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Every one has their little ray of sunshine, don't we? Wheres mine? When will my knight in shining armor come to save me?  I guess I just gave up. 

Why don't people believe me? He is standing right there. He ins't dead. He is here. Why cant they see you? I don't want to with them! Mom! MOMMY! PLEASE!!! I'm not crazy! Tae's right there he's fine. MOM! MO--

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 Patients Name: Jung Hoseok 

Diagnosis: Munchausen Syndrome

- Makes up mental diseases to bring pity upon himself

- Occasionally attempted suicide

- Family whereabouts: Unknown

Age:24

Height: 178cm

Status: New patient

- Checked in today

- Voluntarily 

- Scheduled to stay 3 months

- Prescribed medication 

Living Status

Isolation: Use when needed

Room Number: 113

Roommate: Park Jimin/Kim Taehyung

“ Hey mama, You can lean on me now, always by my side, Hey mama, You gave to me unconditionally, You were my support, Hey mama, Now trust your son, you can smile, Hey mama”

Bright lights shining all around me. I can hear them call my name,"J-Hope" , but that's not me. I can see my face on the big screen behind me. I can feel the beat of the music run through me. Since when could I sing? I don't remember any of this but it seems so real. Like its actually me on this stage. I look across the wave of faces and there I see her, my mother. Oh how I missed her. This must really be a dream then, she would never show up to any of my performances. But this all feels so real, like its another me? In another life? J-hope, huh never thought of that.

I wake up from my mysterious dream felling overwhelmed by all the emotions from it but when I try to recall the dream I'm left with a blank. The light in the room is so bright. When did I open the blinds? When did I get a window?!?! I live in the basement!!  I shoot up from my bed and sit up right, I scan the room and meet a pair of gray eyes. I scream and fall off my bed onto the white tile floor, my forehead is met with the freezing cold tile. I pull myself and look at a familiar sight, I'm bleeding.

"Oh My God, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to scare you" The gray haired man ran to my side and immediately helped me up off the floor. He is a bit shorter then me but his smile. It has me in a trance, I never want to see it disappear. "Oh no, Its okay. I'm sorry I get scared easily." I could at him up and down, he is so small. It makes me want to never let him go, but ill never tell this beautiful stranger that. "I'm Jung Hoseok" I stretch out my hand for a handshake and I'm met with the cutest pair of hands. "Jimin, Park Jimin"

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I stare at him as he smiles at me. His eyes disappear into his smile. My heart skips a beat when a giggle comes from his mouth, then he stops smiling and looks at me with worry in his eyes.

“What? Is there something wrong” I ask

“You’re Bleeding” Jimin’s hand comes up to my face and cups my cheek while he wipes the drop of blood from my fall earlier.

“ Let me call the guard”

“No! Don’t! I’m fine”

“It’s okay. The guards like me and they only want to help”

They only want to help? That’s what they all say.

Jimin walked over to the tall white door. There was bars over a square slit in the middle of the door. Why? We weren’t gonna hurt anyone. I stare as Jimin has to get on his tippy toes to be able to see through the slit, I never loved small things more in my life. “Oh Kookie” says Jimin.

“Kookie?”

“What do you want hyung” a tall man with a bunny face shows up at the door. Is this the guard? He looks so young. Did he just say hyung?

“Kookie, Hoseok Hyung?” Jimin looks at me with a questioning look. When I realize what he is asking I nod. “Yeah Hyung is bleeding I think Jin should help him”

“Jin?”

“Oh so this is the new guy” I see the guard grab something from his belt and the next thing I hear is a click and the door is open. This “Kookie” is my height and from what I can see he loves the gym.

“I’m Jeon Jungkook, but everyone calls me Kookie. So you’re my new Hyung?”

I nod and look down at the floor.

“I think I scared him” Jimin said in a small shy voice. My head shoots up to look at him. Our eyes met and time stopped. We looked at each other for what felt like hours until the blood from my cut got into my eye. Then I really did think I needed to see this Jin guy.

“Did Tae tell you to do something”Jungkook asked

“Who’s Tae?” My facial expression changes. Who are all these people?

“He did not kookie. And that is not important Seokie.” My face turned tomato red at the sound of the nickname and I’m met with another smile from my little Jiminie. Jiminie? I didn’t think I’d find people like him anymore.

“So I guess I need to take you to Jin-Hyung now”

I look at the guard who looks uncomfortable. I look back at Jimin, his whole face is bloodshot red and he is facing the floor. I stifle a cough and say “Um okay if you say so”

“I’m going too”

I turn around to see Jimin in a pout. My heart sank to my stomach. I would’ve gave him my left kidney if he made that face.

“That’s fine Hyung, but you need to be quiet everyone else is sleeping. We don’t want namjoon Hyung to find us”

“Namjoon?” I look at Jungkook confused. Who are all these people? The website never mentioned them.

“He is the head guard” Jungkook responded “He’ll make me do the night shifts for months if he finds me. The people here are great and all but this place is still super creepy.”

“Oh I see” I looked down confused.

