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Katsuki, Tsuyu, uraraka and Izuku were on a mission to escape the dorms to go to the arcade just outside of the school.    

"Guys I'm having second thoughts about this" Tsuyu whispered.    

 "Me too guys" Izuku backed up.

"OH come on you fucking wimps we are almost at the fence" Katsuki growled

 "And wasn't this your idea Izuku?" Katsuki retorted                           

"Yeah it was..but what if we get caught,we would get in serious trouble" Izuku wisperd.

"Come on you fucking nerd we are already here!"katsuki growled.

And with that he lifted Izuku up and throwed him over the fence, Ochako and Tsuyu follow shortly after.

"I feel like such a rebel" Ochako wisperd to herself excitedly.

"Hm so I guess breaking out is easier then breaking in I mean the domatries are designed for break ins not break outs maybe I should tell the teachers about this flaw" Izuku mumbled to himself

"Don't you fucking dare you idiot!" katsuki growled with a higher tone.

"Bakugo be more quiet" Tsuyu said without even looking at him.

Of course Bakugo looked furious and was about to come at her with a retort but stopped when he heard a squeal.

"OH!! were here, it's so big!" Ochako said excitedly rushing towards the big glass door,without thinking about the others.

The others cought up to her near the entrance. Izuku slowed down a little to observe the building,The arcade was a two story building with a lot of lights and noise from the arcade games,as they walked through the doors and into the lobby and were already bursting with excitement to play the games.

"Okay so maybe we should stay together guys " Izuku declared and turned around to see no one, they already left, Of course.

Izuku sighed as he started scanning over the place, he found Bakugo first a first person shooter. He then found Ochako and Tsuyu, they were already at the cafeteria on the other end of the arcade.                                                       

"Fine be that way" Izuku sighed and then looked up to see a all might plushie crane game, he was at the machine within seconds, What did you expect anything else?

within a half an hour Izuku had gotten 3 different All might plushies, a golden age All might, a Modern all might and finally a All might in a pikachu costume. And still no sight of his friends.

"I should go look for them" Izuku murmured to himself,satisfied with his catch (although it solid cost about 2000 yen), but before he went on his way he carefully arranged the plushies in his yellow backpack.

With that Izuku started going for the cafeteria to look for Tsuyu and Ochako when suddenly a hand grabbed him from behind, surprised Izuku struggled to move away from the hand,but it was in wain he had a too good of a grip on him he started to call for someone but then another hand appeared and Izuku felt another four fingers wrapping itself on his neck, this was all too familiar feeling making Izuku freeze in fear.

"Shit" Izuku wimperd  as he saw black mist beginning to form and his bison started to go blurry from the lack of oxygen.

he saw the faint out line of Kacchan walking by and Izuku tried to call out but nothing came out but a small wimper then he tried reaching one hand out to him but it was soon seized and placed behind him painfully then Kacchan passed past him, he hadn't seen nor heard him. Tears in his eyes Izuku tried with all his might go struggle free, but then the pressure became on his throat, now there was hardly any oxygen left in his lungs and everything went black.

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I woke up feeling pain everywhere I tried lifting my head up but my neck hurt to do so but I manged to look around and saw that I was strapped down to a metal table.

"I have to escape" was the only thing going though my head, my mind was going a mile a minute.
But first I have to calm down, I took a deep breath and looked around my surroundings, okay so it must be the villain alliance that took me, none else is known to have a black mist quirk.
The room is dark so I can hardly see anything but it has no Windows and appears to be kinda big, maybe he's underground?

All of a sudden a flood of light filled the room and blinded Izuku.

"Hah took you long enough" he heard a familiar tierd voice say.
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shiragaki.

"I was getting tired of waiting for you to wake up" he said sounding like he was bored, "I'm surprised how easy it was to get you, if only you had been obedient and stayed at the school where it was safe you wouldn't be in this situation, but then if you hadn't I wouldn't have managed to get you." he chuckled to himself.

"Where are my friends!" I said worried if he had done anything to them.

"Not here" he said dryly "but" (I started to shiver) "I just left them a present while I was there anyway." He said while starting to grin,

"a nomu to be exact" he chuckled.

I started worrying for the worst for them, even All might had a hard time with one.

"Alright then enough small talk and let's get to the point..the reason why I brought you here" he declared

"I'm going to have to have you tell me everything you know about All might" he said

"How do you know If I would know anything about him?" I asked trying to sound like I knew nothing.

"Our spies has seen you and All might are awfully close compared to a regular student and teacher" he said smirking

"I have to avenge Sensei" he said thought his teeth. "And to do that I have to find All might's weakness...and his successor"

I froze, I can't let them know I'm his successor no matter what!

That is to say if he doesn't already know.

"Now then" Tomura said while picking up a knife,

"let's get started shall we?"

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I felt fear rushing through me as Shigaragaki Tomura, slowly walked towards me. The knife glinted from the light above me, the only thing to be heard was his footsteps echoing through the room.

My breathing began to be more rapid as I felt as if my heart was about to burst out of my chest out of fear.

I dreaded what was to come, I didn't to even try to look away from the villain in fear of what might happen if i looked away. As Shigarki Tomura was suddenly right beside me I froze stiff.

"Now now, you don't have to be so nervous, I just want to ask you some questions" he whispered in my ear and I felt Goosebumps rising on my arm.

 I felt something cold against my collarbone and gulped loudly, I felt the sweat running down my face as I felt it pressing down on my skin with stinging and pain. 

A slither of liquid began to trail down my chest.

I coughed as I tensed my throat and I was reminded of the soreness of my throat. With that he started asking, "what is your connection with All might?".

I avoided eye contact and kept trying to look somewhere else but then a sharp pain aroused on my chest area,

"you know you are making this harder on yourself  right?" he inquired as he continued to slide the knife slowly down my chest, seeing the hidden pained expression on my face he pushed a little harder obliviously trying to make me fess up sooner.

"I'll ask you again, What is your connection with All might?" he asked again as he pulled on my hair raising my head painfully up,

"WELL?!?" he screamed into my ear as I started hearing ringing and then he dropped my head and it slammed into the metal table.

The ringing in my ears made it difficult to find out what was happening at the moment, but as soon i felt a stab in my leg as i hastily regained my senses, i looked down to find Shigaraki pressing the knife in my wound and twisting it. The pain was too much and i screamed a hoarse scream as i started trying struggling away but it only made the pain worse.

"Oh so you still have your voice don't you?" he said mockingly as he twisted the knife out of the wound and I screamed in pain as Shigaraki threw the now bloody knife onto the ground and walked over the door.

"That's enough today so i'll just send you away" He stated as he pressed a blue button and started walking over to me again, He took a little detour though and walked to the table and picked something up.

I couldn't see what as he was facing away from me, but then everything froze as I saw what he was holding, A syringe. I immediately started trying to squirm away futilely as he walked closer to me and  reached for me and grabbed my arm, it felt as though time was speeding up and i started hyperventilating, seeing my obvious distress Shigaraki sighed irritably.

"Oh don't be such a baby" he hissed as he squeezed my arm tighter as he pricked the needle in my arm and emptying it.

"see that was not bad was it?" he mocked.

My eyes started welling up with tears I saw a nomu standing right behind him, that which i failed to see because of what just happened.

"alright Nomu take him to the camber" Shirgaraki simply ordered as he turned away and was suddenly gone.  Everything was starting to be blurry and I felt drowsy as the nomu took me up and flinged me over its shoulder and starting to walk away. I was too tired to struggle and was starting to feel numb everywhere. So i just closed my eyes and let myself drift into sleep.

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I woke up alert and stiff in my body I felt tugging at my hands and found that my hands were hung up by chains, but only low enough that I could still sit,I looked at my feet and saw that i was sitting down and only my left foot was chained to the wall. I looked over at the prickling feeling in my hand and saw a angry red dot on the crook of my arm.

my stomach churned suddenly and I started vomiting on myself, it feels so disgusting but  there's nothing I can do about it, 'shit why do i feel so awful? I can barely remember what happened'.

My head is so foggy.

I look around and find to myself in a small room with one door, and no windows, I wonder how I got here. I remember being drugged, I hope there aren't any bad side effects. my arms were getting numb and I really need to go to the toilet but there is no way to get to a toilet nor do I see one. Should I throw away my dignity?, no I'll hold it in.

I sat there and tried to think of a way out, but nothing is looking too bright right now, how long have i been locked up here?

Suddenly i heard a rattling as the door opened, blinding light hit me in the progress. All I could see a silhouette of someone, then as I looked up and saw a strange man in a white coat walk in.

He went straight to me, not saying a word. He raised my head by the chin and inspected my neck. It burned and ached like hell so I flinched and tried to move away as he touched it, but then the man let go of my head and took up a case and started rattling through it.

I tried turning my head to see what was in it and saw him take up something from the suitcase, a white tube with a blue cap, he squeezed some of it’s contents on his hands and then massaged it onto my neck. It feels so soothing but still I have to be cautious since he must be working for the villains. The man then pulled up a bottle with clear liquid out of his case and uncapped it. He moved the bottle towards my mouth but I didn’t do anything, the man looked annoyed and moved his arm away and whispered

"all right then have it your way then" he then forcefully put his hand on my jaw and pried it open, I tried to close my mouth again but he then stuffed the throat of the bottle into my mouth and tilted my head to make the liquid pour down my throat.

I coughed and gagged from the sudden liquid pouring down my throat.

Wait, is this water?

I looked at the man questioningly as he released my jaw and removed the bottle out of my mouth. He then put the bottle beside me and started walking out of the room. I tried calling out to him, but my throat throbbed as I tried to speak, only a small wheezing came out. With that the door locked shut and darkness engulfed me again. It let me there on the floor now wondering what just transpired, it feels like a couple of hours since it happened but it could have been minutes or a day I have no way of knowing.

It was impossible to tell time like this, no visual or sound ques. The only sound I heard was my raspy breathing and the occasional footsteps outside. I tried passing the time but could not think of anything so I just started mentally counting the scars on my hand, It's harder than you would think in this lightning. I fell asleep somewhere around 20 .

I woke sometime later felling groggy and hungry.

I looked around me, and sure enough I was still in this hell hole, it started to stink here and i just wanted to take a good shower and eat my mom's homemade meal.

Mom?, My mom! oh god she must be worried sick for me, how could I be so horrible. I still hope she is doing okay. Drawn away from my thoughts  I heard the echo of footsteps approaching near and the creaking of the door as it opened up and the light blinded me one more. I heard the footsteps grow nearer as I tried peering my eyes open to see who this was, and to my horror it was shigaraki. I glared up to him as he was just a few steps away from me, I froze when i saw what he was holding in his hand, a fricking flogger.

"now no need to be frightened here little Izuku this is just in case you do something stupid" he lazily explained as he grew nearer to me. I flinched when he called me little Izuku, it felt revolting.

"I bet you are starving right?" he teased as he reached for his pocket and took out a energy bar.

"Do you want this?" he asked wawing it in my face. I had a small stare off with him but finally nodded my head as I felt the sting in my stomach from hunger, I needed as much energy as I could get if I have any hope of escaping.

"Well then..you'll have say "feed me please" if you want it" he teased as he wiggled the bar in front of my face.

"what?! no! " I growled back as he moved the energy bar away from my face.

"well then you won't get any food" he said as he suddenly lifted his his hand up and whipped me on my injured leg.

I screamed in agony as my almost healing wound was ripped open again and new bruises forming on my skin.

"I've been thinking how fun it would be to fuck you up" Tomura declared as his voice grew near.

"That's why i brought this with me" he whispered in my ear as he whipped my leg with that damned thing again, I gritted my teeth as blood began seeping through my pants and tears starting falling down my face.

"I'll ask again, do you want the food?" he demanded as he drew away from me just to look down on me. I finally answered a weak "yes" and with that he kicked me in the gut making me lose my breath for a while.

