s lab.” His gaze flicked to Sam and Bucky.
Bucky’s jaw tightened, his metal hand flexing at his side. Sam shot Zemo a warning look before turning his attention back to Isabelle. He stepped closer, concern etching deep lines across his forehead.
“The Wakandans showed up while you were gone. They’re giving us twenty-four hours before they take Zemo in.” He gestured toward his laptop. “We’ve got a lead on Karli, but—” He stopped, finally registering that Isabelle wasn’t tracking the conversation. Her eyes remained unfocused, staring through rather than at them. “Izzy. Talk to us. What’s going on?”
That made Isabelle lift her eyes, finally, just enough to glance at him. Her expression was unreadable, devoid of the sharp wit and barely contained fury that typically animated her features. There was no heat behind it. No anger. Just something hollowed out. Something drained.
She let her duffel slide from her shoulder. It hit the floor with a soft thump. Then she looked at Bucky.
And the moment their eyes met, the world seemed to still. Sam said something, maybe a question—maybe her name—but Isabelle didn’t hear it. All she saw was Bucky. The man who had saved her life in Madripoor. The man she trusted. The man who had haunted her history long before either of them knew it.
Sam stepped forward, hand outstretched but not quite touching her. “Izzy, maybe you should sit down—”
“I was dying,” Isabelle cut him off, words tumbling out now as if a dam had broken. Her voice was raw, stripped of its usual defensive layers. “Leukemia.” Her gaze darted between Sam and Bucky, landing on the latter’s face with a desperate intensity. “I never told you—never said anything...”
Sam froze, hand still suspended in mid-air, shock washing over his features.
“I was nine,” she continued, each word dragged from somewhere deep and painful. “Nothing was working.” Her fingers tightened around the journal until her knuckles whitened. A drop of water fell from her hair, sliding down her cheek like a tear. “So she did something they couldn’t do. Something no one should do.”
Rain continued to drip from her clothes, creating a growing puddle at her feet. None of them moved to get her a towel. None of them dared break the moment.
“She saved your life,” Zemo observed from across the room, teacup still cradled between his elegant fingers, “with the serum.” There was no judgment in his tone, just a quiet understanding that made Bucky’s jaw clench. His eyes held that peculiar intensity that always made Isabelle feel like he was dissecting her, layer by layer.
“She turned me into a lab rat,” Isabelle countered, but there was no heat in it. Just exhaustion. The words hung in the air, hollow and insufficient to capture the magnitude of what she’d discovered. She swallowed hard, her throat working visibly beneath pale skin. “She—” Her voice cracked, the sound raw and exposed in the quiet room. “She was trying to keep me from becoming him.” Her eyes flicked to Bucky.
Bucky went very still, the way he did when he was processing something painful—not the stillness of a predator, but of a man bracing himself against a blow.
“HYDRA found out what she did. That it worked. Convinced them not to take me until I was perfect.” A tremor ran through her body that had nothing to do with her wet clothes. “She was trying to make me strong enough to resist them if they ever got their hands on me. She thought if the serum was perfect, if I was perfect, they couldn’t break me the way they broke you.”
Bucky’s eyes darkened with understanding, with memory, with a pain so familiar it seemed to create a current between them.
Sam moved closer, concern etched across his features. The floorboards creaked beneath his boots. “Isabelle—” His voice was soft, the voice he used for veterans at the VA, for people teetering on edges.
“She became the monster to keep me from becoming one,” Isabelle whispered, cutting him off. Her eyes were too bright, feverish against her pale skin. “And I became one anyway.”
The silence that followed was deafening.
Zemo watched from his position by the counter, eyes computing but not unkind. Sam stood frozen, caught between moving forward and giving her space. It was Bucky who finally broke the silence.
“You’re not a monster, Izzy,” he said, voice rough with emotion. The nickname—so casual from Sam, never said from him—fell from his lips like a promise. “Trust me. I know what monsters look like.”
She looked up at him, really looked, her gaze suddenly sharp, almost feverish.
“Do you?” she asked, meeting his eyes with an intensity that would have made most men step back. “Because I just spent an hour reading about how my mother deliberately crafted me into a weapon. How she increased my dosages when I misbehaved. How she isolated me from anyone who might have noticed what she was doing.” Her voice rose slightly, the words tumbling out faster now. “How she hit me when I asked about my father too many times.”
Sam sucked in a breath. “Jesus, Izzy.”
“And the worst part?” Isabelle continued, her voice cracking. “The worst part is that I understand why she did it. I understand all of it. If she hadn’t, I’d be dead.” The words hung in the air, stark and undeniable. “If she hadn’t done it, HYDRA would have taken me anyway and made me into something worse.” Her eyes flicked briefly to Bucky, then away. “So what am I supposed to feel? Grateful? Betrayed? Both?”
Sam took a careful step forward, the floorboard creaking beneath his weight. “Izzy—”
“Don’t.” She raised a hand, stopping him. “Just... don’t.”
Sam stood frozen mid-step, caught between offering comfort and respecting her space. Isabelle lifted her gaze to Bucky, making him freeze, his body going rigid.
“And you—” she said, the words barely audible. “I thought my name was on your list because you killed them,” she said quietly. No accusation colored her tone, no sharpness edged the words. Just a terrible, hollow truth. “Because you killed my grandparents.”
Bucky didn’t move. Didn’t blink. Didn’t breathe. The metal plates in his left arm recalibrated with a soft whir, the only sign that he hadn’t turned to stone.
“But that’s not why.” Her voice fractured around the edges now, like a mirror spiderwebbing beneath a blow. “It’s because you watched her...” She swallowed hard, her throat working visibly beneath pale skin. “You watched us.”
The color drained from Bucky’s face. He looked like she’d reached into his chest and carved something vital out with her bare hands. His lips parted, but for a moment no sound emerged. When he finally spoke, his voice emerged as a ragged whisper.
“Pierce sent me to check on her progress,” he admitted, each word dragged from somewhere deep and painful. “I was under orders. I wasn’t allowed to speak. Or interfere.” His metal fingers curled into a fist at his side, the plates shifting with a mechanical whisper. “I just... observed.”
“You watched,” Isabelle whispered, and the raw devastation in those two words seemed to fill the entire room. “You watched while she tore me open.”
She didn’t say it with hate. She didn’t even say it in a blaming way—just grief.
Sam took another step forward, unable to remain still in the face of such naked pain. “Izzy, maybe we should—”
“How many times?” Isabelle asked Bucky, ignoring Sam completely. Rain continued to drip from her hair, sliding down her temples like tears. “How many times did they send you?”
Bucky’s jaw worked, the muscle there jumping beneath his skin. “Six,” he said finally. “Maybe seven. I don’t—the memories are fragmented.” His eyes never left hers, even as shame threatened to drown him. “They wiped me between missions. But I remember... pieces.”
“What pieces?”
Bucky’s throat worked as he swallowed. “A lab. White walls. Lights that buzzed—always buzzing.” His flesh hand twitched at his side. “A girl with blonde hair. You were small.” His eyes met hers, raw with remembered horror. “Too small for what they were doing.”
Sam shifted his weight, the floorboard beneath him creaking in protest. His face was a mask of controlled concern, shoulders tense as he watched the exchange unfold.
“Did you ever try to stop it?” The question emerged small and broken, like something from a much younger version of herself. Her eyes remained fixed on Bucky’s face, searching for something—absolution, perhaps, or confirmation of her worst fears.
The silence that followed stretched between them, taut as a wire. In that silence lay the answer she already knew.
Bucky’s jaw worked, the muscle jumping beneath his skin. His eyes—storm-gray and haunted—held hers without flinching. “I couldn’t,” he finally said, the words torn from somewhere raw and bleeding. “I wasn’t—” He stopped, inhaled sharply through his nose. “The Soldier didn’t have that kind of autonomy. I was a weapon, not a person.”
Sam took a step closer, his presence solid and grounding. “Bucky wasn’t himself then, Izzy. You know that.”
“Your mother was trying to protect you,” Zemo interjected. He set his teacup down with a soft clink against the saucer, the sound unnaturally loud in the charged silence. “In her own way,” he continued, “just as HYDRA believed they were saving the world.” His eyes met Isabelle’s across the room, calculating but not unkind. Something almost like understanding flickered in their depths. “The most dangerous people are always those who believe their cause is just.”
Sam’s head snapped toward him, eyes narrowing. “Not helping, Zemo.”
“On the contrary,” Zemo countered smoothly, one eyebrow lifting slightly. “Miss Stark deserves honesty, not comfort.” He gestured toward the journal in Isabelle’s hand. “Her mother was not a villain in her own mind. She was a hero—saving her daughter, creating something... extraordinary.” His eyes lingered on Isabelle, assessing her reaction. “The road to hell, as they say.”
“Shut up,” Bucky growled, the muscles in his jaw working.
But Isabelle shook her head.
“No, he’s right.” Her voice was steadier now, though her eyes remained too bright, too intense. “She thought she was saving me. Saving the world, maybe.” She looked down at the journal. “And instead, she created...” She gestured vaguely at herself.
Sam reached out, his hand hovering in the space between them for a heartbeat before settling on her shoulder. The sodden fabric of her jacket compressed under his touch, cold water seeping between his fingers.
“You need to get out of these clothes,” he said, his voice pitched low, nodding towards the bathroom on the other side of the room. “You’re soaked through.”
“Super soldier, remember?” Isabelle attempted a smile that didn’t reach her eyes. Her lips, pale and slightly blue, trembled with the effort. “Can’t get sick.”
“Please,” Sam insisted, squeezing her shoulder gently before letting go.
The warmth of his hand against her shoulder was the first thing she’d truly felt since stepping into the rain. It anchored her to the present moment, pulling her back from the abyss of her mother’s words.
“Fine,” she conceded, suddenly aware of how the wet fabric clung uncomfortably to her skin, how her boots squelched with each slight shift of weight.
Cold had seeped into her bones, making her joints stiff and her muscles ache. She bent to pick up her duffel, wincing as water dripped from her hair down the back of her neck. The journal remained clutched in her other hand.
“I don’t know what to do with this,” She stared down at it, suddenly paralyzed by indecision. “I don’t know if I want to read the rest.” Her fingers tightened around the binding. “I don’t know if I can.”
Bucky moved then, stepping closer, his left hand rose, mirroring Sam’s earlier gesture, before gently touching the edge of the journal. “You don’t have to decide right now,” he said, his voice rough with understanding. “Some ghosts... they can wait.”
Their eyes met, and something passed between them—understanding, recognition, a shared burden. For a moment, they weren’t Avenger and Winter Soldier, weren’t Stark and Barnes, weren’t even friends or allies. They were just two people forged in the same fire, shaped by the same hands, carrying the same impossible weight.
Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat working visibly beneath pale skin. She nodded once, a quick, jerky movement, and released her death grip on the journal. It slid from her fingers into Bucky’s waiting palm.
“Yeah,” she managed, the single syllable catching in her throat. “Maybe they can.” She stepped back, glancing at Sam’s laptop on the kitchen counter. “Give me twenty minutes,” she said, straightening her shoulders with visible effort. “Then you can fill me in on what you found on Karli.”
Sam nodded, recognizing her need to move forward, to focus on something—anything—else. “Take your time. We’ll be here,” He promised.
Isabelle nodded, clutching her duffel bag to her chest like armor. She moved toward the bedroom, each step leaving a wet footprint in her wake.
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Rain, tension, and Turkish Delight.
As the team regroups in Riga, Karli’s latest attack rattles their already fraying nerves.
Isabelle digs through surveillance data trying to track the Flag Smashers, but what she finds instead is a wake-up call—and Zemo’s commentary doesn’t help.There’s tension with Sam, a standoff with Zemo, and a moment on the couch that might just make Bucky forget how to breathe.
Also? He learns what a TT is.
And Isabelle… turns down the candy.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 50: Another Kind of Death
Chapter 50: Another Kind of Death
Summary:
The safehouse is tense. The signals are scattered. The mission is slipping.
As the team reels from Karli’s latest attack, lines blur.
Between right and wrong, between control and chaos.
Between what they’re willing to do and what they’ve already done.Zemo stirs the pot. Sam tries to hold it together. Bucky nearly snaps.
And Isabelle? She holds the line. Barely.
And maybe holds Bucky’s hand, too.
Notes:
Okay, so I’m just super impatient for Wednesday and couldn’t wait to post 😅
We’re back with Bucky, Izzy, and Sam—and I seriously missed them after the heaviness of the journal arc.
This chapter sets up a lot, and I can’t wait for what’s coming next!!!Thank you all so much for the love and support as always. Love you guys!!! 💚💚💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Cigarette Daydreams" by Cage the Elephant
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Chapter Text
Night settled over Riga like a bruise—deep, dark, and spreading.
In the safehouse, they gathered in strained silence, each tucked into a separate corner like war-weary pieces of something not fully whole. Isabelle curled into the corner of the L-shaped couch, legs tucked beneath her. Her fingers danced across FRIDAY’s interface, the holographic display illuminating the shadows under her eyes. She’d been at it for hours, trying to isolate the Flag Smashers’ signal from the dozens of decoy pings scattered across the map.
“They’re smart,” she muttered, more to herself than anyone else. “Multiple signals, constantly shifting. As soon as I lock onto one, three more appear.” She brushed a strand of hair from her face, tucking it behind her ear with trembling fingers. “But we’re in the right area, at least.”
Across the room, Sam hunched over his laptop at the kitchen counter, the blue light making the exhaustion on his face more pronounced. He scrolled through Joaquin’s intel, occasionally making notes on his phone.
“Anything?” Isabelle called over.
Sam shook his head. “Joaquin’s intel is good, but the Flag Smashers move like ghosts. They’ve got people everywhere, warning them, hiding them.” He rubbed his eyes.
“Bastards. ” She gestured at the holographic map, where red dots blinked in and out of existence. “This is like trying to catch smoke.”
From the kitchen came the soft clink of glass against marble. Zemo moved, opening cabinets and inspecting their contents with mild interest. He’d exchanged his coat for a plush robe that somehow made him look more dangerous, not less.
“Perhaps,” Zemo said, pouring amber liquid into a crystal tumbler, “you are overthinking this. Karli is young and passionate. She will not hide forever.”
“Nobody asked you,” Bucky growled from his position by the door. He leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his eyes never leaving Zemo for more than a few seconds. His vibranium hand flexed subtly, the plates realigning with soft mechanical whispers.
Isabelle caught his gaze when it briefly shifted to her. The intensity in his blue eyes made her cheeks warm, and she quickly looked back at her screen, pretending to be absorbed in the data. The memory of breaking down in front of him hours earlier still burned fresh in her mind.
“The Wakandans gave us twenty-four hours,” Sam reminded them, closing his laptop with a sigh. “We’ve burned through four already.”
Isabelle swiped away a cluster of false signals with a frustrated gesture, the holographic dots dissolving under her fingertips. Her shoulders ached from hunching over the display for hours. “I know. I just—” She stopped, noticing Bucky watching her again.
This time, there was something softer in his expression—concern mixed with something else she couldn’t quite name. Something that made her stomach flip. Their eyes held for a beat too long before she pulled her gaze away, her cheeks warming.
“We need to work smarter, not harder,” Sam said, pushing away from the counter. “These decoy signals are designed to waste our time.”
FRIDAY’s alert tone cut through the room—three short, urgent pulses. Isabelle’s phone lit up with a notification that made her blood run cold. She swiped her finger across the screen, projecting the feed onto her holographic display. Surveillance footage played in grainy detail—a building in flames, emergency responders rushing toward the scene.
“Shit,” Isabelle muttered, her voice barely above a whisper. The GRC logo on the burning depot was unmistakable. Her throat tightened. “Sam, Karli bombed a GRC supply depot last night.”
Bucky’s head snapped up, his entire body tensing like a coiled spring. “Dammit,” he growled, pushing off from the wall and crossing the room in three long strides.
Sam’s reaction was more visceral. He leapt from his barstool, nearly toppling it in his haste, the legs scraping loudly against the floor. “What? What’s the damage?” he demanded, his voice tight with controlled panic.
Isabelle scrolled through the incoming data, each detail. The faces of the victims began populating her screen—names of GRC personnel.
“Eleven injured,” she reported, her voice hollow. “Three dead.” She swallowed hard, a lump forming in her throat. Her fingers trembled slightly as she continued scrolling. “They’ve released a list of demands and are promising more attacks if those demands aren’t met.”
“Jesus,” Sam breathed, running a hand over his face. He looked suddenly older, the weight of their failure etched into the lines around his eyes. “We need to find them. Now.”
Bucky moved closer to, looking over Isabelle’s shoulder. She glanced up at him, finding his blue eyes fixed on the casualty list, his jaw clenched tight.
Zemo, who had been quietly observing from the periphery, traced his fingers on the edge of his glass. “So she’s escalating,” he remarked, his voice carrying a dangerous calm. He took a deliberate sip of his drink, savoring it before setting the glass down with a soft clink. “As I warned you, she would.”
Bracing his hands on the counter, he leaned forward, his gaze sweeping deliberately across the room, from Sam’s tense shoulders to Bucky’s coiled stillness, finally settling on Isabelle with unnerving focus.
“The serum enhances what is already there,” Zemo continued, “Good becomes great. Bad becomes...” He left the thought unfinished, the omission more damning than any conclusion.
Sam pushed away from the counter, the scrape of his chair harsh against the quiet. “We don’t know that Karli ordered this,” he insisted, but the doubt in his voice betrayed him.
“Don’t we?” Zemo’s eyebrows lifted slightly, his expression one of polite skepticism. He straightened, adjusting the lapels of his robe with the same meticulous care he might give a military uniform. “I have the will to complete this mission.” His eyes moved deliberately from Sam to Bucky, to Isabelle with equally unsettling intensity. “Do the three of you?”
Isabelle felt a chill run down her spine. Zemo wasn’t suggesting they capture Karli—he was proposing execution.
“She’s just a kid,” Sam protested, his voice tight.
Zemo’s lips quirked in a humorless smile. He swirled the amber liquid in his glass, letting the silence stretch just long enough to become uncomfortable.
“You’re seeing something in her that isn’t there,” he said finally, gesturing toward Sam with a lazy flick of his wrist. The movement was casual, dismissive. “You’re clouded by it. She’s a supremacist.” He took another deliberate sip, savoring the burn of expensive liquor while studying Sam over the rim of his glass. “The very concept of a super soldier will always trouble people,” Zemo continued, setting his glass down with a soft clink against the marble countertop. “It’s that warped aspiration that led to Nazis, to HYDRA, to Ultron...” His gaze swept deliberately across the room, landing with pointed emphasis. “To the Avengers.”
“Hey, enough with the Ultron and Avengers angle,” Sam snapped, his patience visibly fraying. The exhaustion in his eyes gave way to a sharp, focused anger. “We get it already. Those are our friends you’re talking about.”
Isabelle watched the exchange from her position on the couch, FRIDAY’s holographic display casting shadows across her face. The victims’ names still scrolled past—lives reduced to data points, collateral damage in an ideological war.
“I know them well enough,” Zemo replied, his tone so reasonable it made Isabelle’s skin crawl. There was something almost hypnotic about his calm certainty, like watching a cobra sway before it struck.
His gaze shifted then, finding her across the room where the holographic images of the dead still cast their ghostly light.
“Your mother understood the necessity of crossing lines,” he said, his voice softening to something almost intimate. “Control through power. Isn’t that what her journal revealed?” His eyes never left hers, searching for weakness, for confirmation. “You should understand better than anyone what happens when idealism meets reality.”
The mention of her mother’s journal sent a cold spike through Isabelle’s chest. The pages she’d read just hours ago flashed through her mind.
She felt Bucky tense beside her, a protective shadow at the periphery of her vision, ready to intervene. A low growl rumbled from deep in his chest—not quite words, but a clear warning nonetheless.
“Yeah,” Isabelle said quietly, meeting Zemo’s gaze without flinching. Something hardened in her eyes—not anger, but a cold clarity. “I understand it.” She shifted on the couch, settling deeper into the cushions, one hand still resting on FRIDAY’s interface. The movement was deliberate, almost defiant. “And I remember exactly what it did to me. Karli thinks she’s saving the world,” Isabelle continued, her voice growing stronger with each word. “So did my mother. So did HYDRA. So did Thanos. So did the Avengers.” She gestured to the images of destruction still floating on her display—the burning building, the faces of the dead. “This isn’t salvation. It’s just another kind of death.”
Zemo’s eyes narrowed slightly, reassessing her with something that might have been respect—or perhaps just a more careful calculation of the threat she posed. He tapped one finger against his crystal tumbler, the soft click echoing in the silence.
Sam shook his head, frustration evident in the tight set of his jaw and the weary slump of his shoulders. “So, Karli is radicalized,” he conceded, “but there still has to be a peaceful way to stop her.”
“Peaceful?” Zemo echoed, turning the word into something childish, naive. “The desire to become superhuman cannot be separated from supremacist ideals,” he continued, his voice taking on a lecturing tone that made Isabelle’s teeth grind. “Anyone with that serum is inherently on that path. She will not stop.” His accent grew thicker with conviction. “She will escalate until you kill her. Or she kills you.”
His gaze slid to Isabelle again, studying her with renewed interest.
“Tell me, Ms. Stark,” he said, each word deliberate and weighted, “when your mother was at the height of her conviction, convinced she was saving the world, did anyone stop her peacefully?”
Zemo knew. Of course, he knew. Somehow.
“A heart attack, wasn’t it?” he added softly, tilting his head just slightly. “Such a…sudden thing. Stress, perhaps. Or something more precise.” His eyes gleamed, cold and knowing. “They say the mind can do extraordinary things under pressure. Or when provoked—”
“Talk to her like that again, I dare you.” Bucky’s voice had dropped an octave as he moved.
One moment he was still as stone, the next he was coiled tension incarnate, vibranium fist clenched tight enough that the plates whirred and recalibrated with a menacing mechanical hiss. His face had gone cold and flat—the Winter Soldier emerging from beneath Barnes’s careful control.
Isabelle reached back without thinking, her fingers finding his flesh hand. She intertwined them with his, the warmth of his skin a shocking contrast to the cold rage coursing through her. The contact grounded her, pulled her back from the precipice she’d been teetering on.
“Don’t,” she said softly, her eyes never leaving Zemo’s. Through their joined hands, she felt Bucky’s tension—the barely restrained violence humming through him like an electrical current. “He’s trying to provoke us.”
Bucky looked down at her, then at their interlocked fingers. Something complex and unreadable passed across his face—surprise, confusion, and something warmer that made Isabelle’s heart stutter in her chest. His thumb brushed across her knuckles, so lightly she might have imagined it.
“He’s doing a damn good job of it,” Bucky muttered, but the Winter Soldier’s flat affect had receded slightly from his voice.
Sam had gone utterly still by the counter, his body angled toward them, ready to intervene. His eyes flicked between Zemo and Bucky, calculating distances and trajectories.
“It’s okay,” Isabelle told Bucky, her voice steadier than she felt. Her thumb traced a small circle against his palm, the gesture intimate in a way that made her chest tight. “As much as I’d love to see you deck him across the face...” She gave Zemo a cold, evaluating look that would have made her father proud. “He’s right.”
She squeezed Bucky’s hand once more before releasing it, immediately missing the contact. The loss of his warmth left her feeling strangely adrift, like she’d let go of an anchor in turbulent waters. She turned fully toward Zemo, forcing herself to face the truth she’d been running from.
Bucky dropped onto the couch beside Isabelle, his weight making the cushions dip. He left just enough space between them that they weren’t touching, but close enough that she could feel the heat radiating from his body. He slouched down with a heavy exhale, letting his head fall back against the cushions. Though his eyes closed, the muscle ticking in his jaw betrayed his continued vigilance.
Isabelle stole a glance at him from the corner of her eye. She found herself studying the curve of his throat, the way his dark hair brushed against the collar of his shirt, before forcing her attention back to Sam. Sam was leaning against the kitchen counter, fingers drumming a restless rhythm on the polished surface. The tension in the room was thick enough to cut with a knife, and Isabelle could feel it pressing against her skin.
“Alright, let’s take a step back,” Sam said, his voice calm, trying to defuse the situation. His eyes swept across the room, lingering briefly on Zemo before settling on Isabelle and Bucky. “We’re getting nowhere spinning our wheels like this,” he continued. “From what I understand, Donya was like a pillar in that refugee community, right? When I was a kid, my TT passed away—”
Beside her, Bucky shifted on the couch. Without opening his eyes, he lifted his head slightly, brow furrowing. “Your what?” he asked, voice rough with a sudden weariness that seemed bone-deep.
Isabelle felt a small smile tug at her lips despite the tension still crackling in the air. She nudged Bucky’s knee with hers. “His TT.”
Sam looked at Bucky, confusion furrowing his brow. “Yeah, man. My TT.”
Bucky finally opened his eyes, squinting at Sam with the bewildered expression of someone trying to translate a foreign language in real-time. “Who the hell is your TT?”
Sam’s exasperation radiated from him in waves, his mouth twitching as he fought between irritation and amusement. He gestured broadly with his hands, the movement sharp and decisive. “Fine. When I was a kid, my auntie passed away. Happy now, Mr. Cultural Sensitivity?”
Bucky had the grace to look slightly abashed. He averted his gaze from Sam’s pointed stare, his shoulder brushing against Isabelle’s as he shifted position.
“Anyway,” Sam continued, shaking his head slightly, “the entire neighborhood got together for a ceremony. It lasted about a week. People sharing memories, breaking bread together.” His voice softened with the weight of remembrance. “It wasn’t just about mourning—it was about honoring who she was, what she meant to everyone.” He tapped his fingers against the counter, the rhythm matching the quickening of his thoughts. “Maybe they’re doing the same thing for Donya.”
Isabelle’s mind drifted to the memorial services held for her father and Natasha. The somber gathering by the lake, the quiet tears, the shared grief that both connected and isolated everyone present. A familiar ache bloomed in her chest, the edges of it razor-sharp. She pushed it aside, focusing on the matter at hand.
“Worth a shot,” Bucky muttered, folding his hands over his stomach. His knee pressed against hers again, but this time he didn’t move away.
Zemo moved toward a nearby cabinet, opening it with a flourish. The polished wooden doors swung wide to reveal rows of colorful jars and ornate boxes, a hidden treasure trove of luxury incongruous with their mission.
“Your TT would be proud of you,” he said to Sam, emphasizing the word ‘TT’ with a slight curl of his lip and a slightly mocking tone as he threw a sideways glance at Sam.
Isabelle felt Bucky tense beside her, his body coiling with barely contained irritation. Without thinking, her hand dropped to the space between them, pinky finger extending until it just barely brushed against his knuckle. A silent acknowledgment of shared frustration. A tiny point of connection in the charged atmosphere.
Bucky’s pinky hooked around hers for just a heartbeat before he withdrew his hand and leaned forward, elbows braced on his knees. The phantom warmth of his touch lingered on her skin, making her hyper-aware of the space between them that had suddenly grown cold.
Zemo plucked a small, ornate jar from the shelf. He removed the lid to reveal a collection of glistening, jewel-toned cubes dusted with fine white powder.
“Turkish Delight,” Zemo announced, selecting a rose-pink piece and tossing it lightly in Sam’s direction.
Sam caught it reflexively, but his expression hardened as he stared at the candy resting in his palm. “We’re tracking super soldiers who just bombed a building, and you’re offering candy?” He dropped the Turkish Delight onto the counter with a soft thud. “Man, your priorities are seriously screwed.”
Isabelle watched the interaction from her perch on the couch, cataloging every micro-expression that crossed Zemo’s face. There was something deeply unsettling about seeing the baron act so... domestic. The casual way he offered treats, as if they were old friends gathered for a pleasant afternoon, set her teeth on edge. It was calculated—every gesture designed to humanize himself while simultaneously reminding them of his wealth, his taste, his cultivation. The perfect counterpoint to the monster they knew him to be.
Beside her, Bucky stared at the floor, jaw hitched tight enough that she could see the muscle jumping beneath his stubbled cheek. His right hand flexed and unfurled in a steady rhythm, like he was practicing for something he hoped wouldn’t become necessary.
Zemo’s gaze slid to Isabelle, a knowing smirk playing at the corners of his mouth. He held out the ornate jar, the remaining pieces of Turkish Delight glistening like gemstones beneath the apartment’s recessed lighting.
“Turkish Delight,” he purred, his accent wrapping around the words. “Irresistible, wouldn’t you agree?”
Isabelle’s jaw clenched as she met his gaze. She could practically feel Zemo’s satisfaction at their discomfort rolling off him in waves. Every gesture, every word, carefully calculated to keep them off-balance.
“I’ll pass,” she said, her voice clipped.
Zemo’s smirk widened fractionally. “Are you sure? It’s quite the delicacy.” He plucked another piece from the jar, holding it up to the light between thumb and forefinger. The translucent cube seemed to glow from within, casting tiny rainbows across his manicured fingers. “Did you know, Turkish Delight has been enjoyed for centuries? It was even featured in C.S. Lewis’s ‘The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.’” His eyes gleamed with cold intelligence. “Quite the temptation for young Edmund.”
The literary reference wasn’t lost on Isabelle—the candy that lured a child into betrayal, offered by a witch with honeyed words and frozen heart. She felt a chill creep up her spine despite the apartment’s comfortable temperature.
Sam’s brow furrowed, the lines deepening across his forehead. “Are you seriously giving us a history lesson on candy right now?” His voice carried the strained patience of a man rapidly approaching his limit.
“Knowledge is power, Sam,” Zemo replied smoothly. He popped the piece into his mouth, savoring it with exaggerated pleasure, his eyelids dropping to half-mast. “And in my experience, it’s the little details that often prove most... illuminating.”
She glanced at Bucky, seeing her own unease mirrored in the tightness around his eyes, the way he’d gone unnaturally still.
“Enough with the games, Zemo,” Bucky growled, pushing himself off the couch with controlled force. He stalked toward the kitchen, his footsteps heavy with barely contained frustration. “We’re not here for a tea party. We need to find Karli before she hurts anyone else.”
Zemo’s expression sobered, though Isabelle caught a flicker of amusement in his eyes—the satisfaction of a man who’d successfully gotten under someone’s skin. “Of course,” he said, setting the jar aside with careful precision. “To work then?”
He offered the jar to Isabelle one final time, holding it just close enough that she could smell the rose water and sugar, the faint hint of pistachios.
“Sure you won’t try one?” he asked, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial murmur. “It’s a family recipe. Passed down through generations of Zemos.” His eyes studied her face with uncomfortable intensity. “I find it helps... sweeten difficult situations.”
Isabelle met his gaze steadily, refusing to look away first. “I’ve had enough poison for one lifetime,” she said, her voice quiet but edged with steel.
Something flashed in Zemo’s eyes—not anger, but a kind of delighted recognition, as if she’d passed some private test. His lips curved into a smile that never reached his eyes.
“Smart girl,” he murmured, closing the jar with a soft click that echoed in the sudden silence.
Zemo inclined his head in acknowledgment, but as he turned away, his eyes met Isabelle’s one last time. In that brief moment, something passed between them—a silent recognition that they were playing a longer, more dangerous game than either Sam or Bucky realized.
And Isabelle wasn’t entirely sure she wasn’t losing.
The GRC camp sprawled before them, the camp being nothing but a dilapidated building and makeshift shelters, all muted colors, worn edges, and stories etched into every crumbling corner. What had once been an elegant building now stood as a skeletal reminder of better days, its windows like hollow eyes staring out at makeshift shelters that crowded the courtyard. The smell hit Isabelle first—a complex mixture of too many bodies, not enough soap, cooking fires, and the sharp tang of desperation.
Isabelle’s steps faltered as they entered the compound. Her senses were immediately overwhelmed by the harsh reality of displacement that statistics and news reports could never fully convey. Children darted between structures, their laughter incongruously bright against the backdrop of squalor. Their clothes hung loose on thin frames, patched and re-patched until the original fabric was barely visible.
Adults watched their approach with wary eyes, conversations dying mid-sentence as the strangers passed. She caught fragments of whispered conversations in a dozen different languages, unified by the universal tone of suspicion.
A knot formed in Isabelle’s throat. She’d seen poverty before, had worked relief missions with the Avengers after Sokovia, but this felt different. These people had been discarded twice: first by Thanos, then by the government that had promised to protect them.
Isabelle shifted her weight, suddenly self-conscious. She glanced at Bucky and then Sam, finding a mirror of her own discomfort in the rigid set of their shoulders and the way their eyes darted from face to face.
Only Zemo seemed utterly at ease. He strolled through the camp like a tourist, his hands clasped behind his back, his expression one of mild interest as he surveyed the crowded courtyard. His civilian clothes—expensive even to Isabelle’s untrained eye—stood out like a beacon among the threadbare garments surrounding them.
“Shame what’s become of this place,” Zemo mused, his voice carrying a note of wistful nostalgia that made Isabelle’s skin crawl. “When I was young, we used to come here for fabulous dinners and parties.” He gestured toward the main building, its facade crumbling in places. “The ballroom had crystal chandeliers that caught the light like diamonds. I knew nothing of the politics of the time, of course, but I remember it being beautiful.”
Bucky scoffed, the sound sharp and dismissive. “Yeah, well, times change,” he muttered. “People get displaced. Buildings fall apart. Life goes on.”
“Does it?” Zemo asked, his gaze lingering on a group of elderly refugees huddled around a small cooking fire. “For some, perhaps.”
The casual cruelty of the observation—not because Zemo was wrong, but because he was right—made Isabelle’s chest tighten.
Sam’s gaze swept over the courtyard, taking in the sparse supplies laid out on rickety tables. People queued with plastic containers and cloth bags, their faces etched with worry as volunteers rationed out meager portions. A woman argued with a GRC worker, gesturing frantically at a child who clung to her leg. The worker shook his head, pointing to a clipboard. The woman’s shoulders slumped in defeat.
“This is...” Sam started, then stopped, words failing him. He squared his shoulders, his expression hardening with resolve. “Let’s split up. I’m gonna take a look around upstairs, see if I can find anyone who might know about Donya’s memorial.” His eyes narrowed as they landed on Zemo. “And Zemo? Behave.”
Zemo placed a hand over his heart, his expression one of exaggerated innocence. “You wound me, Sam. When have I ever been anything but a perfect gentleman?”
“You want that list alphabetically or chronologically?” Bucky growled, his voice low enough that only Isabelle and Zemo could hear him.
Zemo’s lips curved into a smile that never reached his eyes. He reached into his pocket, producing a small paper bag that crinkled between his fingers. “Don’t worry, nothing in my pockets this time besides Turkish Delight.” He opened the bag, revealing the same jewel-toned cubes from the safehouse. “Perhaps they’ll be more appreciated here.”
Bucky tensed beside Isabelle, his body coiling like a spring. “I swear, if that’s poison—”
“Relax, James,” Zemo interrupted smoothly, selecting a piece and popping it into his mouth with theatrical relish. He chewed slowly, savoring it before swallowing. “See? Perfectly safe. Poisoning is so... pedestrian. If I wanted to cause harm, I assure you, it would be far more creative.”
“Not helping your case there, Zemo,” Sam warned, shaking his head. His gaze shifted to Isabelle, something softening in his expression. “You okay with this arrangement?”
The question caught her off guard—a small kindness that made her throat tighten unexpectedly. She nodded, forcing a smile that felt brittle on her face. “Yeah, I’m good. Just...” She gestured vaguely at the camp. “It’s a lot.”
Sam’s eyes held understanding. “I know. Remember why we’re here, though. These people deserve better than what they’ve got, and stopping Karli before she hurts anyone else is part of making that happen.”
“Right,” Isabelle agreed, straightening her shoulders. “Find Karli, stop the violence, help the refugees. Simple.”
Sam’s mouth quirked in a half-smile. “When you say it like that, it almost sounds doable.” He glanced at Bucky, some unspoken communication passing between them. “Alright, I’m heading up. You three play nice.”
With that, he turned and made his way towards the main building, navigating through the crowd with practiced ease. People parted for him, some with wary glances, others with hopeful ones. Isabelle watched him go, envying his natural ability to connect with people, to put them at ease even in the most difficult circumstances.
“Well then,” Zemo said, clapping his hands together once Sam was out of earshot. “Shall we begin our little investigation?” He offered the bag of Turkish Delight to a passing child, who snatched a piece with wide-eyed wonder before darting away. “Children always know the secrets of a community. Perhaps we should start there.”
“We’re not using kids as informants,” Bucky said flatly, stepping between Zemo and a group of children playing with a makeshift ball fashioned from wadded cloth and tape.
Zemo tilted his head, unfazed. “Of course not. Merely... observing the innocence that remains.”
Isabelle stepped forward before Bucky could snap again, her voice low and firm. “Let’s just find someone who actually knows something.”
She didn’t wait for a reply, turning toward the heart of the camp, boots crunching over gravel and broken glass. Zemo followed without protest, and Bucky fell into step beside her, his eyes scanning every shadow.
They moved as a mismatched trio—one haunted, one dangerous, and one still deciding which one she was.
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The camp is crowded. Desperate. Haunted.
Zemo’s poking at old wounds, the kids think she’s cool, and Sam’s upstairs playing recon.But it’s Bucky who stays beside her, steady and solid through the chaos.
And maybe that’s why, when he finally tells her what he sees in her… it hits like a storm.Hurricanes destroy things. But they clear space, too. Space for something new.
And maybe—just maybe—she’s ready for that.
Even if all she can manage right now is a kiss on the cheek.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 51: What You See in Me
Chapter 51: What You See in Me
Summary:
In the quiet wreckage of a refugee camp, Isabelle Stark and Bucky Barnes stumble into something tender.
Between jokes about Spider-Man, stolen glances, and the weight of everything they’ve done, they find something fragile taking root.She calls him a hero. He calls her a hurricane.
And when she presses a kiss to his cheek—soft and tentative—it lingers like a promise neither of them is ready to name.
The world may be broken, but maybe they don’t have to be.
Notes:
I told you the burn was gonna get hot—and it’s burning now, y’all 🔥🔥🔥
Act Three has some of my absolute favorite Bucky/Izzy moments, and I’m so excited for what’s coming next. Hope you all loved this chapter as much as I loved writing it!!! Thanks for reading—love you guys 💖
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Disarm" by The Smashing Pumpkins
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Chapter Text
Isabelle’s gaze drifted back to the supply table, her chest constricting at the sight of a mother carefully dividing a meager portion of food between her wide-eyed children. The woman’s hands trembled slightly as she measured out each portion with painful precision, her eyes darting between her children’s faces as if calculating which one needed the calories most.
“This is worse than awful,” Isabelle murmured under the desperate hum of conversation filling the refugee camp. “First, the Blip erases half of them, then everyone comes back to…this.” She gestured toward the cramped quarters, the makeshift beds, the lines of people waiting for basic necessities. “These people have been uprooted twice over, and what do they get? Tents and ration cards.”
Zemo’s voice sliced through her thoughts, each syllable dripping with disdain. “Yes, it’s all terribly tragic. The great cosmic shuffle.” He adjusted his expensive collar, looking thoroughly out of place among the displaced and desperate. “Perhaps you should organize a charity gala, Miss Stark? I’m sure your father’s old connections would be delighted to sip champagne while writing checks for the cause.”
A familiar spike of pain through Isabelle’s chest, but she kept her expression neutral. She wouldn’t give Zemo the satisfaction.
Bucky’s jaw tightened, the muscle there jumping visibly as he stepped between them. “Why don’t you make yourself useful for once, Zemo?” His metal hand flexed at his side. “Go see if you can charm some information out of these people. That’s what you’re good at, right? Manipulating people?”
Zemo’s eyes gleamed with something that might have been amusement, might have been malice. “As you wish, James.” He spread his hands in mock surrender. “Though I must say, I’m beginning to feel rather... superfluous in your capable company. You and Miss Stark seem to have developed quite the rapport.”
With a flourish that bordered on theatrical, he offered a slight bow before sauntering toward a nearby administrative office, his polished leather shoes incongruous against the dusty ground.
Isabelle watched him go, a complex knot of emotions tightening in her chest. “I can’t figure him out,” she admitted, keeping her voice low. “One minute he’s almost helpful, the next he’s...” She trailed off, searching for the right word.
“A manipulative sociopath?” Bucky supplied, his eyes still tracking Zemo across the camp.
“That,” Isabelle agreed with a small, humorless laugh. “I just can’t tell if he’s actually trying to help us or if we’re all just pieces on his chessboard.”
Bucky’s hand found the small of her back, warm and solid through her jacket. The casual touch sent shivers up her spine that she desperately tried to ignore. She raised a brow at him, then her eyes flickered down to the hand on her back as he used it to edge her forward.
“That’s Zemo for you,” he said, voice dropping to a rumble that only she could hear. “Always playing his own game. Just remember, whatever he does, it’s for his own benefit. Not ours. Not these people’s. His.”
Isabelle nodded, allowing herself to lean into his touch for just a moment before straightening her shoulders, letting him lead her deeper into the camp. As they moved deeper into the camp, the makeshift pathways narrowed between rows of tents and temporary shelters.
Isabelle couldn’t shake the prickling sensation between her shoulder blades—the feeling of being watched. She glanced back, catching sight of a small group of children huddled together near a water station. They whispered among themselves, pointing not-so-subtly in her and Bucky’s direction. One of them, a little girl with bright eyes and a gap-toothed smile, raised her hand in a tentative wave when she realized she’d been spotted.
Something warm unfurled in Isabelle’s chest, melting a small corner of the ice that had settled there since arriving at the camp. She waved back without hesitation, a genuine smile finding its way to her face.
“Sick Girl waved at me!” The little girl’s excited gasp carried just far enough for Isabelle to catch, the child’s face lighting up as she turned to her friends.
Bucky’s expression softened beside her, the hard lines around his eyes easing as he watched the children. “You ever get used to that?” he asked, nodding toward the starstruck group.
“No,” Isabelle admitted, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. The wind immediately pulled it loose again, and she gave up. “It doesn’t happen a lot, actually. Kids usually go for Cap. Or Thor. Or...” She hesitated for just a fraction of a second, the familiar ache blooming beneath her ribs. “Or my dad.”
She kept her eyes on the children, finding it easier than looking at Bucky.
“Hulk was big for a while,” she continued, pushing past the moment. “Though lately, I hear Spider-Man’s crushing it on the popularity charts.”
Bucky’s face scrunched into an expression of exaggerated disgust, the transition so sudden it almost made her laugh. “Don’t get me started on that punk.”
“You’re just mad he kicked your ass at the airport that one time,” Isabelle said, the laugh that bubbled up feeling foreign but welcome in her throat. It scraped slightly, like she was out of practice.
“He webbed me to the floor,” Bucky growled. “Who does that? And he talks the entire time he’s fighting. The entire time.”
“He’s a punk,” Isabelle agreed solemnly, mimicking his tone.
“Exactly,” Bucky nodded, missing or ignoring her gentle mockery. His eyes narrowed as he scanned the perimeter of the camp, the soldier in him never fully at rest. “A punk who should stay in his own neighborhood instead of swinging around where he doesn’t belong.”
“Yeah, well, that punk’s the world’s favorite Avenger now, so...” She shrugged, falling into step beside him as they continued through the narrow pathways between tents, their shoulders brushing occasionally.
Bucky nudged her gently with his shoulder, his eyes softening as he nodded toward the little girl who was still watching them, twisting the hem of her too-large shirt between small fingers. “Not to that kid.”
“Sick Girl’s approval rating is still like a 3.6,” Isabelle snorted, rolling her eyes despite the warmth blooming in her chest at the child’s attention. “People like the shiny heroes. The easy ones. Thor’s got the muscles, Steve had the righteousness, Dad had the flash. I’m just…”
She trailed off, unable to find the words to define what exactly she was. A biohazard? A weapon? A Stark? None of them felt right, and all of them felt like too much.
“You’re not any less than them,” Bucky said firmly, his voice dropping lower as a family passed by them. The parents kept their eyes down, shoulders hunched as if trying to make themselves smaller, while their children stared openly at them both. “I’ve seen you fight...” His lips quirked up at one corner. “Plenty of times.” The unspoken memory hung between them—the airport, against Thanos, DC. “Hell, you’ve kicked my ass.”
“That was different,” Isabelle said, remembering the cold fury in his eyes when he’d been the Soldier—how different they looked now, warm and focused on her. She remembered the way his body had moved, the way her own powers had lashed out in response. “You weren’t yourself.”
“Still counts,” he insisted, sidestepping a child who darted across their path chasing after a makeshift ball. His hand brushed against hers again, the contact sending goosebumps up her arm. Whether it was his metal hand or his flesh one, she couldn’t tell through the fabric of her jacket, but the weight of it was reassuring either way.
Isabelle studied his profile as they walked—the sharp line of his jaw, the stubble that darkened it, the way his eyes constantly scanned their surroundings. The Winter Soldier, always vigilant. But there was something else there too, something else. Humanity. Warmth.
“You know, you’re a hero too, Barnes,” she said, the words escaping before she could stop them. “Whether you believe it or not.”
Bucky scoffed, a short, harsh sound that carried more weight than a thousand-word rebuttal. “I’m not a hero.”
“You fought in World War II,” she countered, matching his stride. The dusty ground crunched beneath her boots. “You risked your life. You were in the Howling Commandos.”
“I also killed people,” he said, his voice dropping so low she had to lean closer to hear him. “A lot of people. Good people. Heroes don’t do that.”
Isabelle watched him for a moment, studying the hard lines of his face. The afternoon sun caught in his dark hair, highlighting strands of chestnut among the brown. She took a breath.
“I’ve seen all the old films,” she said, her voice softer than before, almost gentle. “The documentaries, the newsreels. You and Steve, the Howling Commandos.” Her fingers fidgeted with the edge of her jacket. “You were a hero, Bucky. That’s documented fact.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened, the muscle jumping beneath his skin. The tendons in his neck stood out as he swallowed. His eyes darkened, storm clouds gathering.
“But I get it,” she said, her voice finding strength. “I do. The things I’ve done—” She cut herself off, shaking her head. “Look, Steve told me something once. Said that you get to decide who you are—every day, every choice. And you’re choosing now. That counts for something. Maybe everything.”
It took a few breaths before Bucky could speak.
“Steve and his speeches,” he murmured, shaking his head. His voice carried a warmth that made Isabelle’s chest tighten. “Always knew exactly what to say to make you feel like you could move mountains with your bare hands.” A shadow passed over his face, grief etching itself into the lines around his eyes. “Miss that self-righteous punk every damn day.”
The words hung between them, heavy with a century of friendship that Isabelle could only imagine.
“He had a way of making the impossible seem possible,” she agreed, her throat constricting around the words. “Like nothing was too broken to fix.”
They passed another row of tents, the fabric walls fluttering in the breeze like pale ghosts. A woman sorting through donated clothing looked up as they passed, her eyes lingering on them with a mixture of curiosity and wariness. Her hands paused in their work, clutching a faded sweater to her chest as if it might shield her from whatever trouble these strangers might bring.
“Those old Cap films and comics,” she continued after a moment, “they were kind of a comfort to me when I was sick. I’d read and watch them between treatments, when the chemo made me too weak to do anything else.” The admission surprised her—she never spoke about those times. “Something about heroes from another time made my problems seem... smaller, I guess. Like if Captain America could punch Hitler, maybe I could survive one more round of radiation.”
Bucky was quiet for so long that Isabelle finally looked up at him, half-expecting to find him lost in his own thoughts. Then he let out a smirk.
“Funny thing about those comics,” Bucky said, his voice dropping lower as they fell back into step. “They got most of it wrong. Made Steve out to be this perfect soldier from the start. Truth is, he was just a skinny kid with more guts than sense.” A genuine smile tugged at his lips now, small but real. “Used to pick fights with guys twice his size, come home looking like he’d been hit by a truck.”
“That tracks with what I knew of him,” Isabelle said, returning Bucky’s smile with a tentative one of her own. “Stubborn as hell.”
“You have no idea,” Bucky shook his head, his eyes softening with memory. “The comics never showed how he’d get pneumonia every winter, or how he’d wheeze after climbing a flight of stairs.”
His gaze drifted over her, something flickering behind his eyes—something distant and troubled. Fragments of memory. A sterile room. Clinical lights. A small form laid out unconscious on a metal table. The Soldier standing guard while a woman worked, her hands steady but her eyes afraid. The memories were jagged, incomplete, like shards of glass that didn’t quite fit together.
Bucky blinked, forcing himself back to the present. “Must’ve been tough,” he said, his voice rougher than before, “being sick like that.”
Isabelle studied his face, noting the slight furrow between his brows. For a moment, she thought she saw something like recognition there, but it was gone before she could be sure.
“It was,” she admitted, looking away. “But I got through it. Got better. Got powers that make sure I’ll never have to worry about getting sick again.” She laughed, but the sound was hollow, scraping against her throat like broken glass. “Now I’m the one who makes other people sick.”
Bucky stopped walking. His hand found hers, warm fingers wrapping around her smaller ones with a gentleness that seemed impossible for a man who’d done the things he had. The contact sent a jolt through her system—not unpleasant, just unexpected.
“That’s not all you are, doll,” he said, his voice low and certain.
She looked down at their joined hands, his skin warm against hers. For a moment, everything else faded—the crowded refugee camp, Zemo’s manipulations, the Flag Smashers—all of it receded like background noise.
“Then what am I?” she asked quietly, the question more vulnerable than she’d intended. Her pulse quickened beneath her skin, a flutter of something dangerously close to hope.
His thumb traced a small circle on the back of her hand, the calluses on his skin catching slightly against hers. Isabelle felt heat creep up her neck, spreading across her cheeks in a flush she couldn’t control. She watched his face as he considered, his eyes thoughtful, searching for the right words. The silence stretched between them, not uncomfortable but charged with something she couldn’t—or wouldn’t—name.
A refugee brushed past them, muttering an apology in a language Isabelle didn’t recognize. Still, Bucky didn’t release her hand. Still, he didn’t look away.
Her heart hammered against her ribs, the sound of it drumming in her ears. What was taking him so long to answer? What was he seeing when he looked at her like that, like he was trying to read something written in a language he only half-remembered?
“A hurricane,” he said finally, his voice dropping to a rumble that seemed to vibrate through her bones.
They’d stopped walking without realizing it, standing close enough that she could feel the warmth radiating from him, could count the flecks of gray in his blue eyes. For a moment, the bustle of the refugee camp faded away, and all she could focus on was the way his gaze dropped briefly to her lips before meeting her eyes again.
“A hurricane?” A sharp laugh escaped her, half-surprised, half-pained. “Is that what I am? Nature’s wrecking ball?” She tried to inject sarcasm into her voice, but it came out too raw, too vulnerable.
“No,” Bucky said, his gaze intensifying. The lines around his eyes softened as his left hand—the vibranium one—reached up, hesitating for a heartbeat before gently tucking that pesky strand of hair behind her ear.
The metal was surprisingly warm against her skin, and she fought the urge to lean into the touch.
“Not at all,” he murmured. “Hurricanes are powerful. Necessary.” His fingers lingered near her cheek, not quite touching but close enough that she could feel the heat radiating from them. “Dangerous, yeah, but also...” He searched for the words, his brow furrowing slightly. “Beautiful. They clear out what’s rotting. Make room for something new.”
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs, the sound of it drowning out the ambient noise of the camp. She should step back. She should remember all the reasons why this was a terrible idea—he was her teammate, they were on a mission, she was a walking biohazard, he was... he was looking at her like she was something precious and terrifying all at once.
Instead of pulling away, she found herself swaying slightly toward him, drawn by a gravity she couldn’t explain. The scent of him—leather and metal and something uniquely him—filled her senses.
“Bucky—” Her voice came out hoarse. His name felt different in her mouth now, weighted with something she wasn’t ready to name.
His eyes darkened, pupils expanding as they flicked down to her lips, then back to her eyes. For a heartbeat that stretched into eternity, the world narrowed to just the two of them—the Winter Soldier and the daughter of Tony Stark, two weapons trying to be people.
A child’s laughter shattered the moment, high and clear as it cut through the camp’s ambient noise. Reality crashed back around them like a wave.
Isabelle blinked rapidly, heat flooding her face as she became acutely aware of where they were—in the middle of a refugee camp, surrounded by displaced families, with Zemo somewhere nearby, probably watching them with that calculating smirk.
She cleared her throat, taking a half-step back. The cool air rushed between them, and she immediately missed his warmth. “We should, uh—” Her voice cracked embarrassingly, and she swallowed hard. “We should get back to work. People are waiting for us.”
Bucky’s expression shifted, the openness receding behind the careful mask he usually wore. But something lingered in his eyes—a warmth, a question, a possibility. “Yeah,” he agreed, his voice rougher than usual. “We should.”
Neither of them moved.
Her heart hammered against her ribs as she made a decision. Before she could overthink it, Isabelle rose onto her tiptoes, one hand bracing against his chest for balance. His heartbeat thundered beneath her palm, matching her own frantic rhythm. She pressed her lips to his stubbled cheek, lingering just long enough to feel the warmth of his skin, to catch the slight intake of his breath.
“Thanks,” she whispered against his skin. For what, she wasn’t entirely sure—for seeing her as more than her powers, for understanding her in ways others couldn’t, for making her feel less alone in this broken world they were trying to fix.
When she pulled back, Bucky’s eyes were wide, a flush creeping up his neck. His flesh hand reached up, fingers hovering near the spot her lips had touched, as if preserving the sensation.
“Anytime, doll,” he murmured, the endearment rolling off his tongue with a hint of that 1940s charm that made her stomach flip.
Isabelle tucked her hair behind her ear, painfully aware of how her cheeks burned. She gestured vaguely toward the administrative building where Zemo had disappeared.
“We should probably—”
“Yeah,” Bucky nodded, reasserting himself, but the softness around his mouth remained.
As they fell back into step beside each other, Isabelle noticed that they walked closer than before, their shoulders brushing with each step. His metal hand occasionally grazed hers, the contact sending electric currents up her arm. Neither of them acknowledged it, but neither pulled away.
Within minutes, they approached a cluster of refugees huddled near a makeshift shelter. The group—mostly women and elderly men—tensed visibly at their approach, conversations dying mid-sentence. Isabelle felt their wariness ebbing off of them, her senses picking up the spike of anxiety rippling through them.
“Let me try,” she murmured to Bucky, squeezing his arm briefly before stepping forward.
Isabelle softened her posture, consciously relaxing her shoulders and keeping her hands visible at her sides. She offered what she hoped was a reassuring smile, though her face felt stiff with the effort.
“Excuse me,” she began, pitching her voice gentle but clear enough to carry. “We’re looking for information about Donya Madani. She lived here in the camp?”
The silence stretched, thick and uncomfortable. A woman with silver-streaked hair pulled her threadbare blanket tighter around her bony shoulders, the fabric so worn it was nearly translucent in places. Her eyes darted between Isabelle and Bucky before settling somewhere near Isabelle’s feet, as if making direct eye contact might be dangerous.
“We don’t know anyone by that name,” she said, her English heavily accented but clear. Each word dropped like a stone, deliberate and final.
Isabelle’s senses prickled—the woman was lying. She could feel it in the subtle shift of energy between the refugees, in the way three of them exchanged quick glances, and in the collective holding of breath. A child behind the woman whispered something too low to hear, only to be hushed immediately.
“Please,” Isabelle pressed, taking another careful step forward. “We’re not here to cause trouble. We just need to know when her funeral is being held.”
The silver-haired woman’s eyes hardened, transforming from wary to hostile in an instant. The lines around her mouth deepened as she pressed her lips together.
“I told you, we don’t know her.” She turned away, the movement sharp and dismissive. The rest of the group followed suit, shoulders hunching, bodies angling away, a human wall of rejection as impenetrable as concrete.
Bucky touched Isabelle’s elbow, his fingers warm through the fabric of her jacket. A silent signal to retreat. She nodded, swallowing the bitter taste of frustration as they backed away.
“They’re scared,” Bucky observed once they were out of earshot, his voice low and rough against her ear.
“It’s more than that,” Isabelle said, shaking her head. “Did you see how they looked at us? Like we were—” She struggled for the right word.
“The enemy,” Bucky supplied, his jaw tightening.
Isabelle’s heart sank, guilt gnawing at her insides like acid. These people had already lost everything—homes, livelihoods, stability—and here she was, harassing them for information, making demands. Just another entitled American with a badge and an agenda.
They continued their search, trying another group gathered around a communal cooking pot. The rich aroma of spices filled the air—cumin, coriander, and something earthier. Her stomach growled traitorously. She hadn’t eaten since that morning, and even then it had been a protein bar wolfed down on the walk over here.
A man stirred the pot with practiced movements, his forearms corded with lean muscle. Steam rose in lazy spirals, carrying the scent of vegetables and what might have been lamb. The group around him spoke in hushed tones, their conversation stopping abruptly as Bucky and Isabelle approached.
Bucky stepped forward this time, his metal hand tucked casually into his pocket. He’d learned long ago that hiding it sometimes made civilians more comfortable.
“That smells amazing,” he said, nodding toward the pot. His voice carried none of the Winter Soldier’s menace—just a Brooklyn drawl softened by decades of displacement.
The man glanced up, his dark and wary eyes assessing them both before he offered a single, cautious nod.
Bucky shifted his weight, his stance deliberately casual. “My friend and I,” he continued, gesturing toward Isabelle with his flesh hand, “we’re trying to pay our respects to Donya Madani.” He paused, gauging the man’s reaction.
The effect was immediate. The man’s face shuddered, his grip tightening on the wooden spoon. The woman beside him muttered something in a language Isabelle didn’t recognize, her tone sharp with warning.
“No English,” the man said gruffly, turning his back on them. The dismissal was unmistakable. “No English.”
Isabelle caught the woman’s gaze for a split second before she too turned away. There was something in her eyes—not just fear, but anger. Defiance.
Bucky didn’t push. He simply nodded and stepped back, his hand finding the small of Isabelle’s back to guide her away. His touch was light but certain, the pressure of his palm warm through her jacket.
As they walked away, Isabelle glanced back to find the cook watching them from the corner of his eye, his expression troubled. When he caught her looking, he quickly returned his attention to the pot, stirring with renewed vigor.
They tried three more groups with similar results—terse denials, averted gazes, and the repeated claim of language barriers that Isabelle suspected were largely convenient fiction. With each rejection, the knot of frustration in her chest tightened.
As they rounded the corner, Isabelle spotted Sam standing with his arms crossed, his expression shifting from concern to suspicion as he watched something just beyond them. Isabelle followed his gaze, her breath catching in her throat.
Zemo was crouched down in the dirt, the knees of his immaculate trousers surely gathering dust as he lowered himself to eye level with a cluster of wide-eyed refugee children. The same children who had been whispering and pointing earlier now gathered around him like moths to a flame.
With the theatrical flourish of a stage magician, Zemo reached into his pocket and produced a small cloth bag. He loosened the drawstring with nimble fingers, his movements deliberate, almost ceremonial. The children leaned forward in unison, necks craning to see the treasure within.
“Go on,” Zemo encouraged. “There’s plenty for everyone.” He upended the bag over a rickety folding table, and a cascade of brightly colored candies tumbled out—reds, blues, yellows, and greens stark against the drab surroundings. In the dusty monochrome of the refugee camp, they looked almost obscenely vibrant.
The children hesitated, exchanging quick, uncertain glances. A silent negotiation passed between them, the universal language of children deciding if something too good to be true might actually be true. Then, as if responding to some invisible signal, they surged forward. Small hands darted out, quick and desperate, snatching up the sweets before they might disappear.
Isabelle sidled up to Sam, her shoulder brushing against his arm. “What the hell is he doing?” she murmured, unable to tear her eyes away from the bizarre tableau.
The muscle in Bucky’s jaw jumped as he clenched his teeth. “I don’t know,” he growled, the words low and rough in his throat, “but I don’t like it.”
Sam shook his head, a wry smile tugging at one corner of his mouth despite the wariness in his eyes. “Man’s handing out candy like some twisted Santa Claus.” He huffed a breath that wasn’t quite a laugh. “Gotta admit, I didn’t see that coming.”
As they watched, Zemo produced another handful of sweets from his seemingly bottomless pockets. His lips moved in what must have been questions or encouragement, but his voice had dropped too low to hear. His back was purposefully turned to them, shoulders angled just so—a calculated position that screamed awareness of their presence while maintaining the illusion of privacy with the children.
“This is starting to feel like another dead end,” Sam sighed, the weight of frustration evident in his voice. He shifted his weight, combat boots grinding against the dusty ground. “We’re not getting anywhere with the adults, and now Zemo’s gone and turned himself into the Pied Piper of refugee kids.”
Isabelle couldn’t help the snort that escaped her. “Maybe we should get him a flute to complete the look,” she said, the corner of her mouth quirking up.
Bucky shot her a look that was half-amused, half-exasperated, the ice in his eyes thawing slightly. “Don’t give him any ideas.”
As if sensing their scrutiny, Zemo straightened up in one fluid motion. He brushed imaginary dust from his impeccable coat with fastidious care, each movement precise and deliberate. The self-satisfied smirk that played at the corners of his mouth as he sauntered toward them made Isabelle’s fingers itch to slap it off his face.
“Cute kids,” Zemo remarked casually, as if discussing the weather rather than potentially manipulating vulnerable children.
Isabelle stepped forward, positioning herself between Zemo and the children still hovering nearby. “What are you playing at, Zemo?” The words came out sharper than she’d intended, edged with the frustration that had been building all afternoon.
“Playing?” Zemo’s eyebrows arched with theatrical offense, though his eyes remained coldly amused. “My dear Miss Stark, I assure you I never play.” He adjusted his cuffs—a nervous tic or calculated distraction, she couldn’t tell. “I simply... adapt to my circumstances. Unlike you three, who insist on battering down doors that are clearly locked against you.”
Bucky moved to stand beside Isabelle, crossing his arms. “Yeah, like a chameleon,” he growled. “Or a snake.”
“Such hostility, James,” Zemo chided, his accent thickening with mock hurt. “When I’ve been nothing but helpful. Children see everything, you know. They hear everything. They simply lack the context to understand what information is valuable.” His lips curved into that infuriating half-smile. “Fortunately, I do not share that limitation.”
Sam stepped closer, his boots crunching on the hard-packed dirt. The late afternoon sun caught the edges of his profile, highlighting the tension in his jaw. “And did your ‘unique approach’ actually get us anything useful? Or are you just messing with kids for the fun of it?”
Zemo’s eyes gleamed with something that might have been triumph. “Perhaps I learned where Donya Madani’s funeral is being held.” He paused, clearly savoring their reactions. “Or perhaps I merely discovered which children have the sweetest teeth. Who can say?”
Isabelle felt her power stir beneath her skin, a prickling heat that responded to her rising irritation. She forced it down, focusing on the solid ground beneath her feet, the cool air filling her lungs. The children were still watching them from a distance, their small faces curious and wary. What had Zemo asked them? What had they told him, those little ones with candy-stained fingers and too-old eyes?
“You better start talking, Zemo,” Bucky said, his voice dropping to that dangerous register. “What exactly did you find out?”
“Patience, James.” Zemo held up his hands in a placating gesture that somehow managed to seem both submissive and condescending. “All will be revealed in due time.” His gaze swept over the camp, lingering on a group of adults watching them with undisguised suspicion. “Perhaps we should continue this conversation somewhere more... private? Our presence here is causing quite the stir.”
“The apartment,” Sam decided, his voice low and tight with frustration. “We’ll talk there.”
Zemo inclined his head in acknowledgment, a gesture so formal it bordered on parody. “A wise decision, Sam.” The way his name rolled off his tongue with just enough emphasis to make it unclear whether he was being respectful or mocking. As they left the camp behind, Isabelle couldn’t shake the feeling that they were walking straight into Zemo’s carefully laid trap—and the worst part was, they had no choice but to spring it.
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Back at the safehouse, Zemo pushes one button too many—digging into Isabelle’s past, throwing Bucky’s guilt in his face, and lighting a match to a room already soaked in gasoline. Bucky snaps first, but it’s Isabelle who nearly crosses the line.
Her powers surge. Zemo chokes. And for one terrifying moment, she doesn’t stop.
When the moment breaks, Isabelle walks out—shaken, ashamed, and barely holding herself together.
But she’s not alone for long.
Bucky goes after her.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 52: Pressure Points
Chapter 52: Pressure Points
Summary:
Zemo knows exactly where to press.
The tension in the safehouse snaps like a tripwire — a funeral on the horizon, a team unraveling, and Isabelle one provocation away from doing something she can’t take back.But when words fail, when control slips, and when the voice inside whispers just one more push... it’s not logic that reaches her.
It’s Bucky.
And that might be the most dangerous part of all.
Notes:
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Chapter Text
The door to the apartment swung open with a weary creak, the hinges protesting as if they too felt the weight of the group’s exhaustion.
Sam slumped onto the worn leather couch, his fingers absently tracing the cracks in the material. The leather squeaked beneath him as he settled his weight, shoulders sagging as he exhaled heavily.
Bucky paced the perimeter of the room like a caged animal, his left arm catching the dull afternoon light that filtered through the dusty windows. Each step was slow and careful, the floorboards creaking beneath his combat boots. His jaw worked back and forth, teeth grinding together as he made another circuit of the living room.
Isabelle moved to the window, her reflection ghostly in the glass as she gazed out at the streets below. Riga sprawled before her as she pressed her palm against the cool glass, feeling the vibration of distant traffic through her fingertips.
During the walk back, she had found herself unable to shake the image of the people at the camp. With their shuttered expressions, the way they’d closed ranks against outsiders. There was something deeply familiar about that instinct to protect your own, to build walls against a world that had already taken too much. She understood it in her bones.
Behind her, Zemo moved through the kitchen area. The soft click of porcelain and the gentle whistle of a kettle provided an oddly domestic hum to their grim circumstances.
Bucky stopped his pacing abruptly, turning to face Zemo, who now held an ornate tea tray. “Talk,” he demanded, the single word carrying the weight of a threat. “That little girl. What’d she tell you?”
Zemo carried the tray, a teapot and four delicate cups resting atop it, over, setting it down on the coffee table. A faint smile played at the corners of his mouth, the smile of a man who knew his value had just increased.
“Patience, James,” he chided, pouring the steaming amber liquid. “Good intelligence, like good tea, should not be rushed.”
“We don’t have time for your games,” Sam warned, though he accepted the offered cup with a nod of grudging thanks. He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, the lines around his eyes deepening as he stared at the floor. “We need to figure out our next move,” he said, voice low and steady despite the frustration evident in the set of his shoulders. “Before more people get hurt.”
Zemo’s eyes glittered with amusement, pausing and savoring their attention like a fine wine. “The little girl shared some... interesting information,” he said, his voice low, each word measured for maximum effect. “The funeral is tomorrow morning.”
Zemo extended the final cup toward Isabelle, his expression unreadable save for the calculating gleam in his eyes. Their fingers brushed as she accepted it, and she fought the instinct to recoil from his touch.
She stared down at the amber liquid, watching her distorted reflection ripple across its surface. Her father’s eyes stared back at her—Stark eyes, too perceptive, too haunted. The memory of another funeral pressed against her consciousness.
“Maybe...” Isabelle looked up, meeting three pairs of expectant eyes. “Maybe we should just leave them alone,” she blurted out, the words tumbling free before she could catch them. Her voice sounded foreign to her own ears—too high, too fragile, too young. “At least until after the funeral.”
Sam and Bucky turned to her in unison, identical expressions of shock etched across their features. Zemo’s eyes narrowed fractionally, a cruel smirk playing at the corners of his mouth as he took a deliberate sip of his tea.
Heat crawled up her neck. She set her cup down with more force than intended, tea sloshing over the rim and spreading across the scarred coffee table in a golden puddle.
“I know how it feels to have the worst day of your life become a spectacle,” she continued, hands now free to gesture emphatically, her father’s trademark animation taking over her body. “These people have lost everything—their homes, their community, and now this woman who took care of them. They’re scared and angry and grieving.” She met Sam and Bucky’s intense gazes, refusing to back down despite the chill it sent through her. “Maybe crashing a funeral isn’t the way to do this.”
Something flickered across Bucky’s face—recognition, perhaps, or the ghost of his own losses.
Sam leaned forward, the leather couch protesting beneath him. His brow furrowed as he considered her words, the lines around his eyes deepening. When he spoke, his voice carried that steady cadence that had calmed her through more than one crisis.
“We’re not going to crash it, Izzy,” he said. “We just need to find Karli, try to talk to her.”
Isabelle felt her shoulders loosen slightly at his reasonable tone, but Zemo’s derisive snort shattered the momentary relief.
“Talk,” Zemo repeated, drawing out the word like it was something distasteful on his tongue. He set his teacup down. His eyes, cold and calculating, swept over them. “Your optimism is charming, Sam, if woefully misplaced. The girl is radicalized. She believes herself a revolutionary.”
He said revolutionary, like it was both amusing and pathetic
“And what would you suggest?” Isabelle challenged, crossing her arms tightly across her chest. The fabric of her jacket pulled taut across her shoulders. “Kill her? Right? Just another body to add to the funeral pyre?”
Zemo’s smile spread slowly, savoring the moment before the strike. “You speak as though you have never taken a life, Miss Stark.” His gaze flicked deliberately to her hands – hands that had once glowed with sickly green power as someone’s life drained away beneath them. “We both know that would be... inaccurate.”
Her eyes narrowed, and her mouth opened, but before she could bite back, Sam interjected.
“Isabelle has a point about respecting their grief,” he said, rising to his feet. “But we can’t just sit this out.” He turned to Isabelle, his expression softening at whatever he saw in her face. “People are dying.” He held her gaze, steady and unwavering. “We go, we observe, we try to make contact—peacefully. No confrontation unless absolutely necessary.”
Isabelle swallowed hard, feeling the tightness in her throat, but nodded reluctantly.
“And if Karli refuses your olive branch?” Zemo asked, eyeing them both. “What then, Avengers?”
The title hung in the air, a mockery of what they once were – what they were trying to be again. Sam’s jaw tightened. Bucky’s pacing intensified, his boots striking the floorboards with more force.
“Then we reassess,” Sam replied firmly. “But we don’t go in assuming the worst.”
“No,” Zemo chuckled, the sound devoid of any real humor. “That would be my job, wouldn’t it?” He reached for the teapot, refilling his cup with practiced elegance. “You prefer your delusions. The belief that words can solve what violence has begun.”
“Better than starting with violence,” Isabelle shot back, her temper flaring. “Some of us learn from our mistakes.”
“Do we?” Zemo’s eyebrow arched. “I wonder.” He tilted his head, studying her with the clinical interest of a scientist observing a specimen. “Isabelle Stark, lecturing on restraint. How... ironic.”
Bucky stopped pacing abruptly, his body going rigid. “Zemo,” he warned, his voice low and dangerous.
But Zemo wasn’t finished. He lifted his cup in a mock toast, his eyes never leaving Isabelle’s face. “But let’s not forget,” he interjected smoothly, “you’re not a terrorist bombing supply depots, like Karli.” His eyes locked onto Isabelle, cold and calculating. “No, you just drop cities on themselves, don’t you?”
The room fell silent for a heartbeat.
Then, with a blur of motion that made Isabelle’s head spin, Bucky moved. His left arm whirred, the plates shifting with a menacing ripple as his hand shot out, snatching the delicate teacup from Zemo’s grasp. In one effortless movement, he hurled it across the room. It shattered against the wall with a violent crash, tea splattering across the faded wallpaper, shards of porcelain raining to the floor.
Isabelle flinched, her heart hammering against her ribs. She’d seen Bucky angry before, but this was different. This wasn’t his usual controlled simmer – this was raw, barely contained fury. A flicker of what he’d been like on the plane when Zemo took his notebook. His eyes had gone cold, and his jaw was clenched so tight she could see the muscle jumping beneath his skin.
“Bucky, wait—” Sam started, but he was too late.
Bucky’s fisted the fur of Zemo’s collar, yanking upward with enough force that Zemo’s feet nearly left the ground, the Baron’s body lurching forward awkwardly. The coffee table groaned in protest as Zemo’s legs slammed against it, tea sloshing from the remaining cups and spreading across the scarred wood in amber puddles.
“You do not talk to her like that,” Bucky snarled, each word razor-sharp. His face was inches from Zemo’s, the cold fury that had transformed his features into something dangerous and unfamiliar.
His breath came in controlled, measured exhales that only emphasized the violence simmering beneath the surface.
“I don’t care what you think of me,” Bucky continued, his voice dropping to a deadly whisper. “But you will show her respect.” The plates in his arm shifted again, tightening his grip until the leather of Zemo’s collar creaked under the pressure. “The Doras are coming for you. Soon. Until then, keep your mouth shut unless we need something from you. Got it?”
Isabelle couldn’t look away from Bucky, struck by the intensity of his reaction. There was something in the set of his jaw, the fire in his eyes, that stirred something deep within her – a feeling she couldn’t quite name, but one that left her slightly breathless. Her heart pounded for reasons that had nothing to do with fear.
Zemo’s smirk never faltered, even as he dangled from Bucky’s grip. If anything, it widened, his eyes glittering with satisfaction as they darted between Bucky and Isabelle.
“Crystal clear, James,” he purred, his voice laced with amusement rather than fear. “Though I must say, your protective instincts are rather... illuminating.” His gaze slid to Isabelle, calculating and knowing. “One wonders what Miss Stark has done to inspire such fierce loyalty.”
Bucky’s grip tightened further, the metal of his hand creaking ominously as the plates compressed. “I said,” he growled, voice rising to a dangerous pitch, “shut your goddamned mouth.”
He gave Zemo a violent shake that rattled the Baron’s teeth. The movement was so sudden, so vicious, that Isabelle cringed.
“You think I don’t see what you’re doing?” Bucky’s voice had dropped again, low and threatening. “Trying to get inside our heads?” He leaned in closer, his nose almost touching Zemo’s. “That’s not happening. Not today.”
“Bucky—” Isabelle started, her voice catching in her throat.
Sam, who had been frozen in momentary shock, finally moved. He stood up, the leather couch protesting beneath him, and placed a steady hand on Bucky’s shoulder. “Take it easy, Bucky. You want to ease up on our resident sociopath before you wrinkle his fancy coat?”
Bucky didn’t loosen his grip. The metal plates in his arm recalibrated with a soft whir, responding to the surge of rage coursing through him. His fingers dug deeper into the fur of Zemo’s collar.
“No,” he growled, the word scraping through clenched teeth. “No, let’s give him what he wants.” He leaned in even closer, his nose almost touching Zemo’s. “Because this is clearly what you want. You want to push us? See how far we’ll go?”
The corner of Zemo’s mouth twitched upward, his expression one of clinical fascination rather than fear. Isabelle could almost see the mental notes he was taking, cataloging their reactions like specimens in a lab.
“Interesting that you assume I want something from you,” Zemo replied, his voice steady despite Bucky’s metal fist at his throat. His gaze slid past Bucky to land on Isabelle, then back to Bucky. “Perhaps I’m merely stating facts. Merely... curious.” He paused, letting the silence stretch taut between them. “Is this how you plan to make your amends, James? For killing her grandparents?”
Isabelle felt her breath catch. Zemo had a death wish.
“For standing by and watching all those terrible things her mother did to her?” Zemo continued, each word precisely aimed. “For being the reason why she betrayed her father in Siberia? Why the next time she saw her father was when he was on his deathbed?” His eyes narrowed, voice dropping to a silken whisper. “That’s the only reason why you care, correct? Guilt?”
Isabelle watched the color drain from Bucky’s face, saw the flicker of raw pain before it was consumed by white-hot fury. With a guttural roar that seemed to tear from somewhere deep inside him, Bucky slammed Zemo down onto the coffee table.
The wood cracked beneath the impact, splintering along its seams. Teacups and saucers clattered to the floor, shattering into fragments that skittered across the worn floorboards. Tea splashed upward, speckling Zemo’s immaculate coat with dark stains.
Bucky’s metal hand found Zemo’s throat, not squeezing tight enough to cut off his air, but the threat was unmistakable.
“You son of a—”
Zemo’s laughter cut through Bucky’s threat, but it died abruptly, his eyes widening in sudden confusion. His mouth opened and closed like a fish gasping for water, but no sound emerged. A violent shudder ran through his body as his face contorted in bewilderment and growing panic. Sam and Bucky exchanged confused glances, unaware of the source of Zemo’s sudden distress.
Isabelle felt it before she consciously registered what was happening—the familiar surge of power coursing through her veins like liquid nitrogen, a tingling sensation that started in her fingertips and spread up her arms in pulsing waves. Her vision sharpened, the edges of the room taking on an otherworldly green tinge as though she were looking through night-vision goggles.
She could feel Zemo’s pulse as if it were her own, could sense the racing of his heart, the rush of blood through his veins, the electrical impulses firing through his nervous system. It was intoxicating, the power she held over him, and for a moment, she reveled in it.
He deserves this, whispered the voice in her head. He hurt Bucky. He’s trying to hurt you. Make him pay.
Sam was the first to notice. His eyes widened as he took in the faint green glow emanating from Isabelle’s fingertips, the unnatural stillness of her posture.
“Izzy,” he said, his voice tight with alarm. He took a cautious step toward her, hands raised in a placating gesture. “Isabelle, don’t. You’ll regret it.”
Bucky’s head snapped around, his gaze locking onto Isabelle. The rage drained from his face, replaced by shock as he took in her glowing green eyes and the outstretched hand that trembled with barely contained power. He released Zemo, stumbling back a step, his expression shifting from fury to horror.
They don’t understand what he is, the voice hissed, what he’s done, what he’ll continue to do if you let him live.
“No,” Isabelle said, her voice unnaturally calm, hollow, as though it were coming from somewhere deep underground. She clenched her hand into a tight fist, her knuckles blanching white. “I won’t.”
Zemo’s face was turning an alarming shade of crimson, a thin trickle of blood appearing from his left nostril, trailing down over his lips. His eyes bulged, darting frantically between Bucky and Sam, silently pleading for intervention.
That’s it, the voice purred. Feel his heart struggling. Feel his lungs burning. This is power. This is control. This is justice.
Sam looked between Isabelle and Zemo, desperation etched into the lines of his face. He took another step toward her, palms still raised.
“This isn’t you, Isabelle,” he pleaded, his voice steady despite the fear in his eyes. “You’re better than this. We’re better than this.”
Are you? the voice challenged. Better than what? Better than your mother? Better than your father? They were killers, too. It’s in your blood.
Isabelle felt herself slipping deeper into the cold embrace of her power, felt it wrapping around her consciousness like tendrils of frost. It would be so easy to squeeze just a little harder, to feel the flutter of Zemo’s heart as it struggled against her grip, to watch the light fade from those calculating eyes.
Do it, the voice urged, no longer a whisper but a command. Finish it.
She tightened her fist incrementally, watching with detached fascination as Zemo’s back arched in silent agony, his fingers clawing at his own throat as though trying to pry away invisible hands.
“Isabelle.”
Bucky’s voice cut through the fog in her mind, quiet but firm. Not pleading like Sam’s, not demanding—just her name, spoken with a gentleness that seemed impossible from a man who moments ago had been consumed by rage.
He stepped closer, his left arm gleaming dully in the afternoon light. He didn’t reach for her, didn’t try to stop her physically. Instead, he moved into her line of sight, positioning himself between her and Zemo.
“Isabelle,” he said again, softer this time. “Look at me.”
Don’t listen to him, the voice snarled. He’s trying to stop you. A hypocrite. They all want to control you.
But something in Bucky’s voice—in the way he said her name—made her hesitate. Her gaze shifted from Zemo to Bucky’s face, and what she saw there wasn’t fear or disgust or disappointment. It was recognition. Understanding.
“I know,” he said quietly, holding her gaze. “I’ve been where you are,” Bucky continued, taking another cautious step toward her. “And I know how good it feels. How right it feels in the moment.” His eyes never left hers, blue and steady and full of a pain she recognized.
Isabelle’s fingers trembled, the green glow pulsing like a heartbeat, dimming then brightening with each ragged breath she took. Something in Bucky’s voice—the raw honesty, the absence of judgment—reached past the cold fury that had encased her.
“He deserves it,” she whispered, her voice cracking. “After what he said to you. What he did to you.” Her gaze flicked to Zemo’s contorted face, then back to Bucky. “To all of us.”
A muscle worked in Bucky’s jaw. For a moment, she thought he might agree with her, might step aside and let her finish what she’d started.
“Maybe he does,” Bucky conceded, his flesh hand clenching at his side. “But you don’t deserve what killing him would do to you.” He extended his right hand—his human hand—palm up. Not reaching for her, not demanding. Offering. “The blood never washes off. Not completely.”
But there was something in Bucky’s eyes—not fear of her, but fear for her—that made the voice falter.
“I can feel his heartbeat,” Isabelle admitted, her words barely audible. “I can feel it struggling.” She looked down at her glowing hand with a mixture of horror and fascination. “It would be so easy to just... squeeze.”
“I know,” Bucky nodded, a shadow crossing his face. “God, I know. But that’s not who you are. And I know that every time you cross that line, a piece of you stays on the other side.”
Behind him, Zemo made a strangled sound, his face turning an alarming shade of purple. Sam hovered at the edge of her vision, tense and ready to intervene, but smart enough to know that Bucky was reaching her in a way he couldn’t.
The green light flickered, dimming slightly as uncertainty crept in.
Isabelle felt something crack in her chest—a hairline fracture in the icy resolve that had gripped her. The voice in her head screamed in protest, but it sounded farther away now, muffled by Bucky’s quiet certainty. She gasped, a shuddering breath that seemed to come from the depths of her soul, and the green glow vanished from her fingertips.
Zemo collapsed forward, coughing violently, one hand clutching at his throat while the other braced against the shattered remains of the coffee table. Blood trickled from his nose, staining his immaculate coat.
Isabelle stared at her hands, trembling violently now. They looked ordinary—pale, slender fingers with chipped black nail polish—not the instruments of death they’d almost become. She flexed them experimentally, as if making sure they still belonged to her.
When she looked up, her eyes met Zemo’s. The Baron’s face was flushed, his breathing ragged. “I’m not sorry,” she said, her voice steady despite the tremor in her hands. Her words carried in the silent room, clear and cold. “And if you open your mouth one more time, I swear to God, no one will be able to talk me out of finishing what I started.”
The threat hung in the air between them, not empty bravado but a promise. Zemo’s eyes narrowed slightly, but for once, he seemed to recognize the wisdom in silence.
Isabelle turned away, unable to look at any of them—at Sam’s concern, at Bucky’s understanding, at Zemo’s calculating gaze. The walls of the apartment suddenly felt too close, the air too thick with tension and unspoken words.
She moved toward the door, each step deliberate, fighting the urge to run. Her heart hammered against her ribs, her breath coming in short, controlled bursts as she struggled to keep herself together until she could fall apart in private.
“Izzy—” Sam started, taking a step toward her.
“Don’t,” she cut him off, not turning around. Her hand found the doorknob, cool metal against her feverish skin. “Just... don’t.”
She yanked the door open with more force than necessary, the hinges groaning in protest. The hallway beyond offered escape from the suffocating tension, from Zemo’s knowing eyes, from the horrifying realization of how close she’d come to crossing a line she couldn’t uncross.
As the door slammed behind her, the sound echoing through the empty hallway, Isabelle leaned against the wall and closed her eyes. Her hands still trembled, and somewhere deep inside, the voice waited, patient and knowing.
Next time, it whispered. Next time, he won’t be able to stop you.
Sam looked between Bucky and Zemo, tension pulling his shoulders tight as his expression pinched in concern. The air in the apartment felt thick with unspoken threats and the lingering green energy that had crackled around Isabelle moments before.
“Everyone needs to take a breath,” he said. He ran a hand over his face, fingertips pressing against his temples where a headache was beginning to throb. “Just... give each other some damn space.”
Zemo remained sprawled against the shattered remnants of the coffee table, one hand still at his throat where invisible fingers had nearly crushed his windpipe. Blood had dried in a rusty streak beneath his nose, stark against his ashen complexion. His usual poise was fractured, revealing something raw and human beneath the calculated exterior.
With visible effort, Zemo pushed himself into a sitting position, his movements lacking their usual fluidity. A shake ran through his hands as he attempted to straighten his collar, the fabric now wrinkled and stained with tea and blood.
“Well,” he rasped, the word scraping painfully from his damaged throat. He coughed once, twice, the sound wet and painful. When he spoke again, his voice emerged as a hoarse whisper. “That was certainly... invigorating.”
Despite the pallor of his skin and the barely concealed trembling of his fingers, a sardonic smile played at the corners of his mouth. He gestured toward the fallen teapot, porcelain fragments scattered across the floor in a constellation of white shards. Tea had soaked into the worn floorboards, forming a dark stain that resembled dried blood.
“Cherry blossom tea?” he offered, his attempt at nonchalance undermined by the fear that still lingered in his eyes – a fear he couldn’t quite mask despite his best efforts.
Sam exhaled sharply, turning away from Zemo with a muttered curse. The Baron’s ability to provoke was matched only by his apparent death wish. Sam moved toward the window where Isabelle had stood earlier, needing distance from both men before he lost what remained of his composure.
Bucky’s glare could have melted vibranium. The muscle in his jaw worked rhythmically as he clenched and unclenched his teeth, his metal hand opening and closing in an unconscious echo. The plates in his arm recalibrated with a soft whir, responding to the fury still coursing through his system.
“No,” he growled, the single syllable carrying the weight of decades of rage. He stepped deliberately over the broken teacups, the crunch of porcelain beneath his boots punctuating his words. “You go ahead.”
The invitation dripped with menace. Bucky’s eyes never left Zemo as he backed toward the door, unwilling to turn his back on the man who had once unmade him with nothing but words. The memory of Isabelle’s face – of the hollow emptiness in her eyes as green power had coursed through her veins – burned in his mind.
As his hand found the doorknob, cold metal against his feverish skin, Bucky paused. He threw one last look over his shoulder at Zemo, who had managed to pull himself onto the couch. The Baron’s smirk had returned, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes, which remained wary and calculating as they tracked Bucky’s movements.
“Do anything like that again,” Bucky said, his voice deceptively soft, “and I’ll personally finish what she started.”
Sam turned from the window, alarm flashing across his features. “Bucky—”
But Bucky had already yanked the door open, the hinges protesting with a metallic shriek that matched the screaming in his head. He needed to find Isabelle. Needed to make sure she was okay.
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6 months ago.
The cabin was too quiet. The grief too loud.On the eve of her father’s funeral, Isabelle finds herself behind the wheel of a borrowed car, haunted by ghosts she can’t outrun.
Natasha is gone. Tony is gone.
And all that’s left is the open road, a city that doesn’t sleep, and a voice in her head that sounds far too much like her mother.
She knows where she’s going.
Steve's.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 53: The Winner Takes It All
Chapter 53: The Winner Takes It All
Summary:
She runs.
From the lake house. From the perfect furniture and the pictures that don’t include her.
From a funeral she isn’t ready for.And when the road ends, it’s Steve who answers the door.
Soft light. Gentle hands. Chamomile tea.
She’s not okay, and for once, she doesn’t pretend to be.Grief doesn’t need words.
Sometimes, just not being alone is enough.
Notes:
Okay, so fun fact, this was originally the very first chapter I wrote for this fic. Back when I first started drafting All the Time in the World, this was the scene I imagined opening on. But something never felt quite right about starting here…until now. Now it fits. Now it hurts. Because we know. Because we know what Steve did.
I’m so excited to finally share this chapter with you. It’s the perfect build-up, and I hope it hits just as hard for you as it did for me writing it.
Thank you all so much for the love and support!!! 💚💚💚
(Also! I'm going to update What Came Before too, so check that out if you're following both!)🎵Chapter song vibes: "The Winner Takes It All" by Carla Bruni
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Chapter Text
6 months ago
Isabelle’s trembling fingers closed around the cold metal of the car keys. The lakeside cabin—a place that should have felt like home—was suffocating her with its perfect domesticity. Moonlight sliced through the windows in silver blades, casting long shadows across the polished granite countertops and the living room beyond.
She ran her fingertips along the edge of the kitchen island, feeling the cool stone beneath her skin. Everything here was carefully curated. The state-of-the-art appliances hidden behind warm wooden panels, the plush throw blankets artfully arranged on the sofa, and the framed photos on every surface.
A perfect family home.
Not hers.
Her gaze was drawn to a family photo propped against the fruit bowl. Tony’s arm draped around Pepper’s shoulders, both of them beaming at the camera with genuine joy. Morgan, perched on Tony’s hip, wore that mischievous grin that was pure Stark. The same grin Isabelle had seen in her father, the same one she sometimes caught in her own reflection.
Her chest tightened, a fresh wave of grief washing over her with such force she had to grip the counter to stay upright. She didn’t belong here.
With a shaky breath, Isabelle turned away from the photo and slipped out the front door. The crisp night air hit her lungs like a slap, a welcome shock to her system after the stifling atmosphere inside. Pine needles crunched beneath her boots as she made her way down the path to the garage, the scent of forest and lake water filling her nostrils.
The garage door opened with a soft hum. Isabelle’s gaze swept over the two cars inside, her feet carrying her toward the one on the right without conscious thought. In a blink, her hand hovered over the door handle of a cherry-red Audi—her father’s favorite.
She squeezed her eyes shut, willing the phantom sound away. When she opened them again, her focus shifted to the other vehicle—a sleek, understated black sedan. Its presence was almost apologetic next to the Audi’s bold declaration. Isabelle’s hand dropped to her side as she stepped toward the more subtle option, the one she’d grabbed the keys for.
Her throat tightened as she reached for the sedan’s door handle. This was the smart choice, the one that wouldn’t draw attention. Yet a part of her ached to slide behind the wheel of the Audi, to surround herself with one last piece of her father.
“Damn it,” she muttered, her voice cracking. She opened the sedan’s door, and the smell of leather and something faintly citrusy—so different from the familiar scent of motor oil and expensive cologne that clung to Tony’s vehicles—washed over her.
As she slid into the driver’s seat, Isabelle caught a glimpse of herself in the rearview mirror. Her eyes were red-rimmed, her face pale in the dim light. Dark circles shadowed her eyes, and her hair, dyed black from the years on the run from Ross after the Accords, hung limp around her face. She barely recognized the person staring back at her.
Turning away from her reflection, she inserted the key into the ignition, her fingers still trembling slightly. The engine purred to life, the sound thunderous in the night’s silence. Isabelle flinched, her heart racing as the noise reverberated through the garage. Her hands gripped the steering wheel, knuckles turning white as she watched the garage door slowly rise, revealing the dark, tree-lined driveway beyond.
For a moment, Isabelle hesitated. Tomorrow they would bury her father. Tomorrow, she would stand beside Pepper and Morgan, Rhodey and Happy, and pretend she belonged there. Tomorrow, she would face a world without Tony Stark.
With a deep breath, Isabelle shifted the car into reverse and pressed down on the accelerator. The tires squealed against the concrete as she backed out, far too fast. She winced at the noise, knowing it would likely wake those inside the cabin. Rhodey, Happy, Pepper... Morgan.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered, her voice barely audible over the engine’s rumble.
As she turned onto the dark street, Isabelle was swallowed by the night. Trees loomed on either side of the road, their branches reaching toward a sky scattered with indifferent stars. The sedan’s headlights carved a narrow path through the darkness, but beyond their reach, the world was a void.
Her mind wouldn’t stop. Couldn’t stop.
The events of the past week played on loop, a relentless torment she couldn’t escape. The battle against Thanos—chaos and destruction raining from the sky. The surge of hope as the dust returned, herself included. Five years had gone by in what felt like seconds to her. And then...
The devastating silence that followed her father’s final snap.
Her grip tightened on the steering wheel until her knuckles ached. The image of Tony’s body slumped against debris, the right side of his face scorched beyond recognition, the light in his reactor dimming—it was burned into her retinas.
“You weren’t supposed to die,” she whispered, voice cracking. “Not you too.”
And Nat. God, Nat was gone too. The realization hit her again like a brutal blow, forcing the air from her lungs. Her best friend. Her sister in everything but blood. The only person who’d seen through Isabelle’s walls from the beginning, who’d taught her to fight, to survive, to trust again after her mother’s betrayal.
Sacrificed for a fucking stone. A stone that was supposed to bring everyone back. But not everyone, as it turned out.
A sob tore from Isabelle’s throat, raw and primal. She blinked rapidly, struggling to focus on the road through the haze of tears. The car swerved slightly, and she overcorrected, the tires screeching against asphalt. Her heart pounded against her ribs, each beat a painful reminder that she was alive while they weren’t.
The road stretched endlessly before her, a black ribbon cutting through the forest. She furiously wiped at her eyes with the back of her hand, forcing herself to focus. The last thing she needed was to wrap Tony’s car around a tree the night before his funeral.
Trying to distract herself, she reached for the radio, her fingers fumbling with the unfamiliar controls. The silence was becoming unbearable, filled with too many ghosts.
Suddenly, AC/DC blared from the speakers, the opening riff of “Back in Black” startling her so badly she jerked the wheel. It was one of her father’s playlists, a collection of songs that had once filled his workshop.
“Fuck off!” Isabelle choked out, her voice breaking as she jabbed at the controls with trembling fingers. “Not now, not—” Her words dissolved into another sob as the music cut off abruptly, leaving her alone with the hum of the engine and the sound of her ragged breathing.
The silence pressed in on her again, heavy and oppressive. Isabelle’s foot pressed harder on the accelerator, the speedometer needle climbing past seventy, eighty, ninety as if she could outrun the grief that consumed her. This cold, hollow feeling had taken residence in her chest since watching the life fade from her father’s eyes.
Her powers stirred beneath her skin, responding to her emotional state. The familiar itch crawled up her arms, across her shoulders, down her spine—the prelude to loss of control. She could feel the car’s interior temperature dropping as her body leached the heat from the air around her.
The sedan ate up the miles, carrying Isabelle further and further from the lakeside cabin. The quiet almost soothed her frayed nerves. Almost. But every time she closed her eyes for longer than a blink, she saw them: Tony’s burned face. Natasha not by their side. The way Morgan had looked at her earlier that day, with Tony’s eyes in a face that was pure Pepper, asking innocently when her daddy was coming home.
Two hours slipped by in a blur of shadowy trees and empty roads. As the forest gave way to city streets, Isabelle’s grip on the steering wheel tightened. New York’s familiar skyline loomed ahead, a bittersweet sight that made her heart clench. The city was alive with lights, oblivious to her pain.
She propped her elbow against the cold window, resting her forehead against her fist as she navigated the streets of New York City. The GPS chirped directions in a voice that felt obscenely cheerful, each turn bringing her deeper into the heart of the city she’d once known so well.
New York had always been a living entity to Isabelle—breathing, pulsing with energy at all hours. But tonight, the streets were unnaturally still, as if the city itself was holding its breath. Families reunited after five impossible years kept most people indoors, their joy a stark contrast to the hollow ache in her chest.
Streetlights cast pools of amber that illuminated nothing but empty sidewalks and abandoned storefronts. Shop windows that should have glowed with life were dark, their displays frozen in time. Had this been what the last five years had been like? A world half-empty, going through the motions of existing?
As she crossed the bridge into Brooklyn, the weight of her destination pressed down on her. Steve’s neighborhood. Her hands tightened on the wheel until her knuckles blanched white. What the hell was she doing? It was nearly 3:00 a.m. The funeral was in less than twelve hours. She should be back at the lake house, helping Pepper with the arrangements, being there for Morgan, not running away like a coward.
Just like your father, a voice whispered in her head, sounding eerily like her mother’s, always running when things get hard.
“Shut up,” Isabelle hissed, blinking back fresh tears.
Steve’s building was nestled between two taller structures, its brick facade weathered but well-maintained. Isabelle pulled the sedan to the curb, engine idling as she stared up at the rows of windows—some lit despite the hour, others dark and silent. Steve had gotten this place during the five years she’d been gone, dust on the wind. He’d always talked about finding a place in Brooklyn, mentioned it during late-night conversations at the compound when neither of them could sleep. A small, fleeting smile tugged at her lips.
At least one of them had gotten what they wanted, even if it took the end of half the world to make it happen.
Isabelle killed the engine, plunging the car into silence. With mechanical movements, she unbuckled her seatbelt and stepped out into the cool night air. The door closed with a soft thud that seemed to echo in the quiet street. Isabelle wrapped her arms around herself, suddenly aware she’d left the cabin wearing only leggings and a thin tank top. The chill didn’t bother her, but the vulnerability of being so exposed did.
A single yellow light illuminated the building’s entrance. Isabelle approached slowly, each footfall feeling heavier than the last. The buzzer panel gleamed dully in the weak light, a grid of names and buttons. She scanned the list once, twice, her eyes struggling to focus on the small print.
Rogers, S. Apartment 4 B.
Her finger hovered over the button. What would she even say? Hey, Steve, sorry to wake you, but I took a car and ran away from my dad’s funeral preparations because I’m falling apart? She could almost hear Natasha’s voice in her head: That’s exactly what you say, Izzy—the truth.
The thought of Nat sent a fresh wave of pain through her chest. Isabelle leaned her forehead against the cool metal of the intercom panel, eyes squeezed shut.
Before she could change her mind, she jabbed the button for 4 B. The buzz was jarring in the quiet street, making her flinch. Seconds stretched into what felt like minutes. She pressed again, longer this time, panic rising in her throat. What if he wasn’t home? What if he was asleep and couldn’t hear the buzzer? What if—
“Hello?” Steve’s voice crackled through the speaker, thick with sleep but alert. Always alert, even now.
Isabelle opened her mouth, but no sound came out. Her throat closed up, choking on words she couldn’t form.
“Hello?” Steve repeated, concern now evident in his tone. “Who’s there?”
“Steve?” Her voice cracked. She cleared her throat, trying again. “It’s... It’s Izzy.”
There was a beat of silence. “Isabelle?” The sleep was gone from his voice now, replaced with sharp worry. “What’s wrong? Are you okay?”
She pressed her palm flat against the brick wall, steadying herself. “I’m sorry, I know it’s late, I just... I couldn’t...” The words died in her throat, replaced by a sob she couldn’t quite swallow.
“Stay right there,” Steve said immediately. “I’m coming down.”
Before she could protest, the intercom went silent. Isabelle stepped back from the door, suddenly unsure. Maybe this was a mistake. She could still leave, get back in the car, drive... where? Back to the lake house? Into the Hudson?
The building’s front door swung open before she could decide. Steve stood in the doorway, wearing gray sweatpants and a white T-shirt that looked as though it had been hastily pulled on. His hair was mussed from sleep, his expression a mixture of concern and relief. He took one look at her and his features softened with understanding.
“Belle,” he said quietly, stepping forward.
That was all it took. The sound of her name in his voice—gentle, worried, safe—broke something inside her. A sob tore from her throat, raw and painful. Her knees buckled, and suddenly Steve was there, strong arms catching her before she could hit the ground.
“I’ve got you,” he murmured, pulling her against his chest. “I’ve got you.”
Isabelle clutched at his shirt, burying her face against the soft fabric as her body shook with the force of her grief. He smelled like soap and sleep and home—a scent that had nothing to do with the lake house or the compound or any physical place.
“He’s gone,” she choked out, the words muffled against his chest. “They’re both gone, Steve.”
His arms tightened around her. “I know,” he said, his voice rough with his own grief. “I know.”
For a long moment, they stayed like that—Isabelle falling apart and Steve holding her together on the steps of his building, the night quiet around them save for her broken sobs. Eventually, her breathing began to steady, the worst of the storm passing for now.
Steve pulled back just enough to look at her face, his hands gently gripping her shoulders. “Let’s get you inside,” he said softly. “It’s cold out here.”
Isabelle nodded, suddenly exhausted. The adrenaline that had carried her this far was draining away, leaving her hollow and aching. Steve kept an arm around her shoulders as he guided her into the building, supporting more of her weight than she wanted to admit she needed.
The elevator was old, with a gate that Steve pulled shut manually. It groaned as it carried them upward, the sound oddly comforting in its imperfection. Isabelle leaned against the wall, watching Steve’s profile in the dim light. The lines around his eyes seemed deeper than she remembered, the set of his jaw tighter. He was hurting too.
“I stole Pepper’s car,” she said suddenly, the confession spilling out. “Just... took the keys and left. In the middle of the night. The night before his funeral.” She laughed, a broken sound with no humor in it. “God, what is wrong with me?”
Steve turned to look at her, his blue eyes steady and free of judgment. “Nothing’s wrong with you, Belle. You’re grieving.”
“I shouldn’t have come here,” she whispered, gaze dropping to the floor. “I’m sorry.”
“Hey.” Steve’s voice was firm as he stepped closer, ducking his head to catch her eye. “Don’t apologize. Not for this. Not ever for this.” He paused, waiting until she met his gaze again. “I’m glad you came to me.”
The elevator shuddered to a stop on the fourth floor. Steve pulled the gate open and led her down a short hallway to apartment 4 B. His keys jingled softly as he unlocked the door, then stepped aside to let her enter first.
Steve gently helped Isabelle sit down on the worn leather couch, his movements careful as if she might shatter beneath his touch. The dim lamplight caught the angles of his face, deepening the worry lines around his eyes. He knelt before her, his large hands—hands that had wielded shields and saved worlds—enveloping her smaller ones with a gentleness that made her throat tighten.
“Belle,” he said, his voice a low rumble that seemed to vibrate through the quiet apartment. “Talk to me. What happened?”
Isabelle’s lower lip trembled as she tried to form words that wouldn’t come. Her gaze darted around the room, desperate for something to focus on besides the concern in Steve’s eyes. The apartment was sparse but unmistakably his—a bookshelf lined with history books and biographies, their spines cracked from use. A vintage record player sat in the corner beside a small collection of vinyl, most still in their original sleeves.
On the wall hung a framed sketch of the Brooklyn Bridge, the pencil strokes confident and precise—Steve’s own work, she recognized. The space felt both foreign and achingly familiar, like Steve himself.
“I couldn’t breathe,” she finally managed, her voice breaking on the last word. “The cabin was... everything there is so perfect, Steve. So fucking perfect. Morgan’s toys. Pepper’s books. Dad’s coffee mug still sitting on the counter like he’s going to walk in and grab it any second.”
Her fingers twisted in her lap, knuckles white.
“Every photo on every wall. Every piece of furniture. It’s all this... this shrine to the family he built after...” She swallowed hard. “After everything. After me.”
Steve’s thumb brushed over her knuckles, a small gesture of comfort that nearly broke her again. “You were his world, Belle,” he said softly. “You always were.”
“Then why does it feel like I’m trespassing?” The words burst from her, raw and unfiltered. “Why am I the one who feels like a ghost in that house? I should have been there for him. For all of them. Five years, Steve. Five fucking years I was gone, and he...” Her voice cracked. “He moved on. He built this whole life without me, and now he’s gone, and I don’t—I don’t know where I fit.”
A floorboard creaked in the hallway, drawing Isabelle’s attention. She blinked through her tears to see a figure standing uncertainly in the shadowy doorway.
Bucky Barnes, barefoot in a plain black t-shirt and gray sweatpants, his long hair loose around his shoulders. The silver of his vibranium arm caught the dim light as he shifted his weight, clearly uncomfortable at having stumbled into such a private moment.
Heat rushed to Isabelle’s cheeks. She quickly wiped at her face with the back of her hand, embarrassment cutting through her grief. She’d come here seeking Steve, not an audience for her breakdown. Her gaze dropped to the floor, unable to meet Bucky’s eyes.
“Sorry,” she mumbled, the word nearly inaudible.
Steve gave her shoulder a gentle squeeze before turning to address his friend. “Buck,” he said softly, an apologetic note in his voice. “I’m sorry if we woke you.”
Bucky shook his head, metal fingers absently pushing his hair back from his face. “Wasn’t really sleeping,” he replied, his voice low and rough with sleep. His eyes moved between Steve and Isabelle, lingering on her tear-streaked face. “Everything okay?”
A sound escaped Isabelle’s throat, somewhere between a laugh and a sob.
“No,” she choked out, the single syllable cracking open. “Nothing okay. Nothing’s been okay since I came back to my father trading himself for half the universe.” Fresh tears spilled down her cheeks, hot and unstoppable. Her words dissolved into silent, heaving sobs. She pressed her palms against her eyes, as if she could physically hold back the grief threatening to drown her.
Steve’s arm circled her shoulders, pulling her against his chest. Over her head, he exchanged a look with Bucky—a silent conversation born of decades of friendship. Bucky nodded once, understanding without words.
“I’ll make some coffee,” Bucky said quietly, his voice gentler than Isabelle had ever heard it. He hesitated, shifting his weight again, then added, “And maybe something stronger, if you want it.”
The unexpected offer made Isabelle look up, catching Bucky’s eye for the first time. There was no judgment in his gaze, only a quiet understanding that cut straight to her core. He knew about loss. About guilt. About coming back to a world that had moved on without you.
“Thanks,” she whispered, the word inadequate but sincere.
Bucky nodded, his expression softening just slightly. “Cream and sugar?” he asked, his voice low and rough around the edges.
“Black,” she replied, wiping at her eyes with the heel of her palm. She hesitated, then added, “But with like half of it sugar.” The confession of her sweet tooth felt oddly vulnerable, a trivial detail from before.
Bucky blinked, surprise flickering across his face before he nodded again. “So... coffee-flavored sugar water,” he said, the barest hint of amusement warming his tone.
Despite everything, Isabelle felt her lips twitch. “Pretty much,” she admitted. “Dad used to say I was ruining perfectly good coffee.”
The mention of Tony hung in the air between them. Bucky’s jaw tightened before he turned toward the kitchen, his footsteps nearly silent on the worn hardwood floor.
Isabelle listened to the soft sounds drifting from the kitchen—water running, cabinet doors opening and closing, the gentle clinking of mugs being set on the counter. The normalcy of it was almost unbearable.
Steve gently cupped her face in his hands, drawing her attention back to him. His touch was warm against her tear-cooled skin, calloused palms a reminder of everything he’d fought for—everything they’d all fought for. He tilted her chin up until she met his gaze, his blue eyes steady and certain in a way that made her chest ache.
“Listen to me, Isabelle,” he said, his voice low but firm. “Your father loved you. More than you know.”
“Then why did he bring me back just to leave me?” The question burst from her, small and broken. “What was the point, Steve? He got me back for what—five minutes? Long enough to watch him die?”
Steve’s blue eyes clouded with grief, his broad shoulders sagging under the weight of her question. For once, Captain America had no inspirational speech, no words of comfort to offer.
Isabelle pulled her knees to her chest, making herself smaller on Steve’s worn couch. She pressed her forehead against her knees, her next words muffled but unmistakable.
“The last time I saw him,” she whispered, “was in Siberia. I left him there, Steve. Beaten and betrayed on that cold floor. I went with you, and I didn’t see him for two years after that.” Her breath hitched, a fresh wave of grief washing over her. “And then the next time I did... he died.” She lifted her head, eyes red-rimmed and haunted. “Do you know what that’s like? To have your last real memory of someone be abandoning them? And then they’re just... gone?”
Steve’s face crumpled, the carefully maintained composure finally breaking. His eyes shimmered with unshed tears, guilt etched into every line of his face. He reached for her hands, enveloping them in his larger ones.
“I’m so sorry,” he murmured, voice thick with emotion. The words seemed to scrape his throat raw on their way out. “I never meant for any of this to happen. If I could go back—”
“But you can’t,” Isabelle cut in, her voice cracking. “None of us can. Not even with all those stupid stones.”
A sob tore from her throat, completely unrestrained. It was followed by another, and another, until she couldn’t tell where one ended and the next began. Her chest heaved with the effort of drawing breath between each broken sound.
“They’re gone,” she gasped, the words barely intelligible. “They’re both gone, Steve.”
Steve pulled her against him, enveloping her in his arms. Her body shook with the force of her sobs, each one feeling like it was tearing her apart from the inside, ripping through muscle and bone and leaving nothing but hollow spaces where vital things should be. Isabelle clung to him, her fingers digging in hard enough to leave marks.
“It hurts,” she choked out between sobs, the words muffled against his now-damp shirt. “It hurts so much, Steve. I can’t... I can’t breathe with it.” Her lungs seemed to spasm with each attempt to draw air, like her body had forgotten how to perform even this most basic function.
Steve tightened his hold on her, one hand coming up to cradle the back of her head. His fingers threaded through her hair, the gentle pressure a silent promise of protection. “I know, sweetheart,” he whispered, and she could hear the ache in his voice, feel the way his chest constricted with his own grief. “I know it does.”
The floorboard creaked again, shattering the fragile moment. Isabelle’s head slowly pulled up, her tear-blurred vision clearing just enough to make out Bucky standing in the shadowed hallway. She quickly wiped at her face with trembling fingers, though she knew it was pointless. Her eyes were swollen, her nose was red, and her cheeks were streaked with tears. She looked exactly like what she was—a broken, grieving mess.
Bucky shifted his weight, the movement awkward and uncertain. In his flesh hand, he held a steaming mug, the tendrils of vapor curling in the air between them. “I, uh... I made some tea,” he said, his voice low and gravelly, as if he hadn’t used it in a while. “Thought it might help. Steve was out of coffee.” He glanced down at the mug, a furrow appearing between his brows.
Steve started to rise, his weight shifting away from her, and panic flared in Isabelle’s chest like a struck match. Her hand shot out, grasping his arm with surprising strength, her fingers digging into the solid muscle beneath his shirt.
“Stay,” she pleaded, hating how small and fragile her voice sounded, how the single word cracked in the middle. “Please... just stay with me.”
The desperation in her tone made her wince. She wasn’t this person—this needy, broken thing clinging to someone like they were a life raft. Except maybe she was, now. Maybe this was what grief had reduced her to.
Steve’s expression softened, the lines around his eyes crinkling with gentle understanding. He settled back onto the couch, the cushions dipping beneath his weight as he pulled Isabelle close once more.
“I’m not going anywhere, Iz,” he murmured, his breath warm against her hair. “I promise.”
The words hung in the air between them, heavy with meaning. How many people had promised to stay and then left her anyway? Her mother, with her secrets and lies. Her father made the sacrifice. Natasha, with her final mission. The list of people Isabelle had lost grew longer with each passing year.
Bucky’s eyes darted between Steve and Isabelle, uncertainty etched in the furrow of his brow. He looked ready to retreat, to disappear back into the shadows of the apartment and leave them to their shared grief.
“You can stay too, if you want,” Isabelle found herself saying, the words tumbling out before she could stop them. She and Bucky weren’t close; they hardly knew each other, but in that moment, the thought of being alone with her grief was unbearable. Even the silent presence of someone who understood loss, who had been unmade and remade by forces beyond his control, felt like a comfort she couldn’t afford to reject.
Surprise flickered across Bucky’s face, there and gone in an instant. He nodded, crossing the room. The floorboards didn’t creak beneath his feet this time—he moved like a shadow, like the assassin he’d once been.
He set the mug on the coffee table before lowering himself into an armchair across from them. The leather creaked beneath his weight, the sound oddly comforting in its normalcy.
“It’s chamomile,” he said, gesturing to the steaming mug with his metal hand. The plates in his arm shifted and recalibrated with the movement, catching the light. “My Ma used to make it when we couldn’t sleep.” A shadow passed over his face, memories of a life long past flickering behind his eyes.
Isabelle reached for the mug, her hands trembling slightly. The ceramic was almost too hot against her palms, but she welcomed the discomfort, the way it grounded her in the present moment. Steam rose from the pale golden liquid, carrying the gentle scent of honey and flowers. She took a tentative sip, the warmth spreading through her chest as the subtle sweetness coated her tongue.
“Thank you,” she whispered, meeting Bucky’s gaze over the rim of the mug. His eyes were steady on hers, neither demanding nor pitying. Just present. Just there.
He nodded.
Steve’s arm tightened around her shoulders, his thumb tracing small circles against her upper arm through the thin fabric of her shirt. The repetitive motion was soothing, hypnotic almost, and Isabelle found herself leaning further into his embrace, her body relaxing incrementally against his solid warmth.
“Do you want to talk about it?” Steve asked softly, his voice rumbling through his chest and into hers where they touched. “About Tony? Or Nat?”
The names sent a fresh wave of pain through her, but it was duller now, less sharp-edged. The tea, the company, and the simple act of being held were working their quiet magic, creating a small pocket of safety in a world that had been nothing but chaos and loss.
“Not yet,” she murmured, taking another sip of tea. “Maybe soon, but not... not tonight.”
“Whenever you’re ready,” Steve assured her, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of her head. “No rush.”
Bucky leaned forward in his chair, elbows resting on his knees. The position should have looked casual, but there was a coiled tension in his frame that never quite disappeared, a readiness that spoke of decades spent looking over his shoulder.
“Sometimes,” he said, his voice low and rough around the edges, “it helps just to not be alone with it. The grief, I mean.” He glanced at Steve, something unspoken passing between them. “Doesn’t have to be words.”
Isabelle nodded, understanding washing over her. How many nights had Bucky spent like this, silent but not alone, as he processed seventy years of horror?
“Yeah,” she whispered, her voice small in the quiet apartment. “Yeah, I think that’s what I needed.” She looked up at Steve, then over at Bucky. “Just... not to be alone with it.”
The silence that settled over them wasn’t uncomfortable. It was filled with shared understanding, marked by the quiet acknowledgment that some pains were too great for words, some losses too profound to be contained in language. The tea warmed her hands, Steve’s arm warmed her shoulders, and Bucky’s steady presence across from them warmed something deeper, something she hadn’t realized had gone cold.
She felt... not okay, but less alone.
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Bucky finds her in the hallway, unraveling.
A broken girl folding in on herself, trying not to be seen—
And he sees her anyway.Grief is a heavy thing, but so is being left behind.
Tonight, they share both.
Anger. Hurt. The truth about Steve.
And the quiet beginning of something else.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 54: Stay
Chapter 54: Stay
Summary:
It’s not the mission that breaks her. It’s the words Zemo left behind.
Isabelle runs. Bucky follows.
In a quiet hallway, two soldiers—stitched together from grief, guilt, and ghosts—finally stop pretending they’re fine.
Old wounds bleed. Names are said. Steve’s legacy shatters under the weight of what he left behind.
And when comfort comes, it’s tentative and trembling… until it isn’t.This is the moment they stop circling each other and finally see what’s been there all along.
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Also, huge shoutout to paperplanes221 for always dropping the best ideas for this fic — seriously, this chapter is for you
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Chapter Text
Bucky pushed through the apartment door, escaping into the hallway that stretched before him like a tunnel, dimly lit and eerily quiet after everything that had happened inside. His eyes scanned the corridor methodically, the way he’d been trained. Left to right. Checking corners. Identifying exits. Searching for any sign of her.
There.
A few yards down, Isabelle leaned against the wall, her small frame almost folded in on itself. Her forehead pressed against the cool plaster, one palm splayed beside her head as if it were the only thing keeping her upright. Her shoulders shook with silent sobs, each tremor sending a corresponding pang through Bucky’s chest. The sight of her, reduced to this, made something protective and fierce stir inside him. A feeling he’d almost forgotten he was capable of.
He approached cautiously, his boots scuffing the worn carpet to announce his presence. The last thing he wanted was to startle her.
Isabelle’s head snapped up, her eyes wide and red-rimmed, glassy with tears. Recognition flickered across her face, followed immediately by shame. She hastily wiped at her cheeks with the sleeve of her jacket, smearing tears across her flushed skin. The gesture was so young, so vulnerable, that Bucky had to swallow past the sudden tightness in his throat.
“Bucky,” she croaked, her voice raw and fractured. She attempted to straighten, to rebuild her walls, but they crumbled almost instantly. “I... I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to—” She gestured vaguely back toward the apartment. “Lose it like that. I know we need him for the mission, and I just—” Her voice broke, a fresh tear escaping despite her efforts.
“Hey, no,” Bucky interrupted, closing the distance between them. His voice was soft but firm. “You don’t have anything to apologize for. Not to me...” He paused, turning to glance back toward the apartment door. Something cold and hard settled in his chest, and his metal fingers curled instinctively into a fist, the plates recalibrating with a quiet whir. “...especially not to him.”
The words came out rougher than he’d intended, edged with a protectiveness that surprised even him. The feeling had risen so quickly—that dark, familiar rage—coiling in his chest like a spring compressing. Bucky forced himself to breathe through it, to push it back down into that hollow place where he kept all the other dangerous things. Not now. Not here. Not with her looking so damn breakable.
“He had no right to say those things,” Bucky said, his voice deliberately softer as he leaned against the wall beside her. Close enough that she could feel his presence, far enough that she wouldn’t feel trapped.
Isabelle’s breathing hitched, a sound like something tearing. “I just—” Her voice cracked, dissolving into a quiet sob that seemed wrenched from somewhere deep and raw inside her. She pressed the heels of her hands against her eyes, shoulders curving inward like she was trying to fold herself into nothing. “I didn’t want anyone to see me like this.”
She slid down the wall in a controlled collapse, knees drawing up to her chest, arms wrapping around them like armor. Making herself small. Making herself invisible. Bucky recognized the instinct all too well.
He hesitated, metal fingers flexing once, twice at his side. Then he lowered himself to the floor beside her, keeping a careful six inches between them. The carpet was thin and rough beneath him, worn threadbare in spots from years of footsteps. He leaned his head back against the wall, stretching his legs out in front of him, ankles crossed. An intentionally casual posture. Non-threatening.
“Like what?” he asked quietly, turning his head just enough to study her profile—the sharp line of her jaw, tense with the effort of holding herself together. “Human?”
Isabelle let out a sound that might have been a laugh if it hadn’t sounded so hollow, so fractured around the edges.
“Weak,” she whispered, dropping her hands to reveal eyes that shimmered with unshed tears, bloodshot and haunted. “Pathetic. A goddamn mess.” She gestured at herself with a hand that trembled visibly, at the tear tracks on her flushed cheeks, at the way her breath still caught on every inhale. “Sam must be getting sick of me by now. Probably regretting asking me to come along.” She trailed off, gaze fixed on some middle distance, unable or unwilling to meet his eyes.
“Sam’s not sick of you,” Bucky said firmly, no room for argument in his tone. He’d known Sam long enough to recognize the difference. “He’s worried about you. There’s a difference.”
A muscle jumped in Isabelle’s jaw. She picked at a loose thread on her sleeve, twisting it around her finger until the tip turned white.
“And you?” she asked. The question hung in the stale hallway air between them, fragile and dangerous.
Bucky’s brow furrowed, the question settling uncomfortably in his chest like a stone dropped in still water. What was he to her? What right did he have to be anything at all? Ally? Friend? The monster who’d once served the organization that helped create her? The broken soldier trying to play at being a man?
“Isabelle,” he said, her name coming out softer than he’d intended.
When she didn’t respond, didn’t so much as twitch, he reached out with his right hand—his flesh hand—letting it hover uncertainly near her arm before making contact. The touch was light, barely there, his fingertips just brushing against the fabric of her jacket.
“Look at me,” he said, feeling her tense beneath the contact, a slight shiver running through her. “Please?”
Slowly, painfully, she raised her head. Her eyes met his with raw vulnerability. For a moment, he didn’t see an Avenger or a Stark or even Sick Girl. He saw a wounded, frightened woman carrying a burden no one should have to bear. Someone who’d been weaponized against her will. Someone trying to find her way back to something like humanity.
Someone like him.
“Nobody’s sick of you,” Bucky said, holding her gaze steadily, letting her see the truth of it in his eyes. “Not Sam. Not...” He swallowed, something shifting inside him, plates in his metal arm recalibrating with a barely audible whir. “Not me.”
Isabelle’s eyes widened slightly, searching his face for any sign of a lie. Her lower lip trembled before she caught it between her teeth. “But I’m—” she started, voice thick.
“A person,” Bucky interrupted gently. “Having a perfectly normal reaction to being thrown into a shit situation.” His thumb moved in a small, unconscious circle against her arm. “Trust me, I know something about that.”
Her gaze dropped to where his hand rested on her arm, then back to his face. She drew in a shaky breath that seemed to rattle in her chest, the sound amplified in the quiet hallway.
Bucky withdrew his hand slowly, reluctantly, flexing his fingers as if the brief contact had burned him. Maybe it had. The warmth of her skin lingered against his fingertips—a sensation both foreign and achingly familiar. Human connection. Something he’d spent decades without. He wasn’t used to offering comfort—wasn’t sure he even remembered how. The gesture had been instinctive, unplanned, and that alone was enough to unsettle him.
“I know what it’s like,” he continued after a moment, his voice dropping lower, rougher. The confession felt like pulling out stitches one by one, each word exposing something raw beneath. His gaze fixed on a water stain on the ceiling, unable to look at her directly as he spoke. “To feel like you’re one bad day away from becoming exactly what everyone’s afraid you are. To wonder if maybe they’re right to be afraid.”
She stared at the floor between them, her breathing still uneven, catching on every third inhale as if her lungs kept forgetting how to work properly. Her fingers twisted a loose thread from her sleeve, winding and unwinding it in a nervous rhythm.
When she finally spoke, her voice was weak, barely more than a whisper. “Was what Zemo said true?”
Bucky’s brow furrowed, confusion evident in the tightening around his eyes. His mind raced through the conversation in the apartment—Zemo’s calculated words, each one designed to cut to the bone. He waited, giving her space to continue, unwilling to assume which particular poison had landed deepest.
Isabelle bit her lower lip, her teeth leaving small indentations in the soft flesh. Her fingers stopped their fidgeting and instead curled into tight fists in her lap, knuckles going white. When she met his gaze, there was a raw fear there that made something in Bucky’s chest constrict painfully.
“Back there...” she began, the words catching in her throat like they had sharp edges. She swallowed hard, a muscle jumping in her jaw. “You’re only here, doing this, because you’re crossing my name off your list?”
His body went rigid, and his breath caught halfway in his lungs. His notebook, pages filled with names, each one a wound he’d inflicted. Each one a debt he could never truly repay. The weight of it settled in his stomach like lead.
“No,” he said, the word coming out sharp, almost defensive. He caught himself, forced his shoulders to relax, and softened his voice. “No, I... I—” He paused, searching for words that wouldn’t come. “I just...” The sentences tangled in his throat, decades of practiced silence working against him.
Isabelle studied his face with an intensity that made him want to look away, but he forced himself to meet her gaze. There was something desperate in her eyes, something that needed answers more than comfort.
“Then why?” she asked, her voice stronger now, though it trembled at the edges. “Why are you like this? So quick to my defense?” Her hand gestured between them, the movement small and uncertain. “Why do you care? Always watching, always...” She trailed off, unable to find the right word, or perhaps afraid of what it might be.
Bucky looked down at his hands that rested on his knees. The contrast never failed to remind him of what he was, what he had been. The killer and the man exist in the same body. The same paradox he saw in her.
“Because you see me,” he finally said, the confession rough at the edges, like something pried loose. He met her gaze, holding it steadily. “You... don’t see him. You never did.”
He didn’t need to clarify who “him” was—the Winter Soldier, the ghost that still haunted the corners of his mind. The weapon HYDRA had made from the broken pieces of Bucky Barnes.
“After everything...” His metal fingers curled slightly. “Everything I’ve done. You don’t treat me that way. Like I’m still him.” His voice dropped lower, almost to a whisper. “Or like I’m fragile.”
The truth of it settled in his chest—how rare it was to be seen as neither monster nor victim, just a man, trying to find his way back from the darkness. Bucky wasn’t sure when he’d last felt that way with anyone besides Steve. Maybe never.
Isabelle’s eyes widened slightly, something like recognition flickering across her face. Her breathing had steadied, though tears still clung to her lashes, catching the harsh hallway light. She looked younger like this, stripped of her usual armor of sarcasm and bravado.
“Steve told me once,” Bucky said after some time, “when we all came back from the snap. About how you were with him when he first came out of the ice.” He observed her face, tracking the minute shifts in her expression. “How you didn’t treat him like Captain America. Just Steve.”
Isabelle’s eyes flickered up to meet his, something vulnerable passing across her features before she looked away. “Yeah, well,” she said, her voice rough from crying, the single word coming out slightly ragged at the edges, “cause he was just Steve.”
Bucky noticed the way her jaw tightened as she said the name, the subtle shift in her posture—her shoulders drawing inward, her spine stiffening. A bitterness crept into her expression, darkening her eyes and pulling at the corners of her mouth.
“But now...” Isabelle continued, her fingers curling into fists against her knees, knuckles whitening with pressure. “Now he left. After everything—” Her voice cracked, splintering like ice under too much weight. She swallowed hard, the sound audible in the quiet hallway. “After every promise. He just... went back. He didn’t care.”
The hurt in her voice was palpable, raw, and bleeding like an open wound.
“You don’t mean that,” Bucky said, his tone careful, measured. “He cared about you. The little time I had to spend with him before...”
He paused, the words sticking in his throat like shards of glass, cutting him from the inside.
“Before he left, he talked about you—said you were special to him.” Bucky leaned forward slightly, trying to catch her downcast gaze. The carpet beneath them scratched against his palm as he adjusted his weight. “I know you’re angry, but—”
“I do mean it,” Isabelle insisted, her head snapping up with such sudden force that Bucky instinctively tensed. Her eyes flashed with something fierce and wounded, tears making them shine in the dim light like polished stones underwater. “He promised he wouldn’t leave me, Bucky.”
The words tumbled out faster now, gaining momentum like a rockslide, each one striking with increasing force.
“He promised he’d stay. Told me he’d always be there.” Her voice rose, trembling with barely contained emotion that seemed to vibrate in the air between them. “But he didn’t. He went anyway, for Peggy.”
Her voice cracked on the name, the sound so raw it made Bucky wince. Something dark and broken passed across her face, her features contorting with a grief so profound it seemed to alter the very air around her. For a split second, Bucky could almost see the child she must have been—lost, abandoned, desperate for someone to stay.
“I hate him for it,” she whispered, the words hanging in the space between them like something poisonous.
Bucky’s chest tightened at her words, a complex knot of emotions he couldn’t fully untangle. The weight of Steve’s absence pressed down on him daily—a phantom limb pain he couldn’t shake. The best friend he’d followed into war, into death, into the future—gone back to a past Bucky could never return to. A choice that had left him adrift in a world that still saw him as a weapon more than a man.
But hearing Isabelle speak about Steve with such venom felt wrong somehow, like a betrayal. The conflict must have shown on his face because something in Isabelle’s expression hardened, a defensive wall rising behind her eyes.
“You don’t hate him,” he said softly, the words coming out more certain than he felt. His human hand flexed against his knee, fingers curling into the fabric of his pants.
Something flashed in Isabelle’s eyes—anger, pain, or maybe both—and she straightened, squaring her shoulders despite her position on the floor. The movement was subtle but deliberate, like a soldier preparing for battle.
“Don’t tell me what I feel,” she said, her voice dropping to something low and dangerous. The tears still clung to her lashes, but the vulnerability was gone, replaced by something harder, sharper. “You weren’t there. You didn’t see what it did to me when he—”
She cut herself off, pressing her lips together so tightly they turned white at the edges. A muscle jumped in her jaw, and Bucky could almost hear her teeth grinding together. The hallway seemed to shrink around them, the air growing thicker, charged with the electricity of her anger.
“What?” Bucky pressed, unable to stop himself. He needed to understand this—this wound that seemed to run so deep in her. “When he what, Isabelle?”
She looked at him then, really looked at him, with eyes that seemed to see straight through to the broken parts he tried so hard to hide. The anger drained from her face, replaced by something worse—a bone-deep exhaustion that made her seem decades older than her years.
“When he proved that everyone leaves,” she said quietly, fresh tears spilling down her cheeks. “Even the good ones. Especially the good ones.” Her voice cracked on the last word, a hairline fracture spreading through glass. “He left us, Bucky. Left you.”
Her eyes searched his face, seeking confirmation of a shared wound. The intensity of her gaze made something in his chest constrict, like fingers tightening around his heart.
“Aren’t you mad about that?” she pressed, leaning forward slightly. “I mean, fuck—” She ran a hand through her hair, disturbing blonde strands until they fell in disarray around her face. “I’m mad for you. He left you. After everything.” Her voice dropped to a whisper, heavy with disbelief. “After all he did to get you back... he left.”
He left.
The words were sharp and unavoidable, like shrapnel.
Bucky felt his throat constrict, his chest tightening as if someone had reached in and squeezed his lungs. The metal fingers of his left hand flexed unconsciously, plates shifting with a soft mechanical sound that seemed thunderous in the quiet hallway.
“I...” he started, then stopped, searching for words that wouldn’t come. How could he explain what he barely understood himself? The hurt, the confusion, the strange sense of both betrayal and understanding that warred within him daily. “It’s complicated,” he finally managed, his voice rougher than before.
Isabelle waited, watching him with those too-perceptive eyes. The silence stretched between them, not uncomfortable but charged with something he couldn’t name. Somewhere down the hall, a door opened and closed. The building settled around them with small creaks and sighs.
“Part of me understands,” Bucky continued slowly, each word carefully chosen, as if he were disarming a bomb. “Steve lost everything when he went into the ice. His whole life, his...” He swallowed, memories of Brooklyn summers and shared apartments flickering behind his eyes. The taste of cheap beer on fire escapes. The sound of Steve’s pencil scratching against paper. “His future.”
The fluorescent light above them flickered, casting momentary shadows across their faces. In that brief darkness, he felt her shift beside him, drawing her knees closer to her chest.
“But yeah,” he admitted, “there’s a part of me that’s angry.” His right hand moved to his left arm, fingers absently tracing the seam where metal met flesh—a habit he’d developed when thinking about the past. The ridge of scar tissue was rough beneath his fingertips, a permanent reminder of everything he’d lost. “Not just that he left, but that he didn’t...”
He exhaled sharply, frustration evident in the sound. The words stuck in his throat, tangled and thorny.
“That he didn’t what?” Isabelle asked softly, her earlier anger tempered now with something gentler. Curiosity, maybe. Or understanding.
Bucky stared at the opposite wall, at a small dent in the plaster that someone had painted over without bothering to fix. “That he didn’t take me with him,” he finally said, the words barely audible. “Or at least ask if I wanted to go.”
He hadn’t said it aloud before—hadn’t even fully acknowledged it to himself until this moment. The realization that part of him had wanted to go back, too, to return to a time when his hands weren’t stained with so much blood.
“Would you have gone?” Isabelle asked, her voice careful, neutral. “If he’d asked?”
Bucky’s brow furrowed as he considered the question. Would he have? Gone back to a time before HYDRA, before the fall, before the Winter Soldier? The answer should have been simple.
“I don’t know,” he admitted, surprising himself with the honesty. “That Bucky Barnes died in 1945. I’m... something else now.” He flexed his metal fingers, watching the plates shift and realign. “Someone else.”
He turned to look at her then, finding her watching him with an expression he couldn’t quite read. There was sadness there, but something else too—a recognition that made him feel exposed, as if she could see every dark corner of his mind.
“Maybe that’s why he didn’t ask,” Bucky continued, the realization forming as he spoke it. “He knew I couldn’t go back. Not really. Not after everything that’s happened.” He swallowed, his throat suddenly dry. “Maybe he was sparing me from having to make that choice.”
Isabelle’s eyes narrowed slightly, skepticism clear in the set of her mouth. “That’s awfully generous of you,” she said, though there was no bite to her words. Just weariness. “Giving him the benefit of the doubt.”
“Not generous,” Bucky corrected, shaking his head. “Just... I knew him. Better than most.” A ghost of a smile touched his lips, there and gone in an instant. “Steve was a lot of things, but he wasn’t cruel. Not deliberately.”
“No,” Isabelle agreed, her voice soft but strained. “Just careless with the hearts of the people who loved him.”
The words struck something in Bucky, a chord of recognition that resonated through his chest. He studied her profile—the tension in her jaw, the slight tremble of her lower lip that she tried to control by pressing her teeth into it. The way her fingers twisted that loose thread from her sleeve, around and around until it cut into her skin.
“You loved him,” Bucky said quietly. Not a question.
Isabelle’s breath caught, a slight, wounded sound. For a moment, he thought she might deny it or deflect with one of her razor-sharp quips. Instead, she nodded once, the movement so slight he might have missed it if he hadn’t been watching so closely.
“Not that way,” she whispered, her voice scraped raw. “Steve...” She swallowed hard, her throat working visibly against the words. “He was one of the first people who really saw me.”
She pressed her back harder against the wall, as if trying to ground herself through the contact.
“Yes, I had Nat, and I loved her too, so much,” she continued, her voice gaining strength even as it trembled at the edges. “She saw me, but it was different with Steve. Nat was... protective. Overprotective.” A ghost of a smile touched her lips, there and gone in an instant. “She saw her little sister in me, so that’s how she treated me.”
Isabelle’s fingers finally abandoned the thread, instead curling into a tight fist against her knee.
“But Steve... Steve treated me like an equal. A partner.” Her voice dropped lower, almost reverent.
The pain in her voice was so naked, so familiar, that Bucky felt an answering ache in his own chest. Without thinking, he reached out, his right hand finding hers where it rested on her knee. Her fingers were cold beneath his, small and delicate despite the calluses that spoke of years of training. She stiffened at the contact but didn’t pull away.
“I’m sorry,” he said, the words inadequate but sincere. The rough pad of his thumb brushed lightly over her knuckles, feeling the fine bones beneath her skin. “That he hurt you.”
Isabelle’s fingers twitched beneath his, then slowly turned until their palms met. The contact was tentative, fragile as spun glass. Her hand was so much smaller than his, but there was strength in her grip when she finally returned the pressure, her fingers sliding between his with a hesitancy that made his heart constrict.
“I’m sorry he hurt you, too,” she whispered, her eyes lifting to meet his. In them, he saw the same raw wound he carried—the particular ache of being left behind by someone who had promised to stay. The shared pain created a bridge between them, something tangible in the space that had separated them for so long.
They sat like that for a long moment, connected by their shared loss, by the understanding that flowed between them without need for words. The hallway was quiet, except for the soft sound of their breathing, which gradually fell into sync.
“You know what the worst part is?” Isabelle finally said, her voice steadier now, though still rough at the edges. “I can’t even hate him properly. I want to. God, I want to.” Her fingers tightened around his, seeking an anchor. “But then I remember the way he’d sit with me after nightmares, or how he was the only one who didn’t look at me like I was fragile.”
Bucky’s breath caught in his throat, a sharp ache blooming behind his sternum. “Steve had a gift for that,” he said quietly. “For seeing the best in people, even when they couldn’t see it in themselves.”
“Yeah,” Isabelle agreed, a ghost of a smile touching her lips before fading. “He did.”
She fell silent, her gaze dropping to where their hands remained joined. Bucky watched as something shifted in her expression—a small furrow appearing between her brows, a tightening around her eyes. She looked up at him again, and there was a new vulnerability in her face that made his chest tighten.
“I thought I could do this,” she said. Her eyes fixed on a worn patch of carpet between them, fingers tracing invisible patterns against the threadbare fibers. “For a second. A night.”
Her shoulders hunched forward again, the fabric of her jacket bunching at the collar. Bucky watched the transformation—how quickly she could fold in on herself, making her already small frame seem even more diminished. Like a flower closing at dusk, a defensive mechanism he recognized all too well.
“Live without them,” she whispered, each word dropping like stones into still water. “Steve. Nat.” Her voice caught on the last name. “My dad.” Her lower lip quivered, the tremble spreading to her chin despite her visible effort to control it. “But...”
Something fractured in her expression then, like watching a dam begin to crack. Fine lines appeared around her eyes, tension spreading across her forehead. Her breathing quickened, shallow and uneven, the sound amplified in the quiet hallway. A fine tremor ran through her body, starting at her fingertips and working its way up her arms to her shoulders.
“Hey,” Bucky said softly, instinctively reaching for her again. His fingers brushed against her wrist, feeling the rapid flutter of her pulse beneath the skin—too fast, like a trapped bird. “Isabelle.”
She looked up at him, eyes wide and glassy, pupils dilated with barely contained panic. The sight sent a jolt through him—recognition of a precipice he knew all too well. That moment just before falling, when the ground disappeared and gravity hadn’t yet taken hold.
“I want my dad,” she whispered suddenly, the confession breaking free like something wrenched from deep inside her. Her voice cracked, high and childlike, stripped of all pretense. “Like, really want my dad.”
Her face crumpled, tears spilling fresh down her cheeks, carving new paths through the dried tracks of earlier grief. She didn’t bother wiping them away this time, letting them fall unchecked onto her collar, darkening the fabric.
“He was a mess,” she continued, words tumbling out between hitched breaths, “like me...but he just knew how to make it better.” Her hands moved aimlessly, grasping at nothing. “He’d say something stupid or make some dumb joke, and somehow...” She swallowed hard, the sound audible in the quiet hallway. “Somehow, the world would feel less like it was ending.”
Bucky’s chest tightened, a physical ache spreading beneath his sternum. The raw longing in her voice struck something deep within him—memories of his own father, faded now to sepia tones, but still there. The steady hands, the quiet strength. What it felt like to be a child who believed their father could fix anything.
“I know,” he said softly, the words inadequate but sincere. His thumb traced small circles against her wrist, feeling the delicate bones beneath her skin. “I know, Iz.”
She didn’t look up right away, but something in her posture shifted at the nickname—a subtle relaxing of her shoulders, as if she’d been carrying them too high for too long.
She blinked rapidly, as if trying to clear her vision, and really looked at him, taking in the warmth in his blue eyes, the way the harsh hallway light caught the angles of his face, softening them somehow. Something shifted in her expression, a realization dawning that made her breath catch audibly in her throat.
Bucky felt it too—that subtle change in the air between them, like the pressure drop before a storm. His awareness of her sharpened, focusing on the small details he’d never allowed himself to notice before: the faint freckles scattered across her nose like distant stars, the way her pulse fluttered visibly at the base of her throat, the slight part of her lips as she drew in an unsteady breath. The space between them seemed to contract, the six inches he’d so carefully maintained suddenly feeling both too much and not enough.
Without warning, Isabelle leaned forward, closing the distance between them. Her arms wrapped around his torso, small but surprisingly strong, her face pressing into the solid wall of his chest. The sudden contact sent a jolt through him, his body tensing automatically—years of combat training making him freeze at the unexpected touch. His right arm hovered awkwardly in the air, unsure where to land, while his left remained rigid at his side, metal plates locking into defensive position with a soft whir.
She was so warm against him, her body heat seeping through his jacket. The top of her head barely reached his chin, and he found himself acutely aware of how small she felt in his arms, how fragile despite everything he knew she was capable of.
She must have felt him stiffen because she immediately began to pull away, her arms loosening around him. Words tumbled out in a rush, her voice tight with embarrassment. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have—that was stupid, I just—”
As her warmth began to recede, Bucky felt a sudden emptiness—a cold, void-like space where her presence had been. It was this sensation, more than anything, that made him move. The loss of something he hadn’t known he needed until it was slipping away.
“Wait,” his voice was rough, almost desperate. His flesh hand caught her wrist before she could fully retreat, the touch gentle despite the urgency in his tone. Isabelle froze, her eyes wide as they met his. There was vulnerability there, fear of rejection, and something else—something that made his pulse quicken in a way combat never had.
Bucky took a deep breath, visibly willing himself to relax. The plates in his metal arm recalibrated with a soft mechanical sound, shifting from combat-ready to something more natural. Then, slowly, deliberately, he reached out and pulled her back into his arms.
This time, he didn’t hesitate. His right arm wrapped around her shoulders while his left settled cautiously at her waist, the metal hand barely touching her as if afraid it might bruise. Isabelle remained still for a heartbeat, two, then melted against him with a small sound that might have been a sob or a sigh. Her arms slid back around him, fingers clutching at the fabric of his jacket like she was afraid he might disappear.
“I’ve got you,” he murmured into her hair, the words emerging without conscious thought.
How long had it been since he’d held someone like this? Since he’d been held? The sensation was almost foreign, yet achingly familiar—like returning to a home he’d forgotten existed.
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She hasn’t slept. Not really. Not since the hallway.
But she’s still moving—through cold Riga streets and colder memories.Bucky walks beside her now.
Not saying much. Still staying close.The mission waits. So does Karli.
But first?
John Walker shows up with a shield that doesn’t belong to him—
and a storm that’s already brewing.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 55: Cold Morning, Sharp Edges
Chapter 55: Cold Morning, Sharp Edges
Summary:
Sleep-starved and frayed at the edges, Isabelle walks the cold streets of Riga with ghosts in her chest and a fire in her ribs.
Bucky walks beside her, silent but steady—until he's not. Until he says the thing she didn’t know she needed to hear.But quiet moments don’t last. Not in this city. Not with Zemo at their side and Karli on the horizon.
And definitely not when John Walker shows up like a bad idea wrapped in stars and stripes.
Tensions rise. Lines are drawn. And Sam makes a call that might change everything.
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Ahh, okay, okay... First off, please... I promise... Bucky and Izzy will kiss soon. Okay?? But like... they needed that emotional intimacy first!!! You gotta hug before you kiss, you know?? 😂
ALSO!!!! I FINISHED WRITING ACT 3!!!!
We’ve got about ten more chapters left in this arc (if my math is mathing lol), and I genuinely can’t believe we’ve made it this far. THANK YOU all so much — seriously, you guys are amazing. To celebrate me wrapping up Act 3, I’m doing a double post today! (Also, not gonna lie, I’m trying to get y’all to the kiss scene... we are so close I swear 😭💖)Quick side note:
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Isabelle hadn’t slept. Not really. Just fragments. Thirty minutes here, fifteen there, before her body jolted awake, heart hammering against her ribs like it was trying to escape. But somehow, she was still moving. Past crumbling alleyways and shuttered windows, boots echoing off stone like a heartbeat she didn’t trust.
The pre-dawn streets of Riga whispered around her, cold air sliding beneath her collar and raising goosebumps along her neck. Each streetlamp they passed cast her shadow in different directions, stretching and shrinking as if it couldn’t decide what shape she should be.
“You good?” Sam’s voice cut through the fog in her head. He’d been watching her for the last three blocks, that careful sidelong glance he used when he thought someone might shatter.
“Fantastic,” she muttered, shoving her hands deeper into her pockets. The memory of last night pressed against her skull. Sitting against that hallway wall, Bucky’s shoulder solid against hers, his voice low and steady.
Bucky walked slightly ahead now, shoulders hunched against the cold, the metal hand hidden in his pocket occasionally catching the dim light. He hadn’t mentioned last night, and he hadn’t commented on the way she’d gripped his right hand so hard it should have hurt. He’d just…stayed.
A dog barked somewhere in the distance, the sound bouncing between the old buildings. Isabelle hadn’t flinched, her senses too raw, too open. She hadn’t realized Bucky had slowed his pace until he was suddenly beside her.
“You know,” Bucky said, low enough that the others couldn’t hear, “you didn’t have to take the couch last night.”
The unexpected comment yanked her from her spiraling. Almost like he’d calculated exactly how to interrupt her mental tailspin. Isabelle’s lips curved slightly, but she kept her eyes fixed ahead, watching their shadows stretch across the cobblestone.
“And you didn’t have to take the floor,” she countered, her voice rough from exhaustion.
Bucky’s mouth quirked up at one corner, a half-smile that seemed to come easier in the darkness. Or just around her. He nodded once, stealing a sidelong glance at her. “Wasn’t exactly looking to share a bed with Sam.” A beat. “Or Zemo.”
The apartment had only two small bedrooms. Sam had tried refusing the second room, insisting she take it, his eyes concerned as he’d looked at her still-shaking hands when she and Bucky had returned. But she’d curled up on the couch before he could argue further, pretending to fall asleep instantly. It was easier than explaining.
In reality, she’d known Bucky would take the floor. Known he wouldn’t sleep much either. And she’d felt…safer, having him there, just a few feet away. The steady sound of his breathing had been the only thing that had allowed her to drift off at all, especially with Zemo under the same roof.
“I think he’d monologue in his sleep,” Bucky muttered, and this time she looked at him, catching the subtle warmth in his eyes that didn’t match his deadpan delivery.
“Probably quotes Machiavelli while brushing his teeth,” she added, feeling something tight in her chest ease slightly.
Bucky huffed a sound that might have been a laugh. His metal hand shifted in his pocket, a soft, mechanical whir that had become as familiar to her as her own heartbeat. He was close enough now that their shoulders nearly brushed with each step.
"You know," he said after a moment, his voice dropping even lower, "if you need someone to—" He paused, seeming to search for the right words. "To just be there. You can ask."
The simple offer hung between them, fragile and enormous. Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat suddenly tight.
"Is that what you did?" she asked before she could stop herself. "When you came back?"
His eyes met hers then, winter-gray and full of something she couldn't name. "No," he said simply. "And that was my mistake."
Ahead, the street began to widen, the first hints of the square becoming visible through the pre-dawn haze. They walked in silence for several minutes, Zemo leading the way and taking a turn down a narrow side street. The space between them narrowed until Isabelle could nearly touch both walls if she stretched out her arms. She inhaled deeply, letting the cold fill her lungs, hoping it might clear the fog of exhaustion clouding her thoughts.
In the distance, church bells tolled the hour, the sound reverberating through the empty streets, bouncing off stone and glass. Four hollow chimes. Too early for the city to be awake, but too late to still call it night.
"We are almost there," Zemo said, nodding toward an intersection ahead. His voice, though quiet, seemed to slice through the silence. "Karli's people will be gathering soon."
Isabelle quickened her pace, boots striking the cobblestones with renewed purpose as she moved to walk alongside him. She could feel Bucky's eyes on her back, watchful.
"Remember," she said, pitching her voice low but firm, close enough to Zemo that he couldn't pretend not to hear, "we wait until after the funeral to approach Karli." She didn't phrase it as a request.
“Agreed,” Sam nodded, his expression serious. “We let them pay their respects first, then we talk." He looked at Zemo, who had paused to examine something in a shuttered shop window. His reflection stared back at them, distorted by the uneven glass. "This is delicate—we can't afford to make things worse."
"Delicate isn't exactly our strong suit," Bucky muttered, coming up on Sam's other side.
"Speak for yourself, Barnes," Sam retorted, straightening his jacket. "I'm the definition of tact."
"You're the definition of something," Bucky replied dryly, the corner of his mouth twitching upward.
Despite everything—the exhaustion, the danger, the memories of last night's panic still lingering at the edges of her mind—Isabelle felt a small smile tug at her lips. Something was grounding about their bickering, something almost normal in a world that felt increasingly off its axis.
"What about him?" she asked, tilting her head toward Zemo. He had rejoined them, hands clasped casually behind his back, his expensive coat making him look more like a businessman on an early morning stroll than a fugitive. "Can we trust him not to make a scene?"
Zemo's eyes met hers, and Isabelle felt that familiar crawl of unease up her spine.