“Well let’s go then” I look up and Jimin flashes me a smile. Why is he in here? There isn’t anything wrong with him. Who’s Tae?

“HEY! Earth to Hoseok!”

“What?” I look at Jimin who was snapping his fingers at me.

“You kinda just spaced out there. I think you might have a concussion”

“Nah, I’m fine. I just need a band aid and I’ll be fine”

“If you say so but I’m not letting you sleep. Can’t have you dying on me before we become best friends” Jimin said. Him and Jungkook started walking. So I followed after them. I walk down the white hallway and see a door with a little metal slot. I stop to look at the door. I reach out with my hand and a chill runs down my spine at the contact. Jungkook wasn’t joking when he said this place is creepy.

“That’s the room for solitary confinement.” Jungkook says. “That’s for the people who either need punishment or who cause harm to others. Currently no one has been put in there. I’ll really get scared if we have to use it.”

I wonder what’s so bad about the room. It seems to be giving off this bad vibe.

“Yeah there’s a rumor that someone was once forgotten in there before the hospital opened” Jimin said

“Yah Jiminie stop you’ll give me nightmare” I said. Jimin started giggling

“ You know that isn’t what happened.” Jimin stopped laughing and his face flushed of all color

“Hey Jimin, are you okay?” I say, Jimin looks really different then he was a second ago.

“Yeah, I’m fine. Just got the chills right now that’s all. Let’s hurry and go.” Jimin starts to speed walk away. Me and Jungkook share a concerned look and go after him.

We walked into the cafeteria and are met with a blood curdling scream. On instinct I run to the scream and am met with Jimin being lifted into the air by a handsome man.

“Hyung put me down your shoulders are crushing me” comes from the crushed Jimin.

“Yah brat let me be happy and love you for once”

“Never”

“Oh well, I guess I’ll have to do this then” and the taller man’s hands snake down to Jimin’s sides and out comes the giggle of an angel from the younger male.

“Alright hyung you’ll have to put him down before Mr.Min gets us in trouble”

I turn around to see Jungkook giving a disapproving look to the older man holding Jimin.

“Jungkook-ah is that any way to talk to your hyung. Why, I practically raised you”

“Yeah, Yeah. hyung I know im incapable of being a human being without you now can you please help Hoseok.” Jungkook starts to point at my blooding forehead and the older man's eyes widen at the sudden realization of my presence and my condition.

“Oh honey, I didn't realize you were there. I’m sorry. I’m Kim Seokjin, I’m the basic mother of this place but I get paid for being the chef”

“I’m Jung Hoseok, it’s a pleasure to meet you”

“Likewise” Jungkook claps his hands “Now that we know each other can you get him cleaned up before yoo-”

“Before I what?” A smaller male walks into the cafeteria with a tall dark man following behind him in the same uniform as Jungkook. So that’s Namjoon. He looks a lot nicer than Jungkook said he was, but who is the smaller guy?

“Nothing Mr.Min” Jungkook does a full 90 degree bow “I was just bringing the new patient to Mr.Kim so he could clean up his cut”

Mr.Min? He is the owner of the hospital? He looks so small.

“What happened to him?” Yoongi turns to look at me and sends a glare that sends shivers down my spine.

“I scared him earlier and he fell off his bed hyung. I’m sorry, I didn't mean to” I turn to see Jimin staring at the floor with a pout and watery eyes. The sights makes my heart clench and I can feel the sting of tears in my own eyes. Why can the sight of him bring me to tears? What’s wrong with me?

“Oh Minie, it’s okay. I’m sure it was a little cut” Yoongi brings Jimin into a hug. “I’m sure Jin-hyung will just have to clean the cut and then I could arrange an appointment for him, okay?”

“An appointment?” I say and look confused at the pair

“Oh I’m sorry, I didn't introduce myself” the man kisses Jimin's temple, releases him and walks towards me. “I’m Min Yoongi, I am the owner of this hospital but I am also the head therapist here” I look at him with a confused expression. Why is he a therapist too? Did he fail at being a doctor so he decided to open his own hospital and act like one?

Yoongi turns and smiles at Jimin, but as soon as he faces Hoseok again his smile disappears.

“So I guess you’ll be the one in charge of my prescriptions then”

“Excuse me?”

“Correct me if I’m wrong, but you’ll be the one to prescribe me medication, right?”

“If I need to then yes”

“Oh okay” I don't want to take medication again. It never works.

“Well my little Yoongi I better clean that cut so he can see your magical therapy skills”

Yoongi rolls his eyes as Jin swings an arm around Yoongi’s shoulders.

“And you Joonie why so silent?” Jin says as Namjoon looks at Jin but just shrugs and walks away.

“What’s wrong with him? He is never like this” Jimin says as he looks worriedly as Namjoons figure.

“He is having problems with his girlfriend I guess” Yoongi says and shrugs “I expect you to be in my office in half an hour” Yoongi walks towards Hoseok until he is a few centimeters from his ear “And dont be late or you’ll see how scary this place really can be”

Did he just threaten me? Is that legal?

“Whatever he said don't believe him. He is a huge wimp” Jin says and grabs a first aid kit from a cabinet and starts to clean Hoseok's cut.