"I didn’t hear you,what did you say?" Shigaraki asked as he grabbed my hair and tugged it slowly, forcing me to look into his eyes. I'm so ashamed about what I'm about to do but I haven't eaten for what feels like days.

"Please feed me" I said weakly as my tears started flowing faster down my cheeks.

"Alright then" he said as he opened the bar and shoved it into my mouth. The dryness and bad taste in my mouth made it hard to eat but I sucked it up and ate the whole thing.

"Alright then, see you in a couple of days" he declared.

”Wha-“ I started to ask but then he took some rubbing alcohol and poured it onto my leg, it shocked me speechless  as pain started rising in my leg I started to cry.

 The door then closed again and darkness engulfed me again.

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I began to feel numb in my hands,the chains rattled besides my ear as I tried to move my arms but couldn't do it. It hurt to do so like when you get really bad pins and needles. Still i wonder if I'll ever get out of here.

  'No stop thinking like that! I'll get out of here' I'm trying to stay positive but everything around me just feels like my world has floated away. My mouth feels very dry and I wonder how long it's been since I last drank water, I think it was 3 days ago or something. I had the water bottle that the guy gave me but it got knocked over when I tried reaching for it with my feet some time ago, I began to feel dizzy a few hours ago and I'm starting to fear that i'm going to die from dehydration, I don't remember exactly how long you can go without water but I think I'm getting close to the check point. I think I'll just sleep for now.

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 "Izku-kun, Wake up."  I heard a soft voice whisper to me as i lay in bed, it feels too good to go out of my bed sheets. "Izuku ,come on you'll miss breakfast" My mother softly said as she nudged me awake. 

" alright mom i'm coming" i answered her sleepily as i got out of my bed, wearing my all might pajamas, my mom had already left for the kitchen but when I got there she wasn't in the kitchen,

"Mom?" I called out softly as I looked over to the living room and saw my mother sitting on the couch with her head held down,

" Mom are you alright? did something happen?" I asked as i quietly approached her slowly,but then suddenly the floor feel beneath my feet and I was plunged into darkness I fell until I arrived at what looked like the dorms.

I saw nobody there, it looked abandoned. I walked towards the boys side of the building and started walking the my way towards my room, when I opened the door to  the room it was empty and felt cold.

'where is my stuff?' I asked myself and walked into my supposed room. when I got inside I saw something in the corner,it was my hero notebook,except it wasn't burned or damaged at all. I walked forward to go pick it up and opened it but it was blank...I suddenly heard sobbing and I  turned around to see my mother on the floor crying.

"Why did you leave me all alone?" she cried.

"Where are you? i was supposed to protect you but i failed to do even that" she sobbed as she clutched something in her arms, I went to reach out my hand to comfort her but couldn't move, I was frozen in place as I watched my mom bawl her tears out in front of me I heard a scream and then...  and then I woke up

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I woke up with a jolt and was crying as much as I could in my dehydrated state and sore throat I quickly started trying to stop the tears and sobbing, then I sat there in the darkness, alone and scared.

I heard footsteps by my door and I lifted my head up, hoping that someone was coming, but none opened it. I wanted someone to come inside, I wanted someone to be with me, Even if it would be a villain, even if they were here to hurt me I just really wanted someone here right now, even if they just stood in the corner doing nothing it would be better then being alone.

But I was all alone in this dark place. it's a really small room, I never took note of that until now. What if I'm stuck here for the rest of my life? inside this small box, what if I die here and no one will be able to find me. I started felling cramped and began hyperventilate as i started panicking and struggled with my restraints.Shaking the shackles as much as i could, I began to feel blood dripping down my arms as my dry skin started cracking at my wrists from the pressure of the cups. I flung my arms as much as I could, I was starting to feel the pins and needles in my arms and a burning sensation in my arms as more and more blood began seeping down and splash onto the floor. Suddenly the door flung open as the damned light blinded me and I closed my eyes and stopped my movements.

"sheesh can't you be quiet kid?" I heard a voice ask me. A voice A actual voice!.

I started crying with joy of human contact as the man kicked my in the abdomen, I let out a winded breath as I looked up to the unfamiliar man looking down on me.

"wow you sure look beat up" he stated and then held his nose.

"And you stink too" he wrenched.

"lucky for you i have just the quirk" he said as he lifted his arm and started spraying water on me out of his palm. I was puzzled at first but then registered what was happening and opened my mouth to get some of the cool liquid to soothe my thirst, as I was blissfully unaware as a figure approached behind the man and was approaching me. I was tugged out of my paradise to find myself face first on the ground, Shigaraki had apparently disintegrated the handcuffs, I groaned as I felt my feet and arms returning to me painfully, I couldn't feel my arms.

Internally panicking i started trying to sit up when i was suddenly flipped over to my back and held down by other villains,I never see any of them coming, and then my shirt was ripped of, (at least what was left of it), and put over my head. I know this.... Nonononono I tried struggling away but I couldn't move my arms i couldn't feel them and my feet and hands were pinned down by 4 villains as I struggled more to get away but..

"let it pour" Shiragaki ordered and I felt water splashing on my face. I felt like i was drowning accidentally breathed in and coughed as the water entered my throat and up my nose. this lasted for 20 seconds and then my t-shirt was taken off me and i was pushed to lie on my side. I coughed and hacked as I tried to remove unwanted water out of me and breathe again. I felt shigaraki tugging my head up by the hair and asked me,

"Now are you willing to tell me your connection with All might is or do you want me to do that again?". I began to dread as I progressed the question and started trembling violently.I don't want that again I don't but i cant say it I cant I can't but if i don't it will happen again.

"DO YOU WANT TO IT AGAIN?" he asked irradiated and moved me onto my back again.

I was too slow to answer and my shirt was put over me again as I struggled even more dreading and knowing what came next, I held my breath and waited. one second passed, then two, four,six, ten. nothing happens. I open my mouth to breathe that's when the splash came. I was suffocating as I began to feel the oxygen going away, My chest hurt and another splash came and water went down my nose it stings I can't breathe I'm going to die. I'm going to die here. suddenly the cloth was removed and I was flung painfully to my side. Gasping for dear life as I lay there panting and crying. everything hurt. It hurt to breathe. It hurt to move. I felt the tugging again and was raised to my knees.

"do you want to tell me something?" he eerily asked as he stared straight into my eyes.

"I'm all might's" I started but then I started coughing, that only earned me a slap to the face.

"Spill it out already" he hissed at me as he tugged my hair more.

"I'm all might's Student and he is teaching me to use my quirk since they are alike" I wheezed out in one breath as I was dropped harshly on the wet ground, instinctively I moved away from the puddle as I backed into the wall.

"So he was giving you private lessons outside of school hours?" he questioned me, I simply nodded my head as I tried hugging my knees but couldn't still move my arms properly.

Shigarki walked towards me and I tried shrinking into myself, hoping he would go away.

"well your answer?" he inquired as he moved closer to me.

"yes" I answered quietly as I looked up to see him merely a meter from me.

"Yes what?" he asked.

"Yes,Sir" I said hesitantly.

"good, but I wan't to hear a different answer" he said as he moved closer to me with a strange look on his face.

"I wan't you to say, yes master" he whisper sadistically.

I felt the Hair on my neck stand up. as he gripped my neck and started whimpering and sweating.

"well?"he asked.

I looked at him for a brief second ,the sadistic grin plastered on his face, but then closed my eyes and started saying "yes.." I felt the pressure on my neck tighten as i continued "Yes...Master" I said as the pressure went and I coughed and felt tears fall down.What? Why? why did.

"bind him" Shigaraki ordered as I felt my hands being being tied together with a cloth then I was suddenly pulled up, standing on my feet for a mere 2 seconds, then I fell. He tugged at me once more by the rope and I was on my feet again barley, now lasting 3 seconds, I fell again.

"You wimp I'll just drag you if I have to" I heard the man say as he started dragging me away from the room. I tried standing up again but couldn't find the balance so I just let myself be dragged away. being dragged down a hallway I looked around but all I could see was white walls and the occasional door. Suddenly we stopped and a door opened and I was thrown in there landing on my side I felt the cold floor beneath me as shigaraki walked towards me and pulled on my quick made restraints. He dragged me towards the middle of the room as I spotted a bed and I was thrown on it and binded to the head of it. After that shigarkai stood up and started walking away.

"please don't leave me alone" I begged but instantly regretted it as he stopped and turned around and glared at me.

"Do you think you have the privilege to ask something from me?" he asked as he walked towards me pulling out a knife and grabbed my left foot

"I'm sorry I wont, I'm sorry I wont ask you anything again" I begged desperately as he pulled my pant leg up and placed the knife at the back of my ankle.

"I'll have to teach you a lesson" he growled as he sliced my ankle.

I felt pain and I cried as blood began to seep out of my foot. I lay there crying  while shigaraki relesed my cloth restraints and placed them around my ankle to prevent me from bleeding out and walked out of the room.

leaving me alone bleeding and crying as I began feeling lightheaded. I tried to reach for my ankle, I can't seem to move anything. 'Shit how could this have happend'. I saw a blanket on the bed so I tried with all my might to get it and I actually got it, I draped the blanket over me as I decided to just curl into it and cried myself to sleep.

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I probably only slept for half an hour becouse I felt like I hadn't slept in two days, I felt a shiver go up my spine when I felt the damp blanket that was on top of me, I pushed it off me and if I were a girl this is propably how they wake up somedays.

I felt pain almost everywhere, my sore throat and cut ankle,bruising at my side after being tossed around and my still healing wounds from other insedents, it was agony to move so I just lay there staring at the ceiling.

"I wonder if anyone will come to my rescue" I wondered outloud.

"Propably not" I heard a voice say.

I lifted my head up and saw that there was someone standing in the door way.

"There's no saving you now you know?" The man said again.

"Your stuck here, so atleast we'll have some fun with you now" I heard behind me as I was suddenly blindfolded and flipped over to my side, I screamed as I felt the wounds being reopend on my chest and then my hands were tied toghether and bound behind my back. I pleaded them to stop and screamed at them to let me go but then they gagged me and had their way with me.

After what felt like days they undid the binding to my arms and walked out with a sicking "see ya real soon" and then the door slammed shut,I immededly spat out my gag and just lay there horrified as to what had happened my mouth dry from screaming into the gag and my thighs wet with what I guess is my blood and wrists hurting after all the futile struggling I did and my back aching from the abuse I just recived. After a while I finnaly took my bindfold off and faced reality, that is crying my eyes out, why would this happen to me?

I got a sudden cold chill as I snapped awake ,only to find that i was being soaked again by that water guy, i suddenly burst out and i crawled away to the edge of the bed and became a wimpering mess. 

"Wow no need to wake up and start some trouble" I heard shigaraki say as he moved closer to me but i inched away further and further the closer he got.

"Huh then be that way" he scowled as he turned back and signaled the Lacky to go out and i was left alone with shigaraki. He walked thowards me, grabbed my arm then hauled me up out of the bed as he then threw me on the ground he then say on the bed and just looked at me. It was really weird but after five seconds he lifted his foot and slammed it on my back, I lost the air in my loungs and just lay there in shock waiting for another attack I curled myself a little and stayed silent.

"You know you really are boring sometimes" shigaraki suddenly said and I looked up in confusion.

"Nevermind" he said as he as he reached his hand out to tug at my hair.

"Are you willing to tell me something now?" He hissed as he pulled at my hair more. I stayed silent as he kept asking again and again, but the problem was also that I couldn't bring myself to talk and even If I could I still wouldn't answer him.

"You useless pice of shit" he growled as he threw me back on the floor. 

"Why did I even bother kidnapping you" was the last thing I heard as I heated the door slam shut again.

'Why did he bother to kidnap me?' The question just kept running through my head.

'Why?' 

Was it becouse of something I have?

Was it becouse he's trying to lure allmight here?

Was it to just torture me for fun?

