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when jisung was 9 he noticed all of his classmates getting into puppy love relationships. they were asking each other out and giving each other snacks during snack break. it made jisung jealous.

when jisung turned 15 a new boy moved in next door and every girl was after him at school. even boys. he got ask out a lot and jisung mostly witness it. it made jisung embarrassed for his neighbor.

but who knew that neighbor would end up being the first boy jisung ever fall in love with. who knew that boy would bring pain but love into young dumb jisung’s life.

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“oh please he’s not that good looking” a honey like voice cracks out while flipping through a magazine that they totally didn’t steal from the school library.

“shut up donghyuck! ignore him jisung” renjun angrily said then turned back to his tall like friend who was sulking at hyuck’s comment.

jaemin rolled his eyes and sat up from where he was sitting on jisung’s bed room floor. “look jisung coming from experience” renjun cackled but received a glare from jaemin.

“as I was saying. jeno was always like that and it’s sad to see he hasn’t changed one bit. asshole” jaemin mumbled the last bit causing renjun to cackle even louder.

wanna know what the besties are talking about? jisung and jeno agreed to hang out before summer was over which was suppose to be today but jeno cancelled.

last minutes which made poor jisung upset. so he’s currently sulking in his room while his three older friends try to comfort him.

jaemin sighed patting the tall boy’s arm then got up from his spot. “I’m gonna head off home feel better sung let us know if he does anything k?” jisung nodded and one by one his friends left.

he sat on his bed humming calmly to himself. his head shifted to what donghyuck said earlier and it kind of stuck with him.

“it’s your junior year sung. don’t worry about some senior guy who’s probably applying to a college that’s far from here. but maybe things will change between you guys”

jeno and jisung. didn’t have a thing going on but jeno knew jisung had feelings for him. it came out his sophomore year that the awkward freshmen next door had a crush on him.

jisung doesn’t know jeno knows but let’s ignore that. they became friends because mark who was a senior when jeno was a junior introduced them to each other.

the rest was history.

jisung pulled his covers over his head and closed his eyes. tomorrow is a new day and it’s gonna be his first day of school.

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jeno stepped into sm high. the school he’s been going to since he was 16. how gross but he pulls through. he smiled at the early risers.

he grabbed his schedule and headed off to meet up with his friends who were already waiting for him by the lockers.

mornings like this is what gets jeno to start his day. meeting his friends laughing with them and enjoying the fresh morning air.

what he wasn’t ready for was.

“holy shit is that park jisung?” one of his friends spoke causing jeno to whip his head towards where most of his friends were looking at.

in came in park jisung, his neighbor. wearing ripped blue jeans with a soft pink sweater. he had newly purple hair and he almost looked less awkward.

he was smiling at what chenle was saying and he looked gorgeous. jeno couldn’t keep his eyes off of the young boy and his friends noticed.

“he’s pretty cute” the same friend that notice jisung said. the group agreed even jeno.

the bell rang and jeno waved off at his friends telling them a lame excuse but he just wanted to go say hi to jisung.

he waited for chenle to leave jisung alone and jeno walked right up next to him.

“hi” jeno shyly spoke causing jisung to jump

the purple haired boy closed his locker and gave the boy a smile. “hi jeno”

jeno felt awkward standing in front of a whole new jisung “I like your hair” he mumbled causing the tall boy to blush darkly.

“thank you” jisung replied. the young boy was about to make a turn to leave but jeno spoke up.

“uh sorry about canceling I got busy but I wanna make it up to you. arcade after school?” jeno asked

jisung let out a surprise oh but nodded. jeno smiled

“see you then” jeno waved and walked off to his first class of the day.

jisung stood there star stuck. arcade with his long time crush? hope he doesn’t cancel. again.

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jeno lived in busan most of his life. he lived with both parents and life was going well. until at the age 16 he was sat down in front of his parents.

“jeno love, we’re getting a divorce” his mother softly spoke. young jeno felt his world fall apart. his parents been together since they were teenagers. and now they’re separating after many years.

he assumed his parents would divorce and he would spend time with them whenever they could but his mother packed all their bags and moved to seoul.

him and his mother moved into a small house with two bed rooms. and a cute boy living next door. jeno saw jisung sitting in front of the yard he was playing with his dog.

jisungs dog was running around and the young boy was trying to catch the dog. the young boy looked like a baby but he was actually a year younger than jeno.

jisung at first didn’t notice the handsome awkward teenager standing by the door looking at him. but when he looked up he saw him.

jeno was standing there and he gave the boy a smile that reached his eyes. jisung awkwardly smiled back and from there. jisung knew he just fell for a boy he didn’t even know.

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freshman year, sm high. jisung was a nervous wreck. he already knew his way around thanks to the tour guide. but he was terrified. what would happen if he ended up in the wrong classroom.

he hoped that didn’t happen. he was too busy looking down at a piece of paper that had his classes to even notice that a guy was speeding towards him.

next thing they bumped into each other causing jisung to let out a loud squeal. he was afraid he was gonna fall but something grabbed his arm well more like a boy grabbed his arm.

“oh my god I’m sorry” the boy quickly said jisung couldn’t register what the boy said

“no no it’s okay” it finally hit jisung that the other was apologizing but also isn’t that his new neighbor?

