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Technoblade stared blankly up at the ceiling trying to think about when everything turned so wrong.

He thought about when just when these....these feelings started to appear, At least two years ago he believes.... But it wasn't that bad, merely a crush. It never had any time to actually form into anything more since he was always busy fighting in arena's and attending fancy party's and he didn't have enough time to hang out with Philza and when he did the other was busy with his kids and wife.

Now if he were anyone else the feelings would have faded within a month or so of showing, But Technoblade is not like everyone else. He's the blood god and he doesn't get attached easily. But when someone does worm their way into his heart its near impossible to break away.

This is what happened with techno. He didn't forget about them they instead stayed the same, Not increasing  but definitely not decreasing.....

But Then L'manburg happened. He spent time with Philza's kids, He....He see's them as his own even when they despised him (Why did he grow attached?). Techno also know's that he can't let them know, There would be no point in it. 

Tommy loath's him, Wilbur only saw him as a means to an end, Fundy barely knew him and never tried to make a relationship (though Techno didn't try either), and Tubbo- well after the festival Techno really doesn't blame him for not being comfortable enough to even look him in the eye.

And then Philza came back seeking comfort for ending his son's life when he was obviously so unwilling and peer pressured. Now who could say no to that? Your 'best friend' coming to you in tears needing comfort when no one else was there to provide it to them?

Techno had welcomed the Man with open arm's letting the older being sob into his shoulder without judgment. Phil may not know but Technoblade was barely keeping in his own and when Philza left his house, when the other was out of hearing rang Techno cried. It hurt to watch the man he...... he loved hurt so much.

They spent more time with each other, On restless nights they'd watch the sunset or the northern lights intermingle together. They would laugh while mining making a friendly challenge on who could get the most bones and rotten flesh while killing and looting. They would cuddle on the couch (Platonically of course because Phil didn't know about Technoblade's inner quarrels) and Phil would show him pictures of his children when they were still cute and lovable (They still were in techno's opinion) sipping hot cocoa and cackling over story's Phil would tell of his adventures and smaller ones that he experienced while raising the little demons.

They spent almost everyday together expect when they were out getting materials for certain projects and building secret things that they didn't want anyone to know about just yet.

They spent months together mining, fighting and building..... Techno didn't realize how far he had fallen till it was to late.

He didn't notice his restlessness when Phil would be late coming home was more than how friends should be worried for one another- He didn't think anything of the fuzzy feeling in his stomach when Phil would lean his chin on Technoblade's head while he was reading outside or beside the fire place- He didn't notice how bad the panic and despair he felt was when Kristin sent a letter to Philza, watching the others face light up more so than Technoblade ever could no matter how hard he tried.....

But now....It felt so obvious now that Techno's noticed, he should've distanced himself, he shouldn't have walked into the bears den willingly with the knowledge of whats to come.

Techno doesn't know what to do.....

He doesn't know what to do....

He screwed himself....

And he doesn't know what to do.

Dangling something unattainable in front of himself just for the realization to come back and smack him in the face full force that he would never get to have Philza in any way other than friends.

Honestly he's lucky that Philza has given him permission to even be Phil's friend.

He could fight death for her position and Philza's hand, taking her powers and becoming death and the blood god in one but- what would that really do? Philza would despise him, and it would make death human- therefore it would give her more time to spend on earth with phil.... That would do nothing good on his part.

Wait- How could techno even think that??!! He couldn't kill the women Phil loved just so he could get philza to himself! The man would be heartbroken- His love killed by his loyal friend. He would fight tooth and nail against Techno, And techno doesn't want to hurt his friend in any way.

(In fact he would give Philza anything- Make the avian the happiest being alive even if Technoblade suffered through hell- For Phil, The world.)

Techno feels like a guilty child, Like When he was first created after his atoms forced themselves together and was then running a muck on the streets running into people on purpose and stealing just to see their reaction.

Technoblade is a monster yes, But he does have a heart and killing his best friends lover and The children's (that he loves so much that he can almost call them his own piglets) mother would be a terrible and unforgivable thing to even think about let alone actually do.

But....what does he do? Should....Should techno try and ignore these feelings for as long as possible till it explodes and forces its way out of him?(No he would have a mental breakdown and could either kill people on accident that he doesn't want to hurt or he might spill every thing to Philza and ruin their friendship)

Should he tell Philza? (No that's out of the question, It would ruin their friendship and Phil would be so...he would be so disgusted and disappointed that something as filthy, sickening, loathsome and revolting as Technoblade would ever lay its eye's on such a holy and magnificent being)

Could he.....Just leave? Techno bets that literally no one would care, Well other than the disappointment of him not being their to fight in their battle any more. (and that's all he is isn't he? The blade. Nothing more. Even his little piglets- no- even Tommy,Wilbur and Tubbo thought of him as such.)

Technoblade feels something wet trail down his cheeks and raised his hooves to wipe his eyes before pausing to stare at them.

He even had the body of a monster. Nothing but a living breathing weapon.

He then focus's back on the warm liquid trailing down his face and scrubs harshly at it surely cutting himself in the process But he doesn't care.

When was the last time he cried? Maybe when his first pet died? It was after all the first living attachment he had made on the over world. Maybe it was when the women whom he called mother was slaughtered as the Bad men came to take him away.

Techno squeezes his eyes shut blocking out every thought that flew into his mind and breathed deeply, trying to calm down.

He relax's momentarily forgetting about everything for a blessed amount of time before he heard the pitter patter of feet on the ground floor. He ear twitches as he hears the familiar pattern and weight of Ranboo's feet.

He then hears light creaking of the ladder that led up to the attic and Techno peaked an eye open to be met with Ranboo's sleepy face, His eyes were glossed over- Most likely sleep walking. He watches the younger stand up before stumbling toward techno and collapsing on top of him.

Techno flushed having not expected that but he quickly opened his blanket and slipped the taller inside letting them snuggle into his side and curl around him. A tail wrapping around his own and he couldn't help the small smile that graced his lips.

He huffed shoving his snout into Ranboo's hair and breathing in his scent. 

Pack. Piglet. Pup. Child. Protect. His. Piggy. Baby. Son.

His instincts screamed at him and for once.... He agreed. The kid needed someone to look after him, So even if the teen doesn't want it...

Technoblade will give the Enderman as much love and protection as possible.

He may not be able to show Phil his true feelings, But Ranboo.... Ranboo wouldn't mind if Techno adopted him. Right? People say the teen is a monster so them monster should stick together right?

He loves Philza and Ranboo in different ways, yes that is true.

But..... He supposes that With Ranboo here- he may be able to stay.

For awhile longer at least.

Before he has to leave and he does something he regrets.

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Technoblade woke up feeling exhausted on a deep spiritual level, both Physically and emotionally. But he ignored the memories of last night in favor of making the moment with Ranboo last as long as possible simply cuddling the teen close to his chest.

Ranboo's horns bumped against a pillow softly but it startled him enough for his mix match eyes to snap open before they landed on techno and calmed down immediately before laying limp once more curling around Techno's body.

Technoblade barks out a laugh before making a soft chuff-chuff noise in his throat watching as Ranboo's eyes drifted shut once more and his breathing evening out.

He grinned savoring the Boy in his arm's for a while longer before the light of day started filtering in from the window shining into Techno's face effectively waking him up enough to gently push Ranboo off and crawl out of bed.

Technoblade caught his reflection in a mirror and couldn't help the shame and hate that pooled in his stomach.

But then Of course he started having a mental breakdown when ranboo's tail wrapped around his thigh letting out a whining warble as he made grabby hands for the Piglin hybrid who was about to break and give in to the Teens every whim if not for Phil's voice filtering in from downstairs.

"Hey techno have you seen Ranboo?" The Older Avian asked peaking his head up from where he was climbing the ladder that led to the attic as well as Technoblade's bedroom.

Philza's eyebrows raise when he see's them before giving a knowing smirk, Techno gives a light hearted glare before he is yanked back into his bed with unknown strength that Ranboo possessed and was used as a giant teddy bear no matter how much he struggled wiggling and crawling he was always yanked back. (He wasn't really trying but no body needed to know that)

"Wow the great almighty techoblade defeated by cuddles. How Terrifying" Philza gasps sarcastically with a large amount of playfulness.

Techno snorts holding in a full on laugh as he then sighs in defeat. "Oh no, I have been out matched- looks like I can't do chores today..... I'm forced to stay in bed- doomed for all eternity" 

Philza cackles before jumping up and tackling Techno and yanking him out of Ranboo's grasp only for Ranboo to wroop threateningly and pulling Techno back into his arms. This repeated a few more times before Techno got bored and jumped out the window when neither had a grip on him at the moment. He landed on a large pile of snow and when he looked up he saw Phil and Ranboo looking down with wide eye's.

They all cackled in delight before getting ready for the day (or late afternoon), Technoblade got distracted whenever Philza jumped out the window and started beating his wings flying high into the sky- His golden hair weaved in the wind and robe fluttering gracefully behind him. He seemingly danced in the clouds doing loops and diving before swooping back up.

Techno's heart beat loudly in his chest as he watched completely entranced at the sight, But he was startled out of his focus as A crow flew up and gave a letter to Philza- Which meant that Kristin had sent a letter- Which also meant that it immediately downed his mood by a large percentage in despair.

Well at least that was a good reminder to block in his romantic feelings and not let anything slip.

Phil flew down to the ground excitedly opening the letter with a large grin painted across his strong features, and his smile turned softer as his eyes flitted over the pages and photo's that were in the envelope. Technoblade couldn't help the jealousy that swarmed around in his stomach so he ripped his gaze away, face turning stoic and cold as he got up and made his way to Carl's stables.

He hadn't gotten undressed before bed and was still wearing the same clothes from yesterday- which was good because he didn't feel like going back inside and getting dressed.

He jogs over to his loyal companion petting him some before feeding him an apple, In the corner of his eye Techno see's Philza take out a book and wright something in it before giving it To the crow who then flew off into the sky. As if sensing his gaze Phil turns and makes eye contact with Techno who quickly looks away taking out another apple for Carl.

Techno looks down and see's his reflection against the water, showing him his skull mask that covered up dozens of scars from swords, fireworks, TNT, and More importantly wither scars that rotted your skin and turned it a deep black and would actually show bone if not healed properly. He had hundreds of deep scars and what not littered all over his body. He then looked at his revolting grotesque body looking more pig than human.

Technoblade shakes his head to clear away his thoughts and pats Carl's side before turning away and face planting into Ranboo's abdomen who had probably been waiting for him to get finished with whatever he had been doing.

"Hey kid? what do you want" Technoblade asks thankful for the distraction, He still felt Philza's eye's on him.