"Trust is such a loaded word, Miss Stark," Zemo interjected smoothly, his accent wrapping around each syllable with practiced precision. "But rest assured, I understand the value of patience. The funeral will remain undisturbed by me."
There was something in his tone that made her steps falter—that polite veneer covering something much darker. A shark’s smile. She caught Bucky watching Zemo with the same wary intensity he’d shown since he’d broken the man out of prison. The tension in his jaw, the slight narrowing of his eyes. Bucky was coiled tight, ready to move again at the slightest provocation.
“We’ll be watching you,” Bucky said, the warning clear in his voice. In the gray morning light, his eyes looked almost silver, cold and unforgiving. “Closely.”
Zemo merely smiled, a slight upturn of lips that reached his eyes. "I would expect nothing less, James."
Isabelle could feel her power stirring beneath her skin, responding to her agitation, tiny pinpricks of heat dancing along her fingertips. She forced herself to breathe, to push it back down.
As they crested the hill, Isabelle caught the flash of red, white, and blue before anything else. Her stomach twisted into a tight knot, the exhaustion that had been dragging at her bones shifting into something sharper, more alert.
“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me,” she muttered, her hands instinctively curling into fists.
John Walker and Lemar Hoskins descended a flight of worn stone stairs opposite them, moving with that particular military synchronization that set her on edge. John’s suit was an assault against the muted grays and browns of Riga’s architecture —a walking American flag waving high in a foreign city. And the shield, Steve’s shield, gleamed on his back, catching the pale morning light at all wrong angles. Every time she saw it there, something in her chest constricted, like watching someone wear a dead man’s clothes without bothering to alter the fit.
Isabelle felt Bucky tense beside her, the subtle shift in his posture indicating that he was calculating exits, angles, and threats. The soft sound of his left hand clenching was almost inaudible, but she’d learned to listen for it.
"Karli Morgenthau is too dangerous for you three to be pulling this shit!" John called out, his voice bouncing off the buildings surrounding them, far too loud for the quiet morning. Several nearby pedestrians turned to stare, a woman holding a child’s hand pausing mid-step, a man on a bicycle slowing down.
So much for keeping a low profile.
"How the hell did you find us this time, Walker?" Bucky asked, his voice pitched low but carrying an edge that Isabelle recognized from their time in Madripoor—the tone that preceded violence by seconds, not minutes.
Lemar's mouth curved into that particular smirk that made Isabelle want to show him exactly what her powers could do to his digestive system. His stance was casual but ready, weight balanced on the balls of his feet.
"Come on, man. You really think three Avengers can walk around Latvia without drawing attention?" His eyes flicked briefly to Isabelle, lingering a half-second too long. "You're not exactly low-profile."
Isabelle scoffed at the word Avengers. That wasn't who they were—not anymore. Not since Steve left. Not since her father died. The team was fractured, scattered across continents and galaxies. The word was just an empty shell now, something politicians and PR teams threw around to make civilians feel safe.
John stepped closer, each stride purposeful, calculated to intimidate. His eyes darted between them, lingering suspiciously on Zemo, who stood slightly apart from their group, observing the confrontation with that infuriating half-smile.
"No more keeping us in the dark," John demanded, his voice dropping to a dangerous register. He jabbed a finger toward Zemo. "Start by telling us why you broke him out of prison."
A small crowd was gathering now—locals on their way to work, a few early tourists. Isabelle caught the glint of phone cameras, the whispered conversations. This was exactly what they'd been trying to avoid—attention, exposure, witnesses.
"Technically, he did that himself," Bucky retorted, the corner of his mouth twitching upward in that particular way that meant he was deliberately antagonizing someone. Isabelle could feel the tension radiating from him despite his casual tone, the way his weight shifted subtly forward, the slight flex of his metal hand at his side.
A vein pulsed visibly at John's temple, his face flushing with a shade of anger. He moved closer to Bucky, close enough that Isabelle could smell the mint on his breath. "This better be one hell of an explanation—"
Sam smoothly inserted himself between them, raising a calming hand. "Hey, take it easy before this gets weird," he said, his voice steady, reasonable. "We're all on the same side here, remember?"
"Are we?" John's eyes narrowed, his gaze shifting from Bucky to Isabelle, lingering with suspicion. “Because from where I’m standing, it looks like you’re working with a known terrorist.” His jaw tightened, jerking his head toward Zemo.
“We have our reasons, Walker,” Isabelle said, feeling something hot and electric spark beneath her ribs. “And they don’t include broadcasting our every move to a guy who thinks subtly means wearing the stars and stripes in a foreign country.”
Lemar huffed out a laugh behind John, quickly disguising it as a cough when John shot him a look. The small betrayal made John's neck flush red above his collar.
"You think this is funny?" John demanded, his attention now entirely on Isabelle, eyes boring into hers with an intensity that would have intimidated someone who hadn't grown up with Tony Stark. "People are dying. The Flag Smashers are gaining support by the hour, and you three are out here playing detective with—" he gestured at Zemo, who had been watching the exchange with the quiet interest of someone observing insects under glass, "—the man who blew up the UN."
"A regrettable necessity," Zemo finally spoke, his accented voice smooth as polished stone. "Sometimes one needs a man who understands monsters to find them."
Isabelle's fingers twitched at her sides, heat prickling beneath her skin. She became acutely aware of more bystanders gathering at the edges of their confrontation.
"We're drawing attention," she murmured to Sam, tilting her head slightly toward the growing crowd. She could feel the weight of their stares, the whispers starting to ripple outward.
Sam nodded almost imperceptibly, shifting his weight.
"Look," he said, pitching his voice just low enough that only their immediate circle could hear, "we can stand here arguing in the middle of the street, or we can move this somewhere more private and actually get something done."
Isabelle watched John's face, the way his eyes darted between them, calculating. He wasn't Steve. Steve would have already found a way to defuse this, to unite them despite their differences. John was all sharp edges, where Steve had been steady strength.
"The funeral is starting soon," Zemo interjected smoothly. He stepped forward, hands clasped behind his back like a professor addressing unruly students. "Perhaps this... territorial display might be better conducted elsewhere? Unless, of course, Captain America wishes to announce his presence to the Flag Smashers before we've had a chance to speak with them."
The way he said "Captain America"—with that subtle emphasis that turned the title into something almost mocking—made John's shoulders tighten. Isabelle caught Bucky's eye, the slight tilt of his head that acknowledged Zemo's manipulation even as they benefited from it. They were using a snake to catch rats, and everyone knew it.
John’s eyes widened slightly, realization dawning across his features. “Wait—you know where Karli is?”
The shift in his tone was immediate—the aggression giving way to something hungrier, more desperate. Isabelle recognized it instantly: the look of a man who needed a win, who felt his legitimacy slipping away with each passing day.
"We have a lead," Sam answered carefully, not giving away more than necessary. "But if we're going to follow it, we need to move. Now." His eyes flicked meaningfully to the growing crowd.
Lemar stepped closer to John, murmuring something in his ear that Isabelle couldn't catch. John's jaw worked as he listened, eyes never leaving Sam's face.
"Fine," John finally said, his voice tight. "But we're coming with you."
It wasn't a request. Isabelle felt Bucky tense beside her, the soft mechanical whir of his arm recalibrating almost inaudible. She could practically feel the objection building in his chest.
"That's not—" Bucky started, but Sam cut him off with a subtle gesture.
"You can come," Sam said firmly, already turning away from the crowd, guiding their group toward a narrow side street. "But understand something, Walker. This is our op. You want in, you follow our lead."
John's eyes narrowed, but he nodded once, sharply. "For now."
As they moved away from the main street, Isabelle fell into step beside Bucky. She could feel the tension radiating from him, the controlled anger in each measured step.
"This is a mistake," he muttered, just loud enough for her to hear.
"Probably," she agreed, watching John's back as he walked ahead of them, the shield a target she couldn't look away from. "But at least we can keep an eye on him this way."
Ahead of them, Zemo was already speaking to John, his voice a low, cultured murmur that somehow carried despite its softness. "The Flag Smashers have gathered quite a following in this city. People see them as Robin Hood figures, stealing medicine and supplies from those who hoard them."
"They're terrorists," John replied flatly.
"To you, perhaps," Zemo said. "To others, they are revolutionaries. The distinction often depends on which side of history one stands."
Isabelle watched the back of John's neck flush red again, his shoulders squaring beneath his uniform. She could almost see the retort building, the righteous anger taking shape.
The group turned down another narrow alley, the buildings pressing in on either side, windows shuttered against the early morning. Somewhere above them, laundry fluttered on a line strung between buildings, sheets billowing like ghosts in the breeze. The sound of their footsteps echoed off the cobblestones, a discordant rhythm of six people who couldn't quite walk in sync.
"So what exactly is your plan here?" Lemar asked, breaking the tense silence. "You just gonna walk up to Karli at a funeral and ask her to pretty please stop blowing things up?"
Sam shot him a look. "We're going to talk to her. Find out what she wants, what's driving her. These people aren't just randomly attacking—they have a purpose."
"They killed innocent people," John interjected, his voice hard.
"So have plenty of governments," Isabelle said before she could stop herself. "Including ours."
John turned to look at her, his eyes narrowing. "That's not the same thing."
"Isn't it?" she challenged, feeling that familiar spark of heat in her chest. "You put on that uniform, and suddenly everything you do is righteous? That shield doesn't make you right, Walker. It just makes you a target."
For a moment, no one spoke, the tension stretching taut as a wire. Isabelle could feel Bucky watching her, could sense Sam's silent warning to dial it back.
John's face hardened, something cold and calculating entering his eyes. "That shield stands for something, Stark. Something bigger than any of us.” He stepped closer, close enough that she could see the flecks of amber in his irises. “Maybe you've forgotten that.”
Isabelle didn't back away. She'd stood toe-to-toe with gods and monsters; John Walker in his borrowed uniform didn't scare her. The voice in the back of her mind whispered: He's nothing like Steve. Nothing.
"Trust me," she said quietly, meeting his gaze without flinching, "I remember exactly what that shield stands for." Her voice dropped lower, each word precise as a blade. "The question is—do you?"
John's nostrils flared, his hand twitching at his side like he wanted to reach for the shield. Something dark and unfamiliar flashed across his features—not quite rage, but something adjacent to it. Something hungry.
"You don't know a damn thing about me," he said, stepping so close she could feel his breath on her face. "Or what I'm capable of."
"Hey, hey!" Sam moved between them, his hands raised. "Enough. This is ridiculous." He looked between them, exasperation evident in the tight lines around his eyes. "We're all adults here. How about we act like it?"
John held Isabelle's gaze for another heartbeat before stepping back, his shoulders rigid beneath the uniform. The red of his neck disappeared beneath his collar as he visibly reined himself in.
Isabelle exhaled slowly, uncurling her fingers. She caught Bucky watching her, giving her a nod—part approval, part warning. Stand down, it seemed to say. Not here. Not now.
She turned away, focusing on a crack in the cobblestones beneath her feet. The voice in her head was louder now, a persistent hum that made her temples throb. He doesn't deserve that shield. He never will.
Lemar cleared his throat, breaking the tense silence. "Look, we all want the same thing here, right? To stop the Flag Smashers before more people get hurt."
Sam nodded, seizing the olive branch. "Exactly. We're on the same side."
John ran a hand over his face. When he spoke again, his voice was steadier, more controlled. "Fine. So what's the plan? How do we approach Karli?"
Sam straightened, his expression shifting to something more focused, more determined. "I want to talk to her alone," he said the moment John was at his side.
The reaction was immediate. John surged forward, his face a mask of disbelief and anger. "There's no way in hell I'm losing her again." He shook his head sharply. "Are you out of your mind, Sam?"
Isabelle watched as Sam remained calm.
"The person closest to her just died. She's vulnerable." Sam's voice was steady, reasonable. "If there's any time to reason with her, it's now."
John, however, wasn't backing down. He planted himself firmly in front of the group, forcing them to stop. His voice rose, echoing off the nearby buildings. "Hold on, okay? I think we're way past reasoning with her." His eyes widened in disbelief. "Did you forget she blew up a building with people still inside?"
Lemar nodded, his usual easy-going demeanor replaced by genuine concern. "Sam, if you walk in there cold, she could kill you."
"And if I go in hot and the op goes wrong, more people die," Sam countered, his voice steady and determined. He looked around at the group, his gaze landing on each of them in turn. "We have one shot at this. Let me try it my way."
John turned to Bucky and Isabelle, disbelief etched on his face. "You're going to let your partner—your friend—walk into a room with a super soldier alone?"
Bucky's response was immediate and unwavering. "Yeah." He crossed his arms over his chest and shrugged.
Isabelle met John's gaze, her voice firm. "There's no one else I trust talking to her." She felt the truth of it in her bones. If anyone could reach Karli, it was him. "And he won't be alone," she added, motioning between her and Bucky. "We'll be there, ready to step in if he needs us."
Bucky nodded, a hint of a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. "Besides, he's dealt with worse."
The unspoken words hung between them: He's dealt with us. Isabelle caught his eye, feeling something ease in her chest for the first time since they'd spotted John and Lemar.
Sam's expression softened at their confidence in him, before addressing John. "I used to counsel soldiers dealing with trauma, okay? This is right in my wheelhouse." His voice dropped, earnest now. "Let me try to reach her."
John's frustration was evident in every line of his body. He opened his mouth to argue further, but Lemar placed a hand on his shoulder. "Wait, John. If he can talk her down, it might be worth a try." His voice was reasonable, steady. "We've got to exhaust every option before we escalate this."
Isabelle seized the moment, brushing past John and Lemar. The conversation was over. "Yeah, John, listen to your partner," she said, voice sharp as broken glass. "Let's go."
She didn't look back as she started up the stairs, each footfall against stone a small act of defiance. The metal handrail was cold beneath her fingertips, slick with morning dew. She gripped it harder than necessary, needing something solid to anchor her as exhaustion and anger battled for dominance in her blood.
Three steps up, she felt rather than heard Bucky fall into step behind her, then—
"Miss Stark has the right idea," Zemo's voice floated up from below. "Time is of the essence."
She heard the subtle shift of fabric as he followed, his shoes making barely a whisper against the stone. Behind them, she could hear the others following now—Sam's measured steps, John and Lemar's heavier tread.
She could feel John's eyes boring into her back, burning with resentment and wounded pride. She didn't need to turn around to know his expression: jaw tight, eyes narrowed, that vein in his temple pulsing beneath too-perfect skin. She squared her shoulders. They had a job to do. Everything else—the shield, John Walker, her fraying control—would have to wait.
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The longer they wait, the tighter the coil winds.
The air in the boiler room hums with pressure — steam hissing, boots scraping, temper fraying.
Zemo plays the observer. Lemar tries to keep the peace. Sam walks into the lion’s den.And John Walker?
He paces. He seethes. He snaps.Words are thrown. Accusations spit like shrapnel.
Until John grabs her.And Bucky’s voice cuts through the tension like a blade:
“Let go. Now.”Lines are drawn. Loyalties tested.
And somewhere down the hall, the real war waits behind a single closed door.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 56: And It All Falls Down
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Chapter 56: And It All Falls Down
Summary:
The boiler room is too small for all this pressure.
Tensions boil over. Zemo plays puppet master with coins and children.
Sam walks into the lion’s den with hope in his hands.
John paces like a bomb with no timer.
And Isabelle? She sees the danger coming.Words turn to warnings. Warnings turn to threats.
A hand on her arm—
“Let go.”
Bucky doesn’t raise his voice, but he doesn’t need to.Trust fractures. The room implodes.
And the moment they feared?
It hits like a thunderclap.One punch. One crash. One mistake.
Everything they tried to hold together—
shatters.
Notes:
Things are about to—well, as the title says—fall down.
I had so much fun writing these next few chapters, and I seriously cannot wait to share them with you all. If all goes to plan, I’m aiming to post the next one tomorrow too!
Love you guys—thank you for reading, screaming, crying, and surviving with me 💖🎵Chapter song vibes: "All the Rowboats" by Regina Spektor
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Chapter Text
The streets here felt different than the refugee camp—less desperate but somehow more tense, like a wire pulled taut. Isabelle kept her eyes forward when she noticed Zemo’s pace change. He sidled up to her, his stride relaxing but intentional.
“Ah,” he smiled, snapping his fingers, “my associate is just up ahead.”
Isabelle followed his gaze, her breath catching slightly when she spotted a small figure in the distance. Recognition hit her like a punch to the sternum—the little girl from the refugee camp, the one who had waved at her with those too-knowing eyes. Something cold and uneasy settled in her stomach, a warning bell she couldn’t silence.
Zemo was already moving ahead, his coat fluttering slightly in the breeze. Isabelle’s fingers twitched at her sides, the urge to grab him and pull him back almost overwhelming. But she held herself in check, watching as he approached the girl.
“Hello, my friend,” Zemo greeted, his voice transforming into something warm and honeyed.
The girl looked up at him, her eyes wary but knowing. There was a hardness there that no child should possess, a survival instinct honed by necessity. Isabelle felt something twist inside her chest—recognition, perhaps, of that same hardness she’d developed at a similar age.
Zemo produced a crisp 500 euro note from his pocket with the flourish of a magician, holding it between two fingers. “This is for your family,” he said, the bill catching the weak sunlight.
The child’s eyes widened, her small hand darted out, snatching the money with practiced speed before Zemo could change his mind. She clutched it to her chest, her knuckles white.
Isabelle felt her jaw clench so hard her teeth ached. The disgust rising in her throat was thick and bitter.
“Can you show us the way?” Zemo asked, his tone light but expectant like he was asking for directions to a café rather than potentially leading them into a confrontation with super soldiers.
The girl nodded, her small hand still clutching the money as she waved for them to follow. Her eyes flicked to Isabelle, then she led the way.
Isabelle exchanged a troubled glance with Bucky as they fell into step behind Zemo and the child. His steel-blue eyes mirrored her discomfort, the muscle in his jaw working silently. Sam walked beside them, his expression carefully neutral, but the tension in his shoulders told her everything she needed to know about how he felt about Zemo’s methods.
“This doesn’t sit right,” Isabelle muttered under her breath.
“None of this sits right,” Sam replied, his voice a low rumble. “But we’re out of options.”
The buildings around them grew more tightly packed as they moved deeper into the city. Some structures were old, their facades cracked and worn by time and conflict, while others showed signs of recent renovation—a city caught between its past and an uncertain future. GRC posters plastered walls and lampposts, their bright colors and hopeful slogans—“REBUILDING TOGETHER” and “ONE WORLD, ONE PEOPLE”—standing in stark contrast to the reality of the refugee camp they’d left behind.
The girl led them to a nondescript building not far from the camp, its weathered brick exterior giving no hint of what might be inside. Isabelle felt her heartbeat quicken as they approached a back entrance, her senses heightening in anticipation.
The door creaked open, revealing a dimly lit corridor that smelled of rust and stagnant water. The girl slipped inside without hesitation, and they followed, the temperature dropping noticeably as they entered.
They were in some boiler room, pipes snaking along the ceiling and walls like industrial veins. The space was cramped. Then, the girl stopped abruptly in front of another door, this one heavier than the last. She pointed inside without a word, her expression unreadable in the dim light. Isabelle felt the air change—thicker somehow, charged with possibility and danger.
“Karli’s in there?” Sam asked gently.
The girl nodded once, then melted back into the shadows, disappearing down a side corridor with her payment clutched tightly in her small fist.
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs as she stared at the door. Just beyond that threshold was the leader of the Flag Smashers—the woman who had stolen the serum, who was creating more super soldiers, who was willing to kill for her cause.
“Be careful,” Isabelle said softly to Sam, her voice tight with concern. She caught his gaze, trying to convey everything she couldn’t say aloud. The danger. The uncertainty. The fact that they were walking into a room with someone who could snap bones as easily as twigs.
Sam nodded, his expression determined but gentle. “Always am,” he replied, offering a reassuring smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes.
As Sam moved to open the door, Isabelle caught a blur of movement in her peripheral vision. John’s body language shifted—a subtle coiling of muscles that sent alarm bells ringing through her mind.
“Walker, don’t—” she started, stepping forward.
Too late. John sprang into action, grabbing Zemo by the lapels and slamming him against one of the rusted boilers. The impact reverberated through the cramped space with a hollow, metallic clang that made Isabelle’s teeth ache. Steam hissed from a nearby pipe, adding to the suffocating tension building.
“Walker, what the hell?” Bucky hissed, taking a step forward.
John ignored him completely, his attention laser-focused on Zemo. His face flushed with barely contained anger, jaw clenched so tight a muscle jumped visibly beneath his skin. He pulled out a pair of handcuffs, the metal glinting dully in the dim light. He locked one cuff around Zemo’s wrist and the other to a nearby pipe.
Zemo let out a low groan, more of annoyance than pain. His eyes darted between them all, assessing the new dynamic.
“You got ten minutes, Sam,” John called to Sam, his voice tight with frustration, desperate for some control. He jabbed a finger in Sam’s direction. “Then we’re doing things my way, got it?”
Sam paused, looking back over his shoulder. His eyes traveled from John to the now-restrained Zemo, a flicker of exasperation crossing his face. Without a word, he rolled his eyes and continued forward, disappearing through the doorway.
“Really?” Zemo drawled, his voice dripping with sarcasm. “How aggressive.” He adjusted his position against the pipe, somehow managing to look dignified despite being handcuffed in a dank boiler room.
Isabelle and Bucky shared a look. She clenched her jaw, giving him a subtle nod that conveyed her readiness to act if needed. Bucky’s eyes narrowed slightly in response, his metal hand flexing once more at his side—a silent promise of support.
Lemar moved to stand beside John, his presence a steadying influence on his more volatile partner. “Let’s all just take a breath,” he said quietly, but his eyes remained watchful, darting between Bucky and Isabelle as if calculating the threat they posed.
Isabelle took a half-step closer to Bucky. The boiler room felt even smaller now, too crowded and holding too much tension. Pipes groaned overhead, dripping condensation that splattered against the concrete floor in a steady, nerve-grating rhythm.
“Was that necessary?” she asked John, keeping her voice even despite the irritation building in her chest. “Or do you just enjoy making things more complicated?”
John turned to her, his eyes hard. “What’s necessary is keeping that murderer on a short leash. Or have you forgotten what he did?”
“Trust me,” Isabelle said, a bitter smile twisting her lips, “I haven’t forgotten anything.”
John’s gaze flickered between Isabelle and the door Sam had disappeared through, his fingers drumming an erratic rhythm against his thigh. The tapping grew faster, more insistent, like a countdown to something inevitable.
“This is bullshit,” he growled, the words coming out in a rush of hot breath. “We’re wasting time playing nice while terrorists are out there planning their next move.”
Lemar placed a hand on John’s shoulder, the touch seeming to ground the agitated soldier for a moment. “Easy, man,” he murmured, “let’s give Sam his shot.”
As the group settled into an uneasy wait, Isabelle found herself hyper-aware of every sound, every shift in the air. The boiler room thrummed with latent energy, both mechanical and human. She watched as John started pacing, his footsteps echoing off the concrete walls. Three steps one way, pivot, four steps back, pivot again—each turn growing sharper, more aggressive. His breathing had taken on a shallow quality, and occasionally he’d mutter something under his breath, fragments of words too quiet to make out.
Every few seconds, he’d glance at a clock on the wall, then at the door, then at Zemo. The muscle in his jaw worked continuously, like he was grinding his teeth to powder. He cracked his knuckles—one, two, three—the sound sharp and jarring in the confined space.
Isabelle unconsciously shifted closer to Bucky, their shoulders brushing against each other. He mirrored her movement, a subtle realignment that positioned him between her and John’s increasingly erratic path. Their silent coordination happened without a glance, born of shared instinct and growing trust.
“Walker,” Isabelle said quietly, trying once more for reason, “Sam knows what he’s doing. If anyone can talk Karli down—”
“Talk?” John interrupted with a harsh laugh. He stopped pacing abruptly, turning to face her. “These people don’t want to talk. They’re radicals. Terrorists.” His voice rose with each word, hands gesturing sharply. “They’ve killed innocent people, and you want to have a conversation?”
The pipes overhead groaned, releasing a hiss of steam that momentarily filled the space between them.
“What I want,” Isabelle said, her patience finally fraying, “is to not make this situation worse by barging in there like a bull in a china shop. But I guess that’s too much to ask from Captain America 2.0.”
John’s eyes flashed dangerously. “You know what your problem is, Stark? You think you’re above it all. That your name gives you the right to question my methods, my authority.”
“Your authority?” Isabelle repeated, incredulous. “Last I checked, this wasn’t an official mission. We’re all just tourists here.”
Bucky’s metal arm whirred softly as his fingers flexed at his side—a warning sign.
“Eight minutes,” John announced, glancing at his watch again. His heel tapped rapidly against the concrete floor, the sound like a metronome set too fast. “Wilson’s got eight minutes, then we move in.”
“And do what exactly?” Bucky asked, his voice low and dangerous. “Start a fight with super soldiers in a building full of civilians?”
John stepped closer to Bucky, squaring his shoulders. “Do whatever it takes to get the job done. Something you two seem to have forgotten how to do.”
Zemo, still handcuffed to the pipe, let out a soft chuckle. “My, my,” he drawled, his eyes gleaming with amusement as he watched the tension build. “Such discord among Earth’s mightiest heroes.”
Isabelle shot him a withering glare. “Shut up, Zemo,” she hissed, the words coming out sharper than intended. “Nobody asked you.”
“On the contrary,” Zemo replied smoothly, adjusting his position against the pipe. “I find myself in the unique position of being the only person here thinking clearly. While you all bicker about methods, the Flag Smashers grow stronger. More organized.” His gaze swept over them, lingering on John. “More willing to do what others won’t.”
John’s head snapped toward Zemo, his attention caught. Something passed between them—a current of understanding that both Isabelle and Bucky caught.
“What’s that supposed to mean?” Lemar asked, stepping forward.
Zemo merely smiled, the expression never reaching his eyes. “Simply that history favors the decisive, not the hesitant.”
Isabelle felt her powers stir beneath her skin. The familiar heat gathered in her fingertips, a warning sign she couldn’t ignore. She took a deep breath, forcing the sensation back down.
“You’re enjoying this, aren’t you?” she said to Zemo, keeping her voice low.
“Observation is an underrated skill,” Zemo replied. “One learns so much more by listening than by speaking.”
John resumed his pacing, faster now, more purposeful. Each footfall landed heavier than the last, like he was trying to stamp his authority into the concrete itself. He rechecked the clock, his movements growing more agitated. He muttered something under his breath that sounded like “waste of time” and “should have known better.”
The pipes overhead creaked ominously, as if the building itself was responding to the mounting tension. A drop of condensation fell from above, landing on Isabelle’s cheek like a cold tear. She wiped it away, her gaze never leaving John’s restless form.
John’s path had shifted again, bringing him closer to the door Sam had disappeared through with each circuit. The muscles in his neck stood out in sharp relief, and a fine tremor had started in his right hand—subtle, but unmistakable to Isabelle’s trained eye.
Bucky smoothly stepped in front of the door. His stance was relaxed but unmistakably immovable as he crossed his arms over his chest. The gesture wasn’t aggressive—it didn’t need to be. His presence alone was a barricade.
“It hasn’t been ten minutes, John,” he said, lowly and evenly. The words were simple, but the message was clear. “Just sit tight.”
Isabelle watched John’s reaction carefully. He didn’t acknowledge Bucky at all, just pivoted sharply on his heel and resumed his pacing with increased intensity. His breathing had changed—short, sharp inhales followed by frustrated exhales that whistled slightly through his clenched teeth. His boots scraped against the concrete floor with each turn, the sound like sandpaper against her already frayed nerves.
“Walker,” she said, keeping her voice gentle. “You need to calm down.”
He didn’t even look at her, just as he did to Bucky—just increased his pace, the rhythm of his footsteps growing more agitated, and the muttering under his breath picking up again.
John’s pacing had shifted now, bringing him closer to the door with each pass. His shoulders were hunched forward, his entire body coiled like a spring about to release. The vein at his temple pulsed visibly beneath his skin.
“Walker,” Isabelle said, louder this time, stepping forward. The rust-tinged air caught in her lungs as she drew a deep breath. “Stop pacing. I mean it.”
She could feel Lemar watching her carefully from where he stood, his posture alert but not yet intervening. Bucky remained motionless by the door, but she sensed the subtle shift in his attention, ready to move if needed.
“You’re making everyone on edge,” she continued, feeling her patience fracture like thin ice under too much weight. Her powers hummed beneath her skin, a warm current ready to be channeled. “Including yourself.”
John whirled toward her, eyes flashing with something dangerous. “I don’t take orders from you, Stark.”
The way he spat her surname made it sound like an accusation rather than a name. His fingers flexed at his sides, curling and uncurling in a rhythm that matched his rapid breathing.
“It’s not an order. It’s common sense.” Isabelle held his gaze steadily, refusing to be intimidated by his posturing. “You’re wound so tight you’re going to snap, and when you do, it’s going to make this situation a hell of a lot worse.” She took another step forward, close enough now that she could see the fine tremor in his right hand. “Stop pacing,” she repeated, her voice hardening to match the steel she could feel building in her spine. “Before I make you.”
The transformation that swept over John was immediate and visceral, like watching a match touch gasoline. The flush started at his neck—a mottled red that climbed steadily upward until it reached his hairline, turning his ears crimson. His breathing changed, becoming shallow and rapid, each exhale carrying a hint of a growl.
“Before you make me?” he snarled, closing the distance between them in two aggressive strides. His boots scraped against the concrete floor, the sound harsh in the confined space. He loomed over her, using his height as a weapon, his breath hot against her face. “Do that and you’ll be right back as a fugitive of the state.”
A vein pulsed visibly at his temple, throbbing in time with his accelerated heartbeat. Sweat beaded along his hairline despite the coolness of the boiler room.
“Attacking an officer of my rank—” his voice rose, cracking slightly at the edges, “—I should have you all locked up for interfering with my mission.”
“Your mission?” she asked, keeping her voice deliberately quiet, forcing him to focus to hear her. “Last I checked, we were all here for the same reason—to stop the Flag Smashers before they hurt more people.”
The air between them seemed to compress, heavy with hostility. Isabelle didn’t back away, didn’t even blink. She’d faced down worse than John Walker in her life. The pipes overhead groaned, releasing a hiss of steam that momentarily clouded the space between them.
She tilted her head slightly, studying the way his pupils had dilated, how the muscle in his jaw jumped with tension. “But that’s not really what this is about for you, is it, Walker?”
John’s eyes narrowed dangerously. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It means,” she said, each word measured and precise, “that you’re not angry because Sam’s in there talking instead of fighting. You’re angry because he’s in there instead of you.” She let that sink in for a beat. “Because deep down, you know they don’t see you as Captain America. They see the shield, not the man.”
Something flickered across John’s face—a flash of raw vulnerability quickly buried beneath renewed anger. His hand shot out, grabbing her upper arm with bruising force.
“You don’t know a damn thing about me,” he hissed, fingers digging into her flesh.
In an instant, Bucky was there, his metal hand clamping down on John’s wrist with precise, calculated pressure. Not enough to break bones, but enough to make the threat clear.
“Let go,” Bucky said, his voice deceptively soft. “Now.”
Lemar pushed himself away from the wall where he’d been leaning, his movements careful, deliberate. The concrete scraped against his uniform as he straightened. His hands came up in a placating gesture, palms out.
“John,” he said, his voice strained but steady, “just calm down.” The look he shot Isabelle was complex—part warning, part plea—his eyes darting meaningfully toward his partner’s trembling hands. “Let’s just focus on the mission.”
John’s grip on Isabelle’s arm tightened for a fraction of a second before he released her, shoving her arm away as if touching her had burned him. Bucky maintained his hold for a moment longer, eyes locked with John’s in a silent challenge, before slowly releasing him.
“I’m the only one focusing on the mission!” John snarled, sending a stern glare at Isabelle and then Bucky.
He backed away, rubbing his wrist where Bucky had gripped it. The motion was agitated, almost compulsive—his thumb digging into the spot as if trying to erase the sensation of Bucky’s metal fingers. The flush hadn’t receded from his face; if anything, it had deepened to an alarming crimson.
Isabelle rolled her shoulder, feeling the dull throb where his fingers had dug in. She caught Bucky’s eye, giving him a slight nod of thanks. His expression remained impassive, but she saw the subtle softening around his eyes, concern masked as indifference.
“You call this focusing?” Isabelle couldn’t stop herself. The words slipped out, sharp and cutting. “This little tantrum you’re throwing? Because from where I’m standing, it looks a lot like you’re losing your shit.” She gestured toward the floor with a dismissive flick of her wrist. “Like Bucky said, sit tight. The grown-ups have a plan.”
The moment the words left her mouth, she knew she’d gone too far. She’d aimed for the soft underbelly of his insecurity and hit the mark with precision. It was a Stark move—her father’s blood running hot in her veins, that same reckless need to push when pulling back was wiser.
“Don’t do that,” John growled, his voice dropping to a dangerous register that vibrated in the air between them. Each word seemed to scrape its way out of his throat. “Don’t patronize me.”
The shift in his demeanor was instant and unmistakable. The man standing before her wasn’t just angry—he was unraveling. In one fluid motion, John unhooked his shield from his back and holstered it on his arm. The metal made a soft singing sound as it settled against the magnetic grip—nothing like the warm, resonant tone Steve’s shield had made. This was higher, sharper, like the difference between a bell and a knife edge.
“That’s it,” he declared, his voice tight with barely contained fury. “I’m going in.”
Bucky moved faster than Isabelle thought possible, stepping directly in front of the door. His metal arm raised, palm out, and landed on John’s shield with a dull thud, the impact pushing John back a step.
“No,” Bucky said, his voice firm as bedrock. “You’re not.”
John kept his head down for a moment, his breathing heavy. The shield trembled slightly on his arm, vibrating with the force of his grip. The white star at its center caught the dim light, reflecting it in fractured patterns across the rusted pipes overhead.
Lemar moved to stand beside his partner, his posture tense but ready. His eyes darted between Bucky and John, calculating, assessing. Isabelle shifted her own position in response, angling her body to face both men, her weight balanced on the balls of her feet.
Slowly, John raised his head, his eyes locking onto Bucky’s. Something was unsettling in his gaze, a wildness that made both Bucky and Isabelle falter.
“This is all really easy for you, isn’t it?” John said, his voice low and venomous. He gestured at Bucky with his free hand, the movement sharp and accusatory. “All that serum running through your veins.” He turned to Isabelle, his eyes raking over her from head to toe. The scrutiny felt invasive, like being dissected. “And you, with... whatever condition you have.”
The word “condition” landed between them like something rotten. Isabelle felt her jaw tighten, tasting copper as she bit the inside of her cheek.
John’s attention snapped back to Bucky, his shoulders squaring. “Your partner needs backup in there.” He looked over Bucky’s shoulder at the closed door, then back at him, his voice dropping to a near-whisper. “Do you really want his blood on your hands?”
The words hung in the stagnant air, heavy and insidious. Isabelle felt her breath catch in her throat. As much as she hated to admit it, John’s words struck a chord. The image of Sam, alone and vulnerable, facing off against enhanced soldiers flashed through her mind. She glanced at Bucky, seeing the conflict in his eyes—the same fear reflecting back.
For a moment, the only sound in the room was the steady hum of machinery and their collective breathing. The pipes overhead groaned, as if the building itself were weighing in on their dilemma.
Then, almost imperceptibly, Bucky’s shoulders sagged. His metal arm lowered slowly, the plates recalibrating with a series of soft clicks. He stepped aside, allowing John and Lemar to pass.
“Two minutes,” Bucky said, his voice low. “Then we all go in together.”
John didn’t acknowledge the compromise. He pushed past, shield first, Lemar close behind. The door opened with a rusty creak, then closed behind them with a dull thud that seemed to echo in Isabelle’s chest.
She turned to Bucky, her voice barely above a whisper. “Did we just make a huge mistake?”
Bucky’s eyes met hers, wide with dawning realization. For a moment, he seemed frozen, then, as if snapping out of a trance, he muttered, “Shit.”
He moved toward the door, his metal hand curling into a fist.
“Walker’s unstable. I’ve seen that look before—in the mirror.” The admission came out rough, like it had been dragged from somewhere deep inside him.
“He’s going to escalate this,” Isabelle said, following Bucky. Her heart hammered against her ribs, each beat a warning. “Sam’s trying to de-escalate, and Walker’s going to—”
A crash sounded from beyond the door, followed by raised voices.
Zemo chuckled from his position against the pipe, the sound dry and knowing. “And so it begins,” he said, his accent curling around the words like smoke. “The inevitable collision of idealism and force.”
Isabelle shot him a glare, but the unease in her stomach told her he wasn’t wrong. She reached for the door handle, feeling the cool metal beneath her fingertips.
“We need to move,” she said to Bucky, her voice tight with urgency. “Now.”
Without another word, they both sprang into action. Isabelle’s boots slapped against the concrete floor as she launched forward, Bucky matching her stride for stride. The hallway stretched before them, dimly lit by a few ceiling fixtures that buzzed and flickered overhead.
“He’s going to ruin everything,” she hissed between breaths, catching sight of John and Lemar just ahead, their silhouettes dark against the weak light.
Bucky’s face was set in grim determination, jaw clenched tight. “Sam knows what he’s doing. Walker doesn’t.”
They were gaining ground, but not fast enough. John and Lemar had already reached the end of the corridor, where a heavy metal door separated them from Sam and Karli. Isabelle could see John’s hand reaching for the handle, his movements sharp and aggressive.
A desperate clarity washed over her. At that moment, she knew—knew with bone-deep certainty—that if John burst into that room, whatever progress Sam had made would shatter. People would get hurt. Maybe killed.
She didn’t think. She just acted.
Isabelle reached out with her mind, focusing on John’s shield arm. She visualized his muscles, tendons, nerves—the complex architecture beneath his skin. Then she sent a precise pulse of her power, targeting the brachial nerve cluster with surgical precision. Pain. Sharp. Sudden. Like a knife slicing through muscle.
The effect was immediate. Twenty feet ahead, John faltered mid-stride, his right arm spasming. A grunt of pain escaped him, harsh and surprised, as his shield arm dropped. His free hand flew to his bicep, fingers digging into the muscle as if trying to claw out the sudden, inexplicable agony.
But it wasn’t enough.
“Damn it,” Isabelle muttered, pushing herself faster, the burn building in her lungs. Walker was already recovering, shaking out his arm, his determination seemingly fueled by the pain rather than deterred by it.
Bucky lunged forward, metal arm outstretched, but he was still two steps behind. John’s hand closed around the door handle, his knuckles white with the force of his grip.
The door flew open with a screech of protesting hinges, flooding the dim corridor with light from the room beyond. Isabelle collided with Lemar’s solid frame, her shoulder connecting with his chest. He grunted but held his ground, his training evident in the way he absorbed the impact without faltering. Isabelle twisted past him, her boots skidding on the worn floorboards as she finally burst into the room.
The scene before her unfolded in fragments, her brain struggling to process it all at once:
Sam, standing with his hands raised in a placating gesture, his face a complex mask of frustration and barely controlled anger.
Karli, backed against the far wall, looking impossibly young in person—just a girl, really, with frightened eyes that darted between the newcomers, calculating escape routes.
And John, positioned like a loaded weapon in the center of the room, shield raised and body coiled tight, radiating a dangerous energy that seemed to suck all the oxygen from the space.
“Karli Morgenthau,” John’s voice boomed, the words hitting the walls and bouncing back distorted. “You’re under arrest!”
“John, don’t—” Sam started, taking a step forward, his voice steady despite the tension vibrating through the room.
Isabelle felt Bucky move up beside her, his presence solid and reassuring at her shoulder. The room itself was sparse—just a few pieces of mismatched furniture, a table with maps spread across it, and a single window letting in weak daylight. The walls were bare concrete, the floor scuffed wood. It smelled of dust and disuse and now, unmistakably, of fear.
Karli’s eyes locked with Isabelle’s for a fraction of a second—young eyes, but hard, determined. Eyes that had seen too much. The girl’s breathing had quickened, her chest rising and falling rapidly beneath her jacket. Her fingers flexed at her sides, and Isabelle recognized the subtle weight shift of someone preparing to move.
“No, Karli, wait—” Sam’s voice was urgent, trying to salvage what was rapidly becoming unsalvageable.
Karli’s face twisted with betrayal.
“You tricked me?” she spat, her voice cracking on the accusation. Her eyes darted between them all—Sam, John, Bucky, Isabelle—cataloging faces, calculating odds. “You stalled until backup arrived?”
The hurt in her voice was raw, unmistakable. For a moment, Isabelle saw not a terrorist but a wounded girl who’d been lied to once too often.
“Walker, I told you I wanted to talk to her—” Sam began, his voice tight with controlled frustration.
John cut him off with a dismissive wave of his shield hand. “Talk’s over,” he declared, each syllable clipped and final. “We’re bringing her in.”
Isabelle watched the last flicker of diplomacy die in Karli’s eyes. The girl’s breathing changed—quickened, deepened—as adrenaline flooded her system. Her weight shifted subtly to the balls of her feet, muscles coiling beneath her oversized jacket.
“Sam—” Isabelle started, a warning forming on her lips.
Too late.
Karli moved with the explosive speed of the enhanced, a blur of desperate fury. Her fist connected with John’s shield with a sound like a church bell struck by lightning—a metallic boom that vibrated through Isabelle’s chest cavity and rattled her molars.
John hadn’t braced properly—hadn’t expected such raw power. The shield absorbed the blow, but his body couldn’t handle the transfer of energy. He flew backward like he’d been hit by a truck, crashing into Sam with bone-jarring force. They went down in a tangle of limbs and curses, Sam’s head connecting with the concrete floor with a sickening thud that made Isabelle’s stomach lurch.
“Shit!” Bucky lunged forward, metal arm outstretched, but Karli was already moving—pivoting, ducking.
She slipped past Bucky’s grasp like water through fingers, her shoulder barely brushing his as she bolted for the door. Lemar tried to intercept, planting his feet in a defensive stance, but she slammed into him with full force.
He grunted in pain as she drove her shoulder into his solar plexus, lifting him off his feet and throwing him against the wall hard enough to crack the plaster.
“Stop her!” John shouted, struggling to disentangle himself from Sam.
Bucky was already in pursuit, boots pounding against the worn floorboards as he disappeared through the doorway after her.
Isabelle rushed to Sam, heart hammering against her ribs. He was pushing himself up on his elbows, wincing, a thin trickle of blood running from his hairline down his temple.
“You okay?” she asked, crouching beside him, her hand hovering near his shoulder, unsure whether to touch him.
“Been better,” Sam muttered, accepting her help as she gripped his arm and steadied him while he sat up. He pressed his fingertips to the back of his head, checking for blood. “Damn it, Walker—”
John was already on his feet, shield secured on his arm once more, his face flushed with a dangerous combination of humiliation and rage. “She’s getting away,” he snapped, as if they were somehow unaware of this fact.
Sam’s eyes suddenly widened, his gaze meeting Isabelle’s with dawning horror. “Zemo,” he said, the single word carrying the weight of a curse.
The name hit Isabelle like a punch to the sternum. Her stomach dropped as realization crashed over her. In their haste to follow John, they had left Zemo handcuffed in the boiler room—alone, unguarded, and far from helpless despite his restraints.
“Shit,” she breathed, the word barely audible over the pounding of her pulse in her ears.
Sam struggled to his feet, grimacing as he put weight on his right ankle.
“Go,” he urged, giving her shoulder a quick squeeze. “I’ll check on Lemar and follow Walker.”
Isabelle nodded, already turning toward the door, her mind racing through scenarios—none of them good. Zemo, with his serpentine cunning and ruthless pragmatism, wouldn’t waste an opportunity like this. The handcuffs would slow him down, but they wouldn’t stop him. Not if he was determined.
And Zemo was always determined.
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The serum's not the only thing shattering.
One moment, Karli’s bleeding on the floor. The next, Zemo has a gun pointed at her—and Isabelle between them.
He tells her to move.
She plants her feet wider.Because this isn’t about vengeance.
Not anymore.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 57: Chasing Shadows
Chapter 57: Chasing Shadows
Summary:
Zemo is gone. Karli is bleeding.
And Isabelle is running out of time.Zemo has a gun. Karli has nothing but her cause.
And Isabelle? She has a choice.Stand down—or stand her ground.
When the shot rings out, everything changes.
Notes:
Hey guys, another update!! Let’s goo!!!
I’m doing a double post today because... Chapter 58? I’m SO excited for you all to read it.Also... YES you guys lol John is here. When I was going through my notes and early drafts when working on Act Three, I literally had a “wait, oh shit—John shows up next??” moment 😂 I got so swept up in flashbacks and Bucky/Izzy feelings that I forgot we were already here.
But yup—he’s back. And the rest of this act? It’s about to get tense.
(But don’t worry... more Bucky/Izzy softness is coming too 💚)Thank you all so much for reading!!!
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Isabelle sprinted down the corridor, boots skidding on the worn concrete as she took the corner too fast. The dim lighting cast elongated shadows that seemed to reach for her as she ran, transforming the industrial hallway into something from a nightmare. The air grew cooler, damper as she descended back toward the boiler room, the taste of rust and mildew coating her tongue with each ragged breath.
Her mind kept replaying Zemo’s knowing smile, the way he’d watched their conflict with John unfold like it was all part of some elaborate chess game only he understood. He’d been three steps ahead of them since Madripoor—why would now be any different?
The door to the boiler room loomed ahead, slightly ajar. Isabelle slowed her approach, instinct overriding urgency. Something wasn’t right. The silence from within was too complete, too deliberate.
She pushed the door open with her fingertips, wincing at the metallic groan of the hinges. The boiler room was exactly as they’d left it—pipes snaking along the ceiling, machinery humming in the background, dim light filtering through grimy windows.
Except for one critical difference.
The handcuffs dangled empty from the pipe, a silent mockery of their oversight. And Zemo was gone.
“Fuck,” Isabelle hissed, her voice echoing in the empty room.
She burst from the boiler room, her heart hammering against her ribs. Zemo loose. Karli somewhere in the building. Two deadly variables in an equation that was rapidly spiraling out of control.
Isabelle forced herself to think tactically—the way Nat would have. Find the threat. Neutralize it. But which threat came first?
Her boots barely made a sound as she raced down the corridor, taking a sharp left where the hallway branched. The distant echo of footsteps made her freeze mid-stride. She pressed herself against the wall and controlled her breathing.
The footsteps faded, followed by the distinctive sound of a door closing somewhere ahead. Isabelle pushed off from the wall, moving with practiced stealth toward the source of the sound. Then came the sound that turned her blood to ice—a gunshot, sharp and definitive, cutting through the silence.
“No,” she whispered, abandoning stealth for speed.
Two more shots followed in rapid succession. Then another pair, even closer together. The sound of something heavy crashing, metal clattering against concrete. She tracked the sounds to a door on her right and didn’t hesitate.
She slammed her shoulder against it, the door flying open to reveal a small landing. A set of metal stairs descended to what appeared to be another service room below, dimly lit and filled with shadows. The coppery scent of blood hit her immediately.
Karli was crouched behind an overturned metal table, one hand pressed to her stomach where blood seeped between her fingers. Her face was pale with shock, her breathing shallow and rapid. Scattered across the concrete floor were small vials containing a familiar blue-green liquid—the serum. Some intact, others shattered, their contents spilled uselessly.
And there was Zemo, standing just a few paces away from Karli’s makeshift cover, a pistol held with the casual confidence of someone who’d taken countless lives. He was advancing slowly, methodically, like a predator toying with wounded prey.
“Zemo, stop!” Isabelle called out, her voice echoing in the room. She vaulted over the railing without hesitation, her body moving with skillful accuracy despite the six-foot drop. Her boots hit the floor with a solid thud that reverberated through her knees, but she didn’t falter, immediately placing herself between Zemo and the overturned table where Karli cowered.
Zemo paused mid-step but didn’t turn fully, keeping the pistol trained on Karli’s position with unwavering focus. The fluorescent lights caught the side of his face, illuminating just enough for Isabelle to see the cold calculation in his profile.
“Miss Stark,” he acknowledged, her name rolling off his tongue with almost genteel politeness. “I’m simply finishing what we started in Madripoor.”
Isabelle shifted her weight to the balls of her feet, ready to move in any direction. Her senses cataloged everything simultaneously—the ragged, wet sound of Karli’s breathing, the acrid smell of gunpowder hanging in the air, the slight tremor in her own hands that she forced into stillness.
“By shooting an unarmed girl?” She took another measured step down, eyes flicking between Zemo’s gun and his face. Isabelle could feel Karli’s injury pulsing in her own awareness—a torn vessel, tissue damage, nothing immediately fatal if treated soon.
“A girl?” Now Zemo did turn, just enough to meet her eyes, and the emptiness there sent a chill through her core. There was no rage, no satisfaction—only the absolute conviction of a man who believed himself righteous. “No. A super soldier that will inevitably lead to more Avengers, more catastrophe, and more innocent lives destroyed.”
Behind him, Karli shifted, a small, involuntary sound of pain escaping her lips as she tried to press harder against her wound.
“She’s bleeding out,” Isabelle said, taking another careful step, closing the distance between them inch by inch. She kept her voice level and professional, channeling all the negotiation tactics she had learned as a SHIELD agent. “Whatever she’s done, she deserves a trial, not an execution. You know that.”
Zemo’s smile was thin, barely a twitch of his lips. His eyes, though—his eyes held the weight of a man who had seen empires fall and believed himself the only one who understood why.
“We both know that’s not how this works, Miss Stark.” His words were soft but carried easily in the concrete chamber. “Not for people like her.” He gestured toward the scattered vials with his free hand, the movement elegant and controlled. “Not when the stakes are this high.”
Isabelle felt rather than saw Karli tense. The girl was gathering what strength remained, perhaps for one desperate move. Isabelle shifted slightly, trying to block Zemo’s line of sight more completely.
“The serum is destroyed,” she countered, nodding toward the broken vials. “Most of it, anyway. Mission accomplished. We take Karli in, get her medical attention, and let justice take its course.”
Zemo’s eyes narrowed, his jaw tightening almost imperceptibly. The gun in his hand didn’t waver.
“Justice?” He practically spat the word. “Like the justice that put me in a cell while the Avengers continued playing god? The justice that allowed these—” he nodded toward Karli, “—terrorists to steal the serum in the first place?”
A drop of sweat traced a cold path down Isabelle’s spine.
“Move,” Zemo said, his voice dropping to a dangerous register.
Isabelle planted her feet wider, her hands curling into fists at her sides. She could feel her power stirring beneath her skin, responding to the adrenaline flooding her system—that familiar itch in her palms, the heightened awareness of every heartbeat in the room.
“We don’t kill her.” She met his gaze unflinchingly, her voice low and hard-edged. “That’s not negotiable, Zemo.”
Zemo’s eyes narrowed, a cold calculation replacing the polite veneer. His finger tightened on the trigger, and Isabelle’s enhanced senses caught the minute shift in muscle tension—he wasn’t bluffing. He would shoot through her to get to Karli.
“So be it,” he said, voice dropping to a dangerous whisper.
Isabelle dropped to a crouch just as the gun fired, the bullet whizzing over her head close enough that she felt the displaced air ruffle her hair. The sound reverberated through the concrete room, a deafening crack that momentarily drowned out Karli’s ragged breathing.
In the same motion, Isabelle surged upward, driving her elbow into the underside of Zemo’s jaw. She felt a sense of satisfaction flood her as the feeling of cartilage giving way. Blood sprayed from his nose in a fine mist. Zemo staggered backward, eyes watering, but his grip on the gun remained firm. He swung it toward her again, his features twisted with determination.
“You don’t understand what’s at stake,” he snarled, blood trickling down his chin.
Isabelle pivoted on her heel, channeling her momentum into a roundhouse kick that connected with his chest. The impact sent him stumbling back another step, but he managed to squeeze off another wild shot. The bullet ricocheted off a pipe somewhere to her left, sending sparks cascading to the floor.
“Drop the gun, Zemo!” she commanded, advancing on him.
His response was another shot, this one coming close enough that she felt the heat of the bullet as it passed her cheek. The near miss sent a surge of adrenaline through her system, awakening the power that always lurked beneath her skin. It rose like a tide, that familiar electric itch spreading from her core to her fingertips.
Isabelle lunged forward, dodging another bullet, and grabbed his wrist. She could feel each tendon and bone beneath her fingers, could sense the pulse hammering beneath his skin. With a thought, she sent a focused burst of her power into his wrist. She didn’t need the voice to tell her to do it.
The crack of breaking bone was loud.
Zemo’s face contorted in agony, a strangled cry escaping his lips as the gun clattered to the concrete floor. “You—” he began, but Isabelle cut him off with another kick to his sternum that sent him sprawling backward.
He landed hard, his broken wrist cradled against his chest, but his eyes never left the scattered vials on the floor. Even injured, Zemo’s focus remained laser-sharp on his mission. Before Isabelle could reach him, he scrambled up from his knees and began stomping on the intact vials with a single-minded fury.
The glass shattered beneath his boot, the precious blue-green liquid seeping into the concrete. A grunt of pain accompanied each crunch of glass as the movement jostled his broken wrist, but he didn’t stop. His face was a mask of determination, teeth bared in a grimace that was equal parts pain and triumph.
“It has to be destroyed,” he panted, grinding his heel into another vial. “All of it.”
Isabelle watched for a split second, torn between stopping him and acknowledging that part of her agreed with his mission. The serum was too dangerous—hadn’t her own existence proven that? But the methodical destruction, the way he’d been willing to execute Karli...
“Zemo, enough!” She surged forward, grabbing him by the shoulders and yanking him backward with enough force to make him gasp. His good hand clawed at her arm, desperate to break free.
“You know I’m right,” he hissed, blood from his nose spattering his pristine collar. “You’ve seen what the serum does. What it makes people become.”
His words hit too close to home, striking at the core of her own fears about her power, her legacy. For a moment, their eyes locked, and Isabelle saw something unexpected in his gaze—not just conviction, but a desperate, haunted understanding that mirrored her own.
Behind them, Karli made a choked sound, pulling Isabelle’s attention back to the immediate crisis.
“Maybe you are,” Isabelle conceded, tightening her grip on Zemo’s shoulders until she felt the fabric of his coat bunch under her fingers. “But this isn’t how we do it.”
Zemo’s laugh was bitter, almost pitying. His eyes, dark and knowing, locked with hers. “No? Then how do you suggest we proceed, Miss Stark? Wait for the next catastrophe? The next Sokovia? The next—”
In that split second of distraction, Isabelle felt his muscles tense beneath her grip. She recognized the shift in weight distribution a heartbeat too late. Zemo wrenched himself free with surprising strength, diving for his fallen gun despite his broken wrist. The movement was fluid, practiced—the instinct of a man who’d survived far worse than a broken bone.
Isabelle lunged after him, her fingers just brushing the back of his jacket. The fine wool slipped through her grasp as he rolled away, his good hand already reaching for the pistol.
“Damn it!” Isabelle snarled.
She pivoted, abandoning finesse for raw power. Her hands found Zemo’s midsection, and she lifted him—all one hundred and eighty pounds of him—completely off the ground. The sudden exertion sent blood rushing to her face, her enhanced muscles bunching as she hoisted him upward.
“Enough!” she growled.
And then, with a grunt that tore from deep in her chest, she hurled Zemo into the wall. His body hit the concrete with a sickening thud that reverberated through the room. The gun clattered to the floor, spinning across the concrete until it came to rest near a puddle of spilled serum.
Zemo slid down the wall, leaving a smear of blood from his nose, but his eyes never left the weapon. Even dazed, even with a broken wrist cradled against his chest, his focus remained unshakeable.
Isabelle didn’t give him time to recover. She crossed the distance in three quick strides and snatched up the pistol. The metal was still warm from Zemo’s grip, the weight of it familiar in her hand. Without hesitation, she ejected the magazine, letting it drop to the floor with a metallic clatter. She racked the slide, sending the chambered round skittering across the concrete.
“No more,” she said, her voice steady despite the adrenaline coursing through her system.
Zemo watched her with those calculating eyes, blood trickling from his nose over his lips. “You think that stops anything?” he asked, his accent thickening with pain.
Isabelle didn’t answer. Instead, she gripped the gun with both hands, feeling the metal groan as she applied pressure. Her enhanced strength made the task almost effortless—the barrel bent first, then the grip cracked, and finally the entire mechanism split with a satisfying snap. She let the broken pieces fall from her fingers, the sound of them hitting the floor oddly final.
A scraping noise behind her made her whirl around. Karli had somehow managed to get to her feet, one hand still pressed to her bleeding abdomen. The girl’s face was a mask of determination despite the pain etched into every line.
“Karli, stop!” Isabelle called out, taking a step toward her. “You need medical attention!”
But Karli wasn’t alone. The heavy door at the top of the stairs swung open, and a man appeared—one of her Flag Smasher followers, his face tense with urgency. He bounded down the steps two at a time, his eyes widening at the scene before him.
“Karli!” he shouted, rushing to her side.
“Dovich,” Karli gasped, her voice barely audible. “The serum—”
“Forget it,” he said firmly, sliding an arm around her waist. “We need to go. Now.”
Isabelle started forward. “Karli, wait—”
But the girl was already being half-carried, half-dragged up the stairs, leaving a trail of blood droplets in her wake. Isabelle could hear the rapid, shallow quality of her breathing, could sense the torn tissue and blood loss that would become critical if not treated soon.
“Karli, stop!” she shouted again, moving toward the stairs.
A shuffling sound behind her made her freeze. Zemo was on his feet again, swaying slightly but with that same deadly focus in his eyes. Blood matted his hair where his head had hit the wall, but it hadn’t dimmed the intensity of his gaze.
“Let her go,” he said, his voice rough with pain. “She’ll bleed out before she gets far.”
Isabelle’s attention was split between the retreating Flag Smashers and the immediate threat Zemo still posed. She took a half-step toward the stairs, torn between pursuit and containment.
The decision was made for her.
A silver blur cut through the air with a distinctive metallic whine. The shield struck Zemo square in the temple with enough force to lift him clean off his feet. He slammed back against the wall and crumpled to the floor, unconscious before he hit the ground.
Isabelle’s heart lurched painfully against her ribs as she spun toward the source. Her heart hammered against her ribs as her eyes found John Walker standing, having come in from a side entrance she hadn’t noticed.
The room fell into a terrible silence, broken only by the soft, almost musical resonance of vibranium as the shield settled against the concrete floor.
“Jesus Christ,” Isabelle breathed, the words barely audible even to her own ears.
John strode forward to retrieve his shield, the vibranium singing softly as he lifted it from where it had fallen beside Zemo’s still form. He glanced at the unconscious man, then at Isabelle, his expression unreadable.
“You could have killed him,” Isabelle said, finding her voice. The words came out hoarse, scraped raw by the metallic taste of fear coating her tongue. She crossed the distance to Zemo in three quick strides, dropping to her knees beside his prone form.
Blood pooled beneath his head, dark against the concrete, but her enhanced hearing picked up his heartbeat—steady but slow. Unconscious, not dead. A flicker of relief passed through her, quickly buried beneath layers of anger and disgust—at John, at herself, at this entire situation spiraling further out of control.
“Fuck,” she muttered, pressing her fingertips to Zemo’s neck. His skin felt warm, slightly clammy. The bruise where the shield had struck was already spreading across his temple and cheekbone, a dark purple-black stain that would only worsen. His broken wrist lay at an awkward angle against his chest, the bone visibly misaligned beneath the skin.
“Would that have been such a loss?” John’s voice was flat, almost conversational. He adjusted his grip on his shield, the leather straps creaking softly. “He’s a terrorist. A mass murderer.”
Isabelle gently turned Zemo’s head, checking for skull fractures. Her fingers came away slick with blood, and she fought the instinct to wipe them on her pants. Instead, she kept her eyes on Zemo, refusing to give John the satisfaction of her full attention.
“That’s not your call to make,” she said, each word precise and cold. She could feel Zemo’s pulse beneath her fingertips, the fragile thread of life that John had nearly severed with a single throw. “We don’t execute people. That’s not what the shield stands for.”
John scoffed, the sound echoing harshly off the concrete walls. She could hear him shifting, moving around the room. But Isabelle’s focus remained on the man before her, cataloging his injuries and assessing the damage.
“No?” John’s boots scraped against the floor as he took a step closer. “Tell that to all the Nazis Steve Rogers put down during the war. Tell that to the HYDRA agents he dropped from the Triskelion.”
Isabelle stiffened, her hands going still against Zemo’s neck. She could feel her power stirring beneath her skin, responding to the surge of anger that flashed hot through her veins. That familiar electric itch spread from her core to her fingertips, begging for release.
“Don’t you dare,” she hissed, refusing to look up at him. “Don’t you dare compare yourself to Steve.”
For a few beats, silence reigned in the concrete room, broken only by Zemo’s labored breathing. Isabelle remained kneeling beside his unconscious form, her fingers still pressed to his pulse point. She bit her lip, counting heartbeats to ground herself, to keep from doing something she might regret. One, two, three...
When she finally turned to look up at John, her gaze caught a subtle movement—his free hand dipping briefly into his pocket, accompanied by the faint clink of glass against metal and the whisper of fabric as something was secured.
He cleared his throat, adjusting the shield once more, but something flickered in his eyes. A momentary calculation, there and gone so quickly she might have missed it if she hadn’t been watching for it.
“We need to secure the prisoner and pursue the target.” He said, his tone casual, dismissive almost.
Before Isabelle could press further, the door at the top of the stairs banged open, metal striking concrete with enough force to echo through the room. Sam’s voice called down, urgent and tense: “Isabelle? You down there?”
“Here!” she called back, not taking her eyes off John. “Zemo’s down, Karli’s wounded and on the run.”
Footsteps thundered down the metal stairs—the heavy, deliberate tread of combat boots against steel. Sam appeared first, followed by Bucky’s more measured descent. Lemar brought up the rear, his expression tightening when he spotted John.
Isabelle could feel the tension radiating off Bucky before he even reached the bottom step—a cold, focused anger that prickled against her senses like static electricity. His eyes went immediately to Zemo, then to the blood pooling beneath his head, then to John’s shield. The mental calculation was visible in the tightening of his jaw.
“What happened?” Sam demanded, taking in the scene with a tactical sweep of his eyes—the broken vials, the spilled serum, Zemo’s still form, the tension vibrating between Isabelle and John.
“Contained a threat,” John said simply, nodding toward Zemo’s unconscious form. “We need to move. The Flag Smashers are getting away.”
Bucky pushed past John without a word, his shoulder deliberately bumping against the other man’s as he moved. He dropped to one knee beside Isabelle. His metal hand hovered over Zemo’s head wound, not quite touching.
“How bad?” he asked.
“Concussion, definitely. Possible skull fracture. Broken wrist.” She met his eyes, letting him see her concern without filter. “He needs medical attention. Soon.”
Bucky gave her a nearly imperceptible nod, the barest dip of his chin.
“John?” Lemar’s voice was filled with concern as he moved to his partner’s side, one hand coming to rest on John’s shoulder. “You alright, man? What went down here?”
John’s jaw clenched, the muscles working visibly beneath his skin. A vein pulsed at his temple, his complexion flushed with adrenaline or something darker. His gaze flicked between Zemo’s unconscious form and the others, a storm of emotions playing across his face—righteousness, defiance, and beneath it all, something almost like fear.
He opened his mouth to speak, then closed it again, swallowing hard.
The frustration that had been building inside her since the moment John had appeared finally boiled over, spilling out in words sharp enough to cut.
“I stopped Zemo from killing Karli,” she said as she rose to her feet. She gestured to the blue liquid pooling on the concrete floor, the shattered glass glittering. “Zemo smashed all the serum. Then Walker nearly decapitated him with the shield.”
The accusation hung in the air, heavy and damning. John’s nostrils flared, his grip on the shield tightening until his knuckles went white.
“I didn’t nearly decapitate him,” he countered, taking a step forward that brought him toe-to-toe with Isabelle. He towered over her, using his height in a way that was clearly meant to intimidate. “I neutralized a dangerous fugitive who was actively destroying evidence.”
“You bounced your overgrown frisbee off his head!” Isabelle snapped, refusing to back down. She curled her hands into fists, nails biting into her palms. “He was already subdued. I had him handled.”
“Handled?” John scoffed, gesturing toward Zemo’s unconscious form. “Is that what you call letting him destroy the serum? Letting a known terrorist dictate the terms of this operation?”
Sam stepped between them, his hands raised in a placating gesture. Isabelle could see the tension in his shoulders, the way he was trying to diffuse the situation before it spiraled out of control. Again.
“Okay, stop,” he said, his voice slow, consciously calm despite the undercurrent of tension. “We’ve got an injured man who needs medical attention and a fugitive on the run. Those are our priorities right now.”
“Sam’s right,” Bucky added, his voice a low rumble as he rose to his feet. He positioned himself subtly at Isabelle’s side, a silent show of support that didn’t go unnoticed by John.
John’s eyes narrowed, darting between Sam, Bucky, and Isabelle with barely contained resentment. “Fine,” he said after a moment, taking a deliberate step back. “Lemar, let’s go. We’re going after Karli.”
“John—” Lemar began, concern etched into his features.
“That’s an order, Battlestar,” Walker cut him off, his voice taking on the hard edge of command. He turned toward the stairs without another word, his boots leaving bloody footprints in his wake.
Isabelle watched them both go, something cold settling in her stomach. Not just suspicion, but certainty.
“He took something,” she said, keeping her voice low as if Walker might still hear her. “When I was checking on Zemo. I heard him pocket something.”
Sam’s expression darkened, the lines around his eyes deepening as understanding dawned. “The serum?”
“I don’t know for sure.” Isabelle ran a hand through her hair, frustration burning in her chest. “Didn’t actually see it. I was too focused on making sure Zemo wasn’t bleeding out.” She glanced down at her hands, still stained with Zemo’s blood, and felt a flicker of self-directed anger. For all her enhanced senses, she’d missed the most critical detail. “Stupid.”
Bucky’s metal arm whirred softly as his hand clenched into a fist, the vibranium plates recalibrating with a series of soft clicks that echoed in the concrete room. “If Walker’s taken the serum...” Bucky’s voice was dangerously quiet, each word measured and heavy with implication.
His eyes, steel-blue and haunted, met Isabelle’s. She saw her fear reflected there, amplified by decades of firsthand knowledge of what the wrong person with the serum could do.
“Then we’ve got a whole new problem,” Sam finished, his gaze still fixed on the doorway where Walker had disappeared. “And it’s wearing the stars and stripes.”
The weight of those words settled over them.
“We need to be sure,” she said, forcing herself to breathe evenly. “Before we make accusations. If he did take it—”
A low groan interrupted her, the sound rough and pained. They all turned to see Zemo stirring, his eyelids fluttering as consciousness slowly returned. Blood had matted in his hair, turning the short strands stiff and dark. His face contorted in pain as awareness brought with it the full force of his injuries.
“Scheisse,” he muttered, the German curse slipping out as he tried to move his broken wrist and was rewarded with a fresh wave of agony.
Sam crouched beside him, his movements cautious but not unkind. “Easy,” he said, placing a restraining hand on Zemo’s shoulder when the baron tried to sit up. “You took a pretty bad hit.”
Zemo’s eyes opened fully, dark and immediately alert despite the pain. They darted around the room, taking in the situation with the rapid assessment of a trained operative before settling on Isabelle.
“Miss Stark,” he acknowledged, his voice rougher than usual but still carrying that cultured accent. “I see your American friend has quite the throwing arm.”
“He’s not my friend.” Isabelle felt her mouth twist into something that wasn’t quite a smile. “But yeah, well, that’s what happens when you try to execute people.” The words came out sharper than she’d intended, edged with lingering anger—at Zemo, at John, at this entire spiraling situation.
Zemo’s lips curved into a ghost of his usual sardonic smile, though it quickly turned to a grimace as he tried to shift position.
“The girl?” he asked, and Isabelle couldn’t tell if the intensity in his voice was concern or determination to finish what he’d started.
“Gone,” Bucky answered before Isabelle could, his tone flat and uncompromising. “And we need to move too. Now.”
“Bucky is right,” Sam said, already looking toward the exit. “We need to get out of here before Walker and Hoskins come back or the local authorities show up. And we need to get Zemo medical attention.”
Isabelle nodded, but her eyes remained fixed on Zemo’s face, studying the calculated pain there, the way his gaze kept drifting to the shattered vials of serum on the floor. There was satisfaction in that look—a mission accomplished despite the cost. It sent a chill through her that had nothing to do with the damp air of the basement.
“Can you stand?” she asked him, not bothering to soften her tone.
Zemo’s dark eyes met hers, and for a moment, something passed between them—a mutual recognition, perhaps, of the monsters they both fought within themselves. Then his expression shuttered, that aristocratic mask sliding back into place despite the blood and bruising.
“With assistance,” he admitted, the concession clearly costing him. “Though I believe my wrist requires immediate attention.”
“Yeah, I’ll bet,” Bucky muttered, but he moved forward anyway, his metal arm extending toward Zemo with obvious reluctance.
As they helped Zemo to his feet, the baron swayed dangerously, his face going ashen beneath the blood and bruising. Isabelle instinctively reached out to steady him, her fingers closing around his uninjured arm. Through the fabric of his coat, she could feel the heat of inflammation beginning, the body’s natural response to trauma.
Isabelle didn’t look back as they led Zemo out of the basement—but the echoes of that shield hitting concrete, and the flash of something stolen slipping into a pocket, stayed with her like the chill of blood on her hands.
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Zemo’s bleeding, Sam’s stitching, and Isabelle? She’s starving.
When a food run becomes an excuse for air, escape, and maybe something quieter—something closer—Bucky doesn’t let her go alone.Outside the safe house, the world hums with possibility.
Inside, the silence they leave behind says more than either of them is ready to.Just a walk. Just food. Just them.
And yeah, maybe Sam’s not wrong. Again.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 58: Stayed
Chapter 58: Stayed
Summary:
A quiet restaurant. Rain-soaked streets.
Two soldiers walk through Riga’s mist, not quite touching—but not quite apart.They order dumplings and soup. They trade soft looks and quieter truths.
Bucky calls her his girlfriend in another language. Isabelle doesn’t correct him.
Maybe it’s just cover.
Maybe it’s not.Hands brush. Knees bump. Hearts begin to ask the kind of questions mouths are still too scared to voice.
One night. One table. One shared breath of something that feels like peace.
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AHHH okay, I love this chapter. Like, seriously, I was giggling the whole time I wrote it. It’s soft, it’s flirty, it’s got soup and feelings… what more could we ask for?? I hope you all love reading it as much as I loved writing it. See you tomorrow for more 💚✨
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The apartment door clicked shut behind them, sealing in the tension that hung thick as smoke—the bitter scent of antiseptic mingled with spilled whiskey and the undercurrent of blood.
Zemo lay stretched across the low couch like a fallen prince, his usual composure fractured by pain. A swollen purple bruise bloomed across his temple where the shield had clipped him—an angry flower marking the spot where vibranium had kissed his skin. His right wrist rested awkwardly against his chest, hastily splinted and wrapped with gauze that was already showing spots of pink seepage.
Sam knelt beside the couch, his movements careful as he worked. The needle glinted under the lighting as he stitched the gash on Zemo’s scalp. His expression was a thorough study in neutrality. However, the tightness around his eyes and the firm set of his jaw betrayed something that landed somewhere between surgical focus and barely contained fury.
“You broke my wrist,” Zemo muttered through gritted teeth. He sounded more annoyed than pained, as if the injury were more a personal inconvenience rather than the result of a violent confrontation. “That feels….excessive.”
Silence hung in the air for a moment before Isabelle, seated across from him with her arms crossed tight against her chest and her foot bouncing in a rapid staccato against the hardwood floor, responded without looking up.
“You deserved it.” Her voice was flat, devoid of the satisfaction one might expect—just a statement of fact.
Zemo’s dark eyes slid toward her, studying her face. He seemed to be waiting for a smirk or a wink, some acknowledgment of their strange, reluctant alliance, but all he got was a flat stare that offered nothing.
From his position by the window, Bucky grunted approvingly, the sound rumbling from deep in his chest.
Sam tied off the last suture with a sharp, deliberate tug that made Zemo wince visibly. “Sit still or I’ll make it worse,” he warned.
“I am sitting still,” Zemo said with a wounded scoff that bordered on theatrical. His fingers twitched against the splint as he adjusted his position minutely. “I’m being remarkably cooperative, all things considered.”
“Yeah, and we’re being remarkably merciful,” Isabelle snapped back. She uncrossed her arms long enough to push a strand of hair from her face.
No one responded for a beat. The silence stretched between them, heavy with unspoken accusations and reluctant dependencies. The only sound was the faint clink of ice against crystal as Zemo reached for the glass of scotch on the end table with his good hand. The amber liquid caught the light as he raised it to his lips, his eyes never leaving Isabelle’s face. He sighed and let his head fall back against the couch cushions, pressing a damp cloth to his brow with a wince that might have been genuine.
For a moment, the apartment felt weirdly still. No one was yelling. No one was threatening anyone. No one was dying.
It was almost peaceful. Almost.
That was when Isabelle’s stomach growled—not a polite reminder but a primal, embarrassingly loud protest that shattered the silence like a gunshot.
Sam looked up from where he was methodically repacking the medical kit, snapping the compartments closed. He arched a single eyebrow, the ghost of amusement playing at the corners of his mouth. “You good over there?”
“I haven’t eaten since breakfast,” Isabelle muttered, pushing up from the chair with a grimace that pulled at muscles she hadn’t realized were sore. The adrenaline crash was hitting her hard now, leaving her limbs heavy and her head foggy. “And unless Zemo’s fridge is hiding a rotisserie chicken and a six-pack of empathy, we’re out of luck.”
She ran a hand through her hair, feeling the grit of the day’s chaos caught in the strands. The hunger gnawing at her insides felt suddenly, irrationally urgent—as if her body had decided that now, in this moment of relative safety, it could finally acknowledge its basic needs.
“I have caviar in the cupboard,” Zemo offered lazily from his prone position, somehow managing to sound both helpful and condescending at once.
Bucky made a face like he’d just smelled raw sewage, his nose wrinkling and lips curling downward. “No , you don’t.”
“I had caviar,” Zemo corrected with a slight tilt of his head, raising the glass to his mouth with regal flair that seemed absurd given the circumstances.
Isabelle grabbed her jacket from the hook by the door, the leather cool against her fingertips. “I’m going to find food.” The thought of fresh air and space away from Zemo’s watchful eyes and Sam’s careful neutrality felt suddenly essential.
“I’m going with you,” Bucky said, already pulling on his own coat, his movements quick and decisive.
Isabelle gave him a look, half-exasperated, half-something else she couldn’t quite name. “I’m not gonna start a bar fight.” The words came out sharper than she’d intended, defensive in a way that made her wince internally.
He raised a brow, the corner of his mouth lifting in that barely-there smile that seemed reserved just for her. “You might finish one, though.”
Behind them, Sam let out a low, amused whistle as he snapped the med kit shut with a decisive click. “Sure, okay. You two go... scavenge.” His emphasis on the last word was deliberate, loaded with meaning. “I’m sure that’s all it is.”
Isabelle paused, halfway to the door, her hand frozen on the doorknob. A traitorous heat crept into her cheeks, spreading down her neck in a flush she couldn’t control. “Sam, shut up.”
“I’m just saying,” Sam continued, his voice taking on that teasing lilt that reminded her painfully of Tony, “it’s interesting how you two keep finding reasons to be alone together. First Madripoor, now a midnight food run...” He trailed off, eyebrows raised suggestively.
Bucky shifted his weight, the floorboards creaking beneath him. “We’re getting food, Wilson. That’s it. Don’t make it weird.”
“Uh-huh.” Sam’s smile widened as he leaned back against the counter, crossing his arms. “And I’m sure there are no other perfectly capable adults in this room who could go instead.”
Zemo raised his glass from the couch in a mock toast. “I would volunteer, but I’m afraid I’m rather indisposed at the moment.” The smirk playing at his lips suggested he was enjoying their discomfort far too much.
“We’ll be back in thirty,” Isabelle said firmly, yanking the door open with more force than necessary. The cool night air rushed in, a welcome relief against her heated skin. “Try not to kill each other while we’re gone.”
She stepped into the hallway, not waiting to see if Bucky followed. The soft click of the door and the nearly silent footfalls behind her told her he had. When she finally glanced over her shoulder, she found him watching her with an expression she couldn’t quite read—something between amusement and something deeper, more complicated.
The streets of Riga were slick with rain, puddles catching the glow of traffic lights and streetlights. Isabelle pulled her hood lower, grateful for the cool night air against her flushed skin. The rain had tapered to a fine mist that clung to her face like fever sweat, not unpleasant after the stifling tension of the apartment.
Bucky walked beside her, slightly offset, not quite shoulder to shoulder, but close enough that she could feel the subtle heat radiating from him. His hands were buried deep in his jacket pockets, metal and flesh both hidden away. She noticed how he positioned himself: half a step behind her right shoulder, the perfect spot to intercept a threat while maintaining the illusion of casual companionship.
They walked in silence for nearly a block, their footsteps creating overlapping rhythms against the wet pavement. A car splashed through a puddle nearby, sending droplets spattering against Isabelle’s boots.
“We’ve got a few hours before the Dora Milaje track us down and take Zemo back,” Isabelle said finally, her voice low enough that only enhanced hearing would catch it. “But at least we’re not stuck in that pressure cooker anymore.”
Bucky grunted in agreement, his eyes constantly scanning their surroundings. A couple passed them, laughing under a shared umbrella, oblivious to the super soldiers in their midst.
“I still can’t believe we’re helping him,” Isabelle muttered, shaking her head slightly. The memory of Zemo’s smug face made something twist in her stomach—not quite anger, not quite disgust, but some toxic blend of both. “After everything he did.”
“I mean, we did almost get him decapitated,” Bucky replied, his voice carrying that particular dry tone that she’d come to recognize as his version of humor. In the glow of a nearby storefront, she caught the ghost of amusement playing at the corners of his mouth.
Isabelle snorted, stepping around a particularly deep puddle. “Not hard enough, apparently.”
He huffed a laugh—a real one, brief and rusty like he was still remembering how. “You also broke his wrist.”
“Yeah, well.” She flexed her fingers inside her pocket, remembering the sickening crack of bone beneath her grip, the sharp jolt of satisfaction that had followed. “He was being a dick.”
“Was that before or after you kicked him in the ribs?” Bucky asked, his eyebrow lifting in a way that transformed his entire face, softening the hard edges into something almost playful.
“During,” she smirked, meeting his eyes directly for the first time since they’d left the apartment. The corner of her mouth quirked up, a mirror of his own expression.
They shared a look—brief but electric, a moment of unexpected connection that sent a warm current through the cold night air. It was the kind of look that acknowledged a shared understanding: that violence could be funny, that monsters could have inside jokes, that people like them weren’t supposed to find comfort in each other.
Bucky’s eyes lingered on hers a beat longer than necessary, something unreadable flickering behind them. His gaze dropped briefly to her lips before he looked away, clearing his throat.
“There’s a place up ahead,” he said, nodding toward a narrow storefront with steamed-up windows and a warm yellow glow spilling onto the sidewalk. “Looks open late.”
The smell hit her as they approached—rich, savory, the unmistakable scent of bread and meat and spices. Isabelle’s stomach growled again, loud enough that Bucky glanced down with a raised eyebrow.
Heat crept up her neck.
“Shut up,” she muttered, shoving her hands deeper into her pockets.
“Didn’t say anything.” The corner of his mouth twitched upward as he reached for the door, pulling it open. “After you.”
The warmth of the tiny restaurant enveloped her immediately, along with the full-bodied aroma of garlic, paprika, and roasting meat. The space was narrow but deep, with mismatched wooden tables scattered throughout and strings of small yellow lights draped across the low ceiling. Most of the tables were empty, save for a couple in the far corner sharing a bottle of wine and an elderly man reading a newspaper by the window.
For a moment, she stood there, watching the elderly man turn a page of his newspaper, the couple in the corner lean toward each other with conspiratorial smiles. Normal people. People without blood on their hands.
“I’m glad you came with me,” she said suddenly, surprising herself with the admission.
Bucky glanced over, raindrops clinging to his dark hair like tiny crystals. His eyes—steel blue in the warm light—studied her face with that careful intensity she was beginning to recognize.
“You saying that because you’re bad with directions?” His voice was low, a rumble that seemed to vibrate through the small space between them.
“No,” she said, then after a beat, “Yes.” She smiled faintly, watching a raindrop track down the collar of his jacket, disappearing beneath the dark fabric. “Also because I didn’t want to be alone.”
She felt exposed, as if she’d accidentally revealed too much of herself—the part that still flinched at shadows and woke up gasping for air, the part that sometimes couldn’t tell if the blood on her hands was real or imagined.
“Out here, or in general?” His voice was quiet, almost gentle.
She considered deflecting with a joke, but something in his expression stopped her. “Both,” she admitted, dropping her gaze to the scarred surface of the nearest table. She traced a finger along a deep groove in the wood. “I like your company.” She felt heat rise to her cheeks, but she didn’t take it back.
He didn’t joke this time. Didn’t smirk. Just nodded once, like he understood exactly what she meant. The ghost of something crossed his face—not quite a smile, but a softening around the eyes that made him look suddenly younger, less burdened.
“You gonna stand here brooding, or you want something specific?” Isabelle asked, clearing her throat and straightening her shoulders, trying to reclaim some semblance of composure.
Bucky stepped fully into the restaurant, letting the door swing shut behind him. The bell above it jingled softly, drawing a brief glance from the elderly man with the newspaper.
“I can order,” he said, his eyes scanning the handwritten menu board above the counter. The Cyrillic lettering reflected in his pupils as he read, his lips moving slightly.
“You speak Latvian?” Isabelle asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Enough,” he replied with a half-shrug that somehow conveyed both “it’s nothing” and “I was programmed with seventeen languages during decades of brainwashing” in a single movement.
She watched him study the menu, noting how his eyes lingered on certain items, how his flesh hand flexed slightly at his side. There was something oddly intimate about watching someone decide what to eat—what would bring them comfort, what might satisfy a craving they couldn’t articulate.
“What looks good?” she asked, stepping closer to read over his shoulder.
Bucky’s eyes flicked toward her, then back to the menu. “Pelmeni,” he said, nodding toward a description of dumplings. “And maybe the solyanka.” His mouth quirked up at one corner. “It’s a soup. Good when it’s cold out.”
“Sounds perfect,” she agreed, feeling the hollow ache of hunger sharpen at the thought of hot soup and fresh bread.
She stepped up to the counter with Bucky, where a middle-aged woman with salt-and-pepper hair tied back in a neat bun was wiping down the surface with a cloth.
The woman looked up, her eyes quickly assessing them both, taking in their damp clothes, Isabelle’s bruised knuckles, and the careful way Bucky kept his left hand in his pocket. If she found anything suspicious, she didn’t show it.
The woman behind the counter nodded along as Bucky ordered. Her weathered hands rested on the countertop, fingers tapping occasionally as she asked questions in a warm, rolling tone. Bucky answered with surprising ease, his mouth forming unfamiliar syllables.
It struck Isabelle then—this was another glimpse of who he might have been before. Just like what she saw in Madripoor, when it had just been the two of them in Sharon’s living room. And then in the hallway. Not the Winter Soldier, not even Sergeant Barnes, but just a man ordering food in a quiet restaurant on a rainy night. The thought evoked a strange ache in her chest, a mix of sadness and wonder.
When he finished, the woman smiled at him and turned toward the kitchen. Bucky turned back to Isabelle, giving her a soft nod. “The food will be done in a couple of minutes,” he said, his voice slipping back into its usual rhythm. “She says we can sit anywhere.”
They surveyed the restaurant together, choosing a table near the back wall, positioned between a rustic wooden beam and a small alcove lined with bottles of liquor. Isabelle slid into the chair facing the entrance, settling into the worn wooden seat before noticing the subtle tightening around Bucky’s eyes as he looked at the remaining chair that would put his back to the door.
Without a comment, she stood and moved around to the other side, giving him the position with the better vantage point.
“Thanks,” he said quietly, settling into the chair with his back to the wall. His left hand emerged from his pocket, fingers curled loosely, to rest on the table.
“Don’t mention it.” She shrugged, as if it were nothing, but the look they shared acknowledged it wasn’t.
The elderly man with his newspaper turned a page with a soft rustle. The couple in the corner clinked glasses. Rain tapped gently against the windows, creating a rhythm that felt almost hypnotic.
“How many languages do you speak?” Isabelle asked, leaning forward slightly. The table between them was small enough that she could feel the subtle warmth radiating from him.
Bucky’s eyes flicked up to meet hers, then away, scanning the room in what seemed like an unconscious sweep. “Fluently? Eight.” His flesh hand tapped once against the tabletop. “I can get by in another dozen or so.”
“That’s...” She searched for the right word. “Impressive.”
A shadow crossed his face. “It was necessary.” The words held weight, history.
Isabelle nodded, understanding the unspoken. Some skills came at prices too steep to measure.
“Still,” she said, “it’s nice. Watching you talk to her.” She gestured vaguely toward the counter. “You seemed... comfortable.”
Something shifted in his expression—a softening around the eyes, a barely perceptible release of tension in his jaw.
“Yeah,” he admitted, his voice dropping lower. “It’s easier sometimes. Speaking another language.” His metal fingers flexed slightly against the worn wood.
The admission hung between them, fragile and significant. Isabelle immediately understood how another tongue could create distance from the self that had been weaponized, how it could feel like stepping into a different skin, even if only momentarily.
“I get that,” she said.
His eyes met hers then, really met them, holding her gaze with an intensity that made her breath catch. “I know you do.”
The moment stretched between them, galvanic and weighted with understanding. Isabelle found herself studying the small details of him—the precise shade of steel blue in his eyes, the way his damp hair curled slightly around his ears, the almost unnoticeable rise and fall of his chest with each breath.
The woman approached their table, carrying a tray with two small glass cups. Steam rose from the amber liquid in delicate, curling tendrils that caught the warm light of the restaurant. Isabelle watched the woman’s hands as she set the tray down, arranging the drinks on the table.
The woman then said something in Latvian, her voice melodic and warm. Her gaze moved between Isabelle and Bucky, a knowing smile crinkling the corners of her eyes as she spoke. Whatever she said made the tips of Bucky’s ears flush with a subtle pink.
“Paldies,” he thanked the woman as she retreated back toward the kitchen, leaving them alone in their corner of the restaurant.
Isabelle reached for her glass, wrapping her fingers around the warm container. The heat seeped into her cold hands, a welcome contrast to the chill that still clung to her from the rain outside. She watched Bucky over the rim of her glass, noting how he kept his metal hand tucked beneath the table while the woman had been present.
“What did she say?” Isabelle asked, curiosity getting the better of her.
Bucky’s eyes met hers over the rim of his own glass. Something flickered in their depths—amusement, perhaps, or something more complicated. He took a slow sip before answering, as if considering whether to tell her the truth.
“She said we make a handsome couple,” he finally replied, his voice matter-of-fact but with an undercurrent that Isabelle couldn’t quite place.
Heat rushed to her cheeks, spreading down her neck in a flush she couldn’t control. She nearly choked on her tea, setting the glass down with more force than necessary. The liquid sloshed dangerously close to the rim.
“Oh,” she managed, clearing her throat and trying to regain her composure. She studied his face, searching for signs of discomfort or embarrassment, but found only that quiet, steady gaze. Her eyes narrowed slightly as realization dawned. “And you didn’t correct her?”
The corner of his mouth twitched—not quite a smile, but something adjacent to it. “Didn’t see the point. We’ll be gone in an hour.” His flesh hand rotated the glass slowly, his eyes following the movement before lifting to meet hers again. “Unless you want me to go tell her we’re just... what? Colleagues?”
The word hung between them, hollow and insufficient. Colleagues didn’t break each other’s falls in the middle of firefights. Colleagues didn’t instinctively know which position at the table would ease the other’s hypervigilance. Colleagues didn’t share the kind of silences they did—the ones that felt more like conversations than empty space.
Isabelle traced a finger along the rim of her glass, considering.
“No,” she said finally, taking another sip of tea to hide whatever might be showing on her face. “Let her think what she wants.”
Something in Bucky’s expression shifted—a subtle relaxing around his eyes, a softening at the corners of his mouth. He leaned back slightly in his chair, his gaze traveling over her face with careful attention, as if cataloging each feature. His metal hand emerged from beneath the table, resting on the worn wood between them.
A few minutes passed in comfortable silence, the rain tapping against the windows, counting time in this stolen moment. The kitchen door swung open with a soft creak, and the woman emerged carrying a large tray laden with steaming bowls and plates. Isabelle’s stomach contracted painfully at the rich aroma of garlic, paprika, and roasted meat that hit her in an almost physical wave.
The woman set down their food, speaking in rapid Latvian as she arranged the dishes—deep bowls of soup radiating heat, a basket of dark bread with its cracked crust, plump dumplings glistening with butter and flecked with vibrant green herbs.
This time, Bucky responded more fully, and whatever he said made the woman’s eyes crinkle at the corners, her entire face lighting up as she reached out to pat his shoulder, her hand lingering a moment before she retreated back toward the kitchen.
“What did you tell her?” Isabelle asked, eyeing the spread before them. The soup was a deep, rich red, almost burgundy, with specks of herbs floating on the surface and chunks of meat and vegetables visible beneath. Steam curled upward in lazy spirals, carrying the scent of something both foreign and comforting.
Bucky reached for a piece of bread, tearing it in half with a satisfying sound, offering her the larger portion. His fingers brushed against hers in the exchange, a brief point of contact that felt oddly significant.
“I told her my girlfriend was starving and that the food looked amazing,” he said, his voice casual but his eyes watchful, gauging her reaction with that quiet intensity that seemed to be his default setting.
Isabelle nearly dropped the bread, her fingers twitching with surprise. Her eyes snapped up to meet his, searching for the joke. “Your girlfriend?”
The corner of his mouth quirked up, creating a small dimple she hadn’t noticed before. There was a hint of mischief in his eyes.
“Just maintaining our cover.” His voice was deliberately light, but there was something in his expression that suggested it wasn’t entirely a joke—a question hidden within the statement, testing boundaries neither of them had acknowledged existed.
“Right,” she said, trying and failing to keep the smile from her voice. She could feel heat creeping up her neck again, and she ducked her head slightly, using the soup as an excuse to break eye contact. “Our cover.”
She dipped her bread into the soup, watching the rich broth soak into the dark crust, staining it red. She brought it to her mouth, the flavors exploded across her tongue—tangy tomato, smoky paprika, the deep umami of slow-cooked meat, and a bright note of something she couldn’t identify. She closed her eyes involuntarily, making a small sound of appreciation that she might have been embarrassed about in any other context.
When she opened her eyes, Bucky was watching her, his spoon suspended halfway to his mouth, his expression unreadable.
“What?” she asked, suddenly self-conscious.
“Nothing.” He shook his head slightly, focusing on his own food. “Just... It’s good to see you enjoy something.”
The simple observation caught her off guard, creating a strange ache in her chest.
“Yeah, well.” She shrugged, trying to deflect the unexpected vulnerability. “Food’s good when you’re not the one cooking it.”
His lips quirked. “You can’t cook?”
“I can cook,” she protested, tearing off another piece of bread. “I just choose not to. My dad was the same way. He could build an arc reactor in a cave, but ask him to make pasta, and suddenly he’s helpless.”
The memory came without warning—Tony in the kitchen, covered in flour, swearing creatively as smoke billowed from the oven. The grief hit her sideways, a swift punch to the solar plexus that momentarily stole her breath.
Bucky noticed—of course he did—his eyes tracking the minute changes in her expression with that careful attention that missed nothing. But instead of the awkward silence that usually followed any mention of Tony, he simply nodded.
“Steve was the same,” he said, his voice quiet but steady. “Back before the war, he’d burn water if you let him. After the serum, he could eat anything, but cooking...” He shook his head, a ghost of a smile touching his lips. “Some things even super soldier serum can’t fix.”
The moment stretched between them, fragile and weighted. Something about this quiet corner of Riga felt suspended in time, as if the world outside had temporarily ceased to exist.
“We should probably eat before it gets cold,” she said finally, breaking the silence but not the connection between them. Her spoon clinked softly against the bowl as she stirred the rich soup, watching the swirl of colors blend together. “Sam will never let us hear the end of it if we come back with nothing for him.”
Bucky huffed a soft laugh, reaching for a dumpling with his fork. “Sam’s got opinions about everything.”
“Especially things that aren’t his business,” Isabelle agreed, thinking of Sam’s knowing looks and suggestive comments back at the apartment. The memory of his raised eyebrows and barely suppressed smile made heat rise to her cheeks again.
“Like us,” Bucky said, the words casual, but his eyes intent on her face as he took a bite of the dumpling. A drop of butter clung to the corner of his mouth, and Isabelle had the sudden, irrational urge to reach across and brush it away with her thumb.
Her heart stuttered in her chest, a quick double-beat that felt too loud in the quiet space between them. “Yup...” She swallowed, forcing herself to maintain eye contact despite the flutter of nervousness in her stomach. “Um, like us.”
The word ‘us’ hung in the air, taking on weight and meaning beyond its single syllable. Bucky’s expression shifted, something vulnerable flashing across his features—a brief glimpse behind the carefully constructed walls—before being tucked away again. His eyes dropped to her hands, where they rested on the table, and for a moment, she thought he might reach for them.
Their knees touched beneath the table, and neither of them moved away. Isabelle found herself hyperaware of that small point of contact—the solid warmth of him against her, the way his leg shifted slightly when he reached for his glass, the casual intimacy of it.
“Isabelle...” Bucky said suddenly, setting his fork down with a soft clink against the worn wood.
The way he said her name—soft, almost reverent, with that slight roughness at the edges—sent a current down her spine. Hearing it in his voice now felt strangely intimate, as if he’d touched her instead of just speaking.
“Yeah?” she asked. Under the table, her knee pressed more firmly against his, deliberate now rather than accidental. The point of contact felt electric, even through layers of fabric.
Bucky’s gaze dropped briefly to her lips before returning to her eyes, the blue of his irises darkening like the sky before a storm. His flesh hand moved across the table, stopping just short of hers. His fingers rested on the worn wood mere centimeters from her own—close enough that she could feel the heat radiating from his skin, close enough that the smallest movement from either of them would bridge the gap.
For a moment, he seemed to struggle with whatever he wanted to say, his jaw working slightly as if chewing on words that refused to come easily. The hesitation wasn’t surprising—neither of them was particularly good at this part, at naming the thing that had been growing between them since this all began.
“I’m glad you didn’t come alone,” he said finally, the words simple but loaded with meaning. His voice had that particular quality it sometimes took on when they were alone—softer, less guarded, with none of the sharp edges he presented to the world. “Not just because of—” he gestured vaguely with his metal hand, encompassing the dangers that always surrounded them, the threats lurking in every shadow, “—but because I wanted to be here. With you.”
The admission hung between them, honest and unadorned. Isabelle felt something shift inside her chest, a tectonic movement of emotion that threatened to crack the carefully constructed walls she’d built around herself. The restaurant seemed to recede around them, the soft clatter of dishes and murmur of distant conversation fading to white noise.
She studied his face, searching for any sign of insincerity or calculation, but found only that steady, unwavering gaze that seemed to see straight through her defenses. It was terrifying and exhilarating all at once—the idea that someone might actually see her, all of her, and still choose to stay.
“I wanted that too,” she admitted, her voice catching slightly on the words. It felt dangerous to say it aloud, as if speaking the truth might somehow jinx it. “Being with you is...” She paused, searching for the right words, frustrated by their inadequacy. “It’s easier. To breathe.”
Her fingers inched forward on the table, bridging the small gap between them until her pinky finger rested against his. The contact was feather-light but deliberate—an acknowledgment of whatever this was between them, fragile and new.
Bucky’s expression softened, the tension around his eyes easing as he looked down at their almost-touching hands. His thumb moved, just barely, brushing against the side of her finger in a gesture so gentle it made her throat tighten. For a man whose hands had been weapons for so long, the tenderness of the touch felt like a revelation.
“I don’t remember the last time anything felt easy,” he said, his voice low enough that only enhanced hearing would catch it. A small, rueful smile tugged at one corner of his mouth. “But this... being here with you...” He shook his head slightly, as if surprised by his admission. “It feels right. Even when everything else is wrong.”
She turned her hand slightly, allowing her fingers to slide between his, not quite holding but definitely touching now. His skin was warm against hers, the calluses on his palm creating a friction that sent tiny shivers up her arm.
“We’re quite a pair, aren’t we?” she said, attempting lightness but hearing the underlying vulnerability in her voice. “Two walking disaster areas trying to...”
She trailed off, unsure how to finish the sentence—trying to what? Save the world? Find redemption? Build something that wasn’t stained with blood and regret?
“Trying to figure it out,” Bucky finished for her, his fingers curling slightly around hers, the pressure gentle but sure. “One day at a time.”
For this moment—brief and fragile as it was—they weren’t soldiers or weapons or broken things trying to be whole. They were just two people sharing a meal, finding unexpected comfort in each other’s company.
The rest—Zemo, Walker, and the Flag Smashers—would be waiting for them when they returned. But for now, in this quiet restaurant with steam fogging the windows and their knees occasionally brushing beneath the small table, Isabelle allowed herself to imagine a different kind of after.
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Peace doesn’t last long.
A knock never comes. Just the crash of a door, the weight of a shield, and a threat that smells like war.
Dinner turns to standoff.
Tension simmers.
And then the Dora Milaje arrive.Everything is about to break.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 59: Looking Strong, John
Chapter 59: Looking Strong, John
Summary:
Soup. Whiskey. A brush of fingers. Maybe a look that lingers a little too long.
Isabelle and Bucky return from a 'not-date' with takeout and tension, only to find their evening hijacked by storm clouds—inside and out.
John Walker barges in with demands, the Dora Milaje arrive with spears, and by the end of the night, betrayal crashes harder than the rain.Zemo vanishes.
Bucky’s arm hits the floor.
And the cracks between them all start to show.
Notes:
It’s Wednesdayyyyyy and you know what that means…
AND because I love you guys so much—and because you’ve been so patient—yes, I’m posting again. And trust me… you’re gonna be happy. Like… HAPPY happy. 👀See you in a few minutes. 💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Icky Thump" by The White Stripes
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Isabelle pushed the door open with her hip, arms full of takeout bags and her hood still dripping from the rain. The scent wafted through the apartment, cutting through the lingering tension that seemed to permanently settle like dust.
“Brought dinner,” she called out, dropping the bags onto the dining table like a peace offering.
From the couch, Zemo groaned theatrically without lifting the damp cloth from his face. “Ah, sustenance. Perhaps I won’t perish from my wounds after all.” The ice in his tumbler of whiskey clinked as he shifted slightly, the leather couch creaking beneath him.
“Still time,” Bucky muttered as he stepped in behind her, kicking the door closed with unnecessary force. His arm brushed against her shoulder as he moved past, and Isabelle fought the instinct to lean into the touch.
Zemo lifted the corner of the cloth, one eye peering out to observe them. “Such hostility, James. And after I’ve been such a gracious host.” His mouth quirked into that familiar half-smile that never quite reached his eyes.
Sam looked up from his laptop, his eyebrows immediately raising at the sight of them. Isabelle’s flushed cheeks, Bucky hovering closer to her than strictly necessary, and the way they both seemed slightly out of breath despite the short walk from the restaurant. His eyebrows shot up, and a knowing smirk spread across his face as he set the computer aside.
“Took you two long enough,” Sam said, rising from his chair and making his way toward the food. His eyes flickered between them with the precision of someone who’d spent years reading people in high-stress situations. “Was starting to think you got lost. Or distracted.” The last word hung in the air, loaded with implication.
Isabelle shrugged off her wet jacket, painfully aware of Bucky’s eyes following the movement. “The restaurant was packed,” she lied, busying herself with unpacking the food. Steam rose from the containers in curling tendrils, the rich aroma of dumplings and broth filling the apartment. “And it’s pouring out there.”
“Uh-huh.” Sam’s voice carried that particular tone he used when he wasn’t buying what someone was selling. “An hour and forty-five minutes for a place, like what, three blocks away?”
Sam reached for one of the bags, deliberately brushing past Bucky with a shoulder check that was just a touch too forceful to be accidental.
“Smells good,” he said, methodically poking through the containers. His eyes darted up, catching Isabelle’s. “So... how was your little date with the bionic soldier?”
Isabelle froze mid-unwrapping a kotlety, the paper sticking to her damp fingers. “Sam.” His name came out as a warning, low and tight.
“What?” Bucky finally spoke, his voice gruff as he moved around to the other side of the table. The distance he put between them felt intentional, conscious. “It wasn’t a—”
“We got caught in the rain,” Isabelle cut in, lying again, perhaps too quickly. “Had to wait it out.”
Sam grinned like the devil himself, all teeth and knowing eyes. “I bet. You two disappeared into the rainy night like some broody Eastern European romcom.” He gestured toward the window where rain still lashed against the glass. “Came back with soup and secrets. I’m just connecting the dots.”
From the couch, Zemo lifted the cloth higher off his face, both eyes now visible and gleaming with interest. “The sexual tension is quite palpable,” he observed with clinical detachment. “It’s been building since Madripoor, I think.”
“Nobody asked you,” Bucky snapped, his metal fingers tightening around the back of a chair.
“I brought food,” Isabelle deadpanned, pulling out utensils with more force than necessary. The silverware clattered against the table. “That’s it.”
“Uh-huh. And blushes,” Sam said, wiggling his brow. “And whatever that thing is you two do with your eyes when you think nobody’s looking.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the stubble. “What thing?”
“That thing right there,” Sam said triumphantly. “That murder-stare that somehow isn’t actually about murder.”
Isabelle felt heat crawling up her neck despite her best efforts. She reached for the container of borscht, focusing intently on not spilling it as she poured some into a bowl. The rich crimson liquid sloshed dangerously close to the rim.
“You know what? Maybe I should’ve let you starve,” she said, refusing to meet his eyes.
“See?” Sam gestured between them. “This is exactly what I’m talking about. Bucky gets all protective. Isabelle pretends not to notice, and meanwhile, I’m stuck playing third wheel to whatever this slow-burn situation is.”
Isabelle grabbed a container of dumplings and thrust them toward Sam with enough force that the plastic lid popped open slightly, releasing a fragrant cloud of steam. “Stuff your face and stop talking.” Her voice was tight, the words clipped at the edges.
“Awe, I’m just messing with ya’,” Sam smirked, accepting the food with an innocent smile that didn’t match the knowing gleam in his eyes. He plucked a dumpling with his fingers, blowing on it before taking a bite. “Mmm. Almost worth waiting an hour and forty-five minutes for.”
Bucky moved to the liquor cabinet, pulling out a bottle of whiskey. He chewed on his bottom lip as he poured three fingers into a glass, then hesitated before reaching for a second tumbler. His jaw worked silently, the muscle there jumping beneath his stubble.
“You want one?” he asked Isabelle without turning around, his voice pitched low enough that only she could hear it.
“Please.” The word escaped her lips softer than she’d intended.
Bucky set the whiskey glasses on the counter, the crystal making a sharp sound against the marble that drew Zemo’s attention from the couch. The Baron’s eyes tracked between them with clinical interest, like a scientist observing specimens in a particularly fascinating experiment.
“You know,” Sam continued, gesturing with a dumbling pinched between his fingers, “there’s this thing called an umbrella. Revolutionary technology. Keeps the rain off. Prevents those long, unexplained delays.”
Bucky walked past him and thunked down the two glasses on the table. “You want to eat or get choked?” The threat lacked his usual edge, sounding more like habit than genuine irritation. His metal fingers gleamed under the pendant lights as he slid one glass toward Isabelle.
“That’s cute,” Sam replied, unperturbed. “Real cute, Barnes.”
Bucky handed Isabelle her whiskey, their fingers brushing in the exchange. Isabelle rolled her eyes at Sam, giving Bucky a thankful nod. She took a sip too quickly, the whiskey burning a path down her throat that matched the warmth blooming in her chest. Bucky’s gaze lingered a second too long before he looked away, the corner of his mouth twitching almost imperceptibly.
Sam laughed under his breath and shook his head, watching the exchange with the satisfied expression of someone whose suspicions had just been confirmed. He didn’t say anything else, but the smirk on his face said plenty as he reached for another dumpling.
Before anyone could take another bite, the front door of the apartment burst open with a resounding crash that sent vibrations through the floorboards. Isabelle’s head snapped up, whiskey glass halfway to her lips, to see John and Lemar storming in like they owned the place.
Isabelle set her glass down with deliberate slowness, the crystal making a sharp clink against the wooden table.
“You know,” she said, gesturing toward the spread of food with an exaggerated sweep of her hand, “most people knock before barging into someone else’s apartment. Or did they skip basic manners in Captain America boot camp?”
John’s gaze swept past her like she was invisible, his attention laser-focused on Sam and Bucky, who had both shifted subtly into defensive stances—Sam’s shoulders squaring, Bucky’s metal hand flexing at his side.
Behind them, Zemo rose from the couch with liquid grace, his movements unhurried as he positioned himself strategically behind Isabelle and Bucky. She felt him there, using them as human shields while maintaining his air of casual indifference.
“Alright, that’s it,” John barked, his voice bouncing off the walls. A vein pulsed visibly at his temple. “I’m done playing games. I’m ordering you to turn him over.” He jabbed a finger in Zemo’s direction, the gesture sharp and aggressive.
Isabelle reached for a dumpling, watching John through half-lidded eyes. She popped it into her mouth, chewing slowly while the tension in the room coiled tighter. The savory burst of flavor on her tongue contrasted sharply with the bitter taste of interruption.
“Ordering?” she said around her mouthful, eyebrows climbing toward her hairline. She swallowed, then added with a saccharine smile that didn’t reach her eyes, “Yeah, okay, John.” She reached for her whiskey, the amber liquid catching the light as she raised it in a mock toast. “Please, keep talking, though. I love having my dinner interrupted by discount Steve Rogers.”
John’s face flushed a dangerous shade of red, the color spreading down his neck and disappearing beneath his collar. His hands curled into fists at his sides, knuckles whitening with strain. Before John could respond, Sam stepped forward, hands raised in that universal gesture of de-escalation.
“Hey, slow your roll, man,” Sam said, his voice calm but with steel underneath. “Shield or no shield, the only thing you’re running here is your mouth.” His eyes flicked briefly to Lemar, who stood slightly behind John, looking uncomfortable but resolute. “I had Karli, and you overstepped.”
Lemar’s gaze dropped to the floor, a flash of something like guilt crossing his features before his professional mask slipped back into place. The tension in his shoulders told Isabelle everything she needed to know about how he felt about this confrontation.
Sam glanced back at Zemo, who had risen to his full height and was sipping his whiskey with infuriating nonchalance. The Baron’s eyes gleamed with barely concealed amusement, as if the entire scene were being staged for his personal entertainment.
“He’s actually proven himself useful today,” Sam continued, turning back to John. His voice dropped lower, adopting the particular lilt he used when trying to persuade someone to see reason. “And we’re gonna need all hands on deck to clean up this mess.”
Isabelle watched the muscle in John’s jaw twitch, the way his fingers flexed and curled at his sides like he was imagining them around someone’s throat.
“How do you want the rest of this conversation to go, huh, Sam?” John asked, his voice dropping to something low and dangerous. A humorless chuckle escaped his lips as he nodded, teeth biting his lower lip. “Should I put down the shield? Make it fair?”
The threat hung in the air.
Bucky shifted his weight beside Isabelle, metal arm whirring almost imperceptibly as calibration plates adjusted beneath the sleeve of his Henley. She didn’t need to look at him to know his expression had darkened, that dangerous stillness settling over him that preceded violence.
“Look, guys,” Lemar finally spoke up, his tone more reasonable than John’s, hands raised in a placating gesture that seemed genuine, if futile. “This isn’t a request. We have jurisdiction here.”
“Jurisdiction?” Sam echoed, shaking his head. His shoulders were squared, his stance wide and grounded, as if he were preparing for impact. “Man, you two are something else. You think waving that shield around gives you the right to—”
“That shield,” John cut in, his voice rising with each word, color flooding his face until a vein pulsed visibly at his temple, “gives me every right. Something you’d know if you hadn’t given it up.”
Sam’s expression hardened, the easy humor that usually softened his features vanishing completely. His eyes narrowed, the hurt flashing across them so quickly Isabelle might have missed it if she hadn’t been watching for exactly that reaction.
The apartment fell silent, the only sound the steady drumming of rain against the windows and the distant rumble of thunder. The space between Sam and John seemed to contract, charged with something dangerous and electric.
John set the shield down, leaning it against a nearby support beam. The vibranium made a dull thud against the wood, the sound reverberating through Isabelle’s chest like a challenge. She caught Lemar shooting John a confused look, his brow furrowed in concern. The tension in the room shifted, thickened—John wasn’t just posturing anymore. He was preparing for a fight.
John rolled his shoulders back, that manufactured Captain America stance that looked like a cheap knockoff of the real thing. Isabelle’s fingers twitched toward her whiskey glass—not to drink, but to have something solid in her hand if this went south.
Before anyone could move, a sharp whistle cut through the air—the sound of something moving too fast to see. A metallic thwack echoed through the apartment as a bow-staff embedded itself into the beam, mere inches from where John’s head had been a moment before.
John flinched backward, his eyes widening with genuine fear for the first time since he’d burst through the door. The weapon quivered from the force of impact, its red and gold detailing catching the light.
“What the—” John started, his hand instinctively reaching for the shield he’d just set down.
Isabelle’s pulse jumped, adrenaline flooding her system as she spun toward the source of the attack. Her muscles coiled, ready to move, to fight, to protect—but the sight that greeted her made her freeze in place.
From the doorway of the bedroom emerged a warrior clad in red and gold, her posture regal and her gaze unflinching. The unmistakable uniform of the Dora Milaje gleamed under the apartment lights, and behind her came two more warriors, moving through the front door with deadly grace, spears held at the ready.
The lead Dora stepped forward, her movements as fluid as water over stone. The vibranium beads adorning her uniform caught the apartment’s light, casting red-gold reflections across the walls. Her gaze cut through the room with surgical precision, settling on Zemo with an intensity that seemed to drop the temperature by several degrees.
“James Barnes,” she said, her accent crisp and melodic despite the steel beneath her words.
Isabelle watched Bucky’s face transform. The hardened soldier who’d been ready to fight John moments ago vanished, replaced by someone achingly vulnerable. The color drained from his features, leaving his eyes stark and haunted against his pale skin. His metal hand, which had been flexing in preparation for combat, now hung limply at his side.
“Ayo,” he breathed, her name falling from his lips like a prayer—or a confession.
Isabelle’s chest tightened as she recognized the name. Ayo. The Dora Milaje, who had helped deprogram him in Wakanda—the woman who had been part of giving him back his mind, his self. And now here she stood, witnessing his betrayal.
The second Dora moved with calculated steps, positioning herself by the window where rain still lashed against the glass. The third blocked the apartment’s only exit. They moved like a single organism, communicating without words, their spears held at angles that promised swift retribution.
Ayo’s eyes never left Zemo as she addressed Bucky in rapid Wakandan, each syllable precise and cutting. Though Isabelle couldn’t understand the words, their impact was unmistakable. Bucky’s shoulders curved inward with each phrase, his jaw tightening until a muscle jumped beneath his stubble. He looked like a man receiving a sentence he knew he deserved.
Sam took a cautious step forward, his hands slightly raised. “We can explain—”
Ayo silenced him with a single look, then returned her attention to Bucky.
“Release him to us now.” She slammed her spear against the hardwood floor, the vibranium tip creating a sound that reverberated through the apartment like a thunderclap.
John, displaying his characteristic lack of situational awareness, took a confident step toward Ayo. His shoulders squared in that performative Captain America stance that always looked like he’d practiced it in a mirror.
“Hi, John Walker. Captain America,” he announced, extending his hand with the easy confidence of a man who’d never been refused a handshake in his life. His lips curved into what he clearly thought was his most diplomatic smile—all teeth and no warmth. “Good to meet you.”
Ayo’s gaze dropped to his outstretched hand, her expression shifting from stern to something closer to contempt. The temperature in the room seemed to drop several degrees.
John’s smile faltered, his hand hovering awkwardly in the space between them before he slowly withdrew it. He cleared his throat, taking a small step back. “Well, uh, let’s put down the pointy sticks and we can talk this through, yeah?” His voice carried that particular tone of a man trying to sound reasonable while completely misreading the room.
Ayo’s eyes flicked to him, a brief assessment that dismissed him entirely. “You are irrelevant to this conversation.”
Isabelle watched John’s face transform as the diplomatic mask slipped to reveal the insecurity beneath. His cheeks flushed crimson, the vein in his temple throbbing visibly as blood rushed to his face. His hands curled into fists at his sides, knuckles whitening with strain, the tendons in his forearms standing out like cords.
“I am Captain America,” he said, his voice rising with each word, “and you’re—”
Sam let out a bark of laughter that cut through the tension like a knife, shaking his head with the weary amusement of a man who’d seen this coming from miles away.
“Hey John,” he said, his voice carrying that particular blend of warning and mockery, “take it easy. You might wanna fight Bucky before you tangle with the Dora Milaje.”
John scoffed, his attention still fixed on Ayo. The dismissal had wounded something fundamental in him—his pride, his authority, his very identity as the shield-bearer. “Well, the Dora Milaje don’t have jurisdiction here...”
Ayo’s response came without hesitation, each syllable dripping with barely contained threat. “The Dora Milaje have jurisdiction wherever the Dora Milaje find themselves to be.”
The words hung in the air, a declaration that needed no elaboration.
John rolled his eyes, clearly not grasping the gravity of the situation or the caliber of the warrior standing before him. “Okay,” he muttered, taking another step forward.
Isabelle’s eyes widened in disbelief as John did the unthinkable—he placed a heavy hand on Ayo’s shoulder, the gesture both condescending and invasive. She nearly choked on her pelmeni, the dumpling lodging momentarily in her throat as she watched the scene unfold with a mixture of horror and morbid fascination. Even Bucky, who’d been standing like a statue since Ayo’s arrival, flinched visibly.
What happened next was too fast for an untrained eye to follow. Ayo’s spear connected with John’s temple in a fluid arc, the blow precise enough to stun without causing severe damage. The impact sent John stumbling backward, his equilibrium shattered. Before he could regain his footing, she followed with a powerful kick to his sternum that sent him crashing into the wooden beam where her comrade’s spear remained embedded.
John hit the ground hard, the sound of his body connecting with the hardwood floor echoing through the apartment. For a moment, he looked genuinely shocked—the expression of a man who’d never considered he might not be the most dangerous person in the room. He scrambled backward on his elbows, reaching desperately for his shield as Ayo advanced, her spear poised to strike.
The apartment erupted into chaos as the three Dora Milaje engaged both John and Lemar. Isabelle winced at the sound of flesh hitting flesh, the metallic ring of vibranium weapons connecting with John’s shield. The Dora moved like water—fluid, relentless, and impossible to contain. Their spears blurred through the air with deadly precision, each strike calculated to disable rather than kill, though Isabelle suspected that distinction was entirely their choice.
John lunged forward with his shield, the movement clumsy compared to the Dora’s practiced grace. Ayo sidestepped him effortlessly, sweeping his legs out from under him with a swift kick that sent him crashing to the floor again.
“Years of Special Forces training,” Isabelle muttered, returning her attention to her bowl of borscht. She dipped a piece of bread into the crimson liquid, watching the way it soaked up the color. “And he’s getting his ass handed to him in under thirty seconds.”
She took a bite, the rich, earthy flavor of beets and the tang of sour cream spreading across her tongue. Watching John Walker get humbled somehow made the food taste even better.
Lemar wasn’t faring much better. The second Dora had him pinned against the wall, her forearm pressed against his throat. To his credit, he wasn’t fighting back with full force, either recognizing he was outmatched or showing restraint against female opponents. Either way, it was costing him.
Zemo observed the spectacle from his position by the liquor cabinet, sipping his whiskey with the air of a man enjoying an evening at the theater. His eyes gleamed with undisguised pleasure at John’s humiliation, the corner of his mouth twitching upward each time the self-proclaimed Captain America took a hit.
“You know,” Zemo commented, swirling the amber liquid in his glass, “there is something rather poetic about watching American exceptionalism being dismantled so... thoroughly.”
Sam and Bucky retreated to the kitchen counter, Sam’s brow furrowing deeper with each passing second, his eyes tracking the fight with growing concern. He winced as John took a particularly brutal hit to the sternum.
“We should do something,” Sam said, glancing between Bucky and Isabelle. His hand twitched at his side, the instinct to intervene warring with the knowledge that this wasn’t their fight. “This is getting out of hand.”
Bucky, his arms crossed over his chest, couldn’t hide the smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth. There was something almost boyish in his expression.
“Looking strong, John,” he called out, his voice dripping with sarcasm as John took another hit that sent him sprawling across the floor. The shield skittered away, spinning wildly before coming to rest against the wall.
John’s face flushed crimson—whether from exertion or humiliation was hard to tell. He scrambled to his feet, lunging for his shield with desperate intensity. A Dora intercepted him, her spear connecting with his ribs in a blow that would leave bruises for weeks.
“Bucky...” Sam’s tone was a mixture of exasperation and pleading. His eyes tracked the fight, then turned to Isabelle, who was now picking at her meatballs with studied nonchalance. “Come on, seriously, you’re just gonna eat?”
Isabelle nodded, her mouth full. She chewed deliberately, savoring the blend of spices and the tender texture of the meat.
“Yep,” she managed to reply, swallowing another bite. She gestured toward John with her fork. “He put his hands on a Dora Milaje. What did he think was going to happen?”
“That’s not the point,” Sam insisted, though his conviction seemed to waver as he watched John take another hit. “This is still our apartment. Our responsibility.”
“Technically,” Zemo interjected smoothly, “it’s my apartment. And I find the entertainment value well worth any... collateral damage.” He raised his glass in a mock toast as one of the Dora executed a perfect flip over John’s shield, landing behind him to deliver a precise strike to his kidney.
“This is ridiculous,” Sam muttered, pushing away from the counter with a sharp exhale. He gestured at the chaos unfolding in the living room, where furniture scraped against hardwood and bodies collided with dull thuds. “Come on, guys.”
Bucky remained still for another moment, watching John take a fierce hit that made even Isabelle wince. Then, with a reluctant groan that seemed to start in his boots and work its way up, he finally moved into action. Just as Ayo’s spear arced downward in what would have been a devastating strike, Bucky’s metal hand shot out, vibranium fingers closing around vibranium shaft with a resonant hum that cut through the apartment’s cacophony.
“Ayo, stop,” he pleaded, his voice stripped of its usual gruffness. Something raw and vulnerable replaced it—the voice of the White Wolf of Wakanda, not the Winter Soldier. His eyes locked with hers, searching for any remnant of the understanding they once shared, for the woman who had helped piece his fractured mind back together word by word.
But Ayo’s gaze had hardened to obsidian. She jerked against Bucky’s grip, trying to wrench the spear free. The muscles in Bucky’s forearm corded with effort, metal plates recalibrating with a soft whir as he held fast.
“Ayo, please,” he implored, his voice dropping lower, meant only for her ears. “Let’s talk about this.”
Isabelle watched from behind the kitchen counter, her fingers absently tracing the cold rim of her whiskey glass.
She made no move to intervene, her eyes flickering between Bucky and Ayo with quiet calculation. The tension between them was electric, charged with history she couldn’t fully comprehend but understood instinctively—betrayal and debt, respect and disappointment, all tangled together in a way that made her chest ache with unexpected sympathy.
Sam shot her an exasperated look, pulling her attention with a huff.
“Are you serious right now?” Sam hissed, gesturing wildly at the chaos around them. A lamp crashed to the floor, glass shattering across the hardwood. John’s pained grunt punctuated the air as he took another hit. “You could stop this with your powers!”
Isabelle shrugged, taking another sip of whiskey. She could feel Sam’s expectant gaze boring into her, but she kept her eyes fixed on the spectacle before them.
“You’re crazy if you think I’m fighting the Dora Milaje,” she said, lowering her glass with deliberate slowness. “I’m not an idiot, Wilson.”
Sam shook his head, frustration etched across his features in tight lines. “That’s it,” Sam muttered, rolling his shoulders back as he prepared to wade into the fray.
The fight continued to rage around them, a symphony of grunts and the sharp clang of vibranium against vibranium. Sam held his own against one of the Dora,—not trying to win, just trying to de-escalate. Bucky and Ayo remained locked in their standoff, neither willing to give an inch.
A small, petty part of Isabelle couldn’t help the smirk that tugged at the corners of her mouth as she watched John get pinned to the wall, the strap of his shield caught by a well-aimed spear.
Her amusement was short-lived, however. From the corner of her eye, she caught sight of Ayo’s hands moving with practiced precision along Bucky’s vibranium arm. The movement was so subtle, so quick, that she almost missed it—fingers dancing over the metal surface with intimate knowledge of its mechanisms.
A loud, mechanical whir filled the air, cutting through the cacophony of the fight. The sound scraped against Isabelle’s nerves like fingernails on a chalkboard, raising the fine hairs on her arms. Then came a resounding clank as the arm detached and fell to the floor, the vibranium hitting the hardwood with a dull, final thud.
The half-eaten pelmeni slipped from Isabelle’s fingers, landing with a soft plop on her plate. Her throat constricted, the whiskey’s warmth turning to ice in her stomach. The glass in her hand suddenly felt too heavy, too fragile.
The fight seemed to screech to a halt, the sudden silence deafening.
Bucky stood frozen, his remaining hand hovering uselessly in the empty space where his vibranium arm had been. His breathing came in shallow bursts, each inhale catching in his throat like he’d forgotten how to perform this most basic function. The look in his eyes—raw, exposed, betrayed—made something in Isabelle’s chest constrict painfully.
John Walker remained pinned against the wall, the strap of his shield caught in a Dora’s spear. He’d stopped struggling, his eyes wide as they darted between Bucky’s fallen arm and Ayo’s impassive face.
Sam’s chest heaved as he caught his breath, hands raised in a placating gesture that seemed woefully inadequate for the situation. His gaze locked with Isabelle’s across the room, a silent question passing between them: What the hell do we do now?
Isabelle’s attention snapped to Ayo, who stared at Bucky with unflinching intensity. There was something in her eyes that went beyond duty—discontent, perhaps. The kind reserved for someone you once respected who had failed you in a fundamental way.
It was in this moment of stunned quiet that Isabelle’s gaze drifted to the spot where Zemo had been standing. The space was empty, his tumbler of whiskey abandoned on the sideboard, ice melting into the amber liquid.
“Where’s Zemo?” she asked, her voice sounding unnaturally loud in the silence.
Sam’s head whipped around, scanning the apartment with growing alarm. “Son of a—”
Ayo’s eyes narrowed, her posture shifting from battle-ready to predatory in an instant. The spear in her hand seemed to vibrate with renewed purpose as she took a single, purposeful step forward.
“Find him,” she commanded, her voice low and dangerous.
The other Dora immediately broke formation, moving with fluid precision toward different parts of the apartment. Isabelle watched them move, the hair on her arms standing on end. There was something both beautiful and terrifying about their coordination, like watching apex predators hunt in perfect harmony.
The bathroom door that had been ajar now stood firmly closed. The Dora paused, head tilted slightly as she listened for movement within. With a single fluid motion, she kicked the door open, the wood cracking against the tiled wall with a sound that made Isabelle flinch. The room was empty save for a small porthole in the floor—Zemo’s escape route.
“He is gone,” Ayo announced, her voice tight with barely contained fury. “The coward found a passage beneath the floor.”
One of the other Dora who had John’s shield in her hands held it out to Ayo, a question in her eyes.
“Leave it,” Ayo ordered, her tone brooking no argument. The shield clattered to the floor, the sound reverberating through the suddenly silent apartment.
Without another word or glance, the three Dora moved toward the door with the same deadly grace that had marked their arrival. They didn’t look back, didn’t acknowledge the destruction they were leaving behind—the overturned furniture, the shattered lamp, the fallen books. Their footsteps faded down the hallway, leaving behind a vacuum of tension that seemed to suck all the air from the room.
Isabelle stepped out from behind the counter, her legs trembling slightly as she made her way towards Bucky. He knelt slowly, movements stiff and mechanical as he reached for the arm with his remaining hand. His fingers trembled slightly as they closed around the vibranium.
She stopped a few feet away, suddenly uncertain. The distance between them felt both too vast and not nearly enough.
“Bucky,” she whispered. She reached out, her hand hovering uncertainly near his shoulder, fingers curling back before making contact. The gesture hung suspended between them, an offer without pressure, comfort without demand.
Sam’s voice cut through the heavy silence, disbelief coloring his words. “Did you know they could do that?”
Bucky’s jaw worked silently, a muscle jumping beneath the stubble as he stared at the lifeless metal in his grip. His throat contracted, Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallowed hard. When he finally spoke, his voice emerged stripped of its usual gruffness, raw and exposed like a nerve.
“No.”
The single syllable carried the weight of betrayal—of trust shattered in an instant. His eyes remained fixed on the arm, as if unable to look at either of them. With mechanical precision, he brought the vibranium limb up to his shoulder, aligning the connection point. The metal pieces clicked together with a sound that made Isabelle’s teeth ache, small sparks of purple energy dancing along the seam as the neural interfaces reconnected.
A soft whir filled the air, and Bucky’s face contorted in a mixture of pain and discomfort. His teeth clenched, lips pulling back in a grimace as the arm calibrated itself. The plates shifted up and down his bicep in a rippling wave, testing the connection.
Isabelle’s hand finally made contact with his shoulder, her touch feather-light and hesitant.
“Are you okay?” she asked, immediately wincing at the stupidity of the question. Of course, he wasn’t okay. He’d just had part of him literally detached by someone he trusted.
Bucky didn’t answer immediately. He flexed his metal fingers one by one, rolling his shoulder experimentally, the movement stiff and cautious. The metal plates shifted in a rippling wave from shoulder to fingertips, catching the apartment’s dim light in flashes of muted silver. His flesh hand hovered nearby, ready to steady the vibranium if it failed him again.
“I’m fine,” he finally said, the words clipped and hollow.
Isabelle didn’t call him on the lie. She recognized the defensive wall when she saw it—had built enough of her own to know when someone was hastily constructing one. Instead, she let her hand drop slowly from his shoulder, her fingertips grazing his arm in a touch so light it might have been accidental.
The apartment felt suddenly cavernous around them, the silence broken only by John and Lemar’s labored breathing as they collected themselves. John was leaning against the wall, one hand pressed to his ribs where a Dora’s spear had connected with particular force.
She turned away from them, her eyes drawn to the bathroom—Zemo’s escape route. Without a word, she moved toward it, needing to see for herself. Sam and Bucky followed close behind, their footsteps creating a somber procession.
Isabelle stood at the edge of the dark hole, peering down into its depths. The chill emanating from it raised goosebumps on her arms, and she suppressed a shiver. Of course, Zemo would have an escape route. Of course, he’d planned for this. The realization settled in her stomach like a stone, heavy with the knowledge that they’d been played from the beginning.
“I can’t believe he pulled an El Chapo,” Sam said from behind her, his voice carrying a reluctant note of admiration despite the circumstances.
“I can,” Bucky replied, the words flat and hard-edged. He stood in the doorway, his broad shoulders nearly filling the frame, metal hand flexing rhythmically at his side as if testing its responsiveness. The bathroom light caught in his eyes, turning them to chips of ice. “Let’s just get out of here.”
Isabelle rose to her feet, brushing dust from her knees. The cold from the tunnel seemed to have seeped into her bones, making her movements stiff and deliberate. She turned to face them both, her back to the hole in the floor.
As they turned to leave, she cast one last glance at the hole in the floor. They had a super soldier to find and a Baron to recapture. The game was far from over.
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Bucky paces. Sam watches. Isabelle handles the check-in with a jaw too tight for comfort.
They made it out of the apartment, but not unscathed. And not unchanged.In the soft light of an old hotel lobby, grief meets guilt. Regret meets resilience.
And maybe—for just a flicker—Bucky lets someone see him without the armor.The team regroups. The bruises are fresh. The plan can wait.
Tonight, they just try to rest.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 60: Not To Be Alone
Chapter 60: Not To Be Alone
Summary:
The nightmare wakes her.
The floor catches her.
And he’s already there—half-asleep, half-guarded, all vulnerability in a gray t-shirt and vibranium hush.They don’t mean to talk.
They don’t mean to touch.
But in the quiet between 3AM and whatever comes next, fingers brush.
Walls lower. A kiss lingers.It’s probably a bad idea.
They don’t care.
Notes:
*coughs aggressively* …THE BURN IS HOT. I repeat—THE. BURN. IS. HOT. 🔥
It’s here. The moment. The one I’ve been slow-burning toward for chapters and chapters. You guys… I’m not okay 😭 I can’t wait to hear what you think. Just—AAAHHHH!!! Okay. Okay. I’ll let you read now. inhales screams softly into the void
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Middle of the Night" by Elley Duhe
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The hotel lobby was quiet, all worn velvet and tired marble. Sconces cast amber light across stone walls, turning everything the color of old whiskey. The air smelled of furniture polish and the lingering ghost of someone’s expensive perfume.
Sam sank deeper into his chair, the velvet cushion exhaling softly beneath him. His body ached in places he’d forgotten could hurt, muscles remembering the apartment fight with every shift of position. He watched Bucky pace a tight line across the carpet. The rhythm of it was making Sam’s head throb.
“You’re gonna wear a trench in their fancy floor,” Sam said, keeping his voice low enough that it wouldn’t carry to the front desk.
Bucky didn’t break stride. His jaw worked silently, metal fingers opening and closing at his side with soft mechanical whispers.
Across the lobby, Isabelle leaned against the counter, her back a rigid line of tension as she spoke with the concierge. Her hair fell forward, partially obscuring her face, but Sam could see the tight set of her shoulders and the forced smile as she slid her ID across the countertop, along with her credit card. The clerk’s fingers clicked steadily against the keyboard, the sound blending with the soft classical music piping through hidden speakers.
“She’s got it covered,” Sam said, watching Bucky’s shoulders bunch tighter with each pass. “You can sit down before you snap something.”
Bucky shot him a look that might have been intimidating if Sam hadn’t seen the fear beneath it—five more steps. Turn, then five back.
“Barnes,” Sam tried again, gentler this time. “Whatever’s eating at you, wearing out your boots isn’t gonna fix it.”
Bucky finally dropped into the chair across from Sam, metal fingers flexing against his knee. His gaze was somewhere far away—back in the apartment, probably, back in that moment when Ayo moved fast and familiar, and his arm hit the floor like it didn’t belong to him at all.
“You okay?” Sam asked, though he already knew the answer.
Bucky huffed a quiet laugh that sounded like something breaking. “Define okay.” His metal fingers tapped against his knee in an uneven rhythm, the soft clicks punctuating the silence between them.
There was a beat of silence, heavy with all the things neither of them knew how to say. Sam watched Bucky’s face, the way the amber light caught in the hollows beneath his eyes, turning shadows into wounds.
“She took my arm,” Bucky finally said, voice barely above a whisper. “They could’ve taken my head. Would’ve felt better.”
Sam leaned forward, forearms on his knees, closing the space between them without crowding. “You think you deserved it?” He kept his voice gentle but direct, the way he’d learned to speak with veterans who carried too much for too long.
Bucky’s shoulders rose and fell in a half-hearted shrug, the gesture at odds with the pain etched across his face. “They trusted me. Helped me. Broke the Hydra programming.” His voice caught slightly. “Gave me peace when no one else could. And I...” He swallowed hard, Adam’s apple bobbing. “I broke Zemo out of prison.”
Sam watched the guilt settle over Bucky, pressing him deeper into the velvet chair. Behind them, the concierge’s keyboard continued its steady rhythm, each click a counterpoint to Bucky’s ragged breathing.
“You were trying to stop something worse,” Sam said, choosing his words carefully. “That doesn’t make it pretty. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck.” He paused, making sure Bucky was actually hearing him. “But you didn’t do it for you. That counts for something.”
The classical music shifted to something slower, the notes drifting between them like falling leaves.
Bucky gave him a sidelong glance, something almost vulnerable flickering across his face before the walls came back up. “You always give pep talks to people who almost ruined your life?”
The question carried an edge, but Sam could hear the genuine confusion beneath it—the disbelief that anyone would offer him understanding after everything he’d done.
Sam grinned, the expression coming easier than he’d expected. “Nah. Just the ones who pace like caged wolves and forget to blink.” He tapped his own eye for emphasis. “Seriously, man. It’s creepy.”
That got a tired smile from Bucky. “I’m not good at this,” he admitted quietly, flexing his remaining hand. “Having people... count on me. Trust me.” He glanced toward the front desk, where Isabelle stood. “Not after everything.”
Sam followed his gaze. “None of us are good at this, Buck. We’re just making it up as we go.” He leaned back in his chair, feeling the ache in his shoulders from the fight. “But for what it’s worth? I’d rather have you at my back—arm or no arm—than most people I know.”
The admission hung between them, honest in a way neither of them had expected. Bucky’s eyes widened slightly, surprise flickering across his face before settling into something that looked almost like gratitude.
Footsteps approached, soft boots over polished tile, and then Isabelle was there, tucking the room key cards into her jacket pocket. “We’re good,” she said, her voice quiet but certain. “Two beds. We can flip coins for the couch.”
“I’ll take the couch,” Bucky said immediately, the words coming out faster than he seemed to intend. His metal fingers stilled against his knee, the decision already made.
Sam watched the exchange, noting how Bucky’s eyes never quite met Isabelle’s—like he was afraid of what she might see there after everything that had happened in the apartment.
“Of course you will.” Isabelle rolled her eyes, but there was something almost gentle in the gesture. The corner of her mouth twitched upward in what might have been a smile on a better day. “God forbid anyone else get the uncomfortable furniture.”
Bucky raised an eyebrow, some of the tension easing from his shoulders.
Sam pushed himself to his feet, muscles protesting with each movement. His ribs ached where he’d taken that hit against the apartment wall, a dull throb that pulsed in time with his heartbeat.
“Alright. Let’s go drop our bags and figure out what the hell we’re doing next.” He glanced between them, taking in the shadows under Isabelle’s eyes, the rigid set of Bucky’s jaw.
The three of them gathered their duffel bags from where they’d stashed them behind the chairs. Sam winced as he hoisted it onto his shoulder, the movement pulling at bruised muscles. He noticed Bucky watching him, eyes narrowed with something that might have been concern.
“I’m fine,” Sam said before Bucky could ask. “Just getting too old for this shit.”
“Speak for yourself,” Bucky muttered, but there was no heat in it. Just the same bone-deep weariness that seemed to hang over all of them.
They moved toward the elevator in weary silence, their footsteps muffled by the plush carpet. The classical music followed them, drifting through hidden speakers like an afterthought. A bellhop passed them with a polite nod, his eyes sliding over them without recognition. Small mercies.
In the mirrored elevator doors, Sam caught their reflection—three battered, exhausted people trying to hold together a world that seemed determined to tear itself apart. Isabelle’s face was a careful mask, but her fingers kept brushing against the key cards like they were some talisman. Beside her, Bucky stood with his weight shifted slightly, unable to stand still.
The elevator arrived with a soft chime, the doors sliding open to reveal the empty car. As they stepped inside, Sam couldn’t help wondering if they’d made the right call bringing Zemo into this—if the cost of stopping the Flag Smashers was already too high.
Isabelle pressed the button for the fifth floor. “I need a shower,” she murmured, more to herself than to them. “And about twelve hours of sleep.”
“And a plan,” Bucky added quietly, leaning against the elevator wall. “We need a plan.”
“First sleep,” Sam said, feeling the ache in his ribs throb with each heartbeat.
The elevator began its ascent, carrying them upward into whatever came next.
The nightmare came in fragments—her father’s face disappearing behind the mask, Laura’s blood on her hands, the sound of a shield striking metal. Isabelle woke with a gasp that caught in her throat, her t-shirt clinging to her skin with cold sweat.
For one disorienting moment, she didn’t know where she was. The unfamiliar shadows of the hotel room loomed around her, dark shapes that could be anything, anyone. Her heart hammered against her ribs, the echo of it filling her ears as she fumbled for her phone on the nightstand. The screen illuminated, harsh and blue in the darkness: 3:17 AM. The digital numbers glowed accusingly.
“Shit,” she whispered.
Isabelle pushed herself upright, running shaky fingers through her tangled hair. Her mouth felt like sandpaper, her tongue thick and useless. The remnants of the dream clung to her like cobwebs—her mother’s face twisted in pain, her father turning away, and beneath it all, the constant thrum of her own power, hungry and waiting. She pressed the heels of her hands against her eyes until she saw stars.
Water. She needed water.
The hardwood floor was cold against her bare feet as she padded to the door, wincing at the soft creak of hinges. She paused, listening for any sound from the adjoining room where Sam was supposed to be sleeping.
Nothing.
At least someone was getting rest tonight.
Moonlight spilled through the half-drawn curtains, painting silver rectangles across the floor of the suite’s common area. The small kitchenette stood in shadow, but Isabelle navigated by memory. She filled a glass at the sink, gulping down water so cold it made her teeth ache. She refilled it, this time sipping slowly, letting the chill spread through her chest and calm the frantic rhythm of her pulse.
On her way back to her room, Isabelle froze mid-step. A shape on the floor near the couch caught her attention—not on the couch where he was supposed to be, but beside it, as though the furniture itself had been deemed too dangerous.
Bucky lay on his back on what looked like a makeshift bedroll fashioned from the spare blankets, one of the couch pillows tucked under his head. His flesh arm was thrown across his eyes, the metal one resting at his side, moonlight skating across the vibranium plates. His chest rose and fell in the steady rhythm of sleep, but there was a tension in his jaw, in the way his legs were positioned—ready to move at a moment’s notice. The thin blanket covered him from the waist down, revealing a gray t-shirt that had seen better days stretched across his chest.
Isabelle hesitated, glass of water cool against her palm. There was something almost unbearably vulnerable about seeing him like this, asleep on a hotel floor. As she shifted her weight, the floorboard beneath her foot betrayed her with a soft creak.
Bucky’s reaction was immediate and fluid. He bolted upright, eyes wide and instantly alert, right hand already reaching for the knife she knew he kept nearby. His left arm whirred softly as the plates recalibrated, catching the moonlight in ripples of silver. Recognition flickered across his face a moment later, his shoulders dropping a fraction of an inch.
“Sorry,” Isabelle winced. “I didn’t mean to wake you.”
He exhaled slowly, the tension draining from his body in increments rather than all at once. “It’s fine.” His voice was rough with sleep, lower than usual. “I wasn’t really asleep.”
The lie was so blatant she almost smiled. Instead, she gestured vaguely toward the kitchen behind her. “Just getting some water.”
Bucky nodded, running his flesh hand through his disheveled hair.
“Why are you on the floor?” she asked, though she already suspected the answer. The couch was too soft, too exposed, too normal.
“Too soft,” he replied, not bothering to form an excuse. Too many memories, maybe. Too many nights spent in places where comfort meant vulnerability.
Isabelle understood that math all too well. She hesitated, then set her water glass on the coffee table with a soft clink. “Mind if I join you?”
The question surprised her almost as much as it seemed to surprise him.
Bucky’s eyebrows lifted slightly, his eyes searching her face in the dim light. “You don’t have to—”
“I want to,” she interrupted, the words coming out more forcefully than she’d intended. She softened her voice, aware of Sam sleeping in the next room. “Unless you’d rather be alone.”
Something flickered across his face—uncertainty, maybe, or wariness. He studied her for a long moment, his eyes unreadable in the shadows. Then he shifted to the side, making room.
“No,” he said quietly, the single word carrying more weight than it should. “I wouldn’t.”
Isabelle lowered herself to the floor beside him, careful to leave enough space between them. The makeshift bed was surprisingly comfortable—or maybe she was just tired enough that anything would feel good. She leaned back against the base of the couch, drawing her knees up to her chest.
“Nightmare?” Bucky asked after a moment.
Isabelle glanced at him, startled by his perception. The moonlight caught the angles of his face, softening the hard edges she’d grown accustomed to seeing. “How did you—”
“Recognize the look,” he said. His metal fingers tapped a soft, irregular rhythm against his thigh. “The way you’re breathing. Too controlled.” His eyes met hers, understanding passing between them without need for elaboration. “Like you’re trying to convince yourself you’re awake.”
She nodded. The hotel’s air conditioning hummed quietly in the background, raising goosebumps along her bare arms. “It’s always the same one lately. Different details, but the same feeling.”
“What feeling?” The question was gentle, offered without pressure.
Isabelle hesitated, weighing how much to reveal. The darkness made it easier somehow, as if the words might dissolve into the shadows once spoken. “Like I’m becoming something I can’t come back from.”
She watched the movement of his left hand, the way the plates shifted with each subtle adjustment. The vibranium caught the moonlight, transforming it into ripples of silver across his fingers.
“Does it hurt?” she asked, nodding toward his arm. “After what Ayo did?”
Bucky’s fingers stilled. His gaze dropped to where the metal met flesh at his shoulder, the seam visible beneath the worn collar of his t-shirt.
“Not physically.” He flexed the hand, the plates recalibrating with a whisper of sound. “It’s just... a reminder.”
“I’m sorry.” The words felt inadequate, but she meant every one of them.
His eyes met hers, something like surprise flickering across his face. “It’s not your fault. It was my idea to free Zemo.”
“Still.” Isabelle frowned, shifting closer without fully intending to. Their shoulders were inches apart now, close enough that she could feel the warmth radiating from him.
Outside, a car passed on the street below, its headlights sending brief patterns of light across the ceiling.
“You should try to sleep,” Bucky said, glancing at her with something that might have been concern. “We’ve got a long day tomorrow.”
Isabelle looked toward her bedroom door, the darkness beyond it suddenly vast and uninviting. The thought of returning to the empty bed and the shadows that waited there made her stomach clench. The nightmare lingered at the edges of her consciousness, ready to pull her back under the moment she closed her eyes.
“So should you,” she countered, watching how the moonlight traced the line of his jaw, the hollow at his throat where his pulse beat steady and sure.
He shrugged, the movement causing his metal arm to brush against hers with a whisper of contact. The vibranium was warmer than she expected, almost body temperature. “I’ve gone longer without it.”
“That’s not the flex you think it is, Barnes.” She nudged his shoulder with hers, the contact brief but careful.
That earned her another smile, this one reaching his eyes, softening the hard edges she’d grown accustomed to seeing. “Probably not,” he admitted, and there was something almost boyish in the way he ducked his head slightly, as if unused to being called out so directly.
Isabelle hesitated, weighing options against exhaustion. Then, decision made, she slowly lowered herself to lie beside him. The blanket beneath her was worn soft with age, carrying a faint trace of his scent—something clean and masculine that reminded her of winter air. She lay on her back, staring up at the ceiling, acutely aware of his presence beside her, not touching, but close enough that she could feel the subtle shift in the air when he breathed.
The floor was hard beneath the thin padding of blankets, but something was grounding about it, something solid and real that anchored her to the present moment. Her body felt heavy with fatigue, muscles unwinding one by one as she settled into the makeshift bed. She stifled a yawn against the back of her hand.
“You can go back to your room,” Bucky said, watching her with an expression she couldn’t quite read. His voice had dropped even lower, intimate in the darkness between them. “The bed’s got to be more comfortable than this floor.”
Isabelle shook her head, her hair rustling softly against the pillow. “I’m good here.” She hesitated, suddenly uncertain, vulnerability creeping in where exhaustion had worn her defenses thin. “If that’s okay.”
Something shifted in Bucky’s expression—surprise, followed by something warmer that made her chest tighten in response.
“It’s okay,” he said, his voice a low rumble that she felt more than heard. He settled back, lying on his back beside her, close enough that their shoulders almost touched.
The silence between them was comfortable, punctuated only by the soft sound of their breathing and the distant hum of the hotel’s air conditioning. Isabelle found herself tracking the rhythm of his breaths, the steady rise and fall of his chest beside her.
Without thinking, she reached out, her fingers brushing against the metal of his left hand where it rested between them. The vibranium was smooth beneath her touch, warmer than she expected. She felt the subtle shift in his body, the way he seemed to hold himself in perfect suspension, as if afraid any movement might cause her to pull away.
“Does it feel different?” she asked quietly. Her fingertip traced the seam between two plates, following the elegant architecture of his hand. “When someone else touches it, I mean.”
Bucky swallowed, the movement visible in the column of his throat. His eyes tracked her fingers’ path across the metal, something vulnerable flickering across his face.
“Yeah,” he said, his voice rougher than before, catching slightly on the single syllable. “It’s... different.”
“Good different or bad different?” Her exploration continued, mapping the curve of his metal knuckles, the articulated joints that mimicked human anatomy with inhuman precision. The contrast fascinated her—something so lethal crafted with such care, each plate flowing into the next like liquid metal frozen in time.
His eyes met hers, holding her gaze with an intensity that made her breath catch. “Just different,” he said, but there was something in his voice—a depth, a warmth—that made her look up from her exploration.
The air between them thickened, charged with something neither knew how to name. Isabelle felt her heart quicken, her pulse a rapid flutter at the base of her throat. She should pull away—return to her room and the safety of distance. Instead, she found herself shifting closer, drawn by some invisible gravity that seemed to exist only between them.
His metal hand turned beneath hers, palm up—a silent invitation. The movement was careful, deliberate, as if he were afraid of startling her. Slowly, he interlaced their fingers, the vibranium cool and warm all at once against her skin. The sensation sent a cascade of shivers up her arm, across her shoulders, down her spine.
“Cold?” he asked, misinterpreting her reaction, his brow furrowing slightly with concern.
“A little,” she admitted, though it wasn’t entirely the truth. The shivers had less to do with temperature and more to do with the way his thumb was now tracing small circles against her palm, each gentle movement sending ripples of awareness through her body.
Bucky hesitated, conflict playing across his features. Then he lifted the edge of the blanket with his flesh hand, offering it to her in silent invitation. The gesture was so unexpectedly gentle coming from him that Isabelle felt something twist in her chest—a sharp, sweet ache she hadn’t anticipated.
She slid beneath the worn fabric, which still carried his warmth. The space between them narrowed but didn’t disappear entirely, each maintaining that last crucial inch of separation, as if crossing it would acknowledge something neither was prepared to face.
“Better?” he asked, his voice dropping lower, rougher at the edges. In the moonlight, his eyes appeared almost silver, watching her with an intensity that made her skin prickle with awareness.