“oh good I’m sorry again a- woah aren’t you my neighbor?” the black haired boy asked

jisung nodded with a shy smile “y-yes im jisung” before the young boy could regret introducing himself the black haired boy replied “sweet. I’m jeno”

and he knew his name. jeno waved and quickly walked down the hall leaving jisung there a little star struck.

he let out a sigh. let’s hope freshman year isn’t that bad.

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it was five months into jisung’s freshmen year when he realized he had a somewhat tiny crush on jeno the basketball player.

in those five months he only saw jeno a few times and he made some friends who were in the same grade as jeno. but chenle was the same grade as jisung and they got along very well.

currently jisung was sitting on a bench watching the basketball team practice. he was dragged by his friends to watch the practice so he’s here.

“he throws the ball like a weenie” he heard donghyuck said

renjun rolled his eyes “and you can throw?” he asked the red haired boy who glared at the small male.

chenle sighed out of boredom and tapped jisung’s knee “jisung I see you staring at jeno for a little too long” he said with a teasing tone in his voice.

at the time jeno was in a relationship with jaemin who donghyuck and renjun were friends with. jisung knew of jaemin’s existence but he couldn’t help but have a tiny crush on the older’s boyfriend.

“oh please he’s my neighbor I see him everyday” donghyuck looked at jisung with a deadpan look.

jisung rolled his eyes and sighed “okay maybe I have a crush on him” donghyuck laughed so loudly and accidentally said too loudly “you have a crush on jeno!”

causing chenle to tackle donghyuck yelling at him to shut up. the basketball team that finished practice was watching chenle on top of donghyuck while renjun covered his face with a notebook and jisung was trying to pull chenle off of the red haired boy that was screaming.

from afar it looked pretty funny and jaemin watched the group of friends. he giggled when he saw renjun jump on top of chenle yelling at him in chinese.

the pink haired boy understood a few words and it was like “you’re embarrassing us chenle!”

jaemin did hear what donghyuck said and it did cause his heart to drop a little but he knew jeno wouldn’t leave him.

probably.

jeno heard as well he looked a little shocked well really shocked because the friend group was tackling each other it was kind of funny.

he shook his head and headed off to the locker room where the rest of the team teased him about jisung. it’s not like jeno has a crush on the young boy. he has jaemin.

for now.

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it was now jisung sophomore year. chenle ran down the cafeteria and went straight to his friend’s lunch table. he was breathing heavily from running but he caught his breath.

his friends were looking at him like he was crazy and chenle ignored the looks. he banged on the table with his hands “guess what!”

“whaaat” jisung asked

chenle squealed so loudly causing others to look at him which the dolphin boy ignored. “mark asked me out!”

jisung eyes widened. he didn’t even know his best friend was talking to the senior boy. he’s currently walking towards their table with jeno beside him.

chenle turned around and waved his new boyfriend over. donghyuck and renjun looked at each other in panic. they kind of found out jeno knew about jisung’s crush.

“hi mark!” chenle excitedly said and mark pecked the dolphin’s cheek.

“hi lele. and lele’s friends” the friends waved well jisung didn’t he shyly looked down at his gross cafeteria food.

then mark introduced himself to the table and jeno as well. jisung awkwardly smiled at jeno as he sat down across from him.

it wasn’t awkward but jisung is a awkward soul and he was bad at conversations. from that day that chenle and mark started dating. their friend groups mixed up each other.

including jaemin joined the mixed up friend group. jisung became friends with both jaemin and jeno. of course he did feel a bit uncomfortable to be friends with someone who’s boyfriend you have a crush on.

but they won’t last. for long

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jaemin grew close with chenle’s friend group and even grew a soft spot for jisung. he always treated him like a son to him and that was enough for him to not worry that jeno would leave him for jisung.

the friend group knew how much jaemin loved jeno so it was a surprise when jaemin walked into the cafeteria with smug black mascara around his eyes and tears running down his cheeks.

the pink haired boy sat down at the lunch table and cried. donghyuck and renjun quickly got up moving next to the crying boy. comforting him and asking him what happened.

between the tears jaemin shakily said “j-jeno broke up with me” and that statement caused jisung’s eyes to widen looking at chenle who was also looking at mark in confusion who only shrugged.

why did jeno end things with jaemin? they were attach to each other like cats. so what happened there?

jisung quickly got up from his seat and grabbed his stuff saying a farewell to his friends. overtime jisung knew where jeno would be when he was upset.

they became friends and jisung started to know more about the boy. so jisung wasn’t surprise to see jeno in the gym throwing a basketball into the hoop.

“Lee!” jisung yelled causing the black haired boy to miss a shot and grumbled under his breath.

“what is it park” jisung rolled his eyes at the boy’s rude tone

“why did you break up with jaemin?” he quietly asked they were the only ones in the gym and jeno could hear him clearly.

jeno stopped playing with the ball and sighed. “personal reasons”

“and did you tell him that?” jeno looked at his friend and looked back at his ball throwing it into the hoop.

jisung scoffed walking away “boys these days” he mumbled which jeno of course heard but the boy choose to ignore it.

yeah boys these days.

