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Seokjin was more than happy to have you next to him while he was cooking. Sure, he liked cooking solo to give himself time to think and be apart from his seven other friends but he wasn’t gonna lie and not say that your presence gave him peace. He looked at you from the corner of his eye and watched as you cleaned up the little its and bits of things that were dirty. He loved how your hair framed your face like a perfect picture. He loved how your skin seemed to radiate even in the glow of the kitchen light. Your eyes were clear and beautiful even if they weren’t directed at him and your beautiful, wonderful mouth was set in a small pout as you concentrated on a particularly hard to remove stain. Seokjin smiled, loving everything about you, and his glances turned into a full stare as he turned down the fire to the food to allow it to simmer. Everything about you was amazing he would never deny that.

But you weren’t his.

He did have a special relationship with you however. One that he would never want to replace. If this was all he could have with you then he was going to love every moment.

“Prince~?” Seokjin's voice rang out in a sing song fashion.

Your eyebrow twitched. You didn’t stop what you were doing. Instead choosing to ignore the older man and reaching over to start washing some silverware that had been left over from lunch time.

Seokjin smiled. “Aw is my Prince ignoring his Oppa? You know that’s not very nice.”

You sighed, trying so hard not to slip into Little space. You didn’t want to give Seokjin the satisfaction but you were losing the battle. You loved it when Seokjin called you his Prince. It was one of the many triggers to your head space but you were doing so well! You were alright being big for just a bit longer. You bit your bottom lip.

Seokjin silently appaulauded you on keeping control but he also knew that you forcing yourself out of Little Space wasn’t good on you mentally so he decided to pull out his new secret weapon. He reached above you into one of the many cabinets and pulled out a pretty rainbow sippy cup. In the light the little bits of glitter popped and shimmered. Seokjin was not surprised to see your eyes widen at the sight of it. He was glad he bought it earlier as a gift to you.

“I guess my precious Prince doesn’t want to drink from his new cup.” Seokjin shrugged his shoulders. “It’s such a shame too since I wanted to fill it up with apple juice and help my Prince drink it while he eats but I guess I’ll just have to wait until next time.” Seokjin faked a sad sigh as he stared at the cup longingly and started to place it back in the cabinet.

Your eyes were wide and you gasped as you reached up slightly for the cup, wanting it more than anything now.

“Wait.”

Seokjin looked at you, noticing how soft your voice had gotten and paused. He smiled at you, already imagining the cute outfits he was going to put you in. He had also gotten your favorite brand of nappies and he was more than excited to see you in them! You were just so cute in Little Space. Taking care of you was a nice break from the norm. He loved the distraction you gave him.

He loved you.

Not like he was ever going to say that out loud though.

“Yes Princess?” Seokjin loved alternating between the two gender specific terms. He knew it made you feel cute whenever he called you his Prince but he knew it made you feel a bit more...special whenever he called you Princess. He noticed how your eyes tended to dilate and how you would take a small but noticeable intake of breath whenever he said it. Seokjin may have not been able to take full advantage of that apparent weakness but he always felt a sense of pride whenever he was able to put you into Little Space with just the simple nickname.

Seokjin knew the others had nicknames for you and knew that they also had their own ways of getting you into your precious head space but none of them called you Prince or Princess. It was a name that only Seokjin used and he relished in the sight of you losing your grip and slipping into a more comfortable head space. He loved seeing you so carefree and happy. It made all the stress of the day melt away.

Your eyes drifted from the cup to Seokjin’s eyes and you continued to bite your lip. Your hands came together to your shirt and bunched up the fabric. Your eyes then drifted down to the floor, almost embarrassed to tell him that you did indeed slip, and you jumped when you felt Seokjin’s fingers touch your chin to make you look up at him. His thumb caressed your mouth, pulling slightly on your bottom lip. “Now now Princess you know no one likes it when you bite your lips like that.”

You nodded your head. “Sorry Oppa.”

Seokjin’s heart swelled once he heard you speak. This was what he lived for. His eyes softened as he stared into yours and sighed softly, his smile was small but filled with love. You gave him a smile back.

“You’re such a good boy, (Y/N).” Seokjin’s fingers left your chin and went to your soft hair. He ran his fingers through it and his smile grew as you leaned into his touch. “The best boy in the world.” He had to stop himself from telling you he loved you at that moment. He had to prepare himself to show you only a little bit of love at a time. He couldn’t show you everything. He wasn’t allowed to. He didn’t want to mess things up and possibly lose you.

He wouldn’t know what to do.

You smiled wider at the praise. “Thank you, Oppa.” You started fidgeting with your shirt again. “Um...can I have the cup please?”

Seokjin was more than happy to give you the new cup he got you. He was so happy he got it. The rainbow colors and sparkles made him think of you instantly. The look of pure joy on your face as you stared at it made everything worth it.

Seokjin turned toward the stove and turned everything off as dinner was now done. Despite Seokjin’s distractions you had done your part as well. Now it was just setting up the table and dishing everything out. But first Seokjin had to take care of his Prince.

“Honey?” You looked up at him, in reality he wasn't that much taller than you but in your own little world Seokjin was a giant compared to you.

You smiled at him, holding your cup like it was the greatest gift in the world. "Yes Oppa?"

Seokjin kissed the top of your head, loving the attention you gave the gift he got you. "How about we change you into a pull up and get ready for dinner?"

"And then I can get juice?" You asked while grabbing onto one of his hands.

"Of course my Prince."

Seokjin held your hand and exited the kitchen. "Can one of you start setting the table?" He called to whoever was in the living room.

"Kookie will do it!" You heard Jimin yell.

"What?" You giggled when you heard Jungkook's groan of frustration. "Get (Y/N)-Hyung to do it."

You looked up at Seokjin as he spoke. "(Y/N) is in little space right now and needs to be changed into something more appropriate." Seokjin called out as he ushered you into his shared room with Hoseok. "Please set the table." He called out again, a silent ‘or else’ seemed to hang in the air as he closed the door. You could almost imagine Jungkook’s pouty face as he got up with Jimin and apparently Taehyung to go to the kitchen.

“Aww (Y/N) is in little space.” Taehyung sighed happily. “I know Seokjin-Hyung must be excited about that. He’s been so busy lately.” Jungkook nodded in agreement.

Jimin smiled at the two younger boys as he and Tae helped Jungkook set the table. He looked at Tae and bit his lip slightly. “Shouldn’t we call Hyung?”

Jungkook looked over at Taehyung and the second eldest shrugged, knowing who Jimin was referring to. “I think as long as I’m aware of it happening and I keep a close eye on him in his place it should be fine.” He ran a hand through his blue hair. The other two nodded and continued their work, excitement coursing through them in hopes to be able to play with their baby before the night was over.
~*~*~*~
“Sunshine!”

“Sunny!”

Hoseok smiled when you came into the room with Seokjin. You rushed into his open arms and he proceeded to cover your face with kisses. “Look, look, look what Jin Oppa gave me!” You showed him your new cup once you were able to move away from the onslaught.

Hoseok pouted as you kept trying to move away from him but his eyes lit up once he saw the sippy cup. He knew Seokjin had to be happy to finally give that to you as he was there when Seokjin bought it. “Wow! It’s so shiny and pretty! Just like my precious baby boy!” He started kissing you all over your face again, making you squeal and giggle. “Did you say thank you to Seokjin-Hyung?”

Your eyes widened as you looked over to Seokjin who had just finished gathering some clothes and a pull up for you. He smiled lovingly at you. “Yes my Prince? What is it?”

You ran over to Seokjin and hugged him tightly. “I’m sorry Oppa! I didn’t say thank you! Is Oppa mad?”

Seokjin ran his hand through your hair and kissed your forehead. “No baby I’m not mad. How could I be? Your smiling face was the greatest form of thanks I could have ever gotten.” You grinned. “But it would be nice to hear it.” Seokjin added.

You kissed his cheek. “Thank you Oppa! I love you!”

Seokjin’s heart skipped a beat at your words but he had to remember that you weren’t his. The love you showed him was nowhere near as much as he liked. Nowhere near as strong as the love you showed your Daddy.

He smiled for you nonetheless and kissed your forehead again. “I love you too Princess. Now come on. Let’s put you in a pull up so you can eat. Afterwards its bath time and then new jammies!” Seokjin held up the cute blue onesie. It had a bunch of cute striped colors and candy all over it. You grinned at the sight, loving the new outfit as much as Seokjin loved buying it.

“Thank you Oppa!” You rushed over to Seokjin’s bed and sat down with a bounce, gasping when you saw one of your favorite plushies on the pillow. You held it tightly against you almost dropping your prized rainbow cup.

Hoseok had watched the interaction between you and Seokjin. He knew of Seokjin’s feelings for you. Hell he had feelings for you too but he was able to hide it a little better. Instead whenever he was in charge of you during your head space he spoiled you rotten, much to your main caregivers dismay. He didn’t know how you had such a pull over him and the others but you did and Hoseok was damn certain that he was gonna take care of you for the rest of his life if he was able to. He was pretty sure Seokjin and the others felt the same way.

He stood up and walked over to Seokjin, hugging him from behind. The older one blushed but he sighed and happily leaned back into Hoseok.

All of the members, in one way or the next, were with each other. The seven of them were okay with what they had. That is until one of them caught feelings for you. It was difficult at first but they all grew to care for you like they all knew you for years. Then one by one, with some heavy convincing, they all became your caregivers. Now they all loved you and besides one exception they were sure your boyfriend wasn’t too keen on sharing you with anyone else. Everyone accepted the terms and loved being close to you but they all really wanted you in a more...intimate setting. None of them were gonna lie about it but they sure as hell were gonna hide it.

“You okay?”

Seokjin looked back at Hoseok, sighing softly but keeping a small smile as to not alarm their Little. “Yeah. It’s just getting harder to hold myself back. I love him so much. You know?”

Hoseok nodded his head and let go of Seokjin to reach over for his phone. “I’m gonna check on the younger ones and make sure they’re not causing trouble. I’ll also call Namjoon and Yoongi-Hyung to let them know that (Y/N) is little.”

Seokjin nodded his head. “Yeah. Even if Taehyung's here to keep an eye out it's for the best. Thanks Hoseok.” They both smiled at each other as Hoseok waved to you and left the room. You waved back and stared at Seokjin as he came closer to you. “Alright my Prince. Let's put you in this and then we can go eat!” He grabbed the pull up and helped you out of your shorts and boxers. You giggled and smiled as you flailed your legs around, making it a small challenge for the male to put on your pull up.

When Seokjin was able to get the small victory, after mercilessly tickling you for making his job harder, he went into his bedside drawer and got out a purple pacifier with the matching clip and clipped it onto your shirt. You smiled widely and bounced on the bed only stopping once Seokjin gave you a look. You didn’t like it when Seokjin was mad at you and do your best to avoid it. Sometimes it was inevitable but you were always happy once the punishments were over and you were everyone’s good boy again.

“You go out and pick a seat okay Princess? Oppa is gonna finish setting up your night time clothes.” He patted your head. “Ask someone to help you with your juice okay?”

“Okay!” You leaned up to kiss Seokjin but didn’t notice that your lips touched his as you immediately ran out the room, pretty cup in hand.

“Don’t run!” Seokjin called out to you as he touched his lips with the tips of his fingers. There was one rule that your Daddy put as a warning to everyone else and it was to not let anyone else kiss you on the lips. Again, there was only one exception. Seokjin wondered if he should say anything? Should he risk a misunderstanding and possibly lose you? Would he be able to go back to how things were and only treat you like a friend?

No.

Some things were better left unknown.
~*~*~*~
You ran into the living room, seeing Hoseok and the maknae line. Namjoon and Yoongi weren’t there yet and seeing that made you pout but one look at Taehyung made most of the feelings go away as you ran up to him. Him and Jungkook were playing some kind of racing game and he smiled once he felt your weight on him.

“Oh wow! Hi Angel!” Taehyung put the controller down and grabbed onto you, hugging you tightly. Jungkook had already paused the game and smiled as he watched you and Taehyung laugh. He was about to reach out to you when Taehyung suddenly kissed you. You laughed loudly and kissed around his face after he let you go.

Taehyung was the exception.

Jungkook sighed and looked over to Jimin and Hoseok who seemed just as lost as he was. Sure they knew that in no time at all you were gonna go over to them and give them all the attention they wanted but...they wanted more and they were all extremely jealous that Taehyung was the only other person that got to be so close to you.

“Are you excited to eat?” Tae asked you. “Did you help Seokjin-Hyung cook?” You nodded your head and showed him your cup as you started talking about which color you thought shined the brightest. “It’s as sparkly as your eyes baby.” He nuzzled your nose with his.

“I love you Papa!”

Taehyung smiled. “I love you too my precious Jewel.”

Everyone there couldn’t stop the stabbing feeling they felt in their hearts.

Once Seokjin came out of the room, his heart sank at the sad smiles he saw from three of the younger men. He was happy that Taehyung was at least getting the attention he wanted for so long as he and Jungkook knew first hand of Tae’s struggle with his feelings towards you. However Seokjin was the one who put you in Little space today and he wanted to have his time with you. Taehyung was always going to have you. He was a priority. Seokjin wanted to feel special now.

“Come on Princess time to eat.” You gasped and got up, pulling Taehyung and Jungkook up as well. Jungkook relished in the softness of your hand. Hoseok had looked over to Seokjin as he took a seat next to him. Jimin made sure that you were sitting next to Seokjin even though both Tae and Jungkook were reluctant to let go of your hands. “Namjoon and Yoongi said they were coming up now.” Seokjin told Hoseok as he sat down, taking care to place a bib around your neck as you climbed up on the seat next to him. Jimin ruffled your hair once your bib was secured.

The plates were just set up when everyone turned toward the door to see two of their missing members show up. Namjoon and Yoongi both sighed as they stepped into the house, taking in the familiar and relaxing smells of their home. Namjoon was the first one to look over at everyone and waved. Everyone smiled at him. Yoongi had went straight to his room, probably to put away his stuff and get washed up for dinner. Namjoon had noticed the bib around your neck as you waved at him and rushed over to you to give you a couple of kisses on your cheeks. Even though he was already aware of you being little seeing you in your bib and the innocent glow in your eyes made his heart race in happiness.

“How’s my sweet Baby boy?” He asked as he leaned over to give quick kisses to both Jimin and Jungkook. They seemed to have needed it as both of them broke into a small fit of giggles along with you.

“Good!” You exclaimed as you went to reach over for your pretty rainbow cup to show him but your hand suddenly came up empty. You looked around, not seeing it in front of you and your eyes suddenly swelled up with tears.

Everyone at the table panicked slightly, not looking forward to Yoongi coming out and seeing you upset.

It was then that Seokjin noticed what was missing. “Oh Princess.” He wiped at your face with his thumb and whispered your nickname soothingly. “Did you leave your cup in the living room?” He asked. You nodded your head, small sniffles escaping.

“I’ll get it.” Namjoon said as he walked over and saw the very obvious rainbow and glittery cup on the floor. He walked back over and smiled at you. “This is really nice Baby. Can you tell me who gave this to you?”

You smiled, happy that so far everyone liked the gift Seokjin gave you. It was sure to be your favorite for quite a while. “Jin Oppa gave it to me.”

Namjoon smiled. “Would you like me to put some juice in it?”

You rubbed your eyes, happy that you could still have juice before bedtime. You nodded your head. “Yes please Appa.”

Namjoon grinned, showing his dimples which you were quick to poke at. He then went into the kitchen to give you your precious drink. It was when he gave it to you and sat down to eat that the atmosphere became a bit heavier.

Yoongi stepped into the dining room and he looked tired. Him and Namjoon had spent most of the day in their studio, making sure everything was perfect for the next tour. Yoongi wasn’t too thrilled to go as he had to leave you but he knew he had a job to do and whether you were big or little he knew you understood and loved the fact that you were the main one cheering him on.

“Hey Beautiful.”

You turned around quickly when you heard his voice. Your face breaking into a huge smile, the biggest anyone had seen today. “Daddy!” You jumped off the chair and ran to him. You hugged him tightly and sighed in content when you felt his arms wrap around you in a similar fashion. He stared into your eyes, noting that you were in Little Space as Hoseok had told him earlier. He didn’t want to overwhelm you so the kiss he gave you was small but full of longing.

“I missed you Baby Doll.” He whispered to you.

“I missed you too Daddy.” You blushed. “Oppa got me a new cup! Wanna see?”

Yoongi nodded his head, knowing he didn't really have much of a choice since you were obviously so excited. The atmosphere lightened up and everyone watched as you dragged Yoongi to the table. Everyone there loved how you made Yoongi feel. Hell Yoongi loved how you made him feel. You were the best thing that ever happened since being with BTS. He was so glad to have someone like you by his side.

You pouted when Yoongi went to sit next to Namjoon but was more than happy to sit next to Seokjin again. Seokjin shared your feelings and was grateful that you didn’t leave him for Yoongi or Taehyung. He couldn’t help but blush a bit when Yoongi told him ‘thank you’ for buying you the cup. It was the least he could do.

He loved you after all.

He loved both of you.

But he was only allowed to tell one of you that.
~*~*~*~
“Can you say nite nite to everyone Sweetie?”

You smiled and giggled at Jimin as he nuzzled his face into you. Dinner had come and gone and after some much needed cuddles from Yoongi you were already bathed and ready for bed time. You were sitting on Seokjin’s bed and were pretty much waiting for everyone to come in and wish you goodnight.

You loved your night time routine.

Jimin had came rushing in first as soon as Seokjin snapped your onesie closed. Everyone else gave a small laugh or chuckle as they watched and crowded into the room, waiting to give you affection for the last time of the day. Jimin grabbed you and squeezed you only letting go since both Seokjin and Yoongi had voiced their concerns.

“Nite nite, Minnie Eomma.” You giggled. Jimin cooed and kissed your forehead. He then went around the room kissing all his boyfriends before retiring to his room with a final wave goodbye.

“Night Sweetheart!” Jimin called out.

“Nite nite, Kookie!” You hugged Jungkook tightly, feeling as though he hadn’t given you much attention since slipping into your head space.

Jungkook did the same as Jimin, he went around the room, giving everyone a kiss and kissing your hands like the Prince you were. “Night Precious.” He honestly couldn’t wait to get you alone. He needed some reassurance. He wanted your attention but he would wait for you. He’d wait for you forever if it meant he’d be able to stay by your side.

“Nite nite, Appa!” Namjoon chuckled at the nickname and rolled his eyes when you puckered up your lips. He took a sneak peek at Yoongi before leaning down and giving you his cheek which you happily planted a very big kiss on. He hugged you and then went around to give the others affection.

“Good night Baby boy.” He went to join Jimin in their shared room.

“Papa! Papa!” Taehyung smiled and hugged you tightly, loving the feel of you in his arms. You rubbed your eyes and Tae gave you his usual boxy grin as he grabbed onto your hands to stop you from rubbing them raw. “Almost done Angel. Don’t you wanna say good night to daddy too?" Tae's smile didn't fade as you nodded your head. He loved seeing you happy. He ran his fingers through your hair and you snuggled into his hand. Tae gave his kisses and good nights to everyone else and went into his and Jungkook's shared room.

Yoongi grinned once it was his turn and wrapped his arms around you. He snuggled you and kissed your forehead, your eyes, your cheeks, your nose, your chin which you laughed at and then your lips. "You be good for Hoseok and Seokjin-Hyung okay?" You nodded. "Who's my favorite baby?" Yoongi pinched your cheeks.

"Daddy, I'm your only baby." You yawned.

"Then that makes you my favorite right?" Yoongi winked.

You smiled. Your daddy can be so silly. "Yeah!”

Yoongi gave you one more kiss before going over to Seokjin and Hoseok and giving them their kisses and hugs too. “Get some sleep.” He told the three of you.

“Speak for yourself Yoongi!” Seokjin called him out, knowing that if anyone didn’t get sleep it would be him. Hoseok laughed, silently agreeing with the older male.

Yoongi rolled his eyes. “Good night.” He gave you one last look and smile before closing the door and going to his own room, you waving good night being the last thing he saw.

“Now I get you all to myself!” Hoseok exclaimed while going over to you and snuggling you. You started laughing but you had stopped to let out a big yawn. “Aw is my Sunshine going to sleep too?” You nodded your head. “Okay then.” He kissed your head. “You get some sleep okay? Dream happy dreams.” He looked up at Seokjin before giving you eskimo kisses. “Dream of us.” He muttered, almost pleading. Seokjin’s heart clenched at the desperation in Hoseok’s voice.

“Nite nite, Sunny.” You laid down on the bed, cute bunny plushie in hand.

“Night Sunshine.” He leaned down and gave Seokjin a kiss once he was settled next to you. “Night Seokjin.”

“Night Hoseok.” Seokjin smiled at him. He looked down at you, seeing you trying to keep your eyes open for your final part of your night time routine. The last goodnight. Seokjin leaned down and pressed a soft and gentle kiss to your temple and ran his fingers through your hair. Your eyes began to close and you turned around to get more comfortable, now facing Seokjin. Seokjin smiled and reached down to place your pacifier in your mouth. Your eyes were barely open but he could tell that you looked up at him.

“Nite nite, Oppa. I love you.”

Seokjin’s heart skipped a beat. He nodded his head and got more comfortable on his bed. He held you close to him and loved the way you felt against him as you snuggled closer. You were his precious baby when you were little and you were one of his best friends when you were big. No matter what headspace you were in you made him feel like a person. You made him feel loved. You made his heart beat in a way that he only thought was possible for his six other lovers.

Was there really no other way he could be with you?

“Good night my Prince.” Seokjin whispered in your ear. “I love you more.” With that Seokjin tried to relax. He held onto you and tried to dream happy dreams. Ones where you weren’t just his cute little Prince but you were also his lover, someone to hold and cherish. You didn’t just belong to Taehyung and Yoongi. You were with everyone. You loved everyone and everyone loved you. It was a perfect dream. Too bad it was just that.

Just a dream.

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When Yoongi woke up the next morning it took him sitting up quickly and looking around the room in a panicked state before he remembered that you were safe and sound in Seokjin and Hoseok’s shared room. He lay back down in his bed, his face buried in his pillow. He peeked his head up and saw the panda stuffie he got you laying next to him. He grabbed onto it and couldn’t help but take a deep breath, the familiar smells of you calming him down. You always did smell like fresh fruits and candy. He laughed to himself, remembering when he brought you your new body wash and how you gushed over how sparkly the foamy substance looked once you used it. It was then that his smile grew into a small frown.

He missed you.

He didn’t like it when you weren’t around him. It had been like that since the first time he was able to sneak you into their home. He remembered the ear full he got from Seokjin afterwards but it was worth it.

After all look where he is now.
~*~*~*~
Yoongi had met you on a bus. You seemed to be stressed and he had this urge that he had to calm you down. Even when you had realized who he was you didn't make a scene. In fact you treated him like a normal person. It was that that made him interested. When you left there was almost like a pull. He knew he would never see you again if he didn't go and catch up to you. Something in his heart told him that he had to get to know you.

After that it was pretty much history.

Yoongi was excited to introduce you to the rest of the guys. You were a big fan of theirs and because of some unknown pull towards you he was more than excited to get to know you in a more secluded place, away from the public eye. You seemed to radiate with this almost pure energy. It was the kind of energy he always wanted to be around. You reminded him of the type of energy that Taehyung or even Hoseok had. It was addicting; the kind of pull you had on his very soul. He wanted to know more about you. He didn’t think it would’ve been a problem to become friends with you and surely you would definitely become friends with everyone else. He was counting on it. After all there was no him without the whole BTS group.

Once he had gotten to know you a bit more, like your favorite kind of music, your favorite food and color, how you liked to relax and what you did in your spare time, Yoongi got attached and it hurt when you had to leave. It was just as hard as not seeing one of the members for a certain amount of time because of busy schedules, despite being in the same house. That feeling grew the more he texted and talked to you. The more he got to know you the more he realized that he wanted you around him more.

Which didn’t help.

