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The moment Jetfire saw Starscream, he knew his life would change. The seeker stood there with Swindle and the Star Saber minicons. The others spoke of not trusting the seeker, who wished to defect from Megatron's ranks. Jetfire felt his spark leap and skip when he saw him. Then it sunk when the seeker started to leave with his minicons.

"Where are you going?" Jetfire asked.

"It appears I am not welcome here. I will go rouge and defeat Megatron myself," Starscream answered.

"You don't have to go," Alexis protested. "I can trust you."

"Yeah me too," said Rad. Starscream merely nodded.

"There's an extra room next to mine. I'll give you a tour and let you get settled in," Jetfire offered. Starscream nodded again and left with the white shuttle.

~~~000

"That traitor," Megatron growled. "I will kill him for betraying the Decepticons."

"He's going to regret it," Demolisher said.

"Oooo... I can't wait to see him die. I always knew he was no good," Cyclonus cackled, laughing away.

"Thrust, I want you to find Starscream and bring him to me," Megatron ordered.

"Of course Megatron," Thrust bowed.

~~~000

"Is it big enough?" Jetfire asked.

"Yes... it's just fine Jetfire," Starscream said, sitting down on the berth.

"Alright. If you need me, I'm right next door. Optimus is across the hall and Red Alert's next to him," said Jetfire. "I'll let you get some rest. Red will be by later to check on you."

"Thank you Jetfire," Starscream uttered, laying down to get some recharge. His minicons joined him.

~~~000

"How's he doing?" Optimus asked.

"He's getting some rest. I'm going to have Red Alert go check on him later. He seems more damaged then from when he came here," said Jetfire.

"Something else is bothering you Jetfire," Optimus pointed out.

"My spark feels strange around Starscream. It's like I want to be close to him all the time," Jetfire explained softly.

"Ah. I know that feeling. I see you found your sparkmate my friend," Optimus chuckled.

"How do you know?"

"I, myself, am bonded. I know the feeling all too well."

"Who's the lucky one?"

"Well for starters, his name is Scavenger."

"Scavenger? Really?"

"Yes really. And Smokescreen is our son."

"So that's why you reacted the way you did when Smokescreen was almost killed."

~~~flashback

Optimus froze, his spark racing wildly. Smokescreen screamed as the blast from the Requiem Blaster went through him. Surprisingly, Smokescreen got up and tried to stop Megatron just as he warped away. The orange mech fell, his damaged body unable to support itself.

"Smokescreen!" Optimus shouted, running towards the mech. He picked him up, watching red optics fade away.

"I... tried to p-protect... the minicons carrier," Smokescreen whispered painfully.

"You did a good job Smokescreen. You did your best, that's all that matters," Optimus reassured. Smokescreen's optics darkened and he fell limp. Optimus stared at his son. "Smokescreen?"

"No, Smokescreen," Hot Shot whispered, horror written all on his face.

Optimus stayed there on his knees, not believing what was happening. He clenched his fists together and shouted in anger and sorrow up to the sky. Scavenger carefully approached Optimus and placed a servo on him. He too, knew the pain. The larger mech took Optimus into his arms, hugging him closely.

~~~end flashback

"Wow. Who knew you could have a mate? It's nothing bad of course. It's just surprising," said Jetfire.

"Scavenger has made my life so much easier. Without him, I don't know where I would be right now. When I was sparked with Smokescreen, my life became better," Optimus grinned. "Tell Starscream your feelings soon. You never know when it may be too late."

~~~000

Starscream couldn't fall asleep. Nightmares of his abuse had come back to haunt him. The Star Saber and Swindle slept soundly next to and on the seeker. Being betrayed was not a good feeling. Starscream sighed and looked at his charges.

"What am I going to do?" Starscream asked himself. "I don't know what I'm feeling every time I see Jetfire. It confuses me. I've never felt this before."

~~~000

The children went home to get some sleep. They had school in the morning. Red Alert had checked up on Starscream the day before, making sure he was alright. Optimus and Hot Shot helped the seeker while the others went on patrol.

"Where's Jetfire?" Starscream asked.

"He's out on patrol. He will be back soon," Hot Shot answered. "Why did you need him?"

"I don't know honestly," Starscream replied back.

"I think I know why," said Optimus. He started to walk to his room. "Follow me. Hot Shot, stay here in case the others return."

Starscream followed Optimus down the hall, turning into the Prime's room. Optimus motioned for the seeker to sit on the berth.

"So what is this feeling you feel?" asked Optimus.

"I... I don't know. I want to always be near Jetfire all the time," said Starscream.

"What you're feeling is called love. That feeling in your spark is a sign that you found your sparkmate," Optimus supplied.

"Sparkmate? Love? Why am I feeling these?" Starscream questioned, feeling scared.

"Tell Jetfire what you feel and see what he feels," Optimus hinted.

"But how? I don't know what love is or how to show it. I don't know what to do," Starscream admitted.

"You'll find a way," Optimus reassured, smiling under his mask.

~~~000

"Come on," Carlos complained. "You've been at that for hours."

"Yeah well, unlike you, I have work to get done Carlos," Alexis growled.

"Fine. I'll go see if some of the minicons want to play," Carlos grumbled.

Alexis shook her head and went back to her homework. She turned on some music to help her concentrate. Jetfire was at the monitor for his turn on monitor duty. The song playing was a strange one.

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? ([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know

if I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know
if I let you go ?

If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh

Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Ooooooooohhhhh

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
(close to me)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
( oh yeah)
How will I know
(if I let you go?)
But if I let you go I will never know
( oh baby)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
( oh yeah)
How will I know
if I let you go ?

"Jetfire, you alright?" Alexis asked.

"Yeah... I mean no," the shuttle recovered.

"So something is bothering you. You can tell me. I won't tell anyone," Alexis promised.

"Well... I have these feelings in my spark that appeared when I think... about someone or they are in the room. I don't know how to tell them that I love them and want to be their sparkmate," Jetfire quietly confessed.

"The best way is just to tell them. Usually just talking doesn't help, so giving gifs and notes help," said Alexis.

"What kind of gifts?" Jetfire queried.

"Whatever they like," Alexis smiled.

~~~000

Starscream had stayed long enough in the hall to hear Alexis' song before leaving to go practice with the Star Saber. His thoughts ran wild as he remembered what Optimus told him. Would his life be made easier? Will it be better or worse? Will he have kids? Questions filled Starscream's mind, sadly with no answers, or at least not now.

"What am I going to do Swindle?" Starscream asked, looking down at the four minicons. Swindle and Jetstorm beeped up at him. "My life has always been pain and suffering. Can I really love someone?"

Starscream slid down the wall and sat there, pondering on what his spark felt. The four minicons talked to each other before hugging the red and white mech. Starscream smiled down at his mini partners.

"I guess you're right. I will confront him tomorrow," said Starscream.

~~~000

"We can't find them," said Scavenger.

"Find who?" Blurr asked.

"Starscream and Jetfire. They went somewhere," said Scavenger.

"Maybe they went to spar," Hoist suggested. "Or patrol."

"None of the above," Optimus corrected. "The two of them had something to take care of."

~~~000

"I... wish to tell you something Jetfire," Starscream said nervously. The two sat staring into the setting sun.

"I want to tell you something as well," said Jetfire.

"You go first," Starscream said quickly.

"I... Starscream... my spark holds feelings for you. Whenever I'm around you, my spark wants to get closer," Jetfire stammered.

"I hold the same feelings. Optimus said it's called love. I've never felt any sort of love before. All I've known is pain, suffering, and humiliation," Starscream said, embarrassed at his feelings.

"If you permit me to, I will show you everything you never knew," Jetfire offered.

"I would enjoy that."

"Great. I'll see you tonight. We'll go slow at first."

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Starscream sat in his quarters, staring off into space. He sent his minicons away for the night. Jetfire knocked softly before entering. Starscream looked up and shifted to let the shuttle sit. Jetfire sat gingerly and pulled out two cubes of high grade. The seeker nodded his thanks and sipped at the cube given to him.

"So, what did the Decepticons do to make your life so terrible?" Jetfire asked.

"I've been beaten and forced into things," Starscream confessed. "It was never Megatron who forced me to... do things. Before Megatron took me as his Second in Command, I was used as a toy to almost every Decepticon. Megatron would only beat me. The others used me in every way except one."

"Who hasn't done anything?" the shuttle questioned.

"Cyclonus and Demolisher are mated, so they don't do anything. Wheeljack says he's got a destined mate, but hasn't said who. Sideways is a mystery. Soundwave is bonded to Megatron. Tidal Wave is just plain stupid," Starscream listed.

"Interesting. Wheeljack is still probably in love with Hot Shot. Cyclonus and Demolisher are an odd combo. Soundwave with Megatron is new."

"Indeed. The only relief I get is on solo flights. Even then it's for short amounts of time."

Jetfire stared at the mech. His spark reached out more to its other half. This mech had suffered so much, he did not know what true happiness was. The shuttle set his cube down, turning more to see the seeker. Starscream looked down with shame and hurt in his optics. His life had made it so that no one, but select few, wanted to be near him. The Vosian sighed heavily. He knew that his life would change the moment he joined the Autobots.

"Starscream?" Jetfire asked.

"Yes?" the seeker returned.

"Can... can I show you something?" Jetfire questioned. "I just need you to stay still. I want to take away all your pain and misery forever. I don't want you to suffer anymore."

Jetfire waited for the other to nod in confirmation. The shuttle retracted his mask, showing his scarred face. Starscream hesitantly reached up and traced the scars with his fingers. His optics showed sympathy towards the white mech. Jetfire smiled, grabbing Starscream's servo.

"It's alright. They're old scars. They don't bother me anymore," he whispered softly.

Jetfire gazed into sunset orange optics. He leaned forward and gently pressed his lips to the seeker. Starscream didn't move, wanting to know what this was. Jetfire pulled away, looking up at the other.

"W-what was that?" Starscream stuttered.

"It's called a kiss. Do you want another?"

"Yes please."

Jetfire smiled and went to get another kiss. He put on some music. Starscream shyly kissed back, offlining his optics. The seeker loved this unknown feeling. The music helped put the setting into full swing.

Was it me a dream ago
Who said there was nothing that's forever
But sometimes fate moves in ways
That brings two hearts like us together

One by one the walls came down
And suddenly I knew this was heaven that I'd found

til I was loved by you
A heart beat inside of me that I never knew
And dreams were for fools
They could never come true
til I was loved
til I was loved by you

They say for everyone of us
The right one is somewhere out there waiting
And if we're lucky we might find
Oh, that hearts are made for more than breaking

All I did was look at you
And that moment I knew miracles come true

til I was loved by you
A heart beat inside of me that I never knew
And dreams were for fools
They could never come true
til I was loved
til I was loved by you

And in my darkest hour
I would fall down to my knees
I didn't know my prayers were answered
It wasn't supposed to happen to me

til I was loved by you
A heart beat inside of me that I never knew
And dreams were for fools
They could never come true
til I was loved

~~~000

"Lord Megatron, I suggest we call in Hook. Without Starscream, we don't have a medic. Well he wasn't a medic but he had the most medical knowledge," Thrust suggested.