Was it becouse he needed something from me? 

I don't get it.

Why did this happen?

Why hasn't anyone come to save me?

Is anyone missing me?

Does anyone care that I'm gone?

I miss mom.

I want to go home.

I can't take this anymore.

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Laying in my bed, the only thing i do nowadays, I'm thinking, thinking about...about,thinking about. I don't remember what i was thinking about but i'll probably remember it i a few moments,probably. I wonder if i'll get any food soon, i think it's been 3 days or something since i last ate,i'm getting really hungry. something really stinks here,it's probably me but i don't know if it's the dirt built up on me or an infection in one of my wounds. That reminds me iv'e never seen that doctor(i guess) since that first time i met him. I wonder how long that was, maybe a few days or even weeks, i don't know the date or hell even the time as i have no way to track time hell i don't even know if it's day or night right now. It feels like iv'e been here for an entirety and i'm sure everyone has probably just forgotten about me about now "midoriya Izuku? who's that?" "I don't know probably some loser" pathetic,can't even get out of here, what a joke.

All of the sudden my pitiable thoughts were interrupted by the door being creaked open, as i looked up and peered my eyes at the bright light to vaguely see a form of an silhouette of a man making his way to me, as he got nearer,and my eyes adjusted to the light, i saw that it was the same man in the lab coat i saw once. he was carrying the brown briefcase with him again and a white plastic bag full of some things. As i wondered what was in the bag he suddenly touched my shoulder,i flinched and tried immediately scooting away but he held his hand firmly on my shoulder, he placed his baggage onto the front of the bed and let go of me to fetch something from the bag,as i heard some rustling of the bag i tried looking past him to see what he was fetching, then he pulled out a water bottle and a sandwich.

"consume this while i prep a few things" the suddenly ordered in a voice that sounded like it was dry and was recently scraped with sandpaper, i was kinda shocked because iv'e never heard him speak before but i quickly got over it and began to open the water bottle, well at least try. my hands were so weak from malnutrition and sleep deprivation, so I struggled to open the bottle, I tried twisting it and everything but i just couldn't open it, the man grumbled in annoyance when he noticed this and snatched the drink from my hands,opened it,then handed it back to me.As i sat there drinking the water and nibbling on my sandwich i began to feel the drowsiness trying to consume again but i tried to stay awake at least until i finish the sandwich. Head nodding and the clinking of metal in my ears i began to drift off, maybe i finally get to sleep after being unable to sleep for a while, i assume a day or two.

No.No.No...It hurts.Stop. please stop.it hurts!

I snapped awake as i sat up in one swift motion,my stomach cramped horribly and i felt the sandwich come up,I leaned over the bed to empty my stomach. As i was hurling the contents of my stomach out i heard a sigh and a pat on the back as i continued to hurl. i finished after a while and i sat up again and looked to who was in the room with me and it was the doctor...i forgot about that. He looked at me and then threw another water bottle at me "re-hydrate yourself" he dully said as he continued rummaging through his suitcase 

"i'm going to preform some checks on you if your up to it" he offered in that sandy tone. I nodded my head and sat properly on the bed as he slides his suitcase a little nearer to us. He checked my blood pressure,disinfected my wounds,stitched up the cut on my ankle and informed me that i may not be able to use it properly again, i just nodded as he continued to patch me up. 

"allright i'm just gonna give you a shot then were done" he announced rather tierdly as he reached for a spyringe in his pocket.

"whats in the syringe?" i nervously asked.

"Just some vitamins" he assures plainly not even looking up as he spoke,as he finished giving me the contents of the syringe i got up the courage and asked him.

"do you have anything to make me sleep?" i asked queitly . He looked at me strangly but then went to his breifcase.

"Have you slept any recently" he probed as he looked over to me to observe the bags under my eyes.

"no" i mumbled "i guess it's been more than a day at least"

"alright i'll just give you another shot for that" he simply said as he walked over to me again with a different syringe and injected it into my arm.

"you'll be dizzy and feel weird after about a half an hour or so but then this will knock you out cold for a while. i'll come back in a couple of days so don't do anything stupid or get yourself killed in the meanwhile" he said as he walked out of the room,closing the door behind him, leaving me alone in the darkness again.

I don't remember anything well after that but i remember that after nearly 20 minutes of lying in my bead staring at the ceiling i began to fell dizzy and saw stars? in front of me, I reached my hand forwards them but the were too far away to reach they always seemed too far away. then i began hearing a voice "Izuku" "Izuku!" it would call out but when i sat up i saw no one there, i was the only person there. I went under my blanket and covered my ears but the voice never went away. "Izuku,Izuku my baby boy" It sobbed. "Where are you!" it hollered. I held my hands tighter to my head as the voice continued to haunt me, " I'm sorry mom" I bawled out as i couldn't stand it anymore. "i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry" I started rocking back and forth as i continued sobbing those words over and over again and the next thing i knew was that i woke up on damp sheets and had stopped crying but my stomach felt as if some one had twisted a knife in it that was on fire and left it there,but hey at least i wasn't tired anymore.  

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I was left another sandwich by the doctor so i ate it and successfully stomached the food, for now at least. After that i inspected the chain stuck to my right foot and tugged it, there is no way i can break that without breaking myself. I couldn't think of anything else to do so i just lay in the bed and thought about anything that came to mind, after doing that for a while i heard footsteps approaching the door to the room. Startled I raised my head up but accidentally to fast as i began to feel nausea and dizzy. Eyes trained on the door i waited for it to open, After a minute or so the door did not open so i was going to turn my attention to something else when suddenly the door flew open and Shigaraki came storming into the room. I scooted nearer to the edge of my bed and pulled my blanket to cover more of me in futile attempt to seem smaller and hope that he would leave.

"I'm done with this" he raged. "let's try to finish this" he continued as he went to my bed and grabbed me by the wrist and dragged me from the bed. As he dragged me forward i struggled not to fall and let him lead me to god knows where. His grip on my wrist tightened he lead my out of the room and we went down the hallway and into another room, the room was white and windowless with only a single dentist chair with straps in the middle of the room. Upon seeing this i started struggling futilely as i hardly had energy to do anything, we went to the chair and he tossed me in it and strapped me to it.

"I remembered that i don't like waiting for things that i want" Shigaraki sighed as he finished binding me to the chair and turned to face me. "in fact i'm getting really bored" he continued as he went to the wall right to me and pressed it, reveling that there were storages hidden in the wall. He started rumbling through the shelf and pulled out a knife and i felt my gut turn as he turned around, Knife in hand, and gleefully smiled at me.

"please,please don't,Please don't hurt me" i begged in the loudest voice i could muster which was just a loud whimper .     

"only if you answer my questions" he replied as he stood in front of me moving his hand back and forth making the knife glint with every swing.

"First, What is your quirk" He questioned me as he drew his knife to my foot holding the edge at the base of my foot.

"It's-It's a muscle strengthening quirk" i piped out,

"Okay" he mumbled as he drew the knife away from my foot and walked to the side of the bed.

"I was told you were as registered a quirk less" he recalled as he looked me in the eye waiting for an answer.

"I...My quirk manifested late..so.I just..I just recently got it" I lied as he looked at me trying to figure out if i was lying or not.

"Is that so?" He said halfheartedly and i nodded as best i could.

"I'm not buying it!" he boomed and before I could think of anything he jabbed the knife into my stomach and i gave a startled yell but he used his other hand and covered my mouth to muffle the sound. 

"shh you'r only allowed to make a sound when you give me a honest answer or i'll stab you again" he threatened as he hovered the knife over my abdomen. "okay" he asked and i nodded my head.

"Good" he said as he removed his hand and started asking again.

"Were you born with that quirk or did someone give it to you?" he asked and i was perplexed to if i should lie or not.

"Ten" he started to count down. 

"Wait" i started to say but then he pressed the knife to my abdomen causing a leak of blood.

"Nine" Shit what should i do.

"Eight" He counted with a slight irritation in his tone.

"Seven" He pressed the knife a little more as my mind was thinking what to do.

"Three" What? shit

"Two" fuck

"on-" "it was given to me" I  blurted out to my surprise and i saw Shigaraki smile as he retreated the knife from me.

"See it's not so hard to tell the truth" he said smugly as he went to my head and yanked my hair.

"now was it All Might that gave you the quirk?" he Asked jut a few centimeters from my face.

"no" i answered quickly and he slammed my head to the chair and held my chin to make me look at him.

"I know you lied at that one" he grumbled. "why do you keep defending him?" he asked.

"because he's my teacher and hero" i answered quickly. but then i saw his face contort into a frown and he let go of my hair.

"Do you still consider him a hero after he's left you here for 2 weeks" he reveled as he gripped the knife to his side and plunged it into my fore arm. Leaving me in pain and in shock of this infromation.

"two weeks" i whispered under my breath and looked down in denial.

"yeah it's been 2 weeks and your still here, not even missed and probably forgotten" He added as he twisted the knife. I grunted in pain and looked up at him.

"They are probably just on they're way right now" i said forgetting to tune the anxiety in my voice.

"Probably not" He said as he pulled out the knife, Blood gushed out of my wound in consequence, and then he turned his back to me.

"I mean why would it take them so long to help a student" he added.

"because..because they took a long time finding this place" I retorted and i looked up to see that his back was still facing me and the door opened. In came three men carrying something or rather someone.

"what the hell do you want" Shigaraki hissed at the men.

"Boss we found this one hopping around the area, I think she is one of UA student's" the man on the right said as he raised the unconscious body to reveal her face.No way

"tsuyu-chan" i whispered. why? what was she thinking?????

"ah i remember that frog from the USJ attack" he said as he neared her to confirm her identity

"did you see any others" Shigarkai asked. he then stepped back and waited for a answer

"no we only found her" the man on the left said. "what should we do with her?" 

"just dispose of her or something i don't care" Shigaraki answered lazily. I was about to scream to not kill her when a loud bang sounded accompanied with a loud "DIE!!" 

Everybody was stunned and we turned our heads to the source of the explosion and there stood Kaccan screaming and ran towards the villains to battle them, behind him were Iida, Uraraka and Kirishima.

I started tearing up in joy even though Kacchan was spiting a string of curses at me, Uraraka ran straight towards me and i saw her tear up a little when she got to my side.

"Deku-kun" she whispered sorrowfully.

"don't worry i'm okay" i assured her and gave the best smile i could. But i started feeling dizzy,propably from blodloss. Kirishima came shortly after battling one guy and used his quirk to slice away my bounds, uraraka used her quirk to lighten me up, even though i was probably not that heavy now,and then Iida took me up. Kirishima screamed to Kacchan that they got me and they turned to retreat clearly not planning to fight any more villans. The blood loss had completely caught up with me and i was beginning to feel more dizzy and then I fell unconscious as I heard everyone screaming at me to hang in there, the next thing I knew I woke up in a hospital.

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How's his situation?

He's dehydrated,malnourished, has severe blood loss and several severe wounds.

We have to rush him to the operation room now, he could go any second like this. Patient has minimum  conscience

What's happening? am i in a hospital?

hook a iv to him and transfuse blood to him quick!

prepare the anistetic

What's going on.

Don't worry sweety it'll be over soon.

I felt a mask go on my face and i blacked out.

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A white ceiling. it's too bright.

Beep Beep Beep Beep.

It's too noisy here.

Opening my eyes slowly i saw the source of the noise, a cardiac monitoring machine.

 It's so warm here. i..i'm out of that godawful place. i'm finally free again! I cried tears of joy for who knows long until a nurse came in surprised to see i was awake and ran to get the doctor.

The nurse came again shortly after with a doctor behind her but something just burst inside me when i saw the doctor. Screaming i pulled the blanket nearer to me and closed my eyes, the nurse ran towards me and pulled me into a comforting embrace.

