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What a day" i murmured to myself as I shut the door to my apartment.its already 6pm, I sighed and went to the fridge for some food just to realize their was absolutely nothing.

Just great, after a long day of being bullied pushed around like trash and stressed out to my breaking point i cant even come home to a pack of buddak noodles.

I opened the oven just to see a single cupcake and a note. I dropped all my heavy bags and books, and went to my room to shower. And change into my bed time clothes.

I was currently wearing a big blue shirt with black shorts.

When i had finished settling down and arranging stuff in my room i went to have a seat by my kitchen counter.

The note read ' Hey honey, sorry i couldn't be here to celebrate your birthday with you. Your brother had a school event and i couldn't miss it. Also i took your cupcakes to give to his classmates, im sure they'll love it. I'll bring our leftover pizza to make up for it.'
- your lovely Mom.

At this point I started crying my eyes out. I couldn't take it anymore. my mom doesn't care about me, my friends don't care,and my evil younger brother would push me down a cliff if he had the chance.

When i had gathered myself just a little bit, i grabbed a singular birthday candle from the drower. I walked and sat my sorry butt back on the kitchen sheet and inserted the candle into the cupcake.

Then i lite it.

" Happy birthday t-to me, happy birthday to me happy birthday happy birthday,..."

"Happy birthday to me." I say then i blow out the candle.

I didn't make a wish.

Then i threw the candle away and ate the cup cake. After that i washed the dishes they left for me to do.

I am currently laying on my bed watching youtube when i got a notification on my phone.

Tekking101 has just posted a new video.

'Yes!, final something good about this bad day.' i say as i click on the notification.

I absolutely love listening to this guy yap about anything but as i was wondering what the video was about. I saw a invisible fairy fly by me....... WHAT.

As i was about to scream my lungs of it spoke.

" Hello im the isekai fairy and your about to enter the one piece world, byeeeee." It says as i suddenly start falling.

I fainted from shock.

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Suddenly i feel myself land on something. I open my eyes to see that I'm outside....

What the heck just happened in the last 20 seconds.

I try to get up but fall back down immediately.

"What the heck" i say out loud.

I put my hand on my head just to find out they're weird things on my head. It feels soft but i reflex when i touch it. I try to look around still wondering how i got to a place like this.

I look up to see tree's and random fruits on them. I try to stand up again this time i did it with difficulty. I try to walk around to see where i am. Maybe i can hitch a ride on a taxi back to my place.

I start walking and notice something very wrong. I am really tall now and i have an orange tail with black stripes. My legs look weird too.....

"WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO ME!!." I scream causing some birds to fly away.

What just happened.

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Somewhere in dressrosa.

"I have something to report!" A civilian said to the local police.

The soldier turned his attention to the civilian in distress. "Yes ma'am what is the issue.

" I saw a being or maybe a thing fall really fast but it was so far away i couldn't see who or what it was." She says trying to regain her breath from her running.

This attracted the attention of a special toy who had just been beaten and thrown aside.
The toy muttered." Did it land on green bit, how strange, I'll have to check it out." Before running away with its one leg.

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I am just looking at my body and its so weird, i feel like im lightheaded right now but in a comfortable way. I have absolutely no idea how i even got here. I need to find a taxi or maybe the nearest police station.

I walk throughout the forest and realize i have grown significantly. I was 5'7 when i was in my room just chilling but now i look to be around 6'1 and 5'11.

I feel like im going to faint from how my lungs feel and my heart is beating way faster.

I was lost in thought thinking about how much chaos had just happened to me in the space of 1 hour when i tripped on a wood plank.

" OUCH, what the heck." I was about to get up but i looked at my legs.

WHY DO MY LEGS LOOK LIkE THAT. even if i manage to get a taxi i doubt they would let me in. Im soo sick of this.

I get back up and continue walking to maybe find a way out of this jungle.

I am completely baffled right now. First I've mutated and look like someone strait out of bna and now im in a jungle with absolutely no way of knowing the time or calling someone for help.

Oh right, even if i could call my mom and tell her about my situation she would just tell me my brother wants ice cream and she would come get me later.

And it wouldn't be the first time. I keep walking looking for a place that i can stay in momentarily. My legs aren't stiff anymore and i can hear everything in this dang forest
Its so annoying.