The maknae line grew attached instantly. You had a love for photography that almost rivaled Taehyung and Jungkook and your bright personality and love for certain foods instantly made Jimin want to know you as well. The rest of the hyung line was a bit interested in you as well. Seokjin loved your passion for cooking and Disney Princesses whereas Namjoon loved your honesty and passion for all things cute and Hoseok loved to hear what you had to say about movies and dancing, even though you didn’t dance a lot yourself you always did appreciate the way a dancer’s body moved with the beat of music or how it seemed to tell a story.

Yoongi was more than happy when everyone admitted to liking you and wanting to earn your friendship. When you admitted to wanting to hang out with everyone as well Yoongi was on cloud nine. He wanted nothing more than to be happy with you and the guys. It made things even better once he told you about his relationship with the rest of BTS and how you were perfectly okay with it even going as far as to help him plan out surprise presents for anniversaries or birthdays. You made things fun for him. It was only then that he realized something…

He was in love with you.

He knew he had to tell the others about this.

But how?

How was he supposed to tell everyone that he was falling in love with you? How could he convince them that this wasn't just an ordinary crush? How could he prove that he wasn't just lonely and you were a substitute? How could he get them to trust you?

How can he tell them and not lose them?

It wasn't easy having that conversation. There were tears, thoughts of betrayal, threats of ending the whole relationship and a lot of hurtful words were said. In the end, thankfully, BTS stayed together but Namjoon and Seokjin were very protective of everyone and once everyone calmed down they began to avoid you. Mostly to fix up the slight disturbance Yoongi's confession caused but mostly to try and forget about you. They were idols after all. Being with you would only cause a scandal. No one wanted that.

It was hard at first, the friendship everyone built began falling apart day by day to the point that you even stopped coming over. It didn't help once Yoongi told you his feelings either as you started to blame yourself for everyone else's obvious distance towards you. You never wanted to come between them. BTS had done so much for you and the rest of ARMY that you couldn't stand the thought of being the one to break that up. You stopped seeing Yoongi and refused to answer his texts and calls hoping to let go of all of them and just being thankful that you were able to meet and befriend such a group of amazing people.

It was then that BTS saw how much you meant to them.

They knew you were special from day one but once everyone saw how devastated Yoongi had gotten the picture became clear. Seokjin realized how happy you made him whenever you started singing random Disney songs and laughed at his jokes. Hoseok missed the way you would talk to him and give him your opinions on his new choreography. Namjoon liked it when you treated him like a person and how you seemed to always make him smile. Jimin liked your enthusiasm and loved how you made him feel about himself. Taehyung loved the way you helped him practice and was always interested in listening to whatever he had to say and Jungkook loved the attention you gave him. You let him be the kid he sometimes wanted to be instead of always being the golden maknae.

They all missed you.

And they wanted you back.

They all talked again. Namjoon being everyone's voice and telling Yoongi to try and get you to come back. They missed the normalcy you brought into their lives. Sure it sounded a bit selfish but even they deserved happiness. You made them happy. Your smile made them realize that what they were doing was right. That being BTS was right. They loved making music but they loved doing it for ARMY just as much if not more. They needed you there with them again.

Yoongi was hesitant. He still loved you. He didn't think he should take that risk and lose everything for one person. From Seokjin to Jungkook everyone had a piece of his heart. He didn't want to get hurt again. He didn't want to hurt them again.

That was when they all said it.

They all told Yoongi to get you back. They told him to love you. They told him that it was okay and that they all did love you in their own ways. They gave Yoongi the strength, love and courage to find you and apologize.

It was then that you and Yoongi started your relationship.
~*~*~*~
Yoongi sighed at the memories and blinked his eyes as he looked at the screen on his phone. The wallpaper was of you and him. It was a simple picture that Taehyung had shot of the two of you. It was a peaceful moment. You two were happily lounging on the couch, watching TV. You weren't in Little Space but you were hugging your panda plushie and laying your head on Yoongi's lap. Yoongi himself looked at peace and it reminded him of when he found out about your head space.
~*~*~*~
It was during the time that Yoongi was trying to get in contact with you again. He had sent you plenty of messages; they all did. He tried calling you a bunch of times and he even tried finding you at some places you had once told him you frequented on occasion. He couldn't seem to find you.

And then he did.

Jungkook noticed you first. He recognized you from your hair and the many BTS keychains you had on your bag. He called out to you and you only proved him right when you hesitated and started to briskly walk away faster. You managed to get to your building without them catching you, having lived in your area for so long now that you knew all the shortcuts and all the populated places that would make the popular K-pop band slow down and check their surroundings.

Unfortunately though they were persistent and managed to catch you at your front door as you only lived on the first floor of the apartment complex. It was Yoongi himself who managed to catch up to you. He was breathing heavily and honestly looked like he was about to pass out. You weren't doing so well either cause who the fuck runs anymore!

While staring into each other's eyes everything started to dawn on you. All the stress from work, school and losing not only your crush, that you didn't want to admit out loud yet, but also the most amazing best friends you would possibly ever have while simultaneously trying to forget about them once they tried to come back to you. All of that stress had suddenly gotten to you. It had cause you to slip into your head space and you proceeded to cry.

Yoongi, as well as the rest of them once they caught up, didn't know what to do. They ushered you inside the house before your neighbors thought you were in trouble and tried to see what to do.

You were almost inconsolable and we're barely making any sense when any of them asked you a question. It was then that Taehyung asked you a question that changed everyone's perspective of you.

"(Y/N)? How old are you?"

When you looked up at him and held up three fingers Taehyung smiled his boxy smile and ran his fingers through your hair. He then got some tissues and wiped your face and helped you blow your nose, giving you praises whenever you did something good and keeping his voice steady and calm. Everyone at that point had a whole bunch of questions but was more interested in you. They wanted to see what you would do next.

You ended up relaxed in Tae's arms and he hummed to you while you calmed down. By the time he was done singing '4 o clock', he somehow got Namjoon to join, you were calm and a bit ‘bigger’. You were immediately embarrassed but ended up explaining everything. It was the least you could since not only did they find you but they chased you all the way to your house. You told them about your Little Space and even how you were gonna try moving to avoid them since you knew of your crush on Yoongi and didn’t want to cause anymore problems. You didn't want to keep ignoring them but at the same time you didn't want to be the reason why BTS was having problems. You cared about all of them.

You didn't realize it but all of them were looking at Yoongi. You ended up moving away from Taehyung and sitting alone in the middle of the seven boys. You didn't want to look at them but it wasn't until you felt a presence next to you that you looked up to see none other than Yoongi there. You already knew of the composer's feelings for you and even if you didn't want to admit it you knew he had to have been listening to you as you poured out your heart to all of BTS.

When you tried to look away from Yoongi you felt his delicate fingers touch your chin. He lifted up your head and he brought his lips down to yours. Your eyes widened and your heart jumped to your throat. The kiss was quick but it left you wanting more but even then you stared at Yoongi and looked toward the rest of the team. "Is it really okay?"

Seokjin looked at everyone and they nodded their heads. You looked back at Yoongi and he was giving you that perfect gummy smile. He nodded his head as well. "It's okay." He placed his hands on your face and brought your noses together. "It's okay." He repeated.

Tears welled up in your eyes and you smiled. "Okay. Thank you." You looked toward the rest of BTS. They were the men that gave you reasons to go through your life. They gave you hope and so many smiles. They gave you tears and love and you were so happy and felt so honored to be a part of something like this. To be able to love Yoongi and still be friends with the others was, in lack of a better word, incredible.

"So does this mean Yoongi is your Daddy?" Taehyung suddenly said, ruining the whole moment and causing your mouth to gape open in surprise. Jimin and Jungkook started laughing out loud and even the rest of the Hyung line started chuckling. You couldn't even look at Yoongi.

"That sounds fine."

Everyone stopped, including you, and looked at Yoongi. "What?" You muttered.

"I like the idea of being your Daddy." He shrugged. "You've helped me through some rough times so the least I can do is do the same for you." He reached over and ran his hand through your hair. "I wanna learn how to take care of you. Would you teach me?"

You smiled, barely believing his words. "Yeah." You then looked over at Taehyung. "I guess Taehyung can help too."

"Yeah, about that.” Namjoon started. “How did you know that (Y/N) went into Little Space?" Everyone looked at Tae.

Tae shrugged. "I knew a friend that was interested in it. I was their caregiver for a bit. It was fun." He smiled at you. "If Yoongi can't take care of you I'll help!" He smiled at you. You could tell he meant it and you were grateful.

You nodded your head. "Okay Papa!" You blushed. You said it jokingly but saying it made you start to slip. "Um...that's okay too right?" Taehyung smiled and nodded his head, noticing how when you started to slip your voice got quieter. It was cute.

Yoongi grabbed onto you and held you. "As long as I'm his only Daddy then you can do whatever you want." He mumbled, looking at Taehyung. "So do you wanna go home now?" He looked at you.

You looked at Yoongi and then down the line from Seokjin to Jungkook. You smiled shyly. "Can I bring a stuffie?"

Yoongi nodded his head. "If it means I can take you home and have you with me again then you can bring anything you want." You immediately squealed and hugged Yoongi, getting up and running to your room to get some supplies from your Little Space corner.

Bringing you home was the greatest feeling Yoongi and the boys had. They had no idea what they were in for now that they were taking care of a Little but they were excited. They had their friend back and big or small they were happy.
~*~*~*~
Yoongi put his phone down when he heard his door opening. He smiled when he heard a faint giggle and he closed his eyes. When he saw the time he knew that Seokjin was up and making breakfast and with him up that meant you were up as well. He braced himself expecting what was about to happen.

There was a loud groan once you jumped onto the bed. “Daddy! Daddy! Daddy! Wake up!”

Yoongi rolled his eyes. “Wake everyone else up first baby.”

“I already did that!” You exclaimed. “I made sure Daddy got a lot of sleep so he can get up for food!” You got on top of Yoongi and started to bounce on him.

Yoongi was happy at your consideration to let him sleep in but he was also happy that you were bouncing on his side. In the time that Yoongi got to know you he’s learned to you had a more...kinkier side to you. However this wasn’t the time to think about those moments. He rolled over onto his back, his hands grabbing your waist to stop you from moving. You giggled, being lightly tickled. He stared at you, his platinum blond hair covering his eyes. You moved his hair out of the way and you smiled brightly when he smiled back at you. “Hi Beautiful.” He leaned in for a kiss which you were more than happy to return. “How little are we feeling today? Do you wanna hang out with Daddy today at the studio?”

Your eyes lit up at the sound of hanging out with your daddy at his workplace. You loved listening to his music and watching him work. Your daddy was amazing! “Um…” You thought about your answer to his questions even though Yoongi could practically feel your excitement. “Four? Maybe five?”

“Four or five?” Yoongi snuggled into you. “You’re feeling kinda big today aren’t you?” You giggled. “Normally that tells me you’re trying too hard to be big and you know Daddy doesn’t like that.” You shied away from Yoongi’s cold stare. “But...it also just means that once you take a nap you’ll be my small baby doll again.” He smiled again, his fingers combing through your hair in a weak effort to put the loose strands down. “After breakfast we’ll just have to pack you a bag full of little things just in case okay?”

“Okay!” You gave Yoongi a big hug. Your daddy was so smart and was always so prepared. You really did love him big or small. You wouldn’t know what to do without him and were always so proud of everything he did. Yoongi was literally your whole world.

Once Yoongi got up from the bed you immediately started to drag him into the dining room where Jin was putting the last touches on the plates with Namjoon’s help. The boys said their good mornings and Namjoon reminded them of upcoming schedules. You sat in between Taehyung and Yoongi and loved the bits of attention you were getting from both of them even if Yoongi was telling Taehyung to not spoil you too much since you were feeling a little older than usual. You had gotten smiles from everyone around the table, loving the family bonding you were having. This was the best thing ever!

Once breakfast was over and you had sufficiently ruined your onesie when you tried helping Seokjin and Jimin do dishes you ran over to Yoongi’s room to get changed and dressed. You weren’t really happy to still have to wear a pull up but Yoongi was right when he told you that you were gonna probably regress a bit younger after your nap. He had never been wrong before.

You chose your outfit, dressing a bit more older so no one would stare at the two of you when you walked outside. Not like Yoongi cared but he knew you did. Once you got to the studio it became a normal day. You colored, you watched cartoons on Daddy’s phone, you played with your shark plushie that you brought with you and you even sang some songs with Daddy. Yoongi even let you listen to his new music. He told you you were the first person to listen to it and it made you super happy.

It wasn’t long after that that you had curled up into a ball on the couch and fell asleep. The tell tale signs of your regression started to show as you started to suck your thumb. Yoongi rolled his eyes, glad he didn’t listen to your whining about not needing a pull up. He then realized that you hadn’t eaten your snack and when he looked at the time he noticed that almost more than half the day was gone. He cursed himself for not realizing but he was also sad that you never told him anything. You probably thought that you would be bothering him if you told him you were hungry. It was a horrible habit you had when you weren’t in little space too. He sighed, realizing he was going to have to talk to you about that again. He looked through his phone taking note of some of the restaurants that had delivery options and proceeded to order some things he thought you would like and decided to order some stuff for the house as well so Seokjin wouldn’t have to cook again, knowing he was busy today.

He then thought about it. No one had been on a date in a while. Maybe he should bring it up when you were more big. He was pretty sure everyone else would like the idea. Okay that settled that. He would plan a date for everyone one you got out of your head space. Though honestly he was in no rush. He turned to watch you for a bit longer and was glad he remembered to bring your blanket as he dug into your bag and took out the one that you both made together. You had randomly picked up crocheting as a hobby and made Yoongi learn along with you. You both took many breaks on it as it was frustrating and a bit more on the intermediate level but the two of you managed. It was multicolored and it looked cute. Yoongi knew you would love it in your Little space and he hasn’t been wrong about that either.

He kissed your forehead and watched you mumble something in your sleep as you snuggled your blanket. Yoongi then set an alarm so he wouldn’t let you over sleep and went back to work.

“I love you (Y/N).” Yoongi said aloud. It felt nice to say it even if no one was listening. To be able to express your feelings was nice.

He had all of you guys to thank for that.

Chapter Text

Hoseok was breathing heavily as he leaned on the large mirrors of the practice room. He reached over and grabbed his towel, patting his face and neck of sweat. He sighed and slid down onto the floor, back still to the large mirrors.

Was it enough?

Was he done?

He looked at the time, knowing he had been there for a while but not as long as Yoongi had been cooped up in his studio. He exhaled long and hard, trying to figure out what more he could do. He knew a group practice was needed before he could really see if he needed to work on anything else but that practice wasn't going to come until later in the week. Or was it next week? He couldn't remember. He would have to talk to Namjoon again.

Hoseok heard the tell tale sign of his phone's notification jingle and crawled over to where he tossed his phone and hoodie. He grabbed the phone and looked at it noticing that it was a message from Yoongi.

Yoongi
Sending someone to you

Short and sweet as always. Yoongi was never really a conversationalist. Hoseok barely had a moment to think about what Yoongi meant when the door to the dance studio opened. Hoseok's eyes widened at the sight.

You stepped into the room, a couple of water bottles and a bag of food in hand. You smiled at the dancer, waggling your free fingers at him in greeting.

"Daddy told me that you were here." You told him as you walked over, closing the distance between you. "Since you were here and not at home Daddy was worried that you weren't gonna eat so I told Daddy that I'd share with you." You sat down next to him. "Daddy brought a lot of food." You giggled.

Hoseok's heart swelled at your generosity. You were such a kind person. He was also thankful to Yoongi for thinking about him. It really was nice to see that despite his feelings for you he still thought about everyone else. It was nice to notice that not a lot has changed in the composer's heart.

"Thank you, Sunshine." He reached over to pat your head, running his fingers through your slightly messy hair. You had clearly just woken up from your nap. He was able to tell that much. He had watched you and took care of you for far too long to not notice that. "Looks like I'll have to think of some kind of reward for you being such a good boy!" He pinched your cheeks slightly, loving how tight they got as your smile grew.

"I just want Sunny to be okay." You admitted. "When Daddy said you were here I wanted to see Sunny and then Daddy said I should bring food. So I have food."

Hoseok loved watching you slip into a younger mindset. Noticing your speech patterns and watching as you started to stumble on you words he realized you had to be at least three slipping into two now. Soon you wouldn't be able to talk as much and would just mostly babble. You were just too cute. Hoseok noticed that you had your backpack with you and started to look through it, finding your bib and putting it around you. He even found a spare blanket that Yoongi usually used to put under you while you ate to prevent a huge mess. He set up the blanket and food, even putting water in your new sippy cup that he knew was forced to come with you on your trip. Hoseok couldn't wait to tell Seokjin that you really took a shine to the cup he bought you.

He noticed that you had grown quiet and looked over to see that you moved closer to him and was practically leaning on him. He noticed the pacifier in your mouth and felt a warmth travel from his heart to the rest of his body.

He really did love you.

"Here you go Sunshine." He moved you onto the blanket on the floor and placed your cup and food in front of you. You smiled and took your pacifier out your mouth, letting it hang from it's clip, and uttered a small and shy thanks.

Hoseok then leaned over and took a selfie with you to send to the group chat all of them were on. There was a group chat where you were involved but you established that seeing them talk about you while you were in little space was a bit embarrassing. So you had your own group chat with them when you were big. Immediately everyone started to respond to the picture.

Yoongi
Cute. Glad he got to you safely.
Seokjin
My Prince is so cute!! Awww he has the new cup!
Jimin
Awww! Is he younger than earlier? Tell my baby I said hi!
Taehyung
I'm saving this picture. I love his cheesy smile so much!
Jungkook
Same! Seeing him smile gives me energy!
Namjoon
I'm glad he's with you. You looked like you needed a break when I passed by earlier. Give him a hug for me.

Hoseok tilted his head in thought as he read everyone's comments. He didn't know Namjoon came by. He must be with Yoongi then. He loved the attention he got from the others. It was comforting to know that so many people care about him. It was a nice distraction from the emotions that always clouded his head and his heart. Feelings about you, the tour, ARMY, his feelings for the rest of the guys. What if he wasn’t enough? Was he doing enough for everyone?

Was he doing enough for you?

Was he able to do enough for you?

Hoseok
Will do! Btw thanks for the food Yoongi-Hyung! You're so sweet!! Loved the cute delivery boy too! ;)
Seokjin
I was right it was you! I didn't think it was him since he kept telling me it wasn't! It was really nice of you Yoongi. Thank you. I could use a break.
Jimin
Awww (Y/N) brought the food to you? That had to look so cute!
Also Seokjin-Hyung I could've handled cooking if you were tired!
Jungkook
Well, even you have to admit that it was nice to see the food. It was different.
Taehyung
Yeah I felt the love!!!
Jimin
Yeah. It was nice. I felt the love too! Thank you Hyung!
Namjoon
Yoongi put the phone down and is all red now lol. He's also mumbling that he loves all of us and was worried about our well-being so of course he was going to feed us.

Hoseok laughed, knowing that the others were about to join in the fun once he started teasing the composer.

Hoseok
Awwwwwwww! We love him too!!
Jimin
Awww! Yeah we do! Love you!
Taehyung
Love you too!!
Jungkook
Love you Hyung!
Seokjin
Love you Yoongi!

Hoseok could've only imagined the embarrassment the older rapper was going through. He was never good at expressing his emotions and had even envied others for their ability to do so but everyone saw his efforts. Everyone felt the love he had for them in the little things he did.

Namjoon
I told him I loved him out loud and after seeing all of our messages he decided to kick me out of the room.
I'm gonna walk around for a bit. I'll see you guys later. Be safe.

Hoseok, after sending his two cents into the group chat along with the others, had went back to eating. He watched as you ate, wiping away any messes with the wipes he was glad Yoongi remembered to put in the bag. Once you both were done you were more than happy to help clean up and after that you started to color again. Hoseok decided not to say anything to Yoongi afraid that once he told him you were done that he would want to take you back.

He wanted a little more time with you.

That was okay...right?

You were babbling to yourself and drinking out of your cup. You took your time in choosing the colors you were gonna use and every now and then you looked at Hoseok and waved at him, a small hi coming from you every so often.

God did he loved you.

God did he treasure you.

Hoseok knew what Seokjin was feeling last night when he was told how hard it was to hide his feelings. All Hoseok wanted to do now was smother you with cuddles and kisses and hugs but he knew he couldn't. There was a fine line between giving you the attention you needed from him as a caregiver and then giving you the attention he wanted to give you. Hoseok knew that Yoongi was possessive and got jealous easily. Hell they were all dating each other, with (Y/N) as an exception, and Yoongi still had moments of jealousy.

Hoseok sighed and debated whether or not he should continue practicing when he noticed you crawled over to him.

He smiled. “What’s up Sunshine? Did you get bored?” You nodded your head and let out a yawn. Hoseok was surprised that you were already getting tired. He wondered if Yoongi would mind it if you slept with him tonight. Seokjin had already gotten a turn and even before that the last person that had you was Taehyung. He bit his lip, a bit nervous that Yoongi would say no. Then again it came as no surprise to anyone that (Y/N) was a source of calm for BTS. Maybe he’d understand? Everyone was a bit stressed with the upcoming tour and you were there to lift their spirits but Yoongi was Daddy. Yoongi was your boyfriend. He took priority and Hoseok knew that but...but…

He flinched and looked down at you. Your head had fallen into his lap. You were fast asleep, pacifier out of your mouth and your thumb in its place. Hoseok couldn't stop the smile that broke his worried expression. He placed a hand to his chest, feeling how fast his heart was beating. He tried to relax himself, looking at you whenever he thought his anxiety was going to spike again. Once he calmed down he ran his hand through your hair again.

No.

He could do it.

He could let you go.

You weren't his.

You weren't his in any way and even though it was a hard truth to swallow Hoseok knew it was true.

But he loved you.

He loved both you and Yoongi and he wouldn't know what to do with himself if he crossed the line and lost both of you.

"Besides," Hoseok tried to convince himself. "Seokjin is already having problems. I wouldn't want to cause him more pain since we share a room." He wiped at his eyes, feeling them fill up with tears. "I can wait until Yoongi says it's okay. Or if (Y/N) tells me he wants to stay with me." He took a shuddering breath, a small smile gracing his soft features. "I can wait. I love them both so much after all." He stared down at you a bit longer and started to sing 'you are my Sunshine'. It was your favorite song and you ended up smiling in your sleep, snuggling in Hoseok's leg a bit more. He smiled again, wiping at his eyes once more.

No more tears.

Hoseok made up his mind.

He'd do his best to continue being your hope. To only look at you with the eyes of your much needed caregiver and not the eyes of...well...not like how he was looking at you now. Eyes filled with love, devotion and hope. Eyes filled with worry and determination.

Hoseok loved you.

He just couldn't say it yet.

"Sunny?"

He jumped and watched as you blinked up at him. You reached up and cupped his face with your hands. "Do you think if I ask Daddy he'd let me be you tonight?" You sounded more sure of yourself. Maybe you were your usual age? "I don't think Oppa would mind. Do you mind? Can I stay with you?"

Hoseok blinked his eyes and stared at you in almost disbelief. How did you know that he was suffering? How did you know that this what he needed the most? How did you know that what he needed more than anything else was you by his side?

Tears fell from Hoseok’s eyes and he grabbed onto you in a tight hug.

“You okay Sunny?” You held onto him, hugging him softly and feeling the slight tremors that shook his body.

“Yeah.” He whispered in your ear. “I just love you so much. You make me really happy.”

You smiled at him, glad to see that he was actually okay. “I love you too Sunny! I’m pretty sure if I ask Daddy he’ll say yes!”

“Yeah!” He agreed with you, honestly loving how you expressed your feelings. “You wanna go and see what Daddy’s doing now?” His eyes were dry now and his beautiful smile was bright once more.

You stared at Hoseok, wondering if he was really okay. Well, if it was anything else you were sure he’d tell you. You nodded your head as you got up to put away anything you may have forgotten into your bag. You put on you bookbag and looked over to Hoseok. “Come on! We need to go!” You called him excitedly.