“Yeah,” she murmured, hyper-aware of his proximity, of the heat radiating from him. Their fingers remained interlaced between them, the metal of his hand warming further against her skin. “Thanks.”
Isabelle found herself studying his profile. There was something almost peaceful about him in this light, the hard edges softened by moonlight and shadow. She shifted, rolling onto her side to face him properly. The movement drew his attention, his eyes meeting hers with a questioning intensity that made her breath catch.
“What?” he asked, voice low and rough at the edges. The vibranium plates in his left arm whispered as he adjusted his position slightly, turning toward her without fully committing to the movement.
She shook her head slightly, a strand of hair falling across her cheek.
“Nothing. Just...” She trailed off, unsure how to articulate the strange comfort she found in his presence. How could she explain that the nightmares seemed less threatening with him nearby? That, despite everything—Zemo, the Flag Smashers, Walker wearing that shield like he had any right to it—she felt safer here on a makeshift bed on the floor than she had since this all started.
Bucky turned toward her fully now, the movement bringing them closer still.
“Just what?” His eyes searched her face, patient but unwavering, as if he could find the answer there without her having to say it.
“I don’t know,” she admitted, the words barely above a whisper. Her fingers fidgeted with the edge of the blanket, tracing the worn hem.
Something changed in his eyes then, a softening, a recognition of whatever was happening in this quiet space they’d created.
Isabelle wasn’t sure who moved first—maybe both of them, drawn by some invisible gravity that had been pulling them together since Munich, which already felt like a lifetime ago. The inch between them vanished. She untangled their hands and moved to rest her head on his chest, pressing herself into him. His heartbeat was strong and steady beneath her ear, slightly faster than normal.
For a moment, he went utterly still, as if unsure what to do with this unexpected closeness. She felt the tension in his body, the careful way he held himself. Then, slowly, deliberately, his left arm moved beneath her neck, the vibranium warm against her skin as he curved it around her shoulders. His right hand came up, hesitating briefly before settling over hers, where it rested on his chest. His fingers slid between hers, holding rather than merely touching.
The weight of his arm around her felt like an anchor, grounding her to the present moment.
“Is this okay?” he asked, the words rumbling through his chest beneath her ear. His thumb traced small circles against the back of her hand, the gesture almost absent-minded.
Isabelle nodded against him, not trusting her voice. She felt the steady rise and fall of his breathing, the subtle shift of muscle beneath her cheek. His body was warmer than she’d expected, radiating heat that chased away the chill of the air-conditioned room.
“Your heart’s racing,” she murmured, the observation escaping before she could stop it. Her breath warmed the fabric of his shirt, creating a small pocket of heat between them.
His chest expanded with a deep inhale, then contracted slowly. She felt every millimeter of the movement against her cheek. “Yeah, well.” The non-answer hung suspended in the air between them, heavy with everything he wasn’t saying.
Isabelle tilted her head up to look at him, finding his face much closer than she’d expected. The movement brought their faces inches apart, close enough that she could feel the warmth of his breath against her skin. In the moonlight, his eyes were dark pools, unreadable yet somehow more open than she’d ever seen them. They fixed on hers with an intensity that sent a cascade of warmth through her chest and down into her stomach.
“What are we doing, Bucky?” she whispered.
His expression shifted, vulnerability flickering across his features before being carefully tucked away. “I don’t know,” he admitted, the words rough at the edges. “I’m not good at... this.”
“This?” She arched an eyebrow, the gesture more habit than challenge.
The corner of his mouth twitched in what might have been a smile. “People. Talking. Lying on floors with women who could probably kill me six different ways without breaking a sweat.”
That pulled a soft laugh from her. “Only six? You’re underestimating me.”
His hand—the flesh one—came up to brush a strand of hair from her face, fingers hesitating before making contact. When they finally touched her skin, the sensation was feather-light, tentative, as if he expected her to pull away. His calloused fingertips traced the curve of her cheek with a gentleness that seemed at odds with everything she knew about him—the soldier, the assassin, the man who had survived decades of horror only to find himself here, on a hotel floor, touching her like she might shatter.
Instead of pulling back, she leaned into the contact, her eyes fluttering closed for just a moment. His touch was warm against her skin, the slight roughness of his fingers creating a delicious friction that sent tiny shivers down her spine.
When she opened her eyes again, he was still watching her, something vulnerable and wanting in his gaze that made her chest tighten. She lifted her hand to his face, mirroring his touch, her fingers tracing the line of his jaw where stubble had begun to darken the skin. The texture was soft and rough at once, a contradiction like the man himself. His pulse jumped beneath her fingertips when she reached the spot just below his ear.
“I should probably go back to my room,” she said, making no move to leave.
“Probably,” he agreed, his arm tightening almost imperceptibly around her.
Neither of them moved.
“Do you want me to go?” she asked, the question barely audible.
Bucky’s expression shifted, something raw and honest breaking through the careful control he always maintained. His hand came up to cover hers where it rested against his jaw.
“No,” he said, the single syllable carrying the weight of a confession.
Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. “What do you want, Bucky?” she asked, her voice steadier than she felt.
His gaze never wavered from hers. “Right now?” The question hung between them for a heartbeat. “Not to be alone.”
Behind the words, she heard everything he wasn’t saying: decades of isolation, of being used as a weapon, of having choices taken away. She understood that loneliness was carried in her bones, like an old injury that ached in cold weather.
“You’re not,” she said softly, her thumb brushing across his cheekbone.
Something shifted in his expression then—a softening around the eyes, a vulnerability she’d never seen before. His metal hand moved from hers to cup her face, the vibranium cool at first touch before warming against her skin.
“Neither are you,” he murmured, his voice rough with emotion.
The words settled into her chest, warming places that had been cold for too long. Isabelle felt something inside her shift, like ice cracking in spring thaw. She moved closer, drawn by some invisible gravity that seemed to exist only between them. Her hand slid from his jaw to the nape of his neck, fingers threading through the soft hair there.
Bucky’s breath hitched slightly at the contact, his eyes darkening further. The tension between them pulled tighter, a wire about to snap. His gaze dropped to her lips again, lingering this time, the question in his eyes clear even without words.
Isabelle felt herself leaning closer, the space between them narrowing to nothing. Her heart pounded so hard she was sure he could hear it, feel it where their bodies pressed together. The world beyond this makeshift bed, beyond this moment, seemed to fade away—there was only Bucky, his warmth, his closeness, the way his eyes held hers with an intensity that made her skin prickle with awareness.
His hand at her cheek guided her closer, gentle but certain, giving her every opportunity to pull away. She didn’t. Instead, she closed the final inch between them, her lips brushing against his in the barest suggestion of a kiss.
The contact was feather-light, cautious, a question rather than a demand. Bucky went completely still for a heartbeat, his breath warm against her mouth. For a heartbeat, Isabelle thought she’d misread everything, crossed a line he hadn’t meant to approach. Then, with a sound low in his throat that might have been her name, he leaned into her, erasing the last molecule of space between them.
The kiss was achingly gentle at first, his lips moving against hers with a restraint that trembled at its edges. She could feel the tension radiating through him, the careful way he held himself back, as if afraid of his own strength or of wanting too much.
His lips were unexpectedly soft, warm against hers, the contrast between this tenderness and the lethal power she knew his body contained sending a shiver racing down her spine. Isabelle’s fingers tightened in his hair, not pulling, just holding on as something inside her chest cracked open, spilling warmth through her veins.
When he drew back slightly, his eyes were dark, searching her face with an intensity that made her skin flush. His thumb traced the curve of her cheekbone, the callused pad rough against her skin.
“I didn’t...” he started, voice rough at the edges. He swallowed, Adam’s apple bobbing in his throat. “I wasn’t planning on—”
“Neither was I,” she whispered, her hand sliding from his hair to rest against his jaw. “But I’m not sorry.”
His flesh hand came up, lingering to trace the curve of her neck. This time, when he kissed her, the restraint was gone. His mouth claimed hers with a hunger that stole her breath, his metal hand sliding up her back to cradle the nape of her neck.
Isabelle matched his intensity. Her fingers curled into the fabric of his shirt, feeling the solid warmth of him beneath the worn cotton.
Bucky made a sound low in his throat, something between a sigh and a groan, as her teeth grazed his lower lip. The vibranium hand at her neck tightened reflexively, then immediately gentled, as if he’d caught himself. She felt his heart hammering against her own, the rapid rhythm matching the pulse that thrummed in her veins.
When they finally broke apart, just enough to draw breath, Isabelle found herself trembling slightly. Bucky’s forehead rested against hers, his eyes closed, breath warm and uneven against her lips. His metal hand remained at her face, thumb tracing featherlight circles against her cheekbone.
“This is probably a bad idea,” he murmured, voice rough at the edges. Despite his words, the vibranium fingers at her back drew her closer, the plates shifting with a whisper against her thin t-shirt.
“Probably,” she agreed, not moving her hand from the nape of his neck, where her fingers remained tangled in his hair. She could feel his pulse hammering beneath her other palm where it rested against his chest. “I don’t care.”
A smile touched his lips, softening the hard lines of his face. In the moonlight, with his guard down, he looked younger somehow. Almost peaceful. “That makes two of us.”
He covered her hand with his own, flesh warm against her skin. Their fingers interlaced, a simple connection that somehow felt more intimate than the kiss they’d just shared. Bucky’s eyes searched her face, as if memorizing each detail, his gaze lingering on her lips before returning to her eyes.
“We should really try to get some sleep,” he said, though the way his thumb brushed against her knuckles suggested he wasn’t in any hurry to end whatever was happening between them.
“Probably,” she agreed again, settling more comfortably against him, fitting herself into the space at his side like she’d always belonged there.
They shifted together, finding a position that worked—her head on his chest, his arm curved protectively around her shoulders, their legs tangled beneath the blanket. It should have been awkward, this newfound closeness. Instead, it felt like the most natural thing in the world.
Bucky’s breathing had deepened, his body relaxing by increments beneath her.
“Your heartbeat’s slowing down,” she murmured, the observation escaping on a breath.
“That a problem?” His voice was thick with approaching sleep, the words slightly slurred.
“No,” she said, smiling against his chest where he couldn’t see it. “It’s nice.”
His answer was to press a kiss to the top of her head, his lips lingering in her hair. The gesture was so unexpectedly tender that she felt her throat tighten, emotion welling up from some deep place she’d thought long since closed off. Isabelle felt her eyelids growing heavy, the nightmare that had woken her fading to a distant memory.
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They didn’t mean to fall asleep like that.
They definitely didn’t mean to wake up like that—limbs tangled, hearts racing, the memory of a kiss still lingering in the early morning light.
But intentions don’t matter much when Sam Wilson opens a door, sees everything, and decides to lean against the frame with a whistle and way too much delight.Now Isabelle’s face is on fire, Bucky’s muttering “kill me” under his breath, and Sam?
Sam’s making coffee and is never letting them live this down.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 61: Thin Blankets and Heavy Consequences
Chapter 61: Thin Blankets and Heavy Consequences
Summary:
A quiet plaza. A rising sun. A name shouted into silence.
Karli makes a call. Sam answers. But peace was never an option.Isabelle is yanked from diplomacy.
Bucky gets slammed into concrete.
Sam goes airborne.
Karli isn't backing down—and neither is Walker, who's just found the Flag Smashers’ base.And if they don't stop him—
He’s going to set the world on fire.
Notes:
Okay sooooo... I’m guessing you guys liked the last chapter?? 😏 LOL. AHHHH IT FINALLY HAPPENED!! THE SLOW BURN IS DEAD. IT’S OVER. THEY KISSED. IT’S A THING NOW…kinda?? (but like… THEY. KISSED.) 😭
I didn’t want to leave you all hanging in the “what now??” zone, so here’s the follow-up! We’ve got about six chapters left in Act 3 (what is TIME), and I’m so hyped to share them. Things are about to get intense, a little longer chapter-wise, and very, very emotionally unhinged. You know how I do. 😇
Quick sidenote: I won’t be posting tomorrow — I’m going to see Fantastic Four with some friends after work (SO HYPED I CAN’T WAIT, DUDES). But I’m thinking about double-posting Saturday and Sunday?? Depends on how much editing/writing I can slam through.
As always, THANK YOU for the love and support. You guys are the absolute best, and I adore you. 💚💚💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Another Brick in the Wall, Pt 2" by Pink Floyd
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Sunlight slipped through the hotel curtains, drawing long pale lines across the room.
Sam blinked awake, his neck immediately protesting the awkward angle he’d slept in. A dull ache radiated from his shoulder blades to the base of his skull. He rolled onto his side with a quiet groan, working his jaw to relieve the tension as his brain slowly powered up. The digital clock on the nightstand showed 7:23 AM—later than he usually slept, but after yesterday, he needed it.
He swung his legs over the edge of the bed, bare feet hitting the hardwood floor. The air conditioning hummed softly in the background as he yawned, running a hand over his face, the stubble rough against his palm.
Sam padded across the room and pulled open the door leading to the suite’s small living area—and then froze, eyes narrowing at the sight on the floor.
On the threadbare carpet beside the couch, tangled in one of those too-thin hotel blankets that never quite kept you warm, lay Isabelle and Bucky. Not just lying near each other—full-on entangled. They were on their sides, facing each other, with Bucky’s metal and flesh arms both wrapped protectively around her shoulders, keeping her face pressed against his chest. Isabelle had one hand fisted in the fabric of his shirt, knuckles white even in sleep, while her other arm circled his waist, as if anchoring herself to him. Their legs were intertwined beneath the blanket, and there couldn’t have been more than a breath of space between their bodies.
Sam stared for a long moment, taking in the scene—the way Bucky’s face looked younger, less haunted in sleep; how Isabelle’s perpetual tension seemed temporarily eased. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d seen either of them looking so... so peaceful.
A slow, knowing smile spread across his face. He leaned against the doorframe, crossing his arms over his chest, and let out a low whistle.
“Wow,” he said, his voice quiet but absolutely dripping with smug satisfaction. “Yeah, no. This isn’t romantic at all.”
Isabelle jolted upright with a startled inhale, her hair a wild mess of golden tangles framing her panicked face. Her eyes darted around the room, momentarily disoriented, before landing on Sam. As awareness flooded back, her elbow caught Bucky squarely in the ribs as she scrambled to put distance between them.
“Fuck,” she hissed, color rising rapidly in her cheeks.
Bucky groaned, curling slightly around the point of impact. “Ow. Damn it, what—” His eyes flew open, instantly alert. He spotted Sam and froze, his expression shifting from confusion to recognition to mortification in the span of seconds. “Shit...”
Bucky pushed himself up on one elbow, glaring at Sam, but there was something defensive in his posture that Sam hadn’t seen before—like he’d been caught doing something he wasn’t supposed to, but wasn’t entirely sorry about it.
“Not a word,” Bucky growled, his voice still rough with sleep.
Sam raised his hands in mock surrender, but the shit-eating grin never left his face. His eyes crinkled at the corners, practically gleaming with delight at the scene before him.
“I didn’t say anything,” he said, voice dripping with false innocence. “Just making an observation about how... comfortable you two look.” He tilted his head, savoring the moment like a fine wine. “All tangled up like that. Real cozy.”
Isabelle’s face burned hot enough to rival the sun streaming through the windows. She tugged the thin blanket higher, as if it could somehow erase what Sam had already seen. The carpet beneath her felt suddenly abrasive, each fiber a reminder of where she’d spent the night—and with whom.
“Sam,” she warned, her voice coming out more hoarse than threatening.
But Sam was already moving toward the kitchenette, each step intentionally casual as he made his way to the coffee maker. He flicked it on, the machine gurgling to life.
“Just a friendly little floor nap, huh?” he continued, measuring coffee grounds with exaggerated concentration. “Totally normal.” He chuckled, shaking his head. “Can’t wait to hear the excuse on this one.”
Bucky shifted beside her, the movement sending a ripple of awareness through Isabelle’s body. She could still feel the phantom pressure of his arms around her, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat against her cheek. The memory made something twist in her chest—something dangerous and warm that had no business being there.
“We weren’t—” Isabelle started, then cut herself off. What could she possibly say? That she’d had a nightmare, sought him out like some frightened child, and then they’d—
The memory of his lips against hers sent a jolt through her body that had nothing to do with Sam catching them. She swallowed hard.
She glared daggers at Sam through the early morning sunlight, focusing on the dancing dust motes in the golden beams rather than the knowing smirk on his face. If she concentrated hard enough, maybe she could make him spontaneously develop laryngitis. Or better yet, make the floor open up and swallow her whole.
Bucky scrubbed a hand down his face, the metal one still half-hidden beneath the blanket. The soft whir of calibrating plates was barely audible as his fingers flexed and curled.
“Kill me,” he muttered, low enough that only Isabelle could hear the genuine mortification in his voice.
His hair was mussed on one side, sticking up in a way that made him look younger, more vulnerable. The hard lines of his face were softened by sleep, stubble darker against his jaw.
Adorable, her traitorous mind supplied before she could shut the thought down.
Sam’s grin only widened as he reached for mugs from the cabinet, the ceramic clinking against the laminate countertop.
“Nah. I’m good,” he said, stretching like a satisfied cat. His shoulders rolled back, joints popping audibly in the quiet room.
The coffee maker hissed and sputtered behind him, filling the air with the rich, earthy aroma that under normal circumstances would be comforting.
“This is the most fun I’ve had all week.” He paused, eyebrows lifting as he measured coffee grounds with exaggerated precision. “Actually, I take that back. Second most fun. First place goes to watching you two dance around each other for days pretending there’s nothing going on.”
Isabelle untangled her legs from both the blanket and Bucky’s, wincing as her stiff muscles protested. The carpet had left impressions on her skin, tiny red marks that would fade but felt like evidence of something she wasn’t ready to admit. Her hair fell in her face, and she pushed it back with trembling fingers.
“There is nothing going on,” she insisted, voice tight. The lie tasted bitter on her tongue, especially with the phantom sensation of Bucky’s arms still wrapped around her. “We fell asleep. That’s it.”
“Uh-huh,” Sam nodded, utterly unconvinced. He leaned against the counter, arms crossed over his chest, radiating smug satisfaction like a space heater.
“Don’t you have something better to do, Wilson?” Bucky growled, finally pushing himself to a sitting position.
Sam’s smile dimmed just a fraction, something thoughtful flickering behind his eyes before he recovered quickly. “Oh, I’ve got plenty to do today,” he said, pouring coffee into three mugs, the dark liquid steaming in the cool air. “Starting with enjoying this moment for all its worth.”
He slid one mug across the counter toward them, the ceramic making a soft scraping sound against the laminate.
“Coffee? Might help with that bedhead, Barnes.” His gaze shifted to Isabelle, eyes dancing with amusement. “Though Isabelle doesn’t seem to mind it.”
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck to her cheeks. She could feel her pulse hammering in her throat, the steady thump-thump-thump drowning out the air conditioner’s hum.
Bucky lay back on the floor with a heavy sigh, eyes fixed on the ceiling. “I hate you.”
An hour later, Isabelle stood at the bathroom sink, wincing as she pulled her hair back into a tight ponytail. In the main room, Sam hunched over the desk, scrolling through his phone with the intense focus of someone looking for answers in digital breadcrumbs. Bucky paced the narrow strip between the couch and the window, a steaming mug clutched in his hand.
Isabelle stepped out of the bathroom, the change in lighting making her blink. The hotel room felt smaller somehow, compressed by the weight of everything unsaid between them.
“We need to pick a direction,” Sam said without looking up, his voice cutting through the silence. “Do we try to track Zemo again or go after Karli before she disappears off the grid?”
Isabelle crossed to the window, pulling her jacket tighter across her chest. The morning sun had given way to clouds, casting the room in a flat, gray light that matched her mood.
“If we split our focus, we’ll lose them both,” she said, her voice low but firm. She could feel Bucky’s presence behind her, the subtle shift in the air as he paused his pacing. “And we’re already spread thin.”
“She’s not done escalating,” Bucky said, the gravel in his voice betraying his exhaustion. He took a sip from his mug, grimacing at the bitter taste. “If we wait too long, more people are gonna get hurt.”
“We need to—” Sam began, but the shrill ring of his phone cut through his words like a knife. He pulled it from his pocket, frowning at the screen. The furrow between his brows deepened. “Sarah? What’s wrong?”
Isabelle and Bucky froze simultaneously. The sudden shift in Sam’s tone sent a cold wave of dread washing over Isabelle. She crossed the room in three quick strides, hovering close as Sam’s expression darkened from concern to something harder, more dangerous.
“She said what?” Sam’s voice rose sharply, then dropped just as quickly as he turned toward the window, shoulders hunching protectively around the phone. “Right, okay. Pack an overnight bag and take the boys. Use cash, no cards.”
Bucky set his mug down with a soft clink, moving closer with the silent efficiency that never quite left him. His eyes met Isabelle’s across the room, a wordless question passing between them.
“Somewhere safe,” Sam continued, his free hand clenching and unclenching at his side. “I don’t care if it’s last-minute, just go.”
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs, each beat sending a fresh wave of anxiety through her veins. She caught fragments of the conversation, piecing them together like shards of broken glass. Something about Sarah, about the boys. Something dangerous enough to make Sam’s voice crack.
“Sam,” she said quietly, reaching for his arm. “What’s going on?”
He held up a hand, still focused on the call, but she caught the slight tremor in his fingers. The controlled panic in his eyes sent ice water through her veins.
“Sarah, stay calm,” he said, his voice steady despite the tension radiating from him in waves. “We’re going to figure this out. I promise.” He ran a hand over his face, his eyes dark with a mixture of fear and fury.
“Sam?” Bucky’s voice was quiet but insistent, breaking through the heavy silence.
Sam looked up, and Isabelle felt her stomach drop at the raw emotion in his eyes.
“Karli called Sarah,” he said, each word precise and controlled, pulling his face away from the phone. “She threatened my nephews.”
Isabelle felt the blood drain from her face, her fingers going cold. “Jesus,” she whispered.
“How did she even get her number?” Bucky asked, his body going still in that dangerous way that reminded Isabelle of a predator about to strike.
Sam shook his head. “I don’t know. But she knew things—details about the boys, about the boat.” His voice remained level, but Isabelle could feel the rage building beneath the surface, a pressure cooker about to blow.
Isabelle’s mind raced, thoughts colliding with the frantic energy of billiard balls after a break. She couldn’t just stand there while Sam’s family was in danger. The Wilsons were civilians—innocent people being dragged into a fight that wasn’t theirs. A fight that, in some ways, she had helped escalate.
“Sam,” she said, stepping forward, the carpet rough against her bare feet. “Let me help.” The words tumbled out with an urgency that surprised even her. “They’ll be safe, I promise. My family has a place just outside New Orleans.” She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, the gesture betraying her nervousness. “Dad liked Mardi Gras back in the day. Bought it on impulse.”
Sam’s eyes met hers, conflict evident in the tight lines around his mouth. She could read the struggle there—the need to protect his family warring with his instinct to handle it himself. His shoulders remained rigid, tension radiating from him in almost tangible waves.
After a moment that stretched like taffy, he nodded once, sharp and decisive.
“Alright, do it.” The words came out clipped, each syllable edged with controlled fear. “But make sure it’s completely secure.” He turned back to the phone, pressing it to his ear. “Sarah, Iz is gonna hook you up with something safe. Just hold on a sec.”
Relief loosened the knot in Isabelle’s chest as she reached for Sam’s phone. Their fingers brushed during the handoff, and she caught the slight tremor in his hand—a hairline crack in his composure that no one else would notice.
“Sarah? It’s Isabelle. Hey—” She kept her voice steady, channeling the calm efficiency she’d learned from watching Pepper handle a thousand crises. “I’ve got a safe place for you and the boys. Completely secure, completely private.”
She heard Sarah’s shaky exhale on the other end of the line, the background noise of children’s voices making something twist painfully in Isabelle’s chest.
“FRIDAY’s handling the details now,” she continued, already typing one-handed commands into her own phone. “She’ll text you the address and security codes. The house will recognize you when you arrive—just look at the camera by the front door.”
Isabelle paced as she spoke, bare feet silent against the carpet.
Behind her, Sam had moved to the window, shoulders hunched as he stared out at the cloudy sky. Bucky stood a few feet away, his stance protective, giving Sam space while remaining close enough if he needed him.
As she spoke, she caught Bucky’s eye across the room. His face was a mask of controlled anger, but something softer flickered in his gaze when it met hers—a silent acknowledgment of what she was doing for Sam.
“They’re using your families now,” Bucky murmured to Sam, voice pitched low but still audible to Isabelle. “This crosses a line.”
Sam’s response was barely more than a whisper. “If they touch my nephews—”
“They won’t,” Bucky cut in, the certainty in his voice leaving no room for doubt. “We won’t let them.”
Isabelle finished giving Sarah instructions, the woman’s gratitude making her throat tight. “You’ll be okay,” she promised, hoping it wasn’t a lie. “We’ve got this.”
When she ended the call, she handed the phone back to Sam, their fingers brushing again. This time, she squeezed his hand briefly—a silent promise, an anchor.
“FRIDAY’s arranging everything,” she said, meeting his eyes. “Private transport, secure entrance. They’ll be there before nightfall.” She hesitated, then added, “The house has a direct line to FRIDAY. If anything happens—anything at all—we’ll know immediately.”
Sam’s hand closed around the phone, knuckles whitening. “Thank you,” he said, the words rough with emotion he was fighting to contain.
Isabelle nodded, suddenly awkward in the face of his raw gratitude. “It’s what we do, right?” She attempted a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Look out for each other.”
Bucky moved closer, the floorboards creaking subtly beneath his weight. “This changes things,” he said, voice dropping to that dangerous register that reminded Isabelle of who he had been—who he still could be when pushed. “Karli’s escalating faster than we thought.”
“She’s getting desperate,” Sam agreed, turning from the window. The morning light cast half his face in shadow, emphasizing the hard set of his jaw. “Which makes her unpredictable—”
His phone buzzed again. Sam glanced down, muscles in his forearm tensing as he read the screen. He didn’t move to answer it—just stared, expression darkening by degrees.
“Karli,” he said finally, voice dropping to a dangerous register Isabelle had rarely heard from him. “She wants to meet.”
Bucky straightened immediately, moving closer. “What are the terms?” The question came out clipped, tactical—the Winter Soldier bleeding through the cracks of his carefully maintained composure.
Sam’s thumbs flew across the screen, the soft tapping sounds unnaturally loud in the quiet room. The response came almost immediately, his phone chiming with a cheerful tone that felt obscenely out of place given the circumstances.
“Rooftop above North Plaza,” Sam read, brows drawing together. “Now.” His eyes flicked up, meeting Isabelle’s gaze, then Bucky’s. “And she wants me to come alone.”
Isabelle moved to his side, close enough that her shoulder brushed against his as she read the message over his shoulder. The screen’s blue light cast an eerie glow on their faces. Her pulse quickened, a cold rush of adrenaline flooding her system.
“No chance in hell,” she said immediately, the words coming out sharper than she intended. Her fingers curled into a fist at her side, nails digging half-moons into her palm. “Not after what she just did.”
Bucky made a sound of agreement, a low rumble in his chest. “She won’t expect backup after she threatened your family,” he said, voice measured but edged with steel. His eyes were calculating, already mapping out angles and vantage points. “Let her think she’s in control. Then we hit her with something better.” He looked to Isabelle, then back to Sam. “Us.”
Sam’s expression remained carefully neutral, but Isabelle caught the subtle tightening around his eyes, the barely perceptible clench of his jaw. He looked between them, weighing his options and calculating the risks.
“She’s made this personal now,” he asked quietly, no heat in the question—just exhaustion and determination in equal measure. “And she’s got something to say.”
Isabelle reached out, fingers brushing his forearm. “And we’ll be there to hear it too,” she said, softening her tone. “Just not where she can see us.”
Bucky was already moving toward his duffel bag in the corner. The zipper rasped as he pulled it open, revealing the glint of tactical gear. Sam looked between them, something shifting in his expression—a subtle easing of the tension around his eyes. He didn’t argue. Instead, he gave them a single, decisive nod.
“Alright,” he conceded, pocketing his phone. “But we do this smart. No heroics.” His gaze lingered on Isabelle for a beat longer than necessary, a silent warning in his eyes. “She’s enhanced, desperate, and she’s got nothing to lose.”
“So are we,” Isabelle countered, meeting his gaze steadily. She rolled her shoulders back, feeling the familiar electric hum of adrenaline beginning to course through her veins. “Minus the desperate part.”
Bucky snorted softly, already checking his weapons. “Speak for yourself,” he muttered, but there was a ghost of a smile playing at the corners of his mouth.
“Nobody threatens my family. Nobody.” Sam crossed to the desk, retrieving his wings with careful, deliberate movements. The morning light caught the edges of the vibranium, sending prismatic reflections dancing across the walls. “We need to move,” he said, all business now. “Gear up. Five minutes.”
Bucky caught her eye across the room, a silent understanding passing between them. They both recognized the shift in Sam, the dangerous edge that had crept into his usually level demeanor. Without a word, Bucky moved closer to him, a subtle show of solidarity.
“We’ve got your back,” he said simply, the words carrying more weight than their simplicity suggested.
Isabelle grabbed her duffel bag, heading towards the bathroom to change. “Always,” she added, the single word a promise.
Sam looked between them, something unreadable flickering in his eyes. For a moment, the weight of everything—Sarah’s fear, the boys in danger, Karli’s escalation—seemed to press down on his shoulders. Then he straightened, shoulders squaring, chin lifting slightly.
“Let’s move,” he said, voice steady once more. “We’ve got a Flag Smasher to meet.”
The North Plaza stretched before them, deserted and eerily quiet in the late afternoon light. Shadows lengthened across the concrete expanse, the surrounding buildings creating a canyon of steel and glass that amplified every footfall. Sam moved with purpose, leading the way.
Isabelle felt the weight of her suit against her skin, the familiar pressure of the reinforced fabric a small comfort as adrenaline coursed through her veins. She kept pace with Bucky, whose eyes never stopped scanning their surroundings.
Sam’s voice cut through the silence, bouncing off the concrete and glass around them. “Karli!”
The name echoed across the empty plaza, a challenge thrown into the growing shadows. Isabelle’s senses heightened, her body humming with the familiar electric tension that preceded conflict. Her fingers flexed at her sides as she fought the urge to call her power to the surface.
For several heartbeats, nothing happened. Then a figure emerged on the second-floor landing of the building ahead, silhouetted against the dying sunlight.
Karli leaned against the metal railing with a nonchalant air. Her eyes were sharp, assessing, taking in the three of them with the cool detachment of someone who’d already decided the outcome of this confrontation.
“Well, well,” Karli called down, her voice carrying across the plaza with deceptive warmth. “I see you didn’t come alone, Sam.” Her gaze shifted to Isabelle, then Bucky, a flash of something cold passing across her features. “I’m hurt. I thought we had an understanding.”
Sam’s stride never faltered as he moved toward the stairs, the hard line of his shoulders betraying the fury he was barely containing. Isabelle could feel it radiating from him in waves—not just anger, but something deeper—the protective rage of a man whose family had been threatened.
“You called my sister,” Sam growled, each word precise and deadly. “You threatened my nephews.” His voice dropped lower. “Did you really think I’d play by your rules after that?”
Bucky moved silently to Sam’s right as they reached the landing, creating distance while maintaining a clear sight line. Isabelle hung back near the stairwell, her back to the wall, giving herself a clear view of both Karli and the plaza below.
Karli straightened, pushing away from the railing. “It wasn’t personal, Sam,” she said. “It was necessary.” She took a step forward, and Isabelle tensed, power tingling at her fingertips. “You need to understand what’s at stake here.”
“What’s at stake?” Sam’s voice rose. His hands clenched into fists at his sides, the red and white of his Falcon suit vibrant against the gray concrete. “You crossed a line, Karli. Those are innocent kids.”
“I would never hurt them,” Karli said, her voice softening with what might have been sincerity. “I just wanted to understand you better.” She sighed, her shoulders sagging slightly beneath her jacket. “You don’t get it, do you? You’re just a tool in the regimes I want to destroy. The same regimes that are starving people, displacing them, treating them like they’re nothing.” She shook her head, disappointment etched across her features. “If I were to kill you and your family, it’d be meaningless. Just another tragedy in a world full of them.”
Isabelle stepped forward, her hand raised in a gesture of appeasement. “Karli, I get where you’re coming from. I’ve seen the camps, the suffering. Let me help. I have resources, connections. We can put pressure on the GRC, make them listen—”
“No,” Karli spat, her voice vibrating with barely contained fury. “I’m done talking. I’m done hoping they’ll start giving a damn.” She took a step closer, and Isabelle felt Bucky shift subtly beside her, his body tensing in preparation. “People like you, you don’t truly care because you don’t understand. You’re a Stark.” She hurled the name like an accusation. “You don’t have to worry about survival like we do. You’ve never had to fight for scraps or watch people die because some bureaucrat decided they weren’t worth saving.”
Isabelle opened her mouth to respond, but before she could form the words, FRIDAY’s voice crackled through her earpiece, urgent and clear.
“Boss, John Walker is on the move. It appears they’ve found the Flag Smashers’ location.”
The information landed like a stone in still water, rippling through Isabelle’s consciousness—she had FRIDAY tracking John’s movements since last night.
She turned to Bucky, locking eyes with him across the few feet that separated them. “Walker’s found it,” she hissed.
Bucky didn’t hesitate. He vaulted over the railing, his metal arm catching the dying sunlight as he dropped to the ground below. The impact sent a dull thud echoing through the plaza, concrete cracking beneath his boots as he landed in a predator’s crouch.
Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat as she watched him straighten, already moving toward their exit. The blue of his tactical jacket disappeared into shadow as he broke into a run.
But Karli was fast—too fast. Her mask snapped into place as she lunged forward, a streak of motion that Isabelle could barely track as she jumped over the railing.
Before Bucky could react, Karli slammed into him from behind, driving him against the concrete wall with a sickening thud that echoed through the plaza. His metal arm scraped against the surface, leaving gouges in the stone as he tried to brace himself.
Sam’s wings unfurled with a metallic whisper as he dove after them.
Isabelle’s mind raced, calculating trajectories and probabilities in the fractions of seconds she had to decide. They needed to get to the Flag Smashers’ base, now. Every second they wasted here was another second Walker had to potentially ruin everything—
Strong arms suddenly grabbed Isabelle from behind, yanking her backward with enough force that her boots skidded against concrete. Her world tilted sharply as a rough bag descended over her head, coarse burlap scratching against her face and filling her nostrils with the musty smell of old grain.
“Get off me!” she snarled, her voice muffled by the fabric.
Darkness disoriented her, sending her other senses into overdrive. The sounds from the plaza below—Sam’s shouts, the dull impact of Karli’s fists against Bucky’s body—became distant, as if she’d been submerged underwater. Her attacker’s breath came hot and fast against her neck, their grip bruisingly tight around her ribs.
Electricity sparked at her fingertips, the familiar tingle of power building beneath her skin. She let it gather, a controlled storm waiting to be unleashed.
With a grunt, Isabelle stomped down hard, driving the reinforced heel of her boot into her attacker’s foot. The satisfying crunch of small bones was followed by a pained grunt—male, young, accent similar to Karli’s. She drove her elbow backward with all her strength, feeling it connect with solid muscle and the softer give of a solar plexus beneath.
Air whooshed from her attacker’s lungs. His grip loosened just enough.
Isabelle twisted violently in his slackened hold, one hand ripping the burlap sack from her head while the other grabbed a fistful of his jacket. Blinking against the sudden rush of light, she found herself face-to-face with a masked Flag Smasher, his eyes wide with surprise behind his mask.
“Surprise,” she growled, before driving her knee up between his legs.
The man doubled over with a strangled sound, and Isabelle seized the moment. She grabbed his arm, twisting it behind his back at an angle that threatened dislocation, and drove him face-first into the concrete wall. The impact left a spiderweb of cracks in the surface, dust raining down as she pressed her forearm against the back of his neck.
“Iz!” Sam’s voice carried from below, tight with exertion and something that might have been fear. “We need you down here!”
Isabelle risked a glance over the railing. On the plaza below, Sam had just landed a solid kick to Karli’s midsection, sending her skidding backward across the concrete. Bucky was struggling to his feet nearby, blood trickling from a split in his lower lip, his metal arm whirring as it recalibrated after some impact.
“A little busy!” she called back, tightening her grip on the Flag Smasher.
The subtle shift in the air behind her was her only warning—a displacement, a whisper of movement. Isabelle dropped instinctively, ducking as a second attacker’s fist sailed over her head, close enough that she felt the rush of air against her scalp. She rolled sideways, coming up in a crouch as the new assailant—another masked Flag Smasher—advanced on her.
This one was bigger, broader across the shoulders, hands raised in a boxer’s guard, light on his feet despite his size.
“Two against one?” Isabelle taunted, her lips curving into a sharp smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “Seems like overkill for little old me.”
The first Flag Smasher was recovering, pushing himself away from the wall with a groan. Blood darkened the fabric of his mask where his face had met concrete. The second attacker circled to her right, trying to flank her. She tracked both men simultaneously, her senses hyper-focused, time slowing to a crawl as adrenaline flooded her system.
The first attacker lunged at her from the side—low and fast, like a linebacker going for the tackle. Isabelle pivoted smoothly, planting her right foot and bracing her core. She caught him mid-charge with her shoulder, the impact reverberating through her enhanced frame as she redirected his momentum. The blow knocked him off his feet, sending him stumbling backward.
He recovered quickly—too quickly for a normal human—rolling with practiced efficiency and sweeping his leg toward hers in a move that would have taken most opponents down.
Not her.
Isabelle jumped, the motion fluid and precise, watching his leg pass harmlessly beneath her. The instant her boots touched concrete again, she stomped down with brutal force on his extended knee.
The crack was sickening—bone and cartilage giving way beneath the reinforced heel of her boot. His scream tore through the air, raw and primal as he clutched at his shattered joint.
“One down,” she muttered, already turning to face the second attacker.
Instinctively, she reached for her power—that familiar current of electricity that lived just beneath her skin—but nothing sparked—no flicker of heat, no flare of sickness radiating from her fingertips.
Right. Super soldiers. Immune to her particular brand of misery.
Fine
She could still break bones.
Isabelle feinted left, drawing him in, then exploded forward with super-soldier speed. Her hand shot out, fingers closing around his throat with crushing force. Using the momentum of her charge and every ounce of her enhanced strength, she hurled him toward the edge of the mezzanine.
His feet left the ground, body arcing through the air like a rag doll. The railing caught him mid-back with a dull thud that knocked the air from his lungs. For a heartbeat, he teetered on the edge, arms windmilling desperately—then gravity claimed him.
He screamed all the way down, the sound cutting off abruptly as he hit the plaza below. The impact echoed off the surrounding buildings like a gunshot, concrete cracking beneath his body.
Isabelle didn’t wait to see if he’d get up.
She vaulted over the railing, the wind rushing past her face as she dropped two stories. The ground rushed up to meet her, and she bent her knees, bracing for impact. Her boots hit the concrete with devastating force. The plaza cracked beneath her in a spiderweb pattern, dust blooming outward in a halo around her crouched form.
Sam and Bucky were struggling to get to their feet, both bloodied, both panting, surrounded by scattered debris. Karli was bearing down on them—fast, wild, desperate—her fist already cocked back for a knockout blow.
Isabelle didn’t think. Didn’t speak.
She moved.
Her body slammed into Karli’s side mid-charge. The collision sent them both skidding sideways, but Isabelle recovered first. She planted her feet, twisted her hips, and drove her fist into Karli’s jaw with every ounce of strength she possessed.
The sound was like a thunderclap.
Karli’s head snapped back, her body following in a graceless arc that sent her flying backward. She crashed into a stack of construction crates several yards away, the plastic shells cracking and splintering under the force of her impact.
Isabelle straightened, her chest heaving, each breath burning in her lungs. Her knuckles throbbed where they’d connected with Karli’s jaw—the girl’s enhanced physiology making her as much a force of nature as Isabelle herself. Blood trickled between Isabelle’s fingers, her split knuckles already trying to knit themselves back together.
Bucky was already beside her, grimacing as he wiped blood from his mouth. “We’ve gotta move. If Walker found the base, he’s not waiting.”
Sam staggered to his feet, wings flickering with motion behind him. “We let him go in alone, it’s gonna be a massacre. Either the Flag Smashers die—or he does.”
Isabelle exhaled hard through her nose, never taking her eyes off Karli as the girl slumped against the wreckage, dazed but conscious.
“FRIDAY,” she snapped, the command activating the AI in her earpiece. “Send Sam the coordinates. Now.”
“Transmitting,” FRIDAY confirmed smoothly in her ear. “Marked and locked.”
Sam’s gauntlet vibrated once against his wrist. He glanced down at the small screen embedded there, the red light reflecting in his dark eyes. When he looked up, his expression had shifted—all hesitation gone, replaced by laser-sharp focus and determination.
“Got it.” In one fluid motion, his wings fully extended, the repulsors igniting. “See you there. Hurry.”
And then he was gone, a streak of red and silver cutting through the sky, leaving nothing but displaced air and the fading sound of his thrusters.
Isabelle turned to Bucky, catching his gaze. His eyes were already on her, blood from his split lip had dried in a dark streak down his chin, but his stance was solid, ready.
They sprinted side by side across the shattered plaza, boots pounding the concrete in rhythm. Sirens began to echo in the distance, growing louder.
Behind them, Karli stirred, blinking blearily at the blood on her hands.
Ahead of them—somewhere—John Walker was heading into the lion’s den.
And if they didn’t reach him in time, everything might burn.
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The chase is on—and time is running out.
With Walker closing in on the Flag Smashers, Bucky and Isabelle make a high-stakes dash through the city and straight into a brutal stairwell fight.But Isabelle and Bucky are nothing if not relentless.
Fists fly. Bones crack. She takes a man down with her thighs; he puts another through a wall.
And when the dust settles—“You kicked a guy through a wall,” she says, breathless.
Bucky’s lips twitch. “You just scissor-flipped a guy down a stairwell and melted his brain, doll.”
She smirks, bloodied and shining. “Kinda hot.”NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 62: The World is Watching (Part One)
Chapter 62: The World Is Watching (Part One)
Summary:
The stairwell rings with fists and fury.
John’s cracking. Lemar falls—and doesn’t get up.Grief hits harder than any punch.
And when John jumps out the window,
Izzy runs straight after him.
Notes:
Happy weekend!!! I'm back with another double post!
The “The Whole World Is Watching” arc spans four chapters (because I had way too much fun writing it and absolutely could not trim it down lol). Trust me, it’s worth it. Today, you’re getting Parts 1 and 2, and tomorrow, I’ll drop Parts 3 and 4. Then, after that, we’ve only got one chapter left in Act 3? Holy crap.
Also… OMG. WE HIT 15K?!?! WHAT THE HELL YOU GUYS. I love you all SO much, thank you for the support, the comments, the screaming. 💚💚💚
AND real quick. Saw Fantastic Four last night and dare I say… it was fantastic. 👀🔥 (No spoilers, but 14-year-old me—who once wrote a Johnny Storm/OC fanfic in 2007—is still screaming. I love those comics so much, and this movie got it. Sue? Flawless. The boys? So good. Silver Surfer?? GALACTUS?? I was FEEDING.)
Anyway, thank you again for reading. You guys are the BEST.
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Knights of Cydonia" by Muse
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Chapter Text
The city blurred around them as they ran—boots slamming into pavement, lungs burning with every breath. Bucky didn’t need a comm to know they wouldn’t make it in time, not on foot.
Then he saw it.
A motorcycle, half-parked on the curb outside a corner café, its owner nowhere in sight. Bucky didn’t hesitate. He veered off, boots skidding on the concrete as he reached the bike. With one smooth motion, he ripped off the security lock and swung a leg over the seat.
“Get on!” he barked, already hot-wiring the ignition. The engine roared to life beneath him, a familiar rush of power that sparked something almost like pleasure in his chest.
Isabelle didn’t waste breath asking questions. She sat behind him, one arm immediately wrapping around his waist. Her grip was stronger than he expected, fingers digging into his ribs. Her other hand held her phone at an angle where she could still see it, the screen glowing with FRIDAY’s tracking algorithm.
“They’re moving,” she said, her voice close to his ear as she leaned forward, body instinctively adjusting to the motorcycle’s balance. The wind already whipped strands of her hair across her face, but her eyes remained locked on the data stream. “Take the next right, then cut through the first intersection.”
Bucky revved the engine, feeling the machine respond beneath them. “Hold on tight.”
He didn’t wait for her acknowledgment before peeling out, tires screaming against asphalt as they shot into traffic. Isabelle’s arm tightened around his waist, her body pressing against his back as they leaned into the first turn. The world compressed around them—honking cars, startled pedestrians, the flash of buildings—all secondary to the mission parameters reforming in his mind.
A taxi swerved into their lane, and Bucky reacted without thinking, threading the needle between it and a delivery truck with millimeters to spare. He felt Isabelle’s sharp intake of breath against his back.
“You good?” he asked, voice raised against the wind as they accelerated through a yellow light.
“Just drive, Barnes,” she replied, tension evident in her voice despite the forced calm. “Walker’s going to beat us there if we don’t hurry, and I’m not in the mood to watch him fumble our shot again.”
Bucky’s mouth twitched in what might have been a smile as he leaned lower over the handlebars, pushing the motorcycle faster. The engine snarled beneath them.
“Next left!” Isabelle called, her voice cutting through his thoughts.
Bucky cut the turn so close that his knee nearly scraped the pavement. A delivery truck blared its horn as they shot past, but he was already focused on the straightaway ahead, the familiar tactical calculations running through his mind. Time, distance, velocity. The variables of pursuit.
The straightaway opened before them, a clear shot through congested side streets. They rounded the final corner, tires skidding slightly on loose gravel. The industrial complex materialized before them—a sprawling concrete structure with broken windows and rust-streaked walls. A battered transport van blocked part of the narrow alley leading to the main entrance. Above the roofline, the distinctive flash of Sam’s wings caught the afternoon sunlight.
“There!” Isabelle shouted, her voice sharp with urgency. She pointed toward a side entrance where shadows moved behind shattered windows. “That’s it!”
Bucky braked hard, metal arm compensating for the weight distribution as the motorcycle slid into a controlled stop. The tires left black streaks on the pavement, the smell of burnt rubber rising around them. He felt Isabelle’s weight shift behind him, her body already in motion before the bike had fully settled.
She dismounted, boots hitting the cracked concrete. There was no hesitation in her movements, no wasted motion. Her fingers moved deftly across her phone’s screen before she shoved it into one of her utility pouches. The metal door groaned on its hinges as she yanked it open and vanished into the dark.
Bucky was two steps behind her, heart hammering.
They burst into the building, boots slamming against cracked linoleum as they sprinted down a darkened hallway. The fluorescents overhead flickered uselessly, casting everything in a jittery strobe of shadow and yellow light.
“There—stairs!” Bucky shouted, already moving toward a rusted metal door with peeling red paint. He hit the door with his left shoulder, metal arm absorbing the impact as the hinges screamed in protest. The stairwell materialized before them—concrete and steel, utilitarian and echoing. His boots rang against the metal steps as he took them two at a time, the vibrations traveling up his legs.
Isabelle followed close behind, one hand skimming the rail as she matched his pace. He could hear her controlled breathing—tight and measured in her throat—the sound oddly comforting in the hollow space of the stairwell.
“FRIDAY says Sam’s on the third floor,” she called, voice clipped and focused. “He’s engaging, but Walker’s—”
A blur of motion cut her off.
The Flag Smasher dropped from the landing above, all coiled muscle and momentum. Bucky registered the threat a fraction of a second too late. The attacker slammed into him mid-stride, catching him between floors with nowhere to brace. The impact drove him sideways, his right shoulder and back crashing hard into the concrete wall. The collision reverberated through his body, metal arm scraping against the wall with a sound like nails on a chalkboard.
“Shit,” Bucky hissed through gritted teeth as the breath evacuated his lungs.
Isabelle didn’t hesitate. She charged up the remaining steps. The Flag Smasher had his back to her, focused entirely on pinning Bucky to the wall, fingers digging for a chokehold. Isabelle caught the attacker by the collar of his jacket, fingers twisting in the fabric. With a snarl that sounded more animal than human, she ripped him off Bucky like he weighed nothing
The man’s eyes widened in surprise as his boots left the ground. Isabelle pivoted, using the momentum to launch him backward down the stairs. He skidded across the concrete landing, arms windmilling as he tried to regain balance before his heel caught on a lower step. His body went horizontal for a split second before he crashed down hard, a grunt of pain echoing up the stairwell.
Isabelle didn’t have time to watch him land because another Smasher was already on her.
This one grabbed Isabelle from behind. His forearm locked across her chest like a steel bar, crushing the air from her lungs as he yanked her off her feet. The world tilted violently as he dragged her backward down the stairs, her boots scraping uselessly against the concrete.
Isabelle twisted mid-air, muscles straining against his grip. Her head snapped up just in time to catch Bucky’s eyes—cold, focused, already in motion. He launched himself at his own attacker, metal arm gleaming under the stuttering fluorescents.
The stairwell erupted into chaos.
Metal slammed against flesh. Concrete cracked under super-soldier strength. Bodies slamming into railings. Grunts of exertion and pain bounced between floors in a disorienting acoustic jumble.
Bucky ducked a punch, caught the Flag Smasher’s wrist, and drove his vibranium arm into the man’s side with a sickening crunch. But the guy didn’t go down—he grunted, recovered, and swept Bucky’s legs out from under him, sending him sprawling down half a flight.
Isabelle elbowed her captor in the face, the sharp crack of bone-on-bone echoing in the stairwell. He staggered, blood pouring from his nose. She seized the opening, spun, and snapped her leg upward, driving her boot into his ribs.
They moved in sync, unspoken but coordinated—back-to-back combat in a confined vertical cage.
Bucky caught his footing on the edge of a step, metal fingers scraping against concrete as he pivoted. The Winter Soldier training clicked into place—angles, leverage, momentum—and he launched himself at the first attacker with a growl that started deep in his chest. His vibranium arm connected with the Flag Smasher’s shoulder, and with a brutal heave, Bucky drove his boot into the man’s sternum and sent him flying through the drywall.
The wall exploded outward in a shower of dust and debris. Brick crumbled away from the impact point, raining down into the adjacent stairwell landing. The Flag Smasher lay sprawled in the rubble, limbs akimbo, chest rising and falling shallowly beneath a film of white dust.
Bucky stood in the jagged hole, chest heaving, the taste of plaster thick on his tongue. His right shoulder throbbed where it had slammed into the wall, but the pain was distant, cataloged, and filed away. He stared down at the unconscious man, eyes cold.
“Stay there,” he muttered, voice flat and Brooklyn-rough.
Behind him came the sound of a struggle—a grunt, the slap of flesh on flesh, a body hitting concrete.
Isabelle had somehow gotten her thighs wrapped around her opponent’s neck midair, swinging her full bodyweight in a Widow-style takedown. She twisted, using the momentum to slam him into the steps below, then flipped cleanly to her feet. Before he could rise, she placed her hand against his chest—and unleashed a wave of pain.
He convulsed. Went still.
The stairwell fell silent except for their breathing. Isabelle straightened slowly, her hand trembling slightly as she pulled it away from the man’s chest. Something dark and unreadable flickered across her face—not quite regret, not quite satisfaction.
Their eyes met across the narrow space. For a moment, neither moved. Bucky could hear the rapid thud of her heart, almost in sync with his own.
“You good?” he asked, voice rough in the sudden quiet.
Isabelle flexed her fingers, the same hand that had just dropped a super-soldier with a touch. “Yeah,” she said, but something in her tone sounded hollow. “You?”
He looked over his shoulder, eyes flicking to meet hers. “Fine.” The word came out rough, with clipped edges.
They stared at each other for a long moment—adrenaline still humming beneath their skin, pulses hammering, the air between them charged with something electric and dangerous.
Isabelle tilted her head, a slow, sly smile tugging at the corner of her mouth. Her own heartbeat hadn’t steadied yet, the post-combat high making everything sharper, brighter. “You kicked a guy through a brick wall.”
Bucky blinked, brow furrowing slightly. “Yeah?”
“That was...” she paused, letting her eyes deliberately trail down his body before returning to his face, “...kinda hot.”
He looked stunned for a full second, like she’d short-circuited something in his brain. Then he blinked again, this time slower—and a flush rose across his cheeks, spreading down his neck.
“You just scissor-flipped a guy down a stairwell and melted his brain,” he shot back, voice dropping half an octave. His eyes darkened as they locked with hers. “Don’t start something you can’t finish, doll.”
The challenge in his voice sent a shiver racing down her spine. Isabelle grinned, already moving past him toward the stairs. She brushed against him as she passed—deliberately close, her shoulder grazing his chest. The brief contact sent a jolt through her system that had nothing to do with her powers.
“Oh, Sergeant,” she called over her shoulder as she took the stairs two at a time, the nickname rolling off her tongue with deliberate emphasis, “I always finish.”
She didn’t look back, but she heard his sharp exhale—half frustration, half something else entirely. The sound of his boots followed a moment later, metal arm scraping against the railing as he shook plaster dust from his shoulders.
The mission. Focus on the mission.
The echo of fists and metal rang through the stairwell.
“Up there,” Bucky muttered, his voice tight. His metal arm whirred softly as he flexed his fingers, already anticipating the fight ahead.
They ran, each floor closer, the sound thickening. Shouting. Grunts. The unmistakable clang of metal hitting concrete.
They burst through the final door shoulder-to-shoulder, momentum carrying them into a wide industrial room. The space hit all their senses at once—dimly lit by dirty windows streaked with city grime, the air thick with dust and the copper smell of fresh blood. Overturned tables and wooden crates created a makeshift obstacle course across the concrete floor. The ceiling rose high above them, exposed pipes and ductwork creating a metal canopy that amplified every sound.
In the center of it all, Sam and John were locked in a brutal fight against six Flag Smashers—all enhanced, all moving with the fluid strength of super soldiers. The odds were bad and getting worse.
Sam ducked under a wide swing, his wings slicing outward in a precise arc that threw his opponent off balance. He moved with calculated grace, each motion efficient and purposeful. Blood trickled from a split in his eyebrow, but his eyes remained sharp, focused.
“About damn time!” he called, voice strained as he twisted to avoid another attack. “Little help here would be nice!”
John was another story entirely. Shield in hand, he moved with punishing precision—too much precision, too much force. His face was flushed with exertion and a wild gleam in his eyes that made Isabelle’s stomach clench. As she watched, he slammed the shield into a Flag Smasher’s ribs with enough force to send the man skidding across the floor, leaving a smear of blood on the concrete.
“Walker, ease up!” Sam shouted, but John either didn’t hear or chose to ignore him.
Her eyes narrowed as she watched John fight. Something was different. He was faster. Stronger.
He took the serum.
There was no doubt in her mind now.
A sharp whistle cut through the air—that distinctive sound of something slicing through space too fast.
Isabelle turned, the world compressing into slow motion as she registered the threat. A Flag Smasher, thirty feet away, arm extended in the follow-through of a throw. A combat knife tumbling end over end, spinning directly toward her face.
She tensed to move, muscles coiling—but she’d never be fast enough.
Then—clink.
The knife stopped mid-rotation, suspended in the air mere inches from her face, Bucky’s fingers wrapping around the handle. He glanced at the knife, then at her, one eyebrow lifting slightly. His lips curled into a sneer before he simply opened his fingers, letting the knife clatter to the concrete floor between them.
Before she could respond, another Flag Smasher lunged at him from the side—knife in hand. Bucky didn’t even look alarmed, just annoyed. He pivoted, the leather of his jacket creaking as he twisted. His metal arm shot out, catching the attacker’s wrist mid-strike. The Flag Smasher’s momentum carried forward, but Bucky redirected it, slamming him against a nearby support beam with enough force to rattle dust from the ceiling.
The knife fell from nerveless fingers, clattering against concrete. In a single, seamless motion that spoke of decades of muscle memory, Bucky scooped it up, his metal fingers closing around the handle. The blade flipped once, twice in his hand—a casual, deadly flourish—before he reversed his grip and drove the handle into the man’s solar plexus. The Flag Smasher folded like wet cardboard, all the air driven from his lungs in a pained wheeze. Bucky stepped back just enough to let him drop, the man’s body crumpling backward onto the floor with a dull thud.
Isabelle watched, transfixed, as Bucky stood over his opponent, knife balanced in his grip with the ease of someone who’d held blades for longer than most people had been alive. The Flag Smasher stared up at him, face pale, eyes wide with the sudden, visceral understanding that he was completely at the Winter Soldier’s mercy.
The overhead lights caught on Bucky’s metal arm as he flipped the knife one final time, the blade spinning in a perfect arc before he drove it downward with devastating force into the concrete floor, the tip embedding itself less than an inch from the man’s ear.
Across the room, Sam fought to stay upright. One of the Flag Smashers had managed to lock his arms behind him, muscles straining against Sam’s tactical gear. Isabelle watched as Sam’s face contorted with effort, jaw clenched tight, before he dropped his center of gravity and crouched slightly.
“Get—” he grunted, “—off me!”
His wings exploded outward in a sudden metallic burst, the vibranium-enhanced edges catching the overhead light as they snapped to full extension. The pressure flung his attacker backward with enough force to send him careening into a stack of wooden crates. The man crashed through them, splintered wood exploding in all directions.
Sam didn’t waste the opening. He surged forward, the momentum of his wings carrying him across the concrete floor. His right fist connected with the Flag Smasher’s jaw—a textbook cross, delivered with the full weight of his shoulder behind it. The crack of impact echoed through the warehouse.
“Stay down,” Sam ordered, voice rough with exertion, blood still trickling from the split in his eyebrow. “I’m not asking twice.”
Isabelle moved through the chaos like electricity through water, every sense heightened by adrenaline. The concrete floor vibrated beneath her boots with each impact. She ducked as a metal chair whistled through the air where her head had been a split-second earlier. It crashed against the wall behind her, one leg snapping off and skittering across the floor. Her hands came up instinctively, power surging through her fingers until they glowed with a faint, sickly green luminescence.
The Flag Smasher who’d thrown the chair charged her, face contorted with rage and something else—fear, maybe. Recognition. They knew who she was, what she could do.
As he closed the distance, she spun on her left foot and drove her right fist into his sternum. The impact alone would have been enough to stagger him, but the real damage came from what flowed from her hand into his chest—a precise pulse of concentrated agony that overloaded his nervous system.
His momentum died instantly. His eyes widened, pupils blown with shock as his body registered the sudden assault. A strangled sound escaped his throat as he stumbled backward, hands clutching at his chest where her fist had connected.
“Breathe through it,” she said coldly, already turning away. “You’ll live.”
She scanned the room, cataloging threats and allies in rapid succession. Bucky was handling himself, metal arm gleaming as he drove another Flag Smasher into the floor. Sam had regained control of his section of the fight, wings tucked close as he engaged in hand-to-hand with practiced efficiency. And John, who was relentless, shield swinging like a guillotine, every strike more punishing than the last.
He didn’t just fight. He sought to maim. To crush.
“Shit,” Isabelle swallowed hard, “he really did it.”
A blur of movement caught the edge of her vision—a shadow detaching itself from the deeper darkness near the far wall. Isabelle’s head snapped toward it, senses instantly on high alert.
Karli emerged from the shadows like a vengeful ghost. Her face was set in lines of cold determination, eyes locked on John with single-minded focus. The blade in her hand caught the light—six inches of honed steel, angled for a killing strike.
“Walker!” Isabelle shouted, already moving. Her voice cut through, sharp with warning. “On your six!”
But before Karli could reach her target—before John even registered the threat—another figure burst from a side corridor.
Lemar moved from a side corridor with the desperate speed of a man who saw only one possible outcome. He intercepted Karli in a full-body tackle, arms wrapping around her midsection as he drove them both sideways. They hit the ground hard, the impact sending them sliding across the concrete floor in a tangle of limbs and momentum.
Dust billowed around them as they skidded to a stop. For a heartbeat, neither moved.
Then Lemar scrambled to his feet, chest heaving with exertion. His tactical gear was coated in a film of gray dust, his face shining with sweat. He took a half-step backward, hands up in a defensive position.
Karli rose more slowly, her movements deliberate. The knife was gone, lost in the tumble across the floor, but the look in her eyes made it clear she didn’t need it. “You shouldn’t have done that,” she said, voice soft but carrying in the sudden lull.
Lemar didn’t back down. “Stand down,” he ordered, the authority in his voice undermined by the slight tremor beneath it. “It’s over, Karli.”
Something flickered across Karli’s face—regret, perhaps, or resignation. Then her expression hardened into resolve.
“No,” she said simply. “It’s not.”
Her punch came before anyone could shout a warning. Her fist connected with Lemar’s chest with the full force of the serum behind it, a sound like a bombshell echoing through the room.
Lemar’s body lifted off the ground, suspended in the air for a sickening moment before physics reasserted itself. He flew backward, arms splayed, face frozen in shock. His trajectory carried him directly into a concrete support column.
The impact made a sound Isabelle would never forget—not quite a crack, not quite a thud, but something in between. Something wet and final.
Lemar’s body crumpled to the ground like a marionette with cut strings, limbs folding at unnatural angles. He didn’t try to break his fall. He didn’t move at all.
The silence that followed seemed to expand, pressing against Isabelle’s eardrums like physical pressure.
Then it hit her.
The sensation slammed into her without warning—a cold, hollow vacuum opening somewhere behind her sternum. Her power flared wildly, a tsunami of feedback as Lemar’s life force guttered and extinguished. She felt the exact moment death claimed him, felt it like a hook embedded in her chest, and suddenly yanked free.
Isabelle staggered backward, one hand flying to the wall for support. Her vision tunneled, black creeping in from the edges as her power spiraled outward in response to the proximity of death. A wave of nausea rolled through her, bile rising hot in her throat.
The fighting around them froze, as combatants on both sides lowered their weapons, the reality of what had just happened sinking in. John stood motionless, shield hanging forgotten at his side. His face drained of color as he stared at Lemar’s crumpled form, incomprehension giving way to dawning horror.
“Lemar?” he called, voice cracking on the name.
No response. No movement.
Isabelle’s power confirmed what her eyes already told her. The emptiness where Lemar’s life force had been pulsed like a wound in her awareness, raw and unmistakable.
John took a stumbling step forward, then another.
“Lemar!” he shouted, the name tearing from his throat.
Karli backed away, her face ashen as she stared at what she’d done. For a moment, she looked like what she was—a young woman in over her head, horrified by the consequences of her strength. Then her survival instinct kicked in. She turned and ran, disappearing through a side door before anyone could move to stop her.
John reached Lemar’s body and fell to his knees beside it. His hands hovered over his chest, trembling violently, as if afraid to confirm what he already knew. When he finally touched Lemar’s shoulder, the gentleness of the gesture made something crack inside Isabelle’s chest.
“No, no, no,” John chanted, voice breaking. “Come on, man. Come on.”
Isabelle forced herself to straighten, fighting against the vertigo that threatened to drop her to her knees. Her power still pulsed erratically, reacting to the death energy saturating the air around them. She could feel it clinging to her skin like oil, slick and impossible to wipe away.
“Oh god...” The words escaped her lips in a broken whisper.
Sam’s shoulders dropped, his entire body seeming to collapse inward. His eyes went flat with the particular grief of a soldier who’d seen this before but never gotten used to it.
Bucky’s reaction was different. He didn’t look away from Lemar’s body. The Winter Soldier had seen too much death to flinch from it now, but the man beneath that programming—that was who Isabelle glimpsed in the slight tremor of his right hand.
The room felt cavernous suddenly, the concrete walls amplifying every sound—John’s ragged breathing, the distant drip of water from rusted pipes, the footsteps as the Flag Smashers scattered.
Isabelle approached John slowly, each step deliberate. The concrete floor felt unsteady beneath her boots, her power still rippling erratically through her system.
“John,” she said, keeping her voice gentle. Not too soft—soldiers hated pity—but careful. The kind of voice you’d use with a wounded animal that might still have fight left in it. “Hey... John. I’m so sorry.”
He didn’t acknowledge her. Didn’t blink. Didn’t seem to breathe. His hands still hovered over Lemar’s chest, trembling with fine, uncontrollable tremors. Blood had begun to pool beneath Lemar’s head, a dark halo spreading across the concrete floor. The sight of it made Isabelle’s throat tighten.
She recognized the particular quality of John’s stillness—had seen it in the mirror after her mother, after Tony. That suspended moment between disbelief and comprehension when the mind simply refused to process what the eyes were seeing. The calm before the storm.
She reached out a hand, her fingers extended toward his shoulder. Not touching yet, just offering contact, connection—something to anchor him to the present moment before the tide of grief pulled him under completely.
“John, we need to—”
The change came in an instant—stillness erupting into violent motion. John’s head snapped toward her, his eyes no longer blank but filled with something feral and wounded. His arm shot out, palm connecting with her sternum in a hard shove that sent her stumbling backward.
“Don’t,” he snarled, the word torn from somewhere deep and primal.
The push wasn’t meant to hurt. It was the gesture of a man drawing a line, establishing a perimeter around his grief that no one was permitted to cross.
Isabelle caught herself, boots skidding slightly on the concrete. Her power flared in an instinctive response, green energy flickering between her fingers before she forced it back under control.
John’s eyes locked with hers for a single, searing moment. The raw anguish there made her breath catch—because beneath the pain, something else was taking root. Something cold and calculated and dangerous. His pupils constricted to pinpoints, jaw muscles bunching beneath skin gone paper-white. This wasn’t just shock or denial. This was rage crystallizing, hardening into purpose with each passing second.
“I’ll stay with him,” Isabelle said, the words leaving her mouth before she fully processed the decision. “Go,” she repeated, more urgently this time. She could feel John’s emotions battering against her empathic senses—raw, jagged shards of pain and hatred and something darker taking root. “She’s getting farther away every second.”
Sam took a half-step toward her, brow furrowed with concern. The blood from his split eyebrow had begun to dry, flaking at the edges. “Izzy—”
“I’ve got this,” she cut him off, voice low but firm. Her eyes met his, trying to convey what she couldn’t say aloud with John right there—that someone needed to stay, to contain whatever was about to happen. That it should be her. “Trust me.”
Sam hesitated, weighing her words against the urgency of the pursuit. She could see the calculation in his eyes—tactical assessment warring with protective instinct.
Bucky was already moving, boots nearly silent on the concrete as he headed for the corridor where Karli had disappeared. He paused at the threshold, glancing back over his shoulder. His eyes locked with Isabelle’s for a fraction of a second. She gave him a small nod, the barest dip of her chin. His jaw tightened, but he returned the gesture before disappearing into the shadows of the hallway.
Sam lingered a moment longer, the weight of command settling visibly across his shoulders. “Radio check every five,” he said finally. “First sign of trouble—”
“I know,” Isabelle said quietly.
He held her gaze for another beat, then turned and followed Bucky, the sound of his footsteps fading quickly as he broke into a run.
Isabelle turned back to John, who knelt beside Lemar’s body like a man frozen in time. His right hand rested on Lemar’s shoulder, fingers digging into the tactical fabric as if he could somehow anchor his friend to this world through sheer force of will.
“John,” she said softly, crouching a few feet away. Close enough to reach him, far enough to dodge if necessary. “Can you hear me?”
For a moment, he didn’t respond. Then his head turned toward her, movements mechanical, as if his neck had forgotten how to bend smoothly. His eyes were dry but glazed, unfocused.
“He was my best friend,” John said, voice hollow. “Since High School. He was the only one who...” He trailed off, gaze drifting back to Lemar’s still face.
Isabelle swallowed hard. “I know.”
“No, you don’t,” he said, the words flat rather than accusatory. “You don’t know what it’s like to be nothing, to have nothing, and then find that one person who believes in you anyway.”
The words hit harder than she expected, because he was right—and wrong—in ways he couldn’t possibly understand.
“You’re right,” she said quietly. “I don’t know what that’s like for you. But I do know what it’s like to lose someone who saw you when no one else did.”
John’s eyes flicked to her face. “He believed in this,” he continued, gesturing vaguely at the shield, at his uniform. “In what we were doing. He believed in me.”
“I know he did,” Isabelle said, inching closer. “And he wouldn’t want you to throw that away now.”
Something in his expression hardened. His gaze shifted toward the corridor where Karli had fled, a muscle in his jaw twitching rhythmically. “She killed him,” he said, each word precise and cold. “He was just trying to help. To do his job. And they—”
Isabelle felt it then—the shift in his energy, the coiling of muscles beneath his uniform. He was going to move, and when he did, it would be with the full force of the serum behind him.
“John, listen to me,” she said, reaching out slowly. “What you’re feeling right now—that rage, that need to hurt someone—I understand it. But if you go after her like this, you’ll cross a line you can’t come back from.”
His eyes snapped to hers, suddenly focused with laser precision. “Maybe some lines need to be crossed.”
The words sent a chill down her spine, not because of what he said, but because of how he said it—calm, measured, as if he’d already made his decision and was simply waiting for the right moment to act on it.
“That’s not what the shield stands for,” she said, trying a different approach. “That’s not what Steve—”
“I’m not Steve Rogers,” John cut her off, voice sharp. “And I’m tired of everyone expecting me to be.” He rose to his feet. The shield gleamed at his side, no longer an emblem of protection but a weapon primed for use.
Isabelle stood with him, keeping her body between his and the exit. “John, please. Just take a breath. Think about what Lemar would want.”
Something flashed across John’s face—pain so acute it was almost physical. For a moment, she thought she’d reached him, found the crack in his armor. Then his eyes hardened again, all emotion draining away like water through sand.
“Get out of my way, Stark,” he said, voice flat and dead.
“I can’t do that.” Isabelle planted her feet.
His gaze traveled over her face, assessing her as a threat rather than an ally. The shift was subtle but unmistakable—the way his weight redistributed, how his fingers flexed at his sides. The serum had changed more than just his body.
“You can’t stop me,” he said, each word clipped and certain.
“Maybe not,” she admitted, feeling her power humming beneath her skin, a low electric current ready to be channeled. “But I can make you hurt while I try.”
Green energy flickered between her fingers, a visible manifestation of what waited just beneath the surface. One touch—that’s all it would take to drop him, serum or no serum. Pain was pain, and pain was her domain.
John’s eyes tracked the flicker of energy, his jaw working as he calculated odds and outcomes. For three heartbeats, neither moved. Then, without warning, John twisted—not toward her as she’d expected, but sideways, toward the window.
“John!” Isabelle lunged after him, boots skidding on concrete dusted with pulverized glass. Her fingers stretched toward his arm, aiming for any part of him she could reach.
Too late.
John launched himself through the window in a controlled dive, his body a missile of purpose and rage. Glass exploded outward.
Isabelle reached the window just in time to see him crash onto the roof of a parked van two stories below. Metal buckled beneath him with a sickening crunch. He absorbed the landing with bent knees, rolling off the crushed roof and hitting the pavement in a controlled crouch that barely slowed his momentum.
“Shit,” Isabelle hissed, watching as he immediately broke into a sprint, shield gleaming on his back as he tore after a Flag Smashers retreating figure at the end of the block. “Shit, shit, shit.”
Her hand flew to her comm.
“Sam, Bucky—Walker’s gone. He jumped out the damn window.” She didn’t wait for a response before cutting the connection.
She turned back to the window, gauging the distance. Glass crunched beneath her boots as she backed up three paces, giving herself room for a running start.
“This is a terrible idea,” she muttered, then sprinted forward.
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The chase begins with a leap from a rooftop and ends in blood on the pavement.
Izzy runs after a man who’s already lost everything—and is ready to destroy whatever’s left.
Through back alleys and crowded streets, she fights to stop him.
But rage doesn’t listen.
And the shield hits harder than she ever imagined.The world is watching.
And Captain America just drew blood.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 63: The World is Watching (Part Two)
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paperplanes221 (Ch. 59): EXACTLY!! Izzy and John are basically Steve and Tony 2.0 in the worst way 😂 Sam’s loving this way too much (and I love writing him that way), but oof—yes. That Ayo scene just hits so hard. It broke Bucky and me both 😭Kai (Ch. 59): Sam is 1000% Izzy’s older brother, teasing included. And Zemo?? Absolutely lives for the chaos. John? Couldn’t relax if you paid him. And Bucky… 😭 He just wanted to do the right thing. WHY MUST THEY HURT HIM.
Chapter 63: The World Is Watching (Part Two)
Summary:
She tries to stop him. Tries to reason. But John’s already gone too far.
The Flag Smasher dies screaming under the shield.
Isabelle fights with everything she has—nerves, pain, breath—but it’s not enough.
Until Sam tackles him. Until Bucky holds her.
Until the silence breaks and the symbol is stained with blood.Captain America has fallen. And everyone saw.
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The leap felt like freedom for exactly one second—that perfect moment of suspension between decisions when gravity hadn’t quite remembered to pull her down. Then reality reasserted itself, and she was falling, the wind rushing past her face, whipping her hair into her eyes, the ground rushing up to meet her with unforgiving speed.
She hit the roof of the same car John had used as a landing pad. Metal caved beneath her with a sickening crunch, the impact reverberating through every bone in her body. Pain bloomed across her shoulder blades and spine. The car’s frame buckled beneath her weight, metal groaning and twisting like it was screaming.
“Shit,” she wheezed when her lungs finally remembered how to work.
Isabelle rolled sideways, letting momentum carry her off the crushed roof. Her palms slapped against rough asphalt first, then she pushed herself up, ignoring how her ribs protested each movement, and scanned the street with narrowed eyes.
People were staring. Of course they were. A woman had just fallen from the sky onto a car. Some had phones out, recording. Great. Just what they needed—more footage of the mess Captain America was making.
There—a flash of blue and red disappearing around a corner three blocks ahead.
“Dammit, Walker,” she muttered, forcing herself into a run.
Her boots pounded against concrete as she pushed forward, weaving between startled pedestrians who jumped out of her way.
“Sam,” she gasped into her comm, lungs burning as she pushed herself faster. “Walker’s heading east. Moving fast. Too fast.” She swallowed hard, tasting copper.
Static crackled in her ear for a heartbeat before Sam’s voice came through, tight with the same tension that was coiling in her own chest.
“Copy. We’re circling back. Try to slow him down, but Iz—” he paused, and she could hear the unspoken warning in his voice, “—don’t engage if you can help it. Not alone.”
“Too late for that,” she muttered, deliberately not into the comm. Sam would only worry, and worry would slow him down. They couldn’t afford slow, not with John on a rampage.
The wind cut across her face as she pushed herself harder, her enhanced muscles burning with the effort. Ahead, John was moving erratically, cutting through alleys and doubling back, as if he could sense her pursuit.
“John!” she shouted when she got close enough, her voice carrying over the ambient noise of the busy street. “Stop!”
He glanced back, just for a second. His face was twisted with something beyond rage—a grief so raw and violent it made her recoil.
Isabelle’s mind raced as she followed, acutely aware that they were entering a heavily populated area. Civilians were everywhere, potential collateral damage in John’s blind pursuit of vengeance. She saw confused faces turn to shock, then fear, as Captain America tore through the streets like a man possessed.
She concentrated on John’s left leg, visualizing the complex network of muscle fibers beneath his uniform—the quadriceps, hamstrings, gastrocnemius—and mentally twisted them into agonizing knots. The technique was precise, targeted, something she’d perfected over years of practice. Not enough to cause permanent damage, but enough to slow him down.
His left leg buckled beneath him, and he went down hard on one knee with a strangled cry that was equal parts pain and rage. His gloved hand clutched at his thigh, fingers digging into the muscle as if he could physically tear away the cramp she’d inflicted.
The Flag Smasher, a man, seized the opportunity, gaining precious seconds as he disappeared around a corner, his footsteps fading rapidly.
“John!” Isabelle closed the distance between them. “John, please! You have to stop this!”
John’s head snapped toward her, and the look on his face made her falter. His eyes were bloodshot, pupils blown wide with adrenaline. Tears and sweat mingled on his face, tracking through the dirt and blood smeared across his cheeks. This wasn’t Captain America anymore. This was a wounded animal, cornered and dangerous.
“I said—” John’s fingers tightened around the shield, knuckles whitening beneath blood-smeared gloves. His shoulders tensed, coiling like a spring.
The shield blurred through the air with terrifying speed, catching her full across the face with a sickening crack that reverberated through her skull. Pain exploded behind her eyes, white-hot and blinding. The taste of copper flooded her mouth as her lip split open. Her vision fractured into kaleidoscope fragments, the world tilting violently as she stumbled backward.
“Stay out of my way, Stark,” John snarled, his voice a guttural rasp that barely sounded human. Spittle flew from his lips, his face contorted into something feral and unrecognizable
“Fuck!” Isabelle’s hand flew to her face, fingers coming away slick with blood. Her nose throbbed with each heartbeat, definitely broken. The cartilage shifted unnaturally beneath her fingertips, sending fresh waves of nausea rolling through her stomach. Blood poured freely down her chin, spattering onto the concrete in crimson droplets.
Her concentration shattered like glass, the carefully maintained grip on John’s muscles dissolving instantly. The cramping in his leg released, and before she could blink away the stars dancing across her vision, he was already moving, each powerful stride carrying him farther away.
“Goddammit—fuckin’ shit—” she hissed, grabbing her nose between trembling fingers. With a sharp, practiced movement, she twisted the cartilage back into place with a wet crunch that made her eyes water. Fresh pain radiated across her face, but she forced herself to breathe through it, letting the serum in her blood begin its work.
A loud crash echoed through the street ahead. The Flag Smasher had reappeared, desperately hurling a brick at his pursuer. With inhuman reflexes, John’s arm shot up, the brick connecting with his forearm and crumbling to dust against the uniform. The impact didn’t even slow him down.
“Where is she?!” John roared, his voice carrying over the chaos of the street. “Where’s Karli?!”
The Flag Smasher tore through the crowd, desperation giving his movements a frantic edge. People scattered before him—first with irritated glances as he shoved past, then with widening eyes as they recognized the uniform of Captain America in pursuit, and finally with genuine terror as Sick Girl sprinted after them both, blood still streaming from her nose.
The chase spilled from the narrow side streets into a plaza—some kind of public square with wrought-iron benches and decorative planters. It should have offered more room to maneuver, but the space teemed with people. Tourists with cameras. Families with children. All potential casualties.
“Get out of the way!” Isabelle screamed, her lungs burning with each breath.
People scattered like startled birds. Phones came up, recording.
The Flag Smasher stumbled, his foot catching on the edge of a planter. He went down hard, scrambling to regain his footing, but those precious seconds cost him everything. John was on him in an instant, seizing him by the collar and hurling him against the nearest wall with bone-jarring force.
The Flag Smasher’s eyes were wide with terror, his hands coming up in surrender. “Please—I don’t—”
John slammed him against the wall again, harder this time. The man’s head snapped back, connecting with the brick. Blood began to trickle from his hairline. “You killed Lemar! You and your terrorist friends!” John’s voice broke, grief fracturing the rage. “He was my friend! He was my partner!”
Isabelle pushed through the last of the fleeing crowd, her heart hammering against her ribs. “John, stop!”
John didn’t even look at her. His attention was fixed on the Flag Smasher, whose terrified eyes darted between John and Isabelle, silently pleading.
“I didn’t—I swear I didn’t kill anyone,” the man gasped, his accent thickening with fear. “Karli is the one who—”
“Liar!” John hurled the man to the ground.
He hit the pavement with a sickening thud, the wind knocked from his lungs. Before he could recover, John was on him, one knee pressing into his chest, pinning him in place.
Isabelle’s heart leaped into her throat as she watched the scene unfold in horrifying slow motion. John’s face contorted into a mask of pure rage, his eyes wild and unseeing as he raised the shield high above his head. The Flag Smasher’s terrified pleas were drowned out by the blood rushing in Isabelle’s ears.
The shield came crashing down with a sickening crunch, slamming into the Flag Smasher’s chest. The man’s body jerked violently, a guttural cry of agony tearing from his throat. Blood sprayed in an arc, spattering across the shield and John’s uniform. Isabelle felt bile rise in her throat as John raised the shield again, his movements mechanical and relentless. The Flag Smasher’s cries had turned to weak, gurgling gasps. Blood pooled beneath him, spreading across the pavement in a crimson stain.
The crowd around them had gone deathly silent, the only sounds the rhythmic impact of the shield and John’s ragged breathing. Isabelle watched, paralyzed, as the Flag Smasher’s body gave one final, violent jerk. His eyes, wide with terror and pain, suddenly emptied. The tension drained from his limbs. A final, rattling exhale escaped his lips.
Then nothing—
Except for dozens of witnesses to Captain America’s fall from grace, to the moment the symbol became a weapon. Isabelle could almost feel the collective horror of the crowd pressing against her skin, a physical weight that made it hard to breathe.
“John,” she whispered, blood from her broken nose trickling down her throat, making her words thick and slurred. “It’s over. Please…stop.”
John’s head snapped up at the sound of her voice. His eyes, wild and unfocused, locked onto her with an intensity that made her skin crawl. Blood spattered his face in a macabre constellation, turning the blue of his uniform to a sickening purple where it had soaked through. His chest heaved with exertion, each breath coming in short, animalistic pants.
“Where is she?” he snarled, his face contorting into something barely recognizable as human. “Where’s Karli? I know you’ve been tracking her!”
He rose from his crouch over the dead man, the shield hanging from his hand, dripping steadily onto the pavement. The sound of each droplet hitting concrete seemed unnaturally loud in the silence.
Isabelle took an instinctive step back, her body reacting to the threat before her mind could fully comprehend it.
“John,” she tried again, forcing her voice to remain steady despite the fear clawing at her insides. She raised her hands slowly, palms out in a calming gesture. “This isn’t you. The serum—it amplifies everything. Not just muscle. Everything you are.”
“You don’t understand,” he growled, his eyes darting wildly between Isabelle and the silent crowd that encircled them. The veins in his neck stood out like cords, pulsing with each frantic heartbeat. “None of you understand what it takes to be Captain America.”
He gestured violently with the shield. Several onlookers flinched back, but no one ran. They were too transfixed by the nightmare unfolding before them.
“They gave me this—” John’s voice cracked, raw emotion bleeding through the rage, “—they made me this, and then they tied my hands! They want me to smile for the cameras while terrorists kill my partner!”
His face twisted, grief momentarily overtaking the fury. For a heartbeat, Isabelle saw the man beneath the monster—the soldier drowning in expectations he could never meet, crushed under the weight of a legacy he didn’t understand.
“This,” he gestured to the body at his feet, “this is your fault. All of you.”
The accusation hung in the air for a fraction of a second before John lunged toward her with terrifying speed. Isabelle’s body moved on autopilot as she ducked sideways. Her hand shot out, fingers closing around his wrist in a grip that would have crushed ordinary bones.
Isabelle channeled every ounce of fear and pain into her powers, sending a jolt of pure agony through his nervous system. She targeted the complex network of muscles and tendons in his arm, visualizing them seizing, cramping, twisting into knots that would temporarily incapacitate even a super soldier.
John’s agonized scream pierced the air, his body convulsing violently as his arm contorted at an unnatural angle. The shield clattered to the ground, the sound obscenely loud in the silent plaza. Isabelle’s stomach lurched as she caught sight of the Flag Smasher’s body again—the chest caved in, the face frozen in a rictus of terror, eyes staring sightlessly at the sky. He was dead, and nothing would bring him back.
A voice slithered through Isabelle’s mind, dark and familiar. It wasn’t FRIDAY’s clinical tones or even her own thoughts.
Let me out, it whispered. Let me take control. I can stop him. I can break him.
The voice came with a familiar pressure behind her eyes, a tingling at her fingertips that promised power—raw, unfiltered destruction.
Isabelle staggered back, her vision swimming. She lashed out blindly, sending another wave of pain towards John, focusing on the cluster of nerves at the base of his spine.
He stumbled, his movements becoming jerky and uncoordinated, but his rage seemed to push him through the agony. The serum in his blood was working against her, healing the damage almost as quickly as she could inflict it.
“Stop!” Isabelle pleaded, her voice thick with blood and desperation. She was acutely aware of the phones still recording, of the eyes watching Captain America’s descent into madness. “Everyone is watching, John! The whole world is watching you right now!”
John’s eyes, wild and unfocused, locked onto her. A vein pulsed at his temple, grotesquely pronounced against his sweat-slicked skin. His lips pulled back in a snarl, blood and spittle flying as he growled, “I... don’t... care...”
John closed the distance between them with inhuman speed, the shield a blur of red, white, and blue. Isabelle tried to dodge, but her ribs screamed in protest, slowing her just enough for John to catch her. His hand tangled in her hair, yanking her head back with brutal force. The pain was immediate and blinding, tears springing to her eyes.
Her scream was cut short as the edge of the shield connected with her temple. Her world exploded in pain and disorientation, bright spots dancing across her vision. The impact rattled through her skull, setting off a high-pitched ringing in her ears that drowned out the gasps of the crowd.
“You think you’re better than me?” John snarled, his face inches from hers, close enough that she could feel the heat of his breath.
He punctuated the words with another blow, this time to her midsection. The air rushed from Isabelle’s lungs in a pained whoosh. Her diaphragm spasmed, refusing to draw breath as pain radiated outward from her solar plexus.
John’s assault was relentless. He tossed her around like a rag doll, each impact sending shockwaves of agony through her body. The back of her head connected with concrete, stars exploding behind her eyelids. Her shoulder wrenched backward at an unnatural angle as he flung her against a bench.
Isabelle tried to fight back, to use her powers, but her concentration shattered with each blow. Her mind couldn’t focus long enough to target his nervous system, to find the pressure points that would bring him down. The voice in her head grew more insistent, a desperate keening that matched the panic rising in her chest.
Let me out. Let me OUT.
With a final, brutal shove, John pinned her to the ground. The rough pavement scraped against her back as he straddled her. Isabelle’s eyes widened in panic as his hands wrapped around her throat, fingers digging into her flesh with inhuman strength. His thumbs pressed against her windpipe, cutting off her air with precise, calculated pressure.
“You should have stayed out of my way. I told you to stay out of my way!” John hissed, his face contorted with a rage that seemed to consume him from the inside out.
Desperately, she clawed at his arms, bucked beneath him, tried to throw him off, but he outweighed her by at least fifty pounds of muscle.
Black spots danced at the edges of Isabelle’s vision as she struggled for air. Her lungs burned, desperate for oxygen. FRIDAY’s voice crackled in her ear, the usually crisp tones distorted by the damage to her comms.
“Critical oxygen deprivation detected. Heart rate decreasing to dangerous levels. Backup requested. Sam Wilson and James Barnes are approaching your location. ETA forty-five seconds.”
The voice in her head was screaming now, no longer a whisper but a desperate howl that seemed to reverberate through her skull. LET ME OUT! LET ME SAVE US!
With the last of her strength, Isabelle focused on John’s nerve endings, sending jolts of white-hot pain through his body. She visualized his nerves as electrical wires, overloading them with sensation until they short-circuited. It was crude, lacking her usual precision, but it was all she had left.
John’s grip loosened fractionally, a spasm of pain crossing his face. But his teeth were gritted in determination, the serum in his blood pushing him through agony that would have incapacitated a normal man.
“You’re weak,” John snarled, giving her a violent shake. Her head snapped back, connecting with the pavement again. His face, spattered with blood—both his and the Flag Smasher’s—loomed inches from hers. “You’re all weak. I’m the only one who can do what needs to be done.”
Suddenly, a body slammed into John, tearing him away from Isabelle with enough force to send both men skidding across the pavement. The crushing pressure on her throat vanished.
“John! Stand down!” Sam’s voice cut through the ringing in her ears, authoritative and razor-sharp with anger.
Isabelle’s vision swam, the world tilting and spinning around her as she tried to focus. Each breath scraped like sandpaper against her raw throat. She rolled onto her hands and knees, her arms trembling beneath her weight as violent coughs wracked her body. Blood and saliva dripped onto the concrete beneath her.
The sounds of the fight—grunts of exertion, the metallic clang of the shield, Sam’s wings cutting through air—seemed to come from everywhere and nowhere at once, echoing strangely in her damaged ears. Her fingers scraped against the rough pavement as she tried to push herself upright, but her muscles refused to cooperate, still recovering from the oxygen deprivation.
Heavy footsteps approached from behind, and Isabelle instinctively tensed, preparing for another attack. But then gentle hands were on her shoulders, turning her carefully. Through the blur of tears and blood, she found herself looking into Bucky’s steel-blue eyes, his face tight with barely contained fury and something else—raw, unfiltered concern.
“Bucky,” she tried to say, but his name emerged as a broken, unintelligible rasp. Her throat felt like it had been scraped hollow, each swallow a fresh exercise in agony.
“I’m here,” Bucky murmured, his voice low and steady despite the chaos unfolding behind them. His metal hand cradled the back of her head with surprising gentleness, supporting her as she swayed. “I got you, doll. Just breathe.”
His flesh hand ghosted over the bruises blooming across her neck, his touch feather-light but still enough to make her flinch. His jaw tightened, a muscle twitching beneath his skin as he took in the damage John had inflicted.
Isabelle tried to speak again, but another coughing fit seized her. She doubled over, her forehead pressing against Bucky’s chest as her body shuddered. His arms encircled her immediately, solid and secure, anchoring her as pain pulsed through her in waves.
A small, involuntary whimper escaped her as she tried to straighten up, fresh pain lancing through her ribs.
“Ow,” she added pathetically, the understatement of the century.
“Easy,” Bucky soothed, his metal arm sliding around her waist. The vibranium was cool against her fevered skin, even through the fabric of her suit. He supported her weight with practiced gentleness as he helped her into a sitting position. “Your windpipe’s bruised. Don’t try to talk yet.”
Isabelle felt the first tingling warmth of her healing factor kicking in—a sensation like pins and needles but deeper, cellular. It always started this way: the initial rush of heat followed by targeted pain as tissues knit themselves back together at accelerated rates. Her throat burned from the inside out as cartilage and muscle began reconstructing. The process that should have felt miraculous instead felt like swallowing molten glass.
She pressed her fingertips gingerly against her neck, wincing as they made contact with tender flesh. Already, dark purple bruises were blooming beneath her skin in the perfect shape of John’s fingers.
Sam stood protectively in front of them, wings half-extended like a shield. The late afternoon sun caught the edge of his wingsuit, casting a red-tinged shadow across the blood-stained pavement. John lurched forward several feet away, his movements erratic and unpredictable, like a marionette with half its strings cut.
But something in John’s eyes had changed. The blind rage seemed to melt away in real time, like ice under a blowtorch, replaced by a dawning horror as he took in the scene around him. His gaze darted from the blood-stained shield—vibranium smeared with crimson that would never truly wash away—to the crowd of onlookers, their phones raised to capture every moment of the brutal spectacle.
Isabelle watched the realization hit him in waves. First, the Flag Smasher’s body, chest caved in, eyes staring sightlessly at the cloudless sky. Then the blood—so much blood—coating his hands, splattered across the star on his chest. Finally, the sea of horrified faces, dozens of witnesses to the moment Captain America became something else entirely.
John’s face contorted—anguish, disbelief, horror cycling across his features in rapid succession. His breathing grew ragged, shoulders heaving with each desperate inhale. The shield trembled in his grip, vibranium catching the sunlight in flashes that made Isabelle’s head throb.
Without a word, John stumbled backward, his movements jerky and uncoordinated like a man waking from a nightmare only to find the blood on his hands was real. He turned and ran, disappearing into the maze of city streets with inhuman speed, leaving behind nothing but echoes and consequences.
Sam took a half-step to follow, muscles tensing beneath his suit, wings adjusting microscopically in preparation for flight. But he hesitated, turning back to Isabelle with concern etched across his features. The lines around his eyes deepened as he knelt beside her, bringing himself to her eye level.
“Iz,” he started, his voice tight with worry as he scanned her injuries. His eyes darted methodically over each bruise and cut, the pararescue training never quite leaving him. “How bad is it? Can you move?”
Isabelle tried to speak, but her throat felt raw and swollen. She managed a weak nod, immediately regretting the movement as fresh waves of agony radiated from her temple where the shield had connected.
“I’m... okay,” she croaked, attempting to push herself up, planting her palms against the rough concrete. Her arms trembled with the effort, muscles spasming from the aftermath of oxygen deprivation. Bucky’s steady hand on her back provided much-needed support, his touch firm but gentle against her spine.
“Bullshit,” Bucky muttered, his voice low enough that only she could hear it. The concern in his tone belied the harshness of the word. “You’re not okay.”
Her ribs shifted beneath her skin, bone fragments seeking their proper alignment. The cartilage in her nose realigned with a wet, internal crunch that made her stomach lurch.
“We need to move,” Sam said, his eyes scanning the growing crowd. “This is about to become a circus.”
As if on cue, distant sirens wailed, growing steadily louder. The crowd around them had doubled in size, people drawn to the violence like moths to flame. Phones remained raised, recording every grimace, every labored breath, every drop of blood that fell from Isabelle’s split lip onto the pavement.
“Can you stand?” Bucky asked, his flesh hand hovering near her elbow, ready to catch her if she fell.
Isabelle gritted her teeth and nodded, determined not to be carried out of this mess like some damsel. She’d been beaten by a super soldier, and nearly strangled to death—but she’d be damned if she’d let the world see her broken.
“Just...” she swallowed hard, forcing words through her damaged throat, “give me a second.”
The voice in her head had quieted to a dull murmur, but she could still feel it there, waiting. Watching. The rage and fear that had fueled it were subsiding, but something else was taking their place—a cold, calculating anger that felt dangerously like clarity.
She broke off as another coughing fit seized her, doubling her over. Each cough felt like broken glass in her lungs, scraping against raw tissue. Bucky’s hand moved to her back, rubbing small circles between her shoulder blades as she struggled to regain control.
“We need to go,” Sam repeated, more urgently this time. The sirens were close now, maybe two blocks away. “Bucky, can you—”
“Yeah,” Bucky nodded, understanding the unspoken request. With careful movements, he slid one arm beneath Isabelle’s knees and the other around her shoulders. “Sorry about this, doll.”
Before she could protest, he lifted her against his chest in one smooth motion. The sudden change in position sent a fresh wave of dizziness crashing over her, and she had to fight the urge to vomit. Her head lolled against his shoulder, her body betraying her determination to stay strong.
“I can walk,” she insisted weakly, even as her fingers curled instinctively into the fabric of his jacket, seeking stability.
“Sure you can,” Bucky replied, his tone gentle but brooking no argument. “Just not right now.”
As he carried her away from the scene, Isabelle caught one last glimpse of the Flag Smasher’s body over Bucky’s shoulder. In death, he looked younger somehow—barely more than a kid.
The voice in her head stirred again, whispering words she couldn’t quite make out. But the sentiment was clear enough:
This isn’t over. Not by a long shot.
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It’s not over. Not even close.
There’s no plan.
No backup.Just three bruised hearts heading into the dark,
and the reckoning waiting at the end of it.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 64: The World is Watching (Part Three)
Chapter 64: The World Is Watching (Part Three)
Summary:
A rusted warehouse. A bloodstained shield. A man coming undone.
Sam steps forward.
Bucky holds the line.
Isabelle takes the hit.Walker isn't sorry. He's spiraling.
And if they can't stop him now,
he'll never stop himself.
Notes:
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Here we are, the last two parts of The World Is Watching! These last two are all-out action, and honestly? I had SO much fun writing them. Getting to write how each of them fight, and how they fight together was a challenge but I think it totally paid off! I'm genuinely really proud of how these sequences turned out, and I hope you enjoy them!
As always, thank you so much for reading! 💚💚💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "I'm Pissed" by Thumpasaurus
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Chapter Text
They ducked into a narrow alley three blocks from the plaza, the shadows swallowing them whole. Brick walls pressed in from both sides, tagged with faded graffiti and years of urban decay. A rusted dumpster provided meager cover from the street, its metallic stench mingling with the sour odor of rotting food from the boarded-up bakery beside it.
Sam moved first, checking both ends of the alley. “Clear,” he muttered, shoulders still rigid with adrenaline as he turned back to Bucky.
Isabelle remained cradled in Bucky’s arms, her body a collection of sharp angles and barely contained fury. The metal of his left arm was cool against her skin, a stark contrast to the heat radiating from her bruised throat. She could feel his heartbeat through his chest—steady, controlled, nothing like the frantic rhythm of her own.
“I’m good,” she croaked, the words scraping past her damaged vocal cords. “Put me down.”
Bucky studied her face, his expression carefully neutral in that way she’d come to recognize meant he was assessing a tactical situation. “You sure?” His voice was low, rough at the edges but gentle.
She nodded once, sharp and definitive.
Bucky lowered her carefully, his hands lingering at her waist for a fraction of a second longer than necessary, ready to catch her if she fell.
Her feet touched the cracked asphalt, and her legs trembled, threatening to buckle. Just once. She locked her knees, found her center of gravity, and straightened her spine through sheer force of will. The world tilted dangerously for a moment before righting itself. She wiped a streak of blood from under her nose with the back of her hand, leaving a crimson smear across her pale skin.
Sam stepped closer, his eyes widening as they fixed on her throat. The harsh shadows of the alley couldn’t hide the evidence of John’s rage—finger-shaped bruises blooming across her skin like violent watercolors, purple-black against ashen white.
“Jesus,” he muttered, the word carrying equal parts anger and concern. His hand lifted slightly, as if he wanted to reach out but thought better of it. “He really—”
“I said I’m good,” Isabelle cut in, her voice sharper this time, brittle as glass. She swallowed, wincing at the raw pain. The movement drew Sam’s eyes back to the bruises, to the perfect imprint of the new Captain America’s hand on her throat. She tapped on her comm with a trembling finger. “FRIDAY, status on Walker?”
“Tracking ongoing—” FRIDAY’s voice crackled in her ear. “Alert: local emergency services just logged a report—caller described a man matching John Walker’s appearance. Location: Warehouse District. Four minutes ago.”
Isabelle’s pulse quickened, adrenaline cutting through the fog of pain. She looked up, meeting Sam’s eyes first—steady, already shifting into tactical mode—then Bucky’s, where concern lingered beneath a carefully constructed mask of neutrality.
“That’s our shot,” she said.
Bucky’s jaw tightened, the plates in his metal arm recalibrating with a soft whir as he processed the information. “Warehouse district,” he repeated, his voice low and measured. He rolled his shoulders slightly, already mapping exit routes and vantage points in his mind. “Not a lot of foot traffic. Good for a standoff.”
“Worse for him,” Sam said grimly. He adjusted his wing pack. His eyes never left Isabelle’s bruised throat as he spoke. “He’s cornered. That makes him dangerous.”
A bitter laugh escaped her before she could stop it, sending fresh pain lancing through her neck. “He was already dangerous.” Isabelle pressed her fingertips gingerly against tender skin.
The three of them stood in silence for a moment, the air thick with what had just happened—and what was about to. Then, without a word, they started moving. Shoulder to shoulder. No plan. No backup.
Just the three of them, heading toward a storm they could no longer avoid.
The warehouse loomed at the end of the street—rusted, silent, abandoned in every sense but one. Sam led the way through a side entrance where the door hung crooked on its hinges. The interior stretched before them, cavernous and dim.
And there, in the center of it all, was John Walker.
He wasn’t standing guard or hiding. He was crouched in a shaft of light, head bowed, shoulders hunched forward. The shield lay clutched in his white-knuckled grip, its vibranium surface still stained with blood that looked black in the dim light. He was talking to himself, his voice a low, continuous murmur that echoed in the cavernous space. His breathing came in ragged pulls, too fast and shallow.
Isabelle hung back a half-step behind Sam and Bucky, her eyes fixed on John’s hands—the same hands that had closed around her throat less than an hour ago. Her pulse quickened, a rush of adrenaline flooding her system. The bruises on her neck throbbed in warning.
As they approached, a piece of metal shifted beneath Sam’s boot. The sound, small as it was, carried.
John’s head snapped up, the movement so sudden it was almost inhuman. His eyes were wide, pupils dilated to black pools that seemed to swallow the blue around them. For a long, unsettling moment, he stared through them rather than at them, as if they were apparitions he couldn’t quite place.
Then something shifted behind his eyes. A mask sliding into place.
Like he hadn’t just murdered someone in broad daylight.
Like nothing had happened at all.
“Time to go to work,” John said flatly, devoid of the manic energy that had consumed him in the plaza. He turned away from them, moving toward a stack of wooden crates as if this were just another day.
“Walker,” Sam called after him. He stepped forward, hands slightly raised, palms out—the universal gesture of de-escalation.
John paused mid-stride. He glanced back over his shoulder, his expression eerily calm. His gaze drifted over the three of them.
“Stop,” Sam said, his voice firm but even. “Don’t do this.”
John doubled back slowly, each footstep deliberate. He dragged in a breath that seemed to catch halfway, his chest expanding unevenly. When he spoke again, his voice had risen, the calm facade cracking to reveal the rage beneath.
“Do what?” he demanded, gesturing sharply with the shield. “You saw what happened. You saw it!” His eyes darted between them, searching for understanding, for validation. The desperation in his voice echoed off the metal walls. “You know what I had to do!”
His gaze locked onto Isabelle, and something dark flickered across his features—recognition, defensiveness, a flash of something that might have been shame before hardening into justification.
“You were in the way,” he said, jabbing a finger in her direction. His voice had taken on a pleading quality, as if trying to make her understand. “You weren’t listening. You were—”
“She was trying to stop you from killing someone,” Bucky cut in, stepping forward until he was partially blocking John’s view of Isabelle. His voice was controlled, but Isabelle could hear the dangerous edge beneath the words, like a blade wrapped in velvet.
“I had to kill him!” John insisted, his voice cracking. The composed soldier was gone completely, replaced by a man unraveling at the seams. Sweat beaded along his hairline despite the cool air. “He killed Lemar!”
“No, he didn’t,” Bucky said. The words fell between them like stones, heavy with finality. “You know that.”
John scoffed, the sound raw and wounded. He shook his head hard, as if trying to dislodge Bucky’s words from his ears. His breathing quickened, shoulders rising and falling in an uneven rhythm. The shield trembled slightly in his grip.
“It was the heat of battle, okay?” Sam said, stepping forward an inch. “If you explain what happened, they’ll consider your service record. Your medals. Your history.”
His eyes flicked to the shield, where dried blood had congealed into dark patches against the vibranium. The evidence couldn’t be wiped away—not the blood, not what John had done.
“But you’ve gotta stop now,” Sam continued, inching another step closer. His voice dropped to something gentler, almost kind—the voice he’d use with a fellow soldier who’d seen too much. “You gotta give me the shield, man.”
For a long moment, the only sound was the distant wail of sirens.
Then John slowly lifted his gaze.
“Oh,” he said, the single syllable cracking like ice breaking underfoot. Something shifted in his expression—realization blooming into betrayal. “So that’s what this is.” He took a step backward, his boot grinding against broken glass. His grip on the shield tightened until his entire arm trembled with the strain. “You almost had me,” he said, a bitter smile twisting his mouth.
“You made a mistake,” Sam insisted, the gentleness in his voice fraying at the edges. “That’s all this is. That’s all we’re saying.”
John’s laugh was hollow, echoing off the warehouse walls like something broken. “A mistake?” He gestured sharply with the shield. “Is that what you called it when you put down bad guys? When Rogers did?” His eyes darted between them, searching for something he couldn’t find. “Or is it only a mistake when I do it?”
“It’s not the same,” Isabelle said. She stepped forward, ignoring Bucky’s subtle shift to block her. “And you know it.”
John’s mouth twitched into something too jagged to be called a smile. His eyes darted between the three of them, calculating odds, measuring distances. “You don’t wanna do this,” he warned, voice dropping to something dark and dangerous. The shield rose slightly, angling toward them.
A heavy silence fell.
Then Bucky looked up at him, jaw tight, eyes locked on the shield—the shield that had been Steve’s, that should have been Sam’s, that was never meant for the hands that now held it.
“...Yeah,” he said softly, the word carrying the weight of inevitability. His metal arm whirred quietly as his fist clenched. “Yeah. We do.”
Bucky moved first.
John’s eyes widened a fraction—surprise, then control, then something darker. He planted his feet, shield angling upward, waiting for the collision. Bucky feinted left, then drove right, metal fist connecting with John’s jaw in a sickening crack that reverberated up his arm. The impact should have dropped him. Would have dropped most men.
John’s head snapped sideways, spittle and blood arcing through the dim light. But he didn’t fall. Instead, he rolled with the punch, absorbing the force like it was nothing more than a tap. His eyes found Bucky’s, a flash of something almost grateful beneath the rage. Like he’d been waiting for this. Like he’d been desperate for it.
“That’s all you got?” John snarled, blood staining his teeth pink.
He countered with a vicious right hook that Bucky barely dodged. Bucky pivoted on his back foot, using the momentum to drive a roundhouse kick toward John’s exposed ribs. John caught his leg mid-strike, one arm wrapping around Bucky’s calf. Their eyes locked for a fraction of a second—John’s wild and dilated, Bucky’s cold and focused—before John twisted Bucky’s leg, shoving him backward and sending him skidding across the concrete.
Sam moved that instant, swooping in from John’s blind side. He connected with a clean jab to John’s ribs, the impact making a dull thud against him. John barely flinched. He arched at the waist, his elbow snapping back like a spring-loaded trap.
It caught Sam with a force that lifted him off his feet, launching him backward through the stale warehouse air. He groaned, low and pained, one hand instinctively clutching his midsection.
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs as she watched Sam struggle to rise, his face contorted in pain. “Shit,” she muttered, breath catching in her throat. Her gaze darted between Bucky regrouping and Sam struggling to breathe. “Shit, we’re actually doing this—”
No time to think. No time to plan.
She charged.
Isabelle slammed into John’s midsection with every ounce of her weight behind it, arms locking around his waist like steel bands. She drove forward with her legs, using the momentum to propel them both backward.
John’s boots skidded across the concrete as he tried to brace against her assault. His free hand came down, fingers digging into her shoulder, trying to pry her off. But Isabelle held on, teeth gritted, muscles burning with the effort.
They crashed into a support beam with enough force to rattle the whole structure. Metal groaned above them, rust and debris raining down in a fine mist. John’s back hit first, the impact forcing a strangled grunt from his throat. The shield clattered against the beam, the vibranium singing a high, clear note that echoed through the space.
Isabelle felt the vibration through her entire body, her teeth aching with it. She pulled back just enough to drive her knee upward, aiming for his groin. John twisted at the last second, taking the blow on his thigh instead. His face contorted with rage, all pretense of control evaporating.
“You shouldn’t have interfered,” he hissed, his breath hot against her face. “You’re just making it worse—”
Bucky was already moving, gripping the edge of the shield. Every muscle in his body strained as he pulled, trying to rip the vibranium from John’s grasp. His jaw was set in grim determination, a muscle twitching beneath the skin. His other hand clamped down on John’s forearm, fingers digging into flesh.
Isabelle braced herself in front of John, digging her heels into the concrete floor, her shoulder pressed against his chest. She could feel his heart hammering wildly against her, too fast, too erratic—the rhythm of a man coming apart at the seams. She gritted her teeth, pushing back against him as he thrashed between them like a cornered animal.
“Let go of the shield,” she growled, her damaged voice scraping past the bruises on her throat. “It’s over, Walker.”
Something dangerous flashed in John’s eyes—a split-second warning before his body tensed like a coiled spring. “Nothing’s over,” he snarled.
John twisted with explosive force, the movement so sudden that neither Bucky nor Isabelle had time to counter it. His elbow snapped back, catching Bucky square in the face with a sickening crack. Bucky’s head whipped backward, eyes momentarily unfocused from the impact.
The momentum sent him stumbling, arms windmilling for balance before he crashed into a nearby stack of wooden crates. They splintered beneath his weight, sending up a cloud of dust and debris.
Isabelle’s focus shifted for just a fraction of a second—a critical error.
John seized the opening, spinning toward her with terrifying speed. His hand shot out, fingers tangling in her hair, grabbing a fistful near the roots. Pain bloomed across her scalp as he yanked downward, forcing her off-balance.
Too fast to stop. Too quick to dodge.
His hand connected with her cheek in a vicious backhand, the impact snapping her head to the side. Lights exploded behind her eyes as pain radiated through her skull. Before she could recover, he drove his boot into her chest with brutal force. Her back slammed into a steel support beam with enough force to rattle her teeth.
Then—
A blast of air ripped through the warehouse, the distinctive high-pitched whine of Sam’s jetpack. Through blurred eyes, she saw Sam launch himself back into the fight, his body a blur as he flipped midair. Both boots connected with John’s chest, sending him staggering backward.
The shield wobbled in John’s grip, his balance momentarily compromised.
“Drop it!” Sam shouted, his voice echoing off the metal walls. He pivoted in the air, wings expanding to their full span with a mechanical hiss. The edge connected with John’s wrist with a sharp crack. John’s fingers spasmed, the shield tilting precariously in his grip. For a fraction of a second, it looked like it might slip free.
Sam lunged for it, teeth gritted, eyes locked on the prize. His fingers were inches from the vibranium edge when John’s free hand shot out, catching Sam’s forearm in a vise-like grip.
John’s eyes were wild, pupils blown wide with adrenaline and rage. The veins in his neck stood out like cords as he twisted, using Sam’s momentum against him. Sam grunted, wings flaring as he tried to compensate, to pull free. The shield arced through the air, red, white, and blue, aimed at Sam’s unprotected side. The blow would shatter ribs, rupture organs—
CLANG!
The sound reverberated through the warehouse like a church bell, metal striking metal with enough force to make the air itself vibrate. Bucky stood between them, his vibranium arm raised to intercept the shield. His feet were planted wide, every muscle in his body tense.
“Not happening,” Bucky gritted out, his eyes locked with John’s.
Sam seized the momentary opening as John’s attention split between opponents. He activated his jetpack with a practiced flick of his wrist, the sudden burst of compressed air propelling him upward with a high-pitched whine that echoed off the warehouse walls. The familiar sensation of weightlessness gripped him as he executed a tight flip, his body coiling and uncoiling in mid-air.
John tracked the movement, his eyes narrowing to calculating slits. The wild rage from moments before crystallized into something colder, more focused—the combat-ready assessment of a trained soldier. His pupils contracted, muscles tensing in anticipation.
Sam angled his descent, aiming a devastating kick toward John’s temple. The air whistled past his ears as he accelerated downward.
“Sam, left!” Bucky’s warning came a fraction too late.
John pivoted with unnatural speed, the serum-enhanced reflexes making him a blur of motion. He ducked beneath Sam’s strike, the boot missing his head by millimeters. In the same fluid movement, he planted his feet and drove his shoulder into Bucky’s chest, sending him staggering backward into a stack of rusted metal barrels.
The impact reverberated through the warehouse, a hollow, metallic boom that momentarily drowned out the sound of their labored breathing.
Isabelle didn’t hesitate. She rushed in from John’s blind side, keeping low, her footfalls nearly silent against the concrete floor. Her fists clenched tight, knuckles white with tension.
She struck with precision—left hook to the kidney, right jab to the floating rib, uppercut aimed at the soft underside of his jaw. Each impact sent shockwaves up her arms, like hitting reinforced concrete. The serum had made him dense, resilient in ways that defied normal human limitations.
John grunted, more in annoyance than pain. He twisted away from her assault, his movements economical, controlled—so different from the wild, unhinged man who had attacked her in the plaza. This was the soldier, the decorated captain, the man the government had chosen to carry the shield.
“You’re making this harder than it needs to be,” he growled, his voice unnervingly steady.
Sam swooped back in, wings tucked tight against his body for speed. His eyes locked onto the shield—still clutched in John’s white-knuckled grip, still stained with the blood of his victim.
John sensed the approach. His head snapped up, nostrils flaring.
The shield arced through the air like a vengeful comet. It slammed into Sam’s shoulder with a sickening crack that seemed to freeze the very air in the warehouse.
Sam’s momentum died instantly. His body jerked violently from the impact, the jetpack sputtering. A strangled groan escaped him—half pain, half shock—as his knees hit the concrete hard enough to split the fabric of his pants. His face contorted, eyes squeezing shut against a wave of agony as his hand instinctively clutched at his shoulder.
“Sam!” Isabelle’s voice cracked with alarm.
The momentary distraction cost her everything.
John pivoted toward her, that unnatural speed making him almost impossible to track. The shield, which had rebounded from Sam back to John’s waiting hand, was already in motion again—a deadly arc aimed directly at her face.
Isabelle registered the danger a heartbeat too late. Time seemed to slow, her enhanced senses capturing every excruciating detail—the subtle shift in John’s weight as he committed to the strike, the faint whistle of air as the vibranium cut through it, the microscopic droplets of blood still clinging to the shield’s surface.
No time to dodge. No time to block.
The shield caught her across the cheekbone and temple. The impact was like nothing she’d ever felt—a white-hot explosion of pain that obliterated thought. The force lifted her clear off her feet, her body suddenly weightless, suspended in a moment of terrible clarity before gravity reclaimed her.
She was faintly aware of the ceiling spinning above her, of dust motes dancing in shafts of light, of the metallic taste of blood flooding her mouth. The concrete floor rushed up to meet her, slamming into her back with enough force to drive the air from her lungs in a pained wheeze.
“Isabelle!”
Bucky’s voice cut through the haze, sharp with a panic she’d never heard from him before. Her name cracked in the middle, splitting into two desperate syllables that echoed off the warehouse walls. Through vision that swam and doubled, she saw him frozen for a fraction of a second, eyes fixed on her fallen form.
Something raw and terrified flashed across his features—a crack in the careful mask he always wore. His metal arm whirred loudly as the plates recalibrated, responding to the sudden surge of adrenaline flooding his system.
The shield caught her across the cheekbone and temple. The impact lifted Isabelle clear off her feet. For one suspended moment, she hung in the air, a broken doll caught between gravity and momentum. She registered the warehouse ceiling above her—rusted metal rafters, cobwebs, a single shaft of dusty sunlight cutting through broken windows.
Then gravity reclaimed her.
She hit the concrete with a sickening thud that rattled her teeth and drove the air from her lungs in a pained wheeze. The back of her head bounced against the floor. Something warm trickled down her temple—blood, she realized distantly, as it pooled in the hollow of her ear.
“Isabelle!”
Bucky’s voice cut through the fog of pain, sharp with a panic she’d never heard from him before. Her name fractured in the middle, splitting into two desperate syllables that echoed off the warehouse walls. Through vision that swam and doubled, she saw him frozen for a fraction of a second, eyes fixed on her fallen form. Something raw and terrified flashed across his features. His metal arm whirred loudly as the plates recalibrated, responding to the sudden surge of adrenaline flooding his system.
Isabelle tried to push herself up, but her arms felt disconnected from her body, responding with a delay that made the world tilt dangerously out of control. Bucky was moving now, crossing the distance between them with long, desperate strides. His eyes never left her face.
“I’m okay,” Isabelle tried to say, but the words came out slurred and thick with blood. She spat a mouthful onto the concrete, grimacing at the bright red splash. “M’fine.”
Bucky dropped to his knees beside her.
“Hey,” he said, voice low and rough at the edges. “You with me?”
Isabelle blinked hard, trying to bring his face into focus. One Bucky became two, then merged back into one. His eyes were wide, the blue almost swallowed by dilated pupils. A muscle jumped in his jaw.
“Always,” she managed, the corner of her mouth lifting in a weak attempt at her usual smirk. “Takes more than... discount Captain America... to keep me down.”
A weak chuckle escaped Bucky, the sound strained and splintery. His flesh hand finally settled against her cheek, thumb gently wiping away a smear of blood. The touch was achingly gentle, calming.
“That’s my girl,” he murmured, so quietly she almost missed it. His eyes softened for just a moment, the mask of the Winter Soldier falling away to reveal something vulnerable underneath.
The moment was shattered as Sam’s voice cut through the warehouse.
“Bucky, on your six!”
Bucky’s head snapped up, body tensing. John was advancing toward them, shield raised. The vulnerability vanished from Bucky’s face, replaced by cold fury that transformed his features into something hard and dangerous.
“Stay down,” he told Isabelle with quiet urgency. His metal hand squeezed hers once, the plates cool against her skin, before he rose to his feet.
Isabelle watched him turn to face John, his back to her now—a human shield between her and danger. The plates in his arm recalibrated again with that distinctive mechanical whir, catching the dim light as he curled his hand into a fist.
“You shouldn’t have done that,” Bucky said to John, his voice dropping to that quiet, deadly register that meant someone was about to get hurt. Badly.
John’s laugh echoed through the warehouse, hollow and unhinged. “What are you gonna do about it, Barnes? You’re the reason we’re here. You and Wilson. If you’d just stayed out of my way—”
“Like you stayed out of hers?” Bucky cut him off, taking a deliberate step forward. “She was trying to help you.”
John’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin. “Help me? By what, stopping me from doing what needed to be done?” He gestured sharply with the shield, the movement jerky and uncoordinated. “You saw what that guy did to Lemar. What they all did.”
“I saw a man lose control,” Sam said, his voice strained as he pushed himself to his feet. He clutched his injured shoulder, face tight with pain. “I saw Captain America beat a man to death in front of dozens of witnesses because he couldn’t handle his grief.”
John’s eyes narrowed, nostrils flaring. “Don’t you dare talk to me about grief. You gave up the shield. You walked away from everything Steve Rogers built.” His gaze shifted to Bucky, lip curling. “And you—the Winter Soldier—lecturing me about control? That’s rich.”
Bucky’s expression didn’t change, but something dangerous flickered behind his eyes. “I know exactly what I’ve done,” he said, each word precise and weighted. “Every face. Every name. That’s the difference between us, Walker. I don’t pretend my kills were justified.”
Through the haze, Isabelle watched Bucky—the rigid line of his shoulders, the deadly stillness that had settled over him. She recognized that stillness. Had seen it before, in Bucharest, in Berlin, in moments when the Winter Soldier threatened to consume the man.
Bucky launched himself across the concrete floor, and John braced himself, planting his feet wide, shield angled to deflect the coming assault.
The first impact came like thunder.
CLANG.
Vibranium struck vibranium. The shockwave traveled up Bucky’s arm, the plates of his prosthetic rippling to absorb and redistribute the force. His teeth were bared in a grimace that was more animal than man.
“You think—” John started, the words cutting off as Bucky struck again.
CLANG.
Harder this time. Faster. The shield vibrated with the impact, the sound higher-pitched, almost musical in its resonance. John’s boots slid backward an inch across the concrete, leaving twin scuff marks in their wake.
“You don’t get to talk,” Bucky growled, voice dropped to that dangerous register that made the hair on Isabelle’s arms stand on end. His next blow came from below, aiming to catch the edge of the shield and rip it from John’s grasp.
CLANG.
“You don’t deserve it,” Bucky snarled between blows, his voice barely recognizable. The Brooklyn accent he usually kept carefully contained slipped through the cracks, roughening his words. His metal arm whirred as he drew back for another punishing strike. “You never deserved it.”
Each impact carried the weight of everything that shield represented—not just to the world, but to Bucky personally. Seventy years of history. Of friendship. Of loss. Every blow was Steve. Every blow was what should have been. Every blow was the perversion of a legacy he’d spent a century watching over.
John’s face contorted with effort, veins standing out on his forehead like ropes as he blocked each crushing blow. Sweat beaded along his hairline, trickling down his temples. His knuckles whitened around the shield’s grip, the leather creaking under the strain.
“Neither do you,” he spat back. “Hydra’s attack dog.”
Bucky’s rhythm faltered for just a fraction of a second—a microscopic hesitation that only someone enhanced would notice.
John noticed.
He gritted his teeth, blocked high against another crushing blow—and went for the kill.
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A shield soaked in blood.
A legacy on fire.John Walker won’t back down—and this time, he’s not alone in coming unhinged.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 65: The World is Watching (Part Four)
Chapter 65: The World Is Watching (Part Four)
Summary:
The shield falls. The team fractures. And still—he doesn’t yield.
Pain becomes weapon. Grief becomes armor.
But rage is a seduction. And power never comes without a price.They didn’t come to kill him.
But by the end, they all have blood on their hands.
Notes:
Okay!!! Here it is—the final part!! 💚💚💚
I hope you all enjoy the chaos, the catharsis, and the absolute emotional mess that is this showdown. Writing this arc has been intense but so satisfying—thank you for sticking with it. Can’t wait to hear what you think!! 💚
See you next time for the Act 3 finale!
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Fight" by The Dirty Youth
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Chapter Text
Bucky ducked at the last possible second, the shield missing his skull by millimeters. He felt the rush of air against his scalp, the vibration humming past his ear. He lunged forward with a growl that started low in his chest. His metal fingers clamped down on the edge of the shield. His muscles strained as he pulled, twisting, nearly tearing it free from John’s grip.
So close. The shield tilted in John’s grasp, slipping incrementally toward Bucky’s control.
John’s face twisted with panic, then rage. He slammed his knee upward, catching Bucky in the gut with enough force to expel the air from his lungs in a painful whoosh. The momentary distraction was all John needed. He twisted violently, wrenching the shield back into his possession.
“Son of a—” Bucky’s curse was cut short as he spun, swinging his metal arm in retaliation.
John ducked, the vibranium fist missing his head by inches. The momentum carried Bucky’s arm into the already-damaged support beam behind John. It shattered on impact, metal tearing like paper, concrete crumbling in chunks that rained down around them.
Then Isabelle was on him.
She launched herself from the ground, ignoring the hot trickle of blood that ran down her temple and into her eye. The copper tang of it filled her nostrils, but the pain was distant, secondary to the rage burning through her veins.
She leapt onto his back, wrapping her legs around his waist in a vise grip. Her arms snaked around his shoulders, fingers finding the vulnerable hollow beneath his jawline where his pulse hammered wildly against her touch.
“Get off me!” John snarled, his voice vibrating through his back and into her chest.
Isabelle dug her fingers deeper, feeling the soft give of flesh beneath her nails. “Not a chance in hell, Walker.”
He bucked and twisted, trying to dislodge her, but Isabelle had learned to ride out worse from opponents twice his size. She tightened her thighs around his midsection, feeling the edge of the shield pressing uncomfortably against her calf where he still clutched it.
John slammed backward into a concrete pillar, crushing her between his body and the unyielding surface. The impact forced the air from her lungs in a painful whoosh, but she refused to loosen her grip.
“You want pain?” she hissed directly into his ear. Her fingers found the pressure points along his jaw and neck, digging in with surgical precision. “Let me show you pain.”
She closed her eyes and shoved—not with her body, but with that other part of herself. The part that could slip between cells and find the soft, vulnerable places where bodies betrayed themselves. She sent a surge of agony directly into his spine, bypassing skin and muscle to attack the nerves themselves.
Deep. Cracking. Something internal buckled.
John screamed, the sound tearing from his throat like something alive. His body seized beneath her, muscles spasming uncontrollably as the pain signal overwhelmed his nervous system. The shield wavered in his grip, nearly slipping from suddenly numb fingers.
The voice inside Isabelle howled, hungry and delighted at the suffering she was causing.
More. Break him. Make him hurt as much as you hurt.
The whisper slithered through her mind, seductive and familiar. It would be so easy to push deeper, to find the places where pain became permanent. To leave him broken, the way she’d been broken so many times before.
The boundary between vengeance and justice blurred, becoming indistinguishable as John’s body shuddered against hers. His eyes rolled back, whites showing as he fought against the invisible assault. His breath came in ragged gasps, the veins in his neck standing out like ropes. Then something shifted—his serum-enhanced body adapting, fighting back. His face transformed from agony to fury in a heartbeat.
John roared and, with a surge of desperate strength, he reached behind him and grabbed a fistful of her suit, fingers digging into the fabric.
“Get. OFF!”
The world tilted sickeningly as he flung her over his shoulders like a rag doll.
She rolled to her side, her fingers scraping against the rough concrete, searching for purchase as she tried to push herself up.
The voice inside her head pulsed with disappointment, manifesting as a physical ache that radiated outward from her core. Weak. Pathetic. You had him.
Bucky dove toward John, a broken sound escaping him—something between a growl and a shout. John hurled the shield, the vibranium disc slamming into Bucky’s stomach with a nauseating thump that echoed through the warehouse.
Bucky flew backward, arms splayed, his body arcing through the air until he crashed into a rusted forklift. The machine rocked with the impact, metal shrieking against concrete as it shifted several inches. Dust and rust particles rained down, catching in the shafts of light breaking through the warehouse windows.
Sam moved next, wings tucked tight as he dove for John from behind—but John sensed him coming. He spun with unnatural speed, his movements brutal and precise, landing a roundhouse kick square to Sam’s jaw. Sam hit the ground hard and rolled, his eyes unfocused, a thin trickle of blood running from the corner of his mouth.
And still—John stood.
Bloody. Shaking. His chest heaving with exertion, but unbowed.
Through the haze of pain, Isabelle realized the shield had rebounded after hitting Bucky. It now lay within his reach where he’d crumpled against the forklift.
Bucky’s metal fingers closed around the rim, the vibranium humming in recognition of its kindred material. His chest heaved as he rose to one knee, his face a mask of determination beneath streaks of sweat and blood.
John saw the shield in Bucky’s possession and saw red. He charged, boots pounding the concrete with each step, the sound reverberating like war drums. The distance between them vanished in seconds.
Bucky barely had time to brace before John crashed into him, both hands grappling for the shield. Metal scraped against metal as Bucky’s arm and the shield created a discordant symphony of vibranium.
“Why are you making me do this?” John roared, his face inches from Bucky’s, spit flying from his lips. His eyes were those of a cornered animal, desperate and dangerous.
Bucky grunted, planting his feet wider, holding his ground despite the assault. His jaw clenched, muscles straining as he maintained his grip on the shield.
John’s expression contorted, rage and hurt, and something like grief battling for dominance. His voice rose to a fevered pitch, cracking with emotion. “Why are you making me do this!”
With a final guttural yell that seemed to tear from the depths of his soul, John ripped the shield from Bucky’s grip. In one fluid motion, he pivoted and threw—not the shield, but Bucky with it.
Bucky flew backward, limbs splayed helplessly. His body smashed into a concrete pillar with bone-shaking force, the impact so violent that Isabelle felt it through the floor beneath her. The stone cracked behind him, spiderwebbing outward from the point of impact as he dropped to the ground in a crumpled heap, unmoving.
“Bucky!” Isabelle screamed, his name tearing from her raw throat. She scrambled to her feet, ignoring the protest of her battered body, each movement sending fresh waves of pain radiating outward.
She took a step toward him, heart hammering against her ribs—
But Sam was faster.
His wings snapped open with a metallic whisper, carbon fiber plates locking into position. The jets on his back flared hot, the heat signature triggering Isabelle’s peripheral vision even through the haze of pain. He moved like water—fluid, unstoppable, precise.
He grunted, voice raw as he launched himself across the warehouse. He caught John mid-stride, the impact reverberating through the concrete floor. The two men tumbled in a violent blur—limbs tangling, metal scraping against metal. The shield rose and fell, vibranium singing its deadly song. Sam twisted at the last possible second.
The shield missed his face by centimeters, instead shattering the concrete floor with a crack that sent dust and fragments exploding outward.
“John, stop!” Sam gasped, kicking off the ground and executing a perfect backflip. His wings curled protectively around his body before snapping back open as he landed.
John’s chest heaved, sweat and blood mingling on his face, running in rivulets down his neck and staining the white star on his chest. His eyes—Isabelle could see them even from where she struggled to stand—burned with something beyond rage. Something broken and desperate.
“We could’ve been a team, Wilson.” John’s voice cracked on the last word, something vulnerable breaking through the rage. “We could’ve done this together.”
Sam’s expression hardened, the lines around his mouth deepening. “We were never a team,” he muttered, and then he moved.
This time, Isabelle saw the strategy in his approach. Sam didn’t dive in for the attack—he flew low and fast, body angled just so. The subtle click of his wrist gauntlet was nearly imperceptible, but Isabelle caught it, her enhanced hearing picking up the mechanical whir of gears engaging.
A reinforced grappling wire shot out, glinting silver in the dusty light filtering through the warehouse windows. It snaked around John’s torso before he could react, the specialized alloy cable cinching tight against the blue fabric of his uniform.
Sam ascended sharply, yanking John off his feet as if he weighed nothing. The cable went taut as a bowstring, and John became a human wrecking ball, his body dragging violently across the warehouse floor.
Metal crates crumpled under the impact of John’s body. Abandoned pipes bent and broke, sending up a shower of rust and sparks that caught the light like tiny fireworks. John’s bellows of rage echoed through the cavernous space, each impact punctuated by another furious shout.
But John wasn’t finished.
With a display of raw strength that made Isabelle’s breath catch, John gripped the wire with both hands, muscles bulging beneath the uniform. His face contorted with effort, veins standing out on his forehead as he began to climb, hand over hand, pulling himself up the cable toward Sam.
John’s gloved hand latched onto a steel ceiling beam, fingers digging into the metal with enough force to leave indentations. With a grunt that sounded more animal than human, he pulled himself up and twisted, dragging the cable across a jagged edge of metal that jutted from the beam.
The wire snapped with a sound like a gunshot.
Sam’s momentum vanished in an instant. His wings flailed, suddenly without resistance, the abrupt change sending him into an uncontrolled spiral. He crashed into the ground twenty feet away.
The shield clattered to the ground as John fell with a grunt, his body hitting the concrete with a dull thud. The vibranium disc spun once, twice—then landed flat between them.
Isabelle didn’t hesitate.
She pushed off with her back foot, ignoring the hot lance of pain that shot up her spine, sliding across the concrete.
Her fingers closed around the rim with a sharp intake of breath, the cool metal almost burning against her skin.
The moment she touched it, something pulsed through her.
Not power. Not pride.
Weight.
A thousand memories not her own flooded her consciousness in a dizzying rush. Steve’s hands gripping this same edge, blood spattered across the star, the legacy of what it meant, the burden of what it demanded. The sensation was so overwhelming that for a moment, she couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think beyond the crushing responsibility that seemed to radiate from the vibranium itself.
The voice in her head howled, gleeful and hungry.
Take it. Finish this. End him. He deserves it after what he did.
Her fingers gripped harder around the leather straps as she pushed herself upright, muscles trembling with effort and adrenaline. The shield settled against her forearm.
John stared at her from where he knelt on the ground, blood trickling from the corner of his mouth, his eyes widening as he registered what she held.
“That’s a joke,” he said, nodding to the shield strapped over her arm. His voice was rough, scraped raw with exertion and something that might have been fear.
She didn’t answer.
Instead, she charged.
The distance between them vanished in three rapid strides. Their bodies collided with a force that jarred her teeth, the shield raised defensively between them. She swung it once—clumsy, too heavy, the balance all wrong—but it connected with his shoulder with a sickening crack and sent him stumbling backward.
She followed through, spinning on her heel the way she’d seen Steve do countless times, using the edge to deflect John’s retaliatory fist. The sound rang sharp and clear—vibranium on bone—and John howled as the bones in his hand fractured on impact.
Isabelle felt her lips curl into something that wasn’t quite a smile. “That’s the best you’ve got, Walker?”
He lunged at her, feinting left before driving his right elbow toward her temple. She brought the shield up just in time, the blow glancing off with a hollow clang that echoed through the warehouse.
She turned, trying to break from the fight, darting toward the far wall, shield tucked to her side. If she could just get it away from him—get it to Sam or Bucky…
John recovered faster than she expected. He charged again, this time low and fast, tackling her at the waist. They crashed to the ground in a tangle of limbs, the shield trapped awkwardly between their bodies. John’s face loomed above hers, blood from his split lip dripping onto her cheek. His eyes were wild, unfocused—pupils blown wide with adrenaline and rage.
Then came the pain.
His hand tangled in her hair, gripping tight enough to tear strands from her scalp. He yanked her head upward, only to—
SLAM.
Her head hit the concrete with explosive force. Pain bloomed outward from the impact point, radiating through her skull like lightning. Her vision blurred, concrete dust filling her nostrils.
“You don’t—” John’s voice cracked with something that might have been desperation.
SLAM.
Again. Harder. The back of her skull bounced against the unyielding surface. This time, she heard something crack—whether it was the concrete or her skull, she couldn’t tell. White-hot agony pulsed behind her eyes.
“—understand what it takes!”
SLAM.
Stars burst across her vision, reality fragmenting into kaleidoscopic pieces. Copper flooded her mouth where she’d bitten her tongue. Her body went limp beneath him, muscles refusing to respond to her desperate commands.
The shield, slick with both their blood, began to slide from between them. Her fingers, suddenly clumsy and uncoordinated, couldn’t maintain their grip on the leather straps.
John ripped the shield from between them, the sudden movement sending fresh waves of agony through Isabelle’s battered body. He staggered to his feet, standing over her like a dark, twisted god. His chest heaved with exertion, uniform torn and stained dark with sweat and blood. The shield—that symbol of everything Steve had stood for—looked wrong in his hands, defiled somehow.
Breathless. Blood-spattered. Victorious.
Sam saw Isabelle’s head slam against the concrete, heard the sickening crack that followed. Something primal erupted inside him—a rage so pure it burned through every tactical thought, every calculated move.
Sam’s wings snapped open with a metallic whisper as he launched himself across the warehouse. The jets on his back roared to life, propelling him forward with deadly precision. The world narrowed to a single target: John Walker’s smug, blood-spattered face.
“Get away from her!” Sam bellowed, his voice echoing off the concrete walls.
John barely had time to turn before Sam crashed into him with the full force of his momentum. The impact sent them both skidding across the debris-strewn floor, the shield clattering between them. Sam’s fist connected with John’s jaw—once, twice—each blow punctuated by a grunt of effort.
Sam’s knuckles split against John’s teeth, but he barely felt the pain.
John bucked violently, using his enhanced strength to throw Sam off-balance. They grappled across the floor, each fighting for leverage, for control. Sam’s elbow caught John in the throat, and for a moment, victory seemed within reach.
Then John’s hand closed around a chunk of broken concrete.
Sam saw it coming a split second too late. The makeshift weapon connected with his temple, sending him reeling. The world tilted sickeningly, concrete dust and blood mingling in his mouth. His ears rang, the sound drowning out everything but his own ragged breathing.
Through blurred vision, he saw John scrambling for the shield.
Sam lunged, fingers grasping at John’s boot. “No—”
John kicked back viciously, his heel connecting with Sam’s jaw. Pain exploded behind Sam’s eyes, white-hot and blinding. He tasted copper, felt warmth trickling down his chin.
“You had your chance!” John shouted, eyes wild with something beyond rage—something broken. “You gave it up!”
Sam’s fingers found the edge of one of John’s pauldrons, using it as leverage to slam the man’s head against the floor. “Because I understood what it meant!”
John’s knee drove upward, catching Sam in the stomach. Air rushed from his lungs in a painful whoosh, and for one critical moment, his grip loosened.
It was all John needed.
With a roar that seemed to shake the very foundations of the warehouse, John flipped their positions, using the shield as a battering ram. Sam’s back hit the concrete with bone-jarring force. Before he could recover, John was on top of him, knees pinning Sam’s arms to his sides.
Sam bucked and twisted beneath John’s weight, wings scraping against concrete as he fought for leverage. His lungs burned, chest compressed under the pressure of John’s knees digging into his ribs. Each breath came shorter than the last.
“Get... off... me—” Sam choked out.
John’s face hovered above him, features contorted into something barely recognizable. His eyes—those were the worst part. Wide, red-rimmed, unfocused. They stared through Sam rather than at him, as if seeing something else entirely.
“I am...” John panted, each word breaking like glass in his throat, “Captain America.”
Sam’s fingers clawed desperately at John’s uniform, searching for purchase, for weakness—anything to dislodge the mountain of serum-enhanced muscle pinning him down.
With a scream, John ripped Sam’s wings clean from his back. Metal tore like tissue, the sharp sound sickening. Sam cried out and dropped, shielding his head as John raised the shield high—ready to strike down, to kill.
John cast the mangled wings aside. They clattered across the concrete, a twisted heap of metal and wire that represented everything Sam had built for himself after the military. After Steve.
Above him, John’s face transformed into something feral, teeth bared in a bloody grimace as he picked up the shield. The shield rose higher, sunlight glinting off its edge as John positioned it for a killing blow.
Sam raised his arm in a futile gesture of self-defense, knowing it would do nothing against vibranium. His mind flashed to his sister, to his nephews—
A blur slammed into him before the blow could land.
Bucky slammed into John with the force of a freight train, his metal arm gleaming dully in the half-light. The impact knocked John clean off Sam’s chest, sending both men tumbling across the debris-strewn floor in a tangle of limbs and fury.
“Stay down!” Bucky roared, his voice rough with exertion and something deeper—rage, maybe, or fear. His metal fist connected with John’s jaw.
Sam rolled onto his side, gulping air into his starved lungs. He pushed himself to his knees, vision swimming as blood rushed back to his head.
Across the warehouse, Bucky and John grappled on the ground, a violent ballet of punches and counters. Bucky fought with cold precision, each movement calculated and efficient—the Winter Soldier bleeding through his carefully constructed control. John fought like a cornered animal, all teeth and claws and desperation.
Movement from the far side of the warehouse caught Sam’s attention. Isabelle was dragging herself upright, one hand pressed against the back of her head where blood matted her hair. Her face was ashen beneath smears of dirt and blood, but her eyes—those were clear. Focused. Burning with something that made Sam’s skin prickle.
She staggered once, twice, then found her footing. Her gaze locked on John, tracking his movements as he managed to throw Bucky off and scramble to his feet.
“Hey, asshole!” Isabelle’s voice cracked through the warehouse, raw and commanding.
John whipped around, shield half-raised, just in time to see her closing the distance between them in a stumbling run. Blood trickled from her nose, from a gash above her eyebrow, but she moved with single-minded purpose—a missile locked on target.
Sam pushed himself to his feet, ignoring the protest of his battered body. He knew that look in her eyes. Had seen it before, in the moments before things went very, very wrong.
Isabelle hit John low while Bucky simultaneously struck high. They slammed into him with enough combined force that the concrete beneath them groaned in protest.
John got back to his feet fast—but not fast enough.
Because now it was three against one.
Sam lunged in from behind, landing a punch to John’s kidney. “That’s for my wings, asshole,” he growled, voice pitched low and dangerous.
Isabelle moved in the same instant, her fingers finding the pressure points along John’s forearm. She twisted with surgical precision, exploiting the weakness where muscle met tendon. The joint locked unnaturally, and John’s face contorted in pain.
“And that’s for my head,” she hissed through blood-stained teeth.
Bucky completed their triangle of attack, dropping low and sweeping John’s leg with brutal efficiency.
They moved without communication, without hesitation—three broken people finding perfect synchronicity. No flourishes. No wasted motion. Just the raw, ugly business of bringing a man down.
Meanwhile, John fought like a caged animal. Wild. Brutal. His fist cracked against Isabelle’s cheekbone—she didn’t drop. Bucky slammed his vibranium arm across John’s chest and shoved him back into a forklift with a hollow clang.
“Yield!” Bucky snarled, forearm pressed against John’s windpipe. His voice was barely recognizable.
Isabelle joined him, shoulder pressed to John’s other side. Her fingers found the nerve cluster beneath his arm, applying precise pressure that made his hand spasm involuntarily. John thrashed against their combined weight, boots scraping against concrete as he fought for leverage.
“You’re not walking away with it,” Bucky growled, teeth clenched, sweat dripping from his brow onto John’s uniform. His eyes burned with seventy years of rage and loss, focused to a single incandescent point. “Not today. Not ever.”
John’s lips pulled back in a bloody grimace. “It’s mine,” he gasped, the words wet and desperate. “They gave it to me!”
“They never had the right,” Sam said, stepping forward. His face was a landscape of bruises, one eye swelling shut, but his gaze remained steady. Resolute. He moved with the quiet dignity of a man who knew exactly who he was—who he had always been.
He braced both arms against John’s, pressing hard against the limb that still clutched the shield. The muscles in Sam’s forearms stood out like cords as he leaned his weight into the hold, methodical and relentless.
The hydraulic assist in what remained of Sam’s flight pack whined to life, adding mechanical force to human determination. The sound filled the warehouse—high, thin, desperate—like some wounded animal crying out in the dark.
Isabelle gritted her teeth, tasting iron and salt. She shifted her grip, fingers finding the tendons in John’s wrist. Bucky leaned in harder, metal arm gleaming with sweat and blood.
John screamed.
And then, his arm snapped.
The sound was nauseating.
The shield slipped from suddenly nerveless fingers, its vibranium surface catching the dusty light as it fell.
Sam’s hand shot out, catching it before it could hit the ground.
Silence dropped like a hammer.
The three of them stepped back in unison, releasing John as if by some unspoken agreement. He crumpled to his knees, clutching his broken arm to his chest. His breathing came in short, desperate gasps, each one punctuated by a soft whimper that seemed to escape against his will.
Bucky moved first, taking a half-step toward John. His face was a battlefield of conflicting emotions—disgust warring with something that might have been pity.
“It was never about deserving it,” he said quietly, the words meant for John but carrying to all of them in the sudden stillness. “It was about understanding what it means.”
John looked up, face streaked with dirt and tears and blood. For just a moment, the mask of Captain America fell away completely, leaving only the broken man beneath—terrified, humiliated, lost.
Bucky stumbled back, the coppery taste of blood filling his mouth. He probed the inside of his cheek with his tongue, feeling the ragged tear where his teeth had cut into soft flesh. His muscles screamed in protest as he straightened, each breath sending fresh waves of pain through his ribs. Not broken, but close.
Isabelle doubled over a few feet away, hands braced on her knees. Her chest heaved with shallow, ragged breaths that whistled slightly between her teeth. Blood matted her hair in dark clumps, trickling down her neck in thin rivulets that disappeared beneath the collar of her suit. Her fingers trembled against her thighs, knuckles split and raw.
Sam stood motionless between them, turning the shield over in his hands. His expression was unreadable as he stared at the dried blood still crusted in the vibranium’s seams—whose blood, Bucky couldn’t tell.
“It’s mine.”
John’s voice cracked behind them, the words hanging in the dusty air like shrapnel. The three of them turned in unison, muscles tensing instinctively despite their exhaustion.
Sam stepped forward, shield still held at his side.
“It’s over, John,” Sam said, his voice low and steady. Not a taunt. Not a threat. Just a simple truth, offered with the kind of quiet dignity that had always made Bucky think Sam was the right choice for the shield all along.
John didn’t move. Just stared at Sam with those empty eyes, his entire body trembling with fine, constant tremors. Blood dripped steadily from his chin onto the concrete, forming a small, dark pool between his knees.
But Isabelle felt it before she saw it—that microscopic shift in muscle tension. The infinitesimal change in John’s breathing pattern. The barely perceptible dilation of his pupils.
John’s weight shifted forward onto the balls of his feet. His broken arm twitched against his chest—not from pain, but from preparation. His gaze locked onto the shield in Sam’s hands with an intensity that bordered on religious.
He was going to try again.
The voice in Isabelle’s head stirred, unfurling like smoke in a sealed jar. It whispered through the cracks in her consciousness, seductive and familiar.
He’s not done. He’ll never be done. How many more will he kill? Let me show him what fear really is.
The warehouse seemed to dim around her edges of her vision, narrowing to a tunnel with John at its end. The pain in her skull receded to a dull, distant throb, replaced by something hot and electric that coursed through her veins.
She stepped forward, boot crunching over a shard of glass. The sound was impossibly loud in the sudden quiet.
“Do it,” she whispered, not to John, but to the thing inside her that had been waiting so patiently.
Power surged through her bloodstream like battery acid—caustic and exhilarating. She felt her irises flare molten green-gold, the sensation like hot wax dripping behind her eyelids. The air around her fingers seemed to ripple, distorting like heat waves rising from sun-baked asphalt.
John’s head snapped toward the sound of her approach. His eyes widened as Isabelle lunged forward, her movements fluid despite her injuries. Her fingers barely brushed his forearm, a whisper of contact through the torn fabric of his uniform.
And then—
John froze.
His pupils dilated so rapidly that his eyes seemed to turn black. A tremor started in his hands, spreading upward through his arms to his shoulders until his entire body vibrated with it. The blood drained from his face, leaving his skin the color of old paper.
“No,” he whispered, eyes darting frantically around the warehouse, tracking invisible horrors. “No, no, no—”
Sam took a half-step forward, brow furrowed. “Isabelle, what are you—” The words died in his throat as he watched John’s face transform from rage to terror in an instant.
Bucky stood frozen beside Sam. His eyes narrowed, tracking the invisible current that seemed to flow between Isabelle and John. He’d seen that look before—in the eyes of his own victims when the Winter Soldier had come for them.
To Sam and Bucky, it looked like John was staring at nothing. But Isabelle saw what he saw. She felt what he felt. The connection between them pulsed like an open wound, raw and electric.
In his mind, John was back in that room—blood on his hands, Lemar lifeless at his feet.
But this time, the world didn’t just witness his shame once. They watched it again and again, an endless reel of his worst moment played on repeat. The faces of the people who had once admired him twisted with disgust. The trust in Lemar’s eyes as he followed John into battle, unaware that he was walking to his death.
And beneath it all, the truth John had been running from: that the serum hadn’t changed him. It had only revealed what was already there.
Lemar’s voice, hollow and echoing: “This isn’t you, man. What did you do?”
John’s breathing accelerated to hyperventilation. Sweat beaded on his forehead despite the chill in the warehouse. His eyes, wild and unfocused, suddenly locked onto something behind Isabelle.
“Lemar?” he choked out, reaching toward empty air. “Oh god, I’m sorry—I didn’t mean—”
The voice inside Isabelle purred with satisfaction, urging her to push deeper. To find the darkest corners of John’s mind and fill them with even more horror. To break him so thoroughly that he’d never get back up.
Deeper. Go deeper. Make him feel what you felt when you woke up and everyone was gone. When your father died. When Natasha died. When they all left you behind. When you realized you were truly alone.
Her power flowed like mercury through her veins, cold and slick and poisonous. It would be so easy to twist just a little more, to show John what true suffering meant.
She could feel his mind fracturing under the pressure of her assault, hairline cracks spreading through his psyche like glass about to shatter.
“Isabelle.”
Sam’s voice cut through the fog of rage and power. Not shouting. Not commanding. Just her name, spoken with such quiet certainty that it reached past the voice in her head.
She blinked, the world coming back into focus. Sam stood a few feet away, shield held loosely at his side. His face was a landscape of bruises and dried blood, but his eyes were clear. Steady. Sad.
Isabelle looked down at her hands—still trembling, still crackling with that sickly power—then back at John. He lay curled on his side now, knees drawn to his chest, mumbling incoherently to ghosts only he could see. Tears cut clean tracks through the dirt and blood on his face.