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two weeks after the nomin couple broke up. jisung crush for jeno came back up on the surface and it was throwing jisung off.

jeno was coming over more often and even playing video games with the young boy. whenever the topic of jaemin came up he would change the topic.

it was like jeno didn’t wanted to admit the real reason why he left jaemin. and jisung didn’t wanted to know. he gave up wanting to know. it wasn’t his business anyway.

jisung was playing video games with jeno next to him. they were laughing and yelled at each other about the game on the screen. it was pretty fun.

it was difficult to beat jeno in any game but jisung tried his best. they paused the game and jisung sat up more better.

“I know you don’t want to talk about it but are you alright since you know” jisung asked and jeno gave him a look then looked back at the tv screen.

“I’m fine stop worrying” jeno replied

“I can’t help it you’re my friend. jaemin is also my friend and well jaemin seems to be doing worst than you” jeno sighed at the statement and turned off the game causing jisung to let out a hey.

“look jisung. i liked jaemin a lot but” he paused and played with his rings then let out a sharp sigh. “but I couldn’t bring myself to love him”

those words shook jisung to the core. he didn’t know jeno didn’t love jaemin. he assumed in every relationship the couple loves each other.

“but why?” jisung quietly asked. jeno looked back at the young boy he had a soft look on his face and it kind of made jisung nervous.

“my parents got divorced this year. they were together since well my age i am right now. I always believed i would feel the love my parents felt for each other for someone else. but when I saw my parents sign the divorce papers and walk away from each other. I don’t know if I can love someone.”

“they crushed that for me and i couldn’t bring myself to love jaemin the way he loved me”

jisung didn’t know what to say but he leaned closer to the boy and hugged him tightly. jeno hugged back and jisung felt the older let out a few tears on his shoulder.

they shared a moment that night.

jisung knew jeno wouldn’t love him.

but he’ll try.

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first day of junior year was finally over. jisung felt like the day went on for too long. he was ready to go home but he was reminded about jeno wanting to take him to the arcade.

he shuffled out of the last class with chenle behind complaining about the teacher of his Spanish class. jisung rolled his eyes ignoring his loud friend.

“get this he even has a unicorn on top of his tv is he crazy? or am i crazy??” jisung nodded

chenle screeched “so you’re agreeing??” jisung sighed opening the door to make it to the front of the school where students were getting rides or walking to the buses.

jisung tried to look around to spot jeno but chenle let out another loud screech pulling on jisung’s arm. the tall boy yelped as he got pulled by the dolphin boy.

towards mark’s car? wait mark?

“mark?” jisung question and yep it was. the newly graduated high school boy. he was standing by his car.

“mark i didn’t know you were coming to get me” chenle said and jumped into the boy’s arms. jisung smiled. his eyes held jealously for his friend and his boyfriend.

oh how he wished someone would hug him like that.

“aye mark!” speaking of someone jisung wants to be hugged by.

“oh what’s up jeno” mark does a handshake with jeno while chenle giggles. then the rest of their friends join them.

donghyuck jumped onto jisung’s back causing the tall boy to scream at him to get off causing the friends to laugh.

“I’m gonna kill you!” jisung yells and donghyuck only cackled. after a war of fighting donghyuck was off the back and was chatting with jaemin who totally wasn’t avoiding jeno.

jeno was standing next to mark asking him about college classes and chenle was hanging off mark. pretty happy that his boyfriend was here.

mark went to a college that was about two hours away from seoul. at first mark didn’t wanted to leave the town he grew up in and got with the love of his life. (is crying)

but he did what he thought was best for his future career. and it was the best decision.

enough of that. mark looked up at the sky that was building up dark clouds. “let me take you home lele it looks like it’s gonna rain”

chenle pouted nodding. the friends said goodbye to mark and the couple was off. jeno nodded at jisung and the tall boy understood.

“well I’m gonna go” jisung mumbled causing donghyuck and jaemin to look at him suspiciously

“you always stay with us to wait for renjun’s slow ass” donghyuck faked pouted

“I heard that!” renjun yelled from behind donghyuck who yelled oopsies. jaemin laughed watching renjun choke hold haechan whos yelling for help.

“well good luck with that” jisung said and walked off with jeno right behind him. jaemin watched them walk away with confusion in his eyes. since when do they hang out? he thought.

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jeno and jisung were walking side by side. enjoying the somewhat windy weather. it looked like it was gonna rain but the pair didn’t bother to notice.

“so when do you start basketball?” jisung question the black haired boy who hummed at the question “I don’t know yet the coach hasn’t send out a message about it”

jisung hummed and it was silence between them but then he felt a rain drop fall on his head then in came so many rain drops.

jisung squealed trying to cover himself with his backpack. jeno cursed to himself as he took off his jacket putting it over both of them.

they tried to quickly run to the other side of the street where the arcade was located but the rain was falling hard and fast.

“jeno let’s run!” the black haired boy looked at the purple haired hamster shaking his head quickly “no! you’ll get wet”

jisung huffed removing the jacket and ran down the street he was laughing. jeno looked at the boy like he was crazy but joined him.

people who were hiding by shops were watching them run around in the rain. they almost looked like a couple.

jisung was laughing ignoring that his backpack was getting completely soaked. jeno got closer to the boy and tightly hugged him causing jisung to yell.

“no jeno!!” he squealed but it only caused jeno to lift him up twirling him around. jisung laughed loudly and jeno joined.

just two dumb boys. playing in the rain and forgetting they planned to go to the arcade.

from afar there stood jaemin with umbrella watching the two friends laughing and pushing each other around. jaemin sighed knowing what’s gonna happen.

jeno is falling and will hurt jisung in the process.

