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The title 在开满鲜花的花园里 Is translation to a flowery garden and is shen Jiu's ability

I honestly think shen jiu whould have been a writer so I made this crossover or svsss/pidw and bsd

I will update the tags and the summary when I upload the prologue

Please don't read this if you can't handle a lot of violence, getting limbs torn off in detail, eyes getting stabbed out in detail,male/male, woman/woman, male/woman

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一個開滿梅花的花園

a garden full of plum blossom

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Cleaning the head of my brush on the inkstone placed,

Every blossomed flower bears pale dark ink.

No praise is needed for the blossoms’ plum shades,

Across the universe their sweet scent pervades.

From a Selection of Ancient Chinese Poems by, Tien Chen
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Shen jiu always wondered if the world was worth living in after all for a slave such as him what else would he think after all if the world turns it's back turn your back on it before you can be betrayed by god once again.

God what a silly thing that many believed in but will not help a lonely mortal if they do not help them gain powers after all they were ones human to they will never stop the pain if it gives them nothing.

Even if a lowly slave boy such as him believed in god it never helped him after all what can a slave give a god.

The god that could ever help a slave that was him must have been despite if they would stoup so low to ever help him.

And god never did help him.

He helped himself he picked up the off-cuts that he dropped and formed and polished them to make the flawless mask that never broke that even the gods would be oh so envious of that unblemished mask of his that did not break.

Not when they accused him of that brute's death when they could not even tell what a qi deviation looked like not even the so called lord of the healing peak could tell that something was wrong.

Or how wrong they were about the fool honestly they where all fools they wanted to get rid of the strategy of the hole set how would it run without him let me tell you that it would not run with him out of the sect after all they were all utter fools that will never run a sect after all everyone were such morons.

Or how his sister banned him for a peak of gossip harpies that don't even know how to do anything but gossip, they had no common sense see the fools sister for an example of how that cripples the mind.

Shen Jiu honestly did not know how the people thought of him as a pervert or that he likes woman better he use to honestly but after that brat and his many whores he has grown to hate all of humanity for what they did.

Of how qi-ge left him to fight in a den of wolves when he could not even pick up a knife.

How qiu jingluo abused him for years when he was a lowly slave that beveled that god would care about a slave such as him.

How the one that he was almost marred to was a fool not unlike his siblings, none should be that blind to the world, he was right those that she was not as blind as she appeared after all just a few days and Shen Jiu figured out that sorry excuse of a mask it only took him that much time because he has only seen her once in the days he was there.

Then that monster qiu jingluo forced him to marry his sister, after all why would you get rid of your sister who would need to marry a scum and your favorite toy why not kill two birds with one stone after all.

oh how clue was his past fiancé was how none note her mask of innocence was beyond him, actley it was not that surprising with these idiots that make up this world if only they did not have wars and conflicts thin the world could have advanced more then any would have guessed.

And how foolish everyone was that it seemed that they all shared one brain that can hardly be called a brain with how bad it worked.

But shen jiu always wondered how the world did not crumble with these fools aretey, after all it will be a few years to the world self destructs thanks to that brat after all who thought it was a good idea to put two mortal enemies together forever but shen jiu was glad that humans would no longer exist and he was also happy that no life will live on in this world.

Oh how he very despised every one who wanted to keep on living when only pain was ahead if you where not the perfect human and not one was that lucky to be born with that much kindness.

Everyone had flaws even him no mater how hard he tried to hide it, even qi-ge who was one of the closest to being perfect but he and none can after all what is perfect all but a unachievable prize that everyone wants.

But that none will ever have.

After all everyone has different views of perfect and if you put it all together it will never happen.

After all he had a perfect mask but he was not truly perfect after all.

Even take that beast for an example no matter how much he pretend he in perfect and that shen jiu is a pervert and puts the blame on a lowly slave such as shen jiu at the end of the day he was the one with about three hundred wives that the beast forgot the names of, yet those wives act like they are perfect just for there looks when they are really just hideous under all that make up.

Or with his siblings who blamed him for anything that he did no matter how small such as that one time he tried to save his brother but they thought that he turned on him when he did no such devices of thought.

What he soon learned from the world was that no matter what you give you will never be given what you truly deserve beyond everything none will give what you need want but not need, not the truth, or even some food, or shelter, but useless stuff such as enjoyment, fun and such that are not needed for life.

Everyone in the world believed that they did no wrong after all would you kill a elder to save ten young lives, no matter what you chose you still did bad no mater what you think.