She stood over him, still shaking. Her vision flickered, light bleeding at the edges. For a moment, she almost couldn’t let go. The voice didn’t want to.
Finish it. Let him feel what we felt. Let him break.
She stared down at him.
And she pitied him.
With a breathless sob, she released her grip on his mind. The connection between them snapped like a rubber band pulled too tight, sending her staggering back a step. The green light faded from her eyes, leaving her vision momentarily blurry.
John gasped, curling tighter into himself, disoriented and shivering. His eyes darted wildly around the warehouse, still seeing echoes of the horrors she’d planted in his mind.
“It’s over,” she whispered, more to herself than to him. “It’s done.”
But John wasn’t done. He staggered to his feet, swaying like a drunk man. His broken arm hung uselessly at his side, but his other hand reached out—not for the shield, but for her throat.
“You—” he rasped, his voice raw and broken. “What did you—how did you—”
Isabelle stepped forward one last time. No rage this time. No hatred. Just precision. Her fingers brushed his forehead, light as butterfly wings. She hit him with a final, focused pulse. Not rage. Not death. Just enough fear to overwhelm his already traumatized system.
John’s eyes rolled back. His knees buckled. He collapsed to the concrete floor with a dull thud that echoed through the warehouse.
Unconscious. Finally still.
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The shield is clean, but the blood still lingers.
Outside, the world moves on—checkpoints, reports, debriefs.But inside, the cracks are widening.
Sam watches. Bucky walks. Isabelle chooses.She could stay.
But she’s tired of letting people disappear.
And this time, she’s not letting him go alone.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 66: Together
Chapter 66: Together
Summary:
She doesn’t want to be alone. He doesn’t either.
In the bruised quiet after everything falls apart, Isabelle finds Bucky in the alley—and doesn’t let him walk away.
What follows is soft and sharp all at once: truths traded in whispers, anger soothed by careful hands, and a kiss that feels like surrender.He asks her to come with him. She says yes.
Whatever happens next, they won’t face it alone.
Notes:
Wow. Okay. We did it. That’s a wrap on Act 3!!! Holy crap, I can’t believe how fast this one flew by—and somehow it ended up being the longest act so far?! Time is fake, apparently.
Also... um... we’re almost done with the TFATWS arc??? WHAT?!?! That’s wild. Seriously, if you’re still here and still reading—thank you. You’re amazing. Truly. I’m so grateful for all the love, support, screaming, theorizing, and emotional breakdowns in the comments. Y’all make this fic feel alive. 💚💚💚
So now I gotta ask: What were your favorite moments from Act 3? What are you most excited (or terrified 👀) to see in Act 4? Drop your thoughts in the comments—I live for them.
And as always, thank you for being here. Thank you for reading. Thank you for everything. Act 4 starts Wednesday! Let’s go. 💥
🎵Chapter song vibes: "BIRDS OF A FEATHER" by Billie Eilish
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Silence settled over the warehouse like a fog, heavy and suffocating.
John Walker lay unconscious at their feet. His chest rose and fell in shallow breaths, face slack in unconsciousness. But the fear that had contorted his features moments before lingered like a ghost.
Sam held the shield tight in his hands, his fingers curved around its edges with white-knuckle pressure. He stared down at it—not with victory or pride, but with horror etched into every line of his face. The star glinted in the low light, but the crimson stain across its curve refused to fade.
Bucky stood a few feet away, arms slack at his sides, chest still rising in uneven bursts. His knuckles were torn raw, blood seeping from split skin. His jaw clenched and unclenched rhythmically, muscle twitching beneath stubbled skin. But his eyes—cold blue and haunted—were locked on the shield too. Rage and regret warred behind them, familiar companions battling for dominance.
Isabelle didn’t move. Couldn’t. The warehouse spun slightly at the edges of her vision, and she forced herself to focus on a fixed point—a rust stain on the floor, shaped like a continent she couldn’t name. Her breathing came in shallow, uneven pulls, each one catching on the bruises around her throat where John’s hand had squeezed.
Sam turned the shield in his hands slowly, like it weighed more now than ever. His thumb scraped at the bloodstain. Once. Twice. Three times. His movements became more agitated, more desperate.
It didn’t come off.
A sound tore from Isabelle’s throat—sharp, involuntary. Half inhale, half sob. She looked away quickly, blinking hard against the sudden burn in her eyes and biting the inside of her cheek.
Bucky noticed. His gaze snapped to her, then to John’s unconscious form, then back to her. Something pieced itself together behind his eyes—a puzzle assembling in real time.
“What was that?” he asked. Not accusing. Not soft either. Just... wary. Like he’d seen something he couldn’t explain.
Isabelle didn’t answer at first. The warehouse felt suddenly too small, the air too thin. She could feel Sam’s attention on her now, too, his hands stilling on the shield.
She looked down at John’s body. The way his face had twisted in that last moment—not in rage, but in fear. Pure, bone-deep terror. He hadn’t seen them. Not really. He’d seen something else. Something worse.
“My powers,” she said finally. “They’re…growing.”
Bucky looked up at her. “What do you mean by growing?”
Isabelle’s hand drifted to her throat, fingers ghosting over tender skin. “I used just to be able to make people sick. Physical symptoms.” She paused, searching for words that wouldn’t sound insane. “But…back in Madripoor…at the docks…I could reach deeper. Into their minds. Their fears.”
Bucky’s expression darkened, the shadows under his eyes deepening as he took a step closer. “You mean you can make people see things that aren’t there?” His voice was low, cautious—the voice of someone who knew exactly what it meant to have your mind violated, to see things that weren’t real.
“Not exactly.” She met his gaze, refusing to flinch from the wariness there. The air between them felt charged, dangerous. “I think I make them feel what’s already inside them. Amplify it.” She swallowed hard, her bruised throat protesting. “Walker was already afraid—of failing, of not being Steve. I just... turned up the volume.”
A tense silence stretched between them, broken only by John’s shallow breathing.
Sam’s thumb continued to scrape at the bloodstain on the shield, his movements mechanical, distracted. His brow furrowed as he processed her words, connecting dots she hadn’t meant to reveal.
“Since when can you—” He stopped himself mid-sentence, the question hanging incomplete in the stale air.
He didn’t need to finish. Realization hit him. His brows knit together, jaw tightening as he looked at her. The answer was written in the guilt on her face, in the way she couldn’t quite meet his eyes now.
Val.
And the serum.
Sam exhaled through his nose, a sound of bone-deep weariness. “Shit.” The word carried the weight of a much longer conversation—one they didn’t have time for here.
Bucky’s head tilted slightly, confusion evident in the way his eyes narrowed. He looked between them, picking up on the undercurrent of a secret he wasn’t privy to. “Wait. What are you—”
“Nothing,” Isabelle said quickly, too quickly. Her heart hammered against her ribs. “Later.”
Bucky didn’t press. Not yet. But his eyes lingered on her for a beat longer. Watching. She could almost see the gears turning behind those cold blue eyes. She cleared her throat. Bucky’s eyes hadn’t left her face, that penetrating stare that seemed to strip away pretenses. It made her skin prickle.
“I’ll call FRIDAY,” she managed. “We need someone to come pick him up.”
No one argued. Isabelle stepped away, putting distance between herself and the unconscious super soldier on the ground.
Bucky and Sam stood in silence, facing each other across the bloodstained floor. The warehouse’s industrial lights cast harsh shadows across their faces, highlighting every line of exhaustion, every trace of doubt. Between them, John Walker lay unconscious, his chest rising and falling in a shallow rhythm.
Sam’s eyes drifted down to the shield in his hands. The metal felt heavier than it should.
Bucky’s mouth tightened, a muscle jumping in his jaw as he stared at the shield. “You gonna give it away this again?” he asked, his voice low and rough with something that wasn’t quite anger. It was deeper than that—disappointment, maybe. Or fear.
Sam’s jaw clenched. “Not sure I’m the one who should keep it.”
A beat of silence stretched between them, heavy with unspoken history.
“Steve gave it to you for a reason,” Bucky said, softer now, almost reluctant. His eyes flicked briefly to Walker’s unconscious form before returning to Sam’s face. There was something vulnerable in his expression, a rare crack in his armor.
Sam shook his head, eyes still fixed on the shield. “Steve didn’t know it would end up like this.” He gestured vaguely at Walker’s unconscious form, at the blood drying on the shield’s surface. “Covered in blood. Again.”
Bucky took a step closer, boots scuffing against concrete. “That’s what happened when you gave it up the first time.” His voice hardened, a soldier’s voice—direct, uncompromising. “Don’t make the same mistake twice.”
Sam looked up, meeting Bucky’s gaze. The man’s eyes were steady, certain in a way that Sam rarely saw. Not the Winter Soldier’s cold calculation, but something else—Bucky Barnes finding solid ground.
“You really think I should keep it?” Sam asked, his voice barely above a whisper. “After what just happened? After what it made Walker do?”
Bucky’s expression darkened. “The shield didn’t make Walker do anything. The serum didn’t either. The man was broken before he ever picked it up.”
Sam’s fingers tightened around the shield’s edges. “And I’m not?”
“We’re all broken,” Bucky said, a ghost of something like a smile touching his lips. “Difference is, you know it.”
From across the warehouse, Isabelle’s voice drifted over, tense as she spoke into her phone. Sam watched her for a moment, the way she kept one hand protectively at her throat, the bruises there darkening against her pale skin. Her eyes kept darting to John, wary, like she expected him to wake at any moment.
Sam looked back down at the shield. The star at its center seemed to stare back at him, challenging him. He thought of Isaiah Bradley, of the history that had been buried, of all the men who’d been crushed beneath this symbol’s weight.
“I don’t know if I can be what they need,” Sam admitted, the words feeling like they were being torn from somewhere deep inside him.
Bucky’s eyes never left his face. “Maybe what they need isn’t another Captain America.” He paused, his voice dropping lower. “Maybe they just need Sam Wilson.”
The silence between them shifted, became something less suffocating. Sam ran his palm over the shield’s surface, feeling every dent and scratch mark of battles fought, sacrifices made. Beneath the blood, beneath the myth, it was just vibranium shaped into a circle. The meaning came from the hands that held it.
For a moment, just silence between them. Heavy. Haunted. The symbol of everything they’d just survived—and everything still coming.
Isabelle tried to focus on cleaning the shield.
Her fingers traced the grooves and ridges, methodically wiping away the dried blood that marred its surface. The metallic scent of copper mingled with the sharp tang of cleaning solution, burning her nostrils with each breath. She scrubbed harder at a particularly stubborn spot near the star, as if erasing the blood could somehow erase what had happened.
The abandoned building creaked around them, its concrete walls still echoing with the remnants of violence. Outside, military vehicles hummed, and uniformed figures moved in organized patterns, collecting evidence and taking statements. In here, though—in this small side room they’d claimed while waiting for clearance to leave—time seemed suspended.
Across the room, Bucky leaned against a rickety metal table, arms crossed tightly over his chest. His jaw worked silently, muscle flexing beneath stubbled skin. His eyes stared at some middle distance, unfocused yet somehow alert. Every few seconds, his metal fingers would flex and then curl back into a fist, the plates recalibrating with a soft whir that cut through the silence.
Sam stood by the cracked window, shoulders rigid. The fading daylight caught the exhaustion etched into his face, highlighting the lines around his eyes that hadn’t been there before. His reflection in the glass showed a man carrying a burden he hadn’t asked for, watching military personnel sweep the area where Lemar had died just hours ago.
The silence stretched between them, heavy and taut, broken only by the soft sound of cloth against vibranium and the distant voices of military personnel.
Finally, Sam’s quiet voice cut through the stillness. “She’s gone,” he murmured, voice heavy with resignation. “We’ll never find her now.”
Isabelle’s hand froze on the shield. Her eyes flicked to Sam’s face, taking in the defeated slump of his shoulders. The warmth that usually radiated from him had dimmed—replaced by something quieter. Sadder. She opened her mouth, ready to offer some kind of hope, but Bucky scoffed sharply.
“Got somethin’ you want to say, Buck?” Sam asked, turning from the window. His voice had an edge now—not sharp, but worn thin, like fabric that had been stretched too far.
Bucky straightened, metal arm flexing as he pushed off from the table. He paced a slow, deliberate line across the dusty floor, boots leaving marks in the grime. “Don’t,” he snapped, his voice low and rough. “Just... don’t.”
His eyes flashed as he turned to face them—raw and exposed in a way that made Isabelle’s chest tighten. There was more than pain in his voice. There was guilt. Rage. Something he wasn’t ready to name.
Then, there were footsteps.
Joaquin Torres appeared in the doorway. His face was drawn, eyes shadowed with exhaustion, mouth set in a grim line.
“Jet’s waiting,” he said, voice pitched low as though speaking any louder might shatter something fragile in the room. “We’ve got clearance. But we’ve gotta go soon.” His eyes flicked between them, taking in the unspoken weight hanging in the air.
Bucky didn’t hesitate. Didn’t speak. His jaw tightened, metal arm whirring softly as he pushed himself upright, the sound unnaturally loud in the stillness. He crossed toward the exit.
“Where you going?” Sam’s voice cut through the room, not accusatory but weary, resigned. “You off to take care of Zemo?”
Isabelle’s head snapped up, pulse quickening. Her eyes darted between them—Sam, still standing by the window with the weight of everything that had happened pressing down on his shoulders; Bucky, paused in the threshold like a man caught between worlds. The air in the room seemed to thicken, charged with something unresolved.
Bucky turned, just enough to glance back over his shoulder. The harsh overhead light caught the planes of his face, throwing shadows that deepened the hollows under his eyes. The look he gave Sam wasn’t defensive or challenging. Just bone-deep tired. His eyes, those cold blue depths that had seen a century of war, held something that made Isabelle’s chest tighten—not the Winter Soldier’s emptiness, but something far more human. Far more broken.
He didn’t answer. Didn’t need to.
Then he walked out, footsteps fading down the corridor, each one a decision being made.
Isabelle felt something twist in her stomach, a physical ache that had nothing to do with injury. Her fingers curled against the shield, leaving smudges on the surface she’d just cleaned. The thought of him walking away, alone, made her throat constrict. She couldn’t let him disappear, not like this. Not with that look in his eyes.
She stood slowly, muscles protesting after too long in one position. The shield made a soft metallic sound as she set it aside, the vibranium catching the light. Her heart hammered against her ribs, a rhythm of uncertainty and determination tangled together.
Sam watched her, his dark eyes seeing too much. The lines around his mouth softened slightly as understanding dawned across his features. He’d always been perceptive—it was what made him a good counselor, a good friend. He saw the hesitation in her stance, the way her eyes kept darting toward the door Bucky had just walked through.
“Go with him,” he said, his voice gentler than before, carrying none of the edge that had sharpened his words with Bucky. There was something else there too—not quite encouragement, but understanding. Permission.
Isabelle blinked, caught off guard by the simplicity of it. By how easily Sam had read her, had seen the conflict written across her face. Her bruised throat ached as she swallowed, pulse jumping.
“Sam, I—” she started, but the words tangled in her throat.
Sam shook his head, cutting off her unformed protest. “He shouldn’t be alone right now.” His eyes met hers, steady and knowing. “And maybe you shouldn’t either.”
She’d been alone for so long—even surrounded by people, even with Tony, even with the Avengers. Always holding herself apart, afraid of what might happen if she let anyone too close. And Bucky... Bucky understood that in a way no one else could.
Joaquin shifted uncomfortably in the doorway, clearly sensing he’d walked into something he wasn’t meant to witness. “I’ll, uh—I’ll tell them to wait,” he said, already backing away. “Ten minutes.”
Isabelle nodded, grateful for the reprieve. Her eyes found Sam’s again, seeing the exhaustion there, the weight of everything they’d been through—John’s breakdown, the shield, the blood. “What about you?” she asked quietly.
A ghost of a smile touched Sam’s lips, not reaching his eyes. “I’ve got some calls to make. Some thinking to do.” His gaze drifted to the shield, resting where she’d left it. “Go on. Before he gets too far.”
Isabelle hesitated, one foot already pointed toward the door. Something twisted in her chest—guilt, maybe, at leaving him alone with all this. Sam had been steady through everything, holding them together when John snapped, when the mission went sideways. Now he stood framed against the grimy window, shoulders squared against a burden he’d never asked for.
“Are you sure?” The question felt inadequate against everything unsaid between them.
Sam’s eyes softened, that familiar warmth breaking through the exhaustion for just a moment. “Just go, Iz.” He gestured toward the door with a slight tilt of his head. “Before he disappears on us completely.”
The nickname loosened something in her chest. It reminded her of late nights at the compound, of Sam’s patient voice talking her through panic attacks, of the way he’d never treated her like she wasn’t something to be afraid of.
She took a step toward him, then stopped, uncertain. “We’ll check in once we’re back stateside?”
“Damn right we will,” Sam said, his voice finding a hint of its usual steadiness. His eyes met hers, serious now. “And Isabelle? Be careful with him.”
The warning hung in the air between them. Not a rebuke, but a reminder—Bucky wasn’t the only one carrying ghosts.
“You too,” she said softly, letting her eyes drift meaningfully to the shield. “With all of it.”
Sam nodded, understanding passing between them without words. The room felt suddenly smaller, more intimate in the fading light, the distant sounds of military personnel creating a strange cocoon around this moment of quiet.
Isabelle turned and slipped through the door, her body protesting with each movement. But something else propelled her forward—the image of Bucky’s face as he’d walked out, that terrible emptiness behind his eyes that she recognized too well.
She burst through the door into the alley, the narrow passage stretched between buildings, littered with debris and shadows. And there—halfway down the alley, moving with swift, determined strides—was Bucky. His broad shoulders were set in a rigid line, metal arm gleaming dully in the fading light, head bowed slightly as though carrying an invisible weight.
“Bucky!” His name tore from her throat before she could think better of it, raw and urgent against her bruised vocal cords.
He stopped. His body went perfectly still, the way only a soldier’s could—not just pausing but freezing, like a predator sensing danger. He didn’t turn around.
Isabelle jogged to catch up, her boots scraping against cracked pavement. The distance between them seemed to stretch and contract with each step, five feet feeling like fifty. Her pulse thudded in her ears, drowning out the distant sounds of military personnel behind the building. She slowed as she approached, suddenly uncertain now that she was close enough to see the tension radiating from his body.
“What are you doing?” His voice cut through the silence, low and rough like gravel. He kept his face forward, profile sharp against the dimming light, jaw set in a hard line.
Isabelle stopped a few feet behind him, close enough to see the subtle rise and fall of his shoulders with each breath, far enough that she couldn’t feel the heat from his body.
The truth spilled out before she could dress it up in something more dignified.
“I don’t want to be alone,” she said quietly, the words falling into the space between them like stones into still water. Then, softer still, almost a confession: “And I don’t think you want to be either.”
For a moment, he remained motionless, a statue carved from flesh and metal and decades of pain. Then slowly he turned to face her.
His eyes met hers—really met hers—for what felt like the first time since the warehouse. The blue was darker now in the fading light, shadowed beneath furrowed brows. His gaze moved over her face with careful precision, cataloging every detail—the scrape on her left cheekbone, still raw and angry; the bruises darkening around her throat in the shape of John’s fingers; the way her shoulders curved inward, arms wrapped around her middle as though physically holding herself together.
Something shifted behind his eyes, a crack in the Winter Soldier’s mask. Not softening, exactly—Bucky Barnes didn’t soften—but opening, just enough to let something human bleed through.
“No,” he said after a beat that stretched too long. His voice was quieter now, the edge dulled. “No, I don’t.”
Isabelle took a half-step closer, drawn forward by that fleeting vulnerability. The scent of him hit her—leather and gunpowder, sweat and that strange metallic undertone that seemed to emanate from more than just his arm. Familiar now, after days in close quarters. Almost comforting.
“Where are you going?” she asked, though the answer hung between them, unspoken but unmistakable.
Bucky’s eyes narrowed slightly, assessing her with that penetrating gaze that seemed to strip away pretenses. “You know where.” His voice was low, rough-edged, the words more statement than question.
“Zemo.” She said the name flatly, watching for the reaction it might trigger.
The way his metal fingers flexed at his side didn’t escape her notice—a subtle tell from a man who’d spent decades mastering the art of revealing nothing.
She moved closer still, close enough now that she could see the tiny scar above his right eyebrow, the exhaustion etched into the fine lines around his eyes. Close enough to feel the tension radiating from him like heat.
Something shifted in Bucky’s expression—a subtle softening around the eyes, a loosening of the rigid line of his mouth. Not quite relief, but recognition. Understanding. His gaze moved over her face slowly, cataloging the bruises at her throat, the exhaustion in her eyes, the dried blood still speckled across her like rust-colored constellations
“You look like hell,” he said, but there was no bite to the words. If anything, there was concern beneath the gruffness, a warmth that belied the cold exterior he worked so hard to maintain.
A surprised laugh escaped her, short and genuine, sending a sharp twinge through her bruised throat. “Thanks,” she said, pressing her fingers lightly against the tender skin. “You’re not exactly ready for the cover of a magazine yourself.”
His mouth twitched, almost a smile. “Never was.”
The silence that settled between them felt different now—less charged, more companionable.
A smile touched his lips—not the practiced half-smirk he sometimes wore like armor, but something genuine. It appeared and vanished so quickly she might have imagined it, but the tension in the air between them had undeniably shifted. The silence that followed felt less brittle, more like a shared breath than a wall.
Bucky’s eyes drifted to the bruises on her throat, his expression darkening. The muscle in his jaw ticked once, twice. “Walker did that.” Not a question. His voice had dropped lower, rougher at the edges.
“It’ll fade soon.” Isabelle’s fingers ghosted over the tender skin, a reflexive gesture. The bruises throbbed dully beneath her touch.
Bucky moved toward her with deliberate slowness. His eyes never left hers, searching for permission, for resistance, for fear. She found herself holding perfectly still, caught in his gaze like a current. He stopped just inches away. His right hand lifted, hesitated in the space between them.
“Can I?” The question was barely audible, rough with something she couldn’t name.
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs. She nodded once, a small, jerky movement.
His touch was impossibly gentle when it came, calloused fingers cupping her jaw with a tenderness that made her throat tighten. The contrast between his lethal strength and this careful touch sent a shiver down her spine. He tilted her head with the lightest pressure, angling to better see the damage at her throat.
His eyes narrowed as he studied the bruises, something dangerous flickering behind them—not the Winter Soldier’s emptiness, but Bucky Barnes’ protective rage. His thumb brushed feather-light over her pulse point, and she couldn’t suppress the small intake of breath at the contact.
Their eyes met again, his questioning in a way that went beyond words. The world tapered to just this—his blue eyes searching hers, his warm hand against her skin, the space between them charged.
Isabelle held her breath but nodded again, the barest dip of her chin.
Bucky lowered his head with aching slowness, giving her every chance to pull away. His breath ghosted warm against her skin first, a warning, a promise. Then his lips pressed against the worst of the bruising—so gently it was barely a touch at all.
The kiss was reverent, healing in its intent rather than demanding. His lips lingered there for one heartbeat, two, three—warm against the tender skin where John’s fingers had squeezed—the simple human contact after so much violence made something crack inside her chest.
Isabelle’s eyes fluttered closed, her hands coming up instinctively to rest against his chest. She curled her fingers into the worn leather of his jacket, anchoring herself to him as though he were the only solid thing in a spinning world. Beneath her right palm, she could feel his heart pounding as hard as her own.
When he started to pull away, her grip tightened reflexively, holding him there. Not ready to lose this moment, this connection that felt like the first real thing she’d touched in months.
“Bucky,” she whispered, his name a question and an answer all at once.
His forehead came to rest against hers, their breath mingling in the narrow space between them. His metal hand came up slowly, hovering near her waist but not quite touching, as though he didn’t trust it with this fragile moment.
“I shouldn’t have let him get that close to you,” he murmured, the words rough with self-recrimination. “I saw what was happening, and I wasn’t fast enough.”
Isabelle pulled back just enough to meet his eyes, her hands still gripping his jacket. “Don’t.” The command was soft but firm. “We both know I can handle myself.”
Something shifted in his expression—respect mingling with the protective instinct that seemed hardwired into him. His flesh hand moved from her jaw to her hair, fingers threading through the strands carefully.
“Yeah,” he agreed, his voice dropping to that low register that seemed to vibrate through her bones. “You can. Doesn’t mean you should have to.”
The words hung between them, weighted with everything they’d both survived alone. Everything they might not have to face alone anymore.
Isabelle looked up at him, meeting his eyes again—eyes that watched her now, wary and wanting all at once, like a man who’d forgotten how to trust simple comforts but couldn’t stop himself from reaching for them anyway.
She brought her hand up slowly, giving him time to pull away if he needed to. “You don’t have to do this alone,” she whispered. “Neither of us does.”
Bucky leaned into her touch, almost imperceptibly, like a man starved for contact but afraid to admit it. His eyes darkened, pupils expanding as they dropped to her lips for the briefest moment.
“Isabelle,” he said, her name sounding different in his mouth than it ever had before—not a warning or a question, but something closer to a prayer.
She rose slightly on her toes, her hand sliding from his cheek to the nape of his neck, fingers threading through the soft hair there. She guided him down to her, giving him every chance to stop this, to step away.
He didn’t.
Their lips met softly at first. A careful press of mouth against mouth, gentle enough that she could feel the slight tremor in his exhale. His right hand came up to cradle her face, thumb brushing along her cheekbone with such tenderness it made her chest ache.
For a moment, they stayed like that, suspended in the fragile space between what they had been to each other and what they might become. Then Bucky made a sound—low in his throat, half surrender and half need—and the kiss deepened.
His lips moved against hers with growing confidence, still gentle but no longer hesitant. Isabelle responded in kind, her fingers tightening in his hair, drawing him closer. She tasted metal and warmth, something distinctly him that made her head spin slightly.
She hummed softly against his mouth, the sound vibrating between them. His metal arm finally, finally wrapped around her waist, pulling her against him with careful strength. The plates shifted and recalibrated against her lower back, cool, a counterpoint to the heat of his body pressed against hers.
The kiss wasn’t frantic or desperate. It unfolded with the patience of people who’d survived enough to know that rushing meant missing something. His thumb traced small circles on her cheek as his mouth moved against hers, learning her, memorizing her.
When they finally broke apart, just enough to breathe, Bucky’s forehead rested against hers. His eyes remained closed, dark lashes fanned against his cheeks. The expression on his face wasn’t peace—Isabelle doubted either of them remembered what that felt like—but something closer to surrender, as though he’d been fighting this for longer than he cared to admit.
“Come with me,” Bucky said suddenly, the words escaping him like a confession. His eyes snapped open, intense blue cutting through the light of the alley. “To deal with Zemo.”
Isabelle felt her breath catch. She searched his face, looking for doubt or regret, but found only that steady, penetrating gaze—the one that seemed to see straight through her carefully constructed walls.
“You want me there?” she asked, her voice smaller than she intended, the question loaded with meaning beyond the simple words.
Bucky’s thumb brushed across her lower lip, still sensitive from his kiss. “I wouldn’t ask if I didn’t,” he said, quieter now. “But you don’t have to.”
Isabelle’s pulse jumped beneath her skin. “When do we leave?” she asked, a slight smirk on her face, her throat tight with something that wasn’t quite fear, wasn’t quite anticipation.
His eyes traced over her face, lingering on the determined set of her jaw. Something shifted in his expression—surprise, maybe, or reluctant admiration.
“We’ll head out in the morning,” Bucky replied, his hand sliding from her face to her shoulder, then down her arm in a slow, deliberate movement that left goosebumps in its wake. His fingers intertwined with hers, metal against flesh, the contrast sending a shiver up her spine. The gesture was so casual, so intimate, that it momentarily stole her breath.
Isabelle looked up at him—at the man who’d survived a century of war and loss and brainwashing, who’d clawed his way back to humanity inch by bloody inch. At the shadows under his eyes and the tension in his jaw and the way he held himself like he was always braced for a blow. At the way he was looking at her now—like she was something rare and dangerous and precious all at once.
Isabelle nodded, feeling a strange sense of certainty settle over her. Whatever came next—whatever darkness they were walking into—at least neither of them would be facing it alone.
“Lead the way, Barnes,” she said softly, squeezing his hand.
Bucky’s expression softened almost imperceptibly. He lifted their joined hands, pressing his lips to her knuckles in a gesture so unexpectedly gentle it made her throat tighten.
They didn’t speak again. Not as they walked in silence down the block. Not as they stepped out into the dimming daylight. Not as they made their way toward the hotel to grab what little they’d brought with them — two ghosts in superhero costumes, bloodied and broken and still standing.
Together.
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After the battlefield comes the quiet—hot showers, bruised silences, and a shared hotel room heavy with exhaustion.
Isabelle and Bucky don’t say much. They don’t need to.She asks him not to sleep on the floor.
He takes her hand.Just one night. One soft, quiet moment—together.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 67: Let Me Rest Where You Are
Chapter 67: Let Me Rest Where You Are
Summary:
A train to Sokovia.
A secret finally spoken.
Isabelle confesses what she’s been hiding—about the serum, the voice, and the thing inside her that’s starting to win.Bucky listens. And then he stays.
Sometimes healing doesn’t come from answers.
Sometimes it comes from the person who doesn’t look away.
Notes:
Hey guys!!!! So okay, plot twist, I know I said the next update would be Wednesday BUT I ended up with some last-minute dinner plans and I’m not 100% sure I’ll be able to post tomorrow night... soooo I figured I’d post tonight just in case! (and if I can still post tomorrow? You’re just getting two in a row. We win either way.)
ALSO—double posting now because not gonna lie, the next chapter is probably the shortest one I’ve written for this fic? But like. It gets the job done. I didn’t want to pad it just for word count’s sake, so I’m just throwing it up right after this one.
AND HOLY CRAP YOU GUYS. 16k?!?!!?!? WHAT. YOU’RE ALL AMAZING. Lemme just go sob into my keyboard real quick while I queue up the next chapter. 😭😭😭
OH AND ONE MORE THING...
WELCOME TO ACT 4!!!!!!!!!!! 💚💚💚
WE MADE IT!!! And I’m SO excited for what’s coming—so many Bucky/Izzy moments ahead 🥹 Soft stuff. Cute stuff. Some spice 👀 (just a heads up if that’s not your vibe—but let’s be honest, I think most of you are ready lol.)Thank you so much for reading, supporting, and screaming with me—love you all!!!
See you in like five minutes for the next one 💕
ALSO, here's the playlist on my Spotify for Act 4 for anyone interested! From there, you can find the previous playlists on my profile on Spotify for the other acts too!!!
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🎵Chapter song vibes: "From Eden" by Hozier
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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The hotel door clicked shut behind them, and it was like the tension holding their spines upright finally snapped.
Neither of them spoke.
Not right away.
The silence wasn’t awkward—it was the kind that settled over people who had run out of adrenaline and things to say. Their bodies simply… sagged. Isabelle toed off her boots with slow, dragging movements, barely able to lift her eyes from the hardwood floors. Bucky hung his jacket on the corner of the coat rack, shoulders slumped and fingers flexing as though unsure what to do without a weapon in his hand.
They were safe. For now. Or at least safer than they had been in a while. That alone felt disorienting.
“You shower first,” Bucky said, voice low, roughened by exhaustion and something gentler.
Isabelle nodded, too tired to argue. She didn’t grab fresh clothes—just moved toward the bathroom like her bones remembered the path. The door clicked shut behind her.
He heard the water start moments later, the soft hiss filling the space like white noise. Bucky crossed to the room service menu without thinking, scanning with bleary eyes until he found something close enough to comfort food. Something with real calories. Something easy.
By the time Isabelle emerged, steam curled around her like phantom limbs. Her hair was bundled in a towel, water droplets still clinging to her collarbone, disappearing beneath the thin hotel robe. She paused in the doorway, nostrils flaring at the scent of food. Bucky watched her register the room service cart he’d wheeled in. Something flickered in her eyes—surprise, maybe gratitude—before her expression shuttered again.
“You got food?” she said, voice still rough around the edges.
“Figured we could both use the calories.” He gestured to the spread. More soup and dumplings, and whatever else seemed like comfort food when he’d been staring blankly at the menu.
Isabelle nodded once, then padded to the room she’d claimed yesterday, leaving damp footprints on the hardwood. The door clicked shut, and Bucky exhaled, running his metal hand through his hair. He wasn’t good at this. Whatever this was. Taking care of someone who wasn’t Steve. Being around someone who knew exactly what he was and didn’t flinch.
When she emerged again, she’d traded the robe for an oversized black hoodie that swallowed her frame and a pair of shorts that revealed legs mapped with fading bruises and fresh scrapes. She’d removed the towel, letting her damp hair fall in waves around her shoulders.
She dropped into the chair across from him without ceremony, tucking one leg beneath her. No preamble, no small talk—just reached for a dumpling, and brought it to her mouth. The slight tremor in her fingers didn’t escape his notice.
“Water’s still hot,” he said, pushing a glass of tea toward her. “If you want it.”
Isabelle took it, their fingers brushing against each other. Neither acknowledged the contact. “Thanks,” she murmured, before taking a long drink.
Bucky watched her eat, cataloging details with the precision that had been drilled into him over decades. The bruises at her throat had darkened to a deep purple, stark against her clean skin. There was a cut at her hairline that he hadn’t noticed before. Her shoulders remained tense even as she sank deeper into the chair, as if some part of her was still braced for impact.
She caught him looking and raised an eyebrow. “What?”
“Your neck,” he said, gesturing vaguely. “It’s worse.”
Isabelle’s fingers drifted to the bruises, touching them with a detached curiosity. “Walker’s got a hell of a grip.” She shrugged, but Bucky saw the flash of something raw in her eyes. “Not the first time someone’s tried to choke the life out of a Stark.”
The casual way she said it made something in his chest tighten. She reached for another dumpling, and he noticed the split skin across her knuckles—defensive wounds. Fighter’s hands. They matched his own.
“You should ice that,” he said, softer than he intended.
“It’ll go away on its own after I eat and sleep.” She took a bite of her food, closing her eyes briefly as she chewed. When she opened them again, she nodded toward the bathroom. “Go. Before the hot water’s gone and you’re stuck with a cold shower.”
It wasn’t quite concern in her voice, but it wasn’t indifference either. Bucky hesitated, then stood, muscles protesting after too many hours of tension. “Save me some.”
A ghost of a smile touched her lips. “No promises, Barnes.”
He paused at the bathroom door, looking back at her. He smirked, then slipped into the bathroom, closing the door behind him. Steam still lingered from her shower, fogging the mirror and clinging to his skin. He exhaled slowly, letting the white noise of the ventilation fan wash over him as he started the water again.
She was curled up on the couch when he returned. One leg tucked under her, hoodie loose around her frame, making her look smaller than she was—more vulnerable than the woman who’d fought beside him hours earlier. Her fingers wrapped around a half-empty glass of tea, condensation leaving a damp ring on her knee. The TV was on but muted—just a flickering lightshow in the corner.
Bucky ran the towel over his damp hair one last time before dropping it around his shoulders. The hotel’s cheap shampoo clung to him, generic and clean. He lowered himself onto the opposite end of the couch, the cushions dipping beneath his weight. His muscles ached in that particular way that came after too much adrenaline had burned through his system, leaving only the hollow shell of exhaustion behind.
The silence between them felt like a third presence in the room—not uncomfortable, but weighted with things neither had the energy to say.
Isabelle shifted, her body angling toward him almost imperceptibly. Her cheek came to rest against the back cushion, half-dried hair spilling over the fabric. Her eyelids drooped, then fluttered open, then drooped again.
“You should go to bed,” he said, voice barely above a whisper, as if speaking any louder might shatter whatever fragile peace they’d found.
She blinked up at him, eyes heavy with exhaustion but still somehow alert. Always watching, always assessing—a habit he recognized from his own reflection. “I know.”
Neither of them moved.
After a long moment, she added, “Please don’t sleep on the floor tonight.” Her voice had lost its usual edge, that sharp Stark precision replaced by something softer, almost hesitant.
The corner of his mouth tugged upward. “You know I’m going to.”
“Bucky.”
Something in the way she said his name made him look over. Her voice was soft, and her teeth caught her bottom lip, worrying it slightly before releasing. Her eyes, usually so guarded, held something open and honest that made his chest constrict.
“Don’t make me sleep alone tonight,” she continued, each word careful, measured.
The request hung between them. He could see the effort it had taken her to voice it—Isabelle Stark, who never admitted weakness, who kept everyone at arm’s length, who wore her isolation like armor.
He didn’t answer. Couldn’t find the words that wouldn’t sound like a promise or a rejection.
So she stood, unfolding herself from the couch with a grace that belied her exhaustion. The television light caught the curve of her face, the shadows under her eyes, the fading cut at her hairline. She held out her hand to him—palm up, fingers slightly curled, an invitation rather than a demand.
“C’mon,” she said, voice barely more than breath. “We both deserve one night in a soft, stupidly plush bed.”
He stared at her outstretched hand as if it were a live wire—something that could either power or destroy him. His metal fingers flexed once, twice at his side, the plates recalibrating with a soft whir that filled the space between them.
“I’m not pressuring you,” she added, her voice dropping even lower. “You know that, right? I don’t…expect anything but sleep. Actual sleep.”
Bucky nodded once. His flesh hand rose slowly, hesitantly, before his calloused fingers slid against her palm. Her hand was warm. Startlingly so. Like she carried some internal fire that the world hadn’t managed to extinguish, despite everything it had thrown at her. His thumb brushed over her knuckles, feeling the split skin there.
“I just...” Isabelle hesitated, her eyes dropping to where their hands connected. “I can’t do tonight alone.”
Bucky swallowed hard, Adam’s apple bobbing beneath the shadow of stubble. Then, after a pause that felt like crossing some invisible threshold: “Me either.”
The relief that washed over her face was subtle but unmistakable—a slight softening around her eyes, the barest release of tension in her shoulders. She tugged gently on his hand, leading him down the short hallway toward the bedroom. Her fingers remained laced with his, neither of them willing to be the first to let go.
And when the door clicked softly shut behind them, it wasn’t the tension that held them upright anymore.
It was each other.
They didn’t turn on the bedroom light.
The darkness felt safer somehow—a thin veil of protection where neither could fully see the other’s vulnerability. Isabelle padded toward the bed, her footsteps whisper-soft in the dim wash of amber streetlight filtering through the half-drawn curtains.
She let go of his hand only when she reached the bed, her fingers sliding from his with reluctance. The mattress dipped beneath her weight as she pulled back the comforter, the soft rustle of expensive cotton breaking the silence. She crawled in first, curling on her side facing the window. The hotel sheets felt cool against her flushed skin, soothing the ache of bruises she’d stopped counting.
Bucky stood motionless at the edge of the bed. She could feel the war raging inside him—decades of conditioning telling him to remain vigilant, never to let his guard down, battling against the bone-deep exhaustion and something else. Something that might have been longing.
Finally, he exhaled through his nose—a sound of surrender—and moved to the other side of the bed. The mattress shifted under his weight as he lowered himself with a soft grunt, his movements measured and cautious, as if he might break something.
He didn’t get under the covers.
He lay flat on his back above the blankets like a soldier at attention, arms folded across his chest, eyes fixed on the ceiling. Even in the near-darkness, she could see the rigid line of his jaw, the tension radiating off him in waves. His breathing was too controlled, too even—a man forcing himself to appear relaxed.
“You know you’re allowed to be warm, right?” Isabelle murmured into the dark, her voice barely disturbing the silence.
Bucky huffed softly, the sound almost like a laugh but not quite reaching it. “I’m fine.”
“You’re lying on a mattress that costs more than most people’s rent, Bucky.” She shifted slightly, the sheets rustling beneath her. “Get under the damn blanket.”
She didn’t look back, but she heard the long pause. The slight hesitation. Then the rustle of fabric as he lifted his hips just enough to pull the comforter from beneath him. The mattress dipped and shifted as he slipped beneath the covers, his movements slow and deliberate, as if he was trying not to disturb the fragile peace they’d established.
“Happy?” he muttered, but there was no bite to it—just exhaustion and something that might have been relief.
A small smile tugged at her lips, hidden in the darkness. “A little.”
The silence returned, but different now—less guarded, more shared. His breathing had changed, becoming less measured, more natural. She could feel the warmth radiating from him even with the careful distance he maintained between them.
“That’s not why I was on top of the covers,” he said suddenly, his voice low and rough, like something being dredged up from depths he rarely visited.
Isabelle blinked, momentarily confused. “Huh?”
“You said...” He paused, and she heard him swallow. “You said I’m allowed to be warm. That’s...that’s not why.”
She waited, giving him space to find the words. “Then why?” she asked when he didn’t continue, her voice gentler than she usually allowed it to be.
The mattress shifted as Bucky’s flesh hand moved, hesitant, then settled on the mattress in the space between them—not touching her, but closer than before. She felt the weight of it, the proximity, as acutely as if he’d placed it on her skin.
“Because I haven’t shared a bed with anyone since 1943,” he said finally, the words coming out slow and careful, like he was handling something that might shatter. “And I’m not sure I remember how.”
The raw honesty in his voice made something in Isabelle’s chest constrict painfully. She remained still, facing away from him, afraid that if she turned, whatever was happening would dissolve like morning fog. Her teeth caught her bottom lip, chewing it slightly as she absorbed his words—all the history behind them, all the years of isolation they represented.
“I think,” she said softly, choosing her words with the same care he had, “it’s like riding a bicycle. Your body remembers, even when your mind thinks it’s forgotten.”
His fingers twitched against the sheet, so close to her back now that she could feel the subtle movement disturb the air. “And if I have nightmares?” The question came out barely above a whisper, edged with a vulnerability he rarely showed—the fear not of the nightmares themselves, but of what he might do during them.
“Then I’ll wake you up,” she said simply, no hesitation. “And if I have nightmares, you’ll do the same.”
For a while, they just lay there—two shapes in the quiet, both pretending the nearness wasn’t doing things to their breathing. The silence stretched. Not awkward, not heavy. Just… full.
Then she felt it.
His fingers—warm flesh, not cool metal—brushed against her hip. The touch was feather-light, barely there, as if testing boundaries neither had acknowledged existed. Then a pause. His hand hovered, not retreating but not advancing either—a question hanging in the air between them.
She didn’t move away. Couldn’t. Didn’t want to.
Instead, she exhaled softly, the tension in her shoulders melting just enough that her body shifted toward his—a silent answer to his unspoken question.
Bucky moved then, the mattress dipping with his weight as he shifted closer. His arm slid around her waist with careful deliberation. The warmth of his palm settled against her abdomen through the thin fabric of her hoodie, and he pulled her gently but firmly back toward him.
Her body fit against his like a missing piece slotting into place. The solid wall of his chest pressed against her back, his thighs tucking perfectly behind hers. The heat of him enveloped her, chasing away a chill she hadn’t realized had settled in her bones.
His breath was warm against the back of her neck. He didn’t speak; he didn’t ask for permission beyond that initial, hesitant touch. Just pressed the length of himself along her back, chest to spine, as if they’d done this a thousand times before. His metal arm slipped beneath her with surprising gentleness, the plates whirring softly as they recalibrated to support her weight without causing discomfort. His hand came to rest against her ribs, fingers splayed wide, the cool metal warming quickly against her skin through the fabric.
The weight of his arm across her body felt like an anchor—grounding them both in this moment, in this bed, away from the chaos that had followed them for days. For years.
Isabelle exhaled, the air leaving her lungs in a soft rush. Her body relaxed against his, tension bleeding out of her muscles one by one. “You okay?” she whispered, her voice barely disturbing the quiet darkness.
His voice was low, rough with exhaustion yet somehow softer than she’d ever heard it. “I am now.” The words rumbled through his chest, vibrating against her back, honest in a way that made something in her chest constrict.
They lay like that for a minute. Then two. Isabelle’s hand moved almost of its own accord, finding his where it rested against her ribs. Her fingers slid between his, the contrast between her smooth skin and his calloused palm sending a small shiver through her. She felt his breath catch, just slightly, at the contact.
“This okay?” she whispered, her voice barely disturbing the darkness.
His response was to tighten his hold, drawing her infinitesimally closer. He softly pressed his lips against the back of her shoulder. Gentle. Hesitant. Before she could process it, he kissed her again, higher this time, brushing against the curve where her neck met her shoulder. His stubble scraped lightly against her skin, sending goosebumps cascading down her arm.
Isabelle turned in his arms slowly, the sheets whispering beneath them as she shifted to face him. In the half-light filtering through the curtains, his eyes were dark pools, searching hers with an intensity that made her breath hitch. Still guarded, still wary—the Winter Soldier never truly slept—but something else lived there now. Something warm, uncertain, and achingly human.
She reached up, hesitating for just a heartbeat before running her fingers gently through his short hair. Bucky’s eyes fluttered closed at her touch, a slight furrow appeared between his brows, not from pain but from the effort of allowing himself this moment of peace.
“I like this,” she whispered, her fingers continuing their gentle path through his hair, watching as the tension gradually melted from his features. “Just this.”
His eyes opened again, meeting hers with a startling clarity. “Me too,” he murmured, his voice rough with something that wasn’t quite sleep.
For a moment, they just looked at each other. Then Bucky leaned forward and pressed his lips to her forehead—soft, deliberate, lingering. His hand came up to cup the back of her head, cradling her with a gentleness that seemed impossible from a man with so much blood on his hands.
Isabelle couldn’t help but smile as a small curve formed on her lips when she nestled against his chest, her ear pressed against his heart. The steady rhythm beneath her cheek was oddly comforting. “That was disgustingly sweet, Barnes,” she murmured, but there was no bite to her words.
His chest rumbled with a quiet laugh. “Don’t tell anyone,” he whispered into her hair. “I’ve got a reputation to maintain.”
She tilted her head up, just enough that their faces were inches apart. His breath mingled with hers, warm and genuine. “Your secret’s safe with me,” she breathed.
She tilted her head up, just enough that their mouths hovered close. The kiss that followed was slow, timid—like they were both testing the weight of it. No hunger, no urgency. Just the kind of kiss that asked, “Are you still here?” And answered, “I’m not going anywhere.”
His hand cupped her jaw, rough thumb stroking just beneath her cheekbone. Her fingers slid along his arm, up into the collar of his shirt. He kissed her again—longer this time. Deeper.
Their touches stayed slow. Curious. The pads of his fingers were tracing the curve of her waist, the inside of her wrist. Her palm mapping the line of his ribs, the back of his neck. Exploratory. Careful. At one point, her nose bumped his, and they both smiled—soft and breathless in the dark.
Eventually, the kisses slowed. Their bodies settled. His arm stayed draped across her, hand tucked beneath her shoulder blade. Her head found the space between his chest and neck, fingers curled lightly against his shirt. Their legs tangled—no more words.
Sleep took them like a tide. Steady and quiet.
The train rumbled quietly beneath them, smooth and rhythmic, a low lullaby of motion as Europe blurred by the windows.
Isabelle sat with her back against the window, one leg pulled up onto the cushioned bench, chin resting on her knee. The other leg dangled, her boot occasionally tapping against the carpeted floor in an unconscious rhythm that matched the clacking of the wheels on the track. Outside, forested hills rolled past in watercolor smears of green and brown, stitched together by silver threads of distant rivers. The late afternoon sun caught in her hair, turning the edges to copper where it spilled over her shoulders.
It should have been peaceful.
Should have.
But they were heading toward Sokovia—or what was left of it.
Zemo hadn’t left a trail—but they didn’t need one. Bucky’s gut told him the man would return to the ruins of his home, to the memorial he’d built with blood and bone and vengeance. It made sense in that twisted way Zemo’s mind worked—sentimentalism laced with strategy. If he had one last move to make, he’d make it there.
Bucky sat across from her, elbows resting on his knees, hands clasped loosely between them. His metal fingers gleamed dully in the slanting sunlight. He wasn’t watching the scenery.
He was watching her.
“You ever gonna tell me what that look was about?” he asked finally after twenty minutes of silence, voice low enough that it barely carried over the train’s hum.
Her eyes flickered to his, then away. “What look?”
“You and Sam,” he said, watching her face, seeing the momentary tightening around her eyes. There was an almost indiscernible tension in her jaw. “Back at the warehouse. That... silent conversation. After you put Walker down.”
Her posture didn’t change, but her eyes blinked slowly. The movement reminded him of a cat assessing whether to retreat or attack. When she turned to face him fully, her expression wasn’t surprised or defensive. It was simply tired. Bone-deep exhaustion that made the bruises under her eyes look darker than they had that morning.
“I was hoping you’d forget that,” she murmured, her voice carrying a rough edge that hadn’t been there before.
He raised an eyebrow, the corner of his mouth quirking up without humor.
She exhaled, dragging her fingers down her face, pressing hard enough against her eyes that he knew she was seeing stars behind her lids. “Yeah. Stupid thought.”
The silence stretched between them, filled only by the rhythmic sway of the train and the occasional announcement in languages neither bothered to translate. She turned back to the window, watching the trees flash by, sunlight threading through the leaves and casting dappled shadows across her face.
“You don’t have to tell me,” Bucky said, his voice quieter now, rough around the edges in a way that surprised even him. He leaned forward, closing some of the distance between them. Not crowding, just... present. “But if you want to... I’m here.”
Something flickered across her face—surprise, maybe. Or recognition. Her eyes met his, searching for something. Whatever she found made her swallow hard.
That broke something. Not in a loud way. Just a small internal crack, like an overextended muscle finally giving in. Her shoulders sagged a fraction of an inch, the rigid line of her spine softening as she pulled both legs up onto the seat, wrapping her arms around her knees.
“I—” Isabelle started, then stopped. She stared at the passing landscape, though Bucky could tell she wasn’t seeing it.
The train hummed beneath them, a gentle vibration that traveled up through the soles of their boots. Bucky waited, giving her the space to find whatever words she was wrestling with. He knew about words that cut your throat on the way out.
“After the funeral,” she finally continued, her voice so low he might have missed it without enhanced hearing. “After Steve left.” Her fingers tapped an uneven rhythm against her knee. “I got low. Really low.”
Bucky nodded once, not interrupting, just acknowledging. He knew what low meant. Had lived in that basement for decades.
“Did odd jobs for this person—Valentina.” Isabelle’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin. “She’s CIA now, director, actually. But she used to run this company, OXE.”
The acronym pinged something in Bucky’s memory—a file he’d glimpsed, maybe, or a name on a HYDRA database.
“She offered me...” Isabelle’s voice caught, and she pressed her fingertips hard against her thigh. “A serum, she called it. Injections.”
Bucky didn’t move, but his whole body seemed to still, the way it did before a shot. The word “serum” landed between them like a grenade with the pin pulled.
“What kind of serum?” he asked, his voice carefully neutral despite the alarm bells ringing in his head.
Isabelle’s laugh was brittle, like glass about to shatter. “The kind that was supposed to suppress it. What my mother put in me.” Her fingers curled into fists, knuckles going white. “Whatever makes me... this.” She finally looked at him, and the raw vulnerability in her eyes hit him like a physical blow. “Valentina said it’d cure me,” she whispered.
Bucky felt his chest tighten. He knew about wanting to be cured, about wanting to cut out the parts of yourself that felt wrong, dangerous, monstrous. He’d spent years trying to excise the Winter Soldier from his mind, only to realize it wasn’t something that could be removed—just integrated, controlled, understood.
“But it didn’t,” he said softly, a statement rather than a question.
Isabelle gave a bitter laugh, the sound scraping against the quiet of their compartment. “All it did was feed it. Make it grow stronger.” Her hand drifted up to her temple, pressing against it as if trying to keep something contained. “Make it louder.”
She didn’t have to explain what “it” was.
“The fear thing,” he said slowly, the pieces clicking into place. “With Walker.”
Isabelle nodded, a quick, jerky movement. “I didn’t just sense his fear. I amplified it. Pushed it back at him.” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “Made him taste it.”
The confession hung in the air between them. Bucky remembered the look on John’s face—the wide-eyed panic, the sweat beading on his forehead, the way he’d backed away from her like she was something from a nightmare.
“Sam knows,” Bucky said, another piece falling into place. “That’s what that look was about.”
She nodded again, this time more reluctantly.
“I didn’t even mean to do it,” she admitted. “With Walker, I just…reacted.” Her shoulders hunched forward slightly, as if she could make herself smaller. “After everything he did, the shield covered in blood—” She broke off, swallowing hard. “I felt him going to try for it again. And something inside me just... lashed out.”
Bucky watched her hands curl into fists, then deliberately flatten against her thighs.
“I hear this voice sometimes,” she continued, each word seeming to cost her something. “In my head.” Her eyes darted to his face, then away, as if afraid of what she might find there. “It’s been getting louder.”
Bucky shifted slightly. He’d heard his share of voices—the echo of handlers, the remnants of programming, the ghosts of those he’d killed. But this felt different.
“Does it scare you?” he asked, his voice low and careful. “The voice.”
Her eyes flicked to his, sharp and startled, as if she hadn’t expected the question. The train rocked gently beneath them, the steady clack of wheels against tracks filling the silence between them. Outside, the landscape had begun to change—less forest, more open fields dotted with distant farmhouses.
Something shifted in her expression—a wall coming down, just for a moment. Her throat worked as she swallowed.
“Yeah,” she whispered finally, the single word carrying the weight of a confession. “All the time.”
The admission hung between them, fragile and raw. Bucky nodded once, a slight dip of his chin, then turned to look out the window. His jaw tightened, muscle jumping beneath the stubble.
“What does it sound like?” he asked after a moment, still facing the window. Not pushing, just... opening a door. Offering a chance to speak about the unspeakable.
Isabelle drew in a shaky breath. Her reflection in the glass watched his; their eyes met in that ghostly mirror world, rather than directly.
“Like me, but... not me.” Her fingers curled around the edge of the seat, knuckles whitening. “Colder. Sharper. It whispers things I...” She trailed off, teeth catching her bottom lip. “Things I want to do sometimes. When I’m angry or scared.”
She shifted, drawing one knee closer to her chest.
“With Walker, it wasn’t whispering. It was...” Her eyes darkened, pupils dilating slightly at the memory. “It was screaming. Telling me to make him feel everything he’s done. Make him drown in it.”
Bucky turned back to her, studying her face. Not with judgment or fear—with recognition. The quiet understanding of someone who knew what it meant to have something else living under your skin.
“And you listened,” he said softly.
She met his gaze directly now, chin lifting slightly. “Not completely. If I had...” Her voice hardened, a flash of something cold and ancient in her eyes. “He wouldn’t have walked away.”
The implication hung between them, heavy and unspoken. What she could have done. What she had restrained herself from doing.
Bucky’s flesh hand moved across the space between them, hesitating for just a moment before covering hers, where it gripped the edge of the seat. His thumb brushed over her knuckles, a small, grounding gesture.
Isabelle stared at their hands, at the point where they connected. His thumb brushed over her knuckles in a small, grounding gesture that made her throat tighten.
“I just wanted to stop being... me,” she swallowed hard, tasting something bitter at the back of her tongue. “Make the pain go away.”
Bucky’s eyes never left her face.
“And the serum?” he asked quietly. “You still taking it?”
“No.” She shook her head firmly. “Stopped cold turkey a few months ago.”
He could see it now—the slight tremor in her fingers that he’d attributed to exhaustion, the occasional unfocused look in her eyes, the way she sometimes seemed to be listening to something no one else could hear. Not just trauma or fatigue. Withdrawal.
His hand shifted, fingers sliding between hers in a gesture that was somehow both casual and intimate. “That’s why you’ve been—” he gestured vaguely at her with his metal hand.
“A complete disaster?” she supplied, one eyebrow arching. The corner of her mouth twitched upward, not quite a smile. “Only partially. The rest is just my natural charm.”
The train rounded another bend, and for a moment, her eyes caught the light, turning them golden—warm and vulnerable in a way that made something in Bucky’s chest constrict. He’d seen those eyes cold with rage, sharp with calculation, dull with exhaustion. But this—this raw, unguarded moment—felt rare. Precious, even.
“So that’s it,” she said, her voice dropping to barely above a whisper. “That’s my dirty little secret. I’m not just fucked up. I’m actively getting worse.” She gave a small, self-deprecating shrug that didn’t match the fear in her eyes. “Turns out I’m more like my mother than anyone thought.”
Bucky leaned forward, elbows on his knees, then exhaled slowly. Not a sigh—something deeper, more deliberate. As if he were trying to organize his thoughts before they spilled out wrong. His eyes tracked the passing landscape for a moment, then returned to her face with that quiet intensity that made her feel simultaneously exposed and understood.
Without warning, he rose from his seat, crossing the small space between them and lowering himself beside her on the bench, close enough that she could feel the warmth radiating from his body, but not so close that she felt crowded.
Isabelle looked up at him, not alarmed but wide-eyed, like she was unsure whether to bolt or stay. Her pulse quickened, though whether from nervousness or something else, she couldn’t say.
“Isabelle.” The way he said her name, soft but firm, made her breath hitch. “I know something about being unmade,” he said, each word weighted with decades of experience. “About having something put inside you that changes who you are.” His metal fingers flexed, plates recalibrating with a soft whir. “And I know something about putting yourself back together after.”
Her eyes tracked the movement of his hand, then lifted back to his face. “And if I can’t?” Her voice caught on the last word, betraying the fear she’d been trying to bury. “If whatever they did to me is... permanent?”
Bucky held her gaze, unflinching. “Then you learn to live with it. You find the edges of what you can control and what you can’t.” His voice roughened, catching on memories she could almost see flickering behind his eyes.
A flicker of something—not quite hope, but maybe its distant cousin—crossed her face. She bit her lip, teeth worrying the soft flesh as she considered his words. Then, with a deliberateness that surprised even her, she reached for his metal arm and lifted it, guiding it around her shoulders.
The gesture was bold and vulnerable, and for a heartbeat, his arm remained stiff and hesitant. Then she felt the tension drain from him as he adjusted, letting his arm settle more naturally around her, the weight of it both solid and comforting.
A small, soft smile tugged at the corner of his mouth—the kind that reached his eyes, crinkling the corners in a way that made him look younger, more like the man from the history books and less like the weapon HYDRA had forged. It was a rare expression, one she’d seen only a handful of times, usually when he thought no one was looking.
Isabelle shifted closer, draping her arm around his waist, fitting herself against his side like a puzzle piece finding its place. Her head came to rest against his shoulder, and she felt rather than heard the small exhale he released—not quite a sigh, but a sound of something tight finally loosening.
“Thanks,” she murmured, the word muffled against the fabric of his jacket. It seemed inadequate for what she was trying to convey—gratitude not just for his words, but for his understanding. For not looking at her as if she were broken or dangerous, or both.
His chest expanded with a deep breath, and she felt his chin come to rest lightly on the top of her head. “Anytime, doll.”
Then, so gently she might have imagined it, his lips pressed against her hair—not quite a kiss, more like an acknowledgment. An affirmation
They sat like that as the train continued its journey, the countryside blurring past the windows in smudges of green and gold. Neither spoke. Neither needed to. The quiet between them had transformed from something heavy with unspoken fears to something almost peaceful—a shared understanding that didn’t require words.
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In the ruins of Sokovia, Isabelle and Bucky confront Zemo—and themselves.
No shots fired. No forgiveness given. But the past finally loosens its grip.
Closure doesn’t come easy. But it comes.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 68: Fewer Than Yesterday
Chapter 68: Fewer Than Yesterday
Summary:
The ruins are behind them, but not out of mind.
As the train hums toward Prague, Isabelle and Bucky sit in the quiet after the storm—haunted by what was said, what was done, and what still lingers between them.
Names in a book. Ghosts in their heads.
And hands that reach across the silence anyway.
Notes:
And… with that… ZEMO is officially gone. Off to the Raft, where he belongs. 👋💀 Honestly, I have no idea if I’m going to bring him back??? Still debating. Thinking. Scheming. (I do love writing him, so… maybe? We’ll see 😈)
Anyway!! If I don’t end up being able to post tomorrow, I’ll see y’all Thursday! 💕 Thanks so much for reading!!
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Wave of Mutilation" by Pixies
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Chapter Text
The ruins of Sokovia lay before them like the aftermath of a storm, frozen in time. Not just any storm—a cataclysm that had ripped an entire city from the earth and hurled it toward the sky.
Isabelle's boots crunched across the polished stone, unnaturally smooth where energy weapons and superhuman force had seared it. The ground beneath her feet was a memorial of sorts—the exact spot where a city had been torn from the earth's crust. The silence here felt wrong. Oppressive. Like the air itself was holding its breath.
She glanced sideways at Bucky. His right hand remained tucked deep in his jacket pocket while his shoulders hunched forward slightly. Isabelle fought the urge to reach for him. Her fingers twitched at her side, but she curled them into a fist instead.
They walked in silence for several more minutes, their footsteps echoing across the barren landscape. The crater's edge loomed ahead, a jagged circle carved into the earth where Ultron had ripped the city's heart out. From here, Isabelle could see the drop-off—hundreds of feet down to where the ground had been crushed by falling debris.
The edges of her vision blurred, not with tears, but with memory.
Not full images—just flashes. The sickening grind of metal against concrete. Screams buried beneath collapsing buildings. A blast of blue light so bright it burned her retinas. Tony's voice crackling through her comms, breaking up as she fell. A little girl clutching a stuffed rabbit, eyes wide with terror. Her own hands, trembling as she tried to heal what couldn't be fixed.
Her powers stirred beneath her skin, responding to the phantom pain of hundreds who had died here.
"Hey." Bucky's voice cut through the noise in her head, low and rough—a lifeline.
She blinked. Looked up. He was watching her, his jaw tense, his brows drawn together in concern. The wind ruffled his dark hair, pushing it across his forehead. His eyes—clear blue, steady—anchored her to the present.
"You can turn back," he said gently. No judgment in his tone. Just understanding. The understanding of someone who knew exactly what it was like to be haunted by places where terrible things had happened.
Isabelle swallowed hard. Her fingers twitched at her side before she reached for his hand, pulling it out from his pocket. His skin was warm against hers, calloused palm rough against her fingers. She squeezed, grounding herself in the contact.
"And let you have all the fun?" she asked, forcing a half-smile that didn't quite reach her eyes. "Not a chance, Barnes."
He didn't smile back, but something in his expression softened. His thumb brushed across her knuckles, a small gesture that sent warmth spreading up her arm. Bucky's eyes held hers for a heartbeat longer than necessary before he reluctantly released her hand as they began walking again.
The memorial loomed ahead, stark against the gray sky. And there, at its base, stood the man they'd come for.
Zemo stood with his back to them, hands clasped behind him, head bowed in what might have been reverence if Isabelle didn't know better. His posture was too perfect, too controlled—a man who calculated every movement. He didn't turn as they approached, didn't flinch at their footsteps crunching across the broken ground.
"I thought you'd be here sooner," Zemo said, his voice carrying across the distance with that crisp, aristocratic precision. He paused, the tip of his tongue darting out to wet his lips. "Don't worry. I've decided I'm not going to kill you. Either of you."
He looked up then—first at Bucky, his gaze lingering with something like professional assessment, then at Isabelle.
His eyes narrowed slightly when they met hers, the ghost of a smile playing at the corners of his mouth. "Once was enough, yeah?"
Isabelle felt her powers stirring beneath her skin, responding to the threat, to the memory of pain. Green light flickered between her fingers before she clenched them into fists.
Bucky shifted almost imperceptibly closer to her, his shoulder brushing against hers. His face remained impassive, betraying nothing, but his gun moved with practiced efficiency—pulled out of his pocket, held low in his flesh hand, the safety already off. His metal fist remained clenched at his side, the vibranium plates catching what little sunlight filtered through the clouds.
"Imagine my relief," Bucky said, his voice pitched low and dangerous as he gripped the weapon tighter. The click of its shifting chamber echoed in the still air, a promise more than a threat.
Zemo glanced at the gun briefly, his expression unreadable, then turned back to the memorial as if their weapons were of no consequence. Slowly, he began walking toward them. Each step was measured, unhurried—the confident stride of a man who believed he held all the cards.
"The girl has been radicalized beyond salvation," Zemo murmured, his accent wrapping around each syllable. He shook his head as he looked once more at the gun in Bucky's hand. "I warned Sam, but he didn't listen. He's as stubborn as Steve Rogers before him."
The wind picked up, carrying the scent of dust and metal across the barren landscape.
"But you..." Zemo continued, his gaze flicking between them, "both of you... they literally programmed you to kill. Built you for it." His eyes lingered on Isabelle's hands, where the faintest trace of green light still danced between her fingers. "Designed you for violence."
He stopped a few feet away, close enough that Isabelle could see the fine lines around his eyes, the careful way he held himself—poised, controlled, a man who had learned to weaponize patience.
"James. Isabelle." He spoke their names with an intimacy that made Isabelle's stomach twist.
That was the first time he'd called her by name. Not Miss Stark. The familiarity felt like an invasion, as if he'd reached inside her chest and touched something private.
"Do what needs to be done," Zemo said, his voice dropping lower, almost gentle. "Karli has people everywhere. And there's only one way to make sure she doesn't continue her mission."
Isabelle felt Bucky tense beside her. She resisted the urge to touch him, to press her hand against his back in silent support. Instead, she kept her eyes fixed on Zemo, reading the microexpressions that flickered across his face—calculation, determination, and something else she couldn't quite name.
"I appreciate the advice," Bucky said, his voice low and unshakable. The words rumbled from deep in his chest, carrying the weight of decades. "But we're gonna do it our own way."
He hadn't looked away from Zemo once, his blue eyes cold and steady. Isabelle recognized this version of Bucky—not quite the Winter Soldier, but not entirely the man who'd smiled at her over coffee this morning either. This was the soldier, the survivor, the man who had learned to navigate the gray spaces between right and wrong.
Zemo chuckled softly, the sound lacking any real humor. "Yeah. I was afraid you'd say that." His shoulders slumped almost imperceptibly, a calculated show of defeat.
Bucky's finger moved to the safety, unclicking it with a soft but deliberate sound that cut through the silence.
Zemo exhaled shakily, his eyes darting briefly to Isabelle before settling somewhere past Bucky's shoulder. His expression shifted to one of resignation—or perhaps acceptance. Like this was a conclusion he had not just anticipated but orchestrated.
"You know what she's capable of," Zemo said quietly, his gaze sliding back to Isabelle. "What they're all capable of. The Flag Smashers. The enhanced. Power corrupts, every time."
Isabelle felt her powers surge in response to his words, the familiar burn spreading through her veins. She tamped it down, refusing to give him the satisfaction of a reaction. Her face remained impassive, mirroring Bucky's controlled expression.
Bucky raised the gun, slow and steady. The movement was fluid, practiced—the motion of a man who had done this a thousand times before. The barrel gleamed dully in the gray light, pointing directly at Zemo's chest.
Isabelle didn't move. She remained at Bucky's side, arms crossed, eyes locked on Zemo's face. She could feel his pulse from here, the rapid flutter beneath his skin betraying the calm facade he presented. Her powers reached out instinctively, mapping the flow of blood through his veins, the expansion and contraction of his lungs.
The barrel lined up perfectly with Zemo's heart.
Zemo nodded once, as if giving permission. His eyes closed briefly, the gesture almost peaceful.
Click.
Zemo flinched, his entire body tensing as he braced for impact. His eyes flew open, confusion flashing across his face.
Nothing.
Bucky's lips curved into a cold smirk, satisfaction glinting in his eyes. "I made my choice," he said, lowering the empty gun. "I'm not going to kill for you. Or anyone."
Isabelle felt a rush of pride, warm and unexpected, blooming in her chest. She allowed herself the smallest smile, a subtle acknowledgment of the moment of Bucky choosing who he wanted to be rather than who he was made to be.
"Neither of us are your weapons anymore," she added, her voice steady despite the power still thrumming beneath her skin. "Not anyone's."
Zemo's eyes narrowed as he looked between them, reassessing, recalculating. The mask of defeat slipped, revealing something sharper beneath—the mind of a tactician already formulating a new approach.
But Bucky moved first. With a deliberate motion that seemed to stretch time itself, he lowered the empty gun and raised his vibranium hand—the one that had remained clenched throughout their exchange. The metal plates whirred softly as his fingers uncurled, catching the weak sunlight filtering through the clouds.
Bullets rained down on the ground between them.
Clank. Clank. Clank.
Each one hit the polished stone with a sound that echoed across the ruins. Six rounds in total, falling like metallic tears. The last one rolled in a lazy circle before coming to rest at Zemo's feet.
Zemo's gaze tracked their descent, his expression unreadable save for the faintest twitch at the corner of his mouth. He understood the message without words: Bucky had never intended to fire. Had never given him the power of that choice.
A whisper of movement caught Isabelle's attention—so subtle she might have missed it if her senses weren't heightened by adrenaline. The hair at the nape of her neck stood on end, her powers instinctively mapping the area around them, feeling for heartbeats, for breath, for life.
She turned, just slightly, as three Dora Milaje emerged from the tree line like shadows given form. Their movements were fluid, synchronized, deadly grace personified. Ayo led them, her face a mask of resolute determination, spear glinting dully in her hand. The warriors fanned out in a practiced formation, surrounding them without a word.
Zemo followed Isabelle's gaze. When he saw the Wakandan warriors, a flicker of respect crossed his features. He straightened his already impeccable posture and adjusted his cuffs—a man preparing to meet his fate with dignity.
"Well played," he said, his voice carrying a hint of genuine admiration. He inclined his head toward the approaching women. "Ladies."
Then, his attention returned to Bucky, something almost intimate in his gaze.
"I took the liberty of crossing off my name in your book." His voice softened, just slightly. "I hold no grudges for what you thought you had to do."
Bucky didn't answer verbally. Just nodded once, a slight dip of his chin. But Isabelle caught the subtle relaxation of his shoulders, the minute exhale that spoke volumes.
Isabelle's eyes snapped to him, surprise flickering across her face before she could mask it. His name was in the book? The pieces connected in her mind with sudden clarity, like circuits completing. She realized with a jolt—Zemo hadn't just been a tool for the mission. Bucky had helped him break out of prison for something else. For closure. For a name to cross off his list of amends.
Zemo turned to her then, his eyes searching her face with an intensity that made her skin crawl. There was something in his gaze—not quite respect, not quite understanding, but something adjacent to both.
His attention shifted back to Bucky. A faint smile played at the corners of his mouth, enigmatic and knowing. "I hope my name is not the only one that gets crossed off."
The words hung in the air between them, loaded with meaning. Isabelle blinked, processing. She almost laughed. But there was something in Zemo’s expression—a recognition of something shared between her and Bucky that he had observed and, apparently, understood.
"Goodbye, James," Zemo said, his voice carrying a finality that felt like the closing of a chapter. He turned to her, his gaze lingering a moment longer than necessary. "Goodbye, Miss Stark."
The use of her surname again—distancing her, reminding her where they stood.
Good.
Isabelle felt her jaw tighten, but forced herself to dip her head in a controlled nod. Beside her, Bucky did the same, his face betraying nothing.
The Dora moved in, surrounding Zemo. Their spears didn't touch him, but the message was clear: there would be no escape.
Before they could lead him away, Ayo paused in front of Bucky. Her dark eyes held his, unwavering. The tension between them was palpable—history, hurt, and respect all tangled together.
"We will take him to the Raft," she said, her voice carrying the weight of official pronouncement. "Where he will live out his days." Her expression hardened slightly. "It would be prudent to make yourself scarce in Wakanda for the time being, White Wolf."
The nickname landed between them—both a reminder of connection and of distance.
"Fair enough," Bucky said, no argument in his tone—just acceptance.
Ayo nodded at him, her expression softening almost imperceptibly. Then she looked to Isabelle. Their eyes met, and something passed between them—woman to woman, warrior to warrior. The barest trace of something like approval flickered in Ayo's eyes, there and gone so quickly Isabelle might have imagined it.
As the Dora led Zemo away, Isabelle felt the tension in her body begin to uncoil. Her powers settled beneath her skin, the green light fading from her fingertips.
Beside her, Bucky exhaled slowly. The sound was barely audible, but she caught it—the subtle release of breath he'd been holding. His metal hand flexed once, twice, the plates recalibrating with a soft mechanical whisper.
"You okay?" she asked, her voice low enough that only he could hear.
Bucky's eyes remained fixed on the Wakandans and their prisoner. "Yeah." A pause. "You?"
"Getting there." It wasn't entirely a lie.
Isabelle watched as Ayo led the small procession across the memorial grounds, their movements precise and controlled. The warriors flanked Zemo like shadows given form, their spears catching what little sunlight filtered through the clouds. They were nearly at the tree line now, about to disappear from view.
Something shifted in Bucky's expression—a decision crystallizing behind his eyes.
"Hey!" he called out suddenly, his voice carrying across the distance.
Ayo stopped. Turned back. Her face remained impassive, but Isabelle caught the slight tilt of her head—curiosity, perhaps, or wariness.
Bucky took a step forward, his movements deliberate. "I may have another favor to ask of you." His voice carried a weight that Isabelle hadn't heard before.
Ayo's eyes narrowed slightly, her gaze flicking between Bucky and Isabelle before settling back on him. "The White Wolf has already asked much of Wakanda." Her tone was measured, neither rejection nor acceptance.
Bucky's jaw tightened. He glanced at Isabelle, something unreadable flickering across his face before he turned back to Ayo.
"It's not for me."
The train rocked gently beneath them, steel wheels clacking against the tracks in a steady rhythm that reminded Isabelle of a heartbeat.
Isabelle sat with her boots propped on the bench across from them, her body angled toward the window. The glass was cool against her temple when she leaned against it, a small relief from the heat that seemed to radiate from Bucky beside her. Not that he was actually giving off heat—super soldiers ran at normal temperatures, she knew that—but his presence felt warm in a way that made her hyper-aware of the scant inches between them.
Prague waited ahead. And after that, home. Whatever that meant these days.
The silence between them wasn't uncomfortable, but it carried weight—questions unasked, words unsaid, revelations still settling like dust after an explosion. Sokovia's ruins were miles behind them now, but Isabelle could still feel the echo of that place in her bones. Still see Zemo's calculating eyes, hear the clatter of bullets on stone.
She turned to look at Bucky, really look at him. His profile was sharp against the muted light filtering through the window, jaw set in that way it always was when he was thinking too hard. His metal hand rested on his thigh, the vibranium plates occasionally catching the light as the train swayed. His other arm was stretched along the back of their seat, not quite touching her but close enough that she could feel the suggestion of contact.
"So," she said finally, breaking the silence. "He was in your book."
It wasn't a question, but she left space for an answer. Her fingers drummed a quiet pattern against her thigh.
Bucky's gaze remained fixed on some middle distance for a long moment before he turned to meet her eyes. Something vulnerable flickered across his face—gone so quickly she might have missed it if she hadn't been watching so carefully.
"Yeah," he said simply. His voice was rough around the edges, like he hadn't used it in hours. Maybe he hadn't. Then, after a beat: "For a long time."
The train swayed as it rounded a curve, pushing her shoulder briefly against his before the momentum pulled them apart again. Neither of them acknowledged it.
"How many left?" she asked, her voice softer than she'd intended. The question felt intimate somehow, like she was asking him to share something precious and fragile.
Bucky's eyes dropped to his hands—one flesh, one metal—resting in his lap. The plates in his left arm recalibrated with a soft whir that was nearly lost beneath the rhythm of the train.
"Too many," he answered finally. His throat worked as he swallowed. "But fewer than yesterday."
The admission hung between them, honest and raw. Isabelle felt something tug in her chest, an ache that wasn't entirely her own. Without thinking, she reached between them, her fingers brushing against his metal hand where it rested on his thigh.
Bucky went very still, his eyes fixed on their hands. But then he turned his palm upward, allowing her fingers to slip between the vibranium plates of his own.
The train jolted slightly as it passed over a rough section of track. Outside, the landscape had begun to change—more buildings now, civilization creeping back into view as they approached their destination.
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What Came Before Newest Chapter (updated 7/23/25) : https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/176006826
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New York hasn’t changed, but Isabelle has.
Twenty-seven hours since Sokovia.
Since his arm around her waist.
Since lips brushed skin and silence said more than words could.Now the morning is too quiet.
The coffee too still.
And her apartment feels a little too empty.She doesn’t know what they are.
But she knows she didn’t want him to leave.
And when Rhodey finds her—gentle eyes behind that soldier steel—
She realizes: coming home is sometimes the hardest part.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 69: Home
Chapter 69: Home
Summary:
Sokovia’s gone. Zemo’s in the Raft.
Bucky stayed the night—but no one’s saying what that means.Now there’s Rhodey, quiet concern, and talk of going home.
The wounds are still fresh, but maybe—just maybe—
Isabelle’s finally ready to stop running.
Notes:
Okay! Plans got pushed back a bit, so I’ve got time to post before I head out!! 💚 Thank you all SO much for the love on the last chapter—your comments had me absolutely screaming (in the best way). This one’s a little quieter, more focused on Izzy, Rhodey, and Sam...but still full of feelings. Hope you enjoy!! 💫
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Rocket Man" by Elton John
(I'll also be updating What Came Before after this!!!)
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Chapter Text
It had been twenty-seven hours since they’d gotten back to New York.
Not that Isabelle was counting. That would be weird.
She hadn’t really slept. Her body ached for rest, but her mind refused to quiet. Every time she closed her eyes, she saw Sokovia’s ruins stretching before her. Heard the phantom echo of bullets hitting stone. Felt the weight of Bucky’s metal hand in hers.
Bucky had crashed at her place. In her bed. With her.
Nothing had happened—not in the way people usually meant when they said nothing happened. But there had been... something. His fingers had traced the outline of her jaw in the darkness. Her palm had pressed against his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his heart beneath cotton and skin. His lips had brushed against hers, tentative at first, then with quiet certainty. Small moments that felt enormous, expanding to fill the space between them.
She’d fallen asleep for a little bit, with his arm draped over her waist, his breath warm against the back of her neck. The nightmares that usually clawed at her consciousness had kept their distance, as if even they were afraid to approach the Winter Soldier.
What followed the next morning had been... strange. Not bad. Just laden with a quiet tension that neither of them quite knew what to do with. They moved around each other in her kitchen like dancers learning new choreography, reaching for coffee mugs and dodging elbows. Careful. Deliberate. The air between them felt charged, electric with possibility.
They hadn’t talked about Sokovia. Or Zemo. Or the way her fingers had curled into his vibranium palm on the train and stayed there for the better part of the journey, metal warming beneath her touch.
They also hadn’t talked about the way he’d held her all night long. The way his body had curved around hers like he was trying to shield her from something neither of them could name. Or how, when morning came and reality crept back in with the sunlight, she hadn’t wanted him to leave.
“You want some more coffee?” he’d asked, standing by her kitchen counter, his hair still mussed from sleep. The domesticity of it had sent an unexpected ache through her chest.
“I’m good,” she’d replied, even though her mug was empty and her hands itched for something to hold.
He’d nodded, setting his mug in the sink carefully. His eyes had met hers across the kitchen island, blue and searching. “I should probably head out.”
“Right.” She’d tried to keep her voice neutral.
He hadn’t stayed long after that. Not because she’d asked him to leave—she hadn’t. But because things were still delicate. Like a glass sculpture, neither of them wanted to risk shattering.
At the door, he’d paused, his hand on the knob. “I’ll check in tomorrow,” he’d said, the words somewhere between a question and a promise.
“I’ll answer,” she’d replied, which was as close as she could get to saying please do.
He’d looked at her for a long moment, something unreadable in his expression. Then he’d leaned forward, pressing his lips to her forehead in a gesture so tender it had made her throat tight.
“Don’t ghost me, Stark,” he’d murmured against her skin.
“Wouldn’t dream of it, Barnes.”
So Bucky had gone back to his place that morning, and Isabelle had spent the day trying to convince herself that the emptiness in her apartment wasn’t somehow louder than before.
Now she sat at a small restaurant in Hell’s Kitchen, poking at a basket of sweet potato fries.
The vinegar-sharp scent of ketchup mingled with the lingering aroma of fried food and coffee, creating that distinctly American diner perfume that clung to everything—clothes, hair, skin. Isabelle pushed a fry around the red plastic basket, leaving behind a trail of salt and grease.
Across from her, James Rhodes sat ramrod straight, military posture intact despite the worn vinyl booth. He’d shown up looking every inch the high-ranking officer he was—pressed shirt, polished shoes, and an expression that managed to convey both professional detachment and personal concern. The kind of look that had probably made junior officers confess to crimes they hadn’t even committed.
“You should eat something,” Rhodey said, nodding toward her untouched food. “Not just play with it.”
“I’m not five,” Isabelle muttered, but speared a fry anyway. It tasted like nothing in her mouth.
Rhodey had ordered before she’d even settled into the booth—a double espresso for himself and water for her, no ice, no lemon, exactly how she liked it.
“So,” he said, leaning back against the cracked vinyl, arms crossed over his chest. “Are you going to tell me why I had to find out about Walker going full Mortal Kombat on you from CNN?”
Isabelle’s fingers unconsciously drifted to the back of her throat—fully healed now, but the memory remained sharp.
“That’s dramatic,” she said, giving him a half-smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “It was only, like... ninety percent Mortal Kombat.”
“Not funny.” Rhodey’s voice was quiet but firm.
“I thought it was.”
Rhodey didn’t smile. Just sipped his espresso and let the silence do the scolding. His eyes never left her face, cataloging the shadows beneath her eyes, the tension in her shoulders, the way her fingers kept finding that spot on the back of her head.
Isabelle sighed, slumping back against the booth. “Look, it wasn’t—” She stopped, recalibrated. Rhodey deserved better than her standard deflections. “It was bad. But I’ve had worse.”
“That’s not the point, Belle.”
Isabelle sighed and glanced out the window. Rain had started to fall, tiny droplets racing each other down the glass. Each one left a trail like a tear track before disappearing.
“I didn’t want to worry you,” she said finally, meeting Rhodey’s eyes. “And I was fine. Sam and Bucky were with me.”
The words felt hollow even to her own ears. She’d been far from fine. The memory of Walker’s hand around her throat, the shield coming down, the hot spray of blood. The way her powers had surged, desperate and wild, ready to rot Walker from the inside out.
“‘Fine’ is not what you looked like in those videos,” Rhodey said, his voice dropping lower. Not angry. Just tired. Worried. The kind of worry that had weight to it, that settled in the bones.
Her throat tightened, the phantom pressure of Walker’s grip making it hard to swallow. “I know.”
“I mean, shit.” Rhodey leaned forward, rubbing a hand over his jaw. The espresso cup looked abandoned between them, steam no longer rising from its surface. “When I saw the footage... I thought for a second—” He shook his head like the thought alone made him sick. His eyes, usually warm with a hint of mischief, had gone dark with something that looked too much like fear.
She didn’t answer. Just reached for a fry, not eating it, just needing something to do with her hands.
Rhodey’s voice softened, the military precision giving way to something more personal. More familial. “You scared me, Isabelle.”
She looked down at her hands, at the faint green glow that pulsed beneath her skin when she was tired or stressed. Like now. “I scared myself.”
Another beat of quiet passed between them. The restaurant hummed in the background—soft rock overhead, the clink of silverware, the occasional laugh from a neighboring table. It all felt far away, like it was happening in another dimension that ran parallel to theirs.
“I know it’s a lot,” Rhodey said, leaning forward. His eyes softened with the kind of concern that made Isabelle feel both comforted and cornered. “Walker. The serum. Karli. But you’ve got to stop doing this alone.”
“I’m not alone,” she said before she could stop herself. The words tumbled out with a certainty that surprised her.
Rhodey raised an eyebrow, the gesture so familiar it made her chest ache. “No?”
She hesitated, tracing a finger through the condensation on her water glass. “I’ve got Sam. And I got you,” she added, meeting his eyes briefly before looking away.
He just kept staring, his silence more effective than any interrogation technique.
“And...” The word hung between them. Isabelle swallowed, feeling heat creep up her neck. “Someone else.”
Now his head tilted, just slightly, military precision giving way to genuine curiosity. “Someone?”
Isabelle raised her water glass to her lips, taking a long, deliberate sip. The ice clinked against her teeth, buying her precious seconds.
“Don’t deflect,” Rhodey said, his voice gentler than his words. “Not with me.”
Isabelle rolled her eyes, but there was no real annoyance behind it. Just the familiar dance of someone who knew her too well. “It’s not—we’re not—” She stopped, frustrated at her own inability to define whatever was happening between her and Bucky.
Rhodey’s eyes narrowed, something clicking into place. “Barnes,” he said. Not a question.
The name hung in the air between them, somehow both weightless and impossibly heavy.
Isabelle felt her pulse quicken, a betrayal of biology she couldn’t control. She nodded once, a short, jerky movement that felt like admission.
Rhodey’s expression shifted through several emotions in rapid succession—surprise, concern, understanding, and something else she couldn’t quite name. He didn’t push, though. Just let the revelation settle between them like dust after an explosion.
“He’s...” Isabelle started, then stopped, unsure how to continue. How could she explain what Bucky was to her? The way his presence somehow both steadied and electrified her? The quiet understanding in his eyes when nightmares dragged her gasping from sleep? The careful way his metal fingers had traced her jawline in the darkness?
“Complicated?” Rhodey offered, saving her from having to find the words.
She exhaled, relief washing through her. “Yeah.”
Rhodey let it slide—for now. His fingers drummed a quiet rhythm against the tabletop as he shifted gears. “I’ve been trying to make calls. Find out what I can. They stripped Walker of everything official. No shield. No mission. Just a PR nightmare they’re trying to bury.” His jaw tightened. “If you ask me, they should’ve court-martialed the bastard.”
“He doesn’t deserve that,” she muttered, then blinked, surprised at her own words. Where had that come from?
Rhodey gave her a look, tilting his head in that way he did when she’d said something unexpected.
“I just mean...” Isabelle bit her lip, a sudden wave of conflicting emotions washing over her. She shifted in her seat, the vinyl creaking softly beneath her. “I don’t know, Uncle Rho. What he did was horrific, but...” She trailed off, struggling to articulate the tangled mess of thoughts in her head.
“But what?” Rhodey prompted, his voice careful, neutral.
“He just lost his best friend,” Isabelle said softly. The memory flashed before her—John’s face contorted with grief and rage, Lemar’s body crumpled and still. “Right in front of him. And the serum...” She swallowed hard. “It amplifies everything, doesn’t it? Not just physically, but emotionally too.”
“Are you defending him?” Rhodey asked, his tone neutral but his eyes sharp.
“No!” Isabelle said quickly, her hands flying up in a defensive gesture. “God, no. He shouldn’t have taken the serum in the first place. It’s just...” She exhaled slowly, trying to organize her thoughts. “I know what it’s like to lose control. To feel your power taking over, pushing you toward something terrible.”
Rhodey’s expression softened, understanding replacing the wariness.
“And I know what it’s like to lose someone,” she continued, her voice dropping lower. “To feel like the world’s been ripped out from under you.”
Rhodey was quiet for a long moment, his gaze distant as he looked past her toward the rain-streaked window. Isabelle pushed another fry through the small pool of ketchup, watching the red smear across the waxed paper.
“Pepper called,” Rhodey said, voice careful. “She saw the videos, too.”
Isabelle’s stomach dropped, a cold, sick feeling spreading through her chest. The thought of Pepper watching those videos from the plaza made her skin crawl. Watching his hand close around her throat, her body slamming into concrete. She swallowed hard, her throat suddenly parched despite the water glass in front of her.
“Great,” she huffed, reaching for her water. “That’s... great.”
Rhodey’s gaze softened.
“She misses you,” he said, leaning forward slightly. His dark eyes searched her face, looking for something Isabelle wasn’t sure she could give. “Wants to see you soon.”
Isabelle froze mid-motion, a fry suspended halfway to her mouth. Her heart gave a painful thud against her ribs. She set the fry down with deliberate care, as if it might shatter between her fingers.
“Isabelle,” Rhodey said, his voice dropping lower, gentler. “It’s been months.”
“I know how long it’s been,” she replied, sharper than she intended. The green light beneath her skin pulsed once, bright enough that Rhodey’s eyes flicked briefly to her hands before returning to her face.
“Morgan asks about you,” he continued, undeterred. “Every time I visit.”
The mention of Morgan sent a fresh wave of guilt crashing through her. Five years old now—no, almost six. Dark hair like Tony’s, eyes that crinkled at the corners when she laughed. The half-sister she’d barely knew.
Rhodey’s expression softened further. “She wants to know when her big sister is coming home.”
Home. The word felt foreign in her mouth, like a language she’d forgotten how to speak. Home had been the compound, once. Then the Tower. Now it was a hollow apartment with bare walls and furniture she barely used. A place to crash, nothing more.
“I...” Isabelle started, then stopped, the words catching in her throat. She took a deep breath, feeling a familiar tightness in her chest. “I know I shouldn’t avoid them forever.”
The admission felt like pulling out a splinter—sharp, painful, but necessary. She glanced up to find Rhodey watching her with that steady gaze that had anchored her through some of her darkest moments.
“They’re family, you know?” he said simply.
Family. The word carried weight, a gravitational pull she’d been fighting against for months. Years, maybe.
“Yeah, I know,” she nodded, swallowing hard against the lump forming in her throat. Her fingers traced the rim of her water glass, leaving smudges in the condensation. “It’s just...”
“Just what?” Rhodey prompted when she didn’t continue.
Isabelle exhaled slowly, searching for words that wouldn’t sound like excuses. “Every time I look at Morgan, I see him.” The confession tumbled out before she could stop it, raw and honest. “She has his eyes, his smile. The way she tilts her head when she’s figuring something out.” She blinked rapidly, fighting against the burn behind her eyes. “And Pepper... God, Rhodey, she lost her husband. The last thing she needs is me showing up, this walking reminder of Tony’s past mistakes.”
“Is that what you think you are?” Rhodey asked, his voice gentle but firm. “A mistake?”
Isabelle didn’t answer, couldn’t answer. The question hit too close to the core of everything she’d been running from.
“Because that’s not what they see,” he continued, reaching across the table. His hand covered hers, warm and solid, stilling her restless fingers. “They see family. The only piece of Tony they have left, besides Morgan.”
The words landed like stones in still water, ripples spreading outward. Isabelle looked down at their hands—hers pale against his darker skin, the faint green glow beneath her knuckles dimming slightly at the contact.
“I wouldn’t know what to say,” she admitted quietly. “Where would I even start?”
“‘Hello’ usually works,” Rhodey said, the corner of his mouth lifting in a small smile. “The rest tends to follow.”
A reluctant laugh escaped her, short and soft. “That simple, huh?”
“No,” he conceded, squeezing her hand once before releasing it. “Not simple at all. But necessary.”
The waitress appeared at their table, refilling Rhodey’s coffee without asking. The interruption gave Isabelle a moment to collect herself, to push back against the tide of emotions threatening to overwhelm her.
Outside, the rain began to ease, sunlight breaking through the clouds in weak, tentative beams. Isabelle watched as a drop of water traced a path down the window, joining others until they formed a small river racing toward the sill.
Maybe Rhodey was right. Maybe it was time to stop running—from Pepper and Morgan, from the family she had left. From the possibility of whatever was growing between her and Bucky. From herself.
The thought terrified her. But beneath the fear, something else stirred—something that felt almost like hope. Small and fragile, but present. Real.
Maybe, just maybe, it was time to go home. Whatever that meant now.
Isabelle unlocked her apartment door, the familiar click of the deadbolt sliding back a small comfort after the emotional weight of lunch with Rhodey. She kicked off her boots at the entrance, leaving them in a haphazard pile that would have horrified Pepper’s sense of order. The thought brought a sad smile to her face.
Her apartment felt emptier somehow, the silence more pronounced than when she’d left. Sunlight streamed through the floor-to-ceiling windows, casting long rectangles of light across her hardwood floors. Dust motes danced in the beams, tiny constellations spinning in slow motion.
She tossed her keys into the ceramic bowl on the entryway table and padded toward the kitchen. The granite countertop was cool beneath her palms as she leaned against it, exhaling slowly.
They’re family, Rhodey had said as if it were that simple.
Her phone vibrated in her back pocket, the buzz against her hip startling her from her thoughts. She fished it out, her thumb swiping across the screen to reveal Sam’s name. Something loosened in her chest—a knot she hadn’t realized was there.
“Wilson,” she answered, pressing the phone to her ear and feeling her lips curve into a genuine smile. “Tell me you’re calling to say you miss my charming personality already.”
Sam’s laugh came through the line, warm and familiar like sunlight after rain. “That would require you having a charming personality in the first place, Stark.”
“Ouch.” She moved to the living room, bare feet silent against the hardwood, and curled up in the corner of her oversized couch. The leather was cool against her skin. “Wounded. Truly wounded.”
“You’ll survive,” he said, the smile evident in his voice. “Just got to Louisiana. Sarah’s already putting me to work.”
“The glamorous life of a superhero,” Isabelle said, tucking her feet beneath her. Through the floor-to-ceiling windows, Manhattan sprawled before her, buildings gleaming in the afternoon sun. “One minute you’re saving the world, the next you’re... what? Fixing a boat?”
“More like wrangling nephews,” Sam replied. In the background, she could hear children’s laughter, bright and uninhibited. “Those two are like tornadoes with sneakers.”
Isabelle smiled, picturing Sam surrounded by his family. Something in her chest ached at the image—a good ache, like stretching a muscle that had been still too long. “They sound like a handful.”
“Man, you have no idea. AJ just tackled his brother into the couch cushions we’re trying to move.” There was a muffled sound of Sam calling out, “Hey! If you break something, I’m not the one explaining it to your mama!”
More laughter erupted in the background, followed by the sound of running feet. Isabelle found herself smiling wider, imagining the chaos of a real home. Not the sterile, empty space she occupied.
“So they’re ignoring you completely,” she said, leaning her head back against the couch. “Sounds about right.”
“Complete insubordination,” Sam agreed, his voice warm with affection. “Makes fighting supersoldiers look easy.”
A comfortable silence settled between them for a moment. Isabelle closed her eyes, just listening to the ambient sounds of Sam’s family life—distant voices, a door slamming, someone calling out about dinner.
“How about you?” Sam asked, his voice softening. “You doing okay?”
The question was casual, but Isabelle knew what he was really asking. Are you sleeping? Are the nightmares bad? Are you still seeing Walker’s shield coming down every time you close your eyes?
“I’m good,” she said, opening her eyes and staring at the ceiling. “Just had lunch with Rhodey.”
“Yeah? How is he?”
“Same as always. Worried. Bad at trying not to show it.” Isabelle traced a finger along the seam of the couch cushion, following the neat stitching that held everything together. Unlike her life. “He wants me to visit Pepper and Morgan.”
Sam was quiet for a moment, the silence heavy with understanding. Through the phone, she could hear the distant sounds of his family life—children laughing, screen doors slamming, the occasional shout about dinner preparations.
“Might not be a bad idea,” he finally said, his voice gentle but firm in that way that reminded her why he’d been chosen for the shield.
“Says the man who ran away to Louisiana,” she shot back, pulling her knees closer to her chest. The leather of the couch creaked beneath her.
“I didn’t run away—I live here,” Sam replied, but there was no heat in it. Just the patient tone he used when he knew she was deflecting. “And...” He paused, and she could almost see him searching for the right words. “Sometimes you need to step back to see the whole picture.”
Isabelle snorted, watching as the afternoon sun cast long shadows across her bare apartment walls. “Is that what you’re doing? Seeing the whole picture?”
“I’m seeing my sister roll her eyes at me from across the yard, which is picture enough.” There was affection in his voice, warm and lived-in. The kind that came from having roots somewhere. A beat passed between them. When Sam spoke again, his voice had that careful quality it got when he was navigating emotional terrain he knew was unstable. “You heard from Barnes?”
Heat crept up Isabelle’s neck, spreading across her cheeks in a flush she was grateful Sam couldn’t see. Her heart did a strange little stutter-step in her chest, like it had forgotten its rhythm. “He, uh—he stayed over. After we got back.”
“Stayed over,” Sam repeated, his tone deliberately neutral in a way that wasn’t neutral at all.
Isabelle’s fingers tightened around the phone. She could practically feel Sam’s raised eyebrows through the connection. “Not like that,” she said quickly, then winced at how defensive it sounded. “I mean—we just slept. Together. But not together-together.”
“Uh-huh.”
“Stop it.”
“I didn’t say anything.”
“You didn’t have to. I can hear your eyebrows judging me through the phone.”
Sam laughed, the sound rich and genuine. “My eyebrows are very expressive, I’ll give you that.” His voice softened. “Look, I’m not judging. I’m just... checking in. Bucky’s has been through a lot. You’ve been through a lot.”
Isabelle swallowed, her throat suddenly tight. “It wasn’t—” She stopped, searching for words that wouldn’t sound like excuses or confessions. “He held me. All night. And we... There might have been some kissing.”
The admission hung in the air between them, strangely vulnerable. She hadn’t planned to tell Sam, hadn’t planned to tell anyone. But the words had slipped out anyway, like they needed to exist somewhere outside her own head to feel real.
“Kissing,” Sam repeated, his tone unreadable.
“Don’t make it weird, Wilson.”
“I’m not making it weird. You’re making it weird by telling me it’s not weird.”
She huffed out a laugh despite herself. “God, you’re annoying.”
“Part of my charm.” Sam’s laugh rumbled through the phone, warm and genuine. “Look at you, all flustered. The great Isabelle Stark, brought down by a hundred-year-old man with a metal arm.”
“I am not flustered,” she protested, even as she pressed her cool palm against her burning cheek. “And he’s not—it’s not—” The words tangled in her throat. How could she explain the way Bucky’s eyes had searched hers in the darkness? The gentle pressure of his metal fingers against her jaw? The quiet understanding that passed between them without words?
She exhaled sharply. “It’s complicated.”
“For what it’s worth, I think it’s good. You and him.” Sam said, but his voice had softened, the teasing giving way to something more sincere.
The simple statement caught her off guard. She curled her toes against the leather of the couch, something warm and unfamiliar blooming in her chest.
“You both deserve something...” Sam continued, his voice thoughtful. “I don’t know. Something that doesn’t hurt.”
Something that doesn’t hurt. Such a simple concept, yet so foreign to her, it might as well have been spoken in another language. When was the last time she’d had anything in her life that didn’t come with pain attached?
“So,” Sam’s voice dropped a notch, turning more serious. “What happened with Zemo?”
Isabelle’s fingers found a loose thread on the couch cushion, worrying it between her fingertips. She tugged at the thread, watching it unravel slightly.
“He’s where he belongs,” she said, keeping her voice deliberately neutral. “The Raft.”
“You helped the Wakandans get him there?” Sam pressed. There was a hint of something in his question—not quite suspicion, but concern, like he was testing the edges of a wound to see if it still hurt.
“Something like that.”
She hesitated, the memory of Zemo’s face swimming to the surface of her mind. The cold calculation in his eyes as Ayo and her warriors had taken him into custody. The way he’d looked at her in those final moments, head tilted slightly, lips curved in that infuriating half-smile. Like he could see straight through to the darkness pulsing beneath her skin.
“How are you doing?” she asked, working to shift the focus away from herself. “Really, Sam. Not the sanitized version.”
There was a pause on the other end of the line, long enough that she could picture Sam debating whether to let her get away with the deflection. Finally, his exhale came through the phone, heavy and laden with exhaustion.
“I’m tired, Iz.” The admission carried weight, each word dragging like feet through mud. “We failed. Lost Karli. And after what happened with Walker...” He trailed off, the weight of recent events evident in his silence.
“At least you got the shield,” she offered, knowing even as she said it that it was cold comfort—a consolation prize stained with blood both literal and metaphorical.
“Yeah.” The word came out flat, resigned. “For all the good it does now. We don’t have jurisdiction anymore after Walker’s stunt. Can’t work the case, can’t follow up on the Flag Smashers. It’s out of our hands.”
Isabelle leaned her head back against the couch, staring up at the ceiling. The afternoon sun cast shadows across the white paint, patterns shifting as clouds passed outside. “I’m sorry, Sam,” she said softly, meaning it. “I know how much this meant to you.”
“It is what it is,” he said, deflecting in that way he did when something cut too deep.
In the background, a woman’s voice called his name—Sarah—followed by the sound of children’s laughter growing louder, like a wave approaching shore.
“That’s Sarah,” Sam confirmed. “Sounds like I’m needed for nephew duty.”
“Go,” Isabelle said, smiling despite the heaviness in her chest. “Be Uncle Sam. Save the world one piggyback ride at a time.”
Sam chuckled, the sound warming her even through the phone. “I will.” There was a pause, and when he spoke again, his voice had softened. “Hey, don’t be a stranger, okay? Come visit sometime. Louisiana’s beautiful this time of year.”
A smirk tugged at the corner of Isabelle’s mouth. She thought of the package the Wakandans were preparing—the surprise Bucky had commissioned for Sam. The one she’d helped design over late-night video calls with Shuri, adding her own touches to honor both Steve’s legacy and Sam’s unique style.
“Yeah, I’ll drop by soon,” she promised, the secret knowledge making her voice lighter. Her fingers traced the edge of her phone case, feeling the small imperfections in the material. “Sooner than you think, probably.”
“I’ll hold you to that,” Sam said, and she could hear the smile in his voice. “Take care of yourself, Stark.” He paused, and she could practically see the knowing look on his face as he added, “And tell your boyfriend I said hi.”
Isabelle felt heat creep up her neck. “He’s not my boyfriend, Sam,” she said, trying to sound dismissive but failing miserably.
“Sure, he’s not.” Sam’s laugh was warm and knowing.
“I am hanging up on you now,” Isabelle announced, but she was smiling despite herself.
“Love you too, Stark.”
The line went dead, and Isabelle was left alone in her too-quiet apartment, Sam’s laughter still echoing in her ears. She sat there for a long moment, phone pressed to her chest, listening to the hollow silence of her empty home.
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It's 3:45 a.m. in New York.
Sleep won’t come. The past won’t let go.
But then her phone buzzes.
And suddenly, the night doesn’t feel quite so heavy.
Two insomniacs. One open door.
Twenty minutes and a quiet invitation later...There’s no saving the world tonight—
only soft footsteps, borrowed warmth, and the beginning of something they’re almost ready to name.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 70: Everywhere
Chapter 70: Everywhere
Summary:
Fleetwood Mac on vinyl. Fingers brushing fabric.
A dance that isn’t a dance, but something softer, slower—closer.There’s history in the music. Grief in their touch.
A kiss that tastes like maybe.She says stay.
And for once, he doesn’t run.
Notes:
...okay so like...I can already hear ya’ll screaming about this one 😂 BUT I’m begging—drop your thoughts in the comments anyway!! You guys are the best, thank you so much for reading and supporting this story. We’re officially entering Peak Izzy/Bucky fluff era now and—yes—the spice is coming soon...👀💕 Stay tuned.
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Everywhere" by Fleetwood Mac
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Isabelle lay in her bed, covers twisted around her legs from hours of tossing and turning, staring at the ceiling. The faint glow of city lights filtered through her blinds, casting shadows across the walls of her bedroom. She exhaled slowly, watching the shadows shift as a car passed on the street below. Their conversation at the diner kept replaying in her mind—Rhodey’s gentle prodding about Pepper and Morgan, the unspoken grief that lingered between them like a third presence at the table. The way his eyes had changed when she’d mentioned Bucky’s name.
Bucky.
Her mind circled back to him like a compass finding north. The memory of his goodbye played on repeat behind her eyelids—the hesitation in his step as he’d lingered at her door, one foot in the hallway, one still in her apartment. The gentle press of his lips against her forehead, warm and steady. The unspoken question in his eyes that had mirrored her own: What is this?
“I’ll check in tomorrow,” he’d said.
She glanced at the digital clock on her nightstand. 3:42 AM. Technically, it was tomorrow already. Had been for a couple of hours.
Isabelle pressed the heels of her palms against her eyes until colors bloomed in the darkness. Sleep felt impossible, her body wired despite the bone-deep exhaustion. Every time she closed her eyes, she saw John’s shield coming down, felt the phantom pressure of his hand around her throat. Or worse—she saw Bucky’s face in the dim light of her bedroom, his eyes dark and intent as he’d traced the line of her jaw with metal fingers that had been impossibly gentle.
Her phone buzzed on the nightstand, the screen illuminating with a harsh blue glow that cut through the darkness. Isabelle’s heart jumped, a quick staccato against her ribs. She reached for it, squinting against the sudden brightness.
Still awake? Bucky’s message was timestamped 3:45 AM.
Something warm unfurled in her chest, equal parts relief and anticipation. She stared at the message, thumbs hovering over the keyboard. Three little dots appeared at the bottom of the screen, indicating he was typing again.
Sorry if I woke you.
Isabelle bit her lip, typing quickly before she could overthink it.
You didn’t wake me up.
The three dots appeared immediately, disappeared, then reappeared.
Nightmares?
She hesitated, then typed: Not yet. Can’t seem to get there.
The response came faster this time: Same.
Isabelle shifted, propping herself up against the headboard. The sheets pooled around her waist, cool against her skin in the air-conditioned room. She stared at the screen, at those four simple letters that somehow conveyed so much. Same. A single word that bridged the physical distance between them, a reminder that she wasn’t alone in this sleepless vigil.
Her thumb hovered over the keyboard. What now? This strange, fragile thing between them felt too delicate for text messages at nearly four in the morning. Too important.
What are you doing? she typed.
The reply came quickly: Sitting on my fire escape. Watching the city.
Isabelle could picture it perfectly—Bucky perched on the metal grating, one leg drawn up, the other dangling over the edge. His expression would be thoughtful, distant, as he gazed out at the sleeping city, at the lights that never quite went out.
She understood immediately why he’d be out there. After days of constant movement, danger, and proximity, the silence of solitude felt wrong. Oppressive. Like the air itself was holding its breath, waiting for something to break the stillness.
Her fingers moved before she could overthink it: My door’s unlocked.
She sent the message, then immediately regretted it. Too forward? Too needy? Too desperate? She bit her lower lip hard enough to hurt, her heart hammering against her ribs as she watched the screen, waiting for those three dots to appear.
The phone buzzed: That’s terrible security protocol, doll.
Relief and amusement warred in her chest. She started typing a deflection, something light and sarcastic about super-soldier protection systems, when another message appeared: Be there in 20.
Her breath caught. She set the phone down on the nightstand with deliberate care, as if it might detonate if handled too roughly. Her pulse quickened, a fluttering rhythm that seemed to echo in her fingertips, her throat, behind her eyes.
She glanced around her darkened bedroom, suddenly self-conscious about the clothes strewn across her floor, the half-empty water glass on her nightstand, the tangled sheets that bore witness to her restless attempts at sleep.
She swung her legs over the side of the bed, bare feet meeting cool hardwood. The clock now read 3:51 AM. Nineteen minutes, give or take. Which, apparently, was enough time to spiral through every possible scenario and clean her entire apartment.
“Get it together, Stark,” she muttered, pushing herself up.
She launched into damage control. Clothes were scooped off the floor and shoved unceremoniously into the closet—a problem for Future Isabelle. She kicked a pair of boots under the bed, wincing at the hollow thunk they made against the wall. In the bathroom, she grabbed the half-full water glass from her nightstand, dumped it in the sink, and then stared at her reflection.
Dark circles shadowed her eyes, stark against her pale skin. Her hair was a mess, tangled from hours of tossing and turning.
“What are you doing?” she whispered to her reflection, leaning closer to the mirror.
No answer, of course. Just her own face staring back at her. Eyes tired. Face unguarded in a way it rarely was around others.
She turned on the faucet, splashing cold water on her face. The shock of it against her skin made her gasp, but it cleared some of the fog from her mind. She brushed her teeth quickly, ran a comb through her hair, and sprayed a little of the perfume.
Back in her bedroom, she hesitated. Should she change? She was wearing an oversized MIT t-shirt that had once belonged to her father and a pair of sleep shorts. Comfortable, but hardly the image of someone who had their life together.
“It’s four in the morning,” she reminded herself. “He’s not expecting cocktail attire.”
Still, she pulled on a pair of soft gray sweatpants, keeping the t-shirt. It felt like armor somehow, this small piece of Tony. A reminder of who she was, where she came from.
He knocked at exactly 4:18 AM.
The sound was gentle but distinct—three soft raps against her door that somehow managed to echo through her entire apartment. Isabelle froze mid-pace, her bare feet rooted to the hardwood floor. For a moment, she just listened to the quiet aftermath of the knock, to her own heartbeat accelerating in her chest.
She moved toward the door, then hesitated, suddenly remembering.
“Shit,” she muttered, realizing her door wasn’t actually unlocked. She hadn’t meant it literally when she’d texted him—it was just an expression, an invitation. She reached for the deadbolt, the metal cool beneath her fingertips, and turned it with a soft click.
Isabelle took a deep breath, ran her fingers through her hair one last time, and pulled open the door.
Bucky stood in the dimly lit hallway, his broad shoulders filling the doorframe. The overhead light cast shadows across the planes of his face, highlighting the sharp line of his jaw, the slight furrow between his brows. He was dressed simply—dark jeans that had seen better days, a navy Henley with the sleeves pushed up to his elbows. The vibranium of his left arm caught the light, gleaming dully against the darker fabric.
His hair was damp, pushed back from his face like he’d run his fingers through it after a shower. The faint scent of soap and leather reached her, clean and masculine, with an undertone of something metallic that was uniquely his.
Those blue eyes found hers immediately, intent and searching in a way that made her breath catch somewhere between her lungs and her throat. There was a vulnerability there, a question neither of them had words for yet.
“Hi,” she said softly, the word barely more than a whisper in the pre-dawn quiet.
“Hi,” he replied, his voice a low rumble that seemed to vibrate through the air between them.
For a moment, they just stood there, caught in the strange limbo of 4 am vulnerability. Isabell’s fingers tightened around the edge of the door, her knuckles whitening slightly. The hallway light caught the planes of Bucky’s face, shadowing the hollow of his cheekbone, illuminating the faint stubble along his jaw. His eyes held hers with an intensity that made her throat go dry.
Isabelle stepped back, making space for him to enter.
Bucky moved past her, close enough that his shoulder brushed against hers. The brief contact sent a current through her skin, like static electricity but warmer, deeper. He took off his boots by the door without being asked. The gesture was surprisingly domestic, almost comfortable, like they’d done this a hundred times before.
His socks were mismatched—one black, one navy. The small imperfection in his otherwise put-together appearance made something in her chest soften. Bucky Barnes, the Winter Soldier, deadly assassin and war hero, couldn’t match his socks. It was endearing in a way she hadn’t expected.
Isabelle closed the door, the soft click of the latch sealing them into their own private world.
“You want something to drink?” she asked, running a hand through her hair. “I’ve got water, coffee, or—” she hesitated, “—whiskey, if you’re feeling adventurous.”
“At four in the morning?” Bucky raised an eyebrow, but there was amusement in his eyes.
“Not like either of us is getting any sleep tonight anyway,” she said dryly.
Bucky studied her for a moment, then nodded. “Coffee would be good.”
Isabelle moved toward the kitchen, grateful for something to do with her hands. The apartment’s open floor plan meant she could still see him as he drifted into her living room.
“How do you take it?” she called, measuring grounds into the filter.
“Black,” he replied, his attention caught by her bookshelf. “Two sugars.”
The coffee maker gurgled to life, filling the kitchen with the rich, comforting scent of brewing coffee. Isabelle leaned against the counter, watching as Bucky moved along her bookshelves with quiet interest. His fingers trailed along the spines of her books, pausing occasionally to tilt one forward, examining titles.
“You’ve got quite the collection,” he said, glancing back at her. “Didn’t take you for a Vonnegut fan.”
“There’s a lot you don’t know about me, Barnes,” she replied, crossing her arms over her chest.
His eyes met hers across the room, something unreadable flickering in their depths. “I’m starting to realize that.”
The coffee maker beeped, breaking the moment. Isabelle turned to pour two mugs. The ceramic was warm against her palms as she measured sugar with practiced precision: two level spoonfuls for him, and then a ridiculous, unapologetic cascade of sugar into her own mug that continued until nearly a quarter of the cup was filled.
When she looked up, Bucky had drifted toward her record collection, his head tilted at a slight angle that made something in her chest constrict. His metal fingers hovered over the vinyl sleeves with surprising delicacy, like he was afraid of damaging them.
She crossed the living room, bare feet silent against the hardwood floor. “Here,” she said, extending his mug.
Bucky turned, accepting the coffee with his right hand. Their fingers brushed—a fleeting point of contact that shouldn’t have registered as anything significant, but somehow did. His eyes locked with hers as he took a sip, the steam rising between them in the dim light of her apartment.
“This is good,” he said, a note of genuine surprise in his voice.
“Don’t sound so shocked,” Isabelle retorted, feeling a smile tug at the corner of her mouth despite herself.
She sipped her own coffee, the sweetness hitting her tongue in a familiar, comforting rush. Over the rim of her mug, she studied him—the way the soft lighting caught in his hair, the shadow of stubble along his jaw, the slight relaxation in his shoulders that hadn’t been there in the hallway.
“So you couldn’t sleep either?” she asked finally, though she already knew the answer.
Bucky shook his head, a small, rueful smile tugging at the corner of his lips. “Not for lack of trying.” His gaze moved over her face, lingering on the dark circles beneath her eyes, the tension in her shoulders. “You look tired.”
“Thanks,” she said dryly, crossing her arms over her chest. “Just what every girl wants to hear.”
His smile widened slightly, warming his eyes in a way that made her stomach flip. “I didn’t say you looked bad. Just tired.”
“Smooth recovery, Barnes.”
“I’ve never been much for sweet talk,” he said with a small shrug, his metal hand flexing unconsciously at his side.
“We both know that’s a lie,” Isabelle countered, one eyebrow arching upward. “I’ve heard stories about Sergeant James Buchanan Barnes and his way with the ladies.”
“Right, Steve.” he shook his head, letting out a soft laugh. His eyes never left hers as he drifted back toward her shelf of vinyl records, the movement casual but deliberate, like he needed something to do with his hands. Something normal. “That was a long time ago,” he said finally, his voice quiet. “Different lifetime.”
Isabelle watched him, coffee cradled between her palms. There was something hypnotic about the way he moved. His fingers trailed along the edge of her collection, pausing occasionally to tilt a record forward, reading the titles with quiet interest.
Then he stopped, his hand freezing mid-motion. The record he’d been about to pull caught the light, reflecting it back in a soft glow. Something changed in his expression—recognition, surprise, something deeper that Isabelle couldn’t quite name.
Bucky set his coffee mug down with careful precision on the shelf near the records, the ceramic making a soft clink against the wood. His metal fingers hovered over the album cover, hesitating as if it might burn him.
“Hey,” he said, voice suddenly softer, almost reverent. “This one—this was in the notebook.”
He pulled out the record with deliberate care—Fleetwood Mac, Tango in the Night. The cover was slightly worn at the edges, loved and played often. The vibrant artwork with its abstract figures seemed to glow in the dim light of her apartment. Bucky held it with careful reverence, like it was something precious and breakable, his metal thumb brushing over the corner where the cardboard had softened from years of handling.
“Mind if I—?” He gestured toward the turntable, a question in his eyes that went deeper than the simple request. There was something vulnerable in the way he held the record, in the slight uncertainty in his posture.
Something warm unfurled in Isabelle’s chest, a feeling she couldn’t quite name spreading through her ribcage. It wasn’t just that he recognized the album—it was that he remembered it from the notebook, from one of the countless recommendations that had helped Steve navigate the decades he’d missed. It was a thread connecting them all—her, Steve, Bucky—across time and loss.
“Fleetwood Mac?” A genuine laugh escaped her, soft and surprised. “I will never mind. Go for it.”
Bucky’s smile was small but real, reaching his eyes in a way that transformed his face. He crossed to the turntable with careful steps, holding the record as if it were made of glass. The sleeve whispered against the vinyl as he slid it free, a soft shushing sound that filled the quiet apartment.
The turntable came to life with a soft hum as he set it spinning, positioning the needle with a precision that spoke of old familiarity. His movements were deliberate, practiced—a ritual from another time, another life, but one his hands still remembered.
For a moment, there was just the soft crackle of anticipation, that distinctive vinyl hiss that always made Isabelle’s heart skip with anticipation. Then the first bright, airy chords of “Everywhere” filled the room—crystalline guitar and synth washing over them like cool water.
The music transformed the space between them, filling the apartment with something warm and alive. Christine McVie’s voice floated through the air, ethereal and inviting.
Bucky turned back to her, and Isabelle’s breath caught. His expression was open in a way she rarely saw—the careful mask of vigilance slipping to reveal something softer underneath. Vulnerable. The music seemed to transform him somehow, smoothing the harder edges, revealing glimpses of the man beneath the soldier.
He extended his right hand toward her—flesh and bone, warm and human. The gesture was tentative, almost shy, at odds with the deadly precision she’d seen in battle.
“We don’t dance,” she said, the words coming out softer than she’d intended, almost lost beneath the music. It wasn’t a refusal—more an observation, an acknowledgment of the strangeness of this moment.
His lips quirked up at one corner, a half-smile that made something flutter in her chest. “We don’t have to.”
They didn’t. Not really. But Isabelle found herself stepping forward anyway, drawn by something she couldn’t name. The space between them closed, the air suddenly charged with a different kind of tension.
His hand found her waist, settling there with careful restraint—not possessive, just present. The weight of it anchored her, solid and real against the soft cotton of her father’s old t-shirt. He took the mug from her hand with his metal one, the vibranium fingers cool against her skin for just a moment before he placed it down next to his on the shelf.
Isabelle let her arm slide around his shoulders, fingers brushing against the soft fabric of his Henley, feeling the solid muscle beneath. The contrast between the gentle touch and the lethal strength she knew he possessed made her heart beat faster.
And they just... swayed.
Not dancing, not really. Just moving together in the soft glow of her apartment, letting the music wash over them. Bucky’s breath was warm against her hair, his heartbeat steady beneath her palm where it rested against his chest. She could feel the subtle difference where flesh met metal at his shoulder, the slight temperature change beneath the fabric.
“I used to love dancing,” Bucky murmured. “Before... everything.”
Isabelle tilted her head back to look at him, finding his eyes already on her face. There was something unguarded in his expression.
“Were you good?” she asked, her voice matching his quiet tone, creating a bubble around them that the music couldn’t penetrate.
The corner of his mouth lifted. “I was very good.”
“Modest, too,” Isabelle teased, but there was no bite to it.
His soft laugh vibrated through his chest against her palm. “I had a reputation.”
“I bet you did,” she said, her fingers absently tracing the seam of his shirt along his shoulder. “All the girls in Brooklyn lining up for a dance with Bucky Barnes.”
Something flickered across his face—a shadow of memory, gone almost before she could register it. His hand at her waist tightened slightly, then relaxed.
“Different lifetime,” he said softly, echoing his earlier words. But there was less distance in them now, less resignation. His eyes held hers, blue and clear in the dim light. “This is... nice, though.”
Isabelle’s cheek found his shoulder, the worn cotton of his shirt soft against her skin. His chin brushed against her hair, his exhale stirring the strands at her temple.
She closed her eyes as the record spun. The bass thrummed through the floorboards, vibrating up through her feet. Each note seemed to exist in perfect isolation, stretched and savored in the small hours between night and dawn.
The world outside her apartment windows—with its Flag Smashers and the weight of her father’s legacy—receded into a distant hum. There was no Sokovia, no serum, no war waiting. No ghosts hovering at the edges of their consciousness. No blood on their hands.
Just them. The soft rustle of fabric as they swayed. The steady rhythm of his heart beneath her palm—slightly elevated, she noticed, a subtle betrayal of the calm he projected.
Bucky’s hand slid from her waist to the small of her back, his touch a question as he drew her incrementally closer. The pressure was light enough that she could have stepped away if she wanted to. She didn’t want to.
His chest expanded against hers as he took a deeper breath. She felt the subtle shift in his posture, the infinitesimal tension that ran through him. When she tilted her head back to look at him, his eyes dropped to her lips and lingered there for a heartbeat before lifting to meet her gaze again. The blue of his irises had darkened, pupils wide in the dim light.
“Isabelle,” he began, her name a question on his lips, rough-edged and uncertain.
She looked up at him, suddenly hyperaware of every point of contact between them—his hand on her back, her palm against his chest, their thighs brushing with each gentle sway. The record crackled softly as it approached the end of the track. “Yeah?”
His hand—the right one, warm and calloused—moved to her face, fingers gently tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. The touch was feather-light, reverent almost, but it sent heat coursing through her veins like wildfire. His thumb brushed against her cheekbone, lingering there as if memorizing the texture of her skin.
“This is complicated,” he said, his voice rough around the edges, like something worn but valuable. His gaze was steady on hers, unflinching despite the vulnerability in his words.
She nodded, not trusting herself to speak. Complicated didn’t begin to cover it. They were teammates, friends in this strange, post-Blip world. He had been her father’s enemy once, and before that, a ghost story whispered among SHIELD agents. She was Tony Stark’s daughter, a reminder of everything Bucky had lost, everything that had been taken from him.
All the blood and pain and loss that had led them here, to this moment, swaying in her darkened apartment while vinyl crackled softly in the background.
And yet.
“I don’t care,” she whispered, surprising herself with the vehemence in her voice. Her fingers curled slightly against his chest, bunching the fabric of his shirt. “I don’t—”
She didn’t finish the sentence. Didn’t need to. Bucky’s hand slid to the nape of her neck, fingers tangling in her hair, and he leaned down, closing the distance between them.
His lips met hers, the gentle pressure sent sparks cascading down her spine, pooling low in her stomach. Her hand came up to rest against his jaw, feeling the slight scratch of stubble against her palm. His heartbeat thundered beneath her other hand, betraying the calm exterior he presented to the world.
The kiss deepened, his mouth moving against hers with growing certainty. He tasted like coffee and sugar, the sweetness a counterpoint to the firm pressure of his lips. His metal hand settled more firmly at her waist, the plates recalibrating with a soft whir as he adjusted his grip, anchoring her to him as if he feared she might disappear.
Isabelle’s fingers curled into his shirt, holding on as the room seemed to tilt around her. Heat bloomed across her skin, spreading from where his lips pressed against hers to the tips of her fingers, down to her toes. The vinyl crackled softly in the background, the melody washing over them like gentle waves, but all she could focus on was the steady thrum of Bucky’s heartbeat beneath her palm and the way his breath mingled with hers.
When she parted her lips slightly, his response was immediate—a soft, almost inaudible groan that vibrated through his chest and into hers. His metal fingers flexed at her waist, the cool vibranium warming against her skin through the thin cotton of her shirt. There was restraint in his touch, a careful control that spoke volumes about the man he’d become. The Winter Soldier could break concrete with those fingers, but against her body, they were nothing but gentle.
Isabelle pulled back just enough to catch her breath, her forehead resting against his. Her eyes remained closed, savoring the sensation of being held, of being wanted. When she finally looked up, Bucky was watching her with an intensity that made her stomach flip. His eyes were dark, pupils blown wide, lips slightly parted. A flush had crept up his neck, disappearing beneath the collar of his shirt.
She swallowed hard, suddenly aware of how vulnerable they both were in this moment—not just physically, but emotionally. Standing here in her apartment, swaying to Fleetwood Mac, with all their ghosts and demons temporarily held at bay by nothing more than the simple act of touch.
Isabelle hesitated, suddenly aware of the weight of what she wanted to say. The words felt too big for her mouth, too consequential.
“Stay,” she whispered, the word slipping out before she could second-guess it further. Her fingers tightened in the fabric of his shirt. “Not just for tonight. I mean—” She swallowed, heat creeping up her neck. “Stay with me, Bucky.”
His body went still against hers, the gentle swaying motion they’d maintained through three songs coming to a halt. For a terrible moment, she thought she’d miscalculated, pushed too far too fast.
Then his eyes found hers, searching. His flesh hand moved to her face, thumb tracing the line of her jaw with a touch so gentle it made her chest ache.
“Are you sure?” he asked, his voice barely audible over the music.
She understood what he was asking. Was she sure about him, with all his broken pieces and blood-soaked history? Was she sure about herself, with her own demons and unresolved grief? Was she sure about them, together, in this world that seemed determined to tear apart anything good?
“No,” she admitted, her lips curving into a small, crooked smile. “I’m not sure about anything anymore. Except that when I’m with you, I feel...” She paused, searching for the right word. Something caught in her throat—not quite a laugh, not quite a sob. “Real. I feel real.”
Something shifted in his expression, a softening that made him look younger, more like the man from the history books and less like the weapon HYDRA had forged. His hand moved to cup her cheek fully, and she leaned into the touch, savoring the warmth of his skin against hers.
“I’m not going anywhere,” he promised, his voice low and certain. “Not unless you want me to.”
The words settled in her chest, a weight that anchored rather than burdened. Isabelle turned her face slightly, pressing a kiss to his palm—a gesture so intimate it made her breath catch. The salt-sweet taste of his skin lingered on her lips, a tangible reminder that this was real, that he was real.
“Good,” she whispered against his skin. “Because I think I might need you, James Barnes.”
His breath hitched, a small, sharp intake that she felt more than heard in the quiet space between them. “James,” he repeated, the word sounding strange in his own mouth, like he was trying it on after years of disuse. His thumb traced the curve of her cheekbone, feather-light but leaving heat in its wake.
“Is that okay?” she asked, suddenly uncertain. A flutter of anxiety rose in her chest. “I can stick with Bucky if you—”
“No,” he interrupted, his voice rougher than before, catching slightly on the single syllable. His hand slid from her cheek to the nape of her neck, fingers threading through her hair. “I like the way it sounds when you say it.”
The intensity in his gaze made heat pool low in her belly, a slow-building warmth that radiated outward. There was something almost reverent in the way he was looking at her, like she was something precious and unexpected that he’d found in the ruins of a world he no longer recognized.
“James,” she said again, testing the weight of it on her tongue. It felt different than Bucky—older, more intimate somehow. Less the soldier, more the man.
He made a sound low in his throat that wasn’t quite a groan, something primal and unguarded that sent electricity down her spine. Then his mouth was on hers again, no hesitation this time, just the firm press of his lips against hers with a certainty that made her knees weak.
This kiss was deeper than the first. His metal arm slid around her waist, drawing her flush against him with a confidence that hadn’t been there before. The cool press of vibranium through her thin t-shirt made her gasp against his mouth, the contrast of temperatures heightening every sensation.
Isabelle’s hands found their way to his shoulders, feeling the shift of muscle beneath her palms as he adjusted his hold on her. Her fingers traced the hard line where flesh met metal, that boundary between what was taken and what remained. He made a low sound in the back of his throat when her fingers traced that seam through his shirt, something between a groan and a sigh that vibrated through her chest where it pressed against his.
Bucky walked her backward, his steps sure despite his eyes being closed, his focus entirely on the slide of his mouth against hers. Her shoulder blades met the bookshelf with a gentle thud, the edge of a shelf pressing between them. The slight discomfort barely registered through the haze of sensation—Bucky’s hand tangled in her hair, the press of his body against hers, the taste of him on her tongue.
A book tumbled from the shelf, hitting the floor with a dull thud that neither of them acknowledged. Bucky’s lips left hers to trail along her jaw, down the column of her throat. Her head fell back, giving him better access as her fingers tightened in his hair, the strands soft between her fingers.
“Isabelle,” he murmured against her skin, her name a prayer in his mouth. The stubble on his jaw scraped gently against the sensitive skin below her ear, sending shivers cascading down her spine.
His metal hand slid from her waist to her hip, fingers splaying wide to anchor her against him. The vibranium had warmed to her body temperature, no longer cool but still unmistakably not flesh. She found herself fascinated by the contrast—the gentle scrape of his stubble against her neck, the unyielding precision of his metal fingers at her hip, the soft warmth of his other hand cradling the back of her head.
Isabelle’s hands slid down from his shoulders to his chest, feeling the thundering of his heart beneath her palm. The steady rhythm matched her own, a synchronized percussion that seemed to echo in the quiet apartment. Her fingers traced the firm planes of muscle beneath his Henley, mapping the contours of him with curious exploration.
His response was immediate and overwhelming. The hand in her hair tightened, not enough to hurt but enough to send sparks of pleasure-pain down her spine. His body pressed more firmly against hers, the bookshelf at her back the only thing keeping her upright as her knees threatened to give way.
Another book fell, then another, casualties of their increasingly urgent movements. Isabelle barely registered the sounds, too lost in the sensation of Bucky’s mouth on hers, his body against hers, solid and warm and real.
“Bucky,” she breathed, his name half-sigh, half-plea.
He lifted his head, eyes dark and intent on hers. His chest rose and fell rapidly, matching her own quickened breathing. The raw want in his gaze made heat pool low in her abdomen.
“We should probably...” he started, voice rough.
“Probably,” she agreed, though neither of them moved.
His thumb traced her lower lip, slightly swollen from his kisses. “I don’t want to rush this.”
The care in those words, the restraint it must have taken to say them, made something in her chest tighten painfully. “We’ve got time,” she replied softly.
A shadow crossed his face, there and gone so quickly she might have imagined it. “Do we?”
The question hung between them, weighted with everything they hadn’t said. The Flag Smashers were still out there. And tomorrow—or rather, today, given the hour—would bring new challenges, new dangers.
Isabelle reached up, brushing a strand of hair from his forehead with gentle fingers. “Right now, we do.”
It wasn’t a promise—neither of them was in a position to make those. But it was an acknowledgment, an agreement to take what they could in the moments between chaos.
Bucky nodded, some of the tension leaving his shoulders. His metal hand found hers, fingers intertwining with a care that made her throat tight. The plates shifted slightly, adjusting to the contours of her hand.
Outside, the city continued its restless sleep, sirens and car horns punctuating the pre-dawn stillness. But here, in the quiet of her apartment, with Bucky’s heartbeat steady beneath her ear, Isabelle felt something she hadn’t experienced in a very long time.
Peace.
It wouldn’t last—nothing ever did in their world of monsters and heroes. But for now, in this moment suspended between night and morning, it was enough.
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No labels. No promises.
Just keys shared, dinners stolen, and fingers that linger too long.A quiet night turns into something more—vinyl crackling, laughter over Thai food, and a Brooklyn diner that still remembers his name.
They don’t say what this is.
But neither of them wants to leave.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 71: New Memories
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Chapter 71: New Memories
Summary:
They don’t name it. Don’t rush it.
Just fall into something that feels a lot like staying.Bagels and old jukeboxes.
Fingertips tracing old scars.
A city turned into a map of memories.The lines between comfort and wanting blur.
He kisses her like he’s afraid she might vanish.
She lets him, like she’s finally ready to stay.
Notes:
Happy Saturday, friends!!
I’m so excited to share this chapter (and tomorrow’s too 👀❤️🔥). We are deep in the Bucky/Izzy era now—full fluff, full feelings, and honestly? It’s adorable.Also... okay, I’ve been sitting on their ship name for a while, and I can’t keep it in anymore. It’s Icky. Yep. Bucky + Izzy = Icky. I know, I know—I’m the worst. But also... kinda obsessed?? 😂😂😂
Anyway!! Thank you all so much for reading, screaming, and loving these two with me. You guys are the best 💚💚💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Smile Like You Mean It" by The Killers
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As the days melted together, Bucky and Isabelle fell into a rhythm so natural, so unspoken, it startled them both if they paused long enough to think about it. They hadn’t defined anything. No labels. No conversations about what this was. Just that they wanted to stay.
One evening, Bucky lounged on the worn leather couch in his apartment, his left arm draped casually over the backrest. A well-worn paperback rested in his lap. He barely looked up when the front door opened—didn’t have to. He’d memorized the sound of her: the specific way the key turned (he had given her a copy of it a few days ago without ceremony, just pressed it into her palm with a shrug that didn’t match the intensity in his eyes), the rhythm of her boots on the hardwood, the slight jingle of her jacket zipper. And still, his chest tugged a little every time, that momentary hitch of breath that hadn’t dulled in weeks.
“Hope you’re in the mood for Thai,” Isabelle called, kicking the door shut with her heel as she juggled two paper bags that leaked fragrant steam and her keys between her fingers. Her hair was pulled back in a messy knot, tendrils escaping around her face.
Bucky sat up, a grin tugging at his lips, the kind that still felt foreign on his face but came easier around her. “If it’s not Thai, I’m calling the cops.”
She rolled her eyes, but the corner of her mouth quirked up. “I am the cops.”
“Exactly.” He winked, setting the book aside. “Abuse of power.”
“God, you’re insufferable,” she said, but there was no heat behind it. She dropped the bags onto the coffee table with a dramatic sigh, the smell of lemongrass and basil filling the small apartment. “I brought you dinner, and this is the thanks I get? Sam would appreciate me.”
“Sam would eat the food and still find something to complain about,” Bucky countered, already reaching for the bags. His fingers brushed hers, and neither pulled away immediately. “Thanks,” he said, his voice dropping to something more sincere. “You’re my favorite food delivery service.”
“Flattery,” she said, pulling off her jacket and revealing the faded grey t-shirt beneath—one she’d stolen from his drawer last week, “will get you extra spring rolls.”
“That my shirt?” he asked, eyebrow raised as he unpacked containers.
Isabelle shrugged, not meeting his eyes. “Maybe. It’s comfortable.”
“Looks better on you anyway,” he said quietly, and the casual intimacy of it hung in the air between them.
As they dug into pad thai and green curry on the floor—the couch cushions pulled down behind them and their legs stretched out beneath the coffee table—Bucky found himself watching her more than he should. The way her eyes crinkled when she laughed at one of his terrible jokes, the soft hum she let out at her first bite of spicy curry, the way their fingers brushed as they reached for the same dumpling and didn’t pull away immediately. The green flecks in her eyes caught the light when she looked up at him, no trace of the unnatural glow that sometimes appeared when her powers flared.
It felt easy. And for him, that wasn’t common. Nothing in his life had been easy for seventy years.
“You know,” Bucky said between bites, twirling noodles around his fork, “there’s this diner I used to go to back in the ‘40s. Still there, if you can believe it.”
Isabelle looked up, her mouth still half-full of curry. She quickly covered her lips with her fingers, swallowing before she spoke. “Seriously? Something in New York that hasn’t been turned into a bank or overpriced coffee shop?”
“Miracle, right?” He nodded, a faint smile playing at the corners of his mouth. “Same neon sign. Same booth in the back with the cracked vinyl. Used to take dates there when I had a couple bucks to spare.”
Isabelle leaned her chin on her hand, watching the subtle shift in his expression. “Are we talking milkshakes and jukebox nostalgia or asbestos and health code violations?”
“Bit of both.” His smile widened. “The milkshakes still come in those metal mixing cups. But I wouldn’t look too closely at the kitchen.” He paused, considering her with a tilt of his head. “You’d like it, though. It’s real. Not like those places that manufacture vintage charm.”
“Sold.” She reached across the coffee table to steal a piece of chicken from his container, her fingers brushing his in the process. She didn’t pull away immediately. Neither did he.
The next morning, Bucky woke before dawn, watching the slow shift of shadows across his ceiling as the world outside began to stir. Beside him, Isabelle slept curled on her side, one hand tucked beneath her cheek, her breathing deep and even. He allowed himself a moment to just look at her—the softness that sleep brought to her usually guarded features, the way her blonde hair spilled across his pillow.
When her eyes finally fluttered open, catching him watching, she didn’t flinch away. Just smiled, slow and a little shy.
“Creepy,” she murmured, voice rough with sleep.
“Strategic observation,” he corrected, the corner of his mouth lifting.
They dressed unhurriedly, moving around each other in a dance that felt practiced despite its newness. Bucky pulled on a dark Henley and jacket, tucking his left hand into a glove with the ease of long habit. Isabelle borrowed another of his shirts, knotting it at her waist over yesterday’s jeans.
“So where’s this ancient diner?” she asked, leaning against his bathroom doorframe as he ran gel through his hair. “Does it still have those tiny jukeboxes at each table?”
“Patience, doll,” he said, but there was warmth in his voice that belied the surname. “Some things you gotta experience firsthand.”
The morning greeted them with that particular Brooklyn light—golden and sharp-edged, cutting between buildings and glinting off windows.
“That building there,” Bucky said, pointing to a weathered brick structure with fire escapes zigzagging up its facade. “Used to be a dance hall. Stevie would sit in the corner while I’d—” He stopped, a small furrow appearing between his brows.
“While you charmed every girl in the room?” Isabelle finished for him, her tone light but her eyes watchful.
Bucky huffed a laugh. “Something like that.” He paused at a street corner, eyes distant. “Strange, remembering that version of myself. Feels like someone else’s life sometimes.”
Isabelle’s fingers found his, squeezing once. “Still you, though. Just... with more layers now.”
He looked down at their joined hands, then back at her face. “Is that your professional assessment?”
“Nah.” She shrugged, the gesture deliberately casual. “Just an observation from someone who knows a thing or two about feeling like different people.”
They continued walking, Bucky pointing out landmarks only he could truly see—the ghost of a movie theater where he’d spent Saturday afternoons, the corner where he’d gotten into his first real fight defending Steve, the spot where his mother used to buy fresh bread. Isabelle listened, cataloging each story, each memory, watching the subtle shifts in his expression—the way his eyes softened at some recollections, hardened at others.
She let herself fall a half-step behind, just watching him—the way his shoulders had gradually loosened as they walked, how his metal hand now hung relaxed at his side rather than tucked away, the occasional genuine smile that transformed his face into something younger, something unburdened.
The diner appeared suddenly between a hardware store and a laundromat, its neon sign flickering even in daylight: PETE’S, in faded red letters. The windows were slightly foggy, the chrome trim around the door worn to a dull patina by decades of hands pushing it open.
He pushed open the door, a small bell jingling overhead. The smell hit them immediately—coffee and grease and something sweet, all mingling in the warm air. Chrome-edged counters lined one wall, red vinyl booths the other. The black and white checkered floor had been worn to gray in the high-traffic areas, and a jukebox—not the tabletop kind, but a full-sized Wurlitzer—glowed in the corner.
Behind the counter, a waitress with silver-streaked hair piled high and cat-eye glasses hanging from a chain looked up. She was probably in her sixties, but something in her sharp gaze and the set of her shoulders suggested she’d been working here for years.
“Take any seat you want, hon,” she called, already reaching for a coffee pot.
Isabelle nodded and slid into a booth near the back, the vinyl creaking beneath her weight with a sound like old bones settling. A small tear in the seat had been patched with silver duct tape that caught on her jeans when she shifted.
Bucky settled across from her, his back to the wall. His fingers drummed once against the laminate tabletop, a quick, nervous gesture that betrayed the calm set of his jaw. Isabelle reached out, catching his hand—the right one, warm and calloused—between both of hers. She didn’t say anything. Just anchored him, her thumb brushing lightly over his knuckles. The gesture felt both natural and terrifyingly new.
The waitress appeared at their table, setting down two heavy ceramic mugs that had seen better decades. She filled them with coffee dark enough to stand a spoon in, the bitter scent rising in a thin steam between them.
“First time here?” she asked, eyeing Bucky with a curious squint.
“First time in about eighty years,” he replied, the corner of his mouth lifting in that half-smile that never quite reached his eyes.
The waitress snorted, clearly thinking he was joking. “Well, the menu hasn’t changed much since then. Still do the best blueberry pancakes in Brooklyn.”
“Two orders,” Bucky said, a hint of Brooklyn slipping into his voice. “Sides of bacon, eggs over easy.”
“Coming right up.” She tucked her pencil behind her ear. “You two make a cute couple.”
Before either could correct her—or decide if they wanted to correct her, she was gone, disappearing behind the swinging kitchen door.
Isabelle felt heat crawl up her neck, but didn’t pull her hand away from his. “So this is where you charmed all the ladies back in the day, huh?” she asked, deflecting with humor the way she always did when emotions threatened to overwhelm her.
“Not all of them,” Bucky replied, his voice low enough that only she could hear. “Just the ones worth impressing.”
The weight of his gaze made her stomach flip in a way that had nothing to do with hunger. She took a sip of her coffee to buy time, wincing as the bitter liquid hit her tongue. “Jesus Christ,” she sputtered, “this coffee could strip paint off a battleship.”
“That’s how you know it’s authentic,” Bucky said, taking a long sip of his own without flinching. “No fancy latte art or Italian names. Just coffee that’ll put hair on your chest.”
“Just what every girl wants to hear,” Isabelle muttered, but reached for the small metal creamer anyway.
As she doctored her coffee with sugar and cream, she studied Bucky’s face. The morning light filtering through the window caught on the angles of his features—the sharp line of his jaw, softened slightly by stubble; the crease between his brows that never fully disappeared; the way his eyes seemed to shift between blue and gray depending on the light. There was a stillness to him that most people mistook for coldness, but she’d learned to read the subtle tells—the minute shift in his shoulders when he was uncomfortable, the barely-there twitch at the corner of his mouth when something amused him.
“You okay?” she asked, thumb still brushing lightly over his knuckles. The metal of his left hand gleamed dully beneath the table, half-hidden in shadow.
He nodded slowly, his eyes tracking something—or someone—who wasn’t there anymore. “Yeah. Just... a lot of ghosts.” His gaze moved around the diner, seeing things that weren’t there anymore—people long gone, moments lost to time. “Used to bring Stevie here after he got his ass kicked. Which was pretty much weekly.” A ghost of a smile touched his lips. “They’d give us free pie sometimes. Think the owner felt sorry for him.”
Isabelle’s chest tightened, imagining a younger, lighter version of the man before her, looking after a scrawny Steve Rogers. “Must be strange,” she said softly. “Having memories that span a century.”
“Strange doesn’t begin to cover it.” He took another sip of coffee. “Some days I remember every detail—the smell of my ma’s kitchen, the exact sound of Steve’s laugh before the serum changed it. Other days... It’s like trying to recall a movie I saw once.” His fingers tightened almost imperceptibly around hers. “The worst is when I’m not sure which memories are real and which ones HYDRA put there.”
Isabelle’s gaze softened. “Then let’s make some new ones,” she said, squeezing his hand. “Ones they can’t take away. Ones that are just yours.”
“Is that what we’re doing?” Bucky asked, his voice quiet but intent, eyes finding hers with an intensity that made her breath catch. “Making memories?”
The question hung between them, loaded with everything they hadn’t defined, everything they’d been circling around. The casual intimacy of shared meals and stolen t-shirts, the way he’d press his fingers to the small of her back when they walked, the nightmares that only seemed bearable when the other was there.
Isabelle took another sip of her coffee, buying time. Her heart hammered against her ribs, the familiar urge to deflect, to run, rising like a tide. “This coffee definitely has stripped paint,” she muttered again, then set the mug down with a decisive click against the tabletop. She met his gaze directly, refusing to hide. “I don’t know what we’re doing, James. But I know I’m not running from it.”
Something in his expression shifted, opened. The careful neutrality he maintained around others softened into something vulnerable, almost hopeful. “That’s new for you.”
“Yeah, well.” She shrugged one shoulder, a gesture too deliberate to be casual. “Turns out running gets old after a while.” She paused, swallowing against the tightness in her throat. “And maybe I found something worth staying for.”
Bucky’s thumb brushed over her knuckles, mirroring her earlier gesture. His touch was gentle, almost reverent, at odds with the deadly precision those same hands were capable of. “Tell me about it,” he said, his voice a low rumble that she felt as much as heard.
The waitress returned, balancing two plates stacked with pancakes that steamed in the cool morning air. The scent of butter and blueberries momentarily distracted them both, but as she set the food down, Isabelle caught Bucky watching her with that same intent expression.
“You two need anything else?” the waitress asked, topping off their coffee.
“No,” Bucky said, not looking away from Isabelle’s face. “I think we’ve got everything we need right here.”
The double meaning wasn’t lost on Isabelle, who felt heat rise to her cheeks again. As the waitress walked away, she picked up her fork, pointing it at him accusingly. “That was smooth, Barnes. Real smooth.”
“I’ve been told I used to be good at that,” he said, the corner of his mouth lifting in that half-smile that, for once, reached his eyes. “Charming dames.”
“Dames?” Isabelle repeated, laughing despite herself. “God, you really are a fossil.”
“Careful,” he warned, but there was no heat behind it. “Or I’ll start calling you ‘dollface’ in front of Wilson.”
“You wouldn’t dare.”
“Try me... dollface.”
The way he said it—low and teasing, with just enough Brooklyn in his voice to make it sound like it belonged in a black and white film—sent a shiver down her spine that had nothing to do with the diner’s ancient air conditioning.
“Sam would never let me live it down,” she groaned, cutting into her pancakes to hide the smile that threatened to break across her face.
“That’s half the appeal,” Bucky admitted, reaching across the table to steal a blueberry from her plate.
Isabelle felt something warm unfurl in her chest, something dangerously close to contentment. For a moment—just a moment—the weight she carried seemed lighter, the voices in her head quieter. Just her and Bucky in a dingy diner that smelled of coffee and grease and history, making memories that belonged only to them.
Time blurred.
Days stretched and compressed as Bucky and Isabelle carved out a space that belonged only to them. Not quite defined, not quite casual—something fragile growing between the cracks of their carefully constructed walls.
They explored the city as if it were a map to each other. Bucky would point to a weathered brownstone, eyes distant with memory, and Isabelle would pull him into a nearby bodega he’d never noticed, insisting he try some obscure snack that made him wrinkle his nose but eat it anyway.
“This used to be a dance hall,” he told her one afternoon, gesturing to what was now a high-end furniture store. The spring sun caught in his hair, warming the usual steel of his eyes to something softer. “Used to be five cents to get in on Saturdays.”
“Five whole cents?” Isabelle whistled low, bumping her shoulder against his. “Big spender, Barnes.”
They wandered Central Park with coffee cups warming their hands. Bucky walked with his shoulders slightly hunched, eyes constantly scanning—old habits—but Isabelle noticed how he’d gradually stopped flinching at sudden movements, how his left hand sometimes emerged from his pocket when it was just the two of them.
“You’re doing that thing again,” Isabelle said, nudging him gently with her elbow.
“What thing?” Bucky’s eyes darted to her face, then back to the jogger passing twenty feet ahead of them.
“Threat assessment. We’re in a park, James. The most dangerous thing here is that squirrel eyeing your coffee.”
His lips twitched. “That squirrel could be HYDRA.”
“A HYDRA squirrel?” She snorted, nearly choking on her coffee. “Is that what keeps you up at night?”
“You’d be surprised what keeps me up,” he said, his voice dropping to something more serious than he’d intended.
Isabelle’s smile faded. She understood. Some nights, she’d wake to find him sitting on the edge of the bed, his back rigid, breath carefully controlled. Other nights, it was her turn to jolt awake, the echo of screams still ringing in her ears. They never talked about it—not directly—but somehow, the silent understanding was better than any words could be.