"It's alright sweetheart, everything okay your safe" she soothed me and i started feeling calmer, but i couldn't gather myself to calm down when i saw his face again, i felt another panic attack coming,he looked too much like one of those pigs that took advantage of me. I didn't want to relive that, never.

"what happened" the doctor asked.

"i don't know" the nurse answered. "he was fine when i came in earlier"

The doctor took a second to think "it may be because is tormentor was male or i resemble somehow one of them" he speculated. "I'll call doctor Hana to take over this case" the said as he began walking out of the door. 

" thank you doctor" the nurse said as he walked out of the room.

"are you better now?" she asked me as she looseness her grip to look at my face. I looked at her back and nodded a little. "good" she said whilst smiling to me.

"is there anything i can get you?" The nurse offered.

"I want to see my mom" I replied without thinking. Oh god i'm not sure how to face her after all of this.

"oh sure thing sweety she's in the waiting room,i'll go get her right away" The nurse complied as she stood up. "just wait here for a while i'll come back quickly with your mother". I nodded and watched as she left the room. I sat there for about two minutes when i suddenly heard the heavy patter of feet rushing down the hall and I saw a Green messy bun rushing in.

"Mom!" i cried out and would have almost jumped off my bed if i weren't bedridden.

"Izuku!" I heard my mom cry out. "Oh god my dear baby boy" she cried as she pulled me into her warm embrace. " I knew you would come back to me alive" she continued crying as tears rolled down her cheeks like waterfalls. " I knew you would wake up again".

"was i asleep for a long time?" I asked after hearing the last statement and my mom and the nurse looked at me with pitiful eyes.

"You have been in a Coma for 6 months" the nurse said quietly as my mom hugged me tighter, if possible.

6 months, wow. 6 months. I looked at my mom and saw dark rings under her eyes, she must have been so worried.

"i'm sorry" i muttered out.

"what did you say?" mom said surprised.

"I'm so sorry mom" i started crying. "I'm sorry i made you go through all of this" i whimpered as my mom adjusted herself too look me in the eye.

"Izuku, this is not your fault" mom started saying. "I'm just so very glad your back within my reach".

"But if only..if only" I started sobbing as she shushed me and started rocking me slightly trying to comfort me.

"It's okay" she whispered almost to tell it to herself also.

"everything is going to be alright now, I'll protect you"

I started feeling drowsy and the way mom rocked me she helped lull me into sleep.

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 When i woke up again a heard a female voice and mom talking gleefully together.

I started blinking myself awake and pulled myself up a little in the bed, mom noticing this quickly and was quick to assist me. After finally being able to sit up i felt a sting at my chest and looked down to see a scar on my chest running down to my stomach, I felt tears run down my cheeks and i looked to my mom only to see her tearing up a little too.

A small cough was heard and we both turned to the doctor standing at the foot of the bed, "I'm awfully sorry but I have to inform you both on Izuku's situation" The doctor said as she glanced to my mom. 

"I'ts no problem dr.Hana" She replied as she took my hand. "please go on".

"Alright then" Dr.Hana said as she pulled up a clipboard and briefed us on my situation. I'm almost healed but they are not sure if i can ever use my right leg to walk again.

 The next few days went away event less, I went to a couple of therapy sessions and tried to rehabilitate my leg and i'm almost close to being discharged.

And then on my fifth day since my awaking i was allowed to get visitors.

I got two reunions that day one from All might and one i wished had never happened. 

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"Oh I see you're awake" the nurse perked up and got out of the chair.

"Would you like some breakfast?" I shook my head.

"oh are you sure?" she asked again.

I shook my head and managed to mumble a "No". She looked at me with slight worry in her eyes, then she plastered a smile onto her face.

"Well i'll bring some fruits, then you can decide if you want it or not" she suggested. with that she headed for the tray near my door.

"after all you're getting visitors today, some of your classmates and maybe some other visitors" she said cheerfully . She then started cutting down the fruits and put them into a bowl.

"Do you want some whipped cream sweety?" She asked. I nodded, At least i can eat that. She seemed glad at that and put it in the bowl and took a fork for me to eat with, then she brought the bowl to me and I took it.

"Thank you" I whispered.

"Does you throat still hurt?" She asked as she eyed my neck. I nodded and tried to take one of the pear bites to my mouth and started nibbling at it.

"alright, but us know immediately if it gets worse in any way okay?" She ordered me and I nodded as to say I understood. I had no interest in eating more so I put down my bowl and laid down in my bed again. I really didn't care about talking to her right now, nor was I really capable of It.

"I'll be leaving now Midoriya-kun" She cheerfully said as she left the room and closed the door. I started crying shortly after that and did so until in was noon.

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"Midoriya-kun" I was gently nudged awake by a nurse. I rubbed my eyes and sat up in the bed. Looking at the clock across me i saw that it was about three in the afternoon, almost visiting hours.

"do you want me to get you fresh set of clothes?" I was asked and I blearily nodded as she began to fetch the bundle on the tray. After she got them I got to sit on the edge to make it easier to cloth myself. After that I got help to limp over to the bathroom. I needed physical therapy to learn to walk properly again, the doctor said I'll always have a limp. I showered and then got back to my bed.

It was suddenly four PM and I was expecting everyone to come visit. I would be lying if i said i was not nervous about it, I was honestly terrified about it. How will they treat me?, How should I treat them?, will it be just like it was or will they think less of me now. There was a knock on the door and my mom walked in, I sighed in relief when I saw her and she smiled at me.

"Are you nervous?" She asked as she sat next to me.

"Yes" I wasn't going to tell her but it just blurted out. But after I said it she took my hand and gave it a firm squeeze.

"Don't worry, I know they are so excited to see you again. but I think they won't ask too many questions" She assured me as gave me a small kiss on the cheek. It wasn't that that I was nervous about but I still felt calmer now. After a while I heard murmuring outside of my door, Instantly I knew that they were here. I breathed out and braced myself to face them.

The door opened and in came Aizawa-sensei. "good to see you midoriya" he greeted sleepily . He was clearly not happy with having to deal with 19 erratic kids right now. "We'll be coming in pair of six to not over crowd you" he stated as he told the group to zip it.

"okay we'll go in alphabetical order" he commanded them and I heard a few groans and I giggled a little.

Kaminari, Kirishima, Tokoyami, Koda, Sero and Jiro were the first ones. they only asked the how are you and all that except Kirishima, he kept going on and on how he was glad I was, almost comically ,okay . and Koda like always did not talk.

Shoji, Ojiro, Mina, Mineta, Momo and Uraraka came in next. I swear that Uraraka was on the verge on tears when she saw me, she immediately ran over to me and hugged me. I was surprised at first, but then I hugged her back. After she realized what she did she blushed and began apologizing for hugging me without asking, but I was glad she did. Then they began overly making sure I was okay and I just did my best to assure them I was.

And lastly came in Sato, Todoroki, Iida, Hagakure, Asui, and Aoyama. We also just talked about the basics but Hagakure, Tsuyu-chan and Iida were also notably more concerned . But as with the others I told them I was fine and we chatted for a while. I saw Kacchan standing in the hallway but he's probably too stubborn to come in, but at least he came to the hospital.Then everyone went to go to the dorms.

After visiting hours closed, and i said goodbye to my mom for today, I was shortly brought dinner. I hardly ate anything to the nurses disliking but she told be that it was okay and i would try to eat more tomorrow. It does feel weird after going 6 months without much real food. you'd expect me to gobble down food as soon as i got it but i don't have any interest.  I'm still vary of the male doctors and nurses but have no problem with women. I don't like to think of it but it's most likely because of 'that' incident. It makes me sick thinking about it my body started to tremble my hands shake violently and my head becomes fuzzy I can even sometimes feel-

"Midoriya-kun"

I shot my head up to see a nurse with brown hair smiling at me.

"Are you okay?" she asked cautionary.

"Yes. I'm okay" I lied and smiled to her.

"that's good" she sighed in relief.

"I'm Nurse Yamashi" She introduced herself. "I'll be one of the shift nurses looking after you"

"Nice to meet you" I mumbled.

"should i help you get to sleep?" She asked. I looked at the clock and it was only half past eight.

" I think it's a little early for that" I wondered as i continued to look at the clock.

"oh but you look so tired" She said as she closed the door the my room and locked it, I started to feel nervous.

"Can you,can you open the door, open the door again" I stuttered as i looked pleading to her.

"i'm afraid i can't have anyone eavesdrop on us Izuku" her voice was abruptly and  quickly turning deeper now.

I looked up, and saw in utter terror that it was the doctor from the villain alliance. I stared at him as he started to walk towards me, when he was about a meter away from me I came to my senses. I started scrambling for the emergency button to call the doctor but he slammed his hand on my bed making me freeze in place. I froze when he looked at me grinning.

"I wouldn't do that if i were you" He warned me and i retraced my hand to myself.

"What do you want?" I whispered painfully .

"Straight to the point I see" he noted as he grabbed my hand and i squeaked.

"Don't worry i'm just going to give you a present" as he said that he pulled out a needle and i felt my blood run cold.

"It's been a long time since you last got a treat" he continued as he pricked the neddle into my skin, injecting the substance into my bloodstream .

"now sleep tight"

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"Izuku"

"Izuku!"

"Izuku please wake up!"

I opened my eyes to see my mom bawling over me, and a hint of relief when saw that I had woken up. I looked around and saw that it was morning already, which is weird because i don't remember falling asleep. "what's wrong mom?" I asked worryingly as she pulled me into one of her tight hugs.

"oh Izuku, I'm sorry. you seemed to have a nightmare, tossing, turning and mumbling frantically . i couldn't let you sleep through it" she sniffled as she fought back the tears in her eyes.

"Thank you" I said gratefully , i do remember feeling a little queasy in my dreams.

"What was i mumbling?" I wondered. As I turned to my mom, she fell completely silent for a few seconds, but it felt longer. Finally she turned to me again and compiled.

"you were telling someone to stop, to get away from you." with that she took my hand and squeezed it lightly .

"I know you probably don't want to talk about you went through, but I'll be right here if your willing to do so". She assured me. after that we remained silent for the rest of the visit and watching the television. Mom went home and I was left with a weird feeling that something wasn't right.

I didn't sleep that night.

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"have you been sleeping alright?" mom asked, glancing to the bags under my eyes.

"Yeah" I lied and turned away from her glance.

she gave me a I'm not believing you   look but let it slide, then she perked up a little and scooted nearer to me.

"Remember when your classmates came to visit you?" She asked me. I nodded, I did remember it.

"well about 9 pm that night All might came to visit you, but you were asleep" there was a pleasant tone in her voice. but i just filled up with dread.

"So he said he'll drop around today to visit you" She continued. But I couldn't focus on her words, I remembered what had happened that night. Should I tell her?

"really?" I faked my excitement, trying not to be nervous and smiled at her. She seemed to glow up at this and gave me a big smile and kissed me on the forehead.

"I'll see you tomorrow then sweety" mom then waved goodbye and left me alone to my thoughts.

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"Izuku" I snapped out of my thoughts and turned my head to the noise. It was Nurse Yamashi. Shit.

"All might is waiting outside for you" she stated as she opened the door for him. I was still in complete disarray about what to do when All might walked in, I sat there frozen. I glanced at Yamashi who was putting her finger over her mouth and left the room. Leaving me and all might alone.

"Midoriya my boy" I heard as he sat next to me. he looked at me like he was unsure what to say, after some silence he sighed and sat up straight.

"I must apologize to you" He gulped and then continued.

"I wish I could have saved you sooner" He somberly said as he looked to me. "I'm sorry"

My head was so full of emotions, my head was full of thoughts swimming around, It felt like everything was overflowing. All the anxiety came bubbling up and my stomach cramped.

Why Didn't have save me?  Did he really give up on me?  is this all just for show?

I glanced at him and saw him wearing that sad face at me.