"O sorry Techno!" Ranboo rushes but techno snorts and gestures for him to just tell him what he wanted."I uh.... I wanted some advice.... uhm only if your willing of course! I can just go-" Ranboo stutters gaze fixed on the snow as he turned around making an attempt to trudge back to his house before Techno stopped him waving a hand.

"No no! Its fine kid, But why me though? I'm not exactly the most qualified person to give actual advice. Now that would be Philza" Ranboo furrowed his brows glancing at Phil who was still watching from afar though Techno wasn't looking and couldn't see the blondes expression.

"Did you guys have a fight?" Ranboo asks tilting his head to the side curiously, Technoblade raised an eyebrow questioningly.

"Oh uhh- Probably over thinking- but uhm you usually don't refer to Phil with his full name unless you got into a fight or are uh stressed. Which i doubt the second one, Everythings been okay for a while now" Ranboo explains giving an unsure smile.

"Oh no- its nothing like that i was just thinkin" Technoblade explains waving a hoofed hand moving his gaze from the teen to glare at the hoof he see's ranboo's brows furrow in the corner of his vision but he ignores the look turning his gaze back to Ranboo disregarding the negative voices in his head that had no connection to his actual voices he called chat.

"Now what was it that you wanted?" Techno asks once more risking a glance behind him which showed him Philza walking over to the two of them with a smile on his face with a tinge of curiosity shining in his eyes. His hair glistened against the sunlight creating a gold halo giving Technoblade the sudden urge to play with it- his piglin genes practically demanded it- Philza's shirt was fitted comfortably against his skin showing off chiseled abs that would make Notch himself jealous, His masculine facial features sharp and bold but holding no less naturally stunning.

God Philza looked hot.

He avoids that line of thought as best he can and turns back to ranboo who was looking down at the ground again. "Uhm.... Do you ever.... Is it normal to not like your body?"

Technoblade winced looking back at Phil and waved the other off with his hoofed hand not bothering to look at the curious look thrown his way and turning back to the Tall enderman hybrid standing awkwardly in front of him.

"yeah kid, It's perfectly normal. where'd you get that idea?" He inquires kitting his brows together and if someone had told Ranboo something- ooooh blood for the blood god.

The voices were being surprisingly quiet today but that was probably going to change very soon.

"uhm, Its-its nothing really...." Ranboo stutters making a move to walk away but Techno lifted his hand and placed it on the Hybrids shoulder.

"Ranboo" Techno warns sternly before grimacing and starting to rub his claws gently into The younger shoulder mindful of the sharper parts. Ranboo relaxes and bows his head defeated.

"Tommy... He uhm, He said that his best friend shouldn't be married to a disgusting and hideous thing like me... But he was just joking! Really he was.... I know i'm probably over thinking it" Ranboo stutters his ears tilted down and kept twitching as he talked.

"No ranboo, Even if he was joking that was rude and Thats bullying. Joking or not. And bullying can lead to lasting damage. Trust me i know. Now you stay here with Phil- I need to take care of something...." Techno says giving a strained grin and making his way over to the portal and on the way he took his armor out of his inventory and place it on getting his weapons ready as well.

"Wait Dad!" Technoblade heads the words no mind since they were probably meant for Philza, although Techno doesn't remember the last time Ranboo called Philza dad? In fact He's pretty sure Ranboo's never called anyone that-

Ranboo barrels into Techno hugging him tightly and effectively stopping him in his tracks.

"Dad! Stop! Tommy didn't mean it! really!" Ranboo exclaims keeping his hold on Technoblade and not letting go. Not that he needed too. Technoblade was stuck on the word that Ranboo had called him.

Maybe Ranboo wouldn't mind being adopted?

Yep Ranboo's his piglet now.

He has no choice.

Technoblade wrapped his arms around the younger earning a surprised warble but it soon turned to a contempt humming as Techno wrapped his Tail around Ranboo's.

Ranboo's tail thwapped happily against his and His thwacked playfully back, The enderman screeched a loud warped giggled as Technoblade dug his hoofs into Ranboo's sides and started tickling.

Ranboo tried to escape but he couldn't he had no choice but to submit.

"Submit." Technoblade stated throwing himself onto his back and curling his body protectively around Ranboo who was gasping for air on his chest.

"N-Ne-ver AHHHHHDHHEREJUUJGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEFHI" Techno tickled harder giving no mercy to the younger who was screaming in laughter wiggling and throwing his head back to try and get loose. But Technoblade like the badass he is dodges the hits skillfully and continues his attack.

"Yield!" Technoblade barks playfully nipping at Ranboo's ears that thwapped right back smacking him when he got in close to nip at him.

"FINE I YIELD! I YIELD!!!!" Ranboo screams and Techno stops his attack and the teen immediately collapses in exhaustion against Techno despite the size difference and curls around him like an over grown cat.

"Well what happened over here?" Technoblade hears a voice say, he looks up and see's Philza looking down at him with a soft smile on his face.-Techno blushes furiously and chokes on his breath with a startled laugh when Ranboo sleepily hisses at Phil curling protectively around Technoblade stomach.

'"awww how cute! The blood god and his little chick" A few crow's coo softly at Philza's words hopping around the snowy floor before flying back up onto the rood and over to the tree line.

Philza laughed as Ranboo yawned before passing out and snoring softly on Techno's stomach. He flushed before carefully sitting up and cradling Ranboo close to his chest careful to not get any snow on him and where there was snow he quickly got it off.

He stood up with the gangly teen in his that was almost twice his size- Philza offered to help which he accepted gingerly trying to ignore the worried gaze of his best friend. (Who probably barely even thinks of techno as a 'friend' let along best friend-) They make it to Ranboo's house/shack and gently place him atop the bed.

Technoblade sighs before walking out and closing the door he turns the corner to walk up the steps of his house to be met with Philza who was seemingly wait for him.

"Hey mate" Phil greets his eyes almost an unnatural glowing bright sea blue as his irises flicker to him then settle on the setting sun.

"You two were sleeping all day, Surprised he passed out again." Philza's lips twitched upwards into a small smile, Technoblade went up the steps and tentatively took a seat beside the Avian who then threw a wing around him as a harsh breeze went by. It warmed Techno up drastically especially his face- wooiw! is it hot out here in the freezing temperatures of the arctic or is it just him?- He hid hid face that was an entirely new shade of red from how close the two of them were with each other.

Now they used to do this all the time- but... Every since his feelings got louder, more dangerous he had been trying to distance himself. And of course Philza thought there was something wrong- which there was but Philza couldn't fix it and he would be revolted but would be so kind hearted that he'd try and find a way to fix it before he left, which technoblade doesn't want! Phil can't leave him! not like everyone else- Technoblade snaps himself out of his thoughts when he hears phil clear his throat shifting a bit in place before settling down one more.

"how are you doing mate? You've seemed to be out of it lately" Philza says worriedly furrowing his eyebrow's and looking Techno up and down seemingly looking for injuries.

"I'm fine Phil- how are you though? You seemed pretty hyped about that letter you got earlier" Technoblade said easily switching topic's- Philza momentarily forgot about whatever he had wanted to say as a bright grin came upon his face, Technoblade couldn't help the jealousy flow through his system at how quickly Philza's mood changed from such a small thing.

"Oh! Kristen caught me up on the Antarctic Empire and reminded me to stay safe and whatnot! She also said-" Technoblade tuned out whatever else his friend was saying nodding and giving curt answers whenever asked something as his mood soured ever so more.

He caught his reflection in the pond underneath the two of them and felt the hate and shame rush through him as he stared at himself. At the hideous pig features he possessed, the long hair that would never be as curly and soft as Kristin's- His skin was fuzzy and covered in scars that contrasted against his fur so awfully.

Techno was snapped out of his thoughts when Philza asked him about something, he answered with a short three word sentence not paying much attention to the worried frown on Philza's face.

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Technoblade reminisces about how he met phil.... 

Technoblade had been captured and forced into an illegal fighting ring for years, possibly a decade. He was around thirteen when he was taken from his village, He didn't have much experience with combat ironically, they were well protected by the iron golem's so there was never any need, and he was an outcast due to his long pink hair and various piglin attributes, yes, but it was his home.

The raiders had lit the homes aflame and left the villagers inside screaming as the hot embers slowly engulfed them. That night had given him nightmares that he still plagued Techno to this day.

Technoblade had lost his first match in the entire time he had been at the ring, mainly because he had been malnourished and dehydrated along with still being severely wounded from a previous fight and was pitted one against twenty.... He's lucky he survived.

Even on a good day with a full meal and plenty of water he wouldn't have won.

His handlers were pissed and threw him into his cage refusing to give him water or tend to his wounds, leaving him to suffer his fate and if he was still breathing whenever they felt the need to return they would just sell him as a slave.

But then There was a loud blast that shook the ground, multiple smaller ones followed. The guards were scared shitless running around as if their heads cut off trying to get Intel on the situation and receiving none.

A raider came in opening his cage and forcing him out before the women's head was sliced clean off.

Techno stared in shock at the severed head, watching as the body fell to the ground. Beautiful red blood pored out painting the moldy floor with beautiful color.

Technoblade looked up in gratitude mouth wide open before blinking and tilting his head to see his savior standing just a few feet in front of Technoblade.

Their hair was long enough to hover over their shoulders, long golden locks spread apart by long pointed ears that twitched as a new noise was heard. A green and white bucket hat sitting atop their head, They had some scruff on their chin matching their golden hair. A billowing dark green cape flowed gracefully behind them and their green robe and a green sash tied around their waist along with dark green pants that made a nice curve at the bottom as it completely sealed anything below their ankles where green and tan sandals were snug on their feet, Talons were curved naturally into little holes in the front of the sandals.

Very green if techno was being completely honest.

The two things that stood out the most though were The giant black wings stretching out from behind their back and making the being look larger than life, and as intimidating as death itself.

Then were his glowing sea blue eyes that sent a chill down his spine, creating goosebumps along his arms and legs. Their piercing blue eyes seemingly stared through technoblade's soul.

"Hello mate, Would you like to get the fuck out of here before the place collapses or glare at me all day?" Their body was relaxed and graceful but their voice was tense and threatening.

Technoblade blinked in shock not realizing that he was glaring at the angel, quickly mentally scolding himself before answering.

"Uh.. ye-yeah srry" Techno's voice was scratchy and deep from not having used it for a few years, The angel blinked back, surprise showing in their eyes.

"Ah! Sorry mate though you were a wild animal or somethin, Come on we should get going before more start comin!" The angel stated before turning around and walking up a flight of stairs that they had came down before.