“Hey,” she said, bumping her shoulder against his. “I know this place with bagels that’ll make you forget your own name.”
His eyebrow lifted. “That good?”
“Better. And if you disagree, I’ll know you have no taste buds.”
“Lead the way, dollface.”
The deli was a hole-in-the-wall with a faded awning and a line that stretched halfway down the block. Isabelle insisted they wait, standing close enough that their arms brushed, her fingers occasionally catching his when she gestured emphatically about why this place was “the only acceptable bagel joint in the five boroughs.”
When they finally reached the counter, she ordered for both of them—“Two everything bagels, one with scallion cream cheese, one with lox spread, and don’t skimp”—while Bucky watched her with something like amusement, softening his usually guarded expression.
“What?” she asked as they claimed a bench outside, the paper bag warm between them.
“Nothing.” He shook his head. “Just... you ordering food like it’s a tactical operation.”
“Bagels are serious business,” She handed him his, wrapped in wax paper. “Try it before you mock me.”
Bucky took a bite, and his eyes widened slightly. The bagel was perfect—crisp exterior giving way to a chewy interior, the cream cheese tangy and rich. He made a sound low in his throat that sent heat crawling up Isabelle’s neck.
“See?” she said, trying to ignore the flutter in her stomach. “Told you.”
“It’s alright,” he said, but the corner of his mouth twitched.
“Alright?” She gaped at him. “You’re impossible.”
“Just keeping you on your toes, doll.”
Something shifted between them as April faded into May. Not sudden like a thunderclap, but gradual like the changing seasons—a slow-blooming certainty that neither acknowledged aloud.
Bucky found himself watching her more intently each day, not with the clinical assessment of a soldier cataloging potential threats, but with something softer, more vulnerable. It was in the way Bucky’s eyes lingered just a little longer when Isabelle spoke. Not because he was zoning out, but because he was watching. Drinking her in. Like he was trying to memorize every curve of her mouth when she smiled, the cadence of her laugh, the way she talked with her hands without realizing it.
And Isabelle? She noticed everything—cataloged it, filed it away. The subtle roll of his shoulders beneath worn Henleys. The way his metal fingers flexed when he was thinking deeply, plates recalibrating with a sound so faint only she seemed to hear it. How his right hand twitched slightly before he touched her, a hesitation born of decades of conditioning that touch meant pain, or that his touch would cause it.
She’d started reaching for him first, casual brushes of fingers against his arm or shoulder—a silent permission.
Their kisses changed, too. No longer just moments of comfort or quiet reassurance—they grew weight, depth, and intention. What had begun as cautious explorations became something Isabelle felt in her bones, something that made her breath catch and her heart stutter beneath her ribs.
Now, when he kissed her, Bucky did it with unmistakable intent. He’d bracket her jaw with both hands and pull her in like he needed her close just to stay steady. His breath would ghost across her lips first, a silent question that she always answered by closing the distance herself.
Sometimes it started lazy—barely-there brushes and soft smiles between, his thumb tracing the curve of her cheekbone while she played with the collar of his shirt. But more often than not, they sank into each other with a hunger that startled them both. His fingers would thread through her hair, cradling the back of her head like she was something precious, even as his mouth claimed hers with an urgency that made her knees weak.
Isabelle found herself mapping him with her hands—the solid plane of his chest, the ridges of scars where metal met flesh at his shoulder, the way his pulse jumped beneath her fingertips when she traced the line of his jaw. She memorized the small sound he made when she tugged gently at his lower lip with her teeth, the way his metal hand would flex against her waist, plates recalibrating with a whisper-soft whir she felt more than heard.
They didn’t talk about it. Didn’t need to.
It was in the touches.
On the train platform heading back from a small bookshop, Isabelle wanted to show him, her fingers slid into his as the wind picked up, their joined hands tucked into his jacket pocket. The first time she’d done it, he’d frozen for half a second before his fingers closed around hers, his thumb brushing over her knuckles in a gesture so tender it made her throat tight.
Crossing a street in Brooklyn, he’d rest a hand on her lower back—a subtle claim, a quiet shield. Not because she needed protection, but because the instinct to keep her safe ran bone-deep in him. She’d lean into the touch, just slightly, just enough for him to feel her acceptance of it.
On the couch in his apartment, curled side by side while some half-watched movie played, Bucky would trace idle circles on the inside of her wrist, his touch feather-light over the delicate blue veins visible beneath her skin. Sometimes he’d press his lips to her temple, her hair catching in his stubble, and murmur commentary about whatever played on screen until she fell asleep on his shoulder.
One evening, as twilight painted her apartment in shades of indigo and gold, Bucky sat with his back against the arm of the couch, Isabelle between his legs with her back to his chest. His arms were wrapped loosely around her waist, his chin resting on her shoulder as they watched rain streak down the windows.
“You’re quiet tonight,” he murmured, his voice a low rumble she felt against her spine.
Isabelle hummed noncommittally, her fingers tracing the ridges of his metal knuckles where his hand rested on her stomach. The rain created shifting patterns of shadow and light across the hardwood floors, hypnotic in their randomness.
“Just thinking,” she finally said, letting her head fall back against his shoulder. His stubble scratched lightly against her cheek.
“Dangerous pastime,” he said, and she could hear the smile in his voice.
“For you, maybe.” She turned her head just enough to catch his profile—the strong line of his jaw, the curve of his lower lip, the way his hair fell across his forehead. “Your brain’s practically ancient. Might short-circuit if you use it too much.”
He made a sound of mock offense, his arms tightening around her waist. “Respect your elders, dollface.”
“Make me, old man.”
The challenge hung in the air between them, electric and weighted. Bucky’s eyes darkened, the steel blue deepening to something storm-colored and intense. His gaze dropped to her mouth, lingered there long enough for heat to pool low in her stomach.
“That a request?” he asked, his voice dropping to something rough around the edges.
Isabelle turned in his arms, rising up on her knees to face him properly. The movement brought their faces close, her hands coming to rest on his shoulders for balance. She could feel the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath her palm, slightly faster than normal.
“More like a dare,” she said, the corner of her mouth lifting in a challenge she knew he couldn’t resist.
Bucky’s metal hand came up to cup her face, thumb brushing over her lower lip in a gesture so gentle it made her breath catch. “Never could back down from a dare,” he murmured, and then his mouth was on hers, firm and insistent.
The kiss deepened immediately, all pretense of teasing abandoned. Isabelle’s fingers tangled in his hair, tugging slightly as his arm wrapped around her waist, pulling her flush against him. She made a small, needy sound against his mouth that seemed to ignite something in him—his grip tightened, his kiss growing more demanding.
When they finally broke apart, both breathing hard, Bucky rested his forehead against hers. His eyes were half-lidded, pupils blown wide, and a flush had crept up his neck to stain his cheeks.
“Effective strategy,” Isabelle managed, her voice embarrassingly breathless.
“I’ve got a few more where that came from,” he replied, the corner of his mouth lifting in that half-smile that never failed to make her heart skip.
“Is that right?” She raised an eyebrow, trying for nonchalance despite the fact that her pulse was racing. “Care to demonstrate?”
The look he gave her then—heated, intent, almost reverent—made her stomach flip. His hand came up to brush a strand of hair behind her ear, the gesture achingly tender compared to the hunger in his eyes.
“Thought you’d never ask,” he said, and then he was kissing her again, deeper this time, with a deliberate slowness that made her toes curl.
Outside, the rain continued to fall, drumming against the windows in a steady rhythm that matched the beating of their hearts. And for once, neither of them was running from what they felt—they were running toward it, headlong and reckless and utterly, completely alive.
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A list. A name. A line crossed.
The floor is scattered with takeout and half-spilled secrets.
Jazz plays. She laughs. He looks at her like she’s the first thing that’s ever made sense.She doesn’t run.
He doesn’t hold back.It starts slow—like a promise.
Then heat blooms, soft and unhurried.
Hands learn, lips linger, and trust is something felt, not spoken.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 72: The Name I Crossed Off
Chapter 72: The Name I Crossed Off
Summary:
It starts with a faded list of ghosts.
He thinks he doesn’t deserve her.
She crosses herself off his list and kisses him like she means it.Touch turns to trust.
Heat to healing.
Bodies to vows they’re not brave enough to speak out loud.
Notes:
Happy Sunday!!! I’m so glad you’re all vibing with these softer chapters. Writing Bucky and Izzy just makes my whole heart ache in the best way. Seeing your reactions seriously means the world to me, and I can't thank you enough for loving them like I do.
Now... this chapter. It’s long. And yes... the spice is finally here. 👀🔥
If that’s not your thing, no worries—there’s a clean cut-off so you can skip ahead! But if you’ve been waiting for the tension to finally snap...it snaps.This was my first time writing spice like this, and I’m honestly kinda proud??? Can’t wait to hear what you think. Drop your thoughts in the comments!! Love you all endlessly 💚💚💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Heaven" by Mitski
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Chapter Text
They sat cross-legged on the floor of Bucky’s apartment, surrounded by the remnants of Thai takeout—empty cartons, wooden chopsticks, and the lingering scent of peanut sauce and curry.
The record player in the corner spun lazily, the soft strains of jazz filling the room. Isabelle leaned back against the couch, her blonde hair falling in messy waves over her shoulders as she flipped through the worn pages of the notebook she had once gifted to Steve.
Bucky watched her, the corners of his mouth lifting slightly as her fingers traced the faded ink. There was something about seeing her here, in his space, that still felt surreal. Three weeks of this—whatever this was—and he still expected her to disappear like smoke each time he blinked.
“Oh my god,” Isabelle exclaimed suddenly, her eyes lighting up with genuine excitement. “We have to watch ‘Casablanca.’“ She tapped the page with her fingertip, showing him where Steve had scrawled the title alongside a question mark.
“Already seen it,” Bucky said, reaching for his beer. “Twice, actually. Once in ‘43, and again a couple of months ago.”
Isabelle’s eyebrows shot up. “And? Verdict?”
“It’s good.” He shrugged, the metal plates in his left arm shifting with a subtle whir. “Steve said I’d cry. I didn’t.”
“Liar,” Isabelle said, her lips curving into a knowing smile. “Everyone cries at ‘Casablanca.’ Even my Natasha did, though she’d never admit it. I saw.”
Something tightened in Bucky’s chest at the casual mention of Natasha. She’d been doing that more lately—dropping little fragments of her past into conversation without the usual shadow crossing her face. He wasn’t sure if she noticed the change.
“Maybe I’m just made of sterner stuff,” he said, keeping his tone light.
Isabelle snorted, tossing a wadded-up napkin at him. “Please. You’re not made any sterner than Natasha Romanoff. Plus, I’ve seen you tear up at cat food commercials.”
“That was one time,” he protested, catching the napkin easily. “And it was a really cute cat.”
She laughed, the sound warming the room more effectively than his radiator ever could. Bucky found himself smiling back, a real smile—the kind that still felt foreign on his face, like clothes that didn’t quite fit anymore.
“I just can’t believe you made it through the whole ‘we’ll always have Paris’ scene without a single tear,” Isabelle said, shaking her head. “That’s just... inhuman.”
“I’ve been called worse,” he replied dryly.
As she turned the page, her expression shifted, a frown creasing her brow. Her fingers froze mid-turn, hovering over the paper. The playfulness drained from her face like water circling a drain.
Bucky straightened, suddenly alert. “What is it?”
Isabelle didn’t answer. She stared down at the page, her pulse visibly quickening at the side of her neck. Bucky leaned forward, the floorboards creaking beneath his weight, and his stomach dropped when he saw what she was looking at.
The list.
His list of names—people he needed to make amends to, people he’d hurt, killed, or whose lives he’d destroyed as the Winter Soldier. These last few weeks made him forget it was in there, tucked between Steve’s movie recommendations and notes about the 21st century. And there, near the top, written in his tight, controlled handwriting: I.Stark.
“Isabelle...” His voice came out rough, almost strangled. The sight of her staring at that list—his list—made his chest constrict like it was caught in a vice.
Her eyes finally lifted to meet his. Bucky saw confusion there first, then a flash of hurt that made him want to look away, followed by something harder to define—a stubborn determination that reminded him so much of Steve that it was almost painful.
She looked back down at the list, her blonde hair falling forward to partially shield her face from him. Bucky fought the urge to reach out and tuck it behind her ear. He wanted—needed—to see her expression fully, to gauge just how badly he’d fucked this up.
Bucky reached for the notebook, his movements slow and hesitant, weighted down by shame. Isabelle was quicker. She snatched it up, clutching it protectively against her chest like she was afraid he might try to take it from her.
“Isabelle, I—” Bucky started, his voice thick with emotion. The words he needed seemed trapped somewhere between his brain and his mouth.
But Isabelle shook her head, cutting him off. She reached for a pen on the nearby coffee table. Before Bucky could stop her, she opened the notebook and, with a decisive stroke, crossed her own name off the list.
“There,” she said, her voice soft but firm as she met his gaze. “Fixed it. Shouldn’t have been there to begin with but...” She shrugged, her eyes never leaving his.
The air between them felt charged, weighted with unspoken words.
“It’s not that simple,” Bucky said finally, the words feeling inadequate even as they left his mouth.
“Nothing ever is.” Isabelle set the notebook down between them, her fingers lingering on the page. “But this one thing can be. I’m not a victim of the Winter Soldier, Bucky. I refuse to be another name that keeps you up at night.”
She leaned forward then, her eyes held his with an intensity that made his breath catch.
“You don’t get to claim me as collateral damage,” she whispered. “Not when you’re the only person who’s made me feel anything close to normal since I came back.”
Bucky stared at her, a whirlwind of emotions coursing through him. His eyes, usually guarded, were now wide with something raw and exposed. He shook his head slowly.
“I don’t deserve this,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “I don’t deserve you.” The words felt like they were being torn from somewhere deep inside him. “I watched them hurt you... for years.” His hands clenched into fists at the memory—the Winter Soldier, standing in the shadows of that sterile lab while they ran their tests on her. A silent sentinel, a weapon waiting to be aimed. “I stood there and did nothing while they—”
“Shh,” Isabelle cut him off gently, reaching across the space between them to place her hand over his left one. The warmth of her touch against the cool vibranium sent a shiver up his spine. “It wasn’t your fault, okay? I don’t blame you for that. You were a victim, James. You were.” Her voice cracked slightly. “So was I—but not of you. Of them.”
She swallowed hard, and Bucky watched the slight movement of her throat, transfixed.
“What they did... what my mother did to me... what Pierce did to you—” She stopped, seeming to search for words that wouldn’t come. Instead, she picked up the notebook again, pointing to the list with a finger that trembled. “You may have carried out those acts, but that wasn’t you. The real Bucky—” She paused, her eyes softening as she looked at him. “My Bucky... he’s kind, and caring, and he wants to protect, and live... not be what Hydra planned for him.”
Bucky felt something hot and unfamiliar prick at the corners of his eyes. He blinked rapidly, embarrassed by the sudden emotion, but unable to look away from her.
“You’re the man who brings me coffee exactly how I like it without having to ask,” she continued, her voice growing stronger. “You’re the one who sits through terrible reality TV shows because you know they make me laugh. You’re the person who checks the locks twice because you know it helps me sleep better.” She took a deep breath. “That’s who you are, James Buchanan Barnes. Not what they made you do.”
A tear slipped down her cheek, catching the soft light from the lamp beside them. Bucky reached out without thinking, brushing it away with his thumb. His hand lingered against her face, and she leaned into his touch.
“How do you do that?” he asked, his voice rough with emotion.
“Do what?”
“See me like that. Like I’m...” He struggled to find the words. “Like I’m worth something.”
Isabelle’s eyes, shining with unshed tears, held his. “Because you are,” she said simply, as if it were the most obvious truth in the world. “You always have been.”
Something in his chest broke open at her words—a dam he’d built finally giving way. A single tear escaped, trailing down his cheek before he could stop it. He ducked his head, but Isabelle caught his face between her hands, forcing him to look at her.
“There’s the man who cries at ‘Casablanca,’“ she whispered, a small, watery smile playing at her lips.
Bucky let out a sound that was half laugh, half sob. “I told you, it was a really sad cat commercial,” he said, his voice unsteady.
“Sure it was,” she murmured, her thumbs gently wiping away the moisture from beneath his eyes. “Bucky Barnes, supersoldier, defeated by a kitten in a bow tie.”
He laughed then, a real laugh that seemed to surprise them both. The sound hung in the air between them, fragile and precious. Isabelle’s smile widened, and something shifted in her expression—a decision being made.
She leaned forward, closing the distance between them, and pressed her forehead against his. Their breath mingled in the small space between them, and Bucky felt his heart hammering against his ribs like it was trying to escape.
“I’m not on your list,” she whispered. “I’m right here with you. By choice.”
Bucky’s mind raced, memories of their time together flooding his consciousness. The easy way she laughed at his dry jokes. The quiet moments when they’d sit together, not speaking but understanding. The way she looked at him—not as the Winter Soldier, not as a broken thing to be fixed, but as James Buchanan Barnes, a man worthy of... something. Something he couldn’t quite name.
He studied her face, inches from his own. The soft curve of her lips, the flecks of gold in her green eyes. Three weeks of whatever this was between them, and he still couldn’t believe she was here, in his apartment, looking at him like he mattered.
Without conscious thought, Bucky leaned forward, drawn by a pull that felt older than his memories. His hands came up to cradle her face with a gentleness that surprised even him. He paused, his breath catching. His blue eyes searched her green ones, giving her a heartbeat’s chance to pull away. It was their unspoken ritual—him offering an escape route, her refusing to take it.
She closed the distance between them, and the first brush of her lips against his was so achingly gentle it made something in him crack open. Bucky’s heart hammered against his ribs, a wild, frantic rhythm he’d been feeling more and more. The feeling he hadn’t felt since before the war, before the ice, before everything.
The kiss deepened slowly as if they were both afraid of breaking something fragile. Isabelle tasted faintly of the Thai iced tea she’d been drinking, sweet with a hint of spice. Her fingers threaded through his hair, sending shivers down his spine as she tugged him closer.
“Isabelle,” he breathed against her lips, her name a prayer and a question all at once.
His hands moved up her sides, mapping the contours of her body with reverent touches. Each brush of his fingers, each press of his lips was a question—is this okay? Do you want this?—and each sigh, each shiver from Isabelle was the answer he needed.
Her hands slid down his chest, fingers curling into the soft fabric of his Henley. Through the thin material, he felt the warmth of her touch against his skin, the rapid beat of his heart beneath her palm.
The kiss turned urgent, a hunger awakening between them that had been dormant for too long. Isabelle made a soft sound against his mouth—half sigh, half whimper—that sent heat cascading through Bucky’s body, pooling low in his stomach. His left hand slid up her back, fingers tangling in her blonde hair, while his right hand remained at her waist, thumb brushing against the strip of skin where her shirt had ridden up.
How long had it been since he’d touched someone like this? Since the 1940s? Another lifetime ago, when he was still fully human, before the ice, before the arm, before the blood on his hands.
His hand slipped beneath the hem of her shirt, palm flat against the warm skin of her lower back. Isabelle shivered at the contact, arching slightly into his touch, her body seeking more. Bucky watched her face with rapt attention, cataloging every reaction, every subtle shift in her expression. The slight parting of her lips, the flush spreading across her cheeks, the way her pupils dilated, turning her green eyes nearly black.
“You’re allowed to have this, you know,” she said softly against his lips, her breath warm and sweet. “You’re allowed to want it.”
Bucky’s eyes widened slightly at her words. Permission to want, to take, to have—concepts that still felt foreign after decades of having his desires systematically stripped away. His throat worked, the muscles tensing visibly as he swallowed. He looked away, dark lashes casting shadows on his cheekbones in the apartment’s dim light.
“Hey,” Isabelle whispered, reaching up to gently turn his face back toward hers. Her thumb traced the edge of his jaw, feeling the slight rasp of stubble against her skin. “Look at me.”
He did, meeting her gaze with visible effort. The vulnerability there nearly stole her breath—decades of pain and longing concentrated in a single look. But there was something else too, something that made her heart flutter against her ribs. Not shame or self-loathing, but wonder. Uncertainty. Hope.
“I want this too,” she said, her voice steady despite the heat blooming in her chest. “I want you. Not because I’m trying to fix you or save you or any of that bullshit.” Her lips quirked in a small, self-deprecating smile as she thought of all the ways she was just as broken as he was. “I just want you because you’re you.”
The simplicity of her declaration seemed to undo something in him. His expression shifted, softened, and before she could say another word, he pulled her closer. His arms—one warm flesh, one cool metal—encircled her completely as he buried his face in the crook of her neck. She felt his breath against her skin, warm and slightly uneven. His stubble tickled the sensitive spot below her ear, sending a pleasant shiver down her spine.
“I don’t deserve this,” he murmured against her skin, the words vibrating through her.
“That’s not how this works,” she said, her voice soft but firm as her fingers tangled in his hair. “It’s not about deserving. It’s about choosing.” Her fingers stilled. “And I choose you, James Buchanan Barnes.” She pulled back slightly, forcing him to meet her gaze again. “The question is, do you choose me?”
And he knew his answer with a certainty that surprised him.
“Yes,” he said, his voice rough with emotion. His flesh hand came up to cup her cheek, thumb brushing across her lower lip with a gentleness that made her heart ache. “God, yes, Iz. I choose you.”
Isabelle surged forward, closing the distance between them, and kissed him hard. The notebook with his list—her name now crossed out—slid forgotten to the floor as Bucky met her with equal fervor, his hesitation evaporating like morning mist. His hands moved to her back, fingers splaying wide as he pulled her flush against him. The solid wall of his chest pressed against hers, his heartbeat thundering against her ribs, matching her own frantic rhythm.
She shifted in his lap, her legs on either side of his hips now, and the new position drew a sharp intake of breath from them both. Isabelle gasped into the kiss as she felt the unmistakable evidence of his growing arousal pressing against her. Heat pooled low in her belly, and she rolled her hips experimentally, drawing a strangled moan from deep in Bucky’s throat.
“Iz,” he breathed against her mouth, his voice ragged. His metal hand slid up her spine, his flesh hand remained at her face, thumb tracing the delicate line of her cheekbone as if she might shatter under too firm a touch.
“I’m not going to break,” she whispered, covering his metal hand with her own and pressing it more firmly against her back.
A smile touched his lips. “I might,” he admitted, and the raw honesty in his voice made something in her chest constrict.
She leaned forward, pressing her forehead against his. “Then I’ll put you back together,” she promised.
His eyes darkened at her words, and with a fluid movement that reminded her of just how strong he was, Bucky shifted their positions, laying her back against the rug. He hovered above her, his weight supported on his forearms.
“Is this okay?” he asked, searching her face.
Isabelle nodded. “More than okay,” she assured him, her fingers trailing down to trace the line of his jaw, feeling the slight tension there. “But you can tell me if you need to slow down. Or stop. Anytime.”
Something flickered in his eyes—gratitude, maybe, or relief. He lowered his head, his lips finding the sensitive spot just below her ear that made her shiver. “Same goes for you,” he murmured against her skin, his breath hot, sending goosebumps racing down her arms.
“Noted,” she managed, her voice hitching as his teeth grazed her earlobe. Her hands slid under his shirt, fingers splaying across the warm skin of his back, feeling the shift of powerful muscles beneath her touch.
Bucky kissed a path down her neck, each press of his lips deliberate and achingly gentle. His breath warmed her skin, raising goosebumps in its wake as he traced the delicate line of her collarbone with his mouth. When he reached the collar of her shirt, he paused, lifting his head to meet her gaze. The question in his eyes was clear.
“Yes,” she whispered, answering before he could ask.
His fingers found the hem of her shirt, and he slowly pushed the fabric up, exposing inch by inch of her skin. Isabelle lifted her arms, helping him remove the garment entirely. It joined the notebook on the floor, forgotten as Bucky’s gaze traveled over her newly exposed skin.
“You’re beautiful,” Bucky said, his voice rough with emotion. His metal fingers hovered over her ribs, not quite touching, the plates recalibrating with a soft whir that filled the silence between them. “Can I...?”
She nodded, not trusting her voice. The first touch of cool vibranium against her skin made her inhale sharply. Bucky immediately stilled.
“Too cold?” he asked, concern creasing his brow.
Isabelle shook her head. “No, it’s...” She swallowed, searching for words. “It’s nice. Different.”
The corner of his mouth lifted in the ghost of a smile. “Different good?”
“Different perfect,” she breathed, covering his metal hand with her own, pressing it more firmly against her skin.
Isabelle’s hands found their way to his hair, fingers threading through the dark strands as he continued his reverent exploration of her body. Each kiss felt like absolution, each touch a promise. When his mouth moved to the underside of her breast, she arched into him, a soft sound escaping her lips.
“Buck,” she breathed, tugging gently at his hair to guide him back up to her face. Their eyes met, and the naked want in his gaze made heat pool low in her belly. “I want to see you too.”
His Adam’s apple bobbed as he swallowed, a flash of uncertainty crossing his features before he nodded. Isabelle’s hands found the hem of his shirt, slipping underneath to trace the hard planes of his abdomen. She felt his muscles twitch under her touch, heard the sharp intake of breath as her fingers skimmed over old scars and new skin alike. The contrast of textures fascinated her—smooth expanses interrupted by raised ridges of scar tissue, all of it warm and alive beneath her hands.
Emboldened, she tugged at the shirt, silently asking permission. Bucky hesitated only a moment before leaning back, his eyes never leaving hers as he allowed her to pull the shirt over his head. As it fell to the floor beside them, Isabelle took a moment to drink in the sight of him.
The low light from the lamp cast half his body in shadow, highlighting the sculpted muscles of his chest and arms, the gleaming metal of his left shoulder catching and reflecting the warm glow. But it was his face that held her captive—Bucky was looking at her with raw adoration and trust, no longer hiding his feelings or himself behind the careful mask he wore for the rest of the world.
“You’re staring,” he murmured, a hint of self-consciousness creeping into his voice.
“Can you blame me?” Isabelle replied, her voice husky with want. She reached out, trailing her fingers along the seam where flesh met metal on his left shoulder. She felt him tense beneath her touch, his muscles coiling tight before slowly relaxing with a shuddering exhale that she felt more than heard.
“No one touches me there,” he admitted quietly, the vulnerability in his voice making her heart ache. “Not like that.”
Isabelle held his gaze, unwavering. “Is it okay?”
Bucky nodded, swallowing visibly. “Yes.”
She leaned forward, her heart pounding against her ribs as she pressed her lips to the scarred junction. The metal was cool against her mouth, the flesh warm—a perfect contradiction, just like the man himself. She felt the vibration of his soft groan through her lips, felt the way his hand—his right hand, the one made of flesh and bone—came up to cradle the back of her head, gentle yet desperate.
His weight pressed her into the floor, the hardwood cool against her back where the rug didn’t reach. She didn’t care, just tugged him closer, wanting to feel him everywhere.
Slowly, they began to undress each other. Isabelle’s fingers trembled slightly as she unbuttoned his jeans, her breath catching when her knuckles brushed against the warm skin of his abdomen. Bucky watched her face, mesmerized by the play of emotions there—desire, nervousness, wonder.
When she pushed his jeans down his hips, Bucky helped, kicking them off before turning his attention to her. His hands slid up her sides, reaching behind her. He unhooked her bra with practiced ease that might have made her laugh in another context—some skills, it seemed, survived even decades of brainwashing and cryo-sleep. He slid the straps down her arms until she was bare before him.
“Christ, Iz,” he whispered, his voice rough with want. “You’re gorgeous.”
Heat bloomed across her cheeks. No one had ever looked at her the way he was looking at her now—like she was something precious and wild and worth protecting all at once.
Isabelle laughed softly, the sound dissolving into a sigh as Bucky’s hands found her breasts, his thumbs brushing over her nipples. Her head fell back, eyes fluttering closed as sensation washed through her. His metal hand slid down to her hip, fingers dipping beneath the waistband of her jeans. The cool touch against her heated skin made her inhale sharply.
“Iz,” he groaned, his voice strained with restraint. “Can I?”
“Please,” she whispered, lifting her hips to help as he unbuttoned her jeans and slid them down her legs, taking her underwear with them.
The cool air of the apartment raised goosebumps on her newly exposed skin, but Bucky’s hands were there immediately, warming her with long, smooth strokes from thigh to hip. He settled between her legs, his weight supported on his forearms as he looked down at her with eyes dark with desire.
“You’re sure?” he asked, one last time.
In answer, Isabelle reached up, threading her fingers through his hair and pulling him down for a kiss that left no room for doubt. “I’m sure,” she breathed against his lips. “I want this. I want you.”
The last of his hesitation melted away. He kissed her deeply, thoroughly, his tongue sliding against hers in a rhythm that made her whimper. His flesh hand slid down between them, finding her center with unerring accuracy. When his fingers slipped between her folds, finding her already wet and wanting, they both groaned.
“Fuck,” she muttered against his lips.
He circled her clit with his thumb, making her gasp and arch into his touch. His finger teased at her entrance before slowly, carefully pushing inside. Isabelle’s eyes fluttered closed at the sensation, her breath coming in short, sharp pants.
She rolled her hips against his hand, silently asking for more. “Don’t stop.”
A second finger joined the first, stretching her gently as his thumb continued its maddening circles. Isabelle felt herself climbing higher, pleasure building like a wave about to break. Her hands clutched at his shoulders, nails digging into flesh and metal alike as she chased the sensation.
“Look at me,” Bucky said softly, his voice rough with need.
Isabelle forced her heavy lids open, meeting his gaze. He watched her with that intense focus that made her feel both exposed and cherished. The vulnerability there—the raw need—made her breath catch in her throat.
“I want to see you,” he murmured, adding a third finger alongside the first two with exquisite care. The pressure was delicious, making her gasp as he curled his fingers just so. “Want to watch you feel good.”
The intimacy of it—his eyes locked on hers while his fingers moved inside her, the cool metal of his left hand anchoring her hip to the floor—it was too much. Too good. She couldn’t look away even if she wanted to. His gaze held her captive, seeing all of her—not just the physical nakedness, but something deeper, something more vulnerable than she’d ever shown anyone.
“James,” she breathed, her voice breaking on his name as pleasure coiled tighter in her core. Her fingers clutched at his shoulders, nails digging into warm flesh and cool vibranium alike. “Please... I need...”
She couldn’t finish the sentence, couldn’t form the words to tell him what she wanted. But he understood. Of course he did.
“I’ve got you,” he said softly, withdrawing his fingers with a gentleness that made her whine at the loss.
He shifted above her, the muscles in his arms flexing as he positioned himself between her thighs. His dog tags swung forward, the metal cool against her heated skin as they dangled between them. Isabelle reached up, wrapping her fingers around the chain, using it to tug him closer until their foreheads touched.
“Tell me if I hurt you,” he said, positioning himself at her entrance. The blunt head of his cock pressed against her, hot and hard and insistent. “Promise me.”
“I promise,” she whispered, her hands sliding down to his shoulders, feeling the play of muscles beneath her fingertips. “But you won’t.”
He pushed forward then, entering her with agonizing slowness. Isabelle gasped at the feeling, at the fullness as he filled her inch by inch. Her body yielded to him, welcoming him in until he was seated fully inside her, their bodies joined as completely as two people could be.
Bucky stilled once he was fully seated, his muscles trembling with the effort of restraint. A bead of sweat trickled down his temple, disappearing into his hairline. His jaw was clenched tight, the tendons in his neck standing out in sharp relief.
“You okay?” he managed, his voice strained almost beyond recognition.
Isabelle nodded, adjusting to the feel of him inside her. The initial discomfort faded quickly, replaced by a throbbing need that made her shift restlessly beneath him. “Yes,” she breathed, rolling her hips experimentally and drawing a strangled groan from deep in his chest. “God, yes.”
The movement broke something loose in him. Bucky withdrew almost completely before pushing back in with deliberate control, watching her face for any sign of discomfort. But there was none—only pleasure that built with every roll of his hips against hers.
“Isabelle,” he grunted, flesh hand found hers, fingers intertwining as he pressed it to the floor beside her head. “You feel so good. So perfect.”
Isabelle wrapped her legs around his waist with a moan, drawing him deeper, changing the angle in a way that made stars explode behind her eyelids. Bucky faltered, his rhythm breaking as a groan tore from somewhere deep in his chest. His metal hand slid beneath her, cool vibranium against her feverish skin, lifting her hips slightly to meet his.
His pace quickened, each thrust more deliberate than the last. Not rough, never that, but with a controlled intensity, restraint finally unraveling. The floorboards creaked beneath them, the record in the corner having long since stopped spinning, leaving only the sounds of their breathing, the soft whir of his arm recalibrating, and the occasional gasp when he hit just the right spot.
Bucky’s lips found her neck, pressing open-mouthed kisses along the column of her throat. His stubble scraped against her sensitive skin, the slight burn a counterpoint to the gentleness of his mouth. He worked his way down, trailing kisses across her collarbone before taking a nipple between his lips.
The dual feeling—him moving inside her while his mouth worked at her breast—sent electricity racing through her veins. Every nerve ending seemed to catch fire, heightened by the contrast of his metal arm against her skin, the weight of him above her, the heat where they were joined.
She couldn’t stop the sounds escaping her lips—soft whimpers and half-formed pleas that would have embarrassed her if she’d had the capacity to feel anything beyond the overwhelming pleasure of Bucky moving inside her, of finally having this after weeks of wanting.
His flesh hand stroked down her side, the curve of her waist, the flare of her hip, as if committing her to memory. There was something achingly tender in the gesture, something that made her chest tighten even as pleasure built within her.
“Don’t stop,” she gasped, her hands sliding down to grip his shoulders, feeling the play of muscles beneath her palms. “Please, Bucky, don’t stop.”
The careful restraint he’d shown earlier was slowly giving way to something more primal, more honest. His breathing grew ragged, his movements less measured. Isabelle welcomed it, craved it—this evidence that he was as affected as she was, that he wanted this, wanted her, with the same desperate intensity.
“Bucky,” she panted, feeling herself teetering on the edge. The tension inside her wound tighter with each movement, each brush of his skin against hers. “I’m close... I’m so close...”
His flesh hand slid between them, finding the spot where they were joined. His fingers circled her clit with just the right pressure, not too hard, not too soft.
“Let go,” he whispered, his eyes never leaving hers, watching her with an intensity that made her feel both exposed and cherished. “I’ve got you, doll. Let go for me.”
Those words, combined with the skilled movement of his fingers and a particularly deep thrust, sent her over the edge. Her back arched off the floor, her body going rigid as waves of pleasure crashed over her. She cried out his name—James—as her vision blurred at the edges.
“That’s it,” Bucky murmured, his voice strained as he continued to move inside her. “God, you’re beautiful. So beautiful.”
Through the haze of her release, Isabelle felt his rhythm grow erratic, his breathing harsh against her ear.
“Isabelle,” he groaned, “doll, I’m—”
“It’s okay,” she whispered, wrapping her legs tighter around him, refusing to let him pull away. Her hands found his face, cradling it between her palms as she looked into his eyes. “Stay. I want you to stay.”
His whole body tensed, his face buried in the crook of her neck as he found his release. She felt the hot pulse of him inside her, heard the ragged groan that seemed to be wrenched from somewhere deep in his chest. Isabelle wrapped her arms around him, one hand cradling the back of his head, fingers tangled in his hair, the other tracing soothing patterns down his spine.
For a long moment, they stayed like that, connected, breathing hard, hearts racing in tandem. The solid warmth of him above her, around her, inside her—it anchored her in a way she hadn’t felt since before the Blip, since before everything had fallen apart.
Bucky’s breath came in warm puffs against her neck, his stubble tickling the sensitive skin beneath her ear. He shifted slightly, propping himself up on his elbows to look down at her. “You okay?” he asked. His metal arm whirred softly as he adjusted his weight, careful not to crush her.
Isabelle nodded, not trusting her voice yet. Her fingertips traced idle patterns across his shoulder blades, feeling the subtle differences between smooth skin and raised scars, memorizing him by touch.
Bucky dipped his head, pressing a soft kiss to her forehead, then her cheeks, the tip of her nose, and finally, her lips. The tenderness in the gesture made something inside her ache, a sweet pain that spread through her chest and settled somewhere deep.
“That was...” she finally managed, her voice sounding strange to her own ears, breathless and raw.
Bucky chuckled, the sound vibrating through his chest and into hers. “Yeah,” he agreed, his eyes crinkling at the corners in a way she’d rarely seen before. “It really was.”
He rolled to his side, taking his weight off her but keeping one arm draped possessively across her waist.
Isabelle turned onto her side to face him properly, propping herself up on one elbow. The carpet was rough against her bare skin, but she barely noticed. She reached out, her fingertips ghosting along his stubbled jaw, down the column of his throat, across the ridge of his collarbone. His skin was warm, alive beneath her touch.
Their breaths mingled in the small space between them, intimate in a way that felt almost more vulnerable than what they’d just shared. Bucky’s thumb traced circles on her hip, as if reassuring himself that she was real, that she was still there.
A shiver ran through her, and this time it had nothing to do with his touch. The sweat cooling on her skin and the night air from the half-open window made her suddenly aware of her nakedness.
“Cold?” Bucky asked, noticing the goosebumps that had risen on her arms.
“A little,” she admitted.
Without hesitation, he reached behind him, grabbed a throw blanket from the couch, and draped it over them both. The soft fabric settled around their bodies, cocooning them in warmth. Bucky pulled her closer until she was tucked against his chest, her head fitting perfectly under his chin.
A sudden thought made Isabelle laugh softly against his chest.
“What?” Bucky asked, pulling back slightly to look at her.
“I was just thinking,” she said, her eyes dancing with amusement, “that Steve would be so scandalized if he knew what we were doing on his list.”
Bucky’s eyebrows shot up, and for a moment, he looked genuinely horrified. Then he glanced at the forgotten notebook on the floor beside them and burst into laughter—real, uninhibited laughter that transformed his face, erasing years of pain and making him look almost boyish.
“Jesus doll,” he gasped between laughs, “don’t even joke about that. I’ll never be able to look at that notebook the same way again.”
His laughter was contagious, and soon Isabelle was giggling too, her body shaking against his. It felt good—freeing—to laugh like this with him, naked and tangled together on his living room floor.
“Steve would understand,” Bucky said when their laughter had subsided, his voice warm with affection for his oldest friend. “He always wanted me to be happy.”
The simple statement hung in the air between them, weighted with meaning.
“And are you?” Isabelle asked softly, her eyes searching his. “Happy?”
Bucky’s gaze softened as he looked at her, his flesh hand coming up to cup her cheek. His thumb brushed over her lower lip, a touch so gentle it made her breath catch.
“Right now?” he said, his voice low and sincere. “Yeah, Iz. I really am.”
And Isabelle. Isabelle was, too.
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Morning sun and tangled limbs.
A t-shirt borrowed, kisses traded, breath caught in the space between sleep and wanting.Outside, the world stirs.
Inside, they’re still choosing each other—
in lazy touches, in teasing grins,
in whispered promises of last night’s heat.But even peace comes with a price.
And the silver case in the corner?
It’s a reminder that this morning won’t last forever.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 73: Cats in a Bag
Chapter 73: Cats in a Bag
Summary:
A Wakandan case. A sunburned dock.
Bucky and Isabelle arrive in Delacroix with more baggage than they packed.There’s laughter, gumbo, and the terrifying softness of being seen.
Sam watches. Sarah laughs.
And Bucky begins to believe he belongs.
Notes:
AHHHH I’M SO EXCITED!!! WE MADE IT, GUYS!!! LOUISIANA!!! Finally!!! 💚💚💚
I’ve been waiting forever to get to these chapters. Like seriously... you have no idea.Thank you all so much for reading, commenting, and screaming with me. You’re truly the best!!! 💖
🎵Chapter song vibes: "The Boys of Summer" by Don Henley
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Chapter Text
Sunlight filtered through the half-drawn curtains, casting a warm glow across Bucky’s living room. He stirred, blinking away the remnants of sleep, and became acutely aware of the weight on his chest. Isabelle lay sprawled across him on the floor, her breath soft against his skin, wearing nothing but his t-shirt and her underwear. A smile tugged at his lips as he gently brushed a stray lock of hair from her face.
They’d never made it to the bed last night. The memory flickered through his mind— her soft skin against his, the tangle of limbs, the breathless kisses. Afterward, they’d managed just enough energy to half-dress before collapsing back onto the carpet, too spent and content to move the fifteen feet to his bedroom.
“Morning, doll,” he murmured, pressing a kiss to the top of her head.
Isabelle mumbled something incoherent against his chest and nuzzled closer, her fingers curling possessively around his side. Her hair tickled his chin as she shifted, clearly not ready to face the day. Bucky chuckled softly, his metal fingers tracing lazy patterns on her back through the thin fabric of his shirt.
He savored the moment, relishing the warmth of her body against his and the peaceful quiet of the morning. The world outside could wait.
As his eyes roamed the room, they landed on a sleek silver case sitting on the floor in front of the TV. His muscles tensed involuntarily, a frown creasing his brow. The case hadn’t been there when they’d fallen asleep. How had he not heard someone enter? The Winter Soldier in him bristled at the lapse in vigilance, his heart rate accelerating slightly. He fought the instinct to bolt upright, not wanting to disturb Isabelle.
Then he caught the insignia on the case.
It was just the Wakandans, he calmed himself silently, forcing his breathing to remain steady. The Dora are practically ghosts when they want to be.
Still, the case’s presence nagged at him. It was the favor he’d asked for when he’d handed Zemo over to the Wakandans in Sokovia. Had it really been that long? Time seemed to blur when he was with Isabelle, days melting into nights and back again.
Isabelle stirred against him, her leg sliding between his as she pressed closer. Her fingertips traced the seam where metal met flesh at his shoulder—an unconscious gesture she’d taken to in her sleep. Something in his chest constricted at the casual intimacy of it.
“You’re thinking too loud,” she murmured, her voice husky with sleep. Her eyes remained closed, but the corner of her mouth quirked upward. “It’s disturbing my beauty rest.”
Bucky’s thumb brushed the small of her back. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to wake you.”
“Liar.” She cracked one eye open, the green almost luminous in the morning light. “You’ve been staring at me for at least five minutes. I can feel it.”
“That your power now? Sensing when you’re being admired?” He kept his tone light, but his eyes flicked briefly toward the case again.
Isabelle followed his gaze, her body tensing slightly against his. “We have company?”
“Had company,” he corrected, his flesh hand continuing to stroke her hair, though his eyes remained fixed on the case. “Delivery.”
She pushed herself up on one elbow, her hair falling in a curtain around her face as she looked down at him. The movement caused his shirt to slip off one shoulder, revealing a constellation of faint bruises he’d left the night before. Bucky’s eyes lingered on them for a moment, a mix of possessiveness and tenderness washing over him.
“Sam’s stuff?” she asked, squinting toward the case.
Bucky nodded, his jaw tightening slightly. “Looks like it.”
Isabelle twisted to get a better view, the warmth of her body shifting against his as she moved. Her brows furrowed, a small crease forming between them. “And we slept right through someone breaking in to deliver it.” She turned back to him, her expression caught between amusement and concern. “Damn, we’re losing our touch.”
A low chuckle rumbled through Bucky’s chest. “Speak for yourself. I’ve got a reputation to maintain.”
“Yeah, well, your reputation just took a hit,” she teased, poking him lightly in the ribs. Her smile faded slightly as she glanced back at the case. “The Dora Milaje?”
“Yeah.” He ran his metal thumb across her lower lip, watching as her eyes softened at his touch.
“Still,” she said, shifting to sit up more fully, “not exactly comforting that someone could get this close while we were...” She gestured vaguely between them, a hint of pink coloring her cheeks.
Bucky watched the blush spread, fascinated by how someone who could face down enemies without flinching still blushed when referencing what they’d done the night before.
“Guess you’re going to see Sam soon, then,” she said, her fingers absently tracing the plates of his metal arm where it rested against her thigh.
Bucky studied her face, noting the careful neutrality in her expression. His hands found their way to her hips, thumbs tracing small circles on her skin where his shirt had ridden up. “We’re going to see Sam,” he corrected, holding her gaze steadily. “Come with me?”
A smile flickered across her face, so warm that it made his chest tighten.
“Already can’t bear to be apart from me, huh?” Her voice carried that teasing lilt that always made something in his stomach flip.
Bucky rolled his eyes, but couldn’t hide the smile tugging at his lips. “Maybe I just need someone to keep me out of trouble.”
She laughed, her head falling back, exposing the line of her neck that he’d traced with his lips hours earlier. The sound chased away the last remnants of tension that had lingered since spotting the case.
“That’s rich coming from you,” she said, pushing herself up to sit more fully, his shirt slipping further off her shoulder. “You and Sam together? That’s like watching two cats in a bag. You always end up fighting about something.”
“We do not,” Bucky protested, though the way his eyebrows knitted together betrayed him.
“Oh, please.” Isabelle snorted, her fingers absently tracing the seam where metal met flesh at his shoulder. “The staring contest? Or rather, the multiple staring contests?”
“That wasn’t—” He cut himself off at her pointed look. “Okay, fine. Maybe we get a little... competitive.”
“A little?” She raised an eyebrow, the corner of her mouth quirking upward. “I’ve seen less tension between actual enemies.”
Bucky’s hand found her thigh, his thumb tracing small circles against her skin. “All the more reason for you to come. Keep us civilized.”
“So I’m what, your referee now?” She leaned forward, her hair falling around them like a curtain as she braced her hands on his chest.
“Among other things,” he murmured, his eyes dropping to her lips.
Isabelle shook her head, but couldn’t hide her smile. “You know, if anyone needs a babysitter, it’s you. Trouble follows you everywhere, Barnes.”
“Me?” Bucky’s eyebrows shot up in mock offense. “I think you’ve got it backwards, doll. You’re the one trouble can’t resist.” His metal hand moved to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear, lingering against her cheek. “Pretty sure you’re the definition of trouble.”
“Says the hundred-year-old assassin with a metal arm,” she retorted, but leaned into his touch.
“Former assassin,” he corrected, his voice dropping lower as he watched her eyes darken.
“Still trouble,” she whispered, her breath warm against his lips.
“Takes one to know one.” His fingers tangled in her hair, gently tugging her closer. “So you’ll come?”
Isabelle sighed, a dramatic sound that didn’t match the smile playing at her lips. “Fine. Someone has to keep you two idiots from killing each other.” She paused, her expression softening as she traced the line of his jaw with her fingertip. “Besides, I’ve kind of gotten used to having you around.”
She pressed a quick kiss to his lips before pulling back. Bucky found himself staring, cataloging the details of her face like he might forget them if he blinked.
After a few moments, he reluctantly patted her hip. “Alright, doll,” he murmured, “if we don’t get moving, we might never leave this apartment.” He punctuated his words with a suggestive wink that sent a flush creeping up Isabelle’s cheeks.
“Fine,” she dragged the word out, stretching against him like a cat. The movement pressed her body more firmly against his, and Bucky bit back a groan. “If you insist,” she teased, pushing herself up and off him.
Bucky remained on the floor, transfixed as Isabelle stretched her arms up languidly, his shirt riding up to reveal a tantalizing sliver of skin at her hip. Her underwear—simple black cotton that somehow looked more enticing than any fancy lingerie—rode low on her hips.
She caught his stare and raised an eyebrow, a mischievous glint in her eye. With deliberate slowness, she bent over, searching for her discarded pants on the floor. The shirt rode up further, revealing the curve of her ass and the backs of her thighs.
“Jesus, Izzy,” he breathed, not even trying to hide where his eyes had locked. A familiar heat pooled low in his stomach as she wiggled slightly, pretending to struggle with finding her pants.
A low growl rumbled in his chest. And then, in one fluid motion, he surged forward, wrapping an arm around Isabelle’s waist and pulling her back down to him. She let out a surprised yelp that melted into laughter as he flipped their positions, pinning her beneath him on the carpet. His metal hand gently but firmly captured her wrists, holding them above her head while his flesh hand squeezed the curve of her ass.
“Thought you said we had to get up,” Isabelle breathed, her eyes darkening as she arched against him.
Bucky’s lips curved into a roguish grin, the kind that still felt foreign on his face but seemed to come naturally around her. “What’s the rush?” he growled, his voice dropping to that low register that made her pupils dilate. He ground his hips against hers, the thin fabric of his boxers doing little to hide his growing arousal.
“You’re incorrigible,” Isabelle laughed, her legs wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer.
“Says the woman who just bent over like that,” he murmured against her neck, nipping at the sensitive spot below her ear. “You knew exactly what you were doing.”
“Maybe,” she admitted, gasping as his teeth grazed her skin. “Is it working?”
Bucky’s answer was to capture her lips in a searing kiss, his tongue sliding against hers with an urgency that belied his earlier patience. His flesh hand kneaded her ass, fingers digging into the soft flesh with just enough pressure to make her moan into his mouth.
“You tell me,” he whispered against her lips, rolling his hips again.
Isabelle’s free leg hooked around his, using the leverage to grind against him. “I’d say that’s a definite yes,” she breathed, her voice hitching as his hand slipped beneath the waistband of her underwear, fingers tracing the curve where thigh met ass.
“Smart girl,” he praised, his Brooklyn accent thickening as it always did when his control slipped. He released her wrists to brace himself better, metal hand planted beside her head while his flesh hand continued its exploration.
As they lost themselves in each other, the silver case lay forgotten on the floor, the world outside fading into insignificance. For now, at least, their responsibilities could wait. In this moment, there were only the two of them, tangled together on the living room floor, finding solace in each other’s touch.
The Louisiana heat hit Isabelle like a brick wall as she stepped out of the rental car, the humid air wrapping around her like a damp blanket. Sweat beaded instantly at her hairline, trickling down the back of her neck as she squinted against the harsh sunlight. She silently thanked whatever part of her brain had convinced her to wear the jean shorts and faded Elton John t-shirt that hung loose on her frame. Even that felt like too much fabric in this oppressive heat.
“Jesus,” she muttered, swiping at a bead of sweat threatening to roll into her eye. “How does anyone function in this?”
Bucky emerged from the driver’s side, seemingly unbothered by the temperature. His eyes swept the area before landing on her. Something flickered across his face—appreciation, maybe desire—as his gaze traveled down the length of her bare legs before snapping back up to her face.
“What?” she asked, catching his look.
A half-smile tugged at his lips. “Nothing.” He cleared his throat. “Just thinking those shorts were a smart choice for the weather.”
“Uh-huh.” Isabelle raised an eyebrow, the corner of her mouth quirking upward. “Very practical assessment, Bucky.”
His eyes crinkled at the corners. “I’m a practical guy.”
Isabelle snorted, adjusting the loose braid hanging over one shoulder. She could already feel her hair rebelling against the humidity, curls escaping to frame her face. “Keep telling yourself that.”
The docks of Delacroix stretched before them, alive with activity. Locals called to each other in a mix of English and Cajun French. The air smelled of salt water, fish, and something rich and spicy wafting from somewhere nearby—gumbo, maybe, or jambalaya. Her stomach growled in response.
Bucky moved to the trunk, popping it open with his flesh hand while keeping his metal one tucked into the pocket of his jeans—a habit he’d developed in public places. He lifted the silver case with effortless strength, the muscles in his arm flexing beneath the fabric of his long-sleeved Henley. How he wasn’t dying in that outfit, Isabelle couldn’t fathom.
“You know,” she said, pocketing the car keys and falling into step beside him, “you could have worn something cooler. Sam’s not going to care if you show a little arm.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened. “Old habits.”
She understood without him having to elaborate. The arm marked him as the Winter Soldier to anyone who recognized it. Even here, in this small fishing community, there was always the risk of being recognized, of seeing fear flash across a stranger’s face.
“Besides,” he added, his voice lighter as they made their way down the wooden dock, “I’ve been in worse conditions.”
Their shoulders brushed as they walked, the casual contact sending a pleasant warmth through her that had nothing to do with the Louisiana sun. It still surprised her sometimes how easy it had become to be near him, to touch him without thinking. After years of keeping everyone at arm’s length, the intimacy felt both foreign and addictive.
“You think Sam’s going to be happy to see us?” she asked, stepping carefully around a pile of fishing nets.
Bucky adjusted his grip on the case. “Happy to see you, without a doubt. Me? Probably not.”
“The ongoing saga of Barnes and Wilson,” she teased. “Like an old married couple.”
“We are not—” He stopped at her smirk, shaking his head. “You’re enjoying this too much.”
“I really am.” She bumped her hip against his. “So what’s the plan here? We just show up at his sister’s place with a mysterious Wakandan case and say ‘surprise’?”
“That’s about it.” Bucky’s eyes scanned the docks ahead of them.
As they approached the docks, the sounds of laughter and good-natured ribbing filled the air. The wooden planks groaned beneath their feet, weathered by years of salt and sun. Seagulls wheeled overhead, their cries piercing through the ambient noise as they dove and squabbled over scraps. Waves slapped rhythmically against the pilings below, a constant percussion beneath everything else. The entire scene felt impossibly normal, almost jarringly so after everything they’d been through.
“It’s beautiful here,” Isabelle murmured, more to herself than to Bucky.
His eyes flicked to her face, a hint of surprise in them. “Didn’t take you for the fishing town type.”
“I’m not,” she admitted, stepping carefully around a coil of rope. “But there’s something about it. It feels... real.” She couldn’t quite articulate how refreshing it was to be somewhere untouched by superhero battles or alien invasions, somewhere that just existed on its own terms.
Isabelle scanned the bustling dock, her eyes finally landing on a familiar figure. Sam stood with two older men beside a battered pickup truck, all three of them engaged in what appeared to be a heated debate about a large wooden crate in the truck bed. Sam’s laugh carried across the distance, rich and genuine in a way she hadn’t heard since before the Blip.
“I’m telling you, we need to pivot it first—” Sam’s words died in his throat as he caught sight of them. His expression cycled rapidly through surprise, confusion, and smugness.
Bucky set the silver case down beside Isabelle and, without breaking stride, he approached the truck, nodded briefly to the two older men, and reached for the crate that had been causing so much trouble.
“What are you—” Sam started, but Bucky was already lifting the crate with his left arm. The muscles in his jaw tightened with the effort, but he managed to set the crate down on the dock with minimal strain.
“You’re welcome,” Bucky drawled, a familiar smirk playing at the corner of his mouth.
Isabelle couldn’t help the laugh that bubbled up from her chest. She raised her hand in a tentative wave. “Surprise?” she offered, injecting as much cheerfulness into her voice as she could muster.
Sam’s eyes darted between them, his brow raised and lips pulling into a smirk. “What in the hell are you two doing in Louisiana?” The question held no real heat, just genuine bewilderment.
Before either could answer, Bucky was already moving again, retrieving the silver case and hoisting it onto the now-empty truck bed. The metal gleamed in the harsh sunlight, the Wakandan insignia catching the light.
“Just dropping this off,” Bucky said, his tone deliberately casual, though Isabelle caught the subtle shift in his posture—shoulders slightly hunched, weight balanced on the balls of his feet, ready to move. “You can sign for it, and we’ll be on our way.”
“And I was also really craving some beignets,” Isabelle added, stepping closer. She could practically feel the anxiety radiating off Bucky, see it in the tight line of his shoulders and the way his eyes never quite settled on Sam. “Heard Louisiana has the best.”
“Café du Monde is in New Orleans, not Delacroix,” Sam pointed out, his attention still fixed on the mysterious case. He ran his hand over its sleek surface. “What’s this about, Buck?”
The two older men exchanged glances and muttered something about checking on the nets, giving them privacy. Isabelle watched them go, grateful for their tact.
Bucky shifted his weight, his metal hand flexing slightly at his side—a nervous tic he probably wasn’t even aware of. Isabelle fought the urge to reach for him, to smooth her fingers over the tension in his forearm.
“I called in a favor from the Wakandans,” he said simply, as if that explained everything.
Sam’s expression changed as understanding dawned, his eyes widening slightly. He looked from the case to Bucky, a complex mix of emotions playing across his features—surprise, gratitude, and something more profound that Isabelle couldn’t quite name.
“Is that what I think it is?” Sam asked quietly, his hand still resting on the case.
The silence stretched between them, charged with unspoken history. Isabelle felt like an intruder witnessing something intensely personal. She watched Bucky’s throat work as he swallowed, saw the almost imperceptible nod he gave.
“Steve wanted you to have it,” Bucky said, his voice rougher than before. “I’m just the delivery boy.”
Sam’s fingers curled against the case. “You could have shipped it,” he said, but there was no bite to the words.
“Some things you don’t trust to FedEx,” Bucky replied, the corner of his mouth lifting in a half-smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes.
A breeze swept across the dock, carrying the scent of something spicy cooking nearby. The aroma wrapped around them, rich and inviting enough that Isabelle’s stomach growled audibly, breaking the tension that had settled between the two men.
Sam’s eyes flicked to her, his stern expression softening into something more familiar. “When’s the last time you two ate?” he asked, his hand finally leaving the case.
“Breakfast,” Isabelle answered promptly, at the same moment Bucky said, “Yesterday.”
She turned to him, eyebrows shooting up. “You didn’t eat the sandwich I got you at the airport?”
“That wasn’t food,” Bucky muttered, wrinkling his nose in disgust. His jaw tightened slightly, the way it always did when he was trying not to be difficult. “That was punishment wrapped in plastic.”
Sam snorted, shaking his head as his eyes darted between them. “Some things never change.” A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth—not the cocky grin he wore when teasing, but something warmer, more genuine. He glanced at his watch, then back at them. “Look, my sister’s making gumbo tonight. More than enough to go around.”
Isabelle felt Bucky tense beside her, his metal hand shifting in his pocket. She knew that posture—the slight hunch of his shoulders, the way he angled his body subtly toward the exit. Classic Bucky Barnes preparing to retreat.
“We don’t want to impose—” he started, his voice low and carefully neutral.
“It’s not an imposition if I’m inviting you,” Sam cut him off, his tone leaving no room for argument. He crossed his arms over his chest, fixing Bucky with a look that was both challenge and olive branch. “Besides, Sarah’s gumbo would put that airport sandwich to shame.”
Isabelle found herself holding her breath, glancing between the two men. The air between them felt charged but not hostile—more like two magnets testing whether they’d attract or repel. She was about to try to ease the awkwardness when a loud, violent hiss pierced the air.
A pipe on the nearest boat had burst, sending steam and compressed air shooting out in a violent spray. The sudden noise made her flinch, her body automatically shifting into a defensive stance before her brain could catch up.
“Shit!” Sam cursed, springing into action. He rushed toward the boat, grabbing a wrench from a nearby toolbox as he went. “The pressure valve—”
Isabelle’s attention was pulled away by movement to her right—a woman hurrying over, her face etched with concern. She moved with purpose, her steps quick but not panicked. As she approached, her eyes landed on Bucky and Isabelle, and recognition flickered across her features, followed by something that might have been amusement.
“Hi,” Bucky said, his voice surprisingly soft as he nodded at the newcomer. The tension in his shoulders eased slightly, as if this woman’s presence was somehow less threatening than Sam’s.
The woman—Sarah, Isabelle realized with a jolt—smiled warmly.
“Hi,” she said, her voice carrying the same melodic cadence as Sam’s but with a gentler edge. She turned to Isabelle, her smile widening. “And Isabelle! Nice to see you again. It’s been a while.” She stepped forward, clasping Isabelle’s hand between both of hers. The gesture was unexpectedly warm, her hands calloused but gentle. “Thanks for helping Sam and keeping him safe. And thank you for letting us use that place. The boys haven’t stopped talking about it.”
Heat crept up Isabelle’s neck. She waved her off, embarrassed by the gratitude for something that had cost her nothing. “It was nothing, really. If you ever want to take the boys up for the weekend again, just ask. We never use that place.” She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, suddenly self-conscious. “I swear my dad forgot it existed half the time.”
The mention of Tony hung in the air for a beat, but Sarah didn’t flinch or offer platitudes. Instead, she squeezed Isabelle’s hand once more before letting go. “The boys would love that.”
As the women chatted, Bucky’s eyes were drawn to Sam, who was struggling with the wrench, trying to stop the steam that continued to hiss from the pipe. The sound of metal grinding against metal grated in the air. Without a word, Bucky strode over. He gently nudged Sam aside with a pat on the shoulder that seemed to surprise them both.
“Hold on, hold on,” Bucky said, taking the wrench from Sam’s hand. “You gotta go up, not down. The thread’s reversed.”
To both Isabelle and Sarah’s visible surprise, Sam stepped aside without argument, watching with narrowed eyes as Bucky positioned himself in front of the pipe. Bucky easily twisted the bolt with his right hand, muscles flexing beneath his sleeve. The air and steam stopped abruptly, the sudden silence almost as jarring as the noise had been.
He stepped back to admire his handiwork, Sam joining him with arms crossed.
“Why didn’t you use the metal arm?” Sam asked, a teasing lilt to his voice. “Could’ve saved yourself the effort.”
Bucky froze, his mouth agape as he considered the question. He looked down at his left hand and raised it slightly as if seeing it for the first time.
“Well...” he started, clearly caught off guard but not upset. His brow furrowed, creating that little crease between his eyebrows that Isabelle found oddly endearing. “Well, you see, I don’t always think of it immediately.” Both men looked at the hand, gleaming dully in the afternoon sun. “I’m right-handed,” Bucky finished lamely, shrugging one shoulder.
Sam chuckled, the sound warm and genuine. “All that Wakandan tech, and you’re out here using a regular wrench like a caveman.”
Bucky’s eyes drifted to the mast of the boat, his face scrunching slightly under the bright sun. He squinted, taking in the weathered wood, the peeling paint, the netting piled in the stern. “So this is the boat, huh?” The question seemed to be an attempt to change the subject, but there was genuine curiosity in his voice.
Sam nodded, a hint of pride creeping into his voice. “Yeah, this is it. The Henrietta. Named after our grandmother.”
Bucky shifted his weight, the awkwardness between them palpable but somehow less sharp than before. “It’s nice,” he offered, leaning against the side of the boat. His metal fingers tapped a quiet rhythm against the hull, almost absentmindedly. After a moment’s hesitation, he added, “Want any help? With the boat, I mean.”
Sam’s eyebrows rose slightly, not answering right away. He studied Bucky for a long moment, as if trying to decipher some hidden message in the offer.
From where she stood with Sarah, Isabelle couldn’t help but snort at the awkward dance between Sam and Bucky. “Why are they so emotionally constipated?” she muttered, shaking her head fondly.
Sarah burst into laughter, the sound warm and infectious, cutting through the humid air like a knife through butter. “Oh, honey, you have no idea.” She leaned closer to Isabelle, her shoulder brushing against Isabelle’s as she lowered her voice conspiratorially. “I’ve been hearing about this show from Sam for weeks. They’re like two cats trying to decide if they want to fight or be friends.”
The comparison struck Isabelle so perfectly that she couldn’t contain her giggle. “Oh God, that’s exactly what I told Bucky—him and Sam are like two cats in a bag!” She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, the humidity making it curl even more rebelliously. “Bucky would totally be the alley cat that hisses at everyone but secretly wants pets.”
“And Sam’s the prissy housecat that thinks he’s in charge of everything,” Sarah added, her eyes crinkling with mirth.
Their laughter grew louder, drawing the attention of both men. Sam turned, his eyes narrowing as he caught sight of their conspiratorial posture. The suspicion on his face only made Isabelle laugh harder, her shoulders shaking with the effort to contain it.
“Oh no,” Sam groaned, loud enough for the women to hear. He gestured between them with alarm written across his features. “I don’t like this. They’re bonding. This is bad.”
Bucky stood beside him, his brow furrowed in confusion as he glanced between Sam and the laughing women. “What’s the problem? They’re just talking.”
Sam shook his head vehemently, his expression deadly serious. “No, no, no. You don’t understand.” He lowered his voice, but not enough that Isabelle couldn’t hear. “They’re gonna gang up on us. They’re too much alike.”
Isabelle caught Sarah’s eye, a silent communication passing between them that felt surprisingly natural for two women who’d only just reconnected. The mischievous glint in Sarah’s expression mirrored the one Isabelle felt bubbling up inside herself.
“You hear that, Sarah?” Isabelle called out, crossing her arms over her chest. “Apparently, we’re gonna gang up on them.”
Sarah placed a hand over her heart in mock offense, her voice dripping with exaggerated innocence. “Us? Why, I never!”
Sam pointed an accusing finger at them, his expression filtered with equal parts exasperation and dread. “See? This is exactly what I’m talking about.” He turned to Bucky, grabbing his shoulder with unexpected familiarity. “Bucky, man, we gotta stick together on this one.”
Bucky looked between Sam and the women, visibly weighing his options. A slow smirk spread across his face, softening the hard lines that usually dominated his expression. His eyes lingered on Isabelle for a moment longer than necessary, sending a familiar warmth cascading through her veins.
“I don’t know, Sam,” Bucky finally said, “I kind of like my odds with them.”
“Traitor!” Sam exclaimed, throwing his hands up in exasperation. The gesture was so overdramatic that it sent everyone into fits of laughter.
The sound of Bucky’s laugh—low and rusty, as if he was still remembering how to do it properly—made Isabelle’s heart stutter. It was a rare sound, one she’d been hearing more frequently in the quiet moments they shared, but never so freely given in front of others.
Sarah, still chuckling, raised her voice to address the group. “Alright, you two!” She pointed at Sam and Bucky with authority. “Enough standing around looking pretty.” Her gaze shifted to include Isabelle and Bucky. “You two can help. There’s plenty of work to go around before dinner.”
As Sarah led Isabelle toward the house, Isabelle couldn’t help but glance back over her shoulder. Her eyes met Bucky’s across the dock, and for a moment, the world seemed to fade away—the heat, the noise, the smell of fish and salt water all receding until there was only him. She felt a flush bloom across her cheeks, and she bit her lower lip, fighting the ridiculous urge to wave at him like some lovesick teenager.
The memory of his hands on her body that morning and the night before flashed through her mind, and she quickly looked away, suddenly fascinated by something Sarah was saying.
Sam, ever observant, didn’t miss the exchange. He waited until Sarah and Isabelle were just out of earshot before turning to Bucky with a knowing smirk that promised relentless teasing.
“Man, you are so far gone it’s not even funny,” he said, nudging Bucky with his elbow hard enough to rock him slightly. “Actually, scratch that—it’s hilarious.”
Bucky’s expression immediately shuttered, jaw tightening as he shot Sam a defensive glare. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he muttered, but the tips of his ears had turned pink.
“Oh, please.” Sam rolled his eyes dramatically. “I’ve seen less obvious heart-eyes on Valentine’s Day cards. You and Iz?” He let out a low whistle, shaking his head. “Gotta say, I saw that coming from a mile away.”
Bucky’s eyebrows shot up, his spine stiffening as if Sam had just accused him of something far more serious than having feelings. “What’s that supposed to mean?” The words came out sharper than he’d intended, defensive edge cutting through the humid air between them.
“You know exactly what it means.” Sam crossed his arms over his chest, looking entirely too pleased with himself. “The way you two orbit each other? Like magnets with separation anxiety.”
“You know what, Wilson—” Bucky started, but he stopped himself, exhaling sharply through his nose as he reined in the instinctive defensiveness. A muscle jumped in his jaw as he ground his teeth. “I hate you,” he finally muttered, the heat missing from his voice.
“No, you don’t.” Sam’s voice softened just enough to be annoying, his expression shifting from teasing to something more genuine. “Come on, man, seriously.” He leaned against the side of the boat, lowering his voice despite the fact that the women were well out of earshot. “How does that even happen? One minute you’re brooding in some corner looking like you’re plotting world domination, and the next you’re making googly eyes at her? That’s quite the leap, Buck.”
“It’s not—” Bucky snapped, then caught himself again. “It just... happened, alright?” The words sounded hollow even to his own ears, inadequate to describe the slow, terrifying thaw that had begun the moment Isabelle had looked at him without a trace of fear or judgment.
“Just happened,” Sam repeated, skepticism dripping from every syllable. “Things don’t ‘just happen’ with you, man. You overthink breathing.” His eyes narrowed, studying Bucky’s face with the same focused intensity he used when assessing tactical situations. “So what was it? The fact that she can probably kick your ass six ways to Sunday? The Stark snark?”
Bucky’s jaw worked silently for a moment, clearly debating how much to reveal. The dock creaked beneath his shifting weight, a seagull cried overhead, and somewhere in the distance, a boat engine rumbled to life.
“She doesn’t...” he finally said, so quietly that Sam had to lean in to hear him over the ambient harbor sounds. “She doesn’t look at me like I’m broken.” The admission felt raw, scraped from somewhere deep inside him that he usually kept carefully guarded. “Or like she’s waiting for me to snap.”
The vulnerability in his voice was startling, there and gone in an instant as he cleared his throat, shoulders squaring as if preparing for Sam’s inevitable teasing. But instead of continuing down that dangerous path of honesty, Bucky’s expression shifted, a sly smirk spreading across his face as he found a safer route.
“Plus,” he added, deliberately casual, “she’s got a great ass.”
The effect was immediate and exactly what he’d hoped for. Sam made a sound somewhere between a squawk and a gag, physically recoiling as if Bucky had just described something truly horrific. His face contorted into an expression of such profound disgust that Bucky couldn’t help but chuckle.
“That’s—” Sam sputtered, waving his hands in front of him as if trying to physically erase Bucky’s words from the air. “That’s not—I don’t need to hear—” He shook his head vigorously. “Nope. We are not doing this. I am not having this conversation.”
Bucky’s smirk widened into something almost resembling a genuine smile as he clapped Sam on the shoulder with his flesh hand, the contact casual but firm. “Close your mouth, Wilson,” he teased, enjoying the rare upper hand. “Gonna catch flies.”
Sam flared his nostrils, visibly trying to compose himself. He straightened his shirt with an indignant tug, eyes narrowing as he pointed an accusing finger at Bucky’s chest. “You did that on purpose.”
“Did what?” Bucky asked, the picture of innocence despite the mischief dancing in his eyes.
“You know exactly what you did.” Sam shook his head, but there was a reluctant hint of respect in his expression. “Putting that image in my head. That’s just cruel, man.”
“Thought you wanted details,” Bucky countered, raising an eyebrow.
“Not those details!” Sam’s voice cracked slightly on the last word. He rubbed a hand over his face, muttering something that sounded suspiciously like a prayer for patience. When he looked back at Bucky, his expression had settled into one of resigned annoyance. “I hate you.”
The corner of Bucky’s mouth twitched upward, a strange warmth spreading through his chest that had nothing to do with the Louisiana heat. It felt almost like... belonging. The realization was as terrifying as it was comforting.
“Yeah,” he said quietly, watching as Isabelle glanced back over her shoulder at him, a small smile playing at her lips. “I know.”
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Louisiana sun, dockside sweat, and two emotionally stunted super soldiers pretending they're not falling in love.
Isabelle tells herself it’s complicated. Bucky tells himself he’s waiting for the right moment.
Neither one is fooling anyone — least of all Sam and Sarah, who’ve had enough.Between fishing nets, power tools, and whispered confessions in the heat-heavy quiet, the walls start to crack.
Teasing becomes truth.
Laughter becomes comfort.
And maybe, just maybe, love starts to feel less like a risk and more like a choice.Because some things—like gumbo, grief, and feelings you won’t name—take time.
But they're always worth it.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 74: Delacroix Days
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Chapter 74: Delacroix Days
Summary:
A fixed boat. A kiss at dusk.
Bucky and Isabelle stay the night.There’s teasing, chicken noises, and the kind of silence that says more than words.
Sam meddles. Sarah approves.
And two people too scared to say it… finally might do something about it.
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Chapter Text
Bucky bit his lip, focusing intently on sanding down a rough patch of wood. The repetitive motion was almost meditative, a small act of creation after decades of destruction. The sandpaper rasped rhythmically against the weathered dock plank, sending tiny particles dancing in the afternoon sunlight. Sweat beaded at his temples, the Louisiana heat pressing against him like a living thing.
Each stroke felt like an apology—to the world, to himself. Forward and back. Forward and back. The wood grain slowly revealed itself beneath his careful attention, like a secret emerging after years of being buried.
Isabelle sat several yards away on the dock with Sarah, their conversation a gentle murmur carried on the breeze. But her eyes kept drifting toward Bucky, drawn to the way his muscles flexed beneath his fitted black shirt. The fabric clung to his broad shoulders, accentuating every controlled movement as he worked.
She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, trying and failing to focus on whatever Sarah was saying about the local fishing business. Her attention kept magnetizing back to Bucky, to the careful precision in his movements, to the gentle furrow between his brows when he concentrated.
Bucky’s rhythm faltered. He could feel her watching him, a prickling awareness that traveled up his spine like electricity. He glanced up, catching her gaze before she could look away. For a moment, everything else faded—the dock, the water, the weight of the past. Just her eyes on his, a silent conversation they’d been having for weeks now.
Her lips curved into a small smile, neither apologetic nor embarrassed at being caught staring. Something warm unfurled in his chest, an unfamiliar feeling he was still learning to recognize. Happiness.
“You missed a spot,” Sam teased, breaking the moment as he pointed to an imaginary imperfection on the wood. He’d approached silently, a skill honed from years of military training and enhanced by his newfound role.
Bucky rolled his eyes, but a hint of a smile tugged at his lips. “You want to do this instead, Sam?” The wood felt smooth beneath his flesh hand, perfectly sanded despite Sam’s critique.
“Nah, man. I’m supervising,” Sam grinned, leaning against the railing with exaggerated nonchalance. He crossed his arms over his chest, looking every bit the part of a man who’d found his way home. The shield might be new to him, but this place—this sense of belonging—wasn’t. “Besides, someone’s gotta make sure you don’t mess up my sister’s dock.”
“It’s not like I haven’t built things before,” Bucky muttered, running his flesh hand over the wood to check for smoothness. The sensation grounded him, reminded him he was here, now. Not there, then. “I was fixing things before your grandparents were born. Worked at the docks back in Brooklyn after high school.”
He could still remember the weight of crates on his shoulders, the salt-spray on his face, the honest ache in his muscles at day’s end.
Sam snorted. “Yeah, well, welcome to the twenty-first century, where we have power tools.” He gestured toward the nearby toolbox with its gleaming array of modern equipment. “You know, electricity? Modern inventions? Or do you and Steve share that stubborn ‘back in my day’ attitude?”
At the mention of Steve’s name, something in Bucky’s expression shuttered—a quick tightening around the eyes, a momentary clench of his jaw that he tried to hide by focusing intently on the plank beneath his hands. But Sam caught it. Sam always caught everything.
“So,” Sam said, deliberately shifting gears, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial level as he glanced toward the end of the dock where the women sat. “You two like...” he jerked his head toward Isabelle, whose profile was gilded by the late afternoon sun, “...official...or?”
Bucky fumbled the wrench Sam had just handed him, the heavy tool nearly crushing his boot as it slipped from his fingers. He caught it at the last second, metal hand closing around metal tool with a soft clink. His eyes darted to Isabelle, watching as she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, the breeze from the water making the loose tendrils dance around her face.
“I—” Bucky paused, his brow furrowing as he searched for words that wouldn’t come. How could he explain what they were when he barely understood it himself? “It’s... complicated,” he finally said, his voice low enough that it barely carried over the gentle lapping of water against the dock pilings.
Sam raised an eyebrow, a smirk playing at his lips. “Complicated? Or are you just chicken?”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed, a flash of offense crossing his face. “I am not chicken,” he growled, the words coming out harsher than he intended. He pointed the wrench at Sam like it was a weapon, his grip tight enough that his knuckles whitened. “I’ve faced down armies. Jumped out of planes without parachutes. Fought aliens.”
“Uh-huh.” Sam crossed his arms, entirely unimpressed by the display. The corner of his mouth twitched upward. “But asking a woman to be your girlfriend? That’s what scares the big, bad Winter Soldier?” He made a clucking sound under his breath, the teasing light in his eyes unmistakable.
“Are you—” Bucky stared in disbelief, heat creeping up his neck. “Are you making chicken noises at me?”
“Bwaaak,” Sam continued, louder this time, flapping his elbows slightly. “Bucky Barnes, World War II veteran, elite assassin, afraid of a five-foot-seven Stark.”
Bucky glanced nervously toward Isabelle, relieved to see she was still absorbed in her conversation with Sarah, her hands moving animatedly as she spoke. The sun caught in her hair, highlighting strands of golden blonde that reminded him of autumn in New York, of things warm and familiar and lost.
“Would you keep it down?” Bucky hissed, dropping his voice to a harsh whisper. He cast a nervous glance toward the women at the end of the dock, relieved to see Isabelle still talking animatedly with Sarah. “And I’m not afraid of her.”
“No?” Sam’s expression softened slightly, though the mischief never left his eyes. “Then what are you afraid of?” He leaned against the dock railing, wood creaking beneath his weight. “Because from where I’m standing, you two are practically married already. The way she looks at you when you’re not watching?” He gave a low whistle. “And the way you look at her? It’s getting painful to watch, man.”
Bucky ran his flesh hand through his hair. The breeze from the bayou carried the scent of cypress and muddy water, grounding him in the present even as his mind tumbled through a hundred what-ifs.
“It’s not that simple,” he muttered, focusing on the wood grain beneath his hands rather than meeting Sam’s eyes.
“Life’s never simple,” Sam said, his voice taking on that tone—the one that reminded Bucky why Steve chose him to carry the shield. “But sometimes the complicated parts are worth it.” His gaze drifted to where Sarah sat with her head thrown back in laughter, sunlight dancing across her features. “Trust me on that.”
Bucky’s jaw worked silently, the muscles in his face tightening as he watched Isabelle for a moment. She gestured with her hands as she spoke, that familiar spark of intensity lighting her face. Something in his chest unraveled just a fraction at the sight.
“What if she says no?” The question escaped before he could trap it behind his teeth, quiet and raw. His metal fingers flexed against the dock plank.
Sam’s expression shifted from teasing to something genuine, the transition so swift that Bucky almost missed it. “What if she says yes?”
What if she did say yes? What would that even mean for someone like him—someone with his past, his damage, his uncertain future?
Before he could chase that thought further, Sam started clucking again, the sound louder and more ridiculous than before.
“Stop it,” Bucky growled, feeling heat crawl up his neck and settle in his ears. “You’re a child. An actual child, Sam.”
“Prove me wrong then,” Sam challenged, a grin spreading across his face as he straightened up. “Hey, Isabelle—”
Bucky lunged forward with supersoldier speed, clamping his metal hand over Sam’s mouth. The cool vibranium pressed against Sam’s lips, cutting off whatever he’d been about to shout. Sam’s eyes widened in surprise, then crinkled with barely contained laughter.
At the end of the dock, both women looked up at the commotion. Isabelle’s brow furrowed in confusion, her eyes narrowing as she took in the tableau of Bucky with his hand clamped firmly over Sam’s mouth. Sarah’s expression mirrored Isabelle’s, though there was a knowing glint in her eyes as she glanced between the men and then back to Isabelle.
“Fine,” Bucky hissed, releasing Sam only when he was certain the other man wouldn’t call out. He wiped his metal palm against his jeans as if Sam’s mouth had somehow contaminated the vibranium. “I’ll ask her. Just... not with you making barnyard noises in the background.”
Sam’s eyes lit with triumph, his smile wide enough to split his face. “Tonight,” he said, pointing a finger at Bucky’s chest. “Or I’m bringing chicken noises back. Louder. At breakfast. In front of everyone.”
Bucky’s shoulders slumped in defeat. “You’re enjoying this way too much.”
“Part of my job description as your friend,” Sam said, clapping him on the shoulder with enough force that a normal man might have staggered. “That, and making sure you don’t mess up my sister’s dock.” He glanced toward the toolbox with its neat array of equipment. “Now, are you gonna let me show you how to use that power sander, or are you gonna keep pretending it’s 1940?”
Bucky’s retort died on his lips as he caught Isabelle looking their way. Her eyes met his across the dock, curious and warm. She smiled—that small, private smile that seemed reserved just for him—and something in his chest unfurled like a flower turning toward the sun. It was the same feeling he got when he woke up and realized he hadn’t had a nightmare, or when he managed to remember something good from before the war. A feeling like maybe, just maybe, he deserved a second chance at something normal.
Maybe Sam was right. Maybe it was time to stop being afraid.
Sarah and Isabelle sat on the edge of the dock, legs dangling over the water. The Louisiana afternoon pressed against them, heavy with humidity but softened by the occasional breeze that rippled across the bayou. Isabelle leaned back on her hands, feeling the weathered wood press into her palms—rough in some spots, worn smooth in others by years of footsteps and weather. She tilted her face toward the sun and closed her eyes, letting golden warmth seep into her skin.
The rhythmic lapping of water against the dock pilings created a gentle soundtrack beneath the distant sounds of Sam and Bucky’s voices—too far away to make out words, but close enough to catch the cadence of their banter. A fish jumped somewhere to her left, the small splash drawing her attention momentarily before the water settled back into its lazy pattern.
“You know,” Isabelle said, her voice soft as she opened her eyes and turned to Sarah, “you remind me a bit of Natasha.” The name caught in her throat, still raw despite the months that had passed. Her fingers curled against the dock, seeking purchase as the grief washed over her unexpectedly. “She had that same spark in her eyes. That... I don’t know, that strength mixed with mischief.”
Sarah raised an eyebrow, a hint of amusement playing across her features. “Natasha Romanoff? The Black Widow?” She let out a low whistle, the sound carrying across the water. “Now that’s a compliment I wasn’t expecting today.”
Isabelle smiled, but it didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Trust me, it’s high praise.” She watched a dragonfly skitter across the water’s surface, its iridescent wings catching the sunlight. “Natasha was...” she started, then paused, searching for words that could possibly encompass who Natasha had been. “She was something else. Trained me. Kicked my ass constantly, then taught me exactly how she did it.”
A memory surfaced—Natasha pinning her to the training mat, smirking down at her with that knowing look. Again, маленький паук. And this time, stop telegraphing your left hook.
“I miss her,” Isabelle admitted. The words felt raw, exposed—like pulling back a bandage too soon. “Her and Wanda... they were like sisters to me.”
Sarah’s arm came around her shoulders, the gesture so unexpectedly maternal that Isabelle nearly flinched.
“Family isn’t always blood,” Sarah said, her voice rich with the kind of wisdom that came from living rather than learning. “Sometimes it’s the people who see the best in you, even when you can’t see it yourself.”
Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat clicking audibly in the quiet between them. She looked out to the water, focusing on the expanding ripples rather than the burning behind her eyes. Then, surprising herself, she leaned into Sarah’s half-embrace, allowing herself to accept the comfort. Her gaze drifted almost involuntarily to where Bucky worked several yards away.
Sarah followed her line of sight, a knowing smile playing at her lips. “So,” she began, her voice casual but loaded with meaning, “what’s the deal with you two?”
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck, spreading across her cheeks in a flush she couldn’t control. “I don’t know what you mean,” she replied, the lie tasting stale on her tongue.
Sarah’s laugh was rich. “Girl, please. I’ve known Sam his whole life, which means I know when someone’s trying to feed me bullshit.” She nudged Isabelle’s shoulder gently. “I’ve seen the way you two look at each other when you think no one’s watching. Like magnets trying not to snap together.”
Isabelle opened her mouth to protest, then closed it again. There was something disarming about Sarah’s straightforward manner that made denial seem not just pointless, but almost disrespectful. She watched as Bucky hefted a plank of wood with his metal arm, the sunlight catching on the vibranium plates and sending prisms of light dancing across the dock.
“It’s complicated,” she finally said, drawing her knees up to her chest and wrapping her arms around them. The position was defensive, and she knew it, but couldn’t seem to help herself.
“Isn’t it always?” Sarah replied, her eyes crinkling at the corners as she glanced over to where Sam was gesturing animatedly, apparently teasing Bucky about something that had the former assassin looking decidedly annoyed. “But sometimes complicated is worth figuring out.”
“I don’t know if I’m ready,” Isabelle’s voice so low it nearly blended with the gentle lapping of water against the dock. “After everything that’s happened... everything I’ve done...” The weight of her past pressed down on her shoulders, heavier than any physical burden she’d ever carried. “I’m not exactly relationship material.”
Sarah studied her for a moment, her eyes kind but unflinching. The same directness Isabelle had come to appreciate in Sam—that Wilson family trait of seeing right through bullshit without making you feel exposed.
“None of us are ever really ready, honey,” Sarah finally said, her Louisiana accent wrapping the words in warmth. “That’s the secret no one tells you.” She looked out over the water, to where the sun painted golden streaks across the rippling surface. “We’re all just making it up as we go along, hoping we don’t mess up too badly.”
Isabelle followed Sarah’s gaze across the bayou, letting the words sink in like stones dropping through still water.
“But what if I do mess up?” The fear that had been coiling in her chest for weeks finally found voice, escaping in a rush that left her feeling hollow. “What if I hurt him?”
She flexed her fingers unconsciously, remembering the sickening ease with which she could bring a man to his knees. The green glow that signaled her control slipping. The way her powers had flared during nightmares, leaving her sheets damp with sweat and her lungs burning for air.
“I’m not... safe, Sarah.” Her voice cracked slightly on the last word. “The things I can do—” She stopped, unable to finish the thought.
How could she explain what it felt like to hold someone’s life in her hands? To feel their cells responding to her will, their bodies betraying them at her command?
“I’m dangerous,” she finished lamely, the word inadequate for the storm she carried inside.
Sarah’s laugh startled her—not mocking, but genuine, as if Isabelle had said something unexpectedly charming.
“So is he,” Sarah pointed out, nodding toward Bucky. “So is my brother. So is every person who’s ever put themselves on the line for something they believe in.” Her voice softened, taking on that same quality Sam’s did when he was saying something important. “The question isn’t whether you’re dangerous, Isabelle. It’s what you choose to do with that power.”
Isabelle had heard variations of this before—from her father, from Natasha, from Sam, from Steve—but somehow, coming from Sarah, they landed differently. Maybe because Sarah was removed from that world of heroes and monsters. Maybe because she saw Isabelle as just a woman, not Sick Girl or Tony Stark’s daughter or an Avenger.
A comfortable silence settled between them as they watched a fishing boat drift by in the distance.
In the distance, Bucky looked up, his eyes finding Isabelle’s across the dock as if drawn by some invisible thread. Something in his gaze—a question, perhaps, or a promise—made her breath catch in her throat. The way he looked at her sometimes, like she was something precious and rare, still startled her. No one had ever looked at her that way before. Like she was worth the risk.
“Besides,” Sarah added, nudging Isabelle’s shoulder with her own, a mischievous note entering her voice, “that man has been giving you puppy dog eyes since you two got here. It’s almost painful to watch.”
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck, spreading across her cheeks in a flush she couldn’t control. “He has not,” she protested weakly, even as her eyes drifted back to where he stood with Sam.
“Oh, he absolutely has.” Sarah’s grin widened. “And you know what?” She leaned in conspiratorially, her breath warm against Isabelle’s ear. “I think Sam’s giving him hell about it right now.”
They both turned to watch as Sam made what appeared to be chicken motions with his arms, while Bucky looked like he was contemplating throwing Sam into the bayou.
“Oh god,” Isabelle groaned, dropping her forehead to her knees, feeling the rough denim of her jeans against her skin. “This is mortifying.”
“This is entertainment,” Sarah corrected, her voice warm with delight.
“Hey, Isabelle—” Sam’s voice suddenly called out across the water.
Isabelle’s head snapped up just in time to see Bucky lunge forward with supersoldier speed, his metal hand clamping firmly over Sam’s mouth. His expression was a complicated mix of irritation, panic, and something that might have been embarrassment.
“What the hell...” Isabelle murmured, heat flooding her cheeks as she realized they were talking about her. Sam’s eyes crinkled with laughter above Bucky’s restraining hand, his shoulders shaking with silent mirth.
Sarah’s laugh rolled out rich and deep. “I haven’t seen Sam look that pleased with himself since he put a frog in my backpack in fifth grade.”
Despite herself, Isabelle felt a smile tugging at her lips. There was something almost endearing about watching Bucky—the Winter Soldier, the White Wolf, the man who had survived war and torture and decades of mind control—looking so thoroughly flustered.
“What would Nat say if she could see this?” Sarah asked softly, the question catching Isabelle off guard.
The mention of Natasha sent a sharp pang through Isabelle’s chest, the grief still raw and jagged. But instead of the usual hollow ache, the mental image that formed brought an unexpected warmth: Natasha, one eyebrow raised in that knowing way of hers, watching this whole scene unfold with barely concealed amusement.
“She’d tell me to stop overthinking everything,” Isabelle admitted, her voice thick with emotion. She traced a finger along a groove in the dock, following its path like a lifeline. “And then she’d probably make some obscure Russian proverb about kicking my ass into gear or... I don’t know, fishing when the fish are biting.”
“And Wanda?” Sarah asked gently, her eyes soft with understanding. “What would she say?”
Isabelle closed her eyes briefly, conjuring Wanda’s face in her mind—the slight tilt of her head when she was considering something important, the way her accent thickened when she was passionate about a point.
“She’d tell me that fear only has the power I give it,” she said finally, opening her eyes to find Bucky looking at her again from across the dock. This time, instead of looking away, she held his gaze. Something warm and electric passed between them, making her pulse quicken. “And that sometimes, the things that scare us most are the things we need the most.”
Sarah squeezed her shoulder, the gesture warm and maternal in a way that made Isabelle’s throat tighten unexpectedly. “Smart women, both of them.” She stood, brushing off her shorts with practiced movements. “Now come on. Let’s go see if those two have managed to finish a single board without bickering like an old married couple.”
Isabelle rose to her feet, feeling somehow lighter than she had in months. The Louisiana sun beat down on her shoulders, but the heaviness that had been pressing on her chest since New York—since her father, since Natasha, since everything—seemed to have eased just a fraction.
The sun dipped low on the horizon, and the bayou hummed with evening sounds—cicadas starting their nightly chorus, frogs calling from hidden places, a distant motorboat puttering home.
Bucky sat on a weathered wooden crate in the stern, his legs stretched out before him, boots crossed at the ankles. The day’s work had settled into his muscles—a pleasant ache that reminded him of simpler times. He rolled a cold beer bottle between his hands, flesh and metal, feeling the condensation bead against his palms.
Sam lowered himself onto a neighboring crate with a satisfied groan, the wood creaking slightly beneath his weight. He twisted the cap off his own beer, the sharp hiss of escaping carbonation cutting through the evening sounds.
“Thanks,” Sam said after a long pull from his bottle. “For helping with all this.” He gestured toward the newly repaired section of hull, the fresh wood standing out against the weathered planks like a new patch on old jeans.
Bucky looked up, momentarily surprised by the gratitude. “You’re thanking me?” The question came out rougher than he intended, his voice still unused to casual conversation.
“Don’t make it weird, man.” Sam’s mouth quirked into a half-smile. “Just saying, I appreciate it. Sarah does too.”
Bucky nodded, his eyes drifting back to the water. “Thanks for letting me help,” he said finally, the words feeling strange and necessary all at once. “For letting me... be here.” He gestured vaguely with his metal hand, encompassing the boat, the dock, the whole of the Wilson family property.
Sam studied him for a moment, his expression unreadable in the gathering dusk. “You know,” he said, leaning back against the boat’s edge, “when Steve first told me about you, I thought he was full of shit.”
Bucky raised an eyebrow. “Yeah?”
“Yeah. All these stories about Bucky Barnes, his best friend from the forties.” Sam shook his head, a small smile playing at his lips. “The way he talked about you—like you hung the damn moon. I figured either he was exaggerating, or you were the second coming of Christ himself.”
A surprised laugh escaped Bucky, short and rusty. “And?”
“And nothing. You’re just a grumpy old man with a fancy arm.” Sam grinned, the tension between them dissolving like morning mist. “Disappointing, really.”
Bucky snorted, taking a swig of his beer. The carbonation tickled his throat, cold and sharp. “Not bad for a day’s work,” he said, nodding toward their handiwork. The repaired section of the boat gleamed in the last rays of sunlight, the wood sanded smooth and sealed against the elements.
“Not bad at all,” Sam agreed. “You might have a future in manual labor if the whole superhero thing doesn’t pan out.”
“Been there, done that.” Bucky ran his thumb along the bottle’s label, the paper softening under the condensation. “Dockworker wasn’t exactly glamorous back in the day.”
“Still better than...” Sam trailed off, making a vague gesture with his bottle.
“Yeah,” Bucky agreed, understanding the unspoken comparison to his Winter Soldier days. The weight of those decades pressed against his chest for a moment, then eased as he took another breath of bayou air. “Much better.”
The soft sound of approaching footsteps pulled their attention away from the conversation. Bucky turned, his enhanced senses catching the light scuff of boots against weathered wood before Sam noticed. Isabelle walked toward them, her silhouette backlit by the setting sun. She’d changed into a loose tank top and shorts after the day’s work, the casual outfit somehow making her look both younger and more vulnerable than the combat-ready woman he’d first met.
His eyes met hers across the distance, and for once, he didn’t look away. Something in his chest tightened—not unpleasantly, but with a strange mix of anticipation and fear. Sam’s earlier teasing echoed in his mind, and he felt a rush of something that might have been courage, or might have been pure stubbornness. Either way, it propelled him forward.
“You ready to head out?” Bucky asked, his voice low and warm in the evening air. He took a final swig of his beer, savoring the crisp taste and the moment of normalcy it represented. The condensation from the bottle had left his flesh hand slightly damp, and he wiped it absently against his jeans.
Isabelle stopped a few feet away, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear with a gesture he’d come to recognize as one of her few tells. Her expression was tinged with reluctance, her eyes lingering on the bayou behind them as if committing it to memory.
“Yeah, we should probably get going. Our flight’s tomorrow.” She shifted her weight, arms crossing loosely over her chest.
Bucky drained the last of his beer and clinked his bottle against Sam’s in a silent toast—for the work, for the day, for whatever this fragile peace between them was becoming. He reached for his jacket, which was draped over a nearby crate, and shrugged it on despite the lingering heat of the Louisiana evening. Old habits died hard; the weight of the jacket was familiar, comforting. A barrier between him and the world.
Sam watched the exchange with a raised eyebrow, a mischievous glint in his eye that made Bucky instantly wary. The look was too similar to the one Steve used to get right before saying something that would inevitably land them both in trouble.
“I thought you said you’re staying for dinner,” Sam said, his tone casual but loaded with implication. He leaned back against the boat’s hull, the picture of relaxed innocence that fooled absolutely no one.
“We’ve got an early flight tomorrow,” Isabelle replied, shifting her weight from one foot to the other. The movement was subtle, but Bucky caught it—the slight tension in her shoulders, the way her fingers tapped a restless rhythm against her arm. “I was thinking we’d grab a hotel for the night, or do the drive to my place in New Orleans, since it’s not far from the airport.” She pointedly ignored Sam’s teasing tone, though a faint blush crept up her neck, visible even in the fading light.
“A hotel?” Sam scoffed, setting his beer down with an audible clink against the wooden crate. He shook his head dramatically, looking between them like they’d suggested something outrageous. The exaggerated disappointment on his face would have been comical if it weren’t so obviously engineered to make them uncomfortable. “Now don’t set me up like that.”
Bucky and Isabelle exchanged a confused look. Her brow furrowed slightly, the small crease appearing between her eyebrows that Bucky had come to recognize as her ‘what is happening right now’ expression.
The silence stretched just long enough to be awkward, prompting Sam to let out an exaggerated sigh that Bucky was certain he’d practiced in front of a mirror.
“Just crash here,” Sam said, spreading his arms wide as if to encompass the entire town. The gesture was pure Sam Wilson—expansive, welcoming, with just enough dramatic flair to make Bucky want to roll his eyes. “Look, you’re in the most welcoming place in the world. These people don’t care if you wear small t-shirts,” he gestured to Bucky’s admittedly snug attire with a smirk, “or if you have six toes, or if your mom’s your aunt—”
“Jesus, Sam,” Bucky muttered, feeling heat crawl up his neck and settle in his ears. The embarrassment wasn’t so much from the teasing—he’d endured far worse from both Steve and the Howling Commandos decades ago—but from the knowing look in Sam’s eyes, the unspoken challenge hovering between them like a live wire.
He turned to Isabelle, his expression softening as he met her gaze.
Something about her standing there, silhouetted against the Louisiana twilight, made his chest tighten in a way that had nothing to do with anxiety and everything to do with wanting.
“What do you think?” he asked, his voice dropping to that low register he seemed to use only with her. “Want to stick around, doll?” The endearment slipped out before he could catch it in front of Sam.
Isabelle bit her lip, considering. Bucky watched the subtle play of emotions across her face—the wariness that never quite left her eyes these days, the hesitation, but also something softer, something that looked dangerously like longing. She glanced toward the Wilson house, where warm light spilled from the windows and the sound of children’s laughter drifted across the yard like music.
“If it’s cool with you and Sarah,” she said finally, unable to keep a small smile from tugging at her lips.
Sam’s face split into a wide grin. “Of course it is! You and Sarah are already thick as thieves after today.” He stood, stretching his arms above his head with a satisfied groan. “The couch pulls out, which,” he paused, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively, “I see won’t be a problem for you two.”
Isabelle’s eyes widened, and the blush that had been threatening earlier bloomed fully across her cheeks, spreading down her neck to disappear beneath the collar of her tank top. Bucky felt his own face heat up, the back of his neck burning hot enough that he was certain Sam could see it even in the fading light. He cleared his throat awkwardly, suddenly very interested in the label of his empty beer bottle.
“Just keep it PG, alright?” Sam continued, his voice mock-stern as he wagged a finger between them like a schoolteacher scolding unruly children. “There are kids in the house, you know.”
“Sam!” Isabelle groaned, burying her face in her hands. Through her fingers, Bucky could see her mortified expression, but also the hint of a smile she couldn’t quite suppress. Her shoulders shook slightly with silent laughter.
Bucky rolled his eyes, but there was no real annoyance behind it. “You’re a real comedian, Sam,” he deadpanned, though his lips twitched with the effort of not smiling.
“I’m just saying,” Sam continued, clearly enjoying their discomfort far too much. He leaned against a nearby post, crossing his arms over his chest with exaggerated casualness. “These walls are thin, and I’ve seen how you two look at each other. Like two supersoldiers who haven’t had—”
“Sam Wilson!” Sarah’s voice cut through the air from the porch, sharp and commanding in a way that reminded Bucky exactly who had raised whom in this family. “Are you harassing our guests, or are you going to help me with this gumbo?”
Sam winced at his sister’s sharp tone, caught in the act of teasing. “Coming!” he called back, before turning to Bucky and Isabelle with a grin that promised this conversation was far from over. “Saved by the bell.” He jabbed a finger at Bucky, eyes dancing with mischief. “Remember what we talked about, Buck.”
Then, to Bucky’s mortification, Sam started making those ridiculous chicken noises again—louder this time—while flapping his elbows in an exaggerated motion. His eyebrows bounced suggestively as he backed away toward the house.
“Tonight,” Sam mouthed silently, pointing between them before turning to jog up the path, his laughter trailing behind him like a wake.
Bucky watched him go, fighting the urge to bury his face in his hands. The metal plates in his left arm recalibrated with a soft whir, responding to the tension in his shoulders. He’d faced down Nazis, aliens, and God knows what else, but somehow Sam Wilson had the unique ability to make him feel like an awkward teenager again.
As Sam disappeared into the warm glow of the house, Bucky found himself suddenly alone with Isabelle in the gathering twilight. The bayou quieted around them, as if holding its breath. Crickets chirped softly from the tall grass, and somewhere in the distance, an owl called—a low, mournful sound that seemed to hang in the humid air.
“He thinks he’s hilarious,” Bucky said, rubbing the back of his neck with his flesh hand. The skin there felt hot, his embarrassment a physical thing.
“He kind of is,” Isabelle admitted, a small smile playing at her lips. She moved closer until she was standing next to him at the edge of the dock. Their shoulders nearly touched, and Bucky was acutely aware of the narrow space between them, charged with something he couldn’t name.
Bucky watched her profile, memorizing the curve of her jaw, the slight furrow between her brows that appeared when she was thinking too hard. She looked... peaceful—more at ease than he’d seen her in weeks. The constant tension that lived in her shoulders had softened, if only for this moment.
“What?” she asked, catching him staring.
“Nothing,” he said automatically, then paused. Sam’s words echoed in his mind. Chicken. The plates in his metal arm recalibrated with a soft whir as he clenched his fist, steeling himself. “Actually, no. Not nothing.”
He turned to face her fully, his heart hammering against his ribs in a way that had nothing to do with danger and everything to do with fear of a different kind. Isabelle turned too, her expression curious, open in a way it rarely was. The breeze lifted a strand of her hair, and he fought the urge to brush it back with his fingers.
“I...” Bucky started, then stopped, frustration building in his chest. Words hadn’t been his strong suit since Hydra had hollowed him out and filled him with ice. He’d been better with actions than explanations.
So he acted.
Bucky stepped forward, closing the distance between them. His flesh hand found the curve of her waist, warm and solid beneath his palm. He hesitated for just a heartbeat, searching her eyes for any sign of reluctance, any flicker of doubt.
Like always, he found none.
His metal hand came up to cup her jaw, the vibranium cool against her skin.
When his lips met hers, the world narrowed to a single point of contact. Soft. Warm. Home. Her mouth yielded beneath his, familiar yet somehow new each time. She tasted faintly of the lemonade Sarah had brought them earlier, sweet with a hint of tartness that was uniquely her.
Isabelle’s hands slid up his chest, leaving trails of heat through the thin fabric of his shirt, before wrapping around his neck. Her fingers threaded through the hair at his nape, tugging gently in a way that sent electricity down his spine. He responded by pulling her closer, his flesh hand splaying across her lower back, pressing her against him until he could feel the beating of her heart against his chest.
Her lips parted beneath his, a soft sound escaping her throat that made his pulse quicken. His metal thumb traced the line of her jaw, gentle despite its power, while his other hand gripped her hip more firmly, anchoring them both in the moment.
Time stretched and compressed around them. The chirping of crickets, the lapping of water against the dock pilings, the distant sounds from the Wilson house—all of it faded to background noise, secondary to the rhythm of their shared breath.
When they finally broke apart, Bucky kept his forehead pressed against hers, unwilling to surrender the closeness just yet. His eyes remained closed for a moment, savoring the sensation of her—warm and real and here—in his arms.
“We should probably head in before Sam comes back with more suggestions,” Isabelle said breathlessly, her words ghosting across his lips. Her fingers still played with the hair at the nape of his neck, a soothing, circular motion that made him want to lean into her touch like a cat.
Bucky chuckled, the sound rusty but genuine. “Good call. I’ve heard enough chicken noises for one day.” His flesh hand moved from her hip to the small of her back, maintaining contact as if he couldn’t bear to break it completely.
Isabelle raised an eyebrow, her lips still flushed from their kiss. “Please tell me what the chicken noises were about?”
“Long story,” Bucky said, shaking his head. The embarrassment he’d felt earlier had dissolved, replaced by a warmth that spread through his chest and settled somewhere behind his ribs. He hesitated, then held out his hand—his real one, warm and calloused from the day’s work. “Coming?”
Isabelle looked at his outstretched hand for a heartbeat, then another. Just as Bucky was about to withdraw it, she slipped her fingers between his, her grip firm and sure.
“Yeah,” she said, her voice steady despite the slight tremor he felt in her hand. “I’m coming.”
Together, they walked toward the house, where light spilled from the windows and the smell of Sarah’s cooking wafted on the evening breeze. Their joined hands swung gently between them.
Bucky squeezed Isabelle’s hand gently as they reached the porch steps, the wood creaking beneath their weight. The sound of laughter drifted through the open windows, warm and inviting. For the first time in longer than he could remember, the future didn’t loom like a threat. It beckoned like a promise.
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A kitchen full of gumbo, gossip, and gumption.
Isabelle sets the table. Bucky brings the firewood. Sam won’t shut up.
There’s blushing, teasing, and one small child asking Izzy to take out his math teacher.By the end of the night, there’s a pull-out couch, faded TMNT sheets, and Bucky Barnes meeting Michelangelo for the first time.
Add it to the list.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 75: What Coming Home Feels Like
Chapter 75: What Coming Home Feels Like
Summary:
A pull-out couch. A warmed living room.
One very creaky mattress and two people figuring out what they are to each other.Between turtle-print sheets and chicken noises, Bucky stops running.
And Isabelle—terrified, hopeful, honest—lets herself be caught.They want this.
All of it.
Even the lumpy bed.
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The aroma of Sarah’s cooking floated through the open windows, drawing Isabelle deeper into the Wilson family home. The rich scent of cayenne, filé powder, and simmering seafood made her stomach clench with hunger—real hunger, not the hollow emptiness she’d grown accustomed to back in New York. She paused at the kitchen doorway, one hand braced against the worn wooden frame, taking in the scene before her.
Sarah stood at the stove, one hand planted firmly on her hip, the other stirring a massive pot of gumbo with the practiced ease of someone who’d made this dish a hundred times before. Steam curled around her face, dampening the edges of her hair as she leaned forward to taste from a wooden spoon. Her eyes closed briefly in satisfaction before she added another pinch of something from a small ceramic bowl beside her.
“And then,” Sam was saying, gesturing with his beer bottle, “this fool tries to hammer the nail with his metal arm instead of using the actual hammer that was right there in the toolbox.”
Sarah’s laughter—warm and genuine—filled the kitchen, bouncing off the well-worn surfaces. “Did it work?”
“Like a charm,” Sam admitted with a grin that crinkled the corners of his eyes. “But that’s not the point.”
Isabelle stepped fully into the kitchen’s warmth, taking a seat on a stool at the kitchen island, propping her elbows on the worn wooden surface. The kitchen was nothing like the sleek, untouched one in her Manhattan apartment—this one had mismatched chairs with faded cushions, a refrigerator plastered with children’s drawings and appointment reminders, and spice jars with handwritten labels in different styles of penmanship.
She watched Sam and Sarah’s easy banter, the way they finished each other’s sentences and referenced inside jokes with nothing more than a raised eyebrow or a particular tilt of the head. A familiar ache bloomed in her chest, spreading through her ribcage like a bruise.
“Earth to Izzy,” Sam’s voice cut through her thoughts. He waved a hand in front of her face, his expression teasing but his eyes kind in a way that made her throat tighten. “You gonna help set the table, or are you just gonna sit there looking pretty while the rest of us do all the work?”
Isabelle blinked, forcing a smile that gradually became more genuine as the weight in her chest lightened slightly. “Sorry, got lost in my head for a second.” She slid off the stool. “Where are the plates?”
“Cabinet to your left,” Sarah directed, not looking up from her stirring. The wooden spoon moved in hypnotic circles, releasing another wave of savory aroma. “Sam, grab the silverware, would you?”
Sam pushed himself up from his chair with exaggerated effort. “Yes, ma’am,” he said, giving a mock salute that made Sarah roll her eyes.
The back door swung open with a long, tired creak that pulled Isabelle’s attention from the plates. Bucky stepped inside, his broad frame filling the doorway for a moment before he moved into the kitchen. His arms were loaded with split logs, stacked in a neat pile against his chest. His hair was damp with sweat at the temples. The simple black t-shirt he wore clung to his chest and shoulders, revealing the subtle shift of muscle beneath as he adjusted his grip on the firewood.
Something about the scene struck Isabelle as both jarring and strangely perfect. Like this was just another Thursday evening in Louisiana. The incongruity of it made her chest tighten with an emotion she couldn’t quite name.
“My hero,” Sarah said, shooting him an appreciative smile over her shoulder without breaking the rhythm of her stirring. “Just stack it by the fireplace, would you? Louisiana nights get cooler than people think.”
Bucky nodded, adjusting his grip on the wood. As he crossed the kitchen, his eyes found Isabelle’s, catching her watching him. The corner of his mouth twitched upward in a barely-there smile that seemed meant only for her. It was subtle—nothing anyone else would notice—but it sent a current of warmth through her that had nothing to do with the kitchen’s heat.
Isabelle turned away quickly, suddenly finding the stack of plates she’d retrieved from the cabinet utterly fascinating. She could feel the heat rising in her cheeks, spreading down her neck in telltale patches. She silently cursed her fair complexion, a genetic betrayal from a father who’d never had trouble hiding his reactions.
She’d been curled against Bucky’s chest last night, his metal arm cool against her bare back, his breath warm against her neck. He’d seen her at her most vulnerable—trembling from nightmares, crying after losing control, and arching beneath him, completely undone. They’d shared every raw, unfiltered part of themselves.
And yet one look from Bucky Barnes in Sarah’s kitchen, and she was blushing like a teenager with her first crush.
Get it together, Stark, she scolded herself, carefully arranging the plates in a neat stack. She was an Avenger, for god’s sake. She’d faced down aliens and terrorists and super soldiers. She’d literally died and come back. She’d stood toe-to-toe with Thanos.
The soft thud of firewood being stacked reached her ears from the living room. She could picture Bucky’s movements without looking—methodical, precise, each log placed with careful consideration. The same hands that had traced patterns on her skin last night, that had tangled in her hair and held her like she might shatter.
“You trying to burn a hole through those plates with your mind or something?” Sam’s voice came low and amused from beside her. He was arranging silverware on the table, his eyes dancing with mischief.
“What?” Isabelle glanced down at the plates, confused.
“You,” Sam clarified, nodding toward her face. “Your cheeks. They’re only about fifty shades of red right now.” He leaned in conspiratorially, lowering his voice further. “You know, for someone who can literally manipulate people’s body functions, you sure can’t control your own.”
Isabelle elbowed him sharply in the ribs, satisfaction flaring through her when he grunted in pain. “I will give you the worst case of stomach flu you’ve ever experienced, Wilson,” she whispered fiercely, narrowing her eyes into playful slits. “I’m talking both ends, for days. They’ll need to hook you up to an IV. Maybe even a colostomy bag.”
Sam’s grin only widened, the corners of his eyes crinkling with genuine amusement. The bastard wasn’t even trying to hide it. “Worth it,” he whispered back, utterly unintimidated by her threat. “Completely worth it to see the great Isabelle Stark all flustered over—”
She pressed a single finger to his forearm, the contact deliberate and precise. Her eyebrow arched in silent threat as she let just the tiniest spark of her ability pulse between them—not enough to make him sick, just enough to remind him she could.
“Finish that sentence,” she murmured. “I dare you.”
Sam raised his hands in mock surrender, backing away a step. “Alright, alright. I choose life.” His expression softened slightly, the teasing giving way to something more genuine that made her want to look away. “But for what it’s worth? It’s nice to see you... You know. Being human.”
Being human. As if that was something she’d forgotten how to do. As if it were something worth celebrating when she managed it. The worst part was that he wasn’t wrong.
Before she could formulate a response that wouldn’t reveal just how deeply his words had landed, the floorboards creaked behind her. Bucky returned from the living room, his heavy footsteps somehow lighter here than they ever were in New York. His eyes flicked between them, taking in Sam’s knowing smirk and Isabelle’s flushed face with careful assessment.
“What’d I miss?” he asked, his voice quiet but curious, a slight furrow appearing between his brows. His gaze lingered on her face, seeing too much, as always.
“Nothing,” Isabelle said, at the exact moment Sam said, “Everything.”
Bucky’s eyes met hers across the kitchen, blue-gray and searching.
There was something different about him here in Louisiana, away from the weight of their mission, away from the ghosts that haunted them both in New York. His shoulders seemed less tense, the permanent furrow between his brows less pronounced. The corner of his mouth quirked up in that half-smile that always made her feel like they shared some private joke—like they were the only two people in the world who really understood each other.
“Need help with anything?” he asked, his voice low and rough-edged in a way that sent a shiver racing down her spine.
Before she could respond, the front door burst open with a resounding bang, the force of it reverberating through the wooden floorboards beneath her feet. Isabelle’s body tensed automatically. Beside her, she sensed rather than saw Bucky shift into a defensive stance, his metal arm whirring softly as the plates recalibrated.
Two young boys tumbled in, their faces flushed with excitement and eyes wide with wonder. The older one, whom Isabelle recognized as Cass from the photos Sam had shown them, skidded to a stop on the worn hardwood floor, his sneakers squeaking as he nearly collided with the kitchen island. AJ, the younger of the two, bounced on his toes, barely containing his energy, his small body practically vibrating with excitement.
“Uncle Sam!” AJ exclaimed, his voice high and breathless. “Is it true? Did you really bring the Winter Soldier and Sick Girl home for dinner?”
Isabelle felt her shoulders relax, though her heart still pounded against her ribs. She watched Sam set down the last fork and move to ruffle AJ’s hair affectionately, his large hand gentle against the boy’s head.
“Come on now, what did we talk about?” Sam said, his voice stern but eyes dancing with amusement. “Their names are Bucky and Isabelle, remember?” He glanced at his guests, a hint of apology in his eyes. “But yeah, they’re here.”
The boys’ eyes widened as they took in the scene, their gazes bouncing between Bucky and Isabelle with undisguised curiosity. Isabelle shifted uncomfortably under their scrutiny, all too aware of what they must see. She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, fighting the urge to cross her arms over her chest.
Cass took a step towards Bucky, his eyes fixed on the gleaming metal of Bucky’s left arm. “Is it true your arm is made of vibranium?” Cass asked, his question hanging in the air between them, weighted with childlike wonder.
For a moment, Isabelle saw something flicker across his face—a shadow of the weight that arm carried, the history etched into every groove and joint. But it passed quickly, replaced by a softness she rarely saw outside of their quiet moments alone.
“Yeah,” Bucky said, his voice gentler than Isabelle had ever heard it around strangers. “Courtesy of Wakanda.”
“Can you crush things?” AJ interrupted, practically vibrating with excitement as he bounced on his toes. His eyes were wide, imagination clearly running wild. “Like cars and stuff? Or bend metal bars? Or punch through walls?”
The rapid-fire questions made the corner of Bucky’s mouth twitch upward. He flexed his metal fingers, the soft mechanical whir barely audible in the warm kitchen. The sound was familiar to Isabelle now—comforting, even. She’d fallen asleep to that quiet hum more nights than she cared to admit.
“I could,” Bucky admitted, rolling his shoulder slightly as if testing the weight of the admission. The movement was casual, but Isabelle caught the careful consideration behind his words. “But I try not to make a habit of it.”
“Why not?” AJ pressed, edging closer to Bucky. His small face scrunched with genuine confusion, eyes wide with the limitless imagination only children possessed. “If I had a metal arm, I’d crush stuff all the time.”
Bucky’s mouth opened, then closed. Before he could formulate a response, AJ’s attention swiveled to Isabelle like a spotlight. His expression brightened with new possibilities as he took a step in her direction.
“Can you make my math teacher sick?” he asked, voice dropping to what he clearly thought was a whisper but carried easily across the kitchen. He leaned in, conspiratorial, one hand cupped around his mouth. “I have a test tomorrow, and he won’t give it to us if there’s a sub—”
“AJ!” Sarah’s voice cut through the kitchen, sharp but warm around the edges, the perfect blend of warning and amusement that mothers seemed to master.
She set down her wooden spoon with a decisive click against the countertop, the sound punctuating the sudden silence. A few droplets of gumbo splattered onto the worn surface as she fixed her youngest with a look—the universal maternal expression of ‘I’m not actually mad, but I’m definitely going to pretend I am.’
Isabelle felt her lips twitch upward. There was something about Sarah Wilson that reminded her of Pepper—that same quiet authority, that ability to command a room without raising her voice. The thought brought a pang of something bittersweet beneath her ribs.
“We do not,” Sarah said, emphasizing each word with the quiet authority that only mothers seemed to possess, “ask our guests to use their powers for evil.” Despite the stern tone, her eyes danced with poorly concealed amusement.
“It’s not evil if it’s for education,” AJ protested, his logic flowing with the beautiful, unassailable confidence of childhood. He stood straighter, warming to his defense, hands gesturing animatedly. “Mrs. Miller says critical thinking is important, and I’m being critical about thinking about this test.”
Sam snorted from across the kitchen, quickly disguising it as a cough when Sarah shot him a warning glance.
The laugh that bubbled up from Isabelle’s chest caught her by surprise—genuine and unguarded. The sound seemed to delight AJ, whose face split into a gap-toothed grin that reminded her so much of Sam it was almost uncanny. She felt Bucky’s eyes on her, the weight of his gaze warm against her skin.
“Sorry, kid,” she said, keeping her voice low like they were sharing state secrets. The conspiratorial tone made AJ lean in closer, his eyes wide with anticipation. “I don’t think your mom would appreciate me using biological warfare on the Louisiana public school system.”
AJ’s nose wrinkled. “Bio-what?”
“She means she’s not going to make your teacher throw up so you can get out of your math test,” Cass translated from behind his brother, rolling his eyes with the practiced exasperation of an older sibling.
Behind him, Sarah clapped her hands twice, the sound echoing through the kitchen like a gentle thunderclap.
“Alright, you two,” she said, her tone warm but brooking no argument. “Go wash up for dinner. And no more trying to use our guests’ superpowers for personal gain, understand?”
“Yes, ma’am,” the boys chorused, though AJ’s agreement came with a dramatic eye roll that Sarah pointedly chose to ignore.
As Cass tugged his brother toward the hallway bathroom, AJ glanced back over his shoulder at Isabelle. “We’ll talk later,” he stage-whispered, with all the subtlety of a foghorn.
Isabelle couldn’t stop the undignified snort that escaped her, the sound so genuine it surprised even herself. She caught Sarah’s eye, and the older woman just shook her head, a smile playing at her lips that spoke volumes about raising Wilson men.
“That one’s going to be the death of me,” Sarah said, turning back to her gumbo. The wooden spoon moved in lazy circles, releasing another wave of savory aroma that made Isabelle’s stomach clench with hunger. “Just like his uncle. Too smart for his own good and knows exactly how to use it. Always looking for the angle, always trying to talk his way out of trouble.”
“I heard that,” Sam protested, arranging silverware with exaggerated innocence. “And I resent the implication.”
“You resemble the implication,” Sarah shot back without missing a beat.
As the evening wound down, the Wilson household settled into a comfortable quiet. The boys had been ushered off to bed despite their protests and bargaining attempts. Their excited chatter had faded to occasional thumps and whispers from upstairs, replaced gradually by the gentle symphony of an old house cooling in the Louisiana night—floorboards contracting with soft creaks, windows settling in their frames.
Sarah had disappeared upstairs soon after, while Sam himself had retreated to the back porch with a beer and his phone, murmuring something about “checking in with Torres” that Isabelle suspected was only partially true. Which left Bucky and Isabelle alone in the living room, faced with the task of setting up their makeshift bed for the night.
Isabelle stood in the center of the room, arms crossed over her chest, surveying the worn couch with its faded floral pattern and visibly sagging middle cushion. The room smelled of cinnamon and wood polish, with undertones of the gumbo they’d devoured hours earlier. A fire crackled quietly in the hearth, casting dancing shadows across the family photos that lined the mantle.
“So,” she said, breaking the comfortable silence that had stretched between them, “this is what normal people do, huh? Family dinners. Pulling out sofa beds. Promising to show children tricks with their superpowers.” Her voice was light, but something wistful lingered beneath the surface.
Bucky looked up from where he’d been examining a framed photo of a young Sam in an Air Force uniform. His eyes caught the firelight, turning them from steel to smoke. “I wouldn’t know,” he said, voice low and rough-edged. Then, after a beat, his mouth quirked up at one corner. “But I think I like it.”
The simple admission made something warm unfurl in Isabelle’s chest. She watched as Bucky set down the photo and approached the couch, eyeing it skeptically. His brow furrowed as he assessed its size, the metal plates in his arm shifting subtly as he leaned forward to prod at the cushion.
“You sure this pulls out?” he asked, his voice tinged with amusement. “Doesn’t look like it’s been converted since 1975.” He tapped the wooden frame with his knuckles, testing its soundness.
Isabelle chuckled, stepping closer and running her hand along the worn fabric. The texture was rough against her fingertips, softened by years of use and countless washings. “Only one way to find out, right?”
She tugged at the cushions, revealing the hidden mechanism beneath. The metal frame was spotted with rust at the joints, springs coiled tight like sleeping snakes. With a grunt of effort, she began to pull the bed out, the frame resisting her with a stubborn screech that seemed loud enough to wake the entire neighborhood.
“Jesus,” she muttered, blowing a strand of hair from her face.
“Here,” Bucky said, moving beside her. His shoulder brushed against hers, solid and warm through the thin cotton of his t-shirt. “Let me.”
His metal arm whirred softly as he effortlessly extended the bed frame, the mechanics yielding to his strength with only token protest. The frame creaked and groaned but unfolded completely, revealing a full-sized mattress with a thin layer of dust and a suspicious-looking stain in one corner.
“Ta-da,” Isabelle said with a flourish, her eyes meeting Bucky’s. “Our luxurious accommodations for the evening.” She sat on the edge of the mattress, testing it with a gentle bounce. The springs protested with an alarming squeak that made her wince. “Though I’m not sure this mattress has seen action since the Reagan administration.”
Bucky snorted, a sound so unexpectedly normal that it made her smile. “Bold of you to assume it’s that recent.” He sat down beside her, the mattress dipping dramatically under their combined weight, tilting them toward each other like marbles in a bowl. His thigh pressed against hers, warm and solid.
“If we sleep on this thing, we’re going to wake up with our spines shaped like question marks,” he observed, but there was no real complaint in his voice. Just the quiet contentment of a man who’d slept on far worse.
Isabelle leaned against him slightly, allowing herself the small indulgence. “Good thing we both have enhanced healing, huh?” She nudged his shoulder with hers. “Though I think your back might need more help than mine. You know, given your advanced age and all.”
Bucky’s eyebrows shot up, his expression one of exaggerated offense that didn’t quite mask the amusement in his eyes. “Advanced age?” He shook his head slowly. “That’s cold, Stark. Even for you.”
“Just stating facts, Barnes.” She grinned, feeling something tight in her chest loosen. This—the teasing, the easy banter—was new territory for them.
Bucky’s hand found hers on the mattress, his fingers intertwining with hers with careful deliberation. His thumb traced small circles on her wrist, right over her pulse point. The gesture was intimate in a way that made her breath catch.
“You know,” he murmured, his voice dropping to that low rumble that seemed to vibrate through her bones, “I’ve slept in foxholes during artillery fire. Spent three days in a tree in the Ardennes winter. Even spent a night wedged inside a drainage pipe in Belgrade.” His thumb continued its hypnotic path across her skin. “Pretty sure I can handle a lumpy sofa bed.”
Isabelle felt a smile tug at her lips. “Are you actually bragging about terrible sleeping conditions right now? Because that’s a weird flex.”
“Not bragging,” he corrected, grinning. “Just providing context.”
His eyes met hers, impossibly soft. Something passed between them—something unspoken but undeniable. Isabelle felt her breath hitch as he leaned in, his free hand coming up to brush a strand of hair from her face. The metal was cool against her skin, but his touch was gentle, reverent almost.
“Besides,” he continued, his voice barely above a whisper, “the company makes up for it.”
Isabelle’s heart hammered against her ribs, loud enough that she was certain he could hear it. Before she could respond, Bucky closed the distance between them, pressing his lips to her forehead in a kiss so tender it made her chest ache.
Bucky pulled back, his expression unreadable for a moment before he stood, the mattress springs protesting at the shift in weight. “I’ll get the rest of the bedding,” he said, his voice a touch rougher than before.
Isabelle watched him disappear into the hallway, her fingers unconsciously touching the spot on her forehead where his lips had been. The warmth of his kiss lingered on her skin, spreading through her like whiskey on a cold night.
He returned moments later with a stack of mismatched sheets and a pillow tucked under each arm. “Sarah said these are clean,” he said, dropping them onto the mattress beside her. “Though she apologized for the...” he paused, his brow furrowing as he searched for the words, “the cartoon characters.”
Isabelle picked up the top sheet, unfurling it to reveal faded images of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles scattered across a pale blue background. She laughed, the sound bubbling up from somewhere deep in her chest. “I call dibs on Michelangelo.”
Bucky’s expression was a mixture of confusion and amusement. “I have no idea what that means.”
“The orange one,” Isabelle clarified, still smiling as she stood to help make the bed. “He’s the fun one. The party dude.” When Bucky’s confusion didn’t clear, she added, “We’re watching the movies when we get back to New York. Consider it part of your cultural education.”
“Add it to the list,” Bucky said dryly, but his eyes softened as he took the other end of the sheet.
Together they stretched the sheet across the mattress, their movements falling into an unexpected rhythm. When her fingertips brushed against his knuckles while tucking in a corner, a current ran up her arm that had nothing to do with her powers and everything to do with the memory of those same hands exploring her skin the night before.
“You’re good at this,” she observed, trying to keep her voice casual despite the warmth spreading across her cheeks. “Military corners and everything.”
Bucky’s mouth quirked up at one side. “Had to make my bed every morning in the army,” he replied, his voice low and tinged with something like nostalgia. “Sergeant Barnes would’ve had my hide if the corners weren’t perfect.”
Isabelle paused, pillowcase dangling forgotten from her fingertips. “Wait, you’re talking about yourself in the third person now?” She cocked her head, eyes narrowing playfully. “That’s concerning. Should I be worried about multiple personalities? Because I’m pretty sure we’ve got enough issues between us already.”
Bucky snorted, reaching across to pluck the pillowcase from her hand.
“Different lifetime,” he said simply, but there was a lightness to his tone she rarely heard. “Different Barnes.”
He shook out the pillowcase with a practiced flick of his wrists, then he slid the pillow into its case without snagging the material once. Isabelle found herself mesmerized by the contrast—deadly weapon hands performing such a mundane, domestic task.
“Which one is this again?” he asked, tapping a finger against the orange-masked turtle printed on the pillowcase.
“Michelangelo,” Isabelle answered, feeling an unexpected surge of affection at his question. “Likes pizza, skateboarding, and saying ‘cowabunga.’”
Bucky nodded solemnly, as if she’d just briefed him on critical mission parameters. “Sounds like someone you would get along with.”
From the kitchen came the sound of running water, followed by the clink of glass against the countertop. Sam’s footsteps approached, the particular cadence of his walk already familiar to Isabelle’s enhanced hearing.
“Remember, you two,” he called out, his voice carrying that unique blend of teasing and big-brother protectiveness that was so quintessentially Sam, “keep it PG. These walls are thin, and I don’t need that kind of trauma.”
Heat rushed to Isabelle’s cheeks, while Bucky rolled his eyes at Sam’s comment, the gesture exaggerated and playful, but she didn’t miss the slight flush creeping up his neck.
“Don’t worry, Sam,” she called back, injecting her voice with exaggerated sweetness that wouldn’t fool anyone, least of all a trained interrogator like Sam Wilson. “We’re perfect angels.”
She locked eyes with Bucky as she said it, a silent acknowledgment passing between them of just how un-angelic they’d been the night before. His pupils dilated slightly.
Sam appeared in the doorway, shoulder propped against the frame, arms crossed over his chest. His expression was one of perfect skepticism, eyebrow raised in a masterful arch that would have made Natasha proud.
“Uh-huh,” he said, drawing out the syllables as his gaze bounced between them. “I’ll believe that when I see it.” His eyes twinkled with mischief as he added, “Just remember, I know where you sleep.”
“Good night, Sam,” Bucky said pointedly, making a shooing motion with his hand. The gesture was casual, friendly in a way Isabelle rarely saw from him with anyone besides herself. There was something different about him here in Louisiana—softer edges, less vigilance, as if the warm air and good food had melted some of the ice he carried.
Sam turned to leave but paused in the doorway. He looked back over his shoulder and made a clucking sound, like a chicken, three times in quick succession. The noise was so unexpected and ridiculous that Isabelle nearly choked on her breath.
Bucky groaned, dragging his flesh hand down his face. “Seriously, Sam? Get out of here.” Despite the words, there was no real annoyance in his tone—just the resigned exasperation of someone dealing with a particularly persistent sibling.
Sam’s laughter echoed down the hallway as his footsteps retreated up the stairs, the wooden treads creaking under his weight. The sound faded, leaving them alone in the living room with nothing but the soft pop and crackle of the dying fire and the rhythmic ticking of an old clock on the mantle.
Isabelle stared at Bucky, her curiosity thoroughly piqued. “Okay, you have to explain the chicken noise thing,” she said, sitting on the edge of the pull-out bed. The springs squeaked beneath her weight, the sound almost comically loud in the quiet room. “Because that was either some weird inside joke or Sam’s having a stroke, and I should probably know which one it is.”
Bucky’s eyes darted away from hers, suddenly finding intense interest in straightening the already-perfect corner of the sheet.
“It’s nothing,” he mumbled, but the tips of his ears were turning a shade of pink that betrayed him completely.
“Oh no,” Isabelle said, scooting closer on the mattress, which responded with an alarming squeak. “That is definitely not nothing. Your ears are literally turning red.” She reached out, gently tugging his earlobe between her thumb and forefinger. The skin was warm beneath her touch, and she let her fingers linger there, tracing the shell of his ear with a deliberate slowness that made his breath catch. “Come on, Barnes. Spill.”
Bucky exhaled heavily, his broad shoulders rising and falling with the motion. He shifted to sit beside her, the mattress dipping dramatically under his weight, tilting them closer together.
“It’s stupid,” he warned, but the hard lines of his face had softened. “Sam thinks I’ve been... chickening out.”
“Of what?” Isabelle pressed. Her heart kicked against her ribs, a sudden drumbeat that seemed too loud in the quiet room.
Bucky swallowed, his throat working visibly. He exhaled slowly, deliberately, like a man preparing to step off a cliff.
“Us,” he said finally. His eyes found hers with sudden intensity, blue-gray and searching. “What happened last night... what’s been happening between us.”
Isabelle felt a flash of nervousness skitter across her skin like electricity. Her powers flickered in response, a brief, involuntary surge that made the hairs on her arms stand on end. She curled her fingers into her palm, focusing on the pressure of her nails against her skin to ground herself.
“The thing is,” he continued, each word careful, measured, “I don’t know how to do this right.” He gestured vaguely between them, the metal plates of his arm catching the firelight. “Sam says I’ve been chickening out of telling you what this is. What we are.” His voice dropped lower, almost a whisper. “What I want us to be.”
The air between them seemed to thicken, charged with possibility. Isabelle’s fingers found his on the mattress, her skin warm against the cool metal of his hand.
“And what do you want us to be?” she asked, her voice steadier than she felt. Her heart hammered so hard she was certain he could hear it—enhanced hearing or not.
Bucky’s eyes dropped to their joined hands, watching as her fingers traced the ridges of his metal palm.
“I want—” he started, then stopped. His jaw worked, frustration flickering across his face like a shadow. “I’m not good at this. At words.” He shook his head, a strand of dark hair falling across his forehead. “Back before... before everything, I knew how to talk to women. Had all the right lines.” A self-deprecating smile tugged at one corner of his mouth, not quite reaching his eyes. “Now I feel like I’m speaking a different language half the time.”
“Hey,” Isabelle said softly. “I’m not exactly an expert at this either. In case you hadn’t noticed, my relationship history is basically a series of catastrophes punctuated by extended periods of isolation.”
That earned her a quiet chuckle, the sound rumbling through his chest and vibrating against her fingertips where they rested against him. “Quite a pair we make, huh?”
“The worst,” she agreed, smiling. Then, more seriously: “But I like us.”
Something shifted in Bucky’s expression—a softening around his eyes, a vulnerability that made her chest ache with a sweetness she wasn’t used to feeling. His metal hand turned beneath hers, fingers intertwining with deliberate care, as if he were afraid of applying too much pressure.
“I want this,” he said simply, squeezing her hand gently. “You and me. Not just... not just what we’ve been doing.” A faint flush crept up his neck, spreading to the tips of his ears. “Though I definitely want that too.”
He took a deep breath, his chest expanding beneath the thin cotton of his t-shirt. Isabelle watched the movement, remembering how that same chest had felt pressed against her back last night, solid and warm as he curled around her.
“I want to be with you, Isabelle.” The words came out rough-edged, like they’d scraped his throat on the way up. “Not just when we’re alone or when it’s convenient.”
Isabelle felt heat rise to her cheeks, but she didn’t look away. Couldn’t look away from the raw honesty in his storm-gray eyes.
“I want all of it,” he continued, the words coming faster now, as if a dam had broken. His Brooklyn accent slipped in at the edges. “I want us to go steady—to call you mine. I want mornings and nights. I want to take you to dinner and hold your hand and do all those normal things people do.”
The pull-out bed creaked beneath them as he shifted closer, the old springs protesting the movement. The sound should have broken the moment, but somehow it only made everything more real—more grounded in this strange domestic scene they’d found themselves in.
“I want to fight beside you and patch you up after,” he said, voice dropping lower. “I want to wake up next to you and argue about whose turn it is to make coffee.” His eyes never left hers, intense and honest in a way that made her breath catch. “I want to be the person you come to when everything falls apart, and I want to be the person who makes you smile when it does.”
He paused, vulnerability naked on his face. “I’ve been alive for decades, Isabelle,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper, “and I’ve never wanted anything the way I want this. The way I want you.”
Isabelle felt something crack open in her chest—something that had been sealed tight since before the Blip, maybe even before her father died. It spread through her ribcage like warm honey, sweet and terrifying all at once. Her powers flickered in response, a brief, involuntary surge that made the hairs on her arms stand on end, but for once, she didn’t try to rein them in.
“James...” His name came out rough, almost a whisper.
Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat suddenly dry. She searched for words that wouldn’t crumble under the weight of what she was trying to say.
“I’ve spent most of my life running,” she admitted. “Building walls, pushing people away before they could leave me.” She let out a shaky breath that stirred the hair falling across her face. “It was easier that way. Safer.”
Her powers flickered beneath her skin, a subtle electric current that responded to the racing of her heart. She didn’t try to suppress it this time, letting the sensation wash through her.
“But you...” Isabelle squeezed his hand, feeling the subtle whir of plates adjusting to her touch. The sound was familiar now, comforting. “You didn’t let me run. You saw through all my bullshit from day one.” A small, self-deprecating laugh escaped her. “And that terrifies me more than any mission I’ve ever been on.”
She looked down at their intertwined hands—her small fingers laced through his metal ones, the contrast stark and somehow perfect.
“But I want this too,” she continued, forcing herself to meet his gaze. The vulnerability in his eyes nearly undid her. “I want you. Not just at night when we’re alone or when we need each other. I want mornings and afternoons and all the moments in between.”
She took a deep breath, steeling herself. Vulnerability had never come easily to her—it felt like stepping off a cliff, trusting someone else to catch her before she hit the ground. The Stark in her rebelled against it, wanted to deflect with sarcasm or change the subject entirely. But the part of her that had been slowly healing since she met him pushed forward.
“So,” she said, tilting her head to study his face, “James Buchanan Barnes wants to be my boyfriend.” The word felt almost childish for what existed between them—two people who had seen too much, survived too much. But it was a beginning.
His lips quirked up at the corners, eyes crinkling in that way that made him look decades younger. “Is that what the kids are calling it these days?” he teased, his Brooklyn accent slipping through stronger than usual.
“Well, I could call you my ‘gentleman caller’ if you prefer,” she teased, her voice dropping to a mock-whisper. “Or my ‘steady fella.’ I hear that was all the rage back in the Paleolithic era when you were dating.”
Bucky’s eyes widened in exaggerated offense, but the effect was ruined by the smile tugging at his lips. “You’re really pushing it with the old man jokes, Iz.”
“You like it,” she said, the words slipping out before she could stop them.
Something shifted in his expression—a softening, a vulnerability that made her chest ache with a sweetness she wasn’t used to feeling. His metal hand came up to cup her cheek, the touch impossibly gentle.
“Yeah,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “I do.” A slow smile spread across his face. “And yeah,” he continued, his voice rough with emotion. “I want to be your boyfriend. Your partner. Whatever you want to call it.” His thumb brushed across her cheekbone, cool metal against warm skin. “I just want to be yours.”
Yours.
Isabelle felt the word settle in her chest, taking root somewhere deep. Her powers flickered again, a brief surge that made the hairs on her arms stand on end, but it wasn’t from anxiety this time. It was something else entirely—something that felt dangerously close to hope.
“Good,” Isabelle murmured, leaning forward until their foreheads touched. “Because I want to be your girlfriend. Even if it sounds ridiculous when I say it out loud.”
She closed the distance between them, pressing her lips to his. This kiss was a promise rather than a demand. His hand came up to cradle the back of her head, fingers threading through her hair with impossible gentleness, as if she might break. As if she were precious.
“Come here,” she murmured, tugging gently on his hand as she shifted back onto the pull-out bed. The springs groaned in protest beneath her, the sound almost comically loud in the quiet room.
“Think the whole house heard that,” Bucky whispered, following her down onto the mattress.
“Let them hear,” Isabelle replied with a smirk. “Give Sam something to actually complain about tomorrow.”
Bucky settled beside her, their bodies finding that perfect alignment they’d discovered the night before—her back to his chest, his arm draped protectively over her waist, their legs tangled together. The mattress dipped dramatically under their combined weight, creating a valley that naturally rolled them toward each other.
As sleep began to claim them, Bucky pressed a soft kiss to the top of Isabelle’s head. The night deepened around them, wrapping the house in a blanket of stars and firefly-lit darkness. As Bucky’s breathing evened out, matching Isabelle’s, he found himself thinking that maybe, just maybe, this was what coming home felt like.
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A borrowed bed. A quiet morning.
Two small Wilsons on a mission.The shield goes missing, pancakes hit the ceiling, and Bucky learns there’s nothing more dangerous—or irresistible—than a sleepy girlfriend who won’t let him leave the covers.
Ten more minutes. Just ten.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 76: To Live
Chapter 76: To Live
Summary:
Isabelle wakes to a quiet house, a borrowed kitchen, and a world that doesn’t demand she fight to exist in it.
She talks with Sarah. About grief, about legacy, about choosing peace.
And for the first time, she doesn’t run.She stays.
She helps.
She lives.
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Oookay... okay...
Ya’ll can thank paperplanes221 for convincing me not just to double post… but to TRIPLE post tonight. 😭
Because... well… we’ve only got three more chapters of the Louisiana arc left and I literally cannot wait for what’s coming next. So like… yeah… see you again in a few minutes??? LOL 💀💚🎵Chapter song vibes: "Crave" by Paramore
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Bucky stirred from sleep, the soft whispers and giggles filtering through the fog of his consciousness before his eyes even opened. Years of training kept his breathing steady, his body still, as he listened to the careful footsteps padding across the hardwood floor. The weight of Isabelle against his side pulled him to the present—not a threat, just children.
"Careful, AJ! Don't drop it!" Cass's hushed voice carried a mix of excitement and nervousness that tugged at something long-dormant in Bucky's chest.
"I got it, I got it," AJ replied, his tone vibrating with the particular thrill that came with doing something forbidden.
Bucky fought to keep his face neutral as he heard the distinct metallic scrape of vibranium against wood—the shield being lifted from where Sam had propped it against the doorframe last night. He cracked one eye open just enough to watch the two children struggling with the weight of the disc between them, their small faces pinched with concentration, eyes wide with barely contained mischief.
The morning light filtering through the half-drawn curtains caught on the shield's surface, sending muted blue reflections dancing across the ceiling. The sight of those tiny hands wrapped around the vibranium edge stirred something both painful and sweet in his chest.
"Okay, on three," Cass whispered, shifting his grip. "One... two..."
"Three!" AJ finished with more volume than intended, and they both made exaggerated whooshing noises as they swung the shield in a wobbly arc.
A low chuckle escaped Bucky before he could stop it. The kids froze mid-swing, their eyes widening to comic proportions as they realized they'd been caught. The shield wobbled precariously between them, threatening to slip from their small fingers and crash to the floor at any moment.
"Having fun?" Bucky asked, his voice rough with sleep but warm with amusement. He propped himself up on his flesh arm, careful not to disturb Isabelle, who was still curled against him, her face half-buried in the crook of his neck. Her breath came in soft, even puffs against his skin.
Cass and AJ exchanged panicked glances, their shoulders hunching as they carefully—almost reverently—lowered the shield to the floor with a muted thud.
"We're sorry!" Cass blurted out, his bottom lip quivering slightly. He shifted from foot to foot, hands clasped behind his back in a gesture that reminded Bucky painfully of another era, of himself as a boy caught stealing apples from old man Donovan's tree.
"Yeah, we didn't mean to wake you up," AJ added, eyes fixed firmly on his sock-covered toes. His 'Thor' pajamas hung loose on his small frame, the sleeves dangling past his wrists, the lightning bolt across the chest slightly faded from too many washes.
Bucky sat up slowly, mindful of Isabelle's sleeping form. She stirred against him, mumbling something that sounded suspiciously like a threat before nuzzling closer to his side, one hand unconsciously tightening in the fabric of his shirt. The gesture sent a wave of protectiveness through him that was both foreign and familiar.
"It's okay," he said softly, his metal hand moving of its own accord to brush a stray lock of hair from Isabelle's forehead. The cool touch of vibranium against her skin caused her nose to scrunch adorably, but she didn't wake. "I was getting up anyway."
He looked back at the kids, but they were already backing toward the doorway, exchanging conspiratorial glances.
"We'll go make breakfast!" Cass announced in what was clearly meant to be a whisper but came out more like a stage direction.
"Yeah, breakfast!" AJ echoed, already turning to bolt down the hallway.
"Are you allowed to use the stove—" Bucky called after them, but the sound of small feet pounding down the hallway told him they were already gone, likely headed toward the kitchen .
Beside him, Isabelle shifted again, her eyes fluttering open to reveal that familiar bright green gaze, still hazy with sleep.
"Time is it?" she mumbled, her voice raspy.
"Early," Bucky replied, his thumb absently tracing the line of her jaw. "Go back to sleep."
Instead, she pushed herself up on one elbow, hair falling in a curtain around her face as she squinted toward the doorway. "Was that the sound of impending disaster I heard?"
"Just the kids. They found the shield."
A small smile tugged at the corner of her mouth, transforming her face in a way that made his chest ache. "Of course they did. It's shiny and dangerous—basically irresistible."
"Like someone else I know," Bucky said before he could stop himself, the words slipping out in a way that should have terrified him but somehow didn't.
Her eyes widened slightly, that smile freezing for a fraction of a second before softening into something more vulnerable, almost shy. The morning light caught in her eyes, turning that familiar green into something luminous.
"Are you calling me dangerous, James?" she asked, voice still rough with sleep but with a playful edge that made his chest tighten.
"Shiny and dangerous," he corrected, finding himself smiling back at her, his metal hand still absently tracing patterns on her arm. "Most definitely both."
Before she could respond, a crash echoed from the kitchen, followed by Sam's startled shout and the children's peals of laughter.
"What in the—" Sam's voice cut off abruptly, likely censoring himself for the kids' benefit. "How did you even reach that high?!"
Bucky sighed, already shifting to get up. "I should probably—"
"No," Isabelle mumbled, her fingers tightening in his shirt, tugging him back down. "They’re Sam's nephews. He knows what he's doing." She burrowed closer, her body warm against his side, one leg sliding over his. "I'm not done with my boyfriend yet."
The word sent a jolt through him–boyfriend. Such a simple, ordinary term for something that felt anything but ordinary. After decades of being a weapon, a ghost, a broken thing to be fixed, the normalcy of it was almost dizzying.
Another crash, louder this time, followed by what sounded suspiciously like something shattering.
"I’m fine!" Sam called out, voice strained. "Everything’s fine!"
Bucky winced. "That didn't sound fine."
"He's a highly trained combat veteran who regularly jumps out of planes without parachutes," Isabelle said, eyes still closed, voice muffled against his shirt. "He can handle two kids and whatever kitchen disaster they've created."
As if on cue, AJ's voice carried down the hallway: "Uncle Sam! The pancake is on the ceiling!"
Bucky couldn't help the laugh that escaped him, a low rumble that shook them both. Isabelle tilted her head up, her sleepy smile making something in his chest expand almost painfully.
"See? He's fine," she insisted, tugging at him again. "Come back here."
He hesitated for only a moment before sinking back down beside her, his arm curling around her shoulders as she nestled against him. The weight of her, warm and trusting against his side, still felt like something he hadn't earned, something that could be snatched away at any moment.
"Five more minutes," he conceded, pressing a kiss to her forehead, feeling her smile against his chest. "Then we really should go help."
"Ten," she countered, already drifting back toward sleep, her breathing slowing. "At least ten."
Another crash, followed by Sam's exasperated, "How did you even—you know what, never mind."
Bucky stared at the ceiling, the morning light casting soft patterns across it, and found himself smiling. The Winter Soldier, a feared assassin, was hiding in bed while Sam Wilson battled breakfast and two sugar-hyped kids.
"Okay," he whispered, tightening his arm around Isabelle. "Ten minutes."
He closed his eyes, listening to the chaos from the kitchen, to Isabelle's steady breathing, to the quiet tick of the clock on the wall. For the first time in longer than he could remember, the moment felt perfect in its imperfection – messy and loud and warm and real.
Isabelle finally woke up. Her mind registered the absence before her body did—the cool emptiness beside her where Bucky’s warmth should have been. She reached out, fingers finding only rumpled sheets still holding the ghost of his presence. A soft groan escaped her as she blinked against the morning light filtering through the half-drawn curtains, casting golden stripes across the living room.
Her muscles protested as she pushed herself up, the scent of something delicious pulling her fully awake. Coffee—rich and dark—mingled with the sweet aroma of pancakes and... was that bacon? Her stomach responded with an embarrassingly loud rumble.
Isabelle swung her legs over the side of the bed, bare feet connecting with the cool hardwood. She shivered slightly, goosebumps rising along her arms. Her tank top and sleep shorts offered little protection against the morning chill.
Her eyes landed on Bucky’s hoodie draped carelessly over the back of a wicker chair—dark gray, worn soft from countless washes. Without hesitation, she grabbed it and pulled it over her head. The fabric engulfed her, sleeves hanging past her fingertips, the collar still carrying his scent—something clean and masculine with a hint of metal that was uniquely him. She caught herself burying her nose in the fabric for a moment, then felt heat rise to her cheeks at the gesture.
“You’re getting pathetic, Stark,” she muttered to herself, pushing her tangled hair away from her face.
The floorboards creaked beneath her feet as she padded down the hallway, following the scent of breakfast and the soft sound of a radio playing something bluesy and soulful. As she approached the kitchen, she heard the rhythmic scrape of a spatula against a griddle and the sizzle of batter hitting hot metal.
Isabelle paused at the threshold, taking in the scene. Sarah stood at the stove, her back to the doorway, expertly flipping a golden-brown pancake with a practiced flick of her wrist. Morning sunlight streamed through the kitchen windows, catching on the copper pots hanging above the island and turning the whole room warm and golden. It was so... normal. So far removed from the chaos of the past few weeks that it felt almost surreal.