I keep walking then i hear chirping behind me.

" Hey. Get away, leave me alone!." I yelled trying my best to scare away the bird.

"Chivp Chivp CHIVP." The annoying bird just kept getting louder.

"Leave me ALONE." I lundeged at the bird, grabbing it and holding it hostage in my arms. The bird looks so odd, its a particularly small bird with white feathers and a patch of black by its right eye.

" Chivp!." The bird said to may face. What's weird is the bird seems to enjoy laying captive in my hands.

"Hawoo."..... No way in actual dingleberrys did this bird just say hello to me. In all my 16 years of miserable life have i ever seen a bird say hello.

" WHAT-"

" Ma Nane es CHIVP." Ok so in the past 3 hours: I've gotten home, eaten a cupcake, cried, watched youtube, fallen out of the sky and into a forest, turned into a hybrid animal and to top all of a bang bird is talking to me.

"My name is kamiko, nice to meet you chivp the talking bird." The bird i now know as Chivp can only say words poorly buy i understand. I had to babysit little kids for lunch money so i had to pick up on scrabbled words to finish babysitting missions.

Yes that was not a job, just because of my experience im never having kids.

My stomach started to rumble.im so hungry right now, i can eat the fruit on the trees but im too nervous it may be poisonous.

" i a hewp lu." Before i could say something in response the Chivp flew to a near by tree and picked a fruit off of it and flew back to me but instead of landing on my Still out stretched hands, he landed on my shoulder and was holding the fruit by the stem in small beck.

Yup this has definitely passed my crazy meter, I just want to sleep right now.

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Me and chivp continued to walk around this forest. the animals seem to respect chivp in a manner because everytime we pass one he gives them a winged wave.

Its afternoon according to my predictions, our goal is to find a sign of civilization or something.

I feel like im going mad, if i see a police officer around here i'm positive he'll run away because of how I look. and i would too, i really hate my situation.
I didn't even finish the new tekking101 video, that man's yapping is music to my ears.

"Why are you following me anyway?." i asked chivp out of pure boredom , not to mention that the bird picked out a really good fruit for me too eat.

"ChiVp helps." Chivp replied with a blushing emotion on his face.

i couldn't help but smile.

"thank you chivp." i hummed toward chivp who is still on my shoulder.

we continue walking and i finally push aside all my worries momentarily and realize how beautiful the forest is, its golden hour and the sun is hitting the trees and grass creating a beautiful view strait out of pintrest.

I look over to where Chivp was on my shoulder and i see him sleeping.

Even tho in the span of 5 hours i've cried, fallen from a height no being should survive, turned into some tiger human hybrid, found and befriended a talking bird.

this may be the best birthday I've ever experienced.

and probably the only one ill remember.

I remove chivp from my shoulder and use my soft hand to hold the bird.

Chivp is sleeping so peacefully, i look at the bird as if its my child and start singing a soft song.

[the song was 'not a lot just forever by Adrianne Lenker]

When i had finished i found a small cave near a large tree and went in. as mush as i hate bugs i need to find a place to sleep.
i shoo away a few bugs and lay on a patch of soft vines i gathered for me and Chivp.
then i slept off.

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"Be careful!." i slowly start to wake up.

"i am careful." i hear a high pitched voice squeak back at its companion.

i finally open my eyes and see a mini village with tiny long nose people.

wait, tiny long nose people. and where's Chivp

i fully open my eyes and realize I'm stuck.

"AAAHHH THEYRE MOVING!." i see the tiny people point large toothpicks at me in defense.

"Excuse me i didn't do jack to any of ya'll so can you let me sleep." i sassily spoke, I'm actually convinced everything that happened yesterday is a dream so i just have to find a way to wake up.

i look at how they help me captive only to realize it looks as if I've been sown into the ground.

How in the actual brussel sprouts did these little guys sow me to the ground. I have to face it, everything that has happened is very real.

i want to cry out of frustration so bad right now. I think they can sense my frustration and sadness because they brought out a huge plate of fish for me. how do they expect me to eat if i cant even move.

i then see that a small being in green clothes and has a weird hat holding needle and thread, behind the guy was 2 other tiny people.

"Hello, my name is leo and i am a brave warrior of the tontatta tribe. my fellow comrades were informed by our friend Chivp that there was a person in need of our help so we brought you here!."
the tontatta named leo exclaimed loudly.