"That would be wise," Megatron agreed. "Thrust, call in Hook. I know that Demolisher hasn't been at the top of his game lately."

~~~000

Demolisher bent over and heaved up energon for the third time that day. Cyclonus was becoming even more nervous with each day. His mate had been so sick for the past month, he couldn't sit still any longer. Demolisher was losing nutrients and energon quickly, forcing him to stay at base.

"Did Starscream ever tell you the results of the testing?" Cyclonus asked, bending down to hug the tank.

"No. He said that they would take a while to come up," said Demolisher.

"Well I heard that Megatron was calling Hook. He'll know what's wrong," Cyclonus reassured. "No matter what will happen, I will still love you and be right here."

~~~000

Hook stretched as he landed on the moon right next to base. Demolisher couldn't get up at all, Cyclonus restricting him. Hook took out a scanner and let the light scan the tank. Cyclonus waited, holding his breath.

"Will Demolisher be able to go back into battle?" Megatron asked.

"No he won't. Demolisher is sparked Megatron," Hook reported.

"Sparked? I'm a sire? Oh boy this is just amazing!" Cyclonus rejoiced.

"I'm sparked," Demolisher breathed. He smiled up at the insane mech. "A sparkling Cy. We're going to be creators."

"I'm sure your child will be a good one," said Megatron.

~~~000

Starscream snuggled up to Jetfire. He had just suffered from a severe painc attack. The nightmares never got better. Soft music played through the speakers installed in the room. The words stuck with Starscream, helping him calm down.

Turned on the TV yesterday
So much pain bleeding through I had to look away
But inside me the picture's just the same
And every time I open up my eyes nothing seems to change

It never seems to change

You give me faith to believe there's a way
To put the past finally behind me
And hope to make it through another night
You give me strength during these dark times when I'm blind
You are my light when faith is hard to find

When faith is hard to find
Will you still hold on

Something woke me in the night
In the midst of the darkness I recognize the light
Now inside me the picture seems so clear
All the dying in my broken dreams is starting to appear

Starting to appear

You give me faith to believe there's a way
To put the past finally behind me
And hope to make it through another night
You give me strength during these dark times when I'm blind
You are my light when faith is hard to find

Faith is hard to find

If I fall will you hold on to me
Through it all promise you won't lose me
These days hope is hard to come by
And tonight I don't know how I can't survive

You give me faith to believe there's a way
To put the past finally behind me
And hope to make it through another night
You give me strength during these dark times when I'm blind
You are my light when faith is hard to find

When faith is hard to find
Will you still hold on

You give me faith to believe there's a way
To put the past finally behind me
And hope to make it through another night
You give me strength during these dark times when I'm blind
You are my light when faith is hard to find

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

The alarm made Jetfire sigh. He really didn't want to get up.

"Must we get up?" Starscream complained.

"Sadly yes," Jetfire grumbled.

"I don't want to. You're comfy," Starscream said.

"We can cuddle later," Jetfire said.

Starscream got up and followed Jetfire to the command center. Swindle and the Star Saber minicons caught up with their partner along the way.

"What's up?" Jetfire asked.

"Sorry to disturb your time. There's been another minicon signal. We're getting ready to move out," said Optimus.

"Let's go. I'm still tired," Starscream groaned, walking towards the warp gate.

~~~000

Starscream clashed arms with Cyclonus, trying to overpower him. The insane mech didn't let up, keeping his strength in tune with the other flier. Starscream looked around, noticing someone was missing.

"Cyclonus, where's Demolisher? Is he alright?" the mech asked.

"Demolisher isn't going to be coming for a long time," said Cyclonus.

"As I suspected. He's sparked isn't he?" Starscream continued.

"Yeah. He said you did a test and the results would take a while. Hook came and confirmed it," said Cyclonus.

"Hook? Here? Did he bring anything?" Starscream had fear in his optics.

"Well yeah. A whole ship load."

A loud scream came from across the field. Optimus clutched his chest, energon leaking from it. Another shot rang out, striking the downed leader. Scavenger got to Optimus' side, helping him up to the caves nearby for shelter.

"Optimus, are you alright?" Scavenger asked, putting his servo on the firetruck.

"I... I don't know," Optimus panted.

"I'll get Red Alert," Scavenger said, heaving the mech up. "Red take us back. Optimus needs help."

"Optimus, I got the minicon! Let's go!" Hot Shot shouted.

~~~000

"What's his condition?" Hot Shot asked.

"He'll live. Nothing was seriously damaged," said Red Alert. "Optimus will be back to normal tomorrow."

"That's good," said Jetfire. The shuttle turned to Starscream. "Hey... why don't we go back to what we were doing before."

Starscream smiled and nodded, walking towards his berthroom. Jetfire got a gleam in his optics, following his lover. He stepped into the room and wrapped his arms around the slender form. Starscream turned just as the faceplate retracted. Jetfire didn't hesitate to steal a kiss. The Vosian welcomed the kiss, moaning in delight. The seeker suddenly pulled away, turning and sitting on the berth. This confused Jetfire.

"Starscream? What's up?" Jetfire asked, sitting on the berth as well.

"Hook is here, on Earth. Megatron must of called him in," said Starscream. "We better watch Optimus closely. Hook could of done something to him."

"Why would Hook be here?" Jetfire asked.

"Demolisher is sparked. And without me, then the Decepticons here would need a medic," Starscream softly explained. "We need to all be careful. I'll tell Scavenger to watch Optimus closely."

"I'll tell the others to look out," said Jetfire, smirking slightly. He stole a quick kiss. "Don't leave. I'll be right back."

Starscream leaned back and stared up at the ceiling. What had his life become? Was joining the Autobots the right choice? Too many questions with no answers. He resumed the music list to keep his boredom at bay.

~~~000

"With Hook here, we need to be extra cautious," said Scavenger. "My brother will know a lot through our bond. He's done it before, even with it blocked."

"Where are your other siblings?" Jetfire asked.

"Last I saw, they were on Cybertron. Scrapper was badly damaged, so they stayed with him. I was with Optimus when the news came in," said Scavenger.

"We'll keep an optic out," Hot Shot said.

~~~000

"Megatron... Prime is down. With this new serum I made, he'll die slowly. Their medic won't detect it until it's too late," Hook reported.

"Excellent. Soon Prime won't be an issue anymore," said Megatron.

~~~000

Starscream tossed and turned, his nightmares starting up. He screamed and thrashed around. Jetfire burst through the door and went to the seeker, shaking him awake. Starscream woke up, terrified of what happened.

"Shh... it was just a dream," Jetfire soothed.

"It felt so real. I-I couldn't save you," Starscream whispered. Jetfire retracted his mask, kissing the frightened mech.

"I'm right here Star. I'm not leaving you ever. I promise," Jetfire vowed.

"Thank you," Starscream said, snuggling closer to his lover.

"Get some sleep. I'll be here when you wake up," Jetfire murmured. He played music to help ease the other into recharge.

Lookin' in your eyes
I see a paradise
This world that I found
Is too good to be true

Standin' here beside you
Want so much to give you
This love in my heart
That I'm feelin' for you

Let 'em say we're crazy
I don't care 'bout that
Put your hand in my hand
Baby, don't ever look back

Let the world around us
Just fall apart
Baby, we can make it
If we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
We'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us
Nothing's gonna stop us now
Oh, whoa

I'm so glad I found you
I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes
I will stay here with you

Take it to the good times
See it through the bad times
Whatever it takes
Is what I'm gonna do

Let 'em say we're crazy
What do they know
Put your arms around me
Baby, don't ever let go

Let the world around us
Just fall apart
Baby, we can make it
If we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now

And if this world runs out of lovers
We'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us
Nothing's gonna stop us

Ooh, all that I need is you
All that I ever need
And all that I want to do
Is hold you forever ever and ever, hey

And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now

And if this world runs out of lovers
We'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us
Nothing's gonna stop us

We can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
Nothing's gonna stop us

And if this world runs out of lovers
We'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us now

We can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now

World runs out of lovers
Nothing's gonna stop us
We'll still have each other

We can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now

Morning came fast. Optimus was back to duty, greeting and reassuring them. That morning also came with a surprise. Another minicon was found.

"Men, let's roll out," Optimus order.

"What about Starscream and Jetfire?" Sideswipe asked.

"Let them sleep. Starscream had a long night," said Scavenger.

"Well then, let's go," said Hot Shot.

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"Well you're an interesting minicon," a young mech said, looking over the minicon he found. The small bot beeped. "Hi Cometrane, I'm Ironjack."

"You there, hand over that minicon," someone said.

Ironjack turned to see a black mech with gold. The mech had his gun pointed at him. More bots appeared, one Ironjack recognized the most.

"Carrier!" Ironjack exclaimed.

"Ironjack, it's good to see you again. I thought you stayed on Cybertron with your unit," said Hot Shot.

"My best friend died in a fire. No one could get him out. We were even going to bond. A Decepticon sniper shot him down and he died before we could get out," said Ironjack, looking down at the ground. "I just came from his burial."

"Oh Iron... I'm so sorry. Highburn was a good mech," said Hot Shot.

"It's alright carrier. He's in a better place now," said Ironjack.

"All right both of you stop. You, hand over the minicon," said Wheeljack. "I'll shoot if you don't."

"Red, bring everyone but me back. I'll distract Wheeljack," said Hot Shot. They waited until everyone was gone. "Wheeljack-"

"You were sparked? When? Who?" Wheeljack demanded.

"He's your 'Jack. I was sparked before the fire. I didn't know at the time. When my commanding officers pulled me out after I went back for you, I was unconscious. That's when the medic found that I was sparked. He told me when I woke up," Hot Shot explained. "I so wanted to tell you, but I was told you didn't survive. I blamed myself up until I saw you here. I never loved again. I knew you were the one for me."

"Hot Shot... I'm so sorry. I don't... I still love you as well. I just felt so betrayed. When you left me I mean. I didn't know," said Wheeljack. "Will you ever forgive me?"

"I already have," said Hot Shot, taking a step towards the mech. "Come with me Wheeljack. We can start over. We can even bond, just like we planned when you proposed."

"I... I don't know Hot Shot. I've betrayed the Autobots," Wheeljack whispered. Hot Shot gently kissed him. "Will I be welcomed?"

"Of course. Optimus wouldn't turn you down," Hot Shot whispered back. "Red, bring us back."

~~~000

"What's he doing here?" Blurr asked.

"It's alright guys. He's a friend now," said Hot Shot. "Where's Ironjack and Optimus?"

"Talking in his office. Jetfire and Starscream got up after they arrived," said Sideswipe.

"Come on Wheeljack. Let's go talk to Optimus," Hot Shot said, motioning towards the door.

The two caught up with the leader in the hall. Optimus welcomed Wheeljack before dismissing himself. Ironjack looked at the two, shifting uncomfortably. It was strange, because this mech was just threatening him.

"Ironjack, I want you to meet Wheeljack," Hot Shot introduced, "your sire."

"My sire?" Ironjack repeated.

"Yes. I believed him to be dead after that fire," said Hot Shot. "It turns out Megatron rescued him. But now he's back with us, right where he belongs."