“Good morning, sleepyhead,” Sarah said without turning around, somehow sensing her presence. “I was wondering when you’d join the land of the living.”
Isabelle ran a self-conscious hand through her sleep-mussed hair. “Sorry, I like sleep when I can get it,” she said, a sheepish smile tugging at her lips as she crossed the threshold into the kitchen. Her eyes scanned the room automatically, searching for a particular silhouette. “Is, um—”
“He’s with Sam at the boat,” Sarah supplied, glancing over her shoulder with a knowing smile that made Isabelle feel suddenly transparent. “Said you refused to wake up. He left a little over an hour ago.”
Isabelle felt a flutter of disappointment, immediately followed by irritation at herself for feeling it. When had she become so... dependent? She slid onto one of the barstools at the kitchen island, trying to look casual, as if she hadn’t been searching for Bucky the moment she woke up.
“Coffee?” Sarah asked, already reaching for a mug from the cabinet.
“Please,” Isabelle nodded gratefully. “I’m not sure I’m fully human until I’ve had at least one cup.”
Sarah laughed—a warm, genuine sound that reminded Isabelle painfully of her mother in those rare good moments from her childhood. “Sam’s the same way. Like dealing with a grumpy toddler until he’s caffeinated.” She poured steaming coffee into a mug adorned with faded cartoon characters and slid it across the counter.
Isabelle wrapped her hands around the warm ceramic, inhaling deeply before taking a sip. The coffee was strong and extra, extra sweet, exactly how she liked it, though she couldn’t remember telling Sarah her preference. The rich flavor bloomed across her tongue, chasing away the last cobwebs of sleep from her mind.
“Did Bucky tell you how I take my coffee?” she asked, setting the mug down and tracing its rim with her finger.
Sarah’s smile widened as she turned back to the stove. “Man pays attention to everything about you—including how you dump enough sugar in your coffee to give a normal person diabetes.”
Heat crept up Isabelle’s neck, spreading across her cheeks like wildfire. She ducked her head, staring into the dark swirls of her coffee as if they might reveal some profound truth. The thought of Bucky noticing such a small detail about her—remembering it, sharing it—sent an unexpected flutter through her chest.
“He notices everything,” Isabelle murmured, more to herself than to Sarah.
She took another sip, the sweetness coating her tongue, reminding her of late nights in the compound when coffee and adrenaline were all that kept her going.
“This...” Isabelle gestured vaguely with her free hand, encompassing the kitchen, the house, the moment. “This has been really nice. Being here, I mean.” The words felt clumsy in her mouth, unpracticed. “Thank you, Sarah. For everything.”
Sarah turned from the stove, spatula in hand, her expression softening. “Like I said, you’re welcome anytime. You and Bucky.” She flipped a pancake with practiced ease, the golden-brown disc landing perfectly centered on the griddle. “You’re practically family now.”
Family. The word hung in the air between them, weighted with meaning. Isabelle swallowed hard, her throat suddenly tight. She stared into her coffee, watching the steam curl upward in delicate wisps. It was such a simple word that carried so much complexity for her. The Starks had never been what anyone would call functional, and the Avengers—her second attempt at finding belonging—had fractured and reformed too many times to count.
Sarah placed a plate of steaming pancakes in front of Isabelle—three perfect golden circles drizzled with maple syrup, butter melting into small pools in their centers.
“Thank you,” Isabelle murmured, the words feeling inadequate. Her fingers wrapped around the fork, cool metal against her skin.
Sarah leaned against the counter, crossing her arms, her gaze steady and perceptive in a way that reminded Isabelle of Sam. The Wilson siblings shared the ability to see through bullshit without making you feel exposed.
Isabelle cut into her pancakes, watching the syrup spread across the plate, creating tiny amber rivers. She took a bite, letting the sweetness dissolve on her tongue while her thoughts tumbled over each other. The silence stretched between them, not uncomfortable but expectant.
“I’ve been thinking,” she finally said, her voice softer than intended.
She hesitated, fork suspended midair, suddenly uncertain if she should continue. This wasn’t something she normally talked about—especially not with someone she’d known for such a short time. But there was something about Sarah that invited confidence, a steadiness that made the words easier to find.
She set her fork down, tracing a pattern in the condensation on the side of her coffee mug. “It’s just...” She paused again, gathering her thoughts. “I don’t want to feel like I’m running away to have this peace, you know?” The admission felt vulnerable, raw in a way that made her want to look away, but she forced herself to meet Sarah’s eyes, searching for understanding. “I want to feel this way back home, too.”
Sarah’s expression remained thoughtful as she pushed away from the counter and poured herself a cup of coffee.
“We all have our problems,” she said, her voice carrying the weight of experience. “It’s not constant peace and quiet here, believe me.” A shadow crossed her face, darkening her eyes momentarily. “I’ve been struggling alone for years. Sam went off to play superhero, and I lost my husband. Had to raise the boys on my own.” She paused, her gaze drifting toward the window, toward something Isabelle couldn’t see. “Then Sam was dusted for five years...”
The pain in Sarah’s voice resonated with something deep in Isabelle’s chest. The Blip had taken different things from each of them, but the hollow ache of absence was universal.
Sarah shook her head slightly, as if physically dislodging the painful memories. She took a sip of her coffee, the mug cradled between her hands. “But I guess there is a sense of peace about this place.” Her eyes, warm and knowing, found Isabelle’s again. “What’s stopping you from finding yours through your mess?”
Isabelle looked down at her plate. What was stopping her? The question echoed in her mind, bouncing off the walls she’d so carefully constructed. Her father’s shadow. The weight of the Stark name. The blood on her hands—some literal, some metaphorical. The voice in her head that whispered she didn’t deserve peace.
“I don’t know if I can,” she admitted, the words barely audible. She traced the rim of her mug with her fingertip, leaving faint smudges on the ceramic. “Peace feels like... like something other people get to have.”
She thought of Bucky, of the way his face had looked in the early morning light, softer than she’d ever seen it. The way his metal arm had curled protectively around her waist, as if even in sleep he was trying to keep her safe.
Something warm unfurled in her chest at the memory, fragile and terrifying in its newness.
“When I’m here,” she continued, “everything feels possible. Like maybe I could be more than just...” She gestured vaguely at herself, at all the broken, jagged pieces she’d been trying to hold together. “But back home, there’s so much noise. So many expectations. So many ghosts.”
Isabelle’s gaze drifted toward the window, toward the boat dock where Bucky and Sam were working. Something in her expression softened, then immediately tightened again, as if she’d caught herself being too transparent.
“I think...” Isabelle began, then stopped. She pressed her lips together, fingers curling more tightly around the mug. When she spoke again, her voice had a rawness to it that hadn’t been there before. “I think I’ve been running for so long I forgot how to stand still.”
Sarah nodded, letting the silence stretch between them. Some truths needed space to breathe.
“The cabin where Pepper and Morgan live,” Isabelle said suddenly, the non sequitur hanging awkwardly in the air before she continued. “It’s beautiful. Peaceful. My father built it for them—for after.” Her mouth twisted in a complicated expression that wasn’t quite a smile. “There are pictures of him everywhere. His tools in the garage. His coffee mug still on the shelf.”
She took a sip of her coffee, grimacing slightly as if it had grown cold.
“There’s this... space where he should be. And I can feel it. Every time I walk in. This Tony-shaped hole that none of us know how to fill.”
Sarah reached across the counter, her warm hand covering Isabelle’s cold one. The gesture was simple but grounding. Isabelle looked up, startled by the contact, her green eyes wide and uncertain. She pulled her hand back, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear with a nervous gesture that reminded Sarah painfully of her youngest son when he was gathering courage.
“My father, Nat, Steve, everything that’s happened...” Isabelle shook her head, frustration evident in the tightness around her eyes. “I’m letting it hold me back.” She met Sarah’s gaze directly, something new and resolute hardening in her expression. “I don’t want to anymore.”
The kitchen fell silent except for the soft tick of the clock above the refrigerator and the distant sound of hammering from the dock. Isabelle’s fingers drummed a restless pattern against the side of her mug, betraying the nervous energy that always seemed to hum beneath her surface.
“When I’m with Bucky,” she said, the words coming in a rush as if she needed to get them out before she lost her nerve, “I feel like I could stop running.” Her cheeks flushed pink, the color stark against her pale skin. “Like maybe I don’t have to be just Sick Girl. Like I could just be... me. Whoever that is.”
A self-deprecating smile flickered across her face.
“I want to do good,” she said, her voice growing stronger with each word, as if speaking the desire aloud gave it substance. “To be happy.” Her shoulders straightened almost imperceptibly. “To stop feeling like I’m just... existing, you know?” She took a deep breath that seemed to fill not just her lungs but her entire being. “I want to live.”
The simple declaration hung in the air between them, powerful in its vulnerability. Sarah saw something shift in Isabelle’s eyes—a spark of determination breaking through the carefully maintained walls.
Sarah grabbed her own plate of pancakes and slid onto the stool next to Isabelle. “Then live,” she said simply, as if those two words contained all the wisdom in the world.
Isabelle couldn’t help the short laugh that escaped her, half amused and half frustrated. “Yeah... easier said than done.” She stabbed at her pancake.
“Okay, well,” Sarah started, bumping her shoulder playfully against Isabelle’s, “sometimes the best place to start is right where you are.” She cut into her own stack of pancakes. “What’s one small thing you could do today that would make you feel like you’re moving forward?”
Isabelle chewed her lower lip, staring out the window, where sunlight danced on the water of the bay.
Her mind circled Sarah’s question: What could she do today to move forward?
The answer crystallized with such sudden clarity that Isabelle nearly laughed at its obviousness. Her fingers tightened around her fork, the metal cool against her skin.
“The house and the boat,” she said, gesturing toward the window with her free hand before meeting Sarah’s gaze. “I know they mean everything to Sam and you. I want to help you save them.”
Sarah’s brow furrowed, confusion evident in the slight tilt of her head. “You did help—yesterday—”
“No,” Isabelle interrupted, setting her fork down with a soft clink against the ceramic plate. “I don’t mean new paint and sorting fishing nets. I mean...” She hesitated, suddenly aware of how her next words might land, how easily they could sound like pity or condescension. “I can help you financially.”
Understanding dawned on Sarah’s face, followed immediately by a flash of something that made Isabelle’s stomach tighten—pride, discomfort, maybe both. Sarah’s shoulders tensed visibly, her spine straightening as she placed her own fork down with deliberate care.
“I get that you’re coming from a good place, Isabelle. I do.” Sarah’s voice was measured, the kind of careful control that reminded Isabelle of Sam when he was trying not to show discomfort. “But we’re not a charity case. We’ve been managing—”
“That’s not—” Isabelle leaned forward, the counter edge digging into her ribs through Bucky’s hoodie. “I’m not trying to play savior or be condescending. God, that’s the last thing I want.”
She ran a hand through her tangled hair, frustrated at her inability to articulate what she meant without sounding like every rich person who’d ever thrown money at a problem to make themselves feel better.
“Look,” she tried again, her voice softer, “I’ve spent most of my life taking what my father left behind for granted. The money, the tech, all of it.” She swallowed hard, memories flickering behind her eyes—seventeen-year-old Isabelle, storming out of the mansion after another fight with Tony, his credit card burning a hole in her pocket. Using his money while rejecting everything else he offered. “I never appreciated what I had until I lost it all.”
Her eyes tracked across the kitchen—the chipped paint on the cabinet doors, the ancient refrigerator humming in the corner, the worn linoleum floor patched in several places. But despite its imperfections, or perhaps because of them, the room radiated something her own sterile apartment never had: history, memories, love.
“This place is your parents’,” Isabelle continued, something raw edging into her voice. “It’s your history, your memories. When I think about losing the things my father left behind...” Her throat constricted unexpectedly, emotion rising like a tide. “It’s not just about the things themselves. It’s about that connection to the past, to family.”
She thought about the coffee mug with the faded MIT logo Tony always used. The one she’d almost shattered against the wall when she first returned after his funeral, rage and grief colliding in her chest like unstable elements. Instead, she’d clutched it to her chest and slid down against the wall, inhaling the lingering scent of motor oil and that ridiculously expensive cologne he’d always worn—the one that somehow managed to cut through the workshop smells no matter how long he’d been tinkering.
“I have so little left of him,” she admitted, the words barely audible. “Just... objects. Things I can hold onto when the memories start to fade.” She looked up, meeting Sarah’s eyes directly. “I can’t imagine losing that. And I don’t want you and Sam to lose yours either.”
Her fingers curled against the countertop, nails scraping lightly against the surface.
“Please, let me help. Not because I pity you or think you can’t manage, but because...” She paused, searching for the right words. “Because maybe this is how I start to use what he left me for something good. Something that matters.”
Sarah studied her, eyes narrowed slightly, searching Isabelle’s face with the same penetrating intensity Sam sometimes had—like she could see straight through to the truth. The kitchen fell silent save for the gentle ticking of the clock on the wall and the distant call of seabirds outside. Isabelle held her breath, her heart pounding against her ribs as she waited.
After what felt like an eternity, Sarah’s expression softened, the tension around her eyes easing into something more contemplative. She studied Isabelle for a long moment, her gaze searching, as if peeling back layers to find the truth beneath.
“You really mean it, don’t you?” she asked, voice tinged with wonder and a hint of lingering suspicion.
Isabelle nodded, something tight in her chest loosening. “I do.” She twisted her hands in her lap, Bucky’s too-long sleeves bunching around her wrists.
Sarah took a deep breath, her shoulders rising and falling with the motion. Her eyes drifted to the photos magnetized to the refrigerator—faded snapshots of family gatherings, of children growing up against the backdrop of this very kitchen. Isabelle followed her gaze, noticing a younger Sam with his arm slung around Sarah’s shoulders, both of them grinning beside an older man with the same warm eyes.
“My daddy used to take me and Sam out fishing before dawn,” Sarah said finally, a wistful smile touching her lips as she traced the rim of her coffee mug. “Said the fish were still sleepy then, easier to catch.” She chuckled softly, the sound rich with memory. “Never had the heart to tell him I hated fishing. Just loved being out on the water with him.”
The morning light caught on Sarah’s profile, illuminating the quiet strength there—the same resilience Isabelle had seen in Sam time and again. A family trait, perhaps.
“He taught us that pride matters,” Sarah continued, her voice growing firmer. “That standing on your own two feet is important.” She met Isabelle’s gaze directly, something challenging in her eyes.
Sarah’s expression grew serious again, but the edge of defensiveness had softened. She tapped her fingers against the countertop, a thoughtful rhythm that reminded Isabelle of Sam when he was working through a problem.
“Okay,” she said finally, her voice gaining strength. “Let’s talk about it. But—” she held up a finger, her expression shifting to something stern that made Isabelle straighten instinctively, “—this is a loan, not charity. With terms. Real terms.”
“Absolutely,” Isabelle agreed quickly, a bubble of something like hope expanding in her chest. “Whatever works for you.”
“And Sam doesn’t need to know the details,” Sarah added, a hint of mischief entering her eyes. “That man has enough on his plate without worrying about his big sister’s pride.”
“Deal,” Isabelle said, extending her hand across the counter. Sarah took it, her grip firm and warm.
“But first—” Sarah gestured toward Isabelle’s plate with a mock stern expression that reminded Isabelle powerfully of Pepper, “—finish your pancakes before they get cold. Can’t have good food going to waste in this house.”
Isabelle laughed, the sound surprising her with its lightness. She picked up her fork again, cutting into the now-cooling pancakes. The first bite tasted like victory—sweet and satisfying in a way that had nothing to do with maple syrup.
Through the window, she caught a glimpse of movement on the dock. Sam was gesturing broadly, apparently explaining something to Bucky, who stood with his arms crossed, head tilted in that particular way he had when he was listening intently but pretending not to care.
For the first time in longer than she could remember, the weight on her shoulders felt just a little lighter—as if by helping Sarah preserve her family’s legacy, Isabelle might somehow be finding a way to honor her own. And maybe, just maybe, she was taking the first step toward building something new.
Something that was entirely hers.
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Lego cities. Laughter. A red and gold blur.
Cass plays Iron Man. Isabelle forgets how to breathe.
Healing starts in small ways.
A shared book. And the choice to stay.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 77: That Tiny Red and Gold Speck
Chapter 77: That Tiny Red and Gold Speck
Summary:
A city built from Lego.
A memory built from grief.
Avengers Tower rises again—brick by mismatched brick—until a red and gold figure crashes through it like déjà vu.Laughter echoes. A hand steadies.
And in the quiet after the fallout, Isabelle remembers how to breathe.Because healing doesn’t always look like victory.
Sometimes it looks like pancakes.
Sometimes it sounds like boogers.
And sometimes, it’s as simple as someone staying when you say you’re not okay.
Notes:
OKAY, this chapter was honestly one of my favorites to write?? Super excited to share it!
Also, if you haven’t read my companion fic What Came Before, there are a few little references here to Isabelle’s Avengers arc! Totally not required reading (I’m not gonna make you consume 20 pieces of content to understand one chapter—I’m not Marvel 😭), but if you're curious about how Izzy fit into the Avengers (2012) plotline, I’ll drop the link to that arc’s first chapter below!https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/66588304/chapters/173542969
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Don't Dream It's Over" by Crowded House
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Somehow—somehow—Isabelle had ended up on the living room floor, cross-legged and completely surrounded by a sea of primary-colored Lego bricks. The plastic pieces dug into her thighs, but she didn’t mind.
Cass and AJ had descended on her like a tactical strike team the moment she’d stepped out of the kitchen, each grabbing one of her hands with surprising strength for children so small. Their eyes had gleamed with the kind of determination that reminded her, uncomfortably, of their uncle during mission briefings.
“You have to help,” AJ had insisted, tugging her forward.
“Super important mission,” Cass had added, his voice dropping to what he clearly thought was a covert whisper. “Top secret.”
She’d barely managed a bewildered “What—” before they’d executed what must have been a pre-planned maneuver. The pull-out couch folded back in place, the rug cleared with ruthless efficiency, and suddenly a chaotic avalanche of Legos cascaded across the hardwood floor, the colorful pieces clattering like plastic hail.
Resistance, it turned out, was futile.
“Isabelle, look!” Cass cried, thrusting forward a towering column of bricks that looked structurally unsound in every possible way. The makeshift tower wobbled precariously between his small hands, his face, however, radiated such pure pride that Isabelle felt something twist in her chest. With painstaking care, he pressed another red brick onto the very top, his tongue caught between his teeth in concentration.
“Wow, Cass,” Isabelle said, her voice softening in a way that would have made Sam raise an eyebrow. She leaned forward, examining the haphazard creation with genuine interest. “That’s seriously impressive. You’re practically Stark Tower’s new head architect. My dad would’ve hired you on the spot.”
The words slipped out before she could catch them, but Cass beamed, completely missing the shadow that crossed her face.
Not to be outdone, AJ hunched over his own creation, assembling an intricate racetrack. His dark eyebrows furrowed together as he snapped each piece into place with surprising precision. The tip of his tongue poked out from the corner of his mouth—the same expression Sam made when disarming particularly complex security systems.
“When I’m done,” AJ declared without looking up, “we can race ‘em. Full-speed chase through the city. Bad guys won’t stand a chance.” He made a zooming sound, his hand cutting through the air to demonstrate.
Isabelle caught the competitive glance AJ shot toward his brother’s tower.
“What if,” she said, scooting forward and lowering her voice to a conspiratorial whisper, “we combined your projects?” She gestured between them, her scarred hands moving with unexpected animation. “We could use AJ’s racetrack as the streets, and Cass’s towers as the city buildings.”
The boys’ faces transformed, eyes widening with possibility.
“Yeah!” AJ leapt to his feet so quickly he nearly toppled Cass’s tower, earning a protective yelp from his brother. “We can make it like New York! With the tall buildings and everything!”
“Can we build Avengers Tower?” Cass asked, already reaching for more bricks, his fingers scrambling through the pile. “Right in the middle? With the big A?”
Something in Isabelle’s chest constricted, then released. The building didn’t exist anymore—sold after the Accords, repurposed, during the Snap. But here, on this living room floor, it could stand again.
“Absolutely,” she said, surprising herself with a laugh that felt rusty but genuine. Warmth spread through her chest, unfamiliar but not unwelcome. “But every city needs a good foundation. Let’s start there.”
They worked together, piece by piece, imagination spilling across the floor. AJ constructed elaborate roadways with unexpected patience, while Cass focused on buildings with a serious intensity that reminded Isabelle painfully of Tony in his workshop. What started as a chaotic pile transformed into a mismatched but brilliant cityscape—skyscrapers nestled next to improvised parks, winding roadways that defied traffic laws, half-finished bridges spanning imaginary rivers, and a towering central structure proudly labeled with a crooked “A” made of mismatched red blocks.
Isabelle lost track of time, caught in the boys’ energy. Her fingers carefully clicked bricks together and occasionally supplied the requested explosion sound effects when AJ’s cars took particularly dramatic jumps.
Over an hour later, the front door swung open with a soft click. Isabelle didn’t register the sound at first, too absorbed in the miniature battle unfolding before her.
“And then the Chitauri came over the buildings like this—” She demonstrated with her hand, swooping it down toward the Lego skyline they’d constructed. A plastic alien figure dangled from her fingers, poised to attack their meticulously built Avengers Tower.
“And then Thor goes ‘I AM THOR, SON OF ODIN!’“ AJ bellowed beside her. He stomped a red-caped figure through a carefully constructed bank, sending bricks scattering across the hardwood with theatrical destruction. His face was flushed with excitement, eyes bright with imagined glory.
Isabelle raised her Hawkeye figure, drawing back an imaginary bow with dramatic flair. “I’ve got eyes on the Chitauri, Cap,” she barked in her best gruff Barton impression. “Just say the word.”
“Well, well, well. What do we have here?”
Isabelle’s head snapped up, her fingers freezing mid-swoop. Sam and Bucky stood framed in the entrance, expressions shifting from surprise to undisguised amusement. It was Sam who had spoken first.
Heat crept up Isabelle’s neck. She was sprawled on her stomach on the living room floor, surrounded by a miniature metropolis of mismatched Lego buildings. Plastic figures were scattered around her—heroes and villains frozen in eternal combat. Her hair had fallen from its careful bun, strands curtaining her face.
Isabelle’s stomach did a strange little flip as she caught Bucky’s gaze. He leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed over his chest, wearing the smuggest half-smile she’d ever seen. His eyes crinkled at the corners, soft and warm in a way that made her pulse skip.
“Looks like we’re missing all the fun, Sam,” Bucky drawled, his voice low and amused. The metal fingers of his left hand tapped a gentle rhythm against his bicep.
Isabelle stuck her tongue out at both of them, surprising herself with the childish gesture. “You’re just jealous you don’t have Lego versions of yourselves,” she retorted, sitting up and crossing her legs.
“Oh, is that right?” Sam raised an eyebrow, walking toward their battlefield. He placed a hand over his heart, trying—and failing—to look offended. “And here I thought being an actual Avenger was cool enough.”
“Uncle Sam!” Cass scrambled to his feet, nearly toppling a skyscraper in his haste. “We built New York! Look, there’s Avengers Tower and everything!”
“I see that, buddy,” Sam said, ruffling Cass’s hair. “Pretty impressive city you’ve got here.”
Before Isabelle could fire back with another quip, AJ let out a mighty war cry that startled even Bucky. “HULK SMAAAASH!” he shouted, slamming a green Lego Hulk onto one of the carefully constructed towers. It exploded in a glorious, multicolored avalanche, bricks skittering across the floor like shrapnel.
Isabelle flinched instinctively, her body tensing at the sudden noise and destruction. For a split second, the sound triggered something darker—rubble falling, buildings collapsing, screams. Her heart hammered against her ribs before she forced herself back to the present. This was play. Just play.
Across the room, Bucky’s expression flickered—concern darkening his eyes before softening into reassurance—as their gazes locked. He’d noticed. Of course, he had. She gave him a tiny nod, and his smile returned, gentler this time. Understanding passed between them, wordless but clear.
“Alright, Avengers,” Cass announced, hoisting both Iron Man and Cap minifigs high above his head like twin trophies. His voice dropped to what he clearly thought was an authoritative Captain America tone. “Time to save New York!”
“Don’t forget about me!” Isabelle added, waving her Hawkeye figure with exaggerated importance. She shifted her weight, leaning back on one hand. “Barton’s gotta have his moment.”
“Oh yeah?” Sam said, crouching down beside them. His knees cracked audibly as he settled onto the floor. He smirked at Isabelle, challenge in his eyes. “Let’s hear your best Hawkeye impression, Stark.”
Bucky pushed off from the doorframe, moving to settle on the couch behind them, close enough that Isabelle could feel his presence like a warm shadow at her back.
She grinned and cleared her throat dramatically. With deliberate movements, she made the tiny figure ‘scale’ a tower of blue and white bricks. “This is Hawkeye,” she said, dropping her voice to a gravelly whisper, “reporting from the world’s most uncomfortable perch. I’ve got eyes on everything...” She paused for effect, catching Bucky’s gaze. “Except for a decent chair. Over.”
The boys burst into laughter, AJ rolling onto his back and kicking his feet in the air. Even Sam chuckled, shaking his head.
Behind her, Bucky let out a quiet laugh, the sound rumbling like distant thunder. Isabelle turned just enough to catch his expression—eyes crinkled, shoulders shaking as he tried to stifle it.
“Not bad,” Sam said thoughtfully, his eyes gleaming with mischief. “But what about you? Lemme hear your best Sick Girl.”
She blinked, caught off guard. “Wait—what?” The plastic Hawkeye figure dangled forgotten between her fingers. “How do you even impersonate yourself?”
“You’re right, you can’t, so allow me,” Sam said, swooping down to pluck one of her old Lego suit designs from the scattered pile. He held it aloft with exaggerated reverence, as if presenting a priceless artifact. The tiny black and green figure glinted under the living room lights.
Sam cleared his throat dramatically, shoulders squaring like he was about to deliver a presidential address. Then his voice pitched comically high, taking on a clipped, precise tone that made Isabelle’s jaw drop.
“Oh no, I feel a sneeze coming on!” he announced, waving the figure in frantic circles. “Everyone, please maintain a six-foot radius. Wouldn’t want to trigger a pandemic by accident!” He punctuated this with a delicate, prissy little sniff.
“I do not sound like that!” Isabelle protested, heat flooding her cheeks. From the couch behind her, Bucky made a strangled sound that might have been a suppressed laugh.
Sam wasn’t finished. He made the Lego figure swoon dramatically, tiny plastic hand pressed to its forehead. “Fear not, citizens!” he declared, marching it across a Lego rooftop with exaggerated daintiness. “I shall vanquish this villain with the power of... boogers!”
The boys erupted. Cass fell backward, clutching his stomach as he howled with laughter. AJ actually rolled across the floor, knocking over a carefully constructed skyscraper in his mirth, tears streaming down his flushed cheeks.
Isabelle shot a betrayed glance over her shoulder at Bucky, only to find him completely losing it. His metal hand covered his mouth, but it couldn’t hide the way his eyes crinkled or his shoulders shook. The sight of him—the formidable Winter Soldier—giggling like a schoolboy over the word “boogers” did something strange to her insides.
“I don’t fight people with boogers, Sam!” Isabelle groaned, burying her face in her hands. Her fingers couldn’t hide her own reluctant smile, though. Through the gaps, she could see the boys still convulsing with laughter. “That’s just—that’s inaccurate.”
“Is it, though?” Sam raised an eyebrow, his expression perfectly innocent as he continued marching the figure in small circles. “Because I distinctly remember that time when you—”
“That was phlegm, not boogers,” Isabelle cut in quickly, lunging forward to snatch the figure back. Her fingers moved to close around it just as Sam yanked it away, holding it just out of reach. “And it was a tactical decision!”
“Tactical boogers,” Bucky murmured from behind her, his voice warm with amusement. When she twisted to glare at him, he just smiled wider, a rare, unguarded expression that reached all the way to his eyes.
Isabelle turned to face him fully, betrayal written across her features. “Whose side are you on?”
His eyes met hers, blue-gray and dancing with something that might have been tenderness. “Yours,” he said simply. “Always. Even when you’re fighting crime with boogers.”
The sincerity beneath the teasing knocked the retort right out of her head. For a moment, they just looked at each other, something unspoken passing between them that made the rest of the room fade slightly.
“All I’m saying,” Sam continued, finally surrendering the Lego figure when she made another grab for it, “is that some of us use wings, some use shields, and some use—”
“If any of you say boogers one more time,” Isabelle warned, pointing a threatening finger at him, “I will personally ensure that your next physical is the most thorough examination you’ve ever experienced.”
Sam just winked, completely unfazed. “Admit it—you’re flattered by my spot-on impression.”
“I’m insulted by your not spot-on impression,” she corrected, but there was no real heat in her voice. She tucked the Lego figure safely into her palm, oddly protective of the tiny plastic version of herself.
The playful chaos began to settle—until Cass, who had been waiting patiently for his spotlight moment, suddenly lifted the Iron Man Lego figure high into the air.
“My turn!” he beamed, his small face alight with excitement. “Watch this!”
With impressive confidence for a kid his age, Cass began swooping the figure through the air, mimicking flight patterns Isabelle recognized all too well. His voice dropped into something low and dramatic, an uncanny impression that made her breath catch.
“JARVIS, we’ve got incoming,” Cass intoned, making the tiny red and gold figure loop and dive. “There’s a missile headed for the city. I’ve got to stop it!”
Isabelle’s smile froze on her face. Her heart stuttered, then began to race, a painful staccato against her ribs. The playful living room blurred at the edges.
The red and gold blur in Cass’s hand was suddenly something else entirely. Not a toy, but her father—the real Iron Man—streaking across a sky torn open by alien forces. Her eyes locked on it, and the room around her faded—bricks and laughter dissolving into smoke and ash and the metallic tang of fear. The shrieking echo of Chitauri ships filled her ears, drowning out the boys’ giggles. The sky opened above her, a jagged wound over Manhattan, cosmic blue spilling into Earth’s atmosphere.
And then: her father. A streak of red and gold, soaring toward that rift in the sky, carrying a nuclear missile like it was nothing. Like he wasn’t flying toward certain death.
Her throat constricted, closing tight enough that she had to fight for each shallow breath.
The memory came fast and brutal, as vivid as if she were living it again—Natasha’s voice over comms, tight with controlled fear. Steve yelling. The panic rising as the seconds ticked down and Tony didn’t come back. The sickening certainty that settled in her stomach when the comms went dead. The way she’d counted—one-one-thousand, two-one-thousand—waiting for him to fall back through that tear in the sky.
She flinched when Cass dropped the Lego Iron Man, the figure clattering against a blue brick building before tumbling to the floor. The sound snapped her back just enough to realize her vision had blurred, the living room swimming behind a film of unshed tears.
“Isabelle?”
Bucky’s voice was low, steady, and instantly grounding. A lifeline thrown across stormy waters. She felt the weight of his gaze—concerned but not pitying—from where he sat on the couch.
She blinked rapidly, forcing herself to focus on the sunlight streaming through the windows, on the solid floor beneath her, on the warmth of the room around her. The living room came back into focus—AJ still giggling at some leftover joke, his small hands moving plastic figures through their miniature city. Cass reaching for another brick, completely unaware of the memories he’d just unearthed.
They hadn’t noticed her momentary absence. But Sam and Bucky had. Both men stood perfectly still, a silent conversation of concern radiating between them. Sam’s eyes had narrowed slightly, his head tilted in that way that meant he was assessing, calculating the best approach. Bucky’s expression was more open, raw with understanding that cut straight through her defenses.
“I... I just need a second,” Isabelle said quickly. Too quickly. Her voice caught, shaky despite her best efforts to smooth it out. She stood carefully, trying not to knock over any part of the Lego city as she edged toward the kitchen. Her legs felt unsteady, disconnected from the rest of her. “I’ll be right back.”
She didn’t wait for a response, couldn’t bear to see the knowing look in Bucky’s eyes or the careful concern in Sam’s. Three steps, four, and she was around the corner, out of sight.
In the kitchen, she braced both hands on the counter, fingers spread wide against the cool laminate. She focused on that sensation—the temperature against her palms, the slight texture beneath her fingertips, the solid weight supporting her trembling frame—and pulled in a breath. Then another. In through her nose. Out through her mouth. Again. Again.
Behind her, floorboards creaked with a soft groan. She didn’t need to turn to know who it was—she recognized the cadence of his footsteps, the particular weight of his tread. Lighter than most would expect for a man his size.
“Doll?” Bucky’s voice was gentle, barely above a whisper. The nickname slipped out naturally now, no longer carrying the hesitation it once had.
Isabelle swallowed hard against the knot in her throat and managed a small, forced smile over her shoulder. Her eyes met his—those storm-blue eyes that somehow seemed to see right through her carefully constructed defenses.
“I’m fine,” she said, the words automatic. “I just... got a little overwhelmed.”
It wasn’t a lie. But it wasn’t the whole truth either. The memory had slammed into her with physical force, stealing her breath and sending her heart racing. Even now, standing in the safety of Sam’s kitchen, her hands trembled slightly against the counter’s edge.
Another set of footsteps approached—lighter, more deliberate. Sam entered the kitchen a moment later, his movements quiet as he leaned against the doorframe. His dark eyes held understanding without pity, a distinction Isabelle had always appreciated about him.
“I’m sorry, Izzy,” he said, voice low enough that the boys in the living room wouldn’t hear. “What Cass said—”
“No.” Isabelle cut him off with a sharp shake of her head, still not quite meeting his gaze. Her voice was soft but certain. “Don’t apologize. They’re just kids. To them, it’s pretend. It’s play.” She paused, fingers tracing an invisible pattern on the countertop. “And honestly... I’d rather it stay pretend for them.”
The kitchen fell silent except for the distant sound of Lego bricks clicking together and the boys’ muffled laughter. Sunlight streamed through the window above the sink, casting warm patches across the worn linoleum floor. Isabelle tried to focus on that—the gentle warmth, the solid ground beneath her feet.
She tried to leave it at that—tried to smile and move on, to turn it into a joke or a sarcastic quip. Her usual armor. But the words caught in her throat, snagged on something real and raw that she was tired of carrying alone.
Isabelle sighed, her shoulders dropping slightly as she turned fully to face them. Her hands fidgeted, fingers brushing the edge of the counter behind her. The countertop felt cool against her palms, grounding her.
“I almost deflected just now,” she admitted, her voice more vulnerable than either man was used to hearing. “Tried to say I was fine and change the subject. I always do that, even when I don’t mean to.” She swallowed, her throat clicking audibly in the quiet kitchen. “But I’m trying to be better. So... yeah. That moment back there? It hit me.”
Bucky stepped closer, careful not to crowd her but close enough that she could feel the solid reassurance of his presence. The metal plates in his left arm shifted with a barely audible whir as he crossed his arms over his chest. Sam didn’t speak, just gave her space to find the words.
“It was the Battle of New York,” she said eventually, voice tight with the effort of keeping it steady. “Seeing Cass with that Iron Man figure—talking about the missile—it just pulled me right back to that day.” She looked down at her hands. “We were all fighting on the ground. Me, Steve, Thor.” Her breath hitched. “The portal was open. And there he was. My father. Flying straight into it. With a goddamn nuke on his back.”
Bucky moved closer, resting a gentle hand on her back. The warmth of his palm seeped through her shirt, and she didn’t flinch from the contact like she might have months ago. Instead, she found herself leaning into it slightly, drawing strength from the simple touch.
“I remember screaming into the comms,” she continued, “begging Natasha not to close the portal yet. Just a few more seconds—just wait.” Her eyes grew distant, seeing not the kitchen but a sky torn open above Manhattan. “But we didn’t know if he was coming back.” Her voice cracked. “And then I saw him fall.” A tear slipped down her cheek, carving a warm path along her skin, but she didn’t bother to wipe it away. “This tiny little red and gold shape falling out of the sky. And I thought... I thought that was it. That I’d just watched my dad die.”
The kitchen was still, the only sound the hum of the refrigerator and her shaky breaths. The memory hung between them, almost tangible in its intensity.
Then Bucky’s voice—soft, steady, like a hand reaching through darkness. “But he made it.”
His metal fingers moved in small, comforting circles against her back, the gesture so gentle it made her chest ache.
“I know,” Isabelle said, nodding, finally wiping at her face with the back of her hand. “He made it. But those few seconds? They carved something out of me I don’t think I ever got back.” She exhaled slowly. A beat passed. Isabelle straightened, squaring her shoulders slightly. “Thanks, guys,” she said, offering a small smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes. “I think I just need some time to clear my head—that came out of nowhere.”
“You know,” Bucky said, his blue eyes soft with empathy, “sometimes the hardest part isn’t the memory itself. It’s the way it sneaks up on you when you least expect it.”
He would know, Isabelle thought. If anyone understood how memories could ambush you, it was Bucky Barnes. She met his gaze, finding no judgment there, only understanding that ran bone-deep.
Sam nodded in agreement, pushing off from the doorframe to join them by the counter. After a moment, he glanced toward the living room, then nodded to the shield propped against the doorframe leading outside.
“Well,” he said, a hint of a smile playing at his lips, “Buck and I were planning to go outside and toss the shield around before you two head out for your flight. Want to join us?”
The invitation was casual, but Isabelle recognized it for what it was—an offer of distraction, of companionship. She considered it for a moment, tempted by the normalcy of it. But the pull of solitude, of a quiet moment to gather her scattered thoughts, was stronger.
“Thanks, but I think I’ll pass,” she said, offering them a small but genuine smile. “I might go read by the water for a bit.” She brushed a stray lock of hair behind her ear, her gaze flicking to Bucky. “I... uh, may have stolen your copy of The Hobbit,” she added with a sheepish grin, the confession softening the tension that had settled in her shoulders.
Bucky’s eyebrows rose, his mouth quirking into his half-smile.
“Thief,” he teased gently, his eyes soft with affection. His voice dropped lower, just for her. “Just don’t lose my place.”
The warmth in his gaze lingered a moment longer than necessary, and Isabelle felt heat rise to her cheeks. Sam glanced between them, the ghost of a knowing smile on his lips before he tactfully looked away, suddenly very interested in adjusting the strap of his watch.
“I’ve got it marked,” she replied, her voice lighter now, the earlier tremor gone. Her fingers made a small, precise gesture in the air. “Page 117. Bilbo’s just about to meet Smaug.”
“The best part,” Bucky murmured, his eyes still on hers.
With a final nod, Isabelle stepped away from the counter, the weight on her chest a little lighter. The kitchen’s sunlight caught the gold flecks in her eyes, turning them amber for a brief moment. She knew Sam knew about them, and the lack of judgment in his expression loosened something tight in her chest.
On impulse, she leaned forward and pressed a quick kiss to Bucky’s cheek. His stubble scratched gently against her lips, and she caught the subtle intake of his breath, the slight tensing of his shoulders in surprise before he relaxed into the gesture. The contact lasted only a second, but electricity raced through her fingertips where they’d brushed his arm.
Sam cleared his throat, a poor attempt at hiding his smile. “I’ll, uh, check on the boys,” he said, already backing toward the doorway. “Make sure they haven’t turned my living room into an actual battlefield.”
As he disappeared around the corner, Isabelle heard him muttering something that sounded suspiciously like “about damn time” under his breath.
Bucky’s metal hand came up to touch the spot where her lips had been, the gesture almost unconscious. The plates in his arm recalibrated with a soft, mechanical whisper.
“I’ll see you out there in a bit?” she asked, her voice quiet but steady. “After I’ve had some time to...” She trailed off, not needing to finish the thought.
“Take all the time you need,” he said, the words simple but carrying layers of understanding. “I’ll be here.”
She gave him one last smile before making her way toward the door, grabbing Bucky’s worn copy of The Hobbit from her bag. The screen door creaked as she stepped out onto the porch, the warm Louisiana air enveloping her like a blanket. She took a deep breath, letting the scent of magnolias and the distant tang of the bayou fill her lungs.
As she made her way towards the water, the grass soft beneath her feet, she felt the lingering tendrils of memory begin to loosen their grip. Isabelle found a comfortable spot beneath a sprawling oak tree, its branches providing a dappled shade from the afternoon sun. She settled against the trunk, the rough bark firm against her back. Moments later, in the distance, she could hear the metallic ring of the shield as Sam and Bucky began their game. As she turned the pages, Isabelle felt the tension in her shoulders begin to ease, the weight of the past lifting just a little bit more with each word.
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A shady tree. A borrowed book.
Sunlight in her lap, and his smile in reach.A kiss sweeter than spring.
A promise sealed with a pinky.
And a quiet moment where the world stops spinning—
just long enough to fall a little deeper.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 78: Borrow Indefinitely
Chapter 78: Borrow Indefinitely
Summary:
A porch swing. A quiet talk.
Hard truths spoken under southern sun.Sam reminds her of the family waiting.
Bucky reminds her she’s not alone.It’s time to stop running.
Time to go home.
Notes:
Okay...that’s it. The Louisiana arc 🥹
I hope you guys loved it as much as I did!!! can’t believe we’re getting so close to the end of this story—it’s wild. Thank you SO much for continuing to read, comment, and support. Seriously, i love you all. 💚🎵Chapter song vibes: "Dreams" by The Cranberries
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Chapter Text
Isabelle sat with her back against the rough bark of the oak tree, legs stretched out on the grass that tickled her bare ankles. The worn pages of Bucky’s copy of The Hobbit felt comforting between her fingers as she lost herself in Middle-earth.
The afternoon sun dappled through the leaves above, creating shifting patterns of light across the pages. She didn’t know how long she’d been reading—time seemed to slip away when she was absorbed in someone else’s world instead of her own.
The soft crunch of approaching footsteps pulled her reluctantly from Tolkien’s universe. She looked up, squinting slightly against the sunlight, to see Bucky walking toward her. His dark hair was slightly tousled, pushed back from his forehead where a light sheen of sweat glistened. His t-shirt clung to his chest in places, evidence of him and Sam ‘tossing the shield around’. The sight of him backlit by the golden afternoon sun made something flutter in her chest—a feeling she was still getting used to.
“Having fun stealing my stuff, doll?” Bucky asked, his voice warm with affection as he lowered himself to sit beside her.
Isabelle clutched the book dramatically to her chest, narrowing her eyes with exaggerated suspicion. “I prefer to think of it as ‘borrowing indefinitely,’“ she quipped, her lips quirking into the smirk that she knew drove him crazy. “It’s a victimless crime, really.”
Bucky chuckled, the sound low and rich, vibrating through the small space between them.
“Is that so?” he murmured, leaning in until his breath tickled the sensitive skin below her ear. “And what other things of mine are you planning on ‘borrowing indefinitely’?” His fingers tugged playfully at the hem of his hoodie she had stolen this morning, his blue eyes crinkling at the corners with amusement.
Isabelle turned to face him, their noses nearly touching. A dangerous impulse seized her, and before her brain could catch up with her mouth, she whispered, “Oh, I don’t know. Maybe your heart?”
The words hung in the air between them, and Isabelle immediately felt heat creep up her neck. God, that was cheesy. She cringed inwardly, fighting the urge to physically recoil from her own words.
But Bucky’s eyes softened, a mix of adoration and amusement dancing in their depths. His hand came up to cup her cheek, the pad of his thumb gently tracing her cheekbone. “Hate to break it to you, doll,” he said, his voice dropping to that low register that never failed to send shivers down her spine, “but I think you already stole that.”
Isabelle couldn’t help it—a laugh bubbled up from her chest, breaking the moment of tension. She leaned into his touch even as she rolled her eyes. “You’re such a dork,” she murmured, unable to keep the smile from her face. “A cute dork, but still a dork.”
“Yeah, but I’m your dork,” he countered, his thumb still tracing lazy patterns on her cheek. His eyes dropped briefly to her lips, then back up to meet her gaze. “And you like it.”
“Maybe,” she conceded, letting the book fall forgotten to her lap as she shifted closer. “But if you tell anyone I said something that cheesy, I’ll deny it to my dying breath. I have a reputation to maintain.”
“What reputation would that be?” Bucky asked, his voice teasing as his hand slid from her cheek to the nape of her neck. His fingers threaded through her hair, the metal of his left hand cool against her lower back where it had slipped beneath the hoodie.
“You know,” she listed, fighting to keep her expression serious despite the warmth blooming in her chest, “badass Avenger, Sick Girl, generally terrifying person.” She tilted her head slightly, leaning into his touch like a cat. “Can’t have people thinking I’m going soft.”
“Your secret’s safe with me,” Bucky promised, his smile turning mischievous as he leaned in closer. His breath was warm against her face, mingling with the earthy scent of the grass beneath them and the faint sweetness of the air. “Though I gotta say,” he continued, his gaze roaming appreciatively over her form, lingering on the way his hoodie swallowed her smaller frame, “I like seeing you in my clothes. Maybe you should ‘borrow’ them more often.”
Isabelle felt heat creep up her neck, spreading across her cheeks in a flush she couldn’t control. The intensity in his eyes made her stomach flip in that not-unpleasant way she was still getting used to.
“Oh yeah?” she replied, her voice a touch breathless. She reached up, fingers trailing along the edge of his jaw, feeling the slight stubble there. “I’ll keep that in mind.” Isabelle’s eyes flickered to his lips, and she found herself leaning forward almost unconsciously.
Their lips met in a tender kiss, sweet and unhurried. Isabelle melted into him, the book sliding from her lap onto the grass as her hands found their way to his shoulders. His skin was warm through the thin fabric of his t-shirt, muscles solid beneath her fingertips. The world around them seemed to fade away, leaving only the two of them in this perfect moment. The gentle rustle of leaves above them, the distant call of a bird, the warmth of the sun on their skin—it all blended into a backdrop for this single point of connection between them.
When they finally pulled apart, just enough to breathe, Isabelle couldn’t help the smile that tugged at her lips. “I think I like kissing you as much as you like seeing me in your clothes,” she murmured, her voice husky.
Bucky laughed, the sound rumbling through his chest where it pressed against hers. “I’d say that’s a fair assessment,” he agreed, pressing another quick kiss to her lips, then another to the corner of her mouth. His metal hand came up to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear, the gesture achingly tender. “Though I’m not sure which I enjoy more.”
“We could conduct a thorough investigation,” Isabelle suggested, arching an eyebrow. “You know, for science.”
“For science,” Bucky echoed solemnly, though his eyes danced with amusement. “Very important research.”
Isabelle leaned in again, her lips brushing his as she spoke. “I’ve always been dedicated to the pursuit of knowledge.”
This kiss was deeper, greedier. Bucky’s hand tightened slightly in her hair, angling her head to deepen the connection. Isabelle’s fingers curled into the fabric of his shirt, holding him close as warmth spread through her body like wildfire. The taste of him made her head spin in the best possible way.
Bucky broke away first and rested his forehead against hers. Isabelle kept her eyes closed for a moment longer, committing every sensation to memory: the steady rhythm of his breathing, the gentle pressure of his hand at her waist, the mingled scent of their bodies in the afternoon sun.
“As much as I want to stay here forever,” Bucky said, a hint of regret coloring his voice, “we should probably start heading back if we want to make our flight.”
Reality crashed back in like a wave. Isabelle opened her eyes, meeting Bucky’s gaze. The world seemed sharper now, more vivid, as if the kiss had heightened all her senses.
“I guess you’re right,” she admitted reluctantly.
She cast one last longing look at the peaceful scene around them—the swaying branches of the oak tree, the glittering surface of the water in the distance, the weathered porch of the Wilson family home.
“But let’s make a deal,” she said, turning back to Bucky with newfound determination. Her fingers traced the worn spine of the book, a small anchor to this perfect moment she wasn’t ready to let go. “Next time we come to visit, we’ll spend at least one full day just like this. No missions, no emergencies, no world-saving. Just us, this tree, and maybe a few more books to ‘borrow indefinitely.’” She extended her pinky finger between them, a childish gesture that felt right somehow. “Deal?”
Bucky’s face transformed with a smile that made her breath catch—open and genuine in a way he rarely showed to others. The lines around his eyes crinkled, softening the sharp edges of his face. In moments like these, she could see glimpses of the man he must have been before HYDRA, before the ice, before everything.
“Deal,” he agreed, hooking his metal pinky with hers. The cool vibranium against her skin sent a pleasant shiver up her arm. Instead of pulling away, he used the connection to tug her closer, sealing the promise with another kiss—this one soft and quick, but no less meaningful.
As they separated, Isabelle reluctantly closed the book and tucked it under her arm. She stood up, brushing grass and bits of bark from her legs before extending her hand down to Bucky. The dappled sunlight caught in his dark hair, highlighting strands of chestnut that were usually hidden in shadow.
As he took her offered hand, she tugged playfully, making an exaggerated show of straining against his weight. Her feet dug into the soft earth as she leaned back, pretending to struggle. “Come on, old man,” she teased, her eyes sparkling with mischief. “Don’t tell me you’re too worn out from tossing that frisbee around with Sam?”
The corner of Bucky’s mouth twitched upward, a dangerous glint entering his eyes. “What did I tell you about the old man jokes, huh?” He raised one eyebrow, the challenge clear in his voice. Before she could react, he tightened his grip on her hand and pulled—not hard enough to hurt, but with enough force to throw her off balance.
Isabelle stumbled forward with a surprised “Oof!” directly into his chest. In a blink, Bucky was on his feet, scooping her up into his arms and hoisting her over his shoulder like she weighed nothing.
“James!” she squealed, the sound transforming into breathless laughter as he spun her around. Blood rushed to her head, her hair falling in a curtain around her face as she half-heartedly pounded her fists against his back. Through her laughter, she managed to gasp, “Put me down, you jerk!”
“I’m sorry, what was that?” Bucky asked innocently, spinning faster. “I couldn’t hear you over all that disrespect coming from someone currently upside down.”
“Okay, okay!” she gasped between fits of giggles, her sides beginning to ache. Her hands gripped the back of his t-shirt, feeling the solid muscle beneath. “I take it back! You’re spry as ever, Barnes! Practically a spring chicken!”
Bucky slowed his spinning but didn’t immediately set her down. Instead, he adjusted his grip, sliding one arm under her knees and cradling her against his chest in a bridal carry. The sudden change in position made her head swim pleasantly, and she found herself looking up into his face, flushed with exertion and alight with playfulness.
“That’s more like it,” he said, his voice low and warm. He pressed a kiss to her forehead, his lips lingering there for a moment longer than necessary.
Isabelle looped her arms around his neck, enjoying the solid warmth of him against her. “You know,” she murmured, “if you wanted to carry me back to the house, you could have just asked.”
“Where’s the fun in that?” Bucky replied, but he gently set her down, keeping one arm wrapped around her waist as her feet touched the grass.
As they started walking back toward the house, hand in hand with The Hobbit tucked safely under Isabelle’s arm, she felt a pang of melancholy wash over her. “I’m going to miss this place,” she admitted quietly, her thumb tracing absent patterns on the back of Bucky’s hand. “It’s so... peaceful here.”
Bucky squeezed her hand gently. “We’ll come back,” he promised. “Sam already said we’re welcome anytime.”
“Yeah, but it won’t be the same, will it?” She looked toward the horizon, where the afternoon sun hung low over the bayou. “Going back to New York means going back to reality. Back to—” She cut herself off, not wanting to name all the things waiting for them: the nightmares, the press, the constant vigilance.
“Hey,” Bucky stopped walking, turning to face her. He reached up with his metal hand, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear with surprising gentleness. “Whatever’s waiting for us in New York, we face it together. That’s the deal, right?”
Isabelle leaned into his touch, allowing herself this moment of vulnerability. “Right,” she agreed, her voice barely above a whisper. “Together.”
They made their way back to the house, the Louisiana sun warming their shoulders. As they approached the weathered porch steps, Sam emerged from the front door, screen door slapping shut behind him. His expression was neutral, but there was something purposeful in his stride.
“Hey, Isabelle,” Sam called out, his voice carrying across the yard. “Mind if we chat for a minute before you two head out?”
Isabelle felt a flutter of nervousness in her stomach—the familiar sensation that preceded difficult conversations. She glanced at Bucky, who gave her hand a reassuring squeeze before nodding encouragingly.
“I’ll go grab our bags,” Bucky said quietly, his thumb brushing across her knuckles once more before he released her hand. His eyes held a silent message: You’ve got this.
“Sure, Wilson,” she replied, trying to keep her voice steady despite the sudden apprehension that tightened her chest.
Sam jerked his head towards the porch swing, and Isabelle followed him, the old wooden boards creaking beneath their feet like a language only old houses spoke. As they sat down, the chains of the swing groaned in protest, a metallic whine that matched the tension she felt building inside her. For a moment, they simply sat in companionable silence, watching as Bucky disappeared into the house. The rhythmic creaking of the swing filled the air, punctuated by the distant call of a mockingbird and the faint shouts of Cass and AJ playing somewhere beyond the trees.
Sam cleared his throat, breaking the silence. “You know,” he began, his voice gentle but firm, “there comes a point when you’ve got to stop running and face what’s waiting for you back home.”
Isabelle tensed, her fingers gripping the edge of the swing so tightly her knuckles turned white. The peeling paint felt rough beneath her fingertips, flaking away like all her carefully constructed excuses. Her first instinct was to deflect, to make some sarcastic comment about how she wasn’t running, just taking a strategic vacation.
“I’m not—” she started, then caught herself.
No. She’d promised herself she would try to be better about this—the automatic deflection, the walls she threw up whenever someone tried to reach her.
She took a deep breath, the scent of worn wood and faded paint filling her nostrils. “Actually, no. You’re right. I know,” she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. “I know, and... I don’t want to anymore.” She turned to face Sam, her eyes searching his. “It’s just... it’s hard, you know? Running is like my first instinct. Has been since I was a kid.”
Sam’s expression softened, a knowing smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. “Trust me, I get it. Spent enough time running myself.” He shifted slightly, the swing creaking beneath them. “But avoiding them isn’t going to make things any easier.” He paused, his gaze drifting to the yard where Cass and AJ were now chasing each other with water guns, their laughter carried on the breeze. “We’re family, you and I. You’re like a sister to me. But Isabelle—” he turned back to her, his eyes serious “—you should see your own family. Morgan. Pepper. Rhodes. Happy... they all care about you.”
The mention of her family sent a pang of guilt through Isabelle’s chest, sharp and twisting like a knife. She swallowed hard, her gaze dropping to her hands, which had begun to fidget with the frayed edge of Bucky’s hoodie sleeve.
“Last time I saw Morgan, she looked at me like I was a stranger,” Isabelle said, the words feeling like gravel in her throat. “And Pepper... God, Sam—” She blinked rapidly, trying to keep the tears at bay. “It’s just... weird, you know? After everything that’s happened...”
“It will be for a bit,” Sam agreed, his voice softening. He reached out, placing a comforting hand on her shoulder, the weight solid and grounding. “But that’s okay. One step at a time, right? You don’t have to solve everything in one visit.”
Isabelle nodded, the lump in her throat making it hard to speak. She took a shaky breath, the warm Louisiana air filling her lungs, carrying with it the scent of magnolias and the faint hint of the bayou.
“What if—” she started, then stopped, the fear too raw to fully articulate. She tried again. “What if they don’t want me there? What if I just make it worse for them?”
Sam’s eyes crinkled at the corners, a mix of sympathy and gentle exasperation. “You really think you’re not wanted by your own family?” He shook his head. “Iz, they’re hurting because you’re not there, not because you might be.”
The truth of his words settled over her like a blanket—uncomfortable at first, then gradually warming. She’d been so focused on her own pain, her own fear of rejection, that she hadn’t fully considered how her absence might be its own kind of hurt for the people who loved her.
“When did you get so wise, Wilson?” she asked, a small, watery smile breaking through despite herself.
Sam grinned, the familiar cocky tilt returning to his expression. “I’ve always been this wise. You just haven’t been paying attention.” He nudged her shoulder with his. “Seriously though, Iz. They’re your family. And yeah, it might be messy and complicated and hurt like hell sometimes, but...” He paused, his eyes growing distant for a moment. “After everything we’ve been through, don’t you think we owe it to ourselves to hold onto whatever family we’ve got left?”
The screen door creaked open behind them, and Isabelle turned to see Bucky stepping onto the porch, their duffel bags slung over his shoulder. His eyes immediately found hers, a silent question in them: You okay?
She gave him a small nod, then turned back to Sam. “I’ll try,” she said quietly. “I can’t promise it’ll be pretty, but... I’ll try.”
Sam squeezed her shoulder once more before standing up. “That’s all anyone can ask for.” He glanced at his watch. “Now, you two better get going if you want to make that flight. And remember—” his voice took on a mock-stern tone, the kind he used when he was trying to mask genuine concern “—I expect regular updates. None of this disappearing for months crap anymore. That goes for both you and Mr. Magoo over there.”
Isabelle couldn’t help but laugh. The tension in her chest loosened, making room for something warmer.
“I heard that, Sam,” Bucky called out, his voice carrying a new blend of exasperation and fondness. He stood at the bottom of the porch steps, duffel bags slung over his shoulder.
“You were supposed to,” Sam shot back, his grin widening as he crossed his arms. “Those super-soldier ears aren’t just for show.”
“Yeah, yeah,” Bucky muttered, but the corner of his mouth twitched upward.
Isabelle shook her head, watching this new, yet familiar dance of their friendship—all barbs on the surface, solid ground underneath. She pushed herself up from the swing, feeling the wood warm against her palms as she stood.
“Thanks, Sam,” she said quietly, meeting his eyes. “For everything.”
Sam nodded, understanding passing between them without need for elaboration. “Anytime, Iz. That’s what families are for.”
The word ‘family’ settled in her chest like a stone dropped in still water, ripples of emotion spreading outward. She swallowed hard and nodded back.
As she descended the weathered steps, the wood creaking beneath her feet, Sam called after her: “And tell Buck if he doesn’t take good care of you, I know where he sleeps now!”
“Bold of you to assume I need taking care of, Wilson,” she tossed back over her shoulder, falling into the familiar rhythm of their banter to mask the vulnerability still raw in her chest.
Sam’s laughter followed her down the path, warm and reassuring as the afternoon sun on her back.
Isabelle made her way to Bucky’s side, looking up at him with a smile that felt genuine, if a little tender around the edges. His hair was still slightly mussed from their earlier activities under the oak tree, a few strands falling across his forehead in a way that made her fingers itch to brush them back. She drank in the sight of him—the way his t-shirt stretched across his shoulders, how his muscles flexed as he adjusted the overnight bag, the softness in his eyes that appeared only when he looked at her.
His right hand found hers, their fingers intertwining with an ease that still surprised her sometimes.
“Ready to go home?” Bucky asked, his voice pitched low enough that only she could hear. The endearment rolled off his tongue with practiced affection, but his eyes searched her face with a deeper question: Are you really okay?
Isabelle nodded, reaching for her bag with her free hand. “Yeah,” she said, her voice steadier than she expected. She squeezed his hand gently, feeling the calluses on his palm against her skin. “Let’s go home.”
Two days after returning from Sam’s place, Isabelle found herself curled up on Bucky’s couch, her socked feet tucked beneath her. The apartment smelled like the pasta they’d had for dinner—garlic and basil lingering in the air. She’d arrived a few hours ago for their dinner plans, and after some gentle persuasion that involved batting her eyelashes and promising to make breakfast tomorrow, Bucky had reluctantly agreed to watch Mr. Magoo with her after binging the first two TMNT movies.
“This is ridiculous,” Bucky had grumbled when she’d first suggested it, but there was no real heat behind his words. Just the familiar, performative resistance that made teasing him so satisfying.
Now, the TV cast flickering blue light across the darkened living room. Bucky lounged beside her, his metal arm draped casually over the back of the couch, fingers occasionally brushing against her shoulder in a way that sent pleasant shivers down her spine. His legs were stretched out in front of him, crossed at the ankles on the coffee table—a habit she’d noticed he only indulged in when truly relaxed.
On screen, Mr. Magoo bumbled his way through another misadventure, completely oblivious to the chaos he left in his wake. A particularly clever joke pulled a rare chuckle from Bucky, the sound low and warm in the quiet room. The vibration of it traveled through the couch cushions, and Isabelle found herself smiling reflexively at the sound.
Bucky glanced over, expecting to see her usual reaction—that spark of satisfaction she got whenever she coaxed a laugh from him—but instead found her gaze distant, unfocused. Her smile had faded, replaced by the slight furrow between her brows that appeared whenever she was lost in thought.
“Everything okay, doll?” he asked, his voice gentle as he shifted slightly to face her better.
Isabelle blinked, slowly turning her attention away from the TV. She hummed softly, taking a moment to process his words. “Yeah, yeah, sorry,” she said, shaking her head slightly as if to clear away cobwebs. “Just thinking.”
Bucky leaned forward as he plucked the remote from the coffee table and paused the show. Mr. Magoo’s comical expression froze mid-sentence, his exaggerated features filling the screen. Settling back into the couch, Bucky turned to face her fully, one leg bent up onto the cushion between them.
“What’s on your mind?” he asked, his eyes catching the soft light from the paused TV.
Isabelle took a deep breath, her fingers absently playing with the hem of her shirt—one of Bucky’s old Henleys that she’d claimed for herself. The fabric was worn soft from countless washes, comforting against her skin. She could feel his eyes on her, patient and steady.
“I’m going to head up to the cabin for a day or two,” she said finally, her voice quiet but steady in the stillness of the apartment. “Visit Dad’s grave, spend some time with Pepper and Morgan.”
The words hung in the air between them, heavy with all they didn’t say. This wasn’t just a casual visit—it was a step toward confronting everything she’d been running from since the battle with Thanos. Since her father died saving the universe while she’d been helpless to stop it.
Bucky’s eyes softened, a complex emotion flickering across his face—pride, concern, and a touch of sadness all mingled together. His metal arm, still draped behind her, gave her shoulder a gentle squeeze. The cool vibranium was a familiar weight, grounding her in the moment.
“How are you feeling about it?” he asked, his voice low and soothing. No platitudes, no unnecessary reassurances—just the simple question that cut straight to the heart of what mattered.
Isabelle leaned into him, drawn to his solid presence like a magnet. She shrugged, the movement small and uncertain. “Nervous, I guess,” she admitted, watching the way her fingers twisted the fabric of her shirt. “Part of me keeps thinking I should wait longer, that I’m not ready yet.” She paused, swallowing past the tightness in her throat. “But another part knows I’ll never feel completely ready. And it feels right, you know? Like it’s time.”
She looked up at him then, searching his face for understanding. Bucky had known loss—had known what it was to face ghosts that never quite stopped haunting you.
“I’m proud of you,” he said, his voice carrying a weight that made the simple words feel profound. He wrapped his arm fully around her shoulders, pulling her closer until she was tucked against his side. “Really proud.”
The sincerity in his voice made something catch in her chest. She sent him a smile—small but genuine—and cuddled closer, wrapping an arm around his torso. His heartbeat was steady under her ear, a rhythmic reminder that she wasn’t alone anymore.
They sat in companionable silence for a moment, the paused TV casting a soft glow over them. Bucky’s thumb traced absent patterns on her shoulder, each touch a small reassurance. She could feel the slight tension building in him, though. His breathing changed, just barely—a fraction deeper, a touch more deliberate. Something was weighing on him.
“Actually,” he said finally, his voice low in the quiet apartment, “I’ve been thinking too.”
“Oh?” she prompted, shifting to face him better. Her knee bumped against his thigh as she tucked one leg underneath herself.
Bucky’s metal fingers flexed against the back of the couch, the plates recalibrating with a soft whir that had become one of her favorite sounds.
“Yeah,” he said, his jaw setting with that quiet determination she’d seen before missions, before fights—the look of a man steeling himself for impact. “I’m going to go see Yori.” He paused, swallowing visibly, the movement of his throat catching the blue light. “Tell him... tell him about his son.”
The weight of those words hung between them, heavy with all they implied. Isabelle felt her breath catch. Yori Nakajima—the old man whose son had been one of the Winter Soldier’s targets. The name on Bucky’s list. The guilt he carried like a physical weight.
“Bucky,” she breathed, her voice barely above a whisper. She reached for his hand, her fingers sliding between his. “That’s... wow.” She searched his face, looking for any sign of doubt, of hesitation. “Are you sure you’re ready?”
He met her gaze steadily, something resolute settling in his expression—like tectonic plates shifting into place. “As ready as I’ll ever be.” His thumb brushed over her knuckles, a gentle back-and-forth that seemed to ground him. “Like you said, it feels like the timing is right.”
The parallel wasn’t lost on her—both of them finally turning to face the ghosts they’d been running from.
Without thinking, Isabelle shifted forward, wrapping her arms around him in a tight embrace. She pressed her face into the crook of his neck. His arms came around her immediately, one warm and one cool, both equally gentle as they pulled her closer.
“I’m so proud of you, too, James,” she murmured against his skin, feeling the steady pulse of his heartbeat against her cheek. She meant it—with every fiber of her being, she meant it. She knew what this cost him, what it took to face the consequences of actions that weren’t truly his own.
Bucky’s chest expanded with a deep breath, then rumbled with a low chuckle that she felt more than heard. His hand came up to cradle the back of her head, fingers threading through her hair with careful tenderness.
“Look at us, huh?” he said, his voice taking on that hint of Brooklyn that slipped through when his guard was down. The sound of it made something warm unfurl in her chest—a privilege to hear this echo of who he’d been before the world broke him apart and put him back together wrong. “A couple of brave idiots.”
Isabelle laughed, the sound muffled against his shoulder. The tension in the room dissipated like morning mist, replaced by something lighter, something that felt dangerously close to hope.
“The bravest,” she agreed, pulling back just enough to meet his eyes. Her lips curved into a smile that felt genuine despite the weight of their conversation. “Facing our demons head-on. What could possibly go wrong?”
Bucky snorted, his eyes crinkling at the corners in that way that made him look younger, unburdened. “Don’t jinx it, doll.”
As they separated, Isabelle’s expression grew serious once more. She kept hold of his hand, her thumb tracing the lines of his palm—battle scars and life lines and the map of a century lived hard. “Hey,” she said, her voice soft but firm. “You know you can call me if you need anything, right? Even if I’m up at the cabin.” She squeezed his hand for emphasis. “Day or night. I mean it.”
“I know,” Bucky said, his eyes softening as they met hers. Something passed between them—an understanding that went beyond words, beyond the physical space they shared. “Same goes for you.” His free hand came up to cup her cheek, the pad of his thumb brushing across her cheekbone with a gentleness that still surprised her. “Anytime.”
Isabelle leaned into his touch, allowing herself to savor the warmth of his palm against her face. She glanced at the TV screen where Mr. Magoo remained frozen mid-gesture, his cartoonish face stretched in exaggerated surprise.
“We... we don’t have to finish this,” she said, a small smile playing at the corners of her mouth. She reached for the remote and clicked the power button, plunging the room into a softer darkness, illuminated only by the fading evening light filtering through the blinds.
“Hmm?” Bucky raised an eyebrow, a playful glint replacing the earlier solemnity in his eyes. “Well, what else did you have in mind?”
The shift in his tone sent a pleasant warmth spreading through her chest. This was the side of Bucky that few people got to see—the teasing, almost mischievous glimpses—the man who was slowly finding his way back to himself.
Isabelle shifted closer, her knee brushing against his thigh as she ran a finger down his chest. The cotton of his shirt was soft beneath her touch, but she could feel the solid muscle underneath, the steady rise and fall of his breathing. Her touch left a trail of warmth even through the fabric, and she felt a small thrill of satisfaction when his breath hitched slightly.
“I think you can guess...” she murmured, her voice dropping to that husky register that she knew drove him crazy. Her eyes met his, dark and intent in the dim light of the apartment. The air between them seemed to thicken, charged with anticipation.
Bucky’s pupils dilated, the blue of his irises almost swallowed by black. He groaned, a low, hungry sound that vibrated through his chest and sent a shiver racing down Isabelle’s spine. His metal hand tightened slightly at her waist. “You’re trouble, you know that?” he murmured.
“So I’ve been told,” she replied, her lips curving into a smirk that didn’t quite hide the affection warming her eyes.
In one fluid motion that showcased every bit of his enhanced strength, Bucky stood and scooped her up into his arms, cradling her against his chest as if she weighed nothing. Isabelle let out a surprised laugh that quickly melted into something warmer as his arms tightened around her. She wrapped her arms around his neck, fingers threading through the soft hair at his nape.
“Well, doll,” Bucky said, his voice dropping to that low, gravelly register that never failed to make her stomach flip pleasantly. He started toward the bedroom. His eyes never left hers, intense and full of promise. “I think I like your idea better than Mr. Magoo.”
Isabelle’s laugh was breathless as she pressed her forehead against his. “I should hope so,” she whispered against his lips, close enough to feel the warmth of his breath mingling with hers. “Otherwise, we might need to have a serious conversation about your priorities.”
Bucky’s answering chuckle rumbled through his chest, vibrating against her ribs where they were pressed together. “My priorities are exactly where they should be,” he murmured, kicking the bedroom door shut behind them with his foot.
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It’s been six months, but grief doesn’t care about calendars—and Isabelle Stark has run out of ways to outrun the ache.
One grave.
One confession.
One moment that might finally break her open.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 79: All the Things I Wasn’t Brave Enough to Say
Chapter 79: All the Things I Wasn’t Brave Enough to Say
Summary:
Six months away.
Six months of avoiding the cabin, the lake, and the little sister who might not even remember her.But when Isabelle steps onto the lawn, bubble wand in Morgan’s hand and Pepper’s voice on the porch, she realizes some bridges aren’t gone—they’re just waiting to be rebuilt.
And maybe, if she’s lucky, this time she won’t run.
Notes:
Welp… grab your tissues, my dudes. 😅 These chapters were heavy ones to write, but honestly, some of my favorites. I’m so proud of how they turned out, and I hope they’re worth the wait for you all. Thank you, as always, for the endless love and support. 💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Sunday" by The Cranberries
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Chapter Text
The warm summer breeze stirred the tall grass as Isabelle eased the car to a stop at the edge of the field. Her fingers clenched the steering wheel until her knuckles went white, the metal beneath her palms warming with the residual energy she couldn’t quite contain. A faint green glow pulsed between her fingers, then faded—her powers responding to the anxiety churning in her gut. Six months. Six goddamn months she’d stayed away.
“Get it together, Stark,” she muttered, the words hanging in the empty car like a challenge.
She killed the engine but didn’t move. Through the windshield, the lake glimmered in the distance—that perfect, peaceful blue that had always seemed too good to be true. The kind of place normal people retired to. Not the kind of place where heroes were buried. Not the kind of place where her father should be.
The bouquet of sunflowers sat like a quiet accusation in the passenger seat. She’d spent twenty minutes in the shop, paralyzed between choices, before settling on them. The florist had asked if they were for someone special. Isabelle hadn’t known how to answer. They were too bright, too cheerful. Too much like him. The yellow petals almost seemed to mock her grief, their faces turned toward the sun while hers remained firmly fixed on the ground.
A bead of sweat trickled down her temple. The car was becoming stifling, but she couldn’t bring herself to open the door. Opening the door meant walking across that field. Walking across that field meant facing the small stone marker by the lake. Facing the marker meant—
Her phone buzzed. Bucky’s name flashed on the screen, accompanied by the photo she’d taken of him scowling at a pigeon in Central Park. The sight of it loosened something in her chest.
You make it?
Her thumbs hovered over the screen before typing: Yeah.
Three dots appeared, disappeared, then reappeared. You okay?
Isabelle stared at the question. What a fucking concept. Was she okay? She hadn’t been okay since she’d watched her father snap his fingers and save the universe. Since she’d felt his pain rip through her own body, a phantom echo of his sacrifice. Since she’d stood at this same lake, wearing black, unable to cry.
She started typing I’ll call you after, then deleted it. Bucky deserved better than her deflections.
Not really, she typed instead. But I will be. Thanks for checking in. She hesitated, then added: It helps.
His response came quickly: I’m here. Whatever you need.
Three simple words that somehow made the air in the car a little easier to breathe. She set the phone on the dashboard and finally forced herself to move. The car door creaked—a sound that would have driven her father crazy. He’d have been out here with a can of WD-40 before she could blink, muttering about proper maintenance and how no daughter of his was going to drive around in a car that sounded like “a haunted house prop from the 1950s.”
Isabelle snatched the flowers from the seat with trembling hands, the sunflowers bobbing accusingly with each jerky movement. Her boots crunched against the gravel as she stepped out, each footfall sounding impossibly loud in the quiet morning.
She stood frozen beside the car, the bouquet clutched against her chest like armor. The lake stretched before her, that perfect, unforgiving blue. She took a deep breath that didn’t quite fill her lungs.
“Okay, Dad,” she whispered, closing the car door behind her with a soft click. “Let’s talk.”
The walk to the grave felt like miles. Each step dragged at her, as if the earth itself were trying to hold her back. Or maybe it was just her own cowardice. The flowers trembled in her grip, yellow petals quivering like they could sense her distress. A faint green glow pulsed between her fingers before she forced it back down, swallowing hard against the surge of power.
The headstone appeared ahead, nestled near a cluster of birch trees that cast dappled shadows across the ground. Simple. Elegant. So unlike the man it represented. Isabelle slowed as she approached, her heart hammering against her ribs with such force she thought it might crack them.
ANTHONY EDWARD STARK.
His name carved into stone like a final word—a period at the end of a sentence that had come too soon. No “Beloved Father” or “Hero” or any of the platitudes people usually carved into these things. Just his name. As if that could possibly contain all that he had been.
Isabelle’s knees gave out before she made the conscious decision to kneel. The damp earth immediately soaked through her jeans, morning dew seeping cold against her skin. She barely noticed. With mechanical precision that belied the chaos churning inside her, she set the flowers down at the base of the stone, arranging them with trembling fingers until they sat just right.
Her fingertips traced the letters of his name, cool stone beneath her skin. The marble was smooth, perfect, unblemished. Nothing like the broken, burned body she’d last seen. Nothing like the man who’d filled every room with his presence, who’d never known how to be still or quiet or small.
“Hi,” she breathed, her voice already breaking on that single syllable. “It’s me.”
A blue jay called somewhere in the trees, harsh and jarring. The wind picked up, sending ripples across the lake’s surface and rustling through the sunflowers. The world kept spinning, indifferent to her pain. She hated it for that. Hated how everything just... continued.
“I should’ve come sooner. I know that.” The words scraped her throat raw as they emerged. “I just—I couldn’t.”
She stared at the stone, half-expecting it to answer. The silence stretched, broken only by the distant lapping of water against the shore.
“I kept thinking I could handle it, that if I stayed moving, stayed gone, I wouldn’t have to...” Her breath hitched, catching on the jagged edges of her grief. “Wouldn’t have to admit you’re really never coming back.”
Tears blurred her vision, hot and unwelcome. She blinked them back furiously, jaw clenching so tight her teeth ached. Crying felt like surrender, like admitting this was real. And some stubborn part of her still refused to accept it—the part that kept expecting him to call, to text, to show up at her door with that crooked smile and some ridiculous peace offering.
She pressed her palms flat against the earth, feeling the dirt beneath her fingers, the tiny stones and blades of grass. Grounding herself as the anger rose like bile in her throat, bitter and burning.
“You left us,” she said, voice dropping to a harsh whisper. “You left me.” The accusation hung in the air between them, the words she’d been holding back for six months finally breaking free. Her voice cracked, the anger giving way to something more vulnerable, more broken. “And I don’t know how to do this without you.”
The admission cost her. She felt it tear loose from somewhere deep inside, leaving a raw, bleeding space behind. Her shoulders hunched forward as if to protect that new wound.
“Everyone keeps saying how brave you were. How selfless.” She laughed, a hollow sound that held no humor. “But all I can think is how goddamn selfish it was. You knew what would happen. You knew what it would do to you.”
Her fingers curled into the dirt, nails digging into the soft earth.
“Was it worth it?” she asked, voice barely audible now. “Leaving Morgan without a father? Leaving Pepper? Leaving...” She swallowed hard. “Leaving me?”
The question hung unanswered as a tear finally escaped, trailing hot down her cheek. She didn’t brush it away. Let it fall. Let it mark the earth where her father lay. One tear for six months of bottled grief.
“I feel like I’m drowning,” she confessed, the words tumbling out now that the dam had broken. “Every day, I wake up and for just a second, I forget. And then it hits me all over again, and it’s like—” She pressed a fist against her sternum, where the phantom echo of his pain still lingered. “It’s like I can’t breathe.”
The green glow returned to her hands, pulsing in time with her heartbeat. She watched it spread across her skin, veins illuminated from within. Her powers responding to her distress, feeding off it, growing stronger with each wave of emotion.
“I’m losing control,” she whispered, staring at her glowing hands with a mixture of fear and resignation. “The things inside me—the things Mom put there—they’re getting stronger. And I don’t know if I can stop them anymore.”
The admission hung between them, the first time she’d voiced that fear aloud. Not to Sam, not to Bucky, not to anyone who might try to help. Only here, to a stone that couldn’t answer, to a father who couldn’t save her.
“You were supposed to help me figure this out,” she said, voice breaking again. “You promised you would. You promised—”
The accusation died on her lips. She bit down hard enough to taste copper, the familiar metallic tang coating her tongue. Her anger surged hot and bright, then collapsed in on itself like a dying star. This wasn’t fair. None of this was his fault.
It was hers.
Isabelle dragged her palm across the headstone, feeling each engraved letter of his name beneath her fingertips. The stone remained cool despite the summer heat, unyielding against her touch. Just like the truth she couldn’t escape.
“I screwed up, Dad,” she whispered, the confession barely audible even to her own ears. “I screwed up so badly.”
She sucked in a ragged breath that caught halfway down her throat. The sunflowers bobbed gently in the breeze, their bright faces an obscene contrast to the darkness swirling inside her.
“I let Valentina drug me.” The words fell like stones, heavy and irretrievable. “I let myself trust the wrong people again.” Her fist clenched involuntarily, nails biting crescents into her palm as the green light pulsed brighter, casting eerie shadows across the marble. “They used me, Dad. Just like Hydra. Just like Mom.”
The admission tasted bitter, like copper and ash and failure. Her stomach clenched with the memory of the needle sliding into her arm, the smile on Val’s face as the plunger pushed down. The false sympathy. The calculated betrayal.
“I thought I was done being someone’s experiment,” she continued, voice dropping to a harsh whisper. “And I walked straight into another goddamn lab. Another needle. Another—”
She choked on the word, the memory of restraints and cold metal tables flooding back with such visceral clarity that for a moment, she was fifteen years old again, strapped down and crying. The phantom sensation of leather cuffs around her wrists made her skin crawl. Her breath came faster, shallower.
“I can still feel it,” she said, pressing her palm against her forearm where the injection site had long since healed. “Whatever she put in me. It’s like... like it’s crawling under my skin. Changing things.”
Isabelle dropped her forehead against the cool stone. Her shoulders shook with the force of containing sobs that threatened to tear her apart from the inside. When they finally broke free, the sound echoed across the lake—raw and animal and wounded.
“I used to think I was stronger than this,” she whispered once the worst of it had passed, her voice hoarse. “That I’d learned my lesson after Mom. After Pierce. That I wouldn’t be fooled again.”
She lifted her hand, watching the green energy dance between her fingers, crackling with potential. With every passing day, the power grew stronger, harder to contain. Harder to hide. The green glow pulsed brighter, matching the rhythm of her heartbeat.
“It’s getting worse,” she said, flexing her fingers as the energy coiled around them like living smoke. “Whatever she did to me, it’s amplifying everything. The powers. The hunger.” She swallowed hard. “The rage.”
She thought of John Walker, of the look on his face in that warehouse—eyes wide with terror, mouth open in a silent scream as she’d reached inside his mind and pulled out his worst fears. As she’d made them real. She’d felt his fear, his fury, his desperation—and underneath it all, a terrible satisfaction that had resonated with something dark inside her.
She curled her fingers into a fist, watching the green light seep through the cracks.
“I’m scared, Dad.” The admission felt like surrender, like failure. Her voice cracked on his title, the word feeling both too big and too small for all it contained. “I’m scared of what’s happening to me. Of what I might do.” She paused, throat working. “Of who I might become.”
“Sometimes I think—” She stopped, the confession too terrible to voice even here, to a man who couldn’t hear her. But the truth demanded to be spoken. She owed him that much. “Sometimes I think I’m turning into her,” Isabelle whispered, the words falling like ashes from her lips. “Into what she wanted me to be.”
A weapon. A monster. A sickness given form.
The energy around her hands flared brighter, responding to the spike of fear and self-loathing. She watched it crawl up her wrists, tendrils of sickly green light tracing the blue veins beneath her skin. It was beautiful in its way—hypnotic, seductive. Power that could reshape reality with a thought. Power that could hurt. Power that could kill.
“The worst part is,” she said, voice dropping even lower, “sometimes it feels good. When I let go. When I stop fighting it.” Her fingers trembled with the effort of containing the energy that wanted to burst free. “It feels right.”
She’d never said it aloud before—not to Sam, not to Bucky, not even to herself in the darkest hours of the night. But here, with only the dead to hear her, the truth spilled out like blood from a wound.
“What if this is who I really am?” she asked, the question barely a breath. “What if everything else—the control, the restraint, the goodness—what if that’s the lie?”
The thought had been circling her mind for weeks now, a vulture waiting for her to collapse. Here, before her father’s grave, it finally found voice.
Isabelle uncurled her fingers, watching the green energy pool in her palms like toxic water. It cast sickly shadows across the headstone, turning the engraved letters of her father’s name into something alien and wrong. The power hummed beneath her skin, a living thing with its own hunger, its own desires.
“You always told me we get to choose who we are,” she whispered, throat raw from crying. “But what if that’s not true for me? What if Mom made sure of that when she put this thing inside me?”
The energy pulsed brighter in response to her fear, feeding off it. She could feel it spreading through her veins like poison, crawling up her arms, seeping into her chest. With each heartbeat, the glow intensified, casting her shadow long and distorted across the grass.
“Val knew exactly what buttons to push.” Her voice cracked.
The grass beneath her knees began to wither, browning at the edges where her power leaked into the earth. A small beetle crawling near her leg suddenly convulsed, its tiny body contorting before going still. Isabelle flinched, curling her fingers back into fists.
“I need you to tell me I’m wrong,” she pleaded, pressing her palm against the cold stone. “I need you to look me in the eyes and tell me I’m still your daughter. That I’m still worth saving.”
The silence stretched, broken only by the gentle lapping of water against the shore and the distant call of birds. No answer came. No reassurance. Just the hollow echo of her own doubts.
She drew in a long, shuddering breath that hitched halfway through, her lungs feeling too small for the grief expanding inside her chest. The energy crackling from her fingertips began to dim, leaving her hollow and spent.
“I don’t know what happens next,” she admitted, the words catching in her throat. “But I want it to be different. I want to stop running.” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “And I want—” The words lodged in her throat, too big, too raw to push past her lips. She swallowed hard, forcing them out. “I want you to know I loved you. I still do. So much it hurts to breathe sometimes.”
She leaned forward and pressed her forehead against the cold stone. Her voice dropped to a whisper, as if sharing a secret only the dead could keep.
“I’ll take care of her. Morgan. I swear it.” The promise felt heavy, sacred. “She won’t grow up wondering if she matters. She won’t doubt she’s loved. Not like—”
She couldn’t finish the thought. Didn’t need to. The truth of it sat between them, unspoken but understood. Morgan wouldn’t grow up the way Isabelle had—always wondering if she was enough.
The green glow around her hands had faded to almost nothing now, just the faintest shimmer beneath her skin. She felt drained, hollowed out, as if she’d left some vital part of herself here in the dirt with him.
“I miss you,” she whispered, the simplest truth of all. “Every day. Every minute.”
She traced the letters of his name one last time, committing the feel of them to memory. Then, slowly, she pushed herself to her feet. Her legs trembled, numb from kneeling so long. She stood unsteady before the grave, the sunflowers bright against the stone.
Isabelle took one last look at the headstone, at the small piece of earth that held what remained of Tony Stark. The man who had saved the universe. The man who had believed she could be more than what she was made to be.
“I don’t know if I can be the person you thought I was,” she said softly. “But I’m going to try.”
She turned away, each step an effort, each breath a conscious choice. Behind her, the lake stretched blue and endless, reflecting a sky too bright, too vast for the smallness she felt inside. Ahead lay the car, the road, the world that kept spinning despite everything.
And somewhere in between—somewhere in the space between who she had been and who she might become—was the truth of who she was now. Broken. Afraid. But still standing.
Still her father’s daughter.
Isabelle followed the winding gravel path that led to the cabin, each step crunching beneath her boots like tiny fractures in glass. Her legs felt heavier with each step, as if the earth itself were trying to pull her back.
The familiar knot of anxiety tightened in her chest as the cabin came into view. It looked exactly the same—the warm cedar siding, the wide porch with its twin rocking chairs, the garden Pepper had started. Like the world hadn't ended and begun again since she'd last been here.
A flash of movement caught her eye. A small figure darted across the lush green lawn, wielding what looked like a plastic wand that left iridescent bubbles trailing in its wake.
Morgan.
Isabelle stopped dead, the sound of shifting gravel suddenly deafening in her ears. Her throat constricted, a vice grip of guilt and something else—fear, maybe. The kind that came with facing something irreparably damaged.
Morgan froze mid-sprint, the bubble wand dangling forgotten from her small hand. Her eyes—Tony's eyes—widened as she spotted Isabelle, her expression a perfect blank slate of childhood uncertainty.
For one excruciating moment, neither moved nor spoke. The bubbles floated between them, catching the light before bursting into nothing.
Jesus, Isabelle thought, panic rising like bile. Does she even remember who I am? Morgan had been shy the last time Isabelle saw her, clinging to Pepper's leg, watching Isabelle with that same wary expression she wore now.
Or worse—maybe Morgan remembered her perfectly. Remembered the stranger who'd shown up claiming to be her sister, who'd barely spoken three words to her before disappearing. The thought sent a sharp pain through Isabelle's chest, like someone had slipped a blade between her ribs.
"Hey, Morgan," Isabelle called out, forcing a smile that felt brittle enough to shatter. Her voice sounded wrong—too high, too bright, a poor imitation of someone who knew how to talk to children.
Morgan's face scrunched up, her brow furrowing in an expression so reminiscent of Tony that Isabelle had to look away for a second. The little girl shifted her weight from one foot to the other, clearly torn between curiosity and retreat. Her light-up sneakers flashed with each nervous shuffle.
"Hi," Morgan finally mumbled, the word barely audible across the distance between them. She scuffed one sneaker against the grass, leaving a small divot, her gaze fixed firmly on the ground.
Isabelle took a tentative step forward, her hands automatically finding the hem of her shirt, fingers working the fabric in a nervous rhythm. The silence stretched, awkward and suffocating.
"What've you got there?" she asked, nodding toward the object clutched in Morgan's small hands. The question felt pathetically inadequate. She'd spent six months avoiding this moment, and now she couldn't think of a single meaningful thing to say to her sister.
Morgan lifted the toy slightly, her grip tightening as if Isabelle might try to take it from her. "Bubble maker," she said, her voice soft and uncertain. She glanced toward the cabin, then back at Isabelle, clearly gauging the distance to safety.
"That's pretty cool," Isabelle said, trying to inject warmth into her voice. Her palms felt clammy, and she resisted the urge to wipe them on her jeans. "Maybe you can show me how it works later?" The words came out stilted, each one carefully placed like she was navigating a minefield.
Something flickered across Morgan's face—a brief spark of interest, maybe even excitement. For a heartbeat, Isabelle could see it: the possibility of connection, fragile as spider silk.
But before Morgan could respond, the cabin door swung open with a creak that echoed across the lawn.
Pepper stepped out onto the porch, silhouetted against the warm glow spilling from inside. Her hair was pulled back in a messy ponytail, and she was wiping her hands on a dish towel, the picture of domestic normalcy that made Isabelle's chest ache with something like envy.
"Morgan, who are you talking to—" Pepper began, then her eyes landed on Isabelle. Her hands stilled on the towel. "Isabelle!" The name came out like a gasp, a mixture of surprise and something warmer that Isabelle couldn't quite name—something she wasn't sure she deserved.
Isabelle shrugged, suddenly hyperaware of her dirty jeans, her messy hair, the dark circles she knew shadowed her eyes. Standing there on the pristine lawn, she felt like a stain. "Yeah, I, uh... yeah," she stammered, her eyes darting to the path behind her, calculating how quickly she could make it back to her car. "I can leave if—"
"No, no!" Pepper cut her off quickly, almost dropping the dish towel in her haste. She took a step forward, then another, her movements purposeful but careful, like she was approaching a wounded animal. "You're always welcome here, sweetheart. This is your home too. Always."
Home.
Pepper crossed the lawn with quick strides, closing the distance between them. Before Isabelle could react, Pepper had pulled her into a tight hug, enveloping her in the familiar scent of vanilla and lavender.
"We've missed you," Pepper whispered against her hair, her voice thick with emotion.
Isabelle stood frozen, arms hanging awkwardly at her sides. Over Pepper's shoulder, she could see Morgan watching them, the bubble wand clutched against her chest like a shield. The little girl's expression was unreadable, a perfect mirror of the blank mask Isabelle had perfected years ago.
Slowly, hesitantly, Isabelle brought her arms up to return Pepper's embrace. Something tight and painful in her chest began to unravel, just a fraction.
"I'm sorry," she murmured, the words inadequate for everything they needed to cover. Sorry for staying away. Sorry for not calling. Sorry for being a ghost in their life.
Pepper pulled back, her hands still gripping Isabelle's shoulders. Her eyes were bright with unshed tears, but her smile was steady. "You're here now," she said simply. "That's what matters."
The forgiveness in Pepper's voice made Isabelle's throat tighten. She didn't deserve this kindness. "I should have come sooner," she admitted, her gaze dropping to the ground. "I just—"
"I know," Pepper said softly, saving her from having to explain. "Grief isn't linear, Isabelle. We all handle it differently."
Morgan shifted her weight from one foot to the other, the light-up sneakers flashing with each movement. Isabelle felt a stab of guilt. She was a stranger to her own sister.
"Morgan," Pepper said, turning toward the little girl with a gentle smile, "why don't you show Isabelle that new treehouse Uncle Happy helped you build? While I finish up dinner."
Morgan's eyes widened slightly. She glanced between her mother and Isabelle, clearly uncertain. "But..." she started, her voice small, "it's supposed to be a secret base."
"I'm pretty sure Isabelle can keep a secret," Pepper said, her tone light but encouraging. "Can't you, Iz?"
Isabelle nodded quickly, forcing her lips into what she hoped was a reassuring smile. "Absolutely. Secret keeper extraordinaire. That's me."
Morgan didn't look convinced. She scuffed one sneaker against the grass, creating another small divot. "But what if she doesn't like it?" she whispered, just loud enough for both of them to hear.
This wasn't just about a treehouse—this was about Morgan protecting herself from rejection. From Isabelle's rejection.
Isabelle crouched down, bringing herself to Morgan's eye level. The movement made her knees protest—still sore from kneeling at the grave—but she ignored the discomfort.
"Hey," she said softly, "I already know I'm going to love it. Because you helped build it, and that makes it special."
Morgan studied her face with an intensity that reminded Isabelle painfully of Tony. Those same dark eyes that missed nothing, that saw straight through bullshit.
"Uncle Happy smashed his thumb with the hammer," Morgan finally offered, a tentative olive branch. "He said a bad word. Three times."
Isabelle felt her smile turn genuine. "Only three? He's getting better."
The corner of Morgan's mouth twitched upward, almost a smile but not quite there. She glanced at Pepper, who nodded encouragingly.
"Okay," Morgan decided, her voice still soft but a touch more confident. "You can see it. But you have to know the password."
"There's a password?" Isabelle asked, feeling a strange mix of relief and anxiety. She'd passed the first test, but there were clearly more to come.
Morgan nodded solemnly. "It's secret."
"Of course it is," Isabelle agreed, equally serious. "That's what makes it a good password."
"I'll go check on dinner," Pepper said, giving Isabelle's shoulder one last squeeze before heading back toward the cabin. "Take your time, girls."
Morgan waited until Pepper had disappeared inside before taking a step toward Isabelle. She didn't offer her hand, but she did gesture with her head toward the sturdy oak at the edge of the property.
"It's this way," she said, her voice careful, measured. "You have to be quiet or the bad guys might hear us."
Isabelle rose to her feet, ignoring the twinge in her knees. "What bad guys are we avoiding?" she asked, matching Morgan's hushed tone as they began walking across the lawn.
Morgan gave her a look that suggested the answer should be obvious. "The aliens, duh. And sometimes pirates."
"Right. Sorry," Isabelle said quickly. "Aliens and pirates. Got it."
They walked in silence for a few moments, the only sounds their footsteps in the grass and the distant lapping of the lake against the shore. Isabelle searched desperately for something to say, something that wouldn't sound forced or awkward.
As they approached the tree, Isabelle's gaze traveled upward, taking in the sturdy wooden structure nestled among the branches. It was impressive—a proper treehouse with a small covered porch, windows with actual glass, and what looked like solar-powered fairy lights strung along the railing. The kind of hideaway she'd dreamed about as a kid, sketching elaborate designs in notebooks that gathered dust under her bed—
No. Don't do that.
She forced the thought away, digging her fingernails into her palm until the sharp pain cleared her head. Morgan wasn't her replacement. Morgan was just a little girl who'd lost her father. A little girl who was half-sister to a stranger who'd shown up at the funeral and then disappeared.
"The password," Morgan announced, stopping at the base of the ladder, "is 'cheeseburger.'" She whispered it with the gravity of someone sharing nuclear launch codes.
Isabelle's breath caught.
"That's..." Isabelle's voice cracked. She cleared her throat and tried again. "That's a really good password."
Morgan studied her face, those dark eyes missing nothing. "Daddy liked cheeseburgers," she said, her voice small but matter-of-fact.
"Yeah," Isabelle managed, the single word scraping her throat raw. "He did."
A memory surfaced—Tony, grease-stained and exhausted after three days in the lab at the tower, appearing in her doorway with a white paper bag. "Brain food," he'd announced, tossing her a wrapped burger. "Can't solve quantum physics on an empty stomach, kid." It had been the first time they'd spoken in weeks after a particularly vicious fight, after a HYDRA raid gone bad.
Morgan was still watching her, head tilted slightly. Something in Isabelle's expression must have shifted, because the little girl's face softened.
"Race you to the top?" Morgan challenged suddenly, a mischievous glint appearing in her eye that was pure Tony.
The abrupt change startled a laugh from Isabelle. "Oh, you're on, squirt," she said, reaching for the first rung of the ladder.
Morgan scrambled up with the practiced ease of someone who'd made this climb a hundred times. Isabelle followed more carefully, mindful of the weight difference. The wood was smooth beneath her hands, sanded down to prevent splinters.
"I win!" Morgan crowed from the platform above, her face appearing in the entrance hatch. The victory had loosened something in her—her smile was wider now, less guarded.
"Only because I let you," Isabelle countered, hauling herself through the hatch. The interior was larger than it looked from below, with enough headroom for her to sit comfortably. Colorful cushions lined one wall, and a small bookshelf filled with picture books occupied another. A plastic treasure chest overflowed with toys in one corner.
"Uncle Happy said it's 'structurally sound,'" Morgan announced proudly, mimicking Happy's gruff tone with surprising accuracy. She carefully placed her bubble maker into a colorful toybox tucked in the corner. "Whatever that means."
Isabelle chuckled, picturing Happy fussing over every detail. "I bet he triple-checked every nail, huh?"
"And then Mommy made him check again!" Morgan rolled her eyes dramatically, her whole body involved in the gesture. "She worries a lot."
Of course, Pepper worried. She'd already lost a husband; the thought of anything happening to Morgan must be unbearable.
"Moms do that," Isabelle said softly, settling cross-legged on the wooden floor. She ran her hand over the smooth surface, noting the careful craftsmanship. "They worry because they love you."
Morgan nodded sagely, as if imparting great wisdom. "That's what Daddy used to say, too." She plopped down opposite Isabelle, crossing her legs to mirror her position. "Do you want to see my secret stuff?"
"Secret stuff? Absolutely."
Morgan's face lit up. She scrambled over to the treasure chest and dug through it, finally extracting a small metal lunchbox with the Iron Man faceplate on it. The paint was chipped at the corners, the metal dented in places—not a new purchase, then. Something older. Something of Tony's.
"This is where I keep the important things," Morgan explained, settling back down. She placed the lunchbox between them with reverent care. "Mommy doesn't even know about some of them."
Isabelle felt a strange mix of honor and terror at being included in this confidence. "That's... that's a big deal, Morgan. You sure you want to show me?"
Morgan's brow furrowed in that painfully familiar way. "You're my sister," she said simply, as if that explained everything. "Daddy said sisters share secrets."
He had? When? The questions burned on Isabelle's tongue, but she swallowed them back. Now wasn't the time.
Morgan unlatched the box and lifted the lid. Inside was a collection of childhood treasures: a smooth purple stone, a handful of acorns, a slightly squashed feather, and—Isabelle's heart lurched—a small screwdriver with a red handle.
"That was Dad's," she said softly, nodding toward the screwdriver.
Morgan nodded, picking it up with careful fingers. "He let me help fix things sometimes." She turned the tool over in her small hands. "Mommy says I'm good at fixing things, just like him."
Isabelle's chest tightened. She'd been good at breaking things, mostly. Breaking rules, breaking expectations. "What else you got in there?" she asked, desperate to change the direction of her thoughts.
Morgan dug deeper, pulling out a folded piece of paper. "This is my family," she said, unfolding it to reveal a crayon drawing. "See? That's Mommy, and that's me, and that's Daddy up in the sky." She pointed to each figure in turn—a tall stick figure with orange hair, a small one with pigtails, and a red and gold blob floating among blue scribbles.
"It's beautiful," Isabelle said, meaning it. The drawing was exactly what you'd expect from a four-year-old, but the care in each stroke was evident.
Morgan studied the drawing, then looked up at Isabelle with those penetrating eyes. "I could add you," she offered, her voice serious. "If you want."
The simple offer knocked the air from Isabelle's lungs. She opened her mouth, closed it, tried again. "I'd... I'd like that, Morgan. A lot."
Morgan nodded, satisfied, and carefully refolded the drawing. "I'll do it later. I need my special crayons." She placed it back in the lunchbox, then hesitated, glancing up at Isabelle. "You were gone for a long time," she asked, her voice small.
The question, so direct and innocent, made Isabelle struggle to find an answer that wouldn't sound like the abandonment it had been. "I've been..." She faltered, then tried again. "I've been away, doing some…work." It wasn't entirely a lie, but it wasn't the whole truth either.
Morgan's eyes narrowed slightly. "Superhero work? Like Daddy?"
Isabelle winced. "Yeah, kind of like Dad." The comparison felt blasphemous somehow. Tony had saved the universe. She'd been losing control of her powers and making everything worse.
Morgan scooted closer, her small hand reaching out to touch Isabelle's arm. The contact was feather-light, tentative. "I missed you," she said simply.
Three words. Just three small words, and they cracked something open inside Isabelle's chest—something raw and painful that she'd been keeping sealed away. "I missed you too," she whispered, surprised to find it was true. She'd missed the idea of Morgan, the possibility of her, even while she'd been running from the reality.
Morgan's face brightened. "Will I have powers one day?" she asked, the subject change giving Isabelle emotional whiplash. "Then I can go with you, be a superhero like you and Daddy?"
The question sent ice through Isabelle's veins. God, no. The last thing she wanted was for Morgan to end up like her—damaged, dangerous, a walking biohazard. But looking into her sister's eager eyes, she couldn't bring herself to crush that innocent hope.
"You know what?" Isabelle said, reaching out to tap Morgan's forehead gently. "You already have powers. You've got Dad's big brain in there."
Morgan considered this, her expression serious. "But no lasers?"
Isabelle laughed, the sound surprising her with its genuineness. "No lasers. Trust me, that's a good thing."
"Hmm." Morgan didn't look convinced. She tilted her head, studying Isabelle with unnerving intensity. "What can you do? Daddy never told me."
The question froze Isabelle mid-breath. What could she say? I can make people see their worst fears. I can rot flesh with a touch. I'm a walking nightmare factory.
"I... It's complicated," she hedged. "I can sense things. And sometimes I can make people feel things."
"Like what?"
"Like..." Isabelle searched for an explanation that wouldn't terrify a four-year-old. "Like when you have a tummy ache, or when you're really scared of something."
Morgan's eyes widened. "You can make people have tummy aches?"
"Something like that, yeah."
"That's not very nice," Morgan observed, her tone matter-of-fact rather than judgmental.
A startled laugh escaped Isabelle. "No, I guess it's not." She shook her head, bemused by the child's simple assessment of her complicated, horrifying abilities. "But I only use it on bad people. People who are trying to hurt others."
Morgan nodded, apparently satisfied with this explanation. "Like the aliens and pirates?"
"Exactly like them," Isabelle agreed, relieved at the easy out. "Total tummy aches for all aliens and pirates."
A comfortable silence settled between them. Morgan fidgeted with the latch on her lunchbox, her small fingers working it open and closed. The fairy lights outside had begun to glow softly as the afternoon light dimmed.
"Are you staying?" Morgan asked suddenly, not looking up from the lunchbox. "For dinner? For..." She hesitated. "For longer?"
The question hung in the air between them, weighted with more meaning than Morgan probably intended. Isabelle felt her throat tighten again. She'd run because staying hurt too much. Because the cabin, with its reminders of Tony everywhere, had felt like drowning. Because looking at Morgan—this perfect, innocent child who'd had all of Tony that Isabelle never did—had been unbearable.
But now, sitting in this treehouse with this solemn little girl who was offering to add her to a family drawing, running seemed like the greater pain.
"Yeah," Isabelle said softly. "I think I am. If that's okay with you?"
Morgan looked up then, her face breaking into a smile that transformed her entire countenance—a smile Isabelle recognized from old photographs of herself, before everything went wrong. Before her mother. Before HYDRA.
"It's okay," Morgan said, reaching into her lunchbox one more time. She pulled out a small, slightly squashed chocolate bar and broke it carefully in half. "Want to share? It's a little melty."
Isabelle looked at the offered chocolate—slightly misshapen, covered in small fingerprints, probably smuggled up here against Pepper's wishes. It was possibly the most precious thing anyone had ever offered her.
"I'd love to," she said, accepting the half with careful fingers. Their hands brushed in the exchange, and this time, Morgan didn't pull away.
Outside, the wind rustled through the leaves, sending dappled shadows dancing across the treehouse floor. In the distance, Isabelle could hear Pepper calling them for dinner. But for now, in this moment, there was just chocolate and fairy lights and the first fragile bridge between sisters.
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The cabin is quiet, but Isabelle’s heart isn’t.
In the stillness, she finally tells Pepper everything—about Val, the Flag Smashers, and the man who sees her for all she is and stays anyway.
But buried in her bag is one last tether to the woman who broke her, and Pepper has her own idea of how to cut it loose.Some endings don’t need ceremony. Just fire.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 80: What Happens Now
Chapter 80: What Happens Now
Summary:
At the Stark cabin, the night is quiet—too quiet.
What begins as a soft, tentative conversation becomes a raw confession about Bucky Barnes, Tony’s legacy, and the fear of betraying the man who raised her.In the stillness, the past burns—literally—as Pepper teaches Isabelle one last lesson from Tony: sometimes the only way forward is to let something go to ash.
Notes:
HAPPY SATURDAY, GUYS!!! Okay… we’re gonna hurt some more in this one… but also heal… a little bit. This chapter is such a good Pepper/Izzy moment and such an important beat for Izzy’s character. I am so, so excited for you all to read it.
Also, I’m not 100% sure I’ll be able to post tomorrow, so you’re getting two updates today! I’m heading to a comic con tomorrow and… MEETING HAYLEY ATWELL!!! Yup. PEGGY CARTER. I’m so excited!! The convention is two hours away, so I have no idea when I’ll get home, and I can’t promise the usual Sunday update.
Thank you so much for reading, and please… remember the tissues. 💔💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Silver Springs" by Fleetwood Mac
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Chapter Text
The house was quiet. Not silent—there was the faint creak of the old floorboards settling, the distant hum of the refrigerator, the soft rustle of wind against the windows—but quieter. No Morgan chatter, no cartoons, no music humming from Pepper’s speakers. Just… stillness.
Isabelle’s fingers traced the worn edge of the couch cushion, feeling the subtle texture beneath her fingertips. The cabin smelled like cinnamon and cedar. Tony’s scent had faded, but not his presence. She could feel him here, in the books stacked haphazardly on shelves, in the half-finished projects tucked away in corners. In Morgan.
Morgan had gone to bed an hour ago, warm and sleepy in her Star Wars pajamas, arms wrapped tightly around the stuffed giraffe she had said Tony claimed was “too hideous to exist in this reality.” Isabelle had read her a story—Where the Wild Things Are—and Morgan had drifted off halfway through, cheek smushed against Isabelle’s shoulder, breath warm and even.
Now, in the soft glow of the living room, Isabelle sat across from Pepper on the old cream couch. Her legs were tucked beneath her, fingers loosely curled around a mug of cooling chamomile tea. The liquid rippled with each breath she took, tiny concentric circles expanding outward. She hadn’t touched it. Neither had Pepper.
The silence stretched between them, not uncomfortable but weighted. Isabelle could feel Pepper’s eyes on her—gentle, assessing, concerned. The clock on the mantle ticked softly, marking seconds that felt like minutes.
“You look older,” Pepper said finally, her voice gentle but clear in the quiet room.
Isabelle huffed a quiet breath through her nose, the corner of her mouth twitching upward without humor. “I feel it.” She glanced down at her hands.
Pepper’s smile didn’t quite reach her eyes. There was worry there, in the slight furrow between her brows, in the way she held herself—poised but tense, as if bracing for bad news. “Where have you been, Izzy?”
The question wasn’t accusing. Just soft. Just real. It hung in the air between them, an invitation rather than a demand.
Isabelle looked down at the tea, watching the ripples from her breath disturb the surface. The warmth had long since faded from the ceramic, leaving it cool against her palms. “Everywhere I wasn’t supposed to be.”
Pepper didn’t speak. She waited, like always—steady and patient. Her eyes held Isabelle’s with that same unwavering attention she’d given board meetings and press conferences, the kind that made you feel like your words mattered. Like you mattered.
Isabelle’s throat tightened. The quiet between them wasn’t empty but full of history, of shared grief, of all the things they’d never said. “I don’t know where to start,” she whispered.
“Anywhere,” Pepper said, her voice as gentle as the lamplight. “The beginning. The middle. Just... somewhere.”
So Isabelle told her.
Not all at once. Not in neat order. The story spilled out in fragments—halting at first, then gathering momentum like a river finding its course. She spoke of Valentina Allegra de Fontaine approaching her, all silk smiles and steel promises. Of the Flag Smashers and their twisted vision of a world without borders.
She told Pepper about John Walker, about watching him crack under the weight of a legacy he couldn’t carry. About the shield—Steve’s shield—stained with blood in a public square. About the horror that had risen in her throat as Walker brought it down again and again.
Her words grew heavier as she spoke of Zemo—the way he’d slipped into their mission like a knife between ribs. The tears came then, silent and hot. Isabelle didn’t wipe them away. Let them fall. Let them mark her face like the truth she couldn’t hide anymore.
“I almost killed him, Pep. I wanted to. I could feel my power—” She flexed her fingers, remembering the rush, the terrible euphoria of letting go. “It would have been so easy.”
Pepper’s gaze never wavered, even as her eyes grew glassy with unshed tears of her own. “But you didn’t,” she said softly.
“No.” Isabelle swallowed. “Bucky stopped me.”
His name hung in the air between them, weighted with everything she hadn’t yet said. Isabelle’s heart stuttered, remembering the way he’d looked at her not with fear but with recognition. With understanding.
“Bucky Barnes,” Pepper said, her tone careful, neutral. “The Winter Soldier.”
“He’s not—” Isabelle started, then stopped herself. Took a breath. “Yes. But he’s... more than what they made him.”
Something shifted in Pepper’s expression—not judgment, but a quiet comprehension. She’d always been too perceptive for comfort.
“He knows what it’s like,” Isabelle continued, her voice small. “To have someone else’s voice in your head. To be unmade.”
She told Pepper about Riga then. About the safehouse. About the way Bucky had sat with her, stood with her, protected her. How he’d looked at her scars without flinching. How he’d understood without her having to explain.
“He sees me,” Isabelle whispered, the admission raw and vulnerable in the stillness of the cabin. “All of me. The parts I try to hide. The parts that scare me.” Her fingers trembled against the mug. “And he stays anyway.”
The house seemed to hold its breath around them. Like it was listening. Like Tony was listening, somewhere beyond where they could see.
Pepper set her mug down with deliberate care. Crossed one leg over the other, smoothing her hand over her knee. She didn’t reach for words right away—maybe because she understood how fragile Isabelle felt, even if she didn’t say it. How close she was to shattering.
Isabelle watched Pepper’s face, searching for judgment, for disappointment. Found none. Just the steady, patient gaze that had weathered board meetings and alien invasions with equal composure.
“You care about him,” Pepper said finally. Not a question.
Isabelle nodded, unable to speak past the knot in her throat. The admission felt too raw, too new to voice aloud.
“And he cares about you.”
Another nod, smaller this time. She stared down at her hands, the weight of Pepper’s gaze making her skin prickle.
“We’re...” Isabelle cleared her throat, surprised by how small her voice sounded in the quiet room. “We’re together now. Like, officially.” The words hung in the air between them, fragile as spun glass. She forced herself to look up, to meet Pepper’s eyes.
Her heart hammered against her ribs, a caged thing desperate for escape. This was Pepper—the woman who had weathered Tony’s storms, who had held the company together when the world fell apart, who had stood at the lake and watched the arc reactor float away. Pepper, who had every right to hate the man who had taken her husband’s parents from him.
“I know how it sounds,” Isabelle continued, the words tumbling out faster now. “I know it’s—God, it’s complicated and messy and probably insane, but Pep, he’s not who they made him. He’s...” She struggled for words that wouldn’t trivialize what Bucky meant to her. “He understands the darkness. Not just in me, but—”
“Izzy.” Pepper’s voice was gentle, her expression softer than Isabelle had expected. “Breathe.”
Isabelle sucked in a shaky breath, realizing she’d been spiraling. Her fingers had curled into tight fists, nails digging into her palms hard enough to leave crescents. She forced them to relax, one finger at a time.
Pepper’s smile was soft, tinged with something between sadness and hope. “Your father would have had a field day with this, you know.”
A startled laugh escaped Isabelle, watery and genuine. “God, he’d be furious.” The words tumbled out now, gaining momentum. “It’d be Siberia all over again, but worse. So much worse.” Her fingers curled into fists again, nails digging half-moons into her palms. “He’d be throwing suits at Bucky, FRIDAY would be on lockdown, and—” She swallowed hard, her throat tight. “He’d probably disown me on the spot.”
The laugh that followed was hollow, scraping against her throat like broken glass. She could picture it so clearly—Tony’s face contorting with rage and betrayal, the hurt in his eyes that would cut deeper than any repulsor blast.
“He’d hate this—hate me and Bucky together. After everything that happened...” She swallowed hard, the taste of copper filling her mouth where she’d bitten the inside of her cheek. “How could he not? Bucky killed his parents. My grandparents. People I hardly remember because of what they made him do.”
Her voice cracked on the last word.
“And now I’m—” She gestured helplessly, unable to find the words. “He’d be so disappointed in me, Pep. Like I betrayed him all over again.” The admission felt like ripping open a wound that had never truly healed. “First, I sided with Steve during the Accords, and now this? It’s like I’m determined to choose everyone but him.”
The tears came harder now, hot and unwelcome. She brushed them away with the back of her hand, angry at herself for breaking so easily.
“He’d think I didn’t love him enough to honor his pain,” she whispered, the words barely audible over the ticking of the clock.
Pepper was quiet for a long moment, her expression thoughtful. The grandfather clock in the corner ticked steadily, marking time in a world where Tony no longer existed. Where Isabelle had to find her way without him.
“No,” Pepper said finally, her voice gentle but firm. “No, he wouldn’t.”
Isabelle looked up, surprise cutting through her misery. A tear clung to her lashes, suspended.
“Would he understand right away? No.” Pepper shook her head, a rueful smile playing at her lips. “He’d rant and rave and probably blast holes in the walls. You know how he got when he was processing something difficult.”
The memory of Tony’s explosive creative process pulled a reluctant smile from Isabelle. How many times had she walked into the lab to find him surrounded by holographic debris, muttering to himself like a madman? How many coffee mugs had been sacrificed to his frustration?
“He’d pace,” Isabelle murmured, the memory so vivid she could almost hear his footsteps. “Back and forth until DUM-E got dizzy trying to follow him.”
“And he’d make those ridiculous analogies,” Pepper added, her eyes crinkling at the corners. “Remember when he compared the Accords situation to eating a sandwich with too much mustard?”
Isabelle snorted despite herself. “God, that was terrible. Something about how the government was the mustard and we were the—”
“The bread that got soggy,” they finished in unison, and for a moment, the grief lifted. Just a moment.
“But disappointed in you?” Pepper leaned forward, her eyes intent. “Never. Not for finding something real in all this chaos.”
Isabelle’s throat tightened. She wanted to believe it—needed to believe it—but the doubt clung to her like a second skin.
“But Bucky—” The name caught in her throat, heavy with everything it represented. The Winter Soldier. The man who’d killed Howard and Maria Stark on a dark road decades ago. The man whose hands now knew every curve and scar on her body.
“Was a weapon,” Pepper finished, her voice soft but unflinching. “Used by people who took away his choice, his agency, his humanity.” She reached across the space between them, her slender fingers closing around Isabelle’s wrist. Her touch was warm, grounding—the same steady presence she’d always been, even when the world was falling apart around them. “Tony understood that, in the end. It took time, but he did.”
Isabelle’s breath caught, a tiny hitch that seemed to echo in the quiet room.
Pepper’s thumb traced small circles on the inside of Isabelle’s wrist, right over her pulse point. The gesture was so achingly familiar—the same way Pepper had calmed her after nightmares as a teenager, after panic attacks in college, after battles that left her shaking and hollow.
“The way he talked about Bucky changed, after Thanos. After you were gone.” Her voice softened, taking on that quality that made Isabelle feel like they were sharing secrets under blanket forts, not sitting in the shadow of all they’d lost. “He called him ‘the poor bastard’ once. Said maybe they were both victims of the same war, just different battles.”
Something shifted in Isabelle’s chest—a tectonic plate of grief moving just enough to let light through the cracks. The pressure behind her eyes built, but she held it back, needing to hear more.
“Tony would be angry at first,” Pepper continued, her voice pulling Isabelle back to the present. “He’d struggle. He’d worry.”
Her smile deepened then, reached her eyes in a way that made the knot in Isabelle’s chest loosen just a fraction.
“But eventually,” Pepper said, her voice gentle but certain, “Tony would be happy. Happy that you found someone who understands the darkness without being consumed by it. Happy that you’re cared for, protected.” Her eyes glistened in the low light. “That’s all he ever wanted for you, Izzy. For you to be safe. To be loved. To find your place in this world, even if it wasn’t the one he imagined for you.”
Something broke loose inside Isabelle then—a dam she’d been holding together through sheer force of will. A sob tore from her throat, raw and unfiltered, scraping against her vocal cords like broken glass. She covered her mouth with her hand, but it was too late to stop the flood. Tears spilled hot and fast down her cheeks, dropping onto her lap in dark splotches.
“I miss him so much,” she whispered through her fingers, the words barely audible over the sound of her own ragged breathing. “I keep thinking about what he’d say, what he’d do. If he’d understand any of this.” Her voice cracked, splintering like ice under too much weight. “If he’d—if he’d still love me, after everything I’ve done. After all the ways I’ve failed him.”
The words hung in the air, naked and vulnerable. All the fear she’d been carrying since waking up in a world where Tony was gone—that she hadn’t been enough, that she’d let him down, that she’d never be worthy of the name Stark again.
Pepper moved then, sliding across the couch to pull Isabelle into her arms. The familiar scent of vanilla and sandalwood enveloped her, so achingly familiar it made Isabelle’s chest hurt. Pepper’s embrace was firm, anchoring—the kind of hug that held you together when you were falling apart.
“Listen to me,” Pepper said, her voice low and fierce against Isabelle’s hair. Each word was deliberate, weighted with absolute certainty. “Nothing you could ever do would make Tony stop loving you. Nothing.” Her arms tightened around Isabelle, as if she could physically press the truth into her skin. “He’d move heaven and earth for you, Izzy. He did.”
Isabelle clung to her, fingers digging into the soft fabric of Pepper’s sweater. She felt like a child again—lost and found all at once. The cabin creaked around them, settling into the night like a living thing. Outside, the wind whispered through the trees, rustling leaves and carrying the faint scent of pine through the cracked window.
The moment stretched, fragile and perfect, before settling back into comfortable silence. Pepper didn’t move away, keeping one arm around Isabelle’s shoulders. The weight of it was grounding, real.
“Tell me about him,” Pepper said after a while, her voice soft. “Tell me about Bucky. Not the Winter Soldier. Not the man from the history books. The man you know.”
And Isabelle did.
The conversation between them faded gradually, like waves receding from shore, leaving behind a gentler silence. Isabelle felt lighter somehow, as if sharing the weight of her secrets had made them less crushing. Pepper’s hand remained on Isabelle’s shoulder, a warm anchor in the present. The tea in their mugs had gone completely cold, forgotten in the wake of confessions and tears.
“There’s something else,” Isabelle said, the words forming before she’d fully decided to speak them. “I have her journal,” Isabelle clarified, fingers twisting in her lap. The admission felt dangerous, like confessing to harboring something radioactive. “Laura’s.”
Pepper’s expression remained carefully neutral, but Isabelle caught the subtle tightening around her eyes.
“After everything in Riga...” Isabelle exhaled, looking down at her hands. They were steady now, though she didn’t feel steady inside. “When I got back to New York, I took it back from Bucky. He didn’t say anything. Just let me.”
The memory flickered through her mind—Bucky’s face, solemn and understanding as she’d reached for the worn leather journal on his nightstand. How he’d simply nodded, letting her reclaim that piece of her past without question.
“I only read a few more pages since coming back,” Isabelle continued, tracing a small pattern on the couch fabric. “Just enough to...” She trailed off, struggling to articulate the knot of dread and curiosity that tightened in her chest whenever she thought about the journal. “I don’t know. I keep thinking if I finish it, if I really read it all, I won’t come back the same.”
The cabin seemed to hold its breath. Outside, the wind picked up, sending a branch scraping against the window—a soft, insistent scratch that matched the restlessness inside her.
Pepper’s jaw tensed, but she stayed still. Waiting. The lamplight caught the copper highlights in her hair, casting her face in warm gold and deep shadow.
“I don’t want to throw it away. What if someone finds it?” Isabelle admitted, the words tumbling out faster now. “But if I keep it, I will read it. Eventually.” Her voice grew smaller, more vulnerable than she’d intended. “And I don’t know what it’ll do to me.” She felt exposed, like she’d peeled back another layer of armor she hadn’t meant to remove.
Pepper nodded slowly. Her face didn’t betray much—just a tightness in the eyes, a deliberate calm. She’d only met Laura once, near the end. Isabelle knew Pepper hadn’t forgotten the cold edge in Laura’s smile.
“Did you bring it with you?” Pepper asked gently, her voice steady despite the weight of the question.
Isabelle hesitated, her heart thumping against her ribs. Then nodded once, a quick dip of her chin.
Pepper stood, smoothing her hands down her pants with deliberate care. The soft cashmere of her sweater caught the lamplight as she moved, casting her in a warm glow that contrasted with the sudden determination in her eyes.
“Go get it,” she said, her voice gentle but firm. Not a request. “And meet me outside.”
Isabelle blinked up at her, confusion momentarily overriding her anxiety. “Outside? It’s after midnight, Pep.”
“I know.” Pepper’s smile was small but resolute. “Trust me on this one.”
Something in Pepper’s expression—a certainty, a knowing—made Isabelle push herself up from the couch. Her legs felt stiff, slightly unsteady after sitting so long. The floorboards creaked beneath her feet as she moved toward the guest room, each step echoing in the quiet house.
The journal was exactly where she’d left it, tucked into the inner pocket of her duffel bag, wrapped in a soft t-shirt as if that could somehow contain its power. Isabelle’s fingers trembled slightly as she unwrapped it, the worn leather cover cool against her skin. It wasn’t heavy—just a small, ordinary book. And yet it felt like it weighed a thousand pounds.
Laura’s neat, precise handwriting filled its pages. The same handwriting that had labeled specimen jars and experiment notes. The same hand that had stroked Isabelle’s hair when she was sick, before everything changed.
Isabelle pressed her palm against the cover, feeling the slight indentation where her mother had pressed too hard with her pen. Then she tucked it under her arm and headed back through the silent house.
Pepper was waiting by the back door, a box of matches in her hand. Her expression was unreadable in the dim light of the kitchen.
“What are we doing?” Isabelle asked, though part of her already knew.
Pepper pushed the door open, letting in a rush of cool night air. “Something Tony taught me, a long time ago.” She stepped out onto the back porch, beckoning Isabelle to follow. “Sometimes the only way forward is to let something burn.”
The night air wrapped around Isabelle like a cool embrace as she followed Pepper onto the back porch. Her arms prickled with goosebumps—whether from the chill or from the weight of the journal pressed against her side, she couldn’t tell.
Above them, the sky stretched endlessly and clear, stars scattered like diamond dust across black velvet. The moon hung low and heavy, casting silver light across the lake’s surface, turning the gentle ripples into shifting ribbons of light. Isabelle inhaled deeply, tasting pine and earth and the lingering sweetness of autumn.
Pepper led her down the short path from the porch to a stone-ringed fire pit nestled in a small clearing. “He built this the first week we moved here,” she said softly, as if reading Isabelle’s thoughts. “Said every proper cabin needed a place to burn things.”
Logs were already stacked in the center of the pit, waiting. Isabelle watched as Pepper knelt beside it. The matchbox made a soft scraping sound as she opened it, the small wooden sticks clicking against each other.
The match flared to life with a sharp hiss, a small sun cupped in Pepper’s palm. For a moment, her face was illuminated in warm orange light, highlighting the gentle lines around her eyes, the determined set of her mouth. She touched the flame to the kindling tucked beneath the logs, then stood back as the fire took hold, crackling and popping as it found purchase.
Pepper picked up a long iron poker leaning against a nearby stump. The metal gleamed dully in the growing firelight as she used it to shift the logs, encouraging the flames to climb higher. Sparks spiraled upward like fireflies, disappearing into the darkness above. The heat pushed against Isabelle’s face, a living, breathing thing.
Gravel crunched beneath Isabelle’s boots as she stepped closer to the fire pit. The journal seemed to grow heavier in her hands with each step, as if it knew what was coming. Her fingers tightened around the worn leather, feeling the slight give of the cover, the edges of the pages beneath.
Pepper turned to face her, the fire casting half her face in golden light, the other half in shadow. She extended her hand, palm up—an invitation, not a demand.
Isabelle stared at that open palm. Something tightened in her chest, a knot of fear and longing and grief all tangled together. The journal contained the last pieces of her mother—the real Laura, not just the monster Isabelle remembered. If she burned it, would she be erasing something vital? Something she might need someday?
But then again, hadn’t Laura already burned everything that mattered?
Isabelle let out a breath that seemed to come from somewhere deep inside her, a sound that carried the weight of years. The tension in her shoulders released as she placed the leather-bound journal into Pepper’s waiting hand.
Pepper looked down at it—just for a heartbeat. Her eyes flickered with something unreadable, something that might have been anger or sadness or both. Then, without ceremony or hesitation, she dropped the journal directly into the heart of the fire.
The flames licked at the edges immediately, eager and hungry. The leather cover darkened, curling at the corners as if trying to escape. Pages caught next, their edges crisping to black before folding inward, surrendering to the heat. Isabelle watched as her mother’s handwriting—those neat, precise letters that had once mapped out experiments and observations, that had once documented Isabelle’s own development like she was nothing more than a lab specimen—disappeared into smoke and ash.
“I feel like I should say something,” Isabelle whispered, the words barely audible over the crackling fire. “Like this should be more... I don’t know. Ceremonial.”
Pepper shook her head, her eyes never leaving the burning journal. “Some things don’t deserve ceremony,” she said, her voice gentle but firm. “Some things just need to end.”
A page caught fully alight, flaring bright before collapsing into itself. Isabelle watched a line of text—something about “subject response to stimuli”—blacken and vanish. Her throat tightened.
“What if I need it someday?” The question escaped before she could stop it, small and uncertain. “What if there’s something in there I should know?”
Pepper turned to her then, the firelight catching in her eyes. “Would knowing change who you are now? Who you’re choosing to be?”
Isabelle didn’t answer. Couldn’t.
“Some knowledge doesn’t heal, Izzy. It just keeps the wound open.” Pepper’s voice softened. “You don’t need her voice in your head anymore. You have your own.”
The journal was nearly gone now, reduced to curling black fragments and glowing embers. Isabelle watched the last page fold in on itself, Laura’s final words disappearing into the night. She expected to feel loss, or panic, or even regret—but instead, there was a strange lightness spreading through her chest. Not happiness, exactly. But possibility.
“She can’t hurt you anymore,” Pepper said softly. “Not unless you let her.”
Isabelle nodded, unable to speak past the tightness in her throat. The heat of the fire pressed against her face, drying tears she hadn’t realized were falling. She watched the last piece of leather curl and blacken, taking with it the weight of expectations she’d never asked for, experiments she’d never consented to, a legacy she’d never wanted.
“Thank you,” she whispered finally, the words barely audible over the crackling flames. She wasn’t sure if she was thanking Pepper or the fire or maybe even herself, for finally being ready to let go.
Pepper squeezed her shoulder gently. “He would be proud of you, you know. Tony.” Her voice caught slightly on his name. “Not just for the hero stuff. For this. For choosing to heal.”
The words settled over Isabelle like a blanket, warm and comforting. She leaned slightly into Pepper’s touch, allowing herself the small comfort of connection.
Above them, the stars continued their silent watch, indifferent to the small human ritual playing out beneath them. The lake water lapped gently at the shore, a rhythmic whisper like breathing. And in the heart of the fire, the last fragments of Laura Proctor’s journal disappeared into ash, carried upward by the heat into the endless night sky.
“What happens now?” Isabelle asked, her voice steadier than she expected.
Pepper’s smile was soft in the firelight, tinged with both sadness and hope. “Now?” She looked up at the stars, then back to Isabelle. “Now we keep going. One day at a time.”
The fire crackled between them, warm and alive, consuming the past and lighting the way forward into whatever came next.
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For Isabelle Stark, it was only ever the rain song.
The soundtrack to pancake Sundays, blanket-fort thunderstorms, and quiet moments when her father’s love felt as steady as the record’s spinning groove.
From vinyl in the workshop to a Walkman in the back of a car, the rain song was more than music.
It was a promise.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 81: The Rain Song
Chapter 81: The Rain Song
Summary:
It’s not just a song.
It’s the rain song — static crackle, a guitar riff like a heartbeat, John Fogerty’s voice woven into every safe place Isabelle Stark ever knew.
Pancake Sundays. Blanket forts in the dark. The workshop’s warm hum and her father’s hands steadying hers over the record player.Years later, on Zemo’s jet, she’d said it without thinking: “Have You Ever Seen the Rain?” God, that’s literally my favorite song ever.
Bucky had looked at her like he understood.Now, the memory comes back sharp and sweet.
And with it, every moment the rain song carried her through storms, through sickness, through the kind of loss that still catches in her throat.Some songs you grow out of.
Some songs grow with you.
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ahhhh okay… okay… this chapter… omg this chapter… literally no words 😭 cute. sad. soft. like… ahhhh. also kiiinda a songfic??? I hope you guys love it as much as I loved writing it!!! 💖
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Have You Ever Seen The Rain" by Creedence Clearwater Revival
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She’d always called it that. Not “Have You Ever Seen the Rain?”, not Creedence, not anything proper or labeled—just the rain song.
It started when she was barely three, her tiny feet padding across the concrete workshop floor. Tony was hunched over his workbench, safety goggles pushed up his disheveled hair, fingers smudged black with grease as he tinkered with some half-assembled invention.
The record player spun in the corner—always vinyl, because Tony insisted the sound quality was “incomparable to cassette tapes, kiddo, don’t let anyone tell you different.” Music was a constant in the workshop, as essential as oxygen, a backdrop to the clink of tools and his muttered questions and creative profanity that a three-year-old wasn’t supposed to repeat (but absolutely did, much to Laura’s dismay).
That particular afternoon, thunder had growled outside, rain lashing against the windows in sheets. The storm had frightened her at first, sending her scurrying down to find her father. But then something in John Fogerty’s raspy voice had made her stop mid-step, eyes widening with wonder. The guitar, the drums, that voice asking a question that seemed perfectly timed with the weather outside.
“What this one?” she asked, pointing a chubby finger at the spinning vinyl, her golden curls bouncing as she tilted her head.
Tony glanced up, a streak of grease smudged across his cheek like war paint. His eyes softened at the sight of her, that particular look he reserved just for her—part pride, part wonder, as if he couldn’t quite believe she was real.
“Have You Ever Seen The Rain. Creedence Clearwater Revival, kiddo. Classic stuff.” He wiped his hands on a rag. “John Fogerty asking the important questions about meteorological phenomena.”
But three-year-old Isabelle had just wrinkled her nose, unimpressed by the complicated name. “It’s the rain song.”
Tony’s laugh had echoed off the workshop walls. “Yeah? The rain song it is, then.”
“Again,” she’d demanded, tiny hands on her hips in a pose that mimicked his own stubborn stance.
“Already a music critic.” He’d scooped her up, settling her on his hip as he walked to the record player, carefully lifting the arm and setting it down at the beginning of the track. The static crackle, then those opening notes again.
“Rain song,” she’d repeated with satisfaction, nestling her head against his chest, feeling the vibration when he hummed along.
By four, she’d become insistent about it. The rain song was no longer just a song—it was her song, a demand as essential as breathing.
“I wanna hear the rain song, Daddy!” Isabelle would announce, materializing at Tony’s side with uncanny timing. Usually, when he was knuckle-deep in an engine block or juggling a spatula over sizzling pancakes that were seconds from burning.
She’d tug at his shirt with maple-sticky fingers, leaving tiny handprints that would make him sigh and smile at the same time.
“Again?” Tony would groan, dropping his head back dramatically, but his eyes would crinkle at the corners. “Izzy-bell, we’ve played it twenty times this week. Don’t you want to expand your musical horizons?” He’d wipe his hands on a rag tucked into his back pocket. “Maybe some Black Sabbath? AC/DC? I’m raising you to have taste, kiddo.”
“Rain song!” She’d plant her feet wide, those ridiculous oversized fuzzy socks—the ones she refused to let Laura throw away even though they were worn through at the heels—bunching around her ankles. Her chin would jut forward, an exact miniature copy of his own stubborn expression. “Now, please.”
“As her majesty commands.” He’d scoop her up with one fluid motion, his hands secure under her arms as he lifted her high. Her squeal of delight would fill the kitchen as he spun her around, blonde curls flying like a tiny tornado. “But I’m adding this to your tab. You’re gonna owe me approximately eight hundred hours of garage assistance when you’re older.”
“Okay!” she’d agree, too young to understand the concept of indentured servitude, too delighted by the spinning to care.
By five, Tony had taught her to use the record player herself—a concession born equally of pride in her dexterity and exhaustion at the constant requests. His workshop was littered with half-finished inventions and fully-realized messes, but he’d cleared a special spot for the record player where she could reach it standing on her tiptoes.
“Easy does it,” he’d murmur, his calloused hands guiding her small ones as she carefully lowered the needle. The static crackle made her hold her breath every time. “Like you’re performing surgery.”
“Like when you fixed DUM-E’s arm?” she’d asked, tongue caught between her teeth in concentration, eyes wide with focus.
“Exactly like that. Steady...” His smile had been soft, proud, something vulnerable in it that she was too young to recognize. The needle touched down with a pop and hiss. “Perfect landing, co-pilot.”
The opening guitar would fill the workshop, and Isabelle would beam up at him like she’d personally created the music from nothing.
“You know,” Tony said one rainy afternoon, the two of them sprawled on the workshop floor surrounded by colored pencils and blueprint paper, “most kids your age are obsessed with, I don’t know, singing purple dinosaurs or whatever.”
Isabelle didn’t look up from her drawing—a wobbly interpretation of what she claimed was a flying car for DUM-E. “Barney is for babies,” she informed him solemnly.
“And John Fogerty isn’t?” Tony raised an eyebrow, reaching over to adjust her grip on the red pencil. “Here, hold it like this. Better control.”
“The rain song makes me feel...” She paused, searching for words beyond her kindergarten vocabulary. “Like something’s coming. Something good.” Her nose scrunched up. “And it sounds like you.”
“Like me?” Tony’s voice went soft in that way it sometimes did, when she surprised him.
Isabelle nodded, attacking her drawing with renewed concentration. “Scratchy and warm.” She glanced up at him through her lashes. “And it makes me dance.”
Tony had stared at her for a long moment, something complicated passing over his face. Then he’d reached out, tucking a wild curl behind her ear. “Well,” he’d said finally, his voice a little rougher than usual, “can’t argue with that kind of music criticism.”
By six, they had a routine so well-established that Isabelle could recite it in her sleep. Pancake Sundays meant Tony at the stove, a wrench inexplicably tucked behind his ear. She’d once asked why he needed a tool for cooking.
“Engineering principle number one, Izzy-bell,” he’d explained, flipping a misshapen pancake that was supposed to be a stegosaurus but looked more like Rhode Island. “Always have the right tool for the wrong job. This is my lucky spatula.”
“That’s a wrench, Daddy.”
“Multi-purpose culinary implement,” he’d corrected with a wink. “Spatula, egg timer, and excellent backscratcher all in one.”
The kitchen would fill with the smell of butter and maple syrup, sunlight streaming through the tall windows of the Manhattan penthouse. Isabelle would slide across the polished floor in her socks—the good ones with the rubber grips after she’d wiped out and knocked her front tooth loose the previous year.
“Setting the table is a very important responsibility,” she announced one Sunday morning, carefully arranging forks with the concentration of a bomb technician. Each utensil had to be exactly one finger-width from the edge of the placemat. “Mom says presentation matters.”
Tony glanced over his shoulder, a smudge of pancake batter on his cheek. “Your mom also color-codes her sock drawer and alphabetizes her cereal, kiddo.”
“So do you,” Isabelle pointed out, standing on tiptoe to place the last napkin. “I saw your workshop drawers.”
“That’s different. That’s an organizational system based on quantum—” He stopped, narrowing his eyes at her knowing smirk. “You’re too smart for your own good, you know that?”
The moment the table was set, Isabelle would bolt to the living room, where the record player waited. Tony had taught her how to handle vinyl with reverence—never touch the grooves, hold it by the edges, clean it with the special cloth. Her small fingers would tremble slightly as she slid the record from its sleeve, the anticipation almost too much to bear.
“Steady,” she’d whisper to herself, echoing her father’s instructions. “Like surgery.”
The static crackle, then those first guitar notes would fill the house. By the time John Fogerty’s voice kicked in, she’d already be sliding back into the kitchen, sock-feet skimming across the floor, arms outstretched.
“Someone told me long ago...” Tony would sing, voice deliberately off-key as he abandoned the spatula (or wrench) and grabbed her hands.
They’d dance around the kitchen island, Tony twirling her under his arm, both singing at the top of their lungs. He’d lift her onto his feet, and they’d waltz dramatically, pancakes momentarily forgotten and often burning as a result. Isabelle didn’t care. The slightly charred edges tasted better anyway.
“I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain...” Isabelle would belt out, voice cracking on the high notes.
“Coming down on a sunny day!” Tony would finish with a dramatic dip that made her shriek with laughter.
Sometimes Laura would appear in the doorway, coffee in hand, watching them with a smile that made her eyes crinkle at the corners. “You two are ridiculous,” she’d say, but the fondness in her voice betrayed her.
“We’re not ridiculous,” Tony would correct, spinning Isabelle until she was dizzy. “We’re rock stars. There’s a difference.”
“Big difference,” Isabelle would echo solemnly, before dissolving into giggles again.
Even when Isabelle turned seven and decided she was “too old” for dancing—a phase that lasted approximately three weeks—she’d still sit on the counter, legs swinging, while Tony made pancakes and performed an elaborate one-man show. He’d use the spatula as a microphone, the whisk as a guitar, and the mixing bowl as a drum, much to Laura’s exasperation.
“That’s a three-hundred-dollar mixing bowl, Tony,” she’d sigh from behind her scientific journal.
“And now it’s a three-hundred-dollar percussion instrument,” he’d reply without missing a beat, tapping out the rhythm on its stainless steel surface. “Multipurpose. I’m economizing.”
Isabelle would pretend to be embarrassed, rolling her eyes in that new way she’d learned from the older girls at school, but her toes would still tap against the cabinet doors in perfect time.
When she was eight, a thunderstorm knocked out power to the entire building. The security system switched to backup generators, but the main living areas went dark. Isabelle had been halfway through a book, curled up in the window seat of her bedroom, when the lights flickered and died.
“Dad?” she called, voice small in the sudden darkness. Lightning flashed, illuminating her room in stark white for a split second before plunging it back into shadow.
She wasn’t afraid of the dark—not exactly—but the storm made the house creak and groan in unfamiliar ways. She slid from the window seat, feeling her way to the door with outstretched hands.
The hallway was pitch black. Another flash of lightning showed the staircase at the end, and Isabelle moved toward it slowly, one hand trailing along the wall for guidance.
“Dad?” she called again, louder this time.
“Down here, kiddo!” Tony’s voice floated up from below. “Stay put, I’m coming to you.”
A beam of light appeared at the bottom of the stairs, bobbing as Tony ascended. His face, illuminated from below by the flashlight, looked ghostly and strange.
“Power’s out across the whole neighborhood,” he said, reaching the top of the stairs. He handed her a second flashlight. “Might be a while before it’s back.”
Thunder crashed overhead, making Isabelle jump. Tony’s hand found her shoulder, steady and warm.
“Not a fan of the atmospheric percussion section, huh?” he asked gently.
She shook her head, clutching the flashlight tighter.
“Me neither,” he admitted. “Too unpredictable. No rhythm.” He tapped his chin thoughtfully, then snapped his fingers. “I know what we need. Come on.”
He led her downstairs, flashlight beams cutting through the darkness, casting long shadows that danced on the walls. In the living room, he rummaged through a cabinet while Isabelle perched on the edge of the sofa, knees drawn up to her chest.
“Aha!” Tony emerged triumphant, holding up an old battery-powered radio. “Vintage tech to the rescue.”
He set it on the coffee table, twisting dials until static filled the room. “Now, we need a proper storm bunker.”
Together, they dragged cushions from the sofa and chairs, arranging them in a circle on the floor. Tony disappeared briefly, returning with an armful of sheets and blankets.
“Structural engineering 101,” he announced, draping a sheet over the back of a chair and anchoring it with a heavy book. “Every fortress needs a roof.”
Isabelle caught on quickly, helping to stretch sheets across their cushion foundation. Tony weighted down corners with books, remote controls, and a paperweight shaped like a molecule that had been a gift from Laura.
“Now the interior design,” Tony said, tossing pillows inside their makeshift fort. “Very important. Government contracts have been lost over inferior pillow arrangements.”
When they finished, they crawled inside with their flashlights and the radio. The blanket fort was snug and warm, the sheets glowing softly with the diffused light of their flashlights. Outside, rain lashed against the windows, but in here, it felt safe. Contained.
Tony fiddled with the radio dial, moving through bursts of static and fragments of voices until a familiar guitar riff emerged, distorted but recognizable.
“No way,” Isabelle breathed, eyes widening.
“Way,” Tony grinned, adjusting the antenna to clear the static. “The universe provides, Izzy-bell.”
The rain song crackled through the tiny speaker. Tony leaned back against a pillow, stretching his legs out as far as the fort would allow.
“See?” he whispered, his face half in shadow, half illuminated by flashlight. “Even when the power’s out, we’ve still got the good stuff.”
Isabelle nodded, settling against his side. His arm came around her shoulders, solid and secure. Outside, lightning flashed, thunder rolled, but it didn’t seem so scary anymore. Not with the rain song playing and her father humming along, slightly off-key but perfectly in time.
“I know,” she murmured, her eyes growing heavy as she nestled closer.
“Know what?” Tony asked, his voice a rumble she could feel through his chest.
“Have seen the rain,” she answered, words slurring slightly with approaching sleep. “Lots of times.”
Tony’s chuckle was soft, his hand gentle as he smoothed her hair. “Yeah, but have you seen it coming down on a sunny day? That’s the real question.”
Isabelle thought about this seriously for a moment, fighting against her drooping eyelids. “Maybe tomorrow,” she decided. “If the storm’s gone.”
“Maybe tomorrow,” Tony agreed, and she could hear the smile in his voice. “It’s a date.”
The last thing Isabelle remembered before drifting off was the rain song fading into static, her father’s steady breathing, and the storm outside growing more distant with each passing second.
When the cancer hit, the rain song took on a different weight.
After one of the harder chemo sessions—the kind that left her bones feeling like they’d been hollowed out and refilled with ice water—Isabelle huddled in the backseat of the town car, shivering despite the July heat. The leather seats that had once been her playground, where she’d slide from one end to the other while Tony pretended not to notice, now felt like cold slabs against her paper-thin skin.
Happy kept glancing in the rearview mirror, his eyes creased with worry. He’d cranked the heat despite the summer temperature outside, but nothing seemed to touch the chill that had taken up permanent residence in her marrow.
“You good back here, kiddo?” Tony asked, his voice too bright, too forced. He sat beside her, close but not touching, like he was afraid she might shatter if he brushed against her.
Isabelle didn’t answer. Her tongue felt swollen, coated with a metallic film that no amount of the special mouthwash seemed to wash away. Every word required energy she simply didn’t have.
“Right,” Tony said into the silence. “Stupid question.”
She watched his hands—those hands that could build anything, fix anything—fidget uselessly in his lap. His fingers twitched toward her, then retreated, a dance of hesitation he’d been performing since the diagnosis three months ago. Cancer. Acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Words that had crashed into their lives like a meteor, leaving nothing but a smoking crater where normalcy used to be.
“I grabbed your blanket from home,” Tony said, reaching for the soft blue fleece folded on the seat between them. “The good one, not that hospital sandpaper they try to pass off as comfort.”
He unfolded it with a gentle snap, the scent of home briefly cutting through the antiseptic smell that clung to her skin. When he draped it over her legs, his movements were careful, mechanical, as if handling volatile materials in his lab.
The hospital blanket was still wrapped around her shoulders, rough and smelling of bleach. She wanted to tear it off, but her fingers—God, when had they gotten so thin?—couldn’t seem to grip properly.
“Here, let me—” Tony reached for the scratchy blanket, but Isabelle flinched away instinctively.
He froze, hand suspended between them, something raw and wounded flashing across his face before he could mask it. “Sorry, I didn’t—”
“It’s okay,” she managed, the words scraping her throat. Her voice sounded alien to her own ears, thin and reedy where it used to be full of laughter. “Just... cold.”
Tony nodded, dropping his hand back to his lap. “We could crank the heat higher. Happy? Can we—”
“Already at max, boss,” Happy called back, his eyes meeting Isabelle’s in the mirror for a brief moment before flicking away.
The car fell silent again, save for the gentle hum of the heater and the occasional click of Tony’s watch as he checked the time. Isabelle leaned her head against the window, watching Manhattan blur past. Nine years old, and already she was intimately familiar with the route from the hospital to their penthouse. Nine years old, and she knew more about white blood cell counts and platelet transfusions than multiplication tables.
Her fingers, with their blueish nails and skin so pale she could trace every vein like a roadmap, curled into the soft fleece. She’d lost two fingernails last week—they’d just... fallen off, like parts of her were already giving up the fight. The doctors had said it was normal. Nothing about this felt normal.
“You want a milkshake?” Tony asked suddenly, leaning forward to tap Happy’s shoulder. “We could swing by that place on 52nd. The one with the ridiculous straws. What’d you call them?”
“Crazy straws,” Isabelle murmured, her stomach clenching at the mere thought of food.
“Right, crazy straws. Aptly named. We could get chocolate. Extra thick, right? That’s your go-to.”
The thought of cold, sweet chocolate sliding down her raw throat made her gag reflexively. She swallowed hard, tasting bile and medication.
“No,” she whispered. “No milkshake.”
Tony’s forced smile faltered. “Okay. No problem. Rain check on the milkshake.”
Rain. The word triggered something in her foggy brain—a memory, a feeling, something warm in the endless cold that had become her existence. She closed her eyes, trying to capture it before it slipped away like everything else seemed to these days.
The car hit a pothole, jostling her. Pain shot through her body like lightning, radiating from her bones outward. She couldn’t suppress the small whimper that escaped her lips.
“Careful, Happy!” Tony snapped, his voice sharp with fear.
“Sorry, sorry,” Happy called back, his knuckles whitening on the steering wheel.
“It’s fine,” Isabelle said automatically, the lie so practiced it came without thought. Nothing was fine. Her body was at war with itself, cells multiplying out of control, treatment killing the good with the bad. She was nine years old and dying by degrees.
Tony shifted beside her, the leather creaking under his weight. His hand hovered near hers, trembling slightly before he pulled it back again. He’d been doing that a lot lately—reaching for her and then stopping, like he couldn’t decide if touching her would help or hurt.
The car slowed at a red light. Through the window, New York continued its relentless pace—people rushing past, umbrellas bobbing above heads as a light drizzle began to fall. The world kept spinning while hers had stopped three months ago in a sterile doctor’s office.
Tony rubbed his hand over his face, stubble rasping against his palm. He looked older than she’d ever seen him—the lines around his eyes deeper, the gray at his temples more pronounced. He hadn’t been sleeping; she could tell by the shadows beneath his eyes, the slight tremor in his hands. For all his billions, for all his genius, he couldn’t fix this. Couldn’t fix her.
He shifted again, reaching into the center console between them. His fingers emerged clutching her old Walkman—the clunky silver one with her name etched into the back in his messy handwriting with a Blondie sticker on the back.
“Thought you might want this,” he said, voice softening as he held it out. “For the ride home.”
Isabelle stared at the Walkman, her throat tightening. She reached for it with trembling fingers, the familiar weight and shape of it strange against her paper-thin skin. The plastic was warm, as though Tony had been holding it for a while, waiting for the right moment.