Technoblade stumbled after them before biting his lip as pain blossomed everywhere and a groan threatened to escape his lips.

The voices came back yelling and comforting him before commanding that he go and follow his savior.

Technoblade obeyed wholeheartedly.

He stumbled after the angel even as pain flared up in his wounds and tried to drag him to the bliss of death.

Techno could tell that if he didn't get out of there and get treatment soon he would be dancing with death once again very shortly.

He hurried up the steps and was met with the sight of people fighting and killing one another, Technoblade saw his handlers and people that had watched the fights get slaughtered not being able to escape in time.

Techno's savior led him out of the building and out the front doors where soldiers and knights were waiting for the right moment to storm in guns blazing.

The angel then led him into an alleyway where they turned to him with a tight smile, Techno could see a question swirling in their eyes but they were unsure if they should ask it.

Techno lifted an eyebrow curiously at them and they then grinned sheepishly "Ah sorry mate, i was just thinkin, my homes pretty far from here so would you like me to carry you I mean your a big burly guy and you might not like it, but it really is far from here and i would like to properly treat your wounds and get you whatever you might need!"

Techno's ears lifted in surprise, He hadn't received any kindness from anyone in a very long time, and well call him naive but if someone was willing to be to a beast like him. He thinks he can trust him....

This angel did save him from that hell after all.

"Alright..." Technoblade responded nodding than internally wincing as a headache blared through his skull.

The golden angel stepped forward and picked techno up bridle stile before pushing his wings down and sending them flying into the air, Techno let out a startled squeal gripping onto his savior for dear life.

They chuckled wholeheartedly before apologizing on not warning him before flying in a certain direction most likely to the angels home.

Technoblade watched in fascination as the stars twinkled and brightened in the sky with the moon glowing beautifully above.

Techno glanced over to the angel watching as their golden locks bounced and flew around from the wind, He watched their enchanted blue eyes sweep over an area seemingly searching for danger before swooping down into a large clearing.

A large forest surrounded the clearing keeping it hidden and offering a fair amount of protection from mobs.

There was a three story quaint house sitting mack in the middle with various pens and barns full of farm animals and a few fields filled with wheat and vegetables growing there.

The angel landed in front of the house before quietly opening the front door and tiptoeing inside, Techno's savior sat him down at a dining table telling him to be quiet while they went to get a first aid kit.

The angel came back moments later having shed off their cloak but keeping their sword strapped to their side.

"Take off you shirt please" They ask, Techno follows what he was told and takes it off showing hundreds of newer wounds, A few dozen wipe lashes on his back and chest, A few stab wounds here and there, and not to mention the literal hole where his heart was meant to be, but that wound had been fixed yesterday and the bandage was completely clean so the angel wouldn't touch that one.

From what techno knows his heart was healing itself, he could feel it beat weakly in his chest.

He hears the angel gasp in horror and techno can't help but feel shame that he disgusted his savior so soon.

"Oh my fucking god, i should have fuckin slaughtered those assholes!" The angel sneers in rage before taking a few deep breaths and started cleaning his wounds.

Technoblade blinks in surprise but relief soon floods into his system and he relaxes letting his angel do whatever.

The man quickly cleaned and covered his wounds and after words phil gave techno a bucket of water and a few clothes and sent him into the bathroom to wash up. Technoblade was extremely grateful for it though.

Techno washed his hair out and combed it and scrubbed good and hard against his fur, afterwords he looked like a giant wet kitty.

Which is better than being perceived as a giant monster that will tear your throat out.

He looks over into the bucket of filthy water, there was chunks of blood and flesh in it and the water was so dirty that the water looked almost black.

Techno scrunched his nose up in disgust before dumping the water out the window as the angel had instructed him to.

Techno then finished cleaning himself off with a layer of soap before washing that off as well, Then he used a towel to dry himself off. Afterwords instead pf a wet cat he looked like a fuzzy ball of fluff.

Technoblade cleaned the wash rags before carrying his stuff back into the living room and finding his angel who was in the kitchen cooking something.

"I'm done" Technoblade announces awkwardly with his ears pinned down. The blonde turns around and his face splits into a silly grin.

"Oh my lord, you look so adorable!" They state biting their lip to hide their giggles.

Techno's ears pin to his head and he unconsciously pouts at the others lighthearted jab.

"well i should probably introduce myself actually!" Philza states sheepishly scratching the back of his neck. "I'm Philza Minecraft, but you can either call me Phil or Dadza!"

The man grinned nodding happily before turning back to the food and taking it out of the oven before walking over to the table and setting it down.

"i-i'm Technoblade" He says unsure of what he should do at that moment.

"Some sit down, Bet your hungry uh?" Philza says with a smile gesturing for him to sit anywhere.

Technoblade obeys sitting in a random seat at the table and gladly takes a bowl of soup from the angel, He cautiously takes a sip before gulping the whole thing down in a matter of seconds.

Phil chuckles before pouring some more into his bowl which Techno eats slower but still sucks the whole thing up quickly.

This repeats for a while before Phil simply pours some more into his own bowl and hands the whole pot to techno who happily accepts.

Philza rattles on about his wife and children as they eat also telling him about all of the adventures that he's been on over the centuries, going on and on about all these wonders and exciting story's.

Eventually they go to bed with techno taking the couch which he wasn't going to be complaining since it was the most comfortable thing he's sat on in years.

Before sleeping he had checked the calendar, it said it was the third of December, Technoblade decided then and there that would be his own privet holiday.

The day after techno meets Tommy, Wilbur and Tubbo along with Philza's wife Kristen.

Techno hadn't Known why it hurt so much hearing the man had a wife or why he felt so sad when he saw them kiss or hug but he ignored these feelings and left a few months later to go to high pixel.

He started a life there, getting his name out there. Of course he visited Philza and his children every now and then staying there for weeks at a time. Tommy absolutely adored him for some reason begging him to teach him how to use a sword, Wilbur always went to him and hey would constantly go to him and play all sorts of puzzles and mind games on each other. Tubbo and him would farm and pet animals together and relax under the tree's and feed the bee's. He and Kristen would drink tea in the morning when the kids were asleep and Philza was out on an adventure.  He and Philza would even sometimes go on adventures.

Kristen called him son once, Techno didn't understand why that hurt so much.

Especially whenever Philza said it.

Techno had left Phil for months spending most of that time sulking and killing.

Philza hasn't called him son since.

Kristen still called him son sometimes though, But she's too nice and Techno couldn't just tell her to stop.

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Philza had asked Techno if he wanted to come with him to visit Kristen which, being the nice person he was, accepted to go with the winged fiend.
 
Philza ended up pushing Techno into a pond 'by accident' Which, Techno is no fool, he saw how Philza was giggling afterward and grinning as if he didn't get caught after stealing from the cookie jar.

He paid the other back by Running into the house and collapsing into a wet heap on the wool floor getting water everywhere, Philza walks in not a moment later with a grin on his face as he gazed fondly at the dripping wet piglin soaking his floor.

"Come on Techno, we should get you out of those wet clothes, not sure if anything I have will fit you-but worth a try!" Phil grins down at him before jogging off down a hallway and into his bedroom leaving Techno alone sitting on the carpeted floor.

Techno decided to look around The other's base while he waited for the older to return.
There were separate pictures of Kristen, Wilbur, Tommy, and Tubbo up on the walls doing certain things like swimming, playing, birthdays, Techno even saw a wedding photo of Kristen and Philza, pictures with the entire family, Some baby photo's, There were a few of Technoblade doing random things as well for some reason, like the first time he farmed a potato, the smile on his face was almost ear-splitting.

There was one of him swimming at the lake not far from Philza and Kristen's family cottage with The children swimming in the blue water and playing in the sand.

There were a few others of him too, of him having his first birthday(Or well, his first actual recorded birthday) Some were of his adventures with Philza. All in all, there were only like ten of him while there were over a hundred of Philza actual family (Which isn't at all surprising since that's his actual family).

In fact, Technoblades is surprised that there are even that many of technoblade, He's only one Of Philza's passing adventures. Nothing more than one person the Angel of death had saved from a small almost unnoticeable hell.

Looking back on his time at the Fighting Ring it was nothing at all special or scary, Practically non-existent and dumb compared to what he deals with now, His life was stupid and worthless back then, If something that small and pathetic was able to hurt him in such a way then maybe he should have died there. 

After all, he still had nightmares of that place. 

Now, how pathetic was that?

Technoblade was torn from his thoughts when he heard Philza's steps coming into the room with a bundle of clothes in his arms smiling sheepishly.

"Sorry I took so long mate!" Philza chuckled sheepishly Techno shrugged not really minding waiting for however long he had been (He hadn't paid any attention).

"It's no biggie" He replied trusting his friend's words and not wanting to make the other feel bad, not noticing how Philza eyebrows furrow up and how his lips twitch down into a frown.

Philza quickly covers it up and speed walks over carrying the bundle of clothes before plopping them down in front of techno.

"Alright well, here ya go! There should be something in there big enough for ya!" Philza leaned down and took out a fluffy dark green sweater.

"Alright you get undressed Then you can try this on!" Philza says nodding to himself before waiting there.

Techno flushes embarrassed before quickly unbuttoning his shirt and plopping it down on top of his red cape he had taken off earlier, He stands taking the Sweater that was given to him slipping it over his head, and quickly pulls it down to cover up his disgusting scars.

The fabric felt soft against his fur and it felt like Techno was being wrapped in hugs and encased In Philza's fluffy feathers, with the older's scent wafting over and promising comfort and safety.

He then moved to take his pants off before blushing and looking back up to Philza who stood there patiently with a pair of pajama pants in hand.

"Could you, uhm turn around? That would be kinda nice" Technoblade asked nervously licking his lips noticing the sudden dryness to them.

Phil smiles sheepishly before handing him the pants and turning around.

"ahh Yeah sorry mate, With having kids I sorta just went into dad mode ya know? I've done this way too many times mate it just is like instinct" Philza explained quickly, Techno hummed in understanding.

He quickly strips off his pants thanking the stars that he had worn waterproof underwear and wouldn't need to change them, he then slipped the pants on ignoring the noticeable bulge in his boxers that was thankfully covered up by the baggy comfortable PJ's that Phil had given him.

"Wait are these yours? Pretty sure your too short to even consider these pants?" Tehno asks narrowing his eyes at the other's back.

Philza chuckles turning back around with a light smile on his face.