Jungkook walks Hoseok up to Yoongi’s office.

“Well I guess I’ll see you in a little bit hyung” Jungkook says and walks off.

Hoseok walks up to the door and grabs the handle and it met with a screeching sound in his ear and a flash of Lights.

The sound of crowds screaming. The beat of the bass blasting. The dizziness of performing. All strike him at once. But why? How? And then nothing. No more screaming. No more dizziness or lights of vibrations. It was as if nothing happened. The door swings open and startles Hoseok.

“Hoseok what are you doing”

“I-”

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And the Billboard Music Award goes to...BTS.
All I hear is screaming, I feel the adrenaline rushing through my body as I walk up on stage with six other bodies. Why are they so familiar? It’s as if we have met before, but I can't remember where. “Hyung. We won!!!” “I know Jimin-ah!!!” Wait Jimin? “J-hope give a speech” That voice is so familiar. Yoongi? “Yeah hyung you got this” Jungkook? “Even though I’m the one that speaks english” Namjoon? “Yah, you're supposed to be the responsible leader not a whiny brat” Jin? “I think he’ll do great. Go on hyung” Taehy-
“Hoseok wake up”
I get up from my bed in my room with Jimin is looking at me with a worried expression.
“What’s wrong my little Jiminie?” I step towards Jimin and get an ear splitting shriek ringing through both of my ears and fall to my knees. I groan as my knees touch the cold floor.
“Jungkook!!!! GET! JIN! NOW!”Jimin comes running to me from his bed and immediately pulls me into his embrace. I feel myself get engulfed in heat and the noise stops. All I can hear are my rough breaths and Jimin’s heart. It’s beating so fast. He must be worried for me. I’m so sorry my Jiminie.
I grab onto Jimin's shirt and pull him into my body. A little squeak escapes his lips and brings a smile to mine.
“I’m fine now Jiminie. I’m sorry if hyung scared you.”
He grabs onto the font of my shirt. “I was scared hyung” Jimin buries his face into my chest.
“Ahhh Minie, it takes more than whatever that was to bring down your hyung”
I could see Jimin's blush from the nickname I called him as he pulls back to look up at me. He is so cute! Is this what being whipped is?
“Hyung I’m just worried, okay.”
“Okay Jiminie I understand. I’m sorry I scared you”I pull him into my chest again and stroke his hair.
“WHAT HAPPENED?!?!?!?! WHO DIED?!?!?!” Jin screamed while barging into the room. He looked at me and Jimin on the floor. “Nevermind. Go back to fucking on the floor” he said and started to walk out.
“Wait hyung!” Jimin jumps up and grabs Jin’s arm “Something happened and he fell down. Can you check on him?”
“You guys do realize we have an actual nurse?” Jin says as he kneels down in front of me and brings out some medical gear.
“Yeah hyung but she doesn’t look half as good as you” Jimin says with a wink.
“You’re right!” Jin says and winks at me. “I can cure my patients illnesses with my medical skills and mend their hearts together with my breathtaking looks”
“They’re breathtaking alright.” Jimin mumbles to me and we both giggle from Jins curious expression.
“Yah brats my ears are ringing. You guys are taking shit, huh?”
Jimin gasps at the comment “Hyung watch your potty mouth. Don't you see Hoseok is the literal sun. We can't have bad energy like that around him” Jimin finishes with a wink towards me and I can feel my face burn up.
“He looks more like a tomato to me” Yoongi says from the doorway.
“Tomatoes are bright too, hyung!” Jimin says and crosses his arms.
“Whatever you say but I still need to talk to Hoseok” Yoongi walks over to me and Jimin and pats Jimin's head.
“I thought I talked to you yesterday” I look up at yoongi confused.
“You passed out yesterday hyung” Jimin looks at me with worry in his eyes.
“Yeah I had to carry you” Jungkook says as he walks into the room with a smirk on his face. “You’re lighter than Jimin-hyung”
“Jeon Jungkook, are you calling me fat?”
“You said it not me” he says and winks at Jimin
“I swear if you weren’t a guard I would beat you” Jimin says with a little giggle.
“Hey I can report you” Jungkook says crossing his arms
“I’m already right here why would you need to report it?” Yoongi says with a serious expression.
“It was a joke hyung” Jimin says while pushing on Yoongi’s shoulder.
“Oh. I thought I had to report another session with Taehyung”
Jimin immediatly stops smiling at the sound of the name.
“Who is Taehyung?”
“Hyung you didn’t tell him?” Kookie says while nudging Jimin
“No and I’m not going to”Jimin says and walk to his bed.
Jin continues checking up on me “Well Hoseok is fine, he is just low on sugar and dehydrated”
“Thanks Jin-hyung, Mr.Min I’ll go with you now”
“Alright let's go” Yoongi says and immediately head for the door “Jimin I’ll need to discuss with you sometime this week about him “
“Okay hyung. See you in a bit Seokie” Jimin says before he covers himself up with the blanket.
“See you in a bit Minie”

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“Hyung help me with my mixtape”

“Hoseok you need to do it yourself”

“But we are the unbeatable Sope”

“Ouch that totally doesn’t hurt” Namjoon says from the couch in Yoongi’s studio.