“There’s a tape already in there,” he said, watching her carefully. “Just... thought it might help.”
Isabelle slipped the headphones over her ears, the cushions settling against her bare scalp where golden curls used to be. Her fingers fumbled with the play button.
“Here,” Tony said, reaching over. His fingers brushed against hers as he pressed play, the first contact in days that wasn’t clinical or accidental. The touch lingered, warm and solid and real.
The static crackle came first, that familiar pop and hiss that had been the soundtrack to so many moments of her life. Then the guitar—those opening notes that felt like coming home, like safety, like everything good that existed before cancer hollowed her out.
Someone told me long ago...
She closed her eyes, letting the music wash over her, through her.
The rain song. Their song.
“Dad,” she whispered, the word catching in her throat.
When she opened her eyes, Tony was watching her, his expression raw and unguarded. No pretense, no forced cheerfulness, no desperate attempts to fix what couldn’t be fixed. Just her father, terrified and loving her so much it hurt to look at him.
“I know, Izzy-bell,” he said, his voice breaking on the nickname. “I know.”
This time, when his hand moved toward hers, he didn’t pull back. His fingers curled around hers, warm and solid, anchoring her as the music played on.
I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain?
The car continued through the rain-slicked streets of Manhattan, carrying them home. Outside, the storm intensified, raindrops hammering against the roof in a chaotic rhythm. But inside, with the rain song playing in her ears and her father’s hand holding hers, Isabelle felt something she hadn’t felt in months.
Coming down on a sunny day...
March 2015
Isabelle pushed the door open with her shoulder, the familiar smell of motor oil, coffee, and ozone greeting her before the visual chaos did. The lab spread out before her in its usual state of controlled mayhem—holograms suspended in mid-air like neon jellyfish, half-assembled Iron Man gauntlets scattered across workbenches, and DUM-E hovering anxiously near a small fire extinguisher, his claw opening and closing in that nervous tic he’d had since she was a kid.
The bot whirred excitedly when he spotted her, abandoning his fire safety post to roll toward her with alarming enthusiasm.
“Easy, buddy,” she murmured, balancing the plate of sandwiches in one hand to pat his arm with the other. “Still mad about the smoothie incident from yesterday?”
DUM-E made a series of beeps that sounded suspiciously like a robotic version of pouting.
“Yeah, well, motor oil isn’t a food group, no matter what Dad tells you.”
And there was Tony, bent over a console at the far end of the lab, his back to her. His shoulders hunched in that telltale way that meant he’d been in the same position for hours, maybe days. His fingers moved with the precision of a surgeon over circuitry so delicate it looked like spider silk, muttering a steady stream of technical jargon that would have been incomprehensible to anyone who hadn’t grown up translating Tony-speak.
“...recalibrate the electromagnetic pulse modulator... no, that’s not right...JARVIS, run simulation seven again, focus on the power distribution through the secondary coils...”
“Hey, genius,” she called out, stepping further into his domain. “Dinner.”
Tony barely glanced up, his fingers never pausing in their dance across the delicate wiring. “Ten minutes.”
“Nope. Now.” Isabelle navigated around a precarious tower of holographic schematics, narrowly avoiding a collision with what looked like the disemboweled remains of a Roomba. The doors slid shut behind her with a pneumatic hiss. “Before Natasha gets hangry and shanks someone with a fork. Again.” The incident with Clint last week had been both terrifying and impressive—Natasha had moved so fast the fork had embedded itself half an inch into the wooden table before anyone realized what had happened.
Tony grumbled something unintelligible, waving a dismissive hand in her direction without looking up. His fingers continued their intricate work, soldering iron leaving whispers of smoke that curled upward into the lab’s ventilation system.
Isabelle sighed, setting the plate down on the nearest clear surface—a rare find in Tony’s workshop. She was about to launch into the well-rehearsed “you need to eat actual food, not just coffee and spite” lecture when the lab’s sound system switched tracks.
The familiar guitar intro filled the space between them, those notes she’d know anywhere, in any context.
Someone told me long ago…
Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. It wasn’t just any song playing over Tony’s workshop speakers. It was the song—their song—floating through the air like a ghost from the past.
She hadn’t heard it in the wild for years. Not randomly playing in some café, not drifting from someone’s car window. Certainly not here in the Tower where Tony’s lab soundtrack typically oscillated between AC/DC and Black Sabbath at volumes that made Bruce cover his ears and retreat to his meditation corner.
Her heartbeat quickened, syncing instinctively to the rhythm that had punctuated so many moments of her childhood. Memories flickered through her mind with vivid clarity: golden pancake edges crisping in the pan, her tiny sock-feet sliding across polished floors, Tony’s laugh echoing off workshop walls. Later memories too—IV drips and hospital blankets, her father’s hand warm around her cold fingers while John Fogerty’s voice asked that eternal question.
“The rain song...” she whispered, the words escaping before she could catch them.
The soft phrase hung in the lab air, barely audible over the music, but Tony’s hands stilled instantly over his work. His shoulders tensed, then relaxed as he straightened slowly, joints popping in audible protest after hours hunched over circuitry. When he turned to face her, the harsh lab lights caught the silver threading through his temples, illuminating the fine lines around his eyes that deepened when he was tired.
For just a second—one heartbeat of time—the exhaustion melted off his face. “You still call it that?” he asked, a slow smile blooming across his features.
Isabelle shrugged, trying to play it casual even as warmth spread through her chest. She leaned her hip against the workbench, careful not to disturb the delicate array of tools. “You sang it like a complete lunatic every time I asked for it. Burned it into my tiny, impressionable brain.” She mimicked an exaggerated guitar strum. “Complete with air guitar and those weird shimmy moves.”
“I did not shimmy,” Tony protested, pointing a micro-screwdriver at her accusingly. His eyes narrowed, but the corner of his mouth twitched upward. “I executed perfectly choreographed dance maneuvers that were simply ahead of their time.”
“Is that what we’re calling it?” Isabelle arched an eyebrow, fighting to keep her expression neutral. “Because I distinctly remember Mom saying you looked like an electrocuted octopus.”
Tony’s laugh burst out, genuine and unguarded. “Laura had no appreciation for artistic innovation.” He set the screwdriver down, running a hand through his hair and leaving it standing in disheveled spikes. “Remember when you were, what, six? And you insisted we play it during that fancy benefit dinner?”
“God, yes.” Isabelle groaned, covering her face with one hand. “You hijacked the string quartet’s sound system.”
“The board member’s face—” Tony snapped his fingers, trying to recall the name.
“Navarro,” Isabelle supplied.
“Right! Navarro. Man looked like he’d swallowed a lemon whole when you started doing the—” Tony broke off, making a circular motion with his finger.
“The spin move,” Isabelle finished, dropping her hand to demonstrate a wobbly twirl. “Nearly took out a waiter with a tray of champagne.”
“You were wearing those ridiculous light-up sneakers—”
“That you bought me!”
“—and that frilly dress Laura picked out—”
“Which I hated—”
“—and somehow you managed to convince half the board members to join in.” Tony’s eyes crinkled at the corners, lost in the memory. “Obie was furious.”
Something in Isabelle’s chest tightened at the mention of Obadiah Stane, but she pushed it aside. This moment was too rare, too precious to taint with old wounds.
Tony’s fingers tapped against the workbench in perfect rhythm, a habit so ingrained he probably didn’t even realize he was doing it.
“You know,” he said, his voice softening as he studied her face, “your mom hated this song.”
“She did not,” Isabelle countered automatically, then paused. “Wait, really?”
Tony nodded, a wistful smile playing at his lips. “Said it was ‘repetitive and lyrically simplistic.’ Direct quote.” He mimicked Laura’s precise diction perfectly. “But you were obsessed with it from the first time you heard it. Couldn’t figure out why.”
Isabelle felt her cheeks warm. She glanced down at her hands, suddenly fascinated by a tiny scar across her knuckle. “It reminded me of you,” she admitted quietly.
Tony went still, his fingers halting their rhythmic tapping. “You’ve said that before.”
“Still true.” She nodded, not looking up. “Your voice. Scratchy but warm.” She shrugged one shoulder, feeling suddenly vulnerable. “And it was the first song we ever danced to in the workshop. I was supposed to be with Mom, but I snuck out and came to find you instead.”
“I remember,” Tony said softly. “You had those ridiculous butterfly clips in your hair.”
“You let me stand on your feet while we danced.” The memory was so clear—Tony’s hands holding hers, her tiny Mary Janes balanced on his worn workshop boots as they swayed around the concrete floor. “You smelled like motor oil and that weird coffee Mom always said would kill you someday.”
“Still drinking it,” Tony said with a half-smile, gesturing to a mug sitting precariously close to a soldering iron. “Still not dead.”
“Yet,” Isabelle countered, but there was no heat in it.
A comfortable silence settled between them as the song played on. DUM-E wheeled closer, his claw extending toward Isabelle with a series of inquisitive beeps.
“No, I’m not dancing with you,” she told the bot firmly. “Last time you nearly dislocated my shoulder.”
DUM-E drooped dramatically, servos whining in disappointment.
“Drama queen,” Tony muttered fondly. “Wonder where he gets that from.”
“Certainly not from you,” Isabelle deadpanned. “You’re the picture of stoic restraint.”
Tony snorted, reaching for the sandwich plate she’d set down. He examined the contents with exaggerated suspicion. “Did you make these, or did Steve? Because last time you made sandwiches—”
“That was one time,” Isabelle protested. “And how was I supposed to know the mayonnaise had gone bad?”
“The smell, Izzy. The unholy, ungodly smell that permeated the entire communal floor for three days.” Tony peeled back the bread, inspecting the layers. “I had to buy a new couch because the stench wouldn’t come out of the cushions.”
“Steve made them,” she assured him, rolling her eyes. “Your delicate stomach is safe.”
Tony took a bite, humming appreciatively. “Captain America: saving the world and making a damn good turkey club. Man of many talents.”
The song was winding down now, those final guitar notes fading. Isabelle felt a pang of something like loss as the last chords dissolved into silence.
Tony must have seen it on her face. He set down his sandwich and wiped his hands on his jeans. “JARVIS, queue it up again.”
“Of course, sir,” the AI responded smoothly.
“You don’t have to—” Isabelle started.
“I want to,” Tony interrupted, stepping away from his workbench. He extended his hand toward her, an echo of a gesture he’d made thousands of times throughout her childhood. “One dance? For old times’ sake?”
Isabelle hesitated.
The opening guitar notes started again. Tony’s hand remained outstretched, patient, waiting.
“I’m too big to stand on your feet now,” she said, trying for levity but hearing the slight tremor in her voice.
“I think I can manage,” Tony replied softly.
Isabelle placed her hand in his. His palm was warm and calloused, familiar in a way that made her throat tighten. He pulled her gently into the open space between workbenches, one hand settling at her waist while the other kept hold of hers.
“You remember the steps?” he asked as they began to move.
“You mean your patented ‘sway back and forth while occasionally spinning’ technique?” Isabelle smiled. “I think I can handle it.”
They moved together in the center of the workshop, surrounded by the scattered pieces of Tony’s latest projects. DUM-E wheeled in excited circles around them, his claw bobbing in time to the music.
The chorus swelled around them again, John Fogerty’s voice filling the lab. Tony spun her, then pulled her back in, closer this time. Isabelle let her head rest briefly against his shoulder, breathing in the familiar scent of him—expensive cologne barely masking motor oil and coffee.
For just a moment, she was a kid again, safe in her father’s arms while the rain song played. Before the cancer, before the experiments, before Iron Man and aliens and all the complications.
“I missed this,” she whispered, the words slipping out before she could stop them.
Tony’s arm tightened around her waist. “Me too, Izzy-bell,” he murmured into her hair. “Me too.”
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The Stark cabin wakes slow, steeped in sunlight and the smell of coffee.
Morgan’s laughter hums in the background, warm and safe, until Pepper leads Isabelle down a hallway she’s been avoiding—to Tony’s office, and the two things he left behind just for her.One is a box.
The other is his voice.In the flicker of a hologram, Tony says everything they never had time for.
And when the rain comes, he tells her what to do.Dance.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 82: When It Rains, Dance
Chapter 82: When It Rains, Dance
Summary:
A Stark cabin morning.
Coffee in the air, cartoons in the background, sunlight spilling slow and golden across the floor.Morgan’s laughter. Pepper’s knock.
And a door Isabelle’s been avoiding since the funeral.Inside waits Tony’s office.
And two final gifts—one made of light, the other of memory.A father’s voice.
A daughter’s tears.
A Walkman, a song, and the reminder that she was never too much.When it rains, he tells her—
Dance.
Notes:
Okay....listen...I PROMISE the waterworks are almost over...but we've got one more chapter of pure tears and heartbreak because...well, you'll see why, and omg it's so worth it 😭😭😭 Also, I made a new playlist to go along with a part of this chapter (you totally don't have to listen to it while you read, but...when you hit THAT scene, you'll get it 👀). I'll drop the link below!!!!
Thank you all so much for crying with me. Love you all 3000 💚💚💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Wild World" by Yusuf/Cat Stevens
🎧Izzy's Mix:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2XCiklvrNhQleFSfsquYuc?si=d6e2f5113da64a55
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The next morning unfolded in that peculiar Stark-cabin way—gentle and unhurried, as if time moved differently here than in the rest of the world. Sunlight didn’t just enter the kitchen; it poured through the windows in thick, golden streams that painted warm rectangles across the hardwood floor. Isabelle tracked their slow migration with half-lidded eyes, counting minutes by inches of light.
The smell of coffee lingered in the air, rich and familiar. The scent clung to everything from the wooden beams overhead, the worn leather of the couch, even Morgan’s wild bedhead hair. Isabelle breathed it in, letting it fill her lungs. It smelled like Tony. Like home.
Morgan sat crossed-legged on the couch, close enough that Isabelle could feel the small vibrations of her excitement whenever something happened on screen. The cartoon played at a carefully modulated volume loud enough for Morgan to hear the jokes, quiet enough that the cabin maintained its morning tranquility.
“That one’s my favorite,” Morgan announced, pointing with the serious authority only a four-year-old could muster.
“Yeah?” Isabelle shifted, tucking her legs beneath her and adjusting the blanket that covered them both. Her arm rested lightly around Morgan’s shoulders—not pulling her close, but present. “Why’s that?”
Morgan launched into an explanation that involved robots, princesses, and something about quantum physics that was either entirely made up or terrifyingly accurate. Isabelle nodded along, feeling the weight of the little girl’s trust like something physical against her skin.
She felt almost normal. The thought arrived unbidden, dangerous in its simplicity. Normal. As if she belonged here, in this pocket of peace. As if the blood on her hands could be washed away by cartoon laughter and morning sunlight.
The floorboards in the hallway creaked—a deliberate sound. Pepper never made noise unless she meant to.
“Isabelle?” Her voice was soft but carried an undercurrent of purpose that made Isabelle’s muscles tense reflexively. “Can we have a moment?”
Isabelle looked down at Morgan, who didn’t even glance away from the screen, just gave a distracted thumbs-up before dissolving into giggles at some animated pratfall.
Isabelle smirked and untangled herself from the blanket, limbs suddenly awkward and too long. A strand of hair fell across her face, and she brushed it behind her ear, buying seconds to compose herself. The floor felt cold beneath her bare feet as she stood.
“Sure,” she said, voice carefully neutral. She caught Pepper’s eyes—warm but unreadable—and followed her down the hallway, away from the cartoon sanctuary and into whatever conversation was waiting. Each step felt heavier than the last, her heart thumping in an irregular rhythm against her ribs.
They walked in silence, Isabelle keeping a half-step behind Pepper. Each step took them deeper into the house, away from the living room, and toward a part of the cabin Isabelle had been carefully avoiding.
When Pepper stopped at the closed door at the end of the hallway, Isabelle felt her throat tighten. She knew what lay behind it—Tony’s office.
“I haven’t really been in here since…” Pepper’s voice trailed off, her fingers hesitating on the doorknob. The unspoken “since he died” hung in the air between them.
The door opened with a soft groan of protest, as if the room itself was reluctant to be disturbed. The office looked frozen in time. Half-finished projects sprawled across the workbench. A coffee mug—one of his favorites, with a terrible physics pun—sat on the desk.
Isabelle remained in the doorway, unable to make herself cross the threshold. Her fingers gripped the doorframe, knuckles white.
“I keep meaning to…” Pepper gestured vaguely at the room, “to sort through it all. But it never feels like the right time.” Her voice was steady, but Isabelle caught the slight tremor in her hands.
Pepper moved to the desk, opening the top drawer. Something in her posture shifted, a squaring of shoulders, a slight lift of her chin—the subtle armor of someone preparing to do something difficult.
From the drawer, she withdrew two items: a sleek black device with the unmistakable elegance of Stark Tech, and a wooden box. The box was unassuming—dark walnut with a simple brass clasp.
“He asked me to give these to you,” Pepper said, turning to face Isabelle. Her voice was steady, but her fingers traced the edge of the box with a tenderness that made Isabelle’s chest ache. “He made them before they went for the stones. Before he...” She paused, the word “died” hanging unspoken between them. Pepper looked down at the items in her hands, a soft, sad smile touching her lips. “Like the one he made for us all, but this—” she held up the device, “—this one is just for you. He was very specific about that.”
Isabelle didn’t move. Couldn’t move. Her limbs felt leaden, pinned in place by the weight of what that small device might contain. Tony’s last words to her. Her father’s voice, preserved and waiting, like a ghost trapped in circuitry.
“I meant to give it to you after the funeral,” Pepper continued, her voice gentle but matter-of-fact—so like her, never pushing too hard but never backing away from brutal truths. “But you were gone before I could. And then...” She shook her head slightly. “Well, timing was never the strong suit of our family, was it?”
Pepper stepped forward, closing the distance between them since Isabelle couldn’t seem to make herself cross the threshold into Tony’s space. The device felt impossibly heavy as it settled against Isabelle’s palm, warm from Pepper’s hand. The wooden box followed, heavier than it looked.
“He said...” Pepper hesitated, choosing her words carefully. “He said you should listen to the message first. Before opening the box.”
Isabelle’s fingers curled around both items, her knuckles white. “Did you—” Her voice caught, and she cleared her throat. “Did you listen to it?”
Pepper’s eyes softened. “No. I didn’t.” She reached out, her hand hovering near Isabelle’s arm without quite touching. “Take your time with it. Whatever he said... he meant it, Izzy. Every word.”
The device seemed to pulse against Isabelle’s skin, a technological heartbeat. She could almost feel Tony’s presence radiating from it—his humor, his brilliance, his complicated love. The box felt different—solid, grounding, full of something tangible rather than digital ghosts.
“I don’t know if I can—” Isabelle started, then stopped, the words sticking in her throat.
“You don’t have to do it now,” Pepper said. “Or even today. It’ll wait until you’re ready.”
But Isabelle knew herself too well. If she didn’t do this now, she might never find the courage again. She’d run, like she always did. From Tony. From herself.
“No,” she said, her voice steadier than she felt. “I’ll do it now.” She hesitated, glancing around the office. “Could I... would it be okay if I stayed in here? Just for a little while?”
Something like relief flickered across Pepper’s face. “Of course. Take all the time you need.” She moved toward the door, then paused, turning back. “He loved you, Isabelle. Even when he didn’t know how to show it. Even when you both made it so damn difficult.” A small, knowing smile touched her lips. “Stark stubbornness.”
Then she was gone, pulling the door closed behind her with a soft click that echoed in the quiet room.
Isabelle stood frozen, clutching Tony’s final gifts. The black device seemed to grow heavier in her hand with each passing second, as if gaining mass from the weight of what it contained. Her thumb brushed over its smooth surface, finding a small indentation—a fingerprint scanner. Her heart hammered against her ribs, each beat echoing in her ears.
She swallowed hard, her throat dry. The office felt too small suddenly, too full of him.
“Okay,” she whispered to herself. “Okay. It’s okay. Don’t run. Get it together, Stark.”
She pressed her thumb against the scanner. The device hummed to life, warming against her palm. A soft blue light pulsed once, twice, then expanded outward. She set it carefully on the floor, stepping back as the hologram flickered and stabilized.
And there he was.
Not really. But the projection was too perfect, too present—a ghost made of light, standing in the middle of his office as if he’d never left. The hologram captured every detail: the slight asymmetry of his smile, the way his left eyebrow arched a fraction higher than his right, the nervous energy that always seemed to radiate from him even when he was standing still.
Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. Her legs threatened to give out beneath her. She reached blindly for the edge of his desk, steadying herself.
“Hey, kid.”
His voice. Not the public Tony Stark voice he used for press conferences and speeches. This was how he sounded at three in the morning in the lab, or when it was just the two of them and he thought she was too focused on her work to notice the softness that crept into his words.
He looked older than she remembered. Tired in that way he never let anyone see. The goatee was perfectly trimmed, but there were deeper lines around his eyes. Not just from age—though that too—but from worry. From love.
From knowing exactly how this would end.
“If you’re watching this,” he said, his eyes finding hers with uncanny precision, “then things went sideways. Or maybe they didn’t. Maybe I’m just being morbid and overly dramatic—which, let’s be honest, I’ve been known to do on occasion.”
He tried to smirk, but it didn’t hold. The expression slipped, revealing something raw underneath before he could catch it.
“I made a version of this for all of you, but this one’s yours, Izzy. Just yours.” He shoved his hands into his pockets, then pulled them out again—restless, always restless. “Because I owe you more than I ever got the chance to say out loud.”
His fingers tapped rhythmically against the workbench in front of him. Tap-tap-tap-tap. Pause. Tap-tap. The same pattern he’d drum out when he was thinking through a particularly difficult problem. A nervous habit she hadn’t seen in years.
“I know I wasn’t an easy dad.” He laughed, a short, self-deprecating sound. “Hell, I wasn’t really a dad for too long. Not in the way you needed.”
Isabelle sank slowly to the floor, her back against the desk. The wooden box pressed against her thigh. She pulled her knees to her chest, making herself small like she used to do as a child.
Tony exhaled through his nose, steadying himself. The hologram was so detailed she could see the way his chest expanded with the breath, how his shoulders dropped slightly on the exhale.
“But Isabelle...” He paused, and for a moment, it looked like he might cry. “I need you to know something. Something I hope you already feel, somewhere under all that fire and armor you wear now.”
He looked directly at her. No masks. No jokes. No deflection. Just Tony, stripped of everything except what mattered most.
“I am so proud of you.”
A beat. His eyes went glassy. The blue light of the hologram caught the moisture there, turning it into something ethereal.
“Not because you’re strong—though Christ, kid, you’re the strongest person I’ve ever known. Not because you’re brilliant—though you are, even when you pretend not to be.” He smiled, and it was crooked and real and achingly familiar. “I’m proud of you because you survived. Because you kept going when anyone else would have broken. Because you fight like hell, every single day, to be better than what they tried to make you.”
Isabelle pressed her hand against her mouth, trapping the sound that threatened to escape. Her vision blurred, the hologram wavering through her tears.
“I know what you think,” Tony continued, his voice gentler now. “I know you think I didn’t want you. That I kept you at arm’s length because of what happened with your mom, or because of what they did to you.”
He ran a hand through his hair, leaving it slightly disheveled in a way that made him look younger, more vulnerable.
“The truth is, I was terrified.” The admission seemed to cost him something. “Not of you—never of you. I was scared of failing you. Of not being what you needed. Of being my father.” A shadow crossed his face. “And then I did exactly what he would have done. I kept my distance. I built walls. I told myself it was for your protection, but really—” He stopped, shook his head. “Really, I was protecting myself.”
Tap-tap-tap-tap. Pause. Tap-tap.
“But you deserved better than that. You deserved a father who showed up. Who fought for you. Who told you every day how goddamn amazing you are.” His voice cracked. “And I’m sorry, Izzy. I’m so sorry I couldn’t be that for you.”
The hologram shifted, and suddenly he was crouching down, as if he’d somehow known exactly where she would be sitting. His eyes found hers again, and the illusion was so perfect that for one wild, desperate moment, she thought she could reach out and touch him.
“I wish I could stop there. I wish this were just a montage of greatest hits—piano solos, matching leather jackets, you beating me at Mario Kart.” The corner of his mouth twitched upward. “But it’s not. Because I keep coming back to Siberia.”
The word hung in the air between them, heavy and cold. Siberia. The bunker. The videos. The fight that had torn everything apart.
“You chose Steve.” There was no accusation in his voice, just a quiet acknowledgment of fact. “I know why now. I do. He gave you something I couldn’t back then—steadiness, purpose. A fight you believed in.”
Isabelle’s throat constricted. She’d never heard him admit that before. Never imagined he could understand.
“And I told myself I was mad at you for that. For siding with him. For running. For not calling.” His hologram shifted slightly, leaning forward. “But the truth is, I was just...hurt.”
The admission seemed to cost him something. Tony Stark, who deflected vulnerability with sarcasm and buried pain beneath layers of quips and misdirection, was laying himself bare.
“You died, Izzy.” His voice cracked on her name. “In my arms. That’s not a metaphor. You bled out on me. I felt your body go still.”
The memory slammed into her—the cold concrete floor beneath her, the taste of copper in her mouth, Tony’s face above her, desperate and pleading as darkness closed in from all sides. She’d never seen the aftermath, never known what it had done to him to watch her slip away.
“And by the time I could breathe again, you were gone.” His eyes were distant now, seeing something beyond the room. “You don’t come back from that kind of silence. Not really.”
Isabelle’s chest heaved with a silent sob. The Avengers had fractured. Tony had returned to New York. And she’d chosen to stay with Steve, to keep running.
“And then the Blip happened, and you were gone again.” His voice hollowed out, became something haunted. “I wasted so much time being angry when I should’ve been trying to get you back. Home.”
Home.
Tony’s projection swallowed hard, his jaw working. “I broke. All those years I spent holding onto pride, rage, the damn Accords—it meant nothing. I would’ve burned a thousand Accords to get you back.”
Tony’s eyes found hers again, piercing in their intensity.
“I blamed Steve. I blamed the world. But I should’ve blamed myself. For not protecting you. For not believing you. For thinking I knew better when I didn’t.”
The hologram shifted again, and now Tony was sitting cross-legged on the floor, mirroring her position exactly. If she reached out, their knees would almost touch.
“I was wrong.” Each word was deliberate, weighted. “About everything. About the Accords. About Barnes.” His voice softened. “About the way I treated you. You were right. And I’m so sorry it took me dying to say that.”
He looked away for a moment, his eyes glassy, jaw clenched like he was trying to swallow everything he’d never gotten to fix. When he looked back, there was something different in his expression—a vulnerability she’d only seen glimpses of before.
“It wasn’t until Morgan was born that something...” His voice caught, and he cleared his throat. “When they put her in my arms, this tiny, perfect thing, everything just...shifted. I looked at her, and I thought—this is my second chance. To not be such a shitty father.”
He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, hands clasped together so tightly his knuckles whitened.
“And maybe, just maybe, to become someone you could forgive.”
The words hit Isabelle hard. She pressed her palm against her sternum, feeling the hollow ache spread outward. Forgive him? When had she ever thought he needed forgiveness? It was always her—always her mistakes, her choices, her betrayals.
“You’re gonna be okay, kid.” His voice grew stronger, more certain. “You’re stronger than I ever was. Braver.” A crooked smile touched his lips. “Scarier, too—but in the badass way, not the ‘oh god, she’s going to blow up my lab again’ way.” The smile faded, replaced by something more solemn. “And if there’s any justice in this universe, you’ll get to stop fighting someday. You’ll get to breathe.”
He pressed his palm flat against his chest, right over the spot where the arc reactor used to be.
“And when you do, I hope you remember that I loved you. Always. Even when I was too stupid or stubborn or scared to show it.”
Isabelle’s vision blurred, tears spilling down her cheeks. She didn’t bother wiping them away. There was no one here to see, no one to pretend for. Just her and this ghost made of light and code and all the things her father had never managed to say while he was alive.
Tony reached down, picking something up from off-screen—a box that matched the one now pressing against her thigh. He placed it in view, his fingers lingering on the lid.
“I kept stuff. From when you were little.” He gave a self-deprecating laugh. “I know that sounds creepy, but... I wanted you to have it. To remember that there were good moments. That I didn’t miss them.”
His voice dropped to nearly a whisper.
“I hear that song, and I see you dancing in the living room.” His smile grew, warming his entire face. “All curls and bare feet and those ridiculous sparkly pajama pants you refused to take off for like, three weeks straight. You were five, I think.” He shook his head, lost in the memory. “You made me play it seventeen times in a row. And every time, you made me get up and dance with you.”
The memory hit her with unexpected clarity—the cool marble floor beneath her feet, the way Tony had pretended to grumble but couldn’t hide his smile, how he’d lifted her up and spun her around until they were both dizzy and laughing. She’d forgotten that. How had she forgotten that?
Tony looked back at the camera, and the raw longing in his eyes made her chest constrict.
“I’d give anything to do that again. One more time.”
Silence stretched between them, heavy with all the things they’d never get to do again. All the moments that had slipped away while they were busy being stubborn and hurt and afraid.
“I hope you’re happy, kid.” His voice was rougher now, emotion scraping it raw. “I hope you find love. Peace. Whatever version of normal you want.” He leaned in slightly, his eyes intense. “And when it rains—really rains—don’t hide from it.”
He smiled, but it was different from his usual smirk or his camera-ready grin. This smile was sad and full and achingly genuine.
“Dance.”
The hologram dimmed, and Isabelle’s breath caught in her throat. No. Not yet. She wasn’t ready for him to go. Not again. Her fingers curled into fists, nails biting into her palms as she fought the urge to reach for him.
The screen flickered once more, brightening. Tony reappeared, leaning in closer to the camera.
“Oh. One more thing.”
He raised his eyebrows, that familiar expression that always preceded his most important points.
“You were never too much.” Each word was deliberate, weighted with certainty. “Not once. Don’t let the world tell you otherwise.”
Tony’s expression softened, his eyes crinkling at the corners.
“I love you, Isabelle Maria Stark.” His voice wrapped around her name like it was something precious. He swallowed hard. “Don’t ever forget that.”
He pressed his palm to the camera like a goodbye, holding it there. The blue light of the hologram made his hand look ethereal, ghostly. She could almost feel the warmth of it against her cheek.
One heartbeat. Two. Three. Four. He lingered longer than necessary, as if he knew she needed the extra seconds. As if he was as reluctant to let go as she was.
Then the screen went black.
The silence that followed was absolute. Isabelle sat frozen, her breath caught in her lungs, her heart hammering against her ribs. The wooden box dug into her thigh, heavy with possibility.
She stared at the space where Tony had been, half expecting him to reappear, to have one more thing to say. But the hologram remained dark. He was gone.
Again.
Her fingers trembled as she reached for the box. The wood felt warm against her palm, smooth from years of handling. The brass clasp caught the light as she hesitated, her thumb hovering over it.
What was she afraid of? That whatever was inside wouldn’t live up to the memory? Or that it would, and the weight of everything they’d lost would finally crush her completely?
The clasp made a soft click as it released. Isabelle held her breath, lifted the lid, and felt the world stop around her.
Inside, nestled in faded blue velvet, lay a Walkman.
Not just any Walkman—her Walkman. The one with the chipped corner where she’d dropped it running down the stairs. The one with the tiny Blondie sticker peeling off the back. The one she thought she’d lost forever after her parents’ divorce.
“Oh my god,” she whispered as her fingers hovered over it, almost afraid to touch, as if it might dissolve beneath her fingertips. When she finally gathered the courage to lift it from the box, it felt exactly as she remembered—solid, familiar, the weight of it against her palm like greeting an old friend.
Beneath where the Walkman had rested lay a cassette tape in a clear plastic case. Her heart stuttered when she saw the handwritten label: “Izzy’s Mix - T.S.”
The handwriting was unmistakably Tony’s—slightly slanted, the letters crowded together as if his hand couldn’t keep pace with his thoughts. She traced the letters with her fingertip, feeling the slight indentations where he’d pressed the pen too hard.
“You kept it,” she murmured, her voice cracking. “All this time.”
He’d made the mix himself—CCR, Blondie, AC/DC, Guns N’Roses. Songs that made him feel something, he’d said. Songs that might make her feel something, too. Songs for her.
Isabelle swallowed hard, setting the Walkman aside to see what else the box contained. Her fingers brushed against something cool and metallic—a small golden trophy, its plastic marble base scratched from years of handling. She lifted it out, turning it to catch the light.
FIRST PLACE - JUNIOR DIVISION NEW YORK STATE PIANO COMPETITION ISABELLE M. STARK
A strangled laugh escaped her throat. “I can’t believe you kept this,” she whispered, running her thumb over the engraved letters. “It was just some stupid recital.”
She set the trophy aside, her vision blurring as she continued to explore the box’s contents. Photographs—dozens of them, preserved in acid-free sleeves. Tony had always been meticulous about the things that mattered to him.
Her fingers trembled as she flipped through them. Tony teaching her to ride a bike, his hand hovering protectively near the seat. The two of them in matching lab coats, her face split in a gap-toothed grin as she held up some contraption made of wires and duct tape. Rhodey giving her a piggyback ride through Central Park, Tony walking alongside them with that particular smile he reserved just for them—soft, unguarded, nothing like the smirk he showed the rest of the world.
“You didn’t miss them,” she whispered, echoing Tony’s words from the hologram. “You were there.”
She’d convinced herself over the years that the good memories were anomalies—brief moments of connection in an otherwise distant relationship. But the evidence lay before her, undeniable. Page after page of a childhood she’d half-forgotten, moments she’d buried beneath years of hurt and misunderstanding.
Something soft brushed against her fingers as she reached deeper into the box. She froze, recognizing the texture before she even saw it.
“No way,” she breathed, pulling out a faded purple plush octopus, its tentacles worn thin from years of being clutched in small hands. “Mr. Squiggles.”
The stupid name she’d given it at three years old had somehow stuck. One eye was slightly loose, dangling by a thread, and there was a patch on its head where Tony had clumsily sewn up a tear after she’d dragged it through the sprinklers.
Behind Mr. Squiggles was another familiar shape—a worn rabbit plush with one ear slightly longer than the other. She’d named him Hoppy, equally unimaginative but just as beloved.
“You guys look terrible,” she told them, her voice thick with tears. She hugged them to her chest, inhaling the faint scent that clung to the fabric—a mix of laundry detergent and something else, something that smelled inexplicably like home.
The cassette tape caught her eye again, still nestled in the box. With shaking hands, she picked it up, popped it open, and slid the tape into the Walkman. The mechanism whirred to life, surprisingly functional after all these years—trust Tony to have maintained it, to have made sure it would work when she needed it.
She slipped the headphones over her ears, her finger hesitating over the play button. She pressed play.
There was a moment of silence, just the soft hiss of magnetic tape, and then—
The opening notes of “Have You Ever Seen the Rain” filled her ears.
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New York smells like rain and old ghosts.
One phone call turns into dinner plans, red lipstick, and the faint, dangerous warmth of hope.But just as Isabelle's night with Bucky begins to take shape, the lights die...and she's not alone.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 83: No Place Like Home
Chapter 83: No Place Like Home
Summary:
She dressed for a date.
Lipstick, waves, something green to make him stare.
But the lights went out.Now Isabelle is fighting for her life against a ghost from her past—and losing.
Her powers are flickering. Her body’s failing.
And somewhere across the city, Bucky Barnes is still waiting at a table for two.
Notes:
Okay… okay guys…we’re officially in the homestretch of this fic. holy shit. The end is near, and I can’t wait to start writing the sequel (I already picked out a title 👀 and I’m so freaking excited to share it with you all soon). 💚💚💚
Also… let’s take a moment because…HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBASTIAN STAN!!! It’s our boy’s day, and he deserves the world. 💙🥲
As always, thank you for reading, commenting, screaming, crying, and being the absolute best. love you guys 💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Sunshine, Lollipops And Rainbows" by Lesley Gore
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Chapter Text
New York smelled like concrete, rain, and old memories.
The cab ride had been quiet, just the low hum of traffic punctuated by the occasional screech of brakes. Isabelle kept her forehead pressed to the window, watching the city blur past. Raindrops raced down the glass, colliding and separating like the thoughts in her head. She didn’t talk much. Didn’t need to.
The cab pulled to the curb outside her building, tires splashing through a puddle that reflected the neon signs above. The driver dropped her with a polite nod. She offered a soft “thanks” that didn’t quite make it past her breath and shouldered her bag, the weight of it pressing into the knot of tension between her shoulder blades.
The sidewalk buzzed under her feet like it always did—familiar, loud, alive with the energy of eight million people living their lives in compressed space. For the first time in days, she didn’t feel like she was drowning in memory. Not exactly. More like... wading through it, each step deliberate and heavy.
Her apartment greeted her like an old friend—dim, still, faintly dusty. She dropped her keys in the bowl by the door. She toed off her boots, leaving them in a haphazard pile, and let her duffel slump beside the kitchen counter. A single light glowed above the stove, casting long shadows that clung to the hardwood like living things.
She stood there for a moment, just breathing it in. The quiet. The absence of grief that had followed her from Louisiana to the cabin. The strange weight of returning to a place that hadn’t changed, even though she had. The apartment felt like a museum exhibit of her former life—the life before Sam had called, before Walker had taken the shield, before Bucky had looked at her with those eyes that understood too much.
Her fingers itched toward her phone—reflex, instinct, the need to hear his voice suddenly overwhelming. Bucky would answer, she knew he would. One call and he’d be there, steady and solid and real.
But she made herself walk through the apartment first. Open the windows to let in the city sounds. Check the fridge. Change out of the cabin clothes that smelled like her father’s office and into something soft—an oversized sweatshirt she’d stolen from Bucky.
She pulled her hair up in a lazy bun, tendrils escaping to frame her face. Her bare feet padded across hardwood as she moved through the ritual of being home again, touching surfaces, reacquainting herself with the space. The bookshelf with dog-eared paperbacks. The couch where she’d curled up during thunderstorms. The wall of windows overlooked a city that had mourned and rebuilt and kept going, just like it always did.
Her phone buzzed in her pocket. A text from Bucky: You make it home okay?
Something warm unfurled in her chest, pushing back against the hollow ache. Her thumb hovered over the screen, suddenly uncertain what to say. How to explain that “home” felt like a foreign country now. How to admit that the only place that had felt right in weeks was wherever he happened to be.
She pressed the call button instead of typing back, needing his voice more than she needed her next breath. The phone rang once, twice—each second stretching like taffy.
“Hey,” Bucky’s voice came through the line, low and warm, a little rough around the edges. The sound of it settled something restless inside her.
A smile tugged at her lips before she could stop it. “Hey, you,” she said, voice softer than she’d intended. She made her way to the couch, the phone pressed between her ear and shoulder.
There was a pause on the other end—not awkward, just careful. Like he was checking to make sure it was really her, or maybe deciding what version of himself to be. Then—“I missed you.”
The words hit her square in the chest. Soft. Direct. No hesitation. No deflection. Just Bucky Barnes, cutting straight through the bullshit the way he always did.
Her smile deepened as she curled into the corner of her couch, tucking her bare feet beneath her. “Yeah?” she murmured, the single syllable carrying more weight than it should. The rain tapped against her windows, a gentle percussion to accompany the sudden quickening of her pulse. “I missed you, too.”
Another pause. She could hear movement on his end—a faint creak of floorboards, maybe, or him sitting down. The rustle of fabric against the receiver. She pictured him in his apartment, maybe perched on the edge of that worn couch, elbows on his knees, the way he sat when he was thinking hard about something.
“So,” he said, voice lighter now, but still carrying that undercurrent of concern that made her chest ache in the best way, “how was it? The cabin?”
Isabelle exhaled slowly, letting her head fall back against the cushions. The ceiling above her was cracked in one corner—a small imperfection she’d never bothered to fix. “It was...a lot,” she said honestly, tracing the crack with her eyes. “Good. Needed. Kind of cracked me open, but in a good way.” She hesitated, then added softly, “I’m glad I went.”
“Yeah,” Bucky said quietly, and she could hear the smile in his voice. “Me too.”
Rain continued to patter against the windows, creating shifting shadows across her floor. In the distance, a siren wailed—New York’s constant reminder that life went on, crisis or no crisis.
There was a beat of quiet that passed between them, easy and full of everything they didn’t have to say.
“You, uh—” Isabelle hesitated, fingers tightening around her phone. The question felt too heavy, too important to just toss out casually, but she needed to know. “You talk to Yori?”
The name hung in the air between them, charged with everything it represented. The old man with kind eyes who’d invited Bucky for lunch every Wednesday. The father whose son had been murdered by the Winter Soldier’s hand. The weight of history that Bucky carried with him everywhere.
Silence stretched across the line. She could hear his breathing change—a subtle hitch, then deliberate control. In her mind’s eye, she saw him sitting alone in his sparse apartment, shoulders hunched forward, maybe pressing his metal fingers against his temple the way he did when memories crowded too close.
“I did,” he finally said, voice dropping to that place it went when he talked about the past—rough-edged and raw, like each word had to be excavated. “Yesterday morning.”
Isabelle pulled her knees tighter to her chest, rain still tapping against her windows in gentle counterpoint to the heaviness in his voice. “How did it go?” she asked softly.
Another pause. She heard the creak of furniture, imagined him shifting his weight, maybe running his flesh hand through his hair, leaving it mussed in that way that always made her want to smooth it down.
“It was...” His voice caught. She heard him swallow. “It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And that’s saying something.” A humorless laugh escaped him, brittle and sharp. “Harder than breaking programming. Harder than—” He stopped himself. “Just harder.”
“James,” she breathed, the name falling from her lips softly.
“I told him everything,” Bucky continued, words coming faster now, like a dam breaking. “About his son. About the Winter Soldier. About me. He just... sat there. So still. And then he cried.” His voice cracked on the last word. “God, Iz, he just sat there and cried. And I couldn’t—I couldn’t even—”
“Breathe,” she reminded him gently, wishing desperately she could be there. “Just breathe.” She heard him inhale shakily, exhale slowly. “Did he...” She wasn’t sure how to ask. “What happened after?”
“He told me to get out,” Bucky said quietly. “But then he stopped me at the door. Asked if his son suffered.” Another painful pause. “I couldn’t lie to him again. But I couldn’t tell him the truth either.”
Isabelle closed her eyes, feeling the weight of that impossible moment. “What did you say?”
“I said it was quick. That he didn’t know what was happening.” His voice had gone flat, clinical, the way it did when emotion threatened to overwhelm him. “It wasn’t entirely a lie.”
Rain streaked down her windows, city lights fracturing through the droplets. Isabelle pressed her forehead against her knees, heart aching for him, for Yori, for the young man whose life had been cut short by orders Bucky never had the chance to refuse.
“I’m proud of you,” she said, the words rising from somewhere deep and true inside her. “I know that doesn’t change anything or make it easier, but I am, James. So damn proud.”
A rustle came through the line, followed by what might have been a shaky exhale. “Don’t,” he mumbled, but there was something vulnerable beneath the protest. “Don’t say stuff like that.”
“Why not?” she asked, a small smile tugging at her lips despite the heaviness of the moment.
“‘Cause now my face is all hot and I probably look like a tomato,” he admitted gruffly. She could picture it perfectly—the flush creeping up his neck, spreading across his cheekbones, his eyes darting away in that shy, flustered way that always made her heart skip.
“Good,” she teased gently. “You deserve it. The blushing, I mean. And the being proud of.” She drew a breath, voice softening. “Not everyone could’ve done what you did, James. Faced him like that. Told him the truth when lying would’ve been easier.”
“Easier for me, maybe,” he said quietly. “Not for him. He deserved the truth, even if—” His voice caught. “Even if it means he hates me forever.”
“Did it feel like that? Like he hated you?”
Bucky was quiet for a long moment. She could almost see him considering the question, brow furrowed in that intense way of his, gaze turned inward.
“No,” he finally said, sounding almost surprised by his own answer. “It wasn’t hate. That’s what I expected—what I deserved—but it wasn’t that.” He paused, and she heard the creak of his couch as he shifted. “It felt like... grief. Just grief. Pure and simple.” Another pause, heavier this time. “And somehow that was worse.”
“Worse?” Isabelle prompted gently, curling her fingers into the worn fabric of her sweatshirt—his sweatshirt.
“Yeah.” His voice roughened. “Hate, I understand. Hate makes sense. But grief—” She heard him swallow. “His grief was so... dignified. Quiet. He just sat there with these tears running down his face, and he didn’t make a sound. Didn’t curse me. Didn’t try to hit me. Just... grieved.”
She heard him shift again, imagined him running his hand through his hair the way he did when emotions threatened to overwhelm him.
“You know what’s fucked up?” he asked, voice suddenly sharper. “Part of me was hoping he would hate me. That he’d scream at me or try to hurt me. Because that—” His voice cracked. “That I could handle. That I’d deserve.”
“James—”
“But his grief? His quiet dignity?” Bucky’s breath hitched. “I don’t know what to do with that, Iz. I don’t know how to carry it.”
“You don’t have to carry it alone,” she said, the words rising from somewhere deep and true inside her. The rain intensified outside, drumming against the glass in a sudden downpour that matched the intensity building in her chest. “That’s the whole point of... of this. Of us.”
The silence that followed felt charged, electric. She could almost see him on the other end—jaw tight, eyes closed, processing her words and everything they implied.
“Yeah,” he finally said, voice softer now, almost tender. “Yeah, I guess it is.”
Another pause stretched between them, but this one felt different—not heavy with pain but warm with possibility.
Bucky cleared his throat. “So,” he said, voice shifting to something lighter, though she could still hear the undercurrent of vulnerability beneath it. “When do I get to see you?”
The question sent a flutter through her stomach, unexpected and almost embarrassingly intense. She drew her knees up tighter to her chest, suddenly feeling like the teenager she’d never really had the chance to be.
“You miss me that much, Buck?” she asked, aiming for teasing but landing somewhere more vulnerable, her voice betraying her with a slight tremor.
“Yeah,” he answered simply, no deflection, no joke. Just honesty that knocked the air from her lungs. “I do. I keep expecting to look up and see you sitting on my counter, stealing my coffee.”
“That was one time,” she said softly, tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear.
“It was at least five times,” he countered, and she could hear the smile breaking through his voice now, the way it smoothed out the rough edges. That particular smile—the one that started slow, reluctant, before spreading into something real—was becoming one of her favorite things. “And you always make that face when you drink it.”
“What face?” She found herself mirroring his invisible smile, lips curving upward.
“Like you’re personally offended that coffee tastes like coffee,” he said, voice dropping into a teasing rumble that made her stomach do a slow flip. “Your nose scrunches up and everything.”
A laugh bubbled up from somewhere deep in her chest, surprising her with its ease. It felt foreign after the heaviness of their conversation, but welcome—like the first breath after being underwater too long.
“It’s not my fault you drink it black like some kind of masochist,” she shot back, settling deeper into the couch cushions. The tension that had been coiled between her shoulder blades since leaving the cabin began to unwind, vertebra by vertebra. “Seriously, it’s like drinking motor oil.”
“Says the woman who puts enough sugar in hers to give a normal person diabetes.”
“Super soldier metabolism,” she countered, drawing her legs up and tucking them beneath her. “I need the calories.”
“Uh-huh.” The skepticism in his voice was belied by the warmth underneath it. She could picture him perfectly—probably sitting on that worn couch of his, one ankle resting on the opposite knee, that half-smile playing at the corner of his mouth.
She traced a finger along the seam of the couch cushion, suddenly aware of how empty her apartment felt. How much she wanted him there, taking up space with his quiet presence. “Wanna get dinner later?”
The pause that followed wasn’t hesitation—it was surprise. She could almost see him straightening slightly, those blue eyes brightening at the invitation.
“Yeah,” he said finally, and she could hear the smile—the real one, the one that reached his eyes and softened the hard angles of his face. “I’d like that. A lot, actually.”
“I was thinking about that Korean place on 32nd.” She traced the rain patterns on her window with her eyes. “The one with the bulgogi that made you close your eyes that time.”
“You mean the place where the chef yelled at me for using the wrong sauce?” Bucky’s voice carried a hint of amusement, that rare lightness she’d been seeing more of lately.
“That’s the one.” She smiled into the phone. “He only yells because he cares.”
“He called me a ‘sauce criminal,’ Iz.”
“You were drowning perfectly good meat in chili oil.”
“I like spicy food,” he defended, and she could hear the smile in his voice—that particular one that started at the corner of his mouth before slowly taking over his whole face. The one that made the fine lines around his eyes crinkle.
“The little banchan dishes too,” she continued, warmth spreading through her chest at the memory. “Those tiny pickled things that you pretended not to like but kept eating anyway.”
“I didn’t pretend anything,” he countered, but there was no heat in it. “They were... aggressively fermented.”
Isabelle laughed, the sound surprising her with how genuine it felt. “God forbid anyone ferment something aggressively around James Barnes.”
“Damn right,” he said, his voice dropping into that playful rumble that always made her stomach tighten. “Some things shouldn’t be rushed.”
The words hung between them, suddenly weighted with meaning beyond pickled vegetables. Isabelle’s fingers stilled on the thread she’d been worrying.
Her heartbeat quickened, the rhythm of it echoing in her ears.
“Seven o’clock?” she asked, trying to keep her voice casual, even as her heart picked up its pace.
“Seven works,” Bucky said, his voice dropping to that low register that always seemed to vibrate directly against her. “You want me to come get you, or...?”
“I’ll meet you there,” she said, tracing a raindrop’s path down the glass with her eyes. “It’s not a long walk from mine.” The words formed in her throat before she could overthink them. “But after...” She paused, suddenly aware of her heartbeat in her ears. “You could walk me home. Maybe stay over.”
The silence that followed wasn’t uncomfortable—just weighted with possibility. She could almost see him on the other end of the line, that slight furrow appearing between his brows as he processed her words.
“Yeah?” His voice had softened, carrying a hint of something that made her stomach tighten.
“Yeah.” She tucked her knees tighter against her chest. “I mean, if you want to. It’s not like it would be the first time.”
“I know,” he said, and she could hear the smile in his voice now. “Just making sure you want me there. After everything with the cabin...”
“I want you here,” she said simply, the words coming easier than she expected. “The apartment feels too quiet. Too empty.”
“Well, we can’t have that,” he murmured, and something in his tone made heat bloom across her skin. “Wouldn’t want you getting lonely.”
“Is that right?” She smiled into the phone. “I seem to remember you being the one who said you missed me first.”
Bucky laughed, the sound rumbling through the line like distant thunder. “Sweetheart, there are a lot of things I miss about you.”
The endearment caught her off guard, sending a flush of warmth through her chest. He’d called her doll before, even dollface jokingly, but sweetheart was new territory. She liked it—maybe too much, the way it wrapped around her like his arms did in the dark.
“James Barnes,” she said, trying for teasing but landing somewhere closer to breathless, “are you flirting with me?”
“Trying to,” he replied, and she could hear the smile in his voice, that particular one that transformed his whole face, softening the hard angles and making him look years younger. “Is it working?”
“Mmm.” She drew the sound out, letting her eyes drift closed. “I don’t know. Might need more evidence before I can make a determination.”
For a moment, neither of them spoke.
“I should probably go,” he said finally, though he didn’t sound convinced. “Got some things to take care of before dinner.”
“Okay,” she agreed, reluctance coloring her tone. “Seven o’clock. Don’t be late.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it,” he said, and she could hear the smile in his voice—that rare, full-bodied one that transformed his entire face. “See you at seven, doll.”
“See you at seven,” she echoed, her smile lingering long after she’d ended the call.
She sat there for a moment, phone still warm in her palm, rain drumming against her windows. The apartment still felt strange—like it belonged to a different version of herself—but for the first time since she’d walked through the door, it didn’t feel empty. There was something waiting for her now. Someone.
Isabelle stood, stretching her arms above her head until her spine popped satisfyingly. Seven o’clock. That gave her just enough time to shower, maybe do something with her hair that wasn’t a perpetual messy bun. She moved toward the bathroom, already mentally cataloging what she might wear—something comfortable but nice. Something that would make Bucky’s eyes darken.
The black pants were buried beneath layers of tactical gear—high-waisted, fitted things she’d bought on a whim and rarely wore. They hugged her curves in a way her combat suits never did, transforming utility into something else entirely. She paired them with her nicer combat boots—the ones without scuff marks or bloodstains—and a deep green top that dipped low enough to show the constellation of freckles across her collarbones.
She hesitated in front of the bathroom mirror, fingers hovering over the small collection of makeup she rarely touched. Isabelle uncapped the eyeliner with deliberate focus, the way she might dismantle a weapon. Dark pigment smudged along her lash line, softening to a smoky haze that made the gold flecks in her eyes stand out. Her hands moved with muscle memory she didn’t know she had, tracing shadows and light across her face until the woman in the mirror looked both familiar and foreign.
The lipstick was an afterthought—a tube of red she’d bought months ago and never opened. She remembered Bucky’s offhand comment about red lips during one of their late-night conversations, how girls used to wear it back in his day, how it had always caught his eye. The color bloomed across her mouth like a wound, then settled into something softer.
Her hair was last. She found an ancient curling iron shoved under the sink, probably a gift from Pepper that she’d never bothered to use. The heat of it warmed her palm as she wrapped sections of hair around the barrel, watching each strand transform from straight to wavy. When she finished, her hair fell past her shoulders in loose waves that caught the light when she moved.
Isabelle stepped back from the mirror, taking in the full effect. The woman staring back at her seemed like a stranger—someone who existed in a parallel universe where Isabelle Stark had chosen a different path. This woman’s eyes sparkled with anticipation rather than wariness. Her lips, painted the color of spilled wine, curved into a smile that held no ghosts.
“Not bad, Stark,” she murmured to her reflection, a smirk tugging at the corner of her red mouth. She traced a finger along her collarbone where the green fabric dipped low.
She was reaching for her jacket when FRIDAY’s voice sliced through the quiet of her apartment, the AI’s normally pleasant tone sharpened with urgency.
“Miss Stark—external security breach detected. Proximity alert. Fifteen seconds to—”
The words hit her like ice water. Isabelle’s blood crystallized in her veins, the familiar cold rush of adrenaline washing away everything else. Her eyes darted to the windows, scanning the darkening skyline for movement, for shadows where shadows shouldn’t be.
“What?” She squinted into the gathering dusk. “FRIDAY, details—”
The lights died all at once—every bulb in the apartment winking out like stars collapsing. The sudden darkness was absolute, oppressive. Even the ambient glow from the city outside vanished, as if someone had thrown a blanket over the entire building.
Power cut. No emergency lights. No FRIDAY.
The soft peace of the evening shattered like glass, leaving behind jagged edges of silence. Isabelle’s senses sharpened, cataloging the new quiet. Just the sound of her own breathing.
She moved on instinct, dropping into a crouch and sliding silently toward the wall beside her bedroom door. Her bare feet made no sound against the hardwood. The darkness felt thick, almost tangible, but her enhanced vision was already adjusting, transforming the apartment into shades of gray and black.
Fifteen seconds. Thirteen seconds had already passed.
Her vision adjusted with preternatural speed, eyes dilating to pull in what little light remained. A faint green shimmer flickered around her irises—her powers waking beneath her skin like static electricity, ready to discharge at her command.
Isabelle moved without sound, feet gliding across the hardwood. She kept her breathing shallow, controlled. Her body slipped through the apartment like water finding the path of least resistance. Kitchen. Clear. Living room. Clear. The hallway stretched before her, the spare bedroom door slightly ajar—
A breath. Not hers.
She pivoted—
Too late.
The mass of muscle and tactical gear hit her like a freight train. No warning, no hesitation. Just brutal efficiency and forward momentum. She recognized the fighting style before she saw the face—the distinctive Savate footwork, the economy of movement that spoke of years in special forces.
Batroc.
Her back slammed against the wall, plaster cracking behind her from the impact. Pain bloomed across her shoulder blades, but she was already moving, already countering. She twisted, using his momentum against him, driving her knee up toward his solar plexus.
He blocked with his forearm, the impact jarring her bones. “Bonsoir, mademoiselle,” he said, voice low and taunting in the darkness. “You look different without your suit.”
Isabelle’s lip curled. “You look the same,” she shot back, driving her elbow toward his throat. “Still an asshole.”
He caught her arm, twisting it behind her back. Pain lanced up to her shoulder, but she used it—channeled it into the green energy that pulsed beneath her skin. Her eyes flashed in the darkness, irises illuminating with an eerie glow.
She reached for her power, letting it flow through her veins like liquid fire. The familiar sensation of it awakening crawled across her skin—pins and needles followed by a rush of adrenaline. She pressed her palm flat against his chest, feeling the rapid thud of his heart beneath tactical gear.
And pushed.
Sickness flowed from her fingertips like water—not enough to kill, just enough to disorient. To weaken. She felt the moment it hit his system, his muscles tensing in surprise as nausea rolled through him.
Batroc staggered back, cursing in French. His grip on her arm loosened just enough. Isabelle twisted free, using the wall as leverage to launch herself forward. Her fist connected with his jaw.
But Batroc rolled with the punch, absorbing most of the impact, and came back with a roundhouse kick that caught her in the ribs. Air rushed from her lungs. The coffee table splintered beneath her as she crashed through it, glass and wood fragments scattering across the floor.
“You fight better than before,” Batroc said, circling her as she pushed herself up. Blood trickled from a cut on her cheek where glass had caught her. “More... how you say... desperate?”
“More pissed off,” Isabelle corrected, spitting blood onto her hardwood floor. Her ribs ached, but the pain was already fading, her healing factor kicking in. She rose to her feet, glass crunching beneath her bare soles. “You interrupted my date night.”
Batroc’s laugh was low and mocking. “My apologies. Perhaps next time you will remember to check your security protocols.”
He lunged forward, a flurry of strikes aimed at her pressure points. Isabelle blocked most, but one caught her in the throat, momentarily cutting off her air. She staggered back, gasping, as stars exploded behind her eyes.
Batroc pressed his advantage, driving her back toward the kitchen. His foot connected with her sternum, sending her crashing into the island. Marble cracked beneath the impact, jagged pieces cutting into her back.
“Who sent you?” she demanded, voice raspy from the blow to her throat. She rolled sideways as his boot came down where her head had been, marble shattering beneath the impact.
“Does it matter?” Batroc countered, grabbing a knife from her kitchen block. The blade glinted in the darkness. “You have made many enemies, Mademoiselle Stark.”
Isabelle’s eyes tracked the knife, calculating angles, distances. Her powers thrummed beneath her skin, eager for release. But in these close quarters, with the darkness and the confined space—she needed to be careful.
“Most of my enemies are dead,” she said, slowly circling to put the island between them. Her bare feet found broken glass, but she didn’t flinch. “Or they know better than to come after me in my own home.”
Batroc’s smile was all teeth in the darkness. “Perhaps they are simply more patient than you give them credit for.”
He feinted left, then came at her from the right, knife slashing in a deadly arc toward her abdomen. Isabelle twisted, the blade catching her side instead of her stomach. Hot pain bloomed across her ribs as the knife sliced through fabric and skin.
She hissed, grabbing his wrist before he could pull back. Her fingers dug into the tendons there, forcing his hand open. The knife clattered to the floor. With her other hand, she reached for his face, palm glowing with sickly green energy.
“Let’s see how patient you are when your lungs are filling with fluid,” she snarled, pressing her palm against his cheek.
Batroc’s eyes widened as her power surged through him—a concentrated blast. He staggered back, coughing, face contorting in pain. But he didn’t fall. Instead, he launched himself forward, tackling her through the archway and into the living room.
They hit the floor together, rolling across broken glass and splintered wood. Isabelle ended up on top, straddling his chest, her hands around his throat. Blood from the cut on her side dripped onto his tactical vest.
“Who.Sent.You?” Each word was punctuated by her fingers tightening around his windpipe.
Batroc’s smile never faltered, even as his face reddened from lack of oxygen. His hand shot up, something metallic gleaming between his fingers. Before she could react, he pressed it against her side—right over the knife wound.
“What the—”
Pain exploded through her body. Not ordinary pain—this was electric fire racing along every nerve ending, a thousand needles piercing her from the inside out. Her back arched so sharply she thought her spine might snap. The scream that tore from her throat didn’t sound human, even to her own ears.
The current ripped through her, a living thing with teeth and claws that shredded and tore. Her fingers released his throat, body betraying her as electricity commandeered her nervous system. The world flashed white, then black, then white again.
Batroc shoved her off of him, sending her crashing back into the ruins of her coffee table. Glass sliced into her palms as she tried to catch herself—limbs twitching, muscles spasming beyond her control.
Worse than the pain was the sudden, terrifying emptiness. The constant hum beneath her skin—the energy that had been a part of her for years—stuttered and died. Like someone had reached inside and flipped a switch, leaving nothing but hollow silence where her power should be.
She reached for it instinctively, the way she’d reach for breath. Nothing. Just a void where that part of her should be.
“What—” She tried to push herself up, arms trembling violently beneath her weight. Her vision swam, the apartment tilting sideways, then righting itself. “What did you do to me?”
Batroc circled her fallen form, boots crunching over broken glass. His movements were unhurried, almost casual.
“Technology has advanced while you were gone, mademoiselle.” His accent rolled thick over the words, almost musical in its smugness. He held up the device—small, no bigger than a poker chip, with a glowing blue center. “This? This is new. Designed specifically for people like you.”
Isabelle gritted her teeth, forcing air into lungs that felt crushed beneath an invisible weight. Her head throbbed with each heartbeat, vision swimming in and out of focus. She’d been shot, stabbed, burned—but this was different. This was like someone had severed a limb she hadn’t known she needed until it was gone.
She scrambled backward, trying to put distance between them, trying to think through the fog of pain. Her fingers fumbled for purchase on the hardwood, nails scraping against the surface. Adrenaline and training kept her moving, kept her thinking.
Batroc appeared at her side, moving faster than she could track. Something gleamed in his hand—a syringe filled with amber liquid. The needle caught what little light remained in the apartment, throwing a thin, ominous shadow across the floor.
Isabelle’s blood ran cold. Her eyes locked on the syringe in Batroc’s hand, amber liquid catching what little light remained in the apartment. The needle gleamed—thin, sharp, and terrifyingly deliberate.
“What the fuck is that?”
Batroc’s lips curved into a smile that never reached his eyes. His fingers twisted in her hair, yanking her head back to expose the vulnerable line of her neck. Pain bloomed across her scalp, each individual strand feeling like a live wire against her skin.
“Just something to keep you quiet for transport,” he said, voice silky with satisfaction. The French accent rolled thick over his words, almost musical in its smugness. “Don’t worry. They need you alive.”
Isabelle thrashed against his hold, muscles straining against the unnatural weakness that had flooded her system.
“Get—off—me—” Each word was punctuated by a desperate twist of her body, but her movements were uncoordinated, sluggish. The device he’d pressed against her side had done something to her nervous system, scrambled the connections between brain and muscle.
Batroc tightened his grip on her hair, forcing her head further back. “Always fighting,” he observed, almost appreciative. “Even when you have nothing left.”
The needle pierced her skin—a sharp, bright pain at the junction of neck and shoulder. Isabelle felt the burn of the drug spread through her veins like ice water, fast and merciless. Her heart raced, trying to pump the foreign substance out, but each beat only pushed it further through her system.
Panic surged through her as her body began to betray her, limbs growing heavier with each heartbeat. This was wrong. Drugs didn’t work on her—not normal ones, anyway. Her metabolism, her enhanced physiology—they burned through sedatives, painkillers, alcohol, everything.
But this—this was different. Whatever combination of the device and the drug Batroc had used, it was designed specifically for someone like her. The realization sent a chill through her that had nothing to do with the chemical flooding her system.
The world tilted sideways. Her limbs turned to lead, unresponsive. The last thing she saw before consciousness slipped away was the red display of her digital clock: 6:52 PM.
Eight minutes before, Bucky would be waiting for her at the restaurant.
Eight minutes before, he’d realize something was wrong.
The darkness swallowed her whole.
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The flowers were a stupid idea.
The table sat empty.
And the voice on the other end of the line said nothing at all.Now Bucky’s tearing through the city.
The Winter Soldier isn’t back—
…but he’s not far behind.Whoever had Isabelle had made a fatal mistake.
They’d taken someone the Winter Soldier cared about.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 84: One Thing Left to Lose
Chapter 84: One Thing Left to Lose
Summary:
They took her.
Bucky was supposed to be holding flowers.
Instead, he’s holding rage like a loaded weapon.As Karli sets the board and the GRC building turns to chaos, the Winter Soldier comes out to play—methodical, merciless, and willing to burn the city down if it means getting Isabelle back.
But the closer he gets, the more it feels like he's already too late.And when monsters start whispering her name, there's no telling what either of them might become.
Notes:
Okay… so I definitely didn’t plan to double post tonight… and yet… here we are. Once again, paperplanes221 has peer-pressured me (with love) into hitting that “post” button early because some people could not wait until Sunday 👀😂
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HELLO??????????? THANK YOU GUYS???? I’m screaming a little??? Okay a lot.So yes, double post vibes. Chaos. Emotions. Trauma. Motorcycles.
(This chapter’s song rec is also courtesy of paperplanes221, who is absolutely the executive producer of tonight’s drama. This one’s for you)🎵Chapter song vibes: "The Wolves" by VOLK, Gregg Lehrman & Keeley Bumford
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Chapter Text
The flowers were a stupid idea.
Bucky knew that the second he walked into the restaurant, carrying the tiny paper-wrapped bundle like it might combust in his hand. The yellow tulips and baby’s breath felt fragile against his metal fingers, even through the crinkled paper. He’d spotted the corner stand while walking from the subway, and something had tugged at him—some half-forgotten memory of proper etiquette from 1943.
“Special occasion?” the vendor had asked, her weathered hands arranging the stems.
“Something like that,” he’d muttered, fumbling with his wallet.
Now the flowers sat awkwardly on the white tablecloth in front of him, looking painfully earnest under the restaurant’s warm lighting. Not too fancy, but nice enough that he’d bothered to iron his dark blue button-down and run gel through his hair.
He drummed his fingers against the table, the soft metallic tapping drawing a curious glance from the couple seated nearby. Bucky tugged his sleeve down and switched to his right hand instead.
It was 7:05.
Not a big deal. Isabelle was always running a few minutes late. He’d learned that about her quickly—how she’d burst through doors with her coat half-buttoned, blonde hair escaping whatever style she’d attempted, muttering apologies about “time blindness” and “eyeliner catastrophes.” He liked that about her—the whirlwind quality, how different it was from his own measured movements.
Still, he checked his phone. No new messages.
7:11.
He adjusted the flowers, turning them slightly to hide where one tulip was beginning to droop. Bit the inside of his cheek until he tasted copper.
7:16.
The waiter passed for the third time, eyebrows raised in silent question. Bucky shook his head, not yet ready to admit he might be dining alone. He tapped out a text, trying to keep his tone casual.
Hey, everything okay? I’m here.
He set the phone down. Picked it up again. Checked that the volume was on. Locked it. Unlocked it. Stared at the screen until it went dark.
The hostess passed by, her smile professionally sympathetic. “Still waiting?” she asked, voice pitched low enough not to draw attention.
“Yeah,” Bucky muttered, clearing his throat. “She’s, uh—on her way.”
He took a sip of water, ice clinking against his teeth.
7:22.
Izzy? Are you okay? He texted again.
Still nothing.
The tight feeling in his chest wasn’t panic—not yet—but something adjacent to it. A soldier’s instinct. The awareness of a perimeter breach.
He pressed the call button and held the phone to his ear, listening to the endless ring. No answer.
That was when something shifted in his chest—something tight and cold that spread down his spine like ice water. The same feeling he’d had in Bucharest when he’d spotted the newspaper with his face on it. In Berlin, when the lights had gone out in the containment facility.
7:24.
He rose from the table slowly, leaving a twenty tucked under his water glass. His eyes scanned the street through the front windows, searching for any sign of her. The flash of her boots. Her black jacket with the frayed cuffs. That lopsided bun she threw her hair into when she didn’t feel like trying.
Nothing but strangers hurrying past, heads bent against the evening chill.
His fingers curled into a fist. The tulips sat abandoned on the table—a bright splash of yellow against white linen that seemed to mock him now. Bucky pushed through the restaurant’s door, cold air hitting his face as he stepped onto the sidewalk.
He pulled out his phone, thumb hovering over Isabelle’s contact before switching to Sam’s. The screen glowed blue against his face as he dialed, scanning the street in both directions. Nothing. No flash of blonde hair, no hurried figure running late.
Sam picked up on the third ring. “Buck? Didn’t expect to hear from you so soon—”
“Have you heard from Isabelle?” Bucky cut him off, voice tight, like a wire pulled taut. He stepped aside as a couple brushed past him, their laughter grating against his heightened senses.
“No? Why would I—” Sam paused, catching the edge in Bucky’s tone. “What’s going on?”
“She was supposed to meet me for dinner.” Bucky checked his watch again, the mechanical ticking suddenly too loud. “Said she got back in the city a few hours ago from Pepper’s. It’s been twenty-five minutes.”
“She’s probably just running late. You know how she is,” Sam said, but there was a new alertness in his voice.
“I texted her. Called her. Twice.” Bucky’s jaw tightened as he began walking, eyes still searching every face, every alley. “No answer.”
The silence on the other end stretched for three beats too long.
“This doesn’t feel right,” Bucky said, quickening his pace as he headed toward the subway. A car horn blared nearby, making him flinch. His mind was already cycling through possibilities—each worse than the last. “Something’s wrong.”
“Alright, listen. Go check her place. I’ll try to reach her from my end.” Sam’s voice was steady, grounding. “Maybe she got distracted working on something. You know how she zones out when she’s in her head.”
“She’s not answering because something is wrong,” Bucky repeated, the certainty cold and heavy in his chest.
“I know,” Sam said quietly. “I’m grabbing my gear now. If she’s not at her apartment, we’ll—”
“I’ll call you when I get there.” Bucky hung up, shoving the phone into his pocket as he broke into a run.
Something twisted in his chest—sharper than fear, darker than worry. The Winter Soldier part of him was already calculating threats, mapping escape routes, preparing for combat. But the Bucky part, the part that had finally started to feel human again, was remembering the weight of her head against his chest. The sound of her laugh. The feel of her fingers tracing the seam where metal met flesh.
He pushed himself faster, weaving through pedestrians who jumped out of his way. If someone had taken her—if someone had hurt her—
The thought burned away before he could finish it, replaced by a cold, focused rage that felt like slipping into an old, familiar coat.
Whoever had Isabelle had made a fatal mistake.
They’d taken someone the Winter Soldier cared about.
The second the door swung open, Bucky knew.
The wrongness hit him like a wall of disturbed air. He didn’t need to cross the threshold. Didn’t need to turn on the lights. Decades of hunting had taught him to recognize the aftermath of struggle, the specific silence that follows chaos.
“Shit,” he muttered, stepping inside with measured precaution, scanning the darkness like it might contain snipers.
The door clicked shut behind him, the sound feeling obscene in the stillness. Nothing about this space felt secure anymore. He reached for the light switch behind him with his right hand, keeping his left—the weapon—ready. The overhead lights flickered once before steadying, revealing the devastation.
His gaze dropped to the floor near the entryway. A smear of blood—just a few inches long, dark and tacky—marked where someone had slipped or been dragged. The copper scent of it hit his nostrils, sending ice through his veins.
The air carried another smell too—sharp and chemical, like the acrid bite after lightning strikes. Stun batons. Maybe worse. He’d smelled it enough times in HYDRA facilities to recognize it instantly.
“Isabelle?” His voice cracked on her name, the sound pathetically small in the ruined apartment. He moved deeper inside, stepping over a broken coffee mug. “Izzy—Isabelle!”
Nothing answered but the distant hum of the building’s ventilation system.
The bathroom door stood open, revealing darkness and emptiness. Her bedroom was untouched, the bed still made with military precision—the way he’d shown her. Her bag still sat by the kitchen island—unzipped, half-unpacked. A bottle of water lay on its side, its contents pooled across the counter and dripping slowly onto the floor.
Bucky spun in place, chest heaving as his mind assembled the timeline. She’d gotten home. Started unpacking. Called him. Then—
“No, no, no...”
His heart hammered against his ribs, each beat a panicked drum that seemed to echo her name. He called out again, louder this time, as if volume could conjure her from thin air. As if she might be hiding, might pop out from some corner with that crooked smile, laughing at his concern.
But he knew better. The Winter Soldier in him knew exactly what this was.
“Fuck!” he choked, slamming his vibranium fist against the wall. The drywall cracked and buckled under the impact, plaster dust raining down onto the floor. He didn’t care. Couldn’t care. He couldn’t breathe past the vise tightening around his chest.
He gripped the edge of the kitchen counter with both hands, the metal one leaving indentations in the marble. He forced his eyes shut, trying to control his breathing the way Ayo had taught him.
“Think,” he whispered to himself. “Think, Barnes.”
The apartment told a story—if he could just read it right. His mind cycled through possibilities, each one worse than the last.
The voice—that thing she told him about. Had the voice in her head finally won? Had she lost control? But she’d promised him a few nights ago: “I’m okay, Buck. Better than I’ve been in a long time.” The memory of her warmth against him made the cold reality of her empty apartment that much more unbearable.
Had she run? Left on her own? The thought sliced through him like a blade—but no. She wouldn’t. Not without saying something. Not after everything they’d built between them, fragile and new as it was. And that wouldn’t explain the blood smeared across her floor. The broken furniture. The lingering scent of electrical discharge.
His metal fingers flexed involuntarily, plates recalibrating with a soft whir that seemed obscenely loud in the silence.
“Val,” he muttered, the name surfacing in his mind like a shark fin breaking water. Contessa Valentina Allegra de Fontaine.
Isabelle had told him everything—
Her arrangement with Val. How Val had promised her a cure. How the injections had made the voice in her head stronger, more insistent. How she’d finally refused both the “treatments” and the missions that came with them.
Bucky’s jaw clenched so tight he felt a molar crack. If Val had sent someone after Isabelle—if this was retaliation—
His phone buzzed against his thigh, the vibration jolting him from the spiral of his thoughts. He fumbled it from his pocket, heart lurching when he saw the screen.
SAM WILSON Incoming call.
He answered instantly, pressing the phone against his ear with enough force to hurt. “Please tell me you found her.”
There was no preamble. No softening of the blow.
“It’s Karli,” Sam said, his voice tight with controlled urgency. “She took her.”
Bucky went still, the world narrowing to a single point of horrific clarity. The Flag Smashers. Karli Morgenthau. The girl with the serum and the mission and nothing left to lose.
“What?” The word scraped out of his throat, barely audible. “How do you—”
“It’s all over the news,” Sam cut in. “Karli’s got the whole GRC building on lockdown and has Isabelle.” Sam hesitated, just for a fraction of a second.
Bucky’s vision tunneled, the ruined apartment fading to gray around the edges. He gripped the counter harder, metal fingers digging deep enough into the marble to send hairline fractures spiderwebbing outward.
“Is she alive?” The question emerged in the Winter Soldier’s voice—flat, mechanical, devoid of the panic clawing up his throat. His mind had already separated, compartmentalizing the way HYDRA had taught him. The part that panicked about her was locked away, where it couldn’t interfere with what needed to be done.
“Yes.” Sam paused, and Bucky could hear him moving, the rustle of the wings being secured. “For now. But it’s bad, Buck. Really bad.”
“Tell me.” He was already moving, snatching his tactical jacket from where he’d left it on Isabelle’s couch days earlier. His fingers found the hidden knife sheaths automatically, checking each blade by feel.
“Karli’s using her as leverage. Trying to force the GRC to halt the Patch Act vote.” Sam’s voice hardened.
Something primal and vicious uncoiled in Bucky’s chest. The thought of anyone putting their hands on Isabelle, hurting her—it awakened something he’d spent years trying to bury. He welcomed it now, that cold, lethal focus.
“She wouldn’t hurt Isabelle,” Bucky said, his voice dangerously quiet as he locked the apartment door behind him. “She knows what she can do. What she is.”
“That’s exactly why she took her,” Sam replied grimly. “Karli’s smarter than we gave her credit for. She knows Isabelle won’t risk civilian casualties by using her powers. And she’s banking on you and me not making any sudden moves while she’s got her.”
Bucky hit the stairwell at a dead run, taking the steps three at a time. The elevator would be too slow. Too confined. He needed to move.
“They’re making an example,” Sam continued, his voice slightly breathless as he presumably took to the air. “Broadcasting the GRC vote as corrupt, showing the world that even Tony Stark’s daughter can’t stop them. They think killing her means something.”
Bucky’s jaw clenched so hard his teeth ached. “It does mean something,” he whispered, bursting through the lobby doors into the cold night air. “She’s not just Tony Stark’s daughter. She’s an Avenger. A hero. A symbol.”
He didn’t say the rest out loud: Even though we know she’d come back. Even though death can’t keep her. The Flag Smashers don’t know that.
The thought of Isabelle dying—even temporarily—made his stomach turn. He’d seen it happen twice before, watched her body crumple before the healing factor kicked in. He wouldn’t let it happen again. Not like this. Not as a spectacle for Karli’s revolution.
“I’m on my way,” Bucky said. “Don’t do anything until I get there.”
“Hurry,” was all Sam said before the line went dead.
Bucky shoved the phone into his pocket and broke into a sprint, the city blurring around him. The streets of New York opened before him as he ran, cutting through alleys and vaulting over obstacles without breaking stride. His metal arm whirred softly with each movement, the plates shifting and recalibrating. He barely registered the startled pedestrians leaping out of his path, the blaring horns as he darted through traffic.
His mind had compartmentalized with brutal efficiency. One part calculating the fastest route to the GRC building. Another part running tactical scenarios. A third part cycling through weapons options—he had three knives, a garrote wire in his boot, and his left arm. It would be enough. It had to be enough.
But beneath the soldier’s cold precision, something raw and wounded pulsed like a severed artery. Each heartbeat seemed to echo her name. Isabelle. Isabelle. Isabelle.
If they hurt her—if they so much as touched a hair on her head—there wouldn’t be a safe place on this earth for Karli Morgenthau or anyone who stood with her.
Because they hadn’t just taken Isabelle Stark.
They’d taken the one thing the Winter Soldier had left to lose.
The scene was chaos.
Bucky had seen war zones with more order than the blocks surrounding the GRC building. NYPD cruisers formed haphazard barricades, their lights painting the night in strobing red and blue. Officers in tactical gear crouched behind vehicle doors, weapons drawn. Beyond them, SWAT teams moved with practiced precision, setting up sniper positions on adjacent rooftops.
He moved through it all like a ghost—steady, methodical, eyes scanning every face, every shadow.
“I’m ten minutes out,” Sam’s voice crackled through his comms, the sound of rushing wind in the background suggesting he was flying at top speed.
“What’s the plan?” Bucky kept his voice low, controlled, even as his heart hammered against his ribs. His metal hand flexed at his side, plates shifting with a soft mechanical whir.
“Karli’s gotta be close,” Sam replied, his voice tight with the same controlled urgency Bucky felt. “Where we find her, we’ll find Iz. Keep your eyes open.”
Bucky grunted, pushing through a cluster of armed SWAT officers who parted before him like water around a stone. “Well, it could be anybody.” His eyes swept over the crowd, searching for any sign of the Flag Smashers’ distinctive movements or Karli’s slight frame. “Any of these people could be working with her.”
The thought sent ice through his veins. The Flag Smashers had sympathizers everywhere. Any face in this crowd could belong to someone willing to hurt Isabelle for their cause.
A patrol officer noticed him approaching the inner perimeter. The man straightened, recognition flickering across his face.
“Sergeant Barnes,” he greeted with a respectful nod, stepping aside to grant him access. Another officer beside him did the same, murmuring into his radio that the Winter Soldier was on site.
Bucky acknowledged them with a curt nod, his focus already shifting beyond them to the GRC building itself. Its glass facade reflected the emergency lights, windows dark except for the top floors where the vote was scheduled to take place. Where Karli could be holding Isabelle.
He clenched his jaw so hard a muscle jumped beneath his skin.
“Bucky,” Sam’s voice crackled through his earpiece. “I’m eight minutes out. And by the way, I called in some backup.”
Before Bucky could respond, he sensed movement behind him—the slight displacement of air, the subtle sound of a boot on concrete. His body tensed, ready to strike. He spun around, metal arm whirring softly as the plates recalibrated.
A figure in a black beanie approached, face obscured by shadows. Bucky’s eyes narrowed, tracking the stranger’s movements with cold precision.
“Excuse me, sir?” His voice came out low and dangerous. “Are you supposed to be here?”
The figure stepped closer, and Bucky’s hand drifted toward the knife concealed at his back. But then the stranger smirked and reached up, deactivating something at their temple. The face shimmered and dissolved like a digital mirage, revealing familiar features beneath.
“It’s me,” Sharon Carter said, tucking the cloaking device into her pocket.
Bucky exhaled sharply, the tension in his shoulders shifting from combat-ready to irritated. “Sharon, what the hell are you doing here?”
“Relax,” she said, nudging him along as they continued toward the building. “No one’s looking for me here.”
“Do I hear Sharon?” Sam’s voice came through the comms, slightly tinny against the background rush of wind.
“Unfortunately,” Bucky muttered, shooting her a sidelong glance.
Sharon smirked, speaking into her own earpiece. “Hey Sam, thought I’d get the band back together.”
“Thank you,” Sam replied, genuine relief in his voice. “You’re risking a lot coming here.”
“I hear pardons aren’t all they’re cracked up to be.” Sharon’s eyes flicked to Bucky, a hint of amusement in her expression.
“Depends on the therapist,” Bucky said flatly, then shook his head, frustration radiating from every line of his body. “Can we get back to work now?”
“Right...” Sharon’s expression softened slightly. “Your girlfriend...”
Bucky just glared at her, the word ‘girlfriend’ landing like a punch to his sternum. It was too new, too fragile a term for what Isabelle had become to him. Too small to contain the panic clawing at his insides.
They approached the building’s entrance where panicked employees and council members streamed out in waves. Bucky moved against the current, his bulk parting the crowd like a knife through water. The metal detector shrieked as he passed through, his vibranium arm setting off the sensors.
“Really?” he deadpanned at the security guard who had half-risen from his chair, then froze upon recognizing him.
The lobby was chaos—papers scattered across marble floors, abandoned briefcases, a coffee cart overturned and leaking dark liquid across white tile. Bucky scanned the space with clinical efficiency, cataloguing exits, vulnerabilities, potential weapons.
“Karli’s smart,” Sharon said, keeping pace beside him as they headed for the elevators. “She’ll have hostages on the top floor where the vote was happening, but she won’t be there herself.”
Bucky jabbed the elevator button with enough force to crack the plastic. “She’s using Isabelle as bait.”
“For you,” Sharon confirmed, her voice softening slightly. “You know that, right?”
The elevator doors slid open with a cheerful ding that felt obscene against the backdrop of emergency lights and distant sirens. Bucky stepped inside, his reflection fractured in the mirrored walls—dark eyes, clenched jaw, the dangerous stillness of a predator.
“I know,” he said quietly, watching the doors close. “And it worked.”
Sharon studied him, her expression unreadable. “How much does she mean to you?”
The question hung between them as the elevator began its ascent. Bucky stared at the illuminated numbers, watching them climb. One floor. Two. Three. Each second taking him closer to Isabelle and whatever hell Karli had prepared.
“Everything,” he said finally, the word barely audible. He turned to Sharon, something cold and ancient settling behind his eyes—the Winter Soldier stirring beneath the surface of Bucky Barnes. “She means everything.”
The elevator continued its climb, each floor bringing them closer to the confrontation above. Bucky’s metal fingers flexed rhythmically at his side, the soft mechanical whir filling the silence between heartbeats.
Five floors. Six. Seven.
The elevator slowed as it approached the upper floors. Bucky’s reflection stared back at him from the polished doors—a ghost of the man who’d been sitting in a restaurant less than an hour ago, waiting with flowers.
The corridor beyond was dark, emergency lights casting everything in a bloody red glow. He stepped out of the elevator, every sense hyper-alert, the soldier and the man united in singular purpose.
Find her. Save her. Bring her home.
“We’ll cover more ground if we split up,” Sharon said, already scanning the hallway. “I’ll take the west wing, check the conference rooms.”
Bucky nodded, his eyes never stopping their methodical sweep of the corridor. “I’ll head east. The main chamber’s that way.”
“Barnes,” Sharon called as he turned to leave. When he looked back, her expression had softened slightly. “We’ll find her.”
He didn’t respond, just gave a curt nod before they parted ways.
The bustling corridors of the GRC building had emptied into a tense silence that made the hair on the back of his neck stand up. His boots echoed against the polished floor as he moved, each step measured and quick.
“Sharon’s split off,” Bucky informed Sam through his earpiece, his voice clipped and tense. “Taking the west wing.”
“Good, cover more ground,” Sam responded, his voice steady and reassuring in Bucky’s ear. “I’m three minutes out. Hold position until I—”
“Not happening,” Bucky cut him off, rounding a corner toward the east stairwell. The door was now in sight, its exit sign casting an eerie glow in the dimmed hallway.
“Buck, listen—”
“Every minute we wait is another minute she’s with them,” Bucky growled, his pace quickening. “I’m not waiting.”
He was so focused on the stairwell that he almost missed the woman approaching from a side corridor. She moved with purpose, her smile unsettling—a little too wide, a little too knowing. The hairs on the back of his neck stood up as she held out a phone, her eyes never leaving his face.
“Mr. Barnes,” she said, her voice honeyed with false sweetness, “it’s Karli.”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed, his body tensing as he took the phone. The woman melted away into the background, leaving him alone in the suddenly too-quiet hallway. He glared at the device in his hand, as if it might bite him, before bringing it to his ear.
“Karli,” he growled, already moving towards the stairwell, his free hand pushing open the heavy door. “Where is she?”
“Aren’t you tired of fighting for the wrong side, Mr. Barnes?” Karli’s voice was calm, almost playful, grating against Bucky’s nerves like sandpaper.
Bucky couldn’t help but laugh, a short, humorless sound that echoed in the concrete stairwell as he descended. “I’ve done this before, kid. I know how it ends. Trust me, you don’t want to go down this road.”
“It doesn’t matter if I don’t survive this,” Karli replied, her conviction clear even through the tinny speaker. “I’m fighting for something bigger than myself. And with all the bodies you’ve collected, have you been able to say the same?”
He paused on the landing, his metal hand gripping the railing tight enough to leave an impression. The cold steel beneath his fingers grounded him, helping him push back the red haze of anger threatening to overtake him.
“You don’t think I ever fought for something bigger than myself?” The words tumbled out, fast and heated. “That’s all I ever tried to do. And I failed. Twice.”
Karli’s laugh was sharp, cutting. “I guess then this makes it three times.”
Bucky’s brow furrowed, a chill running down his spine. Something in her tone set off alarm bells in his head.
“Back in Riga, at North Plaza,” Karli continued, her voice dropping to a near whisper, “I said killing Sam and his family—I wouldn’t because it wouldn’t mean anything. But, Isabelle Stark... now that... that would mean something.”
The world seemed to tilt on its axis. Bucky’s vision tunneled, his heart hammering in his chest. He gripped the railing tighter, the metal groaning under the pressure.
“Listen to me very carefully, Karli,” Bucky said, each word deliberate and weighted. “You touch her, and there won’t be a place on this Earth where you can hide from me. I’ve hunted people across continents before. Don’t make me do it again.” He paused, swallowing hard, forcing himself to rein in a fury threatening to consume him. When he continued, his voice was softer, almost pleading. “You’re gonna remember all the ones you killed. And the nightmares will never go away. Trust me. Don’t do this. Don’t go down this path.”
The silence that followed seemed to stretch for an eternity. When Karli finally spoke, her voice was soft, almost gentle. “Well, thank you. I’m glad you took my call. You’ve been a big help.”
The line went dead.
Bucky stood frozen for a moment, the phone clutched in his hand so tightly the case began to crack. He could still hear the raw edge of Isabelle’s voice, the way it had been cut off. The sound of her pain vibrated through him as a tuning fork struck against bone.
“No.” The word escaped as barely a whisper, then built to a roar. “No!”
His metal fingers crushed the device, the case splitting with a sharp crack that echoed in the concrete stairwell. Circuitry and glass splintered against his palm, cutting into the flesh of his right hand when he squeezed harder. He barely felt it.
Karli had played him. Kept him talking, kept him distracted while she—
Bucky hurled what remained of the phone against the wall, watching it explode into a shower of plastic and metal. The sound wasn’t nearly satisfying enough for the rage boiling under his skin.
“Sam!” he barked into his comm, already moving, taking the stairs, jumping down landings. His boots echoed against concrete, each impact jarring up through his legs.
Static crackled, then Sam’s voice broke through, strained and breathless. “I’m—” A grunt, the unmistakable sound of his shield connecting with something solid. “—a little busy here, man. Batroc’s ambushed me on approach.”
Bucky’s mind raced faster than his feet, calculating, assessing. If Sam was pinned down, and Sharon was searching the wrong section of the building...
“Where are you?” Bucky demanded, reaching the bottom of the stairwell. He shouldered through the heavy fire door, the metal groaning under the force of his vibranium arm.
“Northeast corner, top floor—” Sam’s voice cut out in a burst of static, then returned. “—can’t get a clear—”
The comm went silent. Bucky swore, the word echoing in the cavernous space of the underground parking garage he’d entered. The air here was thick with the smell of exhaust and damp concrete, the lighting dim enough that shadows pooled between the sparse collection of vehicles.
His enhanced senses picked up movement almost immediately—a flash of motion between parked cars about thirty yards ahead. Bucky went still, every muscle coiled tight as a spring. He slowed his breathing, focusing on the sound beyond his own heartbeat.
Footsteps. Multiple sets.
He moved silently, keeping to the shadows, using the parked vehicles as cover. As he drew closer, voices became clearer—hushed, urgent whispers in accented English.
“—taking too long.”
“Karli said to wait for the signal.”
“The plan’s changed—”
Bucky peered around the bumper of a black SUV. Three figures in tactical gear—SWAT uniforms, but something was off about the way they held themselves. Too tense. Too alert. One kept checking his watch, shifting his weight from foot to foot. The patch on his shoulder was slightly askew.
Flag Smashers. Disguised.
Bucky’s metal fingers flexed, plates recalibrating with a soft mechanical whir that seemed impossibly loud in the concrete echo chamber. The nearest one turned, hand moving toward his weapon.
No time for subtlety.
Bucky launched himself forward. His metal arm caught the first man across the chest, the impact lifting him off his feet and slamming him against a concrete pillar. The man’s tactical helmet cracked against the surface, eyes rolling back as he slumped to the ground.
“It’s him!” the second man shouted, scrambling for his radio.
Bucky pivoted, sweeping the man’s legs from under him. The radio skittered across the concrete floor as the man fell hard, the air leaving his lungs in a pained wheeze. The third Flag Smasher was already running, boots echoing as he sprinted for the exit.
Bucky let him go. He had what he needed right here.
He grabbed the second man by the front of his vest, hauling him up and slamming him against the side of a van hard enough to dent the metal. The man’s eyes widened with genuine fear as Bucky leaned in close, close enough to see the sweat beading on his forehead, to smell the acrid tang of terror.
“Where is she?” Bucky’s voice was low, dangerously soft.
The man’s eyes darted sideways, looking for an escape that wasn’t there. “I don’t know what you’re—”
Bucky’s metal fist punched through the van’s side panel next to the man’s head, the sound of tearing metal echoing through the garage like a gunshot. The man flinched, a small, terrified sound escaping his throat.
“Try again,” Bucky said, his voice dropping to the Winter Soldier’s flat affect. “Where. Is. Isabelle. Stark?”
“Karli will kill me,” the man whispered, his accent thickening with fear.
Bucky leaned closer, his eyes cold and empty. “I’m right here,” he said softly. “And I’m not feeling patient.”
The man swallowed hard, his Adam’s apple bobbing. “She’s not here. They moved her.”
“Where?” Bucky tightened his grip on the man’s vest, lifting him slightly so his feet barely touched the ground.
“Construction site,” the man gasped, hands scrabbling uselessly at Bucky’s metal arm. “Three blocks east. The new GRC expansion. Underground level.”
Bucky’s jaw clenched, a muscle jumping beneath the skin. “How many?”
“Eight, maybe ten,” the man said, words tumbling out now. “Karli’s heading there now. They’re—they’re going to make an example—”
Bucky didn’t let him finish. His metal fist connected with the man’s temple—controlled, precise, just enough force to render him unconscious without killing him. The man slumped to the ground, and Bucky was already moving, pulling zip ties from his pocket to secure both unconscious Flag Smashers.
He tapped his comm as he secured the last zip tie. “Sam, do you copy? I’ve got a location.” Bucky’s voice was tight, controlled, but a tremor of urgency ran beneath it. “They have her underground at the new GRC expansion site. I’m going.”
Static crackled in his ear before Sam’s voice broke through, breathless and strained. “Buck, wait. The GRC is still—”
“I don’t care. I’m going after her.” Bucky was already moving, scanning the dimly lit garage. His gaze locked onto a sleek black motorcycle parked in a reserved space, its chrome accents gleaming under the harsh fluorescent lights like a promise. “They’re at the construction site. Three blocks east.”
He straddled the bike in one fluid motion, the leather seat creaking beneath his weight. His metal hand easily broke through the ignition cover, fingers delicately separating wires with the same precision he’d once used to dismantle bombs in another lifetime.
“Bucky, we need to coordinate. The Flag Smashers have hostages here, too. We can’t just—”
“They’re going to kill her, Sam.” The words scraped his throat raw as he twisted two wires together. The bike hummed to life beneath him, the vibration traveling up through his body. “I’m not letting that happen.”
A beat of silence stretched between them, filled only by the low rumble of the engine and Bucky’s too-fast heartbeat.
“Go,” Sam finally said, his voice softening with understanding. “But be smart about it. We need a plan.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened as he revved the engine, the sound echoing off concrete walls like thunder. “I have a plan,” he said, kicking up the stand. “Get Isabelle. Kill anyone who tries to stop me.”
He didn’t wait for Sam’s response. The tires squealed against concrete as he tore out of the garage, the cold night air hitting his face like a slap. The bike shot into traffic, weaving between cars with reckless precision. Horns blared around him, angry New York drivers shouting obscenities that were lost to the wind rushing past his ears.
None of it registered. His world had narrowed to a singular focus, everything else falling away like static.
Three blocks east. Construction site. Underground level.
Isabelle.
He leaned into a sharp turn, the bike tilting at an angle that would have thrown a normal rider. His enhanced reflexes compensated automatically, his body working on pure muscle memory while his mind raced ahead.
Eight to ten hostiles. All enhanced with the serum.
The odds weren’t great, but he’d faced worse. In Bucharest. In Berlin. In Wakanda. The difference was that then, he’d been fighting for himself. For his freedom. His redemption.
This was different. This was Isabelle.
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Buried in the dark, stripped of her powers, Isabelle faces the voice in her head—the one that whispers she’s weak, she’s a weapon, she’s exactly what they made her.
Across the city, soaked in rage, Bucky hears his own echo from the past—the Winter Soldier, cold and calculating, reminding him how easy it is to kill when it’s for someone you love.Two soldiers. Two ghosts. One mission: get out alive.
She’s breaking her own bones to escape.
He’s breaking his promise not to become a monster again.
And they’re both starting to wonder…
What happens if the voices are right?
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 85: What Remains When You Strip Away the Good
Chapter 85: What Remains When You Strip Away the Good
Summary:
They bound her.
Rope bit into her wrists, blood slicked her palms, and a small black device hummed nearby.
Drugged, blindfolded, powerless—Isabelle Stark was supposed to break.Instead, she breaks the room.
Every bruise, every scream, every drop of blood drags her closer to the thing her mother made her.
And when the voice inside starts whispering louder than ever, Isabelle as to decide what she is:
a survivor...
or a monster.
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She came to in darkness.
Not the soft, velvet dark of sleep, but the suffocating kind—the kind that pressed against Isabelle’s skin like wet cloth and tasted like blood and metal. Like being buried alive. Like drowning on dry land.
Isabelle’s head throbbed with each heartbeat, a hammer striking an anvil behind her eyes. The drug—whatever Batroc had injected her with—still crawled through her veins, making everything fuzzy around the edges. She tried to focus, tried to center herself, but the pain kept pulling her back.
Her arms remained deadweight and useless. Rope bit into her wrists, rough fibers digging into skin already raw and weeping. Her legs, too—tied tight at the ankles, circulation cutting off in angry pulses that matched the throbbing in her skull. Her right shoulder screamed where it had been wrenched backward. Her skin was slick with sweat, blood, or both. Definitely both.
Over her head, rough canvas scratched against her face when she tried to turn, abrading her cheek. She needed contact—skin on skin—to use her abilities. And she needed to see her target to make them feel the sickness that always lurked beneath her own skin. But here, bound and blind, her powers might as well have been a distant memory.
“She still out?” a voice asked nearby. Male. Local accent. The words had a rehearsed hardness to them, like someone trying on a tough guy persona that didn’t quite fit.
“Should be.” Another man, older, voice weathered by cigarettes and authority. “That shot Batroc gave her? Enough to take down three men her size and an elephant.”
Isabelle tracked their positions by sound from her place, sat on a wooden chair—boots scuffing against concrete, the shift of fabric as someone moved closer. The air current changed, bringing a cloud of stale cigarette smoke and cologne so cheap it burned her nostrils even through the hood.
“I heard she can melt your brain if she touches you. That true?” The younger one again, his voice pitched lower now, trying to sound casual while fear vibrated underneath.
“Not if she’s sedated.” A dismissive snort followed. “Not if the nullifier’s active.”
Wake up.
The voice slinked through her mind, cold and familiar. Isabelle flinched before she could stop herself, jaw clenching beneath the canvas hood, teeth grinding together to trap any sound that might escape.
You need me now. Look at you. Pathetic.
I don’t need anyone, Isabelle shot back silently, flexing her fingers again, feeling the raw skin of her wrists protest. Especially not you.
They’re going to kill you, the voice continued, almost conversational. Or worse. They’ll take you apart to see how you work. Just like before.
Memories flashed—cold metal tables, needles sliding under skin, her mother’s clinical gaze as she recorded results. Isabelle’s heartbeat quickened, the throbbing in her head intensifying.
Shut up, she thought, focusing on the physical sensations instead—the bite of the ropes, the scratch of canvas, the metallic taste in her mouth. Real things. Present things.
You’re weak without me. You’ve always been weak.
Isabelle swallowed, tasting blood. She’d bitten the inside of her cheek without realizing it. The voice was getting louder, more insistent, feeding on her fear.
“Did she just move?” The younger guard’s voice cracked, jumping half an octave as he shuffled closer. His boots scraped against the concrete, nervous energy in every step.
A weighted pause hung in the air. Isabelle tracked the silence, counting heartbeats.
“Nah.” The older guard’s dismissal came with forced casualness. “Probably just muscle spasms.” His voice carried the flat affect of someone who’d seen too much but still feared what he couldn’t understand. “Happens with the heavy stuff. Makes ‘em twitch like dying fish.”
Footsteps circled her chair—slow, deliberate steps that stopped directly behind her. A hand landed on her shoulder, fingers digging, as if to test if she was still out. Her body wanted to arch, to scream, to fight—but she forced herself to remain slack, a ragdoll under his probing fingers.
“We need her intact,” the older voice said sharply. The warning in his tone carried weight, authority. “For now.”
The punishing grip loosened, hand withdrawing with reluctant slowness. “Yeah, yeah. I know the orders.” The younger guard’s voice held a petulant edge. “Just making sure. Don’t want to chance it with this one. You heard what she did in Madripoor.”
Get up!
The voice thundered through her skull, no longer a whisper but a command that vibrated through bone and tissue. It echoed with multiple tones—her mother’s clinical detachment in the moments before death, Tony’s desperate fear in the moments after, every nightmare she’d ever clawed her way out of at three in the morning.
The reality of her situation crystallized with brutal clarity: without her powers, she was vulnerable. The nullifier—whatever it was—had turned off the part of her that could liquefy a man’s insides with a touch, could flood their system with fear until their heart gave out. She was cut off from that dark well inside her.
Not helpless—never helpless—but changed. Diminished. Just a woman with combat training against armed men? A Stark without the suit? The daughter of two monsters with nothing but scars and regrets to show for it?
No.
That wasn’t true. It had never been true.
She was Isabelle fucking Stark. She’d been fighting long before she’d discovered what lived inside her blood. Before the serum. Before the powers. Before she understood what her mother had made her into.
Isabelle flexed her fingers experimentally, testing the rope that bound her wrists. Tight, professional work—but not impossible. If she dislocated her thumb, maybe twisted at just the right angle—
“You sure that nullifier’s working?” The younger guard’s voice was closer now, hovering just behind her left shoulder. “I heard these things can malfunction.”
“For fuck’s sake, Dmitri. Yes, it’s working. The light’s green, see? But if you’re so worried, go ahead and check the restraints yourself.”
Footsteps approached from behind. Hands, less sure, touched her bound wrists, fingers brushing against her exposed skin as they tugged at the ropes.
Skin on skin.
A tiny spark of her power flared at the contact—not enough to kill, not even enough to seriously harm—but enough to send a jolt of nausea through the young guard’s system. His breath caught audibly.
“What the—” He stumbled back, shoes scuffing concrete. “I felt something. She did something to me!”
“What are you talking about?” The older guard’s voice sharpened.
“My stomach—it just—” The sound of retching followed, wet and violent.
The opportunity was now or never. Isabelle snapped her head up, every muscle tensing as she wrenched her thumb against the rope. Pain lanced through her hand as the joint dislocated with a sickening pop. She bit back a cry, twisting her wrist through the opening she’d created.
“She’s awake!” The older guard shouted, boots pounding toward her. “Fuck!”
One hand free. Isabelle yanked at the hood, tearing it upward just enough to see—blurry shapes in dim light, the glint of a weapon. The older guard raised his gun, aiming at her center mass.
She lunged sideways, chair and all, hitting the concrete floor with bone-jarring force. The gunshot cracked overhead, a bullet embedding in the wall behind where she’d been sitting.
“Shoot her legs!” The younger guard, Dmitri, was still retching, fumbling for his weapon.
Isabelle rolled, the chair splintering beneath her enhanced strength. Wood fragments scattered across the concrete as she freed her other hand, reaching for the ropes at her ankles. The older guard fired again—closer this time, the bullet grazing her thigh with white-hot intensity.
“Fuck!” She hissed, yanking the last rope free. Blood slicked her fingers, making them slip against the final knots.
The older guard advanced, weapon trained on her head now. “Don’t move, Stark.”
Isabelle froze, calculating distances and angles. Ten feet between them. Too far for a touch. Too close to dodge another shot. The nullifier had to be nearby—probably the small black box on the table behind him, blinking green light mocking her.
“Dmitri, call Karli. Tell her she’s awake.” The older guard kept his eyes locked on Isabelle, finger steady on the trigger. “And get the secondary restraints.”
Isabelle met his gaze directly, pushing with everything she had—trying to force her power through whatever dampening field surrounded her. She felt it stirring, sluggish and weak, but present. The pressure behind her eyes built until she thought her skull might crack.
“What are you doing?” Uncertainty crept into the guard’s voice as he took an involuntary step backward. “Stop that.”
A trickle of blood ran from Isabelle’s nose, hot and metallic against her lips. The nullifier wasn’t perfect. It couldn’t completely contain what lived inside her—what she was.
The guard’s finger tightened on the trigger.
And Isabelle smiled.
Not the practiced Stark smile, but something feral—all teeth and blood-smeared lips. The guard faltered, his aim wavering for just a fraction of a second.
It was enough.
Isabelle launched herself forward. She moved in a blur, closing the distance before the guard could correct his aim. The gun discharged, the bullet whizzing past her ear close enough that she felt the heat of its passage. Her hand shot out, fingers wrapping around his exposed wrist.
“No—no…no!” His eyes widened as the connection formed.
Isabelle pushed what little power she could muster. A spike of blinding pain rushed through his nervous system. His knees buckled. She wrenched the gun from his slackened grip and brought it down hard against his temple. The crack of metal against bone echoed in the small room.
“Vasily!” Dmitri shouted, finally recovering enough to raise his weapon.
Isabelle spun, using the momentum to hurl the gun at his face. It connected with a satisfying crunch. Blood sprayed from his nose as he staggered backward, firing wildly. The bullet punched through the concrete wall, sending dust and fragments showering down.
She closed the distance in three rapid strides, ignoring the burning in her thigh where the bullet had grazed her. Dmitri swung wildly with his free hand, panic making him clumsy. Isabelle ducked under the blow, driving her fist into his solar plexus. The air left his lungs in a pained whoosh.
“Please—” he gasped, eyes wide with terror as she grabbed his throat.
“You should have left me alone,” Isabelle whispered, meeting his gaze directly.
This time, she didn’t hold back. She focused on the sickness, the disease. Through eye contact, she pushed fear—pure, undiluted terror—into his system. His pupils dilated, sweat beading instantly on his forehead.
His body convulsed, muscles locking as his heart rate spiked dangerously. Isabelle held on just long enough to ensure he wouldn’t get up again, then released him. Dmitri collapsed to the floor, unconscious but alive, his breathing shallow and rapid.
The older guard—Vasily—groaned, stirring weakly where he’d fallen. Isabelle turned, stalking toward him with deliberate steps. Blood dripped from her nose, each heartbeat pounding in her skull like a jackhammer.
“Don’t,” he mumbled, trying to crawl away. “We were just following orders.”
“Whose orders?” Isabelle grabbed him by the collar, hauling him up. “Karli’s?”
“Yes—please—”
She slammed him against the wall. “Where is she?”
“I don’t know.” His eyes darted frantically, looking anywhere but at her face. “We just get messages. Coordinates. Instructions. Through the app.”
Isabelle leaned closer, letting him see the blood staining her teeth. “Not good enough.”
“The GRC summit,” he blurted, trembling beneath her grip. “That’s all I know. Something about the summit! She’s taking the council hostage to stop the vote. Was going to kill you to make a statement!”
She pressed her palm flat against his cheek. His eyes widened as nausea rolled through him, followed by a stabbing pain that made him cry out.
“If you’re lying to me—”
“I’m not!” Tears leaked from the corners of his eyes. “I swear. Please.”
Isabelle studied him for a moment longer, then brought her knee up sharply into his groin. As he doubled over, she delivered a precise strike to the base of his skull. He crumpled like a marionette with cut strings.
The sudden silence felt deafening.
Isabelle stumbled back, adrenaline ebbing to leave room for pain to flood in. Blood from her nose had dripped onto her shirt, adding to the mess already there. Her legs trembled, threatening to give out.
You should have killed them.
“Shut up,” Isabelle muttered, pressing the heel of her hand against her temple.
Weak. Just like your father. All that power and no stomach to use it properly.
She gritted her teeth, scanning the room. The nullifier sat on a metal table in the corner, its green light still blinking steadily. The black box was smaller than she’d expected—about the size of a paperback book, with a digital display and what looked like a biometric scanner on one side.
Isabelle staggered toward it, each step requiring conscious effort. Her fingers closed around the device, turning it over. Stark Industries logo, faded but visible on the underside.
Of course it is, the voice sneered. Your father’s legacy. Always coming back to bite you.
“I said shut the fuck up.” She squeezed, enhanced strength making the metal creak and warp in her grip.
The green light flickered, then died as the casing cracked. Something inside sparked, a thin wisp of smoke rising from the damaged circuitry.
The effect was immediate. Power surged back through Isabelle’s system like a dam breaking. She gasped, nearly dropping to her knees as sensation flooded back—the heightened awareness of every cell in her body, the distant echo of the guards’ pain, the faint buzz of life from somewhere above them.
Better, the voice purred, suddenly louder, more present. Now finish them.
Isabelle looked at the unconscious men, vulnerability etched in their slack faces. It would be easy. A touch, a thought, and their hearts would simply stop. No one would know. No one would blame her.
Her fingers twitched.
“No,” she said aloud, voice steadier than she felt. “Not like this.”
She tucked the broken nullifier into her jacket pocket, wincing as the movement jarred her shoulder. The device was worth studying—how it worked, who had access to it, how many more might be out there. Tony’s tech in the wrong hands again. The story of her life.
Isabelle took a deep breath, forcing her mind to focus through the pain. She needed to get out, find Sam and Bucky, and warn them about the GRC summit.
She moved to the door, pressing her ear against it to listen for movement outside. Nothing. Either they were alone in the building, or the other Flag Smashers were far enough away not to have heard the commotion.
The lock was electronic, requiring a keycard she didn’t have. Isabelle considered her options, then simply wrapped her fingers around the handle and pulled, letting her enhanced strength do the work. Metal groaned, then gave way with a shriek of tearing components.
They’ll hear that, the voice warned, almost gleeful at the prospect of more violence.
“Good,” Isabelle murmured, stepping into the dimly lit hallway beyond. Her powers hummed beneath her skin, eager to be used after being suppressed for so long. The sickness inside her stirred, hungry and restless.
She flexed her fingers, feeling strength return to her limbs with each passing second. The nullifier’s effects were fading rapidly now that the device was destroyed. Soon she’d be at full capacity again—and God help anyone who stood between her and the exit.
Somewhere in the building, a door slammed. Footsteps echoed, growing louder. Multiple sets, moving fast.
Isabelle’s lips curved into another smile, this one cold and certain. The voice in her head fell silent, watching, waiting to see what she would do next.
She rolled her shoulders, ignoring the twinge of pain, and started walking.
A taxi cut him off, and Bucky swerved, the bike’s tires skidding across wet pavement with a harsh squeal. The smell of burning rubber hit his nostrils as rain-slick asphalt threatened to send him sliding. His metal hand clamped down on the handlebar, stabilizing while his flesh hand worked the throttle. He recovered in a heartbeat, muscle memory from decades of missions guiding his movements.
He accelerated harder, the engine’s scream matching the howl building in his chest. The rain stung his face like needles, each droplet another second Isabelle spent in their hands. Every moment stretched like an eternity.
If they’ve hurt her...
The thought remained unfinished. He couldn’t allow himself to follow that thread, not when it led to the cold, familiar darkness that still lurked beneath his consciousness.
The construction site materialized through sheets of rain, skeletal steel beams jutting into the night sky like the ribcage of some massive, decaying beast. Chain-link fence encircled the perimeter, topped with coils of barbed wire that glinted dully under sporadic flashes of lightning. A single floodlight cast harsh shadows across the main entrance, illuminating an empty security booth.
Too easy.
Karli wanted him to find this place. Wanted him to come charging in, desperate and reckless. It was a trap—had to be—but knowing that changed nothing. Isabelle was in there. He could feel it with the same certainty he felt the weight of his metal arm.
Bucky didn’t slow down. His eyes narrowed, calculating angles and momentum with the cold precision that had once made him HYDRA’s perfect weapon. The fence loomed larger, rain-streaked metal gleaming in his headlight.
At the last possible second, he gunned the engine and pulled up, launching the motorcycle into the air. The world tilted, suspended in that weightless moment between decisions—the soldier’s calculated risk, the man’s desperate need. The bike cleared the fence by inches.
The landing jarred every bone in his body. The suspension bottomed out with a metallic groan that matched the sound torn from his throat. Tires fought for purchase on mud-slicked ground as he skidded to a controlled stop behind a stack of concrete barriers, the bike’s engine ticking hot in the sudden quiet.
Bucky abandoned the motorcycle, letting it fall to its side with a muted thud. He crouched low, every sense heightened to painful acuity. His vision cut through the darkness, cataloging the site with ruthless efficiency: half-constructed framework to the north, stacked materials to the east, crane and equipment to the west. Three potential entry points. Four exit routes. Six places for an ambush.
And two guards.
They patrolled the perimeter, moving in tandem, maintaining visual contact while covering each other’s blind spots.
Bucky’s metal arm recalibrated with a soft whir, plates shifting and locking as rain beaded on the vibranium surface. His right hand drifted to the knife at his belt, fingers curling around the familiar grip.
Two approaches. Direct would be faster—he could take both guards before they got off more than a single shot. But that single shot might be all it took to alert whoever was inside. And if they knew he was coming...
They might hurt her. Kill her. Use her as leverage.
The Winter Soldier’s cold logic warred with the frantic pounding of his heart. Every second felt like betrayal. Every moment of caution, another moment Isabelle spent in pain.
His jaw clenched so tight he tasted blood. The image of her flashed behind his eyes—Isabelle laughing in the dim light of her apartment, hair falling across her face. Isabelle’s fingers tracing the seam where metal met flesh, no disgust, no fear. Isabelle asleep against his chest, finally at peace.
“Hold on, sweetheart,” he whispered, the words lost in the rain. “I’m coming.”
The guards turned, beginning another circuit. Bucky melted deeper into the shadows, calculating his path. He’d approach from the east, using the stacked materials for cover. Take the first guard silently, then the second, before an alarm could be raised. Find the entrance. Find Isabelle.
And God help anyone who stood in his way.
Rain plastered his hair to his forehead as he moved, each step precisely placed to avoid the mud that might betray his position. The Winter Soldier’s training guided his body while Bucky Barnes’ heart hammered against his ribs, a desperate counterpoint to the measured cadence of his breathing.
The first guard turned, rifle sweeping across the darkness. Bucky froze mid-step, every muscle locking into perfect stillness. He became part of the construction site—just another shadow among steel beams and concrete pillars. The rain drummed against his shoulders, each droplet a tiny explosion against the fabric of his jacket. He didn’t blink. Didn’t breathe.
The guard paused, head tilting as though sensing something. The man’s finger hovered near the trigger of his rifle, eyes narrowing as he peered into the darkness.
Bucky counted heartbeats—one, two, three—waiting for his moment.
Five seconds. That’s all it would take. Five seconds to cross the distance, disable the guard, and move to the next. He calculated the exact pressure needed to crush a super soldier’s windpipe. The precise angle to snap an enhanced neck. The Winter Soldier’s knowledge surfaced like old blood from a wound never fully healed.
Not yet, he told the darkness inside him. Not unless I have to.
Bucky reached down, fingers closing around a small stone half-buried in mud. The weight of it was familiar in his palm—a weapon, a distraction, a choice. With a precise flick of his wrist, he sent it arcing through the air. The stone clattered against a pile of metal scaffolding thirty yards from the guard’s position, the sound sharp and sudden in the night.
The guard’s body tensed, rifle coming up as he pivoted toward the noise. “Hello?” he called, voice carrying across the empty site. “Is someone there?”
Bucky’s lips twitched. Predictable. Amateur. The Flag Smashers might have serum in their veins, but they lacked the decades of training that had been carved into his bones.
“Alek?” The guard reached for the radio at his belt. “I heard something on the east side. Going to check—”
Bucky moved the instant the man’s back turned. Three long strides across mud that should have sucked at his boots but somehow didn’t. His metal arm wrapped around the guard’s throat from behind, cutting off both air and sound in one fluid motion. The rifle clattered to the ground as the man’s hands flew up, clawing uselessly at vibranium.
The guard bucked against him, enhanced strength making him dangerous even in a choke hold. Bucky tightened his grip, feeling the frantic pulse beneath his fingers. He could end it now. One sharp twist. One decision.
“How many inside?” Bucky growled instead. “Tell me and I’ll let you breathe.”
He loosened his grip just enough for the man to gasp out a response, maintaining the pressure that reminded them both who was in control.
“Ten—” the guard wheezed, face reddening. “Ten plus Karli when she gets here. Lower level. East side.”
“The woman.” Bucky’s voice dropped lower, something cold and deadly slipping into his tone. “Where is she?”
“Center room.” The guard’s voice cracked. “They’re—”
Bucky felt something shift inside himself, a glacier calving into a frozen sea. “They’re what?” he asked, the Winter Soldier’s calm precision bleeding into his words.
The guard must have sensed the change in him, the sudden deadly stillness. “Please,” he gasped, struggling weakly now. “I just joined last week. I didn’t know they were going to take her. I didn’t know what Batroc did to—”
Bucky’s vision narrowed to a pinpoint of red. His metal fingers tightened involuntarily, the plates shifting with a soft mechanical whir. The guard made a strangled sound, hands scrabbling more frantically now.
Not like this, a voice that sounded like Steve whispered in his mind. You’re not that person anymore.
But another voice—his own, cold and certain—answered back: For her, I could be.
With brutal efficiency, Bucky adjusted his grip and applied precise pressure to the carotid arteries on either side of the guard’s neck. The man’s struggles weakened, then ceased as unconsciousness claimed him. Bucky held on for two seconds longer—counting them with clinical detachment—before lowering the limp body carefully to the ground.
Bucky crouched, retrieving the guard’s radio and weapon in one smooth motion. He checked the rifle—fully loaded, safety off. The radio crackled to life in his hand.
“Alek? Report.” A woman’s voice, sharp with authority. “What did you find?”
Bucky pressed the transmit button, pitching his voice to match the unconscious guard’s accent. “Nothing. Just some debris falling. All clear.”
A pause. “Copy that. Stay alert. Barnes will come for her.”
“Count on it,” Bucky muttered after releasing the button.
He rose to his feet, rain sliding down his face like tears he wouldn’t allow himself to shed. Not yet. Not until Isabelle was safe. The second guard would be looking for his partner soon. Time was running out.
Bucky moved toward the building’s entrance, each step deliberate and silent.
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The warehouse is a maze of concrete and shadows.
Her powers flicker. Her body fails.
And the Flag Smashers smell blood in the water.The voice in her head is louder than ever.
If she can’t find a way out, the only thing left to decide is which monster will walk out of here—
Isabelle, or Belladonna.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 86: Belladonna
Chapter 86: Belladonna
Summary:
The warehouse was meant to break her.
The drugs. The blood. The endless corridors.But it isn’t Isabelle who answers when the Flag Smashers push too far.
It’s the other one.
The voice she’s kept buried. The monster her mother built.And once Belladonna slips free, the line between survivor and executioner dissolves in blood and silence.
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Chapter Text
Isabelle’s footsteps echoed through the warehouse’s concrete corridors, each sound bouncing back at her like a taunt. The air hung thick with tension. She pressed her palm against the cold wall, steadying herself as she peered around another corner. More empty hallway. More shadows. More nothing.
“Come on,” she muttered, wincing as she rolled her injured shoulder. “There has to be a way out.”
The warehouse seemed designed to disorient—identical corridors branching in multiple directions. Isabelle paused at an intersection, listening. Water dripped somewhere to her left. A faint hum of machinery came from the right. She chose right, moving as quietly as her combat boots would allow.
The corridor widened into what looked like a loading area. She’d taken two steps toward the center tunnel when they appeared. Three Flag Smashers blocked the path ahead, their expressions shifting from surprise to delight as they recognized her. All wore the familiar red handprinted black mask over their faces. All carried weapons—a stun baton, brass knuckles, and what looked like a cattle prod.
They grinned like wolves who’d just cornered a wounded deer.
Isabelle backed up a step, raising her fists as a silent curse burned through her mind. Shit, shit, shit. She assessed them through narrowed eyes—all enhanced with the serum, all armed, all looking at her like she was their next meal. The tall one with the stun baton was clearly their leader, standing with the practiced confidence of someone used to winning fights. The woman with the cattle prod hung back slightly, more cautious. The third circled like a predator, brass knuckles glinting dully in the sickly light.
The third one stepped forward, cracking his knuckles with deliberate slowness. “Where’s all that Avenger fire now, huh?” he taunted, circling to her left. “Not so tough without your team, are you?”
Isabelle’s fingers curled tighter into fists, nails biting into her palms. The pain helped focus her scattered thoughts. She could feel her powers flickering again beneath her skin.
Let me help, the voice hissed, more insistent now. Let me burn them down for you. Let me show them what sick really means.
“I don’t need a team to handle you three,” Isabelle said, voice steadier than she felt. She shifted her weight, cataloging escape routes, weaknesses, anything that might give her an edge. The corridor behind the woman looked promising—narrower, which would force them to come at her one at a time. “And I’m plenty tough on my own.”
The tall one laughed, twirling the stun baton in a practiced motion. The weapon hummed softly, promising pain. “That’s not what it looked like when Batroc dragged you in here.”
“Maybe I was just tired,” Isabelle said, taking a careful step to the side. “Maybe I was just—”
—waiting for the right moment to tear them apart, it finished in her head.
Isabelle faltered, losing the thread of her own thought. Her vision blurred, red creeping at the edges. She blinked hard, forcing herself back to clarity. The momentary confusion must have shown on her face, because the young one lunged forward suddenly, brass knuckles gleaming.
Isabelle pivoted, muscle memory taking over where conscious thought failed. She caught his arm, using his momentum to slam him face-first into the wall. His nose crunched against concrete. Before he could recover, she pressed her palm against the back of his neck and pushed.
Her power flowed like cold water, seeping into him. She felt the connection form, and then she twisted. Pain receptors fired all at once. His knees buckled as he screamed, a raw, animal sound that echoed through the tunnels.
“Shit!” The woman with the cattle prod rushed forward.
Isabelle released the young one, letting him crumple to the floor, and spun to face the new threat. The woman jabbed the prod forward, electricity crackling. Isabelle dodged, but not quite fast enough—the edge caught her arm. Voltage surged through her, muscles seizing. She stumbled back, teeth clenched against a scream.
The tall one circled, looking for an opening. “You’re not the only one with tricks, Stark.”
Isabelle forced herself upright, ignoring the tremors in her limbs. “No,” she agreed, meeting his eyes directly. “But mine are better.”
She locked her gaze with his, establishing the connection she needed. This power was different—subtler, requiring more focus but less contact. She reached for the part of her that could see sickness, could manipulate it, could create it from nothing.
That’s it, the voice whispered, almost purring. Make him feel what it’s like to drown in his own lungs.
The man’s eyes widened as the first cough hit him. He staggered back, hand flying to his throat as his bronchial tubes began to constrict. Panic flashed across his face—the universal terror of not being able to breathe.
The woman with the cattle prod screamed in rage, charging at Isabelle. This time, Isabelle was ready. She ducked under the swing, driving her fist into the woman’s solar plexus. As the woman doubled over, Isabelle grabbed her wrist, twisting until the cattle prod clattered to the floor.
Skin touched skin. Isabelle concentrated, sending a pulse of agony through the woman’s arm. Bone-deep, like marrow on fire. The woman’s scream cut off as she passed out from the shock.
Isabelle released her, breathing hard. The warehouse spun around her. She’d pushed too far, too fast. Her powers were draining her last reserves.
The tall man was on his knees now, still struggling for air. The young one remained motionless where he’d fallen. The woman lay unconscious at Isabelle’s feet.
Finish them. They deserve worse for what they did to us.
“No,” Isabelle muttered, swaying on her feet. “That’s not... that’s not who I am.”
It’s who we are, the voice insisted, sharp with frustration.
Isabelle stumbled toward the center tunnel, leaving the Flag Smashers behind. Her powers receded, leaving her hollow and shaking. She needed to find Sam and Bucky. Needed to get out.
The tunnel stretched before her, dark and seemingly endless. She pressed forward, one hand against the wall for support, the other curled protectively against her injured ribs.
Behind her, she heard movement. A radio crackled to life.
“Target is mobile,” came a strained voice—the tall man, recovering faster than she’d expected. “South tunnel. Send backup.”
Isabelle cursed under her breath and forced her legs to move faster, ignoring the protests of her battered body. The darkness of the tunnel swallowed her, but she could hear footsteps now—more than just the three she’d left behind.
The warehouse seemed designed to break her spirit—endless branching hallways leading nowhere, lights casting distorted shadows that played tricks on her exhausted mind. She paused at another junction, sweat beading along her hairline despite the chill in the air. Something wasn’t right. Her skin felt too tight, too hot.
You’re getting weaker. Let me take over.
“Just keep moving,” Isabelle muttered, pressing the heels of her hands against her temples. The voice had been growing steadier, stronger since she’d fought the last group of Flag Smashers. Using her powers had opened some door inside her, and now she couldn’t seem to close it. “One foot in front of the other.”
She turned left, stumbling as a wave of dizziness hit her. The corridor tilted sideways, then righted itself. Her body temperature spiked suddenly—familiar, terrifying heat rushing through her veins. Just like when she’d taken Val’s serum. Just like when she’d lost control.
Isabelle’s breathing quickened, shallow and rapid. She pressed her back against the wall, sliding down until she hit the floor. Her hands trembled violently as she stared at them. Sweat dripped from her forehead, splashing onto her palms.
“This isn’t happening,” she whispered. “Not now. Not here.”
It’s always been happening, it replied. You’ve just been pretending otherwise.
The voice was louder now, clearer, as if someone were standing right beside her rather than speaking from inside her skull. Isabelle squeezed her eyes shut, trying to focus on her breathing. Four counts in. Hold. Four counts out.
But the voice wouldn’t stop.
They’re coming for us. They’ll take us back to a lab. Cut us open again. Study us. Break us. Unless we break them first.
“Shut up!” Isabelle shouted, her voice echoing through the empty corridor. “Just shut up!”
You need me. You’ve always needed me. I’m the only reason you’re still alive.
“I said SHUT UP!”
Isabelle lurched to her feet, rage and panic boiling over. She slammed her fist into the concrete wall, enhanced strength driving through the surface like it was cardboard. Concrete cracked and exploded outward, dust billowing around her as a crater formed beneath her knuckles. Pain lanced up her arm, but it felt distant, unimportant.
She hit the wall again. And again. Each impact sent shockwaves through the structure, chunks of concrete raining down around her. Her knuckles split, blood smearing across the gray surface, but she couldn’t stop. The physical pain was a relief, something to focus on besides the voice, besides the heat burning through her veins.
“Get out of my head!” she screamed, driving her fist into the wall one final time. The impact sent a spiderweb of cracks racing up to the ceiling. “Get OUT!”
Her voice broke on the last word, raw and desperate. She stood there, breathing hard, staring at the destruction she’d caused. Blood dripped from her mangled knuckles to the floor. Her vision swam, red creeping at the edges.
You can’t get rid of me. I am you. The real you.
Isabelle pressed her forehead against the ruined wall, eyes squeezed shut. “No,” she whispered. “That’s not—”
—who you want to be? It finished, voice almost gentle. But it’s who you are.
The sound of footsteps made Isabelle’s head snap up. Through the haze of dust and the red tinge creeping across her vision, she saw them—five Flag Smashers approaching cautiously from the end of the corridor. They moved in formation, weapons drawn, expressions shifting from determination to uncertainty as they took in the scene before them.
Isabelle tried to straighten, to assume a fighting stance, but her body betrayed her. She swayed, one hand braced against the shattered wall for support. Blood ran down her arm, dripping from her elbow. She could feel herself slipping, consciousness flickering like a bad lightbulb.
Let me help. Let me protect us.
“Stay back,” Isabelle called out to the Flag Smashers, her voice hoarse. “I’m warning you.”
The five exchanged glances. One of them—a young woman with close-cropped hair and a scar across her jaw—stepped forward, stun baton held at the ready.
“This...” she said, gesturing at the destruction, at Isabelle’s bloodied form, “this is Sick Girl?”
A man beside her snorted, twirling a knife between his fingers. “She doesn’t look like a hero,” he said. “She looks like someone who belongs in a padded cell.”
Isabelle felt something crack inside her at the words. Not anger—something deeper, more primal. Fear.
“Please,” she said, and hated how her voice shook. “You need to leave. You need to back off. I can’t—” She pressed a hand to her head as another wave of dizziness hit her. “I can’t control this much longer.”
You never could. That’s why you need me.
The woman with the stun baton laughed, the sound echoing off the concrete walls. “Control what, exactly? You can barely stand.”
She was right. Isabelle’s vision was tunneling, darkness creeping in from all sides. She could feel herself starting to black out, consciousness slipping away like water through cupped hands. The voice grew louder, drowning out everything else.
Let me show them what we can do. Let me show them why they should fear us.
“No,” Isabelle gasped, but she was losing the battle. Her knees buckled, sending her crashing to the ground. The impact jarred through her, but the pain felt distant, unimportant. She looked up at the approaching Flag Smashers, vision blurring.
“Run,” she managed, one final warning as she felt herself slipping beneath the surface of her own mind. “For your own sake... run.”
The woman with the stun baton stepped closer, weapon raised. “I don’t think we will,” she said, a cruel smile spreading across her face. “In fact, I think we’re just getting started.”
Isabelle’s head dropped forward, chin hitting her chest as something inside her gave way—not with a snap but a sigh, like ice finally surrendering to spring thaw. The heat that had been building beneath her skin surged through her veins, no longer painful but powerful.
Clarifying.
When she looked up again, her vision had sharpened to crystal clarity. The red haze that had been creeping at the edges was gone, replaced by a strange, cold focus. She could see every detail of the Flag Smashers’ faces—the uncertainty flickering behind their bravado, the sweat beading along the woman’s hairline, the way the man with the knife kept shifting his weight from foot to foot.
“So are we,” Isabelle said, but the voice that emerged was smoother than her own, colder and more precise where hers had been ragged with exhaustion. She rose to her feet with fluid grace, all signs of weakness vanished. Blood still dripped from her knuckles, but the pain had become distant, irrelevant. She looked at the crimson trails with mild curiosity, as though observing someone else’s injury.
The Flag Smashers faltered, sensing the shift. The woman with the stun baton took an involuntary step back.
“What the hell?” she whispered, her weapon wavering slightly.
Isabelle—no, not Isabelle, not anymore—smiled, a predator’s grin that transformed her face into something sharper, hungrier. “You should have run when she gave you the chance,” Belladonna said, rolling Isabelle’s shoulders as though testing the fit of a new coat. “She was trying to protect you.”
The man with the knife recovered first, lunging forward with a snarl. “Shut her up!”
Belladonna sidestepped with balletic precision, letting the blade whistle past her ear. She caught his wrist as he stumbled forward, her fingers wrapping around bare skin where his sleeve had ridden up.
“Here’s a fun fact about the human nervous system,” she said conversationally as the man’s knees buckled, a scream tearing from his throat. “Pain is just electrical signals. And I can make those signals say whatever I want.” She twisted her grip slightly, and the man’s scream pitched higher, his back arching at an impossible angle. “Right now, I’m telling your body that every bone in your arm is shattering. Fascinating how the mind can’t tell the difference between real injury and... well, me.”
The woman with the stun baton charged, weapon crackling with electricity. Belladonna released the man, letting him crumple to the floor. The baton slashed toward her ribs, but she caught it mid-swing, the electricity sparking harmlessly against her palm.
“That tickles,” she said, yanking the weapon from the woman’s grasp and tossing it aside. It clattered against the wall, sparks dying as it powered down. “My turn.” Belladonna’s hand shot out, fingers wrapping around the woman’s throat. Not squeezing—just holding. “I’m not a hero,” she said with a smile, her voice dropping to a silky whisper as the woman began to tremble. “Heroes have lines they won’t cross. Rules they follow.”
The three remaining Flag Smashers rushed forward as one, trying to overwhelm her with numbers. Belladonna released the woman, who collapsed, gasping, to the floor, and turned. She moved like water, flowing between their uncoordinated strikes with contemptuous ease.
A fist grazed her cheek. She caught the wrist, twisted, and slammed the attacker face-first into the concrete wall. Another came at her with a knife. She kicked his knee sideways with a sickening crack, then caught him by the hair as he fell, forcing eye contact.
“I’m what’s left when the heroes are gone,” she said, staring directly into his terrified eyes. The connection formed—different this time, not pain but sickness. She could see the capillaries in his eyes, the delicate tissues of his lungs, the vulnerable pathways of his respiratory system. “I’m what happens when you push too far.”
The man began to cough, then gasp, his lungs constricting as if seized by sudden pneumonia. She released him, letting him collapse to his knees, fighting for breath that wouldn’t come.
The last Flag Smasher backed away, terror plain on his face. “What are you?” he whispered.
Belladonna smiled, advancing on him with unhurried steps. Blood spattered her face and hands, none of it her own. The concrete corridor felt too small suddenly, too confining for what she had become.
“I’m Belladonna,” she said, savoring the words as they rolled off her tongue.
The Flag Smasher turned to run, but she was faster—inhumanly fast. She caught him by the back of his jacket, spinning him around to face her. His eyes were wide with terror, pupils dilated to black pools.
“Please,” he begged, voice cracking. “We were just following orders—”
“Funny,” Belladonna said, forcing him back against the wall. “That’s what they all say.” She placed her palm against his cheek, feeling his pulse hammer beneath her fingertips. “Do you know what belladonna is? It’s a poison. Beautiful and deadly.” She leaned closer, her voice dropping to an intimate murmur. “In small doses, it can heal. In large ones... well.”
The man whimpered as her fingers tightened, her nails digging into his skin.
“I’ve been locked away for so long,” she continued, watching his eyes dart frantically between her and his fallen comrades. “She’s kept me buried, hidden, denied. But I’ve always been here. Waiting. Growing stronger while she grew weaker.”
A groan from behind her caught her attention—one of the other men was stirring, trying to crawl toward a discarded weapon. Belladonna glanced over her shoulder, lips curving in amusement.
“One moment,” she told the man pinned against the wall, as casually as if excusing herself from a dinner conversation. She crossed to where the man struggled, crouching beside him. “Still fighting? I admire the persistence.” She caught the man’s chin, forcing him to look up. “But I think you need a little rest.”
Their eyes met, and Belladonna sent a pulse of fear—pure, primal terror—cascading through the connection. The man’s eyes rolled back, his body going limp as his mind shut down, unable to process the overwhelming stimulus.
Belladonna straightened, turning back to the man still frozen against the wall. “Now, where were we?”
“You’re insane,” he whispered, pressing himself harder against the concrete as if hoping it might swallow him.
“No,” Belladonna said, moving toward him with the fluid grace of a predator. “I’m very, very sane. That’s what makes me dangerous.” She smiled, head tilting slightly as she studied him. “Isabelle—she’s the broken one. The one who hesitates. Who doubts. Who still believes in mercy.” She was close enough now to see the sweat beading on his upper lip, to smell the fear rolling off him in waves. “I don’t have those weaknesses.”
The man’s hand moved suddenly, reaching for something at his belt. Belladonna caught his wrist before he could grab whatever weapon he’d been going for, twisting until bones ground together and he cried out.
“That was rude,” she said mildly. “I was talking.”
She pressed her other hand to his chest, feeling his heart hammering beneath her palm.
“I could stop your heart right now. Just a thought, a twist of will, and it would seize in your chest.” Her fingers splayed wider, pressing harder. “Or I could fill your lungs with fluid. Make you drown standing up. Or trigger an aneurysm in your brain. So many options.”
The man’s breathing came in short, panicked gasps. “Why are you telling me this?”
Belladonna’s smile widened, showing teeth. “Because I want you to understand what’s happening. I want you to know exactly who’s killing you.”
Something flickered behind her eyes then—a momentary hesitation, a flash of green breaking through the darkness. Her grip on the man’s wrist loosened fractionally.
“No,” she muttered, shaking her head as if to clear it. “They deserve this. After what they did to us—”
The hesitation stretched, her expression shifting, features softening, then hardening again in rapid succession. When she spoke again, her voice had changed, becoming rougher, more familiar.
“They’re just soldiers,” Isabelle said, the words dragging from her throat as if each one cost her tremendous effort. “They don’t... they don’t know what they’re part of.”
Belladonna’s voice sliced through, cold and precise: “—what they’re part of is why they deserve to die.”
Isabelle felt herself being pushed back, deeper into her own mind. The sensation was like drowning in tar—suffocating, disorienting, impossible to fight against. She clawed desperately for purchase, for some foothold in her own consciousness, but Belladonna’s grip was too strong.
The Flag Smasher stared at her, confusion mingling with terror on his face as he witnessed the battle playing out before him. His back pressed harder against the concrete wall, as if he could somehow phase through it if he tried hard enough.
His eyes darted frantically toward his fallen comrades, finding no help there. “Please—please—I have a daughter—”
Something in Isabelle stirred at that—a flicker of empathy, of recognition. But Belladonna crushed it mercilessly. “So did my father.” The smile widened, revealing teeth stained with Isabelle’s own blood from her earlier fight. “Look what happened to her.”
The man’s eyes widened in horrified realization, a split second of terrible understanding before Belladonna’s fist punched through his sternum. Bone cracked like kindling, ribs collapsing inward as organs ruptured. The sound was wet, obscene—the punctuation at the end of a life.
Belladonna stepped back, letting the body slide down the wall, leaving a crimson smear in its wake. She examined her bloodied hand with clinical detachment, flexing her fingers as if testing their function.
“That felt good,” she murmured, rolling her shoulders. “Been waiting a long time to do that.”
A groan from across the corridor caught her attention. The woman with the stun baton was regaining consciousness, eyes fluttering open, hand scrabbling weakly for her weapon. Belladonna crossed to her in three fluid strides, crouching down beside her.
“Hello again,” she said, voice honeyed with false warmth. “Feeling better?”
The woman’s eyes widened as they focused on Belladonna’s blood-spattered face. She tried to scramble backward, but her limbs wouldn’t cooperate properly, still sluggish from the earlier assault on her nervous system.
“What—what did you do to him?” she gasped, gaze darting to her fallen comrade.
Belladonna tilted her head, considering the question. “I showed him what happens when you threaten me.” She reached out, fingertips brushing the woman’s cheek in a grotesque parody of tenderness. “Would you like me to show you, too?”
The woman’s breathing accelerated, chest heaving with panic. “Please—we were just following orders—”
“Orders. You’ve said that already.” Belladonna repeated, rolling the word around her mouth like she was tasting it. “As if it absolves you of responsibility.” Her fingers trailed down to the woman’s throat, resting lightly against her pulse point. “Tell me something. Did your orders include drugging Isabelle until she couldn’t move? Taking her from a safe place?”
The woman shook her head frantically. “I wasn’t—I didn’t—”
“No?” Belladonna’s fingers tightened slightly. “But you would have, if ordered. You’re all the same. Following orders. Doing your job. Never questioning what that job actually is.” She leaned closer until her face was inches from the woman’s. “Look at me,” she commanded. The woman tried to avert her gaze, but Belladonna caught her chin, forcing eye contact. “I said, look at me.”
Their eyes locked, and Belladonna smiled as the connection formed. Not pain this time—something deeper, more insidious. She reached for the part of her that could see sickness, could manipulate it, could create it from nothing.
“Do you know what sepsis feels like?” she asked. “It starts with a fever. Then confusion. Your blood pressure drops. Your heart races, trying to compensate. Your organs begin to fail, one by one.” She tilted her head, watching as the woman’s pupils dilated with terror. “It’s happening to you right now. Can you feel it?”
The woman’s breathing hitched, becoming ragged as her body responded to the phantom infection Belladonna was creating in her mind. Sweat beaded on her forehead, her skin flushing with artificial fever.
“Please,” she whispered, voice cracking. “I don’t want to die.”
“Neither did I,” Belladonna replied, voice soft with mock sympathy. “But they didn’t care about that, did they? They strapped me down anyway. Cut me open anyway. Broke me anyway.” Her grip tightened. “Why should I care about what you want?”
The woman’s eyes rolled back as her body convulsed, responding to the imagined infection ravaging her system. Belladonna watched with detached fascination as she gasped for breath, limbs twitching uselessly.
“That’s it,” she murmured. “Just let go. It’s easier that way.”
A final, rattling breath escaped the woman’s lips before she went still, eyes staring sightlessly at the ceiling. Belladonna released her, rising to her feet with fluid grace.
Two down. Three to go.
The remaining Flag Smashers were stirring in the dim yellow emergency lighting. The one with brass knuckles pushed himself to his knees, blood streaming from his shattered nose in thick rivulets that dripped onto the concrete. The tall one with the stun baton fought to regulate his breathing, each inhale a ragged struggle as his airways gradually relaxed from Isabelle’s earlier attack. The third lay motionless except for the subtle rise and fall of his chest—unconscious but showing signs of waking.
Belladonna approached the one with brass knuckles first, footsteps echoing in the concrete corridor. The Flag Smasher looked up at her approach, confusion giving way to horror as he registered her blood-spattered appearance and the lifeless bodies of his comrades. Recognition flashed in his eyes—not of Isabelle, but of what she had become.
He scrambled backward, hand reaching desperately for a weapon—a tactical knife that had skittered across the floor during the earlier struggle. His fingers had just grazed the handle when Belladonna’s boot came down, grinding metacarpals against concrete with a sound like twigs snapping underfoot.
His scream bounced off the walls, high and pained, amplified by the corridor’s acoustics until it seemed to come from everywhere at once.
“That’s not yours,” Belladonna said, voice soft with mock reproach. She kicked the knife away, sending it spinning into the shadows.
The man clutched his crushed hand to his chest, eyes wide with terror as he stared up at her. Belladonna crouched before him, bringing their faces level. She reached out to grip his chin. Her fingers left smears of blood—some his, some not—across his stubbled jaw. Their eyes met, and Belladonna reached for the darkest part of her power—the ability to induce terror so profound it could stop a heart. The connection formed instantly, a cold electric current flowing between them. The man’s pupils dilated to black pools, swallowing the iris entirely as his breathing accelerated to shallow, desperate pants.
“What do you fear most?” she asked. The words hung in the air between them, intimate as a lover’s confession. “Is it pain? Death? Or is it something deeper?” Her head tilted slightly, studying him like a curious predator. “The knowledge that in your final moments, you are utterly, completely alone?”
A keening sound escaped him, high and thin, as Belladonna poured every ounce of fear she had ever felt into the connection—the terror of the operating table, the horror of watching her own blood being drawn and studied, the primal dread of being trapped with no escape.
Inside her own mind, Isabelle fought to resurface, clawing against the suffocating darkness that held her submerged. She could see what was happening, could feel her own hands doing Belladonna’s work, but couldn’t break through. It was like being trapped behind one-way glass—able to witness everything but powerless to intervene.
No, she tried to scream, but the words remained trapped in the prison of her mind. Stop this. This isn’t who we are.
But it is who I am, Belladonna replied.
The Flag Smasher’s body convulsed once, violently, then went still. His eyes remained open, staring at nothing, pupils still blown wide with the terror that had stopped his heart. No blood, no visible trauma—just fear in its purest, most lethal form.
Belladonna rose to her feet, satisfaction coursing through her like a drug. The remaining Flag Smashers had regained consciousness while she’d been occupied. The tall one with the stun baton had managed to pull himself to his knees, one hand braced against the wall as he fought to steady his breathing. The other—the one she’d knocked unconscious earlier—was crawling backward, leaving a smear of blood across the concrete floor as he tried to put distance between them.
Belladonna raised her hand, fingers poised in the air between them. The tall one tried to lunge for his fallen stun baton, but his body betrayed him, still weak from her earlier assault.
“I wouldn’t,” she advised softly.
Inside the prison of her own mind, Isabelle fought with renewed desperation. She could feel what Belladonna was about to do—could feel the power gathering like a storm, could sense the intent forming with crystalline clarity.
No! she screamed into the void of her consciousness. This isn’t justice—this is murder!
Belladonna’s fingers trembled almost imperceptibly, the only outward sign of the battle raging within. “Shut up,” she hissed, the words barely audible.
With a sharp, decisive motion, she snapped her fingers.
The sound cracked through the corridor like a gunshot.
The tall Flag Smasher’s body jerked once, violently, his spine arching as his hands flew to his chest. A strangled gasp escaped him—the sound of a man whose heart had simply stopped beating. His eyes bulged, mouth working soundlessly as he collapsed forward onto the concrete.
The crawling man froze, staring at his fallen comrade in horror. “What did you—how did you—”
Belladonna turned to him, expression serene. “Your turn.”
Another snap.
Another body hitting concrete.
The silence that followed was absolute, broken only by the distant drip of water somewhere in the darkness of the warehouse.
Belladonna stood motionless amid the carnage, five bodies scattered around her like fallen leaves. Blood spattered her face and hands, some still wet enough to catch the sickly yellow emergency lights. She surveyed her work with cool satisfaction, breathing deeply as if savoring the moment.
Inside, Isabelle’s consciousness flickered weakly, like a candle guttering in a storm. The horror of what her body had just done—of what her powers had been used for—threatened to drown her completely. She’d killed before, yes—in battle, in self-defense, when there was no other choice. But this... this had been execution. Cold-blooded and calculated.
They would have killed us, Belladonna’s voice echoed through their shared mind. They would have taken us back to the labs. Back to the tables and the needles and the pain.
We could have incapacitated them, Isabelle argued, her mental voice thin with exhaustion. We didn’t have to kill them.
Always so soft, Belladonna sneered. So desperate to be the hero. To be worthy of the Stark name.
Isabelle’s knees buckled. She caught herself against the wall, leaving a crimson handprint on the concrete. Her stomach heaved as she looked at the tall Flag Smasher’s vacant eyes, still wide with the terror that had stopped his heart.
But you’re not a hero, Isabelle. Belladonna’s voice softened to something almost tender, almost loving as she retreated. You never were. You’re a weapon—my perfect weapon. And it’s time to stop pretending otherwise.
“No,” Isabelle whispered, the word barely audible even in the silent corridor. Her throat felt raw, as if she’d been screaming for hours. Had she? “That’s not true.”
Isn’t it? Belladonna’s amusement rippled through her. Look around you. Look at what we’ve done. What you’ve done.
Isabelle’s gaze drifted to her hands—her father’s hands, with their long, clever fingers now crusted with drying blood. The same hands that had once built robots in the workshop with Tony. The same hands that had held Morgan while reading bedtime stories.
The same hands that had just torn through flesh and bone like wet paper.
A sob caught in her throat, threatening to choke her.
Then Belladonna did something worse than anything that had come before. She retreated, pulling back from the forefront of their shared consciousness, leaving Isabelle alone with the carnage. The giggle that escaped Isabelle’s lips wasn’t hers—a final parting gift from Belladonna before surrendering control.
“Oh God,” Isabelle whispered, sliding down the wall until she hit the floor. Her legs splayed out before her, one boot leaving a smear in a pool of blood. “Oh God, what did I do?”
No answer came. Belladonna had gone silent, but Isabelle could feel her watching from somewhere deep inside—observing, waiting, savoring Isabelle’s horror like a fine wine.
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The fire still rages, smoke clawing at the ceiling, but Bucky doesn’t feel the heat—only the pull.
The hostages are free, the fight unfinished, and Sam has arrived to steady the balance.
But Isabelle is still out there, somewhere in the shadows of the labyrinth below, and every second tips closer to too late.And then, through the static of his comm, came a voice. Calm. Certain. Terrifyingly sure.
"Found her."
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 87: Where the Fire Finds You
Chapter 87: Where the Fire Finds You
Summary:
Blood paints the concrete. Bodies lie twisted in the dark.