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jisung ran down his street with jeno running after him yelling that’s he’s gonna get him. jisung pushed jeno into mud and well jeno did not like that.

jeno caught jisung and the boy was yelling to be let go. what they didn’t know was jisung’s mother was standing outside with a umbrella beside her.

“boys!” she called causing jeno to drop jisung who safety landed on the ground. “jisung you’re gonna get sick get inside and shower now!” the old woman yelled in a not so angry tone.

jisung blushed in embarrassment he waved at jeno and walked to his mother who took his wet backpack setting down by the doormat.

jeno waved at jisung and his mother then walked inside his house with a smile on his face.

that was fun. jisung made him smile today.

the rain started up again and it looked nice. jeno looked out his window and sighed. is he falling? hope not.

jisung stepped out his room in warm pajamas and fuzzy socks. he was drying his hair when his mom walked into his room setting down a bowl of warm soup on his desk.

“eat up i will be doing a double shift so I won’t be home tonight” his mother calmly said. jisung nodded putting down the towel.

“thank you mom hope it goes well” his mother looked at with a teasing look causing jisung to cry out “stop mother!”

“oh what! you like that boy don’t you?” jisung blushed causing his mom to laugh squishing his cheeks.

“that face tells me what I want to know.” the boy whined. his mother laughed and pecked her son’s cheek.

“ok ok I’m gonna go. rest up and you better be up for school tomorrow or I’ll whip your butt” jisung nodded completely ignoring his mother’s threat.

his mother left for work and he ate his soup. he started playing video games and paused to think about what happened.

jeno and him shared a moment where they stared at each other with rain falling down on them. it almost felt like the scene from notebook.

jisung quickly looked away pushing jeno into mud to ignore the quick beating of his heart.

he couldn’t help but remember the year jaemin was crying over the boy he always had a crush on.

he doesn’t want to get hurt. but no one can’t help who they fall for.

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It was a Friday autumn school day. the wind was swooping in and the students were dismissing for the day.

the friend group that had donghyuck, renjun, jaemin, and jisung. chenle left early to go see mark.

“why do I have to go?” jisung pouted causing renjun to roll his eyes. “someone has to be sober and its not gonna be me”

the boys laughed at renjun’s statement. “plus jisung you need to find someone it’s junior year baby!” donghyuck excitedly yelled causing jisung to groan.

jisung shot a text to his mother that he’ll be spending the night at donghyucks and will be at a party. which his mother replied with ‘stay safe & no unwanted pregnancy’

gross he’s a boy. but this is a fanfic and your author wouldn’t do that to you.

“okay I’ll go” the friends cheered loudly and jisung just tried his best to ignore them.

first high school party? what could go wrong?

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a lot of things went wrong and people didn’t know how to act about that.

jisung was standing in donghyuck’s living room with pink glitter on his eyelids, black ripped jeans, and a band tee that he didn’t know of.

he already wanted to rip his eyes off but he tried not to poke it because donghyuck threaten to unalive him like 20 times.

donghyuck was on the phone with chenle who was screaming about his first time with mark and jisung cringed.

“yes I know lele now I’m hanging up”

“NO! okay goodbye babe” donghyuck finally hung up rolling his eyes

“our baby angel is not a angel anymore” jisung made a disgusted face “or a baby anymore” donghyuck laughed walking off to put his shoes on.

the friends were ready. jaemin was waiting outside in his car with renjun in the front who was yelling at jaemin to stop driving forward.

“STOP IM GONNA DIE BECAUSE OF YOU” jaemin cackled. donghyuck and jisung hopped into the back.

“now let’s not die tonight we gotta see jisung drunk” jisung looked at donghyuck like he was crazy who ignored the look.

“I’m underage”

“so is my mom” renjun said and everyone groaned at the horrible joke

“NOT FUNNY” donghyuck yelled over the ariana grande music.

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the party was in full swing when the group arrived. there was already red cups thrown on the yard and a girl was puking into the bushes.

poor girl.

jisung cringed at the noise and looked around. he spotted a few familiar people even saw a bookworm on the stairs reading a book.

that totally wasn’t the author. ignore her.

jaemin stood by jisung’s side as the other two friends went to get drinks. jaemin was moving his head side to side to a random song that was blasting.

the party was hosted by the one and only bang chan. a senior who was pretty attractive. a lot of people were coming in and out of the huge house.

so jisung couldn’t keep up who was here. his mind went to jeno and if he was here. probably but who knows.

he pushed jeno away from his mind and accepted a drink that renjun handed to him. it was spirte mixed with some sort of alcohol that made jisung spin just a little.

the four started to dance to the music well more like jisung was moving side to side to look like he was actually dancing.

the young boy was actually having fun he was laughing at his friend’s jokes. even meeting new people and by late night jisung was friends with bang chan.

which was weird since jisung never seen the boy at school but maybe he’ll see him more now that they’re friends.

jisung wasn’t really drunk he had like one cup and said enough. he walked away from his group to go find the bathroom but paused in his steps.

in the corner by the kitchen there stood jeno with a arm around a unfamiliar girl. he was smiling as the girl was telling him probably something funny.

around them was some of jeno’s friends. they all had red cups and looked like they were having fun.

jisung was gonna walk away but then he saw jeno lean closer to the girl and kissed her. the group around him didn’t seem to care and it was like they knew who the girl was.

jisung felt his heart drop to his stomach if that was humanly possible. he watched as jeno pulled away and looked towards his way.

jisung frowned and turned around quickly running through the crowd. he made it outside where no one stood. he pulled his phone out and typed in the number that first came to mind.