Is he going to ask for the quirk back? I'm probably no good for it anymore, Maybe it would be better. But what would happen with me then-

I was shaken from my thoughts when I felt a cold hand on my shoulder, I felt instinct kick in and slapped the hand away while activating my quirk, Shit.

I quickly looked at the person in front of me and he was alright.

"I'm sorry my boy" All Might retracted his hand. " I forgot about not touching you" He apologized but I was horrified.

"I can't use it" I uttered, dread seeping at me.

With that All Might lifted his head, startled.

"I felt one for all activate" I breathed out. "but nothing came"

I looked at him and saw that he had a terrified look on his face, then he stood and went to the door.

Is he going to abandon me?

What am i going to do?

much to my relief he was only calling a nurse to fetch my doctor. but when he came back to me I bawling like a child and he rushed to me.

"It's Okay my boy, It's okay" he assured me as he hesitated but started patting my head.

"I..I..I thought you were going.." I sobbed.

"Going where?" he asked me dumbfounded.

"to abandon me again" with that I felt him pull me into his embrace and i felt tears drop on my hair.

"I never abandoned you, And I never will" He wowed through his tears. "I would never" He pulled me away but still held my shoulders. I think he was going to say something but Dr.Hana rushed in and he went to meet her. They chatted for a while and she looked at me for a short time and then spoke to the nurse that went in with her. "get him ready for an ex-ray" she ordered.

I was rushed to the ex-ray room and they examined me, after that I was taken back to my room. Dr.Hana then told me that there was some kind of device implanted inside my nape, she believed was preventing me from using my quirk. She cursed herself for not noticing this for all this time.

"Do you have any idea when this could have been implanted" she asked me and I was instantly reminded of my first day there. My breath started quicking and I felt a panic coming to me.

"calm down Izuku" She said calmingly. "just breathe"

"Breathe in" she took a breath. "and breathe out" and exhaled.

I started breathing in sync to her breaths and felt my panic slowly subside, she then took my hand when she felt I had calmed down enough.

"Izuku I know it's hard but we need to know how long the device has been in you" she insisted.

I took a deep breath and looked to her.

"the first or second day" I answered. I saw her reassuring smile drop a little but she held it.

"Thank you Izuku" she stood up.

"I have to go Investigate this further, I'd like to take it out now but we don't know how it would affect you" She said in a professional voice.

"Until then you just rest here" She then went out the door, giving me a last glance to me.

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I heard a knock on my door and saw Dr.hana walk in with another doctor with light brown hair and blue eyes.

“good morning izuku” Dr.Hana greeted me as she laid down her case on the desk.

“I'd like to introduce you to a specialist doctor to take a look at the device in your neck" she stated as she pointed to the blue eyed woman beside her.

“hello nice to meet you” she greeted and started walking towards hand outreached but I made it clear I did not want to shake her hand.

“oh it's okay, im doctor Erina ” she introduced herself with a smile on her face and I nodded at her.

“so then shall we take a look at you?” she asked me and I gave her permission to do so.

After about a couple minutes of examining Dr.Erina moved away from me with a puzzling look on her face, she went over to Dr.Hana and started talking to her. I couldn't determine what they were talking about based on Dr.Hanas’ facial expressions because she held her face relevently unchanged as they talked. I need to know something.

“is it bad?” I asked as they both turned towards me half surprised that I actually talked, they looked at each other and then Dr.Erina stepped forward.

“I can’t say that this looks good,” she admitted as she came near and looked me in the eye. “But I promise you I’ll do my best to figure this out” she said as she gave me a warm smile and I smiled back as a thank you. “Also until then don’t mess with it or try to touch it, we don’t know how delicate it is or what could happen” she warned me.

They left after checking on other things then I had to go to rehabilitation, It’s going well I can walk a little now although with a limp but the doctor said it’ll probably always be there But most importantly because It’s going well I’ll get discharged soon. I can finally go home soon. When I got back to my room my mom was waiting for me there with a home cooked meal, We ate together and chatted or rather mom did. My speech hasn't improved at all the doctors think it’s a blend of trauma and injury to my neck. Mom stayed until the last minute of visiting hours and as I waved her goodbye Nurse Yamasi walked in replacing my mom. She locked the door and approached me by my bed.

“It’s been a while since we last talked” she said as she stroked my cheek, I flinched at the touch and closed my eyes for a second. When I opened them again Nurse Yamashi had changed genders. “I’m starting to miss touching you” he whispered in my ears making me feel sick inside.

“Izuku~” I don't want to look up.

“what's the matter Izuku?” He drew closer and I scooted away.

“don't be so shy after all this time" He mocked me

“Don't you wanna have fun with me tonight?” He growled and took my hand.

“no” I whimpered. “leave me alone" I was already feeling the tears run down my cheeks.

“Don't worry it's the two of us this time” he whispered in my ear and I froze stiff.

“please, don't.” I cried as he took my hands and bound them together.

“don't worry I'll make you feel good too If you're good."

“I don't want this” I begged him.

“I want my mom”

He slapped me in the face.

“if you don't shut up I'll stuff something in there to shut you up" he hissed as he turned me around.

I closed my mouth and didn't talk back at him.

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I feel sick, my cheek hurts and also my stomach. My wrists are also sore, I wanna cry. I want to go home.

When mom walked in I started bawling instantly and she rushed to my side, I couldn't tell her anything but I think she noticed that my cheek was a little red.

“what's wrong?who did this to you?” she asked me as she cradled me in her arms.

“I don't want to be here” I managed through my sobs as mom held me tighter.

“all right" she said firmly.

“I don't know why you don't want to be here. but I'll talk to the doctor about getting you home” She assured me as she stroked my hair.

“I don't want to see" I whimpered as I clutched her closer than what seemed humanly possible.

“see who?” mom asked bewildered.

“Yamashi" I answered as I started crying again.

“the nurse?” my mom asked already starting to wipe away my tears and I nodded my head.

“all right, I'll tell the doctor that” she promised, she looked me over and I saw a concerned look on her face. “it's going to be alright" She whispered almost more to herself than to me.

“am I interrupting something?” Dr. Hana asked as she walked into the room.

“oh no doctor” mom said as she stood up to greet her. “it's just it seems something happened to izuku," she whispered to Dr.Hana and both the women looked at me with concern. Dr.Hana took one look at me and I almost saw her heart drop to her stomach as she dashed to my side and held my cheek to examine it. She then scanned down me and grabbed my arm to inspect it. Rage was building up in her face and I started trying to squirm away, she saw this and moved away a bit.

“izuku, who did this to you" she demanded cutting straight to the case.

I don't know why but I hesitated a little, should I tell her or not.

I looked over to mom's concerned face and I instantly decided to spill it.

“it was nurse yamashi" as soon as I said it a look of confusion befell on Dr.hana.

“a nurse?” she asked and I nodded.

“nurse yamashi" she pondered to herself, she froze allof the sudden.

Mom was going to ask her if she was all right when Dr.hana rushed to the phone.

“attention all personnel. we have an intruder, a possible villain, pretending to be a nurse" my heart stopped as she announced this. “if anyone encounters this person claiming to be nurse yamashi inform security immediately, do not confront her.” She finished as she put the phone down she slided down to the chair sighing.

“I need to contact the police" Dr.hana suddenly said as she snapped to action and left us.

we just sat there in silence, not knowing what to do or say.

“she..She wasn't a nurse" I heard mom whisper under her breath as she put her hand over her mouth.

“I'm so sorry Izuku"

I looked up at her surprised.

“why are you apologizing? You didn't do anything wrong” I asked her focusing my attention on her.

“I thought you'd be safer here" she started as she took my hand.

“they actually offered me a chance to get you home. but I thought I couldn't protect you there" tears started running down her face as she told me this. I noticed she started stroking the bruises on my wrist. “did this kind of thing happen often to you?" She asked me.

“I'm sorry Izuku it must have been hard but I'll do my best to. no I will protect you from now on " she Promised.

When Dr.Hana came back mom begged her to let me go back home as soon as possible and she got permission to go tomorrow if no further incidents occurred, A hero was set to protect me until I was to return home tomorrow.

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I finally get to go home, maybe I'll finally feel safe. Mom brought a case to put all of the get well gifts in to bring home, a lot of people gave me plushies and get well cards some of which I don't know but I suppose they heard it on the news what happened to me. Some people really are nice.

We finished packing and I got crutch from the hospital since I can't walk on my own yet but hopefully I can soon. As happy I was being able to go home I couldn't help but feel paranoid, were they watching me? Did they follow me? What if they follow me home? My mom saw how nervous I was and gave me a reassuring smile as if saying ‘we will be fine’, it helped a little.

Before I knew it we were outside of the apartment complex.

Home.

I'm finally home.

I felt tears starting to form at the corners of my eyes as I started quickening my pace my mom trying to catch up to my sudden change in pace. I heard her call me to be careful but that almost just fell on deaf ears until I got to the stairs… i don't know how to get up the stairs.

My mom finally caught up to me and reached her hand to me, somehow we got up the stairs without either of us falling although I came near to it twice. Then we came to the apartment door. My apartment door. My home. Mom opened up the door and I was overjoyed with the smell of home. I walked in and felt instantly safer, I walked immediately to my room, my room  hadn't changed a bit since I was last there. I plopped myself onto my bed and just lay there for a while, my mom checked on me after a while and told me lunch would be ready soon. I gave her a acknowledging hum as I was just too comfortable to lift my head.

Apparently I fell asleep because when I opened my eyes again it was pitch dark in my room and I had a blanket on me, mom probably put it on me. I stood up and went to check what time it was, when I checked the kitchen clock I saw it was 2am.

On the kitchen table was some katsudon and a note from mom

‘just heat it up when you wake up ♡’

Next to all that was she sleeping in the chair, I took the blanket off me and draped it over her. Then I proceeded to heat up my meal in the microwave and ate it. I would have carried my mom to bed but I'm too weak right now, I might have been able to done it before but definitely not now. I laid back in my bed after eating and again just lay there, I could hear the early morning birds, the occasional cars driving by. It's weird that somehow my hearing got better after all this,whatever.

I continued to listen to my surroundings the rustle in the trees, a toilet being flushed somewhere in the complex, my mother's soft breathing as she slept and another breath…What the hell?!

I bolted up in my bed and turned on my bedside lamp, I looked around and there was no one in the room, I closed my eyes and tried focusing on where the sound was coming from. It sounded as it came from the kitchen, I forgot my crutch and limped over to the kitchen only to see no one there except for mom. As I listened again I figured that the breathing was from the downstairs neighbor, shit. I scared the crap out of me for nothing.

Mom stirred as she lifted her head up and smiled at me, “what are you doing up izuku?” she asked me through a yawn.

“Just woke up, why didn't you wake me for lunch?” I asked in return as she gave me a bleary smile “just wanted you to get a good rest" she answered then she stood up and gave me a hug. “you know how happy I am to have you back?” she asked as she hugged me tighter before I could even think of an answer she continued, “it still feels like a dream to have you back".

I was speechless, all I could do was hug her back. After a while we decided to go to bed again and at least try to sleep, I heard my mom fall asleep almost instantly but I couldn't sleep so I stayed in bed until she awoke again

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“so what are you going to do now?” I lifted my head up to him at the question, kirishima sat there waiting for an answer.
“I...I'm not sure... I'll probably go back to school when I'm physically better.” I answered idly.
The thought of going back to a normal life honestly scared me a little, was everyone going to ask me questions about what I went through or will they stay silent and gossip behind my back? Will I ever be able to become a hero? I can't even use my quirk now how can I become a hero.
“dude"
I snapped back to reality by kirishima.
“sorry I spaced out a little" I apologized
“no its fine,are you tired? I can leave if you're tired” he said looking at the bags under my eyes.
“yeah. I think I need to lie down a little, thank you"
“no problem bro" he replied and smiled at me.
Kirishima left after that, he’s one of my most frequent visitors right behind uraraka and Iida which had just newly left when kirishima came in. It's nice that they came to visit me.
The rest of the day went by uneventfully and I had some soba for dinner. when night came and I bid my mom goodnight and went to bed I started to feel a little queasy. I'm not sure why I feel like this, it feels as if someone is watching me.