“Namjoon you’re too smart for me to understand” I say. Why aren’t I scared of talking back to Namjoon?

“What’s that’s supposed to mean Jung” Yoongi turns around in his chair and looks at me with a raised eyebrow “Am I not smart enough to be on Namjoons level?”

“Awe Hyung I didn’t mean it like that. Please just help me”I get on my knees and pretend to beg.

“Fine get up I’ll help you, but you’ll have to get Jiminie to sing for one of my tracks” Yoongi says as he swerves back in his chair.

“My Minie does whatever he wants” I say as I cross my arms.

“What is this defiance? That’s it, sope is gone I’ll just turn into my true form. A rock!”

“NO! HYUNG! HELP!” I throw myself on Yoongi.

“Just help him Hyung, you know he will keep bothering you” Namjoon says as he looks up from his phone unamused by the elders behavior.

“Fine. What’s it called anyway?”

“It’s called Hope World”

“-seok”

“Ho-seok”

“Hoseok”

“Hoseok! Snap out of it”

I feel someone shaking my shoulders.

“Huh? Yeah, what is it?” I look up at Yoongi from my seat.

Where am I? Why am I sitting?

“Mr.Jung, I believe you blacked out since our meeting in your room,”

Blacked out? I don’t remember anything. This never happened before.

“Has this ever happened before Mr.Jung?” Yoongi says as he walks back over to his desk which I directly in front of me.

“I don’t think so” I look down at the floor.

How long was I like that? What was I thinking? Why did I see Namjoon and Yoongi? Who’s sope?

“Hmmm. I see.” Yoongi says with a blank expression. He opens one of his drawers and pulls out a notepad.

“I’d like if you would tell me if you experience any loss of time or blackout moments.”

I nod at him

“For now I’ll prescribe you some medication to help with the dizziness and loss of sleep”

How did he know I couldn’t sleep?

“I want you to stay and rest for a little bit before you go back to your room”

“Okay Mr.Min”

“Hyung is fine.”

“Okay hyung.”

~Jimin P.O.V.~

“Hyung whats wrong”

“I’m worried for Hoseok”

“Why? He is with Yoongi-hyung. He’ll be fine. Besides if something happens to him you’ll still have me”

“I know that Tae but still, Hoseok is different”

Taehyung laid down on Jimin's bed “I still think there is something wrong with him”

“Well obviously. Do you not realize where we are? It’s not exactly Chuck E. Cheese.”Jimin climbs off his bed to sit cross legged on the floor

“Ouch Hyung. Words hurt you know.” Taehyung says as he sits up and cross his arms and looks down at Jimin.

“I know.” I sigh and look at Tae “I’m sorry. It’s just-” I bring my knees to my chest and look at the floor. Why am I so flustered at the thought of Hoseok.

“It’s what?” Taehyung raises his eyebrow and looks at me suggestively

“Idk Taetae” I scrunch up my face. Why are words so hard?

Taehyung stages a gasp “Does my little Jiminie have a crush!?!?!?”

“Who are you calling little I’m older” I stand up and cross my arms, looking Taehyung straight in the eyes

“Yeah by like two months” Taehyung scoffs and stands up from the bed.

“You’re still my little Jiminie tho” Taehyung says as he tries to ruffle Jimin's hair.

“Tae I miss yo-”

“Jimin who are you talking to?” Hoseok says as he leans on the door frame.

“No one Seokie”

“Wow, you’re just gonna reject me like that” Taehyung says as he crosses his arms.

“Jiminie, who are you looking at?”

I tear my gaze away from tae and look at Hoseok

“Huh? What?” I look at him confused.

“Oh! No one hyung. I thought I saw a bug. I don't like bugs” I force a laugh out. I can feel my stomach start to hurt. I hate lying, but Hoseok is the only person that looks at me without pity in his eyes. I don’t want that look to go away.

“Are you sure? I thought I heard someone else in here with you” Hoseok says as he looks around.

“He heard me?!” Taehyung looked at me and we both looked equally surprised.

“Who are you looking at Minie?” Hoseok walks over to me and ruffles my hair and catches me off guard. Hoseok retreats his hand and looks down at Jimin with a serious expression.

“Jimin, who is Taehyung?”

“He is no one” I look down at the floor.

“Jimin, why?” Taehyung looks at the floor and I see tears run down his cheeks.

“ Jimin. It still hurts.” Taehyung grabs his side.

“NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! Not again!” I reach up and grab my hair as i feel the familiar sting of tears in my eyes.

“Jimin! What’s wrong?” Hoseok grabs my side and looks me in the eye.

“ Hyung! It hurts! Please!” blood stains his white clothes.

“Jimin look at me” Hoseok grabs my chin and forces me to look at him.

I look at Taehyung and he is ten again. And laying on the floor.

“Hyung, where are you?” Taehyung's voice echoes through my head. Tears fall down my cheeks. I can feel a burn from the stream they leave on my face.