Hoseok nodded his head and stood up. He was better now. He was going to continue being the person you needed him to be. It was going to be alright.

As the two of you walked out the dance studio and made your way to Yoongi’s second home Hoseok felt uplifted. He knew he wasn’t going to be completely okay but as long as you were with him he knew things would be alright.

He had so much hope for the future.

Chapter Text

To say the last couple of days was hard was an understatement.

The boys started getting busy with practice and you had gotten busy with work and school. You, Taehyung and Yoongi hadn't seen each other in a while and even though the three of you were used to it it didn't stop the nagging feeling that something was always missing.

Yoongi and Taehyung had it a bit easier though since they had each other and the rest of the gang to help out but the two of them, and the rest of BTS, had to admit that they missed you. Normally they would at least hear from you once or twice. Maybe even get a selfie from you when you were either in Little Space or just not busy but that hasn't been the case recently. Your schedule seemed to be just as hectic as theirs.

You were normally always quick to check up on everyone and wish them luck or see if there was anything you could do to help them and the seven boys had grown accustomed to that. Not having a few small constant reminders was what made it obvious that you weren’t around. You were like a mother hen to them despite them being your caretakers. Not like anyone minded of course.

It was a rainy day when you finally got back to the boy's dorm. You knew, thanks to Namjoon, that today was the day everyone would be home for a much needed break. The next couple of days would be free and you wanted to do something nice for them. Despite work and school you had worked hard so you could come over and do something small for them. No one was there at the time, as you hoped, so you excitedly decided to clean up the house and cook for everyone, hopeful that everyone would like your efforts. You missed them, especially Taehyung and Yoongi.

While cleaning up you realized that you were getting comfortable and had almost slipped. You groaned, wanting to go into little space so badly since you were stressed for so long but you knew the boys were busy and were gonna be very tired once they got home. You figured neither of them were gonna want to watch you or take care of you so you tried your best to not slip into your precious headspace. You wanted to be a big boy when everyone came home. You didn't want to have to worry everyone but once the sun started to set and the rain outside became a huge storm you ran to Seokjin's room to put on one of the new diapers he had gotten for you.

You normally had mixed feelings about rain storms. Sometimes you can sit down and listen to the rain and thunder for hours on end. The rain was relaxing in a way that calmed you but then there were the days when you were already wired with stress and the last thing you needed was a thunderstorm. You were officially on borrowed time.

You put on the diaper and grabbed one of Hoseok's more baggier shirts, wanting to feel small, and walked back into the living room where you were originally seated, wanting to continue listening to the rain despite now slipping into little space and being a bit afraid of the loud noises and lightning. You had covered yourself in a blanket and watched the rain hit the windows. It was a pretty sight but it made you miss the boys even more. You had grabbed a pillow from the couch, hugging it close as it smelled like a combination of Jimin and Jungkook. You sighed, hoping they were all okay outside in the rain.
~*~*~*~
You didn't know how much time passed but you had ended up falling asleep on the couch. You had only woken up when a sudden loud BOOM filled the house. You woke up with a yell and looked around hoping that someone was there to hold you and tell you that everything was okay but the only sounds you heard were the tapping sounds of the rain and the continuous rumblings of the thunder.

A big flash of light made your attention go toward the window and you watched as strike after strike of lightning flashed across the sky. At this point you were scared and you immediately grabbed your phone, thankful to your bigger self and your Daddy and Papa that you put pictures and the specific names next to certain contacts so you knew who to call when in little space.

Once you saw the name you wanted you pressed call and held the phone close to your ear, praying that he would answer his phone.
~*~*~*~
Namjoon was tired today.

He was definitely stressed.

Practice was getting tedious, fan meets were draining him mentally and he missed his baby boy.

He was currently looking through his phone looking at pictures of you. You were so adorable. Most of them were pictures that everyone had seen via the group chat they were all in, like the picture Hoseok took of the two of you, but there were other pictures he had that he cherished.

He had a couple of normal pictures of the two of you when you weren't in Little space but the rest of his pictures were of you being the most cutest little baby he had ever seen.

Pictures of you in your onesie, with food all over your face, playing with your stuffies or coloring in one of the many coloring books you owned. There were some where you had played dress up with Seokjin, dancing with Hoseok, being rocked to sleep by Jimin, sleeping with Yoongi or just curled up by yourself and even playing games with the maknae line. Namjoon was almost sure he had as many pictures of you as your two boyfriends did.

Was that weird?

Maybe a little excessive but it wasn't weird.

Right?

Honestly saying it aloud like this probably wasn't helping.

He might be a bit weird. Maybe even creepy but he didn't mean to come off this way. This was just the only way he could deal with his feelings for you. He mostly associated you with this version of yourself so he could keep himself in check. He didn't want to have his heart broken every other day like the others. It was hard seeing four of his lovable boyfriends in so much pain over one person.

When Yoongi had first mentioned his feelings for you things were hard on everyone but it was him who figured it out first how much your presence meant to not only Yoongi but to the rest of the group. It wasn’t until after the first week the group had gotten you back after so coldly pushing you to the side however that he realized that him, as well as the others, were crushing on you...hard.

Namjoon had honestly thought that Yoongi would push everyone to the side once he got you but time and time again he proved to everybody that his feelings for them were just as strong if not stronger. The fact that Yoongi had a whole nother person to take care of just made it so Yoongi’s time was used more wisely. He really did give him and the rest of BTS all the time he could. Sure there were always gonna be times were he would either pick favorites or just stay with (Y/N) but everyone did that. That and talking it out seemed to be Jimin’s favorite thing to do whenever he was upset. Which was a good habit to have and they thrived on communication. Sometimes.

Namjoon looked out the window to see the rain pouring down. Currently all of BTS were practicing the choreography for their next song. They were taking a much needed break. He looked back to everyone and saw how they all paired up. Taehyung was sitting down, leaning on the wall with Jungkook in between his legs. Taehyung was hugging him and they seemed to be watching something on one of their phones. Hoseok, Yoongi and Jimin were cuddled together on the floor as well. Jimin had his head leaning on Yoongi’s back as he was laying on his stomach. He was singing Serendipity and Hoseok glanced at him every so often with a smile on his face. He reached over with a free hand to run his fingers through his orange hair and then returned to leaning on Yoongi as well, his other hand tightly clasped with his as he watched the composer write lyrics on his phone. Namjoon rolled his eyes. It always looked like he was working. He hoped they could all soon take a well deserved break. They needed it.

He needed it.

Namjoon’s thoughts were interrupted when Seokjin came up to him. His new pink hair framed his face beautifully and matched the gorgeous smile that spread across it. Namjoon smiled when he felt Seokjin’s hand grab onto his. He leaned down slightly to plant a kiss on his soft hair.

“You okay?” Namjoon asked.

“Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” Seokjin’s eyebrow raised at their leader.

Namjoon shrugged. “I don’t see why you would. I’m fine.”

Seokjin gave out a small laugh. “That may work well as a song but I’m sure as hell not gonna buy it.” He let go of Namjoon’s hand and wrapped his arms around the taller male’s neck. “Talk to me.” He pleaded. “Or is this a ‘kitten problem’?”

Ever since finding out that everyone else had a small and increasingly growing crush on Yoongi’s and Taehyung’s boyfriend the rest of the group decided on a code phrase they would use if they wanted to talk about their feelings on the matter while the two said boys were around. Well it wouldn’t matter too much if it was only Taehyung but everyone was a bit wary when it came to their possessive and overprotective boyfriend.

Namjoon sighed and nodded his head. “Yeah. It’s days like this that I can’t help but think about him. I end up looking at my phone and glancing at some pictures to cool my head but in the end it just makes me want him more. It’s hard.”

Seokjin understood him all too well. Him as well as everyone else had their own feelings to sort out. Seokjin used to feel like he had failed his dongsaengs for showing his feelings towards (Y/N). Maybe if he hadn't, no one would be feeling as bad as they were but now he knew that if he hadn’t showed his feelings everyone would’ve became distant and afraid. Honestly, it might be better if they all just talked to Taehyung, (Y/N) and Yoongi but Seokjin wasn’t even ready for that so he could only imagine everyone else’s apprehension.

Was this what Yoongi felt like when he realized his feelings for (Y/N)?

Was this what Yoongi felt as he stood in front of all of them to convey his feelings?

Seokjin shuddered slightly, a chill ran down his spine. He was so worried about what the future had in store for them.

He jumped when he felt Namjoon’s arms move and wrap themselves around his waist. He felt himself being pulled closer to the rapper and he looked up at him, realizing he had looked down as he was thinking.

“Well get through this. We have to.”

Seokjin nodded. “I like how I was here to cheer you up and you ended up comforting me.” He rolled his eyes at the smile Namjoon gave him and leaned up to kiss his dimples. He really did love this man. There was no denying that. He loved all of them.

He loved you too.

They all did.

It was then that the sound of thunder surrounded the building making the group jump. Yoongi looked a bit worried and checked his phone, surprised that he received no messages from you. He knew how you were with thunderstorms and knew that something as loud as this would cause you to slip. So why haven’t you called him yet?

He looked over at Taehyung and saw that he was also looking at his phone. They made eye contact and Tae shook his head, telling him that he too hadn’t received anything from their boyfriend.

Yoongi wasn’t really happy about that but it could also mean that (Y/N) was okay. Or...it could mean that you were calling someone else. Yoongi’s heart sank and a sense of de'ja'vu was creeping up on him. No. He wouldn’t think like that again. He couldn’t. In your little space you had preferences and with so many caretakers you were bound to pick someone else. He knew that. It was okay. He knew that and yet…

It still hurt.

It was then that Namjoon’s phone vibrated and he as well as Seokjin looked at it with wide eyes at the caller ID.

“(Y/N)?” Namjoon stared at the phone in awe.

“Why is he calling you and not Yoongi?” Seokjin asked.

Namjoon shrugged and let go of Seokjin and moved a bit away from the group as he answered the call. “Hello?”

He immediately heard you sob and his heart clenched at the sound. “Appa? I’m scared.”

“Is it the thunder baby boy?” He asked, he heard your small whine of confirmation. “Do you want me to tell daddy that you want him?”

“No I want Appa.”

Namjoon’s heart skipped a beat at the sentence. You wanted him? You wanted him and not Yoongi?

Namjoon flinched as he suddenly felt a presence behind him and turned to see Yoongi there. “Can I talk to him?” Namjoon nodded his head and handed him the phone. “Baby doll? It’s Daddy. Are you okay?”

“I’m scared Daddy. There was a really loud noise and it woke me up and I’m scared.” You sobbed.

“Do you want me or Papa to go to you?” He glanced over at Taehyung who seemed all the more ready to spring into action if he was needed.

“No I want Appa!”

Yoongi’s heart stopped but he bit his lip and sighed. “You sure baby? Papa and I are all ready to go to you if you need us.”

“I...WANT...APPA!” You yelled into the phone, your patience was wearing thin and another loud bang of thunder was heard. Yoongi’s heart sank as he heard you cry a little harder.

Yoongi growled and handed the phone back to Namjoon. He then left the room without another word. Taehyung, who knew exactly what his Hyung was going through, got up to go follow him. He looked back at Namjoon and smiled a small yet sad smile. “Let me know if you need any help with him.” He waved at everyone else before leaving to find Yoongi.

Everyone else was speechless at the Yoongi’s actions.

Namjoon nodded and waved back as Tae left. He didn’t know what to do. Maybe he should just let Yoongi or Taehyung deal with you. Then again he knew how you were. You would be a mess if you didn’t get the right person for your specific needs. Then again maybe they were just spoiling you too much. You did have seven caretakers any one should do right?

“Appa?”

Namjoon immediately picked the phone back up and brought it to his ear. Your small sobs were all that he needed to make up his mind. “I’ll be right there baby. Where are you?” He ran over to get his jacket and umbrella.

“Appa said you’d be home so I came over.” Your sobs were starting to calm down.

Namjoon chuckled. “Yes I did say that. Were you gonna surprise us?”

“Yeah. I still have surprises for you though.” You told him, looking back at the kitchen and seeing the food on the stove just waiting to be heated up and served.

“Well then I can’t wait to see them.” He gave a quick wave to everyone as he left the studio. Once he was out he caught a quick glance to his right to see Taehyung and Yoongi. The younger was holding onto the older and trying to soothe him. Tae had looked in his direction and smiled softly at him. Yoongi had peeked his head out from Taehyung’s arms and looked at him. He then placed his face back in to Tae’s chest and gave the younger rapper and a weak thumbs up.

Namjoon smiled at the gesture and nodded his head as he waved to the both of them and stayed on the phone with you as he headed out into the rain.
~*~*~*~
Once Namjoon came home he immediately put away his wet jacket, shoes and umbrella. He glanced over at you and saw you bundled up in your favorite blanket. As he walked over to you he looked into the kitchen and noticed that there was food there. In fact the whole area looks great. Did you clean? Did you do all of this for them? He smiled as he sat down on the couch with you.

You poked your head out of the blanket and smiled brightly as you launched yourself at Namjoon. “Appa!” You snuggled into him, climbing on his lap and straddling him. “I missed you!”

“I missed you too baby boy.” Namjoon held onto you tightly, enjoying the closeness. “I saw your surprises. I’m so proud of you. You’ve been such a good boy.” He nuzzled your nose and you laughed at the sensation. “You were so brave today too. Appa is so proud of you, baby.”

You giggled. "Do I get a present?" You asked.

Namjoon rolled his eyes. He already knew Hoseok owed you a reward and now here you were trying to get another one. He smiled at you, staring into your gorgeous beautiful eyes. He nodded his head. "Yes you can get a present. Maybe you and I can go out and we can get you something then okay?" Your excited bounce on his lap confirmed his thoughts on the seven of them spoiling you. "We have to ask Daddy first okay? That's the rule." He tried to keep a straight face when you suddenly pouted. He figured he'd talk to Yoongi and Taehyung about your behavior. They all had to change the way they treated you. Though he had to admit that it was going to be hard to do. He was pretty sure he could speak for everyone and say that spoiling you was the greatest thing they could do.

"But what if he says no?" You asked him, your pout increasing.

Namjoon rolled his eyes and ran his fingers through your hair. "Well then we're just gonna have to convince him now won’t we?”

You smiled brightly at him and hugged him tightly. “Thanks Appa. You’re the best!”

Namjoon blushed slightly at your words and hugged you back. He looked at you, his heart melting at the sight of your happy face. He bit his lip, wondering if he should ask you the question that’s been bothering him since he got there.

“Hey baby?” He watched as you moved to look at him. “Why did you want me and not Daddy? He got pretty upset you know.”

You tilted your head and bit your lip, to which Namjoon instantly placed his thumb on your mouth to tug at it. You let go and licked your bottom lip in a nervous habit. “Daddy was sad?” When Namjoon nodded his head you looked down to your hands which were now resting on Namjoon’s stomach. You clenched your hands, bunching up his shirt in the process. “I didn’t know.” Your lips trembled and your eyes watered. “I didn’t mean to.”

Namjoon’s eyes softened as he watched how upset you got and wondered how he could make you feel better. He then remembered how you would act whenever Seokjin would call you Princess. He never understood why until he realized the small differences in your tone and attitude. He bit the inside of his cheek in deep thought wondering if the same thing were to happen if he were to try the same tactic.

He placed a hand on your cheek and gently caressed the smooth skin. “It’s okay baby girl. I’m sure Daddy will understand once you talk to him.”

Your cheeks suddenly felt hot and a soft blush ran across your face. You felt your pulse quicken slightly and you pressed your lips together in a thin line. This was the same type of feeling you’d get whenever Seokjin called you Princess. You clench your fists tighter, not knowing what to make of the feeling.

Namjoon watched your reactions and he bit his lip. “You okay baby girl?” He decided to call you by the new nickname again. Your reaction wasn’t bad but he wanted to make sure that it was okay. He didn’t want to make you uncomfortable.

You nodded your head. “Um yeah.” You were a bit embarrassed to admit that you liked the nickname a lot more than you thought you would. It was comforting in a way.

Namjoon smiled, giving himself a mental note to remember to call you that every so often. “Okay. Then can you answer my previous question Kitten?” Your heart sped up at the nickname. Everyone called you kitten. It was one of the first nicknames they gave you. It was special.

You thought about his question and was about to bite your lip when you remembered how Namjoon had already stopped you once already. You didn’t want to be put on time out for something as small as lip biting and not listening to instructions. You instead unclenched your fists and played with the hem of Hoseok’s shirt.

“Um I wanted Appa instead of Daddy because…” You hesitated, not really having a good reason. “I saw your name and wanted you. I don’t really have a good reason. I just...wanted Appa.”

Namjoon smiled, dimples on full display. You wanted him. It was an instant pick for you. There wasn’t any hesitation. You just wanted him. You picked him over Yoongi and Taehyung. He was so happy.

“Do you love Appa?” He couldn’t help but ask. He knew the answer and he knew the feelings behind it weren’t as strong as he wanted it to be but he’d take it. He’d take every bit of love and affection you were willing to give.

He loved you so much.

“I love Appa this much!” You exclaimed spreading out your arms as wide as you can.

“That’s a lot of love baby girl.” You leaned into Namjoon’s touch as he placed his hand on your cheek. You smile was wide, almost forgetting about the storm outside.

“How about we go in my room for a bit and we can watch some Netflix? Then when everyone comes home I can help finish off your surprise by setting up the table. How about that?” Namjoon adored the smile that spread across your face and he may have enjoyed the small bounce you did on his lap a little too much but he didn’t want to admit that yet.

Suddenly thunder clapped loudly in the sky and you practically jumped off of Namjoon’s lap. You hugged him tightly and shuddered from fear.

“How about we just wait here for everyone?” Namjoon offered as he held onto you. You nodded your head and snuggled into him. You were more than happy to be where you were. You ended up falling asleep to him singing to you.

Once you fell asleep Namjoon stared at you. He knew he shouldn’t leave you like this. He knew that if Yoongi were to see you like this he’d flip. Especially since he was already in a bad mood from earlier but the happy little sigh you released made his heart melt and all he wanted to do was give you all the attention you deserve. He turned on the T.V. and decided to see if he can just drown out the background noise of the rain. He held onto you a bit tighter, not wanting the moment to end. Before he knew it, he too fell asleep without so much as a care in the world.
~*~*~*~
Namjoon was woken up suddenly to see Taehyung standing above him. Taehyung had shook him gently enough to not wake you up but he had to be quick to wake up his leader.

“Now you know if I was Yoongi he wouldn’t be very happy with this.”

Namjoon nodded his head and watched Taehyung sit next to him, taking you from him and setting you on his own lap instead. He ran his hand through your hair and patted your back with the other one, trying to coax you awake. “Come on Angel. Time to wake up. Don’t you wanna see Daddy? Everyone is coming home now.”

You opened your eyes and looked up to see Tae. You hugged him tightly, missing him so much. You heard his words and nodded your head. “Is it okay if I stay in little space for a bit longer?”

Taehyung smiled, kissing you softly. He made the kiss quick since Namjoon was next to him. “You can be in little space for as long as you want. I’m pretty sure Daddy would be happy to see his precious baby.”

“When did you get here?”

Tae looked over at Namjoon when he spoke only breaking eye contact when he had to tell you to stop playing with his hair. “I kinda left a bit earlier cause I figured I’d find you like this.” He shrugged his shoulders. “Or just doing something that Yoongi wouldn’t like.” Namjoon looked away slightly ashamed. “It’s okay. Just be careful next time.” He looked toward the door as he heard the rest of their group come down the hall.

Taehyung and Namjoon watched as you gasped and ran over to the door, almost tripping over Taehyung in the process. Tae rolled his eyes and watched with a smile as you opened the door and heard the excited sounds of the others.

“Daddy!” You called out as you ran out into the hallway. Tae and Namjoon winced when they heard the clear sounds of Yoongi catching you but still falling on his butt from your impact. Taehyung shook his head as he stood up to greet everyone and to rescue Yoongi from your onslaught of apologies and kisses that he knew the male was secretly enjoying.

“Tae?”

Taehyung looked over at Namjoon again.

“Does it get easier?” Namjoon asked. “Did it get easier?”

Taehyung sighed and ruffled his blue hair. “I think you know the answer to that.” He told him as he continued to walk over to the door.

Namjoon did know.

It didn’t get easy.

It was why Taehyung had you now. The pain got too much.

But Namjoon wasn’t strong like Tae was. He didn’t think he had the courage to talk to Yoongi about this.

He would just have to leave things as they are. He could do this. He had to.

Namjoon watched as everyone came into the house and watched how you interacted with them, loving the peace and love you radiated for everyone to enjoy. He loved you all so much. From the bottom of his heart he loved you all so much.

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Jimin stopped dancing when he heard the door to the studio open up. He moved his fingers through his bangs and watched as you closed the door with a slam and walked over to a corner of the room to sit down and sulk. You looked like your emotions were all over the place. You looked angry, sad and annoyed all at once.

Jimin sighed, knowing this had his Hyung's name written all over it.

BTS had been home for a couple of days now and they were finally able to relax without stressing about the next day. However this morning wasn't the best for you nor your Daddy.

It started off in the morning with something small. You were called in for work because of a shortage of people. Yoongi wasn't exactly too thrilled about it but it was something you all got used to. Then you had to stay out longer because something happened to one of your final projects at school. Something about the computers messing up. Long story short you ended up printing it out and submitting it that way, thankful that the teacher didn't take away any points.

Next thing that happened was something everyone was able to relate to. Yoongi was in one of his moods. Everyone hated these days. Everyone would get so worried about him. This wasn’t a new thing to you but everyone could tell you weren’t used to it yet and wondered what would happen this time. When you finally got back to the dorm you had to have a whole talk with Yoongi about his lack of self care; which didn't look like it had gone well since you ended up storming out of the room and staying with Jungkook for a while. Yoongi did come out to apologize but it looked like the damage was done already, despite you accepting his apology.

At that point Jimin had left the house, not wanting to see his cute baby become upset. He was also trying to not be biased.

Jimin was a bit louder in terms of his feelings for you. He's never been one to not say 'I love you' in front of Yoongi and Taehyung. He's never been one to shy away from hugs and kisses and he's never been one to say no to you. He's also taken your side for a lot of things. It was why you called him Eomma. Jimin honestly loved the name. It made him feel a bit superior to Yoongi.

Jimin made his way over to you and you looked up when you heard his footsteps. You sniffled, wiping at your eyes and looking at him. You tried to give him your best smile but it hurt. It hurt to smile right now.

"Sweetheart what happened?" He sat down next to you. "Did something happen at home?" You shook your head. "Did something happen here?" He asked you softly, wrapping his arms around you and bringing you closer as you nodded. You didn't care that he was a bit sweaty. You just wanted comfort. Today was tiring and you wanted your Daddy more than anything but today wasn't a good day apparently.

"Did something happen with Appa or Papa?" Jimin asked. When you shook your head again Jimin sighed, hoping he was actually wrong but knew he wasn’t. He tried to calm his racing heart. "Was it daddy?" He looked at you. When you nodded your head Jimin had to bite his tongue to not curse in front of you. "What happened Sweetheart?"

"I was worried about daddy." You started. Jimin nodded his head. You were always worried about him. That wasn't a surprise. They all got worried whenever Yoongi started acting like this. "Oppa told me he didn't eat much after I left for work. I thought I'd be able to help him more since I was bigger then but Daddy said no." Jimin coaxed you onto his lap. You reached up to play with his bangs. He smiled and laughed, playing with the hairs that he could reach on your head.

"Daddy has been a little forgetful as of late." Jimin tried to see it from Yoongi's point of view but deep down he was also worried about him. You weren't the only one who he pushed away. He was probably just having an off day. It was best to let him be and to try and check up on him every so often but if he was here that meant he was working and trying to distract himself.

Hadn't he done enough though?

Why couldn’t he just come talk to them?

Jimin pouted the minute he thought that. Jimin couldn't judge. He was practically doing the same thing. He stared into your eyes and sighed, leaning up to give you eskimo kisses. "I'm sure Daddy's fine Kitten. You just have to give him some time."