"Yeah the pants are Wilburs, The sweaters mine though." Technoblade nods now not feeling so bad about having a boner in Wilburs pants (That tall lanky bastard deserves all the unknown pain he can get for what he's done to practically everybody but most importantly Philza (and Tommy, but techno doesn't want to think about him))

"You can keep the clothes if you want" (hell yeah, Techno can burn the pants later) "For now we can watch a movie or something while your clothes dry"

Philza grabs Techno's wet clothes and take's them outside even as Techno try's to stop him to do it himself.

While Phil was putting in a movie a random thought came to techno's head.

"Hey, Phil this is really good fabric, probably really expensive, You sure you don't want it back?" He asked unsurely and tilting his ears back giving aware his inner quarrel on either being selfish and keeping it or giving it back to its right full owner who accidentally gave him something valuable.

"Oh of course not mate! I know you're probably going to take better care of it than I ever will, case in point that thing's been sitting in'ta back of my closet for years, I washed it this morning. Besides it looks better on you than it ever did on me"

Philza didn't see how Techno's ears perked up and the heavy blush on his cheeks or how his eyes sparkled at the compliment as if it made his day.

They end up chilling on the couch watching Disney movies all night Philza ended up taking off his shirt at one point saying he was too hot and then proceeded to snuggle underneath the blanket they had brought into the room a few minutes before, later they snacked on popcorn which Phil made a mess of the butter and ended up taking off his pants too, they passed out by six in the morning draped on top of each other.

When they both wake up Techno's snuggled in philza's side with the other's wings wrapped around the both of them tightly with Kristen in the kitchen making them all breakfast, when Kristen notices them awake she kisses Techno on the forehead and Phil on the lips good morning.

Techno treasures the loving touch but he also hates it since the motherly figure just so happens to be married to his crush (-the Man he loves- but he's still trying to deny that well-known fact) He wants to beat the shit out of her and take philza but he also wants to give her gold and power to show how much he cares and adores her like a mother.

Technoblade has noticed that Philza was acting strange though, he kept on doing all sorts of things kinda like last night such as randomly showing a lot of skin and getting close to techno not to mention he went upstairs and changed into skin-tight pants that showed off his ass and crotch way too well, along with a collared shirt open in the top and middle showing off his chest and abs. Techn did his best not to look but he often caught himself staring at Phil's abs and dick.

He also kissed Kristen more often than he usually did which hurt, a lot, he felt like he was going to cry by how much Philza seemed to just show off that he was taken by a beautiful loving woman.

Techno concluded that Philza was just horny and wanted Techno out of the house so he and Kristen could go at it.

Technoblade ended up leaving earlier than he usually would with visits (seeing as they clearly wanted him to leave so they could 'enjoy' each other's company) Techno casually made up an excuse to get out as soon as possible.

He didn't notice Philza's worried frown as he practically ran out of the house.

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Technoblade threw the pickaxe down onto the stone breaking it upon impact then bringing it back up and swinging it back down and repeating the process.

Philza watched him for a moment before sighing quietly and following the other who still hadn't noticed his presence for the past hour. Too lost in thought to notice his father figure behind him, Philza sighed again slightly louder to see if Techno heard him.

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..

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He didn't.

Philza sighed, again, again.

He rolled his eyes at himself before reaching over to tap Techno on the shoulder before retracting his hand and instead of reaching up to scratch behind the Piglin's ears. Technoblade lets out a startled squeal swirling around in alarm before relaxing and then tensing up again as a blush coated his cheeks.

"Speak of this to anyone and I'll kill you" He warns voice low and threatening, but that does nothing to hide how flushed his face was and how his eye's shined as if he wants more scratches.

"Sure Mate." Philza chuckles having been used to Techno's empty threats for years, He nodded patting the other head with some difficulty.

He almost said "sure Son" which, Was a close call With how Techno reacted to him calling him that last time.

Phil still had no idea why he saw Techno as a family member or a best friend. But when he had let the word slip from his mouth... Why Had Techno reacted the way he had?

And yeah, Phil knows that it's stupid to dwell on a thought for so long even when it happened years ago. Just why? Tommy, Wilbur, and Tubbo don't mind it, of course, they don't usually call him dad but... Why did it bother him so much? The questions just nagging at Philza and he doesn't know what to do.

So he just pushed it to the back of his mind for later and focused on his comrade standing in front of him.

"Mate how long have you been down here?" He asks raising an eyebrow watching His friend's brows scrunch up as he thought of an answer to give Philza.

"Uhm... A few hours?" Technoblade drawls guessing since his chat most likely didn't give him a straight answer.

Phil sighs before grabbing Techno's hand and starting the long trek back to the opening of the tunnel Techno had made, Tech followed without complaint making small talk with his chat as they went.

Philza glanced back at Techno every few minutes watching the other critically, when they finally made it to the surface they both stretched out their muscles and enjoyed the sun for a few moments before walking back over to Their houses.

They made pleasant small on the way back talking about nothing and everything at the same time, laughing and poking fun at each other and Philza finds himself relaxing and temporarily forgetting his worry's as he spends time with his best friend and flockmate.

Philza grins mischievously before tackling Technoblade's side and attacking the younger man's sides tickling the piglin who burst out in surprised giggles, Phil pushed him down onto the ground and mercilessly tortured the other who squirmed trying to escape.

"P-PH-PHIL! MERCY! GAH!PFFFt-!" Techno gasped out snorting and choking as he tried to get words out, Phil pitied him and let him go, Techno proceeded to clasp in the snow gulping in deep breaths of air.

They eventually get up and continue their way back to the cabins in comfortable silence with grins still on their faces going into a nether portal to make the trip quicker.

Phil watches Technoblade's eye's as dream walks by the both of them giving a small wave before continuing on his way through the nether. 

He ignores the way his stomach clenches un comfortingly as Techno yells that he loved the Blob and watches as Dream playfully yells it back. Deciding that it was just his fatherly instincts kicking in.

Techno puts his mask back on as They enter into their nether portal making their way back home.

Their houses come into view after a few minutes and they race over to the bridge connecting their houses, Philza ends up winning.

They laugh to themselves techno poking fun at Phil's age while Phil plays along throwing his arm around Techno's neck pulling him close for a side hug.

He missed the way Techno's face flushes up Redstone red and walks over to Techno's house yanking the door open to find Wilbur, Tommy, Fundy, Tubbo, Ranboo, Micheal, and Puffy waiting there.

Puffy smiles and waves hello in greeting before explaining that since it was so cold they just came inside to wait for them.

Philza notices Techno's good mood was now completely gone and the taller looked as if he was about to break someone's skull open.

"Oh! What are you all doing here?" Philza asks lightly patting Techno's arms to calm down as he looked the others up and down in suspicion.

Wilbur speaks right as Puffy moved to open her mouth "Puffy said that we should have 'Family Therapy' to try and fix some of our problems with each other" 

Wilbur scoffs and lowers his hands down after using his fingers for the quoting part of his sentence, Tommy frowned and his eye twitched from where he was awkwardly standing beside where Ranboo and Tubbo were sitting with little Micheal sitting on Ranboo's lap.

Technoblades ear twitched and Phil saw him unease his muscles and nod before opening his mouth to speak "Oh, Well ima go outside then and let you all discuss family stuff." 

Techno makes a move to leave earning a harsh glare from Tommy who sneers and unfolds his arms "What the fuck! Do you think we're not good enough to waste your time on us!?" 

Techno's ears tilted down and his lips thinned, his mask was on though so Phil couldn't see the other's face and honestly had no idea what Tech was feeling. Maybe anger? Boredom? Annoyance?

"What do you mean? I'm not part of your family" Technoblade asked genuine confusion laced in his voice as he spoke.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!? ARE YOU TOO GOOD TO BE A PART OF THIS FAMILY! IS THAT IT?? 'Oh look at me I'm Technoblade! I love potatoes and killing orphans! I'm too good to be a part of the Minecraft family' LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!" Tommy yelled and mimicked Tech's voice before reverting to his own again stomping his foot down angrily.

"But-" Techno's ears pinned to the sides of his head and he opened his mouth to speak again before puffy interrupted.

"See, this is why we're here! to try and get both sides of your stories to try and resolve some of your issues." Puffy explained before telling them all to sit down, Fundy looked uncomfortable as Wilbur sat beside him but didn't mention anything as everyone sat down into a circle.

"Alright! Now, let's start with Technoblade, what did you mean when you said your  not a part of their family?" Puffy asked her ears perking up in interest as she gave a kind and comforting smile.

Techno squirmed when all the attention went to him a moment later and he cleared his throat awkwardly. "Uhm... Well I'm not part of your guy's family what-so-ever and don't know why you think so" 

Tommy sneered and was about to open his mouth and give a retort but Tubo covered his mouth with his hand, Wilbur raised a hand and puffy nodded for him to speak.

"Uh well, you're our brother? Or well pretty sure you are, Well unless Tommy was right and you have too big of a god complex to think of us puny mortals as family." Wilbur shrugged crossing his arms and raising an eyebrow judgingly, waiting to see what Techno would say next.

Philza turned back to his second youngest son- (Wait no) to his friend and waited for his reaction.

"Wait I'm Your Brother!?" Technoblade sounded genuinely surprised when he spoke and reared his head back like a startled animal.

"Wait did you really not know that?" Tubbo asked tilting his head to the side confusedly.

"Wait dad didn't you say you were going to ask techno if he wanted to be adopted? Did you never ask?" Tommy asks surprise and realization appearing on his face as they all turned their heads to Phil.

His own eyes widen in shock as the sudden realization came down upon him of what he had done, Had- Oh no. Is that why Phil always thinks back to when he had accidentally called Techno son? Because he originally had planned to call Techno SOn to see how he would react and to then ask if the other would like to become his second-oldest son (Or well, Phil doesn't really know Techno's exact age but he thinks that the other is around twenty-one, and Wilbur was twenty-five but with the whole void situation He supposes that Wilbur was now about thirty-seven or Eight) 

"Oh, shit...." Philza mumbles loud enough for everyone to hear, a loud silence then encases them for a few seconds before Phil swallows and prepares to explain himself.

"Well, uh. When I had called Techno 'son' he hadn't really reacted all that well and I kinda forgot to ever ask him about it..." Philza finally admits and feels as if a weight had been lifted, He quickly looked to Techno to wait for his reaction, Phil had been wanting to know just why Techno did what he did and how the piglin would react to wanting to be adopted.

"What..." Techno whisper's quiet enough that only Phil heard him before gulping dryly "What?" He asks a bit loudly.

"I....I...Yeah," Phil shrugs ashamedly for forgetting such a thing.

"What the fuck could technoblade have done for you to totally forget about something so important!?" Wilbur growls glaring at Phil furiously.

"He didn't talk to me or Kristen for like a month afterward! We were paying more attention to getting him to come back! We decided to wait a while longer and ask some other time... But we both forgot" Phil explains all the way looking down at his lap in embarrassment for forgetting something so crucial.

