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It was a regular night. Tighnari, Cyno, and Kaveh playing TCG and getting somewhat drunk (except Tighnari, he needed to make sure both got home safe) it was a normal night, that is until Kaveh got too drunk and lost his capability to not talk about every single thought he has.

Kaveh giggles. Tighnari and Cyno look over to him, expecting Kaveh to explain what was so funny and he does.

"How funny, do you think it would be." Kaveh cuts off his own sentence to giggle again, "if I died? Just died? Y'know? I think it'll be hilarious!"

"Kaveh?" Tighnari raises his eyebrows in surprise. His and Cyno's faces warp to show their concern.

"Everyone I know would be there and it'd be so funny! Everyone would be so happy and… they'd all be laughing and having a good time!" Kaveh lets out a sad laugh, his eyes getting slightly misty, "Don't you think?"

"No, Kaveh. Nobody would laugh if you died-" Cyno tried talking.

"Then you're lying to me. Nobody likes Kaveh. Nobody should even like Kaveh. Kaveh is a horrible person. He should be better. That's why it'd be so funny. Nobody should like me."

This was getting worrying. Is this how Kaveh really felt?

"Everyone would think it's historical, honestly just think about it. I could just die and nobody would care. The funeral won't even be a funeral, it'll be a celebration! Thank god the architect in debt" 'and father killer' Kaveh quietly adds, "is finally gone! Oh, just imagine the look on Alhaitham's face. That's probably the only day you'll ever see him smile or laugh. You better cherish it!" Kaveh let a few tears slip as he drunkenly rants. Cyno reaches out to take a hand for comfort.

"Kaveh?" Cyno asks, "are…are you okay?"

"Of course I am, it's all great!" Kaveh smiles and laughs. Tighnari suddenly gets up.

"I'm… I'm gonna get Alhaitham. Cyno…"

Already knowing what was being asked of him, he nodded.

"Oh, are you gonna tell Alhaitham? Don't ruin the surprise or else he won't find it as funny!"

Kaveh never got an answer. He put his head down on the table.

"Everything's great." He whispers, his eyes slowly closing. Cyno's worried face being the last thing he sees before he falls asleep.

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When Tighnari made it to Alhaitham's house he could see the living room light was on, no doubt it was Alhaitham waiting for Kaveh to come home. He knocks on the door.

"Kaveh did you forget-" Alhaitham's sentence goes unfinished as he realizes it's not Kaveh standing there, "Tighnari?"

"Yeah, Uhm. So Kaveh said some concerning things and I think you should be keeping a close eye on him now." Tighnari says, his voice quiet.

"Kaveh is a grown man, I'm not babysitting him." Alhaitham responded.

"Alhaitham. You don't understand! He- he talked about how funny it would be if he died and he seemed so serious almost as if it was something he was thinking about for months and…" Tighnari's voice wavers at the end. Thinking about Kaveh. Being dead. Doesn't leave a good taste in his mouth. Alhaitham's face contorts into a worried expression.

"Please. Please make sure he's okay and… Try to suggest that he get therapy a few minutes after he wakes up. If he refuses, send him to me and I'll try to get him to actually think about it." Tighnari's eyes are starting to water.

"...I understand." Alhaitham goes back in.

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When Cyno carries Kaveh back to Alhaitham's house he knocks. Alhaitham doesn't even ask, he opens the door, grabs Kaveh and leaves.

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Cyno only hopes that everything will go well tomorrow.

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Alhaitham silently waits for Kaveh to wait up. He has been thinking about what he was going to say when he woke up for at least a couple hours… Kaveh would probably be hungry when he wakes up and thirsty. While he waits Alhaitham tasked himself with making soup, one of Kaveh's favorite meals and water (along with some pain killers for his impending headache) Alhaitham stood in the kitchen, bringing out a recipe book Kaveh kept. It has all his favorite soup. Although before he could even try to prepare he heard a little thump. Was Kaveh awake? Already?

Alhaitham quickly grabbed a cup of water, some pain reliever and walked towards his room.

"Kaveh?" Alhaitham said as he came in. Kaveh sat there in his bed.

"Mmmm. Haitham?"

Alhaitham gives Kaveh the drink and a pill. Kaveh mumbles a quick thank you before gulping the pill down. As he tried to get up Alhaitham sat him back down.

"Kaveh…" Alhaitham says, "we… need to talk."

"About?" Kaveh asked, looking up at him.

"Are you planning on dying?"

Kaveh's eyes widened before looking anywhere else at Alhaitham.

"So you have."

The silence confirms everything.

"I'm not gonna ask why but Kaveh." Alhaitham took a deep breath, "get therapy, please"

When Kaveh didn't respond, Alhaitham forced Kaveh to look up at him.

"Please, Kaveh. Nobody wants you dead and…"

Alhaitham watches as Kaveh's eyes started tearing up.

"I'm so sorry if I ever made you feel like you aren't trying you're hardest...Tighnari was so worried. I don't…. Nobody wants you to die."

"No." Kaveh whimpers, "I don't want help"

"Why?" Alhaitham asked.

"I'm.. I'm scared." Kaveh replied, trying to look away again.

"It's… it's alright to be scared. But me, Tighnari, and Cyno will be here to help you when it gets too much just please give it a try?"

Kaveh slowly nods. Alhaitham let's out a sigh of relief.

"I'm taking a day off today. You should too. Why don't we spend some time together?" Alhaitham offered to take Kaveh to a restaurant. Kaveh denied, saying he felt too tired and wished to go back to sleep. As Kaveh's eyes slowly fell Alhaitham sat next to him with him hand over Kaveh's.