"But Eomma I did!" Tears came back to your eyes. "I even made sure he tried to snack cause daddy always tells me that snack time is really important but...then he said he wanted to just come here and work." You looked down at your hands. "I ended up getting bored and asked if we could go to the park cause it's been a very long time since daddy took me outside with him that's not just about working and he...he got mad."

Jimin's eyes widened. "I'm...I'm sure Yoongi-Hyung is just having a moment." Jimin's pace quickened again. He hated it when Yoongi was like this. It drove his anxiety crazy. He could only imagine what you were going through.

He watched you run your hands through your hair and his heart clenched as you stood up and walked away from him. He heard you sigh and he felt a bit angrier. You left little space.

“Sweetheart? Come back to Eomma kitten.” He patted his lap, hoping to put you back in your head space so you could relax. Whatever was bothering Yoongi he was sure he’d get over it. There were plenty of people to help. Including you Yoongi had seven boyfriends who absolutely adored him. Jimin knew he’d be fine in the end. He knew someone would knock some sense into him.

You shook your head, choosing to ignore Jimin, not wanting to be little right now. You glared at the pacifier that was hanging from your shirt and threw it to the side once you removed it in a small fit of rage. Jimin watched it skid across the floor and got up to pick it up. He looked at it, realizing that it was one of the pacifiers that he had gotten you, because of course it was, and sighed sadly. He placed the pacifier near his discarded jacket and bag, not liking that you were feeling like this.

“How do you do it Minnie?”

Jimin turned toward you, hiding the smile that almost forced its way up at the sound of his nickname. “Do what baby?”

You looked at him, too annoyed and sad to slip into little space but you still wanted to be comforted by your ‘eomma’. You walked over to him and was a bit happy when he reached for you to pull you into a hug.

“How do you deal with Yoongi when he’s like this?”

Jimin wasn’t gonna lie when he thought it was weird whenever you called Yoongi by his name as he was too used to you calling him daddy. Sure you were older than everyone other than Seokjin but Jimin was way too used to you being BTS’s precious baby boy.

Jimin also didn’t want to admit it but he loved it when you were out of little space sometimes. There was just something about you that excited him in ways that he wasn’t too proud to talk about. Sure if something bothered him he’d be the first to say something about it but to tell Yoongi that he sometimes got turned on by his boyfriend was the last thing he wanted to do. He hugged you tighter, appreciating the sigh of content that came from you. Your breath ghosted the side of his neck and he shuddered.

He rubbed your back soothingly. “Sometimes we let him be. Other times we annoy him until he gets his head out of his ass. Other times we hold him until he talks to us.” He shrugged. “It’s a process really.”

Jimin bit his lip as he watched you sigh, more frustrated than anything else. He was trying to ignore the emotions that were begging to come out. Personally he wanted to push you against the wall and kiss you until you forgot all about Yoongi and just let the rest of the group deal with their stubborn boyfriend but more than anything he wanted you to go back into little space and talk about all the little imaginary things you had thought of. He loved it when you were happy. You had such a creative mind and him and the boys actually wanted to see how you felt about moving in with them to pursue a career in writing.

You’d have all the time in the world to write and have so many opportunities to get inspired as they took you around the world with them. Sure it would mean quitting school and work and uprooting your whole life but Jimin and Jungkook thought it was a great idea and he knew everyone else agreed. Everyone but Yoongi that is. He didn’t want to do that to you. Being with an Idol was already stressful enough but having to travel with them could be even worse. He didn’t want you to resent him. Taehyung, after hearing what Yoongi had to say on the matter, ended up agreeing with him. Though everyone could see that Taehyung would want nothing more than to be with you 24/7.

Jimin didn’t care though. Little by little whenever you weren’t in little space, or honestly even if you were, he encouraged you to write. Jimin already had a folder of some ideas for books and short stories you came up with. All it took was to try and convince you to stay with them now but that had to wait. At least until after their next tour. It was gonna be a short one but they were all still gonna be far away from you and no one wanted that. They all wanted you to be with them. Even their Manager was okay with everything since you weren’t really a bother and he knew of the groups unique relationship. Well he knew everything except the fact that ALL of BTS wanted to be with you.

Jimin and Jungkook had it worse when it came to their feelings. Jungkook was just as bad when it came to showing off his affection for you but unlike Jimin he only did it in front of Taehyung. Taehyung wasn’t helping the situation when it came to everyone’s feelings for you. He knew that they all cared for you and yet not only was he hiding it from Yoongi but he even let them get away with certain things. Jimin still remembered the sadness in Namjoon’s eyes as he told him how amazing it was to have you in his lap and sleeping comfortably in his arms.

“Sometimes I feel like I’m not doing enough for him.”

Jimin blinked his eyes and stared at you. “What are you talking about? You’re doing plenty by just being with him.”

“Yeah I know and I’m grateful to be with him but…” You blinked your eyes trying not to cry but feeling the emotions build up. “I’m not great at these kinds of things. Things like comforting people when they’re depressed. I feel like I’m being too pushy more than half the time. I keep thinking that he’s just gonna end up leaving me because of it.”

Jimin shook his head, his eyes wide with shock. He grabbed onto you face gently, cradling your head in his hands. “No, no, no Sweetheart. Yoongi loves you.” The words came out of his mouth before he could stop them. “I would love it if you were like that with me. I’m pretty sure if you were dating all of us the others would like it too.”

You scoffed but your answer was quick. “If Yoongi was okay with sharing me like he is with you guys then I wouldn’t mind that.”

You and Jimin both realized the words you said instantaneously. You both stared at each other and you backed away from him, looking away from Jimin in a weak attempt to act like you didn’t say what you said. You didn’t mean to say that out loud.

Jimin stared at you. “(Y/N)-Hyung?” He saw you flinch. He almost forgot how much you liked being called ‘Hyung’. “Can you repeat that?”

You shook your head.

“(Y/N)-Hyung please!” Jimin begged, walking over to you and reaching out to grab your arm.

You backed away from him again. “Jimin don’t...”

“No!” Jimin rushed you, grabbing onto you and holding you close to him. “Tell me the truth! I know I heard you correctly! I know what I heard!”

You stared at Jimin, shocked at his outburst. “Jimin I can’t. Please just forget about what I said.”

Jimin stared at you, surprised that you would even suggest something like that. “How can I forget that the person I love just told me he loves me back?”

Your heart stopped. What did he just say?

“Jimin you don’t know what you’re talking about.” Your heartbeat sped up.

“I have six other boyfriends, (Y/N)-Hyung, I think I know what I’m talking about.” Jimin countered.

“You don’t know.” You told him. “Fuck, I don’t know.” You added, trying to move away from him but his grip just tightened. “I shouldn’t be feeling this way. Don’t make this hard for me, Jimin, please.”

“But it’s true isn’t it? You love me? That means you have to love the others too right?” When you didn’t say anything Jimin’s heart skipped a beat, praying that he was right in his assumption. “I won’t say anything but...is it true? Please tell me.”

You closed your eyes, praying that all of this was just a bad dream. These feelings were not supposed to come out of the open. You didn’t want to prove him right.

You didn’t want to hurt Yoongi again.

“(Y/N)-Hyung?”

You opened your eyes and looked down at Jimin. You weren’t that much taller than him, if anything you were just as tall as Hoseok and Jungkook, but right now with his gorgeous eyes staring up at you he seemed so much smaller.

“Please?” He whispered. He put his face into your chest and you felt him shudder. “I love you so much.” He confessed to you. “We love you so much.” He added. “If there’s even a small possibility that you love us back...please let me know.” He shuddered again, a small sob shaking him. “Please…”

You stared at Jimin, not knowing what to say.

Of course you loved him.

Of course you loved the others.

But you also loved Yoongi and Taehyung and you didn’t want to put them in that situation.

You promised Yoongi that you wouldn’t do it again.

You were his.

You were only supposed to be his.

You managed to get out of Jimin’s grasp and back away from him. Jimin’s face looked broken and he sunk to his knees.

“I’m sorry.” You told him, not realizing the door to the studio had opened. “I do love you. I do but...I can’t.” Tears were falling down your face at the same rate Jimin’s was. He reached out for you. “I promised. I promised I wouldn’t love someone like that again. I’m sorry.” You backed away from him even more, jumping once you bumped into someone. You turned around to see…

“Taehyung?”

Taehyung’s eyes softened at your tears. He hugged you close and looked over at Jimin, reaching out a hand to beckon him over. Jimin ran over to him and grabbed onto his hand, rushing into the awaiting space he had in his arms next to you.

“It’s okay.” He repeated to the both of you. “It’s okay.”

You and Jimin held onto Tae, crying and gently reaching out to hold each others hand. There were mumbles of ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘I love you’ and Taehyung could only sigh, knowing this was coming. He knew that he’d have to talk Yoongi and you sooner or later about all of this but he didn’t think it would be so sudden. He kissed both you and Jimin, Jimin taking a bit more time as he needed the comfort.

“I’m sorry.” You told Taehyung, looking into his eyes and glad to see the love for you still shining there.

He shook his head. “It’s fine. I’ll talk to Yoongi-Hyung about everything.” He kissed your forehead as you nodded. “Why don’t you go on home? As soon as I’m done talking to him and to everybody else I’ll call you.” You nodded your head.

“How is he?” You and Jimin asked Taehyung in unison. You both looked at each other and smiled shyly.

“I’m sorry I overwhelmed you.” Jimin spoke softly, snuggling into Taehyung a bit. Taehyung ran his hand through his hair to comfort him more. “I just...the thought of you loving us as much as we love you was too good of a thought to pass up. I wasn’t considering your feelings. I’m sorry.” He apologized again.

“It’s okay.” You told him. “I can kinda see it from your perspective. It’s just...I’ve made a promise to Yoongi and myself. I’ve already broke that promise once.” Taehyung held you tighter. “I’m just not sure how I feel about doing it again. Even though I want to.” You squeezed Jimin’s hand.

“Want us to walk you home, Angel?” Taehyung kissed you by your ear, winking over at Jimin.

Jimin smirked. “Yeah Sweetheart. Want Eomma and Papa to walk you home?”

You sighed and rolled your eyes, feeling yourself slip into little space as both men hugged and cuddled you.

You nodded your head at them, feeling a bit better knowing Taehyung was gonna deal with the hard part. Even though you were nervous about Yoongi’s reaction and even though you were gonna have to face all seven of them sooner or later you sighed again happily.

They both loved you.

They all loved you.

Deep down that’s all you ever wanted.

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You sighed as you ignored another call from Yoongi. It's been three days since Jimin's sudden confession and Yoongi has been calling you non-stop since Taehyung brought you home. You haven't gotten an okay from Taehyung yet and because of that you weren't sure what to even say to the composer. So you ignored him.

It hasn't just been Yoongi either. Besides Taehyung and Jimin everyone else has been messaging you asking if you were okay and when you were coming back. You never answered them either since you thought it wasn't fair that you'd answer them and not Yoongi.

You felt your phone vibrate for the umpteenth time and you pulled down the menu tab to see that they were all on the group chat trying to get your attention. You didn't want them to know that you were spying on them. You had a feeling that after all this you were gonna get a lot of time outs whenever you went back to them in little space.

The thought alone made you smile, actually wanting the punishments if it meant you could be near them again.

You missed them all terribly.

Especially now that you knew they all had feelings for you.

"So why do you care what Yoongi thinks again?"

You looked up and watched as one of your best friends, Kura, walked in your room. She was a year younger than you, a bit shorter than you and had dark skin and long red hair. Her dark eyes bore holes into you and she handed you one of the many sippy cups you had in your kitchen. You took a sip, eyes lighting up at the taste of lemonade and ice tea. She always knew how to mix it all so nicely. You smiled when she reached a hand out to caress your face and hair.

You looked at her, wondering why she was trying to ease you into little space.

She shrugged. "You seemed stressed and I know you haven't slipped since you got home. I thought I'd help you. Sin is supposed to come here later anyway since I planned a play date with you. When it's my time to leave Angel is gonna show up and take over but that won't be until late tonight."

You rolled your eyes, hearing how Kura made everything sound so professional. The two of you, like the other two friends that were mentioned, had known each other for years. You felt like you'd be nothing without her. She was the first one you came out to. You came out to her for everything honestly. When you realized you were gay, when you learned you were a Little and even when you learned you were polyamorous. Kura knew it all. She was even there for you when you had a really bad break-up with an abusive boyfriend and gave you all the courage you needed when you started dating Yoongi. Kura really was amazing.

All your friends were honestly.

You met Sin, funnily enough, at church. Whenever you were forced to go you were always excited to see him there. He was older than you by a year, a bit shorter than you but a bit taller than Kura, with mocha colored skin, amber eyes, a devilish smile and black hair that normally reached his mid back, unless he had a moment and decided to chop it off, making it shoulder length.

Sin was an awesome person. He loved the same things you did and the two of you just clicked and never let go. He was there for you when you had family problems and always had his door opened for you. He was always there to pick you up when you needed someone and you were too scared to go to Kura. Sin was a chill guy until he had to defend you. At that point he was all over the place ready to beat someone up.

The two of you got even closer once he learned that he was a Little as well. Being dared to wear a onesie at a sleepover made his life better in both your opinions. He seemed happier and less stressed as he had two jobs that drove him up the walls. He didn't want to admit that he was a little at first but once he kinda started getting into it the more he invested in it. It was nice to have a playmate.

Last but not least there was Angel. He was tall, light skinned and loved reminding you that he was older than you by a couple of months. His dark hair was curly and went passed his shoulders but he kept it up in a ponytail more than half the time. His hazel eyes changed color depending on his emotions and how the light hit them and he was your first caregiver.

In the beginning you and Angel seemed to like each other, he had helped you realize your sexuality, but neither of you took that extra step. Honestly though both of you were grateful for your shyness because the two of you were closer than ever when he accepted his role as caregiver.

Angel was there for you when you first started buying things for your little space. He helped you out when you were looking things up and helped you out when you were too nervous or too embarrassed to slip. It was only natural that the two of you would form that kind of relationship. When Angel went up to you to ask if he could help in any way you were more than excited to have someone you knew help out. Kura and Sin just seemed to follow suit after some time. You were definitely indebted to Angel after he got you out of that bad relationship.

Your three friends were everything. You loved them. Nothing would change that.

"You never answered my question." Kura spoke as she looked through your dresser for some clothes for your playdate. "Why do you care what Yoongi thinks? He's dating six other guys. If anything you should be having all the fun in the world."

"I couldn't just go up to him in the beginning of our relationship and tell him 'hey I'm very attracted to not just you but all seven of you. I think we should just all be together because I'm selfish and don't know what the fuck I want!' Yeah that would've gone great." You replied sarcastically.

"You knew what you wanted." Kura started as she rolled her eyes. Well...at the time you did." Kura shrugged, trying to decide whether or not to punish you for swearing but decided against it since you weren't fully in little space. "You can't help that you fall for people easily. I get that you just wanted to be a good boyfriend for Yoongi and ignore your growing feelings for everyone else. You did great." She paused as she looked at some of your favorite shirts, most of them being BTS merch. "Until you realized your feeling for Taehyung that is."

You sighed and shrugged, toying with the handles of your cup. "I know. I just…" You sighed. "I wanted to be there only for him. I know how upset Yoongi got once he found out I was in love with Taehyung. He wasn't furious or anything he just looked... disappointed." You blew out a puff of air, frustrated. "I wanted to be his escape from the idol world. I wanted to just be his cause the feelings I had for everyone else is wrong...right?"

Kura stared at you, knowing the exact reason why you were beating yourself up over this whole thing. She really did hate how much bullshit your ex put into your mind. She was almost sure that if you and Yoongi were to talk things out Yoongi would see it your way and understand how amazing your presence and love would make him and the rest of the group feel. She hated the fact that you were so afraid to open up your heart to the others. She believed that you were an amazing person and had so much love to give. If it wasn't for your ex she was certain you wouldn't be in this mess. She placed down some clothes for you and reached over to hug you.

"I understand the feeling of wanting someone all to yourself but I feel like you can't be monogamous in a polyamorous relationship."

"I mean some dynamics are like that though." You tell her. "I'm not entirely sure but I'm almost sure there are some poly relationships that had the same kind of dynamic that Yoongi and I had."

Kura stared at you. "I think you're just justifying it."

You rolled your eyes. "Maybe? I don't know."

"Are you really gonna tell me that you were okay with Yoongi being six other guys? You weren't jealous or mad that someone else had your boyfriends attention?"

You shook your head. "No!" You covered your mouth, surprised at your reaction. "I...I was never angry. I was honestly just happy that Yoongi was happy and I was ecstatic that I was apart of something so wonderful. Plus being friends with the guys was uplifting and a true joyous moment. Like a holiday with close friends and family that never ended." You started to smile. It was small but it was there.

Kura sighed, choosing to not comment. "I mean did you and Yoongi at least talk about how you are in these types of relationships? Does he even know that you had past experiences with this kind of thing?"

"Well I told him I crush on people easily." You heard her groan, knowing that her second question was going to be ignored. "I also guaranteed him that I wouldn't crush on his boyfriends. It wasn't like he told me straight up that they were off limits but that's what it felt like I should say." Kura noticed that you were the one that made that rule. She wondered how Yoongi actually felt about sharing you with the others. "Other than that I wasn't too interested in anyone else anyway so I wasn't worried about liking other people. I was too focused on Yoongi and the others to notice anyone else anyway." You continued, not noticing how Kura was starting to connect the dots.

"And that's how you started liking the rest of the group!" She exclaimed. "You had spent every waking moment with them. Honestly, with your sensitive heart, I'm surprised you didn't realize you were in love with them sooner. Taehyung I can understand why you immediately knew since he's your bias but for everyone else, I'm shocked."

You drank from your cup, not wanting to respond.

"Have you been intimate with any of them?"

You started coughing, the question shocking you for a quick second. Kura had went over to you to pat your back and help ease any discomfort.

You glared at her once you were able to breathe. "How could you even ask me that?" You calmed down some and sighed, a slight dusting of blush on your cheeks. "No. I haven't been with anyone intimately."

"Really? Not even Taehyung?" She asked shocked. "Considering how much you loved his crotch grab in DNA I thought for sure you would've tried to hit that by now."

"No!" You blushed brighter. "We've only been together for...I think half a year. I don't think him and I are there yet." Your blush grew darker.

"Okay. Then what does that say about you and Yoongi?"

You covered your face. "We've...done some stuff but...yeah." You were not in the mood to tell Kura about your personal life. Sure you and Yoongi had been intimate but only a small handful of times. Since being with Taehyung it hasn't gotten pass make out sessions sometimes. Kura patted your shoulder in comfort, knowing how embarrassed you were and knowing that intimacy was definitely another hard subject to approach. It went hand in hand with the subject of polyamory after all.

"Look, I know neither of you see it right now but you are perfect for them. You complete them in a way that I'm sure none of them have realized yet. I'm positive they complete you too." You smiled at her positive words. "Once you and the guys talk everything out I'm sure you'll have your happy ending."

You looked down at your hands, staring at the cup and missing the one Seokjin got you; it really was your favorite. "What if I don't deserve a happy ending?" You asked. "What if...he was right and...I'm just selfish?"

Kura sighed. "Do you think other people who are polyamorous are selfish?"

You shook your head. "No. I don't have an opinion on other people's relationships. People should love who they want to love. Within reason of course." You added. "Consent is Queen." You smiled towards Kura who chuckled. "I'm being serious though." You played with the hem of your shirt. "Even though I respect other polyamorous couples I just don't know how to feel about it when I'm the one involved."

Kura sat down beside you and grabbed onto your shoulders. "(Y/N), he was wrong. He was wrong about you and he was wrong about everything you stood for. I know it's hard to believe with all that's happened in the past but Sam was wrong about everything. Especially about you." She noticed how you flinched at the mention of your ex's name. "If he could see you now, having seven amazing guys wanting to give you love and attention, he'd be so shocked. Honestly, you being with them would just prove how wrong he is." She stared at you as you looked away from her. "You do believe that he's wrong right?"

You shrugged. "I don't know. All I know is that I had never thought the relationship BTS had was wrong. I would never think that something so wonderful as the bond they shared was selfish." You tried holding back a sob. "I miss them. I miss them so much. I want to be with them again." You admitted. "I know things will be hard but knowing that they all love me makes me incredibly happy."

"Do you love them as well?" Kura asked.

You bit your lip and despite your body telling you that these feelings weren't right you nodded your head, allowing yourself to say the words that had been floating around the back of your mind and heart ever since you started dating both Yoongi and Taehyung. "Yeah. I love all of them." You smiled brightly as Kura hugged you, your body feeling a bit light for the first time in a long while.

Kura let go of you to go back and retrieve the clothes she took out. "Then that's all you need to worry about." She smiled at you and showed you the pretty lavender shirt with both Yoongi and Taehyung's stage names on it and a cute pair of shorts. "Come on then." Kura decided to change the subject. "Let's get you washed up and dressed. Sin will be here soon."
~*~*~*~
The rest of the day went by normally. Once you were all dressed up and ready Sin came over. The two of you hugged each other and talked while Kura made you both lunch. During the wait you and Sin had both slipped into your little space and had decided to color and play dress up in the clothes Sin brought from his job as a model. You were having so much fun that you didn't notice that Kura had started taking pictures of the two of you playing around and sending them to your phone in hopes that you would send them to all of your boyfriends; both soon to be and current.

Once the two of you had gone down for your nap Angel had came over. Kura had just finished making dinner for everyone and had even came into the room to hug you before she left. You had woken up a little thanks to that but you had fallen back to sleep just as quickly, thankful to your friends who had only wanted to make you happy in your very confusing time.

Once you and Sin woke up you played for a little longer and then ate dinner. After that more play time ensued. Angel was even nice enough to take the two of you to the park. It was a little darker outside so there weren't many people around which meant you and Sin had plenty of time to run and play.

Honestly it made you miss the boys all the more.

It made you miss the days that Seokjin would take you to the park and push you on the swings and how Hoseok would watch you go down the slide or even join you. You even missed the days when the three of you would talk and horse around in the kitchen as Seokjin cooked.

You missed the days when Jimin and Jungkook would take you out shopping or to their dance practices and how they let you pick the things you want or make you sing their songs so they can dance to it.

You yearned for the days when Namjoon would take you on walks and teach you about so many things you didn't know. You always did love watching the gears turn in his head as he got sudden inspiration for songs or whenever he was just thinking about everyone else. He has such a kind heart.

You missed Taehyung and how he would drop everything to just be with you. It didn't matter when or how long Taehyung always made time for you. You bit your lip thinking about him. He was doing so much for you. You had to thank him once all this was over.

If there was anyone else you missed more it was Yoongi. You missed the casual silence between the two of you during days off. You missed cuddling with him when he was being extra affectionate. You missed the times when he would hold you until you stopped being scared or anxious at whatever was ailing you and you yearned for the days when all he wanted to do was sleep in your arms and tell you he loved you.

You were broken out of your thoughts when Angel called you and Sin over to go home. You were more than ready to leave and even more excited to finally get that message to come home from Taehyung.

All you had to do was wait for it.
~*~*~*~
It was late when you woke up. You looked around the room, noticing how you and Sin were sharing your bed. Sin had his hair in cute Sailor Moon buns and had his favorite red pacifier in his mouth. You smiled at him and hugged him softly. You then got up from the bed and went out to get something to drink. You were feeling a bit bigger than earlier so if Angel was awake and he let you you were probably just gonna stay up a bit longer and hang with him a bit.

You smiled at him as you saw him on his computer watching videos. He looked up at you, probably sensing your presence, and sat up on the couch which was now pulled out into a very comfy bed. He smiled and waved at you. He tilted his head toward you and you took it as a sign that he was inviting you over to sit with him. Once next to him you leaned your head on his shoulder. He wrapped an arm around your waist and you sat there and watched a video together in silence for a while.