Shen jiu honestly hated naïve children that cry over a broken toy, no wonder everything all but god thought that he abused his brats, but they never considered that he would never do that to a child no matter how much he hated them after all he did not want to be like his former master that he could not show any weakness to if he did not want the pain to increase ten fold.

Oh how foolish everyone was not one ever saw the whole picture that would have them feel such gilt that they will never see daylight ever again for bringing so much shame to them selves that will never get rid of no matter how hard they try.

Honestly shen jiu would not be ageist killing the whole sect even if he had to kill the love of his life if he would be free from the blame and scorn of it all.

But now when he was out but not free, not now not ever would he be free for his mistake of deciding to make that beast his discipline after all the scorn he brought shen jiu for a simpletons mistake how that bastard disastrous his one taste of freedom after so many years of want.

His freedom that was taken away like how birds lose there wings, such is fate for it to happen after oh so many days of dark bliss while acid bleeds through the wall made him relisrs that life had no meaning all but to put it to a close.

No mater how you will try to convince shen jiu that life was worth living when it is all just a lie that a fool would say to make themselves feel like they tried to make the broken whole when nothing has never worked before.

How very odd that many believed that god will care for them if they only cared about themselves even if shen jiu did not believe that god would ever help him that dose not make him a non-believer shen jiu himself believed in god but not that god was kind and never did wrong no, no, no shen jiu believed that god themselves were bloodthirsty such as shen jiu.

Shen Jiu's only happiness in his sad existence was god, and fire, you may be wondering why god and fire oh because even if god was not helping him and he had to do everything for himself god was still watching over him and asking for blood, or was it just the voices that he hears every day of his life.

They would ask for blood, death, but most importantly fire oh how beautiful fire was it was his saving grace fire was when he was so cold that he would need the warmth of an outside source when he cant even afford a simple blanket.

How qiu jingluo would like to see his favorite toy on the ground shivering from the cold clinging onto him so the little slave would not die how it was one of the coldest nights ever in the kingdom the slave was born into how his master made him strip of his cloths and his cruel master forced him on his lap and made him hug him for warmth while he almost died.

If only he could relive that day to hear his masters screams as he immobilized him using a sharp piece of metal that he had hide between two of his toes and stabbed his disgusting hide.

Or how he made fire in that wooden shelter after he stole his master robe after all in that weather a rag would not do good.

Oh how sad was his life if none belied him how this life would came to an end sooner than you can blink how life itself was just a flicker in the eyes of many.

How many decided that life was was worth it was always beyond him, how in the eyes of many that screams that can't be herd there was no sadness the very life of many eluded him how they could be so cheerful while the screams of many rang out in the coffin of sadness that none could ever leave no matter how hard they tried.

There emotions that always eluded shen jiu even when he was a peak lord chained to the emotion of the children that was always louder than any full grown monster that he ever had the displeasure of ever meeting, though there screams that was only grown in hostile living where way more quite than any could have expected.

Those voices of his childhood where burned into his mind never to be erased, but added on to was an entire different story then was told to him, most would say that you only have a certain amount until you break.

This may or may not be true, after all shen jiu did not know when he broke but he knew that he did, after all how can the unbroken have an unbreakable mask, or how one did not scream while there arms where torn of and how you could hear that sickening noise around you for hours because of those walls that kept him trapped.

How he asked himself everyday do I fell nothing not even repulson when all of this happened to shen jiu he still felt nothing not a glimpse of hope for him in his dark life filled only with sadness and sorrow.

Or how he will never see out of one of his eyes ever again he felt something, at that moment, how he felt something that was not fake or part of his mask but rather a bubble filling of he thinks joy, but what has shen jiu to be joyful about when all of his life is just sadness.

Shen jiu thinks he went insane after years of trauma, how long did he really think he will last.

When he died after an amount of time that shen jiu himself did not know, he died while killing himself at lest it was not something else that killed him, but himself while holding onto the last piece of his lover who has died trying to save him.

But all good things must come to an end when suddenly he heard voices in another language that he did not understand.

Why was could he not see anything but can hear talking in that language that he did not understand with his body feeling the lightest that it ever was.

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Person between fourth month fragrant fragrant end
Mountain temple peach blossom begin bloom out
Great regret spring go not find trace
Not know change over this here come

Across the world this June, the petals have all fallen,
But the mountain temple's peach blossom has just begun to bloom.
I regretted so much that spring had gone without a trace,
I didn't know that it had only moved up here.

Peach Blossom at Dalin Temple
Bai Juyi

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He oh so wondered what this feeling was and why it felt like he was swimming when he only remembered the acidic taste of the water prison that never was like this.