"Okay then, well how about it techno? Wanna join this fucked up crazy family officially? I mean your literally already a part of it so why not make it official?" Wilbur suggested forgetting his previous anger in a massive mood swing grinning wildly.

Philza looked up and at Techno hopefully.

"No."

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Techno got up and left the room pretty quickly after that, trying to get out as soon as possible.

He just needed to leave...

He did not want anything to do with that conversation.

He didn't even know why they wanted him there!

He was NOT part of their family.

He Was NOT their brother.

He Was NOT Philza's Son.

He.did.NOT.Want.To.Be.In.A.FAMIAL.RELATIONSHIP.WITH.PHILZA.

THE ONLY RELATIONSHIP TECHNO WOULD STAND WITH PHIL IS PLATONIC OR ROMANTIC- A-and the platonic part is o-only there if their...friends.....

It took a few moments for him to notice he said all of that out loud. Techno quickly looks up blinking his eyes, afraid that someone might have seen or heard him.

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..

.

No one had. Which. thank whatever holy being that there was no one there.

Techno groaned burying his face into his hand and letting the tears roll freely down his cheeks.

He leaned against the tree furiously scrubbing at his face and rid himself of the tears, But after a few minutes he gave up and just let them fall.

Techno... Techno didn't even know why he was crying. It...That wasn't that big of a deal... I-It... It really wasn't...

He was just... A giant fucking baby.

God, he was pathetic.

He the blood god, curled in a ball, trying to make himself appear as small as possible trying to hide from the world. He was technoblade! Stronge and feared by everyone! And He Feared no one!

But...

Yet...

He was afraid...

He was afraid of...

Of Phil...

Techno... He-he didn't.....

He doesn't want to be Philza's 'son' he doesn't want to be Kristen's son- 

But that's not why he's crying.

He doesn't want to have such 'expectations' that a son would get- wait no that's not it either!

God Techno was never one for sorting through his emotions...

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..

.

It's because he doesn't want Phil to think differently of him... Techno didn't want their relationship to change (Of yes he wanted it to change but not in that way-) But... He Hated disappointing Phil...

And he had done just that, hadn't he?

He was afraid of hurting Phil and changing their relationship.

He was afraid of what Ranboo would think and ruining their father-son ESC relationship!

He was afraid of what Kristen would do or say if she knew he oogled her husband when they went swimming.

He was afraid of what Wilbur, Tommy, Fundy, and Tubbo would think.

He was afraid that...

They'd leave him...

Just like everyone else...

B-but they can't leave!

They just can't!

It's not part of techno's mindset therefore it was irrelevant! and didn't matter!

They won't leave him!

They're his pack! they wouldn't leave him!

They won't!

...

..

.

But they will.....

More tears flowed down his cheeks as he lets out a broken squeal-like wail as he collapsed onto the grass only now releasing just how far he had run.

Techno's body sobbed as his whole body shook, he could barely keep himself up, He let his arms collapse below him 

And after who knows long Chat finally snapped out of whatever they were in yelling frantically.

Techno whined in pain, fear, and anguish as the voices got louder, Techno blocked his ears as best he could and could barely register the blood that slid down his hooves as he tore into his flabby pig-like ears remembering just how ugly and monstrous he was.

No one would love him.

Philza would be revolted and would kick him away if he found out that Techno loved him.

The Pups would be disgusted that they even knew him.

Kristen would do her best to kill him and when she succeeded she would make his afterlife a literal hell. (She was death she couldn't die, Technoblade can, He may be the ultimate fighter but he will tire down eventually)

He already lost his family before!

He didn't want to again!

Were they even his family?

They were his but he wasn't theirs.

He didn't want to watch his sister burn in the lava after he accidentally pushed her in during a playfight.

He didn't want to be shoved into a cupboard as his mother killed his father was her hooves.

He didn't want to watch as his father's face fell right in front of him and screamed letting his mother know where he was.

He didn't want to kill his mother as she prepared to throw him into the warped forest where dozens of angry hoglins waited to be fed.

He didn't want to push her in...

He d-didn't W-Wa-want-t th-that...

TECHNOBLADE?????

ARE YOU OKAY!!

WTF IS HAPPENING???!!!

IS THE BLADE CRYING!!!!

WTF HAPPENED???

All Phil did was ask if he wanted to be Techno's dad!

Wait a second! Didn't Techno say something about wanting to be in a romantic relationship with Dadza?

EVERYBODY SHUT UP WE NEED TO CALM TECHNO DOWN! HE'S HAVING A PANIC ATTACK!

Techno heard the voice but did his best to try and block them out, biting his lip and letting out a pained wail shaking from the force of his sobs.

The memories that he tried his hardest to forget came back to him full force leaving him overwhelmed as images and thoughts came flooding in alongside chat who picked up in volume once more when he didn't respond to them.

He cried out his frustrations and fears and tried his best to stop but tears just kept flowing down his face and onto the grass and dirt below.

Techno held in his breath trying to stop the sobs that racked through his body, after a few moments he gasped in a lung full of air and held it once more.

He still let out a few hiccups trying to repeat the process and get himself to stop crying since he hadn't had much experince with crying so intensly.

Techno took deep breaths letting air in and then breathing out, after an hour he calmed down and got up from his curled position on the grass, standing up fully and stretching out his joints hearing satisfing pops. 

He looked at his surroundings trying to see just where he ran off too.

It was pretty far away from the tundra, A green feild with flowers and animals wondering about, Techno spotted a lake and slowly walked towards it getting to his knee's and looking at his reflection.

To put it simply, he looked like shit.

His eyes were red and puffy, there were tear tracks on his cheeks and his ears were bleeding.

Techno pulled ut a health potion and poured it onto his stupid pig ears not wanting to look at them anymore and have to worry about an infection later.

He splashes his face with water cleaning it up before putting his mask back on and taking out his communicator.

There were dozens of messages from everyone who had been in his house maybe fifty from Philza.

God Techno couldn't believe he got that overwelmed over nothing.

Technoblde groaning rubbing his eyes from underneath his mask, thankful he had it with him incase when he got back they were still at his house and he wouldn't get questioned about why his eyes looked weird.

Techno pulled up his coordinates before making his way back to the tundra.

TECHNOBLADDDDDDDDDEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

ARE YOU OKAY!!!???

TECHNO!!!!!!!

Wtf happened?

You good now?

Wanna talk about it?

God have we ever seen him cry like that!?

Nope! I havn't.

Same!

WTF HAPPENED!!??

Technoblade sighed as Chat kept spamming things.

"Chat... I'm fine, Just...Just haven't let my emotions out and they built up! No big deal" Techno lied easily or well, he white lied.

Chat asked a few more questions but eventually dies down when it was clear he wasn't going to give any answers.

Techno could see the cabin in the distance and begrudgingly kept moving his hooves forward through the snow, looking around it seems he made it back on time since it was starting to snow, pretty hard might he add.

He walked up the steps sighing and stopping in front of his door. Techno hoped that they all left and were not in his home whenever he worked up the courage to enter his home. The only person he could handle right now would be Ranboo.

God, He just wants to cuddle with Ranboo.

So fucking bad.

Before he bursts into tears again.

Technoblade took a deep breath lifting his hand to rub his eyes once more and sniffing he reached his hand out and pushed the door open.

Andddddddddd none of them left.

A deafening silence fell on them all as they stared at each other.

It broke when He moved inside closing the door before any more snow could get in.

"What are you guys still doing in my house?" Techno demanded angrily crossing his arms, he tensed afterwords not meaning that to sound so harsh, and immediately regretting it when they flinched.

A few beats of awkward silence after Wilbur clears his throat and opens his mouth to speak. "Listen Techno... I'm... I'm sorry if what I said before bothered you- or well it obviously did! But uh yeah, I'm sorry" 

Oh...

Well, that wasn't what he thought he would say.

Thought Wilbur would yell at him and kick him out of his own home or something if Techno's being entirely honest.

And Techno must have been more sleep-deprived than he originally thought because he said that stuff out loud as well Earning a few startled and worried looks.

"Oh-uhhh ignore that. I'm a little sleep-deprived. but uh yeah apologie accepted now leave before the storm gets worse." Techno says gesturing to the door hurriedly.

"Wait techno, why did you leave? What did I say wrong?" Wilbur asked pleadingly. Wow, his therapy must be doing wonders for him.

"Nothing you said bothered me now go" Techno clenched his teeth feeling his eyes well up again somehow.

"B-But Big man! We're here to solve our issues! So we can be a family again! Come on technoblade!" Tommy called out throwing his hands up in the air exhaustedly.

Techno swallowed licking his lips dryly, God he just wanted them to leave damnit.

He didn't even care if cuddled with Ranboo he now just wants to cry either in his lowest basement where no one would hear him or up in the comfort of his bed.

"Go," Techno says with more bite this time, He just wanted them OUT.

"Techno..." Philza steps forward furrowing his eyebrow worriedly stepping forward till he was in front of him.

"Is that...Blood?" Phil asks his eyes flickering to Techno's hands that he quickly hides behind his back.

"I went hunting." He tries to lie in his empty dead sounding monotone voice.

"Where's the animal you hunted?" Phil asks back raising an eyebrow.

"Gave it to the hounds," Techno responds curtly.

"Why's there blood on your ears?" Phil furrows his brows even more so before they widen in surprise.

"Wait those wounds look new! What happened?!" Philza demands lifting his hands to inspect Techno's still healing left ear.

"The animal fought back" Techno White lies, After all, he is an animal, and he fought back against himself.

"Technoblade! These look like they were made by you hooves!" Phil exclaims before grabbing techno hoof and leading him over to a chair and pushing him down into it.

"It isn't that big of a deal! I'll fix it when you leave" Techno says trying to stand but Wilbur and Tommy try and push him back down, he lets them.

"Techno! WHAT THE FUCK YOU DO THAT FOR!?" Tommy yells peering at Technoblade's torn-up pig ears. Techno's ears pin against his head at the hostility and loudness of it, Techno flinched back away from the brash blonde.

Tommy's eyes widen when he sees that and his brows furrow in concern "What-"

He's interrupted and pushed aside by Puffy who looked at his wound critically and taking the bandages that Phil offered and lifting his hoove-like hands to clean his ears.

When they finished Techno tries to stand but is pushed back down by captain puffy.

"Alright, explain" Puffy ordered sternly narrowing his eyes at him demanding that he answer.

"What," He asks in return confused at what the woman wanted.

"Why'd you hurt yourself" Puffy answered still waiting for an answer.