"If you're confused still then you have two options." Angel started off. "You can either just try this whole thing out and be with them, this way there are no regrets. Or you can say fuck it all and just leave them. I personally wouldn't judge you. That's seven people to take care of. It's a lot on your plate." You sighed but didn't interrupt him. "I know that your fears for this kind of relationship stem from your ex and I know you're trying to break away from that hold but if you're not okay with it still then don't force it. It might do more harm than good."

"I love them Angel." Your gaze never left the computer screen.

You felt him chuckle. "I'm so proud of you, (Y/N). Never forget that. I know they'll make you happy. I know you'll make them happy."

"I really hope so." You muttered as you hugged him, trying not to cry.

Angel and you got up and went to the kitchen to get you the drink you wanted. Afterwards he followed you to the room to tuck you in. Sin immediately cuddled into you and you breathed easily, knowing your friends were willing to support in whatever decision you made.

You wanted to love them.

You wanted them to love you.

If loving them meant you can get all of that affection back and if loving them meant you could give that back and give them a sense of normalcy that you wanted to give to Yoongi then it was something you wanted to do. You wanted to let go of your fears. You wanted to let go of the past. You wanted to love them. Your heart ached for them. All of them.

You couldn't wait to go back home.

Unbeknownst to you, as you slept, your phone lit up with a message.

Taehyung

I love you.

We're ready to talk.

Please come home.

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Taehyung waved to you as you closed the door; him and Jimin having just finished dropping you off at your home. He didn't want to leave you. He wanted to hold you until he was sure you were okay. He wanted to guarantee you that everything was going to be alright.

He wanted to love you.

He wanted you to love him.

Taehyung was scared. He knew that letting the others have their moments with you would cause everyone to become confused and hurt but he didn't know by how much. He just knew -no he felt- the amount of love you had and just wanted everyone else to feel what he felt. He wanted to give everyone else at least a little bit of the love he was allowed to have since dating you.

He always knew something was wrong with him putting himself into the relationship you had with Yoongi but he didn't think anything of it since you had no objections. As a matter of fact you told him everything was fine very quickly.

Was that the clue that something was wrong?

Taehyung sighed as he looked over to Jimin as they walked back home. He saw the sadness in his eyes and reached over to grab his hand. Jimin looked up at him and smiled softly, squeezing his hand back in a silent thanks.

"Jimin-Hyung?" Taehyung started. "What made you realize your feelings for (Y/N)? Why couldn't you just stay as his caretaker?"

Jimin stared at Taehyung, not knowing where this line of questioning was going but he appreciated the change in subject. "Well... I realized that I wanted more a bit after (Y/N)-Hyung announced that you two were dating as well." He shrugged his shoulders. "At first I was happy for you. I knew the troubles you were going through thanks to Seokjin-Hyung and Jungkook but I just couldn't shake off the feeling of jealousy. At first I thought it was because I thought that (Y/N)-Hyung had just stolen another one of my boyfriends and now there was more 'competition'..." He chuckled at the word, not really meaning anything by it. "for your affection but then as time went on I realized that I wasn't jealous of (Y/N)-Hyung." He glanced over to Taehyung. "I was jealous of you."

"Me?" Taehyung's eyes widened slightly. "Because I was with (Y/N)-Hyung?"

Jimin nodded his head. "At first I didn't even know why I was jealous of you but as time went on and as I got to know (Y/N)-Hyung a bit more I noticed how much his presence affected me." Jimin's beautiful smile came into play and Taehyung couldn't help but melt at the sight. There was just something so magical about Jimin's smile. Taehyung couldn't look away. "I noticed how my palms would sweat or how I got tongue tied whenever he came over. I noticed how my heart would skip a beat whenever I saw him smile or hear him laugh." His eyes started to shine the more he talked about you. "Then I started to notice how cute he was whenever he was in little space and I realized how much I wanted to protect him and how much I wanted him to stay and travel with us." He sighed, the light in his eyes dying slightly and the smile fading. "That's why I volunteered myself to be a caretaker. I wanted to be near him always." He blew out a big puff of air. "It was at that point I realized I fell in love with him so fast that I just didn't know what to do with myself. All I knew was that I wanted to be with him and it hurt when I couldn't express those feelings."

Taehyung nodded his head, hearing Jimin's words and playing them over and over in his head. He felt it. He felt the longing and love in his words. The words hit home as they were practically the same as his own. He felt the aching in Jimin's heart as if it were his own pain.

He could only imagine the pain the others probably felt.

When they got back to the dorm Taehyung hugged Jimin once more, kissing the top of his head and rubbing small circles on his back. He made up his mind. He had to know. He had to know and understand everyone's pain. Even Yoongi's.

Even his own.

Taehyung and Jimin jumped when they suddenly saw Yoongi stomp over towards them. He looked stressed and tired. "Where is he?" He stared into Taehyung's eyes.

"He's home." He answered simply, knowing he was talking about you. "He wasn't feeling well so Jimin and I walked him home." It was only half of a lie.

"Why didn't you come to me?" Yoongi asked. "I'm his boyfriend you should've told me."

Taehyung's eyes narrowed. "I'm also his boyfriend and I made the decision to take him home. I have that right too."

Yoongi bit his lip. Taehyung was right. He was getting possessive again. This was probably the real reason why you left. No. He knew what the issue was. It was his fault...again.

Yoongi pushed you away.

"Did he cry?" He asked, his voice heavy with sadness.

Taehyung didn't want to say anything, knowing how this was going to affect Yoongi's already sullen mood but Jimin was quick to point fingers.

"Yes." Jimin started, his eyes were closed with sadness and anger. "He was so upset he started to doubt that he was being any help to you. He thought you'd break up with him." Jimin grabbed onto the hem of his shirt, his hands clenched into fists. "He even left little space.”

Taehyung could swear he saw Yoongi’s heart break at Jimin’s words.

“You’re supposed to be Daddy right?” Jimin challenged him. “You’re supposed to make sure he’s okay and loved and cherished right?” Jimin got up close to Yoongi. “If so then why are you the one that’s hurting him?!” He yelled in his face and Taehyung grabbed onto Jimin and was trying to pull him back.

“Jimin enough, don’t!” Taehyung yelled.

“No!” Jimin pulled himself away from Taehyung. The three of them didn’t realize that the others had come over to see what was going on.

Jimin had tears in his eyes and all six boys' hearts broke at the sight of it. “I love him!” He noticed how Yoongi's eyes widened slightly. His own eyes widened a bit when he noticed that everyone was there watching him. His heart sped up and he bit his lip, apologizing to each of them in his heart, hoping he’d be forgiven for what he was about to say. “We all do!” There was a small collective gasp from the others as Jimin spoke of the group's secret and Tae tried again to pull Jimin towards him. This was going too far. “Here we are trying to do our best to love (Y/N) the only way we can and you go and almost fuck it up!” Jimin continued to yell at Yoongi, who just stood there, the gates had been opened, there was no way he wasn't going to continue letting out his feelings. “He’s fragile and he gets overwhelmed easily! You should know that better than anyone! What if he decided to just run off and leave?" Jimin tried to contain himself, the last thing he wanted to do was to get into an actual fight with Yoongi but his emotions were going all over the place. "I don’t think he even knew I was in that other room.” He got quiet, letting Taehyung pull him closer to him. “What if I wasn’t there to try and convince him that you still loved him? What if he got so sad and angry and lonely that he just sat there in his thoughts and just…” He trailed off, not wanting to think anymore. “I don’t wanna lose him.” He sobbed, his hands covering his face.

The first person to move was Namjoon as he walked past Yoongi and hugged Jimin close to him. “I’ll take him to our room. I’ll let you know when he calms down.” Taehyung nodded his head and everyone, minus Yoongi, watched as Namjoon walked Jimin down the hall and then disappeared around the corner. A door was heard opening and then closing, blocking out most sounds besides Jimin’s heavy sobbing; him finally letting go of his emotions now that he wasn’t in front of such a big audience.

“Is this true?”

Everyone looked back at Yoongi. He turned toward the ones that were left. Hoseok, Seokjin and Jungkook just stared at him and one by one they nodded their heads.

“We still love you Yoongi.” Seokjin started. “It’s just that-”

“I know you still love me. Never had I once doubted that.” Yoongi interrupted. “Unlike all of you I’m trying to think about this with a clear head.” He referenced their first argument when Yoongi first told them of his feelings for (Y/N). “Just...tell me if it’s true. Are you in love with (Y/N)?”

Hoseok was the first one to answer. “I love my Sunshine.” He smiled softly. “Ever since I first met him he’s filled a place in my heart that I didn’t even know was empty.”

Seokjin was fast to respond after Hoseok. “He really is my Prince.” Seokjin ran his hand through his hair. “I just want to love him and protect him. It’s all I’ve been wanting for the longest time now.”

Everyone looked over to Jungkook, wondering what he would say. He was always outspoken in his feelings towards (Y/N) but everyone noticed his distance as of late.

Jungkook’s hand was gripping his phone. “I feel empty without him." He admitted. "It’s the same feeling I get when I can’t see one of you for some time or if we’re just so busy and I just want something as simple as touching your hand and I can’t have that.” He inhaled and exhaled deeply. “It’s that feeling of emptiness that I just can’t shake off until I have that person with me. Lately I’ve been feeling it more and more even though I’ve been around all of you.” He was looking at his shoes for some time and finally looked up, meeting Yoongi’s gaze. “I love him.” Jungkook sighed. “I didn’t even know I had so much love to give until all of us started our relationship but I know now and I want to share that love with (Y/N)."

Yoongi turned toward Taehyung. “You knew about all of this didn’t you?”

Tae flinched at Yoongi’s stare but his eyes didn’t look angry. They looked...worried?

He nodded his head. “Yes. I remember how you looked when I came up to you telling you of my feelings for (Y/N). So I thought it would be better not to say anything once I realized that everyone else started to have feelings for him as well.”

Yoongi sighed. “You clearly don’t know the whole story."

Taehyung stared at him as did everyone else, confusion written across each face. What were they missing?

Yoongi ran a hand through his hair. "I need some time to think. Thank you for being honest with me." He walked past everyone, not bothering to look at them and went to his room.

Taehyung sighed, walking into the living room and sitting down on the couch. He placed his face in his hands, feeling guilty about everything. This was all his fault. Should he have said something sooner? Could he have prevented this? He didn't know.

He felt a pair of lips touch his ear and he jumped up to look into the wonderful eyes of Jungkook. He was kneeling in front of him and he gently took Tae's face into his own hands, pulling it down so they could kiss. Taehyung's eyes fluttered closed and relished in Jungkook's soft lips. He felt Seokjin and Hoseok sit on either side of him and felt the older ones hand go through his blue hair and Hoseok's arm go across his shoulders in a careful hug that didn't interrupt Jungkook's grateful distraction.

When Jungkook broke the kiss he scrunched up his nose in a playful manner and nuzzled it into Taehyung's. Tae smiled softly and he looked over at Hoseok and Seokjin, smiles reaching their faces as well. They all felt it. It was like a humongous weight had been lifted off of their shoulders. Taehyung didn't have to hide anymore secrets and the rest of the boys didn't have to keep any.

It was still a bit worrying considering Yoongi's reaction and the fact that there were still things that no one else yet knew about you but they had to keep calm. They had to keep calm and take everything in stride.

Taehyung leaned into Hoseok's hold while Jungkook sat in-between his legs and rested his head in his lap and Seokjin continued to stroke his hair. They stayed like that for some time, just enjoying each other's company. Eyes were closed, breathing was relaxed. It was a peaceful atmosphere. One that no one wanted to ruin.

But Taehyung had already told himself that this was just something he had to do. He had to know. He had to know everyone’s story. He loved all six boys and he wondered, it was a rare thought, if you were worth all this stress. All this worry.

He opened his eyes and looked at the three men that were by his side. They were all leaned on him someway or another and their expressions were all very peaceful. He thought of Namjoon and Jimin. He even thought about Yoongi and how he must be feeling about all this. They were all suffering. Their own relationships, their bond, felt like it was in jeopardy.

Were you really worth all this trouble?

However despite thinking that and enjoying the time he had with his boyfriends something in the back of his mind told him that something was missing.

You.

You were missing from all this happiness. From all this calm.

Taehyung sighed softly. This wasn’t your fault. You didn’t ask for this. Hell, you even tried to distance yourself from them the minute you realized your feelings for Yoongi. They were the ones that wanted you back. They were the ones who encouraged Yoongi to confess to you and to love you the way he loved them.

You were important to them from day one.

So yes. You were worth it.

Taehyung was sure he could speak for everyone on this. They wanted you. They wanted to risk everything if it meant having you by their side. They risked it all for each other already so doing the same for you shouldn't be too hard. They loved you and now that it was all out in the open maybe things would get better.

"Seokjin-Hyung?" Taehyung felt him shift to look at him. "What made you fall for (Y/N)?"

Seokjin moved his hand from Taehyung's hair and looked up to the ceiling in deep thought. He took a deep breath and thought about his answer. A smile came to the older ones lips and he stretched as he sat up straighter. "When (Y/N) came back I was just happy that Yoongi was happy. It was hard seeing him so upset. I was also happy that my friend was back. Back then I didn't want to admit it but it was weird when he was gone and I was more than excited to have him come back to the house." He ran his fingers through his hair. "(Y/N) always had this ability to make me forget that I'm famous. He always saw me as...me and when he slipped into little space in front of me for the first time I was more than happy to become a caretaker and give back that feeling of love and respect, like what he gave to me." He looked towards the hallway as if looking towards Yoongi's room hoping he was alright but not going to him knowing he needed time to himself. "When I realized my feelings grew a bit stronger, like when I felt that I wanted to just kiss him so he could smile for me, I panicked." He looked over to Hoseok when he felt his hand playing with his hair. "I didn't want anyone finding out, especially Yoongi. I didn't know how he would react. Sometimes I still believe if I hadn't shown you guys how close I was getting to (Y/N) maybe things would've turned out different." He sighed. "But I do think it's possible for all eight of us to be together. I feel like (Y/N) is a part of us. I...don't think I could let him go even if I wanted to."

Taehyung smiled at Seokjin and then looked over at Hoseok. "What about you?"

Hoseok sighed and moved his hand away from Seokjin. He felt like he still wanted to fidget with something so he started to play with Jungkook's hair. The younger male just sighed and decided not to do anything. He was enjoying his spot and the bit of attention he was getting. However he was not looking forward to it being his turn to answer this question.

Hoseok smiled at Jungkook's reaction and spoke as he played with the soft strands. "I knew that (Y/N)-Hyung was going to be my Sunshine the minute we learned about his little space. It just felt right." He stopped what he was doing and ran his hands over his face in thought. He seemed to be lost as he spoke again. "I'm usually everyone's hope, everyone's sun or Sunshine, but for me...that was (Y/N)-Hyung. As I told Yoongi-Hyung, (Y/N)-Hyung filled up a part of me that I didn't know was empty." He bit his lip as he looked toward Taehyung. "I only realized it once you and him got together. I realized that that was something I wanted more than anything. It...hurt honestly. I'm usually a lot more composed about my feelings for him but…" Hoseok started to tear up and he wiped at his eyes. "the thought of him not being by my side hurts me as much as the thought of losing all of you does. Sometimes I just wanted (Y/N)-Hyung to comfort me but then I have to remember that I can't have that. I have to be his caretaker. I have to be 'Sunny'. I can't hope that he'd just crawl into my lap and sing to me as he kisses my head. It's too intimate for someone in my standing and I always felt wrong for hoping he would do it while he's in little space. It felt like I was betraying him by having those thoughts. So I ignored them." He looked over at Seokjin. "The only good thing about all this is that Seokjin-Hyung and I got a bit closer. We both understood how hard it was to hide our feelings away from someone who deserved so much more."

Seokjin got up and went over to Hoseok. He kneeled in front of him and hugged him, kissing his head and playing with his hair. "I love you." He whispered.

Hoseok grabbed onto him and held him tight. "Love you too." He mumbled. He looked at Taehyung again. "I don't regret my decision to be his caretaker. Being friends with (Y/N)-Hyung and being allowed to have a glimpse into his world is something I'm proud of. I really do love him." He smiled, tears still in his eyes and holding onto Seokjin closely.

While Seokjin was comforting Hoseok; Taehyung looked down at Jungkook who seemed to be trying to slowly sink into the floor. Taehyung reached down and squished the younger male's cheeks together, making Jungkook scowl and attempt to push his hands away. He wasn't angry or anything, as he was used to Taehyung doing that to him, he just didn't want to get caught and have to speak. The male sat up and looked over at his three Hyung's. He didn't know where to start to be honest. How does one talk about the very moment you found out that your heart couldn't beat without another person? How does one pinpoint that crucial memory when you realized your body couldn't function without that special someone by your side?

Jungkook scratched the back of his head. He moved his bangs around a bit and couldn't help the small smile that appeared on his face when Taehyung reached over to play with his face again. "I pretty much said what I needed to say when Yoongi-Hyung was here." He grabbed onto Tae's hand and played with his fingers. "When (Y/N)-Hyung came back here after he and Yoongi-Hyung became official I thought it was great mostly because I got my friend back." He shrugged. "And I thought learning about his little space was interesting. I liked seeing him smile and being able to relax in what he deemed as a safe environment. I felt really wanted when he asked me if I could help take care of him whenever he was in his head space. I felt loved." He grinned. "I also like how caring and supportive he is whenever we practice or talk about ARMY. He really is amazing." He smiled as he listed things he liked about you. The other three smiled at him, loving how much emotion he was portraying. It was just so amazing to see how much love Jungkook had for everyone. Especially you. "I'm not really sure when it happened but by the time I knew what I was feeling was love I knew I couldn't live without him. I was already attached to him and I knew my heart would never let him go." He smiled as he placed a hand on his chest. "I believe he's just as important to me as all of you are. If one day he decided not to come back home…" He paused. "I'm not sure what I'd do actually." The hand that was on his chest closed around the fabric of his shirt tightly, as if the mere thought of losing you was giving him pain. Taehyung noticed and leaned down to give him a kiss on his cheek. Jungkook seemed to perk up slightly.

"Was there a reason why you asked all of us this question?" Tae and Jungkook looked over at Seokjin when he spoke. Hoseok peeked his head out from Seokjin's arms and looked over at Taehyung in question too.

"I'm gonna talk to Yoongi-Hyung and let him know how each of you feel about (Y/N)-Hyung. I feel like that's the best way to go about this." He ran a hand through his hair. "I...just also wanted to know. I also need to figure out my own feelings about all this. Honestly if I didn't love him then I would've never pursued him but with everything that's going on I just feel a little lost. What if I only claim to love him because Yoongi-Hyung does?" He told them of his secret thoughts. "I'm also just scared to continue giving my heart out to him in the hopes that he'll stay with me even if he loves everyone else." He lowered his head. "I'm having the same doubts and fears I had when we all confessed to each other. I'm scared." He admitted to them.

It was at that moment that Taehyung felt a weight on his lap. He looked up to see Jungkook there, smiling softly at him. Seokjin had let go of Hoseok and they both moved back to either side of him and wrapped their arms around Taehyung's waist and shoulders.

"I'm scared too." Jungkook told him.

"Same." Seokjin added while Hoseok nodded his head in agreement.

Taehyung smiled at all of them. He was very fortunate to have all of them by his side and to have all of them love him as much as they do. He knew they would get through this. All he had to do now was talk to Namjoon and get his say in all this. After that he'll try to talk to Yoongi and once everything else was said and done and they all end up in some kind of agreement he'll call (Y/N) and tell him to come home.

He wanted him home so badly.

But right now with Jungkook, Seokjin and Hoseok by his side, comforting him with sweet whispers and cuddles, he was happy. It was the only thing he ever wanted. Happiness.
~*~*~*~
It was the next day while him and Namjoon were outside, just taking a walk as they haven't had a moment with each other in a while, Taehyung felt his phone vibrate with a notification from their group chat. Sadly it wasn't the one (Y/N) was in but he was surprised to see that it was Yoongi that messaged everyone.

Yoongi
Sorry to bother everyone and thank you for not bothering me today when you saw me.
I'm letting all of you know that I'm not angry at any of you. I'm sad that something so important was hidden from me but I can understand why as I've already been in a similar situation with Tae concerning his feelings with (Y/N).

Taehyung jumped slightly when he felt Namjoon's hand on his shoulder. They went into a small cafe to sit and talk in the chat more comfortably. While Tae sat down at a booth a little further back Namjoon went to the counter to order them both something small. Taehyung looked back down to his phone when he felt another vibration.

Yoongi
To be honest with you all I honestly don't have any problems with any of you having feelings for (Y/N). As a matter of fact if he was fine with everything I'd go as far as to say that I'm perfectly fine with sharing him as we have been doing with each other.
I know that he'll make you guys as happy as you guys make him.

Namjoon sat down in front of Tae and handed him the stuff he ordered for him. Taehyung glanced at him as Namjoon took out his phone and read the messages Yoongi sent. Both of them were shocked at the confession but they were happy.

Yoongi
Just give me an extra day to think about what I'm going to say to you all since this is a bit more complicated than what I'm letting on.
To be more clear: I'm perfectly okay with you all being with (Y/N) but I'm not sure how exactly he'll take it. Which is the only thing I'm actually worried about.
Jungkook
Wait. What does that even mean? Do you think he might not want to be with all of us?
Jimin
No he told me he loves all of us!
Jungkook
That doesn't mean that he wants to be with all of us at the same time Hyung!
Seokjin
Calm down both of you!
Yoongi what do you mean when you say that? Do you think he'll react badly if we were to ask him to be with all of us?
Yoongi
Yes.

Taehyung raised an eyebrow and looked over at Namjoon who looked just as confused.

Namjoon
Explain. Explain it to the best of your ability.
Taehyung
Yeah. I'm confused. Why would he react badly? He seemed to always be open minded about the topic of polyamory considering he never spoke ill will about us.
Hoseok
Maybe because he wasn't involved?
Yoongi
You're exactly right. (Y/N) seems to have an issue with himself being involved in a polyamorous relationship. He has no issues supporting people who are in one, like all of us, but seems to panic whenever he would speak about himself being in one.
Taehyung
But wait he seemed to be fine when the two of us talked!
Yoongi
No. He disassociated. He wasn’t really ‘there’ I guess I could say.
After your ‘talk’ he actually went into baby space. He was there for a whole week. I wasn’t sure how to bring it up that it was you who made him like that.
Namjoon
Well that explains your week of absence.
We were off, coincidentally, so none of us bothered you but to think that that's what was going on…
Yoongi
Yeah…
I never brought it up because I knew he wouldn't have wanted me to and I knew he really loved you Tae and I thought it would be good for the two of you to be together. I thought that maybe whatever was ailing him would go away in time.
But in all reality (Y/N)-Hyung broke down when he told me his feelings for you. He cried and practically begged me not to leave him. He even told me if it made me feel better I could hit him for being disobedient.

Taehyung couldn't stop the startled gasp that came out of his mouth. "No way." He mumbled. He felt Namjoon's hand grab onto his own, obviously just as bothered with this information as he was.

Hoseok
What?!
Jimin
Why would (Y/N)-Hyung ask that of you?
Jungkook
Why did he think you'd leave him for something like that?
Namjoon
Considering our own relationships you'd think it would be easy for him to tell us something like that but for him to break down like that...I don't know.

The chat stayed quiet for a while.

Seokjin
Do you know about any of his past relationships?

Taehyung's heart jumped at Seokjin's question. He wasn't assuming that (Y/N) had a bad relationship in the past right? No one deserved that kind of treatment. Especially not their baby.

Yoongi
No.
I never asked and so he never told.

Taehyung sighed. The one time he wished Yoongi was a bit more knowledgeable.