~~~000

"Jetfire...mmm...stop for a minute," Starscream said, stopping the shuttle from attacking his neck.

"Is something wrong?" Jetfire asked concerned. "Am I hurting you? Do you want to stop?"

"No! I mean no. It feels really good. I was just hoping to take this further. We were meant for each other," Starscream said shyly, looking towards the closest wall. "I want to bond with you."

"Are you sure? You're ready to go further?" Jetfire wanted to confirm. Starscream nodded. "Alright. I've had more experience, so I'll go slow. We can stop if needed."

"Jetfire," Starscream moaned out, shivers going down his spine as his sensitive wings were touched with feather-light touches.

~~~000

"This feels right," Jetfire sighed hours later.

"It does. I don't feel alone anymore," Starscream agreed.

"I don't know what to say. But these do," said Jetfire, pushing a button.

Once in a lifetime
You look in someone's eyes
And it feels like the world stops turning at once
That's what it felt like for me
I knew knew right away this day would be
Standing together, believing forever
Is there in our reach

'cause love is my witness
I swear
I'll be with you till the end
Nothing in tear this love apart
I'll put my hand upon my heart
This is the promise I'll make to you
Whatever comes we'll see it through
Nothing can break it
This feeling's too strong
'cause love is my witness

We've both known sorrow
We've known heartache
When our dreams for tomorrow
Seem so far away
But that brought us closer - yeah
It brought us together
So that we'd know the real thing
That's why I can yeah - ye-eh-yeah

'cause love is my witness
I swear
I'll be with you till the end
Nothing in tear this love apart
I'll put my hand upon my heart
This is the promise I'll make to you
Whatever comes we'll see it through
Nothing can break it
This feeling's too strong
'cause love is my witness

I know whatever comes to be
Together we'll face the mystery
Here in my heart, deep in my soul
Somehow I know, I know

'cause love is my witness
I swear
I'll be with you till the end
Nothing in tear this love apart
I'll put my hand upon my heart
This is the promise I'll make to you
(This is the promise I'll make to you)
Whatever comes we'll see it through
Nothing can break it
This feeling's too strong
'cause love is my witness

Nothing can break it
This feeling's too strong
'cause love is my witness

Starscream felt touched by the words. The next song started, Jetfire rubbing his new mate's wings.

You come to me with
Scars on your wrist.
You tell me this will be the last night
Feeling like this.

I just came to say good bye
Didn't want you to see me cry
I'm fine

But I know it's a lie

This is the last night
You'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes
So I know you know
I'm everywhere
You want me to be

The last night
You'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms
And I won't let go
I'm everything
You need me to be

Your parents say
Everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you
They don't know you at all

I'm so sick of when they say
"Its just a phase you'll be ok
You're fine"

But I know it's a lie

This is the last night
You'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes
So I know you know
I'm everywhere
You want me to be

(The last night
Away…

(The last night
Away from me)

The night is so long when
Everything's wrong
If you give me your hand
I will help you hold on

Tonight
Tonight

This is the last night
You'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes
So I know you know
I'm everywhere
You want me to be

I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night
Away from me
Away from me

"Jetfire, will you promise me something?" Starscream asked after the song ended.

"Anything," Jetfire whispered, rubbing the cockpit on the seeker.

"If something were to happen to me-"

"Nothing's going to happen. I won't allow that," Jetfire interrupted.

"I said if. But if something were to happen to me, promise you'll go on with me," Starscream finished. "Please Jetfire."

"Alright. But you have to make the same promise," Jetfire said.

"I promise. Now stay still. You're comfortable to sleep on," Starscream laughed. Jetfire laughed as well, kissing his new mate and whispering a goodnight to him.

~~~000

"What's got you all happy?" Scavenger asked, seeing the newly bonded couple.

"The best thing in our entire lives," Jetfire boasted proudly.

"Ah I see. Congratulations you two. Optimus told me it may be soon that you two bonded," Scavenger smiled. "You plan on having kids?"

"Maybe when this war ends," Jetfire said. "Hopefully it will be soon."

"How's Optimus?" Starscream asked.

"He's doing well. There have been so signs of anything," said Scavenger, suddenly concerned. "Did Hook make something new?"

"Hook is always making new things. The last thing I knew was a slow killing virus that can't be detected by any medical equipment. Or at least undetected until it's too late," said Starscream. "The longest victim lasted a year and a half."

"I'll make sure he's fine. Thank you Starscream," Scavenger said.

Starscream hummed and left the two of them. The seeker went to go find Prime to warn him about the possible danger. He heard violent purging in the public washracks, which were mainly used after a mission. Walking inside, Starscream found Optimus bent over the drain, purging his tanks.

"Optimus!" Starscream said in shock, rushing to his side. "What's wrong?"

"I-I do-ack don't know," Optimus choked out. "W-where's Scavenger?"

"I'll send him to Red Alert. I'm taking you to the medibay," the seeker said, picking up the mech and carrying him down the halls. "Red Alert! Optimus needs help."

"What's wrong?" Red Alert asked, stepping away from his computer. "Get him on a berth now."

"I think this is Hook's work. It can't be detected, and kills slowly. He can die within a year, two at most," Starscream explained. "There's no cure, but I can try. I was a scientist once."

"I'll provide supplies. We'll work on this together," said Red Alert.

Starscream left and quickly returned with energon and Scavenger. The green mech went straight to Optimus' side, holding his servo. He pressed small kisses to the blue helm in comfort. Starscream muttered an apology before drawing some energon to test. The old-fashion way would take longer, but at least they would know a way to cure him.

Optimus writhed and cried in pain, his spark flaring in reaction. Scavenger tried his best to help, but his efforts remained fruitless. Red Alert took a sedative and injected it into his friend. It hurt him to see anyone suffer.

"I don't know how long this will take, but I promise to do my best," Starscream said. "Sadly, all of my supplies are back in my room on the moon."

"Then we'll find a way to get them," said Scavenger. "I can't allow Optimus to suffer a slow death."

"And if we can't find a cure or it's too late, then what?" Starscream asked.

"Then I will let him go as peacefully and painlessly as I can," Scavenger answered. "I would rather see him die that way then be in pain."

Starscream merely nodded before leaving. He needed something to distract his mind while he worked. He found Earth music to help.

~~~weeks later

Starscream stared off from where he was at. He decided to take a break, but couldn't concentrate on building the ship with his new comrades. He could hear the others gossiping about him, but ignored it.

"Come on Starscream, get to work already," Jetfire said.

"I would rather not," Starscream said, turning to jump off the platform he was on.

"And why not? You can't just stop working on us," Jetfire pressed. "Stop being such a fool."

"You're the fool Jetfire," Starscream spat, taking his leave.

Starscream grumbled and walked into a room to find it dark. When he turned on the lights, he was surprised to see the humans there.

"Thank you Starscream for the present," they said.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Starscream avoided.

"The rock from Mars. It was great of you to bring it," Alexis clarified.

"It was nothing," Starscream shrugged.

"Well it was still sweet. So we made you this shimmy," Alexis said, holding up a cloth. "You can polish anything with it."

"I... I don't know what to say," Starscream stuttered. "I've never gotten a present before."

"Never?!" Carlos gasped. "Dude that sucks."

"What do I do now?" Starscream asked. Alexis merely smiled.

"Try saying thank you for now," she advised.

~~~000

Jetfire decided to go find Starscream. He needed to teach him that they all worked together. The shuttle found him with the kids, holding something up.

"Hey, since you don't want to help with the ship, then go do monitor duty," Jetfire commanded. Starscream grumbled some more when he walked off. Jetfire went to go check up on Optimus. The shuttle knocked on the medibay wall, alerting the resting leader. "Hey Optimus, how's things going?"

"Well. Red says I should be good to leave today," Optimus answered. "I was just waiting for Scavenger."

"He's busy right now. I can swing by and tell him you're ready. I just wanted to check up on you," Jetfire said.

"That would be helpful," said Optimus.

~~~000

Starscream looked at the Skyboom Shield minicons, thinking about what Thrust had said to him. He didn't know what to do. Blurr came up behind the seeker, looking at him in suspicion.

"Hey, everything alright Starscream?" Blurr asked.

"Everything is fine," Starscream said.

The seeker turned and left down the hall to the medibay. That strange feeling was back in his spark and abdomen. Luckily Red Alert was in there working on a report. The medic looked up when he heard Starscream enter nervously.

"Can... can you scan me?" Starscream asked nervously, shifting a bit in embarrassment.

"What's wrong?" Red Alert asked, motioning for him to sit on a berth.

"My spark and abdomen are feeling strange," Starscream said softly. "It's been going on for almost three months, shortly after I bonded with Jetfire."

"Hmm... well it looks like you're..."

Chapter Text

Starscream stumbled out of the medibay. He couldn't believe it. He was-

"I have to go tell Jetfire," Starscream told himself, heading towards the command center. The intense atmosphere in there made him shrink back. "What's going on?"

"Where are they Starscream?" Jetfire asked, voice accusing.

"W-what?" Starscream questioned.

"The minicons that make the Skyboom Shield," Jetfire clarified. Starscream took a step back at how much hate there was towards him.

"Fred and Billy said they saw you talking to Thrust outside of our base. He was demanding you bring them to him," Blurr added.

"I-I-I..." Starscream stuttered.

"Hey wait a minute you guys. We don't know if Starscream took them," Hot Shot defended. "Starscream, no one is saying you're guilty. We just want to know where they're at."

"Thanks for trying Hot Shot. Sadly I'm told I'm guilty and that won't change anything," Starscream said, betrayal in his optics. "It won't matter what I say."

"Hey... no one said you did it," Hot Shot tried to reason. "We just want to know the truth."

"You can't handle the truth!" Starscream snapped, closing off the bond and turning to leave.

"What's going on here?" Optimus asked, leaning on Scavenger for support.

"The Skyboom minicons are missing," Jetfire started.

"Billy and Fred saw Starscream talking to Thrust about taking them to him," Blurr continued.

"And now Starscream isn't saying anything. That's the story so far sir," Sideswipe finished.

"Starscream, do you know where they are?" Optimus asked. Starscream clenched his servos together and growled.

"No I don't! I refused Thrust and sent him away! I just came from the medibay because... because..." Starscream trailed off, pushing past the leader to leave. "It doesn't matter why I was there! Not anymore it doesn't. I'm just a Decepticon and that won't change. I honestly believed I would be happy here, but I was wrong. I can see I'm not welcomed anymore. My own mate doesn't even trust me. Only Hot Shot didn't think I did it."

Starscream left and locked himself in his room. He laid down on the berth and cried, curling protectively around his abdomen. He stroked it slightly, smiling at it.

"Don't worry little one. Soon enough we will leave this place and find somewhere to live. It'll just be me and you," Starscream spoke to his stomach. "I promise you will not suffer like I have."

