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    It had been like lightning.

    Sam hadn’t thought about his own natural psychic abilities in years, not since he’d gotten back from the Cage and hadn’t dared try to use them. He hadn’t had a vision anyway, not since Azazel.

    But Magda Peterson. A kid, really. A bruised, tortured, flayed kid---had repeated things he’d told himself for years. Phrases about ‘unholiness’, ‘abomination’, and ‘unclean’. Simply because she had a part of her that others didn’t understand.

    It had been like being struck by lightning. The realization that it wasn’t true.

    And if it wasn’t true about Magda, it wasn’t true about Sam.

     

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    A fix-it for the entirety of season 12 of Supernatural starting with saving Magda Peterson. Sam gets his powers back when saving Magda, and Ketch does NOT get to her in time. A look at what the season could've looked like if things were just a little to the left (and a huge step sideways from canon).

    Heads up, I'm saving literally everyone that got killed off this season. Except Toni and Ketch, they suck. Season 12 pissed me off more than any other season so I'm fixing it and giving Sam, Dean, Cas, and the rest of the cast the life they deserve. Fuck canon.

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    strap in gamers i've had a hell of a year and i can and will project literally all of it onto sam winchester

    content warnings will be in the end notes of each chapter like always, read or ignore at your own discretion

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    After a run-in with his ex, Gabriel decides to ski his emotions away at a remote mountain resort. Things go awry when he crashes his car, and even more sideways when he’s rescued by Sam Winchester, a mysterious resident of the mountain too handsome for his own good. Neither of them want to be snowed in for a whole winter together—not when they both have secrets to hide—but they have no other choice. Will they make it through the winter?

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    Sam survived eleven years of hell. Now he has to learn how to live.

    At twenty-two, Sam Winchester is attempting his first real relationship—with Jess, a woman who doesn't know what he's survived. She expects him to be "normal". The PTSD makes it hard. The years of sexual trauma and learned behavior make it damn near impossible. But Sam is *trying*.

    Dean, twenty-seven, finally has his baby brother back. But watching Sam struggle—watching him self-destruct in slow motion—is killing him. Especially when Dean finds himself unexpectedly drawn to Benny Lafitte, and has to figure out his own shit while keeping Sam alive.

    The Winchester brothers learn what healthy love looks like. It's far messier than either of them expected.

     

    Note: this was originally titled Sex and the Single Winchester. I had intended it to be sort of a rom-com-dramedy but the subject matter is way too dark. So the new title reflects that.

    This is Part 2 of the
    Brothers, Man Series
    It can be read standalone, but context from this first part, will deepen the experience.

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    Castiel is there for Sam after a bad nightmare makes him disassociate

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    Every time Dean and Cas had sex it ended up with Cas blowing out all the lights in the bunker. So one night Dean got an idea of unconventional use of the enochian handcuffs! Some humor and crack snuck in.

    Kinktober day 11 - handcuffs

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    When God’s power spirals out of control at the end of everything, Jack does the unthinkable—saves them all by sending himself, Michael, and Sam backwards through time. Now trapped in the past, with no way home, Sam is stuck reliving his Stanford years with a toddler Nephilim calling him “Dad,” and a furious, powerless archangel housed in an 18-year-old body.

    To survive, they pose as college students raising a kid together. But the longer Michael lives as a human, the less he wants to go back. And as Jack grows, and Sam watches Michael stumble through parenthood, grief, and slow healing, both of them begin to realize that maybe being human isn’t a punishment. Maybe it’s a second chance.

    Maybe it’s love.

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    Sam's psychic powers are back, and Eve Baird is the only one who knows. Sam is spiraling when she forces her way onto a case with him, Dean, and Cas to keep an eye on the freaking-out younger Winchester. But the case ends up being a lot more dangerous than it would've first appeared, and reveals a lot more about Sam than Eve expected.

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    Lucifer is in Sam's head, and it's driving him crazy

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    “De—eaa,” Sam forces out, his tongue burning at the unfamiliar word, a horrible fear setting deep within him like ice—Lucifer doesn’t like it when he speaks English. Lucifer doesn’t like it when he calls for Dean. He’s going to be mad he’s going to hurt him hurt him hurt him—

    Sam just doesn’t want to hurt anymore.