“jisung?” the other line called out

“hyung. please come get me”

the other line went silent for a second but the other understood the tone of jisung.

“send your location I’ll be there”

once the young boy hang up. he send the location to the person and sat by the mail box. waiting for the familiar white car to pull up.

he felt bad for making the person to drive out in the middle of the night but he just needed to get out before he got his heart broken even more.

the familiar car pulled up next to him. jisung sat up dusting off the dirt off his bottom. the person rolled the window down.

“hop in” the person said

jisung opened the door and hopped in. “do you want to talk about it?”

the young boy shook his head “just take me home hyung”

“alrighty”

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jisung woke up the next day in a warm bed that smelled like honey and flowers. it reminded him of his mother.

he was half asleep to even notice that there was two people talking. he sat up rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.

the young boy walked out of his room and saw his mother. with his hyung in the kitchen talking.

his mother turned and looked at him. “morning sunshine” his hyung turned around and smiled.

“hi sung” jisung smiled back and sat down next to the other boy.

“jisung you shouldn’t got your brother to drive all the way here to pick you up” jisung blushed in embarrassment

the older boy shook his head at their mother “mom it’s fine i knew you were working late at the night to go pick him up. plus I’m overdue for a trip to my homeland”

jisung smiled “thank you hyung”

“anytime kiddo.”

their mother looked at them with a smile and huffed. “well shotaro you have to get home right?” the older boy sighed but nodded

“yes I have to go now but I’ll be home for winter break i promise” shotaro hugged his brother and mother.

the older boy drove off into the cold weather as his mother and brother waved at the disappearing car.

“now get inside its cold” jisung nodded ignoring the feeling that he was being watch.

jeno was standing outside holding a coffee mug and watched as shotaro his neighbor’s brother get inside his white car. he watched jisung wave at the older boy.

he looked at jisung with a frown. why did jisung run away when he saw me? he thought.

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it was now Monday. most students were still hang over or felt like crap. jisung felt fine.

donghyuck dropped off his school bag the day after and asked where he went that night. jisung made up a lie saying he got sick and went home.

he hasn’t told his friends he saw jeno lock lips with a random girl. but not now.

currently jisung was at his locker getting books out and checking that nothing was misplace. then he felt a presence leaning against the locker next to his.

he closed his locker and jumped at the sight of jeno. before he could register what was going on jeno spoke.

“jisung i saw you at the party and why did you run away when you saw me?” jisung eyes widen and looked down at the floor.

“it’s nothing I was just tipsy” jeno rolled his eyes at the lame excuse “no you weren’t cause you don’t get drunk”

jisung thought of another excuse but huffed. he’s gonna give it up

“I ran away cause I saw you with some random girl and I just didn’t wanted to see that” before he could regret it jeno looked at with a glare

“that random girl is my girlfriend and why would that upset you?”

the young boy didn’t know what to say. he felt like jeno had punched up in the stomach when he said that the girl was his girlfriend.

“cause…” jisung went quiet and jeno waited but the young boy shook his head.

“enjoy your relationship. hope you love her” jisung walked away from jeno who stood there with a shocked look.

jeno felt hurt. but why? hurt that jisung said he hopes he loves the girl?

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the cold winter air hits young jisung’s face. his nose and cheeks went bright red. it was a cold November. he was wrapped up in a large hoodie was obviously didn’t fit him.

but he didn’t care. he walked to school in the cold many times so this was okay. jisung sighed letting the warm air from his mouth hit him.

its been two months since jisung last talked to jeno. after he said that stupid line to him. he avoided him at every cost. his friends were hanging out with jeno? he said his mom had him cleaning the attic.

his friends were gonna see jeno play? he said he had a lot of homework even though chenle had most classes with him. well his friends didn’t seem to notice.

that was fine for jisung. he arrived at school and entered the building rubbing his nose against his semi frozen hoodie sleeve.

the young boy made his way to his locker once he got there he opened it and shoved some books in there from his backpack. but then a loud voice stopped him in his tracks.

“jisung park!” he heard a loud voice yell out. jisung turned around and spotted chenle running down with a school hoodie on that was probably mark’s.

he waved at his best friend once chenle caught his breath. he rolled his eyes then smacked jisung on the arm.

“ow!” the young boy yelled out. “ow alright! what the heck is it with you” the Chinese male angrily grumbled out.

“what are you talking about?” jisung question closing his locked. “jeno is saying that you been avoiding him which I didn’t think of cause were always together but the others said you don’t even come hang out when jeno is there!”

he tried his best not to react at anything the Chinese boy was talking loudly about but then he said “why don’t you go up to him and admit your feelings he obviously feels the same if he’s acting butt hurt about you avoiding him”

“what?”

“now don’t what me park jisung!”

“he doesn’t feel the same he has a girlfriend!” chenle gave him a deadpan look “he’s fruity and that girl was his girlfriend for like a month”

“was?” chenle rolled his eyes and smacked jisung repeatedly which made the tall male whine loudly.

jeno felt the same?