Isabelle Stark is left trembling in the silence, her power still echoing through the carnage.She swore she’d never become this.
Swore she’d never lose control.
But the dead don’t care about promises.And somewhere in the shadows, footsteps are drawing closer.
Notes:
okay….guys…..I said this last time, but it’s real now. We are literally five chapters away from the end of this fic. Holy crap. 😭 Also, thank you for getting us to 21k!!! ahhhh you’re all amazing!!💚💚💚
Couple quick announcements!!
✨ I’m moving mid-September!! Super excited, but it’s a big move (new state, new everything), so I’ve officially started packing. That means I’m planning on posting the rest of this fic this week so I can focus on the move. Double drops incoming. 👀
✨ The sequel is outlined, and I’ve started drafting, but I’ll need to take a short break after this fic ends to get settled. I’m aiming to start posting it in October once I have enough chapters stocked up.
✨ In the meantime, I’ll still be updating What Came Before since those are shorter arcs/oneshots compared to the main fic.Thank you all SO much for reading, commenting, and supporting. Seriously, you’ve carried me through this whole project. 💚 Planning to double post tonight!!!
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Thought Contagion" by Muse
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Chapter Text
Bucky slipped past the second guard, his footsteps nearly silent despite the combat boots. Rain pelted his shoulders as he found the ramp spiraling down into the construction site’s subterranean loading dock. The air changed as he descended—cooler, damper, thick with the smell of wet concrete and raw metal.
The underground space unfolded before him like a nightmare maze: half-built walls creating blind corners, scaffolding stretching toward an unfinished ceiling, shadows pooling in every crevice. Rainwater dripped through hairline cracks in the concrete above, small puddles forming on the uneven floors.
His heart hammered against his ribs. Isabelle was down here somewhere. He could feel it, that inexplicable pull that he felt towards her. He moved fast, too fast for proper recon, but his need to find her overrode tactical sense as he vaulted over a stack of rebar, landing in a crouch. He paused, listening. Water dripping. Distant voices. The hum of machinery.
Then, the rumble of an engine growing louder.
He pressed his back against a concrete pillar as headlights swept across the space. A black SWAT-style van rolled down the ramp, its tires splashing through puddles. The Flag Smasher behind the wheel wore the familiar red handprint mask, moving with purpose as they guided the vehicle deeper into the underground chamber.
Bucky narrowed his eyes, focusing on the narrow windows along the van’s side. Inside, he caught glimpses of terrified faces—men and women in business attire, their wrists bound with zip ties. The GRC council members. The other hostages.
For a split second, his mind screamed at him: Ignore it. Find her. That’s why you’re here.
The thought left a bitter taste in his mouth. Cowardice. Steve would never—
“Dammit,” he muttered, the curse barely audible even to his own ears. He couldn’t walk away from innocent people, not even for her. And the twisted part was, Isabelle would never forgive him if he did.
The van rolled to a stop about thirty yards ahead, near what looked like a makeshift command center. Three more Flag Smashers emerged from the shadows to meet it.
Bucky touched the comm in his ear. “Sam, they’ve got the council members in the loading dock. At least four hostiles that I can see.”
Sam’s voice came through, slightly distorted. “I’m ten minutes out. Sharon’s working on the east entrance. Any sign of Isabelle?”
“Not yet.” Bucky swallowed the fear rising in his throat. “But she’s here. I know it.”
“Be careful, Buck.”
Despite everything, Bucky’s mouth quirked up at one corner. “I’m not the one who needs to be careful.” The old instinct—the Winter Soldier’s cold calculation—was sliding into place, but beneath it burned something fiercer. Something personal.
Bucky didn’t wait. He moved from shadow to shadow, closing the distance to the hostages. Twenty yards. Fifteen. Ten. A puddle betrayed him, the slight splash drawing a Flag Smasher’s attention. The masked figure turned, eyes widening behind the red handprint.
“We’ve got company!” they shouted, reaching for a weapon.
Too late. Bucky was already on them, metal arm catching the dim light as he drove his fist into their sternum. The Flag Smasher flew backward, crashing into a stack of metal pipes that clattered across the floor like thunder.
Three more converged, blocking his path. The first came at him with a knife, the blade slicing through the air where Bucky’s throat had been a second before. He countered with an elbow to the jaw, feeling bone crack beneath the impact. The second and third attacked simultaneously—one high, one low.
Bucky ducked the high punch, but the low kick connected with his ribs. He grunted, using the momentum to roll across the slick concrete, coming up behind a support column as bullets peppered the space where he’d been.
The fight devolved into brutal close-quarters combat. Bucky’s boots struggled for purchase on the wet floor, each step a calculated risk. A Flag Smasher caught him with a glancing blow to the temple, sending stars across his vision. He responded by grabbing the attacker’s arm and twisting until something snapped. The scream echoed off the unfinished walls.
Bucky’s metal fist smashed through a thin pipe running along the ceiling. Scalding steam hissed across the floor, creating a momentary blind spot. He used the cover to drop two more assailants—quick, efficient strikes that left them unconscious but breathing.
Through the thinning steam, he spotted her.
Karli Morgenthau stood across the loading bay, giving orders as they moved the hostages deeper into the construction site.
Anger roiled through him, hot and sharp, clearing his head of everything else. Bucky cut through the steam, dropping another Flag Smasher with a savage kick that sent them crashing into a pile of rebar. His focus narrowed to a laser point: get to Karli, make her tell him where Isabelle was.
He was halfway across the space when movement flashed in his peripheral vision. Too many, coming too fast. Five Flag Smashers swarmed him at once, their enhanced strength making each blow count. Bucky blocked a punch that would have crushed a normal man’s skull, countered with a sweep that took one attacker’s legs out, but the others were on him instantly.
A fist connected with his kidney. Another caught him in the jaw. He tasted blood, spat it onto the concrete.
“Where is she?” he growled, metal arm whirring as he threw one attacker into another. “Where’s Isabelle?”
They didn’t answer, just kept coming. Super soldiers, all of them. He could feel it in the impact of their blows, see it in the unnatural speed of their movements. But they weren’t trained like he was. Didn’t have decades of combat etched into muscle memory.
Bucky drove his knee into one’s solar plexus, used the momentum to flip backward over another, landing in a crouch. His eyes found Karli again—she was watching the fight, her expression calculating.
“Sam,” he panted into the comm, blocking a kick aimed at his head, “I’ve got eyes on Karli, but I’m pinned down. Where the hell are you?”
His breath came in sharp bursts as another Flag Smasher lunged at him. Bucky ducked, the attacker’s fist sailing over his head. He countered with an uppercut that connected with a sickening crunch.
Static crackled in his ear. “Two minutes out!” Sam’s voice sounded strained, distant. “Sharon’s—” The comm cut out for a second. “—east entrance compromised—”
“Shit!” Bucky snarled, throwing his weight into a shoulder charge that sent a Flag Smasher sprawling. His ribs protested, a sharp pain lancing through his side where he’d taken a hit earlier.
Two minutes was too long. Every second that passed was another second Isabelle might be—
He couldn’t finish the thought. Wouldn’t.
A Flag Smasher caught him with a glancing blow to the temple. His vision blurred momentarily, the world tilting on its axis. Bucky staggered back, metal arm whirring as he brought it up to block the follow-up strike.
Something in Bucky snapped. He surged forward with renewed ferocity, metal fist connecting with the Flag Smasher’s jaw hard enough to send them flying backward into a concrete pillar. The impact cracked the column, and dust and debris rained down.
Three more converged on him. Bucky caught the first one’s arm, twisting until he heard a pop, then used their momentum to throw them into the second. The third landed a kick to his kidney that made him see stars.
He dropped to one knee, the wet concrete soaking through his pants. Blood trickled down his temple. His chest heaved with exertion, each breath a knife between his ribs. He was outnumbered, outmaneuvered, and running out of time.
Then, from somewhere above, came a metallic clang that echoed through the cavernous space.
Bucky’s head snapped up just as a figure dropped from the catwalk overhead—a blur of navy blue and silver that slammed into the concrete with a resounding impact. The shield—not Sam’s, but a replica—caught the dim light as it spun through the air, connecting with a Flag Smasher’s chest before ricocheting back to its owner’s hand.
John Walker.
He straightened, eyes wild with intensity behind his mask. Blood spattered the front of his uniform—not his own, Bucky realized with a cold jolt. John’s gaze locked with his for a split second, something feral and unhinged lurking there.
“Barnes,” John acknowledged, voice tight with barely contained rage.
Bucky rose to his feet, wariness crawling up his spine. The last time he’d seen John, the man had been trying to take his head off with that shield. “Walker,” he returned cautiously. “Didn’t expect to see you here.”
John’s mouth twisted into something that wasn’t quite a smile. “Heard the Flag Smashers were making their move. Figured someone ought to do something about it.”
Before Bucky could respond, two more Flag Smashers charged. Without a word, John hurled himself into the fight, shield a blur of motion as he slammed it into one attacker’s face. The sound of bone breaking echoed off the unfinished walls.
Bucky didn’t have time to question Walker’s motives. They fell into an uneasy, unspoken rhythm. John fought with brutal efficiency, each strike carrying more force than necessary. There was something unnerving about it, something that reminded Bucky too much of himself in his darkest days.
Through the chaos of the fight, Bucky caught a glimpse of Karli slipping away, disappearing behind a half-constructed wall. “She’s getting away,” he gritted his teeth, driving his elbow into a Flag Smasher’s solar plexus.
“Go,” John said, surprising him. “I’ve got this.”
Bucky hesitated for a fraction of a second, then nodded. He vaulted over a fallen attacker, sprinting after Karli with single-minded focus. His boots splashed through puddles, each step sending water flying.
“Karli!” he shouted, his voice echoing off concrete and metal.
He rounded a corner, skidding slightly on the wet floor, and froze. Ahead, through a gap in the unfinished walls, he could see Karli standing beside the van. Her hand moved, and something glinted in the dim light—a lighter.
“No—” Bucky started forward, but he was too far away, too slow.
The sound of shattering glass cut through the air as Karli smashed the van’s window. A moment later, flames erupted inside the vehicle, hungrily consuming the upholstery. Screams pierced the air—terrified, desperate sounds that made Bucky’s blood run cold.
“Karli!” he roared, charging forward.
The Flag Smasher leader turned, her face illuminated by the growing inferno. For a split second, their eyes met across the distance—and she smiled, a small, satisfied curve of her lips that made Bucky’s stomach drop.
Then she was gone, melting into the shadows as the van blazed higher, the screams of the trapped council members rising with the flames.
Bucky’s comm crackled to life, Sam’s voice cutting through the chaos. “Bucky, what’s happening? I’m seeing flames—”
“The van!” Bucky shouted, sprinting toward the burning vehicle. “Karli set it on fire with the council inside! I need backup, now!”
The heat hit him like a wall as he approached, sweat instantly beading on his forehead. Through the flames, he could see shadowy figures thrashing inside, pounding against the windows. The sight sent him hurtling back decades—to other fires, other screams. He pushed the memories away with brutal force.
“Hang on!” Bucky shouted, his voice raw as he sprinted the final yards to the van.
A woman’s face appeared at one of the small windows, eyes wide with terror, mouth open in a scream he could barely hear over the fire’s roar. She slammed her palm against the glass, leaving a smeared handprint that seemed to reach for him through the flames.
Bucky lunged forward, metal arm extended. The heat against the vibranium was intense enough that he could feel it through the neural connections—not pain, exactly, but a strange, distorted pressure. He grabbed the handle of the rear doors, yanking hard.
Nothing.
He examined the lock, finding a sleek electronic mechanism glowing red despite the surrounding flames. Some kind of high-tech security system, deliberately installed to prevent exactly what he was trying to do.
Inside, the council members’ faces pressed against the small windows, too narrow for even the smallest of them to squeeze through. Their expressions contorted with panic as smoke filled the interior, the flames climbing higher.
Bucky wrapped his metal fingers around the lock, the heat blistering the skin of his right arm even through his jacket sleeve. The mechanism was reinforced, designed to withstand tampering. He gritted his teeth, plates in his arm recalibrating as he applied more pressure. The lock creaked but held.
“Come on, come on,” he muttered, adjusting his grip. The screams from inside grew weaker, more desperate.
The lock began to give, metal warping under the relentless pressure of vibranium fingers. Sweat poured down Bucky’s face, his lungs burning with each smoke-filled breath. With a final surge of effort, he wrenched sideways, feeling the mechanism tear free in his hand.
The doors swung wide with a blast of superheated air and black smoke. Council members tumbled out onto the wet concrete, coughing violently, some collapsing to their knees. Bucky caught an older woman as she fell forward, her weight barely registering as he lowered her to the ground. Her face was streaked with soot, eyes red-rimmed and watering.
“Thank you,” she gasped, fingers clutching weakly at his sleeve.
Bucky nodded tersely, already turning to help others. A middle-aged man stumbled from the van, dragging another council member whose leg appeared injured. Bucky moved to support them both, guiding them away from the blazing vehicle.
“Get down!” John’s voice cut through the chaos.
Bucky reacted instinctively, pushing the council members behind a concrete pillar as he spun to face the threat. John stood ten feet away, shield raised to deflect a Flag Smasher’s strike aimed directly at Bucky’s exposed back. The attacker’s fist glanced off the shield with a metallic clang that echoed through the loading bay.
John countered immediately, driving the shield’s edge into the attacker’s sternum with enough force to crack ribs. The Flag Smasher crumpled, and John turned to Bucky, blood spattered across his uniform like a grotesque Jackson Pollock.
“You’re welcome,” John said, his voice tight, something unreadable flickering in his eyes.
Before Bucky could respond, a sudden gust of wind whipped through the loading bay, momentarily clearing the smoke. A familiar silhouette dropped from above—red, white, and blue against the darkness of the unfinished ceiling.
Sam.
He landed in a crouch, the new wings folding behind him with mechanical precision, shield gleaming on his arm. For half a second, Bucky just stared, taking in the sight of him in the full Captain America suit—not a copy like John had been, but something new, something that belonged uniquely to Sam.
“About damn time,” Bucky called, a hint of relief breaking through the tension in his voice.
Sam’s eyes swept the scene, taking in the burning van, the rescued hostages, John’s blood-spattered uniform, and Bucky’s soot-streaked face. “Looks like you started the party without me.”
“You know me,” Bucky replied, helping another coughing council member to safety. “Never been good at waiting.”
Sam’s expression shifted, growing serious as he moved closer. “Where’s Isabelle?” The question cut straight to Bucky’s core, the name alone sending a fresh wave of fear through him.
Bucky’s jaw tightened, the momentary relief evaporating. “Haven’t found her yet.” The words tasted like ash in his mouth.
His comm crackled through the screams of the rescued hostages, through the roar of the flames still consuming the van, through the pounding of his own heart against his ribs.
“Found her.” Sharon’s voice, steady and precise, cut through it all. “She’s alive.”
Something electric shot through Bucky’s chest—a jolt that was half relief, half terror. His fingers twitched at his sides, metal plates recalibrating with a soft whir that only he could hear.
“Isabelle?” His voice came out rough, desperate, stripped of everything but raw need. “Is she hurt? Let me talk to her—”
“Barnes, focus,” Sharon cut him off, her tone firm but not unkind. There was something in her voice—a tension, a guardedness—that made the hair on the back of his neck stand up. “She’s in one piece. Extraction first, reunion later.”
The coordinates flashed across his comm display—southeast corner, sublevel three, maintenance access. Bucky didn’t wait for more. He was already moving, boots pounding against wet concrete, each step sending water flying in dark arcs around him. The image of Isabelle—trapped, hurt, afraid—burned in his mind like a brand, hotter and more consuming than any fire.
“Bucky, wait!” Sam called after him, voice echoing off the unfinished walls. “We need a plan—”
But Bucky was already gone, disappearing into the shadows of the construction site. His focus had narrowed to a single point, a single purpose. Find her. Save her. Nothing else mattered.
Blood.
Everywhere.
Splashed across concrete walls. Pooled on the floor. Smeared where bodies had fallen and slid.
Isabelle sat motionless among the carnage, her hands trembling so violently she couldn’t have steadied them if she tried. The copper-penny scent of blood filled her nostrils, coated the back of her throat. Her breath came in shallow, painful gasps that didn’t deliver enough oxygen. Her vision blurred, then sharpened, then blurred again.
Footsteps echoed through the tunnel, but Isabelle didn’t look up. If it was another Flag Smasher coming to finish what his friends had started, so be it.
The footsteps grew closer. Deliberate. Cautious.
A part of her registered the tactical approach. Not Bucky’s heavy tread. Not Sam’s confident stride. Not the erratic pattern of someone injured or panicking.
Professional. Controlled. Dangerous.
The footsteps stopped at the edge of the carnage. Isabelle felt eyes on her, assessing.
“Isabelle?” Sharon Carter’s voice cut through the haze. Steady. Unshaken.
Isabelle forced herself to look up.
Sharon stood framed in the corridor entrance, a gun held low but ready at her side. Her blonde hair was pulled back, her expression carefully neutral as she surveyed the scene. Only the slightest tightening around her eyes betrayed any reaction to the bloodbath.
“Are you hurt?” Sharon asked, her gaze methodically sweeping the room, checking corners, exits, threats.
Isabelle tried to form words, but her throat constricted, producing only a raw, broken sound like splintering wood. She swallowed against the metallic taste coating her mouth and tried again.
Sharon stepped further into the carnage, navigating between bodies with practiced efficiency. Her boots made soft squelching sounds in the pooled blood—a wet, sticky rhythm that turned Isabelle’s stomach. Sharon crouched beside her, positioning herself at the perfect distance. Close enough to assist, far enough to react if necessary.
“What happened here?” Sharon’s voice remained level, but her eyes narrowed slightly as they took in the scale of whatever had gone down.
Isabelle’s hands wouldn’t stop trembling. Blood had dried in the creases of her knuckles, under her fingernails, spattered across her forearms like macabre freckles. She stared at them—her hands, these weapons—as though they belonged to someone else.
“It wasn’t me,” she whispered, then immediately shook her head at the lie. Her throat constricted around the words. “No, I mean—I didn’t want—” Another false start. Her chest tightened, each breath more shallow than the last. “I lost control—” The truth finally broke through, cracking her voice into jagged pieces. “I didn’t want this. I never wanted to be this.”
The tears came then, hot and relentless, carving clean tracks through the blood spatter on her face. Her shoulders shook with the force of each ragged breath. All around her, the bodies of the Flag Smashers lay twisted in unnatural positions, their faces frozen in expressions of agony and terror. She could still feel the echo of their pain in her chest—the way their organs had shut down one by one, the way their blood vessels had burst beneath their skin.
Sharon moved with sudden, precise violence. Her gloved hand shot out, gripping Isabelle’s jaw with bruising force, yanking her face upward.
“Pull yourself together,” Sharon hissed, her eyes cold and assessing. “Right. Now.” Her fingers dug deeper, forcing Isabelle to meet her gaze. “You did what you had to do to survive. Now shut it down.”
The harshness cut through Isabelle’s spiral like a blade. Sharon wasn’t offering comfort—she was issuing a command. Her face remained impassive, professional, but something flickered behind her eyes—not sympathy exactly, but recognition. The look of someone who understood what it meant to cross lines.
“We don’t have time for this,” Sharon continued, her voice dropping lower. “You’re not the only one in danger. Sam and Bucky are out there right now, walking into a trap for you. So breathe. Focus. You’re alive, and we’re not done yet.”
The command in Sharon’s voice triggered something in Isabelle—an instinctive response to authority that years of SHIELD training had instilled. She straightened her spine, dragged in a shuddering breath through her nose. The crying didn’t stop, but something in her posture shifted, hardened. The daughter of Tony Stark didn’t fall apart in a crisis. The weapon made in Project Belladonna didn’t have the luxury of a breakdown.
Sharon released her grip, satisfaction flashing briefly across her face as she rose to her feet in one fluid motion. She extended a hand. “Can you stand? We need to move. Now.”
Isabelle stared at the offered hand, then at the bodies surrounding her. Flag Smashers. People with ideals, twisted as they were. People who had families, friends, lives beyond their cause. People she’d killed not with precision or purpose, but with raw, unleashed power that had poured out of her like a ruptured dam.
She took Sharon’s hand, her fingers trembling so badly she nearly missed. The agent’s grip was firm, steady—the opposite of everything Isabelle felt. As Sharon pulled her to her feet, Isabelle’s knees buckled, muscles weak from the strain of what she’d done. The room tilted sickeningly, copper-scented air thick in her lungs.
“Easy,” Sharon murmured, her voice clinical rather than comforting as she steadied Isabelle with a hand on her elbow. “Deep breaths.”
Isabelle nodded mechanically.
Sharon gave her a look—calculating, measuring—before her voice softened marginally. Just enough to seem genuine. A tactical move, Isabelle recognized. Creating false intimacy, a sense of equality. “It’s going to be okay.”
The words were so absurd, so patently false in the midst of this slaughterhouse, that a harsh laugh tore from Isabelle’s throat.
“No, it’s not.” She shook her head violently, sending droplets of half-dried blood spattering from her hair. “I’m a monster. This proves it.” Her voice cracked, raw emotion bleeding through. “Everything they’ve said about me... It’s true. I ruined everything.” Her eyes darted around the room, panic rising like a tide. “I can’t let anyone see this. Not Sam, not—” Her breath hitched. “Not Bucky.”
The thought of Bucky seeing her like this—seeing what she’d done—sent a wave of nausea through her so strong she nearly doubled over. He’d looked at her that morning before she left for the cabin, his face soft with sleep and something dangerously close to hope. The memory of his metal fingers tracing patterns on her bare shoulder, his voice low and warm against her ear, felt like it belonged to someone else now. Someone better.
Sharon didn’t flinch at the desperation in her voice. Didn’t offer platitudes or judgment. Instead, she remained perfectly still, her expression carefully neutral as she surveyed the carnage surrounding them.
“Then they won’t,” she said finally, the words crisp and decisive. “This?” She gestured to the blood-soaked concrete, the broken bodies. “This stays between us. No one else ever sees this room.”
The offer hung in the air between them, tempting and terrible. Isabelle’s chest tightened.
“I can’t lie,” she whispered, though the protest sounded hollow even to her own ears. “Not to Bucky. Or Sam.” She swallowed hard. “Or to Rhodey. Or Pepper.”
Sharon’s expression hardened, just a fraction. “You can.” The words weren’t cruel, just matter-of-fact. “If you want to protect them. If you want to protect yourself.” She glanced pointedly at the bodies. “This isn’t a good look, Iz.”
The nickname—Iz—landed like a punch. So casual, so normal, in the midst of this nightmare. Isabelle felt her resolve wavering. “They’d understand,” she said, but the words sounded desperate even to her own ears. “Bucky would—”
“Would what?” Sharon cut in, her voice sharpening. “Understand that you lost control and slaughtered a these people? That you’re exactly what everyone’s afraid you are?” She stepped closer, her eyes intent. “Bucky is trying to prove he’s not the Winter Soldier anymore. Sam’s just put on the shield for the first time. And you want to drop this in their laps?”
Each word struck with surgical precision. Isabelle flinched, her gaze dropping to the floor where blood had pooled in the uneven concrete.
“I can’t keep lying,” she whispered. “I’ve been lying my whole life.”
“And it’s kept you alive.” Sharon’s voice softened just enough to sound like concern rather than manipulation. “Look, I get it. You want to be honest. You want to be better. But sometimes protecting people means they don’t get to know everything.”
Isabelle thought of her father, who’d died believing she could be better than her worst instincts. Thought of Bucky, who’d seen her darkness and stayed anyway. Thought of Sam, stepping into a legacy he’d never asked for, carrying a weight that would only grow heavier if he knew what she’d done.
Silence stretched between them. Isabelle’s mind raced, calculating consequences, weighing options. The tactical part of her brain—the part SHIELD and her father had honed—kicked in, overriding the panic.
“What’s the alternative?” she asked finally, her voice steadier than before. “What’s your plan?”
Sharon’s eyes gleamed with something like approval. “We get you out of here. Tell them you were held hostage, that you fought like hell, and you escaped. The Flag Smashers killed each other fighting over what to do with you.”
“That’s—” Isabelle started.
“Plausible,” Sharon finished for her. “They’re desperate. Divided. It fits.”
Isabelle wiped her face with the back of her hand, smearing blood across her cheek instead of cleaning it. Her throat burned as she swallowed down her guilt. “And if they ask what happened to me? If they want details?”
“You were drugged. Everything’s fuzzy.” Sharon shrugged, the gesture almost casual. “Trauma does that to memory. They’ll fill in the blanks themselves.”
The plan was clean. Elegant, even. It would protect everyone—Sam from having to question her, Bucky from having to reconcile his feelings for her with what she’d done, Pepper and Morgan from the fallout when the truth inevitably leaked.
Everyone except her. Because she would know, she would remember every scream, every death rattle, every moment her power had surged through her veins like electricity, terrible and exhilarating all at once.
“Okay,” she said finally, the word like ash in her mouth.
Sharon nodded once, clean and cold. No satisfaction, no judgment. Just acceptance of a necessary decision. “Then let’s go.”
Sharon turned, starting toward the tunnel, boots squelching through the blood. Isabelle hesitated only a second before following, each step pulling her further from the carnage and deeper into the lie.
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The tunnels close in—damp, dark, heavy with blood she can’t wash from her hands.
Her heartbeat falters when his voice cuts through the static, raw with desperation.And when Bucky finally finds her, relief collides with horror—
because she’s alive, yes, but covered in the kind of truth that can’t stay buried forever.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 88: Monsters in the Dark
Chapter 88: Monsters in the Dark
Summary:
She’s a shadow staggering through the dark, blood in her mouth, ghosts at her heels.
The Flag Smashers wanted to make a statement—
instead, they left her broken, trembling, whispering only one thing:I just want to go home.
And when Bucky answers—steady, certain, unshakable—
I got you. We’re going home.
it’s the only light left in the dark.
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Chapter Text
The tunnels stretched ahead. Isabelle’s fingers traced the damp wall to steady herself, the cold seeping through her skin like a reminder that she was still alive.
Sharon activated her comm, her voice shifting into that clipped, professional tone of an agent reporting in. “Found her. She’s alive.”
A crackle of static, then a voice burst through so loud Isabelle could hear it clearly, “Isabelle? Is she hurt? Let me talk to her—” Bucky’s voice, raw with desperation and relief.
“Barnes, focus,” Sharon cut him off, her tone firm but not unkind. “She’s in one piece. Extraction first, reunion later.” She met Isabelle’s eyes briefly, a silent message passing between them. The cover story. The secret. The blood.
“Where are you?” Bucky’s voice came again, rough and breathless like he was running. Isabelle could almost picture him—jaw tight, eyes wild.
“East side, lower level,” Sharon replied, her free hand reaching back to steady Isabelle as they navigated around a fallen pipe. “Coming up through the maintenance tunnels. Should hit the exit in five.”
“On my way,” Bucky responded immediately. Something crashed in the background of his transmission. “Sam’s got the hostages. He’s with Walker.”
Isabelle’s stomach twisted at the mention of John Walker. Her fingers curled instinctively into fists, nails digging half-moons into her palms. The memory of him in the plaza flashed vivid and sickening—the shield coming down, again and again, blood spattering across the white star. The way his eyes had looked. Empty. Hungry.
Isabelle swallowed the bitter taste in her mouth.
They pushed forward, Sharon leading with her weapon drawn. Water pipes groaned overhead, the infrastructure around them shifting and settling. The tunnel narrowed, forcing them to duck beneath a tangle of exposed wiring and rusted pipes. Water dripped steadily onto Isabelle’s neck, cold fingers trailing down her spine, seeping through the torn fabric of her suit.
“So,” Sharon said quietly as they navigated around a fallen support beam, her voice deliberately casual. “You and Bucky.”
It wasn’t a question, but Isabelle answered anyway. “Yeah.” The single syllable felt inadequate for what had grown between them—the quiet mornings, the nightmares they both understood without explanation, the way his hand found hers in the dark.
Sharon’s laugh was soft and knowing. “I was right. About you two being a thing. Back at my place.”
Isabelle studied the back of Sharon’s head, the efficient way she moved through the darkness. “Yeah... well... not at the time...” She hesitated, remembering the tension, the unspoken pull between them even then. “But... yeah.”
Sharon paused at a junction, checking both directions before gesturing left. “He’s been half out of his mind since you disappeared.” There was something almost fond in her voice. “Nearly took a Flag Smasher’s head off trying to get information.”
Isabelle’s heart twisted. She could picture it too clearly—Bucky’s eyes going cold and flat, the Winter Soldier bleeding through the cracks in his control.
“He’s...” Sharon paused, choosing her words carefully. “Loyal. To a fault.” She glanced back, her expression shadowed in the dim light.
The warning was subtle but clear. Isabelle’s throat tightened. “I’m not planning to test that.”
Sharon glanced back, her expression unreadable in the dim light. “Good.”
Before Isabelle could answer, a crash echoed from somewhere ahead—metal against concrete, sharp and sudden in the confined space. Sharon tensed instantly, raising her gun, her body shifting into a defensive stance that blocked Isabelle partially from view.
Isabelle’s powers stirred beneath her skin like something alive, a familiar pressure building behind her eyes. The sensation crawled through her veins—hot and cold at once, ready to lash out. Ready to protect. Ready to hurt. Her awareness stretched outward, searching for heartbeats, for the flutter of life she could manipulate if needed.
“Isabelle?” Bucky’s voice, closer now, echoing off the walls. Raw and desperate, stripped of his usual careful control.
Relief flooded through her so intensely that it nearly buckled her knees. “Here!” she called back, her voice bouncing through the darkness, cracking on the single syllable.
A moment of silence, then the sound of heavy, rapid footsteps. A beam of light swept across the tunnel, catching dust particles in its path before landing on them. And then he was there.
He stood frozen at the tunnel’s entrance, chest heaving, hair wild around his face like he’d been running his hands through it repeatedly. A streak of someone else’s blood marked his jawline. But it was his eyes that caught her—wide with horror as they took in her blood-soaked form, the blue-gray darkening as pupils dilated with fear.
Isabelle felt his heart stop. Actually felt it—a sudden absence in her awareness where his steady pulse should be—before it kicked back into a frantic rhythm that she could almost hear. The connection between them, that inexplicable bond that had been building for weeks, stretched taut with his fear, vibrating like a plucked string.
She flinched, overwhelmed by the intensity of his emotion crashing into her already battered senses.
Then he was moving, crossing the distance between them in three long strides. His metal arm gleamed dully in the low light as he reached for her, pulling her against his chest with a gentleness that belied his urgency. The sudden contact startled her, the warmth of his body a shock against her chilled skin.
“James,” she stammered, the name she only used when they were alone slipping out unbidden. Her voice sounded alien to her own ears—small and broken, nothing like the sharpness she usually wielded. She should push away, should spare his clothes from the filth covering her, but she had no strength left. No will to resist the solid warmth of him, the steady thrum of his heartbeat under her cheek.
A sob tore from her throat as she collapsed against him, fingers clutching desperately at the straps of his jacket. Her body shook with the force of her relief, her guilt, her fear—emotions she’d been holding at bay for hours finally breaking through the dam.
“I know,” he murmured, one hand cradling the back of her head, heedless of the blood matting her hair.
His metal fingers splayed protectively across her back, the vibranium cool even through the torn fabric of her suit. She could feel each plate shifting minutely as he adjusted his grip, holding her like she might dissolve if he didn’t anchor her firmly enough. His heartbeat thundered against her cheek, too fast, too hard—the rhythm of fear slowly giving way to relief.
“I know. I got you now, sweetheart.”
The endearment broke something loose inside her. A dam crumbling, walls collapsing. Her knees nearly buckled as the adrenaline that had kept her upright for hours began to ebb, leaving behind bone-deep exhaustion and the first tendrils of pain creeping through her battered body.
She pressed her face deeper into his shoulder, inhaling the familiar scent of leather and metal and him. His arms tightened around her, metal and flesh forming an impenetrable barrier between her and the world. She could feel the slight tremor running through him, the barely contained fury and fear he was trying to master.
“I thought—” His voice caught, the words strangling in his throat. He pulled back just enough to scan her face, his eyes moving frantically over every inch of her. The blue-gray of his irises had darkened to storm clouds, pupils dilated with a cocktail of emotions she could almost taste in the air between them.
His flesh hand came up to cradle her cheek, calloused thumb gently wiping at a streak of blood. The tenderness of the gesture made her throat tighten painfully. “Are you hurt?”
The question sent ice through her veins. She forced herself to meet his gaze, to keep her expression from betraying the truth of what had happened in that room. The things she’d done. The lines she’d crossed. The way her powers had surged through her like a living thing, hungry and vicious.
“No,” she managed, the word sticking in her throat like ground glass. “Not all of it’s mine.”
Relief flooded his features, softening the hard lines of worry. His eyes closed briefly, a shuddering breath escaping him. When he looked at her again, there was something raw and unguarded in his expression that made her chest ache.
“I tore this place apart looking for you,” he said, voice low and rough, meant only for her ears despite Sharon’s presence a few feet away. His metal hand moved to her waist, anchoring her to him as if afraid she might disappear again. The plates whirred softly as they recalibrated, adjusting to her body with familiar precision. “When I realized they’d taken you—”
She felt the rest of the sentence vibrate through him—the violence he couldn’t voice, the Winter Soldier that had emerged when he’d discovered she was gone. She saw it in the blood spattered across his tactical gear, in the bruises forming on his flesh knuckles, in the dangerous stillness that hadn’t quite left his eyes.
“I’m okay,” she whispered, reaching up to touch his face, her fingers tracing the sharp line of his jaw where tension still coiled. She needed him to believe it, even if she wasn’t sure she believed it herself. “I’m here. I’m okay.”
Something shifted in his expression—a flicker of doubt, of suspicion. He knew her too well already, could read the lies in her eyes even when no one else could. His gaze dropped to her blood-soaked clothes, lingering on the tears in the fabric, the bruises forming on her exposed skin.
“Isabelle—” he started, his voice dropping lower, a question forming that she couldn’t answer. Not here. Not now.
“Bucky.” Sharon’s voice cut through the moment, professional but not unkind. She stood a few feet away, weapon still drawn, eyes constantly scanning the tunnels around them. “We need to move. The building’s not secure yet.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened, a muscle jumping beneath the skin, but he nodded, soldier’s instincts overriding emotion. He didn’t release Isabelle, though, keeping one arm firmly around her shoulders as he turned to face Sharon. His body shifted subtly, angling to keep himself between Isabelle and any potential threat.
“Sam’s topside,” he reported, voice shifting into mission mode even as his grip on Isabelle remained gentle. “Walker’s with him. They’ve got most of the hostages out, but Karli’s still in the wind.” His eyes flickered to Isabelle, then back to Sharon, something sharp and assessing in his gaze. “What happened? How did you find her?”
The question hung in the air, dangerous and loaded. Isabelle felt her pulse quicken, panic rising in her throat. This was it—the moment their story would either hold or crumble. She could feel Bucky’s attention on her, the way his body had tensed infinitesimally at the question, instincts honed by decades of lie detecting something off in the situation.
Sharon met her gaze for a split second, a silent message passing between them. Then she turned to Bucky, her expression carefully neutral, the practised agent.
“I was tracking movement in the lower tunnels when I picked up signs of a struggle,” she said, the lie flowing smoothly from her lips. “Found Isabelle fighting off the last of the Flag Smashers. They scattered when I showed up—probably regrouping with Karli.” She holstered her weapon, the click of metal against leather punctuating her words. “Isabelle held her own. They underestimated her.”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed slightly, assessing the scene, the blood soaking Isabelle’s clothes, the tremor in her hands, the way she leaned into him as if her legs might give out. His arm tightened fractionally around her shoulders, supporting weight without applying pressure to potential injuries.
“That true?” he asked, voice pitched low. The words carried no accusation, just a quiet intensity that made her chest tighten.
The question hung between them, loaded with more than simple verification. It carried the weight of their still-new intimacy, of whispered confessions in the dark and promises neither had dared voice aloud. Isabelle forced herself to meet his gaze, to hold it steady despite the lie burning in her throat like acid. His eyes searched hers, concern etched in the fine lines around them, in the tight set of his jaw.
“Yeah,” she managed, the word scraping past her lips. Her mouth felt bone-dry, tongue sticking to the roof as she forced herself to continue. “They—they took me to get to you and Sam. Thought I’d be easy leverage.”
Something flickered across Bucky’s face—a shadow of doubt, there and gone so quickly she might have imagined it. But she knew him, knew the minute shifts of his expression that betrayed his thoughts.
His flesh hand came up to brush a matted strand of hair from her face, careful to avoid the blood crusting along her hairline. The gentleness of the gesture made her throat constrict painfully.
“You’re shaking,” he murmured, his thumb tracing the edge of her jaw with impossible tenderness. His eyes never left hers, searching for truth, for pain, for anything she might be hiding. The Winter Soldier’s vigilance wrapped in Bucky Barnes’ concern.
“Adrenaline crash,” Sharon supplied before Isabelle could respond. Her tone was professional but not unkind as she checked her weapon, eyes constantly scanning the tunnels around them. “She needs medical attention and a hot shower, not an interrogation in a sewer.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened at Sharon’s response. He shot her a sharp look, the muscle in his cheek jumping as he clenched his teeth. He didn’t need Sharon answering for Isabelle—didn’t need her stepping between them when he was trying to figure out what the hell had happened.
Before Bucky could press further, both his and Sharon’s comms crackled to life, the static cutting through the damp tunnel air.
“Buck, you copy? Did you find her?” Sam’s voice came through, tense and breathless.
Bucky’s hand moved instinctively to Isabelle’s waist, steadying her as he responded. “Yeah, I got her.” His eyes never left her face, scanning the dried blood at her temple, the hollow look in her eyes that didn’t match the story Sharon had given him. Something wasn’t right, but now wasn’t the time.
“Thank God,” Sam’s relief poured through the static, genuine and palpable. “Walker and I have the hostages secured, but Karli’s fled down to the tunnels.” His voice dropped, urgent and focused—the voice of a man growing into the mantle he’d finally accepted. “We need to—” A thunderous crash echoed through the comm, followed by panicked shouting and what sounded like concrete breaking. “Shit. Gotta go. Get Isabelle out of here, man. I’ll handle this.”
Bucky straightened, conflict flashing across his features. The soldier in him—the part that had followed Steve Rogers into a hundred fights—tensed, ready to move toward the danger. “Sam—”
“Go,” Sam cut him off, authority ringing clear in his voice. Not Sam Wilson asking a favor, but Captain America giving an order. “That’s an order. Get her somewhere safe.”
The comm went silent. Bucky stared at the floor for a moment, jaw working as he processed the command. His flesh hand flexed at his side, a habit from decades of military training, fighting against the overwhelming need to keep Isabelle protected.
He glanced down at her—at the blood matting her hair, the way she leaned against him like standing took everything she had.
“I’ll go help Sam,” Sharon said, deciding for him. “You get her out through the east exit. Medics and NYPD should be set up two blocks over.”
Bucky nodded once, sharp and decisive. “Watch your six. Karli’s desperate.”
“Always do.” Sharon’s eyes flickered to Isabelle, something passing between them that Bucky couldn’t read. “Take care of her.”
Before either could respond, Sharon was moving, disappearing down the tunnel with quick, efficient strides. The echo of her footsteps faded, leaving Bucky and Isabelle alone in the dim corridor.
For a moment, neither of them spoke. The tunnel’s silence wrapped around them, broken only by the distant drip of water and the soft mechanical whir of Bucky’s arm as he held her. Isabelle focused on the steady rhythm of his heartbeat against her cheek—too fast, still pumping with adrenaline and fear, but constant. Real.
“Can you walk?” he asked finally, his voice pitched low and gentle.
Isabelle nodded against his chest, not trusting herself to speak. Her legs felt like water beneath her, muscles trembling with exhaustion, but the alternative—being carried through the tunnels like a child—felt worse than the pain shooting through her limbs. She needed to hold herself together, at least until they were somewhere private. Somewhere, she could break down without witnesses. Somewhere, she could wash the blood from her hands.
“Yeah,” she managed, forcing herself to straighten. “I’m good.”
Bucky’s eyes narrowed slightly, catching the lie, but he didn’t call her on it. Instead, he shifted his position, keeping his metal arm firmly around her shoulders while his flesh hand came to rest at her waist, supporting her weight without making it obvious. The quiet consideration in the gesture nearly undid her.
They started moving, Bucky matching his pace to hers, slowing when she faltered over debris in their path. The dim lights cast long shadows across his face, highlighting the sharp angles of his jaw, the tension still evident in every line of his body. He was scanning constantly—soldier’s instincts never truly dormant—checking corners, listening for threats, plotting their escape route even as he kept her steady.
“East exit’s this way,” he murmured after they’d navigated a particularly narrow section of tunnel. His thumb brushed absently against her side where it rested, a small gesture of reassurance.
They turned a corner, the tunnel widening slightly. Weak moonlight filtered through a grate overhead. Bucky guided her carefully around a fallen pipe, his grip tightening fractionally when her foot slipped on something wet.
“You don’t have to tell me what happened,” he said after they’d walked in silence for several minutes. His voice was carefully neutral, but there was an undercurrent of something raw beneath the words. “Not now. Not until you’re ready.”
Isabelle’s step faltered. She looked up at him, searching his face. His expression was guarded, jaw tight with unspoken concern, but his eyes held something she recognized. Understanding. The knowledge of what it meant to do terrible things and have to live with them afterward.
“But if you want to talk about it,” he continued, his voice dropping lower, rougher around the edges, “I’m here. And I—” He paused, swallowing visibly, Adam’s apple bobbing in his throat. His flesh hand flexed at her waist, a nervous gesture she’d come to recognize. “I know about doing things you can’t take back.”
Her throat tightened, eyes burning with tears she refused to shed. Not here. Not in this tunnel where the walls seemed to press closer with each breath, where the drip of water echoed like a metronome counting down to something she couldn’t face.
Of course, he would understand. Of course, he would see through the flimsy story Sharon had crafted. The Winter Soldier had spent decades reading people, finding weaknesses, sensing lies. And James Barnes had spent years afterward learning to live with what those hands had done.
He knew. He knew what it meant to have blood on your hands that wouldn’t wash away.
“James,” she whispered, his name catching in her throat like a shard of glass. Her fingers trembled as she reached up, brushing against the stubble along his jaw, feeling the tension there. The warmth of his skin grounded her, a tether to reality when everything else felt like it was slipping away. “I—”
The words died on her lips. What could she possibly say? That she’d lost control? That when they’d pushed her far enough, something inside her had snapped like a dam breaking? That she could still feel their heartbeats stuttering to a stop beneath her fingertips?
Isabelle felt tears burning behind her eyes, hot and sudden. Her chest constricted, lungs struggling against the pressure building there. The truth clawed at her throat, desperate to escape. To confess. To be absolved.
But she couldn’t. Not now. Maybe not ever.
His left hand remained steady at her waist, but his flesh hand came up to cradle her face, thumb brushing across her cheekbone with a tenderness that made her want to weep.
“Whatever happened down here,” he said, his voice rough with emotion, blue eyes never leaving hers, “whatever you had to do—it doesn’t change how I see you. You understand? Nothing could.”
The lie between them yawned like an abyss. If he knew what she’d done—the carnage she’d left behind—would he still look at her that way? With that soft wonder in his eyes, like she was something precious? Would he still hold her with such care, or would he recoil from the monster she was becoming?
Isabelle’s gaze dropped to her hands—hands that still trembled, still bore the evidence of what she’d done beneath dried flakes of blood in the creases of her knuckles and under her fingernails. She curled her fingers into fists, hiding the evidence.
“I want to go home,” she whispered, her voice catching on the last word. Her bottom lip trembled as she fought to maintain control. The tunnels suddenly felt too close, the air too thick with the metallic scent of blood and damp concrete. Each breath scraped against her raw throat. “Please, Buck. I just—I need to get out of here.”
Something broke in Bucky’s expression—a softening around his eyes that made her chest ache. His gaze tracked the movement of her hands, lingering on her whitened knuckles, the way her nails dug into her palms. He understood hiding evidence. He understood blood that wouldn’t wash away.
“Of course,” he murmured. His right hand came up, tucking hair behind her ear with impossible gentleness. His fingertips grazed her temple, careful to avoid the dried blood crusting there. “I’m getting you out of here.”
A tear slipped down her cheek, cutting a clean path through the grime and blood. Then another. And another. She didn’t have the strength to stop them anymore. They fell silently, her body too exhausted for proper sobbing, just a quiet release of pressure that had built behind her ribs.
Bucky’s thumb brushed across her cheekbone, catching a tear before it could fall. The simple gesture—so careful, so tender—undid something in her. A small, broken sound escaped her throat.
“Hey,” he whispered, ducking his head slightly to meet her eyes. The blue-gray of his irises was dark with concern, with a protectiveness that should have frightened her but instead made her feel anchored. “I’ve got you. You hear me? I’ve got you now.”
She nodded, unable to form words past the tightness in her throat. His metal arm remained steady around her waist, supporting her without making her feel weak. The vibranium was cool against her side, a counterpoint to the feverish heat of her skin.
Bucky’s gaze swept over her face one more time, assessing, memorizing. Then he leaned forward, pressing his lips to her forehead in a kiss. His stubble scratched lightly against her skin, a familiar sensation that grounded her in the present moment. She closed her eyes, letting herself lean into him, into the solid warmth of his chest, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat.
“Let’s go home,” he murmured against her skin, his breath warm against her temple.
When he pulled back, his expression had shifted—determination replacing the raw fear she’d seen earlier. His jaw was set, eyes clear and focused.
He tugged her gently toward the exit, his grip on her waist firm but careful. Each step sent pain shooting through her battered body, but she forced herself to keep moving. The promise of escape, of clean air and open sky, pulled her forward.
Isabelle followed, stepping out of the darkness and into the fading evening light. The cool air hit her face, carrying the scent of rain and city and life, washing away the copper tang of death that had filled her lungs for what felt like hours.
For a moment—just one breath—she let herself believe Sharon’s promise: No one would ever know what happened in that room. The lie could stay buried in those tunnels, and she could keep this, Bucky’s steady presence beside her, the way he looked at her like she was something precious rather than something to be feared.
But as they moved toward the flashing lights of emergency vehicles in the distance, Isabelle felt the weight of the truth settling into her bones like lead. Some secrets couldn’t stay buried forever. Some monsters couldn’t be locked away.
And sooner or later, Bucky Barnes—the man who knew more about monsters than anyone—would see the one hiding behind her eyes.
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The city’s still burning.
Sam’s voice carries through the chaos, words heavy with hope, with promise.
But Bucky only hears her—
Isabelle, bloodied and swaying, whispering that she just wants to go home.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 89: Our Wounds, His Words
Chapter 89: Our Wounds, His Words
Summary:
Blood clings to her lashes. Smoke stings her lungs.
Bucky tilts her chin, voice raw: “You scared the hell out of me.”They steal a breath, a promise, a kiss in the wreckage.
But the world doesn’t stop for love.Sam rises in the firelight—shield heavy, truth heavier still.
And for the first time, Isabelle dares to believe:
hope can survive the ruins.
Notes:
Okay, wow guys… only three chapters left. 😱 and I may or may not have written a little surprise for you at the very end (end-credit scene vibes, perhaps?? 👀).
I’ll be doing another double post today, and then the final chapter drops tomorrow!!! Thank you all SO much for sticking with me on this wild ride. Seriously, you’ve made this fic such a joy to share. 💚
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Bitter Sweet Symphony" by The Verve
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Chapter Text
Blood trickled warm and sticky down Isabelle’s temple, catching in her eyelashes when she blinked. The world tilted at odd angles as the medic’s face swam in and out of focus before her. The makeshift triage area hummed with activity—police barking orders, radios crackling with updates, the distant wail of sirens as New York tried to make sense of what had just happened at the GRC meeting.
“I’m fine,” Isabelle muttered through clenched teeth, flinching as the medic prodded gently at her temple. The adrenaline was wearing off, leaving behind a symphony of aches that her healing factor hadn’t yet silenced. “I’ve had worse paper cuts.”
She could feel her body already working, cells knitting together beneath her skin. Still, the fight had been brutal, desperate—exactly the kind that left invisible scars long after the visible ones faded.
The man—a young medic, flustered, and clearly in over his head—offered her an apologetic smile. “You’re actively bleeding from your hairline.”
“It’s already stopping,” she snapped, swiping irritably at the crimson streak with the back of her hand. “I heal fast. Like... freakishly fast. I’ll be good as new in ten minutes. This is a waste of everyone’s time.”
She tried to stand from where she sat on the back of the ambulance, but her legs betrayed her, muscles trembling with the aftershocks of combat and captivity. Everything swayed, pavement seeming to ripple beneath her boots.
“She says while swaying like she’s about to pass out,” Bucky muttered just behind her, arms crossed tightly over his chest, metal fingers tapping a restless rhythm against his bicep. He looked like a storm barely contained—grime streaked across his jaw, a rip down one sleeve, his eyes locked on her like he was still making sure she was real, still breathing.
The intensity of his gaze sent a different kind of shiver through her. Just hours ago, she’d been in the Flag Smashers’ custody, a bargaining chip in their desperate final play. The memory of Bucky’s face when he found her with Sharon, that raw, unguarded relief cracking through his usually stoic expression, still lingered in her mind.
Isabelle rolled her eyes, ignoring the way it made her head throb. “I’m not swaying. I’m... sitting. Aggressively.”
The medic tried not to laugh, failed miserably, and ducked his head to hide the smile cracking across his face. “I’ll, uh—” he cleared his throat, gathering what remained of his professional composure, “—grab some gauze and antiseptic. Don’t go anywhere, please.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it,” Isabelle muttered, watching him retreat through the maze of emergency vehicles.
As soon as they were alone, Bucky moved in front of her, his right hand hovering near, but not touching, her temple. “Iz,” he started, voice dropping to that particular register she’d come to recognize—the one that meant he was keeping something barely contained beneath the surface.
She fixed her gaze on a point just past his shoulder, at the flashing lights of an ambulance. “I said I’m fine.”
“I know,” he said, the gentleness in his tone unexpected enough to make her chest tighten. “But I’m not.”
That stopped her. The simple honesty of it, stripped of pretense, cut through her defenses like they were tissue paper. Isabelle finally met his eyes, finding raw fear there that hadn’t fully receded.
“Please,” Bucky tilted his head slightly as he spoke again, his voice rougher. “Just let them look you over. For my peace of mind.”
The words shouldn’t have hit as hard as they did—shouldn’t have burrowed under her skin and nestled there, warm and terrifying. Isabelle closed her eyes for a second, exhaling through her nose. The adrenaline crash was still coming in waves.
“God, you’re insufferable when you’re sweet,” she muttered, finally meeting his gaze again, allowing herself a small, pained smile.
Instead of responding with his usual dry comeback, Bucky shifted closer, the warmth of him cutting through the night chill. He gently tilted her chin up with his right hand, his eyes scanning her face methodically, cataloging every bruise, every cut, every shadow that hadn’t been there the last time he saw her.
Something vulnerable flickered across his features—a flash of the man beneath the soldier, beneath the assassin, beneath all the careful walls they both maintained. “You scared the hell out of me,” he said.
Isabelle felt something catch in her chest—something that had nothing to do with her cracked ribs and everything to do with the way he was looking at her. Like she was something precious. Something he couldn’t afford to lose.
“Hey,” she said softly, reaching up to touch his face, her fingers tracing along his jaw. “I’m okay. We’re okay.” His skin was warm under her touch, solid and real. She could feel the slight tremor in his jaw, the tension he was still carrying.
“I know,” Bucky said finally, leaning almost imperceptibly into her palm. “But I—” He paused, searching for words, his gaze dropping briefly before returning to hers with renewed intensity. “I’ve lost enough people.”
“Well,” Isabelle said, her voice steadier than she felt, “you’re not losing me. I’m too stubborn to die.”
“That’s what worries me,” he replied, but there was a ghost of a smile on his lips now, the tension in his shoulders easing slightly. He helped her to her feet, his hands lingering at her waist to steady her when she swayed. “You’re reckless.”
“Says the hundred-year-old man who jumps out of planes without parachutes,” she countered, leaning into him more than she wanted to admit she needed to.
“That was one time,” he muttered, the corner of his mouth twitching upward.
Isabelle laughed, then immediately regretted it as pain lanced through her ribs. “Shit,” she hissed, pressing a hand to her side.
“Easy,” Bucky murmured. His eyes darkened with concern as he shifted to take more of her weight, his body angling protectively between her and the triage area.
She leaned into him, allowing herself this moment of vulnerability. The night air was cool against her skin, carrying the scent of smoke and sea salt. In the distance, emergency vehicles still flashed their lights, painting the world in strobes of red and blue.
“Thank you,” she said quietly, the words feeling inadequate for everything that hung between them.
“For what?” His eyes searched hers, storm-blue and intent.
“For caring enough to make me get checked out.” She glanced up at him, allowing herself to be honest in a way that still felt new and terrifying. “Even if it was unnecessary.”
His eyes softened, the hard lines of his face gentling in a way she’d seen directed at her more and more lately. “Always,” he said, the single word carrying the weight of a promise.
That single word held weight, promise. Isabelle felt something unfurl in her chest—something that felt dangerously like hope. After everything—the Flag Smashers, Walker, Karli, the serum, her past clawing its way back—maybe they could have this. Maybe they deserved it.
When the medic returned, clutching gauze and antiseptic with renewed determination, Isabelle didn’t argue. Not this time. She sat still, wincing only slightly as the cool antiseptic stung against the gash at her temple.
“Almost done,” the medic promised, his hands steadier now as he applied a butterfly bandage. “The bleeding’s stopped, but you’ll want to keep this clean.”
Isabelle nodded, watching Bucky from the corner of her eye. He hadn’t moved, standing beside her, his gaze sweeping periodically across the chaos of the plaza before returning to her. Always returning to her.
“All set,” the medic said finally, handing her a packet of wet wipes. “For the, uh—” he gestured vaguely at the dried blood streaking her face and neck.
“Thanks,” she said, her voice rougher than she intended.
Before she could open the packet, Bucky reached for it, his fingers brushing against hers. “Let me,” he said quietly.
Isabelle hesitated, then surrendered the wipes, watching as he tore open the package with careful precision. The medic retreated, giving them privacy.
Bucky stepped closer, his body blocking her from the curious stares of passing officers. He took her chin gently between his metal fingers, tilting her face up toward his. The first touch of the cool cloth against her skin made her shiver.
“Cold?” he asked, pausing.
“No,” she said, because it wasn’t the temperature making her tremble.
He resumed, wiping away blood with meticulous care. Isabelle watched his face as he worked—the slight furrow between his brows, the intense focus in his eyes, the way his lips pressed together in concentration.
“I’m sorry,” she said suddenly, the words spilling out before she could stop them.
Bucky’s hand stilled against her cheek. “For what?”
“I missed our date.” Her voice cracked slightly on the last word, embarrassment heating her cheeks. It seemed absurd now—worrying about a missed dinner date.
Something shifted in Bucky’s expression, a softness breaking through the worry that had been etched there since he’d found her. His hand resumed its gentle work, cleaning a streak of blood from her jawline.
“I bought you flowers,” he said, his voice low enough that only she could hear.
Isabelle blinked, certain she’d misheard. “You... what?”
The corner of his mouth twitched upward, not quite a smile but close. “Flowers,” he repeated, moving to clean her other cheek. “For our date.”
“You bought me flowers?” She couldn’t keep the wonder from her voice, couldn’t stop the way her heart stumbled over itself. The mental image of Bucky Barnes standing in a flower shop, deliberating over arrangements, knocked something loose inside her chest.
He ducked his head slightly, a hint of color touching his cheeks as he reached for her hand. His metal fingers cradled her palm while his flesh hand began carefully cleaning dried blood from her knuckles.
“Yeah,” he admitted, his eyes fixed on her hand in his. “They, uh—” He cleared his throat, the words seeming to catch. “They reminded me of you.”
“How so?” she asked, barely trusting her voice.
His eyes flicked up to hers for a moment before returning to his task. “Beautiful,” he said simply.
Isabelle felt heat rush to her face, spreading down her neck. She’d been called many things in her life—dangerous, broken, weapon, monster—but beautiful had rarely been one of them. Not like this. Not with such quiet sincerity.
“We’ll have to reschedule,” she said, watching as he finished with one hand and gently took her other, his touch so careful it made her chest ache.
Bucky cleared his throat, his thumb brushing lightly over her knuckles as he worked. “I’ll have to buy you more flowers.”
“You don’t have to—”
“I want to,” he interrupted, his eyes meeting hers with an intensity that stole her breath. “I want to take you to dinner. I want—” He broke off, jaw working as though the words were fighting to stay locked behind his teeth.
Around them, the chaos of the aftermath continued—radios crackling with updates, officers shouting coordinates, medics rushing between the wounded. But in this small pocket of space between ambulances, with Bucky’s hands warm around hers, the world narrowed to just them. The antiseptic wipe hung forgotten between his fingers.
“What do you want, Buck?” Isabelle asked softly, her heart hammering against her bruised ribs.
His eyes darkened, storm-blue in the dim light, thumb tracing a small circle against her wrist where her pulse jumped beneath his touch. He looked down at their joined hands, then back to her face with a rawness that made her chest ache.
“More time,” he said finally, voice rough like gravel. “With you.”
The simplicity of it, the bare honesty, made her throat tighten. Isabelle turned her hand in his, twining their fingers together. His palm was warm against hers, calloused and real, a tether in the chaos of everything that had happened.
“I think,” she said, voice barely above a whisper, “we might have all the time in the world.”
Bucky’s smile was slow, small, but genuine, softening the hard lines of his face into something that made her heart stutter. He resumed cleaning her other hand, his touch gentle as he wiped away dried blood from between her fingers, from beneath her nails.
Isabelle watched him work, the way his brow furrowed in concentration, the way his metal fingers adjusted their pressure to hold her hand just right. The adrenaline crash was hitting her in waves now, leaving her exhausted but strangely light—as though all the fear and pain of the past few days had burned away, leaving only this moment.
She opened her mouth before she could think better of it. “You know what I want?”
Bucky glanced up, eyebrow raised slightly. “What?”
Isabelle felt a smile tugging at her lips, almost wicked despite the exhaustion and pain. “I really want to kiss you right now.”
Bucky’s gaze dropped to her mouth for a heartbeat before returning to her eyes. His lips curved into that half-smile she’d come to crave. “I think I can do that,” he murmured, his voice a low rumble that she felt more than heard.
He leaned in slowly, left hand still cradling hers while his right hand came up to cup her jaw. His thumb brushed over her cheekbone, careful to avoid the bruising. Isabelle closed the remaining distance between them, pressing her lips to his. What started as something soft, almost tentative, quickly deepened. Bucky’s hand slid from her cheek to the nape of her neck, fingers threading through her hair as he pulled her closer. She gasped against his mouth, and he took the opportunity to deepen the kiss, his tongue sliding against hers.
The world fell away—the sirens, the chaos, the pain—all of it receding until there was only Bucky.
Isabelle’s free hand fisted in the front of his jacket, pulling him closer despite the protest from her ribs. She didn’t care. She needed this—needed him—with a desperation that would have frightened her if she’d stopped to examine it.
When they finally broke apart, both breathing hard, Isabelle was surprised to find that Bucky seemed entirely unconcerned about their public display. His eyes were dark, pupils blown wide, a flush high on his cheekbones. He looked at her like she was the only thing that mattered in the chaos around them.
A week of officially dating, a month of whatever this was between them, and he still looked at her with that same wonder—like he couldn’t quite believe she was real, that she wanted him. It made something in her chest twist, sharp and sweet.
“Didn’t take you for the PDA type, Barnes,” she teased, trying to mask how affected she was.
His lips quirked up at one corner. “Neither did I.” His eyes tracked over her face, lingering on her mouth before returning to meet her gaze. “But I’ve been wanting to do that since I found you.”
“Well,” she said, aiming for lightness but landing somewhere closer to breathless, “feel free to want things more often.”
Bucky’s smile widened, transforming his face in a way that still took more of her breath away. He leaned in again, his forehead resting against hers. He brushed his lips against hers again, briefer this time but no less intense. The kiss was gentle, but there was heat beneath the tenderness, a promise of more. When he pulled back, his eyes were serious, searching hers with an intensity that made her feel seen in ways that both terrified and thrilled her.
The moment stretched between them, fragile and perfect. For just a breath, the chaos around them faded—no Flag Smashers, no GRC, no world watching. Just them.
Until the sound of rushing wind shattered the stillness.
Isabelle looked up as a shadow passed overhead. Sam descended from the sky, his wings extended in that magnificent span of red and silver, catching the emergency lights as they folded against his back. The new suit was striking, but it wasn’t what made Isabelle’s stomach drop.
It was what—who—he was carrying.
“Oh God,” she whispered, her hand instinctively tightening around Bucky’s. The world seemed to tilt beneath her feet, reality reasserting itself with brutal clarity.
Sam cradled Karli’s lifeless body in his arms, his face a mask of anguish and defeat. The young woman looked impossibly small, impossibly young in death—all that fire, all that conviction, extinguished. Blood darkened her shirt, stark against the pale fabric.
Isabelle felt Bucky tense beside her, his jaw setting into a hard line as he straightened. His hand remained firmly clasped in hers, and together, they moved forward to meet Sam.
From the corner of her eye, Isabelle caught movement—John, emerging from between two ambulances, his face unreadable as he approached. Their eyes met briefly, a silent acknowledgment passing between them before they both turned back to Sam.
“Sam,” The words came out of Isabelle in a gasp, her eyes unable to tear away from Karli’s motionless form, the girl’s face peaceful in a way it never had been in life. “Is she...?”
She didn’t finish the question. She didn’t need to. She knew Karli had no pulse, no breath, no electrical flutter of a heart struggling to beat.
Sam’s eyes met hers, grief etching deep lines around his mouth. The new uniform—the stars and stripes that represented everything Steve had believed in—seemed to weigh on him now as he gave a single, solemn nod.
“She didn’t want to stop,” he said quietly, his voice steady despite the pain in his eyes. “I tried. I really tried.”
Bucky’s hand tightened around Isabelle’s as paramedics approached, their faces professionally blank as they wheeled a gurney forward.
Sam cradled Karli’s body with unexpected tenderness, lowering her onto the white sheet as though she might still feel pain. Isabelle watched the care in his movements, the respect he showed even now. It wasn’t lost on her that Karli had tried to kill him—had tried to kill all of them—barely an hour ago.
“She was just a kid,” Isabelle murmured, the words catching in her throat. “A kid who thought she was doing the right thing.”
Bucky’s jaw tightened, his eyes tracking the gurney as the paramedics wheeled Karli away. “Most of us start out that way,” he said.
Before they could process what had happened, a wave of reporters surged forward, microphones thrust like weapons, camera flashes erupting in a disorienting strobe. The sharks had scented blood in the water.
“Are you really the new Captain America?”
“Sergeant Barnes, were you involved in the apprehension—”
“Ms. Stark, what’s your connection to—”
“Vultures,” Isabelle hissed through clenched teeth, “fucking vultures.”
Bucky shifted slightly, his body angling to shield her from the worst of the cameras. His metal arm glinted under the emergency lights, a silent warning to anyone who might press too close.
Through the crowd, Councilwoman Perez emerged, her tailored suit immaculate despite the chaos of the night. Her face was composed into a mask of gratitude that didn’t quite reach her eyes as she approached Sam.
“Sam,” she said, extending her hand. “Thank you. From all of us.”
Sam took her hand, his grip firm but brief. Isabelle watched his face—the subtle shift from Sam Wilson to something more. His eyes flicked briefly to the reporters hovering at the edges of their conversation, microphones extended like weapons.
“Of course,” he replied, his voice steady despite the exhaustion etched into the lines around his eyes.
Senator Kelley shouldered his way forward, suit pristine despite the chaos that had engulfed the plaza hours earlier. “Sincerely,” he added, his hand landing heavily on Sam’s shoulder. “You did your part in dealing with those terrorists. Now we’ll do ours.”
The word “terrorists” landed like a stone in still water. Isabelle felt her jaw tighten, teeth grinding together as she fought back the impulse to speak. Beside her, Bucky’s metal fingers flexed. His eyes never left Sam, but the slight pressure of his hand against the small of her back told her he’d felt her tension spike.
“Don’t,” he murmured, his breath warm against her ear. “Let Sam handle this.”
She exhaled slowly through her nose, forcing her muscles to unclench one by one. He was right. This wasn’t their moment—it was Sam’s. And from the look on his face, he knew it too.
“Are you still going forward with resetting the borders?” Sam asked, his voice carefully neutral, though Isabelle could hear the undercurrent of challenge beneath the words.
Prime Minister Lacont nodded, her tone matter-of-fact, hands clasped behind her back as though discussing a minor budget adjustment rather than the displacement of millions. “Our peacekeeping troops will begin relocating people soon. The terrorists only set us back—”
“You have to stop calling them terrorists,” Sam interrupted, his voice rising just enough to cut through the murmured conversations around them. The words weren’t shouted, but they carried, silencing the plaza as effectively as a gunshot.
A camera flash went off somewhere to Isabelle’s left. Then another.
Senator Kelley’s brow furrowed, genuine confusion crossing his face. “What else would we call them?”
Isabelle felt her heart rate quicken, her palms suddenly slick with sweat. This was it—Sam’s first real test. Not the fight with Karli, not the battle for the shield, but this moment. Standing before the world and speaking truth to power.
The world seemed to hold its breath as Sam spoke, his words carrying across the square with a quiet authority that reminded Isabelle, with a pang that was almost physical, of Steve. Not an imitation—Sam was too much his own man for that—but an echo of the same unwavering moral compass.
“Your ‘peacekeeping’ troops carrying weapons are forcing millions of people into settlements around the world, right?” Sam’s voice was calm but firm, his eyes moving from one official to the next, refusing to let them look away. “What do you think those people are gonna call you? These labels—‘terrorists,’ ‘refugees,’ ‘thugs’—they’re often used to get around the question: why?”
Lacont bristled, her posture shifting from diplomatic composure to defensive rigidity in an instant. “Those settlements that happened five years ago...” She gestured dismissively, as if the Blip were some minor inconvenience rather than the cataclysm that had torn the world apart. “Do you think it is fair for governments to have to support them? The resources alone—”
“Yes,” Sam replied without hesitation, the single syllable carrying a weight that seemed to reverberate through the plaza.
Kelley stepped forward, his face flushing an ugly shade of red that crept up from his starched collar. His expensive suit couldn’t hide the tremor of indignation in his hands as he jabbed a finger toward Sam.
“And the people who reappeared only to find someone else living in their family home?” His voice rose, echoing across the plaza. “They just end up homeless? Look, I get it.” The condescension in those three words made Isabelle’s teeth grind together. “But you have no idea how complicated this situation is.”
Bucky’s hand tightened almost imperceptibly around hers, a silent reminder to breathe. To wait.
A small, sad smile played at the corners of Sam’s mouth—not mocking, but understanding. It transformed his face, softening the lines of exhaustion etched there by the night’s battle.
“You know what?” Sam said, his voice carrying across the suddenly silent plaza. “You’re right. And that’s a good thing.”
The admission seemed to catch Kelley off guard. The senator blinked, his mouth opening and closing once before Sam continued.
“We finally have a common struggle now.” Sam’s gaze swept across the gathered officials, making eye contact with each one. “Think about that. For once, all the people who’ve been begging—and I mean, literally begging—for you to feel how hard any given day is... now you know.” His voice dropped lower, intimate despite the cameras and microphones straining to catch every word. “How did it feel to be helpless?”
The question hung in the air, unanswered but impossible to ignore. Isabelle felt it resonate in her chest, in the hollow spaces where grief had carved out room for itself after the Blip, after Tony. She glanced at Bucky, finding his eyes already on her, storm-blue and understanding. He’d known helplessness too—different from hers, but no less real.
“If you could remember what it was like,” Sam continued, his voice growing stronger with each word, “to be helpless and face a force so powerful it could erase half the planet, you would know that you’re about to have the exact same impact.” He took a step closer to Kelley, his new uniform catching the emergency lights in flashes of white and blue. “This isn’t about easy decisions, Senator.”
“You don’t understand—” Kelley tried to interject, his face contorting with frustration.
“I’m a Black man carrying the stars and stripes,” Sam cut him off, his voice rising not with anger but with passion. “What don’t I understand?” He reached back, his fingers brushing against the edge of the shield. “When I pick this thing up, I know there are millions of people who are gonna hate me for it.”
Isabelle felt the truth of those words. This was America. And America wanted its new captain, but only on its own terms—blond, blue-eyed, uncomplicated. Not a man who would make them face their own failings.
“Even now, here...” Sam’s gaze swept across the crowd, taking in the reporters, the officials, the emergency workers. “I feel it. The stares, the judgment. And there’s nothing I can do to change it.” His shoulders straightened, chin lifting slightly. “Yet, I’m still here. No super serum, no blond hair or blue eyes. The only power I have is that I believe we can do better.”
The plaza had fallen completely silent now. Even the radios seemed to have quieted, as if the world itself were holding its breath.
“We can’t demand that people step up if we don’t meet them halfway,” Sam continued, his voice carrying across the open space without effort. “Look, you control the banks. You can move borders with a pen stroke. You can knock down a forest with an email. You can feed a million people with a phone call.”
He paused, letting the enormity of that power sink in. Lacont shifted uncomfortably, her eyes dropping to study the pavement. Kelley’s jaw worked silently, as if chewing on words he couldn’t quite spit out.
“But the question is,” Sam pressed, “who’s in the room when you make those decisions? Is it the people you’re gonna impact? Or more people like you?”
Isabelle saw several of the officials flinch, their practiced political masks slipping for just a moment. She felt a surge of fierce pride watching Sam—not just wearing the uniform, but embodying everything it should stand for.
Sam turned slightly, gesturing toward the ambulance where paramedics had placed Karli’s body. The white sheet covering her small form seemed to glow under the harsh emergency lights. His voice cracked slightly as he spoke, emotion bleeding through the words.
“This girl died trying to stop you, and no one stopped for one second to ask why.” The raw honesty in his voice made Isabelle’s chest ache. “You’ve gotta do better, Senator. You’ve gotta step up. Because if you don’t, the next Karli will.” Sam’s eyes darkened, his expression grave as he delivered the warning. “And you don’t wanna see 2.0.”
John stepped forward from where he’d been standing in the shadows, his face unreadable as he studied Sam. For a moment, Isabelle tensed, expecting confrontation—the shield’s former bearer facing its new champion. But John simply nodded once, a gesture so slight it might have been imagined.
“People believed in her cause so much that they helped her defy the strongest governments in the world,” Sam said, his voice quieter now but no less intense. The cameras continued to flash around them, capturing every word, every gesture. “Why do you think that is?”
Councilwoman Perez was the first to break the silence that followed, clearing her throat as she stepped forward. Her eyes darted to the cameras before settling back on Sam.
“What would you have us do?” she asked, and for the first time that night, the question sounded genuine—not a political maneuver, but a request for guidance.
Sam’s shoulders relaxed slightly, the tension easing from his frame as he recognized the olive branch for what it was.
“Start by listening,” he said simply. “Not just to the people in suits, but to the ones sleeping in settlements. The ones who came back to nothing.” His gaze swept across the officials. “The ones like Karli, who saw the world change and couldn’t find their place in it.”
“And if we do listen?” Lacont asked, her accent thickening with what might have been genuine emotion. “What then?”
“Then you act,” Sam replied, his voice steady and sure. “Not with force, but with compassion. Not with deadlines, but with dignity.” He gestured to the plaza around them, to the destruction left in the wake of the night’s battle. “This doesn’t have to be how it ends. Not if we choose something better.”
The weight of his words hung in the air, a challenge and a promise. Isabelle watched as the officials exchanged glances, something shifting in their expressions—not surrender, but consideration. It wasn’t victory, not yet. But it was a beginning.
With that, Sam turned and walked away, leaving the stunned politicians in his wake. The cameras continued to flash around him, immortalizing the moment—America’s new Captain, forged not in a lab but in conviction.
Isabelle watched him approach, pride swelling in her chest until it felt like her bruised ribs might crack all over again. She released Bucky’s hand and rushed forward, ignoring the protest from her injuries as she threw her arms around Sam’s neck. The impact nearly knocked the breath from both of them, the hard edge of the shield pressing uncomfortably against her side, but she didn’t care.
“That was incredible,” she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. She could feel the rapid beating of his heart against her chest, the subtle tremor in his muscles—adrenaline, exhaustion, and something like relief all mingled together.
Sam’s arms tightened around her, one hand coming up to cradle the back of her head. He smelled like smoke and sweat, but underneath it all was something familiar—something steadying.
“I just hope it makes a difference,” he murmured, the words vibrating against her hair.
When they pulled apart, Isabelle noticed the lines of fatigue etched around his eyes, the way his gaze kept drifting back to where the paramedics had taken Karli. He looked her over, a deep sigh escaping him.
“Stop scaring the shit out of me, yeah?” He exhaled. The words were soft, almost gentle, despite their bluntness.
Isabelle couldn’t help the laugh that bubbled up from her chest, even after everything. “Never,” she promised, reaching up to squeeze his shoulder. “Someone’s gotta keep you on your toes, Wilson.”
“Great,” Sam rolled his eyes, but the corner of his mouth twitched upward. “Just what I need.”
Bucky stepped forward, the soft scrape of his boots against the pavement drawing their attention. His face was carefully composed, but Isabelle caught the glint of something suspiciously like pride in his steel-blue eyes as he regarded Sam. He clapped a hand on Sam’s shoulder.
“It will make a difference,” he said with quiet conviction, the words carrying more weight coming from him—a man who had seen a century of wars and their aftermath. Then, as if uncomfortable with the sincerity of the moment, a smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. “Or I think it might. I wasn’t really listening. Sorry, I was, uh, I was texting and so, all I heard was ‘a black guy in stars and stripes.’”
The tension broke. Isabelle rolled her eyes, unable to suppress the grin spreading across her face. She playfully elbowed Bucky in the ribs, earning a mock grunt of pain that she knew was entirely for show.
“Oh, shut it,” she said, her voice warm with affection. “I saw you tearing up by the end of it. The cat commercial all over again.”
“Me? Tearing up?” Bucky’s eyes widened in faux indignation, his left hand coming to rest over his heart as if mortally wounded by the accusation. “I think you need to get your eyes checked, sweetheart.”
Sam glanced between them, his exhausted expression giving way to something knowing and amused. “You two done flirting, or should I give you a moment?” he asked, the corner of his mouth lifting in a tired but genuine smile.
Isabelle felt heat rise to her cheeks, the flush spreading down her neck. Bucky suddenly found the ground incredibly interesting, the toe of his boot scuffing against the pavement.
“We aren’t done, but...” Bucky started with a smirk that quickly faded. His expression grew serious as he met Sam’s gaze, his voice dropping to something low and sincere. “Nice job, Cap.”
Sam’s eyes widened slightly, a flash of something vulnerable crossing his features before he composed himself. It wasn’t just a nickname—it was recognition. Acceptance. The passing of a torch that Bucky, of all people, understood the weight of.
“Thanks,” Sam replied simply, the word carrying more than gratitude.
Bucky stepped forward, closing the distance between them. He reached out, his hand coming to rest on Sam’s shoulder, fingers brushing against the edge of the shield. The vibranium hummed faintly under his touch, a sound only enhanced hearing could pick up. Isabelle watched the moment unfold, her chest tight with something that felt dangerously close to hope.
“Steve would be proud,” Bucky added, his voice barely above a whisper.
Sam swallowed hard, a muscle in his jaw working. “Yeah,” he managed, blinking rapidly. “I hope so.”
“He would,” Isabelle confirmed, stepping closer to join them. The movement sent a fresh wave of pain through her ribs, but she ignored it. “Not just of the shield. Of what you said.” She gestured toward the politicians who were now huddled together, speaking in urgent, hushed tones. “That was all you, Sam. No script, no serum. Just truth.”
Sam’s smile was small but genuine, exhaustion etched into the lines around his eyes. “Truth’s the easy part,” he said, looking out across the plaza where emergency workers still moved through the aftermath. “It’s what comes next that’s hard.”
A comfortable silence fell between them, the three standing together in the aftermath, battered, bruised, but unbowed. Isabelle felt a strange sense of rightness settle over her. For all the pain of the night, for all the uncertainty that still lay ahead, this moment felt like a beginning rather than an end. And whatever came next, they would face it.
Together.
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Brooklyn is quiet, but their hearts are not.
Blood, scars, and whispered promises linger in the dark.For one night, it feels like they have all the time in the world.
NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 89: All the Time in the World
Chapter 90: All the Time in the World
Summary:
Brooklyn is quiet. Streetlamps hum, the city exhales.
Inside Bucky’s apartment, the chaos of the night finally falls away.Blood and smoke wash down the drain. Scars are traced like promises.
For once, there are no enemies, no questions—just hands, mouths, breath.
Just survival turning into something softer.And in the silence between heartbeats, Isabelle dares to believe:
maybe peace is possible.
Maybe love is, too.
Notes:
AHHHH OKAY OKAY… this chapter… I can already hear you all screaming—and trust me, I’m screaming too. 😭💚 It’s SO CUTE!!! Why do I do this to myself (and you)? LOL. Love you guys, see you tomorrow!!! Also, this chapter's song is Icky's song...I just can't resist putting it as theirs. It's just...so adorable and perfect for them lol.
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Until I Found You" by Stephen Sanchez
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Chapter Text
Brooklyn felt like a different planet after the chaos they’d left behind. The streets were quiet, lit only by the amber glow of streetlamps and the occasional passing car. No fires. No screams. Just the familiar hum of the city at night—traffic in the distance, the clatter of the subway beneath their feet, someone’s music drifting from an open window.
Isabelle leaned heavily against Bucky’s side, her body finally registering the toll of the day now that the adrenaline had faded. Every muscle ached even as her body started to heal.
“Almost there,” Bucky murmured, his arm steady around her waist as he guided her up the steps to his building. The soldier in him remained vigilant, eyes scanning the shadows, body positioned between her and the street. But his touch was gentle as he steadied her, thumb brushing small circles against her side.
Inside his apartment, the darkness felt like a balm. Bucky didn’t immediately reach for the lights, letting the dim glow from the street filter through the blinds. The space smelled like him—clean laundry, leather, and something vaguely metallic. Familiar. Safe.
The lock clicked behind them with finality. Bucky’s shoulders dropped a fraction, some of the tension bleeding out now that they were secured behind closed doors. He moved to stand in front of her, both hands coming up to frame her face. His eyes searched hers in the half-light, cataloging injuries healed, checking for signs of shock.
Isabelle let her forehead fall forward until it rested against his. She closed her eyes, breathing him in, letting his solid presence ground her when everything else felt like quicksand. His thumbs brushed gently over her cheekbones.
“Hey,” he whispered.
“Hey,” she echoed.
For a long moment, they just stood there, sharing breath, the silence between them more comforting than any words could be. Bucky’s heart beat steadily against her palm where she’d placed it on his chest, the rhythm of it a reminder that they were both still here. Still alive.
Finally, he pulled back just enough to look at her properly, his flesh hand sliding down to rest at the junction of her neck and shoulder, thumb tracing her collarbone.
“Let’s get you cleaned up,” he murmured, the gentleness in his voice making something in her chest ache.
Isabelle nodded, suddenly aware of how much she wanted to wash away the day—the blood, the smoke, the feeling of death that clung to her skin like oil. She let Bucky lead her toward the bathroom, his hand never leaving her as if he needed the contact as much as she did.
The light he switched on was soft, casting long shadows across the tile floor. Isabelle caught sight of herself in the mirror and barely recognized the woman staring back. Bucky’s reflection appeared behind her, his gaze meeting hers in the glass.
“Let me,” he said, voice low and rough at the edges.
He reached for the hem of her shirt, fingers brushing against the skin of her lower back. She lifted her arms without hesitation, allowing him to pull the fabric up and over her head. The air felt cool against her skin, raising goosebumps along her arms.
Bucky pressed his lips to her shoulder blade, a whisper of contact that made her eyes flutter closed. His metal hand, warmed from holding her, traced up her spine to the clasp of her bra. He unhooked it, letting it slide off her arms to join her shirt on the floor.
“Turn around,” he murmured against her skin.
She did, facing him now as his hands moved to the button of her pants. His movements were deliberate, reverent, eyes never leaving hers as he worked the zipper down. There was nothing sexual in it—just care, just closeness. Just the need to touch and be touched.
Isabelle braced her hands on his shoulders as she kicked off her boots, the leather thudding dully against the tile. Bucky knelt before her, easing her pants and underwear down her legs with careful hands that catalogued each bruise, each healing cut. His thumb brushed over a particularly nasty gash on her thigh—already scabbing over thanks to her healing factor.
“This one looked bad,” he said quietly.
“Had worse,” she replied, fingers threading through his hair.
He looked up at her, something fierce and protective darkening his eyes. “Doesn’t mean I have to like it.”
One by one, he peeled off her socks, his hands cradling her feet with unexpected tenderness. When he stood again, she stepped closer, into his space, her fingers finding the zipper of his dark blue tactical jacket.
“My turn to help you,” she said.
She helped him shrug out of the heavy material, then reached for the hem of his undershirt. He lifted his arms, letting her pull it off. The scars where metal met flesh caught the light—a roadmap of pain she knew too well.
Together they worked on his pants, her fingers brushing against his as they undid the belt, the button, the zipper. He kicked off his boots and stepped out of the last of his clothing, standing before her without armor or pretense.
Isabelle reached past him to turn on the shower, letting the water run until steam began to fill the small room. The pipes groaned—an old building sound that seemed impossibly normal after the day they’d had.
“Temperature okay?” Bucky asked, testing the spray with his hand.
“Perfect,” she said, though she hadn’t checked. It didn’t matter. Hot, cold—she just needed to wash away the day, and she needed him there while she did it.
He held out his hand, helping her step over the edge of the tub and into the shower. The water hit her shoulders, running in rivulets down her back, already turning dark with blood and dirt. She closed her eyes, tilting her face up into the spray.
Bucky stepped in behind her, the shower curtain rustling closed. The space was tight with both of them inside, their bodies almost touching by necessity. She felt the heat of him at her back.
“Here,” he said, reaching around her for the shampoo bottle. “Let me do this.”
His fingers worked the shampoo into her hair, massaging her scalp with a gentleness that made her bones feel liquid. She leaned back into him, letting him take some of her weight.
“I thought I lost you today,” he said, so quietly she almost missed it beneath the sound of running water.
“I’m right here,” she said, turning to face him. Water streamed between them, washing away suds. “We both are.”
She reached for the soap, working it between her hands until it lathered. Carefully, she began to wash his chest, her fingers tracing each scar, each ridge of muscle. She found the places where new bruises were forming.
“Does it hurt?” she asked, fingers ghosting over a particularly dark bruise forming along his ribs.
“Not much,” he said, which she knew meant yes.
She continued her ministrations, washing away blood and grime, her touch lingering on the seam where flesh met metal. His breathing changed when she touched him there—not from pain, but from something deeper. Trust, maybe. Or surrender.
“I don’t know what I would’ve done,” he said suddenly. His flesh hand came up to cup her cheek, thumb tracing the curve of her cheekbone where a cut had been just hours before. “If you hadn’t made it out of there.”
Isabelle turned her face into his palm, pressing her lips against the callused skin. “I always make it out,” she whispered against his hand. Then, with a small smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes: “Stark stubbornness.”
But they both knew how close it had been this time. The Flag Smashers hadn’t just wanted to use her—they’d been ready to make an example of her. She felt Bucky’s hand tighten slightly against her face.
“Not always enough,” he murmured, his blue eyes dark with remembered fear. “Not today.”
Isabelle reached for him then, pulling him under the spray with her. Water slicked his hair back from his face, making him look younger, more vulnerable. Droplets clung to his eyelashes, caught the light when he blinked. She took the soap from the dish and began to wash his back, her fingers finding knots of tension, old scars, places where the day had marked him.
When the water finally ran cold and they were clean, Bucky reached behind her to shut off the shower. The pipes groaned in protest as the flow stopped, leaving them standing in sudden quiet, only the sound of water dripping from their bodies breaking the silence.
“Come on,” Bucky murmured, his voice rough at the edges. He pulled back the shower curtain and stepped out first, careful not to slip on the tile. He turned back to her, hand extended.
Isabelle took his offered hand, feeling the contrast between warm flesh and cool metal as he helped her over the edge of the tub. The bathroom air felt chilled against her wet skin, raising goosebumps along her arms and legs. She shivered, suddenly aware of how exhausted she was, how the day still clung to her despite the washing. She shook off the thoughts.
Bucky reached for a towel—navy blue, like most things he owned—and instead of handing it to her, he wrapped it around her shoulders himself. His movements were deliberate, tender in a way that made her chest ache. He tucked the edges in, creating a cocoon of soft terry cloth around her body.
He grabbed another towel for himself, securing it around his waist before reaching for a third, smaller one. With careful movements, he began to dry her hair, working from the crown of her head down to the ends.
A bruise was darkening along his jawline—one she hadn’t noticed before. She reached up to touch it, her fingers hovering just above his skin.
“That’s going to be ugly tomorrow,” she said.
His lips quirked up at one corner. “Had worse.”
She recognized her own words from earlier, thrown back at her with gentle irony. A small smile tugged at her mouth.
When he finished with her hair, he stepped back, eyes scanning her face. “Better?”
She nodded, though “better” felt like a relative term.
He took her hand again, fingers interlacing with hers, and led her from the bathroom toward his bedroom. He moved to his dresser, pulling open a drawer with his free hand, unwilling to let go of her with the other. He rummaged through neatly folded clothes, eventually extracting a soft-looking Henley and a pair of boxer shorts.
“Here,” he said, offering them to her. “They’ll be big, but they’re clean.”
Isabelle stared at the clothes in his hand, then looked up at him. Water still beaded on his chest and shoulders, running in slow rivulets down the ridges of muscle. His hair was damp and messy, pushed back from his face. The towel hung low on his hips, and suddenly the idea of putting on clothes—of adding any barrier between them—felt wrong.
Instead of taking the offered items, she reached out and gently pushed his hand back down. She set the clothes on top of the dresser, her eyes never leaving his.
“What’s wrong?” His voice was questioning, a slight furrow appearing between his brows.
She stepped closer, into his space, close enough to feel the heat radiating from his skin. His breath hitched slightly as she placed her palm against his chest, right over his heart. The steady thump beneath her fingers was a reminder—they were alive. They had survived.
“I don’t want to wear anything,” she said, her voice low but steady. “I don’t want anything between us tonight.”
Understanding dawned in his eyes.
“You sure?” he asked, always careful with her, even when she didn’t need him to be. “After today—”
“After today,” she interrupted, leaning into his touch, “I need to feel something good. Something real.” She closed the last inch between them, her towel brushing against his. “I need to feel you.”
She rose on her toes and pressed her mouth to his. The kiss started gently, questioning—but when his arms came around her, pulling her flush against him, something shifted. Heat bloomed low in her belly as she opened her mouth to him, deepening the kiss with a sudden urgency that surprised them both.
Bucky made a sound in the back of his throat, half groan, half sigh, as his hands slid down to her waist, fingers digging in just enough to ground her. Her towel loosened with the movement, threatening to fall.
“Iz,” he breathed against her mouth, his voice rough with want.
She kissed him harder in response, her hands finding their way into his damp hair, tugging slightly. The gentle exploration was gone, replaced by something more desperate—a need to prove they were still here, still whole. His towel brushed against her legs as she pressed closer, and she felt him hardening against her stomach.
Bucky walked her backward until her legs hit the edge of the bed. He broke the kiss, his breathing ragged, forehead resting against hers.
“Tell me what you need,” he said, his voice a low rumble that she felt more than heard.
Isabelle let her towel fall to the floor, standing naked before him in the half-light. She reached for his towel next, tugging it loose until it joined hers on the floor. The sight of him, all of him, made her breath catch. “I need you,” she said simply, her hands sliding up his chest to his shoulders. “Just you.”
His eyes darkened further as he lowered his head to capture her mouth again. This kiss was different—slower, deeper, with an intensity that made her knees weak. He lowered her to the bed with careful hands, following her down until his weight pressed her into the mattress, solid and real and alive.
“You have me,” he whispered against her skin as his lips traced a path down her neck. “You always have me.”
The words weren’t “I love you”—they weren’t ready for that yet—but as his hands began to map her body with reverent care, Isabelle thought they might be something just as powerful. A promise. A beginning. Something to hold onto in the darkness.
Isabelle’s eyes fluttered closed as his mouth moved lower, his breath warm against her collarbone. His weight was grounding—a counterbalance to the day that had nearly stolen everything. Her fingers traced the ridges of muscle along his back, mapping territory she knew but never tired of exploring.
“Buck,” she breathed, arching slightly as his metal hand slid up her side.
He paused, raising his head to meet her gaze. In the half-light, his eyes were midnight blue, pupils blown wide. A droplet of water fell from his hair onto her chest, tracking a cool path between her breasts. He watched its journey with an intensity that made heat pool low in her belly.
Something in his expression softened, even as his eyes remained dark with want. He lowered his head, pressing his lips to the hollow of her throat where her pulse beat increasingly. His flesh hand slid beneath her, cradling the back of her neck as he worked his way down her body with deliberate patience.
When his mouth closed over her breast, Isabelle gasped, fingers tightening in his hair. He took his time, tongue circling her nipple in slow, maddening strokes before moving to the other. The contrast between the cool air and the heat of his mouth sent shivers down her spine.
He continued his downward path, lips tracing the curve of her waist, the jut of her hip bone. His hands slid beneath her thighs, thumbs tracing circles on the sensitive skin there. “You’re beautiful,” he said, eyes meeting hers over the landscape of her body. “Every inch of you.”
The raw honesty in his voice made something catch in her throat. She wasn’t used to this—the open admiration, the unguarded tenderness. Even after weeks together, it still caught her off guard.
“Even the scars?” she asked, the question slipping out before she could stop it.
His gaze never wavered. “Especially the scars.” He pressed his lips to her abdomen. “They mean you survived.”
Isabelle swallowed hard, emotion threatening to overwhelm her. She reached for him, tugging him back up until they were face to face, chest to chest. “So did you,” she whispered, her hand finding the seam where metal met flesh on his left shoulder.
His breath hitched as her fingers traced the ridged scars there. It was still sensitive, she knew—not just physically but emotionally. A map of everything that had been taken from him.
She kissed him then, pouring everything she couldn’t say into the press of her lips against his. Her legs parted, cradling his hips between her thighs. She could feel him hard against her, the heat of him making her ache with want.
Bucky broke the kiss, his breathing ragged. “Are you sure?” he asked, always careful, always giving her an out even when they both knew she didn’t want one.
In answer, she rolled her hips against his, drawing a groan from deep in his chest. His eyes closed briefly, jaw clenching with the effort of restraint. “I’m sure,” she said, hands sliding down his back to pull him closer. “I need you, Buck. Need to feel you.”
He nodded, shifting his weight to one elbow as his other hand moved between them. His fingers found her wet and ready, drawing a soft gasp from her lips as they circled her entrance. “Look at me,” he murmured, waiting until her eyes met his before slowly pressing one finger inside her.
Isabelle’s breath caught, her body arching into his touch. He worked her slowly, adding a second finger when she was ready, his thumb circling her clit with just enough pressure to make her tremble.
“That’s it,” he said, voice low and rough as he watched her reactions. “Let me see you.”
There was something in his eyes—a fierce protectiveness, a need to witness her pleasure after coming so close to losing her. It should have made her feel exposed, vulnerable. Instead, it made her feel seen in a way few ever had.
“More,” she breathed, hips moving in rhythm with his hand. “Please, Buck.”
He withdrew his fingers, positioning himself between her thighs. The blunt head of him pressed against her entrance, not pushing in yet—just there, a promise of what was to come. His metal hand braced beside her head, the plates shifting quietly as he leaned down to kiss her again.
“Tell me if it’s too much,” he said against her lips. “If you need to stop—”
“I won’t,” she interrupted, her hands sliding to his hips, urging him forward. “I won’t break.”
Something flashed in his eyes—understanding, maybe. They were both so used to being treated like glass, like bombs that might detonate if handled wrong. But here, with each other, they could just be.
Slowly, with careful control, Bucky pushed into her. Isabelle’s breath left her in a rush as he filled her, stretching her in a way that bordered on too much but never quite crossed the line. He paused when he was fully seated, giving her time to adjust, his forehead pressed against hers.
“Okay?” he asked, voice strained with the effort of holding still.
Isabelle nodded, her hands sliding up his back to his shoulders. “Move,” she whispered. “Please.”
He started slow, each thrust measured and deliberate. His eyes never left hers, watching for any sign of discomfort, any flicker of pain. But there was only pleasure building between them, a slow-burning heat that spread through her limbs with each roll of his hips.
“Isabelle,” he breathed, his right hand sliding beneath her, angling her hips to take him deeper.
The change in angle had her gasping, nails digging into his shoulders. “There,” she managed, “right there.”
Bucky kept the pace unhurried, each thrust hitting exactly where she needed him. It wasn’t about chasing release—it was about connection, about reminding each other they were alive, they were whole, they were here.
Sweat beaded on his forehead, muscles trembling with the effort of control. Isabelle reached up, brushing her thumb across his lower lip. He caught it between his teeth, gently biting down before releasing it.
“You feel so good,” he murmured, voice rough with restraint. “So perfect around me.”
Heat bloomed in her cheeks at his words. For all his quiet reserve in public, Bucky could be surprisingly vocal in bed—telling her exactly what he liked, what he wanted to do to her. It never failed to send shivers down her spine.
She wrapped her legs around his waist, pulling him deeper, drawing a groan from his chest. His rhythm faltered momentarily before he regained control, his thrusts becoming slightly firmer, slightly faster.
“That’s it,” she encouraged, one hand sliding into his hair, the other gripping his bicep where metal met flesh. “Just like that.”
Pleasure built at the base of her spine, coiling tighter with each roll of his hips. Bucky seemed to sense it, his metal hand sliding between them to circle her clit with just the right pressure.
“Let go,” he whispered, eyes locked on hers. “I’ve got you.”
The dual sensation pushed her over the edge. Isabelle’s back arched, a cry catching in her throat as pleasure washed through her in waves. Bucky continued to move, working her through it, his own control visibly fraying at the edges.
“Beautiful,” he breathed, watching her come apart beneath him. “So fucking beautiful.”
As the aftershocks subsided, Isabelle pulled him down for a kiss, deep and messy and desperate. “Your turn,” she murmured against his mouth. “Let go for me, James.”
Something in him seemed to break at her words. His rhythm grew more urgent, more instinctive, the careful control giving way to need. His breath came in harsh pants against her neck, metal arm braced beside her head, flesh hand gripping her hip hard enough to leave marks.
“Iz,” he groaned, the sound vibrating through her chest. “I’m close.”
She tightened around him deliberately, drawing a broken sound from his throat. “Come for me,” she whispered, lips brushing the shell of his ear. “I want to feel you.”
His hips stuttered, rhythm faltering as he buried himself deep inside her. She felt the moment he let go, his body tensing above her, a shudder running through him as he found his release. Her name fell from his lips like a benediction, raw and unguarded in a way he rarely allowed himself to be.
For a long moment, they stayed like that, connected, breathing each other’s air. Bucky’s weight pressed her into the mattress, grounding her in the present when her mind threatened to drift back to the chaos they’d escaped. His heart thundered against her chest, gradually slowing as the moments passed.
Eventually, he shifted, carefully withdrawing from her body and rolling to the side. But he didn’t go far, immediately pulling her against him, her back to his chest, his arm secure around her waist. His breath was warm against the nape of her neck, lips pressing a gentle kiss to the skin there.
“You okay?” he murmured, thumb tracing circles on her stomach.
Isabelle nodded, threading her fingers through his where they rested against her abdomen. “Better than okay.”
She felt him smile against her shoulder. “Good.”
The city continued its nighttime rhythm—distant sirens, the occasional car horn, the constant hum of a world that had nearly ended but somehow kept turning. Inside, wrapped in Bucky’s arms, Isabelle let herself believe, just for a moment, that they might get to keep this. That the fragile peace they’d found in each other might be strong enough to withstand whatever came next.
Bucky’s breathing had started to even out, his body relaxing into the beginnings of sleep, when she spoke again.
“Buck?”
“Hmm?” His voice was thick with approaching sleep, but he tightened his arm around her, letting her know he was listening.
Isabelle hesitated, the words catching in her throat. There was so much she wanted to say—about how he made her feel safe in a world that never had, about how his touch reminded her she was more than a weapon, about how he saw her—really saw her—when most people only saw the Stark name or the powers or the damage.
But those words were too big, too raw for tonight. Instead, she settled for something simpler.
She turned in his arms, needing to see his face. In the half-light, his eyes were dark, serious, focused entirely on her despite the exhaustion etched into the lines around them.
“I meant what I said before. About us,” she whispered, reaching up to trace the line of his jaw with her fingertips. “About us having all the time in the world.”
Something softened in his expression, a vulnerability he rarely showed to anyone else. His metal hand came up to capture hers, pressing her palm against his cheek.
“Good,” he murmured, turning to press his lips against her wrist where her pulse beat steady beneath the skin. “Because I plan to hold you to that.”
The words hung between them, weighted with promise. Not quite a declaration, but something close—something real that neither of them was ready to name yet.
Isabelle shifted closer, fitting herself against the solid warmth of him. Her leg slid between his, her arm draping across his waist. The contact grounded her, chased away the shadows that had been creeping at the edges of her mind since they’d left the chaos behind.
“You know what I keep thinking about?” Bucky asked, his voice low in the darkness.
“What?”
“The boat.” His fingers traced idle patterns on her back.
Isabelle smiled against his chest, remembering the time they’d spent in Louisiana helping Sam and Sarah sand down the old wood, the smell of the water, the way Bucky had looked with the sun on his face and sawdust in his hair.
“You liked it there,” she said. It wasn’t a question.
“Yeah.” His voice held a note of surprise, as if he was just realizing it himself. “It was... peaceful.”
“We could go back,” she suggested, feeling a flutter of something like hope in her chest. “Help them finish it.”
Bucky was quiet for a moment, his hand stilling on her back. Then he pressed a kiss to the top of her head, his arm tightening around her.
“I’d like that,” he said softly.
Isabelle closed her eyes, letting the steady rhythm of his breathing lull her toward sleep. Tomorrow would bring new challenges—Sam’s first day as Captain America, the fallout from the GRC attack, the inevitable questions about what came next. But for now, tangled together in the quiet of Bucky’s apartment, they had this moment.
This peace.
And maybe, just maybe, the promise of more to come.
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Laughter cuts through the dusk, carried on barbecue smoke and summer air.
For once, the ghosts stay quiet.And in the glow of Sam’s backyard, Isabelle realizes—
Home was never a place. It was people.NEXT CHAPTER- Chapter 90: Slow Down, You Crazy Child
Chapter 91: Slow Down, You Crazy Child
Summary:
The sun sinks over Delacroix, setting the water on fire with gold.
Music drifts from Sam’s house, soft and imperfect, stitched together from piano keys and a voice that shouldn’t sound this gentle.And when the last note lingers in the quiet, Isabelle lets herself believe—
that maybe peace isn’t a dream.
Maybe it’s home.
Notes:
Wow…okay…wow. I don’t even know what to say except thank you. Truly. I’m kinda crying a bit over here. I can’t believe All the Time in the World is officially finished, and that it’s had this much love and support. You guys don’t know how much that means to me.
I know it’s “just” fanfiction, but this story is 400k plus words—and I finished it. That’s something I never thought I’d be able to say. I’d fallen into a real writing slump, and honestly, I used to hear from a former friend that I’d never finish any WIP. But…well. Here we are. Guess I proved them wrong (in the form of a Bucky Barnes epic, no less). Suck it. 😂
But honestly, thank you. Every comment, every kudos, every read has reignited my love for writing in ways I didn’t expect. I put everything I had into this fic, and you all made the journey so much brighter.
I love you all 3000, and I can’t wait to see you in October for the sequel.
(Also…maybe stick around after this chapter. Let’s just say there’s a little end credit scene waiting for you…)
🎵Chapter song vibes: "Vienna" by Billy Joel
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Chapter Text
The sun hung low on the horizon, painting the Louisiana sky in a watercolor wash of burnt orange and dusty pink that bled into purple at the edges. Heat still radiated from the ground, but the worst of the day’s swelter had broken, leaving behind that particular Southern evening warmth that wrapped around you like a familiar embrace. As Isabelle and Bucky made their way up the gravel path to the Wilson family home, the air hummed with life—thick with the smoky-sweet scent of barbecue and the distant melody of laughter floating from the backyard.
Bucky balanced the cake box with his right hand, his other hand resting on the small of Isabelle’s back, a casual touch that still sent electricity sparking through her nerve endings.
“Ten bucks says you drop that thing before we make it to the table,” Isabelle said, nudging him with her elbow.
Bucky’s eyes crinkled at the corners as he shot her a look of mock offense. “With this arm? Sweetheart, I could carry this cake through a hurricane without so much as smudging the frosting.”
“Mmm, overconfidence. That’s when disaster strikes.”
“That’s rich coming from a Stark,” he countered, voice warm with affection.
Isabelle’s chest tightened at the name—not painfully, not anymore, but with something softer, something healing. She’d spent the last two months learning how to carry it differently.
As they rounded the corner of the house, the Wilson backyard came into full view. Someone—Sarah, probably—had transformed the space into a riot of color. Red, white, and blue streamers crisscrossed overhead between trees strung with twinkling lights. Balloons bobbed in gentle clusters, and a hand-painted banner stretched between two posts proudly proclaimed “CONGRATULATIONS, CAPTAIN AMERICA!” in bold letters. The air smelled of charcoal and spices and something sweet baking, mingling with the earthy scent of the nearby bayou.
Sam stood at the grill in a “Kiss the Cook” apron thrown over his t-shirt, spatula in hand, holding court with a group of neighbors. His laugh carried across the yard, free and easy in a way Isabelle hadn’t heard since before the Blip. Since before everything.
The weight of what they’d been through to get here—the fights, the blood, the shield passed from hand to hand—seemed both impossibly distant and achingly present. Two months since they’d stopped the Flag Smashers. Two months since Sam had stepped into the mantle Steve left behind. Two months of nightmares and healing and finding their way back to something like normal.
Bucky’s thumb traced a small circle against her lower back. “Ready to celebrate Captain America?” he asked, echoing her thoughts.
The question carried layers—was she ready to celebrate Sam? To be here, surrounded by people? To step further into this life, they were cautiously building?
Isabelle drew in a breath that tasted like summer and possibility. “Yeah,” she said, surprised to find she meant it. “I think I am.”
Sam spotted them then, his face breaking into a wide grin as he waved them over. “About time you two showed up! Tell me that’s the cake, I think it is.”
“Triple chocolate with buttercream frosting,” Bucky confirmed, lifting the box slightly. “As requested.”
“Man, if I’d known all it took to get you to follow orders was to put you on dessert duty, I would’ve done it months ago.”
Isabelle felt a laugh bubble up from somewhere deep inside her, somewhere that had been silent for too long. “Don’t get used to it, Wilson. This is a special occasion.”
Sam’s eyes softened as he looked between them. “Yeah,” he said, something knowing in his gaze that made Isabelle’s cheeks warm. “I guess it is.”
Behind them, Sarah called out that the mac and cheese was ready, and Sam’s nephews tore past in a blur of energy, nearly colliding with Bucky’s legs.
“Careful with the cake, monsters!” Sam called after them, but his voice held nothing but fondness.
Bucky steadied the box with practiced ease. “See?” he murmured to Isabelle. “Hurricane-proof.”
The warmth in Isabelle’s chest expanded, spreading through her limbs like sunlight. She’d spent so long running from moments like this, convinced she didn’t deserve them. Convinced they couldn’t last.
Maybe they couldn’t. But maybe that wasn’t the point.
Isabelle navigated through the crowd, cake box in hand. The kitchen was a sanctuary of sorts—cooler than the backyard but still humming with the same energy, countertops covered in serving dishes and mixing bowls, the air thick with spices and sweetness.
She set the cake down on the last clear space of the counter, exhaling as if she’d completed some delicate operation rather than just carried dessert across a yard. The moment her hands were free, Sarah appeared at her side, dish towel slung over one shoulder, smile wide and genuine.
“There you are,” Sarah said, pulling Isabelle into a quick, firm hug that smelled of vanilla extract and something citrusy. “I was starting to think you two might’ve gotten lost on the way.”
“Sorry,” Isabelle replied, the apology automatic. “We—”
“Got caught in traffic? Or couldn’t keep your hands off each other long enough to drive?” Sarah’s eyebrows lifted, her smile turning knowing.
Heat crawled up Isabelle’s neck. “Traffic,” she managed, though the lie was transparent enough that Sarah’s laugh filled the kitchen.
“Mmhmm. Pass me those plates, would you?” Sarah nodded toward a stack on the counter. “Sam’s been talking about this cake for three days straight. You’d think nobody ever baked for that man before.”
Isabelle handed over the plates, their fingers brushing in the exchange. “I can’t take credit. The bakery did all the work.”
“Showing up with cake puts you ahead of half the guests here,” Sarah said, arranging the plates with practiced efficiency. She glanced over her shoulder, eyes tracking through the window to where Bucky stood with Sam by the grill, his posture more relaxed than Isabelle had seen in weeks. “You two are looking awful couple-y these days.”
The observation hit with precision, like Sarah had found a pressure point Isabelle didn’t know she had. She busied herself with unwrapping a bowl of potato salad, buying time as her mind scrambled for a response that wouldn’t reveal too much or too little.
“I mean, the way he keeps his hand right there,” Sarah continued, touching her own lower back in demonstration, “and how you lean into him when he talks. It’s sweet. Different than before.”
Isabelle’s fingers stilled on the plastic wrap. Before. When they’d been pretending. When every touch had been calculated, every smile a performance for whoever might be watching. The memory of it felt distant now, replaced by something that still surprised her with its solidity.
“It’s...” Isabelle started, then faltered, searching for words that wouldn’t sound trite or naive. She looked up to find Sarah watching her, gaze soft but curious. No judgment, just genuine interest. The kind that made Isabelle want to offer something real in return. “It’s real this time,” she finally said, “I don’t have to hold my breath waiting for it to break.”
The admission hung between them, more vulnerable than Isabelle had intended. She waited for the twist of anxiety that usually followed such honesty, but it didn’t come.
Sarah’s hand found Isabelle’s forearm, squeezing once—a gesture so reminiscent of something an older sister might do that Isabelle felt a sharp pang of longing for a relationship she’d once had, with Natasha.
“Good,” Sarah said simply. “He looks at you like you hung the moon, you know. Has since the first time Sam brought you two around.”
Before Isabelle could respond, the back door swung open, and Sam’s nephews tumbled in, voices overlapping as they demanded to know when they could eat the cake.
“After dinner,” Sarah told them firmly, but her eyes stayed on Isabelle, a silent understanding passing between them. “Now go tell your uncle the corn needs to come off the grill before it turns to charcoal.”
As the boys raced back outside, Sarah handed Isabelle a serving spoon. “Here, make yourself useful. And Isabelle?” She waited until their eyes met. “I’m glad you’re here. Both of you.”
The words settled in Isabelle’s chest, warm and unexpected. She nodded, not trusting her voice, and turned to the task at hand. Through the window, she caught sight of Bucky laughing at something Sam had said, his whole face transformed by it.
Maybe Sarah was right. Maybe they did look like a couple. Maybe, well, it was because they were one, and for once in her life, Isabelle could allow herself to be exactly what she appeared to be.
Isabelle stepped out onto the back porch, balancing the stack of plates against her hip, when she caught sight of Bucky in the middle of the yard. Her breath caught in her throat.
AJ sat perched on Bucky’s broad shoulders, tiny hands gripping his hair while Bucky held the boy’s ankles steady with his flesh hand. Meanwhile, Cass dangled from Bucky’s metal arm like a monkey from a tree branch, his small sneakers swinging inches above the grass.
“Faster, Bucky!” AJ squealed, bouncing on Bucky’s shoulders. “I’m an F-16!”
“No, I’m the fighter jet!” Cass protested, swinging himself harder. “You’re just the boring carrier!”
Bucky made a rumbling engine noise deep in his chest as he spun in a careful circle, his movements deliberate despite the children’s demands for speed. “You’re both planes,” he said, his voice lighter than Isabelle had heard in weeks. “And planes don’t argue with their pilot.”
The sight hit Isabelle square in the chest—the deadly Winter Soldier, the man who’d fought beside her through blood and fire, now transformed into a human jungle gym. His face was open, laugh lines crinkling around his eyes, shoulders relaxed despite bearing the weight of a one hundred and six-year-old. Something about the juxtaposition—those hands that had broken bones and fired weapons now carefully cradling children—made her throat tighten.
“Bucky, do the arm thing!” Cass demanded, tugging at the vibranium plates.
“What arm thing?” Bucky asked, feigning ignorance even as the plates of his metal arm recalibrated with a soft whir that made Cass shriek with delight.
Isabelle laughed, the sound bubbling up unexpectedly. The stack of plates wobbled precariously in her hands, and she nearly lost her grip, catching them at the last second with an undignified yelp.
“Careful there, Stark,” Sam’s voice came from behind her as he stepped onto the porch, two beers in hand. He passed one to her, taking the plates with his other hand and helping her set them down on the fold-out table. “Didn’t realize dinner and a show were on the menu tonight.”
They stood side by side, watching as Bucky carefully lowered Cass to the ground before lifting AJ from his shoulders in one smooth motion that made both boys protest loudly.
“Never thought I’d see the day,” Isabelle murmured, taking a sip of her beer. The cold liquid slid down her throat, a welcome relief against the lingering Louisiana heat. “Him, playing airplane. With kids.”
Sam’s shoulder bumped against hers companionably. “Man’s full of surprises.” There was something knowing in his voice that made Isabelle glance at him, but his expression gave nothing away as he called out, “You trying to steal my position as favorite uncle, Buck?”
Bucky straightened, running a hand through his hair where AJ had left it sticking up at odd angles. A faint flush colored his cheeks, but his eyes held a defiant glint as they landed on Sam. “Just showing these kids what a real superhero looks like.”
“Oh, is that right?” Sam called back and strode down the steps, arms spread wide. “Is that why they’re both wearing Falcon, excuse me, Captain America t-shirts?”
The boys immediately abandoned Bucky to race toward Sam, colliding with his legs in a tangle of small limbs and excited voices. Sam lifted them both at once, one under each arm, spinning them around as they shrieked with laughter.
Bucky made his way to the porch, a slight sheen of sweat on his forehead, his breathing just a touch faster than normal. He stopped beside Isabelle, close enough that she could feel the heat radiating from his body.
“Didn’t know you were so good with kids,” she said, nudging him with her elbow.
“Don’t get used to it,” he replied, but the gruffness in his voice didn’t match the softness in his eyes as he watched Sam with his nephews. “They ambushed me. Tactical disadvantage.”
“Mmhmm. Sergeant Barnes, taken down by elementary schoolers. Very convincing.”
Bucky’s lips quirked. “They’re surprisingly effective weapons. Small, fast, no regard for personal space.” His eyes met hers, something warm and private passing between them. “Remind me of someone else I know.”
Isabelle felt heat bloom across her cheeks. Before she could respond, Sam deposited the boys back on the ground and turned toward them, his grin wide and knowing as his gaze bounced between Isabelle and Bucky.
“You two gonna stand there making eyes at each other all night, or are we gonna eat sometime this century?” he called.
Bucky rolled his eyes, but there was no real annoyance behind it. “We were waiting on you, Sam. Some of us have been working while you’ve been showing off.”
“Working?” Sam laughed, the sound rich and full. “Is that what we’re calling letting my nephews use you as a human playground equipment now?”
Isabelle caught Sam’s eye over Bucky’s shoulder, and something passed between them—a shared amusement, an understanding. Sam’s expression softened for just a moment, his eyes crinkling at the corners. It was the look of someone watching their family find their footing, messy and imperfect as it might be.
“Come on,” Sam said, clapping a hand on Bucky’s shoulder. “Sarah’s gonna have all our heads if we let her food get cold. And I, for one, am not about to face that woman’s wrath over lukewarm mac and cheese.”
As they headed toward the tables set up under the string lights, Bucky’s hand found the small of Isabelle’s back again, his touch light but steady. AJ and Cass raced ahead, already arguing over who would sit where.
“Bucky has to sit by me!” Cass insisted, pointing to a chair.
“No way, I called him first!” AJ countered.
Sam shot Bucky a look of pure amusement. “Seems like you’ve got yourself some fans, Buck.”
“What can I say?” Bucky’s voice was deadpan, but Isabelle could feel the slight tremor of suppressed laughter in his hand against her back. “Kids these days have excellent taste.”
Sam snorted. “Yeah, until they find out your idea of a bedtime story probably involves Cold War espionage.”
“Better than your bird facts,” Bucky shot back. “Nothing puts kids to sleep faster than hearing about migration patterns.”
Isabelle bit her lip to keep from laughing as Sam’s expression shifted to one of exaggerated offense. “Those are educational, man. And for your information, AJ specifically requested—”
“Boys,” Sarah’s voice cut through their banter as she emerged from the house carrying a steaming dish. “If you’re done measuring, dinner’s ready.”
“We weren’t—” Sam began, but Sarah’s raised eyebrow silenced him instantly.
As they moved toward the table, the warm glow of the string lights catching in Bucky’s hair and illuminating the easy smile on Sam’s face, Isabelle felt something settle in her chest.
The long picnic table nestled at the edge of the dock creaked beneath their weight as everyone settled in, paper plates bending under mounds of food. Sarah had outdone herself—fried catfish with crispy, cornmeal-crusted edges; mac and cheese that bubbled with three different cheeses; collard greens cooked down with ham hocks; cornbread glistening with honey butter; and potato salad flecked with bits of pickled relish and paprika. The scent of it all mingled with the earthy musk of the bayou that made Isabelle’s stomach growl audibly.
Isabelle found herself wedged between Bucky and Sarah’s neighbor, Mrs. Calloway, an elderly woman with cloud-white hair who’d brought three different pies “just in case.” Across from her, Cass and AJ had claimed spots flanking Sam, their attention bouncing between their food and their audience with the restless energy only children could sustain after a full day of play.
As the conversation flowed around her, Isabelle became aware of a subtle pressure against her leg—Bucky’s knee pressed gently against hers.
The moment stretched between them, private and warm, until Sam’s voice cut through the ambient noise, drawing everyone’s attention. He’d risen to his feet, beer bottle in hand, the fading sunlight catching on his face as he surveyed the table.
“Alright, alright,” he said, his voice carrying the easy authority that seemed to come so naturally to him now. “Before we dig in, I just wanted to say something.”
Sam paused, his eyes moving around the table, lingering briefly on each face. When he reached Isabelle and Bucky, something in his expression softened.
“You know, when Steve gave me that shield, I thought he was out of his damn mind.” A ripple of laughter moved through the group. “And for a while there, I was convinced he’d made a mistake. That I wasn’t cut out for it.”
Isabelle felt Bucky shift beside her, his shoulder pressing lightly against hers.
“But standing here now, looking at all of you...” Sam continued, his voice deepening with emotion, “I realize what he was really giving me wasn’t just the shield. It was this.” He gestured to the table, to the faces looking back at him. “Family. The ones we’re born with—” his eyes moved to Sarah and his nephews, “—and the ones we find along the way.” His gaze settled on Isabelle and Bucky.
Sam raised his bottle, the amber liquid catching the last rays of sunlight as it dipped below the bayou’s edge. His eyes, warm and steady, swept across the faces gathered around the table.
“So here’s to family,” he said, voice rich with conviction. “In all its forms.”
“To family,” the table echoed, glasses and bottles lifting in a chorus of soft clinks.
Bucky shifted beside Isabelle, his shoulder brushing against hers as he cleared his throat. He raised his bottle higher, the metal of his left hand gleaming in the string lights overhead.
“Let’s hear it for Captain America,” he said, his voice gruff but sincere.
Sam’s eyes met Bucky’s across the table, a flash of surprise giving way to something deeper. Not gratitude, exactly, but recognition—an acknowledgment of how far they’d come from that first tense conversation on the tarmac. His lips curved into a smile that crinkled the corners of his eyes, a silent thanks passing between them.
“Captain America!” AJ shouted, pumping his small fist in the air, nearly knocking over his cup of lemonade in his enthusiasm.
“Uncle Sam!” Cass added, not to be outdone, and the table dissolved into laughter and a second round of toasts.
As Isabelle raised her own drink, she caught Bucky watching her from the corner of his eye. She held his gaze as she took a sip, the cool liquid sliding down her throat, and for the first time in longer than she could remember, the word “family” didn’t feel like a wound. It didn’t make her think of what she’d lost—her father, Natasha, the life she might have had. Instead, it settled in her chest like a small, warm coal, unfamiliar but not unwelcome.
Across the table, Sam was watching them with that knowing look again, the one that made Isabelle feel transparent, like he could see right through her carefully constructed walls to the soft, vulnerable parts she’d spent years protecting. His lips quirked in a small smile as he caught her eye, and he gave her a slight nod—a silent acknowledgment of something they both already knew but hadn’t put into words.
She smiled back, a real smile that reached her eyes and made the tension in her shoulders ease. The tightness in her chest dissolved into something lighter, something that felt dangerously like belonging.
Inside, the noise of laughter and fireworks dulled to a faint thrum behind the walls. Isabelle padded barefoot across the Wilsons’ worn wood floors, still smiling at the echo of AJ’s giggles and Sarah’s mock-scolding drifting through the open windows. She’d only meant to slip in for the bathroom, but on her way back, she caught sight of the sitting room tucked at the back of the house.
The sight stopped her cold.
In the corner sat a piano, old but well-kept, its polished wood dulled with a film of dust. She blinked at it, her breath catching. For a moment, she just stood there, teeth pressing into her lip. Her father’s voice stirred in her memory—the one from the message Pepper had given her. When it rains, dance.
Her fingers hovered over the piano keys, suspended in that fragile moment between decision and action. Isabelle’s heart thumped against her ribs as she stared at the dusty instrument tucked away in the corner of the Wilson family’s sitting room. The sounds of celebration filtered through the open windows—laughter, the pop of small fireworks, Cass’s high-pitched squeal as he chased his brother across the yard.
She pressed her thumb between her teeth, gnawing at the nail. The piano called to her like a half-forgotten memory, like something that belonged to a different Isabelle from a different life. Before the Blip. Before her father’s sacrifice. Before everything fell apart and reassembled itself into this strange new reality where she stood in Sam Wilson’s family home with Bucky Barnes’s touch still warming the small of her back.
“Fuck it,” she muttered under her breath.
She crossed the room with careful steps, the worn floorboards creaking softly beneath her bare feet. The piano’s wooden surface felt cool against her fingertips as she eased the top open, revealing the ivory keys beneath. A thin film of dust rose when she blew across them, dancing in the dim light before settling in her hair. She lowered herself onto the bench, the wood groaning slightly under her weight.
Isabelle’s hands hovered above the keys, trembling slightly. How long had it been? Years. A lifetime.
One note. Just to see.
Her finger pressed down, and a clear, slightly flat C rang out in the quiet room. Then another. The sound was soft, slightly out of tune, but alive—like something waking after a long sleep.
Something tightened in her chest, a knot of emotion she couldn’t quite name. Not quite grief, not quite nostalgia. Something in between.
Her hands moved with muscle memory she didn’t realize she still possessed, picking out the opening notes of “Have You Ever Seen the Rain.” The melody was halting at first, her fingers stumbling over themselves as they relearned their dance across the keys. But by the third measure, something clicked into place. The notes flowed more easily, finding their rhythm.
She hummed along, barely audible at first, just a vibration in her throat. By the time she reached the chorus, the sound had grown more confident, melding with the piano’s voice. Not singing—she’d never had her father’s boldness for that—but a soft, throaty hum that filled the spaces between the notes.
Isabelle closed her eyes, letting the music wash over her. “I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain...” The chorus flowed from her fingers, each note clearer than the last.
A floorboard creaked.
Isabelle’s hands froze mid-chord, the abrupt silence ringing in her ears as her eyes snapped open. Her heart lurched into her throat as she turned on the bench, caught in the act like a child with her hand in the cookie jar.
Bucky stood in the doorway, silhouetted against the warm glow of light from the hallway. His broad shoulders filled the frame, but his posture was loose, relaxed.
The shadows played across his face, but she could still make out his expression—soft, almost reverent, his eyes wide with something that looked like wonder.
Heat crawled up her neck as they stared at each other across the room. The moment stretched between them, taut with unspoken things.
“Don’t stop,” he said finally, his voice low and rough at the edges. “Please.”
Isabelle’s fingers twitched against the keys, suddenly unsure. “I didn’t know anyone was listening,” she said.
Bucky took a step into the room. “I’ve never heard you play,” he replied softly, moving closer with that careful grace that always reminded her of a predator trying not to spook its prey.
“I haven’t played in front of anyone in a long time.” The words came out more defensive than she’d intended. She flexed her fingers, feeling the phantom ache of disuse.
Bucky nodded, understanding written in the lines of his face. He gestured toward the bench. “May I?”
Isabelle hesitated, then slid over, making room. The bench was narrow, barely wide enough for two, and when Bucky settled beside her, his thigh pressed warm against hers. She could feel the solid weight of him, the subtle shift of muscle as he adjusted his position.
“My sister used to play,” Bucky said after a moment, his eyes fixed on the keys. “Rebecca,” he continued, his Brooklyn accent thickening around the name like it always did when he spoke of his past. “She’d practice for hours after school. Same pieces, over and over.” A small crease appeared between his brows, the muscle in his jaw working. “I’d complain about the noise. Tell her she was driving me crazy.”
His flesh hand settled on his thigh, fingers curling slightly. Isabelle watched the subtle shift, the way his knuckles whitened then relaxed.
“Now I can’t remember what any of it sounded like.”
Isabelle felt the weight of it press against her chest—the simple, devastating truth of memory lost. Not taken, like so much had been taken from him, but simply faded with time’s cruel persistence. She looked down at the keys.
“What would she play?” Isabelle asked, her voice coming out rougher than she’d intended.
Bucky’s eyes remained fixed on the piano, distant in that way they sometimes got when he was sifting through the fragments of his past. “Chopin, I think. And something with a lot of...” He made a motion with his hand, fingers dancing through the air. “Scales? Running up and down.”
“Czerny, maybe,” Isabelle suggested.
Bucky nodded, then was quiet for a long moment, his gaze steady on her face. The intensity of it made her skin prickle with awareness. “Will you play something else?” he asked finally. His voice had dropped lower, intimate in the small space between them. “For me?”
The request glared with something Isabelle couldn’t quite name. She looked down at her hands. Hands that had caused so much pain, now being asked to create something beautiful.
“I don’t know many songs anymore,” she said, flexing her fingers against her thighs. “And I’m rusty.”
Bucky shifted beside her, the bench creaking softly beneath their combined weight. His knee pressed more firmly against hers, deliberate in a way that made her pulse quicken.
“Doesn’t matter,” he said, his eyes never leaving her face. “Play anything.”
Something in his expression made her breath catch—an openness, a vulnerability that mirrored her own. The Bucky who’d stood at her back through firefights and blood was still there in the set of his shoulders, the watchful awareness that never fully left him. But there was something else too, something softer around the edges.
“I...” she started, then stopped, suddenly self-conscious. It was ridiculous—she’d fought aliens alongside this man, bled with him, nearly died with him. Yet sitting here, being asked to play piano, she felt exposed in a way that combat never managed.
Bucky’s right hand moved from his thigh to cover hers, warm and calloused. “Please, Iz.”
She turned her hand beneath his, their palms pressing together for a brief moment before she pulled away to position her fingers over the keys.
“It’s not—” she began, but Bucky cut her off with a slight shake of his head.
“Just play,” he said, the words somewhere between a request and a gentle command. The corner of his mouth lifted, just slightly. “I’ve watched you face down aliens without blinking. This can’t be scarier than that.”
Isabelle huffed out a breath that wasn’t quite a laugh. “Different kind of scary,” she admitted, but her fingers settled more firmly on the keys.
She drew in a deep breath, then released it slowly through her nose. Her fingers hovered for another moment before pressing down, finding the opening notes of “Vienna” by Billy Joel.
The first few measures came out hesitant, her muscle memory fighting against years of disuse. A wrong note made her wince, but Bucky didn’t react, just watched her hands with quiet focus. By the second verse, something loosened in her shoulders, in her chest. The melody flowed more smoothly, filling the small room with sound that seemed to absorb the shadows.
Beside her, Bucky remained perfectly still, but she could feel his attention on her, unwavering and intent. His eyes tracked the movement of her hands across the keys, following each press and release with the same careful precision he brought to field operations.
When she reached the chorus, his metal hand moved to rest lightly at the small of her back, the plates warm through the thin fabric of her shirt. The weight of it sent a shiver up her spine, but she didn’t falter, didn’t miss a beat. His thumb traced a small circle against her vertebrae.
The song built beneath her fingers, each verse flowing into the next. She closed her eyes, letting the music wash through her like a current. Her lips parted, and without conscious decision, she began to hum along, barely heard over the piano but present nonetheless.
As the bridge approached, she felt rather than saw Bucky shift beside her, leaning closer until his shoulder pressed against hers. The bench creaked softly beneath them.
“Slow down, you crazy child,” he murmured, so quietly she almost missed it beneath the music. His voice was rough around the edges, like he was pulling the words from somewhere deep and rarely accessed. “You’re so ambitious for a juvenile...”
Isabelle’s fingers stumbled, nearly missing the transition as her head snapped toward him. Bucky’s eyes were half-closed, a faint flush coloring his cheekbones. When he realized she was staring, the flush deepened.
“What?” he asked, defensive. “It was popular back in my day, too.”
A laugh bubbled up from somewhere deep in her chest, genuine and startled. “Your day was the 1940s.”
“The radio still worked after I came back,” he said, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. “Plus you wrote it down in Steve’s notebook.”
She shook her head, still smiling, and turned back to the keys. Her fingers found their place again, picking up where she’d left off. This time when she hummed, Bucky joined her—not singing, just a low, gravelly accompaniment that harmonized with hers in a way that made her skin prickle with awareness.
His hand remained at the small of her back, warm and steady, as the song built toward its conclusion. With each measure, their bodies shifted imperceptibly closer, until their sides were pressed together from shoulder to knee. The heat of him seeped through her clothes, a counterpoint to the cool ivory beneath her fingers.
As the final notes faded into silence, neither of them moved. The absence of sound felt weighted, significant. Isabelle kept her eyes on the keys, suddenly afraid to look at him, to break whatever spell had fallen over them in this dusty room with its out-of-tune piano and memories of different lives.
“Iz,” Bucky said finally, her name barely more than an exhalation.
She turned to face him, something fluttering in her chest at the proximity. They were close enough that she could count his eyelashes, could see the faint scar near his temple that disappeared into his hairline. His eyes were dark in the dim light, pupils wide and searching, something unguarded in his expression that made her heart stutter against her ribs.
“I didn’t know you could play like that,” he murmured, voice pitched low as if they were sharing secrets. In a way, they were.
Isabelle swallowed, hyper-aware of the warmth radiating from his body, the slight pressure of his leg against hers. “There’s a lot of things you don’t know about me, Barnes.”
The corner of his mouth twitched upward. “I’m learning.”
His gaze dropped briefly to her lips before returning to her eyes. He was quiet for a moment, his breathing steady beside her. When he spoke again, his voice had that particular quality it got sometimes—slightly rougher, the Brooklyn accent more pronounced, like he was pulling words from somewhere deep and rarely accessed.
“Play it again?” he asked.
Isabelle felt a smile tug at the corner of her mouth, something warm and real unfurling in her chest. She held his gaze for a long moment, letting the weight of it settle between them—this fragile, unexpected thing they were building together, note by note, day by day.
“Getting demanding in your old age, Buck,” she said, but there was no bite to it, just a gentle teasing that made his eyes crinkle at the corners.
She turned back to the keys, positioning her fingers with more confidence this time. As the opening notes of “Vienna” filled the room once more, Bucky shifted beside her, his shoulder pressing more firmly against hers.
His thumb resumed its gentle circles against her back, and this time, when she began to hum, Bucky joined her—his voice a low, rough. The harmony they created was imperfect, slightly raw around the edges, but somehow all the more beautiful for it.
Like them, Isabelle thought as her fingers danced across the keys. Broken pieces finding a way to fit together.
The End.
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Chapter 92: Perks to Die For
Summary:
In the shadows of the Flag Smashers’ corpses, a partnership is born—one built on blood, betrayal, and the promise of power.
Notes:
Okay… you guys… this is it. Seriously—the end. THANK YOU so, so much for sticking with me through this fic!!! 💚
I hope you enjoy this little teaser (my very own end-credit scene, lol). I’ve also dropped a sneak peek for the sequel—complete with the title and release date—in the end notes.
See you then! ✨
Love you 3000
-Tabby
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Chapter Text
The fluorescent lights of the morgue buzzed with a sterile, persistent hum that seemed to vibrate through Sharon’s skull. Each flicker cast harsh shadows across the room, turning the white tile floors blue-gray, then stark white again in rhythmic pulses. The air hung heavy with the chemical bite of antiseptic that couldn’t quite mask the underlying scent of death—clinical, cold, yet unmistakable.
Sharon moved between the steel tables, her heels clicking against the floor in a steady cadence. Her camel coat draped elegantly over her shoulders, its warmth unnecessary in the deliberately chilled room but essential to her composure. The tablet in her hand glowed softly as she scrolled through files, her expression neutral as though she were merely conducting inventory at a warehouse rather than standing among the Flag Smashers’ remains.
She paused at one of the tables, studying the sheet-covered form beneath. With one manicured hand, she grasped the edge of the white fabric and pulled it back, revealing the mutilated body of a young woman. The corpse bore the unmistakable marks of Isabelle Stark’s handiwork—precision damage to vital systems, the skin mottled with evidence of rapid internal hemorrhaging.
Sharon’s eyes narrowed, not in horror but with clinical interest. Her gaze traced the patterns of destruction, analyzing the efficiency with which death had been delivered. She tilted her head slightly, a small smile playing at the corner of her lips.
“All that potential,” she murmured, her voice soft in the empty room. Her fingertips brushed the edge of the sheet almost reverently, as though touching something precious. “What a waste of money.”
She ran her thumb along the fabric’s hem, the sterile cotton rough against her skin. The body before her represented more than just another casualty—it was a demonstration of power, of what the right serum could accomplish in the right host. Or the wrong one.
Sharon was contemplating the irony when the distinctive click of heels echoed down the corridor, growing louder with each confident step. She didn’t bother turning around.
The doors swung open with dramatic force, and Valentina Allegra de Fontaine strode in as though entering a boardroom rather than a morgue. Her designer purse hung casually from her forearm, and she was sucking on a cherry lollipop with theatrical enthusiasm.
“Well, well,” Valentina announced, removing the lollipop with a loud pop. “If it isn’t my favorite double—or is it triple?—agent.” She surveyed the room, taking in the row of sheet-covered bodies with exaggerated interest. Her heels clicked sharply as she approached, the sound echoing off the tile. “Yikes. What a mess, huh? You do have a flair for the theatrical, Sharon.” She gestured broadly with her lollipop. “Though I’ll admit... this is a bit more Tarantino than I usually like.”
Sharon’s lips curved into a smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “I didn’t realize you were such a delicate flower .”
“Oh, honey.” Valentina laughed, the sound bouncing off the steel surfaces. “I’ve seen worse at my ex-husband’s family’s Christmas dinners.” She leaned over one of the bodies, lifting the sheet with her free hand before letting it drop unceremoniously. “So these are the little lab rats who stole my merchandise. Shame about your precious little scientists, by the way. All that work, all that genius...” She twirled the lollipop for emphasis. “Poof. Gone. Just like that.”
Valentina circled the examination table, her movements predatory despite her casual demeanor.
“Do you know how much money I had riding on those vials, Sharon? How many promises I made to some very, very unpleasant people?” Her voice remained light, but the threat underneath was unmistakable.
Sharon didn’t flinch. Instead, she closed her tablet with a soft click and met Valentina’s gaze directly.
“You can tell those people I’ve found something better,” she said, her voice measured and calm. A smirk played at the corner of her lips, the kind that suggested she knew something Valentina didn’t—a rare advantage in their perpetual chess match.
Valentina froze mid-step, the lollipop hovering halfway to her mouth. Her perfectly sculpted eyebrow arched upward as interest battled with skepticism across her features. She studied Sharon’s face for any tell, any crack in the confident facade.
“Better than a pocket-sized army of super soldiers?” Valentina scoffed, twirling the candy between her fingers. “Color me skeptical, Carter.”
She closed the distance between them, each heel strike against the tile floor a deliberate percussion—click, click, click—like a countdown. Sharon caught a whiff of Valentina’s perfume—something expensive and French that clashed violently with the morgue’s antiseptic chill. The contradiction seemed fitting for a woman who wore couture to a room full of corpses.
“What could possibly be better than twenty perfect little vials of liquid power?” Valentina’s voice dropped to a silky murmur, the kind that promised violence wrapped in velvet.
Sharon’s smile widened, genuine this time—the smile of someone holding all the cards and knowing it. The light caught the gleam in her eyes, turning them cold and calculating. She slid her tablet into her coat pocket.
“We can recreate it,” Sharon said, her voice steady and assured. “Make it better,” She paused, letting the words hang in the air between them.
Valentina’s laugh erupted suddenly, bouncing off the metal surfaces with a hollow echo that made the room feel even more like a mausoleum. She swept her arm in a dramatic arc over the sheet-covered bodies, the movement sending a waft of her perfume through the chilled air.
“Don’t tell me you expect me to use these... dummies to remake the serum?” Her voice dripped with disdain. “They’re hardly viable specimens anymore, darling. Even I have standards for my lab rats.” Her lips curled into a moue of disgust as she let the sheet drop back unceremoniously.
Sharon circled one of the examination tables, trailing her fingertips along the edge of the steel. She could feel Valentina’s eyes tracking her, the woman’s curiosity practically radiating across the room like heat waves.
“Not them.” Sharon fixed Valentina with a look that carried weight—significant, measured, loaded with unspoken promise.
Valentina held her gaze, the lollipop momentarily forgotten between her fingers. The perpetual motion that defined her stilled completely as her eyes narrowed, calculating the angles, weighing risks against rewards as she always did. Sharon could almost see the equations forming behind those shrewd eyes—profit margins, casualty allowances, plausible deniability. Then Valentina’s lips curved into a knowing smile that transformed her face from merely beautiful to dangerously perceptive.
“Stark,” she said, the name more statement than question. The word hung in the air, charged with possibility.
Sharon nodded slightly, but before she could elaborate, Valentina cut her off with a quick, slicing motion of her hand.
“Isabelle,” Valentina continued, rolling the name around her mouth like she was tasting an expensive wine. “The same Isabelle who bailed on me before I could finish giving her my ‘miracle cure’—your sample serums.” She popped the lollipop back into her mouth with deliberate slowness, the cherry-red stain on her lips matching the dangerous glint in her eyes. “You want to use that Isabelle Stark to recreate the serum.”
“For a lot of money, of course,” Sharon added, her voice taking on a silky edge that mirrored Valentina’s own manipulative tone. Her lips quirked upward at one corner. “She is an Avenger, after all.”
Valentina’s laugh was a practiced thing—three short, staccato bursts that conveyed amusement without ever reaching her eyes. “Oh, of course...” She rolled her eyes, the gesture exaggerated enough to be seen from across the room.
But Sharon didn’t miss the way Valentina’s fingers tightened almost imperceptibly around the lollipop stick, or how her gaze flickered briefly to the bodies laid out between them. Calculation replaced the theatrical disbelief on her face. She wasn’t buying it.
Sharon rolled her eyes, suddenly moving with purpose as she circled the body-laden tables. Her camel coat swished around her calves with each step.
“You didn’t see her,” Sharon said, her voice dropping to something just above a whisper, forcing Valentina to lean in slightly to catch the words. “I did.” Her voice turned cool and sharp, slicing through Valentina’s objections like a scalpel through skin. “I watched her die.”
She paused, letting the weight of her words sink in. The morgue seemed to grow colder, the hum of the refrigeration units suddenly more pronounced. Sharon could see Valentina’s expression shift, interest overriding skepticism in real time. The woman’s perpetual mask of indifference cracked just enough to reveal genuine curiosity beneath.
“And then... she didn’t.” Sharon’s eyes gleamed with something that might have been awe or avarice—or perhaps both, intertwined so tightly they became indistinguishable. “She came back. Stronger. Faster. Like nothing had touched her.”
She stopped directly across from Valentina, the steel table between them supporting a sheet-covered form that no longer mattered to either woman. What mattered was what lived and breathed—what could be used.
“She’s not just another enhanced, she’s a blueprint,” Sharon said, her voice vibrating with conviction.
Valentina stilled completely, her perpetual motion momentarily suspended as she processed Sharon’s words. The lollipop hovered forgotten near her lips, a drop of cherry-red syrup forming at its tip, threatening to fall. For once, the theatrical facade dropped entirely, revealing the razor-sharp mind that had built empires in the shadows.
“You’re saying she’s—what? Immortal?” Valentina’s voice had lost its performative edge, replaced by genuine curiosity that bordered on hunger.
“I’m saying she’s exactly what you’ve been looking for.” Sharon leaned forward, placing both palms flat on the cold metal table. The chill shot up her arms, but she didn’t flinch. “The perfect subject for your project. Better than any of these.” She nodded toward the bodies without looking at them, her eyes never leaving Valentina’s face. “Think about it—a subject who can’t die. One who regenerates. One who’s already survived more versions of the serum than should be possible.”
Sharon’s fingers spread wider on the metal surface, as if she could physically grasp the opportunity she was presenting. “Imagine what your scientists could learn from her blood alone. Imagine what they could create from her.”
Valentina’s eyes darkened with interest, the lollipop now dangling forgotten from her fingers, a red drop finally breaking free and landing on the pristine tile floor with a tiny splat that neither woman noticed.
“And how exactly,” Valentina asked, her voice dropping to a dangerous purr, “do you propose we convince an Avenger to volunteer as our lab rat?”
The question hung in the air between them, a challenge wrapped in silk. Sharon held Valentina’s gaze, unflinching.
“Leave that part to me,” Sharon said, her tone measured and confident. Not a boast, but a statement of fact.
Valentina sucked thoughtfully on her lollipop, the cherry-red candy disappearing between her perfectly painted lips before she pulled it out with a theatrical pop that echoed against the steel surfaces. She twirled the sticky candy between her fingers, studying Sharon with narrowed eyes.
“This little,” Valentina drawled, her lips curving into a mocking smile, “girl crush, you’ve developed—it’s useful, Sharon. Cute, even.” The words dripped with condescension, but beneath the dismissal, her eyes had sharpened with unmistakable interest—the predatory focus of a woman who recognized an opportunity when she saw one.
Sharon didn’t rise to the bait. Instead, she reached into her coat pocket with deliberate slowness and produced a small glass vial. The dark red liquid inside caught the harsh overhead lights, glinting like a ruby suspended in clear water. She held it up between them, letting it speak for itself.
“Not a crush,” Sharon corrected, her voice soft but intense. The vial felt cool against her fingertips, a physical reminder of what she was bartering with—who she was bartering with. “A resource.”
She rolled the vial between her fingers, the blood inside shifting hypnotically. The viscous liquid clung to the glass walls before sliding back down, thicker than water, darker than wine. Sharon watched Valentina’s eyes track the movement, pupils dilating slightly with unmistakable hunger.
“Got this off her clothes in Madripoor,” Sharon continued, her voice dropping to just above a whisper. “Her blood.”
Sharon leaned forward slightly, her eyes never leaving Valentina’s. She extended her arm, holding the vial out in offering—not submission, but partnership.
Valentina studied Sharon for a long moment, her head tilted slightly to one side like a bird of prey assessing whether a meal was worth the effort to catch. Then her expression shifted, hungry curiosity replacing the theatrical menace that had animated her features moments before.
She extended her hand, palm up, fingers curling in a beckoning motion that managed to be both imperious and covetous at once.
Sharon hesitated—not from uncertainty, but just long enough to establish that she was doing Valentina a favor, not following an order. The power dynamic between them shifted with that small pause, a subtle negotiation conducted without words. She reached forward and placed the vial in Valentina’s waiting palm, the glass catching the cold light as it changed hands.
Valentina’s fingers closed around it with surprising gentleness, as though she were accepting a rare jewel rather than a biological sample. She held it up to examine it against the fluorescent lights, turning it this way and that. The blood inside shifted, thick and viscous, as she rotated it.
“So Little Miss Stark really was Mommy’s special science project,” Valentina murmured, fascination lilting through her voice. She tapped one perfectly manicured nail against the glass, watching how the blood responded to the vibration. “Or should I call her Sick Girl? Does she still go by Sick Girl? Stupid name.”
She tested the name on her tongue, savoring it like the candy still clutched in her other hand.
“Immortal Izzy, maybe? Or the Undying Stark?” Her lips curled into a smile that was all teeth. “The Biohazard Brawler?” She chuckled at her own joke, the sound bouncing off the metal surfaces around them, multiplying until it seemed to come from everywhere at once. “I’ll workshop it.”
The vial disappeared into Valentina’s designer purse with surprising gentleness, her movements suddenly all business. The flourishes dropped away, revealing the calculating efficiency that had made her so dangerous in the first place.
“In the meantime...” Valentina’s red-stained lips curved into a smile that might almost be genuine if not for the predatory gleam in her eyes. “You’re in luck. I heard Washington finally decided to forgive and forget.” She paused, watching Sharon’s face for a reaction. “Your pardon came through this morning.”
The words hit Sharon like a physical force, though she kept her expression carefully neutral. Freedom—real freedom, not just the clandestine existence she’d carved out for herself in Madripoor—dangled before her like bait in a trap. She could almost taste it, metallic and sweet on her tongue.
“Turns out,” Valentina continued, circling Sharon like a shark testing the waters, “a few well-placed phone calls from Captain America can work wonders for a girl’s reputation.” Her heels clicked against the tile, each step deliberate and measured, the sound amplified by the morgue’s acoustics.
“Is that so?” Sharon asked, her voice betraying nothing of the calculations running behind her eyes.
“Mmm.” Valentina nodded, completing her circle to stand directly before Sharon. “And the CIA is just dying to have someone with your...” she waved her lollipop in a circular motion, searching for the right word, “...entrepreneurial spirit back on their payroll.” Her eyes glittered with unspoken promises and unnamed threats. “Interested?”
“Depends,” Sharon said, her voice cool and pragmatic as she met Valentina’s gaze. No excitement, no gratitude—just business. “What’s the salary?”
Valentina’s laugh was genuine this time, a rich sound that seemed too big for the sterile room. It echoed off the tile floors and metal tables, momentarily drowning out the persistent hum of the refrigeration units. She stepped closer and lowered her voice like she was sharing the juiciest piece of gossip at a high-society cocktail party.
“Trust me, sweetheart.” Her eyes glittered with secrets and promises, the pupils dilating slightly in the harsh light. “The perks are to die for.”
The double meaning hung in the air between them, neither woman acknowledging it directly. Valentina’s gaze flicked to her purse, where the vial now nestled, then back to Sharon’s face with renewed intensity.
“We could do such interesting things together, you and I,” she continued, her voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper that forced Sharon to lean in slightly to catch the words. “With your connections and my resources...” She let the thought dangle, unfinished but heavy with potential.
Sharon’s lips curved into a smile that matched Valentina’s for calculation and hunger. The light directly above them flickered, a visual stutter that seemed to emphasize the gravity of what was transpiring between them. For a fraction of a second, in that flicker of darkness, both women’s expressions revealed their true nature—cold, calculating, and utterly ruthless.
“I’ve always been a fan of interesting,” Sharon said, her voice low and smooth as polished stone. She extended her hand, the gesture businesslike and final. “I believe we have a deal.”
Valentina clasped Sharon’s hand, her grip firm. The touch lingered a beat longer than necessary, a silent acknowledgment passing between them. In that moment, surrounded by the Flag Smashers’ remains, the two women formed a silent pact that would reshape powers neither of them fully understood—yet.
“I do love a woman who knows her worth,” Valentina purred, releasing Sharon’s hand and adjusting her designer purse where Isabelle’s blood now rested. She ran her tongue over her cherry-stained lips, the calculation in her eyes momentarily giving way to something that might have been genuine pleasure. “This is going to be so much fun.”
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When the Flag Smashers fell, Isabelle Stark thought peace might finally follow.
For the first time since the Blip, she let herself believe in more than survival—coffee in the morning, laughter in the kitchen, quiet nights at Bucky Barnes’ side. A future.But peace doesn’t last.
Strange symptoms creep into her days, and drag her back into the spotlight she’s always feared.
The more the world looks at her, the more she sees the truth in her reflection: Isabelle murdered in those tunnels. Isabelle is not who they think she is. Isabelle is what her mother made.And the voice inside her head is getting louder.
Belladonna wants out.As missions turn bloody and betrayals cut close, Isabelle must face the one truth she’s never said aloud—her greatest fear isn’t dying.
It’s becoming.Becoming the weapon she was designed to be.
Becoming the shadow her father fought against and her mother perfected.
Becoming the monster she swore she’d never let out.Because if she falls this time, there may be no one left to catch her.
“She thought healing meant silence.
But the darkness inside her was only holding its breath.”"COMES FROM THIN AIR"-Coming October 1, 2025 💚✨
Chapter 93: Comes From Thin Air
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Guys.....IT’S OCTOBER 1ST!!!!!
Which means…it’s finally time for the sequel!!! 💚💚💚
First two chapters are up now!!!!!!
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Chapter Text
Isabelle Stark almost learns how to live again—coffee in the morning, laughter in the kitchen, Bucky Barnes' hand warm at her back.
For a while, peace feels possible.
But then the spotlight burns.
Peter Parker's unmasking drags her into the headlines, and the voice in the mirror whispers a name she swore she buried: Belladonna.
Missions turn bloody, trust frays, and the line between healing and becoming the monster she fears grow thinner every day.
Fear doesn't come from thin air—it grows in glass and silence, until the day it learns your name.
The world wants a Stark who can save it.
The weapon inside her only wants out.
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“She wasn’t looking for redemption. He wasn’t looking for forgiveness.
But love has a way of finding what fear leaves behind.”
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Comes From Thin Air: https://ao3-rd-3.onrender.com/works/71687711/chapters/186612311
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