"No reason now go before the storm gets worse" Techn tries to push himself up but this time Fundy joins her pushing him down onto his chair.

"Technoblade, I know we don't really know each other but hurting yourself isn't healthy," Fundy says his fox ears swiveling around worriedly. But why was he worried? There was nothing to be worried about other than the storm outside.

"The storms getting worse you should go" Techno attempts again trying to get them to LEAVE.

"Mate, It's alright you can tell us, and if it makes you feel more comfortable you can just tell one of us," Philza says reassuringly petting his head and carding his fingers through the long locks of pink.

"We'll go downstairs, You two take your time," Puffy says before leading everyone down the ladder, but before Ranboo could go down Techno asked him to stay, Which The ender boi looked confused but stayed up there.

Techno made grabby hands for Ranboo earning a confused warble as he came closer.

Techno stood up before picking the enderman up and sitting down beside the fireplace setting the pup onto his lap petting his hair.

Philza watched wide-eyed before quickly recovering and sitting down on the floor beside him.

"So... Technoblade what's up?" Philza asked awkwardly, looking around before his gaze landed and stayed on Techno.

Techno snorts at Phil's awkward attempt at socializing before quietly continuing to rake his hooves through His pup's hair.

"Nothing much... You guys should really just go, the storms getting really bad." Techno says and once again try's to get Phil and the others to leave.

"Mate, I already said no," Phil says sternly narrowing his eyes at Techno who glanced up and immediately tore his gaze away.

"Could....C-could you Please just...Go?" Techno tries one last time in a futile attempt to get them all to leave, Techno just wanted some time alone damnit.

He saw Philza tense beside him and heard the older man sigh and stand up. "Come on Ranboo let's go get the others and head back to the portal." 

Technblade unwraps his arms around ranboo letting the taller get up and step away. Technoblade almost lets out a desperate squeal but bites his tongue as his pup and Mate- Pack member leave and go down the ladder.

Techno hears them talk in the basement before a heavy-duty door opens and closes after a minute.

Technoblade instantly starts crying and curl's up into a ball before abruptly getting up and letting steve inside since the storm had been pretty bad and he wants to make sure the polar bear was alright for the night.

Steve seemed to immediately sense his distress and nuzzled into Technoblade earning a sad chuff-chuff noise.

Steve lays down and lets Technoblade cry into his fur licking him and curling his paws around him in a sense of comfort.

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Technoblade now knows just why he acted the way he had the other day.

It's because he's part piglin. (Who woulda thought?)

And piglins are different from most hybrids and human players and have different anatomy. (Obviously.)

And guess what? Well every few decades a Piglin's hormones go haywire for a little more or less than a month, they get Very emotional, protective, and territorial they may also experience pain and/or PTSD from past battles that may have not bothered them beforehand. Not to mention they can get delusional and can experience something similar t a 'heat' or 'rut' that other species experiences. 

He's had one before but Techno had thought it was just him recovering from a few severe battle wounds and caught a few infections. But he found some Piglin books in his travels and now understands.

It's pretty much a Piglin version of a period, Except more severe and sacred.

So yeah, Yesterday he was feeling happy and content with his mate- no- Packmate Philza, Then when they got home His nesting place was invested with Bad People, Of course, he was confused then and didn't know just why he was so territorial.

And well, If you know people with periods they can be Very emotional, picky, and needy.

So yeah Technoblade was currently in emotional turmoil with himself curled in a ball inside of a sort of nest-burrow thing he threw together with all of his softness belongings. Such as Blankets, Wool, His cloaks, Pillows, He even brought in some of Philza, Wilbur, Tommy, and Ranboo's clothes that he put into a big pile beside where his head was sticking out of piles of soft things so he could take comfort in their scents.

It was the closest thing he could get of them. And when he was in too much physical pain all over his body he would look up and stare at the pile of Pictures he had of those he considered his pack.

Technoblade shuffled his face back into one of his cloaks before settling down and drifting off into a Light sleep.

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He walked the others back to the nether portal and stepped inside, they all waited patiently for him.

"So?" Tommy asks, concern laced in his voice which was unusual for the loud teen who always hid his concern behind devious grins.

"So what?" Phil says back raising an eyebrow And leaning against the obsidian of the nether portal as he crossed his arms in a way where he faced the group of people.

"So what's wrong with Techno! He had NEVER acted like that! And I've known him for almost my entire life!" Tommy yell's waving his arms about.

Phil bites his lip as others nod in agreement, even fundy nods along with them agreeing.

"Yeah what the fuck happened? You're the one he's close to! What's wrong with him?" Tubbo asks stepping forward hands on his hips.

"Philza You've bound to have seen him like this before right?" Wilbur furrows his brows in frustration and looks seconds away from punching someone, which Philza had no clue the man in front of him cared so much about his friend.

"Phil do you have any clue what's happening? From how everyone in your family is reacting I'm guessing that this is serious, And they were only with technoblade for two hours max." Puffy states furrowing her brows in thought.

"Yeah uh... Philza what's wrong with Technoblade?" Ranboo asked his pointed ears tilting down and his tail was flickering side to side in aggravation and worry.

"PHIL ANSWER US!" Tommy yelled stepping forward with an angry look on his face as he glared at Philza.

"PHILZA FUCKING MINECRAFT TELL US WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY LITTLE BROTHER!" Wilbur yelled throwing his hands up and also taking a step forward except this one was more threatening.

"I DON'T KNOW DAMNIT WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU EVEN ASKING ME!? I OBVIOUSLY HAVE NO CLUE!" Phil yells back pushing himself off of the Portal and throwing his hands up, his wings ruffled and twitchy as he glared his son down. But his face quickly softens into guilt as he opens his mouth to apologize. 

"I'm sorry mate, I didn't mean to yell, your all obviously worried. And fuck, I'm super worried too! I've known him for- who knows how long!? Since he was a teen! A-and I've never seen him like this! He's been acting so damn weird! He flushes up randomly and pushes me away when I try and take his temperature! Sometimes he spaces out when we're talking! I've caught him unconsciously cutting into his wrists! And-and I've seen him cry and whimper in his sleep! This never happened before! Not even after I saved him from an illegal fighting ring! He was perfectly fine or well- He didn't cry in his sleep and stuff unlike what he's doing currently! I-He- I don't know what to do! He's acting so different and-and I thought that maybe if we had a-a family therapy session that I could get him to open up! He's helped me when I needed it- and....and I thought I could him too... I...Want want to help all of my children. And... You all seem to not want me...." Phil says quietly but slowly raises his voice before quieting down once more tears gathering in his eyes.

"He...He sounded so...so sad and broken when he asked me and Ranboo to leave him alone..." Phil adds hiccuping.

"Wilbur.... you hate me... Tommy despises me and barely sees me as his dad... Tubbo doesn't even try and look at me... Fundy and I are getting better but he's mad at me... Tech doesn't even want to be my son... He shuts up and just leaves..... I-... I just..." Philza cries silently and gladly takes the comforting hug that Wilbur gives him. 

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Techno stares at the ceiling and realizes that This was going to be a bad one as he sees a version of Philza suddenly appear right in front of him and bends down to his level sitting on the ground with a soft look on his face.

Techno tries to get away but finds that his body can't move, He blinks the tears away as they slide down his cheeks but the delusion smiles brightly with the same face he has for Kristen but-But It's being directed at Techno. 

Technoblade can't look away as Phil smiles softly to him, mouthing A 'I love You' before evaporating into thin air and Techno scrambles desperately to keep philza there. With him. Phil can't leave him-

But It wasn't Phil, It was a delusion.

Phil would never say that.

Technoblade wasn't worth those words.

Techno's surroundings fade and are changed into beautiful dark woods with a clearing, flowers surrounded his burrow and a small stream surrounds his burrow and patch of Flowers. The bright blue sky is above him without a single cloud.

He watches Phil swoop in the sky and gently land beside him with a beautiful smile thrown his way which was only reserved for Kristen- Bu-but Phil was smiling at him! Philza was grinning because of him! 

Technoblade watched the man's eyes light up- brighter than the blue sky as he looked down at The piglin hybrid.

Techno gave a big smile as he reached out for the other with a whine but as his hands touched Phil the man gave an expression of horror before screaming and puffing into smoke right as Technoblades hands touched him, Technoblade squealed in fear and tore his hands back clutching his hooves close to his chest as tears streamed down his face.

Technoblade pulled his knee's close to his chest as sobs racked his body the beautiful area starting to die, Flowers wilting before crumbling into dust, Tree's curling into themselves before collapsing into the now dry streams, Dead fish getting torn into by foxes before the animals chocked on the meat and collapsed desperately trying to cough and get air before going slack.

A baby fox stumbled over to him before disappearing into dest as his surroundings changed into the cage.

His cage.

His very first cage.

The one he hasn't been in for Fifty years.

Yes, Technoblade did research a few days ago and found out his actual age was Sixty-three. Pretty young for a god.

But it was the very first cage he was put into after he slaughtered his first mother.

He missed his first father and sister. And His Second Mother and Mama. But they're all dead. Been dead for a long time.

This whole Piglin period thing is getting worse by the second.

His surroundings change and he watches from afar as a seven-year-old Technoblade runs towards his Father with His sister not far behind, only four years younger.

The older piglin laugh's as he's tackled by two young pups who squeal in joy as their Guardian came back from the bathroom. Their mother came out of the mist moments later with a grin and new toys and golden trinkets in her hands for her pack.

He watches as the scenery changes again and his father rushes him inside pushing him under a table in the kitchen as his mother angrily shouts at his father, demanding to know where their monster was.

If Technoblade listened hard enough he could still hear his sister's screams as the lava engulfed her tiny body.

When The taller male piglin refused to tell she grew even more furious and slashed him across the neck, his body fell with a thump and his head came face to face with little Techno who screamed for the second time that day.

His mother angrily grabbed him by the scruff and dragged him out of their cave and past the lava pool where he had shoved his sister in moments before.

She prepared to throw him down the cliff into the warped forests where The sonder trapped hoglins and let them slowly die and where they put bad people as a punishment.

In an act of desperation, Techno watched as the younger him twisted from his mother's strong grip and kicked her in with all his might.

She screamed as she fell.

Technoblade watched as he was chased away from the nether by the sonder.

The smaller version of him was captured by hunters and was put into his very first cage.

The hunter's base was raided and he was saved.

He watched as he was picked up by two lovely women, A Cod hybrid, and a human.

They invited the smaller version of him into their home, they gave him shelter, nourishment, and love.

Then he watched as the village was raided and his mother raped and slaughtered in front of him before he was taken and put into the fighting ring.