I'm so lost right now, you mean to tell me that i was carried from that cave to right here and i didn't even notice, I'm so kidnappable.
they then proceeded to come closer to me in a formation as if i was a criminal. I'm so confused about what's happening. I try to move but i cant.

Then Leo comes up to me and looks me dead in the eyes, i know their trying to be intimidating but they just end up looking cute in the process.

"My comrades also found a lot of berries in your pocket, along with a log pose to the new world, are you a pirate?." Leo spoke intimidatingly making sure to poke his stick on the ground to look the part.

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" What the heck do you mean by pirate, the only thing i pirate are anime's after that I'm innocent." I deadpan and respond in a calm tone.

whatever i said made them all confused and mummer around. hope i didn't screw things up for myself.

The food they made for me is looking mighty fine tho.

wait a second.

"what day of the week is it PLEASE TELL MEEEE." i scream in horror and sadness making them all scared.

they all ran behind their houses and a weird statue.

i don't need to worry about scaring them, if its Sunday a new episode of one piece has dropped and i need to watch it asap, i hate my life and the only reason i still tolerate it is because luffy hasn't become the king of the pirates.

i started to wabble around and silently cry until one of the tontatta come near me. the tontatta had messy blue hair and a dark blue hat.

"Its Friday!." she yells out in my direction.

"that's great!." i reply and then relax, i have 2 days to find a place where i can watch one piece.

i smile wondering what the next episode will be, but then i let their words sink in a bit more. They asked if in was a pirate, told me i had a lot of berries in my pocket along with a log pose of the new world. My relived smile slowly turned into a face of horror. I looked at my arms again and then my legs realizing what i was, i then took a second look at the tontatta and internally died.

and i know they can tell I'm in major destress

IM IN THE DANG ONE PIECE UNIVERSE!!!

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I'm so hecking screwed. i didn't know my hyper fixation would catch up to me like this.

i want to watch one piece not be in it !. why is this happening, HOW IS THIS HAPPENING.

I'm literally having a breakdown right now.

i think the tonttata's aren't threatened by me anymore because I'm not sure an enemy would be bawling their eyes out Infront of their opponents.

"WHY MEE." I mumble in my crying session, I'm still sown face up to the sky and my back on the grass.

"hey lady!, stop its ok we wont hurt you!." i hear the blue tontatta who was part of the group that kidnapped me say obviously trying to console me. which defiantly didn't work

how in the name of three rats do i end up in the one piece universe, and worse of all....

IN DRESSROSA

And that's not even the worst part, IM A MINK. A hybrid of an orange tiger i think.

I'm fully ready to drown myself if doflamingo sees me and claims me as a pet. not by the hair on my cinny cin cin am i going to become a slave and a lapdog to him.

my chest feel lighter and i fell more at ease, but my problems here overweigh my problems with my mom and my pick me brother. although i still love them both they've shown nothing but silence when it comes to loving me back.

i continue to sob as the tontatta try to cheer me up, the only thing that can make me happy now is if i
can listen to Mitski,

hold up...

"HOW THE HECK AM I GOING TO LISTEN TO MITSKI NOW!!!." i screeched making the tontatta cover their ears, That angels singing is my ultimate calm down and i cant go a day without her soft and beautiful voice playing as i put on my headphones.

The only thing close to mitski in the one piece verse is Uta and only supposed 'Nika' knows when film red will even take place.

I CANT WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

"MISS I WILL ASK YOU TO RESPECTFULLY STOP CRYING AND EXPLAIN HOW YOU GOT UNTO GREEN BIT." i hear a high pitched little voice yell in the middle of my wailing. I'm probably caused them so much trouble, but you cant blame me. if they listened to Mitski and a mean man said they couldn't anymore they'll all be crying like me.

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i turned my sown head towards the little tontatta to find out it was wicca, the tontatta that stole Zoro's sword.

What am i even going to say. i cant just be like.

'hey guys i am actually a weird ass human girl that got yeeted here, oh and my body also transformed into a minks body.' ill just sound crazy and stupid.

"My bad little guys, I'm probably causing ya'll so much trouble. The truth of the matter is i don't now how i got here." i replied holding in my tears and silently singing Mitski songs in my head.

i see Leo and three other tontatta silently discuss and then look at me in unison making me extremely nervous. they then fully turn their attention to me and suddenly their holding a tontatta size paper.