~~~000

"Cyclonus, Tailgate wants you again," Demolisher huffed, handing over the blue and white sparkling.

"Again? I swear he loves me too much," Cyclonus grumbled, rocking his son into recharge.

"Something tells me he's going to be like you," Demolisher pouted. "Anyway, Megatron wanted me to tell you that we're moving out soon."

"What about Tailgate?" Cyclonus asked.

"He's going to stay with Soundwave and his son," Demolisher answered. "They just landed not too long ago."

"Fine, I'll go drop him off," said Cyclonus.

~~~000

Starscream searched for Thrust. He went out into battle, avoiding Red Alert. The conehead laughed and appeared in front of Starscream.

"I've decided Thrust. I'm staying here with the Autobots," Starscream smirked.

"Shame. You would of been a great ally in defeating Megatron," Thrust sighed. "But will you ever be truly accepted? You have Decepticon programming. They will never trust you with anything."

Starscream thought back to earlier. They didn't trust him at all. They automatically assumed he had done something he didn't do. Even Jetfire was in on it. His own mate, whom he trusted with everything he had, had betrayed him. Thrust smirked, or at least with his optics, at the seeker's position.

"They don't trust you, do they? They have already betrayed you. I can see it in your optics," Thrust observed. Starscream growled and looked away. He saw the shield and felt the pain of betrayal grow. "Go get it. We will work together to get vengeance on any who have hurt you."

Starscream took off, grabbing the shield before it reached anybody. Every Autobot looked betrayed at what the seeker had just done. Optimus just looked at him with pain, sorrow, and understanding. Starscream "talked" to Optimus with his optics before leaving with both of the powerful weapons in hand.

"Since I'm a traitor to you, here's my proof. You blamed me for stealing. Well now I truly have," Starscream growled to his former comrades. "I hope you're all happy now. Your betrayal will be your demise."

"Starscream-" Jetfire started, only to be cut off.

"Don't! Don't you dare Jetfire! You are just as guilty as them. I thought I could trust you. I'm leaving you. I have no place with the Autobots anymore," Starscream accusingly snarled.

The Vosian took off and left with the coneheaded Decepticon. Jetfire tensed up for a moment before slumping in defeat. He had hurt Starscream badly. And for what? There were no excuses anymore. Red Alert stormed up to Jetfire and smacked him hard, knocking him down.

"You slagger! Starscream was with me when they disappeared," Red Alert growled, shocking everyone. Jetfire didn't move, too scared of the "calm" medic. "He's carrying! Now he could get himself and the sparkling killed! Megatron won't show mercy to traitors! All because you thought he did something that he didn't. Did you even get his side of the story? Did any of you?"

"We... no we didn't. We just blamed him for the minicons' disappearance. I have no excuse for doing that to him," Jetfire mumbled, his guilt growing at the lecture.

"We must find a way to help him," Optimus said, looking over his troop. "Starscream is carrying. Megatron might not kill them if he knew. I know he won't kill sparklings."

"How do you know?" Ironjack asked.

"I know that Megatron has a son. I have seen him," said Scavenger. "Megatron also saved Smokescreen from a burning building and returned him to us."

"Scavenger, we need to find a way to get Starscream back. I don't want to force him, but I also don't want to make him feel uncomfortable and unsafe with us," Optimus ordered.

~~~000

"Glad yo have you back Starscream," Megatron said.

"Yes, it is great to be home once again," Starscream agreed, bowing his helm.

"You seem different. Your plating is extended slightly," Megatron mused. "Tell me, are you sparked?"

"Indeed I am. The sire, however, has lost my trust. I found my other half, but he accused me of taking the minicons when I was in the medibay," Starscream explained. "He should be here in a couple of months at least. Red Alert said that fliers tended to carry for a shorter amount of time."

"Congratulations are in order then," Megatron smiled, placing a servo on his young son's helm next to him. "You may rest and refuel. I can see how tired you are. Hook will check on you later. Lightwave?"

"Yes sire?" the green and blue mechling asked, his red optics looking up at his sire.

"Take Starscream to go refuel and help him to his room," Megatron said.

"Of course sire," Lightwave said, taking Starscream's servo.

"Thank you," Starscream bowed, letting the youngling take him out. He needed to put his plan into action soon. On the way to his room, they ran into Cyclonus and Demolisher with their son. "Hello again my friends. I see you delivered just finely. He's a good looking sparkling."

"Thanks Screamer," Cyclonus laughed. "Tailgate can be a pain, but we still love him. Even if he prefers me more."

"We heard you were sparked," Demolisher said. "It was about time you settled down with someone. Hope they are a good one."

"You can say that. He recently blamed me for something I didn't do. I was in the medibay with Red Alert getting checked over. I went to go tell the sire and it went downhill from there," Starscream explained, inner pain visible.

"Man that must suck. Just tell me who he is and I'll show him a thing or two," Cyclonus insanely chuckled. "That is just cruel. So, when are you due? I wanna meet the little guy."

Starscream smirked and laughed. Young Lightwave became grossed out and quickly left. This was the life he missed. Demolisher lightly smacked the insane mech, making him laugh.

"Since fliers carry for a shorter carrying period, he will arrive in a couple months at least," Starscream answered.

~~~000

"It appears to be getting worse sir," Red Alert reported. "There's not much I can do for you. Starscream took everything with him."

"I trust you to do your best," Optimus sighed.

"I wish there was more I can do for you," Red Alert said in defeat.

"There's nothing we can do about it. If I die, then I die. I will appoint a new leader soon," Optimus decided.

"All right. You're good to leave. I'll get something ready to help with the pain. Get some rest. I will come by later to check on you," Red Alert ordered.

~~~000

"What you doing Scream?" Hook asked, catching the seeker looking through his files.

Starscream hummed, secretly taking photos of anything useful, including the one for Optimus. He briefly looked at the medic before answering, "Looking for something to get some revenge on someone. I don't want to kill them, but I want them to suffer for a day or so. I'm not finding anything so far."

"You might want to try this one," Hook suggested, pulling out one datapad from the stack. "It makes the body reject energon. Give them a small dose and it'll do what you want."

"Thank you. I'll need to get supplies," Starscream nodded.

"In that closet over there. Everything should be there," Hook pointed, not suspecting a thing.

Once Starscream got the supplies, he went back to his room. First he started on the one to help Optimus before moving onto his revenge. Maybe, just maybe, Jetfire would learn his lesson.

"Hang on just a bit longer Optimus," Starscream mumbled softly. "I'll get back when I can."

~~~2 days later

"That's your choice Hot Shot," Optimus said, placing the Matrix back inside of him. "I will see you all again."

"Let's go," Jetfire whooped, bridging out, Optimus following.

"Good luck you guys," Hot Shot murmured.

The battle was intense. Starscream avoided fighting as much as possible. He didn't want to risk losing the sparkling. The mech did however pretend to inject the virus into his mate when he was pinned down.

"Starscream? Y-you're back with them? I thought you were pretending," Jetfire stuttered.

"After what you did to me? Why would I want to go back to the Autobots?" Starscream retorted. "You hurt me and sided with them."

"I know I did. And I'm-"

Jetfire was cut off as the Hydra Cannon was fired. The seeker was pushed back with the force, knocking him out temporarily. The white shuttle stared in horror as his leader got in the way of the blast. He couldn't move. After a while, it looked like Optimus was losing.

~~~000

"He's losing," Scavenger said. At the same time, he and Smokescreen shouted out in pain shortly before the blast ended. "Optimus!"

"Scavenger, Hoist, what's wrong?" Hot Shot asked. On the monitor, Optimus disappeared after the others cheered.

"He's gone. Optimus is dead," Scavenger whispered. "I can't feel his spark anymore."

"I can't feel him either," Hoist agreed.

Chapter Text

The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling by like thunder now
As I look in your eyes

I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake

Cause you are my lady
And I am your man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

Lost is how I'm feeling
Lying in your arms
When the world outside's too much to take
That all ends when I'm with you

Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'cause I am always by your side

Cause you are my lady
And I am your man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
'Bout the power of love

The sound of your heart beating
made it clear suddenly
the feeling that I can't go on
is light years away

Cause you are my lady
And I am your man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
'Bout the power of love

Starscream woke up to his music playing and looked around. The blast must of hit something. He quickly got to the minicons and took them before heading off to Earth. He left behind a message to Megatron, hoping it got to him. When he landed in the forest, Starscream raced inside the base, heading to the main room. Everyone was still there. Well all expect for Optimus. The room was filled with heavy mourning.

"Red Alert, I got the cure! Where's Optimus?" Starscream questioned. No one answered or even looked at him. "Red Alert? Jetfire? Blurr? Anyone?"

Jetfire took in Starscream's desperate look. He swallowed thickly before speaking.

"He's... he's dead. The Hydra Cannon killed him when he stopped the blast," he explained softly. "He isn't in pain anymore. From what Scavenger told me, it was a quick, painless one."

"No. No, no, no! We had a plan!" Starscream denied. Hot Shot fisted his servo and struck the seeker, knocking him down. "Hot Shot?"

"This is all your fault! If you hadn't betrayed us, then Optimus would still be here!" Hot Shot screamed.

"Don't you hit him again! He's sparked and you just hit him. You're lucky Optimus appointed you leader," Jetfire growled. "I don't want a repeat of what happened last time. Now Starscream, can you explain this plan?"

"I was to go back to the Decepticons and look for the cure. Optimus and I kept it secret to make it seem more real. In addition, I would bring back as many minicons as I could," Starscream explained, not moving from his spot on the ground. The weapon minicons and Swindle went to his side. "It was never intended to ;to be this way. Hot Shot is right. It is my fault Prime died. I brought Megatron the minicons he needed. Scavenger, Hoist, I am so sorry."

Starscream got to his pedes and walked to his room, the minicons following him. The guilt of the leader's death made his spark ache. He just hoped that Megatron would see reason. For now, he would rest to gather energy for the sparkling.

~~~000

"I don't blame him for carrier's death," Hoist said.

"How can you say that?" Hot Shot fired at his friend. "Starscream betrayed us and it got Optimus killed!"

"And we betrayed him first!" Hoist shot back. Silence followed.

"Smokescreen is correct. Starscream isn't at fault. Optimus chose to die to save everyone. It was his choice, for the better good. Be glad Optimus is selfless," Scavenger said, pulling Hot Shot close. "You're coming with me."

~~~000

"Are you sure Megatron?" Thrust asked.

"Yes I'm sure Squidhead. I want my family safe and I'm sure that the others would be the same. Prime is gone so there is no reason to continue the war," Megatron growled. "Soundwave, please send a message to the Autobots. Explain my choice and why. I have a problem to solve."