“Hyung. Why did you leave me?” Taehyung's whisper comes from behind me. I feel the shiver run through my body. I freeze on the spot. My breathing and heart rate starts to speed up

“Jimin.” I look up at Hoseok. He is looking directly behind me with a scared expression.

“Was someone here just now?” I look up at him with shock and push him off me and run out the door.

“Jimin!” I run as fast as I can

“Jimin!” Hoseok is right behind me chasing me “Stop! Jimin! It’s Okay!” his voice dies down at the end of his sentence.

I turn around to look at him and he is slowing down. He stops and looks at me in the eyes and falls backwards into the floor

I run towards him and hold him in my arms.

“Joon! Kookie” I scream as loud as I can.

“Help! Please!”

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“Sorry Bae”
I watch as Namjoon and Yoongi walk across the stage. They look so cool up there with their mics and outfit.
“Yah Seok are you gonna come up here and practice or what?”
“Yeah hyung, it's the rapline cypher. Not a rap with just me and Yoongi-hyung.”
“Nah you guys look cool up there. I’ll just wing it up there tonight.”
“Wing it my ass, you’re coming up here and practicing now” Yoongi oes and grabs my hand from stage and tries to pull me up on stage with him. I groan from the pain in my shoulder.
“Seok-ah, are you hurt?”
“Just a little hyung, but I’ll be fine just keep practicing”
“Joonie keep practicing I’m gonna go with seok to get some drinks”
“Okay hyung”
“Yoongi you don’t need to-”
“Shut it Jung”
I look down at the floor and walk with Yoongi to the break room at the stadium. It’s our first big Stadium concert and i Had to practice all night and hurt myself. Great.
Yoongi grabs a ice pack and a muscle relief patch from his bag.
“Here” he hands me the ice pack. “Off with the shirt”
“Gosh hyung, at least take me to dinner first” I say with a faint laugh at the end. Then I start to remove my shirt, I stop when yoongi looks at me in the eyes and then behind me.
I hear the door close. I watch as Yoongi’s eyes widen as he looks at the person behind me. I hear a sob and I immediately turn around to the sight of Jimin covering his mouth as tears fall down his cheeks.
“Jimin-ah what’s wrong” I say as i read out to grab him.
“What happened?” He screams back at me.
I flinch from the tone of his voice.
“I’m fine Jiminie, a hurt shoulder won’t take down your hyung.” I say with a smile.
“SHUT! UP!” I try to look him in the eyes
“Yoongi-hyung, can you go get my bag from Tae please?”
“Okay” and Yoongi leaves me and Jimin alone in the room.
“Jimin, I’m sorry.” I watch as he bites on his bottom lip.
“I had to perfect my solo performance and I went too far”
“Hyung, you always tell me to know where my limit”
“But Jiminie I-”
“There is no excuses hyung!” Jimin looks up at me with tears in his eyes. “What if you got hurt? I wouldn’t be able to help you” Jimin drops to the floor “I would never forgive myself if you got hurt hyung!”
I feel the tears fall down my cheeks. I kneel down next to Jimin and pull him into my chest.
“Don’t do it again hyung, please?”
“I won’t”
“Do you promise?” Jimin pulls back from y arms and looks up at me. I put my hand at the top of his head and kiss his forehead.
“I promise”