Leo then walks up to me and looks me dead in the yes like i committed a crime.

"lets start of with names, you already know mine so may i please know your name." Leo asked as he lowered his tense manor trying his best to make me feel the most little of comfort around them.

"My name is Kamiko, i also would like it if you removed me from the ground please." i replied to his question in a calm manor no longer wanting to keep crying about my problems.

its not like crying will fix them.

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"Is that all?." i shakingly asked Leo, shaking when i feel uncomfortable is a habit of mine that never seems to leave me.

Leo looked at me and shook his head signaling that the question and answer phase is over. he then left to talk to the tontatta behind him. 

Leo didn't really ask a lot of questions, i kinda lied for most of them to be completely honest.

I'm still stuck to the floor and cant move even my legs because of how they sowed me to their soil and surroundings. What am i even going to do now?. I have no plan, I'm stuck in a fictional world, and I'm not even human. 

I looked up to the sky and just started to think.

I'm started to feel tears in my eye so i quickly close them to avoid looking like an idiot, i hate how fragile my feelings are. In a world like this one cowards like me can't survive. i just want to find peace with no conditions or tricks. I'm sure even here nobody will love me the way i want to be loved.

i suddenly feel some weight around my body remove meaning their removing the stitches. i open my eyes to see what their doing and i notice them pushing the fish on a plate they brought for me earlier towards me.

Leo had finished removing the stitches from my body so i moved me body for blood circulation after said act i sat up with my legs crossed.

"You certainly seem upset about something." i hear wicca, the sassy blue tontatta say as she pushed my food even closer to me.

"You better eat all of it ok." she lowered her tone into a caring voice. i then turned my head to look at all the tontatta and they had the same expressions.

their actually people worried about my well-being. and i just met them.

I them recall a conversation i had with Chivp.

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"Why are you following me anyway?." 

"ChiVp helps." 

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I then look at the food, not one time did my mom ever make a meal for me, she always told me to eat the leftovers. I feel a tear drop from my eyes and onto the grass, and the tontatta gasp. not understanding why I'm crying again.

So they are people who would help me. i looked in Leo and the people who carried me here with a smile.

"Thank you."

with that i took a big bite of the fish they prepared for me. 

Its delicious.

"Tasty." i spoke reminding me of a certain anime character.

"You sure are an emotional person." wicca said as she left to stay by Leo's side

Maybe being in the one piece verse won't be so bad. i think as i bit the next fish.

"See i was right, i knew it!." Wicca yelled from Leo's side. I notice that some of the tontatta are complaining and some are happy an doing a weird dance.

I then see a elderly tontatta come up to a tree slap and declare Wicca's team the winner.

i turned my head to the side to show my obvious confusion.

"Am i missing something here?." i questioned as i took the last bite of the fish. 

"Sorry to tell you this, but our tontatta's have never seen a mink before so when we saw you after rescuing you the whole city made a bet. if you were like an actual tiger you would eat Wicca's raw fish, but if you were more human than tiger you would eat Leo's cooked fish." the elder tontatta said.

So that's why they were pushing the plates towards me.

if you look at it in a different way its actually hilarious, the cute little tontatta's wanted to solve a mystery.

i started chuckling.

"Soo who's fish did i eat?." i curiously asked knowing i ate the cooked fish.

"Wicca's fish." the elder replied with a faint smile.

what..

DID I JUST EAT RAW FISH, AND ENJOY IT?.

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Its officially been 2 weeks since i found myself on dressrosa, I've made my home on the island of green bit which is in the other half of the grand line. the tontatta tribe have been so nice to me and even made me a small home in a deep cave in the forest of green bit.

the cave is so underground that i keep finding purple crystals so i made bracelets out of then to pass the time.

i also fond lots and lots of other pretty ore's, making things helped me keep my mind of the absurdity of my situation.

i made pretty bracelets and necklaces, the further i go into my cave home the more fascinated about green bit i become. the island on the surface is covered in green tree's and multi coloured mushrooms, but down below even lower than where the tontatta's live is where all the beauty lies.

my cave home is so comfortable all tho i do have a fear of small places, this cave full of beautiful crystals was an exception.

right now in in my cave home casually making tiny bracelets for wicca and the other tontatta girls by my soft grass bed when i had a realization.