Taehyung
As much as I don't wanna think about someone hurting our baby in the past, Seokjin-Hyung has a point. Do you think this is why (Y/N)-Hyung acted the way he did?
Yoongi
If it does have something to do with a past relationship then that's something we all have to talk about when he comes back home. In terms of what else I know and why I'm still worried I'd like to talk to you all about this face to face.
There's not much more to say but I'd feel better talking to you all as a group.
Just not now.
Hoseok
Yeah. Take all the time you need. We're here for you.
Jimin
Yeah. We can wait.
I also want to apologise for snapping at you yesterday. I was just so angry and worried. When I told him about our feelings he seemed ready to run away. Or if not that he seemed ready to have a full blown panic attack and deep down I thought it was because of you. I'm so sorry.
Yoongi
Yeah. That's what I'm worried about but again I'll talk to you all about it at some other time. Thinking about all of this just builds up my anxiety.
Also apology accepted. You had a right to worry. I was never mad at you.
I love you too much.
All of you.
Jungkook
Love you too.
We'll figure this out. We all have a common goal after all.
Namjoon
Yeah. We all want (Y/N) to be with us. Whatever it is that's causing him distress we'll all figure it out together.
Taehyung
💜 Yeah.
Seokjin
Are you two gonna be out for a bit longer?
Namjoon
Yeah. I'll let you know when we're heading back.
Seokjin
Alright thanks.
Yoongi may I go to your room?
Yoongi
Sure. I could use the company.
Jungkook
Why don't we all hang out today? We can do the serious talking tomorrow. Let's just be with each other today.
Jimin
I like that idea.
Taehyung
Same. I could use the bonding.
Namjoon
Agreed.
Hoseok
What do you say, Yoongi-Hyung?
Good plan?

There was a bit of silence in the chat as it seemed like everyone was waiting for Yoongi’s answer. Taehyung looked up at Namjoon and they were both nervous. Would he reject them? Did he still need time to himself?

Yoongi
Sure. Seokjin-Hyung just got here but once Namjoon and Taehyung come back we should all watch a movie.
Jungkook
Woo! Jimin-Hyung let's pick out a movie!
Jimin
Okay! Be safe coming home guys.
Hoseok
I'll make sure it's not a horror movie. I'll also start looking at our snacks to see what we can use.
Seokjin
I need to do some shopping so just order some stuff!
Be safe guys!
Yoongi
See you when you get home.

Taehyung looked back up at Namjoon as he was putting away his phone. He looked a little on edge but he did look a bit calm considering the news they just heard.

"If (Y/N) had such a strong reaction to admitting his feelings for you then why did he allow himself to date you?" Namjoon asked aloud.

Taehyung shrugged. "I don't know. I wish I did." Taehyung was starting to feel bad. Was it a sign? Should he have realized that something was wrong sooner? What if he never told Yoongi his feelings? Would this have happened anyway?

Namjoon, seeing the distress on his boyfriend’s face, took Taehyung's hand in his own again and brought it up to his lips. He placed a delicate kiss on it and smiled at the younger male. "Hey, if anything it at least shows that he really does love you and that despite whatever was going on he still chose to be with you. I think that's really nice."

Tae smiled. "Yeah I think so too." Taehyung was always so glad to be alone with Namjoon. The fearless and wonderful leader of BTS could do no wrong in his eyes and he was always so grateful for all the positive reinforcement and knowledge he would bestow upon him.

"So? What did you want to talk to me about?" Namjoon asked as he took a sip of his coffee.

Taehyung snapped out of his daze. "Oh right." He cleared his throat. "So I wanted to know...how did you realize your feelings for (Y/N)? What makes all this worth it?"

Namjoon stared at Taehyung for a bit and then averted his eyes to look out the window. He stayed quiet for a bit before deciding to respond.

"His heart." He said, still looking outside. "I fell in love with his heart first." He looked back at Taehyung, smiling that gorgeous smile. "If I really think about it I'm pretty sure I fell in love with him once Yoongi-Hyung started bringing him to the dorm more." He let out a little laugh and sighed, tilting his head back onto the cushioned seat. "I mean I didn't know it was love until I saw that you two were together to be honest. I've come to realize that I wanted that as well." He ran his fingers through his hair. "Honestly the fact that all of us have feelings for (Y/N)-Hyung makes me happy. If all of us can come to an understanding then I’m sure we’ll all be happy.” The smile on his face grew wider. “It’s gonna be difficult but all relationships are. Ours isn’t really that different. I’m just really happy to know that (Y/N)-Hyung said he loves me too.”

Taehyung nodded his head, happy for the same thing. All they had to do now was talk to Yoongi, get some common ground on this whole situation and then get (Y/N) back to see where they could all go from there. It would be great if things went well and you all decided to just be together. It wouldn’t be the same without you anymore. BTS isn’t just about the seven of them.

They needed you too.

“What about you?”

Taehyung looked up at Namjoon from his stare down at the table. He tilted his head in slight confusion. “Me?”

“How do you feel about all this?” Namjoon asked. “You’ve asked everyone else already but what about you?”

Taehyung was a little taken aback by the question. How did he feel about this? He clearly loved (Y/N). He knew he did. He may have some doubts, like the ones he told the others yesterday, but it was because he loved him right? He shook his head, trying to clear his mind of all the fears and worries. Namjoon asked him the same simple question that he's been asking everyone else. Did they feel like this too? Did he bring out this worry? This fear?

He then thought back to when he first met you. You were handsome and very open-minded. You loved their music and appreciated all that they did for their fans. You were strong, brave, sweet and had the cutest moments of playfulness and innocence and the more times Yoongi brought you over to get to know them the more he realized that you just seemed to fit in with them. You fit in their little group like a glove. Your presence made him whole and when you were gone he figured he was the first one, besides Yoongi, to ask you when you were coming back.

When Yoongi told everyone that he was in love with you he was shocked not hurt. He wasn't surprised either. He was able to tell that Yoongi was falling hard for you because he gave you the same type of attention he gave to everyone else. While everyone was talking, blaming and accusing Yoongi, Taehyung kept quiet which probably didn't help but he realized he couldn't speak. What could he have said in that situation? Everyone was already on edge.

The last thing he wanted to do was admit to all of them that he was in love with you too.

When Yoongi started to grieve your lost Taehyung did as well. He was there to help Yoongi whenever he seemed too down to do anything. In the beginning he never had the heart to tell him of his feelings for you. He then started to notice little by little that the rest of BTS started to notice how much they missed you too. You were something they all needed. You were something that he needed. He was really glad when Namjoon told Yoongi to go get you and see if he could bring you back to them.

It was amazing to see you again even if you were trying your best to avoid them. When he learned of your little space he thought it was the cutest thing in the world. It explained so much about you. Taehyung wanted nothing more than to take care of you and love you. He wasn't gonna lie when he felt his heart shatter at the sight of you and Yoongi kissing but he felt happy that Yoongi was happy. He felt included however when you called him 'Papa'. He wore the name proudly and was happy to be a caregiver along side Yoongi. They both had learned a lot about you and it was great as the rest of the boys started getting involved. They each had similar ways of taking care of you but they were also very different and Taehyung knew -he could see it- that you enjoyed every minute of it. You were happy and that's all that mattered.

At the time it did.

Taehyung felt it everyday. He felt that need to love you in ways that only Yoongi was allowed to. He ignored it of course because you were Yoongi's boyfriend. He wanted to respect that but everyday, every smile, every hello when you came over, every bye when you left, every time you two were alone, every kiss to the cheek or snuggle during nap time made him fall for you. He needed you and he was so afraid to tell you and Yoongi. Instead he told Seokjin and Jungkook about it.

It was during those talks that he realized that everyone else was having the same kind of confusing feelings he had, even if they didn't realize it, but he figured if he could talk to Yoongi maybe he could give the others courage as well. Sadly that didn't happen. It was definitely something he was going to ask about when everyone was together for their talk.

Regardless he was happy when it seemed that you shared the same feelings from him and he was more than happy to have you near him but from the very beginning he wanted to share you with everybody, knowing that you'd love them as much as you loved him and Yoongi. He never got a chance to talk to you about it and now that he saw and heard first hand how you reacted to the idea of a relationship with everyone he was glad he didn't.

All in all there was only one answer he could give to Namjoon. It was so obvious that Taehyung even wondered why he didn't just say it in the beginning.

"I love him. I fought for him from the very beginning." Taehyung told his leader. "I want to know what happened to him. I want to know who hurt my angel." Tears started to sting his eyes. "I want to continue loving him and I want him home again." He hid his face in his hands. "Most importantly I want him to love all of us. I'm not sure if he'll let himself be loved by everyone but...I hope he will. I want him to be happy." He sniffled. "That's how I feel."

Namjoon smiled, handing Taehyung a tissue to wipe his face and nose. "You ready to go home?" Taehyung nodded his head. "Come on. I think we all need some time together. It'll be good for us." He stood up and held his hand out, glad that the younger one took it. Taehyung then stood up and walked out of the cafe with Namjoon in hand.

As they walked home they did some small shopping for snacks so it was one less thing for Seokjin to worry about and once the door opened they were both happy to see everyone getting things set up for their movie night. Even Yoongi was there and he gave them that sweet smile they all fell in love with.

Namjoon and Taehyung walked over to him and hugged him and one by one the rest of the boys joined in the hug and one by one they all started to cry. Each one let out tears of happiness, worry, sadness, jealousy and love. Emotions old, hidden and new poured out from them. They held each other tightly, words of love were whispered among them. Then they each let go and smiled at each other. Right now they were together and even though they missed you you were still in their hearts and they would keep you there for as long as you let them. For now they had each other and they were happy with that.

Taehyung was happy about that.

It was really all he ever wanted.

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The day after went on as normal. It had been two days since anyone has heard from you. Jimin and Taehyung weren't surprised as they knew firsthand that you needed some time to yourself. Taehyung also knew that you were waiting on his message to tell you to come home and even though they told the others that they were still harder to convince. Especially Seokjin and Yoongi.

After last night's little movie date the boys felt better about today. Today Yoongi was going to tell them everything he knew. They were going to talk things through and then see what they could do to get you back with them. It wasn't guaranteed that you would allow yourself to love all of them. Hell, it wasn't guaranteed that you would stay with Yoongi after all this but they had to try. They missed their baby boy. They missed their friend. They missed you.

"I hate it when he doesn't answer me." Yoongi sighed as he threw his phone down on the couch. "I swear he's in trouble when he gets home. I don't care if he's little or not."

Hoseok, who sat beside him, couldn't stop the chuckle that escaped his mouth. "Well he wouldn't have needed to go home if you weren't being so neglectful, Hyung." He reminded him. "(Y/N) isn't the only one that's 'in trouble'."

Yoongi flinched at Hoseok's truthful words. He sighed. "I know." He groaned. "I'm just worried. I never liked it when we were apart."

Seokjin walked out of the kitchen, having just finished washing the dishes with Jungkook. It was towards the end of the day, the boys just had dinner and they were wondering when exactly Yoongi was going to start talking. They had decided to talk at this time as their morning and early afternoon were swamped. They still had things to do despite everything that was currently going on.

"No one likes it when he isn't here but that doesn't mean you get to punish him the minute he gets home." Seokjin told him, hitting his shoulder lightly.

One by one all seven boys were in the living room, lounging around and either watching TV, reading a book or magazine or just looking at their phones. Yoongi was the only one who seemed to be lost in his thoughts. He missed you. He wanted to tell you how sorry he was. He knew you understood how important it was for him to work and he knew you could be patient, he honestly loved that about you, but you were little and were already having a bad day. All you wanted to do was go to the park and all he did was get angry, mostly because of how the day went. He didn't want you to leave him that morning. He wanted you home. Sure it was a bit selfish but he knew he could take care of you 24/7 if you asked. He sighed. Maybe he should apologize to everyone for snapping at them when they suggested you live with them. It honestly doesn't sound like a bad idea now. Maybe you coming along with them on tours and just traveling with them wasn't so far fetched of a plan anymore.

Well before any of that they needed to talk about you and the best case scenario if you decided to continue this relationship.

No. He couldn't think like that. Yoongi knew you still loved him. He knew you still loved them. If you didn't you would've come back of your own freewill already. You would've already talked to them. They would be no hesitation. You were strong like that. You always spoke your mind even if you were afraid to.

"Hey Yoongi-Hyung?" Taehyung started to speak. "Before we talk I wanna tell you something." He looked around to the rest of them and they nodded their heads, knowing what he was about to say. "These past couple of days I've asked everyone 'what made you fall in love with (Y/N)?'. They each gave me an answer and I'd like to tell you what they were." Yoongi nodded his head and Taehyung proceeded to tell him what he heard from the others. He told him everything from what Jimin said all the way down to when he was asked the question. When he was done Yoongi reached out to him and pulled him closer into a hug. Taehyung held onto him tightly, slightly shaking as he exposed everyone's true feelings. "I want you to understand that we're all here for the long run. For you and for (Y/N)-Hyung. We love you and we really want this to work."

Yoongi sighed, running his hands through the fading blue locks. "Thank you. You didn't have to do that but thank you. I now know that (Y/N) is in good hands with all of you, not that I needed much convincing." He pulled away, looking at each of his boyfriends who seemed happy and hopeful. "You know what? This reminds me of when Jungkook called us up for a meeting like this and when we all got together." He chuckled, causing the atmosphere to become a bit lighter at the memory. "We were all like this. Afraid, nervous and in love."

Jungkook smiled a bit at the thought. "I was a bit sick and tired of everyone admiring each other from afar." He shrugged. "I was also dealing with my own feelings for Namjoon-Hyung at the time so I wanted to get it out in the open. Honestly I don't even know what I was thinking. It just sorta came out. Once I started I couldn't stop. I was just glad all of you were okay with it." He blushed slightly when Namjoon placed a comforting hand on his shoulder.

"Speaking of that…" Seokjin started. The atmosphere turned heavy suddenly and everyone's happy faces turned serious. "Yoongi? I want to apologize." Everyone stared at him. "I'm so sorry for doubting your feelings for us when you first told us you loved (Y/N)!" Seokjin exclaimed. Yoongi was shocked. "I've been wanting to apologize for the longest time now but after figuring out my own feelings I felt ashamed. How could I be brave like Taehyung and tell you about my feelings for your boyfriend and explain how confused and scared I felt when I chastised you for being honest about your own feelings?" He squeezed the pillow he was holding, embarrassed and angry at himself. He felt a hand on his knee and his heart fluttered at seeing Jimin trying to comfort him.

Jimin had looked over at Jungkook who looked at Namjoon who looked over at Hoseok and Taehyung. They all nodded their heads. This was the right thing to do. It was time they all apologized to Yoongi.

"Same." Hoseok spoke first. "I feel like I was the most harsh in our argument, like calling (Y/N)-Hyung an outsider. Once I found out I was actually in love with him I swear my body just seemed to shut down for a moment." His eyes were wide with the memory and he shook his head. "It's why I never told you despite Taehyung paving the way. I was frozen. How could I do that to the two people I cared so much about? I'm sorry."

Namjoon nodded his head in agreement, glad to finally get this off his chest. "There was no way I could be as brave as Tae was when I was the one who decided to push (Y/N)-Hyung away to try and protect us. I'm sorry for hurting him and I'm sorry for hurting you."

Jimin had his head down as he rubbed Seokjin's knee, not wanting to look up at Yoongi as he told him his true feelings about that day and beyond. "I was the first one to cry and start pointing fingers because I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want to listen to what you had to say. Now look at me. I'm so in love with (Y/N)-Hyung I can't even imagine my life without him. I just always want him around. I don't care if he's little or big."

"I don't know when it happened but (Y/N)-Hyung became as important to me as all of you are." Jungkook added his two cents quickly so he wouldn't get too scared and chicken out. "I was the first one to raise my voice and was even the first one to ignore (Y/N)-Hyung whenever he came over afterwards." He sniffled. "After doing something like that how could I ever go up to you two and tell you how much I wanted him by my side?" A couple of tears fell from Jungkook's eyes but he wiped the rest away before anymore could come out to the open.

Both Yoongi and Taehyung stared at the others, surprised at their confessions. Taehyung bit his lip and looked back at Yoongi. Even if he didn't say anything bad he couldn't just forgive his silence that day. "I'm sorry for not speaking up for you. I wasn't surprised when you told us about your feelings but at the same time I didn't say anything at all. It was why I stayed as close to you as I did. Why I listened to all of your problems and tried to keep you out of your depression for as long as I did. It was the only way I thought that I could atone for my silence." He let out a breath. "I'm also sorry for not telling you sooner that everyone else shared the same feelings I did for (Y/N)-Hyung. I thought you'd be angry and I didn't want all of us to break up. I also didn't want (Y/N)-Hyung to worry and leave you. You were so heartbroken without him. I didn't want to see that again."

Yoongi stared at everyone, one of his hands left Taehyung's shoulders to rest at his own chest. His heart was beating quickly, it almost hurt. All of them felt this way? All of them were so worried about what he would say or do that they let themselves hurt like this? They were so worried about him and his mental state that despite everything they were feeling they continued to help him take care of you? A lone tear fell down his cheek.

He was really lucky to have such wonderful men in his life.

They were his world.

He loved them so much.

"I forgive you." He muttered, not knowing what else to say but knowing they needed to hear this more than anything. "I stopped being mad long ago. Thank you…" He added.

There was a collective sigh of relief that hung in the air for a bit and everyone started to relax. The atmosphere became lighter once more.

"Thank you for telling me all this and being truthful to me." Yoongi continued. "I now understand where you're all coming from and honestly I'm glad you didn't tell me sooner. I don't think I would've been in the right mindset but…" He paused. "not because I would've been angry."

Everyone watched as he fully let go of Tae and relaxed his grip on his shirt. He sat back on the couch and Hoseok threw an arm around his shoulders. Yoongi appreciated the small bit of comfort.

"Is it because of (Y/N)-Hyung?" Jungkook asked.

Yoongi nodded.

"You had started explaining this yesterday through our texts." Seokjin started. "Is there anything else we should know?"

Yoongi sighed, wondering where to start. There wasn't much else to be said. "Well for one the rules I had set out for (Y/N)-Hyung were mostly for him when he was little as he's a lot more affectionate."

"You mean the rules like 'no kissing on the mouth' and 'not being on our laps when neither you or Tae were home'?" Namjoon asked. Yoongi nodded his head once more.

Namjoon and Seokjin decided to take their small slip ups to their graves.

Jungkook would've asked about Yoongi's jealousy but he then remembered that Yoongi was honestly like that for all of them. He figured Yoongi was just having a small temper tantrum the day that you had called them while in little space and requested Namjoon instead of him. Since you were mostly his and Taehyung's responsibility it was no wonder why Tae was the one to go console him. Jungkook just nodded his head along with Yoongi in understanding Namjoon's question.

"Secondly I think you should know why I wouldn't have gotten mad at all of you had you just told me about your feelings sooner." Yoongi didn't want to tell them this at first. It opened up some fears that he didn't want to let out. "Taehyung the only reason why you thought I was angry or disappointed when you told me your feelings is because (Y/N)-Hyung told me he loved you first."

"Wait seriously?" Taehyung couldn't help but be a bit embarrassed. You loved him first? He had no idea.

"Yeah." Yoongi sighed. "However when he told me his feeling he ended up having a severe panic attack."

"Is this when he told you that you could...hit...him?" Jimin shuddered at the word. Jimin was haunted by the mere thought of someone hitting you. Even when you were bad and in little space the most they did was give you a small swat on the hand or a flick on the forehead. Spankings we're not a part of your punishments unless you didn't learn your lesson from the first offense. Even then Jimin was never able to do it to you. He thought it silly but that was just how he was. Being playful while you were big was one thing, he did it with the rest of them on multiple occasions but it was different with you whenever you were little. When Yoongi nodded his head Jimin took another shuddering breath. "Are you sure it was because he told you his feelings?" Jimin didn't want to believe it even when Yoongi once again nodded his head. "Could it have been anything else?"

"No." Yoongi was clenching and unclenching his fists. He was horrified at the memory. "I was quiet after he told me about his feelings. I was thinking about what to say. At first I was happy. If he loved Tae then surely he'd love the rest of you but he suddenly went hysterical and started crying. When I tried to calm him down he told me that he was sorry and that if it made me feel better I could hit him."

"That sounds like someone trained him to respond like that." Seokjin said, his jaw clenched. No one was happy to hear that.

Everyone was angry at the possibility that someone trained you to take punishments whenever you acted slightly out of line. The possibility of it being an ex lover was looking more and more plausible. The only question that remained was: Why?

Why did that happen to you? No one deserved that kind of treatment from a loved one. You were the sweetest person they knew. Anyone would've been lucky to have all of your love and affection.

Who was the son of a bitch that hurt you?

That question seemed to repeat in everyone's mind.

"It would explain the panic attacks he has." Yoongi groaned. "When he told me he had feelings for Taehyung and after nearly pleading me to 'punish' him for doing something so selfish he slipped into baby space." He clenched his jaw. "I didn't know what to do." He shuddered, remembering your fear stricken expression. He really didn't want to see that again.

"You had mentioned that." Hoseok rubbed at his eyes, frustrated that all of this was happening. "Whatever happened to him to have that kind of reaction must be serious. I'm a little afraid to open up those old wounds."

Everyone stayed quiet after that, agreeing and wondering the same thing.

Was this really the right thing to do?

Jungkook was the first one to break the silence. "I know we're all scared but I think it's safe to say that we're all in agreement. We all want to make this work with the eight of us." He looked around the room, watching as everyone nodded their heads. "I think it's also clear that if there is anything else to talk about it would be best to have (Y/N) here as well."

Yoongi nodded. "Yeah. Hopefully we can get some information before he actually panics and goes into his head space again."

"Do you think he'll go into baby space again to avoid talking with us about his past?" Namjoon asked.

Yoongi sighed, running his hand through his platinum locks. "He might."

"Do you think there's a way to just keep him in little space and not sink deeper?" Jimin wondered aloud. "(Y/N)-Hyung is more honest in little space. If he does slip out of fear or anxiety maybe we can relax him enough to just get him to talk to us. He'll probably go back to being big afterwards."

"Don't you think that's a breach of trust?" Seokjin asked.

"Maybe," Hoseok answered. "But if we don't try then there's a possibility he might just leave."

"I'm worried he might leave because we're pushing him into telling us something he obviously doesn't want out in the open." Seokjin bit his lip, clear worry written across his face.

"Taehyung grabbed his hand. "I feel like he might get angry at us but I don't think he'll leave us. I think we all have a right to know if he loves us enough to be with all of us." He looked around, giving each member eye contact as he spoke. "He knows of our feelings and Jimin and I were told by him that he does love us but I think we deserve to know more. All of our hearts and feelings are on the line. All of us are exposing ourselves. Not just him."

Seokjin nodded and Jimin's hand, still on his knee, squeezed slightly in comfort. "You're right. I'm just nervous. Now that everything's out in the open I'm just so worried that it's all gonna go wrong."

"It might." Everyone looked over at Hoseok. "It's a relationship. Things go wrong. But it's our job to get through that and get stronger. Together." He leaned in and gave Yoongi a kiss on the forehead. "Like when we all first started." Yoongi smiled but rolled his eyes anyway as he tried to move away from Hoseok and squeeze himself more into Taehyung, who was smiling that boxy smile.

Everyone stayed quiet for a bit, remembering when they all first started going out with each other. The ups and downs, the tears and arguments. The compromises and promises they made to each other. Then they each thought of you and how it wasn't that much different. If anything it seemed more fun trying to come up with new ways to be with you. The seven boys smiled to themselves as they thought of you and realized how quiet it was.

There weren't any cartoons on, no blocks, toys or books littering the floor. There wasn't any music playing and your voice, whether you were big or little, wasn't joyfully echoing in the house.

No matter who thought of it first it was clear to all of them.

They really did miss their baby boy.

Yoongi sighed, breaking the silence. "If things go well...no." He took a breath. "When (Y/N)-Hyung comes back home do you guys want to help me convince him to live with us?" He felt everyone's eyes on him. He decided to stare at his pants. "I don't think I can convince him to quit school since he'll be graduating soon but if I could get some help with convincing him to quit his job then that'll be great." He was immediately hugged by Jimin and Jungkook. He smiled and hugged them back. The rest of the boys were laughing as the two younger ones were thanking Yoongi and giving him kisses on his cheeks.