I shoot up from my bed with tears in my eyes. I look st the figure that is slouched in a chair next to my bed, laying its head on my legs.
“Jimin?”
The figure gets up and looks at me.
“Hyung! You’re okay.” Jimin screams as he jumps up at me. I get pulled into a bone crushing hug.
“Why wouldn’t I be Minie?”
“Hyung why are you crying?” Jimin’s hand comes up to cup my cheek. I feel my face turn a deep red.
“Oh no, I think you’re getting sick too. Your face is burning up” Jimin says as he looks at me with worry in his eyes.
“No, I’m okay Minie.” I pull his hand away from my face and place them in his lap.
“What happened yesterday?” I look up at Jimin expecting an answer.
“I was running and you went after me and fell”
“Jimin that wasn’t what I was asking.” I try to look him in the eyes but he keeps avoiding my gaze. “Why did you run out like that? Who’s Tae? Who was it that I heard in the room yesterday?”
“I-” JImin was interrupted by a knock on the door. There was another knock then Jimin went to go open the door.
“Ah Jimin-ah you’re in here with Hoseok”Yoongi says as he walks into the room.
“Is there something you need, Hyung?” I say as I wipe away the tears from my face.
“I need to talk with you again.” Yoongi turns to look at Jimin “Jiminie can you give us a minute, please?”
“Okay hyung. I’ll be back when you’re done.” Jimin walks out of the room leaving me and Yoongi alone in the room.
“So Hose-”
“First off, I am not going to answer any of your questions until you answer mine. Got it?”
I say as Yoongi looks surprised and then crosses his arm.
“Alright go for it. Ask away.”
“First who is Tae?”
“Jimin hasn’t told you?” Yoongi looks away surprised. “Well, Tae was his friend growing up.”
A friend when he was younger? Like an imaginary friend?
“His name was Kim Taehyung but Jimin just calls him Tae. When they were six Tae got into an accident with Jimin. Jimin blames himself for Tae’s death so he created his own ‘Tae’ to cope with it”
I look at Yoongi with a confused expression. If he is fake, how did I see him?
“That is why Jimin is here. Happy now?”
I shrug
“Alright now it’s my turn to ask you questions. What happened yesterday?”
I look at him confused. What did happen yesterday?
“I honestly don’t know what happened”
“What do you mean you don't know what happened? You just passed out. That isn’t something a normal person does.”
“Well I do kinda have thi-”
“No you don't. You have nothing you told me about. You’re not depressed. You’re not schizophrenic. You’re fine. No one is even holding you here. You could leave right now if you wanted to.”
I look down at my lap.
“Silent, now? What happened when you were telling all the stuff that was wrong with you, hmmm? I swear I-”
A knock on the door interrupts Yoongi. I feel tears start to develop in my eyes.
“We aren’t done here Jung. We still have to figure out why you keep blacking out.”
Yoongi opens the door and lets Jimin in as he leaves the room.
“Hoseok, why are you crying?”
I lay down in my bed and bring the blankets up to my face
“My head just hurts Jimin, I think I’ll go back to sleep right now.”
“Oh” I turn to see Jimin pouting at the floor.
‘Ugh he looks so squishy.’ I open up the blankets and pat the side of the bed. Hoping Jimin will get the message.
Jimin looks up at me and his whole face brightens and he jumps in the bed with me.
“Awe Jiminie is so small I could just carry you away right now in my shirt and no one would notice” I say as I tickle his side. The most angelic giggle left his mouth. He starts to snuggle into my side.
“Hyung kookie would notice. He asked me if you would go to the gym. Do you?”
“Nah that’s a lot of money that I don't have. I used to be a professional dancer, until-” I look down at Jimin as he starts to wrap an arm around my waist.
“Until what?” Jimin says as he looks up. I swear that should be illegal.
“Nothing Jiminie. Let’s go to sleep now”
“Okay hyung, Night?”
“Night Jiminie”

Chapter Text

~Jimin P.O.V.~

“Caught in a lie! Find me when I was pure, I can’t be free from this lie. Give me back my smile; caught in a lie! Pull me from this hell, I can’t be free from this pain. Save me, I am being punished.”
“That’s a bit morbid” I turn to see Jungkook handing me a water from his backpack.
“How do you even find a bag so big?” I look at the huge bag he puts down. He shrugs at my question.
“Who wrote your solo hyung?” Jungkook says as he drinks his banana milk.
“Does it matter?” I say as I grab the bottle from him. “You can’t be drinking this before you sing”
“So? It’s just practice” Jungkook says as he tries to snatch the bottle back from my hand.
“Kookie you are supposed to treat practice as the real thing” I turn to see Hoseok walking towards us with his clear bag.
Seriously what is up with everyone’s bags?!
“But Hoseok-hyung! I didn’t get to drink some last night” Jungkook says as he tries to use his puppy dog eyes.
“That isn’t gonna work today Kookie. I am the one with the milk not Hoseok.”
“I’m gonna tell Jin-hyung”
“Then you will be a snitch and snitches get stitches.”
“I can lift both you and Hoseok, hyung”Jungkook says with a flat voice.
“Touche” I say as I give Jungkook back his milk. Jungkook runs off to go find Tae as soon as he gets the milk.
“You know you would be a terrible mother” Hoseok says as he leans his head on mine.
“You know you lost as soon as he looked at you” I say as I push Hoseok off me.
“I’m not his mother. I am just the cool uncle”
“More like the annoying one that everyone invites because he brings food”
“Your words hurt me Chimmy” Hoseok says as he puts his hand over his heart.
“Oh no!” I stage a gasp. “Hobi the sun is hurt.”
“Ha Ha real funny” Hoseok says with an eyeroll. “Can we go get food now?”
“Fine but you have to carry me”
“I’ll take that offer. Come on, hop on” Hoseok says as he squats and waits for me to jump on his back.
“Lets go” I say as I settle myself on Hoseok's back. I can smell his shampoo. My heart flips when I hear a faint giggle escape his mouth.
“Alright Minie, lets go”