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it was Thursday. basketball game against their school’s rival. jeno was a ball of anxiety. he had to try his best today.

the warm ups prepared him for this huge game of the season. everyone was excited. everywhere jeno turned everyone was talking about the game.

they we’re excited to watch their school’s rival to be beaten down. it was pretty exciting right?

10 secs before that loud buzzer went off. people were at the edge of seats. there was yelling and loud voices yelling at the other team.

jeno felt sweat drip down his neck he stood at the end of court waiting for the moment the ball is thrown at him and he scores the winning score for them to make it to the finals.

5 seconds. people are screaming and jeno is trying his hardest to focus on the ball. he gets thrown at him and it feels like everyone went silent.

he only could hear his heavy breathing and the bouncing of the ball. jeno threw the ball into the hoop. he held his breath hoping it would land inside.

and it did. sm high students run onto the court screaming their victory. jeno is hugged by his teammates all praising him.

jeno smiled so wide laughing and smiling with his teammates. he felt so happy that night.

he wasn’t expecting to see the tall male that’s been in his mind for months. he didn’t expect him to see him walking along side chenle. he could hear chenle talking about mark.

he could hear jisung telling him to shut up for once in his life. which chenle obviously ignored.

jeno hardly saw jisung at games he could visibly remember jisung telling him he hates watching sports so why was he here?

jeno shook the thoughts away as he saw chenle and jisung walking towards him with donghyuck trailing behind.

“that was probably one of the most nerve racking games I ever been” donghyuck laughed at jisung’s statement

“you don’t even go to games shut up” chenle bark back which made jisung give the Chinese male a offended look.

the three stop talking and congrats jeno on the big win. well more like chenle and donghyuck were saying congrats. jisung was just standing on the side awkward as always.

“we should go to that cute diner around the corner to celebrate I’ll text renjun and jaemin to meet us there!” donghyuck excitedly said running off to a quiet spot to call his friends.

chenle stayed behind talking to jeno for a bit until he got tired of jisung’s awkwardness and pushed the tall boy towards jeno

“I’ll leave you guys to talk. bye bye” chenle waved and skipped off to find donghyuck.

jeno sighed and looked at jisung “Im sorry jisung it took me long to realize that i felt something for you”

jisung let out a confuse noise the boy felt his cheeks heat up at the sudden confession coming from jeno but he took a deep breath then confessed

“I have always liked you jeno”

jeno laughed nervously and leaned closer to jisung pecking the boy’s cheek causing the other to let out a giggle.

the older boy grabbed onto jisung’s hand leading him to a bench. they sat down and stared at each other eyes for a bit.

“I’m sorry for what i said last time” jisung apologized jeno laughed “no it’s fine”

jisung blushed and jeno laughed once again. they stared at each other once again but donghyuck yelled “let’s go!”

so the boys broke the long stare and followed the others.

not only did jeno score for his school’s basketball team. he scored jisung park.

well maybe.

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two weeks after the basketball game. jisung’s life was filled with jeno coming over to his house and cuddling him until jisung whined that he was sweating because of jeno’s body heat.

they didn’t really talk about where their relationship stood. taken? talking? single but taken??

who knows.

jeno took jisung to school and home everyday that jisung didn’t even have to ask. it became a everyday thing and their friends were glad things weren’t a mess.

well jaemin wasn’t glad. jaemin was still in love with lee jeno i mean who isn’t? it angers jaemin that jisung is taking his spot.

the spot he’s been missing. he’s suppose to be jeno’s boyfriend senior year not jisung. even though jisung never admit they were dating.

jaemin was just not having it with jisung and jeno suddenly being a thing. so he had a plan.

a plan to get back jeno.

it was a normal Tuesday. jisung was on his way to jeno’s car. he was running a little late because he had to stay back talking to a math teacher about his terrible test grade.

jisung was exhausted and just wanted to lay in his bed. what he didn’t expect was jaemin standing next to jeno by the older’s car chatting.

jaemin was laughing at whatever jeno said and it was a weird sight. jisung walked closer “uh hi guys” he greeted jaemin stopped laughing and cheerfully greeted jisung “hi sung!”

jisung tried not to cringe at the sudden cheerful mood of jaemin. jeno awkwardly smiled at jisung then turned to jaemin “well we’re gonna go. bye nana” the boy waved and the other waved back.

jisung got in the car feeling that weird jealously feeling in his gut but choose to ignore it. he ignored jeno’s attempts at starting a conversation only giving three or two words and only talking to change the music.

jeno parked outside jisung’s but before he could unlock the doors he stopped jisung “is something wrong?”

the tall male looked at him “i just found it weird that jaemin is suddenly talking to you after spending a year of avoiding the same room as you” jeno looked at confuse then let out a sighed.

“he apologized and we’re friends now i guess” jisung raised a eyebrow but then shook his head getting rid of his weird thoughts

“that’s good then. have a great rest of your day jeno” jeno unlocked the doors and jisung slammed the door.

jeno sat in his car longer than usual parked in his house’s driveway thinking to himself.

is it weird to be friends with your ex ??

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Chapter Text

it was a Friday. pep rally day. everyone was wearing their school colors and even had face paint. there was loud chatter when jisung arrived to school wearing his school hoodie.

he makes his way towards his locker opening it up and getting the books he needed for the day. it felt like a normal day even though people were chatting loudly about the pep rally that’s gonna be happening in the afternoon.

jisung was leaning against his closed locker after getting his books. he saw chenle who was skipping towards him with green star shape stickers on his cheeks and a huge smile on his face.