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The next day I'm supposed to go to the doctor again to check out the thing in my neck, If it proves to be actually harmless then they'll take it out then and there, but there is a higher possibility that it's dangerous. I hope to get this thing out soon to use my quirk, that is to say if this is what is causing my quirk to not activate.

I went to the doctor and I had to go through a ex-ray scan again and they prodded at it for a bit, my neck feels sore now, she decided to postpone taking it out because she has to run some more test with the data she just got. I just hope I get rid of it soon.

After all that I went to the psychiatric and got prescribed with anxiety medication for paranoia, he recommended I take short walks around so my mom reluctantly agreed to allow me to go out of the house with her from time to time, its nice but weird to walk outside. People recognize me on the streets either from the sports festival or because I have been on the news a lot but I can never avoid being gawked at or approached during my walks, Some of the civilians are worse than reporters with their questions,
“how did you survive that?”
“how are you doing now?”
“did that really happen?”
“how did they manage to take you?”
“are you still going to be a hero?”
“weren't you supposed to be able to fight them off?”

Sometimes afterwards I would just start crying after their questions and mom would fiercely scold them after she comforted me. Then one day on a walk in the shopping center I was looking for a limited edition all might figurine, I saw him again. It was yamashi.
I hurriedly went to look for my mom but he appeared in front of me all of the sudden, I lifted my arm to push him away but he grabbed my hand and put the other one over my mouth.
“one sound and I'll have your mother killed" he whispered in my ear, then he licked the shell of my ear. I got a disgusting shiver go down my spine, all I could do is look around me helplessly for someone to save me, But there was no one in sight. I started crying as I lost the feelings in my legs, this is just like last time there is no one to save me.
Yamashi smirked at me when I fell to my knees and then he picked me up.
“I miss having you around so I'm taking you back".
Black mist surrounded me again as if in a repeating nightmare but this was real.
As the world was starting to ho black I thought I heard someone calling my name, I opened my eyes to see my mom dashing towards me. She cried to me “Izuku!”
Hearing my moms desperate cry I tried to struggle against him one more, I couldn't make my mom go through this again!
I cried for my mom as she got closer to me,
I reached out my arm and I managed to hold onto her finger when I got pulled back and I heard a gun shot ringing in my ear, I saw was my mom dropping to the floor instantly holding over her eye as she cried out in pain, I tried to get to her again but was stopped by the gun by my head.
“you may not be as lucky as your mom so don't try you luck" a man growled beside me and I froze stiff and stopped resisting.
“Good boy”
I took one last glance at mom who had someone rushing at to her as she was losing consciousness I decided to call out to her. “don't worry mom I'll be fine!” I screamed as loud as I could and I saw her head perk up a bit to try to look at me “I love you” sobbing uncontrollably I managed those last words and before the mist engulfed me I managed to make up a ‘I love you too’ on her lips.

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My head is fuzzy, where am I?

“wake up izu-chan” a ruff voice whispered in my ear, spooked I try to get away from the voice but find I can't. I opened my eyes only to see darkness.

“isn't this nice Izuku?” the voice spoke again but I still couldn't connect the voice to the owner.

“your your head feels a little weird right?” he asked but continued talking without even giving me a chance to answer.

“Don’t worry about that, think of it as a punishment, a pre-course punishment at least” he mused as he tinkered with something behind me, I could just feel the grin on his face.

“we can't just let you go unpunished after what you did” seriousness on his voice he started walking to another place. I suddenly heard a snapping noise right beside my ear, scissors?

“now shall we take this blindfold off?” Pain shot through my ear and I heard a sickening squishing sound.

“oops,I cut to deep” he giggled.

I opened my eyes and was blinded by a bright light and I quickly shut my eyes in reflex. As I opened my eyes again I saw yamashi grinning in my face, he said nothing as he suddenly turned around to get something.

I used this opportunity to survey my surroundings, It's a small room with a double bed and a cabinet, I looked down and saw that I was chained to the floor, again. How the hell do you get kidnapped twice?

When I started Tugging my hands and ankles to test the strength of the chains I suddenly felt a searing pain all over my body. Panting from the shock I looked up to see that yamashi was holding some kind of prod.

“I wouldn't do that if I were you” he teased as he looked at me again.

“things are going to get a lot stricter, and if you ever disobey” he stopped a second to wave the prod in front of me.

“you.get.shocked.” each word said clearly so I would hear them.

Then he turned the dial. Another rush of shock ran through me and I cried out in pain.

“do you understand?” he asked me. Still shaking from the pain and hearing ringing in my ears I didn't realise at first that he asked me a question, until he shocked me again.

“Do you understand?!” he asked again, louder this time. Sobbing I nodded my head.

“I can't hear you” he stated as he raised the prod up.

“yes!yes” I cried out as I started to curl in on myself as best as I could.

He then kissed me on the cheek and wiped away my tears, which then came back immediately.

“good boy"

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Yamashi left sometime ago and I have just been left alone in the dark since, my stomach started growling and I wonder when I last had a meal.

Suddenly Light started creeping into the room as the door started scraping open, I did not look up because I was pretty sure who it was

"Izu-kun~" a disgustingly affectionate voice called out.

I looked up to have my suspicion confirmed, it was yamashi.
He dragged a tray in behind him as he walked towards the bed. It had food on it.

“you know the only reason your here is because I want you to be mine" he said smoothly as he gripped my chin.

“I want your beautiful body to belong to no one but me” he smirked as he saw I was way more interested in the food than him.

“the others didn't really want you back, said it was useless so it actually took a long time to convince them to let me have you.” he continued on and gave me a light kiss.

“that is why I'll take care to train you to properly be mine"

Suddenly he forced his mouth on me and started frantically moving his tongue inside my mouth, it was so disgusting I contemplated chomping down on it but I don't think I'd end well for me. Instead I tried pushing him away from me the best I could.

“now now Izu-kyun" he teased as he released me.
“we don't want you to be disobedient do we?” he asked as he started reaching for the prod from his pocket, I immediately went pale at the sight and started shivering.

“now then what do we say when we disobey?” yamashi asked as he hovered his finger over the prod.

“I'm sorry" I apologized to him but he didn't seem pleased.

“what are you sorry for?” he prodded.

“I'm sorry that I. That I disobeyed you" my voice was quivering as I managed to barely spit the words out.

To my betrayal I felt a course of electricity flow through me but thankfully it wasn't as powerful as last time.

“I'm not ‘you’ or ‘me’ to you” he stated as he leaned in closer to me. “who am I?”

Disgusting was the first thing I felt when he asked me this. No way I was going to say it. I Couldn't. I can't do it.

He grabbed my chin again and squeezed it tightly.

“what are you supposed to call me?” he growled.

Shocks ran through my body and I screamed in pain as yamashi dialed up the knob more.

“well?” he asked slowly continuing raising the level.

I couldn't bare it anymore everything was on fire.

“master" I choked out through my sobs.

He then dialed the knob down but still kept the electricity flowing through me.

“yes?”

“I'm sorry master for disobeying”I sobbed.

Yamashi grinned a sadistic grin at that and finally turned the device off. I slumped into the bed exhausted and humiliated as yamashi reached for one of my wrists and unlocked it.

Puzzled I stared at him as he did the same with the corresponding ankle.

“I'm going to have you work for your food" he nearly giggled as he flipped me to my stomach.

My stomach dropped.

“please don't” I begged to deaf ears as he processed to assault me, I was too tired to fight back anymore.

After he was satisfied he re-chained me and then started feeding me the food going on about what a good boy I was but I barely noticed the taste of the food and his words as he feeded me, I just sat there crying away my losses.

All I did the next few days was nothing.

When he asked me to do something I compiled it was always the same thing, check if I obeyed, rape me and then feed me.

I felt broken.

It was so much worse now, not only because I managed to get captured again and that I'm in more constant pain, forced to do humiliating and degrading acts against my will.
no, it was because I had remembered how freedom felt again. The freedom you have after being locked up for so long.

How it felt to wake up not fearing if what was going to happen to you, How it felt to be able to make my own choices without being whipped for it, to be able to speak,when I could, Whenever I wished.
But now I'm stuck in this godforsaken place, stuck with a sadistic sociopath that dictates my every action, when I eat, how much I eat, when I speak, how much I can move, all this he revels in, to have complete control over me.

I don't know if I can do anything about it now.
I feel like my own body is starting to betray me.

I feel like a prisoner in my own body.

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“you don’t seem to be happy with me" yamashi said in a fake sad tone as he traced his finger up my arm.

I didn't say anything but only glared at him harsly.
‘of fucking course I'm not happy to be chained up by some maniac’ I wanted to scream at him, but I knew better.

“oh my izu-kun if looks could hurt I'd be sliced open with my guts sprawled over the room" he said in a joking manner but his eyes were sharp as he played with my hair.

“I've decided to let you realise how kind I have been to you lately” he whispered into my ear as the door creaked open.

I froze, no one has ever been in this room before except yamashi while I've been here and I became too aware that the only clothing I had one were tiny shorts and I was chained to a bed.
It was mortifying to say the least.

Four men came into the room with wicked grins on their faces, I felt my blood run cold.
I did not like where this was going, I looked up at Yamashi as some sort of plea but he only gave me a sadistic grin as he leaned down and kissed me.

“show them how good of a boy you have been”
He smirked as he started walking away, I found myself wishing a little that he would stay.

“now then boys you can do whatever you want as long as it doesn't leave permanent damage” Yamasi said as he waved his hand goodbye.

No,nonononononononono.

I don't want this.

My eyes started to water as they drew nearer to me those fucking smirks on their faces as they started to pull my shorts down.
“please don’t do this” I begged even though I knew it was only going to fall on deaf ears.

“don't worry, we’ll make sure you'll feel good too”
One of them said as he opened a bottle and poured some of the contents onto his dick.

Oh god, this is gonna hurt.

“open up”

“What-? I begun to ask but was cut off by a dick being shoved inside of my mouth.
It was disgusting, I choked from the flavor and started gagging when he started to thrust into my mouth. Then to make matters worse I felt like my ass was going to tear open, I'm pretty sure it did, when one of them forced themselves inside me. I tried to scream but it was muffled by the clock in my mouth and it only made him moan in pleasure as he released into my mouth.

After what felt like hours of being rammed into, being taken turns of and being forced to suck dicks I was exhausted.

The men had finally left with a “see ya later slut” and “let's have some more fun later” leaving me all alone drenched in sweat and semen. I curled up in a ball and cried myself to sleep after that.

When I woke up the first thing that hit me was the smell, it smelled putrid and I was borderline gagging from it. The second thing I noticed was that I wasn't chained, okay that's weird, using the opportunity I tried to sit up when a piercing pain shot up my back. Grunting I lied back down and tried my best to try to think of something to distract me from the pain trying not to emit, it wasn't going well.

After a few sessions of pain and finishing vomiting up all of the contents of my stomach and more, the door opens up and someone recoiled in disgust putting a handkerchief over his mouth, yamashi went to me.

“I leave you alone for one day and look how pitiful you look” he snickered as he strolled over to me, he scrunched up his face when he got to me.

“You smell disgusting” He stated the obvious. “Get up and follow me” he ordered as he turned around and walked towards the door when he saw that I hadn't gotten up he zapped me.

“Get up” he ordered again he was getting irritated.

“I can’t” I mumbled as I got another shock and I screamed as the muscles in my back cramped and made the pain worse leaving me in pure agony.

“Get.Up” he ordered again sternly as he started to walk over towards me.

“I can’t” I cried “it hurts too much”

He tried to heave me off the bed but it hurt too much and I fell down the floor in pain so Yamashi finally picked me up with a sigh and started walking.