"Should we get him some new stuff?" Namjoon asked. "We don't use that extra bedroom. Maybe we can make it into a nursery for him?"

Seokjin thought about it. "You don't think that might be too much too soon? What if he really does leave us?"

"I don't wanna think that. I wanna believe that he'll stay with us." Jungkook pouted as he snuggled into Yoongi. Jimin and Taehyung were playing with his hair. "I say we order a bunch of stuff for him. That way when he agrees to live with us all we have to do is set everything up." Jimin nodded his head, clearly agreeing with the idea. "Please Hyung?" Jungkook pleaded. "Have a little faith. Things will go well."

Seokjin started at his friends turned lovers. He thought about it slightly and then looked up at Taehyung and Yoongi. They had a lot to lose if things didn't go well but they believed. He felt a hand on his shoulder and looked over to see Namjoon's loving stare. He smiled. "Okay okay." The maknae line cheered and the rest of the Hyung line had huge smiles on their faces. Seokjin loved seeing them all so happy. Taehyung ended up on his lap, smiling ear to ear. Namjoon's hand only tightened slightly on his shoulder. "We can order stuff starting tomorrow. Let's not stress ourselves out about this."

"Can we go out and buy some books and more toys for (Y/N)-Hyung?" Jimin asked.

"Well Seokjin-Hyung did say that he needed to do some shopping." Yoongi put in his two cents.

Hoseok chimed in. "We can have a feast tomorrow!"

"A feast?!" Seokjin couldn't believe these guys! "And who's gonna cook a whole feast?!"

"Maybe (Y/N)-Hyung can help you." Taehyung mentioned. Everyone knew Seokjin only let you help him in the kitchen and everyone noticed the big smile that spread across his handsome face.

"I do miss my little helper." He groaned. "Alright! We'll have a feast!" Everyone cheered and laughed. Soon after after calming down and setting up a plan they all went to bed with hopeful hearts.

Things were going great. Everyone had a goal.

All they needed was you.
~*~*~*~
The next day went by quick enough. The boys mostly hung outside. They enjoyed each other's company and managed to get you a lot of stuffies and new toys.

Taehyung and Yoongi had fun picking out new clothes for you for your little space, almost agreeing on everything they decided to buy. Taehyung had the idea to actually decide to run off with Yoongi's phone to show Jimin and Hoseok, who were having fun picking out a couple of things they thought you would like whenever you were big, the things he wanted to get for you. All of them were cutesy and in pastel colors. Yoongi was definitely living up to his Daddy image as a couple of pacifiers and onesies had the phrases 'Daddy's favorite', 'Daddy's baby/boy' and Taehyung's favorite 'I love my Daddy' written on them. Jimin and Hoseok laughed but thought it was cute and sweet. Yoongi's face was red for most of the day.

Namjoon, Seokjin and Jungkook had fun buying you little accessories for both your head spaces and even a couple of needed items for the house. Hearing about the stuff Yoongi had planned to order for you made them giddy as well but Seokjin was agreeing with Yoongi, eager to see you in every cute thing imaginable and adding in his own ideas on what they should get you. No one was surprised.

When they got home they cleaned and prepared the house for your arrival as Taehyung had planned to text you later that night to come home. They all missed you terribly and didn't want you gone for another day. They were all nervous about their up and coming talk but they were ready. They were ready to help you get pass whatever you needed to get through. They just hoped you didn't shut them out. They wanted to prove to you that all of this was worth fighting for. They wanted to right for this and they hoped you felt the same.

The day was over before they knew and they all were in the living room together again. They were sharing stories about you and they were all laughing and smiling eager to get you home so they could have more memories to talk about in the future. Then on by one they each said their good nights. Yoongi and Taehyung took the longest as they were the most nervous.

What if you didn't want to come home? Or live with them? What if you didn't want to have this conversation? What if you decided you didn't want to be with them anymore?

All of those thoughts and more played in each boy's mind but they shoved them to the backs of their heads. Taehyung and Yoongi said their good nights and went their separate ways, Yoongi deciding that he didn't want to be alone that night and went to sleep with Seokjin and Hoseok.

When Taehyung went into his room he was greeted by Jungkook. The youngest stood up from his bed and went over to his Hyung, giving him a tight hug and a kiss on the cheek. Taehyung hugged him back, enjoying the attention the maknae was giving him.

"Taehyungie?" Jungkook mumbled into his hair. "Can I go pick him up?" Taehyung felt the slight tremors that shook the male in his arms. "Maybe that can at least guarantee that he'll make it home."

Taehyung kissed Jungkook softly. "You can do whatever you want." He smiled. "I'm pretty sure he'd love to see you more than anyone." He wasn't just trying to stroke the boy's ego or trying to calm him down. He was being honest. You had always wondered if the youngest male really cared for you as he sometimes still seemed so aloof around you, except when you were in little space. Seeing him would probably ease any worries you'd have. It would also guarantee that you wouldn't be lost in your own thoughts on the way back here.

Jungkook smiled, a small blush staining his cheeks. "Thank you." Tears welled up in his eyes. "I can't wait to see him."

Taehyung kissed Jungkook's cheeks, trying to dispel the worry and took out his phone. He sent you a message, telling you they were ready and to come home. He showed Jungkook the message and he couldn't stop smiling.

Taehyung then walked him over to one of the beds, wanting to cuddle with him. They laid down, Taehyung immediately holding onto him like a lifeline. He reached over and turned off the light on the small bedside drawer and yawned, smiling softly when he felt Jungkook relax against him and do the same as his eyes adjusted to the darkness. "Same Kookie. I can't wait either." He yawned again and closed his eyes, letting sleep take him.

Tonight was the best sleep the boys had in three days.

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Jungkook woke up at his usual time. Early. He groaned, thinking it was too early and cuddled into Taehyung who was all the more happy to hold him closer. He sighed in his sleep and Jungkook couldn't help the small smile that spread across his face. His heart then sped up as he remembered that he was supposed to be the one to go pick you up and bring you home. He hoped you wanted to come home with him. He wouldn't know what to do if you pushed him away.

Normally he would get up and go to the gym, then be back for breakfast and then go about his normal routine but today he didn't want to do that. He knew he shouldn't break tradition but he wanted to just go see you. He was so anxious. He felt a kiss on his forehead and he glanced up to see Taehyung's beautiful eyes staring down at him.

"Sorry. Didn't mean to wake you." Jungkook knew how hard it was to wake up Taehyung so the fact that he was awake now probably meant that he was just as nervous as he was. "You okay?"

"Scared." He admitted. "You?"

Jungkook nodded. "Same. Don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I'm too distracted to go to the gym."

"Yeah. You might hurt yourself. We don't want that." Taehyung started to play with his hair as per usual.

"Do you think by the end of the day we can all say that he's ours?"

Taehyung stared at their golden maknae. It was during this moment that he was able to tell how young and inexperienced he was but he could also tell how passionate and true his feelings were. He was truly nervous from the bottom of his heart. "I don't know." He told him the truth. "Once we all talk then maybe he'll tell you that answer himself."

Jungkook nodded his head, the worry ebbing away after talking to Tae for a bit. Both ended up dozing off and not waking up until Hoseok came in to wake them.

The boys calmly ate breakfast but the atmosphere was tense. The tension was high. Both of the younger boys realized that they weren't the only ones who were nervous. All of their Hyung's were too. It was a little comforting to know they weren't alone.

Jungkook had decided to go get you after breakfast. He wanted it to be a surprise so he didn't want to have traveled all the way there and then find out that you already left. He was nervous but he was so ready to see you again.

"Please bring him home."

Jungkook looked behind him once he got to the front door and saw Yoongi there. His eyes were silently pleading and his mouth was set in a long line. Jungkook nodded his head. "We'll be home soon!" He called out to everyone. Yoongi's small smile was a nice sight to see as he closed the door.
~*~*~*~
Jungkook had gotten to your house a lot faster than he thought he would. He thanked a nice man and his child for holding the door open for him and walked to your apartment. He pulled down his face mask slightly and knocked on your door.

"Oh my God, Sin what did you forget this time?" He heard your voice from behind the door and his heart swelled. Once you opened the door his eyes widened when he took in your appearance.

It wasn't like it was the first time he saw you in just a pair of boxers but after confirming his own feelings for you and knowing that you felt the same way about him and the others it was a bit difficult to not stare at your body.

You were gorgeous.

There was a small blush that stained your face and you moved to the side to let Jungkook in before anyone randomly recognized him. He walked in and you let out a sigh as you closed the door. Both of you were beyond embarrassed but you were happy to see him.

You turned away from the door and stared at him. His hat and mask were already off and he took a couple of hesitant steps towards you before launching himself at you, enveloping you in a tight hug.

You were surprised at first but you melted into his hug and hugged him back. You were big but the hug made you feel so safe and you were so stressed out about everything that was going to happen once you saw them again that you started to slip. "I missed you Kookie." You mumbled.

Jungkook's heart swelled, hearing your quiet voice and the nickname. "Aww is my precious baby feeling little?"

You nodded your head. "I have to finish getting ready though."

"What more do you have to do baby?" Jungkook stared into your eyes. He didn't mean to make you slip but maybe this was for the best? "Can Kookie help?"

You nodded your head, feeling quite small. You still felt kinda big, knowing that today was important but you wanted to be small for a little bit. At least as long as Kookie was with you. "I need to finish packing my bag. I figured I'd be staying with you guys for a bit and Sin got me new clothes. I wanted to show you guys."

Jungkook wasn't gonna lie. He had a mini heart attack when you mentioned that you were packing a bag but he calmed down just as quickly when you told him that it was so you could show them the new clothes you got. He was officially excited. He couldn't wait to see everything and then he realized something.

You were coming home.

Jungkook's smile became wider, if it was possible, and lifted you in the air in another tight hug. You giggled but you were also telling him to put you down. He was just so happy and here you were none the wiser of his inner fear. However, it didn't fully stop his worry.

"Are you sure you're gonna stay? You don't think you'll get unhappy and leave?"

You shook your head, still slipping little by little into your headspace. You knew that this talk you were gonna have with the boys was important so you were fighting hard to stay as big as long as you could so you could tell Jungkook your feelings. When Jungkook placed you down on your couch you resisted the urge to put your thumb in your mouth. "No matter what happens I know where I belong." Your voice was quiet and you were blushing again. "Kookie...no Jungkook." You corrected yourself, stopping yourself from slipping any further. This was important. You had to say this. "Jungkook I love you and not just you. I love all of you."

Jungkook's heart skipped several beats and he stared at you for a long time. Did he hear right? He had to have.

You loved him.

You loved all of them.

This wasn't a dream.

No one said anything and for a while, your heart started to beat irregularly and you felt your palms sweat. You were starting to panic.

What if all of this was a mistake?

What if he didn't really feel that way towards you?

What if all of this broke up BTS?

What if they all hated you?

What if…?

You barely noticed it when Jungkook sat down next to you. Soft arms wrapped around you in a gentle embrace. There was a shudder and a quick sob and sniffle. You looked at Jungkook, only seeing his hair. "Jungkook?"

"Thank God."

"Huh?" You froze.

"I got to hear it first." There was another sniffle. "I got to hear you tell me you loved me first. I know Jimin-Hyung and Taehyungie heard you say it but I got your first real confession." He pulled his head back and looked at you and you were shocked at how soft and loving his expression was. You swore you fell in love with him all over again. "(Y/N)-Hyung?"

Your heart skipped a beat when Jungkook called you Hyung. "Yes, Jungkookie?"

"Can you say it again?" He asked. "Can you tell me you love me again? I wanna say it back."

Your whole heart melted. You hugged him close to you and took a deep breath. You can do this again. You knew you were gonna be saying this a lot and honestly? You were excited. You've been wanting to say this for so long and even though something in the back of your mind was telling you that this was a mistake you opened your mouth to speak.

"I love you Jungkook. I love everything about you." You snuggled into his neck. "From the way you talk to the way you move I love it all."

Jungkook squeezed his eyes shut so he wouldn't cry. He wanted to be cool for you. "I love you too, (Y/N)-Hyung. I've loved you for a long time now." He opened his eyes and stared into yours. "We all have." He glanced down at your lips. "May I?"

You shyly avoided his intense eye contact but couldn't believe the words he was saying. Did you really deserve all this? You had to have. They all loved you. You knew this thanks to Jimin's confession and you knew he would never lie to you. You felt like you were flying. When Jungkook asked for permission to get closer you looked at him and very slowly nodded your head. This would be the first time someone else kissed you that wasn't Taehyung or Yoongi.

This was it.

The moment of truth for you.

When Jungkook placed his lips on top of yours it felt like time stopped. The kiss was soft, he merely placed his lips right onto yours as if he were scared to do more. There was barely any pressure as if he wasn't really kissing you. His lips were as soft as the kiss and you wanted more. You pressed into him a bit more and you felt a shudder go down the male's spine.

Jungkook knew he had to stop this kiss the minute it started. Your lips were so soft and plush. He felt the love even as you both just stood there, not moving. He didn't know what was okay and so he didn't go further but the minute your lips pressed harder against his he knew he had to pull away. Jungkook was on cloud nine as he tried to calm down his heart. It didn't help that you were practically naked in his arms. The feel of your smooth skin was also starting to drive him insane. He had to calm himself but it was difficult. He had wanted you like this for so long now. He couldn't wait to gloat about this to the others.

He broke the kiss and rested his forehead against yours. "I didn't want to stop but I figured I should let everyone else get their turn first." He smirked, not wanting to overwhelm you with the real reason. You nodded your head. If that was a kiss from just him, which left you dizzy and floaty, how the hell were you gonna survive the other four? Not to mention you knew Yoongi and Taehyung would want to welcome you back with kisses as well. You may not survive this.

And honestly? You didn't want to.

"I should probably get dressed." You spoke after about a minute of being in each other's arms.

"Yeah. I should probably get you home soon. The guys are probably starting to get worried." Jungkook stood up and helped you up as well. "Do you still want me to help Precious?"

You froze and pouted at the younger male. "Kookie I wanted to be big!" You stamped your foot to emphasize how quickly he put you in little space. "I was fighting real hard!"

Jungkook laughed. "I'm sorry Precious." He really wasn't. "It's a habit to call you that!" He loved the cute little pout you gave him. "Well how about I help you get ready and all packed up so we could go home okay? You can stay little until later when it's time to talk alright?"

You placed your thumb in your mouth. "But what if everyone wants to talk while I'm little? Should I?"

Jungkook found a pacifier on the coffee table in front of him, thankfully still in its little case and took it out to place it in your mouth. He grabbed your hand and took your thumb out, replacing it with the sparkly purple pacifier. You looked so adorable. He then grabbed your hand and led you into your room. "Well, that's up to you. If you think it might be easier then go ahead and talk but the minute you feel scared or uncomfortable you can stop and all of us will understand." He looked through your dresser for some clothes and watched you as you climbed onto your bed. "Do you understand baby?"

You nodded your head. You pretty much got it. You knew too well that if you hesitated at all you would be asked if you wanted to stop or keep going anyway. All of your caretakers were good people. They weren't like the monster that took care of you a long time ago. You know that now and were really happy with that knowledge.

After changing you into a pull-up and some clothes and making sure you didn't try to wear the pacifier outside and had everything you wanted to bring with you Jungkook held your hand, grabbed your bag and left the house, silently hoping this was one of the last times he'd have to take you from here.

He couldn't wait for everyone to see you.
~*~*~*~
"Guys! Guess who's home!" Jungkook called out as the two of you walked into the house. You had your pacifier back in your mouth and you were looking around the house as if it were the first time being there again. You looked down the hallway and was immediately bombarded by both Jimin and Hoseok.

"Sunshine!"

"Sweetheart!"

They both hugged you and planted kisses to your face. You squealed and hugged both of them. "Sunny! Minnie Eomma!" You yelled back. You planted big kisses on their faces. You loved the attention they gave you.

"Baby girl!"

"Princess!"

You were suddenly hugged from both the front and back by Seokjin and Namjoon. You felt kisses on your forehead and the back of your head. You giggled, so very happy to see them, a huge blush ran across your face. "Oppa! Appa!" You squeezed Seokjin and turned to squeeze Namjoon. The smiles on everyone's faces were contagious.

You then looked down the hallway, hoping to see the two people you missed the most. Even though you already admitted to loving everyone you still had a soft spot for your first two caretakers. When you saw Taehyung's blue hair and Yoongi's gummy smile you ran over to them and hugged them tight. You all fell to your knees and hugged each other. Taehyung and Yoongi both kissed your cheeks and you kissed them full on the lips.

"Daddy! Papa!" You started to cry. "I missed you! I was a good boy! I promise I was! I did a lot of thinking!"

"Oh, my sweet Jewel I'm so proud of you." Taehyung ran a hand through your hair. "You're always my good boy. Don't ever worry about that."

"Hey, Beautiful don't cry. Shh…" Yoongi started to rock you. "You're a very good boy. Best boy in the world. I promise. You did so well. Daddy loves you." He kept whispering in your ear.

As the rest of the group watched you they all agreed on one thing:

No one felt jealous.

Everyone just simply enjoyed seeing the three of you together. Especially Jungkook who knew the full extent of your feelings. He wanted to tell everyone but figured it would be better if they heard it from you.

After you calmed down you all went into the living room. You were sitting on the couch between Yoongi and Taehyung. Jungkook sat by your feet, not wanting to leave your side after the moment you had together. They were all looking through your bag and looked at the pretty and cute clothes Sin had got you for your little space. Seokjin and Jimin were over the moon about all of it.

Jungkook looked at you, noticing how silent you had gotten. "Baby, why are you so quiet?"

Everyone turned to you.

You bit your lip, flinching slightly when Taehyung pulled at your bottom lip, telling you to stop. You nodded and sighed. Your leg started to bounce and you gripped Yoongi's hand. "We have to talk now, right?"

"Remember what I said at the house, Precious?" You blinked your eyes at Jungkook. "It's up to you if you want to talk or not. If you don't want to, no one is gonna be mad."

The others watched your expression. You fidgeted in your seat, not sure what to say. You wanted to talk but you also didn't. You started to shake slightly, your vision started to get blurry and darken, your hands were becoming clammy once more as you started to break out into a cold sweat.

You then felt it. Lips pressed against both sides of your face. You flinched and shook your head, trying to get away from them. Then there were hands. A bunch of them. Two seemed to be stroking and playing with your hair, you had a hand in each of your own, a couple were on your legs, rubbing softly. You felt like you couldn't see who the hands belonged to. Your heartbeat was ringing loudly in your ears and you tried to focus. You tried to calm down.

You suddenly heard a voice and then one more and then one more. Soon everything started to become clearer and the voices became sharper. You blinked your eyes, finally being able to see. You flinched when you felt a warm rag on your head. You looked around to see everyone surrounding you.

"Did I...panic again?" You asked them. Yoongi nodded his head as he patted your forehead with the rag. "I'm sorry. I don't know what happened." You were out of little space and gripping onto someone's hand tightly. When you looked over you saw that it was Namjoon's.

Yoongi shook his head. "No baby it's okay. You don't have to be sorry."

Namjoon kissed the hand he was holding. "Do you wanna wait another day to try and talk?"

You shook your head. "No. I need to do this. If I don't do this now I don't know when I will."

"No one is forcing you, Sweetheart." Jimin spoke from the floor, taking Jungkook's spot between your legs and rubbing small circles in them.

"No, I have to." Your body shuddered as if you were cold and you felt someone bring you close in a hug. You looked in Taehyung's eyes and couldn't help the smile that spread across your face as he smiled at you first. "I have to say it. I have to tell you that I love you guys and I have to tell you why it was so hard for me to admit that at first." You looked at everyone as you spoke, hoping they knew what you meant.

The tension in the air went away almost immediately. It staggered from panic from your attack to a hyped-up calm once you confessed. Jungkook was smiling galore as he watched the other member's faces go from worry to absolute smiles. He was glad he didn't say anything earlier.

No one wanted to break the silence. They didn't think you needed an answer and you honestly weren't looking for one. You were grateful for the silence for once as it gave you time to calm down. You felt Taehyung grab onto you tighter and even Namjoon's grip on your hand felt a little stronger than before. Yoongi said nothing as he was just happy to hear the words he knew you were hiding deep down.

Now they just had to hear why.

"I've been in poly relationships before." You started. Yoongi started to pat your head with the cloth again. The warmth felt nice. "The last relationship I had didn't want to share me and made me feel guilty for wanting to be with more than just him." You sighed, not wanting to think of...him. "At first I just thought I'd humor him. I'll let him have his fun and then just dump him. I wasn't going to let him change me so I did just that. But then everyone who I tried to approach afterward had a sudden disinterest in me or if I had gone to people that I had dated before they suddenly told me I was selfish and horrible." You bit your lip, not surprised to feel Jimin's hand on your face, his fingers coaxing your mouth open to stop you. You had a really bad habit of doing that. You were glad you had the boys there to stop you. You took a breath, trying to calm down your heart, thankful for the others' continued silence. "It wasn't until after I broke up with Sam, my last ex, that I learned that he had threatened all of my potential suitors. Considering everything that I went through I'm glad they didn't date me in spite of the warnings and threats."

Taehyung kissed behind your ear and Jimin kissed your knee. You smiled at them, your heartbeat not going as fast thanks to them. You took a glance over at Hoseok and Seokjin and they both gave you finger hearts. You gave a small laugh and the others were happy to hear it.

You sighed as you continued. "After the constant rejections, I felt low and unwanted. Sam, who had 'stuck by me' made me feel loved when I didn't feel it from anyone else. I decided to be with him because at the time it was better than being alone. During our relationship…" You trailed off, feeling anxious again.

"Breathe baby girl."

You looked up at Namjoon as he spoke. He was still holding your hand and you tried to calm down once again.

"Do you want me to get you something to drink, Princess?"

You looked over at Seokjin and nodded your head, hoping that would help. Seokjin nodded and decided to surprise you. He filled up your rainbow cup with water and made his way back to you. The look of pure joy on your face made everyone's heart skip a beat. You took the sippy cup and drank from it happily.

"Thank you, Oppa."

The others smiled. You weren't fully in Little space but the sudden nickname made Seokjin's body warm. He felt your love in your gratitude.

You held onto the cup, staring at it for a bit and watching the multitude of colors swirl about. You managed to calm down and were more than happy for Seokjin's quick thinking.

You took a quick breath, starting again. "During our relationship, I was under a lot of stress. So much stress that I started spiraling downward in my depression and anxiety. I was to the point of killing myself when Sam suggested that I tried some different coping mechanisms. One of them was 'age-regression'." You looked around the room to see the slightly shocked expressions. "After doing some research and learning that it actually helped some people I tried it out." You sighed, tightening your grip on your cup. "It helped out a lot more than I thought it would. Sam was my first caregiver and he was experienced so I decided to let him take charge. Soon he was in charge of my whole life. He picked me up from work, school and anywhere else I happened to be at. As soon as I got home, I ended up living with him at some point, I was put into little space and had to follow his rules exactly as he put it. If not I was punished." You gave a harsh shudder that shook you visibly.

"So he introduced you to little space and basically took advantage of that." Hoseok and the others knew how obedient you were in little space and how much you panicked whenever you got in trouble. Sure no one wants to get punished and scolded but they were starting to see the reasons behind some of your temper tantrums.

You nodded your head. "There then came a point that I started getting punished for things I technically didn't do." When no one asked what you meant right away you continued. "If I was bad in little space, it didn't matter how small the issue was, I'd get in trouble for it while I was big and vice versa. There were so many times where he almost called me out for being little around my coworkers." You were slightly red at the memory. "At first it was normal, embarrassing and stupid but normal. Then it got worse." You were thankful that you were almost done talking about this. "He started to hit me." You felt the sudden tension spike up. "At first it was small spankings whenever I was in little space or something a little rougher whenever we were intimate but then the spankings got worse. There were times I couldn't sit cause my ass felt like it was burning. Honestly, I was glad when you guys agreed on not giving me spankings as a normal punishment."