What timeline am i even in?.

This very sentence made me stop and sent a few shivers up my spine, the question itself came to me when i first realized i was in the one piece world but this time it presented itself more seriously. i quickly dropped the crystals i was turning to beads and packed them up.

"The tontatta can just steal a news paper for me, but it wont add everything up tho." i thought aloud as i got up from my make shift chair from a mushroom.

I went out of the and began my journey to tontatta village. Its not a far walk but its still a long walk. i couldn't help but think about everything i kept on pushing aside in my head. how did i got here. i dont necessarily mind that I'm here, but its still an itch i cant scratch. The truth is i don't want to know the answer, i feel at peace not questioning what happened to me and just eating raw fish and semi drinking with the tontatta's while singing songs from earth to them.

if i were a celestial dragon i would probably collect the tontatta tribe like figurines because of how soft and cute they are. Aside from that its essential to know where i am in the story. for all i know dressrosa arc can start tomorrow!.

I finally arrived at the entrance to the tontatta village, something the anime doesn't show. its full of vines and covered with protective mushrooms. I heard my stomach rumble and i looked up at the mushroom.

I took about ten of off the ground and ate then as i walked through. I'm met with thee tontatta village I've grown fond of and instinctively smiled, the sound of small tontatta children running around and water flowing is something i find very peaceful. although its not very hard to tell when someone visits the village, because of my size it's like an alarm whenever i decide to pop in.

i suddenly looked down because i felt something on my let and saw the tontatta children i've grown fond of play around me and try to grab my attention.

"Kamiko tell Jax to back off!." i hear the familiar voice of Melodie say in a sassy tone as i saw her hide behind my leg gripping my leg for dear life.

the kids of the village always treat me like an aunty, atleast that what i think.

"Jax leave Melodie alone, ill give you a bracelet if you do." i replied in a calm tone

in an instant Jax stopped and sat down looking up at me.

"I stopped so can i have it please." Jax replied with a pouty face as Melodie blew her tongue at him.

"Sure!, but can you call leo or Wicca first." i requested while eating the rest of the mushrooms.

"Of course!, see Melodie im getting on a special mission for Kamiko and you don't get any missions from her. just shows im going to become a better tontatta warrior then yo-" before he could finish his prideful sentence she punched him in the face almost making me puke out my mushroom's.

"IM GOING TO BE A TONTATTA WARRIOR BEFORE YOU CAN BLINK TWO MORE TIMES." she declared drawing the other village residents attentions and making them question what was happening, the fisty girl then turning to me as if she's asking for a mission aswell.

I forgot their this dedicated, i would just stay at home if i were them and sleep if i could instead of being a warrior.

Maybe that's why my life was so messed up, was it my fault.

"Ok then, why don't you go with him. the first one of you to bring back one of them gets two bracelets." i spoke only fueling their rivalry. A normal aunty would tell you to quit that behavior and act right, but im very bored, the curiosity I've been trying to set aside only grows bigger by the second.

I the saw a small patch of dirt fly from their direction.

' I keep forgetting their so fast, i wonder how fast i am in this new tiger mink body.' i thought as i sat down where i was standing and waited for them to get back.

Some tontatta came to me and we talked for a while. although they were just checking up on me.

Before i could wave to the elderly tontatta's leaving i hear a faint scream of the child i recognize as Melonie.

I turn to face where they're coming from and notice her dragging wicca with her.

"STOPP IT MELONIE!!." Wicca scream as they crash into my leg.

I notice wicca being dragged towards me and before i knew it they crashed face first on my leg.
painfully.

"MELONIE!." wicca held her head as she turned to her.

"I win i win, I'll be a tontatta warrior!." Melodie cheers in delight while Wicca starts fuming with anger and turns to my direction.

"WHAT. DO. YOU. WANT." she looked up and asked me sending a small shiver down my spine, how can she be so scary.

"Is it ok if i could have the latest news paper?." i questioned with a sweat dropping down my face, I'm clearly bothering her.

Why do i always do that, bothering others.

"SURE." she put on a happy and angry smile. it reminds me of Shinobu's smile from demon slayer, i never got to see the infinity castle arc.

another thing to cry about, just great.

she then turns to Melodie.