The pain in my back is unbearable right now, everytime I feel a slightest move a sharp pain jolted up my spine and I felt nausea creeping up again, finally after what felt like a eternity I was put down onto a stool. Despite wanting with all of my being to lie down on the floor I couldn’t because someone was proping me up as I heard someone talking.
Suddenly I was drenched in water and a whole other panic rose.
I tried to squirm away but the hands holding me kept me from going anywhere.

After a lot of struggling and more splashes of water they finally let me go and started drying me off, After that I was carried away and put onto a really soft bed. The bed is so soft.

I was awoken by someone shaking me awake, blearly I looked up and saw that that it was Yamashi. I felt a mixture of relief, anger and fear when he leaned in and kissed me, a strange warmth came over me as he ran his hands in my hair.
What is wrong with me?

“I brought you soup” Yamashi said as he brought the soup into view, I felt nauseous even thinking about eating it and he must have seen it on my face.

“You will eat” he commanded as he brought the soup to my lips and I, reluctantly drank it.

After I finished the soup he started walking out when I cried out to him, surprised he turned around to look at me.

“The pain” I uttered. “please.Give me something for it, Let me have something” I begged.
“I can't take it anymore”

Amused yamashi walked out of the room to my despair but returned shortly with a small bottle and a syringe.

“I have been meaning to test this” he suggested a sickly grin spreading on his face, “but it could have some nasty side effects” he added mildly.

“I’ll take anything” I pleaded.

“Good”

He sat down next to me, filled the syringe with the light orange liquid then he found a vein and injected the substance into me. I felt nothing for a few moments until all of the sudden the pain stopped but Instead a strange sense of euphoria started flow through me, it felt like I was floating.

“How do you feel?” A voice echoed through my head.
“I feel good” I replied hazily.

I started feeling counciesnes floating from me as I felt a pressure on my lips and neck, It felt good and I accidently let a moan escape from my lips as I passed out.

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I woke up surrounded by warmth, a dull pain was throbbing in my head, I snuggled into the warmth and decided to lie in it before doing anything. Did I have to do anything?

Slowly I opened my eyes to look at my surroundings, I’m in a king size bed there is a cabinet and a dresser. Wait, am I in a bedroom?
Actually scratch that, I’m in a bed?!

I tried lifting my head up but it only increased my headache, I muttered a curse and lied my head back down.

“I hear your awake”

Shit

He turned over to me and wrapped his hand around me and kissed me on the cheek.

“Good morning Izu-kun, I hope you can still stand after yesterday”

What happened yesterday?

“How are you feeling?” Yamashi asked as he stroked a hand through my hair.

It caused me to tremble under his touch, What the fuck body I do not need this?!

“Fi-ine fine, just got- just , I just got a headache” I stuttered in answer.

“Are you sure?” He asked me sounding surprised but I just nodded my head.

“Okay” he simply replied as he got out of the bed and then proceeded to get dressed.

“I’m going to work, and I’m going to leave you here.” he stated and I looked over him dumbfounded. “I expect you to behave while I’m gone but don’t leave the bedroom while I’m away” He continued as the walked over to the door. “Got it” he asked.

I nodded my head but that made him frown.

“I expect a proper answer” he frowned as he walked over to me.

“Yes” I answered.

“Yes what?, what do you understand?”

“I-I will not leave the bedroom” I answered and he tugged my hair rufly looking at me as to say ‘go on’.

“M-master I will not leave the bedroom Master” I hung my head as low as I could until he released the grip on my hair and instead grabbed my chin.

“Good boy” he whispered into my ear and nibbled the shell of my ear and I let out a whine.

Oh god, I looked up and saw a shit eating grin on his face then he grabbed my hands pressing them as far into the bed as he could. He started raviging my mouth, I started feeling a tingling sensation in my stomach as he deepened his kiss. I started squirming under him as I started running out of breath until he parted our lips, a trail of saliva dropped onto my chin as I lay there phanting under him.

“I guess work will have to wait for a while” He said as he grabbed my cock.

I was mortified when I noticed that it was already half-hard, I had never in all of my time since I was captured got an erection so why the hell did I have one now?!
The drug! It must have been the drug he gave me yesterday, he did mention it had some side effects maybe this was one of them. Did that mean I was like this yesterday? I can’t remember anything from after I got the drug what the hell happened? actually, considering I’m like this after half a day after getting the drug I don’t want to know how I was with the drug in full effect.

“what a sight to behold” yamashi marvelled as he traced my body with his fingers

then he gripped my dick and I groaned at the pleasure.

“since you have been such a good boy I'll let you get off” he said as he jerked me off.

It felt so wrong but somehow I found myself coming in less than a minute.

“I just gave you something so what do you say?”He asked.

“thank you,master”

“good now you suck me off” he stated and reluctantly I leaned towards him.

“beg for it”

“wha-?”

“beg for my cock”

You just told me to suck off your dick and now your asking me to beg for it?!

“please let me suck your dick”

He grabbed my hair “what do you want me to do afterwards?” he asked.

I knew what he wanted me to say but it was hard to even think of, so I hesitated. But that earned me a smack in the face and before he could do anything else I spoke.

“please let me suck your dick and then use it to fuck me master” I cried as a smirk grew on his face.

He yanked on my hair to lead me to his dick and I began sucking, I hated doing this it felt even worse then being fucked into.

>some time skip<

I ventured outside the bedroom for the first time, peeking out of the door frame I saw that this was a really small apartment. I can see the entire apartment from the bedroom to be exact, there was a small kitchen and a living space next to it. The is a window next to a sofa set so I climbed onto to sofa and took a peek out.
It looks like a red light district, Kabukicho maybe? That would mean I’m in tokyo.
I climbed out of the sofa and looked around until I finally noticed to front door.
Should I test it?
I reached my hand forward.
What if it is?
What do I do?
would I run away?

I withdrew my hand.

I don’t want to make him angry.

I suddenly felt really tired so I decided to lie down on the couch.

I woke up to a kick in the gut, gasping I looked up to see master, he looks really mad.

“Did I you the permission to go out of the bedroom?” he asked growling.

“No” I answered shakily.

“Then why are you outside of the bedroom?” he asked as he grabbed my hair.

“I-I-i-” I was sobbing so much that I couldn’t answer but that only earned me another kick.

“I-I don’t know master” I wheezed.

He dragged my by the hair to the bedroom and tossed me mercilessly onto the bed, my head knocked against the wall and I was seeing stars.

“You know I have to punish you” he said as if he had no choice in the matter.

“But since I’m nice I’ll give you three choices to do so” he said as he caressed my cheek.

“One, I could lend you over to Shigaraki” he begun and I tensed and shook my head.

“Two, We could record us having sex and put it on live television” he added,oh god no.

“Or three, I kidnapped one of your former classmate and torture them in front of you”

Wait, kidnapped, that’s in a past tense. Oh no.

“I see your mind hasn't slowed down too much” master chuckled as he saw that I realized what he did.

“Who?” I asked horrified.

“You’ll see” he said as he tossed a bad at me.

“Dress into that” he ordered.

I opened the bag to see a large hoodie and sweatpants.

I quickly put them on then I made my way to master, I followed him out the bedroom we were almost at the front door when he stopped.

“Keep close to me” he instructed.

As we walked down the street my eyes started hurting and my limp got worse as I got more tired. I reached for Yamashi’s hand but suddenly I found myself lost.

Where did he go? where is he?!

I crumbled to my knees and started sobbing.

“Master” I called out hoping he heard me but he didn't answer.

What am I going to do, how am I going to find him?

I need to keep walking.

After walking for a while forward I’m too exhausted to walk forward so I found a place to sit down and gather my thoughts, I sat down on the nearest bench and gathered my thoughts.
Hugging my knees I contemplated my options.
I could try to find my way back or I could just stay here and hope he will find me again.
Suddenly a voice interrupted my thoughts.

“Are you okay? What’s wrong?” a voice asked.

I looked up a little and saw a lady maybe in her early 40’s, she has long green hair and yellow eyes. She somehow looks familiar.

“I-”

“You are not allowed to speak unless I allow you to” masters words rang inside my head and he stopped.

“Are you lost?” she asked sounding concerned.

I nodded my head.

“Do you think I can help you?” she asked.

I looked up at her and I saw her face falter a little but she held that smile.
What should I do?

I looked around to see if master was anywhere in sight, when In didn’t I started feeling more anxious.

“It’s okay you can talk to me” she said as she crouched down in front of me.

Can I? Master isn't around, so It’s okay right?

“I- I’m lost”

“Where do you live?”

I raised my hand and pointed to the direction I came from.

“You live over there?” she asked confused

“Master’s apartment is over there”

“Did you get separated from him? Is that why you are lost?” she asked

I nodded my head and then she stood up and started texting someone then she reached her hand out to me.

“Do you want me to help you find your way back home?”

Home.

A rush of nostalgia ran over me. I felt the familiar smell of home and the warmth of a embrace, that didn’t match with what I felt at masters.

I do not live there.

All of the sudden tears started running down my face.

“I want to go home”

Chapter Text

Shortly after a police car arrived to send them to the police station, ragdoll and Tiger were going to leave it to the police but Izuku didn’t want to be alone so he held onto Ragdoll for dear life until she agreed to stay with Izuku until his mom came. The ride there was quiet, Izuku nodded off on Ragdoll’s shoulder for a while until they got there she gently shook him awake. “we’re here kitten”.

Ragdoll lead Izuku inside by the hand, there were greeted by a few officers and led into a small room with a desk with a lot of papers and a sofa. They were led to the sofa and someone offered them a blanket, Ragdoll took it and the officer excused himself to fetch them some hot chocolate. Thinking of having a hot cup of chocolate sent shivers throughout his body, he didn’t realize how cold he had been until now.

When the officer returned with the cup of hot chocolates detective Tsukashi trailing behind him Izuku felt relieved a little by seeing a familiar face but there was also a strange feeling that accompanied it, It's not a good feeling.

“I’m glad to see your okay Midoriya” he greeted as he took a chair from the desk and placed it in front of the couch. Izuku didn’t answer, he waited for him to speak again.

Tsukachi shifted a little in the chair as he took out a notepad,
“If you don’t mind I’d like to ask you some questions” He cut right to the chase.

He asked Izuku something like If he knew where Master was or if he knew where master was going, but he didn’t know. If I knew I wouldn’t be here he thought. Tsukachi asked him some more questions but Izuku started visibly zoning out in the middle of them and he decided to give him a little break, besides Izuku hardly knew anything as master was careful to keep him in the dark.

“Izuku,my baby” Inko cried as she saw Izuku.

“Mom” Izuku cried out as she ran over to him and they embraced.

They stayed like that for a while both mother and child crying into each other's shoulder until suddenly Izuku pulled away, held a hand in front of his mouth and started gagging.
All of the sudden Izuku started feeling more sick, the room started spinning and he felt the contents of my stomach start to come up. Luckily one of them saw this and gave him the trash can as he proceeded to heave into it with so much force that it felt like his throat was going to tear.

“We need to get you to the hospital” Mom worried over him, Izuku instantly froze at that.

“No” he choked out as he resisted the next wave of nausea.

“Sweetie” she stopped as she took his hand and froze,

“Im fine” he lied.

“Izuku we need to get you checked out at the hospital you're sick!”

“I think it’s just a withdrawal, I can handle it”

“Izuku” Mom looked so concerned.

“I want to go home”

“Please don’t take me there, please I don’t want to”

“Izuku, please understand”

“NO!” shocked from his own outrage he faced away from his mom

“Please,please just take me home”

“Alright but on the condition that you will let someone look you over”

Izuku looked away in rejection and he stayed silent for a while but then he spoke.

“Recovery girl” he muttered through the blanket.

“Allright, I’ll take that” taking his shoulder to hug him and he leaned into her shoulder and fell asleep.