“it’s my favorite tall bean!” chenle greeted jisung hummed. “hello lele whats up”

then chenle started to ramble about his mother not letting him see mark on the weekends cause of his school grades which resulted in jisung cackling about it.

the friends were chatting and then came donghyuck hopping over to them. “what’s up tiny people!”

jisung rolled his eyes but waved at the bright boy. “you ready for the rally?” chenle asked the tan male who nodded excitedly

“I heard they’re gonna have a huge thing for the seniors and yours truly is excited for that” jisung hummed and continued to listen to his friends rumbled about whatever.

the bell rang and donghyuck ran off saying he needed to meet renjun before class. the two best friends walked to their first class of the day which was chemistry.

they arrived at class and started their day. class was boring as always and jisung was already exhausted. he felt sleepy and just wanted to go home.

jeno was still taking him home so he decided to ask if the older boy could just take him home. chenle was walking beside him they were walking to the gym to find jeno.

chenle was talking to jisung about what they should do for their upcoming project. they arrived to the gym and jisung sat down on a bench and chenle looked around the gym.

he noticed jaemin sitting on the other side of the gym talking with jeno. chenle hummed clearly looking confuse on why jaemin is here and talking to jeno. didn’t he hate jeno? chenle thought.

jisung seemed too out of it to realize jaemin was talking to jeno. “sung im gonna get jeno and ask him to take you home you look unwell”

the tall male nodded. he did seem to feel unwell but assumed he was just really tired because of staying up doing his homework.

chenle walked over to the pair and as he got closer he saw how jaemin was blushing and hitting jeno’s arm while laughing too loudly. odd.

“hi guys” chenle greeted and the pair paused their conversation. “hey lele what’s up?” jeno question

“oh it was just that jisung looks unwell and he said he was gonna ask you to take him home early but he got tired so he’s sitting over there” chenle pointed with his pinkie at a sitting jisung who’s typing away on his phone.

jeno looked over at jisung then back at chenle “I cant leave early the pep rally is starting soon. is he feeling that bad or can he wait?” chenle looked at jeno like he did the worst crime in the world

jaemin rolled his eyes and stood up “lele just tell jisung to suck it up plus we’re leaving after the rally to go to the movies so jisung needs to find his own way home”

“excuse me b-“ before chenle could even say the word he was gonna say donghyuck walked into the gym yelling for chenle

“zhong chenle!” the tan male yelled as he got closer to them.

“what’s up my people” chenle scoffed shooting a glare at jaemin then walking away.

“what’s wrong with him” donghyuck questioned jaemin shrugged and then started talking with jeno.

jeno wasn’t paying attention he mostly watched jisung who head was in chenle lap. he seemed fine from where jeno was standing. so the boy ignored it and continued to listen to jaemin.

chenle was glaring at the pair from afar.

jaemin what are you doing???

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jisung and chenle are sitting in the middle with renjun and haechan in front of them. the pair is yelling their school’s chant while jisung is just trying not to puke on renjun’s head.

the crowd is yelling and just having fun. the basketball team is throwing free shirts and free snacks. chenle catches some chips yelling “I got it!!”

donghyuck yells at him to give him some chips and chenle ignores him telling him to sit back down.

“jisung eat this” chenle hands him a small chip which the male declines “no im fine” he responds instead

chenle frowned at his friend he knows the boy isn’t fine and he knows he won’t be fine when he speaks up about what he’s thinking.

“jisung have you notice that jeno has spending time with jaemin? they’re even going to the movies after school” jisung in a sick state reacts well to that statement

what? what do you mean spending time with jaemin??

his thoughts change from being sick to worry. being sick and worrying.

“but I thought jaemin hated jeno” jisung mumbled chenle shook his head.

“if jeno really likes you he wouldn’t spend time with his ex and not with you”

the rally starts getting crazier and jisung can’t seem to join the fun. he’s worrying. his anxiety has sky rocketed and in a sick state is much worst.

he doesn’t just feel sick. he feels anxious. does jeno really like me? he thinks. they haven’t even spoke about what’s their label.

jisung didn’t know what to do but only wait for this to be all over.

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jisung makes his way towards jeno who’s talking to a teammate and jaemin is sitting in a bench joining the conversation.

the young boy still feels like crap and feels too warm for his liking. jeno notices him walking over and dismisses his teammate wishing him well.

“hey sung! chenle told me you were feeling unwell are you better?” jisung looked at jeno then jaemin.

he connected the dots and felt his heart drop to his stomach. he almost felt his hands shake with anxiety but ignored it.

“uh no. can you take me home like now?” jisung didn’t mean to sound demanding but he felt nauseous and just needed to go away sleep the day off then go to school like nothing happened.

jeno seemed shocked at the demanding tone and jaemin was also shocked. the kid must be really sick jaemin thought.

“i thought chenle told you i can’t Im going out with jaemin after school”

going out? oh how those words crushed poor jisung’s heart. he felt like actually vomiting.

jeno’s face expression instantly changed when he saw how jisung looked but before he could even mutter a word out.

jisung turned around and walked away. he felt his heart sink and he didn’t know how to react to what jeno had just said.

it confirmed his worst fear. jeno going back to jaemin.