"You cant just disturb a meeting like that, your luck i am felling happier than most days, go tell Jax to stop disturbing Leo and i wont report this to your mom." she spoke in a voice clearly displaying how she was restraining her anger.

"Ok." Melonie then ran of in the direction she came.

"Kamiko, i will get the newspaper when i go with the others to get flying fish." she said with her voice calming down a notch.

"Thanks, its really important." i smiled down at her.

she was about to leave but stopped herself and turned back at me leaving me a bit confused.

"Also their someone who wants to meet you"

HUH?

"Its our general!" she said with delight but not happiness.

its Kyros isn't it, the famous toy solider.

I'm so cooked, he is not as naive as the tontatta so i have to play smart.

I'm so DONE.

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I'm currently walking to my cave house through the forest of green bit. in my hands is the latest news paper brought to me by Wicca, I need to lock in for a while and start testing out this body that was given to me.

I took a look at my feet again. i still cannot believe I'm a mink, a tiger one at that. I've been trying my best to keep a leveled head and not overthink about my situation but hearing that Kyros wanted to talk to me was a complete wake up call.

I let out a sigh and started to hurry back to my house. maybe if i was my 15 year old self i would be screaming with joy that I'm in the one piece verse but reality hit hard and as soon as i realized doflamingo could just be strolling around ad see my mink ass walking and going about my day in peace he'll definitely be tempted to kidnap me.

I soon arrived at my cave and smiled at it, i still needed to venture farther inside to get to where ill sleep for the night but its definitely my safe space, at least if thing don't go south on me.

i began my venture into the cave and found my home. it wasn't a regular cave because it was decorated in shiny crystals that even i don't know the name to, and i love the lore special crystals have!.

I have a small makeshift bed layed down for me by the tontatta, [ i love those cute doll like people!]
with a chair that is sit on to maybe write abought my journey or something. although i doo make jewelry for them, its like playing dress up!.

I plopped down on my make shift bed and stretched my limbs like my life depended on it. i then adjusted myself to the bed and opened the news paper hoping Luffy was already on his way to save me.

[You wish!-Valleyv3]

I saw a brown paper slide down the news letter and i turned my vision to it with awe.
It was a bounty poster!

It layed on my bed as i saw who it was. my face turned into one with hope, It was Luffy.
Immediately dropped the newspaper and grabbed the bounty photo to get a closer look. his signature straw hat and his smile was something i could recognize from a mile away. this same man same me from offing myself and my mental state depends on his smile to keep functioning. my heart began to beat faster than it already did, just seeing the poster made me smile with glee.

but as i looked down at the number expecting it to be in the billions. it was just 30 million.

my hope vanished like my father. WHAT.

Nah what in the actual freak, why did i get transported her pre-timeskip! I'm so very and royally screwed.

I dropped the paper to properly read the newspaper, The main topic of it was something whitebeard did but a good chunk of the paper as about how Luffy had just become the person with the highest bounty in the east blue.

"Dang" i murmured to myself and began to bite my fingers.

How the heck am i going to hold Doffy from discovering me for 2 years!. no way that's even possible. maybe i could sneak of the island somehow. but where will i go, Leo humbly informed me that i had about 400,000 berries with me along with a log pose so maybe i could get to the next town. BUT EVEN IF I COULD EXSCAPE I WOULD DEFINATLY DRAW ALOT OF ATTENSION, DANG MY LIFE SUCKS ASS RIGHT NOW!

"Maybe i could pull of the laying low plan" i spoke with an anxious voice worried about my present self and my future self.

I yawned and set aside the newspaper.

Now i need to think about a plan to deal with Kyros.

If i said i had memory loss about stuff that wasn't obvious to me Kyros would definitely think I'm lying, from what i remember Kyros is a calculative guy i cannot just pull out an explanation from the back of my head and present it on a plastic plate.

I snapped out of my thoughts and realized what i was doing. i was biting my nails again, its an old habit i developed and now its a part of me that refuses to leave. I looked at my mink nails to see the damage just to see my hand sprout out claws!

to say i was shocked would be an understatement. I Releases the tension and my nails turned back to normal. I repeated the motion of tensing and releasing my nails at will a few more times.

I eventually realized that my nails could grow back which would only make my habit worse.