Izuku woke up in his room confused, he looked around trying to gather his surroundings when he realized he was alone. He started trembling either from being nervous of being alone. He made his way out of his bed and went to look for his mom. he was halfway down the hall when he heard several people talking, one of them was his mother and what sounded like recovery girl. Izuku inched as close as he trusted himself towards them without being spotted and listened into the conversation.

“He needs surgery Midoriya-san” a old woman said.

“I barely managed to get him to see you whatnot go to a hospital, hed breakdown.” His mom replied worriedly.

“That is quite worrisome”

“Can’t we bring the doctor here chiyo?” A third voice suggested and Izuku felt butterflies in his stomach, it was all might.

“We could try to give him sedatives and bring him to the hospital that way” Recovery girl said and Izuku’s stomach dropped.

“Please don’t” Izuku whispered out but it was loud enough to alert the others of his presence.

“I’ll be good, I’m sorry imsorryimsorryI’llbegood illbe good” Izuku was chanting as the adults reached to him.

“Izuku” Inko cried as she tried to hug Izuku but he flinched away from her, his eyes were distant as if he wasn't with them right now. He was back with Yamashi.

“It’s alright baby you're not there anymore you're here with me” Inko soothed Izuku as she started stroking his head in comfort, He leaned into her hand and then into her embrace.

“Can the surgery wait or is it life threatening?” All Might asked.

“He will be more comfortable if he gets the surgery but I suppose it can wait” Recovery girl sighed and went to leave, “I’ll take my leave as my job is done here for the day”

“Izuku?” Inko tried when her son had calmed down a bit but when he didn’t answer she tried again. “Izuku dear”

Izuku looked up tiredly at his mother, “would you like something to eat?” She asked and after a short silence Izuku nodded.

Chapter Text

The issue of Izuku’s safety was at the board of discussions. Yes, Yamashi had been apprehended but none were sure if the league would go after him again so it was decided that Izuku would stay at UA until things calmed down at least. However when Izuku heard the news he proceeded to run into the bathroom and locked himself in there. After half a day he wouldn’t answer anyone including his mother so the escorts that were meant to lead Izuku and his mother were tasked to try to get the door down as quietly as possible. Inko went away for a while to make some tea when the pot finished boiling she heard a loud thud and screaming.

“NO!” Izuku screamed.

“Leave me alone!”

As soon as Inko heard the screaming from the hall she rushed to him when she got there she saw Izuku being held down by the men who were supposed to help him go to UA safely. Utraged Inko stormed towards them and wrestled the men to let go of her son. She hugged him tight Izuku was still kicking and screaming until then and when he realized his mother was to one hugging him he went silent and sobbed into her shoulder.

“It’s all right Izuku, you’re not there anymore you're safe with me” Inko cooed to Izuku as she gently stroked his hair to comfort him. Izuku looked up and saw the bruises starting to form on his mother from accidently hitting her and started sobbing more. “I’m sorry I’m sorry mom” He kept saying over and over again. “It’s okay Izuku” After a while Izuku calmed down and his breathing became steady as he fell asleep in his mother's arms, Inko smiled lovingly at the sight but then turned to the people responsible for his outburst with malice in her stare.

“What were you thinking?” She hissed low careful not to wake up her son.

“We warned you not to pressure him into anything”

“We are sorry mam but he came at one of us with a blade as soon as we unlocked the door” one of them said backing up a bit.

“A blade?” Inko said quietly. She looked onto the ground where one of them were pointing she saw a bloody razor blade, A new wave of tears flooded when she looked back at Izuku to see the cuts on his feet and hands. As well as old ones. Sobbing she pulled him closer towards him as if she could shield him from the demons plaguing him but she knew she could never do it alone. Izuku woke up in his bed confused, he was sure he was in the bathroom locked up.

Sitting up Izuku winched at the wounds he inflicted upon himself when he looked down he was surprised to see that they were wrapped up, but then mom must have seen it what he had done to himself.

“Izuku?”

He startled and looked to see his mom sitting at the edge of his bed. How did he not notice her? She reached forward and took his hand. “Izuku we need you to go to the campus today, the escorts are waiting” She said calmly hoping her son would understand.

“No, I want to be at home” Izuku said firmly.

“I know Izuku but please, we have to go live at the campus it’s safer there” She pleaded.

Izuku looked up, “We?”

“Yes we” Inko couldn’t help but giggle a little, “don’t think I’m going to let you out of my sight anytime soon” She said as she placed a hand on his cheek. “And if anyone says otherwise they got hell to pay” Izuku smiled warmly at that and giggled a little, Inko was so happy to see him smiling again it seemed like he never smiled these days.

“Allright” Izuku finally relented.

“Thank you honey” Inko said as she kissed his forehead. They then went to pack the last of their stuff into the moving stuff and then were on their way to their new house at UA.

Izuku was nervously tapping his foot the entire time but when he saw the now familiar UA sign at the gate he calmed down. It only took about a minute of driving from the main building to get to their house which was centered in the staff housing. It looked cozy. After the truck stopped Izuku went out to explore the house, his mom had been here earlier but Izuku had refused to go then. As soon as he opened the front door he was greeted by a bare living room and what seemed to be the dining room, wandering further he saw the two bedroom down a small hall and the bathroom, there was even a laundry room. Izuku smiled as he thought how happy his mom had been to find that out. He checked every single room carefully until he heard the moving men starting to move furniture and boxes into the house. Izuku retreated outside to not be in their way. Izuku lay onto the grass in the backyard and stared into the sky, god it had been a long time since he saw the sky clearly. He felt at peace as he settled to leisure around till his mom would call him.

A week after they moved in the court hearing began, everyone was on the edge as they waited for the hearing to begin, most of all Izuku. Izuku was instructed not to call out or make any contact with Yamashi but he still found himself staring at the man in the orange jumpsuit hoping that he would turn around to see him, but he never did.

It was the first time Izuku saw him since his time with him and it felt strange to see him again after all of this time. The trial went through as a blur for Izuku as the reseprentive for Izuku retold his accounts of things as they found Izuku unfit to make the testimonies for himself, that and he hasn't spoken a word about it since he did. The trial went on easily, all of the evidence went against Master. Nothing significant happened until Master got to place his testimony.

“I got bored of him so I was going to take him to some abandoned warehouse and kill him” Yamashi stated coldy making Izuku shiver from the ice in his veins.

“Why not just set him free?” the judge asked.

“Are you seeing him now?” he laughed as he pointed to Izuku with his shackles but not looking at him directly. Izuku looked better now then when they found him but he still looked worn out and tired.

“He’s just a toy now, I made him into my slave just for me. He’s undone his use now but He will always be mine nobody else will have him-” A maniac grimm spread his face until a smash Interrupted him and his face fell.

“That’s enough” The judge yelled as he smacked his hammer.

“Has the jury come to a conclusion” he asked his voice still authoritative but calmer “We find the defendant guilty of multiple counts of rape, physical, emotional and sexual abuse and false imprisonment”

“Yamashi Araki, I find you guilty and sentence you to three consecutive lifetimes in prison with no chance of parole” The judge deemed as he smacked his hammer down finaling his judgement. Before the echo of the hammer died out people started clapping as Yamashi was being escorted out of the room, Izuku got tears in his eyes as he tried to call out to him but when he tried making eye contact Yamashi avoided it making Izuku lose his breath as he was escorted to the next room leaving Izuku frozen in place.

That’s right I’m just a thing to be tossed away aren’t I?

He abandoned me, he doesn't want me anymore.

What use am I if master doesn't want me?

I was supposed to cater to his needs.

I can’t do anything now.

I’m useless.

I’m useless.

I’m useless!

Useless

Useless!

“Any news on Izuku?” Toshinori shook his head in defeat, “He’s regressed again”

“Not good” Tsukashi sighed.

“What the hell did that bastard do to him to make him go to such lengths?” Toshinori cursed. A heavy silence befell them until Toshinori’s phone rang and they both nearly jumped out of their skin. “Yeez! Toshi you need to change that” Tsukashi scolded him whilst still recovering from the shock. He lifted one hand in to apologize and smiled as he answered the phone, Tsukashi watched as Yagi’s face went from calm to worried to full blown panic.

“I’ll be right there!” Yagi said as he hang up his phone and grabbed his jacket.

“You on a car?” he asked Tsukashi and he nodded yes.

“Good can you drive me to the hospital”

“What happened?”

“Young Midoriya took the turn for the worse” No more needed to be said as they were both out the door in a minute and drove as fast as they legally could to the hospital.

Wake up, take half dozen meds, eat and then do some physical therapy exercises.

Lunch the more meds wait until dinner then go to bed.

It isn't that different from the last few months but still I feel like something's not right.

Why isn't something happening?

Why is everything going so well?

He abandoned me, he doesn't want me anymore.

What use am I if master doesn't want me?

I’m useless.

I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.I’m useless.

Maybe I should just disappear.

There's a knife in my hand.

Raising the knife to my stomach I wavered a bit, tears started forming in my eyes then my hesitation disappeared as I started plunging the knife into me.

“IZUKU!” A scream echoed through the air making me startle as my aim missed and went to my hand instead.

I hear mom wail. Suddenly I'm on my knees, there's blood pumping from a wound on my arm.

“Mom?”

I felt her hugging me as she pressed at my wound and was calling out to someone.

“Mom” I held her as tight as I could with my other hand.

“I’m scared” “It’s okay It’s okay Izuku everything is going to be okay” mom frantically said as I started hearing sirens nearby.

My limbs felt heavy as I started drifting to sleep.

“Izuku! Izuku stay with me! Don’t fall asleep” She cried as she desperately tried to stop the bleeding. I tried with all my might to stay awake but it was futile as I finally succumbed to the darkness.

“Toshinori” Inko cried as she saw him walk towards her.

He stumbled a little seeing her such a wreck but he followed his first instinct and hugged her to soothe her. She cried for a while before suddenly pulling away from him and blushed. “I’m sorry, that must have been weird” she apologized through the echoes of her sobbing.

“No worries Inko-san” Toshinori said. “How is Izuku doing?”

“He’s still in operation, the doctors said that it was good we managed to get him here so quickly” Inko said wiping her tears with her sleeve

“Oh god Toshinori I should have seen this happening, I-I knew something like this was going to happen” Inko cried. Toshinori reached out to her again he hugged her tightly, “It's not your fault Inko-san, None of this was your fault”

“But-” Inko began but Toshinori cut her off there. 

“No, don’t blame yourself. Izuku is clearly struggling in a bad place now but he will be okay” Toshinori said not sure if he was reassuring her or himself.

After what felt like an eternity the theatre lights cut off and a doctor stepped out shortly after.

“Midoriya-san?” He asked and she nodded to confirm that it was her. “we managed to sew up his arteries together and stitched up his wrist but It's going to leave a scar but he is going to make it through” He said, they could all feel the tension lighten in the room.

“when will he wake up?” Inko asked her voice still shaking.

“most likely after a couple of hours at the most” The doctor answered, “now if you’ll follow me I’ll lead you to him” Inko did not leave his side until he woke up only leaving to go to the toilet or to the cafeteria to get some food if there was no one to get it for her.

“Mom?” Izuku whispered his voice sounding rusty.

“Izuku!” Inko cried as she rushed to his side.

“I’m sorry mom” Izuku whimpered.

“It’s all right Izuku” She said as she took his hand, “But please never do anything like that again” she said tears welling up into her eyes.

“I was so scared”

“I know honey I know” Inko whispered as she took him into her arms, “ I was too” After Izuku recovered his therapy sessions doubled and he got progressively better as time went on until he could finally accept the things that happened to him and how to deal with the fall out.

“he really screwed me up real bad, didn't he?” Izuku finally spoke up at one of his therapy sessions. The doctor physically lit up at this development.

“yes, he did some unspeakable things to you. It will not be a easy road to recovery but we'll get there” his therapist assured him as she placed a hand on his shoulder. And so his road to recovery began.