I wake up from the weirdest dream feeling lost but happy at the same time. I turn to my side and hear a groan come from someone that isn’t me. I freeze and feel an arm wrap around my waist.
‘Who am I sleeping with !?!?’ ‘When did I fall asleep’ Where is Hobi?’
Hobi?
“Oh sh*t” I cover my mouth as it starts to get a mind of its own. I fell asleep with Hoseok. Hoseok's arm is wrapped around my waist. I must be dreaming, maybe I’m just dead.
“That’s right, I’m just dead.”
“Hmmmmm what?” Hoseok mumbles. Nope, I’m alive.
“I’ll be back Hobi” I whisper as I wiggle out of his arms.
“Okay baby” Hoseok mumbles as I cover him with the blankets again. My whole face turns red at the sound of the pet name. He must be really tired.
I walk out of the room and look to me left and hear chatter down the hall. I walk towards the familiar voices. I see Seokjin and Namjoon talking through a crack from the open door.
“Joonie you can’t keep getting hurt like this.”
“But hyung with your magically nursing skills you can always nurse me back to full health.”
“You’re just trying to get out of a lecture” Jin says as he cleans the cut that has formed on his eyebrow. “Seriously, how is it that you were able to cut your face by drinking water?”
“Well-”
“It was a f*cking plastic cup Joon” Jin says as he put the bandaid on Namjoon.
“I think it’s a skill”
“More like a curse, nothing can surprise me if it’s from the god of destruction” Jin says as he smiles at his masterpiece. I try to hold in my laugh when I see the bandaid, it’s a pretty pink bandaid with a princess crown on it. Of course Jin would have those patterns on his bandaids
“Well I got to get back to work, gotta buy my girl something to make up for the fighting” Namjoon says as he stands up and straightens out his clothes.
“Why do you even stay with those girls? There is so many people in this world that could treat you better” Jin says as he turns away from Namjoon to put away his first aid kit.
“Well when you find one of those people why don't you hit me up, but for now I am with my babe” Namjoon says as he exits the room through the other door.
“If only you opened your eyes maybe you’d see me for once you idiot” Jin mumbles as the door closes behind Namjoon. Jin leans against the counter and starts to sob.
“Hyung?” I say as I walk into the room. I see Jin trying to stand up straight and wipe his tears with the back of his hand.
“Ah Jiminie, what are you doing in here? You scared hyung” Jin says as he turns around and tries to fake a smile.
Jin has been working at the hospital since it opened. I could tell his smile was fake just by the way he breathes.
“Hyung, you and I both know you suck at acting” I say as I pull him into a hug. I can feel him come undone. Jin starts to sob again, his tears start to leave wet marks on my shirt. “So how long have you been in love with Namjoon?”
“How long have you been a dumb*ss?” Jin barks back.
“Hey! I’m trying to help. If you’re just gonna be a brat then I’ll just leave” I say as I pull away from Jin and start to walk towards the door.
“2 years” I turn to see Jin curling up on himself.
“Awe hyung” I walk back over to him and pull him towards me. “It might help if you talk about it” I say as I start to pet his hair. I could smell his shampoo, he always smells like peaches.
“Since when were you Yoongi?” Jin says with a faint laugh, his attempt to make it seem like he is fine.
“Since when do you want to not talk about yourself?”
“I’m sensitive Jimin, leave me alone” Jin says as he tries to hide his face in my shirt. I start to run my fingers through his hair.
“Hyung, it’s okay. Just talk to me.” Jin finally pulls his face out from my shirt and looks up at me.
“Why?” I see the tears fall from his cheeks. I can see all the pain behind his eyes.“Why did I have to fall for him? Why couldn’t I do as my mom says? Find a pretty girl and just settle down. She told me to never work here.” he mumbles the last part. “Sometimes I wonder if she was right, if I really was a mistake”.
I slap him. Jin looks at me and then stares at the floor.
“Don’t be a f*cking idiot Jin” I stand us up and pull him into a hug. “You’ve only fallen in love not killed half of Korea, and if your looks were a mistake then everything in this world was a f*cking disaster. I don’t think something that pretty could’ve been a mistake.” Jin finally hugs me back and I feel him relax. I can feel tears start to fall down my own cheeks. “Now why don’t you tell me about it, it would help if you just talk about it”
“Sure Jiminie, but I don’t know where to start” Jin says as he pulls himself away from me and walks towards the counter with with first aid kit. He pulls out some pain killers and downs them without any water.
‘He must really want to suffer right now’
“How about when you started to like him?” I pull Jin towards the middle of the room. I look around for chair for us to sit but the room is completely bare. “First off, where are we?”
“I honestly don’t know, Joon just pulled me in here so I could clean his cut. It looks like they are gonna add a break room to this ward. We can just sit on the floor, Yoongi doesn’t like walking to this area, so he won’t walk in on us.”
“Okay hyung, now when did this start?” I point at his heart. Jin lets out a loud groan.
“Where do I even start? His voice when he raps, they way he gets when he finds a small flower in the garden. His smile Jimin, those f*cking dimples. I swear they are gonna be the death of me.” I can feel my eyes roll by themselves.
“That’s not what I asked”
“Fine. I think I realized my feelings for him when the power went out about two years ago. I was with him when it happened”
“Wait, there was a power outage?”
“Yeah it happened at night, while everyone was asleep”
“Makes sense, I would’ve remembered that”
“It was the day you lost it Jimin” Jin says with a flat tone.
“Oh” I say as I look down at the floor.
“Yeah sorry babes, but he was so nice. He even comforted me”