Technoblade watched as he screamed and bled and fought others five times his size, he watched as decades went by in the ring. Trapped, beaten, and broken.

He watched as the Fighting ring was broken into and people scrambling to escape only to be killed a moment later. 

He watched as a woman yanked him from his cell and saw her head get swiped clean off her shoulders.

Technoblade watched as He was saved by the angel of death.

He watched as he played with A little Tommy, He watched as he cuddled with a little Wilbur watching the other fall asleep in his arms. He watched as he spoke and gossiped with Kristen, Techno watched as He sat outside and fed animals and made flower crowns with Tubbo. He watched as he adventured with Philza, Fighting wars, Swimming, Fishing, Hair braiding, Cuddling.

Then he watched Phil stab Wilbur, He watched Tommy for who knows how many times, He watches Tubbo slowly become a monster, He watches as Philza and Kristen drift away leaving him. alone. Like always.

Technoblade is alone.

And he always will be.

But then Ranboo appears in the mist grinning as he runs towards him, a bright laugh bubbling out of the endermans chest.

'Dad! Dad! Look! I found a bunny! It's so cute and fluffy!' Ranboo giggles showing him the white critter with beady red eyes and with a body the was fifty percent fluff.

"Cool, Where did you find it?" Techno asks a soft smile dancing on his lips as he reached over to pet the furry critter.

'Oh I found it-' Ranboo's voice cuts out as he turns to dust when Techno's hands touch the bunny.

"Ranboo! RANBOO!" Technoblade thunders jumping to his feet, He flicker's his eye's around his house looking for his pup- 

Where's his pup?? Where is he? Where where where. piglet. puppy. son. child. PUP. WHERE.

Technoblade trips over his feet and falls face-first into the floor, he curls into a ball and whines loudly before crawling back into his nest.

He needed to find his pup! But he can't move. He can't do anything. He's useless-

Technoblade passes out moments later.

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Philza and Ranboo head back to the tundra planning to stay in Philza's cabin. 

The storm had died down but it was pitch black and time for the both of them to go to sleep, They would check on Techno in the morning.

Ranboo sighed as the teen looked over at Techno's cabin, all of the lights were off so the piglin must have been asleep.

Phil offers him a tired smile before leading the both of them into Philza's house and they settle down for the night.

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Ranboo wakes up as the sun is high in the sky and finds Phil stretching his wings as he throws some wood into the fireplace.

"Oh! Morning Ranboo, How'd you sleep mate?" Philza smiles softly as ranboo sits up and stretches his back and arms with satisfying pops.

"hmmm, I slept fine, you?" Ranboo asks getting up as well putting his cloak back on as he gets ready for the freezing temperatures of the tundra for the day.

"Here ya go Mate" Phil gives Ranboo some watermelon which he eats happily vrooping in thanks.

When he's finished he hands what he didn't eat back to the other who puts it into the kitchen area before walking towards the door gesturing for Ranboo to follow.

"Wanna go and check on Techno mate?" Phil asks with a tight smile as he glances towards Techno's house.

Ranboo nods and they both make their way across the wooden bridge and stop once they're at Technoblades house, Phil reaches his hands to knock but nothing happens. After a few more seconds he knocks again and they hear some heavy shuffling and step back as Technoblade opens the door.

To say he looked like shit would be an understatement, the man looked like a got ran over by a herd of hoglins then shoved into a fortress full of wither skeletons with nothing but a stick.

The man looked like he could barely keep himself up and was breathing heavily as he leaned against the door his eyes usually a golden-red now a dark sizzling blood red with his pupils blown wide as he glances at the two of them.

"What are you guys doing here?" Techno asks his words slurred together as he struggles to keep himself upright.

Philza leaps forward catching the other in his arms despite the size difference leading or well, dragging the piglin hybrid over to a large pile of blankets and clothes that were shoved into the corner of the room.

Phil gently sat the other down and gave a startled look when Technobladw whined as the older released him.

Phil looked down at Technoblade who looked like a puppy who was kicked and tied up and forced to watch as his owner played with other puppies. (Don't ask where that came from because not even Ranboo knows)

Philza immediately sat down beside Technoblade and the other darted into the other side nuzzling his face into Phil's side, Philza carded his talons through the other's hair as Technoblade untensed and went slack in Philza's hold.

"What...What's going on?" Ranboo asked worriedly and tentatively walking over and standing beside the two adults.

Philza shrugged a terrified and worried expression on his face as he looked at the Sleeping Piglin Hybrid collapsed beside him.

"Get some healing potions and gapples, I'll call puffy," Philza says, Ranboo nods rushing over to one of technoblades chests searching for some healing potions, he finds some and a few stacks of gapples and brings them downstairs.

"-Alright then please bring it, If it can help us find out what's wrong with techno then I don't care!" Philza states before listening to the other person he was talking to, (most likely puffy) before sighing and giving a simple agreement before closing the communicator and glancing up at Ranboo.

"Here," Ranboo says handing the man the requested objects who gave a small thanks in return.

"What were you talking about?" Ranboo asked furrowing his brows as he looked at the other who glanced up at him and sighed.

"Puffy had found some ancient relic thing that lets people delve into another's mind as the others sleeping, we can use it to see if Technoblade knows what's going on with himself, But well. The side effect is that the user of it will feel every emotion that the other felt when they watch the other's memory- like say if I were to see one of Technoblades happiest memories I would feel that same happiness and would feel the same way he feels about the person he may have been spending his time with. understand?" Philza explains gently carding his talons through technoblades hair once again as he looks at Ranboo.

"I...I think so?" Ranboo says before nodding more resolutely as it clicks in his mind.

"Puffy will be here in a few minutes," Philza says starting to undo Techno's braid and takes a brush and starts combing it.

after a few minutes, Philza has finished the braid and a knock comes from the door, Ranboo gets up and opens it revealing Puffy on the other side.

She steps inside and hurriedly trots over to philza sitting down and taking something from her inventory.

"How does it work?" Philza asks as he changes Technoblades position on his make-shift nest thing, Puffy glances towards Technoblade and furrows her brows worriedly.

"Well, I place this crown-shaped thing on his head and then place my hands on top of his head," Puffy says gently taking techno's crown off and setting it to the side before placing a Silver looking one in its place, the enchantments gleam in the light.

"wait but shouldn't I do it?" Philza asks raising his hand only for it to get smacked away.

"Nope, knowing you you'll snoop through all of his memories and then go kill everybody that has wronged him before you actually solve our problem." Puffy deadpans and the other looks down sheepishly proving the ram hybrid right.

Puffy raises her hands and Ranboo watches from her side as she gently places her hands on Technoblades forehead.

There is no immediate reaction other than Puffy's eye's clouding up, she opens her mouth after a few seconds.

"He's currently fine, he's going through something similar to A Period that lasts for about a month, It happens every few decades in a piglins life, Technoblade's experienced one before. He'll get very hormonal. He may become very emotional, protective, territorial, He may experience pain and/or PTSD from past battles that might have not bothered him before. He also may become delusional and can experience something like heat or rut that other hybrids experience. Technoblade is Sixty three and experienced his last 'Piglin period' when he was twenty-three" Puffy explains frowning as she spoke.

"What the" Philza rears back in surprise mouth falling open before he glanced back up at puffy. Ranboo was also surprised by all of that information but also the fact that Technoblade was Sixty-three and had actually experienced one of these things before!?

"He's-he's what? Sixty Three!!??" Philza exclaimed staring wide-eyed at the man beside him.

"Did you not know that?" Puffy asks confusedly her eyes still cloudly as she asks.

"Yes he never told us how old he was- we never asked- I. I had just assumed he was twenty-one! Younger than Wilbur!" Philza exclaims waving his arms as he spoke.

"Puffy, could... Could you look and see why technoblades has been acting so weird lately?" Ranboo asks looking down at the ram woman.

"Sure..." Puffy replied tight-lipped as his cloudy eyes seemingly stared at nothing but were actually scanning Technoblades memories.

After a few minutes, Puffy's eyes widen and her mouth falls open.

Philza looks up in alarm opening his mouth "Puffy what's wrong!?" 

Puffy opens her mouth but then closes it before opening it again "I... He... Technoblade is very... very sad." She says crisply.

"Technoblades... sad?" Ranboo asks tilting his ears back and a stressed wrabble works its way out of his throat.

"Not because of you ranboo" Puffy quickly adds and Ranboo relaxes ever s slightly but still remains tense because- technoblade doesn't get sad! He barely ever even gets angry! If he's sad it has to be very big and worrying!

"Why...?" Philza asks his face scrunched up together in worry and he barely keeps his voice calm.

"Technoblade is... He's... well...." Puffy bites her lip before clearing her throat and opening her mouth once more trying again. 

"Technoblade doesn't feel like he has a brother-esc bond with Wilbur, Tommy, Ranboo, Tubbo, and Fundy. He... He thinks of them as his own children. but he believes that they despise him. That's... One of the reasons." Puffy says, her ears twitching as she bites her lips once more.

Phil tenses eyes widening and he opens his mouth before closing it.

"He... He really thinks that?" Philza asks his pointed ears tipped down.

"Yes. He believes that. I would as well if I hadn't been through multiple therapy sessions with the members of your family and seen how much they speak of him, in such a loving and fond way." Puffy says his lips twitching up ever so slightly.

Philza nods and then hums when he remembers that Puffy can't really see them at the moment.

"Now what was the other reason?" Phil asks ears twitching up and down as he watched Technoblade.

Ranboo's eyes flicked over to techno as well before settling on Puffy once more.

"Well... in his words.... 'She's got you mesmerized, while I die'..." Puffy says heavily, her face stone cold as the words left her lips.

Phil and Ranboo look at Puffy in confusion "What do you mean?" Ranboo asks tentatively.

"Technoblades In love with someone who's already in a relationship and is afraid to ruin their friendship and reveal his feelings. He wants to leave and try and forget these feelings b-but He also doesn't want them to feel bad- but I-He feels as if they would leave him at the drop of an ingot if they found out- he doesn't want him to leave him-" Puffy cuts herself off as her voice gets deeper and more monotone but also worried and frantic and Fearful.

Time seemingly stops as Puffy rips her hands away from Technoblade and takes the crown off of him quickly putting it away. Tears were leaking down her face, and Technoblades.

"Puffy what did that mean," Philza asks voice stern and terror and anger heavy in his eyes.

Probably at having the same thought process that Ranboo was having right then as well.

If Technoblade fell in love with someone they all knew he would give them Everything and anything to make them happy- and if he felt as if they were going to leave him the very second they found out then that person deserves to be Murdered in the worst way possible, drowning in their own blood, having all three lives stripped away from them-

"You. Technoblades in love with you Phil."