    A clamouring sound to his right shocks him out of his spiralling, and he recoils against a hard wall, opening his eyes—he didn’t realise he closed them, the Cage was always so dark, so thick and suffocating and cold—to see a face he’s dreamed of. One he thought he’d never see again.

    “Dean,” he finally manages to whisper, tears of relief and just a bit of fear pricking at his too-clear eyes.

    Dean says something back, the words garbled to Sam’s ears as if they’re coming from underwater, and then he’s coming closer, hands twitching by his sides and steps uncharacteristically hesitant.


    The wall that Death erected to protect Sam’s mind is unsuccessful, leaving the hunter to navigate centuries’ worth of memories and suffering. And after nearly two centuries of speaking Enochian, Sam isn’t sure he can remember how to speak English.

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    Demon Dean enjoys owning his pathetic addict of a brother.

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    When Sam begins experiencing vivid hallucinations of Lucifer, the lines between reality and his tortured mind start to blur. With the archangel's voice echoing in his head, Sam struggles to distinguish what’s real from what’s his own fractured psyche. Meanwhile, Dean grapples with his overwhelming need to protect his brother, torn between his desire to help and the fear of losing Sam to his inner demons.
    The brothers, along with Castiel, follow a disturbing lead to an isolated church in the heart of a small town. Inside, they find unsettling signs of a powerful force at work. As they dig deeper, they discover the church is home to a malevolent entity—a Mind Flayer—feeding off fear and taking control of vulnerable minds.

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    I wanted to write Sam having a dream about Gadreel possessing him soooo… here you go I guess lol

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    Every time Dean had been on his knees for Cas, someone's life was on the line. Every time he had gazed up at him, lips parted and eyes pleading, their relationship just grew more and more complicated.

    This time, however, was different. Pleasure rushed through his veins instead of pain, his eyes shined with unshed tears that stemmed from euphoria rather than grief, his lips that were once swollen from unforgiving hits were now plump and red from rough and unyielding kisses. Being on his knees for Cas, like this, was deliciously uncomplicated.

    Dean had never considered himself a worshipful man, but being on his knees in front of a flushed and wanting Cas might just be what changes his mind.

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    Sam doesn't want to sleep but Dean needs him to sleep.

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    Sam knew that abuse, sexual harassment, rape, etc. was never the victim’s fault.

    It was hard to keep that mindset for himself though.

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    Dean has NO idea what to do when the wall breaks in Sam's mind and Sam's first move--once he's conscious again--is to try and 'service' him. So he sends Sam away on the spot, and Castiel brings Sam to Hayden’s apartment (original character).

    Hayden and Sam have been best friends since high school. And even though she had no idea Sam was in Hell, or soulless, she readily takes up the challenge of helping him recover. But...it won't be easy. Or fast. 120 years of training and constant visions of Hell in Hayden's apartment keep Sam convinced he's in danger. It will take all of her attention to help him recover...and more magic than she knew she had.

    (Formerly 'Look Closely')

    *Of note: This story simplifies the cannon. It pretends the entire storyline of God Castiel didn't happen, Castiel brought his body back, put the barrier up to keep him from remembering, then when he realized there was no soul, Death got it and put it back at Dean's request, which shatters the wall. (Also that ONLY Sam and Lucifer were in the cage.)*

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    The story of Sam Winchester as a girl, daughter, sister, girlfriend and woman—from her earliest memories to the very end and beyond, through her connection and feelings about family, autonomy, faith, pain, love, guilt and girlhood.

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    For the first time in the cage, Lucifer wore someone else’s face. A face he wished he could forget. A face which haunted his best dreams and his worst nightmares.

    “Gabriel?”

    Or Sam has a hell seizure and accidently prays to Gabriel who is very much alive and hears him.

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    Sam, however, spends his bad days in his room, curled up under a blanket. He’s far away in his own mind, and it’s rare that Dean can coax him out of it. Instead, he’ll settle down beside his younger brother, and make sure that he doesn’t get lost inside himself. It’s usual for Sam to mistake him for some evil or another, and it never hurts any less.

    one of sams postcanon bad days

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