“Why don’t you tell me what happened then.”
“Well I was cleaning the kitchen late that night when I heard a loud noise coming from the guards break room. I thought someone was breaking in so I went to go check, when I opened the door Namjoon was on the floor with a busted lip.” Jin lets out a faint little chuckle at the memory.
“Doesn’t surprise me that Joon would bust his lip”
“Yeah I still don’t know what he was doing, there was a ladder on the floor next to him and he let out a groan. I swear that man should’ve been illegal, but I ran to his side to help him up. He gave me his sheepish little smile. I asked him what he was trying to do, all he said was that he couldn’t remember. So I checked him and made sure he didn’t have a concussion. When I went to take care of his lip all the lights went out, then there was thunder. It scared the sh*t out of me, I ended up jumping when lightning stroke outside. Joon tried to catch me when I jumped and he ended up bringing us both down. I landed on top of him, and it was like the sappiest drama ever. I looked him in the eyes and it felt like time stopped, I accepted that I was royally f*cked. At that moment, I knew that I was in love with Kim Namjoon” Jin curls up on the floor.
“Well you could’ve had a worse story” I say as I try to get Jin to get more comfortable.
“What could be worse than falling for your coworker, who is straight!” Jin starts to tremble and cry again.
“Got me there hyung” I pull Jin into a hug again.
“Don’t fall in love Jiminie” Jin says as he wipes his tears away
“I’m sorry to say this hyung, but I think I already did.” I avoid Jins stare, I’m too scared to see his face.
“It’s Hoseok isn’t it” My eyes widen at his comment. ‘I guess I’m not subtle’
“Wh-what n-no” I can feel my face turn completely red
“You’re stuttering. Last time you were stuttering like this you tried to hide the fact that you took Jungkook’s banana milk, so spill. I spilled my f*cked up feelings to you now it’s your turn”
“Ugh hyung, you’re being mean” I lay down and pretend to be dead.
“Nice try but we both know it takes forever to sleep and if you were dead it would’ve been from Namjoon trying to cook and he hasn’t done that in ages”
“Shhhh” I say as I raise my hand but keep my eyes closed, “I’m Tae now.”
“We both know that Tae is five times louder than you and he would’ve stolen all of my candy by now”
“Fine” I say with a groan as I pull myself off the floor to face Jin “What is it that you would like to know about Sir Jimin’s crush on Jung Hoseok” I bow and pretend like I’m not about to throw up. ‘How long has it been since I’ve liked anybody?’ ‘Is this even a crush?’ “I’m just going crazy”
“Oh honey me too, but now you have to tell me your ever dying love for Jung Hoseok, so spill.”
“What do you want to know?” I stare at Jin as he makes his concentrated face, he is probably thinking of ways to make fun of me.
“Is he straight?”
“I don’t know” I look at the floor ‘Is he straight?’
“Well me and you can just mope around and be depres-” Jin immediately covers his mouth when he realized what he was gonna say. The staff don’t like to mention the disorders that the patients experience. I guess when you see people who have been suffering so much they had to be hospitalized saying things like that could actually start to hurt. I’ve known Jin the longest out of the rest of the staff so little things like that won’t bother me but it’s still nice to know that Jin cares about it. I grab Jin’s hand from his mouth to bring it into mine.
“It’s fine hyung, you know that stuff doesn’t bother me.” I say with a sweet smile
“Still, these can be difficult topics. We already lost one patient when that word was used as a joke, I don’t want to see anyone experience something like that again.”
I pull Jin into a hug. “I know hyung, but since when were we talking about sad things, I thought we were gonna talk about my love for my new roommate.” I smile at Jin as he looks up at me “Speaking of him, I left him alone in the room. What time is it?”
Jin pulls out his phone. “It’s 11:02pm, you gotta go back to bed. This conversation isn’t over, you should go back to your room tho. There isn’t any extra beds in the hospital ward rooms.”
I look at Jin with a blank expression before I feel my face turn red. “I should go back to Hoseok's room, I was kinda sleeping in the bed with him” I say with a small laugh. ‘God I’m so embarrassing’
“And here I thought I was gonna be a sad little noodle with you, pinning over relationships that were probably never gonna happen and you’re already in bed with Hoseok.” Jin starts to laugh as I feel my entire body flush over color yet turn as red as a tomato at the same time. “I’m just kidding Minie, go back to bed already. I don’t need a lecture from Yoongi about how his favorite patient is sleep deprived” Jin puts a hand on my back and shoves me out of the room into the hallway
“I’m not his favorite patient”
“That’s to discuss next time, but for now don’t tell him about your feelings for Hoseok for now, okay?”
“Okay hyung, goodnight”
“Goodnight Minie” Jin kisses my forehead. The sweet little gesture draws a giggle out f me as I hug Jin and start to walk back to Hoseok's room. I open the door and poke my head inside the room, ‘He is still asleep’
“Yes”
“You know you should be more quiet or you’ll wake someone up” Tae says as he walks up to my side.
“I’m not talking to you right now” I face away from Tae and walk towards Hoseok’s bed.
“You know I can’t control it, why are you blaming me?”
“Let me just have this ‘me being mad at you’ till the morning, please?”
“Okay hyung, then I’m mad at you too” Tae says as he crosses his arms and walks out of the room. I laugh at his little pouty stomp away, I climb back into Hoseok’s bed and feel his arm wrap around my waist and I feel slumper tug my eyelids down. I sigh and let hoseok's breathing lul me to sleep. ‘So this isn’t a helpless fantasy then, right?’