Silence falls over the cabin.

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Alright school has been on!(Sadly) I'll not be able to update as much as i used to-(Not that i ever really posted :3)-  and will most definitely be taking a while to post on ANY of my stories TvT

But yeahhhh thought ya'll would like to know! :3

Feel free to share any fanart you might have based on this story or anything like that!

I also don't have internet access for the computer that has all my writing and stuff on it!

But I've finished the last two chapters!

SO this story will be completed sooner or later! <3

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Technoblade wakes up hearing the words-

"You. Technoblades in love with you Phil."

And that was not what he had expected.

Technoblade timidly opened up his eyes and saw Phil staring blankly at Captain Puffy who was staring right back both at a loss for words. Techno snuck a glance to Ranboo who was straight as a board and watching with wide eyes.

After a few seconds of awkward silence Technoblade clears his throat gaining everyoens attention immeediantly "What the honk are you talkin bout?"

"Technoblade..." Phil trails off before swallowing heavily and starting again. "Why didn't you ever tell me?" 

Technoblade swallows as his mouth seems to instantly dry, he opens his mouth but clicks it shut before anything actually comes out.

After a few seconds he tries again "I have no clue what your talking about."

Phil bites his lips giving Technoblade a disbelieving look before groaning and putting his head in his hands.

Techno glances up and tries to keep his face as neutrual as possible when worries and insicerity's start squirming their way into his head.

Is Phil Disgusted? Is Phil trying to think of what to say before leaving? Is Phil going to take Ranboo away? Does Ranboo hate him? Is ranboo going to leave? What happened? How did they find out? How did Puffy know!? Technoblade was hiding it well! Or at least he thought.... 

Then Chat started blasting in his head practically making his ears ring as a wince slipped through his clenched teeth.

WHAT THE FUCK!?

IS THIS WHY TECHNOBLADES BEEN ACTING ALL WEIRD?????!!!!

WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF

Uhhhhhh Is this a JK Moment?

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PUFFY!!!???

Awwwwwwwww! <3 Young love!

Technoblade is most definitely NOT young. But yeah AWWWWWWWW!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

Ooffffffffffffffff I would DIE if this happened to me OwO

OwO

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW TECHNOBLADES GAY!!!!!!!?????????????

DISGUSTING!!!!

BUT THEIR JUST FRIENDS!!!????

WTF TECHNOBLADE!!!!!!?????

Okay Everyone say E if you wanna vote off the homophobes and gay haters

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Well that was actually oddly comforting.

Puffy swallowed nervously before standing up and walking over to Ranboo helping the other get off the floor. "We'll leave you too be."

The two of them left through the front door leaving Philza and Technoblade sitting in the room awkwardly and with tension so thick you could slice it with a sword.

"So you..... you 'like' me?" Philza asked, the word 'like' sounding foriegn on his tongue before finally looking up at Technoblade who immediantly looked away, too ashamed to properally look the man in the eye.

"Technoblade...." Phil trailed sternly and Techno looked up staring in between Philza's eyes not having the courage to look him in the eye.

Philza sigh's, his tense wings fluttering behind him before tightening trying to make himself appear smaller.

"Techo...." Phil started gritting his teeth and sighing once more he untensed his shoulders "How long?" 

Technoblade swallowed as his throat was dry and aggravating.

"How long have you felt that way Tech" Phil asks again, voice softer and Technoblade risks looking the avian in the eyes. Phil's eyes were blank and his brows were furrowed.

"Uhm... Maybe a year? Or two" Technoblade finally answered admitting his deepest secret that no one- not even chat knew about.

Phil sharply intakes a breath of air shoulders tensing and untensing before slouching and clasping his hands together.

"What....Really....?" Phil looks up hesitantly at Techno in sadness and guilt.

Technoblade was confused about just why Phil was looking at him in that way but he nodded never the less in confirmation.

Phil flinched and his body shook for a second and it took a moment but Techno that realize that Phil was crying.

He immediately leaped forward trying to look for any injuries and find whatever was hurting Phil.

"Phil! Phil? Whats wrong?" Terror gripped at Technoblades heart as he watched his best friend cry, tears sliding down his cheeks.

Techno didn't even notice he himself was crying- (had been crying for awhile) until Phil lifted his hand and tried wiping away Techno's own tears.

"I'm sorry Tech- I must have hurt you So-So much" Phil hiccuped shaking fiercely in his spot as he looked down at Techno with such guilt and regret.

"Phil- Its not your fault! It's mine- I- I was too stupid and fell for you when you were already taken! Not that I would even have had a chance if you weren't with someone but still-" Techno hurriedly says waving his hands about trying to explain and calm Phil down.

"No- No No no no no! No Techno! It wasn't your fault- I- i should have noticed! I.. I know how much it hurts to watch someone you love already with someone else..." Philza says, tone telling Techno that the man was genuinely speaking from experience.....

Which meant that 'someone' had hurt Phil in some way. 

Which meant that 'someone' needed to die.

"No! No techno! It's-It's alright! Really tech! But anyway I'm the one who's supposed to be comforting you! Not the other way around!" Philza said with a wet laugh pulling techno down when the piglin had attempted to stand.

"But-" Technoblade tried but Phil interrupted him with a soft glare.

"Let me explain Techno" Philza asks him pleadingly, Techno's ear flicks but he stays quiet.

Phil gave him a grateful smile before taking in a deep breath closing his eyes. He then exhaled, his eyes shiny from tears as he stared at the wooden floors.

"In the beginning... Me and Kirsten were just friends....yeah know? Death and her angel.... After awhile we became a sort of... Friends with benefits, then we forgot to wear a condom....A few times."  Philza admits with a sour grimce and Technoblade's heart swarms with jealousy but he keeps silent.

"Anddddddd she got preggo's with Wilbur" Philza answers nodding and then biting his lip, seeming to try and pick out his next words.

"I.... I thought that I was in love with her.... But a few years into our marriage I fell out of it. and I discussed it with Kristen and we decided to stay together.... for the kids..." Phil says biting his lips again he gives a quick glance up to Techno who's face was prety stotic with the exception of his furrowed brows. 

"We were still friends! We ARE still friends! But- well When I came here to check up on you all I-..." Phil trails off his gaze stuck on a floorboard as if it was the most interesting thing in the world.
 
"I had planned on telling you all that me and Kirsten were going to get a divorce... but with everything that happened... We never found a right time to break it to you guys. So we kept the facade up and running till everything cooled down! But- Even MORE shit happened!" Philza exclaims gripping his head in his hands, Techno resists the urge to curl against this mate(?) and comfort him to the best of his ability.

"And now I feel terrible for making you see me kiss Kristen so damned much when you were there! I- I was just feeling sexually frustrated and hoped that I could calm myself down- But when I told her late she said that all I was doing was making myself harder- Which god I'm an idiot And I'm sorry I made you go through that Techno" Phil rambles trying to push his head further into his hands with a timid chirp.

Technoblade's ears dip and pop up as different emotions come up- Phil being horny? that made Techno feel horny. Phil kissing Kristen while horny? Techno is now flaccid. but Philza horny-

Yeah, this train of thought kept going on repeat a few times.

"But....Yeah, I'm sorry that happened to you tech" Phil whispers sadly looking Technoblade in the eyes, they held contact for what felt like an eternity. Trapped in one another's gaze.

Philza broke the trance looking away sheepishly. "And... I had thought of myself as your father figure, but I also.... also thought of you romantically. I had tried to dampen it down ya-know? Thought that if I made you my kid legally that I would stop feeling these things and actually see yu as my son" 

Oh.

"You do know I'm around sixty right?" Technoblade asks raising a brow, Phil chokes on a laugh grinning like a loon, Techno gave his own smile.

"Sooo.... You like me back?" Techno asks quietly, his ears dipping and springing back up un-hearteningly.

"Yes Techno, I'm willing to give you a try" Philza adds the last part jokingly, Techno grins at the other.

"But I should probably tell Kristen and the others to clear some confusion and worry" Phil says, Techno nods along his smile never leaving his face throughout the rest of the night.

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Techno barked a laugh as he sprinted away as fast as he could, Philza was chasing after him with a silly smile on his face. His arms outstretched as he dive-bombed Techno into the snow before attacking techno's sides with tickles.

Techno screeched trying to buck Phil off but the avian latched on like a leech refusing to let go, Techno called out for mercy, and Phil now smug and satisfied let go.

The piglin didn't waste a second to roll onto his back pushing Philza to the ground with Techno on the other's lap grinning.

Philza flushed and Techno tilted his head questioningly before looking down and seeing their... ''situation'. Technoblades face heated up red and he scrambled off. (Neither were ready to go THAT far just yet, They haven't even had their first kiss yet. Though it's been a month since they got together. They had both agreed to take it EXTRA slow)

Techno offered a sheepish smile and Phil just smiled as he grabbed Technoblades offered hand and stood up, they sped back inside the cabin where Ranboo, Tommy, Tubbo, and Micheal waited.

"Come onnnnn let's play!!!" Tommy groaned pouting and gesturing to the Uno cards in the middle of their circle. Phil and Techno sat down beside each other extending the circle more and they grabbed their own seven cards.

They played for a few hours before Tommy had to do some business-y stuff with his hotel and Tubbo and Ranboo had to take Micheal home for bed.

Once everyone else had left the two Anarchist bro's sat side-by-side on the bridge connecting their houses. Simply watching the sunset, hand in hand.

Techno peaked at Phil and suddenly couldn't look away.

The man's hair looked like pure gold in the soft sunlight, glistening and beautiful. His eyes swirled with a gorgeous crystal-sea blue, sparkles in his eyes filled with wisdom, If you looked close enough behind his soft and kind self you would see he was practically as old as time itself, having witnessed the rise and fall of kings, queens, gods and everything in-between. His face was pink from the chilly arctic air, adding color to his chiseled jaw and cheeks. His scruffy short beard looked soft and fuzzy and gave the piglin the urge to kiss the avian and feel the scruff against his face.

Without much thought he leaned forward, their lips interlocking into a dance as pure bliss surrounded them. 

It felt like an eternity of love and joy before they had to break away for air.

They stared at each other. Lost in the other's gaze.

It was only broken when Ranboo teleported beside them with a sheepish grin. "Sorry, we forgot something! I'll go grab it and will be out of your hair in a minute!" 

Phil snorted as Techno jumped in surprise and shared some words with the Enderling before standing up and offering a hand to Techno, He took the hand and was led inside where they went up the ladder and curled against one another.

Technoblade never once thought that this could ever happen to someone like him.

But... He's thankful that it did.

THE END