"Only when it was a repeated offense," Jimin spoke up. "In the beginning, you were really rowdy. I'm starting to see why." Your good behavior came with time. It was why Jimin didn't like spanking you when you were in little space. It was a normal punishment in the beginning but you soon grew to hate it, probably because it reminded you of your past too often, and asked them to stop. It was how you all agreed to only do it when you didn't learn your lesson the first time you got in trouble and it never when above 10. The boys realized how broken you became whenever it was more than that.

You gave a chuckle. "Yeah…" You trailed off. "Sadly the punishments became daily beatings." You hung your head low, trying not to bite your lip again. The boys were dreading this part. "The only reason why no one caught on was because he'd hit me in places that were well covered. He would sometimes tie up my legs or tie my arms above or behind me just to beat me and make sure I didn't try to cover myself. He avoided my arms and legs really well. The only time he didn't care was during the fall or winter." You felt Namjoon's hand running down your arm and Seokjin's hand down your leg.

You started talking again. "Then the constant insults came rushing in not too long after that. Along that was him calling me a whore or a slut because I was polyamorous. He repeatedly called me selfish and that no one would love me for being the way I was. He practically beat it into me that my way of love was wrong and that I deserved to die for making others feel hopeless and disappointed in me. It was why I panicked so badly when I realized my feelings for Taehyung." You didn't want to look at Yoongi or Tae.

Said boys looked at each other and they both leaned down to kiss your head. You gave them no response but the three of you knew you appreciated it.

You sighed. "He even started calling me weird for being little." Tears fell from your eyes and onto your legs. You jumped when a hand placed itself on your head. You looked up to see Hoseok. You smiled softly and then looked at everyone again. They were all waiting for you to continue. They were waiting for a sign that it was okay to love you now. "The relationship made me fear the reactions of my friends so for a long time I avoided them. One day I decided to go see my friend Angel to keep up appearances and to not let him worry any more than he probably already was but he caught on quick, noticing the brushing on my arms. The same day he forced me to go to the police and file a report. It wasn't a fast process as Sam had to be caught in the act before police could do much, but it happened sooner than later." You took a shuddering breath. "I provoked him on purpose, telling him that I had feelings for someone else and that I wanted to leave him. He lost it." You leaned into Yoongi. Taehyung kept a hand on your waist. "I took some beatings at first but managed to lock myself in our room with the window open to the fire escape so I could get away if I had to. I called the police as quickly as possible and because of my report, they got there on time. I was so close to jumping out the window." Your body shook at the memory. "After that, I lived with Angel for a bit and then my friends got me up and about again. It took me a while to want to be little again but thankfully I have good friends." You smirked at the words you were about to say. "My friend Kura then got me into this amazing K-pop band called BTS and I became absolutely obsessed with them." You heard Hoseok and Jimin comment and laugh. "Could you guys believe that I met my bias wrecker on the bus one day?" You pushed yourself into Yoongi a little more and he rolled his eyes as the others joined in on the laughter. Your mood was starting to get better as well. "I became friends with the guy! Isn't that crazy?"

"Did you meet the other members?" Jungkook asked.

"We're they just as handsome if not more in real life?" Seokjin posed for you as he spoke.

"Wait, if you met your bias wrecker what did you do when you met your bias?" Taehyung smirked.

You laughed as you thought about your responses. "Yes I met the other members and yes they were more handsome in person." Seokjin exclaimed loudly in response. Everyone laughed again. You then looked at Taehyung to give him the answer you knew he wanted to hear. Not that it wasn't true. "When I met my bias I almost died. Full-on cardiac arrest. I couldn't believe it." Taehyung gave you the biggest smile you've ever seen. He then blushed and looked away from you.

You smiled at him, the love you had for him swelling in your chest, then sighed and gave everyone a once over. "It's been a long time coming but...I've been wanting to say this for so long now and I finally have the courage to do it."

"What is it?" You stared at Yoongi as he spoke.

There was no hesitation. "I love you."

He grinned.

"I love all of you." You looked at them. "Saying it still makes me scared. I'm terrified that even now something is going to go wrong but…" You smiled, tears -happy ones- in your eyes. "I don't want you guys to just be my caretakers. I don't want just Taehyung and Yoongi to be my boyfriends. I want to be with all of you." You gulped, your nervousness showing. "If you let me." You added, your voice shaking.

Everyone looked at each other. Everyone else was looking at Taehyung and Yoongi the most. They seemed to nod and agree on something then got up and moved away from you.

Your heart sunk.

Were you right?

Was this not something they wanted?

Did you take too long to tell them?

Seokjin and Hoseok sat next to you, causing you to jump out of your downward spiral. Seokjin grabbed your face gently to make you look at him. You stared at him, his eyes showed so much love that it left you breathless.

“I’ve been wanting to do this for so long.” Before you could question him he leaned down to kiss you. Your eyes widened but closed just as fast as Seokjin hummed softly while moving his lips against you.

Kissing him was different from Jungkook. Whereas Jungkook started off nervous and afraid Seokjin immediately put more force into the kiss. He didn’t try to do much else but you felt his hands wander. They rested on your shoulders for a bit and then moved down your arms, leaving goosebumps in their wake. They then left your arms to rest on your thighs which he squeezes for a few seconds before going to your waist and pulling you a bit closer. You made a small sound and you felt him lick your bottom lip. He wasn’t asking for permission, he just wanted a taste. He wanted to make sure this was happening. He wanted to know this was real. You felt his hands bunch up your shirt as if he were about to pull it up and touch you but you felt the hesitation. He soon let go of you and gave you another small peck on your lips as you parted. He smiled at you. “I love you too. I love you so much.” Despite the sweet words, he spoke you saw the truth in his eyes.

He wasn’t done with you.

Hoseok was next. He looked over at Yoongi and Taehyung for two seconds and said boys smiled at him, though Yoongi seemed to be more focused than anything. Taehyung seemed to be giddy. You were a little worried when Hoseok licked his bottom lip as he stared at yours. He looked up at you for a quick second before leaning in, giving you ample time to move away if you wanted to.

Why would you?

Hoseok was bolder in his kisses. He couldn’t hold himself back the minute his lips pressed against yours. He moaned into the kiss as if he was starved from contact. You shuddered from the noise and placed your arms around his neck. Even though you had just kissed Seokjin you felt as if you couldn’t get enough of the man in front of you. You heard Seokjin chuckle behind you, understanding your reaction. You figured Hoseok made all of the other boys feel just as weak as you did. You felt like you could fall even though you were already sitting down. You couldn’t stop the groan that came from you when he bit your lip harshly. The kiss ended but it didn’t stop Hoseok from kissing and trailing little bites down your jaw and to your neck. You shuddered when he licked your adam’s apple and then let out a moan when he bit into your neck. You tilted your head back as you gripped onto Hoseok’s shoulders when he started to suck, clearly trying to mark you.

You heard a pop sound when Hoseok let you go and the pain started to set in. You gave a small wince but the look of pure delight on Hoseok’s face told you he didn’t really care. He gave the spot a small lick as if apologizing but that was as far as apologies go. He then looked at you in the eyes and smirked.

“I love you too.” He muttered. “And now you’re mine.”

You swore your heart stopped.

Hoseok gave you his normal sweet smile and you felt Seokjin’s hand rub your back a bit before watching them get up and switch with Namjoon and Jimin. Jimin gave you the most sweetest and yet the most devilish looking smile you’ve ever seen. You then realized that by not stopping Hoseok you just gave the rest of them permission to do whatever they wanted to do to you. You were almost glad that Seokjin didn’t start off with that but it also made you fully aware that the oldest male was holding back.

You shivered when you felt Namjoon press into your back. He hugged you softly and pressed a small kiss onto your back and then kissed the spot that Hoseok destroyed. You had a feeling that that was gonna be a normal thing for you. You then felt him pull back and was gonna look at him when Jimin’s soft, small hands cupped your face gently. Almost as soft as when Seokjin handled you but you could see the clear desire in Jimin’s eyes.

“Oh (Y/N)-Hyung.” Jimin started. “I love you so much. I’ve been wanting to do this for so long, (Y/N)-Hyung.” He mumbled as he drew closer to you.

“Don’t call me that. You can drop the honorific. I’ve told you guys that.” You were blushing now. All the attention and kissing were starting to make you a bit hot and...tight. Add the fact that you had a vicious ‘Hyung’ kink and you knew that this was going to end up disastrous for you.

“No. I know you like it. I know you could ignore it sometimes but…” He surprised you when he climbed on top of you. You instinctively held onto his waist. “I know you can’t ignore it when we call you that.” He wrapped his arms around your neck, running his soft fingers on your skin and touching the dark bruise Hoseok left you. “I can’t wait to do the one thing I always wanted to do now that you're mine.”

“What do you want to do?” You asked. You gulped, feeling your throat become dry at the look of pure sin Jimin was giving you.

“I always wanted to push you against the mirrors of the dance studio and kiss you senseless.”

You heard a groan from somewhere in the room and gulped again. “Just kiss?” You asked.

Jimin smirked and licked his lips. “I can’t tell you everything I’m thinking of Hyung.” He relished in the feel of you shuddering against him. “But I’m pretty certain you can guess what I’m thinking.” He leaned closer to your ear and whispered. “I’ve always wanted to know how your face would look contorted in pleasure.”

You closed your eyes, not being able to look at him but he only took advantage of that and grinded against you once or twice as he kissed you. He was wild. He kissed you without hesitation. He was the first one to ask you if he could kiss inside your mouth. You let him of course. You’ve been craving this since you kissed Jungkook earlier. Jimin was skilled with his mouth and he used a lot of that said skill to make you weak and push up against him. His hands grabbed your face, your neck, your back. He pulled up your shirt and seemed almost desperate to take it off you. He ran his nails against your back and you broke the kiss to curse and whimper.

“You’re so perfect.” He mumbled against you as he kissed you again, biting at your lips and tongue. “So handsome. So good for us.” He broke the kiss to bite and nibble at your neck and ear. You almost choked at how desperate he sounded. He wanted you to believe his words more than anything else. He looked into your eyes again and gave you a small smile. This was what you were used to. You were both breathing heavily and he leaned down once again to give you a smaller and tamer kiss before getting off you and sitting near Jungkook on the floor. You saw Seokjin rubbing his shoulders.

You turned to Namjoon, wondering if his kisses were gonna be anything like Jimin’s were. He patted his thighs and you took the hint to climb on top of him. You felt really small straddling him but he seemed to enjoy looking up at you.

“This is such a perfect view.” He bit his lip as his eyes roamed your body. You felt naked and exposed under his gaze. He picked up your shirt and brought it up to your mouth. “Hold.” You slowly opened your mouth and let Namjoon place the fabric inside. You closed your mouth softly, so as to not bite him, and watched him stare at your chest. He brought his face close to your skin and you started to shiver. His tongue then darted out to lick at your nipple and it took you all you had to not yell out and let go of the shirt. You heard Namjoon hum in approval, small praises coming from him afterward. He then bit at your skin here and there on your chest and torso delighted at the small yelps and twitches you made. He was happy to see the little bits of red that now littered your skin. They were not as dark as Hoseok’s mark, pretty sure they’d be gone by tomorrow, but it didn’t make Namjoon any less excited knowing he was the one who put them there. He cursed, clearly excited by the view. “Fuck I love you.” He then placed his hands on your ass and squeezed. “You have no idea how long I wanted to touch you like this.” You moaned around your shirt and pushed against his hands, wanting to feel more of that sensation. You heard a couple more groans from around you and you blushed at the realization that one of them was from Yoongi.

“Jimin was right. You are so beautiful.” He took out his phone, his other hand still on your butt and massaging. “May I?” This was definitely going into his collection of pictures of you. You nodded your head, not seeing a problem with it. You were very certain that this wouldn’t be the first time he or any of the others would ask this of you. When he was done with the photo he tugged at your shirt a bit, letting you know you were allowed to let go. You dropped the shirt and were happy to feel Namjoon’s hand go from your ass to your neck as he pulled you down to kiss him.

When he kissed you it was almost like kissing Jungkook. Time felt like it stopped. Unlike everyone else though Namjoon seemed to like kissing your neck and paying close attention to each and every one of your reactions. He seemed to watch your face for any sign of discomfort or for a simple sign that you enjoyed what he was doing. He was careful with you and took his time with each bite and lick. Your neck, like your torso, was covered with small red bites. Your lips felt swollen and you licked your bottom lip. Namjoon took the opportunity to kiss you thoroughly, biting your tongue and sucking on it roughly before letting go and taking another picture.

“Beautiful.” He mumbled before pushing up against your pelvis with his own. He had smirked as he took another picture of you. This time you were biting your lip and closing your eyes at the oh so wonderful feeling. You ended up pushing back against the leader and the groan that came from him as well as what sounded like Taehyung made your body tingle. Namjoon leaned up once more to kiss you softly and to stop you from biting your lip once again. You opened your eyes and gave Namjoon a small smile. He then wrapped his arms around you and hugged you tightly. You felt him take a shuddering breath and you hugged him back while stroking his hair.

“I love you, Joonie. Please don’t forget that.”

Namjoon shook his head. “I won’t. I swear to God I won’t. I love you so much.” Namjoon smiled when you kissed his head.

After a while, Namjoon helped you get off of him. He kissed you once more before moving out the way and letting Taehyung take his place. Both Taehyung and Yoongi looked over at Jungkook, wondering if he was gonna take his turn and the youngest shrugged as he stood up and kissed you softly. You smiled at him and kissed him back.

When Jungkook pulled back it was Jimin who looked at him sit back down in mild disbelief. “That’s it? You have a golden opportunity here and you’re not gonna take it?”

Jungkook smiled at him and once again shrugged his shoulders. You didn’t care if he told the others about your earlier confession to him nor if he told them about your moment together but you did respect that if he didn’t want to say anything then you wouldn’t say anything either. Even if you were surprised that he decided to not say anything. You were almost certain that he would’ve grabbed at the chance to gloat. “I just didn’t want to overwhelm him.” He made it sound like he was being considerate. “You guys did enough of that.” He looked you up and down slowly and he seemed to be undressing you with his eyes. It was clear that he liked your current look. You felt like food in front of a starving animal and Jungkook’s sweet smile once he met your gaze did nothing to quell that feeling.

You shivered once Taehyung’s hand slid into yours, your skin feeling more sensitive than you ever thought it’d be. You felt Yoongi sit by you and flinched when you felt his arms snake their way around your waist. His head rested against your shoulder and you felt him chuckle. “Did you like all of that baby?”

You nodded your head, a little nervous to speak.

“Do you want more?” Yoongi asked.

“Am I really allowed to ask for that?” You muttered.

Taehyung smiled. “(Y/N)-Hyung you can ask for anything you want from now on.” He smirked when you sent him a small glare. “You’re our boyfriend now. We’ll do anything for you.”

You cracked a smile. Yoongi’s hands had traveled under your shirt but his hands were merely rubbing your stomach. There didn’t seem to be any ulterior motives. Taehyung didn’t even move closer. Instead, he picked up the hand he was holding and placed a gentle kiss on your palm. “Yeah, you’re right. I’m your boyfriend.” You sighed deeply. “Is this really okay? Can I really be with all of you?” You were still nervous.

All of BTS nodded their heads.

“We love you as much as we love each other,” Namjoon spoke.

“You’re one of kind!” Jimin happily exclaimed. “Why wouldn’t we want you?”

“It can only be you.” Seokjin nodded his head as he spoke.

“No one can handle us like you. You fit us.” Jungkook leaned against your leg, eyes closed and relaxed. “You’re the missing puzzle piece we didn’t know we needed.”

“I think we can all agree that if it wasn’t okay none of us would go through all this to be with you,” Hoseok explained. “I’m willing to go against everyone if it meant being with all of you.”

“Honestly it’s all I ever wanted.” Yoongi snuggled into you. Your heart jumped at his words.

“I don’t think we would be the same without you to complete us.” Taehyung placed his free hand on your face. “You’re our baby big and little.” He leaned in closer to you. “We love you. Isn’t that enough of an answer?”

Tears filled your eyes and you nodded your head as Taehyung kissed you. You always enjoyed kisses from Taehyung. His kisses were slow and he always gave you a small chuckle or giggle when you kissed back. Taehyung was always smiling and it made you smile as well. You were able to tell that he wanted to do more but he kept his hands where they were. He probably figured you needed a chance to cool off. You gave him small little pecks as thanks. His smile was huge by the time you both parted. You both then looked back at Yoongi who seemed to be content at watching the two of you.

That’s when it dawned on you that during the whole time you were kissing each member the others were steadily watching. You recalled hearing the small groans earlier and your face grew hot with embarrassment. You figured this would be a normal thing and you were perfectly fine with that. You were embarrassed but fine.

Yoongi stayed quiet for a while and then reached up to bite your ear. You flinched as you weren’t expecting it and tried not to make a sound. Though you couldn’t stop the small giggles you made as Yoongi ran his fingers across your sides, tickling you slightly. You could tell from that alone that all Yoongi wanted to do was be close to you. You were grateful as you didn't know what would happen if he kissed you next.

“Before you came home Taehyung had told me that he had asked everyone what made them realize their feelings for you. The answers were incredible and I think you should take some time to listen to each response yourself.” You nodded your head, eager to do that as soon as you could. “However he didn’t ask me.” You looked over at Taehyung and his face said it all.

He forgot.

“I figured this was a good opportunity though to tell you how I really feel about all of this.” He let you go and you turned to face him fully. He placed a hand on your thigh and you swore you felt it shaking. “When I first met you I thought I had to high tail it out of there. I was worried about being spotted once you realized it was really me but you were sweet and charming and you treated me like a person. I knew once you left that if I didn’t catch up to you I’d be losing something amazing. Something so important.” He sighed. “I don’t regret falling in love with you. I don’t regret being your daddy. Being with you has been an experience that I’d gladly do over and over again if it meant I can come back to this point of time and hear you tell me and the other men I love how much you love them and that you want to be with them too.” He placed both of his hands on your shoulders. “I love you. I want this so much. I want all of you so much. Can I still love you? Can you let all of us love you? Can you let us show you how amazing you are and how much we need you? Please?”

You stared at him and then looked around the room. You knew from first hand that they weren’t like your ex. None of the seven men that sat before you wanted to hurt you. In fact they did nothing but shower you with love and affection. Ever since inviting you back into their lives they’ve done nothing but love you.

You wanted to give them that love back.

You wanted to give them that normalcy.

You wanted to do anything and everything for them.

You nodded your head. “Yes, I want that. I want all of that. I love you guys so much.” Tears started to fall from your eyes. “I want to be that person that you guys can look to if you need help or if you need a shoulder to cry on. I want to be that person that you guys can go to when you’re tired or if you just want to talk. I want to be that person that you can say that you’re proud of.”

Jungkook smiled and leaned up to you as the rest of the members crowded around you to give you affection. “You already are.”
~*~*~*~
“Can you say nite nite to everyone Sweetie?”

You smiled and giggled at Jimin as he nuzzled his face into you. Dinner or should we say the feast that you and Seokjin made had come and gone and after slipping into your head space, which no one was surprised by as you all had a really emotional day, and after some much-needed cuddles from everyone you were bathed and ready for bedtime. You were sitting on Seokjin’s bed, as he was the oldest and demanded that he’d be the first person to spend the night with you, and were pretty much waiting for everyone to come in and wish you goodnight.

You really loved your nighttime routine.

Jimin had come rushing in first as soon as Seokjin snapped your new onesie closed. Everyone else gave a small laugh or chuckle as they watched and crowded into the room, waiting to give you affection for the last time of the day. Jimin grabbed you and squeezed you only letting go once both Seokjin and Yoongi had voiced their concerns.

“Nite nite, Minnie Eomma.” You giggled squeezing him back just as hard. Jimin laughed and cooed as he kissed your forehead. He then went around the room kissing all his boyfriends before retiring to his room with a final wave goodbye.

“Night Sweetheart!” Jimin called out, so glad to have you home.

“Nite nite, Kookie!” You hugged Jungkook tightly, wanting to thank him in your own way for picking you up and bringing you back home. You were really grateful.

Jungkook did the same as Jimin, he went around the room, giving everyone a kiss and kissing your hands like the Prince you were. “Night Precious.” He honestly couldn’t wait to get you alone. Both big and little he had a couple of ideas for you. He smiled as he left the room.

“Nite nite, Appa!” Namjoon chuckled and rolled his eyes when you puckered up your lips. They really did spoil you. He pretended to hesitate a bit before leaning down and giving you a quick kiss. He hugged you and then went around to give the others affection.

“Good night Baby girl.” He loved the little giggle you gave as he went to join Jimin in their shared room.

“Papa! Papa!” Taehyung smiled and hugged you tightly, loving the feel of you in his arms. You rubbed your eyes and Tae gave you his usual boxy grin as he grabbed onto your hands to stop you from rubbing them raw. “Almost done Angel. Don’t you wanna say good night to daddy too?" Tae's smile didn't fade as you nodded your head. He loved seeing you happy. He ran his fingers through your hair and you snuggled into his hand. Tae gave his kisses and good nights to everyone else and waited for Yoongi to say his goodnights so they both could go into Jungkook’s room.

Yoongi grinned once it was his turn and wrapped his arms around you. He snuggled you and kissed your forehead, your eyes, your cheeks, your nose, your chin which you laughed at, and then your lips. "You be good for Hoseok and Seokjin-Hyung okay?" You nodded. "Who's my favorite baby?" Yoongi pinched your cheeks.

"Daddy, I'm your only baby." You yawned.

"Then that makes you my favorite right?" Yoongi winked.

You smiled. Your daddy can be so silly and you wouldn’t have it any other way. "Yeah!”

Yoongi gave you one more kiss before going over to Seokjin and Hoseok and giving them their kisses and hugs too. “Get some sleep.” He told the three of you.

“Speak for yourself Yoongi!” Seokjin called him out, knowing that if anyone didn’t get sleep it would be him. Hoseok laughed, silently agreeing with the older male.

Yoongi rolled his eyes. “Good night.” He gave you one last look and smile before going over to Taehyung. They both waved and closed the door behind them, you waving good night being the last thing they saw.

“Now I get you all to myself!” Hoseok exclaimed while going over to you and snuggling you. You started laughing but you had stopped to let out a big yawn. “Aw is my Sunshine going to sleep now? You’re really tired aren’t you?” You nodded your head. “Okay then.” He kissed your head. “You get some sleep okay? Dream happy dreams.” He looked up at Seokjin before giving you eskimo kisses. “Dream of us.” He muttered to you. Seokjin’s heart clenched at the love in Hoseok’s voice.

“Nite nite, Sunny.” You laid down on the bed, cute new lion plushie in hand.

“Night Sunshine.” He leaned down and gave Seokjin a kiss once he was settled next to you. “Night Seokjin.”

“Night Hoseok.” Seokjin smiled at him. He looked down at you, seeing you trying to keep your eyes open for your final part of your nighttime routine. The last goodnight. Seokjin leaned down and pressed a soft and gentle kiss to your temple and ran his fingers through your hair. Your eyes began to close and you turned around to get more comfortable, now facing Seokjin. Seokjin smiled and reached down to place your pacifier in your mouth. Your eyes were barely open but he could tell that you looked up at him.

“Nite nite, Oppa. I love you.”

Seokjin’s heart skipped a beat. He nodded his head and got more comfortable on his bed. He held you close to him and loved the way you felt against him as you snuggled closer. You were his precious baby when you were little and you were one of his best friends when you were big. No matter what headspace you were in you made him feel like a person. You made him feel loved. You made his heartbeat in a way that he only thought was possible for his six other lovers.

He loved you so much.

“Good night my Prince.” Seokjin whispered in your ear. “I love you more.” With that Seokjin relaxed as he started to drift off. He held onto you and dreamed happy dreams. Ones where you weren’t just his cute little Prince but you were also his lover, someone to hold and cherish. You didn’t just belong to Taehyung and Yoongi. You were with everyone. You loved everyone and everyone loved you. It was a perfect dream.

Waking up to find out that that dream was actually reality was so much better.

Besides...it was really so hard to not love you.