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mark arrives on the sm high’s campus and expects only chenle to get in but doesn’t expect a pale jisung to slip in the back. then donghyuck slipping in as well with a water bottle in one hand and a plastic bag in the other.

“uh hi?” mark greets. donghyuck mutters “shut up and drive. take us to the clinic jisung is really sick”

mark eyes widen and instantly starts driving. the car ride was silence. nothing was playing on the radio and mark was trying not to crash as he was trying to quickly get to the clinic.

jisung looked and felt horrible. he felt fine in the beginning of the day but his body was slowly hating him and making him sick.

chenle was texting the boy’s mother letting her know she needed to meet them at the clinic to stay with jisung. he was also piss off.

he was worried for his friend’s well being cause who knew what jisung had. he was also piss at what jeno said to jisung that made his friend look so sad.

they arrived and jisung’s mom is waiting for them. donghyuck gets off with jisung handing over the bottle of water and bag saying in case sung needs it.

the boy’s mother thanks the friends and leads jisung inside.

author isn’t a doctor so no doctor scene. sorry !

turns out jisung had the flu just needed to rest up and not go to school until he felt like he wasn’t dying.

jisung texts his friends saying he’s fine and just has the flu. he’s home and wrapped in a thick blanket. from time to time his mind goes to jeno’s words making the boy’s heart ache.

was jeno gonna lose feelings for jisung? or does he even like jisung?

he doesn’t know the answers to those questions.

and he’s dying to know the answers.

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Chapter Text

it was Monday when jisung got up from his bed. he was sick all weekend and still felt like crap. he made it to the kitchen only to see chenle cooking.

“why are you here?” jisung questioned the Chinese male who’s currently siring a pot of soup?

“I’m making you soup dummy! your mother told me you’re still sick so I came by to make you something warm” jisung huffs sitting on the stool by the kitchen island.

chenle continued to work on the soup and jisung scrolled on his phone he noticed it was about 4pm when he got into the kitchen he must of slept for a while.

the friends were just chatting until they heard the door bell ring. “expecting anyone?” chenle asks which jisung responded with a head shake.

“no but I’ll go see who it is” jisung gets off the stool and makes his way to the door. he opens it and feels the air knock out of his lungs.

it was jeno standing there in a comfy outfit. he seemed to have been napping since his hair was pointing in different directions.

“oh hi” jisung greeted. jeno nervously smiled and waved at the young boy. “can we talk uh outside?” jisung was confused on why jeno wanted to speak outside but nodded letting chenle know he’ll be back.

jisung sat down on the stairs of his house and jeno sat down next to him. “what’s up” the young boy asked

jeno took a deep breath and refuse to look at the young boy which was making things complicated in jisung’s mind.

“me and jaemin are dating.. again” jisung looks down at his hands and slowly gets up. he feels his heart is dropping but ignores the painful feeling building up in his chest.

“okay” jisung responds. “just okay?” jeno questions and jisung nods his head. he walks to his front door opening it. the young boy turns around jeno stood there.

“see you around” and closes the door in jeno’s face. jisung feels nauseous but doesn’t open his mouth to let it out.

his worst fear came true and he doesn’t know where it was gonna take him.

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after eating soup and having a crying session which ended with chenle telling him to take a nap on the couch. so the younger did.

chenle was sitting on the couch across a sleeping jisung with mark sitting next to him. “so that’s all jeno said? he didn’t explain anything?” mark asked and chenle shook his head.

“no jisung didn’t let him but can’t blame him he’s hurt”

“who wouldn’t be? his longtime crush says he feels the same but gets back with their ex.” chenle nodded at his words.

mark came by with medicine which chenle requested for since jisung was feeling nauseous. mark stayed since he had no more classes for the day and hanged with chenle while jisung slept.

the door bell once again rings. mark looks at chenle nodding his head towards the door. chenle sighs and gets up. he’s glad it didn’t wake up jisung.

he opens the door expecting jisung’s mother but it wasn’t.

it was jeno.

“what the hell do you want now? to hurt jisung again!” chenle yells and mark quickly gets up making his way to the door.

“jeno what are you doing here?” mark askes jeno almost looks embarrassed

“I want to talk to jisung” chenle angrily looks at mark then at jeno

“oh hell no mark don’t hold me back” next thing you know it chenle is dragging jeno by the ear off jisung’s property.

mark is behind them telling chenle to calm down which chenle responds with random Chinese words about how jeno needs to get away from here.

chenle throws jeno on the boy’s yard “if i see you at the front door of jisung again i will throw you into the river!”

the Chinese male angrily huffs and walks away telling to mark to get back inside cause it’s dark.

“sorry man” mark says and walks back to jisung’s house.

jeno sat in the wet grass and sighs. he brings his knees to his chest and sighs.

he messed up didn’t he?

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jisung wakes up in his bedroom with a wet cloth on his forehead and mark standing over him with a small smile on his face.

“hi there” jisung mumbles out. “hey sung. chenle left for school but he left your school work on your desk and here’s some soup to eat”

jisung nods. it was the next day and he felt a lot better. mark says his goodbyes and leaves. jisung hums smiling as he eats his soup.

he felt okay for once and he’s glad.

“I’m not ready to see jeno though” he quietly says to no one.

it’s gonna be hard.

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