Thrust remained cool to keep his cover hidden. All his plans were going to waste with the war ending. He would have to plan all over again. One thing for sure, he would get rid of the Vosian.

~~~000

"You're not the only one hurting Hot Shot. Optimus was my sparkmate and carrier to Smokecreen. We felt when he left us. It may not look like it, but we're suffering from loss big time. You don't know the pain of losing your mate. It's the work thing that can happen."

Scavenger attacked Hot Shot as he talked. The younger warrior dodged a few, not understanding things. His mind was clouded with grief. The much lager mech knocked him flat.

"No... stop it Scavenger! I'm sorry!" Hot Shot pleaded. "I'm sorry!"

"Are you Hot Shot?! Are you really, truly sorry?!" Scavenger demanded.

"Yes. I see what I've been doing. It was wrong of me to get mad at everyone," Hot Shot said with shame. He could hear Optimus in his head, giving advice. "I'll do my best Optimus."

"Come on, let's head back," Scavenger said.

~~~000

"Excellent. We shall be in touch," Starscream said, shaking servos with Megatron.

"How's the little one?" Megatron asked, pulling Soundwave and Lightwave close to his side.

"He's doing well. Red says that the sparkling is forming just fine," Starscream smiled, servo drifting down to his stomach.

"That's good. I shall inform the troops of our agreement. I bid you farewell Starscream," Megatron bowed.

"If you need anything, we can help," Soudnwave added before they warped out of there.

"Bye Starscream. See you later," Lightwave said, waving goodbye.

"What did we miss?" Hot Shot asked, confusion on his face.

"Megatron as agreed to end the war. He doesn't want to raise his son in war and many wanted the same. We leave for Cybertron soon to repair what damage was done," Starscream explained.

"There will be a new battle to fight," Swindle said, making everyone look at him.

"What battle? Who are we fighting against?" Starscream asked.

"Unicron," Swindle answered.

"Unicron? He's just a story that creators used to make sure their creations behaved," Jetfire scoffed.

"He's real Jetfire. We saw him when Sideways trapped us in the internet," rad said.

"We can beat him. We have to if we want to live in peace," Wheeljack commented. "Hot Shot will lead us."

"Yeah I will. I won't take the Matrix, but I'll still take the roll Optimus gave me," Hot Shot said. "And I want to apologize for my behavior. I have no excuse. Especially to you Starscream. I'm sorry."

"All has already been forgiven Hot Shot," Starscream said. "Come on, the ship is almost ready."

~~~weeks later

"Can we please come along?" Billy begged.

"Yeah, we're part of the team too," Carlos agreed.

"I don't see a problem with it," Hot Shot shrugged.

"Alright! Let's go tell the others," Carlos cheered.

The bots all laughed and waited for the kids. Both sides worked on getting as many minicons as they could. Sparkplug because in charge of the Matrix, not once letting it go. It was a few hours until the kids had all that they needed, most of it already provided on the ship.

"I want to say that we did a great job on this ship. I'm proud of you all and I know Optimus would be too," Hot Shot said. "It'll be a while until we reach Cybertron. So enjoy this time to rest."

Once the ship took off, the Autobot team got a break they needed. Hot Shot piloted the ship with Wheeljack, Ironjack, and Sideswipe. They met up with the Decepticons and went on their way. Starscream stayed away from Jetfire, not yet ready to forgive him. Instead he listened to Earth music to help him think. The sparkling kicked at the sound of the music. He really enjoyed it. Starscream smiled and rubbed his stomach, feeling his sparkling move towards him. Any day now he could go into labor. He began to softly sing along to the song.

"You should have seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was something missin'
You should have known by the tone in my voice, maybe
But you didn't listen

You played dead
But you never bled
Instead you lay still in the grass
All coiled up and hissin'

And though I know all about those men
Still I don't remember
'Cause it was us baby, way before them
And we're still together

And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you
I meant that I love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on lovin' you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on lovin' you

And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you
I meant that I love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on lovin' you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on lovin' you

Hey I'm gonna keep on lovin' you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on lovin' you"

The sparkling moved some more, sending loving pulses through the bond. Jetfire watched from the doorway unnoticed. It made his spark warm to see his family together.

"That's our song. No matter what, I will continue to love you little one. Even if I'm not around, I will still love you," Starscream said to the sparkling. "Both you and Jetfire. You're going to be strong mech, just like your sire."

"How's he doing?" Jetfire asked.

"He's happy right now," Starscream said, letting his mate touch his stomach. He suddenly started singing the song that played.

"Love me like no other
You have been the Savior of my life
You know my weakness
But see me beautiful through Your eyes

[Chorus:]
And You're the One that I need
The One who makes me complete
And You're the One who is strong
When I am crying and weak
And You're the One that I love
The One who never gives up
And You're the One that I need
You're the One, You're the One

Love me like no other
You make it easy for my heart to believe
And when I'm drowning
You're on the way to rescue me

[CHORUS]

I carry on without knowing how
I've never needed how I'm needing now

You're the one

Love me like no other
You're the one

[Chorus (repeat)]"

"I love you Star," Jetfire whispered, kissing the top of the seeker's helm.

"I love you too," Starscream returned.

On their 5th day, Starscream started to feel pain when he was talking with Alexis. The human got Red Alert, who took the Vosian to the medibay. The seeker cursed and cired, wishing it was the end instead of the beginning.

"It'll be at least an hour or so until you're ready," Red Alert said. "Do you want Jetfire here?"

"No. I'm still mad at him," Starscream grunted. "He has yet to shoe me he's truly sorry."

"Alright. Let's hope this is a quick one for you. Fliers tend to be at risk of dying during sparking," Red Alert informed.

"I just hope it'll be over soon. It hurts so much," Starscream whined.

"It'll be over before you know it," Red Alert chuckled.

~~~000

"How long has it been?" Jetfire asked, pacing around in the command center.

"You asked that 3 minutes ago," Blurr said.

"It's been over three hours now. What if his spark goes out? Will the sparkling survive? What if something goes wrong afterwards?" Jetfire worried. Red Alert walked in with a grin. The shuttle grabbed the medic's shoulders. "How are they? Are they-"

"They're just fine Jetfire. Both are resting right now. There was one complication with his spark but everything is fine," Red Alert informed the group.

"What is it?" Ironjack asked.

"He's a little mech," Red Alert answered.

"Can... can I go see them?" Jetfire asked.

"Of course. The rest of you will have to wait."

Jetfire rushed off to go see his mate and son. Starscream looked up from feeding the white and red sparkling. The shuttle mech went right to his side and looked at his son's bright blue optics.

"He's perfect Starscream," Jetfire whispered in awe.

"He is," Starscream agreed. "His name is Skyfire."

"I love it," Jetfire nodded, touching his son's helm. "Hello Skyfire. I'm your sire."

"Here," Starscream said, passing over the mechling. Jetfire held Skyfire close to his chest. The sparkling curled up and fell into recharge. "I forgive you Jetfire. I miss having you with me."

"Thank you Star," Jetfire said, retracting his mask and kissing his bonded.

That night Starscream's spark was flickering dangerously. Red Alert had put him on life support until his spark stabilized. He stayed on it for a few days as his body recovered. They were fortunate that the seeker was off it when the ship was attacked by asteroids.

"We can't get through. The asteroids are too close together," Sideswipe said.

"Try to keep it steady," said Hot Shot.

The new leader went outside and started firing at the large rocks. Megatron had the same idea, helping in clearing a path. When all the hope seemed to be gone, Sparkplug came out and held the Matrix high. Strange lights hit the artifact. The glow surrounding the minicon grew intense until it disappeared, destroying all the rocks in the way.

"What just happened?" Hot Shot asked.

"I don't know. The danger has passed now," Megatron said, looking around.

"Sparkplug?! Hey where'd you go?" Hot Shot shouted, but gasped in shock. "Optimus? But how?"

"I-I don't know," Optimus answered. "Primus must of had something to do with this."

"Well I must say it's good to have you back Prime," Megatron said, smirking a little. "I must get back to my men."

"Come on, everyone will be so happy," Hot Shot exclaimed.

Optimus laughed at Hot Shot's enthusiasm. It felt good to be back again. The younger led the older Prime to the command center. No one turned to them.

"We did it Bro. The asteroids are cleared," Sideswipe said.

"Well my little adventure came with a big surprise," Hot Shot boasted. Scavenger and the rest turned, all stunned at the sight.

"Auto-"

Optimus was cut off when Scavenger hugged him close. He manually released the mask and kissed him deeply. Optimus didn't move, enjoying the moment while it lasted. No words were said. The green mech managed to control himself, hesitantly moving back.

"I love you so much Optimus," Scavenger whispered. "Don't you ever, ever, leave my side again."

"I promise I won't," Optimus whispered back. "I missed you so much."

~~~000

"May I come in?" Optimus asked from the doorway of the medibay.

"Of course," Starscream nodded. He was holding a sleeping Skyfire in his arms. "I heard about your revival."

"Word travels fast. I came to speak with you," said Optimus. "Thank you for doing your best to help me. I was told of what happened while I was gone."

"It was no problem Optimus. I'm just happy to help," Starscream said. Optimus sat next to the berth, staring at the child. "This is Skyfire. I'm sure Jetfire was boasting all about him."

"He is happy to be a sire. Your son will be a strong one," Optimus smiled. "Jetfire should be here soon."

Starscream nodded at the now alive Prime and watched him leave. He had a feeling it was about to be worse. Swindle had talked to him about what was to come. The seeker didn't like the idea, but had to deal with it himself. Fate had picked the path and Starscream followed.

Chapter Text

~~~days later

"What is that thing?" Wheeljack gasped.

The monitors showed a giant, planet-like being in their atmosphere. The ship stopped, not getting any closer to Cybertron. Megatron and his crew boarded the Autobot ship, thinking of a solution to their problems. Starscream stayed silent, knowing that this is what Swindle was talking about.

"Hey that's Unicron," Rad exclaimed. "I recognize him."

"He looks tougher than I thought," Blurr shuttered.

"Unicron won't be defeated easily," Scavenger pointed out. "It looks like he doesn't have a weak point."

"Everyone has a weak spot," Starscream pondered. "It may not be on the outside, but rather the inside."

"What are you saying?" Soundwave asked.

"I'm saying that we must attack him from the inside," Starscream clarified. "It won't be easy getting to Unicron. I can see heavy defenses."

"We wait until there's an opening. Then we strike," Optimus said.

Starscream left the others as they planned. He went to his room just in time for Skyfire to wake up. Jetfire got up to tend to his son, but the Vosian beat him. Jetfire smiled and kissed the other.

"You should help them plan," Starscream said, sitting on the berth.

"You sure? I can stay," Jetfire said.

"I'm sure. They're going to need you," Starscream smirked. "I'll be fine until you come back."

Jetfire nodded and left to the command center. Starscream leaned back against the wall, staring down at the mechling. He knew that he had to act tonight while everyone was in recharge. Skyfire looked up at his carrier, cooing up at him. The seeker put on music, turning down the volume to help his son calm down.