I took a breath, closed my eyes and counted to ten, then i opened them.

I think its time for me to go to sleep.

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{ warning Mentions of unaliving themselves!!!}

It had been just a week since the day i saw luffy's wanted poster, I've done a lot of thinking on things that i had been pushing away. Things like how do i think my mom and brother are doing and how are they reacting to my disappearance made its way to my mind. I honestly settled on the answer of 'the woman used my disappearance to bring in pity points for my younger brother, they might have searched for me but i knew well my mom wouldn't waste a single cent on me if she had a choice, she must have used crocodile tears to get enough money for herself and my brother.'

My bullies must be rejoicing in their little group chat, saying stuff like 'The rat is finally gone' and 'I hope she's dead fr'!

It hurts to think about my life so far but its my reality. I don't consider this incident as a fresh start,  but really i consider it an escape rout. If not for one piece i would definitely be dead. That one night during the start of summer break last year was when i started to watch luffy's adventures. it captivated me and brought a bliss into my life that i never knew was their. A single piece of literature is the reason i put up with my life a little longer.

To stop myself i would say things like "Robin didn't give in" or "Nami persevered through worse just go one for one more month, maybe you'll find your Luffy."

The pure agony of waking up to another day of torture was cruel, I attempted maybe 2 times but i failed and one of those times i stopped myself.

I had absolutely nobody. Not a single soul loved or even appreciated my presence. It's not like i was isolating myself either, Its just that people got bored and decided to ruin my high school experience. I had no one to turn to for advice, no one to turn to for even the littlest of favors.

I had picked up bad habits like biting my nails and talking to myself randomly during high school, i tried to stop both thing but it kinda helped in a way especially the talking to myself part of it.

I envy everyone on luffy's crew, they found someone who took them out of the tunnel of despair and promised to look after you with their full power and love, something i long for till this day. just rewatching episodes of one piece with the crew just having fun and being themselves makes me happy and envious at the same time.

But now that I'm in their universe, in their world of bizarre things places and experiences. where do i stand. where do i belong?

I came to realize, no matter where i am. 

no matter what form i take.

I have nobody.

i guess that's why nobody by Mitski is my favorite song.

I thought as i walked quietly through the night time forest of green bit admiring the beauty of the forest as tears threatened to fall.

I'm utterly useless, a waste of space, a waste of chivp and the tontatta's time, to think they go out of their way to feed me good food everyday and all i can do is make bracelets and sings for them like some street beggar I need to find reason, a reason not to try and end again!

Just then a wave of air hit my back making my green shirt sway in the wind as i felt a few drops of water land on my face.

"MY DEAR, YOUR SADNESS IS UNBEARABLE EVEN I CAN FEEL IT" A soft but yet strong voice spoke sadly and i assume their word was to be heard by me.

My eyes widened as i turned my head away from the tree Infront of me now facing where the see line was looking unto the water. i had been lost in my mind to long that I didn't realize i wandered to the green bit sea line.

the night sky and the radiant blue sea mixed a beautiful hue in the air as i realized who was speaking.

"YOU MUST FIND MOTIVATION TO MOVE ON FROM THE PAST AND LOOK UNTO YOUR FUTURE. EVEN THOUGH YOU SEE NO LIGHT IN THE TUNNEL, IT IS SURELY THEIR." The sea consoled me and felt my sadness.

The sea is comforting

me?

I began to cry soft tears yet each drop carried heavy weight, even though i had lived for 16 years not a single breathing atom has thought of listening and understanding me for me. 

and hear i am standing with my hair flowing in the wind listening to my words i would have loved to hear before.

"YOU MUST CHANNEL YOUR SPIRIT AND TRAIN TO PERSIVIER THROUGH THIS WORLD, I WILL ALWAYS BE ROUTING FOR YOU MY DEAR."

My heart felt as if a heavy weight had been lifted the iris in my eyes shined like never before radiant with hope for a better life.

"Tha-thank you." I whimpered out with a cracking voice, overwhelmed by the emotions i was felling.

"I SHALL BE HERE, BY YOUR SIDE READY TO HELP YOU AND COMFORT YOU, KNOW YOU CAN TURN TO ME IF NOT ANYBODY ELSE." The voice spoke with sincerity as it faded away.

Thank you.