When these people were speaking in an unknown language of this strange place they definitely were not from the voices, after all they never spoke like this.

It was a strangely charming language and it appeared that it was a language that seemed to rolled of the tongue after a while that seemed far to long for the peak lord that seemed like forever for the ex slave.

Oh how disappointing this was, he did not know what was happening but he did not like it or how he randomly was in this place which looked like nothing really he could not see anything after all if his predictions were right he would be a newborn after all he just died.

He probably should not be happy about dying after all who would when he decided that life was meaningless after all he did commit suidside not the ideal death, for him at least but it was not by his discipline's hand.

Hm how curious he wondered why his mother in this life was crying, oh that was a joy how neither of his mothers would want him, ha why did he care actually he did not care.

Shen jiu just thought that it was funny after all he was not wanted in any of his life's after all who would like a disappointing son such as him, oh yea he was not just disappointing he was also a insane maniac who found their own, and others suffering funny.

No wonder none would want him; he was just an insane child now, and oh how he hated children.

Shen jiu did not know what his mother was saying in that language of hers but he did not care, after all why should he care for someone who abandoned him for the streets just like his other mother that shen jiu never got to see.

“bye my lovely ---- ---- I'm so very sorry that I have to leave you but they will find me if I keep you” his mother said in deceitful language that was like a group of poison flowers.

How she said that in that voice that sounded so very human, how they were apparently related he would never know, how someone so human was related to someone such as him where he did nothing but lie about his own humanity, yet this lady was so good at lying about caring about him.

After all, who would care about him, when even he did not care about himself, hell he killed himself so why was this lady that he could not even understand was pretending that she cared about him.

After all, humanity was filled with fools, and disgusting human beings where they will do anything to get to a higher position. He should know he was also human.

Ha, his new mother seemed to care for him but having to give him up at least one human cared for him when even he didn't care for himself, even if it will not last long at least it will be there in his memory.

That was another curious thing he discovered how different his mind worked compared to everyone else, how it worked was such a curious thing.

Like how it never seemed to forget anything, no matter how hard he tried, where it seemed like a cure in the long run.

After all he could not forget what his discipline did to him, but there was also a blessing in his cures after all he did not forget a thing.

After all that was how he learned to write so very fast even if he had never picked up a brush before that.

It was all a mystery for him, after all he was sure that many humans did not hear voices, even if he did not like to call himself human he still was.

His mother that cared but had to give him up when he could see again was... and wait oh that made sense he could only see out of one of his eyes, it was not unexpected that he would be born without his eye.

wait no he had his eye but it was blind, he wondered why he could not see out of his eye but everything else seemed to work.

But continuing with his earlier conduction, but his mother seemed to be a very pretty woman, she had black hair that almost seemed purple. It was like the sky at midnight, where it seemed naturally straight.

She had the kindest eyes he had ever seen. They were not like Qi-ge's eyes that were so false, this woman's eyes looked a lot like his, all but very different for the lie of his being kind.

The woman's eyes were like emeralds that would never lose their kindness, which shen jiu could never achieve.

How one should ever be so kind, yet had such a sad life that none would think from such kind eyes.

After all, the kindest would always have the saddest life no matter the universe, time, or even the place they will always get the short stick no matter what.

His mother who did not want to abandon him had to not for her sake but for his, none actley cared for him before, it felt so strange someone loving him not for show or anything of the sort, it felt like a warm fire that helps you from dying.

Oh how he loved fire it was always there, and you can create it in many ways and how very beautiful fire was and how it seemed like it was kissing your skin to make all the pain go away.

It was kinda sad that shen jiu never died of the one thing that he loved, well fire was not the only thing after all plants were good to.

They can't talk or speak to you and just are there trying to survive, and they did because of how beautiful they look, like the gods decided to brag.

But what they were really bragging about was plum blossoms, or bamboo even if it was not done out of necessity they will always be the most beautiful plants

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I am so sorry that I have not posted in so long and I still need some time just having time to relax and calm down from the stuff that is happening in my life.

Like for one my best friend who I knew since 4th grade drank bleach and barely survived.

Next is that I was so sick that I could barely get out of bed, hell I even COUGHED UP BLOOD...

And then I had additions for a musical.

And finally I had this awful wrighters block.

So I am so very sorry that I have and will not write for a while I just need some time to cool down from all that is happening in my life, so just saying that this story is not done and I will try to get a chapter posted soon like next week if I can if nothing worse happens to me so it might be even longer than a week to get this posted sorry again.