Tick tock hear the clock countdown
Wish the minute hand could be rewound
So much to do and so much I need to say
Will tomorrow be too late

Feel the moment slip into the past
Like sand through an hourglass
In the madness I guess I just forget
To do all the things I said

Time passes by
Never thought I'd wind up
One step behind
Now I've made my mind up

Today I'm gonna try a little harder
Gonna make every minute last longer
Gonna learn to forgive and forget
Cause we don't have long, gonna make the most of it

Reach out to somebody who needs me
Make a change, make the world a better place
Cause tomorrow could be one day too late
One day too late
One day too late

Tick tock hear my life pass by
I can't erase and I can't rewind
Of all the things I regret the most I do
Wish I'd spent more time with you

Here's my chance for a new beginning
I saved the best for a better ending
And in the end I'll make it up to you, you'll see
You'll get the very best of me

Time passes by
Never thought I'd wind up
One step behind
Now I've made my mind up

Today I'm gonna try a little harder
Gonna make every minute last longer
Gonna learn to forgive and forget
Cause we don't have long, gonna make the most of it

Reach out to somebody who needs me
Make a change, make the world a better place
Cause tomorrow could be one day too late
One day too late

Your time is running out
You're never gonna get it back
So make the most of every moment
Stop saving the best for last

Gonna make every minute last longer
Gonna learn to forgive and forget
Cause we don't have long, gonna make the most of it

Reach out to somebody who needs me
Make a change, make the world a better place
Cause tomorrow could be one day too late
One day too late
One day too late
One day too late
One day too late

"It'll be hard for you tomorrow," Starscream said softly. "You won't understand what goes on. You're too young to know. Whatever happens, I want you to grow up to be a strong mech. I'll stay with you in your spark."

Starscream recorded a message before getting to recharge. Skyfire dozed off next to his carrier, clicking happily. Jetfire came in later, spotting his mate and child sleeping together. The music continued to play. Jetfire let it play just in case they weren't asleep.

Times are hard, times have changed
Don't you say
But I keep holding on to You
It's hard to keep the faith alive day to day
Leaning on the strength I've found in You

You're the hope of all earth

You are my hope
You are my strength
You're everything, everything I need
You are my hope
You are my life
You are my hope
You are my hope

Far beyond what I can see or comprehend
Etching Your eternity in me
Nations stream and angels sing, "Jesus Reigns"
And every knee bows down
You're the hope of all the earth

You are my hope
You are my strength
You're everything, everything I need
You are my hope
You are my life
You are my hope
You are my hope

Carry on and I sing of how
You love and I love You now
All the times that I start to sink
You come and You rescue me

You are my hope

You are my hope
You are my strength
You're everything, everything I need
You are my hope
You are my life
You are my hope
You are my hope

He picked up his son before taking him to his own berth. The mechling curled up in his blanket, sucking on a digit as he slept. Jetfire got next to Starscream and pulled him close to his body.

The world around me is lost in misery
The only good I've got in my life is you
No meaning, no other reason
When everything feels wrong I feel right with You

So madly, desperate deeply
Obsessed your love is better than mine to me
Can I have this moment forever?

Take me, to the beginning

You are what I believe
I'll live and die for You
This is all that I need
When nothing is real you are my truth

In the darkness You shine
Can You keep me safe tonight?

When I'm down on my knees
You are what I believe

When we started whole hearted
I never needed anything or anyone else
I was broken you made me whole again
The only one I trusted more than myself

So madly desperate deeply
I will live for you completely
Can I have this moment forever?

Take me, to the beginning

You are what I believe
I'll live and die for you
This is all that I need
When nothing is real you are my truth

In the darkness you shine
Can you keep me safe tonight?

When I'm down on my knees
You are what I believe

Believe in your love
Believe in your life
Believe that You can put me back
Together on the inside

Chase all the fear away
Every time I speak your name

Take me
You are what I believe

You are what I believe
I'll live and die for You
This is all that I need
When nothing is real you are my truth

In the darkness You shine
Can You keep me safe tonight?

When I'm down on my knees
You are what I believes

If only Jetfire knew that Starscream intended him to hear these songs. He didn't know that this could be the last moment he had with the red and white mech.

~~~that night

"Where are you going Starscream?" Megatron asked, scaring the seeker.

"W-who said I was going? Going where?" Starscream stammered.

"You can't lie to me," Megatron said. "You're going out there aren't you?"

"Yes I am," Starscream sighed in defeat. "I know what my destiny is. The dreams and minicons confirmed it. I am the only one who can defeat Unicron."

"What about your son and mate? And those who think of you as family?" Megatron asked with a hint of sadness.

"I've already prepared for that," Starscream answered. He pulled out two disks and handed them to his former leader. "Play these tomorrow when everyone is in the command center. Play the first one, then the second. It explains everything."

"Take care soldier. You will be remembered if you don't make it. But for the sake of everyone, please come back," Megatron advised. Starscream turned to leave, stopping to talk one last time.

"You take care as well Megatron. You have a family as well. Mine will need help. It was also a privilege to work for you. Work with Prime to make Cybertron better than what it was before."

The Vosian left with the minicons that wanted to help. The battle would be rough, but it was the only way to have the Cybertronian race live peacefully. Megatron stared down at the disks in his servo. He prayed silently that the soldier would live. He wouldn't admit it, but the seeker was his favorite warrior.

~~~that morning, command center

Megatron looked at everyone gathered around. He was waiting for Jetfire before playing the first disk. It wasn't long until the shuttle came in with Skyfire in his arms.

"Have, have any of you seen Starscream? Skyfire wants him," Jetfire asked.

"He left early this morning to do something," Megatron said. "These will explain everything."

'I'm sure you are all wondering where I went. I left to complete my destiny. I am the only one who can defeat Unicron A few minicons left with me, but I must do things on my own. I thank you all for welcoming me into this makeshift family. This may be the last time I have to say this; you all have made me happy. Thank you, and goodbye.'

Megatron ignored the glares and gasps. He simply played the second disk. A song could be heard in the background as he spoke.

'Life without taking chances
Is no kinda life at all
You gotta stand up for something
Even if you might fall

Jetfire, I'm sure you heard the first message. I wanted this one to be just for you.

Got to take that road
Wherever it might go
No matter where, no matter what
I want you to know, I want you to know

Take care of Skyfire and raise him well. He's too young to understand what's going on. I'm sure the family that we made will help as well.

I tried to do my best to do the best I could
I gotta give my all is what I had to do
I would do all again and that's the honest truth
I, I did it for you

By now, I'm most likely heading to Unicron's spark. When I first had the dreams, it ended with you dying. I explained it to Swindle and he told me it was a sign of what would happen if I didn't defeat Unicron.

Maybe I was crazy
I guess I was sometimes
Maybe its hard to change things
But I had to know what's right
Everyday you've got to live for too many
Please understand, I had no choice
It's what had to be, its what had to be

I didn't want that to happen.

I tried to do my best to do the best I could
I gotta give my all is what I had to do
I would do all again and that's the honest truth
I, I did it for you

I'm sorry. Please don't do anything rash while I'm gone. I want you to be happy.

And I had no choice
Its something that I believe
A dream that was driving me high inside of me

Find another if you wish, I won't mind. We will see each other again, hopefully not soon. I don't want you to die because I did.

I tried to do my best to do the best I could
I gotta give my all is what I had to do
I would do all again and that's the honest truth
I, I did it for you

Live a good life to its fullest with Skyfire. I love you, both of you.

Oh oh
I did it for you
I did it for you'

Jetfire felt his world crash around him. Scavenger took Skyfire from his friend before he fell. The SIC was going to lose his mate, and nothing but Primus' mercy could save him.

"It's your fault!" Jetfire shouted, scaring the young bots. "You never stopped him from going. His energon will be on your servos Megatron!"

"Jetfire... please understand," Megatron tried to reason.

"No! You could of stopped him! Why didn't you?! He's going to die! And you didn't do anything but stand by," Jetfire growled, hot, angry tears hitting the ground.

"Scavenger, Cyclonus, Soundwave, please take the young ones out of here. They don't need to hear this," Optimus softly ordered.

~~~inside Unicron

Starscream breathed heavily, Star Saber and Skyboom Shield in his servos. Unicron didn't know that he was there, but soon enough he will. Swindle and the Requiem Blaster minicons got closer to the seeker, fear shooting to their little sparks.

"I was thinking you wouldn't show up," a voice suddenly said. Starscream whipped around in surprise. "Welcome Starscream."

"Thrust. I knew something wasn't right about you," Starscream smirked. "You worked for Unicron all along, didn't you?"

"You're a smart one Scream," Thrust said. "I can't allow you to go any further."

"Funny. I was going to do just that," Starscream laughed. "Once I'm finished with you, I'm going to destroy Unicron once and for all."

Thrust didn't say anything. After a short break of silence he charged at the Vosian. Starscream moved to one side and knocked the offender away. Thrust stumbled, surprised at Starscream's defense. The seeker put on music to help him concentrate.

Death surrounds
My heartbeat's slowing down
I won't take this world's abuse
I won't give up or refuse

"That shouldn't be possible. No one has ever dodged that," Thrust gaped. "How did you see me coming?"

"Simple. You move too slow," Starscream taunted. He moved fast with his own sword to finish the tactician off. "You were suppose to be the best. I guess you aren't anymore."

This is how it feels when you're bent and broken
This is how it feels when your dignity's stolen
When everything you love is leaving
You hold on to what you believe in

Thrust choked on a scream as Starscream ran his sword through him. He conehead grinned on the inside and returned the action with a small blade. The red and white flier grunted as he stumbled back.

The last thing I heard was you whispering goodbye
And then I heard you flatline

No, not gonna die tonight
We've gotta stand and fight forever (don't close your eyes)
No, not gonna die tonight
We've gotta fight for us together
No, we're not gonna die tonight

"We must hurry," Swindle urged.

"Where's his spark?" Starscream asked.

"Just beyond that wall," Swindle pointed. "Unicron will try to stop you when you get close."

~~~Autobot ship

Jetfire paced around, staring at the large monitor that was displaying the Chaos Bringer. Starscream had blocked the bond again. There was no way for the shuttle to know if his other half was safe or not. The stress made everything slow down.

"Starscream will be fine Jetfire," Optimus reassured.

"How do we know? How can I be certain Starscream will be all right? He could be injured or dying. I wouldn't know if he's alive or not," Jetfire ranted. "I don't want to lose Star. Skyfire still needs him. I still need him."

"You'll know if he's dead," Scavenger said, placing a servo on his chest. "The break of a sparkbond is unbearable. Even with the bond blocked, you'll still feel it."

Jetfire didn't answer. The stress and tension in the air made time slow. It felt like forever with no sign of Starscream's success or failure. He silently prayed and begged to Primus to keep his other half safe.

~~~inside Unicron

"There is his spark," Sonar pointed out.

"Are you ready?" Runway asked.

"Yes I am," Starscream nodded.

"Sorry, can't let you do that," a voice echoed. Starscream looked at the shadowed figure beneath the large spark. "Been a while Starscream. Heard you have a kid now. Who's the lucky mech?"

"Sideways," Starscream snarled. "I don't know how you found out about that. Why are you even here?"

Break their hold
Cause I won't be controlled
They can't keep their chains on me
When the truth has set me free

"Well, as you can see, I'm Unicron. I made this body so that I may collect my creations," Sideways said. "Now I find that you brought my best ones to me. I thank you for that."

"You're going to have to fight me. There's no way I'll let you have these minicons," Starscream retorted back.

This is how it feels when you take your life back
This is how it feels when you finally fight back
When life pushes me I push harder
What doesn't kill me makes me stronger

Sideways chuckled darkly at the humility of the scene. A low mortal was going to fight him for the minicons' survival. Starscream ordered his friends back and took out his wingblade. Sideways made a blade and attacked with speed. The seeker barely managed to deflect the glowing blade with his own.

The last thing I heard is you whispering goodbye
And then I heard you flatline

No, not gonna die tonight
We've gotta stand and fight forever (don't close your eyes)
No, not gonna die tonight
We've gotta fight for us together
No, we're not gonna die tonight

"You're better than the last time I fought you," Sideways commented. "Your skills have improved greatly. I'm impressed."

"Or maybe you're out of shape," Starscream suggested. I can't die now. I'm too close.

Don't you give up on me
You're everything I need
This is how it feels when you take your life back
This is how it feels when you fight back

Sideways flipped over the other and managed to get in a few cuts before he was blocked again. He was surprised to see that Starscream was still fighting as if nothing happened. Swindle beeped in worry for his companion. The two continued their deadly dance of death until Sideways slashed Starscream's chest, showing his bright spark. The battle was won.

No, not gonna die tonight
We've gotta stand and fight forever (don't close your eyes)
No, not gonna die tonight
We've gotta fight for us together
No, we're not gonna die tonight

No, we're not gonna die tonight

"You lose Starscream. You'll die in minutes," Sideways sneered. "Shame really. I liked you too."

Starscream struggled to stay standing. He looked up at the large spark and knw what to do. He limped over to stand beneath it, aiming his guns up at it.

"Swindle! Powerlink with me now!" Starscream shouted. Swindle raced over and quickly lent his partner the power he needed. "Time to finish this once and for all. I win Unicron!"

Starscream released a large, powerful beam at the spark. Sideways howled in defeat and anguish. Swindle disconnected once the orb disappeared. The chamber around them shook and small explosions sounded from beyond.

"Quickly, we must find a way out of here," Starscream ordered. He and the minicons met up before the flames consumed them.

~~~Autobot ship

"Look, something's happening to Unicron!" Hot Shot shouted. "Starscream did it!"

The screen showed Unicron explode, parts of him floating around or hitting Cybertron's surface. Jetfire ignored the cheers, searching the monitor for any sign of his mate.

"Where's Starscream?" Jetfire asked, spark racing as fear grasped him.

"We didn't see any sign that he made it out," Sideswipe reported.

Jetfire took off to the hatch, going outside and zooming to what was left for any sign that Starscream was safe. He even shouted out his name, only to get silence in response. It was just like when Optimus died. That spurred him to search more.

~~~Cybertron

Starscream didn't move from his spot. He stared up at the night sky, the pain of his body keeping him down. The minicons were unharmed, leaving them to stay by his side. Swindle didn't dare move an inch. The others talked amongst themselves, knowing Starscream couldn't be saved.

"Swindle, please take the others and find the Autobots," Starscream requested, voice strained.

Swindle nodded and left his partner alone. The small mech told the others he was staying, not want the seeker to die alone. As he returned, he could hear the last song his partner would hear. It was a good one too. Starscream wasn't afraid, ashamed, or sad, but rather happy and at peace. He had died for a good cause and to save each Cybertronian life. It was an honorable death, just how he wanted it. He didn't fear death at all, instead accepting it when his time came.

In the end, as we fade into the night (whoa!)
Who will tell the story of your life?

In the end, as my soul's laid to rest
What is left of my body?
Or am I just a shell?

I have fought
And with flesh and blood, I commanded an army
Through it all
I have given my heart for a moment of glory

In the end, as you fade into the night (whoa!)
Who will tell the story of your life? (Whoa!)
And who will remember your last goodbye? (Whoa!)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die

I'm not afraid!
I'm not afraid to die!

Born a saint
Though, with every sin I still wanna be holy
I will live, again
Who we are isn't how we live
We are more than our bodies
If I fall, I will rise back up and relive my glory

In the end, as we fade into the night (whoa!)
Who will tell the story of your life? (Whoa!)
And who will remember your last goodbye? (Whoa!)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die

In the end, as you fade into the night (whoa!)
Who will tell the story of your life? (Whoa!)
And who will remember your last goodbye? (Whoa!)
'Cause it's the end, and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die

Who will remember this last goodbye? (Whoa!)
'Cause it's the end, and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die

I'm not afraid!
I'm not afraid to die!
Not afraid!
I'm not afraid to die!

"Take care of our family Swindle," Starscream said, voice growing more quiet as his optics and spark faded. "I guess this is goodbye. I'm glad I had you as my partner. I don't know what I would do with out you."

~~~000

"Any sign of him?" Optimus asked.

"Not yet," Hot Shot sighed. "The others haven't found anything either."

"Keeping looking," Optimus said. His com. link crackled to life. "What have you found?"

"The minicons sir," Blurr reported. "They know where Starscream is."

"All units, head to Blurr's sector. We found him," Optimus ordered.

Jetfire transformed and blasted off. He was next to Blurr in mere minutes. Red Alert pulled up seconds later.

"Mirage where's Starscream?" Jetfire questioned.

The Skyboom minicon pointed before running off, his trinemates behind him. Jetfire raced after the faster one, needing his mate. He stopped in sudden, unbearable pain. Red Alert asked Jetfire what he was feeling.

The shuttle didn't answer. Instead he ran towards Swindle, who was yards away. Laying there, unmoving to the world, was Starscream. Swindle silently cried, his voicebox clicking every now and then.

"Starscream!" Jetfire cried out, sliding to his mate's side. He touched him gently, swallowing his fear at the wounds. "Star? Hey it's me, Jetfire."

No response.

"It looks like we're too late," Red Alert whispered.

"Come on Star. Everything is alright now. We can go home," Jetfire urged. The truth of reality slapped him hard. "You won. That means you can't die. I won't let you. Please, wake up for me."

A warm servo touched his shoulder. Optimus stared down at the hero that saved them all. Red Alert could fix him to look like himself for the burial.

"I'm sorry Jetfire. He's dead," Optimus said softly.

"No! No don't say that! He's alive! He has to be!" Jetfire denied.

"I'm sorry," Optimus repeated. "He gave his life for all of us. He's one of Cybertron's heroes now."

~~~later

"We've repaired him the best I could," Red Alert sighed. Hook finished putting away the supplies used.

"You did your best. Thank you," Optimus said.

The two looked over at Starscream's frame. It looked just as new with thin weld marks. A soft knock echoed and Scavenger entered with a crying Skyfire. The mechling saw his carrier and reached for him. The green Autobot carefully sat the sparkling down next to the body before turning to the other three.

"I thought it would be best if Skyfire saw Starscream one last time. Soundwave was going to stay here with him for the ceremony," Scavenger explained. "Jetfire is still mourning. We'll have to take care of Skyfire for a bit until he's normal."

"I'll make some sparkling energon," said Red Alert.

"I will leave you to it. I just got a message that the remaining citizens want to know what happened," Optimus said, taking his leave.

Skyfire stayed curled up to the frame, not letting go as he cried himself to recharge. Scavenger felt pity for the sparkling. Not even 2 weeks old and already he lost a creator. Fate had killed the hope of a complete family for someone so young.

Chapter Text

~~~next day

"Prime," Megatron called out.

"Yes Megatron?" Optimus acknowledged. The green and purple leader shifted.

"There is a custom I would wish to follow. It's Vosian, but it's highly honorable to the one who has fallen," he explained, showing different colored cloths from Vos. "We wrap Starscream in these colors. Each one means something. Thundercracker and Skywarp are willing to explain them, as tradition, before he is laid to rest."

"It would be respectful if we did," Optimus agreed.

Megatron stepped up to the slab that four would carry. Optimus assisted with wrapping the fallen seeker completely in a certain pattern. The remaining brothers came as well as two other seekers. Word had spread quickly. They lifted the slab up and walked down the aisle of citizens. Once at the end, they gracefully set it down on the tomb to be lowered. Jetfire sat up front with dead optics. The pain was visible, even with his mask on.

"We are here to say farewell to Cybertron's hero again Unicron. He fell with honor to save all of our lives and futures. Starscream was a brave soldier and loving mate and carrier. Primus took him home with Him. We shall honor Starscream and remember what he did for our race," Optimus said, stepping aside for Starscream's brothers.

"Starscream was the leader of our trine. We promised each other that we would do the Vosian tradition when one is laid to rest," Skywarp began. "We begin from the helm down."

"Red represents the honor he received. Gold is his integrity. White over his spark shows his purity. Green is virtue. Blue on his wings ranks him a master of the sky. Yellow is..." Thundercracker trailed off, choking on his tears.

"Yellow shows he was a mate with family," Skywarp finished, turning to the body. "Rest well Sky Master."

The brothers stepped back. Jetfire didn't go up, unable to handle it. Megatron and Optimus lowered the seeker into the crypt and put the lid on top. When it was over, the only ones that remained were Jetfire, TC, and Skywarp. The air was thick with sorrow. Jetfire knelt next to the crypt, staring at the holostatue of his mate. He swallowed before speaking.

"I'm so sorry Starscream. I wished I had known about this before. I would of helped you. Why didn't you tell me? Why did you believe you could do this on your own? Did I mess up again? I wish I knew. Skyfire is going to miss you. He doesn't understand that you won't be here anymore. How could you? How could you leave us?! What did we do wrong?! Why did you have to die?! Why?! Why?! Why?"

~~~3 years later

An empty street
An empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone
The rooms are getting smaller

I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang together
Oh yeah
And all my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Over seas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

I tried to read
I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop
To keep myself from hinking
Oh no

I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang together
Oh yeah
And all my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Over seas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from my heart
You're all I'm thinking of
And reaching for the love that seems so far

so I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Over seas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

See you in a prayer
My sweet dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again
Over seas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

Jetfire stayed on his berth, trying to sleep just so that he can see Starscream through memories. It eased the pain in his spark. When he wasn't sleeping, he was drunk on high grade. Currently , he was staring at the ceiling, listening to Starscream's song list of Earth music.

I went to bed I was thinking about You
I ain't the same since I'm living without You
All the memories are getting colder
All the things that I wanna do over

I went to bed I was thinking about You
I wanna talk and laugh like we used to
When I see You in my dreams at night
It's so real but it's in my mind

And now I guess this is as good as it gets

Don't wake me
'Cause I don't wanna leave this dream
Don't wake me
'Cause I never seem to stay asleep enough
When it's you I'm dreaming of
I don't wanna wake up

I went to bed I was thinking about You
And how it felt when I finally found You
It's like a movie playing over in my head
Don't wanna look 'cause I know how it ends

All the words that I said that I wouldn't say
All the promises I made that I wouldn't break
It's…

All the words that I said that I wouldn't say
All the promises I made that I wouldn't break
It's last call, last song, last dance 'cause
I can't get you back, can't get a second chance

And now I guess this is as good as it gets

Don't wake me
'Cause I don't wanna leave this dream
Don't wake me
'Cause I never seem to stay asleep enough
When it's you I'm dreaming of
I don't wanna wake up

Don't wake me we're together just You and me
Don't wake me 'cause we're happy like we used to be
I know I've gotta let You go but I don't wanna be alone

These dreams of You keep on growing stronger
It ain't a lot but it's all I have
Nothing to do but keep sleeping longer
Don't wanna stop 'cause I want You back

Don't wake me
'Cause I don't wanna leave this dream
Don't wake me
'Cause I never seem to stay asleep enough
When it's you I'm dreaming of
I don't wanna wake up

Don't wake me we're together just You and me
Don't wake me 'cause we're happy like we used to be
I know I've gotta let You go but I don't wanna be alone

I went to bed I was thinking about You
'Cause I don't wanna leave this dream
It ain't the same since I'm living without You
'Cause I never seem to stay asleep

I know I've gotta let You go but I don't wanna wake up

The knock at the door went ignored. Megatron walked in, looking in disgust at the dimly lit room. High grade cubes, full or empty, laid around the room. He looked at Jetfire laying there on the berth with no energy.

"Jetfire, your son is wondering where you are at," Megatron informed.

"Don't care. Leave me alone," Jetfire said.

"You better care. Skyfire needs his other creator. You've been like this since his death," Megatron scolded. "Get your life together and start acting like a mech. 3 years you've acted like a sparkling. 3 years you left your son to us to take care of him. Starscre-"

"Don't say it! Don't you dare say his name!" Jetfire snarled suddenly.

"You leave me no choice," Megatron muttered.

The larger mech turned off the music. Jetfire protested, but was too drunk to do much. Megatron picked him up and dragged him to the memorial site near the edge of Iacon. Statues of great leaders, Primes, and heroes stood at attention, Primus' in the very center. Jetfire struggled to get loose, knowing right where he was. The other stopped at Starscream's statue, dropping the mech and slapping him hard.

"Look at the statue! Tell me, what will Starscream think of you right now? Sulking over his death for so long, not keeping your promise to him, and disgracing his final words to you," Megatron lectured. "He's watching you from the Allspark. It's time to start living again."

"You're right Megatron," Jetfire whispered, staring up at the statue. A song popped into his helm.

Always you will be part of me
And I will forever feel your strength
When I need it most
You're gone now, gone but not forgotten
I can't say this to your face
But I know you hear

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

When I'm lost, I'm missing you like crazy
And I tell myself I'm so blessed
To have had you in my life, my life

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

When I had the time to tell you
I never thought I'd live to see the day
When the words I should have said
Would come to haunt me
In my darkest hour I tell myself
I'll see you again

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

I'll see…

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

I will see you again
I'll see you again
I miss you like crazy
You're gone but not forgotten
I'll never forget you
Someday I'll see you again
I feel you walk beside me
Never leave you, yeah
Gone but not forgotten
I feel you by my side
No this is not goodbye

"Let's go back. I need to stop what I'm doing," Jetfire said. He struggled to his pedes.

"Good. I will be along shortly. I have to do something," Megatron approved. Jetfire stumbled his way home, ready to start over. The ex-leader looked up at the statue. "He'll be just fine now Starscream. I must admit we still miss you. The others are in mourning for today, marking the day you died. All of Cybertron will celebrate tomorrow in your honor."

"Megatron."

"W-what? Who's there?" Megatron asked, looking around at the sudden boom of a godly voice.

"Megatron, return to the place Starscream was found."

"Wait, who are you? Why must I go there?" Megatron questioned, needing answers.

"Go and wait. You will soon see why my child."

Megatron felt in his spark that Primus spoke to him. He rushed off to the place he was instructed to go. No one has been near the place since Starscream fell. Parts of Unicron still remained, along with the small crater made when Starscream landed.

"I'm here. Now what? There's nothing here," Megatron huffed.

"Listen."

Megatron obeyed, turning up his audios. Small noises caught his attention. The green and purple mech followed them, stopping short when he found what Primus wanted him to. Laying peacefully on the ground was one he wasn't expecting to see. The mech woke up, getting to his pedes and staring at the former warlord.

"Megatron?" he asked.

"I don't believe it," Megatron breathed.

~~~main HQ

"Good to see you back to your old self Jetfire," Optimus said.

"Yeah, Megatron knocked some sense into me. Literally," Jetfire laughed. "Where's Skyfire? And what's with the heavy atmosphere?"

"Skyfire is playing over there. As for today, well today is the day Starscream died," Scavenger answered.

Jetfire walked over to the mass of blankets, watching his son play. The sparkling laughed happily when he saw his sire. The shuttle picked him up, holding him close. Demolisher set his own sparkling down so that he could help with bringing in energon. Skyfire was set down next to Tailgate, the two clicking away.

"Three years is what Megatron told me. I've been like that for so long. I shouldn't of done that. Thank you for taking care of Skyfire. And I'm sorry for not being here," Jetfire apologized.

"You have nothing to be sorry about. We are all family," Optimus said. "You're here now and that's all that matters."

"Sir, we are now ready," Cyclonus said, cackling away.

"All right. Inform the rest it's time," Optimus said.

~~~Megatron's location

"How? We thought you dead," Megatron gaped.

"I never died. Primus took my spark for a bit to heal me. I've only been away for a few minutes," the mech said.

"Starscream, you've been gone for three years now," Megatron explained. "We believed you died and buried you."

"We'll I'm here now," Starscream said. "Primus has a sense of humor every now and then."

"The others will be so happy to see you. Skyfire has grown and Jetfire... well he can explain himself," Megatron chuckled. "Let us go. You're needed back with your family."

~~~HQ, honoring ceremony, 20 minutes later

"Today marks three years since Starscream died," Optimus stated.

"Man, it's been that long already," Hot Shot commented. "Kinda miss having him around."

"We all do," Demolisher added.

The door opened and closed. Megatron was ignored as he came in. Pictures of Starscream were put on an alter with soft lights around them. Starscream stayed silent, not wanting to ruin the surprise. Megatron was to go in first while he waited outside in the hall.

"I apologize for being late," Megatron said, hiding his excitement well. "I brought someone along."

The attention went to the door, waiting it to open. Megatron motioned it to reveal the surprise. Everyone gasped at the sight it brought upon them. Before Starscream could speak, he was tackled to the ground by a white blur. His scream was cut off by a mouth pressed to his own.

"Jetfire control yourself," Megatron laughed. The other got up as Megatron began to explain.

"I can't believe you're here. I missed you so much," Jetfire whispered.

"I missed you too," Starscream whispered back, managing to get back to his pedes. He faced the others as they greeted his return. "Where's Skyfire?"

"He's right here," said Soundwave, passing over the excited mechling. "Skyfire was well behaved after a week of you disappearing."

"MA!" Skyfire squealed, snuggling into Starscream's neck.

"Thank you," Starscream said.

"Of course. We're family," Optimus nodded.

"Hey Scream, what about us?" Skywarp asked.

"It's good to be back," Starscream laughed.

~~~that night

Starscream wriggled closer to Jetfire, their bodies still cooling down after renewing the bond. The shuttle resumed the playlist, knowing it would do his other half good.

When all you've got are broken dreams
Just need a second chance
And everything you want to be
Gets taken from your hands

We hold on to each other
All we have is all we need
'Cause one way or another
We always make it, you and me

This life can almost kill you
When you're trying to survive
It's good to be here with you

It's good to be alive
It's good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It's a beautiful night
It's good to be alive (It's good to be alive)
(It's good to be alive) It's good to be alive
(It's good to be alive) (It's good to be alive)

Driving down this highway
Soaking up the sun
Got miles to go before we get home
And the journey's just begun

We hold on to each other
You are everything I need
You feel…

We hold on to each other
You are everything I need
You feel like forever
You're a second chance for me

This life can almost kill you
When you're trying to survive
It's good to be here with you
It's good to be alive
It's good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It's a beautiful night
It's good to be alive

It's a beautiful night
Its all right
It's good to be alive

This life can almost kill you
When you're trying to survive
It's good to be alive (It's good to be alive)
(It's good to be alive) It's good to be alive
(It's good to be alive) (It's good to be alive)

And is good to be alive
its good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It's a beautiful night
It's good to be alive

It's a beautiful night
Yeah, its all right
It's good to be alive

Jetfire kissed the tired seeker's helm, trying to lull him into sleep. They had spent hours with Skyfire until the mechling fell asleep, energy all spent.

This time, this place misused, mistakes
Too long, too late, who was I to make you wait
Just one chance, just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing…

That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted, I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say
That I love you, I've loved you all along
And I forgive you, for being away for far too long
So keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it, hold on to me and
Never let me go, keep breathing
Keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it, hold on to me and
Never let me go, keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go

"Skyfire won't leave you alone when he wakes up. Well me neither. He has been staying near me ever since I was told, or rather demanded, to stop sulking around," Jetfire mentioned.

"Then explain to me what happened," Starscream said. Jetfire told a very brief version of what happened since his supposed death. "I'm glad Megatron knows how to deal with unruly soldiers."

"Unruly now?" Jetfire joked. "Well I was being stubborn, but not unruly."

"Says you," Starscream retorted.

So here we stand in our secret place
Where the sound of the crowd is so far away
You take my hand, and it fees like home
We both understand, it where we belong
So do I say, do I say goodbye
We both have our dreams we both want to fly
So lets take tonight, to carry us through the lonely times

I'll always look back as I walk away
Memories will last for eternity
And all of our tears will be lost in the rain
When I found my way back to your arms again
But until that day, you know you are
The Queen of my heart

So lets take tonight, and never let go
While we dance we kiss, like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down, like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment, till we meet again

But no matter how far, away you may be
I'll just close my eyes, and your in my dreams
And there you will be, until we will meet

I'll always look back as I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears will be lost in the rain
When I found my way back to your arms again
But until that day, you know you are
The Queen of my heart

I'll always look back as I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears will be lost in the rain
When I found my way back to your arms again
But until that day, you know you are
The Queen of my heart, oh yeah, yes you are

"You are truly in charge of my spark now," Jetfire muttered tiredly. He shut off the music for now to sleep. "Rest now. I have a feeling it's going to be a long day tomorrow."

"Night Jet," Starscream mumbled, already falling asleep comfortably.

"Night my Star," Jetfire replied back.

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